redmex's blog: "Pain"

Well Mama...

Janice my therapist said I am doing good not hitting people ...I hope you are proud of me not hurting those who hurt me...

She did say she is surprised how good I am doing right now.

Mom I have my fubar friends back, this is my family now.  I wish you were here to help me get back on my feet and make them leave me alone.  Dan is an evil little boy and well I hope he suffers but not like what he did to me.

Jess called me yesterday crying about how Rodney that dodo head husband of hers was putting her down...

she quit crying when she got money from pops...and she calls me the bumb...yeah right...

Little Jerry is doing great about helping me with dad....

Last night dad was playing songs that reminded him of you...I cried like a baby cause I do miss you soooooo much..

well I love you mom...Dia de los Muertos is coming quick see ya then mama...love ya....te quiero mucho mama

Siempre

su hija

Mom,

Dad finally broke down tonight and cried for you..he was playing songs that reminded him of you.  Oh mama we all miss you.  I went to see beno and he misses you and daddy terribly.  I cry for you every single day mama. How amYm why did she cause me so much pain knowing how much pain I was in from losing you.  Dan said he was not going to help your brother...how cruel is he...that meant what you said that he did not care about you, his mother, was true.  I love you sooooooo much mama...Te quiero mucho mama.  yo quiero contigo mama...well good nite and sleep tight with the angels mama...

Love

YOUR BABY GIRL

I sit and cry all day and nite...

I lost the most wonderful woman in the world to me....my Mama...she passed away on 09/20/2012

I can not stand being here without her...

to top it all off my boyfriend of 5 yrs was run off by my siblings...they called the popo on him for being

here illegaly....you know I can not stand back stabbers and that is what they are...

for 2yrs I took care of mom and dad ...my lil bro helped me but everyone else could not help me at all..