Candyce's blog: "pain/rejection/loneliness"

the distant murmurs the hateful glances one gets used to it as time soon passes- words let out among the few spoke without meaning tend to stick like glue- one gets used to it they soon get by but no one can hear the silent tears you cry- they find their way upon your cheek silently falling while inside you scream- their presence known as you fight to hide it but when a silent tear falls how can you deny it.. ~Candyce~

Time is tripped as emotions fly words are spoken in whispered lies heated glances passed through myst.. as passions curse subdues its tryst. long desired yet soon forsaken as greed now tastes what its awaken. shadows haunt the hollow inside for what now is... soon passes in time! ~Candyce~

when dreams become like the shadows of a dying day- and hopes become like the rain washing fallen tears away- how does one have a feeling of being complete? when the heart becomes like a sieve from all the hurt endured- and the soul becomes like a winter's endless night unfurled- how can one truly feel whole? when feelings become like the air in which you breath- and your eyes become the beholders of what's unseen- - tell me- how can one ever truly believe when what s given. . . has brought not but grief? ~Candyce~

As the fire burns higher to bring you warmth I see you there- your pain filled form... I know of the hollow that keeps within, one so filled with your pain and sins.. Empty is how you feel wanting to be complete- Know I am there.. for the real you - I truly see. A love to show and pain to free to just let go. . . and truly be. One hand held within the other my strength to you.. to weather the storms of what we go thru. Rest now your weary head and close your tired eyes for there within the warmth is where me.. you will find. I am there for your pain I'll take- to know only comfort in the time when you wake. Know that I accept all that you are.. with flaws intact... You shall rest within my heart. ~Candyce~

Lifes way of reducing a heart to a shell it gives you such joy then tosses you in hell- - for upon a road once traveled with care- only giving out feelings to those who had dared- seeking out pleasures only shared on a whim and keeping what meant a damn hidden within. then comes... a turn in the road a division of ways- which would you chose.. how would you spend your days? continue the path of the carefully placed step- only giving and taking when your appetite was wet.. or perhaps down the way yet unmapped and unknown.. to feel what you experience- to see how you grow.. either way though.. it matters not which you take for all seems to lead down the way of joy.. then heartache! ~Candyce~

life's nasty game of trick and of chance to dwell in your thoughts and within your dreams prance taking or giving what suits its demise life seems only to want what's unfair - and unwise tormenting and stealing that which you so crave leaving you empty confused and within - dazed. holding you captive to what you desire not caring or trusting if your soul does expire. life's cruel jest does play itself well for it uses your heaven to toss you in hell! ~Candyce~

time doesn't allow one to have what their heart truly wants. it plays games.. and gives the illusion of happiness. happiness that is so easy to fall for. giving into it.. with all one has.. is a huge risk they take.. for the images of 'once upon a time'.. soon fade and crack. and all thats left are the broken pieces of a 'happily ever after'. ~Candyce~

such an abundance it holds within and many to which it feels akin but why in times when all is felt does it seem to it not enough is dealt? so much is held that's yet unseen but now it remains in the constant -between- the void of neither... the unwanted - nor needed just to be used- tossed and mistreated. will such a wealth than be lost to all- that into the void it should choose to fall... for all its given and not to take should it just sleep and never again... dare to wake. ~Candyce~

**No worries my dear friends.. I'm ok. Just wanted to share something I wrote a while ago. Thanks for stoppin by** ((KISSES)) ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ sweet darkness come to me now give me comfort erase this pain.. for I know not how- give me your touch and let me sleep within your embrace let me find peace- upon my tomb which I now lay show me what I need to take this grief away- I've grown so tired of this chaotic life where all it seems is ruled by chaos and strife- I wish to be free no more grief - no more pain so into your welcoming embrace... my tired life I now lay. ~Candyce~

into darkness once more I stumble the path before me unclear shadows reach to hold me helping me embrace my fears- long have I walked not knowing where to go for path that I once traveled now takes me from what I've known- long hidden within the mysts the betrayal.. the hurt.. the lies what was once held within the light has faded away and died- yet once more they've come to haunt me at my life they seem to tear no rest from that which bound me that which took and did not care- so now the darkness I seek once more to bring me comfort from the pain for within its shadows I shall find my strength to live again! ~Candyce~