lil zealot JUGGALO MAFIASPANKER MEMBER's blog: "PAIN"

why should i deal with this pain in my heart when it could all just go and fall apart why help others if i cant help myself why love you when you dont love me the same way why show my love that i got for you when you dont see it why deal with this pain in my heart why deal with this pain thats called love why deal with this pain thatS called pain why cant i just walk outside in the rain and let go of this pain you know why cause im just insain im just crazy im stupid you cant let go of pain cause pain will return back to you twice as hard and make you feel like 5hit even more but who cares bout how i feel cause this 5hit just aint real so why deal with this 5hit called pain and hear that word that i always get hurt with "love"

Behind my eyes I softly cry holding this pain so close inside behind my smile I slowly frown as my tears come rushing down a feeling inside I tried to hide suppressed by my deepest fears and I still feel the pain after all of these years Think of what you put me through the tears I cried and feelings that would not subside I trusted you to no end but you betrayed me even as a friend though I still love you and probably always will I blame you for my heart ache and the reason my tears fell I forgive you for the bruises on my heart and my whole world just falling apart but I love you for showing me the meaning in each day and the truth behind the pain you were truly a blessing and the reason my heart sang