my vanilla scented candle's blog: "pain pain pain"

If I scream real loud Will you hear my cry Or the pain I feel inside. If I scream real loud Do you think the mirror That watches me cry Will break If not i'll break it I'M so tired of the tears falling from my eyes And resting on my breast If I scream real loud Do you think he would wonder why And if I told him why Do you think he would care I don't think so I don't think so...not at all I guess i should yell inside I maybe the only one listening So why not scream loud..... I should I am I'm going to keep screaming Screaming out loud until my vocal cords Die!!!!!

I just lost one of the most important people in my life I am so crushed and hurt and now i lost another ver important person....one by death....one by pure i don't know what to call it...i'm so hurt i was fin dealin gwith the first now i just can't do this I dont know wht to do what do i do the pain has intensified....i dont think i spellled that righ tbut i dont care.....im going crazy everything was great andnow all of a sudden its not....my world has just turned upside down....i love my children but im not happy ......I feel really bad for that....not sure why Im doing this but i need someone to talk to me.....some who is not going to tell me everything is goingto be ok i dont want to hear that.....the messed up part in it all i knew he was going to die....and I said nothing......i said nothing.....nothing...why didnt i say anything...something.....maybe because they never listened to me anyway...bye.. im sorry.....ilove you and I will miss you....and im sorry im so sorry.....bye