Fubar Blog Posts 4

Offbeat Ramblings
Many of you won’t read this and that’s OK. My real friends will and that is who I’ve written this for anyway. I want to give credit where credit is due. My life was a shambles. I had invested my whole life caring for and loving Sheila in spite of everything thrown my way and she died. Just died and left me to pick up the pieces. I’ve written often about my devastation. I had lost the will to live. I was merely existing. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, didn’t care. I could muster no feelings for anything. I was an empty shell. Time passed and the rawness of my hurt finally scarred over and I was able a little at a time resume trying to get my life back. I opened up my heart a tiny piece at a time. I met several wonderful people and tried so hard to have a relationship with them. While they gave all they could, I just wasn’t as ready as I thought I was to receive. Only God knew when I would be ready. Then last October I met

Does True Love Truly Exist?
Awww... the beauty of LOVE.... but TRUE LOVE? hummm... True Love must exist somewhere in this world... cause ART imitates LIFE... is not that what they teach you? If art imitates life then those who paint it, write it, sing it & seek it know it must be out there somewhere or why would they waste the time in such an endeavor? Just to make poor sad souls seek an unattainable dream? No, I do not think this is the truth. All Dreams CAN come true... it is fundamentally part of our nature to fulfill all our dreams... and hopes... and wishes... and needs... and wants. NOW... I am not saying that all hopes & dreams DO come true mind you, but the potential in fulfilling them IS very REAL. BUT they (yes the imfamous & unnameable THEY) also say that IF you seek something then u do nothing more than to push it further away from you. I disagree... How can one FIND anything if you DONT look for it? I am a romantic at Hearte... Can't help that... Can't help wanting what is probably the most

I Should Request That You Read This
Dear Fu Friends, My friend list is getting so long. It's partly my fault, I have accepted blank requests, sent requests to people I thought were interesting, then lost touch, accepted requests from people who thought I was interesting and then lost touch. Anyway the point is, I don't talk to half the people in my friend list. The very sad part is, I would like to have contact with more of them, so I was thinking, if the list didn't seem so daunting, perhaps I would and could find the people I originally wanted to have real contact with, or who originally had good intentions of staying in contatc with me. I realize having friends is one way to make a lot of points, and I know, I have wanted to earn points before, like when you stay at the same level forever and ever, and just can't seem to move up. The time has come unfortunately that I need to do a better job of being a friend to my friends. If you want to remain in my list of friends, re-rate my page, and send me

Say Goodbye To The Sun
Wake up to the church bell Reminding me I'm going to Hell Midnight now and all is calm Silence ticking like a bomb I sit up in bed I live up in my head Can't go back to sleep Tried counting sheep Watched'em line up for the slaughter Your son, wife, and daughter And everyone else on this fucking rock Listen to them voices talk Watching visions like you watch TV I saw God but did he see me When the shit goes down Where will you run Nowhere Say goodbye to the sun The whole fuckin' planet's a warzone Kids killing teachers 'cause they got sent home Mothers killing kids because they can't afford'em Fuck it, kill'em all, let God sort'em Shake our heads and say "Kids these days" They're just mimicking our evil ways They're just copying what we do Did he learn to make that bomb from you The one that went off in the classroom Taught him to shoot too I assume And where'd your daughter learn to spread her legs so wide And to let sin come inside Worried about pregna

Stone Face
He never learned to laugh He was too busy crying He never learned to live He was too busy dying He never learned to give Because he felt he had nothing He never learned to stand tall The pain was so crushing He never learned what freedom means He couldn't unlock the gate He never learned to love It was so easy to hate He never knew peace Pain is all he could feel He never learned to care Emotion seemed so unreal He never had a friend He lived his life in isolation He never knew accomplishment Just failure and frustration He never learned to let things out He kept them deep down inside He closed off a part of his mind And it died No show of emotion Stone face Feelings locked within Stone face Nothing shown through Stone face Nothing bothered him Stone face

Sharing Lips
Oh my love. If I am under the swaying of your legs, if I’m buried under swaying of hips, it is heaven, my heaven. Oh my fled love. You take me, you leave me, you squeeze me, and then you throw me aside. You leave me so that you could search for other heavens, and then you come back like the hummingbirds do. You have me like a dog under your feet. Once again my foolish lips fall back to your skin and your lips come back to me to provoke me, as I descend from your breasts to your feet. Sharing lips, divided lips, Baby I can no longer share your kiss. I can no longer share the deceit. I can no longer share my life and the pain. My mutant love, we are friends with privileges and without the privilege to have you always; I am forever patient, waiting for my piece. Alcohol Thunder, The voices cry alone in the sun, it is my burning lips you torture when you angelically undress, and then you leave.I prefer to be hit by Lightning or

Can You Find Me
I'll hide under the car or behind a tree I bet you can't find me Made it back to base again Hide your eyes and count to ten Can you find me Daddy hit me because he was mad Said he was sorry and that he felt bad I won't listen to a word he has to say Leaving tonight, going to run away Can you find me I'm out running the streets again Stirring up trouble with some friends The darkness explodes into blue lights I run laughing into the night Can you find me Got my hand on my gun, it's gotta go right Or I am going to die tonight Talk to the man, can't let nothing show My face is a mask frozen cold Can you find me I feel like I've gone slightly insane I feel like a ball of stress wound in strain The child's not gone, he's still here You just can't see him through all the years Can you find me I have a heart somewhere inside It's twisted and torn but it hasn't died There's no peace even in my dreams From somewhere far off a child screams Can you fin

Ghosts
Running the roads all hours of the night Quick shadows under the street lights Mischievous, muffled laughter and whispers, too loud The thrill of being where they're not allowed Restless, searching for something substantial, something real Restless, never quiet, never still Through yards and driveways, creeping Disturbing the dreams of the sleeping As if the neighborhood belongs to them You run them off but they just come back again Kids I drive through my old neighborhood Full of memories, some bad, some good Down Broadway and then turn onto Main On the pressbox in the ballpark you can see my sister's name And further back, the woods where our clubhouse was hidden In some strange way they now seem forbidden We used to sneak and drink beer there, me and my gang Me, Buster, Eddie, Ricky, and James Around a long curve, that's James' house on the left It's been over a year since my friend's death Back then it seemed like things would never change I once called thi

To Be With You
So many things I can't let show Reach out to me, touch my soul So many things I don't understand Reach out to me, take my hand So many things I want to give So many dreams I want to live So many things locked up inside So many feelings I'm forced to hide So much pain in my heart To release it, I don't know where to start So many things I want to share So many tears frozen behind my cold stare So many lies I've been told The fire inside smothered cold So much fear of what is to come So much fear of becoming numb So many times I have tried So many times they have lied So many secrets deep within To open up, I don't even know how to begin So much turmoil, so many years No, I can't blame you for your fears And I can't tell you what to do I just wish I could be with you

448 Things To Fear
AbstinenceAcne MedicineAerosol ContainersAfternoonsAirplane Aisle SeatsAlaskaAlfalfa SproutsAlligator ShoesAluminum FoilAntennasApple JuiceApricot KernelsAromatherapyArtificial NailsAssertivenessAstringentsAugustAutumnBaby Faced BoysBackpacksBad InitialsBagelsBaggy PantsBaked PotatoesBakeriesBaking SodaBalloonsBanistersBartendingBathing SuitsBatteriesBeachesBean Bag ChairsBeauty ParlorsBetween 3-4pmBible QuotingBicycle SeatsBicycle WheelsBirimingham, AlabamaBlow DryersBlowing Off SteamBlowing your noseBlue EyesBody OdorBottled WaterBottling Up AngerBowingBowl GamesBraidsBrassieresBreadBrieBright colored clothingBrush CuttersBubble BathsBug ZappersCampingCandlesCanned TunaCan OpenersCardboard BoxesCareers in AdvertisingCar PhonesCar-Pool LanesCar windowsCartoonsCasinosCasserolesCatsCerealsChainsawsChamomile TeaChampagneCheerleadingChewing GumChiliesChopsticksChristmasChubby CheeksCigarsCinnamon GumCity BikingClassical PerformancesCleanlinessClose ShavesClothespinsCoffee CupsCold Weather

It's A Blessing And A Curse
Living alone has it's advantages...you have nobody to answer to, can come and go as you please, and can have your home look exactly like you want and there is nobody there (well, except for the dog and cat) to mess things up, but there is a downside as well... You eat alone, sleep alone and have nobody other than said fuzzyfaces to speak to, laugh with, watch tv with and we all know you talk silly to your dog and cat...so, you may find yourself forgetting how to speak human and may lose conversational skills...LOL. AARGH!! I miss human interraction and somebody to share things with. A man to talk to, cook dinner with, walk the dogs with, fall asleep with, wake up to, hold hands, kiss, and fuck til he is mindless...and that my friends can make you feel rather lonely sometimes. But not always...nobody yells when you throw your panties on the floor. But I have learned... don't do it...the dog likes to eat them...LOL

Better To Keep My Mouth Shut...well Then Again
Monday, June 15, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You are ready to share your ideas and they all make sense to you, until you open your mouth and start talking. Even the clearest thoughts become muddled as you try to explain yourself in greater detail. It would be wiser to skip the words and rely on your key planet Venus as she harmonizes with dreamy Neptune today. You can communicate what's important aesthetically or sensually; save the conversation for another day.

My Personal Bill Of Rights
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO ASK FOR WHAT I WANT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY NO TO REQUESTS OR DEMANDS I CAN'T MEET I HAVE THE RIGHT TO EXPRESS ALL OF MY FEELINGS, POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE I HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHANGE MY MIN I HAVE THE RIGHT TO MAKE MISTAKES AND NOT HAVE TO BE PERFECT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO FOLLOW MY OWN VALUES AND STANDARDS I HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY NO TO ANYTHING WHEN I FEEL I'M NOT READY, IT IS UNSAFE, OR IT VIOLATES MY VALUES I HAVE THE RIGHT TO DETERMINE MY OWN PRIORITIES I HAVE THE RIGHT NOT TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR OTHERS' BEHAVIOR,ACTIONS,FEELINGS, OR PROBLEMS I HAVE THE RIGHT TO EXPECT HONESTY FROM OTHERS I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE ANGRY AT SOMEONE I LOVE I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE UNIQUELY MYSELF I HAVE THE RIGHT TO FEEL SCARED AND SAY I'M AFRAID I HAVE THE RIGHT TO NOT GIVE EXCUSES FOR MY BEHAVIOR I HAVE THE RIGHT TO MAKE DECISIONS BASED ON MY FEELINGS I HAVE THE RIGHT TO MY OWN NEEDS AND PERSONAL SPACE AND TIME I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE HEALTHIER THAN THOSE AROUND ME I HAVE THE

Excito
ok, for all the folks from excito diabolus wondering why i left the lounge, this blog is for you. i left after some shit i was told by some friend i made in excito. and aaron, it's my business that i left, QUIT TELLING PEOPLE TO ASKE ME WHY I LEFT! I am done with aaron's drama. Uzza, you are still my friend. we are both mom's. Sorry to all those i may have pissed off.

Drink Drank Drunk????
you wake up one morning and realize. did i drink too much or did i just have a good time.. that is my battle.. about 4 times a night. i work a full 40-50 hrs a week and make pretty good money, but .......... it doesnt stop the thoughts. fuck the drama.. this is a point in the moment. juss saying.

Memory Of Dimebag
"His Permanent Place" A Rock'n'Roll Soul That'll Never Grow Old, He Was SO Good And Died So Young. I Guess It's Like They Say,He Was Too Great To Stay. Dimebag Was His Name, A Childhood Moniker That Stuck. Diamond Was Another Name They Called Him By, But His Real Name Was Darrell. Not Very Rock Was His Given Name,Dimebag Was Cooler. The Best Of His Generation,A Pure Musician That Changed The Scene, Not Since Jimi And Stevie Have We Been So Blessed,With A New Sound From An Old Axe. He Slung It With Rage,And He slung It With Style. Let's Hope He Finds Peace Now And Slings It In Grace. Let's Hope He's Found Heaven His Permanent Place.

Psycho Annoying Horny Birthday Bar Bish
The problem with being a single male, is occasionally a whacked out single female focus's on you. I just finished my extra long day. A 10 hour shift, followed by a 4 hour board meeting. Every 1st & 3rd monday of each month is like this. I hadnt had dinner and decided to treat myself to an order of chicken wings and mini-tacos at the local watering hole. I just wanted to relax, unwind, have peace. As soon as my food is brought out -this woman comes over, sits next to me, her thigh touching mine, and starts raping my ear. Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah. My food was there - I would have asked for takeout, had I known what was in store for me. I tried: Involving other people in conversation Watching the tv which required me to turn away from her Ignoring her When all of these failed -I started to eat so fast, and point to my mouth as to say - I cannot talk -my mouth is full of food. None of these tactics worked. Blah Blah Blah Blah BlahBlahBLAHBLAHBLAH I gave short

Where Do I Even Begin?
The government has gotten out of control. The country is heading down the road to socialism and fascism. "Oh No!! Fascism is bad!! Bush was a fascist!!" Wrong! Here's the deal: most people don't even know what fascism is. They just call bush one because everyone else does. They think that fascism is just about waging war and stuff like that. That, my friends, is a load of bunk. Fascism is when the Government Indirectly controls businesses. Does that sound familiar? Hmm, i don't know, i wonder, oh wait a second! that shit is happening now!! This president promised drastic change. Well i'm pretty sure that an historically massive debt, an intense weakening of our defenses and a government that thinks it can do whatever it wants is drastic change. They promised that the so-called stimulus package would keep the unemployment rate below 8%, well it's already over 9% the stimulus has, in fact, made it worse. Places are going out of business like mad. They treat terrorists

Pot Of Gold
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"can This Happen In America?"
Wednesday, May 20 2009|9:18 PM After reading this letter one can not help but think that the assumption that somehow we are operating under a free market economy is just an illusion. From American Thinker: Letter from a Dodge dealer letter to the editor My name is George C. Joseph. I am the sole owner of Sunshine Dodge-Isuzu, a family owned and operated business in Melbourne, Florida. My family bought and paid for this automobile franchise 35 years ago in 1974. I am the second generation to manage this business. We currently employ 50+ people and before the economic slowdown we employed over 70 local people. We are active in the community and the local chamber of commerce. We deal with several dozen local vendors on a day to day basis and many more during a month. All depend on our business for part of their livelihood. We are financially strong with great respect in the market place and community. We have strong local presence and stability. I work every day the store is

Rough Sex Facts
Giving .........head....... massages the jaw.... while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a C_CK and save a smile. Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard ........................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal On the floor.................8 cal With Different Position Missionary.......

Being Erotic
Many relationships fail because people end up taking one another for granted and let the romance leave the relationship. Being Erotic and sexual is VERY important 2 me in a relationship. Leave your panties in your mans pant pocket when he goes to work w/out him knowing so he has a nice surprise during the day, or leave him a sexual note in lipstick on the bathroom mirror in the morning......Or for the guy when your girl gets out of the bath bring her a hot towel from the dryer, dry her off then drizzle her body with heated oil and have your way with her HAHA.....dirty talk......role play.....is good too!! but ill speak 4 me, dont do that caveman yankin of my hair, if someone yanks my hair during sex im callin 911 hahaha.......anyway the point is when in a relationship dont let the sexual eroticness ever leave...its very important and will keep your relationship healthy!!

Another Messed Up Day
Some times I just dont know what to do. I think that I'm doing good but then again it doesnt feel like I am. I try so hard to make everyone around me happy..but at what cost? My own happiness? I know that's not what I need to do. I need to put myself above all others but my damn, umm hell i dont even know how to describe how my head works 90% of the time. I guess relationships and I just dont know how to exist together. Every time something is going great, fucked up bullshit follows and ruins everything. There are alot of things I've done in the past that My God do I ever regret. One of the biggest I'm finally will be able to legally get away from him by August 1st. He has ruined so much of my life in the past year and he hasnt even been around. Anytime something happens to me that he did in the past my mind immediately goes back to the time it happened to me and the immense fear hits me first and then pure hatred for allowing him to affect me that way. I am sooo tired of feeling that

She Is
She Is My Fire wished a new name My heart began to search for her What could encompass this Fire? She is Desires Lustful Cure How can such beauty be described? All words seem too small to compare What words could shackle her down? She is The Untamed Fire’s Glare I watch her fill the heavens As all the other angels stand aside They all bow to this heavenly creature She is The Fantasy You Can Not Hide Her Angelic voice calls you too your fate Her song a beacon in the night Standing upon the shore wings spread She is Astlik “Little Star” Burning Bright Tittles seem to fall short Shattering myth and legend as the pages fell The stars dim in her beauty She is A Boundless Fiery Angel

Day Of The Tentacle
How I've missed that game. finally my brother got it back so I was going to install it on here but well... I can't figure out how the soundblaster and compatibles are supose to be set. Port, IRQ, and buffer... I'm stuck if you can, please help me?!

She Said
Once you said to me, after performing an incredible act, No dirty mind, I'm not talking about that. It was an act of selfless, kindness, far beyond the duties of a girlfriend, so far above, it could have only been an act of love, But back to what you said, you told me I should have got down on my knees and proposed that second, to which I say your right, but then again you inspire that feeling in me almost everynight. But if each of those feelings were instantly acted upon, I would have asked countless times, and my knees would be gone. I could sit here all night trying to type, searching for the words that mean enough to me, to say what I've found in you, but instead I'll just close, with the simple and true, I Love You

A Visitor In My Dreams
I can't remember the last time I dreamt of Shane. But I was happy to see him in my dream just before I woke this morning. I was half awake because I remember thinking omg that is Shane, don't wake up!! I can't remember everything about the dream, but he was working at a grocery store and I was in his line for check out. He was boyant and cheerful, kind of like he was the day I went to JB's for lunch and watched him work. He was so personable and friendly. I fell in love with him over and over that day. So there he was in the check out line. He smiled at me and started ringing up my groceries. I can't remember if we spoke, I just remember him smiling at me and me smiling back at him and the love practically coming out of my pores. How is it that I love my husband so much, yet still love this dead man as much as I ever did? How is it that I miss Shane even when I miss Nathan? I don't feel like I am loving or missing Nathan any less because Shane is in there too, b

Into The Ocean-blue October
I'm just a normal boy That sank when I fell overboard My ship would leave the country But I'd rather swim ashore Without a life vest I'd be stuck again Wish I was much more masculine Maybe then I could learn to swim Like 'fourteen miles away Now floating up and down I spin, colliding into sound Like whales beneath me diving down I'm sinking to the bottom of my Everything that freaks me out The lighthouse beam has just run out I'm cold as cold as cold as can be Be I want to swim away but don't know how Sometimes it feels just like I'm fallin in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion, yeah Let the rain of what I feel right now, come down Let the rain come down Where is the coastguard I keep looking each direction For a spotlight, give me something I need something for protection Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine The jetsam sunk, I'm left behind I'm treading for my life believe me (How can I keep up this breathing) Not knowing how to

Here Comes Goodbye-rascal Flatts
I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road And it's not like her to drive that slow, nothings on the radio Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell She usually comes right in, now I can tell Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear I'm gonna cry Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side And violins would play here comes the bride Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear I'm gonna cry Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye Why does it have to go from to go

A Little Early History Of Me.
When human consciousness evolves sufficiently the need and purpose for religion will evaporate. Spirituality is very real. To deny spirituality would be to deny ourselves. Religion is a man-made device created by men who needed something to believe in. It is a farce. A mystical explanation was needed to give reasoning to a newly developed world view with a newly developing thought process. Don't get me wrong now most of what I believe in could be described as mystical or mythical but this a different point for consideration. When I was born into this life, my parents were Jehovah's Witnesses. Before you discount my further statements, understand that my adult world view could not be further from the one I was born into. As a child I was fully enveloped in the ministry of said religious purpose. My mom taught me to read by the time I was four. By age five I was proficient enough for public speaking. At age six I was reading and preaching from the bible on a stage in front of Hundreds o

Rumor Control
My ex fuhubby "steviec" steviec@ fubar has took it upon his self to spread rumors about me calling me a bling whore and saying a lot of bad things about me. Just for the record I did not ask for bling. He came to me and always said "what bling u want?" I never ASKED! I didnt block him because he "couldnt afford anymore" hes never said that. I blocked him because he flat out lied to me! then proceeded to insult me and even drug my baby into this saying he was happy I got rapped. He has major issues........beware! and again I DIDN'T ASK FOR BLING!

Remember Your Dad's On Father's Day
Yesterday scary day for me cause my dad's heart was racing between 200 to 168 hb per minute.When you see your dad been hooked up so many monitors and iv been putting in them make you think how close you came losing a parent.When i was driving my dad to er he looked at me and said "Hun I can die before we can get to the er."That when it hit my dad could go anytime.After few calls to my friends ask for prays his rate went back at 8 pm.I was setting with him in the icu in joying ever minute with him and laughing along with him.Everyone wanted me go home get same sleep but I told everyone no I wasn't leaving the Hospital until he got out. We got around 11:30 am today and he is resting after a long day yesterday.On father's day let your father know how much they mean to you and How special they are to you,cause they can be took at anytime.

He Left Me
YUP ALL CAUSE MY MOM PUT A RESTRAINING ORDER ON MY NOW EX BF HE WANTS TO PUT A HARASSMENT CHARGE ON ME IF I CONTACT HIM AGAIN WHAT A PIECE OF SHIT AND NOW I CANT TELL HIM SHIT ABOUT ME MIGHT BEING PREGGO FROM HIS BITCH ASS SEE I KNEW I SHOULDVE STAYED SINGLE THEN I CANT GET HURT!!! I KINDA WANNA GO GAY IM NOW LOOKING FOR A REAL MAN ONE THAT WONT HURT ME. SOMEONE THATS GOING TO LOVE ME FOR ME!!! SOMEONE GET AT ME MOVE TO FL FOR ME! AND LOVE ME LIKE I DESERVE TO BE LOVED!!!

Swallowing Bees
I can't breathe I want to scream in rage at the events of my day and just shake my fist at the sky. Why is it that you can't run away from your past? What is so wrong with starting over and making a new life for yourself and not being forever defined by the choices that sunk you so low once in your life? A simple question frenzies into a multitude of emotions and sinks my heart into a place that makes me feel as if I cannot recover. I am ready to hide back within myself because I feel unclean in a sense from the history that I had to just recant. I am not a bad person. I make bad choices. When I was growing up - I wasn't really allowed to do much, and subsequently had no real life experience. When I finally found myself free in the real world I surrounded myself with people and never thought twice about what kind of people they might be. I was nieve and generally thought that every person that I would encounter in my life would have my best interest at heart. I was wrong. Very wro

Starting To Get Fearful
Well...I'm starting to think that the money I just spent to go to Missouri is going to be a waste. It was a one way ticket..with PROMISES to have a way back. Now I'm seeing a status on myspace that has me scared to death. I sign on yahoo and they want me to call them as soon as I can. I can't call right now, the boys are still awake in bed. If I get up, they won't go to sleep..so I have to wait. This fucking sucks. If they can't pay for my way back, I can't go. If I don't go.......I don't get my money back. I'm starting to get very fearful. Don't really know how talkative I'll be until I can actually call her and find out what's going on....so if I don't answer, that's why.

Twisted
Locked in the twisted depths in the darkest reaches of your own mind, gazing through eyes that barely see, everything in a haze. Not in control of anything, unable to speak, unable to move. You try to grasp some understanding of the world about you. Looking for anything that is real. In desperation you reach out to someone. Trying to find that one person that truly cares. Someone to share your plight. Your pain is their pain; your hell is their hell. Your beauty radiates upon them. And you shine in their eyes. When you have your down moments they comfort you and share, and love you all the more for letting them see your pain. When you have your good moments they rejoice and are happy for you. But that is not the case here. You are still locked in your mind, unable to control your actions. Nothing is real, except the hazed over world and the darkness within your head. Are you even real? Or are you a figment of your own imagination?

Mistress Of Sin
THIS IS NOT MY WORK BUT FITS ME JUST RIGHTTHOSE WHO KNOW ME WILL AGREEOh, Mistress of Sin am Ifor I tempt thee creature of the nightto lay with me, at my side,and gaze into the starry night.I wrongly tempt you to be with mealthough a mortal am I, merely.I corrupt you, do you see?I make you want me lustfully.One taste of me, you’ll not be the same.One moment of passion, you’ll go insane.But I’ll be the only one to blamefor the longing I feel when you’re gone again.My soul awaits you knowingthat the feverish feeling is flowing.My lust for you is growingand not an ounce of fear is showing.Please, come to me, my sweetas you do in my dreamsto fulfill the desire within methat awakens in each fantasy.I wish that you were mine, only for a short time.Like a child, lost and blind,I know not what you hold inside.You come, your head filled with lust.You want me too, I know you must.I hope this dream won’t turn to dustand fade away in a mysterious gust.Before I can hol

Pray For Baby Jp
Pray for baby jp plz (his dad is my #1 fam) . this is for baby jp (my #3 fam son) he is dying in a hospital b/c a fucking bastard put him there. the baby is 1 1/2 yrs old! his ex gf fiance beat the living shit out of him b/c he tipped over his 3 month old sister (not his the fiance kid) over in her bassinet his son is a yr and a half old and not expected to live! i dont care if ur religious just pray for him. he is innoscent. the baby has internal bleeding in the brain, black eye etc

Love Letter
My Beautiful Wife, I couldn't sleep. So i decided to get up and leave you this letter.... Of course I couldn;t get you off my mind.... Was layin in bed wishing you were there in my arms..... Anyways.... That wasn't the purpose of this letter.... I just wanted to thank you for coming into my life at the time you did.... I will forever cherish the day we met.... No, back then i didnt think we would be at the point we are today..... But I wouldn't trade any of it.... But between then and now I have seen soo many changes in myself that I never thought would change.... But you managed to make those changes.... I KNOW your my wife, I KNOW your my partner..... On here AND off here, no matter what anyone says..... I not only see you as my wife and partner, first and foremost, I look at you as my best friend...... and I know that even if, for some unknown reason, we fail, I can still have my best friend there... I will never be able to put into words or even actions how m

4ever
2 spend forever with you I give you my heart mind, body and soul. I give you my love for you make me whole. I give you this promise the promise to try, I give you each breath and the tears I cry. I give you my past my future and now, I give you my thoughts my hope and this vow. To give you my voice, and the music I sing, I give you forever, I give you this ring. I give you my world, all the pain and strife, I give you my hand learn to share my life. I give you this kiss and these words I say, "I'll cherish you always as of this day." I give you my faith that these words are true, for today, I swear, to spend my forever with you.

I Need To Know
They say around the way you've asked for me There's even talk about you wanting me I must admit that's what I want to hear But that's just talk until you take me there oh If it's true don't leave me all alone out here Wondering if you're ever gonna take me there Tell me what you're feeling cause I need to know Girl you've gotta let me know which way to go My every thought is of this being true It's getting harder not to think of you Girl I'm exactly where I wanna be The only thing is I need you here with me - oh If it's true don't leave me all alone out here Wondering if you're ever gonna take me there Tell me what you're feeling cause I need to know Girl you've gotta let me know which way to go This is a song by Marc Anthony

Death
DEATHDeath is something we try not to think about, but is there from the startfrom the time we first open our eyes, we are on that road to departSome people live there lives and try to make a mark, and some just try to surviveno matter what you do, you’ll never make it out aliveDeath, it's the great equalizer of menit doesn't matter how rich you are, who you know, or where you've beenwhen the angel of death knocks on your dooryou can't hide and you can't ignoreSome people believe that death is a passing to a new lifethat when you close your eyes for the last time, you just look for the lightthere are those that think that there is no journey to startthat when you close your eyes for the last time, there is nothing but darkThe meaning of life is deathit's the one and only thing everyone will do from their first to their last breathforget all the gray in-betweenforget about taxes, learning, loving, forget about everythingYou can't take anything with you and you don’t really l

Adding People
so this is my first blog and i figured i woudl try to figure out why people add others but never talk to them after the add i just don't get it.. i mean i ry to keep in touch with all the people on my friends list but damn anyways first blog figured i woudl see what happens

There Is A First Time For Everything
They say there is a first for everything. I guess you could say I got two of them out of the way in one day. Being the "chicken" that I am, I have never had the courage to ask anyone out before. Course they always seemed to come to me, so I never really had the need too. Well there is this girl that I have been talking to when I'd see her at her work, one of my favorite stores. Well I have been going in there a lot here lately, and have wanting to ask her out. But when I get nervous, I start to shake. So I have been putting it off. Well I knew her birthday was coming up, just couldn’t remember when. So I asked her again when it was and she told me, which is in a couple days. So I was like well maybe I could take you out for dinner one night for your birthday. And with out a second thought she was like, NOPE! So I’ll admit I was upset. But then she told me why. She is going through custody battle for her kid right now, and isn’t going to do

A Dad Is A Special Man
It is said that women are the bearers of life, and while that may be true, in the truest essence of the universe, all things must be balanced, which means it takes two to create life. It takes a man and a woman to create life. A woman cannot do that alone. After conception, we carry this life in our bodies for what seems like an eternity and bring it forth into the world with blood, sweat and tears. We contribute one half of the genetic code to this most special of little lives and the other half comes from a man who we chose to share our most precious gift with. Ourselves. Our love. Our lust. Some children are born out of love and commitment, and some sadly, are not. No matter what circumstances a child is born under they have both a mother and a father, if only biologically. Most people take on the responsibility required to be the parent this child needs and deserves and some do not. For the most part it is father's that get the bad rap if they choose not to "man-u

Keyhole
You won't see me express emotion Tears running down my cheeks Just drops in your ocean Locked in a room Looking out the window And when I look at you, I look in through a keyhole You'll never find me anywhere you look A happy story in a closed book What's locked in me, is locked in you Looking through a keyhole

Some Things To Think About...
SOME THINGS TO THINK ABOUT ~ When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often time we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It only takes a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for looks, they can deceive, Don't go for wealth, even that fades away, Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day

Real Friends Only
Okay I'm just going to ramble on whats on my mind and whats been bothering me and shit so if you don't really care about whats going on in my life and such go somewhere else. Okay its been about 6 months since I last worked... and its been driving me nuts. I started working when I was 18 my Senior year in high school. I am now 21. I feel worthless when I'm not working... I know I'm worth something but I like knowing that I'm doing something productive and its helping at least someone. Been about 6months since I made the worst mistake of my life. Quitting my job and running away with a complete moron to have him just use me for a week and to send me back home. Yes it was a man I met on this site... thats why I'm careful anymore of who I talk to and get close to. That was just the worst time of my life... Hurting my family like I did and also quit a job that I was good at. After that happened my health went into a down spiral. I wasn't sleeping like I should of and was si

~good Guys Only Win In The Movies~
Yeah, It feels like this sometimes..... I had a girl, And I treated her tenderly, Oh yeah.She pretended that she cared, While she only laughed at me.All my life she deserted, I never knew how she flirted.Now it's me that's hurting.What a lesson I've learned.Good guys only win in the movies.Yes they do, now.They ride white horses, girl, And they're friends with everyone.Good guys only make it in the movies.Because in life, They turn out sad and lonely ones.How sincere now, baby, Could your man have been?I stuck right by ya, honey, Both through thick and thin.Girl I did?You know you turned the table.I don't think I'll make it, But I'm gonna make it on my own.Girl, I'm tired of your lying, Tired of your alibi'ing, Now my love is dying, I'm gonna kiss your love goodbye.Sad and lonely ones... Sad and lonely ones... PEACE.....

My Saturdays Ar Rufffff
Well my Saturdays start ai midnight like everone elses but I start my cooking for Muddy Pond BBQ at that time..no partying on Friday anynoe...What a bummer..Anyway I have to prepair he meat get the smoker fired up and load it when it gets to temp (220 degrees) the split more hickory...have u ever tried that early in the mornind and in the dark'''it's a work out. Then I have to get the mobil kitchen restocked and set up on a site that a good friend here in Muddy Pond has allowed me free access to. Then it's about every half hour to load more hickory into the smoker to maintain the proper temp to make my Butts yje old fashioned way of slow and low cooking so they will melt in ur mouth tender.. Funny our motto is "Que so tender you don't need teeth" which was thought up by a great customer. Now I pull the kitchen 1 1/2 miles and level it on site at around 7:oo and retuen to keep the smoker tended which will some times allow me to be on line or just ply eith my rwo cats Goldie and Tink.

Something I Wrote For My Dad On Father's Day
As i sit here staring up into Your green eyes i remember as a little girl wondering This man who i call my DadHe is TallHe is MightyHe is my HeroHe is my Daddyi am older nowi have a family of my owni look into those green eyesthat have become olderand wiserand thank God everyday that you're my Daddythis is from me to my Dad and to all the other Dad's out there as wellDM Hutton

Happy Father's Day Dad....i Miss You
You Never You never said I'm leaving You never said goodbye You were gone before I knew it, And only God knew why A million times I needed you, A million times I cried If Love alone could have saved you, You never would have died In Life I loved you dearly In death I love you still In my heart you hold a place, That no one could ever fill It broke my heart to lose you, But you didn't go alone For part of me went with you, The day God took you home. Miss you Dad.....Happy Father's Day.

Fckn Idiots
Anyone else here sick of bs that people are throwing? I have a friend that bought another friend they are of the same sex. He is yelling at me cause I know this guy that bought him and now has blocked me because of this-- how stupid is that? I think its homophobic-- people on Fubar are constantly buying each other same sex or different sex. We have been friends for just a couple weeks now and I know i dont need friends that act like that towards me or my friends. But i am pissed that i am in the middle of defending my friend and he just blocks me even though he started the drama-- i feel like blasting is homophobic assuming azz all over Fubar--- GRRRRRRRRRRR I know i am venting--sorry I dont even know if i have a point for you to respond- i think im just angry!!

Any Musicians??
Whats going on people?? Im Big sexy d-rock of Locals Only Radio. You can find me at myspace.com/localsonlyradio. If you are interested in playing live shows or having your music get promoted then hit me up. Listen to my tracks as well and let me know what you think. Or send me your music at : 7816 Marconi court Springfield Va 22153. Feel free to message me with any questions!!

Pat 1 Of My Erotic Story In Italian
Essere la persona che altamente sessuale sono questo pensiero è venuto alla mia mente. Amerebbe trovare un uomo che è tanto se non più sessuale quanto me, per disegnare il mio bagno aggiungono l'olio e lo trasportano poll. Allora mette a nudo giù per me e mi entra nella vasca con. I miei occhi stanno esaminando il suo detto che profondo li desidero ora! si siede e mi levo in piedi in modo da posso sedermi lentamente su lui, ritengo quanto duro il suo penis è ed io lentamente me l'prendo. Parte due che viene presto!

Dedicated To Miriam
i have known this woman since i was 18..im now 45 and even though her daughter and i have parted ways i never stopped loving this woman...she was a great person.....she gave my son a home when he chose not to move with us...and through her illness my son has become a man and stepped up and took care of both his grandparents...im very proud of him...miriam was a lady very set on her ways....she had sponk...she was very opionated but thats what gave her her unique prospective on life itself..she always had a way to make me laugh...now with her passing my heart cries for the void thats left in all our hearts.....Miriam thank you for being there for our son and giving her the love that groomed him into the man he has become

The Realest
Let me start off saying that this is not intended to be pointed at anyone or to offend anyone. These are only my views and opinions. In the gist of life this shouldn’t be a nothing but a hill of beans to you. I am sorry though if I offend you. Fubar is a social site. It’s made to be like an internet bar. People meet and greet at bars all the time. Just like at bars, all you have to go on is what you see at first. I know there are tons of women that want you to give them soo much respect on here. I say you have to respect yourself first. Just like if you’re in a bar, if you wear slutty clothes then people will think you’re a slut. Visual perception is one of the strongest human senses and used mostly on fubar since it’s a multimedia based site. There are pics, vids, background coding, and ect. I say this to women that want respect. How can I respect you, when you’re not really respecting yourself? It’s the same principle as at the bar. You d

Changing The Game
I've been away from fu for a while but I've been back on recently more often and in my time back I've noticed that it's time to change the game with how I treat others on here. The one thing that I've noticed is the lack of gratitude on here has dropped to epic propportions and in saying that I DO realize that this is fubar and unless You're a dude that can make cool graphic pics for people on here or CONSTANTLY buy people bling...OR....you're a female with big tits and flirty personality for the MOST part you will get little to NO attention on here at all. That seems to be the case almost throughout fubar save the people that are in my family list THOSE people are really cool people who do return love whether I was here or not,I'm tired of buying people drinks,tored of reaching out to people that are having bad days buying them gifts and leaving words of encouragment,rating their profiles and fanning them and not even getting as much as a fucking THANK YOU in return,so now its time to

90# On Your Phone
90# on your telephone I dialed '0', to check this out, asked the operator, who confirmed that this was correct so please pass it on . . . (l also checked out Snopes.com .. This is true, and also applies to cell phones!) PASS ON TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW I received a telephone call last evening from an individual identifying himself as an AT&T Service Technician (could also be Telus) who was conducting a test on the telephone lines. He stated that to complete the test I should touch nine(9), zero(0), the pound sign (#), and then hang up. Luckily, I was suspicious and refused. Upon contacting the telephone company, I was informed that by pushing 90#, you give the requesting individual full access to your telephone line, which enables them to place long distance calls billed to your home phone number. I was further informed that this scam has been originating from many local jails/prisons DO NOT press 90# for ANYONE. The GTE Security Department requested that I

Friends
Maybe it's me but can you make really good friends from the site. Some ladies contact me only to lure me out of fubar and go to a show and tell site with them on display. Other are very impersonal when it comes to chats. Is it all about points and popularity. Some ladies say ask me anything and it will be cool but it's not that way. How many of us know all the friends on here. Is the family stuff for real? How about the marriage stuff? We need to get real!!!

What Now...
Where do you go when there's nowhere to turn? when the tears that you cry are starting to burn... How can I survive this fall? who will help me through it all? Why do things not go my way? Maybe it's the things I say... Or the games that led me here, hiding in shadows, from my fear. Never knowing which way to go, hoping that these fears don't show, try to be strong, keep the feelings inside, looking for someone in which to confide. Sometimes you can to hide the pain, but in your heart it pours like rain. h.k.

Heart Determines
It's ok to kiss a fool,It's ok to let a fool kiss you,but never ever let a kiss fool you....It's still best to wait for the one you wantthan settle for the one available.Best to wait for the one you lovethan settle for one who's around.Best to wait for the right one.Life is short to waste on the wrong person....It is better to meet the person who will truly love you later,than meet someone now who promises to loveyou but sooner or later leave you forever.....Never try to impress someone to make him/her fall in love with youIf you do, you will be expected to keep the standard for the rest of your life...Fate determines who comes into our lives. The heart determines who stays...

No Body Shot...
ok, im not trying to be an asshole, but if you have to take pictures of your hands and feet and head and have no actual pic of all of you...its probably because it wont all fit in one picture to begin with. at least not without your fat rolls hanging off the edges getting stuff all slimy on my moniter. wtf! no one gives a shit if you have cute feet and a humongous cottage cheese ass.

Love And Dating 101
I have fount there are lots of rules or guidlines to follow in a relationship that are very important like it or not. Here is my list of must do’s to save any relationship. So if you truely love someone please read and try to apply what you can. These go for guys and girls. 1. Never go to bed angry! this is very important. Always discus and try to solve any problem as quickly as possible.2. NEVER lie to your partner. no matter what honesty is very important in any relationship. it is better to tell the truth and earn trust than to be caught in a lie. Honesty is very important. it solves problems and lets the other person know what is on your mind and how you feel.3. I love you should only be said if you truely mean it. never say it to make things easier. if you feel your love for someone is fading talk about it with your partner before its gone and all you have is resentment twards the other person. If you dont want to fix or save the relationship then go your seperate ways do

How I'm Doing
TYSM for caring about me you guys. I've gotten tons of support the last few days cheering me on. For those who don't know, I had oral surgery today. It was the best surgical experience I've ever had so far. The doc is very nice. He explained everything well. Made sure I knew all the risks and complications. He gave me nitrous oxide and oxygen, after 5 or 6 deep breaths my whole body went numb and I didn't care anymore. I felt absolutely nothing, don't remember anything either. 35 minutes later I woke up feeling good, great even. They had given me versed, a medication we give patients when we're going to intubate them (put a tube down their throat)...they monitored my vital signs and everything went well. I was wheeled out to the car, my mama took me there. I came home and put ice on my face and slept and sopped up the blood with several 1x1 cotton pads. I am suffering from a complication of the surgery though. A video I watched several weeks ago said that there's a small chance t

Types Of Perception
Types Two types of consciousness are considerable regarding perception: phenomenal (any occurrence that is observable and physical) and psychological. The difference everybody can demonstrate to him- or herself is by the simple opening and closing of his or her eyes: phenomenal consciousness is thought, on average, to be predominately absent without sight. Through the full or rich sensations present in sight, nothing by comparison is present while the eyes are closed. Using this precept, it is understood that, in the vast majority of cases, logical solutions are reached through simple human sensation. The analogy of Plato's Cave was coined to express these ideas. Passive perception (conceived by René Descartes) can be surmised as the following sequence of events: surrounding → input (senses) → processing (brain) → output (re-action). Although still supported by mainstream philosophers, psychologists and neurologists, this theory is nowadays losing momentum. The theory

Definition Of Perception
In philosophy, psychology, and the cognitive sciences, perception is the process of attaining awareness or understanding of sensory information. It is a task far more complex than was imagined in the 1950s and 1960s, when it was predicted that building perceiving machines would take about a decade, a goal which is still very far from fruition. The word comes from the Latin words perceptio, percipio, and means "receiving, collecting, action of taking possession, apprehension with the mind or senses."[1] Perception is one of the oldest fields in psychology. The oldest quantitative law in psychology is the Weber-Fechner law, which quantifies the relationship between the intensity of physical stimuli and their perceptual effects. The study of perception gave rise to the Gestalt school of psychology, with its emphasis on holistic approach. What one perceives is a result of interplays between past experiences, including one’s culture, and the interpretation of the perceived. If the p

Just Thinking??
I wonder why no one show me any love when i work my ass off to show every one. it's like I have to be white or something to get people to rate me. I'm a nice guy when you got to know me. but no one really try to get to know because i get no notes or anything. i be left out all life and i'm not going to be left out on this site. one thing i hate about this. is that no one care about anyone if you are not cute are sexy in any way. then i see alot of girl that don't really do anything move up, level i stay the same level? so i guess i have to be a sexy or a white guy. To move up or to be giving any love............ who can race play a part on a site.

Runic Vengeance
Wrong ye did, aye, grievous wrong. Thus I claim Vengeance Of the Left Hand Path, Of the Runes writ in Red. Crimson for malice, Vermillion for despite, Scarlet for hatred, Cherry for desire for Blood Vengeance. For wrongs repaid. Blood calls to blood, And blood shall extinguish blood. Vendetta hath called, No remorse. Pain I'll write upon you, Such as you cannot comprehend. Much like you cannot comprehend, Your sins. I call upon Old Ways, And even OLDER Gods, Thus you shall know The burn of Runic Vengeance. The things Outside, We've made a deal. Yoiu'd make a nice snack/slave. And vengeance would/will be/is mine. Gaze upon my face one last time. Know your damnation.

Long, Dark Night A'comin.
You dinna see it do ya? Like rats in the walls.BIG rats. Only NOT rats. And the walls, you see, Are society. We're headed fer a fall my friends. Better learn how to handle that gun. But eventually the bullets will be too expensive to make. And so our blades'll gleam again, in the sun. It'll still be the rule of One. He'll promise ya SUV's, And condoms(latex free) In short, society, Industrializationized, sensible, tax(and conscience)-free.. But it's lies, An economy based on dead byproducts. Fossilized corpses as lifesblood? There's a grave irony somewhere here. He'll rise from the East, Bearing a crown of Cold. He shall ascend to power, By promising the ways of old. But we shall not let this happen alright? We cannot fail this test. Cull the weak, only the best, To prevent the fall of civilization, the long, dark night.

Surgery Today Went Ok June 22 Was Surgery!
so every1 knows my surgery was today again... They did the one on Thursday that was an *L* skin flap graft... then on Friday he came in to check it out and decided he didnt like the looks of it.. so he went in today for an hour and a half and dibreeded it and cleaned it out.. and then he took the bad parts of the graft that didnt take and pulled them off and took skin from my thigh again and moved it to the back of my thigh and left a few spots open for dressing changes so it will drain and heal so it will drain and heal like it is suppose to do now and I have to stay off it as much as I can so i'm on complete bedrest and i have to lay on my sides and back... Then they have me on oral pain meds 3 times a day.. and IV ones 2 times a day... Then I can take .04 cc's of dalated every hour to an hour and a half due to pain..Then I can have up to 2 vicodines every 4 to 6 hours for pain and I always pop 2 in to relieve it more.. Then before the dressing changes I take the .04 cc's of the dala

Lines
Lines written upon a pagefaded with time and dull from ageThe bindings loose and the pages falling outit's chance of surving I begin to doubtBut a book will always have it's soul withinas fresh as when first written with penThoughts that are shared never dieJust like grass is green and trees don't lieOne man's words are another's toyOne man's dreams are another's joyPoetry should be written in the poets tearson the pages of the book of yearsBound with hope,written in ryhmeand placed upon the shelf of timeStories should stir the mind and the soulrip you apart and then leave you whole. Poem By Tammy C

Yet Another
WhiteWolf ...: i am not in ur family!! ->WhiteWolf ...: umm...were you supposed to be?WhiteWolf ...: you are my queen...where should i be then? ->WhiteWolf ...: your queen??? WhiteWolf ...: of course ->WhiteWolf ...: o.0 I don't even know you WhiteWolf ...: but i adore u...actually i worship u ->WhiteWolf ...: right.... WhiteWolf ...: you are so great WhiteWolf ...: u r in my family long time a go ->WhiteWolf ...: And I probably deleted you because you never talk to me WhiteWolf ...: dont threaten me, ilove to talk to u, but our time zone looks different.... ->WhiteWolf ...: okay, I didn't threaten you. I simply told you WHY you were removed. If you want me to threaten you, that can be arranged WhiteWolf ...: i love to talk to u ->WhiteWolf ...: alright...what do you want to talk about? WhiteWolf ...: everything that please u ->WhiteWolf ...: Well....it would please me if my fiancee wasn't in jail WhiteWolf ...: poor goddess....u r alone now? ->WhiteWolf ...: temporarily, yes WhiteWolf

A Lokata Story (for Dan)
Winyan Wan Sungmanitu Tanka Ob Ti...Hohwoju oyate eya wani ti pi icuhan kangi wicasa kin sung manu ahi na ota mawicanu pi na nakun Lakota winyan ko akiyagla pi.Kangi wicasa ti pi heciya winyan ki le aki pi ca titakuye wica kiksuye na lila cante sice na ceya ke, winyan ki ableza pi na heya pi ske, "Sina ki le ena, woyute ki lena icu, na wakpala ta inahma ye." Hoca mni aglala inahma ke, na oiyokpaza ca gla cu ke, icuhan sungmanitu tanka nump el hipi na oksan hlo omanipi ke, takinnas ena kte pi kta kecin ke. Sungmanitu tanka ki waste ca pi ke ca ob wancok wi yohinyanpata kiya si glu hapi ke.Blaye cokan gla pi ehanl osiceca tanka wan hihunni na icuhan sungmanitu tanka a ke numb hel opa pi ke. Hetan tehiya mani pi eyas hecena gla pi, kangi wicasa kanyela u pi k'on hetan kawinga pi.Wooyake ki le wowas'ake yuha. Lkaota winyan ki le osiceca ahi ca heon kpapte. Tuwa osiceca icuhan omani ki le wooyake ki kiksuye ehantans takuni toka.Anpetu ota mani pi ehanl "Winuhcala Paha" eya pica hel ih

"beloved"
“Beloved” You are my beloved that is true, how I show it I'm such a fool. I lay in bed thinking of you, wondering what it would be like to be with you. The distance between us is a shame, and I blame the fates for this pain. I close my eyes real freaking tight and wish you could take me from this awful fright. There isn't a minute that doesn't go by, that I yearn for you to be by my side. To be here is a lie and I'm dying inside. To wear a mask in the masquerade, is a game I do not wish to play. So here I am locked up in this tower, waiting upon my golden hour!

Listen
This is a great song by Beyonce Listen to the song here in my heartA melody I start but can't completeListen to the sound from deep withinIt's only beginning to find releaseOh, the time has come for my dreams to be heardThey will not be pushed aside and turnedInto your own all 'cause you won'tListenListen, I am alone at a crossroadsI'm not at home in my own homeAnd I've tried and tried to say what's on mindYou should have knownOh, now I'm done believing youYou don't know what I'm feelingI'm more than what you made of meI followed the voice you gave to meBut now I've gotta find my ownYou should have listened, there is someone here insideSomeone I thought had died so long agoOh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heardThey will not be pushed aside on wordsInto your own all 'cause you won'tListenListen, I am alone at a crossroadsI'm not at home in my own homeAnd I've tried and tried to say what's on mindYou should have knownOh, now I'm done believing youYou don't know what I'm feeling

Betrayed
On a long drive from Virginia, I thought I was traveling at a reasonable speed, but the flashing blue lights in my rear- view mirror made me realize that I'd been over the limit. I handed the officer my license and made small talk while my wife dug through the glove compartment for the registration. "I'm usually very careful about my speed," I told him as my wife handed me the paperwork. The officer studied it and then gave it back. "Sir," he said gruffly, "this is not your registration." It was a warning ticket I had received for speeding in Florida.

Flake By Jack Johnson
I know she said it's alright But you can make it up next time I know she knows it's not right There ain't no use in lying Maybe she thinks I know something Maybe maybe she thinks its fine Maybe she knows something I don't I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying It seems to me that maybe, It pretty much always means no So don't tell me you might just let it go And often times we're lazy It seems to stand in my way Cause no one no not no one Likes to be let down I know she loves the sunrise No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes And I know that when she said she's gonna try Well it might not work because of other ties and I know she usually has some other ties And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em Maybe she'll help me to untie this but Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie too It seems to me that maybe It pretty much always means no So don't tell me you might just let it go And often times we're lazy It seems to stand in

Bad News
i just lost my favorite son carl dennis banghart he died in may 23 and i just found out on the i net my own family ex wife didnot notiify me im sorr angry and so very sad over my loss im at witts endtrying to figure out how he dide i ask all my freinds and fans to make a donation to thier nearby womens shelter thank ya all may God bless ya all so if ya will i need all ya love and support to help me get thru this benjamin

My Dream
Ok, not sure where to start, but here it goes. I have been wanting to move to Arizona for quite some time, but something always held me up. I was in a relationship at the time and put the individuals needs before mine, hence his Mom and Dad are elderly and he needed to stay just in case something happened to them, or his job and wanting to stay until he had his retirement, etc. Now we are no longer together and I put off my plans for years and am ready to start a new life. Here is my delema...I have a house full of furniture and belongings that need to be packed and shipped or moved. I have been checking into all options and realized yesterday that no matter which option I choose, it will be too expensive to take my things with me. So I only have a few options left. I can move to AZ without my things, put them in storage or sell them and rent a furnished apartment. I can stay in SC until I save enough money to take the furniture with me. I can keep paying my portion of the ren

Tired Of The Fupain
WELL I AM SO TIRED OF EVERYONE RUNNING THERE MOUTHS AND I AM VERY HURT BY ALL OF THIS....SO WHAT IF I PUT MY FEELINGS IN MY STATUS, THAT IS DRAMA WHATEVER IT IS FREEDOM OF SPEECH AND I AM A OPEN PERSON AND LET PEOPLE KNOW HOW I FEEL SO SORRY THAT IS ME AND I AM NOT GOING TO CHANGE....I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS ON HERE AND DONT WANT TO LOOSE THEM BECAUSE OF SOMEONES BIG MOUTH CUZ THEY ARE JEALOUS OR DONT LIKE ME....I AM VERY HEART BROKEN RIGHT NOW I MISS A CERTAIN SOMEONE AND I HOPE THAT SOMEONE MISSES ME TOO MAYBE WE CAN FIX THIS I DONT KNOW!!!!!! I AM VENTING AGAIN AND OUT OF MY MIND RIGHT NOW CUZ I MISS MY ONE GOOD FRIEND!!!

I Walk This Broken Road...
Brush the dust from my stale heart I've taken so much abuse it makes me smile Thrust my fist into the wall because I like it Find the path of least resistance Unsettled by pain I feel when there is no pain Hurting makes me whole I've become infected with this need for blood Smash me to pieces to show me you care Burn out my eyes Lash me down to the whipping post again I beg for sin to justify my ways I walk this broken road a battered man I fall to zero I've lost control Hurt me...

Tonight
My husband sent me an invitation to meet him in bed tonight at 10 pm just wearing my corset top only ... he has some fantasy about that corset top. I will ask him to massage my freshly shaved legs all the way up from my toes to my sweet spot where he can take advantage of my freshly shaved spot too. I love his oral talents never leaves me hanging ... I have very explosive orgasms each and every time ... I can't wait. That was so exciting to get a printed invitation like that from my husband - he always thinks of new ways to make our sex life so exciting. One day I am going to be his private call girl and charge him for my services so I can save some money to use while we go to Reno, Nevada next month. Maybe we can visit a strip club while we are there too... if we do I will wear my favorite corset top there too. Only to get him excited ... and it may make other men get a bit aroused too.

That One Thing Wots It Called..... Oh Ya Love Or Some Shit
When someone loves u its a gift, dont take advantage of that gift cuz u never know how long u will have it, or if they will take that gift back... Love is an amzing thang its sexy, its hot, its kinky, its just sureal.. If u got it hold on as tight as u can and never let it go...

Sexnstuff Pt.2
June 23, 2009 @ 5:07 pm #9 of 9 -- Sex Survey 1) What turns you on the most? kissing and looking in her eyes when she cums2) Does size matter? if not i also have flawless technique,lol 3) Most times in one day? 5 but i faked the last one 4) Most orgasms in one session? 2 5) What do you think about during sex? lol,silly,guys don't think during sex all the blood has left our brain. 6) Ever had a Three-some? lol well,yeah!!!7) How often do you masterbate? does using someone elses hand count as masturbating? 8) Do you like oral? mmmmmmyessssss 9) What's better, someone you care about or a one night stand? a one week stand

Random Thoughts 07
So there I am at the Oregon State Fair. Just like every year. I go for the hand dipped corn dogs, the demolition derby (more on this in a minute) and for the people watching. Since it's Oregon I don't feel as bad making fun of the people there. It's like a train wreck. For instance, yesterday I saw a woman that must have gone 300 lbs. Not a big deal. UNTIL. You put that woman in a tube top with tight spandex shorts. Smoking. Pushing 2 kids in a stroller with one in tow. And her 130lb boyfriend with the jailhouse tattoos and crooked hat. It was awesome. Every manner of hillbilly and mountain folk were there. It was a joy to experience. Now, no one else in my family shares my love of demolition derbies. I don't understand it. Cars...crash into each other on purpose. It's like the Mall parking lot at Christmas with all women drivers. Ha ha ha ha. But seriously...it just doesn't get any better. Men with dirty clothes and as many teeth as their cars have wheels run int

Giving Up
i been thinking... i dont think it is worth it 2 keep trying ... i been tryin 2 b happy but it never works i lost alot of my friends and i did sum things im not proud of... and i understand im not meant 2 b happy... i just wish there was a way that i could b a little happy... but i can c its not poissible.. i dont wanna try ita not worth it.... if u wanna b my friend then go ahead but im not gonna try my dammest 4 u 2 like me.... im here 4 myself but i dont no wut i want anymore... i no i cant ever b happy and i also no im not meant 2 b in this world

Photo Apology
Photographer Ruth Van Bergen specialized in celebrity portraits. One wealthy woman complained that Van Bergen's photo wasn't nearly as good as the first one she had taken. "You must forgive me." the photographer said diplomatically. "The last time I took your picture, I was ten years younger."

Parkersburg Coach Murdered
Parkersburg Football Coach Shot and Killed KCRG & AP By Becky Ogann Story Created: Jun 24, 2009 at 9:05 AM CDT Story Updated: Jun 24, 2009 at 10:59 AM CDT BUTLER COUNTY - Waterloo hospital spokeswoman say Aplington-Parkersburg coach Ed Thomas has died. School officials confirmed that Coach Thomas was shot multiple times this morning at the school's weight room. He was shot in the head at point-blank range, according to business manager Pat Gosch. Sports secretary Sue Muller said it's her understanding a suspect has been caught. She doesn't know who the person is but doesn't believe it's a student. Thomas was taken initially to Covenant Medical Center in Waterloo, Muller said. When asked if he was still alive, Muller said, "As far as we know." Muller said Thomas was supervising the early-morning weightlifting in Parkersburg when the shooting happened just before 8:30 a.m. Thomas runs a program during the summer for students, not just members of the t

Cowboy's Prayer
Cowboy Prayer Thank you Father for choosin the cowboy life for me Riding the range, mending fences and sleeping under the stars Enjoying all your creations, Father how awesome you are. Some folks spend their days chasing silver and gold, you see And when they finally get it it's easily wasted away Me, I chase horses and cows most all of the day. When the night comes, I'm tired, sore and cold I make myself a fire, eat my vittles, spread out my bedroll. Then I play my harmonica, singing out loudly and bold, Til my good friend, Pumpkin is sound asleep. And as I sink into peaceful and irreversible sleep Please, please do not for me weep, I happily lived my life as a cowboy, the life God chose for me.

If You Only Knew
If you only knew that your memory embraces me like the wind. That my heart doesn’t have enough words to express, because what I feel for you is so immense. If you only knew how every inch of my body yearns for you. How your memories palpitate in my soul when your presence stays, here in my heart. If you only knew, that my love is like a cry that shatters the silence, is the emptiness I feel by having you only in my dreams while my heart pleads for you to be mine. If only you knew how my yearning bleeds out of your eyes when they look at me not knowing that I’m dying to give you all the passion I have inside. Come and surrender your love to me, to calm my pain of not having you, to erase with your caress my lament, so that I may sow a thousand roses in your belly. Come and surrender your love to me, because the substance of my life is in every kiss I have to give, that the world is not enough to contain my love for you. Come and surrender your love to me

Regarding Pimpouts/sf/buzzkills..
JAK is gonna use this blog to help those who are trying to buy a pimpout/shitface/buzzkill...and those who are selling them...if you're selling leave a comment on how much you are charging...if you're buying...hit up those who are selling and tell them JAK sent ya...

Passio
PASSION As I sit here gazing in wonderment at the starlit sky My mind wanders into the dark, forgotten past. Searching, envisioning, and trying desperately to remember A feeling that has long since vanished. Slowly, in the still of the night, the images begin to resurface --- The heat, the frenzied excitement, the longing for you To melt into me, become one with me. The look in your eyes that could only come from unadulterated love And the touch that made every ounce of my being come to life. Then, as tranquility comes over me, I softly smile And I know that I will feel that passion again.

Still Think Ya Know Me
Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down - I cry for help, no one's around. Silently screaming as I bang my head against the wall - It seems like no one cares at all. Always an emotion, But how can I explain - How can I explain? Kind of like the scent of a rose, But you can't explain, The same with my pain. Caught up in emotion, Goes over my head - Goes over my head. Sometimes I got to think to myself, Is this life or death, Am I living or am I dead? The clock keeps ticking, But nothing else seems to change - Problems never solved just rearranged. And then I think about all the times that I've had - Some were good, most were bad. I search for personality And I look for things I cannot see. Love and peace flash through my mind, Pain and hate is all I find. Find no hope in nothing new, And I never had a dream come true. Lies and hate and agony - Through my eyes it's all I see. If I'm gonna cry - Will you wipe away my tears? If I’m gonna die - Lord please take away my

Betrayal
Ill never forget those words burned deep into my heart,even made me think twice on tearing you apart,I think about you daily as im caught up in this maze,feel lost without your presence blinded by the haze,For the first time in my life I regretted what I did,didnt even get that reaction when that thing happened to that kid,All was buisness without pleasure as I chased you all around,kicked in doors for many years tryna put you in the ground,why couldnt you look away from me or beg me for your life,beg for the lives of your little kid and your darlin wife,instead you just looked up with a smile on your face,I guess you already knew id finally won the race,you had to run away but why not leave the state?,nervously I asked as I thought id taken bait,Dont you remember in another life i once called you friend,Everything I know is here right around the bend,yea I did remember but look at what you did,You think im gonna show pity common dont be stupid,You looked me in the eyes and told me why

The Old Days
hold on for just a minute im gonna be right by your side, disregard these limitations and these boundaries lets just ride, dont you wanna take a chance and satisfy the want to know?, instead of chasin mr right and never tryin to let go, just a night of your time and a memmory dug in deep, the kind that you can smile on just before you go to sleep, im not tryna be that man that can offer you a dream, or say that we will last forever or be the perfect team, Im just real enough to know that limitations are an issue, and emotions runnin deep lead to scars and used up tissue, all I offer is opportunity to be the best of friends,

Something So Strong
I want to wake up beside you. I want to feel your angel kisses on my neck, As your warm strong hands caress my body. I want to be there in the afternoon. Having you make love to me. I want to be there in the evening. To share soft candle light, And a glass of red wine. I want you all the time. It never leaves my mind. Your essence is something that it so strong, It carries me away. Tell me that you love me. That we will go into to eternity. Tell me that I am your angel, And that you will never leave me. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserve

The Healing Power Of Sleep
A lack of sleep may be harmful to your health. By Dr. Ranit Mishori, PARADE More on this in Health & Fitness 5 Ways to Get Better Sleep 7 Steps to a Good Night's Rest What We Can Learn From Our Dreams Your mom was right: You need your sleep—maybe more than even she knew. She likely didn't know what the research now tells us—that lack of sleep has been linked to obesity, cancer, heart disease, and low immune response. Caught a cold lately? Consider this: A recent study in the journal Archives of Internal Medicine showed that if you sleep less than seven hours a night, you have a three times higher risk of getting a cold than if you sleep more than eight hours. Scientists at Carnegie Mellon University asked 153 healthy adult men and women about their sleeping habits, then dosed them with nasal drops containing rhinovirus—one of the viruses responsible for the common cold. The virus took hold more readily among the less-rested. Lack o

Michael Jackson
CNN) -- Entertainer Michael Jackson has died after being taken to a hospital on Thursday after suffering cardiac arrest, according to multiple reports including the Los Angeles Times and the Associated Press. CNN has not confirmed his death. Jackson, 50, had been in a coma at the hospital, sources told CNN. Brian Oxman, a Jackson family attorney, said he was told by brother Randy Jackson that Michael Jackson collapsed at his home in west Los Angeles Thursday morning. Family members were told of the situation and were either at the hospital or en route, Oxman said. Fire Capt. Steve Ruda told CNN a 911 call came in from a west Los Angeles residence at 12:21 p.m. Ruda said Jackson was treated and transferred to the UCLA Medical Center. Asked specifics of the patient's condition, he said he could not discuss them because of federal privacy laws. The music icon from Gary, Indiana, is known as the "King of Pop." Jackson had many No. 1 hits and his "Thriller" is one of the best-selling

Freedom Of Speech!
6-25-09 7:21 PM EST. I just read a comment by a friend that she was threatened to be silenced in a lounge if she spoke of Michael Jackson's questionable history with children. Reason cited was "you're not to speak ill of the dead." The last time I checked this was the friggin internet. There's quite a difference in being outwardly rude and trying to have an intellegent conversation, which this lounge owner is incapable of doing. To the lounge owner who threatened to ban the person trying to speak: Get the fuck over yourself. You may have liked Michael Jackson & his music but he was in question about his conduct or the rest of the world wouldn't have ask. Old Red

All-america Rose Selections 2009 Winning Rose, Pink Promise, Raises Awareness And Funds For National Breast Cancer Foundation
SAN FRANCISCO, October 2008 – 2009 is a history making year for All-American Rose Selections (AARS, rose.org). For the first time, an AARS award-winning rose was created to support breast cancer awareness. The 2009 AARS award winning rose, Pink Promise has been selected to represent the National Breast Cancer Foundation, to help extend women's lives through education and early detection. Pink Promise is a hybrid tea rose whose beauty is enhanced by the contrast of its large brilliantly formed pink blossoms set against lush dark green foliage. Along with its stunning appearance, Pink Promise has excellent disease resistance, flourishing in many climates. Pink Promise is a highly fragrant rose which fills any room with a deliciously fruity scent. Pink Promise will officially represent a continual blooming promise of compassion and awareness. “I have always been a lover of roses and Pink Promise symbolizes the beauty and hope that we at the National Breast Cancer Foundation wi

Hope By Maya Angelou
“Hope is one of the greatest gifts we have been given. It carries no price tag but its value is priceless. We cling to it when the future looks uncertain and praise it when things turn out better than we could have ever imagined. Hope is the foundation on which we build our dreams and aspirations. It has been the cornerstone upon which ordinary people have accomplished extraordinary things.”

Fu Needs Humor :p
*The Pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The Pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the raceagain and it won again.* *The local paper read: * *_PASTORS ASS OUT FRONT._** The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered thePastor not to enter the donkey in another race. The next day the local paper headline read:* *_BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTORS ASS_* *This was too much for the Bishop so he ordered the Pastor to get rid ofthe donkey. The Pastor decided to give it to a Nun in a nearby convent. The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline thenext day: _ NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN._ The Bishop fainted. He informed the Nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey so shesold it to a farmer for $10.* *The next day the paper read: _NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10._ This was too much for the Bishop so he ordered the Nun to buy back thedonkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild. The next day the headlines read:**

Where I've Been
Was on vacation for a few days. Now I'm back, and my computer thinks it's on vacation, but needs fixing, truth to tell. So be it. As things are, this computer hangs when I'm on too long, now. Yep, needs fixing. My prolonged (that is, several-day) absence has cost me several fubar-friends. Hope it's no one I knew. ;) Back soonish.

Not Your Baby
you have lost your ever loving mind if you think i'm your baby. if you think a few words and a term of endearment is all it takes to win my heart you are f*&*^ng insane. don't call me baby unless you are ready to prove it. and cheap talk via the internet is probably NOT the best way to do so. you say you miss me that all you want is me that you can't live without me then i say PROVE IT. and if you already have well then you know who you are.

What Is Real Love?
We've heard songs about it, seen it in the movies, heard it talked about on Oprah by relationship experts, and read about it in thousands of self help books. But, what is unconditional love? We all want to feel loved. We think about it, hope for it, fantasize about it, go to great lengths to achieve it, and feel that our lives are incomplete without it. The lack of unconditional love is the cause of most of our anger and confusion. It is no exaggeration to say that our emotional need for unconditional love is just as great as our physical need for air and food. It is especially unfortunate, then, that most of us have no idea what unconditional love really is, and we prove our ignorance with our horrifying divorce rate, the incidence of alcohol and drug addiction in our country, the violence in our schools, and our overflowing jails. Our misconceptions of unconditional love began in early childhood, where we saw that when we did all the right things—when we were clean, quiet,

Is It The Same
OK EVERY ONE YOU TEL ME WHAT YOU THINK AND PLEAS BE HONEST AND DETAIL ABOUT YOUR ANSERS.. do you beave that it is the same thing to be engaded or morried on fubar as it is in realy life... does a fu relashipon mean the same to you as one in rela life .... tell me what you thing and why .... this should be a good blog should get alot of diffrent openins wouldloe to know what you all think

Movieman47.....is My Budd...
Please it has been brought to my attention that my good friend needs help with leveling....he cannot add any more pix till this is achieved...Pls help my friend out...for i would do this for you.....ty...big Huggggs and well u know...ty....U are all awsome

Steve
Hello everyone! For those of you who have been concerned about Steve I have the news. Steve has had a bad stroke. He's home now and doing better according to his mom. He just can't speak very well or get on the computer. I talked to him a little on the phone and he misses everyone and will be back as soon as he can! So let's all keep our precious Steve in our thoughts and prayers.We miss and love you Steve!!! (h)

!
Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seenso unsure but it seems, ’cause we’ve been waiting for youFallen into this place, just giving you a small tasteof your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anywayI see a distant light, but girl this can't be rightSuch a surreal place to see so how did this come to beArrived too earlyAnd when I think of all the places I just don't belongI've come to grips with life and realize this is going too farI don't belong here, we gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from hereA place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rainCan leave this place but refrain, ’cause we've been waiting for youFallen into this place, just giving you a small tasteof your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anywayThis peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)No pain or sign of time (I’m much too young to fall)So out of place don'

7 Common Reasons Relationships Fail
Failed relationships are one of the biggest causes of stress and unhappiness in life. Working on successful relationships, whether they are with our children, parents, friends or partners, is one of the most important life skills we can learn. If we cannot maintain lasting relationships, we will always struggle to be happy Jealousy It is ironic that we can easily become jealous of our closest friends. Jealousy often occurs when there is a feeling of separation and competition. We need to learn to be happy at the success of others; it only when we can feel a sense of oneness with others achievements that jealousy will remain far away.Also, we need to trust our partner - a suspicious mind is very poisonous. It is better to be trusting rather always suspecting infidelity or disloyalty. Others will be rightly discomforted if we mistrust them. If our partner lets us down, it is not our fault. But, if we suspect, because of our own insecurity, we are bound to create serious problems in

Loves Roller Coaster Ride
Its 6 a.m and how alone you've been Raging clock tells you its life's chance again Life's chance to break you and leave you alone Life's chance to push you away from your throne This seat you consume through solitude and shouts The perch that you reign more strongly through doubts Constantly a victim to the daily grind There's no slowing down when trapped in your mind Constant tremors splashed with the past Riddled with memories of joys that don't last Their faces they fade like erosion on shore No matter who's there you'll always need more A lovers sweet lips or their warmest embrace Might never awaken your smiling face For what burns in you is darker than hate Sadder than sorrow and crueler than fate A familiar stench of loneliness creeps out of the abyss Will the shadows consume you or shall you resist Fight back with all you may be holding inside Please show me your goodness for I have nothing to hide I am emotionally burned and physically scared But wont you come in must you ma

Angels & Demons Updated 06-27-2009 Now A Homepage Pls Add Also
Ever wanted to be a Angel or a Demon but not Yet a Godfather, Or maybe you wish you picked the other choice and wish you can change it. Well Now is your chance but unfortanitly no Special Abilities or Special Icon. Back By Popular Demand From the Creator of Fubars #1 Train in the Past Now Brings You Angels & Demons. Basically Just a Normal Train But Can Also Be used as a Leveling Family. Rules & Qualifacations 1. Must F/R/A The Founder and All other Members Also The Home Page 2. If Already A Friend Must Leave Them a Comment on thier Page Saying Joining Angels & Demons 3. Dont have a Salute Not A Problem This Time Pay The 25k Fee and your on Send it through Fupal to The Founder and mention Angel & Demons Fee 4. Have A Salute Then No Fee Needed to Hop on 5. In The Request Need To Mention Angels & Demons and Also Must Messege the founder when your done or you will not be added 6. Must Also Add Angels & Demons Member To Your Name or A&D Now For The Fun To

Fixing Me
She's doing it. I don't know how. Shes' fixing the places that were so easy to break. It's been so long since someone could make me feel the way she makes me feel. I don't know her yet, except in my soul. But, that's the place where I need her most. That's where she's fixing me.

The Prs Are Greedy F*ckers.
You can't even use project playlist now. First they stopped Youtube vid's in certain countries and now it's music on project playlist! Why are they so horrible to us UK folks? I mean, it's not like we're doing anything different to you US folks is it... we're only putting music on our pages, same as you guys and gals. So unless I'm missing a point, could someone please explain to me why o' why are playlists unavailable to people in the UK? I'm not very cognizant with the reasons :| I think it's another classical case of fat cats been greedy assholes again, but me could be wrong, it does happen sometimes... Discuss? :|

Night And Day
Writer(s): cole porter Like the beat beat beat of the tom-tom When the jungle shadows fall Like the tick tick tock of the stately clock As it stands against the wall Like the drip drip drip of the raindrops When the summer shower is through So a voice within me keeps repeating you, you, you Night and day, you are the one Only you beneath the moon or under the sun Whether near to me, or far Its no matter darling where you are I think of you Day and night, night and day, why is it so That this longing for you follows wherever I go In the roaring traffics boom In the silence of my lonely room I think of you Day and night, night and day Under the hide of me Theres an oh such a hungry yearning burning inside of me And this torment wont be through Until you let me spend my life making love to you Day and night, night and day There's much more I wish I could say, but the technology seems to be against me today.

Learning To Live
Lyrics are a bit off because it's a live performance but you get the idea... I keep my head on straightAnd my eyes wide openI try to move forwardWishing and hopingI took a hold of myselfIn the middle of NovemberDon't you look back nowIs all I can rememberI feel like I'm leavingLike I'm leaving homeLike he clouds are parting, and I'm not alone[Chorus 1]I'm learning to liveLiving to learnStarting to sing my songRight, or wrongBreaking awaySetting me freeFree to be, my own meI'm learning to liveI got my vanity crisisFrom my beautiful motherI'm not gonna go thereI'm anything otherTake another deep breath nowIt's just one more hurdleI'm breaking this lineBefore it comes full circleI feel like I'm leavingLike I'm leaving homeLike he clouds are parting, and I'm not alone[Chorus 2]I'm learning to liveLiving to learnStarting to sing my songRight, or wrongBreaking awaySetting me freeFree to be, my own meI found a place, where I can lay my shit downSomewhere that I can finally be myself - be mys

Attributed Poetry
HERE..HERE I SAY...THE HEART OF POETRY HAS NOT YET DIED..FOR US NEED NEVER DIE..DREAM... THE SUMMER SCREEN RETURNS YEARN..AND THE AENEID OF AGE OLD..BLOWING VICTOR IN MORNINGS TO COME..MERGING NOW WITH ALL I LEAVE IN THE WAKE OF MY STEPS..MY HEART IS LODGED IN POETRY AND ITS ADVENTURE..FREELY...WITH ALL I LEAVE IN MY WAKE..POETRY COMES..ANGLE OR DEMON..POETRY COMES FREELY LIKE A BIRD IN THE CLOUDS..I OFFER IT THE SKY..AND IT ALIGHTS FIERCELY ON MY HEAD AND EATS..WHAT IS AGNOSTIC IN ME..BUT NOW ITS NOT JUST THE DAWN..NOT JUST THE SONG OF BIRDS BREEZE..NOT JUST ME..MY PAIN..MY GAIN.. POETRY COMES...HERE..I'LL TELL OF COASTAL WAVES AND THE REVOLUTION..HERE POETRY COMES WITH A BEAUTIFUL SWIFT SWORD OF MY ARMS BLOOD IT FLOWS...WHO AM I..WHO HEARS THE DREAM OF MY CURSED YOUTH FOR WHOM DO I SPEAK..AND THAT OF ME WALKS THE FIGHT THO LIVES DEMISED IN SHEETS OF WHITE WE GRIEF..WE CARRY THEIR EXSISTENCE IN ACTION IN SPEECH..WHAT EAR WILL SAY YES TO MY WORDS..THE MOUTH OF THE POET FILLS WITH ANTS

Immortal Sonnets Pt.2
NAKED, YOU ARE SIMPLE AS ONE OF YOUR HANDS, SMOOTH, SOFT, WARMING.. EARTHY AND SMALL, TRANSPARENT AND ROUND.. MOVE IN MOTIONS TO FLESH WE MOAN SOUNDS, AROUND YOUR HALF MOON LINES, APPLE PATHWAYS, NAKED, YOU ARE SLENDER AS A NAKED GRAIN OF WHEAT IN HEATS OF ME......

~carmen_73 Coowner @ Hellbound Is Putting Auntie Tammy Up For Bux!
My Auntie Tammy AKA .... ~ToO pReCiOuS is up for auction! BID STARTS AT $ 500K *Rate all photos *Rate stash, blogs, (etc..) *Keep shit faced while online *Add to family *Add to top friends *SFW salutes *Random gifts/blings .........If win is over $100. *Add to yahoo *Personal calls/texts *Ticker message * 1 mil bux .............If win is over $200. * Add Ownership to name for 4 wks * Add to top family * Random blings....... 4 max *Salutes

What Is Sudden Cardiac Arrest?
What Is Sudden Cardiac Arrest? Sudden cardiac arrest (SCA) is a condition in which the heart suddenly and unexpectedly stops beating. When this happens, blood stops flowing to the brain and other vital organs. SCA usually causes death if it's not treated within minutes. Overview To understand SCA, it helps to understand how the heart works. The heart has an internal electrical system that controls the rate and rhythm of the heartbeat. Problems with the electrical system can cause abnormal heart rhythms called arrhythmias (ah-RITH-me-ahs). There are many types of arrhythmias. During an arrhythmia, the heart can beat too fast, too slow, or with an irregular rhythm. Some arrhythmias can cause the heart to stop pumping blood to the body. These are the type of arrhythmias that cause SCA. SCA is not the same as a heart attack. A heart attack occurs when bloo

St. Louis Fusingles Event August 8th!
Get Back to Basics Meet & Greet at the Stratford Inn! Saturday, August 8th 7:00 pm - 1:30 amStratford Bar & Grill (Party is in the Ballroom) 800 South Highway DriveFenton, Missouri 63026(636) 343-5757 Visit their website at stratfordbar.comPlease Note: The Stratford Bar & Grill is a 21 or older establishment. The Ballroom is a non-smoking area, however smoking is permitted in the bar.SPECIALS! SPECIALS! SPECIALS! No Cover $1 from 7:00 pm to 9 pm - well, wine, draft $1 from 7:00 pm to 9 pm - Bud, Bud Light & Busch Bottles Free Buffet from 8 - 9:30 (Menu TBD) DJ and dance music all night long 10:30 - ish 50/50 Drawing

Real Life
Ok, something is bothering me, so I'm just gonna get this out and whoever wants to sound off on it is more than welcome to do so... I hear people on here saying all the time that "Real life is more important than Fubar".... I agree with that but at the same time, some people seem to forget that the people you have relationships with on Fubar have "Real" feelings. Just because you're interacting with someone online doesn't mean that you don't affect their "real life". If you make a promise to someone, tell someone you'll be there, or tell someone you'll do something and then you blow them off, it hurts just as much online as if you did it in "real life". So yeah, I agree that your family comes before anything.... but friends are friends no matter where they are.

Day From Hell..
I was in a big bass derby on Saturday, and it was one of those days that I wish would never had happened.. it started with the dog waking me up at 2:40 to go outside. that's not a bad thing considering my alarm was set for 3. got to the lake by 4:30, boat was in by 4:45. I was walking back from parking the van and the trailer when Norm started yelling to me that the battery was dead. NOBODY would give us a boost.. so I had to pull the boat back out. I tried to charge the battery with the van. that didn't work. so I ended up taking my van battery in the boat so we could start the engine. the fishing SUCKED for us. we went back with 2 bass that were under 2 lbs each. there was 90 minutes between weigh in and the door prizes/awards, so we decided to take the boat home and then come back. that woman called me and asked how things were going, so when she found out we were going to be back at Norm's to drop the boat off, she wanted to go to the bar with us. awards SUCKED.. Norm got some ch

Micheal Jackson. Ffs Let It Die
As for Michael Jackson, I have no comment. Actually, I do have a comment. Anyone who's "sad" over Michael Jackson's death is an asshole. All you know or care about from MJ is his music and dancing. You're only sad because your entertainer is dead. That's all he was to you - an entertainer. How superficial and selfish do you have to be to mourn over the death of an entertainer. That's totally pathetic. Because the relationship was strictly one-way.You liked him because he entertained you, and he didn't even know about your existence. And now you have the nerve to be sad that he's dead. Total bullshit. The only person you should feel sad for is his plastic surgeon who no longer has a source of income and has to take out a second mortage.Do you cry when your iPod or DVD player breaks? Hell no. You go "Fuck." When innanimate sources of entertainment die, you don't mourn their death. Or when the guy playing guitar at the party randomly gets his neck cut off by a broken beer bottle flung fro

Meus Perspicuus Angelus
She has inspired me to change my world To make what was wrong right again She came to me on the winds Took my breath away She picked me up when I was down Held me as I was afraid Kept me warm as I shivered Made me look at myself and see what she saw Sang to me a song of love She came and forced away the monster inside me Tore away the ugliness and showed me the man inside She gave without taking Smiled with me through my tears She waited for me and called to me through the flames Forever with me in all that I am As day becomes night I know she'll be there Ever ready to hold me close and chase away my demons She told me once "You are not alone" I know that now My Bright Angel calls my name....

Maj's Survey-the Non Sex One
What Color Is Your Toothbrush? im thinking its blue or green..cant remember the color but i know its made by crestName One Person That Made You Smile Today? no one yetWhat Were You Doing At 8 Am This Morning? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzWhat Were You Doing 45 Minutes Ago? brushing my teefsWhat Is Your Favorite Candy? eye candy Have You Ever Been To A Strip Club yesWhat Is The Last Thing You Said Aloud? to the cat :rem stop biting my feet dammit! What Is The Best Ice Cream Flavor? spumoniWhat Was The Last Thing You Had To Drink? diet cokeWhat is The Longest You Have Gone Without Sleeping? a few days i thinkHave You Ever Made A Promise You'd Die To Keep? i rarely make promises so yesHave You Bought Any N

My Friend
This is my best friend from Missouri, you know..the one I'm spending the week with. She's been on here before but she deleted and now she's back. Could you all PLEASE go show her some love and show her a huge welcome back? It'd be greatly appreciated. Thanks! Immie@ fubar I probably have the coding wrong, but she's number 5 in my family!!!!

Zipper
Zipper Zippers are a convenient, yet potentially frustrating or painful, invention of the fashion world. Dreaming of zippers is often dreaming of efficiency, convenience or maintaining a well-groomed personal appearance. However, if the zipper is stuck, it can become a dream of being thwarted, feeling incompetent and lacking problem-solving resources.

Dont People Got Anything Better To Do
WHAT THE HELL I GOT A NSFU FOR A HARLEY GIRL PHOTO AND IT REALLY ISINT A BAD PIC SHES COVERD AND THAT, BELIVE ME IVE SEEN WORSE!!! ON THIS SITE AND!!!!! THERE STILL ON HEAR WITH OUT THE NSFU OR HAVING TO MOVE IT TO A FOLDER CALLED NSFU ISINT THIS A ADULT SITE? GEEHS WHAT EVER!!!! YOU KNOW FIND SOME REAL !!!!!! NSFU,S ON HEAR MY GOD!!!! HAHA!! YOU KNOW FIND SOMETHING TO DO MAN! LIKE BUG OFF OH THATS A NICE WAY TO SAY WHAT I REALLY WANT TO SAY BUT ITS SO NOT WORTH IT. LOOK AT MY NSFU FOLDER PEOPLE AND TELL ME

A Mom :)
♥ A baby will make love stronger, days longer, nights shorter, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for. ♥ ♥ I Love My Baby & I Love Being A Mum!! ♥

Quotes
- Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again? - Strike a pose and act like you're famous. - I'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me. - Its the little things that made me fall in love with him. (: - Sometimes you just have to smile, pretend like everything's ok, hold back the tears and walk away. - I solemnly swear that I am up to no good. - Dear Heart, I met a boy, prepare to shatter. (: - Note to self: it is illegal to stab people for being stupid. (: - But the sad part is, we weren't even dating and he still broke my heart. - Strength is nothing more than how well you hide the pain. - Side by side or miles apart, friends are forever and close to your heart - A verbal contract aint worth the paper its written on. - The only way to make someone trustworthy is to trust them. - Advice is what we ask for when we already know th

When I Close My Eyes....
When i close my eyes.....I dream of you,doesnt matter the time of day. Thoughts of you run thru my head. I have known you for a short time now and our paths have never crossed...I am waiting for the day.......it doesnt matter,morning noon or night...thoughts of you run thru my head.

Fallin Apart
Another song about nothing feels rightAnd everything is going wrongSeems we've been here once beforeWhose fault and who's to blameDoesn't really matter nothing's ever gonna changeIt's not working any more I'm trying so hard to not let goI'm trying to let you know Chorus]Now I'm falling apart all over againAll I got to do is keep on hanging on Love is breaking my heartAnd love will bendAll I got to do is hang on You know what's sadWe're losing everything that we always thought we'd haveBut that's the way it's got to beWho knows and who's to sayThere's nothing left to do but just turn and walk awayNever thought I'd ever leave I'm trying so hard to not let goI'm trying to let you know [Chorus]Now I'm falling apart all over againAll I got to do is keep on hanging on Love is breaking my heartAnd love will bendAll I got to do is hang on [Bridge]I always thought we'd be togetherOh, yeaI always thought that we'd belongOh, yeaI always thought we'd last foreverAnd I thought that we would

My Life Part One...
Before you read this, please do not let your opinions get in the way, nor do I ask for your pity, because that ship has sailed and it’s not going to change my or anyone’s past. I just read an amazing blog. Some of you know which one im talking about, most of you probably could care less, but it was an insight to a horrible time, basically a life most people could never fathom. After reading it, I ask myself, “What would you have done?” Well, I can’t answer that question, because I cannot put words to the pain, sorrow, guilt, and hatred that was brought and forced upon a family and more importantly one strong individual. I have such respect for her and will do whatever I can, to the best of my abilities, to be there for her whenever called upon. I myself have been through some extreme things in my life but they cannot and will never compare, because the deal with different people, different societies, different ways of life. It’s an action, one result that booms echoed pains thro

Uhmm...
Dear Boys, I am writing you because I am tired of being your "wingman". I don't want to hear you complain anymore that you can't figure out girls because it's really not that hard. I will attempt to give you an insight and then from their you are on your own. Say what you mean to say. I can feel some of you already thinking "but girls don't do that"...and you're right. We say what we think you want to hear. It's a defense mechanism. Always assume that a girl is looking for a relationship and not a one night stand. Here's a crazy idea: If you're out and there's that cute girl all over you and she invites you back to her place...go. If you really aren't "in the place for a relationship" then say that to her. Tell her it's not going past that one night. 9/10 she'll appreciate the fact that you just saved her alot of heartache the next day when she is trying to hang out with you and you're trying to be elusive. In that regard...don't go back night after night. Can you put yourself in the p

Chocolate Calories
A good piece of chocolate has about 200 calories. As I enjoy 2 servings per night, and a few more on weekends. I consume 3,500 calories of chocolate in a week, which equals one pound of weight per week. Therefore... In the last 3 1/2 years, I have had chocolatecaloric intake of about 180 pounds, and I only weigh 165 pounds, so without chocolate, I would have wasted away to nothing about 3 months ago! I owe my life to chocolate.

Was Surprised Last Night
At 8:30 last night my sister pulls up in from of the house and out stepped her and my niece ... a complete surprise ... they are staying though to the weekend ... new pics of all three of us will be found in a separate folder in my photo gallery soon.

The Truth.
sometimes i feel as though this life of mine is one hott mess and one huge mistakes, but btwn the heart breaks, the anger and sadness at the time it was exactly what i wanted. i wouldn't change any of it b/c i am who i am today b/c of it all. so thanks to all the bitches that were my friends that stabbed me in the back to get what they wanted that turned to shit anyways, all those pricks who broke my heart, used me for one and one thing only - lied to my face telling me they loved me and left me standing on the side of the road crying and pregnant, and every single fucking jackasses that kicked me when i was down, told me i couldn't do it and tried to keep me down, along the way. if it wasn't for you i wouldn't be the woman i am proud to be today. so fuck every single one of you because i am unstoppable, i may take one step forward, two steps back but i ALWAYS come out on top no matter what. oh and remember what goes around comes around and karma is a bigger bitch than i'll ever

How Pilots Think....
"After catastrophic engine failure, I landed long. As I had no power, the landing gear failed to deploy and no braking was available. I bounced over the stone wall at the end of the runway, struck the trailer of a truck while crossing the perimeter road, crashed through the guardrail, grazed a large pine tree, ran over a tractor parked in the adjacent field, and hit another tree. Then I lost control."

The Bombing List
Ok....Here is something that Muffinman has tried twice and has been a huge success. He has helped me out, so I want to help you out, so with his permission I have decided to also try one. Here is the deal. I know there are people out there who can't afford multiple bling packs in order to gain cherry bombs..... you could afford $6.00 for a 6 credit bling pack? With that 6 credit bling your folder with the most pics will be bombed 11 times. Sounds too good to be true....I know, but here is how it works. 50 people send me a 6 credit bling pack, once all 50 people are on my list and all bling packs are received, then I will purchase a total of 11 cherry bombs (purchasing 4 cherry bombs myself). Then during happy hours, you will be bombed consecutively. Please PM me if you are interested, there is only room for 50 ppl Dvls.......

Detective Comics
Greg Rucka and JH Williams III kicking of a new arc with issue #854 (out last week). The artwork is breathtaking, and Rucka's writing is always a joy. Comes with a back-up The Question story, so it's a pretty sweet package.

~women And Drinks~
Drinks That Reflect Personality Before you order a drink in public, you should read this! SevenNew York City bartenders were asked if they could 'nail' a woman's personality based on what she drinks. Though interviewed separately, they concurred on almost all counts. The results: PART A: WOMEN-DRINKS, WHO THEY ARE, & YOU! Drink: Beer Personality: Causal, low-maintenance; down to earth.Your Approach: Challenge her to a game of pool. Drink:

The Gossamers Fandago
on and eerie,dreary night, besiged by sleeplessness and spite, i lie awake,tossing turning, deep inside emotions burning restlessness still setting the tone of eventide,again alone for a cold night tho not a friend i followed just the same something familiar felt in voice impelled me as if i had a choice so i embarked upon this quest for peace of mind that i may rest without slight of fright or worry without anxiousness or hurry delving a forest,deep and darkened come uncanny to the eye humming a chant i now harkened 'neath the peering,leering sky the assertion almost singing,luring in hypnotic rhyme,conjuring pulling me further,further still from home i found so sad,so ill till flowing in moonlight,beaming saw i thought to be dreaming with all elegance of gaudy heaven glowing gossamers gleaming in dance alas,i counted six,then seven silky sweet in thier entrance a sight truly most magestic as i noticed now more loud the voices singing silvery rej

Wishing All A Safe 4th
IBSEXXY.COM Wishing one and all a very safe and happy 4th of July. At the same time asking you to remember how today really came about and why. And to thank God for our independence cause there are others that still don’t have thiers.

How I'm Feeling Right Now
Ok. Just so you know. I'm on the waiting list to have Gastric Band Surgery. I have 12 to 13 weeks to wait. I'm sick of waiting. Last night I found out that My Brothers GF is having another baby. I couldn't handle it. I broke down in floods of tears with the thought of having to wait 2 years until I can have another baby. I was sitting there feeling like I wanted to start self harming again. I wanted to cut deep into my own stomach. I really hate Myself right now. I don't know who to turn to. I can't tell anyone so I thought I would write it down so I can at least get it out of my system. Yeah I have a Daughter. Yeah I have a Husband. But I have never felt more alone than what I do right now. I want to be happy and live my life.

Creepy Wanta Be's
A few months ago this customer asked for my phone number. I refused the first few times and then finally deciding that after a few times of seeing him thouhg work that it would be ok. Well was I ever wrong about that. This dude made being sick a good thing fo me cause when he called I was sleeping due to the flu. Well I guess I should have heard the phone while sleeping and attended to his very needy self at the very moment. I never did hear the phone and very happy about it now. Anyways he called a few days later asking why I have didn't answer the phone and I told him I had been sleeping all day due to the flu. His response was that I should have known I was going to be sick and sleeping and should have infomed him. I do not have his number and only had seen him at work. Well I ended up hanging up on him due to his BS about how I should have answered the phone to let him know. A few minuites later the text messages start, fisst one stating how immature I am and so on. Af

To My Friends And Family
am at a neighbors computer. wont be on to long...heres whats going on...we lost our cabletv/internet...not sure when it will be turned backon...this is the situation here.. billys hours have been cut down from a guarantee 40 to 32.. and hardly if any overtime...so the rent,electric,food and gas are their top priotries right now.the cable isnt one of them..tonya has to use all of her check for these bills as well as billy.not sure when we will have the internet again..chris is on the vergeof loosing his subs and amp.been spending alot of time with my mom.. she is now in a fetal positionand cant sit,stand or even get in a wheel chair now.am really worriedabout her,thought tonya was pregnant. and that caused alot of problems here aswell. chris told her if she is. he is finding a new job and savin upso he and chris can move out of here and be on their own.the tension in this house is so dense.i have been stressed out so much. have had migarines real bad thelast few days. like i said im no

Fu Haters Need A Life
Ok I'm up here doin what we fu people do and some chick sb me asking me about a dude I bought up here when I don't even know him and i'm not tryin to know him so i told her to basiclly get a life and stop fuckin with me over a net man cuz it ain't that serious and if she wants to purchase him than she should but just because she has a issue with me buying him, i'm just going to buy him back!!! A word to the stupid people who fall in love with a computer get a life outside of fubar it's kinda fun!!!

Things
Yes, this is an ugly color, but it fits my mood. It's not a great one, but not a bad one. So no one needs to be asking me what's wrong. Anyway....... my brain is working overtime and I hate it. Blah. The new layout of things on here stinks. My neck is hurting I have a new outfit to wear on the 4th. [not sure why I thought that was important, but yeah] I think I'm gonna go find something interesting to do on the computer now.

Another Year Come And Gone.
I cried a little today. Maybe it's the passage of time and so many things changing. Maybe it's the things that I've done wrong in the past...the mistakes I've made...the regrets that have piled up alongside the years that just seem to slip past me like a train headed to nowhere. I'm not happy. And I want to be. I so frigging want to be.

7-2-2009
It's another time to clean things up a bit...first, so called "friends"...well, quite a few more when down the shitter. I wonder who's next? I can't clean out "fan"s... but what good is it that you're a "fan", and you don't even fucking say hello? What the fuck is that? Game or not...it's fucking stupid. All that have gotten the axe, fucking deserve it.

Am I Crazy Or Sane..? You Decide
I'm a crazy woman. Although, I don't know if that is a good or bad thing.. I do know that this once a week thing, it's getting to me. And that's most definitely NOT a good thing! (The once a week of seeing Adam, not that it gets to me.) I had two invites to go over to people's places and hang out tonight. And I am sitting here. I'm either really crazy or really sane. Because they were both guys, and I've dated both of them before. Does this make me a good, nice girlfriend? Or an overly conscientious one? Hmmm... (not that anything would've happened, but just the idea, you know..) I asked Adam a few times today if he was going to be able to come over tonight, after I got off work. And he said no. That this weekend would be the earliest that would work for him to have some time for us together. I got off at seven. I hung out in electronics, giving David a hard time and then came home. (It's an Iowa thing, to hang out in Wal-Mart, I assume.) I changed into comfy, (but nice looking, yo

My Friend
thinking long have i forgotten what was original thought replaced by your face your voice telling me yet again how much i mean to you a smile replaces my frown as i think of you blushing at something i did yet again a soft laugh at how you are such a goof at times you would do anything to cheer me up even a clown wig not sure where my life would be without you in it in some way or another your very much a part of it now youve become so much more than a face priceless a simple word can discribe you so well always there when i fall down usually on my face laughing when i land on my butt instead it never bothered you that i was never the high maintenance type that i preferred ponytail to coifs no makeup to all dolled up torn jeans and tank top over silks and lace that a sunny day out meant me on the back of a bike instead of a stroll i seem to be your exact opposite on so many things im a country girl your a city boy but we are the best of friends forever

Highly Upset..what The Hell?
Something happened here a few minutes ago and I am highly upset and surprised.A family member bought me from another family member a few days ago.He was in my family and I thought we were friends.Obviously I was wrong or he was mad at me for something I'm not aware of.He just disowned me.The only reason I knew that is because I was worth 12 million fubux and then someone bought me for 5 million.I was like wtf?This family member disowned me and I just asked about him a few days ago and we were talking and getting along.Im fucking pissed.That wasn't necessary.If you have a problem with me be man or woman enough to come talk to me about it instead of being a child.It hurt my feelings and now I deleted people who I know don't care and I'm down to 5 family members.I am here for fun not for people being straight up dickheads.If you don't like me or you have a problem with me it is best to just delete me now and save yourself some trouble.I get sick of futards here.On the brighter side Im 300

Anger N Hate
Anger fills up my soul, I bet its something you've never known. the sweet girl you once knew, lied to me, look what you put me through. Im at my breaking points sick of the shit, I dont know what to do with it, the feelings i have for people that lie, ill take this to the grave, til the day i die. If you dare keep my friend ship be warned, from the heart u ripped out and torn. You're a fucking coward you cant face the pain, the feelings, the hate, the wrong, it pours down like rain, on your soul as it thickens into the ground, no longer will you smile when im around. Becareful what you wish for becareful what you say, because no longer will i FEEL the same way.

Akmost A Year.
MY DAD WOULD OF BEEN 67 ON JULY 4TH. I LOST MY DAD ON JULY 16, 2008 LAST YEAR. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. I HAD ASKEDMY BOSS. FOR THEM 2 DAYS OFF FROM WORK. BUT, MY BOSS DIDN'T GAVE THEM TO ME. I AM REALLY HURT. I KNOW ALL I WILL DO IS CRY ON THEM TWO DAYS. I HAVE BEEN CRYING ALMOST ALL DAY AND HALF THE NIGHT. I KNOW THAT EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME THAT IT WILL GET BETTER. BUT, IT STILL HURTS VERY MUCH. I KNOW HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE, BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER THATS FOR SURE. I MISS MY DAD VERY MUCH AND I LOVE HIM TO. JUST WISH I COULD SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIM. LOVE YOU DAD. YOUR BABY GIRL...

I Am For Sale
Starting today i am for sale, you can place a bid in my comments on how much you would buy me for! What is the benfits you ask for buying me for 2 weeks, well: 1. I will use all of my 11's everyday to rate you and yours photos. 2. You will be added as my top friend, and Family 3. Being in my family, you get access to my NSFW pic's 4. You will be displayed all over my profile, to get more friends, family, ect. So if you would like to own me for two weeks place you bid below!

...than Go With A Boy... Or Two
So I just listened to Rizo pour her heart out singing There Are Worse Things I Could Do *watching Grease with the roomies*, and I feel just like t hat right now, every single line in that song is for me right now. Ever since my boyfriend, who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, and I broke up about 3 months ago now, I've been profoundly promiscuous. Haha since I started college, sometimes I am waaaay in heat, but luckily I've had a boyfriend who gladly alleviated my frustrations for me, but I've been going to multiple guys, trying to find something I'm not finding. And I'm thinking that something will come of these situations, but of course not, because even though girls like to think otherwise, more often than not, when a guy sees you as a fuck, you stay a fuck, so here I am haha. And I feel bad now, and I feel like I'm not good enough, even though I know I am. Unfortunately, I'm one of those people whose life feel's more in balance when I have a boyfriend...

Let Me Be.....
baby please.....let me be,come on and set me free. why wont you turn loose of me,cut the ties that bind. you say you love me....then let me spread thesewings and fly away. one of these days......you'll wake up, and realise you been holdin on. to what has been....but is no more. you say you love me..... then let me spread these wings and fly away..... baby please let me be....

Always Mj
In our darkest hourIn my deepest despairWill you still care? Will you be there? In my trialsAnd my tripulationsThrough our doubtsAnd frustrationsIn my violenceIn my turbulence Through my fear And my confessionsIn my anguish and my painThrough my joy and my sorrowIn the promise of another tomorrowIll never let you partFor youre always ïn my heart

2009 Song
Hrmm...love me for my money? lol Kiss Me Thru The Phone - Soulja Boy Tell Em' You are a very kind, fun loving person. People love to be around you. Especially to be going out with you because you shower them with gifts and you are a very good kisser. Your kisses are very passionate and the people love you. Your the oddly hot, sexy person who is really the UGLY person but people love you for your money

Where To Have Sex... A 102 Places...
On a porch swing. Inside an unknown rocky cave or limestone cave. In the weight room at your gym. In your not-yet-finished new build house. On the hood of your car on a deserted gravel road. On a pool table. On top of the washer... while it's running. On a soft rug in front of a fireplace. On a secluded island beach. In the backyard under the stars. In the woods after it rains. On a motorcycle. In a public restroom. In an airplane restroom -- join the mile high club! On a train in the middle of the night. In bed with silk or satin sheets. In bed with rose petals all over. On the beach at night. In your lover's childhood room while their parents are home. Outside in the rain. In a hot tub. On the deck of a yacht during a full moon. Under a rainbow. On a trampoline. On top of a hill.

Failure
FAILURE SOMETIMES I SIT HERE AND WONDER IF I WAS PUT HERE TO FAIL I OFTEN PONDER WHY WAS I PUT HERE I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT RIGHT IS SO FAR OUT OF SIGHT I JUST CANT DO IT AND SOMETIMES IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD DIE I OFTEN PONDER WHY WAS I PUT HERE WHY DO I ALWAYS FUCK UP AM I A JYNX AM I DOO

Dull
DULL IM LOOSING GRIP AS I START TO DRIFT I CANT COPE IVE LOST ALL HOPE IM DULL DULL LIKE THE RAZORS SLICE ONE & MANY MORE TO GO SLICE TWO IM GETTING NUMB SLICE THREE IVE LOST CONTROL AS THE RAZOR FALLS THE BLOOD FLOWS FROM MY ARM IM LOOSING MY SANE 11/30/04

My Punkstar Dream
Sweet friend, with black dress,with a lot of pearching,with a lot of tatoos,i can see in your eyes,only a beautiful flower,that are you. In your eyes the dreams,in your hands there's life,and you make every daywork, friends and choses. I wanna stay there wit you a daylike in a dream,me and you on a cloudfor smile, for play, for listen your voice,see in your soul, in your world i know that this isn'tonly a stupid and stupid dream,couse i learned in my life,that if you wantdreams become real,and that coud is thereunti we can t go in to the sky,only me and yousweeming in the airsoul in the soul. For PunkStarChik from my heart http://marcovasselli.spaces.live.com/

I Want You...
I want youI want to feel youI want to touch you I want you to touch meI want you to explore my bodyI want you to find all the places aching for you I want to feel our lips pressed together I want to feel our tongues tying and twisting togetherI want to feel our breathe increasing and our hearts beating faster and faster I want to feel the heat of youI want you to feel the heat of meI want us to be one, united when we are able to give into our desires of the flesh I want to give you blissI want to give you pleasure I want to give you ulitmate satisfaction I want to be with youI want to kiss every inch of youI want to make love to you, until our bodies give out I just want you....

Love
This poem was written years ago by a woman I used to work with. It is absolutely beautiful and I wanted to share it with everyone. Love Love, is not the uncomfort of a cold, windy night it is the warm feeling of having you near when the first chill is felt Love, is not the sadness of a cloudy rainy day it is the clear fresh drops falling upon our kiss Love, is not the tears that are shed after a quarrel it is the forgiveness and the embrace between us Love, is not whether I'm right or you're wrong it is the agreement and compromise among us Love, is not whether I go or I stay it is remaining beside me from near or afar Love, is not how much you or I have it is what we can create together Love, is not how large the amount you give me it is the little things you show me Love, is not the expense of it but the thought behind the flower Love, is not you or I alone it is you and I together...................

Harry Potter Star 'had Swine Flu'
Harry Potter actor Rupert Grint is recovering from a "mild bout" of swine flu, his publicist has said. Grint, who plays Ron Weasley, took a few days off filming but has now returned to the set of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. And he is well enough to attend the world premiere of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince in London on Tuesday. "He has now recovered and is looking forward to joining his fellow cast members," his publicist said. Scenes She said that Grint's doctor had confirmed the 20-year-old actor had recovered and was no longer contagious or at risk of infecting others. "Other scenes were shot in his absence which did not require his involvement and thus filming was not disrupted," she added. Grint has starred in all the Harry Potter films as well as British comedy film Thunderpants and the comedy drama Driving Lessons with Julie Walters. He is currently filming Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - JK Rowling's final book about the teenage wizard and hi

Tangled Up In You
Tangled Up In You Tangled Up In YouYou're my worldThe shelter from the rainYou're the pillsThat take away my painYou're the lightThat helps me find my wayYou're the wordsWhen I have nothing to sayAnd in this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youI'm still tangled up in youStill tangled up in youYou're the fireThat warms me when i'm coldYou're the handI have to hold as I grow oldYou're the shoreWhen I am lost at seaYou're the only thingThat I like about meAnd in this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youI'm still tangled up in youHow long has it beenSince this storyline beganAnd I hope it never endsAnd goes like this foreverIn this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youTangled up in youI'm still tangled up in youStill tangled up in you

Example Of Friendship
LET ME SPEAK A BIT! THIS PAST FRIDAY (03JULY09) MY BEST FRIEND WENT UNDER SURGERY TO REMOVE A BRAIN TUMOR! IT WAS SUCCESSFUL (thank the lord) BUT YET THE DOCTORS COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY HE DEVELOPED IT. THEY TOLD HIM HE WAS ONE OF A FEW JUST TO DEVELOP A TUMOR OUT OF THE BLUE. ANYWAYS WE HAD BEEN FRIENDS SINCE WE WERE 15 AND HAVE DONE & BEEN THROUGH ALOT GROWING UP. A COUPLE YEARS I MADE A DECISION TO BETTER MYSELF & MY LIFE AND WE DIDN'T STAY ON THE SAME PAGE. IT TOOK THE ADVICE OF A WONDERFUL NEW & AMAZING FRIEND TO GUIDE ME TO SEE MY FRIEND CAUSE HE NEEDED ME THE MOST & IT WAS WORTH IT FOR ME! SO TO MY FRIEND(you know who you are) I THANK YOU FOR THE ADVICE & WARMTH! I THANK THE LORD FOR PULLING MY FRIEND THROUGH THE SURGERY! I LEARNED THAT EVEN THOUGH MY FRIEND & I CHOSE DIFFERENT PATHS - I SHOULD RESPECT THE FRIENDSHIP & BE THERE IF NEEDED!

Hurt
These walls are closing in on me, in the distance, there's something i cannot see. The sky is black, the ground is cold, the hurt is beginning to take its toll. On my mind, im falling deep, into a presipis, I begin to weep. The tears they fall down my cheek, over my frown, im feeling weak. As the tears travel down over my chest, and over my heart, its frozen at best. I close my eyes and curl up in bed, Pulling the covers over my head.

Will I Be Ok?
ok so heres the thing, i really have no one to talk to in r/l about this kinda shit, no one seems to really care or think its important enough.. so i'll just write this here and pretend im talking to myself..lol .tomorrow i go for major oral surgery....now what has me scared is i have sleep apnea, my doc has told me i stop breathing 28 times an hour(sleep study)& no my insurance wont get me a machine....the scary part is when im sleeping on my back and i stop breathing, i wake myself up to start again.....now tomorrow since thier putting me under(on my back, of course) what happens if i stop breathing? i wont be able to wake myself up because i'll be drugged.. am i looking into this to much or should i just hope for the best? idk im freakin. i know it sounds wierd but just in case.....i love you all

Sleeping To Dream- Jason Mraz
I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new townI'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashesAnd they all fall downAnd as I lay me down tonightI close my eyes, what a beautiful sightSleeping to dream about youAnd I'm so tired of having to live without youBut I don't mindSleeping to dream about you and I'm so tiredI found myself in the riches (Your eyes, your lips, your hair.) And you were everywhereI woke up in the ditches. I hit the light and I thought you might be hereBut you were nowhere. (You were nowhere)Well, you were nowhere at homeAs I lay me back to sleepLord I pray that I can keepSleeping to dream about youAnd I'm so tired of having to live without youWell, I don't mindSleeping to dream about you and I'm so tiredJust a little a lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at nightSleeping to dream about youAnd I'm so tired of having to live without youWell, I don't mindSleeping to dream about you and

The Weekend
normally i wouldnt air out the laundry in public, but some of you are "friends"..but dont really know me..therefore your replies are essentially non biased....accordingly,here we go. i was excited to get to see my children this weekend..after all, the state divorce decree says the first, third, and fifth weekends of every month are mine. simple right? right my ass. for the week prior i had made repeated attempts to arrange things via the phone..both at "her" work and my boys home..to no avail...the military has an acronym for it,bless their hearts....snafu..and another..fubar but we wont discuss that one this time. SNAFU...SITUATION NORMAL...ALL FUCKED UP! but i digress....after 11 yrs of putting up with this crap..i prettymuch reached the end of the "NICE GUY" side of my personality and retrieved from deep..deeeeeep storage the OH SHIT, ITS HIM...part of me. you know how you sometimes feel in the dark of nite....the little short hairs on the back of your neck stand up and you beg

Level 34 Help
Ok all, I am needing some help and of course I will do the same for you when you hit the level as well. I need to be bought 50 times in fu owned in a 24 hour period. THATS RIGHT 50! SOOOOO I expire tomorrow and then the fun will begin. *****PLEASE ONLY INCREASE EACH TIME YOU BUY ME THE MINIMUM POSSIBLE********DO NOT HIKE ME UP TO A CRAZY PRICE OR I WONT BE ABLE TO GET BOUGHT 50 TIMES IN 24 HOURS***** THANKS FRIENDS, IF OYU NEED ANYTHING PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!! JON AKA CUTTERBUM

Torn Apart
I am torn apart by my actions The lies and the pain All I can do is pray The the evil in me is slain I am torn apart for not speaking up On the way I feel about you I have hurt you to much I want you to be my boo I know you do not want to hear it But it's about time the truth comes out I love you with all my heart You are what my life's all about I need to show it more I need to prove my love But I was always stubborn But now I got that shove I am now working on my ways Trying to become a little bit better I can say these words all day I love you baby, in this little letter Baby I need you I need to feel your love As if I am newly freed A newly freed dove

The Beginning
She went though pain She Went through torture She went through Hell But it's a new beginning She she is free Free from pain Free from torture This is her new beginning A beginning for myself A new friend, and new love A new solution to all my problems Like I said, it's a new beginning A new beginning As friends and maybe more She is like noone else This is our beginning Our new beginning Like noones ever had Feelings expressed and noone hurt This is our new beginning For we shall see where things go Maybe friends, maybe more But only time can tell For this is only the beginning

Her Nightmare (very Dark)
She screams in pain as she is held down As he enters the screech gets louder Then he covers her mouth to make it silent And then she knew, the nightmare was beginning Half hour earlier he did nothing but scream Yelling for no reason, he strikes her mom She knew what he did, and yet she stayed silent Silent in fear of the worst, maybe the same, maybe not Hours go by, with no help or hope She is crying to the point she cannot breath All he does is go harder and is more violent With a bruised eye and welts, she lays in fear He is finally done with her just minutes to spare Her mom walks in the house and notices nothing She locks the door and turns her music on She cries and panics, lost and confused Weeks go by and the time comes near She for once wants it to come and is anxious Two more weeks go by and it never came The doctor told her, the news, she sits in pain She decides its time, time for revenge She tells her mom, but she doesn't believe So days go by, she waits for the time

Normal??/
This is something I’m sure every guy has tried–or at least this is what I like to tell myself. I was either 17 or 18 years old and like most boys that age, my hormones were through the roof. That being the case I, of course, was constantly touching myself and masturbating. The unfortunate thing about this time period in my life was that I wasn’t getting any… none. I was a virgin, a dork, and had never even kissed a girl. Since my dick had never been in a vagina, or anything even close to a vagina I was curious. So in my room alone one night touching myself I was struck with what I thought at the time was good idea. I was going to try to suck my own dick. I’m a pretty flexible guy and my dick isn’t huge, but it’s not small. So, I figured I had a good shot a getting my dick in something warm and wet. I justified the experience by saying to myself “it’s just like masturbating… except you’re just not using your hand, you&

Ten Ways To Tell If Your Wife Is Having A Computer Affair
#10 Lately sits at the computer naked. # 9 After signing off she always has a cigarette. # 8 Has a giant rubber inflatable disk drive. # 7 In the morning the computer screen is all fogged up. # 6 She has gotten amazingly good at typing with 1 hand. # 5 She makes sarcastic remarks about your software. # 4 Lipstick on the mouse. # 3 During sex she screams "A colon backslash enter insert" # 2 The jam in the laser printer is a pair of panties. # 1 The fax file is filled with pictures of some guys ass.

Comin Out
People....they fascinate me... So, the British spy got outed by his wife... I don't know what is sadder: to bee that dumb to post pics of your husband, house, and kids on Facebook when he is a head of British spy agency, or whatever. Or to be married to a dumb cunt like that.

While I Waited
While I Waited Where My Fire was I could not be Though she was close enough to touch To bask in her sweet scent May have been for me too much Could my eyes have encompassed her beauty? Could I have breathed in her passion? Would my weak limbs shake too much? Would she be more than what I imagined? My thoughts would drift to My Fire As she sat by the setting sun While waves silently were jealous Of this most beautiful one

Fantasy N...
Choc-litsweeter than Hersheysbetter than M&M'slast longer than an all day suckerdive into this choclit let it consume ulet it melt ova ulet it cover uthick, rich, creamymilk choc-litsmooth to the touchdesirable, wanting, needingam i urfantasy girlam i urchoc-lit covered fantasy

Start
she looks up at me unable to talkunable to speak. mouth gagged sweet lil mouthsmooth lipssensual lipssoft like baby skincan hear her soft moans soft whimperssoft sweet lipseyes searching my expressionmy movementmy voicei tugged at her collarher head jerks upnot knowing but very willingwaiting for eher hands are chainedthe weight of the chains keeps her from tryin to reach from trying to moveher leash is bound to short heavy leash keeps her head downkeeps her in that place the same placeshe moves tryin to get comfy again i pull the leash her head jerks upthis time i caress her her headher hairtell her how she is MY GIRLMY FAVORITEthat she is a GOOD GIRLbut she needs to be punishedas much as i don't want to it has to b donei chain her legs she would never runshe looks at meyearningwantinganticipatingmy next wishi have a special surprise for herher chained legs i move further apartcan c her pussy quivering...

Are Ppl On Fubar Really That Lame???
What in the fuck is going on??? People want to pay fake money ( fubucks ) for something that people bought that actually cost real money???? OMFG I am cracking up....Do people really do that on here swap fucking stupid computer made shit they bought for real money and stupid stuff only used for this site for fucking fake ass fu money.....please tell me this isnt so.......

Repost: Closed Profiles
While sitting in the lounge the other day...bickering with stupid people just to pass time, a comment was made in regards to "closed" profiles.This is something I don't understand. Why close your profile off to friends only? Profiles are there so that you can tell people a little bit about yourself, so people can see if maybe you have some common interests. The chances of meeting someone you would never otherwise meet are increased dramatically if they see that maybe there is some common ground. Some people are shy, some have a hard time finding something to open a conversation with...knowing a bit about you may help them open up those lines. And really...a private profile SCREAMS "leave me the hell alone I'm a very unfriendly person". Not the best first impression a person can make.Now, if you view it from a totally different point of view...when it comes to rating profiles...if you're one who cares about the 'point' system, it's rather hard to rate a profile if you can't see it. Due

Just How I Feel The Way I Was Made To Be
I am with someone and yet so very alone the more I love her my heart grows sadder because I feel a need to be with my own kind I still feel lost in a society that is supposed to be mature open minded yet I still hurt I love her and it would hurt to see her walk out of my life What is the most painful is I need him the one special person that will hold me and love me with all his heart unconditionally I am not selfish or greedy I just want to be whole when only half of me has the love I need and that seems unfair to her because it is she is a straight girl in love with a bi guy I cherish her for that she still can and will love me knowing I need a man to love also in my life. I guess I am pretty good at keeping a secret I've held this one since grade school and always felt I was different than the other kids and not sure why all I did know is that when the girls would talk about the guys mostly no matter what they would say I felt they knew some how w

Women Are The New Man
Women are the new men For far too long, we have allowed the male species to assume that they rule the world. That they are somehow more essential to us breathing oxygen than vice versa But the fact of the matter is that pussy, not dick, controls everything under the sun. Men will rob, steal, cheat, murder and even go to war over pussy. They still do not think we do not realize it. The days of women taking any kind of bitchassness from men are over. We are independent, successful, brilliant, and a thousand times more essential than them. Fuck a man shortage Fuck bowing down and submissive. We will do what we want, when we want, and no one will tell us any different.

Leveling....
What is the deal with all the higher level people helping each other level up? I spend way too much time rating photos and voting mums to really enjoy the fun stuff.If those that are higher levels helped those way down here ,we could all have a good time instead of getting headaches and clicker finger spasms! So when ever u wonder what happened to some of the people that don't come around here much...ask yourself what u did to make their visit here fun.....help when u can...and stop making fun of those who ask....they are only tired not begging!!!!

Yours Alone
Yours Alone Your heart beats against my skin as we hold each other close. My desires burn deep For I want and need you like never before "Take me please..." this I beg Let me be yours in every way Tease my body, take me higher- Bring me to sweet ecstasy! Wantonly, I move against you Crawling over your body, I rise above you I rock against you gently to savor every sensation. Hot to the touch, you make me moan At your expert touch, I scream out my pleasure Sated, I collapse against you... A single thought repeats through my being: "I am Yours... Yours alone... because You are my everything."

Doctors??
ok, here it goes, tell me how an 84 yr old woman who has survived breast cancer for over 20 yrs, colon cancer in which they removed a large piece of her colon and sewed it back together. the death of a child and her husband, most of her brothers and sisters, can walk into a hospital, and sit for 12 1/2 hours before she is actually looked at, with enormous pain and swelling of her extremities, a unkown type of rash, that after 7 days the doctors still havent concluded what it is!!! she was admitted and treated for 3 days the swelling and rash lightened up, they sent her home the very next day back to the same ... swelling pain, rash has spread further. and they still havent conclusively diagnosed her!! now my problem is .... this is my mother firstly, and how do you send a ederly woman who has these symptoms, and pain, home when you havent cured the symptoms to begin with only lessened them !!! i am soo frustrated!! now the best part its what they " THINK" it might be is vasculitus, wh

Funny Text Messages
1.(214): so he went down on me and i thought i heard him say "you're smelly" to my vagina (214): i got awkward and finally asked him what he said (214): he actually said "you want some dick?" to my vagina. which is worse? either way he's talking to it 2.(817): After 4 hours of foreplay he passed out and almost immediately peed in my bed. Naked. Like a fountain. Then tried to deny it in the morning by saying he just sweats a lot. 3.(617): i would really appreciate it if you would stop texting my girlfriend. (508): i would really appreciate it if you would stop cock blocking me. 4.(805): he just sent me a friend request on facebook. i wish it were physically possible to vomit on him through the internet. 5.(717): he made me salute his american flag boxers before i took them off 6.(916): How do you know one of your one night stands hasn't produced a child? You may have hundreds of kids. (1-916): Pretty sure I don't. One night stands are purely anal..no exceptions. 7.(202): therell b

Everone Plz Read An Pass This On
We love our family... and one of our family needs you.A great friend and fellow fu member needs all of our thoughts and prayers.His mom is very ill after heart surgery with a poor prognosis, so please send his mom and him all your love and prayers, they both need them very much!Loveable Teddy Bear R/L BF and Madly in LOVE w/ HolliSugaTits@ fubar

Bang, Crash, Burn...
Bang, dead in my head Crash, break my bones Burn, damage is done Strap down, hold me I scream, my heart Don't know, my mind Cover me, dirty lie Bury me, body gone Look at me, go away Nothing left, fear is gone Stay with me, pray Come undone, deep inside Say the words, heal me Infected blood, are you inside Killing time, Can't do this alone Pressure, rising Tear away, me from me Take me, end times here

Hrm
I'm told pretty much on a daily basis that I look younger than I really am. Except for today. =/ A guy at work, out of no where, asked me how old I was. Then he said he'd guess but he was afraid he'd be wrong. So when he said that I asked him if he thought he'd guess younger or older. He said younger. He then tells me he'll guess by the decades. He looks like he's thinking and he says "thirties". Okay, fine. I am in that decade. Then when I tell him to just give me a guess he says..."mid-thirties". ....and that's guessing YOUNGER than he thinks I am. Jesus, how old does he think I look!!!? [/dies]

I Am Very Fortunate ...
So I blogged in Feb about my company dissolving it's Arizona branch. I freaked out at first, then calmed a little and now I just feel so blessed. I have worked for the company for 5 years in September. I am a hell of a good worker, but sometimes slack off, take too many sick days and get bad reviews on calls. Even with my many faults, my boss and her boss have chosen to keep me. I am the only person who was working for the Arizona branch, in Arizona to still have a job. The other reps that worked for the Arizona branch are in Oregon and Washington and not really affected. Being a telecommuter I am supposed to be w/in 100 miles of an office. In case something happens with my systems, I can go into work rather than be offline. Anyway, my point. Today my boss called me to inform me that they have moved me from being an Arizona employee to being a Washington employee and this move is going to affect my accrued PTO. Fine, not a problem. As she is telling me all the things

Coming Soon
SO MOBB DECIDED TO MAKE A STATION AND A LOUNGE AT THAT ! WE WILL BE LIVE 24/7 PLAYING RAP,HIPHOP,OLD SKOOL, RnB, DANCEHALL,CLASSIC ROCK AND WILL BE HAVING LATIN NIGHTS ( REGGAETON ) ! THERE ARE 4 LIVE CAMS ! THE LOUNGE WILL BE INVITE ONLY THAT MEANS YOU CAN ONLY BE INVITED ! NO BULLIES EXCEPT FOR PROMOTE ! PLEASE RSVP BY LEAVING A COMMENT ! WE ARE HIRING DEDICATED STAFF RIGHT NOW SO IF YOU WANNA WORK HERE YOU WILL HAVE TO PRIVATE MESSAGE ME OR THE OWNER ! WE ARE HOPING TO GET THIS OPENED BY AUGUST SO BE PATIENT ALL ! AND AGAIN MAKE SURE TO RSVP BY LEAVING COMMENT THANK YOU ! FROM THE OWNERS MoBB & STARLITE !

Waves
We all go through different things in our lives with many feelings and emotions attached to each situation. We can deny ourselves of this or choose to embrace whatever comes up. Pain is one of these where some will cover it up escaping it any way they can so they don't have to look at what it really is. If we choose to allow it to work through us we can walk with it exploring and becoming friends. It can take us too many levels. Are we wanting this or do we want to stay stuck in our zones? Any thought is followed by an action then a feeling. There is always hope and a light that is out there when we have a glimmer to at least try and see it. When we look deep inside of ourselves in our soul many things happen and it takes us to a world that some may not even know is there. What is the difference between self pity and empathy? It is huge for instance feeling sorry for ourselves or someone doesn't get us anywhere. Empathy is about compassion and caring about someone which is like unco

You Know What?
You know what? I have something to tell you and I don’t know how to begin to explain what I have inside. I just don’t seem to find the words, neither a verse nor a prose, maybe a rose could show you. The thing is, that I don’t know how, but since you showed up my heart started to sing. I want to tell you that I’m crazy about you and in this rose I’m giving you my life. I give thanks to heaven for meeting you and I’m telling the stars how beautiful I felt that day.

For Those Reading!!!!
FML is a website that i get these off of.. they no way have anything to do with me LOL i have had a couple of people ask me... ok i dont take nakey pics with my cell phone then sell it on ebay... i dont hump pillows in my sleep... LOL... just so you guys know! take it easy!

In Case U Didnt Know
Which day are there more collect calls than any other day of the year? A. Father's Day --------------------------------------------------- The State with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska -------------------------------------------

Phone Boning
Ok I know that this is a touchy subject, but what is the big deal on phone boning if you care about one another? Look this is how I feel about it. I feel that if you and that other person are into each other then phone boning them is fine. I don't feel that people who claim that they are into one another should be thinking about doing that with anyone other than the person they are very much into. It is obvious that if they are doing it with other's then they were not into one another to begin with. Stop being a prude and learn to live life the right way. Now go and have some fun!!

Cater To Your Man
I awake to in your maids costume smiling at me. U have a drink in one hand and a towel in the other. I begin to ask "what is going on" but before I can u put one finger to my lips and just shake your head slowly side to side as if to tell me not to talk. It is a saturday morning so no work for either of us. U pass me the glass and sit at the foot of the bed til i finish it. U take me by the hand into the bathroom. U start the shower as I brush my teeth. I feel a kiss on my cheek and u briefly exit the room. U come back in and slowly remove my shirt then get down and remove my boxer briefs. I turn to u and all wear now are thigh high stockings (black with lace top). We both climb into the shower and u begin to wash me starting with my back. U work your way down the back of my legs. I turn around and look into your beautiful eyes. U kiss me then begin to wash my chest. As u work your way down u see I am slightly aroused. U say "I may have to take care of that." As u finish washing

Own Echo
Listen to the night where the sounds take flight This is my time every night it's the same it's my thoughts I can't tame I build empires trying to fulfil my desires listen to the night it's where you know you can hear your own echo

I Know My Type , Can You Guess It?
Almost all Japanese are aware of their blood type. The idea began when some in the west were touting the idea that the asian peoples were more closely related to animals then humans, or lower on the evolutionary chain, since type B blood was the predominant blood type in asians and animals. As ludicrous and unscientific as this idea was, it was insulting to say the least. Modern science disproves this obviously faulted idea. In the 1930's Furukawa Takeji (1891-1940) set out to disprove this notion and a new idea was born. However, the idea of personality traits being influenced by blood type remains. Companies in Japan even had divided workers by blood type. Here are the general ideas of each blood type. The Rh factor plays no role in the blood type/personality idea: Type O You are the social butterflies. Often popular and self-confident, you are very creative and always seem to be the center of attention. You make a good impression on people and you're often quite attractive. Orga

Frustrated!
I NEED HELP! FOR YEARS NOW I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT A WOMAN'S WORTH!! I MEAN MY KIDS ARE GETTING OLDER & NOT WANTING TO HANG OUT WITH DAD ANYMORE & AT TIMES IT DOES GET LONELY. I HAVE NEVER BEEN MARRIED & IN REALITY AM TERRIFIED OF IT. AS I GET OLDER I WANT TO BE IN IT FOR LONGIVTIY NOT A ONE NIGHTER OR JUST AROUND TO SATIFY THE NEEDS. FUCK THAT! TIRED OF IT! DID IT FOR TOO MANY YEARS! I HAVE READ BOOKS, WATCHED MOVIES, WATCH THE OXYGEN & LIFETIME NETWORKS BUT I DON'T GET IT! THEY JUST SHOW THE UGLY STUFF & THAT'S NOT ME - NO WAY SHAPE OF FORM!! I NEED POINTERS NOW REMEMBER I'M A TALKING GORILLA SO I DON'T HAVE A LOT TO WORK WITH. BUT ANY IDEAS WOULD BE APRRECIATED. THANK YOU! COMMENT OR MESSAGE ME WITH YOUR ADVICE PLEASE & THANK YOU!!!

The Games Begin
THE GAMES BEGIN Just when you think You can let your guard down And start living again….. The games begin. The masks are donned. The lies are camouflaged with interest. The colloquy becomes an imaginative banter. The games begin. The smiles, the body language, the affection, The actions, the reactions…. Is it genuine or a learned art? The games begin. And then, when the comfort is back And the armor has disintegrated… A lesson is learned again, the hard way The game has now ended… The best player has won And the loser again builds the walls Retreats into the comfort of solitude&helli

It's About The Sex Survey...
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO ME WITH YOUR ANSWERS. DON'T BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. EVEN IF YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND OR HUSBAND OR WIFE OR S.O.

Choices
4 BIDDEN CHOICE CHOCK LIT OR BUTTERFLIESBUTTERFLIES OR CHOCK LITYELLOW N PINK N BROWNOR BROWN N PINK N YELLOWSMALL LARGE GIGANTICLITTLE BIG GIANT SIZE DOES MATTEROR WAT MATTERS IS SIZETOUCH HOL GRAB TIGHTLYLIGHTLY HOL GENTLY RUBSQUEEZE BITE PINCHHARD ROUND POINTYMILK DUDS LUSCIOUS NO NEED TO RUSH THERE IS NO HURRYSAVOR ENJOY

4 Bidden Present
4 Bidden Present he jus called. it's almost my birthday! most times we jus cuddle n watch movies bringin n New Year's/ My Birthday with Dick Clark. Ok we start out watchin movies or Dick but after the first 10 minutes snuggle closer cuz i'm always cold. he becums a baby n starts sucking my nipple. sucs so hard i no milk is gonna squirt out. but tonight he tells me to get dressed. hmmm.....wat should i wear? It's winter here but no snow but its gonna get cold tonight. i'll work that out later after i take my long bath. I have my pet run my water n add the bubble think i try Mango got da body butter for Christmas. i get n it's soooo nice so relaxing. I lay my head back. seems like few minutes later but i no it had to b longer the water has started to cool. i can hear something can feel sum 1 standin ova me. i jerk my eyes open. o... its jus one of my pets. she wants to play. i tell her i can't play i gotta get dressed. she goes over to her mat n sits down.

Prayers For Zachary Lane
ZACHARY LANE NEEDS ALL THE PRAYERS HE CAN GET. HE IS ON HIS WAY TO NEW ORLEANS. I COULDN'T GO CAUSE I HAVE TO WORK. HIS SHUNT IS CLOGGED IN HIS STOMACH AND THEY HAVE TO DO SURGERY ON HIM AGAIN. SO WILL YA'LL PLEASE PRAY THAT HE COMES HOME SAFE TO ME. THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH..

Sorrow
She died of a broken heart at age 16 Smeared make-up,and sorrowful tears.Stain the beautiful face,that he had promised to love for all his years.Her eyes are bloodshot,from hours of crying.He said he was in love,but the whole time he was lying.He used her and abused her,then just walked away.Shattering her broken heart,without remorse or dismay.She no longer had any will to live,and blood quickly covered the knife.Thanks to his selfish ways,at age 16 this beautiful girl took her life

Verse Cry
… I can’t see’em comin from my eyes, I gotta make the verse cry.. can’t hold this pain staining my brain, so I gotta make the verse cry… … their she goes as I said hello my names fuego, smiles of her face ending late night convo.. thoughts of us walks in parks the talks inking in her visual, traveling huge towns.. the sights, the tours, encoring more never soar or left in frowns.. sexy, independent, intelligent intellect, own money own thoughts what man wouldn’t want that.. won’t take a dime from me, every thought of her is how it’s suppose to be… … I can’t see’em comin from my eyes, so I gotta make the verse cry.. I can’t see it coming from my eyes.. the pain it stains my heart my brain, so I gotta make the verse cry.. …time goes fast tics on the clock goes the beat of my heart, knew it from the start we’d never part.. a team, a force a loves regimen making our mark.. who’d

Name Change
I remember when I was gettin my green card when I was 15, I was asked if I wanted to change my name to somethin else. I said yes, to Alice Cooper, but my mom totally flipped and told the dude that no, I'm not changin my name to anythin. Later, gettin my citizeneship when I was 22, they asked me the same qn, and I wanted a more American name. But hubby was like WTF no,lol Should I oficially change my name (Natasha) to Russian Foxx?

Never Again
never again. Current mood:heart broken never again will my heart ache,never again will i see your face,never again will there be love in your eyes,never again will i feel your embrace.never again will my heart beat,never again will heart heal,never again will my life be the same,never again will your love be real.never again will i love,never again you will be mine,never again will i kiss you,never again will i be fine.never again will we be the same,never again will we enjoy what he had,never again we will be together,and never again will i be sad.

This Gets Worse And Worse
This cemetary isn't too far from my house, so I drove past it today just to see. It was heartbreaking! The whole area is surrounded by Police Crime Scene tape. The side streets surrounding the cemetary are blocked off by Sherriffs, so only if you live there can you get in. Family members looking for relatives had to park about a block away and they bused them over. There were probably about 30 people being helped when we went past. The cemetary is closed to the public. Actually, another cemetary a block or so down was taped off as well. I don't know if there's any involvement at that cemetary or they just did it to keep the area free of gawkers. Overall, the cemetary appeared to be in good condition. The only really disturbing thing was there were white tents set up in several places. I don't know if these are areas that were affected or not. ALSIP, Illinois (CNN) -- A Cook County cemetery where hundreds of graves were dug up and allegedly resold has been declared a crime scene, meani

A Soldier's Thoughts...
Tick tock tick tock is all I hear as the seconds go by from the clock Waiting to finally head back to my family & friends at home At times it’s boring I need to keep busy so that I won’t feel all alone… This is the life of a soldier keeping it real and strong Some of them make it and some just feel like they don't belong Wanting to go back to civilization But they won't Cause It's in their blood to keep moving on Head up high and proud of their duties for this country… Fighting for our peace & freedom Take a look at them they stand out in a crowd Some may fear of what’s to come Their own tears will be held within Enemies are drawing near but they certainly won't hide I am forever grateful for these men & women of honor, integrity, and pride … May God Bless you all and your family Bring you back home safely …We have you in our thoughts, and deeply in our prayers.

Fate~~
Bound by silenceLost in the abyssInternal tortureThis pain I must endureTrapped behind your maskYou keep hidden your vile pastYour fake facadeYou didnt fool me for longI seen you in your worstIt was me that you hurtHow dare you sit there so proudWith you head in the cloudsYour fate is tied to meAnd your eternal blasphemyMy torture has come to an endAnd finally yours begins~~

Beauty
BEAUTYOFTEN I THINK OF A GLIDING UNDULATING CARESS... YES.. IT IS HERUMMMTHE SMELL OF HER HAIR, THE WAYS OF HER MOVEMENT YET, STILL IN STRIDE...OHHH SOOO SEXXYY CLOTHED OR NOT,THE WINDED OF A SERPENTS SLITHER ON EARTH, THE BOND OF A LEECH I AM TO HER FLESH.. WHEN I THINK OF THEBEAUTYOF HER, CAPSULED ABYSSED BLOOD RUSH, SHE FLOODS MY VEINS...MY TONGUE, IT FILLS..A VENOMUS VENT OF IONIC EXTOCIES CROWNING MY THOT MODESTLY UNFOLDING HEATED PASSIONS WITHBEAUTYCHARIOT A FIREYESA FIRETHE FIRE...A BEAUTY OF ANOTHER NO MORE BE FOUND, THE VAULTS OF LONGING LEFT BEHIND US AS ASHES OF BURNING LOVE NOW SOUND..YOU AND I IN AN EXOTIC INTIMATE PLACE, NONE...NO ONE... CAPTIVATES MY LOVE AS I EMBRACEYOURBEAUTYTEAR NO MORE AS WE HOLD EACH OTHERS SOUL THREW STRIFE, THREW THE INFLAMED HELLISH GATES OF MORTAL LIFE, IT ISBEAUTYDEVOURING TIME AND TIME AGAIN OUR SWEETNESS IN LOVE BONDED TOUCHES OF TRANSPIRING WINDS..WILLINGLY IN INSTANT CONSISTANT RAGES OF FIRE, MY FIRES FLAME INGAGES YOURBEAUTYI LIVE MORTAL A

Souls
When you bear your soul to someone, what do you expect? Will they see what you want to show them? Probably not. They will see what they want to see and not the whole. They will, depending on how they feel, about you or life in general, look for the parts. They will find the dark parts and tell you how foul you are. They will find the red of you angers, or the greens of your envies. But your soul in not a rainbow, white light split into colors. It is whole, the way you are, not the parts of you. It is more than the sum of the parts. When you find someone that will look at the soul and tell you truth of the total of what they see. Then. You have found a friend.

My Love K3wi
So i been on fubar for 6 yrs on and off, and i wasn't really looken for a girl..but shit happens..after a few i finaly found the one , that i can say that i can say .. i want to spend every sec wit . her name is k3wi on fu .. i love this girl so much .. i havn't feal this way in a very long time.. we have are times , just like every other relastionship has instore .. but we fix em and move on kinda.. she has done some shit that pissed me off, but i cant see my self wit out her in my life . i want to marry this girl .. i feal a spical bond beween us when we talk .. she make me happy , most of the time .. i really do love u k3w. When the time comes we will finaly meet and thats when the magic is goign to start .. i want to be thier for her , durign the times needed and not needed. i want to care about her, i want to cuddle wit her . at this point of my life ..iu cant see my self wit out K3wi thier for me .. my life feal unconplete wit out her thier . k3wi is my soul mate . and me and

A Question To Answer?
Last night I hooked up with this one guy I have been seeing on and off for awhile now, it is completely sexual! We went to the drive in and spent the whole time making out and fucking, we do this once every month or so and it is always a great time, he really hits my gspot. He usually drops me off at my place and takes off, but last night I invited him up for a drink and he came up. I live in a two flat, an old house converted to two apartments. My gf lives in apartment below, she lives there with her bf. Anyway, about a hour after I got home she came up and walked in. Me and my friend were hanging out watching a movie, he is into old b&w movies. She has met him before and never really seemed interested in him, saying he is too old for her! Last night was different, she was being playful with him and me. He got me aside and told me he would leave so her and me could have some alone time together! We walked back in room and b4 I could say anything she came up to me and kissed

Idk I Feel Like This Sometimes
have you ever had a feeling that you couldnt really explain. not scared or mad or happy but something else. like in your stomach is like a big ball of emotion and it just makes you want to cry? thats how i feel right now. i cant explain why. the smallest things hurt my feelings now. it doesnt matter who it is or anything i feel like crying all the time. im sad. and the worst part is. i honestly think that no one really cares. my friends see me as having fun and laughing but i think they cant handle this side of me or maybe they really just dont care if im unhappy. i hate my life the spot that im in right now. people think that its so easy being so carefree but actually i worry about so much. im always thinkin about things that happened so long ago and if i did something differently would it be different would i be different. life is strange. the things that come back to you. i cant remember alot of the good things but all the bad are right there lingering in my memory. and i know that

Motorcycle Riding And Sexuality
alright...how many of you all out there are motorcycle riders, or even passengers? Then you know of some of the most hilarious shit that we riders do out there-- for instance-- as with anything, you can find a sexual connection, IF your mind is dirty enough. For example, motorcycles have always had a subliminal connection with eroticism for example: 1. when motorcyclists take corners, we, "roll our hips and get low" 2. when we are traveling at a high rate of speed, we are "comin' in hot, fast, and heavy" 3. Front wheel "stoppies" are just like rough sex, "face to the ground, ass in the air" 4. and the last thing that binds motorcycle riding with sex.."the vibration you feel will cause your rods to tighten and lubrication to flow free, and get your engines hummin"

Things That Boggle My Mind
I have posted several blogs on the horrific tragedy at Burr Oak Cemetery which is near where I live. My mind can't seem to wrap about this. However, there is one fact that keeps bugging me. Where are the caskets?! I mean, as of now, 300 graves have been violated and destroyed. (That number is expected to rise.) They have found piles of human remains as well as broken up headstones and cement vaults. NO mention at all of the caskets. Not even in the photos. So, where the hell are they? Surely, if they were lying around SOMEONE would have seen them. We've all seen how big a casket is. Kinda hard to miss one not to mention 300! Maybe it's an odd point to bring up, but it just really makes me wonder.

You
you are my sun, my moon, you are my world. when we are together, everything seems to fall into place. i love you always, i love you forever. friends once, lovers now, what the future holds i do not know. my love is true, my love is pure. i loved you once, and i forever shall. you are my world. without you, i would have nothing.

Random Thoughts By Jack Handey
apparentely hes a real guy and that was actually him that read the quotes on SNL back in the day It takes a big man to cry, but it takes a bigger man to laugh at that man. One thing kids like is to be tricked. For instance, I was going to take my little nephew to Disneyland, but instead I drove him to an old burned-out warehouse. "Oh, no," I said. "Disneyland burned down." He cried and cried, but I think that deep down, he thought it was a pretty good joke. I started to drive over to the real Disneyland, but it was getting pretty late. Dad always thought laughter was the best medicine, which I guess is why several of us died of tuberculosis. Maybe in order to understand mankind, we have to look at the word itself: "Mankind". Basically, it's made up of two separate words - "mank" and "ind". What do these words mean ? It's a mystery, and that's why so is mankind. The face of a child can say it all, especially the mouth part of the face. If you define cowardice as running aw

Sleeping Leg
A lady had been exposed to strep and needed to visit the doctor's office just to have her throat swabbed for a culture. She sat in the waiting room for quite a while with her legs crossed, reading a magazine while other patients came and went. Suddenly her turn was called, but when she stood up to go in, she discovered her leg was "asleep". Not wanting to keep the nurse waiting, she limped and staggered toward the inner office door. She noticed one elderly lady nudging another who sat beside her, as the two of them sympathetically watched her painful progress . Two minutes later, her procedure completed and her leg back to normal, she walked easily back into the waiting room. As she strode past the two elderly ladies, she overheard one whisper triumphantly to the other, "See, Myrtle, I TOLD you he was a wonderful doctor!"

Investigation Underway
The grizzly work of the investigation is getting under way at Burr Oak Cemetery Monday morning, with an FBI forensic team starting with the most northern section of the grounds. Authorities begin to dig graves at the Burr Oak Cemetery, hoping to find evidence that the graves were previously disturbed. "The last memory they have has now been destroyed," said an attorney representing the families. That's where most of the grave disruption was initially observed, but the entire cemetery is closed and has been declared a crime scene. Much of the cemetery has a grid laid out with ropes and flags. There is a second active area that will be investigated next. Sheriff's officials could not say if there would be any digging, even though heavy excavation equipment arrived on site this morning. So far, it's only a "visual search" to identify graves that have been potentially disturbed. Officials believe as many as 300 graves were dug up at Burr Oak and the bodies disposed of in a scheme by

Glenn's Rant On Idiots, Fu-marriage, And Blunt Lil Tools
now this usually isnt my style, and I'm very passive on the subjects of idiots and fu-marriage, but with some of the stark, raving, lunatic motherfuckers that I've seen acting half their age on here, I just HAVE to speak out first-- GET A FUCKING LIFE YOU PANSY ASSED MOTHERFUCKERS!!!! its fu marriage!!! c'mon people..dont start blocking people just because theyre getting close to your fu-wifey (hey if she's a hottie, its your fault, you knew this would happen) second, Why the fuck are all these idiots running around calling us haters, just because we have the balls to post rather smart assed replies to their status messages....OMG get this... some jackass called Luvbaby, calls ME a hater simply because I was heaping tons of praise, props and flirting massively with his fu-wife (whom, yes I happen to adore big time) GROW THE FUCK UP, man!!! you say you dont want to cause any drama, YOU HAVE!!! LOL so here's a double fisted shot of RED HOT PUSSY LIQUOR...IN YOUR FACE!!!! LOL

From Tommylee
(From my friend tommylee in a message here. I loved it so much and thought again I would share..and he calls himself a loser and he is farm from that.. he is a sweetheart that I have grown to care about) "Look most guy's on sites like this are just assholes and losers who cant get a girl in real life so they come on here. They think if they talk to u 1 or 2 times ur there girl .There are some nice guy's out here that just want friends plz don't let assholes run u off here. I know i really dont know u but u seem to be a sweet and fun girl and just so u know Im the loser type on sites like this who is to shy to talk to girls in real life and on here. If u do go it was nice to try getting to know ya bye"

Read
We don't care if you talk to other guys.We don't care if you're friends with other guys.But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't waittill the morning.Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.Yeah, you can quote me.Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in.let us pay for you!dont "feel bad"We enjoy doing it.It's expected.Smile and say "thank you."Kiss us when no one's watching.If you kiss us when you know somebody's

I Want That
Find the guy who calls you BEAUTIFUL, instead of hot.Wait for the man who kisses your forehead.Who wants to show you off to the world.Who thinks you are just as pretty without makeup.One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares, and loves you, and how he is the luckiest guy in the world to have you.The one that turns to his friends and says "that's her"

Tagged...random Facts Game
1. I am the 2nd oldest of 6 kids in my family 2. I hate the sound, feel and sight of cottonaballs ..it gives me chillsall over my body 3. Chicken Parm or Steak are my favorite foods 4. My kids are my heart with little arms and legs 5. I love to bake 6. I plan to go back to school someday ( hopefully that comes soon ) 7. I would love to travel more 8. I have no will power when it comes to ice cream or chocolate cake 9. I like doing dishes and washing laundry 10. I hope to feel what it is like to be really loved by a man before I need a walker and depends lol Completed just for you my friend Kimberly !

My Resident Evil Picture Folder
YES I AM BRAGGING LOL!!! This is how I roll baby!!! 1, (Game discs) Resident Evil: Director's Cut (PSX), Resident Evil: Director's Cut (Greatest Hits Dual Shock Edition), Resident Evil Uncut (PC), Resident Evil 2 Demo (PSX), Resident Evil 2 (DC), Resident Evil 3: Nemesis Demo (PSX), Resident Evil 3: Nemesis (DC), Resident Evil CODE: Veronica (DC), Resident Evil CODE: Veronica X (Greatest Hits) (PS2), Resident Evil Survivor (PSX), Resident Evil: Dead Aim (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak File.. 2 (PS2), Resident Evil (GCN), Resident Evil ZERO (GCN), Resident Evil 4 (GCN), Resident Evil 4 Demo (GCN), Resident Evil 4 (PS2).Not pictured: Marvel Vs. Capcom 2 (PS2), Under The Skin (PS2), and Resident Evil Gaiden (GBC). 2, Resident Evil Uncut (PC), Resident Evil (GCN), Resident Evil ZERO (GCN), Resident Evil CODE: Veronica X (Greatest Hits) (PS2), Resident Evil: Dead Aim (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak File.. 2 (PS2), Marvel Vs. Capcom 2

Help A Girl Out?
I have been craving that spotlight since I started on fu.I would loooove so much if I could get it.I can only get it on wednesday's since I am above level 25. Please! Please! If you can spare any fubucks I will be more then appreciative.Anyone who donates over 1 million will recieve one safe for work salute from me.Can I do this? I believe that with the awesome friends I have I'll be able to get spotlight.Help a girl out? Thanks Sabbath74,Brokeass,and Silveroak for being awesome friends and helping me out. If not I will have to cut off all your heads.=) J/k J/k.

Projection
Projections are our forte, but also our downfall. Our imaginations play tricks on us. How many entities, separate and distinct from ourselves, have been mistaken in nearsighted folly? If we, like Narcissus, cannot see the pond for our reflection, how can we know the depths beyond our skin? How can we hope to distinguish marshland from mirage? Mermaid from manatee? Lingcod from Loch Ness Monster? Friend from foe? Projections are meant to inform us about the Eden outside the sheath of our flesh, but more often they describe the interior into which we've been exiled.

Attempting To Id
The Cook County Sheriff's Office and FBI are conducting a methodical survey of Burr Oak Cemetery, which is being treated as an enormous crime scene since allegations of illegal body dumping and burials surfaced. The Cook County Sheriff's Department and the FBI will continue working side by side Tuesday to try to identify every single body at Burr Oak Cemetery, one grave at a time. CBS 2's Susan Carlson reports that work at one of the largest crime scenes in the history of the county will begin at 8 a.m. this morning when investigators will be sweeping over 100,000 grave sites. The cemetery has been closed to the public while investigators sort out the massive crime scene. Sheriff's employees have already begun brushing off and photographing headstones in preparation for today's shoulder-to-shoulder search. They're looking for every headstone and every grave to find any more that may have been disturbed. Meanwhile, investigators in the cemetery office and FBI agents will

How It Happen?
How it happen? I don’t know how to tell you how it occurred. I can’t even explain it to myself, but I fell in love with you. It was a light that illuminated my soul, your laugh as a fountain that irrigated my life with impatience. It was your eyes or your lips, your hands or your voice; maybe it was the impatience to see you.

His Shirt.
I miss the shirt in the closet.Walking up to it and smelling him on it. I miss the shoes by the bed and his stupid socks on the floor.The warmth of his body next to mine.His kisses on my neck and his arms around my waist.I don't know who he is,but I miss him so.

Pain
Pain reminds us that we still feel.Pain tells us we can still love.It shapes us, rips us and drivesus insane.It doesn't have to scar us forever,but justbe a reminder of something we once hand and then lost.Hold your head high and walk with grace and never show the pain on your face.

Reflections..orginally Written 7/24/08
When I look into this mirror I don't see the same person I used to be. If you could see the reflection that I see, yes it is the image of me but far away from just plain ole me. I can see thru my eyes who I used to be it tells me to get back to me. I look at my reflection tryin to bring back the recollection of what I once knew as this great connection. I look into this mirror and trying to get back to my old self because somehow it mistakenly got put back on the shelf. I look at my reflection racking my brain trying to figure out how to take away the pain. I look in the mirror knowing that, this ain't me! You know who you are and what God came for you to be. I look at my reflection and I by no means do I want you to keep guessing, because I can't keep you stressin. I look into this mirror I see you there but off in the distance, but when I beckon you, you're not resistant. I look at my reflection thinking why have you been feeling neglected, you don't have to fear for who

I'm Not Perving On You!
Okay, to get this out there, so it's understood....if I rate the hell out of your pics, admire you, gift you, give props to you, pimp you out, or anything like that....rest easy. You have not gained a stalker, I'm not skeezing on you, no need to vomit. I'm the type of person that goes out of his way to treat people nice because that is what makes me happy. I like to be attentive to my friends and family and I am. If you feel uncomfortable with my level of attention, flirting, the way I talk to you, tell me, I'll respect that not everyone can be comfortable with how I interact with them. I'll do my best to bring my attention to a comfortable level for you. It's that simple! If I think you are good looking or sexy or funny....I'll say so. I LOVE to flirt, I LOVE attention. You say to back off, I will. However, just because I flirt with you doesn't mean I'm interested in a relationship beyond friendship with you. It means you are a hot friend of mine and worth being treated like you are

Fun And Intersting Suicide Ideas.
Depressed? Thinking of jumping off a road bridge into the great beyond? DONT! Firstly, just think of the impact this will have on the traffic, did you think of that? No? Didn’t think so. Just because you feel like dying doesn’t mean others should have to suffer.Secondly, throwing yourself off a road bridge is common and dull, don’t even think of cutting yourself either (stupid emo...) what you need is something fun, and interesting, maybe even amusing to watch. What you need to do is read this article, it will teach you everything you need to know.So put that noose away, pull the loaded pistol away from your face, take your head out of the oven. You should be happy and take pride in your suicide.Contents * 1 The AOPSFAIWTCS * 2 Rules for a fun and interesting death * 3 Official Scoring * 4 Members * 5 See also The AOPSFAIWTCSFor starters, we are very twisted and weird people for coming up with this so hopefully you didn't come here seeking help. You wil

Walls
Day after day and night after night I sit here. Why am I consumed with this all encompassing sense of empty sadness? At night I can hear all the nocturnal sounds... crickets making their endless chirping – coyotes calling to each other – the horses making their habitual demands. I am surrounded by life but none which can touch me. So, I sit and I wait. Eventually I allow my imagination to roam across the wall of my prison. I start at the far upper left corner of the wall and make a tracing pattern across to the opposite end. Then back again to the other side…. back and forth until the pattern is completed on each wall. The scrutiny of my eyes seek out each and every flaw to be uncovered. Why do I look for flaws? I know there are flaws. I've seen them a million times over. Yet, here I sit waiting and watching and listening.

This Is What Everyone Should Think About
My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce old memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?

All Your Prayers Needed
To all my friends, i just learned that my brother in-law has been taken to the hospital. He had a bad seizure this afternoon, and was experiencing bad chest pains. So please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. He's not doing well at all. Thanks so much, hippy

Card Name
Those of us who worked at the front desk of a convention hotel in Williamsburg, Va., prided ourselves on making the guests feel special. When someone arrived at reception, credit card in hand, we would sneak a peek at it and address him by name. Once during a particularly busy check-in, one of our guests presented a corporate credit card. "Welcome to Williamsburg, Mr. Bell," the desk clerk said. "Oh, please," the man replied, "call me Taco."

Don't Forget To Wipe!
OK, WTF is the deal with people talking on cell phones while in public restrooms? I don't mean standing around in them admiring themselves in the mirror, I'm talking about in the stall, on the can, full on colon blow in effect. I mean come on, you couldn't NOT answer the phone and let it go to voicemail? You can't wait the 5 minutes you'll be in there to make that "important" call? Maybe it was important you say? I travel alot, trust me, it wasn't important. I've heard everything from conversations about the weather to what kind of meal they planned to eat when they got done doing their business. One time I even heard what must have been a businessman planning a meeting with a customer - in between copius amounts of plop plop . Here's a hint people: Many cell phones pick up background noise very well. Personally I hate what the cell phone have brought to the table. It is a lack of manners wrapped up in a package of convenience and responsibility. Just because they have wormed their

Tag You're It! Tagged By Kimberly-- Plain -n- Simple
Tag your it Blog game, I've been tagged to share 10 Random facts about myself, in the end I will choose 5 friends who will be Tagged for the Tag You're IT game, so keep it going! Share 10 Random Facts, goals, Habits about yourself then tag 5 of your friends to keep things going. HAVE FUN! 1-I hate the tag you're it game. Ha! 2-I have lived within the same 20 mile area all my life. Yes...it's been a long time...yes I need to get out more....I heard once that the earth was flat...is it true? 3-I have no fear of bees....I was stung once in my life. I tried to catch it with my hand....hey - I was 3 years old... 4-I don't have a sweet tooth....it magically disappeared when they stopped making the Bar-none candy bar....coincidence? 5-My musical tastes run the full spectrum of the music world. I like anything except possibly rap. My 4000+ CD collection proves it! 6- I am planning to attempt snowboarding this coming winter. I must check my medical coverage firs

My Veins Have No Blood...
MY VEINS HAVE NO BLOOD Current mood: disappointed FUNNY HOW I HAVE 2 BLOOD RELATED SISTAS..& 100'S OF RELATIVES..YET FEEL NO BLOOD RUNNING THRU MY VEINS...THEY SAY BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER..IM FEELING LIKE A VAMPIRE..YEARNING THE TASTE OF BLOOD...BUT...I GUESS WATER WILL SUFFICE 2 QUENCH MY THIRST...MY PRIDE..MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS..MY GOALS...MY HOPES N MY DREAMS WILL NOT BE SHATTERED BY IGNORANCE..SELF RIGHTEOUSNESS..N RIDICULE BY THOSE THAT SHARE MY BLOOD IN THEIR VEINS..REGARDLESS OF WHOM THEY MAY BE....THEREFORE WITH DEEP HEAVINESS IN MY SOUL....I WILL STEP BACK N ELIMINATE THOSE THAT CAUSE ME SUCH DISREGARD & NEGATIVITY TO MY PERSONA...IVE MADE A DECISION 2 ELIMINATE THOSE THAT DEGRADE ME....THAT FROWN UPON ME...THAT TRY TO EVAPORATE MY SELF ESTEEM TO UTTER NOTHINGNESS..I LOVE MYSELF!!!!....WHETHER I CHANGE THE COLOR OF MY HAIR..LOSE OR GAIN WEIGHT...BOUGHT A PAIR OF $100 JEANS OR $15 JEANS...$20 PAYLESS SNEAKERS...OR THE LATEST PAIR OF NAME BRAND SNEAKERS...HAVE A HOUSE..

Sexiest Woman On Fu Contest
hey everyone i was bored last night so decided to enter in the sexiest woman of fu contest--- yea i know!! lol Come vote for your girl PLEASE!!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=3175330&albumid=1769828&i=1603052158&idx=3 thank you VERY much in advance!! Vote MANY times as you can!! HUGZ

In Loves Name We Play
We walk along our way, never stray apart. Looking from the day, in which we had start. Never ever play, one anothers heart. Begging each to stay, making love an art. To our God we pray, for us not to part. Nor fade to grey, nor turn to dark.

I Cant End This Tell Me How....
When is sacrifice torture Private could not believe what has happen in the last 48 hours. Even survival seems unmanageable when you think of the war torn baron landscape that he has driven thru. What on Gods creation did this once beautiful landscape blasphemes to deserve unrelenting decimation? His thoughts did even consider the people that once inhabited the once utopian valley since it was hard to imagine that anything could exist in the dirt scorched nothingness that now exists. What in the fuck could bring so much destruction to such beauty? But as this thought crossed his consciousness he already knew the answer. Pvt. Gin sits down on a pile of debris that once used to be the place of praise. The have taken this place back from tyranny but at what cost? Two days have past but he is the sole survivor of his platoon. His family is gone as well all taken in the flame the consumed his land just like this one. All of this wells up within him. And this war hardened and batte

A Womans Poem
He didn't like the casseroleAnd he didn't like my cake,He said my biscuits were too hardNot like his mother used to make. I didn't perk the coffee rightHe didn't like the stew,I didn't mend his socksThe way his mother used to do. I pondered for an answerI was looking for a clue. Then I turned andsmacked the shit out of him...Like his mother used to do.

New Blog Setup..feedback Please
Hi Everyone. Our magazine is finally caught up with things and we have launched teh company blog. If you have a few min check it out and let me know what you think. Gotta warn you its full of hustler chicks doing all sorts of naughty things. Paganman Blog Thanks for reading. Vlad PS any feedback gets a free gift :P

Pre-booty Call Agreement (feel Free To Fill This Out)
PRE-BOOTY CALL AGREEMENT This pre-booty call agreement (hereinafter referred to as the "Agreement") is entered into on the day of_____ , 2009, by , between________ and__________ . THIS AGREEMENT SHALL COVER THE FOLLOWING RULES AND PRINCIPLES: No sleeping over - unless it is very good and we need to repeat it in the morning. No meeting in public except for dinner or drinks before the events of the evening No calls before 9 PM - we don't have shit to talk about. None of that "lovemaking" shit - only sex allowed. No emotional discussions (i.e. Where are we heading with this? Do you love me?) Theanswer is no, so don't ask. No plans made in advance - that is why you are called the "backup," unless you arefrom out-of-town, then it's only a one-time advanced arrangement. No calling each other "friends with privileges" we are not friends, just sex buddies. Calling out the wrong name during sex is OK - don't be offended. No extra clothing - I don't want your ass leaving

Here We Go Again
So I'm still asking my friends If they will help me get the spotlight!I really want it badly!I only have 20 million raised towards the fund and looking at today's spotlight of 180 million well I have a long ways to go.I have helped numereous people with their spotlight fund and only 4 people have helped me in return.That isn't good Karma now is it?Lol.Please find it in your heart to help out a friend and if you ever need help with spotlight I will help you.I try to be a good friend to everyone.I know I can't please everyone when I have thousands of friends but I try.Please help if you can.=)

Harley Rider And A Cop
A cop stops a Harley for traveling faster than the posted speed limit and asks the biker his name. 'Fred,' the biker replies. 'Fred what?' the officer asks. 'Just Fred,' the biker responds. The officer is in a good mood and thinks he might just give the biker a break and, write him out a warning instead of a ticket. The officer then presses him for the last name. The biker tells him that he used to have a last name but lost it. The officer thinks that he has a nut case on his hands but plays along with it. 'Tell me, Fred, how did you lose your last name?' The biker replies, 'It's a long story, so stay with me. I was born Fred Dingaling. I know - a funny last name. The kids used to tease me all the time, so I stayed to myself, studied hard and got good grades. When I got older, I realized that I wanted to be a doctor. I went through college, medical school, internship, residency, and finally got my degree, so I was Fred Dingaling, M.D. After a while I got bored being a doctor, so I deci

You Are So Beautiful
You are so beautiful, how gorgeous you are, it is true that in my lifetime I have not seen a doll that is prettier than you. You are so pretty, how gorgeous you are, it is true that when I am by your side I feel closer to God. You are so divine, so stunning and exquisite, that only a falling rose from heaven can equal you.

Dreams
DreamVoid of color, of lightThe night sky no longer the same.I lay under the stars,Why do you tease me so?Forsaken again,My mind wanders.The screams pierce the air.Anguish unknown to most,Pain caused by two words.Nay, not words, but two worlds.Ours and reality, both lost.A foolish dream, Our dance with Satan.A dream of Love.With a dancing core,Flames burn the edge.The dream I dreamt,Now consumed by flame.This particular poem of mine is very special to me. What you see is how it came to me. In a way, it might seem harsh but after reading it I want you to think about the last time you hurt. Remember what it was like, then read it again. Anyway, I hope to get some feed back, and remember that I love you all.

It's Another Random Survey...
If you were a robot, what would your prime function be? To fill eclairs with white creamy goodness... Does a crowded elevator smell different to a midget? Only if his allergies aren't acting up. Is this question true or false? Red...no, blue! Can I borrow a dollar? How about 100 pennies? What is the largest thing you have set on fire? a sectional couch Can you spell backwards? b a c k w a r d s...now where's my prize? Would you bite someone in a fight? Like a dog gnawing on his favourite chew toy Can I borrow a dollar again? geez...hands you 5 pennies, 2 nickels, 7 dimes, and a quarter. Can I smack you with a burning cat? yep, for sure Why? Doesn't everyone love a hot pussy? Say something you don't know: something I dont know (nice answer Crystal!) I'm thinking of a number between 1 and 10. What is it? a number, duh... Sorry, that was wrong, try again... No, I'm pretty sure it's a number. When was the last time you showered? (phew!) Rhetorical ques

Where Does This Leave Us, O Singer?
Why do we so frequently think of people in terms of our consumption. We are consumers, yes, but not merely so. The question should not be "How do we marginalize and ignore and demean this person we do not like or do not want?" but "What is wrong with us that we do not want, appreciate, or love this person?" The abominable Peter Singer has said that, given the choice in a fire to save a kennel full of beloved dogs, a clinic full of newborns, and an orphanage full of unwanted children, he would save the dogs. Such is the display of self-indulging desires and conditioned love on the part of whoremaster man (as Shakespeare termed him). He sins first by not wanting those who need his love, and then justifies disposing of them by saying that, well, he does not want them. We need to grant people what we owe them. And sometimes, beyond that, simply do what is good to another.

Michael Who???? Wtf?
Nice to hear this from a Soldier in IRAQ ........... To Jar our western perspective and values............ THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ . I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson . As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villain to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant.. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the American people find the need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood, and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing? Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all of a sudden he's a freaking martyr because he entertained us fo

Dream
Dream with the morning and a new world to come, have faith because is very possible if you are determined. Dream that there are no borders and love without barriers, please don’t look back. Live with the emotion of feeling again, to live in peace. In your way, sow a new destiny and the sun will shine again. Where the souls are united in light, then goodness and love will be reborn. The day that we find that dream you will change, no one will be able to destroy the truth from your soul.

A Soldiers Thoughts On Micheal Jacksons Death
A Soldier's View of Michael Jackson's Death This is written by a young man serving his third tour of duty in Iraq .Thought you might find his take on the Michael Jackson news interesting............. ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... ......... .........Okay, I need to rant.I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on MichaelJackson. As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was anentertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spentmillions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to manypeople. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, andI respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the pointof my rant.Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses theirminds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to thecountry was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need toflock to a memorial in Hollywood , and even Congress sees the need tohold a "moment of silence" fo

Could I Have This Dance - Anne Murray
I just love this song, I learnt it and now I can actually sing it. It's moving! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'll always remember the song they were playin'The first time we danced and I knewAs we swayed to the music and held to each otherI fell in love with you CHORUS:Could I have this dance for the rest of my lifeWould you be my partner every nightWhen we're together it feels so rightCould I have this dance for the rest of my life I'll always remember that magic momentWhen I held you close to meAs we moved together, I knew foreverYou're all I'll ever need. REPEAT CHORUS REPEAT CHORUS

Why Guys Like Girls
Here are a few reasonswhy guys like girls:1.They will always smell goodeven if its just shampoo2.The way their heads alwaysfind the right spot on our shoulder3.How cute they look when they sleep4.The ease in which they fit into our arms5.The way they kiss you and all of a suddeneverything is right in the world6.How cute they are when they eat7.The way they take hoursto get dressed but in the endit makes it all worth while8.Because they are always warmeven when its minus 30 outside9.The way they look goodno matter what they wear10.The way they fish for complimentseven though you both know that youthink she's the most beautiful thing on this earth11.How cute they are when they argue12.The way her hand always finds yours13.The way they smile14.The way you feel when you see their nameon the call ID after you just had a big fight15.The way she says 'lets not fight anymore'even though you know that an hour later....16.The way they kiss whenyou do something nice for them17.The way they kiss y

Walter Cronkite
NEW YORK – Walter Cronkite, the premier TV anchorman of the networks' golden age who reported a tumultuous time with reassuring authority and came to be called "the most trusted man in America," died Friday. He was 92. Cronkite died at 7:42 p.m. with his family by his side at his Manhattan home after a long illness, CBS vice president Linda Mason said. Marlene Adler, Cronkite's chief of staff, said Cronkite died of cerebrovascular disease. Morley Safer, a longtime "60 Minutes" correspondent, called Cronkite "the father of television news." "The trust that viewers placed in him was based on the recognition of his fairness, honesty and strict objectivity ... and of course his long experience as a shoe-leather reporter covering everything from local politics to World War II and its aftermath in the Soviet Union," Safer said. "He was a giant of journalism and privately one of the funniest, happiest men I've ever known." Cronkite was the face of the "CBS Evening News" from 1962 to

Burial Grounds
This Sunday I'm going to my Gramps grave. I always feel really awkward going there, never know how to act or what to say around my Grandma and his sister, and my dad. Right next to his grave is a grave of a 16 yo Russian kid that died in a car crash, Kinda creepy too. When we just moved to the US, 5 of us lived in a studio for a while. When my grandma and dad moved out, I got my own room. One night, I woke up to a loud banging noise from my closet. After totally freakin out, I opened the closet and saw...an overturned urn, with ashes spilled on the carpet. As it turned out, my dad took my granpa's ashes with us, so he could get buried in the States. Low behold, those said ashes were stored in my closet, on a top shelf. Somehow it tipped over and fell on the floor. So here I was, scooping up my grandpa with my hands back into the urn in a middle of the night. It was odd... I told my dad that grandpa came out of the closet, but it wasn't taken the right way.Anyways, I am not

I've Sworn Off Men
Thought I'd write a little about why I don't have a boyfriend since it's the most asked question on this site. I've been divorced since April of 2008 due to lack of loyalty of my ex-husband's part. After that a dated a guy (long distance) for a few months and he broke it off saying he wasn't good enough for me. Following that I dated a guy who was actually the most wonderful man I've ever met in my life just bad timing URRG. Since him I've met dozens of men some nice some not so nice but they all seem to have this issue of either not feeling good enough for me or they are not ready to settle down. I've been stood up on dates at least 7 times this year and I've had my fill at this point. I no longer accept dates. Sometimes I'll exchange numbers but I have no real desire to bother dating anymore. I've been through too much from being cheated on, abused or just down right treated badly so for those who ask why i'm single this is why. I give up and I had enough. I'm perfectly happy b

Cecilia, Continues
She flew to her laptop and hit "last" a site called "Honeysfordoms' popped up. She was intrigued, and began searching..soon, she found herself setting a profile up..still wet...she entered her email and it said "another account is registered w/this email address..forget your password?" she followed the steps and saw a picture of her she'd never seen before..taken the night before..in the same lavender panties and bra she had awoken in. The ad was informative, incisive,and dam true. She had said she was looking for a Dominant w/a Iq as big as the necessary ego for a True dominant to have. She perused the rest of her ad and was impressed w/the skins and the "bling" she'd equipped her profile with. Even the music she'd loaded into the player was on point...She did good work absolutely "Marine Drunk" as her Father used to put it. She missed that man.A cross of the Great Santini w/out the abuse and Alton Brown from "Good eats" on that dam cable channel about well...food. Anyhow...a box popp

From A Mans Perspective
so after much debate, i have decided to air out once again; thanks to MY ex wife. no insult to anyone is intended..just read and consider. I have tried to be the father my 2 boys need even though divorced, it sure hasnt been easy. They needed their dad around and I chose...repeat..chose to stay and be as much a part of their lives as possible. This in itself blew everyones mind into the weeds, they had counted on me to disappear after the divorce, at one point an attempt was made to buy my parental rights from me...and the sum was large. No success there so next came a CPS investigation which exonerated me of any wrong doing..."this investigation should never had happened, you did nothing wrong." CPS quote...not mine...getting the picture yet? While serving probation on a bad check charge>>the check was for tools to use at a new job....remember there is child support to pay...i asked to have my probation extended in order to pay both the probation fees and the child support. The off

Love
When you love never stick only to what your heart feels.. Remember that sometimes using your brain is a necessity.. Next.. never use your eyes to cry for the person who hurt you.. Instead, use it to search for the right one.. Lastly, dont be scared breaking up.. Keeping a relationship without love is just a waste of time.. Take Note.. Love the one who will fight for and bravely face each and everyone consequence.. Someone whom you can call MINE rather than IDEAL..

What Is Forgiveness
What is forgiveness?There's no one definition of forgiveness. But in general, forgiveness is a decision to let go of resentments and thoughts of revenge. Forgiveness is the act of untying yourself from thoughts and feelings that bind you to the offense committed against you. This can reduce the power these feelings otherwise have over you, so that you can a live freer and happier life in the present. Forgiveness can even lead to feelings of understanding, empathy and compassion for the one who hurt you. What are the benefits of forgiving someone?Researchers have recently become interested in studying the effects of being unforgiving and being forgiving. Evidence is mounting that holding on to grudges and bitterness results in long-term health problems. Forgiveness, on the other hand, offers numerous benefits, including: Lower blood pressureStress reductionLess hostilityBetter anger management skillsLower heart rateLower risk of alcohol or substance abuseFewer depression symptomsFewe

It's Gotta Stop!
SALUTE SALUTE SALUTE!!!!!! I AM SO SICK OF BEING HARASSED FOR NOT HAVING A SALUTE. I HEAR IT EVERY SINGLE DAY.. I WILL NEVER HAVE A SALUTE..THOSE THAT DO HAVE THEM DID THEM FOR THE FOLLOWING REASONS... 1.THEY ARE POINTS WHORES AND WANTED TO LEVEL... 2. SOME LOUNGES WONT EVEN LET YOU COME INTO THEM OR WORK FOR THEM SO, YOU GAVE INTO WHAT THEY WANTED... 3. YOU WERE HARASSED INTO POSTING ONE AND GAVE INTO SOMEONE ELSE'S INSECURITIES AND CONFORMED INTO WHAT THEY WANTED AND FORGOT WHAT YOU WANTED.. QUITE A FEW HAVE THREATENED TO KILL ME AND RAPE MY DEAD BODY IF I DIDN'T POST ONE. i KNOW A FEW WOMEN THAT WAS SCARED OFF THIS SITE BECAUSE OF MEN HARASSING THEM FOR SALUTES AND THEY WERE SCARED. WHAT A FUCKING A SHAME. HELL, MOST OF THE PEOPLE I TALK TO DON'T HAVE SALUTES AND I HAVE NEVER HARASSED ANYONE FOR ONE. I AM HERE TO TALK AND TO HAVE FRIENDS.. I'VE MET QUITE A FEW OFF THIS SITE..WOULD I HAVE DONE THAT IF I WAS FAKE? SERIOUSLY, THINK ABOUT IT DUMB TWATS

Our Marines !!
Our Marines !! I sat, as did millions of other Americans, and watched as our government underwent a peaceful transition of power a few weeks past. At first, I felt a pride and patriotism as I watched Barack Obama take his Oath of office. However, all that pride quickl y vanished as I later watched 21 Marines, in full dress uniform with rifles, fire a 21-gun salute to the President. It was then that I realized how far America 's Military had deteriorated. Every last one of them missed !

The Importance Of Honesty In A Relationship
Honesty, Integrity, Loyalty; not quite grammatically correct, but to write it any other way diminishes the interdependence of three separate values that have no value without the others. That is not the difficulty with setting this triad as a basis for living. The difficulty is that the values conflict with social interaction. The conflict is not an intrinsic part of the values.The conflict is generated in the way the values are interpreted.At the risk of clich, take this example:Most of us will agree that honesty is a desirable quality in a friend and an invaluable necessity in a relationship. Yet, there are situations where we do not want brutal honesty.Q: Does this dress make me look fat? A1: Why yes dear, it does. A2: Not as much as the one with the horizontal stripes does. A3: Why no, it is quite slimming.The point is honesty has degrees. It has degrees because most people are afraid to ask honest questions and are even more afraid to be honest with themselves. From this, a decisi

Pain
In a darkened room Beyond the reach of God's faith Lies the wounded, the shattered remains of love betrayed And the innocense of a child is bought and sold In the name of the damned The rage of the angels left silent and cold Forgive me please for I know not what I do How can I keep inside the hurt I know is true Tell me when the kiss of love becomes a lie That bears the scar of sin too deep To hide behind this fear of running unto you Please let there be light In a darkened room All the precious times have been put to rest again And the smile of the dawn Brings tainted lust singing my requiem Can I face the day when I'm tortured in my trust And watch it crystalize While my salvation crumples to dust Why can't I steer the ship before it hits the storm I've fallen to the sea but still I swim for shore Tell me when the kiss of love becomes a lie That bears the scar of sin too deep To hide behind this fear of running unto you Please let there be light In a darkened room WHY DOES LO

This One Goes Out To Those Who Arent Afraid To Be Real
you all know who you are-- those of you out there that dont need a sugar daddy or a sugar momma to get you bling or to pay your go phone bill those of you out there that dont need to constantly flash these dumb ass status messages like "whomever loves me will put me on top with an HH"....whatever LOL (now I'm not bashing any of my family members..I'm talking about the players out there) show some fucking courage and self esteem and say "fuck it! i know who I am!, my cup size doesnt determine how many friends, family, or fans I get"(that's right players, I'm talking to you" and those of us that know we are real can look at ourselves in the mirror, and not hang our heads low just because we got played, but can hold our heads up high and say "good riddance to bad trash" those of us out there that are real are comfortable in our own skin, and don tmind showing a little bit of skin, because we know we're damn proud of ourselves because we are real, and not those that hide behind that be

Hahahahaha Wtf?!?!?
http://albuquerque.craigslist.org/w4m/1278339300.html This is exactly what I am NOT looking for. If you recognize yourself in this list, please DO NOT send me an e-mail. If you … have served time in jail or prison are married are in an open relationship have kids (sorry – it’s not about the kids; it’s about your ex-wife/gf, who is a huge part of that package deal) live with your ex-wife/gf don’t have your own checking account consider frozen meat and Mountain Dew a meal have atrocious table manners don’t like dogs don’t like cats don’t like vegetarians have not read a book in the last 3 months (magazines do NOT count) identify yourself as “a Christian man” describe yourself as “lonely” post ads that include the words “massage” or “cuddling” post ads promising to “treat you like a princess” are looking to get married, settle down and have kids don’t like sports don&r

"death, Life"
It stalks the night It stalks the day It seeks out life And whisks it away It's known as death And other things too But it's all the same What matters is you. How do you see it? What does it mean? It's best if you know For death is unseen. It can take you at day It can take you at night Knowing death well Can lend you some light The passage to death Is always unclear And it's best to know That you're very near. For death is at hand It is for us all Know it's face well So you don't stumble and fall Now think hard on death And know that it's near And the meaning of life Will be all to clear And that is to live For your hearts desire Not to stumble or fall But to burn with a fire. A fire for life To live for each day To reach for your dreams No matter what people say Life is a question And death holds a clue Reach not for the answer For your life's not due Live for the moment And die for it too For it's the moment that counts It, and you Now I'm

My Mother
You know everyone fears the day when one of their parents pass away. Well im no different. It happened o March 9th this year. My mother was 72 years old and have a heart attack due to kemo therpy after recovering from breast cancer.I know that it must have been time for my mom to go but i hate that i had to lose her. I know that she will always know that i love her and miss her. i just need to express my feelings. I LOVE YOU MAMA. You will be missed rest in peace

Help
im trying to find that special someone for two years now and it seems like i was never meant to be happy cause every time i think i found that special i get cheated on and hurt so i dont know f i should keep looking or just stay single for the rest of my life. I need advice. Can any1 help?

Hurt
granted, this song talks about drugs, but right now, I'm giving it a different meanin-- being hurt by someone you thought loved you and having the courage to start again. I hurt myself todayto see if I still feelI focus on the painthe only thing that's realthe needle tears a holethe old familiar stingtry to kill it all awaybut I remember everythingwhat have I become?my sweetest friendeveryone I knowgoes away in the endyou could have it allmy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtI wear this crown of shitupon my liar's chairfull of broken thoughtsI cannot repairbeneath the stains of timethe feeling disappearyou are someone elseI am still right herewhat have I become?my sweetest friendeveryone I knowgoes away in the endyou could have it allmy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtif I could start againa million miles awayI would keep myselfI would find a way

Better In Time.......yeah Right
Better in time thats what everyone says, how do you get better when you can't forget what brought you down so low you broke. Breakdowns seem so trivial till it happens to you. No one understands the way you feel when all you want to do is disappear and forget yourself sometimes. Call it emo or whatever its my outlet so I can make sure I still feel. Sometimes I wonder why things have to be the way they are and the things you said flood back to my mind and twist me back up so I'm complicated once again. You made it clear I'm not good enough for you yet slowly you creep back in and this viscious cycle return once again.

Landstuhl Germany Army Hospital
“Afghanistan” The patients who are able, rise.The President, with cameras and microphones,Invades the healing space. The soldiers’ eyesRemember blasts and blood and broken bones. A trooper’s leg becomes a photo op.One question brings the fear and shakes anew.No order comes to make his story stop,His Nike nudging Presidential shoe. A woman, draped in pink, waits in her chair,The wheels well braced. Her arms are not in view.The drape she wears itself suggests a clue:Beneath, she may not have the arms to bare. Not quite beyond the camera’s frameA soldier thinks, “They never understand.He’ll march again; I’ll never be the same,And learn to live with one remaining hand.” He sent them whole and healthy to Kandahar.…The President thanks each, then thanks the LordTheir blood and bones bought early passage back.“…You’ll get the best care yer taxes can afford.” The cynics eyeball their departing Prez.&ld

Haha Your A Twunch!!!!
to those who want me to buy you a bling or give fu-bucks just so i can show love and help you level I have a 3yr old little girl who is a special needs child all of my money goes towards taking care of her so FUCK YOU! she is my number 1 always has been and always will be1

The Word For Abuelito In Spanish
One no-prize goes out to the first person who spots the error in today’s title and tells me about it. Actually, I don’t know if Marvel Comics even gives out “no-prizes” anymore; they were blank envelopes stamped “Official Marvel No-Prize” sent to eagle-eyed readers of their comics who were the first to spot a continuity error in a story or an incorrect reference or even a glaring art error. I remember an issue of Captain America (vol.1, no. 308 – it’s scary I remember that) where his nose was missing in one panel, and Marvel got a few dozen letters about that. This morning I caught myself in mid-sentence as we were eating breakfast seated on our living room couch and watching Disney Channel. We tend to flip between that and Nickelodeon when the kids aren’t ready to head out after they eat, which they were – I don’t worry about their being TV zombies. The preview for this weekend’s new episode of “Handy M

I Adore
I adore the street where I first saw you, the night when we met. I adore the things that you say, our little happy times, I adore them. I adore the way you smile, and the way that you sometimes try to argue, I adore the silk from your hands, the kisses that we give each other, I adore them.I adore the glitter from your eyes and the sweetness of your red lips. I adore the way you sigh and even when you walk I adore you life of mine. You see I’m dying to have you here with me; you are my existence, my feeling, my moon, and my sun; you are my night of love.

Dear Lady At The Bus Stop...
Dear Lady at the Bus Stop: Despite the fact that you are 80 years older than anyone else on the planet, I got a warm and fuzzy feeling in my loins when I walked past you on my way to lunch today. What you lack in conventional beauty you more than make up for in your ability to fill out those pair of control hose, rolled to just under your shapely knee. I must admit that I was taken aback, yet my heart was aflutter, when you removed the cigarette from your mouth with a yellowed crook of a hand and uttered this seductive line as I passed: "Nice ass there fella" In closing, I would like to recite a line from a movie which sums up all I feel for you, O horniest of senior citizens. "Take me to bed or lose me forever" ~Faceman

So. Such A Waste Of Space
SO let me get this out of the way first..as of the 28th i won't be on..since i am moving..my net will be shut off til the 4th of august. NO phone til the 3rd..so if you care to know i'll get numbers from those who want me to be able to contact them via my cell which will be working.. ANYWAYS i just wanted to get that out of the way first.. (h) to those who care and (fu) to the haters..ahaha...anyways.. RANTING....my random run on sentances..and bull shit.. 1. MY ex..this would be the father of my youngests..who joins fubar..who sends me 4 friend requests..and refuses to take no for an answer.. who also sees the need to spend a 100 dollers on a happy hour..which he could of used to LOOK AFTER HIS CHILD.. WHO since she was born 8 months ago has been nothing but a dick head..saying i can't do this i can't do that with out his permission.. Who also HASN'T bought his daughter anything but a set of bottles..a set of clothes..a blanket..and 3 toys..since she had been BORN..8 month

Submissive Woman's Creed
i am a submissive woman… i find pleasure, joy and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship i am not weak, or stupid. i am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life. i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength. i look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am i more complete than when He is with me. i know that He will protect my body, my mind and my soul with His strength and wisdom. He is everything to me, as i am everything to Him. His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me. Only in serving Him do i find complete freedom and joy. His punishments are harsh, but i accept them thankfully, knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind. If He desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that i have brought Him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one f

Day 1
how they say that today is the first day of the rest of ur life. well 4 me it seemed like the end. i decided to get back to working out. yeah looks can b deceiving. i used to work out then i took spring break off with my son then it turned into summer break then it turned into fall break well u c where that went and that has been over 4 years ago...lol...well today i decided that i was gonna get up n get off the computer ok i was gonna start yesterday but it rained n i left the window open n my son hadn't cleaned up the room for me. yeah anutha excuse but i did get it all cleaned up this morning and i did get on the equipment. o wow! all i can say is looks r deceiving for me at least. i have people all the time asking if i work out cuz i look like i do but to actually start back today was well not a pretty site....to say the least. but im gonna stick with it. we decided to hit vegas for my bday....'NEW YEAR'S DAY" but u know the real celebration is on the eve n i think im gonna get t

Win A Sexy Salute!
Up For Auction A Boob Salute From My Sexy FuWife Steffy. All Proceeds Will Go To My Spotlight Fund. There is not 1 pic of her topless on fu. So bid high, this may never happen again. Click through the pic below to leave your bid as a comment! (The pic is located in my Auction Folder in case the link doesn't work for you.) Thank you all so much!!! Have an amazing day! Michele :) $safe_uid_dname@ fubar PLEASE Rate This Blog

Canadian Thinking
Coyote Population The Alberta Government and the Alberta Forest Service were presenting an alternative to Alberta ranchers for controlling the coyote population. It seems that after years of the ranchers using the tried and true methods of shooting and/or trapping the predators, the tree-huggers had a 'more humane' solution.What they proposed was for the animals to be captured alive, the males would then be castrated and let loose again. Therefore the population would be controlled. This was ACTUALLY proposed to the Alberta

Written By A Soldier In Iraq
THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ ..I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson . As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant.Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood , and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing? He's a freaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades?What about all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All those Soldiers who, knowing that they would be asked to fight in a war, still raised thei

Pismo Beach...
I have read alot about human quirks. About the way we form social groups. It is very interesting. You know the classic line from the movie HIGHLANDER - There Can Be Only One!!! - apparently its just a fact of human beings interacting naturally. If you take five leader types and put them in a place together, for a prolonged period of time, one of them will retain the characteristics of the leader - another will become the jokester, one will be the philosopher, one will be the go-fer, and one will be the enforcer. Nature sorts us out, so that we might better preserve our kind. It is the prime directive. God make us resiliant. We, with such soft skin, and dull teeth, no claws, not even fur to allow for some resistance to a bite. Yet we thrive. Mind power, Sweeny - Mr. McGavin expoused to his amazed neighbor as the glow of electric sex from the controversial leg lamp from A Christmas Story bathed good old Cleveland Street.

I Don't Get It?
I have thought about this for a long time.. and it does not make sense! why do people always have to change? why does everything have to chane? Why cant People and thing just remain the same? http://fubar.com/user/2875609

My Motivational Quotes- Quotes I Strive By.
A blind man once said- The value of life has no limitations. Take each day as they are, but remember with materialism, happyness dwindles. "There once was a man who had the heart of a lion, the brain of a mouse, but the will power of ten thousand men. Anything in life can be achieved. You just have to follow your dreams"- Darius (Me) "How much can one be worth? Do you see yourself as an object or an entity? To claim one's own purpose in this life... Inevitably, there is a spot for us all awaiting in the void of death." - Me "Love yourself for who you are. Do not let the things in life stress you out. Your life is like a blade of grass, gentle and fragile, but maintainable with the right amount of confidence and care. Be wise in each and every decision that you make. Do not compare yourself to others. Hold your will strongly, and your positive thoughts will reign true in your life. No fault is of one's own, the circle of life has it's breaks. One must keep the cycle flowing

If I Had One Wish...this...would Be It...
Home...I Just Want A Place...To Call Home...Again...A place I can breatheA place that is "Sancturary"A place to look forward to goingA place I won't be anyone...other than who I amA place that even with or without other people...I won't feel aloneDoesn't need to be much...I'm no princess...(not by a long shot...;)...)I don't care if I (we) struggle(I'm quite familiar with "that struggle")...And I dont care...Cuz I(we) can and always have gotten by...But...I don't wanna do it alone anymore...I need friends...I need love...I need to laugh...To smile...again.I know I need that...But...I know...I can't do it alone...anymore.I need some arms every now and again to help me up if I fall...(and everyone does)...I need them to be real...to be true...I need something to be there...and...stay there...without ever being taken away again...and...I wanna be able....to call it..."Home". (k...I'm done spewing...;)...but I meant every single word of it...the hell...if I didn't...)

You Think You're Invincible?!?!!? Read This!!!!!
SHARE THIS BLOG WITH YOUR FRIENDS! REPOST MY BULLETIN TOO!!!! This is A VERY IMPORTANT READ!!!! My best friend had a heart attack at age 30!!!! YES HE IS ONLY 30 YEARS OLD!!! He woke up several times before it happened over the months, with his arms numb or they "fell asleep" and he'd have to shake them to get the feeling back!!! He has been a smoker since he was 17 years old. He used to smoke two packs a day and a year ago, cut down to half a pack to a pack a day. It doesn't matter how much you smoke people!!!! Smoking is going to kill you no matter what!!!!!!!!!!! Monday morning at 3am he called me on my cell phone. I NEVER sleep with my cell phone, but thankfully did that night!!!! He asked me to please come downstairs as soon as possible. I went downstairs and he was hunched over his bed. His arms had gone numb. He had no feeling in them, but could feel me touching them. He was cold and clammy. His mouth and arm were blue on and off. We went to the emergency room where he had t

Lone
I am alone in this place that is my coming my tome I built it brick by brick all a slight beacon of hope and light shines in. with wind comes the coldness that is locked up tight brilliantly. Thoughts to skirted to make since I only know one thing that is the loneliness. Vanity that causes insanity quick hatefulness that eats me way. Everyone comes for a visit every once in awhile but do they stay I think not. I go back to being alone fearfully of the days that come to repeat to be that I am alone and will stay this way. Darkness is consuming the hope that is left as the bricks gather and no one will be able to get in soon there will be no visitors at my door for all I know is the loneliness that is in store.

French Dream
A boy was having a lot of difficulty in French class. To encourage him, his teacher said, "You'll know you're really beginning to get it when you start dreaming in French." The boy ran into class all excited one day, saying, "Teacher, teacher! I had a dream last night and everyone was talking in French!" "Great!" said the teacher; "what were they saying?" "I don't know," the boy replied; "I couldn't understand them."

Poem
I Love YouWith my every breath,With all I have left,From the deepest depths,Of my heart, I love you.With all of my strength,With a thousand miles' length,Every thought I think,I think that I love you.For the length of forever,As long as we're together,Through good and bad weather,For always, I love you.When no one is there,When you think no one cares,When love seems too rare,Remember, I love you.When everything's gone,When all has withdrawn,When hopelessness dawns,Don't forget, I love you.When you fall down,When your dreams come unwound,When hope can't be found,Be happy, I love you.When you make mistakes,When you're filled with hate,When you're old and gray,Even then, I'll love you.Until the very end of days,Until God takes my breath away,Until death separates our ways,Even after then, I will always love you.

Someone
It feels sad to miss someone badly.. Especially when both of you shared an unforgettable realationship. its so sad not to feel the presence of that someone. It burns your heart with such sadness and longing.. with all that burden your going thru.. you thought your someone misses you, but only to find out that the someone you know was enjoying someone and not you :(

Come And Get It!
Want to playSome dirty gamesYou touch me thereI'll pull your hairSpank your assYou moan and gaspSpread your legsI make you begI use my tongueAre you having funI get you wetI'm not done yetYou grasp my cockHard as a rockYou stroke my shaftSucking like madSqueezing my ballsSwallow it allOn your hands and kneesShaking your ass at meMounting you from behindTaking what's mineThrusting like a savage beastAs you buck and screamYour pussy starts to dripI reach around you rub your clitYou start to squirtMy balls begin to burstI empty my loadYour pussy lets goCompletely spentWant to play again

Ensign: The Gift Of The Magi
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 23 July 2009 “Now when Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judaea in the days of Herod the king, behold, there came wise men from the east to Jerusalem. Saying, Where is he that is born King of the Jews? for we have seen his star in the east, and are come to worship him.” (Matthew 2:1-2) In the second chapter of Matthew, we are introduced to the wise men who saw the star appear over Jesus’ Earthly birthplace. They meet the local ruler (Herod), they go to the place the prophets foretold (Bethlehem), they present their gifts, and they are warned to not return to Herod and go home. Since the time the Bible was written, human tradition has added layer upon layer to this simple meeting. “We Three Kings of Orient Are” may be a popular hymn, but it may not be historical

The Flight
I crawled out of my seat and retrieved a pair of blankets from the overhead bin. The cabin was silent and dark, the flight attendants busy in the galley.I sat down next to Scotty and handed him one. Scotty chuckled softly, drawing me back onto his lap. "Good idea". Scotty pulled the blanket around us and worked at the buttons on my blouse. I stared up into your eyes. Suddenly I felt a bit light headed. I think we need more privacy, I whispered. Ill meet you in the bathroom. Wait for a minute or two and then come back. I rebuttoned my blouse and crawled off of you, then tiptoed down the aisle. I wasn't afraid, and that's what surprised me the most. I had spent years being fearful of one thing or another. maybe it was the alcohol, or the altitude- or simply the man himself. But I knew exactly what I wanted-no doubts, no insecurities. A few seconds later Scotty knocked at the door. I opened it without hesitation. I was going to have this man, here and now. And I was determined I wouldn't

From The Beauty Series
"My only hope is for a deep love, a loss of myself to someone, not merely a loss amid all that strives to break me down and remake me. But a loss to someone who is sublimely good at mastering. Someone who might somehow, in the blaze of my suffering, see the depth of submission and love me also..."

Long Walk
Long Walk In this long walk called life.I walk alone. With no one to hold.My lifeless body with no one To comfort me when I cry, withNo one to give me a reason toLive. I stagger and, fall downAnd I have no one to catch me.How can I go on like this?In this black abyss so coldAnd empty I shiver with lonelynessAnd fearof dying alone. I knowI can't go on like this, but IMust I know I have to. Its theOnly way to be what I haveTo be. But I do not know What exactly that is.I might find outLater on inThe long walk of life. Jennifer Renee Wilkes Copyright ©2009 Jennifer Renee Wilkes

Bay And Dom Getting Fu-hitched Tomorrow! Be There!!!
FRIDAY NIGHT IN ANARCHY RADIO! MY BIG BROTHER AND BIG SISTER OF ANARCHY RADIO GETTING FU-MARRIED!!! BAYS BIRTHDAY IS GONNA BE A BASH TO BE REMEMBERED!!! ITS A BIG EVENT AND WE NEED ALL OF OUR FRIENDS THERE TO JOIN IN ON THE FESTIVITIES!!!!!!!!!! SO BE THERE!!!!!!! KICK ASS TUNES, GREAT FRIENDS, and A MFKN FU-MARRIAGE!!!!!!!!!! BEST WISHES TO BAY AND DOM! LOVE YOU GUYSSSSSSS!!!! FRIDAY NIGHT! MIDNIGHT CENTRAL TIME! IF YOU NEED ANY OTHER DETAILS HIT ME UPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!

The Rebelols.
Tonight we delve into the world of the self professed/expressed rebel. He or she is usually found around the fringes of society, ostensibly to look in on all the conformist dolts he/she despises, without realizing that he/she is the very epitome of badly cliched, anti-conformist conformism. The rebel usually expresses himself through anti social behavior and the willingness to die an early death in accordance with some honor code that better men than himself live by, but somehow thinks that calling himself a "true up soldier" actually makes it so. What a joke, and good fucking riddance when this piece of shit removes himself from the face of the earth with his inherent stupidity. The rebel can often be found with a generous helping of skin ink, typically making him look like the splash damage victim of an explosion at a sewage treatment plant, festooned with blueberry black, pea green, and standard brown excrement. The ink is typically shoved under the skin in a prison environment vi

Fighting To Hold On
Tiny bursts of flame turn into a raging fire inside me, a longing for someone to understand, understand that there is a deep pain inside me. A pain that for so long now has seemed to engulf my very spirit refusing to set it free I sit there in a constant daily battle almost begging for it to keep me alive. A force that though slightly seen by others acts as a wall to defend me from the good that people are trying to bestow onto me. I no longer wish for that wall to stand. I wish to let go and be as the bird on the window sill and just fly away leaving it behind. I feel as a ghost trapped in a house of misery, a bird with no song to sing, a person with no real purpose to be here. Till the day a death is brought onto the demon holding me prisoner I will not sleep a comforting night, I will not fully enjoy the taste of the meal before me, I will not fully be free. This world I am in holds me in place but I do not hold it in my heart. A ghost wandering the fields of reason bathing in the r

Cowboy Rules :)
Cowboy rules for Arizona, Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas, Colorado, New Mexico, Wyoming, Montana, Idaho, Oregon,Nevada, and the rest of the Wild West are as follows:1. Pull your pants up. You look like an idiot. 2. Turn your cap right; your head ain't crooked. 3. Let's get this straight, it's called a "gravel road." I drive a pickup truck, because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're gonna get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 4. They are cattle. That's why they smell like cattle. They smell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I-10 & I-40 go east and west, I-17 , I-15 & I-35 goes north and south. Pick one and go. 5. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 Combines that are driven only 3 weeks a year. 6. Every person in the Wild West waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept. 7. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of geese/pheasants/ducks/doves are comin' in during the hunts, we WILL shoot it outta your hand

Bad Day
No idea why or what happened to cause it but I've been depressed all day! So tired of the crude shoutbox comments and point whoring and such. We ALL are trying to level ppl! lol...I was told recently that most ppl on here lie about their lives. All I can do is be myself. Like me or hate me, I am very real, whether here or any other place you meet me. I made the decision today and removed my nsfw pics. I have no problems with anyone having them but at this point in my life, I want to be liked for who i am and not for the size of my breasts. Anyway, I just needed to release a little frustration I guess.

Gall Bladder Cleanse
GALL BLADDER CLEANSE VERY IMPORTANT: It is crucially important BEFORE you begin this gall bladder cleanse to have drunk TWO GLASSES of APPLE JUICE (packaged juice is just as good as fresh) every day for 14 days before the cleanse. This is very important as certain constituents of apple juice (it is believed to be the high pectin levels) SOFTEN the stones and enable them to pass HARMLESSLY through the gall ducts. I have supervised hundreds of such cleanses using exactly this protocol that I am recommending here without one patient suffering any harm whatsoever. But please follow the instructions carefully, and it must be said that you have ultimate responsibility, given that none of you are actual patients of mine. An alternative to apple juice that is just as effective, is Orthophosphoric acid (75%) - take 30 drops a day for 3-4 days, and gradually increase the dosage to 50 drops daily - continue for 10 days. Each 30 drops contain 390mg of Orthophosphoric acid. Take no medications,

Part 1 Of The First Story
I have been having this reoccuring dream for the past few months. Where I am sleeping in my bed and this stranger comes up to my bed and watches me. During my dream I can see what this stranger is doing. He begins to pull back the sheets and he stares at my naked body. I begin to roll to my side so all he sees is my back. For now the sheets just cover me from the waist down. The mysterious stranger begins to lean onto my bed and out streching his hand. I begin to feel his hand glide up my back and gently rub my lower back and side. But I still lay there still and motionless believing I was alone. The stranger begins to climb into my bed. At this time my stranger starts to rub my back and slides his hand around my waitst. I can feel his hands circling my breast. I begin to roll over onto my back. I was beginning to want more. As I start to stir in my sleep, I help my mysterious stranger with arousing me. I reached for his other hand and placed it upon my thigh. I could f

Rip Garton
My good friend TJ passed away this evening due to having Pneumonia and a bad case of the flu. TJ had the same condition that I have which is Osteogenesis Imperfecta (brittle bone disease). Though I never got to meet TJ in person we talked a lot online, phone and text. She was only 20 years old. She will be missed by so many... LUV you always Garton. Rock on!!! XOXOX

Staind "tangled Up In You"
You're My WorldThe Shelter From The RainYou're The PillsThat Take Away My PainYou're The LightThat Helps Me Find My WayYou're The WordsWhen I Have Nothing To SayAnd In This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouStill Tangled Up In YouYou're The FireThat Warms Me When I'm ColdYou're The HandI Have To Hold As I Grow OldYou're The ShoreWhen I Am Lost At SeaYou're The Only ThingThat I Like About MeAnd In This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouHow Long Has It BeenSince This Storyline BeganAnd I Hope It Never EndsAnd Goes Like This ForeverIn This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouTangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouStill Tangled Up In You

Prayers From A Horse
Give me time to know what you wan of me.I don't understand your words. Dont be angry with me when Idont understand.I have only you to explain. Talk to me.Even if I dont understand your words,I understand your voice. Be aware,however you treat me, I will not forget it. Keep me safe from harm.I am no longer wild and able to know my enemies. Before you hit me,remember that I have teeth that could crush the bones in your hand and hooves that could kill you.I choose not to use them. Before you scold me for being lazy ot uncooperative,ask yourself if I am doing well or if something is bothering me. My life is likely to last 20-30 years.Please make sure I am taken care of because I cannont care for myself. Go with me on difficult journeys.Dont say "I can't stand to watch it" or "let it happen in my absence". Everything is easier for me if you are there. PLEASE TRUST IN ME AND I WILL TRUST IN YOU.....

Here Is The Deal
I am dating Chris, Cdub. Recently i have had a lot of females try to strart drama between him and i and say that im not the only one and that they are with him and what not. and i have girls that are blocking me and hating on me because im with him. i know nothing of u females nor do i care to know anything of you females. i dont care if he talks to you or if he flirts with you. i care if he touches u. i care if he travels to see you. i am confident in me and my relationship that it wont happen. he tells and shows me that he cares about me and wants me. im tired of everyone tryin to sabatoge it because yall didnt work out. so what?! move the fuck on! i care about him a lot and ill do what it takes to make sure we work. im not going to jump to conclusions when someone says they are dating too or going to get married. im sorry if you are going to get married you should know what his damn work schedule is. everyone just needs to back off. seriously.

Godfather
Once again I levelled tonight - with the help of some very lovely people on here - and now the usual if you helped me level over the past 24 hours please rate and comment this blog as soon as so I know who to return the love to - after all if it wasnt for you lovely peeps I would still be considering deleting :D lol ONCE AGAIN LOVE YOU ALL AND THANKS TO ALL THOSE THAT HELPED

Voice Blast / On Your Phone
4 those of u that signed up...I FINALLY...lol..got a chance 2 send out my blast tonight..... from Palm Springs,Ca..pool side..in 118 weather. I was kinna nervous..but did the best I could 4 u.. The # on your phone..is my photographers..if I use mine..I'll get calls all during the night..this way he get's the calls..lol Now that I c how easy that was..I can call from just about anywhere with a message 4 u. Anyway..just wanted 2 let u know that.. OH..Let Me Know If U Liked What I Did..K?? Love U guys..ooxoxooxoxoxxxox Lily

A Slight Detour Through Africa
A 250 Year Old Boogey Man pt 5 or A Slight Detour Through Somalia "How can a country, that is so beautiful as this, be filled with the ugliest motherfuckers you are every likely to meet?"-Pat O' Rourke, Somalia, 1992 Mogadishu was a Shit Hole. Now trust me when I say this, because during my time in Africa I visited some really horrible places, but Mogadishu was a Shit Hole. It was a G-d Forsaken Fucking Shit Hole, no doubt.I was there, in Dec. of 1991, a full year before the Americans showed up. Further, I was there a full two years (Operation "Gothic Serpent", Oct. 3-4, 1993) before the famous scene from Black Hawk Down (the only reason you have ever heard of that G-d forsaken fucking Shit Hole). Why was a nice Jewish boy, in Somalia, in 1991? Why was a young Medical student who graduated third in his class from a prestigious UC school, in East Africa? Well, because I was there to save my fellow man, of course.Thus is the stupidity of youth.We showed up, and thought we were t