I am with someone and yet so very alone the more I love her

my heart grows sadder because I feel a need to be with my own kind

I still feel lost in a society that is supposed to be mature open minded

yet I still hurt I love her and it would hurt to see her walk out of my life

What is the most painful is I need him the one special person

that will hold me and love me with all his heart unconditionally

I am not selfish or greedy I just want to be whole when only half of me

has the love I need and that seems unfair to her because it is

she is a straight girl in love with a bi guy I cherish her for that she still

can and will love me knowing I need a man to love also in my life.

I guess I am pretty good at keeping a secret

I've held this one since grade school and always felt

I was different than the other kids and not sure why

all I did know is that when the girls would talk about the guys

mostly no matter what they would say I felt they knew some how

what I was thinking I just kept quiet hoping no one would notice

a casual look or glance I made they were so short and the guys

wouldn't notice any way now I just want to be who I really am

and my wife Cheri said “No one could judge you for you

if they don't know who you are be your self” So I did.

Who can you turn to when there is no one to turn to when you’re

feeling lonely and sad when your friends what little you have

turn away when you open up to them and what you had to say

changed there idea of you and scared them away like simply

saying I am Gay or Lesbian or even saying I have Aids

to the people who are and do the fact still remains they have

feelings too and they hurt just like me and you It don't change

who they are inside so why do some feel they have to run and hide

and find alike people who understand the pain of being alone again

with no one to turn to who understands.

I'M BEAUTIFUL INTELLIGENT SENSITIVE

BISEXUAL MAN With a lot of love in his heart

Christopher Kortz