Fubar Blog Posts 4

About Me, At A Glance.
Hi, I am a looong time single guy, pretty basic, that has his own beliefs. I think you'll find Im quite unique, I' haven't had a house hold pet since 1989, I never smoked, or did drugs, had tattoos. The are alot of things I had regreted, not done etc. I don't get out much, my partying days are pretty much faded..Im mellowed out.Im in my own world alot, quite the outcast. On spare time, (which is rare) I journey around, wander around. Right now, Im at the point where, I (having just got shit straightened out) finally am able to see where I should be going in my life. Never having had a g/f, being in a relationship or mingling, perhaps now before my 28th birthday is the time to be somebody"Any objections? Is this the Ultra idea?

Sex Letter 1
to be able to feel your touch to feel your skin on mine and mine on yours to drive each other insane to be one to be able for you to feel me inside of you to be able to watch your eyes fill with pleasureto be able to kiss your thighs to you hips to you puss to your stmoach to you beautiful sexy brest to your neck your chek to your lips back down to your neck your shoulders your brest your stomach your hips your puss your thighs yous legs to your feet and back up again every time i go back up to your lips i tease you with the head of my rock hard cock slowing entering you little by little until you cant take the teaseing anymore and i slowly enter your puss all the way i have tken every inch you let out a big moan you are soaking wet i slowly start to go in and out so passonitly deeply but gentlely your eyes are filling up the are sparkling you want more but i will not let you i take me time touching feeling i flip over and have you on top you sit on my rock hard cock you slowly let my

The Perfect Prayer...
THE PERFECT PRAYER (matthew 6:9thru13)Why because Jesus himself told his disciples to pray this prayer and how to pray it. In the words of Jesus it goes Our Father in Heaven (Jesus is speaking to God The Father) HALLOWEDE be YOUR name (Honor your name) YOUR KINGDOM come YOUR WILL be done On earth as it is in HEAVEN Give us this day our daily bread (Jesus is asking the Father to supply all our daily needs including spiritual needs of which Jesus calls himself the bread of life.) And forgive us our debts (Our sins) AS WE FORGIVE OUR DEBTORS (VERY IMPORTANT that we forgive all others who offend us, the same as the Lord is forgiving us!) And do not lead us into temptation (we all know what that is) But DELIVER US from all evil (why) BECAUSE IT IS YOUR KINGDOM ALL OF THE POWER AND ALL OF THE GLORY FOREVER AND EVER AMEN (Means so be it!) author; JESUS CHRIST

Self Pity
Self pityEver feel that no matter what you do in lifeIt is thrown back in your face?Ever feel that the harder you tryThe worse things seem to be?Wallowing in self pity,Blaming myself for the route my life has takenHow did I end up here?All alone in this endless pit of despair?Several times I have tried to climb out,But all the emotions and problems storedKeep dragging me back down.The blackness of this hellCovers my entire soulIt eats away at my heartNibbling at the tiny pieces of happinessThat I have left in this worldStruggling to find the answersTo help me out of this placeWanting so badly to feelA little piece of normalcy again Carla K.

Saying Goodbye
How can you say goodbyeto someone who's always been there,to someone you love,and to someone for whom you care?How can you put asideall the memories of the past,remembering all the good timesand making the remaining ones last?How can you ignore the painthat death can often cause,knowing you'll never seeor hear their voice again?How can you wait for timeknowing what's about to come,saying goodbye to someoneyou'll never get to see again? Carla K.

Better
Ok so I have to admit, I feel better today than I have in a long time. Is it knowing my family is there for me no matter what? Perhaps tha my friends have really come through for me? Maybe its that Ihaven't communicated with the fucking PUKE in 7 days today (first time ever)? Or maybe its buying the Mac? LOL Another qupte I love ut have no idea who worote this one Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option Words to live by.....

Make It Apparant You Like Him ....or Chill
SO THERES THIS NEW GUY AT WORK AND HES REALLY CUTE AND COME TO FIND OUT HIS BIRTHDAY IS ONE DAY AFTER MINE. I LIKE HIM AND THINK I NEED TO CHECK HIM OUT. I FEEL LIKE A SCHOOL GIRL WHEN HES AROUND. I WAS TRYING TO TEACH HIM SOMETHING ON THE COMPUTER, THE MANAGER WAS TRYING TO TELL HIM, SO I WENT TO SHOW HIM, HE SEEMED TO BE CHECKING ME OUT, AND WHEN HE LEFT HE SAID GOOD BYE TO EVERYONE, AND MADE A POINT OF LOOKING AT ME DIRECTLY. SO MY QUESTION IS FOR EVERYONE I GUESS GUYS AND GIRLZ AS WELL.......DO YOU THINK ITS BETTER TO MAKE IT APPARANT THAT I LIKE HIM? OR BE MORE CHILLED ABOUT IT AND SEE HOW HE REACTS?

"three Day Silence"
My wife has not spoken to me in three days. I think it has something to do with what happened on Sunday night when she thought she heard a noise downstairs. She nudged me and whispered, "Wake up, wake up!" "What's the matter?" I asked. "There are burglars in the kitchen. I think they're eating the tuna casserole I made tonight." "That'll teach them!" I replied.

Fake Salutes R Us Part 2 (the Bust)
A few weeks ago I blogged about how Bre and Cardinal Girl both had fake salutes with the same font. you can see that blog here: http://www.fubar.com/blog/207243/1013998 In a bunch of Bre's photos she's wearing a nameplate necklace. However the name on the necklace doesn't say Bre..It says Maejen. This is a photo that "Bre" has uploaded to her profile: This is the REAL photo: You can google maejen amelio and find tons of photos and profiles of hers. Here's her myspace: http://www.myspace.com/uglylandscape and her facebook: http://www.facebook.com/people/Maejen-Amelio/507858662

Asshats Abound...
Due to a serious amount of petty psychotic behavior...my page has been set to friends only as well as my shoutbox. no one can randomly come rate me or talk to me. Just so one person isn't allowed to play his stupid game. http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1079916&albumid=0&i=1302344592 Don't worry..his words aren't what gets to me. It's the number of times I have to block a different profile to keep him away from me. Last time he had a hard on for this crap he included my top friends. I hope he didn't do this again. so there's my 3rd blog in 24 hours hahaha coffee time :)

Trypp Shit Needs Bling
Trypp-Shyt-R/L BF to kuntylette-Co Owner/DJ@Psycho Asylum@ fubar He is making my life hell until he gets these juggalo blings. I'm doing fam adds and salutes. The person who gets there will also get my yim and cam time [sfw]. please end my misery lol. i just want him happy :p hes cool as fuck! i promise!

Stupid Cunts And The Internet (part 2)
Since they're paying attention as I can clearly see in another post ... The ass hurt slag has a gallery! We're Fu-Famous *LOL At least she posted my good side LOL AWwwww..poor thing.. Love me, hate me, either way you think of me you stupid cunt :) The fact that you're easy prey makes me giggle like a little girl. You're a fucking victim.

How Do You Define Yourself?
A friend of mine asked me the other day "How do you define yourself?". After thinking about the question for a while I have come to the conclusion, I don't define myself. Of course, I am sure I do define myself on some subconscience level based on my past, what I have done, what has been said of me, how people have acted around me... there is a sea of suggestions all around us trying to define who we are. But, I don't think one should define themselves. I am not going to define myself based on my actions and achievements, because by doing so I also have to define myself by my mistakes and failures. If I fail more times than I achieve does that make me a failure? What about thoughts and beliefs? Should someone define themselves by their views on life? I don't believe so because we are all wrong on one level or another. We are all ignorant. If we define ourselves by our beliefs or our "morals" and turn out to be wrong, what does that say about us? Does that mean we have been living a li

Mistress Frey Is In Control Get Ur Rest
Friday, May 8, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You are more certain of yourself today, and want to explain your position to others. The same people that may have recently frightened you now seem to be less ominous. You are no longer willing to take a submissive role just to assure that someone else doesn't get upset. Nevertheless, there's nothing wrong with trying to avoid open conflict; just don't sacrifice your values in the process.

If I, Will You?
How do I tell you, what do I say? If I speak the words, will you walk away? If I tell you everything that's in my heart Will it all end or will it all start? If I bare my soul to you, if I give you all I am Will you open your heart's door or will I hear it slam? If I tell you my innermost want, my deepest desire Will you embrace it, or say it won't transpire? If I reach to touch you, to caress your skin Will you pull away, or favor me with a grin? If I brush your lips with a kiss and stroke your hair Will you want more, or softly swear? If I say it's you with whom I want to spend my life Will you say yes or will "no" cut me like a knife? If I tell you I love you what will you do Will you say you love me or bid me adieu? How do I tell you, what do I say? If I speak the words, will you walk away?

Poem. Read It, Yes?
To an Inconstant One By Sir Robert Ayton 1570-1638 I LOVED thee once; I'll love no more-- Thine be the grief as is the blame; Thou art not what thou wast before, What reason I should be the same? He that can love unloved again, Hath better store of love than brain: God send me love my debts to pay, While unthrifts fool their love away! Nothing could have my love o'erthrown If thou hadst still continued mine; Yea, if thou hadst remain'd thy own, I might perchance have yet been thine. But thou thy freedom didst recall That it thou might elsewhere enthral: And then how could I but disdain A captive's captive to remain? When new desires had conquer'd thee And changed the object of thy will, It had been lethargy in me, Not constancy, to love thee still. Yea, it had been a sin to go And prostitute affection so: Since we are taught no

Can You Handle This?
Oral sex on a guy can go on for a long long timeThere are so many things to attend toThe scent, taking one ball and then the other in my mouthMassaging your ass with gentle firm strokesHold your hands behind your headJust breathe, as I breathe on youI massage along the groin with little circles of my thumbsAs my tongue swirls around the tip.Breathe and relax, let it happen... Keep your hands there, and see how long you canI take you in my mouth and continue the massage around to the back of your hips and ass again. Pulling you deeper into my mouth.Then lifting back and flicking my tongue along the underside,I look up at you, and at the look in your eyes when you realize that This ends no time soon. I smile with my lips wrapped around youI chuckle and you feel it vibrate through you as I pull you into my mouthDeep and swift for several strokes till I feel you thrust.I slow, and lift my mouth, look into your eyes And remind you to breathe deep in your belly.While I massage your thighs an

Nsfw
For all future people that visit my page and to all of my old friends....I am deleting my NSFW for personal reasons!!! Do not ask why I have deleted them and do not ask me if I am going to put more up because I am not going to....Hope you understand!!!! Thank you all and have a nice day!!!!!

A Mothers Day Remembrence..
you know i have been through so much in my life and i think of myself as a strong person for the most part but 5 years ago i went through something that i was not able to handle as well as i thought.... my mom passed away after years of battling sickness and sitting there as i held her hand and watched the women who for years was my anchor fade away i lost my best friend and the closest thing to a angel i will ever see..... in short i wanted to say this,.... HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOM I LOVE AND MISS YOU DEARLY... LOVE SHAWN

I Got The Golden Ticket!
~~you know ur in love when u cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than ur dreams~~ Im writing this because I cant sleep! He has taken over my every thought and I feel like I have just won the lottery! Everyday I ask myself "How did I get so lucky?" I have finally found the perfect man! My Prince Charming! After a failed marriage and 4 yrs. of hell in an abusive relationship My Time has finally come to be Happy!! He tells me I'm beautiful when I know I look like crap, he kisses my forehead and gently holds my face as he kisses me(and OH how he kisses me!), he holds my hand for no reason, he enjoys fascinating 420 moments with me, he joined fubar and hurried up to level 10 just so he could own me, he downloads and listens to music hes never heard of just because I like it, he made me a cd of his fav songs to me, he told me right off that he was falling in love with me and wasn't scared of saying it, he watches stuff I like just to learn more about me, he drives 45 min each

Hell Yeah!!
So after 2 nights in a row of getting post-ops back and having them tank within 30 minutes of anesthesia leaving, the stress level was a wee bit high. But the big-wigs decided to pay respect to all us ICU/CCU nurses and we all got free massages at work this morning. lol Gotta love nurse appretiation week!!!

The Reason I Love You
I love you because you make me happy I love you because you make me feel safe and secure I love your smile I love the way you say my name I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would put me down. I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be. I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my days better At night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, and feeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that you are not a dream YOU ARE MINE. I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, like there is no tomorrow And I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, the love and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable. I love your laugh I love hearing your voice I love

How To Sell Toothbrushes
HOW TO SELL TOOTHBRUSHES................. The kids filed back into class Monday morning. They were very excited.Their weekend assignment was to sell something, Then give a talk on productive salesmanship. Little Sally led off:"I sold girl scout cookies and I made $30," she said proudly, "My sales approach was to appeal to the customer's civil spirit And I credit that approach for my obvious success." "Very good," said the teacher. Little Jenny was next: "I sold magazines," she said, "I made $45 and I explainedTo everyone that magazines would keep them up on current events.." "Very good, Jenny," said the teacher. Eventually, it was Little Johnny's turn. The teacher held her breath. Little Johnny walked to the front of the classroom and dumped a box full of cash on the teacher's desk."$2,467," he said. "$2,467!" cried the teacher, "What in the world were you selling?" "Toothbrushes," said little Johnny..

Help!!!!!!
Heehee, now that I have your attention. I'm looking to buy a mood ring and the mothers day bling before they're gone!! Just message me or respond with an offer. I would love either the Loving or Fiesty mood rings. So PLEASE, for Mothers Day and my upcoming Birthday, help a girl out?? I'll pay fu monies and even make you a pimp out bully!!

The Real You
To be used is never fun, but it happens wether you like it or not. Some times you are the person that is useing someone, maybe with out even relizing it. Most people go out looking for someone to use. They go in knowing what they want and once they get it there done and your left there in the cold. You can always hope for a change but you really know they are just useing you. Why fall for it though? Maybe in a way you are useing them yourself too. Probably not for the same reasons but none the less you are. Its when you come to relize that, thats all it is and nothing more. Knowing and relizing are two different things. Going in knowing its nothing is not as bad, then you relize its nothing and thats when it can hur, but just for the moment its alright, right? Well we all do thing to make our selves feel better, even if it is nothing but an allosion. But isnt that all life really is though? Just one big illution. So why not just ignore your feelings and go with the show. Cause the pic

Phobia
im an terrified of thunder storms. i cant help it. its not something that i asked for or choose to be scared of. i just freak out. some ppl do it with snakes or spiders i on the other hand do it with storms. i get really scared nervous shaky and to the point of crying. my bestfriend gets even worse. it sucks and i fucking hate it. i also know it frusturates ppl when i get like this but i cant help it. i really hate being yelled at or voice risen or anything like that when i get like this. it makes it worse and makese me wanna cry and just hide. im literally terrified by them. why cant ppl just understand this and NOT take it out on me and her? its a big thing for her and i since we live in the midwest. she has been thru a tornado and i have been thru near tornado weather. i fucking hate it and i hate this feeling.

Life...
I've taken all I can take, by no means am I giving up but with all the shit you're pullin it feel's as if everythings a mistake. I can't wait around anymore. sitting here watching my life pass me by while you go out and do your own thing tears me up inside. Being the person I am I grin and let my emotions hide. "Drawn together like moth's to the flame you left me and you were to blame, no longer the same, the old me long's for a change. Dead and gone is what I am, No longer here to give a damn. Tired of the bullshit and game's, I'm on the fucking verge of losing it..."All thing's aside in the end none of this will matter, I'll be the one to pick up the pieces and mend your brokenheart. A heartbreaker all along soon it'll be your turn to feel the pain that you once so unwillingly dished out.

#7
Connecting to server... Looking for someone you can chat with. Hang on. You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi! Stranger: RP? You: Raep? You: lmmfao You: buahahahahaha Stranger: Is there something wrong with you? You: Which diagnosis you want? You: The one given to me by my psyciatrist, or the one given to me by myself. You: ? You: ? You: ? Stranger: yourself. You: Yes, there is definately something wrong with me. You: I'm going to kill myself tonight. You: I want someone to talk to me through it. You: Just to be there for me while I fade away... You: But I don't want them to know me, or who I am. Stranger: Oh, that's cool. Stranger: go kill yourself then. ;D You: You'll sit here and talk to me till I fall asleep? You: I just don't want to be alone, but I don't want some fag trying to stop me. You: I figure you're safe. Strange

Intro Pt. 2
Every few thousand years some shepard inhales smoke from a burning bush and has a vision or eats moldy rye bread in a cave and sees God. From then on their followers kill one another at the slightest provocation. Haunted houses called temples are built by one side and torn down by another - and then bloody quarrels continue over the crumbling foundations. Organized religion preaches Order and Love but spawns Chaos and Fury. Why? Because the whole Material Universe is exclusive property of the Greco-Roman Goddess of Chaos, Confusion, Strife, Helter-Skelter and Hodge- Podge. No Spiritual power is even strong enough to dent Her chariot fenders. No material force can resist the temptation of Her Fifth Intergalactic Bank of the Acropolis Slush Fund for Graft and Corruption.

Bells Got A ........
WELL I WENT HUNTING TODAY AND I FOUND THE UNOFFICIAL LEAKED SCRIPT OF THE NEW MOON MOVIE....MOST OF THE COPIES HAVE BEEN DELETED BUT I HAVE THE ENTIRE SCRIPT...I WILL NOT BLOG THE SCRIPT BUT FOR THOSE TRUE FANS PLEASE MESSAGE ME FOR DETAILS AND ILL TELL YOU WHERE TO LOOK.. FANS I TELL YA ITS GOOD SO FAR FROM WHAT IVE READ....BUT ILL LET YOU DECIDE.

Listen To The Darkside~charlie Mars
Hey Abigail I know your day has been hell Don't take to heart the words that he said I know you're a good girl You're not out to hurt nobody He's just trying to get Tryin to get in your head If you want to come If you want to come over Come over and get high We can listen to the Dark Side Of The Moon If you want to come over Come over and get high We can listen to The Dark Side Of The Moon Hey hey hey my friend Are you at it again I think you hold your heart too close to the vest I know you're a good man You're not out to hurt nobody She's just trying to get , tryin to get in your head If you want to come I

I May Be Crazy...
So it's been 2 years and a day now since Frank checked out. I went to visit with him for a bit tonight where I go to visit ;) I cried a little, but only because I miss him very much still. People do stupid shit when they are sad. I wish it was easier to see ahead. Anyways I know none of you know anything about my friend. Thats ok ;) He'd have definitely had fun being the one you love to hate anyways. He stirred a lot of shit on the net :D I know he knows what I tell him..and that may make me crazy. I can live with that ;) Now I must force myself to finish this drink it's time for my beauty rest.

I Miss You Mom
I Love You Mom Wings For Marie (Pt. 1) lyrics by ToolYou believed.You believed in moments not conceived. You believed in me. A passionate spirit.Uncompromise.Without us in your heart.A light in your eyes that, ends all lies.Vacant, broken. Fell at the hands of Those moments that I wouldn't see.Cause it was you who prayed for me so. What have I done to be a son to an angel?What have I done to be worthy?Day light dims leaving cold fluorescence.Difficult to see you in this light.Please forgive this selfish question, butWhat am I to say to all these ghouls tonight?She never told a lie.Well might of told a lie.But never lived one.Didn't have a life.Didn't have a life.But surely saved one.Saved on.Alright, now it's time for us to let you go 10,000 Days (Wings Pt. 2) lyrics by ToolWe listen to the tales and romanticize,how we follow the path of the hero.Boast about the day when the rivers overrun,How we'll rise to the height of our halo.Listen to the tales as we all rationalize,our wa

Family On Fubar
you know its funny there are a few people i would say are my friends on here and then there are thos who are more then just friends and thos are family even tho not in the same way as related family but you get the point so anyways i was going thu my list to see of the ones who i added as my family who i talk to some times more then i do others people i was a little hurt to know that some of them have taken me off there list but quickly got over it i only put people in my family if i know them well and have talk to them more then a few times. to me puting someone in your family is a special treat and so is the meaning of the word friendship however some forget that. it seems i might not be on today due to the fact since i dont really have any family iam going to sepend it with my roommates and probly go to a movie or something to do to get out of the house

But It Just May Be....
So this is what I am buying myself this week. isn't it sweet? I don't like the panties that come with it though....so maybe I will see if I still have the ones that would match it perfect or buy new ones. maybe if I am feeling inspired I might take new pictures too. I still have to get rid of some of the older ones to make room. Anyhow everyone that is a mommy have a great day with your family xoxo and everyone else have a wonderful day!!

I Have Been On Fu Over 1 Year
my fu lover or Fu Hubby? I don't know why men aren't interested in me, can someone tell me why no one would want me? I would love to have someone to care for me and I them. If you you are interested or can explain to me what's wrong with me please do. Is there someone out there for me?

I Dream Of Vestal.
In a veil of white mist, at the temple of Vestal, two of the virgins bathed me. Pretty, sweet things adorned in wraps of loose white linen. The one, with dark hair, seriously seductive, while the other with hair flowing long and blond was playful and sweet - neither uttered a sound from the moment we met. Both were long-limbed with small clever hands, silently and sensuously easing a stress and tension from my body that, until now, I hadn't realised I possessed. Closing my eyes, I lost myself to the heat of the water and wickedly sensual sensations as their hands caressed me beneath the surface. Their lips finding mine as well as each other's - we three lost to these precious moments as steam rose around us. The only sound was the play of water and the soft sounds of my contentment. Dozens of candles spread their golden light about the room forcing back the shadows to dance at the edges of perception across a ceiling and walls of marble painted with frescoes of women bathing,

I Dare You To Judge Me
I beengetting few messages, not much, from the closed minded fucks outhere..I'm tired of being judged, or criticized upon..I'm a preachersson of pentecostal faith...yes i know who jesus is an thats who I prayto.. Yes I study wiccan...if you know wat metaphors are, the god angoddess to me is jesus angles, an heaven an afterlife, are same too. inmy opinion, cos you wont find 2 people who think the same.. we all areown individuals an we are seeking a higher power in some way, shap orform..Google wiccan, You'll find its not of satantic form..Far fromit...So for you people who dont know what wiccan is.. google it beforeyou judge it, or judge any religion, for that is....For the way Ilook.. Its my style..I dont portray to get attention, its just me, cosI like the gothic style..I love deth metal music, an most hardhard..Lyrics expain me if you havent notice!! I'm open minded to jam tosome rap at times..For those of you who are confused, wonder why i dothis or that, dont worry about it, cos I

My True Love
I cherish ya all the way. id make it work, long distance or what ever it takes.i want u so bad, like i said, I can tast ya soul, but its be better cover in lye, cos all my life it seems to loose, but i lost that too, so what i do now? Want me to fall in love show u this or that, life u could have.... marry u an have a fucking life: my life is a bull shit misery so lets get married an say fuck it, is that all u know? I'm too good to be true an ur to hot to be blue, an we, just make a day come true an it sucks ass, morning is coming late, dawn just past us by, mid day is present, dawn is coming near, hold you, close, id cherish you my dear, I'm a poet, if u didnt know it, devil bought my way, hell awaits, heaven is you, trouble is time an tired of running, please hold me, im falling, sincere,...im just running blind!... I'm on a suicide, but sometime we seem to dis tray..wonder what hes really like...glistens,... nite falls, your in bed,, he creeps into your head.. falling in lov

Yay Me!!
Yay Me!! In less than 12 hrs I will be on a plane for Oklahoma.. OK to Dallas first then Oklahoma, lol as if there could ever be a direct flight that didn't cost an arm and a leg. Anyway, to go see my Son who's been gone since Feb. 8th for those of you who know for Basic Training. He graduates on Thursday! Sooo, my Mother's day is on Wednes day. He gets a "Family Day", where I get to check him out for the day and won't have to return till around 8pm that evening and then he graduates on Thursday. The only disappointing thing is is that we found out AFTER I had already purchased my tickets that he will be able to get a weekend pass once he gets in to his AIT school. See, his AIT is in the same base, just different part and of course different command and I guess they do not communicate well. I wish they would have, becaue I have my flight set to return this Friday. I would have gladly stayed till Sunday. The change costs more than the original ticket.. ugh. Oh, but .. I also get to s

To My Ex!!!
To My Ex!!! A FEW QUESTIONS I NEED TO KNOW HOW YOU COULD EVER HURT ME SO I NEED TO NOW WHAT I'VE DONE WRONG ? AND HOW LONG ITS BE GOIN ON ? WAS IT THAT I NEVER PAID ENOUGH ATTENTION ? OR DID I NOT GIVE ENOUGH AFFECTION ? NOT ONLY WILL YOUR ANSWERS WILL KEEP ME SAFE BUT I'LL NOW TO NEVER MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN YOU CAN TELL ME TO MY FACE OR EVEN ON THE PHONE YOU CAN WRITE IT IN A LETTER EIGHTER WAY I HAVE TO NOW DID I NEVER TREAT YOU RIGHT ? DID I ALWAYS START THE FIGHT? EIGHTER WAY I AM GOIN OUT OF MY MIND.ALL THE ANSWERS TO TO MY QUESTIONS I HAVE TO FIND.. MY HEADS SPINING BOY IM IN THE DAYS I FEEL SO ISOLATED . DON'T WANNA COMMUNICATE I TAKE A SHOWER I WILL SCOWER I WILL RUN FIND A PIECE OF MIND THE HAPPY MIND I RUNS SOOO YEAH.... THE FLEXING VOCABULARY RUNS RIGHT TRU ME THE ALPHABET RUNS RIGHT FROM A TO Z CONVERSATIONS AND HESITATIONS IN MY MIND YOU GOT MY MIND ASKING QUESTIONS THAT I CAN NOT FIND I'M NOT CRAZY I AM SURE I AIN'T DONE NOTHING WR

I'm Disgusted
I am absolutely disgusted and and appalled by the new administration. I'm actually pretty impressed with how unbelievably irresponsible they are. You do not apologize to the world for something a bunch of terrorists did and then blamed on the americans without doing any sort of research. Another thing that i find pretty incredible is how they just pass legislature that makes absolutely no sense just because the "right-wing nuts" don't like it. I'm sick of the malice. This is a country that has always encouraged different opinions. For example, I have friends who are liberal and friends who are entirely conservative, I don't fully agree with either, but i respect their views, and listen to them. They respect my views as well. We agree to disagree. It's much easier than arguing and blame-shifting. That sort of thing is what children do, but i know some kids who have more common sense than the president. I don't think he knows much about history at all. He thinks that Winsto

What Family?
So yeah this blog goes out to my family you know who you are. I think it's so fucking sad how you can be so fucking cold and just put someone out just like that when you know my situation. You are all fucking hypocrites and much much more just fake like fuck so much for TRUE family huh? Just so fucked up that I don't have fucking shit from my divorce and I am working so hard to get back up there and you guys do anything in your power to TRY to pull me down again...notice I said TRY because you guys never succeed I always come out on top not YOU fucks. Yeah it hurts me like fuck but you know what you have done showed me your true colors for real because check this out you are all going to need me for somthing rather no matter what it is, and I'm am straight up going to say...FUCK NO. And then one fine day you're going need me so bad and I'm going to say FUCK NO. YOu try to hurt me by taking what I value most away from me but you know what in the end you are going to suffer hard and I'll

Poker Star
I was at the bar having a few drinks tonight... and saw some friends playing poker... one ran out of money and i tossed him a couple bucks to play.. well he lost... so i decided i was gonna play.. i put in four bucks... i walked out with $32 haha yay for quarter poker! was a blast!

Stupid People
i sit here trying to rate ppls pix and all of thier pix are little icons and shit and there are no real fucking pix anymore. i tired of this shit that you have to bling these bitches or buy them auto 11's or some shit. like i wanna waste cash like that when i can pay less than ten bucks for girls that do it or a living in my own studio! so to any girl that reads this and has all her pix as private and wont show tem til you get bought something .....go fuck yourself youre not worth it!!

Sleepless
Is it normal not to be able to sleep, when you think about someone constantly? Is it normal, to wake up when you do sleep, and the first thing you want to do before anything else is to that persons face? To hear thier words? Is it normal to love someone so much that you cant even find words to describe it? These are all the situations I'm experiencing. Every little bit. 18 Days until departure. 19 Days until Arrival. I almost wish I could close my eyes, and wake up for it to be so much less! Its odd, that I feel this way. Has someone broken the walls that I'm put up? Has she finalyl accomplished it? People call me insane. I look at them and tell them they are right. Now they are right for a completely different reason. Insanity is that of a bizzare emotion, so love could be insanity. If this is the case, lord lock me up and throw away the key. I have felt love and pain before, but this love...this type of love. This bounding of the souls. Its enough to even drive th

True Love .........
First, I want to thank all my Fu Friends for your love bestowed on me over the past 3 yrs. I so appreciate everything you've done for me and much love goes out in return. I may lose a few friends over what's coming next, but if that happens, then obviously they weren't true friends anyway. I have made many bad mistakes in life, including choosing work over family, bad relationship choices and many other things.... But I'm here to let everyone know I have finally found my "first" & "only" true love of my life. It's a shame it's come this late in my life, but Karma is what it is ...... Jen is her name ,, she is the most amazing woman I have ever met ! I think about her 24/7 ( sometimes too much for her ), but again it is what it is .. I think anyone would agree that have been, are in ,or w/e their current course path of love is .. that when you're in love, normal behavior doesn't happen. But then again , "what is normal" , that's another blog that could go on forever. Anyway, she is

Gonna Try This Again...
I want to give a VIP to one lucky person today. Ends at 2:00pm CDT tomorrow. If you're interested: The rules: 1) Impress me! (do not ask me what... this will automatically disqualify you) 2) Must not be a current VIP holder. 3) Must be in my friend and fan list. (new friends and fans are welcomed) Cheers... and good luck

What I Like To Think As True!
Old age it's later then you think. Everything is farther away now then it used to be. It's twice as far to the coner and they added a hill. I notice I've given up running for the bus it leaves faster than it used to. It seems to me that they are making steps steeper than in the old days and have you noticed the smaller print they use in the newspapers? There is no sence asking anyone to read aloud.. everynone speaks in such a low voice I can scarcely hear them. Material in dresses is so skimpy especially around the hips. It's all but impossible to reach my shoe laces. Even people are changing they are much younger then they used to be when I was their age. On the other hand, people my age are much older than I. I ran into an old classmate the other day and she had aged so much she didn't remember me. I got to thinking about the poor thing while I was combing my hair this morning and I glanced in the mirror at my reflection and confound it, they don't make mirrors like they used to eit

Auto 11 Or Cherry Bomb
TIGRESS & NOLI is haveing an auction for your choice of a cherry bomb or auto 11. The Auction Starts today 5/12 and ends friday 5/15. Get your bids in now. You know you want one of these. While you are there make sure you R/F/A her. Click the link below to take you to the cherry bomb or auto 11 auction. This Auction Hosted By: TIGRESS & NOLI ~~DBC 4 LIFE~ PU$$YCAT PLAYMATEZ!!!! PHAT CHICKS PROUD! Owned by TIGER!!!!@ fubar (repost of original by '~?~MommaTasha~?~PROMOTER @DINOS~?~HAPPILY OWNED BY Italian Princess~?~' on '2009-05-12 05:55:54')

Glances
You glance my way my pulse, it stands still.My body shivers, takes flight with the chill. As you step towards me my will, it goes weak.My soul ignites with a burning heat Feelings grow stronger you hold me near.Can’t hold back minds filled with fear. Your touch is so gentle my heart starts to race.You cannot see my tear-stained face. My love, it cries out trapped deep inside.My soul wants free no longer to hide. © LML

Untitled 2
Untitled 2 I can't get you out of my head Even after I crawl into bed My dreams are filled with visions of you Ones of which I want to come true I can't get you out of my heart You've been there from the very start Filling up the empty spaces And taking all the others' places

Mean This Much To Me
Mean This Much To Me I know this wasn't meant to be And that I could be on my way But I won't leave until you see Every reason I need to stay I would stop breathing without you I need you to push me along Without you I wouldn't make it through Because with you is where I belong I know it's hard for you to believe That you mean this much to me But it's time for you to leave So I guess you'll never see My heart stops beating when you're gone I need to learn to live on my own I have to figure out what's going on It turns out I've always been alone I always thought I needed you But it seems as though I was wrong So now I think we're finally through Because now I know where I belong So now it's time to say goodbye I hope that life treats you right I know I won't have to cry Because now you're out of sight

A Really Shitty Day !!!!
today is a bad day. my phone doesn't work right, my daughter is fighting with my ex, & other people around me are either idiots or assholes. I'm surrounded by a swill of apathy & ignorance, & no one knows or cares. I am in a job where 55% of what I make is gone before I can even siff the check, between taxes & child support. Don't get me wrong I don't mind paying the support @ all because it goes to my babies, but no oneis appreciative of that sacrifice. no one says thanks & certain people always are asking for more... my job is completely unfulfilling & I hate getting up in the morning, because I am (as it seems) the ONLY person qualified to do anything. thus everyone else gets the "easy" jobs. the ones that take zero skills, & are never worried about accountability... I'm so broke I can't even pay attention & not sure how this weeks bills, but that's ok. maybe I'll just get everything shut off cuz @ this point it don't matter to me.if your reading & r commenting this don't think I wi

Hospital
when i went out to dinner i forgot to bring my meds and i had a kidney stone attack iam so lucky when i do puke i puke only body acid but after doing so it really took its toll on me i had to leave and go to the er and once i got there i got treated pretty badly by the triage nurse the man was a prick and here iam sicker then a dog and very weak could not even carry my self that well and grabing my left hip when i told him he needs to stop being a jerk to me then he got all butt hurt and told everyone i called him a jerk and said he was done and going to take piss so another nurse had to help me and she was nice in fact everyone but that asshole was my appointment is on the may14 when there going to shake the living shit right out of me and hopeing to break the stones since its a 8mm well i have to go cant let this stop me iam going to walmart to get a few things leave me love and comments and i well rutn the love thank you

Walk With Me
Walk with meShhhh…If you listen you might hearThe sweet sound of loveBeing whispered in your earThe warm soft kissesLaid gently upon your skinOpen your heartAnd let love come inHold it tightWithin your embraceA new day is comingFor you to faceSo take my handAnd walk with meFrom dawn to duskTo our destinyTogether we will make itAnd others will seeI was meant for youAnd you were meant for me.I love you Andy!Straight from my heart to you!!

Sexual Energy..god I Feel It
Libra - Lovescope Weekly HoroscopeYour graciousness will be rewarded. The Universe thanks you for your generosity, for a lost soul needed it more than you, Libra. You may think that love plays only second fiddle, but wait until the close of the week. You'll be pleasantly surprised by the sexual energy in the air. Again, the Universe thanks you for your generosity! Enjoy yourself.

I Like You...yes You...you Know Who You Are;)
I Like You " I don't know you very well but Iknow enough to tell," I like you. "Everytime I look into your eye's,my heart start's beating like thefourth of July and it feel's sowarm and it feel's so true,.. Ijust want to say," I like you."I don't Know you very well but Iknow you have this magic spell,it tell's me what I need to know,.that I like you, like you so.See my lip's and read my mind,I wrote this ryhme to say what's true,. "That I like you."

Cancer
I got diagnosed with cancer a couple of months ago. Im getting to the point where all the tv commercials for cancer centers and such are going to incite me to violence against such "hospitals" very soon. the washington DHS has informed me today that due to the early stage of the disease and relative ease in treating it theyre not going to allow me state sponsored medical care. They suggested I go find myself a job with good health benefits. I ask how Im supposed to do that when I was having difficulty finding any job since the last one I got downsized out of a few months ago before I found out and they didnt have an answer for that. I am really kinda starting to feel that I may well hate America in general and not just the rich assholes whos primary function it is to fuck over the poor. I mean the rest of yall keep going along with the system too so why do I continue to make the distinction. oh well. kinda wish it was more advanced so at least id have some idea how long ive got seeing

Wanting You
It has been almost a year, Since we last talk. I have never forgotten you in my thoughts. The way we danced our short soul dance. The way we talked about being together. I thought you were gone forever. I had a dream that you returned. I told myself it could not be real. You have her now, She has a strong hold. I wrote to you and just said Hi. You responded back, Asking me to call. Three days straight you communicated. Now its silent, No words from you. You have a hold, I dont understand. You are always there, Within my heart. I sit and wonder if the day will come, That you will come and stay forever. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved.

To: Joy-with Love~
A gentle word like a spark of light, Illuminates my soul And as each sound goes deeper, It's YOU that makes me whole There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still And yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life I'll do the same for you, you know, My Beautiful, Darling Joy I love you, Joy Again, Thank you! ~W.H. 2009~

A Touch Never Felt
How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, And the yearning grows more each day I have never wanted anything in my life As much as I want you You make me melt into a puddle Of complete helplessness You have become my every waking thought And my every dream at night I breathe in so hard Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk I close my eyes so tight Hoping when I open them you will be there But I know I have to wait Until the time is right It seems so far away That I think I am losing my mind I want to breathe in your scent And keep it with me all day long By kissing your sweet lips I want to feel your body next to me So when you leave for awhile I can hold on I just want you to know If the day ever comes and we are together You will always know and feel this Every moment of the day and night ...You will never have another touch unfelt.Poem By Tammy C.

My Own City
It’s been long years while I am waitingI don’t know what I am waitingDo I wait your forgiveness???Or I am waiting the water to get back to the old dry river??I know that I didn’t leave any space in your heartAs we didn’t leave any place in old DamascusEvery street has its own memoryIt presents a story of our bookEvery step presents a step in our journeyOur finished journey our finished storyEven the roads of Damascus are still hereAnd here you are my eveJust like old Damascus which never left its peoplesAs my heart never left your loveThat I became like qassyounAs long as Damascus is aliveIt will be hereThe never separatedIf my heart was qassyon Your love will be old Damascus- - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - -- - - - -W.B:FAR7AN

Messeges We Had
She said:He tells me while we are dancingTells me how much he careHow much he loves meHe builds a castle for meTo be the queenThe night princessHe makes me walk in my kingdomLike a spring streamHe holds me ,grap my handsAnd fly over the cloudsHe tells me poetry none ever heardHe makes my heart meltHe bring tears to my eyesAnd suddenlyAll this world callaps downIts end when the song endsAnd every thing become normal when we go back to our tablesHe didn’t even tell me what is his nameHe didn’t even ask what is my nameWhy???????And I said:The names aren’t importantThe place we are in isn’t importantThe flesh we touch isn’t importantMy name incase you want to know is: soulAnd your name for me will always be: perfectYour place for me will always be : in my dreamsAnd this night will always be : a night of my life----------------------------------------------------------------By the way she wrote that on a tissueAnd I answered her on a rose leavesThat was long ti

Lets Make This Clear...
Obviously a few of you cant read and a few of you are very judgemental assholes.I know Ive been ranting alot lately but Im very tired of bullshit here.When I first started it was really fun and good times and now its "friends" preaching at me out of the blue.I dont need anyones lectures.Im an adult woman and I will do as I please.If you dont like me asking for things from my friends then dont be my friend.The reason I do not feel bad about asking for help from friends is because I try to give in return.I bling my friends when I can afford credits.I give away fu bucks when I catch that someone needs them if I have them (no one ever helps me with those when I ask) I will do anything I possibly can if a friend here asks me.I am no spoiled bitch..Well I may be spoiled but Im not bitch or snob.I will speak to you and I will talk to you if you want to have a normal conversation and not one about my ass or how fine I am.I am intelligent and I am a lady.If you think Im some whore because I do

My Love
I have been married two years to the sexiest man around. I never thought I'd find someone that matched up with me as close as my husband. We finsh each other's sentences, read each others minds, I think we have seriously connected. I hope I stay connected with my husband and we grow old together. ~Tony I love Sweety~ Vicky!!!!

Double-standards......do You Think I Should Remove All My Nsfw Pics?
: marklee (Stepped away) Turkey subject: hi dear received: 05/11/2009 04:23 pm replied: no block this member Flag as spam pls remove your nsfw photos or leave them only for me,cause ya my wife and dont want ppl will see youhugs and kisses all over you

Auction Virgins Auction
Come on and check out these lovely auction virgins willing to do things just for you. You know you want to. Each lovely lady has listed exactly what she is willing to do for the highest bidder. Take a look and bid on these beautiful ladies. All of them are 1st time auction virgins so be nice and show them a ton of love. Just got to my auction folder and take a look. Here is the link to my auction folder check it out. http://www.fubar.com/myimages.php?albumid=1672169

My First Baby
okay so it's almost time for me to go into labor, this is my first baby so i don't know what to expect. i'v been getting really nervous and wondering am i going to be a good mother. i know that's normal, but i can't help it anyway. How do i stop from feeling like this????

The Way I Am's Gotten Me Nowhere
Well, I think it's time for me to make some adjustmensts to myself. I admit that I've been a real softy and let people take advantage of me for way too long, so consider myself an underdog. People told me to stay the way I am, but they way I am didn't get me anywhere but being ran over. I'm not gonna be an asshole, but I gonna have to stand up for myself and hold my ground. I'm still gonna stay true to myself. I just gotta stop taking crap from everyone, and start standing up to myself. I'm not doing this for anybody, I'm doing this for myself. I gotta have better respect for myself. I mean, come on, I don't have the greatest social skills or charisma or being the smoothest person in the world, but I'm real and respectful to everybody. Maybe I'm too inexperience or soft. Maybe I'm too desperate or way too demanding for attention. Maybe I just don't fit in or too nice to people. Maybe I am an outcast or a misfit. I don't know. I just need to find myself and figure out who

Pleh
Pleh..... I stayed over with iDaHo last night cuz her car had broke down so I could give her a ride to work. Shortly after dropping her off, my phone rang and it was the transitional place apologizing that they had a situation come up and it had to be dealt with today. They rescheduled my interview for next Friday morning at 10am. I did ask her how long it takes to find out after the interview if I had been accepted in and she said it takes a few weeks because they check everything out to see where they are able to help you. I guess thats gonna put it another few weeks out :( I am tired today, didnt sleep well last night, but thats nothing unusual as of late. The weather here this weekend is suppose to be the *bomb*, gonna be up to 80 which will be a BIG differnce from the 50's. Have a great day all! Muahz!

Relationships
Ok so i was dating this woman for like almost a year , but we have been off and on for almost 3 years but anyways we finally broke it off and the whole reason for the break off i dont understand but maybe one of the smart ladies on here can shed some light, she said i worked too much and called me a selfish immature piece of shit cause i would not leave work to run her here or there any time she wanted , but yet she liked all the nice things money can buy so i guess i was caught in a catch 22, so i guess my question in the whole matter is should i have done what she asked or did i do the right thing and say thats it i cant take it no more. So i guess till i find out if i was going about it wrong i will never know....

Missing
the days go by and i feel the better part of my die.heart turned cold,no tears to cry.the person i was faded till there was nothing left to see.there is no evidence of the person i used to be.when everything is taken away and your left with cold reality.living in it everyday.there are no promises of a better tomorrow.each and everyday your memory leaves lingering sorrow.what do you do when everything you thought falls apart?all the love you had is no longer in your heart.the world seems to turn black and the happiness you felt is no more.what do you have left when you forget what there is to live for?

Just Once (repost)
JUST ONCEI WISH I DIDNT MISS HERJUST ONCEI WISH I COULD HOLD HERJUST ONCEI WISH I COULD SEE HER SMILEJUST ONCEI WISH I COULD LOOK INTO HER EYESJUST ONCEI WISH I COULD SLEEP BY HER SIDEJUST ONCEI WISH I COULD MAKE HER BREAKFAST IN BEDJUST ONCEI WISH I COULD HOLD HER HANDJUST ONCEI WISH SHE WAS HEREJUST ONCEI WISH I WAS THEREJUST ONCEI WISH I DIDNT HAVE TO HANG UP THE PHONE

Submission Part 7
My hands wander over your muscles diggn my nails in to pull you closer . Hearing you cry out as I do this only spurs me on more . You brought this out in me . Biting your lip now as you try to pull back from my kiss . Your hair like silk in my hands as I tug you back in place . Licking your lips tasting the essence of you . With a roar you say something to me that I didnt quite understand but the look on your face tells me all I need to know .. grrr ...No words said as you toss my legs over your shoulders and penetrate me . Screaming out your name ...driving deep in me as my nails rake down your skin ...this is what I wanted more than life itself .. Your hot thickness impales me with each slam home ...more I keep screaming out . Fevered kisses I trace on whatever skin I can touch . Clenching around all of you ...I hear you cry out wommmmmmman please . Driving by a passion I will never give up .... Bucking up against you drives you wild with lust harder you pound me trying to

What Costume?
So I got envited to a Twilight themed Birthday Party. I really want to wear a costume not anything exactally as the movie but as close as I can get when I throw together outfits. What are your thoughts? Who should it be? if you've seen the movie and have a spific outfit a character is wearing what part in the movie is it?

A Man Without A Country
EASTON, Pa. — A man who previously claimed Pennsylvania courts have no jurisdiction over him because he's his own country has been sentenced to jail. A Northampton County judge sentenced 44-year-old Scott Allan Witmer to three days to six months in jail Friday and fined him $2,500 for driving under the influence. In March, Witmer appeared in court wearing a Coors Light sweatshirt and said Pennsylvania laws didn't apply to him because he is a "sovereign man." Later, he pleaded guilty to driving under the influence. On Friday, Witmer acknowledged it was "definitely wrong" for him to drive on the night of his arrest. Wearing a Coors Light sweatshirt in court, nows there's a PR idea!

Cupcakes And Trees
so this guy is walking through the park and sees another man with his arms around a tree.He asks him why and the tree hugger replies, I am listening to the trees. you should try it sometime it's very soothing.Out of sheer curiousity the man proceeds to wraps his arms around three.The tree hugger proceeds to handcuff the man to the tree strip him and rob him.man 1 very embarrased calls for help from another passerby... the passerby approaches andasks what happened. with much shame he tells his story, man 3 proceeds to stand behind him forcefully and say " it just ain't your day cupcake."

I'll Miss Me Lovah's L0l :p
I won't be on as much.*not like it will make a difference* :p I'll busy with me oldest babies graduation,and movin and all that fun stuff. Come June I'll be back on to terrorize everyone of ya,sooooo don't forget.*evil laugh* :p Nuhtiiiing to with this BOOOM!BOOOM! Firepower! *minty kisses* fi all who deserve it,and a huge pffffffffft to the rest! =)

What's The Winning Formula?
In my experience as an internet broadcaster, I have seen hundreds of streams come and go. Many were individuals who believe that it simply takes is a piece of software and a large music selection and viola', you're a radio station. Others tried to reinvent the wheel at every turn and buckled under the strain. Finally the last group of would-be stations got so hung up in the competition and drama that resulted from it, that it wounded them beyond recovery. So what has Justice Radio done where others have failed? A great team. I have always thought that our success and tenure was a direct result of a great and talented staff. One of my Superpower (yes, we all have them. Some more than others) is management. I am a gifted communicator and a very social speaker. I can quickly (and usually very accurately) evaluate and weigh the skills of people and apply them to tasks or challenges faced. I built a great team. More importantly, we all nurtured that team into a family. That is our strengt

My Brain Isn't Working
So i was taking a shower... and when i got out i started brushing my hair... for some reason i had a bagillion tangles! then i realized... i forgot to put the conditioner in my hair.... it feels like straw > .

Riding The State
Tomorrow morning I begin my ride. I plan on riding from where I live on the east coast of Florida south to Miami. From Miami across Alligator Alley and then up the West Coast of Florida to Pensacola. Then back to the east coast and head south home. My journey will take me over 1500 miles. Hopefully I will complete the entire journey and not cut off part of the trip. That will depend on how I feel along with weather conditions. I do plan on taking plenty of pictures.

Learned
Learned you should only rely on yourself...Everyone else will let you down Darkness is your only true friend..... NO one sees your flaws there Thinking you know someone is a sad mistake... they only pretend to be what you want them to be You are better off alone then you can only be disappointed in yourself Things will NEVER be the way you think they should be ... So why bother trying?

Phone Fury
I think I may just get rid of my phone. It seems to be nothing but an annoying piece of equipment that brings me even more annnoyances. It collects them, and sends them to me. It was another "Dad phone call day" today. We exchanged pretty heated words and I think I hurt his feelings, but I just snapped a little bit. He started on the work thing, which was ok, except instead of just checking on how things were going, he had to issue every single option again, this time empahsising the move back in with your brother one. Even though that was my last option, period. He actually told me I should be looking at schools up there so I can go back to being a full time student. Despite the fact that I have bills to pay. You can get loans! I'm PAYING loans right now, doesn't seem wise to pay a loan with a loan. Then he started up on me dating again. I swear to fucking god I'm so annoyed with THAT topic right now, I always have been. He's constantly trying to set me up with people, even though I

Drink Or Food??
some peoples are like foodany kind of foodno matter yummy it was or badno matter u liked it or notat the end of the day u just gonna poop it outthe most expensive caviaror just a peice of breadthey all have to go through the same way down to the p exitso dont bother ur self looking of which kind of food u want to belolmy selfi am like water,juice,drinksanykind of themcuz even after i get out of the p exiti return to be a steamthen a cloudthen damnnn rainand yes now u can imagine which human being urine dropsu r enjying when u dance in the rainnahhh m just kidding uyes i knowI AM CRAZYBUT I DO ENJOY ITDO U??-----------------W.B: FAR7AN

Thank You Andy- Xoxo
Together For everWe'll be friends and Lovers till the endTogether. ForeverThrough the Highs and LowsAnd all the stormy WeatherNo-one will ever part usWe'll stick together like glueIf you look after me My friendAnd I'll Look after youAnd never mind what hardshipscome our wayWell make it through to fight another day Another dayBecause we are friends as well as lover'swe stick together like glueI Love You Leannxoxo

My 1st Auto 11
Hi first i want to thank Foxitoxi for buying my first auto 11. Thank you from the botton of my heart.this was the most exciting thing that has happened to me on fubar.all the new friends and fans omg.and of course the bombing lol.the responds to my auto 11 was over whelming. i would like to take this time to thank each and everyone one of you. much love. i will remember you always. and for my friends family and fans that did,t, well thats a different story, but still love you all.on the 3rd of the month i will buy my blings. will give them out to my heavy raters. agin thank you for making thisa memorable time. Muah!!!!

Untitled
so i have not the faintest clue where to begin, i'm hurting so bad right now that i'm pushing away the one person who i love with all my heart. i've waited for this man for 2 years and then i had him, and because of something that happened while we were dating, another man took from me what belonged to my love, i lost myself. i never told the man i loved til just recently. i didn't know what to think, i didn't know what to feel. i was ashamed and i couldn't look my love in the eyes. i felt dirty and i was permanently tainted. i no longer belonged solely to him, some other man took that away. he's hurt because i didn't tell him. he says i should have told him, he says that's not something u keep from the man u love. how do u look at the man u love and tell him your body is no longer solely his? how do u look at the man u love and tell him what another man took from u? not to mention that i was scared. i was told by the guy who did this to me that he would hurt him if i told

Always Something
I don't get life at all, things are never easy are they? I love this man I am with but things are not right at all within our relationship, I don't know if it will ever be again I am very unsure.. To top things off a ex of mine that I am close to and will always hold close to my heart said to me I think we should betogether I think I am the one you should marry, I asked how would we even make it work if we wanted to really try.. He said what he would do I was like I see.. So then I am sitting here and not being able to help what comes to mind his words are there.. Then I see his stat on here says how he is sick of head games, I was like what is that about? He said he kept getting blown off all week??? I asked by who he said some girl, how the hell is he going to tell me he thinks we should be together and be upset some girl is blown him off.. I know I know I have a man why I even care, well *sigh* I feel like my man and I are having so many issues when my ex said that shi

Sorry I Know Not Another 1
P { MARGIN: 0px } UL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } OL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } things are so twisted right now, I have to say honest I feel like if I don't talk to him if I let him come to me he wants to talk, well more then he has been.. Also when he knows something is wrong he wants to talk to find out whats wrong but once he knows and talks to me about it he is busy again.. By the way talking has more so been texting talking, like right now he is texting me because I told him I am listening to music and writing blogs he said why whats wrong I said I just need to write right now he said I know its about me, I was like more so about how I feel again he asks whats wrong and said again I know its about me or us because you always do write about it.. I said things just dont seem the same when ever we talk I feel like I am bothering you *mind you this is through texts* so far he has not responded to that one, witch makes me think I am just bothering

My 21st Bday :)
Soo my bday is comin up. I need some thoughts on what to do since it's my big 21!! I have a few in mind. Some of you are probably gonna think im crazy LOL but im goin all out b/c all my other birthdays have SUCKED so i want this one to leave me breathless :) So here's some of what im thinkin, n you have anything you wanna add on just leave a comment. I could use all the ideas i can get!! 1. first off, gotta make reservations at the hotel my friends and i are gonna stay at!! so, should i get a 2 bed balcony room that overlooks the french quarter in new orleans? or should i get a suite?! either way its gonna be at this hotel called The Inn on Bourbon Street :) Such a wonderful hotel! They have a beautiful bar and pool, hehe. 2. was gonna go to lunch with my mom and grandma (yes, family comes first!). 3. was gonna go to dinner with my family and friends at this restaurant called cuco's here (mexican mmm). Mainly b/c it has a bar n it's a nice place :) 4. my friends and I are gon

From My Honey
Hi..... honey was just dreaming of u yes yes .... u I love your soft kisses. I love your soft touch. I love the way you bite your lip. I love you soooooo much. I love the way you look at me. I love the way you smile. I love the way you're shy sometimes, Every once and a while. I love it when you look at me, When I'm not looking at you. You think I do not realize it, But really...I do. I love the way you cuddle. I love the way you sleep. I love the way you rub your neck, when you are thinking so deep. I love all of you, Your nose, your lips, your hair, your feet. I will never stop loving you. You are so amazingly sweet. I love that I love you. I have loved you from the very start. I LOVE ALL OF YOU, I now hand you the key to my heart. Honey.......

Untitled
AS THE SUN RISES ON ANOTHER DAY HERE IT DRAWS ME CLOSER TO THE ONES I LOVE SO DEAR IT HAS BEEN EIGHT LONG MONTHS SINCE I LEFT THEM ON THAT DAY AND IT WAS TOUGH TO HEAR THEM SAY DADDY PLEASE DON'T GO I WANT YOU TO STAY, AND I HAVE TO TELL THEM THAT I WOULD IF I COULD BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL UNSTAND THAT DADDY HAS A JOB LIKE ALOT OF OTHER MEN, IT IS ONE OF HONOR AND INTERGITY AND ALSO PRIDE ONE THAT DOES NOT ALLOW HIM TO RUN AND HIDE SO AS I WIPE AWAY THIER TEARS AND LOOK THEM IN THE EYES AND I SAY PLEASE DON'T CRY, AND THEY ASK ME WHY, I SAY TO THEM THAT YOU SHOULD BE STRONG AND KNOW THAT YOUR DADDY GOES INTO HARMS WAY TO HELP KEEP THE BAD GUYS AWAY AND AS THEY LOOK UP AT ME WITH THIER LITTLE FACE I FEEL THIS EMBRACE NOT FROM THEM BUT FROM THIS OTHER SOURCE IT FELT LIKE AN ANGEL OF COURSE BUT WHEN I TURNED AROUND TO SEE WHO IT WAS, I WAS IN A DAZE BECAUSE THERE I WAS, IN THE BRACE OF THE ONE I LOVE HOLDING ME AND SHOW ME SOME LOVE SHE SAID GO AND DO YOUR JOB, FOR I KNOW IT IS HARD

The Break Up
P { MARGIN: 0px } UL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } OL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } the breakup well things have not been going well for a little while now.. I went to talk to him and it was a big fight I felt things did not add up, and went to call him out on it, we both got angry and I said fuck it bring me my key.. He was mad and said fine that's what you want and hung up on me.. I should have worded my words so different, but these feelings have been building up inside me.. All I did was make him mad and push him away to the point of no return.. I still have my doubt, now even more so, if he really cared and if there really is no one else, he would have talked to me about it and I don't think he would have been so mad in doing so. He feels like I am acting like his ex nagging and saying he is doing something he is not.. I did not mean to come across like that, all I really wanted is him to make me feel like what I am feeling is not what

Details
okay so I have decided to add some more detail about me in this thing. it will be interesting to see if anyone bothers lol!. So I am a safety advisor for a large energy company, and I make a very comfortable living from it, Im not going to post a dollar figure but if its that important to you ask me and I will be happy to tell you:). I love Hisotry and have studied it all my life, I hate math lol. electrical storms get me hot!! I know wierd, I was an only child raised by my mom who is my hero by far. I love to dance..yes im good at it and no im not gay! smells are huge to me I love smelling yummy and if a girl walks by and smells good..whew light the fire baby lol. in my profile I mention a passing interest in video games..and now the truth lol I have three different consoles in my house, a ps2 a super nes and a nintendo 64 and the Wii will soon be added. I love moives! Back to my job, I keep people from being stupid and hurting themsleves:) I am Highangle and confined spa

Protect Your Children From Cyber Bully's
Address the issue of Internet anonymity regularly. Enforce to your child that his or her identity is not unknown. Limit identity to first name only, omitting age, address, and other personal information. Limit contact to friends from school. Step 2 Practice manners both on and off the computer. Plainly said, if your child or another won't say something to someone's face, it should be sent through text or IM. Encourage civility at all times. Explain that the lack of face to face speech and the missing inflections of speech often result in misinterpretation of the message reader. Encourage your kids to treat others like they would like to be treated as well. Step 3 Cut out the gossip. Yes, kids love to chat about this person and that. However, this frequently escalates into a full-blown fight born on the misinterpretation of a message. Remember the "pass the message" game we played as kids? Remember how the message changed by the end of the circle? Firmly telling

Special Pics
Ive always wondered when men check out your nsfw pics ,the first thing they usually say is ,can i see or how can i get to see them . my question is get to know somebody before . u want to see their special pics theres a reason they are private in the first place.

Rage Within
I sit alone cryingIn my soul dyingAll has gone All is lostThis perfect life to me is lyingSin to suffer Alliance goneA need to know my lovers songOne small touch brings me aroundTo earth I am forever boundTo list my shame with no remorseBe it mine to know you trueTime has come to do the doGo, be gone, and get far awayAnd shine bright another day

Darkness
you found me there in your world of darkness prisoner of your words caresses i begged for promises of them you offered only to pull them back to hear me cry out pleaseeeeeeeeeee your throaty words you sought out the dark and here you will stay who knew i had it in me to leave you with a parting kiss to your face to watch as you from afar glittering like diamonds in your world of dark were your tears your loss of me more than even you would admit now face this world of yours alone without me no more will i beg for you no more will my tears slide down my face while you smiled im gone from your world of dark alone you are darkness

They Felt It,but Never Told Anyone About It
As they left the resteraunt,they were a little tipsy.They were laughing and becoming very touchy,there was this unspoken ,unknown attraction between them that they noticed but never talked to each other about.The valet brought his car around ,he walked to her side and opened the door for her,as she sat down in the car seat,her dress which was slit all the way up the side ,slid across her skin and up her thigh.He moaned to himself, the sight of that soft tender flesh made his heart skip a beat.She leaned out from the seat,leaning foward,her breasts straining against the thin material of her dress.Her nipples pressed hard against the fabric,she was driving him crazy without even knowing.He walked around the car,got into the drivers side and they started to drive off.He asked her ,,,,"where to my lady",she laughed and her hand dropped and landed on his thigh,she bashfully said "how about my place for a nightcap"He could hardly talk straight ,when he just about yelled out ,yes,that sounds

Ice Capades
A mother's four-year-old daughter was attending her first performance of the Ice Capades. She was so mesmerized that she wouldn't budge from her seat even during intermission, watching the activity while the ice was cleaned. At the end of the show, she exclaimed, "I know what I want to be when I grow up!" The mother envisioned her on the ice in another 15 years, starring in the Ice Capades. She was brought back to earth when the daughter continued, "I want to be a Zamboni driver!"

Everyone
Just sitting here thinking about life and people and thought this was something everyone should know Your life sucks . My life sucks and guess what every one elses you have ever known or ever will meet their life sucks as well . No one is perfect and no one will ever be perfect it doesnt matter how much money you have how " hot " you are how may things you have . As a person it is our nature to want more or change something about ourselves And its not bad to want to better yourself or your situation but try to remember eveyone else is trying to do the same thing So the next time someone need a shoulder to cry on or a hand to hold or a few minutes of your time give it to t who knows someday you might need one of those things for yourself

Do Ppl Read These
My question is do ppl actually read the blogs that ppl write or do they rate them just for the points? do they actually care about the ppl behind the blogs... My life is in shambles at the moment as I sit and think about all that is going on in...where did I go wrong with all that could have been done differently...could I have been a better daughter to my mother? could I have been a better mother to my children? the questions keep going thru my mind without fail...over and over again... These are all normal questions that we all ask ourselves...of this I am sure...but could things have been different with my children if I had not decided to fight for my life and decide to fight for that of my children knowing now what they would go through in their lives...the stuff that I think about doing would get me committed to a hospital for sure...but it would make me feel so much better for vindicating what they had to endure and what I had to endure while living with their biological fathe

Sorry
Sorry that I made you sad, but being a fool I made things complex. I never meant to make things bad, by taking words out of context. Wrong wording at the wrong time, not how they were supposed to sound. Now i fear you wont be mine, and it drills me deep into the ground. So here I sit in my sulking pool, realizing that i truly am a fools' fool.

Nutrition—returning Vitality, One Swallow At A Time.
Last week I was convinced that we would lose Sydney very soon. She certainly looked and acted like it. She wasn’t eating, she seemed so very tired and sad. Her coat was dull and dry. I tried canned puppy food to entice her, and she ate it, a little at a time, then more, and then more. I noticed that her back hunches when she puts her head down to eat and her hind legs slide out from under her. I moved her to the carpet and raised the dish about 9 inches. She is up to a full can twice a day, which I am now mixing with 1 cup of the dry each feeding. She has watched and learned when meal preparation begins, and wolfs her food down like it is going out of style. She has used a self-filling water station for years, and after 9 years, one would think she was used to the air bubbles going “glug” when it refreshes. No, it scares her every time. I took it away and put down a still bowl of fresh water. I’m having a hard time keeping it full. Wow! She&rsqu

I'm Tired...
I don't care take this how you please, I'm just being honest so if things in the coming sentences offend you, you don't have to read on at this point. Well first off I would like to say I'm starting to dislike white people a whole lot to the point it's starting to become hatred. It's easier to say "white people" than just, "some white people". I shouldn't group people together but that's how it feels like. Why do they feel like they are the most supreme being/race on this planet. It's either they are afraid of you or they think they are better than you. I don't get it one bit. Where did this mentality come from. I've been putting up with alot of shit from white people lately because of my job. People [white] look at me in disapproval like I shouldn't have my job. That shit drives me up the fucking wall. This guy literally took a quadruple take the one day to make sure he saw what he thought he saw. While he was staring at me I say hi and to him and he says not a word to m

What Would A Woman Say If I Talked To Her With One Of These?
Last week on Friday I walked into the store at 2pm. The other manager was by himself, and had a store full of people, two of them whom demanded I wait on them as I was punching in. Now although I could see it was obvious that I needed to get started on helping clear the thicket of last minute prom brats and wedding groomsman, I also needed at least a moment to put my things away, take off my coat, etc, etc. Some people just don't factor common sense into the equation when making demands. I put my stuff away, had a glass of water...I needed it, and it was also to spite the a-hole, just enough to be sassy, not enough to be rude. I went back up front, and began helping this groom and his groomsman. The groom had already been fitted, and he is very ghetto. Trying to talk to him should require an interpretter, or someone who speaks ODB, cuz half the time I don't understand WTF is coming out of his mouth. He harrassed me about the price of the tuxedos for his wedding party, and I know dam

Yo Fellas!
So, I just answered a phone call from a *restricted* number. I only did this as a friend of mine sometimes calls me from a NAS, those #'s always show restricted. Not this time. This time it was a lady, mmm hmm. She asked who I was and explained that someone had called her "friend" from my # last night, and he wanted to know who it was. I call BS. Few of you have my #, but one of you should know that someone is soooooo checking upon on you! See, my battery was dead last night... "I know that, somebody's lieing...." Check yo'self!

School Is Out....
Well, we made it through another school year. Ian lettered in tennis, kicked ass in basketball, and got his academic letter with a 3.8 GPA. Neil made the honor roll with a 3.9 GPA......and is doing just fucking great. He's really coming out of his shell. Nevin, my baby, finished 5th grade and is officially a junior high student, as of 12:05 this afternoon. He will rule the world. The end of the school year is always a special time for me, as it gives me to reflect back upon their accomplishments....and, yet, take a break myself. I love these boys....more than I could ever explain to any of you. I've always told them....individually...."Son, you have made my job as Dad so easy, and I love you for that." We have a couple of months, then we start over again.... Happy Summer everyone. :)

From The Bottom Of My Heart...
i just want to say thank you. yes thank you all that have shown me mad love lately. most that have been on my friends/family list for awhile know im pretty quiet and keep to myself a lot..not that im rude or dont like being social..its in part of my personality. even if we were all hanging in real life,im the one sitting back watching everything,and throwing out a funny sarcastic comment here and there... however lately ive been having some heavy duty issues that have came close to drivin me over the ege..infact ive had a few meltdowns..those are never fun nor pretty.. please dont ask what about,as i said im very private and just dont talk about certain things...those that are aware,i appreciate your support and thank you for all the prayers and love. i know fu is just a site for fun and isnt the real world..thank god! lol that would be way too much drama for me! the last couple of days on here have been fun..all the rates helping me towards oracle-awesome! i only have about 58 bil

A Sad Thing
hi everyone today here in ontario we just got the news that two people of have been arrested in the kidnapping and murder of 8yr old tori stafford from woodstock, ontario. tori has been missing since early april where she was found walking with a woman from her school. the male is charged with first degree murder and kidnapping and the 18yr old female is charged with kidnapping ascessory to murder and helping the male escape. today we learned that she is dead but the police are now searching for the body. on april 25th her profile was showcased on americas most wanted. how can anyone be so cruel and sick and kill a child. we dont know if she was sexually assaulted before she was killed, but that is still dispictable. i hope they rot in jail or they get what they deserved. to any parent that has lost a child you have my heartfelt condolences. to the parents of tori i know it will be a long time before you get closer you will always feel the pain in your loss. i dont know why people do t

10 Rules
haha im getting this laminated and put up when my daughter starts dating. 10 Rules For Dating My Daughter Rule One: If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering a package, because you're sure not picking anything up.Rule Two: You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them.Rule Three: I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose his compromise: You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object. However,

New Edward Cullen Role Player
IF YOU ALL HAVE THE OLD EDWARD CULLEN ON YOUR LIST PLEASE DELETE HIM WE HAD TO REPLACE HIM PLEASE ADD THE NEW EDWARD CULLEN...THANKS LOVE YA BELLA Edward Cullen 'Twilight Role playing Profile'@ fubar

Planting Seeds For Affinity Group
I've decided to plant some seeds in honor of our new group, the Affinity. I think it will be neat to watch our seeds grow as do our friendships within the group. If anyone would like me to plant something special for them, I'd love to. Just let me know. I'll be hitting the seed store in a couple of hours here, lol, and will have you all in mind. I was excited before about this group, but now I'm Really excited...lol. If you've never heard of this group, please ask me about it, or see the Bulletins in same name. We're Everywhere...lol..and growing, I'm happy to say.

Get Double Teamed By These Two!!
Who doesnt like to get double teamed? I know you do so heres the deal You got a Princess and a Bratte wanting to double team you!! thats double the spankings, double the sweet loving and even double the fu-luvin. All you have to do it is "help us Spread our Wings"which is not that hard to do right? while your there A/F/r if u havent done so already After that the lovings will begin!!Trust me when i say this." you will not regret it at all" this is the best 2 fus around!!! ♥ஜ♥þrïñ¢ê§§ Ìrï§hï§hê¥ê§♥ஜ♥ ♥Bratte♥ Owned By ♥Photobug & Devilrocker♥ Show them both some love! let the spankings begin . lol

Just Sick Of This
I am just sick of this. i have been out of work for 6 almost 7 months now. i know i have had it easier than most since after losing my apartment i was able to move back in with my parents. but still i am sick of this. it think it is pretty sad that our government is more worried about these milti milliondollars execs getting paid than they r about trying to help those of us that actually need the money. now that my car is busted and i can not afford to fix. it has gotten to the point where my mom and i r discussing me moving in with a friend of hers back in cali just cause we both know that there is a job waiting for me there. it would not be much but at least i could start to work on getting myself out of debt. and from there i could also work a second job if i need to. heck i could move back to portland and find work cause there r places that would take me back, i jusrt would not have a place to stay. I know a lot of people, (if anyone actually readsthis) will think i am an ass cau

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Alot of times we find ourselves looking to find someone who'll be there not usually for any reason at all; normally we choose to do it too feel and hope to make our lives easier. Some of you out on Fubar; already have come to realize I am not like alot of men out there. Conversations have always been meant for just that; assuming respect comes from both ends. Yes it's common for people to flirt and the degree of doing it is one thing --limits are another. Friendship & family is what they say on here; is that what it really is though? I see alot of women on here doing much more then that...And then whine and complain when they get those assholes saying what they say. I realize I am just me and nothing to good to look at; at least I am real. All in all if you want to know me it's cool. I flirt and stuff but thats where it stay's. Granted depending on how and who you are; helps in deciding what you are too me. Love me or hate me your choice.

Kitty Doom
Light-hearted, short, and silly, this poem explores the thoughts of paranoid pet owners. Kitty Doom Kitty watches through the windowWaiting for her momentFor her claws to scritch and rendTo ruin me she triesAh! Kitty! You drive me round the bend.

Murmur, Mumble
More x-rated, this one was written the same day as "Crow Caw, Owl Hoot". As perhaps is obvious by the style. It is, however, rather short. I pondered lengthening it (that's what SHE said), but nothing quite worked. Murmur, Mumble Murmur, mumble, lithe tongue tumble,Tickle and tease with tip to please; Nibble and nip with lips to plunder,Sticky flow of girly pleasure,Suckled at with lazy leisure.Shatter, thighs asunder,Bodily shiver and vocal thunder:Thighs twitch,Girl sighed,Satisfied.

Tattooless: A Minority Of One?
That's right. I am a clean slate. No tattoos. No nothing. It's not that I don't like them, I think they are cool as hell in a 'I'll look and thats cool but no thanks' kinda way. I've just never had any real "want" to get one. Couple that with some sort of fear of needles and well..yea..here I am at 35 and no tattoo. As I get older, I am realizing I don't know anyone else without a tattoo or peircing of some sort. Oh I am sure they are out there, but I think they are afraid to come out. Like not having a tattoo or peircing is looked down upon by society as a whole and if discovered you will be drug through town, stoned, and then promptly have your respective genitalia branded (no, I don't have that either) before they tattoo a giant red "T" on your chest.I've long known many people consider tattoos "hot". Since I've been on fubar, I hear this from my friends daily. I used to think tattoos were considered "hot" because it was something of a tabboo, and only the baddest of the bad had the

May 21 - Upside Down Sideways Medical
Got call to see cancer doctor this afternoon and got my first 10 min visual inspection by the doctor. He said that he thinks the hospital staff who studied the sample taken by the general surgen came up with the wrong opinon and that I no doubt do not have skin cancer like I was formerly told. That exposure to sun did not cause tumor on the neck as the lab techs suggested. So apparently I wasted a lot of time going to hospital and so forth not to mention wasting money that SS will have to pay out The new doctor thinks that the cancer started someplace else in the body and then spread to the neck. But he has no name for what type of cancer I have as yet - because much more testing is needed. He said. More testing - scans - and so forth start tomorrow.

Why Are There Such Hater B!tches On Fubar
Now I thought Fubar was supposed to be a place to meet people make new friends and have fun. Play the game to level as quickly as you can. But I have found that there are girls on here that take this place way to seriously, and start getting a little jugemental, and even paranoid. I have encountered my share. I have encountered the ones that randomly hate, the downraters, the ones that think cause there blingers are giveing me bling I must have befriended them to go on their page to get them to bling me. Hell to the nutuh. I dont do that shit. I get bling cause I am a nice girl who is nice to people around me. even when I have been attacked on here I still stay true to form and am nice. I might block a person But you have to do something really stupid like call my man names or say something sexual to me in shout or comment . For the most part I forgive and forget. That is my nature. So to all those Haters out there. Keep your hate to yourself. Stop Being selfish stu

Those Eyes
Wonder who is she… Who are those eyes They leave an image They draw me a scene When the day gets arduous And hopes begin to die she steps to me softly they keep me alive they play with me they play to me they colour my sleep they light my life and when they look away when they look away time tends to stop every wish, each hope life stops

Dream Or Fantasy
a dream is a fantasy that one creates in his mind, sometimes you are lucky and the dream you find, once you have it in your grasp, all you can do is pray that it lasts, when you find the one who has your heart, it is almost impossible to break it apart, how do you know if this is the other part of you? that its not an illusion and you end up a fool? sometimes a dream is what we are in search of, sometimes it is so full of love, and sometimes a dream is a fantasy full of lust, building up the passion feeling you will combust, filling your mind with such thoughts and desire, making you feel like your soul is on fire, do you try to fufill this dream?or go with the fanasy?or somewhere in between?

U Know Who U Are.
a dream is a fantasy that one creates in his mind, sometimes you are lucky and the dream you find, once you have it in your grasp, all you can do is pray that it lasts, when you find the one who has your heart, it is almost impossible to break it apart, how do you know if this is the other part of you? that its not an illusion and you end up a fool? sometimes a dream is what we are in search of, sometimes it is so full of love, and sometimes a dream is a fantasy full of lust, building up the passion feeling you will combust, filling your mind with such thoughts and desire, making you feel like your soul is on fire, do you try to fufill this dream?or go with the fanasy?or somewhere in between?

Something Diff From My Complaining
**So, here's how it works:** 1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc) 2. Put it on shuffle 3. Press play 4. For every question, type the song that's playing 5. When you go to a new question, press the next button 6. Don't lie ♣ Opening Credits:♣ When Doves Cry-- Ani DiFranco (cover song) ♣ Waking up:♣ Bang Your Head Mental Health -- Quiet Riot ♣ First Day at Highschool:♣ Simple Man -- Hank Williams Jr ♣ Falling In Love:'♣ Wicked Games -- Chris Isaak ♣ Fight Song:♣ American Honky Tonk Bar Association -- Garth Brooks ♣ Breaking Up:♣ Running On Empty -- Jackson Browne ♣ Prom:♣ Everything Dies -- Type O Negative ♣ Life:♣ Signs -- Tesla ♣ Mental Breakdown:♣ The Sounds of Silence -- Simon and Garfunkel ♣ Driving:♣ Mack the Knife -- Sinatra ♣ Flashback:♣ Like A Virgin -- Madonna ♣

I Love U
Beware these wordsFor, if the emotion is genuine when spoken and that feeling is returned,You will be blessed to be bind in joy and ecstasy to comeBeware this phraseFor, if the aim is deception in order to steal one’s virtue and that affection is vapid or emptyYou will be cursed with the pain from the illicit lust sought and receivedBeware this statementFor, no matter the desire in your soul or the ambition seething in your flesh,You will be changed no matter the time or seasonThese words are only three, but, they wield power regardlessSo, take care when used

For The Rest Of My Life.....
For the rest of my life there are two days that will never again trouble me. The first day is yesterday with all its blunders & tears, its follies & defeats. Yesterday has passed away, beyond my control forever. The other day is tomorrow with its pitfalls & threats, its dangers & mystery. Until the sun rises again, I have no stake in tomorrow, for it is till unborn. ~ Og Mandino, in the Return of the Ragpicker This is so beautiful that I just had to.....

Contest
HEY EVERYONE...IM IN A CONTEST RUNNING UNTIL MAY 31ST...ITS FOR FU'S MOST SEXIEST WOMAN....JUST NEED UR RATE AND COMMENTS IF YOU FEEL LIKE LEAVING THEM.....I AM WILLIN TO PAY 10K FUBUCKS FOR 100 COMMENTS.......THANKS ......HUGE HUGS TO ALL MY FRIENDS

Im So Cute That I Make You Say Daaammmmmmnnn!
So where do I begin.Hmmm Ive been enjoying this blog thing here on fubar lately.I was a number one blogger on another website Im on soooo makes me wanna blog alot again lol.I miss the fame ROFL! So first I would like to thank the men and women who make me feel so welcome here.You guys rock! I try my best to speak with everyone I can but I have 3200 friends so that isnt easy.I hate getting a shoutbox comment saying why are you ignoring me..Im not ignoring anyone but I have lots of love to return and lots of people to return it to.I do the best I can.Dont be mad at me. Sooo what has been going on in my fab life lately? Been getting back into the swing of the gym since I got hurt.Im feeling good but pretty damn sore.I dont look cute when I leave the gym.I sweat and I work out hard.Getting the body Im dying for isnt easy.Hopefully Ill achieve it one of these years lol.Im not a skinny girl and as must as I wish for it..well it wont happen lol. Today I bought some new hairstuff and hot ass m

Omfg!!!
ATTN:Lukas Grew Between You and David Baker David Baker Add as Friend Today at 9:39am Report Message Alexander JLO - Solicitors11 Lanark SquareGlengall BridgeLondon E14 9REUnited Kingdom. Tel: +44 704 5757 999 Fax: +44 794 4416 262 Good day Lukas, This is a personal E-mail directed to you and I request that it be treated as such. I am Barrister David Baker, a solicitor at law. I am the personal attorney/sole executor to the late Engr. Gerald Grew, hereinafter referred to as 'my client' who worked as an independent oil magnate in my country and who died in a plane crash with his immediate family in December 2003. Since the death of my client, I have written several letters to the embassy with an intent to locate any of his extended relatives whom shall be claimants/beneficiaries of his abandoned personal estate and all such efforts have been to no avail.More-so, I have received official letters in the last few weeks suggesting a likely proceeding for confiscation

A Friend
A friend is like a flower, a rose to be exact, Or maybe like a brand new gate that never comes unlatched. A friend is like an owl, both beautiful and wise. Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost, whose spirit never dies. A friend is like those blades of grass you can never mow, standing straight, tall, and proud in a perfect little row. A friend is like a heart that goes strong until the end. Where would we be in this world if we didn't have a friend.

The Goodnight Kiss Part 2
as he presses his lips against hers,he reaches for the lock,keys in his hand.Unlocking it and turning the knob,they both fall into the house,her still with her legs wrapped around his waist.she lets her legs touch the floor ,looks into his eyes ,hers FILLED WITH WILD CARNAL LUST,,,she places her hands on his chest ,shoving him back against the wall hard,grabbing his shirt,she pulls and rips it open,buttons flying everywhere,she yanks it down his arms,leaving his hands bound by the fabric.She looks him up and down,licking her lips,biting her lower lip,and groaning ,,,,oh hell yeah!!!!!She runs her hands ,slowly over his chest,,feeling it raise and lower as his breath quickens,,with a sly grin,she rakes her bright red nails ,slowly down his chest,,,purrrrrring ,tell me how bad you want me,as she pinches his nipple.she steps even closer and asks,,,do you want to take my body,and do as you please with me,as if i belonged to you?He can only stare at her,not saying a word,,wide eyed,he swall

Faq - About Me
HAHAHA you're actually reading this -- your life must be pretty boring!!!(almost as dull as mine) For those of you who care and want to get to know me on a more intimate level, I wanted to write a short blog answering some FAQs I get with this profile. What are you like once I get to know you? Pretty Much the same -- never miss the opportunity to splash in a puddle...late night poetry readings...horror flicks...trips to the art museum..coffee with friends..that's me in a nut shell. I can be a total goof and I'm actually a repressed geek. I have very eclectic tastes' in just about everything. Even though I've matured I will never be a grown up!!! *** I promise I am NOT intimidating, I get this a lot though and i don't know why!!! If you do please tell me!!!! *** Not really a bitch... My sarcasm and bluntness often get me labeled or mistakenly labeled as a "bitch". I kinda resent that because I'm a very empathetic person and if you give me a chance I'll truly be your best friend. It's

See Ya Fubar
Well, I came back to fubar for awhile and got an awesome reception from my old friends. Unfortunately, I've stopped by to a few of their pages to say hi and got nothing back. Things have also died in the way of communication. No ones fault, just tired of seeing nothing new when i sign in. On friday, my day off, I am deleting my fubar user. For those of you that wish to stay in touch, I will try and have my yahoo on during my days off.

To Everyone Who Wonders Where I've Been
I have been having computer issues as of late so I have not been able to get on here. Managed to get all for all of 3 seconds or so some time ago but have not really been able to get on in over a week. If you have friended me or sent me messages, feel free to resend. Trying to catch up with things here....will be on for short bits here and there until I get everything fixed and taken care of. Have a great Memorial Day weekend everyone :)

Naughty It
One Dark night, where the sky is covered by the clouds, which makes it even darker, and has the smell of rain in the air. You are getting ready to go out to this new club Lusty Lilith’s Place better know as Lusty Lil’s where every ones fantasy comes true. You slide your silky Red boxers on, and thoughts run threw your head, then you slide your loose fitting blue jeans on and think “I wonder if she will be there.” you slide your damp wife beater on, it is humid and you know its about to rain. You look at your watch with a little Excitement, “almost time,” You grab your leather Jacket and a baseball cap as you walk out the door. More thoughts run through you head. You think about all the messages you have been writing to each other and how you hope this will work out. You stop and think some more as you close and lock the door. The words from the screen keep playing in you head. “ Meet me at Lusty Lil’s and ill make it worth your wild!&r

Please Follow Your Dream...
Trouble arrives in measures,and we stack it up real high,until we're convinced,we have no reason to try.If you feel defeated,you're absolutely wrong,for if you follow your dream,you could never lose for long.Ignore the minor set-backsthat pile up and trouble you,or you will build a mountain,out of the stones hurled at you.The future holds great promise,your destiny unknown,but God is always helping,and you're never alone.Soar bravely toward your goal.Let nothing darken the way.You can change your tomorrow,if you seek your dream today.

Work In Progress: Operation Trojan Horse: Part 4
Operation Trojan Horse Part 4 It was another busy Friday night at the watering hole. The workers at the port had been paid earlier in the evening and had turned out in force. Most drank to forget. To numb the pain of their dismal and dreary lives. To escape from the foreman, the work, the wife, their debts……whatever their nemesis in life might be. Amongst the honest workers, the dishonest were also hard at work, planning and plying their nefarious trades. The inn had become notorious as a meeting place for criminals and other unsavoury characters. Life was precious to all of them, so nobody interfered in anyone else’s business. A man in a shabby looking cloak entered the inn and looked around. In the corner, he spotted who he was looking for and began to make his way towards him. “So, what do you have for me today?”

I Wish You Enough
Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, 'I love you and I wish you enough'.The daughter replied, 'Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom'.They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?''Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking,but why is this a forever good-bye?'.'I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back will be for my funeral,' she said.'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?'She began to smile. 'Tha

Confused And I Like It
I met this Sexy girl that I just can't get out of my head and I don't know why. The only real problem is the fact that we are almost two thousand miles apart. I can't say for sure if I'm fallilng for her but I do know that she brightens my day and what I am feeling is very strong. So if she reads this I just want her to know that I am very gratful to have met her and would one day likee to see her live and spend some real time with her.

Get Some Bux & Help A Friend
Nothing fancy today. Just asking for help from even 10% of my 24,000 friends lol I have autos active..FINALLY! WOOOT! I will pay 10,000 fubucks per 100 pic rates andor 15,000 fubucks per bombing- I dont really need the bucks i just wanna level and I am a little under 5 mil from doing it! Just be sure to comment the last pic of the album you rate and pm me how many you got when you are done! I will be doing this all through tonight until the HH's are over. doesnt matter if they are 10's or actual 11's just whatever you can spare! Thanks in advance to all my awesome friends who do and will help! *smooches and lix* Brought to you by the one and only ~♥Temptress♥Head Promoter@Sex Kittens/greeter@NBH@ fubar

The Soldier's Night Before Christmas
The Soldier's Night Before Christmas Twas the night before Christmas, he lived all alone, In a one bedroom house made of plaster & stone. I had come down the chimney with presents to give And to see just who in this home did live. I looked all about a strange sight I did see, No tinsel, no presents, not even a tree. No stocking by the fire, just boots filled with sand, On the wall hung pictures of far distant lands. With medals and badges, awards of all kind A sober thought came through my mind. For this house was different, so dark and dreary, I knew I had found the home of a soldier, once I could see clearly. I heard stories about them, I had to see more So I walked down the hall and pushed open the door. And there he lay sleeping silent alone, Curled up on the floor in his one bedroom home.

Cyber Sex Broke Down
Bloodninja: I lick your earlobe, and undo your watch. Sarah19fca: mmmm, okay. Bloodninja: I take yo pants off, grunting like a troll. Sarah19fca: Yeah I like it rough. Bloodninja: I smack you thick booty. Sarah19fca: Oh yeah, that feels good. Bloodninja: Smack, Smack, yeeeaahhh. Bloodninja: I make some toast and eat it off your ass. Land O' Lakes butter all in your crack. Mmmm. Sarah19fca: you like that? Bloodninja: I peel some bananas. Sarah19fca: Oh, what are you gonna do with those? Bloodninja: get me peanuts. Peanuts from the ballpark. Sarah19fca: Peanuts? Bloodninja: Ken Griffey Jr. Yeaaaaahhh. Sarah19fca: What are you talking about? Bloodninja: I'm spent, I jump down into the alley and smoke a fatty. I throw rocks at the cats. Sarah19fca: This is stupid. Bloodninja: Stone Cold Steve Austin gives me some beer. Bloodninja: Wanna Wrestle Stone Cold? Bloodninja: Yeeaahhhh. Sarah19fca: /ignore Bloodninja: Its cool stone cold she was a bitch anyway. Bloodninja: We get on harle

Ouch
I have new shoes. I walked again today and gave myself a blister. It freaking hurts. It's worth the pain though. I wish I still looked the same as I did in high school...then I wouldn't be walking every night. Although, it is really peaceful at the park. There's not usually a lot of people there and I get to listen to all my music. The South side of the park is almost pleasant. The North side has a nasty little creek that always looks stagnant. (Ewww) If you've read this far I'm sorry. I live a pretty boring life.

Tonite
tonite I met a cousin I diddnt know I had. Living in the U.S. you miss relatives back home.I met a cousin tonite--he let me be me and he thinks Im a cool cousin. After meeting him 1st time tonite--had to say good bye. Im tired of good byes!!They hurt bad!!

Flakers Fakers Dishonest Takers
here's a short blog i wrote for myspace tonight... O.K. I haven't written anything on here in quite awhile, but I was chatting with a friend tonight and it got me thinking about things. There are just way too many fake, etch a-sketchy, flaky, dishonest people around these days. (especially online). They all want to take, take, take, and give little in return. Those of you reading this are probably the only exceptions, but hey I wanna vent right now! So, my friend Rob and I were talking about how hard it is to just meet a decent person and have a real relationship. I was bitching about all my failed relationships with men, getting ready to kick my anti-male gears into overdrive, when he shared that he had pretty much the same experience with all the women he'd been seeing. We both shared how we'd recently been stood up -- myself by a guy I had dated for 3 months (You'd think he could have made up his mind sooner to flake out instead of wasting all my time. To make it worse he's stil

Some Nerve (unedited)
In the end its just a strand. It reacts to touch constricting a muscle, vibrating skin, speeding up the heart, and inflating the lungs. It pulls in my exhale and steadies for my lips that cause several others to follow suit. Vibrations get faster, breathing eratic, and eyes, clear and focused on my hands moving lower, turn blured and blind in the closing of your eyes. In the beginning its just lost affection turning into playful lust. A hand misplaced turns to motive fulfilled in its urge to find every nerve on your body. A kiss so innocent to touch places no other has tried. Finding the distance of skin from your smile that can control its shape. Find touch so strange to control your spine. To lick paths to welcome wants. Finding you the desire for your body. Lack of help, lack of reason, lack of anything but the presence. Lack of love, lack of trust, lack of anything in the moment. No need to fear no need not to just to know your desired. No lack of unfamiliar paths because of t

New Poem
if you cared...you would have been there like i was...everytime if you cared...you would have listened like i did...to every stutter, stammer, and wine if you cared...you would have picked up like i did...whenever i called if you cared...you would have caught me immediatly...if i would fall but the truth is only one of us had ears and arms that cared the other had claws and fangs that could tear now that your gone all i can say is i hope someone can return the favor someday...

Butt Stuff
Ok..so a bit earlier today my dear 4 yr old daughter yells from the bathroom..Mommy I need you..come wipe me..so I go to her beckoning call and do the norm...however today was not so normal..she had something hanging out of her ass..and well I pulled and I think it was plastic..should I be concerned? Should I have examined further? Could it have been a tape worm? It was about 4 inches long and really looked like plastic wrap of sorts..

What A Weird Dream
I just awoke from a nice, but odd Memorial Day afternoon nap. It seemed like no matter what I did, it fell apart as though I was stoned, drunk, or just stoopid, and i was none of the above! Ok maybe I'm a little stoopid. Just couldn't wake up. 1st I couldn't stop my Jeep from rolling right up to a curb overlookin' a river, ( shoulda been a guardrail there) the curb and reverse stopped me at the last moment. But, I then put it in forward, and *SPLASH!*, I got wet. Then I tried to drink my first beer of the day, with the cop standing right there. The bottle slipped outta my wet hands and *SMASH!* it fell on the road and broke. I got a ticket for littering. Then I went to a friend's house, a fubar regular, and put my hands on the gate to her picket fence. *WET PAINT!* Now my palms are all white. Then I went to open a beer in her kitchen and *SMASH!* it fell on her floor and broke. Now mind you, I'm still straight and sober. I go to light one, *FOOP!* There goes my mustache and e

To All The Haters
I love when people hate on me they don't know that everything they do to me would come back around to them its called Karma and when it hits them its going to hit them hard and then they is going to need me when they talk about me and starts rumors about me i just laugh and say if you don't like me why the fuck your talking about me i tell it like it is and don't care how they feel about it Both girls and guys hate on me but i don't give a flying fuck as long as they don't put their hands on me i got in plenty of fights with haters because either their girls was feeling me or their boys was feeling me laugh at my haters and say you can hate me or love me just don't touch me i told my mom that when i die put me in my casket upside down so the world can kiss my white ass so to all my haters you can go to hell and burn because ur on my shit list once you get on my bad side your not coming back to my good and you might wanna watch your back because i might beat your ass if i catch you sli

Forever Man...
I've spent every waking moment trying Striving to find the right way I've always tried to stay in line Fought so hard to keep it straight I've slipped up so much Torn my past to pieces I've done the best I could Been beaten at every step My world crashes at every bend I am my own worst enemy I know I'll never forgive myself I long to live forever in a land of make believe I pray that the rains come soon Flood away all the ugly that lays dead behind me I shudder at the thought of another hollow hero A shallow savior, come to pull me free All I believe is a lie Tearless, all I wanna do is cry

Chickencest
Which came first mom...the chicken or the egg? Hello? I have no clue! My daughter said you don't know if God just said...*with her hand shoved out in front of her* There's the chicken. My son says.." He made the egg and Eve sat on it til it hatched and said...hey,it's a chick!" "Wait, maybe god made two chickens and then one made the egg and OMG!!! All chickens are related!! It's chickencest!!" I have no clue how this conversation even started!

I Got Your Bling...
Some of you may know that I'm a phone sex operator... I have been for almost 9 years!! I LOVE my job and I feel that I'm really good at it. Right now, I have an offer that I'd like to let some of you in on. All I need is your email address, and I'll send you free minutes to use to call me. YEP.. call me for FREE. We don't have to talk about sex, but the option is yours! I'll talk about whatever... hehe I know what you are thinking, what's the catch? There is no catch. I would like you to use those 3 free minutes and call me. Tell me who you are and your fubar name and all that.. Hell, I'll even get on cam for you. (I usually charge for that...) If you decide to stay on the phone for just ONE more minute past the 3, I'll buy you a bling pack. Yep, you heard me right... I'll buy you a bling pack. Should you decide to stay on a total of 8 minutes... I'll even up the bling pack to a higher one. Spending only 2 bucks on me will make me SO happy!! Everyone likes free stuff..

Memorial Day.
I was on here last night in one of the lounges and someone came in and wished everyone a HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY. Now I have no hard feelings for this person or what they said. But I actually started to notice, and I see alot of people saying it. Hell I have said it myself before. Another thing I have also noticed some people are classifying this as a day to remember the troops. When in all actuallity it is a day to remember everyone we have lost. Not just the troops,but also police,fire and rescue, EMT's,and even civilians. Mothers,Fathers,Brothers,Sisters,etc. I guess the point to this is that I found it ironic that people say HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY on what in my opinion is the saddest day of the year. With that being said, I appreciate all the thank you's and thoughts and prayers I have gotten from everybody. If it wasnt for you I couldnt do my job. You all make it worth it.

Love Sucks (wrote When I Was Like 16)
Love sucks you know it's true. Love, just another word used to fuck you. Love is just a fucking lie. Just shut your eyes and hope to die. Love is going to hurt more than any pain. If you falll who will you blame? Love's a bit like being raped. Once your trapped you can't escape. Love get's you up and bring you down. I think I would rather drown. Love will cut you very deep. You try so hard but you'll never keep. Love is a way to get abused. You'll keep your faith and you'll be used. Love is for boys and girls. Love makes us want to hurl. Love is not worth dieing. Love is not worth even trying. Love is just another lie. Suck it down and you will die, Love will make you want to cry. By the end stab out your eyes. Love is lust in disquise. Keep feeding yourself all the lies. Love is better when you don't try. Your heart won't break due to lies. Love is like a game you won't beat. Just stay away and your heart you'll keep. Loves not bad when it last's. You blink your eyes and then it'

[i Met A Girl]
I met a girl.She's pretty damn neat.She's five years older than me (not the end of the world)and she lives in Denver (possibly the end of the world)and she's a scaredy cat (also not the end of the world) That smile was real though.Those eyes were real.That earnest, purity, those bites on my neckthat husky gasp as she ran her fingers down my shoulders... It all gave me some pretty sweet perspective about the direction my life is taking, and ... where she's been, and where I've been... and how I justkindaknew that I needed to talk to her.Not just for her sake, but to confront myself in meeting her. I dunno what more to say on that topicshe's an ecclectic pagan, I can tell by how she bites her lip and looks into my eyes, that she believes in me. Love?We'll see.I barely know her, but...there's something to be said for immediate connectivity and intensity.Right now I just want her to be okay with herself.If I have cosmic one with the universe sex during that process, so be it.If I real

My Best Friend Katt Wrote This For Me A While Ago The Only Reason I Am Posting It.is Because She Passed Away 5/25/2009
she sits in the dark corner of the bar,as she does everynight waiting for him to come in the door opens and in he walks.He slowly surveys his surroundings then walks threw the bar an mingles.The next night she comes out from her corner knowing he won't be coming in so she sits out front.Then to her suprize the door opens and he walks in.He walks by her looking down and brushing her cheek with his hand, she gets instant chills.As he makes his way past her he then kindof disapears into the darkness.She finishes her dinner and starts to head home walking slowly remembering his touch.All of a sudden she feels as if someone is watching her and following her every step.She gets to her front door and feels a hand on her shoulder as she turns no one is there.Thinking to herself i swear i felt a hand on my shoulder she unlocks the front door and steps inside.When she turns to lock the door she jumps as the mysterious man she has been watching at the bar is there looking right in her eyes."what

Club Fantasia Skate
::Click skateland pic to goto the skateland blog:: Welcome to the first ever Fubar Skating Rink.. You want to meet some new friends Level up at the same time?? Then this is the place for you.. There are a couple rules to enter the skating rink:: 1. Must Fan, Rate, and Friend all the people skating (ADD Fubar's skateland IN THE SUBJECT OF FRIEND REQUEST IF U DONT DO THIS I DONT KNOW U WANT TO ENTER) if u are allready someones friend please leave a comment or buy a gift.. 2. Once you have done that (contact McLovin to be added when done). You will be added to the list so people can add, fan and friend you also. 3. If you like lvling and meeting new people then come on in and laces up them skates. 4. Having fun is most important. So enjoy meeting new people and besure to check out CLUB FANTASIA afterwards Where the drinks are always cold. BROUGHT TO YOU BY :::: McLovin:::: ḋ

Meus Domus...
Born behind the sun Out of shadow we have come We run together in twilights glow Family is too weak a word We live beyond the kin of man We three are united forever by blood and love This dark trinity is what I choose Blood runs thicker than water We are bound by sanguine dreams I long to feel your love stinging me Together forever in our Embrace Three united as one "Beatus Is Domus"

A Bed Of Nails...
Shatter me Break my bones Black my eyes I need more Nothing else can satisfy I don't want it I know I need it Shut me down Let me drift away Give me what I crave I'll take it from you I've become so numb I have to feel something Spoon fed pain all my days The suffering is all I know Put the screws to me Scar my soul Leave me as you found me Confuse and blind me Hate me with a smile Kick me when you have me low "She maketh me to lie on a bed of nails..."

Ppl Who R Fakes And Liars
Ok so I been thinking.... I have found alot of the people I know are fakes... They will tell you they are your friend and then never want anything to do with you... Or you havee them people who tell you up and down they want to be your man and then you find out its all a lie he was only a fake.... Then theres them people who only want to get into your pants... I don't know how many times a person has to say they are not here for sex or dating... And then some people have the nerve for cutting you down because they didnt succeed in getting your im or your phone number..... I have noticed that I am liking this site less and less due to the people on it and there is really no reason to want to stay on it...

Despair
I don't know what to think anymore. why does it seem like i destroy everything I touch? Why does the thought of death not scare me? Even worse why does it bring a smile to my face? Why do I have nightmares almost daily? Why do I have an insatiable rage inside me? Why do people fuck with my head? Why do I care? I just want to enjoy these next six weeks. Is that so mch too ask?

My Father
as i said before about my parents i thought my father was a lil better then my whore of a mother well today he proved it after i already forgive him for alot of things today he called me and ask if i can go get my grandmothers belonging since they are moving into a new appointment in the same place they lived at well i went there with my bff once i got there i forgot to take a vike's before i started lifting things i know i should not becuse of my left arm its still needs time to heal but i cant just stop my life and depend on others i have alwasys been indenpent unless iam lazy lol then that"s deffrent but still he knows i have some health issues that mother fucker lay on his ass and does nothing to help all he did was sit on his couch and watch the news and his gf all she does is run her fat ass mouth and complaining iam now sweaty tire hurting stressing and i already know that tomorrow iam going to be hurting alot more i put all my energy into doing all the damn work my bff help al

''maybe'' Word
Sadness knocked my doorMy tears opened that doorWho took my lover??!!I lost my love now?!!Maybe it’s my mistake??Maybe it’s just a running lifetime ‘Maybe ‘word, it has a thousand meaning Maybe it’s not my faultMaybe my time has goneMaybe word is a sea of secretsA sea there is no harbors forOn that painful sea shores, her steps Those steps prince like a wounds wide openedAnd my eyes filling them with tearsMy days are lostMy dreams are burnedThe sun, that shining sunIt set long time now, sleep my poor eyesSleep over my wounds, but please don’t tell my secretsThe one was my soul, she hasn’t set yetShe still in my soul.Maybe it’s my faultMaybe my time has gone!!Every time I try to forgetMy heart yell: I can’tI can’t, but who can ,can.A journey was written long time agoAnd it has to be walked We have to travel.Maybe it’s my mistakeMaybe it’s my faultMaybe my time has goneMaybe word has a thousand meaningMaybe word is a

Written By One Of My Close Friends For Katt
Katt's Pyre I close both eyes and imagine you with me. I turn off the music and look away. The clouds bring reprieve from the sunshine The rain can't wash the ache away. What about those of us who love you? Werent we Good enough for you to stay? What did u see on the horizon? Who did you hear call your name? Accross the Shore, beyond the Pale moon's rising, The White Vessel travelled ; Oh Why couldn't it's trek be in vain? Does it radiate to you, accross the distant sea, the pain of your abscence? it does for me. Yet even in the chasam that is my heart, I take solstice in our time apart. The time we are apart, my love, my friend, one day must come to an end. When The White Vessel comes to me, When my soul travels accross that great sea, I know on the shore, the first face I will see, will be yours; You holding your arms out to me. You will smile and say"Welcome home, my friend!" and a true home it will be; The tears will dry, The pain will cease; only love, pea

Get Paid 4 Yer Rates?!?!
WHEN IM RUNNING AUTO 11'S!! WHEN NOT RUNNING AUTO'S THE PRICE IS 1/2 OF WHAT THE FOLDER LISTS!! SEE MY FOLDERS FOR THE AMOUNT OF PAY!! I will happily pay for rates as long as you follow these few rules: 1. Rate all the pics you want 2. Leave a comment at the end of EACH folder rated saying "rated" or something similar. 3. Private Message (PM) me with the folder names that you rated along with a grand total. NO Shoutbox messages for pay! NO Gift messages for pay! ONLY PM messages that include the previously stated items will be paid. THESE ARE THE ACTIVE RULES STARTING SUNDAY, MAY 24, 2009 @ 5:15PM Cuz, most people forget this, Not only am I running Auto 11s, I'm paying you to rate - So dont act like im asking too much here. And now because of other fu's bein schmucks - I will NO LONGER be paying people without approved salutes! Sorry - people have tried to scam me!

Somethin I Wrote
The smell of rain filled the evening sky Gentle breezes swayed the the tree limbs up above You can hear the sounds of his majestys force of nature in the distance Moving faster now the cloud formations swirling in the sky Not sure which direction to travel till finally the swirling pattern becomes distinct They chase each other in a vortex Round and round the clouds go Shrouded by rain to disguise the game More clouds join in till the lords finger of distruction touches the earth below A swath of debris fills the air Like a childs toy but this time you cant turn it upside down and erase the damage done.

Who Do You Turn To
You go beyond your dutyWhen others call on youAlways there lending a handTo help get them through. With all your love and kindnessThat you show each dayNever asking anything in returnBut thats always been your way. Sometimes life can get you downWhen everyone depends on youSo when you have a need or wantWho is it that you turn to ?

My Future
Are you ever so sure about someting that you don't even question it? I am! When you search all your life for something and finally find it! Thats how I feel. All my life, I have waited to find him. I have been hurt, used, and physically abused as well as mentally. I have endured conditional love. This time I am ready to give myself completely. To truly love someone with my whole self. Amazing how love can feel when its mutual. I am blessed. So my journey begins.

A Beginner...
Ok, so we find something we would like more information on. A new hobby, or a new life change, whatever it may be. How do we go about finding info on it? I have always been interested in Wicca/Paganism. I've just never taken the time to research it. I have noticed there are a few on this site. Does anyone have suggestions of where to start? I'm interested in finding out about the religion of paganism. I guess I need some kind of mentor, or someone locally in Phoenix that would meet up and help me out :) So, anyone have a good suggestion? Should I go to the library and get some books? or would I need to buy them? I'm an avid reader so books are a good thing. Eventually I would like to get into small spells, protection for loved ones mostly. But I want to fully understand the religious aspects initially. Any help is greatly appreciated :)

Pray 4 Maya
Please Keep Maya In Our PrayersSadly Maya's Mum Passed Away This Morning 27th May 2009 At 5-36am All Im Asking Is For Her Friends To Show Support And Love At This Sad TimeSo Can You Please Stop By Her Page And Show Her That Shes In Your Prayers ♫♪Må¥å ‡hë 8‡h ÐëåÐL¥ Sîñ♪♫(repost of original by 'Trå¢¥ §håÐðw Lêvêlêr †êåm LêåÐêr Çð Öwñêr Ö£~Èrð†ï¢Ðrêåm§~' on '2009-05-27 08:12:04')

Easy $$ (plaid Mafia)
with the lounge and group being fairly new we still have tons of room to grow! not only does it help the group but it will help you as well. at the end of each month the promoters will make any were between 1000-2000 fubux. the top promoter will make an aditional 2000. who ever gets the 100th member to join will get 100k as well as the 100th member. every 100 after that will get 50k for each so if you get the 200th member you will recive 50k as well as the 300th member at differnt times we may offer 50-200k for a random member number like 163. just depends on the day.

Happy Birthday Ggb!!!
The Golden Gate Bridge, the powerful yet graceful landmark that has become synonymous with San Francisco around the world, opened 72 years ago today - but only to pedestrians. Drivers had to wait a day. Construction of the bridge, authorized in 1924 by the U.S. War Department, started in 1933, and cost $35 million in voter-approved bonds plus $39 million in interest that was gradually paid off by bridge tolls until 1971. The original toll was 50 cents in each direction for cars with four or fewer people; each additional passenger cost another nickel.

I've Learned That
I've learned that ... "I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something.I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.I've learned that you can keep going long

Hello, My Name Is Me
sometimes all it takes is one tasteand before you know it you cant stop...its hard to let go,its hard to say no some timesits hard to have a constant reminderits hard to loose somthingbut when you do let goyou feel this empty feeling for some timethis space that its just therewith nothing around, nothing inside, nothing underthat is why its so hard to let you goi got addicted to ur smile,ur smell, ur voice, ur kissesthe sound of ur steps in the room,that feeling of safety i got when u were aroundmy skin feels empty nowmy lips are drymy finger are swollen from playing the same songi have no more tearsbut still i standstill i walkstill i think you made a mistakestill i wish you would come backhear that familiar ring on the phoneor maybe read those wordsi can say now i have a problemi admit i let you get too close too sooni know i need to let goi try to say no ...untill i feel confortable in my own skin againand i find someone not like youi need to get far awaybecause you are and always w

Single Again Week One
Well, I just learned yesterday that the ole hag I made the mistake of making my wife filed for divorce. She even did it by e-mail. No surprise but she states she wants to "work out an agreement" yet she reained a lwyer for 5,000 dollars. She also wants a peaceful solution. Best laugh I have had in years! So.... it begins!

Go Fuck Yourself
I'm so sick and tired of people getting all pissy over things I do on here. Am I not allowed to have my own feelings? Am I not allowed to say that I don't think I could look past something, but still love someone? Who the fuck even knows what type of love I'm talking about. I tell most of my friends and family on here. Just because I tell someone I love them does NOT mean I want to be with them. Doesn't mean I'm in love with them, that I want to spend the rest of my life with them. Just means I love them, as a person. Now for your status changes. I'm so glad that you feel the need to make your status about me. And as for me being two faced..not at all. I dont' give a fuck though. You can think whatever the hell you want. I'm done trying to explain myself. I'm sure this person will have someone read this for him or he'll try to come see it himself. Whatever.

Lessons From Aunt Grace - A True Eye Opener
Lessons From Aunt GraceThis is very well worth reading by all of us..................The day we moved away I hit bottom. Saying good-bye to my friends and to the house I had loved made me feel as though my moorings had been ripped loose. Now, in what my husband kept calling "our new home" (it wasn't new, and it wasn't home), I was so awash in self-pity that I almost ignored the white leather book I found while unpacking an old trunk. But something prompted me to examine it.The gold Victorian script on the cover spelled My Diary. Opening the book, I recognized the spidery handwriting of my great-aunt Grace, who had lived with us when I was a little girl. Aunt Grace belonged to a species now extinct - the unmarried, unemployed gentlewoman forced to live with relatives. All the cards had seemed to be stacked against her. She was plain-looking; she was poor; she was frail.Yet the thing that I remember about her was her unfailing cheerfulness. Not only did she never complain, but she never

Family
Well just wanted to write a lil somethang bout my dad! So its goin on four yrs since hes been gone...Its a sad thing but i love him with all my heart hesmy best friend! Hes the sound of a harley far away and his spirit is with me everywhere i go! Along with my mom and step mom yall are missed terribly!

Fear,
Have You ever needed, desired, longed, dreamt for something so bad and for so long, and tried going for it when You thought it was there only to have it be not it and after evrytime You bury all those longings and desires lil deeper...... so now.....i see in front of me what i think is really it......yet here i sit, shaking in my shoes, scared to death, but feel myself reaching out to it none the less......... makes it hard to breathe..... thoughts all over the place.... Hearts racing..... but ... I AM GOING TO OVERCOME MY FEAR........ PUT FEAR WHERE IT BELONGS..... GONNA TAKE THAT CHANCE, AND JUMP!!!!

Dazed And Confused
recently I received the news my father after having open heart surgery, has no money. All along the family beleived that his retirement was still intact, this would have taken care of sum bills . We now know there isnt any money and have pulled together to get him help. We have found out in this process that my father whom was so responsible gave his money to sum random guy whom has leeched off him threw the years claiming to care and be his friend..... needless to say I do beleive we need to submit a bill to him ....

Military Man
A career military man, who had retired as a Master Sergeant, was telling the new recruits how he handled officers during his years of service. "It didn't matter a hoot if he was a full bird colonel, Major General, an Admiral, or what! I always told those guys exactly where to get off." "Wow, you must have been something," the admiring young soldiers remarked. "What was your job in the service?" "Elevator operator in the Pentagon."

Fourth
With a hateful, vicious snarl, the werewolf let out a threatening howl, and hatefully stared Zasch down. The creature's eyes betrayed it's underlying intelligence, but Zasch had never had the intentions of underestimating the dangerous creature. "Alais," Zasch shouted into his familiar's mind, "warn me if the wolves should return." Without waiting for Zasch to make the first move the lycanthrope lunged forward, snapping it's jaw for Zasch's throat. Zasch jumped back a step, avoiding the attack, and shifted to his left and took a step back, luring the creature to move where Zasch had just been, and to catch Zasch's attack in it's arm. With a howl of pure agony, the werewolf, stumbled back, and Zasch pressed the advantage. The Khopesh's blade began to glow red, devouring a small bit of Zasch's energy, using it to fuel a bitter attack. As the blade struck a glancing blow on the lycanthrope's tough hide, the blade of Zasch's khopesh turned pitch black, the foul magic from the blow sa

Pet Store Monkey...
A man walked into a pet store and was looking at the animals on display.Whilehe was there, a First Class Petty Officer from the local Navy basewalked in and said to the shopkeeper, "I'll take a maintenance monkey,please."The man nodded, went to a cage at the side of the storeand took out a monkey. He put a collar and leash on the animal andhanded it the PO1, saying, "That'll be $5,000." The PO1 paid and leftwith the monkey.Surprised, the man went to the shopkeeper andsaid, "That was a very expensive monkey. Most of them are only a fewhundred dollars. Why did that one cost so much?"The shopkeeperanswered, "Ah, that's a maintenance monkey. He can run diagnostics onall radars/weapons systems, score 95 on the ASVAB test, operate allforms of test equipment, perform the duties of any Maintenance Man qualified person with no back talk or complaints. It's well worth the money.The man spotted a monkey in another cage. "That one's even more expensive, $10,000! What does it do?""Oh, that one is

Observer
I sat in the chair with my palms pressed against the top of my thighs. I was wearing a skirt that hugged my full ass. If I were standing up the skirt would have come to my mid thigh. A black stretchy tank top covered my lace demi bra. I was not skinny girl; I came with curves, Full double D breasts and a round ass. He was a mystery."You may move your hands now, but only touch your thighs." I slowly began to rub my thighs. Soft caresses and then with more pressure to indicated my desire for more."Move your hand up, and rub your belly."Slowly my hand traveled up my hipbone to my belly, above my pussy and below my breasts."Use both hands."My hands pulled away from the center to my sides then back again, each time increasing my arousal. I could feel my clit swell and my panties become moist, and even though I couldn't touch my nipples, I knew they were hard."Such beautiful breasts. Touch them, but do not touch the nipples."My finger tips traced the sides and up around the swell of my breas

Work
Have you ever had to work with someone who you absolutely cannot stand? Someone who makes your life a living hell every single day? How about someone who lies to make you look bad and them look better? I woke up today to a phone call from my ex boyfriend who is also a manager where I work. He was FLIPPING out on me because I supposedly told a new manager that he was going to be transferred. This new manager from day one has picked fights with me because he knows that I'm better than him. He went WAY too far this time. I am about to lose my job because he is making things up. I have NO CLUE what he said to them because no one will talk to me about it. They just say, "Its done." They won't let me talk to anyone about it. Now Its all gone to shit because some wannabe HOTSHOT wants to go run his mouth to the big rigs bc he feels inferior to me. I am about to just say fuck it and completely quit my job so they don't fire me and because I cannot work with ppl who think I'm a liar

So Yeah This Is Whats Going On
ok i havent been around alot lately.... it's hard for me to get time on the computer with my work schedule... i dont have my own internet so have to use my roomates computer and can only get on it when they are not home.... sooo since i havent been able to hang out with my internet folk i started hanging out with real live people!!!! OMG!!! and i started dating this super great sweet awsome guy and uh yeah.... I'M ENGAGED!!!!!! WO0T!!!! some of you already know from my status a little while back but i figure since ya'll send me messages wanting to know why i havent been around i will write this to tell everyone... :-D don't have a secure date set yet but will be probably spring 2012. i know i know its like 3 years from now but he wants to do it right and i figure i've never done it right before and they ended in divorce so why not try it right this time so we are both finishing school first and he's buying the house and saving for a real wedding with a real dress and reception and

Looking For Someone To Make Pics 4 Me!
so i see alot of pictures as i am rating that have been made for other people from a friend. I was wondering if i could get some cool ass pics of me made. all my pics are located in the BLaCK WHiTe or ME folder take whatever you want to use. i will pay in fuBux whatever you will charge me, as long as it is reasonable lol. just a few tips: **pink** *black and white* PooKie is the name and whatever else u wanna do, go for it!!! i appreciate your time in making this for me so i will pay in fubux and i get bling credits on the 2nd so the best one gets a bling!!! yay :)

The Yadlow Method
Greetings Fubar friends and neighbors!! I felt I need to explain my action on this particular page os maybe you can understand the method behind the madness that is "YadlowXP". First and foremost, I am here to make friendly contacts- whether it is a generic hello or a blatant flirtatious remark. I am here to make friends, pals, buddies. So, for those of you where I have had even brief conversations, I thank you very much. You make an old man feel..well less old :). Now to the method. 1. When going through the profiles, I will often rate the profile first. 2. Rate the pics that I feel I am worth the points ( I do this so I dont fall into the trap of only ratings women's boob shots. While they can be pleasant to the eye but not very wise to keep leering or coveting something you can never have. Just like flowers in a valley.. pretty to see but better left to blow in the wind) 3. Check for any blog and rate accordingly (especially if it is not just another sales pitch to

Gone Fishing
Going FishingSaturday morning I got up early, dressed quietly, made mylunch, grabbed the dog and fishing equipment, slippedquietly into the garage to hook the boat up to the truck,and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour.The wind was blowing 50 mph. I pulled back into the garage,turned on the radio, and discovered that the weather wouldbe bad throughout the day.I went back into the house and slipped back into bed, wheremy wife was turned away from me. I whispered to her, "Theweather out there is terrible."My loving wife of 20 years replied, "Can you believe mystupid husband is out fishing in that mess?"I still don't know to this day if she was joking, but I'vestopped fishing.

Broken Things Inside.....by Rickyd....my Journey Of Fate Partner
The poem your about to read is 100% factual. I was greeting all the pplinside the velvet kittyLaughing and joking and pretending to be a man that truly wasnt meThen in walked Spirit, attitude with class and beautybut as trained Marine I quickly saw throughI seen that she glowed and there ismore to this woman than i ever knewI knew right away she was more woman than I was manBut her presense I couldnt resistit consumed me I couldnt understandThen she called my name and withmy fear hidden answered this maidens callWe began our journey with just nothin but small talkAs we talked the more in depth our convo began to growI suddenly told her theres something you need knowMy outside appearnce is wellas you can plainly seeBut deep inside there are many broken thingsThen I felt her courage and compassion that Ive only felt by a fewAs she said ricky to fix your broken things it will take not 1 heart but 2I instantly went back to a day gone pastWhen mom called me to her death bedto tell my futur

Robertpannell8
RobertPannell8 New to our family on May 29. 2009 brought to us by Sinful our Manager. Please add him, fan him, and rate him. Show him some good Zodiak LOVE Ty! Please show Sinful some love and thanks your for bringing us a new family member. [ fubar.com photo: 2160380604 ]this is link just click picture link below in comments ty!

Love
I am an emotional and sensitive person. I am a romantic at heart. I love romantic comedies, romance novels, and sappy love songs. I cry at weddings, and the birth of children make me weep. I cry when I am sad. I cry when I am happy. I cry when I am angered by something. I am a faithful and loyal friend, lover and companion. When I am hurt it weighs heavily on my heart and its difficult for me to recover. I have yet to find the one guy who truly understands me and sees me for who I really am. I am ME. A caring, sensitive person. There is not much I won't do for the people that I love. Even the people who have chosen not to be in my life, I still care about. People who have done me wrong I have forgiven. Hate eats at your very soul, forgiveness heals your heart. I am not perfect and I know that. I have had moments where I thought to seek revenge. I had to take a step back and think about what I was thinking about doing and the damage it would cause

Loosing My Mf Mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As some of you may know, iv'e been laid off work for a while. It was okay at first, but now it's getting pretty bad. I valued the extra time off work so I could spend quality time with my son. Well he left yesterday to go to his grandparents for two months. I agreed to let him go, because I was supposed to be going to work in Minnesota. It was'nt an hour after he left that I get a call from my employer telling me that the job has been postponed until August. On top of going broke (bout to lose my house, truck, atv's, kid, etc.) I cant see my son. Im very dissapointed with this world and life right now. Im really not doin so good. Some of you may be aware of that, and im sorry if I frieghtned you. You know who you are. Thanks for caring! Anyway, I'm just not sure what to do anymore. If anyone has any suggestions, I would'nt mind hearing. If anybody actually reads this, thanks. Stephen

U R The Precious
You are the precious my darlingTonight my heart had made the choiceYou are in my mind as in my dreamsYou keep my mind busy all night and dayWhen your eyes contact mineWhen you say helloMy eyes joy of meeting youThat’s all I ever dreamed ofI found with youYou are in my mind as in my dreamsSay the most beautiful wordI want you here with meYou are the prettiest storyThe prettiest event I ever hadMy last words in your eyesYou are the only and the oneAnd you got it allAll my life is in your handsYou are the precious my darlingTonight my heart made the choiceYou are in my mind as in my dreamsYou keeping me busy all day and night-------------------------W.B: FM

Not My Fault
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted? Joe[2] You were in the car with? My dad[3] Went to the mall with? my parents[4] Person you talked on the phone with? my mom[5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? DevilGirlT/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends? TrueQ: Been searched By Cops? TrueQ: Been suspended from school? FalseQ: Sat on a roof top? TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? TrueQ: Broken a bone? TrueQ: Have shaved your head? FalseQ: Played a prank on someone? TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership? TrueQ: Shot a gun? TrueQ: Donated Blood? FalseWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink? Drink[2] Be serious or be funny? be funny [3] Go to the beach or mountains? beach[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot? shotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1] Sun or moon? moon[2] Winter or fall? fall[3] Le

Kit Made Me Do It
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? Mandy [2] You were in the car with? My sons [3] Went to the mall with? What's a mall? [4] Person you talked on the phone with? a member [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? Mr.Prather T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends? true Q: Been searched By Cops? True Q: Been suspended from school? True Q: Sat on a roof top? True Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? True Q: Broken a bone? False Q: Have shaved your head? False Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? true Q: Shot a gun? True Q: Donated Blood? False WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? drink [2] Be serious or be funny? funny [3] Go to the bea

Be Gentle...
Bleak kisses Hopeless Then my mind makes the turn Healing rides upon black clouds The stoning of my heart, suddenly dissipates With a wise decision Time heals all Sometimes too fast Many times too slow Growth, is growth Whether from triumphant moments Or rash and foolish mistakes Wisdom is not promised Just as knowledge does not grant salvation Bells ring as good prevails once more Leaving a temporary emptiness That washes away in the damp mist My joyous future is on the horizon While it also runs down my cheek I listen to the voice of the world

Erotica
Passion and lust burn within us The intense heat piercing our bodies Like a thousand uncontrollable fires Let me taste your naked skin Alive with the sweat of desire More delicious and intoxicating than wine I am your master, the Centurion of your body Relax now, as my burning tongue slides along your soft inner thigh Making you tense with anticipation Of the pleasure yet to come As it teases your wet pussy

Smoke
The smoke from my cigarette stains up my ceiling The smoke from my bowl is just a new phase of healing Weeping shades of indigo Dreaming shades of blue Arms around my pillows tight Wishing they were you I take you in in episodes When I want the whole season Having you with me Gives rhyme to my reason

Part Two: The Collar
It took over a week for her to email me:Richard has filed papers. I have nowhere to go. Please help.I emailed back a meeting time and place, this time at a Barnes & Noble in my home city. I agreed to meet, but made no other promises. I arrived well in advance of her, taking a seat in the coffee shop window where I could scan the parking lot. I almost did not spot her. Despite the early-June Florida heat, she was wearing a long-sleeved heavy cotton blouse. I expected this, but was still mildly disappointed.I greeted her near the door. A flurry of emotion played across her face upon seeing me; hatred, desire, love, fear...all within seconds."Coffee?" I asked.She nodded, and we went to the counter to place our orders. When hers arrived at the counter she began to reach for it with her right hand. As she did so, the blouse, which was slightly too short for her, rode up her arm, exposing three or so inches above her wrist; three inches now alive and solid with beautiful color and design. Th

A Mother's Love
This is for my 7 children: From the very first secondThe moment that I knewHow much my life would changeI never had a clue. My heart cannot explainThis special kind of loveNever a day, does it changeFor you came from God above. Now when I look at youAnd think of joys from the pastIt brings a tear to my eyesYou've grown up way too fast. Even through all the trialsSince the day you cameI hope you'll always rememberMy love will forever remain the same.

Bleeding Rose (yet Another Poem)
I wrote her a letter and added a rose A rose to show that I loved her for my letter did not say so I told her I loved her in the past yet she would not listen But now she will for this rose is a special rose, A rose made of a material she will never feel again Maybe she'll understand now that the rose is bleeding. I've carried this rose long enough for me to let go for her Now I say to her I love you and may you accept this rose. This rose of my life I give to you even at the cost of my life Carry it well and let me rest in your arms as you feel it bleed The bleeding of my heart from the rose.

**friends**
Ever wondered what is the real essence of the saying "A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed"? People talk about the true value of friendship without knowing what it stands for. True friendship is when there are no formalities; when the person you are talking about is counted as family; when the relation you share reaches a stage that even if you don't correspond for sometime, your relationship remains intact. Best friends need not meet up often to make sure that the friendship remains constant. The trust between best friends is such that if one friend falls in trouble, the other will not think twice to help. If the bond between two friends is strong, true friends can endure even long distances. They find a way of being in touch despite busy schedules. True friendship never fades away; in fact it grows better with time. True friends don't need a posh place to hang out. Their most precious hideout is each others' rooms! True friendship thrives on trust, inspiration and comfort. Best friend

Is Cyber Sex Cheating?
This is something that really depends on your relationship and how your partner defines cheating. Some people are more possessive than others and hold different values to fidelity. When does it become cheating? When physical contact is made? When emotions come into play? We all have our own sense of when that line is crossed. These are things that need to be known so you know where that line is if you do not want to cross it. When in doubt, if it feels like cheating, then most likely it is. Cyber sex has been known to cause some nasty splits so brushing it off as 'only fantasy' or “harmless fun” might work for you but the question is what does your partner think? While any relationship has its share of compromises this is one of those topics which usually does not debate well… it’s either ok or it’s very, VERY not ok. And chances are you probably already have an idea which one. Now assuming it is ok, there are some things to consider carefully if you don&

Speak And Spell? Huh?
I was corresponding with someone on a dating site, he started out spelling great, but what the hell happened? From: firefighter28k20 (View Profile)Subject: so Sent Date: 5/29/2009 7:13:57 PM have u hade any luck on here or are u finding it gust as hard as i am well i hop we can talk some more some time and get to know each other better what do u think From: EmilyIMAX_ (View Profile)Subject: RE:so Sent Date: 5/29/2009 7:15:52 PM no l, still on here though From: firefighter28k20 (View Profile)Subject: so Sent Date: 5/29/2009 7:23:41 PM what do u think wont to get to know each other better and start a good frind ship and see were it could go frome thereReply From: EmilyIMAX_ (View Profile)Subject: RE:so Sent Date: 5/29/2009 7:25:57 PM You look like my soon to be ex brother in law, kinda scares me lol From: firefighter28k20 (View Profile)Subject: RE:RE:so Sent Date: 5/29/2009 7:30:35 PM im sorry dont like

I Went Off The Friggin Deep End!
Well I have done it, I think. I think I finally lost my chance at happiness. Well I recently wrote some rants due to a personal friend of mine, well past friend now, and the wrong person read it and thought it was her. Now they are pissed at me, they are not talking to me, they pretty much have taken me out of the possible equations. I don't understand why I do this to myself and the people I care about? I mean, I believe in speaking your mind, venting out the pain instead of holding it in, and really just being myself. I do this, and I hurt the people I care about, while those who hurt me still continue enjoying life and my suffering. I don't know what to friggin do. I feel horrible inside, I feel empty and cold, and I have this constant feeling of void in my upper chest. I feel like I want to cry, but the pain is just too much to even shed a tear anymore. I am feeling the urge to cry right now, but I can't. I just want to be able to tell someone how I feel, or even might feel about t

Funny
When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were when they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning ... Uphill... Barefoot.....BOTH ways, Yadda, yadda, yadda... And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of Thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today.You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have the Internet.If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalogue!! There was no email!! We had to actually write s

10,000 Miles
Fare thee wellMy own true loveFarewell for a whileI'm going awayBut I'll be backThough I go 10,000 miles10,000 milesMy own true love10,000 miles or moreThe rocks may meltAnd the seas may burnIf I should not returnOh don't you seeThat lonesome doveSitting on an ivy treeShe's weeping forHer own true loveAs I shall weep for mineOh come ye backMy own true loveAnd stay a while with meIf I had a friendAll on this earthYou've been a friend to me

Things
I wanted to be back on here earlier, but that didn't happen. I got busy doing other things. I just signed on for a few minutes, just to say good night to everyone. But...I seen a primary pic scrolling. It was a greenie. The person has a picture of a wonderfully cute couple. The first thing I thought was.."awe, so cute. Next thing I'll see is horrible status messages about how much love sucks and how everyone on fubar can go fuck themselves". New love is awesome. Good Night Everyone!

Wondering???
i always wondered where rainbow endsalways wondered where rain come fromand always wanted to know where air come fromalways wanted to know where all hidden treasures arealways wanted to know where sun,moon,and the stars gets their lightalways wanted to know what is happinessalways wondered whats lovenow i realize it allbecause,rainbow start and ends in your eyesrain comes of your tearsair comes of your breathshidden treasures are hidden with your lipsstars,moon,and sun takes its light from your brightnessthe spring of happiness splash of your heartand finally found lovewhen i found you==========================W.B: FM

Why Do You Do This Ladies!! Why!!!
OK I was talking to a friend of mine(female) and she was having "man" trouble...again...To skip the trouble and get to the poin of the titile of this post, I do not understand why you get upset and hurt when the guy you are with is being the guy that you chose. Now Im not saying men are superior or anything close to that! BUT! If you go out, meet a rough, tough, "I dont give a damn about anything but me" guy, why do you expect him to be different with you? He doesnt care about his own mama but he should change because you are in the picture? I dont think so, as a matter of fact I know so, Im a man lol. Now Im not saying a bad boy cant be good to you or turn over a new leaf so to speak, what I am saying is that if you like bad boys, expect him to be a bad boy! Dont expect him to be a bad boy all the time except for when he is with you. Im not a bad boy but Ive been called one. I just handle my business when it comes(Thats a whole other blog lol) but back to buisness...Here is a scena

Dance We Must... Yes Its Dirty Lol
Yes baby dance we must,but try not to get weak by my touch,my kisses already have you brittle,now is the time when things start to sizzle.Two as one thats what we become,dancing swaying in the light, senses become numb,touching,caressing, fondling, caring,about to make a move that is so daring.Throw you back hard on the bed,it is my water you are about to tread.Lets see those breathing skills,its sink or swim babe and thats for real.I straddle your lips with my thighs,about to take you make you all mine,you already got wetness on your lips,can't seem to let go your moving my hips.Lapping up my peach nector steadily,you keep wanting more quite readily.Nows when those breathing lessons come in,time to stop breathing as my waves rush in.Oh yes, quite talented you are,taking me to climax that is far,far beyond what I know,just look at what you did to my toes.You can barely talk with a mouth full of juice,but I can hear you say, I told you not to resist, no use.I agree and arch my back tryi

Sad
I feel like I'm just sad all the time. I don't know why, but that's just the way it seems. I guess maybe its like a friend says I have too much on my plate. I don't know how to eliminate any of the things though. My kids are the most important things in my life. I love them more than anything and love being able to take care of them. Sometimes though I want someone to just take care of me. I'm tired of all the wolves in sheep's clothing. You can spout all this words, but you can never seem to back them up. I'm a simple girl. I don't think I ask too much from a guy I'm with, but I guess maybe I do. All I ask is just show me you care. If you love me, just pay attention to me. And above all I just want to be held sometimes. Guess it's just too difficult for some people though. Am I just not worthy enough of this? Is something wrong with me? Or is it just that I'm the worthless whore/bitch that I've been told I am my whole life? I don't know anymore. I'm ready to give up

Caa #100 = Update 1
Abbadon's wife has just let Mare know to thank everyone for the prayers. He is doing better but is still in the hospital. Let us continue to pray for his healing, sgtrngth and return home. Thank you all for the prayers on behalf of Abbadon and Sanford8, Love Doc

Ha Ha...fubar Babies
this girl never said ANYTHING to me..i mean..honestly..they should really start screening people who sign up..i mean seriously..its JUST A GAME MATE...grow up..ha ha what a git..maybe you all should go to his page and give him a hug or something...sounds like he needs it

Madness
You sit there laughing as you once did beforemade me wonder the most strangest thingsWas it good or bad? was it ment to be?I sat there all day n wonderedWhats so funny did he find outdid he see the real me?oh the madness came over meso i pased the floor with thoughts that couldnt beI sat back down took a deep breathn exhaled the smoke.. calmness now arises.i ignore him like i normally dothen there it is again.the madness its overwhelming meI begin to ramble hopin he would see not laugh but.. truly love me..and what does come forth?He cant say a word instead he gives me a linki close my eyes n push the button its to a blog about confusionI read it one line at a timeMy heart begins to sinkThen there it was clear as day.. Hes just as confused as meSo what to do now..is take it one day at a timeI shall always be there for himas he is for me But if he happens to read this.. let me say Thank you and even if something happens.it will be hard if it fails but true friends are ment to be....~Jes

My Life, My Heart Without U
My life,my heart while you are far away?!!I can’t describe it my loveWhat use would be of describing it?It’s like a dear departed his homeLike a knight without his armorLike a blind without his stickLike a baby without his motherLike an orphan with no helpI have nothing but you to talk aboutI complain and wonder the love it selfI always talk about how prettySweet and soft you areI don’t stay awake without youThere is no night without youThere is no moonlight without youThere is no life to describe without you----------------------------------------W.B: FM

A Little Beetle Story
This past year has been a very interesting one, to say the least. I've had changes forced upon me that I hated and didn't understand. I felt alone. At times, I felt unloved and unlovable. But I learned a lot. I had adventures that I would have never had. I walked 60 miles by myself, but made great friends in the process. I heard stories that reminded me of everything that I had in life. I went places by myself (something I have never been comfortable with) and introduced myself to new people. I impulsively went to an all day seminar of Mike Dooley's. I started meditating again. I started praying again. And this time, not to take away the bad things, but just thankful, joyous prayer for all that I have and the many blessing in my life. Change is hard. I've never really liked it. But it is often so very good. This year last year has been one of the best years of my life. It has been the year were I started to actually really BELIEVE that I was truly a Goddess, and

Southern Counseling
COUNSELING - SOUTHERN STYLE Earl and Bubba are quietly sitting in a boat fishing, chewing and drinking beer when suddenly Bubba says, "I think I'm gonna divorce my wife - she ain't spoke to me in over 2 months."Earl spits, sips his beer and says, "Better think it over........... women like that are hard to find."

Quote Of The Day
June 01, 2009Quote of the Day"Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns. I am thankful that thorns have roses."- Jean-Baptiste Alphonse Karr This really makes one think..... This is where one will wonder if they are the thorn, or the rose. Or perhaps a bit of both. It does take the thorn to become a beautifully blossomed rose.

Greedy Coworkers
On friday we (my coworkers and I) recieved an email about a meeting on monday. So today we go to the meeting and find out that we're getting our annual raise (which we were told before that we were not going to get this year due to the economy). Instead of the usual percentage we got a 2% raise up to the first 60k. As soon as the meeting finished my coworkers start talking about how thats not even enough to put gas in the car for the week. Call me crazy but shouldn't you be happy you even got a raise? Or better yet that you haven't been laid of? Way to be a bunch of undeserving greedy assholes...

Ns.f.w. Pics
Yes I enjoy all the comments.Makes a girl feel good. have alot of ppl asking to see my n.s.f.w. pics,so here it is.The prices are as follow.This will get you added to family for a day. 1. $150,000 fu$$ 2. A 14 bling pack 3. A V.I.P. and $25.000 fu$$ Other prices to follow as I learn more about the site.Ty very much.

Black Rose
Black Rose You are my black rose, The Cause of all my sorrow, The keeper of my tears, The wreath of thorns around my heart, The end to all my fears, The contaminator of my blood with fire, The guardian of my soul, You pull me for the darkness, Keep me warm when nights are cold, You are my black rose, The keepers of my secrets, The teller of my lies, You are the heartache in my chest, The desire in my eyes, Your spirit envelopes me, Your sharp thorns spill my blood, You are the clawed hand that reaches out to save me from the flood, You are my black rose, You are the padlock on my chains, The wings that set me free, The lips that tell me what to say, The sight that lets me see, You are everything I need to live, The poison that I drink, The peace and beauty that lift me up, The depression into which I sink, You are my black rose,

My Prey
My Prey I know you can hear the rustling Trampling under foot jungle brush Through the dark dense forest I feel your blood begin to rush Your heart pounds calling to me You can feel the lion’s eyes upon you Hunting for your desires A reckoning so long over due Slowly I circle my prey I see her tremble at the unknown She crouches down trying to hide But she knows she is not alone

For My Friends And Fam
I would like to take the time to thank everyone for the love and concern for me. I know I've been away for the past few days and I'm so blessed and thankful for the people who were glad to see me back on Fubar. I had to change my mindset and come back with a new attitude. It was a long story on why I left and let's say I over-reacted on my situation. It feels good that I'm starting over and I'm thankful for the REAL friends that stood by me and wondering where I've been at. Much love and respect to everyone and THANK YOU! MNewb

Gwendolyn Marie
Well, we are less than two months away from the big due day... Sometimes I could show a little more enthusiasm, but I am very much looking forward to meeting my daughter for the very first time. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!? WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!

The Word That Sends Chills
I am Dark Seraphim and this is what I am feeling…. I sit in front of this computer; my fingers are slightly swollen compared to them just a year ago. My path to enlightenment has resulted with knowledge but loss; it is loss of family connection. Right now through, I do not know whether or not I ever had those connections over the last few years. Now however, what I had with my family is now being tested. I am confused over everything in my life. I am in college, passing with a GPA of 3.925. Most would be happy during this time but I am not. I am tired, distanced, and feeling alone. I am surrounded by people who cared but don’t understand what is going on at the moment. My mother calls just a few days ago to tell that she may have cancer. That word just sends chills down my body and makes my mind speed with thoughts of many passing which would include my grandmother. My mother’s words echo in my mind as I know that word and its history with my mother’s f

Survey Time
1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 28. How well do you know me? 29. When's the last time you saw me? 30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't

Ok What You Wanna Know Is Probably Written Here
OK so this is aint my first and probably wont be my last profile on fubar - for those of you who know me - you will know about me but what the hey, a few things have changed since my last visit. My name is CLaire I am 40 yo and I live in the UK (near London, in a cute little village where we drink Earl Grey from sunday best china and scones, and put our flora display in a Vaise, and the ohther side of the town drink Sainsbury Value Tea Bags out of plastic cups and eat rich tea biscuits and put our flowers in a milk bottle) I will let you decide what part I live in ;lmao :) I have 15 tattoos and 4 piercings, a broken leg - too much drink pmsl. I have 4 kids - all teenagers - and they are my life and during my disablity they have been the bmbs........ I can be found on here most of the time or actually socialising in the real world now..... And finally ..................... THIS GOES OUT TO ALL THOSE I HAVE LOVED AND LOST - your loss my gain - life has never

I Remember When...
... "lostcherry" "cherrytap" was all about meeting people and talking to them, not about whoring yourself out. i really dislike this 'fubar' i wish things would go back to like it was when i first joined this site. I had met a lot of great people that i still talk to till this day and its been over three years. But in the last year i have not met anyone that i would consider talking to more than once. All everyone wants is points and fans and rates and shit like that. Its really ridiculous. I know things change over time, but this is just sad. I honestly rarely sign on here anymore cause of what it has turned into. Now im sure some people wont agree with this at all, but this is how i see it. period.What ever happened to being happy just making a few new friends? I dont care whatsoever about points. But i would love to actually talk to some people on here who care to talk, not just about the points and shit. Love always,Leta aka Bunz :)

Elizabeth... I'm Comin To Join Ya
OMG... Ok so I let my 13 year old son stay home from school today because he was sick. I log in my computer and what do I find staring at me? Pussy! Black, White, Asian, Hispanic... you name it he was looking. Tits... ass... whatever. I called him in to let him know what I found. Poor thing was soooo embarrassed. I told him not to be, but don't do it again. My lil boy isn't as innocent as I thought. Oh well... I guess it's time to have "The Talk" HELP! lol

A Confession
A gay man, finally deciding he could no longer hide his sexuality from his parents, went over to their house, and found his mother in the kitchen cooking dinner. He sat down at the kitchen table, let out a big sigh, and said, "Mom, I have something to tell you, I'm gay!" His mother made no reply or gave any response, and the guy was about to repeat it to make sure she'd heard him, when she turned away from the pot she was stirring and said calmly, "You're gay, .. doesn't that mean you have oral sex with other men?" The guy said nervously,"Uh, yeah, Mom, that's right." His mother went back to stirring the pot, then suddenly whirled around and WHACKED him over the head with her spoon and said, "Don't youEVER complain about the taste of my cooking again!"

Why?
If people say that they like you for who you are, then why don't they keep their words and accept you instead of turning their backs on you? If people say that they'll call you later, why won't they keep their words and call you back? If you you show someone love and give attention, why won't they show love back instead of blowng you off? Why do we ignore the people that care about us and care about the people that ignore us? Why do women go for the guys who treats them like crap instead of the nice guys that treat them right? Why do people always want to be fake with you instead of being a true friend? Why do people wanna judge and label you before even gettting to know the person first? Why do people wanna ignore the people who show them respect and pay attention to the people who won't show you anything at all? If they said that they care about you, why won't they always show it? If they say that they love you and never leave your side, do they really mean what they said?

Taken, Not Forgotten
And so I close my eyes to see you,Stop breathing so I can smell you,Hide from the world to feel youAll because they took you.Lying in the dark, I feel your love.Hiding from the light, I sense your presence.Shamed by my insecurities, I know your pain.Scared of what lies before us, I grip onto our strength.They stole you from me, But they can't take our love.For I was made to tame the doggAs you were made to tame the shrew.Never has a love so pure, so trueMelted the ice from our hearts.No matter the distanceThey put between usWe'll never be apartIn mind, heart or soul.I belong to you...everything I amEverything I can beAnd everything I strive to beI pray we will be together againEvery moment apart is death for me.So until God bid us together again,I shall bid the world adieuAnd hide within the shadowsOf our everlasting love.

I Don't Know?
If I've told you all about my check up with my interal radiation doctor however he felt no more signs of the tumor however he said do not quote him on it because there is still alot of swelling there do to the brachytherapy an a little raw, although I can go back to having (SEX) yay, damn it's been over a year and lemme say it only took me like 2 f'in seconds to cum...lol.... Yeah well anyways just thought I'd let ya'll know whats been going on with me.... Much love always & forever your friend Jaime!

Thank You!
I'll never get through all my messages, although I'm trying...it might not be until next week! I wanted to thank everyone for a wonderful Spotlight and a fabulous first Happy Hour! You guys are the best! I wanted to give special thanks to the people who helped me get Spotlight with their generous donations: Totalchaos, brother of sorrow, abram575, HoosierTexan, and my sister, Ang. Without them, I would have never gotten' to be on the homepage for a whole day! It was fun, and I met tons of cool people! So, let's keep FU-IN', and hope everyone enjoyed the day yesterday! I know I did!

My God.. There Are Nice People
So I read the following news clip and my jaw just dropped. How dare someone show compassion and kindness in our lifetime! *gasps* "Note my sarcasm". I am impressed that this store owner could have this much compassion and understanding in himself. Every so often things like this renew my faith in mankind. Sad though that the damn economy has driven some people to such sad acts. GARDEN CITY, New York — A New York area convenience store owner confronted by a bat-wielding would-be robber said Tuesday he decided to show mercy on the man after he collapsed in tears and said he just wanted to support his starving family. The store owner provided the man with $40 and a loaf of bread, but only if he promised never to rob again. "This was a grown man, crying like a baby," Mohammad Sohail, owner of the Shirley Express convenience store about 65 miles east of New York City, told The Associated Press in a telephone interview. The man dropped the bread, picked up the bat and tucke

Beware Of That Underwear Dust!!!!!!
One evening a husband, thinking he was being funny, said to his wife, 'Perhaps we should start washing your clothes in 'Slim Fast'. Maybe it would take a few inches off of your butt!'His wife was not amused, and decided that she simply couldn't let such a comment go unrewarded. The next morning the husband took a pair of underwear out of his drawer. 'What the H*%* is this?' he said to himself as a little 'dust' cloud appeared when he shook them out. 'April', he hollered into the bathroom, 'Why did you put Talcum Powder in my underwear?' She replied with a snicker. 'It's not talcum powder; it's 'Miracle Grow'!!!

Hit Me Up!!
423-470-8758.... i have no net for now...so only close friends i have actually talked to may text me....tell me who u are, so i dont just delete the text immediately....if u have my yahoo, im mobile so use that...PEACE

Blah!
How do you know, when to say when? When to give up? When to give in? I am a fighter, and I wont let anything stop me from standing up for my beliefs or my loved ones... BUT... there are times when I just want to give up... BLAH!!

Walmart Corporate Bullsh*t
Went to Walmart with the girlfriend the other night... looking for the new Dave Matthews album. They didn't have it. What they DID have though... was the new Eminem album. What does this mean to me? It means... that Eminem is willing to compromise whatever message he puts into his music to sell more albums... and Dave Matthews is not. I find that funny... even though Dave Matthews doesn't cuss in any of his albums. Would you buy a freggin Eminem album from freggin Walmart? Lame.

Don't Ignore This!
" ""FAKE FRIENDS: Will ignore this.Send this heart to at least 15 people and to meif you Gonna Hold Me Down for Life!!!Let's see how many hearts you get!!!!........??????............??????....??????????....??????????..????????????????........????????????????????????........?????????????????????????....????? ????????????????????? ..???????. ?????????????????????????....??????????????????????......????????????? ??????.........???????????????...........???????????............????????.............??????...............??"xoxoxoxo9,675,000,000 people n this world && yet i ended up with you as a friend?Damn,Im lucky!FRIENDS FOR LIFE"

Minivan Tow
A man was driving down the highway late one night when his mini-van broke down. He turned on his flashers and tried to get someone's attention to help him. Eventually a Lamburgini Countash pulls up. "Any chance I could get a lift into town?" said the mini-van driver. "I can do better than that," the man driving the Countash replied. "I've got a V-12 under this hood, I can tow you to the nearest town, no problem. Just honk your horn and flash your lights if I start going too fast." They head off down the road and eventually come to a stop light and up pulls a Farrari F40 with a V-10. The F40 began to rev it's engine to get the Countash to race. The Countash rev's its engine and the light turns green. They fly out of there, and about a half a mile down the road they pass a speed trap. The officer there watches them pass and radios to base saying, "Base, you will not believe what I just saw. A F40 and a Countash were driving down the road doing about 120 with a Mini-van honking it's horn

Help ,me With This.....
ICE CREAM CONES AND SKITTLESI saw him while walking the highway in spaceHad heard he came from the moonI wanted to glance at him without leaving a traceBut he caught me way too soonShouting at me from aboveThis was to be a great JuneSpeaking to me of poems and rhymesWords of hope and loveAnd all his adventures in timeHe had 747 reasons for being hereI had 111We talked of dreams and fearWe Discussed why the moon was so far awayI NEED HELP AT THIS PART......GRRRRRRRRR SOMEONE HELP MEI always want to give him ice cream conesThis man who made me taste skittles

Bah Humbug
I know it's not Christmas, but just read. I will likely have a repeat of this very experience this year. It never fails. 'Twas the weekend before Christmas.... I am already a somewhat antisocial person by nature, but this time of the year amplifies my aversion to bustling crowds, their screaming offspring and the overall cheerfully sickening atmosphere. Don't take me for a Scrooge, now. I'm more of a second cousin. I realize this is my fault for being the procrastinator I am. I never ever buy a single present before December. So, I really set myself up for these holiday horror experiences when shopping. To begin with I wore the wrong shoes. I did not worry as I never intended to be out for more than a hour. Four hours later, I'm limping through yet another department store. After I slowly make my way through the store and gather a few gift items, I make my purchase and decide to give my poor tootsies a rest. I find the most secluded, scarcely populated table in the little food

Untitled
I WANNA DANCE WHERE THE WILDFLOWERS BLOOMUNDER A BRIGHT SILVER MOONNO SORROW OR GLOOM JUST ME AND YOUMOVING TO A BEAT WE CAN ONLY HEARA MAGICAL RHYTHM THAT DRAWS US NEARCLOSER AND CLOSER OUR BODIES PLAYLOST IN THE TWILIGHT WE BEGIN TO SWAYPROBING DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO EACH OTHERS SOULTWO BECOME ONEMAKING US WHOLE

Same Sex Marriage
Same sex marriage. I agree with the gay & lesbian community that there needs to be change. Love & commitment is hard enough to find & keep in this world! How can anyone put a restriction on who it should apply too? Obama is making speeches in the middle east about change following the "will of the people", well, isn't equal rights for gay/lesbian community also a "will of the people" issue? I can understand that many people and religious groups will say that the bible says marriage is between a man and a woman. Isn't government supposed to separate church & state? If that is the case, than the decisions made in this issue should be humanity based, not religion oriented. I personally am born & raised Catholic. I personally am not a lesbian. Does that give me some right to tell another person who to love? NO. Does being gay equal not being able to commit to another person? NO. There are countless people in a traditional man/woman marriage that are HORRIBLE to each other! The cheat

Star Gazing
Looking upon the beautiful dark sky, you see the sparkling of a special someones eyes, but the sparkle is only polaris (the north star). Pulling your attention off the star you start seeing more of this special someones face seeing the beautiful compliction against the dark sky. You wish you could reach outh and glide your finger tips against this beautiful compliction wishing is was your special someone. The sad thing is that its not really them every night. Looking more and more into the sky, you wish you could hold your special someone in your arms but can't, the good thing is that you will always have them in your heart until the day ou die for all eternity.

How Time Flys!!!
SO YESTERDAY WAS MY NIECES 14 TH BIRTHDAY JUST SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY I WAS HOLDING HER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND WATCHING HER GROW UP...IM 21 NOW WITH MY OWN LIL ONE...AND STROLLING DOWN MEMORY LANE HAS HIT ME HARD...MY SON IS 3 AND IT JUST SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I WAS IN LABOR WITH HIM HE HAS GROWN UP SO FAST HE IS POTTY TRAINING AND TOLD ME TODAY THAT HE WAS NOT MOMMYS BABY ANYMORE HE WAS MY BIG BOY...THAT TOUCHED MY HEART IN MANY WAYS....JUST SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY I WAS HOLD HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME CHANGING HIS FIRST DIAPPER AND BRINGIN HIM HOME.....I NEVER GUESS YOU REALLY SEE HOW FAST TIME FLYS TIL ITS BROUGHT TO YOUR ATTENTION...LIKE IN AUG IT WILL BE 3 YRS SINCE MY GRANDMA PASSED AND I NEVER KNEW HOW LONG IT HAD BEEN TIL THE OTHER DAY WHEN I WENT SEE HERS AND MY GRANDPAS GRAVE....LIFE HAS NOT BEEN SO EASY ON ME I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MANY CRUVE BALLS AND BATTLES BUT THOSE CRRUVE BALLS AND BATTLES HAVE MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY....IM BLUNT IM HONEST AND CARING BUT I DONT TAKE BULLSHIT OFF

Thinking Of You
your smirk so simple your laugh so sweet my arms around you is what i seek your tender voice your soft words spoken smothered in love is what I'm hoping when you are gone your smell lingers on covering my head with words you've said i await your return in these months I've learned you'll come home soon when all that's in the sky is the moon you hold me close you keep me safe you keep me smiling in your warm embrace

My Musical Interests From A To Z...
"A" is for...Ace, Action Figure Party, Bryan Adams, Ryan Adams, Cannonball Adderly, Afro Celt Sound System, Agents Of Good Roots, A(labama) 3, The Alarm, Brian Ales, Azam Ali, Alice In Chains, The Allman Brothers Band, Dave Alvin, Ambitious Lovers, The Amboy Dukes, Tori Amos, Animal Logic, Peter Apfelbaum, Fiona Apple, The Apples In Stereo, Argent, Armadillo String Quartet, Joan Armatrading, Louis Armstrong, Ben Arnold, Asia, Asleep At The Wheel, Chet Atkins, The Avett Brothers, Aztec Camera... "B" is for...The B-52's, Johann Sebastian Bach, Bad Company, The Bad Plus, David Baerwald, Philip Bailey, Victor Bailey, Baka Beyond, Anita Baker, LaVern Baker, The Band, Band Of Horses, The Bangles, Barenaked Ladies, Sally Barker, Richard Barone, Bass Desires, Shirley Bassey, Bat For Lashes, The Be Good Tanyas, The Beatles, The Beau Brummels, BeauSoleil, The Beautiful South, Beck, Jeff Beck, Walter Becker, Belle And Sebastian, Jessie Belvin, Pat Benatar, Tony Bennett, Benzos, Chuck Berry, Be

Love
you think you will love forever and that it will fade never then the betrayals begin and hate starts to set in but what is hate ? some twist of fate ? there is a side of the heart that will never part with the love it really feels the precious moments it steals because you wil love him forever !!!!!!!!!!!!

Beauty & Respect!
As we watch upon the clear blue skies off wonder,We all see Eagle's or Crows fly overhead,Whether days be dark or lights Theres Beauty in all,Take time to sit back, Relish every moment we breathe!Life can be complicated & full off strife & stress,But look after those you Love best,They'll never leave your side or push you in dirt,Nobody wants any more hurt.Take a step back, Reflect on notion's of joy,If you see a stranger toss them a coin,This world isin't built on guilt or greed,It's something we all should share with Care.Everything we view, Should be treated as a gratitude,A blessing or an Angel upon your shoulder,The blind Man still Sense's the Deaf still hear,If you cant wear shoes we can still walk with bear feet.Wherever you walk you leave a footprint,Upon this Earth we all live in,No enemies, no hatred, No regrets,Your born free as yourself to work toward a better person.They say walk on the shoulders of giants ? ,Who wants to be a Giant, I ask you this ?,Whether you be a Gypsy

Cancer, The Fight Of A Lifetime
As a survivor myself, (breast and cervical) I feel it only right that I ask your help in finishing my folder for cancer awareness. Though breast cancer is the top focus so far, I would like pictures supporting ANY and ALL types of cancer. I would love if someone could come up with something in support of male breast cancer as I have lost someone very close to me to it because no one really knew anything about it. If you have anything you would like me to post in my folder, even personalized in support or in memory of someone u love or knew please message me the link and whatever you want the caption on the photo to be. If you do not include a personalized caption I will simply post it with a thank you to you for sending it to to post and for supporting the causes. Later I will be posting a folder for heart disease and many others so feel free to go ahead and give me links and captions for any cause you want supported. Thank you all so much for your help. Much luvv to all. Everyone plea

Stockbroker's Secretary
The stockbroker's secretary answered his phone one morning. "I'm sorry," she said, "Mr. Bradford's on another line." "This is Mr. Ingram's office," the caller said. "We'd like to know if he's bullish or bearish right now." "He's talking to his wife," the secretary replied. "Right now I'd say he's sheepish."

Little Less Talk And A Lot More Action
I was getting kinda tiredOf her endless chatterNothing I could sayEver seemed to matterSo I took a little driveJust to clear my headI saw a flashing neon up aheadIt looked like a placeTo find some satisfactionWith a little less talkAnd a lot more actionI paid the man at the doorAnd pushed my way to the barShouted for a drinkOver a screaming guitarA drunk on a stoolTried to mess with my headBut I didn't even listenTo a word he saidI knew somewhereAmid all this distractionWas a little less talkAnd a lot more actionA little less talkIf you pleaseA lot more lovingIs what I needLet's get on downTo the main attractionWith a little less talkAnd a lot more actionWell she was fighting them offAt a corner tableShe had a longneck bottleShe was peeling the labelThe look on her faceIt was perfectly clearShe said somebody pleaseGet me out of hereThe look she shot meThrough the glass refractionSaid a little less talkAnd a lot more actionA little less talkIf you pleaseA lot more lovingIs what I needLe

*lovers Promises*
Lovers Promises From the swelling water of virgin forest Heres come the sweetest promises To Love and care each other Till death do us apart Heavens Angel quietly smile Looking those two Lovers underneath the pale moonlight Wishing upon the stars to let their dreams comes true Oh Love thats pure and simple Builded dreams as a temple Hold on dont give up... Life will gone...Promises still done I will continue to Love you And sing my Lovesongs for you Then Angels will chorus My Love for you will Never End.... Written by:RW rachel wiehl

Passion
I just got done watching a show on tv...and at the end of it.. two people admitted their love for one anything. they know it was there for along time. She tried breaking it off.. he left her place, but he couldn't let her go..So, he walked back into her place, told her how much he loved her and they embraced this long, passionate filled kiss.. You could see the heat, the desire they had for one another.. I want that so badly.. i want a man that couldnt live without me. i want that passion.. that heart.. I want a man to look at me and think "GODS, I gotta have that woman". I want to feel how it feels to be wanted, needed, desired and most importantly..LOVED! I've never felt that way before..Most of the time, I don't think I ever will. I am a firm believer that there are some people that are destined to be alone all their lives and to die the same way..alone. I am starting to think i am one of those people.

Pretty Dan
THURSDAY NIGHT [6/4/09], AT 11:30 PM MY PRECIOUS FRIEND PASSED ON... HE HAD BE SUFFERING AND FIGHTING CANCER FOR OVER A YEAR... HE HAD OSTEOSARCOMA WHICH IS THE MOST COMMON FORM OF BONE CANCER. IT STARTED IN HIS HIP AND SPREAD TO HIS LUNGS. AS PER DANS REQUEST AND HIS FRIENDS, HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE PITIED. HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND IS NO LONGER IN PAIN. EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T KNOW HIM, PLZ SHOW LOVE. HE WAS AN AMAZING PERSON. HE WAS 21. ♥ YOU M.A.C. Beyonce - Halo (New)Uploaded by Le-Tour-2Lor - Explore more music videos.

So Happy Together
I get this song stuck in my head alot...Great Oldies song....I don't know why it gets in my head..i can't relate it to anyone... Imagine me and you, I do I think about you day and night Its only right To think about the girl you love, And hold her tight. So happy together If I should call you up Invest a dime And you say you belong to me And ease my mind Imagine how the world could be So very fine So happy together I cant see me loving nobody but you For all my life When you are with me Baby the skies will be blue For all my life Me and you And you and me No matter how they toss the dice It had to be The only one for me is you And you for me So happy together I cant see me loving nobody but you For all my life When you are with me Baby the skies will be blue For all my life Me and you And you and me No matter how they toss the dice It had to be The only one for me is you And you for me So happy together So happy together How is the weather? So happy together We are happy togeth

Truth To Things
Why would you want me. I have so many falts. I could never fully be anyones until my children are grown and even then i will always be a mom. I never have time for anyone. Always on the run. Always working or taking care of kids. So why try. The internet is a funny thing. Its nothing but fanticy. You can never truely know if someone is telling you the truth or a lie. But same thing in real life too. You want what everone wants, someone to love and that will love you back. But that is something that rearly happens. I suppose it just all has to do with trust, which is something i dont have in anyone. I guess my question is what is a lie and what isnt.

I'm A Trendy Whore Yay!!
twitter.com/donkeypunches Yay, since I have an irresistable urge to fallow all trends... myspace, underage drinking, fubar, finger in the asshole during a blowjob... now! Twater... I mean Twitter. I'm awesome, and you can be to...follow me, becuase my life is more interresting then yours... www.twitter.com/donkeypunches

Rip Turbo 6/6/09
Turbo lived for 21 years. I got her as a stray kitten who's mama was hit by a car. She was too young to be away from her mother... so I had to bottle feed her. She has been staying with my mom because my place does not allow pets. Her health has been slowly failing over the years and has gotten to the point where she is no longer taking care of herself, and hasn't been eating much. So, as difficult as it was for me to do... I took her to the humane society to be euthanized today. Rest in peace, Turbo. You will be missed.

A Slow Departure
Well, I've gotten to 99.99% of the next Level. I am only missing 7 referrals and it will take me to my Lost Soul stage. I think this will be the beginning of my slow departure from FU. It won't be any grand departure, I won't be saying any good byes, but slowly I will fade away. Slowly enough so to where it won't even be noticed. I'll either be gone completely or I'll still pop in from time to time. One thing I do know is that I will be giving up my VIP soon. I don't even use 5 of my 11's now a night. So I think it is wearing off on me. Anyway.. that's all.

The Station
They stand outside on a sunny day But it's cold out here despite the sun's rays A multitude of people with suitcases and bags Some dressed in splendor; some dressed in rags Artisans, artists, poets, and scribes And everyday people with everyday lives Beautiful children, and young ladies, so fair A little girl with a pink ribbon in her hair A soldier smiles at her as he walks down the tracks She hides behind her father and does not smile back She looks at her shoes and nervously kicks the frozen ground And waits for the train that will take them to Krakow And from Krakow.....Auschwitz bound

Shell
Sorrow holds me down Pins me to the ground Pain tears into me Draws the life from me I let anguish bind me I let hatred blind me It all gets so old My heart grows so cold What have I done What have I become I am just a shell Of my former self Endlessly falling Bloodthirsty voices calling Screaming words of hate I let them penetrate My inner child bleeds Into the darkest corners recedes Beaten and broken His pain and suffering unspoken I try my best to cry But no tears come to my eyes My soul walks through Hell And here remains my shell Engulfed in hatred burning Seething Screaming Twisting Turning A shadow of what used to be Darkens everything I see What have I done What have I become I am just a shell Of my former self Filled with hatred Inner self emaciated Through empty eyes I gaze Trough a blood red haze Vacant shell Vacant eyes Half-truths And empty lies My soul trapped in this hell Death resides within this shell

Thorn
Physical pain is nothing more than a warning A signal to the brain But no injury to the flesh Could cause the hurt of emotional pain No thorns, hooks, or claws No hand clenched into a fist Can tear your heart out And plunge it into the dark abyss That spreads out around a lonely one Engulfs him in unnatural cold With no direction he drifts No light to guide him, no warmth for him to hold He spends his numbered days On sidewalks and under clouds so grey Walking beneath leafless trees With only a frail body holding death at bay Windows in houses stare aimlessly Across the street like empty eyes Doors, like mouths, closed Holding back harsh words and endless lies lovers walk hand in hand Reminding him of long ago He rubs an ancient scar on his thumb No He'll never pick another rose

☆salutes☆
☆ ѕσ нєяє'ѕ тнє ∂єαℓ... ι ωσυℓ∂ "love" тσ мαкє ѕαℓυтєѕ fσя αℓℓ му fяιєи∂ѕ тнαт αѕк вυт ι нσиєѕтℓу ∂σи'т нανє тнє тιмє тσ ∂σ тнєм αℓℓ... ι тяу тσ кєєρ ιт ℓιмιтє∂ тσ му fαмιℓу αи∂ ¢ℓσѕє fяιєи∂ѕ... ι'м

What Lies Beneath...
I know I'll never walk again with you Never gonna fly as high as I did There is no comfort to be found in my eyes My arms are cold and numb Look inside and all you see is pain and lies I'm not afraid anymore Now is the time to seek the final adventure I have passed the point of conversation In my life I have said and done a great many things Very little am I proud of I've been dead and cold for years now Seems it's time for my body to catch up I don't know when I lost my will I do know that I'm sick of the pain The pain I suffer and cause There is little if anything left for me here All I am is a mask A sideshow for the amusement of the audience This sick sad puppet is yours no more My strings are cut as I lay lifeless in the corner of the room The painted smile has chipped and cracked Now the world sees what lies beneath Let them see Maybe they'll look inside themselves more often I always wanted to leave a mark on the world The mark I leave is a gaping wound

When I Wake...
They say time heals all I know this is all a lie So many ways to placate the afflicted Pour your poisoned honey into our ears The truest delusion is self delusion We all blind ourselves to the ugly in this world We tie our own hands Open your eyes and see the real world There is no bright and shining sun The flowers are all dead Trust is simply a way to bare your throat to wolves I see clearly now in my cancerous view Hold no one close lest they stab you deep A helping hand will only pull you down Commiserate in misery I've wasted every chance and hurt you all Somehow sorry just isn't enough The best thing you can all do is to forget what was and is I spend so much time in the shadows Maybe it'll be better if I just go to sleep Kind words are threats in disguise A smile bares the teeth that bite A simple wave draws your victims near I'm convinced that there is something wrong with me Consciously conscience deprived I'm so very weak Maybe I should sleep See yo

Fallen Angel
My wings are broken, my hands are black I try to get up but chains hold me back Pulling and tugging they will not break If this is a dream I’m sleeping awake @ Hair is all matted with tangles and dirt 5 holes in my jeans and one in my shirt My hope it is lost, behind tears in my eyes My teeth are all rotting from telling your lies @ @ The chains they are strong and I struggle to move But I have to break free I have something to prove I pull and I pull till the chains cut me deep I fall to my knees and do nothing but weep @ I can not escape they’re holding me back And no one sees me, just the things that I lack Twisting and turning the chains only rattle I am determined… I will win this battle @ My faith it is tattered like the cloths that I wear My heart it is broken, but I do nothing but care My hands they are callused from pulling on chains My body is weak from resisting the pains @ My strength it is useless, these chains will not fa

Can You Feel Me?
Can you feel me- Can you feel me there When you close your eyes Can you feel my lips On your thighs Can you feel my fingers Run through your hair When you close your eyes Can you feel me there Can you feel my fingers Run down your back Can you feel my face In your lap Can you feel my hands Spread your thighs Can you feel me there When you close your eyes Can you feel my fingers Spread your lips Can you feel my tongue Play with your clit Can you feel my teeth Bite your thighs Can you feel me there When you close your eyes I am always there When you close your eyes. ~W.H. 2009~

Current Auction 6/7/09
With everyone wanting to join the current auction its hard to have all the pictures made before this one ends. so with that being said i will be takin entries for the next auction but will not enter them into this one

Bordem And Tickers
I'm so bored. I have nothing to do and it's still fairly early. I can only imagine how it's going to be later tonight. The only thing I can think of that I could do is sleep. I do have to get up kind of early, but not anywhere near as early as I had to last week. The joys of kids being out of school. I figure tonight I'll try to get my badges on Pogo. Speaking of Pogo badges. Anyone know how to play gin? I'm suppose to underknock the other player. Well I knock and I win..but I'm not getting the credit for underknocking. WTF am I suppose to do? lol. As for the tickers...I was just looking at them go by and seen one about a 4 year old crashing the family van. I clicked on it to read the actual article. It said that the mother told them that he got a stool, climbed up and got the keys, walked to the van, unlocked it, started it and drove off. Another "witness" said she saw the kid do it. Then it said the police weren't charging the parents with anything. I'm just wondering why did

Genesis
I am getting to that age in my life when my sense of obligation to myself is beginning finally to out-weigh my sense of obligation to the people in my life that I love… my family. I don’t feel sorry for myself by any means. Doing things for my family has brought me joy as well as sorrow, and I wouldn’t have done things any differently. Only now, I think, am I ready to let them go… to let them sink or swim in their relationships, their habits, their addictions. I’ve been scared of leaving them to their own devices, terrified of getting a middle-of-the-night phone call that something horrible has happened and feeling guilty that I may have been able to prevent it. If only I had been here to intercede… I am ready to begin a new life… for myself; A life where the outside chaos and drama that exists with my family cannot seep in and affect me anymore. A life where I can rest my head at night knowing love without stipulations and guilt

Feeble Lights Awake And Subside
Entertain me like a strobe lightControl me like a street lightSet me to a certain timeSpeed me up at night timeHold me as your securityTreat me with purityLook at me with curiosityLeave with me from societyEmbed me with your charmI'll protect you from harmI'll see you in my sightsAs we turn off the lightsNo darkness can hideEverything I feel insideAs my heart, it subsidesMy hopes held highNo longer will I tryTo live with liesThe world can't be appeasedWhen someone as feeble as meHolds the little things up highAnd people who don't openly cryEnemies they should beBut that's what's wrong with meTake me away from this crimePut me back in my primeMyself and my loveHeld up aboveA rope you bindIn my mind

Students Mind
Every time I try to thinkThe words wont come in mindEven if i know the answerI lose my remaining timeEvery time I try to talkThe words wont come outLike I have a problemLike im spinning nowEvery time I try to hearThere's so many distractionsWhen I try to answer backThere is no reactionEvery time I try to learnIt's like I haven't a clueLike A wolf in the nightStaring at the moon

Elegant Blue Day
Elegant Blue Day It was a heart felt day, For the Elegant woman, As she turned and walked away. He hurt her more than she could bare, The was no more need for her to be there. She maintained her posture, Her poise and grace. Turning away with a smile on her face. Knowing deep within her heart, He would never forget her, Her memory would always haunt. Still til this day he calls her from time to time, Just needing to hear her voice. It’s like a fix, A poison in his veins.

If You Care.....................
To those friends of mine who care, I won't be on for a while due to the fact that my son broke his arm in 3 places and needs surgery. He is 8yrs old and his birthday is June 18,please say a prayer for him :)

Learning To Love
sometimes its hard to remember that the person you love,also loves you as much or more. you just have to remember that theres two of you sharing feelings now.some times i forget . thankfully my woman is the best,and she still loves me even tho i fuk up love is not a game,its a gift,and shouldnt be taken for granted it should be in your heart and soul,and cherrished forever,never being forgotten.i will never forget that i love my woman. love is about sacrifices and comprimises,and god the feeling of bliss just makes me wanna explode with happiness. well till next time,peace to my fam,homies and all who read these rantings\,,/\,,/

Tears Of The Day
Alone in the dark waiting for her beckening call i sit.Tears form and fall thinking of the worst possible case.Wishing to be in her arms wishing to hold her i sit staring at the ceiling.Loving everything about her and the way she made me smile.Plans on meeting, seeing, and holding her we made, only shatteringnews to break. Finally able to see her and i cant. I failed again.I wish i was there to make her better knowing that the one sheloved was beside her. Im sorry i wasnt there for you when you needed me most and im sorry that i wasnt there to be with youI love you with all my heart and i always will. Come visit me in my dreamsand hold me like the plans we made. I love you and i will see you everynight when the sun turns into the moon

Reading And Bed
I figured I'd write one last blog before I went to bed. I'm dead tired, but I had some news I wanted people to know. Not that a lot of you care, but this is huge for me...well, for my oldest boy. Today started his summer reading thing for school. He's suppose to read 20 minutes every day. And every day that he reads, he has to color a square. They say if he does this, and turns it in on the first day of school, he'll get something. They didn't say what it was, but oh well. He's 6 and anything that's given to him is wonderful. I mean it...just tonight my stepdad gave him a plastic container that had dip in it, so he could catch lightening bugs, and he was so fucking happy. Anyway, I knew he could read, small words. And I figured I'd have to "work" with him on some of the harder words. Nope, he read straight for 20 minutes. Mind you it was all in different books, but he did it. He was so proud of himself too. The boys' dad came over this evening to see them, while I was bowling, and

Im Up For Auction! Come See What I Have To Offer!! :)
Nothing to fancy at the moment.. Just wanted to let you all know im up for AUCTION! If you are interested in bidding on me and owning me for 1 month click on my auction pic. :) **IF PIC LINK DOES NOT WORK PLEASE COPY AND PASTE LINK INTO WEB BROWSER** http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=884347 albumid=1672350&i=738724262&idx=2#1379802354 Thank you plz repost.

A Real Scumbag
I thought I met a good guy on this site and he turned out to be a fucking son of a bitch prick. I was talking to this guy and he was nice to me and everything and we would talk for hours at a time and he would call me all the time also. Now mind you he did live in another part of the country from me. We were talking on how we were going to meet one day. And tonight.. he signs on and tells me he all of a sudden met this women from where he lives and they had drinks and he slept with her and that she digs him and he digs her. He just went for a walk tonight and this all happened. What kind of a fucking asshole was this guy? How can someone just all of a sudden go for a walk and say he met some neighbour in where he lives and they just fuck and he is into her after one day when he was talking to me for 1 month and telling me this and that and above all telling me he LOVES me and used the words " I love you". Am i ever going to meet a decent guy who doesnt want a piece of ass? I am a do

And She Stands Before You
AND SHE STANDS BEFORE YOU...WHAT DO YOU DO? DO YOU SEE HER OR ARE YOU LOOKING THROUGH HER TO SEE WHATS BEHIND HER? DO YOU OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE THAT THIS WOMAN WILL GIVE YOU ANYTHING YOU WISH WANT AND DESIRE. YOU HAVE FOUND EVERYTHING YOU LOOK FOR IN ONE PERSON YET YOU DONT SEE THEM. YOU LOOK PASSED THEM AS IF THEY DID NOT EXCIST. IS SHE JUST SOMETHING TO PRE OCCUPY YOUR TIME WITH TILL YOU FIND WHAT IT IS YOU DESIRE? WHAT IS SHE TO YOU? DO YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU DONT MAKE IT KNOWN TO HER JUST WHAT SHE IS TO YOU SHE WILL SOON VANISH. ONE DOES NOT LIKE TO BE LOOKED THROUGH THEY WANT TO BE SEEN. TO BE KNOWN. AND SHE STANDS BEFORE YOU WHAT DO YOU DO??? DO YOU OPEN YOUR EYES YOUR HEART YOURSELF TO HER OR YOU STAND THERE AND LOOK THROUGH HER? ITS UP TO YOU........AND SHE STANDS BEFORE YOU.........

Both Auto 11's And Cherry Bomb Bling Come Bid Now
BabyBoy Is Having An Auction one Bomb Bling and a Auto 11's And He Is Starting It Off With A 1Mil Dollars And Ends This Saturday So Come Start The Bids Click On This Pic BeLow And Bid Bid Bid !!!!!! So Hurry And Put A Prize Or Amount on Them... They Will Go Real Fast And Soon ...........So What Are U Waiting For???????????? This Bully Was Made By : WolfGurl (repost of original by 'WolfGurlHeadProMotor@TheCage' on '2009-06-09 08:07:42')

Bbq Season
New Standard Operating Procedures Released Today - Please Learn BBQ RULES We are about to enter the BBQ season. Therefore it is important to refresh your memory on the etiquette of this sublime outdoor cooking activity. When a man volunteers to do the BBQ the following chain of events are put into motion: Routine... (1) The woman buys the food. (2) The woman makes the salad, prepares the vegetables and makes desert. (3) The woman prepares the meat for cooking, places it on a tray along with the necessary cooking utensils and sauces, and takes it to the man who is lounging beside the grill - beer in hand. (4) The woman remains outside the compulsory three foot exclusion zone where the exuberance of testosterone and other manly bonding activities can take place without the interference of the woman. Here comes the important part: (5) THE MAN PLACES THE MEAT ON THE GRILL. More routine... (6) The woman goes inside to organize the plates and cutlery. (7) The woman comes out to te

I Believe
I believe in Love, Romance and Fairy Tale beginnings, not endings because the fairy tale shouldn't end. I believe in Sex and Passion. That there should be some chemistry not always coming from just having a great body but a mind and soul connection as well. I believe in being with and/or seeing only one person at a time. If that makes me a prude, then so be it. How can you tell if something is going to be worthwhile if you have yourself spread out with more than one person. I believe in total trust and honesty in all things, however... if it is a little fib of no major significance to spare the feelings of someone then that is OK. I am straight forward and honest to a fault. I think it is better to have tried something once than to not have tried it at all, but yet at the same time, if you know deep down inside it just isn't going to work or it isn't worth it, then no need to put in the wasted effort. I believe in standing up for what you believe in no

My Butterfly
My Butterfly We laid in the lush green fields On that warm summer day Watching the clouds pass buy Watching all the butterflies play I could feel our tensions rise She strokes her hand across my chest My finger tips run up and down her spine Each others lust we ingest Her body slides on top of mine Her long hair hangs down on me She sits back and slides off her dress

My Daddy
Well As We All Know Our Parents Get Older As We Do. My Daddy Is Going To Be 50 On 6-30-09 And Isnt Doing Well. Im Very Afaird That By The End Of The Year He Will Die And Ill Be With Out My Daddy.:( So Plz Keep My Family In Ur Prays

Gay Marriage
Let them marry. Whats the big deal? Sanctity of marriage? Fuck that. Marriage happened long before your god was created and made into the greatest scam. So you cant use religion for an excuse. Marriage used to be 1 man and however many wives he wanted. Even the bible says that. So that argument is bullshit. Jesus didnt belive in marriage anyway according to the bible. So let them fuckin marry. You dont need god or a church or a priest to get married, so why does it have to be man an woman?

The Midnight Phone Call
The Midnight Phone Call A midnight phone call stirs a mother's heart like nothing else. We all know what it's like to get that phone call in the middle of the night. This night was no different. Jerking up to the ringing summons, I focused on the red, illuminated numbers of my clock. Midnight. Panicky thoughts filled my sleep-dazed mind as I grabbed the receiver. "Hello?" My heart pounded, I gripped the phone tighter and eyed my husband, who was now turning to face my side of the bed. "Mama?" The voice answered. I could hardly hear the whisper over the static. But my thoughts immediately went to my daughter. When the desperate sound of a young crying voice became clear on the line, I grabbed for my husband and squeezed his wrist. "Mama, I know it's late. But don't... please don't say anything until I finish. And before you ask, yes, I've been drinking. I nearly ran off the road a few miles back and... " I drew in a sharp, shallow breath, released my husban

Greek God Contest
so i decided to hold a contest where you choose which greek god you want me to turn you into i will edit your picture to the maximum there will only be a certain amount of ppl that get to have there picture changed if the name is taken then im sorry you will have to choose a different one the cost to have your picture done is: 150k-weak edits250k-medium edits [not so good but not so bad]400k-high edits550k-maximum edits this will be going on until i get everyones donenow for the names aphrodite-goddess of love, lust, and beauty.apollo-God of music, prophecies, poetry, and archeryares-God of war, murder and bloodshedartemis-Goddess of the hunt and wild things, and the moonathena-Goddess of wisdom, warfare, handicrafts and reasondemeter-Goddess of fertility, grain and harvestdionysus-God of wine, parties/festivals, madness and merrimenthades-God of the underworldhephaestus-God of fire and the forge (god of fire and smiths) with very weak legshera-Goddess of marriage, women, and chil

I Feel Like Its A Waste Of Time!
I really feel like cherry bombs and autos are a waste of time. For me I see you only move up a bit with bombing depending on of course how high ranked you are! I am not wasting my money anymore on this site seriously other than maybe a blast here and there haha

For All Of Time.....
As he watches the night, he sees her, the woman who haunts his dreams. She is slowly walking towards the cliffs, and from afar he is amazed once again by her indescribable beauty, taken back by how the pale moonlight shines over her. He can see the wind softly caress her face as her hair blows gently in the breeze. He is watching, waiting, so afraid to speak, not wanting to break the magic of the night. As she draws nearer, he feels his heart begin to break, she turns and he sees the despair on her face; he is filled with her sadness. As the wind blows again it carries the sweet sound of her sad song, with each step her singing is getting louder as each step is bringing her closer and closer to where he is hidden, closer and closer to the cliffs edge. His body is filled with fear wondering what he should do, he knows in his heart that she is walking to his death for without her he could never live; he would be but an empty shell doomed to live out his days in misery, for she is the twi

My Children's Check Up
This morning I took my babies for their check up. Took forever to get them into the cat carrier. Im talking about cats here...not humans...lol Mittens was all pissy and growly...my poor baby. She got a shot and will be going back to the V.E.T tomorrow to get her teeth cleaned. Tigger got some hair ball treatment and amazingly he lost some weight...just a couple pounds but he's still a big guy. Hmm took a nap afterwards...then i forget what else I did...uhh went to my friends house had dinner there, went to starbucks and food shopping. Tomorrow I'm going to cook up some shrimp fried rice and egg rolls... Wow..I have such a exciting life..oh yeah....i have pink in my hair...sweet..I'm more of a freak now.. I have no plans tomorrow....just dropping baby girl to the vet.... yea...

Ignorant People
1uniquemale: nigg fcking chicken to call me but owell ur loss this was left in my shout box by 1uniquemale....he is not unique there ae lots of ignorant people out there............. Just please refrain from leaving messages like this in my shoutbox.

Yay A Vacation
So if some of you saw my mumm I was wondering if i should go on a boat for a few months to get away from it all. I've decided not to, mainly cause I would be alone and after talking to mom's boyfriend there's a chance that in sept or oct I could do it again but this time bring a friend or two. So instead of that I'm going to spend my one year anniversary with my g/f in a cabin basically in the middle of nowhere not far from the ocean in WA. I'm so excited cause I need this get away and this stress free time. So I'm leaving tomorrow and won't be back til around june 24th or so, I just wish I was leaving today lol. So don't forget about me people

Internet Idiocy
I've noticed a new trend amongst the Fu-tards,and quite possibly the most idiotic one of them yet.Just when I thought it couldn't get any lower some of you never fail to take internet idiocy to a whole new level. Now I am seeing people with their faces pasted into the bodies of celebreties or unknown models,and I am not sure what is more upsetting the fact that people are so desperate for the attention of superficial strangers,or that some of them actually think anyone with even an ounce of intelligence would actually believe it's real.Now I know the intelligence average amongst users on this site is probably pretty low,but surely even they can reconize that a skinny tanned body with huge tits does not match crappy quality picture of someones face who appears to be in their 40's with wrinkles and and a double chin So instead of wasting your money buying bling packs invest in some self-esteem classes.

Reinvent Yourself, Redesign Your Style
Let other say what they want to say about what you wear and how you wear your clothes, it’s not there life anyway. This argument is a fact that we should accept in ourselves, why would you let others dictate your fashion preference, remember that you are unique, independent, you have your own taste, and you are what you are, unless, otherwise it is a serious requirement for with a very important purpose. “Clothes make a man” this Mark Twain’s 19th century value reflects the important role that it has served in the past and is continually serving in the present. An executive is easily being recognized by his or her clothing. America’s first lady; Michelle Obama, has caught the attention of fashion critics for her for her peculiar clothing, this is how clothing should be, wear what you feel to wear. Expensive may be the best word to describe fashion, only those who can afford to drop money can have the latest fashion trend, but think of it not as a

Survey 1
You got laid last night, didn't you?Well isn't that a bit personal? =] If you must know, I did, I did. :) Shh.Have you ever kissed someone that's name started with a 'B'?Yes. Stupid jerk face :/ haha. Is there anyone that hates you right now?Its a slight possibility. But hate is a very passionate feeling and I haven't made anyone mad in a very long time so in my mind its also slightly doubtful.Have you ever woke up next someone and wanted to puke?Nope. I believe im a bit more responsible then that....or rather, a whole lot more responsible :)What is one thing that would instantly make you dislike someone?Child molesters, gay haters If someone liked you, what would be the best way for them to tell you?I suppose words might work best =] Do you like me?!If you won a lot of money in the lottery, what would you do first?Bankkkkkk it.

Needing Prayers :(
My family has lots of issues... going on right now.. :( first my daddy went into the hospital yesterday and they found spots on his stomach.. they did not know what they were :( and so did a biopsy. Plus his health is just not the greatest anymore.. then my mom went into the hospital.. She had a day surgery.. They were checking some of her arteries in her neck.. and they came back ok.. Told her to watch what she ate.. When she got home... she told me my Uncle was in the hospital.. He may not make it much longer.. His heart is working at 10%... not to mention my baby daddy is still not paying child support nor will he ever! and I am getting so sick and tired of working to jobs,.,, Have you ever just gotten so fed up with life that you are just depressed?? I think I am there.. *sighs*

In Repair
I love to write but hardly blog, and whether anyone is interested or not, I have alot to say. I used to write alot and it helped me to figure things out. You would think writing on a public blog would feel alot different than writing privately knowing no one would read it, but it doesnt to me. Im a surprising girl with a surprising outlook on life considering the surprising amount of pain I've endured. I am a recent survivor of domestic violence. I fled with my (at the time) 3 year old son to a shelter in Philadelphia and they flew me home to Sacramento to the WEAVE shelter here. My son's father was brutally abusive and I am probably lucky to be alive and have my child in my custody. Our case with CPS was closed for only 2 months (after being under their thumb for a year) when he beat me up for the last time. I am in repair, for obvious reasons, and this blog is going to be a part of the process, Ive just decided! I am an artist, a model, a student, a single mother, and a surv

Please Help Lucky Mclovin Become The First Leprechaun Oracle
MY TWO YEAR FuVERSARY IS COMING UP ON JULY 2nd I REALLY WANT TO WIN THE TITLE AS FIRST ORACLE LEPRECHAUN I WILL BE RUNNING AUTO 11'S ON THURSDAY JUNE 11th @ NOON EST (3pm FuTIME) SO PLEASE HELP ME K.O. THE POINTS TOWARDS LEVELING TO ORACLE RATE ME, BOMB ME, BLING ME IF YOU CAN. ALL LUV IS APPRECIATED, AND WILL BE RETURNED PLEASE PM WHEN YOUR DONE SO THAT I DON'T MISS YOU IF YOU GET KNOCKED OFF MY BAR TAB ₤ựϛǩƴ Ṁč₤ὅṽḭη The Leprechaun King@ fubar

Love Hurts.
Why loving someone hurts so bad? I never had to think about it. Now that's all I think about. Relationships should be so simple. Find someone to love, fall in love, be happy the rest of your life. What a joke!!!!! It's nothing but a lie, and I've been the biggest fool of all. Love isn't real, just a term. Be used than tossed a side like a piece of garbage, a laughing stock for the world to know about. Just a big joke, but I'm not laughing any more!!!!!!!

The Bluest Blues
I couldn't wait to see you - waiting by the doorThere's no one there to meet me - and your clothes are on the floorSorry if I hurt you - and I made you cryCouldn't stand to see you - with another guyIt's the bluest blues - and it cuts me like a knifeIt's the bluest blues - since you walked out of my lifeCouldn't really tell you - how you hurt my prideSomething broke within me - down insideI never knew I loved you - til you went awayNow the loneliness surrounds me - everydayIt's the bluest blues - since you walked out of the doorIt's the bluest blues - cause I won't see you no moreI'm sorry if I failed you - if somehow I'm to blameIt's the bluest blues I'm feeling - it's a cryin' shameI just can't live without you - face another dayIt's the bluest blues I'm feeling, and it's here to stayIt's the bluest blues, and it cuts me to the bone It's the bluest blues, when you can't find your way home

Testing Something Out
Hi folks, There is something I want to do and first I wanted to try out a few things to see if I could get it looking the way I want. So, to be honest, this blog isn't going to be that informative, but it will help me with future blogs. Here is a test picture I want to share If that came out right, there should be a coral colored tea rose picture here. Well, we will see, won't we ;-) Here is hoping that everyone is having a great day @};- Paul

Dont Know What Youve Got Til Its Gone
I've heard it been said,for oh so long.You don't know what you'vegot till its gone.You take it for granted,when your lovers near.Once their gone,you're wishing they were here.Be careful what you do,say you're sorry when your wrong.I'm telling you it's true,you don't know what you got till its gone.So often times we get mad,and let the anger fly.Saying things that we don't mean,they leave... we wonder why.Be there for your lover,think before you speak.Just because you say you're sorry,doesn't mean that you are weak.Everyday in every way,make your lover feel complete.Then they wont have to wonder,or feel the need to cheat.Please take these words I offer to heart,don't think that I am wrong.I'm telling you the saying is true.You don't know what you got till its gone.

Come Help ♥~bratt~♥ Level
I'm Pimping out my sweet friend Bratt I know already know her and be real good friends with her, if not then you are missing out. She is a really cool person to know and I'm glad to have her as a friend. She's fabulously sweet & cute!! Rate, Fan, Add, Bling, Bomb Her. I'm pimping her out so come and show her some mad Fu Lovin and spank her to Oracle she will return all the love. Add Her, Fan Her, And Rate Her Bling, Bomb Her. Why Are You Still Reading This Go Show Her Sum Fu Loving! ♥~Bratt~♥Owned by **Stilts**

Road Trip
I was on my way to the beach for a nice, relaxing overnight stay. The first time in forever I was going to be alone, and able to enjoy complete solitude. I was speeding down rt. 1 when this weird noise started. It was coming from the engine, but I had no clue what it was. It was dark out, drizzling, and just not ideal circumstances to be stuck on the side of the highway. I stopped the car, as the noise was getting louder, and popped the hood. I was muttering to myself how stupid this was, since I had no clue what I was supposed to be seeing. As I stood there staring at the engine, I saw a car pull over ahead of me and stop. My stomach started churning, and I was thinking all sorts of horrible scenarios, ending in my death, or rape, beating…damn, I watch too much tv. As I looked up a man got out of the car and started toward me. I couldn’t see what he looked like in the dark, but he didn’t seem menacing. He was carrying a flashlight, and shown it on me as he approache

Someone Tell Me Why [very Personal]
Once upon a time there was a sweet and innocencent little girl, who always had a smileo n her face Whom always thought postive, and could brighten up anyones day with just a glare of her pretty face. But one day she grew up and became something she couldnt even reconize herself Who is this animal she's become? why must she act this way and do the things she does? Why cant she just go back to when her life was perfect and nothing could possibly go wrong?? She once wanted candy and cartoons, Now she cant go without sex and drugs She once was able to make decisions in a flash, Now she cant decide on nothing She was once loved by all, now they only laugh at her, and the guys only use her for her body, the girls pick on her and try to start fights She used to go cry to her daddy, but now she runs and hides her problems behind a bottle of alcohol Why, cant i get my act together and be the adult i started out to be? Why must I make everything so damn compliucated? God pleas

Plans #2
hey all just wanted to let u all know that all week and weekend next week i'll be in Pigeon forge & Gatlinburg tn to fish and play out on douglas lake so i won't be back til sunday...so don't miss me too much and try to have fun without me!

*sighs*
I used to write alot of poems..... but then i lost my inspiration to write them..... until now..... i have so many words to say..... but what to say and how to say it is where i get stuck...... For so many years I thought I knew what happiness was. I thought I was in love for so many years.... And that she was going to be the one i spend the rest of my life with..... But I sit here and think about the past and all the pain I endured.... Emotionally, physically and mentally.... I thought that was what love was..... That was all I knew as love..... But now I know I was wrong..... How I feel now..... The past will never amount to how I feel now. Because of all the damage and hurt I've gone through I had a wall built up. Was determined to NOT let anyone back in...... Until You...... I can't even explain how you were able to break down my walls. But you did. I'm happy that it was you that did though. I would have never found my words again..... You managed to help me find my hear

A Poem I Wrote
Soldiers Kill, for That Is Their Profession Soldiers kill, for that is their profession, Or die, for those are soldiers that they face. Let us honor, then, the unmarked grace Death bestows on those in its possession. If the cause is just, soldiers will Embody what the nation holds most dear, Rendering our peril in their fear, Serving our survival when they kill.

Just A Vent
I been talking to the transitional place that I want to be at. They staffed my case yesterday and she called me this morning telling me before I can come in that they want a psych test done. She is worried about what she seen in my doctors things about the depression and anxiety she read about in my doctors paperwork and also that I never followed up or never continued to take the medication. I never continued cuz at that time I didnt have medical so I didnt have the funds to pay for the pills and didnt want to rack up the bills going to the doctor. She is also worried about how I isolate myself, and this I do know that I do..... I am hoping this all turns out properly and I get accepted in, cuz this is very very important to me.

The Fog
Day in and Day out i awake to the same confusion.. Is this all that is out there for me, or am i not in the right place.. How do i find my way, is there a guide to help me navigate my way... I try and push my way through the fog only to keep running into the walls.. I will continue to keep my eyes on the prize and make my way through this haze called life...

Vip Give Away
VIP... Well fu friends, I'm giving away a VIP for a month for the best salute. Make your salute, send it to me, it will go in a special folder in my photos :) Get your salutes in by Sunday night and a decision will be made on Monday night for the give away. Be creative :) I can't wait to see what you come up with!!! Thanks and Good Luck Dixie :)

I'm Sorry =[
sorry if i'm not pretty enough to be "Your girl"I'm sorry that I don't want to have sex every minute of the day.I'm sorry that I'm not a playboy bunny so I can act like a pornstar for you.I'm sorry if I don't have a dream body that turns you on.I'm sorry if I won't drop down to my knees to get you to like me.I'm sorry if my hair isn't long enough.I'm sorry if I'm not the "hottest" girl you've ever seen.I'm sorry if loving you isn't enough.I'm sorry if being your friend through thick and thin makes no difference.I'm sorry that I try my best to get you to like me but, then get hurt.But most of all; I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.and I'm sorry that most guys will read this and post it and may agree with it but after 5 minutes they forget about it and do the same thing all over again. GUYS! Just think about it, about how you treat girls. You treat them like crap & all they want to do is be loved by you. Think about it.If you're a girl and you agree wit

Poem/shortstory
Heartbeat Thump thump, the only sound is the beating of my heart as it echoes in my ears. Thump thump. My eyes slowly drift out of focus to the sound in my head. Thump thump. The outside world disappears as I draw in on myself. Thump thump, lights flash in front of my eyes to the tune of the beat, swirling and spinning in the darkness that I have gathered around myself. Like twin universes as viewed from afar; my mind reals in fascination all bemused, I giggle to the outside world. My body stuck slack jawed, arms at my side, the flow of the day rolls around me unconcerned. Thump thump, the seconds slowly tic by feeling like an eternity. The events of the past month play across the empty void, flowing in and around the orbs I have created. The way it all started, the silly smiles, the way she entertained my dreams, the eternal waiting for that fateful day to arrive, the sweaty palms, the indecision

Me And My Wife
im writing this to let all friends know that the flirting and comments need to stop thank you we are at a spot where we need to focus on just us and not be flirting even in good fun we or i have not fully shown her attention that i most of the time do and it has blinded me a lil so from this point on im back to my old self for her for me and for us i cant stand to relize she is upset and im ashamed of my actions to her my life is her and i pray she relizes i love her and am sorry for the times recently she has felt neglected its alot of thinking and talking to people to see what happened so i will be my silly fun sometimes goofy guy that loves to make her laugh she is and was always worth it sometimes it takes somthing big to impact our souls and wake us up to see and that happened . there is my own demons from my past i will be dealing with that im getting help for cause that person is not me at all but right now im back for good to have the love from her i need and want and to be th

Suicide
Life is never good for me and this is what I wish you'd see.Just let me end it all for I'll be happy in the end, I'll finally be free.Free from all the pain and torment and the never ending battle.No more dealing with the arguments and tears, I'd finally be through with it all.You just don’t seem to understand that by keeping me here your making it worse.If I were dead and gone by now I'd be happy, I wouldn’t have this life, I wouldn't have the curse.I’m already considering doing this even without your consent.I know for sure that once its all over with my heart will finally be content.So here I am just sitting there, on my bed with a knife to my wrist.Please everyone don’t be upset, please don’t be pissed.You just need to know I love you all but couldn’t handle it anymore.Ok here I go, I’m doing this for sure.You just need to let me go to heaven now, hopefully God will understand and accept this.Just tell my baby I love him and I’m sorry

Thought I Would Share...
The __CHUDWAH__ Field Guild: Davo started this discussion 2 days ago The CHUDWAH Field Guild: A Field Guide to Clueless Heterosexual Dominant Wannabe: This field guide is only to be used for CHUDWAHS, and does not identify trolls, brats or subs, which are totally separate species.The Greater One Trick Wonder:Unum Magnificata Voice: "That's the only way to do it." Habitat: Often seen in newsgroups, seldom seen in real life. Range: Known to disappear for extended periods of time, but frequently returns, like a bad burrito. Notes: Does only one thing, but occasionally does it well. Denies the reality of events that do not conform to its script of expecations. Mistakes appearance for substance. Often mistaken for Trollus Sokpuppiti. The Lesser One Trick Wonder:Faux Magnificata Voice: "That's NOT the way to do it." Habitat: Only seen in newsgroups. Range: Never goes away. Notes: Call often identified by use of the foot stomp as a terminal punctuation mark. Attempts to do only

Still Here....kinda
well, I am still here...kinda. I am so busy these days with the kids home from school and getting the house and things in order around here getting ready for my surgery on June 18th. I jump on fubar to check on friends and family about once a day. I usually don't speak cause I got the kids hollering at me or the dog is ready to go outside or the clothes need to be folded or it's time to cook.....well, you get the picture. Plz say special prayers for my girl VIVI as she goes in for some surgery on the 18th also. I won't go into details but you can go by and see her and leave her some love and support. I know she would appreciate it!! Like I said I go on the 18th for surgery....my surgery will be reconstructive surgery to fix 'the girls' after the lumpectomy I had last year. I will loose about a cup size (dang it!!) but I will be even again and I will feel better about my appearance (I hope). I will update some pics later on after some healing. In the mean time, leave lots

A Poem For A Very Close Friend
I know i left you just this morning but I wanted you to wake up to something special. I long for your touch each day n night . I wait for the kiss that might not come I lay watching stars shine bright Wishing and hoping that i see one more note from you every mornin. Your face takes over my dreams at night when I finally get to shut my eyes . Thoughts of your hands as the glide across my skin. Make me squrim with lust for just one more touch of your hand. The kisses you send lay upon my lips like rose petals so soft and gentle. But each and every morning I awake to yet another empty piece of bed beside me . Oh wh

A Sniper
A Sniper's Tale By me My belly presses the dirt Prone, I am still As sand covers me head to toe. Desolate barren road, Tiny grains swirling are blinding. Still my scope searches for my foe. A white pick up truck A man scrambles to set his trap. Right on time, just as I was told. His eyes appear over a scarf. A father perhaps, definitely one's son To me he has no soul. One last breath of life, He jerks violently around And left in an awkward fold. The convoy follows By taking one life I have a hundred to show. Again the desolate road…... ………I wait. Mrrcp 2008

June 14th Update
Ok, so here's an update thats not goin to be very long ,but its an update since I have not updated anyone lately very much... Ok, so heres the update. Well, instead of going to the nursing home right now and healing up some then doin surgery.. They have offically now decided to do surgery now instead of waiting cuz the doctor doesnt think that the sore will heal up anymore on its own so surgery is either on the 18th or the 22nd i'm not exactly sure what one ,but it will be one of those 2 days forsure.. My nausia has calmed down a lot now that they have my antibiotics under control.. They are goin to have to go in and make sure everything is cleaned out and then they are goin to do a flap is what its called.. They are goin to move some of the tissue and skin from the front of my right leg to the back of my right leg.. so they are goin to have to be very careful and take there time so its goin to be like a 4 hour surgery at least.. So that way they can cover the sores behind my thigh an

Just So You Know
Recently I have come to the conclusion that my time spent on line is not a good use of my time. I turned to the PC when my marriage ended cause all of the friends I had in real life had pulled away when my ex lost his mind. LOL...lost his mind in reality what happened was he decided at the age of 38 with 4 daughters, a good job, a home and 17 years of marriage that his life long dream was to be a Meth addict. So I call it loosing his mind cause I have no other sane way to explain it. Anyway, so between the 18 months of dealing with his addiction and the separation to follow our real life friends who didn't know what to say, how to act or what to do they pulled away. I felt more alone than I ever have in my whole life. So I turned to places like myspace and eventually found other sites that if they did nothing else they gave me adult contact. No one knew me well enough to judge me or my life. Eventually those contacts turned in to real people cause I ventured to meet them. A step I sti