1409800's blog: "My Thoughts"

created on 07/02/2009 | http://fubar.com/my-thoughts/b302077 | 1 followers

posted on 07/02/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;05:07&nbs-07:00;am

How I'm feeling right now
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Ok. Just so you know. I'm on the waiting list to have Gastric Band Surgery. I have 12 to 13 weeks to wait. I'm sick of waiting. Last night I found out that My Brothers GF is having another baby. I couldn't handle it. I broke down in floods of tears with the thought of having to wait 2 years until I can have another baby. I was sitting there feeling like I wanted to start self harming again. I wanted to cut deep into my own stomach. I really hate Myself right now.

I don't know who to turn to. I can't tell anyone so I thought I would write it down so I can at least get it out of my system. Yeah I have a Daughter. Yeah I have a Husband. But I have never felt more alone than what I do right now. I want to be happy and live my life.

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