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Do You Want To Be An Official Peter Britt Country Girl?
Would you like to be an official member of the Peter Britt Country Girls Club? Do you have what it takes? Well, do ya? lol Well, all it really takes is to be a true supporter of Peter Britt and my music. For those who become official members, you will receive and official member card that will give you back stage access for any show I play, anywhere. You will also get front row seats if available. So what are you waiting for? Just remember that the PBCG's should be true supporters, active supporters and absolutely LOVE the music. Well, that last part sure helps. lol Now below, you will also find some official Peter Britt Country Girl merchandise available and just so yoou know, NO, I don't make a fortune if you buy a PBCG shirt, thong (Man I love the thongs. lol) or anything else. Matter of fact, I make almost nothing on these. They are for the Peter Britt Country Girls to let EVERYONE IN THE WORLD know that THEY are OFFICIAL Peter Britt Country Girls. So, take a look, get a shirt,

Support Issues
Okay,so usually today I have my child support but for some reason I did not get it. Considering I have to pay rent and my car payment and such....I contacted the Nebraska Child support enforcement and a customer service rep. told me that because I filled out a "non-monetary reciept" in January, so that my ex would not have to pay support in Febuary, now he has a credit to his account because of my mistake. My ex did in fact have the kids in January and we had made a verbal agreement that he would have the kids for three months. During at which he would have the support back, since he had the kids. So I figured that the only way to do this is to fill out this "reciept" so that my ex would not have to pay the support that was ordered thru the courts. But that apparently is not how the "reciept" works. Then when there was the issue of my ex wanting to keep the kids longer than expected, I freaked out thinking that my ex was going to do things his own way and not go by what we had made

What A Fucking Joke
I had this guy pop up,, saying how he has a question fer me an I said o.k., well he'd asked if I had yahoo/aim or msn of course I'm like I do,, yes however do not give it out to someone I dunno.... sorry,, (WOW) then this ass goes the fuck off on my ass callin me a cunt tellin me to get over my fatass an what not... Said I was being rude in which I wasn't, that kills me how some people act just because they don't get what they want.... Update, here is the fuckers name Da White Sox...

Grow Up
who in the hell is taking the time to go through my pics, as well as others and report them? are you fucking jealous? is that the issue? if it is, grow the hell up, get off my page, block me, get off this website cause you don't belong here. who the hell do you think you are that you can be jury and judge all my stuff? I am so tired of people like this, GO AWAY!!!!! BITE ME!!!!

Poem # 2 "undying Muse"
how wonderful the winter's scene. snow capped mountains so serene. we long to step outside to play. put on our coats and get on our way. invite our friends to a friendly fight. if all weren't there, just wouldn't be right. roars of laughter and a hit here and there. we play joyously without a care. snowball fight is over and ready to sled. throw the last snowball and head to the shed. boy... the snow packs very well today. top the hill and we're on our way. ride like rockets into the wind. crash into the snow and do it again. over and over and over we ride. up to the time we must go inside. wet and cold from a full day of fun. hot cup of cocoa to warm everyone. shadows fade with the moon to the east. all gather round for a hot dinner feast. good food and good friends our only desire. then go to the rug, to sit by the fire. amber hypnotic flames give a majestic glow. logs turn to coals, embers, up the chimney go. have you ever felt so peac

Website
Is anyone else having problems when they get on my website? I have had a few people say that it freezes. Please let me know as I would like to fix it. I am not sure though what to do. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know. Thanks Christine

Ironic Secret
If I could tell the world just one thing It would be to tell them a secret Something I thought I could ever tell To reveal about myself something I kept inside Something hidden to never be told Until this very moment of time. A dark and lonely secret Mysterious in so many forms available Why I choose to decide to tell others Is something I cannot decide on right now But what I do know and realize Is that this is something to be let free Ladies and gentlemen and all of you who care This is the moment of time of which I speak As I think to myself of ways to speak out I come to this final decision The secret that I kept so long inside That I needed so badly to tell you all here today My secret that shall never go unheard Is simply just this one sentence.... You're all too gullible to believe That I had something important to say.

Yay! My Kitty Came Home.
Four days ago our cat Star Rocky Marshmellow ran outside. We thought he was gone for good but last night he came home! I am soo happy. He is the kitty in the picture sleeping with me and I would get depressed whenever I saw it. I wa about to delete it it was so bad but then he turned up! And just in time for Minxy to not be in heat anymore! So everything worked out for the best! :D That's about it. I just wanted to share that Rocco came home.

On The Yahoo Messenger Issue...
Ok...if I tell you once that I don't give out my messenger ID, that means that you are not gonna get it so just leave it at that. Being persistant isn't gonna change the fact that I'm still not gonna give it to you. Get it through your head...I don't do the chat thing except with really good friends, and I really really don't do the stupid cyber whore thing. On that note...here is one prick who wouldn't take no for an answer...he decided to send me a private message and give me a piece of his mind after I blocked his ass.. Here is the shoutbox conversation: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Da White S...: question for u ok? ->Da White S...: ok Da White S...: do u have yahoo or msn messenger? Da White S...: ?? ->Da White S...: i do, but i don't use it Da White S...: how come? what's your yahoo or msn messenger? ->Da White S...: i don't give it out, sorry Da White S...: whatever ->Da White S...: yeah, fuck you too ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dog The Bounty Hunter
PLEASE NO DISRESPECTFUL COMMENTS AS MOST OF YOU KNOW DOG THE BOUNTY DID A DANGEROUS BOUNTY DOWN IN MEXICO, AND BY DOING THE RIGHT THING, AND GETTING A RAPIST OFF THESE STREETS, THEY MEXICAN GOVERNMENT IS NOW HUNTING DOWN THE DOG. THIS COULD HAVE BEEN YOUR SISTER, MOTHER, FRIEND, DAUGHTER, FAMILY, OR SOMEONE IN YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD THAT WAS RAPED. DOG HAS PUT THIS MAN IN JAIL, AND GOD BLESS DOG FOR THAT. THIS IS A LINK FROM DOG'S WEBSITE TO "HELP THE DOG" THIS IS A PETITION THAT YOU WILL BE SENT TO. ONLY CLICK IF YOU WISH TO SIGN IT TO HELP THE DOG. http://www.xkastclients.com/dog2/petition/ SAYING YES YOU WILL SIGN IT AND HELP FIGHT FOR WHAT MOST FEEL IS RIGHT AND THEN GO TO LINK AND VOTE OR NO - THIS ISN'T WHAT YOU ARE IN TO. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, PLEASE REMEMBER NO DISRESPECTFUL COMMENTS. HAPPY CHERRY TAPPING!

Strength For The Strong One
With this poem I was able to put into words the way I felt when my dad died, and the way I feel now... when it comes to mom being sick and everything else I've been dealing with.... everyone thinks I'm so strong.... If only they really knew.... Standing apart from everyone else Quiet and stoic, as she watched them cry And mourn the passing of their loved one, Who was so very important in their lives. But it was now time, to say goodbye. Her vibrant dark eyes, welled up momentarily with tears... Yet she said not a word...not a whimper..not a sigh.. Knowing full well her soul has always shone within her eyes She quickly banished it behind a shield to protect her soft nature From the corner of her eye, she noticed her mother and sisters weeping, Coming up beside them, she placed her arms around them all... As they wept, yet her cheeks remained dry, She tightened her grip slightly, To lend them her support and strength Raising her chin defiantly at her own feelings..

I'm Only One!
"I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do. What I can do, I should do. And what I should do, by the grace of God, I will do." ~ Edward Everett Hale This is how I feel,can anyone else relate

Stress Management
STRESS MANAGEMENT A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass of water and asked, "How heavy is this glass of water?" Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g. The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on. As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden. So, before you return home tonight, p

Interest Mounting
"So where are you headed, anyway?" he asked when they stopped for something to eat. "Doesn't matter. I never had any kind of destination in mind. I go forward, never back." She sipped her cup of coffee and winced at the black strength of it, motioning to the waitress for cream. "And you've been...without destination since the age of 13?" She looked at him with an icy glare. "Yes. Why do you give a shit?" He shrugged his shoulders, but never broke his gaze. "Just curious. It's not every day I pick up a beautiful woman on the road and I just wondered why someone like you would...be alone." He reddened a color akin her hair and looked away. "I've only been alone a few days. I had been traveling with a man I knew from back home. We parted ways some miles back." "Why?" She sighed at his curiosity. "It was just time to part, that's all. Nothing more to remember, nothing more to talk about. Why are you so goddamn curious?" He ignored her question wit

I Guess Im A Mommy.......
well i come home about 6-ish after work today.. will was sitting at my bar and i was relaxing with him, happy to be on the other side of the bar (finally)... i make my way home... listening to the dresden dolls on my busted ipod... walk in .. take off my alcahol smelling clothes and get ready to relax..... feed the dogs and come over to see snake. i take the lid off and pick up the water bowl so i can get him some fresh water... i look at the bottom of the bowl as i pick it up.. theres something stringey stuck to it.. figure its some of the dog hair (from lupin) that may have floated in ... i reach over to knock it off.. IT MOVED there were baby snakes in the cage... 12 of them to be exact.. i run into the bedroom... "ummm hunny?" i say to vamp.. "i need to get to a pet store ASAP..." he looked at me akwardly... "snake apparently is a female and had babies" i call will as im getting dressed and ask him to run me over ... i head back to my bar and we are on o

You, Me, And This...
As I look into your eyes you gaze into mine, Nothing else matters anymore and everything is frozen in time. All of a sudden my heart beats faster and faster as you start to get near, I sit still because ruining this moment is now my only fear... You get closer and closer as your hand touches my face, I look at you filled with desire and its your lips I want to taste... I could feel your breath hit against my skin causing me to fluster, But I'd rather be with you, and not anyone else, no other... But I hear something that catches my attention and I realize everything is not what is seems, Oh how I wish I can go back to sleep and finish that beautiful dream...

Non-living And Having A Gender?
Jokes are jokes and are not intended to be taken seiously, so if your going to be anal.... DONT READ!!! Have a great laugh! You may not know this, but many non-living things have a gender. 1) Ziploc Bags are Male, because they hold everything in, but you can see right through them. 2) Copiers are Female, because once turned off; it takes a while to warm them up again. It's an effective reproductive device if the right buttons are pushed, but can wreak havoc if the wrong buttons are pushed. 3) A Tire is Male, because it goes bald and it's often over-inflated. 4) A Hot Air Balloon is Male, because, to get it to go anywhere, you have to light a fire under it, and of course, there's the hot ai r part . 5) Sponges are Female, because they're soft, squeezable and retain water. 6) A Web Page is Female, because it's always getting hit on. 7) A Subway is Male, because it uses the same old lines to pick people up. 8) An Hourglass is Female,

Patterns
I was noticing in the shower the pattern on the shower walls. Mostly, it's off white tiles, with just a couple of tiles that have a design. 3 tiles, then design, 3 tiles, then design. It made me recall a conversation I recently had about the pattern in my own life. I recognize that it's there, just not the real reason for it being there. In the case of my shower, it's just to accent the rest of the room. Which I find humorous, since with the curtains closed you don't see it. I realize I'm repeating the same pattern in my life. But why? Is it because I'm looking for something? Is it because I need to repeat it in order to be happy? I don't know. Certainly, I believe that we are the sum of our experiences. The different adventures we have in our time of living create a mosaic that is our life. No one particular pattern is involved, just a myriad of colors. So is the repeated pattern a part of the mosaic? What if I continue in this particular pattern? Wil

A Lot Of Work
SO I JUST MOVED OUT OF MY MOM'S HOUSE FOR THE 2ND TIME BUT THIS TIME I DID IT ALONE. IT'S A LITTLE LONELY AND SCARY AT THE SAME TIME BUT I LIKE IT. I LOVE HAVING MY FREEDOM AGAIN I FORGOT HOW GOOD IT FELT TO WAKE UP AND WALK AROUND IN JUST MY PANTIES AND NOT WORRY ABOUT ANYONE BEING THERE TO SAY SOMETHING LOL...I DON'T HAVE MY COMPUTER OVER THERE YET THAT'LL TAKE A WEEK OR TWO SO I CAN GET ON HERE WHEN I CAN BUT THOSE WHO KNOW MY NUMBER CAN FEEL FREE TO GIVE ME A JINGLE ANYTIME DOESN'T MATTER :) ALRIGHT EVERYONE HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!

New Rock Classics
So....I'm listening to my ipod and wondering what recent-ish rock songs (21st century, basically) would be considered classics twenty years from now, the way a good stone or skynyrd or springsteen song is thought of today. Here are some that I think would age well...clearly the songs need to have been popular recently, but also they shouldn't be just a flavor of the month (which is how I think of Coldplay or even Audioslave...) ...I've also left off recent songs by groups who already are known to be classic artists, e.g. I don't want to miss a thing by Aerosmith or Vertigo by U2...and tried to ignore most pop, rap and country... "Smooth", by Santana / Rob Thomas (ok so its '99) "One Last Breath", Creed "Where are you going", DMB "Bring me to Life", Evanescence "boulevard of Broken Dreams", Green Day "Collide", Howie Day "Mr Brightside", the Killers (or Somebody Told Me) "She Will Be Loved", Maroon 5 "Bent", Matchbox Twenty (or maybe If You're Gone) "Here without you",

X-wifes
Well I have two x-wifes one is a bitch and the other isn't to bad, my first one she is a total bitch. I know that everyone on CT wants the best for the kids but this bitch isn't like that at all. She doesn't want her son to play any sports NONE, she has two other kids one is on the lazy side and the other is 6 years old but he's kewl. Our son is very good at sports but she doesn't want him to be, Why?

You Know You're A Nurse If...
You know you're a nurse if... You believe every patient needs TLC: Thorazine, Lorazepam and Compazine. You would like to meet the inventor of the call light in a dark alley one night. You believe not all patients are annoying ... some are unconscious. Your sense of humor seems to get more "warped" each year. You know the phone numbers of every late night food delivery place in town by heart. You can only tell time with a 24 hour clock. Almost everything can seem humorous ... eventually. When asked, "What color is the patient's diarrhea?", you show them your shoes. Every time you walk, you make a rattling noise because of all the scissors and clamps in your pockets. You can tell the pharmacist more about the medicines he is dispensing than he can. You carry "spare" meds in your pocket rather than wait for pharmacy to deliver. You refuse to watch ER because it's too much like the real thing and triggers "flash backs." You check the ca

Taking Mother To Nursing Home
One evening a family brings their frail, elderly mother to a nursing home and leaves her as planned, hoping she will be well cared for. The next morning, the nurses bathe her, feed her a tasty breakfast, and set her in a chair at a window overlooking a lovely flower garden. She seems OK, but after a while she slowly starts to lean over sideways in her chair. Two attentive nurses immediately rush up to catch her and straighten her up. Again she seems OK, but after a while she starts to tilt to the other side. The nurses rush back and once more bring her back upright. This goes on all morning. Later the family arrives to see how the old woman is adjusting to her new home. "So Ma, how is it here? Are they treating you all right?" they ask. "It's pretty nice," she replies. "Except they won't let me fart."

Can You Help My Friend
SHE IS IN HER FIRST CONTEST EVER, IT RUNS TIL JUNE 11th. FOR BEST BACK TATTOO. SEE NEEDS YOUR RATES AND AS MANY COMMENTS AS YOU CAN SPARE. AND CAN YOU LET YOUR FRIENDS KNOW TOO. CLIC ON THE PIC TO TAKE YOU THERE.

Need Help
Ok help a gal out here, got 2 lovely kittens. Not sure exactly what their sex is just yet as they are only 3 mos old and is hard to tell. So I know everyone has some great ideas to unisex names!! Their pics are in my album but will post them here to show you what they look like! Would be apreciated , thanks ahead of time!

Spirit
Spirit of the Wind carry me Spirit of the Wind carry me home Spirit of the Wind carry me home to myself Spirit of the Ocean, depth of emotion Spirit of the Sea, set myself free Spirit of the Rain, wash away the pain Spirit of the Storm, help me be reborn Spirit of the Sun, warm light healing one Spirit of the Sky, spread my winds and fly Spirit of the Earth, help with my birth Spirit of the Land, hold me in your hand Spirit of the River, blessed forgiver Spirit of the Shore, shows me more and more.

Funny
A man speaks frantically into the phone, "My wife is pregnant, and her contractions are only two minutes apart!" "Is this her first child?" the doctor queries. "No, you idiot!" the man shouts. "This is her husband!"

Dimensional Theories
This isn't nearly as researched as i like but i'll still put it out here... Alright in modern society to ancient society the afterlife has always been a big case yet no one understands what it can be or what it fully is, outside what is stated in their religious text. well i feel that the einsteins theories of multiple dimensions blended together with the number 11, a common number showing up in many religions, show an amount equal to the number of dimensions the world has. now the trick goes into linear algebra which i haven't had the joys of taking but quickly summed up in basic proofs each dimension consists of the dimension number plus one, for like what we have is: xyz with the constant variable in t so with that being said we live in the third dimension consisting of length width and depth and an importance of time... the fourth dimension is time so the laws of physics then change because time is no longer a variable needed to worry about. that explains the basics of

Fuck U Tommy Ur A Fucking Whore !
DEAR TOMMY - im glad that u think so highly of me ! i love the way u say u want to hang out and promise it but never seem to get around to it ... and yes u seem to have time to see all your other friends ..... im so glad that u decided that i was a good FUCK for a minute and took advantage of that by pretending to be my friend just to get your dick wet even tho the whole world knows you will fuck any chick that gives you 2 seconds of her time and is kinda cute ... i knew i wasent the only girl u were fucking and i was ok with that it just sucks that u had to fucking use me like u did and fuck with my head like u have this by telling me what i wanted to hear and makeing me think u actually wanted a friendship this standing me up thing / not talking to me has gone way beyond you just feeling down in the dumps its just u found something and or some one better and want to just keep stringing me along ohh and by the way i hope

Your Resident Nutt! Just Meee :)
I am writing this blog for my friends who would like to know more about me. And warning... lol I do 'ramble' some, hahaha. If at any time you would like to ask me anything, feel free. I am an easy going person. I really enjoy doing things for my friends. So never hesitate to ask me for a favor. There are times when I make special things for people just because I feel like it. No! Contrary to popular belief, I am not the "Bitch that knows everything". I don't know it all yet! Lmao But I do like to try and learn something new everyday. Including learning more about my friends. I am not a Total Bitch unless provoked. It takes alot to piss me off 90 percent of the time. The other 10 percent "Subject To Snap" I have a severe anger disorder. And at this time it is uncontrollable by any medications I have tried so far. C'mon Smoke, we'll be late for anger management class. I dont take my anger out on anyone personally, unless they have pissed me off. But I am an easy going perso

::( No More Yay Me.. Someone Give Me A Bullet In The Head
So im talkin to my sons dad and he tells me im not seeing my son tomorrow.. i cant have him overnight i cant see him and im not allowed to talk to him anymore.. I fucking hate that man..

No One Cares Ne More!!!!
it feels like no one cares anymore no one wants to be my friend and just hang out and chill with me!! it feels as if i can just disapear and no one would even notice that im missing and no one would care im gone!! and sooner or later ur going to turn around and say hey weres amy?? and it will be to late i will be dead some were and no one will find me!! and by the time some one dose find me i will be rotting away in dirt and fith some were!!! i hope some one will come and save me from this feeling of deppresion and lonlyness!!!

Well Do You
I have added a map to my profile. For those of you that are my true friends and care you will add yourself to my map so that I can find you. For those of you that could care fuckin' less, then don't but I must warn you, I may delete you. I am tired of people just wanting to be my friend for the ratings or whatever. I am here for friends. I talk to each and everyone of you that talk to me. I am interested in your life and what is going on. I offer advice and receive the same from MY TRUE FRIENDS. I care deeply for my friends and the ones that care for me well, you have to show me. I do hope to talk to you, my true friends later. Keep in touch with me.

A Place In My Mind
A Place in My Mind As I open my eyes I see a great world, Many souls wander this world Not seeing what lies in the future, A future of untold possibilities Some may hold true happiness, Others may hold pain and suffering, All will try to leave this world But all will fail, I want to leave this world But I don’t know how, I seek a key I seek a way out, But there is no key Or a way out, I try to close my eyes But I cannot, Now my soul becomes tortured As the rest of this world.

Wait!
If I had a place to hide it would be here! If I had a women to love it would be U! If I could take back time! I wouldnt! To live again! To breath again is pure!To live again is beautiful! U make me learn that colors can lie! People make stupied Ds! People who stick around have a heart!My love grows to new highs!

Status Update
Still no private access internet for me. I have no upload or download capabilities, nor the ability to cut and paste. Bummer that I can't leave all the pretty picture comments that I used to but ... maybe ... someday. There's always hope. I will still check my messages here and respond to all who comment and return the love the those who rate 10's or 11's. *hugs to all*

Moving On And Going Home
Well thats it ... I've made my mind up .. told my Family.. As of February/March of 2008 I will be going Home to California!! They can come with me or stay here in this Shithole Desert!! My Sister InLaw has already said her butt would be more than happy to help us move our belongings there!! So its done... I'm going!!! I'm saving my Vacation pay and using my taxes and that will be plenty to get hte Hell out and get a place for me and the girls!! Woot, I am soooo ready to go NOW!! Hey Jamie... Wanna follow???????

Rub A Dub Dub Three Subs In A Tub
I was thinking about how all subs are definitely unique and different. With that in mind I thought that it might be time to write about some of the kinds of subs, and their specialties. A few in this blog, and several more blogs to come. 1. Pleasure Sub - This submissive has a very strong sensual and sexual nature. In submission, they want to please and always work hard at doing it. A pleasure sub can be rebellious, and headstrong, but never when it comes to pleasing a Dom/Domme. I have found that this personality, and type of submission is more common among female subs than male subs. Having a pleasure sub, may appear easy on the surface, but a pleasure sub requires a lot of attention, they have a fragile ego, and are easily abused by Dom/Dommes who fail to understand the intricy of the pleasure personality. Owning a pleasure sub can be exhausting, and at times frustrating. But the rewards are many. This sub is often called a slut, and responds well to the term. 2. Forced Femini

For My Fellow Soldiers
THIS IS WHY I AM IN THE ARMY : The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, > I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. > My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, > My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. > > Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, > Transforming the yard to a winter delight. > The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, > Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. > My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, > Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. > > In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, > So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. > The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, > But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. > > Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the > sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. > My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, > And I crept to the door just to see who was near. > > Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, > A lone figure stood, his

~~what Women Really Want~~
King Arthur and the Witch: Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death. The question?...What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end. He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer. Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be hig

Do You Remember
DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE YOUNG? CHASING PUNK ROCK GIRLS, STAGE DIVING AND HAVING FUN. DO YOU REMEMBER OUR FAMILIES AND FRIENDS? RIDING A 100 MPH, LIKE IT WAS NEVER GONNA END. DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN THE SHOP HELD MY NORTON RANSOM? YOU SAID HOW MUCH DO YOU NEED TO GET HER OUT? I SAID $300.00 YOU SAID I'LL BE THERE IN 20 MINUTES. DO YOU REMEMBER THE LAST TIME YOU SAW ME? I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU LIKE A BROTHER AND GAVE YOU A HUG. DO YOU REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU? I PUT A CROWS FEATHER IN YOUR POCKET AND SOME SAGE AND TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU MY BROTHER. IT WAS AT YOUR FUNERAL, DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN I QUIT DRINKING AND RIDING. DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE YOUNG. R.I.P. DAN DAN THE MOTORCYCLE MAN POLZIN. LOVE YA AND MISS YA. YOUR BRO. SCOOTER.

My Birthday
This is written for me, by me, as I feel the need to give myself a birthday card. If you have ever been given or seen a birthday card made by me, you know it is done fully in crayon on a regular white sheet of paper, and I try to draw something on the front of it. It still looks like a small child with limited motor skills drew the card, so I try to find the right words to carve in Crayola to make up for my clearly one sided artistic skills. I can scribble words, but not colors. Anyone that signs the cards I make must use only a crayon, or many crayons if they desire, as I have a box of 96 with a sharpener on the back. It is totally one of my favorite Xmas gifts ever. Now, I need you to stay in that ‘inner child running the place’ mindset while I finish the rest of my card. 6/7=42 It is like winning A gold medal For every lap Completed in a race As when I start Another one I am rewarded With gifts And there is joy Upon my face Most are done With love Some thru

What's Up With Me...long Version!!!
I've been pondering what I would say in this blog for weeks now...I have always said that I'm an "open book", but I find that sometimes I have a "hard cover"! LOL...so, in response to many questions and for those that actually read the blogs, I'd like to share something very personal that is happening in my life...many in my CT "family" are aware of my condition and I thank them for their patience with me and their love! I love you guys!!! So, having said that, get yourself some coffee and get a comfy chair!...let me start at the beginning...and this is the LONG version! LOL!!! I worked corporate for ten years as the right hand to the owner of a very successful family owned insurance company. This company was, I considered, my first "real" job. I was hired in 1986 as a data entry clerk and quickly worked my way up to Administrative Assistant...really, I wore many hats, and if you've read my profile then you know that I am the epitome of the word "workaholic". I learned so much fr

As The Earth Awakens For Its Sleep
Winter is still in the air. The morning is brisk and I clutch my coat closed tight as I walk quickly to the car. Suddenly something catches my eye and I stop, a smile forms across my face. The first sign of hope, that spring is arriving, has broken through the ground of the garden. Beautiful is it petals of lavendar and white. I know this is only the beginning for my beautiful garden, soon others will awake and bring forth their beautiful foliage and fragrance will fill the air. Gegi20070606

Fake Cherrytappers!
I thought that everyone who is on here is honest and real. But I am finding out that people make fake profiles as well as post pics that aren't them! What is up with that? All of my pics are me...unless for some reason I say in the comment section that they aren't. People be real and true to yourselves! Post pics of yourself!

She Came To Me In My Dream
i been wanting a sighn that my mom forgave me well like 10 minutes ago i got one... i was sound asleep holding harry in bed and my mom came to me in my dream.in my dream i was lookin at myself in a full body wall mirror and my legs started shrinkin and my face started changing. i then lookied in the mirror again and i seen my mom. i had gotten a huge chill on my body and felt her holding me. she looked at me and was saying stuff to me but couldnt make out everything she said cuz there was no sound , altho even when she was alive u had trouble hearing her cuz she had paralized vocal cords. i held her and told her repeatidly i was sorry for doing what i did that caused us not to talk since valentines day and i miss her incredibly and couldnt go on without her. and that i loved her more than anything, she told me i would be fine and she missed me too but will always be around watching over me and my kids n family after just holding her and telling her this and crying my eyes out i woke up

Hinder Gig 6/6/07
Well after not actually wanting to go, I had the best time! A late start, and a tiny venue looked like it would be pretty lame. After 2 support acts Enjoy and Destroy and Damone which were not too bad (if you excuse the spitting every 5 seconds) came Hinder. Wicked night! Wicked company! Great Live show! Highlight:- Emma getting rage and throwing a plastic cup at a stupid girls head for sitting on some guys sholders during "Lips of an angel" CLASSIC! Can't wait for the next one!

Too Crazy.
Ok so... Last night I had dinner with a friend here in Arizona...and she just happens to be living with an ex of mine. This particular ex just happens to be schizophrenic. He ALSO happens to be off his meds. The dinner went fairly well. Tim [the ex] was kind of out of it...but it was pretty much what I'd expected. Otherwise, we talked, we laughed, we ate crappy Denny's and drank flat soda. Tonight, I get a call. Nyssa's upset. She's crying. She can barely speak to me. She had apparently come home to find Tim passed out near death on the floor and a note on the table. He had OD'd. And he was rushed to the hospital via ambulance. I surround myself with crazy people. I know that I do this. Just about everyone I care about has some kind of dysfuction. They keep life interesting. Each of them brings something different into my life...a completely new way of viewing the world. Each of them touches a different aspect of me. Sometimes it's like there are so many people insid

An Angel From Heaven!
An Angel from Heaven. An Angel has Come from the Heavens But yet I saw no lite This is to signify That this Angel is here to stay. An Angel here to stay To make the earth a better place. A better place for one who is good at Heart and True to Himself. I scream out to say "Here I am! I feel that I am worthy of your Heart." She hear's me and say's "Then let's you and I never Grow apart, for I will be the juge of that." I look into Her Beautiful Eye's With a smile a mile Long and say "I will be true to you I swear." "For this is what I only Dare. So don't despair I swear. My Heart will be True to You." By M.J.B June 7,2007

First Cut Is The Deepest
Once upon a time, two little boys, Sammy and Tim, were sharing a room in the hospital. As they were getting to know each other a little bit, Sammy eventually asked Tim, "Hey, what're you in for?" "I'm getting my tonsils out. I'm a little worried," said Tim. "Oh, don't worry about it," Sammy said. "I had my tonsils out and it was a blast! I got to eat all the ice cream and Jell-O I wanted for two weeks!" "Oh yeah?'' replied Tim. "That's not half-bad. So, Sammy, how about you? What're you here for?" "I'm getting a circumcision, whatever that is," Sammy answered. "Oh my god, circumcision? I got one of those when I was a baby and I couldn't walk for two years!"

Never Again
A dark club. Bodies moving with the music. I see him there, across the bar. I want to feel him touch me, kiss me. To feel his arms wrapping around me. A stranger a game. This building need. As the fire rises higher. My blood begins to boil. From the picture's running through my head. Eyes closed passion's toying with my mind. Bodies pressing against me. Turning me on. I feel a touch. A caress on my arm. I turn to find him a smile on his face. I follow him as if in a dream. In the alley behind the club now. The heat. pressing in on me. Each time I breath. A kiss hot and deep. A caress long and sweet. Panties hitting th asphalt. The whispear of clothes coming off. His body pressing mine into the wall. He wraps his arms around me. As he enters that secret place. No pretences only lust. Him pushing so deep long and hard. Trying to satisfy these needs. His hands touching everywere at once. Passions sky rocketing. Blood pumping through our veins. Needs crening through our bodies. As we feel

Grounding The Squad
Well it was good while it lasted but it time to disband the squad,It was a good idea or so we thought but it just never really took flight so as of today the GIT-R-DONE REBEl~INDEPENDENTS~BOMBSQUAD is officially ended.Thank you to those few who felt it was a good idea and supported it and bombed like crazy...ya'll are awesome.From this time forward all GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY member's get to Bigdawg69 homepage if you haven't already...here's the link GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY HOME PAGE@ CherryTAP Thank you all for providing me the opportunity to act as your leader and to Hitman6,Bigdawg69 and Tweetyjinxin for having faith in me that I would be able to make it work...sorry I failed you all.Remember ya'll the family is alive and well and as alway's...GIT-R-DONE sincerely granadaghia75

Thanks Everyone (=
For those of you who know and those who don't!! It seems my patiece and whit's have been pushed to its limits yet again.... I admit even at my age now I am still Daddy's little girl and in his mind & heart will always remain. I am the baby of the family of 12 and the ONLY girl.... Now mind you my father is 86 years old and has lived a very healthy life as a biker and a world war 2 Piolet Hero and as a proud father of 12 (not all his flesh & blood for 2 of us me included are adopted) However Yesterday I almost lost him due to a faulty pacemaker, he had spent a total of 10 hours in surgery and replaced the pacemaker thinking he was good to go when that new pacemaker itself failed my Dad, we had lost him all to have his life restored and finally got a GOOD pacemaker replaced and as he always tells me everyday, he will once again check the Obituaries to see if hes still alive kickin and HE IS!!!! Thanks to all who listened to me in my time of need even if I flaked out on our co

My Friends List
Aight here's the deal! I've been goin thru my friends list this mornin tryin to get profile comments out to everyone...do you realize how much of a pain in the butt it is to send out that many with 3 kids runnin around? I have come to this conclusion. I will still send out my daily luv to the ppl on my hit list but as for the others I will stick to the alerts and to the ppl who comment me. Normally I would send everyone a comment but damn come on ya'll how many of you really go thru everyone and send them a comment. I've gotten really annoyed with the whole huge ass friend list and half of them don't speak....so to those who do Thank you and you will be hearing from me!!! For those on my hit list: Love n Blessings to you! I will definetly be here for you anytime...most of you know how to get in touch with me other than CT so gimme a yell if ya need me! Special luv~n~hugz go out to several ppl...ya'll know who you are!

Man's New Nickname Is "stumpy" After Cutting Off His Own Leg
Man pinned under tree amputates his leg Wed Jun 6, 9:43 PM ET Alone in the woods with his left leg pinned beneath a fallen tree for 11 hours, a 66-year-old man used pocket knives to cut off his limb below the knee to free himself, a neighbor and authorities said. Al Hill had been cutting trees last Friday when one fell on him. After freeing himself, he cried out for help, and a neighbor passing through this sparsely populated area heard him. Eric Bookey then hiked nearly two miles to get a cellular signal and placed an emergency call to the town's all-volunteer fire department about 7:30 p.m., Fire Chief Luana Dowling told The Associated Press on Wednesday. Hill was eventually airlifted by helicopter to a hospital where he underwent amputation surgery, Dowling said. "He's a pretty remarkable person," Dowling said. A hospital spokeswoman said Hill was in serious condition on Wednesday, and that he was declining interviews.

Interview With The Boss Man...
Arg...I have an interview today and of course I'm stressing out about it. What if I throw up on him or something? I mean, it would be funny later...but not then. No...that would be not good. In fact, I think I'd cry somewhere for a good year after that fiasco. So here's to me not puking my brains out all over my would be employer. God I need a drink...

My Mentality
Religion I think it is all brainwash. Lets be honest, there are thousands of religions in this world and there is only one real answer. In that case, does every religion, but one have false beliefs and are going to go to hell? Very doubtful. I also find it hard to believe what I cannot see. I think there is life after death, but I do not think there is one man above us who controls it all, that is impossible. Just because a book says so, does not mean it is true. Religion is just a series of altered stories over time in order to give human beings faith. I think if youre genuinely a good person, good things will happen to you in the long run. Everyone should believe in whatever they want, be different, have your own religion. Nothing is wrong, as long as you believe in SOMETHING. Abortion I am pro-choice. If a 20 year old single female is pregnant and does not have adequate funds or proper shelter to support the child, then abortion is a good choice. I guess I would say I cho

Plutocracy Defined
Definition: Plutocracy Domain: Politics/SociologyContext: The corruption of democracy, sources of political corruption, class conflict, corporations and politics, the mass media and politics The term "plutocracy" is formally defined as government by the wealthy, and is also sometimes used to refer to a wealthy class that controls a government, often from behind the scenes. More generally, a plutocracy is any form of government in which the wealthy exercise the preponderance of political power, whether directly or indirectly. Plutocracy may also have social and cultural aspects. Thus, in Democracy for the Few political scientist Michael Parenti is led to comment "American capitalism represents more than just an economic system; it is an entire cultural and social order, a plutocracy, a system of rule that is mostly by and for the rich. Most universities and colleges, publishing houses, mass circulation magazines, newspapers, television and radio statio

A Blonde's Year In Review!
January - Took new scarf back to store because it was too tight. February - Fired from pharmacy job for failing to print labels.....Helllloooo!!!.....bottles won't fit in printer !!! March - Got really excited.....finished jigsaw puzzle in 6 months.....box said '2-4 years!' April - Trapped on escalator for hours..... power went out!!! May - Tried to make Kool-Aid.....wrong instructions....8 cups of water won't fit into those little packets!!! June - Tried to go water skiing......couldn't find a lake with a slope. July - Lost breast stroke swimmin competition.....learned later, the other swimmers cheated, they used their arms!!! August - Got locked out of my car in rain storm.....car swamped because soft-top was open. September -! The capital of California is 'C'.....isn't it??? October - Hate M & M's....they are so hard to peel. November - Baked turkey for 4 1/2 days . instructions said 1 hour per pound and I weigh 108!! December - Couldn't call 9

Ride To The Redwoods
Saying Hello and sending much luv to my blog readers. This will be my last blog entry for a few days. Tomorrow I will be riding with a few of my California friends up into the redwoods. No laptop, cell phone. Hopefully I will have plenty of pictures to post. Tuesday the 12th I begin my trip back to Florida. My drive east from the San Francisco area will take me to Reno, Nevada. From Reno to Salt Lake City, Utah then onto Cheyenne, Wyoming. From Cheyenne to Lincoln, Nebraska then south to Kansas City, Nashville to Atlanta and into Florida. Any of my CherryTap friends on my route? that would be cool to know.

Another Night Without Sleep ^_^
You ever get the sense that you’re falling and for some reason you’re mind just will not except that it is you’re fault in the first place? Well I’m having one of those days right now it’s 4AM and I just can’t sleep I really tried to as well I slept until 3AM then just could not get back to sleep something woke me but there was nothing there but something tells me something was in my room as my dog started to bark just outside my window so here I am writing my thoughts and drinking a shitty tasting RED EYE (POWER) .... I made some very shitty diction lately you know! Mmm first I screw up a friendship I was actually liking and believe me I did the royal screw job this time! there is no way of saving my ass from that one.... but well I don’t know I had a feeling like it was going to end and for the first time I am sorry to see it end there was something there that I just liked you know.. That kind of connection I have yearned for .... (Sigh) ah well its all good I guess... I’m damned an

Going Away Fer A Few Days
Hi friends just wanted to let yall know I am going into hospital tomorrow morning...been sick as hell for few weeks now and am not sure how long I will be there. I will be back on when I come home. Will miss yall...Talk to yall soon as I am able to...Take care friends.

Update On Ray
He went back to the doctors today and they made a big deal of him coming in today. He has a nurse that comes out twice a week now and when she reported back to his doctor he was concerned. He made a mistake on his IV meds, he was supposed to be doing one of them every 24 hours and he was doing it the way they were in the hospital every 12hours, and they say that he is depressed. So now he has to report to his doctors every day. He is still having a hard time breathing and he continuously has to turn his oxygen up more and more. In my heart I believe that they let him out of the hospital too soon, but of course he says no. He just dont want to be away from home more than he has to be. But if he dont get any better they are gonna wind up putting him back in. They seem to think that maybe one of his oral antibiotics is clashing with his morhine and ativan so they stopped it and now have him on 2 water pills so hopefully that willhelp him get all that icky mucus up and out of his lungs. I

Work
I am so sick and tired of my job!! I fucking HATE it! I just want to quit! All I ever hear is I am gonna get fired. The owner is a fucking retard! I repeatedly told him what is going on at the place I work! Because he wanted to know! But wait that was just a huge waste of oxygen and TIME! I should have just quit!! When I had the chance!!! I hate them fucking morons!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proud To Be Muslim
well first off i'd like to say im very proud and happy to be a muslimah,for those who dont know what that is.it means muslim woman in arabic. no not all muslims are terrorist and anyone who thinks so is ignorant and plain out racist towards muslims.because im sure to remind that there have been bombers who in fact were christains.in no way am i putting down christianity i am just stating facts here. anyways in no way at all do i feel opressed or closed off from the world. yes i do pray 5 times a day and yes i read my holy Quraan every day.why does that make me a bad person because i believe in a different why of life,how does that make any of you who hate muslims better than me. you are just as ignorant as the ones who hate others based on the color of thier skin,my point is made us muslims will not tolerate hate and how we will deal with it is leaving it up to god to handle and no I AM NOT A TERRORIST OR KNOW ANY SO DONT ASK

I Hate People Who Steal,,,
Their is a member on CT that is my neighbor. She has been out of prison for a couple months. She served 14 months for fraud and failing a drug test for crack cocaine. Well when she got out of prision she befriended me everyone was telling me that I need to watch my back cause she will steal anything she can get her hands on. Well the other day I was taking a nap with my son when I woke she has done stole stuff off of my porch. She admitted to her BF that she took it. So if you hate theives as much as I do pay her alittle visit and let her know. I give everyone the benifit of the doubt before this happened I would do anything for her. Now she isn't welcome at my house anymore, You don't steal especially from someone you consider to be a friend. Here is her link and that is not her actual pic. twsted bitch@ CherryTAP

Sadness
Sadness takes over as I smile for the world, no one having a clue to what goes on in my mind, nor do they care, My thoughts and worries and fears not being considered, I smile, Would anyone even know i'm gone? would anyone even care? I have become the jester to everyones lives, not needed around till they feel sadness to which I'm called upon, I smile.. If I get it wrong I have become the next prisoner to their wrath of hate, Still no one caring about my thought, my worries, my fears. I smile. What is the purpose of my being? What did I do wrong to feel this way, Is this a curse from the gods for being who I am? And all I can do is ask why, no one having any words of reason, I sit and wait for the day to which all will end. but I smile.

8 Things I Hate About Humanity
1. How good a musician Corey Taylor is. You must be from another planet – stop fucking embarrassing the rest of us. 2. The Ontological Argument. (1) I define God to be X. (2) Since I can conceive of X, X must exist. (3) Therefore, God exists. I don’t really think anything else needs to be said here. Except for maybe to try this out with anything you can think of. Like, try defining a sentient overweight tuxedo-wearing jazz-fag pile of cowshit as X, and see what happens. 3. Black people who demand reparations. Whoa there. Are you seriously demanding money based on events that took place under a different system of morals over 100 years ago? There are two major problems with this. First, the people you’re asking for the money from had NOTHING to do with enslaving the black race. That’s right: just because they’re white devils, doesn’t mean that they contain some kind of inexorable link to the past with white devils in the 1800s. That would be like me demanding money from th

Hinder Gig 6/6/07
Went to see Hinder live with My best mate Emma and I had a fab night. Worst parts - Damone.. the girl was gobbing every 5 seconds and it was making me feel ill. A stupid girl getting on her stupid bfs shoulders during lips of an angel. I had rage, threw cups at her and shoved her down. HOW RUDE! :P Highlights - Slow dancing with Emma to lips of an angel. Sexing it up to get stoned and our little mission for a diet coke after :) We recorded this on Emmas phone :)

No Means No!!!
Guy: "Can we have sex right now? Girl: "Can we do what?" Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?" Girl: "Um.....no." Guy: "Why?" Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......." Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won't tell." Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first." Guy: "I'm not special to you?" Girl: "You're my friend. That's all." Guy: looks forward and keeps driving. 5 minutes pass....... Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh. Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me.". Guy: tries to kiss her. Girl: screams, "Would you stop." Guy: continues trying. Girl: moves to the back seat Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her. Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this." Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in you

Used Car
It was a small town and the patrolman was making his evening rounds. As he was checking a used car lot, he came upon two little old ladies sitting in a used car.! He stopped and asked them why they were sitting there in the car. Were they trying to steal it? "Heavens no, we bought it." "Then why don't you drive it away." "We can't drive." "Then why did you buy it?" "We were told that if we bought a Used car here we'd get screwed .so we're just waiting. If you did't laugh at this one you need to lighten up!

Onions And Christmas Trees
A family is at the dinner table.The son asks his father, "Dad, how many kinds of boobs are there? The father, surprised, answers, "Well, son, there are three kinds of breasts. In her 20s, a woman's breasts are like melons, round and firm. In her 30s to 40s, they are like pears, still nice but hanging a bit. After 50, they are like onions". "Onions?" "Yes, you see them and they make you cry." This infuriated his wife and daughter so the daughter said, "Mum, how many kinds of 'willies' are there?" The mother, surprised, smiles and answers, "Well dear, a man goes through three phases. In his 20s, his willy is like an oak tree, mighty and hard. In his 30s and 40s, it is like a birch, flexible but reliable. After his 50s, it is like a Christmas tree". "A Christmas tree?" "Yes - dead from the root up and the balls are just for decoration."

Broken
I AM VERY BROKEN HEARTED AND I WANT TO END MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! I DIDNT THINK I WOULD EVER GET THIS WAY EVER AGAIN? BUT I DONT THINK I WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, BUT I WILL GIVE IT SOME VERY HEAVY THOUGHT,BUT MY MIND IS TELLING TO JUST DO IT! BUT MY HEART CANT MAKE UP ITS MIND?? WILL MY FRIENDS PLEASE TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO? IM IN DIRE NEED OF A FRIEND. MY BESTEST FRIEND IN MY WORLD, WAS KILLED IN A CAR ACCIDENT EARLIER TODAY, AND I DIDNT EVEN GET TO SAY GOODBYE! BUT I WANT SO MUCH TO BE WITH HER THAT IM WILLING TO DIE, TO BE WITH HER!

Hot Wax - Caution Ladies Pee Before Reading This.
WAX is Not your Friend CAUTION: Be prepared to laugh out loud...I laughed till I almost cried as I could just see this happening! all hair removal methods have tricked women with their promises of easy, painless removal - The epilady, scissors, razors, Nair and now...the wax. My night began as any other normal weeknight. Come home, fix dinner, play with the kids. I then had the thought that would ring painfully in my mind for the next few hours: "Maybe I should pull the waxing kit out of the medicine cabinet." So I headed to the site of my demise: the bathroom. It was one of those "cold wax" kits. No melting a clump of hot wax, you just rub the strips together in your hand, they get warm and you peel them apart and press them to your leg (or wherever else) and you pull the hair right off. No muss, no fuss. How hard can it be? I mean, I'm not a genius, but I am mechanically inclined enough to figure this out. (YA THINK!?!) So I pull one of the thin stri

Fighting From Far Away
Figuring out what we are is harder each day cause even though something is there we are so far away you understand im here for you your friendship is permanent all I can do is be sweet tell you how I feel its hard enough fighting urges working out the mistakes you will just have to take what comes and after all i have to give nothing may never be done helpless to fate has to make ~Timmy~

Got Married
hi all, i just got married to the woman i love chevy on CT am so happy i juss had to say it, thanks all of my freinds and family who attended and those who sent message,s of love thankyou those who didnt but srry you missed a great party!!! drop by the Devils playground sometimes say hi cya all

You Can't Say We Never Tried
Life disappears right before our eyes, and in seconds our truths are proved to be lies. We swallow down our pride with clear liquid that kills our insides. Lovers don't wait for the pain to subside, and mothers don't know the way they leave us when they die. Girls don't know the way they stab us with their eyes, and boys don't have enough closets to hide. Brothers don't know their hands that hold our hearts, and fathers don't know how easily they rip us apart. Misery holds us close to her breasts, and in seconds we feel more than any other day, and all is laid to rest. We slice away our confidence with silver blades to our wrists. Wives don't try to be nice anymore, and husbands don't come home before they've seen their whores. Sons don't know left from right, unless they're up late on a school night, and daughters don't know the difference between love and fist fights. Friends don't know their empathy, and enemies show no sympathy. Life comes in quick flashes, like sunligh

A Sad Story
This is beautiful, try not to cry If your going to read this, get some tissues. She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't godcare anymore where were you, God, when my son needed you?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to don

Insane: Part 1.
Sanity is in the eye of the beholder. Yeah yeah, I know that's not the original saying. But I don't really give a fuck. If I'm violating any copyright laws, just go ahead and sue me. I'd like to see you try and get something out of my broke ass.It works well enough for my purposes. And it's actually pretty true. There are a ton of fucking crazy people wandering the streets under the guise of sanity. Hell, most of them don't even know how nutty they are. Those are the ones that freak me out. When you don't know what you're capable of, you're apt to completely lose control. I prefer the openly insane people...those who are on intimate terms with their insanity...those who embrace it and learn from it...those who don't hide behind that mask we all call "normal". Knowledge is power and,when someone knows they're a few fries short of a Happy Meal, they learn to compensate. I trust these people because they don't trust themselves. Yeah. I'm not so certain that made sense to any

Cute - O - Meter
Cute -O- MeTeR Cute-O-Meter *everyboday do it* Post this for your friends to see and watch the answers you get sent back to you in your inbox!! If you don't repost your a scaredy-cat and you will have relationship problems for 5 years. So post it now. -2= Nasty -1= Ugly 0= Not Ugly 1= Almost Okay 2= Okay 3= Average 4= Cute 5= Really Cute 6= Beautiful/Handsome 7= Gorgeous 8= Sexy 9= Incredibly Sexy 10= Breath Taking Which one do you think I am???

For Paul
JALAPENO RELISH 1 lb. onions 1/2 lb. bell peppers 1 tsp. salt, optional 1/2 c. white vinegar 1/2 lb. jalapeno peppers 1 lg. can tomatoes, 16 oz. 1 tsp. garlic powder Cut stems and remove seeds from the jalapeno peppers. Chop fine, wear gloves when handling the jalapenos. Chop all vegetables including the tomatoes and place in pot with other ingredients. Bring to a boil, then simmer about 1 hour, stirring occasionally until onions are soft and sauce is slightly thickened. To get sauce a little thicker, weigh all ingredients after peeling and removing stems and seeds. To get it hotter leave in all jalapeno pepper seeds. Bottle and refrigerate, or may be put in jars and canned, makes about 3 pints.

Friendship
Thank you for our friendship For it means so much to me, Your kindness and understanding And loving ways you share so free. Thank you for being beside me When I needed someone that cared, And thank you for all your loyalty For the times together we shared. Thank you for our friendship For it's something even money can't buy, Thank you for holding me tightly When there was a need I had to cry. Thank you for always smiling When I couldn't smile at all, And thank you for boosting my ego For the times I felt so small. Your friendship I cherish so deeply So this message to you I send, May God bless and always watch over you And may you always remain my friend. Wishing my dear sweet friend a beautiful evening

Home By Daughtry
"Home" I'm staring out into the night, Trying to hide the pain. I'm going to the place where love And feeling good don't ever cost a thing. And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain. Well I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong, And where your love has always been enough for me. I'm not running from. No, I think you got me all wrong. I don't regret this life I chose for me. But these places and these faces are getting old, So I'm going home. Well I'm going home. The miles are getting longer, it seems, The closer I get to you. I've not always been the best man or friend for you. But your love remains true. And I don't know why. You always seem to give me another try. So I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong, And where your love has always been enough for me. I'm not running from. No, I think you got me all wrong. I don't regret this life I chose for me. But these places and these faces are getting old, Be careful what you

A Kiss From A Stranger
*Sorry if there are typo errors. A kiss is a kiss. But what makes it special is the moment when that happens. It’s all about the moment, but that’s just me. I’ve seen this movie “Hitch” starring Will Smith, and he said there that “the first kiss, will always tell the woman what kind of relationship a guy would want”, is this true? Or is it just another exaggeration of the movie world. But if it is true, then it’s just all about the relationship. How about a kiss when you’re drunk or two people who just got caught up in a situation and kissed? How about that? Can somebody explain that to me? Please. My life is pretty much like a T.V. sitcom, or sometimes a soap opera. Everything happens. And this one episode, I won’t forget. I got a kiss from a stranger. He wasn’t a total stranger actually, I know his name, and he knows mine. But we’re not really close to each other; we talk but not as much as I do to my friends. In short, we’re just acquainted. And to me, he is indeed a stranger.

Changing My Life ..**warning This Blog Is Long And Boring Lol ... **
ok so i just wanted to vent whats been going on in my life just lately ..!! me and hubby came to a mega breaking point a couple of weeks ago which ended in lots of tears and near seperation this is (i think)the last chance the bee all and end all with us ... im not sure exactly whats happened over the last couple of yeasr but we seem to be stuck in a downward spiral constant arguing and not getting along is driving me mad .. i think some of it has to do with not knowing whats gana happen next . i always resigned my self to having lots of kids being mum and wife and little else .. untill last year when we were told that although we can have more children theres a 95 % chance that they will also ( like kaitlin demi and josh ) be very premature causing lots of problems stays in hospital and at worst handicaped for life or death !!! so i dont want to tempt fate and have decided to be very grateful to have 2 beautiful girls who i love and cherish very much !!! but this cha

The Paris Hilton Controversy..
Now, I along with the general public may find what has happened with her to be a travesty of justice. But I'm one to look on the bright side of things. If she were to go to jail, and was murdered by another inmate, we would be subjected to endless media coverage the magnitude of 9/11's. Hell, the day of her death would be forever memorialized. Honestly, I can live without "Paris Hilton Day". -s

Friday Fun....
GAMES FOR WHEN WE ARE OLDER 1. Sag, you're It. 2. Hide and go pee 3. 20 questions shouted into your good ear. 4. Kick the bucket 5. Red Rover, Red Rover, the nurse says Bend Over. 6. Musical recliners. 7. Simon says something incoherent. 8. Pin the Toupee on the bald guy SIGNS OF MENOPAUSE: 1. You sell your home heating system at a yard sale. 2. You have to write post-it notes with your kids' names on them. 3. You change your underwear after a sneeze. OLD IS WHEN: 1. Going bra-less pulls all the wrinkles out of your face. 2. You don't care where your spouse goes, just as long as you don't have To go along. 3. Getting a little action means I don't need fiber today. 4. Getting lucky means you find your car in the parking lot. 5. An all-nighter means not getting up to pee!! Thoughts for the weekend Wouldn't it be nice if whenever we messed up our life we could simply Press 'Ctr Alt Delete' and start all over?

Sorry
hello i a am sorry for being such a bad freind the last few months...so much going on at home and work that i have had no time to come here :( things at home are settling down some so i should be able to make time i do truly miss my good freinds here you can reach me at tkjaka@yahoo.com as well hugs and kisses to all kels

" To Day Is Goin To Be "
I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT ALOT OF THINGS TODAY OR SHOULD I SAY THE LAST FEW DAYS . AND SOMETHINGS ARE ABOUT TO CHANGE . SOME MIGHT NOT LIKE BUT , OH WILL , SO IS LIFE , AND IT WILL BE A INTERESTIN TO SEE , HAVE A NICE DAY IF YOU CAN , I PLAN ON IT . THAT IS FOR SURE . WITCHSBREW AKA CHERIE

Cbt
Basic Cock and Ball Torture Author Unknown Cock Torture So What's the Thrill? Obviously the cock is the organ of the male body most effectively wired for pleasurable sensation, and there are huge stretches of the pleasure/pain boundary to be explored in its vicinity. But arguably more important is the psychological angle: for many men, cocks are the center of sexuality and a symbol of sexual potency and when someone helplessly undergoes abuse of his most precious appendage the psychological charge is immense. A site normally associated with indulgent pleasure is being transformed into a vulnerable target for punishment and pain. There are also clear links between CT and interests in sexual control and chastity. Parts of the Penis and How to be Cruel to Them Shaft A structure of several layers, the core layer being spongy tissues (the corpora cavernosa) that engorge with blood during erection and the arteries that supply them. Within this and a little clos

I'm Against Home Schooling. Here's Why...
I know that America's public education system leaves a lot to be desired. That's me being nice about it. I don't say this because I was a product of that education system. I was Catholic school educated for 15 years. I say this because I am a working member of the Public School System. Perhaps I would have done better in college if I had been home schooled. Perhaps if I just studied I would have done better, but would I really? What if I were home schooled? Ok, so maybe if I were home schooled I would have that full attention to detail laid on me. I wouldn't be in a crowded room full of undiciplined children running around as if the school were nothing more than a glorified day care. I would have focus. I would be able to make awesome grades. I would be ready for the class room at the next level. But there would be something missing that I would so terribly need-social skills. Kids who are home schooled don't grow up in the school setting. Home schooled k

Graduate!!!!!
Well I get to see my little girl Amber graduate tonight,I am so proud,she has been through a lot of bad stuff the last few years,thought I would share this,because it means so much to me. I love all my ct friends have a safe and blessed weekend.

Finally
i finally got around to puttin shit on my page. im new to ct so i didnt really get the chance to put everything i wanted on there. im still pissed at the fact i cant put all my pics up. thats fuckin fucked! and im a cheap ass sumbitch so i aint payin to be a vic member! damnit! but anyways, so that bitch paris is goin back. hmmm OH FUCKIN WELL i hope she gets raped by some bulldoggin ass bitch with a frozen banana ha but anyways. im done ranting now

Paris Hilton Back In Jail
Paris Hilton was ordered back to jail today, where she BELONGS! hopefully she will stay there for the remainder of her sentence or evne better hope she just dies in there, then ill be very happy!

Happy!!!
:D I'm so fckin happy right now went to the doc's and measuring perfectly right on the dot :D weight gain was great this time and I am having my baby shower near the end of this month :) Been a good friday gonna hopefully spend sometime with someone special later :) wow for once a HAPPY blog ?!? wtf

Happy Hour "granny"
have been on Cherrytap quite a bit of late, due to my arm injury, and i have noticed that the "sexygirlblond" (i think using girl in her name is pushing it) women has spent maybe $1000 on happy hours on the last week, i admit i did visit her page, and listen to her voice message, and quite a voice message it is to, if you get hot listening to OAP's talking dirty (thinking of you there Rev) drop by and listen. Quite what makes people spend so much money is alien to me, sure the site need it to run or should that be, "the site needs it to return a tidy profit"....... not sure, still this site will never get a penny of my hard earned $$$$$$$, i am far to much of a free loader for that to happen. What makes some granny want to become a Cherrytap god ? what motivates the top cherrys to spend there time and money gaining such lofty heights ? answers on a postcard Doddy PO Box 101 Russia

Vic Or 3 Day Blast Winners Choice
Look out!!! Just Meee and Dontcha are up to something... We are hosting a Contest with a Twist, ?or two? Thats right. The Men vs The Women. Late entries will be accepted. There are 2 womens pics that had to be uploaded to Dontchas photos. Ther are included in the womens part of the contest. Here's how it's gonna work. Links will be sent out by Cmail Sunday, to all entries, so you can make up your pimpouts. The first part of the contest will begin Monday, June 18, at noon central time. And Run for 2 full weeks. At which time Prizes will be given as stated below the rules. And the male and female with the most comments over 10,000 Will compete in a Battle Royal for A one month VIC. Or a 3 day Blast, Winners choice. The pics you enter will be removed and re-ripped to a different folder. So you will be entering the Battle Royal with a clean slate. The Men should contact Dontcha by c-mail only at the link provided below. The women should contact Ju

Into The Infinity Of Thoughts
This is by the almighty Emperor, Gods of Black Metal. The concepts and talk of the moon instils such a sense of purpose in my mind. It's truly beautiful: As the Darkness creeps over the Northern mountains of Norway and the silence reach the woods, I awake and rise... Into the night I wander, like many nights before, and like in my dreams, but centuries ago. Under the Moon, under the trees. Into the Infinity of Darkness, beyond the light of a new day, into the frozen nature chilly, beyond the warmth of the dying Sun. Hear the whispering of the wind, the Shadows calling... I gaze into the Moon which grants me visions these twelve full Moon nights of the year, and for each night the light of the holy disciples fades away. Weaker and weaker, one by one. Weaker and weaker, one by one. I gaze into the Moon which makes my mind pure as crystal lakes, my eyes cold as the darkest winter nights, by yet there is a flame inside. It guides me into the dark shadows

Sex Drinks
If you love to drink and fuck hard, Here's a sex series of drinks you should share with your partner. Which ones will you try? ASS- 1/3 oz. Vodka, 1/3 oz. Spearmint Schnapps, 1/3 oz. Sambuca BEND ME OVER- 3/8 oz. Canadian Whiskey, 3/8 oz. Amaretto, 3/8 oz. Sweet & Sour Mix BLOW JOB- 1 1/2 oz. Amaretto, Whipped Cream DEEP THROAT- 1/2 oz. Coffee Liqueur, 1/2 oz. Orange Liqueur, Whipped Cream 69- 1/3 oz. Creme de Banane, 1/3 oz. Anisette, 1/3 oz. Irish Cream MENAGE A TROIS- 1/3 oz. Coffee Liqueur, 1/3 oz. Hazelnut Liqueur, 1/3 oz. Orange Liqueur MUFF DIVE- 1/2 oz. Vodka, 1/2 oz. Coffee Liqueur, 1/2 oz. Irish Cream, Whipped Cream QUICK FUCK- 1/3 oz. Coffee Liqueur, 1/3 oz. Melon Liqueur, 1/3 oz. Irish Cream FLAMING ORGY- 1/4 oz. Creme de Menthe, 1/4 oz. Brandy, 1/4 oz. Tequila TASTY ORGASM- 1 oz. Peppermint Schnapps, 1oz. Irish Cream WET PUSSY SHOTS.....1/2 oz. Hot Damn and 1/2 oz. Jose Cuervo

For My Friends Here...
May our friendship last forever; May I sail upon your sea. May we go through life together; May there always be a "we." May I be your endless sky; May you breathe my gentle air. May you never wonder why Each time you look for me, I'm there. May we be for each a smile Like the warm, life-giving sun; Yet when we're in pain awhile, May our suffering be one. May we share our special days, The happiness of one for two; And if we must go separate ways, Let my love remain with you.

Now For Something More Serious About Me
This is something new for me, since I am not a very open person. Those that think that they know me, do not know the half of it. I am usually a very private person, so what I have to say next is going to throw some of you for a loop. Please bare with me, since this kind of writing is new for me to do. . . . My name is Kristie, and I am a divorced, single mother of two, a boy, Michael, and a girl, Caitlyn. I had a good childhood, being raised not only by my mother, but also by my grandparents, who doted upon me as I was the only granddaughter out of five grandkids and the oldest of them as well. I had a few close friends, but for the most part, I was a loner. I hated people, and still do to this day. As I got older, I became more withdrawn from people. The few friends I had slipped away, not because they wanted to, but because I pushed them away. I am not an easy person to get to know. There are a great many barriers between me and you. Some people are lucky to get past the first

Her Smile
Her beauty shines,even though its not there. Does she even notice,does she even care. When she is without it,it saddens me to no end. How can I help her,where do I begin. To put something back,I would never take away. When will it return,I long for that day. Someday soon all things will be in place. And then her smile will return to that beautiful face. Ty Miki, Very Sweet

Time To Remember
It seems people come and go in some cases come back its seems like some people were are bonded to in means we will never be able to understand or fathom we live a great cycle of lost and gain but its how we look at it that counts and somtimes it takes no explaining at all and just accepting to fully treasure what we have and remember what we have now can be gone in a blink of an eye

Woot Woot
Yay, 8 more working days an Daddy is off, we'll be gone fer 9 we're heading down by my mothers way an staying in a cabin fer 3 of those days which kicks ass, I'll be using my new bikini while we're there....tee hee...Well you guys may not see me fer sometime. Anyways just thought I'd let ya'll know!!

Why I Dread This Day Every Year
If you've known me for awhile you've seen how i am every june 8th and if you're close to me you know why i hate this day. so for those of you who care but arent close and havent really known me very long here's a brief explaination of why this day is horrible for me. on the day of june 8th back in 1999 i had a tragic event accur in my life. i was in New Orleans at a Baskin Robins at 1pm when i fell to the ground in the blink of eye from a pain in my chest that felt like a heart attack. it only lasted a few seconds, i didnt know why but i felt like something was wrong but i didnt know what. So i went about my the rest of day there like normal. But when i arrived home that night i went to check the caller ID only to find several calls from 2 different police departments and a funeral home. when my dad called back the local pd they showed at the door. im the unlucky one that answered it. i looked into the eyes of one officer and all i could say before he opened his mouth was "NO" i didnt

Refunds
Keep this in mind when you have something to return and the store gives you a hard time - A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and told the clerk she wanted a refund for the toaster she bought because it won't work. The clerk told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Suddenly, the woman threw her arms up in the air and started screaming, "RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES!" The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager in front of a growing crowd of customers. The manager comes to the woman and asks,"Ma'am what's wrong?" She explained the problem with the toaster, and he also told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air and screamed, "RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES!" and doing so draws an even bigger crowd! In shock, the store manager pleads, "Ma'am, why are you say

When A Guy Walks Out On You On Your First Date
WELL I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO THIS GUY FOR A WHILE NOW , AND HE FOUND ME ON A PERSONALS SITE, BUT ABOUT 2 YRS BEFORE THAT WE WHERE TALKING ALSO ABOUT MEETING SO WE BOTH KINDA KNEW A LITTLE MORE THEN MOST PEOPLE DO ABOUT MEETING A PERSON FROM A PERSONAL SITE, AND RECENTLY WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ON THE PHONE , EVERYTHING SEEMED FINE. WELL THIS ISA FRIDAY SO THINGS WHERE KIND OF CRAZY AND BUSY, SO HE GOT AT MY HOUSE I THINK AROUND 3:45 OR A LITTLE EARLIER, HE WAS WAITING ON MY FRONT PORCH AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT, MY DOORBELL HE SAID HE RANG I NEVER HEARD IT RING, I WAS ON THE 2ND STORY OF MY HOME, SO THEN I WAS ON MY REGULAR PHONE FOR A QUICK CALL AND MY CELL PHONE RINGS, AND THERE WHERE LATER I FOUND OUT SOME MESSAGES MY RINGER WASN'T WORKING RIGHT, SO THEN I CALLED HIS NUMBER BACK , AND HE CAME IN THE HOUSE TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT I HAD HIM COME IN MY HOUSE, I SAID I WILL BE RIGHT BACK , I WENT TO THE BATHROOM QUICK AND BRUSHED MY TEETH AGAIN, AND BY ACCIDENT I SPRAYED THE HAIRSPRAY IN

Pack Sex
tapologue 3: pack sex breakfast at a friend’s house, we moved out to the front porch, the rays of sunlight twinkling in the glasses of turkish coffee she likes to brew, potent muck. she had heard them from the inside—the screams. high-pitch squeals, really, at regular intervals, it seemed. not from birds, she had realized, ventured out, and called me, voice subdued yet excited: the yard between the houses filled. as i stepped out, the coffees on a tray, the first impression, i recall, was just that: the visual field torn by the pervasive dispersal of moving bodies. like a knotted crowd of worms on the retina. i had to fix my gaze on a tree. squirrels. from all directions. a few of them scurrying back and forth, as if caught, without escape. but more coming, everywhere. and all of them shrieking, then quiet, for maybe 20 seconds, before the next scream. but they behaved bizarrely in every way: some would press their bellies to the ground, spread there legs, almost disappear in the gr

Poem
Just for this morning: I am going to smile when i see your face and laugh when i feel like crying. Just for this morning: I will let you choose what you want to wear and smile and say how perfect it is. Just for this morning: I am going to step over the laundry and pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning: I will leave the dishes in the sink and Let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together. Just for this Afternoon: I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off and sit with you in the back yard and blow bubbles. Just for this afternoon: I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you Scream and whine for the ice cream truck and I will buy you one if he comes by. Just for this afternoon: I wont worry about what you are going to be when you grown up, Or second guess every decision i have made where you were concerned. Just for this afternoon: I will let you help me bake cookies and I wont stand over you trying

Tarzan
When Jane initially met Tarzan in the jungle, she was attracted to him, and during her questions about his life, she asked him how he had sex? "Tarzan not know sex" he replied. Jane explained to him what sex was. Tarzan said "Oh,....Tarzan use knot- hole in trunk of tree." Horrified, Jane said, " Tarzan you have it all wrong, but I will show you how to do it properly." She took off her clothing and laid down on the ground. "Here" she said, pointing to her privates, "you must put it in here." Tarzan removed his loin cloth, showing Jane his considerable manhood, stepped closer to her and kicked her in the crotch! Jane rolled around in agony for what seemed like an eternity. Eventually she managed to grasp for air and shouted, "What the hell did you do that for?" Tarzan replied, "Check for squirrel."

Poem
Long Distance Love Loving from a distance is never easy when u r living so very far apart But each mile that separates 2 people who truely care is joined together with the love each feels in their heart! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The lonliness u feel when u r not together can eat away at u deep inside when u miss the one who u want to share ur life with and they r not able to be by ur side ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Have trust in each others feelings and believe that they do feel the same way as you when u can not be with one another so easy it is to doubt wheather their love is really true ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Need to keep your faith that u have in each other and never let go of your trust sometimes thats not so easy to do but for your piece of mind it really is a must ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ think of one anothers emotional needs so the other knows that you do care make th

Give A Dog A Bone(er)
I have terminal laziness. I’ve heard it’s incurable. And I know I’d finally passed that point of no return when I found myself sitting in front of the TV, forced to watch whatever was on because I couldn’t find the remote. One day, a few years ago, I had the pleasure of watching “Showdog Moms & Dads”---I think it’s a spin-off of “Showbiz Moms& Dads”, but with dogs, and less disturbing. Anyway, it’s one of those reality-based shows, and this one follows a group of people who are obsessed with their canine companions. Ok, mind you, I have nothing against people who really love their pets---I have a dog myself. But the people on the show---well, ya gotta love 'em. There was a couple who bred German Shepherds. I guess they’d been trying to get the male and female to mate, but without success. In the middle of making dinner (the human couple, that is), the male suddenly jumps the female and starts humping her (the dogs, I mean), and it was OK! I mean, perhaps when you’re trying to h

Help!!!!!!!
OK EVERYBODY I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!! THIS IS OUR (HITMAN6 AND I) BEST FRIEND AND WE WANT HIM TO GET LEVELED UP SO HE CAN JOIN THE FAMILY! HE IS A REALLY SWEET GUY SO IF YOU COULD DO ALL YOU CAN TO HELP HIM WE WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT! HERE IS THE LINK TO HIS PAGE AND MAKE SURE YOU LEAVE HIM SUM LOVE! THANKS EVERYONE!! TWEETYJINXIN AND HITMAN6 NCCARGUY13@ CherryTAP

Please Pray For My Dad
Last night my dad had a heart attack. We were able to get him to the hospital in time. He had 100% blockage on the right side of the heart and the left side was borderline. They put a stint in on the right side and the left side they are going to watch and treat with medication. He didn't lose much heart muscle because we got him there in time. He is still in ICU this morning. They are waiting for the doctor to come in and check on him this morning. If you could just keep him in your prayers i would appreciate it.

The Declaration Of Evolution
When in the course of organic evolution it becomes obvious that a mutational process is inevitably dissolving the physical and neurological bonds which connect the members of one generation to the past and inevitably directing them to assume among the species of Earth the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and Nature's God entitle them, a decent concern for the harmony of species requires that the causes of the mutation should be declared. We hold these truths to be self evident: * That all species are created different but equal; * That they are endowed, each one, with certain inalienable rights; * That among them are Freedom to Live, Freedom to Grow, and Freedom to pursue Happiness in their own style; * That to protect these God-given rights, social structures naturally emerge, basing their authority on the principles of love of God and respect for all forms of life; * That whenever any form of government becomes destructive of life, liberty, and harmony

Dirty Prayers..
The following are a list of my new an improved ...dirty prayers: Please curse the wicked and bless the righteous not to be confused with the self righteous...hell just curse the wicked. We thank you for what we have and what we will have, and we will thank you even more after we have had a few kettle ones and a midol. Oh heavenly father please cure the confusion in this world and while you are at it please have Jenna Jameson or Kim Chambers get lost for the night so they have to show up at my place, and the "squirters" not too. Oh please deliver us from evil and finally relieve us from the shit that is known as "Men who keep lying badly". I do not ask for much oh lord… but I will ask for divine intervention to help me meet a man who doesn't make me sleep in the wet spot, doesn't lie, and doesn't have "internet stank" on him. All I ask for dear lord is for the person ahead of me in traffic to be scalded with hot water so I get home in time for Scrubs. Please cure the

I Don't Care!
This woman should run for president Written by a housewife from New Jersey and sounds like it! This is one ticked off lady. "Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?...Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possessio

I Am...
I am the sex I am the taste I am the touch caressed Around your waist I am the skin I am the sweat I'm unlike anything You've ever met I am control I am seduction I am insation I am production I am the push When you are the pull I read, "the tank's on empty" When you are full I am the bliss I am the hold I am the lips, just kiss me When you are cold I am the tongue I am the seed I am the one that fixed you When you had needs I am the crush I am the friend You say good-bye to me But you'll be back again I am the pain I am the cure I am the memory That you adore

Ranting..again
whats with personal ads lately...Its always SWF, SBF looking for SWM 6'...why is it that they have to be 6'? Whats wrong with 5'7, or 5'8"..and white...granted its a *personal preference* but if we cut ourselves, we bleed red and dont we shed the same tears (which are clear). I dont get it. Editors Note: this is Craigslist in NYC. I find that women in NYC,NJ think Im ugly, and they tell me "your not my type" based on my looks. 80% consisiting of chattrooms/personal ads. They are some far and in between who are open minded,

Dont Raise Your Hand To Anyone
I GOT FLOWERS TODAY, IT WASN’T MY BIRTHDAY OR ANY OTHER SPECIAL DAY.WE HAD ARE FIRST ARGUMENT LAST NIGHT, AND HE SAID A LOT OF CRUEL THINGS THAT REALLY HURT ME.I KNOW HE IS SORRY AND DIDN’T MEAN THE THINGS HE SAID, BECAUSE I GOT FLOWERS TODAY.I GOT FLOWERS TODAY ,IT WASN’T OUR ANNIVERSARY OR ANY OTHER SPECIAL DAY.LAST NIGHT HE THREW ME INTO THE WALL AND STARTED TO CHOKE ME.IT SEEMED LIKE A NIGHTMAREI COULDN’T BELIEVE IT WAS REALI WOKE UP THIS MORNING SORE AND BRUISED ALL OVER.I KNOW HE MUST BE SORRY BECAUSE HE SENT ME FLOWERS TODAY. I GOT FLOWERS TODAY, IT WASN’T MOTHERS DAY OR ANY OTHER SPECIAL DAY ,LAST NIGHT HE BEAT ME UP AGAINAND IT WAS MUCH WORSE THEN THE OTHER TIMES.IF I LEAVE HIM, WHAT WILL I DOHOW WILL I TAKE CARE OF MY KIDSWHAT ABOUT MONEYIM AFRAID OF HIM AND SCARED TO LEAVE.BUT I KNOW HE MUST BE SORRY CAUSE HE SENT ME FLOWERS TODAY.I GOT FLOWERS TODAY ,TODAY WAS A SPECIAL DAYIT WAS THE DAY OF MY FUNERALLAST NIGHT HE FINALLY KILLED MEHE BEAT ME TO DEATHIF ONLY I HAD GATHERED E

Alright Time To Do Some Major Cleaning!!!! Must Read!
Alright folks. Lotsa drama right now, so what I'm gonna do is clean out my list. Who ever I choose to delete will be deleted without question, and that will be anyone who doesn't respond to this in some sort of fashion. I will also be cleaning out my family list and my fan list. If I have fanned you and you have not fanned me back, you're GONE.

Another Thing That Pisses Me Off...people Who Bitch About Cherrytap Not Being Up To **their** Standards...
Ok...Over the last couple of days I've seen soooooo many bulletins about "oh, Baby J has done this, or I don't like the new picture layout, or blah fucking blah...Why don't you people stop bitching about what you don't like, and be THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE. If you dislike CT that much, delete your fucking account. It's that simple...Baby Jesus, sure, he can be a pain sometimes, but he put this site here for your enjoyment...He could delete it if he wanted to...Did you ever stop and think that maybe he sits back at night and reads your complaints and laughs because he ENJOYS watching you piss and moan over a STUPID WEBSITE, which honestly is NOTHING but a GIANT POPULARITY CONTEST...I'm happy with CT, I like the new picture layout, I like the rating system, I like the people here. I love everything about CT...AND I LIKE THE TRAILOR IN THE GIFT SHOP...RATHER HAVE IT THAN THE MILLION DOLLAR MANSION. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.........................

Who Sang This Song
last week I was askin who sang jose quervo..I just that wasn't the titile...so maybe it's ME AND JOSE QUERVO... it was a guy who sang this...so pls I know somebody know what i'm talkin about ... THANK U GUYS

My Apologies
I just want to apologize to everyone that came by my profile between late last night and earlier today. It seems the background I had on here codes were changed by the person who made it to a very derogatory background and with some insulting comments to a member on CT. This is very childish that this guy did this. Anyone that truly knows me knows that I would not be a part of something like that. I am sorry that anyone had to see that crap! Susie

Read Me Please
IM SO TIRED OF THIS FUCKING SITE..I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE ON MY FRIENDS I TALK TO ONE..THATS BAD..YOU ALL STOP TALKIN TO ME AFTER I GOT MARRIED WHY?????? JUST CAUSE I GOT MARRIED DONT MEAN I AINT ALLOWED TO TALK TO ANYONE....I WANNA SEE HOW MANY OF YOU ACTUALLY READ THIS OR HOW MANY ACTUALLY CARE

My First Assignment Done And Submitted....
I turned in my first assignment in tonight. Yes I waited till the last minute. And I don't think I will be doing that again. The grades go in the computer Tuesday night. God I am so freakin nervous. I feel like it is the first day of high school again because I know what rides on these grades. I am trying so hard to keep focused but it is so hard with four little ones running around at night you just want your me time not study time. I have to find my groove to where I can still talk to my friends, spend time with my kids, do house work and of course my studies. I know I will figure it out I just don't want to mess up this early in the game. I am also going to try to finish my cross stitching stuff that I started to make for my new niece and for my daughters baby dolls. I have so many craft projects that I started before my separation that it is ghastly. Anyway just thought I would share with anyone who cares how excited and nervous I am about my first assignment. Talk to everyone

The Dream
People are always asking what it is that I want. Well I want it all! I want a man that will love me even when I don't love myself. One that will hold me close when I'm scared, and remind me that I am safe and it will be alright. I want the man that does sweet things just because it makes me smile. He won't have to always "say" anything because we'll have that kind of connection that means all we have to do is share a look in order to understand. I want a man that will just smile and wink when I am being stubborn. When I meet him I will know, because we'll really connect on that level that I have yet to find with anyone. Once that kind of connection is made, there is no going back, and you would never want to. Once it's made, it's unbreakable...

Bump You All
To All My "Friends" ; Thank you to all my supposed friend where the fuck were you yeaterday when my party was going on huh you bunch of fucking posers i fucking swear any people other then the ones i have wrote doen and the ones that messaged me ahead of time that they would not be thier ask me for any fucking thing the answer is NO! i do not care how many friends i lose over this cause if you delete me then you where not my friend to begin with you just added me for fuckingpoints so i will say it nice and big next time you want some thing BITE ME !!!!!! (i love you all my TRUE friends you know how you are i should not have to say any names)

Adult Hardcore Survey
This is for everyone to copy, paste, fill out , and send to whomever. Anyone who is sick of the vanilla surveys out there everywhere. Simple Section: 1. would you fuck me? 2. would you be my fuck buddy? 3. would you eat me? 4. would you let me eat you? 5. would you stay all night, or bolt before dawn? 6. what positions would you fuck me in? Little Harder 7. would you fuck me in the ass? 8. would you let me fuck you in the ass? 9. would you tie me up? 10.can i tie you up? 11. will you wear makeup for me? 12. wear a skirt for me? 13. be my bitch? 14. make me your bitch? Fetish time 15. would you suck my toes? 16. let me suck yours? 17. ask me to suck mine while you watch? 18. let me jack you off with my feet? 19. cum all over my feet? 20. lick said cum off my feet? 21. watch me lick it off? 22. help me lick it off? More fetish 23. Would you cut me? 24. let me cut you? 25. drink my blood? 26. let me drink yours? 27. 3-way mmf with me? 28. 3-way mff

Femdom Play Party
Friday 6/8/07 I spent my day on the phone and then trying to take a nap as I didn’t get much sleep the night before. I had intended to die my hair to cover my grey, but I needed the nap more, so I tried, but the phone kept disturbing me. Then when I decided that it was time to start getting ready to go to the FemDom play party at the Citadel, I had to go to the store. When I get home, I put the stuff away, eat, shave, and brushed my teeth and shower. It started at 7pm I didn’t leave here until 9pm. After I got paid and signed in, I walked inside, right past a naked male sub. I said to myself, “Don’t let it bother You” and I was ok. I walked around looking and I spoke to a few people, then about the time I was really getting bored and thinking that I had wasted my time and money, they had what they called a whipping circle. It was more like a whipping line since we didn’t have the room for a circle. The subs lined up in two rows facing each other and the Dommes lined up behind us

Rallyin
Yesterday evening was just great. We went to the Rallyin the valley 3 in Staunton. There were lots of beautiful bikes (harleys) and the music and beer was awesome to. I got to hang with my precious sissy and a bunch of our friends. Burning Bridges was a good band that opened up for Shooter Jennings. We stood at the top of the hill while we drank our beer and watched them play. Country recording artist Trent Tomlinson, paid a surprise visit and sang with the Burning Bridges band. At 9:00 pm all the crowd went down the hill when Shooter Jennings came on. That lil guy put on a helluva good show. He sounds so much like his awesome father. Bottom line everything was great. I was with good friends, had good beer, surrounded by harleys, and awesome music. Nothing was stolen and we didnt get lost HA HA.. So I chalk this weekend up as being f*kin FANTASTIC.. The only bad thing that happened was my girlfriend Robin was there and we had some communication trouble.. While I was standing in line I

Quiz?
You scored as Marines, Semper Fi. You are a true Marine. You are the nation's most devastating fighting force, barring Special Forces. But your place was not easy to get. You endured the harshest basic training of any Armed Force to get where you are, and your reward is the respect and admiration of everyone else (except maybe the Air Force, who may view you as just a dumb grunt. Perhaps it's true, but you just want to fight).Marines93% Air Force93% Navy71% Army64% Coast Guard36% Which branch of the Military are you?created with QuizFarm.com

Where'd You Go?
visions of clouds through translucent skin the result of your fear settles in a white light that saturates rods and cones passes out hope of an eternal home all of your friends will be there in the end depending where and when the wind blows them as fear turns to comfort, survival is evaded the dream in the pipe is less complicated white gloves and face masks make declarations of the hour and minute of your last exhalation while your muscles tense, the fog thins away opaque conquers invisible, darkness wins the day the comfort and the night-light that were in the tunnel all sucked away like beer down a funnel it's too dark to tell if your friends are around where did you go? 2 yards in the ground

New To Ct
Hello everyone. I just discovered Cherry Tap and created a profile this morning. I am up for making some new friends. I recently moved on from a bad relationship. I am not ready for anything serious. JoAnne

Sinful Desire(mine All Mine)
Your face in my place, my juices you taste, your lips on mine pleasures hard to deny. Your lips send chills all over me, tender nibbles and caressing gently. Your building the pressure higher each time, my body is aching for you in me is whats on my mind. I wanna touch you with my hands, hold your throbbing cock in my mouth, tease you with delite so we can cum all through the night. Touching tasting feeling you shiver with each lick, I wanna make you happy, what do you want me to do to your dick? Ride it, lick it, or hit it from behind, my body's your for the taking, I've cum so many times. Your the best at what you do, so tell me what you want, your a sinful desire I cant deny, so take me to the greater lust and fuck me one more time.

Posted For Stunning
I WOULD LIKE TO START OFF BY THANKING EVERYONE WHO HAS CAME AND HELPED WITH MY FIRST CONTEST "BEST BACK TATTOO" RATHER IF IT HAS BEEN BY JUST A VOTE AND ONE COMMENT OR BOMBING AND OF COURSE ALL OF THE HELP OF REPOSTING BULLETINS... THE CONTEST IS STILL GOING ITS OVER ON MONDAY THE 11TH... PLEASE REMEMBER RATES COUNT AS WELL SO IF YOU CAN JUST RATE AND LEAVE ONE COMMENT THAT IS GREAT AND IF YOU CAN BOMB IT THAT IS EVEN BETTER... THANKS AGAIN ... *HUGS* Stunning@ CherryTAP

Fans
I've decided to go through my "fans" and confirm that I am also fans of theirs. Of course I'm fanning over 100 people and only have 34 fans. So, I've decided to become an unfan of all of those that haven't returned the favor. No ill will here, I'm just trying to even things out. If you forgot to fan me, that's cool. You do it for me, and I'll do it for you. Cheers.

Your Memory
Your memory will always linger here inside my head. All the days together I will cherish 'till I'm dead. I constantly remind myself I'll never see your face again What was once will never be, nor will it be erased. I'm trying hard to get along aware you are forever gone. I find my mind wanders towards you. I know I'm breaking into pieces I can't seem to let you go. The memories, so haunting, still I cannot let them go. It's tough to try and ease this pain without seeing your smiling face... my lips so dry, my eyes so Lost. I'd do anything to hold your hand, but you have taken off. I fear living this lonesome life without a hand to hold. All this time you soothed my heart, and now, it's growing cold. Tell me, what am I to do when I am not looking at you? A home so solemn empty, bare. I wake up thinking you are there... But I am all alone. I know It's in the past and I have got to find a way to let myself accept the fact that you have gone away. T

Depression Sets In
Well the weekend I had planned went to complete shit. I didn't even make it half way and my tranny went out leaving me stranded on the side of the interstate for hours because no one could or would come and get me. It really sucks to know that you can't count on the ones you love. So I didn't get tattooed, or go to the biker party or see my daughter. I do believe the world hates me. Or atleast I am cursed. Nothing ever goes right and I can never catch a break. I just got back to the shop and had to get the bronco towed back here and ride along. I am so lost right now I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no one in this world and no matter how hard I try to get my life straight everything goes to hell. Some one please help me.

Funny
Okay this is advice I am going to give to all my fellow men. Ladies, if you think your man needs to learn this shit you tell him and let him know. A woman's body is something to be worshiped and teased. Kiss her every where, but those spots you know you normally head right for. Kiss those spots you think you have never kissed before. Let your lips SOFTLY memorize her every inch of skin. From the under side of her breasts to the backs of her knees, every spot your normally neglect. Take things slow, LISTEN TO HER BODY, she will let you know what she wants. NOT EVERY GIRL IS THE SAME!!!! And all I can say now is read this and follow it lol FROM YOURS TRULEY JUSTIN.......... 1) NOT KISSING FIRST. Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you're paying by the hour and trying to get your money's worth by cutting out non-essentials. A properly passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay. 2) BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR. Admit it, some

Thoughts
Well I really don't know what to say here about my self. Lately I don't think I even know who I am or what is going on in my life. All I do know is I feel pain. My world has been falling down around me for the past two years now and it does not look like that will be changing any time soon. I am just so confused I have all these hopes and dreams for my life. But at the same time I feel this huge void in side me that nothing fills. I have tried turning to the lord and praying but I don't feel like I am getting an answer any where I turn. I am tired of being alone and betrayed not knowing if I am getting the whole truth from people or just half truths. I want honesty in my life and assuredness. I am just so tired of this numbing pain that never fades. I am lost in side my self in this sea of uncertainty and I just don't know where to turn. I feel my soul slipping as odd as that is to say back to a place it took me a long time to escape and it scares me. This pain is so familiar an emptin

Some Parts From A Movie That Represent The Ending Of My Last Relationship
(Person 1)The problem is shit like that. It was one thing when it was just girls - that was weird enough. But now you throw guys into the mix - two guys at once, no less. All that experience...What am I supposed to think? (Person 2)You think good; because now she'll be all true blue and shit. The girl's tasted life, yo. Now she's settlin' for your boring, funny-book-makin' ass. (Person 1)Settling. That's comforting, Thanks. (Person 2)That's what I'm here for. (Person 1)I'm lust having a problem with all of it I can't get it out of my head these visuals of her doing all this shit. And I don't know why I can't let it go. Because I'm crazy about her, you know? I look at this girl, I see the future. I see kids. I see grand-kids. (Person 2)You're scaring me. (Person 1)I'm scaring myself. Because I think so much of her, and then I can't get over shit like 'Finger Cuffs'.I don't know what I'm doing. (Person 3)I went through something like what you'r

Ok Here The Rest Of It
ok! i was with this man 15 year of my life and had two wounderful kids with him.All he did was use dru and cheat on me , beat on me. I got smart one day and just left him with the kids.he came sick after that, to have surgyer .the court gave him placement doning the school year and me in there summer with every other weekend.I think one of the reason he is doing this cause i will not go back to that life style again

News? Maybe..
UPDATES YOU ARE ALL WONDERING WHY I NEVER SEND YOU SHOUTS? BECAUSE CT BANNED ME FROM THE SHOUTBOX:( THIS IS WHY I CAN ONLY COMMUNICATE THROUGH MESSEGES. UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE LOL! MY LIFE HAS BEEN CHANGING BEFORE MY EYES. I MAY BE MODELING A NEW URBAN STYLE CLOTHING IN SAN FRANSISCO. THAT IS EXCITING. I NOW WORK FOR A COUPLE OF DIFFERENT WEBCAM COMPANIES. I AM JUST TESTING THE WATERS.... HEHE. GENERALLY I AM ON EVERYNIGHT. A LITTLE MORE ABOUT ME I WAS INTRODUCED TO THE ADULT ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY IN APRIL OF 2007. I STARTED OUT BY MEETING WITH DEREK FROM LA DIRECT MODELS. DEREK SAID I HAD NO FUTURE WITH DOING ONLY GIRL/GIRL MOVIES. THIS WAS AN EYE OPENER..AM I NOT ATTRACTIVE ENOUGH FOR YOU GIRLS TO DESIRE ALSO? I LEFT THE AGENCY WITH A SOUR TASTE AND DETERMINED TO GET MY IMAGE OUT. I HAVE SINCE TURNED TO WEBCAM. THE CAMERA AND I HAVE A CONNECTION....THE WAY YOU SEE ME...THE WAY YOU LUST AND WANT ME. I WOULD RATHER BE ONE ON ONE WITH MY VIEWERS..TELLING ME WHAT

Today Is A Back The Fuck Off Day....
Today is one of my stay out of my bubble days. I woke up pissed off and don't know why. I just have my days. Ya know I get really tired of cherrytap bullshit. We do the I post you post shit back and forth but don't really take the time to say hi how are you is everything going good in your life. I mean really would it kill some of us to spend an hour a day just seeing how the misc. people on our friends list are doing. I try to leave comments off and on for the people on my friends lists and leave the people on my family list them as often as possible. It doesn't always work when I am dealing with school and 4 kids but I try. And I always try to leave someone a comment who has left me one even if I don't take the time to leave a personal comment at the bottom. I guess yeah once again I am bitching about people and their bullshit. But last time I checked I said I wanted friends not points and to be someones friend YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO CONVERSE WITH THEM AND ASK HOW THEY ARE AND TRY TO

Yea I'm A Dork
Why can't I speak when I have so much to tell? Why can't I write when I have so much in mind? Why can't I sing when there's music in my heart? Why can't I dance when there's rythm in the air? Too many words left unspoken Too many things left undone Why can't it be and why can't I? For all I know this pain deep inside Took the gladness from my heart. Is this the pain of missing you? Is this the reason behind it all? Hear the agony of my heart Longing for you and for your touch Feeling your lips, feeling your face Missing your kisses and warm embrace. When will the waiting ever be over? For as long as were apart I can never be whole Oh! My Dearest Love I just want you to know That my heart is aching because "I'M MISSING YOU!"

Having Surgery
Well i will be out of comission for a bit...i am having surgery tomorrow on my arm. they have to go in and release the ulna nerve at my elbow and at my wrist and while they are doing that they are going to take care of my carpal tunnel. I am a bit nervous but i know i am in good hands, my doctor is supposed to be one of the best at this proceedure. I am just not looking forward to the recovery time it is seriously gonna cut into my play time LOL! Oh well, I WILL BE BACK!!!!

Friends And Confederate Family
I have been comment bombing when i am able....so i haven't forgotten any of you.... I am in the process of trying to move again and have taken on the task (proabably temporary) of caring for Joyce's dogs(the lady that owns the house we are in) and sitting at the hospital with her mother(she has been there almost a week)...things with her aren't looking good at all...I miss talking to you all and helping in contests like I once could....I hope that as soon as we are settled at the farm we are moving to things will slow down a lil bit....plus on top of all the other stuff i have been really sick due to sinus infections and allergies.... LOVE, GLENDA(REBELROSE)

New Rules To Live By
Now that I’ve hit the big 4-0, and as I mentioned before, I have a whole new perspective on things. It’s time for an update on life’s little rules, as unilaterally decided by me: 1. If you’re female and own more than two cats, you are officially a “crazy cat lady.” I’m sorry if you don’t like it or it seems harsh, but it’s the reality. Deal with it. 2. If you are over the age of 80, there’s a better-than-average chance we’ll end up hearing about you on the news as one of those poor souls who died alone in their apartment and the fire department couldn’t get to you because of all the fucking piles of newspapers and magazines going back to Teddy Roosevelt’s time. Thus, if you are over the age of 75, please spend a good chunk of your retirement time keeping your damn house cleaned and throw out that crap. Nobody wants to inherit your polka album collection. 3. There is no need to thank Jesus every time something good happens. Do you BLAME him every time something bad hap

Join Up
I have started a Family. I want you as a recruit it is about togetherness and watching each others backs. I have two counterparts Athena and Aphrodite. They will be around in my absence. Please email me or contact them for info on joining!

It Could Have Gone Better...
Well... the gig was this past Thursday night... and I really wish more BBW's would have shown up... We worked our asses off... and the Club owner was condesending and unpleasent... He didn't care that my partners and I wanted to bring his club more business with the BBW crowd and the guys that love em... ME! My business partner... Josh.. wanted to go punch the owners son in the face... but we didn't want to alienate ourselves from working in other places in the AV... so we were pleasent.... [good business sense!] Anyway... I guess Uncle Sams in Lancaster, CA has something against people who try to bring them more business on an off night! [They seem to Especially despize the Size Acceptance crowd!.. Hmmmmm] We will press on and find another venue for our BBW event! :) Thats it! Have a Great Day!

Lust Afoot (warning: Adult Story)
Ken had always had a fascination with women. Not in a sick and perverted way, but in a admiring and loving way. He thought there was nothing more beautiful than a woman that took care of herself and had self-confidence. From her shiny hair, silky soft skin, luscious lips, curvy hips, tight stomach, down to her shapely legs. Including, of course, her well manicured and pedicured nails. However, as much as he loved beautiful women, there was one part of a woman's body that he had only recently begun to really appreciate. That was the feet. He had always thought of feet as nasty and off limits. That was until he was watching a porno one night and saw a beautiful woman give a guy a foot job. She stroked his cock using nothing but her pretty little feet. Up and down his shaft, and rubbing the tip with the soles of her feet. She also rubbed the balls of her feet over his balls as her toes ran across the base of his cock. Ken found himself so aroused by this that he literally co

~ Friends ~
As we walk our path of life, We meet people everyday. Most are simply met by chance. But, some are sent our way. These become special friends Whose bond we can't explain; The ones who understand us And share our joy and pain. Their love contains no boundaries. So, even we are apart. Their presence enhances us With a warmth felt in the heart. This love becomes a passageway, When even the miles disappear. And so, these friends, God sends our way, Remain forever near. Thank you Tom...

Boy In A Box
You’re dressed in nothing but a chastity belt and I’ve got you locked in a metal cage, lined with chicken wire, only large enough to crouch in. For the moment I have you on your feet, but at any time I choose I can toss that box around and send you flying. I stand before you, and turn slowly, making sure you have enough time to take it all in. Red, thigh high, leather boots, white faired skirt just long enough for the hem to brush my boot tops. White leather vest, red satin bra, my mohawk divided into several small braids each spilling well past my shoulders. Normally I don’t wear make-up, but for this I have donned a lipstick color that can only be described as cock sucking red. Walking circles around you I look over my property, poking you through the cage, I use a wedged wooden dowel to pry open your mouth and a flashlight to inspect your teeth, much the same as I would a horse Crossing behind you now I pull your hair through the cage braiding it tightly so you can’t

Enternet Love
There aren't enough stars in the sky, To show how many times, I've wished for you. There aren't enough places in the world, To show how far, I'd really go for you. I'd give anything to be with you, Lay my life on the line, Just to spend one more moment with you. I would die a thousand deaths, To feel you at my side, To know that we're together once again. Nothing can tear us apart, Even when we are both in death, We will always be together, Sharing our adventures. If I could fall into your arms, My purpose would be complete. Even now as I look at you, I still can't believe, That God has sent you to me. I have done nothing special to deserve you, But He grazed your soul with a touch of His heavenly hand, Which has now made my life whole. So, my love, Let me tell you in no words, How much you mean to me. Nothing in this world, Can add up to how much I love you. So let it now be known, That this is the moment, I can finally be yours, As you will be mine

Fighting
I'm tired of being the one crying. I'm tired of being the one who has made myself spineless for this fucker. I am tired of him being able to look at me and say I work, I support you and the kids and I borrow money from my family so that we can have what we (need). Somehow it never seems enough that i stay home and clean his house do his damn laundry and take care of our children. I'm very tired of him bashing my family because they're not financially able to give his ass money whenever he needs it. I'm tired of him making me feel like I'm wrong whenever we have an argument. I'm tired of him being able to scream at me and in the end of the fight him not have done anything wrong in his eyes. Friday our car broke down again. The car is in his parents name. He called his dad to come and get him so that he could go get his check cashed and get a few groceries in the house since we weren't going to have a car all weekend. His dad arrived at 615 or so and at 830 he called me talkin about

Closer To You
Do you know what you have done? Silver teardrops you have won I‛ll never show them to anyone but you Do you see what you did? You laughed as I hid I‛ll never show me to anyone but you I look up and you‛re gone And I turn and notice her She has filled up my room And taken my listener And it always comes back to you Every move that I make is to get closer to you You know I cannot show The things that they don‛t know I can‛t unveil what I haven‛t found in me You know I want respect This just hasn‛t happened yet And it all gets stuck down inside of me I look up and you‛re gone And I turn and notice her She has filled up my room And taken my listener And it always comes back to you Every move that I make is to get closer to you I wish things could be different I wish things would change What would I do? What would I do? If I can‛t be with you? I can‛t be with you! It‛s not right, it‛s not e

4 Leaf Clover
Sometimes the fear takes its toll, when you walk into the unknown and you have no control. Where has this led me, and where is my strength, when i can only go from the words of wisdom that doesnt knw what i think. Will life continue down the road that i chose, or will i take on new obstical meet face to face with new foes.I know there is a light that will embrace me at the end with angels whispering to me, its all over my friend. This test i must endure in life will strengthen parts of me that have need the guide to show this soul, just how to be free. smile, because now you live again and the worst is behind you now.

Do I Smell A Law Suit??
This would SUCK!! Blackout Leaves Coaster Riders Dangling Jun 10, 3:33 PM (ET) HOT SPRINGS, Ark. (AP) - A dozen riders on a roller coaster spent half an hour hanging upside down - 150 feet above the ground - after a power outage shut down the attraction. It took about 30 minutes for the city Fire Department to rescue the riders using a ladder truck Saturday evening, said Aundrea Crary, spokeswoman for the Springs & Crystal Falls amusement park. Spectators cheered when the riders were brought to the ground from the highest point of a loop on the X-Coaster, but one passenger threw up after reaching safety. The X-Coaster was one of several rides brought to a halt by the outage that originated somewhere near the park. "You could tell who got off the (X-Coaster) because their faces were red," said Angela Salter. She was riding the Gauntlet, another coaster, and said park employees worked quickly to free her. The park resumed normal operations, although the X-Coaster rem

Bear
Tony, Jack, and Paul...Read from bottom to the top.. and after that last shout I made.. he changed his name.. removed "CASSIE's CT WIFE" removed all my pictures including the ones I made for him and blocked me.. All I want to do right now is vanish from CherryTAP. Good Bye Today, Bear told me to basically fuck off.. because of a messege he got today.. He practically called me a whore.. The messege said I met someone here and we fucked.. and then he said this..... ->BEAR - Cas...: B, the second you saw that picture.. it is like you became a different person... BEAR - Cas...: I'm done talking BEAR - Cas...: they didn't change and I explained that, but you never believed me ->BEAR - Cas...: You act like you're in love with me... ->BEAR - Cas...: WHY DID THINGS CHANGE? ->BEAR - Cas...: Tell me... BEAR - Cas...: I've explained that and not explaining anymore.....I'm gone BEAR - Cas...: you critisize me and Tony for flirting with women here.......I've not fucked anyone here ->B

Take The Time...
Take time to think, it is the source of power. Take time to play, it is the secret of perpetual youth. Take time to read, it is the fountain of wisdom. Take time to love and be loved, it is a privilege. Take time to be friendly, it is the road to happiness. Take time to laugh, it is the music of the soul. Take time to give, it is too short a day to be selfish. Take time to work, it is the price of success. Take time to pray, it is the greatest power on EARTH..

I'm In Love!!
For the first time in my life I know what it's like to go into a relationship totally trusting the other person. I would give up anything for him but I trust him not to ask for anything he knows I would have a problem with!! This is the oddest feeling in the world. It's like I'm walking on clouds whenever I think about him. I realized Saturday night sitting in the theater I really don't see anyone else when he's around. I could listen to him talk forever and never get tired of his voice. I don't fool myself, I know at some point he will do something I don't like because no one is perfect but I also know I'll deal with it when he does. In the past I've always dreaded the moment the other person would hurt me from the beginning but now I just want to be with him even if it hurts. He is everything I want and need. I don't think there has ever been a more perfect man. He is even worth all the pain being sick is putting me in. He gave me a chance to cancel Saturday so I didn't risk getting

Marriage Mumm
Well, I recently opened a MUMM based on and ONLY aimed at my FRIENDS. Folks, let me tell ya, if it was a fight, they would have stopped it, lol! I appreciate the votes people, but everybody answered that WAS NOT on my friend list. It was not intended for ALL just my friends...and by the way, the ones with the no/nasty remarks...PLEASE. WHo are you to say no to anybody, lol! Thanks for proving this IS A BAR.

True Love
If you are in a relationship, or "think" you are" in love" you may want to use some of this as a checklist to see where everything stands in that relationship. I'm not a preacher or a master at love by any means, otherwise, I wouldn't be single. I just found this, and thought it was very insightful, and I know there are a lot of people out there who are in relationships now who are just, " settling" for whatever reason. This might help clear some things up for you. If you like what it has to say and it helps, let me know, if you don't like it, I can take criticism. Sorry it's so long, but I think it's an important topic. It is impossible to discuss love in one little article. Volumes of books have been written about love, and I only want to add a few thoughts in relationship with love in the family situation. Turn and read the great love chapter of the Bible I Corinthians 13. Remember, as you read-that Paul does not tell what love is, but rather what love does. Read 1 Corinthians

Don't Leave
For my Best Friend Cyndi, who died a few days ago. Don't Leave... What would I do if you leave? I'd miss you, I believe That's what I'd do if you leave Emotions are kept under my sleeve So my prayers to you I'd give Please stay a bit longer For I may see you again never And you leaving isn't for the better Surely I'd miss you sooner or later Everyday I miss you more and more It makes my heart feel so sore Thinking of the way things were, I'd like to go back to the times we had before. Cyndi, I miss you so much that Im missing your touch It has only been a few days since you went away? You would be very proud of me, I met some new Friends who love me. But I am still and will forever be blue? Because you are not here, and no one can ever replace you! We will meet someday beyond the blue? But for now, I am lost and crying over you! :`(

Part 1
OK...SOME OF YOU KNOW I'M A BOOKWORM..AND SOME DON'T....WELL NOW ALL OF YOU DO.... I've been reading a book called Wild at Heart..by John Eldredge, and while not usually a fan of "religious" literature, this book has opened my eyes to a lot of things. I'd like to share a bit of it with you.... This book is about discovering the masculine soul, and what it means to be man. Not what society, or your wife, or your boss, or your friends, or TV says a man should be, but why we yearn for the things we do and why we feel the way we feel sometimes. Society has ripped "manhood" away from men. Women for years have complained about having a nice, sensitive,"well trained" man. And in the next breath, they wonder where the real men have gone..... While there is nothing wrong with the afforementioned qualities, there is so much more to the male heart, or soul, if you will. Men are created with a longing for battle, competetion, and danger...It's in the make up of our soul. We wa

Water Fountains
Teen: Toilet Water Cleaner Than Fountain Posted: Jun. 11 4:43 p.m. NORTH BEND, Ore. — Middle School student Kyleray Katherman had a hunch something was amiss with the school's drinking fountain water. And right he was. For an English assignment, he tested the bacteria content at four water fountains and one toilet to challenge a ban on students from bringing bottled water to class. It seems some were using it to sneak in alcohol. Guess which was cleaner? It wasn't the water fountains. He then asked students where they would prefer to get their water. That wasn't the fountains, either. Classmates, teachers, administrators and board members said they had no idea. Katherman attends the Oregon Coast Technology School that operates at North Bend Middle School with a focus on infusing technology into all areas of study. Katherman, 13, used Q-tips and petri dishes, swabbing the spigots of four fountains and sampling one toilet, dunking the cotton in the bowl's center

For My Passed Love...
Minutes run past so slowly right now. When I work, write down a notice, calculated or hung on the phone - I look on my watch and just three, four - at most five minutes have passed... And then comes the emptiness, the void, spreading in my soul, creeping like a cold chill over it and covering my mind in her cold breath... HER laugh has subsided and I start to forget how her voice sounds like - when she comes into my mind, she's so far away. "You remove yourself from me..." you said - and you're damn right - it's time to do so. Sorry, but after all we shared, I can't act like a good friend, not even like a nice good friend. I can't be this less. And we can't set back the time, we can't pull back to old frontlines, when we have pushed them further every night before. Maybe you can, but me not. I feel so terribly abandoned, like being dispatched and put down to some dead end, somewhere in the nowhere. Got the feeling I was nothing more than a substitute, a surrogate, an exc

Anticipation
I am a jumble of emotions right now. I am nervous, excited, sad, happy, and madly head of heels in love. In just 5 days I will be in the arms of the man I love, hence the excited and happy part. But at the same time I am super nervous. One of my greatest fears is that I am going to get off the plane and see him walking away. We have talked about this and he says it wont happen, but I am a girl I panic over nothing. Have you ever wanted something so bad that it scares you when it actually comes together? He is going threw such a funky time right now, and all I wanna do is be there to hold him and tell him that its going to be ok. To calm him with a kiss and to say I love you to make it all better. But being in the situation I am in now I cant do anything for another week. He deserves so much and I want to be able to give him everything I can, and I hope I can, but what if I cant? What if I dont live up to his expectations? Any of you that actually talk to me on a regular basis knows, th

A Beautiful Goodbye
My last moments with Cyndi. As we pulled in the drive the time had come, come to say goodbye. We held each other for one last time, held on to each other forgeting about time. you kissed my lips and held me tight, I wish I could have held on to you like that all night. You said those words, the ones I never wanted to hear, but, eventually they came and all I felt was fear. One last hug and one last kiss, one last moment of total and completes bliss. I walked to the door and stood there alone, only to find you almost gone, and as I watched you walk away oh how much I wish you could have stayed. One last look and one last wave, you got in your car and drove away. Now here I am alone in the night fighting the fight and wanting it right. You and me forever again, you and me forever till the end. You opened my eyes and showed me true love, and for that I will love you no matter what. We said good-bye and we'll never forget and with my memories of you I have n

I Will Not Judge You
I took this from my stash and thought I would put it here has well. It is so true... I Will Not Judge You.......... For your beliefs. For I have friends from every spectrum of religion across the map. My feelings are whatever they need to keep the warmth of their souls alive. Who am I to say what you need to give you strength in your day? By the color of your skin. Your skin, hair or eye color, have nothing to do with the heart within. I will not judge you for your wealth. For richer or poorer , you still have a soul, a heart that nourishes friendships and love. Nor will I judge you for your age. For we continue to learn no matter what age we are. Everyone has something to contribute to our lives if we listen. Most certainly not for your health. I have seen the weakest of the weak with the biggest hearts alive. No matter what your health you still feel, need, love just like everyone else. Everything outside is but a shell that holds the heart within. I will not judge you for the c

A Hard Lesson
Life is full of hard lessons to be learned. The important thing is that we learn from them and not make the same mistake twice. The internet can be the most dangerous place to meet ppl. I jus look on the news (ppl are missing). BUT it can also be the start of something beautiful. The point is a lot of times we have this too perfect woman or man in our mind that we forget to make room for the imperfections and so we get disappointed so easy. The point is take things slow! When you rush things it normally doesn't work out anyway because you didn't take the time to get to know. I had a man that I thought liked me but I feel that he wanted too much too soon and it became a lot for me and disappointing for him. You can't rush luv so don't try because you'll fail every time you do by pushing yourself away and the other person This is a comment that I wrote to friend of mine. You know heartbreak is never easy and its never easy to get over. So its REAL important to take the time to get

Home Project
As all my close friends know. I have been remodeling in leu of rent a house in a quiet neighborhood. It was unihabital due to the excess mold, rotted floors & walls (eaten by mold), dog hair & piss, fist holes in walls & doors etc. It was appraised at $52,000 for 2,300 sq/ft on 8/10ths of an acre of land. After making it livable, completely redoing some rooms, ripping down and replacing dry wall, ripping up the molded kitchen floor & subfloor and replacing it all again, after spending 10-12hrs during my vacation, my wife doing the same, my dad, friends and relatives helping it was all for nothing! I have to move out. On several occasions I have asked the owners if they needed help carrying the mortgage. Each time they assured me that they had far more income than the mortgage, the rent they're paying after moving as well as all other expenses. Otherwise I would have sent them money vs doing more remodeling and paying off some various debts. Now I have 41days left to

Update On Polishwomanrock
For those of you on my friends list that know Polish...(aka Alison) I just wanted to let ya'll know that her mothers health continues to be bad. This past weekend they had her in the hospital again. Alison, as you can imagine, is very stressed out and worried. Keep her in your prayer Di

God's Light
God's Light's within me, deep in my heart And from me he will never part And should I seen I need to fear For He'll still love me and He'll be near So I'll love my brothers as if they were me I'll let God's light out for all to see I will always try to do what's right Keeping God's vision within my sight

Feelings
Current mood: blank Category: Life I hate being a wiccan at times cuz of instincts n weird feelings. For 2 days now I feel as something is not right but I dont know what it is n its bothering me alot. I had a bad dream last night n it makes no sense right now. Sighs what to do? i dunno. I hope this bad feeling goes away sighs

What You Seek
You look so hard,in every place. for some thing that stares you in the face. You can not see it,yet its there. close enough to touch your hair. The love you seek is close at hand, not some where across the land. each touch, each kiss, each soft caress. A love so strong it will never rest. Just reach out and you will see, the one you seek is me.......Silverthorn...6/12/07

Forever And Always
When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever And Always, I Will Love You."

Fire Drill
Awesome! We just had a fire drill here at work. Complete building evacuation. Nothing better than walking down 22 flights of stairs. Although I suppose it could be worse, I could have had to walk UP 22 flights of stairs, lol. But now my legs keep twitching! So annoying! Someone want to give me a leg massage? lol, J/K. Good to know that in case of a real fire, I'll make it to floor 15 before I die horribly in the flames. Yeah, hit a road block at 15 and was there for about 10 minutes before everyone started moving again.

Gender Poetry Some Funny Stuff About How Girls And Guys Really Are
I'M GLAD I'M A MAN I'm glad I'm a man, you better believe. I don't live off of yogurt, diet coke, or cottage cheese. I don't bitch to my girlfriends about the size of my breasts. I can get where I want to - north, south, east or west. I don't get wasted after only 2 beers, and when I do drink I don't end up in tears. I won't spend hours deciding what to wear. I spend 5 minutes max fixing my hair. And I don't go around checking my reflection in everything shiny from every direction. I don't whine in public and make us leave early, and when you ask why get all bitter and surly. I'm glad I'm a man, I'm so glad I could sing. I don't have to sit around waiting for that ring. I don't gossip about friends or stab them in the back. I don't carry our differences into the sack. I'll never go psycho and threaten to kill you or think every guy out there's trying to steal you. I'm rational, reasonable, and logical too. I know what the time is and I know what to do.

A True Master Who.....
A True Master Who..... • displays sensitivity will be a master who is sensitive to you • displays humility will be a master who shows you respect • is not afraid to cry will be a master who understands your tears • is quiet will be a master who will hear your quietest whisper • knows fear will be a master who will not leave you to face yours alone • will listen to a child will be a master who will always work to understand your words • can stand alone will be a master who will not crush you under their weight or pride • controls himself with ease will be a master with the ability to control you in the same way • does not have to prove his point will be a master with many worthwhile points to share • does not make demands will be a master who treasures anything you give • does not run after you will be a master you never need to run away from • is calm will be a master who can weather your storms • who does not shout will be a master who will never deafen you • knows him

Heart Ache
I had a hard time this weekend. I thought that my marriage was about to be over. The worst part was it was about something stupid. It is hard to do it but I am trying not to sweat the small stuff. I wouldn't want to lose my husband but I have a hard time letting my feelings out. When I do I explode from all the things being bottled up inside. I wish I could figure out how to get past this.

From A Dear Friend
A special poem selected for you! You're Not Here With Me by Caprina I was on the Internet one night. And came across someone so nice. We introduced ourselves and talked about certain things. But never did I know that this could be. How could it be that you're so far but yet near. When constantly, I'm wishing you were here. Why is it that the treasures you long for most, Are always so far, but never too close? I thank God for sending you my way. And to see you soon is what I pray. Everthing I do, I can't do without thinking of you. All I can do is hope my wish come true. I can't figure out what to do. All I seem to think about is you. Before I go to bed and when I wake up too. That's how I know these feelings are true. Sometimes I'm scared to open up to you. Wondering if this is really true. It's funny how one night we're online. Then the next, you whisper in my ear "Goodnight".

When A Cowboy Looses Control
At the end of the workday, one cowboy tells another, "That new bull nearly did me in today, pardner." "Oh yeah, what happened?" asked the other cowboy. "I was putting out the feed, when the sucker came charging at me like a locomotive from hell. He damn near got me!" replied the first cowboy. "So, how'd you get away?" asked the other cowboy. "The bull kept slipping. He slipped three times, and that gave me a chance to make it to the fence and jump over," replied the first cowboy. "Man, that's scary! If it'd been me, I would probably have crapped all over the place," remarked the second cowboy. The first cowboy replied, "I DID! What do you think that bull was slipping in ?

Divorce
Divorce Dealing with divorce has not really been that hard for me because for the last 7 years I was married (14 total) I feel like me and the ex really didn’t have a relationship anyway. The one thing that bothers me the most is that my children have had to go through it. I went through it with my parents so I know its tough. I thought that when I decided to finally get married it would be forever. I guess I should have chosen a different woman because there were red flags from the beginning but for some unknown reason I decided to go ahead any way. Must have been from all the sex we were having. I didn’t realize once you got married that stopped (a little humor) not completely but slowed way the hell down. Any way got off track a little. Back to the kids. I only get to see my children every other Saturday for 9 hours because I didn’t have my own place when we went to court and also didn’t have a lawyer to help me. My lawyer died before we made it to court. (Rumor has it while doi

Puppy's Tale
My Name was Keri and this is my story. Gina and I decided to go camping together. Three weeks in the mountains, just the two of us. Sun, nature, and most importantly, no parents, not even a cell phone for then to check up on us. We'd been up there for about a week and a half already. We'd found a spot that was quiet and beautiful, a place so perfect it was like a dream. Cozied up to the side of a cliff and surrounded by trees, even better a a tiny waterfall that came to rest in a small lagoon beside our camp. The water was cool and clear, and the sound of the waterfall made us feel even more secluded. Most of our time had been spent sunbathing on the rocks next to the lagoon, hiking, or bird watching in the forest nearby. The whole time we never saw any sign of other people. We started to become very comfortable with our seclusion, we even started to sunbathe nude. One afternoon we were doing just that, sunbathing nude and talking. I'd just come up from a quick dip and was

When We're Not Together
When we're not together ... My thoughts drift alongside Memories of you; Things we've done, The way you smile so brightly. That helps me forget my worries And celebrate our wonders. When we're not together ... My moods come into play more often, And make me yearn for the strength I feel in you ... The security I find in your eyes. When we're not together ... I sometimes feel so very alone, For myself and you ... Imagining you being without My loving feelings As I am without yours. When we're not together ... My best wishes still go with you always, Wishing to share in your excitements. Wanting to comfort your hurts. Needing to be reassured that You're keeping warm and well. When we're not together ... I seem to Spend my time Wishing that we were.

As Long As I Can Dream
As Long As I Can Dream As Long as i can dream, as long as i can think, as long as i have a memory, i will love you as long as i have eyes to see, and ears to har and lips to speake, i will love you As long as i have a heart to feel a soul stirring within me, as long as i have a imagination to hold you i will love you as long as there is time as long is there is love as long as there is you and as long as i can breath to speack your name i will love you

Where's The Damn Respect!
I'm so flippin pissed off right now at the way people raise kids. First of all, what happened to manners?! Are my kids the only kids on the PLANET that have been raised to say "No sir" and "Yes Ma'am?" Are they the only children alive that respect authority, and ladies, and the elderly? Are they the only children alive that without a second thought will give up their seat to a pregnant woman? I get so angry watching what has happened to common decency in America. I mean this is our future... and where the HELL is the respect?! Then we have these little hoodlums down the street. Yes I've ranted about them before. But now they have started to gang up on Preston. Like 6 on one chasing him down the block. So I step in and I say to the one kid that seems to have a problem with Preston, "If you have an issue with Preston deal with it on your OWN. You want to talk like a man and threaten to kick someone's ass, then act like a man and throw down! Otherwise zip your lip and stop

Trying To Add Pics!!!
Hey everyone, I have been trying to add pics for the last 30 minutes and all CT would let me put up so far is 4! It sucks. This site is fucked up right now and it drives me crazy!!! I guess I will try and add the rest later or tomorrow. Right now I am irritated at this damn site. Thanks!

I Fucking Hate People
I posted a blog last night6/11 and the topic was womena and the pics they chose to have as avatars. I dont know if I worded it wrong or what, but thanx to the mumm whores everything spiraled out of hand and the comments were "interesting to say the least. The point of the mumm was: I you dont want attention from strange men asking to see your nudes/NSFW pics, then why put up an avatar that advertises you as being that type. I heard again and again that I was a perv and so on and so on. I really like CT and have met some very cool people on here. I am tired of all the self righteous people on here that have nothing to say and feel free to bash you in a mumms. As far as I know you were free to express an opinion in this country. But for the shallow people who have no lives outside of CT, I don't know if I feel more sorry for you and your lack of life, or rather sad for this world for your lack of intellegence. The bashing recieved last night was unwarranted, and if people took the time

Cherrytap And Its Chaos
What the hell is a cherry blast and why do i need one? You get noticed by random people. Congrats. Who cares. Is there some sort of word limit to the the things, or can that many people on the internet actually not spell worth a damn or use one of those things.. whats it called again?? Oh yes, a vocabulary. Hey you know what? That thing in front of you is called a "keyboard". It has things called "letters" and "numbers" and this may shock you but it also has "punctuation marks". They denote "sentences". Let me bring you in on a little secret. "Ur" is a land in the old testament. Not a fucking word, okay? Okay. I'm glad you're all having fun, but seriously think about this. You're thanking people you've never met for "buying" you something they earned by doing nothing. How sweet is that? Would it be as special if i took you to dinner and payed for it with monopoly money? The Crush: Why? What the hell is that? If you don't know who it is all you're doing is creating frustration. It isn'

Mother Of The Year
THIS IS JUST THE CUTEST THING EVER MOTHER OF THE YEAR In a zoo in California, a mother tiger gave birth to a rare set of triplet tiger cubs. Unfortunately, due to complications in the pregnancy, the cubs were born prematurely and due to their tiny size, they died shortly after birth.The mother tiger after recovering from the delivery, suddenly started to decline in health, although physically she was fine. The veterinarians felt that the loss of her litter had caused the tigress to fall into a depression. The doctors decided that if the tigress could surrogate another mother's cubs, perhaps she would improve.After checking with many other zoos across the country, the depressing news was that there were no tig

Doctors Appointment
The Verdict.... I am cancer FREE!!! no evidence of anymore pre-cancer cells, no evidence of cellular changes at all!!! I go back in October for a recheck and another biopsy. (standard procedure) and will continue to have rechecks on a regular basis to make sure the polyps aren't coming back. I saw the Nurse Practitioner because the Doctor was in surgery, but when I go back, we will be addressing my ovarian cysts to see is there is something other then birth control pills to treat them. Since I'm a tough case (cant take any hormones) I've opted to wait to talk to him. I'm not totally out of the woods yet, but I don't have to stress about the possibility of having another D & C or worse a hysterectomy for at least 5 months, so I'm pretty damned happy right now!! One more weight off my shoulders and now I can concentrate more on getting this house packed so I'm ready to move on the 1st :D **does a little happy dance** thank you all who have kept me in your thoug

So Far Away
You're so far away Thousands of miles I just wish I could hold you For just a little while I love you more Than I ever thought I could And to just be with you I'd do anything, I would I'd fly across oceans Live on nothing for weeks Because being by your side Is all that I seek Thousands of miles Just so far away Just wishing to see you I'm fighting for that day I'm doing all that I can In every way that I know Fighting for the day to hold you And not let you go

Cryptic Dreams
Don’t know how it is I cant decide how much I hate you. Should be simple How you threw me away Not even staggered step Just goodbyes and excuses But my bloody whole seeking that hollow where you used to be and hating myself for looking there night after night, knowing I would just end up clawing Bruised flesh again and again And yet, I push that stone heart Up this hill one last time Again and again, Turning my back on the memories Turning my back on the fear Afraid of life without this pain As much as I dread it never going away and your echo is defiant rippled scars in the dark seeking me out, landing on my flesh and I can’t out run, your noise, your wretched static drowning out the peace shadowed out the light sucking the air from my lungs in desperate tremorred screams. And life after your pain is a dull thud, a dead limb phantom footsteps in my day trying to forget the dance. Spins in agony and delicious dips in dread and deceit no

Darkness
Darkness creeps upon you, whisper's echo out of the blue, as death walks beside you, shadow's next too near, cold shivers run down you're spine, weakness holds you blind, thought's shifted, but yet spiritually liftes, mind still clicks, swallowed in that black hole, still you're not ready too let go, things may seem you're at the end of you're rope, never give in, deep within you still have hope! Lose you're fear, get you're mind clear, yesterday seems so far away, living for too day, is the only way !!! By Noc

I Can Not
i do everything for people i stand behind thm and protect them and ask for nothing in return ever now that i need help i get nothing why is that i think i know why people are fucking selfish they want everything and do not want to give shit back i am tired of helping people only to get kicked in the ass their are few people that when i needed something where their for me but not many one of them is my fiance ( I Love You Nichole baby ) but their are not many who really give a shit. i give and give they take and take but i ask for one favor and get kicked as hard as they can with a steel toe boot i am tired of it all. please if you can help me out let me know if not then bye to you.

This Crazy Life
THIS CRAZY LIFE WE CALL A JOURNEY CAN BRING EITHER HAPPINESS OR MISERY WE WALK THROUGH IT EVERYDAY HOPIN AND PRAYIN WE DONT LOSE OUR WAY SOME OF US ARE LUCKY AND DONT HAVE TO STRUGGLE ALOT OHTERS ARENT SO FORTUNATE AND HAVE TO WORK FOR WHAT THEY GOT WHERE UPON THIS CRAZY LIFE YOU SEE SOMEONE LESS FORTUNATE THAN YOU AND ME WHY NOT OFFER A LENDING HAND AND BE THE BETTER PERSON AND TAKE A STAND THIS CRAZY LIFE SHOULD BE A GREAT BIG PARTY FOR YOU AND ME WE SING, WE DANCE, WE LIVE IT UP TRYING SO HARD TO OVERFILL OUR CUP NOW TO END OUR CRAZY LIFE'S JOURNEY SOME TRY SO HARD TO PLEASE MANY THAT WE LOSE SIGHT OF WHAT WE NEED AND OUR CRAZY LIFE IS GONE AT HIGH SPEED WRITTEN BY: ANGEL

Ct Pastor
Hey friends, family and fans, I am sorry to bother yall and I am sorry i cant remember but i have rated some marriage license and even divorce ratings LOL. I can not remember your name if you would please contact me I need to know if you will do a wedding for me on the 16th of this month. Plus i would just like to have one of them marriage license cuz i think they are cool ! YOur friend Kewlrunning!

Something Odd Is Going On At Work
I say this because it is rare when they call me off--as a matter of fact--I've only been called off maybe 3 times in 5 years. Then this morning, I get a call from work, telling me that things are slow and I can have the day off. That leaves me with 3 days this week. Maybe I shouldn't stress over it, but I can't help feeling like they may be trying to get me to quit. For what reason, I'm not sure. I just know that things have been real weird the last couple of weeks, and when I walked into the crew room the other day, our district manager, head manager and assistant manager were in there having a meeting and they all shut up when I walked in. So, goes the hunt for another job...I'm not going to give them what they want --if in fact it is what they want--unless I have something else to go to. It just seems real strange that AFTER they're told I'm being treated for depression and several other things, all of a sudden my sschedule is getting shortened. Maybe I'm paranoid

No More Job....
after 1 day of working i got laied off, because apparentlly they came up 200 dollers short yesterday and they are blaming me, soo apparentlly i made soo many mistakes it cost them 200...god damit im depressed....

Please Read This About Hippyhayed Productions
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A Blonde Joke!!
A BLONDE'S CAR GETS A FLAT TIRE ON THE INTERSTATE ONE DAY SO SHE EASES IT OVER ONTO THE SHOULDER OF THE ROAD. SHE CAREFULLY STEPS OUT OF THE CAR AND OPENS THE TRUNK. SHE THEN TAKES OUT TWO CARDBOARD MEN, UNFOLDS THEM AND STANDS THEM AT THE REAR OF THE VEHICLE FACING ONCOMING TRAFFIC. THE LIFELIKE CARDBOARD MEN ARE IN TRENCH COATS>EXPOSING THEIR NUDE BODIES TO APPROACHING DRIVERS... NOT SURPRISINGLY, THE TRAFFIC BECAME SNARLED AND BACKED UP. IT WASN'T VERY LONG BEFORE A POLICE CAR ARRIVES. THE OFFICER, CLEARLY ENRAGED, APPROACHES THE BLONDE OF THE DISABLED VEHICLE YELLING, "WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?" "MY CAR BROKE DOWN, OFFICER" SAYS THE WOMAN, CALMLY. "WELL, WHAT THE HELL ARE THESE OBSCENE CARDBOARD PICTURES DOING HERE BY THE ROAD?!" ASKS THE OFFICER... "HELLLLLOOOOO, TH OSE ARE MY EMERGENCY FLASHERS!" SHE REPLIES

Here I Go Again
Moving again. Starting a new life in a new place.. Again. apart of me is sad and apart of me is pleased. I feel like every few years I'm starting over agin. Usually for no real reason except for the fact thats how people with extreme adhd live. Miami here I come. Don Johnson has nothing on me.

Unhappy America.........
If you are not a Jay Leno fan read what he wrote anyway. My respect and esteem For him has really increased. "The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll Data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, Right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the Direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy With the performance of the president. In essence 2/3s of the citizenry Just ain't happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, ''What are we so Unhappy about?'' Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in The summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of These unhappy folks have a job? & nbsp;Maybe it is the ability to walk into A grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has se

My Friend
today is the anniversary of my Best friends death. I will not be on here today, I just wanted everyone to know why! Setaro was the most beautiful person I have ever met...when I saw him smile, I saw pure beauty and life...... I miss you my sweet Setaro! with every part of my heart! Death is inevitable You know it will happen, but Never prepared for how it feels. It never feels the same twice, Neither worse, nor better Just not the same! When I lost you, My heart was ripped open, and closed at the same time. Unexpected, and unexplained. I saw you rarely, but thought of you always, You never left my side, but you were never there to feel. You will be in my heart forever, but never in my arms again. My heart aches for your company, your smile, your warmth, YOUR BREATH! I am empty inside, but I am Filled with Wonderful memories. Memories that I don't want to lose, But I don't want to think of them. I am so happy thinking of you,

You...
Laying in your bed With your pillow under my head Cool spring breeze swirls about Delivering the fresh scent of lilacs Through the open windows of your room Hours ago your alarm clock rang Removing you from my arms For work calls Though I wish you were still here Snuggled up to your chest Hearing your calming voice Whispering, “Good morning beautiful” I could lay there forever All my problems seem to fade When you are next to me For hours you will be gone Working hard If there is a job to do You will get it done Because that is how you are Looking at the clock on your headboard Counting the hours until you return For when you walk back through the door A smile will be shown Bright across my face Happy to be with you again To feel the love you have for me By the way you bathe me in such sweet delicate words The gentle touch of your hand across my cheek Tells me I’m no longer dreaming For your time away has ended I lay smiling in your bed Where yo

Th9ink Quick!!
An elderly man in Texas had owned a large farm for several years. He had a beautiful large pond at the back of the property next to the road, And he'd fixed it up real nice with picnic tables, Horseshoe pits, and He'd planted some nice flowers and fruit trees next to the Pond. One evening the old farmer decided to go down to the pond To look it Over,as he hadn't been down there for a while. He grabbed a Five-gallon bucket to bring back some fruit. As he neared the pond, he heard splashing and female voices Shouting And laughing with glee.. As he came closer he saw that 5 Young women Had Parked their car at the side of the road, climbed the fence And were Skinny-dipping in his pond. He made the women aware of his Presence And they all went hurriedly splashing to the deep end. One of the women shouted to him, "We're naked and we're not Coming Out until you leave!" The old man frowned and yelled back, "I didn't come Down here to watch you ladies swim naked or make you get

Internet Petitions
If there is anything I find annoying, it is Internet petitions. They do not ever seem to work and for the most part they are half assed attempts at grievance mongering. I think part of the problem with internet petitions is a disconnect in conveying a serious message as seriously writing a message. There is no reason any ill-conceived and poorly crafted message should be taken seriously. Here is a petition that rolled across my bulletins: “Don't you think it would be a great idea that the people that you have blocked couldn't even view your page, let alone the normal not being able to comment or rate etc. Because they still can go on your page everyday now and stalk your new pics and see your stash and read your comments, they just can't talk to you or rate you. I would prefer greatly that they couldn't even see anything. Please if you agree and believe that BLOCKED USERS shouldn't be able to even view your page, sign the petition I've start below and repost!! Maybe Baby J

The Truth About Words...
In this world of word processors and email, I have come to notice how neglected a thing a pencil has become. I, myself, have been guilty of ‘processing’ my words. The passive ease of typing and spell checking, although attractive, I think, has taken from me some of the freedom and power in my words. Given the opportunity to, once again, wield a pencil, I find myself struck by a sense of satisfaction found, reborn, in watching the page filled by my movements. The words themselves, although sounding the same in my head as I write them, somehow feel more important as I see them written in my own script. The act of erasing is so violent actually scrubbing, and wiping away the proof of my own thoughts, leads me to exercise more caution in the words I choose. The intense compulsion toward all things expressive makes as benign a thing as reading in a coffee shop something tantamount to public masturbation. When a phrase is enticing, my mouth moves, tasting the words, a perfect paragraph

You Dirty Fucking Wetbacks!!
Ok I have seriously had it with these fucking spics, as much as I can put up with, a few years ago I lose my friend Rendall to these fuckers, and now,my friend and brother Jason... THOSE MOTHER FUCKERS HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT, THEY FUCKING MURDERED MY FRIEND JASON, OVER A DAMN ARM WRESTLING MATCH!!!!!! what the fuck is this country comming to?! i say we gather them all up and beat them with baseball bats! no, fucking flamethrowers! this is fucking bullshit!! the poor dude never did shit to deserve that! And all the time everywhere i look, its always either the cuban or mexican immigrants doing this shit, and bush wants to let these fuckers into this country?! FUCK BUSH TOO and fuck all this stupid "they need our help they live in a third world country" shit! ITS A THIRD WORLD COUNTRY BECAUSE THEY MAKE IT THAT WAY, ALL THE DAMN DRUGS THEY MAKE THERE!!! every country has the power to change and bring itself out of the slums, but mexico just wants to come into our country, kill our r

Sad And Broke!
I own five beagles, they are the love of my life. They get the best of everything that my meager paycheck can afford.Two of my boys Jesse and Ziggy aka The Dynamic Duo like to run off everynow and then they'll sneak out of the kennel. This usually happens at night while I'm at work, they take advantage of my daughters neglect to shut the gate properly. They usually come back i n15 min or so or the neighbor through the woods calls to say he has them. Last night I was watching The Outsiders One of my all time faves) with my daughter and I heard a noise and jumped off the couch. Daisey , Cooter and Emma howling away because the boys had opened the gate and gone exploring once more. This time it was my fault. I made a couple calls to have people watch out for them and I decided this time, being as they're a year old now I would give them the opportunity to find the'r way home. So I took off my shirt and put it outside along with a couple other things and I waited. 45 Minuits had gone by an

Daddy's Little Girl
Daddy's Little Girl A father watched his young daughter playing in the > >garden. > > > >He smiled as he reflected on how sweet and pure his little girl was. > > > >Tears formed in his eyes as he thought about her seeing the wonders of > >nature through such innocent eyes. > > > >Suddenly she just stopped and stared at the ground. > > > >He went over to her to see what work of God had captured her attention. > > > >He noticed she was looking at two spiders mating. > > > >"Daddy, what are those two spiders doing?" she asked. > > > >"They're mating," her Father replied. > > > >"What do you call the spider on top?" she asked. > > > >"That's a Daddy Longlegs," her father answered. > > > >"So, the other one is a Mommy Longlegs?" the little girl asked. > > > >As his heart soared with the joy of such a cute and innocent question he > >replied "No dear. Both of them are Daddy Longlegs." > > > >The little girl, looking a little puzzled, thought for a moment, then t

My Big Mouth.
You know, I am a very sensitive, honest, and caring person overall. Sometimes though due to my own insecurities and past hurts, I say things without thinking. I guess sometimes I just do, before I think. Occasionally I watch my freinds get into situations that trouble them, and you know me, I just start dishing out the advice. It all comes straight from my heart, but sometimems it comes out all wrong. I have a tendency in my life to jump to conclusions, and always expect the worst, so sometimes when my freinds are in similar situations, my first response is "NO DON'T THINK THAT WAY". It isn't that I don't think that their feelings are valid, or that the reasons behind them are wrong. It's just that my fear in the past has made me make choices that I later regretted. I would never want someone to think that I believed I knew something better than them, I would never want them to feel like I didn't understand. I just am afraid sometimes that in the heat of the moment,

Baccon Ranch Dip
Bacon Ranch Dip Madeover Recipe Rating: Prep Time: 10 min Total Time: 3 hr 10 min Makes: 3 cups or 24 servings, 2 Tbsp. each Nutrition Information Kraft Kitchens Tips Ratings and comments You may also enjoy 2 cups KRAFT Light Ranch Reduced Fat Dressing 1 cup BREAKSTONE'S Reduced Fat or KNUDSEN Light Sour Cream 1/2 cup KRAFT Reduced Fat Parmesan Style Grated Topping 1/4 cup sliced green onions 1 pkg. (2.8 oz.) OSCAR MAYER Real Bacon Recipe Pieces MIX all ingredients in medium bowl; cover. REFRIGERATE several hours or until chilled. SERVE with assorted cut-up vegetable dippers or chips. KRAFT KITCHENS TIPS Makeover Savings We've taken a family favorite dip and made it over. We used KRAFT Light Ranch Reduced Fat Dressing, BREAKSTONE'S Reduced Fat or KNUDSEN Light Sour Cream, and KRAFT Reduced Fat Parmesan Style Grated Topping in place of regular products. You'll save 40 calories and 6 grams of fat per

For My Daughter
Life is not fair. Life can be cruel. You choose your own path in life and you have to deal with the consequences whether you like them or not. no use crying about it. You have made your bed and now you have to lay in it. Dont put words in my mouth. Dont think you know what I am thinking because you will be wrong all the time. Think of me what you will. I know me and you dont. I have had experiences in life that you will never know. I have suffered enough and I dont need anymore. I have been through more than you will ever know. I know what it takes to make it through life. Its more than just thinking about yourself all the time. Take time to think of others, not what they can do for you but what you can do for them. The more you give in life, the more you get back.

A Poem For My Mommy!
~My Mother~ You are my best friend. You keep me safe and in your arms. You keep things in line when things go wrong. My mom is the best to ever love. She loves every kid even if there bad, she calls them her own. Mom is the best you can ever wish for. She smiles with joy and laughter with her family an friends. Mom loves to be called "Mom" by other kids cause it makes her smile. You put her down she will show the southern side of herself. Mom you are number one in spirit and love. I love calling you my mommy when someone asks who is that beside you in a picture. You are a lover,caring,faithful,and true friend of a mother any son/daughter could ask for. My mom is the best to have and to be around. My one true best friend in the world is you. Author notes This is for me and TheDemiprists mom please tell me what you think and I hope she likes it. Just please comment this peice my mom is the best. Made by Amber Kestner

Why Married Women Should Not Go Out For Girls Night
The other night I was invited out for a night with "the girls." I told my husband that I would be home by midnight, "I promise!" Well, the Hours passed and the margaritas went down way too easy Around 3 a.m., a bit loaded, I headed for home. Just as I got in the door, the cuckoo clock in the hall started up and cuckooed 3 times. Quickly, realizing my husband would probably wake up, I cuckooed another 9 times. I was really proud of myself for coming up with such a quick-witted solution, in order to escape a possible conflict with him. (Even when totally smashed...3 cuckoos plus 9 cuckoos totals 12 cuckoos =MIDNIGHT!) The next morning my husband asked me what time I got in, and I told him "Midnight". He didn't seem pissed off at all. Whew! Got away with that one! Then he said, "We need a new cuckoo clock." When I asked him why?, he said, "Well, last night our clock cuckooed three times, then said, "Oh. Sh!t.", cuckooed 4 more times, cleared it's throat, cuckooed another 3 time

What Flavor Martini Are You??
You Are an Orange Martini Everyone's favorite drunk, you're fun, flirty, and charming. Unfortunately, you often spark jealousy - and unintentionally start bar fights. You should never: Drink and dial. You'll just end up with multiple booty calls at your door! Your ideal party: Is huge and lively. You love to work a crowd. Your drinking soulmates: those with a Blueberry Martini personality Your drinking rivals: those with a Dirty Martini personality What Flavor Martini Are You?

June 14th
Another year and I still miss you, the sweet song of your voice the things we'd say on the telephone. I never thought I'd lose the chance to say goodbye. You spoke about that rose; summer was hot and dew was heavy on the grass How could I know that our talk would become the last? You gave me life and taught me how to love you'd pen your heart on paper and I would not forget that words were a myriad gift a sweet and pure outlet. Love came in your eyes every time we met, life never seemed to change the special light they'd get. You know I'm more than I was then I wish that you could see, the colors of my life and what your girl would be.

Wednesday :)
A thought for the day from: Peter Britt "Life! Full of mystery, enchantment and fascination. Where we should drink of life freely, we merely sip it. Where we can take pleasure from it, we withdraw to avoid it. Life is not meant to accept the inevitable. Rather, it is meant to explore and savor its passion and wonderment fully. The riches it holds, are as the fruit on the vine. Ripened, sweet and flavorful. To never taste it's treasures, is to deny oneself of its passions, of its pleasures and true serenity. To deny lifes passions, there, is the regret which ripens." © 1999 Peter Britt Krystal Vision Productions

Horse Auctions - Horse Knackery Anger.
Today i went to the Horse auction to look at buying Saddles, etc. But decided to look at the horses, because my family is looking to buy a bigger horse... So as i was walking along the small yards, i came across a Throughbred gelding, he was very scared at first ( as were alot of horses.. sale yards are scary) but i spent around ten minutes and managed to get him convinced that he could come over.. so when he was over nxt to me i was patting him, and he was very scared to be touched around the ears and eyes ( usually means the owner has belted him with whips over the head... that happens alot... ) But it turned out, once this horse trusted you, he had the SWEETEST temperment, he was rubbing his head up againts me, and nibbling my jeans and trying to touch my toes.. lol.. he was just perfect.. i went to have a look at the other horses, and came back to im and spent around 40 mins with him, and then his owner came over to me and said " dont get attached hes not the horse for you"

Who Wants Me?
HERE IS THE DEAL. I WOULD LIKE A CT WIFE AND WHOEVER IS THE FIRST WOMEN TO RESPOND TO THIS GETS TO BE HER..I PROMISE I WILL HONOR YOU AND BE LOYAL TO U AS I CAN. MY EYES DONT LIE. JUST LOOK DEEP INTO THEM AND U WILL SEE THE TRUTH MR DUCK

A Womans Worth..
When God created woman he was working late on the 6th day An angel came by and said: Why spend so much time on that one? And the Lord answered: Have you seen all the specifications I have to meet to shape her ?" She must be washable, but not made of plastic, have more than 200 moving parts which all must be replaceable and she must function on all kinds of food, she must be able to embrace several kids at the same time, give a hug that can heal anything from a bruised knee to a broken heart and she must do all this with only two hands. The angel was impressed. Just two hands....impossible! And this is the standard model?! Too much work for one day....wait until tomorrow and then complete her. I will not, said the Lord. I am so close to complete this creation, which will be the favourite of my heart. She cures herself when sick and she can work 18 hours a day. The angel came nearer and touched the woman. But you have made her so soft, Lord She is soft", said the Lord, But I have also ma

Just To Let You All Know
Ok most of everyone on here knows that my dad had to go have surgery done today. Well I just wanted to let you all know that he is doing fine, he is home now and he is hurting just a little but not much.. They said that what they thought was torn ligaments was not so that is a good thing.But anyways for all you that knew about this instead of sending each of you a message letting you know how he was doing I thought I would just posted so you all would know he is fine..

The Little Things.....irking Me
so today was one of those days where my agurmentitive nature is trying to get the best of me. for you see there are a some but not a lot of little things about this 'relationship of mine'. no im not going to talk about the little things, for that would make things even worse bc then id have to deal with them instead of wait for them to just go the fuck the away. why? one may ask are the little things bothering me. and well its very simple for anyone who really wants to know, and that is there are no big things or even issues in this 'relationship of mine' to argue about so my nature chose the little ones. yes they have complied on top of each other and side by side enuff for my brain to start turning and wondering about them. but whats reallying pissing me off is the fact that i dont let the little things get to me normally, i guess thats bc there's always some big thing to bitch about. the little things are nothing but minor irks but i guess when you can come up with several then the

Are You A Music Buff??
My result for Are You a Music Buff? is You are the Greatest Music BuffMusic flows along with the blood in your veins. You cannot imagine life without music. With such a great passion for music, you could seriously think of building a career around music. That is certainly your idea of the happiest life.Are You a Music Buff? created by QuizCat.Com - Quizzes, Surveys, Tests, Trivias

What Gets Longer When Pulled
>>What gets longer when pulled, >>Fits between the boobs, >>Inserts neatly in a hole, >>And works best when jerked? >>(Scroll down to find the answer......) >> A SEAT BELT you pervert!! >> BUCKLE up and pass it on!!!!!

Introducing....greyhawk, This Is For You....
She wandered in alone, it was the first stop she'd made since leaving him in Mesa. She was in need of a drink, anything to make the walk more bearable. Caffeine called her to the spot, her thirst burned in her cheeks. Coffee...coffee. She needed any kind of distraction from the thought of him. He didn't need her, she didn't need him, and dredging it out any further was the last thing she needed. She could feel the pulsating crowd draw her in, halter tops and Birkenstocks for miles, tan shoulders and tattoos lined the walls. She stood behind a giggly twenty-something, hanging on what had to be her boyfriend with the adhesiveness of super glue. She felt a pang until Cheerleader Alpha Woman opened her mouth to speak. Any and all jealousy she might have felt faded to rage. "Denny was just sooooo excited to teach me how to drive a stick! I was super stoked the first time I shifted without making the car smell funny!" She giggled all the while, a shiny mirror of white teet

What Are You Like In Bed
You scored as Sex God, You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place.Sex God85% A Slave To BDSM78% A Romantic60% Virgin20% How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

Are We Going To Let History To Repeat Itself..
In the summer of 1977, Jones and most of the 1000 members of the Peoples Temple moved to Guyana from San Francisco after an investigation into the church for tax evasion had begun. Jones named the closed settlement Jonestown after himself. His intention was to create an agricultural utopia in the jungle, free from racism and based on socialist principles. People who had left the organization prior to its move to Guyana told the authorities of brutal beatings, murders and of a mass suicide plan, but were not believed. In spite of the tax evasion allegations, Jones was still widely respected for setting up a racially mixed church which helped the disadvantaged. Around 70% of the inhabitants of Jonestown were black and impoverished. The religious scholar Mary McCormick Maaga argued that Jones' authority waned after he moved to the isolated commune, because there he was not needed anymore for recruitment and he could not hide his drug addiction from rank and file members.[2] Consequentl

Life
LIFE SURE HAS ITS UPS AND ITS DOWNS. JUAT WHEN YA THINK YOU GOT A HOLD OF THINGS AND GET COMFORTABLE YOU GET THROWN A CURVEBALL. MAKES YA FEEL LIKE YOUR ON A NVER ENDING ROLLER COASTER RIDE. bUT LIKE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS SAID TO ME. ITS NOT HOW MANY TIMES LIFE KICKS YOU DOWN OR LAUGHS AT YOU. ITS HOW MANY TIMES YOU GET BACK UP OR LAUGH EVEN HARDER AND SAY BRING IT ON!!!!!

Missing My Little Girl
my 11 year old is in main for 2 weeks with the man who call's himself her dad....well he didn't want anything to do with her for 9 1/2 year's then he decided he wanted to be a daddy then he takes me to court to try to take her away from me ,that didn't work but he did get visitation's he came here to see her 1 time for about 15 minute's then left last summer she had to go to main for a month with people she didn't know and with him who she dont really know and who she hate's she hardly ate or slept the whole time she was there she would call home crying her eyes out and begging to come home and i couldnt do anything it was court orderd,,,,she was supposed to go back at christmas for a week but her"dad" forgot to make arrangment's.. she had not seen this guy since last summer now she had to go back and go through hell again,she ain't eating or sleeping again and crying and begging to come home i do try to tell her to try to have a good time and get to know some people but she does not

Cherry Tap Survey
i just got hit up with a cherry tap survey...after I fill out the enrty form, can anyone tell me how long it takes fro the actual survey to load...because it's alreday been 20 minute since i signed up! grrr!!

Night Call
the wind is blowing, the birds are chirping, the smell is sweet, and my heart is beating, can you, really can you help me now your soul interwined with mine and carried it to a hidden paradise, unmistakablely true how the sky now turns to majestic shades of blue. your touch your touch shakes me as hard as an earthquake, your words, oh your words create an unbreakable force field to shield my heart from pain. rain rain never falls here, looking in your eyes is soaring through heaven for all eternity, how do I know this is you, oh I see it is the way the birds sing harmoniously when they see your face, it is the way the stars shine brightly as if they were the sun, it is the way my soul longs for you so, you are here for me, my soul mate, listen to my night call, Listen, Listen, Can you hear me calling, Can you follow it's sound?

Dumbass People Should Be Shot On Sight
I cannot stand the sheer immaturity and stupidity of people online. I was just accosted by some bitch in my shoutbox who rated me a bunch of ones. Like I give a fuck. I went to her page and rated her a ten, thanked her for the points. Then she gets in my shoutbox and starts giving me shit because I'm with a man 13 years older than me. It's utter ridiculousness. Bah! I'm just angry and felt the need to vent.

Hmmmm
I have been in a strange mood for the past few days. I am not 100% sure why to be honest, but just feeling generally low. I started this month quite up beat, but that seems to have lulled right now. Everything just seems so depressing. I find that I am wanting to spend more time alone, and am talking to myself (if one person says it's the firs sign of madness!....grrr) I am feeling the need to hide myself away, so for those of you that are bothered, I wont be on for a few days. I just need to get my head together. I have never been one for opening up on here, and am normally quite a private person, but for some reason I had the urge to blog. Feeling a bit useless right now.

That Made My Day!
So this morning as I was closing the door to my house and stepping onto the porch I saw two of the neighbor kids going by with their mom to school. Soon as I stepped on the stairs the little boy looks at me and goes, "Wooooooooow!" he couldn't be more than 8 and i thought it was the cutest thing.

Slow Connection
Hello My Sweet Friends. Well Im Here With My Dad Now Staying Nice And Cool Thank God For Central Air. Im Letting You Know That I Cant Send Comments Due To Very Low Connectivity, Im On A Wireless Lap Top. But I Should Be Getting My Sprint Card Any Day. So Then I Can Send Comments Out.I Miss You All And Cant Wait Till This Card Comes. I Hope You Have A Great Day. Stay Cool, Going To Be A Hot One Here Today Again! Hugs And Bites To My Friends. Muah.

Waaaaay Too Serious...
So my son's baseball team lost the Championship game last night 5-3. The season is finally over. They played well and it is such a shame to see the kids take it so hard. I guess what my issue is: I have a hard time dealing with how seriously some coaches, parents and kids take the game. IT'S a game! They are kids (10-12). Coaches: lead by example. And, parents, don't take it so seriously. There is no need to yell at a kid for making an error (coaches). There is no need to heckle the umps (parents/coaches). The umps didn't leave bases loaded (twice) - the players did. Take responsibility for yourself (players). I heard one kid... the star player, of course, blaming a teammate for getting out because "he's too fat" and "he didn't run fast enough." Hey kid, if you hit the ball out of the infield, they wouldn't have had an easy force out at third. But of course, that's not YOUR fault. I don't know. I may sound old now, but the game is different now than when I was a kid. You pla

Reasons
I guess this is more for a update to those that are close to me. Last week I got a horrorific phone call from one of my sisters. She informed me that one of my other sisters had died. Though I have not been real close with either of these sisters it was still a shock. She was only 39. So now here I am at work when I get this call which now instead of being calm and collective I become hystirical. So now this is wed that I get this call. The sister that died lives in georgia so now its time to figure out how to get there. Thank God I work for 2 great people. They loaned me 300 bucks to get to georgia. So Sat comes and hubby and I get in the car and start driving. 2 tanks of gas, 10 hours later we arrive on my brother in laws brother's door step. To be greeted by my neice, nephew and other sister. We stay for 3 days in georgia and then headed home tues. My sister died of phneomonia with a thyroid problem that weekend her heart and caused her to have a heart attack. The viewing is thurs

"razor Blade Pain"
As I lay here feelin my heart being sliced piece by piece with this shiny sharp blade it slowly takes its shape the razor blade slowly cuts through piece of my heart for it has been broken into two how my tears fall from my eyes foi hav eno feelings left . seeing the blood flow surely feeling a tad better trid to close my eyes and here comes the questions slowly thinking of the answers as my blood still purs was he really worth all this pain and i feel that without pain you would never really know what true love means as i hear a raven singing alonge saying forever more shell i bleed till i find someone to complete my soul and make me feel so whole !!!!!

For You, My Vlad! Nightwish - Forever Yours
Fare thee well, little broken heart Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone Constant longing for the perfect soul Unwashed scenery forever gone Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone No love left in me No eyes to see the heaven beside me My time is yet to come So I'll be forever yours Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone No love left in me No eyes to see the heaven beside me My time is yet to come So I'll be forever yours No love left in me No eyes to see the heaven beside me My time is yet to come So I'll be forever yours Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone Whatever walks in my heart

School Answering Machine...i Am So Getting Hate Mail Today.
SCHOOL ANSWERING MACHINE >> >> (This is hilarious - no wonder some people were offended!) but I think it >> should be on all Schools' recorders !!! >> >> This is the message that the Pacific Palisades High School ( California ) >> staff voted unanimously to record on their school telephone answering >> machine. This is the actual answering machine message for the school. >> This came about because they implemented a policy >> requiring students and parents be responsible for their children's >> absences and missing homework. The school and teachers are being sued by >> parents who want their children's failing grades changed to passing >> grades - even though those children were absent 15-30 times during the >> semester and did not complete enough schoolwork to pass their classes. >> >> The outgoing message: >> >> "Hello! You have reached the automated answering service of your school. >> In order to assist you in connecting to the right stafff member, please >> li

May I?
May I? I've been thinking of your long, thick dick all day. Imagining you stroking it in front of me. Watching your hand travel its length as it grows even longer, harder. I can see a drop of precum on the head and I'm licking my lips already. Come here baby, let me take care of you. I start on your neck with that spot behind your ear that I know you like. I move to your earlobe, sucking softly, biting gently. Down to your chest and your responsive nipples. Licking them until they stand erect too. I move down your chest to your navel. My tongue tracing circles around it before I continue the southern path to my prize. I brace myself by holding onto your thighs as I balance on my heels with my thighs open, happy to finally have my face in your lap. When I nuzzle your balls with my nose, you take a step apart. I lick them delicately, listening to your deep sigh. I know your head has fallen back and your eyes are closed. Time to begin. I suck your left nut into my mou

Hope Y'all Like This One!
I came home, tense and in a bad mood after a shitty day at work, but the sight that greeted me inside my door instantly improved my day. Sherry, my slave walked towards me. She stopped 3 feet away from me and assumed the "auction" position. This position allowed me to inspect her. She stood with her legs spread shoulder's width apart, arms out straight at an angle, hands away from her body, palms up. Her eyes were lowered but her chin was up which gave me an unobstructed view of her beautiful, naked body. I smiled approvingly and walked toward her intent on giving her a sensuous kiss. Oh, how I love this girl. She touches my soul. She takes care of me and I take care of her. We've been together for 5 months now and my love for her grows stronger day by day, I thought as I kissed her. "Run a bath for me baby," I told her after breaking the kiss and walking past her to pour myself a glass of wine. She scampered upstairs and I followed a few minutes later, carrying my wine glass. W

Empty
Sorry to any of you that are wondering about me I am just feeling very empty and very lonely yes I am sure it can be changed at anytime I just need to figure out when to take that next step and the best way how to.. It will be a very trying year to say the very least so if I am quiet or dont call some of you that is why I feel backed in a corner and I need to get out of it so I will talk to ya soon maybe after I get out of my rut who knows but I am so very lonely =(

Excuse Me
I'm old fashioned I guess. I prefer a comfortable couch to an angled piece of plastic with a flat screen attached to it. I like music with an old-timey feel like "In the Mood," or anything by Rush. I also like when people say, "excuse me" and mean it. I'm no linguistic scholar, nor do I profess ultimate knowledge of social etiquette. I am fairly confident though, that the use of the above-mentioned phrase was designed to offer some sort of apology for an inadvertent act that caused some amount of discomfort, embarrassment, disgust or inconvenience to the aggrieved party. It seems logical that in antiquity someone spilled a glass of wine on someone else's sandal at a dinner party and felt the need to express some sort of regret. Perhaps someone accidentally sheared his neighbor's sheep and needed a way to convey remorse. The phrase is literally asking to be excused for whatever transgression was committed. When did it become a license to engage in patently offensive beh

Too Much Information (tmi)
A guy goes to the supermarket and notices a beautiful blond woman wave at him and say hello. He's rather taken aback, because he can't place where he knows her from. So he says, "Do you know me?" To which she replies, "I think you are the father of one of my kids." Now his mind travels back to the only time he has ever been unfaithful to his wife and says, "My God, are you the stripper from my bachelor party that I laid on the pool table with all my buddies watching, while your partner whipped my butt with wet celery and then stuck a carrot up my ass???" She looks into his eyes and calmly says, "No, I'm your son's math teacher."

Mile Marker
Technically, the core of the new book is finished. It is actually at the half way marker. If I had not decided to add so much supporting data, it would be finished. LOL. Time to take a breather, and a smoke. I would say I was going to take a sex break, but as those who know me know, that ain't going to happen anytime soon. More later.

I Love You
I Love You I love you. From the moment I first laid eyes on you, I knew you were the one for me. Now that I have you, all I want to do is be with you all the time. Walking hand in hand, together, we enjoy each other’s company. And we fight the ones who get in our way. How I’ve longed for you all my life. You mean the world to me. I love you. From the moment we part in the late hours of the afternoon, until the next time I see you, all I think is you. You are constantly on my mind... the fun memories we had, the unpleasant memories we had, they keep coming back to me when we're apart. So powerful, so fierce, everyone moves back to give you space. And yet, holding you gently and not squeezing you tight, yes, that’s how you like to be held. I hold you the way I would hold a tiny sparrow and I will never let go of you. It feels so nice when I put my hands around you. Gentle strokes, I try to feel you intensely. I have so much passion for you. I close my eyes and try to

All I Hear Is Blah Blah Blah
I have been online way too fucking long...lmmfao, but I have my own opinion of the most over used terms on the net.........so, here goes. 1. Hacked - No, just because your ex, current significant other or anyone else accessed your account because you saved your password does not mean you got hacked. That means you got B-U-S-T-E-D and pissed off. This even counts if you were at someone else's house using their puter, you should be more careful with your shit. Hacked is when someone uses hours of time or a program to figure out your password....... 2. Stalked - One of my favorites. You've either hit that shit or let that shit get hit just right and now someone wants to stay in your ear. You are NOT being stalked by anyone if you have NOT taken measures to make them go away, such as ignoring, blocking and on. If you allow them access to you.....you're not being stalked. This rule also applies to haters........which brings me to 3. Haters - A true hater is someone who

Do I Rock Your World
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Candylicious/ COPY AND PASTE THIS LINK AND PRESS JOIN THATS ALL IT IS TOO IT..SEE U THERE YOU TELL ME WHAT U THINK COME JOIN MY GROUP U WANT BE SORRY.. SEE YOU THERE

A Beautiful Heartache
I wish I was the wind Flowing so freely through your hair Loving you this way and that But never staying long enough to be still Or perhaps the moon, its light Darkly touching your skin so intimately Leaving at dawns light never yearning to stay Even the bumble bee that hovers around your scent Then moving to the more beautiful flower Instead I am simply a man One who secretly longs for your scent Aches for your touch Listens for your laughter And wishes you would stay FOREVER.

Ha Take That...
HA SANDMAN TAKE THAT YOU CHILDISH BASTERD i have beaten you an stayed up partly all day Muahhahahhahahahaha 3 hours of sleep and some A&W RootBeer hit the spot Muahahahahha yeah i know its prolly the caffine making me hyper or weird BUT HA im awake a now i may be crashing ina bit NOOOO lol hmmmm 2liter of rootbeer is callin me

Age And Ancestry
I do have tendency to confuse a lot of people when I mention just how old I am. If you count my age in the same manner as you would my ancestors, then I am 322 years old. In my bloodline, there are two direct lines to the clan of the wolf in two different tribes. Strangely enough, the story about the clans orgin is the same. You see it happened long ago.... Back when man and animal lived in peace, and the people were in harmony with creation, the great wolf, the first of his kind was hunting near a village. He saw a very beautiful young woman there, and feel instantly in love. He went to the creator. "Make me human, for I love a woman of the people." "I cannot, for you are the father to all the wolf people." "I beg you creator, if you do not, I shall die." The creator granted the wolf's wish, but only for one year. The manwolf went into the camp and quickly won the young woman's heart. And, when it was time for him to return to his own people, she gav

Ode To My Dad
my dads in the hospital and we dont know when and if he coming out so i wrote this for him. ode to my dad, he has been there for me all my life, when i was a kid and broke my arm, when i went into surgery when i grew up and was in trouble, when i got arrested, when i got mad, when i was hurt and upset, my dad was always there for me, the best thing to do is be there for him, thats my ode to my dad... bedrock

Don't Even Pretend To Know What This Is About
This blog is not about any one man but all men. There isn't a man on this earth that wont let you down. Who won't break your heart and not even realize they are doing it. The words were all in my heard in the car and i'm here now and they evade me. This blog is about dying and about escape. Shoot me with an aarow cut me with a knife. Your all trying to kill me with one little slice. My heart was precious my intentions were true. I would walked a million miles for you just to show you I would. I loved you beyond your anger, I loved you beyond your faults. Your friends all loved me, some of your family did too. I am just the rebound girl of your dreams, just somone to kill some time with. I am everything she is not, but still not good enough because I'm me. It best be time for me to stop fooling myself, and decided where I needin to be drawing the line. Do I live alone with the world passing by me or do I pass the world by and go on to the next. I have to be nice to those a

My Inner Demons
My world goes black and I float adrift in a void, free of all living expectations and dreams. In fact no dream comes to me in this period of darkness, where I seem to drift carefree. I fear I've died, and neither God nor Satan wanted me, and so here I am in this blackness. But I know if that were true, if it truly were... then I would have no fear at all, I would just be. I see a light, but there is no tunnel... it grows brighter, and I awake in a befuddled state of mind. Looking around I see faces that I have never seen before, and people screaming at me. Their words sound so sureal, and I slowly drift off back into that endless sleep, devoid of all dreams. But there is someone here with me... no, there is more then just one, it seems to be a few of them. They wont show themselves to me though, and I can't figure out why that is that they avoid me. This is my world isn't it? It is my void, my space of reality... and yet they elude me somehow. Show yourselves! Why do you

Prayer
DIO can you hear me? I am lost and so alone, I'm asking for your guidance, would you come down from your throne? I need a tight compadre who will teach me how to rock, My father thinks you're evil, but man he can suck a cock. Rock is not the devils work, It's magical and rad, I'll never rock as long as i am stuck here with my dad!

10 Commandments For Loving A Bbw
10 COMMANDMENTS FOR LOVING A BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN 1. I won't be ashamed to be seen with her 2. I won't be embarrassed by her size 3. I won't hide her away out of sight 4. I won't find you unattractive at any weight 5. I won't ever find you un-sexy 6. I won't allow others to put you down 7. I won't tolerate you putting yourself down 8. I won't take you where you can not be accommadated 9. I won't let anyone show you disrespect 10. I won't let a day go by without telling you how admired, loved and special you are.

Just So No One Feels Jilted By My Lack Of Hospitality Or Some Crap...
I mostly add friends for points to get me to Godfather in the end. However, those who show me they are legitimate friends will end up staying on my list in the end. If not, at least you get a profile rate and several pics rated IF I NOTICE YOU'RE A FRIEND AND I HAVEN'T DONE IT YET. If you expect me to jump through hoops that your user name does not specify (rate, fan, give blood, etc.) before you'll add me, then I'll give you squat. You do not push me when you don't even know me. I'll read your profile if I'm interested in knowing you, but otherwise I don't really care. It is a WEB SITE, not your CAREER...unless you're a mod and getting paid to be here. Most of you are just here for points, or (are you guys listening?) nudes and cyber sex. I'm here for the points, too, until I get where I want to be. Then I'll start deleting the ones who never say anything, but if I make some REAL friends along the way, all the better.

Random Facts About Me
more random crazy thoughts that go through my head!!!!!! Current mood: crazy Seven random facts about me..... 1.My biggest fear is having everything I want,but ending up alone. 2.Whenever I am doing something,pouring coffee, waiting for someone to answer the phone, or even looking for mushrooms in the woods, I am always counting numbers in my head until I finish what it is that I started. What am I doing? And also trying to guess how long it will take me before I accomplish my task, this is really frustrating for me because I can't stop doing it! 3.Sometimes I wish I could stay in my dreams, or maybe it has allready happened...but this too has become a nightmare lately. 4.I am too impulsive, I sometimes live like there's no tomorrow, and then pay the price later,but I can't seem to help mysself, Damn it I want it now! 5.I trive on perfection and success, and am climbing back into the seat again, this time, I won't slow down, it's alll or nothing, and I would

The Young Cowboy
A young cowboy walks into a seedy cafe in Laramie, Wyoming. He sits at the counter and notices an old cowboy with his arms folded staring blankly at a full bowl of chili. After fifteen minutes of just sitting there staring at it, the young cowboy bravely asks the old cowpoke, "If you ain't gonna eat that, mind if I do?" The older cowboy slowly turns his head toward the young wrangler and in his best cowboy manner says, "Nah, go ahead." Eagerly, the young cowboy reaches over and slides the bowl over to his place and starts spooning it in with delight. He gets nearly down to the bottom and notices a dead mouse in the chili. The sight was shocking and he immediately pukes up the chili into the bowl. The old cowboy quietly says, "Yep, that's as far as I got, too."

Bitches...
YA KNOW WHAT I HAVENT RANTED IN AWHILE BUT SOME ONE HAS REALLY PISSED ME OFF THIS MORNING AND THIS IS A WORD TO ANY OF THE CT DRAMA QUEENS IF ANY OF YOU ARE INVOLVED WITH FIREMAN185 STAY THEY FUCK OFF MY PAGE YOU BITCHES CAN HAVE HIM I DON'T WANT HIM IF NO ONE HAS NOTICED HES A THING OF MY FUCKING PAST HES BEEN ERASED FROM ANYTHING I HAVE ON CT AS FOR THE ONE WHO HAS A CRUSH ON HIM IVE EMAILED YOU NICELY TO STAY OFF MY PAGE YOU WOULD BE WISE TO DO SO! NOW LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! AND IF HE SENDS YOU TO MY PAGE OR ANOTHER WOMANS PAGE TO START SHIT KNOW THE FACTS GET THEM STRAIGHT BEFORE YOU START SHIT YOU HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT NOT ONLY THAT WOULD'NT BELIEVE ANYTHING THAT HE TELLS YOU MOST LIKELY IT'S NOT THE ENTIRE TRUTH TAKE WANNA KNOW MORE TALK TO ME OR BEAUTIFUL SUBMISSIVE SLAVE IN MY LIST WE'D BE HAPPY TO ENLIGHTEN YOU. HAVE A BEAUTIFL DAY:)

Ratings And Mumms....
I wanted to take the time out for everyone who took time out for me rating and commenting my blogs and MUMMS. I really appreciate all of you and my new friends and fans. It really means alot and I have enjoyed meeting all of you! As for the the folks who could not resist being hateful....KISS MY ENTIRE #%&!!! Have a good day..lol Chris xoxo

The Goddess
He was not your average man, a CEO of a fortune 500 company by the age of thirty. This job was not fed to him by a silver spoon either, and he had to claw his way of from the ground floor. Most of his days were spent in stock meetings, enduring the ass kissing rat race, and the never ending babble of the “YES” men and women. People always wanted to be near him, talking to him, getting approval. They might as well get on their knees and lick the soles of his shoes they groveled so much. When he entered a room, a hush was all that was heard, no one dare spoke unless spoken too. His wrath was swift with the ones who dared to disobey him. He loved his job, was married to it in a sense, but he needed something more. While sitting at his desk one day, in his huge corner office, he noticed a card neatly tucked amongst the paperwork. Strange, he did not put this there and no one was ever in his office, not even his secretary. No name or number just an address, a place very far removed from

Forgive Me
Forgive me for the times I wasn't there Forgive me for the times I didn't care Forgive me for the way I did turn Forgive me for how I let you burn Forgive me for ever dragging you down Forgive me for the darkness that now surrounds Forgive me the life I forced you to lead Forgive me the wounds even now that bleed Forgive me for loving so fucking much Forgive me for letting you be my crutch Forgive me for not suffering on my own Forgive me for not fading out all alone Forgive me for ever letting you see Forgive me

My Darkness
Tonight I walk a ruined and broken path my feet bleed a trail from the jagged stone's wrath Where it shall lead I do not much care because life has become nothing without you there I pray for the shadows of my soul to consume me rend me to shreds and devour me completely My demons they torment me still even in this hour I have lost the will to fight, no longer the power I stop on the path and lie myself down knowing in my pain soon I shall drown The release shall be sweet and I shall embrace my fate my time is running short and I shall not be late As my darkness envelopes me and like an old friend always know this, I loved you till the end

A Big Shout Out To Some Of The Sweetiest People Ive Made Friends With On Cherry Tap
A BIG SHOUT OUT TO SOME OF THE SWEETIEST PEOPLE IVE MADE FRIENDS WITH ON CHERRY TAP GO SHOW THESE AWESOME PEOPLE SOME LOVE LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH YOU ALL ARE THE BEST! Outlaw Angel With A Renegade Heart@ CherryTAP *Beautifully Submissive* The Best submissives in The World Are Those Who Willingly Come To You And K@ CherryTAP AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST MY SWEETHEART :) LOVE YA BABY dillion28@ CherryTAP you all rock an i love yall to death thanks for being my friends:)

Part 1 What I Want
: I wanna wake up in the arms of someone who belives in a love that never ends that is cerished everyday w walks under neath the stars who strives not only for them to get better but me as well someone who pushes me to my all who takes the time to text and say the miss me I wanna fall into a marketing job and work behind the scenes be able to take a road trip in the middle of the nite where the time of the day is not a essence or even a concern I wanna be married and have a walk to remeber type love I wanna feel a person's heart beat and listen to it... I long for the type of love that is true to everything that is me and not some sugar coat relationship.. I wanna be greeted when I walk into a club and be that person that people wanna be

I'm Outta Here!
I am being whisked away to San Diego for the weekend and I just wanted to wish all my friends a great and safe weekend! It has been years since I have been able to get away and I am so looking forward to it! I will check in with everyone when I get back and probably will have some pictures to share. Susie :D

Wilderness Of Kentucky
After living in the remote wilderness of Kentucky all his life, An old hillbilly decided it was time to visit the big city. In one of the stores he picks up a mirror and looks in it. Not ever having seen one before, he remarked at the image Staring back at him. "How about that! Here's a picture of my daddy." He bought the 'picture', but on the way home he remembered his wife, didn't like his father. So he hung it in the barn, and every morning before leaving for the fields, he would go there and look at it. His wife began to get suspicious of these many trips to the barn. One day after her husband left, she searched the Barn and found the mirror. As she looked into the glass, she fumed, "So that's the ugly bitch he's runnin' around with."

Songs To Strip By...ooooo Yeah!
Tonight's the NIGHT on Krush Radio! The show by request...Songs To Strip By! Check it out if you want to...You know you do...Say you do;). www.krushradio.com The Girly Show from 7:00-9:00 p.m. CST. Live requests will be taken on YIM: thegirlydj

Washcloth
There is not a woman alive today who won't crack up over this! I was due for an appointment with the gynecologist later in the week. Early one morning, I received a call from the doctor's office to tell me that I had been rescheduled for that morning at 9:30 am. I had only just packed everyone off to work and school, and it was already around 8:45 am. The trip to his office took about 35 minutes, so I didn't have any time to spare. As most women do, I like to take a little extra effort over hygiene when making such visits, but this time I wasn't going to be able to make the full effort. So, I rushed upstairs, threw off my pajamas, wet the washcloth that was sitting next to the sink, and gave myself a quick wash in that area to make sure I was at least presentable. I threw the washcloth in the clothes basket, donned some clothes, hopped in the car and raced to my appointment. I was in the waiting room for only a few minutes when I was called in. Knowing the procedure, as

Doggystyle Sex - Top 10 Positions
"LET'S DO IT DOGGIE STYLE!" There are so many ways to have sex and so many positions to have them in, that they are too numerous to mention in one article. Sex is limitless. Lets face facts though, there is a position out there that is a fan favorite (and player favorite) and that position is "doggystyle" (also spelled "doggiestyle"). This may not be the "ultimate" position for women searching for an easy orgasm, however many women find this to be a real crowd pleaser. Doggystyle is such a favorite, that I offer 10 different ways to "hit it from the back". Truly one of the most dominating positions for the man and sometimes the woman as you will see from the list. Here is my homemade list taken from a truckload of research; my lap thanks you. MAN`S BEST FRIEND POSITION This is the standard for which every pornographic movie has ever been made and will be the foundation for the rest of the list. Him: On knees, resting on knees and tops of feet, holds backside like a

69 Sex Position - Why We Like It
If you take care of mama she will take care of you big daddy..." My editor asked me, "Why do we like 69 with girls"? I knew the answer was much bigger than an orgasm. Personally I have never experienced climaxed from 69 but would not trade the 69 experiences for all the 70's in the world. There are many 69 positions as well that are exciting and anyone with an oral fetish knows it is insatiable - the giving and receiving a 69 offers. If you don't really know what a sixty-nine (69) is then I will explain that first. A 69 is when two people are servicing each other at the same time. He is performing cunnilingus and she is performing fellatio. She is sucking his pole and he is licking the "pearl zone". Eating at the Y, schlobenzeenobin, muff diving, polish the knob, PERFORMING ORAL! Do Sex Unto Others, As You Would Have Them Do Sex Unto You Why we enjoy this double digit sexual position is a combination of an insatiable double threat, giving and receiving. Two things can

To Those That Were On My Family List......
But now are no longer, due to recent events, I went a lil crazy and took a few people off my family list. The people I had on my family list were people who were able to see my nsfw pix. They are no longer up. And for that reason I took the ones on my short list that I had met here on CT off. The people that remain are people I know in person or have talked to for years. I think I will re-add a few others on there, perhaps we will see.

The Usa Calls
It would seem that work needs me to travel once more so off to the US I am to travel. Was in Atlanta last time but this time it would seem they want me on the West Coast. So south of LA to Orange County. Not sure when yet but I think this will be more of a set of photo opportunities

F%ck Myspace Anyway....
I copied this directly from the myspace blog I JUST posted.... Friday, June 15, 2007 What the hell is myspace's problem anyway? Current mood: angry *reprinting here a bulletin I just posted* What is wrong with myspace anyway? It was fine a year ago. What the hell's going on now anyway? First it was my videos. I was building a gallery to take pride in. Suddenly my "priviledges" are suspended? Why? "Please see your email" WHAT email? I never got one! Ok, so I learn to live without adding anymore videos. Ok. Now today, in anticipation of my net radio show returning after two months off, I go to post a bulletin. Took me THREE TIMES, because I kept getting a message that my account has been BLOCKED! "You've been phished! This means that someone was trying to get your email address and password" HELLO! That was ME!!! Ok, so I change my password.... EACH TIME..... Finally I just gave up and posted plain text, nothing fancy. How exciting. Now I go to switc

Keeping Myself Sane 5
An age is called Dark, not because the light fails to shine, but because people refuse to see it. You approach my wretched City of Dis, where you behold a wide plain surrounded by iron walls. Before you are fields full of distress and torment terrible. Burning tombs are littered about the landscape. Inside these flaming sepulchers suffer the heretics, failing to believe in God and the afterlife, who make themselves audible by doleful sighs. You will join the wicked that lie here, and will be offered no respite. The three infernal Furies stained with blood, with limbs of women and hair of serpents, dwell in this circle of Hell. -an exerpt

Dead Beat Dads
Why is it after 5 yrs you would even attempt to see something you ran away from before she was even born ? I just cant fathom the thoughts the made this man come to this conclusion that he should reappear from his friendly neighborhood gutter and try popping back in to my life or hers. What thought would make someone think its ok to run away for well over 6 yrs and come back like nothing is wrong?? Want to see her vist her or get custody. Seriously outta ya mind is what id tell you cause its never gonna happen. Ruining my life is one thing but shes innocent id rather see your dead lifeless body in a gutter then anywhere near my child. My child not yours i gave birth to her and have raised her for almost 6 yrs without your broke ass helping me out once. GAH why turn our world upside down all of a sudden ?? it just doesnt make sense to me at all. .......... ok so that all there

Thanks For The Comments Cherries Hope To Get Some With This One As Well!!!!
well its the weekend now... party time woohoooo!!!!!! well i just wanted ot let you all know im very thankful for the comments on my last one... but annyways it is time for new blog now so here it goes.... well last weekend i and my wife went up north to pick up my daughter from her grandpa and we had a very nice trip but the hotel we stayed at kinda sucked tho ... (super 8) but i wasnt really thinkin bout that much as i was bout seein my baby girl again... the day came which was sunday afternoon i got that chance to see her for the first time since last november...she has grown so much since then i almmost didnt recognize her but she and i had a fun time all the way back home and my wife and i were taken pics of our trip and got this one of these 2 guys driving along side of us down the freeway lmao... and now we eare plannin to do alot of fun things with the kids durring this summer seein i have my baby girl for the whole year till school gets out next summer lol...and now i just wan

Paranormal Ponderings
I used to write for two Wiccan magazines (which I miss) One was called Whispering Willow. The name of my weekly article was "Calissta's Cauldron." My sweetie and I were talking abou it and he convinced me to start doing it again here. This article was first published in July 2000 - Issue 1. I am posting it here to get back into the groove. I hope you enjoy it and return every week. I also did a question and answer section about Wicca. I will be glad to bring that back as well. Feel free to write me any questions you may have and you may see my reply here! -------------------------------------------- Runes have been traced back to Egyptian times as a portable from of hieroglyphics. They would burn symbols onto small stones and carry them in sachets around their neck as protection and silent communication. There is speculation that the origin of runes may have gone further back but there is nothing concrete that proves this. There are many different kinds of runes. They have differen

Im So Sick Of This Shit!!
Im so fuckin sick of people taking me for granted and always putting me down. people who i thought were my friends or actually cared obviously dont. Im at the point where i just dont even give a shit about you people anymore :/ I dont know why im wasting my time, its not like youre gonna read it anyway. Whatever.

My Trip
hello everyone....to anyone one that cares i am back from my trip from reno..i had a wonderful time i had so much fun that i will go back someday and hopefully i will find some one to go with me next time....the only reason why i went to reno was because i had a national bowling tournament. it is the biggest bowling tournament in the world and by going to it i had a partner that i was bowling with and we are sitting 6th place overall in the world.. which i am very happy with i had no intentions on placing in the tournament and that i was just there for a good time..with that being said i am proud of myself and i hope that i will find someone to go with me next year to new mexico and the followingin vegas....there are alot more different places to go every year and i hope that someone would be interested in me and want to go to these tournaments with me cause i promise you that it will be fun....hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and thank you for listening :)

.house.house.house!.
*does a lil dance* we got a house we got a house we got a house we got a house we got a house we got a house and its huge. 2k sq ft 3 bedrooms a family room a den formal living and dining the upstairs is gonna be like...the kid 'wing' 2 bedrooms a family room n a bathroom... the main floor is the master bedroom/bath suite with the formal living n dining n kitchen...a balcony off the kitchen...views of the red rocks from the living n dining... downstairs is a satillo tiled den...with an alcove...and a sliding glass door which leads to its own patio...right off the backyard. oh ya. it has a 2 car garage too. *dances more* the only thing that could make this day more completely awesome...is sex. but ya cant get everything...lol and that is all :D

Ex Girlfriends
You know i was browsing the alumni section for my highschool on myspace, and i ran across my ex girlfriend. I went to her page, ( i was listeningto Everything Changes by Staind by sheer chance) and saw she was married with kids and was really happy. When we broke up is was fairly nasty, and a good part was inexperience and youth that played in it. There was no cheating on anyones side, but her dating me was a lot tougher for her because it was soo much more of a physical relationship and we saw each other every single day. The thing is we both were in love with each other. I woulda moved the earth and moon for her.... and seeing her profile and listening to that music... it was hard rel hard. i had to click off her page pretty fast..i dunno it felt like i still had some love still for her? I dont know do u ever really stop loving someone, or do u jsut bury it so it doesnt hurt, right now im jsut really stressed in my life and i certainly didnt need ot have this emotion pop out

I Need A Vacation!
So, I was supposed to take my nieces home today, but plans have changed. Their mother decided instead of taking care of business, she would go for a road trip and go party. So, I'll have three kids Saturday and I don't know if I'll get to go to the Gay Pride Parade...I'm debating if I wanna take the kids to that. Would I be a bad influence if I took them? Anyways, I'm babysitting Saturday a little monkey man named Tyrese. He's 3 years old, too and he's only 2 days older than Ayanna. They are so f'in cute. My crush hasn't been online in forever and I miss him/her...whichever it may be...I forgot it's a big fat secret! I hate secrets. I'm watching the Emmy's and Ellen Degeneres won! GO ELLEN! I gotta go, I'm just blabbin now...sorry to have bored you...I'm bored too!

For Your Reading Pleasure....
Well, as of today, me and the kids have managed to make it thru this month afterall, financially. I just recieved the paperwork for the change of child support situation and will be sending out the paperwork ASAP so that there will be some results in this matter, and changes to be made. Was informed by the CS department though that it may or may not be that I would get the support back or anything...so I do not know in this matter. It is final though, the father of my kids and my ex husband, claims that he will actually wait to see if the kids will welcome him into their lives when they get old enough to understand that they actually have a father. He claims that he will have no contact with them just because of me...he just wants to act babyish and see if the kids will accept him when they are old enough to figure things out for themselves. Our oldest is four and youngest is just two so it will be a few years away for them to understand what is going on...so it is up to me to

Kids
Hey everyone...so it's official, I now have two kids in high school, which is so surreal to me because I could swear it was just yesterday that I was in high school, anyway, I wasn't sure my youngest was going to make it into high school...it wasn't looking very promising there for a while, but she did it! She is now a freshman, starting at East in September and my oldest will be a senior at East. It's just amazing how fast the time goes, I remember when my oldest was laying in her crib, crying and all I could think was "how long before she's 18?!" and now she almost is...oh well, my girls are my life and I love them with all my heart. I'm sooooooooo proud of them both. Oh yeah, if you would stop by my pictures and rate the ones of me and the ones of my girls. Thanks everyone!

I Am Going In For Surgery On The 25th
HEY ALL I WONT BE ON FOR A FEW DAYS AFTER THE 25TH HEY EVERYONE THIS IS YOUR FRIENDLY FRIEND KIMMY I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD SAY HI TO ALL OF YOU ON A BULLETIN HOPE YOU ALL DONT MIND?I WELL BE OFF LINE FOR A FEW DAYS AS OF THE 25TH OF JUNE AS CAUSE I AM GOING IN FOR KNEE SURGERY .AND WONT BE ABLE TO GET ON LINE AT LEAST FOR THAT LONG .AND I MISS YOU ALL NOW AND ALWAYS DO AND ALWAYS WELL MISS YOU AND ALSO I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU .PLEASE THINK OF ME WHILE I AM OFF LINE FOR THOUS FEW DAYS COMING UP SOON.I KNOW I WELL BE THINKING OF ALL OF YOU AS WELL..STAY SAFE AND SWEET LOVE ALWAYS YOUR FRIEND KIMMY AND COUSIN AND SISTER AND WANNA BE LOVERS LOL

Too Busy For A Friend ?
SATURDAY, June 16, 2007 Today, I visited my closest internet friend's blogs. There I found one of those things that draws me to her constantly---her unfailing sweetness to all. Once again, ~Nyne~ Too Busy for a Friend ? One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name. Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down. It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers. That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual. On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. "Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others l

Saying Goodbye
Yesterday I had to take my sweet Spooker to the vet to be put down. She lived 18 years and was the sweetest kitty. I picked her out of a group of kittens and was never sorry that I did. She had a beautiful face and personality. Her collar bell is now on my keychain so I can hear her walking with me each day.

End This Illegal War
Before the war in Iraq ever started, Senator Obama said that it was wrong in its conception. In 2002, then Illinois State Senator Obama said Saddam Hussein posed no imminent threat to the United States and that invasion would lead to an occupation of undetermined length, at undetermined cost, with undetermined consequences. Since then, Senator Obama has laid out a plan on the way forward in Iraq that has largely been affirmed by the bipartisan Iraq Study Group led by James Baker and Lee Hamilton. I don't oppose all wars. And I know that in this crowd today, there is no shortage of patriots, or of patriotism. What I am opposed to is a dumb war. What I am opposed to is a rash war." -Barack Obama Anti-War Rally, Chicago 2002 At the Chicago Council on Foreign Relations in November 2005, Senator Obama called for: (1) a reduction in the number of U.S. troops; (2) a time frame for a phased withdrawal; (3) the Iraqi government to make progress on forming a political solution; (4)

Lazy Blog
1. Is sex best in the morning, afternoon, or night? When I’m awake. I get annoyed if I miss it. 2. What side of the bed do you sleep on? Left. 3. Pork, Beef, or Chicken? All three, preferably at once 4. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? No. 5. What leg do you put in pants first when pulling them up? Right 6. Candles or Incense? Candles 7. Do you dance when no one is watching? Yes 8. Did you play doctor when you were little? Yes, but I got struck off. 9. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? No, but I have frequently taken money off for clothes 10. Stove top cooking or microwave? Both. 11. Would you rather your car or your house be dirty? Car, because I don’t have to live in it. 12. Shower or bath? Shower. 13. Do you pee in the shower What? Sorry, can’t hear you! 14. Mexican or Chinese food? Both, preferably at the same time. 15. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? Passive aggr

Fathers Day
Well fathers day is tomorrow and once again the ex won't let me have my children. Didn't get them last year either although she says I didn't ask which is bullshit. I've asked to get my kids plenty of times other than the one day I get evry other week, but she says they always have plans. Nothing I can do about it though until I get my own place. She won't work with me at all until a judge tells her she has to. Can you say total BIOTCH! I love my kids more than anything and would love nothing more than to have them with me all the time. I know what it's like to grow up without a father. After my mother and father divorced we didnt see much of my father. Although he has a different memory than me and my sisters. He didnt want the responsibilty of kids he just wanted to party. Me on the other hand would love nothing more than to have my kids 24/7. I've always tried to be there for my kids but the ex makes that very difficult. And of course it's always my fault. I try to ask the kids what

Looking For Possible Kids
I am a 38 year old male I attended college in Beatrice,Nebraska and in Moberly,Missouri . I have had a feeling for a very long time that I may have some kids in these areas if you are from there and know me and there is a possibility that we may have gotten together please contact me on here.

Woohoo
"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming, "WOO HOO, What a Ride

The Angry American Part 5
As most of you have noticed by the present bulletin posting...tha they ave found the ID cards of the missing American soldiers in an Al-Qudia safe house, along with video, and weapons. The article goes on to say that troops engaged in a fire fight from some nearby trees, and two soldiers were wounded before the Air Strike wiped the rag headed mother fuckers out. This has been an on going thing so it seems, these fucking rag headed asshats think that we're going to give in, the way I see it, every AMERICAN life taken, we take 100 of them. I said it all from the beginning, that we just turn the middle east into a great big glass parking lot. Fuck'em, who cares about the Koran (I wipe my ass with pages of it daily), who cares about ALLAH, I don't give a fuck about allah, he's an asshat too. I don't give two shits about the whole religion thing, I could care less, I could care less about politics, think it's time we stop worrying about the civilian casualties, and start worrying abou

Surveys
ok, i've been on ct for a while now and i've tried to take those online surveys at least 20 times and it keeps saying that i'm not qualified and now i get messages on my bar tab saying i'm pre qualified for a survey but when i take it i'm not qualified...what the hell do you have to do to qualify for a dam survey?....lol

No More Crying
so I was told by a few people here that I cry a lot about things that go on here, rates, no rates, basic crying about things,I'm sure that it would mean so much more to me and I would take notice to all of it if the person, people who told me I cry to much, didn't have puddles of tears under their computer chairs or kitchen chairs doubling as computer chairs. Sorry its human nature to Bitch about things the loud bitching is just that, loud but there are some bitches that are Legit and merit taking notice to, IE under rating ( not a huge bitch for me) but I do find like most people that under rate no matter if you get the points or not is Disrespectful I say don't rate at all, Now if I were the only one that bitched,each and everyone of you would be still bitching that someone under rated you and you have no idea who it was, so lots of bitching went into changing that right? if it were not for bitching Blocked people would still be able to look at your page, so bitching changed that as

Oldie But A Goodie... The Diarys Of Men And Women
HER DIARY: Saturday night I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a bar to have a drink. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment. Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk. He agreed but he kept quiet and absent. I asked him what was wrong; he said nothing. I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry. On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say I love you too. When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV He seemed distant and absent. Finally, I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed, and to my surprise he responded to my caress and we made lov

Break Free: A Lifetime In Rewind....
Saturday, June 16, 2007 Break Free: A lifetime in Rewind Twenty-Nine. Have I really been in this world that long? Twenty-Nine years on this earth and I really have nothing to show for it. NOTHING. No steady income, no stable home, a vehicle that im struggling to pay for. What the hell am I doing....? I know in my heart what I want, if only I could make my mind follow suit and motivate me to achieve my dreams and goals. I dont want just some job such as a fast food worker, grocery store... nothing against the people that have those jobs, its just that I want more and better for myself and future family. As far as my mind goes, I think it got trapped back in my life when I was 16 and 17. I had a major breakdown back then, lost touch with reality and everything for a long time. When I finally returned to my senses, my mind doesnt want to believe that its been this long. It wants to return to those days, when things were fun, and easy to come by, and a job was

Happy Fathers Day Daddy- I Love You!!
YOU KNOW AS A LIL GIRL I ALWAYS WONDERED WHY MY DADDY WAS SO TALL, AND WHY HE STAYED GONE ALL THE TIME, BUT HE CAME HOME AFTER WORKING HIS ASS OFF FOR US AND WE ALL WOULD GIVE HIM A HARD WAY TO GO- AS I GOT OLDER- I ALWAYS TOLD MYSELF I WANTED TO MARRY A MAN LIKE MY DADDY- BUT I DIDNT- I STRAYED AWAY FROM MY FAMILY, WENT TO JAIL A FEW TIMES , GOT HOOKED ON DRUGS, AND OFF THEM TOO , STARTED DRINKING, THE STOPPED COLD TURKEY. IF MY DADDY COULD- SO COULD I. AND I DID. HE WAS MEAN OR SO I THOUGHT- HE WAS TEACHING US THAT THE LOVE OF A FAMILY IS FAR MORE GREATER THAN ANY LOVE ON EARTH. I DONT CARE HOW OTHER PEOPLE SEE ME OR TALK ABOUT ME- I KNOW MY DADDY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME. I AM A DADDY'S GIRL- AND THIS SONG DADDY IS TO YOU.

Motorcycle Riders
Just to let you know we care. For all who Know Motorcycle Riders I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. : I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. : I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. : I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our lea

Why Is It??
Okay, So it's friday and I am sitting her rating people and woman after woman and even a lot of men on here are half naked in their pics. WHY is THAT??? Are we all so desperate to be noticed that we throw our morals and our dignity out the window? What happened to leaving it to others imaginations? Or better yet saving yourself for view only of those who are truly deserving privately instead of flaunting your desperation over the internet where ANYONE can see it? On the plus side hey many of you are hot. But I wouldn't bring ya to meet my mama! Hands out blankets for those who need them and towels for those who look and were ummm naughty! xoxo

Angel Of Mercy
tonight i sat and prayed I prayed for you I asked the lord to guide me I asked him to care for you as friends we walk through life together sharing time now and then and life is made up of little moments I sit and watch the stars til then I often shed a tear of sadness and sometimes its all for you I feel the need to end this madness but who would be there watching you so please answer my prayer and keep the nights long and dont forget about me as time quickly moves on I saw an angel of mercy she spread her wings to shelter me she cleared my eyes in all her glory she healed my heart and set me free

Still Looking
Today is one of those days that i know i need this that i want this i look through the seas of faces looking for that one look you know that looking into their eyes and they quickly look down oh yes there it is hello there do you want to be my new slave i am taking applications i have always thought a true real life 24 7 bdsm relationship just was diffcult but i have come to realize that is what i need i have to have someone here for me to take care of pamper and then time for the amusment i want to look deep into those eyes see the look of pain suffering feeling the welts on the back as i smack it with my flooger nothing else is going to satisisfy it completly i need to do this i think about it fantasy about it wanting to just come home grabb the rope and just start wrapping it around the balls moving my way up to the base of the cock making a nice tight little nose then just wrapping the rope around the head of the cock tying it up tight like a pretty little present for me then just

Salutes?
I have a question, how do you personally feel about someone that fakes a salute and why are we becoming relaxed on this issue when it was CT that came up with the moving up a level if you or anyone has a verified salute. I have seen about maybe 5 down right fake salutes and anyone can make one in the manner some are doing it in but what person allows a fake salute on CT and why? Hmmmmm maybe there is something we don’t know or maybe the person doing the grading can’t figure out what is right and what is wrong with a salute. Any person that has worked in Photoshop, who knows anything about black n white photos can tell you that editing the content in the photo is extremely easy depending on the content and where it is located but then again there are some Morons who will remain unknowing…duh huh! I think and I know many will not like this but that a VIDEO SALUTE is the only way to go now. Come on just about everyone has access to a camera which can take a small video so why

Song
I wake up every morning The sun rising on my bed First thing that comes to my mind are thoughts about you I don't know what I do Or where I'd even be If I never met you 'Cause your the light in my eyes Your my day and my night Oh baby everything I do I do it for you 'Cause your the light in my eyes There's no where I'd rather be then with you No one I'd rather see then you Nothing I'd rather do Then turn back these hands of time to be with you Always with you 'Cause your the light in my eyes Yes your my day and my night Oh baby everything I do I do it for you 'Cause your the light in my eye 'Cause everywhere I go (I see you) Everywhere I turn (I see you) Everything I see looks like you to me 'Cause your the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen Which makes you the light in my eyes Which makes you my day and my night Which makes everything I do for you 'Cause your the light in my eyes Yes your my

Song
DON'T READ UNLESS YOU WANT TO CRY!!!!!! The sun is no longer shining over this bed of beauty The night sky has no meaning to the non-dreamer Daylight is filled by night And death is the only thing on your mind 'Cause the death of a loved one is the hardest thing to get through You don't know how much you love them until there time is through Just remember that they will always be by your side And don't cry for them they don't want you to This bed of beauty is showing no beauty anymore All it wants to do is decieve itself more It just wants to wake up from this dreaded dream it's having And hates the sick joke that god decided to pull 'Cause the death of a loved one is the hardest thing to get through You don't know how much you love them until there time is through Just remember that they will always be by your side And don't cry for them they don't want you to So let the beauty rise up with the shining sun Let the

Bed Of Roses
Bed of Roses The way you move me Is the way you save thee By simple laws of love Sent from high above The simple things in life are free The joy of sudden bliss surrounds me The days and nights that I wouldn't miss The subtle joys sealed only with a kiss Come here and lay your heart down Let me kiss you without making a sound Gentle strokes and passionate breathing Heated friction, pleasure juices escaping Cuddled softly in warmth we created Nothing to say, our love generated The love, the trust, the relationship that poses Our inner bed, the bed of roses

True Friends
how do you know if you can trust a person that saya that they are a true friend and tell everybody that they ae part of your family they tell ou one thing and tell other friends that you are doing things that you wouldnt even have access to do the things they said you did and lie to you about things that they are doing and expect you to beleive them,and get pissed off when ou ask about it so do you believe them or do you believe them or do you disolve the friendship.

Some Men Suck!
Ok, to start this off,I met a guy online. We got married after a point of time passed. We were married for 5 years and divorced in 2004. It ended due to the fact that he couldnt keep his pants zipped around other females! Not to mention he started the affair when I was fighting for my life in ICU. Then, I met a guy off the internet and went to FL to see him, stayed a week. Upon returning home to TX, I find out he has had a girlfriend the whole 6 months that we had been talking on the phone, also as the week I spent there in FL with him. He and I are now friends (strickly friends!) Finally, this last one.....we were together a year and a half. We met online same as the last 2. We fell in love. We became engaged online (as well as offline without having met). In October (nearly one year since meeting online) I moved to AZ to be with him. He refused to talk to me on the phone, or meet me. Claiming he wasnt ready. Then I start having depression and anxiety attacks, due to being in AZ

How Can Anyone Do This To Their Baby :(
MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mo

City Tourny
Hey, In a big pool Tournament for another spot in Vegas. Really kicked ass so far played my best set last match, In the semi-finals play at 10:00 in the morning. Ready to get tore up and pass out lol holler at me if you want to party with me for a lil while xoxoxoxo BhamBuggy

Father's Day..
i won't call home today...i won't hear my Daddy's voice...i won't tell him i love him, i won't go take him to breakfast...what i will do is reach into my heart, and pull the memories of him out..there are no words..a Daddy lost...its only been 6 weeks, feels like eternity..hurts like it was yesterday...

It's Kind Of Funny...
Here I am, almost 32 years old. I lack direction in my life. I have no college degree. I love writing and making movies, but neither is likely to become a practical means of earning a living. I've worked countless trade jobs - construction, home renovation, low voltage installations, etc. None have ever really satiated my desire to move forward in life. I want to be on the cutting edge. I want to be one of those people that contributes to the future of humans. Because of this, I want to go back to school. I want to learn more. I want to be able to back up my claims of technical excellence. Over the years, I've been fascinated with the work of Nikola Tesla, the very man that gave us the hydroelectric plant at Niagara Falls, AC power, high voltage transformers, and fluorescent lighting. He was an inventor a hundred years ahead of his time. I've often felt that my new concepts have been a hundred years ahead of my time as well - even with many of my designs based on Tesla's

So... I Am In A Contest..
I said I would never be in a contest. Lesson 1: Never say never… GUESS WHO IS IN A CONTEST…?!@#$&% (click here to vote & comment) The “MOST UNFORGETTABLE EYES” Contest… VOTE & COMMENT IF YOU HAVE THE TIME. I DON’T EXPECT TO WIN, BUT I REALLY DON’T WANT TO COME IN LAST PLACE… THAT WOULD JUST SUCK A LITTLE. Comments and ratings are counted. (Comment bombing encouraged) This contest lasts for 1 week. If you do… thank you and if you don’t that’s fine too. I will still keep you on my friends list. ;) Click here to repost my bulletin. Thank You MUAH!!! xoxo

What Are The Four Birds Of The World?
What is the bird of peace??? THE DOVE!! What is the bird of knowledge? THE OWL!! What is the bird of war? THE HAWK!! What is the bird of birth control? THE SWALLOW!! I know.. this one was bad. LOL

Just Have Alot On My Mind...
Many of you may know i am married..Sadly to say.. My marriage is bad right now i am having so much trouble.. I dont really want to go iton detail but it is so bad i am thinking about leaving him.. I am joining the army soon and i just wish things would get better... Doubt they will but if you wanna help me figure things out let me know give me a shout and if you wanna know more shout then to... Ty for anyones advice..

Fathers Day
Just wanted to take a minute to show appreciation to ALL fathers. Ny dad is no longer with me and I miss him dearly. Fathers do not get much credit thoes days so here is to you guys, you are special. Much Love. Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o m

Details Details Details...
Well, I never knew that I would be going to trainings back to back. The last one I went to was quite overwhelming for me. Masters training and Facilitator's training. When I saw the message on my cell it was enough to send shivers down my spine. Yes..it was my first time. I'm used to it though. My boss has this tendency to send me for pilot trainings. OK FINE...challenge is a good thing yea? So off I went leaving my beloved Internet behind for 6 whole days. Of all things I asked to do was MUSIC..When I saw the console I almost lost my mind. My head was saying swear stuff that wasn't available in the english language, all due to the fear of fucking up. So I was there. Obviously stressed outta my mind wanting everything to be perfect. Was it? No way. Hence I had a lil fuck up everyday. If it wasn't for the cable it was because of the play button. Something was always wrong. But from all the little fuck ups I learnt the most valuable lesson.