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Whole Again
Sheer desperation moves her to speak knowing her words will just bring defeat High emotions emerge from their burial place and draw on the tears streaming down her face If only for a moment her heart gets some relief and she's finally able to acknowledge her belief She will once again become a woman in whole instead of shattered peices, scattered on the floor.

Dear God
Given to my by my friend HollieHottie. Dear God: Why didn't you save the school children at ? Virginia Tech Amish Country, PA Columbine High School Moses Lake, Washington 2/2/96 Bethel, Alaska 2/19/97! Pearl, Mississippi 10/1/97 West Paducah, Kentucky 12/1/97 Stamps, Arkansas 12/15/97 Jonesboro, Arkansas 3/24/98 Edinboro, Pennsylvania 4/24/98 Fayetteville, Tennessee 5/19/98 Springfield, Oregon 5/21/98 Richmond, Virginia 6/15/98 Littleton, Colorado 4/20/99 Taber, Alberta, Canada 5/28/99 Conyers, Georgia 5/20/99 Deming, New Mexico 11/19/99 Fort Gibson, Oklahoma 12/6/99 Santee, California 3/ 5/01 and El Cajon, California 3/22/01? Sincerely, Concerned Student ----------------------------------------------------- Reply: Dear Concerned Student: I am not allowed in schools. Sincerely, God ---------------------------------------------------------- How did this get started?... -----------------

Real Newspaper Ads
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Another "9/11" Death
Officials: Toxic 9/11 Dust Killed Woman NEW YORK - Felicia Dunn-Jones died of lung disease five months after Sept. 11, and last year her family asked that the city's medical examiner add her name to the death toll. New York City Chief Medical Examiner Charles Hirsch refused, writing back that his office could not link her death to the exposure "with certainty beyond a reasonable doubt." That changed Wednesday, when Dunn-Jones was added to the medical examiner's list of attack victims. It marked the first time the city has officially linked a death to the toxic dust caused by the World Trade Center's collapse. The 42-year-old attorney was caught in the dust cloud while fleeing the collapsing towers on Sept. 11, 2001. She died of sarcoidosis, a disease that causes inflammation and scarring in the lungs, on Feb. 10, 2002. In explaining the reversal, Hirsch cited "accumulated scientific research" that concluded exposure to trade center dust can cause or contribute t

Blog Readers
to all my blog readers. when you read my blogs or any one elces blog please at least rate it even if you dont leave a comment. its polite to do so.meny of us spend alot of time writeing them for your pleasure.please show your suport. thanks.. zz..

Deep Desires
In the heat of the night I wake up with a fright I turn to look beside me you are right where you are supposed to be I wake you with a kiss and my desire that just persists you pull me close to you and I feel your love so true Filled with so much desire of this I will never tire I am wrapped in your warm embrace as you slowly take me to another place Our bodies become entwined slowly we start to grind at a nice and steady pace as we feel our hearts start to race We are having so much fun as two slowly become one I feel like I am on fire and you just keep taking me higher I want you like no other you will always be my lover as you gently enter me I set my emotions free I feel you so hard and deep glad I woke you from your sleep faster and more intense as we go I love you so much, just want you to know As we are ready to explode all our emotions were showed we cuddle into each other arms I love how you work those charms We slowly drift off

What Type Of Dragon Are You
You scored as Silver, Silver Dragons are regal and statuesque. They cheerfully assist good creatures that are in genuine need. Silver Dragons prefer aerial lairs on secluded mountain peaks, or even the clouds themselves. Silver Dragons are not violent and avoid combat except when faced with highly evil or agressive foes.Silver95% Copper65% Gold65% Bronze60% Red55% Brass55% Blue45% Green40% White30% Black10% What Type of Dragon are You?(Pics)created wit

Breathe
Air flows in and exhales out, simple does it seem but my breathe has been taken away from me From the moment I saw you and my heart did beat from the moment I held you, still so bitterweet To breathe is an instinct, yet I find it hard to do my legs begin to fail and my eyes start to blurr I know I have to tell myself I will breathe again the moment, the instant, that love begins again.

Losing Myself
Come take a look through the walls of mind, Don't be afraid of the thoughts you will find. Childhood fears and grown up tears have made me what I am Browse the unknown and take a deep look Inside of myself, I am surely an open book Subtle and charming, no need for alarming, this is what I am Losing myself in distant breaths of love Chasing the sun and stars above Fantasy and dreaming, my soul lies screaming, this is who I have become.

Can I Do You?
Oh, I apologize you dont understand....I mean can I do you mentally? Can I massage your mind? Make love to your mental, as I sex your intellect and wreck your cranium with crescent waves of cerebral orgasms ad brain spasms? See I want you spiritually and mentally! No need to rush for the bed! I want to undress your mind and come inside your head, connect with you on the deepest levels of your intellect. The mind is the most powerful, hypotonic, intoxicating and narcotic force in the universe. So we can converse while exercising the mind: expanding and challenging its thought capacity. Its like the greatest and most natural aphrodisiac of all time. Foreplay of the mind...... the intellectual and sexual gratification that follows lasts longer than anything that can be initially done with the body... We can forever bask in the afterglow of this spiritual and mental consummation and we dont even have to take our clothes off! Now that you understand......CAN I DO YOU?? Can I stimu

Nsfw - My Rant
OMG! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!. IN ONE OF MY FRIENDS ONLY VIEWABLE ALBUMS SOMEONE REPORTED A PIC AS NSFW TO CT. I SENT A MESSAGE VIA EMAIL BACK TO CT LETTING THEM KNOW THAT WAS A PIC THAT WAS IN A FRIENDS ONLY VIEWABLE ALBUM AND IT WASN'T IN A PUBLIC ALBUM. I DON'T FEEL I SHOULD BE GETING A NOTICE LIKE THAT FROM CT WHEN IT ISN'T A PUBLIC ALBUM THAT THE PHOTO IS IN. I POSTED A BULLETIN ABOUT THE ISSUE. THIS IS HOW I FEEL: IF YOU ARE ON MY FRIENDS LIST AND YOU ARE VIEWING AN ALBUM THAT IS FRIENDS ONLY DON'T BE REPORTING PICS TO CT! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE 'EM THEN DON'T LOOK AT 'EM. THERE ARE MANY PICS THAT ARE IN MY FRIENDS ONLY VIEWABLE ALBUMS THAT ARE NSFW! THAT IS WHY THEY ARE THERE! IF YOU ARE ON MY FRIENDS LIST AND VIEWING THOSE ALBUMS THEN DON'T BE REPORTING 'EM. IF YOU ARE GOING TO BE SUCH A PRUDISH HATER THEN TAKE YOURSELF OFF MY FRIENDS LIST. I DON'T NEED TO DEAL WITH YOU. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! THAT IS ALL!

Two Hearts Apart
Two Hearts Apart By fate we met, by chance we stayed, Two hearts conjoined in every way, One lonely dark soul shared by two, Everything I want I've found in you. But fate at times is quite unfair, For I am here and you are there, So close to each other and yet apart, But you alone hold the key to my heart. The empty void that once was is now filled by you, The darkness inside, has stopped hurting too, You’ve made my life worth living, our souls intertwined, You’re every breath I take; you’re always on my mind. Like two wolves in the mist passions burning like flames, My heart skips a beat when someone whispers your name, Forever I need you, forever I'll wait, Born for each other, my one true soul mate. Though people may hate us for what we do feel, I can’t change my feelings for they are so real Something brought us together to each others hearts, And every second without you is like an eternity apart. You can feel all my feelings, y

Who Monitors These Ppl?
->æ_SHADYJ_æ: thank you for writing in public forum that you intend to mark all my pics....i will be moving up the chain at this point ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: theres no face must be a pervert shot ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: hmm, i even see one for you right now æ_SHADYJ_æ: thats fine i will mark them all lol ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: my body isn't showing either....its a pic of my shirt and neck ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: fine.....i'm going on a marking spree cuz there are millions of pics with shots and no one marks them.....i'm fully clothed....this is rediculas æ_SHADYJ_æ: if it shows their body and doesnt have their face in the pic then yes its NSFW ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: so your telling me all pics that do not show a persons face are NSFW? æ_SHADYJ_æ: the rule for body shots is no face=NSFW clothes or not sorry ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: what does that have to do with not being safe for work? æ_SHADYJ_æ: ur face isnt in the pic i cant unmark it ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: if thats an NSFWpic then so are both of my last 2 salutes cuz i am wea

I Wrote This... Let Me Know What You Think.
There was a time not long ago when i thought the stars could get any brighter nor the grass any greener. Today i look apon the same things and yearn for the brightness that once was. i yearn for the magical touch of you hand that makes my life complete.The soft feathering touch of your lips on mine. You brought the color back into my life and for that i have no regrets. i wish you love and happieness in all you do.Remember as life takes us on our paths that i will always love you.

Memories*
As times ruin each day of my life Every single moments keeps alive In every leaves that fall unto thy tree I keep counting the days back to thee Seasons comes and go as the years went on Shadows of your Love in the airs divine Your warm kisses keep my lips wet Your hug and cares keep my body sweat The dawn is now appearing As my tired memories endearing My youthfullness fall as a dry leaf But still my Love for you is safe I will close my eyes with sweet smile Cause I know we will meet at the rainbows tail...

Torn
Could life just become simple.. Everyting just fall into place? Well obviously not mine. Its more confusing now then it has been in awhile. First off I need to find a better job.. I love the job that I have, but I need more money.. But doesnt everyone? My love life is one big mess. I have some of the greatest men in the world in my life but its not fair to them that I am dating them all and not giving just one my undivided attention. Man #1 has had my attention for a while now. He is a sweetheart but his life is a little crazy for me, and I'm not sure I would fit in it. He is a bit of a wild child, and I dont think he is ready to give that up.He says he really cares about me, and that if he had a reason to settle down he would. I know he really wants a family and to be the provider, and take care of everyoe, but he cant accept that he might need to be taken care of too, and needs to let someone in in order to have the family. Man #2 Is actually a former ex and he wants us to be a coupl

You Hold
Your lips speak soft sweetness, Your touch a cool caress, I am lost in your magic, My heart beats within your chest, I think of you each morning, And dream of you each night, I think of your arms being around me, And cannot express my delight, Never have I fallen, But I am quickly on my way, You hold a heart in your hands, That has never before been given away.

Oh My...
I had this guy on my friend list who i thought was Wiccan and had just uploaded some pics so I was happily going through his pics rating them tens... that is until... I came across a picture of him wearing a Nazi symbol. I asked him why he was wearing it and he said same reason he has it tattooed on him, and that is his beliefs. Yet another person who claims to be wiccan but actually isn't. Now, as a Gnostic I accept all beliefs but this one is way too far fetched for me. I usually embrace peoples beliefs and let them get on with whatever they want and still be friends with them, but this one is beyond me. The belief that everyone without blonde hair and blue eyes, and whom is not of "perfect blood" should be murdered in the most brutal way and their bodies to be experimented on is not the kind of thing that I deem acceptable. Strangely, this mans young daughter looked as if she was going brunette to me. So please, if you are on my list and are a Nazi or agree with what the

Mod Of The Day
PLEASE CHECK OUT JOANNE...SHES BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT AND SHES TOADY'S "MOD OF THE DAY" JUST LET ME KNOW IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SHARE THE SPOTLIGHT. ALWAYS TAKING REQUESTS AND PLEASE BE PATIENT AS IM FLOODED WITH REQUESTS :) HAVE A WONDERFUL FRIDAY!!!

Has Rosie O'donnel Gone Over The Edge Calling U.s Troops Terrorist?
Date: May 22, 2007 4:00 PM Subject Rosie O'Donnell calls US Troops Terrorist on National TV! ROSIE O'DONNELL (ACTRESS, AND SHOW HOST), MADE A STATEMENT ON "THE VIEW", A NATIONAL TV SHOW, A FEW DAYS AGO DISRESPECTING OUR MEN AND WOMEN WHO ARE FIGHTING IN IRAQ! Cut and Paste this link into your browser http://video.msn.com/v/us/msnbc.htm?g=8555e0a1-511e-43aa-a950-4b42219ba941&f=00&fg=copy IF YOU ARE AS SHOCKED AND DISGUSTED AS I AM BY THIS IGNORANCE AND DISRESPECT, PLEASE GO TO THIS LINK ON ABC'S WEBSITE: To lodge a complaint to ABC about the show and Rosie's irresponsibility http://abc.go.com/site/contactus.html OUR CHILDREN, BOYFRIENDS, FIANCES, HUSBANDS, Cousins, aunts, uncles, sisters,brothers..ETC & ALL OF OUR TROOPS WERE DISRESPECTED AND I FEEL AS THOUGH IT IS PART OF OUR JOB TO MAKE SURE THIS DOES NOT HAPPEN AGAIN! PLEASE HELP GET THE WORD OUT THERE!!

Ughh Lol
Who wants to call in dead , um I mean sick for me today? lol oh dang , I can't call in, ugh!!!!! lol. But, I so do NOT want to go anywhere today! The good thing, for me at least, is I'll have a week off coming up, yay yay! lol. Well, that's all for now, coffee anyone? :D

Pleasures
I can almost imagine the taste and the scent magically embrassing in a moment well spent so tempting and sweet I know I should hide but I've longed for you and I know it's time to give in to the pleasure now that I'm alone licking you so gently you sweet little ice cream cone.

Friends
Around the corner I have a friend, In this great city that has no end, Yet the days go by and weeks rush on, And before I know it, a year is gone. And I never see my old friends face, For life is a swift and terrible race, He knows I like him just as well, As in the days when I rang his bell. And he rang mine but we were younger then, And now we are busy, tired men. Tired of playing a foolish game, Tired of trying to make a name. "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim Just to show that I'm thinking of him." But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes, And distance between us grows and grows. Around the corner, yet miles away, "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today." And that's what we get and deserve in the end. Around the corner, a vanished friend. Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time it mig

Best Teasing Pic Contest!!!
So you think ur the best TEASE on CT?!! Prove it!!! Calling all teasers!! Submit ur best TEASING PIC which obviously has to be SFW as its a teasing pic...not a nude ;) Take a look below at some example of teasing pics if your not sure what to submit... It must be SFW!! And of course I havent forgotten our guys... Lemme knoe if any of you guys are interested and I'll hold a seperate one for the males!!! The contest will be based on number of rates and comments combined. 1 rate will be worth 10 points 1 comment will be worth 1 point the PRIZES: 1st place will receive a 7 day blast and a Big Pimping gift. 2nd place will receive a 3 day blast and a Big Pimping gift. 3rd place will receive a 1 day blast and a Big Pim

Being A Vet
I watched the latest episode of Gene Simmons Family Jewels this past Sunday when Gene took his daughter to Camp Pendleton Marine Base so she could gather information for a school report she was doing. They went through a mini boot-camp and visted the Long Beach VA and spoke with some veterans there. As a veteran of the US Army, this episode was touching in that how visibly Gene was moved by speaking to vets, telling them that they mattered and thanking them for thier scarifices in keeping our country free. I have to admit that there were times that my eyes were filled with tears. He just wasn't thanking the vets he met personally, he was thanking us all. After the episode was over, I looked at my wife and asked did I make a difference when I served. Did I do all that I could to protect our freedoms? Did I change anyone's life by the scarifices that I made? In the entire 11 years that I was in the service, only one person ever thanked me for defending his freedoms. Of course t

Black Panties
Anna had lost her husband almost four years ago. Her daughter was constantly calling her and urging her to get back into the world. Finally, Anna said she'd go out, but didn't know anyone. Her daughter immediately replied, "Mom! I have someone for you to meet." Well, it was an immediate hit. They took to one another and after dating for six weeks, he asked her to join him for a weekend in Vermont. Their first night there, she undressed as he did. There she stood nude, except for a pair of black, lacy panties; he was in his birthday suit. Looking her over, he asked, "Why the black panties?" She replied: "My breasts you can fondle, my body is yours to explore, but down there I am still mourning." He knew he was not getting lucky that night. The following night was the same -- she stood there wearing the black panties, and he was in his birthday suit -- but now he was wearing a black condom. She looked at him and asked: "What's with the black condom?" He replie

None
You know, there must be something wrong with me. I actually come on here and tell the truth about myself. You start chatting with different people. People say they want to be your friends. Silly me, I take people for what they say. What am I thinking? I either need to toughen up and realize that everything on here is a lie, find somewhere else to go, or just lie like everyone else. Kinda sad.

Marvin Lewis Is Living In Denial
On the Dan Patrick Show yesterday, Marvin Lewis indicated that profiling might be at work in regards to the high number of arrests of his Cincinnati Bengals. Considering the fact that most of the players arrested have been black (with apologies for excluding Eric Steinbach), considering the history of the Cincinnati Police Department, and considering the strong association of the word "profiling" with race, this led many logical people to believe that Lewis was referring to his players being profiled by Cincinnati cops because they are black men. Given the riots that took place as recently as 2001 between Cincy police and the black community, this is one of those accusations that is not to be taken lightly. Especially coming from someone in a high-profile position. And even moreseo when that person is black man. Well, today Lewis is clarifying that he was not talking about racial profiling: "Yesterday, I gave a radio interview and made some comments that did not illustrate the h

Values
Your Values Profile Loyalty: You value loyalty highly. You're completely devoted to your friends and family. Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them. Just make sure they're equally loyal to you! Honesty: You value honesty highly. You're unflinchingly honest, even when it's not easy. For you, integrity is very important - in yourself and others. People may not always like what you say, but they know they can trust it. Generosity: You value generosity highly. So much so that you often put your own needs last. There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart... But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy. Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very differ

The Smith's
The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife goodbye and said, "Well, I'm off now. The man should be here soon." Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer happened to ring the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. "Good morning, Ma'am", he said, "I've come to..." "Oh, no need to explain," Mrs. Smith cut in, embarrassed, "I've been expecting you." "Have you really?" said the photographer. "Well, that's good. Did you know babies are my specialty?" "Well that's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat". After a moment she asked, blushing, "Well, where do we start?" "Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch, and perhaps a couple on the bed. And sometimes the living room floor is fun. You can really spread out there." "Bathtub, living room floor? No wonder it didn't

Please Comment And Rate My Pic!
Most of you know I don't believe in contests, let alone join them, but a good friend suckered me into this one (so to speak) and just because he's so great I caved and said i'd do it! If ya'll would stop by and at least rate my photo and leave a comment or two. I'd appreciate it tons! Thanks bunches, Jackie AKA Irish Sweetheart Crazy, what we'll do for our friends. LOL! BTW have a fantastic Memorial day weekend.

Bdsmd/s And The Law
RUMPOULE, Attorney-at-Law, is a practicing attorney for over two decades, and a frequent lecturer on legal issues in the Scene. BDSMD/s and the Law copyright © 1998 RUMPOULE "These materials were first printed at Gloria-Brame.com and are reprinted with her permission and blessing." A Little About Me I have been a criminal defense lawyer for over twenty years. I've also been in the leather lifestyle for nearly twenty-five years. I am submissive to women as a preferred form of sexuality and lifestyle. I decided I wanted to give something back to people who, like me, have a different kind sexuality or lifestyle by learning about how the law affects us. I want to collect and pass that information on to the community's members by giving lectures and acting as a resource. Introduction As you read this, you may find it to be a little frightening. Please remember that, in a legal sense just as in health considerations, there is no such thing as "safe sex." There is however,

Pass The.... Butter????
Pass The Butter ~ ~ ~ ~ This is interesting . . . Margarine was originally manufactured to fatten turkeys. When it killed the turkeys, the people who had put all the money into the research wanted a payback so they put their heads together to figure out what to do with this product to get their money back. It was a white substance with no food appeal so they added the yellow coloring and sold it to people to use in place of butter. How do you like it? They have come out with some clever new flavorings. DO YOU KNOW...the difference between margarine and butter? Read on to the end...gets very interesting! Both have the same amount of calories. Butter is slightly higher in saturated fats at 8 grams compared to 5 grams. Eating margarine can increase heart disease in women by 53% over eating the same amount of butter, according to a recent Harvard Medical Study. Eating butter increases the absorption of many other nutrients in other foods.Butter has many nutritiona

Aftercare
White Light, Black Leather An SM Spirituality Primer Aftercare "She took me to the edge of heaven, and then dropped me" "It would have all been alright if he had been nice to me afterwards" submissive reminisces on a two bad scenes. "Oh, crap. I've got a meeting in 30 minutes. Bye." Grand Prize for Worst Aftercare ever Aftercare is the last act of the SM drama. It is the culmination, the pulling together of all loose ends, the finishing touches, the final communion between sharers of the SM ritual, the phase where the participants (usually the tops) formally give the fantasy scene a context in everyday reality. It's technical purpose is to transition both players from the elevated states created in a scene back into normalcy, returning to the motor control and awareness they will need to drive home once the scene is over. But as any good SM practitioner will tell you, it's much more than that. It is the time after the action when the participants come together in mutual

Poem:that Brings Back My Love
As the thunder rolled I heard, a voice as it called out my name. The wind howls and moans as though, its trying to say something to my soul. I look up as the mist begins to fall, and the thunder rolls as it calls my name. I must be going crazy! but I listen to, the voice says, I love you with all my heart. There I stood as the raindrops fell on my, face is when I begin to see a image of a woman. Holding onto the memory of a man, that's in her heart and soul still. The woman I could see is, tightly holding the bond that ties, their love to each other's heart. God! I see her crying and still she looks on, for the man that once held her close to him. SEE HOW THIS IS ALL RELATED: The rain;is her tear's that fall on me!. The wind;is her strong love that I feel!. The thunder;is her calling out my name that can be heard for miles!. Darlin'its your memory that brings back my love. Sign: Raymond Starns

I Wanna Play... The Dark Side Of Me
I want to play in your flesh.... crawl , squirm and tear.. Can you see me....sitting there covered in you, red all around us.. A sadistic smile rolls over my face as I tinker about your body, You ... you're so still, so quiet as I take from you another piece. You say nothing ..so calm you stay... I think to myself....maybe I should loosen the knot..but choose to tighten it instead... Your body clenches just slightly. I see the purple start to form from where the ropes have gripped so tight that it cuts off blood flow, after all I want this to last.......I laugh crudely saying to you aloud ...."can't let you bleed out yet"..While on your knees,I put the spike from my high heel on your nipple slowly increasing pressure, I hear a low grunt....I giggle..and say, "Naughty Boy.. I told you no noise," now yelling, "How do you expect me to concentrate, when you make so much racket?" I look down at him expecting an answer...."I'm waiting," I say with a sarcastic undertone, "Oh....you can't spe

Hello Dear Cherries...
I wanted to put this out there just in case you were wondering. I suffer from Depression big time. I eats away at me almost on a daily basis. Some days, the grip is so strong that I cry at the simples of things. Writing and poetry, especially poetry, soothes my ravaged mind and I can function again. Therefore, look upon this as a warning, my poems are dark and sorrowful, but when it's been raining for several days, you'll take anything you can get...

Some Of The Dunb Ass Shit
some of the dumb ass shit baby jesus comes up with in his bullentin and every one run over there to leave comments are you crazy he is the reason Cherry Tap is fucked up all the time If it's not broke not fuck with it and none of the changes have been for the better think before u jump

Just For The Holiday Weekend!
I've had several requests to open my NSFW/Private file for viewing, so I've decided to open it for the weekend. It will be open until Monday evening! These are pics of my piercings, lol! So, if you are the least bit squeamish about such things - don't look!! Addendum: This is for friends/family only, not the whole bloody world, lol! Just to clarify!!

My Quickie
one night i was just laying in bed wit nothing to do n very horny my phone rang and it was you. i told u i am in need. u ask to come over. bout a hour later u showed up. wasting no time we both naked. damn ya body is so damn sexy. pussy getting even wetter. u lay on the bed n wit those sexy eyes u do not have to say it. so i crawl between your legs. as i do licking up your thigh. getting closer to your balls starting to licking n suck on them. then licking up your dick, taking the head in my mouth. given it lil kisses n some tongue play. now taking the lenght of u down my throat. mmmmmmm baby i miss doing this. got ya dick nice n wet now its time for me to really get down on u. u hold my head n thrust up in my mouth making me take all of u in mouth. u steady fuck my mouth coming out half way then back down my throat. feeling the head get bigger i know u about to cum u start to fuck my mouth faster n i am in beat with u. as u are cumming on my face i start to play in my

Spells
In response to a recent interesting blog: Do you believe in Spells; I don't think that it should seem so far fetched for people to believe in Spells. Merriam Webster Defines a Spell as this: a spoken word or form of words held to have magic power Many cultures speak of the power of "The Spoken Word"; It's been proven that plants respond positively when someone "talks" to them. A "prayer" is also "spoken" either audibly or to one's self. Scientist Dr. Masaru Emoto is conducting experiments that in my opinion proves that words and intentions have an affect. He takes water in a controlled experiment and places it into many containers. He blesses them with intention, writing the intention on a piece of paper to label each sample. Upon examination, it shows that each water sample's molecular structure actually changed through the thoughts and intentions...http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm My question is, if the human body is made up of 90% wate

Why Is It
why is it that i always attract pervs and horndogs,i came on ct to find friends and some of you are good and true friends but some are direspectfull and doesnt know how to treat women..i came on ct to also try to boost my selfesteam and some of you helped me do that you people are awsome..i wish that you guys could read how you realy sound when you say the things you do to woman,i realy tought that i was ugly because of two men that was in my life and realy left me total distroyed and i want to thank the ones that has always been here since i started ct you all are awsome,love susan

Darkness
A man sits in a dark room the only hint of light is a small crack Could it be a door to his freedom Even if he could walk into the light, would he He can touch it, and feel it's warmth And he wants much more then darkness but there he stays In the darkness Forever he stays Lonely

From The Mouths Of Babes
from the mouths of Babes 1) NUDITY I was driving with my three young children one warm summer evening when a woman in the convertible ahead of us stood up and waved. She was stark naked! As I was reeling from the shock, I heard my 5-year-old shout from the back seat, "Mom! That lady isn't wearing a seat belt!" 2) OPINIONS On the first day of school, a first-grader handed his teacher a note from his mother. The note read, "The opinions expressed by this child are not necessarily those of his parents." 3) KETCHUP A woman was trying hard to get the ketchup out of the jar. During her struggle the phone rang so she asked her 4-year-old daughter to answer the phone. "Mommy can't come to the phone to talk to you right now. She's hitting the bottle." 4) MORE NUDITY A little boy got lost at the YMCA and found himself in the women's locker room. When he was spotted, the room burst into shrieks, with ladies grabbing towels and run

To One That Might Wonder....
I'll be goin on the road trip from Saturday - Monday visting my sis n lodemai :). So c u all when I come back... If you wonder where am I!!! I think I'm goin 2 log off since I'm going that long... I usually never log off. Hope you all have a nice weekend!

My Old Friend
Hello misery my old friend. Why do you follow me everywhere I go? What did I ever do to deserve you? If you were really my friend you'd want me to be happy, but not you. Your like the house guest from hell who just wont leave. Just when I think I can be happy, you kick me right in the balls and laugh in my face. That's not very funny you little prick. I'm never alone, but I'm alone all the time. And I blame you for that. That's right misery, I'm talking to you. Because of you, I will probably never be able to let anyone get close. I'm sick of you, yet you've been with me since I can remember. I don't want you in life anymore,but if you leave what will take your place? It's the old devil you know thing, that you've got working for you. So I will continue to live my life never really knowing what it's like to love someone and let someone love me. And i gotta tell ya that really fucking sucks. Misery loves company huh? Well I'd rather be alone than keep company w

My Mr. Wonderful
I THOUGHT I WAS IN FOR THE VACA OF MY LIFE. YET AGAIN....MY (SO CALLED) MR. WONDERFUL, LET ME DOWN. :( WHY CAN'T I FIND THE RIGHT ONE? WHY DOES EVERY MAN I FALL IN LOVE WITH LET ME DOWN? THIS JUST AINT RIGHT! ANY ADVISE? SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WILLING TO LISTEN. I AM SUCH A GOOD PERSON. I REALLY DON'T DESERVE THIS! IS THERE NOT JUST 1 REAL MAN OUT THERE? FOR ME?

I Want To Speak Of Warriors
“I Want to Speak of Warriors” By Paul Mays I want to speak of warriors. A long time ago I stepped from a plane onto a strange new land along with several dozen others. As we stepped down the ramp we all had a fear that ripped at our guts and just as we tried to figure out where we were to go and what we were to do , along came a truck filled with body bags to fill the plane for its return flight. I saw in the eyes, of those that had been sitting with me and speaking of how now that this one or that one was now in country the enemy would just turn and run, a panic that caused them all to go dead quite. War is not pretty. War is not a great thing that young men strive for. War is ugly, dirty, smelly, and causes the soul to numb. But War is a price a nation, and the children of that nation, sometimes must pay. When others make efforts to destroy all that make life, liberty and freedom possible then a people must stand and loose the dogs of war. Today we are at w

Bored...
Well..ya being bored..so I hit the "I am bored button" and off I go..you have to rate in order to move on (ya know the routine) soooooo...I rate...I don't give any less than a 10...even if it doesn't appeal to me I figure that the person took the time to load it right...right..just how I am. Well it doesn't mean they have to come back or feel obligated to rate me fan me or be a friend..trust me I am not here for the rates..hell I am THEE worst at sending comments! I have a few that I will stalk *giggle* but the ones I have made friends with..I adore..the ones that do take their time to send me a quick hello...thanx to you..and the point of this rambling..well..hell if there is one and ya find it let me know will ya cause I lost track...Have a great whatever...not even sure if anyone reads this shit anyway...but thats ok...somedays talking to myself is the most intelligent conversation I have all day..:D **hugs**

Wtf
Here I sit on a Friday night when I was supposed to be partying. It is such a depressing thought knowing that we only have so many Fridays in our life, and to think I missed the boat on this one. Oh well, there is always Saturday night.

Sigh..sigh..
Pain is when you cant breath even if your chest still rises and falls… Sadness is when you look out the window and thinks that rains are your tears.. Loneliness is when you still feel a hand touching you, even if there is none.. Desperation is when you wait for a message that will never come ……. And love is when you experience all these things and still open your heart to that someone..

I Want Ur T Houghts On These Song Tittles
I GOT A COUPLE OF SONG TITTLES FOR A SONG IM GOING TO BE DOING I JUST WANT UR TOUGHTS ON IT 1)ANUTHA SUMMER IN THE 805 2)ANUTHA SUMMER IN HUENEME 3)AUNTHA SUMMER IN VENTURA COUNTY LEAVE COMMENTS PLEASE

Do You Ever Really Accept The Past For What It Was?
Yesterday afternoon while driving through my little town where you are bound to run into people you know, I ran into someone that I have a not so good past with. When I was 11 years old my sister and i had a mutual friend whos house we both went to. I knew her family very well, it was her mom, grandmother, and uncle living in the house. I had been over there many times. They lived on a canal and had a little pier. Anyway every detail is irrelevant. We were over there on a Saturday afternoon and her uncle was home which was very rare. He asked me if I wanted to go fishing (God I was such a tomboy.) Of course I did I love to fish even now. No one else wanted to go they were playing barbies *rolls eyes*. We went down to the garage and opened the door to the peer, it was kind of a smaller garage door. It was such a beautiful summer day, the sun was so bright and there was a breeze. We rigged out the poles and then the trouble started. He told me to do to the back corner and get the bait ou

Goodbye
When tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do, It almost seemed impossible That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun w

Even In My Dreams I Dislike Them
So, last night I dreamt I was stuck with some annoyingly prissy fucks. I can't remember who, or where they came from. I just remember that one person was so annoying, I gave them my booger. It wasn't any ol' booger. It was more of a dallop of mucas and crusty boog. The size of a scoop of whipped cream, sitting in the prissy person's hand. That's all I remember.

Somebody???
SOMEBODY ? Somebody out there please pray for me I don’t think I have enough strength And the people who prayed for me before I don’t think are praying anymore Somebody out there please cry for me I haven’t been able to cry much lately I lost the one who would break down and cry So somebody out there please at least try Somebody out there please sing for me My songs unsung even in dreams And the one who always sung my songs Has lost her voice and moved along Somebody out there please read this The light in here is much to dim The one who would read my every page My every word on every line Has turned her back and walked away And left me alone and unable to cry And voiceless in dreams Unable to sing Night after night Day after day Sapped of my strength To bend and pray Ez10

Unhappy!
I am really thinking of how this world can actually live with themselves sometimes. I am just glad it isn't me treating someone or doing something mean to another person. Being sick you see and get treated differently...whether it is someone feeling sorry for you, or someone just thinking you are a LAZY ASS! PLEASE READ THIS WITH YOUR HEART!! WHAT YOU SHOULD KNOW ABOUT ME My pain - My pain is not your pain. Taking your arthritis medication will not help me. I cannot work my pain out or shake it off. It is not even a pain that stays put. Today it is in my shoulder, but tomorrow it may be in my foot or gone. My pain is not well understood, but it is real. My fatigue - I am not merely tired. I am often in a severe state of exhaustion. I may want to participate in physical activities, but I can't. Please do not take this personally. If you saw me shopping in the mall yesterday, but I can't help you with yard work today, it isn't because I don't want to. I am, most likely, payi

Wal-mart Greeter
Wal-Mart Greeter A very loud, unattractive, mean woman walked into Wal-Mart with her two kids, yelling obscenities at them all the way through the entrance. The Wal-Mart Greeter says "Good morning, and welcome to Wal-Mart. Nice children you have there. Are they twins?" The ugly woman stopped yelling long enough to say, "Hell no they ain't. Oldest one's 9 and the other one's 7. Why the hell would you think they're twins? Are you blind, or just stupid? "I'm neither blind nor stupid", replied the greeter. "I just couldn't believe you got laid twice." And have a great day!

Todays Thoughts
i would like to thank those who have view my blogs. so far only one had some back bone and posted to it. she knows who she is. now to my thoughts. every day i drive same route to work and back home. i drive the same slow as pace of speed limit. which on my route is 65mph. alot of people dont like. of course ill get the finger and some times ill even get cut off. well kudos to them for showing how stupid and in a hurry them must be to get to some where they dont want to be. what was really a kicker is when i had a JSO k9 unit 2 months back commit road rage on me. well he made a very dumb mistake by passing me and allowing me to see his unit number and zone id. well once i seen the zone id i knew who his lt was and had his direct number since we hung out sometimes. well eventually i no longer see him on my route driving. well to be blunt i never saw him since that day. of course im not allowed to dicuss what happen to him but like i said i no loinger see him in my area. you would think t

Us Oil Crisis Explained Lol
A lot of folks can't understand how we came to have an oil shortage here in our country. ~~~ Well, there's a very simple answer. ~~~ Nobody bothered to check the oil. ~~~ We just didn't know we were getting low. ~~~ The reason for that is purely geographical. ~~~ Our OIL is located in ~~~ ALASKA ~~~ California ~~~ Coastal Florida ~~~ Coastal Louisiana ~~~ Kansas ~?~ Oklahoma ~~~ Pennsylvania and Texas ~~~ Our DIPSTICKS are located in Washington, DC !!! ? Any Questions ???

Fake Friends
I hate how people always act like they are your friend but don't care about you at all. Saying things behind your back and never caring about how you are feeling or what you are thinking. People who act just because they feel they should but not because they really care to hear your answer. I feel there are some many fake people out there. Then when you make friends on here the people hardly ever contact you and you are just another number on their friends list. That is the one thing I hate about cherry tap.

I Can't Think Well Enough Alone.
i had this amazing thought to write out earlier. but now it’s just empty space. i can’t remember, and i sure as fuck can’t forget. you were my speech bubble. an impending thought. a desperate attempt. i don’t even know where i’m going with this and i know for a fact that i don’t know where i’ve been. or maybe i do? maybe i’ve been all over town. maybe you’ve been all over my thoughts. do me a favor baby, hand me the .38. i know i don’t have permission… but god damn the idea is tempting me. urging me on. toying with me like you do. i can’t complete a thought. i don’t know where you took them, but they are no longer in my head. let’s just fuck so i don’t have to think. i can just move. and just be. you can think for me. fill your head with me… and i’ll fill my womanhood with you. it’s a splendid idea. commence.

Family
Since this is my forum to rant and bitch.... I have absolutly no repsect for people who drink until they can no longer hold there own weight. I cannot abide alcoholics and have no sympathy for them. I had to retrieve a brother from across town because he and his got so drunk they got into a fight. please understand that said brother is 16 years my senior and no longer has a driver's lincense. I do not understand this compulsion to drink yourself stupid. I supposed we are to love and accept the things our family does, but sometimes I wonder if the love is the problem. If anyone has any ideas as to why this occurs, please comment or post. if you disagree or don't appreciate this, please remember that these are the rants of someone driven insane by extreme boredom. ps I live alone and this is my outlet!!! Even the dog ignores me!!

We Have A Voice
We are being overrun by the hordes of brown immigrants who cross our borders on a daily basis, and to think the very governments we elect have done nothing to stop this. It is us the white majority tax payers who are given the task of feeding, clothing, incarcerating and welcoming these men and women from the third world, it is us who are being hurt by the uncontrolled flood and it is us who have had enough. We pay our taxes and abide by laws set forth by our government, and all we ask for in return is to have our voices be heard by the people who can change our country, however in the past several decades our voices have fallen short of being heard. In today’s world we are being placed on the back burners of the government, we are no longer allowed to exercise our first amendment right to freedom of speech, we are no longer able to elect from a pool of uncorrupt officials and we are being forced to live in a nation where it pays to be of non European decent. It is far past due tha

My Marriage
for those that want to know about my marriage… I have been with my husband since the month before I turned 16, he had just turned 17… during the time we were dating we only broke up twice for a period of about 3 weeks each time… we got married 3 months after my 21st birthday, I was also 8 1/2 months pregnant at the time … fast forward to January 18th 2006, the day after our 8 year wedding anniversary when I found out he was having an affair with a 17 year old girl. Her and her mother rented a trailer behind our house, I considered her a friend… I think it started sometime around new year's eve, he kept denying it of course so I planted a voice activated tape recorder in our house, it was the night of our anniversary and I had to work, he had sex with her in our son's room… fucker even tried to deny it was him on the tape… she moved that day, he told me he was sorry, he didn't know why he did it, he didn't want to lose me and the kids, all the usual bullshit, I let him stay… he kept se

† I Feel Alone †
right now i am sitting in a room by myself wondering how i got the way i am and all that come to mind is all the stuff i did wrong and how i could have do things different but i can not now for i made my mistakes and i have to live with them many times i have made mistakes and i have not learned or i have forgotten what i did in the first place cause my mind is not right anymore i may never learn form what i have done i know i have hurt a lot of people and i am sorry for that and i know that in all the time i have been on ct i have made a few friends that are always their for me i am not going to say names but they know who they are and i love them all they are very speacail to me and i love them all as my 23rd birthday comes to be i sit here and wonder where i will be and what will happen to me by my 24 if i make it that long i do not know if i will it is in the hands of fate. and when i think of the mess ups i made i can not help but wonder what i should have done at that time in ste

Yesteryear
wind of yesteryear blow past my mind are we living or just simply dieing a slow slow death that we bring to our own beings choke on your greed and your desire to be on top for being on top just means you have further to fall i luagh in your face for your fake and everone sees your lies for what they are you make your own destruction so good by my old old fiend and say hi to the yesteryear when everone still believed you and when everone still called you friend but you simply destroyed it when you did what you did now look at what you did you destroyed your own world as you sit there in tears i stand luaghing at your lost for now im the one luaghing for now im on top but when does it end is it a simple goodbye to yesteryear?

Shitty
well lets see my family is like poor now.....we have no money for cigs...barely ne money for food...we can barely pay the bills. my dad works 2 jobs and they keep cutting his pay and cuttin his hours....me myself has been trying to find a job but havin no such luck....i cant use my moms van nemore becuz of gas prices which i think the prices are rediculous. my mom hasnt had a job in 5 years almost 6..my sister cant really look for one she has a kid to take care of...jj hasnt tried i dont think. i got dumped again...and the reason he gave me was stupid in my opinion but i wont get into it. i barely get to see my friends nemore...the only person i really see is chris. these are one of the times i wish i still lived in st.cloud. one of my friends keeps ditching me cuz other ppl come along and she decides to hang with them when she made plans with me first...so im kinda getting sick and tired of it and im about ready to tell her off.... my bday is in less than 3 months and i want

Remembering The Good Times Girl- Love Ya Alot.
YOU KNOW I AM VEEEEEEEERRRRRRY SHY WHEN IT COMES TO THIS- SO LORETTA HERE YA GO- I LOVE YOU GIRL AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW I APPRICIATE ALL YOU DO FOR ME- EVEN IF LIKE ANY SISTER -WE ARGUE- BOY DONT I LOOK AWFUL-- LOL--

Tired
Its been a long week, ive been working nightshift all week and its finally caught up with me. I was helping my friend Linda in a contest and she told me to get some rest, so i'm taking her friendly advice and im gonna get some sleep. Im sorry if i didnt get round to leaving a comment for any of my friends. I will get back on later and i will show you all some love then. Any requests for me to show anything else *wink* will be considered...lol. Hey i couldnt go 5mins without being cheeky lol. Hope you all have a good day, see you later. Love, Hugs and Kisses to you all. Willie

Maybe I Was A Bit Rash?
What do you do when you find yourself thinking of someone and missing someone but you know it won't work out with the person. Well you figure as much anyway but then again you second guess your actions and wonder if you should have tried harder to fix the issues and talk about them more. That maybe your actions were a bit rash. Maybe you shouldn't ask advise from others, although that seems to be what I am doing now.

Happy Memorial Day Weekend
Hi guys..Since I don't have time to do each one of you a comment due to working today I wanted to tell each and everyone of you to have a safe and happy Memorial Day..Sometimes when we celebrate we forget exactly what the Holiday is all about.God Bless the troops who have given their life for OUR freedom and the ones who are still fighting for it.May God Bless Them All! Love Each And Everyone Of You! HAVE FUN...STAY SAFE..HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!

Job Placement Aptitude Test
Put 400 bricks in a closed room. Put your new hires in the room and close the door. Leave them alone and come back after 6 hours. Then analyze the situation: a. If they are counting the bricks, put them in the Accounting Department. b. If they are recounting them, put them in Auditing. c. If they have messed up the whole place with the bricks, put them in Engineering. d. If they are arranging the bricks in some strange order, put them in Planning. e. If they are throwing the bricks at each other, put them in Operations. f. If they are sleeping, put them in Security. g. If they have broken the bricks into pieces, put them in Information Technology. h. If they are sitting idle, put them in Human Resources. i. If they say they have tried different combinations, they are looking for more, yet not a brick has been moved, put them in Sales. j. If they have already left for the day, put them in Marketing. k. If they are staring out of the window, put them in S

Lets Have A New Ct Pinup...
Would anyone who reads this please take 5 seconds to rate this pic for Meee? Please. I have commented my poor mouse to near death. lol come to find out it is a ratings contest. I know I have some wonderful friends. And you know I would do the same for you all. Love yahs, and many thanks, Just Meee

Creative Lightening
This is a good photo of a girl with the flower, but it is also busy, ie a lot of other things in it that takes your eyes away from the girl and the flower By using Photoshop and rendering different lightening effects you can draw the persons eyes into where you want then to focus

Hollywood Effect
Streets are boring, when photographed there is nothing exciting about them But with Photoshop you can give that boring street a look of mystery like they do in Hollywood, making you wonder what is lurking around the corner just waiting to jump out at you

It's Always About Sex....
If you can answer all of these without getting offended you are probably a pervert, but so is the person who sent it to you.Send this back as a reply and then send an empty to the people you know deep down really wanna answer this. 1. How much is too much? IS THERE SUCH A THING AS TOO MUCH LOL 2.Slow and steady or hard and rough? THE SEX IS SO MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU'RE MAD AT ME SO I WOULD HAVE TO SAY HARD AND ROUGH 3. last time? LAST NIGHT 4. Fav. position? ME ON TOP 5. Oral or not? A LOT PLEAE AND THANK YOU ;) 6. dirty talk? ONLY IF YOU ARE CALLING ME YOUR DIRRTY LIL WHORE 7. lots of foreplay or get down to business? DEPENDS ON MY MOOD 8. spooning or sleeping after? THE JOB AIN'T DONE UNTIL WE ONLY HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY LEFT TO SLEEP 9.does the first kiss get tongue or not? MOST OF THE TIME 10. toes? I HAVE 10 11. tantric sex? NEVER TRIED IT 12. public places? AS LONG AS THERE ARE NO COPS AROUND LOL 13. audiences? WELL I'M NOT GOING TO STOP IF SOMEON

Sworn Enemies
washing over me again... here it comes... my blood begins to boil teeth are self-sharpening I am becoming the animal I despise Let the world know not what I show. I try in my mind to make right the minds of those who refuse to see light Unlike any creature known to mankind... I taste adrenaline green and see blood red A messenger, prophet if you will to all the indigent...money well spent Seeking revenge...hunting...I pledge To avenge... Those lives that have been pushed to the edge. Even though I am possessed with pure evil intentions I remain fearful for: ...the damage I may cause ...the lives I'll affect ...the pain he will feel Holding his life in my hands....do I deliver the final blow? Risk leaving my son, away from his father... the only one that he knows? Do I want to spend my life talking to him through a window? This "man", I shook his hand and now my hand is grasping him by the

Mission Accomplished.': 48 Blood Soaked Months Later...
Forty eight blood soaked months later, what exactly has been accomplished? * Possibly as many as one million Iraqi dead, four million fled or displaced internally. The largest exodus since the establishment of the State of Israel in 1948. * The erasing of the history, monuments, archaeological sites of the Cradle of Civilization. * The kidnapping and lynching of the President and members of the legitimate government. * The slaughter of the President's sons and grandson. * One hundred journalists and thirty seven support workers killed. A figure in order of magnitude higher than any war zone on earth (shoot the messengers of this illegal disaster?) It seemed to be policy from day one, literally. * Over three hundred academics assassinated and thousands fled. The education of the next generation snatched from Iraq's youth, in the country that brought near every academic subject to the world. * Overflowing morgues. * Sectarian gangs roaming hospitals and pulling pa

Goddamn Lighten Up Will Ya?
Below is a comment left as a joke on someone's page, as this person refers to themself as a "retard" constantly and masturbates almost as much. A fellow CT member took it upon herself to send me a nasty email stating that she is the parent of a retard (her words not mine) and that she cannot believe someone would be so insensitive blah blah blah. I got bored after the first 5 paragraphs and the damn email went on for like I dunno 97 or something. Long winded bitch I say. So, I guess I'm just venting that it seems to ignorant to me that someone has so much time on their hands that they're looking WAYYYY too far into a stupid comment posted on someone's page. Seriously, maybe she should spend less time whoring herself on cherry tap and more time with her MENTALLY HANDICAPPED child. And now she can have a reason to be offended stupid whore.

I Wonder?
IF WE HAD SEX?? 1. Would I be in control? 2. Would I pull your hair? 3. Would you whisper in my ear? 4. Would you talk dirty to me? 5. Would I kiss you with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? 6. Would I say your name? 7. Would you go down on me? 8. Would I be gentle & romatic or rough & hard? 9. How many rounds would we go? 10. What would WE do afterwards? 11. Would I take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly? 12. Would I lick and bite you all over? 13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point? 14. Would you want me to take my time? 15. How freaky are you, 1 - 20? 16. Would you want me to go fast or slow? 17. Where would WE wanna "do it"? 18. Would You be loud or quiet? 19. Would you mind if i liked you? 20. Would you do it today? 21. Would you do it tomorrow? 22. Would YOU call me in the morning? 23.Would it just be a hook up or would you want it t

Breathless
Time stands still in our eyes For this moment has been brought through time Spoken in our minds Our dreams Our fears Scenarios foreseen a million times Each one Bringing more hope More desire Passion Driving us to ignore the pain That we each face For we know of that one thing One small Momentary thing Bliss in a heartbeat That will stop time… Just one one breathless kiss

A Theory ..
Einstein at the end of his life was trying to prove that time was an illusion. He believed that everything was happening at the same time, past, present and future. So, if he is correct, there are other dimensions, I think he said about 11 of them. Meaning there is a possibility that there are 11 of you spread out in different dimensions living at the same time. Which brings me to the topic of this blog. A theory I have about Deja vu or Deja vecu. Deja vu is explained in Wikipedia as an "experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously" Where as Deja vecu is described as an "experience involving more than just sight, which is why labeling such "déjà vu" is usually inaccurate. The sense involves a great amount of detail, sensing that everything is just as it was before." If Einstein was correct, then maybe deja vu or deja vecu is the present you meeting or connecting to a you in another dimension. When this happens, our thoughts of the past or

We All Have Skeletons In Our Closets!!
What do you think? We all have reasons to hide from ppl. Either we think were ugly, fat, short, grey, even beautiful ppl hide. Maybe we were abused, raped, do drugs or drink to much. We hide behind things like trendy clothes, cool cars, fake pics......... I do not care about any of your skeletons...I am a true friend...i dont care what you look like, how much money you have or what you drive. If you looking for a "true friend" you have found one. I dont care if your black or white....goth or gay....married or single....as long as your good to me im here for you. Unconditionally!!! Muah xoxo

Chainedme, Dick Chainedme....
So Dick Chainedme was on stage tonight... MY DRAG SHOW FUCKIN ROCKED!!! ::does the happiest dance ever:: Sooooo many people didnt even recognize me.. most thought i was really a man... (haha and yall didnt have faith in me that i could hide those monstrous things i call tits) Miss Dee didnt even know i was a girl till i turned around and she saw all my hair wraped up in the back that lead to my fadora.. Well i got done my second song... (Richard Cheese, Down with the sickness) and Miss Dee came over to me and said "i want to talk to you after the show" ... i was a little scared... here i am .. a first time drag king... and MISS DEE wants to talk to me... I took a deep breath... we did our final bows and the money was counted that was raised... we raised $500 for pride and Miss Dee and Regina took me out to the courtyard to talk with me. They do a show at the sanctuary once a month called the Appletini Review.. its a mixed bar.. Some Gay men... Some breeders (straigh

Not Doin To Good.
so im really depressed right now. i just realized my last 3 boyfriends really fucked me over and my most recent ex just basically told me fuck you. he told me i didnt make him happy and that he didnt feel secure with me.what the fuck. so im feely really down right now and im not doin too good.

I Promise
I promise to be your warm spot to cuddle up to when you feel cold I promise to be your soft place to land if you should fall I promise to be the first one to say I am sorry (even if I was right) I promise to be there for you in all of your times of joy and sorrow I promise to support you no matter what your decision (even if I don't agree ) I promise to make a new memory with you each and every day I promise to love you without change I promise to make you laugh I promise to make you cry I promise to give you strength when you are weak I promise to love you forever I promise to cherish you and your love I promise to compromise with you I promise to never take your love for granted I promise to never lose faith in you I promise to never give you a reason to distrust me I promise to always trust you I promise to work with you to resolve our conflicts I promise to always be proud of you I promise to never let you feel alone in this world I promi

The Weekend
Well, I am staying at my best friend, Billie's for the weekend. Me and the kids are having a great time. We made a lot of food and we are going to have lots of leftovers. My friend travis, Neptune from my friend's list, decided to come along too...I did not know if he was going to be able to make it because I thought he had to work...it was good that he came though. Anyhow, I had forgot to let my ex know that me and the kids were going to be out of town so since I did have his home phone#, I decided to call him a little after 6pm. Usually, Sammy likes to talk on the phone but I guess this time she was not up for it. And as usual, Jake does not like to talk on the phone. I wonder how I can fix this a bit...like I said, maybe the web cam thing will work out still. Anyhow, I get on here and look at my ex's mumms; heck after voting and commenting on their picture for the contest for "kids contest", and seeing their comments and votes, I thought okay well maybe things are'nt so

Kilts Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Ok, so, not that I mind, but why do so many women love KILTS?!?!?! Could it be that maybe they know what we wear or more to the point don’t wear under a kilt? Or maybe they know that what ever they might find under a kilt will always get a the blue ribbon? And I have noticed that alot of them are sexy little Italian sweeties, what’s up with that? Again not that I mind. he he he he ….. and I have noticed and thank you….WoW really thank you, but all I can say is I already have my little Italian Princess and I so love her!!!! I never thought I’d ever say that. …… hmmm and just a thought, but if you ladies like a man in a kilt keep in mind there MILLIONS of us here in the US and Canada, as well as back in Scotland And a really good place to see and meet them is Renaissances Fairs and Highland games, so go, and have fun and watch the guys in kilts you just might get as lucky as me & my beautiful Italian Princess.

Wiccan Pentacle Will Finally Mark Fallen Soldiers' Graves
MADISON, Wisconsin (AP) -- Since Korean War veteran Jerome Birnbaum died in 2005, his grave in a pagan cemetery had been marked with only a pile of stones and U.S. flags. On Memorial Day, Birnbaum's grave and those of other military veterans will be dedicated with government-issued markers etched with a symbol of their religion -- the Wiccan pentacle. Wiccans sued the government last year, arguing that it was unduly stalling a decision on whether to add the pentacle to the list of acceptable symbols for veterans' graves. A settlement between the U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs and Wiccans added the five-pointed star to the list of "emblems of belief." (See a timeline of the history of Memorial Day) "I like to see our success literally etched in stone, because it will be," said Birnbaum's wife, Karen DePolito. She said winning the fight is vindication for all Wiccans. Half of her husband's ashes were scattered outside their house in Utah, while the rest were interred

Be Careful
Police are warning all men who frequent clubs, parties and local pubs to be alert and stay cautious when offered a drink from any woman. Many females use a date rape drug on the market called "Beer." The drug is found in liquid form and is available anywhere. It comes in bottles, cans, or from taps and in large "kegs". Beer is used by female sexual predators at parties and bars to persuade their male victims to go home and sleep with them. A woman needs only to get a guy to consume a few units of Beer and then simply ask him home for no strings attached sex. Men are rendered helpless against this approach. After several beers, men will often succumb to the desires to sleep with horrific looking women whom they would never normally be attracted. After drinking beer, men often awaken with only hazy memories of exactly what happened to them the night before, often with just a vague feeling that "something bad" occurred. At other times these unfortunate men are swindled

Mumms
It's been a while since I posted a blog. I am gonna try to do this more often. Anyway, I haven't really looked at mumms or anything before this week. Now since they're such high point totals for each vote, and furthermore they get you alot more points if you make one. With that said... People...mumms are really not that serious. Real tough life situations are really not crucial to be posting on a mumm...whether you should stay with your cheating boyfriend or take your kid to therapy or your whether you should accept that your son is gay or not...I mean sure, it's always nice to have that outside opinion...but do you really want it from a bunch of immature strangers who really couldn't care an ounce less about your problems? I'm not trying to be a pessimist here, but think about it for a second...how many sincere, thoughtful people have you met on here compared to the care-free, full-of-shit ones? I bet the assholes way outnumber the others. Now think about that...how many as

Honor Our Fallen Heroes Today
Today is Memorial Day in the USA. MSNBC has done well by placing a photo article online to look into the faces of those who have died during the conflict of Iraq and the Afgan struggle. Show one moment of respect today for them by looking at the pictures of those who have been lost in the struggle for freedom of a people who needed our help. Some in our country have forgotten why we exist and part of that existance is to help the oppressed in the world by using our power and might to aid those who cannot do it alone. Many in our country bitch and moan about what has been happening in the struggle against the oppressiveness of terrorism and our military involvement. I say FUCK YOU if you dont get it and stop bitching. Start acting like men and women with pride for our efforts to help the oppressed. Make all the excuses you want for reasons why YOU think we should have never been involved but remember a few things: (1) 9/11/01 ended the reason to be idle in involvement. We bitched in thi

"seize The Day...
...or die regretting the time you lost." I think about it every now and then. On maybe why we were all put here. On Earth, I mean. What was God's original goal for the human race and it's presense here? Were we all just part of an evolution of whats to come? Or are we now the final product? Whichever it may be, Im glad we're here. Well, I'm glad I'M here. I can plainly see without any help that the life I lived back in the day is not the same life I am living now. Back in the day, I wanted everything for myself and only for myself and thought nothing of the world and everyone because I was just too little to understand that caring for others was important. Today? I feel inspired by everyone I have helped, talked to, and cared for. I've learned that it is much better to give than to receive, and helping others would give you a chance to get back what you gave ten fold. That makes me feel good. So good that I want to be the me everyone knows me by today for the rest of my life, as

=]
I havent been here in a long frigin time. Boy have i missed a lot. NOT. Still see all the point wh*res. Cry babies. And a holes :) Geee arent i glad i got married and have a life :) Some of you amaze me. Exspecially the ones who care more about this site then there own "children" Nicee.

Its Not Over
I was blown away. What could I say? It all seemed to make sense. You've taken away everything, And I can't deal with that. I try to see the good in life, But good things in life are hard to find. We'll blow it away, blow it away. Can we make this something good? Well, I'll try to do it right this time around. Let's start over. I'll try to do it right this time around. It's not over. 'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground. This love is killing me, But you're the only one. It's not over. Taken all I could take, And I cannot wait. We're wasting too much time Being strong, holding on. Can't let it bring us down. My life with you means everything, So I won't give up that easily. I'll blow it away, blow it away. Can we make this something good? 'Cause it's all misunderstood. Well, I'll try to do it right this time around. Let's start over. I'll try to do it right this time around. It's not over. 'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground. This

Running At The Mouth
I just want to thank you guys for coming to me to let me know when you see links & such of people smearing my name. It's cool though...you don't have to send em the links or anything. peoples' number one hobby is to degrade others and usually,I'm on the top 10 of that list. But it hasnt, nor will it EVER stop me from doing what I do.. I've been told I'm a sell out..that I act white..that I'm a bitch..that I can't act..and the list goes on. If any of the above ever proves to be true ::shrugs:: so what? LOL Am I to change into someone else? Nope..I think not.. so again..thank you guys & you rock I'm a big girlll...and hearing those things only make me realize that I'm on the right track.. In this society..its when they DON'T talk that there's a problem

Rage
Rage such a strong, overpowering emotion, It takes hold of you and takes nothing less than complete control, Pours over you and seeps into every crevice of your soul. Rage destroys every thing it touchs, It festers, grows, so overpowering, Then it hardens in your soul, To stay there forevermore. Will someone with enough love come along to break the stone that surrounds my soul? Can it be broken? Is love strong enough to bring me out of this world of darkness that Rage has sent me to? Written by Paulette 5-28-07

Thans To My Fallen Brothers
Day is done, gone the sun, From the hills, from the lake, From the sky. All is well, safely rest, God is nigh. Go to sleep, peaceful sleep, May the soldier or sailor, God keep. On the land or the deep, Safe in sleep. Love, good night, Must thou go, When the day, And the night Need thee so? All is well. Speedeth all To their rest. Fades the light; And afar Goeth day, And the stars Shineth bright, Fare thee well; Day has gone, Night is on. Thanks and praise, For our days, 'Neath the sun, Neath the stars, 'Neath the sky, As we go, This we know, God is nigh.

Be Real People
you know when I got on here all I read from people was how real they were BULLSHIT ALL i'M SEEING ARE PEOPLE WHO JUST WANT THE POINTS AND DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO CARRY ON A CONVERSATION WITHOUT RATE ME FAN ME IT'S ALL THEY WANT WERE ARE THE REAL PEOPLE STOP FRONTIN AND BE WHO YOU SAY YOU ARE THATS ALL i ASK AND IF YOU CAN'T OR WON'T THEN fUCK OFF.qUOTE THE RAVEN NEVER MORE

Nipples
Her nipples stand at attention Waiting anxiously for my tongue inspection I make a move waiting for their objection But there they stand in full erection Round and in alarming perfection Crying out softly in my direction Waiting for me Calling my name, (Slim Shady) Stating they are free Asking me to be Over and over again As if participating in some type of teasing game Underestimating the hype of their increasing fame my tongue starts to fiddle With them in circles Fiddle, fiddle and fiddle As they stare back in my face and giggle Fiddle, fiddle and fiddle my tongue starts to fiddle Suck them very gently Suck them relentlessly Suck them for a time, which is lengthy And then her body starts to wriggle She is witnessing the titillating tingles Whispering out loud that she's very single A moan escapes her mouth Now she knows What my magic tongue is about I hold her breasts in my hand And strokes them like my precious gem

I Loved You
I loved you Yet I dont see you I needed you Yet I couldnt hold you I called for you Yet I couldnt hear you I cry for you Yet you're not there to wipe my tears away What should I do? Yet you couldnt tell me Should I hold on? Yet you're slipping through my fingers Should I wait for you? Yet you're already gone Can we be closer? Yet you're so far away Am I gonna have a life with you? Yet Im living the life alone Am I gonna to lay with you? Yet Im laying with my pillows Am I gonna look for you? Yet you're not there for me to find Are you meant to be mine? Yet you may be meant to be someone else's Are you thinking of me? Yet my ears hasn't ring to let me know Are you In love with me? Yet there's nothing there to know Are we 1? Yet we are 2 Are we meant to be together? Yet we are drifting apart I hate you Yet I couldnt I dont need you Yet I long for you I dont want you here Yet I look back for you Let go of me Yet just hold me close Im gonna find ano

Insincere People
I've come across so many men on this site who say one thing and do another for example the one that comes to mind are the guys who say they will talk to you and never do, in fact they have no intention of ever talking with you , so my question is, why do you bullshit? I dont give a fuck, but what really gets to me are the guys who say they will and then dont,I hate liars and people with no integrity. What are you on here for? some as i have seen are just on here to show off their photos of themselves, theres two guys who have more pictures of themselves than I have ever seen on any sight.These guys are in love with themselves, they are real cam whores, winking and kissing their cams, as they click away to get the perfect shot so they can look at themselves, just pathetic, and you know who you are, you people are rude and not even worth knowing, take the make up off your face and your ugly, inside and out.

Get Your Name In Peter Britt's Book
You can get your name on the dedication page of Peter Britt's book, "All That I Am, I Think" and also get an autographed copy. The cost of this special pre-ored is 35.00 This covers the costs associated with the publisher creating this special page in the book and setting all the names in it and your signed copy. Go to: www.peterbritt.us The Paypal link is on the top of the main page. There are 75 total copies available on this special pre-order, but only 40 left. Secure your copy of the soon to be best seller by Peter Britt.

Freinds
My Dear Online Friend.....Got this from someone...It is so true.......Online friends are people we may never meet.... We see pictures, we see cams...It isn't the same.... We grow close...We care and love one another.... One day we may not hear from one another.... Our hearts will break... All we see is a name on messenger but the person we don't see anymore..... We pray....."Please come back".... All I ask is you remember me in the good times we had..... Keep me close to your heart....Friends forever... Pass this on to all your friends....If I get it back.... I know you care

From Someone's Heart
I was having a chat with someone to day.. and they said this.. and I just had to share it.. because it is so beautiful and made my heart sing.. I can appreciate women of varying looks......you used to look like those girls Cassie....I'm not concerned for myself, of whether or not u regain that, but you have so much sensuality spilling out....you flirt like a godess....you're sweet and warm, that is sexy as hell....and your intelligence is hot.. I mean, that is without a doubt so incredible. Thank you. This person knows who said it. Yes, I am smiling!

What It's All About!
It isn't about the jewels you're wearing, although they add a sparkle to your eyes. It isn't about the clothes I see, although they do bring a smile to my face. It isn't about the perfume you wear, abut I do love to catch your scent. It isn't about the lipstick, I do admit, I love the taste. It isn't about how much make-up you wear, you have such a natural beauty. It isn't about what "cup" size you have, being a man though, I do admire. It isn't how you kiss me, I do long for the touch and want more. It isn't about how you say my name, but my heart wants to hear so much more. It isn't about how clean our house is, I will give you plenty of help. It isn't about interests we have, although they add some spice. It isn't about nightly passions, God knows I enjoy every moment with you. It isn't about the size you are, I'm looking on the inside. It isn't about money, we both know money will never bring happiness. It is about how much I love you, I would go to all ends of the w

Hey Everybody!
I just wanted to say that I am very sorry for not being on here and being a b*tch lately. For those of you who don't know my hubby has been out of town since the 16th and I have been kinda depressed over him being gone. I also celebrated a birthday on the 27th and I want to thank everyone who sent me something. I really have appreciated it. Well I hope everyone had a wonderful Memorial Day and everyone stays safe. Well chat with you all later!! Anne

Goodnight Peeps
Custom Comments and More @ † Dark Angel Designz † I hope everyone had a safe memorial day! Say a prayer for our soldiers tonight that are fighting for us. Have a awesome night peeps! Lots of love~Heather

Where I Should Have Sex!!!
You should have sex outdoors You are the romantic type and enjoy being spontaneous. You are not that into having other people watch though, so make sure that there is no one else around before getting busy. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

What It Means........
DECEPTION, mean the acts or practices of one who deliberately deceives. Betrayal, as a form of deception of prior presumptions. A lie is an untruthful statement made to someone else with the intention to deceive.

My Birthday
I just wanted to take a minute and thank all of you for sending all the sweet comments, shouts and gifts to me for my birthday. I have to admit,(with the exception of my best friend Charlie, aka swcowboy, being out the state and not here to share it with me)it's been one of the best. Thanks to Dave, MY BIGGEST FAN, lol...omg the live mini concert still blows me away thinking about it. You are awesome sweetheart and a diamond I have found in the rough!! I can't wait to design your website and show everyone how truly proud of you I am. YOU SOOOOOO ROCK!!! Hugs and kisses to you, Katie is truly a very lucky woman! You're the best! and I am YOUR BIGGEST FAN! Don't forget me when you get famous. =) SAV (Randy)...thanks for the yellow limo, guitar, roses, and champange (if only in my dreams), the thought is always what counts the most...I love you to pieces! Your friendship means so much to me, you have no idea. One day, when you slow down and come to SC...I know I'll get that limo r

Day 22 With The Bb!!
My baby kitten is still going strong. He is getting bigger and stronger. He is just a baby so he does NOT like being held. He loves to eat and POOP and SLEEP and that's 'bout it for now. When he wants to play, he's quite evasive to new people and likes to simply let me know first. Then I can hand over the reigns to the kids and WATCH THEM while they have fun. My best friend and her children came up here with a friend for the weekend. I own my own home and have more than enough room in this HUGE house. The kids were very "touchy feely" at first about the kitten and he didn't like it. I eventually got the oldest to handle him properly. He did a great job. We took some pictures and had a lot of fun, though. He was sitting in my dog's favorite chair and I think Skeeter didn't like that much, but he doesn't hold a grudge long. LOL!! It was a great weekend and OMG @ the leftovers. We made so much food. Brats, Hamburgers, Steaks, Hot dogs, salads, chips, and Ja

Memorial Day 2007
So I just wanted to share with you my experience this weekend. I attended the Memorial at our local VA cemetery and what an honor and privilege it was. There must have been 1200 plus people in attendance, vets and cilvilians alike some with their kids and grand kids. I try and attend every year, I am not sure it has ever had such an effect on me as this year. As hard as I tried to keep it together and hold back the tears, be the tough Marine I couldn't do it. Just the thought that Freedom is not free, that so many have died for all of us just overwhelmed me. So many times we go about our daily lives rushing around from place to place and not taking the time to reflect on what we have and why we have it. I arrived in uniform with 12 dozen yellow carnations. I had every intention of making sure that ever grave that did not have flowers would have at least one carnation. It broke my heart that after I had exhausted all my flowers you could not see a difference at all. So many were over gr

E-mail To Cherry Tap After 10th Salute Pic Rejection!
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!! Get out!!!!! What do you people want from me, blood? You have continually and i do mean continually (at least NINE times) rejected each and every Salute pic that I have submitted! Your staff has falsely accused me of "doctoring" my pics or "photosnapping" them (whatever the hell that is). If it is a program, I do NOT have it and wouldn't know how to use it if I did. I also could not "doctor" a picture to save my life. I take ALL of my pics using my webcam and my webcam ONLY. I was also accused of not hand-writing my signs (each and every single different sign). I am so very sorry, but I look the way I look and if someone on the Cherry Tap staff had taken the time to check out my photos, you would see that I am the same chick in the Salute pics that I have submitted who is in my Cherry Tap "photos!" Too much trouble to do that, i guess. I also write/print the way I write and can't help that unless you would have liked me to hand-write my signs using

Move On Already
ok this is really starting to get to me i tryed so hard not to let it bother me but it's been amost 5 months and this guys is still bothing me he goes under twisted_raven or trini_lopez and now he's having someone named bigdog come and spy on me , i've moved on with my life they need to learn how to do the same , and i know they've looked at some of yall's ct and i'm so sorry . i don't know why they keep having to bothing me and just not move on , i've blocked them but some how they make new names and come on and bother me it pretty fucked up that he's older then me and says he has a g/f but has stucked me for the last 5 months , i came on ct to meet new people and they both need to get a life and leave me alone i don't need these two people looking at my ct every day , becouse they know i can't stand them ,,,,, again i'm sorry if they've looked at your ct or left comments .

Inner Peace...wow, It Actually Works!!!
CALMNESS IN OUR LIVES I am passing this on to you because it definitely works, and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace. Dr. Phil proclaimed, "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started and have never finished." So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of White Zinfandel, a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream, a bottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel. Please pass this on to those whom you think might be in need of inner peace :)

3 More Days To Re-coop
We are back from our 3 day trip to Indianapolis, arriving home around 1 a.m. Tues. morning. Now, after spending the past 3 days helping my mother in law unpack from moving, and the total of about 14 hrs. on the road, I feel like I need 3 more days just to re-coop. lol Making that trip absolutely wears me out. But, here it is, Tues. and I have to leave for work in the next hour, and sure aren't looking forward to it. I really wish I could just stay in this house all day and do nothing. I know Lee has it worse than I do...he'll put in 10 hr. day today, unlike me, and I know he could sure use another 3 days to re-coop from the trip. We got a late start on Friday night, and it was about 5 am Saturday before we even got into Indy. Then when you sleep 1/2 the day away, trying to catch up from lack of sleep the night before, you don't seem to get much accomplished. Our sunday was cut short too, being able to unpack, since we went and attended a family "race party" that is held eve

The Kobe Bryant Throat Clear In Los Angeles
So, Kobe wants Jerry West to come back or Kobe wants out of LA? Really? Is it because of West's track record of "success" in draft and free agent decisions in Memphis, Kobe? Brian Cardinal and Dahntay Jones say hi, Kobe. TJ Simers went to whacking yesterday at Bryant: "THE KOBESTER can wear a sandwich board and walk all around Staples Center protesting his dislike for the current Lakers situation, and it really doesn't matter. He's got his contract, his obligation to perform, and like any other employee will be asked to make the best of it. One team wins a title every year, and a lot of great players go into the off-season frustrated. Happens every year. A player sounds off about being frustrated, and the fans like it. It's good for someone's image. Sounds like he really cares. But no matter what the Kobester and Lakers fans might think, the Lakers are not entitled to annual success. Or overnight miracles." True dat. Mark Heisler has a must read today in the Times on the playe

Nba Playoffs, If You Fuckin Care
Consider this a brief public service if you have stopped watching the NBA playoffs (not that David Stern remotely cares): 1.The Spurs are still freakishly good (and now just about have their bags packed for the Finals). By the way Manu, when your flopping is so extensive that even the hometown San Antonio newspaper leads with it, perhaps the time has come to back off it a bit. Just sayin'. 2. I had the good fortune of stumbling across Game 3 of the Eastern Conference Finals a few days back as the fourth period was getting underway, which was swell because it was just in time to see LeBron James play transcendant basketball. The array of plays he unleashed (step back threes, Magic-esque assists, and an all-time balls to the wall drive the basket with a finishing dunk over a stunned Rasheed) were jaw-dropping. Good enough, in fact, to perhaps compel me to maybe find Game 4 of that series a little earlier than the fourth period tonite. James' progression since turning pro out of hig

~back From Vacation~
Hi my friends, I'm back from Myrtle Beach. Got back yesterday (Monday). I had a blast wasn't ready to come back. I got a bad sunburn, sun block didn't do me any good. Chest and legs feel like they are on fire, but other then that the beach and the water was awesome. I'll have photos to add soon. I didn't take to many, not as much as I wanted, was having to much fun lol...but I did take some. I'll share soon. Hope everyone had a good Memorial Day weekend. Missed you guys and gals. Luv/Hugss/Kisses Custom Comments and More @ † Dark Angel Designz †

Information I Just Found Out....
I contacted my ex husband about getting his lawyer information and he contacted me also by email that my lawyer needs to contact his lawyer about this information. The information that I wanted from my ex he could not give to me, however, about his lawyer. Here is what is going on though: I just found out that my ex wants to get a restraining order against me and if he does this he will not be able to stay in contact with his children as I am the custodial parent. But I still have some stuff of mine that is in his possession that he has to send to me. So I felt like, well, if he gets a restraining order against me I may not be able to get my stuff back from him. Anyhow, I felt like that there was one more option for me to do in all of this. I called my ex's post office of the Inspector General and spoke with a man named Fred Hall about this situation. He told me that for one, my ex can not get a restraining order against me since I live in Nebraska and he lives in Alabama. Then

On The Can, On The Phone
Ok, are you really so busy that you have to talk on the phone when you are in the can? Just heard someone in there having a conversation. No matter who you are, you are either important enough to say "I'll call you back" or not important that they don't need to talk to you anytime anywhere, you gotta take some private time.

Warning
Rant: ABCDEFG PCP and LSD that is what I want in me. Sniff it up and swallow me whole, leave me to waste in the isolated black hole. Imagery of a self slit throat, blood pours as I begin to choke. Thoughts written on a page collide with ideas of lust and rage. Down goes the liquid numb goes the mind loosing myself in an endless time. Now theres nothing I hate as much. Rip the skin off as its raped, what started as a simple date. Screaming voices in my head grab the shotgun shoot them dead. I couldn`t care less about the way that you see me. Bipolar breakdowns, mental meltdowns, living in a world of ignorance. Deafening silence as my ears black out. Living in a moment full of doubt sitting back watching you reach out. Choke it down on the reality you ignore. Choke it down as you become another worthless whore. I don`t need you anymore.

Insatiable
Im not sure why or how..maybe in two days it's my 29th birthday loneliness... im not sure why but Im sad. No hard feelings there is enough self doubt. No matter the comments or ratings my eyes are still looking down to the ground. When will this end.

Shattered
You know, I have spent my whole life trying to make something of myself. I have worked many jobs, and regret never being smarter with what I did in that time. I am like most everybody else in the world, who has hopes, and dreams. So many people out there have never had faith in my abilities, and are so blind to see what somebody is really capable of. Several years ago I had a vision that someday I would open my own Skatepark, be my own boss,maybe open my own store. I live in an area, that has a demand for what i want to offer, and so recently I put in so so much of my time, did research, made contacts, talked to many people in the area; radio stations, locals, other businesses, and they thought what i had in mind was awesome. I wanted to be the first in our area, you know? I went to many banks, some didn't give me the time of day, and I finally went to one, that gave me a small glimpse of hope. I waited agonizingly day after day, waiting for them to call me. Making preparations on what

Till Further Notice
Untill further notified and as the other contest's are under control all bombing is to be directed at our family member Froggygirl.Earlier today she was almost within 100 of catching 1st and now she 1000 behind and the competitor isn't even part of a family.WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT PICTURE!!! Cmon get in here and GIT-R-DONE

Smile
I don't want to loose you now, That I've found, You're the reason why I smile, Sometimes why I cry Happy tears, Of joy, not fear When you're not around, My smile fades to a frown, With you comes the sunshine I'm smiling all the time, Just happy that you're here, With those dimples that you wear. Damn. I see you and my heart starts to pound Around your finger, you've got me wrapped, wound. Your loving is prime, And I mean ALL the time. So let's get this clear, I see you, and that smile appears. You've met your match, now how does that sound? You've got me going in circles, around and around. I just smile, All the while feeling high, So keep me, hold me near Then I bet you my smile will reappear.

Hurt Me, Break My Heart!
well if y'all have been talkin to me lately youve known that i was in a relationship with someone i thought the world of someone i thought i loved and that they loved me. He's hurt me once before. Heres the 1st time he hurt me, I've been through a lot and we started out as friends me wanting more maybe but he in a relationship with another soo i waited well after a while i as well got in a relationship and just about the same time he broke his off. I disappeared for a while reasons i hate discussing then i came back around a few months later and was treated like shit by him. I got really fed up and got bitchy yes it was hard for me to do because i liked him soo damn much but he needed to know, well then he started trying to make me feel like i was the one responsible for him being an ass while yes i had started dating someoen but i wasnt gonna wiat around forever for him. Well things moved on and we didnt talk again then once again someone comes around once more this time he has a g

Whatever
How ironic,,,my first blog may be my only. Yeah,,you heard me right. It maybe time to move on. When I signed up for CT,nothing could have prepared me for what was yet to come. Now don't get me wrong, I have made some awesome friends on here and that's a reason there is doubt I'll go through with this,,then again,,nothing is for sure. Maybe blowing off steam is just what I need and I'll be ok. I have enough R/L drama going on right now to last the rest of my life if nothing else were to ever happen again. When I first got on CT, it was my escape,my release. Now,,there's almost as much drama on here as R/L.. WHO THE FUCK NEEDS THAT? There is not 1 specific event,not 1 certain person,or, anything like that for my decision,it's the whole ball of wax.... Maybe I'll stay,maybe I won't. Maybe we'll still be friends,,maybe we won't. I don't know at this point,I just don't know.. I DO,however, want to say this..I won't make a final decision without talking to my closest friends first.

Let Down Raised Up (poem)
After a life of let down A long time, only a frown Cold stone beneath my ribs and flesh No longer the air I breathe fresh Stale and cold has the prison of my mind become Empty, dark, fearful feelings this comes from Weeping spirit, hollow soul The lone church bell will soon toll Out of dark depression came a light Giving a broken man reason to fight A beauty of incomparable proportion Clearing my focus; life out of distortion Warmth melting the ice within my being My eyes as if for the first time seeing The days no longer grey Music in my head on every word you say A rose opening in the sun A life no longer burned well done My existence you have saved A smooth road you have now paved Down to earth, tried and true Baby, I will always love you. RHB 12/29/06

Wisdom Teeth?
When do they usually grow in? I was always under the impression it was a late teen years thing, but just recently mine have started coming in (I'm 23.) I kind of forgot wisdom teeth even existed... I can't ask a dentist either. I take really awesome care of my teeth, but after my childhood dentist was thrown in jail for attaching razor blades to his sons football helmet so he'd slice up the kids on the other team (how the hell could I make that up?) I have a phobia deep as a root canal. So anyway, are mine kinda late or is this normal?

Just Some Thoughts
ι ωαηт α gυу ωнσ ωσυℓ∂ мσνє тнє нαιя αωαу ƒяσм му єуєѕ αη∂ тнєη кιѕѕ мє//* нσℓ∂ му нαη∂ ιη тнє ℓιηє αт тнє мαℓℓ αη∂ мαкє αℓℓ тнє σтнєя gιяℓѕ נєℓσυѕ//* ѕσмσηє ωнσ ωσυℓ∂ ѕιηg тσ мє αт яαη∂σм мσмєη

What I Mean Sometimes
So you can understand me........ BOHICA - Bend Over, Here It Comes Again JANFU - Joint Army/Navy Fuck-Up SNAFU - Situation Normal: All Fucked Up TARFU - Things Are Really Fucked up BEIFT - Behold, Every Indicator Forebodes CF - Cluster Fuck CHAOS - Chief Has Arrived On Scene FISHDO - Fuck It, Shit Happens, Drive On FUGAZI - Fucked Up, Got Ambushed, Zipped In FUBB - Fucked Up Beyond Belief FUBER - Fucked Up Beyond Economic Repair FUMTU - Fucked Up More Than Usual FUNDY - Fucked Up, Not Dead Yet GFU - General Fuck Up JAAFU or JAAFFU-Joint Army-Air Force Fuck-Up MOAFU - Mother Of All Fuck Ups MUBAR - Mash Up Beyond All Recognition SAMFU - Self Adjusting Military Fuck Up SAPFU - Surpasses All Previous Fuck Ups SMUBAR - Semi Mash Up Beyond All Recognition SUSFU - Situation Unchanged: Still Fucked Up TOFU - Things Ordinary: Fucked Up TUIFU -

Always Alone
Well i am just writeing this cause i need to get it out they say it helps to talk about it.. So here i go i have been single for over a year and i have felt like noone really wants to be with me or even is intrested. I still get intrested in ppl but everytime i do i get my hopes up and it seems like for a few they are intrested then i wake up and relize i am just dreaming agian... Why am i here to be alone for my whole life? Well if thats it i dont want to be here... I await the end.

Creed Of The Slayers
We are each nation's chosen elite. We are sworn to protect the nations against all terrors. We employ the tactics necessary to keep the children of the world safe and secure. We are prepared to die for our cause. We will unite and be the vengeful voice of God and Earth, and we will prevail against all odds. So rest your head, weary child, for our hand is laid upon it, and all is safe on our watch. Rest easy tonight, and all nights, for we will not die, and as long as we live, you are protected. Coronae Aeternus (Latin for "Eternal Defenders of the Siege") This is the oath I helped to write, and swore by. --Special Operative Grade 1st Lieutenant Wolf 11971, Commander of the Slayer Platoon, elite division Task Force Scorpio

My Weekend
I hope everyone had a safe & happy weekend & you got to be with the one you love. I know this was the best weekend of my life cause it was spent with the best thing that ever happened to me. She has made my life so very happy! Hope all of you have someone in your life that makes you very happy also.

Life And Other Shit
Well, to put it bluntly-LIFE FUCKIN SUCKS! right now-The right man comes along (again)and I feel like he is slipping through my fingers-and it breaks my heart! I will NOT give up-I want to be with him more than anything-even if it means leaving CT! Ive said that before-but this time Ive never been more serious-thats how much he means to me-and I will do whatever it takes to keep him! cause I know that the feelings i have for him are REAL-and its killing me because he isnt talking to me-IT HURTS!

Daily Horoscope..
"It's easy to feel like you're disconnected from someone important, but have you even made an effort to try and get back in touch? It could be that they're feeling just as lost and in need of contact as you are." No comment.. just a... o.0

Soon!!!!
The last few days of my life have been such an emotional rollercoaster...as the end of my pregnancy is near so many emotions are soaring through me ...at first I was excited...but as I realize that I have about two months left now fear has set in...and I honestly can't believe I am actually finding myself scared of the unknown road ahead of me...luckily I have alot people in my life that have kept me calm through all of this and assured me that I will be a great mother...which I am sure of myself but it's just so....surreal at times that she will actually BE HERE in my ARMS in two months!!! I guess I felt like this point would never come ....and now here I am wish me luck in my days to come...this week is the final stretch...(the trimester of hell) lol .... yikes : P Atleast I am going to treat myself this weekend and get my hair done :D don't worry I will take pictures!

Lovin A Gangster
Lovin a Gangster Lovin a gangster is so hard 2 do it's like your lovin them n hoping they love you 2, coming home late everynite, waking up the next day, then your out of my site, i cant go thru this cuz your breaking my heart, sometimes it feels like we're torn apart, you say you love me, but those are jus words, you never really showed me how much you cared, i wish you could open your eyes and see how much of my love i gave you, but you say your a gangster, and your down for your hood, but your nothin to me but a stranger that's not even down for his lady, you see where this is goin, i thought we were meant to be, but this is how love goes wen your in love with a gangster.

In Progress...
It starts with simplicity. Eat...grow...survive...what's it's known for all it's life. But at some point a change starts...on the inside and it can burn like fire or be cold as ice but it's happening. You see...it's existence is mundane. It's trite...it's ordinary and no one even notices the change.

The Clock Is Broken
*Before you read this please keep in mind that nothing I put in here is finished or even anywhere near being finished even* The blackness creeps in Dawn fades away The tears stopped Long ago The streaked face remains Memories rush and flood Time stands still I’m still not there You’re not here I’m alone Missing you You’re with him The clock must be broken The tears stopped Years ago Memories stop and dry Time stands still The clock must be broken

I'm Bored So Thought I'd Post This :d
*Blech Blech sputter* Just rolled and attempted to smoke a roll your own since I'm so broke I can't afford to pay attention for a couple days. DAMN!! these things are friggin NAASTAY!!! *spit spit sputter* man I really need to quit. But, just the thought of quitting get me all stressed out and uber bitchy feeling. I'd probably end up killing something or someone if I tried quitting now. KK For the good and safety of all mankind I will not quit yet. There. i feel much better now. Thank you

Accused!
Ok, how's this, I was looking at my own profile and I saw the word Crush, I clicked on it thinking it would bring up info on my crush, but I got acccused of being a SICKO for trying to have a crush on myself! It just got me thinking, how many people have actually tried to do this?? SICKOS!! :)

Kindness
Kindness, as Mother Teresa so beautifully said, is the only language that we all understand. We’ve all heard the saying, “What goes around comes around,” and the following true story is a wonderful reminder of how simple acts of kindness can come back to us when we least expect it. His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer. One day, while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog. There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad from what could have been a slow and terrifying death. The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman’s sparse surroundings. An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved. “I want to repay you,” said the nobleman. “You saved my son’s life.” “No, I can’t accept payment for what I did,” the

Passion Awakens
She was the center of his world His beloved his everything Laying there watching her sleep A woman with so much compassion Her bosom rising with every breath Almost begging for his lips They rise to his face Teasing him with every inhale He could not help but gaze Running his fingers upon her skin Skin soft as suede The color of powdered cocoa Lowering his head He runs his tongue across her nipple His fingers working their way down A magical affair between her legs She starts to stir in her slumber He knows she is almost conscious He rises above her body Knowing how to wake her properly Cupping each cheek in his hands He raises her slightly He slowly slides inside her Caressing her from the inside Her eyes flutter slowly alert The first thing she sees are his eyes Eyes of green peering down Watching her as she awakens She wakes up a little more With every stroke he grants her She starts moving her hips Meeting his every

Okok Cleaned My List Of All The Unwanted's Lol
down to 15 friends, these are the ones i cherrish most and they actually speak to me when i talk to em, leave me comments, and such, nothing like users, and some i kept have mega friends, but still take thier time out to say hi ty to the ones i kept around

A Girl Like Me?
Today, i was fired from my job. Seems simple enough, doesn't it? This is not the case however. My (now ex) boss informed that not only have there been several complaints about my attitude towards customers (in the whole 6 days that i have worked there) but that members of staff have backed these complaints up....i wouldn't be bothered about this if these complaints were to be of truth. From day one of working there, i met a delightfully bitchy worker that has now taken great liberty in getting me the sack as she was jealous of my friendships with the male staff who all happen to fancy the pants off her. ( No idea why....she looks like a slightly demented chipmunk). The Boss went on to explain (not so blatantly but blatant enough) that: 'The staff say you don't pull your weight, they don't like you and, if you continue working here, things will not be as pleasant as you'd first hoped.' At this he did not stop but went on to explain: 'You have a choice. You can either walk out of here

Love Me Today!
I am happy to say, I have made a connection with someone that has been my friend for along time. I hope it will work out, for the long haul. But I know, as a person, I deserve this wonderful man and for me that was half the battle.

Do You Remember When...?
DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN...? All the girls had ugly gym uniforms? It took five minutes for the TV warm up? Nearly everyone's Mom was at home when the kids got home from school? Nobody owned a purebred dog? When a quarter was a decent allowance? You'd reach into a muddy gutter for a penny? Your Mom wore nylons that came in two pieces? All your male teachers wore neckties and female teachers had their hair done every day and wore high heels? You got your windshield cleaned, oil checked, and gas pumped, without asking, all for free, every time? And you didn't pay for air? And, you got trading stamps to boot? Laundry detergent had free glasses, dishes or towels hidden inside the box? It was considered a great privilege to be taken out to dinner at a real restaurant with your parents? They threatened to keep kids back a grade if they failed. . . and they did? When a 57 Chevy was everyone's dream car

Face
No one knows how much it hurts. No one wants to know. Or maybe they just don't care How my life turns out. They just sit back And watch me ruin everything. No help is offered, So none can be taken. Lost in the maze of my emotions. Running and trying to interpret them, But they twist and churn, never ending. They are ruining the facade I have built for myself. The mask I wear Is fading. Slowly. Never to be seen again. And once it's gone, I'll never be the same.

Members Needed
friend request for the CT.L.R.L.Society of Wolves Hows it Going ,I'm Jeff Founder of a Bran new Family here on the CT. Seeking Loyal new members,to be part of the L.R.L.~The Objective of this Family is to Win Contests.The Wolf is out Totem,A Wolf Morph comes with membership.The Wolf is Strength,Unity + Loyalty.Either just send this back as a regular friend.Or send this back a member of my Family.Add L.R.L.~Society of Wolves to your nic.An I'll be by to retrieve your Code an add it to the Family blog,an a Picture for your Morph.Hope to see u.Many Hugs. just click here friend request for the CT.L.R.L.Society of Wolves Lord~Wolf~L.R.L.~Society of Wolves*Roadhouse~Riders~*Club*@ CherryTAP

Friends!!! Who Rock!!
WELL IF YOU DON'T ALREADY KNOW... I'M NOW PIMPIN OUT MY FRIENDS! THE ONES I THINK ARE THE BEST OF THE BEST ON MY FRIENDS LIST.... I WANTED TO DO SOMETHING TO SHOW THEM THAT I CARE! AND THAT I WANT TO PIMP THEM OUT!! BECAUSE EVERYONE DESERVES FRIENDS LIKE THESE! THESE PEEPS NEED TO BE SHOWN SOME LOVE! SINCERELY, ~PIMPIN U OUT~

From Buster
A Real Special Hug! I'm sending this hug, Just to say hi, In case you were wondering, The reason why. You are a friend, With a real soft heart. I'd hug you myself, But we are apart. So here is this hug, To cheer up your day. I picked out this hug, And sent it your way. A real special hug, To say that I care. Because you are my friend. And I like to share

Why Do You Even Try?
Alright apparently people need a little lesson on the life of Wicked Lil Girl because they don’t know how to read a damn profile. So here we go . . . Those of you who took the time to read the profile please disregard as pure monotony. I am a bitch, I enjoy being a bitch, I lived a rough life to earn the right to be this bitchy. I didn’t grow up with a loving family that had money for this and that . . . I grew up without a father and with a drug addicted mother who cared more about the man she was fucking and the high she was seeking than she did her children. I lived a life of less than poverty, we didn’t always have what we needed, we were lucky to have what we needed at times . . . But I always had the mother who was there to lie and make excuses about the stuff to everyone else. Why is the water shut off? Oh well the landlord has to fix one of the pipes under the house so it will be a few days before it is back on. Why is there no heat in the middle of winter? I don’t kn

Shoutbox
If you fuckers that get on my shoutbox and ask do you want to see a big cock? Or want to show me your dirty pictures or cam or chat somewhere else your going to ruin it for the people I actually do talk to. No I don't want to see a big cock, I have had my fill for the day thank you! I am married you know. And if I did want to see your junk I would look so don't offer..... Thank you drive through....

Blah Blah Blah
Just wanted to write this down, been thinking about it recently. Basically, i've noticed a change in me since I started using this site. Before I was on here I was like this un-noticed kid, kinda moped around, always looked at the floor when I was out and about, really shy and so on and so forth. Well since i've been on here, i've had that whole love thing happen to me twice, which was very new to me, very very new in fact, basically cause the only time i'd talked to girls, nevermind women was when I had to at school, other than that they basically didn't know I existed, so yeah, thats one thing. What I'm trying to get at is that somehow, using a website and chatting to mostly people half way accross the world, I acctually feel better of myself, not a lot, i'm still shy and such, but because of that gap i suppose its easier, but I now walk around with my head up (singing most of the time which is just odd, not out loud though) and I can talk to people a little easier (still not women t

Performance Artist To Eat Corgi
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/6701395.stm A performance artist says he will eat a corgi live on a London radio show in protest at a hunt led by Prince Philip. Mark McGowan says the meal is a protest at the alleged mistreatment of a fox which was shot during the hunt on the Queen's Sandringham estate in January. "I know some people will find this offensive and tasteless but I am doing this to raise awareness," said McGowan. After a post-mortem was carried out on the fox, the RSPCA said it had found no evidence of unnecessary suffering. A man had been pictured in several newspapers apparently hitting the animal with a flagpole. He told the RSPCA he had simply turned it with his foot to see if it was dead. "An independent post-mortem examination was carried out and found that the fox died from gunshot wounds - and no evidence of other injury or trauma was found," said the RSPCA in a statement. "The only witness who could have supported the version of events

The Pursuit Of Happiness..
I recently watched this movie(The pursuit of Happyness if you wanna be all correct about it). Anyways. good movie. It really made me start thinking. What is happiness? Where do you find it? Is it something that you can spend your whole life trying to find and never find it? Have some people actually found it? I know there are certain moments of happiness in life, but can you be JUST HAPPY. What defines happiness? Does a certain person make you happy? Money? Friends? I used to think I was happy, but as I grow older I'm starting to realize that I don't know what true happiness is. Maybe it is a state of mind, like something you have to create. Think happy=Be happy? I often look at people and wonder if they have found it. Sure a lot of people are great at putting on that happy face(myself included). But deep down are they satisfied with where they have been, where they are, and where they are going? Maybe my expectations of life are just too high. Maybe it is supposed to be mediocre

Dominance
Domination is not a leather clad woman, who is posed over a cowering helpless slave. You know, thigh high boots, standing in a fighting stance, whip curling over head!!!! What domination really is, is a personality. The dictionary describes it as "control or power over another or others." I cannot find anything about black leather. For most people, the concept of domination is frightening, it implies lack of control and choices, in your life. And in some ways that is true, but every person being dominated always has the right to say no. OOPs, another blog. BDSM, or Domme/Dom/sub (and that is not spelled wrong, in the BDSM community, caps are for Dominates and small case letters for submissives). It makes online and written domination clear as to a persons role. The internet gave all of us access to a very broad world, we are able to explore and research and view anything we choose. But, it can also give us really warped conceptions of the things we see and hear. A Dominate to me is a

Meeting, Falling In Love, Marriage...on Ct? Yes!!!
I've heard that you can't fall in love over the internet. It's not real love until you meet him or her! Well, I'm close to that point. Kally and I are very serious about each other. Could it lead to marriage? I say yes. I love Kally with all my heart and soul. She feels the same way about me! So if anyone (of my friends that is!) reads this and sees a bulletin later announcing an engagement, you will know it's the real thing! OK. Someone is saying that I'm crazy for taking this kind risk. With my heart, I'm willing to take such a risk. I think with my heart. Kally is an emotional person too. That's not a problem with me. She needs my help and I need hers. Together we can overcome ANYTHING. She is my love, and I am hers. The next chapter in our love story will be when Kally and I exchange wedding vows. Believe me, when two people believe in "Til death do us part" like we do, we will be counting on us being together until God calls us home!

Damn.........lol
Well this fits yet so confusing......... The situation is so confusing that you're half convinced walking away is the solution. But maybe you need to ask yourself a different question. Maybe it's not should you stay or should you go, but what should you do next?

Write A Book
Something has been on my mind for sometime now. When I was living in Iowa and married to a person that will remain name less. I wrote a book which got tossed in the trash if you can beleave that. I will not get in to the reason why lets just always make a copy of your work and hide it. Anyway I wrote a book about a truck driver that went around and killed people and put them in other truck driver loads. Well I have been thinking about re writing that story but I am not sure how to go about giving it to a place that can help me make it a book let alone when do I send it. I would like to write a few chapters and send them off to see if it is any good before I write the whole thing. So if you can help pls let me know. Since I am on this blog. Why is it that I have this feeling that I have to own a business. Am I just insaine or is it my blood. My dad but his company in to the ground. Well sorry for buggin everyone. thanks for reading this boring blog. Thanks Jim

Dead Inside
dead inside You Just Don't Know... How Hard For Me To Forget This.. Everytime I Saw Your Face My Heart Bleed Inside Why Am I Not The Lucky One Why Life So Unfair To Me.. I Saw You The First Time I Wanted To Know You SO Much Before I Even Begin My Journey (Blink)It Took It From Me Am I Really Dead Inside Am I Really Dead That No One Really Know That Im Actually Exist Am I ...Am I...DEAD??!!

I Need You
I need you here beside me, My friend I need you here, As I am going through a time of hurt, A time of pain and fear. For i can not bear to stand alone, In this heart of mine, I need you here to support me, This pain will last some time. I need you here, In every single way, As I can no longer stand alone, No minute, no hour, no day. This pain i feel is an un-ordinary thing, It is not the kind of feeling i need, I can not stand the pain, but there's nothing I can do, I hope and I wish and I dream, That someday I can stand against this feeling, But it is not possible, Unless I am here with you!

For Those Who Are Interested In More Than Just My Breasts
It's been too long since I blogged. I enjoy bloggin on myspace because the people I generally want to read it are on myspace. But Since my boyfriend and all his friends are on my Myspace I really don't want them reading all this. I mean if they do its not the end of the world its just I would rather them not. I need to blog to get all this toxic waste thats in my brain out. Right now I'm in pain and and this blog is for me so it's going to be kinda dark. My life has not been very happy. I've had alot of pain such as everyone else. 3 months ago today I checked myself into a rehab. I wasn't on hard drugs and I was hardly on RX's. I did it because I saw my life becoming unmanageable and I wanted to salvage my life before it was too late. I have a Beautiful daughter who will be four in two weeks. She is my priorty. While in rehab they talked me out of drinking anymore, not that I was much of a drinker. The crazy thing is I struggle with missing things to numb myself. Getting

The Difference
I was torn in two by what I thought was love lost in the not so distant past. (okay I know a little melodramatic) I had a long distance love affair with a soldier in Iraq. It was intense and passionate and I thought it could be more. More what? Just more.. I am a realist but I was thinking when he got home we would date and see about the rest. Obviously it did not work or I wouldn't be blogging about it lol. I am not gonna get into the details cause it really doesn't matter how it ended. The fact is it did and it hurt but it made me realize a couple things. 1. I am a strong woman ( although there were a couple nights with Jose Cuervo that I would like to forget lol) 2. The love I thought we shared was not healthy. I am not saying the feeling weren't real. It just was too much too soon and the whole relationship began to consume who I am. Bottom line.. the realtionship was never meant to be. So now I am getting close to a man who has been a friend and confidant. We can talk about any

A Pantoum
Like grandpa to a child Who pulls a quarter from the ear Placed gently in the palm A child’s fears held mild Who pulls a quarter from the ear Strangers found me in the wild A child’s fears held mild To ease the sting of tears Strangers found me in the wild Gave my life a subtle calm

3 Murders!!!!
The reason there are 3 ghosts in my house is because 5 years ago before me, my husband and son moved in 3 people died here....The neighbors told me that the father came home one night and snapped....He strangled his wife in the master bathroom which that is my bathroom now....He stabbed his little 4 year old girl to death in her bedroom he stabbed her over 60 times that is the room my little girl stays in now....She wasn't even born when we moved in she is 2 years old now....The father then went into the room which now belongs to my son and blew his brains out there....There was a son too but they never found a trace of him in the house or on the property he was 6 years old....This is why my house is haunted and why I am having so many encounters....These spirits never crossed over they are still in my house!!!!

Soldier Brutally Beaten At Las Vegas Airport Now He Cannot Serve In Iraq (read Spread The Word)
Soldier Brutally Beaten At Las Vegas Airport Now He Cannot Serve In Iraq When Army Sgt Mark Englund went to Las Vegas he went with the intent of having some fun before shipping off. Little did he know that upon going to leave Vegas from the airport he'd be in for the fight of his life. I will let the videos speak for themselves. But, all I will say is it is a very shocking brutal and senseless attack by Las Vegas Police Officers on a great hero/patriot Sgt mark Englund. Thanks to them breaking his rib with the blows of their nightsticks and the 3 shots from a tasergun, he won't be able to go to Iraq. The men that he was training in preparation of going to Iraq were stunned and shocked by the attack. They said he will be deeply missed in Iraq where they needed him, as a leader. I made a promise to his wife and him that I would help them out in any way possible. I am working on getting them on Fox News so it will go nationally. Here is part of the e-mail I received from

Bling Bling Baby!!!
YOU GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO BE THE MOST BLINGED OUT ON CT??!! IF YOU HAVE A PIMPED OUT PIC WITH SPARKLE, SHINE OR IF YOU JUST KNOW YOU’RE THE SHIT HIT ME UP AND ENTER MY CONTEST!!! *IF YOU ARE INTERESTED PLEASE SEND THE LINK FOR THE PIC YOU WOULD LIKE TO ENTER *NO NSFW PIX ALLOWED *COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED *SELF BOMBING ALLOWED *TOP (3) BLINGED OUT PIX WITH MOST COMMENTS, WINS *CONTEST TO RUN A FULL (7) DAYS, BEGIN AT NOON AND END AT NOON (CST), AS SOON AS I HAVE ENOUGH ENTRIES *PRIZES WILL BE GIVEN DURING THE NEXT HAPPY HOUR FOLLOWING THE CONTEST PRIZES: 1ST PRIZE: OR 2nd PRIZE: OR 3RD PRIZE: OR Luscious♥Mami of Club F.A.R.@ CherryTAP PLEASE MESSAGE ME IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS AND MUCH LOVE TO ALL MA SEXI CHERRIES!!! HUGS, SONYA XOXOX

And The Fucktard Of The Year...
Ok so I normally stay outta drama on here but this was uncalled for so I reposted this bulletin... http://cherrytap.com/bulletins.php?b=2835221417# He was on on my fan train so I commented him asking him to plz take I.A.R. off his name b/c he was no longer a member. & I blocked both of his accounts that were posted in the bulletin. Than the fucktard makes another account... bbG LOVER and comments my fan train page... ~Insane Asylum Rejects FanTrain Family Page ~ w/this image... & in regards to the comments his CT wife left in the bulletin I posted, she needs to get her facts straight b/f going off on ppl. BBG didn't start ripping his pics till after he had ripped the pic of a fallen solider. If he doesn't like his pics being ripped than maybe he shouldn't rip just to start shit. I think these 2 deserve each other & I believe they have won the fucktard of year award for this blog LoL! THAN THE CRY BABY POSTS THIS BLOG... http://cherrytap.com/blog/87318/3696

The Italian Tomato Garden
An old man lives in the country, alone. He wanted to dig his tomato garden, but it was very hard work as the ground was hard. His only son, Vincent, who was used to help him was in prison. Te old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament. Gets kinda funni from here. hehe Dear Vincent, Im feeling pretty badly, cause it looks like I wont be able to plant my tomato garden this year. Im getting to old to be digging up the tomato plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would be happy to dig up the plot for me. Love Dad A few days later he received a letter form his son. Dear Dad, Dont dig up the garden. Thats where i buried the bodies. Love Vinnie At 4 am, police and F.B.I. agents dug up the whole area, not finding any bodies, they appologized to the old man and left. That same day the old man received a letter from his son. Dear Dad, Go ahead and plant those tomatoes now, That was the best I could do

I Really Do Give Up With This Place
just getting me site rehosted elswhere and looking at webcam options to see how that works, anyway wont be here much as it just does me head in now, I did quite used to like this place at one time, but the novelty wore off really quick

Song
Everytime I close my eyes Babe, Its you I see. Dont you know what you mean to me. Everything i hear and see, Reminds me of you. Even the man in the moon. We could have so much, If only you took the time to see. No i cant see the future but girl if i could, it would filled with you.

Rains Embrace
Rain's Embrace Cold, quite rain gently falling Yet the dampness we don't feel; For our bodies are absorbed in each other Hot as the heat from hell. I lead you slowly into the woods Place a quilt on the ground; The noise of nature is all around us Yet the beating of our hearts is the only sound. Your kiss is gentle, yet demanding My body arches to feel The touch of your hand, the feel of you Without resistance to you, I yield. You taste the essence of my body You bring me more pleasure than I've ever known I give myself to you completely The quietness is disturbed by our groans. You rise above me with a sudden urgency Our needs are great, we both have found; Our hearts pounding with anticipation We become one, lying there on the ground. Rain has never been more beautiful As we lie together in each other's embrace; The taste of you, the feel of nature A beautiful moment- in my memory forever encased.

I Was Reminded
as we lay there quite I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively your laugh, and the way it tempted me your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me as we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons I love you your smile, and the way it brings such life into me your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts as we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you your smile, and the way it confuses me your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me youe eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

What Dragon Are You?
your dragon self (stunning pics and detailed results) You Are A Fairie Dragon, you live in trees and you are mischievous and malicious and like to pull pranks on everybody. You can become invisible and you can breath a gas that gets your enemy totally uniterested in the fight. You attack only to protect your territory. You have telepathic abilities and you can communicate with other forest animals.stone: amethystquote: "Tragedy is when I cut my finger. Comedy is when you walk into an open sewer and die." from Mel Brooks you control:humor Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Completely Off Topic
Is it just me? So I'm in a line at the register at my local 7-11 type store (not actually a 7-11) and there's this lady with a couple of kiddies in front of me paying for some stuff... no biggie... then i notice what the one kid is messing around with... ***Editor's Note: I KNOW that I'm out of touch with the reality to which most people subscribe, but have I gone THAT far astray?*** ...messing around with a small machine, a toy, which spins the lollipop it is attached to in the kids mouth. WTF? No wonder kids are getting fat; hell they're apparently too lazy to lick a damned lollipop whithout High Tech assistance... auuurrrgh.... *stalks off to find a new Universe in which to live...*

Sin City Pt 1
She was walking home just as she had always done after work. Always at night and always in the wrong part of the city. She always tried to be as invisible as possible. And so far she always got home safe. But tonight was just not her night, it was raining and she had forgotten to bring an umbrella or even a rain coat. At least it was only sprinkling but she would be soaked by the time she got home. She didnt like the idea that she was working at "The Oasis" the local strip club to pay for her bills and her 3 year old son's food. But every time she tried to think of another way to make good money her head would just hurt and then her heart. So she just kept walking down the barely lit sidewalk when she had just realized she had been keeping an eye out around her. She started walking a little faster and looked around franticly. But no one was around save the sound of a rusted out car that was probably one street over. As she kept walking she kept thinking it sounded like the car was gett

My Firegear Works
So we had a truck fire yesterday which is no big deal right well wrong. You never know what will happen at and kind of fire and yesterday proved it. I was on the attack line backing up the other firefighter when I started to feel my leg getting a lil hot. I look down and well i am standing in a nice lil patch of flameing debris from the truck. That kind of freaked me out a lil bit but the best thing is the gear did its job and worked great for me. It kind of freaks you out the first time when ya see your legs with fire about up to the knee. But it works out we got the fire out and no one hurt!

Some Ppl
I have come to the conclusion, that there are some clever people in this world.....People trying to get close to those that are close to me, and believe it or not, I am not suprised....A bit confused, but not suprised.When all else fails.....FRESH TACTICS.....SO I guess I'll just sit back and see what happens....It amazes me that they can convince people of even the purest bullshit.....While I have to give you credit for being so smart, I must also tell you that I am not as stupid as you may have thought. I see what you are doing, and I know why you are doing it.....So do yourself a favor and just stop......You have caused enough damage, and quite frankly you now have your own life, which means you are out of mine.....So now that you are out of my life.......STAY OUT......Stop trying to weasel your way back, you have stated your case and convinced people of shit that simply isnt true......I do truly hope that you are happy with what you have done, but for the love of all that is holy..

Come Feel Me.
Tagged by Cat to tell you the 6 spots that make me hot and by Lanie, to tell you some 10 truths/lies. I am going to combine them and give you 10 spots that make me oh so so hot ... but only 6 will be true ... You can guess which! If you touch me anywhere within the truth zone ... you own me for the night ;) 1.) My tongue ... not so much if you touch it ... but while it is touching. 2.) My brain ... mucho stimulation if you can get sexy inside my head. 3.) The very tip of my pinky ... when touched lightly. 4.) My hair ... when gently pulled. 5.) My booty ... when lightly spanked. 6.) My elbow ... when dipped in whipped cream and licked clean. 7.) My neck ... when lightly kissed or whispered upon. 8.) Inner thigh ... when gently rubbed. 9.) My collarbone ... when given tongue action. 10.) The nips of my tipples ... when stroked in a circular motion . I am not tagging anybody ... so just list your hot spot below or tak

Missing You
Missing you ~Tony Martinez Some long days passed I didn't hear your sweet voice whispering in my ear I would whisper for you Not wanting to wake the Darkness from the stupor. Finally you called out to me Told me not to fear For you heard me We come together in a loving embrace I rub my face on yours Tears flowing freely I love you Angel I love you God I love you I kiss you deeply not wanting to let go How I have missed you I love you My angel

Stuff I Wrote In High School
Deadly Night The darkness fills me. The blackness consumes me. The emptiness surrounds me. The man inside has left me. The pain is so great. The time has been so long. The one I've needed I didn't know. The ones I've known I haven't needed. The memories kill with each rememborance. The light of hope has dwindled out. The anwsers evade me, out of reach. The scent of happiness runs from me. There is nothing left of the real me. My sanity my loss I see my sanity dripping as out of a faucet I see my self in the puddle it makes my reflection looks different he laughs and points what is this I am? without my self who am I? If I am still here who is in the puddle laughing? Is it me? Or some one inside me? Why does he hurt me? Who can I be without myself? At last I am nothing! My selves My loneliness enslaves me like a maniac being tied up and because of this so I am My anger rages like a caged lion he threatens to harm but no one hears his vengefu

Do You Love Music ???
Hi all you sexie cherry tappers, thanks for stopping by and showin love! I would love to show ya the same love, so stop on by www.aftershockradio247.com and let us know what you wanna hear. We play it all and our dj's kick ass !! *~-=-ASR247DJ-=-~* Your #1 station & the BEST on the Net-All request all the Time! >URL FOR WMP OR WINAMP http://rs1.radiostreamer.com:8028/ www.aftershockradio247.com Now Hiring !! Like what you Hear? http://radio.top-site-list.com/vote65.html Also look for us in the After Shock Radio lounge right here in CT !! I DJ Live Mondays and Thursdays noon to 3pm Eastern time, stop by and give love to all our rockin djs!!

It's Hard
It's hard ~Tony Martinez I come in the early mornings When all is still No one is around I come to you My angel To give you As much of me that you need and want I know it's hard I know it's bittersweet You feel it You love it But you still hold back I understand my love I do It is hard for me It is bittersweet for me I hate hiding in the shadows But for you I will do anything Don't hold back my love Don't hold back my angel Let that fire shine that i see in your eyes Even if only for 1 moment Even if only for 1 morning I will dive into the Darkness to keep it at bay when the morning is over I will only come to you for such a special morning A special moment When I need to recharge No matter what I will present myself to you Each morning When all is still Giving you all you need and want I know it's hard I love you My angel

Apple, Banana, Bannock
The teacher walks in and finds an apple on her desk with the letters 'ILU" written on it. She asks who left the apple, and a little white girl raises her hand. "Well, sweetie, what does 'ILU' mean?" The little girl replies,"I love you." The teacher says, "Isn't that sweet" and continues with class. The next day the teacher finds a banana on her desk with the letters "YAS" written on it. The teacher asks who left the banana and what the letters mean. A little white boy raises his hand and says,"It means, 'You are special.'" "Thank you sweetheart," the teacher says. The following day, the teacher walks in to find a basket of bannock with the letters "FUCK" written on it. The enraged teacher asks who left it. A little Indian girl raises her hand and cheerfully says,"Yes ma'am, I left it. It means, 'From Us Cree Kids'."

Im Sorry
i am feeling sorry for the people who had crushes on me i dont know if it is because i didnt talk to you or if it was because of me deleteing my nsfw folder but in any case i am sorry but i have a child who is special needs and i am moveing this weekend so i am packing and if any of you dont understand im sorry as well i do the best i can and i try to talk to you all but there are so many friends and the only way i can think is through blogging i love you all and you all are awsome just try to understand please it isnt i dont want to talk to you all cause i do but some times it is hard

My First Posting For This !
I am starting this blog to share with everyone some great artists I have found on Cherry Tap. There are some very talented people on this site and I thought it would be good for me to share those that I find with anyone who wants to see other talent. I am going to post links to profiles of people that have exceptional talent in the areas of Photography, traditional art, crafts and digital or graphic arts. I am hoping that it will generate more interest in these areas and people will know where to look to find others with these interests. I am always looking for more talent.........so if you think you have something to show me let me know and I will check it out and if you are good I will add your link to this blog. I know I don't have all the wonderful artist that I have ran across listed yet but this is a start. If I missed you I am sorry I will add you as soon as you remind me.......getting older sucks and my memory has never been all that good anyway! So,

If You Knew... Would You Tell Me?
If I could walk on water to come see you, I would... If I could rob a bank just to have money to come see you, I would.... If I could grow wings to fly to you, I would... There's nothing I wouldn't do, just to spend time with you... I'd do everything to be with you, but do you know? Can you see how much I truly care about you? does it matter? if you know...why don't you tell me? Why do I find it so hard to tell you exactly HOW much I care about you? why can't I find the words to be tell you my feelings? I find that there isn't enough words in the world, to tell you how strong I care... But if I somehow could find all the right words... would you listen? would you care? or.... would you break my heart into a million pieces? I guess this is the trust I must put into you, to be honest with me. I must learn to have faith in the things I say and the things that I do... But there's so much mending to do on my heart... Not sure if it worth it to tell you exactly how I feel just yet... But is

Life
I haven't written in a long time and not sure if this is just a momentary lapse of sanity or because I am loosing grip on everything. I have been tested alot over the past year. I have become a single mom because my husband is in prison. I have tried to be a good mother to my children but I am letting them down. I am letting everyone that depends on me down. I went from having a full time job to a piece of shit part time one but on the promise it would be full time and more money. But its not. Now I am probably gonna loose everything I have worked my ass off to keep. I went today to try to get some monetary help from an outreach program and because I can't show her proof that I am making less money now, she told me . in front of my children that we were probably gonna be homeless...... How does someone say something that intense in front of 2 very impressionable children, who have already lost their daddy for the most part??? How does someone say that in front of children PERIOD? M

7 Day Blast
Well, my blast is finally over. I swear i'm going to miss the hundreds of friend requests as soon as I sign on LOL To all of those who rated/faned me.. I will get to you. Just give me some time. I GOT COMPLETELY SWAMPED! The love did not go unappreciated. Thanks everyone and Hello New Friends!!! XOXO Stephanie

I'm Baaaaaack! :)
Well, dammit, CT wouldn't delete my account and it was driving me nuts, so I've decided to keep the account. I wont be as active as I once was, but I'll be checking in from time to time and rebuilding my page. You guys are all so sweet - I love all the comments and letters I got while I was gone. I just don't know what to say. I felt bad leaving CT, but knew I just couldn't keep up with everything. I have constant nausea, so I'm pre-occupied with dealing with that and trying to feel better. I traded my Mustang for my new Ridgeline and I love it. I miss the speed, but love all the features and convenience of the Ridgeline. :) Well, I gotta run - I have a doctors appt today at 3pm. I hope all is well with everyone and that I get to talk to you all soon! Much love, Wendy :)

So That's What's Wrong With Me
had to write this shit down...could hardly believe my ears when this was said to me...but thank god for someone honest enough to tell me the truth...even if it does hurt...anyway...i was talking to my best GUY friend...and NO im not fucking him...i asked him for an honest answer to the question ,"do i come across as easy or slutty"...the answer to that question was "a little" i said ok and thank you for the honesty...then he kept going...said more than anything...i come across as desperate...WOW...that i never expected...however, i think he was right...i want to find someone who will love me for me...and i try too hard most of the time...what an eye opener...for those of you that i actually know....who read this...please PM me and let me know if this is how i come across to you as well....for the others that i have just talked to, im sorry if i gave you this impression, because that isn't me at all, i am caring, loving compassionate and an extreme romantic...although very outspoken...

George Carlins On Life
George Carlin (Absolutely Brilliant) IF YOU DON'T READ THIS TO THE VERY END, YOU HAVE LOST A DAY IN YOUR LIFE. George Carlin's View on Aging Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions. "How old are you?" "I'm four and a half!" You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key. You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead. "How old are you?" "I'm gonna be 16!" You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16! And then the greatest day of your life . . You become 21. Even the words sound like a ceremony . . YOU BECOME 21. YESSSS!!! But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're Just a sour-dumpling. What's wrong? What's

Raining My Fantacy...
Hearing the rumble, feeling the roar The clouds are blackend, the sun is no more All is calm, no pressure from wind It's before the storm, this will soon end A drop here, and a drop there One by one they fall I stand now with outstretched arms Waiting for it all Invisible to the eye, thought it's clearly seen As is sweeps through my body, all over and in between I hear it again, the sound so fierce I see an illuminating light, fast and scarce The sound makes me twitch in fear, I know the power it has I want to see it again, more power, more might The drops become large, falling faster by in time My hands still scretched out, Shivers all up and down my spine The wind picking up, the rain begins to sting I love this feeling, with all my Being Soaking in my clothes, my shorts, pants, and shoes Wishing you were here with me, just us two The feeling of your body, as you tremble against me The lightning and the thunder, HOLD ME is your plea I hold you tight an

A Fire Call
Fire call Hello, Help! "Send someone over quickly!" the old woman screamed into the phone. "Two naked bikers are climbing up toward my bedroom window!" "This is the Fire Department, lady," the voice replied. "I'll have to transfer you to the Police Department." "No, it's YOU I want!" she yelled. "They need a longer ladder!" YA'LL HAVE A GOOD DAY NOW ... YA HEAR

Shoulder Update
Ok, so I was gonna write this earlier and let everyone know that it was doing much better...well, things have changed since then. Once again this morning, I opted to not wear the sling, cuz it felt pretty good. Well, it has popped four times today and I can't quit reaching for stuff with it, so I've been abusing it and am icing it as I write this. I have taken the liberty of making a doctor's appointment and was lucky enuf to find one tomorrow afternoon, so let's hope they don't give me some funky shot in my shoulder or something...I have three piercings, but that doesn't mean I like needles. Anyways, I'll update everyone when I know what's going on with it...I'm hoping for the best but preparing for the worst...Wish me luck!! Cami

Contest Needs Any Help U Can Give
I am yet again in a contest. If you are intrested in showing support comment as much as you would like. I have nothing to ofer, but my thanks. any help is apreciated P.S Did I say it's the sexiest man on CT contest? Well it is! So only give me what you think I am worth. It ends in two weeks

Pres Roosevelt's Ideas On Immigrants And Being An American In 1907
Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907. "In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1907 Every American citizen needs to read this! KEEP THIS MOVING

I Think There Was A Mis Understanding
Okay this is all kind of written in reverse order the guy may not have went about it the right way and it all kind of got blown out of proportion at the end but in all reality all he wanted was to see some tits and I KNOW that many of you guys on my list have wanted the same thing and that's why you wanted on my friends list...and even if that's not why you wanted on my friends list at some point in time you have wanted to see tits and finangled your way into getting a female to show them to you...am I right or am I wrong. First of all, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH SHOWING YOUR TITS??? I did not HAVE to show my tits to GET A MAN as this person states. I show my tits cause I like to, I am proud of them, God gave them to me. And if I do bring them out and flash them it gives me extra chances to play with them and rub on them which feels good so who wouldn't want to. Just be cause you "HAVE A MAN" doesn't mean that you have to be some sort of sexual prude. "MY MAN" as you say is

The Winners For The Bomber's Choice 1
CONGRATULATION FOR THE WINNERS IN THE BOMBER'S CHOICE 1 CONTEST HERE IT GOES BY THE TOTAL OF THE COMMENTS FOR THE FIRST 2 WINNERS. ITS INCLUDE THE SCRIPT FOR THE TOTAL OF THE COMMENTS AND THE TIME FOR THE LAST COMMENTS WAS DROPPED ON EACH ONE OF THE 2 CONTESTANTS THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PARTICIPATION AND EVERY ONE HELPED BY RATING AND COMMENTING. AND FOR MORE INFO CHECK THE ALBUM ITS THE BOMBER'S CHOICE 1 CONTEST HAVE A GREAT EVENING AND UPCOMING WEEKEND ALL HUGS WildCat

Leaving Las Vegas
Hello to all my blog readers. I'm sure you have noticed I haven't been online for a week. When leaving for Vegas I failed to bring my AC adapter for the laptop. I am happy to say I am back online. Just sitting in the Las Vegas airport waiting for my flight back to California and to ride my bike. I'll be posting new photo's soon.

Poem:will You Marry Me
What would it take, to make you mine. If I gave my heart, to you and say I do. Darlin' you deserve the, best of my prefect love. That wants to be worthy to, your heart and true to your soul. Where Faith,Trust,Hope, and Sencerity stands above. Nothing in this world, could or would take its place. Its these feelings I have for you, will always be apart of my commitment. with this vow that I've made on this day, so you and I can cherish and will you marry me. Sign: Forever Raymond Starns Dated and Revised: 6/1/07

A Huge Thank-you
We all here at the GIT-R-DONE REBEL&INDEPENDENT'S~FAMILY'S~BOMBSQUAD would like to take this opportunity to send out a big thank-you to rebel breed and the confederate's for once again having our back's.Ya'll rock and we are here for ya'll just say the word. Crazy FrogWe Are The ChampionsMusic Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

The Job Is Done!!
OK I GAVE EVERYBODY A FULL WEEK TO RESPOND, AND I HAVE CLEANED UP THE FRIENDS LIST!! IF YOU ARE STILL ON MY LIST, CONSIDER YOUR SELF A REAL FRIEND. BUT PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE ME NOW THAT YOU HAVE BEEN SAVED. I ONLY CLEANED OUT BECAUSE I WAS SICK AND TIRED OF GETTING BLASTED WITH WHAT PEOPLE, THAT DON'T TALK TO ME UNLESS THEY WANT SOMETHING, WERE DOING!! I VALUE MY FRIENDS BUT I'M TIRED OF MISSING WHAT REAL FRIENDS ARE DOING. ON THAT SUBJECT, IS THERE A WAY TO ARRANGE YOUR FRIENDS LIST ( LIKE A TOP 25 OR SOMETHING) ??? IF NOT, I THINK WE NEED TO ASK BABY-J FOR A FEATURE LIKE THAT ON HIS NEXT ROUNDS OF "IMPROVEMENTS" THANKS FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY RANTING, CHRIS ~~ JOKERLUVSBOOBS

Rules Female Make
The Rules by which females are governed The FEMALE always makes the rules. The RULES are subject to change at any time without prior notification...by the FEMALE No MALE can possibly know all the RULES. If the FEMALE suspects the MALE knows all the RULES, she must immediately change some or all of them The FEMALE is never wrong. If the FEMALE is wrong, it is due to a misunderstanding which was a direct result of something the MALE did or said wrong. The MALE must apologize immediately for causing the misunderstandings. The FEMALE may change her mind at any time. The MALE must never change his mind without the express written consent of the FEMALE. The FEMALE has every right to be angry or upset at any time. The MALE must remain calm at all times, unless the FEMALE wants him to be angry or upset. The FEMALE must, under no circumstances, let the MALE know whether or not she wants him to be angry or upset. The Male is expected to "mind read" at all t

20 Ways To Terrorize A Telemarketer :d
1. If they want to loan you money, tell them you just filed for bankruptcy and you could sure use some money. 2. If they start out with, "How are you today?" say, "I'm so glad you asked, because no one these days seems to care, and I have all these problems. My arthritis is acting up, my eyelashes are sore, my dog just died... " 3. If they say they're John Doe from XYZ Company, ask them to spell their name. Then ask them to spell the company name. Then ask them where it is located, how long it has been in business, how many people work there, how they got into this line of work if they are married, how many kids they have, etc. Continue asking them personal questions or questions about their company for as long as necessary. 4. This works great if you are male. Telemarketer: "Hi, my name is Judy and I'm with XYZ Company." You: Wait for a second and with a real husky voice ask, "What are you wearing?" 5. Cry out in surprise, "Judy? Is that you? Oh my God! Judy, how have you

The Guardian Angel
When u close ur eyes to go to sleep ,and u feel the wind softly touch u...that will be me kissing ur cheek...When u get that warm cozy feeling ...that will be me putting my arms around u ...but since i'm not there at this moment ...I'm sending my Guardian Angel to keep u safe from harm,and to hold u safe ...until I get there

Awakening
There was a warm; gentle breeze blowing as she stared at the waves crashing on the shore. The horizon had blended into the sea as the Sun had already set; leaving a faint lavender haze that was quickly merging into the dark blackness of the ocean. Her thoughts were elsewhere as the stars slowly blinked into existence before her eyes. She was thinking how cold and disinterested Victor was as he broke the news to her, “ It’s not your fault, I’ve just changed, people change you know. I feel shackled and emaciated by our arrangement, I’m sorry but I need out!” She knew what he meant, he had grown tired of her, after 6 years of loving and caring, of giving of herself completely, he had just thrown her away. The pain was something that she knew she had to stop, and after six months of trying to forget, of changing her routine and habits she had come up with the only solution she could think of. That was what had brought her to this beach on this warm dark ni

A Touch Never Felt...........
A TOUCH NEVER FELT HOW CAN YOU ACHE AND CRAVE FOR SOMEONE'S TOUCH? WHEN YOU HAVE NEVER FELT IT? I DO THIS FOR YOURS, THOUGH. AND THE YEARNING GROWS MORE EACH DAY. I HAVE NEVER WANTED ANYTHING IN MY LIFE AS MUCH AS I WANT YOU. WHEN YOU WHISPER SUCH SWEET LOVE, IN MY EAR WHEN WE TALK. YOU MAKE ME MELT INTO A PUDDLE OF COMPLETE HELPLESSNESS. YOU HAVE BECOME MY EVERY WAKING THOUGHT AND MY DREAM EVERY NIGHT. I BREATHE IN SO HARD TRYING TO CATCH MY BREATH WEHN WE CAN'T TALK. I CLOSE MY EYES SO TIGHT HOPING WHEN I OPEN THEM, YOU WILL BE THRE. BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL THE TIME IS RIGHT. IT SEEMS SO FAR AWAY THAT I THINK I AM LOSING MY MIND. I WANT TO BREATHE IN YOUR SECENT. AND KEEP IT WITH ME ALL DAY LONG. I WANT TO TASTE YOUR LOVE FOR ME. BY KISSING YOUR SWEET LIPS. I WANT TO FEEL YOUR BODY NEXT TO ME SO WHEN YOU LEAVE FOR AWHILE, I CAN HOLD ON I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I REALLY, DO LOVE YOU. WHEN THE DAY COMES AND WE ARE TOGETHER YOU

Depression
Depression, if only it would go away It makes me wonder why I live life this way Why I go from day to day Trying to look for the light But the darkness just pulls me back Pain consumes me And I want to escape Not worth the breath of life I wonder why Im even here Life was just a mistake Just a face lost in the crowd Screaming so loud But its like no one hears I wipe away these tears But more fall Trying so hard to be strong But a silent tear is all I have to show I dont want to face this pain anymore I want to lock myself away from all the world Im so confused Sick of life Sick of the pain Sick of going through this shit from day to day Why must I live life this way? Guess Ill never know Silent tears are all I have to show

Bats
Few mammals are as shrouded in fear and superstition as bats. In western culture, bats are regarded as symbols of doom and darkness and associated with horror stories in the Dracula tradition. Common fallacies are that bats are blind, a sign of death and will entagle themselves in people's hair. Undoubtedly, some of this fear stems from an unfamiliarity with these mammals. In fact, bats are among nature's most fascinating animals. They display a number of remarkable adaptations for their unique lifestyle. Bats are flying mammals. Like all mammals, they have teeth and a body covering of fur, they give birth to live young and nurse their young with milk. However, bats are the only mammals that possess wings and the ability to fly. A bat's wing is quite different from a bird's wing, cosisting of a membrane of elastic skin stretched across the bones of the fingers and hand. The scientific name for bats, Chiroptera, is a Greek word that means "winged hand". Scientists recognize some

I Just Had To See What It Said.
Whats Your Sex StyleROLEPLAY!!you are always up for jumping into the sexy lil play outfit, and telling your partner what to do!!! your up for anything!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

Love You To Death By Type O Negative
In her place one hundred candles burning as salty sweat drips from her breast her hips move and I can feel what they're saying, swaying They say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya,get... Black lipstick stains her glass of red wine I am your servant, may I light your cigarette? Those lips smooth, yeah I can feel what you're saying, praying They say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get... I beg to serve, your wish is my law Now close those eyes and let me love you to death Shall I prove I mean what I'm saying, begging I say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get.. Let me love you too Let me love you to death Hey am I good enough for you? Hey am i good enough for you? Am I? Am I? Am I good enough for you?

13 Things Pms Stands For:
13 THINGS PMS STANDS FOR: 1. PASS MY SHOTGUN 2. PSYCHOTIC MOOD SWING 3. PERPETUAL MUNCHING SPREE 4. PUFFY MIDSECTION 5. PEOPLE MAKE me SICK 6. PROVIDE ME with SWEETS 7. PARDON MY SOBBING 8. PIMPLES MAY SURFACE 9. PASS MY SWEATS 10. PISSY MOOD SYNDROME 11. POOR MEN SUCK 12. PACK MY STUFF &&& MY FAVORITE ONE 13. POTENTIAL MURDER SUSPECT

Why Ar Eyou Fake
YOU SAID YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME. BUT YOUR NOT YOU SAID THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME. BUT YOU DONT. WE SAID WE WOULD BE FRIENDS TILL THE END AND IT FEELS AS IF THIS STORY HAS WRITTEN ITS LAST CHAPTER. WHY ARE YOU SODAMN FAKE? PRETEND TO CARE BUT THEN YOU DONT...BITCHES COME AND GO BUT FRIEND ARE TO REMAIN AND YOUR JUST A BITCH IN MY BOOK SO YOU CAN BE ON YOUR WAY. SORRY I HAD TO GET THIS OUT MY BEST FRIEND OF 3 YEARS HAS FINALLY SHOWN HIS TRUE COLORS

I Think This Is The List. If I Forgot Anyone Please Speak Up Or Foreva Hold Yo Peace!
okay the S*U*P* family is just a little family.. We don't have many members but we are growing every day.. All is welcome to join.. This past week one of my S*U*P* boys joined a contest where a large strong bombing group was in.. I knew right from the start we were done but I have a problem with giving up. I don't like to do it.. I was overwhelmed by the out come of this contest.. Never had I been in a contest that scored so many comments.. My Posse could not of gotten nearly half that many comments alone.. It took specail people my ct friends and friends of others to come out and help in this contest.. We ended up having a fighting chance after all. Wow.. Its hard to compete with people who are your friends.. I have been friends with a lot of the confeds members for a long time.. Long before there was even a Posse.. I cant tell you this. Being up against friends has not only made us closers as friends but gave us a fair, fun, and exciting contest.. Ya I wanted to win but if we didn't

Sooner Or Later
sooner or later Sooner or later a person begins to notice that everything that happens to her is perfect, relates directly to who she is, had to happen, plays its little role in fulfilling her destiny. When she encounters difficulty, it no longer occurs to her to complain - she has learned to expect nothing, has learned that loss and frustration are a part of life, and come at their proper time - instead she asks herself, whyis this happening? ... by which she means, what can I learn from this, how will it strengthen me, make me more aware? She lets herself be strengthened, lets herself grow, just as she lets herself relax and enjoy (and grow) when life is gentle to her. Strengthened by this simple awareness, that life is perfect, that all things come at their proper moment, and that she is always the perfect person for the situation she finds herself in. A person begins to feel more and more in tune with her inner nature, begins to find it easier and easier to do what s

What's Love? Author: Dareen
Love is a thing shared by two Love is what you feel for me and you Love is precious when its shared Love is danger when its dared Love wanders and searches for the one Love plays and just do it for fun Love lets you hear love songs to emote Love lets you make sweet poems & a quote Love makes the world go around Love makes us happy if the one we love is finally found Love turns the world upside down Love cheers us never with a frown Love makes you cry Love sacrifices and says goodbye Love has its own reason and time Love can make someone you love "mine" Love makes a person kiss Love makes a person miss Love is experienced by all Love conquers when you fall.

Perfection.............................
Her red hair is long and spilling over her shoulders...a long black dress with almost no back...cut very low in the back so her Master will see the suppleness of her...she is impeccably dressed and ready for Him...candles burning to induce the mood a bit...a snifter of brandy in her hand when He walks through the door...she hands it to him and removes his jacket and escort him to his chair...a game of backgammon is set up for a quick game... the smell of dinner cooking is wafting through the air...her perfume is subtle but when he inhales he is able to remember their last intimate moment a gentle but slight kiss on the cheek makes him shiver slightly...a wonderful CD is in the player..playing nice and soft she kneels on a pillow and lay's against him asking him how his day went and gently reaching over to touch his hand "by accident" When she rises to check dinner she runs her hands down her body to straighten her gown...a quick look and gentle smile over her shoulder brings thought

Kids Dont Try This At Home
let me start off by saying all my friends know me... and know i am up for a good time almost all the time... ok it is sunday night, i have worked a 12hrs shift and during my day my friend Bryan comments to me " hey lets hang out together tonight" i said sure. ( so this is the frist time we are meeting. we meet each other here on myspace and he has become a good and close friend, plus after having delt with me a few nights prior on the phone. it is only right we meet. SO the plan is that we hange out at my place. Then see what happends from there. Well, my roomate and freind Liz was working till about 11 and them her and her b/f Eric come home. so now we are all haning out at the apartment. Cool we are all geting along. This is where it gets fun..... Eric had a big bottle of Vodka (90.4 proof) and says " Deb come do a Shot with me." I am like OK ... i had a long weekend at work. but i wasnt thinking of bryan and how it made him feel. ( Oh, i was selfish SORRY BRYAN ) well

Getting Better!
Today has been good, so far. For those of you who know me, know that I went to the ER Thursday because of lack of the ability to breathe! Turned out I had a mild case of broncidus(however it's spelled)! I had 2 breathing treatments,2 shots,2 different kinds of pills to take for a week, an inhaler(when needed) & blood drawn! Thank the lord that I am feeling better today! I am pretty bored though! Anybody wanna come over to watch movies? I only have about 700! I just got Rocky Balboa!

Oh Wow...
OK...SO EVERYTHING I THOUGHT, WAS APPARENTLY WRONG.. YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU LOVED ME... THEN YOU STOMPED ON MY HEART...WHAT'S UP WITH THAT?!?!? YOU SEEMED TO THINK THERE WAS SOMEONE ELSE... THERE WASN'T. I FELT LIKE A TROPHY YOU WON... I'M NOT... I PUT MYSELF OUT THERE FOR EVERYONE TO SEE HOW MUCH I CARED... I WON'T BE DOING THAT AGAIN.. SCREW THIS... SCREW IT ALL... I GIVE UP. I CAN'T FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE DARK BY MYSELF... BUT WHEN I REACHED FOR YOUR HAND TO HELP ME... I COULDN'T FIND YOU... I NEEDED YOU TO HOLD ME DURING THIS STORM... LOOKED AROUND YOU WEREN'T THERE... I NEEDED TO LOOK INTO YOUR EYES AND HAVE REASSURANCE THAT EVERYTHING WAS GOING TO BE OKAY... WHERE WERE YOU???? NOT HERE WITH ME.. YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS ON TOP OF THE WORLD...AND NOW... NOW I FEEL LIKE I HOLD THE WORLD ON MY SHOULDERS... AGAIN, I'VE BEEN LET DOWN.. AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH NOW.. I REFUSE TO BE BROUGHT DOWN... I REFUSE TO TELL YOU EXACTLY HOW I FELT NOW... I CAN'T BELIEVE I FELL FOR THIS AGAIN!!! WHY

Fyi-the 1st Canadian Gayfather
ACHILLES CANDIAN GAYFATHER? ACCORDING TO THIS YES AND HIS LOVER WAS HIS COUSIN THAT'S EVEN SICKER HERE"S A PIC OF HIM AND HIS COUSIN WHAT A SIC FUK PERSONALLY I WOULDN'T WANT THAT IMAGE Achilles 1ST CANDIAN GAYFATHER@ CherryTAP JUST FYI® BROUGHT TO YOU BY: XPOSING SCUM ON CT®

Good Afternoon/good Evening, Everyone!
We've had rain and thunderstorms, on and off, for two days now. Was told it will be like this for a week or so! Lovely! I survived a birthday night out with my nieces and their friends, lmao! Naturally, no one had a camera - just as well! Sarah made sure she got me some Birthday sunglasses to wear - white frames made like a birthday cake with candles for around the eyes; pink lenses, too, lmao! Kind of cute! And Maria provided a button for me to wear that said: Another Year Sexier! We started the evening off with dinner out - making sure I ate before hitting the bars. First drink was the official party starter: the customary JagerBomb, dropped, btw!! Somewhere along the line two friends bought me a couple of tequila shots - yeah, they know me! I don't know about other places, but at a couple of the bars around here, they do a free shot for anyone that is willing, lmao! They walk along the top of the bar and decant it straight into your mouth - yeah, I did a couple of those as well

Messing Around And Bored
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Important New's Please Read~from A Friend~
Ok. I don't know where to begin because the last 2 days of my life have been such a blur. Yesterday, My youngest daughter Halle who is 4, was rushed to the emergency room by her father for being severely lethargic and incoherent. He was called to her school by the school secretary for being "very VERY sick." He told me that when he arrived that Halle was barely sitting in the chair. She couldn't hold her own head up and when he looked into her eyes, she couldn't focus them. He immediately called me after he scooped her up and rushed her to the ER. When we got there, they ran blood test after blood test and did x-rays, every test imaginable. Her white blood cell count was normal, nothing was out of the ordinary. The ER doctor told us that he had done everything that he could do so he was sending her to Saint F rancis for further test. Right when we were leaving in the ambulance, her teacher had come to the ER and after questioning Halle 's classmates, we found out that she had licked

Why Do You?
I hate it when you go into someones pics and start to rate and then all the sudden it is private. I was just on someones page where every other one is private and it is dumb. So I gave up on the rating and left lesson to ya! Don't be a dumbass if it is private put it in a folder marked so. xoxoxo

For The Next Few Weeks
For the next few weeks I will be on and off a lot. I know, its sad, but for a good reason. :D I move on the 10th, and between doing all the work I need to get done to be able to leave my job, and packing, settling my new apartment, looking for a new job, etc, I havent had much time to be on this past week. And Ive missed all my friends. :( Fear not dear friends, I will be back and it'll be like I never left. :D I hope that I get a shitload of comments and ratings and gifts and what not or I will have to cry, and fat bitches cryin is a sad sight. So dont make me cry. :D

Friendship!
I can honestly say that joining cherry tap was the best thing I have done. I have made some true friends on here people who don't judge you for the way you look but for who you are. The frinds I have made here have show me what true frindship really is thanks to all my friends here I love each and everyone of you and thank you all for being my friends!!

Tribute Tattoo Contest!
Tribute Tattoo Contest! I need Tribute Tattoos for this contest! Contest will start on 6/4 thur 6/11 Winners will get 2 gifts each! Comment bombing allowed and self bombing also! Want to enter just send me a link to ur pic or tell me and i will Rip your pic for you! Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~ FoUnDeR Of~ * AnGeLs Of MeRcY BoMb SqUaD * ~@ CherryTAP

Fuck Life
WHY SHOULD I CARE IF NO ONE ELSE CARES WHY SHOULD I TRY NE MORE WHY THE HELL DO MOST PEOPLE THAT SAY THEY ARE YOUR FRIENDS ALWAYS GOTTA DO SOMETHING STUPID AND FUCK EVERYTHING GOOD IN YOUR LIFE UP.....WHY EVEN LIVE NE MORE WHY EVER CARE ABOUT LIFE....FUCK IT ALL....

Rest In Peace Dad!!!!!!
12-29-32 thru 06-01-07 DAMN LIFE SUXS!!!!! Im n Amerillo working in the Chevron refinery and I get a call that my dad has passed away!!!!!!! I work on the road doing shut downs,Maybe i should do a shut down in to the wall on the way home! That way the funeral wont b sooooooo fucking hard!!!!!!!!! Dont get in my way im a train out of control crashing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling Good!
Well, anyone who's been in contact with me, either online or offline will have noticed that my moods have been al over the place this past week or so! Damn, it's as if I was going through some sort of mini breakdown, I said some crazy to stuf and I've done some crazy things. Last night I got drunk and did even more crazy stuff, I pissed off a few of my friends and I'm pretty sure I alienated some of the people on here too! Last night as I lay in bed I realized that I've been feeling a bit off for a while now and it's down to the fact that I'm starting to feel old, will be 31 soon and maybe it's time to change some stuff in my life! Well all's good now, I'm up bright and early this morning, I'm going for a big long run in the rain with my friend and I'm gonna slowly put right everything that's wrong in my life! So it's a new Dave with no more negativity! Thanks also to those who've had to put up with me this past few days, and thanks for the advice and concern last night, you know

Excerpts From Peter Britt's Book
I thought it would be a great idea to offer friends & fans the opportunity to get their names in my book on a special dedication page. Please red below as to "how" to pre-order and, to read some samples. Peter Britt; Country/rock recording artist-Singer/songwriter/musician-Twice published author, poetry and now his soon to be best selling book "All That I Am, I Think!" And, his soon to be submitted and published second book, "The Devistation" To pre-order the book is $35.00 to have your name in the book. You will also receive an autographed copy for that. No extra shipping is required. Pre-order the book and have your name in it alongside those who have made a differernce in Peter Britt's climbing music career. Click the banner to join the street team. Click the paypal link below to Order the book. Click here to pre-order All That I Am, I Think! Below is a preview of chapter Five (Passion) and chapter Twelve (Rights & Wrongs) of All That I Am, I Think! This preview will also be

Sunday June 3
You know you look forward to the weekend and it go's by so fast. I want to get out and leave for the weekend and just take the rest of the week off. I am so broke right now. I had to pay for two places this week. You know Fridays sounds so good right now. I love that place. I had a good week only did 48hrs. More to come later.

A Story I Wrote
My body as well as my gear was bouncing off of the C-47’s floor, along with every other soldier aboard the plane, that night as it started down the runway to pick up speed to take off. The day that everyone had been waiting so long for had finally arrived, D- DAY. The more speed the C-47 picked up, the worse the vibrations became. I held my Thompson machine gun close to my chest. It was the one thing that helped me stay calm through the German flak and night fighters that I knew were coming. Then all became somewhat calm, we were finally airborne. The only sound that could be heard was the sound of the wind whipping past the jump door as the engines strained to gain altitude. The pitch of the two engines changed which told us veterans that we were at altitude and we were headed for France and the welcoming committee in Normandy. I was sure the welcoming wasn’t going to be very friendly. My buddy Carl Bush was sitting next to me trying to write a letter to his wife or mother. Then the

Friendly Or Flirty?
I'm on here for friends only. AND I am a very happily married woman. I think I stated that pretty clearly in my profile. But maybe I didn't? I was going thru my friends trying to leave a comment on everyone. For a few I found some that I thought fit them better. (Like military funnies for the military guys, etc.) One friend, who shall remain nameless because I really do think he seems like a great guy, sent me a message saying "You like flirting with me dont you" It made me think for a minute. Do I say things in a way that seems flirty or perhaps misleads people in some manner? Perhaps I am not realizing it? I thought I was just being friendly when I chat or leave comments. I would hate to be misleading in any way, ya know? I am not a lady who likes to lead others on. That would make me a false peron. Let me know if I say something wrong so I can correct it, ok? I love all my friends. I really do. Please keep in mind, that if I say something that sou

Thanks Guys!!!!!!
I just want to tell all of you guys thank you for helping me win my happy hour! A big thank you to CT DADDY for making it possible!!!!! For all of you out there that have never had and want to know what a Happy Hour is like, I left the summary below. Again a big thank you to all my friends and family new and old!!!! I love you guys so much!!!! XOXO ~Jamie~

Misery
Misery My silence remains from all the shame The love I gave, your curses and blame Sultry patience withered from a spool Your evil ways, created a fool Reaching out with my heart of wings You're jagged knife, your cut still stings You've raped my soul with devils sperm My insides rust, my lessons learned What my heart now has is little to show Your insanity filled veins, overflow So to trust and give you my heart again I'd rather die, and let misery begin!

Clowns
Clowns It was a bright sunny day in July Todd, Steve, Robby and I Road our bikes past market square We saw a sign, stopped and stared "Circus Coming :Acrobats, Live Animals, and Clowns! Why the looks in our eyes and the excitement in the air Of seeing the clowns and the fun we'd share Cutting grass, and working on farms of all places The joy of earning our money, the different clown faces The day had come and we all scattered round The big top was here, here in our town We saw Lions, Tigers and Bears oh my! Daredevils, and acrobats performed way up high Then all of a sudden the lights all went out The crowd became silent and not a noise heard throughout All of a sudden the center stage became lit With hundreds of clowns, our money well spent We laughed and chuckled until we could laugh no more The excitement we shared, our minds did soar Twenty years later as I pass from town to town I'll never forget that hot

My Experience When I Flew For Delta Airlines
Inside a Cloud Inside a cloud You can dream up many things Like dancing to a beat That many Angels sing Floating along soft pillows Not a worry on your mind Everything has been taken care of Through an eternity of time Looking down from the clouds Waves crashing to the shore Peace and loving happiness Easing thoughts wanting to explore Looking down on birds and kites Flying and circling all around Sail boats and dolphins Playing in God's playground The sun begins to fall asleep The moon begins to shine proud All of this natural beauty Looking down from inside a cloud

Help Last Day Of Contest Im Going Agaist A Family
please please please please help me out im up 800 votes but that aint nothing agaist a family . so please come comment on this pic for me. i really need the help much luv to my freinds and fans ty

Why Is That Being Nice Seems To Get Me Nowhere?
i am so frustrated. I try to treat people nicely the way I want to be treated. I am not a nasty person and I don't do mean things to others. i try to go out of my way to help others... at least I try to be friendly. I feel like I am really getting the short end of the stick these days. Today it was really raining and I was trying to use an ATM. A lady was coming out so I asked if she could hold open the door to the ATM room when she came out and she basically refused to do it. I had the damn MAC card in my hand for gods sake. So I got soaked because she could not be nice for five seconds!!!! Lately this kind of stuff seems to keep happening to me. I don't know why but I am really kind of upset about it. I feel like a punching bag. Like I am supposed to be nice and take everything and these other ppl can just be jerks and it is okay. Well it isn't and I have heard that Karma can be a real bitch! I am going to stay true to my heart and continue to treat others the way that

Rating
So like 5 or 6 people rate my pics and the rest just sit there...... YOU LAZY FUCKS.... I rate a lot of elevens because I feel the person(s) are worth it... Not any more. I'm tired of rating pics and sending people stuff and not getting shit back. And ya wonder why people start drama.... So this is my rant, either start rating or delete me. AJ

Here I Am
Here i am, Beside you, I won't break, As the pain goes on and on, While she sleeps i cry, I'll cry till the day i die, I'll love you till the end of all time. Set us free, I'm crawling on my hands and knee's Break the tide, For i weep, While she sleeps i cry I'll cry till the day i die, I'll love you till the end of all time, Alone in the world, As we all toss and turn, Feel strangers in the night, to scared by fright, Whiloe she sleeps i cry, I'll cry till the day i die, I'll love you till the end of all time. There is sorrow, wait till tomorrow, A new start, a new day, As i walk away, While she sleeps i cry, I'll cry till the day i die, i'll love you till the end of all time.

Quiet Time To Play
JUST YOU AND I JUST US ME AND YOU NOBODY ELSE GETTING IN THE WAY,THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT WE NEED A QUIET TIME TO PLAY.LET ME KISS YOU THERE, LICK YOU EVERYWHERE PLACE MY TONGUE IN YOUR SPACE FUCK IT ON SECOND THOUGHT HOW ABOUT YOU JUST SIT ON MY FACE.SLOWLY GRINDING TAKE YOUR TIME SEXY I REALLY LOVE THE WAY YOU TASTE,CUM FOR ME MAMI LET YOUR JUICE'S RUN ALL OVER MY FACE.NOW TAKE ME IN YOUR MOUTH I WILL MOAN YOUR NAME NO DOUBT JUST AS YOU DID WHEN YOU SAT ON MY FACE,SUCK ME HARD NOW SLOW IT DOWN AS I WATCH WHILE I CUM IN YOUR FACE.ROUND TWO JUST GOT STARTED AS I SUCK YOUR TOES FINGERING YOUR PUSSY STILL SAVORING THE TASTE,GETTING YOU ALL EXCITED TO THE POINT THAT YOU SCREAM PLEASE EXPLORE MY PLACE WHAT OH YOU WANNA FUCK YOU WANT ME TO GET IN THE PUSSY AND STOP WASTING TIME AND SPACE.LET ME SEE SHOULD I CONTINUE TO TEASE AS SHE YELLS PLEASE STICK YOUR DICK INSIDE AND BEGIN TO STROKE OR SHOULD I SLIDE IT IN YOUR MOUTH AND TRY TO FORCE IT DOWN YOUR DEEP THROAT, YEA I LIKE THAT SUCK IT BABY Y

Tribute To A Hero
JOHNNY WAS BORN DEC 3 1950 TO THE PROUD PARENTS MARLA AND JOSH REEDER.HE WAS BORN IN THE FRONT ROOM IN FRONT OF A POT BELLIED STOVE,HIS FATHER DELIVERED HIM.HE WAS A BIG BOY AND WOULD CONTINUE TO GROW BIG AND STRONG.AT AGE 6 HE WAS MILKING THE COWS AND FEEDING THE CHIKENS BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL.WHEN HE RETURNED HOME HE PICKED UP WHERE HED LEFT OFF.WHEN HE TURNED 11 HIS DAD WAS IN AN ACCIDENT ON THE FARM,HE WAS PULLED INTO THE BAILER.HE LIVED BUT LOST HIS RIGHT ARM ,PART OF HIS RIGHT SHOULDER AS WELL AS THE USE OF HIS LEGS.HIS MOM TRIED TO RUN THINGS BUT AFTER A YEAR JOHNNY DROPPED OUT TO TAKE OVER THE FARM.HE WAS NOW 13. JOHNNY WORKED THAT FARM AND TOOK COROSPONDENCE COURSES TO FINISH HIGH SCHOOL AND HELP TAKE CARE OF THE FARM AND FAMILY.AY 16 JOHNNY LOST HIS MOM .HIS DAD HAD GONE INTO A FIT AND HIS MOM ,WHILE RUSHING HIM TO THE DOCTOR IN TOWN,LOST CONTROL OF THE PICKUP AND WENT END OVER END INTO A POND. JOHNNYS UNCLE CAME AND TOOK HIS DAD TO A FACILITY AND THE FARM WAS PUT UP FOR SA

Lessons I Have Learned ...
I have had quite an interesting last few days on cherrytap~ I have had a revelaton about the whole downrater thing ... I have been serving as the per say greeting society for the newbies walking in and have found that there are quite a few that rate low because they just dont know the per say rules of engagement.. Most of them mean no harm.. Maybe we should try to help them along. Of course there are the spiteful mean people that just choose to be mean and pull your strings ... They are the ones looking to see you retaliate ..It makes them happy to know they pissed on your gate. I have chosen not to retaliate. It pays to kill people with kindness. For the most part of course .. I am sure all of of have seen what appears to be all out war here on cherrytap.... Is it really worth it for principal.. To prove what??? It takes alot more character to turn the other cheek than to engage in silly insults and war .. I believe All of us have seen enough drama. Maybe we should all consider using

Miss You
the sun rises ever so bright the morning dove soon takes flight the day again soon begins all i can do is miss you again the day runs on and on the sun soon to be gone the night again soon begins all i can do is miss you again the night decends so very dark the moon so bright and stark i close my eyes the dreams begin all i do is miss you again

Leave 10s Or Just Don't Bother
It's really no skin off my back if someone wants to rate me less than a 10...I really don't care. Here's the thing though...why bother rating anything less than a 10? The stupid downraters wouldn't like it if someone screwed up their ratings so why mess with other people's? If you don't think someone deserves a 10, just don't rate it at all...quit being so petty and just go on to the next picture already!

Radiohead- Creep
If I had to pick one song in the whole fucking world , to try to explain how I have felt my intire freakin life, it would be this one. Always just a touch out of place, and never quite good enough for ... whatever.. what can I say.. I am the fucking weirdo this song is talking about. Thats all. lol When you were here before Couldnt look you in the eye Youre just like an angel Your skin makes me cry You float like a feather In a beautiful world And I wish I was special Youre so fuckin special But Im a creep, Im a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I dont belong here. I dont care if it hurts I want to have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul I want you to notice When Im not around Youre so fuckin special I wish I was special But Im a creep, Im a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I dont belong here. Shes running out again, Shes running out Shes run run run running out... Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want

Sunday!
Today, started off with me sleeping untill 12:30, so not alot of morning action, i make me some grub and coffee! sit down and log on here, about two minutes later i hear a loud boom! the power was out, saw the trucks workin on it about half hour later so i figured i'd take off, get to sister's and had to piss! Dropped my damn cell phone in the toilet! YES WITH piss! works now so not too worried! wasn't very fun pulling it out! and if i hadn't just washed my last one a couple months ago! i wouldn't have cared enough! but i had to get it! YUCK! now im home and powers back so im good!

Alone "to All That Try Cyber Love And Are Hurt By The Reality Of Loneliness That A Long Distant Relationship Can Bring"
ALONE In that moment when you are deep inside my Heart My world is one of undeniable comfort You are the object of a lifetime of yen However, desire cannot replace fulfillment For I am mostly left here alone It is then that I feel the ripping of my soul in two Such sorrow should never be endured at the expense of rapture Searing pain as layers of trust are torn apart My very core of hope dashed to disappointment Inconceivable loneliness and despair, Muscle into the place where dreams are stored Their evil air choking out the last breath of my heart's virtue As I try to hold on to the memory of loves last words I feel my grip loosen and my fingers slip one by one I am about to plunged to that place where hearts break and dreams are destroyed. As my last finger breaks free and I am all but lost I hear the twinkle of angels giving me the strength to hold on I pull myself up, up to the gates of hope Look into the bright light and see the scripture that is you You

Ct Safty 101
All these bulletins about so and so is stalking me, this person is pervert, this one is a loser, watch out for this one.. blah blah blah .. have made me think.. I think its time for a little CT or even Internet Safety 101. 1. READ profiles!! if they don't have any info in their profile, very few photos, one 'real' photo and a bunch of fake photos, or no Salutes be leery when talking to them or adding them. (and I know there are people on here that refuse to put a Salute for whatever reason) but still knowing that the person in the photos is the person behind the PC helps a lot. With the exception of Ninja Penguin(Wub ya smexie!)... O'rly(Ya'rly!!!) and a very small handful of others, everyone on my list has a verified Salute. Heck even O'rly is verified! LMAO! 1a. READ EVERYTHING in the profiles. if you're looking at a photo of a hot chick/guy, make sure they are who they say. The Gender, Age, and sometimes location are posted right there on the FRONT page! Think with your

Good Morning Paul
I woke up and found Cassie with her head lying on my chest. She was still asleep. The sunlight was coming through the window and was shining on the bed. Her hair was glistening in the light and I inhaled the scent of her hair. I love the smell of her hair it is always so fresh and clean smelling. It was one of those cool and crisp autumn mornings. The window was slightly opened and the smell of dead leaves was in the air. I love that smell probably because it takes me back to my childhood. I grew up in a small town that had maple trees everywhere. In the fall the smell of dried leaves filled the air. I just laid there very still and enjoyed the warmth of the sunlight coming through the window and the scents in the air. I was also enjoying Cassie lying on my chest and the closeness of her. It was a glorious morning and being that it was a Saturday we had no place to go and was not in a hurry to get up and start the day. I am not sure how much time had passed but Cassie started

Another Thought...
It's time to clear the air, or an undercurrent of tension could become a very distinct sense of unease. Examine any ulterior motives. If you're brave and face the situation honestly, you'll see an immediate improvement. This was my horoscope for the day! How in the HELL does it do it? I don't believe this stuff, but damn!

Attention
ok, i am a part of vampirefreaks, myspace and on here on cherrytap. and i am looking for my other half. i am kinda picky on who i am looking for. for example. man the more i think about, i used to be so openminded when it came down to relationships. they have to have piercings and tatts and have a big ass or big breasts...lol. tatts and piercings turn me on. they have to be gothy. thats a must. anything else i can think of, ill add more.

Naughty App.
"NAUGHTY APPLiCATiON" Let's see just how naughty my friends are.... 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Three sum? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Do you like fore play? 23. What is fore play to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you

Alienation
i'm sure everyone feels this way every so often...but to feel this way nearly constantly?...there must be something wrong...having friends turn away...have that look in their eye like ur nothing more than a pane of glass...they're staring right throught you...like you u have no substance to you... i feel like i've become a lesser being...unworthly of acknowledgement...forget the good deeds or accomplished tasks...you have ur own life to live...why would mine make any difference to you?...what should it matter that i stumble and fall...or if i rise up and succeed?... and those breif moments that you do care...are they worth it?...should i bother suffering the suspicion that your toying with me again?...will it make any difference tomorrow?...you'll just go back to seeing past me...its plain to me that u only keep me around for entertainment... some affection...thats all...with out me begging...some how letting me know someone cares...that i dont need to reach to find you...that

Death An Moving On
Ok look I know you all dont really know me or really talk to me much but as the summer gets closer I find my self getting more depressed. See last year I found out my child hood friend of 28yrs died in his sleep an then two days later my Husbands cousin was in a serious accident. An I tell you he was one of the most wonderfull ppl you could have ever met. Well it ended my my husbands cousin died a week later. An then my great aunt died in January. Then here in March three beautfil little girls passed away in a tragic fire. Two of the girls was my husbands other cousins little girls. One was my daughters age an the other was a little younger. I remember baby sitting the youngest when she was only 4 an here she was going on 8 when she died. The other little girl was my husbands bestfriend's little girl an she always wanted to make you smile. It has been a hard year. No I dont want sympathy or any thing like that. I just wanna say ya know I see so much going on an so many tragic things

Covetous Cover.
fastidiously, you hang about the sky come back down and lie with me. wrap yourself in my covetous cover you dance in this condition so gingerly. many men mingle in my web of temptation but all lack lustre and bloom no beauty. i wear this epic design on my sleeve and repair each stitch so carefully. attack this love that falls upon your lap. the flame is biting and deeply salacious. or drown in these words while you sit back in overwhelmingly utter amazement.

Chloe My Cat
Hello all...I would say good morning but it's not for me. I woke up to find my sweet, precious cat, Chloe in my driveway, dead. Someone had hit her this morning and placed her in my driveway without a word. They were considerate enough to put her there, but not enough to notify me. My husband noticed her as he was getting into his car to leave for work. I'm very upset...People can be so cruel. I'm gonna miss my little DIVA. "You may be surprised to learn that our pets are far more aware of what is happening in their lives than we give them credit for. Their awareness bridges far beyond simple things like food and play. I believe that animals assist people in their growth. They are more than just pets. Animals are here as healers, to aid us in mending our physical and emotional bodies. And we thought they were here mainly for our companionship - not so! They play a much more significant role in our lives. Of course it is noted that their love is real and true and always uncondit

Unusual Places To Stay
This is a really cool web site: "Unusual Hotels of the World"! www.uhotw.com Check it out sometime, you'll see lots of interesting places to stay, including treehouses, lighthouses, caves, undersea hotels, ice palaces, and even a small apartment in the shape of a giant dog (you have to see it, words can't do it justice). Anyway, check it out, maybe an idea for a vacation for you!

It's Called "when I Fall"
I put myself in your hands And wait for you to cast me aside I promise I’ll be patient Until you are done I am dying But I won’t bother you to save me I’ll give you everything I have I don’t need it anyway All my words Fall like rain upon the pavement And run off for they just cannot be absorbed I’m well aware That I have chosen this enslavement But please tell me if all you wanted was a whore You won’t say you love me You won’t say you need me You won’t say anything, anything at all Your lips are sealed Yet I am pleading for an answer Will you catch me, will you catch me when I fall? You tell me I think too much But don’t you know that all I wanted Was to understand And help you if I could? Now I am bleeding But I won’t ask for you to stop it Please just drink all that I have I don’t need it anyway I kneel before you And I swear that this is true I don’t want for you to ever set me free I implore you If you will just give me a clue I’ll

Yeah Yeah Yeah
online *gf's* annoy me pussy whipped guys..disgust me contractors who say they're on their way and never show up..annoy me right now Kevin Costner movies are annoying me being lonely...actually not so bad

Another Sad Story....
This is just tooo funny. I wake up this morning, having had a good nights sleep. My best friend, Billie, hung out at my place, yesturday so it was cool seeing her. Then I get on Cherry Tap to see what is going on and my younger sister messaged me and told me about what a certain person was writing about me again in the mumms. But first of all, I want to cover some things. My sister is pregnant with another little girl and for some reason "this person" seems to think that my sister is asking for the hand-me down clothes that she had given me awhile back when my little girl was born. Of course, I intend to give the clothes back to her but that doesnt mean that I don't have any clothes for my daughter that isnt hand me downs. This "certain person" aparently does'nt know anything. Yes, she is concerned that my daughter may not have any clothes if I give these clothes back to my sister. But that does not give her any right to write a mumm about something that she does not know about. I m

Thank You
Thank you to all of my friends and fan, for all the support and advises. I apreciate all your advises, i am going through my training more confident then before, and that is all thanks to you. Stay cool and supportive. Most love and respect. Moe

Update On Mom
Just wanted to say thanks to all my friends and fans on Cherry Tap. You guys have been great about my mom. Well, we had to install stints in her liver again because they got stopped up, hence where all or most of the fluid developed. Shes a LOT more comfortable now. I have no idea what direction her health will go, but she is better than she was for now. I appreciate all your prayers and promise to keep you informed as things develop. Again, many thanks for all your support and God bless. CHris XOXO

Test
In the company of females, intercourse should be referred to as: A. Lovemaking. B. Screwing. C. Taking the pigskin bus to tuna town. - 2. You should make love to a woman for the first time only after you've both shared: A. Your views about what you expect from a sexual relationship. B. Your blood-test results. C. Five tequila slammers. - 3. You time your orgasm so that: A. Your partner climaxes first. B. You both climax simultaneously C. You don't miss ESPN Sports Center. - 4. Passionate, spontaneous sex on the kitchen floor is: A. Healthy, creative love-play. B. Not the sort of thing your wife would agree to. C. Not the sort of thing your wife needs to ever find out about. - 5. Spending the whole night cuddling a woman you've just had sex with is: A. The best part of the experience. B. The second best part of the experience. C $100 extra. - 6. Your wife/girlfriend says she's gained five pounds in the last

This Horrible Disease
I suffer from sever depression. It is a horrible life altering disease. I want so much to be happy and every day is a struggle to smile. I can't control my mood swings or thoughts. I often think of suicide to ease my pain. Thankfully, I have a wonderful boyfriend and many friends that are always there to remind me of all the reasons to keep on going. Unfortunately, I can't just decide to stop being depressed. There is a chemical inbalance in my brain that keeps me in this state of depression and I can't control it. I don't really want to die, but some days the pain I feel on the inside is so intense that I'd do anything for some relief. My friends and loved ones care enough to intervene and help me. I have every reason to be a very happy person but am unable to experience the joy that I so badly long for. I have been fighting this disease for 13 years now and still have yet to overcome it's anguish. There is no one I've met that can relate to the feelings I have. Very few even understa

My Non-paying Job
Anyone interested???Here Take a look at the work, Backgrounds for all images can be made any color. SweetZ ¢Ó Juggalo Mafia ¢Ó ¢¾ Thugday1's CT Wife ¢¾@ CherryTAP Here is some of my work. If you would like me to make something for you please feel free to let me know. I will need to know everything you would like the image to say. For Backgrounds and other images to be added in to photo I will need to know your interests and will have you IM me on yahoo. I also can make morphs if anyone is interested in one. They are kinda outta style now, but I can still make them, all I need is the 2 photos that is wanted in the morph. Feel Free to message me and let me know what you want and please leave your yahoo messenger ID so I can IM you for information for your Image.

A World Of Glass
As I stand within this world of glass my eyes wide with the horror before me. My thoughts becoming twisted forms of illusions you chose to create. Dreams no longer are comforting but condemning forms of self-abuse. Love no longer bringing pleasure but an endless source of pain. Hope as if a forgotten novel lay tossed aside in a darkened corner. All I know and once found comfort in vanishing without a trace. When all is lost what is it there is left to see? When I no longer can stand inside your twisted version of what should be. Will you still refuse to see within you is me and with in me there is you? Will you cast me out and stand aside laughing while I begin to bleed? Or will you embrace this our reality and allow again your heart to be free. Nixy

Ladies, School In Now In Session
Author Leidra Lawson's ten years of experience as a sugar baby--and having given many men and women "sugar baby/sugardaddy dating lessons"--led her to write this unique book. Sugar Daddy 101 will show you how to meet rich men. You can get a sugar daddy to: pay for college, give you a monthly allowance, put you into his will, get money to start a business! A sugar daddy can show you how to make money and open a business. Some women have paved to road to success with help from a sugardaddy and learned how to get rich. Learn how to use online dating to date a millionaire and marry rich. A rich benefactor can make a good sugar daddy. Learn how online dating is a great way to meet successful men. Wealthy dating is what ladies love to do today. Learn how many wealthy men use online dating and the personals to find women for pampering and spoiling. Learn how some women can even marry a millionaire or marry a billionaire, while other women choose to be a kept woman by dating ric

Bull Lol
A man took his wife to the rodeo and one of the first exhibits they stopped at was the breeding bulls. They went up to the first pen and there was a sign attached that said, "This bull mated 50 times last year." The wife playfully nudged her husband in the ribs and said, "He mated 50 times last year." They walked to the second pen which had a sign attached that said, "This bull mated 120 times last year." The wife gave her husband a healthy jab and said, "That's more than twice a week! You could learn a lot from him." They walked to the third pen and it had a sign attached that said, in capital letters, "This bull mated 365 times last year." The wife, so excited that her elbow nearly broke her husband's ribs, said, "That's once a day. You could REALLY learn something from this one." The husband looked at her and said, "Go over and ask him if it was with the same cow." NOTE: The husband's condition is stable and he should eventually make a full recovery....

Ooooh, Im All Goth And Stuff....
Stolen from the all knowing Oracle's page.... You scored as Darkness, Darkness! Silent, mysterious and contemplating, you keep to yourself, and maybe a best friend. You are sometimes shunned and sometimes adored. It really depends. you will fight if you have to, but dont take much pleasure in it. You may feel alone, but its really that you just push everyone else away... Darkness100% Light50% Fire33% Earth33% Wind33% What Element Lies within you?(PICS)created with QuizFarm.com

The Evelution Of Math In The United States
The Evolution of Math in the United States Last week I purchased a burger and fries at McDonalds for $3.58. The counter girl took my $4.00 and I pulled 8 cents from my pocket and gave it to her. She stood there, holding the nickel and 3 pennies. While looking at the screen on her register, I sensed her discomfort and tried to tell her to just give me two quarters, but she hailed the manager for help. While he tried to explain the transaction to her, she stood there and cried. Why do I tell you this? Because of the evolution in teaching math since the 1960s... Teaching Math In 1960 A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is 4/5 of the price. What is his profit? Teaching Math In 1970 A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is 4/5 of the price, or $80. What is his profit? Teaching Math In 1980 A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is $80. Did he make

Come Join!!!
CLICK PIC TO JOIN ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Also the lounge is looking for help if your willing to help on positions in the lounge please join the lounge and reply to the help wanted section in the discussions. We Need The Following so far 2 Bartenders 2 Greeters 2 female dancers 1 male dancer 3 promoters Enforcers 2 between midnight central time to 6am central time 1 from 6am till w/e ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Also check out this other lounge of ours as well The Devils Playground Click the Pic to Join PLEASE JOIN NEED PEOPLE AND TY AS WELL JUST COPY AND PASTE THE CODE IN A NEW WINDOW Both are Proud members of The New and Improved Excalibur Radio (Old name was Daves Hideaway Radio)

Yeah, Huh...
The husband had just finished reading a new book entitled, "You Can Be the Man of Your House." He stormed to his wife in the kitchen and announced, "From now on, you need to know that I am the man of this house and my word is Law. You will prepare me a gourmet meal tonight, and when I'm finished Eating my meal, you will serve me a sumptuous dessert. After dinner you are going to go upstairs with me and we will have the kind of sex that I want. Afterwards, you are going to draw me a bath so I can relax. You Will wash my back and towel me dry and bring me my robe. Then, you will massage my feet and hands. Then tomorrow, guess who's going to dress me and comb my hair?" The wife replied, "The fuckin' funeral director would be my first guess."

{ Crystals Fetish Diary } (( They Call It Dementia))
{ Crystals Fetish Diary } YOU'VE BEEN WARNED. IF YOU'RE GONNA READ THIS, LEAVE A COMMENT!!!! Role Play One: Suffocation He had cheated. I knew he did... The late night phone calls, staying at work, barely touching me and never having a sexual craving in the last two weeks. It was more than obvious. I loved him, even so. And part of me knew he loved me... but I had to know for sure. He thought I was sleeping that night he came creeping into bed... took off his clothes and crawled beside me. I waited for him to pass over into his dreams before slowly moving to face him, raising my pillow above his head. A tear slowly fell from my eye and onto his face. He didn't wake. Quickly I stratled him and pressed the pillow to his face with all my might. He began to fight me. Pushing and kicking as I pushed harder. "I know what you've been doing" I told him. "Give into me" I whispered. At that moment he fumbled to find my face and gently caressed my cheek. When his hand fell to his side, I knew

Difference Between A Rep, And Dem.
Subject: Difference between a Republican and a Democrat Fred Thompson and Hillary Clinton were walking down the street when they came to a homeless person. Fred, the Republican gave the homeless person his business card and told him to come to his office for a job. He then took $20 out of his pocket and gave it to the homeless person. Hillary the Democrat was very impressed, so when they came to another homeless person, she decided to help. She walked over to the homeless person and gave him directions to the welfare office. She then reached into Thompson's pocket and got out $20. She kept $15 for administrative fees and gave the homeless person $5. Now, do you understand the difference?

All The Wonderful Things That Nature Offers...screw That!!!
I try to get along with nature. I was raised in rural Florida and Georgia, and I never really had a problem with all of God's creatures. But now I have had to go into battle against nature's meanest, cruelest, most bitter of creations...the WASP! There I was, minding my own business, mowing the lawn and singing a song in my head, when out of nowhere I get the dive bombers tapping me on my head! I'm one of God's creatures, so I naturally defend myself against such and unwarranted attack. That's not enough for the little bastards...they have to deploy their stingers! Before I know it, I'm dropping everything in my hands and running for my life as I get tapped on my hand and wrist! I was only mowing the grass! That's alright, though; I'll give them round one. But they dropped the chemical attack first...it's time for PAYBACK! I've come in from what can only be described as a mission of justifiable genocide. Young, old, big, small...none were safe in the wake of my wrath. Arm

Five Rules For Men To Follow
A HAPPIER MARRIED LIFE: 1. It's important to have a woman who helps at home, who cooks from time to time, cleans and has a job. 2. It's important to have a woman who can make you laugh. 3. It's important to have a woman who you can trust and who doesn't lie to you. 4. It's important to have a woman who is good in bed and who likes to be with you. 5. It's very, very important that these four women do not know each other!

Bad Mood!
DON'T READ THIS...I am having a pity party and it isn't pretty. I am gonna wallow in self pity for just a bit and if you don’t like it don’t read this. I am pissy about so many things. I hate that the few men I feel such an incredible connection to are either married or too far way…or BOTH! I hate the saying “if it isn’t one thing it is another” fuck that…I hate it… why does it have to be???? Why can’t something just go smoothly for a change? I hate always having to be the rational one. I HATE BEING LONELY! I hate that my dad is dead and that my brother is too. I hate that there isn’t anyone to hug me just cause. I hate that I am 38 fucking years old and wasted 18 (June 16th) god damn years on his ass and what do I have to show for it. NOTHING! I am ALONE! Cause doing meth was more important than the life we built together. I hate that I tell myself life is too short to wait, to put things off or to live unhappily but I find myself doin

The Finger
I know I'm old and out of touch. But i'm trying to understand why so many people giving the finger in their profile pics? Is that how we say hello nowadays? Am I supposed to say; "Hey you just told me to fuck off...so I definately want to be your friend!" When I was young, most of us thought we would evolve into a peaceful and loving society. I see now that that won't be happening. The only planet blessed by life and we just turn it into a ruthless meat grinder...amazing.

Aphrodities And Devilish Dd's Hideout
Aphrodities and Devilish DD's Hideout CLICK PIC TO JOIN ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Also the lounge is looking for help if your willing to help on positions in the lounge please join the lounge and reply to the help wanted section in the discussions. We Need The Fallowing so far 2 Bartenders 2 Greeters 2 female dancers 1 male dancer 3 promoters Enforcers 2 between midnight central time to 6am central time 1 from 6am till w/e ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Also check out this other lounge of ours as well The Devils Playground Click the Pic to Join PLEASE JOIN NEED PEOPLE AND TY AS WELL JUST COPY AND PASTE THE CODE IN A NEW WINDOW Both are Proud members of The New and Improved Excalibur Radio (Old name was Daves Hideaway Radio)

Cliff And Metallica
"FOR WHOM THE BELL TOLLS" "FADE TO BLACK"-my favorite METALLICA SONG R.I.P.-CLIFF BURTON Life it seems, will fade away Drifting further everyday Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else I have lost the will to live Simply nothing more to give There is nothing more for me Need the end to set me free Things not what they use to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel Emptiness is filling me To the point of agony Growing darkness, taking dawn I was me but now he's gone No one but me can save myself but it's too late Now I can't think, think why I should even try Yesterday seems as though it never existed Death greets me warm, now I will just say GOODBYE

Bits Of Info
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it!) If you fart consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!) The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes. (In my next life I want to be a pig!) Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour. (Still not over that pig thing!) Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.(Is that why Flipper was always smiling? And, why isn't the pig included in this list?) On average people fear spiders more than they do death. The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmm.....) A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out. The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its own weight and always falls over on i

Random Shit
well in my last blog i was mad ,hurt, and few other emotions ill leave out of this one. today tho i feel like the loneliest person in the world. its like the world done past me by. my friends have lives. my enemy have even stopped bothering me. lol. damn this sucks. im so alone. tears stain my pillows, and sadness awaits me every morning. makes me wander wtf am i getting up for. to just sit and stare at the damn walls all day. man just once id like a dropbye, a call just to say hi, a i love u, or anything, im so alone, why? what have i done so wrong that god looks down and says here jer, take a little more u can handle it. but to tell u the truth i dont know if i can. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. im so alone. well im out. like anyone cares noone will read it anyway.

Emo My Ass!!!!
The Everything Test There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all. Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-) Personality You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about self than concerned about others, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more lazy than workaholic, more rebel than traditional, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.As for specific personality traits, you are romantic (86%), innovative (86%), slutty (68%), horny (64%).

My 31st B-day (today - June 4th - Monsday)
well so far my b-day has been great today! all my cherrytap friends and then some have been buying me all kinds of gifts and sending me cards, and happy b-day comments. its been terrific! u guys r all so cool! i couldnt ask 4 a better group of friends & fans! u guys are by far the coolest! thanx so much for ur kindness! u can gurebntee when ur b-day comes rolling around (and i know about it which ill makwe a point to try to find outwhen), that ill be doing the same for u. since ive found cherrytap, i dont think ive even signed off except once or twice in the beginning, but now i stay signed on 24/7 even when im asleep (i just set my setting to "passed out). ive noticed that the more im onhere i get 120 points every little while just for being on here for a certain amount of time...its great! ill be able to upload more pix b-4 ya know it! and i cant wait...im going to have some really cool pix to put up this next time around too. i know u guys will all like em'. i also love thsi virtual

I Want A Man Like This...*sigh*
The other day, I was talking with a guy I know from my work at a convenience store when a nice thick cutie walked in. Well, of course my head turned. He made a comment about her not being bad for a fat chick, and when I commented that she was just my speed, he called me a chubby chaser. Well, I was offended! To me, the term "Chubby Chaser" sounds derogatory. I am a BBW & thick girl admirer. There is a difference. An admirer actually prefers the look and feel of a bigger woman to a thin one. A chubby chaser is a guy who is either lazy or has a low self esteem himself and views "fat chicks" as easy targets. A chubby chaser believes that a fat girl will be less likely to turn him down since he thinks she gets less attention from guys. A chubby chaser will fuck a fat girl, have the time of his life, then deny it or make a joke of it if he's busted with a big girl, saying he was drunk or pussy is pussy or something like that. He views big women like mopeds, fun to ride until a friend catche

Midway
The wind caressed her back as she walked, her red waves encircling her sunglasses, hugging her freckled cheeks. Her thumb was to the wind, stalking the empty stretch of road surrounded by dirt. The clouds passed over her head, casting her beauty in shadow. "She'll never be more than a small town whore, just like you! God, you're her mother, for chrissakes. You think it's okay to slander my good name all over this fucking town?!" "Like you're any better. How long have you been fucking Janet? Yeah, I know. Don't look so goddamn surprised. I'm not an idiot. You so much as mention my daughter's name in that dirty mouth of yours again and I'll divorce you so fast it will make your head spin." The last words she heard before leaving still stung with her. The visions ran together, her mother's face began to fade...save for the eyes they shared, a sparkling version of hazel that seemed to hold you where you stood whenever either one spoke. A car pulled over, the bumper

Anyone???
DUNNO IF ANYONE ELSE'S TOP BAR IS JACKED UP BUT MINE IS.THE BLAST BOX TAKES UP OVER HALF OF IT AND IT'S MAKING MY SHOUT BOX AND BAR TAB AREAS REALLY SMALL AND I CAN'T EVEN SEE ALL CONTENT OF SHOUTS !! HELP ! LOL TY **BOSSLADY**

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She slid into his front seat. The car was littered with fast food container carcasses and empty Coke bottles. He had a small dreamcatcher hanging from his rearview mirror. She folded her thin body into the bucket and shut the door. The car rattled a bit before he started off, but as he accelerated, he rattling stopped, much to her relief. After a long period of silence that consisted of the two of them trying not to look at the other, he spoke again. "So how long have you been walking?" Without a blink or a pause, she said, "Seven years." He gave her a sideways grin, but never looked at her. "That's an awfully long time. Are you tired?" She smiled slowly before responding. "I've really been walking for about a day before you came along. You were the first car I saw." He raised his eyebrows a little. "How have you survived in the past day? In the fucking desert, no less..." "How does anything survive out here? Cactus. Miles and miles of cactus." "You

Getting Stronger
Getting stronger ~Tony Martinez Man my angel Things are heating up Feels good don't it You've always had that spark in your eyes But I have worked and turned that spark into a roaring fire Don't get me wrong I know we still have a long and hard road ahead of us You still fear and worry about waking the Darkness Trust me my angel I wont let that happen It feels good to grow stronger with you It feels good to grow closer to you It feels good to reconnect like we used to Even if only for a moment Each day I smile Each day I grow stronger Each day the passion grows Each day the determination grows I love you My angel

My Life Is Just So Idk Anymore...
Even with a list full of people and my family its hard to believe that with all of those people...i still feel all alone...its like standing in the middle of a crowd full of people screaming out for someone to notice you and yet no one notices and you feel all alone...for once in my life i wish someone standing in that crowd would notice me whe no one else would...or when i say im fine turn and look me in the eyes and tell me to tell them the truth...or when i walk away they jerk me back and tell me that they dont want me to go because it would hurt them...or when i feel like im sitting in a black room with no doors or windows and im screaming for someone and no one hears me i want them to hear me...when im falling i wish someone would catch me...or when im trying to hurt myself i wish someone would save me...i wish someone would treat me like they were the last thing they had in there life...or when im lost and at a dead end i wish someone would come find me...but none of this will ha

To You...wish You Knew Sooner...
I am your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. I am your witness who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyways. I am your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark.

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So NSFW is checked just in case of angry CT Indians looking to cause trouble. But if you are at work, there is nothing to fear by reading this. I found a photo I had forgotten about and have scanned it. Oh go ahead, scroll down and have a look. yeah... Here's the story. Twenty-four days after moving to San Francisco at 9:00pm on a Thursday night I was attacked. The attack was on 24th street near Capp. I was heading to my flat on South Van Ness after picking up an Al Pastor burrito from Taco Loco. Up ahead a knot of local Mexicans were having what looked like a laugh and a smoke. As I passed, the big one that had chrome skulls on his belt put his arm around my neck and held me tight. My arms were being held too but I couldn't see which one that was. The two young ones, the guys that looked like they were trying to grow a moustache but not pulling it off took turns punching me. I hurt one of them by just lowering my head so that he hit the convex part of my foreh

Why Do?
Why do the guys who opens doors,pulls out your seat,who says ladies first,lights your cigs,who buys you flowers for no reason at all,leaves you romantic notes,who would put their coat over a puddle of water so that your feet dont get wet,who would give up their seat for you so you dont have to stand,who would call you just to say hi and see how your day was or just to say I Love You are always the guys who gets treated like crap and left as soon as a jerk walks by. Is it soo bad ladies to be treated like they way you should be like a QUEEN? Why is it that the gentlemen gets treated like shit? Do women actually prefer the jerks over the nice guys?

I Said This Wasn't Over.. Easier, But Never Over
I sit here tonight, crying again.... I can't believe it has been almost 2 months since she died... I have even gotten myself a new puppy... But it isn't any better. I miss Sissy... I miss her so much! Last weekend I went camping. Took my two yorkies boomer and jewelie and my new Belgian Sheepdog, Gypsy. As I was coming into the campground I was overwhelmed with tears. I always took Sissy with me camping there and the last time I had been there she was right there with me. I miss the look in her eyes when she looked at me. I could literally feel how much she loved me! I picked up her ashes a few weeks ago. That was another day where I felt like I was living her death all over again.... This HURTS! I miss my dog! I understand nothing lives forever, but neverless I still want her back with me.

Keeping An Eye On Roman
I am always keen to see how the team owned by my fellow countryman are doing, i read the below rumors and was delighted with them...... Chelsea have entered the battle to sign Sevilla's Daniel Alves, who can play at full-back or on the right wing but who has long been a target of Liverpool. (The Sun) Inter Milan have made an offer to swap Brazil striker Adriano for Chelsea's Andriy Shevchenko. (Daily Mirror)

What Im Really Thinking Right Now
Well its hard to figure out where to start. Ive been thinking alot about someone and I dont know how to put into words what Im feeling. I haven't gotten to know her really well yet. I mean we've talked and found out things about each other but we really dont KNOW each other. However, I feel this connection to her that is unshakeable. Its like we are on the same page and no one else is there but us. She lives 12 hours away and I sitting here thinking that I believe it could work. I never even met her. However I can look to the flip side of things (which Ive been doing all night). How many people have died for something they believe in and never physically seen or touched that belief. For instance how many people have died in the name of God? They died for what they believed in and yet they have never met god. They've never even had a glimpse of god. All they had was the belief that god cared for them and that one day they would meet god and that in itself was enough for them

Back To War?
I was doing an analysis of Vietnam this past weekend. Yes, we "lost" the war. But here is the rub: Capitalism "won." Here then is the challenge: How to bring to others a form of capitalism which they can work with (there is the key) without the loss of 58,000 U.S. troops, and 2 Million VC? Apply that to Iraq. It is not even a question of "do we have the right to impose our value system on them." Being pragmatic, all I can say is that the corporations will impose anyway. It is in the nature of the corporations. Therefore the question is, how do we do that without the murder and mayhem? That is the challange. So, should you go back? Well, yes, and no. To kill, no. That is pointless. To build, yes, if you can. The cautionary note, of course, is that there are criminals who do not want you to succeed. That is a truth. So security is necessary. But security is not murder or killing, security is making it impossible for the criminal to engage in his activity. There again is a matter of

Hardee Har Har
This morning on the way to work I rear-ended a car at some lights, whilst not really paying attention. Anyway the fella who was driving got out... And he was a dwarf!!!! He said "I'm not happy"...... .. I said "Well which one are you then ” !!

Sorry Have Not Been On Here!
SORRY I HAVE NOT BEEN ON HERE IN CHERRY TAP, BUT I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS ASSHOLE OVER ON YAHOO 360, WHO HAS BEEN STALKING, HARRASSING AND THREATENING ME FOR THE PAST WEEK. BEEN WRITING TO YAHOO EVERY DAY TRYING TO GET HIS PAGE SHUT DOWN. THOSE OF YOU WHO WOULD LIKE TO HELP ME WITH THIS QUEST, I WOULD SURE APPRECIATE IT. THIS MAN IS A SICKO AND NOT WHO AND WHAT HE SAYS HE IS. I WOULD CERTAINLY APPRECIATE ALL THE HELP I CAN GET IN GETTING HIM SHUT DOWN AND NEVER HAVING ANOTHER YAHOO ACCT. AGAIN. ENCLOSED IS HIS PROFILE URL. http://360.yahoo.com/profile-.cCmsiIia7.33BWTy8g0Irro4656jVe_Ww--?cq=1 THANKS TO ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR HELP WITH THIS!!!

Do Me Buy Me Pay Me
to all the ppl that want something from me OTHER than friendship.. blasts bulletins stickys VIC WHY?? You dont like me for ME??? buy ME a blast I wanna level just as much as you do huh?? make me a bulletin and sticky it why dont ya? same concept I want to level.. more friends more fans Stickys.. even tho they 5 bucks so what? Last time I checked money wasnt growin out my ass VIC... now I pay this every month.. for my 11s I cant give my 11s to me.. I give them to my FRIENDS!! You all get the benefits of me payin for this site. I get a pretty pink name. Buy MY VIC for next month. Now that that shut yall up for a minute since I god forbid might ask for something BACK!! Be happy .. blastless... vicless and stickyless. just cherry tap and smile!