Ok, to start this off,I met a guy online. We got married after a point of time passed. We were married for 5 years and divorced in 2004. It ended due to the fact that he couldnt keep his pants zipped around other females! Not to mention he started the affair when I was fighting for my life in ICU.
Then, I met a guy off the internet and went to FL to see him, stayed a week. Upon returning home to TX, I find out he has had a girlfriend the whole 6 months that we had been talking on the phone, also as the week I spent there in FL with him. He and I are now friends (strickly friends!)
Finally, this last one.....we were together a year and a half. We met online same as the last 2. We fell in love. We became engaged online (as well as offline without having met). In October (nearly one year since meeting online) I moved to AZ to be with him. He refused to talk to me on the phone, or meet me. Claiming he wasnt ready. Then I start having depression and anxiety attacks, due to being in AZ away from all my family and there on my own. I make the decision to move back to Texas. After not being home even a month, I receive an E-mail saying he wants to break up. That he still loves me and that he hopes we can remain friends. Especially since his daughter and I have a relationship.
I was fine with that until now I have discovered that I may have been being lied to thru the entire relationship!
All of these different relationships make me leery of being in another one. I have a fear that I may not be meant to be with anyone. I still love the last one, but now I have reservations. Makes it hard for me to trust or know when to or not to believe someone. I just don't know anymore.
Thanks for listening to me whine and complain. Just needed to get feelings out.
By the way, I am sure all men aren't like this. Just hard to find the good among the bad or not so right one's. As I stated, SOME suck not all.
Again thanks for your time. Have a good day.
