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Planetray Relationships
The most useful part of this card system, at least for me, is the determination of who is in your spread - that is - whom you have a connection with or as the card people say "a planetary relationship".This is easy to determine. 1st find your birthcard Let's say it's the King of Diamonds: ruled by the Mars row whose individual ruler is Venus. The spread is read one way only - viz., from right to left beginning with the Mars row and goes like this: the 6 of hearts is the Mercury card, the 4 of Clubs is the Venus card and so on until the Neptune Card which is the 4 of Spades. But the relations also include all of the cards above and below in the Venus column as well as those on both diagonals.Various books are available which provide profiles for each card. These are based upon the numerological significance of the particular card as well as what is regarded as characteristics attributed to the ruling planetsThe Tables appearing below provide general characteristics attributed to
She stands before him screaming Not a word leaving her lips Getting so damn sick of the same  Time and time again  This shit seems to be on repeat She lays it out for him again Nice and slow this time He rolls his eyes and slaps her aside No matter she thinks Time will take care Sun rising slowly She prays for sleep this time He's lost in the abyss as he's always been Not a care in the world for anything outside his own skin He doesn't mind the game Keeps playing on her emotions and constant lack of change She's scared to her soul of what the night will bring So sick and damn tired of the same thing He plays on her emotions Seconds turn to minutes slowly closing her eyes Shit repeating in her mind
If Only
I find without thought no energy to hate left with a moment of everlasting haste leave me not for I shall know the windows through your eyes are the windows to my soul here with only memories a moment to behold the silver lining shining hopefully so many promises have been told glittering gems of reminiscence  a thought held so firm and true a precious mind to share with you the heart it beats so softly  begging for release giving everything imaginable to just finally be seen a smile creeping slowly across such sweet soft lips again another memory that has been let to slip the tear it trickles slowly shining in the light promising forever if only for tonight
The Little Man From The Draft Board
Helly's mumm about the census twit bothering her made me think of this old cartoon
Don't Go Far Off
Don't go far off, not even for a day, because -- because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep. Don't leave me, even for an hour, because then the little drops of anguish will all run together, the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift into me, choking my lost heart. Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach; may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance. Don't leave me for a second, my dearest, because in that moment you'll have gone so far I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking, Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?
Just A Girl
Beautiful. Hot. Sexy. Gorgeous. She doesnt think so. Just a girl. A girl like every other. A girl who feels more comfortable in jeans, t shirt and a ball cap. A girl more at home workin cattle than dodging people in a mall. A girl who loves the wide open spaces of the Nebraska Sandhills and feels confined in the big city. A girl who would rather fall asleep listening to the coyotes howl and the crickets chirp than to hear a train whistle and cars honk. A farmers daughter. A girl who would rather be behind the wheel of a tractor than the wheel of a car. A girl not afraid of hard work and getting dirty. A girl just like any other. Im just a girl.
The Humbling
The promises of tomorrow are the hammering nights of today. Blankly I stare into the void wars waged before my eyes. Hints of dawn sleepily emerge in the eastern sky. When the darkness dissipates, I will still be without any answers. I can’t save it. I can’t save you. A glimmer of sunlight in the mirror - it’s here already. I’m too late. I wade drearily through the guilt and shame in a myopic acceptance that there is not atonement. The sleeplessness makes the morning so stark, so frail, so callous. The day star crawls to its peak and all but sets me aflame. One foot in front of the other and I dutifully wait. You aren’t coming. I know that. Still I wait. Meaning was stolen and in golden rays abandoned and hollow still I wait. The sun never sets over this failure and in that endless noon no one can forgive me. What should I have said? The answers never come. Lapsing into those promises now of yesterday yields the loneliness of be
A Tuesday Rant...or How The Novelty Of Fu Is Wearing Off....
Ahhh Fubar. I've spent , like what. 4 years with you already? I've had some serious ups and downs (emphasis on the downs) , some amusing times and some serious pucker factor inducing ones as well. So let the screed begin... If you the RL to whomever (or RL BF), why the hell would you want to be on fubar? It's a virtual meat market.  When I had a significant other, the LAST place I'd spend any time at is on fu.  Sure I'd log in maybe once or twice a month just to let people I'm friendly with that I'm alive,other than that....why bother? The about me section. If this is supposed to be a " social networking" site why not take a few minutes to fill out that section?  I love knowing what makes people tick, their likes and dislikes, etc. So other than imbedding a music player that shows the world your bad taste in music, I learn nothing. The blantant whores and the mouth breathers that follow them. You want a bling pack or something's a novel it. I'm not here t
You Stand In The Gap...
I do have a guy best friend..I met him at the same time i met my Fue2, Hes a bit of a whore dawg, i rib him constantly on it but its all in good fun. I wish he wasnt that way, just because in contrast im not a shallow loving kind of girl. I dont understand the whole whore concept... Im trying....because in it I see where life has this guy and why hes making some choices the way he is....and its his journey, not mine he has to walk this out...and he will. He is truly a wonderul guy. We are the kinda friends that couldve grown up in the same county together and gig frogs and skip rocks all before knowing what a First Kiss was all about. We rib each other about everything..Our FU-Lives and how pathetic those situations are...Our Real lives and the people we have in them and the drama that comes when trying to mesh the two. we make each other accountable to being better... Its a love for each other..but not like that. we wont go there either of us. he is where he is and i am where I a
Retail Rip Offs - New Series!
This is a good one...providing a unique perspective on things in real life you just might not know about.... Click here & then link in stash!... Also, I've been hearing various reports that Casey Anthony was on Fubar years ago, I can't confirm or deny it but rest assured we are looking. Enjoy the read and peace!
it is so hard to stop i wish i could quit tell these lies enough times and maybe you will believe it you do it to yourself and we are left wondering why and then watch a decline that leaves us too frustrated and unable to cry be it powders pills bottles or tobaccos butt end i am tired of drugs killing my friends
Which Would You Prefer??
Ok, while out with my family my son's father turned to me and said "this line in this song (Chris Brown - My last) is dedicated to you".  The line was "she's a 7 in the face and a 10 in the ass". I was like WOW!! He thought there is nothing wrong with that. That most men prefer a girl that is a 7 in the face and a 10 in the ass. So now... I'm asking =) Would you prefer a woman that is a 7 (average) in the face and a 10 (damn) in the ass or a 10 in the face and a 7 in the ass?  PLEASE don't answer "I'd rather have a 10 in the face and a 10 in the ass", because that's not the question...jfs =)! Him, his family and his friends told me what they prefer, so now I'm asking you FU-land. ~~Sassi
I Dont Have It. Whatever It Is.
  It seems I went through life unnoticed.  Not till I say i have a girlfriend even worse feeling is the look they give when i say she has white skin. Then the looks once I tell them she's near michigan.  Wait minnesota because she cheers for the vikings. Anyway, im doing wrong in my love life because i'm not fucking anyone near.  I must ask, who the fuck is here?  No one even smiled my way like i was carrying a disease, a virus that will spread when i sneeze or i'll bleed death on all every breath that I breathe. Why not date women here? Bitch please.  Why women here dont date me? That's the question.  I'm nothing special.  I dont have anything that stands out to get your attention.  I just exist.  Just live.  Do my thing.  Walk my way.  Don't say much unless there is something worth to say.  So you tell me, where are the women who looks at me and want to play? Where they at? Where they at?  Not on top of my dick, so where there at? What's wrong with the love i have?  Yeah two years a
White House Admits Marijuana Has ‘some’ Medical Value (repost)
By Stephen C. Webster Monday, July 11th, 2011 -- 3:04 pm   Just days after the Drug Enforcement Agency (DEA) insisted that there is no medical value to marijuana, the White House appeared to contradict the position, saying in a report that there may actually be "some" medical value to "individual components of the cannabis plant" after all. The statement was just a small part of the Office on National Drug Control Policy's yearly update on the progress of the drug war and its goals moving forward. Overall, the document only serves to affirm the federal prohibition of marijuana and what it calls "'medical' marijuana," which it still views as illegitimate. But a single passage, under their "facts about marijuana," seems to loosen a bit from the generation-old line that there is no value to cannabis whatsoever. "While there may be medical value for some of the individual components of the cannabis plant, the fact remains that smoking marijuana is an inefficient and
The Way I Feel Lately I've Been Wandering Off The Narrow Path You’ve Given Me So Many Things That I've Never Had And All In All I Know It'
Lately I've been wanderingOff the narrow pathYou’ve given me so many things that I've never hadAnd all in all I know it's you that always pulls me throughIf you reach deep inside you’ll see my heart is trueCause I hate the way I feel tonightAnd I know I need you in my lifeYes I hate the way I feel insideAnd I promise to make the sacrifice The world I know is pulling meMore and more each dayI feel like the odd man out as I begin to praySpiteful eyes are watching meWith everything I doIn the midst of darkness LordMy spirit calls for youYou know sometimes deep insideI feel like thisCause I hate the way I feel tonightAnd I know I need you in my lifeYes I hate the way I feel insideAnd I promise to make the sacrifice The Way I Feel 
Number One? 20 Not So Good Categories That The United States Leads The World In (repost)
Is the United States "number one"?  Many Americans take deep pride in their nation and the truth is that the U.S. has a lot going for it.  The United States has the largest economy in the world.  The United States also has the most powerful military on the entire planet.  The United States has produced most of the greatest movies that the world has ever seen.  But the United States is also number one in a lot of categories that are not go great.  If we ever want to turn this country around, we need to be very honest with ourselves.  We need to take a long, hard look in the mirror and realize that it is not a good thing that we are number one in divorce, drug addiction, debt, obesity, car thefts, murders and total crimes.  We have become a slothful, greedy, decadent nation that is exhibiting signs of advanced decay.  Until we understand just how bad our problems really are, we won't be able to come up with the solutions that we need. A lot of people that write articles li
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I Am Real
♥ I am beautiful and I am real. This has been my story. Sometimes, I don’t get quite as far as where I wanted. But hey, the journey was always fun. I’ve learn a thing or two along the way too. That’s what counts, right? One thing’s for sure, I’ll keep setting the bar higher and higher. And I don’t have to apologize for being myself. My page is only a piece of who I am, so please don't try to define me. If you want to truly know me, just ask and I will tell you. ♥  
Battle Of The Band Update And News
Commonly asked questions about the battle of the bands Battle Rules We will be posting songs from bands every day to compete in a head to head battle voted on by fans and users. Daily winners will be chosen based on the amount of votes your song receives and awarded $100 for the victory. The winner of each daily contest will be entered for a chance to compete for the grand prize of $10,000!   Please note Fubar users who would like to be considered will need to set up a NEW band page with a different email address.        -The contest will run for 12am-12am everyday on the site.   -The song which receives the most votes on that day will be declared the winner.   -Keep voting on your favorite winners after the contest is up to help their chances at the grand prize! -referrals of new fans will count as votes for the bands   It's pretty simple just follow the steps below to sign up.    - Submit - *You will receive a verification email fro
Who I Am
I might not be someone's first choice, but I am a great choice. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, because I'm AWESOME at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past, but I'm proud of who I am today. I may not be perfect, but I don't need to be. Take me as I am or watch me as I walk away.
People On Fubar
I have some really good friends on here that i respect and would do anything for if i was asked! There are people here that i as so tried of there pathetic bs, drama and inconcideration to other people! i'm not much of a talker as so many know but i get my point acrossed! i am to the point that i don't want to be friends with females due to there pettiness! enough is enough!!!!!!!!grow tf up!
Back After So Long!
Damn, I haven't been on here for like years. It's changed a lot too. I'm happy to be back though, it's interesting to say the least. I'm tired of Facebook sometimes. This is a good way to meet more people. I hope to make some friends here now that I'm back.
Why Bernanke Is A Global Laughing-stock For Saying “gold Isn’t Money” (repost)
 July 14th, 2011  Elisheva Wiriaatmadja   Responding to Ben Bernanke’s statement to Ron Paul that god isn’t money, the NIA (National Inflation Association) published their recent newsletter, explaining why they believe Bernanke is wrong and why American’s should know that gold IS money. During the session with Congressman Ron Paul, Bernanke said that the Federal Reserve is prepared to act with an additional round of quantitative easing if there is any weakening of the US economy and threat of deflation. He also stated that another alternative to stimulate the US economy was by cutting the interest rate that the Fed pays to banks on their $1.5 trillion in excess reserves that they currently keep parked at the Fed. In their newsletter, NIA responded:   …this $1.5 trillion alone would multiply into $15 trillion once it circulates through the U.S. economy and if Bernanke on top of that unleashes any additional quantitative easing, it will just a
I'm Sorry
Everyone, Ive been sitting here thinking A LOT lately and I need to apologize, I am letting the very bad treatment i am getting and have gotten for a long time on Pogo , effect how I am here and other sites, It's making me a bitter, angry person. Losing people to talk to, who used to talk to me everyday, causes someone to change. Again, I'm sorry.
Vow To The Love Of My Life!!!!
I promise to give you the best of myself and to ask of you no more than you can give. I promise to accept you the way you are. I fell in love love with you for the qualities, abilities, and outlook on life that you have, and wont try to reshape you in any different image. I promise to respect you as a person with your own interests, desires, and needs, and to realize that those are sometimes different, but no less important than mine. I prmise to keep myself open to you, to let you see thru the window of my personal world into my innermost fears and feelings, secrets and dreams.  I promise to grow along with you, to be willing to face change as we both change in order to keep our relationship alive and exciting. And finally, I prmise to love you in good times and in bad, with all I have to give and all I feel inside in the only way I know how........completely and forever.
For People Who Think I Am A Submissive & Think I Am Going 2 Call Them "sir" Or "master".....
So I got a gift of a Sin Collar this morning when I logged onto Fubar......I get this gift a lot from friends I frequently talk to as a joke cuz they know how head strong I am....but this time it was a RANDOM person who sent it and enclosed was this message:   "hello, i have to admit that you have a very submissive appearance to me. it seems as if you are waiting for someone who takes control. you have a sort of body language as if you are that sort of female i prefer to see with a collar around her neck instead of a necklace. and i am sure i am correct about your personality, in that case you see it as pleasure and privilege to show the needed respect by addressing me as sir when you thank me for this little gift"   For those of you who even think that I am that type of person, think twice before you try messaging or talking to me cuz here is the response you will get:   To SirAlex: hahaha boy do u have me all wrong...I am NOT a submissive woman nor would I be any mans sl
Journal Of Ossianphi....
"Father please save me!" "Ossian!" "Angela!" "Grab him, hold him down, we cant let this Demon get back on his feet! Take the girl crucify and burn her along with the wife just to be sure." "NOOOO!!! Please she is not one of us. SHE IS NOT ONE OF US!" "And just what are you? You're not a man so that makes you an agent of the Devil. Your kind has terrified this village for centuries. We finally eradicate those things and here you come and the attacks happen again just like before. So tell me Demon how are we to sure? We take your word that she is not nor she? We will do what have to to preserve this village and its people. " "Please do not harm my daughter please." "This mighty Demon is begging. [cackling laugh] Put them on the blocks now. Fighting with chains the Demon thrashed about along the floor helpless as he watches his loved ones be drugged out of their home. Cries from the child could break the mightiest of hearts but not souless men. These men thought that they we doing
I'm Thinking I'm Done Doing This
its been like almost 3 years since i joined up with Exotic Dreams. and in that time i have become a dj manager and was a dj that some couldn't even touch. but now after those three years i just dont know anymore. its not the same. i'm not the same. i've gone over and over in my head why do i do this all the time or what is makin me keep dj'in. Something is just not right with me like its all over with. the happiness is gone from where i was. Krazy Ken isn't Krazy anymore i'm not even close to being the one person that everyone thinks thats awsome.. after my mom passed away i dont think my life has been the same. soo i guess i have alot to think about
Part 2
a few months ago i started talking to this random person lets just call them (sweet) lol! the only reason i even started talking to this person is because i was invited by them to fumafia, things where going good we talked almost everyday mostly about there kid or my kids or what ever.   well up til a few days ago i stopped talking to this person due to a comment that they made, ( and yes they knew i am married and yes my hubby knew all bout it ) (and i did tell this person to watch what they say to me well anyway) my hubby got piss and went off on this person, now i was really hurt,thinking that this so called friend was  never  my friend and i cried due to the fact i was played like a mofoin fool, i learned my lesson (the hard way)   my point being is this don't think that  anybody on here is your real friend(s) there not unless you have known them before joining. now im not judging but im saying is to be careful , and im a GEMINI and we do attend  to leap with out looking o
Leave Out All The Rest
I dreamed I was missingYou were so scaredBut no one would listenCause no one else caredAfter my dreamingI woke with this fearWhat am I leavingWhen I'm done hereSo if you're asking me I want you to knowWhen my time comesForget the wrong that i've doneHelp me leave behind someReasons to be missedDon't resent meAnd when you're feeling emptyKeep me in your memoryLeave out all the restLeave out all the restDon't be afraidI've taken my beatingI've shared what i madeI'm strong on the surfaceNot all the way throughI've never been perfectBut neither have youSo if you're asking me I want you to knowWhen my time comesForget the wrong that i've doneHelp me leave behind someReasons to be missedDon't resent meAnd when you're feeling emptyKeep me in your memoryLeave out all the restLeave out all the restForgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so wellPretending / someone else can come and save me from myselfI can't be who you areWhen my time comesForget the wrong that I've done
malfunctional encephalon useless grey sludge damaged receptors  cranium crud neurotransmitters misfire at will muddled, befuddled riddled to hell dopamine slow travelling  sick synaptic transmission  brief moments euphoric sharp sudden remission serotonin standby norepinephrine away inane glial matter take it away  lobotomize me
I hardly know you and already you have me entranced. You make me question if I am even worthy of your time. The thought of holding you leaves me breathless. I want to discover the feeling of our fingers intertwined as we walk hand-in-hand alongside the beach. Sharing every moment together. I just want to live in the state of grace you shine out to the world like a beacon. The life I have lived and the decisions I have made, have all made me feel like I was on a downward spiral. But from just one look at your smile, and I feel like I am being given a second chance. I want to rediscover romance with you. Travel down roads that don't have names, and get lost only to enjoy the ride. All I ask is that you are true to yourself in where you want this to go. If you give me the chance, I will do everything I can to make that smile of yours shine out even on your darkest of days.
As I Lay Dying
As I walk thru the rain Everyone stares And its all in vain Cuz the rain Doesn't wash away my pain   My heart hurts My body aches Never understanding What is my fate But the rain Never washes away my pain   Tears roll down my face My heart loses it's pace But still I find no relief From all this god damn pain   In the end I see her Waiting for me At the edge As she smiles I feel relief From all my pain   And she whispers Let's get out Of this god damn rain RR
Madness: 39 Things That Are Driving Ordinary Americans Absolutely Crazy July 21, 2011 (repost)
Print Version   Source: Micheal Snyder - BLN Contributing Writer Have you noticed that almost everyone seems really angry these days?  Frustration with the government and with most of the other major institutions in our society seems to grow by the day.  According to a brand new ABC News/Washington Post poll, 80 percent of Americans say that they are either dissatisfied or angry with the government.  Americans are deeply divided about what the solutions to our problems are, but what almost everyone can agree on is that our problems are getting worse.  Watching all of the madness that is going on in Washington D.C. and in our state capitals is almost enough to drive anyone absolutely crazy.  Our nation is drowning in an ocean of debt, jobs are being shipped overseas at an alarming rate, thousands of stores are closing, poverty is exploding, greed has become a national pastime and corruption is seemingly everywhere.  The American people are incredibly frustrated because t
My Opinion Of People On Fubar
How perfetic can some of you people be you go on someones broadcst to get them to show you what you want then you call them a ho and a whore i mean or fuck sake grow a fucking pair of balls and click the red cross. if a woman wants to show let her your opinions are perfetic she does what she wants if you don't ike it no one is telling you to stay. let those who want to see enjoy it if you don't want to your insults are just gonna get you blocked if you want to be blocked so bad ask them to block you. or block them it's that simple so learn to grow up the way it's seeming guys are happ to go on cam and jack off but if a woman wants to masterbate or show her tits it's not allowed, i don't gree if guys are allowed then women should be ble too aswell so stop being childish stop being perfetic and grow  set of balls you obviously weren't born with and stop insulting those who want to waatch and those who want to show and go wtch someone elses broacdast there are many women who don't.  
(how To) Speedup Chrome
(How To) Speedup Chrome™It not a suprise that more than 20% of the browser market is being used within Google Chrome. Chrome is coded off the Webkit browser engine and is derived from the Graphical Interface named "Frame" or "Chrome". Chrome was first released as a Beta project on September 2, 2008 and was officially released as being stable on December 11, 2008. Chrome comes preloaded with the V8 Javascript Engine as well as other engines to better boost its System Interface".This blog will help show members the following:To Speed Up Google Chrome's Interface,Give Understanding Of Chrome's Preferences,To Make Chrome's Scrolling Smoother.In Google Chromes location bar, type about:flagsA page that looks like the table below will appear once the page loads.Careful, these experiments may biteWARNING These experimental features may change, break, or disappear at any time. We make absolutely no guarantees about what may happen if you turn one of these experiments on, and your browser
Sammi And Ronnie
Sammi: Don't ruin your life over me. Ronnie: You are my life now.  
Waterfall View
There lies a volume of stars at night and when I think of it I think of the way I saw you that night, You were standing up there next to the waterfall and as I walked up to you, you said, "There are stars tonight" I nodded. I pointed to the waterfall and you nodded and I said, "There, see that water falling, see that's the result of the stars dropping in every night from the sky but you know they never fade even as they fall from the  water because you're the reason they are still out there. They can keep falling from this waterfall but  who you are in this waterfall are the formations to where the water flows because you give me this love I don't deserve but you make me happy so much I will take the plunge for your love that will keep me  falling to be with you." As that water kept falling, we took a sit, enjoyed those stars, and as she gave me that simple kiss on the lip you smiled and said "Can you just be here for me for the rest of the night? Mr. Waterfall?"    (This s
The Hypocrisy Of The Democrats In Congress..
If anyone is keeping up on current events, there's a debt ceiling issue that needs to be resolved by August 2nd, 2011 in order to keep our good world credit rating and avoid some services and other things the government is doing to keep from shutting down. Democrat Sen. Harry Reid, as shown here below, when Bush was President in 2006, was against raising the debt limit as shown in this video below: This was a couple weeks ago... Is this hypocritical or is it me?. TGIF!..peace.
Downword Spiral (song/peom) Written By Brandy And Me When I Was 15 In A Play I Starred In The Lead Part! I Also Co Wrote The Play!
downword spiral (song/peom) written by brandy and me   sometimes you go down deeper than you ever have before lose yourser lose your way the spiral the wicked spiral it slams you down waiting for you to hit the ground and you go down and you go down so deep and you dont think you will find your way and the downwrod spiral spins you away and what you want you dont get and when your life turns to regret and what you will remeber you will forget
Forever Walking
  Forever walking with no place to goWish you had some stuff and somebody to showYou find yourself sitting on a bridge aloneTrying to remember how to get back home…. 15 years agoModern day Jesus was the man I speak aboutThe only thing he needed never ran outNo bills to pay no worries except for the rainYou can’t lose something if you never had it In his life there was nothing to gainThis man had nothing but love to giveA little wine some fruit of the vine……. a little beerNo worries because he had nowhere to steerThe only way he knew how to liveEveryday he celebrated the Cana of Galilee Wedding Making wine on nothing but a dimeAt night he would lay down and dream on his cardboard beddingIf people saw Jesus they would walk right past himJust like most people who looked at this manThey would not dare to shake his handDirty clothes and dirty feetSpent his time with bums on the streetThe man I speak about still walks aroundBut now he is walking far from the groun
Another Set Of Tragedies
Today I read where 6 people were shot and killed and 4 others wounded at a Texas Roller Rink. Then the shooter shot himself what a cowards way out. Yesterday I read in Norway where a man dressed asa police officer told youths at a camp to come closer. When they did he pulled weapons and shot and killed I think 80 - 90 people. Once he shot them he made sure they were dead by shooting them again in the head with a shotgun. The world has gone crazy. What makes someone take a gun and just shoot people at random for no reason. Lives gone families devasted to have to bury loved ones. Its sad what has happened in the last couple days. Then tonight I read Amy Winehouse at 27 was found dead in her london home. Death unknown but I am sure it will come out a drug overdose. I am hoping in the next few days there is good newsand no more devastation.
Iam Lost
Iam lost..out of hope..lost with no life left..iam so cold no cares any secret is no more a litle lie..all hope is gone iam wings are craked like cant fix..a broken can mend it but the scare allways stays..broken is the last word that was on my mind when u my heart try to get strength..i fall deeper in to the life less black whole... ~ to the one i lost. the one i loved the most allways, i will love him forever but now that hes gone,i feel nothing but..un mended wounds..broken.
Naughty Qoutes
Sex is evil, evil's a sinsins are forgiven, so let's begin. Kids in back seats cause accidents, accidents in back seats cause kids. If youve been naughty go to your room if you wanna be go to mine. you have been very naughty now go to my room!
Wow Youre Really Gonna Read Me!!!
I didnt plan this so i guess as the ideas come to my head ill type it. First off id like to say i think its cool that we even have internet in afghanistan cuz this place sucks ass. I love being able to connect with everybody back home and when i feel like it, seeing them lol. Theres alot of things i am going to discuss over my blog sessions. Dont judge me lol, most of the time im just venting. I treat this like i treat the songs i write. The idea these days is that most people are fake, they dont keep it "Real". I talk about my personal life alot, good and bad, if thats not "Real" then i dont know wat is. Im currently trying to write a book as well, even though i will admit, its far more difficult than i thought it would be. Most of my previous blogs on other sites were just my opinion on certain situations and people. i doubt much will change. So there you have it, and one more thing, really quick. If you dont like wat i say, keep it to yourself lol, im so past the caps lock wars and
Oral Sex
One of my favorite blow job experiences was getting sucked off driving over a bridge. My girl kept hitting her head on the steering wheel while giving me head. I was already all over the road, her head hitting the wheel just made my driving even more erratic! ;D
Today I Miss...
You Mom. More than You Know. Wish you were here.. because in that way .. I am SELFISH! You were strong and needed to be You always had good advice that was sometimes Difficult To embrace... But In the end... Was the Right Choice. How i wish I could Hear your voice again. Spend Hours and hours over the cups of Coffee Both laughing and Crying..til it Hurt! I miss the Woman.. WHO MADE ME WHO I AM YOUR 5 BABIES ARE STILL HERE I Lay For Each The Roses which Honor You. In Much Love and tears.   RIP MOM Your Lil Ragdoll
A Reason, A Season, Or A Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime….   When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person…   When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.   They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,   To aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.   They may seem like a Godsend and they are.   They are there for the reason you need them to be.   Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,   this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.   Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.   Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.   What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.   The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.     Some people come into your life for a SEASON, becaus
Times Have Changed…
Times Have Changed…     A computer was something on TV           from a  science fiction show of note           A window was something you hated to clean           and ram was the cousin of a goat.               Meg was the name of my girlfriend           and gig was a job for the nights,           Now they all mean different things           and that really mega bytes.             An application was for employment           a program was a TV show           A cursor used profanity           a keyboard was a piano             Memory was something that you lost with age           a cd was a  bank account           And if you had a 3 1/2" floppy           you hoped nobody found out.             Compress was something you did to the garbage           not something you did to a file,           And if you unzipped anything in public           you'd be in jail for awhile.             Log was adding wood to the fire           hard drive was a long trip on
Cumming Into The Forest
You reach over and put your hand under my skirt and begin to play with my clit. I moan as we drive deeper into the mountains down the dirt road. I slide down into my seat, my knees on the dashboard, my thighs spread as far apart as I can, to give you better access. You glance over as you slide your finger into my dripping wet pussy. As your finger slides in and out, my breathing becomes faster with pleasure. Just as I’m about to cum all over you, you pull your finger out, pull the car over, and stop.  We get out of the car and walk up a path, hand in hand, further into the forest.  Up ahead we see a clearing. “That should do,” I say, pointing under a tree at the edge of the clearing. You lay out the blanket that you brought along. The soft grass and dried leaves cushion us as we sit on the blanket and take off our shoes.  A cool breeze blows down from the top of the mountains and down the canyon. It evaporates the sweat already pooled on our bodies. A babbling brook c Battle Of The Bands Interview With The Public Trust About Winning The Daily Battle Bling Bling Bling Dup Plate - Mox Hooked This Up 2/11/11
Nothing Left
Mar. 16th, 2005  01:51 am     Pain suddenly shot through her chest. Sharp, horrible pain that pierced her soul. It crippled her emotionaly and physicaly. She could feel the warm salty tears dripping down her face. And then that was all she felt. She was numb. She felt no wound from a knife. No drug could intoxicate her. The tears were all she had, And so she cried for there was nothing else she could do.
Ebay Rant Again
Just another rant about ebay. I am sadly having to get very irked with the seller I am attempting to purchase this keyboard replacement from.  I was told that I could send a money order to the seller so I did so and mailed it certified mail. I was polite and even messaged the seller to inform them it was on the way. Being certified mail and going to a PO Box it will leave a notification that the seller needs to come and sign for it. This notification was left in the PO Box Monday and yet the seller denies it is there.  I have spoken with the post there and am still being told the same thing by the seller despite what the tracking information says.So is the seller just being lazy, or do they just not want my money? I'm sure they would be bitching and complaining if a buyer had not sent payment so why are they giving me so many problems to simply accept payment? I did not know ordering things online had became this complex./end rants
Bring Back Speed Bar.
If you want speed bar brought back please post with me and tell Baby Jesus we would like it back. We need a way to get fubux fast if needed. Thanx Tazz
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Spoon Theory
My best friend and I were in the diner, talking. As usual, it was very late and we were eating French fries with gravy. Like normal girls our age, we spent a lot of time in the diner while in college, and most of the time we spent talking about boys, music or trivial things, that seemed very important at the time. We never got serious about anything in particular and spent most of our time laughing. As I went to take some of my medicine with a snack as I usually did, she watched me with an awkward kind of stare, instead of continuing the conversation. She then asked me out of the blue what it felt like to have MS and be sick. I was shocked not only because she asked the random question, but also because I assumed she knew all there was to know about MS. She came to doctors with me, she saw me walk with a cane, and throw up in the bathroom. She had seen me cry in pain, what else was there to know? I started to ramble on about pills, and aches and pains, but she kept pursuing, and didn't
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Unfrienders For No Apparent Reason:
Send a nice warm friend request. Accepted. Visit profile often, giving only 11's. Send notes. Give drinks. Suddenly unfriended. Send blank friend request, because you were already friends. Not accepted. Send note asking why. "I don't keep friends who never visit my profile". wtf? Freak.
Dear Congress
DEAR CONGRESS, Last year I mismanaged my funds and this year my family and I cannot decide on a budget. Until we can come to a unified decision that fits all of our needs and interests, we will have to shut down our check book and will no longer be able to pay our taxes. I'm sure you'll understand. Thank you very much for setting an example we can all follow.
Water Found On Saturn Coming From Its Moon! Very Exciting   what a great few days for science and space..these new finding have really got me SPACED OUT!!! LOL a good read for my felow space nerds       nerd love
I Think It Might Be Time To Clean Your Belly Button Out..   wow now thats  a gross belly button!
Just Letting You Guys Know
I just wanted to clear up what my intentions here in this blog are.   I'm getting some negative comments from people about my blog.   first of all,I can't spell and as lazy as it sounds, I might not spell everything correctly all the time but I honestly don't care. The more I write my blogs the better my writting will be so just chill out and let a nerd talk.I don't normally type out my feelings I'm used to the good old paper and pen so just give me some time to get better at this online bloggng thing. second of all yes sometimes I copy and paste is the thing I dont claim it to me me who wrote it and said it im just blogging about stuff thats on my mind,things people said,clips i get from the news..i always say and this came from and then paste it..if someone has already said something and its just as good or better than how you would explain it you should prob just leave it alone. Everything I put in " " is from someone else okay? there is nothing wrong with using s
I have never felt so pure inside until i met you at first you didnt see me the way i looked at you There was a place in me that was missing In my heart, a place reserved for you. Now our hearts have united. I need you to know, that i love you so. A kind of love ive never felt before. You are my comfort, the only one i adore.I love you for everything you are dont you dare change a thing your eyes, your mind, the way you speak, your shine. Through my weary soul.For as long as I am breathing me and you shall stay, together this way. Never doubt our love.We were meant to be.I wish I could hold you tight in my are my angel cant you see? there is nothing I would not do for you your love is a precious gift. You are there, when I am down giving me a extra lift.    
People Ask I Use 3's Instead Of E This Is Why Lol
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A Cold Sweat
the night was hot. the air was thick with humidity. she lay in bed, letting the steamy air hug her sweat glistening body. she needed something, anything, to cool off. slowly she grabs it and slips off its protective sleeve, holding the frozen shaft in her hand by the stick. so cold. so sweet. she parted her lips and let the sweet sensation pass over her tongue. it wasnt enough. she wanted more. she needed more. slowly she slid it down her curves, letting the frigid shaft kiss her skin. a trail of juice. over her nipples. past her bellybutton. so cold. exactly what she needed. slowly feeling the relief of the chilly pleasure. slowly. so cold. her thighs parted slightly, quivering with excitement. so cold. deeper. her hot inner muscles gripping at the frozen shaft. deeper. harder. melting fast. her body was crying out to her in pleasure. faster. so cold. her lips parted, trying to pull in the stale air around her. melting. almost there! het thighs slamed
Little Whore
twinkle, twinkle little whore, close your legs, they're not a door. ♥
Yup, I'm in a foul mood now. I got deleted on my gay site as always. Bleh. I guess at least they refunded my donation to the site but still it pisses me off to no end. It just kinda of depressing, and irksome.  
Empty Nest
           As some of you know for the past few years I have been a single dad of two very wonderful sons . Needless to say with work and all it was a full time job . I can tell you it was not always fun to put my own life on hold , but  I had to keep them on the right track in life .                Now the time has come , Tuesday my youngest son Alex goes off to school in W.V. , and I will be here in a empty house . Dam I thought it was hard when my oldest son went off to school and his own life . Now the house will be really empty.                                                  Was kinda  funny ,  when I went to the market I got groceries for two people ? Well guess it will take time like anything in life .                  So here is to turning a new page in my book of life " May the winds be fair and the seas kind "    Bobfelter         
Remember Its Just Life
I have uttered this phrase more than once along with "everything happens for a reason"....I really try to practice what i preach and not let things get to me but its hard when you have had the life I have lived so far....i dont want to rrlive all of it but i do want to talk finally about the latest tragedy/roadblock......I have 3 sons one in new mexico and 2 who are in youngest prestyn "supposedly" locked himself in a car trunk and died....I was devistated because i have not been a good father i made a mstake and followed what i thought was love only to get my heart destroyed not broke now my baby is gone and i only have the option of riding a bus to oklahoma to the funeral or not going there at all...i went...only to get the news that my baby isnt mine but my best friend and brother jasons and that my ex knew since right after we got divorced but to screw me out of child support money she never said a word....out of everything though i must ask why she di
The truth can't save you. No amount of steel umbrellas and twitterpation can keep this from happening. Just another hailstorm of broken glass and accidents waiting to happen. But the world keeps on turning Perhaps too fast. Punctuated, exclamated by an ejaculate of denial. All the lies and checks the system burns through in the first five seconds This is not happening. This will not go unpunished. This did not happen. This will pass. This is not my blood. I can still feel my legs. I'm not sure what I held onto in that moment I'd like to say it was hope fear desperation final negotiations with jesus and all the wisemen and their fancey hats What the hell is murr anyway? Brings me back to the memory of a headache. Opioid withdrawal? Muscle regeneration? Nerve death? In explicit detail and gratuitous length. Remembering the chill of half of your blood falling out of you and the slow dizzy drip into the ground as the sky falls out of your fingers and the firm ce
I have been doing even more cleaning than usual. I almost have this room done and have space to make this a livable place for the hermit that I am becoming. Ever get to that point where you care less and less as the days go by? I'm frustrated, annoyed, irked, and I need attention even though like a cantankerous old cat I am hiding more and more. I just deleted a shit ton of people from my cell phone contacts. Shayne acted like an ass and I'm not talking to him. He can find me if he wants to talk and I just sort of feel that way about a lot of people and things in my life right now.I'm being random so I shall end with the best comment I made on Facebook this week. I fail @ gay social networking. Nothing newI was told that someone liked the phrasing and not the fail and I feel it applies.Still meditating and yeah I said I was closing this blog but I decided not to do so yet. Anyways, what the hell are peoples upto and have I missed anything worthwhile on here? I plan to be here less and
Our Future Together
Was there ever a time that I did not know theeThere must have been for we met on that beautiful dayAt times it feels so long ago in the dim and distant past For I feel that we have known each other all our livesLove has blossomed within my breast and I am happyYour response lifts me up, soaring into the heavensFor in truth I dared not believe this could happenYet through the years I hoped and yearned for itMy eyes have seen your glorious form before meAs my heart enjoys the brilliance of your soulMy soul is spellbound by the love within your heartI am addicted to the radiance of your emotionsNow I spend countless hours thinking only of youReliving all those joyous moments of our pastImagining our future together in perfect happinessThere is no limit to what we can achieve if we wishWe need only to have the will and courage to live itNo matter what we do I know we will be happyProviding we do everything together and with loveThe future will be ours for we hold it in our handsWe must go
Taking Advantage
She was laying in bed, gently thrashing in the sheer white silk sheets. Her long wavy dirty blonde hair was pasted to her face with sweat. Her crimson painted lips were slightly parted as she breathed sharply, taking in the stale warm air of the room. A droplet of sweat trailed down her slender neck and traveled down her slightly tanned skin down into her very ample buxom. The top three buttons of her white shirt was open and exposing her sheer black lace bra. Her long , slender legs were twisting under the sheets; the legs that seemed to go on forever until they fused into a perfect heart shaped ass. The light of the setting sun peaked in through the broken blinds and seemed to give her skin an almost angelic golden glow. I watched her from the corner. Her body seemed to scream sexuality to my thirsty lust. She opened her large almond shaped eyes. They were as green and shiny as emeralds. She noticed me immediately and covered herself with the sheets. A look of uncertain
Hiccups, Farts And Upgrading...compensation?
This is in response to the members who try and ask for compensation when fubar hiccups, farts or we are simply upgrading doing maintenance. This has been addressed before. This is part of the life and times of a living, breathing monster like fubar. If you expect to be compensated because the site hiccups, you need a reality check. This is not the way we operate. We give out bonus points and provide multiple opportunities to give you FREE advantages on the site. If you expect to monopolize off us when we are doing standard maintanance or becasue of a simple hardware issue that last a few minutes, i would suggest no purchasing whatever it is you are trying to get back. This is not what this site is about. Thank you to everyone who supports and realizes that shit happens! Please send your greivences to the complaint box.  Scrapper
This Woman
It happened not too long ago, I fell for another and needed to set a blog for it.. you know who you are and how amazing our conversations and tick for tack has made us best friends,I enjoy knowing that your not afraid of my feelings.You mean so much to me and its been just ove a week?  Not even? I amalways excited when I get you mail. I feel so pretty when you take the time to how me love... your coooking,wish I could talk to you and perhaps even more.yooooour on my mind girlsdontcry
The Treadmill Of Fuck You...
Interesting title isn't it. Well it is very right on the numbers though... Life is a treadmill of fuck you's.   First example, been looking at a car, an older car, my dad lives by the guy so he took it for a test drive, he liked it said it ran great, the owner drove the car 3 times last week, even filled the tank. So I go over there on Saturday before the housewarming party to buy the car most likely, and it won't start. Fuck you Jason, the car hates you.   Second example, Wisdom teeth were bugging me, hada bad moler too, so I had them all pulled out, wonderful weekend let me tell you, but hey it happens we all go through it right. So I had this obnoxious ringing in my middle ear, only had it happen before from a bad tooth before, so I am thinking great this will take care of that. Fuck you Jason, $300.00 later, still ringing in my ear. So this is the treadmill of fuck you's, you go to work every day to a job that most of us hate, you work people who you find annoying or just plai
Top Five Worst Things To Say Or Hear In Bed...and Then Some
1. "It'd be nice if these were bigger..." 2. "I wonder if I paid the gas bill this month...?" 3. "Are you done yet...?" 4. "My last girlfriend/boyfriend would let me do that..." 5. "Is it in yet...?"   1."your sister was so much tighter" 2."your brother was so much tighter" 3."P U - did you shower today?" 4."Before you start, go downstairs and make me a pizza." 5."DEAR GOD! Thats what you look like without makeup?"   1. "Glad you won't deflate" 2. "Wait,let me pick the scabs" 3. "Down boy. You'll get your Scooby Snack after we're done." 4. "Do you accept food stamps?" 5. "Damn sis, at least mom gives better head."  
[strong Arm]
Ever been henpecked into submission? If not- I'd love to introduce you to my mother so she can leave me alone for once.   I love my parents. I really do but when you TELL THEM SOMETHING REPEATEDLY IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS they... disregard what you said, and often lead you straight into aggrivating hijinks... Like that time I spent $2,400.00 on fixing the car that they exploded by taking it to a disreputable mechanic to replace my battery which exploded within 24 hours of the procedure and FRIED my car's electrical system. Yes These are my parents.   They mean well they really do   but ... they have a complete inability to do two things 1. Listen/comprehend. 2. Plan.   When I say something like "I'm too self aware to be swayed by some self-help shaman, and seeing a therapist is going to be a massive waste of my time and your money, I'm not willing to be in therapy, I don't think it will help, and they're not going to tell me anything I don't already know" It trans
Camp House
Short story     I stood on the dock, looking out over the river. The morning sun was just peeking up over the tree line and casting its rays through the small openings of the dew covered leaves. I stood staring at the light that the perfectly round, orange sun shined down on the water. The water reflected the face of a new day.   Just as my thoughts began to wander, I heard Lenny open the screen door of the camp house that stood several hundred feet behind me, on the most beautiful green hill I had ever seen. Everything about this place was paradise to me. I guess that's why I never left.   My eyes followed the wharf back to the hill where Lenny sat looking at the water, his eyes fixed on the boat we've traveled in on days like today. We had the best of times in that boat, speeding down the river, laughing, singing, and enjoying the company of one another.  Oh how I can still, so vividly remember countless occasions we would become overtaken by passion, doing what came naturally
Blood Lust
a thin blade traced across her skin slowly, carefully, leaving behind a line of red crimson. she was at full display. hands and feet shackled together on her knees before the man in the doctor's coat. the blade trailed across her breasts, dripping her blood slowly down her curves, oozing around her nipples. the doctor removed his surgical mask and lowered his face down her her chest, slowly licking the line of blood that he had created on her chest. tasting the sweet yet slightly metallic taste of her blood in his mouth. her nipple rolled across his tongue. at full attention from his touch. she wanted it just as bad as he did. his fingertips dipped inside of her, testing her wetness and warmth as she squirmed at his soft yet firm wanting touch. her thighs drenched with her own juices. his fingers pushing in deeper, curling at the knuckle to scrape along her inner walls. she soft squishing of her juices filled the room with each thrust of his fat fingers. she threw her head back and
Can You Hear Me Now?
I dont know if this is gonna work but...if it does... I am trying to get my friend as many likes/rates/pimpouts/bombs etc... I will pay for the pimps/bombs now lets see if I can post the link LOL If this link doesn't work I will have to delete this blog ;)   Thank you :)
Life is God's novel. Let him write it.  -  Isaac Bashevis Singer
As Moments End
It's 24:49 as sitting watching the the vintage clock sitting across on a neatly arranged shelf of my son and daughter-in-laws home. I remember the hour well 2 years back as Madison (my grand-daughter) was about to arrive as laying on a cot shared by son and his mother-in law Patty  in the recliner waiting. That very moment she came and my heart burst with joy at the site of her. Tonight she lays so still compared to the hours before. I watch her so precious and innocent and keep her near. Trauma to mommy and daddy, confusion and fear had her small being still trembling. A tear falls as I look above thanking God for his mercy of her life. On their life....a driver under the influence of alcohol and drugs could have taking them away. Still an unborn life is clinging to survive the next moments end. 
Wtf Is Wrong With People?
This is just a rant:  WTF is wrong with people at work that refuse to flush the damn toilets?  I swear it's like they act like they're paying the 'effing water bill.  FLUSH THE F*CKING THING!!!  Really?  How old are you now?   End rant.
Summers morning ... sun on skin Happy smiles, warmth within Summers day ... sky bright blue Water fights, soaked right through Summers evening ... light cool breeze Child sleeping, lovers tease Summers night ... stars twinkle bright in your arms, I lay tonight  
Sexiest Eyes Contest
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My Recurring Nightmare
NIGHTMARE Take off my apron, throw it in the bin and walk to the exit of where i work, exit the doors and attempt to get my car keys from my purse while still managing to walk to my car. i unlock the car ,let my hair down, turn the car on, change the radio station, lower the windows and open the huge sun roof. i put my car into reverse i let out a sigh from a long day of work i slowly move my way to the intersection of my works parking lot. the light turns green i begin to turn BOOMB my car gets hit by a semi truck. the truck slams my car and pushes it about ten feet forward. my body flies and twists around the car, i start to see black and fade away. i hear voices around me screaming my name i try to open my eyes but im in so much pain im scared to look i cant move. i keep hearing my name being yelled its not a simple yell its a crying yell "oh my god valinda are you alright open your eyes can you hear me?". i hear sirens from the police, firetruck, and ambulance. it takes the jaws o
Name That Player Update!...
This was a popular one, here's an update as to where they are at today..... Click here & then link in stash!... Also congrats to Chrissy for getting yesterday's trivia right and getting free points today!... Almost the weekend kids....peace.
Hmmmm Where To Start
i donno where to start but i felt like wrighting life has been throwing me some pritty shitty curve balls latley and its not getting any better save for 2 special ppl in my life my kid and my new hubby my friends who have been there are awesome too but even now a days its nothing but drama with them i love them to death i really do but its like i feel like i cant do anything right in their eyes every turn i make is wrong and i get shit for it or they just wont talk to me at all i donno too much goin on not enough brain power or time to figure it all out i keep biting off more than i can chew and then more gets trown on my plate that i donno what to do with lifes a bitch then you die i can remember who told me that way back in high school but they were fuckin right wen will things just slow down just enough for me to catch up?
Exercise For People Over 50
EXERCISE FOR PEOPLE OVER 50:Begin with a 5-lb potato bag in each hand, extend your arms straight out from your sides and hold them there as long as you can. Each day you'll find that you can hold this position for just a bit longer.After a couple of weeks, move up to 10-lb potato bags.Then try 50-lb potato bags and then eventually try to get to where you can lift a 100-lb potato bag in each hand . (I'm at this level.)After you feel confident at that level, put a potato in each bag.
I Dont Care What Others Think
What drives me nuts is that how people acted toward what people say or do or even what they like. I like video games, I like to watch anime. I like to do a lot of other things as well. But what kills me tho is that i have noticed that people on here will say the rudest things on peoples mumms. Whether they are being serious or not, they got to watch out cause some people might not know your just jokeing around. Another thing i have noticed is that people have said things about peoples names on here, like your name is stupid, retarded or gay. I have to laugh about that cause people i have seen do that, i am like have you looked at your name lately, you have no room to talk. P.S IF you dont like what I said in this blog then you can just go and kiss my ass.
I have realized a bizarre truth tonight...something I have held dear and believed in for so long. Why be yourself when being yourself rips the people you WANT in your life away? I know some will say, "they are not worth it" but perhaps this person was and is...and because of my shortcomings and vices I see and feel this person distance them self from me. It hurts my heart and soul! However, I am what I am. And I refuse to be anything but ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Vices...addictions...personality flaws, physical flaws...emotional ones too. I am ME...the Tart... KELLY...The bitch...The crazy one...the sweet loving one (sometimes) I AM WOMAN...HEAR ME ROAR (or scream, cry, bitch... whichever may apply) I am Woman!!! I am entitled to it! Women have pussy...and men want pussy. Women rule the fucking world! DUHHHHHH!!!!! PEACE!
Water Method (repost)
Water Therapy has magical effects in curing diseases. Everybody has experienced a positive change in their health after implementing water therapy in their daily routine. You can never believe it before practicing.Early morning, after you get up from bed, (without even brushing your teeth) drink 1.50 liters of water i.e. 5 to 6 glasses. You may wash your face thereafter. This is called water therapy.Here it is very essential to note that nothing else, neither drinks nor solid food of any sort should be taken within 1 hour before and after drinking these 1.5 liters of water. It is also to be strictly observed that no alcoholic drinks shall be taken the previous night.If required, boiled and filtered water may be used for this purpose. Is it possible to drink 1.50 liters of water at one time? To begin with, one may find it difficult to drink 1.50 liters of water at one time, but one will get used to it gradually.Initially, while practicing you may drink four glasses first and then the ba
The Man Who Did Not Care About Me
Over a year ago, I had broken up and moved out of the house of my boyfriend into my dads house. I had just got my new tattoo kit, and I thought that moving into my dads house would be a good idea, boy was I wrong. My dad had a roommate at the time by the name of Daren. He seamed nice, and polite to me when I met him for the first time. About a week passed and a girl named sara stoped by to see Daren, they went into his room. After they were done, she ran out crying, but I thought nothing of it. A few days after that Daren called me into his room. Where he proceded to make moves on me. I was still holding out hope for my old boyfriend Chris, who had just gotten out of jail, that me and him were going to get back together. I kept telling Daren no, and that I was not intrested in being with him. I tried to leave his room, but he steped in front of the door blocking me from leaving. He pushed me onto the bed and forcefuly removed my cloths. (at the time no one at my dads house was home whe
after a recent conversation with an amazing friend of mine about me being single... i decided to have a little open dialogue with myself. this is what transpired:   hmmm. the single life. the good life? most times. the sad times are the lonely times. better to settle and learn to love? been there, tried that. fuck that. just tired. tired of having relationships end bad. tired of giving my all to the wrong ones. tired of making the same mistakes the other guys make. ive learned though. ive spent time in a self induced prison. to reflect and pay for mistakes ive made. and like a reformed man, i refuse to make them again. the guy sitting in jail for killing someone drunk driving wishes every second of every day for his freedom. hes reminded everytime he opens his eyes and looks around of where he is and why hes there. and he swears to never repeat the actions that got him there. my mistakes. ive made the same ones everyone has. but im done making them. ill never forget the time in th
today we had our extracation class..i think i lost 20lbs in sweat alone   i ended up having to pull someones dead weight of a body out of a overturned pt cruiser...that was different   next tuesday is my school finals and then the 23rd is my state finals   will keep you posted         im in the front row far right blue/white shirt
This My Is Heart!
This is my heart,being poured out to you.i tell you everything.except the fact......well i think you know.i love you!you've been through thick and thin with talked to me when no one else made me feel loved.the only time you weren't there,was on the weekends that's only cus,you didn't talk on the weekends.those were the times i missed may not think the same about me ,but i had to let you know this.if i hadn't written this then i would be sad.i had to let it out! i had to tell you.this is my heart being poured out to you.i hope you know how much i care.for if we do meet i hope you will love me to!
Fubar Friends & Chat Buddies
I have connected with alot of folks via drink trading but have only chatted with four (4) people, although I have found those 4 to be very nice I'm wondering how many people in Fubar actually become friends. I'd like to hear from anyone that has found a real friend in here and how that friendship is going??
Some Men Already Know, But There Still Seems To Be Some Men That Don`t Know Or Understand A Womans Need To Stay In Her Safety Zone At Less For The Fir comment at bottom of the page link above: I have had some ask me to go to them, that puts women at high risk, to be in unknown area, it`s much better for the first few dates at less for women to stay close to your own home where you know the area well and family and friends are not that far from you, and you know how to reach emergency services in your own area if you need them, ( in an unknown area you might not even know how to call for help ),men need to know this article above and this comment " so they know first hand before asking a laddie on a date for the first times it will need to be in her area " so they don`t feel there just plain being turned down, i believe some know this already, But there are still some that do not know this, and not understanding women want to stay in there safety zone close to her own home at less for the first few dates.
Theyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy're Baaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!
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Days And Nites
Day after day I simply wait, I simply wait with a hurt so deepA hurt that lives within my heart, I feel it even when I sleepDay after day I struggle, I struggle with a pain so immenseA pain that comes from missing you, it just doesn't make any senseNite after nite I lay here, I lay here so sad and all aloneSo sad because I miss you, knowing how special our love has grownNite after nite I cry my tears, I cry because I need you so muchI need you to hold me close, I need the warmth of your loving touchDay after day I pass the time, I pass it with nothing to doSo much I would like to do, but it all involves being with youDay after day I know even more, I know where my life is headingIt may not happen tomorrow, but I see what the future will bringNite after nite I dream about you, I dream of the life we will shareA life that will be incredible, a life that will show how much we careNite after nite I feel so blessed, so blessed to have your love so trueA darkness in my life so real, one nite
For Someone Special
I light a candle every night sending wished to my angels above Keep him safe this man I Love Watch over him and show your light Let him know As I close my eyes to sleep I am in his arms as I dream
Wheres George Jetson????
 Sometimes I think man was better off in his ancestral state when we were living in caves, eating raw meat and munching on weeds from the local swamp. To think how far man has come since those days, kinda mindboggling if you ask me. First they were beating animals with rocks and sticks to bring them down to be consumed , now we have the effiency of slaughtering them in a neat and easily cleaned manner to end up as plated works of art in some fancy restaurant. Right now the weeds from the swamp have more personal appeal. Even transpotation has come a long way, and we have become jaded. Our neolithic forebearers stomped their way over the landscape, until someone came apon some poor animal somewhere and decided to jump on its back to see what happened. Next thing he finds out, Hey this is better then trudging anyday. Then a few hundred years later someone decides to try out a crude cart for carrying his accumilated crap and or fellow bi-peds.  Few hundred thousand years later ( a pittan
Sex Survey
Cure Stress
Stress Cure Are you open to learning about something that can enhance the quality of your life?  What if it's about something you've heard about before and dismissed?  What if it's about something you've tried before unsuccessfully? Are you open to the possibility that you could learn something new here that will change your perspective?  If you are open to the possibility of learning something that you may have dismissed before, read on. There is an area of the brain responsible for feelings of well-being and happiness.  Scientists at the University of Wisconsin have proven that regular meditation causes that area of the brain to actually grow in size. There is a demonstrable link between regular meditation and contentment. Think you don't have time to meditate daily?  These benefits can be achieved through meditating as little as 5 minutes a day.  So if you STILL think you don't have time for it, you probably are so stressed that you are actually on the verge of truly needing it.
Nsfw Pix
So, I've been on and off FUBAR for a few years and I always get a kick out of the drama caused when folks see thier pix tagged as NSFW. It's apparent that you don't know what NSFW means!   NSFW = Not Safe For Work! It's really simply, if you'd get in shit at work for opening up the picture, then it's NSFW!   It's not a slight against you, it's simply a rating guide to help determine what pictures are safe and not safe to open in a normal setting! No need for drama, or being pissed off at anyone; take it on the chin, smile and nod your head, and move on!
Pieces Of Me
For one of the few times in my 5+ years on this site, I'm actually going to offer up some interesting background information into the man some of you have come to know and love - I have gone by the names Endo (given to me when I was 21 because of how much weed I smoked) XKon (a joke nickname my stepbrother gave me because of the long crazy hair and how scary I looked) Captain Spaulding (for my love of Rob Zombie movies) Pogo the Clown (always had a slight interest in stories of serial killers - John Wayne Gacy in this) and  Captain Howdy (Exorcist is my favorite movie, the Devil was named Captain Howdy in it, then Strangeland after that). The information I'll share isn't the reason Ihave chosen different nicknames. I guess they always say the first step is to admit it, so here we go. My name is Scott - and I have a horrible problem with anger, and letting things go as a result of it. Now, some people would say some of the information I'll share is taking a step putting shit like that
Taking Fubar Back!!!
Screw it, I'm gonna take fubar BACK!!!     When I first joined, this place was fun.  It was about friends.  Now, it seems to be all about bling, credit packs, and buy me this buy me that.     No more!!!!   I declare WAR on that!  As of today, I will take fubar BACK!!!  Will I bling?  Yes, friends and family.  And when I say friends, I mean friends.  I will be MASSIVELY shrinking my friend's list.  I'm only going to keep the people on there that i do actually interact with.  Want to stick around with me?  Stop by, say hi, ask how my day is going.   If you are as tired of this site being what it is now, join me.  Lets make fubar a fun place again!!!   I say.. 3F!!!   (Fubar For Fun!!!)
It is official... I have been debating whether or not to post about it but figured my friends on here may want to know. I will have to have surgery. They have found cancer and unfortunately this means I lose my ovaries. I had a partial histerectomy when I was 25 and now they want to remove the ovaries. I am a bit depressed over this and have been avoiding fubar and people in general so I don't have to keep discussing it over and over again. Please know I will get through this and even though I am scared as hell to go under the knife for the 13th time in my life... I am a fighter and will pull through. Sending some love to all my true and kind friends here. Take care all and I will try to pop on as much as I can. God Bless!
Just How Far Is This Nsfw To Be Taken?
Ok... I realize that it's Not Safe For Work (NSFW).  However, if you are on fubar at work.. shouldnt you be doing your job and not on fubar anyways?  That isn't my issue however, my issue is we are all adults and if what I have said is censored that is not NSFW it is considered SFW just like it would be PG on a movie because it is CENSORED wouldnt it?  However, because either someone didnt get any or forgot to eat their wheaties I was cheated out a mumm. ok fine I can take that. I have been on and off since 2007, and I can honestly say it was better when ppl cared and helped other just for the sake of helping others and not to make a profit.. Yeah I do that myself sometimes, I admit I can be the same Point Whore.  However I have paid for my own HH's, my own Gmodes, my own boomys.. I have paid for my own VIPs.  If you don't like what I have to say get the hell off my damn page and stay the hell of my mumms.  Im not a normal everyday mummer (thank goodness) so no worries on that one but
Family Functions
I have to admit, as important as the majority of my family is to me, anytime we have family functions, especially on holidays - I don't like them and try to avoid them. Typically it's because everyone basically follows a routine when we do them, and never break it. My mom, sister, and nephew always kind of pair off doing their own little thing, and that ray of sunshine known as my stepdad is never there at all. That part I won't complain about, though. But for the most part, family functions in my family are very simple and very boring. If it's a holiday with football, I usually end up in the living room alone watching football. But I've also and already found my own solution to that. If it's not a Christmas, Thanksgiving, Mother's Day, something that is much more family oriented - I'll call my friend Eric and hang out with his family.When I go with his family on these functions, it actually feels like a family atmosphere. Everyone will sit around and talk and shoot the shit, nobody ki
Can't See My Nsfw Folders? Read This!
Ok so when you join fu-bar your profile is automatically defaulted to hide "not safe for work" content (or NSFW)   If you can not see NSFW folders (they are red compared to the "normal" picture folders & have a (NSFW) after the album name - in my case mine says "Me -(NSFW) for my pictures...)   What you will need to do is go to your homepage & click "Edit Profile"   When that page opens your now in the "Account" page...   Scroll down & look on the right side this is what you will see...   Settings: Profile Type:New and CleanDusty and Old Email Alerts:Daily DigestImmediatelyOff Email Newsletter:OnOff Email Reminders:OnOff Chat Sounds:OnOff Ignore Skins: [?]:OnOff Filter Embedded Content [?]:Profile
A Lonely Day!!!
I enjoyed your pictures very much. thank you for sending them...and oh wow...the images that are playing out in my mind...especially regarding your arms...damn...ok.... and wouldnt it be nice for you to be laying there on your your army shirt and camo on.....thinking about nothing in particular....your mind wandering a 100 different locations but never focusing on anything....and your just waiting for your day to start or end...waiting for sleep to come for a quick nap maybe...and then an image of a beautiful woman pops in to your mind...a tall curvy woman with eyes that can devour a man in a heartbeat and large breasts that make you wanna bury your face and cock into them all day long. Suddenly you feel a brush on your arms....and no one is there.......and then you feel fingers running along your other arm...yet you still see nothing. but you feel fingers running along your chest and up and down your arms....squeezing them ever so slightly......then you feel you
Lonely Shell
I sit here in this lonely shell trying to break free I pray and hope for the day your love comes back to me I gave you all i had I gave the best of me you held my heart within your hand and now you have shattered it intoI wonder what did i ever do wondering where it all went wrong I sit here and cry sitting here missing you Watching you walk away is killing me inside and i pretend that It's not killing me and that each day i don't dieI pray that one day youll see that you walked away leaving the best you hadand maybe youll realize that our love will never fade I will be waiting here for your return until my dying day.
Shower Time Is Play Time !!
Bad Day....
no one reads this right?   anyway had some bad weather , result : minor roof cave in. insurance company's retort? non. just replaced the motor in my car window last month, today the other one decides to die. fantastic. im sick... cough. cough. just one of those days you want to fade into the backround.
I Yam What I Yam
No this isn't a tribute to Popeye, though I will gladly help a lady to a spanking today that she will still feel on Saturday. (Whimpy reference for the Popeye fans out there) I am indeed what I am, I knew I was kinky before I knew what it actually was. I always enjoyed the sight of lets say a lady in distress, I guess that would make me Snidley Whiplash because it was me that was getting her there. My earliest recollection of this dates back to second grade, when I got in trouble for drawing pictures of women tied to a chair, albeit I"m no Monet in the art sense, but all the bumps were in the right place, if you catch what I'm saying. All through my life I collected bondage related material like my friends all collected playboys and penthouses. No I don't hate my parents, and I do come from a strong family structure. No I do not hate women, in actuality I cherish what ever a submissive lady may give me. I have just come to believe we are all born with certain traits, and it is up to
The Ride Home
Driven by her scent, the dark one seeks her out, hungrily. Reaching her car, and calming himself, he walks in carrying his bundle. Passing her he feels her warmth. Her lifes blood. Sitting across from her and Cal., he stares blankly at her. Saying nothing, he pulls his hood down. Evelyn feels him too. Unwilling to admit it, she is drawn to him like a moth to a flame. Secretly yearning for his touch. His blood? (telling herself that cannot be right, can it?)             Looking up she notices he is staring intently at her. The Look on his face makes her blood boil. Feeling herself getting wet, she crosses her legs. Dropping her gaze, she can still feel his eyes on her. Her face reddening, her palms sweaty, she loses control. Biting her lip, as she cums, she can only think of him, him touching her. Lost in the moment, she lets out a small giggle. Her crotch soaked. Folding her arms, she looks up at him. He knows, I dont know how but he knows, she tells herself. Adjusting herself, she sm
Hand In Mind
Hand In Mine By: Jeremy Place your hand in mine, as we walk this world combine. Step over the cracks that we left behind. Run with me as I see the sun that has been hideing, leading you on. Take a breath as I exhale all your dreams, see forever and what it means. Close your eyes and see me there, feel my heart beat with care. Open your mind for a different veiw. Look at me, looking at you. Stay awhile to see my charm, that is protected in your arms. Laugh with me, as I pick on you. Learn a side of me I never knew.                      
For Real?
So i've been watching "The Glee Project".  I'm addicted to that show and I know who I want to win. Anyway, I added my favorite on Facebook. He updates his status and all of these people are like.. "I love you"...."I want to marry you"...."I want your body"   REALLY??? These people don't really know him. They are stupid. That is all.    
BREAKING NEWS. OAKLAND,CA-Raiders football practice was delayed nearly 2 hours after a player reported finding an unknown white powdery substance on the practice field. Head coach, Jackson, immediately suspended practice & called the police & federal investigators. After a complete analysis, FBI experts determined that the white substance unknown to players was the GOAL LINE. Practice resumed after special agents decided the team was unlikely to encounter the substance again this season.
In The Face Of Danger
                                                         In The Face Of Danger                                                           (Heroes of Flight 93)              In The Face Of Danger          they took a stand          and proved their loyalty          to this Great Land.            Because of their courage          many lives they did save          and it was with their own lives          that they gave.            They weren't actors,          or athletes , or even          heads of state, they          were a group of Americans          who decided their own fate.            They took action          in the face of fear          knowing full well          death was near.            They gave their lives          so others may live          what greater gift          can one man give?
Lettin Go...
“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.” — Michael Peake When your life is falling apart, there’s always the impulse to hold on: to him, to her, to it; to the way it was, to how you wanted it to be, to how you want it now. But in order to get through a crisis, you will have to let go of whatever is standing in your way or causing the problem; these are the handcuffs around your ankles, the tin cans tied to your tail. You will have to let go of whatever isn’t serving you, whatever you no longer need, whatever keeps you from moving forward, whatever you’re so attached to that you can’t see where you’re going. You may have to let go of your marriage, your friends, your job, your career, your house, your family members, your self-image, the way you deal with things, your past, your dreams of the future. I don’t know what you’ll have to let go of. That’s for you to discover, but I do kn
7 Guidelines For Band Girlfriends/wives
“Now that you're with the Band” By Silver Diamond   Ok, so you finally nailed that hot guitar player from the band you've been stalking for the past year. Awesome. Now IF, and I'm using that word cautiously, IF he decides you are worth keeping around for more than just a weekend romp, here are a few guidelines you should know and follow if you plan to be a part of his Rock and Roll lifestyle. The more you adhere to these guidelines, the longer you will last in the game. And in case you have any doubts, I have been in this game more years than even I care to remember, I have been both a band girlfriend and wife. I have been there done that, so heed my word if you wish to survive in this business.     Guideline #1: YOU ARE NOT A GROUPIE! Don't act like one. Groupie is what you were while you were stalking him. You have him now, time to let him do to the rest of the fans, what he did for you. This is his job, wherever the gig, that's his work place. Actin
Come One, Come All
Lets take a look inside this girls mind........ She fools everyone,  you can't tell by her smile but every day she wakes up and fights for that smile... She once had everything. her fairytale had come true, or so she thought. She was inlove and thought the feelings were mutual. She gave her life to this guy forever, only for one day him to decide that another girl could do it better. Which I don't blame him, This girl didn't give him the best she could. She took everything for granted. A 4 year relationship with a baby ends in a divorce after being married for 2 months. That killed her. but no one knew. She was and still is and forever might be dead inside. She feels dead inside. and doesn't understand how she is supposed to take care of another person when she can barely take care of herself. and how is she supposed to love another person when she barely loves herself. that's really all I got for now.... I try to forget.. but it's not that easy :( And please. Don't judge this girl...
A Troubled Soul
She is the object of my desires. A woman who has been thrugh more horrors then my mind can grasp. Her heart has been broken so many times I'm amazed there is anything left. I only hope I have the strength to help it mend, by giving her the love she deserves, the love she needs. She has given me a gift. A gift I hope I am worthy of having. A gift more prescious then then then gold. A gift of what I seek, and yet fear I am unworthy to have. The gift of her. She comes with little guarintee, only a whisper of devotion and love. Yet that promise however meek, has value some may never understand. She has put her trust in me. Trust to to take care of her. I must honor her trust, to be what she needs. I must be strong, I will have to protect her. Give her protection from the world, from herself, form me. A responcibility I hope I can handle. Having her has given me a new feeling, one that I never knew I could have. Because of her I have found a new completeness, beyond any I have known. A comp
Purple Ribbon Day- Wiccan and PaganRightProclaimed by: Lord Mordred Proclaimed from: Fort Worth, Texas Proclamation... To all Wiccan and Pagans (Ribbon day) Body: Purple Ribbon Day All practitioners of Earth religions, Wicca, Shamanism, Druidry etc, are being encouraged to wear a purple ribbon as a way of promoting religious tolerance and to potentially raise awareness: OnSept. 21st to 22nd all Witches are going to wear little purple ribbons so everyone will know Who Else is a witch/wiccan/ pagan/... . But no one can do this if they don't know about it, so pass the word along! This message goes to all Witches, Wiccans, Pagans from all sorts of traditions. We can make a day for Ourselves!! Actually, two days!!! You can buy a purple ribbon anywhere, Dollar store, wal-mart, shoppers drug mart, anywhere...Wear it in your Hair, or pin it up to your shirt. Make it public!!!
Theres Someone Out There
At night, when you lay down to go to sleep. After spending your day feeling empty. I know how you feel, when you roll over and look out your window, starreing out into the world, asking God what is it you did wrong. Trying to figure out, how your going to go on. Before you know it, you feel a tear as you push back your curls over your ear. Looking around to make sure noone see you cry. Not knowing theres someone out there that would reather see you fly. As each tear pulls you down, finding its place as it hits the ground. Your cry is silently tareing you apart, as you lay alone in the dark. Wishing you had someone that understood you for the ways you are. Again not knowing theres someone out there, not too far. As the tears keep coming with every emostion you never wanted to show. Understanding when its just you, your really on your own. Wanting someone that will always be by your side. As your hateing the world for they will never know what is on your mind. Feeling you deserve someone
On The Other Side
Keep yourself behind the walls, that I built to keep me out. Keep yourself behind the lights that I lite, to see me now. Let me beg you to go away, never let me in. Let me beg you to never stay, now go ahead my friend. Your better left on the side, cuttin my wings from flying in. Your better left on the other side, throwing my heart out into the wind. You don't need me breaking you, you don't need me coming unglued. I want you to go far, I want you to break my heart. Show me that I made you strong, can't cry out for you. Show me that I was wrong, this can't come untrue
Your Too Close
Your too close for me to see your ugly sides, your too close for me to see your inter lies. Your too close for me, to understand where you came from, your too close for me to understand all your rights and wrongs. Back away from my side, let me choose to decide. Step ahead from my path, let me do the math. Count all your rights and wrongs. Divide my thoughts into songs. Count all your weaks and strenghts, divide my control into restrenghts.
Next Time
They tell me that they don't know who I am anymore. I keep it that way so I don't get board. You say maybe there could be a chance with me in the future, but now you can go away, because I don't really see myself with you, with your ways. There was only one chance you could of been mine, but I don't see a next time. Next time I won't be there for you. Next time won't ever come around. Cause next time, theres no such truth, cause next time there won't be a you. I'll be gone when you decide to write again. I'll be gone when you want me more then a friend. Can't you see theres no future with me, can't you see what I can't find. Now you know theres no next time
Thrity Five Again
Still the same old neighbor hood, like many years ago. House sitting white picket frames, like rockwells in a row. I've always been the rebal son, but Daddy didn't mind. He wanted me to chase my dreams like he did one time. Now he's on the front porch, as I get out of my car. As my fathers eyes reach mine, theres one wish in my heart. I wish my dad was thirty five again. He would be young and I would be ten. We would go fishing, throw an old ball around. Wash his truck, go into town. We can never go back to the way it was then. Just for today I wish he was thirty five again. Now we sit and talk for hours, of life out on the road. What I seen and where I been, and journeys left to go. Mamma looks at both of us, "Your like two kids, I swear." Then the stories turn to laughs, before the leaveing turns to tears. Now he's on the front porch, as I get out of my car. As my fathers eyes reach mine, theres one wish in my heart. I wish my dad was thirty five again. He would be young and I wou
We'll Stay Together
That summer brezz, I can still rember. It didn't blow cold at all. We were just too far away from anything to ever fall. The music played as we went around and around all that day. The night got clear, so we looked to the stars, before they could turn away. I'll always rember just the way it was, things were small as we were above. Everything was normal for teenage love. The fairiss wheel went around and around, all the lights flashing all so bright. Just the two of us holding eachother threw the night. We just smiled and starred into eachothers eyes. We'll stay together, our love will never die. Now I just hope she'll stay with me. We'll stay together just wait and see. Oh we'll stay together, just wait and see. Oh we'll stay together, she'll stay here with me. That summer brezz, I can still rember. It didn't blow cold at all. We were just too far away from anything, to ever fall. Oh we'll stay together, just wait and see. Oh we'll stay together, she'll stay here with me. Oh w
This Is Wat It Is
LIfe is at a stand still 4 the wrong reason , i dont want things to keep goin like this , i dont sleep rite i dont eat rite and im tierd of the way things are stress stress stress everybody got it but it takes a bigger person to let there problems go  to help another in need and i need to learn to be that person , My love ones are worry but 4 there reason ,Im worry i will never get back wat i once had hope its still there 4 me hope they still love me life will get only better from here i really do belivie that , i just hope it all  dont go down the drain cuz of me!
Tears might fall down Time might fly But I still miss one word That can never be loudly spoken again I remember all the great times that we shared Maybe sometimes, too, I made you mad but deep down I know you loved me so for your words, only today, I can fully understand them As I crouch down, to lay the flowers and a cigarette to share together I look at your photo, with that laugh that was so part of you and I wonder, if right now you are thinking of me too Are you my angel, that still takes care of me when I am in trouble and whisper your name? I physically ache to hold you again, but then again, memories are what I have Until we meet again, May your smile remain I miss you so much my wonderful... Dad!      
Wow, What A Weird-ass Dream Last Night
ok best as i can tell, this dream starts in my old neighborhood, the one i grew up in as a kid.  I see a really pretty girl. The type of girl that may be legal, and may be not, yanno that 18ish barbied up kinda girl that for anyone who has checked ID's at a bar or gas station knows what im talking about when i say questionable. I'm walking down the street and cuz this is a dream i have no idea what my intentions were at the time, but this girl was playing tennis against her garage door and sprained her ankle just as i was walking by. being the guy i am, i stopped to help. After i hepled her up and help her to her front door (figuring someone would be inside), she invites me in for a gatorade. Innocent enough , right? ok here's where it gets weird, she starts comin on to me, yanno the gettin close without actually touching me in a sensitive spot, but also flirting the whole time. I'll be honest, its a dream, I didnt stop to ask her age lol. So I make a move and this girl is THE WORST
The Structure Of Thy Heart
It's for every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see itFor every truth there'a an ear somewhere to hear itAnd every love there's a heart somewhere to receive it.It was your beauty my eyes had seen, my ears to hearyour truthful words and my heart to receive your love,I've truly learned listening is the essence of the heart.To be your friend was all I had ever wanted, my dearto be your lover, was all I ever dreamed - It's our lifeand our love we live to be relived everyday, my angel.Your love is the structure of thy heart, it is the essencebrought upon with an irresistible presence known only tothose whom are lucky enough to have truly felt it, love.I know there's a place within me where your fingertipsrest, your intimate kisses linger, whispers softly echo, It'sthis place where a part of you will forever be a part of me...- In my Heart
You Know You Grew Up In The 80's If.....
  You remember Don Johnson when he was "cool" You know who shot J.R You remember when Michael Jackson was actually considered something of a sex symbol You practice getting in and out of your car through the windows You owned at least one skinny leather tie. Your first Walkman weighed 10 pounds and was the size of a brick. You wore L.A. Gear tennis shoes. You know the meaning of Wax on/Wax Off You're always "in the mood for dancing"  If you can "See Better" with sunglasses that have paint splattered all over the lenses. You wore lace gloves with the fingers cut off, bangle bracelets up to your elbows, bright red    Reebok high tops and parachute pants to a school dance You need a shopping cart to carry your personal stereo with you.  You remember what Michael Jackson looked like before the surgery. You go rollerskating every Friday night (not to skate, but to 'hang out') You still want to take Karate...(after you move to California) You watch NYPD Blue thinking, "Well,
Breaking News
a friend of mine rote this and I agree with it,,let me know what ya think.. BREAKING NEWS The Pity Train has derailed at the intersection of Suck It Up & Move On, and crashed into We All Have Problems, before coming to a complete stop at Get the Hell Over It. Any complaints about how we operate can be forwarded to 1 (800) waa-waaa. This is Dr. Sniffle reporting LIVE from Quitchur Bitchin'. If you like this, re-post it. If you don't..suc k it up buttercup, Life doesn't revolve around YOU! :)
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TimeThe Lord works in mysterical ways,The day he took you was on my  25th Birthday.The memories I have of you I will always cherish so deep.All the wisdom you shared I will always keep.But the pain I feel is so heartbreaking.The love I seen you and my grandmother share was breathtaking.When I look up to the sky I imagineyour face.Looking down on me telling me to have faith. I promise we will take care of Grandma for youWe have be trying to stay strong for her through all of thisfor the pain i see in her eyes no one can miss. I wish you was still here with us to keep us all in line.But the lord seen all your pain and said it was time.I know your up there looking down on us to make sure we are alright,We know you loved your family and will always keep us in your site.I will look up into the sky for you wishing you was still with us.The lord only takes the best home and he felt on that day Of August 24th, 2011 he must.
To The Know Who You Are
  You called me the strong one, and I know this is true. You have helped me so much. I'm so blessed to have you. You have inspired me, in so many ways. I will look forward, and try my hardest to regain those days. The ones we shared, the emotions involved. I know it's not going to be easy, to be resolved. I was afraid and, shut you out. I couldn't believe the truth, I had my doubts. It never happens that way for me, no one has ever loved me so easily. But you do, and I'm sorry. I know that now. I hope you find your way back to me, somehow. Until that times comes, I am grateful just the same. To have ever had the pleasure, of simply knowing your name.
Dildo In The Park - M4w - 27 (rochester)
Looking for the girl that dildo'd my butt in the park at 3am... email me and tell me something about that night.       I wasn't there and could tell you something about that night. She dildo'd your butt. Ta-da!
From My Dear Friend Elcool43
Annette's turn 8/28/2011Tonight, my friend, something said, "Write for Annette."To write, and bend, words with true sincerity, I'll bet,Is not easy on such a whim, so through the hours, I SetOut to make these words undim and fly to Sweet Annette.A music Lover, 'tis true, she'll send a dream on to you,Within a night, with songs and words she felt true blue.Now, this girl's a lady and lovely, through and through,She'll ring your soul with dreams and things, all so new.The Soul's loved friendship is built within these dreams,A wondrous tapestry she fills 'tis true and so it seems,A night to deeply move an honored soul to great extremes,So tantalizing her mind, kind and true, discerning scenes.To end this paean, I think..Will not cause me to sink,To my knees, awed by this lady, modestly to soon drinkThe draught of morn apace, that soon can place a blinkUpon the eye of a wandering descendant of missing Link.Ummmm!It is completely my own, with your inspiration.I've tried to capture you somew
Under Attack
Lying in bed, tossing around in my sheets. I can feel you, ripping it from my body underneath. It's a pain, you cannot describe. Something unseen, disguised. The pressure is just, to much to bear. What once was strong, is no longer there. Everyone has a soul, they say. I had one, then threw it away. Now I'm fighting the pain, because I want it back. My heart, my body and my mind, are under attack.
If Only
I feel you here, You've been here all along. Disguising yourself, waiting for the perfect moment. Infection set in, Injected by the poison you sent. First up then down. Me, my life, my town. Go ahead and smile, it's okay. But I feel you within me each day. Building me up, to be knocked down again. I am playing a game, I can't seem to win. Each time something great makes it's way inside. You show yourself, refusing to hide. Misery and pain, haven't you brought me enough. I can't handle much more, just good at playing tough. I see her face and I know why I am here. Although I feel you, death is near. If I am here one day, then gone the next. Absorb all my presents, my love's depth. For it runs deep, strong and pure. If only it was your love, instead of this disease. I could die knowing there was no cure.
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Like a sinking ship, dragging you down under. I'm worse than the lightning following the thunder. Like the plague, that infected my town. The only path im headed on, is down. It's just my way, it's who I am. Like junk mail, the unwanted spam. That's me, no escaping it, time for me to realize. Nothing but pain and regret, hidden behind these hazel eyes.
You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth (hot Summer Night)
Lyrics for the song from You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth (Hot Summer Night) From the album Bat Out of HellPerformed by Meat LoafWritten by Jim Steinman (Spoken) BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses? GIRL: Will he offer me his mouth? BOY: Yes GIRL: Will he offer me his teeth? BOY: Yes GIRL: Will he offer me his jaws? BOY: Yes GIRL: Will he offer me his hunger? BOY: YesGIRL: Again, will he offer me his hunger? BOY: Yes! GIRL: And will he starve without me? >BOY: Yes! GIRL: And does he love me? BOY: Yes. GIRL: Yes. BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses? GIRL: Yes. BOY: I bet you to say that to all the boys.
Lose,That seems to be all I can do.For, pain and sorrow,Is all that I know.It’s around every corner,Every place I go.Can’t trust, can’t love,Is only leads to one place.Right back here,Where I started,Disgrace.
Short Stories Written By Me
My Vacation   I decided to go on vacation to the Bahamas’. I rented a nice little cabin on the beach. A full two weeks by myself, just me and my reading and the sun and the waves. I sit on the beach reading in the morning light. And then in the afternoon I go swimming and just being lazy shopping in the local markets for fresh fruits daily. Just enough to feed me for the day, on the second day I’m there I notice you, your in the cabin next to mine about 100 yards down the beach. You are there alone like me in my cabin, time for you to get away from all the things that bug you at home. At least that is what I gather as I watch you while you exercise each day. On the fourth day of my vacation I run into you in the market. You smile at me and say hello, it isn’t the same accent that I pictured you having at all. I smile and say hello. We exchange a look between us. Something unspoken but understood that we find each other attractive. That evening I decide to go to
My Thoughts
What is it that I want from you?Is it to be with you or is it not?There are pros and cons of how you run your lifeBut that doesn’t matterDoes it?You make me happy one momentAnd then the next sadIs this what love feels like?When your not there I make sense of lifeOf what suppose to be and what’s notBecause I know you’re not the man I wantBut when your there I lose sight of what suppose to beAnd know that you’re the one and onlyWhere somewhere in me I know we can’t have a futureBut as funny as it is we’re not together and I’m going crazyYou flirt and chase but won’t make a moveYou don’t mention anything of your past or dreamsAnd I wonder do we have anything in common?And, why, would you pick me as yours?Of all the girls you could have would you pick me as yours?And still I ask "Do you even like me?"Or is it just for the moment?Am I so insecure of my looks and feelings?That I don’t show my feelings for you enough?I want to win yo
Lost In Confusion
Lost in confusion and total self bliss I've found the relation between dream and wish A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep. A dream can bring true the wish never thought As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought. But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking A grasping of things while still in the making. Now my understanding of wish and of dreams Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem But still I'm confused and nothing is clear Because you are a wish, yet a dream so dear. With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night You've become such a fantasy with realistic tones I long for your love and time spent alone Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion For all their purpose are meager illusion And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight I fear the darkness and my continuing fight. For now its a war - a battle within A dreadful nightmare which rationali
First I saw a mouse right before bed last night... totally freaked me out     Then tonight I went to the movies with my bestie (seen in my default) She made me see "Don't be afraid of the dark" well fuck you, I am. Holy scariness!!
Random Things I Type!
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I dreamt of a dream, a dream that lasted a lifetime.I dreamt of a dream, a dream I died for to be mine.It began with pain and ended the same... and all the while I forgot that I was sleeping.I dreamt of blue-sky and water reflecting, of children laughing and people bleeding.I dreamt this dream and felt it in my veins, bleeding into a heart so realthat I forgot that I was sleeping.I sang tears and cried songs, I felt the centre of peaceand lost it again in the circumference of fear.I was child, I was crone, I was wise, I was ignorant.I was human while my God-self slept.And then I woke within the dreamand pulled sleep from my eyes, to see a world of beings of light cloaked in darkness.Blinded the sightless seeking the horizonthrough windows that blink.
The Day I Brought My Shrink To Tears
Oh my that was an emotional day. I was feeling very overwhelmed and attacked by anxiety, and had to talk to someone, so I went to see my shrink. I could barely catch my breath, and slurred speech doesn't even begin to explain what i had goin on. Anywho, she made a huge mistake when she reached under her desk and pulled out this little rubber ball and said. " Okay honey, when these moments surface, this is what i want you to do. I want you to get you one of these and pull on it, until the anxiety and stress is relieved." If looks could kill, I woulda dropped that bitch right on the spot. This was my response. " So what you're telling me is, that this little magic rubber ball, is going to be the cure to all of my fucking problems. Okay then, I'll just drop down in the middle of the grocery store aisle, and when someone questions me for doing so, I'll just tell them that my shrink said it was the thing to do." When your shrink needs to see a shrink themselves after speaking with you...I
My landlord is on my back about watering the grass. We are on a water ban because it hasn't rained in three months. what do i do ? Water the grass and when i get a ticket send it to them ? What whould you do?
Icon Martar Superstar Flunkie
So in a few days I will have retained the same status for two years.......does this not deserve something special like a fuckin cookie or bling pack eh? eh?   Anyhow......whats going on..........well, I flew to TX to confront the whore and my husband.  Married with four children whore by the way.  Turns out after four months of fucking they fell in love.  She accepts his vodka fetish and pill popping ways..........and has a hefty Rx every month for them as well.......who can blame him right?  I can breathe more ache in the pit of my stomach.  I came home and dove right into a relationship.  Turns out I could not stand anything about him right down to his breath.  Cut that loose and now just plotting my next move.  Lost my job on the daring flight to save my marriage but I have a kick ass resume and career builders always works for me.  Got a call yesterday and interview on Wed.  I am confident that I will get something soon but am not taking just anything.  I have ADD
Things Ive Learned To Hate On Fubar
none of these are things I initially hated but through experience have learned to hate over my time here (almost 5 years) 1. ugly whores selling their nsfw for bliong packs, get a real career 2. lounge invites to strangers, what ever happened to making friends first? 3. people who are easily offended by the words "I dont do lounges" really? that offends you? KISSS MY ASS PUSSY! now you can be offended you stupid c*nt 4. bling beggars and blingpack beggars, if you have time to beg for bling, you have time to go out and look for a job, get off your lazy ass! 5. fake police, "oh this person's fake, that person's fake OH NO!" really? they're fake? who gives shit, it's not like they are taking points you are not capable of earning yourself, get off your lazy ass and buy yourself some credits and buy ability bling you lazy c*nts! you all are rude in your own way, and classless in your own way and you all maike me sick.
My Crazy Dog
My crazy dog swinging from a rope on a tree. He makes funny noises when frustrated that he can't yank it down.
Under The Hood
First blog on Fubar and just as I start, I ask myself do I really want to do this? A part of me has wanted to refrain from putting too much of myself out there to individuals at this network, because there's a lot of things about this forum that seems a little trivial to me and a lot disingenous. A social setting, cast as though it's in a bar, a place for adults to meet and talk and even have things like FuMarriage and have owners, etc. There's also the pretentiousness of some with all of the photos they have to take or things they have to do with cams and other "requests" to gain attention. There's also moments were it seems like a bunch of people are just trying to say each others names and as though they know each other, yet they rarely say much if anything at all to one and other. I spend myself watching the conversations at times more than participating in them because I'm more of a topic conversationist or enjoy a debate than I do just saying hello and what's up. Most of it doesn
I have begun getting senior discounts at most places I frequent. I am not sure if this is a good thing or not but it puts extra money in my pocket. Most places start giving discounts at 55. I am 53. Close enough? I think so. I wonder if Steven Tyler and Joe Perry accept their senior discount? I wonder if they have them in the UK? If so, I wonder if Mick jagger or Keith Richards accept theirs?   What scares me most is my generation is coming to power. Hell hath no fury like the generation that has been scorned. Look out D.C.. We are kicking your asses.   I spent all afternoon in the hot sun trying to get my Toyota pick-up to start. After finally getting that accomplished I spent 30 more minutes getting the presets back on my radio because I can't see the dial. I had to take the battery loose and caused the presets to be lost. So I took the pick-up for a test drive and stopped in a store for a cold drink. I didn't realize at the time but I was covered in dirt and grease not to men
Singles Dance Party Sept 17th 8 Pm @ Dog House Sports Bar
My friend and I are on Plentyoffish, and we go to the singles meetings. Just to have fun, I've ye to meet a guy I'm into there.   This is the forum for the event. Free to go. Somebody buy me a pina colada and I'll be yo friend.
[been Sleeping All My Life]
I'm not gonna lie some whacked out hand holding prayer circling hippy chanting crazy shit   happened in my living room tonight.   I was trying to listen to the top of the 9th and my dog was kinda wigging out and retards were everywhere. Everywhere.   I could go into greater detail so I will   My parents' wooptard friends (a married couple they've known all of my life) came over, since they're only in town about 6 times a year now, and my dad decided to have a party for the next 72 hours in celebration of this fact. One has chronic asshole-itus, and suffers from "cluster headaches". Anyway, his wife's ... moondog idiot brother (who frankly isn't allowed to touch me MORESO than anyone else on the planet because he gives off a really dim, oogey vibe) comes over unannounced. I'm pleased as punch. And he decides to do his hippy whacked out kookookatchoo shit in my living room to heal his brother-in-law's cluster headaches. which freaks out my dog- and I'm trying to list
A Sad Occasion...
SAD NEWS - Please join me in remembering YET ANOTHER great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes to the belly. He was 71. Dough Boy is survived by his wife Play Dough, three children, John Dough, Jane Dough, and Dosey Dough, plus they hada bun in the oven. Services were held at 3:50 for about 20 minutes.   Okay, maybe not... But it sounded good...   Rock on!Shawn, AKA Durhamntx
Boomy Give Away
Tonight at 8pm Central I will be holding a random drawing for a boomy. Rules 1. Once there is 30 people in the lounge Social Disorder 2. goto and become a member 3. Be there at 8 pm Central time 9 east or 6 west 4. Must be present to win. Be there........
Observations Of A Dancefloor
observations of a dancefloor Minnows swimming in this choppy water surrounded by melodic beats just trying to get to their destination falsely accused of this familiar place rocking their bodies with mindless intent flawlessly shaking their sweat driven torso's to the intrinsic music the beat feeds the appetite for love wondering through the crowd shamelessly wanting the warmth of another pressed against their skin sharing one common goal to embrace the sexuality and grace capable to the bodies
Untitled Words....
Some say there is no future for you and me So why bother trying With all this doubt I feel like dying I do not know  what the future may bring All I know is  "I love you" My heart wants to sing I am going to fight So all of you haters Back the fuck off Get out my head He is my future, my heart I am not letting go They say the distance will break us There is no way  We can make it Communication and honesty Patience and faith I will stand beside you for as long as it takes My doubts must drive you crazy How did I get you? You say "You did, why ask why?" These so called friends got my head spinning With words of "goodbye" All I know is that "I love you" My heart wants to sing All you haters back the fuck off He is my future, my heart And together,  WE WILL WIN!
I hate this feeling that I’m not good enough for people. I don’t think there is anything wrong with me, but I could be wrong. It seems everyone I get close to leaves for someone better. All my friends find a new best friend and stop talking to me,. Is it wrong that I would like to feel wanted? By someone… by anyone? I’m not trying to whine or anything, i just have to get this off my chest
Love Isn~t
Love isn`t about holding hands while you understand each other well its about having lots  misunderstanding and still not leaving each others  hands....
..Blindsides.. A collage' of evils, the appropriate description for this beings soul.Pestilence of the mind, the only realm in which it exists,knowing this brings only agony.An emotional eclipse greeting its own with open arms,the temptation always too much to resistDenial of the presentiment it feels,as it wanders it's own dreaded heath,irrefutable gloom permeates so completely any lucid moments,leaving it with the nightmare of the twisted and carious.Acrimonious thoughts assess what is real,the fate of delusion blindsides all hope,All leeway forestalled from the arising stigma.Miasma cares not for the inequity of it's actions,leaving a skein of fears hewn into any bravura shown.Will this self vendetta ever end?   _______________________________Paradauxian Paragraphs__________________________
Jaidee Is Home!
So my dog went missing Saturday. She wasn't called in until Sunday. The lady that had her "restrained" called because she tried to eat her cat. She also insisted that her collar (which had my address written in the inside of it) was hers, and she needed to take it off of her before she would let animal control take her. She is also pure bred, and microchipped. The lady that collected her claimed to have scanned her, but found none. The shelter decided that they could hold my dog (which was TAKEN out of my yard) hostage until I paid them 121 dollars to retrieve her. They gave her shots (which she had already been given on July 22nd, and if they had properly scanned her microchip, would have gotten all that information before giving her more), and another rabies vaccination (which was fine, because she was due in 2 weeks anyway). I had to call my bank to release my funds, so I could go find a service center (I'm a credit union member) to be able to get them. Luckily, all that happene
Jo (my Best Friend And Sister ) Leaving
Jo     Just so you know how much you mean too me   ................................... You are such a special person and I am so glad I met you, you have the kindest heart and such a lovely way about you, and for me to know you, makes me so lucky, I am so glad that you finely are sorting your life out and I truly believe that you are going to be so happy and have such a nice life down in Cornwall. For the past 3 years that I have known you it’s been a really tough time but I really hope that in some small way I have been there for you and helped, I know there have been times that I have annoyed you, but I hope that you can just remember the good times and the laughing we did, as I will always remember the fun we had, you will always be very dear to me and will always be my very best friend (Just don’t ask me too look after your car keys again or ask me where they are :)  ) I know you were always going to leave but I never thought it would be as hard for me when the time
Numb, broken, stabbed in the heart. The ONE that made it whole, has torn it apart. I know what I am, I just never dreamed he'd realize it to. I regret not being, good enough for you.
Make Me How You Will - 957
What happens if I disagree, will you ultimately loathe me?? I'm not that mean not requesting emotion. I'm not that mean, nothing is expected, isn't that just keen. I already know you won't hurt me, I'd even let you touch-n-see. Pass me in the hallway don't come in and ask to aid, your voice is warm and oh so hot I'd like to play your arcade. Pressures ease on me when I think of one thrill, I can dream, no crime, please make me how you will.
I have loved and lost so many timesHave shed many tears countless nightsI have wished and prayed to find the oneMy own soulmate, of a special kind.Out of nowhere, out of the blueMy life took a spin and there was youThe sun shines so bright I can finally seeThe greatest gift of love from you to meI love you not for the great looks you haveBut for the beauty you have deep insideI love you not from the sweetest voice I hearBut for the words you speak without a soundIts not just your smile that lights up my dayNor the warmth of your tight embraceIts not just the laughters that brings joy in my heartBut its also the soothing words you whisper night after nightYou are kind and gentle with a calming effectTo a life tested with agony, sadness and defeatYou are sweet and loving with a heart so givingWhich I cannot help but get so many refillsWe are so much alike and so much in tuneAlmost a perfect match to my definitionWe blend so well, we love beyond measureAnd still we respect each other's op
Just Another Face
You're beautiful he said, amazing and pure. Knowing that wasn't me, for sure. I am well aware, of what I have always been. Although, I felt like so much more with him. Something worth having, priceless in-fact. And now those bright colors, have faded to black. I don't know how to deal, can't handle it at all. Knowing his opinion of me, is now so small. He is the one, that made it worth while. He brought a whole new meaning, to my smile. I didn't have to fake it, for once it was real. I never knew it was possible, for me to feel. Like a shining star, something unique. Now, I'm just another face. the wound is too deep. The one in my heart, cuts to the bone. This pain has knocked me, off of my thrown. For, I am nothing, once more. Just another face, behind a locked door.
Where I Am Right Now
Anyone can tell you, you're beautiful, and boost your ego. It's funny how total strangers can spell out in detail exactly what they would like to do to you, knowing there is a screen separating the two of you. But, when there is real emotion involved that goes beyond the screen, that you can feel regardless if you are online or not, that's when it matters. It gets you thinking, and wondering, making plans, making changes. Then it comes to a stand still, and you try to reach out, hang onto their every word, while wondering what happened. It sometimes causes you to react in certain ways you wouldn't normally, just desiring their attention and love like it was before. I don't know which is worse, my actions, or constantly questioning what made that change.I felt something was different, and I was hurting, and didn't understand why that was. I have NEVER had anyone effect me the way this person did, and it hurts too bad to even try to describe. My heart feels like someone has ripped it out
My 1st Videoshoot With A Master Rumologist In Florida
The 1st of my three videos with a Master Rumolgist Carl Grooms is here: The video was shot on the Manatee River in Bradenton, Florida at the new Tarpon Pointe Grill & Tiki Bar. Please comment & let me know what you think. The other videos will be posted online and in my personal groups on Yahoo! and Flickr soon. :-)
I Liked It So I Am Sharring It
College Professor stood on his chair and said "If GOD really exists then knock me off this chair" Nothing happened. The class was quiet he said "See! Now I'll give it a couple more minutes" A Marine Vet stood up punched him in the face knocking him out and off the chair then sat back down. As the Professor came to he looked at his student and said "WHY DID YOU DO THAT" He said "GOD was busy protecting my buddies still fighting for your right to say and do stupid stuff like this so HE SENT ME!
Why I Rhyme
I was choppin' it up with this young cat Mario at work today. Mario is a cool young mexican cat that I work with. He's always asking me to freestyle for him and listen to him rap. So today, I freestyled for him about whatever was going on at work and he did the same. After going back and forth in a lil cypher, he looked at me and asked me, "Why do you rhyme???" He said, "I mean, you're probably never gonna get signed. You're never gonna get famous. Even though you're probably one of the best freestylers out, the world will probably never know your name or that you are as good as you are." Without even thinking about it, I smiled at him and replied, "You do!!!"
I've tried to write this post for several hours now. I have had to start/stop several times. Out of anger, fear, and pain. Tears of both rage and anger clouding the screen and preventing Me from saying what I truly feel and know inside. Finally, I took My brain out of the loop and let My heart speak. This is what It said "Good Morning. We are heavy today. The voices of those We've lost cry out in demand for honor. To not be forgotten or overshadowed. Not memorialized, as every T.V. network in existence will be showing the Memorial on Sunday. To be HONORED. For doing what Americans do. We lived our lives peacefully. Trudging with the masses on crowded sidewalks to our daily jobs. To provide financial knowledge, to secure a area, to prepare meals for thousands. To provide safe transportation to far-flung cities and burgs. To serve, and protect. To keep our Nation safe and ready. Heroes We weren't that day, but by that night our name's were emblazoned with gold. From those
Every generation has its defining moments. A moment in time that everyone within that generation will remember for the rest of their lives. Many people can tell you where they were for these defining moments of their generation. The exact thing they were doing when news came down to them of the events unfolding. For my generation, it is, without a doubt, that disastrous day on September 11th 2001. The entire Nation stopped and watched the events unfolding. The only movement was that of the first responders to the once noble and proud Twin Towers, the vast and once seemingly secure Pentagon, and to that field in Pennsylvania. The Nation held their breath waiting for confirmation, answers, reassurance. Many people across the nation were frantically trying to call friends, family, and loved ones who were flying on that once normal Tuesday morning as well as those who were working in the targeted areas.    Police, EMT, and Firefighters were called from near and far to assist in recovery
How I See Myself
I must put aside my ego. No matter how special, extraordinary, and unique I’d like to think I am, who I am is really a reflection of many other things put together. Numerous parts of different jigsaw puzzles pieced together to form a new picture. Vital pieces of whose absences would have made another person, not the one I am. I always say I’m different. Never quite what people expect on a first impression. One friend said she thought I was a nerd before she knew me. Another one was surprised to find out that I listen to rock music while studying. And there were still some others who didn’t know I had a few loose screws in my head until they found themselves laughing at my jokes and then realizing that I was capable of conceiving out-of-this-world ideas. There’s so much more to me than meets the eye, and I don’t expect to run out of surprises very soon. I have assimilated from the different people who have influenced my life Each layer is not a mask, but a
All Is Worth It
  There are two roads leading, in the same direction. One is the right road. The other is a misconception. You can see down both, one dark, one light. You assume, you know, which one is right. But looks can be deceiving, take that to heart. Me I choose, to follow the dark. Because the light is too easy, everything’s in view. The dark is a mystery, exciting and new. Not the choice, everyone would make. But that’s a risk, I’m willing to take. If I never had to fight, bleed or cry. Then I would never know, the reasons why. I was put here, in the first place. Cursed with this body, this mind, this face. Yet, there is a reason, I will find out what. No matter if I go down, the wrong path, or not. I will continue to walk alone, through the dark. Face my demons, while falling apart. Because all is worth, the price we pay. I’ll realize this, when I get to where I’m going someday.
Yup, That Settles It
Wake-up and my feet, hit the floor. Brush my teeth, poor my coffee, lock the door. Make my bed, with all these thoughts, running through my head. What to wear? Blue or black? Do I really wanna fix, my hair like that? Curly or straight, which one will it be? Is this really, the right outfit for me? So, many things, running through my head. Yup, that settles it. Goin back to bed.
Republicanism As Religion (repost)
The Dish covered the remarkable web essay of Mike Lofgren, but I didn't comment myself because it so closely follows my own argument in "The Conservative Soul" and on this blog, that it felt somewhat superfluous. But I want to draw attention to the crux of the piece, because if we are to understand how the right became so unmoored from prudence, moderation and tradition and became so infatuated with recklessness, extremism and revolution, we need to understand how it happened. It is, of course, as my shrink never fails to point out, multi-determined. But here is Lofgren's attempt at a Rosebud: How did the whole toxic stew of GOP beliefs - economic royalism, militarism and culture wars cum fundamentalism - come completely to displace an erstwhile civilized Eisenhower Republicanism? It is my view that the rise of politicized religious fundamentalism (which is a subset of the decline of rational problem solving in America) may have been the key ingredient of the takeove
To The Woman I Love ...
                          I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.   I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,in secret, between the shadow and the soul.  I love you as the plant that never bloomsbut carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.  I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;so I love you because I know no other waythan this: where you do not exist, nor I,so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.                                                Thinking of you                                                         Tom
Update To Eyes...
  Ok looking good with contestants... Going to start Tonight 14 Sept at 6 PM cst.... I will keep it open for at least a week...I will update here an give 24hr notice before closing voting... Remember Commenting is unlimited!!! you must promote urself (obviously)... Photos will be open to no worries about your friends being able to vote... New friend request are always welcome though :P. best of luck ladies!!!   check back here or SB me if you have any questions!!
Moving On...
 Watching her spin around the dance floor he morns, she has found happiness and he had not. She Laughs and carries on smiling up at the man that took his place. He cries from the pain, moving though the crowd, he slips silently to the balcony and stares out at the night sky. He hears her approach behind him, and feels as she steps up next to him, her perfume catching in his nostrils. "I miss you..." she says, "But he is a great guy, I wish you could give me your approval but that time has past. I have to live again..." she takes off the locket he gave her and tosses it into the water. Reaching out to touch her and say he's misses her he passes through her as she turns and walks away, crying he floats out over the water and down to the locket, trying to pick it up and take it back so that she knows he is still there and it is okay. but his fingers pass right through it. in agony he screams, a silent scream that ehcos through every alley of the city but is never heard...
Poems :)
  Dear boy who hurt me more than words can describe, I had a dream of you last night. The first one since you ever left me. Remember how much we fought oh so much and that hurt me quite so. It was always because you wanted what I did not. Well in the dream I had of you. I paid you back times two. You see you had me to the ground because we were fighting, but I simply said I hate you, I hate you. I saw the hurt in your face and the tears in your eyes and for once I felt you knew what it was like to be hurt. You simply let me go after that. I knew I finally hurt you hurt me. Sincerly, The girl with a broken heart                        BROKEN   Im broken... i'm going to be completely honest and tell you, i'm broken. but you know what? even though i'm broken right now, i'm going to be fine. i'm not going to lose any more sleep over you, i'm not going to waste any more tears over an asshole like you. and i'm not going to go running back to you, when you realize
Feelings For Him.
Sometimes I just don’t understand    just what you see in me, When I look deep inside myself    I only see what could be.   A plain little person, with a lot to give A very lonely person, just trying to live.   Never knowing what to do    as I face each day a new Only hoping and praying that my day    will be spent with only you.   Trying hard to understand    Just what we have become Sometimes I just don’t understand    where all these feelings are from.   I love you because you make me happy    and I love you because you sometimes make me blue, I can only say for sure    I love you because you are you.   For taking time to say hello    when most of your time is not free For coming to me at the end of the day
Am I Ready For Some Football?
Ah football season....the weather begins changing, the shorter days and cozy, fall afternoons that so many times turn into a glass of wine by the fire.  But one of my favorite things about football season that I love so much are the lazy Sundays, sleeping until it's almost time for the first game of the day.  Mix up a couple of delicious Bloody Mary's and wake up slowly in bed with my baby.  He's not around this football season, so there will be no more, sexy little breakfasts in bed,  'naps at half time' or going to bed early for the Sunday evening game, just to have more time between the sheets together. Derrick makes a mean Bloody Mary-one just makes you feel good from head to toe, but who stops with just one.  I'm going to miss our sexy romps around the house making breakfast, sipping those Mary's and having sex on the living room floor while we're barbequing at the same time!  Too much fun! I've been very lucky in my sex life.  As shocking as it may seem, I don't sleep around and
Day 1 - Pride (7 Days, 7 Sins)
Ok, so I've tried everything else...might as well blog a bit.  Gotta get this fubar circulation moving...I need my attention, I need my area to vent.  So Im going to do a week of the 7 Deadly Sins. The breakdown of it goes like this:Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.Here's my day one: Pride. (7 Great Things)1. My family. All of my wonderful siblings, my parents, and the rest of the crazy crew have made me one of the most fortunate people on the planet. I wouldn't trade them for all the tea in China.2. My sense of humor. It has an ability to relax not only myself but those around me. It's a great ice-breaker and has helped me out in countless occasions.3. I'm comfortable in front of large crowds. I think most of
In The Moment
I am emotional at this moment in time.....    so if I stab you I can not be held accountable for my actions....    We are moving my Dad  this weekend, from his beach house of  13 years.....  :(    My Grandmother is in the hospital with pnemonia  (I dont care if I spelled it frigging wrong)    My sons are growing up in a blink of an eye    Time needs to slow the fuck down ffs.....   I sometimes wish I could turn back time    the only good thing happening is those Fucking papers are finally getting signed!    I miss my Summer    anyways   have a great weekend  & TGIFF!!     oh  and as always  peace baby 
Beautiful Within
Write these words little girl, and tell your story. Paint them a picture, of the sorrow and glory. As if they are there, holding your hand. Let them know who you are, exactly where you stand. Share your views, your pain, your beliefs. All the images, you are dying to release. The beautiful colors, covered up by grey. Let them shine bright, open up this day. For nothing is more beautiful, than I am from the inside. Not the exterior, that doesn't matter, my inner beauty cannot be denied. Reach for my hand, and step into my world. I will paint you a portrait, unlike any before. The contrast of colors, the lies beneath the skin. Is all that I am, beautiful within.
Ok This Just Happened Today, So I Had To Write A Blog
Ok, so I have been on Fu for a while now.  I think that I have a pretty good idea of how  the game is played on here.  Well I dont spend money on here, and I wont buy you bling or send you credits or do anything that actually cost real money just to see you naked.  The internet is FULL of totally free porn, and videos, and hell even free hook-up sites to actually have sex lol.  Now that being said, some people that are new on here (green names) need to realize that if think you are sexy enough and have a good enough body to charge for seeing you naked, you need to have more than 13 pics lol.  I just got told by some noob, that I could send her TEN DOLLARS on PAYPAL (not bling or credits, but paypal) to see her 13 NSFW pics.  LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!! now that is funny.  Thats almost a dollar a pic, I can get 10 chicken sandwhiches at mcdonalds for 10 bucks and probably be more satisfied lol.  ok im done ranting, love you all you sexy fu's keep lovin me :)   Mike
I Try
I could write, I could scream, Nobody would hear, it seems, My heart is left, In stained glass, Shatterd, Glue it you can try, things are amiss, May as well, just carry on!
So....this Is The Deal....
My mom's BF is a jerk. And she seems to think that ALL the good guys are gone!!! I tell her "not so mom" so, im trying to prove it. Im posting a pic of her to my page and im welcoming all the "GOOD guys" from KC to fight for her affection!! Now that ive made my point vey LOVELY mother is 5'2" average build (no woman EVER tells her weight) ;) brown hair and eyes, great SMILE ;D and has a plentyful D cup. posting a pic. Oh yeah...shes 44, so for all you 50yr olds trying to talk to to my mom instead :) REMEMBER: You MUST be a good guy. She already has a loser, she DOESNT need 2!!   Thanks, Amanda ;)
On My Way To The Circus=-=
On my way to the circus..or back from the circus..or was there a circus..have no idea now. What did happen was during my happy homeless days I got real tired after 3 weeks and no sleep so I pulled the motor off the highway. Then I noticed a closed BBQ place and jumped on a picnic table and started to nod. All of a sudden I have the biggest set of headlights [car type you boobs] in my eyes. Out from behind the lights I see this figure in blue with a baton, not the cheerleader type, and he approaches slowly. I quickly sat up and said "WOW! did I order take out". What kind?? In uniform he couldn't laugh but I heard the jaw crack as he tried to suppress the smile. He asked what was going on and I started to tell him I was a professional photographer taking [star] shots. The cloud cover gave that away so I headed for the truth. He said he would finish the tour and be coming back thru in an hour and I'd better not be on that table. So he left and I put motor under a tree and jumped on the ne
ReAlItYBlack and white specks all overvoices telling you what to dowhat way do you gounknown origins appeartemptations arisesorrows subsidehappiness conjourned with fearReAliTya dream come trueBy:Diedre
darknesschilling sunrises out into the horizonstand aside and look outand dream a pretty dreamhope an unshellfish hopejust look at all the surroundingslisten to the birds sing their pretty songtrees whispering among each otherwind blowingwater trickling bydarkness takes allwith little specks of lightwaves crashing agaisnt the rocksmoments of slicencelight house a glow over younderlighting the way for the unawakenspirits that are trying to find their way homelook into the nightBy: Diedre
Check Out The 2nd Of My 3 Videos Doing Rum Drinks With A Rumologist
Please check out my most recent videos with Rumologist Carl Grooms and be sure to leave a (family-friendly) comment on the video page.
Spotlight Drawing
The idea is to have a daily spotlight drawing. Requirements are that the member must be at level 48. The member must have a minimum of 1 billlion fubucks and everyone that meets those requirements has an equal chance......The cost to the winner is 1billion fubucks
5 Things You Might Not Know About Justin Britt.. Hehehe Love His Articles :)
TIGER KICKOFF: Five things you didn't know about Justin Britt Friday, September 2, 2011 | 6:00 a.m. CDT    ¦   BY HARRY PLUMER   Five things you didn't know about left tackle Justin Britt. He was a big baby. At 11 pounds, 8 ounces, Britt was the largest baby to be born at Blanchfield Army Community Hospital in Fort Campbell, Ky. He talks a big game when it comes to video games. Britt claims to have gone undefeated in 10 straight seasons with Missouri on NCAA Football ‘12 at the game’s highest difficulty level: Heisman. However, he says he only won the national championship in the final nine, “getting screwed,” as he put it, by the BCS in his first season. He was a state champion wrestler in high school. Britt’s wrestling career began in sixth grade and culminated in an undefeated senior season, where he won the conference, district and state championships for the heavyweight division. He placed sixth at the National High School C
Pass It Around
A man stands alone, on the side of the street. Dirty and cold, no shoes on his feet. People pass him by, without a single glance. He’s easily dismissed, doesn’t stand a chance. I bet he was once, someone who mattered. Then something happened, caused him to shatter. What is his story? I want to know. What makes him stand out there, barefoot in the snow? His eyes are heavy, something happened to this man. Why doesn’t anyone care, or want to understand? I look all around me, and the shoes I am wearing. Then I pull over, can’t help caring. I have been blessed, so I’ll pass it around. Give him a ride, to the shelter in town.
Checking Out Profiles......
im so sicl of people assuming that im single when it clearly states in a relationship..... dont people ever fully check out the profiles.... please let me know if u what u think people should do cuz some take the word friends alil to far. whats ur opinion on people not respeting the profile?
I Wish You Enough
  My mother sent me this a year before she passed away... I just came across it and it brought back what a amazing person she was.All of us know there are some real douche bags that we come across on this site.... But then there are those rare, real,almost to good to be true, awesome precious people that makes u realize that even with all the bullshit, u can find a treasure .... Thank u for being more than a screen name on my monitor.. and I hope u know who u are... I am blessed to call you my friend... LuLu   Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough". The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom". They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see s
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying                  Don't be fooled by me.                Don't be fooled by the face I wear                for I wear a mask, a thousand masks,                masks that I'm afraid to take off,                and none of them is me.                  Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,                but don't be fooled,
Some Ways To Rack Up Points
Seeing I need 2 million points in a status just posted makes me think Who doesn't? You need points, if not for leveling then because earning points also earns fuBucks! Points get you into the Top 1,000, 500, & 100 - requirements for certain levels ALWAYS Wait for a Happy Hour if you can. They double your points for everything. Check your Buzz Meter often. There is a 10% bonus for everything if you are 100% s/faced. Ask for help in your status or just let an online friend know your 'condition'. Ways to get a buncha points: First, be a friend to your friends & family. Rate & Like their profiles each time you are online. If there is time, rate an album in their pictures, even if they don't have bonus bling. Maybe they will return the favor. Link to your family  fubar: my family Most people with goddess/god modes will bomb picture raters. You can leave a comment, maybe be sure they are online to see it, or even make a deal with them. Check their status because some say to leave a S
No More Tears
Build me a wall, because that’s what you do. Build it strong blocking everyone out, except me and you. I’ll buy your bricks, one at a time. If it leads you into, this life of mine. Let us follow, the yellow brick road. Hand in hand, and see where it goes. We've both had sorrow, pain and fear. It’s lead us to each other, no more tears.
Two Face
I just watched Batman... you know the one where Harvey Dent gets turned into Two Face? Got me thinking about how many people I know that have two faces... Be it good/evil Be it nice to my face yet stab me in the back That sort of thing... Shame that sometimes it takes me getting poked with the knife before I realize just how shitty some people are. Thanksfully I can USUALLY see through and or wade through miles of bullshit to see the real person.  
Holy Crap!!!!!
I know this is probably stupid for me to get excited about, well not really excited but I can't think of a better word. I try to rate Ryan when I'm on. Not because I'm a suck ass, but because of the yellows, he's the one that helps me and actually talks to me. So anyway, I'm rating and I leave him a comment. I look over at this bling and I'll be damned if his fuPony looks like it needs polished. So I take my mouse over there all ready to see "currently polished".......only it wasn't.  How the fuck did I manage to polish a fuPony, let alone Ryan's????   Too bad I didn't need to do that to level.  When I have to do that, I won't find one, lol.
Week 3
Hey there, sexy people!  King Jeremy again with my Week 3 NFL predictions!  I'm 11-5 in Week 2 and 18-14 overall this season.  Here now are my predictions to win this week:   New England @ Buffalo:  New England   San Francisco @ Cincinnati:  San Francisco   Miami @ Cleveland:  Cleveland   Denver @ Tennessee:  Tennessee   Detroit @ Minnesota:  Detroit   Houston @ New Orleans:  New Orleans   NY Giants @ Philadelphia:  Philadelphia   Jacksonville @ Carolina:  Carolina   Kansas City @ San Diego:  San Diego   NY Jets @ Oakland:  NY Jets   Baltimore @ St. Louis:  Baltimore   Arizona @ Seattle:  Arizona   Atlanta @ Tampa Bay:  Atlanta   Green Bay @ Chicago:  Green Bay   Pittsburgh @ Indianapolis:  Pittsburgh   (ESPN Monday Night Football)   Washington @ Dallas:  Dallas  
Took A 15 Year Old To Speak Up.....
It is a shame it has come to this: BY A 15 yr. OLD SCHOOL KID Who got an A+ for this entry Since the Pledge of Allegiance And The Lord's Prayer Are not allowed in most Public schools anymore...... A kid in Arizona wrote the attached NEW School prayer: "New Pledge of Allegiance" ~~~~~~ Now I sit me down in school Where praying is against the rule For this great nation under God Finds mention of Him very odd. If scripture now the class recites, It violates the Bill of Rights. And anytime my head I bow Becomes a Federal matter now. Our hair can be purple, orange or green, That's no offense; it's a freedom scene. The law is specific, the law is precise. Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice. For praying in a public hall Might offend someone with no faith at all. In silence alone we must meditate, God's name is prohibited by the state. We're allowed to cuss and dress like freaks, And pierce our noses, tongues and cheeks. They've outlawed guns, but FIRST the Bible. To quote the Good Book m
"for What It's Worth...."
For what its worth…For what it's worth…I didn't cause itFor what it's worth…I do not careFor what it's worth…You should know betterFor what it's worth….Not sure I dareFor what it's worth….See new horizonsFor what it's worth….Should I beware?For what it's worth…Might have memoriesFor what it's worth…Or is it true nightmare?For what it's worth…"Shoulda-woulda-coulda"For what it's worth…Beyond repairFor what it's worth…Empty spaces full of facesFor what it's worth….A solitaireFor what it's worth…Deserving betterFor what it's worth…What's fair is fairFor what it's worth…My brain wont shut up (now?)For what it's worth…Thats never rareFor what it's worth…I wish to sleep nowFor what it's worth….Maybe after verbal flareFor what it's worth…This barely rhymes nowFor what it's worth…Please don't compareFor what it's worth…I've probably bored you
She is what he imagines the angels would envy. Her heart shaped frames her Blues eyes softly as newly turned earth,red lips full as blushing rosebuds,pale cheeks smooth as unmarked vellum.Blonde curls tumble over her shoulders. There eyes meet, her rosebud lips smile, and a wave or warmth rushes through him.He feels as though he is standing on the summer sun.
The World is your oyster it beckons you to find your pearl. Be it happiness, love, money, family or friends all you have to do is try and never give up.   "SOMEWHERE there's SOMEONE who DREAMS of YOUR SMILE and FINDS in YOUR PRESENCE that LIFE is WORTHWHILE,so when U are LONELY,remember it's TRUE,SOMEBODY,SOMEWHERE is THINKING of U --- words sent to me by Miss Christie Maria C.   It's not to often to get such a positive out look but when you do and it hits home I think it should be shared. Perhaps it will just help brighten someone else's day. It takes but one kind gesture such as a hug, a kind word or even a smile to make the world a better place.
Sand's Of Time!
Time is ticking,  Clocks are spinning,Hour upon hour, The cloud's bursting thunder in his ear, Scorching the acrid ground below, Hurricane's running with my dream's. Sand's blowing mixed with sweat & tears, Feet blistered worn & torn, Reaching out for some sanity, A gentle frame of mind, There has to be some serenity, A simple place to go dwell ,Where the forest's forever bloom, Tree's & fruit abound, Quench this aching thirst, That is bothering him so, If Love is this difficult, I'm not sure I wish to know, Tried,Over & over, Help it grow, Prepared for the vine's to pull me down, Deep deep into the soil below,
I need motivation to lose these 50lbs! I seem to have fallen off with my dieting and fitness :( My goal is by my 29th birthday on December 26th..... if anyone has any tips or suggestions on how to stay fit and overcome your cravings please let me know! I would like to start tomorrow morning..... thank you friends.
When Does It Stop?
I think of you every day and every single night, Aaron. It's worse at night. The short time we had are jam packed with memories that will NEVER leave me. You impacted my life in ways you will never know. Are you at peace now? It's going on three months since you passed away and yet it feels like yesterday. The pain is still potent and my tears are still flowing. Our time was so magical and special, I know I will never have that again. I can still hear your voice, I can still see your smile...your laugh, your pain, your stories. We shared so much so spark in the dark is what I call you. God sent you to me for the little bit of time you had left on this planet and I thank him every single day. But when does the pain stop? Does it ever? Will it ever? Sometimes I feel you when I stay the night at your old house with Monica. Especially at night when I'm trying to sleep downstairs on the couch next to the spot on the floor where you died. I stare at that spot for hours, listeni
Your Prototypical Woe Is Me Blog Post...
Some things to know….     I’ve always been a pretty self centered person. Actually that’s not true at all. I don’t give a flip about myself because if I really did, I’d be bettering myself. It’s much easier to wallow in one’s self pity. And wallow I do. Whining to whomever will listen….   So if your reading rather..reading).  Sit back , enjoy a adult beverage of your choosing and let the libations flow….   Ever since I’ve been little, I’ve been on the outside looking in. I suppose I’ve built a sort resistance to it. Imagine being little and made fun of because your fat, or your clumsy. Being picked last for a gym class team, well not really picked per se but forced to be on one side by the gym teacher.   Fast forward to HS. Nothing’s really changed. Sure I’m a bit older , a bit more wise but still naïve if that makes any sense. Still socially awkward and very shy.
Too Much Time To Think
 Don't  you feel it's strange sometimes  when  you think you have made good friends, you'd thought they  would be there for a while??Yes,  Being on vacation and staying up late @ night   with no one up and around me.. Just makes  me  wonder on   the who and what....Most of the time it  is hard for me to stay in touch because the only thing  lately  for me in my life is just grief..  I  don't  want to go to a friends page  and  just  whine and bitch....When I  don't have anything else to say at the moment.Some just figured  I am just too weird,,, Well,  and some  just figured they would get  one thing from me...If I don't have much to say except having whining issues,which is most days lately.. I just  stop by   their  page to let them know I was there.. Just to say "Hey.Friend.. it's me... just saying hi and thinking about you...Granted a few aren't as close as we were..Sadden by that..  but it  doesn't cloud meReally, just because I might seem  annoying online  at times... people  ten
Dreams come like a welcome friend when I lay to sleep at night. You are there, so I long to sleep and to dream...of things both past and future. My mind takes me to places that are comforting and wonderful, all because you are there. Our Bench....and the conversations there. Drives in the car....anywhere....just to feel your hand in mine. Your head on my shoulder as we curl up together on the couch, or the feel of your body against mine as we hold eachother close. Then my dreams take us to far away destinations....Rome, Athens, Germany, anywhere our hearts desire to see. I dream of traveling anywhere, EVERYWHERE with you....sharing experiences and feelings and memories with you. I dream of a time in the future when neither of us are young in body, but mind and spirit are still as a teenagers....wide open, quick, sharp, and always yearning to learn and grow. I dream of sharing not just moments with you....but everything that life can offer....both good and bad. I yearn to drea
Why I Hate My Life
I hate being fat, I hate being unemployed, I hate being poor, I hate being broke, I hate being lonely, I hate having to rely on my parents. When I look in the mirror after I get out of the show I am disgusted by the fat woman I see. I never wanted to be this big ever, it's no wonder why I'm single a guy would have to be blind to want anything to do with me. I am always crying, I can't be mad at anyone except for Lauren, no one else put me in the situation I'm in except myself. I want to be happy again, that seems completely impossible. I'm stuck on my weight loss, I'm on a plateau and my weight goes up it hasn't gone back down in a long time. I have no one in my family going on walks with me or being supportive to help me with my weight loss. I get comments on Facebook from other family members congratulating me on my weight loss, that's the only support I have.
Feeling Like This
Maybe it is time for me, to stop. Gonna just give this life, all that I've got. It may not be much, but I'll do my best. Do what I can, and ta Hell with the rest. I know how I feel, there's no changing that. But I can't stay, where I'm at. I'm going to start over, smile and move on. I will always know, where my heart belongs. Time for strength, not afraid to fail. In the end, I know I'll prevail. Say yes for a change, take a risk. It can't be any worse, than feeling like this.
Reconocer las tardes, se me hace difícil.Cuan monótonas se me pasan las horas, mirando el reloj. Que cansados están mis ojos, de mirar la nada pasar. Que incierto me parecen los días, cuando amenaza llover. No recuerdo cuando fue la última vez que conversé con el hombre sabio. Una de esas charlas que te hacían estremecer. Se recostó a los pies de su pasado. Se durmió a la sombra de sus recuerdos. Sí, como añoro una tarde de mayo o de junio en que las horas eran infinitas Llenas de colorido, risas salidas del alma. Momentos únicos que se han ido guardando en el baúl de los recuerdos. Tardes grises, noches sombrías, amaneceres violentados por pasos en el silencio. Te he esperado por tanto tiempo, demoraste en venir. Te refugiaste en la pubertad de una sombra melancólica.Caminas arrastrando tu tristeza de año en año,En busca de un sitio donde esconder tu dolor.Viajas por cam
In late 2006 two people got together and decided to rival the 2nd Alarm hottie as a group... They deicded to form a super hero group and from there "The Justice League Mafia" was born... This group consisted of CB Superman (Superman) & Supersuperwendy (Wonder Woman)... The group grew a little with the additions of Batman... Superman... Storm... Nightwing... & Catwoman... These few select people carried the group for a short span before the group stopped in early 2007...   A few months later... The two originals JLM Members got back together to re-create the group bigger and stronger this time... This time the group grew to 36 members... Only this time we noticed we weren't alone in the Super Hero Groups... There was also a "Justice League of Fubar"... These group didn't rival but unstead saw each other as allies... They even shared graphics and other things as aid to each other... There was even talks of a merger then but the merger never happened at that time... This new JLM group l
The Sellsword's New Pants. (part 1)
Perhaps we should start in the middle. A tale already in progress, of a middle-aged irregular, and a very worn coin. He was certain it was mostly silver, but from months of fiddling, and worrying his exotic queen's face had been completely erased. Now there was just a faceless hump where stamped caricature, and ivy had set. There was no real guarantee that the nation that had minted this mark even existed today. Such was the nature of pay for a border-scraping mercenary, he preferred to receive something universal, something of value to any trader. This whole notion of faces, kings, and coin unsettled him. Things were simpler in his youth. A handful of salt, a kernel of gold, and suddenly you had new boots and a hot bowl of stew. Coin... Coin won't keep warm and dry. It just jingles impotence, idleness. These bits of metal had no more worth in trade than a burlap doll. And having them changed incurred more penalty and charge than it took to smelt, stamp and distribute them. They
Who Ya Gonna Call?
    Sometimes ghosts creep up when we're least expecting it, in the most unlikely of places or times.  Memories, songs or notes from your past that are in your face, before you know it, taunting you.   I have been dealing with ghosts this morning.  Wish I had my own personal ghostbuster.   Make the call?  Don't mind if I do...
I Now No Longer Trust Nuns...
Today, I started a new job as a cab driver     Today, I also quit my new job as a cab driver.     My first fare was downtown, a nun. She gets in, and she catches me looking at her thru the rear view mirror. She asks me what Im staring at, and I tell her not to worry about it, and besides, I didnt want to offend her. The nun tells me not to worry, in her line of work she hears ALL sorts of fucked up things. So I tell her I always had a fantasy about making out with a nun. The nun stayed quite for a moment and said "I'll do it on two conditions, you have to be single, and christian" So I said "Im christian and single, lets do this!"   So, we did, briefly, and shortly after I started to feel guilty and started to cry about it. The nun asked me what was wrong, and I said "I lied, Im married and Jewish" and the nun said "Oh dont worry about it, Im on my way to a costume party, My name is Kevin"     Sonovabitch
Title Decisions.....
I'm out of MuMMs so here's my latest idea:   Since a pedo owned me for a few minutes earlier tonight (shivers) I thought I'd write a novel / short story / screenplay about it. Help me write the title, please! Stranger Danger is too passe.
My Moment Of Weakness
He turned the radio on, and we began to work. With each sad song played, the more it hurt. I didn't want it to show, so I turned away. As my tears fell to the floor, I heard him say. Melissa, what's wrong? Why the tears? But I couldn't reveal the truth, behind my pain and fears. I just wiped them away, and said I'm fine. But there was no hiding the pain, in these eyes of mine. He came up behind me and said, I don't understand. Please let me help you, and reached for my hand. The more I tried to fight it, the harder it became. I couldn't do it any longer, and gave into the pain. The tears fell like raindrops, onto the floor. He held me close to him, as I reached for the door. He said I can't stand, to see you like this. Then he leaned in, for a kiss. His arms felt safe, it has been so long. It felt right at the time, but I knew it was wrong. He said, I don't know why you are hurting so much. Just let me hold you, absorb my touch. I said, This is w
As Long As Your With Me
Everyone thinks they have, to get the last word. I'll give it to you, take it, it's yours. I don't need it, it doesn't matter to me. YOU are the most, important thing. Not the words, whose right or wrong. I'm not like everyone else, singing the same song. Placing blame, pointing fingers. The same words coming from, the same tone def singers. You have to ask yourself, does it really matter. When you're all alone, feeling broken and shattered. To me it doesn't, I am to blame. There are no winners, in this game. Both are losing. Is pride really worth the cost? When the love of your life, is what you have lost? In my eyes, the answer comes easily. Pride doesn't mean a thing, as long as your with me.
October 2011 Boob Salutes
I am doing boob salutes for the month of Oct in exchange for a Breast Cancer Pink Ribbon Bling.  No bra, just skin.  As natural as it gets. I will not be writing on myself, as this causes redness for the next salute if I do multiple ones at once. Your message and fu-name will be on a piece of paper.  My fu-name will also be included. Each salute will also include the Breast Cancer Association Ribbon to symbolize the reason for the salute.  I apologize in advance for any wait.  It may take up to a week for me to get the salute made and sent to you.Please be patient as the turn-around depends on how many salutes have been requested. You MUST follow the details below if you wish to have a boob salute: Open a Private Message (PM) and put BC Salute in the subject so I know what I am opening. Include what you want the salute to say.  Usually this inlcudes your fu-name and a small message. I will reply to your PM and inform you of the turn-around time.  Do not send the bling unt
I Am A Libra...
LIBRA  (The Lame One)  Nice to everyone they meet.  Their Love is one of a kind.  Silly, fun and sweet.  Have own unique appeal. Most carin g person you will ever meet!  However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... You might end up crying ...       This is  M E!!
If Men Wrote The Rules
IF MEN WROTE THE RULES Anything we said six or eight months ago is inadmissible in an argument. All comments become null and void after seven days.   If you don't want to dress like Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.   If we say something that can be interpreted in two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other way.   It is in neither your best interest or ours to make us take those stupid Cosmo quizzes together.   Let us ogle. If we don't look at other women how can we know how pretty you are?   Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out.   You can either ask us to do something OR tell us how you want it done - not both.   Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.   Christopher Columbus didn't need directions and neither do we.   Women who wear Wonder bras and low-cut blouses lose their right to complain about having their boobs stared at
Why do people watch porn movies, or read porn magazines?   What enjoyment do these people get from watching porn or looking at porngraphic pictures? When a person sees a woman or a man naked in a porn movie or magazine, are these men and women mere objects?    Are the pictures on this site consider porn or just people using their body or rather selling their bodies for stuff or money or to try to lure some one they like into their life?  Do people respect the human body? or is the human body just a mere object for someones enjoyment?   When the movie is over, and the magazines throw away are these people happy, or sad?   
Rock And Roll Classics
500. Autobahn - Kraftwerk499. I Wanna Be Sedated - The Ramones 498. Some Kind Of Wonderful - Grand Funk Railroad497. I'd Love To Change The World - Ten Years After496. Bluebird - Buffalo Springfield495. Bungle In The Jungle - Jethro Tull494. Eyes Of The World - Grateful Dead493. Rudie Can't Fail - The Clash492. What's On My Mind - Kansas491. L.A. Woman - The Doors490. I'm Broken - Pantera489. Rebel Rebel - David Bowie488. I Want To Conquer The World - Bad Religion487. Around The Dial - The Kinks486. Omaha - Moby Grape485. Suzie Q - Creedence Clearwater Revival484. Flute Thing - The Blues Project483. Anarchy In The UK - Sex Pistols482. Under Pressure - Queen481. Brass In Pocket - The Pretenders480. Monterey - Eric Burdon & the Animals479. Bullit - The Misfits 478. My War - Black Flag477. Southern Man - Neil Young476. Hard To Handle - The Black Crowes475. High Flying Bird - Richie Havens474. We'll Burn The Sky - Scorpions473. Surf's Up - The Beach Boys472. On The Road Again - Canned Heat
Carry On.
That's when you ask if everything good happened in 88. Stretched skin over eyes, sneaks the sleep out. If you get good you can do it with your cigarette hand. Cement block. Safety bar. Tiny red ants. Doing tiny red things. Dog's taking a piss, and doing that crazy hop when she's scared. The world isn't quite wet enough. No excuse for beaters and plaid pants.   Reminds me of that time we found the snake in the living room. We kept him for a while. Let him stay over for a couple nights. Called him Tim.   Which really pissed him off cuz his name was Sparky.   I'm probably gonna burn coffee. I'm probably gonna pretend this never happened. Plugged in. Jacked off. Copped out.   Sunglasses on, stairing at a lazy ceiling fan. Shades dancing, dust grinding. Not too far from me. Just dust grinding.   Not fast enough.
The Further Adventures Of Dicey
Or in the recorded words of Han Solo from Marvel Comics' Star Wars Annual #2, "You can't imagine how silly I feel talkin' into a rock!" (Because the recorder was a memory stone on the planet Ventooine, but that's another story ...) It feels strange typing this on a laptop computer -- yes, we buckled two weekends ago and bought one so now if we're lugging this Compaq Presario CQ56 around, we can access the Internet anywhere we receive a WiFi signal -- and I was at SRT with Jeffrey yesterday (after we'd gotten Dicey, a red six-sided die out of a twenty-five cent vending machine at Kmart) where I bought an MV241 Aircard so I can access this pretty much anywhere within SRT's calling area ... roughly the state of North Dakota east of Minot! I figure when we go out of that (not often) a local WiFi signal will take over. Yesterday (Monday the third) was my day off, so after bringing Sarah to school and Martha to work I was free to spend time with him, and maybe I do get a little enthusiastic
Talk To Yourself Much?
Talk to yourself much? Hell, I do it everyday. Only to me, it doesn't seem that way. I see your face, with each and every word. You have me, I'm a goner, I am all yours. Talking to the moon, to make you feel my love. I'd talk to just about anything, you can think of. Maybe I'm crazy, and if that's the case. I can live with that, to see your face. So I'll sit here talking away, to anything I can. Until the day, you hold me in your hands.
P. Niss Vs V. Gina
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. I work in a damp environment. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures. My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely,P. Niss **The Response** Dear Penis:After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:You do not work 8 hours straight. You fall asleep after brief work periods. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as weari
An Easy Win
It feels so good to have someone, pulling you in different directions. From passion, to love, the bond and connection. Someone who has the ability to break you, then catches you before you hit the ground. Is irreplaceable, amazing, not easy to be found. Someone that see's you, from the outside in. Is number one in my book, an easy win. No competition necessary, the contest is already won. When you find someone like that, do whatever it takes, to hang on.
True To My Heart
I will be true to my heart, even if it causes it to break. To cover it up or give in to someone else, would just be a mistake. I get it everyday, all of the time. But nothing can replace, the way I feel inside. Even I have tried. My vision is blinded, by the sight of his face. Every street, every move, every place. If someone ever causes me, to give in. It wouldn't be them at all to me, it would still be him. I don't care who thinks I'm crazy, for holding on. I would hang on forever, I don't care how long. Because lying to myself, isn't going to change a thing. He'll still be there, in my heart, my dreams. Other's may choose to, take the easy way out. Me, I choose him, without a doubt. It's crystal clear to me, why settle for less. When my heart already belongs, to the best.
El Hombre Misterioso
  La inauguración de la fiesta, como todos los años lo hacia el bisabuelo, pero, él no estaba y en su honor lo hizo su hija Sara, mi abuela, quien vestida elegantemente para la ocasión, subió al estrado. Dirigió unas palabras a los visitantes y procedió a bajar las escaleras para cortar la cinta, estaba en eso cuando tropezó, ya estaba por tocar el suelo cuando, unas manos fuertes la alcanzaron de la cintura y la alzaron por los aires posándola en el suelo media desmayada, aquellas manos pertenecían al hombre misterioso quien sabríamos más tarde se llamaba Carlos Mendez.  By PINK  
Stupid Encounters #78
I has a Se...: If you could date a guy who was completely faithful to you but had a fantasy of seeing have sex with other guys, not in a gay way, would you date him and would you try out his fantasy And I'm not trying to be rude to you, so if this upsets you in any way, I apologize 5:41pm  iC51Ne...: Are you saying if I dated you that you could date other guys or me? 5:44pm I has a Se...: No not me lol Im not bi or gay  So yeah, you would get to date or just have sex with other guys if you wanted 5:47pm  iC51Ne...: that would defeat the purpose of a relationship 5:49pm I has a Se...: How so? 5:49pm  iC51Ne...: because you get in a relationship to be with that 1 and only guy. If your a player... you date and fuck everyone and hearts get broken 5:50pm I has a Se...: Ok, lets say instead of you dating other guys, you just had sex with the ones you trusted and were into. That way there is nsa 5:50pm I has a Se...: Not tr
This Is Dedicated To All Blinded By Religion! Read This! I Dare You! (get The Full Picture By Watching The Video)
>> Heresy: now I lay me down to sleep.   I pray the lord my soul to keep,   and if I die before I wake.   I pray the lord my soul to take.   Until this fucking game is over,   this fucking game is over.   Its over!!!   As I grew up I found that no one knows a fucking think   yeah, there basing their whole existance on the stories of heresay   its not sane   its no surprise I cant believe a fucking word you say.   So fuck your faith, and all your saints.   Is it ok if I?   Choose not too believe.   Dont pray for me,   I cant be saved.   Is it ok if I?
Welcome To My Private Hell - 255
Hickory dickory hickory cock, stop time on old ben the clock. Ole George and his cherry tree, chop it down baby just for me. Dripping and sipping fool,try acting straight and BI thats cool. I can feel myself fall, just another fucking rag doll. I start to wonder why, same shit different guy. Feel insane, feel all alone, come on baby you really home.   I'm only a fallen angel, welcome to my private hell.
I Would Wait Forever
Looking through,   this fogged up glass.   Wishing that day,   would get here fast.   The day when you are there,   in front of my face.   I don't care where we are,   doesn't matter the place.   One touch and you,   will feel.   That my love for you,   is all too real.   I'm going to hold you,   in my arms so tight.   Then make love to you,   all through the night.   To feel your skin,   against mine.   Will make it worth,   all of this time.   That we have waited,   for this to come true.   I would wait forever,   to be next to YOU.
Just Reach For It
Walking through a wall, that is blocked. There's no way in, I've already knocked. As hard as I could, but no one is home. Walking through, this place alone. I think I have cried, all that I can. It's just so hard, to understand. I know you're on, the other side. Protecting yourself, choosing to hide. I don't blame you, I would too. After all that I, have done to you. I'm trying so hard, to prove. That you are something, I don't want to lose. I give you my all, my heart my soul. Just reach for it, please don't let it go.
I'll Have To Pass
My daughter and I, took a trip to the mall. Nothing out of the ordinary at all. While we were there, I noticed this guy. He had been watching me, and it caught my eye. When I looked his way, he smiled then knocked over a rack. I couldn't help but laugh, then turned my back. I just wanted to get out of the store, I was getting nervous myself. Watching him put everything back, he knocked off the shelf. So I paid for my things, and headed for the door. I looked for my little girl, but she wasn't behind me anymore. Then I seen her, approach the guy. I just waited for her, and thought to myself, why. She came out, with a mile long grin. And said, he wants you to have dinner with him. I gave her that look and she said, Come on Mom he's hot. It's not going to kill you, to give someone a shot. But he was a stranger, I didn't care about the outside. My feelings are too strong, to even try and disguise. So I said, tell him thank you, but I'll have to pass. No
How I Make Love
  HOW I MAKE LOVE   I have been heard this question   If you had one night with me what would you do   One night, one million   Every encounter is unique   Every one is special   So I will tell a sample   A sample of how I make love   I would start with slow gentle kissing   Soft and timid just light brushing   Slowly so slowly becoming more   More passionate   More Intense   I will continue kissing and liking down your neck   Over you're shoulder and down you're arm   To you're wrist   Our passion both rising   I continue back up you're arm   To you're breasts I'll pause some to worship   To suck upon you're nipples, and to feel the flesh no mt cheeks   I then continue to kiss and lick down and up the other arm   I then as my long hair caresses you're skin   I kiss and lick down you're side   I move my lips and tong down your leg to ankle   Now I begin working my way up to the inner thigh   Here I slow down   Here I trade bet
I once did love but now its LOST You once did care , but now it's LOST I once hod hope , but now its LOST My life had meaning, but now its LOST   Now love is LOST never to be gained Your life with me never to be attained   Yes I am bitter and I am scorned and I am mad I wish I was never born.   My life is over at such a cost.
Country Life
I took a ticket,For a train, Of the man at the platform, One way, no turning back. Saw those steel girder's, Pass under his feet, The steam hit his face, Absorbed the smoke slowly, A new life await's, Tred's slowly upon those step's ,A carriage await's, Carry his soul gently, New horizon's, new place's to see, Speeding through the country, Passing through small pleasant villages, That life I once did know, Life was simple, people respected the land, How people grow, One shall neveer know, I miss the past,Where people respected value's & dignity, Loving neigbours, Family & friend's, Shove your timetable up your ass. I travel without worry
Leaving The Green Behind
So for those of you who don't know me, I am a highly competitve person.  I've been on this site for several years and this is my second account.  I deleted my first in a fit of rage almost two years ago. Last year, I took an extended fu-vacation because I needed a break from the stress and drama.  At that point in time I was working my way up the ranking ladder and trying to have my name in lime green for most likes.  I did accomplish a very satisfactory rank for chick of the week, but my name stayed pink.  That was fine.  I was happy where I was.  I was very unhappy because of unwanted drama I received due to some poor rumors.  I was also going back to school and needed to concentrate on my studies. I ended my fu-vacation on Septemeber 22, 2011 and came back for good.  I was slightly excited and hoping my old friends were still around.  Even though only a few weeks have gone by, it feels like I never left.  I basically picked off where I left off.  Most of my friends are still activ
Why Me Lord
WHY ME LORD   Why me, Lord? Why cant I be a woman?I should be able to do what normal women do.Why me? Why can't I have kids,or even show a guy how much I care?It's not fair, Why did I get left behind?What did I do wrong? Did I do something terribly wrongto deserve this?I don't feel human at all, I feel so empty.I feel as though I was and am a mistake.That I shouldn't even be here.Am I being punished? But why me Lord? Why am I being punished?For being brought into this beautiful world,that you created.If I wasn't' supposed to be born,then why am I here?If I don't have a purpose to be here,Why Lord? Why me, Lord? Why would you let me live as long as I haveJust to be hurt over and over again?Why cant I live a half way normal life?Why have me live through all this pain?Why wouldn't you just give up on me
Tears In Silence
Tears in Silence    I put on makeup to make me feel pretty, Even though I know it won't help. I buy nice clothes to make me look pretty, That I find out doesn't' work either. I wear a smile for the whole world to see While in Silence I'm dying.   I'm lost and confused I'm wondering is there anyone in this world who could help me? I've felt apart from this world for so long I don't feel like could ever be part of it again   I know I'm happy around people but, while alone in my room I'm contemplating death, I sit and cry in my heart in silence I want this pain and confusion to end I don't think it ever will   I kiss guys and tell them I want marriage, while in my mind I'm thinking that this will change everything in my life Than I realize I can't do this anymore.   I've gone through so much I don't need to put a guy through this or anyone else. So I cry in silence No one can ever help me
Just Because
Just Because By J.M. T Twisted are we, deep within our souls Plotted in darkness, unrevealed are our goals Tossing peoples dreams into the embers of the coals Bursting dreams into flames, stirring as the smoke rolls Deceptive are we, deep within our hearts Shrowded in veils, avoiding truth in all parts Weaving this tapestry of lies, like a collection of fine arts Never knowing where it ends or where the truth starts Greedy are we, deep within our lives Soaked in envy, undermining to further our own strides Pulling away from unity, indulging our self-fish prides Removing all sense of humanity, now here only contempt resides Faithless are we, like rebels without a cause Lost in confusion, never stopping to even pause Standing in discouragment together a applause Knowing we did all this for nothing, happily Just Because
Alright By JMT Losing track of time lost in your eyes Looking for truth but only finding lies Exhausted of options from all the endless tries Hopeless and discouraged my heart only cries Seeing only two way unsure of which to take It's not only my future or happiness at stake Weighing out the possiblities with an even break Shifting back and forth on this decision to make Saying sorry only to repeat my pain again And here I sit waiting for a real change to begin Always going no where but still refusing to give in Talking  ourselves in circles with no offers to resend Breaking this cold silence imprisoned in your sight 
Unknown By JMT With nothing but innocent trust and faith in you Looking to you over all the years that I grew Longing for a moment that you would give me a clue Bringing me into the loving light that I never knew Gazing around seeing others gain what I longed to adorn Trying to piece together the reasons why I am torn From your heart, not seeing love, but feeling you scorn Giving me a darkened heart, feeling ashamed for being born Scrambling to retain my place, to see myself in your eyes Grasping onto a dream filled with broken promises and lies Disparately reaching for your hand, finding mine in ties My soul, breached drowning in the tears my heart cries Floating away from me on the breeze, leaving me alone
A Dark Dark Writing
Have u ever felt so lost and confussed by ur actions that ur numb inside .... To the point u cant feel anything any more to the point where ur voice is gone from all the begging and pledding and yellin for help and yet no one came to save u ... U feel trapped in the cage ur so called other half put u in just to see if u had the will power to fight to get ur self out of this deep depression they put u in just becouse there bored and needed to get some kind of thrill from some where .... Uve cryed so much that ur eyes refuse to make any more tears ur eyes so red from the lossed count of days endless cryin and pledding that someday someone would pick up on the signs that ur not happy that u want to go home .... But uve lost the way .... And theres only one person that can show u but shes out of reach becouse she waiting for u at the gates of heaven ur true home the only place u want to be but ur unable to get there becouse the man up stairs says its not ur time .... Unless u act on the gr
I am an even BIGGER sucker for a funny guy!!
There Is Always Light
Keep it in, or let it out? Getting past the fear, the self doubt? Have a little, self belief. Soon to follow, is happiness and relief. Love without fear, let them know. Don't hold it in, allow it to show. Don't let fear, guide your way. Be stronger, and say. Say I love you, I miss you so much. Let them know, you desire their touch. Regardless of the outcome, you are sure to win. Because you allowed love, to speak from within. Holding in and giving up, is never the right choice. Let them hear your, meaningful voice. Speak to them, from your heart. There is always light, even in the dark. Let it shine bright, and true. And tell them exactly, what they mean to you.
** Warning To All Ladies **
I wanted to make all my female friends/family aware that there is someone going around stealing NSFW photos..this man has some how been able to rip one of my sisters photos even though all of her stuff is locked down to friends/family and all ripping ability is turned off..  this man was never a friend, fan or family member nor does she even know who he is Please becareful!!! To view his page  The photo he did NOT have permission to take
A Shadow On The Wall.
In the summer of my youth, all was anger. All was rage. All was violence.   As autumn now blankets my life, what became of that? Emptiness carried with it my will to fight. My seething murderous rage has dwindled to a pathetic acceptance of my ineptitude.   Staring blankly towards the sky I am so hollow now. My eyes shut tightly as if I could through sheer will not see the truth.   “You are a coward.” Yes. I am. Were I a better man I wouldn’t walk these steps. Were I a stronger man my light would be extinguished.   It is nauseating to comprehend. I must be the most loathsome and wretchedly weak creature in all of creation. A cancer poisoning everything everyone everywhere I go.   Can at last I rise above my paltry inadequacies? Can I at last find the hatred to move beyond?   In the summer of my youth, my knuckles bled. I burst at the seams with exuberant hubris.   Now all that remains is this commiserable fool. Howling my lament
The Tangled Web Of Lies.
    In this world it is easy to decieve,to tell others lies so easy to believe.    In the begining, it's little white lies,saying nice things to keep tears from a lover's eyes.    Are these any different form the darker lies,told by those of the Lord of Flies?    We weave illusions and build walls of deception,these walls are our webs for our own protection.    We place thread after thread in this intricate weave,until we weave them so tight that even we believe.    We lie and we lie until our web becomes normal,then the truth becomes rare like shorts at a formal.    Our lies become legion and we begin to regret,all the lies we told that we seem to forget.    But what can we do? There's no looking back,we lay down more thread to tie in the slack.    But before we know it our web is all tangled,we start cutting lines until it's ragged and mangled.    So in the end we ask ourselves, "why?"So which was easier, the truth or the lie?
Help Me!!!!!
If you could all do me a quick favor. I'd really appreciate it if you'd go and rate these two guys. They've added me to their family during their God Mode.   Also, if you could, go rate the hell out of this girl. She's giving me  her points for now.   I'd really love it. Please help me out.  Thanks!!!!
New Drugs?
I have an emergenct meeting with my psychiatrist because he's wanthing to try and stop the voice I haer and things I see.   I'm already on Cumbalta and have been for over a year. The nurse suggested he may true Abilify, Risperdol, or Kloponin. *sighs*    Hopefullly I can get back to the "Katiemae" so many of you loved
Studiojamsat Danchancey's
The GIANT 4 by StudioJamsAt DanChancey's FAZE ME by StudioJamsAt DanChancey's Movie 0008 attack of seaguls RM by StudioJamsAt DanChancey's
So today...I heard a sentence 3 times I'd thought I'd never hear...well, without sarcastic undertones...   "Thank you for the blue balls!"     I'd say thats a very sucessful Tuesday!
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One With The Forest!
Rainbows tied in Moebius strip's, Wrapping you in colours & much warmth, A spherical sun burning strong upon your soul, Engulfed in orange breaking through the black, Pastel blue skie's & Ivory white cloud's, An explosion off Khaki grass, Spring suddenly forth with every step, Poppie's & Sweetpea's grow wild, Take a deep breath, Close your eye's, Smell the new horizon enter your chest, A kalidescope of colour's stream in, Through stained glass pane's, A warm gentle fire blazing slow, Season's come & Season's go, Spring lamb's replaced by Summer newborn, Dancing through autumn leave's & then unto the snow, My heart will alway's be one with the forest,
An Interview With Me
Okay, I've done this before and had some sucess and lots of fun.  This is where you can ask me anything and I will reply honestly.  Any questions asked must be respectful.  Consider it an interview if you like.  Other than respect and courtesy, there are no rules.  All you have to do is drop a comment.  I will then paste the comment in this little box and answer it, to keep everything in one place.  Oh, another rule, you can't ask question after question after question.  Give some other people a chance!  Once this entry gets too long to read in one sitting, I'll start a new one.  Have fun! GaZ whats your favorite book...the one you could read over and over again and never get bored of itHmmm...I was going to say I don't have a favorite book, but I guess I do.  Mandy by Julie Andrews Edwards. Why?  Because I read it as a child and fell in love with the magic within it's pages.  I haven't read it in a very long time and even had to look up the title. Sad but that's the way the cookie cr

                                                        I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember, everything What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know, goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way
The Truth Of Lies
Every one lies, it can't be helped, Lies can hurt, lies can be painful, but lies can also be beautiful, lies can be helpful You think I'm wrong ? Have you ever told some one you'd always be there ? This is a beautiful lie, truthfully no one can always be there for anyone, Have you ever said I'll always love you ? Truth be told love is never for ever , we all tell lies every day , even with out noticing it, so before you say lies are wrong or you should never lie, just think, the truth hurts more then a lie
Taking U To Your Limit!!
Damn it's getting hot in here, u got me shook, The way my body melts just from one single look. I been wanting u for a while and I know that u want me, So lets leave the club and get a little freaky. As soon as we hit the room it's like 4th of july, My pussy gets real wet and I can feel u rise. kissin u all over, breaths more frantic and fast, U keep this up I dont know how long I will last. I throw u on the bed and start ripping off your clothes, I start lickin u all over and get excited as I watch you grow. Mmmmm u taste so good now I'm getting lower, butt ass naked u and me, there's no use for any covers! As I start to hear u moan I take u into my mouth, Show u what a real woman is really all about. I can tell u are loving it by the way u moan and grown It's time to climb on top and get my riding on. I ride u nice and slow at first until I cant take nomore, Then I ride it rough how I like to even up the score. You grab me by my hips as I ride u nice and rough, Pus
Will Not Break!
Under a dark sky, The star's are shining bright, I let her finger's slip, To many time's, No longer holding her, So very cold inside, I made my mistake's, Tried to forget my regret's, Screamed & shouted till blue, Walls reverberating upon his breath, Said word's he should not have said, No bandage will fix this, No plaster's will stem his blood, No staple's will hold him together, Ripped them out long ago, Beared his true soul & stripes, Alone is never forever, Just keep on drifting, Searching for that beacon, There's alway's a light at the end of the tunnel. Broken bone's fail me not,
Does He Feel
Does he feel my pain   Does he feel my sorrows   Does he feel my hate   Does he feel my anger   Does he  feel the tears of blood falling from my eyes.     Does he feel what I am going through   Does he feel the sword that I have straight through   my heart.     Does he feel the love I have for him   Does he feel how much I need him   My Dark Angel do you feel me.   Do you feel that I cry out to you   in my dreams even when I am awake   Oh my Dark Angel how much I need you   Does he feel me.     BY   DEVILINA VAMPIRESS PRINCESS OF DARKNESS   (Priscilla Gamez)
Have you experienced pain in your life?THE THOUGHT FOR TODAY IS ABOUT LIFE'S PAIN ..."May you find SERENITY and TRANQUILITY in a world you may not always understand. May the PAIN you have known and the CONFLICT you have experienced give you the STRENGTH to walk through life facing each new situation with COURAGE and OPTIMISM.Always know that there are those whose love and understanding WILL ALWAYS BE THERE, even when YOU FEEL MOST ALONE.  Remember the SUNSHINE when the STORM SEEMS UNENDING."MAY A KIND WORD, A REASSURING TOUCH, AND A WARM SMILE BE YOURS EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE, AND MAY YOU GIVE THESE GIFTS AS WELL AS RECEIVE THEM!With LOVE and RESPECT my friend, Reginna
Holy Messed-up Day, Batman
I started off the morning at the dentist's office, getting a broken filling replaced with a temporary crown.  That was just LOADS of fun... my mouth is STILL feelin funny and sore.  On my way home, I took my usual route.  I see funny lights behind me, look at my speedo, it says 31.  I'm in a 25 mph zone... oops.  Cop pulls me over, it's officer Tester, the guy who arrested my best friend for a DUI while I was her passenger, and who has since joined our group of friends drinking at Beerfest every year, among other things.  He's an asshole who was screwing around on his wife with a chick half his age (whose father happens to be the sherrif), and he says he clocked me going 41 when he passed me from the opposite direction, and that after I turned the corner he almost couldn't catch up with me.  Come on, a police intercepter not able to get a minivan in a residential area - especially when the minivan is following a postal truck delivering mail - oh yeah, and if i was going 48 like he sai
Sometimes, I fear ,  I'm going to snap , The hand that feed's , That which gave me life , Layed up in a pool , Crimson red it drip's, Find me , If you wish, Leave me, Better I was dead, Toss a blanket, Made of fine thread, Over his pale carcass, Sheltered in a morgue, He is an exhibit, Nothing more said!
I Am What I Am
I love you is eight letters long, but so is bullshit. Both stink up the place, when you're in the middle of it. Fallen, taken the plunge, doing everything you can. To show them, prove to them, make them understand. Then you find out you are nothing, practically shit in their eyes. The blow is rough, hits hard, you realize. You are one thing, that's all you are good for. Holding them high above the others, being slammed to the floor. What you feel right now, doesn't effect them at all. Because to them you are nothing, they don't care about the fall. You sustained, it simply doesn't matter. That you are crushed, heartbroken and shattered. You're just a face, nothing more than that. Oh but I am more, that's a fact. I am strong willed, chipped, refusing to break. I'll stand tall and smile, although it's fake. This hurt inside, will never be seen. Because I am what I am, and that goes WAY beyond this fucking screen.
From Within His Soul!
From darkness into light, An Angel carried his soul, Through Storms & raging sea's, No rain falling on his coat, A soft gentle shelter, Feel's the warmth, Surround him, Eye's of amber, Look over you, My family & friend's, Fear me not, I tred steady, Slowly with caution!    
Quick How To
Some people seem to have a lot of trouble getting the 1000 likes at level 50.  Since I had a fairly easy time of it, I will tell you the simple formula I followed. 1.  Buy 1 day blast with 10 million fubucks 2. Make 5 global mumms spaced out about 2 to 3 hours each (do not make it NSFW and you're much better off if you leave out anything that actually has to do with fubar because they may judge it to be self-promoting and ban you from mumms) 3. Find everyone you can who is online, rate and like them and comment their profile (NOT STATUS) and ask them to click your like. 4. Update your status frequently.  Each time you update, it's like a miniature pimp out because it pops up in the bar tab. :)    If you can get your friends to help you by pimping you out or asking their friends to like you, that is also a HUGE help.
I Laugh At Pain Like This Ha Ha Ha!
I'm a little sore after my workout sometimes, I try to push it as hard as I can.  Though I may be a bit achey and my muscles are tight, I refuse to take an asprin or an ibruprofen and here's why:  I earned this pain.   I'm not going to let some pill take it away from me.  It's the reminder that I did the work, the muscles that I get later are the reward.  So what if I hurt the next day, if its the day after that even better.  I earned the pain, and I'm going to keep it.   If it goes away, well tomorrow is another day that I can push myself even more. 
The Lolz Of Fu Sometimes
someone's status says, "send me bling credits , so i can buy my friends fu marriage" I responded "tells your friends to go get jobs, like real married couples :P said friend wanting to get fu married says, "hey jerk off, both me and my bf have jobs, now go watch your porn or whatever it is you do" oh the 31 flavors i can go on this one :D first off, you cant afford your own fu marriage? here's a thought, DONT GET FU MARRIED! next, getting your friends to beg for credits so THEY can buy your fu marriage for you? oh wait, they arent buying it, the suckers who gave them credits are buying it, so its not even a genuine gift. How embarrassing. I dont care what your situation is, all of fubar is PLAY MONEY, there is nothing on here that is ever needed..... EVER, including bling. Honestly if you can't afford the stuff that costs money on fubar, ride out the free part of it for all u can may not get to the top, but you can certainly go a long way. Don't ask me to spend my hard e
Not Meant To Be
Not Meant 2 Be It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you wanted from me And knowing that if I give that to you I might just disappear Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I, I can't change your mind I know it's like trying to turn away one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe That's theres no way out for you and me And it seems to be the story of our lives Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I, I can't change your mind I know it's like trying to turn away one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're
One Of Those Days
Have u ever had one those days that u go out and u do everythang rite then when u get to the house evrythang goes wrong..... well today i had one of those days.
Here It Is
Here it is ... completely open "plate" per say.   I am broken and can't be fixed .. that is how it is, and I all I want to do is find that one place and curl up.   it's just how it is.
Perfect Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise. I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes. Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize Its worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lie. And as long as I can feel you holding on. I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong. I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start. I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my personality? Making every kind of slience, It takes a lot to realize Its worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lie. And as long as I can feel you holding on. I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong. I know that I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start. I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my personality? When you're caught in a lie, and you got nothing to hide, When you
You And I Tonight
You and I Tonight night a candle lights the room, Tonight it's only me and you, Your skin like gravity Is pulling every part of me, I fall, you and I collide What if I stay forever? What if there's no goodbye? Frozen for a moment here in time, Yeah, If you tell me the sky is falling, Or say that the stars collide, The only thing that matters in my life, Is you and I tonight Our eyes close the candle burns away, But I know the fire still remains This love is all we need We fit together perfectly, I fall, you and I collide What if I stay forever? What if there's no goodbye? Frozen for a moment here in time, Yeah, If you tell me the sky is falling, Or say that the stars collide, The only thing that matters in my life, Is you and I tonight I wanna see this through I wanna give it all to you Tonight a candle lights the room Tonight, it's only me and you, oh What if I stay forever? What if there's no goodbye? Frozen for a moment here in time, Yeah, If you tell me the sky is falling, O
Penis Breath Lmao
Penis breath, a lover’s dread. Is what you get when you give head. Unpleasent as it tends to be. Be grateful that he doesn’t pee. It’s times like this you wonder why. You bother reaching for his fly. But it’s too late, can’t be a tease. Accept the facts, get on your knees. You know you’ve got a job to do. So open up and shove it through. Lick the tip then take it all. Don’t drag your teeth or he might bawl. Slide up and down, use your tonge. And feel the precum start to run. So when the fuck’s he gonna cum. Just when you can’t take anymore. Your hear your lover’s mighty roar. And when he hit’s that real high note. You feel it oozing down your throat. Salty, fishy, sticky, nasty stuff. Okay already, that’s enough. Let’s switch you say, before you gag. And what’s your revenge, your on your rag. Term B)
The Dragon's Breath
thick was the air with the scent of death burnt flesh filled the virgin's delicate nose tied to the offering post like a lone rose shivering in fear, waiting for the dragon's fiery breath
A Change
"A change can do you good"   If you know anything about me then this blog will make sense to you, especially if you read the one I have listed on my profile. But my family sees it and I want a place to share more honestly. I guess I trust this because few of you will bother to read my babble. Anyway, I just moved to North Carolina from Ohio. It's been a plan of mine for some time now and with recent events back home I felt I could no longer survive there. My mom is abusing painkillers and for a while relied on me to get them. I didn't tell her I was getting them from my old friend who used to get me dope so the opportunity was always there. I resisted for the longest time, he was considerate to the fact that I was getting clean but one night I can't even recall the date of now he offered me some for free. I took it. I was feeling so lonely at home living with my grandparents stuck in time waiting for my move and waiting for a change in my luck. Maybe I was doing the wrongs at home a
Old Man And The Beaver
An 86-year-old man went to his doctor for his quarterly check-up... The doctor asked him how he was feeling, and the 86-year-old said , 'Things are great and I've never felt better.'I now have a 20 year-old bridewho is pregnant with my child. "So what do you think about that Doc ?" The doctor considered his question for a minute and then began to tell a story. "I have an older friend , much like you, who is an avid hunter and never misses a season."One day he was setting off to go hunting. In a bit of a hurry , he accidentally picked up his walking cane instead of his gun." "As he neared a lake , he came across a very large male beaver sitting at the water's edge..He realized he'd left his gun at home and sohe couldn't shoot the magnificent creature. Out of habit he raised his cane , aimed it at the animal as if it were his favorite hunting rifle and went 'bang, bang'." "Miraculously , two shots rang out and thebeaver fell over dead. Now, what do you think of that ?" asked the doctor. 
I'm So Tired Of Repeating Myself...
I will NOT: (see list below) get on Cam for you Dont ask or beg your pathetic post pictures of my pussy (that's personal for me and whoever I am with besides there's plenty of free porn out on the internet and several fu skanks that are willing to show theirs for some stupid bling on here) Make NSFW or SFW Salutes for people that automatically think they deserve one... If I make u one its because I WANT to and WHEN I WANT TO Speak with you in the chatbox if you keep acting like an attention deprived child Answer questions that are already on my profile (yeah I put information on there that I think everyone should know) Talk to you if all u have done is perv on my pics and comment only on my NSFW pics
Use To Be
                                                              Use To Be - this is a me original   At once I actually thought everything would be okay, every single second, minute, hour and day..... As it all seems to be darkening I realize the mistake I made, as friends argue and the love continues to fade..... if there was something I could say, something I could do to ease your busy day.....   Tomorrow will be better the sun will shine, don't cry your needed and wanted to be around, don't die   Use to be we'd feel bummed the day was over stumbling inside Use to be we would see the beauty of riding a bike now we smile as we continue to hide   Someone once said you don't wanna be my age, guess what you now are.... turn the page....
The moment he dropped his pants and revealed his true identity, I was on fire. That night, I sucked and licked his cock from top to bottom. I began by gently stroking the area just behind his nuts with my tongue while my hand slowly massaged his cock. Mmm I can’t tell you enough just how delicious that was! He stands looking down at me with his hands pressed against the back of my head as he slides in and out of my mouth, his muscles flexing to my every movement, and telling me how good it feels. With each stroke of my mouth, tongue and hands, you could hear the squishy sounds of my saliva as my mouth worked his cock. God, I was so aroused, I wanted to take him to heights he’d never gone before, I wanted to suck him bone dry! I ravished his entire cock with my tongue, slowly licking and wetting every inch with my tongue and hand. I wanted to worship it in every sense. He moaned with pleasure as he grabbed fistfuls of my hair and tried to shove even more of hims
Guys And Gals A Thought For You Both
Before you're asshole to your girl or guy, Think about this...  While you're ignoring them, another  is paying them attention While you're not hearing their problems, another  is listening to their every word While you're to busy for them, another  is making time for them While you're making them cry, another  is trying to make them smile again While you're not sure if you want her/him, another  has already figured it out While you're making them sad, another  is trying to make them happy While you're making them miserable, another is comforting them While to you they are only an option, another is making them their priority THINK ABOUT IT
When Do They Mean It?
I've alway been the type of person that, unless I get right in your face somehow, I tend to go largely unnoticed. Most of the time I'm pretty ok with that. There will be times I'm at a party or something and drinking; then I like to entertain and be somewhat a center of attention. But most times, I like fading back a little bit, and not being largely popular. Sometimes on a site like this, that can be frustrating. There are very few people on here I go out of my way to talk to as frequently as possible, but the few that I do - I always let people know when they have become special to me. Not going out of my way to get attention makes it easy to get lost in the shuffle of things. Over the part month, I have both moved and been very busy with school. I have not been on here as much as I used to, and honestly, losing the ability to pimp people out anymore has added a small part to it. If I can't really do much that helps people out (I don't spend money here, that family boost is fuckin st
My Life
So, im sitting here, writting to complete strangers, who are probably reading this and understanding me more than i understand myself. I feel like i should love my life, but i sit here every night feeling alone. I have a boyfriend who seems to only care when he wants to. My sister, shes here, but she can only do so much for me. It seems like life is getting shittier and shittier by the moment. Isnt it suppose to get better? I have this site, because having fans, and having people compliment me everyday is nice.  Believe it or not, here in florida.. things arent so Great for me. UGGH!
Good Times
Ok I'm new to all this, I would really apprecite some help, some love. I mean help the Newbie. Anyway go ahead and set thing's straight out of the gate I Love me some beautiful women/girls. I'm all about some fun to, so you see me i know i look good, lets have some fun on here or in person, bring it on. I really need some help though! So if you're willing to persue me, I'm willing to do as you please......that sounds bad, but females only plz. I'm not here to make friends with dudes! Anyway open the doors to good times lol.
Some Peoples Children!
I can not believe this woman! Janeane Garofalo,  is a third rate comic that thinks she has everything figured out....I think that is the biggest joke of her sad carrer! She went on nation television and said Herman Cain is basicly an 'Uncle Tom' and any black person or woman that is part of the Republican party may have Stockholm syndrome! STOCKHOLM SYNDROME??? Really?   This just goes to show some people should not use the big words.She accuses the right of 'race-baiting' again, she does not know the big words! Calling a black man an 'Uncle Tom', helloooooo!     I really hope American's open their eyes. I do not care what political party someone sides was wrong using race with Obama and it is wrong using it with Cain! The sadest part....I see it comming from the left the most. If you say you do not agree with Obama, the left says you are a racist. Now, a black man is running for the right and the  the left is calling him an 'Uncle Tom'? Hmmmm are we all sure it is t
How Do I Say This` My All Of Me` !
ya know meeting someone for just sex is ok sometimes, but deep or really i guess not so deep, I want a good relationship, with someone whom cares for all of me, cares how i`m feeling inside, cares how my mind, heart and soul are feeling "" and i think that takes priority sometimes to me over the sex drive "" to feel he cares for all of my well being " and sometimes when i feel there not caring for those parts of me first "" because it leaves the sex as a cold act` no emotions of care or love there`  " when it is there i feel the sex is better because of it, so sometimes i`m longing for deeper relationship then just sex, because even though i can take care of the sex drive, my inner me is still left feeling hurt because it longs for that attachment to someone whom cares for all of me.
Annabel Lee
It was many and many a year ago,In a kingdom by the sea,That a maiden there lived whom you may knowBy the name of ANNABEL LEE;And this maiden she lived with no other thoughtThan to love and be loved by me.I was a child and she was a child,In this kingdom by the sea;But we loved with a love that was more than love-I and my Annabel Lee;With a love that the winged seraphs of heavenCoveted her and me.And this was the reason that, long ago,In this kingdom by the sea,A wind blew out of a cloud, chillingMy beautiful Annabel Lee;So that her highborn kinsman cameAnd bore her away from me,To shut her up in a sepulchreIn this kingdom by the sea.The angels, not half so happy in heaven,Went envying her and me-Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,In this kingdom by the sea)That the wind came out of the cloud by night,Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.But our love it was stronger by far than the loveOf those who were older than we-Of many far wiser than we-And neither the angels in heaven abo
How I Broke My Big Toe- So Funny
I had gone down stair's an my step son's dog had pooped in the floor just at the bottom of the stair's. I called out to him an I told him to get down there an clean it up now. He said no an I started fussing. I had moved over an forgot an stepped down an when I did I slipped in it an I fell an my butt fell on my heel an crushed it into the floor an I heard it pop....... I also fell back onto the stair's an hurt my back an got a concussion. I started screaming and my daughter an step son came running. I was crying so bad. They said we need to call 911 an I said u better not I have dog shit all over me. It was up my back. They got to laughing an I started laughing an crying. My husband at the time was out of town on business.......... I got up an went an showered. Come to find out my last day at work was the next day. I went into work an showed my manager an she said why did u come to work an I said because today is my last day an I didn't want u all to think I was lieing. S
Private space is an endless race. I see not a trace in your upturned face. I fell from grace. I chose not to chase. I choose my pace.
SAD NEWS - Please join me in remembering YET ANOTHER great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Dough Boy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes to the belly. He was 71. Dough Boy is survived by his wife Play Dough, three children, John Dough, Jane Dough, and Dosey Dough, plus they had one in the Oven. Services were held at 3:50 for about 20 minutes....
In Lieu Of Halloween, A Story....titled "damaged".
  His steps seemed silent on the asphalt. Not a clap or scuffle. He was unseen. His feet fell on the pavement that teetered on the edge of a rutty ditch slope meeting the night’s dark hand. It engulfed the street’s fringe in solitude. Street lights’ angle met the road leaving the grassy, sloping boundary untouched. Cars shot past pulling a tailwind that rocked him toward the dark blackness. The blowing northern air that followed this man into town was frigid. The man felt the police presence as the car’s light shined from behind him. The car slowed to a stop, blue lights flashed. The man stopped abruptly without turning toward the light. His long hair blowing wild on the northern wind. The man was extremely large.  The policeman emerged from the car. “Excuse me sir,” he demanded the man’s attention with a bright flashlight. “Can you step to the front of my car, please.” The policeman’s question was more of an issued order.
The Movie Everybody Wants To Be In
  of all the scenes in all our movies, don't we all want the love scene? which can be different from but still include the sex scene & the friends scene.  & every other possible or impossible scene. but without a good love scene any movie can only go so far. when i was younger i used to fall in and out of love like a drunk running through a field of holes. Then there were those moments when i felt like i was running  in slow motion, down a technicolor beach, with my mind flapping happily out my ears. But those things don't last.  Some of us freeze, or we step on each others lines, or just don't have the chops to land the big part, so we become extras, atmosphere.,in our own movies while  other leads have all the fun in theirs . I'm ready for my new love scene now, Director. Cast her pretty and sweet, with an eye for the absurd and a body made for love.   I've researched my part  long enough to be able to play it different this time. No more fight scenes, no more melodrama or d
For All That You Do
I have had people, come and go. Saying one thing, until their true colors show. I don't get attached, because of that fact. I can't but feel like, I'm under attack. A war, I can't seem to win. A battle with myself, I'm overcoming. Matt, when we met, years ago. There was something different about you, I had to get to know. I prayed, my whole childhood through. For someone exactly, like you. You help these kids, who have been abused. Rejected, neglected, broken, confused. You save them, from misery and pain. You are their hero, but your friendship is my gain. One of the best people, I have ever knew. The world is a better place, because of you. If you ever start to think, no one out there cares. Read these words and know, there is someone out there. Who does care, and wrote this just for you. As a word of appreciation, thanks, for all all that you do.
I Will End It .l.........
I will end it , it is time all the madness in the mind I can not take the sounds around me wont stop , I try to tell some one and no one heres me , I walk alone , I set alone I have not one friend I can't hang out with or just talke to any one why am I here to just be alone with no words of my life , I have so much to say and I am good person to love no one wants to love me or my family wants to hang out with me this may be my last blog I have no words to say after this why life is not one to talk about it is alone to me I am a lost soul
A couple lost their 25 year old son in a fire at home on June 4th. The son who had graduated with MBA from the University of Wisconsin-Madison two weeks earlier had come home for a while. He had lunch with his dad at home and decided to go back to clean up his hostel room. His father told him to wait, to meet his mother, before he went back for a few days. He decided to take a nap while waiting for his mom to come back home from work. Some time later their neighbors called 911 when they saw black smoke coming out of the house.Unfortunately, the 25 years old died in the three year old house. It took several days of investigation to find out the cause of the fire. It was determined that the fire was caused by the laptop resting on the bed. When the laptop was on the bed cooling fan did not get the air to cool the computer and that is what caused the fire. He did not even wake up to get out of the bed because he died of breathing in carbon monoxide.The reason I am writing this to all of y
When A Boy Makes A Girl Jealous
A boy liked a girl but wanted to make her jealous. Then one day things went terribly wrong. The next few weeks were like a very sad song. He made her jealous on purpose he tried. When the girl asked, "Do you love me?" on purpose he lied. He played with jealousy like it was a game. Little did he know things would never be the same. His plan was working but he had no clue. How wrong things would go, the damage he would do. One night she broke down, feeling very alone. Just her and the blade, no one else at home. She dialed his number, he answered, "Hello" She told him she loved him and hung up the phone. He raced to her house just a minute too late. Found her lying in blood her heart had no rate. Beside her was a note, in it her confession. Her love for this boy, her only obsession. As he read the note, he knelt down and cried. Grabbed her knife, that night they both died. She was found in his arms, both of them dead. Under her note his handwriting said: "I loved her so, she never knew.
"I don't want to be the girl who has to fill the silence.  The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth..."
My Last Breath
Sunday 10/30/2011 8:30 pm(approx) - I called my daughter to come home I was having trouble breathing.. Sunday 10/30/2011 8:30 pm (approx)  -  I called your name, my last breah was your name. my last tought was of your smiling face. my last words were paalam mahal. Sunday 10/30/2011 8:45  pm(approx) - I awoke in an abmulance - an oxegen mask on and an iv in my arm. I was so cold, and I was having trouble breathing, the EMT was assuring me I would be ok. I rememberd what I wrote days ago, and realised you may never know. Sunday 10/30/2011 9:00 pm  (approx) - I was in  the hospital.. doctors and nurses., taking blood, giving me shots. putting hot blankets on me. Sunday 10/30/2011 10:30 pm (approx) - I woke up, my breathing was better and I was warmer The rest of the night I was taking tests, being poked and prodded, but you and my children were on my mind. Monday 10/31/2011 5:00 am (approx) - I was released.. I thanked God, and my daughter who found her way there. And said a prayer
sleep are such a waste of time.. when your in it but your not really mine… and what is the future for you and I.. cause even now we say goodbye.. why can’t the two of us be forever with you.. radio active rays are visibly you.. i keep expensing days.. i spent each night on you… dont say goodbye if you dont really mean it.. our road say I LOVE YOU.. i tried not to do it.. if there’s still a place in your heart for someone… let it be me cause you’ve already won.. I save this room for a lot of people.. waiting for a glimpse of you… I sit here, sleep here, stay here for you… dont say good bye my love…  
Rest Now, Child
The flame burned so bright then so abruptly extinguished. Now, gaze around us. The colors muted, aromas faint, and the air is stale. Not unlike the pebble in the pond the ripples she left behind expanded beyond her sight. Through music and compassion, she gave to this world of herself. Ever questing for knowledge, ever earnest in the pursuit. Though I was her mentor, it was her resilience, her ceaseless optimism, and her humbling commitment that caused me to admire her. Those around her were less colleagues than family and her loyalty inspired us all. The horizons of opportunity seemed endless for her and of any that I had lead before she would make it. Yet. In an instant - no more than a moment. In a blur of shattered glass, contorted steel, plastic, and rubber, and the merciless hum of an engine, she was stolen from us. A moment. A miscalcuation. A lapse in focus. A second where the mind drifted away to exquisite fantasies. That was all it took. The
with the first name calling i should of said goodbye  but i didnt first shove i should of said goodbye  but i didnt  first punch i should of said goodbye  but i didnt  the first black eye i should of said goodbye  but i didnt first broken bone i should of said goodbye  but i didnt  now because of you i must say goodbye forever 
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Stupid Encounter #80
My Love
Let my lips speak the words my heart longs to say, they show you that I care, in every little way. The feelings I have are over flowing and free, them them surrond you with every piece of me.Day and night your in my thoughts shining bright,showing me a path through the times good and bad.You give me feelings I have never had a love, a life,a happiness when the rest of the world is sad.You are my hope and dreams, my fondest wish come true,there has never been a fariytale, with a princess such as you.Throughout time there has been stories, of love and happy timesbut none of these can compair to the love you helped me find.So with this I close, my heart and soul open to your own,all I ask is a simple task, hold me and never let me go...
I Doubt Anyone Is Even Awake To Read This
I read somewhere that what the time change means to us as we got older changes... extra hour of sleep twenties and even early extra hour at the bar after you have kids....shit they will be getting up at the crack of dawn for a month or for those of us that don't (me for instance) I will lay here trying to wait until a decent time to *get up*
Rockstar Or Not?
I tried out a Rockstar bling to see what it does & see how it could help Level 49s working for 1,000 Likes   :) It gets attention for your LIKE button   :( The double LIKE counts in your daily Likes but NOT YOUR LEVELING LIKEs (counts as only 1)   :) It earned me 5M points when I ran it with a new boomerang (I'm a lousy bomber & don't get that many points from a bomb)   :( You can get liked again but you can't like the friends again if you liked them already that day   :) It was FUN!    :( Only lasts 4 hours  Maybe that will help you to decide to use one or not - but I advise you do not start it until you have 200+ likes in your daily count & that you keep at Liking & Commenting on others pages (global mumms help with them too) GLITCH WITH MULTIPLE ROCKSTARS IN A DAY  is fixed, I think Promoted Members Box does NOT restore your LIKE button under your picture with 2nd Rockstar & after!!
Breath You In
Breath You In Taking hold, breaking in The pressures on, need to circulate Mesmerized and taken in Moving slow, so it resonates It's time to rest, not to sleep away My thoughts alone, try to complicate I'll do my best, to seek you out And be myself, not impersonate Tried so hard to not walk away And when things didn't go my way I'll still carry on and on just the same I've always been strong But can't make this happen 'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in I want to breathe you in I'm going in, so cover me Your compass will, help me turn the page The laughing stock, I'll never be Because I won't let them take me Took awhile to see all the love tha'ts around me Through the highs and lows there's a truth that I've known And it's You
SHELBYVILLE, Tennessee — A man in the state of Tennessee has been sentenced to 27 years in prison for killing his infant son because he bothered him during his video game.  Nineteen-year-old Andrew Keith Johnston pleaded guilty Monday to second-degree murder in the October 2010 death of his 1-month-old son William.Assistant District Attorney Mike Randles said Johnston gave a written statement saying he became irritated when the infant was crying in his bassinet, interfering with Johnston's playing of video games, The Shelbyville Times-Gazette reports. The boy suffered a brain hemorrhage and died of his injuries at a hospital a week later. An autopsy report said he died of "non-accidental trauma."The prosecutor says Johnston said he squeezed the boy hard and shook him.           Evidently video games are now more important than our offspring.
Somewhere I Belong
When this began)I had nothing to sayAnd I get lost in the nothingness inside of me(I was confused)And I let it all out to findThat I'm not the only person with these things in mind(Inside of me)But all that they can see the words revealedIs the only real thing that I've got left to feel(Nothing to lose)Just stuck, hollow and aloneAnd the fault is my own, and the fault is my ownWhen this began)I had nothing to sayAnd I get lost in the nothingness inside of me(I was confused)And I let it all out to findThat I'm not the only person with these things in mind(Inside of me)But all that they can see the words revealedIs the only real thing that I've got left to feel(Nothing to lose)Just stuck, hollow and aloneAnd the fault is my own, and the fault is my own[Chorus]I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never realI wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long(Erase all the pain till it's gone)I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something realI wanna find something I'
You Win
Okay Mom, you win. Let the games, begin. I will allow you in, this one last time. My heart always looses in a battle, with my mind. The date is set, let's see if you've changed. My daughter won't be with me, she doesn't even know your name. You have to earn that right, so start with me. Then we'll go from there, we'll just have to see. There's too many scars, memories and pain. Hopefully my trust, is what you'll gain. I will not fall to you, ever again. One wrong move, and that is the end. Of anything, between you and I. I'll turn back into that little girl, you left to die.
Fucking Idiots. I Swear
11:46am Danimal51879: im co owner of a night club. what do u do for work? ur cute! 11:46am Blingy The...: i am an over night stocker at walmart atm 11:47am Danimal51879: ohh ok! 11:47am Danimal51879: with ur looks u could make some real $$ 11:50am Danimal51879: seriously! 11:51am Danimal51879: instead of talking to broke losers in videochats Lol 11:58am Danimal51879: u could make $600 a night easy 11:59am Blingy The...: i dont show skin sorry 12:00pm Danimal51879: for $2,000 a week? okk then 12:01pm Blingy The...: idc how much money i could make I like my job i like my self respect i have for not being a legal prostitute are. 12:02pm Danimal51879: showing skin or working at a $900,000 topless club is LEGAL and doesnt make u a prostitue!! 12:02pm Blingy The...: getting paid for a sexual act is the definition of a prositute
I repeat the words over and over again until they become real. I hate them. I want through brute strength and vile aggression to make them untrue. But there is nothing I can do. Is that not the great binding? The broken teeth of frustration that litter the ground from that undying helplessness. The plateau of acceptance seems an iridescent monolith from this lowly stoop along the path. It was with a smile, with laughter, with burning lust that my heart broke. The jealousy of envy that makes me yearn to be...there. Can you taste it? I can. The bitterness assaults my senses and cleanses me. I can't connect. There exists not one that understands. So I beat on feet cut from the shards eyes unable to meet the horizon as the dawn illuminates my emptiness.
My Peace
I'm standing on the top of that ledge..looking's a long fall...but it is also worth the bottom lies sharp rocks...jaded edges...but no pain lies within it..that is where the pain stops....I have stepped limbo..somewhere between the past the present and wat lies at the bottom of this ledge...looking up I see mother's face appears..but that's all it illusion...she was never my mother...regardless of how bad I wanted and needed her to be...same with my father and countless others....then I see's not them at is me....I am the illusion...never letting anyone in..shutting myself off from everyone and everything....fear...worry...wonder...doubt...pain...responsible because of no one other than the bottom of this ledge lies my peace...there is nothing sad about it....I actually look forward to it....when I reach the bottom....that's when my fear...worry..wonder..doubt and pain all stops...when I final
Strange Sex Laws Around The World
In London, it’s illegal to have sex on a parked motorcycle. The Romans would crush a first-time rapist’s gonads between two stones. In China, women are prohibited from walking around a hotel room in the nude. A woman may be naked only while in the bathroom. In Pompeii, a special law was directed at prostitutes. They had to dye their hair either blue, red or yellow in order to be able to work. Up until 1884, a woman could be sent to prison for denying a husband sex. In Alabama, it’s against the law for a man to seduce “a chaste woman by means of temptation, deception, arts, flattery or a promise of marriage.” There are men in Guam whose full-time job it is to travel the countryside and deflower young virgins, who pay them for the privilege of having sex for the first time. Why? Under the law in Guam, it is forbidden for virgins to marry. An 18th century French prostitute could be spared punishment if she were willing to join the opera. In Minnesota,
Nov 9 2011
A step into social light, how far could this go tonight, I stand off just watching, going over things and drinking, thanks to those for the drinks, to the beautiful women goes out a wink, this means all the ladies especially those that dont think, that they are beautiful or sexy enough to receive a drink, your all gorgeous in your own ways, and if let me I will show you over the next few days.   The light shining from the moon, did I try this a bit too soon, empathic and feeling all too in tune, your thoughts race and flood my mind, and peace is all I want to find, to let you know that someone cares, even if they arent there, so let me be your saving grace, as this light hits your face................
Nom Nom Nom
Dear  future husband, when you propose to me, please don't put the ring in my food because I guarantee I will eat it.
My Love
You have given me a second chance in life Sometime before you I couldn't cop with the strife You've given me that love I dreamed of forever Happiness I been united with now that we're together You've touched my heart so deeply with your gentle touch To world I will never deny that I love you so much Words can't explain how thankful I am of you You have brought my smiles to overcome my blue The moments that we have shared the memories we make I promise your heart won't shatter or even break My world has changed forever now that you are here I miss you so much when you are not near I've opened up my everything to you because I trust you The more comfortable I am with anything we go through The love you and I share has made us one whole You have made my life complete from once an empty soul You will always be the man  who will stand out from the rest I'll never forget each memory that you made the best Forever in my heart baby with this love I'll always keep I'll always have you in my hea
People Trying 2 Level Up
Just Wrote This And Felt The Need To Share With As Many As I Could
passion flowing deep from the heart, trying to find the words but not sure where to start, everyday a struggle just to get by, everyday always left asking why, you look on as i sit in this pain, going over and over running it through my brain, the words dont come even when i try, still left here asking why, now the words begin to flow, they dont seem to slow, coming faster each time, becoming easier to rhyme, another day come and gone, so listen now to the words of the song, passion flowing freely as it draws to an end, flowing these words for someone special someone more than a friendMusic takes time, no need to rush, let it come on smooth, try not to push, let the words come slow, so that way when they her it they know, say it from the heart not the head, hours grow late should be in bed, but once it starts it is hard to stop, with these words should be right up on top, right alongside all of the greats, but guess it was up to the fates, so we take what we are dealt, no matter what w
Fu Hubby App & Rb App
u must meet these requirements 1. white 2. male 3. 28-36 yrs of age 4. works 5. loves kids 6. 5-30 miles of me 7. not jealous 8. not controlling 9. not abusive 10. not afraid of commitment 11. has own vehicle 12. not judgemental 13. not married or with someone 14. drug free 15. no felonies on record 16. not childish to their partner 17. wants a real relationship not a fling 18. not too clingy 19. not a drunk 20. not a sex freak if u meet ALL these requirements give me a shout and if u dont, sorry i have my bounderies.
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Supporting Our Economy
      Christmas 2011 -- Birth of a New Tradition
Set About Me/interests (player) To Default Profile View
Change your photo albums ALL to FRIENDS ONLY (edit album... album options) Each photo showing when you view your profile has an X in the corner you can see by hovering... click the X to remove it If more photos from your Default album load, click those X's until you don't have anymore showing You can go back & open your albums to everyone after you close the page .. this will help for bombing by non-friends
U Messed Up My Life
My darling, my lover, my beautiful man Marrying you screwed up my life. I see your face when I am dreaming. That's why I always wake up screaming. Kind, intelligent, loving and hot; This describes everything you are not. I thought that I could love no other; That is, until I met your brother. I want to feel your sweet embrace; But don't take that paper bag off your face. My love, you take my breath away. What have you stepped in to smell this way? What inspired this amorous rhyme? Two parts vodka, one part lime.
Bad Girl
Sheri was late. And..a little drunk...she knew Nickolas would be angry. What could she say....she met her friends for a drink after work, a guy propositioned her, a big black man, her inhibitions down, she accepted. He led her into the mens room, and sat on the toilet. Sheri knelt between his knees, and pulled his underwear down. The smell was almost overwhelming. His cock was odiferous, she could hardly stand take it in her mouth...and the taste was bad, too. Sheri clinched the base of the cock and tried to suck it, her tongue swirled over the huge head, her mouth filled by its girth. But the SMELL! Sheri aggged a litytle bit, throwing up slightly in her own mouth. She raised up, and released her ample breasts so he could play with them. Sheri continued her work, holding her breath, and fingered his bung, blowing out the bad air, and sucking in a new mouthful. He liked it! She could feel his asshole sucking on her middle finger, and his hips rocked into her mouth. She slid
Help Knee Nah
Help her level Send bling, Blast, Bomb her, Do what ever you can to help her level   Knee nah@ fubar
Even Playboy's Getting Desperate..:(
Lindsay Lohan to go nude for Playboy  Lindsay Lohan has agreed to pose nude for Playboy magazine. Picture: Getty Images Herald Sun  < Prev 1 of 2   Next > TROUBLED actress Lindsay Lohan will pose nude for Playboy magazine, and will earn nearly $1 million for her efforts. Lohan knocked back Playboy's initial offer of $750,000 to strip, but eventually agreed to sign a deal when they came back with an offer closer to her request for $1 million, the celebrity website TMZ reported. The 25-year-old's nude photoshoot started over the weekend, sources said. Lohan's representative said they could neither confirm nor deny the report, while Playboy did not immediately respond to TMZ's request for comment. News of Lohan's Playboy deal comes just days after she was handcuffed and briefly jailed last Wednesday, when her probation was revoked for not adhering to the terms of her community service - set for stealing a $2,500 necklace from a Los Angeles b
A heartbeat, in the night. You can silence, with the light. Blood stains, wiped away. Weaker breath, each day. A broken smile, faded tears. A constant pain, agonizing fear. An angel can never fly, with broken wings. Who am I? Nothing.
Good Friend
I was coming home the other night from work. And got a phone call that would change my life from a friend of mine, who had some bad news. I, being in shock from what they just told me, proceeded to them that they was crazy. That the person they was talking about was at my house right now . So when I turn the corner to my house, his truck was not in the drive way as usual. So I got worried about it and I went in to see if he had at least come by , when I enter the house there was no sign that he had been there at all. I then walked in to the kitchen and my phone rang again it was the person that called me earlier. They confirmed that it was true. I turn around and seen a bottle of rum on the bar I took it into my hand and riped the top off of it. When I turn up the bottle before I knew it half of it was gone, by then I got back on the phone and we finished talking . Right after that, I got the off phone with them and then another friend called. She was crying and told me it was all tr
I Wanna Go Home
If you step out of your world, and into mine. You see images, you cannot define. A world full of pain, sorrow and lies. Rejection, lack of protection, betrayal and denies. The world is secure behind, a wall. You're on the other side, of it all. Left in darkness, fighting alone. I can't fight anymore. I just wanna go home.
[for K-block]
Y'know, since I got out, I've completely ignored those poor ba-   holy fuck!? Did I seriously get 2,000 more views since the last time I posted something???   those... poor bastards in Kblock. I know that every man in jail will tell you he's innocent, but the fucked up thing is, when these guys said they were I believed em. I think I told the story before, so I won't retell... But Trippy Skittles Old man   hope you kids are still alright.   Sooooo... tonight I was going to... hang out (?) with a girl I like. Pretty, fairly educated, smart, decent, agreeable, exciting, pretty... vegetarian, popular, flighty   I had a fantastic salad designed, exotic teas I had recommended, delicious junkfoods, and about 20 HORRIBLE movies picked out to watch, and she had asked to do something with me   today.   That didn't happen tonight. I feel like I could sink into my shoes.   I ... feel like I'm going to see her again, but I have no idea when the stars will align like they
Testicular Cancer Is An Issue That Will Probably Scare The S*** Out Of A Lot Of Men, And Nobody Wants To Even Think About It.
Becky Leuallen Wednesday, December 22, 2010 Basic Information Testicular cancer is an issue that will probably scare the s*** out of a lot of men, and NOBODY wants to even THINK about it. A friend sent me the rushes of a new HOT campaign that's hitting shivering Britain this Christmas. Fragmented Rainbows: December 2010 There's never a rainbow unless there's rain. And sunshine. Life's like that. rain and sunshine. Highs and lows. Bitter-sweet and sweet-sour. Varied experiences that all add up to a celebration of being alive. A look at life ... existence... art... music... fragmented rainbows !!! DO LEAVE A COMMENT... Like · Dislike · · Share · 2 minutes ago
Going Out Of My Mind
They discharged grandma after it was decided that she was going to stay in until they found a place for her in a facility. The doctor trumped everyone who was at the meeting ( he was not there) and said she was good to go home. She lasted 2 days of feeling good.... now she is back to not getting dressed, not bathing herself (sponge bath). She is not trying to do things on her won. Home care was supposed to be in place when she came home, but is just getting set up now, and not starting till maybe next week. She gets tired out from walking to the kitchen and back. She gets worried about when I go out for more then 20 minutes. There is a wait list for any facility and could take months to get her there. she will get snarky if things are not done quickly for her. She will plan my day for me and then not come with me, or complain that its all taking too long. No one is willing to help or have the knowledge to help get the stress down.... I am out of ideas
Hospital Avoid Them Like The Plague! Er Hum!
Hello friends, rather than keep repeating myself, I thought I'd try my 1st Blog. I am quite severely disabled with 2 forms of arthritis plus I have an injury from a pothole accident. my lower front pelvis is caving inwards. I cant be fixed because of crumbling spine. Right amongst other drugs I have to take I have to give myself weekly injections, to stop further bone damage. But these injections mean I have no immune system. It started with a toothache, overnight an apsis formed. The next day my right side of face swelled up, by evening was double the size, hence had to go to accident and emergency at hospital where they pumped me full of anti biotics via a drip. I was being poisened as my white blood cell count was sky high, I had got seriously ill as poison seeped through stomach lining. Sowas in hospital 2 days, I refused to stay any longer wanted to recuperate at home. So am on the mend...Thank God! Do you know I had more pricks in 5yrs than I had in those to days...flippin arms a
How I Feel Every Day.
I look in the mirror And what do I see This hideous creature Staring back at me I see all the things That I would like to change And hear in my head All the cruel things you all have said As the tears stream down my face All the mean words And hateful things That have happened to me Come rolling back to me Can’t you see you are hurting me Don’t you see how I have changed I no longer smile like I did when you first met me There’s an odd silence all around me I look away from the mirror and shut off the light Refusing to see my reflection staring back at me I hate what I see I just want it to stop I will do anything to make the changes That I see will make you like me Then the insults will stop I’ll be beautiful in your eyes again
Live Broadcast
warneveryone- Broadcast your self LIVE
 easygoingguy: WOMAN'S PRAYER: Before I lay me down to sleep, I pray for a man, who's not a creep. One who's handsome, smart and strong. One who's loves to listen long. One who thinks before he speaks. When he says he'll call, he won't wait weeks. I pray that he is gainfully employed. When I spend his cash, he won't be annoyed. Pulls... out my chair and opens my door. Massages my back and begs to do more. Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind, Knows what to answer to "How big is my behind?" I pray that this man will love me to no end, And never attempt to hit on my friend. Amen. MAN'S PRAYER: I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs who owns a liquor store and a boat. Amen
Took A Walk For A Few Days
First and formost. I'm fine and nothing is wrong. Lately I've just had wanderlust in my bones. I get an itch to go walking for a few hours and or a few days. Last week I got the itch and decided to go for a walk that lasted till last night. Call me crazy, but I can't seem to stop wanting to wander around and see stuff. When I get the itch I will just lock down my account and go if it's going to be for a few days or weeks or whatever. Sorry if I spooked you all, but I can't help it. I have no idea why at my age I'm getting this. But I am planning on seeing a doc after thanksgiving and seeing what the hell is wrong with me.
Wiccan Religion
Funny thing is Wiccan belief says about handfasting well they can't say it is Native American beliefs now because in any Native American Tribe you must Physically be together to be married in any form, so there is a reality check for you!!!
The Rules
Death of a marriage 2004  Cause- Money-refusal to work, that is a man's job......Women's job, spend the money Communication-bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch Sex-before marriage, I love and want you baby..After marriage, I have a headache or stop, it hurts   Results- divorce, distrust in women and no dating since 2004   Cure-Tell the woman, sorry honey...I am no sugar daddy and have no more money....only get invovled with a woman who is your soul mate and realize a relationship is a partnership 50/50 give and take...No one is perfect, just human and we all have our faults.   Reality-stay single, shave your head and become a monk. Reality sucks   Reality-stay single, shave your head and become a monk   Men are from Mars, women are from Venus
Thoughts Of A Broken Woman
Have u ever wanted to cut out ur ears drums to tune out the sound of ur own crying? i have. I feel more and more each day tht im slipping from ths rechid thng we so call reality. Laying broken in a pool of blood waiting to die thn frm nowhere u appear and scoop me up and if for nothing more thn a moment i am safe.Soon after the second passes.Ur gone...I suppose the true question is were u ever really here or did i, sumwere in the back of my mind, imagine u...Ths glorious figure grasping my hand reaches dwn into the cesse pool of ever drowning life to free me only to end up abondoning me anyway........     Think about tht maybe u'll gt my perspective
Yes Master, I Am Your Slut To Command!
I had been planning it for weeks. My heart was racing. My car was cutting lanes, following her. Hoping not to be seen. She takes a last-minute turn. I had to veer across two lanes to stay with her. She slows down. I stay far enough behind. She pulls into a parking lot and parks. I keep driving as I see her park. I find a on the street. I watch her get out. She looked just like her pictures. Shoulder length brown hair, nice body. Sexy legs accentuated by a short skirt and high heels. I wonder was she wearing panties tonight? Would I get a souvenir? I watch her walk into Adam & Eve. She was a bad girl. I had read all her posts. Was it me she was fantasizing about? The minutes felt like hours. Finally it had been long enough. I reach for it. The street lights reflecting off the shiny blade. I stick it in my pocket and head towards the store. I quietly sneak in the door as someone leave. The store is desolate. I hide in the corner watching her every move. I see her holdin
Bloodlust 4
The full ivory moon reflected off the water of the crystaline lake. She gazed out at the stillness of the sight. she missed how the heated touch of a man would send her body purring. Lost in thought of the fantasy, her hands wondered down to her aching mound, her fingers rubbing her clit. Lost in moans and pleasure, she did not notice the feel of strong hands remove her own and the black lace thong she was wearing and slide two thick fingers inside her wet and aching pussy. Opening her eyes she looks down with a moan of intense pleasure from her crimson lips, to see a immortal of muscle physique licking the jucies of her heated cunt. She reached up and started playing with the her pale full breasts as the male on there knees before her finger fucked her and ate her out. She heard the question smooth as silk, "do you want my cock?" she moaned the answer of "yes" in response. she watched as her fanged lover removed her skirt and top, then removed his own clothing and swiftly took her to
Moving Far Away
The Perils Of Living With A Gay
My roommate is slightly intoxicated and getting ready to go out with a friend. He comes prancing into my bed room to use my perfume in his underwear...k...then continues to ask me a series of annoying questions about how he looks and I haven't the heart to say gtfo I'm trying to chill before idea why I'm blogging this...
Hints For A Turkey
HOW TO COOK A TURKEY: First, buy the turkey and a bottle of whiskey. Pour yourself a glass of whiskey and put the turkey in the oven. Take another 2 drinks of whiskey, and set the degree at 375 ovens. Have 3 more whiskeys of drink and turn the oven on. Take 4 whisks of drinky and turk the bastey. Stick a turkey in the thermometer, and glass yourself a pour of whiskey. Bake the whiskey for 4 hours, take the oven out of the turkey, and floor the turkey up off the pick. Pour yourself another glass of turkey. Now just tet the sable, and turk the carvey! Enjoy :D
[and This Is Why I Believe In Leash Laws]
So - this dipshit moondog who has lived in my neighborhood for the last 20 years, walks his dogs about 5 times a day all around the block I shouldn't say he walks them... more that he allows them to wander ahead of him a few hundred feet so they can shit in other people's yards.   Anyway, I was taking my dog out for noonoclock pee, and this dog is halfway up my front steps, starts growling and snapping at me and my dog Now its not a huge, terrifying, vicious, evil dog its a lab mix probably under 80 lbs. But it is snapping, and growling and threatening my dog on my lawn   So I charged it. "Get the fuck away from my dog!" And not to my surprise, my dog charged too- well reinforcements showed up (the dog's cur mother) and they decide to pincer my dog and continue to growl and snap at her on her territory someone almost got kicked. A couple someones almost got bit by dogs off-leash in their own yard.   I think my dad has an old 9-iron he's not using. What happens if my
Fu Shit
Some people just take this fu shit wayyyyyyy too serious. I am on here for entertainment and nothing more. I mean what will happen will happen. BUT when people trip out cause ur now fu engaged, or wehn people get bent out of shape cause your not on as much as you once were... THAT IS RIDICULOUS! I am a real person, and I have a real life. Although I do appareciate my friends and fam on fu, there is only so much time I can spend on here. I work, school, and am a single mother to one wild 16 month old boy... I am lucky to find time to get on at all. If this is a problem for ya, DELETE ME! 
Balloons--a Thought On Friendship, From A Special Friend Of Mine...
Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. I don't want to let that happen so I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.    End of "Balloons" From Mark  2/23/2008
No One Knows
One of the worst feelings in the world is loneliness. Sitting in the dark by yourself in the wee hours of the night gently crying. Nobody knows what's going on with you. How could anybody realize what's happening? Everybody you know is resting peacefully in their bed awaiting the new day tomorrow. But for you, there's no difference in the days. They pass monotonously. And before you know it, it's all gone. Unknown
I Am A Witch
The origin of this in unknown, since it has been passed as a e-mail forward for so long. Please enjoy and post this message to not take the credit away from the anonymous writer. Thank you....      I am a witch. I do not worship Satan.   I am not interested in Satan.   Satan was invented by the Christians.   Satanism is a form of Christianity.   I am not a Christian.   I don’t go to church on Sunday.   Jesus is NOT my savior.   He was simply a holy man who lived 2,000 years ago.   I am not afraid of going to Hell because I don’t believe in Hell any more than I believe in Satan.   I believe in reincarnation; that I will come back to this world or another and live out another life.   I am not evil.   Telling people I am a “good witch” or asking me if I am a good witch implies that there are evil witches.   There are evil people in the world, and there are people who chose to work with the forces of nature in a way that harms others; thos
What Is Bdsm????
So lets talk about BDSM… What is it? What does it mean? What does it mean to you? Wikipedia defines BDSM as: BDSM is an erotic preference and a form of sexual expression involving the consensual use of restraint, intense sensory stimulation, and fantasy power role-play. The compound acronym BDSM is derived from the terms bondage and discipline (B&D or B/D), dominance and submission (D&S or D/s), and sadism and masochism (S&M or S/M). BDSM includes a wide spectrum of activities, forms of interpersonal relationships, and distinct subcultures. Activities and relationships within a BDSM context are characterized by the participants usually taking on complementary, but unequal roles, thus the idea of consent of both the partners becomes essential. Typically participants who are active – applying the activity or exercising control over others – are known as tops or dominants. Those participants who are recipients of the act
My Work Life. Part One
I think everyone has those few select co workers that get them threw the day. Well since I work with all men and a older women as my boss work gets interesting. My job is filled with butt kissers I don't suck up, I have no reason to suck up I fin it pathetic and pointless. People are mean scum, they come in with crappy attitudes and they to ruin our day...... It's like ok I get it your life sucks don't take it out on me!! I don't want to hear your life story while I'm trying to wrap your stuff. I have been scolded, hit, spit on, and I've had things thrown at me!! I'm sorry but when your 40 years old throwing stuff at 21 year old lady who looks like the bigger douche? Just a little bit of what I put up with at work lol I might come around to telling you more *shrugs* only time will tell I guess
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Dear Mom,
Dear Mom, If tears could build a stairway, and memories were a lane, I would walk right up to heaven to bring you home again. No farewell words were spoken no time to say goodbye you were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why. My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow, what it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.When you lose someone you love, you gain an angel Nothing you love is lost. Not really. Things, people – they always go away sooner or later. You can’t hold them anymore than you can hold moonlight. But if they’ve touched you, if they’re inside you, then they’re still yours. The only things you can really have are the ones you hold inside your heart.Good-bye Mom I loved so dear,( I Hear her ) I am not dead babygirl but sleeping here. I was not yours, but Christ’s alone. He loved me, He took me home.I HAVE NO MORE PAIN OR WORRY AND ONE DAY WE WILL SOON BE TOGETHER AGAIN.Somebody should tell us, right at the star
Not A Novel Yet But Potential...
My good friend and writing partner happens to be a pastor at my church. He told me a story last night that made me laugh and wonder what people are thinking. A woman, who recently started attending our church, had a meeting with our senior pastor to tell him why she couldn't attend our church anymore. "You employ too many gay people." My friend, a married heterosexual with 2 children, is one of the 'gay' people on staff. The other 2 are women who are also married and have children.None of them is aware that they're gay but I guess this woman says they are. God bless our pastor for what he said to her, "This church is open and welcome to ALL people, even bigots."
Its So Easy For You To Lie
i find it funny people find the need to lie about the stupidest things, i mean come on grow up. how can you clame to be real if all you do is lie? that in it self makes you fake!! don't bring all your hate and jealousy and lies my way, its not worth yours or my time :) mmmmkay!!?
So Should You
Who wants to be controlled? Certainly not me. It leaves you feeling, like a dog on a leash. Being lead, told how to, behave. What gives anyone the right, to treat someone this way? It's foolish, petty, cruel and mean. Be who you are, despite everything. My body doesn't define me. I define myself. It's only the exterior, inside hides the stealth. Inside every curve, lies my true identity. Who I am, what I'm about, the real beauty. Tear the exterior walls down, and tell me what you see. It's something remarkable, it's the real me. The outside is just layers, covering up the truth. I know who I really am, and so should YOU.
She Kept Her Word So Things Are Better
I Just Have To Say This, Keeps Coming Back On My Mind,
I just have to say this, keeps coming back on my mind, most men today want the woman shaved down there, but lots of times the same ones have beards and mustaches and expect the women to kiss them with them, and they don`t know what might be looming in them still after blowing there nose, or eating there last meal, and hairs can come lose while kissing, and i like beards and mustaches, but if i can kiss men with them, then i don`t know why they expect the women to shave
Moral Of The Story..
There once was a bird who was having so much fun one summer that he didn't want to fly south when the other birds were ready to go. A day came though when the weather turned cold so the bird began to fly south. As he flew, an early winter storm struck and the bird froze as he flew and fell to earth in a cow pasture. Along came a cow who took a shit on the bird, and the warmth of the shit thawed the bird out, saving his life. The bird was so happy to have survived that he threw his head back and sang. Nearby, a cat heard the bird singing and came over, dug him out of the shit, and ate him.   Moral of the story: Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy, and not everyone who digs you out of shit is your friend. And if you are warm and happy you should just keep your mouth shut :p
Sexual Stemuli
I seriously think it would be awesome to start my own religion... if i can pull this off then i will put forth all my effort into making it spread through the land...   if your in let me know... if you dont know what i am talking about...   I can make this work :)   I will keep updates on processes :)
Well surgery went went well, however everything that could go wrong did but I came through it all ok. I am now at home and have a visiting nurse coming in to pack my wound where the lymph nodes were removed. It is painful and makes it hard for me to sit upright for long periods of time. I am trying my best to get to all I can on here to return the love. Please know I appreciate all the love shown while I was away. Fubar has some of the most awesome people I have ever met and am truyl happy to call you all my friends. I am not completely out of the woods yet with all this cancer crap but I am strong and one hell of a fighter so won't be much longer :):):). Hugs, kisses and much much love to all my friends and family here at the fu! (h) :)
If Your 30 And Over You Might Think This Is Hilarious
If you are 30, or older, you might think this is hilarious!   When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning.... Uphill.... Barefoot... BOTH ways...yadda, yadda, yadda   And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on my kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it!   But now that I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it, but you kids today, you don't know how good you've got it!   1) I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have the Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!!   2) There
A Little Too Much
To lash out at someone, you are suppose to love. That isn't something you should, be proud of. Consider someone, besides yourself. Think of their pain, what they felt. When your cruel words, cut straight to the bone. Imagine you being knocked, right off your thrown. Speak from your heart, not from the anger inside. The love your covering up, you're choosing to hide. Because of rage, anger and confusion. Add their feelings to your list, before acting out your illusion. Somethings are just too powerful, to take back. Think of their reaction, before you act. Unless you're just trying, to push them away. Then by all means continue, to say. Words can't damage someone too much, right. Wrong, this is our last, fight. Words aren't words at all, but emotions brought to life. Feels like you've been stabbed in the heart, with one Hell of a knife. Not anymore, say what you must. Live with knowing, you said just a little too much.
Through Life's Mistakes
Let me tell you a story, about a little girl. Who was thrown away, walked alone in this world. She fought back, refused to give up. Regardless of what it took, it was never too much. Through years of sweat, blood and tears. She survived, faced her fears. She knew she had a purpose, she would find out what. Lay down and die, I think not. I'm not afraid to fail, but not trying isn't a choice. I'll hold my head up high, make you hear my voice. I'm one person yes, but capable of great things. Regardless of how impossible to you, it may seem. I believe in me, and that's all it takes. I'll smile, and carry on, through all life's mistakes.
Government-sanctioned Murder Of Children In The United States Of America
The United States of America stands as the only democracy in the world that supports capital punishment. In 1976, the U.S. Supreme Court affirmed the legality of the death penalty in Gregg v. Georgia. Years later, in 1989, the Supreme Court case of Stanford v. Kentucky confirmed that the Eighth Amendment of the U.S. Constitution does not grant minors over the age of fifteen immunity from receiving the death penalty. Since then, thousands of people have been executed in the United States, and an alarming number of them were juveniles at the time they committed their crime. Today, hundreds more still wait on death row.    Many believe that capital punishment exists as a fair and just punishment for murderers; they feel that without capital punishment, a victim’s life and death are held in less regard. Others believe the death penalty serves as a deterrent to murder and also as a means to give closure to victim’s families. Some almost inhumanely consider the costs of lifelon
*smiles Sadly*
I used to think I had innocence left somewhere inside........ Now I just pretend I do.
I wear a size 8 shoe.  :D
Praying Im Not Alone For Christmas
its december im waiting on and see my family its been so long .. its getting colder and colder and this aussie girl is so homesick she could cry over and over.. the passport took so damn long to get .. my brothers , sisters , Aunts ,Uncles and cousins are all there waiting for me.. and here i am . trying to wait patiently .. but its getting harder and harder.. to wait i just want to be in their arms hugging them telling them so many travel stories i can't shut up for hours and hours .. this homesick girls heart bleeds from missing them for so long.. i can't wait to be meet my neices and nephews .. and my lovwly sister in law.. i miss having a family so bad... i miss my dad too .. eve though its not always easy hes always in my heart .. i hope i get home to say merry christmas to seem all . or ill know i'll cry so many tears and when everyone else is happy.. ill be all alone .. well not quite all alone i could see my ex .. force my myself to be nice. but it wouldnt be the same..
Sweet Rejection....
He sits there waiting, fingers dancing. Waiting for, a lunch engagement. It's half-passed one, and still no sign. Oh what torture, how sublime. Be a savior keep another in mind. See you later, oh so very unkind. Persercution, we wear a face of a clown. Sweet rejection brings you tumbling down....   The evening 's over, there's no-one here. The wooden cross, of life to bear. Shaky future, this life is tough. I've got to say, OK enough. Oh so peacefull, think how nice it could be. But as always, one and one will make three. Keep your chin up, don't be wearing a frown. Sweet rejection, brings you tumbling down.  
Yet Wow Yep, Another One , Like I Care? Lol1:42am Reply Texasredneck: Jackin Off On Cam
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You're Done Son.
Hmmm I think I might go inactive for a while. I've met some super amazing people here but I think I'm over it. The really super amazing people know how to get ahold of me through other means anyway. Don't miss me too much lmao :3
Plans Of Action.
Is anyone interested in attempting some Fubar Activism, Lets create a group of individuals committed to "pimping" out images and status that have nothing to do with rates, points, NSFW, and Bling. Everyone complains about how this site is going to shit, when we can collectively do things to change it. People over profit, real human friendships over Bling. Is the trashy, shibrained, lost mentality really the most dominant force on Fubar? Seems that way, but I know a lot of good people on here and collectively we can change things. The "douchebag" folders are great and there should be more of them. Call people out on what they say or do, the internet is no excuse to act like an idiot.  
Lucky Man....
He had white HorsesAnd ladies by the scoreAll dressed in satinAnd waiting by the doorOoooh, what a lucky man he wasOoooh, what a lucky man he wasWhite lace and feathersThey made up his bedA gold covered mattressOn which he was laidOoooh, what a lucky man he wasOoooh, what a lucky man he wasHe went to fight warsFor his country and his kingOf his honor and his gloryThe people would singOoooh, what a lucky man he wasOoooh, what a lucky man he wasA bullet had found himHis blood ran as he criedNo money could save himSo he laid down and he diedOoooh, what a lucky man he wasOoooh, what a lucky man he was
Beginning December, Foodie Style
SO, I'm at it again :D
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