I think of you every day and every single night, Aaron. It's worse at night. The short time we had are jam packed with memories that will NEVER leave me. You impacted my life in ways you will never know. Are you at peace now? It's going on three months since you passed away and yet it feels like yesterday. The pain is still potent and my tears are still flowing. Our time was so magical and special, I know I will never have that again. I can still hear your voice, I can still see your smile...your laugh, your pain, your stories. We shared so much so quickly...my spark in the dark is what I call you. God sent you to me for the little bit of time you had left on this planet and I thank him every single day.
But when does the pain stop? Does it ever? Will it ever? Sometimes I feel you when I stay the night at your old house with Monica. Especially at night when I'm trying to sleep downstairs on the couch next to the spot on the floor where you died. I stare at that spot for hours, listening to the songs we listened to together on my ipod. Can you hear me crying? Can you hear me when I talk to you? Can you feel how much I miss you?
When does it stop?
It will never stop.
"When the summer rolls around
And the sun starts sinking down
I still remember you
Oh, I remember you
And I wonder where you are
... Are you looking at those same stars again?
Do you remember when?
We woke under a blanket
All tangled up in skin
Not knowing in that moment
We'd never speak again
But it was perfect;
I never will forget
When we owned the night
Yes we owned the night."
- Lady Antebellum "We Owned The Night"
