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"A change can do you good"
If you know anything about me then this blog will make sense to you, especially if you read the one I have listed on my profile. But my family sees it and I want a place to share more honestly. I guess I trust this because few of you will bother to read my babble.
Anyway, I just moved to North Carolina from Ohio. It's been a plan of mine for some time now and with recent events back home I felt I could no longer survive there. My mom is abusing painkillers and for a while relied on me to get them. I didn't tell her I was getting them from my old friend who used to get me dope so the opportunity was always there. I resisted for the longest time, he was considerate to the fact that I was getting clean but one night I can't even recall the date of now he offered me some for free. I took it. I was feeling so lonely at home living with my grandparents stuck in time waiting for my move and waiting for a change in my luck. Maybe I was doing the wrongs at home and could have stayed but my cravings were incredibly difficult to control when I was so familiar with the area.
Down here in NC now and have been clean since that day. By clean I mean I am taking my medicine as prescribed and continuing to smoke weed (a plant, damn it) as usual. I feel better, I feel less confused about things and more optimistic. I got a flat on the way down and have to get my tire firxed so I still have a feeling of being stuck but that'll all be fixed tomorrow.
Wow it feels really great to say all this. Thanks for listening little white box.
