NTZ's blog: "A Return Of Thought"

It seems I went through life unnoticed.  Not till I say i have a girlfriend even worse feeling is the look they give when i say she has white skin. Then the looks once I tell them she's near michigan.  Wait minnesota because she cheers for the vikings. Anyway, im doing wrong in my love life because i'm not fucking anyone near.  I must ask, who the fuck is here?  No one even smiled my way like i was carrying a disease, a virus that will spread when i sneeze or i'll bleed death on all every breath that I breathe. Why not date women here? Bitch please.  Why women here dont date me? That's the question.  I'm nothing special.  I dont have anything that stands out to get your attention.  I just exist.  Just live.  Do my thing.  Walk my way.  Don't say much unless there is something worth to say.  So you tell me, where are the women who looks at me and want to play? Where they at? Where they at?  Not on top of my dick, so where there at? What's wrong with the love i have?  Yeah two years and never got one touch and this be the fifth chick that allowed me to get close. From the states its the forth but hopefully be the third i fucked, and our love continues where having it all is never enough.  The chicks that express this shock and awe would never give me the time of day, so fuck every word they say.  That's what i'm feeling when they act like the seriously interested in my boring life.  Bullshit, yeah right.  Then the guys be like just fuck anything near until my girl gets here or i get there.  Yeah fuck any chick, any bitch.  Take a fat chick because she'll be the one to deep throat your meat stick.  I just much not have that it, whatever it is.  I dont have it.  If you got it, can you spare me some.  Kind of feeling like i'm dumb. Numb bum young full of life and cum.  Yet all my life i smile and no one ever come, i mean came to my side. So i take offense to the thought maybe i'm in the wrong fucking relationship.