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I Am The One And Only Freedom Og
SO i guess i pissed some one off enough for them to want to bring my name into the dirt well im glad i got under ur skin who ever you are!! yes i play this game hard and im damn good at it but im honest and i dont scam any one  and people know this so who ever it is that decided to set up a fake account under the name freedomog and rip people off  good try but i am the one and only freedom og and the pretender im guessing is just mad they cant beat me .good show mr fake ass freedom of good show loser lol make a fake account and rip people off its ur karma and the fact remains u still cant beat me  (for any one that is wondering what im talking about check out my photo album "fake freedom og fuck you 
Missing You
Missing You by Kenneth Matlock on Wednesday, June 6, 2012 at 5:55am · Here I am awake again when I should be sleeping Along though in my mind my memories are weeping I shake them free to float above the melacholy smoke Then when all of it is over I tell myself a little joke Something just to giggle and rub my nose against my skin It's at this solemn moment I wonder where it is you've been Do you miss the feeling of you gliding ever so softly along all of me When your skin tightens with bumps there's no place I'd rather be The sensation of your fingertips tickling along my thigh Those minutes when I could breathe that contented sigh Hearing sounds of animals crawling in the tiny, giant speck While I kiss a trail down your spine and up around you neck Curling up you toes and kissing on your cheek Those moments I'll always love of you looking meek Silently I lay down again thinking upon my bough Wondering if you're wondering what i'm wondering now.
So My Dad came over and he was telling me about what happened to him, He said my grandma came and had to wake him up out of his sleep, cause he was screaming and crying..~ I said what the hell was u dreaming about and he dident wana tell me at first but I made him.. And he said Well you and your brother were both younger like ages 2-4.. And My dad was pushing me on a lil 3 wheeled bike.  And next thing he knew he pushed me over a bridge! He said he heard me hit the ground and I  made a lil grunting sound after I hit. He then jumped himself.. He said he woke up befor he hit the ground..  This made me wana cry.. But I know a dream is just a dream.. But this still upset me.. What are your thoughts? Plz nothing rude. U dont need to be a TWAT!
Stand In The Dark
I stand in the dark alone thinking sinfully thoughts of you chained of lust of your Dead in the night  I stand in the dark alone I will be alone thinking sinfully thoughts of you comforter of my feelings of love for you Your like a Vampire turns me dead in the night  I replay my thoughts over over in my mind I stand in the dark alone thinking sinfully thoughts of you Who the fuck are you Who the fuck are you Your like Vampire turns me dead in the night.   bY Christine
Blings And Such
Okay so lately I'm changing my views on a few things Fubar oriented. Trial and error and hurtful experiences have made me rethink many, what do you think about this friends: Fubarians should have the option...and take blings away from members who block them...unfriend them...or my opinion, even though bling is a gift and I LOVE is a  priveledge and honor to receive them from loving friends...we should then be allowed to bestow said blings on more deserving friends...regift them so to speak lol...what a waste of money it is to gift people who decide you aren't good enough to be his or her friend anymore...or one who decides that fubar is no longer his cup of tea...I love surprising my friends...but it's a terrible waste to me...maybe I'll just stop buying bling
We all know how Cinderella wanted to go to the ball but her wicked stepmother wouldn't let her and then the fairy godmother pops up and gives Cinderella some good news: The fairy godmother tells Cinderella that she will provide for her everything she needs to go to the ball, but only on 2 conditions. Cinderella asks what she needs to do and the fairy godmother replies, "First, you must wear a diaphragm." Cinderella's mouth drops open and says, "You must be crazy! I'm on the pill, and I don't need to wear a diaphragm." The fairy godmother reminds Cinderella about all the handsome princes that will be attending the ball that night, and Cinderella agrees to wear a diaphragm. "Well, what's the second condition?" Cinderella asked. The fairy godmother replies, "You must be back home by 2:00 AM. Well, Cinderella explains that if she's gonna go party with the princes, she wants to be out all night long. The fairy godmother tells Cinderella that if she's not home by 2AM, then her diaphragm will
Who Wants Some Bling ???
Here She Goes Again
So, I'm back. I don't know why exactly. I needed some place to go. I was here when the site first started. I can't even remember what the name was. Then it became Cherry Tap. Then I thought it was something else before it became Fubar. I had so many social sites to keep up with. In time I deleted my account. Erin Rose is not my real name. It is my pen name. I am real. She is still me and I her. Life changed andvErin needs to be front and center. That's all for now. More when I am on laptop & not iPad.m
Player King.
Somewhere there's a mess.A mashup of not to be trusted, and runty cum stains.Tail flagged. Prostrate, and provacative to disgust.Have a turn. Every last one of you.Just shut the fuck up about it while men are working.I don't remember where I wasor how long I had been there,but the moment had a smell tied to ithot sweat and warm urine.I'd be the man I wanted to be.Getting cut, ignored, placated, humored.Patronized.Still the scariest stranger in the room.Lighthearted smile.Can-do attitude.All the while counting the footsteps.Noting the gap between chin and throat.Some...less than others.I always knew.I did exactly what you wanted me to.Now you're just moving the pieces after I resigned.That was the only way to win.Just stop playing.You fault me for being an artificialunfeelingmeasuredlover.poet.murder in the making.But how does it feel to be something you deny?When I look in the mirror, I see an angry man with rusty nails plowing through his stomach.I see dark. Purple shadows of hauntin
Anyone On Fb Want To Lend A Hand?   My buddy could use a little publicity for his projects. Thanks! 
Trying To Figure Out Why The Hitlist Bountys Are Off
The bounty on the hit list is higher than what you really get.  here is one to show you what im talking about. just KILLED Daddy's F*ck Toy and collected a bounty of $97,513,798,608, with $1,000,000 going to turf tax ok so you would think you could figure out the amount you got.     97,513,798,608-1,000,000= 97,512,798,608  that is WRONG here is what you really get  Your enemy is dead! You have collected a bounty of $92,638,108,678  so the math looks like this  97,513,798,608-4,875,689,930=92,638,108,678 SO YOU ARE HAVING MORE THAN 1MIL TAKEN FROM YOUR BOUNTY!!!!!!!!!!!
Stupid Encounters # 96
  randy69: hiya would you like to be my rl gf 2:08am iC51NerdyB...: what if Im a penis 2:08am randy69: i'm looking for a rl gf 2:09am iC51NerdyB...: i know but what if I had a penis would you be with me 2:09am randy69: i dunno 2:10am randy69: are you lookin for a bf 2:12am iC51NerdyB...: I don't have a penis but... If I did you woulden't know that bacause we have never talked we know nothing about each other to even go there yet. I personally would have to get to know some one for awhile to actually be considered a girl friend boy friend 2:14am randy69: i haved tried to get to know someone in the past but all they want is to just be friends 2:14am iC51NerdyB...: Thats how it starts. 2:15am randy69: again i have done that before i want more then a friend 2:16am iC51NerdyB...: Sometimes it takes being someones friend for a long time before they can feel safe and allow themselves to da
So I was thinking...maybe I should make a wishlist of things I'd like to get here for my birthday, not that I'm really thinking I'd get it. It's just very wishful thinking. A polisher A bomb Autos Rockstar Non-ability bling Pimped out a lot Blast Ummm....and lots of comments :)   See, no fuPony, Happy Hours, or God   I'd probably have a heart attack if I got any/all of that stuff.   Love you guys!!!!
as i sit herein the darkness all i can thinkis about you how could god take you from me how dare he take the one thing that meant everything to me how am i suppose to go on how am i suppose to breathe how am i suppose to live without you? you were my everything i lived FOR youi was suppose to protect you i was suppose to make you have a better life i was going to make your life more important than mine now how am isuppose to live without you? you were my everything how can i go on? how can i breathe how can i love? how can i be without you? what am i suppose to do?
Page 6...birthday Girl....
Here's a Happy Birthday toooooooooo... KATNISS X BIRTHDAY BISH X MB4L X@ fubar ...ripe old age of 23. Go tell her she's an old hag. lol.
News Alert....this Is Purely Personal
Ifin you can't handle this side of me just fucking block blog posts. Especially mine!!! I blocked the last two souls that tried to insult me and I am not too scared to do it again. Now to get down to the important shit.... Every try an count sheep to go to sleep?? I have and it just doesn't work for me. I start at 1000 and count backward. Course lately no counting as been needed. Like twice a day I get tired and just drop off to sleep. Sometimes it feels good. I got some medication from a doctor and it knocks me right out. I don't take it all the time. He just said it would make me drowzy. Course I remember what my mom told me.... everybody's body acts different to medications. I don't know whether or not she would remember saying that now though. She once upon a time was a nurse but she is 62 now and has forgotten alot. I love her sometimes and other times don't want to admit I know her. I don't even know if my kids will think of their mother like I think of mine. I hope so. I t
My Week... Horrible.
So as I sit here still chain smoking, I will fill most of you in on what has happened this week. As a lot of you know I was going for mega rates and trying to get top 10 weekly to get my name red. Well, it started last thursday, when I went swimming for the first time since back surgery. Hurt myself and wrote it off till Sat morning, when I finally went into the e.r. cause I couldnt walk. Even the ambulance had to come get me I was in that much pain with a fever... Last time that happened it led to a blood infection and I almost died... So, My wonferful boyfriend made my son some french toast as I was hauled away, and after they were going to come up there and see me before he had to work. While waiting for the bus, I called to remind Caleb, my man, to bring my shoes and bra, cause I was taken in without them. My son ran to the house (cause hes faster) to get those things. WELL.. the little boy downstairs from us started calling him insanly rude and vulgar names, so my son runs down
Love Me
 Love me in the dark Love me in the rain  Love me under the moonlight Love me under the ray of sun light Love me with all your mgiht   For your love shall not hurt nor surrender  Wrap your arms around me le me feel thy arms to shealter me from the pain life conflicts on my heart Kiss me softly & sweetly Let me taste & feel thy love of unspoken words   Battered, sheltered, shattered abused, used I have been all my life Just love
ApathyChildren are dying. Mothers are crying. Homeless wander the streets. Families split apart never again to meet. The sick are moaning. The jobless are groaning. Still you sitIn front of your  TV Not wanting to help Just thinking “Thank God, it’s not me.”   Another teenaged girl finds she soon will be a mother Another fight breaks out, brother versus brother. A little girl begs for food and a way out of her hell While her mother lies strung out in a dirty, cheap motel. Another patient finds he soon will die of AIDS. Racism and hate crimes still make many so afraid. Still you sit In front of your  TV Not wanting to help Just saying “Thank God, it’s not me.” The air is so bad; you don’t want to take a breath. The truth in life lies only in the truth of death. Another baby’s aborted an inhuman sacrifice While in research labs, they’re using more than mice. We sell our souls cheap, for another laugh, another
[my Mature And Measured Response]
"MOTHER FUCK!!!" *kicks refrigerator* (and then I ate lunch and went to work).Flash forward about 12 hours:So, my own health insurance (at the insistance of a former employer) wants to sue me for a couple grand.I'm already in the hole with no assets.But heylet's just bleed pebbles if we're too lazy to squeeze stones.Static's on... I like this song.Let's reviewA drunk driver four times over the legal BAL runs a stop sign going approximately 50 miles per hour and T-bones me as I'm minding my own business one sunday afternoon in pursuit of the world's best pizza."No fault accident" drunk uninsured no legal license driver is 100% responsible/to blame.I spin.I get pretty cut up and hurt.I go to the emergency room.They take my wallet, my ID, and my insurance card.And they do their thing.I can't move my legs.I'm covered in my own blood.And glass.Choking on inflamationand glass.They put frankenstein stitches in my handsome forehead.I had to request stronger medication because I was a nauseas a
Blue Eyes
kantgetgno11 hrsNice pics, Pretty blue eyes! Just rated,liked, fanned and I'm sending a drink. Need to be rated, fanned and a drink to get to the next level. Anything you could do would be appreciated. and the pic is me without a shirt, nothing showing they just made it NSFW. Drinks on it's way. 84y       Lulz..who knew! I have blue eyes! *runs to see topless pic*
1. What time did you get up this morning?  730.  2. How do you like your steak?  Medium Rare 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?  Fuck I don't remember. 4. What is your favorite TV show? Pawn Stars, Hardcore Pawn, Storage Wars. 5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? I'm good right here. 6. What did you have for breakfast? I don't eat breakfast. 7. What is your favorite cuisine? Chinese food. 8. What foods do you dislike? Hm.. Garlicy shit. Onions, etc. 9. Favorite Place to Eat? Super Buffet. 10. Favorite dressing? None. 11.What kind of vehicle do you drive? None yet. 12. What are your favorite clothes?  Eh. 13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?  Ireland 14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?  Half full, most of the time. 15. Where would you want to retire?  Hm.. Some p
Identity Theft
In 1976/77 my family moved to a new town. And like any 11 year old, I made new friends.  If I had only known then what I know now.. One of my new friends became a household fixture, actually living with us off and on, due to problems with his own family..  For a few years, things were good, but that changed  when  Danny started getting into trouble.                 It started small.  Breaking into cars, vandalism etc. When we were about 15, Danny broke in to the house across the street and stole several guns and other things.  He got caught and due to previous issues, he was sent to the Glen Lake reformatory.  After this period, Danny decided to join the Army, and that lasted all of a few months, and he was discharged.                  After I graduated high school in 1983, and moved out of the house, my contact with Danny increased and he became more violent and troubled.  After a physical altercation between he and I. we lost contact.  Until the first incident.  In 1985 I happened
Aim And Fire
Another Dig   I am six feet below Smelling the earth between these college ruled lines Tethered to the warriors of word Holding sugar laced breath while you read my obituary Awaiting the procession The Moon glows bright filtering into the cracks of my tomb No poetic death here Love and decay remains in the artist With brittle quills I scratch against the lid Body blooming and shaking at the Guests here at my wake They must have fúcking loved me I slide my fingers over the pointy nails That seal me inside.. They must have
Dedicated To Every Father Out There(father Poems)
I just want you to knowyou mean the world to meOnly a heart as dear as yourswould give so unselfishly.The many things you've done,all the times that you were there,Helps me know deep down insidehow much you really care.Even though I might not say it,I appreciate all you doSo richly blessed is how I feelfor having a father just like you.     Only a dad with a tired face,Coming home from the daily race,Bringing little of gold or fameTo show how well he has played the game;But glad in his heart that his own rejoiceTo see him come and to hear his voice.Only a dad with a brood of four,One of ten million men or morePlodding along in the daily strife,Bearing the whips and the scorns of life,With never a whimper of pain or hate,For the sake of those who at home await.Only a dad, neither rich nor proud,Merely one of the surging crowd,Toiling, striving from day to day,Facing whatever may come his way,Silent whenever the harsh condemn,And bearing it all for the love of them.Only a dad but he g
You never said your leaving, you never said good bye, you were gone before I knew it, and only the Gods knew why. A million times I needed you, a million times I cried, If love alone could of saved you, then you never would of died. In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still, in my heart you hold a place, that no one could ever fill. It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone, for a part of me went with you,
Getting Back Into This
I have been a bad friend to you all. I rarely log on and I rarely have time to rate or like people. With my recent relationship status I am hoping all this will change. No I am not looking for another relationship and I and great where I am. I am just wanting meet new friends and get to know old ones. More on this laster but for now I just wanna say sorry for being such a bad friend.
broken promises and shattered dreams wishing things weren't as they seem put on a fake smile and try to make yourself believe when you say tomorrow will be a better day Lying to yourself is such a shame but what else can you do in order to survive this game you sit back and think of the past few years while fighting back all of the tears with her on your mind, each day and night it's really hard to want to stay here and fight but you stay and fight for her even tho days sometimes pass like a blur she wouldn't want you to hurt this way she would even tell you that everything will be ok life is so hard now without you my darling jessie but you know this, cuz you are looking down from heaven on me.....
Frustrated Rant
Sometimes, I feel like I'll be better off single! But I guess a lot of people would think something like that from time to time. I'm a woman who knows what she wants in a man. It's ironic how I end up with exactly what  I didn't want in one. Now, I'm so far deep in this hole, I can't climb out of it. He's a good guy with habits I hate. Makes me want to just end it all and start over, but starting over is just so horrible. It takes years to learn a person and to fully understand them and love them. Of course, I say a lot of bs when I'm angry, upset, or hurt, but sometimes I wish he would understand me more! Have consideration for my thoughts and my feelings and hell, maybe even my happiness? I dunno. Maybe giving up on love altogether would be the best thing to do. That's how I feel sometimes. I suppose that would be another reason why I enjoy escaping my mundane life. Here's a toast to LIFE and GOOD FORTUNE.   -Lady C
Would You?
Lying under these stars tonight I think of what to do So many worries n’ concerns, that have nothing to do with youI know how great we’d be; I see it in your eyesI want to let everything go, and let these fears go byTerrified to let you in, But I’m wanting you more and moreWaiting for the moment, when I’ll know you to the coreIf I was lost in a world, with nothing and no where to go,Would you come find me, and never let me go?Would you swim an ocean, and then swim beyond the seas? Block the air when I’m cold, and Kiss me passionatelyWould you search all night long, for the right thing to say?Would you keep me always, if I asked you to stay?Would you say you're sorry, without ever making a sigh?Would you take me to the moon? Exceeding past the skywould you love me if I were gruesome, Or maybe I already am?Would you stand by me if I were weak? Would you take me by the hand?Would you help me through decisions, if a crossroad came our way?Swoop down and carry
People Who Think The World Revolves Around Them Out Here...
Okay...I've just about had it with the women who think the fuworld revolves around them...get a one gives a rats ass who you're screwing, who you think is in love with you lol...always accusing the rest of us of "hating" on you (because you have a bf out here and you think the rest of us want him lol)...maybe it's actually you who are the "haters"....insecure and jealous...face it...your men are gonna look at the rest of the women out here...if you can't handle that, kindly leave fubar and let the rest of us have fun in peace...   Oh and maybe...just maybe...we 'hate" you because ur ignorant, nasty c*nts who think everyone is in love with you...who step all over other people and start shit out here...and your conceit and condescendence isn't scoring any points with alot of the men here either lol...and if you only knew how most of them talk about you behind your back're not the celebrities you think you are...   Walk away from your computers and step outside
Random Poetry
They say the eyes are the windows to your soul. A soul sold for second chances. A soul lost and reprimanded. They say the eyes are the windows to your soul. So be careful before the real you is revealed. The secrets you've had sealed, become fair game. All your sins and your shame, The hearts you broke and games you played. They say the eyes are the windows to your soul. Thats way your eyes seem so bold.
Creating A Family
Hello Fubarians! I'm going to be creating a family soon and i'm lookingfor members to join me!Family Members core roles:(1) Help other family members level(2) Be there for one another(3) Loyalty.If you think this is for you, Shoutbox me please? 
What's it like... not to cry, quietly..  in the dark..  in the night..   They're awake again.. They need to STFU now!   I scream ..... no one hears beyond the din of me   I crave the feeling of cold steel Tightening against my skin... My chains..    Into the earth Dark Cold Suffocation Intoxicating I need you Bury me   Whats it like... *she whispers gently*   It's breathing beauty It's not like this This is hell *I answer softly*   And it's all mine! I'm safe  I can die here I know this...   Leaving home BURNS It's okay here isn't it? It's cold..  Lonely sometimes.. We have our memories for company  ......
I Feel Your Pain
Heavy thoughts, effecting my sleep. Seeing the words the pain, my heart weeps. Not knowing, going forward, while really falling back. It's just too much, can't keep it on track. Feeling the sadness, through these eyes that refuse to close. Hearing the voices, the cries of those, no one knows. About, it goes on undetected. Something so tragic, never suspected. But I feel the pain, I was once there. I found myself there again, just unaware. Of my surroundings, I thought I was safe. But safety was the last thing, coming from this place. A place so dark and evil, I wouldn't dare return. But yet I have, I feel the burn. In my head, in my heart, for all unknown. For all that is hidden, for all that was shown. My heart bleeds for you, and my hand goes out. You have someone to pick you up, do not doubt. Me, I will be your voice. For those who simply, have no choice.
Remain Silent
Better remain silent, better not even think, if you are not prepared to act." -Annie Besant
The Lizard King...
All hail the Lizard Kinghe who could do anythingpenetrate the eveningon a moonlit nightlet's swim to the moonride with the tidetoo fast he livedtoo soon he died Michael H. BodorCopyright © 2006
Was sitting around on Sunday morning drinking hot tea( they say its better for you then coffee, yeah ok give it some taste then!) and watching 3 stooges on TV and yes I did say the 3 stooges!when I noticed that women from that era wore padded bras… oh! Wait, here let me introduce myself “ my name is RIC” and “I DO LOOK” bowing my head in shame…when no lie, the next commercial, that came on was a Playtex bra, that just topped the cake, and sent me thinking about the name “ Wonder Bra” hmmm, I know typical man here!Well I think I know why they called it the wonder bra, yep it’s when you take it off in front of us… its leaves us standing there wondering? “where the hell did they go” “I know they were there a minute ago” “call 911“, we got a theft to report !!!”( now that was suppose to be in my best “duh” voice, ok)See ladies you think it’s a treasure that helps you o
Nsfw I Hope There`s Not A T.v. On Your Job Because You Can See More On There Now Then You Can On The Main Pics Here !
well i`ll be i was just looking at General Hospital "" and there`s hot built guy in a towel dancing around """ that`s much more then can be- 31 minutes ago · Comment · Unlike · View You like this. Becky Leuallen 30 minutes ago on any dam still pic on here " ! and kids of all ages are out of school """ ! Becky Leuallen 5 minutes ago there was just a woman in one to.
Cherry Inferno Achievement
I have had a lot of people asking me lately on how to get the Cherry Inferno achievement. So here are some tips that I think will help. Have a high speed internet connection. Close the shoutbox and notifications box Close any unessassary webpages. (reduces clutter and keeps fubar connection fast) Try doing it during a time of day when there is less activity on fubar. If fubar's servers are experiencing a high demand it could cause pages to load slower. Have a page open dedicated to the people you want to bomb. (ex. Family page, freinds page, activated bling page, etc.) From the dedicated page open 4 or 5 new tabs of the albums you want to bomb via each profiles tooltip view. (in the tooltip view right click on the photos link and select open in new tab) After bombing an album close the tab immediately and move on. You can open a new album immediatly from the dedicated page or wait till all the selcted albums are bombed then open new ones. Its your choice. You don't always hav
Not The Best Weekend
I went to see friends this weekend.  The family of a guy I flew with and who died while flying beside me awhile back.  We usually try and go and see them around Father's Day.  We delayed the trip because of a family conflict for them.   We left for California and made good time there, rolling into the bay area ealry enough to drive a bit before going to their house.  THought we might go and find something for the girls and their mom.  Good intentions.... We drove to an area around the San Jose area, and before we could exit, we were slammed from behind by someone trying to squeeze in between me and another car in the lane next to me......we spun, they said about 4 times before rolling once and slamming into a tree....fortunately toward the back of the vehicle....Mariah wasn't hurt hardly at all, but i got bruised up pretty bad and my right knee dislocated and my anklegot it pretty good too....nothing broken though.  We were very fortunate.  I was taken to the hospital and while there
My phone starts beeping and I open the message. "What're you doing?" Such a difficult question.. I'm sitting in the car cause I wanna be alone, staring at the water run down the window, listening to the rain splash against the ground, and wondering if anyone wants me around. Smoking my cancer and thinking of the past, realizing my life's flying by too fast. I'm hoping for a time I can smile all day and dreaming of a night I can look back and say, "I'm happy with my life, I can put the knife away. I'm proud of what I've done, how far I've come, and who I am today. I smile cause I want to, cause it's real. It's the only way to express how I feel." When I can close my eyes and sleep through the night and not have all this shit on my mind. "Relaxing.. You?"
Goodbye To My Dog, Polarbear Jake.
  As written by my son Andrew...Jake was his constant companion ‎'Polar Bear' Jake (7 Dec 1998 - 24 Jun 2012)Rest in peace, Jake. You were and always will be my best friend. I've never had a better companion. You weren't just any dog, you were something special. I always thought you were so full of life and energy and that your dog body just couldn't hold it all in. You always had a place in my heart and you always knew when to give me your paw or lean on me.... You always used to walk me to my room before bed, and wait until I was lying in bed before going back to your own sleeping place. You used to run with me and go way ahead, but you would look over your shoulder as if to say, 'I could beat you but I'm going to wait'. That's just the kind of dog you were, the best kind.I'm really sorry I couldn't be there for you to say goodbye and give you a hug when you died. I miss you and love you so much. Goodbye bud :'(
To My Beautiful Wynd
Yesterday was wonderful. It seems everyday is wonderful now. The sun is bright, the sky is clear and blue and my life is filled with joy. Each time i talk to you my heart fills with light. It expands and becomes a home for the two of us where we sit side by side. As much as our words our hearts are in tune and sings the song of wonder and togetherness. Communicating with instantaneous understanding. A oneness of our spirits that are no longer separated. The love I have for you exists on so many levels. The pure lust for your body and your mind. Capturing your essence and owning if for myself. The mutual devotion of heart and soul and desire. The higher spiritual plain we attain when we are together is the place I have been striving for all my life. I knew it was there but I certainly did not know it was you. I've tried filling that hole with every wrong thing, person, place, drug and lunacy imaginable. But you have changed that. You've entered not only my life but my et
Just Listen
There is a story that I need to tell One of love, and of pain and of fear But first I'm not what I lead you to see I've been hiding from you what's dying me I have known love like no one will ever know I have seen eye's look at me like nothing I have ever felt before I have touched and been touched in a way that cannot be explained Nothing or no one can ever take it's place   I just want to save her   A monster came into our lives, destroying a love so amazing A family now broken apart, but a life that is still worth saving A love so pure that only I have been blessed to share Now lost and replaced with dying's despair It kills me to know how she's crying at night Hurts even worst to know that I'm right I'm not here to hurt and keep them from you But only doing the things that I know I must do   I just want to save her   In their eyes everyday I live to see The pain of loss in their faces of what came to be And I can't help but think that somehow I failed To do
Just A Quick Thought Or 2
Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that.   The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost.   Guard your heart above all else, for it will determines the course of your life- proverbs 4 23   I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.   When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me."
Bringer of light Eclipses everything else Awe and Amazement Utterly devine Truthful and precious Idealisic  Full of Sunshine  Ultimate and Pure of soul and heart Loving until the end of everything
My Poetry
I sit upon a bed of pillows, underneath the weeping willows, I stare into the starlit sky, Where clouds cascade the moon up high, I think of things that matter most to me, As the lids upon my eyes begin to grow heavy, I close my eyes and slowly drift to sleep, As I lay in my somber slumber I begin to weep, When I begin to dream of things yet to come, I see birds soaring through the sky, They have no cares or reasons why, Within my dreams there is a place, Where we can be free in wide open space, I see a hill that blocks my view, From all life's dreams that I pursue, I begin to climb over the hill, To recapture this feeling, with all my will, All of a sudden I fall to my life's end, Where my dreams begin again. Written By: Leah
Challenge of love is beautiful as the stars fall from the sky for you \                   loves hurts love goes love stays Challenge of love is beautiful   bY Christine                          
How Does It Feel?
You’re no more than a curve inside my glimpseyou won’t see me, touch me, nor peer into my eyesas green as the fury of a cat's vengeanceI’ve sealed my mind against your gypsy smile As I lean against the silence of my own wishes, I can hear your voice leaning against timeit lulls me back to yesterday; the clock spoke In warnings; tick tock, tick tock, tick tock   Slumbering words of what could have been No longer awaken me to your presence Gently my feet are kissed by the foamy waters As I stand on the edge of tomorrow’s shore   Now, you write of winters with chestnut memories As you sit forsaken in your bed of reality Cover yourself with your journal of falsities because I’ve thrown away your last goodbye  
An Oder Poem
"WHAT MEANS THE MOST TO YOU?" There are things that noone can ever seem to find an answer to in this life.One being the loss of a friend or loved one without ever having the chance of saying goodbye to them none. We are taught from a most very young age that all of us are destined to have a true and honest love here in our existence.Always being told to just not go looking for it, because it shall find us. This is not always the case in our lives. Sometimes we are lucky enough to find it, but seem to never be able to hold on to it tightly.For this i know but all to well for i lost mine to suicide. People say we must respect others, but yet we must also have respect for ourselves in life.If we do not, how is everyone else going to have it for us here in life as we go through our journeys? I know i am not the most wisest or smartest man here on this planet we live upon, but i do know i can only live life through the morals and standards i was given and set at such a young age. Gues
Comment Approval, Should I Set It?
Option A, Hell No Option B, Why not?
Sexual Virgin Girl - My First Time.. By Myself
I'd had a stressful day at high school. Teachers were driving me crazy and I needed to relax. I was lying in bed and watching a movie. All of a sudden two girls started making out on screen and I realized that it started turning me on. I moved my hand down over my chest and noticed my nipples were fully erect so I started pulling on them. Gently at first then I started to get rougher and rougher it really started to feel good. So good. I slid my hands down past my stomach and went to rub my freshly shaved puss. It was so sticky and wet. I liked it. I had no idea what to do so I rang my experienced friend whom had mentioned time a plenty that she'd help me out if I ever wanted. We agreed that she'd come round in ten minutes but I couldn't wait that long. I started rubbing my lips making sure everything was soaking wet. My finger slipped into my pussy and I started moving it in and out I curved it so that it started hitting something that made me quiver. Time flew by and be
Stupid Encounters # 97
  10:04pm AV8RBASSPL...: Hello ma'am! May I begin by saying, I'm neither a slobbering perverted deviant, OR dirty old man, or any combination thereof. Would merely like to offer my "Super spiffy neat-o" friendship service to you. Need Likes, Rates, EVEN the 11's? When you send out the call, I snap into action at flagrant disregard of both my own, and any unfortunate soul that may happen to be in my way's safety! Why, I've been Hospitalized 119 times thus far this MONTH! Why? Because I believe in what I do! And the psychiatrist said something about Im..In...saneeI don't remember, wasn't listening anyway. Ok, you couldn't look me in the eye and say I didn't at LEAST get a snicker, could ya? Oh, you COULD technically speaking since...Oh, lemme be your friend? ARGHHHH! I cant get the cursor on your page to let me select fan, rate, friend did it this way...Oh, BTW, I ask this of all people I talk to here that list music as an interest (i'm a musician) and love to disc
The Elevator Ride
It was getting late.  It always seemed she was the last one to leave the office everyday, but she just didn't feel right leaving til she had everything set up to start the morning off organized.  She grabbed her jacket and slipped it over her dress as she headed for the elevator to go home, to an empty apartment and an empty life.  Cassie had dedicated herself so much to her work that she had left no time to actually have a life.  She missed having friends, hell she missed having sex... who was she kidding.  Cassie had taken to reading erotica on her kindle to combat the loneliness of her apartment.  She had only ended of feeling more alone, frustrated, and no way to satisfy her needs that felt fulfilling.  It wasn't like she couldn't go to a bar and pick up some guy to do the job.  She was not bad looking, she had to admit, and even on occasion had been told she was beautiful in years past.  Her two best features being her long auburn hair which she now had put up in tight bun, and he
[the Kingmaker]
Here's a recipe I'm gonna drop for you nice folks.Ingredients:1 slice livercheese3 slices of honey-ham2 teaspoons of coarse ground mustard2 slices of dark rye a dainty bed of watercress (stems included)Assembly:-figure it out.I call it "The Kingmaker"And it is lunch.It's almost the only thing I'm looking forward to before september.My mom outted me on my intentional dodge Saturday from a party I didn't want to go to... pretty pissed, dunno if I'm still "cool" after that,I meanI know I'm coolbut am I still cool?I dunno, there's quite a bit of politics to any circle of friends- and intentionally ducking out of one party (a birthday party no less) to ... spend time with my dad, doesn't sound ALL bad, does it?I didn't get invited to the next thing... coincidence?I got the official invite to move to Oregon with some of the clique.I need to get my house in order here first.And that could be... a year off.I dunno if I'll move with them anyway.I'm a very private, angry man.You'll also notice t
Quite Simply Love !
Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you. - Vipin Sharma Love is a wonderful thing. You never have to take it away From one person to give it to another. There's always more than enough to go around. - Pamela de Roy Teach love to those who hate, and let that love embrace you as you go out into the world. May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them. Remember, those whose lives you have touched and whose have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is more important than the form. The buddy system is essential to your survival; it gives the enemy somebody else to shoot at. - Murphy's Military Laws True friends can see the hurt in your eyes when everyone else is fooled by your smileAnyone can make you smile or cryBut it takes someone special to make you smileWhen you already have tears in your eyes Throughout your l
Hold Me
  "Hold Me" I'll hold you, and touch you And make you my woman And give you my love with sweet surrender Tonight our hearts will beat as one And I will hold you, touch you And make you my woman tonight There's something in your eyes I see A pure and simple honesty  Hold me in your arms tonight Fill my life with pleasure Let's not waste this precious time This moment's ours to treasure Hold me in your arms tonight We'll make it last forever When the morning sun appears We'll find our way together I believe you when you say that you love me Know that I won't take you for granted Tonight the magic has begun So won't you hold me, touch me Make me your woman tonight There's something in your eyes I see I won't betray your trust in me  I'll hold you ... And touch you And make you my woman, make me your woman ... tonight
Some People
Some people still do not get it. They post on my photos that I should eat more ..they post on my photos rude comments.. this tells me that you have not bothered    to read my profile. This is simple ignorance and earns you to have your comment deleted and have you removed from my friends list... I have NOT asked anyone to be on my friends list. I have not asked anyone to be my friend. So if you do NOT like what i look like ..then its simple do not request to be friends and do not look at my photos. You will not hurt my feelings at all....   Certain ones i talk to on a consistent basis...these are ones that treat me with respect with a capital R..   1. Okthen is one because he has ALWAYS treated me with respect. He KNOWS i have a man and respects that which makes him a real gentleman in my eyes.. 2. Forddiesel and forddieselswench... they have always treated me with Respect ...    Respect earns you the ability to become one that i will talk to and care about ...   Rudeness ear
You just want me 'cause you can't have me, Like a starshine you cannot touch, Or a wave of a storming swiftly, Dark and secret and chilling sea, Or a fistful of ashes, drifting, Dreamlike, shadowlike, 'tween your fingers, Just a thought that, for heartbeat, Lingers In the recess of fickle mind, To be changed or replaced in kind.     You imagine me to be perfect, Yet I drasticly lack perfection, And you fail to make connection: I've no patience nor emotion To respond to erratic longing - For it barely masks your fear Of a child left all alone, Looking desolately for a home, And all-comforting sense of belonging With a mother who holds you near.     I've got news for you, my sweet darling, I'm not playing at hard to get, Just don't care to have regrets And've no use for another child, For I've lost at this game before: Love until it explodes in anguish Of an argument every week, Screaming till you're feeling weak, -- While murderous yawning boredom Takes
There's Only 1 Girl I Love
I just have to clarify that. It doesn't necessarily mean we will experience this together. Don't take advantage of your loved ones, ever. That's something I should have solidified in my life years ago. I love you Adele. Thank you for ever being in my life.
Where'd It All Go?
So, got to weigh myself today for the first time in a good few months. Weighed in at 12stone, or 168lbs for you lot. I am very surprised, and happy as that's a big drop from 17.5stone (245lbs).   in other news, job interview tomorrow, wish me luck, please.
How To Put Music On Your Profile (updated Friday July 6th 2012)
Alright so this is the new blog on how to put music on your profile. Simple and Easy. First thing you need to know is the "my trackz" no longer works on the new profiles. Lame. So the only way you can put music on your page is on your "about me" or your "comments." So first things first... removing your pictures off you page.    ***NOTE: This will not delete all your pictures that you have uploaded it will clearly just remove them off your profile page. When you get to this point you want to move you photos from the left to the right till there is no more left on the left... then hit SAVE. When you do this... it will look like this: Now to the next part... to get a video or music on your page you need to edit your "About Me" Section. Here comes the fun part! Go up to "my" and then "settings" on the top part by "home" once you are in here go to "About Me And Intrests" and somewhere inside of it... you want to put the youtube or music player link. Now I use YouTube because well
Has An Angel Found Me?
Has An Angel Found Me? Written By: Heather Mechelle How can this be? Has An Angel Found Me? Has this man I’ve happened upon years before now, Possibly be an Angel sent from God above? I’ve loved and been loved in years past. But never in the way that this Angel has shown his love unto me. This Angel has shown me how to live. Love. And Cherish all that I have earned and been given. This Angel has helped me to understand things, By first explaining it to me, And then showing me. This Angel has given me advice without judging me. This Angel has helped to also think more clearly about things, Before making a choice. Whether it be important or not. This Angel has helped guide me into a better direction,
666. What Does It Really Mean?
Unfortunately because of popular culture, 666 is known as "The number of the beast," and seen as malevolent. This isnt the case. In ancient Western Occultism, each planet has its own numerological chart. The numbers are placed in a certain order. 666 Is the Kabbalistic square of the sun. The solar chart is layed out as so: A 6x6 square, with number 1-36. In each column, in any direction, the numbers are arranged to add up the same. They equal 111. Add them all together, what do they equal? 666.      "Unfolding the Revelation" by Roy Allan Anderson, p. 125-127: "The ancients claimed that God works by mathematics. Their religion was a conglomeration of religion, astrology, alchemy, physical and mental science, and mathematics. Ancient astrology divided the starry heavens into 36 constellations. These were represented by different amulets called "Sigilla Solis," or the sun seal. These amulets were worn by the pagan priests, and they contained all the numbers from 1 to 36. By
Fubar Party 2013
I am hosting a fubar party next year and everyone is invited! June 21st 2013 @ 7-830 pm central is the meet and greet at Oivers Bar n Grill inside Quality Inn & Suites in Bradley Illinois. FUBAR PARTy is June 22, 2013 @ 6pm til whenever @ Quality Inn and Suites Bradley Illinois. I will be updating this info more and more every other day or so. So far I have the DJ, band, 3 photographers, video man and a tattoo artist going to be there. There will be a small cover charge which will be determined by novemberish 2012 after I find out a guesstimate about how many are coming. Cover charge will cover the hall, food and some booze... Plan your trip accordingly. Travel, food, expenses and hotel ARE NOT included in your cover charge. This will be an epic night. If it goes well enough, I am planning on hosting one every year. here is the website to the hotel i will be having the party at, will be held in one of their banquet halls.
I Need To Go Out And Meet People In Person ! I Can`t Stand Sitting Here Alone Anymore !
I can`t stand it anymore, gosh i don`t like bars, but i`m tired of sitting here alone, i need to meet people in person, and that`s all they  have here where i live, I got to push my self out, like i did mom when she needed to go out !   I was hoping to get good dates here, but that ain`t happening """ !
[sigh] I don't even know where to begin with this thing. I have many issues with the welfare system in my state. It's a breeding pool for lazy people. Honestly.  Now don't get me wrong, I'm sure there are people on it that actually need it, but here...there are so many people on it that don't even TRY to work and sell their pills to make money. Anyway, that's a completely different blog, lol.   I'll just get on with this one. As some of you know, a few weeks ago we had a HUGE storm roll through here and it knocked out power in my area for up to 8 days. I was lucky and we were only out for 2 days. However, EVERYONE who lost power lost their food, that was in the fridge. Everything had to be thrown out. What's my vent and how does it tie in with welfare? Well..... Our state's welfare system is offering anyone who has foodstamps a chance to get more so they can restock their food supply. This storm happened at the end of the month. These people hadn't even gotten their new months supp
Never Shine
"Never Shine"Surrounded by solitude, wasting self doubtSorrow is shadowed by whispers that shoutScream I'm dying and saying I'm doneThrough with the pain but never can runConstant reminders that never leave sightNot heard over the cries that bellow at nightWorld upside down with thoughts of the choiceYou know it is there you just have no voiceAdmit your disguised and hidden beneathAll of the things that make you seem sweetPretend your content and satisfied at heartDon't ask me why its all falling apartShredded and scorched by the flames of the pastI'll never break through the wall you have castThe mountain that separates your heart from my handThe ocean that tells me the future is damnedSoft brush on my cheek or breath on my neckMy faith on the line is what this will wreckHas fate been destroyed,defeated, left bleedingIs it covered,or hiding, maybe just sleepingTired of witnessing our sheer lack of hopeThe thrown away deepness our abilities to copeWi
Simply Yummy!
I Don't Want To Hurt You
When He/She says I don’t want to hurt you .. What they're really saying is .. Just to give you some forewarning, I’ll never really mean to hurt you, but I will anyway and won’t take any responsibility for it .. I don’t connect my actions with the impact on you or the relationship, because I tend to only really think about myself and I’m a short-term thinker .. I think about what I can get now without real thought for the consequences :-)
The Mistress Of Shadows
Forever sinking into the shadows forgotten and overlooked, transparentLong to be sought out, drowning in the woesyet there is always some deterrent. No matter how much you struggle to be seen hoping for some type of gleaming light to drive away the endless nightbut things never turn out being what they seem.~RavenMoon
July 11
I'm not too sure what to say about the past few days. They've been rough, but it is more the mental than physical at this point. Kick is going through some tough times, and facing a long road. However, she'd probably kill me if I give much more detail than that. Physically, she is recovering slowly. She's still in the intermediate care unit, but we think she'll be able to be tranferred closer to our parents house in the next week or so. Either the pain is gradually lessening, or she isn't letting on how much things hurt. Knowing her, either could be the truth. She still doesn't remember much after leaving to head back home, but the last CAT scan came back without showing anything major, but that doesn't mean much. She could be blocking things, or could still have short term amnesia or some concussion related issues. It is a lot of wait and see still. I just wish she'd show some sign of going stir crazy, or something. She just seem so quiet, which I guess is expected, but kind of sca
First Blog
not sure what to really write . so ill just say new to this site and bloging anyone want to help me learn what to do .
Love Is..
  Love Is Me And You HoneyLove Is Being TogetherLove Is Watching Our Children GrowLove Is Watching Our Grandchildren GrowLove Is The Feeling I Have Being With YouLove Is The  Feeling I Have Making Love To You'Love Is 34 years and Many More To GoLove Is Doing Things TogetherLove Is The Closeness I Feel When Im With YouLove Is Diana & JCLove Is Absolutely Me & YouLove Is EverlastingIn Other Words Honey I Love You With All My heart And I Always Will!Your HusbandJC xoxoxoxo  
July 11, 2012
Home from the hospital They put in 7 screws & a plate to repair the broken right ankle. My left ankle is stronger & can bear 1/2 my weight so I can hold on & kina stand on it & pivot to get from Spot A to Spot B, but there is no "walking" yet, just stand up, pivot & sit on what I need to be on next, like the recliner or wheelchair seat. Lix can't miss work so we tried to think of everything I would need the next 12 hours before he left, and have everything within my arms' reach, but he will phone at lunch to see if he needs to come home to make any adjustments to the arrangement! It would help IMMENSELY if I wasn't a total CONTROL FREAK and could leave some things up to others to take over...but I have to do them myself so I know without doubt they are done (my way). 
Sometimes I wish I could be there for my one true love. Ad i know he's trying to get up here to see me. but sometimes i just feel so alone without him.
Very True
I think some parents need to read this..maybe let it sink it. I saw this on Facebook. It's a qoute from a judge..I don't remember the name or state he is from, but his words are so true!!!   "Your children have come into this world because of the two of you. Perhaps you two made lousy choices as to whom you decided to be the other parent. If so, that is your problem and your fault.No matter what you think of the other party-these children are one half of each of you. Remember that, because every time you tell your child what an "idiot" his father is, or what a "fool" is mother is, or how bad the absent parent is, or what terrible things that person has done, you are telling the child half of them is bad.That is an unforgivable thing to do to a child. That is not love. That is possession. If you do that to your children, you will destroy them as surely as if you had cut them into pieces, because that is what you are doing to their emotions.I sincerely hope that you do not do that to y
Damn Freakin Song
Ooh. Hiya.I miss you so muchYour light, your smile, your wayand everything about us.Now you're gone,You're still here in my heart and in my tears.Yeah you sure left your mark.[Chorus:]It wasn't long enough,It wasn't long enough togetherbut it was long enough,yeah it was long enough to last forever.Sometimes I get so mad, I scream, I swear at thiscause this isn't how we planned it.I sit here in a cold roomprayin', waitin' on you,to run back through that door,to the way is was beforeyou left[Chorus]Been cheated (I've been Cheated)Defeated (defeated, to believe)To believe that you're gone.(You're gone, you're gone)Ooh it was wrong (so wrong, so wrong)It wasn't long enoughIt wasn't long enoughIt wasn't long enough
Forever Love...
Ever love, forever lovemere words cannot describe itdeeply felt and meaningfulyou'll know it, should you find itI'd thought myself in love beforebelieving it to be truehow mistaken I had beenI found true love in you ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Love like I had never knowncould never be forsakentrue love ever in your heartfreely given, never takeneach day true love rings anewforever at your sidelove like I have found in youcannot be denied... Michael H. BodorCopyright © 2012
Smh At Some Of These Fools On Fubar
I recieved a message today from this fellow by the name of Sir Alex    "hello, it seems as if you are waiting for someone who takes control. at this time i am searching for an interesting submissive female to expand my family with a new female, a female i prefer to see with a collar around her neck instead of a necklace. and i am sure i am correct about your personality, that you are a female that is eager to learn, to grow, that does have an inner fire and desire to serve. in that case you should see it as pleasure and privilege to show the needed respect by addressing me as sir when you thank me for this message and that is not meant as sign of ownership. just the respectfull adressing a female like you prefers, because i will allow you to introduce yourself as curious, free and interesting female. as i said, at this moment i expand my slavegirl family from i will give you the chance to get into contact with me and my alpha slavegirl contact me just get done a
Silly Girl
Silly girl, you fall apart... each time you open up your heart. You know it's stupid, you know it hurts. You know it's more pain than it is worth. Why do you let it happen? Why don't you fight it? It's not like you're looking, you don't invite it... It just finds you, takes hold so tight... Makes you think it will keep you warm at night. But as fast as it came, it's gone away, Left you to hurt... the price you pay. Turn it off, silence your heart... If you keep letting it in it'll rip you apart. No more feeling, no love, no tears. No more hurting, no more fears. Let it go, don't fall again. Build that wall up tall within. Brick and mortar, iron and steel. Whatever it takes to no longer feel. Don't let anyone see you. Don't let anyone in.
I Wish/today
I woke up today in love again, your way with words will be my end..Forever trapped by your charm and your voice.. I'm here by love but not by choice.I wish I could leave, I truely do,I wish you could see in my point of veiw..I wish you could feel the pain you cause.I wish you'd help me through my withdrawlsInstead of feeding addictions almost too far to cure,I wish you could hear the things I hear..I wish you could here the cries you ignored,I prayed you'd leave the lock off the door.Sometimes I feel like you're in my mind,you know what to say every damn time..You'll hold me and tell me you're done forever,Just a few more months and we'll leave together.........I woke up today in love again..Today your abuse will be my end.
Thank You
I wasn't looking for you. I wasn't thinking about finding someone to love, someone to love me. I was looking for a friend, someone to kill time with, someone to laugh with, someone to argue with, someone to bounce ideas off of, someone to relate to, someone to help my rational mind grow... I found so much more. You became my lover, and my best friend. You became someone to spend time with, not kill it. You became someone cry with, not just laugh. You became someone to run to, not just relate to. You became someone who made my heart grow, not just my mind. I had forgotten how to love, rationalized away my emotions, attributed love, hate, pleasure, pain, fear, guilt, lust, passion... all to baser instincts which must be overcome. You taught me to love again, taught me that my baser instincts are necessary to life, happiness, joy. You taught me that feelings, even the bad and painful ones, are beautiful and should be embraced. You're gone now, but never forgotten. The gifts you have
Introduction Paintoy A
Hello, it is time to intoduce Paintoy A as you can see, she is a young submissive female that started the journey of a training as Slavegirl under my guidance. During the next time her process can be seen here. Soon she will also write about it so that everybody can see and ready about this new path in her life.   a lovely young female   sweet pink cunt   wide open asshole     well usable!       and a lovely paintoy!!!!     but such a beautiful subject can also be used as humiliation toy....         Stay in touch for new infos!!!
My Eyes Closed
My eyes closed I can't see you or love you dark in night... I walked with My eyes closed of love Closed the door my heart beating of lust for you gone like the wind hold me dear don't let me go.... I lost my soul long time ago in dark of the night. My eyes closed I can't see you or love you dark in night... I walked with My eyes closed of love Closed the door my heart beating of lust for you gone like the wind I tell you stories of my pass love me Never give up on me My eyes closed I can't see you or love you dark in the night Liar, Liar you went away in the dark of the night I love no more My eyes closed. 
Sunday July 15
Good Morning all. Well, the good news is the doctors are slowly reducing Krystyn's pain meds, so she's a little more alert. The drawback to it is she has to deal with a little more pain. They've also started her on an assisted physical therapy for her non casted leg and her arms. Basically someone comes in and moves them, lifts them, and massages them. The purpose is to at least keep those parts moving so the muscles there don't atrophy or weaken much.  No word on when she can move closer to our parents, but she'll probably need full time physical therapy for about a week, then she can actually stay at our parents while she undergoes the rest of her treatment. Hopefully within the week.  One other bit of good news is the neurologist thinks her brain is healing nicely. Lord knows it definately got shook up, but according to her, there doesn't appear to be any major/deep tissue damage, and surface bruises seem to be doing ok. Thankfully there are also no signs of clotting or blood ves
  When you look into my eyes you see a strength I do not see,   When you need a shoulder to cry on I'm there for you that's just me.   When my world is crashing down I brighten yours with a smile,   When you really need me there as a friend I'll go that extra mile.       I'm not much of one to complain or hold a grudge,   I just wish sometimes people would be there to give me that nudge.   Sometimes I wish I had those arms to hold me tight,   Those lips to whisper everything will be alright.       I have fought this battle deep inside me for so long,   Always looking for somewhere to belong.   I have been walked on, used and left all alone,   I shouldn’t be going through this I’m grown.       There's so many night's I lay here scared to fall asleep,   All the evil and hurt comes to me in my dreams.   I try to block out the bad and hope for the good,   But for me in this world I'm so misunderstood.       So many people pass judgment o
Back when we still called each other Lover's that sea we visited....I went back there alone.And while searching for that place I had for gotten for so long,The sound of the wave's were some how soothing. I think I'm about to cry.
Your Rakhi Thread Binds The Entire India Now
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It is a beautiful June afternoon.   The sun is shining.   The birds are singing.   There are neighborhood kids playing hopscotch.   It is not the kind of day where anyone should have to cry.   But, here she stands,  Putting on her black dress, her black shoes, and her waterproof mascara.   She is compartmentalizing.   Car keys on the table, cell phone on the charger, daughter at the mortuary.   Sixteen is too young to die.   How does she say good-bye to the only good thing in her life?   Walk to the front door, open the door, walk outside, and lock the door behind her.   “Got to remember how to drive now,” she thinks.   Open the door; close the door, key in the ignition, car into drive.   Tears start.   Turn right here, turn left there, car in park.   “Can’t fall apart now”.   Walk in the funeral home, nod politely to the condolences, and look in the casket.   “Has to be a mistake, this can’t be happening”   Look at her
I am so fucking pissed that I do not even have words. SO. FUCKING. PISSED. Only one person that I'm friends with here has the backstory for this so all 2 of you who read this probably won't fucking understand shit. Get over it or go fuck yourself. I really don't give a fuck. Apparently this is the only place I can safely vent. I posted this on Tumblr: Something Akin to Regret Sometimes I get so upset and mad at myself. I was in the perfect relationship… for like a week. Well, actually, I was in the perfect relationship for today-me. Back then, maybe I wasn’t quite ready for it, I don’t know. But I’m ready for it now. It’s what I want-crave-need-desire. The point is, I had it and it’s gone and it SUCKS. Because now, every time I meet someone new, I know it’s going to be, at best, 2nd best. It’s so incredibly frustrating and there is exactly nothing I can do about it. I don’t really know what to do with the feelings I’m ha
He Is Always With Me
We always have one person In our minds or perhaps in our hearts that has permanant residency We have lived Laughed and Love them to the best we possibly could and with everything we knew how to be... and on that floating Cloud in our minds and hearts.. we were supreme love was divine the world did not exist outside of me and you you were truly my very first thought.. hunting for you in between the sheets as you slept turning my face to see yours in the early morning darkness My heart raced at the knowledge that youd be coming in thru that door from work and excite my heart all over to know your day was done that you were safe to let you know you were thought of alot and even missed
Relationships And The Sacredness Of Love
Relationships may come and go but the love that comes with them go hand in hand.  Trust in a relationship is the key to success. Without the trust there is no relationship. People try to destroy your happiness, your love all because they are not happy with their own lives or relationships. They want want you have.  When you are fortunate enough to have that knock you out of the ball park kind of love cherish it. That kind of love doesn't come along too many times in life. Love with a whole heart, Love with an open mind. To all of those who try to come between you and that love need to realize that they can't replace you only try to be like you. If they can't respect the realationship or the fact that you are happy then what kind of person does that make them out to be? Not a very nice one in my opinion.  I have that knock you out of the ball park kind of love and I cherish it with every breathe in my body. For those who may or may not try to come between that think again. You can n
Changed Prayer
breathless and scared crouching alone in the closet--hiding, hoping you don't discover i'm here footsteps and your foul, drunken scent finds its way to me, where i am holding my breath and praying for safety i hear you swearing and calling out my name, a tear rolls down my cheek for the broken promises you made... promises of change and forgiveness i hear you stop outside the door and i know my previous prayers were left unanswered so i quickly change my prayers now i just pray for an end
Love And Despair
I sit bewildered, astounded, raddled at what has just transpired! Doth my eyes falsify? Doth my ears hear queer? Doth my own heart yet bleed for love? I've bestowed upon thine my own heart, given to thee my soul, presented thine with my word and my bond! To what extent dost thou wish me to go? A knife in my heart? A spear in my throat? A keen edge upon my naked wrists or a bullet through my skull? I've castaway years of friendships, nights of passionate relations just to please thee! How selfish can thou be to ask this of me....And not partake in the giving, for the sake of we? You ask of me what I've contributed and laugh at my loss...You sit Idly by mocking, when naught have you shown! No sliver of care, no trinkle of want, no slight of love. Dash thine rock upon my skull! Peirce my flesh with pointed steel! Gouge mine eyes out with sharpened stick! For I was the one whom foolishly and blindedly fell for one whom doth not care! Neither in heart nor head, action nor word hath
Ohio Valley To New England Sever Weather Alert
DAMAGING DERECHO POSSIBLE THURSDAY - If you have friends or family anywhere from the Ohio Valley to New England, share this post or give them a call. An outbreak of severe storms capable of extremely damaging winds is likely Thursday. In case you are wondering, a derecho is a long-lived, widespread, damaging wind event associated with a fast-moving band of thunderstorms. Notice the pinkish, purple area with the black hatches over it. In this area there is a 45% chance of damaging winds/large hail within 25 miles of a point. Some of the winds could exceed 75 mph. A Derecho produces very few tornadoes. Straight-line winds are the primary concern.
What My Mama Taught Me
growing up with my mom wasn't the easiest thing in the world. she had little patience and quite the temper. until i was about 14 she was pretty angry all the time about a lot of things that she really had no control over. i'm the only girl so she was pretty strict. just looking out for me i suppose, but at the time it was pretty crappy. in some ways i'm thankful for the way she was, i wasn't a teen mom, i didn't die and i graduated high school and went to college. i messed up a lot and pissed her off even more. but she'd come back around eventually and we'd work everything out.  my mom had a rough childhood, as i'm sure most of our parents did. dirt poor, abusive parents (emotionally and physically), not a lot of opportunities to have a better life. i look up to her a lot. she's the first person i ask when i need advice. she's my best friend. she taught me a lot. sometimes without even trying. she always used to tell me to be careful of my words, because good or bad, whatever i say c
You've Touched My Heart
You've given me a reason For smiling once again, You've filled my life with peaceful dreams and you've become my closest friend. You've shared your heart felt secrets And your trust you've given me, You showed me how to feel again To laugh, and love, and see. If life should end tomorrow And from this world I should part, I shall be forever young For you have touched my heart.
Blessed By Love
Four Years ago, you came into my world, and gave it a unexpected turn, but it wasn't a turn for the worst, it was a turn to the beggining of something magical. Little did I know you were my blessing in disguise, my soul mate most of all. You've brought a new meaning to my life, but also a new meaning to live. Taz, I know we have been through so much in these last four years together, with ups, downs and the in betweens, and none of it I would trade for the world. You have been the greatest thing to ever come into my life. Showing me that love doesn't have to hurt, that true love really does exist. I don't know what would of happend if I never would of found my way back to you. Its your love and your soul, that brings me down to my knees, and thank the Gods that I have found you. Each day that I wake up knowing that I have you in my life, leaves a smile that is brighter than heaven's beam. Your everything I have wished for, but most of all you are my dream come true. With four years of
Just A Short But Sweet Blurt B4 I Goto Sleep
I do all this on my phone so I tend to lag a lot and my phone is a big fan of freezing up.. Just so u know if i am slow to respond..
Think For A Second About The Dumbest Person You Have Ever Met.... Now Realize That 90% Of The Population Is Dumber Than That!
I can be a bit of a ranter... and at times, hard to handle.... I know this. But people are so fucking stupid sometimes it kills me! I had a lady and her kids come in for dinner the other night and all they did was sit and make fun of every other person in the dining room.... calling them trailer trash, or whores, skanks, probably homeless....YADA YADA. I bit my tongue (as a waitress, I have too) But it really got me thinking.....   Sometimes when you look at someone, your first impression can be so off that you judge someone solely on that impression and you miss out on meeting a really great person. When you look at why this is, you can tell in an instant that it is a society based misconception.   When you see a rugged looking fellow outside of a grocery store with a cup, most Americans today would assume that A, he's homeless and B, the cup is for begging for money. However, this can be one of our largest misconceptions ever. First of all when you look at his exterior, societ
Just Me
Because I Said So!
Master, "why is that when a man has sex with many women he is considered a champion . . but when a woman has sex with many men she is considered a whore?"  Listen well my child . . . "a key that has the ability to open many locks is a Master Key .. a Lock that can be open with any key, is USELESS" .. take that bit of information and run with it!
The Forgotten
Alienated and alone Forgotten overlooked neglectedFeeling phased out as if you don't matterWhy does this always tend to happenReaching out for support, yet being blown off...groanAffection love understanding and dedicatedDreams slowly being to shatter Everything you believed hoped wished is all misshapenA victim of Fates cruel whimsPain dispare and agony let you know you are aliveA tear streaked face says quietly everything you need to say Turning up the music to try to drowned out the voices in your mindThe light that once burned bright slowly dimsDoing all that you can just to surviveHoping to find all that you seek, wanting to wake up from this nightmare some dayYet all that you seek has been declined.~RavenMoon
Read On To Know All About Flea Bites On Humans
Before you care for a flea bite, you need to grab the flea complication manageable, or you will can have a whole lot of flea bites to handle. You will need to treat the home along with your dog with the help of healthy flea killing solutions and products. When you are unclear which of them to apply, check with your veterinarian and so they can suggest the suitable form or maybe sell a flea treatment solution you will have to place to the dog's shoulder area one every week.After you have handled your flea issue and you visibly are noticing the fleas falling your dog or not even moving, you should wash your dog with a oat meal based solution. Avoid the use of a flea wash since this can definitely prickle in the event the flea bites have made blisters onto your puppies body. More Information about flea-bitesIn the event your dog is very ravaged with fleas, as your shampoo the puppy, if you notice that shampoo turning reddish colored, right here is the leftover blood which dried out when
Dear Angel!
Dearest Angel, How I wish you could be here, Let your wings rest, Hold your hand, Have arms wrapped around you, Where we could meet on earth, Let our love spread, A big impact made, In hearts & mind's Where everybody could be at peace, Feel the warmth & share our love, No more storms,No more bitterness, Between friends & family, Brother or Sister's, A such common divide, I'll watch you alway's, Be by your side in trust & hope, Hope to slide a silver ring on your fing
This Weekend
OK so this weekend was bad. first my girlfriend left me cause i couldn't give her all that she wanted. she knew i wasn't ready to commit to anything but a simple relationship. she wanted marriage, i wanted fun. then i ended up working long crazy hours. them i come home and help move her out. i haven't slept in 2 days and i still have to work tonight. i don't ask for much. ohhhh ya them because i wasn't on fubar for two days i get accused of ignoring one of my friends so he defriends me. im sorry i have a life i ain't always on the PC. i just want to find the one person who makes me feel whole. I WANT MY EDWARD CULLEN! lol
~naughty, Nice, And Very Nice~
The cold outside was harsh on Raymond's hands. The snow was coming from the side but had broken up since he got of route 690. He gave the back door to his car a soft nudge with his knee as his hands were full. His briefcase and travel bag, along with a smaller bag containing Christmas gifts he'd purchased while out of town on business. He took a steady pace up the stone steps and along the walk to his front door. He looked up for a second to see the lights were off. "Perhaps she was in bed," he thought. It was past 1:00 AM. His flight didn't finally land until Midnight; slowed down from the snow storm they were getting. Then between getting his rental car and collecting his baggage at checking he'd lost more time than he planned. He stepped up on the stairs and grasped the door knob, when it suddenly opened and swung open. He looked up to see his wife, Tracy standing in the door. "Hi baby, glad your home," she said with a wide smile. Raymond shuffled his way forward. Tracy reached for
Alone with the shadows in my emptiness. A wonderful life this is full of loud silence. Decaying over time my heart is soon to be destroyed/ I walk side by side with my loneliness. Walking into the void
Have I Offended You?
I have found out today that I have offended some people.  When I can afford to buy credits, I usually start blinging people right away.  The friends I bling are usually at random, whomever came across my screen when I had credits.  If I have neglected a friend, let me know about it and I will fix the situation if and when I can. I have many friends.  Mainly because I love women.  All shapes, sizes, and ages.  I love women.  Black women, white women, women of all races and all religous affiliations.  Women from the USA, Europe, China, South America and many other areas of the world are all special to me. Some beautiful friends have made salutes for me.  The number of women friends I have and those mentioned salutes do no make me a player.  I am a regular guy.  I am on fubar to have fun, and have a little distraction from this shitty ass and tough world we live in. So if I have offended any of you, and this little blog does not explain my motives to anyone's satisfaction, drop me as a
All Girls Are Insecure
All girls are insecure, they may not show it, but they are, every girl believes that they have a 'defect' but honestly, you don't! every girl is beautiful, no matter what she wears, what she looks like, or how her body is. don't worry about that senseless stuff, beauty comes in all shapes and sizes.
Paths Taken
Whenever we walk the path of life, rarely is there a single right path but rather many paths each with different outcomes. Life is more enjoyed when we look forward and not dwell too much on the past. This is how we heal from tramatic events and let painful memories fade while attempting to hold close those that we particularly enjoyed or were meaningful in some way.....selective memory.
In Search Of Title
If you know this song... please let me know who sings it and it's title.. it means a lot to me.    Missing you, Rich Petti.
I'm Asking You All To Pray For A Classmate Of Mine. . .
He was injured in Afghanistan a few days ago and needs prayers for him and his family. So if you could please say a prayer for him!!
I Work Hard & End Up Short End Of Stick
  All my life I work hard & end up getting the short end of the stick.  I was raised by two well know Prof.  in there flieds ( Polictal Sce.  & Social Work/ Crimal).  I have a LD ( Learning Disability).  At, CHS ( Community high) I was inteall for acdiman support, which I didn't get.  My mom thearn to sute the school district in my senior year. ( it was to late).  CHS did have an LD teacher ( durning the time I was their), but she was a flake.  I was foutly had a tutor( sameone since 4th grade), with her help I grad from CHS in June of 88.  From their I went to BC & grad. 92 ( 3rd in my class).  I worked me butt off> while some students who party at school. end up getting nice jobs after grad.  (  money talks).  I was the only poorst student who worked hard at school, after grad. end up going from one job to another.  I worked at the same school for 12 years> part-time ( never clomplaing or missing work) I was promised a full -time job> which never happened.  It seem ever time I work m
Matty's Platform When Running For President
1. everyone will now pay taxes on everything they consume, 10% not just eating, but using in general, you buy a car , 10 % tax, u buy a home 10 % tax, no exceptions. all other taxes, income, capital gains, death tax, property tax are now null and void.  Tax "loopholes" are now also null and void. If expendatures by the governemt exceed the tax money taken in, all areas, with no exception, of the government will be cut until the budget is balanced.  States may add 2% state consumption tax and counties and cities may each add a 1% consumption tax. Making no one's tax being more than 14 % addition to what they actually consume. Considering most tax payers now will keep 30-50 % more of what they make under this policy everyone should be able to afford this regardless of how much they make. Since food and water is the most essential thing to living it will be taxed at HALF the rate across the board, as all other items. 2. marriage will no longer be recognized by the state, religions will b
Mask The Feelings
Anger and sadnessLeading me into madnessPutting on a mask to hide how I feelHow long will this take to healI write these poems line after lineBut I can't fully express my mindMy heart feels incompleteI feel obsolete as it skips a beatThe same things in my head on repeatDone being descreteYou try to judge meBefore you even know meThen ask me to tell you what's going onPretending to care about what's really wrongI'm not gonna play alongI've been like this for far too longMy heart keeps filling with tearsTrien to drown it with pills and beersBitch you don't understand my fearsYou have no idea what i've been throughNo idea why I was accepted into my crewI've had people say they wanted to kill meYet day after day you wanna drill me?You don't know my painYou don't know my brainYou think i'm just trieng to complainI don't know how to explainIt's driveing me insane!
 A tear falls every time I think of what was... A tear falls with each stab of the knife, into my heart... A tear falls with every emotion... A tear falls with every thought of you. A tear falls knowing, I would never leave you alone... Tears fall, because YOU left me alone...when I would NEVER leave YOU!
Unmistaken Judgement
Can't look up, but cant look down.All we can do is look around.Seeing people all around us,Not knowing who they are.We tend to make judgments,With out a clue in mind of anything about them.With judgments based on assumptions,we fill the world with hate and fear.So until you know someone for what they are and not what you see,Dont judge them.Because you never know,They could be judging you and me.
I could salt Popcorn With these Dried-up tears. Could live A lifetime With these Wasted years. Could kill An army With this pain. Could save Millions of lives With my bloodstains. Could fuel A million nightmares With the horrors In my life. Yet I can't Get through This pain. Keep trying to sort Through these things In vain. Memories appear, That were long forgotten, They bring chaos with them, As you witness your own destruction. Unleash those feelings, For this mome
Unusual Night
Well, i confessed something major last night and asked to be spanked for it…. I almost slept with someone close to Him on the last night i did dope…. I had readied myself to be spanked but He looked at me with tears in His eyes. He snuggled me to His side and proceded to tell me how last year while on the road, He did have sex with someone and if anyone needed to be punished, it was Him…. I looked at Him as he cried and told Him that I forgave Him. I asked Him if W/we could call it even and He said yes. We laid there and fell asleep.
Stress Relief
Last night, He asked if I wanted the spanking I had asked for the previous night when I confessed. I wasn’t feeling good, so I declined. This morning, I woke up, knowing it was time to take the spanking. I went ahead and went to the bathroom and tried to text Him while I was in there, to tell Him I was ready… He didn’t respond. When I got back from the bathroom, I texted Him again, laying beside him and told Him i was ready for the stress relief, but asked if He would start with my pants up. He agreed, but used the hair brush on me until He was ready to pull my pants down. I received 40 over my pants with the brush, then I was made to take my pants off. I recieved another 20 with the brush on my bare bottom. He wasn’t happy with the results the brush was giving, so He got the belt. At first it was half stinging lines (the first 55). He saw that the swings weren’t getting the result He wanted, so He switched sides of my body and started giving me harder s
My Fave One Liners From Complete And Total Strangers
Jetboy: can i be your puppy?  
Episode 2
CUZ WE LYKE 2 PARTY! Life can be so crazy at times but that's what makes it worth liviing all the unexpected twists and turns :). So it was another busy day at work and what was about to happen i was soooo not ready for. It was my first room of the day and that sucker was TRASHED! Someone had a party in this room.... A party i wasn't ready for!!!!! When I walked into this room it stunk to high heaven like alcohol and ass! I was totally disgusted. There was enough beer bottles on the floor to swim in! So i grab a bag and start throwing stuff in (yes my hands are gloved I DONT PLAY). As i make my way deeper in the room i start to notice how much PORN was on the floor. Asian Tranny's 3, Asian D*** girls 2, Anal Asian Fantasies, and many more. I think to myself.... wow good luck with that. I finish picking up the floor and go to the bathroom. OMG you don't wanna know how gross that was and i don't want to remember it either. so i finish the bathroom completely disgusted and go to the
Let's Just See Who My Real Fans Are Here???!!!!
I really wanna know who my real fans are, my biggest fans and how many i have!!                      So i am testing you all, good luck =] lol xoxo                            First you have to complete a lil test...                 (paste ur answers here please but number them)            Next, you have to comment on my profile 3 words to describe me...                             Then, you have to put at least one photos of mine in ur photos or on ur profile and write anything u want but u have to have the word fan in it and put a heart on my profile!! like this: ( h ) but no :P                             Last, you have to rate/like/fan/add me!!                     (Remember i am looking at everything, and will pick at least 5 people to gift, rate/like/fan :) xoxoxo Also, i will pick 2  top people and add them to my family free and they may see all my nsfw photos ;) lol                                             About me Quiz:                     
Some Things Never Change...or Do They?
Let me break a few things down for you people... 1.) I'm old school. I'm a veteran. Ive been on fubar over 4 years now. I know how this game goes. I know how it's played. I've been here and done this before. I managed just well beforehand but I got too involved so I backed off. Don't talk to me like I'm a fucking noob. I don't care if you're fake red or real red or freaking green. I've done it. It's not hard to do. So on that note...  2.) If we have a PERM fam trade, and you wanna break ties, I won't freak on you and cry about it. I'll run what I want when I want and if that's cool with you, cool. Ive done a lot on here and I'd like to help others do something. If you ever want alturized, hit me up. I don't care about points what so ever and would be happy to help :)  3.) I will put WHO I WANT in my family. If you don't run anything and you don't play the rate game, please dont throw a bitch fit if I remove you to add someone who will pay credits to me. ESPECIALLY if we never ta
From Krystyn
Hi all, Yes, I'm back, but only to post this. I am not going to rehash things that Lynda has already said. I'm sure you all know by now I was in an accident and have my work cut out for me to get back on my feet, both literally and figuratively. One thing Lynda didn't mention is there is some spinal damage too, which may require surgery. The doctors think that may be why I haven't had the flexibility that is normally expected, and the feeling and reflexes haven't been normal. That is in addition to my recovery from the other assorted injuries, and the physical therapy required to resume normalcy. Depending on what doctors find when checking my spine will determine a number of things. All I can say is I need to focus my efforts and attention on getting myself better. so it is with a heavy heart I must bid you all a goodbye. Lynda also hinted at my mental state, which I know needs a lot of work. It did before, and the accident has made some things worse.  I want to thank those of you
Native American
The Moccasins of an Old Man   I hung you there, moccasins of worn buckskin. I hung you there and there you are still. I took you from the hot flesh of a swift buck. I took you to my woman.   She tanned you with buck brains. She cut and sewed and beaded. I wore you with pride. I wore you with leaping steps over many grounds.   Now, I sit here and my bones are stiff with many winters. You hang there and I shall sit. We shall watch the night approach.    
This Is My Goal For Myself!
I was recently sent something via text message that really touched me. I'm a psych patient learning to enjoy life for the first time in my life, and my therapist keeps asking me what my goal is or should be. Well, this is it.   "Hey you.... yes you. Stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you were someone else or wishing that people liked you as much as they liked someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating your body, your face, your personality, your quirks. Love them. Without those things you wouldn't be you. And why would you want to be anyone else? Be confident with who you are. Smile. It'll draw people in. If anyone hates you because you are happy with yourself then fuck them. Your happiness will not depend on others anymore. Say to them, "I am happy because I love who I am. I lovee my flaws. I love my imperfections. They make me, me. And that me is pretty amazing!""
The Stars Aligned To Perfection
"Together" by The New Pornographers   Tonight the perfect storm of an awesome album, a house to myself, and distortion free loudness came together.  It was one of those few and memorable times were every song reached deep into my being vibrating it in perfect harmony.  It's sad the moment is done and I can't wait for it to happen again.   I wish I was a better writer to fully express the feeling and joy....  But perhaps it's just one of those personal moments that is indescribable to anyone else.  
sorry it's so long =/   I am so anxious. I feel so guilty, so worthless, so lazy, so addicted. I am tense I have too many feelings stirring in my head right now to properly articulate in any orderly fashion. What is wrong with me? I must have a disorder of some kind. I’m living life undiagnosed, but with the absolute certainty that I am really and completely ill. My summer has come and gone. A to do list abandoned, but never forgotten. Potential crushed before it could even be named that. Hopes and ambitions stomped into the ground. I can’t buy back the time that I’ve tossed and for that, I feel eternally ashamed. I didn’t toss it carelessly either. I tossed it knowingly, which makes it all the worse. Each day slipped by me, before my eyes. I saw it fading, I heard the clock ticking, I counted the days on the calendar. Before I slept each night, I told myself: tomorrow will be better and more productive. Tomorrow you will do this or that, you will accompli
Sober.. Again.
Picking myself back up again.  I still have work to do. I know.  Havent had a drink for almost a month now.  doing good.  to me. for me.  i need to beleive that im good enough.  Im not sure how i could.    doing good though. for me. 
Sometimes people come into you life and you know right away they were meant to be there. They come to serve some sort of purpose. Maybe to teach to a lesson or help you figure out who you are or want to become. You don't always know who these people may be... a neighbor, a long lost friend, someone who's always been there waiting in the shadows, and even a stranger, but when you lock eyes with them you know at that very moment they will change you life in some way weather good or bad. Through life things happen. People change, you make mistakes, life throws you obstacles...How you chose to deal with those will show your strength, your weakness, your willpower, and your heart.  Stop believing in chance...things don't just happen because of luck they happen because life is testing the limits of your soul. Without these small tests life would get boring. Life would be smoothly paved, a flat straight road to nowhere, safe and comfortable but utterly dull and pointless. The peop
Your Current Or Last Relationship
I am curious if you met your current or last bf or gf in person or did you first meet online?   I'm not in one at the moment but I met my last online then began a personal relationship.  
I hate sending a message and then waiting for a reply. It shows how impatient I really am. It's funny, I know they aren't even online to read it, but I want it now. Ugh. I'll just have to work and come back to a reply. I just hope it's something I want to hear.
To Sleep The Sleep Of Angels
When you care about others and think of them alwaysIt hurts deeply that they don't care or even think about youJust to sit and talk, take a walk, or something to know they careInstead of that you get pushed away ignored and that hurt staysLonely, depressed, longing for someone to love comfort and talk toThe feelings are so overwhelming it is getting to be too much to bareLonging for comfort and understanding but never finding it in a world of darkness looking for some glimmer of hopeTo be happy and loved would be wonderful and greatBut to be alone uncomfortable misunderstood and unloved is how you sitWishing for eternal slumber but somehow you copeHoping to find something as good here as you would find beyond the Pearly Gates.~RavenMoon
If You Want Something....
if there is something in life that you want...go for it. dont let anyone hold you back. you are capable of doing whatever your mind is set limits...dont be afraid to aim for that personal goal, or to change, or to just be you....go for it
I Forgot My Own Lesson
I will never forget, the events that took place. Standing at the airport, waiting for his face. There he came with, flowers and a smile. With a hug and a kiss, it felt worth every mile. But let me take you back, to when it began. To the year leading up to, meeting this man. I was alone working three jobs, recently divorced. Working and my child, was what I lived for. Trying to survive, while not living at all. He made me feel special, I didn't seem so small. He was a professional, exactly who he claimed to be. But there was important information, he was hiding from me. I played it safe, or so I thought. I waited a year, before getting caught. By his deception, his evil little plan. Suddenly I was alone, with only this man. The man I thought, I knew. I found out the hard way, that wasn't true. With my ex-husband watching, my every move. I never confessed, where I was off to. This guy was from Jersey, but residing in the desert. That's where I to
Everyone has their own way to work through pain...mine is to write. Most of the time I do not share them, but why not?    My Dream by WisteriaPrincessI awaken slowly, serene smile on my face memories of your heated kissesthe feel of your hands exploring my bodythe taste of you still on my lipsthe scent of gardenias in the airthe wetness at my centeraroused beyond all senseThen the mist of sleep clears my mindand I realize it was just a dreamIt will never be more than a dream
Proof Im A Free Demon
  Ryan BarnesWas upNov 4, 2011Badguy TrimurtiWASUP MAN WUS GOODNov 4, 2011Ryan BarnesNothin much man. Ima look up your music for sure. What made you send me an invite? Wanna cigarette lol jkBadguy TrimurtiLOL DONT SMOKE. I TRY TO HIT UP EVRYONECHECK OUR WEBSITE TO WWW.HOLLABLOCK.COMRyan BarnesLet me ask ya this. I talk to god so it's cool but do alotta famous people talk to him?Badguy TrimurtiYEA I THINK MOST FAMOUS PPL TALK TO HIM ALOT AND THANK HIM FOR EVRYTHINGNov 4, 2011Ryan BarnesDo you know about me and the battle between god? It's worldwide top Christians and top satanists know. I'm pretty famous actually   Badguy Trimurti   YEA IT IS. ITS SERIOUS   Nov 4, 2011   Ryan Barnes   What's serious.The battle   Nov 4, 2011   Badguy Trimurti   YEA   Nov 4, 2011
Jenna 8/16/12
 Porn queen Jenna Jameson pleads guilty to DUI   I wonder what she blew.
[brain Medicine]
So today I stacked boxes.Fascinating. Right?Today I did about 4 orders in one day.I had help, but GOD DAMNI hit the door two hours later than usual, my back had frozen and was clenched at a steady 7 on the pain scale for most of the day, and before I even patted my dog I went for a nice big slug of brain medicineon an empty stomachDidn't even burn til it hit the bottom.I'm also beset by naggers insisting I "do something". It's only been a monthlighten the fuck upand it has been all of three days since I vocalized that I reallyREALLY don't want to take a giant crapshoot on another degree.Seems pretty fucking pointless in this climate.Henpecked. Naysayed. Bitched at.And my best friend even thinks he has some... upper hand? In that he's working two more hours a week at an Attendant Care job.Yes. He has to wipe a moderately retarded grown-man's butthole once a shift....He also makes less /hour than I do but I haven't had the heart to tell him.He thinks he's king of shit mountain right now.
Mother Nature
Mother (fucking) Nature   I respect and admire HER. Don't get me wrong...but, I have a chance to be alone in a big 1900's fabulous house. Animal and house sitting for 3 nights and 4 days, thinking I may get a little partying in......SHE has other ideas....SHE decides, I should be in intense pain and pretty much unbearable to be around. SHE certainly has impeccable timing. THANK YOU MOTHER NATURE  for being so sensitive....*rolls eyes*
For Serious?
Did you know that if you are raped for "legit", your body will stop itself from getting pregnant? Yeah....I didn't either.   Some people need to learn some shit. How do these people get into public office?    What's funny? Both presidental candidates think the guy is nuts =]   Btw, I do NOT agree with the guy who said that.
Her Eyes
Into her eyes you see hard goodbyes Trusts been broken precious words unspoken Scares remain still holding the pain Lessons taught the price not bought Road traveled to often the sting not forgotten Letting go begins the forgiving of sins Heart mending now still she wonders how Time to move on put this in the past Not so long ago sure the pain would last Thru the door crack he can see the glow A heart longing to grow He pushes open little by little She lets him in to meet in the middle  Time put in foundations been laid Feelings begin to make the grade Bigger and bigger they grow In her eyes you see the glow.
Paster Neal For Hire
falling in love? looking to fumarry ? well youve come to the right place look no further, respectable services perfomed for you hit me up if your looking to futie the knot would love to perform your fu wedding for you
The Economics Of Leaving A Comment
The reality of why leaving a comment gets you more return rates and likes. If you rate, like, comment me I will definitely come to your page and rate/like/comment you back. If I have already rated you today I save the comment for tomorrow so I know to come back and do it again. It's not hard and you know that someone came by and actually did something nice for you today. For all those that rate/like without leaving a comment thank you. I'm sorry I cannot return the favor I have a life I don't follow my feed to rate people back. Sending a drink or leaving a comment is not that hard.  Ok I am off my soapbox!!! Have a good one!!! 
facing the mirror, i stand searching but all i see is a stranger staring back at me... who is that monster hovering there where my reflection should be?  
Rambling About Nothing Important.
I'm now a month and a half sober from alcohol..  Still horribly depressed. thinking about going back to the psych ward.  I miss being happy, or feeling excited. what happend? why did i let my addictions eat me alive? when did I get so hollow? How many months have passed? I need serious help. I'm just afraid to get it.  I dont want to be trapped again. If this is happening it will be next week. guess i'll keep you updated. 
Lost In My Mind
the godess smiles down, i lose my hold, i go, my eye looks, inward, out there my brain cryed an explosion splash, i do not crash drift, that plane i so long, to feel the known soft, safe, my now the light blinds and the waves blast, i am that one that was meant
I Had To Walk Away
It came to me my feelings coming over me nights are long , Days seem so sad. Only the lonely will know how I feel ,You just don't know him I am lost in his heart from the beginning my thoughts are not my own I had to walk away. Tears of pain kiss of love moves me when I am with him I had to walk away. He will never know my love for him I had to walk away. Kiss of love    bY Christine
My Thoughts Incomplete However Sharing Anyways
Nothing.  Fyne.  And Nowhere.   Doesn’t explain why someone seems to be ignoring you now. They used to respond, now they don’t…you wonder to yourself if you have possibly done something wrong, and if  that person might be mad at you…and if that person is mad at you, by all rights you should Know what you have done to make them mad… Communication – its only fair.   TMI- Too much information-Used quite frequently now-a-days…when does it really apply? When the information provided is more than you wanted to know in all actuality or is more graphic in content than you cared to hear.   I personally abhor being avoided, ignored or presumed to be a moron…such as seeing someone sobbing uncontrollably any concerned individual asks…What is wrong?  The answer “Nothing” is a blatant lie, in my opinion, and evidentiary of the fact I must be mistaken for a complete idiot and on a more personal note not worthy of being di
Life Before Computers =)
Life before the computer: Memory was something that you lost with age. An application was for employment. A program was a TV show. A cursor used profanity. A keyboard was a piano. A web was a spider's home. A virus was the flu. A CD was a bank account. A hard drive was a long trip on the road. A mouse pad was where a mouse lived. And if you had a 3 1/2 inch just hoped nobody found out.      
Rude Ass People
People need to learn to curb thy tongue before someone comes along and rips it out . Take for instance the people who claim they are respected by whom may i ask cause it sure as hell isnt from me . You have to earn mine I dont toss that to just anyone . When you can mouth off and claim it then you really dont have it .....think bout it . As for the asshats who like to shout out rude ass comments did you forget your manners or brain at home . I am a woman who has busted her ass to become her own woman man has to support me . As for dating good lord get a grip on yourself ....A person has the right to date whomever and whatever they want its called freedom of choice know like my right to say this in a blog . Until you walked in a persons shoes for a while then you dont know them ....I have scars from past some are worn on my skin to remind me of those times and choose wisely who i give my trust and respect to others are scars deep inside ...Ive loved and lost ...I know what
Re-posting: Bbw *ugh* ~*~ Http://*~
BBW *Ugh* ~*~*~Over the years I have heard all the names and been left out of all sorts of things due to the size of my clothes, but lately I have really been thinking about a term use on the internet that I believe is overly used. BBW, big beautiful woman.There are many different people in this world of all different shapes, sizes, and colors, and just because you are of one of them does not mean you are more beautiful then the person you stand next to. So why is it that because you are a big, plus size, woman you are automatically beautiful? This I do not understand, but I am sure someone out there in the world is someone who does understand it, because the term has came to be and very popular at that.I, personally really dis like the term. I don't think people should drawl attention to themselves by putting labels on themselves and/or others. Yes I am a bigger woman, yes I shop at plus size stores, but I don't want to be called BBW. If a man (or
Juggalo Family!!!
for anybody that recognizes and/or takes part in juggalo family, i think you should read this. there are many people who thimk juggalos/juggalettes are stupid and fucked up, and its honestly really irritating. juggalos always have each others backs and are a FAMILY so any of you who think were stupid or lame or whatever, you dont know shit about us. i highly doubt those of you who dont support the family, have barely listened to the music or anything to do with the family, if even at all. just wanted to put it out there.   WHOOP WHOOP!
Broken Love
I sit and cry, All alone Wondering why, I don't belong   When we first hook up, We couldn't keep our hands of each other Now it's like all we do is Fight and argue, And say hurtful things, We regret later.   Why do we hurt each other so much, If we're suppose to be in love? Why do we get so upset and angry, To the point of exchanging hurtful Words that we say out of anger, They could teopardixe the relationship completely   It's like we totally forget how to ve in Love and act respectful Instead we're  rede, hateful, And just ungrateful
Moonlight Walk
Walking in the moonlight, Keeping you in my sight, As I look upon the stars, I think of you and feel delight. In my mind I see your smile, And if only for a little while, I hear your laugh. Teasing n taunting me, as you walk by, Over your shoulder you call, Come and get me if you want me. Baby you know I'm here to stay.
A Place In The Clouds
It's always nice to be able to dreamimagine life being another way but realize.. They are dreams.. fantasy.. non-corporeal.. A realm where  our mind and heart can venture. You and I are a beautiful idea, it's a place i visit,.Unrealistic isn't it... ?I can see you.. lying with your face half tucked under my pillow in the morning. The sleepy, adorable look as you awaken... your lazy half smile. I can feel if you were,lying here next to me. the mind can create sensations without experiencing them. Every part of me awakens... 
In The Beginning - 2012 And Before
  In The Beginning: I worked.  Good jobs, not so good jobs, really rotten jobs, it didn't matter I worked and made the best of it as so many people do.     The change occured after the owner (the wife, goddess love her) went through eight semesters of college, and the degree remained out of reach.  Mathematics / Computer Science majorss tend to take a little longer.  Unfortunately we were at a point where I couldn't cover the bills without help, so she landed a job.     As a husband, I love my wife, my spouse, my mate, and yes my owner (she holds my itty bitty soul up to the light and thinks its wonderful -- sometimes you have to wonder), I love her for the person she is.  If this means I follow her wherever her job takes her, so be it, no problems.  Even the time apart will bring a wonderful reunion when it ends.  If supporting her means I'll be the one changing diapers, fixing bottles, and teaching our (so far unborn) little girls ho
What Is A Thundercunt You Ask?
A "thundercunt" or Homo Cuntatis, to use the scientific classification, is a commonly occuring breed of the Bitch Genus. Categorized, as such, due to their overwhelming natural desire for drama. The Homo Cuntatis, or Thundercunt, can be o...bserved in its natural habitat; often bars or clubs, but not always relegated to the night-life culture. When approached, the defense mechanism of the Thundercunt is often a high-pitched, shrill call, coupled with a countenance that mimics the look of "disgust" that can be observed in Homo Sapien. Homo Cuntatis closely resembles, and can be easily mistaken for Homo Sapien. When in doubt, it is advised to mention a piece of business which does not concern the specimen in question. Homo Sapien may offer an opinion, but will generally avoid the act of interference. However, if the specimen grows excited, posing multiple queries regarding the the business in question, you're most assuredly dealing with Homo Cuntatis.
The Truckers Prayer
Dear God above bless this truck I driveAnd help me keep someone aliveBe my mortal sight this day On streets where little children playBless my helper fast asleepWhen the night is long and deepAnd keep my cargo safe and soundThrough the hours big and roundMake my judgment sound as steelAnd be my hands upon the wheelBless the travelers going pastAnd teach them not to go so fastGive me the strength for every tripSo I may care for what they shipAnd make me mindful every mileThat life is just a little whileAMEN  
Member Contest
I Have No Idea What To Put Here
so its...548 in the morning...i'm dosed to the max on cold meds and feeling a little...heavy. i guess that's the word i'm looking for. writing seems to help, input always helps. here it is...its been a few days since i've talked to one of my closest friends. i have a few of you on here and if you're wondering if i'm talking about you...i'm probably not. they know who they are. sometimes we go days without talking cuz my schedule with work is funky and when i get home i tend to want to pass out. but when we finally do talk again all is well. we catch up, i'm told i'm an asshole for falling off the face of the earth, i reassure stating that i'm not going anywhere, not leaving again. text, fu, twitter, skype...whatever, you'll find me eventually.  work stresses me out. i disappear a lot. need time to myself. i've never been the best at sharing my woes with the world. i'm usually the one listening to my friends bitch about their miserable lives. i tell you what, that gets pretty tiring, j
Ignorance Is Bliss........
I have GOT to vent. My family and friends all across the coast of Louisiana including New Orleans, Lafitte, Barataria, Crown Point, Gretna, Marrero, Terrytown, Westwego, and Des Allemands and also a few friends on the coast of MIssissippi were devastated by Hurricane Isaac. MY family and friends are fine. Lots have flood and wind damage and will once again have to rebuild. People across the nation have been making the rudest remarks ever! "People are crazy for living down there! Why don't they just pick up and move?!" "They just want people to feel sorry for them!" "The people who don't evacuate are just doing it to put others in danger while rescuing them! They should leave their asses stranded!" "So tired of the people of New Orleans complaining everytime they get hit with a hurricane and it floods! You live under sea level, you had it coming! You still live there so you deserve it!" Well, let me tell all of you IDIOTS something. First off, the entire WORLD is in danger of na
What Women Want In A Man (by Age)
What Women Want in a Man (by age) What I Want in a Man, Original List (age 22) Handsome Charming Financially successful A caring listener Witty In good shape Dresses with style Appreciates finer things Full of thoughtful surprises An imaginative, romantic lover What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 32) Nice looking--prefer hair on his head Opens car doors, holds chairs Has enough money for a nice dinner Listens more than talks Laughs at my jokes Carries bags of groceries with ease Owns at least one tie Appreciates a good home-cooked meal Remembers anniversaries Seeks romance at least once a week What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 42) Not too ugly--bald head OK Doesn't drive off until I'm in the car Works steady--splurges on dinner at Denny's on occasion Nods head when I'm talking Usually remembers punch lines of jokes Is in good enough shape to rearrange the furniture Wears a shirt that covers his stomach Knows not to buy champagne with s
The Love Maker
 The Love Maker I whisper into your ear Sweet things that make you weak, Then I look into your eyes With my mysterious provocative gaze, Causing you to touch your skin To feel the burning of my flames, Caressing you with a love that is real, I then kiss you... As you feel my wet eager lips Our hungry tongues indulging in their craving, To feel the poison... Of my blood boiling throughout my soul Sending electrified emotions Stimulating pure intoxication, As my hands flows over you; Touching every curve and every part of your lovely body... It seems you move your legs apart automatically, As I lift you on the mystical ride While your body I know you will guide, Just listen to our song Making love all night long, The flames of passion, desire and love Is taking control over us, I put my hands on your breast, As you feel a sensation so exciting, When I kiss your nipples with my eager lips Every time I do that, It gets more and more fulfilling I let you feel those sensations, As you feel m
What Is It About Bigger Women That Turn Men On?
what is it about bigger women that turn men on?  
Happiness I can see You in a crowded room Filling my day full of light From this day there shall be no more gloom Only the pure serenity and my might I have fought my Demons before Beat them to a bloody pulp I took a big gulp Swallowed my pride I have no more reasons left to hide People think I'm Beautiful I have to be dutiful To look after what many hold dear live my life without fear Trepidation is something I can't stand It gets way out of hand My body may not be perfect But I see myself as worth it Day by day
Scars The blade cut so deep Although I didn't weep I saw my own blood Eminating from my own flesh Demon Steel Took Me a while to heal Taking my soul Fucking thing was stolen from me Breaking Me killing me But the people I have in my life  Gave Me back the power to put down the knife My Loves, My Hearts and My World Giving Me the power to fight  Giving me my light back and helping Me win  It felt like such a sin Just to give in But I'm whole
Das Ist Good News Ya?
So starting this Tuesday I'll be in a new Career. Am I a bit nervous about it? Sure am. We are all afraid of the unknown. Anyways that's not what I'm blogging about now. What I am going to say time on fubar will be limited greatly. And for me that's a good thing. If I calculated how much time I've pissed away would be staggering (and somewhat depressing). Will I miss it? Not particularly. Sure the ego stroking of seeing rates and all I guess is nice but in the scheme of things it's not terribly important. To those with whom I chat with on a regular basis you can reach me on that other site(motions to the right) OR via text. Or hell call me even. A added bonus is...i'll get back into a normal sleeping pattern. Meaning no late nights on fubar. So it's a win win. And that's all she (or he) wrote. :D
A Barn Measure For Pleasure.
  ----- This was an early Piece of my writing, my structure was improving at this point ----- ENJOY! The night sky twinkled with the starlight speckled across the atmosphere. The mild air proved to be tolerable and the only sound that could be heard was the sound a few crickets making their music with the night. The soft glow from the stars cast their light across the farm, the barn taking a shadowy outline beneath their glow along with the pasture and it's surrounding fencing. The large house stood silent with a few lights dimly illuminating the rooms within, the tree line across from the pasture was also visible as it looked eerie from afar. Suddenly a new sound is heard, the door of the house opens and shuts. A couple sneaks quietly outside, a lush beautiful redhead beauty and a large young man. They quietly trot across the open ground, heading towards the barn. Whispering and breaking soft muffles of laughter. Millar and Susan are from the city; however every so often, they take a
Love Walked In
"put Out My Fire."
The dark and silent walls of the departments garage were broken by the sound of a creaking door. Chance peeked into the dark garage, the fire truck sat with a stillness, but could the same be said for the rest of the guys. He held still and listened, his eyes watching and scanning carefully for any motion anything to suggest someone was awake or present. All was quiet, all was still, he pushed the door open further and the door’s creaking echoed off the stone floor and the large space of the garage. He stepped in, pulling his date for 11 months in by the hand; Mia. They were at the Movies, his department was on leave for the arrival of 2 new staff for their department. This left him an opportunity to see Mia, when they were at the movies however she was continuously rubbing off on him. Mia was a awesome woman he met at a neighborhood 9 blocks from a fire in Salt Lake City. She apparently saw him go into a burning building, against the orders of his CO to save an elderly woman wh
If If Could And Would
If this what 41 feels like I am ready for another 20 at least. I got 'Breaking Dawn-part 1' from my son and my daughter's present is suppose to arrive in the mail tomorrow. I didn't ask for anything. I usually don't bother. Half of the time I just figure I don't deserve tribble waste. I have tried to not turn bad. I may not remember all the time but I do try. Before Fubar, I was really kinda lacking in the "knowing anyone" level and now I don't like all that I know but I like more than half of what I have seen and felt. For that I thank you all. No one in the whole world is a waste. Its just that some people have a nasty side to their taste. I have met a few and pray I come along no more. There may be no way of knowing right away but I shall never give up. I will continue to be as nice as I can and no one will take that from me. EVER!!!!!!
August 2012 Musings, Rants & Cons Archived Posts
Here's the August 2012 Musings, Rants & cons Archived Posts: Scam to Kidnap Internet Bride: Family Boost Cheating? : My "For the Record" Blog:
The Stuff Of Life
The Stuff Of Life I dreamed a dream I had a thought The parts of me Jumbled and tumbled Freely wheeling Through my mind Many times and many places A kaleidoscope of memories The stuff of life
Touch Me
Touch MeTouch me and I know you. The way you touch tells me. Rough or gentle, timid, careless, Touch is revealing. You may hide in words. You may hide in actions. However You may cloak yourself, Touch me and I know you
Fubar Tit For Tat?
In a time when intelligence is deteriorating to the point where it is virtually non-existent, favouritism becomes the predominant "ism". It still doesn't mean the majority is right though ;)
Total Tool
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The Place Where Ima Drop Bars-show Some Love If Ya Like Ad Be Sure To Stop By My Page To Check My Music Out Under The About Me Section!!;0)
bi-polar/disorder/mentally disordered/brain so swift its the busiest shit thought of/and my head so deep/i can mentally shift water/shes nobodys baby mom but i hit it and shift daughters/the pussy was dope/when i hit it i split quarters/i coulda bussed a nut/i said fuck it and spit mortars/made her twitch harder/titties need rehab/like we bad/off in the game/dont know how this dick caught us/used to be down for the rich slaughter/now im feelin like a slut for free/cant tell if its nut/or pee/but it feel proper/shits a panty and a heel dropper/she like to ride and watch it spill proper/one time she said i pushed her organs up in her throat/in surgery the doctor asked her was she fuckin a boat/ she said nah/but hurry up so i can heal up right/cause the moment i can walk/ima fuck it some more
My hair of black and eyes of brown,so very sweet and pretty I was.From another country way on down,fascinated by what she says and does.I opened up to Him of long paincause I felt comfortable you see.I relayed him past and the strainabout a mother, father, brother and me.I said I was his soulmate foundcircumstances brought us together.We felt love actually knew no boundflocked together like birds of a feather.Raised without love I never feltsaid I knew no other way but use.These were the cards she was dealtbut still that is certainly no excuse.Perhaps it was simply my own faultbut I believed in love and the power.The wound hurts like filled with saltany prospects of love again are sour.I have fallen in love just twice in my lifewhen I was young and again much older.There's been other love and even strifemy heart has grown wise but now colder.I know it's sad to say that and I do fretand feel I may be missing out on such.Looking back through life with regretto hope or love anymore hurts
Something Heartfelt And Straight From My Butt...
A few of you know that I am a poet.  Here's some of my poetry to tortutre you with.   "She was low Simple to the Earth that borne her As the sunken Sun on a hot long night She made me think of willows in that breeze The winding beating of whispers in the midst And clever whines of a thought I once had Was meaningless against the salt of my mind Drunken on my madness as I sat beside myself.   Oh, she was low As the Mississippi among her banks Entrenched in memories that we all must have Among meeting someone so simple, so fair That the gleam in your eye pays no reverence To the glorious sight within, playing in the dew Simple by meaning to the world we choose to dwell And celebrating no mind to the demons we choose.   She was so low As the embrace of a forgiving God Upon His misbehaving children who may have forgotten the way Or simply chose to ignore the callings for home
Something Sticky And Wet...
I wrote this poem for Kippi for her birthday (I know, I'm a little soft in the head; that's just who I am).     “There are things that I know that only make sense to me, Such as, how the cold rain draw lightning across the skin As you dance manically among the puddles, through crisp breezes Heavy with moisture and life and reminders that life is best served wet, And how faces elude you in your mind when you look at them But pester you when you don’t, flooding your mind with useless names And pointless notions of being thoughtless, tactless, and crude When all you want is to remember an old face you once thought rude.   There are things that I know that only make sense to me, Like, how old leather reminds me of overstuff chairs that litter Offices of those that make such casual decisions, such as “should you get that mortgage?” “Should your insurance claim be paid?”, “Will you get bereavement time to visit your dead aunt’s g
I have never really been a happy person. I have demons within me that have been there since I was in second grade. Life is everyday struggle for me. Honestly the only time I can remember being truly happy is the day my daughter was born. She is my only source of joy. Yea, I know, it can ALWAYS be worse. There are people out there way worse off than me but that doesn’t make my life any easier. When you have gone through the shit that I have gone through it makes you a bitter person. It makes you wonder what you did to deserve all of this and why all these shitty people have amazing lives. It makes you question your faith in God and your faith in humanity. My dad worked his ass off for the same company for over 20 years and then one day went into work to a notice that they were “moving in a different direction” and he was to “clean out his office immediately.” My dad is a good man was a huge asset to that company. I realize this has happened to A LOT of peop
Rembering And Enraged
                                                                    ***Thoughts and prayers for the innocent lives lost*** So here we are  again 11 years later remembering what happened on the tragic day that we lost countless people due to the ass-hats from al-qaeda that decided to try and make the USA fall apart ..but we stood strong after the dust settled then and now. it wasnt fair they hijacked our planes and took many lives whether it was the twin towers with  flights 11 and  175,the pentagon with flight 77 or in Pennsylvania with flight 93, but also what  wasnt fair that we could not go over there and level their country and what have we went over and fought and lost more of our soldiers lives just so we can rebuild their cities and towns,but did they come over here and help us rebuild on our soil....."NO" ..we as the USA was at a major loss and enraged due to what happened on that fateful day but i dont and didnt like how we had to go over there and hold their hands...
9/11 Rememberance
Screams echoed in fear, glass shattered, rubble fell  and fire roared as lives came to a end. The Twin Towers that stood strong and proud, are but shadowed remains, of there once known power. Families torn apart with grief and loss, and as the smoke and dust settled, the sight we saw became Ground Zero. Our flag came to half mast, in rememberance of fire fighters, police officers  and the rest of the lives that were taken on this day. We will never forget 9/11, and the scar it placed on our hearts.
My Name Is
If my glamorous lifestyle is appealing to you. And you want to try me because you've nothing to lose. Then, let me give you a bit of advice. You are a fool. And you'd better think twice. I destroy homes. I tear families apart. I take your children and that's just the start. I'm more valued than diamonds. More precious than gold. The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. If you need me, remember; I'm easily found. I live all around you. In school and in town. I live with the rich. I live with the poor. I live just down the road. And maybe next door. I'm made in a lab, but not in one like you think. I can be made under your kitchen sink. Or in your child's closet and even out in the woods. If this scares you to death, It certainly should. I have many names, one you'll know best. I'm sure you've heard of me. My name's Crystal Meth My power is awesome. Try me you'll see. But if you do, You may never break free. Just try me once and I might let you go. But if you try me
Ability Bling Contest For The Ladies. 9/12/2012
      Starting up an Ability Bling contest for the ladies. It's a 3 credit buy in with   a minimum of 5 ladies entered. The more ladies entered the higher the prize will be! It's an ass rating contest. Whoever gets the most rates at the end of the contest  will win the Ability Bling[s]. If you want to enter transfer the 3 credits and SB/PM me for the details on where to link/send the ass[s] pictures to.               Starts when we get 5 ladies. Will run for 2 weeks. The more ladies we get the bigger the prize(s) will be. The pictures can be NSFW or SFW. Can enter more  then 1 picture 1 credit per picture extra.
Saturday Morning.
At the signal just before I turn into the neighborhood I can feel my energy change . . . it is not something I do . . . it just does on its own.I pull into the driveway always convinced I need to take a minute to mentally prepare, but then I never do . . . before I know it I am opening the door . .to the place that opens the door . .to the place I go . .where I so clearly belong.He is there . . . all ready for his part of the journey . . . the journey we take together that is never planned and never known until it is over.His name is Gideon and other than some general facts and my visual interpretation, I do not know much about him. He is short and has an accent (although most would be at a loss as to place where it is from). He loves the Beatles and Harley-Davidsons, he has 3 daughters, he speaks 6 languages, blah, blah, blah . . . . these facts that I would normally find important to know . . . are seemingly UNimportant . . . because what I KNOW about Gideon is not relev
Dear James,
It is not simply because you are miles away that I miss you. Without you near I find I am trapped inside my thoughts my own awful wordy conceits. Leave the ego alone and it will vainly consume the day leaving only an ache for the night. When I can reach out and touch you I am saved from the unblinking tyranny of the self. In having you I breathe, I look outdated, I give. It is my blessing to know you- my misfortune to be so far away... Baby I miss you like crazy. I need your arms around me. And look into my eyes and say you love me... Love you always Marilyn
What If There Was Nothing To Ever Say??
There just may be some misread vibes here. I am not here, nor have I ever been here to please anybodies needs. I am here to enjoy time away from real life. Pickin inspirations where they are possible but still.... ya all are picking and choosing the wrong vibes. Now if I absolutely have to I will go through my fans and friends and start deleting. I know that I am by far not the best but I am better than some of the rest. Not naming any names because they know who they are. They will make false claims against me. I can't do anything unless someone tells me. I am not gifted in that way of being able to know what is said to everybody else. When two hearts meet and a flame is present, it is the strong heart that can calm the water. The weak one or the damaged heart is timid about anything to do with sharing. It is amazing that at the age you are suppose to be to get on here that more people don't know this. Have a heart and understand. It is not that hard. Strength in the heart is not th
~hardware For Your Software~ Part. 3
Outside the window above the tub, a soft rain now fell. The tail end of the storm now as most of the thunder and lightening had silenced. Dennis ran his fingers along Lexi’s shoulder, tracing tentatively along the surface of her skin. The hot water gave off a steam that made the bathroom as humid as a Hot Shower, the dim light of a few candles burning on the floor near the tub, the door, atop the toilet seat, as well as the sink and surrounding corners of the tub’s surface gave the hint of Romance out of the Movies. The water wrapped their bodies like a warm blanket, Dennis’s back was relaxed at the foot end of the tub with his head against the wall. And Lex was relaxed back against his chest, his rather average sized arms extended, his hands running over her arms, across her chest, and through her wet stringy hair. “This has been a wonderful night for me,” she said with a warm smile. “I honestly didn’t expect this,” he replied. “Wh
Something To Think About...
"What if all women were bigger and stronger than you? And thought they were smarter? What if women were the ones who started wars? What if too many of your friends had been raped by women wielding giant dildos and no K-Y jelly? What if the state trooper who pulled you over on the New Jersey Turnpike was a woman and carried a gun? What if the ability to menstruate was the prerequisite for most high-paying jobs? What if your attractiveness to women depended on the size of your penis? What if every time women saw you they'd hoot and make jerking motions with their hands? What if women were always making jokes about how ugly penises are and how bad sperm tastes? What if you had to explain what's wrong with your car to big sweaty women with greasy hands who stared at your crotch in a garage where you were surrounded by posters of naked men with hard-ons? What if men's magazines featured 14-year old boys with socks tucked into the front of their jeans and articles like: 'How to tel
On This Day
On this day, September 17th 1993. Something transpired, that forever changed me. I thought I was alone, in this new world of mine. I was only, fifteen years old at the time. Nineteen years has passed, and I can still smell his breath. He took everything that day, until there was nothing left. A year and ten days later, passed by slow. Everything continued, I was completely unknown. By the world around me, no one cared. About this one child, suffering in the middle of nowhere. Lying on the floor, the taste of blood on my lips. Weeping, screaming, gripping the carpet with my fingertips. So many thoughts, running through my head. I was just a shell, No life was left. So much pain, burning with rage. Dying a little at a time, I needed out of this cage. September 27th, 1994. I picked my young beaten body, up off the floor. I knew what I had to do, They weren’t going to stop. I grabbed a bottle from the cabinet, and drank every last drop. I heard
Intellectual Supremecy
To all you self proclaimed educated pompous asses out there who feel special enough to indulge yourselves in your cheap self serving criticism of those you consider to be racist trolls, uneducated, or pseudo intellectuals.......G.F.Y. Go on living in your little pathetic world that only you are right and by all means stay believing that your opinion of the lowly uneducated peasants around you is  the only truth. Go on believing that your education is Supreme and everyone should want it and feel as you do. Mostly, keep believing that you are of the upper 80 percentile and all the rest are some kind of racist losers, as you call them....the 1 percent. I doubt that you possess the capacity to live outside of your fantasy world. I doubt that you'd ever survive.
House Time -- Breaking Camp
One of the interesting things about being a military house spouse is the conception some people have that you have nothing to do all day.  What a load of BS.  Keeping up with all the details takes time, and yes I do like to write about the different characters that pop into my head.   In a couple of weeks it's time to head out, so it will be pack and ship time for those odds and ends we've collected in five months, getting the Postal and trailer ready toth luck the kats won't be too upset  load, and taking the rest of our temporary 'camp' gear down to ACS so another family new to the area won't have to lay out a ton of money the first two weeks they're here.   I look forward to driving east with the owner, even though (as usual) it's a bit of last minute planning -- keeps me on my toes.  Reminds me, need to talk to wonderful Mom about the next voyage, should be interesting.  With luck the kat's won't be too upset about hitting the road again, like that's going to happen LOL
Ten Rules For Fat Girls I Like This & It Isn't Hateful!
Ten Rules for Fat Girls September 9th, 2011 Body Joy!   Note:  I debated with myself whether to allow comments on this post or not.  But frankly, I don’t care if you think I’m wrong.  If you hate fat people, I don’t want you here.  Anti-fat bigotry and pro-diet propaganda will be deleted.  I can do that because this is my sandbox and I’ve got the bullshit shovel. If you want to talk about how fabulous weight loss is you’ve got a whole internet to do it in.      You may not know this if you’re new to my work, but: I wrote an entire book on body image and spirituality a few years ago.  The whole subject is very important to me, but I haven’t written much about it lately because my focus has been on so many other things.  But then I got cable TV, and the old anger came a-flaring back up. You see, I’m fat.  300 pounds of awesome from my double chin to my adorable toes. There’s no concealing this fact. My fat is out there. It
From The Heart
Do I even make you happy? Do I even still have your heart? Are you even happy with me?   These are things I need to know. I can't sit here holding on. When there is nothing to even hold on to. No prayers, No happiness. Just an over abundance of sadness.   Bicker and argue. Day and night. Why Do I even bother staying? Why Do I even bother caring?   You don't seem to care.... So the best thing for me.... Is to start acting the same.   You don't like it... I don't care. You didn't have any thoughts... When you were doing it to me.
Gotten Quite A Few Questions, Figured I Could Answer Them With A Little Story
February 21, 2012:  I woke up dizzy, and went to PT against the wishes of my then girlfriend to go to the doctor.  I took a knee a few times during Ultimate Frisbee but managed get through.  And I am not talking just a little dizzy, I am talking staggering/stumbling dizzy.  I went to 0900 formation, and luckily, there was a HMMWV parked right next to where I stood in front of my platoon for me to "lean on" and keep anyone from noticing my inability to stand still.   After formation went to my office, and one of the NCOs who worked for me asked me some questions, and he needed some paperwork.  I had it in my truck, and we started walking and he asked me if I had been drinking.  I said no, he said that I was slurring my words and staggering like I had been drinking.  He said I needed to go to the ER, and I said I would be fine.  He said he needed to the use restroom and I told him I would be right back while he was doing that and get the stuff from my truck (plus put the frisbee up.)  W
Why Using A Organic Ant Monster Provides You Tremendous Advantages
Whenever you need to get rid of insects in or around the property, you have two main solutions. You can use ingredients to eliminate the insects or you can use a natural ant creature. While both are effective in getting rid of the insects, there are some advantages to using a natural ant creature that you should evaluate before determining. These types of ant removing solutions are usually natural items which will be protected for your children or your creatures. Many times toxins are used in material ant killers to try to get rid of the group of insects that is in the property or yard. Whenever a kid or pet comes in contact with these items, it can be dangerous. A natural ant removing treated won't harm them at all and will help you encounter a bit more protected about the process. Less ingredients and toxins are usually better for the environment. At a while, all those ingredients will progressively discover their way into the floor, the water, and even your own house if you choose t
No Cure!
You are the infection. seeping out of my veins. You the man, I cannot name. The reason I'm going, just a little more insane. The reason I feel regret, anger and pain. So much love and hate, at the same damn time! Infecting my heart, poisoning my mind. Why the fuck, can't I just let you go?! I ask myself this, but I do not know. The answer, what makes it so hard. The fact that we've shared so much, come this far. Perhaps that is it, but I am not sure. All I know is that for YOU, there is no cure!
One Small Request
I see you there, and you know I do. I play along, but this much is true. I meant EVERY fucking word, I ever said. Now I just want you, out of my head. Out of my heart, the pain is too intense. An attack for which, I have no defense. I can't do it, so it's up to you. To let me go, I'm through. I may not be strong enough, but I know you are. Because you have dismissed me, so many times before. Just throw away your key, and lock this door. The one that leads from your heart, to mine. I beg you to release me, for good this time. If you ever really, cared at all. Then what I ask, of you is small. Never tell me, you love me again. Don't speak to me, and then. Just disappear, from my sight. Because these feelings, I cannot fight. They win, and I don't like to lose. Please just do this one thing, I can't bring myself to.
Gold Diggers...
It amazes me the number of women on here who lead men on with false pretences.  Yes, I love getting bling, I like having credits to spend, but I have NEVER once told a guy/girl anything more would EVER exist.  Friends on here are fun, and I enjoy the laughs, but if fu ever interfered with any aspect of my personal life, I would be gone in a second.  I have had a few friends on here who have spent thousands of dollars on women who promised them this and that.  Atleast I can go to bed at night without a guilty conscience.  I hope you can too.   Thanks, KiKi
"ultra Violet"
ultra Ultra ULTRA Violet Rays,that peak joyful temperatures. And crept up and dazzled me with a day to remember. Like a plateau of desolated vacancies, Now covered with emergent sweet radiancy. And agents of vibrant awes awakening me, Giving unending interest to the taste that thirst in me. Rays that can, form new letters to the alphabet and, give birth to new softness to grains of sand. I offer this hand to you, One that envelops deep talks, sweet walks, and innocent stalks. Try concentrating on this vision like seeing through fog. HD wordplay without a flatscreen wall, Only your mind and mine splashing vivid thoughts back and forth. Til a smile has risen like the birth of a violet Ultra! Bringing light to life unsilent. The sun has rays that parallel great heights! I'm abducted by your inner shine, Oh what a Great Flight! And seashells, they whisper, just listen to them close. As do beautiful fantasies of an Ultra Violet Rose ;) 
A Womans Right To Choose
Happy Birthday Dad. 2012
''Another year goes by, another tear wiped from my eye, Wish i handled it better, but can't conceal a good cry. For every tear that drops, hope you know it's for you Pop's, We were the type of guys that never said ''I love you'' a lot, But for every tear that rolls it shows the love was there and never stops. Going through a rut without you but what can i do or say? My family was dealt this card that we had no choice but to play. Now you're looking down on me, but i hope you're proud of me, Picked up where you left off as far as taking care of the family. Don't worry bout Mom i got her, take care of her forever and a day, Even when i feel lost without you, i know you'll show me the way, Funny how you gain more appreciation when someone goes away, But i'm making up for that by tryin my best to honor you in the best way. You weren't perfect, neither was i or anybody else in humanity, But here i am missing you dearly, so you must've done somethin right apparently. Even when
Thinking About Deleting This Account
I am thinking about deleting this account. The whole purpose of this account was for the sake of potentially finding a girlfriend in real life and that has not seemed to work at all. Its probably the fact that  A. They feel I am too skinny B. I have an amputated arm C. Just no one is really looking for something in real life ..only playing internet games...   I never came on here for the purpose of finding a male because I been with my partner for 13 years and will never leave him as he is the very reason for my existence...   There are probably 2 males on here that I talk to from time to time ..with one arm its more difficult to type and so i am not on the site as much and I feel that this is not fair to them because i know these two do indeed care ..but the arm does limit the length of time i can type before i need to rest etc... So I just wanted to explain if the account disappears you know why ..but those two males (and you know whom you are) I would never forget your kindn
Most Liked...with And Without Rockstar
Okay so I think the Fubar powers that be need to create a new "Most Liked" list...the one where members cheat (of sorts) with a Rockstar ability bling...and the REAL list...where members get the most likes without an ability seems a shame that 500 and more likes, done on your own without an ability bling to help you out, don't earn you your name in green need to spend money to do that...   I'm not saying no one should use a Rockstar...i've thought of's amazing to see members get 10K likes (only because of a Rockstar though lol)...I say...that's all fine and good...just separate the Most Liked lists...let some of us have our name in green on our own merits...and let some do it with the help of the almighty ability blings...
Just Some Thoughts...
"Hey if any of you are looking for Christmas gifts for me, I have one. I'd like the ref's from last nights game (Seattle vs Green Bay), brought right here to me tonight. I want them brought from their happy slumber over there on Monday night football, with all the other rich owners, and I want them brought right here, with a big ribbon on their head. I want to... look them straight in their eyes and I want to tell them what a cheap, lying, no-good, rotten, four-flushing, low-life, snake-licking, dirt-eating, inbred, overstuffed, ignorant, blood-sucking, dog kissing, brainless, dickless, hopeless, heartless, fat-ass, bug eyed, stiff-leged, spotty-lipped, worm-headed sack of monkey shit they are!!!! Hallelujah!! Holly shit!!! Where's the Tylenol!!"
Pills take a blue one at this time make you happy.. Pills take this one at this time make you cry... Pills take this one at this time make you sleepy... Pills take this one at this time make you eat...Pills take this one at this time make the racing thoughts stop... Pills take this one at this time when is going to stop...  bY Christine  
A Camgirl's Diary
Some ccrazy shit happens in free chat! Someone kept asking me to fart, others kept wanting me to see their cam's balls deep! Still a pretty good night though! I have to say that cammin is definitely a learning experience. I am learning that men are just as hot n heavy as women except men get off on almost anything,  women get right down to brass tax and tell you what they want. As a bisexual woman I appreciate the womens style and mens unabashedness. AlsoI learned some new positins just being creative on my own, and learning what I look like on cam, better than i thought lol. :p
There’s this girl, Nobody really knows, No one really notices her,As she comes and goes. She’s walks around,alone in the dark,full of pain and scars, yet not showing a mark. You don’t see them,because she hides them well,you don’t know her story, and she’ll never tell. She lives in this hell,every single day,she won’t let you in,she just walks away. You wonder about her, and how she deals, but not once do you ask, simply how she feels. Is it that you are afraid,of the answer you shall receive, if she actually told you, the you probably wouldn’t believe. So you go on about your way, pretending she isn’t there, maybe next time you’ll look deeper, into her blank stare. Invisible she will remain, until someone decides to care, when that person finally does, she will be free from this nightmare.
Under The Gun .. More
  Handle This I painted my eyes for you today Coal black raccoon smears from lid to brow   and back again A motivational mourning of all the soggy apologies for your absence The mirror seemed seasick. . shaky as I shyly stared into the eyes of a little girl who doesn't know how to love what you've become What i have become The clock on the wall clangs like a register closing a final sale I watch it regurgitate the minutes and hours wasted in the pride of being your sunset   Your heir   You kept blowing out my light, til all that was left were the ashes I blink again as the mirror steadies My spirit turned black as the the make-up running down in rivers against my adult child cheeks   I can handle this
Still Talking Shit....
unfortunatly people cant keep my name out of their mouths... i dont rank, chase rates or ask for family adds. I help ANYTIME im asked.. but yet im constantly asked y someone who doesnt visit me or help me out is removed from my family? or ive even been told the help i give is why people aren't helped or even attacked in mafia! (how crazy is this?)   my answer to you people is....EARN IT or PAY FOR IT! im sure i dont deserve many family spots im in...u wont see me EVER bitch to u that im removed. feel free to do so anytime for any reason!   2ndly (lol) STFU about how much i do on fubar...if i did nothing it would be none of your bussiness! i dont need a SS or so called "proof"...everyone ive helped knows the truth!   lastly... im in the process of un-faning all people im not friends if someone asks you wy H3rbal blocked them.... tell them its cause they r not my friend and their page is set to friends only andthe only way to remove my fan on a private profile
Sick And Tired...
A wise man once said: "The only appropriate response to an outrageous situation is outrage." That wise man was my Dad. I’m pretty sure he was quoting somebody, and while I know there’s a virtual equivalent of "Bartlett’s Familiar Quotations" on the web somewhere and I think I even bookmarked it once, using it right now seems like more trouble than it’s worth. Actually, outrage itself is getting pretty hard for me to muster up these days, because frankly, I’m exhausted just trying to prioritize everything intolerable I experience in five minutes. I mean, on the one hand there’s Ethnic cleansing, but on the other I just stubbed my toe, really hard, and that makes twice today. Do you know what I’m saying? I mean, yes, sure, fine, all my clothes are made in third world sweatshops by malnourished preteens and if I don’t wear this crap I have to go naked because my dead end job just barely covers the bloated, grotesque debt that I'm in.
Do You People Know How Crazy You Really Are?
If you're like me, and whether you want to admit it or not... you are, you enjoy a refreshing gulp of icy cold water on just about any given day. But long gone are the days when we would dash toward the water fountain after yet another gym class which confirmed that we had little to no hand-eye coordination whatsoever. Nowadays, those of us looking to halt our hankerings for H2O not only avoid tap water sources, we usually pay good money to drink it straight from the bottle. And don't try to pretend you're above the whole bottled water thing, telling me you've never had it before, because you have had it and you know it. Whether it's been on a lunch break, at a movie theater, or at one of those lengthy outdoor concert events where you paid 7 bux for a bottle of the stuff so you wouldn't die of dehydration, you've had it before and you'll have it again. And why not? If there's one thing mankind needs to do it's stuff our landfills with as much plastic as possible at an accelerated pace.
Star Signs - As They Ought To Be Written!
Seen a few people doing this of late and thought it would be fun to have a go at writing my own version:* Aries: Narcissistic yet full of self-loathing, the Arian believes he's the deepest, most sensitive and insightful of all beings and that everyone in the world but him is an imbecile. Hilariously for the rest of us, their own naivety is always their undoing and we frequently get to say "I told you that would happen". A train wreck of a human being. A bit of a c*nt. Taurus: A well-meaning pushover whose laid back attitude makes them perfect doormat material. They are not particularly valued and taken seriously in relationships as they tend to have the sexual dynamism on an elderly nun. Even so, they're warm, loyal and lovable like a Dachshund puppy but equally dim and probably easier to train. A bit of a c*nt. Gemini: An infuriatingly superficial and contrary little tosspot who spends every waking hour of their shallow little life trying to pretend they're all dee
Difficult Concept?
I've noticed many changes since I came back to FuBar after a long hiatus, some good and other not so good.  One thing I've noticed is some people get blocked and then want to point fingers like a ten-year-old and "this person deletes comments and blocks people" as it's a magical mantra which excuses the person doing the pointing.  Since this site is inteded for adults one would think as adults each of us woulld understand why someone might have their comments deleted from someone else's profile page, MUMM, or blog -- as I've seen it just isn't that simple.   The reason why some people can't understand why they get blocked boils down to a failure to accept that other people are deserving of simple common courtesy, and the minimum of respect needed for a, well, civil society to exist.  Yet so often those who scream the most about how their freedom to say what they want was denied don't realize their freedom to express themselves stops where the next person's freedom of eexpression begi
Sept 2012 - Fake Of The Day Archived Posts
Here's the Fakes of the Day Archives for September 2012: Love. The everlasting con job: Kyla- Another Gem Girl creation: Scar- Busted:
The Sun Sets When Your Away
The sun shines in my hair when you are with me and when you are with me i smile like nothing is ever wrong with me. But when you are away the sun starts to set in the   october months and everything starts to crumble around me like you never made me happy before... i have always loved you and i always will no matter how mad you make me or   how bad you hurt me... i have always been here for you and i always will be i love how you make me feel in the late october months as the chilly air sets around and settles the mist onto the ground
        I'm writing this for the few people on here that might give a damn about me and not just points on this site.. I spent years desiding if I wanted to have Oral surgery for my over and under cross bite. I had braces for 3 years when I was younger to try to fix the issue and my Ortho said the only way to fix it was surgery. At the time my parents insurance diden't cover it. They considered it cosmetic surgery... But now times have changed and I have developed other problems with it such as not being able to sleep, chewing food, always biting my tongue, lip,cheek ect. So my dentist has strongly suggested this to me for a few years and now I think I am finally ready to have a normal looking face and be able to breath and sleep well.. I am just waiting for my dentist to make the referal sence I desided this today then I will make my First appt. This will be to deside if the surgeon thinks its as bad as my dentist feels it is. And if its bad enough for my insurance for it to be consid
Imagine Everything Minute
Just imagine that I never stayed, What would you say to that? Would you hate me? I’m ready to go, Imagine what life would be without me?   You’ll properly be better off on your own, ‘Cause I bring you down all the time, And I’ll never say sorry, Till the last minute when you’re gone   And I’ll sing a sad song with your name, And I’ll blame me for not, for not loving you back, Imagine if I had spent every minute with you, Instead of without you   Imagine if I said I truly love you, Instead of leaving you crying in someone else arms, What if I said sorry? Instead of leaving you in a hurry   Imagine if I was with you right now, Instead of being over here with someone else, When that someone isn’t you
Ok here it is... I am confused and I am sooo unhappy... I thought when I divorced my ex wife I would find another woman and settle down and be happy...    well that didnt happen LOL.. as you can imagine I did find another woman.. we were together for 7 yrs.. (ex wife has been married 3 times since the divorceLOL) but we were not ment to be together and we both knew I left Albuquerque and moved back to hobbs... and here I am.. lonely... out of work... broke..(I will find a job.. but that just cures being broke)..     I can do what I want and all that but I do everything alone.. if i cook... I eat it alone I go to bed and get up alone... I cant just go out and FIND a woman and say hey I dont want to be alonfe LMAO... so I will just write  ewat , sleep.. and on and on alone.    I have always known I will die alone.. dont ask how I know just that I know.. it really doest bother me that much.. but I dont want to live alone.. there is so much for me to share and I cant because I
My life is a walk in the rain. That stinging pain covers my body. ice cold shards of my broken heart melt away and fall from the sky, All for that demonic fucking guy. The only one I've ever cared about built me up just to tear me down. The only one I've ever let in, the secret that kept me alive.. Everything about him is my favorite sin. Some say it was wrong, I guess they were right. Sit and think, listening to the whispers of the wind. Souless house, brightened by moonlight. He never wanted to know me, asking for help but he'll never see why I'm broken.
Fun To Read..
 Dear Wife, I’m writing you this letter to tell you that I’m leaving you forever. I’ve been a good man to you for 7 years & I have nothing to show for it. These last 2 weeks have been hell. ... Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today & that was the last straw. Last week, you came home & didn’t even notice I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal & even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You ate in 2 minutes, & went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don’t tell me you love me anymore; you don’t want sex or anything that connects us as husband & wife. Either you’re cheating on me or you don’t love me anymore; whatever the case, I’m gone. Your EX-Husband P.S. don’t try to find me. Your SISTER & I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life! Dear Ex-Husband Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It’s true you & I have been married for 7 ye
I send a round daily to each of the three options.This means my friends get 2 drinks a day, if you dont then you have not fanned me and might want to.The fact that I get up to 15 drinks from certain ppl is quite time consuming and annoying.I will, from now on only send out 1 additional drink beyond the rounds.If I keep getting all these drinks from the same ppl I will be forced to delete you.Spending hours on drinks alone costs me many points, and friends/fans.I am sorry but I have asked for ppl not to do this, but it is not stopping.I really enjoy you ppl plz just STOP SENDING ALL THOSE DRINKS
I've had a few exciting days recently. If you don't know already (and that means we don't talk much), I love to bead. I've been beading advanced stitches since 2004. Not the string on type, I make fabric out of beads; I can take your family portrait and turn it into a piece of art made of colored glass. I started making flowers recently because so many people like to put things in their hair. Especially flowers. Thing is, my flowers last forever compared to the ones you pick from the ground. :) I make other things too, purses, earrings, necklaces, bracelets, bookmarks, suncatchers...I can pretty much make anything. I've been traveling all over the last few years and I've had the pleasure of beading with people from different places and/or passing through their shops and seeing other people's designs. I've been looking for that niche...Thanks to our new friend and roommate, I met a woman today that has a classy, upscale boutique and salon that will be a perfect spot for my designs. :) A
Take Me All
Take me all in one night can you handle come to me tonight lets see if you can. I dear you come here and prove it to me and make love to me to night with all you have. I have not seen you in a few nights my love. You want other women to take home tonight see if they make you love you the way I do .... lick you the way I do sex you the way I do... I was not walking the night to you alone. You did not ask me tell it was late. I understand it's a mans night out I am a women I want to  have fun. Do you know me this way I think not. Why test me this way lets dance this dance I can keep up with you in this night  come to me I will be here for you no matter what. You can always Come to my door and see what I will give to you as a real women and make you feel like a real man oooo just see what a hot night will bring my love    bY Christine 12/5/2012 this is to the one I may fall in love with one day... he knows who he is yes he does and he is so hard to get and he can not say he is falling for
These Guys Are Jerks And They Have No Clue What Country Muisc Really Is!!!!!
These guys are jerks and they have no clue what country muisc really is!!!!!  Okay well it is something that happened to me in traffic when I was going to pick up my daughter from her  grandmaw's house. Kinda controversial I suppose maybe not. Anyways, so I was driving in Georgia traffic and anyone who knows me knows that I ride with the windows down (IDC if it is 100* outside) and country music blaring. So I am at the stop light and these guys pull up to me and say, "Aren't you a little too young to be playing that kind of music WTH do you know about country music?" I was offended at first but quickly recovered and replied with just as much of an ignorant statement as theirs. They were blaring rap music and I said back to them "Aren't you a little to stupid to be playing that kind of music WTH do you know about rap music??!!" They looked at me like I was a freaking alien and then tried to race me at the light (for the record I blew their asses away in my car). But after I got my daug
A Fun Work Tale
Two black guys (don't call me racist, how else can I put this into context?) came in to my work today and put a huge smile on my face. Once they walked in the one looked at me awestruck and said "so you're telling me I can come in here to get a tan and then send some mail?!" I laughed and replied "yep, do you want to tan after this.. you're looking a little pasty". Perhaps somewhere else this would have upset someone but State College is a strange little community. He then pointed out that people tanned because they're trying to obtain his skin tone. Touche sir! They came in to send a phone back and had everything they needed but no clue what to do with it. We found the shipping label, put the phone in the box, I slapped a piece of tape on it with the shipping label on top and said that's all there is to it. I told them if my boss was there I'd have to charge them $1 for 'packaging services' but I frankly think that's obscene for a piece of tape and 3 minutes of labor.  Just a typical
(some) Of What I Far...
i know what it's like to be alone,   i know what it's like to be homeless. i know what it's like to be addicted. i know what it's like to be rejected. i know what it's like to be hurt. i know what it's like to face fear. i know what it's like to be disappointed. i know what it's like to disappear. i know what it's like to be divorced. i know what it's like to feel lost. i know what it's like to be fired. i know what it's like to face a liar. i know what it's like to be unloved. i know what it's like to be unsure. i know what it's like to be upset. i know what it's like to be dirt poor. i know what it's like to not say goodbye. i know what it's like to lose parents. i know what it's like to lose a friend. i know what it's like to smile and pretend. i know what it's like to be told i'm no good. i know what it's like to be told i'm not enough. i know what it's like to be the other lover. i know what it's like to be handcuffed. i know what it's like to be ugly. i
Precious Moments
Life provides only a series of precious moments that make someone feel for an eternity. Her love and strength through adversity. The test of time that proves no one will ever see her back away. The broken scraps recombined to make herself whole again are only a shattered reminder of something that can not be destroyed. The beauty of her heart only shadowed by cracks it has been given. With each beat is life proving you can not break her. That strength, you could not anticipate. Trial by fire and brimstone this girl has been through hell. Never backing to to a corner she stands strong and proud, this world can not bring her down. Wolfs in sheep's clothing nipping at her knees, she pleas for peace and no one will let her be. Kind and simple is what she displays, the advantages people take their loss her gain. Once she turns her back you must forever let her go, If you hurt her once the torch that burns you is the last thing she will leave your heart to feel. Emptiness is all that she lea
Why do so many play the game of being something they are not. How can one build trust if they can not be themselves, it so they may pray on the vulnerabilities of ones searching for what they seek.I am not sure why it is not more interesting to learn all you can about someone before ordering them about. How can you guide someone on a journey and seek control if you do not know what is within the mind and body of her/his being.Enjoy the gift one gives as they surrender but  be true to them and ton yourself for with the surrender it is a responsibility given and a great one when you accept.
This Great Burden
I have a huge burden on my shoulders that will never go away.  I will carry it with me until the day I die.  You see, I suffer from depression with anxiety and bipolar disorder.  This is probably the reason I have been single for so long.  I have tried to keep it under control, but the past couple of weeks have been total hell for me.  My gall bladder surgery has knocked my chemicals all out of whack and I am worried the person I have my eye on is just gonna say fuck this and drop me.   All I ask for is some understanding and support.  It means a great deal to me.
Were Still Rokken
Come Check out the tunes! See what you like, what are some of your favorite bands and all.  What is y9ur Favorite Ragencobra tune, Guitar, drum maker?   Keep it Rokken and upbeat    Jeff Ragencobra    you can also buy the material at
Missing You
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If Ever Had Crush on someone and you  were a scared to  tell them  would tell them yes or no
The Other Pair Of Shoes
Half inch short of the toe, Snug to the heel, Yet harsh on the "sole"   Ten paces and pride, Nine agonizing steps and petrified.   Denial and diversion between designated paths can only have consequences separated by faith and failure.   By William H. Kramer
Going Away
When I get home from Vegas, I may disappear for a while.  I haven't been taking very good care of myself physically or emotionally.  I'm a horrible mess, no good to anyone right now. 
I Was Laughing So Hard But Felt Bad
Never Count On Your Kids
I don't write too many blogs but I had to write one today. This past year I had been searching for a new, less expensive apartment to move into to save money. About 2 months ago, my youngest daughter approached me with an idea of moving into an apartment together so we could both save on expenses. She had just gone through a bitter divorce so this would be perfect for her to start over, and for me to catch up and get some cash in the bank.  We found a place that would be good so I signed a lease, got the utilities started, cable started, and started to move in my things. Didn't move much since my sons wouldn't be able to help until the following weekend. My daughter moved all her things over, but refused to put things in the kitchen away until mgt replaced the garbage disposal. So there was no where to cook any food, no place to store any food, thus eating out.  Add to that, if I felt like watching a ball game, she let it be known that didn't please her one bit. In short, she made me
Small Town Boy....
You leave in the morning With everything you own In a little black case Alone on a platform The wind and the rain On a sad and lonely face Mother will never understand Why you had to leave But the answers you seek Will never be found at home The love that you need Will never be found at home Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away. Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away. Pushed around and kicked around Always a lonely boy You were the one That they'd talk about around town As they put you down And as hard as they would try They'd hurt to make you cry But you never cried to them Just to your soul No you never cried to them Just to your soul Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away. Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away. Cry , boy, cry... You leave in the morning With everything you own In a little black case Alone on a platform The wind and the rain On a sad and lonely face Run away, turn awa
Spell Checker
Spell CheckerI halve a spelling checker, It came with my pea see. It plainly marks four my revue Mistakes I dew knot sea.Eye strike a key and type a word And weight four it two say Weather eye am wrong oar write  It shows me strait aweigh.As soon as a mist ache is maid It nose bee fore two long And eye can put the era rite Its rarely ever wrong.I've scent this massage threw it, And I'm shore your pleased too no Its letter prefect in every weigh; My checker tolled me sew.
Before you wanna be an asshole with your girl,think about this...... While your ignoring her, another guy is giving her attention, While your giving her problems another guy is listening.... While your to busy for her another guy is making time for her, While you make her cry another guy is trying to make her smile again. When your not sure you want her another guy has already figured it out.
The Master
He Holds His Beloved Always In the Palms of His Hands Gently Lovingly Patiently   Her Best interest He Serves Altho He Is Honored and Served Well He Humbles Himself But to No Other Purpose Than To Lead Her Guide her Love Cherish and Protect Her   For She has become His Greatest Gift Her Mind Body Soul And Spirit.. She willingly Yields to HIM Not Blindly But with All presence of Choice Knowing In HIM she will Blossom and Become what She was designed to be She is Beautiful And Before Her Master She Presents to Him Everything He Needs To Be Complete   Together The Union  Is Perfect
Fell In...
love with the words..... We are all a volume on a shelf of a library, a story unto ourselves, never possibly described with one word or even very accurately with thousands. A person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem, or as bad or good, as vulnerable or as strong, as sweet or as feisty; we are thickly layered, page upon lying page, behind simple covers. And love - it is not the book itself, but the binding. It can rip us apart or hold us together. till next time...the princess xx
Wow, Here Tells Of My Life, On Facebook, Back And Forth Comments With My Sister,
well dad is helping out less and less all the time, and now Will jr, will have his hands full " he won`t be able to help me much at all now, and i was having hard enough time with there help sometimes, so i can see it`s just going to get worse and worse for me, now i can understand why my aunt Carol did what she did, looking at month after month after month of that coming down the road. Like · Dislike · Angela Parkell u better stop talking like that get out take a walk call your sister or me iam right here stop saying that shit my mom said u better stp that or she is comming over and kicking your ass lol Yesterday at 4:16pm · Like
Ragdoll Is Just Kinda Lost Right Now
This Morning Has been interesting I have had great conversations with my Fubar Family member whom I love and adore Made some new Friends Tried to pass along the Love and The Smiles on this Tuesday...   Its what I strive to do...   For the last year I had hope In Miracles I couldnt perform On So Many Levels I have Been saying ~Live~ Laugh~Love~ For now going on 10 years Or More Now I see the phrases everywhere On Plaques Welcome Mats even country songs   I have tried to Live..the best I could Laugh whenever I could..Its Good Medicine And Last but Not least...Love With ALL My Heart With ALL My Soul And ALL My Body   I tried and I failed   There is nothing more for me to lose... This Morning The Mailman was the bearer of Bad Bad News...   At the end of this month.....
Many Dreams
I have many dreams in life. Some have been fulfilled and many have not. A few WILL come true before I leave this life!!! I think I would, myself, be surprised at some of the sexual dreams that have AND have not come true. If I truly think hard about it.    I have dreamed of meeting famous people. I'll never meet Einstein, Vivien Leigh...what an amazing beauty she was. What a shame, and I know there are too many to mention.     I have a few celebrity crushes that I will never meet. *cries* Michio Kaku (it's because he is a darling nerd), Anthony Bordain...he is crass, a drinking and eating fool and just doesn't give a flying fuck what anyone says or thinks, plus he is handsome as hell!    I have met some of my FAVE rock stars...KISS, Tesla...the list could go on.   But...because of my Daddio, who turned me on to Delbert McClinton (thank you, Daddio!) I'm not into country but Delbert is blues, rockabilly, country and just wonderful shit put together! And, from
First Auction
Please go to the link below and rate my auction pid and/or bid for me :) Bid starts at 5 mil fubucks.
Love Hurts
I guess in love you have to get burned a couple a times before you say forget it.. Im glad i have only had one man in my lifetime cuz i have come to realize fairly quickly that for most women are consider'd simple toys .. I have no desire to be a toy i dont want to be an0ther color in a mans rainbow of women i want to e the pot of gold at the end ... I dont want to be a diamond i want to be the pearl that came after the suffering ... Im wondering if the word love exists or is it just a way of trying to make you into a mindless toy Im tired of crying:( Maybe love just isn't for me..
I break down but I won’t back down, From these feelings inside of me, It’s all mine my cross to bear, In all fairness I’m doing this for myself and not you   Stand up lay down take one for the team, Feeling like am used and abused all over again, Even though they’re different faces and names, The situations are still the same   Tired of taking the blame righting my wrongs, Facing myself every time I look in the mirror, Yeah I know you’re up there laughing at me, ‘Cause I have one rule a line that shouldn’t be crossed, And I fucking crossed it   No one is perfect but damn it why can’t I try, Stuck in slow motion walking the same old line, Saying the same shit over and over again like a broken record, I guess I do for someone to hear and listen to me as pathetic as it sounds, You’re all I ever wanted   Standing outside your heaven knowing I will never get it, Perfection isn’t perfect if you have to bleed o
When Dreams Are No Longer Dreams
When I sleep I have deep dark nightmares that have haunt me from the time I was a child till now. When I wake it take a few minutes to realize that I am in reality and no longer where I was in the dream. It scares me at times because I will come out of the nightmare standing ready to defend my self. People can not touch me, not even my own kids they have to call out to me before they can approach them or I will come up swinging. I know there is alot to deal with from my past I just did not know it was this hard to deal with. To deal with my emotions is like trying to chip down the Berlin Wall.
Know A Liitle More
I hear people say, just let him go. I never listen because, there's so much they do not know. They don't know him, the way that I do. What lies beneath, his eyes of blue. He is beautiful yes, but his beauty runs deep. More beautiful than the tears, he has caused me to weep. Every one of my tears, has fallen down for a reason. Those reasons are what keeps, me believing. In him, the amazing man, I know him to be. The one he reveals, only to me. The compassionate, sincere, and just full of life soul. That is connected to mine, this man I know. The ONE that loves me, but from behind the scenes. The one that's always there, providing me. With more emotion than, I ever knew existed. The epitome of love, is what he is. To me so know a little more, before you say things you don't understand. For me there is only ONE, no one quite compares to this man.
The First Time...
The first time… what a magical moment it is going to be.. In my dream of our first time, I picture that I arrive before you, preparing the room in anticipation for the much-awaited first union of our souls. I place cherry & vanilla candles throughout the room, creating a path of halos to light your way to me. A fire burns strongly in the stone fireplace, the smell of cedar filling the air. I put in a CD of Kenny G. The soft sultry sounds of a sax fill my head, the music dancing with my soul. I draw a bath to relax my nerves before your arrival. As I undress the steam in the room caresses my body, a sheen of sweat beads on my forehead. I pull my hair up and climb into the sunken tub. The white fluffy bubbles envelope me and the fragrance of Rafinee fills the air. The candles cast a comforting glow on the walls as I begin to unwind from the days work. I lay back, my eyes closed, letting the music transport me to another place. Time passes and with it the day's troubles fall like
That Girl...
So here I am... the proverbial Tom Boy, the chick from all the beginning parts of movies... the one so many girls THINK they are. But it's me, I am more comfortable in cleats than I will ever be in even sandals let alone heels. I can throw a football further than a lot of guys I know, I am a couch cuddling fiend during NFL season from Sunday through Monday in order to ses optimal number of games... I enjoy watching other sports if someone is willing to explain them to me and I had my time playing football as well. I love motorcycles like you would not believe, my father and brothers had me tearing down and wrenching on bikes before I could sit to hold them upright on top of one and the passion runs deep. The downside? My friends have always been guys, I don't give excuses of it being less drama or girls being problematic... I just get men on the friend level... unfortunately this means I get friendzoned far too easily and i don't know how to rectify it. You've probably seen the movie M
One Night Only
 What would you do if you had one last night to share hot, steamy, passionate love with that special someone? If you only had one night to show them that they were all you needed in your life? This is my story of that one night…   It had been too long since I last touched his warm, smooth skin, smelled his scent, and tasted his flesh. Now that I had him here with me, I wanted to take my time and memorize every inch of him. I wondered if he had any idea what he did to me? What I felt whenever I saw the smallest part of his flesh? Snickering wickedly inside I thought…after tonight he would.   I get the most electrifying thrill that runs through me whenever I catch a glimpse of his stomach as his shirt raises; a deep wantonly ache whenever I stare at his manly bulge; and an ungodly desire that fills me when I catch him staring at my chest.   Simply put -- I love his body. I love touching it, caressing it, licking it, and tasting it. I love the smell, the heat, an
That Little Word
Love A word that can be heard within a whisper, Can be felt with the brush of a hand, Can be seen in the tears dripping from a chin Scream it and yet it will never be heard by some, Incapable of processing the meaning. Grab them with all your might and still they will never feel it, Unable to sense your soul pouring out to them. Let the tears flow like a dam breaching a levee but they turn away unwilling to understand each tear is a piece of your heart, Catching them in you hands trying to give it to them Unwanted love from a wanting heart, Something that can tear you apart                                                                                 
My Friends Mean Everything To Me.. This Is To All Of You
Why would I want to collect those?    1. They are only 1 credit. 2. They've been around for a while and I'm thinking they will stay here for a while 3. They are cute 4. It reminds me of old school cherry tap   That is all :)
Being Alone Is The Hardest Thing To Do
So i am extremely and overally emotional right now.  i HATE this time of year, its sad most people are all excited, they are with their kids, picking out their halloween costumes and getting ready for halloween, or if ur single ur getting ready for one of the biggest party day nights at bars of the year.  I am not on either one of those.  I am NOT looking forward to this halloween at all.  That day has got to be the worst for me ever yet.  I have been acting over emotional lately and saying wrong things and pissing everyone off and being overlly needy and this is why.  In a week, it will be the annv and death of my baby.  I had a miscarriage in 07, i never knew i was preg, the doctors told me i'd never get preg.  i was 6 mnths along and i had a miscarriage at my house, not knowing at all what was happenening to me.  I had been going to the doc off and on all those 6 mnths and they were treating me for kidney stones, never once did a preg test on me.  well i had the miscariage and went
An Old Man
An old man once said,"There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living."õ¿õ
Happy Face
hi everyone hope your night is going good mine sure is lets have some fun and be friends
New Life With Friends On Here
Leaving .....
Leaving don't know when I will be back again.... bY Christine .
One Of These Days!
When two hearts connect, it's gives off the most beautiful light. One that can be seen, in the darkest of night. Too powerful to disguise, there's no drowning it out. It takes you by surprise, leaving no room for doubt. The broken roads traveled, made a path for you to follow. Leading further away from the yesterday's, and looking forward to tomorrow's. When you can speak to someone, directly from your soul. That's when it's pure, when you have no control. KNOWING they love you, without them having to say a word. That's the kinda love I have, and it's more than I ever hoped for. My path is right in front of me, I shall not stray. Because it will lead me to YOU, one of these days!
Thanks For Coming To Save The Tatas
I wanted to thank everyone that showed  up last night to save the tatas it was extremely successful, we got up to 102 people in Orgy After Hours so I donated 102$ to breast cancer awareness fund, plus handed out 6 save the tatas blings so we doonated in total 108 dollars to a very worthy cause.  We could  have not done it without all your  help and support so I wanted to post this blog  just to say thanks, and it meant alot!!  Keep an eye out for future big events coming from Orgy After Hours and again thank you all of you and  much love (h) .   Tsmooth
Sum Up!
I have had major issues with my hip/pelvis for about 2 months now. I went to the hospital and after four questions, the doctor said it was my Sciatic Nerve. I waited a few weeks and after there was NO change I went to another place. Again, they said it was my Sciatic Nerve. At that point, I was given a few sheets with exercises to do (which I couldn't because it hurt too bad) and some pain meds. Those didn't really help. They made me sleepy, but I still couldn't walk because the pain was so bad. FINALLY I take my stubborn ass to a Chiropractor. He's a little upset that neither place took an xray. He said they should have to at least rule out a bone issue since I was having such a hard time walking. He took about 6 xrays and did a few exercises to pin point where I was having my real issue. I'm not sure how many he did that day, but the last two he did nearly made me cry. When he did those he said, "That just ruled out your Sciatic Nerve. Those last two exercises were for your hip." I
I Can't...
I can't take much more.... no gun in my hand, they Wanta get mine just matter of time they will still it, no gun in my hand, I can't take much more.... I like to fly out of here losing my soul. I can't take much more I braking out losing control, I want it now braking out.....never coming down new black just leaving for today I can't take much more, talking to myself pictures in my head trying to save myself but myself keeps slipping away.... I need to move on I can't really say I have to be true to myself so I"ll be on my way. I feel like I am falling in Love                   bY Christine 10/28/2012      1:03 PM 
A Million More
The moon had a distinct aura that night. The sea made a whistling noise she wasn’t trying to fight. With lazy naked feet, she walked through the wet sand. Wishing to be deep within the water, surrounded by no land. Deeply, she went into the sea. Still wondering if it was this life, she wanted to flee. Then as a saving grace, he arrived with the tide. A majestic cologne, having its joy ride. The sea turned to gold, with a single touch. Then he smiled, and her heart began to clutch. The sea itself was mesmerized, by this beautiful man in gleams. Leaving her wondering, if she was still in her dreams. Surrounded by the sea there he was, moon light shining upon his golden hair. With such a beautiful face, tranquility so rare. Who are you? Gathering the courage she finally asked. He smiled in his beauty, the nature basked. He said I was sent to serve you. What do you wish of me? I shall grant you one wish, and then I go free. With his single wish, he
The Best Seat In The House
I have the best seat in the house, a perfect view of the human race. I see smiles, tears, both humility and disgrace. Looking around, I can see perfectly. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Firsthand I hear, the bartender’s advice. Some is uplifting, while most isn’t so wise. I see painful disappointment, etched on faces. I hear war stories of survival, people and places. Of failed times, and broken expectations. I take a seat somewhere else, avoiding the miscommunications. There’s a couple intertwined, on the dance floor. The alcoholic begging for drinks, because he is poor. Then a fight erupts, while two play pool. Thrown out by the bouncer, like a couple of fools. Trying to settle stupidity, with violence and misrules. I watch a humiliating man’s, mating call. With a pretty woman, trying to stall. I wonder if I intervened, if his plan would stonewall. Across the room, a woman stares and sways. Up to some poor guy, who has
All I Have
I don't have a lot of money,Or material things to give to you.But the one thing I have to give is me.I would be there through the ups an downs,if you will open up and let me in.I can love you through the good and bad times you face,If only you would stop being scared,To let love touch your heart again.With me all I can offer you is happiness,That's all I have to give..
Make You Feel My Love
When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I would offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years To make you feel my love I know you haven't made your mind up yet But I would never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met No doubt in my mind where you belong I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you I'd go crawling down the aisle for you There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do To make you feel my love The storms are raging on a rolling sea Down the highway of regret The winds of change are blowing wild and free But you ain't seen nothing like me yet There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do Go to the ends of the earth for you Make you happy, make your dreams come true To make you feel my love
Some Kind Of Madnesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
She walks down the hall blood on the walls voices calling her name go to hell. She is crying out don't kill me save me someone help me it's dark in here. She must run out of here all the fear is over her and the darkness is near hell is coming over her to stay. There's a Red door she tries to open it and she falls deep in a hole of hell.... Happy happy Hallllllllllllwooooooooeeeeeeeeee ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sheeee diiieeeeee Madnessssss  bY Christine love Ya
Fubar Halloween Costume Contest 2012 Winners
We want to thank everyone for their participation. In fairness to all costume entries, the fubar staff chose the top 10 winners. We also added five honorable mentions. You guys exceeded our expectations, and we appreciate everyone's support! Meet the 2012 Winners!
The Big Bang Theory. Sheldon Cooper.   Why is it that I'm oddly enough, attracted to him. I've watched clips of the guy who plays him and NOT inot this guy. But Sheldon..I am.   Now let me get this straight. Jim Parsons is just like Sheldon, only slightly dumber. He has the same mannerisms and their "fashion" is about the same.  Am I attracted to his brains? I think so.....
He put his hands up to his face in horror. Just like some D-list actress in some B movie would do. A million times he’s seen that reaction on screen and thought to himself “no one fucking does that”. Well apparently they do, and he’s one of those people. It wasn’t because what he was witnessing was so graphic that he was just shielding his face from blood and guts, nor was it so disturbing either. He’d watched a man be killed with a hammer on the internet and had barely that level of a reaction. When he was ten, he watched his youngest brother be born. He could remember his weeping fathers face, red and swollen from 14 hours of crying, as if someone had knocked his ice cream cone out of his hand on to the dirt, and then raped him on top of it. He could also remember his screaming mother clawing and slashing at the air. The lower end of her positioned toward the ceiling, and her legs affixed to medical equipment. The violent swaying of he
Oral Sex
An Ode to Oral Sex Penis breath, a lover's dread Is what you get when you give head Unpleasant as it tends to be Be grateful that he doesn't pee It's times like this, you wonder why you bothered reaching for his fly But it's too late, can't be a tease Accept the facts, get on your knees You know you've got a job to do So open wide and shove it through Lick the tip then take it all Don't drag your teeth or he might bawl Slide up and down, use your tongue And feel the precum start to run Just, when you can't take anymore You hear your lover's mighty roar And when he hits that real high note You feel it oozing down your throat Salty, fishy, sticky, yuck!y stuff Okay, already that's enough Let's switch you say, before you gag And whats your revenge, your on the rag.  
What Will Happen To You?
WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU?You may  REFUSE to believe this explanation of the “Rapture” and warning about the “Tribulation.” In fact, you may  PREFER to believe the explanation given by the “world leader.” He and his staff  WILL DECEIVEmany of you who are left on the earth after the Rapture. He will even demand your worship by the threat of your death (Rev. 13:11-15).IF you find it EASY to believe him, it may be because you neglected or willfully refused to trust Jesus Christ as your personal Saviour 100%, prior to the Rapture. Your present response was predicted (II Thes. 2:8-12). You will probably continue to follow the “world leader” by worshipping him and wearing his identifying mark.YOUR ETERNAL FUTURE IS PROPHESIED:—If anyone worships the beast (Antichrist) and his image and receives his mark on his forehead or upon his hand, he also will drink of the wine of the WRATH of God which is mixed in full strength in the cup of His ange
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Life Is A Prison Life is a prison,Oh God let me out.No one to listen,To hear when you shout.Climb the walls of insanity,Ride the waves of despair.If you fall it don't matter,There's no one to care.Used to wish for a window,To see birds, trees and sky,But you're better without one -Stops you aiming too high.Watching freedom is painful,For those locked away.Seeing joy, love and happiness,Another price that you pay.Strong is good, weak is bad.Be it false, be it true.Your mind makes the choice,And enforces it too.Cell walls built by society,With rules to adhere.If you breach the acceptable,You had better beware.Hide the pain, carry on,Routine is the key.Don't let on that you're not,What you're pretending to be.Lock it all up inside you,How badly that bodes.Look out for that one day,When it all just explodes.Leaving naught but a shell,Base functionality too.But killing all else,That was uniquely you.So how do you grow,With a timebomb inside?Or how to defuse it,Without destroyin
This Is A Poem I Wrote For A Friend That Is Now Gone!
Sitting here thinking of all the time we spent Talking on the phone or the computer The things we always said we would do but never did Wishing we did them so I would have them memories as well Wishing that I had never gotten that call Knowing I will never hear your voice again Or the laughter or the smile you always brought to my face You was always there for me threw the good and the bad Making sure I was always happy and never sad You were one of my best friends And more then I could ever ask for You always had a away of making life seem brighter You were like a sister to me that he could never understand He tried so hard to push you down and make you weak But you were always stronger then he thought you to be You was such a wonderful beautiful person with so much more life to live And so much more love to give I know things in this world happen for a reason I know you’ll be watching over us all from up above And waiting for us to come home and be with you And I kno
I Loved U First
"I loved you first: but afterwards you I loved you first: but afterwards your love     Outsoaring mine, sang such a loftier song As drowned the friendly cooings of my dove.     Which owes the other most? my love was long,     And yours one moment seemed to wax more strong; I loved and guessed at you, you construed me And loved me for what might or might not be –     Nay, weights and measures do us both a wrong. For verily love knows not ‘mine’ or ‘thine;’     With separate ‘I’ and ‘thou’ free love has done,          For one is both and both are one in love: Rich love knows nought of ‘thine that is not mine;’          Both have the strength and both the length thereof, Both of us, of the love which makes us one.
Loosing Love Ones
  Many of us have lost ones that mean a lot to us, but i lost one that is hard for me to bounce back from. On November 19, 2011 I lost my older brother Joe. He was 2 years older than me but he was like my twin. Let me tell you a little about him.    Joe was a very strong man even thought his body was not strong. He had a disease that most of the time wouldn't have allowed him to do as much as he did. Joe would not let his disease or his doctors limit him from what he wanted. Everyone loved him and he could put a smile on peoples faces that were having such bad days that they were ready to just cry. He was told that his disease would kill him early, since they only gave him a life expectancy of 20-25, but that did not stop him from loving the people in his life and being an inspiration.     At 6 years old Joe was diagnosed with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy or DMD. At the age of 10 he was in a wheelchair and told that he would never walk again. As he had to give up things such as kickba
Gas N Oil
Obama's 2% Lie Gas prices shot up 18 cents on average nationwide over the past two weeks, according to the latest Lundberg survey. That puts the average cost of regular gas at $3.69 a gallon. Of course, many of you around the country are already paying over $4. President Obama, members of his administration, Democrats in Congress, and his allies on the left all make the same case: we can't "drill our way" out of this problem. They say we use a quarter of the world's oil, but only have 2% of the world's oil reserves. So, do the math. They say it's impossible, but here's how he gets to that mythical 2%. For simplicity, we'll call it Obama's big oil lie because that's what it is. They're only counting proven oil reserves. The truth is that 2% oil reserves figure is whatever the government says it is. Here’s the official definition from the non-partisan Congressional Research service. Proven reserves are: "certainty to be recoverable in future years from known reservoirs und
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Bullied -a New Generation-
Bullied -A New Generation-                 There is a new generation of kids being bullied for many reasons and now they are taking their lives to find relief. Relief from being bullied about being gay. Bullied for acne, bullied for being over weight, bullied for glasses, bullied for spelling and reading issues and bullied for being just different. We all need to take a stand and teach eachother that everyone is different and everyone has feelings and everyone wants to feel accepted.                 Its not just kids bulling other kids, teachers and school staff can bully a child. Employers and co-workers can bully each other. Customers can bully employees. Child abuse is a form of bulling. I remember being bullied in elementary school. The other kids would tease me about my name and call me stupid because I am not reading and writting at the same level they were. I fought a good portion of my teachers trying to get my education. I was called names at home by my father and still to t
It's well into summer and the weather has been spectacular. The girl is well into her journey around the island by kayak. She's been travelling this way for 2 weeks and is in the final stretches of completing the circle. Her time has been one of escape, excitement and learning. Each night a new place to sleep, whether it be a remote beach with her little campfire, or one of the remote cabins on this desolate place in the world. She has met new people along the way and has been welcomed wherever she's landed. The sound of the waves hitting the rocky shore is soothing, the gentle rocking of the small kayak a constant reminder of where she is. It's late in the day and almost time to set up camp. Just one more point to go around and she'll pull up on the beach. As she rounds the point, she sees a little cabin, floating in a small bay. Smoke rises from the chimney. She slowly paddles her way towards it, hoping she'll meet yet another friendly person. As she bumps up against the d
Felt Like Crying =/
I know you, who are you now?Look into my eyes if you can't remember.Do you remember, oh?I can see, I can still findYou're the only voice my heart can recognizeBut I can't hear you now, yeah.I'll never be the sameI'm caught inside the memories, the promisesare yesterdays and I belong to you.I just can't walk away'cause after loving youI can never be the same.And how can I pretend I've never known you?Like it was all a dream, no.I know I'll never forgetthe way I always felt with you beside meand how you loved me then, yeah.You led me here,then I watched you disappear.You left this emptiness inside and I can't turn back timeNo, stay!Nothing compares to you.Nothing compares to you.I can't let you go,Can't let you go.I can't let go.I'll never be the same,not after loving you,not after loving you, no.I can never be the same.I will never be the same.Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.I just can't walk away.No, I can't walk away from you. - Red
Many people will wonder why this president causes me to worry.  I'm not an idealog, radical nor racist, but I have studied history and the direstion this president is heading brings to mind the ways the following have come to dictatorship, Napoleon, Hitler, Stalin, Mao, Chiang Kai-Chek, Castro and Chavez.  They first establish a 'cult of personality', they pick a portion of the populace to demonize and place all blame on, (rich, big business and conservatives), establishes strick gun control to disarm possible opposition, gains control of the majority of media outlets.  The only thing this person is short of is absolute control of the military, but he has enough people in the military that would support him in exchange for suitable rewards.  The largest worry I have is that he is stupid enough to think that he can invite outside sources to help him to establish himself and thinks his Elite education will keep him ahead of them.
Weird Women On Fubar
I can say after a year on fubar I have met all types of women. Most have been pleasant knowing, but some, well let's just say the word freak comes to mind.   Is it me or are some of the younger women just out to pay back something in real life?  I wonder because who I thought was a good friend turned on me over some lies said about me.  She failed to understand even my helping in the game. Blinging a boomy to someone who has a famp so she can run, and I was in her family.   She told me she cared, we talked on the phone, then all hell broke loose.  Yelled at me for visiting my family, blinging them, and friends for level requirements. Just stupid jealosy on her part. But why believe what someone says, unless you are guilty of acts which were done with the other. Just venting about stupidity.    
Letting Go Takes Love
LETTING GO TAKES LOVE To let go does not mean to stop caring,it means I can't do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off,it's the realization I can't control another. To let go is not to enable,but allow learning from natural consequences. To let go is to admit powerlessness, which meansthe outcome is not in my hands. To let go is not to try to change or blame another,it's to make the most of myself. To let go is not to care for,but to care about. To let go is not to fix,but to be supportive. To let go is not to judge,but to allow another to be a human being. To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,but to allow others to affect their destinies. To let go is not to be protective,it's to permit another to face reality. To let go is not to deny,but to accept. To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them. To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,but to take each day as
He Said
He said to take his hand, what did it get me! pain in my heart this night I am not free, I am not free of love stop saying this to me is this real love. He said to take his hand, what did it get me! pain in my heart this night I am not free, I am not free of love stop saying this to me is this real love. He said to take his hand.   bY Christine   Just let me die in the night.....
With her jaws locked tight,in a vicious feed..To satisfy her hunger,to fullfill her need...She tugs as she drinks,as her inner is filled...With eyes wild and glowing,from the hunt, from the kill...Licking her fingers, not wasting a drop...the killing continues, till the struggling stops...She raises from her prey,and straightens her back...Fixes her flowing hair, of raven black...Gently she wipes away,the remanence from her lips...Straighten's up her petty coat,pulling it down towards her hips...Walks down the alleyway,to find another led astray...She smiles and she winks, ensnaring another with her sway...   Bella Dharq
Lick My....
Lick my pussy ///// say what? does a lady talk like that in the bedroom? or do you love when she talks like that to you behind doors wild  monkey.. mmmmm love me  hate me kiss me don't lie to me just love me I'll give you my love to night. Lick my pussy say what ? close the door to night loving loving all night long you made me a women love love you for that.   bY Christine 
Down Days
So it's happened..I am officially a grandmother. My granddaughter is so beautiful and perfect!! I drove down while my daughter was in labor, she had Cloey while i was driving. I got to the hospital in the middle of the night and got to sleep in the room with them. Such a tremendous night in my life. My child has a child of her own. I got to spend almost 2 full days with them. A wonderful glimpse at my future. As we all know there is an adjustment parents go through. Hugest of sighs...   I have been a smoker for nearly 24 years. I have a smokers cough. it's annoying but completely harmless. But the new parents felt I was concealing a potential threat to their little one. I have a cough that they believe is a cold. So they hadf the doctors give them a solid reason to have me head home early. They told me for the first 6 weeks the doctor says they should have no outside visitors and the ones they do have should have recieved a flu shot and a tdap vaccine. As I couldn't sa
You know it really pisses me off when some people can judge me. Just  because I had pictures posted that were "naughty" Doesn't mean I have slept with a ton of men. I am on my second marriage. My first marriage was very abusive and he cheated on me the whole time we were married. I do Have three wonderful boys. My youngest lives with me and he is my pride and joy (He just makes it to were I hate Christmas)so IF YOU want to know something about me PLEASE either send me a chat message or an actual message and ask Instead of assuming because it makes you look like an ass. I am 27 years old and I've only slept with maybe 7 people.
Orgasmic Pleasures I opened the door to the bathroom, warm in my rose red robe. You smiled at me, gently pulling me into a hug as you kissed me slow and soft, then hard and passionate as you ran your fingers through my long hair. I pulled away, smiling as I turned the shower on and slowly dropped my robe to the floor. I helped you undress, then led you into the shower. I lay down in the bath, the running water flowing over me, and pulled you down on top of me. We kissed hungrily as your hands explored my shoulders, back, stomach, bottom and thighs. Your mouth moved down to my neck as you rolled off me and lay your naked body beside mine. Slowly, gently you stroked my warm skin, your fingers moving lightly at first, then slower, harder. I felt a tingling between my legs and moved them apart. Your hands slid over my stomach and down to my vulva, stroking my inner thighs as you went. Your strong, firm fingers stroked my clitoris softly. You stood and turned off the water. Gathering me
Trust //////
Trust is a Angel calling for me to high to see. I try, I try I do, I do, I walk  and walk and here calling out my name.. Life in November so clod as I step out to be free. One tells me one thing I should do this like that.. but deep in my heart I love him so I know him in my heart he is my Angel and he loves me.....I falling my heart as stars fall from the sky like a life in November so clod as I step out to be fee. I trust my Angel I do, I do, I walk, I walk, and here him calling out my name....I go to my Angel hold him dear in the night he tells me kind things I never never been said to me in my life... I cry I cry I thank him I thank him... But he won't know my FEELINGS this tonight... bY Christine .....Thank YOu Eddie..R...myLOVE
Hot Piece Wrote Recently
Pre Halloween U ain’t on my level yet, Disgruntled disheveled It’s a long slow learning process Excitement & Anticipation, CoInciding with the fickle nature of life being what U make it. Take it one day at a millimeter @ a time One small step 4 lil’Reid one giant leap 4 mankind! This is the dreamy language taken from when U sleep with open eyes. All in as a mirage, One day Ur Here the next Ur gone, We don’t know what we have until  it’s sorely missed & torridly dismissed. Peep My Meta*Morphasis , I’d Be Meta World Peace when I get my ring- Thanking my Psychologist. Either way with money or God I prophet, Done passed through the eye of the needle, meaning I’m rich bitch. So how do U top a fantasy & a dream sequence when U receive everything & more than U ever wished 4? U can’t U don’t U won’t So hopped back into a committed relationship & propped marriage & 4 all my troubles …what did Iget? My toil,
Real Life Vs Fu Life
Ok so correct me if I am wrong but Fubar is a game correct? So tell me this....why do so many people take it so damn personal? It's funny how people believe every damn thing that they read or see on a persons profile or in their shoutbox. I've seen girls get mad because a guy flirts with them and they find out in real life he is married. Really? Or people fall in life to find out the other person isn't the sex they claimed to be or the pictures were totally fake. I do not get it. People it is a game. I for one and 100% honest in what I say and do but that doesn't mean that I do not fuck around from time to time and if your idiot treat you as one. Maybe I should jump on the everything on FU is totally real band wagon. In that case I am a super model that is 6 ft tall and weighs 110 lbs with millions of dollars and eight houses :P Play the game people damn!
I Don't Care!
I just don't care anymore! I'm having too much to deal with and I dunno how to handle any of this shit!. I have one problem after another and my doctor tells me to be "STRESS FREE"! HAHAHA I wanna LAUGH till I cry!. There some days I just wanna make a nuse and call it a life!. WHERE'S MY NUSE!
It's Time For ......
It's time for rain, I stand waiting for you as the rain falls on my body my tears lost in the mist falling on my face as I cry out to you. It's time for rain, I stand waiting for you as the rain falls on my body my tears lost in the rain falling on my face as I cry out to you. Rain, rain, rain, go, go away come out some other day I love you, I love you one day.... kiss me, kiss me, stars falling out as the rain is falling down all day... kiss me, kiss me. Hold me, hold me, love me, tell me, you will stay...    bY Christine       Rain drops falling down I won't let you down..... falling down falling down...... 
Womb Of Open Wounds
Womb of Open Wounds   Her lips never moved When I heard her say: "You can't chase your muse Unless it's running away." You only lose love When you force it to stay And obey what she calls Human Nature.   Her eyes never faltered When I replied in kind: "You can only run from life, Never your mind," And when we look at all That we've left behind, You may find merely
My First Blog
im now a 50 year old man its a shame it took me so damb long to figure this out. people family friends all my come and go but no matter were you go or do there you are meaning everything you do in life has a way of finding you and you still have to be able to face your self in the merior every day cause there you are
There is more to me. You can choose to look a little further or look at the outside. I am sweet, generouse and funny. I am caring and honest. I have integredy. ReAnna has feelings. She is a complicated person who is worth your time. I am a woman who has faced unbelievable circumstances and is still smiling. I am a person that chooses to look for the good in things instead of focusing on the negative. I am a person you is more criticle on myself than anyone could every be. If you think you are going to hurt my feelings by saying mean things you might, if you could hear my negative self talk you would know it will take alot more than words to destroy me. I have recently realized everyone is not going to love tig. Honestly its your loss! because I can laugh in despare! I can cry when I am happy! I am fun to know and your advocate. ReAnna doesn't judge anyone! I don't need to waist my time arguing if you want to right, puff your right! I am not limited by race or religion. It is my belief
The barrel of a gun... So round... So cool to the touch... pushing it into my mouth it feels almost natural. Like it was always there. No tears to shed. No regrets. I will not become one of those things. My life has always been lived for others ... Don't I deserve to die on my own terms? I can feel it... The hunger building ...... Its madness .... such sweet madness coming over me..... calling me ... beckoning me... No thoughts of my family .... my friends ... the hunger seems to tell me to stop .... not to do this... the hunger is becoming everything ... becoming me... dropping the gun to my side.... I feel weak ... small ..... I never meant them harm! ... I could smell them ... I could taste them .... I tried but i couldn't control it .... WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!!!! ... I was a good man once ... I swear I was.... The blood ... it changes you.... Twists you...  Tears at you .... wearing you down ... It pulls at you.... It was them .... so sweet .... so innocent ... Letting the wolf i
When That Person Is You
Rejected and alone, I turned to my words. To speak without speaking, that’s how I was heard. I carried my pain, inside my notebook. Each day I wrote more, the harder I looked. With every person shot, every life lost. I wrote a little more, a small cost. For me to pay. I write the words, they could not say. For just like me, the residents where I am from. Simply didn’t matter, to anyone. One more bad soul, taken off the streets. Was everyone else’s perception, of these. People, human beings, and even if it was true. It tends to hurt more, when that person is you.
My Fucking Life!!!
I wrote a piece on my home town a few years ago titled...Lacoochee My Plague Filled Town…and when asked by another client of mine to post it to his became the highest read piece on that site in a month’s time…but that is not why I wrote it…I wrote it for the very same reason I write pretty much everything else…a release…it’s cheap and very effective therapy…anywho…that same piece also landed me a new client…I was asked to write a short story based on my life and experiences living in my home town…and as I was researching….I became confused…for, if you do not research my lovely little town correctly…you may just get this pretty little image of what TRULY lies within the depths of this DISPICABLE place…I, having lived there for so long...know the names…know what has went on there and what continues to go on there to this day…I am going to show you some of the hea
Painfully Paved
Driving away from the store, I felt we were saved. But little did I know, it was painfully paved. That road was my path, bitter sweet and long. And in-order to survive it, I would have to be strong. I didn’t understand, the tragic events of that night. As my mother’s tears fell, reliving her fight. The battle she lost, by saving my life. I find myself wondering, if she made the right. Choice, If both of us, would have been better off. If she had just chose to let that, gun go off. My pain would have ended, right then and there. Instead of carrying this burden, around everywhere. I go, in everyone I meet. It all takes me back, to one more defeat. I see everyone, in the same light. Doing as she did, reliving the fight. This war within myself, that cannot be won. Longing for that unconditional love, from someone. Anyone really, but too scared to try. The memories from that night, tell me exactly why. For, if my mother and father, couldn
Much Needed Updates
So it seems the long extended summer is now finally over and now that I can’t complain about the heat I can whine about the cold. It’s not so bad actually I prefer cold days over hot ones it’s just the nights are pretty cold in the house due to it being mostly tiled and the heater not working. The days aren’t so bad but today has been pretty gray and hazy and it’s supposed to rain tomorrow so it’s going to be pretty cold for San Diego standards. Last year I was given as a joke these atrocious footie pjs (yes it should be illegal to make footies in my size). Pink, fleece and bunny looking. These things are so bad that I wouldn’t even let Brian see me in them, but since it’s just me at home today and I was freezing I gave in and put them on. Mentally it’s a bit disconcerting but OMG are they soft and warm, and pretty comfortable and definitely makes walking on the cold tile while doing laundry much more bearable, but definitely
A Life Remembered
                                                                            Your soft remembrance continues;  enfolds, creates, moves and changes. The who I am deftly entwined  with who you were.  The honor of dwelling, being, living under your heart. Life in simplicity, direction, creativity, rythm; unconditional love saturating one realm to the next To live, to love, I still  Resemble you.    Janelle Gregory 2012
Israel Vs Hamas: Deadly Theater
  Tony CartalucciInfowars.comNov 16, 2012 The Western allied, funded, armed, and directed sectarian extremist organizations, namely Al Qaeda, the Muslim Brotherhood, and their subsidiaries of Hamas and the so-called “Free Syrian Army,” were created and to this day are backed specifically to counter real opposition to Western designs of hegemony across the Muslim World. The West has also created and continues to perpetuate Israel as it exists in its current state, a purposefully provocative militant nation that serves as a beachhead for Western objectives throughout the region, as well as a perpetual impetus for filling the ranks of extremist groups who are then turned loose against the West’s enemi
Incomplete Thoughts On The Indefatigable Velour Rindell
Velour was the king. He crown'd hisself the day he first stood on his own two feet, and never looked back. He could stumble, falter, but always push himself back up off the ground with the deep-felt knowledge that it was just the universe and him. He had to learn how to surf the physicality of this place, but he wasn't going to let "the possible" limit his own ideas of what is or isn't able to be done. When you're riding the wave, there's that instant where you're guiding it as it carries you. We only get fleeting moments of this. His existence was perpetual déjà vu. Velour's only issue was he has no idea what to do with himself other than to keep pressing onward.He was the kind of guy who'd draw magickal sigils in lemon juice on rolling papers and have his girlfriend roll a whole lid of dank bud, her lips still wet with venom after giving him the sloppiest of blow-jobs, then share them with his guests. He had the slightest hope his unknowing accomplices would subconsciously randomize
Your Choice
  For every time love gets used, humanity lose. Its that which is abused. Something we not sure how to do because we learned from tv, movies, and fairy tale stories. Most spent their time in heartbreak and they worry on days on in. To be loved is a sin. So lets sit with a grin when something beautiful walks by with a smile. Something not felt in a while. Affection becomes significant now. So we quickly take a bow to its reign over our soul, our heart, and our brain. If I can explain to the little ones before they get a chance to feel, I would tell them wait a long as you can before you allow you heart to be available to steal. But we addicted. Overdosing on it every change we get. Without it we become sick. Jumping into pussy, onto dicks. Just to never ever miss. Even if it makes us pissed. When it all becomes evident. You're was their game not heaven sent. Those lies in text messages. Those false truths in phone calls, which yall would go hours upon hours late night in your draws. A
Thanksgiving Poem
Tis not one of my own but I likes it and its almost Turkey Day so Imma share! :P    He laid her on the table, So white and clean and bare. His forehead wet with beads of sweat, He rubbed her here and there. He touched her neck and then her breast, And then he felt her thigh. The slit was wet and all was set, He gave a joyous cry. The hole was wide -- he looked inside, All was dark and murky. He rubbed his hands and stretched out his arms......... And then he stuffed the turkey.  GET YA MIND OUT DA GUTTER !!!!!  HAPPY GOBBLE GOBBLE  -giggles-
Things You'll Never Hear Me Say.
You'l never hear me say:   I wish you were hear. ( unless you were on fire because that might be funny to watch).  I wish I was getting real sex instead of cam sex ( because lets face it I am) Iwish I was going down on a fat chick ( for obviouse reasons)  I wish you loved me ( because when you did it hurt)  I wish I you here ( that's why there is a restraining order)  I wonder what heart taste like( I've heard you describe it and it doesn't sound good.) I wish I was fat ( for obviouse reasons)  I wish I was more like you. ( I already know the diffierence between love and stalkhome syndrome) I wish i had you back ( a 46 year old un employed drug addicted wife beating man that rides a 20 inch bicycle and lives off his eledrly aunt doesn't sound appealin)  I wish I had you back( a 46 year old truck driver that can't work or read and failed the dmv test 6 times is not appealing) I wish i had you back( a 46 year old male that sits at home jacks off on web came sound a lttle desp
Just Joined.
  Here I am, out front trying to see how I do or deal with  other people. I have shut myself off for so long I know longer know how to be relate to people.   i hate to say this but it is true Iam I am what I am today all because of 12 months in 1968-1969 in Vietnam. I was only 18 when I went to war and in many ways I have not grown any older. It fuck me up bad... Well get over it! I mean it was so long ago. But every night I am there again. Well that's  all for a first blog. Thanks for reading it Old War Horse
Past Life Dream
It's the day you realize your past life was a dream.. That's when it all fails to matter. To know that no matter how hard you try, how honest you are or how good your intentions are... for that all to mean nothing. For it all to rest on just one other persons insecurities. This is how precarious your existence is... This is why I am never doing it again. It's a fucking trap. A chemical reaction that means little more than a squirt in the pants... or mouth, depending on how good your aim is.
Ohio River Blues
I fell asleep last night, she was on my mind I had a dream I was port side old Ohio river wine not the matter I tell you all the same  blue crushing waters still could not compare  to what I saw standing there.   Pale soft red velvet, her voice surrounds me  lets take a walk awhile, say my name as you smile  what happens next I couldn't tell you shimmering soft red hair, none can compare    But the river flows beside us, we get caught up in the flow don't care where it takes me, as long as your there I know Worlds wont be between the two us forever   I still can here her singing sweetly in my ear as we walked along the avenue  whispers of sweet nothings, I love you  Yes I do        
Psalm 18:hell
Alone completely, and only fourteen.Your fierce wrath has gone over me.Afflicted, so ready to die from my youth,and the worst part was knowing the truth.All my loved ones you've cast away from me,So my time with you was mistaken for glee.I suffer from your terrors,I'm punished for every error,it engulfed me all together,still dreading the snap of that hateful leather.I'm in pain, I'm afraid, I'm ashamed.You claimed, you named, you tamed me.Your terrors have cut me off, I'm distraught.You are a devil but you are my god.
Hello Heart
Fuck Seat Belts
Pacing the thoroughbred that makes my head swell  A game not meant for children  Fit the pieces Sign the dotted line and again the wheels are turning  spiraling out of my grasp fuck seat belts. 
Don't Read This.
I can tell you don't follow instructions very well.
Wonderful Smile
Hey there wonderful smile You were on my mind again today I still don’t quite know how to say What I want to But I’ll try to   As I lay me down to sleep I pray you find it all I wish you only best but I must tell you   There’s an aching deep inside my weary chest tonight From my melt down heart it flows A stream into a river the river to a sea Further down the deeper it grows   I never meant to break your heart I never wanted you to cry Though a piece of me may always love you If I live this lie I die   Hey there wonderful smile Hey now what should I do Hey there wonderful smile Hey now wonderful you  
Taking Things Too Seriously
I want to start by saying I think alot of people on this site take things too seriously.The first thing I cant understand is WHY do people insist on others having a salute just to send them a friend request?What do they care if they have a salute or not?Does having a salute make you MORE friend worthy?And the people who ask for a salute before they send a request,are always so rude about it too...saying,"NO SALUTE,NO ADD".What the fuck is that all about?They act like these people that they accept as friends actually mean something.Its just a social site!Everything on here is fake.Mostly everyone here uses their alter egos. The next thing that irritates me are the women who sell their NSFW pics for bling credits.Now that I just dont fuckin understand!!Who in their right mind is gonna pay to see some womans tits and ass?Are people THAT desperate to see a woman semi-naked?I guess so.Its probably cuz they cant meet any women in real life.But then you also have the women who actually think
I need mercenaries for Fumafia. There are a few rules to be a merc. Imposed by the system not me. Here tey are: 1. Invited fubar user must have no other fuMafia players at time of following invite link! 2. Invited fubar user must have signed up before May 31st, 2012 to be eligible! 3. BOTH parties must have salutes! 4. Understand that your mafia cash bonus is substantialy less with mercenaries that have been recruited internally! 5. Understand that both fubar accounts may be forfeited upon discovery of parties sharing their login information with one another!   If you are interested here is the link:
Why I'm Feeling Sad
I'm feeling sad because....... I saw a perfect wedding on tv and I know that i'll never be married and have a family.  I will grow old alone with no one by my side. Nothing in my life seems to be working the way i want. I can't control myself from falling inlove with someone. I guess getting older this week just brings out the depressing things of my life. I wished i've never remembered my birthday.
Just A Little Over 3 Weeks...
Something is about to happen.  I never thought this something was meant for me.  Mind you this is not because I thought no one would ever want to do this...believe me 4 times I have run away from this.  I have run away from the wrong person, the wrong situation, just being wrong.  Because, when I do this, I'm only doing it once.  When I do this, I'm in it for the duration of my time on this planet.   I will be married on Dec. 21, 2012.  On the day the world is supposed to end.  I will be marrying my best friend, my soulmate, my lover, a man I have known for close to 13 years, yet I could never imagine that he was the only one I have ever needed. I have dated him...well parts of him, for most of my life.  Every element I have found myself attracted to in other people, those elements all exist within him.  None of the negatives that they possessed, all of the positives that drew me in, he embodies everything. From the first kiss, a first kiss that was 13 years in the making, I knew he
'twas The Night Before Christmas
'Twas the night before Christmas, He lived all alone In a one bedroom house, made of plaster and stone. I had come down the chimney, with presents to give And to see just who in this house did live. I looked all about, a strange sight I did see No tinsel, no presents not even a Tree. No stockings by the mantle, just boots filled with sand On the wall hung a picture of a far distant land. With Medals and Badges Awards of all kinds A sobering thought passed through my mind. For this house was different it was dark and dreary I found the home of a Soldier at once I could see clearly. The Soldier lay sleeping silent, alone Curled up on the floor in this one bedroom home. The face was so gentle the room in disorder Not how I had pictured a Canadian Soldier. Was this the Hero of whom I had just read Curled up on a poncho the floor for a bed. I realized the Families that I saw this night Owed their lives to these Soldiers who were willing to fight. Soon 'round the World th
Youre my biggest regret.Beyond any that Ive ever experienced. The feelings of Wishing I never met you. Never allowed you into any part of me. Allowing you too see inside me.I should have played you like a tool.For thats all you are. I despise what you are and what you made me become.Reminders as to why I stay sheltered in my mind. For the lies and the bullshit I do not need nor desire. I really do hope you remember my face, my taste. and it haunts your every being. You say you need good no you need to be coddled like a baby. You are unable to be what it is you wish to be. Does the pain sting you like you make it sting for so many? Are you happy living in your made up world?
Get A Life!!!
I've had two different phone calls today asking me about this or that and the best piece of advice I can give anyone is simple: Get A Life. A real life, not the manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house. newer car. Seriously, do you think you would care so much about those things if you developed an aneurysm one afternoon, had a debilitating stroke, found a lump in your breast while in the shower, cancer? Stop whining and start trying.Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze over the sandy shores, a life in which you stop and watch how a red-tailed hawk circles over a pond, a life where you actually hear the song in the wind. Get a life in which you pay attention to a baby making funny faces when she tries to pick up a Cheerio with her thumb and finger. A life where watching your puppy chase it tail for hours makes you laugh until you cry.See the beauty of new life as spring arrives, feel the rays of suns as it s
Might Turn This Into A Song.
"Never cared for school, or the golden rule, Papa always used to say I was a useless fool. So I left my home, to show em they was wrong, headed out on the road, just singing my song, and a sunny day, would barely look my way, and everything I had dreamed of, it was away. Money, Girls and cars, smoking long cigars, and I took the first plane home so papa would see. ~When I came Home to show em they was wrong. All I found was 2 tombstones. Somebody tell me please, was I right or wrong?Oh such a sad song. First I got lost, then I Had found, that the ones that I loved, were in the ground. Somebody tell me please, was I right or wrong?~"                                  - Taz
Coyote's Words Canto 1
Coyote's Words... Who am I why am I on Fubar? I first enjoied this site when it was called "Cherry Tap," for those that knew it that far back. An it was fun at the time, things happen both in here and the real world so I left FUBAR. Now I'm back again, An I guess there are things that should be known about me. If we become friends then I share the real me thats Coyote. If I give you say my cell phone number or email address then you've got the real person that is more than Coyote. That person is the friend that will be there as best as he can that will do his best to be a real friend beyond FUBAR world. I'm not about drama... I'm in the military so I get an all you can eat buffet of it... If I say I'm your friend and you trust me with the real you, then I will ensure that the trust is never left in question... If you are just using me to get what you want with out being truthful to me.... Then I'm sorry that you are like alot of other cultures I've deployed to in the past
Marriage Is Work And Its Worth It
All My Friends And My Family That Have Passed...
A little something i wrote when I was bumbed out to all my friends that have passed- To all my friends I have lost along the way I pray to the god above that you be held away ever so close in my heart and pray to him to keep you safe and that you watch down on me everyday upon my hard times. Rememberin all the good times we have shared and all the trouble we have caused. You all will be deeply missed and never forgetton, I will always wonder why you all had to go but know that you are bein takin care of by the man above. I want to say that I miss you guys and until that day comes when we can meet again, you will always be on my mind every last min- of every day that goes by. Thank you all for the wonderful friendships and good memorys I have of you all..Dad that goes out to you too.. Your Son & friend - Scott Jacobi.
If You Would
  If you would smile again at me I think I’d stay forever  Just the same yet yesterday you left me Or was it really me that that way? I wish that I could tell you how I feel about us Without so much getting in the way   But here and now I love you Here n now I care Here if you’ll listen I’d like to say…   If you would say to smile Baby do believe me I would say “I do” till the very end of time! I just wish that I could make you believe me When I say I’d be there along away on down the line.   Deep inside our situations Can’t we be free? To go our way again?   I think I’d lose a part of me without you! A part of me may be already gone! But if you say you’ll smile at me forever I’ll wait forever for you, until the end of time!   I’m here and now what’s there and then Is dead done and gone away Still here I am, Lost within myself Can’t we be again?   Whatever future hold I
A New Change
Saturday night's show had me thinking many things. First off, I should prolly cut back on how much beer I drink during a show. Next, I have a woman who is head over heels in love with me and I've been holding back becuz of my hesistation to fall myself. Yes, it will ruin my "playa" style, but I no longer care about that. This woman has fought for over a month now and has broken into a place only 3 other people have ever ventured. I have been proposed to by her and gladly accepted. To say the words she wants to hear will make it all real, but she is now my wife, and to tell her these lifts my spirits becuz of how much it means to her.   My wife is TiffzRedlarsHCR (h)
My Wedding Vows To Travler9
With Kindness, Unselfishness, and TrustI Ragdoll affirm my Fu-love to you, Travler9 as I invite you to share my life. You are the most beautiful, smart, and generous person I have ever known, and I promise always to respect you and love you. With kindness, unselfishness and trust, I will work by your side to create a wonderful life together. I take you Travler9 to be my Fu-lawful husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health for as long as we both shall live. The Best Person I Can BeTravler9, from the moment I first saw you, I knew you were the one with whom I wanted to share my Fu-life. Your beauty, heart, and mind inspire me to be the best person I can be. I promise to love you for eternity, respecting you, honoring you, being faithful to you, and sharing my life with you. This is my solemn vow. To Grow Along with YouTravler9, today I become your Fu-Wife and you become my Fu-Husband. I will strive to
Short Message ( Warning)...
Hello Fu,   I know alot of you have seen that something has been going on. It is like this. I got my first Internet scare. So for now I will only accept from those that have salutes, but then those that have them are crazy as fuck as well. My reasoning is this. The one I have had to get away from can make other accounts and it makes it harder for them, cause they will have to make a slalute first. If they are that bad that they have to get onto my page then at that point go ahead and stalk me. I am slowly getting back to where I was, but at the moment I am gunshy. You guys think it is internet and it is, but the story changes when they come to you in person. Lesson learned I guess. So I will say this one time. DONOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES GIVE OUT ANY INFORMATION ON YOURSELF EVEN IF YOU FEEL YOU KNOW THEM,.. I had been talking to this one for over a year. BEWARE OKAY  and BE SAFE !!!!!   DONOT give out number, address, where you work, or even what town you live in. DONOT GIVE OUT
I Want You To Need Me
It wasn't love at first sight, it came to me late at night, when my soul was filled with life's plight, that was when I saw your light. I knew you were who I'd been searching for, the reason I had stepped from the door, you were my personal god to the core, you were what I wanted/needed and more. I wrote of my love for you, and I went insane before it was through, but when the time was past due, I confessed it all in a pew. You told me how wondrful it was, that my love was sent form above, more beautiful than a soaring dove, and it fit you as a glove. But you just didn't feel that way, and you didn't talk to me the next day, and in you decision I had no say, I merely stood lonely at the bay. I am down on my knees, begging you to hear my plea, hoping that you will see, what you are doing to me. I'd be your slave, if you so desired, for you are the one I've always admired, yet you threw me to the fire, and my situation is dire. I love you
Soul On Fire
The sun seem to be cold, Compared to your touch, Burning a path on my skin, Igniting the kindling of my Own desires. Your eyes rip through me, Like reading the pages Of an erotic Book Leaving me breathless, As the last chapter Is not written yet! Your soul enchant mine, Connecting like the links In a chain forged with magic iron Obtained ONLY through Opening my heart …In love and lust. The moon seem warm, Compared to the frosty Bite of not having you This close to my body To stir my soul into a Gripping fire!
Open Vessel
Sitting here not knowing what to feel or to think I am randomly thinking about my days and feelings that I have inside and the situation that has arise... probably not in my favor... How can I explain? Now..... It's come to my attention... That I am once a friend.. A friend who is needed.... I am their rock... thier... not sure what to call.. I must open all of my vessels once again.... and bring out what I am very good at... A friend... An understanding soul... A caring and loving soul... Once again I am needed. to open my vessels... to expose and to heal... this hurtful soul.. I am needed once more... How can I say no?
Just Venting Some.................
Why should I even try anymore to talk to people, when all I am treated as or looked upon is either a major burden or some lepor who has a disease no one wants? The more I try, the more it appears this chaotic world would be so much better off if I simply exited and just said fuck it all. To have "friends" that truly never want to talk back when you try to message them, actually even hurts a redneck like me a great deal. Hopefully one day so very soon, this existence of a life I have will come to an abrupt end and I shall no longer have to worry about pain or heartache any longer. Well, time for me to just step back and stay away from everyone so people will not have tp worry about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Through The Eyes
Through the eyes of a woman, You can tell what she’s like. She could be uncoordinated, And fail at riding bike. Or the twinkle of her eyes will remind you of a star, She could be well coordinated, And perhaps drive a car. But what I really look for is what’s inside, She could make me Chicken Katsu with the sauce right by. Through the eyes of a woman, You can tell how she acts, You can tell what she needs, And tell what she lacks. Through the eyes of a woman, The future may be seen She’ll most likely find a partner And share another human being. Through the eyes of a woman, It’s too painful to show. Through the eyes of a man, It looks as if there’s nothing to know. Through the eyes of a woman, It’s being gentle and kind, Through the eyes of a man, He’s too ignorantand blind. Through the eyes of a woman, Its tears and sadness, Through the eyes of a man, Its revenge and madness. Throughthe eyes of a man, He’ll be an hour early, Through the e
Problems Of Marriage
These Are Not My Words Or Thoughts I Read This And Fell In Love With The Idea's And Thoughts Of This Individual, I Feel What He Had To Say Was Important And Wanted To Share It With Others... This Still Has Some Great Points Even For The Married People Out There....  
An Asshole
Those legs from a Goddess,But her mouth does whine.Even her spelling,Makes me so sublime.She bitches at me,So she is content.Because shes not happyEven paying her rent.Go on with your rant,Parade if you will.But your meaningless words,Can begone with a pill.
A Short Declaration
This is a public statement in order to clear the air regarding any misconceptions surrounding me....   I am aware that I am viewed as a cold, heartless and savage monster by many. I am also aware that some people consider my actions to be "unpredictable" at best and "downright evil" at worst. While I make no apologies for my actions, I would offer a simple explanation to any interested in them.   I am rather infamous for my cutting sarcasm and (according to popular opinion) inappropriate comments. Bear in mind that 98% of the time, they are meant in jest and simply intended for my amusement and the amusement of others viewing them.... Unlike "certain others" on this site who shall remain unnamed? There is almost never any genuine malice in my posts.   I am also aware that, due to my often nasty comments? I am also disliked by many and considered to be a menacing, harassing and/or threatening individual. Therefore, I shall address this topic in order to make my demeanor and intent
Family is supposed to be so important, yet there are so many of mine that could honestly care less one way or another if I am okay or not. I wonder at times if they'd be better off if I just vanished and said fuck all of it. Between always being in the wrong or being put down because of my long hair and weed smoking, just has me wishing so much I'd of never been brought into this world. I have tried so many ways to some how either make them happy or proud, yet to them the only thing I am is both a failure and joke. It's times like these I am so fucking thankful for Xanex bars, because after eating 4 or 5 of them and a bottle of tequila, everything just fades for the night at least.......
The Grenade I Coddle
Every night I wrote another line With a bloody broken bottle... And every day I wish it away Why don't I just pull the pin On that grenadeI coddle. I wanted to believe ... Bodies swinging from trees Struggling to stand With my head in my hands A stoic last stand Of a dying man I wanted to believe As I watched my world Crumble in my hands....   I wanted to believe As I raised my glass To my last stand. And I wanted to believe I would win The war in my head That no one understands ...   That I did not understand Every night The questions poured out, Of my wounded eyes, Damn dark things. Every day I used to pray. Listen to the black raven singI wanted to believe As I
Lets Delve Shall We? Part 2
Arguing can be sexy fun too! Part 2 U walk up to me and throw me on the dresser and run ur hands through my hair and pull my hair back and bite my neck, I shiver at ur touch and u caress my breasts. I tried to rub ur chest but u grab my arms and hold them behind my head as u spread my legs and and saw Im wearing no panties. "Even better" u growled as u filled me. U push in deeper and I quiver and u pound hard and fast. I throw it back and we rock that dresser! I nibble on ur ear and u get even deeper! I dig my nails in ur back as u kissed me hard and wildly.  U picked me up and carried me to the bed and I flipped u over and kissed ur neck, sucked and nibbled on ur chest and got in ur lap and u enter me again and up and down faster and faster. U sit up and grab me give and bury ur face in my breasts and sigh. I dig my nalis in ur back as u get deeper. "Mmmm OMG baby Im cumming!!!" U grab my head as kiss me as u pound faster! "Yes baby girl come with me" We grabbed each other tight and
It's getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. I'm not sure how much longer I can continue on without... :x
His Solemn World....
 Within the darkest of nights,roam those meant to be alone. Hiding in the shadows from the people of a society that treat him as an outcast. Moving swiftly in the pitch black, avoiding any type of contact with others. Fearing that if he drops his hearts wall, it shall yet again be shattered. Not wanting to be hurt, he disassociates himself with all feelings and emotions. Knowing that way, he can remain the eccentric recluse who is never hurt. Sensing the rising of the bright sun, he goes and slowly disappears yet again into his solemn world of loneliness...   PJ   11/15/2012   10:28pm
Fakes Of The Day Archived Posts Oct - Nov 2012
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Advice Help? Dream Analysis?
i love giving advice and i'm told that i'm great at it i'm not sure if it's because i've taken a few years of psychology or because I've been through so much  i hope whoever you are if you have a problem talk to me about it and i'll see if i can help everything will be confidential IF you don't want it to be   public message me and i'll write back :)  oh and i lvoe doing dream analysis too if anyones interested (it can also help you figure out if anything's going on in your life that you don't realize) thank you all for taking your time to read this :)
Fade Away
i love the way you fade me away,with every whisper and every lie and the tears cried, i love the way you fade me away, with every kiss the emotions mixed,the broken hearts we are unable to fix everytime we touch,i love the way you fade me away,the words that we say that takes our breathes away,the scars that remind us of what we left behind,i hate the way you fade me away.
Young Ambitious Man
Like a butterfly’s metamorphosis I emerge from my cocoons stronger and wiser. Everything pain I strain, grain by grain I go insane from the gain, its too much too soon, Theres just not enough room KABOOM Im gone, like an HTV2 I zoom through life and assume the strife is temporary to the contemporary lifestyle that’s much more worthwhile.
Fantasy #5
Yer at workDon't u flirtw/ the concept of leaving 2 simply suck my cock?As I'm getting out of the shower readying myself 4 workU slip inside the bathroomtouching my steamy, water beaded chest w/ 1 handthe other stroking my cockthen U dropkneeling, drawing in my hipsplacing it between yer lips1st, licking 4 tastethe smooth-sucking it inside yer mouthjerking me 2 cumU smile, swallowing slowlykiss my cheekgrab yer keysand leave 4 workOr maybe it doesn't end there?Maybe U have a long lunch?U want yer kitty cleaneddigging yer claws in my backfingerfucking yer assCum attack!purring while U creamOh?So U want lunch involved 2?Grabbing the brownbag from yer handbagshaved pickle meets shaved peachin a sexy fruit cocktail/tossed saladpleasure 4 each2 late, 2 busy 2 return 2 workIt's on now!But wait!I have 2 go baby, I'm sorry....Now I'm at workmade it in latethinking about our lunch dateleaving U I hateI have something in mind...2nitestealing in w/ swiftnesslift yer shirt over yer
It's Man's ....
It's Man's world,do you think this true? holds a women true to her heart                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                bY cHristine....              Man loves a women   
Questions And Maybe Answers
Do you find yourself picking up your phone to see if thereis a message from me?? does your mind wonder when hear a certain song or a laugh and it reminds you of how the one you love laughs when they are happy?? does your heart sink when you think that today might be the last time you hear from them?? Does love really exist when you have to struggleto find it?? Do you find that you spend most of your day thinkingabout me as much as i think about you??you open your heart and you let love in...only to find out itwasn't really love...and in that start to wonder why didn't he understand what i was trying to say...or why did she take me for granted...feeling lost and confused because you can'tbelieve how wrong you were about the person you are with...theydon't see the real you...they don't know what i am about...theynever took the time to really get to know me...In a blink of an realize that real love is knowing youhave allowed another person to see the real you...tha
Fubar Christmas
On the 12th day of Christmas FUBAR gave to me... 12 dudes I'm blocking, 11 friends just watching, 10 corny topics, 9 busted barbies, 8 friends complaining, 7 stalkers stalking, 6 lounge invites, 5, DRAMA QUEEEENS! 4, Mafia requests, 3 NSFW photos, 2 friends a pokin, AND A CREEP WHO WONT STOP Shout boxing me !
You Are Damn Right
I guess this is what I am maybe left with. My mumm ability got stripped. Not sure exactly why but oh well. I was told the mumm was nsfw. I don't understand. I am sorry but I will not get down on my knees. If Fubar is going to be like that they ought to maybe start deleteing everyones abilities. I seen another just like mine after I wrote it. Wasn't bad enough to get her stripped. They said to follow the instructions after I read this long policy. I did and the only thing I saw was something telling me not to do it again, when I get the ability to post mumms again. Nothing was mentioned about me losing other abilities too or how long I would have to wait. Truth be told, Fubar isn't like it use to be. the bouncers are evidently free to ignore people now.  Fubar would lose me as a dedicated member if I hadn't made friends here already. This is a better place than My Space or the old My Yearbook. I even see it better than Facebook. I agree that my opinion doesn't matter, it never has. I
Sorry is a word we here on and on.. from family, friends, lovers, strangers, co workers. Sorry can be used so easy.. with no meaning you can hurt ones feelings say or sorry how can the word be real ? have you been so sorry in a life time ? and really mean it...                                                                                                                                                                                          Sorry my love the stars are falling dark night, is a peace of me I do mean this so dear to you. I do love you with tears falling with my heart beating so strong, sorry my love I love you I won't hurt you. Sorry my love my dark side was so sad.. cover over me this night my love, sorry do forgive me this night for I was falling, falling apart this night.                                                                                                                                                                      bY CHristine                     
Can you find my cookie, my love in your arms to night in the deep dark mist night my love. Don't be sad my love you will find me in candy land. Lick your way to the sound of my body my love can you find my cookie, my love in your arms to night in the deep dark mist to night my love. Don't be sad my love you will find me in candy land. Lick your way to the sound of my body can you find my cookie my love. In your arms to night the stars my love in the deep dark mist to night my love. Don't be sad my love you will find me in candy land. Lick me all over my love                                                             bY cHristine    
Just When I Think I've Seen It All.....
This actually kept me up a bit stewing last night........ and things on fubar NEVER do that to me. That's just to give you an idea of how serious I take this. There is a candle light vigil picture that spread like wildfire (pun intended) with the incorrect spelling of the name of the town. Now I understand there may be some ignorance out there if you dont live in th U S and maybe do not see this story every day since its happened BUT I see a growing trend of people attempting to show everyone in their peer group that they care.  It happens quite often on fubar, as well as other places, particularly online. Every time something tragic happens, I see a glut of candlelight vigil pics, ribbons pics. Now DO NOT misunderstand, I am NOT suddenly calling everyone that posts a pic like that uncaring. However, there are pics that get it right and pics that do not get it right.  If you want to honor someone , ANYONE, the details matter. That also means putting thought into what pics you choose
Lest We Forget
My name is Glenn, and I'm a Firefighter/EMT trainee for Cal Fire, currently attending NWRTC in Vancouver, WA. I was honored to be mobilized in the eight city call up regarding the Clackamas Town Center Mall shooting on 12/12/12. Now, sadly this country is dealing with another calamity. The Newtown, Connecticut school massacre. Whenever a massive tragedy occurs, I have found that there are people willing, out of the goodness of their hearts, to post living memorials on every social media-- Fubar is no exception. And, regretably, I have also come to know there are hecklers and ignorant malcontents that don't quite understand, nor wish to understand why. Shame on you.
it's strange to look back at how daring and confident  i was in youth.  skiing beyond your capacity.  dropping out of college to pursue a dream.  packing up all you had in your 1982 ford escort.  im not sure what i'd tell myself if i could advise me then.  he brought me here.  which is a place where i can do much good.  for that i'd thank him.  and so would the ones we helped. but. there are sacrifices.  and when you single mindedly pursue them, you miss other things in life.  and now that im technically middle-aged, i regret my decision for a lack of balance. make family, and making a family important.  there's no perfect person.  just the one who cares for you. and forgive the faults that you could make. and i share this wish for your, that you'll learn from my mistake
I Just Want You To Know Me Better
I already know some of you may not want to know me better, so that means you don't have to read on. All my blog entries into 'one day at a time' are my way of sharing activities, thoughts, and the real me. Ifin you have no interest in me then JUST DON'T READ IT!! Its that easy. I sometimes try and delete the comments that are not nice at all. Not that I need the niceness that Queen Elizabeth receives, but still. Tis been my belief that if you want people to be nice to you, you will be nice to them.  I will not get mean I will just block you, if I catch it early enough. I'm not as fast as I sometimes wish I was but I am not that awful slow. Everyday I try to like the people that like me. Now for reasons I am sure you will understand, I can't like everyone that likes me. I can't please everyone. I know not everyone can. Its not that I don't want to be forgotten, I just don't want all my mistakes remembered as important mile markers. My mistakes already haunt me everyday, I don't need to
A Direct Question From A Complete Stranger.
New Message: If you were sentenced to hang for theft and drug related crimes... If you were sentenced to hang would you hang hooded in a little black dress, minus panties but with hose and matching black shoes before a crowd and take a sort drop  sorry if too direct just for chat. 11shady11  new message: To be executed for crimes that were influenced by external factors, which occurred in the very society that is now willing now hang the crime and not the person, seems more like a martyrdom . if it were for murder or some horror that only madness from within could imagine the only cure is death and no hands need be washed because the sin will die on the block. i am a self-medicated sneak thief, just surviving in a life where the only escape from the bitterness and filth was a fleeting high that would become my executioner eventually anyway, is not the one who should hide my face in shame. instead i would be lead to the the gallows stark naked, exposed as the day i was born so a
You Think You Know Her...
You think you know her. She tells you all the time you don't know her. So you listen she wears blue jeans with holes in the knees. You think you know her. She writes her stories of love about you. And you have no clue. You think you know her. When the sun comes up she's gone. You think you know her. She walked out of your life and you don't understand all you can say is your sorry. You think you know her. She lost her soul in the mindedness of your world. You think you know her. You lost the best thing you ever had. She knows who she is... cHristine... I'll miss you little one..                                                                                                                                                                              bY cHristine                                                                                                                                                                                                   This goes out to William H. Kramer
"amazing" fuck this and fuck off and fuck him and fuck you too,let this pain end,you say it's amazing yhe friend you've made, with it my heart you jade,with everyday this love has faded a little more,away,we've cried our tears,grown so far apart thru the years, fuck that and fuck off and fuck him and fuck you too, you say it's amazing the love you make, with every day it fuels this hate,still you want me to wait in the wake you've made,when deep inside our love was only suicide,fuck it and fuck off and fuck him and fuck you too, i think it's amazing you've found another fool!
A Good Read And Very Touching
COLUMBINE STUDENT'S FATHER 12 YEARS LATER !!Guess our national leaders didn't expect this. On Thursday, Darrell Scott, the father of Rachel Scott, a victim of the Columbine High School shootings in Littleton, Colorado, was invited to address the House Judiciary Committee's subcommittee. What he said to our nationa l leaders during this special session of Congress was painfully truthful.They were not prepared for what he was to say, nor was it received well. It needs to be heard by every parent, every teacher, every politician, every sociologist, every psychologist, and every so-called expert! These courageous words spoken by Darrell Scott are powerful, penetrating, and deeply personal. There is no doubt that God sent this man as a voice crying in the wilderness.. The following is a portion of the transcript:"Since the dawn of creation there has been both good & evil in the hearts of men and women. We all contain the seeds of kindness or the seeds of violence. The death of my wonderfu
Showed You The Waqy
If someone else showed you the way Would you take the whell and steer Take the keys and leave me here its always hurt me knowing you've felt this way You always change your ways So the drama always plays When will you see the truth in life When will you see The best things in life have no price I've always asked myself If I made you mad in anyway Would you still be in love with me Would you see I need you to hold me close And whisper to me "i love you" And if I went away to change my evil ways When I came back Would you give yor heart back to me
Why Woman Are The Dominant Sex.
I have been a member of fubar for almost 3 years now and I have said in previousr blogs that fubar is a reflection of the real World. And like here Women are still the dominant sex and men are still the more aggressive of the two. I say this because I have noticed that men in general buy more bling for women then women buy for men. You don'r see any women buying a man an fu-pony but you do on occasion see a admiring man buying an fu-pony for a woman here. Women in general have higher ranks and levels then men on fubar.... Women get more likes and rates then men do.   Women have a  much more busier SB then a guy's SB and they get many more profile comments then the average guy, I know many women on this site who shut down their SB and pokes because they could not keep up with the onslaught of admiring men.  Most men don't have this problem with admiring women. And women are much more valuable then men are on fubar. The average price to own a female on fubar is much higher than
Elder Banking
                                                                     ELDER BANKING... PRICELESS!!  Shown below, is an actual letter that was sent to a bank by an 86 year old woman. The bank manager thought it amusing enough to have it published in the New York Times.  Dear Sir: I am writing to thank you for bouncing my check with which Iendeavored to pay my plumber last month. By my calculations, three nanoseconds must have elapsed between his presenting the check and the arrival in my account of the funds needed to honor it.. I refer, of course, to the automatic monthly deposit of my entire pension, an arrangement which, I admit, has been in place for onlyeight years. You are to be commended for seizing that brief window of opportunity, and also for debiting my account $30 by way of penalty for the inconvenience caused to your bank. My thankfulness springs from the manner in which this incident has caused me to rethink my errant financial ways. I noticed that whereas I personally a
How I Spend Christmas 2012
Many have asked me since I was born and raised in Germany, how are our Christmas Customs.  My family does a mix of American and German customs in our home.  Even though I am German my children were born and raised in the USA so we compromise our traditions and blend them together.  The end result of Christmas is truly why we celebrate it.  As long as the end result is the same, that is truly what matters in our home.  So here you go folks.   The Advent tradition is a religious celebration in preparation for the arrival (or “advent”) of the Christ Child (das Christkind) on his “official” birthday, the 25th day of December. The Advent season and its celebration have changed over the years from a more serious, somber character (including giving up things, as for Lent) to one of a more joyous nature — including such treats as chocolate-filled Advent calendars. The four weeks leading up to Christmas Eve are a happy time—at least for those not too caught
you know usually im one to sit back bite my tongue and be quiet about things but ive come to a point i cant bite my tongue anymore. i refuse to. im sick and damn tired of people walking all over me. being nice? im starting to really think its overrated cuz all it ever does is winds up getting me hurt and walked over in the long run. from this point on im not gonna have it anymore so if you say you want me, dont make me your third wheel or just a possiblilty or even your backup plan. im done with you people playing games with my head and heart. from this point on i shall remain numb until someone gives me reason to not do so otherwise. blessed be. )o(    ~wiccan princess~
Poem 1
Slowly you are slipping way, To once again dissapear into the shadows, I could feel it the last time I saw you, The distance you are putting between us, I have felt this feeling before, I felt it the last time this happened, My grip on you is lessening, My heart will soon again be empty, For the feelings I felt from you will be gone, But it's my own fault for letting you in again,  When I knew I shouldn't, The pain I feel will only increase as time goes on, Do not worry about me tho, I shall drift along as I was before you returned, Soon it will all just be a memory that my mind will wander too, And I will allow myself a moment to feel happiness again, Before I quickly push it to the back of my mind and bottom of my heart again, Because slowly you are slipping away again.
Learn Something New Everyday....18 & Under/easily Offended (do Not Enter)
 Wow, Ill be really busy 2013 & Beyond....So much to do! ~Angry Dragon Immediately after you blow your load in a girl's mouth, smack the back of her head and make it come out her nose. When she gets up she'll look like an angry dragon.~Arabian Goggles A "seldom-seen" maneuver when you put your testicles over her eye sockets while getting head. (Picture it: ass on forehead) It may be anatomically impossible, but what the fuck else is new.~The Bait N' Tackle The sailors used this one in the old Navy days. Before you go off for a long, lonely voyage, get yourself a tall jar and fill it completely with earthworms. When you get lonely, open the jar and fuck away. The earthworms will provide some slithery stimulation, and your protein load will keep them nicely fed. Gone fishing!~Ballsacking Takes some luck of the gene pool, but if you're able to do it, always great fun. While you are straddling her, take your nutsack and spread it out over her face like pizza dough.~Bear Claw A synonym for
~ No..a Thousand Years Isnt Long Enough~
Some really good reasons why I am Blessed By You! Every Day I never have to look for..or seek you out.. Your there waiting for me.. when I wake up Your Good Morning Love is just as important to me as the coffee in my cup.. You know all there is to know about me the good and the bad.. and even so..youve never judged me..or been critical.. Youve never taken anything Ive ever said and used it against me or hurt me.. Youve never tried to take control or bully me for your own gain.. Youve never lied to me.. screamed at me, or attack me in ways that are ugly.. Youve never taken my heart and trashed it for any reason..when Im hurting You are there, when Im happy you share in that with me... You listen..and not remember things I forgot I told you... You genuinely care and you never hide that.. You being You..has made me re-evaluate everything Ive ever known... About Friendships..about Relationships and about Love You are my Most Treaured Gift.. Because of You... Dem
How To Run A Cherry Bomb
To Prepare When I run a cherry bomb I always start with my family.  So to start you can close all unnecessary windows on your PC and open up your family list - To Open Pages I leave my fam folder open, (or whatever folder or page you are working from whether family, top friends, top member, or activated bling) I right click on the first person, click "open link in new tab" then go to the next person.  You can open as many other tabs as you like but I would try to keep it to about 5- 10 max at a time or it will make your computer run slower.   To Time You can use a timer or a stop watch.  It depends on how precise you want to be.  To maximize your points or to do the Cherry Inferno - you need a Stopwatch or a Kitchen Timer that counts upward.  Start the timer after you bomb the first folder, and DO NOT STOP IT, just try to bomb on the :00 and the :30 of every minute.  If you get delayed, notate the new time you actually bomb, say :03, then you bomb
Been A Hell Of A Year
First things first thank you to a few family members on here for making it possible for my sons to have a christmas this year without them they wouldnt have many things to open i know gifts to us as adults arent all that impotant but too kids its the norm and they helped me get through 1 more year towards my sons growing up It's sure been 1 hell of a year for the east coast between devistating storms horrible acts of murder to small children and amazing women who tried to protect them financial ruin to many and the list goes on and on in my 40 years i never thought i would see anything compared to 9/11 untill that shooting of sandy hook ct . I have no answers of why these things happen no words to comfort the familys to lose 1s child is the most horrible thing in the world in my opinion i watched my own mother go through it with my brother when he was 19 i was little and he was the 1 raising me it hurt me but crushed her i can not imagine how the familys in sandy hook are feeling a
Thank You
This is a song I wrote and dedicated to my sister Tammy. She was there for me  through thick and thin during my drug addiction. I wrote it back in 2008.   All this time I couldn't find the words Through hell and high water you've been there I've tried to figure out what to do You've opened my eyes to a new world And now that we're here I'd like to say thank you   Caught up in the drugs to keep me going Spending every last dime for a hit What was I doing? It only stopped the pain for a little bit Pills were my only friend Poppin' every hour of every day I felt this was the end Until you showed me the way   All this time I couldn't find the words Through hell and high water you've been there I've tried to figure out what to do You've opened my eyes to a new world And now that we're here I'd like to say thank you   Living life through the bottle of no fear Alcohol was drowning out everyone Why should I even care? I was afraid to shed a single tear Never known
Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
Have yourself a merry little ChristmasLet your heart be lightFrom now onOur troubles will be out of sightHave yourself a merry little ChristmasMake the Yuletide gayFrom now onOur troubles will be miles awayHere we are as in olden daysHappy golden days of yoreFaithful friends who are dear to usGather near to us once moreThrough the years we all will be togetherIf the fates allowHang a shining star upon the highest boughAnd have yourself a merry little Christmas nowHere we are as in olden daysHappy golden days of yoreFaithful friends who are dear to usGather near to us once moreThrough the years we all will be togetherIf the fates allowHang a shining star upon the highest boughAnd have yourself a merry little Christmas nowWe wish you a Merry ChristmasWe wish you a Merry ChristmasWe wish you a Merry ChristmasAnd a Happy New YearWe wish you a Merry ChristmasWe wish you a Merry ChristmasWe wish you a Merry ChristmasAnd a Happy New Year
A Poem
Whiskey River I had a place on Whiskey River But I don't have one down there now After camping on Wine Lake I went down Beer Gulch That's the way I got there but I don't remember how The glassy surface sparkled like diamonds The rocks in whiskey River are made of ice I found some boards just lying around... I built a shack around my stool, simple but nice The boys from town would stop in We'd laugh that the river never ran dry Maybe play guitar a harp would wail we'd sing An old man up the river would come to listen then cry Then one morning when the fog had lifted I packed up what little I had Said goodbye to that old Whiskey River Made my way to Clear Water tired of being sad Yes I had a place Whiskey River I don't go there anymore So if your tired of being alive and well Your welcome to have my place down on the rivers shore
A Lonewolf's Howl Into The Night
So many submissives out there who are lonely tonight. So many who want to give their submission to a Dom who would appreciate what she brings to the relationship. So many who wants to please, to be used, to become owned by another. So many dreams not coming true, so many opportunities wasting away. It is such a shame to see so many suffer, not to be held, not to be kissed tonight.I so long for the same things. I want her, I lust for her, and I want to appreciate her when she gives me her all. I see her in my dreams, she beckons me, she begs me to take her and make her mine. I too have so many wasteful nights. No wants or needs fulfilled, no sensual moments, no lustful nights. Just a lone wolf howling into the night in hopes of one to answer his call.Why does a Dom like myself, and a submissive somewhere in this world have to live like this, when we could be together giving each other what we so desire. To feel her close to me, to sense her lust, to taste her kiss, to see her excitement
Merry Christmas!!!
Merry Christmas to all of my Fu-peeps! Thank you all for Fri ending, Likes, Fan-n-me, Bling-n-me, drinks and Gift-n-me and for all my happy birthday wishes . Special thanks to my Fu-Owner Nighthorse for all the “extras”, Hotsexyman, MFKN Silver Wolf is FF2 CG, Mellow, Retswerd, and to Mike, Ryan, Alan, Eric, Rosalind, Derek, Caren, Lonnie, Matt, Roshan, Drew, Melissa and all the Bouncers and the entire Fubar Family. Could not have leveled without all your help. Have a great Holiday.
I Four Letter Lie You
This was a song that I wrote which basically sums up relationships that are "whole"...enjoy   Such a beautiful ending to a tragic dream This ife we've lived isn't what it seems The only part of us that was true Is I four letter lie you... I four letter lie you...   Should have known from the start But hell we're not to smart Thought we could piece back what was broken With hundreds of promises of nothing We were still stuck on our past No need for us to try and last Our home was full or passionate hate And the end was all in wait   Such a beautiful ending to a tragic dream This ife we've lived isn't what it seems The only part of us that was true Is I four letter lie you... I four letter lie you...   No matter what was said It went straight through you f***ing head I don't have to be modest 'Cause I never really cared to be honest All the time you spent crying All you were doing was lying That's why I showed no remorse Which leads me into the chorus   Su
Barbwire Rose
I see you as a beautiful roselooking into ur eyes I see a blossom full of lifeYour skin soft as petalsA tingle sensation goes through me when I touchYour aroma goes into my nose to my lungs filling them with pleasure Those lips colored deep red for passionWhen the petals fall there is nothing left except ur cold barbwire stemWhen you hold me the thorns piercing my skinIt's wrapping my body, chocking, digging my skin my blood flows outThe thorns dig deeper in my skin scaring my soulMy soul leaking going into my vanes and pouring into the floor of bloodWhen you go I will heal in the outside but the inside I will still have the scars forever they stayAgain and again I will have more scarsEven though I will die I cant stopThe heartless thorns are not the ones killing meIt's your beauty that causes my pain my demiseI cant stop thinking about your beauty I want to touch and holdeven though I feel pain I cant let go.In other words beauty = pain
Worth It All
Do we ever really know when we actually mean something to someone?...finding out who truly cares about you can be a painful process...a process I had to go thru for far too long on my own...I work from home so I used that as an excuse to seclude myself from the real world around fear of History repeating itself...scared to be hurt..scared to REALLY put myself out there....too many times love lead to pain and I convinced myself that I had to go thru a screening process first in-order to ensure that of not happening again...but "the screening process" was the most painful of all...falling for someone that was both out of reach and untouchable is a pain I wouldn't wish on anyone...ok I take that back..there is a LONG list of people that I would gladly wish it on... We have people...friends...that come into our lives and effect us is hard to reach me on an emotional level..I don't open up to most people..and those I do....I have to fee
On Finding A Better Self
Richard Russo's character, Professor Moore, in "Horseman," on how to deal with a plagiarist in her class: But she knew now what she wanted to say to him, what she should have said earlier.  And suddenly the idea of waiting until after the Thanksgiving break was insupportable.  The resumption of classes was too far in the future.  She couldn't risk forgetting, couldn't risk the return of her sanity, her emotional equilibrium.  Given time and opportunity, she'd reason herself out of saying the words.  For her own sake more than his she needed to say what she believed, this very moment, to be true: that his dishonesty wasn't a condition.  It was nothing but a habit, and habits could be broken.  Just cheating once didn't make you a cheater.  Not if you stopped.  He could begin his new life by writing a new essay.  Something by James Cox, not some long forgotten fraternity brother.  Maybe in the writing he'd locate a James Cox who wasn't lazy or incompetent, sullen or belligerent.  Maybe
In Lust With A Stranger Part 1
she saw him again on the train .and wondered he was going? .She wondered where he had been .. his thick long black silky hair pulled back into into a neat pony tail  His deep brown eyes , always seemed as if they were hiding something, his lips were full and moist. He sat comfortably, staring out of the window like he was thinking about somethingor maybe even someone . She wished he was thinking about her . she wondered what it would be like to kiss him over and over again in her mind hshe played the pscene of kissing him , of touching him ,she worked herself up so much and now it seemed like her body was on fire, town by town the train moved on stopping a few minutes here a few minutes there , people got on and people got off but none of them seemed to take her fancy ..the journey seemed long. She glaced over at him and noticed he had fallen asleep , he looked so peaceful , so manly to her .. she pretended to read her book holding it in her hands skimming the pages , only reading som
Feelings About Fubar So Far....
Well, I have been on this site now for 5 days, and I must say I am confused about certain aspects of it.   First off, leveling up. Honestly I'm not even sure what the benifit is to leveling up, but I guess it must be important if folks are working so hard at it lol. Second, I am very confused about the limit to comments and messages you can send folks. It's a social site, would social activities not be encouraged? I like to thank all the folks that send me drinks, I feel it is polite, but alas, the system will not allow me. :( Very dissapointing.   Third, what on earth are cherry bombs and auto 11's? I have seen folks talking aobut them, but I have no clue what they mean. :/ Nor do I know what bling is, or what bling polishing is for that matter. I guess I just have alot to learn about this site still. lol   Mostly I'm just here looking for friends, folks to chat with, good conversation. I guess in time I will learn about the other aspects of the site, and I hope to have fun as
The Other Side Of The World
The hardest thing i've ever had to do was leave my family .. and now over the years i've done it a few times it never gets any easier ..  and more time with me , and get to know them all again , its so much harder to leave ..    I remember crying on my lil Brother's Shoulder so many tears , Just not able to stop crying not wanting to leave but having to ..  Knowing i had to come back for my daughter , otherwise she would never trust my word again ..  A part of my soul belongs at home , and a part of it seems to belong here ...    a whole years passes and life just keeps going .. everyone gets busy ... even my brothers God i miss them .. I miss all my aussie family.  

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