The truth can't save you.
No amount of steel umbrellas and twitterpation can keep this from happening.
Just another hailstorm of broken glass and accidents waiting to happen.
But the world keeps on turning
Perhaps too fast.
Punctuated, exclamated by an ejaculate of denial.
All the lies and checks the system burns through in the first five seconds
This is not happening.
This will not go unpunished.
This did not happen.
This will pass.
This is not my blood.
I can still feel my legs.
I'm not sure what I held onto in that moment
I'd like to say it was hope
fear
desperation
final negotiations with jesus and all the wisemen
and their fancey hats
What the hell is murr anyway?
Brings me back to the memory of a headache.
Opioid withdrawal?
Muscle regeneration?
Nerve death?
In explicit detail and gratuitous length.
Remembering the chill of half of your blood falling out of you
and the slow
dizzy drip into the ground as the sky falls out of your fingers
and the firm certainty beneath becomes a lazy cloud to cradle you
swinging like a willow in the wind, or a flowery dress in a sweeping waltze
to lay you gently where there's no cold
no wet
no sharp overload of syringes, sutures, transfers, and the arcane disembodied amusement of pulling sharp out of your throat with your own fingers
thinking it sparkles
not too far from a diamond.
Something pretty for the scrapbook
all too afraid of the dark tiptoeing in
claiming me for sleep
or perhaps a solution more solid.
But there was only anger
when the darkness claimed
and went.
That's the sad matter of the truth.
The state of that nature.
No dancing white cherubs, or golden pearl inlaid blockades
There was no redemptive, revelative chorus of angels, and friendships renewed
no series of letters, no sterilized ladles and filthridden soup kitchens
No forgiveness or handshakes
no bracelets, no morals, no moralists, no agenda
no tickertape parades
no desperate pleas on the sides of water towers
no quaint justice or somber rectitude
I said the truth couldn't save you.
Nothing can.