Fubar Blog Posts 4

Life Gne
A trusting heart bound by a destructive soul a logical mind losing control a complicated girl with a simple wish a dark little secret hidden at best an undiscovered truth hidden between the lines a barren plain of emotion keeping her alive a broken smile complete by a frown a single tear in which she will drowned a fire so bright fueled by hatred within a tempting thought her final sin a small little blade a river of blood an instant used a whole life ended

Stay
SugarLand Stay I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call It's just another call from home And you'll get it and be gone And I'll be crying And I'll be begging you, baby Beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waiting With my Heart on my sleeve Oh, for the next time we'll be here Seems like a million years And I think I'm dying What do I have to do to make you see She can't love you like me? Why don't you stay I'm down on my knees I'm so tired of being lonely Don't I give you what you need When she calls you to go There is one thing you should know We don't have to live this way Baby, why don't you stay You keep telling me, baby There will come a time When you will leave her arms And forever be in mine But I don't think that's the truth And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting It's too much pain to have to bear To love a man you have to share Why don't

"clock Of Life"
"The clock of life is wound but once, and no man has the power to tell just when the hands will stop, at late or early hour. Now is the only time you own. Live, love, toil with a will. Place no faith in time. For the clock may soon be still."

I Know It's Wrong!
However I am asking anyone to rate my stash, profile, pictures an ect.... I know it's been awhile since I've been on to return the fav however I have a damn good excuse which I'm sure you have all read on my other blogs... I'd really be grateful for those who do and for those who don't thats o.k. no worries!!! Thanks, Much love always from your friend Jaime!

Rideride
RIDE CUM TAKE A RIDE TWISTING AND TURNING HONEY DRIPPING SUGAR SWEET CUM THIS WAY LOVE CUM LET'S FLY... CUM PLEASE CUM LOVE AS I SINK DEEP INTO YOU EYES CUM UNITED AS ONE MY LOVE CUM I BECKON YOU LET'S RIDE... 5.1.09 FESTER to all the girls

Thought
pausing deep in thought hoping to catch a glimpse of you smiling a slow seductive one when i find you there always there when i need you the most a deep caress of my mind my soul responds with a stirring a touch from your essence shimmers along my skin from parted lips a moan slips out opening eyes to see the face i love so much my heart sighs as yours echos back to me

Joke Of The Day
Joke of the Day Two men were having an awfully slow round of golf because the two ladies in front of them managed to get into every sand trap, lake, and rough on the course. They didn't bother to wave the men on through, which is proper golf etiquette. After two hours of waiting and waiting, one man said, "I think I'll walk up there and ask those gals to let us play through." He walked out the fairway, got halfway to the ladies, stopped, turned around, and came back, explaining, "I can't do it. One of those women is my wife and the other is my mistress! Maybe you'd better go talk to them." The second man walked toward the ladies, got halfway there and, just as his partner had done, stopped, turned around and walked back and said: "Small world."

Rip Cash
this is the article from 2 years ago. Lake drowning victim recovered, identified A drowning victim whose body was recovered in Cherokee Lake has been identified as Gary Ryan Stringer, 26, of Jefferson City. Authorities from TVA, Grainger County and the Tennessee Wildlife Resources Agency had been searching for the victim after he disappeared in the water around 5 p.m. Sunday at Point Seven in the Grainger County part of the lake. "He was apparently trying to swim from one island to another, and when he got to about the midway point, went under and did not come back up," TVA spokesman Gil Francis said. Stringer's body was recovered around 11 a.m. Monday near the spot where he was last seen. he was our life. our everything. the only one who gave a fuck about me. things are a lot worse with him gone i hate the way my life has turned out. how i fail at relationships because i dont give a fuck. how i wish i would also die, on accident. part of me thinks he gave up, hell i would too.

Husband Store
The Husband StoreA store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City , Where a woman may go to choose a husband.Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates.You may visit the store ONLY ONCE!There are six floors and the attributes of the menincrease as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch. . .. You may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband. .On the first floor the sign on the door reads:Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord. The second floor sign reads:Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids. The third floor sign reads:Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love th

I Miss The Sky
I Miss The SkyIt hit me all at once, that something I did every day, to catch my breath, no longer works for me. One more thing lost to me. - JohnI miss the sky.It used to be, right there, when I looked up.When I needed a breather, a break from the world,I could just lift my eyes, and see the skyClouds drifting in the breezy sunlit blueSometimes, when I was really stressed,I could faintly hear Hendrix say, “ ’Scuse me, while I kiss the sky….”As I lifted my face into the sun, and blew the clouds a kiss.Peace would come, a moments respite it’s trueToday, I needed a break, a moment of peace, and As I have done countless times in my life, I looked up, I saw the clouds there, floating on the breeze, But all I could see were thoughts of youThen it was I realized, that since you diedWhen I look at the sky, seen through a sheen of tearsit’s just clouds, there, in the air.I miss the sky

Five For One
Five for Oneby Metatetron oneI opened my eyesgreeting the brand new day.Still, you are not here.twoMy empty cold bedkissed my lips a good morning.I wished it was you.threeAgain this morningbirds sang outside my window.I dreamed of you.fourI did dream of youas I do every night,your pillow empty.fiveIt is too early.I try to find sleep again.Winter winds blowing.

For Those Who Truely Care
Hey Everyone!!! Sorry I Don't Come On Very Often! As My Real Friends On Here Know I'm Expecting In October. I Couldn't Be Happier. Me And My Love Are Doing Great And The Baby Is Good Too! I'm Less Than Three Weeks Away From Finding Out What My LIttle Bundle Of Joy Is. I Am Truely Sorry To Those I've Losta Connection To! I Miss Everyone Deeply But Just Don't Have As Much Time As I Used To! Michael Broke His Leg And Dislocated His Ankle And I Am The Only One Working For The TIme Being. There's Also Much We Need To Do To Prepare For Our Baby But Life Couldn't Be Better Even With Our Many Obsticles! Keep In Mind That I Come On To Check My Mail So If You Still Care Drop Me A Line And I'll Surely Write You Back! Peace And Love To All! ♥Nichole

Never.....maybe
After so much time and prayer....You have helped me to realize that our time together is truly ,completely ended.Never in my wildest dreams would have imagined that it end this way.Never did I think being kind to someone would cause so many problems.Never did I believe opening my heart to care about another person would make it so difficult for ANYBODY. Never did imagine I had so many faults ,as you were clear to point out to me,that could hurt someone so much. Never ....did I ever think by praying with you ....for you ....I WOULD be the one to ruin our friendship.Never did I think I would cause you so much anger .....maybe....just maybe....you were right.I was irrational,hysterical,loud,and hard to get along with...maybe becaused I cared.Maybe if I never wanted you to be at your best. Maybe...had I been better at my "job".....Maybe realizing you were right along about everything.Maybe.....just maybe......I had never made you so angry ......Maybe if I helped you more....Or maybe if I

Pumping Gas
TIPS ON PUMPING GASI don't know what you guys are paying for gasoline.... but here in California we are also paying higher, up to $3.50 per gallon. But my line of work is in petroleumfor about 31 years now, so here are some tricks to get more of your money's worth for every gallon..Here at the Kinder Morgan Pipeline where I work in San Jose , CA we deliver about 4 million gallons in a 24-hour period thru the pipeline. One day is diesel the next day is jet fuel, and gasoline, regular and premium grades. We have 34-storage tanks here with a total capacity of 16,800,000 gallons.Only buy or fill up your car or truck in the early morning when the ground temperature is still cold. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground. The colder the ground the more dense the gasoline, when it gets warmer gasoline expands, so buying in the afternoon or in the evening....your gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and the tempe

My Mom
so my mom has liver disease and i am helping taking care of her. i know people who are taking care of their mom that is real sick and i guess i never knew the stress that they go through. well i know now how stressful it is to have a mom that is dying and slowly. i never knew how i would feel when this time came, but now i know how it feels and i dont like it. it is the hardest thing in the world. since i have started this i am at the doctors with her twice a week and yet she can get so hateful. i know it is the encephanlopathy that the disease causes and that the disease makes her do some of the stuff but it is very hurtful and stressful. i am stressed out about how she is doing. i dont know if i am gonna wake up tomorrow and she is gonna be and it doesnt help that she is depressed and not sleeping. i needed to vent but i have no idea what to write either because what i feel is so little to what she is going through. i am trying to understand what she is going through but i dont thin

Light
dedicated to someone that has helped me pull myself up and out of the dark he knows who he is :D xoxo baby Light i see the light at the end of the tunnel i move towards it and it begins to receed i move towards it, running now but still it receeds finally it disappears and all thats left is darkness it was a lonely and dark world till your hand reached you and found me in the dark

Why
Why do you cry why dowe die why must lie and why must innocent men fry. The sickness of life only passes once in awhile but when we finally get to the end it feels like the longest mile I only ask this question is why does this happen why must we be ill i ask this question becuase of the life i lead one of torrment and denial also one that i have already defiled the word of mouth is life is short cold lonesome cause of mistakes i have made this has only made me more jaded and frayed. In this life the are winners but also dont forget there are losers which are you choose wisley cause your passion will make you decide

Trauma
My pain is deep this hill is steep this mole hill in my mind. My choice are my voices that speak when only spoken to this world i live is as painful as a shank i feel like a junkie on crank. My mind is grey its in a state of a daze known only to me. this world could be alot more fun if i didnt feel so over run with life and love and matters of the heart it only is nothing but a giant brain fart. With love and time there is nothing left to chance so you do what i like to call the safety dance.

Stuff
A packet of one hundred $100 bills is less than 1/2" thick and contains $10,000. Fits in your pocket easily and is more than enough for week or two of shamefully decadent fun. Believe it or not, this next little pile is $1 million dollars (100 packets of $10,000). You could stuff that into a grocery bag and walk around with it. While a measly $1 million looked a little unimpressive, $100 million is a little more respectable. It fits neatly on a standard pallet... And $1 BILLION dollars... now we're really getting somewhere... Next we'll look at ONE TRILLION dollars. This is that number we've been hearing so much about. What is a trillion dollars? Well, it's a million million. It's a thousand billion. It's a one followed by 12 zeros. You ready for this? It's pretty surprising. Go ahead... Scroll down... Ladies and gentlemen... I give you $1 trillion dollars ... (And notice those pallets are double stacked .) So the next time you hear someone toss around the phrase

Beloved Imortally
I hide hide behind my laughter hide beneath my fears far below my smile and oceans amidst my tears I see see with the eyes of a mystic soul beyond the stars and the moon deep within a wounded heart above the morality of religeon amongst the rebellion of a generation I feel feel the beat of your heart the warmth of you breath the coolness of the breeze the mist of the dawn I touch touch with the tenderness of an angel with the softness of a flowers petal with the curiosity of a child with the care of a healer I love love with the heart of a dreamer to the depths and heights of none before me without knowledge of a beginning and end without reserve without disguise I kiss kiss with lips painted wine the furrowed lashes of your brow the buttery softness of your neck the weathered hands you place in mine I take take the precious offer of your love the leap into your arms the fall from the heavens the union of our souls the heat of our blended desire I

Pet Loss Poems
if it shouls be that i grow weak and pain should keep me from my sleep; then you must do what must be done, for this last battle cant be won. you will be sad, i understand; but don't let greif then stay your hand. for this day more than all rest, you love for me must stand the test. we've had so many happy years; what is to come can hold no fears. you dont want me to suffer so the time has come, please let me go. take me where my need they'll tend, but please stay woth me'til the end to hold me close and speak to me until my eyes no longer see. i know in time you will agree, it was a kindness done for me. although my tail its last has waved, from pain and suffereing i'm saved. please do not grieve that it was you who had this painful thing to do we've been so close, we two, through the years; don't let your heart hold any tears. AUTHOR UNKNOWN I COPIED THIS FROM A WEBSITE THAT HELPS ME GET OVER MY LOSS OF PETS!!!

*sighs*
how do you tell someone you love them and dont want to live without them..... so they know you mean it? every time your away from them you feel alone.... and empty.... what do you do when your in love with someone...... when your sitting here trying to find the words to explain, and you know their all there.... but you cant seep to put them down...... plain n simple fact that all i can come up with is.... i love her with everything i have, and im going insane without her..... what more is there to say to that?????

Tifanie
The best part of my day after a long hard day at work or the stress we all face and problems we all seem to share weather it be money,family ,or just the everyday bullshit we face i can honestly say my wife is the best part of my day with a careing word or a simple i love you i know we will be ok. I cnt believe all the shit this woman has delt with before me and now with me shes a trooper my energy my breath when i cant breath and my heartbeat when i want to give up shes a little fiesty at times lol those eyes that are so beautiful can show just how pissed she is by a glance ,they also show the loving tifanie who is loyal considerate and goes without and doesnt complain just says baby it will get better she is my world and 6-13-08 was the best day of my life baby you are more than amazing i love you:) she loves pink so baby heres somthing beautiful for you:)

Everything's Always My Fault...
that's my conclusion after what happened yesterday...my stepdad and I got into a really bad argument....til the point I just said fuck it and fuck you since I'm such a damn problem around here, he won't have to worry about it much longer....I was really pissed at that point and could've killed him so I just left the house...where I was going I didn't know and I really didn't give a damn...anywhere was better then being near him at that point....I went to a neighbors house and told them if anyone came looking for me..like my dad...that I'm not here...I really didn't wanna see him at all....so some hours later after I've calmed down a bit...who rings the doorbell....my dad...they told him and he left... So how's everything my fault.....fuck if I know still...it seems I'm just easier to blame for all the bullshit that's happening right now and I'm tired of it...really to point where I just want to end it all and be done

Ex Stalking Me
http://www.fubar.com/user/2903072 This link is to my ex Billy he is stalking me bad I have blocked him on myspace and now fubar, he doesn't like the fact I am seeing someone on here and it's pissing me an him off. He already pissed a chick off on here so woman you better watch it.

Translation!
Since my days on Fubar I have been easily confused or some might say lost in translation. Here are a few that now actually make sense now I know. If you have anymore let me know, I won't feel so lame when I have to ask in future! English Bold - American unbold AArse- Ass, Advert- Commerical, Autumn- FallBBoot (of car)- Trunk, Biscuit- Cookie, Box- BoothBarrister- Attorney, Bin- Trash Can, Bungalow- Single storey house, Bum bag- fanny pack, Bar maid/man- BartenderCChips- fries, Crisps- potato chips, Casualty/ A&E- ERCaravan- Trailer, Cupboard- closet, Candy floss- cotton candyCanteen- Cafeteria, Crumpet- English MuffinChemist- Drugstore, Car Park- parking lotDDummy- Pacifier, Double yellow lines- no parking zoneDressing gown- robe, Dinner jacket- tuxedoE - Cant think of any!FFag- cigarette, Football- Soccer, Fire brigade- fire departmentFather Christmas- Santa Claus, Flat- apartmentFlat mate- room mate, Film- MovieGGay- fagHHoliday- VacationIInsect- BugJJelly- Jello, Jam- jelly, Ju

Love
Love isn't about attraction.. not about infatuation.. not about lust.. not about gifts and the lenght of time you spent together.. Bottom line? There's no reason at all.. TRUE LOVE is having to wake up each day feeling so deeply inlove and overwhelmingly happy whenever this person is around you without even knowing why.. making you forget the past.. cherish the present and wishing the FUTURE would be spending the entirely of your lives together...

So I Write A Lil Smut Now And Then
I've shared some of my writings with a few on here and starting to feel comfortable with actually posting some of it, if the interest is there. I'll be honest, Im a perv but this is a great outlet for all those (he he) thoughts. this opener is also to see if there is open interest and if not, well I'll just keep'm in PM's and delete this blog. Below is a short story, some on here have read already. Most of what I put in here will be along these same lines, so if it dont interest ya now, it wont on the next entry either, lol... anyway.. The fog had not lifted as John headed out to his truck. Even the slight mist falling did not break his minds thoughts of the night before. No, it was still wrapped in the warm sheets snuggled close to his lover, still sticky from their night of passion. Vivid memories of her face screaming out in ecstasy, flashed in his mind as he started his truck. The moans echoing in his head seemed to oscillate with the motor as it warmed up. Ev

Before I Go...
Before I go just let me say... I never wanted to hurt you I gave everything I had Looks like it wasn't enough Did I ever truly make you smile? Others are always asking why Why did I even try? I'm done with the pain Maybe someday we'll meet again Things may be different then How often do I cross your mind? I never could stand to see you cry I'm gone today I'll leave a smile for you I don't belong here in your world This is my final declaration I feel I've slipped too far I don't even want to fight I cant be the strong one Just let me fade away...

Tonight We're On The Road!
When I arrived at home last night I had some time to myself since Martha was out with the kids (Sarah, Jeffrey, and my point-four child/sister-in-law Mary), so I placed some phone calls to my family. First to Gary, my brother (okay, technically he’s my half-brother since we have the same mother but different fathers; I’m the only child on my mom and dad, but we’ve never made a big deal of that) who owns a flooring business in Poplar Grove, Illinois to finalize the directions we’re taking to get to his house starting tonight. There’s a running bet at my workplace – where I go to get the money to open Fast Cash for the day, not where I’m typing this one – that our trip there which we’ve figured will take fifteen hours will actually take closer to seventeen. I’ll have to write that figure now; you can ask Martha, I’m a notorious record-keeper! I left a message with my stepmother Susan in Georgetown, Florida, and there&r

Things To Ponder
Why some soldiers go into battle without even wondering why just do as they are asked even when others ask them why they have no answer other than my country needs me? A country boy will survive anywhere he is placed but continues to look for the country however a city boy can't survive outside the city? A soldier will lay down his life for what he believes in and protect those around him with no questions asked but come home at times to ridicule and say that is why I fight? Why is it easier to go with the flow of things and complain rather than make a suggestion to do the change that you see needs to be done? Why do we tend to push those away we love at times to protect them instead of drawing them closer into us? Did you know that it takes less muscles to smile than it does to do anyother facial expression. Never figured this out why do we need peace and quiet to think cause we should be able to think at any point and time shouldn't we cause we have to make decisions in life co

[sighs]
I'll be back on here at some point tonight. Shouldn't be too late. I just have to reinstall Vista and have Dell on the phone while I do it. Apparently the "S.M.A.R.T" event that I am getting is because my Vista is bad. They scanned my laptop and everything is fine with it. So I'll be on tonight...some time.

~ Mothers
I remember when I was little.. vaguely, in bits and very small pieces. Sometimes I find myself sitting and thinking about the few things I do remember, but they seem so large in my mind. Moms smile, her voice.. her drawings just laying around. I'd spy a naked woman on occasion and wonder who drew it, it wasn't until later I realised it was Mom. Random writings, bits of poems that made no sense to me, but still made me smile because they were her words and that's all that mattered to me. Her. Singing at any given time, just because. Always loving to listen to her. Her tears, one of the strongest emotional pains I've ever felt. My mom cried, felt. We had a fight here or there, growing up, I'd rebel as much as a teenage gal growing up in the sticks possibly could. The one thing that made me love her more than anything in the world was one simple sentence. "Jessica, I've never been a mother to a 14 yr old girl before... I'm new to this too." *smiles* Indeed.. she was perfect in her hone

Questions For Guys That Want To Date Me
Are you or have you been married & if not how long have you been single?What is your longest relationship?Are you looking for causel or exclusive?Do you have kids?Do you want kids?Do you have siblings?Do you do any kind of drugs?Do you drink?Do you smoke?Have you ever been arrested?Do you like pets? Do you go to Church?Do you have your own place?If no, have you lived on your own?What do you like to do for fun?What is your ideal soul mate, what qualities would you like?What color are your eyes?What is good about you?Is family important too you?What are you dislikes in a woman?Do you have a temper?Do you have pierces' and/or tattoos'?Do you mind tattoos' on a woman?

Fake Ass Women!
Is it just me, or are the amount of profiles with people "passing" themselves off as women grown? Why is it every other god damn person that wants to add me is some level 4, fake ass chick with porno pictures their profile? Do i look like a fucking idiot? Seriously now, come on! Post a god damn salute, or dont fucking act like i am going to sit her and cyber sex your ass while you spank your shit sitting at home while your kids sleep in the next room! I wont bling you, i dont care if you bling me... You dont get access... You get fucking blocked!

Ugh
I just want him to come home...he's in FL for another week..he's got no phone right now, so he has to call me..and it kills me to wait..got to talk to him for a half hour tonight. But he's not ready, he doesn't want to be with me..maybe one day..but I don't know...only time will tell. UGH. Why is life like this?

I Smoke To Stay Sane Read To Find Out Why
I have recently received several lectures on why I shouldn't smoke. I know smoking is bad for me and some day when I am ready I will quit. To be honest I have only been smoking for a little over Two years. The fact that I haven't been smoking longer with all that has happened in my life in the last 3 year is a miracle in itself. I don't drink party or do any drugs that are not prescribed for me lol. Smoking is my one vice and it's the one that keeps me sane. A summarized laundry list of events that have happened in my life in the last 3 years you will find below. When you are done reading tell me if you wouldn't be at least tempted to take a puff or two off a cigarette from time to time. * Left my abusive husband after 10 years of marriage* Fell In Love For The First Time Ever* Had my Heart Broke By The Same Love * Started a New Job As A Trainer * Lost over 50 pounds Shedding Years Of Depression at the same time.* Was Torn Between My Friend and My Brother In a Bitter Second Divorce* W

The Bitch
Where to start. I have been thinking about this all night and still really cant think of what to say. I guess i will just start with, do i look as gullible as everyone seems to think. I always mean what i say, why cant others. I have been beat down, knocked out, spit on, and my heart ripped out more times then i can count, but i have always come back. It makes me a stronger person yes, but at what cost. I feel that the more and more life keeps throwing me curve balls i hit them, but a piece of me always dies with it. I find myself growing colder every day. Yes, no matter what i will make it, I'll always be here, strong, confident, strong minded, but cold. I don't want to be cold. I have never known true love, but I have loved and lost and had my heart also ripped out of my chest a few times and fucked with a lot. So what I'm saying is I don't know true love, but i know love. Queen Elizabeth never married. She never needed a man to help her or be with her. Then again she did have somet

This Dream
I lay here and dream of what we could be. As one we could become and let no one get in our way. With love for one another that can not be imagined. We could walk on this earth with only each other. I dream this dream and it comes straight from the heart. If it comes true we will never be apart. Our love will only grow with each passing day. A beautiful love which will never fade away. I will do all I can to show you love strong and true. To let you know that my heart belongs to you. I dream this dream of how happy we could be, be but I don’t know if you love me. I just pray that one day this dream will be reality! Poem by Tammy C.

The Journey Begins - The Arival
I try not to remember the past The City the good times the bad the mistakes but it is hard late at night the thoughts the memories creep back in. I still remember the First day I arrived in San Francisco that Feb morning in 1977 I dont really remember the bus ride to get ther but I do remember the City. Getting off the bus and standing in the new city with just my backpack and the 700 dollars to start my new life. The air was crisp and dry the city seemed so strange to me then. I had come across the country to begin anew to excape the drab cold world I had left behind to meet up with a dear friend who had made the journey months earilier to find her sexual freedom. I was coming to find her as much as to start a new adventure the trouble the two of us casused back east was legend but she had journeyed to seek her freedom and she had beckoned me to come to the Promised Land of San Francisco. Trully I was sure this was the land of oppurtunity where I was sure a man could be anything. I w

Submission Part 1
Was a beautiful night with the moon casting a glow upon the road. Long work week has me wired tight, so close to lashing out . But instead I bottle it all up . The demands seemed so intense. You must of sensed something was wrong to call me a few days later with your mysterious invitation . All you would say is read the cards and do not call me . You had me laughing at that comment . So here I am driving alone at night heading to a place I never heard of , to follow your card . Have to admit seeing the rose and note on door had me a lil worried was this from you or a stalker . Yes , I was tempted to call you and ask is this from you . But a part of me said , "What the hell " . The air is so nice its like a gentle caress along my skin . Lifting my hair up and cooling off my hot neck . The area seems secluded beautiful scenery is picked up with my headlights . You have me all curious now . Pulling up to a black wrought iron gate , very goth , which you know would intrigue me even more

Spotblahlight
blah blah blah goin for spotlight. blah blah blah need help with fu funds. blah blah blah any amount will be great! blah blah blah my nose wont stop running. blah blah blah big thanks in advance! love your friendly neightbourhood PK err KP..w/e!. later days!

April Sucked!!
Wanna say hey to everyone!! I was in the hospital for a couple days, had a gallbladder attack, so they did surgery and removed it. I was havin alot of pain for awhile, but now that Ive had the surgery I do feel alot better!! I quit smokin!! I had a few on easter at my moms, she came over one day and I took 1 off her, and last weekend I went out for a couple hours and had a couple then, but other then that I havent had any!! So I think Im doin really good with the whole smokin thing!! I cant believe how much this place changes everytime I log on something is new! Anywho I cant stay long, but I wanted to say hey to yall and I do hope yall are doin good!! I still dont think ill get on here much, but if you wanna keep in touch with me let me know and ill give ya my myspace or email address. Still wont be everyday, but it will be more often then it is here. Yall take care and i do hope to catch yall sometime soon!! Lots of licks and spanks to all my friends!! xoxo

New Fu-owned Rules
New fu-Owned rules: # Starting now, all fu-Owned expirations will reimburse the previous owner by the percent listed below (See: "Reimbursement to old owner (when expired)") FU OWNED # The maximum ownership time has been cut in half! fu-Owned purchases made before Thursday May 7 2009 will still expire in 30 days. Purchases made after this date will expire in 14 days!

Paths
This was sent to me by a good friend. TY for the unconditional love and support! I can almost see itThat dream I'm dreaming butThere's a voice inside my head sayin, You'll never reach it, Every step I'm taking, Every move I make feelsLost with no directionMy faith is shaking but IGot to keep tryingGot to keep my head held highThere's always going to be another mountainI'm always going to want to make it moveAlways going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's The ClimbThe struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm takingSometimes they knock me down butNo I'm not breakingI mean I know itBut these are the moments thatI'm going to remember most yeahJust got to keep goingAnd I, I got to be strong[ The Climb lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ]Just keep pushing on, There's always going to be another mountainI'm always going to want to make it moveAlways going to be an uphill battle,

The Rules For All Of Us Cullens For Our Fans
OKAY IT IS AWESOME THAT YOU ALL LOVE US AN WANT US AROUND BECAUSE OF BEING OUR FANS BUT WE REALLY NEED TO HAVE SOME RULES THAT WE NEED TO SET IN PLAY: WE HAVE ALL WORKED VERY HARD ON OUR PROFILES AND HAVE SPENT ALOT OF MAN HOURS ON BUILDING OUR LEVELS AND POINTS AND PICTURES WE DO NOT APPRECIATE HAVING OUR PICTURES RIPPED WITHOUT PERMISSION WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN FIND ANY PICTURE THAT WE HAVE BUT SOME YOU CAN'T BECAUSE THEY ARE CUSTOM MADE BY ME AND THOSE ARE NEVER TO BE TAKEN MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND MY HUSBAND WILL AGREE WITH ME AND THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES ALLOWED TO RIP FROM EACH OTHER. WE LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF OUR FRIENDS AND FANS ALL WE ASK IS THAT RESPECT EACH ONE OF US AND TAKE THE TIME TO CONSIDER OUR HARD WORKMANSHIP AND APPRECIATE THAT WE ARE HERE. IF WE GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO TAKE PICS ITS ONE THING BUT DO NOT JUST RIP THEM AND THINK ITS OKAY WE WILL DELETE AND BLOCK YOU. OTHER THEN THAT PLEASE ENJOY US AND COME HANG OUT WITH US AND GET TO KNOW US WE ARE ALL VERY

Have You Ever Wondered? Ponderings Of A Pissed Off Old Lady!
Have you ever wondered, that with all the drama out in the real world, that we escape to the net, only to find and create more drama? Where is the fine line that each person draw's for reality and the "what if's" the internet creates for us? Do you think that there is really a chance you can find happiness in the pants of another person you are talking to, via the net, who lives a half of a world away? Have you ever stopped, just sat back and realized that the interenet is the biggest meat market in the world? Do you really beleive the grass is greener on the other side of the fence? Will it truly taste sweeter after you realize that the grass is exaclty the same as what you left your pasture for? Do you ever think that maybe sometimes, we find that "special" someone out here in cyber space....and build them up to be someone they really aren't, then them up on a pedistal....if only in our own minds? Then to find out that they cannot be that person... they cannot live up to o

Thru My I
sometimes what we are searching for .. isnt what we end up getting .... life is funny like that .... and then one day u find urself searching again ..maybe I AM not making any sense and no one will prolly even read this ..... so just a waste of time ... u ever want something so bad that u wish u could go back and change and do things different .... one of my best friends lost her life last year .... I miss greatly and if I could go back and change te way things happen I would ..... u think u have all the time in the world to tell someone that u love them and u think oh I can wait until tomorrow .... when we chat .... and then tomorrow never came I often think that if I could have stopped her ... if only she would have called me and talked to me all night she would still be here today ... well the last time I talked to here was only a few days b4 her life ended.... if maybe I just said hey come spend the weekend at my house we will go out and search for new guys ... or maybe just fli

How To Annoy Ppl In Public Restroom
1.Stick your palm open under the stall wall and ask your neighbor, ''May I borrow a highlighter?'' 2. ''Uh-oh, I knew I shouldn't put my lips on that.'' 3. Cheer and clap loudly every time somebody breaks the silence with a bodily function noise. 4. ''Hmmm, I've never seen that color before.'' 5. ''Damn, this water is cold.'' 6. Grunt and strain real loud for 30 seconds and then drop a cantaloupe into the toilet bowl from a high place and sigh relaxingly. 7. ''Now how did that get there?'' 8. ''Hummus. Reminds me of hummus.'' 9. Fill up a large flask with Mountian Dew. Squirt it erratically under the stall walls of your neighbors while yelling,''Whoa! Easy boy!!'' 10. '' Interesting....more sinkers than floaters'' 11. Using a small squeeze tube, spread peaunt butter on a wad of toliet paper and drop under the stall wall of your neighbor. Then say,''Whoops, could you kick that back over here, please?" 12. ''C'mon Mr. Happy! Don't fall asleep on me!!"

Feelin' Kinda Weird
*To see the devil in your dream, signifies fear, limitations, and negative aspects of yourself. You may be harboring feelings of guilt. It is time to release these feelings. Alternatively, the devil represents intelligence, cunningness, deception, and cleverness. To dream that you fight off the devil, indicates that you will succeed in defeating your enemies. To dream that the devil talks to you, suggests that you will find certain temptations hard to resist even though you know it is not in your best interest.* *To dream that someone or something is evil, denotes a repressed and/or forbidden aspect of yourself. This part of yourself may be seeking recognition and acknowledgment. Alternatively, evil may also be a reflection of your strong, negative emotions like hate, anger, etc.* *To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. It could also symbolize bitterness, jealousy, or rivalry, depending on your relationship with your family. Alternatively, it

Turnabout Seems Unfair
There are very few occasions that I just HAVE to talk to someone. Normally I'm ok with whatever goes on and I can just handle it myself. Right now, however, I'm in a pretty confused and crappy state. And the one time it would be nice to just talk to someone, everybody is unavailable, doing their stuff, having their own fun. Figures. I think it's time for new friends.

The Death Of A Great Mother.
Pretty Fugged up way tae start my first blog.maybe i can blog about good things in my life later. I was told by my da last night around 10 pm that me ma was put n the hospitial.we all knew she had cancer and it was a matter of time.as of 8:14pm today she passed.but its till too damn soon.i can't imagine the pain this woman put up with over the past 8 years.i guess she lived long enough while dealing with untold amounts of hurt and pain.im 33 years old i understand death but even this seems tae be unfair.i never wanted this day tae come.no one does.i need a while off to settle family affairs. Its FUCKED when everyone fights about what they are going tae get when a loved one dies. Scrounging around like a pack of wild fuvkin dogs like t's that last meal.it makes me sick on my stomach.and if i have any say so the vultures will get a hand full of SHIT! Just pray for me if you do that sorta thing.you can imagine right now im not happy with Gods decsision.if your like me and don't reall

Rowdy87
Rowdy87: wanna commant on eachothers pix? Me: haha i really don't know what to say about your pics... sorry Rowdy87: lol say anything you want to Me: No thank u Rowdy87: you know I could lick your clit with my cock in your pussy at the same time Me : not interested OMG.. what is wrong with people??

New On Facebook
just wanted to let all my friends on here know that i havent been on here that much anymore cause it seems like if you dont have bling credits or auto 11's or cherry bombs your not worth that much to visit. what happen to the old way of going to someones page and rating there pictures. now people do the cherry bomb and there fore they dont take the time to actually look at your pictures that you post.well when im on here i cant bling people or cherry bomb but i do make the time to rate my friends and there pictures and i cant even get a rate so im taking some time off fubar to be with my family and friends outside of fubar and then when i come back im gonna start deleting alot of people that dont even know that im on there friends list. but those of you that actually read this and understand where im coming from i have opened a facebook account only because that site is nothing like fubar its not a contest to see who can level the fastest.and if your on facebook and want to add me feel

Donald Evans
COLUMBUS, Miss. (AP) — Bassist Donald "Ean" Evans of the Southern rock band Lynyrd Skynyrd has died of cancer at his home in Mississippi. Lowndes County Coroner Greg Merchant says Evans died Wednesday. He was 48.A statement posted Thursday on lynyrdskynyrd.com announced Evans' death "with profound sadness." It said he had "put up a valiant battle with an aggressive form of cancer."Evans was born in Atlanta, but moved to Columbus in eastern Mississippi after marrying his wife, Eva. He joined Lynyrd Skynyrd in 2001 and had been touring regularly with the band until being diagnosed with cancer in 2008, when he cut back on performances with the band.Survivors include his wife and two daughters.Funeral arrangements are incomplete.

We Need To Whack Bugs Bunny
christopher.: bugs bunny needs to be whacked to give us other guys a chance xxx: um xxx: WHJAT??? christopher.: Bugs, man... he sets the bar too fucking high christopher.: he's ultimately cool and has got some mad pimp skills christopher.: and he's got the fucking one liners, man. the little fucker. christopher.: he always gets the girl. someone needs to whack the motherfucker to give us other guys a chance at the action xxx: uh huh xxx: u are not man who brings the one liners xxx: u bring the funny, but one liners and jokes aren't ur style xxx: you're style is narrative monlongue-ish humor christopher.: yeah well, girls don't like that shit christopher.: they like the quick witted one liners christopher.: and i fucking blame Bugs christopher.: that little fucker. xxx: i fucking loathe one liners xxx: bullshit fake made up stories are also annoying christopher.: i need to grab Elmer Fudd and teach that worthless prick how to kill a motherfucking wabbit xxx: give me real shit, and make

[duck!]
I know... we've been flirting with duck for a while. *scratches his beard* Well I've got a new kitchen knife and a new sauce, so let's go a little crazy. We will require-Duck breast... at least one. fresh CilantroDry Red pepper flake 1 1/2 tbs chili paste (or chinese chili sauce)3/4th tbs honey2 tbs tomato saucefreshly grated ginger2 minced garlic clovesflour to thicken Put some oil in a heavy frying pan- preferably without a finish, prefereably on high heat- and toss in your duck breast after scoring some crosshatches .In tact, whole. Wait til that son-bitch is cracklin and sputtering. Might want a heavier duty oil here and the duck will of course render out some of its own goodness toward this process. Minimal fiddling. I like my duck medium you might go for that burnt cinder effect, but I'd say flip once you've got something that looks like mexican caramel and finish to the same doneness on the other side. When that's done, lift it, and drain off most of the oil, probably le

Do I Or Dont I ..fighting With Myself
Yesterday my oldest son got paid, and he and I were under the asumption his pay was gonna be a farely good one. OOHHHHHHHHHH so wrong, it sucked ass. He had such plans for it and now I am afraid he will have to put most of his plan on hold if not all. Any how, he was flippin for the food for the two weeks , so I could take all that I had and put on bills ..ewwwwwwwwwww. Well after seening how bad his pay sucked and knowing how much he wanted to to certain things , I started to fight with myself. I thought oh well , what ever he has left he can just leave till his next check. Then I thought , I cant do this its not right. So which bill has to be put on the back burner. I did this all the flippin way to the store. And after the first store, I thought, nope I cant do this to him. So I told him when we went to the next store I would pay for it all. He said what about the bills. I said I will figure out something. Welp, again I changed my dam mind. So we decided to s

The Penis
~LOL~I, the penis, request a pay raise due to the following reasons:1) I do physical labor2) I work at great depths3) I plunge head first into everything I do4) I work weekends & holidays5) I work in damp environments6) I work in dark areas with poor ventilation7) I work in high temperatures8) .. and my work exposes me to diseaseDear penis, your request has been denied for the following reasons:1) You don't work eight hours straight2) You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work period3) You don't stay in your designated work area, and are frequently found in other locations4) You don't take initiative and must be stimulated to start working5) You leave your work place messy at the end of your shift6) You are unable to work overtime or double shifts7) You sometimes leave your designated work are before completing the assigned task8) You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the work place with two suspicious bagsSincerely, Miss Snatch

Geezer
My arms are tired from beating this guy's head in.I dunno where he's been.Didn't get any in my mouth. He started talking after we got the table leg.I told him he'd tell me what I wanted to hear....then I kept hitting him til he told me what I wanted to know.Like wet meat slapped on a cutting board.See- you don't stop when they stop screaming.You don't stop when they stop crying.You don't stop when everything goes limp and you hear a gurgling gasp come out of what used to be their mouth. This is why we keep industrial grade acid on sight.Those big metal drums they use to clean salvage.This is why I'm already in a rubber smock and elbow gloves that roll over your arms like condoms. In a few days he's gonna be soup.In a few weeks he's going to be a chemical stain in a small town's trash yard. I gleefully tug on my cig, and joylessly push him headfirst into the half full vat.I've had a couple of them scream and thrash at this point.Goggles kids. Safety first.This guy was lucky enough t

Lifes Fun Aint It
There are so many things in this world that will make you feel like shit. Well almost everything in this world will make you feel like shit. From the smallest of things like your kid coming up to you and saying mommy your beautiful like my teacher shes big too, but of course they mean it in a nice way, to the worst making yourself feel like shit for knowing better. They always say if its not one thing then its another. Well what the fuck man. God damn it mother fucker son of a fucking whore. Ok really had to get that out. But back on track, all you ever try to do is to be happy. Try everything to make others happy, yourself happy everything, but it all just turns to shit. Im tired of shit. I want something eles. I swear man I must have been one bad ass mean bitch in a former life cause in this one im the one getting screwed. It just really sucks missing out on the good ones. Well thats all I can think of right now so........ Later

My Best Friend
A true friend never walks awayA true friend will always stayA true friend looks out for you A true friend will guard your secretsLike a precious giftA true friend is there for youTo give you a helpful lift A true friend tries to make you smileTries to replace that frownThey may not always succeed But they rarely let you down These arms for you are openThis heart for you does careAnd when I think you need meI'll try to always be there I'll listen to your fearsI promise not to laughComfort your falling tearsI'll make this friendship last I'll keep you near to my heartI'll always hold you dearEven when we're miles apartEven when you're here I hope I am to youEverything you are to meFor the friendship we haveIs a special one indeed.

Our Passion & Erotic Lust
EROTIC LUST A touch of skin soft and slippery, With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way, To urgent an

Seen
HOW IS ONE SEEN THROUGH THE EYES OF AN ADULT REFLECTED IN GLASS UPON A WALL MOUTHS SPEAKING OPINIONS HARSH WORDS ECHO DEEPLY KINDNESS FALLS DEAF READ THROUGH ENDLESS PAGES HATRED AND JEALOUSY DIG IN LOVE AND DESIRE FALL SHORT THE HEART OPENS FOR WOUNDS THE MIND CLOSES TIGHTLY HOW IS ONE SEEN ONE SEEING TRUTH LOOKING AS A CHILD MIRRORED IN THEIR THOUGHTS MOUTHS SPEAKING BLUNTLY HONESTY OBLITERATING HARSHNESS HAPPY THOUGHTS REVERBERATE SEEN THROUGH CANDY DREAMS LAUGHTER CALMING HATE LOVE REFLECTED ENDLESSLY THE HEART HEALED IN SMILES THE MIND OPEN TO LOVE ONE SEEING THROUGH THE YOUNG

Words You Know Who You Are!
LIES...EVERYTHING THAT COMES OUT YOUR MOUTH. EMPTY WORDS ARE ALL YOU SPEAK. UNABLE TO FACE YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR AND THE THINGS YOU CHOOSE TO DO. USER...WHAT YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU DO TO EVERYONE WHO COMES IN CONTACT WITH YOU. DENIAL....SOMETHING YOU LIVE IN DAILY. WHEN WILL YOU ADMIT TO YOURSELF AND EVERYONE AROUND YOU WHO/WHAT YOU ARE? SELF ABSORBED.....YOU SAY YOU CAN GET ANYTHING YOU WANT. YET YOU HAVE NOTHING TO CALL YOUR OWN. YOU SIT THERE AND THINK THAT EVERYTHING IS GOIN TO GO YOUR WAY EVERYTIME YET NOTHING GOES THE WAY YOU WANT. PEOPLE GET CLOSE TO YOU AND YOU HAVE TO RUN. WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF? THEY WILL SEE YOU FOR WHAT YOU REALLY ARE OR THEY WILL FIND OUT THE TRUTH ABOUT YOU? WHAT DEEP SECRETS YOU HOLD THAT YOU FEAR YOURSELF? YOUR NOT SCARED OF OTHERS YOUR SCARED OF YOURSELF. THAT ALONE IS A SHAME FOR NOT MATTER WHO YOU ARE YOU SHOULD NEVER FEAR YOURSELF FOR IF YOU DO YOU WILL JUST BE WRITTEN OFF AS NOTHING BY ALL WHO SEE THROUGH YOU!

Life
LIFE IS TO SHORT TO WAKE UP WITHREGRETS. SO LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO TREAT YOU RIGHT. FORGET ABOUT THE ONE'S WHO DON'T.BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.IF YOU GET A SECOND CHANCE, GRAB IT WITH BOTH HANDS.IF IT CHANGES YOUR LIFE, LET IT.NOBODY SAID LIFE WOULD BE EASY, THEYJUST PROMISED IT WOULD BE WORTH IT.

Miracle
You're my life's one Miracle,Everything I've done that's goodAnd you break my heart with tenderness,And I confess it's trueI never knew a love like this till you....You're the reason I was bornNow I finally know for sureAnd I'm overwhelmed with happinessSo blessed to hold you closeThe one that I love mostWith all the future has so much for you in storeWho could ever love you more?The nearest thing to heaven,You're my angel from aboveOnly God creates such perfect loooooveWhen you smile at me, I cryAnd to save your life I'll dieWith a romance that is pure heart,You are my dearest partWhatever it requires,I live for your desiresForget my own, needs will come beforeWho could ever love you more?Well there is nothing you could ever do,To make me stop, loving youAnd every breath I take,Is always for your sakeYou sleep inside my dreams and know for sureWho could ever love you more?

Bored As Hell Is There Anyone Out There Worth Talking To
I KNOW I AINT BEEN ON PINK AS MUCH LATELY YALL BUT I M STILL AROUND AND HAVE MISSED YALL BUT LATELY IVE BEEN SOME WHAT IN THE SHADOWS..YEA FIGHTING MY OWN DEMONS LOL...I SO APPRECIATE ALL THE GIFTS AN PIC COMMENTS YALL ARE AWESOME I WANNA SHOUT OUT TO MY SPECIAL FRIENDS.. FIREFIGHTER WILL1974 SPIRIT OF EAST BOLT LOVE YA GAL MERCI-FU BOUNCER THE BEST BOUNCER EVER MY SISTER OUTLAW ANGEL LOVE YA GIRL ED MY SEXY OWNER THANK YOU FOR SPOINING ME TERRIBLY AHUGE SHOUT TO MY AWESOME SISTERS BABYCAKES AND SALTY YOU ALL ROCK AND TO THE REST OF YOU I LOVE YA TOO COME HIT ME MAKE SOME TIME AN LETS CATCH UP LOVE YA PINK

Cecilia, Chapter Deux
"NauTeeMomee" was the profile name. They asked her age, her sex (often thank you) her hair color, and her preferences in Men. Then, the big one, "describe yourself". Monica took this one over. She pushed Cecilia aside and said "Who else but me knows your EVERY thought? Your EVERY dream, and more important, your NEEDS?". Cecilia thought about this and wandered off to the edge of the property. She could stand on her tiptoes,painted a wonderful shade of vermillion, and see the tiniest sliver of water in the bay, beyond her neighbors homes and lawns. She thought of the feel of the water in the bay, the warmth sliding over her naked skin as she dove over and over to the bottom then back, knowing that she was alone yet happiest in her element, water. A booming laugh brought her rudely to reality, and she turned to find Monica nearly doubled over laughing saying "dam girl, you're gonna get it". Curious, "Cease" as her friends called her, turned to walk towards Monica and her laptop, "oh no no

Diamonds Shine Brighter Than The Ocean If You Look Hard Enough
I know this cute girl shes so cute other girls make me hurl when I see her she makes my day she's my shining light all the way I'd do anything to see her smile even if I got beaten to death for a while you sweep me off my feet if I got you the brightest diamond it'll be yours to keep Now I'll end this poem with one last word I'll be nothing without you I give you my word

Your Kiss
YOU KISSED ME I FELT MY KNEES GO WEAK..... YOU KISSED ME I COULD'NT EVEN SPEAK..... YOU KISSED ME WITH A FIRE NO KISS SHOULD LACK....YOU KISSED ME WITH A PASSION FLOWING FREE.....YOU KISSED ME SPARKS FLEW THAT ONLY WE COULD SEE......YOU KISSED ME SO SOFT AND TENDER LIKE NO OTHER EVER HAS...... YOU KISSED ME A KISS I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER.. WHEN YOU KISSED ME LEFT ME WANTING MORE.... SO DARLING KISS ME ONCE MORE

Wind Of Change :d
hi friends! yes you all that i didn't talk in a long time i know, i know, i have to apologize, things changed a lot in the last months... i started a new job last january, and it's incredible :) i love it and in the begin of april, like a month ago, me and my bf moved in to a new apartment together. we have still lots of things to do here, buying furniture, etc, and i'm trying to get early out of the office, so i can spend more time with him, till he finds a job. yes, the apartment is in the same city where i was living it was everything together! i thought i would live in this apartment the first 2-3 months alone, and just after 2 days here, i got the notice that 3 days later he's comming! haha i'm lucky... and happy with him! well, guys, i have to go again, he wants to play with me haha kisses

What I Felt Now...
i been lately so stressed of a lot of sad things happend..just lately broke up with my boyfriend.. and part of the family died and i wasn't able to attend the funeral, coz it's in the philippines. i been having migraine since then, quite often, specially when im at work, it just sux. now, im hoping for a relief. im finding ways to cheer up, though i been laughing out with friends, still i felt there's messing inside of me. and im thinking what could have filled that emptiness. i know, im being emotional. you cant blame. somewhat i just need someone could make me feel important, that could just be there listen and feel whats im dwelling into me too.. and sad part is i don't even have friends like from here that i could really tells all my drama,and what i wanna do. for me it seems like a crap. i guess i'll just have to do things on mind, and start moving ahead off this crap.

Im Not Fooled By Her Batting Eyelashes Anymore...
Dont give Pk,Kp,"Papercutwhateveritisthisweek" fucheddar.Send them to me.I always give her my fumonies(like a good babydaddy) and she wont give me shit.So I say eff her and her effin spotlightness.I cant even afford my fu-rent and she wants to go off and get spotlight.Fuck this shit.How can you trust her with your fumonies?She doesnt even know her own name.What is it this week "Princess Immatakeurmoniesnpride"? Dammit..... This is my bog for the minute.I will post more cause I cant do anything else.Cause she took all of m fuscratch and pride.She is the devil. Ok,maybe not the devil,but if you spell her name backwards it is Ah Satan.... Decide for yourself.

Close Ur Eyes
Close your eyes… think of meand let me be the gentle breezethat caresses your facethe kiss on your lips so sweet Let me be the only sound you hear.. two hearts beating as onewhile I hold you so near Let me be the first thing on your mindas the sunlight streams across your bodythe last whisper on your lips before you sleep Let me be the vision in your dreams, the onewho makes your fantasies come true Let me be the one you long foryour eternal flame from yourfiery passions of desire Let me be the smile upon your lovely faceBaby, close your eyes,let me take your breath away

1rst Blog
well this is my first blog , priod , generaly i tend to be a little to busy with my other writings . that and my life tends to be a bit outrageous at points , anyway I can't think of much to write of now so peace

Ha!
So, I'm excited. Things are finally playing out the way I've wanted them to. I simply can not wait. There are the people who think what is happening is stupid, and should be allowed to happen, however it isnt thier chocie, and honestly just need to go back to the bleachers and stfu. Cause as far as I'm concerned, this isnt up for debate. The chocies have been made willingly, and are now set in motion and will not change. 3 weeks 1 day and 12 hours from the point this is finshed, the best part of my life is going to be with me. I dont give a fuck who says what and how, cuase it will not sway my chocie, will not change my mind at all. As we are going to prove the world, and all them Sceptics they are simply stupid and know nothing about us. For most of my Fubar friends, they think it is great, even if they pick on me or her for it. But they understand in thier own way. Anyways, 3 weeks 1 day 12 hours until Arrival. Good God, these days simply will not pass by fast enough. And

Crazy Days Behind
Somedays I still find myself thinking about him. Not nearly as often as I used to. The pain of heartbreak has been dulled down by time and effort to replace his memory with other people places and things. The new life I have started without him is so much more rewarding and healthy. There is no reason for me to ever think of him again. Those days are past me now. I finally got out. Going back even if only in my head would be insane. This is what concerns me most. I really must be crazy and need some clinical help or maybe some drugs to fix my broken parts. I still go back to those days in my head. Sometimes I try to figure out just where I got so off track. Why could I not see what was right in front of me. Could his lies have been that good. Or did I need to believe them. Why would I want to be so mislead. He was never that good at the game so how come he won? My heart got broke but more than that my spirit was wounded and left to die. I now that no one can explain to me

Misanthrope
I rarely watch TV< but it seems like each new time that I turn it on, there is another atroscious, demented, gawdawful reality show. While its the producers that make that tripe, its the fucked up sheeple that watch that garbage, and then dissect it with their equally moronic friends. Am I an asshole for seeing newsreports about disasters and accidents, and gloating about the loss of more nasty humanoids? I dunno, go figure. I with the day humanity collapses into itself came earlier.

Happy Mothers Day
Dear Lord, it's such a hectic day With little time to stop and pray For life's been anything but calm Since You called on me to be a mom Running errands, matching socks Building dreams with building blocks Cooking, cleaning, and finding shoes And other stuff that children lose Gitting lids on bottled bugs Wiping tears and giving hugs A stack of last week's mail to read So where's the quiet time I need? Yet when I steal a minute, Lord Just at the sink or ironing board To ask the blessings of Your grace I seen then, in my small one's face That you have blessed me All the while And I stop to kiss That precious smile

Magical Night
Magical Night by: Katherine Her wings fluttered with dust, But flying to help was what she�ll do! A magical place is hard to find, When all we know is a life of time. A prayer had been said, And a wish had been made, A mystical child was on her way! A child of beauty, A child at play, A child who can help in this life of time. Why does it take such a bad day, To bring these children out to play? Why don�t we see them when things are right? Could they be taken for granted in this life? They do what they must, And return out of sight. For they are the answers Of a magical night!

Wisdom On Love
My favorite "wisdom" about love comes from the oddest place. It's from "Wisdom from the Ninja Village of the Cold Moon" by Stephen Hayes. I won't recite the whole passage here, but here's the final paragraph: "This is the love of the flower.They are natural harmonygiving only what is theirs to giveaccepting all that comes to themand demanding nothing." I think these are words we should all try to live by. Kenny

True Meanings
This was sent to me from my best friend and sister... People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need youhave expressed.They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidanceand support,to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.They are there for the reason you need them to be.Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.Sometimes they act up=20and force you to take a stand.What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, theirwork is done.The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come tosh

Kanka
some ppl i wanna smack you know? they ask stupid questions ..like really what is the point of filling out a profile page if no one is going to read it and actually comprehend what the information says? example: Kanka: hello.. i want to know if u have web camera and messenger? does it or does it not say on my profile dont ask for these things from me? some people are just idiots if you cant comprehend english then feel free to go have it translated to what ever language is you home language there are websites for that. it's alot smarter to feel dumb and have something translated than to appear dumb as a stack of bricks and ask questions you should have known the answer to . if someone wants you to see their web cam then im sure they will invite you to see it

O_o
Got a text today from a friend I consider a brother...the text said "GOODBAR is dead" and that's it. My little group of friends...we are all fucked up. So, I wasn't sure if he was playing around or not, so I called him. He was crying...and that just isn't like him...AT ALL...for reasons only those who know him well can say. Goodbar is a nickname for someone that was a part of OUR group. There were four of us, four of us that wanted like hell to open a tattoo shop together. He would be the piercer, my bro and Goodbar's bro the tattoo artists, and me the custom artist, wallflower, and eventual tattoo artist. We all worked in a shop together for about a year...became pretty damned close. We four were the ones that were shit on by the owners, other artists, other persons in the shop. We had something to prove together, something to take care of... When I spoke to my bro's ol' lady, she said they are thinking it's suicide. And, I haven't cried. I don't know how to feel about it

When We Moved To The U.s.
when we 1st moved to the states in '74 we didnt know English. We had a cat named pussy( no joke). We didnt know it meant something else. Well, one day our cat got loose and my mom was walking around the neighborhood calling " here pussy pussy". Then she asked ppl if they seen her pussy.Im not joking. We didnt understand it then-but now when we look back, it is too funny!! Just wanted to share it with you. The things we went thru when we moved here.Ill share more stories with you.

Up 4 Sexiest Lips Auction
AS IT HAS IT, I AM UP FOR AUCTION IN KENO'S SEXIEST LIPS AUCTION. THE AUCTION STARTS MAY 10TH, CHECK OUT MY PICS AND MY OFFERINGS AT: http://www.fubar.com/images.php?u=262812&albumid=1652730. THE FOLDER WILL OPEN. IF YOU LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER, BID. YOU CAN BID ANYTHING FROM BLING PACKS, VIPs, HH, AUTOS/CB, FUBUCKS, BLASTS, AND SO ON. YOU ARE BIDDING ON THE CHANCE TO OWN ME. YOU WILL DEFINITELY RECEIVE ON SALUTE INCLUDING MY LIPS! PLEASE SHOW A GIRL SOME LOVE, YOU KNOW YOU WANT THEM, MY SEXY LIPS THAT IS.

Doesnt Make You A Mommy
if you have spoken or got to know my wife then she may have let you know at some point in conversation that she cant have children and that makes her feel so depressed around this time . i have told her it doesnt make you a mommy because you can give birth it makes you a mom in how you raise and take care of a baby and what kind of values you instill in them for there future i told her if we adopt she will be a great parent she loves kids and thats what counts there is so many woman that give birth and dint really care for there kids and it sucks when a woman whos dream was to have a baby of her own cant so im letting my wife know she is very special and we can adopt a lil one and that baby will have a great mother because you will love and care thats what counts sweetheart,you are a woman weather you can have kids or not a woman is a person who loves nertures and shows compasion for there family and believe me you are all woman and i love you so cheer up you are special:)

Friend Requests 1
moved from another blog... guess i need an own section for stupid requests now. created @ 2009-02-04 14:54:11 ok, most of you know i'm collecting empty friend requests. i got 174 open requests so far, not all of them empty, but inappropriate... Thought i would blog em here. 1. I would love to be your friend, Henny! 2. I WANT YOU .................................. as my friend! 3. always room for a sexy new friend! 4. Please add me! 5. H O T ~ H O T ~ H O T !!!! 6. hey its mike 7. Hi I am DAVE, Nice to meet you... 8. hi sweets 9. Delish...! 10. i could use someone to talk too barnes9000

Fed Up
ok well, i was thinkin about stuff tonight and over the past few months i have been hearing and getting alot of ppl saying stuff about me and the things i do or dont do and i am getting sick to fucking death of trying to please everybody look its very simple... I AM WHO I AM GOOD AND BAD there is nobody in this world that is 100% perfect and if you dont like anything i say or do... GET OVER IT i am me and thats the best i can do.... if anything about me bugs anybody that much then stop me from being a part of your life or friend or w/e the case may be..... \\

Wanda!! January :-)
JANUARY Birthdays: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at peoples flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

Mother
when you think of a mother what do you see? i see someone who is too good to me always there when the times are tough pushing me through when the going gets rough loving me despite all my faults even being my own personal bank vault just think of all the sacrifices and tears she has had to pay dont forget your mother on this special day

Her Bf Is An Asshat
Allow me to preface this by saying the following. Nothing irritates me more then disrespecting someone's privacy. That being said the following is a YIM conversation I had with a friend of mine's BF while he was snooping through her account while she was at work. Her Name has been removed to protect the innocent...and by association his dumbass too. Her Account: well you wont answer me on fubar mayb you will here Boon: what's up? Her Account: did **** tell you she had a man or told you she was single Boon: she has a man Her Account: then whats up with the kiss's back and fourth? Boon: simply friendly shit Her Account: that ain't friend stuff Boon: u've never kissed a female friend on the cheek? Her Account: nope why would I? Her Account: when you say kiss and o happy I know **** and I know how us guys think Boon: so do I...usually the guys paranoid about what their girl is doin are the one's doin somethin wrong themselves Her Account: mayb some but not all Her Account:

Bleph
Uh.. first blog.. oh yaygasm. well I am completely fuckin addicted to this site as much as I loathe to admit it. its mothers day for a few more minutes and I honestly even as a mother or maybe because I am a mother cant wait for it to be over. I miss my son who was given up for adoption 8 years ago, and I miss my mom. all are in texas. homesickness has been kicking my ass financial issues are also kicking my ass.. so yay.. I come here to forget. for the most part it works till I see bling.. or vips, or Cherry bombs and 11's and think.. gee I would love to have one of those.. and then I remember.. oh yeah.. cant fuckin afford it.. I am very opinionated, I am stubborn as fuck, and I am honest to the degree most people dont like my bluntness, though I always TRY to be nice.. it doesnt always work that way. who knows. anyway.. I have posted my first blog and I am off to go lose myself a bit more in fubar. love to you who read it..

Our Love But Only Grows Stronger In Time
For I shall go into the day of the night mist to see if I can find the love of my lost soul, As I know she is in there wishpering and calling my name as I feel the love of her of my crying for me to come and save her from her living nightmare, As we cannot see each other but our love is stronger than the most powerful thing ever created by man or woman alive even stranger than love can ever be, as our passions flow over the mountin and hill tops through the valles of the other sides accross the lakes and rivers even thought the tickest of forest man cannot travel in, as our spirits rome free and high as we are in the making of a new a daylight night dawn as our lifes only but ever brittens as we soon be in each others arms for all of time and eternity as I only but ever truely deeply passinately love only her deeply and truely with our my heart body and soul as she ownes every t

My Mothers Day Letter
I just want to tell you what a wonderful mother you've been to me. You gave birth to me, you raised me in a good way, made my childhood a happy one, encouraged me when I did good, and scolded me when I did bad. You fed me, you dressed me, you taught me right from wrong, you told me to stay in school, you hugged me, you laughed with me, you've cried with me. And after all that, as a grown man I am, you did lot's the same. If I could ask the Lord for a better Mother, I wouldn't, you're as good as they get. You're completely the best. I hope one day, if I marry, she'll be someone like you, that kind of love, that kind of caring. I know I'll never get that but I sure tell ya, it's great I have you as my mother. I really couldn't ask for a better one. You beat them all. I love you mom.

From Sweetangel..this Was Beautiful!!! Ty :)
"This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

Immigration
I never knew this! Have you noticed that if you rearrange the letters in "illegal immigrants," and add just a few more letters, it spells out: "Fuck off and go home you freeloading, benefit-grabbing, kid-producing, violent, non-English speaking cocksuckers and take those hairy-faced, sandal-wearing, bomb-making, goat-fucking, smelly rag head bastards with you." How weird is that?

Pain
i sit here alone waiting for hope that one day i'll finally be able to stand up and say no to the one thing in this world that has always had a hold over me. no matter what i do it seems that i will always give in to my heart it has a cotroll over me that i just dont understand i've been hurt so many times by this pain that i live with every day for the past 4 years but how happy i become when she comes back even just to be friends i know ill get hurt every time but i am in love with this person so much i guess im willing to put up with the pain but at least i can feel something in this lonely heart. im 40 and getting older my life is not what i wanted but i deal with it hopeing one day the one thing in my life i need will finally come true and that one thing is true love as i go thruogh this life i come to realize that some people will never find that love and im starting to think i am one of those people. i love this person more then my own life how ez i could give it up just t

Two Days From Renfrew...
I'm nervous as hell. But excited. I don't know. I haven't even started preparing yet, which is bad. I have to have everything I need because I'm fucked if I forget anything. No way to get stuff sent down to me. i can't believe Kenny decides now to be supportive though. He's the loser ex boyfriend, who doesn't know the meaning of the word support. Even though I've stood by him through so much. Anyway... why am I just sitting around blogging instead of packing? I dunno. If anybody reads this and has been there, tell me what it's like, because I'm a little scared...

More Random Thoughts
You know I see people everyday here on Fubar and in real life thinking they are all that and a bags of chips. But let me tell you some things that i've seen that is all that and a bag of chips. Have ya ever just got on a horse and explored the world? Well there was a time when i had, and there is nothing greater than seeing the world come alive from the back of a horse. Watching the animals with their babies going for that first drink of water in the morning, waking up under a big old oak tree with your back hurting from the ground just to see your horse cropping grass with a deer along side of it. Hearing the sounds of a natural spring making it's way to the ocean. Watching what the good lord created do what it was meant to do without the buildings and the streets. But that was long ago when there was more than just concrete and steel everywhere you looked. Mothers and some fathers see the wonders thru the eyes of their children when they are being born, you want to see some

Running A Net Radio Stream....
For the last 5 or so years, I've been involved in the creation and production of an internet radio station. We focus on the Geek Lifestyle, specifically targeting the Adult Gamer. So in one foul swoop, I've managed to combine two very important aspects of my life and personality:Music and Gaming. My greatest talent is the ability to weight the individuals and assemble a very strong team. I have surrounded myself with like minded people who share my passion and creativity. Along the way, we've established incredibly strong bonds of friendship and built a second family. More to come... The Pope aka Baby @zmyth

Begging For Help
I read status all the time as people appear in my bartab. I have noticed that lately there seems to be an abundance of statuses begging people for help so they can level. I mean come on. Help yourself go rate some peoples profiles and pictures. Its not that hard and its what your begging people to do for you. I saw a status just moments ago that said 20k to level please help me level. Holy crikies are people that lazy that they can't rate 20k worth of pictures anymore? I am not going to be helping beggers anymore just those who choose to help themselves.

Belief
You have to believe in something. Everyone does. Even atheists believe in their unbelief. If they didn't they would go mad. The misanthrope believes in his hatred of his fellow man. The gambler believes he is omniscient and that his knowledge of the future is proof that he is loved by the Creator. The middle-income person who spends enormous amounts of time window-shopping and sorting through used clothing at garage sales is indicating that our goods will never be ashes blowing across the grave. I suspect the drunkard believes his own self-destruction is the penance required for his acceptability in the eyes of the Creator. The adherents of Saint Francis see divinity in the faces of the poor and the oppressed but take no notice of the Byzantine fire surrounding themselves. The commonality of all the aforementioned lies in the frality of their moral vision. It is also what makes them human.

The Secret To Sanity.
We, each of us, have got to remember who we are so we do not become like the people around us. Each night you must tell yourself over and over that you have a special place inside of you where the real you lives. It's like a private cathedral nobody can touch. That's the secret to sanity. But you can't tell anybody about your special place, because once they know you have that private place in your head and heart, they'll strap you down and kill your mind and heart with the electroshock of their madness.

Warmest Memories.
She would stir in her sleep, her hip rounded by the sheet, her warm back or belly held tight against me. I would put my fingers in her dark, silky Italian hair, trace them down her shoulders and back and along the sensuous curve of her waist. I'd kiss the soft skin and the moles just above her navel. I'd kiss her breasts and stomach and mouth and eyes, then slip her close against me, burying my face in the warm embrace of her hair. When she made love, she did it without stint or reservations or buried resentments because of a cross word or real or imagined slight. Her charity and smile followed her into our bed, and in the morning her perfect skin gave off a warm fragrance just like the flowers in her gardens. In the blueness of the dawn I would hear the steady rythem of her breath in my ear while the woman next door called to her black cat, and I would start the day with the near absolute knowledge that no evil could hold sway in our lives...That is what it means to be alive. To

Secret Admirer...?
Im your secret admirer, Your the one I desire.. From the first time we talked, my feelings for you sparked Please try to understand, Im afraid to let my feelings show, But I dont want to be left alone... I just want to hold you close and never let you go.. But so far all I have are dreams of you... I never thought it was possible ..... to find someone like you Your so sweet and caring.. Like no one else I have met. I must be dreaming.. If only you knew But im trying to be careful, I dont want to be left heartbroken.. No one does. Im just your secret admirer, I wonder though..... is that all I'll ever be..? Only time will tell.......

5/11/09 Fluffy Starr Blog
New Vlog posted. "The New Gold Aviators" Here is is... The New Gold Aviators Not sure if I will be blogging very much anymore. Kinda quiet around here. Twitter is more real time for announcements of video blogs and goingsons. Me on Twitter If you want me to blog more, you must comment and make noise!!!!! Working on some new music. Will post vlogs from the studio soon. This weekend I was working on music, but not Fluffy Starr. I have a bit of a side project too, which I am experimenting with. I'm going to feel it out a bit before releasing the details. But don't worry. Fluffy Starr music is coming!!!!! In it's NEW form. In it's NEW sound, and state of evolution. Just ME this time. And YOU, if you come along for the ride..... Lots of love Fluffy.

Jail Time Journals Part 2 Of 2
Thursday April 12th 11:41 Pm Jesus Christ man! Today was fuckin' Lame, I slept 75% pf the day, the other 25% was spent talking to a few other inmates about music, Reading the new paper, taking a showerand My ever so charished PooP...Fuck man, taking a Doo-Doo once every day or two in jail, fuck, it becomes the highlight of the day, it's like, You're kicking back, talking about nothing, Then out of nowhere you feel the dookie form, FUCK! you get all excited, you start to Smile wide, Inform the other you're gonna go take a dump...then, BAM!! they look at you in Aw, all of them envyious of your pooping power, I start to walk in slow motion twords the bathroom, Cheers from the inmates are yelled, they run up to shake my hand, streamers of toilet paper fly across the air...Whoa!....Kinda went off in Dream land for a second...nontheless, it was a nice poop, today we got to change our "whites" ( shirts, underwear, socks and towels and sheets) MmMm cleeaaannn undies..another Highlite of Jail

Your Girlfriend Called....
She wants your virtual d*ck back in your pants!! LMAO Honestly in the last month, I have had two "girlfriends" go through their boyfriends' phones, find my number and call me to ask me "How I knew" their boyfriend. My response always is "Hes a virtual friend on a website I sit and rot on most everyday". My question would be... what sort of threat does any chic on the internet pose with your boyfriend (if given close proximity- then she poses a huge threat if shes willing to put out but since we are talking about me.... Im not in close proximity and I dont put out)? Is he not allowed to have friends? Or not allowed to have friends that you dont know about, and approve? I find this both funny and sad at the same time. I never liked that feeling that I would get in my stomach when I got the suspicion that everything wasnt on the up and up like it should be. When I finally figured everything out, and busted the guy for being a cheating lying .... whatever; I felt so burnt. Like a total

Looks Like I'm Gonna Have To Take Action
So a friend has been avoiding me for the last few months everytime I try to get ahold of him. Which is funny because I was the first person he called when his step-dad was admitted to my unit, and I was there for him. Now I just caught him in a lie, thanks to Britt, and I'm pissed. All I want is my stuff back that I left at his place when Britt was still dating his bestfriend. How hard is that. In and out in 2 minutes tops, he doesn't even have to talk to me. Just give me my damn stuff back. Guess I'll be kicking a door in!

Meet Some Awesome People!!!!needing Some Love
~BRATT~ HAS 3 FRIENDS THAT NEED SOME LOVE AND I KNOW MY FRIEND LOVE SHOWING LOVE. PLEASE A/F/R AND TELL THEM THE BRATT SENT YA. THANK YOU SO MUCH AND YOU WILL ME MEETING 3 SUPER FRIENDS!! 3boyz&2grls@ fubar TJatTheRock~owner@The BlueMoon@ fubar 2328574@ fubar ¢¾~Bratt~¢¾**He Is In My Heart Just Like A Tatoo**¢¾@ fubar

Control
Lies, frustration, anger, pain, misery. Distruction, out rage, just wanting to scream at the top of your lungs and not able to. Run and hide they wont find you. Yes they will. Lie, they will never know. Yes they will. Scream, kick, fight. Everything building and building, no outlet to let it out in. So, hold it in. Let it build. Let it boil. Be the one to cross that ones path. Be the one to take the last straw and break it. But holding it in feels so right. Letting it out feels demeaning. Feelings are strong, hard, cold, painful. Being a person that can allow theses feelings to fester and boil deep inside are the ones to fear. Being calm one with self control are the ones that lose it the easiest. So what is it? Keep it in or let it out? If you are one of those people that cant feel others emotions, well feel lucky. Usually means you really have none of your own. But for use that can, nothing can help us.

Kiss From A Rose - Seal
There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.You became the light on the dark side of me.Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.But did you know,That when it snows,My eyes become large andThe light that you shine can be seen.Baby,I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.Ooh,The more I get of you,The stranger it feels, yeah.And now that your rose is in bloom.A light hits the gloom on the gray.There is so much a man can tell you,So much he can say.You remain,My power, my pleasure, my pain, babyTo me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?But did you know,That when it snows,My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.Baby,I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.Ooh, the more I get of youThe stranger it feels, yeahNow that your rose is in bloom.A light hits the gloom on the gray,I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,I've been kissed by a roseI've been kissed by a rose on the gray,...And

Jacob's Song For Bella (inspired By The Twilight Series)
I stayed when he left,Even when you followed him.Ignored my own heartacheso that you may be saved from yours.It's not that you don't care..It's that you don't care enough.I'm letting you go not because I don't love you.I'm letting you goBecause I do.

My Mother...
...and I were typical mother and daughter. We'd fight, we'd cuss each other out (of course with me contributing over and over again to that damn fucking cuss jar of hers. I threw a $20 in it one time and told her I had credit!) Bottom line though is inspite of how we got along we still loved each other. In her later years it was I who was there, making sure she had the issues that arose for her managed and settled. My brother and sister were too 'busy'... The day I knew in my heart of hearts her days on this earth were limited shattered my world. We were in Walmart, and her legs and everything just gave out. People were scrambling to get her a wheel chair for me to get her to the car to take her home. I cried all the way home. A few months later I tried to call her one day, and got no answer, with no return call from her. This was so not the norm for my mom. Something was wrong, and unfortunately I was on the other side of town handling business and could not get over to her ap

Flirtations
The attraction of flirtation,sweets for the sweet for the how we tantalize one another into such heated bliss feeling each others bodies climbing teasing tasting ever so softly biting nibbling pinching. Feeling the erotic waves of ecstasy climbing higher and higher,wave after wave we find each other wanting more. Hands rubbing,tongues lashing,fingers lingering, in the throws of the moment,we find each others passion and we become one. Molding into a climatic wave over and over. Thrust after Thrust,one orgasm after another You hold me so tight we both start to quiver as we reach that plateau of pure orgasmic pleasure.

Seether Careless Whispers
I feel so unsure As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor As the music dies Something in your eyes Calls to mind a silver screne And all of the sad goodbyes I'm never going to dance again These guilty feet have got no rhythm Though it's easy to pretend I know you're not a fool I should have known better than to cheat a friend A wasted chance that I've been given So I'm never going to dance again... The way I danced with you Ohh Time can never mend The careless whispers of a good friend To the heart and mind Ignorants is kind Theres no comfort in the truth Pain is all you'll find I'm never going to dance again These guilty feet have got no rhythm Though it's easy to pretend I know you're not a fool I should have known better than to cheat a friend A wasted chance that I've been given So I'm never going to dance again... The way I danced with you Ohh Tonight the music seems so loud I wish that we could lose this crowd Maybe it's better this way We've hurt each other with t

My New Special Friend
http://www.fubar.com/user/2206180 Read From The Bottom Up As Always ->ASSPAIN !!: your fun->ASSPAIN !!: GENIUS! why didn't i think of that?! oh wait maybe because the 99c store tacks on taxes so its not actually 99cASSPAIN !!: @ LAST WORDS...99C store->ASSPAIN !!: awww your special and my mom told me to be nice to the special peopleASSPAIN !!: WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU CONSIDERED BATHING?->ASSPAIN !!: that all you can come up with?ASSPAIN !!: ALSO...YOU NEED TO GET SOME FEMININE HYGIENE PRODUCTS,AS YOUR HOLES ALL SMELL OF MOLD AND MILDEW->ASSPAIN !!: you think your opinion matters->ASSPAIN !!: awwww thats cuteASSPAIN !!: HEY! YO!,AND WELCOME TO FUBAR AND YOUR FIRST FEW POINTS!! JUST MAKE SURE YOU MAKE IT A HABIT TO KEEP YOUR "TITS",COVERED UP,NOBODY HERE REALLY NEEDS TO SEE THAT KIND OF THING HERE,

Wanna Know Me Better?
How many text messages are currently in your inbox?84 Why aren't you pursuing the person you like?i am. im moving in with him! Would you take your ex back?No, we were mismatched What color are your eyes?Brown What hurts?my shoulders :( Do you believe you can change someone?they are the way they are for a reason. i wouldnt wanna change em What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?my baby :) What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?my baby :D Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?havent we all Does it bother you when someone lies to you?ya very much Do you always care what you look like?sometimes but not usually Who was the last person you went out to eat with?my mom Who was your last text from?my ex Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?yes Do you wish someone would call or text you?just one person Have you ever walked on the beach at night?unfortunatly no

Stolen From Pat M'groin
How many text messages are currently in your inbox? 89 Why aren't you pursuing the person you like? I already have him. Would you take your ex back?Nope What color are your eyes? Brown What hurts? My left ankle Do you believe you can change someone? No What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? IDR What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? blech Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Yep Does it bother you when someone lies to you? worst thing to do to me Do you always care what you look like?Usually Who was the last person you went out to eat with? Scott & the boys Who was your last text from? Scott Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? Yep Do you wish someone would call or text you? They are texting me Have you ever walked on the beach at night? No Name something you are doing tonight?Working When was the last time somethin

Rates
I just talked to a person who put up pics. She wanted rates. I rated a few of them as a 1. She got pissed and shut me off. I'm kind of thinking ...if you put picss up on this site and want them rated how come you get pissed off if you don't like the rates? If you don't like the rates then don't put them on!! I was just being honest...I mean what the fuck..If you don't want my thoughts then do not post.

Yes, To All The Point Whores!
Let me make my place here clear to all the point whores. If you look at my page, and say nothing or show no love at all. Do NOT think for a moment i am going to go to your page and rate you up the ass! Its not going to happen, not once! If your not here to make connectios, friends... PLEASE do not add me! If i wanted to surround myself with complete tramps looking for attention... Id cut up a playboy and hang pictures all around my bedroom! I dont care if you want bling, i dont care if your trying to level... I just dont... At all... As in ZERO! Would i care if you were someone i had a connection with? Sure... But for a point whore? Yeaaaahhhhh no... Enough said... I know i sound like an ass, but in all reality, i am just forward... Take it or leave it... I will always tell you what i think, with complete honesty...

Your Smile...
Your smile, it fills me with a warmth and brightens up the night.Your kiss, it makes my heart beat fast and everything feel right.Your touch, it sears me deep inside each time it all feels new.Your body turns my blood to fire that burns for only you. © LML

You're The One
You’re the one that I’ve seen, Deep inside my dreams. You’re the one I’ve waited for, All my life it seems. You’re the one that lifted me, When my spirit was down. You’re the one that made me smile, Instead of sadly frown. You’re the one who raised my chin, And wiped my tearful eyes. You’re the one who gave me life, When I thought my heart had died. © LML

Control
there are things i can control and things i can't. things i can control: my actions when calm. whether or not i take my medications on time. whether or not i eat. picking music to listen to or not listening to it. taking a shower. going to therapy. whether or not i give up on myself. things i can't control: the actions of others. the words of others. who i love. my family. my confusion. things i will control in time: whether or not i am calm enough to control my actions. my paranoid thinking patterns (personalization). my living situation. my life. my emotions. things i wish i could control but know i never will: things he says about his ex. how far away he is. when i will see him again. the actions of those closest to me when they will only cause pain. ~sin

Nothing But A Tear
Nothing But A Tear Could I want this more than you Tell me can my feelings be true How could I feel this way When you don't even want to stay I really want you to know That I have no other place to go I really nrrf you to say I can stay another day But when I try to shout The words just won't come out So now you've left me here With nothing but a tear How can I find the strength to move on When I can't find anything when you are gone I've lost my heart and I've lost my soul I've lost you and I've lost control When I cry myseldf to sleep I dream I have your heart to keep But I've lost that too Everything that's true Is now gone I must move on

Tragedy In Iraq - Pls Bring Our Troops Home
American soldier kills 5 comrades in Iraq rampage BAGHDAD -- An American soldier opened fire on comrades yesterday afternoon inside a combat stress clinic at a large U.S. military base in Baghdad, killing five and wounding three in an attack that prompted officials to promise to try to ease the strain on troops deployed to war zones. The gunman was taken into custody shortly after the 2 p.m. shooting at Camp Liberty, part of a sprawling military installation near Baghdad international airport, U.S. military spokesman Lt. Col. Brian Tribus said. The military did not identify the gunman or shed light on what his motive may have been. Colonel Tribus said the gunman's name will be disclosed when and if charges are filed. Defense Secretary Robert Gates and President Barack Obama vowed to conduct a thorough investigation. "I would like to express my horror and deep regret for today's shooting incident," Mr. Gates said at a briefing. "Such a tragic loss of life at the hands of our o

Windows
This is in progress yet, need to work out the chorus.... Looking out a windowThat has never been cleanedWatching the rain fall through my lifeI’m not sure what it meansThe path I’ve chosenMakes the difference between you and meToo many things in this life I’ve allowed. chorus Looking out the windowwatching the rain come pouring downSeeing all my hopes and dreamsfall silently to the groundThe sadness I feel insideI just can’t describeIt is almost as if my broken heart has died. Chorus I must pick up the piecestry to go on with my lifeforget what we once hadand sever all ties © LML

What's Going On Lately With J.p.
Wow guys, can you believe it? Graduation is next week and it's been so hecka busy for me. I am doing my required 120 hours of student teaching this month. After that I'm moving out of state to get situated before I start classes this fall for a Masters degree in Education. I know I haven't been around to help the Shadow Levelers lately, and I feel bad because the lack of time for that. I will hopefully get back to my routine of "leveling like only a leveler can", later next month after the move and I can slow down to take some deep breaths, lol. I want to thank all my friends here for understanding this is an important transition for me to make. Take care everyone, ttyl. J.P. "Proudly rockin with the Shadow Levelers since 08"

I Came To You
I Came To You I came to you To hold my hand I came to you To understand I came to you To make my day I came to you To make me stay I came to you To see inside I came to you To run and hide I came to you To wipe my tears I came to you To hold my fears I came to you To open my soul I came to you To take control I came to you To let me fall I came to you To give my all I came to you To rip me apart I came to you To break my heart

Someone To Love
Wind whispers through brown strands of hair,Sunshine rays caress skin so fair.Placid pond water reflects back her past,Sees struggles and pain of love that didn't last.Remembering a time when hopelessness obscuredAll the beauty which she once procured.Just because of one "love" gone astray,Gentle, naive, her heart he betrayed.Confidence shattered, life left in fragments,Wallowing in despair, put up a permanent guard.Until one day a new chapter unfolded,And a man unlike the rest was molded.Filled her with love, showered her with rainbows,Heavenly feelings, long forgotten, in her soul now re-arose.He colored her world with the power of the moon,Together they created an unstoppable monsoon.Never again did she weep in silence,Never again was she trapped in self violence.He rescued her heart from Satan's glove,And all it took was someone to love

Movies
We had two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a saltshaker half-full of cocaine, and a whole galaxy of multi-colored uppers, downers, screamers, laughers... Also, a quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of beer, a pint of raw ether, and two dozen amyls. Not that we needed all that for the trip, but once you get into locked a serious drug collection, the tendency is to push it as far as you can. The only thing that really worried me was the ether. There is nothing in the world more helpless and irresponsible and depraved than a man in the depths of an ether binge, and I knew we'd get into that rotten stuff pretty soon.

Wtf:(
So yeah ...long story short... my work computer can no longer access fubar ...:( and as most of you know ...my laptop at home is toast lol! So ....for those of you who wish to stay in contact with me ... hit me up on yahoo ... nopilots13@yahoo.com or drop me a line at nismodet@live.com Those of you who i chatted with regularly... i hope to hear from you ;)

[full Frontal]
Tomorrow will be a full frontal assault of indian food. I'll be serving my chickpea and tomato curry pure' with lamb and MANGO RICE!and fennel naan. *scratches his head* What? It won't be that bad. I've got the mangos, I've got the... Alright here's our three parter, and you should feel priveleged for hearing about my curry mix, its very standard. -------------------Curry in a hurry. First and foremost you will require a 2:1 ratio of cooked reconstituted chickpeas/garbonzos whatever the hell you call them, to a 1 part ratio of your favorite tomatoe sauce. I- use newman's own sackarooni... because I always have it on hand and because... why kids? It's my favorite.I've had good results with fra diavoli, fire roasted garlic, and even hunts'. But that's not the point. Boil your chickpeas while you've got your cubed lamb stew meat (mine comes from the leg) saute'ing in a pan of olive oil, you could throw in some onions and garlic, but that's up to you. Now if you're one of those p

Whoops!
Yesterday there was a groom in to pick up his tuxedo. This isn't all that odd, in a tuxedo rental shop. When someone's tux is shipped in, they come into the store to try it on. The process for us is to give them the pants, shoes, and shirt to try on, then we give them the vest and coat on when they come out of the dressing room. This particular groom was SO nervous about getting married, that he put on the shirt, and the shoes, and came out of the dressing room....sans pantalones. At least he had skivies on, lmao.

Store Returns
RUB MY N I P P L E S Keep this in mind when you have something to return and the store gives you a hard time - A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and told the clerk she wanted a refund for the toaster she bought because it won't work. The clerk told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Suddenly, the woman threw her arms up in the air and started screaming, 'RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES!' The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager in front of a growing crowd of customers. The manager comes to the woman and asks,'Ma'am what's wrong?' She explained the problem with the toaster, and he also told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air and screamed, 'RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES!' and doing so draws an even bigger crowd! In shock, the store manager pleads, 'Ma'am, why are you saying that?' In a huff, the woman says, 'BECAUSE,

Mariah Carey Berry Ver One~
Mariah Carey Berry did two more steps before the music stopped and she looked around to make sure every dancer was in their place and not off the mark. She nodded in satisfaction that rehearsal was going so well before stiffing a little. She tossed the mike to a standby and almost ran to her dressing room. Shutting the door, she raised her dress and slipped two fingers under the panty to remove a slim plastic object from behind the material. She flushed with excitement and saw the sparkle in her eyes as she flipped the phone, raised it to her ear, and said 'hello' as she smelled her own aroma. There was no question in her tone, there was only one person who even knew the phone existed, let alone had the number and she never missed the calls, no matter where or when. He watched as the girl got into her car after school. He had been admiring her for several months but she had barely acknowledged his existence other than to let him know that he was annoying just being in her sight. Her fr

Mary's Diversion Part Two~
Jim's hands finally reached out to his prize. He gently encircled her globes with his hands squeezing as he did and feeling her firmness, her flesh, her ass...just as she requested. Each movement would get a little bolder than the one before it. When the time was right he pulled her cheeks slightly apart to see his reward and what he saw caught his breath. She hadn't wiped! She was dirty there! What luck! What sweet luck! He locked onto that image of first discovery, intending to keep it in his mind forever. He knew he would be masturbating, stroking his rock hard cock, many times thinking of this adventure. He pretended not to notice and carried on with his gyrations, taking in the odd innocent glance now and then. She obviously wasn't aware of it and he didn't want to startle her too quickly. If she was too surprised or embarrassed, that might snap her out of trance with disastrous results. He hadn't finished yet swinging her around to his way of thinking. There was just a little mor

Cowboy Prayer
Our Gracious and Heavenly Father,We pause in the midst of this festive occasion, mindful and thoughtful of the guidance that you have given us. We would ask today, Lord, that you be with us in this rodeo arena as we pray you will be also with us in life's arena. As cowboys, Lord, we don't ask for any special favors in this arena today. We only ask that you will let us compete in this event, and in life, as You did for us. We don't ask that we never break a barrier, draw the steer that won't lay, draw around a chute fighting horse, or a bull that is impossible to ride. Help us to compete in life as honest as the horse we ride; in a manner as clean and pure as the wind that blows across this Texas country; so when we make that Last Ride, that we know is inevitable, to the Country Up There.. Where the grass is green and lush and stirrup-high and the water runs clean and clear; You will tell us, as our Last Judge, that our entry fee's are paid. We ask these things in Christ's Name.

Jouneys
the journeys that a person makes are easy or hard; but they always begin with that little step that matters; after that things begin to get clearer and sometimes easier. So when you make that first step; make it count!

Dating
Okay I am going to do this on here just like I did on my myspace! Why is it that people like to judge other people souly on how they look? Don't people realise that even if you do not look like Barbie you could be one hell of a person? I think people need to take a look at what a person is like and how they act other then just what is on the outside!

Liike These Lyrics!!
How can i just let you walk away just let you leave witout a trace when i stand here taking every breath with you!! your the only one who realy knew me at all! how can you just walk away from me? when all i can do is watch you leave cause we shared the laughter&the pain we even shared the tears! your the only who resly knew me at all!! i wish i can just make you turn around just turn around and see me cry theres so much i need to say to you so many reasons why! your the only one who realy knew me at all!!

What You Think??
Ok FuLand. I'm not big in to the whole Blog thing, So here it goes. Monday is My Birthday May 18th hint hint, And I am trying to save up Fubucks For the Spotlight. I think It would Be cool to have a "SMACKER" Day. I have been on fubar for over three years. *Note* this was my Profile after I got Deleted off of Lost Cherry. But anyways. I am looking for Donations to help me out. I'm Not big into asking for donations But ,you Know what. I feel like this is my time to be helped. I have a few Million saved Up. But I am not sure what the top bid will be. So are toy going to help This SMACKER out. YES or NO??????

Dirty Dog
favorite drink, called A DIRTY DOG fill blender with ice shots of light rum, dark rum, 151 rum, creme de banana, creme de coconut cherry vodka, cherry sloe gin blend AND put in glass it is like a slurrpy and tastes like one too , but it will like a dirty dog sneak up and bite you on the ass.

Someone Help Me
OK ive been working my ass off trying to find a fucking job and no one wants to hire me, i take out my piercings and look proffesional when i go in to fill out apps and still no one calls me back or is hiring at the moment .....i need the fucking cash my sister is a fucking nazi bitch with a power pole stuck up her ass and is making us all (my family) move when we cant afford it , im a great artist and every one tells me i need to be a tatto artist and to go get my apprentice ship but i cant afford 3000 plus dollars for one out here , im just trying to make 2500 so that i can get the fuck out of here and to my bfs and he offered to come and get me and all that but i told him no cause i want to be able to do this on my own and im failing i feel like such a fucking failure ,i went to a day labor place for like a month and half every fucking day 4 am to 12:30 in the afternoon (when they closed for luch) waiting for work and they only sent me out 3 times 3!!! and all i want is a fucking

What The Hell Is Wrong With People
You meet people, you get interested in some, you fall for their lines, and their pretend sincerity, and they rip your heart out with lack of honesty... why? why do people prey on others just to hurt them? why do they pretend to be interested in you then rip your heart out? wtf is wrong with people anymore, in real life or whether it is on the internet, people have feelings, people get hurt.. I guess I will never understand.. maybe I just do not fit in with todays society, maybe I just ought to crawl under a rock and hide away from everything and everyone.. it's not right, its not fair.. people have feelings... and you would think i was smart enough to see when i was bein played, but i closed my fucking eyes to it...

Life And Loved
the girl i know is more then a girl more then a lady she is the one in my life i love so much with her eye's grayed blue and hair of cole she make's me feel she make's me feel loved with a heart of love from her my heart of coldness melted away she's a more then i ever asked for in my so called life she is my my life she is my every thing she's more then a girl she is more then any lady she is my queen and i'm just her's im nouthing special and yet she see's so much into me i will never see she's more then a friend she's more then a lover she more then any women she's my world she's my life she's my heart and soul to know this just look in to my eye's and there you will see her face smiling back at you she is so full of life and very caring with her eye's of love she has warmed my heart that as once ice

My Thoughts
You have stolen my heart. Everything I do you are there. In my dreams, in my thoughts, in my everyday. I want you to know that I love you so much and you have my heart and my soul. I want you, I need you, I love you. Words really can't describe how I feel about you. I get speechless when I talk to you, My heart starts pounding at the sound of your voice. My mind wounders in all differnt directions at the thought of you. I can't sleep because all I do is think of you.

Poem That Made Me Remember A Lost One
My dearest dearest friendYou came into my life unexpected and little broken yourselfAt first we didn’t pay much attention to each otherBut as time went by, We fell in love with our friendship….We could talk for hours and no matter whether we were close or farI always knew u were THEREWe had so many plans, built bridges and dreamsWe always had each other’s backsAnd we knew were specialTime went by to quickThere was still so much to doBut now it’s time to say goodbyeThe tears born in my eyesAnd intense heartacheWill surely last a long time stillBut I have to let go Cause not even to most sincere prayers will bring you back to me nowMy dearest dearest friendI hope you found your happy place nowAnd one day, when we meet againWe will remember all we had And I pray that we will fall in love…..All over againGonna miss u xxxxxxxxx

Make Me Feel ( A Work In Progress...)
Make me feel the fire. Make me feel the heat. Make me feel the passion. While you sweep me off my feet. Make me feel the romance. Make me feel my heart. Make me let my walls down. Let the healing start. Make me feel you want me. Make me feel whats true. Make me see my dreams. Let them start with you.

Enough
when i call he doesnt listen my eyes tearing the walls of the house answerd me he might never come back is it possible that love became so blind?? cant tell the good from bad?? the walls could tell but i couldnt i did ask the roses they start to cry the roses crying but not telling not telling where are you?? its enough enough being far away enough sorrow and apologies if i wasnt faithfull loyal the walls wouldnt tell wouldnt speak enough ------------------------ W,B: far7an moussa

Survey Says~
Name of the last person that texted you?Joy This survey gets a little personal can you handle it?Of course I'm a Male. Do you think somebody is in love with you?Yes, as I am with her. Is it easy to make you cry?No, But I will if it has to do with my son, or animals. What would you do if your best friend died?My best friend and I made a pack many years ago...If either one died first the other would support and protect his family. Do you consider yourself lucky?Luck is Luck, I actually pay no attention to it. I bet you miss somebody right now?No, I'm actually secure with myself on any level. I bet you're thinking about someone right now?erm, yeah, does the word DUH come to mind? Can you honestly say your okay right now?Since I'm capable of protection for others, I can honestly say that I'm fine. What are you doing tomorrow night?Spending time with my son. Do you tell people you're okay when you're really not?Sometimes depending on the situation, du

Wallmart Material
My first day of employmentSo after landing my new job as a Wal-Mart greeter, a good find for many retirees, I lasted less than a day......About two hours into my first day on the job a very loud, unattractive, mean-acting woman walked into the store with her two kids, yelling obscenities at them all the way through the entrance. As I had been instructed, I said pleasantly, 'Good morning and welcome to Wal-Mart. Nice children you have there. Are they twins?'The ugly woman stopped yelling long enough to say, 'Hell no, they ain't twins The oldest one's 9, and the other one's 7. Why the hell would you think they're twins? Are you blind, or just stupid?'So I replied, 'I'm neither blind nor stupid, Ma'am, I just couldn't believe someone slept with you twice. Have a good day and thank you for shopping at Wal-Mart.'My supervisor said I probably wasn't cut out for this line of work.

Who Is The Victorious??
Who challenged the impossible is meSo how I will not challenge youAnd you are just a human like meThe solution is with youBut just a usual man is meNothing but small pen with weak ink in my handApproaching toward every one with a beasty words from youAnd scattering the desire in the air like bombsBut it is extinguisherWhen every things still alive of my pen Still alive even after my deathSo I will challenge you in this present and the futureWho is the victorious you or me- - - - - - - - - -W.B: FAR7AN

Bedroom Window Letter
If you woke up one day, after been with me for one night and found this letter with a red rose on yourBedroom Window.-----------------------------Good morning sunshineIt might be impossible to be with you right nowBut at least I can dream, at least I can wish to beYou have brought light to my dark caveYou have brought smile to my sadness landYou have brought life to my dead landYou have created the human in meThat human who wont be perfect without youWho will not be a human without your breaths next to I just want to thank you for being in my lifeFor lightening my nights like a moonFor being my sun on my autumn daysYou made me think of things I thought it dont exsist any moreYou brought words to my mind I have forgotten long time agoYou made my heart beat againThank you for being your selfAnd sorry if I did or said anything wrongIt was just meSilly meKisses---------------------So what would you do??1: smile and get rid of the letter2: fold the letter and hide it with your personal t

Some Of My Life
We start life not knowing anything, and the first people we love in our lifes are out parents. Days make you older, and years make you wiser. You find love you loose love, but the only love that never goes away, is the love of our children, and our parents. My path of life has been a bit of a rollarcoaster ride, as a child I could not have asked for a better life, I had wonderful parents, who provided a wonderful life for my siblings and I. The first devistation came when my parents devorced when I was 11. That split moved my father, my siblings and I back to New york, and I watched my father work so very very hard to provide an equal life as we had when we were still a family of 5. I have great respect for what he did for us! This move takes me into my life as a teenager going to high school in New york, I had the most wonderful years of my life there, and met people there who touched my life so greatly. I met my first love and spent 2 yrs being a love struck teenage girl, not ha

Nsfw
She was asleep when he came in.... He was quiet in shutting the door and locking in securly behind him.Ben walked into the bedroom where she lay half covered by the bed spread her back lit by the mooncoming through the sheer curtains. He walked straight into the bathroom where he derobed and showered throwing ona new t-shirt and underwear he entered the bedroom once more she was still laying there undisturbed. As Ben crawledinto bed next to her he ran his hand around her back feeling the curves she was warm and smelled like an exotic island.He leaned closer to her breathing her smell it was invigorating and exciting he gently placed his lips on her bare shoulderletting his whiskers gently tickle her as he moved across her skin. She began to roll over on her side now there were no clothes to get in the way she was already naked, it must have been one of those nights when clothes were just uncomfortable,he began caressing her side gently, tickling her a little. She gave a small grin, sti

Flirting Vs. Fun Sex
Is there really a difference? I mean, You can firt with words to people you dont know, and sometimes get deep intoo with someone if they were there. What about sex? Is it wrong to not settle for one person, and have casual playful sex with someone? I feel that 2 people can meet, have a playful flirtatious time, and even maybe have playful sex. Am I wrong?

Leave
Just leave me alone. Go the other way. Stay away from me. I dont want it anymore. Im done You want so badly to believe what you are being told but deep down you know its a lie. So why does it still fucking hurt when you find that what you really knew was true. Dont bother me. Leave me alone. I dont want to hear anymore. You have no excuse. Why do it. Sorry. Hahahaha. fuck off. Tell me your sorry, tell me i didnt mean it. Bullshit. Im done with it. Quit playing all these fucking games. why play them whats the fucking point. You know people tell me im dumb because i dont believe in true love or at least love with another person. There is no such thing. Only bull shit. So thats why i say leave me alone if thats all you have to give i dont want it. I would rather grew old alone and bitchy. Then to try to find someone thats just going to do nothing but bullshit me. So if thats all you have to give leave me alone.

His Voice
HIS VOICE My heart was still racing as I hung up the phone, his voice still in my head. I stretched out on my bed with a silly grin on my face. I know I will see him in a few short weeks, and maybe that's what makes it all the more exciting. I began to play back our conversation in my head; nothing really sexual ever came up but his voice made my body tingle. I let my hands begin to wander, first teasing my nipples through my thin cotton t-shirt, making them hard, then moving down my flat tummy. As his laugh echoed in my mind I let my fingers find the bottom hem of my shirt, pulled it up slowly, imagining it was his. I felt a moan escape my lips and slipped my hand into my panties finding my wet lips. I couldn't believe how wet I was, just from the power of his voice. God that man is sexy. I closed my eyes and pictured him lying between my legs with a grin on his face, knowing that he was about to please me. I ran my finger over my swollen clit and felt my body quiver, m

Sometimes I Wonder?????
You know what really hurts the most??? Its people who say that thay want to be your friend. And thay cant take the time to even stop for one min to go to your page to say Hello!! I come on here as much as I can and at least give somebody a shout or 2 and thats what I get. Nothing in return I just wonder why I even messed with come back on to this site???

Twelve By Twelve~
"There are twelve implements laying on the couch. You are to look them over and decide in which order you wish to receive them. Place them in order, one to twelve, starting at the left. You will be receiving a minimum of twelve whacks with each item. You will be required to count the whacks out loud. If you mess up the count or miss the count for any implement, the count for that item will be restarted. At the end of the turn for each implement, you will say "Thank you Sir." In between each implement I will fuck you. After a hard implement, I will fuck you hard. After a softer one, I will be more gentle and loving. You may orgasm whenever the urge strikes you. My orgasm will occur during the fucking after you have been spanked with the last implement. You are to make sure the last implement on the right is a hard one. Do you understand these instructions?" "Yes Sir." "Good. Then I am going to take a few minutes to go change into something more comfortable. When I come back you will h

Work
The Center for Disease Control has issued a medical alert about a highly contagious, potentially dangerous virus that is transmitted orally, by hand, and even electronically. This virus is called Weekly Overload Recreational Killer (WORK). If you receive WORK from your boss, any of your colleagues or anyone else via any means whatsoever - DO NOT TOUCH IT!!! This virus will wipe out your private life entirely. If you should come into contact with WORK you should immediately leave the premises. Ta

A Break In~
She double-checked her door to make certain it was locked and then she padded to the bathroom. A bath, she thought. That's what I need... a bath. Not a shower. A bath will help me relax.She filled the tub, tossed in some bath beads, turned the radio on in the living room, grabbed a magazine and decided to put the night and him out of her mind. She slipped out of the old football jersey (the last reminder of her him), slid her panties off and stepped into the tub. She let herself sink into the hot water. The heat seeped into her bones.She settled back on her bath pillow (a wise investment at the Dollar Store) and flipped open the magazine. She had almost finished the article about 25 ways to save money on your spring wardrobe when the light when out. She blinked. And blinked again. Thinking that the power was out in the entire apartment if not an even larger area, she said, quietly, but aloud, "Damn it."A voice, silky smooth and very masculine, responded, "Uh, uh, no ugly talk, Vonna."

The Long Good-bye
She moves a lot slower now. She can’t hear us. She can barely see us. She walks with her back hunched, and she sits and lies down slowly as if her every joint aches. She stopped eating. She rests her head on my lap and looks up at me, and her eyes are tired. We can see it. Sydney is gently, slowly moving on. She’s been part of this family for 9 or 10 years. She has been mine for 2 months. I don’t know if her going is because of grief or just her old age. Maybe some of both. I swear she cried as much as I did when her family left. She wandered through the house with her head hanging for weeks. She has stopped that now, but her fatigue is obvious. She still perks up and plays when we are up in Camas. She is happy there. In less than 3 weeks it will be home. I like it that she will live out her days in the place she seems to love so much. There is a beautiful spot near the old orchard there that she will finally rest in, close to her friend, Sam. She will li

Got To Love Them Bnc #1 Hater
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You
I met a man who kicked my front door downHe blew in with the Santa Ana windsAnd a half cocked houndHe fits my body like a one horse townAnd I was drunk like a vagabond on his streetAnd I lay face downAnd I rode his joy like a child on a merry-go-roundI was young in his eyesI was sweet on his thighsI was profoundI was shot like a free bird in flightTo the ground.On the breezeMy scent will find youLost by degreesFrom time to time you’llSingWith my lipsOr my handsOn your hipsOr my tongueLike the sunIn your mouth

Bleeding Blue
Bleeding Blue , I bleed for you , Day in , Day out , your never true . You lie to me , Im not a fool , I see more now , Than you think I do , I'll walk away , Just to save face , There's nothing left , here in this place . Goodbyes always find their way , They squeeze into this akward space , Now all thats left to me and you , Are memories that were never true , Bleeding blue , I bleed for you .

Confirmed
Well, the CT scan was clean, confirming that I do have a brain inside there. What a surprise. Wednesday at 6:15 am I had to have an MRI, which was really early, so we came home and went back to sleep. I had to take all of my piercings, of course, and didn't bother with putting them back in before my nap. When I woke up, I set out to put them all back in. Everything went in fine, except for the bridge. I couldn't get it to go in through the right side, but I managed to finally wiggle it through the left side. It bled like crazy, but I finally got it through. This morning I woke up with swollen eyes, to the point it was a little hard to see. I put some ice on them, which gave me a terrible headache, and did little to improve the condition. Now, the swelling has gone down, but it's starting to look like I'm getting black eyes on each side. We are going to Kansas this weekend to see Biggie's little brother graduate, and I have a feeling I'm going to go with 2 shiners. They're g

[the Second Album~]
See what I did there? No. You did not. Anyway, it's predawn, and I just woke up from a very ellaborate closure dream... y'know, the ones where you get to scream in the face of your most hated person or what have you? Well it was all a very detailed metaphor of all the lies she told herself, all the lies I told myself, and I was just... kinda pissed that my brain is still doing this after 15 months. The best part was I played the part of "it wasn't ALL your fault" and I ran through what I occasionally kicked myself forI even said "hey it wasn't that bad, you only hit me a few times". It was all her fault. I mean yeah, I wasnt the most confident interesting and financially stable (sugar daddy) out there at the time-hearing my subconcious say that shit... really pissed me off.Sure there were things I could do different, things I could've done better ...Why should I have had to?I was dating an ex coke addict pissed off at me for making her quit.A dropout bug burning barwhore.Someone t

Golf Lesson
This fellow's wife was constantly nagging him to teach her to play golf. Finally, one morning he relented and off they went. The first hole was a par 3, 179 yards, and very pretty. The husband stepped up first and said, "Now watch me, and do the same thing." He hit a beautiful shot and landed on the green with about 30 feet to the cup.The wife stepped up, drilled her ball, causing it to hook, ricochet off a tree, bounce off a rock and roll up onto the green - dropping into the cup. The husband looked at this, and said, "OK, now you know how to play, let's go home."

Feeding The Sheep Food For The Day...
~Discouragement and Despair~ The thief (which is Satan) comes only for 3 reasons, which is to STEAL from you all that you have including your joy and your health and finances! He come to KILL! To kill yours dreams..your progress..and finally your body and soul which belongs to God. He is a LIAR and a THIEF and the FATHER OF IT ALL! Upon realizing that, REALIZE THIS that JESUS CAME SO THAT YOU COULD ENJOY LIFE, HE IS THE GIVER OF LIFE! Satan thief, JESUS life giver! JESUS told John his beloved disciple that he came so that we may have life and enjoy life, and have it in abundance to the fullness untill it overflows. John 10:10. You may how can that be when I see everything in the world going sour and death and destruction at it,s highest level ever? Well he said that to HIS PEOPLE not to the world in general. There will always be evil in this world untill THE KING OF KINGS returns and sits upon his throne in Jerusalem to actually rule on the earth and satan is eventually destroyed

Submission Part 4
Stepping lightly into the hall turning to stare for a moment at that door down the hall. Beckoning to me . Do I have to see what is behind there or who is this person ? Bowing my head I think I know this answser why did i even bother to contemplate the question . The note seems rather thick . Tearing the seal with great care to see what my fate is next . My sweetness , I am so pleased you want to come to me . Note that I to was nervous wondering will I be able to get you to come to me . I could of shown you , myself , but I wanted you to come to me not for who I was but something else . I wanted you to come to me out of your own free will for you see that is what I am truly longing for my sweetness . As I stated before , you must do all the note says , if this is all to work . I await you on the other side . ...... .....Simply put were some unique instructions to say the least . Step inside next to the door you will see a few things you must take with you to the center of the room .

Together For Ever
Together For everWe'll be friends and Lovers till the endTogether. ForeverThrough the Highs and LowsAnd all the stormy WaetherNo-one will ever part usWe'll stick together like glueIf you look after me My friendAnd I'll Look after youAnd never mind what hardshipscome our wayWell make it through to fight another day Another dayBecause we are friends as well as lover'swe stick together like glueI Love You Leannxoxo

Saddest Poem
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance." The night wind whirls in the sky and sings. I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. On nights like this, I held her in my arms.I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky. She loved me, sometimes I loved her.How could I not have loved her large, still eyes? I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her. To hear the immense night, more immense without her.And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass. What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.The night is full of stars and she is not with me. That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.My soul is lost without her. As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.My heart searches for her and she is not with me. The same night that whitens the same trees.We, we who were, we are the sa

Dark Angel
The dark angels come for what is thiers Come for the souls that feel no love... No remorse .... that feel nothing..... They come for those who have lost all hope lost all sense of reason the ones that want nothing.... because that is all they get from life Come for the ones that no longer feel like the humans they are but robots with emptiness..... Emptiness inside An aloneness that no one can understand.... unless they have it in themselves. They come searching for those of us who have given up on life. heart to heart soul to soul they search our very being. can see what no one else can They take what is thiers........ the souls that have given up on what is thiers to have forever. The dark angels come for what is thiers Come for the souls that feel no love... No remorse .... that feel nothing..... They come for the one you sit next to everyday with no thought because you do not really care. maybe they will come for you next. how can you ever know? How wi

Love An Life
life is to short to keep waiting for the best thing when its in front of u , grab what u feel and run with it cuz u never no when u finna feel it agian ..my eyes yr eyes we r as one we cant fight the feeling beause we r one .. even tho we r miles apart, there is somethin that says come closer to me ,to u ,to happyness ..im not finna run away when u take that first step im walkin it right with u and will continue to do so when yr down im down and we will have each other to pick it up and fix the problem cuz we r one. but we will no how to make this together because we r one and u r what ive been lookin for i feel it in my heart and soul there is nothin more to say but im feeling everything u say and all i do is listen absorb and keep close cuz u my baby and im cummin to save u from yr worries insecurtys and denile and here to help u feel such as one in life because we r that one u yearn for because we do this we make smiles we make life better for each other knowing we have each other

Who Wants To Win
BLING AND RATE CONTEST FOR EVERY BLING CREDIT YOU SPEND YOU GET 1 ENTRY INTO CONTEST. HOWEVER THE FOLLOWING BLINGS GET YOU TRIPLE ENTRIES booty absinthe golden tulip timeless diamond ruby phoenix amethyst phoenix emerald phoenix auto 11 cherrybomb fu love YOU MAY ALSO EARN 10 ENTRIES FOR RATING ALL PICS OR 20 ENTRIES FOR RATING ALL PICS AND GIVING 5 CREDIT BLING. FIRST PLACE PRIZE IS A HAPPY HOUR SECOND PLACE PRIZE A 65 CREDIT BLING PACK THIRD PLACE 7 MIL FU BUCKS FOURTH PLACE 5 MIL FU BUCKS FIFTH PLACE 3 MIL FU BUCKS ALL WHO BLING ALSO GET A SALUTE FROM ME OTHER PRIZES WILL BE AWARDED RANGING FROM ANIMATED TAGS, ANIMATED PICTURES,FUBAR LICENCES, 3 1 MIL FU BUCK PRIZES. 1 1 WEEK BLAST AND 1 20 DOLLAR BLING PACK THESE OTHER PRIZES ARE SECONDARY PRIZES FOR THOSE WHO DONT WIN BIG PRIZES. CONTEST ENDS MIDNGHT FU TIME WEDSDAY MAY 20TH 2009 CONTEST BROUGHT TO YOU BY STRYKE@ fubar />

Harassment Of The Girls!
if you are going to harass my girls i will have you blocked from the group page and i will ask the girls to block you as well. i WILL NOT TOLERATE HARASSMENT on this group page. if you wish to harass the girls your ass will get blocked. if you harass or degrade ne of the girls pics you will get blocked. i honestly do not care how nice you are as soon as you start harassing the girls on this page that were kind enough to put thier pics up for you to view you are automatically considerd rude and will not be able to view ne of the pics that these lovely ladies have volenteered to let you look at thank you for your cooperation in this matter, bloodymistress

New Kitty..any Suggestions?
I WAS THINKING OF THIS BREED IN PARTICULAR ....IT IS CALLED A DEVON REX...EVER HERD OF IT?..ME EITHER...BUT CHECK THIS OUT...HERES THE INFO ON IT... Breed history and information [edit]Discovery and relations The Devon Rex is a breed of cat with a curly, very soft short coat similar to that of the Cornish Rex. The first Devon was discovered in Buckfastleigh, Devon, UK in 1960 amongst a litter of feral kittens near a disused tin mine. The breed was initially thought to be linked with the Cornish Rex; however, test mating proved otherwise. Cats have three types of hair: guard hair, awn hair, and down hair. The Devon Rex's coat is unusual because there is little guard hair (see Cornish Rexand Sphynx for more information on hair-deficient genetics in cats). [edit]Appearance The curl in Devon Rex fur is caused by a different mutation and gene than that of the Cornish Rex and German Rex, and breeding of a Devon with either of those cats results in cats without rexed (curled) fur. D

Beaver-flu
There has been a recent epidemic being spread by the Canukistanian Government and PK to take over the world.This infectious infection has been aptly named "Beaver-Flu" and is being released all over the interwebs.No one person is safe and/or immune.If you have internets access you are advised not to send PK any fubucks AT ALL! Symptoms: include the extreme miss use of the letter "U" and those god damned smiley things. :( Do the world a favor and dont send anything!(not even smarties) This message was brought to you by "The Peoples Union for Peoples against Peoples miss use of the letter U and PK".All rights are abused.

Lifes Journey
Today is one of those days when i question where i am going with my life and if this is what i am destined to be. Ive lost my focus or quite possibly my purpose. I know the things i want from life and i know i want to share my life with someone, but i have found myself questioning if it is with the current woman i am with. i love her dearly, but i do not know if i love her that much to spend the rest of my life with. im no spring chicken anymore and the window for some of my goals or wants is closing quickly. the biggest lesson i learned from my divorce is that you should never settle. hold out for that one special person who deserves your heart and love. I dont know what to do right now. my heart and my mind are awash with angst. time for the soul searchin to begin.

And So The Changes In Character Takes Another
I know that no one will read this blog. No one reads mine ever unless I send them links. But I'm writing it anyway in hopes one or two will read it, and pass the word. It's been almost 3 years on this site. I've witnessed changes that have taken it from a social, friendly, environment where people did things to help others, to meet others, and develop friendships to a superficial, shallow, greedy place where lying and manipulating is common place and I just can't stand by and watch any longer. I can't take any more. I will not be on here daily like I have been. I will not be saying hi daily like I have been. I will not be here daily to help others level, and what ever else they want. I've done it for years and did it because I thought I was helping friends. I was not, I was only helping a total stranger get what they wanted, and then pushed aside when they were done. This site is set up hierarchal, fans, friends, and family. Family being the closest and most trusted. And then there a

Want To F This Week?
I want to fuck this week. I work day shift and off all weekend. I want to fuck any evening and anytime during the weekend;) I love sex and I want to play alot. I'm horny as hell. 5-16-09 just let me know if anybody wants to play and fuck and party;)

I Wonder Somedays
lmfao im all over the place I'm so wound up i slept for like 5 hours today wow lol thats alot of sleep and I'm all full of engergy wth lol somedays i wonder whats with me lmfao and yes y'all just read this for no reason cuz it has like me no perpose lmfao we are both just here.

Lost Hurt Lost
I don't know what to think about anything any more.. I sit here and just feel like so many things don't make sense.. Why is it when you let yourself open up to another let yourself love someone, it seems like everything changes? Does all relationships change right before you hit that year mark? Is feelings of doubt and being unsure about how your partner's feeling.. How do you express your true feelings about everything with out sounding like your nagging at them? How can you talk to them when you feel as if your bothering them because they are going through some hard times and have been stressed out lately.. Is it normal for your boyfriend/girlfriend to ignore you at times but want to talk to you when you just decide to let it go and not try and talk to them? I don't understand whats going on right now, he seems so different from the man I feel inlove with.. How can I talk to him How can I change the things that are going wrong? How can I know for sure if he wants to make things wo

The Phoenix
On the ashes of this nestLove wove with deathly fireThe phoenix takes its restForgetting all desire.After the flame, a pause,After the pain, rebirth.Obeying nature’s lawsThe phoenix goes to earth.You cannot call it oldYou cannot call it young.No phoenix can be told,This is the end of the song.It struggles now aloneAgainst death and self-doubt,But underneath the boneThe wings are pushing out.And one cold starry nightWhatever your beliefThe phoenix will take flightOver the seas of griefTo sing her thrilling songTo stars and waves and skyFor neither old nor youngThe phoenix does not die.

Talking About Maybe Some Good Luck This Time Around!
We've got a friend thats going to take a look at the damages to the house an see if he can't get more moneys out of progressive because that $600 ain't gonna cut it, theres more damages than what he looked into so we're having him come over an see what we can do about getting more out of thier asses... I for one aint cashing it till I know for sure what's all involved, hopefully we'll get a HUGE chunck of change out of this. I'm wanting out of this damn place anyways can not take it anymore... I want a new place ya know? Anyways wish me good luck on this one!!!

Desire
Stepping up to you I press you down into a chair, kissing you with a flick of my tongue against your lips. Smiling I draw away, my hands sliding down your chest to your thighs, fingers pressing inward to part them as I step between. Kneeling down I draw your shirt up slowly, leaning in to trail a line up your stomach with my tongue to the bottom of your naval as my hands slide to your sides and to the waist of your pants, slowly unbuttoning them. Drawing the flaps of pants away my lips press tender kisses along the newly exposed skin, pressing my body closer so that I can feel the crotch of your pants against my breasts, the slow hardening bulge caressing my skin. Tugging at band of your boxers with my teeth my hands slide along your thighs, pressing them closer to me then wider before my mouth drops to the zipper of your pants and drags it down. Looking up at your face I smile, rubbing my chin against the exposed cloth of your boxers. My hands travel up the back of your thighs. Comi

Another Update On Me
Hey everyone, Sorry, i have not been on for so long ,but i have been in the hospital and I still am in the hospital cuz of that surgery I had where it was infected that they went in and debreaded it ,but things are SLOWLY healing its just goin to be a long long process so I will probably not be on for a while unless a friend of mine lets me use there lap top again in a few days or weeks like i'm hopin so that way I can keep u guys updated on whats going on. They have me on bed rest for most of the part ,but I am allowed to get up in my wheelchair 3 times a day for an hour at a time so that gets annoying ,but it will at least help and then they have finally taken me off my antibiotics ,but they are keeping a close eye on my blood count since my blood pressure can not stay up and my temp wont stay down.. But they have me doin a test every day where its called Hyperbarics and its 100% oxygen and thats suppose to help my sores out and it is helping ,but its goin to be very slow process.. I

Name Is Mike
how Is Everyone, Im great.. Just had to get myself a blog.. lol.. well this is sunday and i have to return to work tomarrow, which sucks, but my bills say i have to work, otherwise i would be gettin bored.. lol.. i am a workaholic.. thats me.. work and spend time with my girls.. i am an easy goin person, just wants to be loved like i love.. is that so complicated?..

From The Prophet - On Marriage (everyone Should View Love This Way)
From The Prophet - on Marriageby Khalil Gibran Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?" And he answered saying: You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days. Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God. But let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another, but make not a bond of love. Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup. Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music. Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together, yet not too near together. For the pillars of the temple stand apa

Some Peoples
its really strange how some ppls live on their mistakes its really scary why cuz thise type of ppls they keep doing same mistakes and then [i am sorry i didnt mean it,was not my fault, i couldnt help it] excuses like that why?? just to make thier partner or parents yell or punish them that they feel the abused ,so they give them selves the excuse to be coward to be in the corner and live like that that when anyone ask why u r sad in ur life they would answer cuz i am always treated like shit,like crap while u cant ask others to respect u unless u respect ur self u cant sit limits for others if u dont know ur own limits we all been abused some way or another but after all we choose how to abuse others or just live all our life in the corners lick roches lol i am a butterfly and dont care if the light i am flying toward gonna burn me or not as long i make my own choice do u?? i doubt it lol -------------------------- W,B: FAR7AN

Questions I Stole From Crystal
Is there someone you are completely tangled up in? Could be, very close. I just don't know, maybe? What is your favorite thing about the beach? It depends on the beach, if it is just a piece of sand at the end of the water, nothing. It must have character. What do you daydream about the most? Right now, a certain someone, but alot of stuff, I have alot of time to just think. Are you still in love with your ex? Which one? My very first girlfriend from High School? Sad, but yes If you could run away to any place, where would you go? The Rockies in British Columbia, or Scotland, I hear tha pipes acallin How often is your smile fake? You can't fake my smile, just look anytime and it will be there. Is there anything/anyone you're losing fate in? Yes When was the last time you completely broke down? The viewing at my uncle's funeral. What do you do duing a thunderstorm? Wish I had someone to share it with. What is the sexiest accent in your opinion? I guess I'm old fas

Dont Be Silly Of Course I Love You
Do I love you?I wish that answer was ‘no’Unfortunately for me,It isn’t exactly so... Why is it that every singleTime we meet,My heart always seemsTo skip a beat? Do you happen toLove me as well?Because you know I can’t help it,It’s for you that I fell! You’re sweet, you’re charming,You’re one of kind.And no matter how hard I try,I can’t get you out of my mind! I don’t want to love you!Trust me, I don’t,But if you asked me stop…I probably won’t! Because in my heart I knowThat you love me too.You want to hug me, hold me,And kiss me adieu... Well, at least that’sWhat I hope.If you don’t love me back,I suppose I can cope. Could you tell me what you feel?So I can put my torment to an end?Do you want me as your own?Or just to keep me as a friend? Is there a slight chance that you love me?Because you’re going to have to let me know,For either you stay in my heart,Or I painfully let you go.

Listen Guys, I Need (help) An Bad!
It all started when this damn dog got ahold on mine an torn the shit out of her, this kid by the name of Chris started shit with me calling me a fucking bitch & slut an so on, well needless to say I had told my husband what was going on an when he got home he said I'm done an ripped his shirt off swearing an shit at me an the kids.... Well he said that I had an hour to get rid of our pup, time had went by an I didn't do anything well he says times up went into the bedroom a grabbed a pistol loaded the damn thing getting ready to shoot my dog, I stood in the way an he told me that if I didn't move he'd shoot me as well, my son over heard this an my husband said for him to go back into his room but he didn't an all hell broke lose he started hitting on my son punching him in the face made his nose/mouth bleed I called the cops an had his ass arrested, I'll be going tomorrow to get a retraining order put against him. I'm taken my kids to my mothers cause I can not handle him doing this sh

Yup Its Monday
ok its monday today is the day if the week i sit here and makre points and pics either the silly ones in my frame folder or special requests with me so hit me up in my mail and let me know if u want anything im 6 million to leveling so ill be here

If I Could....
If I could turn and walk away,And start all over again..I can forget I ever knew you,I could live in a world of pretend.But everytime I open my eyes,It's back to reality.Things I've tried to forget,Are back again with me.I could go through life,Never saying your name.I could live each day..Looking for a place to lay the blame.I could feel bitter,For the way things turned out.But I choose not to be,That's not what I'm about.I could forever long for you,And this I'll probably do.If only I could've touched your face..At least one dream would've come true.I could say I hate you,But it would be a lie.I could wish I'd never met you,So I'd never had a sad goodbye.But no matter the tears,The aches I felt inside,I still can't regret knowing you,My feelings I've never denied.I chose to remember you,The way you were with me.Things you said and felt..I hold in loving memory.Even though it was a heartache,Only waiting to begin,What I experienced with you...Was the best place I've ever been.

100 Things About...just Read It :p
001. I'm left-handed.002. I'm very punctuationally-minded, but I rarely use seperate paragraphs.003. I'm Dyslexic. Or, dyslexic I'm, if you prefer.004. I play guitar. Right-handed. And I refer to it as a "git-fiddle"005. I was a vegetarian for like 6 or 7 years.006. I taught Tae Kwon Do for several years, before I abruptly gave it up.007. I have brown eyes. They shift colors, though, to a greenish-grey. Never could figure out why.008. I will only eat cake if it is in a bowl full of milk, like most people would eat cereal.009. I'm ALWAYS thirsty. And, no, I'm not diabetic.010. I tried to invent a musical form known as "techno-grass," but it didn't work. And thus I was out the $15.00 I paid for a banjo at Salvo.011. "If I could be any kind of a vegetable, I would be a carrot." If you can name the show I stole that quote from, you're a bigger nerd than I am.012. I hate computers, but I haven't yet found a way to browse the web on my surf-green typewriter.013. I'm easy to amuse. I

Submission..............part Iii
The moons light streaks in through the opened windows, across the bed where she lays sleeping. She lies, completely nude, her head turned to the side, hair falling down over her shoulders and to her sides, hiding her soft breasts. She lies on her stomach, with her rounded buttocks partly showing from the sheet that has fallen down during her sleep, to grace along her left thigh, and along the juncture of her inner thighs. Her breathing is steady as she sleeps, her arms along her sides, resting peacefully. A warm breeze happens across the room, stirring the light sheet covering her body, shifting more of it off her form as her Master enters the room on silent feet. He regards her for long moments, how she looks so angelic in her sleep, the way her eyelids flutter from time to time. He pulls a chair up alongside the bed, just gazing for the longest time at her body. The hour is early morning, and he, having spent his time downstairs, leaving her here as he instructed her. Slowly, he reac

Ligers
The history of these hybrids has been very carefully worked out by Professor Valentine Bail, Director of the Science and Art Museum, Dublin, from whose papers the following account is taken. The parents of these hybrids were in a travelling menagerie owned at first by Mr. Thomas Atkins, and subsequently by his son Mr. John Atkins; and a total of six litters of hybrids were produced between the years 1824 and 1833. The parent Lion was bred in the menagerie from a Barbary Lion and a Senegal Lioness; while the Tigress was born in the collection of the Marquis of Hastings at Calcutta, and was purchased when about eighteen months old from a shipâ€™s captain, to whom she had been given by her original owner. Being of the same age as the Lion, she was placed with him in the same cage ; and in the course of two years proved to be in cub. The following is a record of the six litters produced by the union of this pair. First Litter: Born October the 24th, 1824, at Windsor, and compri

The Meaning Of Love (he Makes Me Feel)
To love is to share life togetherto build special plans just for twoto work side by sideand then smile with prideas one by one, dreams all come true.To love is to help and encouragewith smiles and sincere words of praiseto take time to shareto listen and carein tender, affectionate ways.To love is to have someone specialone who you can always dependto be there through the yearssharing laughter and tearsas a partner, a lover, a friend.To love is to make special memoriesof moments you love to recallof all the good thingsthat sharing life bringslove is the greatest of all.I've learned the full meaningof sharing and caringand having my dreams all come true;I've learned the full meaningof being in loveby being and loving with you.

Stop Child Abuse!
This is a very important message; kids do come first…Subject: "Daddy ... it hurts"> This is A TRUE STORY AND IF YOU DON'T PASS THIS ON YOU DON'T HAVE A> SOUL!!!>> My name is Chris,> I am three,> My eyes are swollen.> I cannot see.>> I must be stupid,> I must be bad,> What else could have made,> My daddy so mad?>> I wish I were better,> I wish I weren't ugly,> Then maybe my mommy,> Would still want to hug me.>> I can't do a wrong,> I can't speak at all,> Or else I'm locked up,> All day long.>> When I'm awake,> I'm all alone,> The house is dark,> My folks aren't home.>> When my mommy does come home,> I'll try and be nice,> So maybe I'll just get,> One whipping tonight.>> I just heard a car,> My daddy is back,> From Charlie's bar>> I hear him curse,> My name is called,> I press myself,> Against the wall.>> I try to hide,> From his evil eyes,> I'm so afraid now,> I'

Worth It?
Right....first blog on FUBAR! WOOWOO hahaha. ok. To start off just (if you know me skip down to second paragraph) wanna give a lil back ground info for ya. My grandfather has altimers and cant really take care of himself. I do most everything for him and he does less and less of anything anymore. I look at him and ask him why he doesnt get up and do stuff anymore and he always makes up some exuse of being old(the doctors have done every test they can his BODY is perfictly fine). I asked him the other day if he would like to get up and go look at what our God has givin us to look at(or just nature not to offend anyone). He asked me what was the point. I said to go and live the life he has been givin by God and to see what beutey God has given us. He said God will talk to me when I die and tell me to stop bothering him....... Fu's I dont get it. How someone can just lay down and kill themselves. Because that is exactly what he is doing. I die every time I go back there and talk to hi

Daddy, It Hurts...
stop child abuse! created @ 2009-05-18 13:58:17 This is a very important message; kids do come first…Subject: "Daddy ... it hurts"> This is A TRUE STORY AND IF YOU DON'T PASS THIS ON YOU DON'T HAVE A> SOUL!!!>> My name is Chris,> I am three,> My eyes are swollen.> I cannot see.>> I must be stupid,> I must be bad,> What else could have made,> My daddy so mad?>> I wish I were better,> I wish I weren't ugly,> Then maybe my mommy,> Would still want to hug me.>> I can't do a wrong,> I can't speak at all,> Or else I'm locked up,> All day long.>> When I'm awake,> I'm all alone,> The house is dark,> My folks aren't home.>> When my mommy does come home,> I'll try and be nice,> So maybe I'll just get,> One whipping tonight.>> I just heard a car,> My daddy is back,> From Charlie's bar>> I hear him curse,> My name is called,> I press myself,> Against the

My Wish
I wish when I stand from this chair that you would be behind me, and you would wrap your arms around my body one resting on my breast, the other sliding down to that most treasured of places. We are both clothed but the heat generated by our bodies as you kiss my neck smelling the perfume I placed there just for you, is so intense that I can feel the beads of sweat appearing on my forehead. I am not sure how long we stand gently swaying, our bodies following our inner serpents. I feel through our movements the beautiful firmness below your waist, so enticing. I turn and we embrace, and kissing so passionately I feel elevated. But, what I really want is to taste you, to feel the fullness of you in my mouth, to feel your softness against my lips, my tongue, my cheek. I would drink you if you would let me, but a taste is all I am allowed for you have better plans. You coax me to the softness of the cushions and on our knees we undress one another, kissing, kissing, and touching everywhere

A Perfect Day For Flying...
Just wanted to pass along the the sad news. I lost my best buddy today, Garfield has gone off to the big millet spray in the sky. He passed away this morning from a respiratory infection that came on suddenly. My theory is that God had a shortage of fine feathered friends, and needed Garfy more than I did. He picked a perfect day for flying into Heaven. I can feel him perched in the tallest tree, chattering & whistling and munching on his favorite - spray millet & boiled eggs! Some of you have met Garfy, many of you have listened to my stories about him. He has been in my life for 28 years and 2 months. My son Justin named him when he was but a boy of 8. It is the end of an era - as one of my friends has suggested. The first picture below was published in the Tennesseean, Nashville's daily newspaper, in 2002, in their first "Pet's Corner" weekly feature. True to form, I never miss a chance to talk about my little buddy! Of course, he is reflected in his beloved mirror con

My Thoughts Today
Some days I feel invincible others I feel as if I am cloaked with the darkest heaviest material made. Today I feel shadowed by things I have no control over. I am female and with that comes...yes... emotional,, very. Passion runs in my veins with no release. It builds and builds until I break down over and over nothing piecing me back together but hope for many things. My soul aches for so much like many the pain is numbed by other things. I appreciate all my friends for being there for me in these hard times and love goes to the ones that give me a source to vent when I need to. I open my soul for those who care. This is a tough day for me I had to vent somewhere now I need a friggin hug....love to all my friends kisssssssssss

Rude And Crude People
Why is it that women and men on here have to put up with people that think it's just fine to come across your shoutbox with rude,cude,nasty,comments and statements? I realize that this site is for adults,but damn....! My 14 year old acts more like an adult than some of the people on here! My blocked list is getting longer than my friends list. I don't feel that I should have to lock the shoutbox down and limit it to just family and friends,but it looks like it's coming to that point.

My Desire
My Desire Deep within me, In the very recess of my soul. Is a desire which burns, A desire so strong for you, That I can not handle it. A desire so strong it can weigh my heart down. How did you touch me in such a profound way, You reached a part of me, I forgot it exist. I remember why now, Because I was not willing to risk my heart, I did not want the pain that was likely to be. Nothing last forever, Except the desire within me. If I want you with me again, I simply close my eyes, And go to the recess of my mind, Where I know you have been. Here is were we are all a lone, I can feel you against me, I can feel your lips touch mine. I smell your essences and taste your love. My desire starts to burn It is touching very deeply, Forcibly, Aggressively, Lovingly. Your spirit is touching me. It is here were you will always be a part of me. You will always be the one that gave me that ultimate sprakle, That very special twinkle. The one who makes my desire glow, My desire within me burn. D

I Miss You ,,, God Knows I Do
To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold, utopian dream. You do something to me that I can't explain. So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you. I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine. You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away. I know I'll see you again whether far or soon. But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.

Oh Teacher! ((written By Me))
A timid, dark-haired girl walks into her science teacher’s classroom. Her nervousness peaks as she sees her teacher sitting at his desk. She clears her throat which gets his attention, causing him to look up at her. He smiles at the unexpected visit. “Hello, Ms. Higurashi. What brings you to my class so late today? Most of the other teachers have already left to go home.” “Well,” she says as her nervousness rises. “I was wondering if you could give me some extra credit.” “Oh, that’s right. You failed the last test because you refused to dissect a frog.” he says to her. “I usually don’t give out extra credit, you know.” “I know, but I’ll do anything! If my mom sees that grade then I’ll be in huge trouble. Please…I’ll do anything.” She says in a pleading tone. He takes off his glasses and sets them down on his desk as he leans back in his chair. He places his hands

My Last Breath
I hate this feeling!!! :( Whats going on with me? Heart ache is the worst kind of pain there is. i try not to thank about it but it always comes up. And hurts even worse and more pain is uncoverd. New things happend. And old things happend over and over again....Heart broken...You said "I will always love you and never let you go. Your mine forever I'm going to marry you. Your the best." But i guess it was all a lie. I see your face everyday and i cant stop thinking about you. and the cuts get worse and deeper and wider. I can hardly breath... just to have this pain go away. no more pain. I wish a butterfly so i could fly to a island and be by myself with no more pain. But thats not going to happen. :(

We Love &miss Our Fallen Soldier
2005,30-June House Resolution 2305 By: Representative Hatfield of the 177th A RESOLUTION In memory of and honoring the life and service of Sergeant Chad Michael Mercer; and for other purposes. WHEREAS, on June 30, 2005, the State of Georgia lost one of its finest citizens with the death of Sergeant Chad Michael Mercer of Georgia, while serving as a Bradley Fighting Vehicle Commander of Bravo Company, 2nd Battalion, 121st Infantry Regiment in Baghdad, Iraq; and WHEREAS, this exceptional individual exhibited outstanding leadership, patriotism, courage, and dedication in his service to this state and nation in the 48th Brigade of the Georgia Army National Guard; and WHEREAS, this young man of 25 years leaves behind his loving wife, Pam; his beloved children, Alanna Taft, Amber Taft, and Gavin Mercer; parents Mack and Dorothy Mercer; parents-in-law Dudley and Carol Cole; brother Adam Mercer; sister Lara Mercer; sister-in-law Rebecca Cole; grandparents Mike and Shirley Junk, Jean Jone

Salutes!!!!!!
I see that there alot of people who make salutes for other people! Ladies! I would love to see who would actually take the time to make a salute for me! I am quite sure that if someone takes the time to make me a salute that would mean they seriously would like to be friends with me! SO, if you make me a salute not only will I return the favor but I will indefinately add you to my family! I am intruiged as to see how many people will make me a salute! Once you have made it please send it to holliwood12@yahoo.com so that I can post it on my fubar page! Thanks and hope to see a salute from all of you!!!!!!

"me" Folders That Are Private
agina and again im seeing "me" folders with plz rate and comment but th ucking file is private! whats with that?? oh oh look at me but wait dont!! im gonna wear something whorish then tell you im a good girl even though im half naked in my profile picture. i think most of you girls need stronger meds if you arent already on them. you know what this site is and what its for. its like going to the bar and expecting the dance floor to clear just cause you came onto it. get over yourselves. seriously i you wanna privatize nsfw folders awsome but dont ask ppl to rate your pix but mark them private that is the stupidest shit ever (i dont care if thats misspelled). its these type of girls that say either all the good men are married or gay but you dont let in the guys who wanna look. guess you can blame yourselves for the loss of most of us good men trying to flirt and be nice when we say you have nice eyes or compliment you. seriously its like being a stripper and getting m

Online Horndogs
what the hell,does everyone really get online to cyber?shit ,thats not what im here for.i have waaaaaay to much self respect for that.it gets on my nerves,it disgust me,and if being a guy saying this makes me sound gay.....go fuck yourself!!!

Sacred
I'm broken, cut, and bleeding,On the inside of my heart.All because of what you doneIt really tore me apart.I try to move on ,I try to get on with my life,But it seems no matter what I do, I think of you,And it makes me want to cry.What you did was very wrong,It shocked me in the worst possible way.You being the person you were never would have done the things you did,Or would have said the things you did say.It seems so unbelievable,That you could betray me like this.I trusted you so much,You gave me so much happiness and bliss.My cuts will heal eventually,They will turn into ugly scars.All except a few that were left by you,And they will stay forever on my heart.

Daddy's Here...
Don't worry I'm here You can sleep now son Ain't no nightmare gonna get you I'll hold you close Keep you safe from the other ones Protect you from the evil ones Quiet your mind and rest assured Your boogey men have no power here I'm here to clear out all the shadows No more monsters under your bed I can't promise you the world All I can do is swear to keep you warm Save you from the evil that men do The world is a nasty place I'll always be by your side I love you baby boy...

Karma
Ok so I am sitting in the pre-op are of the hospital while my mother is waiting on her surgery to be done, and my mother grandmother and I get on the subject of superstiotion. I totally am superstiotos, and I was saying that karma can bite you in the ass if your not careful...OMG my grandmother looks over at me just as serious as she can be and asked me who karma was...I could NOT stop laughing...I asked her if she was serious, and she says, yes I don't think I have ever met her before.. WOW I had to control my laughter and explain it to her, and she was like, omg I feel so silly right now, so now I know where I get my moments from! Thanks grama, you rock!

Dad
'm sorry that I never knew you I guess I'll never understand. See since you've been here, I was blind to the truth. My real dad left, gone far away but here you still are twenty years to this day my "father" knew me for so short but you've never swayed you loved me from the start. you yelled and criticized so i thought you hated me now that i'm on my own I've learned what you wanted: The best for me Unfortunately I travel my own trail though I may be blind,you know where I'm going I realize you don't like it and it might be my ruin I dont know what else to say but that i love and appreciate you more and more each day

Unknown
Darkness,Hatred and despair what are these but a vast swamp of waste a self made sheet of black serving no purpose other than dropping ones soul bringing it to the depths of a bottomless pit what is it that brings on such a shade? It eclipses even the brightest lights It cant be the overwhelming loss of a love one that fairer than those of fairy tales no its not the lack of wealth that can break even the strongest into tears its not even a never-ending yearning of that which cannot be obtained this vile sludge that contaminates the soul seeps in from a source so great greater than the eyes can percieve its affect is intoxicating the blackness spirals around and around from the peaks of the mind, racing through the veins it breaks down anything in its path a cancerous vermin gnawing its way crawling down the web of an intricate system corrupting even the most innocent of a beautiful creation its enough to make the sane flip their lids it creates words out of heav

She's There
She’s There I watched the sun set today It set upon sweet lips I watched as the moon rose It rose upon cherished hips Sitting upon this shore tonight Hearing her soft voice call Fantasizing of tasting paradise Desiring to breach her honey walls Would she hear my passions? Would she grace me in the dark? Would she desire my touch?

Soundgarden - Mailman
Hello don't you know meI'm the dirt beneath your feetThe most important fool you forgot to seeI've seen how you give itNow I want to receiveI know that youWould do the same for meI'm know I'm headed for the bottomBut I'm riding you all the wayFor all of your kisses turnedTo spit in my faceFor all that reminds meWhich is my placeFor all of the times whenYou made me disappearThis time I'm sure you willKnow that I'm hereI'm know I'm headed for the bottomBut I'm riding you all the wayMy place was beneath youBut now I'm aboveAnd now I send you a messageOf loveA simple remind of whatYou won't seeA future so holy without meI'm know I'm headed for the bottomBut I'm riding you all the way

The Economy Is Sooooo Bad...
The Economy Is So Bad... CEO's are now playing miniature golf. Jewish women are marrying for love. Even people who have nothing to do with the Obama administration aren't paying their taxes. Hotwheels and Matchbox stocks are trading higher than GM. Obama met with small businesses to discuss the Stimulus Package: GE, Pfizer and Citigroup. McDonalds is selling the 1/4 ouncer Parents in Beverly Hills fired their nannies and learned their childrens names. A truckload of Americans got caught sneaking into Mexico. The most highly-paid job is now jury duty. People in Africa are donating money to Americans. Motel Six won't leave the light on. (Now, this is serious) The Mafia is laying off judges. And finally... Congress says they are looking into this Bernard Madoff scandal. Hey, neat...the guy who made $50 billion disappear is being investigated by the people who made $750 billion disappear.

*mad*
i REALLY HATE WHEN PPL TELL YOU ONE THiNG, AND DO ANOTHER, OR WHEN PPL SAY THiNGS THAT THEY DON'T MEAN, SERiOUSLY, iF YOU DON'T MEAN iT DON'T SAY iT.........HOW HARD iS THAT.........SAY WHAT YOU MEAN............AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY............AND JUST BE HONEST...........WOW THAT'S A LOT TO ASK FOR HUH, WELL i GUESS iT iS, OH WELL ONCE AGAiN i GET SCREWED AND EVERYBODY ELSE iS HAPPY, THE WORLD iS A MESSED UP PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Poem/song
~Broken Angel~my song I see your broken wingsI know your evil thingsAnd its grabbin hold of meWatch me walk awayI can't stayNo baby it can't beAlready been thereAnd its not fairI don't want your miseryYour tears won't workNo not this timeYou were never mineI can't forgetWhat you had saidIm better off deadI can't dream anymoreThat you will changeIts just the sameYou can say you love meBut the truth isI don't believe youNo not anymoreCan't believe a lieI don't want to try'Chorus'You don't see the pain in my eyesHow you make me feelI want to dieSo baby I have to say goodbyeIm letting go this is goodbye

Simple Vs Real
Simple vs Real Anyone can stand by you when you are right, but a Friend will stand by you even when you are wrong... A simple friend identifies himself when he calls. A real friend doesn't have to. A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life. A real friend says, "What's new with you?" A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent. A real friend says, "You've been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it." A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears. A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book. A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call. A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you wit

Update...
I know that I may not be well liked by posting this, but I wanted to get the chance to put it 'out there' before the rumors and all the bullshit even started since it has already been ticking, and it's only a matter of time before it explodes. Trik and I have decided that it was in our best interest to split up. Him & I are still friends, and no one did wrong. We still love each other, nothing has changed except for the "title". I still care about him and will still take up for him when those 'haters' wanna bash him, in any way, shape, or form. He is, and will always be my best friend. It really isn't anyone's business on why this decision was made. And I'm not going to go into details. And no, it's not because I was in the wrong or any reason before you jarheads even begin to think about that. Anthony, I know that you most likely don't approve of me posting this blog, and I'm sorry that you don't. You & I both know how people twist shit around, and I don't even want it to s

Beat Down
Wife, 78, allegedly beats man over old affair Witness tells cops she admitted kicking him because of liaison 35 years ago LYNNWOOD, Wash. - A 78-year-old woman arrested last month for allegedly beating her 84-year-old husband because she believed he cheated on her several times during their marriage was charged Thursday with assault. Prosecutors said she hit him with a bowl, pipe and carpet sweeper. He suffered broken ribs, pelvis and a wrist. One witness told police the woman admitted kicking her husband three times in the groin in the last six months because she believed he had an affair 35 years ago.The woman was jailed on $70,000 bail.

Update #1
Update! Current mood:Loved and Motivated!Category: Life I know I haven't written a blog on myspace in so long just been working on organizing my life. I have been through some major changes and all for the best! Well as many as you have seen husband and I are no longer together. We both came to a mutual decision and called it quits on January 17. It was a difficult decision to make but to be honest I was no longer happy. I was very grateful that the most amazing guy ever stepped in and offered me a place to stay. It was weird rooming with someone other then my family or husband but I was taking a chance and figured what the heck. Well that chance paid off and about a month later we became and couple. We went to Disney with his family and it was soooooo much fun. We had a little bump while in Disney but when we came back home we worked things out and are so much stronger now. I have never been this happy in my life. He has been my rock through everything and I thank God

Holding Back Tears
Life is bitch then U die struggling 2 survive trying 2 find a 9-5 just 2 provide. In these days & times It's 1 no after another. Right now i'm holding back these tears cuz i don't want 2 feel them burning my face with the pain trying 2 find right lane & make a quik change 2 a succsesful life that's not filled wit all this pain st8 messing wit my brain sometimes it's a constant fight i just want a peaceful life. Instead all i got i this mess that idk how 2 fix. damn holding back these tears is a BITCH!

Love To Other People
Love To Other People Love: a typical interpretation.Devotion, attraction, a weakness for another person, passion of heart and soul for someone.Love: My interpretation.To be able to give yourself over to someone with complete trust. To love without borders, rules, and walls, without things to hold you back, is love. To touch souls with another. To share a part of your heart with another. To kiss without fear, to hold another without guilt. To at one time, be that person and yourself, in the same moment. All this is love. To be able to give your heart to another without fear of it being crushed, is faith, to have them give you a piece of theirs, is Love.It does exist, despite the disbelievers Heather Stephenson Copyright ©2009 Heather Stephenson

Sex Question Of The Week...on Hump Day!
Wow I haven't posted a blog in a looong ass time (and anyone who says I shouldn't have posted this one either - BITE ME!) So here's the question...brought to you by Hump Day and our horny Fu-friends. Do you use PROPS in the bedroom? Clothes, toys, creams, lotions, ice cubes, altoids...anything that you bring into the mix. If so...what do you use? C'mon share!

20 Things You Didn't Know About..... Sex
1. Life emerged on earth about 3.8 billion years ago, but sex did not evolve until more than 2 billion years later. Dirty limericks emerged only quite recently, geologically speaking. 2. Sex—what is it good for? Scientists are not sure, since asexual reproduction is a better evolutionary strategy in some important ways. 3. For those who refuse to commit to one strategy: The hermaphroditic earthworm Dendrobaena rubida has both male and female genitalia. If it cannot find a partner, the worm doubles up so that its female bits and male bits can go to town. 4. Although famously monogamous, female Adélie penguins slip away from their mates occasionally to couple with unattached males. They exact a fee for such a dalliance—stones to bolster their nests—not unlike certain people. 5. Some talented penguin teasers can get a gift even without putting out. Again, not unlike certain people. 6. Barbary macaques have a distinctive way to get their mates to make a sperm donation: y

5-20-09
So you wake up one day and think you have everything figured out? Wrong, nothing is ever always figured out until it happens. The only way to find what you want is to take chances, go meet new people do different things. I find myself torn as to whether or not I could feel a certain way about something so strongly when I have only had to deal with it for a short amount of time. I do however, find that if I have a feeling I shoud go for it, I should'nt ignore it. And does anyone else find themselves addited to too much coffee? Oh well I won't bore ya any longer, have a good one.

Pervs
Signing on today I had this left for me in my shout box... mind you I don't even know the guy who said it! LMAO! You look nice and I like u , hope u can handle my 11 inches as I need to do it about 5 times a day with about 40 min's to cum for each and 20 min's rest between each, can u ?

Relationships
So they say home is where the heart is. Im not so sure u can say that since i dont really have a place where my heart is comfortable. I have had so many peices chipped away in the past there isnt much left to be sated with anywhere. Even now as i sit in my temporay home i feel so out of place. Being single and feeling the full weight of being alone in the world with the only family for hundreds of miles being my brother who is dar to busy with his 1 year old. So liek grasping at straws i reach out for people. I guess the world wide web woudl be a great place to reach out except we all know how meaningless online relationships are. you are never really honest open real and exspresive. our u may be untill you relize that on the other side of that screen is another person with feelings emotions a past and future and everything else that can burn you or go worng. So there you are with the choice of actuly trusting this person with ur emotions and then things get thrown into reverse. So the

Prayers For My Brother
I'm coming to you all tonight with a very sad heart. My brother,,,Tony, AKA Hydrovamp to his fubar friends was in a terrible accident on his job today.His right thumb was completely severed from his hand and almost all of his right index finger. He went through about 4 hours of crucial surgery. The doctors were very skeptical they would be able to save his thumb, but luckily both fingers were re attached,,at least to some degree. He still has to forego many surgeries in the very nearfuture before all is done. Please, I am begging you,,please keep him in your prayers. He has a wife and 2 very young daughters and I'm sure you all know this could take a toll on his family. I appreciate all of your prayers and hope you will pass the word along to others for their prayers also.

Lost
Looking back upon my life all the the mistakes Ive made all the rights Ive done lost to me forevermore lost in time lost in darkness the depths of my mind needing wanting to fill that void the on thing I cant seem to do on my own I try and try still something missing lost to me forevermore lost to void why this hollow this void never filled Looking back upon my liIve lost my soul lost my way lost forevermore

Chasing White Rabbits
I wake in the mornings with thoughts of the night before. Visions of chasing white rabbits and green monsters are all I think about. Thoughts of seeing myself in a mirrow behind bars of white as smoke rises from my chair. Haunting images of being behinde enemy lines while tring to catch a white rabbit with a hollow tube. The closer I get to the white rabbit the worse i feel but for some reason I just can't help myself. The chase goes on for hours and in the end, when I finally catch that white rabbit, I fall into a sea of confusion. I look at myself in the mirrow only to see a man who has sold his soul for just a few hours of happiness. The person looking back at me is not the same person I see in the mornings when i waken from a night of sher bliss. Instead all I see is pain because though the rabbit brings happiness for a short while, its after effects are torture. My head swims with thoughts of chaseing that rabbit again as my stomache rolls in pain. I try to eat but the food doesnt

Why Are You Such A Asshole!!!
Why are you such a asshole you feel the need to put me down and you dont even know anything about me. Why are you such a asshole, you feel the need to poke fun of me and get your friends to follow you in doing the same. Why are you a ass hole, you feel the need to make my life a living hell. This is how I feel about most people who feel the need to put down, make fun off , judge others, and make their life a living hell. And why? you dont even know this person from adam. You base your assumtions on what is on their profile, or when they post a blog, or a mum. Do you honestly think your any better? Do you think your all that and a bag of cookies? Got news, chances are your not. You just want every one to think you are cause your so gawd dam inscure about your self and feel intimadated when someone just might have a foot up on the ladder of life then you do. Its sad in todays world there are still bullies out there that feel the need to hurt and put down others just t

Alice Cullen’s Yellow Porsche For New Moon Discovered!
Alice Cullen’s Yellow Porsche for New Moon Discovered! May 20, 2009 · View comments198 Comments in Italy Set The yellow Porsche that Alice will drive in New Moon has been discovered in Montepulciano, Italy! Ale at TwilightersItalia sends in this report– The big man you can see in some pictures is one of the stuntmen. He had an Alice wig, a bandana, a couple of elbow high red gloves, and seemingly from far he actually looked like our loved little vampire/pixie. Mauro secretly told us that there are two yellow porsche in Montepulciano, placed in different places of the town. As they were not exactly identical, one had yellow brake pad cover and another had them red, Production was willing to spend to the incredible amount of €5800 PER PIECE to have them all red!!! Luckily they found out a way to paint them, but this episode says a lot on how high is this movie’s budget!!! The helicopter we told you about ealier, has kept low-flying whole day long filming

Medical Update - May 21
Did research on internet and found that my skin cancer can be treated with Cryosurgery which is a low risk procedure where they kill the rebel cells by freezing them with liguid nitrogen. The bad news is that my primary doctor is not talking to me but only directed me to yet another doctor which was recomended by the general surgen who removed the tiny sample to testing. Someone who has a sepcialty related to the neck area - "nose and ear" doc. so he can give his input. And he recomended that I get a x-ray scan of the area involved. No one as yet has directed me to a doctor that treats cancer patients. My appointment with the neck doctor was yesterday but the old lady at their front desk refused to accept me because I was never issued a card from S S medicare, claiming that she cannot confirm that I will be coverd by it ( money more important then treating people ). Although two hospitals and 3 doctors were able to confirm my status via my SS number on their computer that offi

The Saga Continues
So more about me, well lets see I was born on a friday night at about 8pm, just in time for the party! because of this I am always hyper on fridays, no matter if I am at work or not, and if its a full moon and a firday..dont even bother, you get within 10 feet of me and you will be electrified the energy pules out of me in waves! Yes I love full moons, vampyres are kick ass on a random note, If I could be any mythical creature it would be that one..if they are mythical lol. yes I like twilight and loved the books two..so! lol. interview with a vampire was a great show as was the 90's version of brham stokers dracula. I am all about the laughs if I can make you laugh at least once then I have done my job as your friend. I love being the center of attention, mainly cause im good at it lol, and yes im humble too:) true story people will always gravitate towards me in a crowded room, girls and guys, I know this is a little cliche but in my case its true you either see the real me and

The Stars
The sky seems so much blacker than all the other nightsBringing a deeper chill which reaches my bonesThe stars are scatteredSparkling, shining, shaping the worldI can’t see anything else but you,Anything but you and the starsI lay down, my head on the orange and red fallen leavesAlthough they all look the same in the darkI wonder if you care we are laying on the groundTiny goose bumps dance along my arms and legsI wonder why you haven’t moved closer yetI wonder if you don’t want to be thereLaying on the leaves, in the coolness of the darkLooking at the stars, with meI think I’m thinking too much, I think that...You move closerDeep breath, deep breath...My hand feels so small in yours,Small but safe, safe and warmI could fall asleep with my head on your shoulderWe say nothingI remember the stars, they are still sparkling back at usI’ll always remember them now

Example Of How Not To Act
Wish I had saved the first part of this convo, but oh well.. bethy221: Seriously though, stop bein so pushy...bethy221: Im already married and have a man at home... online, I dont need someone given me shit all the time.NameChanged: i know ugg i have cancerNameChanged: need freinds sorrybethy221: what does cancer have anything to do with private pictures?? or calling you?Namechanged: i jst asked im sorrybethy221: its not so much that you asked.. but you asked then got all pushy with me..NameChanged: just say noNamechanged: i did im sorryNamechanged: wrong of mebethy221: Im cool with bein friends.. but damn..Namechanged: i messed upNamechanged: when you dont feel good u dont think strraightNamechanged: i see you block me on fubarNamechanged: all you had to do was say noNamechanged: i never would have brought it up agianNamechanged: that how i amNamechanged: are you going to talk to me agian ?Namechanged: i need to go home and puke now stressed out im sorry i hope to be freinds agian

It Was Written..
* Step 1 - We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable on the fu * Step 2 - Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity, yay baby j is useful afterall! * Step 3 - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of others in distress with the same fu addiction. * Step 4 - Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves, which doesnt include unblocking of the doosh's we have came across. * Step 5 - Admitted to baby j, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. * Step 6 - Were entirely ready to have baby j remove all these defects of character & user settings. * Step 7 - Humbly asked baby j to remove our shortcomings, more mail for him?.. * Step 8 - Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to MOST of them. * Step 9 - Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so w

Contact Update
as some of you know, im in a rough spot right now. i wont be online for a bit. if any of you need to contact me, you can always txt me. my number is 815-319-3618. i have unlimited text so hit me up!!!!

Sex And What Not To Name Your Dog..
Everyone who has a dog calls him rover or boy, I call mine sex. Now sex has been very embarrassing to me. Last night sex ran off again. I spent several hours looking for him. A cop came over to me and asked "What are you doing in this alley at 4:00am in the morning"? I said I was looking for sex....my court case comes up monday morning. When I went to City Hall to renew his dog license I told the clerk I would liek to have a license for sex. He said "I'd like to have one too." Then I said "but this is a dog". He said he didn't care what she looked like. Then I said "you dont understand.....I've had sex since I wasnine years old". He said I must have been quite a kid. When I decided to get married, I told the minister I wanted to have sex at the wedding. He told me to wait untill later. I said "but sex has played a big role in my life, and my whole life style revolved around Sex". He said he didn't want to hear about my personal life, and would not marry us in his ch

Please Be My Friend...
Hello everyone... new here and trying to figure this whole thing out. I know nobody here and I was really hoping to draw some attention and make some friends.... drop me a line... until then... have a great day

Something To Ponder!
" There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will. Don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future...."

End Of Days
Im tired of this life that i liveeverytime i wake up i want to put that gunto my head. dreams of the people beatin mehittin me, kickin my cold dead body around .im so sick of the people tellin me thatim worthless, sayin how your heartless.truth is its the people out there that made me,that formed, inside im just little boy thatwants to be heard. voices haunt me tellinme your so fuckin worthless, go fuckin hangyourself your doin the work of others. go jumpoff of a bridge, its not like anybody will miss yasitting there lonely hear the people sayin im sorryi turn and say its too late the bullet’s in my head, im dead...Chours 3xend of days i cryend of days i dieend of days im goneend of days no more People look at me, hearing them laughin about how im a scrub, laughin about the clothes i wear and the things that i do. if they knew me they would understand the things about meunderstand what im about and things i do.they would think im not worthless im someone who needs the love of oth

My Week
I should be in bed right now, but I have a bunch of stuff on my mind that just started not too long ago. I had some type of tummy virus the begining of the week. I have no idea where it came from, but i didn't toss cookies, have a fever or anything...I just felt real nasty and felt like I was going to toss cookies....luckily it didn't last too long. Rich and I still do things together....ya know..go shoping and all that..like what room mates do. It really doesn't feel like much as changed...I mean all the time at work, we barely spoke, didn't hug, did like hand shake thing....didn't say I love you....just...the "see ya" But recently, we've been hugging and it feels weird.... as if it's just the whole thing again..I dunno..it's hard to explain... we're still seperated.... Well I had my fu fun recently....i actually got myself ranked to number 1 for the day which i never though i'd find myself near that...I had a lot of help too. Thank you....u know who you are... But really...I'm n

You Know You Wanna
So, I had a little bit of drama and hastily deleted my profile but thanks to a good friends conning, I've started over again. I was level 21 before I stupidly deleted my prof. So! How's about helping me level. Just rates and add's and I'll return all the love. =) Thanks!

Would You
Would You Would you love me as I am or would you walk away? Would I not be good enough for you or could I be your ever fantasy? See I would love you I do love you still Even though you refuse to see Maybe I am better off now that you are gone But I can't help but remember how things use to be At one time we were one you looked at me like there was no other Now we are just two strangers crossing paths and I wonder why it is Would you love me? I ask you this I will love you always this I shall live with

Wrong Card Omg
Wrong Card A new business was opening and one of the owner's friends wanted to send flowers for the occasion. They arrived at the new business site and the owner read the card; it read "Rest in Peace." The owner was angry and called the florist to complain. After he had told the florist of the obvious mistake and how angry he was, the florist said. "Sir, I'm really sorry for the mistake, but rather than getting angry you should imagine this: Somewhere there is a funeral taking place today, and they have flowers with a note saying, 'Congratulations on your new location!!'

And Here We Are
I like that he stops to listen to everything I have to say .( even when I know damn good and well he has no clue what I am talking about . ) He just nods .And it leaves me with the sensation that someone was listing to me . And for a moment I don't feel so alone . The illusion that someone else might be here that understand me Lingers..... making the day go by faster . Wait .... No I think that is more of a dellusion . Yea .... that fits better . I love the idea that I can talk to him about anything at all . No matter what it is . I can talk and talk and talk .But he never gets tired of listing . No , He just smiles . Hanging over every word I say . Untill i relize I am rambling . And cut the conversation in mid sentence . Usually to only be followed by a ..... -Finish what you were saying .... Only I never do . I love that I am no longer defined by pre-wraped enchanted lines . No more walking on egg shells . The feeling as though I am a fumbling around a darkned room full of antique ,

Wtf?
I do believe this site is turning into a popularity contest. All I see is rate me fan me add me etc, instead of people actually wanting to be a friend. When I first joined this site it was a fun place to be. Now it seems like all anyone wants is to bling or whatever its called...I could care less really, I just like making friends. Is it to much to ask for to have real friends on here, someone to come talk to when I'm alone or just needing someone there for me? I even have the nude pics that women love to see as much as us men like seeing yours lol so please come get to know me, quit turning this site into a popularity contest, and get fubar back to way it used to be.

A Little Introduction
Hello Fubar, I'm just a regular guy, kind hearted and honest. I've travelled quite a bit, and I've been married once. Presently I'm dating and looking for friends. If by chance I should meet that special lady, then so be it. I'm very laid back and love pretty things. I enjoy horseback riding, water sports, riding my motorcycle, camping, hiking, and believe it or not I am a romantic. Chivalry is not dead lol. Don't be afraid to talk to me please.

I Have No Clue
Lost in my thoughts in search of my paradise i have no clue my time used up my prime behind me i have no clue that there will not be another that she is gone forever i have no clue i still wait, at time patient at times in anger as - i have no clue that my destiny was to be alone i have always been alone how could i have missed that clue at times a dying wish sometimes a death wish take it all away give me her but does she know does she have - a clue?

Did U Ever Think Of This? Or Even Care?
i dont know how and where i am going to start writing this"... we all live a very busy life, working, parenting, earning money, making a life, whatever"... and maybe even us here on fubar.. have our own world.. busy fubar world.." do we still have time to think or even care about the other people in our lives, whom maybe has less signifance in our lives. as i said i dont know where to start and how am i going to express myself,i cant her my thoughts and put them into words.lol, ok, let me start it this way" ive been living out of my country for nearly 15 years now, but i am still very much connected to my family, even to extended family.and even to distant relatives,..i did not go home for 10 straight years.. when i finally visited phillippines last 2004. then followed by another visit in 2007 in dubai to meet some relatives . cousins and former classmates, then last year , again in the phillippines"... i was full of joy and always almost in tears.. i made it a point to see

Bling Packs
Sell me Bling Packs :] Or find me someone who will ;]20 Mill for 135 or 15 Mill and I'll give u an Auto or Cherry from it9 Mill for 656 Mill for Autos4 Mill for 251 Mill for 10500k To find me someone who will sell me bling packs :]Comment/SB/PM/Just get ahold of me somehow if your interested

For The Loves Of My Life!!!
Laura, Brendan, and Aleah, As we go through life, some paths are our choices, yet, some are not. Each of you are the heart and soul of my being. You have helped me fight every struggle in this world, no matter how big or small. The fears in the last few years have seemed like challenges every time I think of each of you! It makes me fight harder! I am blessed you are here! We don't know which path will be here every few months, but I am proud to have you for my children. I Love You forever and always!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Moving On
Just wanted to let everyone know I will be leaving the fu very soon. I contemplated mentioning it at all but I felt that was the easy way out. You all are so awesome and have truly touched my life. I feel like it is more about all the $ the site is making and I am not going to do it anymore. Back in the day, when it was Cherry Tap, and Lost Cherry, I really enjoyed being here, but it seems now it is all about competition and who has the most points, ect. I recently made it to Orace, it was my goal, I have reached it but now what, I even feel empty inside. I truly appreciate all my friends who have show me so much love, it has meant so much to me:-) I will never forget y'all Luv you all Let me know if you want my yahoo addy. Wsh you all peace blessings and luv

To Catch A Predator
It always amazes me when they catch guys trying to hook up with underage girls on the internet. Here is simple rule. If someone online says that they are a fourteen year old girl looking for an older guy she is really a cop. Fourteen year old girls will say that they are eighteen.

This Is Funny
I think its funny when people on fubar see my picture and they automatically assume that I'm emo but if those people actually took the time to know me they would definitely know that I'm not emo but I don't care if those people are labeling stereotypes because eventually they'll know how it feels to be stereotyped as something they're not so it doesn't hurt my feelings if they want to stereotype me I know what I am and what I'm not I'd thought I'd share that with whoever reads this becuase its amusing to me =D

Jerk Off~
Paul bit the cornered portion of his toast after having first dipped it into the runny yoke of the egg. He preferred his eggs 'sunny-side-up' as opposed to anything else. He had smiled at the waitress as she freshened his coffee, grinning politely, managing the words "Thank you" as she did.Penny, his wife of barely a year sat beside him. She preferred pancakes smothered in rich thick syrup, perhaps overdoing it, but she'd explained that it reminded her of the way his cum sometimes slithered down the side of his shaft when he climaxed. Penny was always comparing things like that, finding eroticism in nearly everything. Just as she was doing now as her hand slowly, quietly, secretly continued stroking his hard erect shaft beneath the table.They hadn't wanted the honeymoon to end. And as such, went on a monthly retreat, usually within a few hours drive, just someplace to get away for the weekend, be together, and explore their secret little fetish.Paul as well as Penny were true 'Masturba

Gold Dragon: S81 Chevalier Teaser 2
A second Teaser for the S81: Chevalier storyline With the full power of the S81 Chevalier now known and the Blue Typhoons forced to retreat to their last bastion of defense at the Gate of Heracles, the Resistance joined forces with the Arielian Empire and started Operation Seraph (This name was chosen because the resistance warships were aligned in the shape of a Seraph's wings above the command tower of the Vaalbara's Heart, and to honor the S80 Seraph used by Arielian Empress Chana Proudmore) to capture the renegade Blue Typhoons and the World Government President who had named himself Commander of the Blue Typhoons in a desperate bid to hold onto power. The Blue Typhoons attempted to hold the allies off at Jörmungandr and Fenris on May 16th. They failed and Fenris was destroyed by the super beam cannons mounted on the Vaalbara's Heart, destroying the Blue Typhoons' Headquarters and also a great deal of their forces. A month later on June 18th the forces of the allies met t

R.i.p. Glenn Hull
Glenn Hull from San Jose Lost His Life Yesterday from Murphys Grade Road Accident ~By John HamiltonMurphys, CA...52 year old Glenn Hull from San Jose lost his life yesterday as the result of a Motorcycle Accident on Murphys Grade Road just West of French Gulch Road. From the CHP Release "Mr. Hull was riding Westbound on Murphys Grade Road at what appears to be a high rate of speed as he approached a sharp right hand curve in the road., Mr. Hull applied his motorcycle's brakes and after sliding across the Eastbound lane, both he and his motorcycle struck a metal guardrailing....Mr. Hull was transported via ambulance to Mark Twain Hospital where he succumbed to his injuries. As of this writing, the investigation is still ongoing"

My Fubar Status....
Until further notice, this is how I feel about fubar....I think this is a cool place to meet & get to know some cool people, but over the past few years it's become a political sideshow. I know some people have a life on here...I think it's called addiction...fu-addicts. I'm one too. I have met some really beautiful people here.... inside and out.Here's one of them: Jui© y~GoT~Him~©®azy Demon Queen! ~ Owned by Sexy & Fine ☠♆MisterJueseppi♆☠™@ fubar Here's the point: Have fun, live ur life, and I hope fubar leads u to whatever it is u r looking 4.

Mumms...
Due to the recent crackdowns I have lost friends on my list.. I don't have many to begin with so a loss of 1 is noticable.. I want to post a MuMM but not sure the risk is worth the reward... Oh, and Fuck the Juggalos...

Shadow's Krypt
we are in need of new staff members and are reaching out to those will to join a family and not a lounge please feel free to leave a comment or drop in at shadows krypt and let us know your intrested in joining our family we are hiring in all areas please fell free to join us as a member or as steff ty shadowvampire

La Trip 5/15-5/18
Thursday I got a phone call from a writer friend down in LA, he invites me to a screening of a military film. The film is a documentary called "Brothers At War". It follows a filmmaker, who's younger brothers are soldiers in the Army who have done stints in Iraq. He documents the family life here at home, his trip over to Iraq, his missions including a stakeout for five days on the Asyrian border and chasing terrorists, which result in him getting fired upon and two Iraqi soldiers shot. Damn good movie, funny, sad, exciting. Afterwards, they did a Q&A with the director, Jake Rademacher, and producers Norman S. Powell and Gary Sinise. All three are very accomodating and nice. Talk with them after the Q&A, tell them to give me flyers for the Playboy party. I'll upload the Q&A to my stash soon as I get it transferred. Oh, and Gary has a band, The Lieutenant Dan Band, and he referred me to his website when I mentioned we were doing a concert. So crossing my fingers! More to c

Ring ... Ring .... Lmao
**Rrriiiiinnnnggg, rrriiiinnnngg,** **'Hello?'** *'Hi honey.****This is Daddy.****Is Mommy near the phone?'** **'No, Daddy.****She's upstairs in the bedroom with Uncle Paul.'** **After a brief pause,** **Daddy says,****'But honey, you haven't got an Uncle Paul.'** **'Oh yes I do, and he's upstairs in the room with Mommy,****Right now.'**

Gas Station
I woke up this morning due to the following dream... I was at a gas station, getting gas. All the lights in store were on but none over the pumps were, It was pitch black, with only the light from in the store for illumination. As I walked to the pump, I fell down. Couldn't figure out why....nothing to trip on, wasn't drunk or stoned....was perfectly sober. But when I tried to get up, I fell down again, still no reason why. Each time I tried to stand I fell over again, and each time I fell over, I fell closer to the street. As I got closer to the curb, I started to feel, in my gut, like I was being pushed, but no feeling of being pushed from the outside. No hands, no weird force, no nothing....just a gut feeling. I could not get my feet under me. I tried to grab the curb to stop myself, but I couldn't get a hold of it. I started to tumble and slide into the street, and oncoming traffic......... And then I woke up.....perfectly calm and thinking "what the hell..."

In Memory Of The Fallen,and Those Who Remain The Sacrifices They Have Made!
My Great Great Grandfather entered this country at the beginning of the first world war. He Left Germany and Married a Cherokee woman. In arkansas ,and then moved into Texas.He raised a great family. Those Children of his did the same in thier turn. My great grandfather Joseph lived in a time of peace until The second world war. He sent three of his sons to duty when the call was sounded. My Grandfather survived so that his father had one son return home to carry on his name after that. He in 45 he went to work for the high way department. he had three daughters. One died in a car wreck the other two married ,and watched thier men answer the call once agian! Uncle Melvin ,and my Dad came back from Vietnam. They had been Changed from thier experience. Uncle Melvin had horrrible nightmares, that later gave way to violence in sleep.He spent alot of time in The V.A. Hospital He has to this day never spoken of his experiences in Vietnam. what must he have seen to have made him become wh

Angel Kisses
Someone who cares about youthought you could usesome angel kisses.Angel kisses have the power tomake you feel better and give you hope.Just one angel kiss will makeyour troubles disappear,and you'll suddenly have the motivationyou need to complete a difficult task.Run to your loving angelto receive your angel kiss.and you'll feel a sense ofwarmth and happinessthat will last the whole day.Even if it's rainy outside,nothing but sunshine willcome your way.

What I Like!
things that i find sexy! firefighters. harleys/choppers tats the more the better! cowboy hats! blue/green eyes! dark short hair or no hair at all. guys who have some weight on them being muscler or not. guys who are taller then me(i am 5.6) older men....lol i like them 30ish. boston accent ! to the bitches who didnt like this blog go fuck ur self! if you must know my bf is a firefighter we met when he saved my life when i was in a car accident in march 2003 and has had my heart for the last six years...he rides a harley is covered in tats(my fav is my name on his chest over his heart) wheres a cowboy hat and nothing esle in the bedroom has the biggest blue eyes shaves his head bald is about 6 ft 225 lbs of man.is older then me by about 16 years...he doesnt have the boston accent but does for me to make me smile.dont be jealous haters!muah!

This Is Your Brain On Drugs
This is your brain on drugs... Some thoughts on relationships. Your brain is always predicting the future for you based on past experiences. It remembers you left your coffee mug by the keyboard last night so when you walk into the room in the morning you barely notice it's there because it's simply what you expected. Then one morning you wake up and walk up to your computer – something is wrong. You can't tell what it is at first but your subconscious is busy trying to get your attention. Then you finally notice, "Hey, my mug isn't where I left it!" It seems like a sudden realization even though part of you noticed right away and knew what was wrong all along.So what does your misplaced coffee mug have to do with relationships? It is simply this: your brain is always predicting the future of your current relationship based on its similarities to your past relationships. Since they didn't work out you brain is always offering up predictions of why this one isn't going to work out

Part One
ok so no one will ever understand women and no one will ever understand men. ok cool we get it but check this out.. guys if this has happen to you leave a comment about it and ladies if you can answer this please pleasse do.... i always thought that women liked assholes. but its more then that..see I am an asshole but in a different way.. i wouldnt be an asshole to a lady i liked or I was with. I wouldnt be mean to her for no reason and I deff wouldnt ever hit her. but what the thing is that most women are attracted to bad ass guys or buff guys with hot bodies that feel they never need to wear a shirt. and most of those guys end up being the one that is mean to them all the time or hit them or cheat on them. I dont get it. when are the women in the world gonna change the reasons they pick a guy. no i dont have a buff body and yea i wear a shirt and yea i dont look that bad ass, but I can make you laugh no matter how shitty your day is, I am the most romantic guy you will ever meet, I w

Mini's
The words pour out but not from my lips for the are spoken from my heart and spoken form my soul Many years I wandered lost all thanks to you I have finally been found and now walk with a completed soul You are all I want and all that I need when I am near you Love is all I feel Why must my heart be shrouded in fear afraid to hear the words I long to say unable to muster the courage to speak so I shall hold my tongue let things be Unknowing of the truth of feelings shared forbidden happiness, loss of what is the risk is great, loss greater to fail is to lose, alone to keep silent the same Truth in the eyes and words never spoken knowing what is what could be fear holding back the words heart afraid to feel happiness and sadness loneliness becomes me. As I look into those eyes, I see the purest of souls. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but as I set my eyes upon your sweet face I see true beauty in its purest form defined. When you smile it

What Does Love Mean?
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."Rebecca- age 8"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."Billy - age 4"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."Karl - age 5"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."Chrissy - age 6"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."Terri - age 4"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."Danny -

No Light
I wonder down an empty street with no light. Thier are no dogs barking, children laughing or people wondering down the streets. Chaos erupted and death set in. The sun is gone and like a blanket covering a scared child darkness set in. I walk down the street still searching for life but I know my efforts are in vain. I set down on the curb and look around me pulling back the sheets of darkness in my mind but all I can see is death and famine. I hear a loud scream and open my eyes and begin to look around but soon realize it is just the wind. I stand up and start twords an empty building in the distance. As I walk and listen to the winds torment, I begin to wonder if I am being punished for something I have or haven't done. I think about my family and my friends and wonder if they are alright. I approach the building with a blank look on my face looking up at its hiegth wondering if anyone could be inside. I walk up to the door but the door sis locked. I walk back out into the dark stre

Memorial Day
As we fire up the grill to day let's please remember why we have our freedom today and take a moment of silent prayer for all the solders who have made the ultimate sacrifice for their country, also say a prayer for those who are in harms way now fighting for those same rights and don't forget our allies in this war for they are just as important. If you would please look at the web site http://www.honorflight.org , Please help these fine folks out any way you can. If you have served in the armed forces or are serving now please let me say Thank You for your service and I would also like to say Thank You to all of our Allied forces for helping in our endevorse to make the world a safer place, and please pray for all the troops and leaders of the world that they may make the right choices and truly see the Hand of GOD in the work that they do .

Who Wants A Lifetime Pimpout On My Page?
I am offering a spot on my page for life.. all you have to do is gift me something.. There is a spot for: 5 credit bling pack 10 credit bling pack 25 credit bling pack - u will get a pimpout a day for a week as well 65 credit bling pack - u will get 2 pimpouts a day for a week 135 credit bling pack - u will get 3 pimpouts a day for a week 350 credit bling pack 1 day blast 3 day blast 7 day blast 30 day blast 1 month vip 3 month vip 1 year vip an auto a bomb 50 credit bling your mini will show up on my page and it will stay there forever.. thanks for your time.. :)

Problem People
Why do people have to start stuff in life. Bring it in to fubar and get others involved. If it is home life keap it at home. When u bring people u dont know in to it u make it worris then it is worth. There is alot of great friend ships made on here . So if you have to bring stuff in to fubar dont get others involved.

Lost And Found
Okay it really bugs me when someone calls and says they left something behind in their room. Ugh why can't they pay attention to detail and make sure they have everything before they leave instead of calling and have an attitude with me becuase of their mistake!!!!!!!!!!! GGGGGRRRRRRRRRR.

Michael A. Monsoor
Michael Anthony Monsoor (April 5, 1981 – September 29, 2006) On March 31, 2008, the United States Department of Defense confirmed that Michael Monsoor would posthumously receive the Medal of Honor from the President of the United States, George W. Bush. Bush presented the medal to Monsoor's parents on April 8, 2008. On September 29, 2006, Monsoor's platoon engaged four insurgents in a firefight, killing one and injuring another. Anticipating further attacks, Monsoor, three SEAL snipers and three Iraqi Army soldiers took up a rooftop position. Civilians aiding the insurgents blocked off the streets, and a nearby mosque broadcast a message for people to fight against the Americans and the Iraqi soldiers. Monsoor was protecting other SEALs, two of whom were 15 feet away from him. Monsoor's position made him the only SEAL on the rooftop with quick access to an escape route. A grenade was thrown onto the rooftop by an insurgent on the street below. The grenade hit Monsoor in the che

Faded Glory...
I've burned my share of bridges Gained more habits than I've kicked All these things I consider each and every day I sit alone and make my plans to leave I'll take what pain I can when I go I've hammered my shame deep into you I'm losing my will to carry this load My solution is my new resolution Every rejection a waste All I have is my pain I'm giving up I can't do this alone My grip is failing I am lost here in the dark I am nobody in my mind Losing more and more each day I'll just sit here and fade away

This Is Not A Love Song...
i am who i am... im not your barbie im not your plaything. i wont apologize for a god damn thing i do or say. im not going to lose weight because you like anorexic bitches to make your dick look bigger. im not going to gain a hundred pounds because you like being called a chubby chaser. i color my hair,work out,tan and fix myself up for me..not anyone else. if i dont want to get dressed up or wear matching clothes some days..get over it. i smoke i drink i eat sugar and drink way too many energy drinks..deal with it. we are all going to die so i dont need your lectures. i say fuck,pussy and other taboo words all the fucking god damn time..yeah i swear like a sailor,that doesn't make me less of a lady. its words. just words.. there are more non swear words that do more damage than throwing a few 'go fuck yourself's' i am very sensitive and emotional. i love hard and give until it hurts and lemme tell ya..ive been hurt alot. i have trusted few and been burned..so i trust less as each

Love Sucks
1. First, the expression most commonly used with love is "falling in love." There is no better word to describe it. It is indeed "falling" in love, and that's what sucks about it. You are tricked into it like an addictive gambling game, and then you are tripped, and you fall, and you keep falling in a seemingly endless spiral. And, like everything that falls, you eventually hit a bottom, and it will be hard and painful. Falling in love only gives you an incurable ache when you reach the end. 2. Second, love is blind. You will walk into love without seeing it, and you will follow love without noticing it. It will dictate your life, and you will not know it until the blindfold is gone, and you love no more. Only then will you realize what kind of sheep you had been while under the spell of love.

Story Of The Coin.
When I was in combat, because of my specialty, the airmen that that were like me, carried in their pocket their last bullet. This bullet was not for the enemy, if you know what I mean. Capture is not an option, when national security is at question. Although the government will deny the policy, we knew what was expected. I carried a 45 round in my pocket for 17 months for the cause, but after that it was a good luck item for all of us that made it out. The service found out that I carried a live round in my pocket for good luck and they decided that that wasn't a good idea. So, I was given an Air Force coin to replace the 45 bullet. Wasn't the same, so I started the Eisenhower dollar transfer program, (EDTP) for those know get a coin. These coins have successfully been passed on for every campaign, since it conception, in 1976. The last I passed on, went with the HMM-163 (REIN) group to IRAQ, everyone in the group made it back. They called themselves the RidgeRunners. If you except thi

Kinky Rain~
Her flesh was hot from her Master's touch the cool mist from the rain wetting her naked created steam which she breathed in with every intake of breath. she was lost, she was lost in a place outside her mind and body floating in a place her Master made safe for her. Her desires were His today and that made all He would do, perfect.His hand wrapped tightly in her hair His fingers gripping strongly limiting her mobility making it easy to guide her exactly as He wished. Being taken from her chair where she was quietly reading by the hair so suddenly awakened every inch of flesh, there was no fear for she knew her Master's touch. she had settled in to her quiet place having tasted her Master's cum that morning, she felt content even though she as always, anticipated His need for her again. The tugging of her hair set her mind into motion, it was then she began to flyi could barely stay on my feet and keep with His pace. Already i could feel the wetness licking at my thighs. Master had been

How To Get Hired~
Leticia had found the firm right out of law school.The firm's strategy was simple. Focus on governments where corruption is most rampant and the most dollars are at stake. Hire smart, capable and super hot women who were prepared to whore themselves out for money and power.At the top of the game the money was huge, the power was huge and the demands were huge. So they had to be women who liked the work too. Who could reconcile their abilities with their whorish desires.Leticia had been identified at the age of sixteen. The firm had waited patiently, as they do for all of their prospects.....and provided a nudge if possible and required. None was required for her. She excelled in all fields academic, athletic and womanly. By the time she was seventeen she was a modestly petite, curvy 36D Latina who could make grown men bend to her will with a smile on their face. And by the time she was seventeen it was clear she wanted them around and knew how to get what she wanted....a cock tease get

Dr. Called Today..
6-8 hour surgery...has me concerned..also found nodule under a centimeter in lung....many risks but under 3-5 percent....am letting God take over at this point...and nothing is coincidental...whats to b will b....i hope and pray for the best..

Stop The Hate
Ok, so here is the thing, I can't stand hateful people no matter who they are. Have you ever gone some where and just said HI to someone only to have them turn up their nose at you. I can't stand this, who are you to judge me when you don't even know my name. Who are you to think that you don't bleed the same color as me when you are cut. Why would anyone think of themselves in this manner? I just don't understand it, the way people do this to others. No one is better than me and I don't think I am better than anyone else. Thank You All, Bridget

Leaving Yesterday Behind....
i found myself deleting some of my previous entries in my file "diary".. those that reminded me of past pain.. i'm starting on a new page.. i want to start clean.. leaving all the baggage behind.. i learned that there's no use in keeping old pain behind and hanging on.. 'coz by keeping it, you're only nurturing it and torturing yourself.. and by that, you're only allowing yourself to be hurt and being taken for granted over and over again.. that phase is over.. they say, allow yourself to wallow in your sorrow.. cry.. hurt.. but just for a while.. then, start over again.. this time.. bear in mind the lessons learned.. that's something i know i can't do .. completely, that is..i cant help but feel guilty sometimes.. for keeping everything to myself.. for not telling anyone how i feel.. i'm keeping myself caged.. not because i want to do so.. nor do i want to hurt those very people i value so much.. but there are just things that i know would be very hard to understand.. even i myself

Give Me A Reason To Celebrate
Welcome to earth, welcome to FUBAR, and for those who are non-U.S. welcome to America...the U-S-of F'n A. We like celebrating small, minuscule reasons and when the day comes we sometimes celebrate without even recognizing WHAT we are celebrating or consideration for the views of as a whole. Take today, May 25th 2009...Memorial Day for us Americans. This holiday is supposed to recognize our military and especially our fallen. For the record, I do not bleed red, white, and blue...but I greatly respect our military deeply especially those who are fallen and those who are serving simply because politics has a plan for everything but how to bring our brothers and sisters in arms home. For many of you who are celebrating, you are probably going to go to some parade or some festival that is going to barely recognize our military period. Even fewer of you are truly going to dedicate yourself to paying tribute by visiting a memorial. But that is just an example. Let me give you more exam

Why Does It Matter
wonder why it matters what makes me tick aspire for the unknown aspire for she how does it matter if i am left behind the race was never mine the race was never mine how does it matter if she will look away why can i not be happy in the her looking away !! how does it matter if she has set me aside one look at the mirror and the race was never mine... the colour is skin deep the dept of difference unpenetrable wake up to the real world wake up, this is how it will be....

Members (plaid Mafia)
Check Out Plaid Mafia: http://www.fubar.com/blog/296492/1025579 Lounge: http://www.fubar.com/lounge/67141 Josh[myself] (Founder) http://fubar.com/jboogie23 Lauren (Co Founder)http://fubar.com/laurenelizabeth DragonFairy (Manger of Members)http://fubar.com/bisexualwiccan Go to members page just by clicking on their name

When You Loose The Best Thing
we said we would make it this time when things got rough i lost my mind for a bit and hurt you more then i relized now i have lost the love you said you had for me so now im so empty inside i just miss the love we shared with each other everyone keep telling me that we wouldnt make it but you said yes we would i belived it and i always thought you would be there as my love but your not so i walk around as a zombie heartles and souless i lost my reason for living and that was your love

Funny Medical Advice
Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... Don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap. Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables? A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables.. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products. Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio? A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc. Q:

What Happens When You Take The Red And The Blue?
maybe im crazy. maybe im insane. either way..ive caught something of reality via this contraption. my mental state has succeeded from my everyday union of misfiring and downers inside my head. opened up to an entirely new world that i never thought i would have been so easily pulled in to. not pulled...no. whats the word?!... exposed to! thats it. never did i think that my reality would be shaken to the core like this. sure...maybe im just nuts. very possible. but me being nuts is why im writing this. it is why im continuing to think what im thinking. and who im thinking about. i didnt plan on anything like this. and who knows if its even going to become a tangable and real life thing. but it already has begun. and i cant stop it. i can try. sure. that would just be giving up because of uncertainty. and im sure as hell not in the mood to give up on anything real again. thats just me though.

Enchanted Forest Consumation
EvanescenceLithium Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com Once upon a time, 72 hours ago - my day went like this: I picked up my pet rat, Em, who was born blind - though when I saved her from being snake food I thought her erratic head tilting and dashing hither and thither was because of her extraordinary intelligence. Reality soon set in and I took in the quirky little stories that her behaviors generated in my mind. Her house was either two steps away, or about 10 miles away, and it just always depended on whether she would accidentally stumble into the entrance on first try, or go on a mad, blind, dash around and around and around her cage until she would then stumble into the hut entrance. She ate two out of three litters of babies. Nature is a bitch, and would have done away with a blind rat before she ever would have caught the nose of a male rat

Only One Word!!
You Can Only Type ONE Word.It's really hard to only use one-word answers!1. Where is your cell phone? purse2. Your significant other? Bed3. Your hair? Blonde4. Your mother? Virginia5. Your father? Deceased6. Your favorite thing? laughter7. Your dream last night? Romance8. Your favorite drink? Coke9. Your dream/goal? Love10. The room you're in? Bedroom11. Music? on12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Love14. Where were you last night? Bedroom15. What you're not? painfree16. Muffins? Blueberry17. One of your wish list items? Money!!18. Where you grew up? Virginia19. The last thing you did? fubar20. What are you wearing? Nothing21. TV? off22. Your pets? Dog23. Your computer? Toshiba24. Your life? Boring25. Your mood? Great26. Missing someone? Yes27. Favorite Store? Walmart30. Your summer? HOT31. Like someone? naturally32. Your favorite color? Green33. When is the last time you laughed? 5-26-0934. Last time you cried? You Can Only Type ONE Word.Not as easy as you might think.Now copy an

Remember
WHEN I LOOK AT THIS DAY, AS A SOLDIER I SAY, THANK YOU TO THE PEOPLE WHO SUPPORT US BUT THE THANKS NEEDS TO GO TO THE ONES WHO FOUGHT FOR US, THE ONES THAT GAVE US THE FREEDOM TO DO WHAT WE LIKE THE ONES WHO GAVE US THE LIBERTY TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT THE ONES WHO SHED THERE BLOOD AND LOST THIER LIFE THE ONES WHO LEFT BEHIND THIER KIDS AND WIFE THE ONES WHO WILL NEVER SEE THIER KIDS GROW UP THE ONES THAT SACRIFCED IT ALL, THE ONES ONE NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT IT AT ALL SO ON THIS DAY WE THANK THEM FOR WHAT THEY DONE BUT JUST REMEMBER IF NOT FOR THEM YOU MAY NOT BE ALLOWED TO HAVE FUN ON THIS DAY WE HONOR OUR FALLEN WITH TRIBUTES, BANNERS, AND PARADES, BUT ALL THEY WOULD ASK FOR I'M SURE IS JUST REMEMBER WHAT THEY FOUGHT FOR THEY FOUGHT FOR YOU AND FOR ME, THEY FORUGHT FOR THIS LAND SO IT WOULD REMAIN FREE THEY FOUGHT FOR THE FLAG WE ALL SO LOVE FLY WAY HIGH UP IN THE SKY AND IF IT WERE NOT FOR THOSE WHO GAVE THIER LIFE, WE MIGHT NOT HAVE THE COUNTRY WHERE IN AND ALL I KNOW IS THA

Just A Note
when a person feels they have been scorned they say and do some very hurtful and lasting things. things that can ruin a perfect relationship yes I know to err is human to forgive devine but forgetting is hard to do so just a word to the wise if you are hurt by somone you care deeply for take time to sit back and focus on what was said and done dont be so quick to say some thing you will regret (voice of experiance ) please for your sake and the sake of your loved one reflect on all the good and wait 24 hrs before you say or do any thing in rebutle a friend should never ever hurt another friend in any way thank you for letting me share

Things Are Changing
And hopefully it is for the better....We will see...Patience...temperance...timing...Going to have to wait it out and see...Will and Paul are looking for Ricki so they can rediscuss a three bedroom together. The boys went and looked at 2 and 3 bedrooms here in the complex today. Honestly, I am so ready for them to give me some space that I am being totally supportive...But I don't think Will realizes how much his life is really going to change...no more using my car...no more waking up and going to bed together...meals by invite only...and surprisingly, me finding other ways to spend my time rather then just hanging out here with him...Afterall, I won't have 2 fucking boys to add to my costs!!No more free ride...even if we aren't breaking up...from now he can feel what it is like to struggle again...I think he's forgotten...I will bet he's back living here in six months or less.oh and if you all think this isn't breaking my damn heart, well, then you don't fucking know me at all...M [s

A Couple Of My Poems
you have my heartyou have my soulyou are so deepi cant breath sometimesyoure in mindand all i findis an emptyness i cant replacewhen ur gonei miss you so muchim independant but losthow can one man own me so completely ------------------------------------------- im so in lovenever thought i would bedidnt know i knew howyou feel me with a needand wowi want to touch youfeel you next to mea touch that burns my soula look that says your minetatooed on my heart for all timei dont want anyone elsenoone else comparesyou make me meltwith just a wordi have never felt this way beforei could get lost in you--------------------------------------------- When all others let you downI'll be there without a soundI'll be there to show you the wayTo a brighter and better dayA shoulder you can lean onWhen you think all hope is goneYou're very special I hope you knowYou have my love, my heart, and my soul

Red Flowers
I sat and stared Wondering where Are the people that care But no one was there I approached this seed And watched it bleed And beg and plead It's love I need I take her blade Her eyes portrayed She was glad I stayed A connection was made Her blade I sipped And purposely split My heart and sit Blood rushes to my lip Alone like this We shared a kiss Hard not to miss This infinite bliss Heavenly fumes Her body exhumes The seed now blooms Through layers of runes She glows bright red Lifts her head Love came ahead Without a word said

Till Then
Let me roost upon the feathery grass, Lie prone among the flowers And while away the beautiful day, Feeling your love for hours. Let fairies purvey your Angelic kissesAnd arrange them on my cheek, Let all thoughts of wondrous moments Into my daydreams sneak. Let the arms of nature embrace usProtect from Winters chill.Release from us our burdens, Let life and time stand still. Let me bask in rays of sunshine And feel the morning dew. Let me lay among the flowers Till I can be with you

My Thoughts On Barack Obama And The People Who Bash Him
A lot of you are bashing on Barack Obama because he has not brought "change" to America like he had promised in his campaign. What you all need to understand is this.....George W. Bush made a lot of mistakes and bad decisions that really messed up the United States during his 8 years in office. Obama has only been in office for 5 months and you expect all of that to be undone right away? How delusional are you? Nothing happens overnight, not even "overnight" mail. So many of you are calling him the worst president ever when he really has not even done that much yet. Not trying to start any arguments, though I am very sure that a few will start up, but I truly believe in my heart that most of you only bash on him because he is African-American and you hate the idea of having an African-American president. Now I am not calling any of you racist, I am just sharing my thoughts on the situation. If John Kerry had been elected and his first 5 months were the same as Obama's, would you be bas

Room
This cold room just seems to get bigger or is it me shrinking in the center Since you went away, to where i couldn't follow. I smile and laugh, but still feel hollow. I am just holding on, waiting for you to come home. Home to this little cold room, you can make it warm again. Your things are scattered around the place Your voice on the phone saying You are not alone in being alone The photos i have of you never seem enough Every word written in text, every word spoken on the phone. It won't ever be enough. Only when i can be held in your arms again, to fall asleep beside you, to wake up cradled in those same, loving, warm, gentle arms. To feel your breath on the back of my neck, the thought sends shivers down my spine. To have your eyes look at me, those beautiful brown eyes, like there was nothing else on this earth Just you and me.

My Dreams
You have been in my thoughts constantly. All that my mind wonders is, when I will see your face again. Hold you in my arms...feel your arms around me squeezing me until I melt. Your kisses are like a match striking my soul. My knees get weak and my body wants you NOW! Self-control is all that kept me from making love to you for hours. My body wants it...you made me want you. My body yearned for your hardness... all I could do is think of you enter me... hittin' it just right. Letting me ride you like the stallion you are. With your body on top of mine... you hit my love spot until we both explode all over each other. We quiver with unbelievable passion as we try to catch our breath. We can feel each other's essence as we gaze into forever... Will this dream ever be real? Or just in my dreams? Original piece by BlaqueKat Copyright 2003

" Life "
Life It Gets Harder As You Grow, You'll Lose Friends, Family, And More Than You'll Ever Know. Time Will Fly By And It'll Keep Getting Faster, And In One Day, Turn From Perfect To A Complete Disaster. Things Will Continue To Happen As Unexpected As The Rain, And The Thing That Brings You Joy Will Be The Same Thing That Causes You Pain. Your Children Will Advance From Crawling To Reading Books, And Then Thier 18 Before You Can Take A Second Look. The One You Use To Love Swore They'll Never Break Your Heart, In The End Not Only Breaks It, But Tears It Apart. But If It Wasn't For The Things That Make You Frown, Then The Happiness Would Never Keep Your Feet On The Ground. So Keep Life Precious For There Is No Second Ride, So To Have A Good Life Or A Bad Life? Well That's For You To Decide.

Soooo...
I just signed up here, and am learning all the fun stuff to do. I've made several friends, one enemy, and gotten shitfaced quite a few times! Woo! I'm sitting here dirnking beer and trying to figure out the best way to make points without reading the help files. Yes, I am one of those people that throws the instructions away with the box just to see if I can put it together. lol Wish me luck!

Best Friends?
Ok, now I know I'm not a perfect person however there have been some things going on lately that have really been pissing me off.. So someone in your life calls themselves your "best friend"... ok what do you expect outta that person? I expect unconditional and unjudgemental love. That's what I put out there to all my friends and I stupidly expect it back. Now, my best friend as of late has not been acting like one. One of our good friends from HS is wayyy into me and when he didn't get what he wanted, he made a fake account on here and started spying on me. When I let him know that we weren't going to be an option (seeing as how I HAVE A MAN!!!!!) My best friend has slowly but surely taken his side. Over Memorial Day weekend when I was out of town, She went out to the bar with him and to his house the next night for a bonfire. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they shouldn't be friends but seriously??? When I have backed up every stupid thing you've ever done... at least give me

She Scores!!!!
Goal accomplished. I have laid on the floor of my dining room, pressing my nose to the glass so that I could exchange glances with the raccoons that come to eat the treats I put out for them and whatever critters want them, for at least two weeks. I started talking to them a week ago. They got used to the sound of my voice, the look of my face, and the treats on the porch. I really wanted to feed one a shelled nut out of my hand. YES!!! I just did it!!! I slid open the glass door fractionally, while the two raccoons growled at each other. Apparently there is some raccoon hierarchy for feeding that has to be kept to - only one raccoon on a step at a time. While they were busy keeping each other on the proper steps, I got the door open enough for two fingers to slide out. The raccoon on the top step turned back, and I rolled a peanut out the door. He took it. I rolled another one. He took it. The next one I held in my fingertips and he took it! My fingertip touched his cute little nose.

Love Is
Love Is knowing how lucky you are becasue you dont deserve them its doing everything in your power to make someone as happy as they make you its having nothin so you can give them everything Love is carrying the wieght of the world upon your shoulders becasue with out them you would have no world

Alone
Heart beating in my chest, Pain rising from deep within, I push myself to do my best, But i ask myself, why this again?? The darkness clouds my hopes and dreams, Sometimes I'm all alone, as it seems, With only my crumbling heart pushing to thrive, Forcing my mind beyond truth, making me feel alive. Nothing is impossible, I am the source of my answer, And for some reason it still haunts me like a cancer, Disappearing, only to return again, worse than before, I feel myself slipping away, ever so slowly, The thoughts rip through my mind, reopening an old sore, Crushed and in doubt, i drift away, calmly. Listeing to my heart beat fade in the distance silence, Thump thump... thump.. thump...... thump.... With the silence fulfilled, ears deafened completely, The darkness surrounds my, consuming me entirely, Loneliness befriends my soul, hiding my deeper in the abyss, Looking up, I see no more happiness, Only the pain that pushed me over the edge, How i wish my f

Spreading Love Effortlessly
Kindness In the quest to create a gentler, more loving world, kindness is the easiest tool we can use. Though it is easy to overlook opportunities to be kind, our lives are replete with situations in which we can be helpful, considerate, thoughtful, and friendly to loved ones and associates, as well as strangers. The touching, selfless acts of kindness that have the most profoundly uplifting effects are often the simplest: a word of praise, a gentle touch, a helping hand, a gesture of courtesy, or a smile. Such small kindnesses represent an unconditional, unrestricted form of love that we are free to give or withhold at will. When you give the gift of kindness, whether in the form of assistance, concern, or friendliness, your actions create a beacon of happiness and hope that warms people’s hearts. The components of kindness are compassion, respect, and generosity. Put simply, kindness is the conscious act of engaging others in a positive way without asking whether those ind

Somethin I Wrote #3
Voices screaming in my head Every day and every night telling me to end it all Run away from all the pain and suffering Leave all the anguish and torment behind What reasn do I have to stay I ask Why should I not end it right now And all I need is one reason A reflection of myself in the mirror A reminder of a time already passed A soul that needs protected A life that has so many possibilities He needs to be shown the correct path through my mistakes He needs his Dad The greatest reason to make my miserable existence bearable is through the greatest creation A child

Just A Few Random Wtf's For You
A few WTF's for you Okay...a lot of you know I am one of the most random people you will ever meet. I say the dumbest things, and I have a very strange thought process indeed. Sometimes I pay attention to things a little too closely.For example. I am sure that my most dedicated of readers remember when I posted the blog about the woman, in a commercial, cascading across a pool and party decorations for a $7.00 bottle of wine. She claimed it was because it "is delicious." However, I saw a problem with that. I believed that could have been a silent cry for help. You know she has got to be an alcoholic to go through such great lengths for a drink. I mean, the commercial showed her in a dead sleep on a lawn chair. As soon as she heard alcohol was involved...BANG...she went all Chuck and began gliding across some paper lanterns. Everyone laughed it off at the party. I, myself, being so caring, would have called an immediate intervention. And we can't forget about the ridiculous commer

Top 10 Punk Records Of All Time [according To Mary.mayhem]
Top 10 Punk Rawk Records Of All Time!! 10. SOCIAL DISTORTION “Mommy’s Little Monster” – Kind of early in the list for this one huh? Yeah, well just you wait. Social Distortion is the most amazing Punk / Rock-a-Billy bands ever. This record shows their raw talent as well as the amazing lyrical and vocal capabilities of Mike Ness. Amazing record! Best Tracks: The Creeps, Another State Of Mind, Mommy’s Little Monster, Anti-Fashion 9. THE CLASH “London Calling” – Now if Social Distortion was too early in the ranking at 10 The Clash are insanely low at 9, but that’s how it goes. However, most people say that “The Clash” is the best record by The Clash, but I do have to say I enjoy this one much more. The Clash’s blues influenced punk has brought so much to the world. One of the most influential punk bands ever known the world lost something amazing the day Joe Strummer went away. Best Tracks: London Calling, Brand New

What Would You Bring?
Hmm.. So, imagine you're stranded on an Island. You are granted the ability to have 3 items (for say at least, 3 years). There are no phone towers on the island, so cell phones will have no signal. No need to worry about water, because there is a fairly clear stream near you, and plenty of animals on the island for food (if vegan there are multiple plant sources, and lots of arable soil). No matter the kind of boat you ask for the current of the water will always pull you back to the island, and of course there is no electricity. What do ask for?

One More For Today Also Written By Me :)
Choices Good or bad we are forced to make choices everyday Mostly minor some major But why we make some of the choices we do is the true question Do we make our choices based on necessaity or because of our moral compass In actuality it is both Necessaity for survival, morality for our own peace of mind What if there is no higher power What if there is no god or goddess Would we make any moral choices at all What if we were left alone to our own election of right and wrong Would there even be a right or wrong Unfortuately I do not believe there would be. Without the belief of eternal damnation The desire for our soul to rest in peace Civil disobedience would engulf this little planet and there would be nothing left Out of chaos comes order when the right CHOICES are made.

Who Wants A 100k & A Bling ?
Trying to level ad could usesome help. I will have Auto 11's on for the next 2 days tll Friday 9:40am Eastern time. I am offering 100k and a Bling for all of my pics rated. Just comment the last pic in each folder, so i can keep track. And private message me when you are done rateing all pics so you can receve payment. Thank You, Steve