Fubar Blog Posts 4

My Poem24
I've often think of the question you've asked me. Why do I love you?…here goes sweetie. It's the beauty of your smile, it's everything that you do. For I see happiness when I look at you. The way you dance, your silly wink, The way you laugh, or simply how you blink. The love I feel when you hold me tight. A love to keep me warm through the coldest of nights. How you make me feel, how you open up my heart. All the hopes that you bring right from the start. How your tender kisses can put me in a daze. I love you baby in each and every way. How you lift me up, how you gave me flight, Forever is what I see when I look into your eyes. My heart beats to a new rhythm, a rhythm of love. All because of you my angel sent from above. You're my ray of light on those dark, gloomy days. You are the answer to all of my prayers. I can continue with my reasons, my list is endless. For I love you more and more as each day progresses. So why do I love you?…let me tell you why.. Beca

My Poem27
You tell me you love me, Then you take it back, What the hell is up with that, What's all this suppose to mean, Wasnt it all it was suppose to be, Did I piss you off and make you mad, Im so confused you got my whole life off track, Everyday I think about what I did wrong, Yesterday I heard our song, How it talks about love so true, Baby~I miss you~Boo, I want you back so bad, I miss the love we use to have, I miss the way you Hold me in your arms, The way you'd keep me safe from any harm, You use to say I was the only one I wanted in your life, I can't deal with all this pain, This strife I am waiting for you to come back and wipe my tears away, To come back and tell me your here to stay!

My Poem 29
How much I love you? More than the birds in the sky, More than the fishes in the sea. I Just love you, No matter what you do, No matter whats going to happen. I just love you, I just love the way when smile, it makes me feel so weak I just love the way you look at me, It makes me feel so warm. I just love you I just need you, Its not a matter for me to walk through my tough road if i have you. I need you, I Love you. I just love you

We Are All In The Gutter, But Some Of Us Are Looking At The Stars
I believe everyone has a little good in them, even if it's hard to find. We all have a fire within us which burns endlessly. People tend to put a barrier up because they have been hurt before or had certain things happen in their life. So this blog is about people, discrimination and hope. I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge.I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts - that hope always triumphs over experience-that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death. Why do people need to find something wrong with someone? Why is it that people need to pick each other appart? Are we really that bored? No one on this planet is perfect. Race, Weight, eye color, Hair and anything else you can think of. That's all bullcrap. People should treat each other with respect & dignity. I'm tired of living in a society that's based around "I", "Me" and people who run around stating " I don't care it doesn't effect me". Am I really that di

Hh Today! Autos Activated!
Whooohooo!! Happy Hour today at 2PM Fu Time. Be sure to check me out and hit me hard. I return love!! Be sure to have your friends hit me hard. I'd like to reach at least Godmother!! Thanks in advance to all of my wonderful friends and family who help make this possible!! Much love!

A Little More. . .
the blog about me being cheated on is just the way i feel and have been treated in relationships for the last 5-7 years. . . and asking me to show you my boobs isn't going to help me feel any better. . .

Isn't It Funny. . .
some ppl say you're really important to them... yet you are really low on their fam list... hmm funny... when someone is important to me they are higher up on my family and my friends list... guess i'm just weird...

Tag, You're It ...
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I speak two languages but struggle with grammar. 2. I don't fear death but fear not living. 3. I love everyone, but hate what some people do. 4. I sometimes laugh hardest when I really feel like crying. 5. I have been a mother to many children but have none of my own. 6. Sometimes I laugh so hard I almost pee, and that makes me laugh harder. 7. I love to people watch but hate feeling like I am being watched. 8. I was in Military Intelligence, but sometimes think that is an Oxymoron. 9. I sometimes feel the most alone when the room is full of people. 10. I found Youth and Life by falling in love

Tag .... You're It!
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I never expected to really start a real relationship on Fubar. 2. I’ve lived in Colorado 15 years, but will always consider myself a Californian. 3. I grew up in the orchards that became known as Silicon Valley. 4. My passions in order are Lou, my kids, skiing, cooking and sailing. 5. I am young for my age in heart and soul. 6. I believe this keeps you looking younger 7. I am an observer of people. 8. I have skied longer than most people on Fu have lived. 9. People say I take good photographs, but I really would rather take the pictures than be in them. 10. I find refuge in th

Games
I cant understand why guys have to lie. Especially if youre not dating them. I have not made any action indicating that I want more than just friendship, so WTF? Why do you have to lie?I am so tired of playing games. When people ask why Im single, Im not quite sure how to respond. Im single cause the guys I meet are jerks and liars. And women appear just as bad. I cant win either way. And what pisses me off is Im pushed aside because I dont portray myself as a slut on here. And these guys all go to the same girl on here that does. So, if someone is actually paying attention to my page, they will know why Im single and plan on staying that way until someone comes along that doesnt lie and doesnt play games. Oh, and doest think that they say all these "pretty" words to me will get them laid. And that might be a very long time at this point. Am I aggravated? Definitely. I have not lied to anyone, and yet they cant do the same in return. Maybe I should say screw it all and become a nun.

I Need To Let This Out...
for those who don't know this.. my grandma passed away on christmas day.. and i have had a really hard time letting it go.. i don't want to let her go i want to hold on to her forever... how do u get better from this? i was fine until this past saturday i was at work and i felt this presence on my right i thought a good friend of mine that had passed which i just found out he's still around.. i thought it was him... then i start to think... my family is in texas.. she would of visted me last because i'm in florida... i need to get this out because i don't need it to build up.. someone help me and tell me what to do cuz i have no idea anymore

Wanna Meet Chrome???
If you would like to meet the legendary CHROME come out and see us on April 18, 2009. Details below... Start Date: 4/18/2009 End Date: 4/18/2009 Location: Old Houston Ice House Address: 19285 Old Houston Road (Old Houston Rd and FM 1314 City/State/Zip: Porter, TX 77365 Sponsor: San Jacinto High Rollers Montgomery Country Chapter Website: http://www.geocities.com/mcsjhrevents/mcsjhrevents E-mail: txchromensteel4u@yahoo.com Description: Come help us support The Teen Challenge of South Texas our local charity. We will have 7 bands, raffles, auctions, games, food, vendors, and a SEXY SCHOOLGIRL Conttest. Tickets are on sale at the bar or any Montgomery County High Roller. Tickets are only $5.00. It will be a hardcore party to remember. I have pre-sale raffle tickets on hand. $5.00 each and they also give you admission to the event. There will be lots of prizes on the day of event and you do not have to be present to win. Shoot me a message or email

Me
For everyone that has been asking and waiting to find out what is going on here is a little update.. I went to doctor on friday and he had me get a chest x-ray today.. He believes that I had broken my ribs sometime in the past. Not sure when and I have no idea how.. So I had that done, but the x-ray was also to get a better look at my left breast also.. He found something and wants to see if it is serious or not. A lot of you know I keep having chest pains and he thinks it has something to do with the ribs being cracked or broken.. Also, the biggie is I have to go next month on the 11th to have a mamorgram done. I have a couple relatives that have passed away from cancer and two of them had breast cancer. I am really scared, but i'm trying not to worry too much seeing how it could not be serious. It could just be a cyst and can be removed.. With all this info I got plus Ricky being sick I haven't been on here too much. I will be on again possibly tomorrow.. I hope everyone understands

Have U Ever?
have u ever taken the time to stop and smell a flower?or taken the time to help an elderly person with taking out their trash or something of the kind.have u ever taken the time to really get to know someone,just to call them a friend and not an aquiantence. have u ever taken the time to buy the person in line behind u thier cup of coffee or soda. have u ever taken the time to offer a smile or a friendly handshake just to say hello. have u taken the time to tell someone in the military thank you? well maybe u should take time for things that u so take for granted. and when u see a military member shake their hand,buy their coffee,smile say thank you.because if not for them,you wouldnt have the freedom to take time for anything........

Heheharhar
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I brush my teeth in the shower 2. I hate cooked mushrooms 3. I like to drive around town blasting music 4. I only wear black socks with me new shoes 5. I own 2 Nsync shirts and I wear them proudly 6. My tongue ring hurts 7. I use anti bacterial body wash 8. I' am almost out of toothpaste 9. I could really go for a steak right now 10. Heretic secretly wants me I tagged Nicole, independent_sk8er, Raven, Scrapper and Eric650.

Movie Rules
Special Giveaway I am doing a special giveaway. All you have to do is go to my page. . Click on movies photo album . Rate all photos in the folder . Then chose one photo to claim as yours . Send me fumail with what photo you choose . Leave 50 comments on that photo . You can only choose one photo per account unless they are not all taken and I let you know otherwise . I will let people who want more numbers know each week when the can have them Once all photos have been chosen and all comments are done, I will reveal which pictures have what prizes. I have already posted a private blog with the prizes, and it will not be changed. It will be opened up once the giveaway is over. Here is a list of the prizes that are being given out (1) 10 credit bling (2) 5 credit blings (3) 3 credit blings (4) 1 credit blings (1) 3 day blast (2) 1 day blast (2) ticker credits (5) big pimping gifts (5) 100k (5) 20 11's, 1 custom rock you graphic and a drink (5) big drin

Jealous And Tears
I just found out my grandma is taking my sister to Hawaii. She got 1 free companion ticket and she chose Melissa. My Uncle asked my Grandma how I would feel about that but Grandma said she only gets one ticket and Melissa is it. I hate being born second. I know that Melissa is the oldest and first grandchild but why does it always have to be her. She is first in everything. I want to go to Hawaii. I called my mom and I won't lie I started to cry. I have had a shitty year and now my sister gets to go to Hawaii. The last time I went to Hawaii I got dumped and threatened to throw myself off a building. My mom was like maybe she'll bring you a Hawaiian. I have had a hawaiian and it wasn't that great. I just want to be on the beach and see my Whitney. Im just jealous.

Fenrir
The son of the god of mischief and his giantess bride. Fenrir the wolf is a monstrous creature whose hunger is never ending and grows continuously without end. It is his destiny to one day grow so large that he consumes the sun and moon. At this moment the Twilight of the Gods will have arrived and Ragnarok, the final battle, will begin. Fenrir is one of Loki's three children who collectively represent the flaws in all of mankind. His particular exemplified flaws are those of greed, gluttony, and spite. His gluttony causes him to grow ever larger and more destructive to those around him. The gods insist upon binding him in order to try to prevent him causing harm. It is the same in us all. If we do not practice restraint we may feel good about the immediate results but we are only feeding the desire for more. There is no satiation to be found in that realm and we might only harm ourselves and those around us. His greed causes him to be an abrasion to everyone he come

[marauder's Virtue]
Realization number 1 Biscuits are idiot proof. Realization number 2 I really don't give a fuck anymore. About anything. Cool. So we're clear? I'm tired of being taken advantage of by everyone work, friends, family, strangers, life not saying I'm gonna headbutt over it- but- Muddy Waters has a message for you: I'm here. I'm here for the world. Everybody knows I'm here. I'm tired of being overworked I'm done being passed over I'm over being ignored The world will acknowledge my greatness, or suffer the consequences of a boy and his dog a very big very licky dog. Stop licking daddy while he's speaking dramatically and in anger. I will play with you later. Where was I? Oh right- Burn. Burn until you learn. The time for tribute has passed. The time for pleas is over. Negotiations reasoning I'm taking from here on out. Since asking has gotten me so much in life...

Dinosaur Smiles
I thought this was stupid until I saw some people's answers lol. I'll list mine below. Come on! All the cool kids are doing it! hehe If I was a dinosaur I would be a _________________ I would live _____________________________________ I would eat ______________________________________ My favorite dinosaur thing to do is ______________ When I make noise I ______________________________ My favorite dinosaur song is _____________________ I would drive a dinosaur _________________________ When I was bored I would _________________________ I think the other dinosaurs should________________ Oh what an awesome dinosaur I am!!

Pride Is A Lonely Blanket (when We Speak)
We can't seem to sleep With a heart so over-rested We see stars Long live the start of the moment That lasts when we hold it We can't seem to speak With a tongue So roped...and twisted We are part of the moment That lasts when we hold it When we speak but our words Won't let us say so And we wished we'd let it all show We started falling apart at the heart We will be broken until the end We can't even breathe With lungs So black and deflated Goodbye To all of the moments that die when we forget

Break Your Heart
The bravest thing I've ever done Was to run away and hide But not this time, not this time And the weakest thing I've ever done Was to stay right by your side Just like this time, and every time I couldn't tell you I was happy when you were gone So I lied and said that I missed you when we were apart. I couldn't tell you, so I had to lead you on But I didn't mean to break your heart. And if I always seem distracted Like my mind is somewhere else, That's because it's true Yes it's true it's this stupid pride that makes me feel Like I have to follow through Even half-assedly, loving you Why must I always speak in terms of cowardice? When I guess I should have just come out and told you right from the start Why must I always tell you what I want is this? I guess cause I wouldn't want to break your heart And you said; "What'd you think that I was gonna do, Curl up and die just because of you? I'm not that weak, you know What'd you think that I was gonna do, Tr

1000 Ways 2 Die
Most people always wonder when they're going to die, but do you ever wonder how you're going to die? There are a lot of ways to die, whether it's trying to put a cue ball in your throat and trying to get it back up not knowing that the cue ball is bigger than the other billard balls, or a sword swallower trying to deep throat an umbrella and accidentally opening it while it's in the throat or my favorite, being high on mushrooms and having a hallucination of people dress up as animals for an animal orgy and trying to get frisky with a bear not knowing it's real, and getting mauled by it. I have to warn the females about this one...don't get frisky with a carrot. Anyways, have any of you heard of any strange deaths?

Mardi Gra Beads
OKAY FUBAR PPL. HERE IT IS. IT IS FINALLY MARDI GRA SEASON AND I LOVE MARDI GRAS AND KING CAKES AND BEADS,PARTIES,AND GOOD TIMES. WHEN I GO TO A MARDI GRA PARADE I CANT CATCH BEADS. WHY U ASK? CUZ I AM TOO SHORT,THEY CANT HEAR MY VOICE EVEN WHEN I YELL TO THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. OTHER PPL HAVE TO GIVE ME BEADS FOR ME TO GET THEM, OR I JUST FIND A PAIR THAT ISNT BROKIN SOMEWHERE ON THE GROUND. I SEE THAT THEY MARDI GRA BEADS ON HERE.I AM SAYING THROW ME SOMETHING MISTER. BUT STILL NO ONE HEARS ME.I GUESS I AM STILL TOO SHORT FOR ANYONE TO SEE ME OR HEAR ME.WILL SOMEONE GET ME SOME MARDI GRA BEADS PLZ,PRETTY PLZ. THANK U VERY MUCH, CUDDLEZ

Salutes For You.
I am willing to make a salute for anyone how can do the following: 1. Rate all my default Photos and at least leave 3 Comments. 2. Rate all my "Alittle Naughty" Photos and leave at least 7 comments. 3. If you have not re-rated me re-rate, fan if haven't. If you are not a friend you jmust become a friend first before starting. 4. Go to Adoring Daddy's Home Page. http://fubar.com/user/395725 (Rate/fan/add.) Its that simple!!! This will get you a paper salute if you would like one of my other salute and you may take a look you must: 1. Do all above. 2. Rate all the folders with the following names, Christopher, Chelsey, Austin, Trista, Trever, Kaetlyn. ( There is not alot lof pic in most of these folders). You DO NOT need to leave comments. When rated these folder I will like you to add rated on the last photo of each folder tho. When done please PM me (DO NOT SHOUT ME) and then give me 24 hours to complete. I will also return some of everyone

Club Frat Family Rules
> > > Welcome to ©lûb F®ât *** MAIN RULES*** > > > > > > 1) NO DRAMA WILL BE TOLERATED!We will not put up with any drama from anyone. There will be no exceptions to this rule! > > > > > > 2)No one but management will be allowed to post blogs about leveling. The only ones to post blogs about leveling are Founder, Co-Founder, and Manager. Home Page is http://fubar.com/user/1095216 > > > > > > 3) There will be no entering contest without asking first to make sure we can give you all the support you need.If you do you may be on your own. > > > > > > 4) All newbies will go through Founder Co-Founder or recruiter No exceptions. > > > > > > 5)20,000 level 20 and down > > > 100,000 level 21 and up > > > unless one of the three leaders have it to level in status.Please do not come to us for help with more than that with few pics and stash. We will level during HH only. Any other time is for you to do what you want to do! After leveling please leave a message so we know who help

Tagged? Wtf?
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. college dropout 2. ive killed 3. i love new socks 4. spaghetti is the shiyuuut 5. ive visited 13 countries before the age of 22 6. only owned huskies as dogs 7. i can roll a joint with one hand 8. only been playin drums for about 3 years 9. i dont snore 10. i have a.d.d. if im not high.... heh

Dead Memories
"Dead Memories" Sitting in the dark, I can't forget. Even now, I realize the time I'll never get. Another story of the Bitter Pills of Fate. I can't go back again. I can't go back again... But you asked me to love you and I did. Traded my emotions for a contract to Commit. And when I got away, I only got so far. The Other Me Is Dead. I hear his voice inside my head... We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart. You told me to love you and I did. Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit. So when I got away, I only kept my scars. The Other Me Is Gone. Now I don't know where I belong... We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart. Dead Visions in your Name. Dead Fingers in my Veins. Dead Memories in my Heart Slipknot

Bb In Spring
to all my friends and family ive lost my net as of monday morning.it really sucks and im gonna miss you all alot.im writing this blog from the local library,i will bb online full time when i start working this spring and pay my bills.to those who have my email,stay in touch by writing me and ill get back to you anychance i get.to those who have my phone well even better lol and btw,just cause i aint here dont mean you can stop rating me lol would be nice to be godfather for when i get back much love to you all!! (huggs)

Who Are We
Who are we Who are we to judge others by their faults? Do we not have faults of our own? Who are we to pass judgment on those who have sinned? What defines us as being better then another? We judge others more then we judge ourselves, Because we are afraid of who we are. We wish not to see who we are. Imperfect, sinful, and impure. As we fail to pass judgment upon ourselves, Others shall do it for us. Who are we to determine how someone should live? Who are we to tell others who to be? Who are we to say who should live and who should die? Who are we? We are nothing in this world, Just a drop of water in the ocean.

The Darkness... Written By Me
The Darkness Written By Lance Martelli Once upon a love betrayed, a man stands broken and afraid, for something that cannot be saved, a love that’s now forgotten. A woman rests her unsure heart, for it is being torn apart, by a force that got a raging start, this love that’s now forgotten. He was born a lonely child, with dreams of someday roaming wild, going places always smiled, for this feeling carried with him, and as he grew the days were long, everything had gone so wrong, His hate for love was getting strong, but this feeling still was with him. The life she lived was hard for sure, but something made her push for more, she dreams of love that’s always pure, from within a storybook, she wished for love, romance, and passion, that simply came in lovers fashion, one with no regrets to fathom, she was hanging from a hook. When they met her heart was beating, every word he spoke repeating, never thoughts of once retreating, and of staying there forever, he wished

Tagged By Sweet Tart..
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I have to wear my socks inside out 2. I am gothic at heart 3. my favorite flower is a sunflower 4. I love hello kitty 5. I have to put my clothes on the same way every day 6. I love cartoons, yup Miss horror herself lol 7. I sleep with a butcher knive next to my bed haha 8. I have a bad memory 9. I used to have a pet goat! 10. I am a horrible cook lol Mtl2deth,Restrictive,Unforgiven1,HIS blonde in chains,Breath Fire into me

Door Mat
Crushed spirit tangled mind another day in the life Feeling the knives from those walking up from behind Hate seething from their hearts while approaching with a smile walking all through life nothing more wipe your feet on my heart again as you pass through the door...

Auto 11!!!!over Ty All
CLICK THE CHERRIES OK, I have another AUTO 11 to get rid of! Auto 11 is up for bid from Monday, Feb 24th at 7PM. Futime to FRIDAY Feb 27th at 7PM Futime!! NO Drama & highest bidder gets it, CLICK ANY OF THE CHERRIES & Good Luck :)) CLICK THE CHERRIES THANX, THE HOST ~Bratt~ ¢¾~BRATT~¢¾Fu Married to *TJATTHEROCK*&FuOwned by*BIGDADDY4LIFE*&FuOwned by~BigDaddySpa@ fubar

This Is The Staff Updated
THIS IS THE STAFF FOR BUMP~N~GRIND THIS IS THE OWNER CHERRYBOMB ~CHERRYBOMB¢â~OWNER OF BUMP~N~ GRIND~@ fubar THIS IS THE LOUNGE MGR/DJ MGR DJ MRS.CUTIE MRS.CUTIE LOUNGE MGR/DJ MGR@BUMP~N~GRIND@ fubar THIS IS ASST.DJ MRG DJ AYANGIST DJ Ayangist ASST.DJ MGR@ Bump-N-Grind@ fubar ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THIS IS THE DJS FOR BUMP~N~GRIND THIS IS DJ FABULAUS ♫ÐĴ FäßŨ£ðŨ§@ BUMP~N~GRIND@ fubar THIS IS DJ GIZMO DJ GIZMO @BUMP~N~GRIND@ fubar THIS IS DJ LUDA DJ LUDA@BUMP~N~ GRIND@ fubar THIS IS DJ PHAT DJ PhaT@ BUMP~N~ GRIND@ fubar ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THIS IS THE SECURITY FOR BUMP~N~GRIND

~cravings~ (7/27/08)
for all my dreams to come true i need to feel you deep within my heart and soul...touch me, hold me and make me believe you only have eyes for me...and, for that moment ill believe you truly love me and that we were ment to be...for a chance to pretend your only mine for that moment i would give the rest of my life...so for that moment let me pretend so i can dream the dream i hope will never end...i dont need you forever just for now so please just give me that and somehow when its done i will find a way to walk away and give you the space from me you so crave...

Wheels Within Wheels
Wheels Within Wheels (experimental Sestina/Pantum/Choka hybrid) Enter the Circle At the point it never ends, The Eternal Wheel In restless, constant motion. Feel it’s gentle pull As it slowly starts to spin, Unwind and reveal And wrapping itself around Inside itself full. Tightly, tightly it rotates In ways so surreal. Spiraling in tight control, Spiraling out of control, No control. The Eternal Wheel, A symbol of such control. It’s an illusion That begins and never ends. Unwind and reveal The nature of its motion. A revolution, Designed to make your head spin In ways so surreal That you turn yourself around In a delusion. Tightly, tightly it rotates, Oh, so tightly it rotates, It rotates. It’s an illusion, A dream that this sphere rotates, Made to imitate An ideal of real control; A revolution And a means without an end. Can you contemplate Just drifting with the motion In a delusion So seductive that you spin And wildly gyrate, T

Let's Play A Game...
Give me a word, any word. Adjective, noun, verb...whudeva. Just a single word, the first word that comes to mind. I need some inspiration, and the word game is something my artists friends and I used to play to get the creative juices flowin'. Help me out, peoples...

Advice For The Faint Of Heart
i have come often to points of confusion in situations that easily bored me...one of those very things seems to be the never ending cycle of players vs. true hearts...players have a bad rep but they do because they are sucessful at their craft and they take people and ruin them for those who could serve to be a great thing...once you have dealt with a player your mind turns everyone into a player sometimes you yourself play the game to avoid the pain of being on the recieveing end...but as they say every dog has their day in much the same way every player at some point will get played...now i myself am not a player far from it i am a true old times romantic to deliver all the world to the deserving heart delivered to my hands but alas i dont live in the times of marriage till death... relationships for a couple months is as good as good as it seems to get these days even for the best intentioned ppl...so when being the person i am left to pick up the scraps of those left in the wake of

My Mother
I just was informend yesterday by my daughter tiff that mom is back in the hospital. She has several fractures in her back . Its a 20 minute surgery to do this. But they dont want to do her surgeries to close together she just had surgery about 3 weeks ago to unblock her left side currotted artery it was 90% blocked , She will still have to have sugery on the left side of her neck in time its 70% blocked , Please keep my mother in your thought and paryers . Shes 72 now . I dont want to lose her evven though through the yrs we have had our mother and daughter ups and downs , As i get more info ill blog again ,

Funeral
WANTED TO SAY THAT I KNOW I HAVENT REALLY BEEN INTO FUBAR SINCE MY STEP DAD GOT SICK AND NOR SINCE HE PAST BUT I WILL BE TOTALLY READY TO COME BACK AND BE ON CAM IN EXOTIC AFTER SAT .... THANKS ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR THE LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU ALL HAVE GIVEN ME THROUGHOUT THIS HARD TIME IN MY LIFE YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME AND IM SO THANKFUL LOVE YOU ALL AND THANKS FOR BEING PATIENT WITH ME BOATMAN I KNOW I HAVE A JOB AND YOU HAVE BEEN SOOO GOOD TO ME LOVE YA BABY SAY BIG PRAYERS FOR ME SAT I HAVE TO DO A SPEACH AT THE FUNERAL

Today
I can still feel the sting of the sand burning in the corner of my eyes. The smell of the salty sweat pouring from my skin. The night has labored on like it was a millions years. I can barely see the horizon as the sun begins to rise. I can hear what sounds like thunder comming closer to me. It would be a great relief to have some water. But nothing will drown away the parched feeling I have. its hard to believe that was so long ago, as I remember every smell, every sight, every sound like it just happend. SO today many years later. I do not morn the passing of SSGT MCneely, SGT Spencer. I just remember them and the dedication they took with them to the grave. For the love of God and country. I honor you everyday when I put on my uniform and try to make you proud.

Letting Go
Today I did probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life, and anybody that knows me, knows I don't cry in front of people, and I spent most of the morning crying in front of anybody that saw me. I don't feel like going into major details, but I just want to apologize now to anybody that might think I'm being iffy, blah, or shitty or whatever when I talk to them. I'm not mad at anybody. I'm just not the girl that can hide her own emotions and feelings to worry about everyone else anymore. She's starting to come first. And I dont apologize for that.... It's just time to let go of some things, and realize it shouldnt be that hard when there's nothing there you're honestly holding onto....

Lady
LADY part of my problem is you maybe you can finally understand the lady I love is in there I think I can give her a hand the walls she is behind are many a maze of built up feelings the dark ones are anger, revenge self hate, self loathing, unworthiness the ones of self respect are few the bright ones are love, joy, happiness I believe you get the Idea the heavy ones are duty, honor, responsibility the fire is desire, it will burn you if you're not careful there are some that aren't what they seem these are fantasy ,dreams, imagination some of them aren't real, others are very tricky the light all around you is life sometimes it is darker or brighter sometimes it is different colors like blue or red or green but since it is all around you it can't realy pass you by i'd charge to your rescue but eskimos feel trapped in hot and heavy shining armor besides, I got lost when I looked for you so it is up to you to save the day if you do

The Reader's Revolution And Giving Up The Four C's
“In 1970 barely half the people in the world were literate, and many of them could only afford a few books. Middle-class people needed installment plans to afford an encyclopedia. Local libraries offered a limited selection of books; new titles were on sale in bookstores but soon disappeared unless they were bestsellers. Today, more than 80 percent of the world’s people can read, and 22 percent have access to the greatest library in history. The Web provides classic books and reference works like Wikipedia free of charge, and the online network of booksellers means that no book ever really goes out of print. Whatever it is, old or new, someone somewhere will sell it to you, often at a bargain price.” I needed something today – these excerpts from the February “Reader’s Digest” article, “It’s A Wonderful Life” have certainly been helping me – when I came online and found one friend I have on a page slurred with the same message thirty times. I can only delete one comment at a

Synthetic
Synthetic Skin the phrase unique…enough to make you weak Enough to make the clouds around you storm and weep. Not everyone's the same, for love can't make us sweet It's all about the pain and how it makes it all complete. As morbid as it sounds, the merry will go around and 'round We're bound to run around until that rusted crown breaks down. It's easy to pretend, to bend our strength and seem content When everything's a drought, it's better to relent the omnipotence. And everything's all right until that final line kicks in While everybody drowns, we'll swim along its darkened skin. It is sin that will make us…in its wings it shall break us- A syringe in our stream pushing in and crowding our demise Until everybody dies…everybody dies. Deep breathe, exhale between your teeth if there are any gaps Take in the surrender and suck the glue right off that paper bag. Jetlags will deform you. Porn mags will comfort you Just rub

Im Fucked So Bad Rn
ok the meaning of life is 42 i want the owlrd to know this and thers is i true division of pie but ione must look into urself and searchj the surrounding of the soul and FIND WHAT that life can be divide by and threw the yellow triange all asnwers come from and all anserws are for rember this when the clocks melts at 3 am the deamon face flying with the crows

Cantsleepclownswilleatme's Hh
Help T ORACLE please!!! This guy over here is an awesome person and friend.He shows lots of love to a lot of ppl.He's very close to ORACLE and needs a little help, plus he always has AUTO 11's ON! So go get some points, level him and win a great friend! Click here to show mad love: 'T'@ fubar Bully brought to you by: ♫BlackWidow♫@ fubar

Hate Milk Rings
ok you no what i hate whaen people leave milk in glasses for days then put them in the kitchen for ME to wash !! you no what i do i fucking throw away the glasses !!cuz im not a made !!so my step son as you read this is doing his glasses !!this is my pet peeve !!

Sex .....a Better Look
Men: 1) 94% of men lie about their penis size. According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men use extra large condoms. 2) The average man is 5.1 inches long when erect (no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the truth). 3) 80% of American men are circumsized. Even though Pediatrics say it is not necessary. 4) No matter what all the ads say, nothing can make your penis grow but time (most men reach the end of their growth by the early 20's) 5) There is no correlation between penis size and shoe size, hand size, or nose size. 6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically called "prostatic congestion." 7) Only 16% of men shave their privates. Women: 1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider themselves "attractive" (20% of British women do). 43% of women use the term "natural", 24% say they have "average" looks, 8% prefer the term "feminine", 7% say they are "good looking", and 7% say they are "cute", and finally only 2% of women say they are "sexy"

Rain
Just imagine the stars How bright they must be tonight magnified be the teardrops brought forth by all our pain It’s amazing how cruel life can be how heavy her hand can feel All we want to do is smile but yet the teardrops fall like rain There is no time for holding these days nor a second for a simple kiss just the time to stare at the moon while crying out in vain All we need is each other to make it all go away like an emotional drug that takes away the pain It’s just so hard to keep an open heart when the world is out to harm you But without your gentle words it’s a struggle to stay sane So as I roam the darkness I’ll be calling out your name Haunting all of our demons until they’ve all be slain

Blings (editing)
Blings & Rates 1st off. You don't go around asking people to buy you blings. 2nd of all you shouldn't go around rating pics then ask them for bling. You rate them because you want to, not because your forced. Now lets get on to the Blings Like i said previously, You don't BEG for BLING. Let someone bling you cause they want to. If you want me to bling you then i suggest BUY me a BLING PACK then i will BLING you. Unless I have bling credits i will bling whoever i choose to do so. GET A LIFE AND STOP BEGGING Thanks

Wednesday Morning, 3am
Wednesday Morning, 3AM Paul Simon and Art Garfunkel I can hear the soft breathing Of the girl that I love, As she lies here beside me Asleep with the night, And her hair, in a fine mist Floats on my pillow, Reflecting the glow Of the winter moonlight. She is soft, she is warm, But my heart remains heavy, And I watch as her breasts Gently rise, gently fall, For I know with the first light of dawn Ill be leaving, And tonight will be All I have left to recall. Oh, what have I done, Why have I done it, Ive committed a crime, Ive broken the law. For twenty-five dollars And pieces of silver, I held up and robbed A hard liquor store. My life seems unreal, My crime an illusion, A scene badly written In which I must play. Yet I know as I gaze At my young love beside me, The morning is just a few hours away.

Poem From My Nos Babies
............from my nos pink bunnies .......... I see forever inyour eyes there is no way to disguise the way my heart sings your name and when im without you all i feel is pain, my soul cries out for just one touch oh baby my kris i love you so much

Untitled
Twilight, trust how quickly will sunrise descend upon us. La Primavera indeed! Deep waters swell, run clean and cold. Nervous shivers tickle my sides, make my limbs restless. A simple, pure energy envelops me, curls my lip. The whole world is alas drawing itself in; All at once the pieces sigh and settle against themselves. Satisfied, I chide at my needless worry; after all, now, what for? It seems, at this moment, things are just, and how they ought to be.

On Addiction.
What's it going to take to feel clean again? My hands and knees are soiled. What's it going to take to feel love again? These memories make my blood boil. What's it going to take to feel strong again? In weakness I fall apart. What's it going to take to feel peace again? No harmony, no calm in my heart. What's it going to take to feel hunger again? Bitter emptiness sets in. What's it going to take to feel proud again? Haunted by some unholy sin.

If Only For A Moment
If only for a moment is all I get with you, then that's enough to last a lifetime for me. If only for a moment is all you can give, then I will be appreciative of that moment. If only for a moment is all I have to give, then I would give you that moment. If only for a moment is all I am allowed then I want it to belong to you. If only for a moment you could see you through my eyes. The strength, the passion, the beauty, the wonderfulness that is you. If only for a moment you could hear the beautiful words you speak to me. If only for a moment, I would want my moment to be with you.

We Prayed
Sitting here remembering the first time we saw one another ...You were so afraid of me.Yet so very brave,as you proved time and time again.What a brave and delightful young man you were and still are to this day!!! You didn't like me too much...Your Dad and I?...Well...we prayed. You were always doing something to cause me and your Father worry...lol...But that is what children do and that is what parents do...worry...and Pray. The day you put your head through a wall barely missing the door frame...we didn't know whether to spank you or laugh...we prayed... Then we laughed...so very grateful that you didn't hurt the wall!!!...lol...okay that you hadn't hurt yourself...smiles...Your Dad and I asked why you did it and all you could say was "because it was there"!!!...We prayed. Of course no parents heart could stop the way ours did when you dodged in front of a truck...The truck hit your back tire causing you to flip and land face down in the yard.AFTER we had told you not to

How You Make Me Feel
With each wave washing onto the shore my heart reeveals a love for you alone to endure Tantalizing senses of pleasures for the rest of your days basked in a radiance that captures a deluges of arrays As our souls touch with profound independence they are entwined with undeniable brilliance beaming to all corners of the universe our embrace has engulfed the passion of loves delightful disperse Nestling without boundaries and only restrained to our content we conduct the auroras to dance in the firmament Orchestrating a synergy unequivocally fortified sentimentalize by memories that will abide

Sometimes
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times an dthe confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

2/26/09
Ok so last week a old lady called cops and said our dogs were terring up her house when in fact they were on chains in back yard needless to say the cops took all the dogs to the pound but we got them out the next day.Robby got a painting job last week and was paid today.We been packing stuff we gonna take to ohio and cleaning and smoking of course lol and we decided to sell all furniture and just start new in ohio with everything except our clothes.Im getting so excited about this move.Oh yea I have been a bit sicker lately but Im still doing ok HELLO HORNY MMFWKL NINJA

Softball
Junior Krista Sitka went 2-for-3 with a run scored on Wednesday in leading UTSA to a three-game SLC season-opening sweep at Texas A&M-Corpus Christi. CORPUS CHRISTI — Sophomore Danyé Holmes tossed five scoreless innings for her fourth straight win and junior Krista Sitka went 2-for-3 with a run, as UTSA completed a Southland Conference series sweep of Texas A&M-Corpus Christi with a 6-1 victory on Wednesday at Chapman Field. The Roadrunners improved to 8-7 overall with the sweep, marking the third 3-0 league start in the last six seasons and the first since 2006. The Islanders fell to 7-11 and 0-3. A day after tossing a complete-game shutout in the series opener, Holmes struck out three and carried a no-hitter into the fifth inning in running her record to 4-2 on the season. The Sugar Land native allowed the lone hit, a single by Sandy Schumann with one out in the fifth, and one walk in extending her scoreless innings streak to 19 and 2/3. Sitka had two of UTSA’s three hit

Someone You Should Avoid
Watch out for this guy. If he doesn't get what he wants he goes after peoples friends. I was trying to be nice knowing he was screwd over by ppl, trying to make some cash to help keep my gas bill turned on and this is what i get. i quote "well when i get fucked over i fuck over ppl back specially there freinds so alteast tell her that one" straight out of YIM from him. I have the entire conversation if anyone cares for more proof. there the link to his profile if you would care to block him. Saspursfn@ fubar And no the blog is not about the money, its about the fact he feels that its ok to take things out on people not involved. Just watch out for him, he is truly NOT a friend and i care about my girls out there even if i don't know them.

The Horn Of Plenty And My Kids Ready To Grant An Interview
“The royal dinners at Versailles may have had glitzier place settings, but Louis XVI would gaze enviously at the food in a middle-class home or restaurant today: kiwifruits from New Zealand, South African peppers, Thai pineapples, Italian gelato. He’d be amazed, too, at the way we take fresh produce, fish, and meat for granted in every season. The king’s subjects, of course, would be even more envious. France was one of the world’s richest countries in the late 18th century, but the average Frenchman consumed less than 2,000 calories per day – about the same level as people in the world’s poorest countries consumed in the middle of the 20th century. Today, the typical person in a poor country consumes 2,700 calories daily, a nutritional improvement made possible by farmers growing more food at lower cost. While the occasional food shortage or price spike grabs our attention, the long-range trend is what really matters. While incomes have risen since 1950, the inflation-adjust

Fubar Does Not Equal Life.
I just want to make it known, that I am on fubar for fun. I'm on fubar to be rated, added, fanned, blinged...what have you. I will add anyone, and request anyone, because I enjoy the random shout conversations and random gifts...etc. I wasn't on here to meet people although, I have became friends with people, and I met somene whom, I will be starting a relationship with. Most, if not all my personal friends don't even have a fubar, and we hang out all the time... Fubar is fun...I get on daily...although I'm not always active on it. Fubar is NOT my life...I have alot going on in my personal life right now...and the biggest is getting into my career...and school. so please. Just know that FUBAR is FUN. save the drama for your mama...cause I aint dealing with it.

Well......
im my final check still hasnt come and the labor department has done all they can and now im gonna have to waste MORE time taking them to court over my check.... can my life get anymore fucking difficult

My Heart
My heart is tearing. Why does it have to be hurting so bad? Why cant we just patch things up and love each other again? There once was a time when you put a smile on my face now theres a tear in my eye. My heart feels like its all over the floor. I dont like feeling like this. I miss the joy you brought into my life. I couldnt stop thinking about you all the wonderful times we was having together. Now I cant stop thinking about you. I cant stop wishing we could get those wonderful times back. I really thought you was the one. I really thought my search was finally over. I didnt realise my search would find me alone and a heart fallen to pieces. I didnt know love until you came into my life. I lived when you loved me I died when I lost you. For the past 3 days my eye got raw from me wripping the tear away from being so tired. Now my face is soaked with tears of heart ache and pain. I will forever love you. My heart will forever hurt by the loss of you and the love we shared. Oh how I wo

Sometimes You Just Have To Go There
I swear no matter how many times you state it on your profile or in how many ways you say it - there is always some asshat surprised that you don't want to fuck him and his wife. Please read from the bottom up as it is a shoutbox convo: ->Heart~Brok...: There is no need for you to have an interest in me - I am married. As foryour apology - FINE.... but maybe next time you will actually read someone's priofile before propositioning them Heart~Brok...: As I said. An error in my judgement. I do appologize. But truthfully you are wrong for saying the things you do about me. I did not view you as a cum dumpster. I was displaying an interest. I thought you could be an adult and if your not interested just over look it or simply say I am not into that and I would have oppologized right away. So for what it is worth I am sorry! ->Heart~Brok...: that's just it - i could give a shit less about your life - you don't even know me as a person but you think i look good to you so you hit me u

Band Song
So I was dickin' around on my band's MySpace, and with a two-track demo CD that I had recorded a few months ago, and I finally put one of the songs on my band's profile. So if you have a MySpace, look up "Put Up Or Shut Up" and listen to the song. It's called "The Thin Line Between Life And Death." It's an instrumental that I wrote three years ago. The sound quality is shit, and it's only a recording of me, but it's a start, God Damn it! Let me know what you think. Thanks! -C.S.S. P.S. - Here's the link for my page, if you want to check it out. www.myspace.com/rezoniteprohotmailcom You'll probably have to copy and paste it onto your address bar, because it didn't make it a link for some reason. But let me know what you think.

What Do Men Really Want ????
I know what a woman wants , a good man But what does a man want, really , be honest Its not the so called good girl, because there are too many of us out there, that are single If we get too flirty, you call us too forward, an back away If we get too forward , you call us too aggressive, an run' To be shy, timid or too quiet, you call us weak and boring Playing dumb, you get aggravated and call us names, even though we are playing dumb When we show you , that we are intelligent, you call us know it alls When we tease you , you want laughter, then get all kinds of pissy at us for it Come on men, give us a clue here, we are right here You complain, "I"ll I want is a good woman" , Well this one, right here , is asking you What is a good woman ? Draw a picture on a napkin, send a single up in smoke, tap it out in morse code, Sing it in a song, send me a note, Shoot , get in my face , an say it This woman , this hot blooded woman,

My Lover
My lover stood outside naked one late night In an early summer storm he held an antique bottle tightly in his hands. And filled it full of rain He said it was part of nature like our love. That it was pure and fresh an sent from heaven to save him like me. He placed the bottle in my hands an gazed into my eyes and promised to love me forever. I sat the rain on our night stand. Wondering if time or nature would evaporate those precious drops.. But turning back to him watching him dry his hair while a lazy cat curled up at his feet. I knew the rain would last like the love would last long after everything else is over.................................

A Great Day
Today was a great day here in Maryland. Not as warm as I would have liked but for February I cant complain. Sure, I could have gone to work but it's been slow so I needed a mental health day. I rev'ed up the Harley and started out for a long ride out through Elkridge and across the bay to the eastern shore. I went to a great restaurant I've heard of for lunch and then a nice ride back home. All together, about a hundred miles of fresh air and peace. I'm looking forward to some warmer weather and it will be here soon enough.

Women ....
we are filled with a longin for the wild, there are few antidotes for this yearning we are taught to feel shame for such a desire. we grew our hair long and used it to hide our feelings but the shadow of Wild Woman still lurks behind us during our days and our nights. no matter where we are the shadow that trots behind us is definitely our wild untamed self. embrace it let the strong side come forth beware men for this one can be a challenge question for you are u up for it or are u turning tail an running

Bad Boy
BAD BOY ----- HE MOVES LIKE A CAT ACROSS MY BEDROOM FLOOR HE'S EVERYTHING MY MOTHER FEARED A WILD CHILD LONG HAIR A TATTOO A MOTORCYCLE AND A WAY OF MOVING THAT SCREAMS RAW SEX HE'S MY FATHERS NIGHTMARE AN MY MOST DECADENT DREAM AND IM PEELING HIM LAYER BY LAYER. UNCOVERING THE TENDERNESS THE VULNERABILITY THE PRINCE AND THE POET. HE ROARED INTO MY LIFE LIKE THUNDER TOUCHES ME LIKE WARM RAIN. HE'S THE FIRE IN MY FOREST THE CALM IN MY SEA

Southern Charm
SITTING THERE UNDER THE SOUTHERN SKY SIPPING SOME SWEET TEA I GLANCE UP AN SEE SOUTHERN CHARM AT ITS FINEST ONE OF BROAD SHOULDERS AN LIL BOY SMILE MELTING MY ICE IN MY TEA THAT SMILE ALONE MAKES YOU SMILE BACK YOU CATCH YOURSELF, LOOKING OVER YOUR BOOK STUDYING HIM BECAUSE THE BOOK HAS LOST ALL ITS APPEAL THINKIN' ..... NOTHIN' IN THIS BOOK CAN EVER COMPARE TO THE EXQUISITE MAN SITTING UNDER THE GEORGIA SKY SUN PLAYING ALONG MUSCLES LIKE A SLOW HYPNOTIC DANCE WHICH YOU CANT TURN AWAY FROM NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD YOU SIGH........ HE CATCHES IT ON THE AIR GIVES YOU THAT LOOK OF UNTOLD PROMISED DELIGHTS...... WARM SOUTHERN NIGHTS IN THE BACK OF HIS TRUCK WITH NOTHIN BUT THE RADIO ON AND YOUR HEARTBEATS HORSEBACK RIDES SIDE

#1
This is the first of what may be many, or very few ramblings. Watch out though, because you never know what crazy shit will come out of my head. On a serious note... What a wonderful afternoon, hanging out with the one who makes me complete. Check her out here: Even though I was working all afternoon, she kept me company and we had quite a few laughs along the way. Things do not get much better than that (well somethings do, wink wink). Tomorrow is Friday, which means after work we'll get the kids in bed, get cleaned up, and start pounding Captain and Coke til the wee hours of Saturday morning. Until the next time....

Moving
Just wanted to write a little note to those i care about on her letting you all know that i wont be around after tomorrow for a bit---probably for about three months. Those who are close to me know why. I will miss you all and hey while i am gone show me love hehehe! XoX

Dreams
The doctor said the reason I could never remember my dreams -is because I wasn't having them. Right as I was about to enter REM sleep, the deep sleep where dreams occur, I would stop breathing and wake up. Its the reason I was always so tired. Then -the respiratory therapist who was showing me how to use the c-pap machine explained a study done on cats, where their sleep was interupted right as they slipped into REM sleep. Eventually the cats suffered heart failure and died. Ughh - Anyway - Dreams are cool, and waking up wide awake is cool. Muah!!!

Playing Tag
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I am divorced. 2. got 3 boys they are almost grown 3. I date younger guys since my divorce 4. I am a scorpio 5. The places ive only traveled was California. Ky, Indiana, Michigan, Mexico 6. I have 3 sisters and 3 nieces and 3 nephews 7. I have a 1996 thunderbird 8. My favorite color is Purple 9. I like doing scrapbooking 10. I have meet some nice people on here that I can say are my true friends I tag Mary, Kim, Angela, Barney , Jayde

My Neice - 1
Okay, my neice is only 9 years old and ever since she was born we noticed she had brown spots on her skin. They got it tested when she was 1 and it turned out to be Neurofibromatosis. It didn't really become too much of a problem until a few years ago. She started having attention issues which they said was ADHD from the disease. Then the spots started growing and spreading out. Her eyes got worse and now she has like 70/40 vision; which her dad already has eye problems which run in the family... so she got it double on that account. The other day (Friday the 13th) she went and had an MRI done. A spot on her brain changed shape from the last tme they did one. They did another test and it came back postive that this is a 1 cm sized brain tumor. We now have to wait 3 months to do another MRI and see what has happened and then she will go to a brain surgeon and have to have brain surgery. I am very upset about all of this and simply ask for support from my friends. Thanks for reading.

Playing Tag
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I've been divorced for 7 years 2. The farthest west I have ever driven is Cleveland Ohio 3. I can be shy 4. I want to go to Scotland and Ireland some day 5. I like to sew my own faire stuff (except bodices) 6. I'd prefer a Chevy (truck), but love my Nissan 7. I love the colors purple and black 8. I love to drive 9. I only really get a Mass accent when drunk or pissed off (sometimes NY too lol) 10. I love my friends as family I tag Ganieda, Rhiannon, Diamond, Carrie, Emily

Cum Give Me Sum Lovin
I AM IN A HOTTEST GIRLS ON FUBAR CONTEST, PLEASE CUM AND LOVE ON MY PIC AND LEAVE ME COMMENTS...IF YOU THINK I AM HOT CUM HELP TYVM...THE LINK IS BELOW,PLEASE HELP I START MY NEW JOB TOMORROW,AND COULD USE ALL THE HELP ON MY CONTEST, I AM STILL IN FIRST BUT SECOND PLACE IS NOT FAR FROM ME, PLEASE COME SHOW ME SUM LUV, EVEN IF JUST A FEW COMMENTS TYVM..... CONTEST ENDS MARCH 7TH @ 12PM EASTERN TIME TY

My Peotic Side Being Opened By Someone
as mornings arise and the day moves to quickly I find my mind wandering swiftly conversations come smoothly for you and me we have a lifetime of pleasures to learn about we feelings and sensations are mounting The days I am counting

My Lil Korbin
To all who are aware or wondering: on February 26, 2009 at 11:20 pm EST I miscarried my #2 Child.. I was currently 6 weeks and 2 days pregnant with him and Due on October 21st, 2009 8 months later... Due to the fact that I had a fling type relationship with my [expecting]sons father he left me for his so called girlfriend on one of his drunken nights leaving me to to fend for myself with the pregnancy and him and his girl thought it was all a joke and that I was lying!! Little Korbin was only the size of an "apple seed" and weighing less than an ounce but still,, he never got the chance to even see his big sister Autumn.. Deep deep down I knew this child was going to change my life forever I knew from the start I loved him... and to not even get the chance to see him on Ultra sound or hear his little heart beating was devastating...

I Am Bare Before You
I am bare before you My soul lays on the page My heart beats on top of the words My life sits before you awaiting judgment I am bare before you awaiting your approval Knowing full well I will never get it My words are lost on you No matter how many times I think of you No matter how many times I express myself to you No matter how many times I offer to let you into my world I am bare before you My lust My desire My muse My reason for breathing My reason for getting out of bed My world lies bare before you With no reason to care

Think Before You Speak Lol
This had most of the state of Michigan laughing for 2 days and a very embarrassed female news anchor who will, in the future, likely think before she speaks. What happens when you predict snow but don't get any! We had a female news anchor that, the day after it was supposed to have snowed and didn't, turned to the weatherman and asked: 'So Bob, where's that 8 inches you promised me last night?' Not only did HE have to leave the set, but half the crew did too they were laughing so hard!

Clarence Swensen
PFLUGERVILLE, Texas (AP) — Clarence Swensen, (pictured in wheelchair) who played a Munchkin soldier in the 1939 classic "The Wizard of Oz," has died. He was 91. Swensen died Wednesday, a funeral home in Pflugerville confirmed. He had being in poor health since suffering a stroke in 2005, the Austin American-Statesman reported. In the late 1930s, Swensen joined The Stanley R. Graham All Midget Circus troupe, which performed at the Texas State Fairgrounds in Dallas. It eventually led to an offer from Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer to play a Munchkin, earning a salary of $700. Swensen had regularly attended Wizard of Oz festivals. He was among seven of the surviving actors who played the inhabitants of Munchkinland present when the Munchkins received a collective star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame in 2007. With his passing there are only 6 surviving Munchkins.

Was Bored
to hear something you never heard to feel something you never felt to see something you never saw and to to touch someone whom you thought was untouchable is the most vauble thing you can ever do. So next time your with the one who you thought was these things take it in because the next time might not be so perfect

Not That Girl
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Clowns 2. Tawnya 3. T Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Directory Assistance Operator 2. Business Consultant 3. Data Processsor Three Places I have lived 1. Washington 2. South Carolina 3. Hawaii Three TV Shows that I watch 1. CSI Miami 2. Ghost Whisperer 3. ER Three places I have been 1. Germany 2. Disney World 3. NYC Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Scott 2. My Mom 3. Vicki to let me know updates for Pogo Three of my favorite foods 1. Mexican 2. Chinese 3. any fruit Three things I would like to do 1. Get a job soon! 2. Get back into my own place 3. Be comfortable in my own skin Three friends I think will respond 1. Husky 2. Crys

Ugly, Ugly Rant!!!
This may or may not win me any friends but this has me torqued to no end. As most of ya'll know I've been on the hunt for a new job for awhile now. I ran into a few things that have REALLY got me real heated. This is is regards to four interviews I've had recently for local employers. I'll post the job listings below: REQUIRED KNOWLEDGE/SKILL SET Ø Production of short shelf-life products in a DSD operation. Ø Food Manufacturing A MUST Ø Union and non-union working environment working closely with Human Resources on labor-related issues and exposures to collective bargaining agreements and wage analysis. Ø Operating with relevant regulatory requirements, e.g., FDA, OSHA, EPA, USDA, EEOC, etc. Ø Quality Control and Costs Systems Ø Strong verbal and written communication skills. Ø Ability to lead and motivate others Ø 4 year undergraduate degree – emphasis in Manufacturing Management, Industrial Engineering, or related field.

Help Me Godfather
Worshipful Master's Fu-Anniversary is March 12th! That Is Less Than A Month Away! And His Wish Is To Be Godfather! Before His One Year Anniversary! imikimi - Customize Your World! He's A Wonderful Friend and Person! You All Know how hard it is to reach the Goals On Fubar Without Assistance from another Fu-Friend. So Please Go Rate Him and Bling Him. Hell Give Him Auto 11's To Help Him Achieve His Goal To Becoming Fubar's Next imikimi - Customize Your World! Ray Will Definitely Repay All That Help Him Achieve His Goal This Pimpout Brought To You By!

Not Again...tagged Again....lmao
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Hard_Rock 2. Darrin 3. Big D Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Farmer/Rancher 2. Insurance sellsman 3. Network Tech Three Places I have lived 1. North Dakota 2. North Dakota 3. I need to move..lol Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Heroes 2. American Idol 3. UFC fighting Three places I have been 1. Germany 2. Panama 3. Honduras Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Penis enlargement ads...lmao 2. Viagra..lol 3. Cialis..lol Three of my favorite foods 1. Steak 2. Shrimp 3. Lobster Three things I would like to do 1. Get the person back that sent me this...he he 2. Live in Florida.... 3. Get Scuba certified Three friends I think will respond 1.

I Was Taggled
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Heather 2. Heathen 3. hey bitch Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Cashier 2. Warehouse Stocker 3. Customer Service Rep Three Places I have lived 1. Hesperia, California 2. Bend, Oregon 3. Phoenix, Arizona Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Greys Anatomy 2. CSI - the original 3. Bad Girls Club Three places I have been 1. Pensacola, Florida 2. Las Vegas, Nevada 3. Durango, Colorado Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. My cousin Bud in Montana 2. My friend Pam in Tennessee 3. My sister Kim Three of my favorite foods 1. Enchiladas 2. Pizza 3. Elk steak Three things I would like to do 1. Hike down into the grand canyon 2. Spend a month in a

Threesome Tag
Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new blog, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Door 2. Cricket 3. Jeff Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Bartender 2. Digital Assets manager (fancyshmancy title) 3. DJ (and not one for a lounge) Three Places I have lived 1. Salem, MA 2. Salem, MA 3. Wakefield, MA Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Lost 2. Trust Me 3. UFC Three places I have been 1. Rebublic of Kiribati (1200 miles south of Hawaii) 2. Amsterdam 3. Vienna, Austria Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. my co-worker in NYC 2. my friend in Australia 3. my dad Three of my favorite foods 1. Italian 2. Chinese 3. pink tacos Three things I would like to do 1. win the lottery 2. have a healthy baby #2 3. Have much more sex Three friends I think will r

Ensign: I Like Helping My Daddy
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 27 February 2009 My daughter Sarah turns three tomorrow, and it feels like I just saw her born in the hospital yesterday! I probably did, actually, the time goes by so fast ... our current goal is to successfully potty train her and there are days this doesn't quite work out. But then there are days she seems to get better at telling us when she needs to go or goes when we take her. This past Sunday before church I took her to the potty after she'd woken up and said this will help and Sarah came out with, "I like helping my daddy." This is true; I cannot get away with washing the dishes without Sarah offering to help or a dozen other things -- "let me do it" becomes the order of the day and some things I don't have the heart t

Farewell *i Bow Deeply And The Curtain Closes*
It has not come time for me to move on in life. Fubar and the family of friends (and I do call the many friends I have made here family) I have made here were an intricate part of getting me to where I needed to be in life. Sadly, that part of my life has now passed and I am moving on to bigger and better things. In reflection I can only say that it has been a wonderful experience and that I have enjoyed the many friendships that I have made here. To those of you that wish to stay in touch with me my email is dtread1974@yahoo.com, I would encourage you to stop by and drop a line or two and I will do my best to return email. Likely this will stay up till the end of next week at which time I will simply delete my fubar account. Good luck to you all and hope in some way I have touched your lives in the positive.

Tag
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Maegan 2. Meg 3. Maegamo Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Clerical Clerk 2. Admin. Assistant 3. Executive Assistant/Network Rep. Three Places I have lived 1. Tucson, AZ (born; 2yrs) 2. Rancho Cucamonga, CA (9yrs) 3. Rolling Hills Estates, CA (15 yrs) Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Law and Order 2. Lipstick Jungle 3. G’s to Gents (MTV2) Three places I have been 1. Paris 2. Ireland 3. Italy Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. My BFF Eileen 2. My Boss 3. My good friend Carol Three of my favorite foods 1. Salad 2. Chicken salad 3. Jugo de Carne Sopa Three things I would like to do 1. Spend my life happy & free 2. Spend time with my frien

?'s
Ever wonder what it would be like to have all the answers? To be able to say I know, never say I think, never assume, Never be in doubt. I’ve wished for that feeling, I’ve sought answers. But with every answer comes another question, greater than the last. I’m starting to realize, just now in fact, the answers aren’t really what I am hoping to find. It’s the questions that keep me going, a certain beauty in not knowing. To know it all might be a bore, no mystery, nothing to explore. I think though perhaps, I’ve found my question, the one I’ve sought. Without knowing, while looking for answers, it has come to me. A mystery so great, filled with intrigue, wonderment I want to dive in I want to explore, I want to work on this mystery forever. Never finding all the answers Hoping to never come to an end

A Womans Worth
By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, 'Why are you spending so much time on this one?' And the Lord answered, 'Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands.' The angel was astounded at the requirements. 'Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day.

Chaotic Mess I Am
My day seems to end before it even begins these days....same shit everyday...wake up take care of my responsibilities, never time to do what i want...cook,clean,cook,clean thats it thats what my life has come down to...never anyone asking if maybe i need help, nope they know ive got it handled or at least thats what they see on the outside....i have many relaltives right here, next door, around the corner,no one asks... I dont blame my 83 year old, leukemia ridden aunt for any of this...i was brought back to this place to care for her,she needs me,theres no one else that cares like i do, to do what i do for her each day...ive given up my life at this moment to give her hers back... does this make me selfish for thinking i want to leave,its just a thought id never leave her,she would die...ive been doing this now for well over a year,24 hours a day 7 days a week... i feel like im losing it slowly,im so tired i want to lay down and sleep for a day or two,i only say it i never do it...

Threesome Blog
subject: Threesome Blog post date: 2009-02-27 17:50:11 views: 2 comments: 0 ratings: 0 Now here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new note,delete my answers and put in your own.Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn alot of little known things about each other. Three names I go by. 1) Jerald 2) Lacy 3) romper(callsign when I was flying for the navy) Three jobs I have had in my life. 1)Fighter Pilot 2)Bartender(while in college) 3)McDonald's manager(while in college) Three places I have lived. 1) Japan 2) Italy 3) Virgina Three TV shows I watch. 1) Dirty Jobs 2) Sanford and Son(reruns) 3) The Jeffersons(reruns) Three places I have been. 1)Asia/South Pacific 2)Middle East/Africa 3)South America Three people that e-mail be regularly. Three of my Favorite foods. 1)BBQ 2)Sushi 3)Italian Three things I would like to do. 1)Drive a F-1 car at the Long Beach Gra

Know Your Enemy
What does Al Qaeda want? Their goals are relatively simple. The want to drive Americans from Muslim holy lands and establish pan-Arabian, fundamentalist Islamic rule in every area worldwide that has a significant Muslim population. They want to destroy what they see as the profane influence of the West on all Muslims and all Muslim-populated areas. If that involves killing every “infidel” they run across, so be it. What does Al Qaeda mean? The term in Arabic simply means “the base” which refers to the concept that the organization should serve as a launching pad or base of operations for a global Islamic revolt against the West. What is Al Qaeda’s history? The organization grew out of the fundamentalist “Services Office,” which served as a clearing house for the International Muslim Brigade opposed to the 1979 Soviet Invasion of Afghanistan. Later in the 1980s, the Services Office – which was run by Osama Bin Laden – recruited, trained and funded thous

Special Gift From Timmy! *smiling*
My dear & wonderful friend Timmy surprised me with this special gift. He dedicated one of his beautiful art photos on his deviantART web site to me! I am so honored & so truly touched by this kind gesture from one of my dearest friends here. I think the world of him & feel so blessed by his friendship. ****************************** "This piece is dedicated to my good friend Loey. She always reminds me that both clear and dark skies are passing things. There are always storms and sun somewhere." ****************************** Much love & appreciation, Timmy...you truly lit up my heart, dear friend!

Know It All Bitches
So I have a tendency to make alot of mumms. What I do not fucking understand is why people think they know me. Just because I say shit on here, doesn't mean they know me. How the fuck can they know me, a complex individual, just by me saying a few fucking words in a mumm? How fucking rude is it for people to just go and assume shit about me? Fucking assholes know nothing about me! I have maybe 3 friends on here that actually fucking know me, and about my god forsaken life. Stop pretending to fucking know me. If I wanted you to know me, I'd talk to you. Otherwise, fuck right off asshole.

Congratulations To My Dear Ej!
I'm so happy for you, my sweet & dear Ej! CONGRATULATIONS & lots of LOVE & HUGS from my heart to yours! ****************************** ****************************** I SOOOO *OVE* YOU!!!!!

Happy Birthday Piedaddy
Please lets everybody take time and show some love to PieDaDDY for his Birthday 02-28 !!! If you know him ya luv him! He is the best and will help anyone, so lets show our support!! Thank You PieDaDDY@ fubar

Speed
Hey come here ile be your best friend. The more of me you take the more of me you need. My name is speed. The things i can do for you no one else can and alot are against me. The cops are always trying to chase me. But i will always be here for you evan when your down and no one else is around . You can always rely on me until the very end . I will always be your best friend. Signed Speed

Road Trip
I AM LEAVIN ON MONDAY WILL BE GONE A WEEK FOR ANYONE WHO CARES.... I WILL BE GOING TO OHIO FOR THE WEEK... I WILL TRY TO GET ON AT TIMES WHEN I CAN I AM TAKING MY LAPTOP WITH ME HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GREAT WEEK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Auto 11's
I have a lot to do today but I will be back on tonight to show love back to everyone who helped me with my auto 11's by rating my pictures. Please be patient with me. I thank you all so very very much. I will be back on by 5:00 or 6:00 central time hopefully...Bradd

Glory Road Trails Poem
Glory Road Trails ( C2005 ) Josie Roberts She's got the look. She's hot to trot. She's not a fluke. I like her a lot. The girl of my dreams. A shot in the dark. "Stars My Destination" it seems, As "jaunting" principles show their art. Artwork & science combined. Twinkle toes & going ballistic. Break up & make up right/light this time. -- Reconciliation process need not be frankenstein. CHORUS: We're on the L-train, Bound for glory. Thoughts on the brain Confirm the blessed story.

Brown Eyes
BROWN EYES Big Brown eyes and a heart so true He is a boy who will never stay blue Loved by all he ever meets Given freely near every treats Oh the power of this son so pure Oh my dread of its costly cure How can I fix his strangers care When all he meets treats better than fair? Stubborn as his father's pride Oh Powers please, no heartache ride Protect my boy when I cannot Give me peace in my worried thought Hurt him and this I SWEAR Powers the Be had best beware So says a father unwilling to be Keep him kind, leave him free Spare yourself my heartache blast For if it happens, it is your last Big Brown eyes and a heart so true He is MY son, all the way through.

Drenched...
DRENCHED the music rumbles, the mind tumbles the rain is like tears of joy, pain, love, fear. soaking wet, binging on feeling. drinking and thinking, drenched to the soul the voice in the head drones, mumbles, flows, stuttersteps arguing or agreeing with the heart, the thing pushing blood mixed with fire thru your body tweaking the chemicals in your head. making the colors you see so intense, they hit you hard adding to the fog of your world. you know what you want. and you know you won't get it, but it doesn't hurt cause you know they are happier this way. brainflex, heartstop. You've got questions that you don't know if you'll survive the asking, and don't know if you want to. but you won't let yourself go cause there is always hope and your heart won't quit tumble on in the fog, feel deep, and ask when the time is right

Marines And Muslims
Few people ever see Ismile Althaibani’s Purple Heart. He keeps the medal tucked away in a dresser. His Marine uniform is stored in a closet. His hair is no longer shaved to the scalp. Muslims in the Marines It has been 20 months since he returned from Iraq after a roadside explosion shattered his left foot. He never expected a hero’s welcome, and it never came — none of the balloons or hand-written signs that greeted another man from his unit who lived blocks away. Mr. Althaibani, 23, was the last of five young marines to come home to an extended family of Yemeni immigrants in Brooklyn. Like the others, he grew accustomed to the uneasy stares and prying questions. He learned not to talk about his service in the company of Muslim neighbors and relatives. “I try not to let people know I’m in the military,” said Mr. Althaibani, a lance corporal in the Marine Corps Reserve. The passage home from Iraq has been difficult for many American troops. They have struggled to recover

A Man And His Chili
A Man and his Chili Went grocery shopping recently while not being altogether sure that course of action was a wise one. You see, the previous evening I had prepared and consumed a massive quantity of my patented 'You're definitely going to Shit yourself' chili. Tasty stuff, albeit hot to the point of being painful, which comes with a written guarantee from me that=2 0if you eat it again the next day, both of your ass cheeks WILL fall off. Here's the thing. I had awakened that morning, and even after 2 cups of coffee (and all of you know what I mean) nothing happened. No 'Watson's Movement 2'. Despite habanero peppers swimming their way through my intestinal tract, I appeared to be unable to create the usual morning symphony referred to by my next door neighbors as thunder and lightning. Knowing that a time of reckoning had to come, yet not sure of just when I bravely set off for the market; a local Wal-Mart grocery store that I often haunt in search of tasty

A Lover And A Friend
i was wondering can ur best friend be ur lover too? i met this guy and we became such close friends he was there when i needed him and i was there for him when he needed me but just so happens that it became more than just friends and it all seemed so good till one day he just decided outta the blue he was done with me everything seemed so good i went to him and he would understand me he was the only friend i had and now i have nothing he want talk to me or even ans my text..i really miss his comforting words and feel that i need his friendship i just cant let it go.. so my question is what do i do?? im lost without his friendship

Challenge Track Poem
The Challenge Track ( C 2006 ) Josie Roberts Told one acid cold night Or a blazing hot day, Circumstances pokes in And brings dismay. There is a weight of glory lovely feeling Of tingling zest That stays amicably so that I rest In being heaven blessed. If I knew answers I would give commands, Or at least protest This zealous patchy neglect. But it only seems to be saying It works for me to some degree -- When reflected thus, our trust Has numerous discrepancy.

Age
Age The Train Rumbled on, A child approached.. “Do you feel your Age?” a Question asked in Innocence as the train Rumbled on. If I could, I would grab It in my Hands & send it In the direction Of the sunset Accompanied by A smile Time, however Does not allow that Luxury. As it is, I Guess I will Smile inwardly, Peacefully and Answer “Not Really” The child In me Toddles on… Poet

She Sellin Our Undies!!
IT'S A PANTY RAAAAAAAID HaHaHaHaHa!!! YEP! I RAIDED THEIR DRAWERS AND STOLE THEIR PANTIES & BOXERS AND I'M SELLIN' THEM! WATCH OUT TOO CUZ I'M COMIN' TO GET MORE!! HERE ARE THE ONES I HAVE SO FAR THAT'S FOR SALE COME TAKE A CLOSER LOOK!! MyZtErY ☆ÐSC☆ MysteriousQ Pink Devilish Desire HellCat

Truth
the people who reserve only fractions for you; corners of their hearts. those people are just mysteries. they are anticipation. they have no substance. in fact, they aren't even real. like fairy tales, they give you nothing valid or true so all you can do is imagine and that imagery is better than fact. it is more than the truth of that person could ever be. i hope that we don't waste our love on a fairytale; on an artificial thing. hope we don't sacrifice our reality for pretending. for who wants to be in a corner when they could be someone's world?

My Threesomes
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Joel/George (depends on where you know me from) 2. Joelseph 3. Jorge Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. construction 2. Lumber associate at Lowes 3. houseman at a country club Three Places I have lived 1. Export 2. New Kensington 3. Lower Burrell (all in pa near pittsburgh) Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Lost 2. Heroes 3. Sarah Connor Chronicles Three places I have been 1. Iraq 2. Kuwait 3. Germany (I can thank the army for all of them) Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Mom 2. Neighbor 3. Grandparents Three of my favorite foods 1. Seafood 2. Mexican 3. Italian (not in order Vicki trust me lol) Three things I would like to do 1. Survive Iraq

My 1st Auction !! Plz Come & Check It Out !! Ty Xoxoxo
HEY EVERYONE I AM IN MY FIRST AUCTION WHICH STARTS TONIGHT FEB 28/09 @ 6PM FUTIME & ENDS MARCH 14/09 ! 6PM FUTIME! PLEASE CLICK ON THE PIC BELOW TO BID !! TY FOR ALL OF YOUR LOVE & SUPPORT!!!!! *KISSES&HUGS* XoXoXoXo

Life Is So Confusing
I just don't understand life sometimes. I mean one day life is good, the next day I want to explode. Some days I want to do nothing but go home and get a beer, others I want to do anything but go home. There are those days where I love what I am doing, and others where I don't know why I do what I do. There are days where I love the Army, and days where I blame the Army for everything rotten that has happened to me over the past almost 10 years. Now don't get me wrong, I love life. I love what I do in the Army. I just don't understand anymore how I am supposed to have a normal life. I have no say in my life anymore. How am I supposed to have a normal life in the Army? Let me explain where I am coming from on this a bit. Let's take two weekends ago for an example. I was supposed to have Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday off. I put in my mileage pass to go to my dad's house for the weekend. I was getting up and around, the phone rang. I had to go into work for

Understanding Life From The Heart
The most destructive habit......................Worry The greatest Joy ...... Giving The greatest loss ...... Loss of self-respect The most satisfying work ......Helping others The ugliest personality trait ......Selfishness The most endangered species ..... Dedicated leaders Our greatest natural resource ..... Our youth The greatest "shot in the arm" ..... Encouragement The greatest problem to overcome ..... Fear The most effective sleeping pill ..... Peace of mind The most crippling failure disease ..... Excuses The most powerful force in life ..... Love The most dangerous pariah ..... A gossiper The world's most incredible computer ..... The brain The worst thing to be without ..... Hope The deadliest weapon ..... The tongue The two most power-filled words ....."I Can" The greatest asset ..... Faith The most worthless emotion ..... Self-pity The most beautiful attire ..... SMILE! The most prized possession ..... Integrity The most powerful channel of communicati

Muttering In My Mind
Things i hate about sleepless nights is all the time I lay there thinking about everything and anything you can think of. Last night was one of those nights. I just thought of all the things I have been going thru lately & how no matter hard you try to get people to understand how you feel they never will. I have my regrets and stupid decisions I've done. All i ask is for people to care and not pressure me right now. I know lately my emotions have been running wickedly crazy. Cuz I was stupid and believed a guy that he cared about me and was going to support me being in his life. but he quickly backed out of that. which made me very angry cuz of what all I gave up to be with him. & most of all I HATE that people should act like it was nothing and move on. I'm sorry I can't. I quit my job to be with this man & also hurt my family. My permit also ran out for driving so I have to go get my physical again & take that stupid book test again. I feel so stupid for trusting someone like that.

Threesome
Now here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new note,delete my answers and put in your own.Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn alot of little known things about each other. Three names I go by. 1) Carrie 2) CarieMarie 3) Sunshine Three jobs I have had in my life. 1) Network Administrator 2) Media Assistant 3) Administrative Assistant Three places I have lived. Hmmm tough one lol 1) Eastern North Carolina 2) Charlotte, North Carolina 3) Winston-Salem, North Carolina Three TV shows I watch. 1) The Closer 2) Saving Grace 3) CSI/NCIS Three places I have been. 1) Arizona 2) Tennessee 3) Vermont Three people that e-mail be regularly. 1) I don't really email much, mostly fu-mail. 2) Work colleagues 3) Family Three of my Favorite foods. 1) Steak 2) Baked Potatoes 3) Lance Crackers Three things I would like to do. 1) Travel to various States in the US and meet some wonderf

Butterflys On Doves Wings!
as the sun breaks through in gold & orange hues delete eternity clears upon the dawn delete upon the marble floor , skates on dreams & destiny delete sparkles of clear water drop from the opaque ceiling delete as the flame burns brighter illuminating the dark shadows delete Feathers drop from the celing in white , covering the black soil delete carrying olive sprigs with there sharpened beaks delete as the doves are released delete candles flicker in the cool breeze delete in shades of green & blue delete the world keeps spinning delete as butterfly wings envelop the soul delete smelts the sword & watches it burn red hot delete dances in a ring of fire delete

No Rescue Required
Okay, the last concert I went to for some reason started not only on time - but early. So I missed seeing the only band I really wanted to see - Shinedown. The crowd was really not a good chemistry mix for my aggressive side either. I think some rebel 16 year old girl in the crowd shouted out I LOVE TO FUCK GIRLS... *yawn*. The rest of the vibe was sorta limp dick, to borrow words from Sevendust. I made up new words to Crazy Bitch (she stands about 2 foot 6) and made mention of Keebler elves somewhere around my third beer - and I hate beer, but that is how bored I was, I actually drank for entertainment at a freaking concert venue - pathetic. Sweat, and dodging the mosh pit should be entertainment enough, damn it. I will say that I do like Rescue Me by Buck Cherry - but I am so happy to be going to a concert where REFUSE TO BOW DOWN is more the theme than rescue. I antcipate that the Black Label Society and Sevendust concert will be far more energy filled, and I will leave feeling s

3 Somes - Tagged!
Now here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new blog,delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three names I go by. 1) Terri 2) Theresa 3) Mom Three jobs I have had in my life. 1) Secretary in a prison 2) Secretary at a university (same as a prison) 3) Parent (counts as a job - it's HARD work) Three places I have lived. 1) El Paso 2) Austin 3) Okinawa, Japan Three TV shows I watch. 1) CSI 2) Speeders 3) Law & Order Three people that e-mail me regularly. 1) Grace (my sister) 2) Scott (my friend since 4th grade) 3) Skippy (my boss) Three of my Favorite foods. 1) Anything Mexican 2) Chocolate (even though I can't eat it) 3) Cinnamon donuts!!!! Three things I would like to do. 1) Raise a good kid (not sure if it's working just yet) 2) See the Sydney Opera House 3) Lose 15 lbs. Things

Brevard County School System
The county in Florida where I live has been having regular budget cut meetings to discuss where to cut funding. On the chopping block are school sports up to Varsity (how are the kids below varsity supposed to get the help they need to make the team?) and all music programs. My 14-year-old daughter has been playing the cello for the past 4 years, and has been counting on that ability to help with scholarship funding for college. If she is not able to get scholarship funding through music, she will be in competition with countless others for academic scholarships as there will be no alternative. This sucks.

My 2 Year Old Has Cancer!
My 2 and a half year old son was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma on January 17th 2009.I found this out via CT scan. Of course, we all know that a CT scan is not part of a regular check-up. You will never believe how it all happened. It started on January 15th 2009. On this day, I was driving on Irvington-B.L.B highway going at about 40 m.p.h. My brakes went out on my van and I crashed into a phone pole. Brodie and my other son, Jeremy, were in the car and buckled up. Luckily, noone was hurt. But my airbag did deploy and knocked me out. I was carried to U.S.A hospital and was admitted. My 2 boys went to U.S.A Children's and Women's hospital where they were kept overnight for observation. My 7 month old was released the next day, but I was still in U.S.A, when my baby's father called me and told me Brodie had a tumor in his sternum. I completely panicked and like most moms would have done, I left A.M.A. For the next several days, Brodie underwent numerous tests to determine what the tumor w

I Believe......
I believe and know that nothing is incurable. At some point in time, every so-called incurable disease has been cured. In my mind, and in the world I create, " incurable " does not exist.There is plenty of room for you in this world, so come join me and all who are here. It is the world where " Miracles " are everyday occurrences. It is a world overflowing with total abundance,where all good things exist now, within you.

Lookin' For Love.....
I was at a restaurant a few weeks ago, and some woman just sat down next to me and started up a conversation. She was a nice lady, and the conversation was ok, but then it led to this question...."So what do you look for in an ideal woman?". I was about to answer this question when I paused and thought for a moment. Then I told her that I would only know a woman is ideal for me AFTER I get to know her. I realized in that split second what I've been doing wrong for sooooo long. What many people do that is sooooo wrong. We get on websites and chat rooms, we go to bars and social events, and we tell total strangers what qualities we look for in someone we would like to date or be intimate with. And there are two fundemental flaws with that. First, we're telling people how to "act" or "be" in order to get to that next level with us personally. Which means that any random asshole, bitch, or psycho would only have to put on a front according to our "preferences" so we can let our walls do

A? Eh.
It makes you think! Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have Fun! 1. What is your name: Amanda 2. A four letter word: Arse 3. A boy's name: Adam 4. A girl's name: Amber 5. An occupation: Artist 6. A coloUr: Apricot 7. Something you wear: Arrogance 8. A food: Alfredo 9. Something found in the bathroom: Asswipe 10. A place: Australia 11. A reason for being late: Asswipeless 12. Something you shout: Anarchy 13. A movie title: Anchorman 14. Something you drink: Amaretto 15. A musical group: Atreyu 16. An animal: Alligator 17. A street name: Arizona 18. A type of car: Audi

Not Going To Be On Much
Just want to let all my TRUE friends the ones who actually reads the blogs know that im not gonna be on fubar to much nomore for awhile because i start college on Monday but i will check the messeges and all that when im able to.

Can You Say E?
It makes you think! Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have Fun! 1. What is your name: Erik 2. A four letter word: easy 3. A boy's name: Ethan 4. A girl's name: Emily 5. An occupation: engineer 6. A coloUr: emerald 7. Something you wear: Eyes.. yeah, you wear 'em. (okay okay.. eyeglasses, then!) 8. A food: eggs 9. Something found in the bathroom: empty asswiper 10. A place: Egypt 11. A reason for being late: emo 12. Something you shout: EWIE! 13. A movie title: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 14. Something you drink: eggnog (it took me forever to think of that.. stupid vowel

News From The Road
well its ben really busy. left thursday..have been to palm springs to san diego to los angeles. now i'm in portland and heading for seattle tomorrow. after that back to eureka calif an then to Albuquerque new mexico. the new job is really keeping me going. staying in portland tonight getting some rest. using the computer at the motel. typical oregon..raining like hell. so i will be home next weekend before heading to Albuquerque. will get caught up on all my lovin then. your all very special to me or you wouldn't be reading this anyway. take care and miss you all..big hugs and kiss...marty

Wanna Get In My Boxers (posting 4 Gary..woot Woot Sexy...)
Hey Ladies!!! Wanna Get In My Boxers? All you gotta do is place a bid and I'll send 'em to the winner!! To place your bid, just click the pic. Come On! You Know You Want 'Em

Squirting: Myth Or Reality By Shannon Farley
Squirting: Myth or Reality? By Shannon Farley The female orgasm is a mystery to some. The elusive location of the G-spot has baffled lovers and doctors alike. But if one were to slide deeper down the rabbit hole of sexual lore, past the average orgasm, past the G-spot, she would reach “squirting,” otherwise known as female ejaculation or gushing. Squirting is not a new phenomenon, Numerous historical accounts discuss women ejaculating fluid during sexual arousal and orgasm. The Kama Sutra, one of the oldest texts written about sexual behaviors, includes information about female ejaculation. Ancient Taoists saw the female ejaculation as something necessary for life, and they wanted to understand and explain the purpose of it. Thousands of years ago, writers discussed the female ejaculation as accepted fact. Now, current research is questioning its existence. Medical science might be reluctant to completely confirm female ejaculation. But, a quick Google or YouTube search

Looking Ahead
The month of February has gone and it left with a great evening. My Harley friends got together with an evening of pool, drinks and great music from an extraordinary band. A good time was had by all. March is rolling in with a bang and 6-10 inches of snow due tonight. It’s hard to believe it was 65 on Friday….really cuts down on my riding. I guess I will have to find some other indoor activities with someone to capture my attention. With the chill in the air, I want spring! I hope that March brings as much fun as February has. March and April, I have some charity events coming and since I have been blessed with many opportunities, I look forward to helping out others. And let’s not forget the beginning of camping season!!!!. Until next time, party hearty and safely!

Birthdays Always = Instant Lame
But apparently I'm allowed to have enough fun for the whole year in a 4-day package deal.... So many tried to use my liver as a killing method! Thursday wasn't too bad, but Friday and Saturday? H-I-Larious! Friday, I spent $5 and went home with what I can assume was a .20 BAC. Friends later told me that I looked about ready to do the Stumble-of-Shame. I woke up the next noon, propped against the wall, beer in one hand, cell phone in the other (ready to dial my gf,) one boot off and that foot on the floor, shorts around my knees and I had absolutely NO clue where I was for about a minute. Mind you the boot I had taken off was stuck in the shorts leg.... yeah... Saturday was a little more timid. I spent most of the day recuperating at a coffee place. I got my tattoo finished on my forehead! Then, I went back to the club and proceeded to drink the night through, while working. I had to play the responsible one, and sent my gf home... I felt bad. We were both ready to go at it in a p

Sbg Cure To The Monday Blues ~ March 2nd Edition
Do You Have Monday Blues? Are your wondering what to do on a Monday? Do you want to rate but don't want to go through the BORED board? Are you tired of only rating only ezrate pics? Well, here is something different, fun, and exciting! SARGE'S BAD GIRLS The BEST bad girls you will ever meet! A listing at your fingertips of beautiful women with great pics. And of course the man that made it all possible. (He has folders of some of our best pics!) Give these bad girls a good old fashioned fu-spanking and don't forget to thank the man that made it all possible. Fan - Rate - Friend - Bling - Comment! You won't regret it! ***SBGs*** You Should Be Rating The SBG picture folders of Sarge and the Top Five SBGs (Up To 25 Mandatory) in this Bulletin/Blog. Next Monday These Top Five Will Be On The Bottom Of The List. All SBGs .. please comply! Sarge's Bad Girls

Come Bid And Win Me
Auction will run from March 1st @ 8pm eastern time thats 5pm fubar time till march 8th @ 8pm eastern 5pm fubar time. Have fun, Bid to win me and get what I'm offering to the winner. Click on the link above and leave a comment with the amount you bid.

Devour
Relishing my view as you stand before me, Heat flushing my body as desire takes over Mouth watering, wanting to taste... All that is ~You~ Softly caressing, encircling, teasing... My tongue begins my game. Caressing, encircling, teasing... Until I hear you utter my name. Appetite piqued By one escaped bead Awakening in me A ravenous need... To DEVOUR you. Hands in my hair As I establish my rhythm. Guiding me to the tempo of your need Feeling you throb against my wet kiss Until at last I allow your full release... 3-1-09 LC

My 1st Auction...bid On Me!
Heres your chance to own your very own fu-slave for a month. Have you owned fubar's very own PIMPSTRESS yet??? WELL? What are you waiting for? Click the picture below and... BID BID BID This auction is an all type bid auction. Bids of tickers, blasts, VIP's, Bling, HH's and of course fu-bucks are all welcome. But, cash gifts outway fubuck offers. The Auction starts February 28, 2009 at 6pm est and ends March 14, 2009, 6pm est!! So hurry and get your bid in quick.

Legendary Broadcaster Paul Harvey
(CNN) -- Paul Harvey, the legendary radio host whose career sharing "the rest of the story" with listeners spanned more than 70 years, has died, according to ABC Radio Networks. He was 90. Harvey died at a hospital in Phoenix, Arizona, where he kept a winter home, said Louis Adams, a spokesman for the networks. He was surrounded by family members when he died, Adams said. Known for his deliberate delivery and pregnant pauses, Harvey's broadcasts were heard on more than 1,200 radio stations and 400 Armed Forces networks and his commentaries appeared in 300 newspapers, according to his Web site. He had been hosting his radio shows part-time for much of the past year, after recovering from physical ailments including pneumonia and the death of his wife, Lynne "Angel" Harvey, in May 2008. "My father and mother created from thin air what one day became radio and television news," said Harvey's son, Paul Harvey Jr., in a written statement. "So, in the past year, an industry h

Outlook
Yesterday was a fast track, and I raced around the morning till everything was a blur trying to get so much accomplished, complete so many laps at record speed. I started home after working through the morning and running half a dozen errands and my mind was racing along still 'on track', and then something caught my eye. At first, it was just another office building, a little off the beaten path, but nothing extraordinary in the architecture. But there was this tree adorned with flowers as big as my hand. The tree wasn't very tall or thick, but it was home to these amazing blossoms. The sky was grey and there was no doubt the rain would take the sky hostage later on. I pulled into the parking lot and pulled out my camera. Then starting back I saw another tree. This time a tulip tree. The area around the office building was modest houses, and apartment buildings that were losing the battle with shabbiness. But someone had taken the time to plant and tend somet

Mug Cake
5 MINUTE CHOCOLATE MUG CAKE 4 tablespoons flour 4 tablespoons sugar 2 tablespoons cocoa 1 egg 3 tablespoons milk 3 tablespoons oil 3 tablespoons chocolate chips (optional) A small splash of vanilla extract 1 large coffee mug Add dry ingredients to mug, and mix well. Add the egg and mix thoroughly. Pour in the milk and oil and mix well. Add the chocolate chips (if using) and vanilla extract, and mix again. Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes at 1000 watts. The cake will rise over the top of the mug, but don't be alarmed! Allow to cool a little, and tip out onto a plate if desired. EAT! (this can serve 2 if you want to feel slightly more virtuous). And why is this the most dangerous cake recipe in the world ? Because now we are all only 5 minutes away from chocolate cake at any time of the day or night!

Mom Gets Pulled Over While Breast Feeding Newborn
Ok. Honestly this tops britney spears. Why would you drive and breastfeed at the same time? It's freakin retarted and stupid. The woman claims that feeding her child is more important...what about the childs saftey? If your child is screaming due to hunger while you are driving than pull over your damn car than whip the boobie milk factory out. Sorry if I seem rude; but I would worry more about getting in an accident and having my newborn fly through the window than feeding at that very moment. Come on girl have some damn commen sense.

The Shade...
I've tried to make it through each day There's something in my way All the broken pieces you left behind for me I've cut myself so much on these shards Take all this away from me I'm the hollow shell deflated by your teeth I hid for so long in the room Tried to put my pain away I've met with resistance Tired of banging my head on the walls I've built I lit a candle to see Snuffed it when I burned my hands Stumble around through my wasteland I take my pills to kill my pain Drink liquid fire to ease my mind So damned tired of looking for salvation The only one who can save me is myself I gave up trying a lifetime ago You all should do the same Don't dare to touch me Lay hands on me and leave with a scar Better than you have tried to bring me up They all left with broken hopes I think I'll stay here...in the shade...

Sweet Sting...
I am the devil in your eyes The poison in your veins As I fall, so you stumble Don't let yourself come down with me What if you could save me How can you take what I can't give The pain in me has made me who I am Try to take that and I won't survive Seems that the cure I need may kill If thats the case then let me die I need the sweet sting of your kiss The fire in your touch to brand me I realized so long ago life was a game The wagers of sin are death and dust Please come to me tonight Lets be together though the world may rot and rust Fly me away on the wings of a dragon I can't wait to see your face Framed so sweetly by the moon Bring me sweetly to my end...

Another Day Goes By
another day goes by i dont understand orknow the reason why im looking for a change in life but another day goes by its to late i wish it was tomorow thow i think id say you know i think it feels just like yesterday so lately ive ben looking for a change but the more things change the more it seems to stay the same its a new day its allmost like tomorow never came same old thing same old game and every day i sing the same old song and today i dont feel like waking up but the show must go on so another day goes by and i dont understand why or pretend to try i want to change my life but another day goes by if i could change it tomorow could be allrite so many days gone by i still dont understand it but now i realize im going to change my life thats rite alot of days gone by its just another day

Passing Of A Loved One.
How does one deal with the passing of ones parent? I am very upset even though I knew this day was coming for a long time. My father was sick for a long time, hes body slowing shuting down and his mind becoming lost into a sea of emptiness. In the end he didn't even Know who I was. My father always sheltered me from the world up until I was about 16. He was a very over protected man when it came to me. I have alot of his qualities myself, most of them taught, because I get called his name all the time by my best friend when I am acting like my father would. In my eyes he will always be a pillar of strenght, intelligence, love, and understanding. He will be truly missed, I only pray that he has found the peace he should have. I LOVE YOU DAD!!!!

When You Just Stop Caring....
I have come to a realization! When you care.....you get your feelings hurt, your heart broken and your expectations of something real are shot to hell. If you stop giving a fuck.....its all so much better. Nobody messes with your emotions or feelings, you have no expectations of anyone and you sure dont get hurt. The only hurt is the hole left in your heart when you thought love was a real thing. Im just not so sure anymore........ Leaving it at that!

No Excuses!!!!!!!!!
wow im realy getting tired of some of some of these chicks on here tell you they care for but in the same breath there tell 100"s of men that they care about them.. an it realy start piss me off when you make planes to met an they change there mine,, i know thing happen but it shouldnt,,i can deal whit that that kinfda of stuff,,,,but like this one gal i been talking whit for 3 yrs ,ever time i truned around ive had there net fucks show up on my page, an tell me shit ,,grow up dont start some thing unless you can go through whit it.. what im say stop lieing an being fake,,im 100% real no fucking games,,if you cant do what you say stop wasting my time,,becase i know there some out there want a good man..an this shit fallowing aroud an going my chat room telling me i have a new gf,i might but thats becase you played to many game for me..an lied to me ever time truned around im not dumb just cant type so,,,,imnot saying names you know who you areall i ask you be real an do what you

Runners Vs Bobcats 02-28-09
She Had a Great Day SAN ANTONIO — Junior Krista Sitka went 4-for-4 with five RBIs and UTSA collected the program’s 500th victory with a 7-1 win against Sam Houston State in the second half of a Southland Conference doubleheader on Saturday. The Bearcats used a three-run seventh inning to rally for a 6-4 decision in the opener at Roadrunner Field. With the split, the Roadrunners improved to 9-8 overall and 4-1 in league, while Sam Houston moved to 9-9 and 3-2. Sitka was a triple shy of the cycle in the nightcap to lead an 11-hit explosion by the Roadrunners. The first baseman had a three-run home run, a double and a pair of singles and was a combined 6-for-7 with six RBIs on the day. Freshman Amber Anderson was 2-for-4 with a two-run double, while freshman Ashley Kappler also had a pair of base hits. Sophomore Emily Humpal worked a complete game to move her record to 2-0 in conference and 4-4 overall. The Corpus Christi native allowed one run on five hits in her second s

How Cold Is It? It's So Cold That...
How cold is it? It's so cold that... Travel agencies are advertising tropical vacations in Antarctica. The local Starbucks is serving coffee on a stick. When we milked the cows, we got ice cream (the brown cows were giving chocolate ice cream). ...Roosters are rushing into Kentucky Fried Chicken and begging to use the pressure cooker. ...Politicians have their hands in their OWN pockets. ...I spilled scalding-hot drive-thru coffee on my lap... and THANKED the McDonald's staff! ...Grandpa's teeth were chattering.. . while they were still in the glass! ...Angelina Jolie has been downgraded from "hot" to "tepid". ...We've set up an ice fishing shack... in the bathtub. ...To assuage my head cold, I ate a bowl of chicken soup... with a knife and fork. ...At the city morgue, you can't tell the stiffs from the staff that works there. ...For their daily good deed, boy scouts are helping to de-ice little old ladies. ...The flashers are wal

Say That Again!
Life is what happens while you are making other plans. When I first heard that little cliché I thought, yeah sure, I know that. Still I went on making plans. Silly me. Now I find that the older I get the less I know and life keeps going on with or without my approval. All of which leads me to wonder. Is it me? Or is it a recording of me? When the film The Matrix came out, I noticed that a lot of people were all agog at the concept the film introduced. I have been reading Science Fiction since I was 12 so the idea was not startling to me. In fact it was rather ho-hum and, to me, not very well done. It was rather cartoonish, not at all the kind of science fiction that I enjoy. Still, the movies did introduce an alternative way of thinking into people, worrisome though it may be to think we are really controlled by some kind of super computer. For perhaps a nano-second or so, people had a look at their concept of themselves and wondered – am I real? The thought did not last long,

No Love
Ive been so alone now for too long, and its not getting any easier. How I wish I someone to share my life with, someone who loves the way I love. The older I get the harder it seems to find the right woman. Someone I can trust, someone to always be there for me, someone who doesn't post naked pix of themselves on the internet. I so long for the day when all my lonely nights will end.....

Whoa
a boy sits alone in the corner with his back to me, holding his head in his hands, body shaking uncontrollably. i think hes crying. there's blood pooled on the floor, sprayed in grotesque fury across the walls, and droplets coming down from the rafters in this cold dark room. i watch him intently, not knowing what to do or say. he reaches for something in the dark, groping with fumbling hands across the cement floor and i can hear skin scraping concrete. he twists his body slowly and i feel my insides turn as i see that his left eye is dangling out of the socket... held only by a thick veiny rope. my back arches as i imagine his pain and recall those dark lonely days of being locked within my head. as he reaches out for something laying in the corner, i hear drops like rain hitting the growing puddle around this child and i realize its flowing from his wrists. my heart stops for a moment as i feel the burn of acid in my throat and the fire in my eyes wells up as i struggle to break wha

Yummiie's 1st Spring Auction Join In!
Spring is just around the corner and everyone just cant wait... So so to add alittle Spring in your step join in my Auction... And spoil a Friend! Auction will begin.... March 7th 2009 and will end... 2 weeks later on March 21st the 1st Day of Spring! soo..... Auction brought 2 you by: Yummiie[Owned By REVPaul & StaPuff] Founder Of ΘΔIF@ fubar

Finish The Sentence
1. I love...my friends and family.2. Right now I want...to go to the mall. 3. I feel like...taking a shower. 4. I hate it when...people mess with my head. 5. I fear...losing my mom. 6. I'm lonely without...my greenie. 7. I need...some hugs! 8. Today I...want to relax and do NOTHING! 9. Tomorrow I'm...going to have to go to work. 10. I just...can't to be king! lol 11. I want to meet...a few of my friends from fubar. 12. I'm hungry for...PIZZA!! 13. I love it when...I get to go home to NC. 14. I'm afraid of...not being able to support myself without asking for help. 15. I'm listening to...the tv, Sister Sister is on. 16. I'm wearing...a t-shirt and sweats. 17. I wish I was in...my bed with a special someone cuddled up to me. 18. I'm craving...PIZZA! 19. I want to get...naked and get in the shower. 20. I can...do anything you do better. 21. I can't...stand it when there's nothing good on tv. 22. I have...way too many pairs of undies. 23. I haven't...been outside of the North American cont

Dedicated To John...
No good deed goes on noticed w/ me exp when it's a dozy.... One of my close friends on here who I know in real life , did the most amazing mind blowing thing for me... My comp wasn't so good and he came to visit and got me one, I'm used to ppl saying things and not doing them. Although I didn't doubt him , I was still surprised . Or ppl do things for u and expect something in return , which wasn't the case... Going threw all that I'm going threw and him being a true friend threw it all and than dropping a lap top in my lap is just mind blowing to me.. Ppl don't do things like this for me ever... His friendship has always been a blessing and is a gift within it self but for him to do this too is something I will never forget nor take for granted... Besides my lil one being healthy , I'm most thankful for the few amazing ppl I have in my life.. The few ppl I'm close to are amazing and I'm blessed to be in their life... Exp my friend John.. Thank u for being u and reminding me that

Numero Dos
It makes you think! Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have Fun! 1. What is your name: Maegan 2. A four letter word: Mood 3. A boy's name: Matthew 4. A girl's name: Monica 5. An occupation: Mechanic 6. A colour: Maroon 7. Something you wear: Makeup 8. A food: Meatballs 9. Something found in the bathroom: Mirror 10. A place: Manhattan Beach 11. A reason for being late: My daughter was sick 12. Something you shout: MMMMMM GODDDDD!!! 13. A movie title: Madea Goes to Jail 14. Something you drink: Mai Tai 15. A musical group: Machine Head 16. An animal: Monkey 17. A street name: Madison Avenu

Threesome
Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Bobby 2. Robert 3. Daddy Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Aircraft handler 2. Mechanic 3. Butchers Helper Three Places I have lived 1. California 2. Japan 3. SouthCarolina Three TV Shows that I watch 1. CSI 2. The Tonight Show 3. Sponge Bob Square Pants Three places I have been 1. Mt Fuji 2. Hawaii 3. Hong Kong Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Wifey 2. Hall 3. Dewayne Three of my favorite foods 1. Smoked anything 2. Steak 3. Fish Three things I would like to do 1. Sky Dive 2. Drive a race car 3. Spend a week of so in Amsterdam Three friends I think will respond 1. Carolinat 2. Susie and Todd 3. Hopefully MIA Things I am looking forward to 1. Ha

It's Hard!
It makes you think! Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have Fun! 1. What is your name: Timmy 2. A four letter word: twit (lol!) 3. A boy's name: Ted 4. A girl's name: Tammy (I selected this because it meant only changing one letter, which saved me a lot of time typing!) 5. An occupation: Tattoo Artist 6. A colour: Turquoise 7. Something you wear: tights 8. A food: Tiaramisu 9. Something found in the bathroom: turds 10. A place: Tupelo 11. A reason for being late: Ticketed 12. Something you shout: To the Batcave! 13. A movie title: Titanic 14. Something you drink: Tea 15. A musical group: Tesla

1st Name Game
It makes you think! Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have Fun! 1. What is your name: Eric 2. A four letter word: Earn 3. A boy's name: Earl 4. A girl's name: Emily 5. An occupation: Executive 6. A colour: emerald 7. Something you wear ESPN hat 8. A food: eel 9. Something found in the bathroom: electrical outlet 10. A place: Espana 11. A reason for being late: Eating breakfast too late 12. Something you shout: eeek 13. A movie title: Earnest 14. Something you drink: Earl grey tea 15. A musical group: Electric fuzz 16. An animal: Elk 17. A street name: Elm 18. A type of car: el cami

Useless Info About Me
1. What is your best friends name? Tracy and Kim 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? Dark Blue 3. What are you listening to right now? tribal celtic drums 4. Whats your favorite number? 29 5. What was the last thing you ate? jelly sandwich 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? dark gray 7. How is the weather right now? chilly 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? don't have one of those contraptions 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes & legs 10. Do you have a significant other? not at the moment 11. Favorite TV show? Several; NCIS tops them all 12. Siblings? 2 half brothers 13. Height? 6' 1" shoeless 14. Hair color? brown 15. Eye Color? hazel 60/40 brown/green 16. Do you wear contacts? when i don't wear glasses 17. Favorite Holiday? July 4th 18. Month? guess April 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? damned if i remember 20. What was the last movie you watched? Defiance

Never Send A Woman To Home Depot
Charlie was fixing a door and found that he needed a new hinge , so he sent his wife Mary to Home Depot . At Home Depot , Mary saw a beautiful bathr oom faucet while she was waiting for Walt, (the manager) to finish waiting on a customer. When Walt was finished, Mary asked . . . 'How much for that faucet?' Walt replied, ' That' s pewter and it costs $300. 'My goodn ess that sure is a lot, ' she exclaimed. Then she proce eded to describe the hinge that Charlie had sent her to buy, and Walt went to the back room to find it. From the back room Walt yelled, ' Mary, you wanna screw for that hinge ?' Mary replied, 'No, but I will for the faucet. 'This is why you can't send a woman to Home Depot .

Cherry Bombing!~!!
AUTO 11'S ON TOMORROW.. ALONG WITH THREE CHERRY BOMBS!!!! IF YOU WANT TO BE SURE AND BE CHERRYBOMBED THEN YOU NEED TO ASK ME TO BE ADDED TO MY FAMILY... I HAVE 36 PLACES... THOSE IN MY FAMILY WILL BE BOMBED FIRST.... SO IF YOU WANT TO BE ADDED I AM TAKING PEOPLE ON A FIRST COME FIRST SERVE... SO PLEASE PRIVATE MESSAGE ME TODAY SO I CAN ADD YOU FOR TOMORROW.... WITH LOVE, DEVILS ADVOCATE, ~SHELLY~ Devil's Advocate ~JAK'S FU-WIFEY!! ~Tom'S SUNSHINE~John's SexyButt~@ fubar

Support The Military And Their Families
Friday YOU WEAR BLUE??? International Picture of the Year Here are two very touching photos honored this year First Place (picture in album) Todd Heisler The Rocky Mountain News When 2nd Lt. James Cathey's body arrived at the Reno Airport , Marines climbed into the cargo hold of the plane and draped the flag over his casket as passengers watched the family gather on the tarmac. During the arrival of another Marine's casket last year at Denver International Airport , Major Steve Beck described the scene as so powerful: 'See the people in the windows? They sat right there in the plane, watching those Marines. You gotta wonder what's going through their minds, knowing that they're on the plane that brought him home,' he said 'They will remember being on that plane for the rest of their lives. They're going to remember bringing that Marine home. And they should.' Second Place (picture in album) The night before the burial of her husband's body, Katherine Cathey refus

Ok Here Goes.....
i need to vent..... i'm sick of having to watch what i say so YOU dont get mad...then when it comes to me u dont give a fuck....im sick of tiptoeing around u...from now on im gonna say what i want when i want..u dont like it well then FUCK OFF

Our New White Dove...
Here is the newest addition to our family. We acquired him/her because a neighbor thought they'd buy him from the pet store and set him free. Well, his wings had been clipped, so my children caught him and brought him home. I was going to take him to the bird sanctuary, but after doing some research, I have found that these birds make for very good pets. I've had birds before, so it's not something 100% new to me. They are basically very clean birds, quite docile and they enjoy human companionship. Now, all I need is a name... Some I am tossing about in the air are Chilaili (Native American for snowbird), Chenoa (Native American for white dove), Chloe, and a few others...

Dirtaay Survey
Dirtaaaaay SurveyTAKE THIS SURVEY! Take this survey HAVE YOU GOTTEN LAID THIS WEEK?No... :( EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC PLACE?Yes EVER LAUGH DURING SEX?Yes EVER CRY DURING SEX? IF SO, WHY?Yes... Emotional Night...He was crying too DO YOU LIKE TO CUDDLE AFTER SEX?Usually a lil EVER REGRET SEX WITH SOMEONE?ummm... Yeah, Kinda EVER FAKED AN ORGASM?Surely DIRTY TALK, OR STFU?Depending on the moment, I likes both EVER HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX?Only in long term monogamy EVER MASTURBATE TO YOUR FRIENDS SIGNIFICANT OTHER?Probably EVER HAVE A THREESOME?Nope EVER WATCH PORN DURING SEX?Absolutely EVER THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE DURING SEX?Nah, not really HAS THE CONDOM EVER BROKE?Not to my knowledge WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE?Hmmm... gotta think about that one HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY?17 WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE SEX WITH RIGHT NOW?He knows who he is... i.e. noneya DO YOU LIKE 69?Sure...just don't expect something spectacular when you've got me

Unknown
You are so inviting I see something in your eyes I know it forbidden but there is an unquestionable chemistry I feel that there is a reason for us meeting Maybe you are meant to help me get through the tough time i am having To give a shoulder to lean on when I need it and to pick me up when I fall Maybe it was so that we could both have someone to talk to about all the things we cant say to others You opened my eyes to things when you told me i deserved better, maybe I was something i needed to hear Or could it be that maybe one day down the road of life we will be meant to be one What ever this life gives us I know that I can hope you will never get tired of being my friend

Damn Comcast Anyhow!!
GRRRRRRR!!!! I got all switched over to digital tv. Everything was just fine and dandy until friday. GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! All of a sudden, the remote stopped working. The MOTHERFUCKER is BRAND NEW!! So I call Comcast, the woman takes me through about 15 different codes. None of which work worth a SHIT! So she tells me I need to go get a new one. Ok, so I do that. I go get a BRAND NEW remote to replace the BRAND NEW remote. I get it home and BAM! STILL won't FUCKING work!! My tv is stuck on C-Span!! DAMMIT Jim!! C-FUCKING-SPAN!! Someone shoot me now!! =/

Can Everyone Please Help My Friend
she had a really bad nite and she would love to level up so any help you can give here would be great she not got that many photos up right now so it going to take alot of you to help push up to the next level. http://www.fubar.com/user/2307174

Nin-and All That Could Have Been
Breeze still carries the sound Maybe I'll disappear Tracks will fade in the snow You won't find me here Ice is starting to form Ending what had begun I am locked in my head With what I've done I know you tried to rescue me Didn't let anyone get in Left with a trace of all that was And all that could have been Please Take this And run far away Far away from me I am Tainted The two of us We're never meant to be All these Pieces And promises and left behinds If only I could see In my Nothing You meant everything Everything to me Gone fading everything And all that could have been Please Take this And run far away Far as you can see I am Tainted And happiness and peace of mind We're never meant for me All these Pieces And promises and left behinds If only I could see In my Nothing You meant everything Everything to me

Another Poem From Last Year
"COME AND FIND ME" Searing pains running through this ever so cold and lonely heart of mine, I feel as if i shall only perish yet an old man all aone in this life, constantly and slowly derriating away. I sit and do nothing but spin out these here words of my poery every day, just wishing and dreaming i was with my love instaed. Having not a single thing around me but open air. Hearing the train whistle blaring in the background, I do sit and ponder whether or not i should go and just ride the rails.Getiing away and traveling the countryside, running from my pains. Guess i shall just stay here amongst my family and dear wonderful friends, knowing that out there lies a cruel and hateful world. Just figuring that if i am to ever have love, it will have to find me!! P.J.(Lil Poet) 1/24/08 3:20pm

Missed Bus
The new family in the neighborhood overslept, and their six-year-old daughter missed her school bus. The father, though late for work, had to drive her if she'd direct him to the school. They rode several blocks before she told him to turn the first time, several more before she indicated another turn. This went on for 20 minutes - but when they finally reached the school, it proved to be only a short distance from their home. The father, much annoyed, asked his daughter why she'd led him around in such a circle. The child explained, "That's the way the school bus goes, Daddy. It's the only way I know."

Butterflies
When you reminence your da at the end of the night I hope our memories help you take flight As the season's of life continue to change there isn't a moment we've been estrange YOur constantly reminded by the tomorrow by our today by the way we display our loves array the painted picture of daily conversations is only overcome by genuine intentions Caressing your dreams are depp desired passions embraced with a sultry sexiness no one else fashions Close your eyes knowing the sun will rise and our lives will dazzle like butterflies

Theory
There are four states of consciousness and competence that you may pass through as you learn, as in the model below. Conscious-Competence model Conscious Incompetence Conscious Competence Unconscious incompetence Unconscious Competence Unconscious incompetence As an unconscious incompetent, you do not know what you do not know. You are lack knowledge and skills in the area in question and are unaware of this lack. In this state, where you can exist for a very long time, you are not as competent as one or more of: You think you are You actually could be Other, more competent people In this state, you may be in one of two positions. Ignorance is bliss, as they say, and you may well be happily naive, not realizing that you are not competent. You also may be in a faking state, where you believe you are competent, and either do not realize that you are in this state or are covering up your incompetence (in which state you may be in t

30ish
When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were when they were growing up; walking twenty-five miles to school every morning ... uphill BOTH ways yadda, yadda, yadda. And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you li ve in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!! There was no email!!! We had to actually write somebody a letter with a pen! Then you had to walk all the way across the street and put it in the m

Some One Liners About Me
Short (5'8"), fat (but getting less fat every day) and ugly. Well I've been told I'm cute and not really ugly. But you will have to decide on that. Great kisser. Easy to be with as I just try to roll through life. Poetic, I use poetry to say what my heart is saying or feeling sometimes. Musical, no, not really haha... I do pretend to play the harmonica but the dream of being a rock star or blues man are long gone. Very good sense of humor, now that is true..I find much in life around me funny and will always provide a laugh a few times a day. Moody, I am not a moody person and do not change my moods often...I stay pretty much happy and enjoy being alive. Crazy, yes I am that, just this side of a straight jacket I like to say. I have this switch inside me that I can flip at any time and go from calm to "YEAH BABY" in 0 seconds. I created it many many moons ago and it has served me well. If life comes at me with much unfun, then I step into it and take it one

Threesomes.
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Nicole 2. Skoalie 3. Cole (only certain people have that right ) Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Vineyards 2. Kids summer rec aide. 3. Summer camp for Developmentally Disabled Three Places I have lived 1. Wayne, NY 2. Bath, NY 3. Rock Stream, NY ^BORING!! Three TV Shows that I watch 1. House 2. CSI:Miami 3. Jeopardy Three places I have been 1. Richmond, VA 2. NYC on New Years Eve 3. Canada Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. My Aunt 2. My cousin in Texas 3. Siblings Three of my favorite foods 1. Mac n Cheese 2. Sesame chicken 3. Chicken wing pizza Three things I would like to do 1. Further my education. 2. Get over a guy, finally. 3.

Awaken You Dreamers
Some folks see the world as a stone Concrete daubed in dull monotone Your heart is the big box of paints And others, the canvas we're dealt Your heart is the big box of paints How coloured the flowers all smelled As they huddled there, in petalled prayer They told me this, as I knelt there Awaken you dreamers Adrift in your beds Balloons and streamers Decorate the inside of your heads Please let some out Do it today But don't let the loveless ones sell you A world wrapped in grey Some folks pull this life like a weight Drab and dragging dreams made of slate Your heart is the big box of paints And others, the canvas we're dealt Your heart is the big box of paints Just think how the old masters felt, they call... Awaken you dreamers Asleep at your desks Parrots and lemurs Populate your unconscious grotesques Please let some out Do it today Don't let the loveless ones sell you A world wrapped in grey And in the very least you can Stand up naked and Grin

Sadness
I jsut got off the phone with my good friend and she told me . that her mom had bladder cancer ... I was lost for words what do u say to ur friend ur sorry ... i felt sooo bad ..and u cant really reach threw the phone to give them a hug... so I will go see her today .... and give her one....

My Yahoo Gangs"
looking at this picture, i remember my vacation to the Philippines last year, i really had a good time with my family, and i had chance to really go around, and one of the most memorable was a date and night out with my yahoo 360 gang , i t was a blast, we stayed in a hotel, went to comedy bar to the malls and had one night of laughter and fun'... missing them so much, coz am not as much on line as i used to be.. but i will be meeting them again this coming July when i visit Philippines again!

E-mail To Earth
Did you get one? One day God was looking down at earth and saw all of the rascally behavior that was going on. So he called one of his angels and sent the angel to earth for a time. When he returned, he told God, "Yes, it is bad on Earth; 95% are misbehaving and only 5% are not. " God thought for a moment and said, "Maybe I had better send down a second angel to get another opinion. " So God called another angel and sent him to earth for a time, too. When this angel returned he went to God and said, "Yes, it's true. The Earth is in decline; 95% are misbehaving, but 5% are being good. " God was not pleased. So he decided to email the 5% who were good, because He wanted to encourage them, give them a little something to help them keep going. Do you know what the email said? No? Okay, just wondering. I didn't get one either........

Backlash...
I don't belong here Did I ever? I can't remember when it began My heart has become something I can't face Never saw the backlash Sitting alone as the tide began to rise Die to kill this noise Blood given for the sake of peace A terror of pain and thorns is all I see All I have to give is emptiness I suffer the fallacies of so-called friends Seek comfort from hollow eyes and wagging tongues The more one suffers, the brighter the sun Help me pull this thorn from my side...

4th Entry
Please don't think that I think I am perfect. I do know that the love I give is perfect, but the rest of me is in constant growth and repair lol. I have made many mistakes in life,l but very few I would take back because they have made me the man I am. I tend to learn on the first try -- well there were times that it took many more because my heart hates to give up hahaha. That's when a 4x4 had to be used. What fun would life be without it's little lessons. And how would we know a great day without having some really really unfun days to judge them by. I raised my babies (babies 20 and 23 but still my babies) so that they understood that life wasn't going to just hand them milk and honey, they had to find it in the middle of the spoiled cream and bee hives. And expect to be stung a few times along the way. So if I have any avid readers of this blog, you might be wondering, what does this old, ugly, fat man have to offer to any woman other than flowery words and nice

Regarding The Cherrybomb Bling
This isnt gonna be fancy like everyone wants to see but just a suggestion for all who crave to be BOMBED with the cherry bomb bling...RATE FAN and maybe even ADD the Bomber before you go BEGGING for them to hit your pics...afterall they are taking the time of using a gift they got or paid for to give out luv and attention to others...please be respectful to the bomber by showing them some luv first and ASK them if they could hit your pics...DONT assume they will just because you have lots of pics or even an AUTO 11 active...if you are rude about it i wouldnt be surprised if they flat out block you... be kind and friendly... John "JAK"

Squandered Potential
Heaven holds my dream gone awry Speculation to the how and why Serve to keep my anguish well Preserve my love in God’s hotel Sweep my kisses off to sleep Share my tears while spirits weep Echo’s of my broken goal Sound inside my tortured soul jskins

So You Want To Be A Suicide Girl
Sounds like a good idea. International recognition. Lots of exposure to start a career. Too bad it's far more harmful to your career than helpful. Anyone who has applied knows that there is a bot that accepts or denies models. No human can generate a response in 30 seconds. It took BrokenDollz a week to get back to me and then it was a request to send more pictures. I had to wait another couple of days before they accepted me. Spooky Girls was a bit different. I spoke to Kristoff several times before the offer was made. I opted to do work for a friends site first to kinda "get my feet wet." She was good enough to right into the contract that I did not have to work exclusively for her and that I could do what I choose with the pictures. If I decide to submit them to another site, it's fine per the contract. She has even offered to submit me to some major magazines if I choose to. By contrast, Suicide Girls owns you and your pictures. You are prohibited from modeling for

Fuckin Perv Married Men
Y IS IT SO HARD FOR A MARRIED MAN TO STAY FAITHFUL TO HIS WIFE.. WHEN SHE PUTS UP WITH ALL HIS BULLSHIT.. THEN HE BLAMES THE WOMAN FOR LEAVIN A GOOD GUY LMAO WHAT KIND OF GUY IS GOOD IF HE NEEDS THE NET TO FIND HIM A WOMAN TO CHEAT ON LMAO MUST NOT B MUCH OF A MAN

Kilties + Travel + Family + Sexy Lover Man = Long Long Weekend!!!
WOW!!! This last weekend was LONG!!! This has been a fairly wild weekend. After doing quite a bit of traveling last week due to my Granny & the upcoming job, I decided to spend Fri evening resting and recouping at home! My daughters had plans for the evening, so I simply piddled around a little bit online before settling in for a good night's rest. Oh, that also included several hours of being on the phone with some friends and family. Early the next morning I loaded us all up, stopped to pick up my Favorite Cousin & my niece. We all drove down to the Northeast Florida Highland Games over in Clay County (near Jax). We had a blast!! It was a lot of fun! It was the first time ever that they had been to a Highland Fest. We watched the athletes compete, we got a little bit to eat (GREAT food, btw), we watched the Navy Band play, we watched the Commencement programs which included a presentation by every Clan that was present. Even my lil niece thought it was pretty cool watching

Can We Make It 40+?!!!!
Do You Want Fubucks?? How About Some Bling? Maybe A Happy Hour?? Then Read Below!!! Welcome to the Lucky Charm Auction. I'll explain briefly how this will work. 25,000 Fubucks to enter. Minimum 50,000 to bid. So you get you get your money back and then some. You will need to send me or Tony a message on Fubar (NOT in the SB.) With a link to a photo you want to use along with what you are willing to offer. Example: Drinks and a gift every day for a week. Personal salutes, ect... There is an example below. You will also need to tell us what are acceptable bids. Such as cash, Fubucks, bling packets, ect... There is a conversion chart also posted below. Message myself or Tony. You will NOT be posted until the entry fee is paid. Bidding will start as soon as you are posted. No entries will be accpeted after March 8th. Auction will run from March 9th -March 16th. You have the right to stop your auction anytime bef

Winter Moonlight
Winter Moonlight Der Schnee, so friedlich und ruhig, gestreichelt von der Soft-Mondschein hat magische Gefühle der Nacht. Die Soft-blau leuchten, Liebhaber der "Wörter, dann hat flow, ihre Lippen näher und näher bis in den Geburtswehen gesperrt einer leidenschaftlichen Umarmung, beschloss er, seine Gefühle zum Ausdruck zu bringen, um ihre Sicherheit. , Flüsterte er leise, seine Worte wie Musik in ihre Ohren, "Ich liebe dich," und ihre Antwort die gleiche, gehört, wie die sanfte Brise, "Und ich, liebe dich, für immer." Das war die Nacht sie versprachen werden gemeinsam über alles, jeder für die Betreuung der anderen, wenn alt und grau. Ein Liebhaber "Pakt am ehesten zum letzten

Deciding On When To Move
I have been toying with the notion of moving back down south for quit some time now, but i have came to the conclusion the other night, that i would not be moving down south, i would be moving out west to the great state of Arizona. Yes i know its hot and humid, but hey so was Florida, i have thought about it, and i think its time that i have a change of scenary. After what has happened to me last year i think its time to move on. I also took a look at the job market out there, I would be gettin the same amount there as i would here, but the real estate is phanominal down there. So i talked to a friend of mine who also works in the FD and he needs a change of sceneary as well. So sometime next year or so him and i would be out west soaking up the sun and being happy.

Halo
Remember those walls I built Well, baby they're tumbling down And they didn't even put up a fight They didn't even make up a sound I found a way to let you in But I never really had a doubt Standing in the light of your halo I got my angel now It's like I've been awakened Every rule I had you breakin' It's the risk that I'm takin' I ain't never gonna shut you out Everywhere I'm looking now I'm surrounded by your embrace Baby I can see your halo You know you're my saving grace You're everything I need and more It's written all over your face Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won't fade away I can feel your halo halo halo I can see your halo halo halo I can feel your halo halo halo I can see your halo halo halo Hit me like a ray of sun Burning through my darkest night You're the only one that I want Think I'm addicted to your light I swore I'd never fall again But this don't even feel like falling Gravity can't forget To pull me back to the gr

Love
Every day that dawns I love you so much more. Every moment that comes brings me such joy. So many scars to heal from the past, Make our love that much stronger because our love will last. You are my heartbeat, each & everyday. You are the love that makes it all be ok. My todays are so much better and my tomorrows are usually to. The best part is you love me to. Simplicity & trust is what you crave. For without these factors, love dwindles away. And I have found that in my heart..... Our love is true & that you are my ever after, you are all my dreams come true. Not because we have everything, or because I expect to. But because its just so easy this love I have for you. My heart still skips when I know your there. I smile when I know you will be there. Love does crazy things to us, Some good some bad. In this case my love, Our love is all but grand. We have our battles and troubles we will cross. But we are together & our love will not be lost. I will

Pillow Talk
I got out of bed early one morning a few months ago and while looking in the bathroom mirror noticed I had a few wrinkles appearing around my eyes. Now why we want to look at ourselves in a mirror when first getting up in the morning is beyond me. Some people look great no matter what time of day and I can clean up pretty well, but it is not the best time of the day to be examining our face if you ask me. While standing there looking into the mirror, and seeing me looking back at myself, I decided this unsightly aberration must have been from the way I slept on my pillow the night before. So later that day I went and got a new pillow or two, softer and hopefully less abrasive on my skin. I assumed that in a few days these unsightly little marks would sort of smooth out and I would be back to my normal youthful appearance. It has now been four months and they are still here with me, those little wrinkles being the inevitable result of too much laughing and smiling and obviously

7reasons Not To Mess With Children
7 Reasons Not To Mess With Children A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales. The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small. The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible. The little girl said, 'When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah'. The teacher asked, 'What if Jonah went to hell?' The little girl replied, 'Then you ask him'. A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing. She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work. As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was. The girl replied, 'I'm drawing God.' The teacher paused and said, 'But no one knows what God looks like.' Without mis

In The Damn Mumms!!does It Matter? She Deserved It:p
OK GUYS,THIS SHITS ME THAT WHEN SOMEONE IS THIS RUDE IN YOUR SHOUT BOX YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO ASK THE QUESTION IN A MUMM....GO TO WORK OR ARGUE WITH THIS MORON....BUT NOOOOOO I GET TOLD BY THE LOVELY BOUNCER(knew it was coming btw lol)THAT I CAN'T DO THAT IN THE MUMMS? WHY NOT? IT WAS A DECISION ? WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK?ALSO WHY WOULD SOMEONE TELL ME TO GO BACK TO MY OWN COUNTRY WHEN I WAS BORN HERE? ROTFLMAO.... ->Year of th...: ok np sorry bout tht... Year of th...: you can nsfw blog that kinda thing..just not post it in the mumms ->Year of th...: sorry went to work but I knew tht was coming lol....but man to get a messege about me going back to my own country out of the clear blue sky was unbelievable its all kool u removed it tho.... ASSPAIN !!: OMG!!!! DAMNDAMN DAMN DAMN!! UNBELIEVEABLE!!....You FORGOT to WASH OUT YOUR FILTHY STINKING HOLES...Yeah..great idea..Let's see how much MONEY YOU COME HOME WITH TONIGHT..I rest my case,no need to go further on...PIG! Year

Banned
OK>..well I have had alot of people ask me what is goin on..so here it is. I was banned from commenting ANYTHING...for a week so I am told. Clown bitch took a screenshot of me sayin fuck. I think it is total bullshit..but there is not shit I can do I guess. SO...in the future I will play her game and if she attacks me again keep it clean and SS it and send it to Admin...my Italian temper once again landed my ass in trouble. And...I guess if I CAN'T hold my wicked tongue...I shall put on clown paint and speak illiterately..because it seems to be ok then. *end rant*

Endless
An endless highway Of countless horizons The sun will rise And will fall again. Freinds will be lost Lovers will fade away Nothing can be done For them, for anyone. All highways end Each horizon is numbered Take heed to live Each day like its last. Learn your lessons Pass life's tests. Thursday, October 24, 2002 Within without Hapiness, they say Comes from within Most would agree with that. Thus I conclude That Sadness must Originate from without Without Love, without joy Without happiness and cheer. Without fright, without gloom Without hate and even fear. Without him, without her Without a very close friend. Without marriage, without kids What will come in the end? Without all these things It is safe to say That Sadness will rule your world. But with these things How long will it be For Sadness to finally unfur

A Forever Sleep
I wanna close my eyes in a forever slumber I wanna be just another faceless number Free from all the fighting and the pain Asleep until all my inner demons have been slain I wanna sleep throughout the nights I wanna sleep, block out the unpleasant fights I want to protect everyone i know from hurt So their heart wont be ground into the dirt I wish we all didnt have to hurt like this Guess its true that ignorance is most always bliss If only to sleep away all the tears That we've come to shed throughout these years To wake to a life filled with smiles A friendly hug that travels over all the forgotten miles I wanna close my eyes in that blessed forever sleep Until i wake with an inner smile that runs so deep yea yea i know its a little emo but its how im feeling lately. >.> newho im off to paste a smile on my face and act normal like i always do :/ lol

Something To Think About
Do you know how to catch wild pigs? You catch wild pigs by finding a suitable place in the woods and putting corn on the ground. The pigs find it and begin to come everyday to eat the free corn. When they are used to coming every day, you put a fence down one side of the place where they are used to coming. When they get used to the fence, they begin to eat the corn again and you put up another side of the fence. They get used to that and start to eat again. You continue until you have all four sides of the fence up with a gate in the last side. The pigs, which are used to the free corn, start to come through the gate to eat; you slam the gate on them and catch the whole herd. Suddenly the wild pigs have lost their freedom. They run around and around inside the fence, but they are caught. Soon they go back to eating the free corn. They are so used to it that they have forgotten how to forage in the woods for themselves, so they accept their captivity. Is this what is happening

We Are Part
We are Part by Jeffrey A. Griswold Neither knew what happened, it took us by surprise. I felt a strange new feeling, when I looked into your eyes. I hadnt felt this way, in such a very long time. I knew somewhere deep inside, god would make you mine. I felt a tugging at my heart, and knew that it was true. Someone somewhere planned this, that I'd be here for you. I look into your pretty face, and see a dream made real. I knew inside the things I felt, were all too very real. So I send to you my dear, these words from in my heart. I hope that you will see it too, that of each others lives we are part.

Cherrybomb
OK I AM GOING TO TURN ON MY BOMB LATER AND WANTED TO KNOW WHO HAD 11S AND WHO ON MY FRIENDS LIST NEEDS TO BE BOMBED BESIDES THE ONES I ALREADY HAVE WRITTEN DOWN.SO PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT HERE IF U HAVE A BIG ALBUM TOO TY PS MY SHOUTBOX BE OFF AND FRIENDS BE BOMBED FIRST N SINCE IT IS MY BDAY ALL GIFTS WELCOMED LOL

Adults Interacting
Following is a message I sent to a mumm writer that asked a pertinent question, and received some pertinent answers. I do not ever believe the GET THE FUCK OUT or SHUT THE FUCK UP answers or words to that effect are pertinent. That is just bullying, and it reminds me of children - thus almost shaking my faith in the Fubar promise that everybody I interact with as an adult, IS an adult. If Fubar is not assured of this, perhaps they need to drop their promise to me that leads me to speak as freely as I do on many topics in blogs and mumms. ========================== Too bad your mumm got taken down, or moved, or you deleted it, or whatever. For me part of being an adult online with other adults will include some form of sensuality every once in awhile - now whether that is defined as porn or not would entirely be in the mind of the receiver. But I do certainly allow myself more freedom of expression with the solemn guarantee of Fubar in my mind that EVERYBODY is an adult here. I c

Spotlight Fund - A11 & Cherry Bomb Auction!
My #1 Family and Friend is trying to get SpotLight SOON and he Needs your FuBux!! So... I've decided to Auction Off an Auto 11 and Cherry Bomb bling! Please click on the pictures below to bid! And for those of you who don't like auctions, dont have enough fubucks to bid, feel free to donate to him directly. IF you donate at least 1million fubux to him, then I will give you a 1 credit bling AND a personalized salute to you from me! (or both of us if you want two!!) Happy Bidding! And Also.... We're auctioning his sexyyyy ass off for FuBux! For one month.... Two Pimpout Bulletins One bulletin Stickied (you pick) A SFW Personalized Salute 500 11's during HH 500 Stash Rated during HH Owned by in my name Added to Family as a top friend #1 Friend Miscellaneous Drinks and Gifts Weekly Profile Comments Weekly Personal Pimpout on my page R/F/A up 10 friends of your choice click his picture above to place your bid on him! xoxo Sw

State Of The Union...
I've been working on developing my own blog site to be the collective point of all of my creative works. I want one location to have everything I have done. Sadly, I can't pull all of my fubar blogs and post them to this site (not yet, at least, I have the power of programming on my side). I'm still trying to figure out how I am going to coordinate this site with the other websites I frequent. I enjoy getting feedback from people about my blogs, and the discussions (both serious and funny) that they start. While my new website has this capability, it would be a little funky for people to have to leave fubar to comment on my work, and you would not be able to get instant notification of comments. I think I may mirror the site with fubar, sharing blogs between the two. However, I don't think all of my blogs will make it. I plan on continuing the daily historical and news satire on the new site, but not here. It seems to be a little too spammy on my blog folder here. Not all of my pers

All By The Ripe Old Age Of 21
I grew up out in the middle of no where, in a big country house raised by strict, very religious, xenophobic parents, who thought home schooling would be good for me. When I was sixteen we joined a home school theater group and there I met my very first boyfriend, Devin,... and not so long after that I was pregnant. Devin's parents were also very religious people and so we were married. I was 17 he was 19. I had the baby and we moved into an apartment of our own. Several months later, Devin quit his construction job because it became too cold outside. So I got a job as a hostess/carryout-waiterss at a nearby steak house. (steak is yum) The money I made was barely enough to support Devin's World of Warcraft addiction. But on the bright side, having a job that required me to interact with the big wide world, which started to get me thinking about things... Things along the lines of "why am I married to this douche?" (I shan't list all the reasons why I s

How Long?
Not sure what day it is Not sure that I care Lost all desire to move or be part of life The hole is black and has no side At least none that I can feel Tears flow from me like blood Leaving streaks of me where ever they fall How long has it been now Since you left me like this To lie in my own pool of blood pouring freely from my eyes I loved you the first time our eyes met Now your eyes look upon another And yet my eyes see only you and blackness Oh for the courage to jump The courage to take a thousand pills or to slice my wrists But I know I will not. I'll just lie here, as tears flow like blood Feeling the flood from my heart dying You have to come back to me I can't move, I can hardly breath I've not eaten for days Lying here, wasting away. How Long has it been now. How many hours how many days Days seem like years Lying here in a puddling of my own tears.

Come Own Me For A Month
Saint Patrick's Day March 1st - March 17thAuction Are you in need of some Fubucks.. Then you came to the right place Come and Bid On The St. Patty's Day Auction.. The auction is now open to all of fubar. It will end on March 17th at midnight Fu time. So come and bid on your favorites!!! Offer a 30 day crush and all the mush. A salute for them safe or naughty, make them feel like such a hottie. Give them blings, rates and go on fubar dates. Offer them daily or weekly, custom pics. Make them your number one fam and friend and you'll make bucks in the end.

Abbott & Costello Buy A Computer
You have to be old enough to remember Abbott and Costello, or at least reruns of them, and too old to REALLY understand computers, to fully appreciate this. For those of us who sometimes get flustered by our computers, please read on... If Bud Abbott and Lou Costello were alive today, their infamous sketch, 'Who's on First?' might have turned out something like this: COSTELLO CALLS TO BUY A COMPUTER FROM ABBOTT [...] ABBOTT: Super Duper computer store. Can I help you? COSTELLO : Thanks. I'm setting up an office in my den and I'm thinking about buying a computer. ABBOTT : Mac? COSTELLO : No, the name's Lou . ABBOTT : Your computer? COSTELLO : I don't own a computer. I want to buy one. ABBOTT : Mac? COSTELLO: I told you, my name's Lou . ABBOTT : What about Windows? COSTELLO : Why? Will it get stuffy in here? ABBOTT : Do you want a computer with Windows? COSTELLO : I don't know. What will I see when I look at the windows? AB

Touch Me Madly - 2
I'm done here...maybe I'll scan the grocery store for some late night meat. Unfortunately, I'd have to be charming and witty and the only thing I'm exuding is sex...hot...sweaty...pulsing through my veins...I need it...badly. Hard to calm down lately. Every year it gets harder. I let my head hang and grit my teeth until my jaw pops ... my heart slows enough and I feel safe enough to move. My hand drops to my bare thigh and the touch of skin on skin...even my own...starts my heart racing again. I probably should have put on some panties before I left but I love how the wind caresses up my legs in my favorite mini-skirt. The room goes black and all noise gets filtered out except for the constant bass of the music and it pulses through my body, helping move my need from my fingers through my thighs. Suddenly I'm all alone in my head. Nothing else matters but the wetness between my legs. My left hand lightly runs its fingers across my exposed chest...slowly dipping into my cleavage and

Eggplant Sale
A grocer put up a sign that read "Eggplants, 25¢ ea.--three for a dollar." All day long, customers came in exclaiming: "Don't be ridiculous! I should get four for a dollar!" Meekly the grocer capitulated and packaged four eggplants. The tailor next door had been watching these antics and finally asked the grocer, "Aren't you going to fix the mistake on your sign?" "What mistake?" the grocer asked. "Before I put up that sign no one ever bought more than one eggplant."

The Expectations Game ( Part 1)
One of the really fun things about being on Fubar is trying to figure out what my friends are really thinking. I love chess although I never have much time to play as it takes about 15 years to play a game if you have a decent opponent. I don't have 15 years to play anything at this point in my life and so try to temper my haste and need to be expeditious with a need to be cautious. This is much like chess where your moves need to be planned well in advance to achieve your ultimate goal. Unlike chess where we play with plastic pieces, here we deal with living breathing humans, each with their own expectations, desires, goals and dreams. Each has their own experience both in the real world and in the not so real world of internet interaction. So when entering into this realm one must have reasonable expectations and know what is acceptable and good in terms of meeting our goal and what is just a waste of time and energy. This is not only difficult but creates a challange that can lea

3 Weeks Of Sad News
Just me again wow it has been a difficult 3 weeks around here. Ive had so much personal stuff to deal with. I always count myself as fortunate that I have been able to be with and know my family for as long as I have...but its still hard. My Uncle passed away around 3 weeks ago. He went in for routine knee surgery and there were complications and he passed. Im very thankful I got to spend Thanksgiving this year with him and he had 81 wonderful years with us all. He will be very sorely missed. A true gentleman. Three weeks later...my Grandma (Gran) passed away. Its been said that going to her brothers funeral really took its toll on her. She passed peacefully on friday. She was a hard working person who always had a smile for everyone she ever met. She also lived 83 years as well. And the next day...as I was driving home for her funeral. I also found out that friends I stay with at Thanksgiving. Her Mom passed away from cancer. She had a very long road...but I saw her a

Thoughts Of You
Thoughts Of You How many times have I thought of you And the many things I’d like to do. I sleep at night with you on my mind, One night with you, would be just fine. Your white robe is what I see, I wonder, wonder, how it would be. If I could touch your lips with mine, The thought of this is so divine. I want to see you without that robe, Your body to touch, caress, and probe. I’d lay you down, your body to admire, One look at you, sets my soul on fire. I want to feel you, touch, and kiss, send you into . . . . heavenly bliss, I want you, need you, feel my desire, Me inside you, I would never tire. I could make love to you all night long, It would feel so good, it couldn’t be wrong, These are my thoughts, what I fantasize, You’re all too perfect in this man’s eyes.

I Will Think Of You
And I will think of you when the dawn breaks and the night is through, When the sun awakes then I'll look up high at the same blue sky and I will think of you. I love those lyrics. I came across them in season 2 of Army Wives. Right after they all lost of loved one. I heard it again last night when i couldnt sleep. As the show ended one of the ladies thoughts were about her daughter and moving on after her death. I was moved at how much it really fit we me. "I keep looking for you Paul. Everywhere, in every face. Even though I know you can't come back, but I have to take one small step forward. I have to appreciate the new life I have here. I can picture you nodding in agreement, tellin me it's to be ok, for all of us it's going to be ok." It's been almost a year since you left us. To me it still seems like yesterday. I miss you Cowboy.

Really? /eyeroll
SWEET lou: hey your so hot can u add me plz im lou and do u have a screen name i have yahoo aol msn or skype really? please people, THINK before you annoy other people. i couldn't even bother to respond or block this one.

Precious Alexander
The darkness of the graveyard is scary to most.. So why isn't she scared? Because Ravyn is a ghost. She carries herself through the dark night all alone. She walks silently past all the marble stones. She stops at one stone and drops to her knees . It is one of a child, the child she lost you see. Her little Alexander is all she ever wanted, but all the love she had for him couldn't keep him alive. She wished she could go back before the morning that he died. He was all she had after his father died and gone away. She wished and prayed that he would be okay. But little Alex just couldn't breathe, She layed upon the hospital bed and looked over trying to see. The nurse said the little one didn't make it, that he was gone. She didn't find out until the next dawn. She cried for him, I guess she always will. No one can ever take his place, nothing can fill. The young Ravyn only fourteen lost her first son to death. She isn't dead herself she just feels that way. She misses the one s

Kinky Sex Survey
Twenty Questions on Kink (Well, some are related, so not really 20, but stfu) 1. Let's start fairly basic. Have you ever fantasised about complete loss of control during sex, IE, objectification or total power exchange? Yes 2. If you were a slippery fucker in the last question and didn't specify which, which one? And have you actually done it? I'm submissive and yes I've actually done it in real life 3. "Dirty fucking bastard" / "Filthy little fucking whore". Dyou fantasise about talking REALLY filthy during sex? fuck yes 4. Ever actually do it? (Insert amusing story here if you have one.) I prefer to be called the names then do the name calling. 5. Ever been to hospital as a direct result of sex? STDs don't count. I don't wanna know 'bout your herpes. Nope. 6. More than once? Nope. 7. Regardless of your gender, when someone is going down on you, dyou just sit back and enjoy it or attempt to shove their face so far into your crotch that they're

My First Blog On My Birthday
Not mush to really say. But thank you to all my friends and Fubudd's for the Bday wishes. And the growing fun i'm having on Fu. Have met alot of great people on here and hope to meet alot more. So feeel free to stop in a drop my a line. Or bling or blast. LOL. But I you do stop in at least Rate me and Date me and say HI BIL. Thank you and have a great day.

What A Tard : Wellendowed1 Wants To See Them Private Pics And What Ya Workin Wit, Don't Be Skerrrrrrrd I Won
THiS TARD LEFT ME A COMMENT oN MY DEFAULT... SAYiNG : EVER HAD A BLACK ONE? READ THE SHOUT!!! LMFAO ->Wellendowe...: lol ... never had a white one! lmfao Wellendowe...: who me? ->Wellendowe...: wuz up with ur pix??? they r small as hell! and what exactly r u looking for! pussy??? well... good luck! lol Wellendowe...: naw, easy pussy aint good pussy at all ->Wellendowe...: looks like u get none at all! ahhahhahaaa Wellendowe...: looks like that to you but your wrong ->Wellendowe...: well..i figured that of ur caption under ur tiny azz pix Wellendowe...: you never had any black dick b4 , if you did you would not want n e thing else Wellendowe...: pics dont do very much for the internet honey ->Wellendowe...: i never had a white dikk b4! lol ... Wellendowe...: stop fucking with that plastic and rubber ->Wellendowe...: well ... if ur dikk is as tiny like ur pix... nevermind lmfao Wellendowe...: if you saw my dick you would drop to your knees an

Muffinman's Auto/cherrybomb Auction
Do you need an Auto 11 OR a Cherrybomb? Well, here's your chance to win it! Muffinman is holding an auction! Come place a bid on an Auto 11! Click on the bling icon to make a bid. Auction will run until March 7 at 5:53pm Fu-Time. Proceeds from the sale of this bling will go to his SPOTLIGHT fund. Please feel free to make donations to him. The winner will be contacted by Muffinman following the close of the auction. Upon the receipt of the fubucks, he will Bling you on the next Happy Hour. ****************************** Auction is sponsored by: muffinman OWNER of THE HIDE AWAY ******************************

Peaces Of The Fallen
Peaces of the fallen I thought my life was finally starting to begin, When in the background it was only starting to fall apart. I thought for once i was finally starting to be happy, When the only happiness i had was in someone elses hands. My world is shattered and now my heart lay in peaces, My compassion has fled away and my will is no longer with me. I have given up my heart, my happiness, Now I'm left to live in the dark. ~Peaces of the fallen~ 3-4-09 By: Wingsy

Unloved
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be "normal" but I guess I will never know. I guess I seem normal to most, but it's all just a show. I have tried so hard to change who I am but I guess I just can't. I guess I am just meant to be this way. Because of you I can never trust anyone ever again. My life has made me the way I am. I can never be whole just broken. I can never be complete, and it's all because of you. Why did you make me this way? Why do you hate me so? Now no one wants me, I am broken like a doll and my soul ripped apart. I have been used by men, by people who said they were my friends. Treated like a dog all my life I hate who I am inside, but atleast I am better than you. The scars I have only remind me of the pain,because of you I can never feel love only pain. That's all I known in my life. I loved you so much.. Why mom? Why do you hate me? I deserve a better mom than you and you know I do. You have know idea what I have been through in

Weren't Meant To Be
I'VE LEARNED THAT THINGS CHANGE, PEOPLE CHANGE, AND IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU FORGET THE PAST OR TRY TO COVER IT UP; IT SIMPLY MEANS THAT YOU MOVED ON AND TREASURE THE MEMORIES. LETTING GO DOESN'T MEAN GIVING UP, MEANS ACCEPTING THAT SOMETHINGS WEREN'T MEANT TO BE

Thats It Im Done
well its that time again i am sick of this shit and i think its time for me to leave i wont come back and nobody will stop me to stay this time cuz aint nobody real on here its a popularity contest and i am not down for kid games so say goodbye to me peace and i wont come back

Pussy Pics
THE VOODOO PENIS A Florida businessman was getting ready to go on a long business trip, so he thought he'd buy his wife something to keep her occupied. He went to a sex shop and explained his situation. The salesman there said, 'Well, I don't know that I have anything that will keep her occupied for so many weeks, except. . . the Voodoo Penis!' The husband said 'The what'? The man repeated 'The Voodoo Penis' and pulled out what seemed to be an ordinary dildo. The husband laughed, and said, 'It looks like a dildo!' The salesman then pointed to the door and said, 'Voodoo Penis, door!' The penis rose out of its box, darted over to the door and started pounding the keyhole. The whole door shook wildly with vibrations, so much that a crack began to form down the middle. Then the salesman said 'Voodoo Penis, return to box!' and the penis stopped and returned to the box. The husband bought it and took it home to his wife. After the husband had been gone a few days, the

Me, A Faerie??
You Scored as Faerie Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie. Faerie 83% Dragon 67% Demon 50% Mermaid 42% WereWolf 33% Angel 17% You Scored as a : Faerie Faerie 83% Dragon 67% Demon 50% Mermaid 42% WereWolf 33% Angel 17%

Finally Me Again
Ive been doing a lot of reflecting on my past and who i was and who i am now. I didnt like a lot of the things i found at first but the deeper i went the more i found that im not as bad as i thought i was. I finally found myself again. Ive been pretty down and out the past couple years but i can finally be who i want to be. I feel a lot better about myself than i used to. Im finally the person who my family and friends will be able to be proud of. I have finally grown up and taken the time to face myself and the things that i feared about myself. All i want is to be a better person and friend to all of the people who helped me and saved me from all of the stupid things i used to do. No matter where i go or what happens i want them all to know that they will always be in my heart and in my mind as my heros.

What The Hell
the california supreme court overturned prop 8. Which basically means that people like me voted for absolutely nothing. This is not democracy; this is moronic spoiled children wanting to get their way, and then they bitch and whine and holler when they don't get their way. I'm sick of it. Democracy means that the people can decide, the people passed prop 8, but that's not what other people want. Everyone is for "democracy" as long as they get what they want. If they don't get it then they freak out. I mean they already have that bastard in the white house fucking everything up. People wanted change, what they got is a socialist who's going to destroy our economy for political gain. And whenever he messes up he just blames bush. He's a coward and he has no idea what he's doing or what power he actually has. Well, I REFUSE to let this happen. I refuse to let communism take over our country. I can't do much but i can get my opinion out while it's still legal to do so. He claims he's i

Ok Yah Lazy
So lazy that husband calls my phone from upstairs to ask if he can just make me some pasta dinner rather than go out like I asked him via text message. Because see walking up the stairs is hard. In a cranky ass mood don't know if I want to just go to bed or attempt conversation.

Charlotte's Tangled Web
Release your anxiety The trouble you've seen The pain you have felt The news you've heard The bitter reality you've tasted That foul stench that creep into your olfactories From all the bullshit. Internal chaos has ravaged your petite frame Pharmaceuticals only numb Never heal. Take my hand my precious sister Seek refuge, if only a little , in my words I will not harm you Your imperfections make you perfectly lovable You are admired for your strength Cherished for you kindness Loved for your heart I can feel its pulsating rhythm permeating through your soul You are brave And you are strong You will unravel this tangled web Precious ..this is for you ..u know who you are

I'm A Humanitarian Not A Missionary
ok so ya all know i take alot of pictures some are good some not so good some are religious some aren't. but i will never preach to anyone... i was there for a very historic event. the first bible written in the qhiche language. which is a mayan dialect. funny thing is when i went to school i was taught that the mayan were extinct. which is not the case and prolly why they hold a very big piece of my heart. my cousin preacher billy has spent most of his life in guatemala with these people. it took him 25 years to translate the bible into there language. it was an honor for me to be apart of the ceremony. and something i will remember for the rest of my life. i hope you enjoy the pics and there culture as much as i have. thanks

Sponcerin A Lil Kindergarden Girl
as most know i am 30 years old and have no kids of my own. and when i heard that i can sponcer a kid down there i jumped right on it... i choose a lil girl and should be gettin her info in a week or two and will update this blog. this is my chance to give someback to the village that has taken me in and accepted me as one of there own, which is a grate honor for me.

In Memory Of My Sister *shirley*, Which Is Called Rain!
Rain reminds me of life, the more that comes down, the closer it comes to the end. Rain reminds me of love, it last only for a moment but when it ends, it's not forever. Rain reminds me of friendship, it's always there when you need it. Everybody is a drop of rain in the world and every drop of rain has a message. My message is *not to give up on rain* I didn't!

A Woman Whom I Never Met..
A woman whom I never met, Lived in a land I never knew. How could I know what love is? Yet, I do, I do, I do! The woman I never met, Was real and proud and strong; Her eyes were deeply set, And she could sing a song. And she could make a joke, And laugh when in the mood; But long before she spoke, I guessed her solitude. The woman I never met, A shadow in my mind; I saw her silhouette, But will I ever find, That shadows can come alive, Making my dream complete? But then will she arrive, The woman I've yet to meet? All my days alone, And all my nights it seems; I have known a woman unknown, Who shares my secret dreams. But still my dream one seems to hide, When really she should be at my side. The woman I never met Is half a world away; She may not find me, yet I'm waiting for the day. The day I go out to meet The woman I've never met. -Dominic Zingale

"masters Talented Slut"....
I love the sensation of your freshly waxed pussy against my face. The way it feels against my fingers, lips and tongue is a massive turn on. Almost as much of a turn on is the physical impact of the waxing on your groin. Your cunt looks almost vulgar with the red glow of the after-effect of the wax being torn off your body, especially your lips which look even fuller and a brighter red than usual. Strengthening my desire is the knowledge that the only reason you had it first done was because I required it from you. It pleases me greatly that, like so many other things in the past, you subsequently incorporated it enthusiastically into your life. Your list of new achievements reads almost like a sexual CV: sex in public, be it against a warehouse wall or on a train between stations; not swallowing my cum until given permission; licking me clean after every fuck; taking my cock up your ass; becoming a bondage slut; finger fucking your cunt at restaurants and cinemas

Water.
Everything is connected. All matter is made up of Atoms right? ALL matter. All plants, all people, all things. These tiny little particles are all the same, yet everything they make up is somehow different. Atoms make up the bees. That form hives, and live in perfect harmony with nature. They have a perfectly functioning autonomous society. Everyone works, and everyone creates. Each one of them plays their role to make up a larger picture. Each one of them has their niche. Bees are not alone. There are ants, termites, fish, anemones....The circle of life, the weather cycle, the tides, the moon... Everything around us runs in perfect harmony, perfect cycles... Can you honestly tell me all that perfection is a bunch of random coincidences??? Why is it so difficult for us, in all our opposable thumbed glory find, to find OUR niche. Our cycle... Not even just as individuals, but as a society, a culture, a race, a species?!? These creatures do. They just do. They don't stop an

Poem For My Daughter
LOVE DEVINE Looking at her now it's hard to believe that only years ago I didn't want a baby. She is what completes my life. Proof to me of love's pure light! An angelic gift given by He. How hard it must have been setting her free! Thankful I am eternal and pure, for without her I couldn't endure. My own cherub Willow is surely a glimpse into Heaven's window!

1 Week W/out Caffeine
It's been a week since I had coffee or for that matter, ANYTHING with caffeine in it and I haven't killed anyone yet. I sure miss the exercise I was giving my wrist, elbow and lips by drawing that cup back and forth from the table. I haven't yet implemented the new routine of masturbating and reading the newspaper every morning..some things just can't replace the satisfying cup of joe in the morning!

Da Da Da
I really need to meet more people...I work from home so interacting with people doesn't happen all that much...So please, if you want to go out and eat, go see a movie, or just chill out....get a hold of me..chances are that Im free

Cover Me
This is kind of tacky but oh well.... Cover Me with your madness baby Cover Me with your grace Dont offer all your love without a steady embrace. The days have been so long and the nights have been so lonely I have missed you so terribly And you tell me I am the only Cover with me your kisses baby Cover me with your grace Only offer me your hand if it comes with a steady embrace.

Transgressions Of Life
So I move to Missouri to do my boot camp. My dad dies i get out on berevement leave. I move to Kansas to help a friend out and end up meeting someone really great, really amazing the first person to make me smile in a very long time since dad died. He was going to come down and see me tomorrow. But now because of time and circumstance of my life I have to move..... Why when we find something good it always gets taken away?

Pain Or Bliss
The past few days when I've gotten online and checked my fubar I've heard a lot of peoples stories. Bartending for so many years I got to the point where I stopped asking if people had some one special and started asking, "what's your love story?" Today I was adding some new quotes to my fubar and some funny pics as well and one thing I noticed is that quotes, by mass majority are about love or heartache. So it made me wonder is there a grey area? You hear people all the time say "I'm happy being single", or "I love being single". But do we really? Or are we singles in heartache? I believe in some way we are. Some more than others. Bottom line, love hurts either way. Whether you're in it or out of it, it hurts you in some way. There is no happy ending people...it all ends in heartache. Whether you lose your love along the way or you spend your whole lives together. Either your crying and moving on to the next or your holding your love on their death bed when you're 80, either way...hea

Fubucks For Rates!
Hi Folks!! The going rate is 15,000 fubucks per 100 pic rates while my Auto 11's are activated. Send me a personal message when you are though and let me know how many pics you rated. I will send the bucks within 24 hours or less to you or whoever you want to receive them. Please do not SB me or send progress reports. Thanks, Steve

Something Yall Should Know..
I WANT TO JUST SAY THIS ONE TIME AND ONE TIME ONLY: IM SICK OF THIS SITE. NOT GONNA DELETE MY PAGE CAUSE I HAVE MET TO MANY FRIENDS HERE, BUT I SERIOUSLY DOUBT ILL BE ON MUCH ANYMORE, YOU CAN DELETE ME, I REALLY HONESTLY DONT CARE IF YOU DO OR DONT. MY NEW JOB LIMITS ME TO BEING HOME 34 HRS EVERY 12 DAYS. AND TO BE HONEST I RATHER BE DOING THAT THEN SITTIN HERE. THIS PLACE HAS WENT TO HELL IN A HAND-BASKET, USED TO BE ALL BOUT MEETING PEOPLE AND MAKING NEW FRIENDS. NOW ITS WHO CAN GET TO A LEVEL 30 THE QUICKEST.... I MEAN HOW FUCKING GAY IS THAT? SO IF I DISAPPEAR FOR A MONTH OR 10 YOU WILL KNOW IM DOING WHAT I DO BEST AND WORKING AND NOT SITTING ON MY ASS AT HOME PLAYING ON FUBAR LIKE 90% OF YOU DO, DAY IN AND DAY OUT. YES IM BEING BLUNT, WOULD YOU WANT ME TO BE ANY OTHER WAY? THATS ME LIKE IT OR LEAVE IT I SAY IT LIKE I SEE IT.. UNTIL NEXT TIME IF THERE EVER IS ONE.. TAKE CARE

Membership Rules
Angels Playground Membership Rules: 1. You must be sponsored by one of the members. 2. Send Private Message requesting to be a Prospective Member and who is sponsoring you. 3. We will then confirm your sponsorship. 4. We will send you a PM stating you are being considered for membership. 5. The Council shall vote. 6. If accepted, Fan/Friend/Rate Angels Playground and Family. 7. After step 6 we will announce your membership and supply membership tag. 8. Member can put “Member of Angels Playground” in their Profile name. 9. We do not judge any one on sex, race or any other worldly values, we are all equal in God’s eyes. 10. Members will have to respond to all prayer requests.

~in Loving Memory~ My Aunt Ruby~ July17, 1948 ~ March 2, 2009
I am home in heaven, dear ones; oh, so happy and so bright! There is a perfect joy and beauty in the everlasting light. All the pain and grief is over, every restless tossing passed; I am now at peace forever, safely home in heaven at last. There is work still waiting for you, so you must not idly stand, Do it now, while life remaineth, you shall rest in God's own land. When that work is all completed, He will gently call you home; Oh, the rapture of that meeting oh, the joy to see you come!

Loneliness
So, yeah, nobody has actually talked to me in a few days. I'm really upset about it, I mean, what the hell do I have to do to get some friends who will actually talk to me. I sometimes get very lonely, and this just makes it worse, especially when someone who claims to be my boyfriend won't even give me the time of day right now, it's kind of depressing, I'm sorry if anyone reads this, I just need to rant a little bit.

Tired Of Mutes And Friends Who Dont Speak?
RATE, FAN, ADD, HOLLA AT THESE WONDERFUL PEOPLE.. I PROMISE THAT THEY DON'T BITE! WELL MAYBE MOST OF 'EM DON'T HE HE :p.... SHOW THESE SEXY AND FLY FUBARIANS SUM GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVE! SHOW LOVE! TEXAS HELLCAT PLEASE RERATE MY PAGE TY!!@ fubar

Rage
I'm so angry Just let me die Get me off This emotional high. I'm so mad I want to kill Adrenaline rush It'd be a thrill. Short and sweet Do it fast Or nice and slow Make it last. Take this rope Make a noose Tie it tight Don't make it loose. Hang me up And take the chair Then turn and leave Don't stop and stare. On second thought That'd be no fun Forget the rope Grab a gun. Take an aim Don't start to doubt One good shot Make it count. If that's too much Take this knife Slit my throat Take my life. Tears of rage Gritting teeth I hate myself With disbelief.

I Belong To You...
Thank you for playing this song for me baby. This truly represents you and I. You know that whole soul melting together thing....Yah, this is the song I hear in my head when I think about that dream you had. You are the flame in my heart You light my way in the dark You are the ultimate star You pick me from above Your unconditional love Takes me to paradise I belong to you And you You belong to me too You make my life complete You make me feel so sweet You make me feel so divine Your soul and mind are entwined Before you I was blind But since I've opened my eyes And with you there's no disguise So I could open up my mind I always loved you from the start But I could not figure out That I had to do it everyday So I put away the fight Now I'm gonna live my life Giving you the most in every way I belong to you And you You belong to me too You make my life complete You make me feel so sweet Oh I belong to you I belong to you And you, you You bel

Just Wondering..
Over the years, I have considered myself a true introvert (one who enjoys his solitude whenever and whereever he can find it.) Being alone often gives you time to think and wonder and imagine. Yet, I have discovered something along the way. Life is quite boring when your voice is the only one you tend to hear more often than you care to. So, I decided to reach outside of myself and breathe in the thoughts of other folks. Hopefully make a few friends and accepting associates along my journey into socialization. What have I learned in my cybernetic travels? Ya'll need some serious help!! I don't mean to be rude but why is it that the majority of women I see on here, appear to have this great fascination with expressing their sexy side. I am not above admiring the outward beauty of a person, but, come on, do you really need to flash the world your physical gifts to make a friend? Is the power of cleavage more potent than the skill to express yourself in the effort to garner th

Back Stabbers
ALL COMMENTS ACCEPTED - NASTY OR NOT OK so as my status on my home page suggests (read it and make your own interpretations) I aint in the best of moods today so this blog is more like a rant before I go off and get drunk and maybe break my other leg or better still something else. Why the hell do people have to back stab and slate those that help them - is it in their genes or do they learn it from their peers?? Well after what I wsa told yesterday it has defo taught me that I will be careful who I trust with things that I tell them cos now I have been accused of being an alcoholic unfit mother. And to think that the person that said that used to let me look after her kids so she could go down the pub, do her shit and generally be a slag. WELL NOW THIS BITCH IS ABOUT TO BITE AND BITE I DAMN WELL WILL

I ♥ The 80s [train]
I L♥ve The 80s As with every other train out there - drama will NOT be tolerated! 1. Fan each person below. 2. Rate their profile. (If you have rated their profile recently - rate one of their pictures) 3. Leave them a comment telling them you are riding this train. **You DO NOT need to add each person as a friend** When you have rated everyone message aGEM4life to be added to the list and for your tag to be made. Rate this folder of pics to receive your personal tag. Start with this one (and continue until the end of folder)... 1. ♊aGEM4life♊ ☆SinnersFamily☆SBG☆ FUOwnedBy Willie ~Wife of Ike™~ 2.Willie 3. HersheyK 4. ♥ T.R.O.U.B.L.E ♥FU-OWNED

3k To Level
My friend Rie is like 3k points shy of level 10. She only has 7 pictures though...she does have a salute. If you could r/f/a and rate her 7 pics that would be lovely. Rie@ fubar Thanks Support the Troops

Alright
So I dont really know what to make of this site. It seems like there are a lot of devoted people on here that really enjoy making there levels go up, I signed up for this to just see what it was all about and so far it has been pretty fun. Up until now. I've kind of come to realize that yes it is the internet and how the hell do you know if people are actually being sincere? You cant, I mean I guess you cant tell in the real life either but people arent just trying to get something out of you just to "level up". What I guess I'm trying to say is I'm looking for the real thing, friendship, companionship, even a beer and a conversation ... I dont care what it is I'm done trying to get it on a website. Not trying to bash here but the real world is looking a little more tempting after all of this. Doesnt mean I'm leaving because I'm sure someone on here could change my mind lol but for now I've got my guard up. Happy Saturday to whoever reads this... if anyone? lol

Finding And Keeeping A Life Partner (taken From Shawty(rok))
Golden rules for finding your life partner by Dov Heller, M.A. When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50%, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss. Right! If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love". I believe this is the #1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound "not politically correct", there's a profound truth here. Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage (or a relationship, in my humble opinion). When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: "You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone". You need a lot more!!! Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life p

Feed The Gods...
Broken by this life Thrown under the grinding wheel Feed the Gods my strychnine soul Bury me beneath the stones as they fly My glass house heart gets smashed I'll use my edge to free myself Break the chains I've forged What once was stone shall again be flesh I need a hand is all Someone there to pull me up Help me off the ground Shield me that I may heal It seems the end has come An end to pain and suffering Light shall cast out the shadow within Sugar and spice shall sweeten my bitterness In the wake of new beginnings Old bridges shall be rebuilt I'm breaking old habits Let them die in the dawning of this new life

Tale As Old As Time..
Lets start out with, are you available? - For what? free dinner?!? yes Ever asked a boy for advice? -Yeah, DRH gives good advice. Last person you texted? - uhm...my cousin Mario. Are you currently mad at anyone? - Nope. Where was your default picture taken? - My kitchen. Name something you dislike about the day you're having? - Homework...I don't want to do it. Do you want to get married someday? - Yes. What are you thinking of right now? - Homework, especially that essay. ugh! Who was the last person to make you smile? - Anth

Razorblade Kisses
Upon my wrist this blade will kiss, The blood flows down all over the ground. I lay here all alone, as he scream's "NO" over the phone. He tells me not to do it, that its not worth it. And still I cut so deep so I don't have to feel this shit. I don't want to hurt! I don't want to feel.. I want to hate, hate everything that's real. The drops of blood get bigger and bigger. The sheets are covered the pain is gone. Forever in my heart the hatred will live on.. RAVYN SNOW

Corona
Awww a cold Corona and a slice of lime on a hot summer day, but why do we put the lime in it? Light, specificly sun light is devil to beer and since Corona is packaged in clear bottles it gets a bit skunky and the lime freshens the taste a bit. I still love it!

My Thoughts On Life
Life is filled with good-byes and it hurts every time Sometime i feels like i lost so much that, I feel I have to find new things to loose All I know is there must be some divine point to it all Then when we die it will all come clear and we'll say so that was the point and sometimes I think that theres no point at all and thats the point All i know most peoples lives are a great disappointment to them and no one leaves this earth without feeling terrible pain and if theres no divine explanation to it all well thats sad

Jojo Has Auto 11s; Level Her By Her Birthday!
JoJo ~ Ecuadorian Goddess ~ is running Auto 11s! Ecuadorian Goddess JoJo is now approximately 500,000 to Godmother! Ecuadorian Goddess* Help JoJo level by her birthday, March 25th!!! Check Us All Out: Sarge's Bad Girls

Goodbye
If I was a bird I would fly far far away from here. i would never come back. Never feel any of the hurts that I endure everyday. If I was a bird I could soar above all that makes me sad, up high where it is quiet and there is nothing is but silence. If I was a bird I would travel with others who were just like me and didn't call names or judge me, or tell me that I never help them. I would cling to them for support and love and friendship. If I was a bird my wings would spread far out, far out enough to catch the wind and take me away from all this hate and dispair that I feel in my everyday life and the slings and the arrows that are constantly shot at me because I am not able to do anything right. I guess if I was a bird I may not be able to be very good at that either so it wouldnt really wouldnt matter.

~~souls End~~
What are you waiting for? Come back to Soul’s End Never been? Well, come check it out! Rock out with some of the most kickass people on Fubar. So come on, let’s kick back and have fun! No drama! No bullshit! Just good music and good times! HIRING STAFF We’re looking for the following dedicated staff members to join our awesome team: DJs Promoters Greeters

Guinness -v- Women
A Guinness always goes down easy A Guinness doesn't care when you come A Guinness doesn't get jealous when you grab another Guinness A Guinness won't get upset if you come home and have another Guinness on your breath A frigid Guinness is a good Guinness After you've had a Guinness, the bottle is still worth 10 cents Guinness doesn't demand equality Guinness is always wet Guinness is never late Guinness never has a headache Guinness stains wash out Hangovers go away If you change Guinness you don't have to pay alimony If you pour a Guinness right you'll always get a good head When you go to a bar, you know you can always pick up a Guinness When your Guinness goes flat, you toss it out You always know when you're the first to pop a Guinness You can always have more than one Guinness in one night and not feel guilty You can enjoy a Guinness all month long You can have a Guinness in public You can share a Guinness with your frien

Just Me Expressing Me
You know i came onto this site in the belief that this was an adult site. I have come to the conclusion that some on here are adults but some still believe this is high school. Let me define that. See to me high school is where you have your clicks. You all remember those. Only thing is on here you cant tell who is real and who isnt. So i have come to the conclusion that those on here that want to relive their high school days this isnt the place for you. Now before everyone jumps to conclusions i am not pointing fingers cause i am not that immature. So my thoughts are if you want to be friends please remember im an adult. I have kids in high school, i dont need anymore around me.

Somethings Missing
It hits me like a rush. The want. The need. The savior. That feeling that they cant survive without you. Your everything they need. A solution to all their problems. Your the best thing to ever happen to them. As time goes on you slip here and there. You cant be their safety next. You cant clean up their mess. You can show them the path but you CAN NOT walk it for them. Why is that so hard? Push them up as high as you can... only to be blamed when they slip and fall. First a savior, then a burden. For some reason if i cant solve their problems, i am one. Or im the cause of all of them. i need to stop, i need friends. its a two way street. somehow it always ends up 1 way. Where is ashely? where did she disappear to? how did i run her off? the ying to my yang. i likely fool myself. she means more to me then i ever mean tto her. it seems like nothing more then a dream. Did i make her up? was our friendship just my imagination or wishful thinking? i never felt used. i never f

One More Drink
One more drink And I do believe I'll drown Don't you think That this room is spinning round By the way What did you say was your name I don't recall Cuz everything just starts to sound the same YOu tell me one more time with feeling I swear I been staring at this ceiling Won't you pour me in my car I swear I really don't live that far... One more drink And I'll have that woman off my mind Don't you think I'm sure it happens all the time The things I say Are usually better left unsaid I don't recall Did she say I'd be better off dead YOu tell me one more time with feeling I swear I been staring at this ceiling Won't you pour me in my car I swear I really don't live that far... One more drink And I do believe I'll drown One more drink I'll end up in the lost and found One more drink Won't remember what I said One more drink Wake up with a bullet in my head

Owned
>>"Ridge Hall computer assistance; may I help you?" "Yes, well, I'm having trouble with WordPerfect." >>"What sort of trouble?" "Well, I was just typing along, and all of a sudden the words went away." >>"Went away?" "They disappeared." >>"Hmm. So what does your screen look like now?" "Nothing." >>"Nothing?" "It's blank; it won't accept anything when I type." >>"Are you still in WordPerfect, or did you get out?" "How do I tell?" >>"Can you see the C: prompt on the screen?" "What's a sea-prompt?" >>"Never mind, can you move your cursor around the screen?" "There isn't any cursor: I told you, it won't accept anything I type." >>"Does your monitor have a power indicator?" "What's a monitor?" >>"It's the thing with the screen on it that looks like a TV. Does it have a little light that tells you when it's on?" "I don't know." >>"Well, then look on the back of the monitor and find where the power cord goes into it. Can you see that

What Do You Like
FETISH 101 TERMS & DEFINITIONS FROM THE FETISH LIFESTYLE FETISH: Excessive sexual focus on an object of fixation. That's what this site is about. Everyone has their own little fetishes. Some have more than others. Do you know what your's are? Here are some terms and definitions from the fetish "language". TYPES OF FETISHES Acrotomophilia The person is sexually aroused by the sight of an amputation usually of a whole arm or leg. Adolescentilism The person is aroused by impersonating both the dress and behavior of an adolescent. Andromimetophilia A woman who is sexually aroused by impersonating a man. They purposefully look like and act like a man. Apotemnophilia This person is sexually aroused by having a part of their body amputated either by themselves or someone else. The memory of the amputation can serve to arouse them for years. It is the act of having an extremity amputated that is arousing; thus, they have to be awake during the process. Asphyxiophilia This i

Finger In The Air
Go away, I'm in too truthful a mood to talk Lines on the map get tangled up when my heart gets lost, Cut me down to size I believe, cut me down Everybody said "It ain't gonna be easy" Nobody said "Kid, it's gonna get hard" Heaven's a place for only those who pay their bills on time And fate has a way of turning innocence into a crime Cut me down to size I believe, cut me down Everybody said "It ain't gonna be easy" Nobody said "Kid, it's gonna get hard" They said, "Give up; go back where you belong. Dreaming's for the dead; The road is too long" Middle finger in the air; I'm still here, egging them on. The road's paved the same way for sinners and saints Beginners test the water and suffer the fates You don't know what I've seen You don't know what I've seen You don't know this is what I've always wanted. Everybody said "It ain't gonna be easy" Nobody said "Kid, it's gonna get hard" They said, "Give up; go back where you belong. Dreaming's for the dead; The

Who Are You ?
Who Are You ? I am a child of the forgotten god, The same god we are all made of. In his likeness we were formed, Yet no two are alike in this world. There is a difference between you and me' That is something you can definately see. You don't like me, And I don't care. You are a sorry little ass, And you let it show. How sad it must be to be you. You are your own worst enemy. Full of love is how I am, I dont care what you think about me. I will accept you just as you are, It is your hell that you adore. Live it to the fullest degree. This thing in your mind, That has left you behind. In your struggle to get free, Watch that little demon doesn't strangle you. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved.

More Sketches.....
please remember me in this new life that you lead i was the one-you claimed you needed please remember me.... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx you were my star, my sapphire... a love so intense, it burned with desire but reality burned it much quicker my love my heart now a funeral pyre. m.

All Good Goin Fu Peeps Read This
OKAY AS MOST OF YOU PROBABLY KNOW THERE IS A COUPLE ON HERE THAT DELETE AND BLOCK PEOPLE FOR LITTLE THINGS. NOW I USUALLY DONT CARE AND LET STUPID CRAP LIKE THIS ROLL OFF ME, BUT I THINK ITS TIME TO AIR OUT THIER DIRTY LAUNDRY. DEREK&CANDYREALMARRIED/DONTFLIRTWITHUSTHISISACOUPLESPROFILEBOTHOWNAMEN/READOURPROFILEIMPORTANT/A/R/F @ fubar I BELIEVE THAT LIKE MYSELF OTHERS ON HERE HAVE LIVES OUTSIDE OF FUBAR BUT THESE PEOPLE THINK THEY SHOULD COME BEFORE OUR HOME LIVES. FAIR WARNING IF THEY ARE ON YOUR LIST YOU BETTER PUT THEM FIRST IF YOU WANT TO KEEP THEM AS FRIENDS CAUSE LORD KNOWS IF YOU MISS JUST ONE OF THIER AUTO'S OR IF YOU COMMENT THEM REGULARLY AND MISS JUST ONE DAY YOU WILL BE BLOCKED. I MYSELF THINK IT IS VERY FUNNY. JUST A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO I RECIVED A PROFILE COMMENT THAT THEY HAD AUTOS ON. MIND YOU HERE LATELY I HAVENT BEEN RATING ANYBODY I GET ON CHECK MY MAIL RETURN LOVE AND GET OFF, I DO NOT HAVE MUCH TIME FOR ANYTHING ELSE. WELL TODAY I FIND OUT TH

Support Is Available
> http://www.fubar.com/user/2384077 > > http://www.fubar.com/user/2419961 > > http://www.fubar.com/user/2337370 If any one has been effected by the actions of any one or all three of these profiles, goodnews - there is now support available for you - mail me for details - but only if you have directly been affected by it.

Hawaiian Vacation Giveaway Annouced!
Hi Everyone. For those of you who know me are aware that I work for an ADULT magazine company. warning naked people - www.paganman.com We are officially on issue 5 now and things just keep getting better and better. To show off all the cool things we can do with our magazine we are giving away a free trip to Hawaii. The person who sells the most amount of subscriptions in the next 6 months gets an all expense paid trip to Hawaii. Amazing right? On top of that we will be giving away prizes monthly for top performers. Selling the magazine is pretty easy and anyone with any online friends can do it. Contact me for more details or email vlad@paganman.com">

Women
"A Texas Wife" Three men married wives from different states. The first man married a woman from Michigan . He told her that she was to do the dishes and house cleaning. It took a couple of days, but on the third day, he came home to see a clean house and dishes washed and put away. The second man married a woman from Missouri . He gave his wife orders that she was to do all the cleaning, dishes and the cooking. The first day he didn't see any results, but the next day he saw it was better. By the third day, he saw his house was clean, the dishes were done and there was a huge dinner on the table. The third man married a girl from TEXAS . He ordered her to keep the house cleaned, dishes washed, lawn mowed, laundry washed, and hot meals on the table for every meal. He said the first day he didn't see anything, the second day he didn't see anything but by the third day, some of the swelling had gone down and he could see a little out of his left eye, and his ar

Looking For A Cuddle Bunny??
ROSE BUD IS ON THE LOOKOUT FOR A NEWFULOVE COULD THAT BE YOU??. IF YOU'RE FEELING LONELY AND LOOKING FOR SOMEONE SPECIAL TO LIGHT UP YOUR FULIFE...THEN LOOK NO FURTHER!!! SHOW HER SOME LOVE!!! IF you think she could be your special FU-someone, give her a nice and relaxing while cosying up next to the or take her out for a romantic for two followed by a

Round 2
I returned today even after i had finally decided to leave this shit hole. But a few friends on here changed my mind and talked me into it. Im glad they did, because i missed speaking with them. The reasons i had left where simple; 1. I grew bored with this shit hole 2. I grew bored with this shit hole 3. I grew bored with this shit hole 4. I let a liar make me feel bad about their life, which turned out to be ... a lie. 5. I grew bored with this shit hole Either way, im back so nuff said, hate me or love me .... IDGAF ( i dont give a fuck) Fin

They Lie!!!
I'm new but I figure if you say you are going to "return the favor" you should prob do it. Like, for instance, Nea Nea Jeezy's on line wife. I didn get a single prop back. No rates no fans. Nothin. BOOOOOOOO

Is It Me
Sometimes I sit and pondered if I am just meant to be alone. I know I'm not a bad person or even an ugly person. Yes sometimes I wear my feelings on my sleeve but it's because I can only be me. I've tried changing to please others but in the end, I didn't like the person that I had become. I have my faults just like everyone else but sometimes I just wonder if the values and times of some of the old ways have changed. If they have, then I refuse to revert back to someone that I don't like just to please someone else. So take me for me as I am or just keep looking elsewhere. I know somewhere out there is someone beautiful lady who will do just that. So until that day comes, I CAN ONLY BE ME.

So You Want Into The Private Folder Right!
Here is how and the only way to get in...Is by one of 3 ways 1) Buy Me A Bling pack 25 credit( no less than that). It will get you in for 3 weeks! 2) Buy my A Cherry Bomb Bling or 3) Buy me an Auto 11 Bling Either of the last 2 will get you in for a month. I am always adding and will be taking certain ones out also...so if you want in there is the 3 ways to get there...NO EXCEPTIONS!! You may think it is a lot but my private pics show a lot!! And it is worth it to me! Once you buy me one of those I will let you in a soon as I get the message that it was purchased I will let you in and your time will start then. Any other questions PM Me.

Kobalt Tools 500 At Atlanta Motor Speedway.
2:18 p.m. -- GREEN FLAG: Mark Martin and Kurt Busch get the Kobalt Tools 500 under way from Atlanta Motor Speedway Lap 1 -- Mark Martin pulls ahead to lead the opening lap. Kurt Busch falls in line for second. Lap 2 -- YELLOW FLAG NO. 1: Reed Sorenson smacks the wall in Turn 1. He tells his crew something broke. He heads to the garage. Lap 6 -- GREEN FLAG: Mark Martin gets the race back under way. 1. Mark Martin 2. Kurt Busch 3. Jamie McMurray 4. Greg Biffle 5. Juan Montoya Lap 7 -- LEAD CHANGE: Kurt Busch ducks below Mark Martin to snag the lead on the restart. Lap 12 -- YELLOW FLAG NO. 2: Bobby Labonte goes for a spin in Turn 3. He lost it going into the turn and tells his crew his machine is amazingly loose. No damage Lap 13 -- Cars head to pit road: • Greg Biffle is "snappy" and over-rotating; chassis adjustment • Kurt Busch gets some minor changes and four tires • Denny Hamlin has a chassis adjustment and is tight • Ryan Newman is out first with a fast s

Cell Phones
Heads up!!! Cell Phone Numbers went Public on March 4th...... all cell phone numbers are being released to telemarketing companies and you will start to receive sale calls. YOU WILL BE CHARGED FOR THESE CALLS! To prevent this, call the "National Do Not Call List" set up by the FTC at the following number from your cell phone: 888-382-1222 It is the National DO NOT CALL list. It will only take a minute of your time and it blocks your number for five (5) years. You must call from the cell phone number you want to have blocked. You cannot call from a different phone number. HELP OTHERS BY PASSING THIS ON TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS..... It is a FTC number and I just did it and it was the real deal! Heads up!!! Cell Phone Numbers went Public on March 4th...... all cell phone numbers are being released to telemarketing companies and you will start to receive sale calls. YOU WILL BE CHARGED FOR THESE CALLS! To prevent this, call the "National Do Not Call Lis

My Life
I had visitation with my friend this weekend. His name is Kutter he's 8 months, and has my ears. My first five visits are supervised, after that it's just him and me. It's weird I never thought I'd need a car seat. His mom is 7 years younger then me. Her eyes used to sparkle when I made her smile. Now all she does is make me feel guilty and tells me that Her and Kutter would be happier if I signed over my rights. She has her own special way of making me feel sad. I picked a shaded area and sat in the gravel that surrounds the jungle gym. Kids are always happier when they are at the park or at least that's what I heard. We sat down and I began to apologize for not being his daddy everyday and that it wasn't his fault that his mother and i wasn't together. He just stared at the kids running and laughing then tried to stick rocks in his mouth, and I began to wonder what rocks tasted like. I decided that if I played with him on the jungle gym. I might create some sort of father son bond.

Show Some Love
Hey everyone! I'm asking a huge favor of all my great friends! I have this awesome friend named Mike and he's decided to enter Michigan Idol. It's our tiny little version of American Idol where the winner has a chance to travel to the real American Idol if they win! Well my little favor is I'd appreciate it if you could go to this link and simply give him a thumbs up! Thats it! No voting down for the other videos (please) or anything! Just a simple vote for him! Daily would be appreciated but even ONE would help him! I really think he could do well given the chance! Mike is such a busy, devoted man and I'd love to see him win this. Mike exceeds in everything he does from being in the Air Force to being a new dad (of a gorgeous baby boy) to being on a bowling league to going to college to be a radiologist to doing THIS!!! How's that for investing your spare time? So please if its not too much trouble give him a voting hand!!!! http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=v

3 Inches Of Blood Or Into Eternity?
That's right metalheads here we go again! This week it's Fire Up The Blades from 3 Inches Of Blood up against Into Eternity's Scattering Of Ashes. Voting begins tonight and ends Sunday March 15th at 8 p.m. eastern. So vote already!!

Fitness: Make It Your Goal!
Whose fault is it that you're out of shape? If you go by what you hear in diet ads then you believe that it's anyone's fault but yours. The big diet companies think that if they put the blame on you, then you wouldn't buy their bogus pills. So they put the blame on your cortisol levels, your modern diet (ie fast food), or your busy schedule instead of where it belongs - which is squarely on your shoulders. Sure, you have obstacles that get in your way - your schedule, your job, your kids, the weather, your knee injury from college...but ultimately you have the body that you accept. I'm going to repeat that so it will really sink in. You have the body that you accept. Embracing the blame for your current weight is not a bad thing - it's empowering. Think about it. If it really wasn't your fault, if it really was due to a long list of variables that you have zero control over, then you'd be stuck. You'd have no way to change. The Secret Behind 'Before and After' Pi

Help Me Help Kimberly!!!
Kimmy needs all the rates she can get on this one pic in order for her to win a HH..plz help her... She has to get at least 600 to even qualify for the HH. Private message her after you rate it and she'll send you 1,000 fubucks. Kimberly**Owned by Deadly Venomous** (Side note - tell her brightspt2 sent you in your message, and I'll send you 1,000 fubucks as well. :D Just let me know you told her I sent you!) She's falling behind - please rate her daily until the contest ends!!! Also, see her blog for a giveaway for raters! Show her the love!!!

Greedy Bastard
How thankful would you be if you were given a house, a small fixer upper, with some good furniture, fairly new fridge and washer....for FREE??? Probably pretty thankful, right?? Well, okay. My husband and I just helped his grandma move into a retirement home recently. We did a quick move. Gathered up some furniture, clothes and some other stuff that Grandma would need and we had left a lot of stuff behind. It's only been me and my husband mostly doing all this and it's been real hard and slow. Anyways, we didn't want the mobile home. It was a fixer upper and right now, we don't have the money to fix it up. So we gave it to 3 guy friends of Richards. For free. My husband and I haven't really had much time to go through grandma's home to get rid of stuff that could be donated to charity, stuff that we could claim for ourselves and stuff I could give to friends that really need stuff because we've been busy with work and helping Shirley getting into this new home. Last weekend

Getting Closer!
I've got 3 more days to find out whats going on with the tests an CT scan, I just hope that it's not more bad news not sure I can handle anymore at this point, my mother is still in the hospital & everytime I go to call shes talking off the wall shit an it's sad because I have to let her go do to the fact that I can't understand a word shes saying, but anyways guys (((please))) pray for us both. I know ya'll have been there for me and I thank you for that.... Much love always from your friend Jaime!

The Warning
ok for anyone that is going to involve themselves in my rants ramblings and inner thoughts it is to be argued weather or not you are disturbed as much as i am but i will let u figure that one out on your own ... I am the kind of person your parents warned you about but again eventually you'll see I have to lay down the disclaimer so everyone knows I do not spell well i type even worse i do not use alot of punctuation like periods and commas however i do use alot of profanity fuck being one of my favorites. some of the things that i will talk about may be graphic erotic or offensive but usually i am just diggin for a laugh so know that usually it is all for the sake of comedy i dont usually intend to offend anybody and if it is meant to be offensive to someone or some group i WILL let that person or people know at the time I am a moron and i know it i bathe in the fact and accept it openly so i guess read at your own risk anyone can read but only friends can comment but enjoy or dont

What's Wrong With This Picture?
Soup Kitchen Somehow, I think that the guy taking a picture of First Lady Obama with his cell phone is a bit hypocritical, don't you? I mean come on...the guy is standing in line at a soup kitchen, supposedly too poor to find food, but he can afford a cell phone? What's wrong with this picture? Did the nation miss the point? I certainly didn't. Yes she is doing something wonderful, I'll give her that but it really chaps my rear end to see something like that. Is it just me being critical or what?

Light
As the storm starts to break up lingering droplets of crystal clear water float in the air transforming sunlight in the colors of the rainbow. The droplets have no color but they capture it from the rays of the sun, a different color depending on the angle from which the rainbow is viewed. Within each of us there is also an essence and when it becomes crystal clear through meditations or attitude adjustments it illuminates an aura of hope, joy, and peace to all of those witness it. You become a rainbow, a lightworker.

Take The Time To Check This Out
i watched all of it and thought it worth sharing even though this may not be the forum to present this http://www.hemuz.org/PLANETARY/The-Zeitgeist-Movement-Orientation-Presentation

Sexy Train
calling all SEXY fu's! heres a ride just for us sexy people! its easy to get on this train start with this album rate it and leave a comment on last pik when ur done then R/F/Add me wildonesexywoman@ fubar last but not least R/F/A all below me and above you message me once your done and ill get you added on the train tags will be available here a pik of you is needed or one will be picked for u REMEBER NO DRAMA!! lets get this sexy on!! wildonesexywoman@ fubar Andrea@ fubar ~★RedKandy★~

Creativity...
A. A. Milne: One of the advantages of being disorderly is that one is constantly making exciting discoveries. Abraham Maslow: The key question isn't "What fosters creativity?" But it is why in God's name isn't everyone creative? Where was the human potential lost? How was it crippled? I think therefore a good question might be not why do people create? But why do people not create or innovate? We have got to abandon that sense of amazement in the face of creativity, as if it were a miracle if anybody created anything. Alan Alda: The creative is the place where no one else has ever been. You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself. Albert Einstein: You can never solve a problem on the level on which it was created. Albert Einstein: I think that only daring speculation can lead us further and not accumulation of facts. Albert E

Losing Song.
Our time is short, it's flying quickly by Carpe Diem, the rest of our lives. We can't ever sit down, we just might die. Push on forward, learn to fly. Entirely different shadows cover our souls. We know we can only do what we know. We speed down the road, missing the signs. Too much space keeps us from looking behind. Empty cavities will soon be filled, Bulldozers will have flattened all of the hills. Get anywhere in a second, without knowing where you've gone. Driving harder. We're losing song.

My Fav Songs
Artists :: Songs Danity Kane: Damnaged Jordin Sparks: One step at a time, no air, tottoo, Now you tell me. Rihanna: Umbrella, sos, disturbia,shut up and drive, dont stop the music, If i never see you again feat maroon 5 Ashley Tisdale: He said she said Cascada: because of the night, everytime we touch, what hurts the most, last christmas, kids in america Ashlee Simpson: invisible, boy friend Avril Lavigne: hot, myworld, complicated, unwanted, girlfriend, im with you, my happy ending, keep holding on Celine Dion: call the man, thats the way it is, to love you more, if thats what it takes Christina Aguilera: Fighter Enya: only time, may it be Eve 6: heres to the night GooGoo Dolls: Black Balloon, iris Jessica Simpson: forever in your eyes, with you, a whole new world feat nick lachey. Janet Jackson: if Jo Jo: too little too late Kelly Clarkson: never again, walk away, breakaway, miss independent, since U been gone, behind these hazel eyes,

Not That You Were Wondering
But it is me, I've had a few profiles here before. I believe the most recent one was using the handle 'The O Show' but I've deleted it. Some folks, one in particular, asked me to return here so we can keep in touch. After giving it some thought, I decided to go ahead and create this profile. Some things you should know about me: I live my life the way I choose to and don't expect you to conform to my way of thinking. By that same token, I don't judge you on yours. I like to have fun and that is basically why I am here. I don't join crews, posses, lounges, or (insert random lame name for groups of people on this site). I don't do bling packs. I could give two sh*ts about who is in the 'race to red' and I really could care less about the drama that people on this site thrive on. If those are your kinda things, God bless, but just leave me out of it. If you can live with that, then we can be cool.

Spread The Love
I ask you my friends. How many of you wanted to become a Godfather and thought you wouldnt make it? This lovely young lady has that dream. She is at 1,780,995 with 296 pictures loaded with more to come. Lets help her become our newest Godfather. DJ T~ * ~pErFeCtLy UnPeRfEcT~*~Dj & Enforcer @Indian Outlaw Saloon~Sarges Bad Girl@ fubar

Why Dark Angels Are What I Love...
This Blog is taken word for word from a Yahoo conversation I was having with a friend one nite right before Lent began...My life has been in turmoil for a while now...And the beginning of Lent was giving me pause...Making me consider some things...And as I tried to explain to my friend just what motivates my profiles, my profile names, and what lies underneath the surface of my shattered ideas...I wrote what I considered something very interesting...Something I had never tried to put into words... So for the record...And the sake of many a person's curiosity...I am adding that conversation here to give you the reader a slight peek into my jumbled and fevered brain...One that swirls with thousand upon thousands of thoughts and random ideas... Take a minute or two...And read this Blog...And maybe leave a comment on what you think...Peace and hugs to you.... This conversation begins in the middle of what my friend and I were talking about... it is all from my side as he didn't in

Something I Wrote
wax paper stamps that color your dreams falling asleep lost in the bloodstream crawling towards a silent scream that you'll never hear I must admit theres nothing I wont do to get your attention when interest has fell through bleeding out and billowing smoke when a smile would do..............

Chance Encounter
Just before Christmas, I had the pleasure of serving a customer at work that happened to be a great conversationalist. Normally, I just kind of nod and smile when the conversation turns to religion, but for some reason, I felt compelled to chat with this gentleman about the subject. He's very much in love with Jesus, but not in the way I'm accustomed to. He isn't pushy, or condescending. He is 100% genuine, passionate, and very accepting of the fact that no one on this earth is perfect. We've had several fairly lengthy conversations since and every time I find myself wondering... I don't know that I'll ever believe fully in the Bible. I have no doubt there is some truth to it, but to what extent, no one will ever know. Fact of the matter is that it was written by man and man is inherently flawed. We are notorious for bending, twisting, and flat out breaking the truth to make things seem different than what they are. I believe in a god. I'm fairly convinced Jesus existed

T H E F T...
Theft Problem IMPORTANT MESSAGE: You've heard about people who have been abducted and had their kidneys removed by black-market organ thieves. My thighs were stolen from me during the night a few years ago. I went to sleep and woke up with someone else's thighs. It was just that quick. The replacements had the texture of cooked oatmeal. Whose thighs were these and what happened to mine? I spent the entire summer looking for my thighs. Finally, hurt and angry, I resigned myself to living out my life in jeans. And then the thieves struck again. My butt was next. I knew it was the same gang, because they took pains to match my new rear-end to the thighs they had stuck me with earlier. But my new butt was attached at least three inches lower than my original! I realized I'd have to give up my jeans in favor of long skirts. Two years ago I realized my arms had been switched. One morning I was fixing my hair and was horrified to see the flesh of my upper arm swing to and fro w

Millicent's Playlist
Please Note, My Playlists are on my Fu-Profile under the music section. From this list i will make my Fav list.. as in the songs that i Really Love.. and would like to share more with everyone else.. that list would be under Songs foro DJs :: My Favs. *This list will always be edited/updated as i start to like new Artists and Songs.* and yes there are songs and artiests that arnt even on the list. but yes more would come, soon! LOL Artists :: Songs Danity Kane: Damnaged Jordin Sparks: One step at a time, no air, tottoo, Now you tell me. Taylor Swift: teardrops on my guitar Leona Lewis: Bleeding Love Rihanna: Umbrella, sos, disturbia, pon de replay, take a bow, shut up and drive, dont stop the music, hate that i love you, If i never see you again feat maroon 5 Ashley Tisdale: He said she said, last christmas 10000 Maniacs: because of the night Cascada: because of the night, everytime we touch, what hurts the most, last christmas, kids in america Ashlee Simp

I Need To Get Over Myself
I Need To Get Over Myself One year ago things changed for me. Some for the better, others turned out to be a blessing in disguise and some still suck out loud. The thing about me is that when I find something I love, I throw my whole self into my newfound fascination. True story. Please recall my Nsync loving days as a prime example. When I was introduce to a certain Irish-centric, hot boy featuring, bad-guy killing, comedy by one Troy Duffy, I took interest and found my new obsession. The previously mentioned “hot-boy” I took to most was one Mr. Norman Effing Reedus (as I refer to him). And like any fangirl, once I got a taste, I wanted more. So, the vigilante movie wasn’t where I capped off my quest for Norman. No, I found all his other works and became accustomed. One in particular (a film) was to be screened in Beverly Hills, CA. Now, I’m from Southern California, so Beverly Hills wasn’t too far. I recruited my fellow Norman fans, Liz and Miriam, and set in motion to BH to

After The Procedure [medical Blog - May Be Tmi For You!]
So, I have endocervical dysplasia. Yes, big fat medical words. Here's what's going on. [In English!] The cervix is the ending of the vagina and the opening to the uterus. It is a donut shape with a tube in the middle leading to the uterus. In 90% of women, any type of cervical abnormality is on the outer 'donut' part of the cervix. Mine is in the tube leading to the uterus, putting me in that 10% of more difficult cases. Dysplasia is a type of lesion, alerting to a pre-cancerous condition. Luckily, mine was caught early enough. Now since I'm in the aformentioned 10%, I have to have another procedure called a "LEEP". LEEP stands for Loop Electrical Excision Procedure. Basically, it's a little scalpel looking thing with a bow at the end, which electricity flows through. In this procedure, they'll be excising a cone shaped piece of my inner cervix, Removing the lesions and giving me a full diagnosis. It is considered a minor surgery, so there will be 2 weeks recovery

15 Minutes Of My Life
The shortest "date" in my life that I ever been on...Chad Lawson from myspace in my top well I met him at 5pm at Rite Aid down the road like I was supposed to anyways Matt went an got milk for us we needed since we don't have a van anyways well he took me and Matt back to the house so I introduced him to mom and dad like I was supposed he was nice an everything but the fact was I thought we were gonna go out to dinner oh no he had to rush back cause one he lived in Parkersburgh,WV and he got lost on his way here so he figured rush back an he was only here 15 minutes so now he wants a second date my opnion I rather not risk it again. Also he had until 8pm.

What Serial Killer Are You?
You Scored as Jigsaw You are Jigsaw. You dont enjoy killing people at all. You instead love to see how far people will go to live. However if it ends in a bloody death, you still sleep with a smile on your face. You are intelligent, and know how to outwit just about anyone. And that spells bad news for anyone who falls into your games of death and torture. Jigsaw 90% Pinhead 70% Captain Spaulding 50% Freddy Krueger 45% Hannibal Lecter 40% Buffalo Bill 40%

Sharing Pain
I've come to a place where i realized the benefit and comfort in sharing pain. So much sorrow passed around in crystal glasses. We sip this sorrow, dip our fingers and run them round the rim. Glory in that piercing tone which deifies the echoes of our souls. We do it daily, two, maybe three times. Some of us don't stop. The comfort I keep is that I've seen the glass shatter, swollen to bursting with the vibration, and it thrills me to see the shattered face of the drinker as their sorrow spills, and they know it can't be retrieved. It's a permanent stain, and a spray of shiny shards that won't be glued back together. From this point we must start to look forward more and backward less. Still, most of us cut ourselves in our attempt to reconstruct the pain or the past, and our blood joins the stain of sorrow as we desperately attempt to recreate what is familiar. I've learned to watch and wait and grin like an idiot as sorrow loses it's shape and becomes something more pervasive. And

Inner Peace (what U Really Did Not Want To Know)
We all can find temporary inner peace but finding substainable inner peace is not easy for most people. This is because we often depend on our surroundings to be peaceful in order to feel at peace. Well, situations are not always such. The key to inner peace comes in the understanding that our own anger causes us more problems then all those little day to day irriations can cause, more problems then what others cause us. Our own anger... which we can control via self awareness if we are so willing to do so. You might say "I don't hate anyone"... if so then you are always at peace. Now anger has different names - getting mad, resentment, being upset with someone, irratated, stressed, hatred, etc. But it is still anger. Judgement not discernment. Each time we react with anger (by any name) we create negative energy in our self, and that energy must find expression. Punching a bag or some other forms of anger management is not enough to release all the energy building up