Fubar Blog Posts 4

Bangtup!
Boyz In Tha "A" Holla Wut Dat Du? Sumtymez Me, Alwayz U! Crank That Up, I Cant Get Enough! I Swigg 2 Da Beat, Im So BangTup! Take A Step Back, Then Pause 4 Tha Cause Yall Go Fall, Us Boyz Go Ball Crank That Up, I Cant Get Enough! I Swigg 2 Da Beat, Im So BangTup! Bangtup means...... "Tight" "Throwed" "Off Da Chain" "Hella Bad"...........etc.

Boyfriend Application!
1. Name 2. Age 3. City/State 4. Favorite color 5. Favorite food 6. Do you drink? 7. Do you smoke? 8. Do you do drugs? 9. What kinda music do you like? 10. Favorite movie 11. Have any kids? 12. Ever been married/engaged? 13. Whats your life quote? 14. Do you have a job or go to school? 15. What's your opinion on gays/lesbians? 16. Do you believe in God? 17. Whats your religion? 18. Do you live with your parents, a room mate, or yourself? 19. If you said a room mate, it's not your ex, is it? lol 20. If you could tell me anything, what would it be? 21. Ever been in love? 22. Ever cheated on someone? (be honest!) 23. Have any pets? 24. Have any siblings? 25. If i give you my heart, do you promise not to break it?

New Job!!
well i have moved on from that last job... i finally told them to fuck off... i got out just in time... just before the big christmas trucks came in (hahaha)... i have kept my job at the honeybaked ham still doing caterings... but now that i have gotten settled into that job we have a new distric manager... he is not going to let me stay (company laws) since my dad is my GM and family can't work with each other, other than big hoildays (easter, thanksgiving and christmas)... but the cool part is the new GM is letting me stay long enough to fine a new job but right now that aint happening.... but now with all the shit going on with the store manager (dumb ass blonde) i can't say anything bc my dad is boss and i am barely keeping my job any ways.... but other thank the store manager and the new DM things are wonderful at work!!! i love what i do and it works around my classes!!

Bones Of Humanity
(This was written in response to the Amish community's embracing of the family of the killer of their own children October 2006. Such a standard to try and emulate.) I watch the world with wonder. We all carry out our little lizard brain directives of feeding, fucking, fighting, and fleeing under the warmth of the same burning sun and the silvering of the same mysterious moon. Some of us rise above the atavistic impulses and bring the Divine just a little closer into the world. Its all a matter of choice and free will. The milkman's baby daughter died 20 minutes after she was born. He was filled with rage and hatred towards a God that would let him suffer such a loss. Nine years later he went into an Amish schoolhouse and killed innocent little girls, then himself. Two of the girls offered their lives freely to sate his rage, hoping mercy would be shown to the others. In Columbine two boys took aim and killed classmates. One asked a girl cowering under a table, "Do you be

Clown Penis
If you hear the sound of flopping while you read this blog entitled "Clown Penis", try to remember its just his shoes... I've stayed in an assortment of hotels on the Las Vegas strip. I've picked up the advertisements on the street that feature "Asian School Girls wearing Invisible Clothes", "Black Beauties - Spurs Allowed!", "Sassy Cheerleaders Wanting An F" - and all of them had stars at groin and nipple. I guess that's how a woman can tell if she should pursue a career in any of the above categories. Just look for the glinting points. I was more entranced with the amateur efforts of some male graffitti vandal. I say it was a male, because of the delusional proportions given to the surprise "package". I first glimpsed the clown's penis behind the head of an elderly woman. A small step to the left and Slappy - with his big red...nose, and his hand held...horn - was revealed in full clown regalia. The freehand addition of an orange sized testicle x2, and a 12 inch dick st

Photoshop Animation For Friends
new photoshop animation I designed and made for my friend and wanted to share with yous as if any of you wanted one feel free to ask and I'll create you one as I can use any background pic with any one of your pictures you choose! I do for my friends to show my appreciation to em :) as this is my skill am very good at and been doing it over 10 years as I Loves thinking of new ideas as in photoshops and animations as some of yous already know I made this for you I hope you like it :) Thanks for viewing

Let Me Out To Kill
Surrounded By four cushioned walls. What is this place? Why am I here? There is so much Pressure on my chest, I can’t move my arms, All I can do is Sit here rocking, Back and forth Listening to the voices. Can you hear them? Or is it just me? They are telling me To kill, stab and Rip you open! But alas I am bound by this, This white jacket, And by the Four cushioned walls. And again I hear them, The voices shouting “kill it, rip it open Feel its warm blood Dripping, dripping Down your arm!” I want to obey the voices But my body is bound Wrapped around myself. Get this thing off And let me out, Let me quench my thirst To KILL.

Friendship
I'm a happy go lucky person and always gives and shared everything what I have. I am not a picky person when it comes to have friends. I'm a social butterfly. I don't care who you are or what you are as long as you don't play me like a fool and stabbed me on the back. Being a friend is not just sharing a joke, a conversation, a cup of coffee or a funny story. It means sharing an honest and true part of yourself. I treat my friends like family...I expect them to be loyal and honest to me. But for the life of me I don't know why my friends always fuck me over and stabbed me on the back...and of course I forget and forgive. I will let the time to take the final blow to her/him...let just say meal is best when it serve warm.

Rambling
Today was the first day of a perinatal nursing conference I'm attending for work. We started out with the most difficult part first-bereavement and helping patients who had lost their precious babies. As part of the lesson, three sets of parents came in to talk to us for 2 hours about their stories and their entire experiences with the loss of their children. Reading about how to care for people in these situations is good, but nothing prepared me or taught me better than these familes did. One thing that a father said really spoke to my heart and I don't think that I'll ever forget his words. He said: "If you think that it's better to be politically correct than to hold your patient's hand and cry with them, then you don't need to be a nurse and you should just quit now." Wow, what a profound statement. It reminded me again why I am doing what I do. To help people when they are at their weakest moment and offer some hint of comfort, even though a lot of times there is

Help
Hey guys. I am getting ready to launch a modeling website. But, I have no idea what images I should put on it. If you would comment on the modeling images you think would be good for the site, or even regular pictures, it would be a great help! Thank you so very much!

Craddle
I will be here waiting in the dark waiting with r&b sounds shimmering a spark deep in my soul , deep within my essence the calls of desire straddle the moonlights presence The moment gives me views of things I wish to do A glance of a love to be so true A house in the valley to tend to filled with photo's of laughter and memories I wish i knew I am just trying to make it through another night alone watching the fire flicker shadows over the phone wanting to be part of a passionate kiss wanting to unravel something to miss Only destiny has yet to catch up with me and karma continues to stir its antiquity I am just trying to bring my dreams to life cause I've seen the eyes of my wife telling me everything in her glance charging me up with her smile with every dance making time a for thought as its christmas and new years our souls will have brought

Leaving For A Bit
i will be without internet for the next couple weeks heading to a couple bases in northern germany....and the last time i was there had no internet connection where i was will miss most of you..lol..and will see you when i return

I Am Openning My Heart
i am a lonely guy who doesnt have someone to come home to and hold them or kiss their lips and tell them how much they mean to me or let them know they make me very happy i am not one for openning and share my heart cause i been hurt a lot in my life and dont want to get hurt but at same time i want to share my heart and soul with someone and with my heart and soul i want to share my love with someone i am a romantic and passionate guy with a big heart with lots of room for someone to fill the void i have a lot to give and i am a honest and truth and i am 100% faithful thank you for taking the time to read this BLUE EYEZ DEVIL

Fine!
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? Sara. [2] You were in the car with? Claudia. [3] Went to the mall with? Claudia and Vanessa. [4] Person you talked on the phone with? Anthony. [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? messaged-misfit commented-mumm T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your top friends? true Q: Been searched By Cops? false Q: Been suspended from school? False Q: Sat on a roof top? false Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? false Q: Broken a bone? false Q: Have shaved your head? false Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? kinda? Q: Shot a gun? false Q: Donated Blood? true WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? eat..duh. [2] Be serious or be funny?

I Dedicate This Song To You
You know, when you're in love and your lover leaves you And you've got nobody, the lonely hours over here Sittin' home and thinkin', you say: Distant lover, darlin', ooo hoo hoo So many miles away, ooo please Oh please, baby, think about me Hey, in misery Oh say, baby, as I reminisce about your life That we shared together The promises we made, baby Of the day you left, child Then all of a sudden, if it may seem to explode Now I gaze out my window, sugar, down a lonesome road, ooo Distant lover, ooo, sugar How can you treat my heart so mean and cruel Didn't you know, sugar, that I dream Of what I spent with you I treasure it like it was a precious jewel, oh baby Lord have mercy! Oh baby, don't go Please come back, baby Ooo, something I wanna say When you left to go away No 'ther do I want, do you wanna have me plead and scream Please! Please, oh please baby Come back home, girl Oh baby, come back Oh oh

Totally Agree
All Guys Should Do This... • give her a big tshirt of yours to sleep in • leave her cute text messages • kiss her in front of your friends. • tell her she looks beautiful • look into her eyes when you tallk to her • let her mess with your hair • just walk around with her. • forgive her for her mistakes • hold her hand when youre around your friends and in private. • let her fall asleep in your arms. • stay up all night with her when shes sick. • watch her favorite movie with her • come up and grab her by the waist. remember this • dont talk about other girls around her. If you love her, others shouldnt matter. • when shes sad, hang out with her • let her know shes important • kiss her in the pouring rain. • when you fall in love with her, tell her. • and when you tell her, love her like youve never loved someone before •

Why I Try
So this is my second go around on this thing. hopefully I will have no more roadblocks along the way. I want to say thanks to all the old friends who took me back and a thanks to all the new sucke..I mean friends just kidding im an awesome guy, just ask me! okay so I look forward to all the wonderful insights you all provide me with and the great conversations and laughs, and if I can send some your way then I have done my job for the day at least. Thats why I try. luvs and hugs, Ghostbear

Looking/seeking
Is there any male/female wanting a fu-girlfriend I am bi so I don't care which sex but I am not wanting to be a real thing just an online thing cause I am in college right now and I can't travel or anything at the moment.

Home
I WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU ALL FOR UR THOUGHTS AND EVERYTHING WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL.. I AM NOW HOME AGAIN AND HOPEFULLY I WILL BE STAYING HOME NOW... I GOT HOME THIS EARLY AFTERNOON.. I WENT IN DUE TO AN INFECTION AND NOW THEY GOT IT UNDER CONTROL SO NOW I'M HOME AND HAPPY TO BE HOME!!! ASH

The White Lies In Between The White Lines In Between The Red Ones
So in my younger years I wanted to grow up and be a singer, make music, be an artist. I sit here typing this at damned near 5 a.m. coming to the realization that that is not what I was put here to do, because to be an artist in todays society (to be a widely accepted one anyways) you have to have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to say. Nothing of any real substance. Nothing of any crucial relevance. Nothing of any intellectual property because intelligence is power. It gives you the power to evaluate and challenge things. And who wants to evaluate and challenge the problems that us as Americans are faced with when there's "Shorty's gettin' low in the club." The problems that we as Americans are faced with. The problems that are engineered and created by the very same institutions that we rely on to provide us with jobs, to give us home loans, to give us health insurance as a way to work for us, with us and against us, as a way to rid ourselves of ourselves. 125 people in this country did the mat

Heat Of My Desire
In the still of the evening Without sunlight to intrude I see the twilight's in your eyes As the moon sets up the mood Playing music soft and low While romance fills the air I can't help but feel aroused The very moment you come near You submit to my embrace While candles flick their flame And the smell of sweet perfume Seems to drive my lust insane As I look into your eyes And run my fingers through your hair I taste the sweetness of your neck As I nibble at your ear I then whisper words of love As you answer with a sigh And in a very sexy way Your sweet body comes alive Your the heat of my desire As we slowly come undress I then start to lay you down While you welcome my caress With your luscious sexy curves You have a taste I can't resist And your breast show some response When I touch them with a kiss As I soak inside your love To a sexy love condition Feeling passions start to rise While making love in all positions You give me so mu

Oral Pleasures
On my knees between your strong thighs I lift your cock to my mouth. The abundance of your hardness greets me and my mouth overflows with your warm essence. Your sweet taste is on my tongue and your fragrance delights my senses. No gentle lick this visit. No bashful cautious approach For I wish to consume you. every inch of your hard desire... Opening my mouth against your aching cock As the tip of my tongue licks up and down your hard shaft... Your cock welcomes me between rows of delicate wet touches. Thrust against my generous tongue, i take you whole, all the way down...feeling your head against my throat... Show me the power of your desire for my mouth caress and taste every inch of you... My exploring tongue lifts your hood and finds your smooth silky skin You squeal in that unique way, signaling that I have found your pleasure spot. It hardens in response to my touches.... My jaws protests what my open mouth provides but I am unrelenti

Midnight Love Making
It was dark outside The blackest of black nights All you could see was the moonlight shining in The light reflecting on that rock hard stomach of his Ive been up all night just watching him sleep Thinking of what I could do to him As im watching that stomach Believe me you would be too I think of what to do Im like a jungle animal The urge takes over I lean over and i kiss his stomach I keep kissing working my way lower Hes waking up now He will know just what I want He tries to stop me from my quest But I keep going til I get to the best (part of him) Its just like my favorite childhood dessert a cremecicle I can make my way to the creamy center with just a lick or a blow I work on him for what seems like hours torturing him Going so slow, so sweet When he cums, I let him return the favor Its a lovers game Taking turns pleasing one another When he makes me cum I feel like Ive just exploded Day Dreaming of it all night while he slept But it d

Womens Seduction
First I would spend some quality time talking and getting to know each other I would change into a sexy black frilly mini skirt with high heels and sexy top and have some drinks and be listening to some good music. I would then dance and be a bit booted and dance in front of you. Sexily turn so you can see my bum moving good. Slowly I'd turn around and smile and start to strip my top off. Next my shoes and stockings come off. Opening my legs and showing you my sexy G string. Slowly pulling it across and slide my fingers in and pushing them in deep. Next I will put my head back and groan for you. Now telling you to get out your member and slowly stroke it while you watch me open myself and finger myself for a while. I'd come over to you so you can grab my ass and pull my pussy close to your face. Licking me real good and fingering me at the same time. This would make me buckle with pleasure. Moving my hips slowly I'd go down on my knees and take your cock and hold and admir

09 Spring Fling Auction
I'M IN AN AUCTION THAT IS BEING RUN BY THE WONDERFUL MzCh@osR☼xx R/L Wifey 2 TinMan22/Im Hers-Just Your Average Military Woman/IOwnSexyMexicanChica PLS COME CHECK OUT WHAT I'M OFFERING AND MAKE A BID...WHILE YOU'RE AT THE AUCTION, PLS R/F/A HER SHE IS A GREAT PERSON & FRIEND...WHILE CHECKING OUT THE OTHER PPL IN THE AUCTION, PLS RATE THEM WHILE YOU'RE THERE...THANK YOU AND PLS REPOST THIS... THIS BULLY WAS MADE BY & BORROWED FROM THE BEAUTIFUL ¢¼Diana¢¼ 2nd Alarm Hotties@ fubar PLS SHOW HER LOVE TOO...SHE'S A GREAT FRIEND!!!

Within Temptation - Stand My Ground
I can feel you when you stay low nothing happens Does it feel right ? Late at night things I thought I put behind me haunt my mind I just know there's no escape now once it sets it's eyes on you but I won't run, have to stare it in the eye Stand my ground, I won't give in No more denying, I gotta face it Won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside If I don't make it, someone else will Stand My Ground It's all around getting stronger, coming closer into my world I can feel that it's time for me to face it can I take it? Though this might just be the ending of the life I held so dear but I won't run, there's no turning back from here Stand my ground, I won't give in No more denying, I gotta face it Won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside If I don't make it, someone else will Stand My Ground All I know for sure is I'm trying I will always stand my ground Stand my ground, I won't give in (I won't give in) I won't give up (I won't giv

Hoplessness
A shining dream of a lie polished to make you feal important...hope.Thats all the world has is this lie.somthing meant to make you go on in this hell hole we call life,but alas we still grasp at it like a drowning man grasping for air.its funny how when hope succeds we praise it as if it were a mini deity granting our wish,but when hope is crushed..shown for what it realy is,just another way to be crushed,we dont blame the hope.we blame some unseen force that coalesed to destroy your hope..WAKE UP!!!it was never going to happen.this hope.accept it..hope is not good its evil at its purest form

Frenchmaid
You stand in the doorway and watch her bend over, her french maid costume riding up and exposing her sexy lace thong and creamy white cheeks. Just the sight makes your erection throb in your pants. You watch as she pulls the covers down on the bed and adjusts them so they're perfect. You can't take this torture anymore, so you quietly walk up behind her and pull her so her gorgeous rear end is up tight against your erection. You continue to rub yourself against her, the sensations making her moan and you impatient. You pull back and insnap your jeans, pulling your erection from them. You move her thong aside and thrust deeply into her, loving the surprised squeak that comes from her mouth as you thrust inside her again and again. You continue to thrust into her faster and faster as your climax reaches the edge. You stop thrusting, wanting her to join you over the edge, and reach around the front of her to caress her clit, slowly at first. You pick up speed, rubbing little circles a

Wanna Play Doctor????
You're in bed with your girlfriend and an idea comes to you. You tell your girlfriend you'll be right back and leave the room. Ten minutes later you come back, wearing a doctor's white coat and nothing else. You have a stethoscope around your neck and you say, "Time for the doctor to check you out." She giggles as you come toward the bed. You pull the sheet from her naked body. "Okay, first let's check your heart rate and see if it's beating okay." You press the stethoscope between her breasts, making her cry out at the cold sensation. Her heartbeat is at it's normal rhythm and you bend down and flick your tongue across her nipple, causing her heart to accelerate. "Hmmmm are you getting excited?" She smiles shyly and you move to her other breast, drawing this one deeply into your mouth, sucking on it and flicking your tongue across the nipple as your suckle. She let's out a little moan and arches her back, wanting more. "Now, I need to examine you further, make sure you're all fine." Y

Auction
/> Guess who is up for auction!! That's right Infamous P is up for auction lady's So click the link below and place your bets on this sexc yummy man This Bully Brought To You By The One and Only MzBooti2Big aka Shorty Roc "HEAD BB TO THE PU$$YCAT PLAYMATEZ OWNED BY D ROC

Big And Beautiful
now i love my big sexy women and all the banging curves that they have from head to toe and someguys find that unatractive so i say to that step off and let the brother's like myself enjoy the company of a big and beautiful women

Friggin Drama
Well I want to say is the friggin people who live on fubar to make others miserable...Hope you rot in hell....I have moved 3 times since nov 23rd...and i'm glad i can be part of you amusement...I wish and hope you will be in my shoes one day....to my friends i can expect you will read this because you care...I am ready to lose my friggin mind..too much to think about...I will never forget those who matter as long as they don't forget me!!!!!!

09 Spring Fling Auction!!
I'm in the '09 Spring FLing Auction!!☺ I'm lookin' 4 that spring time owner! U get to have me on April 1st & wat better day than April Fool's Day!! That's right, auction is over 3/31 OR whenever I except an offer from a bidder.☺ Can't you just smell it.....spring is in the air!! If don't want to make a bid can you please rate my pic for me when the auction is over the one with most rates gets a prize. So BID BID BID & RATE RATE RATE BR@TTE Auction Brought To You By: MzCh@osR☼xx R/L Wifey 2 TinMan22/Im Hers-Just Your Average Military Woman/IOwnSexyMexicanChica

This Was Incredible
Bulletin: The One Flaw In Women By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, 'Why are you spending so much time on this one?' And the Lord answered, 'Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands.' The angel was astounded at the requirements. 'Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish.' 'But I won't, ' the Lord protested. 'I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 ho ur days.' The angel moved closer and touched the woman.

The Morning After Reality
Can someone in all honesty fall in love with someone and know in there heart and in there mind that it will never happen. Can two souls be so alike.. being in total sincronicity with one another ..knowing that just a single kiss could ruin this. Why do complications of the heart always fog the better of ones judgment .. is it the lack or reason or thought .. can love have purpose other then just the common thread that we all see it as .. Why can loving someone have such larger meaning and devotion yet cant. What is love.. a thought or a concept of what happiness is. When does happiness become love, just the simple questions one never thinks yet alone asks ..

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So i asked a very pretty and sweet woman this morning what the female equivalent was to a guys morning wood. She said it was the wet spot. But the more i think about it, the less it sounds right. The wet spot is more of a finished happening rather than the beginning or middle of the happening that morning wood is. Anyone have a helpful suggestion to the equivalent?

Contestshelp Me Win Fu Friends!
OK ON MY PROFILE YOU WILL FIND THE NICEST CHICKIE HER NAME IS ROXY ! SHE IS MY NUMBER 2 ON MY FAMILY! SHE IS HAVING A CONTEST STARTING TOMORROW !!! ITS IN HER PICS! MINE WILL BE IN THERE, VOTE AS MUCH AND AS HARD AS YOU CAN!! ALSO ANYONE THAT BLINGS HER IT WILL GIVE ME 10 POINTS INSTEAD OF 1 IF YOU BLING HER PLEASE BE SURE TO TELL HER ITS FOR ME !!! I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO TAHNK ALL MY FU FRIENDS FOR HELPING ME OUT!! I WILL BE LOOKING TO SEE WHO HITS ME THE HARDEST WITH COMMENTS AND I WILL GIVE THEM SOMETHING SPECIAL!!!ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=728200&albumid=1578164&i=2009658444

✪☯'*-:-life-:-*'☯✪
*-:-LIFE-:-*' The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A death. What is that, a bonus? I think the cycle is all backwards. You should die first. Get it out of the way. Then live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young. You get a gold watch and you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do what you want to do.Enjoy the time…

One Hell Of A Week
WELL THIS WEEK HAS JUST BEEN HELL SO FAR...CAN'T SLEEP FOR NOTHING AND ALL THE VOICES WANT TO COME OUT AND PLAY...SOME I CAN HANDLE BUT SOME GET REALLY BAD...I HAVE ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH THIS WEEK AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY (WELL WORSE..LOL)...THERE'S TIMES WHEN I JUST WANT TO GLUE MY EYELIDS SHUT TO GET SOME SLEEP THEN THERE'S TIMES I JUST WANT TO SIT IN THE CORNER WITH A KNIFE AND DARE ANYONE TO COME NEAR ME...IT'S NOT ALL BAD REALLY...I'VE HAD BIPOLAR SINCE I WAS 8 OR 9 SO I'M KINDA USED TO THE STUFF THAT GOES ON BUT WHEN MEMBERS OF YOUR FAMILY OR A FRIEND IS SICK OR DYING THINGS COME UP WORSE AND ARE REALLY SCAREY...THE GOOD THING ABOUT IT IS THAT IF FAMILY MEMBERS WORSEN I'M ALWAYS UP AND READY TO GO AND I'M MORE FOCUSED...I KNOW IT'S CRAZY AND I KNOW I'M JUST RAMBLING...ACTUALLY JUST LETTING MY FINGERS TYPE..SO IF THIS MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL SORRY...WELL I'M GONNA GET OFF THIS BLOG CAUSE I COULD GO ON FOR DAYS AND BORE THE CRAP OUT OF YA...LATER

Who I Am
American Idol Quiz » QuizRocket.com's fun quizzes! ~ Barack Obama's IQ ~ Honeymoon Sweepstakes ~ The Dumb Test ~ Quizzes | Movie Trivia & Movie Quizzes | Dumb MySpace Quotes Have to say.. I couldn't have done better..unless I was Adam or Danny

Save Me
Sometimes, I find it hard to come up with a reason to wake up in the morning. I wake up, go to work, and I come home to an empty apartment. Is there anyone out there for me? She'd have to be crazy to want to be with me anyway. I have little to offer a girl interested to normal things. I like to stay away from the normal ways of life. I have no preferences or opinions, I could care less what anyone else thinks. I need some one that makes me care about them, that one person who can always leave me guessing... And she should have a nice rack.

My 2 Week South Africa Adventure-march 2009
My 2 week South Africa adventure started with a flight from the Sarasota Airport (Tampa Bay) to New York City just after their 14 inch snowfall so it was bitter cold in the Big Apple but some good times with friends in Manhattan more than made up for the cold.... Then a 17 1/2 hour scheduled flight from JFK Airport in New York to Johannesburg, South Africa turned into a 24+ hour trip after some unfortunate, unscheduled activity. After a stop in Dakar, Senegal (northwest coast of Africa) for refueling, we flew for several hours before diverting to Accra, Ghana due to a passenger's heart attack en route (she was pronounced dead on arrival in Ghana)...making the final landing in Jo-Burg a little solemn. After an overnight stay in Johannesburg, a quick 2 hour flight to Cape Town was followed by a 1 hour drive to Hermanus where a new and beautiful guest home (Bed and Breakfast) overlooking False Bay was awaiting. But before that, it was off on an eco-marine tour of the coastline via l

Classicbeauty Is So Close To Oracle
M Classic Beauty Debbie is Soooo Verrry Close to Oracle-less than a million:)She is an Awesome Friend please stop by and Help her reach ORACLE!Classicbeauty "Goddess"@ fubar imikimi - Customize Your World! M imikimi - Customize Your World! This Loving Pimpout Bully by:JoAnna

Heh
yeah so my nose got broken my wallet disappeared i will have 2 black eyes my plugs got torn out my lip ring got torn out and i knocked the motherfucker out twice when TERROR was on and once when EMMURE was on tonite was an awesome show I got a hi five from most of the members of TERROR for stage diving and sliding the motherfucker that broke my nose across the floor TWICE DURING THEIR SET the bartender saw my broken nose and saw me knocking out the fucking dude and kept feeding me shots of jack daniels Tonite's show was fucking great go to the ATTICUS METAL TOUR if you have the balls to

What Would You Think?
What would you think if your fiance had a fubar page and on their page they didn't mention you period, none your pictures were in any album and there status was blank. That's pretty fucking shady if you ask me.

Daddy, How Was I Born?
Daddy, how was I born? A little boy goes to his father and asks 'Daddy, how was I born?' The father answers, 'Well, son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! Your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on Fubar. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a little Pop-Up appeared that said: Scroll down...You'll love this .... 'You got Male!'

Oh Wtf?
Your Result: Ghandi Ghandi_profile In your past life you were Ghandi. In this life you continue to have a strong resolve, are steadfast in your beliefs, very patriotic, moral, and caring. http://apps.facebook.com/pastlifetest/quiz/questions?_fb_fromhash=21421ceac69a2d514e54faf78e637391&internal=1237355574&auth_token=663aa2216f5d419bf462a8705b22f315&installed=1

Poor Wanderer
“Poor wanderer,” said the leaden sky, “How you go on, by and by. For you do not know which way to go. My, how you travel on so.” For I replied to the leaden sky, “You are correct, I cannot lie. I do not know which way to go If I go the wrong way, please tell me so.” “My child, lie down and look up at me, For I am dark and heavy, can’t you see? Come, child, lie down, at any rate, It is now time for you to accept your fate.” So I did as I was told to do, And lay down beneath that leaden sky. I accept my fate, for this is true, And I now I must bid this world good-bye.

Prisoner Of Room 238
[I wrote this in a creative writing class, and it's adapted from Neil Simon's "The Prisoner of Second Avenue."] [Melissa is pacing around the room, frantically.] Dan: Melissa, what’s the matter? Melissa: What’s the matter? What’s the matter?? I’ve been kidnapped, that’s what’s the matter! Dan: [confused] Kidnapped? Melissa: Yes, kidnapped! People came and took me out of my house. I’ve been kidnapped! [starts to cry] Dan: Sweetie, calm down, please. Melissa: No, dammit, I will not calm down! Dan: Melissa, you really need to calm down. Why do you think you were kidnapped? Melissa: I was sitting in the living room watching TV when a bunch of men in white suits came and took me away! Dan: A bunch of men came and took you away just like that, huh? Melissa: What do you think? …I called them up and said “I live at 123 Woodland Avenue, come take me away?” I was kidnapped! Dan: Melissa, it’s going to be okay. I’m sure they did it for a good reaso

F****** Gov't
so this is a bitch, i get a physical done and take one of my last pt tests and they tell me that i am still "combat effective". my right knee isnt even mine! so instead of pulling everyone out like out dumbass president said....we are sending more people in, ME being one of them. yeah you read it right. the fuckers gave me orders for mid june to redeploy into afghanistan. so when doe this "CHANGE" that he promised us start? all i am seeing is the same old bullshit that washington has been feeding us for years.

Creation Versus Evolution
To those of you that know me and know what I do for a living, this Blog may not come as a suprise. However, to those that do not know, I am a molecular biologist working on my PhD. Within the scientific community, religion is not typically discussed (unless you're praying about an experiment to work. haahah). It is typical for most scientists to question creationism, and I myself am one of those people. And as a man of science I search out answers to questions that are unknown. Not only do i question creationism, I also question the validity of the Theory of Evolution. So first, my beliefs at the moment: 1. I do believe in God, and i do belive in eternal salvation once you've trusted in Him. 2. I support the ideas of Biological/geographical/social evolution. The reason of this blog is to see what others think and/or whether this can lead to a CIVIL conversation. Can Creationism and Evolution exist in the same context. i.e. Could the 7 days of creation be thro

Pointless Myspace Survey
Back to Back RandomnessTAKE THIS SURVEY! Take this survey What do you consider some perks of being your gender?everything Would you ever get a tattoo with someone's name on it?nopes What occupation do you find sexy?proctologist Would you ever get your nipples pierced?nopes What is your LEAST favorite type of alcohol?vodka Did you ever have tea parties when you were younger?nopes Have you ever shaved someone before?nopes Do you know anyone personally who is terminally ill?knew, before she died What is your favorite line from a movie?blah blah blah Would you rather be the opposite sex?sometimes Do you like spending time with your parents?sorta What would you do if you saw a guy hit a girl?shake his hand Have you ever gambled?sorta What would you NEVER name one of your children?Boris What is the coolest restaurant you've ever been to?Klas Do you have any analog clocks in your house?nope What do you do with clothes you've outgrown or don't want anymore?stash them in my cl

Auction For 1 Credit Bird Bling
Starting today I am accepting Bids for a 1 Credit *Bird Bling, Auction will end on April 1st, 2009 @ 1:00pm (Fubar time) ~~Click here to Bid~~ *If you don't want the Bird Bling, you can get a different 1 Credit Bling* Psst... If you're reading this would you Please be a Great Friend & Rate this pic for me, TYSM!! XOXOXOXO

Master Calls~
"Hi Kitten. What are you wearing now?" She could feel the heat rushing to her face as she squirmed in her chair feeling the desire building in her. The funny thing was she hadn't realized how much she missed him to until just then. "Well let's see today I'm wearing black jeans with a green camisole and boots." "Ah babe you know just how to get to me." As always he was warm and soft yet so powerful. "Come on now tell me everything." Before she knew what she was doing she was telling him everything. Starting with the jeans she was wearing and how they fit tight in all the right places. She told him how they clung just right to her hips showing off her ass. Then describing the camisole she had on that was daringly low exposing her cleavage. She told him that she wasn't wearing a bra and how her pierced nipples were poking at the fabric. "Oh my dirty little slut." he said openly thrilled by her revelations. "Touch yourself for me." "I can't do that what if Missa comes in." "

Moar Irc Funniness
Verifying gender is very important on IRC. * Nickthebass imagines wyorancher in a pair of daisy duke shorts, checked shirt tied under her breasts and a pair of cowboy boots * Nickthebass bites His lip again and almost draws blood [wyorancher] except the part of me being male.... [Dagorath] ahahahaha Then of course, in an effort to Not Be Gay[tm], the involved parties MUST jest. Especially if it makes it worse. * Nickthebass collapses into a fit of laughing [Nickthebass] ooooooooooooooooooooh shit * wyorancher can't figure that my name is all that feminine * Nickthebass has a one track mind [TheKillingMoon] it's not [TheKillingMoon] but my god, those eyelashes and and the heels * wyorancher flutters my brown eye [wyorancher] eyes* BAHAHAHHAHAHA! Ah, typos.

Gotta Git This Done Today Please!!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY ON THIS! PLEASE HELP WITH 1 RATE! CHECK TO SEE IF YOU CAN RERATE IF YOU HAVE ALREADY RATED. BLOG, ASK YOUR FRIENDS TO RATE PLEASE!! WINNER TAKES ALL IN THIS AND HE IS IN 2ND PLACE, WE CAN STILL DO IT!

Cancer
In 2000 I lost my mother to brain and colon cancer and a week after my mothers passing I lost my father to pancreatic cancer. Now I am losing friends on here to cancer and I am so sick of losing people to this disease This awful disease has taken so many people from us, but there are amazing stories of hope, of support, of bravery and best of all, of triumph. This is for the people we've lost to the battle, the people still fighting the battle and for those who have proven victorious in the battle. LIVESTRONG Flickr 2007 To learn more about LIVESTRONG Flickr 2007 and/or to post the image to your own stream in a show of support, go here: LIVESTRONG Flickr 2007

[are You Wicked?]
gather we will each in search of a thrill a reason for feeling the needing to kill to stop whats happening to silence the screams to not be afraid to sleep and dream to feel in control and to take it all back to fall into peace as the sky turns to black hope you got what you wanted this wonderful wish to kill everyday until nothing exists in the world but you your the last one alive but with no conflict to confront with there be a reason to survive? will the anger just die or will you kill that as well? as you sit all alone in your personal hell... to wish i could kill everything

Erotic Moment
You open the door and step through. The candles on the nightstands are lit, they offer up their fragrance to us. Just a hint of Jasmine and Rose, nothing overpowering, but enough to awaken the senses. Soft music is playing softly in the background, the notes wafting upon the air and curling around you. The drapes are drawn, but billow from the slight breeze coming in from outside. You look over to the corner and see the candlelight dancing in the full length mirror. You eyes return to the bed and you see that the comforter is turned down, the crisp sheets revealed and inviting. Your eyes move to me as I stand beside the bed in my short pink velvet robe, a smile spreads across your face, matching the one on mine. You turn and close the door quietly and walk to me. You stand before me and I tremble slightly as you lean down to kiss me. Our lips meet gently and my mouth opens slightly to welcome your warm, probing tongue. You take me into your arms and hold me close to you as our tongu

Love, Out The Window...
Hell, we all want that warm feeling. We all want to think of someone during the day, and know they're thinking of us. We all want to look forward to seeing someone at the end of the day or the week. We all want to have someone to think of instead of our daily issues. We all build that special "other" up, just to become numb of our own life. ... But when it comes down to it, we have to stand on our own. We have to recognize our strengths. We have to recognize our weaknesess. We have to recognize our SELF. ... Whoever you think loves you, throw it out the window... ...see what returns.

Drama
OMG the drama here is rediculous. Are we over the age of 18 or not? I mean come on people it's the freaking internet. I could care less if you rate me a 1 or a 11. People get so pissy on here and don't know when to shut their mouths. Geez go live your life

I Melt With You - Modern English
Here are the lyrics...great song...I love 80's music!! lol... I Melt With You - Modern English Moving forward using all my breath Making love to you was never second best I saw the world thrashing all around your face Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace I'll stop the world and melt with you You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time There's nothing you and I won't do I'll stop the world and melt with you (You should know better) Dream of better lives the kind which never hate (You should see why) Dropped in the state of imaginary grace (You should know better) I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race (You should see why) What I'm comprehending a race that long gone bye (I'll stop the world) I'll stop the world and melt with you (I'll stop the world) You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time (Let's stop the world) There's nothing you and I won't do (Let's stop the world) I'll stop the world and melt

Summer Rain
I listen to the rain fall on a summer night and my mind is flooded of sultry motions underneath the moon light Underneath the sighs of her desire She ignites a eternal fire As it was only once a flickering now a full blaze with little bickering I ask myself what any sane person would And if I could come up with any reason any doubts no escape me The only fear is the emptiness without without that brief moment without pressing lips without entwined ecstasy Not to think of tomorrow but only of the today I need not borrow I need only to caress to hold that which is true an everlasting smile So stay just as you are change only the world around you And watch the days

Bad Cpl Days
well ive had a shitty couple of days. ive been awake 40+ hours right now and still not sleepy but tired. ive had 4 friends eather threaten to or attempt to harm themselves in 24 hours. i went out to try to qualify for the karioki contest ive been tryin for the last 7 weeks and didnt even get top 3 this week. so yea im a lil depressed today. most ppl will say well if it was just friends being dumb dont let it bring you down,but my problem is care to much about my friends. luckily the 2 thattried to hurt themselves stopped b4 they did any damage but just the idea that they felt they had to do something like this realy tears me up. all my friends know they can call me or text me and ill listen to thebitch and gripe about any and everything. but yet they wait till its allready bugging them this bad b4 they call me and that makes me feel bad and good at same time. bad that they wait till im last resort butlad they turn to me and ive been able to help them. well im going to get ready to leav

Inside The Fire
Inside the fire I woke to the smell of smoke on the air and wind Thick was the smell of hair, sweat and skin The air slowly tinning and with it my will within The bed was warm, the air so hot I couldn't move Faint crackling from the fire Almost hypnotic the sound of its desire To enthralled to move or fight Its warmth felt to good, maybe just one more night My breathing heavy, my chest tight Its getting harder to breath with this fire's bite The smokes getting thicker, it cared not of my plight The fire spreading consuming all within its embrace My name was on its lips, no time to gain more space I should have moved, I should have put out the fire, put up a fight It was all my fault i was caught by it's beauty and grace It was then i realized it was my heart caught in the fire and smoke It was my skin i smelt on the wind that was burnt I dare to test its passion, i feed it my soul and now its out of control My chance to leave had been and gone, now I'm t

Ooooh, How I'm In The Mood To Argue Today...
Nine Inch Nails : Zero-Sum (Stephen Morris & Gillian Gilbert remix) They started to open up the sky. They started to reach down through. And it feels like we're living that split second of a car crash. And time is slowing down. If we only had a little more time. And this time, is all there is. Do you remember the time we...? And all the times we...? And should've? And were going to? But no. And I know you remember. How we could justify it all. But we knew better. In our hearts, we knew better. And we told ourselves it didn't matter. We chose to continue and none of that matters, anymore. In the hour of our twilight. And soon it will be all said and done. And we'll all be back together as one. If we will, continue, at all. Shame on us. Doomed from the start. May God have mercy on our dirty little hearts. Shame on us. For all we have done. And all we ever were. Just zeros and ones. And you never get away. And you never get to take the easy way. And all this, is a consequence. Brought

In Memoriam
[to those who have asked, this is NOT based on a true story. it's just something i made up for a class]. We were way past the first date. The first kiss. The first “I love you.” We already made future plans. Instead of buying Christmas and birthday presents You were buying a ring. And I was buying a dress. But you had to go that bar. And consume one too many drinks. You had to get in that car. You had to go through that red light. I never got to show off that ring. Or wear that beautiful dress. All because of you. It’s like they say, Actions always planned are never completed.

They Say That It Is Better To Have Loved And Lost, Then To Have Loved At All....
.....Just like asking is the glass half empty or half full. It all depends on how you look at it. When you love someone you experience feelings and emotions you never thought possible. But then you get hurt and thats the point of which you wished you has never falling in love in the first place. If nothing else, love is the only truth out there, it never tells you any lies, there is no "i think im in love" your in love, your just to scared to admit it in fear of getting hurt. But its just something that has to happen, yes its painful, and yes it takes a while to get over. But we do get over it. But there is that one special person that when you look into their eyes, you see more then love. Its a feeling that is highly unexplainable and unavoidable, and those are the ones who kinda sneak up on ya! You dont really look for them, but you find them either way! And they also happen to be the ones who change your world. They show you things that you never thought possible. Then, you drop the

Own Me Be My New Bff
> Ok you guys here is another chance for you to have me all to yourself...You have to admitt love from me is awesome...lol Well I can hope. Come bid on me... Be My new BFF HERE IS THE LINK TO OWN ME!

Cold Is A Relative Thing. . . . . .
COLD IS A RELATIVE THING. . . . . . 65 above zero: Floridians turn on the heat. People in WY plant gardens. 60 above zero: Californians shiver uncontrollably. People in WY sunbathe. 50 above zero: Italian & English cars won't start. People in WY drive with the windows down. 40 above zero: Georgians don coats, thermal underwear, gloves, wool hats. People in WY throw on a flannel shirt. 35 above zero: New York landlords finally turn up the heat. People in WY have the last cookout before it gets cold. 20 above Zero People in Miami die. WY People close the windows. Zero: Californians fly away to Mexico. People in WY get out their winter coats. 10 below zero: Hollywood disintegrates. The Girl Scouts in WY are selling cookies door to door. 20 below zero: Washington DC runs out of hot air. People in WY break out the snowshoes. 30 below zero: Santa Claus abandons

Hes Auctioning Autos !
Saturday 3-29 8am PST until Sunday 3-30 12 pm PST auctioning off Auto 11s to Highest Bidder Saturday 3-29 8am PST until Sunday 3-30 12pm PST auctioning off Auto 11s to Highest Bidder this Bully brought to you by ~please show her love ~ ♥ Jimette ♥ ~Rating Revolution~Pegasus Project #7(Fantasia) TL~@ fubar

Hurt
I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way

Cum For Master~
"Take a deep breathe through your nose and hold it in for the count of 10, concentrate on Master's voice. Now, through your mouth, exhale completely and slowly. Continue breathing long, deep, breaths through your nose and exhaling through your mouth. Tense up all your muscles very tight, now, counting from ten to one, release them slowly, you will find them very relaxed." "As you read this you will hear Master's voice, with every breath and passing movement, you are feeling increasingly more and more peaceful and relaxed. The words are peaceful and bright. you will hear Master count from 10 to 1, as Master counts, you will become more and more relaxed, getting more and more open with each passing moment." "10 you will find yourself becoming more and more aware." "9" "8 you will find yourself becoming more and more relaxed." "7" "6 you will find yourself becoming more and more open." "5" "4 you will find yourself becoming more and more willing." "3" "2 you

Erotic Dream~
His sleep was troubled lately. Sometimes you just can't turn your mind off. From thinking about the day's problems to erotic fantasies, sleep constantly eluded him. After a couple hours of tossing and turning, he finally managed to drift off. The dream started as it normally did. There was a female in the bed with him. How she got there, he didn't know, nor did he care. Only that her skin was soft, smooth, and crying out to be touched. She began to caress his chest while he put his arm around her and nestled her onto his shoulder. Softly he stroked her arm from her elbow to her shoulder while she began rubbing his stomach and chest in small circles slowly making her way down to his shorts. Where their bodies touched was fire and tingling on their skin. His breathing occasionally caught in his chest as her hand roamed his body. Slowly her hand made it's way down to the elastic on his shorts. His breath caught as she found what she was seeking. She need not have worried, as h

Yet Again Up For Auction... :)
I'm in another auction... time to be owned again! My previous owners can tell you that I will keep you entertained, amused, and loved throughout my enslavement. So, if you're interested come and bid on the mon.... Yeah! Bid on me or I'll put my pinky in your butt

Stash And Stuff
i havn't really had time to mess with stuff on my profile. when i do i try not to clutter and put junk on here. stash and pics usually have some kind of meaning or another to me. some things i post are for others or because they were sent to me and i consider them gifts. i might add a few folders one day cuz it seems like peeps like to bomb and stuff,but i try to keep junk out so as not to waste peeps time. i hope peeps take the time to listen to the words in most of them. i just refreshed my stash. lots of them i couldn't find originals. mostly because the artists have either disabled the embed codes so you have to use the url links or they removed them for copyright issues. you will find many of them are videos that fans or peeps made themselves. that's about the best i can do on that. some of the ones that may have been deleted i'm leaving up at the moment cuz peeps can still rate it if they want or not. i hope that some people will like what i have in there and maybe help someone o

Things About Me...stole From Moet
1. Where do you go to shop for clothes? Mango, the mall 2. Do you buy your own groceries? - Yes.. definitely 3. Do you think people talk about you behind you're back? - Definitely.I'm a cunt 4. When's the last time you had a sour gummy worm? - Don't know 5. Whats your favorite fruit? - many.. mangos,banana... 6. If there was a fire, what would be the first thing you would grab? - my daughter and laptop 7. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel? - no 8. Have you ever tried to build something? - yes a banana soft toy 9. Do you play with legos? - No 10. Do you play with barbies? - no 11. Who's your favorite Disney Princess? - no 12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? - no 13. Would you rather have blue skin or purple skin? - blue 14. Have you ever gotten a sunburn? - no 15. Have you eaten snow? - no 16. Have you watched Star Wars, any of the six? - yes all.."Luke, I am your father"my f

Waterlogged.
The water laps against your skin and, for a moment, it is the only sensation that you feel. You can hear the children laughing as they splash each other. You can see the parents perched on their deckchairs; rubbing lotion onto already tanned skin, gossiping about the neighbor who made the mistake of not joining in this afternoon of leisure, calling to their youngsters to not play so rough. The sunlight glistens on the water, turning it to a field of dazzling diamond brightness that parts for your passing. And none of this matters. You dive below, and suddenly,it is all gone. No sound reaches your ears. Your eyes are blind beneath the waves. Here you are, in the midst of a hub of activity, surrounded by thoughts and dreams and words that fall to silence on the surface of the liquid blanket that envelopes you. It has all ceased to exist. There is only you...and the cocoon of gently lapping coolness. You are alone in this silent drowning existence. Sudden irrational

To That Someone Special
To that Someone Special Category: Romance and Relationships I'm waiting here for that someone every day and night. Needing someone to hold me tight. To cheer me up when I'm sad. And make me smile when I'm mad. I need that someone that will always care. Someone that will always be there. Even when I'm right or wrong. And always be there to keep me strong. Someone to show me there is no fear. Someone always there and always near. Always helping me to get through. Someone there to say I LOVE YOU. Someone to be there when I'm cold. And always there for me to hold. Someone there for me to think of. Someone there to show me LOVE.

Show Me Love
dang since 06 same shit.. rate me show love .. i will back.. look at me look at me.. i need points.... dude this is not fucking pac man.. its a web site that is suppose to resemble a bar.. and well if there is a real bar like this i would have to bring brass knuckles because i would be kicking everyone's assss. minus like 8.. i show you your god damn love and you are like thanks... oh i wish you could have heard the way i said thanks in my head.. sometimes even going beyond what anyone else would do like god forbid leaving you a photo comment and putting thought into it.. so fuck your love.. like most love its only one sided... lucky girls you have vapid pervs to rate those pics so you can get to the next level so you can put even more pics up..admire...oh shite why do i even get on here.. lucky to have at least found some real friends this go round..

The Nerve Of Sum People!!!!
PASSIONJOH...: Naaa I just hate niggers PASSIONJOH...: goodbye you ugly ass bitch ->PASSIONJOH...: wtf kinda shit is that PASSIONJOH...: You're a fat bitch that loves niggers and cant even answer a fruckin white man ->PASSIONJOH...: huh? PASSIONJOH...: Biotch! I RECIEVED THIS IN MY SHOUT BOX, JUST THOUGHT ID SHARE

Lets Get To Know Each Other Better
Nickname you prefer: P.J. Age, including months: 33 Years and 6 Months What is your ethnic background?: AUSTRIAN, NATIVE AMERICAN, IRISH, AND ITALIAN Real hair color: BROWN Age you got your first piercing/tattoos: 18 YEARS How many?:6 TATTOOS BOTH EARS PIERECED Shampoo/conditioner: wHAT EVER IS THERE Deodorant: AXE Perfume/cologne: AXE Favorite shirt: BLACK SHORT SLEEVE Soap?: BODY WASH Lotion?: COCO BUTTER Do you hold grudges or forgive easy?: NO How many real, close, friends do you have that you can truly trust?: 5 Are you happy when you are single?: YES AND NO Do you feel like you have everything you want/need?: CLOSE Are you content?: NO Do you have any phobias?: ELEVATION Whats your favorite physical feature about you?: EYES Whats your favorite part of your personality?: MY SARCASM What do you wanna be when you grow up?: AN WELDER Is 30 old?: ITS THE NEW TWENTIES Do you have a crush on anyone?: YES What's t

N.s.f.w. Rating!
So why do the women get grouchy when I only rate their boobs and ass in their NSFW pic file when then send me an addy? If you are showing them in your default to intice me over to your page...then that's what I'll be rating first....as simple as that! I'll eventually get to those other boring photos later...like a year later!...hahaha!..Ahem! (but if I approached you first and added you...then I was only interested in your mind.) True! Honestly!

My Fav Poem
"Who will cry for the little boy, lost and all alone? Who will cry for the little boy, abandoned without his own? Who will cry for the little boy? He cried himself to sleep. Who will cry for the little boy? He never had for keeps. Who will cry for the little boy? He walked the burning sand. Who will cry for the little boy? The boy inside the man. Who will cry for the little boy? Who knows well hurt and pain. Who will cry for the little boy? He died and died again. Who will cry for the little boy? A good boy he tried to be. Who will cry for the little boy, who cries inside of me?"

Make Friends With Time!
"We race to win, but at what price? Driven by the threat of time, we wonder why we feel so empty at the end of action-filled days." -- Diana Hunt Do you fly through each day with your eyes always on the clock? In western cultures, we’ve been taught that we need to impose our own order on life. As a result, we think we need to control every aspect of our day. How might you enter into a new relationship with time? How might you take back the power you’ve given to the clock? This is the time of your life. How are you spending it? "When busyness is the measure of time, no matter how much time exists it is never enough." -- Diana Hunt

Is This Punishment?
"That's it! Come here now!" His words echoed through her soul but she knew she had done wrong. Her head was lowered as she walked nervously to Him standing before Him. Her gaze only looking at His knees as she sees Him sitting before her, as her hands nervously pinch at her jeans. He watches her movements, smiling to Himself as He sees her fidgeting nervously. He allows her to stand there for a few minutes. Her trembling becoming more and more visible. Then when He feels she is about to explode He whispers to her. "Drop the pants." Her heart drops. She didn't know this would happen, but she knew better then to argue, it only made things worse. Her trembling fingers moved to the front of her jeans where she fumbled the button loose. Unzipping it she took a deep breathe and tugged her jeans to her knees. Her silken panties the only things covering her as she felt the heat of her blush and her eyes filling with tears. She hated him at that moment. She hated that He could do th

All Means Nothing Lyrics
Click here to listen to the music as you check out the lyrics ALL MEANS NOTHING Words and music by Rhob Elliott, Todd Johnson©2007 Awful Racket Music (ASCAP), All Rights Reserved "... ask not what your country can do for you, ask what you can do for your country" - Pres. John F. Kennedy"... Tear down this wall..." - Pres. Ronald Reagan "... because people have got to know whether their president is a crook...well I'm not a crook" - Pres. Richard M. Nixon "... government is not the solution to our problem, government IS the problem..." Pres. Ronald Reagan "... not gonna do it... wouldn't be prudent..." Pres. George H.W. Bush "... those weapons of mass destruction have gotta be somewhere..." - Pres. George W. Bush "... I did not have sexual relations with that woman..." Pres. William J. Clinton "... in my line of work you gotta keep repeating things over and over again... for the truth to sink in... to catapult the propaganda..." - Pres. George W. Bush "... tear down this wal

Ode To A Midget....
When you are good at what you do, you need not concern yourself with the actions of others. Cheating and sucker punches are no match for skill, experience and strength. You're a small man with a small plan. Making yourself feel large and important in a virtual fantasy world. You're NOTHING without your weak army of mindless followers that help your game. Just so they can be part of "something". Real recognition and respect comes by being real, gaining respect of mofos that know the deal. Posing hard is just a facade.

Greg Dulli - Lyrical Genius
Afghan Whigs Gentlemen (1993) My Curse You hurt me baby I flinch so when you do Your kisses scourge me Hyssop in your perfume Oh, I do not fear you And slave I only use As a word to describe the special way I feel for you You look like me And I look like no one else We need no other As long as we have ourselves But I won't cry about it Every time you get obsessed Every time I came undressed All ugly thoughts are gone I'm sure we'll all be friends I'll try to break your back You'll try to make amends Curse softly to me baby And smother me in your love Temptation comes not from hell but from above And there's blood on my teeth When I bite my tongue to speak Zip me down, kiss me there I can smile now You won't find out ever Hurt me baby I flinch so when you do Your kisses scourge me Hyssop in your perfume Oh I do not fear you And slave I only use as a word to describe The way I feel when I'm with you If I have to lie about it everytime I came undresse

Life Has It's Own Direction
Life has it's own direction It isn't true that life is one damn thing after another; it's one damn thing over another. Life is much easier if we can accept a few basic rules. Accept the impossible, do the indispensable, and bear the intolerable. One learns in life to keep silent and draw one's own confusions. Life just happens. There's no controlling it. You just need to flow with it. All the ups and downs. Give yourself the moment. Just let it happen. Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards. Don't continually try to look for answers that aren't there. Most of life's questions have no answers so don't kill your self trying to solve these puzzles. Let them go, move on. Life is not a problem to be solved but a reality to be experienced. Simply; Life is just something that happens to us all while were making other plans. Life has it's own coarse. No one can write there own auto biography in advance. One could say the first part of their life w

Affirmations
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I believe that trust is more important than monogamy I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul I believe that family is worth more than money or gold I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness

Heres What You Need To Know
For all you folks who thinkim just another knotch on your fu belt, guess again! If I friend request you its cause I ment it and I expect some semblance of communcation a hello if I say hi A thanks when I give gifts small things to you major things to me. If your to busy with your 5000 friends to do that, well you can count on 4999 cause I will delete you. having said that thanks to all who have bothered and im sorry to those in the process luvs and hugs, Ghostbear aka JC

The Bleeding ~five Finger Death Punch
"The Bleeding" [V1:] I remember when all the games began Remember every little lie and every last goodbye Promises you broke, words you choked on and I never walked away, it's still a mystery to me [Pre-Chorus:] Well I'm so empty I'm better off without you and you're better off without me Well you're so unclean I'm better off without you and you're better off without me [Chorus:] The lying, the bleeding, the screaming Was tearing me apart The hatred (deceiving), the beatings; it's over [V2:] Paint the mirrors black to forget you I still picture your face and the way you used to taste Roses in a glass, dead and wilted To you this all was nothing Everything to you is nothing [Pre-Chorus:] Well you're so filthy I'm better off without you and you're better off without me Well I'm so ugly You're better off without me and I'm better off alone [Chorus:] The lying, the bleeding, the screaming Was tearing me apart The hatred, the beatings (disaster); it

You And Me
As I wake each morning And all through the day My thoughts are on you Never do they stray. I long to hear your voice A simple, how are you Letting me know how much you care Telling me your feelings are true. It seems we are so different In everything we do But we care and love regardless All the day through. And when at night I close my eyes You are all I want to see Dreaming of good things to come Hand in hand, you and me.

To Dreram
Make a wish, find a dream, choose a shooting star. Let your hopes and spirits soar high and free and far. Reach for the unreachable, stretch to touch the sky. Know that no dream you treasure is too far or vey high. Belive in the impossible, then work and try and do. For only those who DARE TO DREAM can make a dream come true.....

72,000 Rate Fake...obama...real Life And So Much More...
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Jstasaying
*the stars that shine in my night *the sun that shines in my day *my sun in the rain *my moon to light the way on a dark night *my gps when i'm lost *my caffeine when i'm tired *my jack when i wana get silly *my coke when i wana get high *my pillow when i need to rest *my covers when i'm cold *my voice when i'm at a loss for words *my heartbeat to continue on *my smile when i'm sad *my tears of joy *my eyes when i can't see *my hands when i wana feel *my fun on a boring night *a scream in the calm night *my ears when i'm not listening

Another Borrowed Rant...
LOVE this! THIS WOMAN SHOULD RUN FOR PRESIDENT!!! I'D VOTE FOR HER!!! Written by a housewife from New Jersey and sounds like it! This is one ticked off lady. "Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores onSeptember 11, 2001 ? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?... Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring abou

Just A Lil Update For Ere 1
ma girl is provin to be a fighter even though she wont let me watch her therapy she is making steps to walk heavy on drugs she still fights it though rumor is she may be home hope in a month or two much dependin on process when she gets home i am her own private CNA jst try n' stop me

Island Dreams
Island dreams in hot solar rays, footsteps on the grainy sand, clear blue oceans where dolphins swim, pina colada's and coconut palms. Stories in reflected glories, with laughing and founding desire, morals be delicious soft silky love, like the wings of a peacefull white dove, Hearts beating in redness fury, a cold strike upon the stone, with love flowing fast and smoothly, a tremble and shake from the bones. myspace graphics

How To Have A Calm Day!
I am passing this on to you because it definitely worked for me today, and we all could probably use more calm in our lives! Some doctor on the TV this morning said that the way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started. So I looked around my house to see things I'd started and hadn't finished and, before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of shhhardonay, a bodle of Baileys, abutle of vocka, a pockage of Pringlies, tha mainder of a botl Prozic and Valumscriptins, the res of the Chesescke an a box a chocolets. Yu haf no idr who fikin gud I fel. Peas sen dis orn to anyy yu fee ar in ned ov inr pece.

At This Moment
For the Last 10 years, I have written a Poem for My son to mark His Birthdays....Below is Our Favorite......It is called "At This Moment". It is a letter poem from a favorite memory of my son......This was presented to him on his 17th Birthdays this past September.....I hope you like it as much as we do......enjoy....... hugs AT THIS MOMENT I am peering through a window, watching you. I wonder to myself, "How old ARE you?" I grow anxious. At this moment, I see your grand stature of small frame engulfed by the endless forest. The trees gently sway with the breeze. Approval, imagined, of your company. Leaves crunch and rustle at your feet, as if a procession proclaiming: "The King is Coming!" Best friend at your heels, intent at keeping you safe, wags his tail at this direction, yet cuts you off from the dangerous next. My soul is whisked away to ease at this sight. Woolen cap placed snuggly over your ears; St

Your Kidding Right??
I find it so damn funny when i get shouts asking "oh can i see your privet folder" fella's come on now if i wanted to show that folder off it'd be open for all fuland to see but it's not so when you ask to see it chances are your not going to don't waste your time asking...Oh and besides i'm taken...Yep taken and so there no one confused about who i'm taken by it's Dj Lostboy befor him i did open that folder for a select few but sinces then that folder has remained locked for a resson......STOP ASKING..... Thanks Lady Snuggles

Shameless Plug
I hate to do things like this, but the Internet is my MAIN access to social and a 'life' at present. Please help me to maintain my sanity until I can get the goverment to continue to pay me my monthly income. Ulf or try this, direct: Have a PayPal Account? Please and Thank you

Minorities
Minorities We need to show more sympathy for these people. * They travel miles in the heat. * They risk their lives crossing a border. * They don't get paid enough wages. * They do jobs that others won't do or are afraid to do. * They live in crowded conditions among a people who speak a different language. * They rarely see their families, and they face adversity all day ~ every day.. I'm not talking about illegal Mexicans ~ I'm talking about our troops! Doesn't it seem strange that many Democrats and Republicans are willing to lavish all kinds of social benefits on illegals, but don't support our troops, and are even threatening to defund them? Please pass this on; this is worth the short time it takes to read it.

Cs
It's been on my mind. Come up in random conversations. Okay, I have even indulged in a bit of ranting, much to the amusement of the large handsome fella that hangs out with what's his name. For want of a better description of the general subject matter, we shall deem it "Common Sense". Especially as it pertains to men and women! Quite a bit of it to do with some of the interaction we indulge in here, or on the internet, in general. Some points... Do you like any of my photos? Hmm, I picked the good ones, you know! Now, mine are honest, not all are... (You folks know who you are, tsk tsk.) However, I do not deny the fact that I only post the ones that I find somewhat nice. Otherwise, why? Copious compliments are lovely, but they only swell my head so far as we have NO idea how you would react to the living, speaking flesh. Don't argue this with me, it's pointless. We just on'tt know, and likely never shall! On that sort of thought path, are we really as naieve a nation as we s

Help The Birthday Boy Godfather!
Happy Birthday Jared! Show this Soldier lots of Luv and Thanks and help Godfather him for his Birthday! Click any of his pictures or his link and FAN/ADD and RATE everything he has! BOMB HIM, BLING HIM and SPANK HIM til he can't take it anymore! OlDeR WoMeN MaKe BeAuTiFuL LoVeRs!!@ fubar If anyone deserves the love, he does! Stop by and say Thank You, Happy Birthday and PebblesinAZ sent ya! PebblesinAZ...Owned by Monopoly75@ fubar

Ohne Sie
Ohne sie bin ich leer Ich habe keinen Grund zu leben Ich zerstöre alles, dass ich mich berühre Warum dies würde nicht sagen, das Ergebnis? Ich liebe Sie mit ganzem meinem Herzen. Sie sind das beste Ding, in meinem Leben vorzukommen. Sie sind meine Welt. Ohne Sie bin ich Nichts

Some Real Advice Would Be Nice...
Looking for some actual helpful advice here... I've found an image, which I've become slightly obssessed with and that I want to turn into a tattoo (becoming obssessed with the image happens every time I find one that speaks to me). The image below is the general concept, but there will be lots of tweaking before the final product. Now here's where the question/advice comes in. I thought about it for a long time, but couldn't think of an area of my body where this image could live up to its potential - and then my boyfriend suggested I make it a chest piece. I immediately fell in love with the idea, but I do have some reservations about the area and figured I'd put it out there for my tattooed (and untattooed!) friends to help me out with. Suggestions, advice, comments - all more than welcome! This is the general idea:

#1 "sex, Drugs, And Rock N' Roll"
As rock music changes, is it still all about sex, drugs, and Rock 'n Roll? I think is no. When I see the music video's or listen to the words of the songs, they never talk about sex, drugs, and Rock n' Roll. (e.x. 10 Years "Beautiful" or 3 Doors Down "It's Not My Time") let me know what you think......

More Silly Shit
Farts, We haven't discussed these in a while but we'll analyse what makes a fart a fart. Noise. Noise is obviously an important part of the fart. It lets your friends and loved ones, even strangers know that a stinky gas is about to enter the lungs. What makes the noise? It is the air passing your butt checks cause them to open and close quickly causing a clapping action. I refer to this as the ass clap. Animals don't have this luxery because they don't have opposible ass cheeks. Silent but deadlies do not have the same noise quality of dump truck fart because it is a leaking of noxious gases in the air with no force. It eases up in the air much like VX nerve agent. By the time you smell it, you are already gagging. Texture. There are many different textures to a fart. Wet farts are the most serious of the farts because this requires immediate action upon the farters part, IE Checking shorts. There is my favorite, Dry. Dry ones are pretty good.. they don't tend to le

Every Damn Time
You told me i was the best now not even the rest the silence of this love hate passion Your the new fashion disease my queen You took me out of my box told me to this to that man why the fuck did i ever think i could ever have something back with this soul of mine dieing with time writhing away with another deathly betraying day worlds are cold blood is hot why couldnt u just let me rot so i couldnt feel like a fashion trend dieing down with in well i guess this is the reall world so ice cold love hate passion damn if that was the only reaction

Rebirth
How does one seek what they never knew they wanted? Lights shine; visions come to exist beyond the greatest leap in ever life it doth to know that is more than mortal coil. Blood is red, heart is hued the gentle light spreads forth thru you. I have found a muse who is sweet and true may all I have be given to you. This life has met with earthen pain. And things have come forth from the Umbra domain to protect me and help me when things were not the same. They were here and they still remain, but they know I am making things right she sees me and knows my potential and she does not carve me to fit a shape I was never made for and I give her the respect to do the same for her. I see her perfection and not as an object I accept her as she accepts me. As the sight reveals and the path uncovers those who seek to bind that which is sought have finally brought this life. No longer do I suffer as ashen as anew, but to find the glow I needed only trust with a pure unclouded decision. Life is ne

Coincidence?
Have your seen something either at a store or at your home and you feel it in your gut to take it with you or buy it? That just happened to me today! I was at the mall with my friends and we're hungry so we headed out to the food court. We stopped at this place called taxi's and as my friend was paying she was playing with a toothpick. i looked it at it and felt like i needed one. idk i mean i was going to eat a burger ffs. so i grabbed in i put it in my bag next day or today, i baked some brownies i wanted to see if they were done and it hit me I CAN USE THE TOOTHPICK!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee so in the end it came in handy. I don't know why i'm blogging about this. I guess cause it's happened to me more than once but i never really give into the urge. hmm, guess i'll re-think that. hello everyone week starting off good?

Heartbroken
Heartbroken Nothing better than to sleep To forget that you are gone To forget your lies Forget the way You told me You never loved me Forget the way You looked at me When you left me I want to forget I want to leave this world Close my eyes Fall to sleep to stop the heart From beating I want to block awayThe world to stop the pain In my heart I want my heart to stop beating To stop bleeding From your words Your lies

Today Is My Birthday!
**Today is my BIRTHDAY!!** I'm the ripe old age of 23 today! LOL Auto-11s will be on all day. I'll be bombing too, so look out! And last but not least, I have a BIRTHDAY HH at 8pm fu-time (11pm EST)!!! Please come show me some birthday luv...fubar style! I appreciate all luv given, nothing is too small. ♥Amykins Amykins ♥@ fubar

Sorry! I'm Bored!!
How far away is the last person you kissed? ---He's on the couch with an earache...I love my Lil Bear Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? ---Nope, waited until midnight Mike's time to wish him Happy Birthday Are you in a good mood right now? ---Meh Do you find the opposite sex confusing? ---Yes...they say we play games...go figure How did you feel when you woke up today? ---Nervous Does the last person you texted make you smile? ---Yupper When is your birthday? ---November 2...I think this is a lot like the last one...hmmm What did you do last night? ---Uploaded all my cruise pictures What have you had pierced? ---Ears Who was the last person that left you a comment? ---BUGSTER Do you want to see someone at this very moment? ---No Who was the last person you hugged? ---Jacob What's the relationship between you and the last person you texted? ---She's my friend What should you be doing righ

Mama
When you were 15, your mom came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

Always Rember
A Manchester West High School graduate who rescued two fellow soldiers from a burning vehicle six months ago died from wounds received while on ground patrol in Afghanistan, military officials at Fort Bragg, North Carolina, said yesterday. Zachary D. Tellier, a paratrooper in the 82nd Airborne, listed his official address as Charlotte but considered himself a Manchester, N.H., resident, said his mother, Pamela Morse, of Falmouth, Mass. Tellier, who was 31, died Saturday, and Morse said she learned of his death Sunday afternoon. Tellier died from gunshot wounds received during a prolonged firefight with the Taliban, said his wife, Sara Tellier. Tellier (pronounced te-LEAR) attended grade school and middle school in Bedford and graduated from West High School in 1994, Morse said. He graduated from American University, returned to Manchester and moved to Charlotte in 2004. He was working as a carpenter when he enlisted two years ago, his mother said. "He wanted to feel success

Kerrizzma An Aquafina
Just wanted to send this thought and love out to you. Its amazing that to me that for one moment I felt so much anguish and hurt about the future and you know how in the middle of the night all the doubts pile in on you and thats where I was and Aquafina popped up on my screen and didnt accept the "Im ok" and proceeded to be the caring loving person that I have found her to be since I joined the Pussycat Playmates. And I want to thank you Fina cause only the closest of friends and family knows whats going on with me and and so that makes you my family and good friend truly and I thank you for listening to me that will be treasured by me close to my heart....then Ms Kerrizzma gave me words of encouragement and love and this was to a stranger across miles and miles of space and she lifted me up and showed love and for that u r held dearest ms maam. When I got to kerrizzzmas page it was as if God himself was speaking to me in the message she had there and I want to share it and Im crying

My Fire
I think of you and My heart skips a BEAT You send my spirit soaring high above the street. Just when I think its safe to touch the ground. You show me more. yes, you astound! Quivers over-takes my body. and I give into sin. you are my fire that burns deep within. A touch that set my soul on fire. Flames of UnAdulterated Desire. You are my eternal flame You are the pleasure to my pain.

Is This It?
Will my spirit just leave this bodily vessel? With all the things God does, I do not do anything. I do have a disability... my skin and bones are not me.. just a facade.. I moved over for others.. what a thing to do.. they have not bled, shed tears, become dry.. they take.. make fake.. lose all, create our fall.. suffer for this land.. all at their hands.. rid our problems? No.. keep us in a daydream.. this is not the way.. the end of our days..not Apocalypse.. no deliverance.. New World beyond my door . . not really so. With intrigue and intensity . . we will find just a new fascist dominance.. don't ask why.. yet show me the way.. to the Higher Power... to nature.. to the gods.. to the one God.. to the essence of our humanity.. be it one.. from Alpha to Omega.. will our spirit die?

A Serious Note About Elder Abuse
I usually enjoy writing very funny blogs and promise I will again but I spent a couple hours on the phone last night with a friend of mine in New York as I continue to develop a support network nationally for victims of physical, psychological and emotional abuse and those who are trying to deal with it in their lives. I realize there are already many non profits around that help with these issues but my conversation last night reminded me that abuse and mistreatment of others, especially the elderly is sometimes very subtle and easy to ignore or write off as being something that is necessary for "their own good". It is an issue that we all need to be watchful for in our own corner of the world andbe willing to get off our butts andget involved in others life to help those who are scarred and unable to help themselves. let me explain. Mt friend in New York has three sisters. She recently moved home to help care for her ailing Mom who is nealy 80. Mom lives with another daughter

Oh Silly Silly Me!(bh)
How Silly of Me to get All caught-up in this fu-minagerie:My Foolish Heart Once Again has Been less than loyal to Me ! Trust I do not blame you It's easy for me to see The fault belongs with Me; Shoulda been more careful !Actually thought I was in Control! This heart is way tooo battered for me to be letting it out from behind the wall the dust has settled and it's time to take my fall For a second there I really thought I had WOn It all! I will forever Hold on to the memory and in my own little world you still belong to Me! Perhaps One Sweet day WE can really Be! .............But for now I have to let go cause it's killing me! Just Do Me One Favor From Time to Time think of ME? I LOVE You !

Believing Into Being
One person holds a word to sustain the weary Another releases words that waste away But the power of either Is dependent upon the power you hold for yourself to blame or be blamed An outworn dichotomy. A framework which once gave access to the world During the old time Separates in the new... You are the Unity that rises above Such divisions of hate and fear Draw a circle and step outside of it. And when you do this it is unconditional love Opening the I to arrive at the we Power we give words we can also choose to take away. Like a net you can choose to lift your part The more of us We may hold each other up in thought So that each of us will receive the chance to rest... She met one of the Beings of Light today; Who slips onto her hand gently a bracelet he made that sounds like windchimes with her every move... And explains the purpose of this gift. "I do this for you so that

Dissipating Dream
Dreaming of an ocean breeze the smell of a saltwater tide feeling the gritty sand 'tween my toes the cool mist against my face my body batheing in the heat of the sun then waking up to find it all gone Thanks for reading.

Brass Monkey
CANNON BALLS!!! DID YOU KNOW THIS? I DIDN'T... It was necessary to keep a good supply of cannon balls near the cannon on old war ships. But how to prevent them from rolling about the deck was the problem. The best storage method devised was to stack them as a square based pyramid, with one ball on top, resting on four, resting on nine, which rested on sixteen. Thus, a supply of 30 cannon balls could be stacked in a small area right next to the cannon. There was only one problem -- how to prevent the bottom layer from sliding/rolling from under the others. The solution was a metal plate with 16 round indentations, called, for reasons unknown, a Monkey. But if this plate were made of iron, the iron balls would quickly rust to it. The solution to the rusting problem was to make them of brass - hence, Brass Monkeys. Few landlubbers realize that brass contracts much more and much faster than iron when chilled. Consequently, when the temperature dropped too far, the brass ind

Emanon Made Me Do It!
Be honest, who are you texting? Honestly.. no one right now. This time last year, can you remember who you liked? This time last year I was engaged to be married, so I'd imagine it was him. What is something that you realized today? RealEyes.Realize.RealLies Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Yes, I do actually. Who was the first person you talked to today? Spoken to? My mom. Do you smoke weed every day? No. Could you go a month without ? Without weed? I have, I could again. Have you ever ridden a horse? Yep. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it? Ick. I couldn't drink just one thing the rest of my life. I'd get sick of it after a while. The same goes with food. Are you anything like you were at this point last year? I'm a cold, heartless bitch.. or so I'm told. Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't? Yes.. *sigh* When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone? Last nig

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From The Shadows
In this world i have seen it all, always watching never standing tall, without a word i let things go by, as i look up to a darkend sky, was it worth it i call aloud, watching an empire crumble to the ground, no stone is harder then my own heart now, i set in the shadows wishing i never knew what i know now, Now i set upon a shattered wall, never did i have my own home to call, I shall make these shadows my home, so i said good bye as i waist away to bone.

Wicked Things
wonder oh what wicked things you bring, do they bite claw or sting, Nah they say but words of flase desire, Only to make ur heart race higher, Oh what wicked things have come this way, holding your attention close to their sway, In ways no man can resiist, they enter our lives with a fateful twist, SO beware those oh so wicked things, fore they come not crawling or on feathered wings, They walk beside us on these dreadful days, Beware those oh so wicked things,

Dj Dannie Dreamer
PRESENTS DJ DANNIE DREAMER TEARIN' UP THE AIR WAVES HE WANTS YOU TO COME CHAIN IT UP WITH HIM COME DO A REQUEST OR TWO HE WILL FILL THEM ALL COME ON IN TO EXCALIBUR WHERE THE TUNES SPIN AND THE FUN BEGINS THE FUN IS WAITING FOR YOU

Tomorrow I Will Bury My Friend
It was in 2003 I'd met a friend on my 360 yahoo. He was a very nice gentleman and we'd had coffee together on several occasions. There was nothing sexual involved because he was more like a father figure. 2008 was a bad yr for me I'd let myself go. Just didn't care about nothing anymore. I was like a whirl wind spiraling out of control. I did what I wanted when I wanted, drank uncontrollably and just ignored all health signs that things were about to get worse for me. He was there, he helped me see what I'd become. This friend watched from a distance till he could watch no more. He helped me through my life of upheaval. I have him to thank for the change in me and the respect I now have for myself and life in general. I have been saddened by the loss of my friend. Sunday I received a call from his son saying that he'd passed away. I believe I cried like I never cried before. I felt the loss big time, I felt empty like someone had taken away someone I'd known forever. My husband held me

Conficker Virus....a Must Read, Begins Midnite April Fools...
******* Makin sure ppl get this , it is getting covered up in bully's* The Microsoft Co. has put out a 250 K bounty on Person/Persons responsible for one of the most deadly comp virus' they have ever had to deal with.. """ Conficker """ The Virus name. They r also suggesting ppl shut down comps to be on the safe side...I will be doing so before midnite!!!! It made top news , so I am sure it is available anywhere on sites to research and make preparations for your comp!!! Called the April fool's virus...da*n hackers, hope they catch them!! Sincerely, Laura

I Am Umm..
Yeah ok .. So imma try to do the impossible.. especially with a personality like mine.. i am going to cold turkey quit smoking i only have 2 smokes left So i will be on edge i will be moody.. but they say it gets better each day you get over.. just thought id let my avid readers n others ive directed to this know whats going on

Hard Thoughts
everyone talks about what is faair and what isn't. well this is life its not fair and never will be. Though i feel pain as i right this. it is about me and everyone else if this touches you. When people needed you, you was always there for them. but when the tables turn are they there for you?. no instead they are off else where leaveing you to deal with it yourself. All through-out our lives we try to shape who we are but, its the people we keep around us that makes us who we are. and as we get older we all seem to come to these roads keep helping others and risj getting fucked over ( oh an you will me fucked over) or do you become the one doing the fucking over. eventually we have to decide to be the prey or the predator. in many ways we are all both and neither those who have good hearts and good intentions will make it out better in the end but of those owho use will always be the losers. but what of those who have become cold and hateful from the lives we have lead and the

Incident At Cabela's
A woman goes into Cabela's to buy a rod and reel for her grandson's birthday. She doesn't know which one to get so she just grabs one and goes over to the counter. A Cabela's associate is standing there wearing dark shades. She says, 'Excuse me, sir. Can you tell me anything about this rod and reel?' He says, 'Ma'am, I'm completely blind; but if you'll drop it on the counter, I can tell you everything from the sound it makes.' She doesn't believe him but drops it on the counter anyway. He says, 'That's a six-foot Shakespeare graphite rod with a Zebco 404 reel and 10-LB. Test line. It's a good all around combination; and it's on sale this week for only $20.00.' She says, 'It's amazing that you can tell all that just by the sound of it dropping on the counter. I'll take it!' As she opens her purse, her credit card drops on the floor. 'Oh, that sounds like a Master Card,' he says. She bends down to pick it up and accidentally farts. At fi

Whats Your Pleasure
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Puts Life In Perspective
Today, my supervisor said that I had to go to a Memorial Service because we need to be prepared in case we have to give one. Well, First Sergeant put out that all Staff Sergeant and above have to go. Well, I begrudgingly went. Not that I did not want to pay my respect, but I know what happens. Well, out of the 30 something people in Rear Detachment who should have been there, there was two of us. The other is a guy that I'm pretty close to, and we always laugh and joke together. The memorial service was over in 1st Cavalry Division, and I was thinking he was killed in Iraq. I did not know the Soldier. I'm holding up pretty good, and the mention that PFC Gambles died in the barracks of a undetermined cause in his sleep. That was a wake up right there. 25 years old, and he died in his sleep. Now I just turned 31, and haven't done much with my life, but to know that it can end that easily. Then they got to the final part of the service. We bowed our heads

Always There
You were there all along, But it took forever to know that I belong. Your hearts I have broken, And your words I have spoken. You left me to grow, And did I ever put up a show. I left your lives pained and concerned, And had no idea of the bridges I burned. I know I can’t take my actions back, But I will show you that I will not crack. Your faith in me has been repaired, And to ruin that would never be dared. Your trust and faithfulness means so much, And the bond we have can’t be touched. Just know that I won’t stop trying, And those tears will be from happy crying. Life has dealt me a bad hand, But by my side you will always stand. You taught me everything you know, And you sat back to watch me grow. Thank you for everything you give, And showing me a path to which I live. Alone I am strong and true, But with you nothing can break through.

Don't Play
To let you bring me down to your level, would be like you telling me to dig my grave, and here’s your shovel. Shove the blade further into my heart. Better yet give it to me and I’ll start. That tired old line still plays in my head. If I hear it again, I’ll wish I was dead. “I won’t do you like they did.” Yeah, the words from the mouth of a kid. Tell me all of your sweet, sweet lies. Then please ignore all of my cries. Promises of happiness and love, Just ripped away like a cheap plastic glove. Being played with like a new game, Then to be tossed out is a real shame. Don’t you dare point your finger at me. Step back and reflect, then you shall see. I was the one who gave up everything, and in return got nothing. I packed my bags and started a new. I do owe you my undying gratitude. Thanks for opening my eyes, and letting me see. The only one I’ll ever need… is me.

Friends
FRIENDS friends are there for you when you need them the most they pick you up when you are down , or even take you out for a night on the town they make you feel welcome when ever you are around , and they never kick you to the ground they laugh at your jokes even though the may not be funny , they are there when life has be bad, and take you under their wings and protect you from those evil things they help you out any way they can , and try to help you out from doing the same wrong things all over again friends come in many ways, you mother , father, people you just meet , and yes even your kids sometimes i wounder is one friend truer than another cause they do some things more than others to me there is not cause to me they are all one in the same some friend we have lost , and carry their memories with us through the rest of our life , but one thing for sure they will never be for gotten cause their spirit lives through us , and we rem

Watch Out For This One
I am going to make this short and to the point! Beware of this one! She said she was Single and then once I had Blinged her twice, her fiance came to my page and thanked me for looking out for her! This one is a con-artist, she got me for two Bling and she should have been real, instead of lying like she did! I try to be as honest as I possibly can be and I would not feed someone a bunch of shit to get something out of them, that just isn't cool but hey, she will not be the last to pull a scam like that! Lisa Babe

Haters :)
I love haters.....you know why (drum roll please)....cause they cant keep my name outta there mouths. i love it when people i dont even know talk shit. just shows im doing everything right. yea i know im that fucking amazing that u gotta always be up my ass and all up in my business. honestly how freaking pathetic are you to go out of your way to look at my page and actually try to get crunk when you know in all honesty you a damn nutcase? hahahaha!!!!!! people have nothing better to do with there own life. your life must be really fucked up seriously. cause why the fuck you worried bout mine. so like i always say KEEP TALKING SHIT BITCH YOUR MAKING ME FAMOUS!!!!!!!

University April Fools! Lol
UC San Diego -- a school for the smart ones, supposedly -- mistakenly congratulated nearly 29,000 applicants on their acceptance, according to university officials. Earlier this month, about 17,000 student were offered admission for the fall, leaving nearly 29,000 hopefuls out in the cold. But on Tuesday, the school's communications office said an e-mail was sent Monday afternoon to all 46,377 students who applied for admission -- including the 29,000 rejects -- welcoming them to the campus. A half-hour later, school officials said, they realized their mistake. Almost two hours after the first note went out, a second e-mail was sent, apologizing to 28,889 freshmen applicants for the mistake. "No member of this department is more acutely aware of the emotional roller-coaster that this could cause for our applicants," Assistant Vice Chancellor Mae W. Brown said. An anonymous parent told the Los Angeles Times it was a "colossal screw-up." Similar incidents have happened at

Cant Believe
i cant believe what they say is true how could you be gone away forever never to be seen again on earth but you will always be seen in my eyes its still hard to this day to know that i missed your funeral it kills me day in and day out just to know that i didn't get to say my last good-byes to you the. the only person that ever truly cared for me no i didn't even make it to your brothers funeral and that kills me also but i wasn't nearly as close to him as i was to you my grandmother you were then just a grandmother your were my best friend we had alot of laughs but it is sad to think that we will never be able to have those laughs again on earth but you always remember that i love you more then anything in this world you r my heart my soul and most of all your my grandmother the kids still ask about you every now and then but i haven't had the heart to tell them that they wont be able to see your smiling face in this world again we know you love us but still why did

Run Away Bar Stool
In this photo released Tuesday, March 31, 2009, by the Newark (Ohio) Police Department, a motorized bar stool is shown. Police in Newark, 30 miles east of Columbus, say when they responded to a report of a crash with injuries on March 4 2009, they found a man who had wrecked a bar stool powered by a deconstructed lawn mower. Police say Kile Wygle, 28 was charged with operating a vehicle while intoxicated after he told an officer at the hospital that he had consumed 15 beers. Wygle told police his motorized bar stool can go up to 38 mph.

Bite Me...i Don't Think So
University of Florence shows the remains of a female "vampire" from 16th-century Venice. Italian researchers believe they have found the remains of a female "vampire" from 16th-century Venice, buried with a brick in her mouth to prevent her feasting on plague victims. Matteo Borrini, a forensic anthropologist from the University of Florence, said the discovery was the first confirmation of a Medieval belief that vampires were behind the spread of epidemics, such as the Black Death.

April Fool Comment
Due to I'm on vacation in Gtmo,Cuba the Navy Base for a week or so . I'm working with a slow connection I thank everyone that leaves me a daily profile comment, but I'm working with a slow connection and unable to return the luv one by one so I'm going to try to leave a daily comment here for all my Fu-Friends to share.Pls remember to rate the blog and we both get credit Thanks miss ya'll. Myspace April Fools Day Comment Codes Movies Videos

Heart Vs. Head
I've got so much going on in my life now. I am planning a move to Georgia in a couple of weeks. It's been in the works for quite a while. My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years is coming with me but we've been having a lot of problems and I have been so torn with what to do. My heart says I can't be without him but my head says, I would be better off on my own for a while, to heal, to live independent for once in my life. The fear of being alone is very powerful though. I have a lot of friends who really think that I am making a mistake by taking him with me. I think I already lost a friend who is upset that I still am and I care a lot about that person and I don't want to lose contact with that person but they kinda of stopped talking to me and I am feeling bad about it. Oh well, such is life. I have to do what is right for me when it's right for me, not when someone thinks I should. I think my life is going to turn out really great. I am going to do great things with or without my bf.

Getting Worse By The Day!
Yesterday my husband thought it might be a good idea to take me out before I got to sick to do anything, it all started out good and well lets just say that we had to come home, we had stoped to get our son something to eat seeing he watched the kids for us & while we're sitting there waiting on the food my stomach turned for the worst, we're @ the window and I started to vommitt in the damn parking lot, this morning got up to get the kids off to school & started again I'd say another 3-4 more times. I went to get my radation done & the woman @ the window said that I didn't look as if I was feeling well & I told her no, she called me back into the area where you see the doctor but had me speak to a nurse I had told her what was going on and she said it would be best if I went to the place in which I get the chemo treatments to get 500cc's of fluids & some meds to stop the vommitting & just to think this is the begining I've got 20 more exteral treatments to go 5 more chemo's & I am now

Only 3 Questions
HERE IT IS: I am giving you the opportunity to ask me any THREE questions that you want.. no matter what it is i HAVE to answer them all and answer them truthfully (which i always do) I cant judge, or say no.. if you ask I WILL answer.. so just send me a message with your questions and i will reply... so get as crazy as you want and..well... HAVE FUN Staj

Stole From Asb
...it's a long one... 1. What is your best friends name? Matt, Angie, Jimmy 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? none, have the basketball shorts going on... 3. What are you listening to right now? Shiny Toy Guns - Le Disko 4. Whats your favorite number? X 5. What was the last thing you ate? Philly steak sam'mich (god, pay attention to my mumms) 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? A Sharpie. 7. How is the weather right now? wet, but nice 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? Trent 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? MANY things. Hell, I'm not in middle school anymore... 10. Do you have a significant other? My money... 11. Favorite TV show? The Office 12. Siblings? one brother 13. Height? 5'11 14. Hair color? Brown 15. Eye Color? hazel... whatever THAT is... 16. Do you wear contacts? They scare me... 17. Favorite Holiday? Any that are paid time off!!! 18. Month?

Favorite Hello
Wake me up with your kisses Feel the touch of your lips, yes Burn me up like a thousand torches Tell me to never let go cuz You're my favorite hello You're my hardest goodbye Say my name, darlin' sweet and low cuz Your love I could never deny Lay me down in your lovin' Hear the sound of it comin' Shake the ground when we're runnin' All around us the world is hummin' You're sweet like sugar On the tip of my tongue Don't need no saccharine To sweeten up this love

Update
Hey everyone. I know im not the blogging type of guy but i thought id give it a shot. Well as some of u may know i was released from jail in May of 2008 an i have been out for just about a year. It has had its ups an downs but for the most part things are still looking up. Im not working cause i got laid off back in November of 2008 but from all bad things comes something good. I have talked alot about going to school an doing something with my life well i finally did it. On Tuesday April 7th i start college classes an Globe University for IT. For all of those who dont know what IT is it Information Tech. Ill be going to school full time for about 18 months. Once im finished with that im going to start my other major which will be Video Game Programming an Design. Its part of the IT feild so i would have as many classes to take but thats ok with me. Im really looking forward to starting school its the first thing i have done cause i wanted to for me not for anyone else. On a diff

Poem
Love at First Sight by Wislawa Szymborska They both thought that a sudden feeling had united them This certainty is beautiful, Even more beautiful than uncertainty. They thought they didn't know each other, nothing had ever happened between them, These streets, these stairs, this corridors, Where they could have met so long ago? I would like to ask them, if they can remember - perhaps in a revolving door face to face one day? A "sorry" in the crowd? "Wrong number" on the 'phone? - but I know the answer. No, they don't remember. How surprised they would be For such a long time already Fate has been playing with them. Not quite yet ready to change into destiny, which brings them nearer and yet further, cutting their path and stifling a laugh, escaping ever further; There were signs, indications, undecipherable, what does in matter. Three years ago, perhaps or even last Tuesday, this leaf flying from one shoulder to another? Something lost and

Yeah Thats Right The Wang Is Comin
TONIGHT..10PM HIS TIME!!!...THE 2ND OF APRIL......THE DRAGON...WILL SHOW HIS DRAGON--WANG!!!! IM WILLING TO SHOW MY WANG FOR BLING!!! BLING,CHERRY BOMBS,AUTOS!!!! AND I WILL SHOW MY WANG TO YOU PERSONALLY!!! BE THERE OR BE SQUARE DONT BE TOLD ABOUT IT!!! LIVE IT!!! DGETODRAGON FLASHES WANG FOR BLING,CHERRY BOMBS,AUTOS!!!! PM THE DRAGON AND YOUR REQUEST SHALL BE GRANTED!!!!

So Pissed..just Venting
Ok...so when you become friends with a individual..the one thing most people look for or expect is honesty and trust. And when one or both are broken, for me it's almost impossible to get either back. That is just who I am and something that will never change. So this individual pretty much broke my trust in him/her by telling me one night on the phone that I was a bitch, cunt, whore, blah blah... Of which I know that yes.. I really can be a bitch when pissed off or accused of something I am so not...like a whore...LMFAO...if dating 2 men and being in 2 very long term relationships in my 38 yrs is being a whore... DAMN...I hate to think what women are called that fuck anything with a dick... (Oh yeh..drunk was the excuse...and oh... I really like you and it bothers me when u talk to other people online) NICE excuse. NOT. I forgave this individual once...and was told next time...sorry...you lose a friend. Well, happened again tonight. And Im soooo done with that bullchit... Needl

Ratings/comments Contest..help Me
HEY LADIES AND GENTS.... I'm in a rating/comments contest that runs until April 17th. The concept is easy. Rate and comment and each rating or comment equals a point. Please help me!!! Love on me because you know I like it COL MUAH

Ludacris Feat Mary J Blige " Runaway Love"
Not really feeling this song today but when It came out the part with my name Erica in it, is and was me.... so u know... lettin ya in my mind through music today yall I ran away at 15 and was beat into a gang Folk when I was 15 also ... was a rebellious kid tomboy and tough raised by 2 alcoholic parents...lived here and there when I was younger also..so ya know each blog will reveal more about me as I reminise and find songs that tell a little about me LudacrisRunaway Love Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com Runaway Love lyrics Songwriters: Jones, Jamal; Bridges, Christopher; Walters, R; Hilson, Keri Lyn; Davis, Douglas; Yeah and it go a little somethin' like this Yeah and it go a little somethin' like this Runaway love, runaway love Runaway love, runaway love Runaway love, runaway love Runaway love, runaway love Now little Lisa's only nine years old She's tryin' to figure out why the world is so cold Why she's all alone and they never m

I Love April!
It's so exciting this year! Haha. Found out I'm gonna be an aunt at the end of September! Seeing as my sister has told me for years that I have to be the one to give our parents grandkids, I'm pretty psyched. I leave for Boston tomorrow afternoon. Most of the weekend is free, leaving my friend and I plenty of time to explore Boston, areas of New Hampshire, and parts of Maine. Our only plans so far are to have dinner after my plane arrives tomorrow and go see an improv show. Saturday night we're gonna go see Shinedown. Then I fly back here late Sunday night. In another couple weeks I fly to Atlanta to meet up with my parents, and then spending a week on Hilton Head visiting family down there. I haven't had a vacation in two years, so I'm pretty happy about all of this traveling.

Expose- Seasons Change
Although I don't believe everything in scripture cause alot is just myth I do find wisdom in knowing this scripture below it helps me to know there is a season for all things and it gives me a sense of peace when Im in a rough season to know it will soon change just like emotions we live in... the song reminds me of this scripture also... for some reason..and Life goes on.. > King James Bible -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep,

Conficker - Day 2 In The Bunker
0732 PDT - I am scared. I should have provisioned with something besides Smarties and Jelly Bellys. I woke up this morning in a Smartie induced haze and surrounded by plastic wrappers . I think the animals got into the sugary stash last night because the alpacas have all killed each other and the donkey is braying maniacally. 0758 PDT - My cordless electric razor has no charge. Conficked no doubt. 0850 PDT - I am trying to find out if the world has ended by listening for signs of life on my short wave radio. All I can pick up is a Mexican radio station blaring some accordian fueled Norteno music. I think its a Confick trick. 0945 PDT - Somebody shut this fucking donkey up! I am slipping into insanity ...

Get Corrupted Ii
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True Friends
last night i was in a really shitty mood and pretty much have been the past week or so and sat back and just watched what my friends were doing...its really amazing that people who call themselves your friends decide to come hug you and you dont know whether its really to hug you or stab you in the back...friends that cant keep their mouths shut....friends that would rather push you in front of a car than pull you away.....i do have some great friends here friends that keep in contact outside of fu just to say hi and check in...some people i know here say they arent here for the points and whatnot but they are the ones that have turned their back on others, and not just me, the most. so to my friends who have stuck by me words cant say enough how much im thankful for that...and to the others....you are sad pitiful excuses for humans...you act like you are the greatest thing since sliced bread and but just remember we all put our pants on one leg at a time

The Fall Injuries Cont....
Ok Dr's!!!! We got to have them and some are really good, others, well they need to be in some other profession! After the fall the other night, I went to the ER the next morn. Got x-rayed said I had a small hairline in my femur! Given pain pills and sent home with crutches and ice pak! Said that would help with the pain in my hip, neck, head, shoulders and tailbone. Keep it iced, keep the leg elevated and stay off as much as possible! Did all that! This morning my leg is swollen twice as much as it was! Go see my family Dr. immediately he orders MRI! Not only do I have the femur fracture with a muscle contusion. I also have small fractures in my elbow, hip, tailbone and shoulder! Seriously, do ER Docs listen or think you make shit up! Like I am black and blue all over, barely moving and in tears! I felt like I saw Bill Engval! No sign just a bill and a pill! Got taken care of today, will be on the mend! I'm Irish and a Texan, takes alot to keep me down! Thanks to all my friends for t

Being A Single Parent
somthing for all you out there to think about. being a single parent is several jobs in one along with your full time job. here is a list some of the jobs we do. please feel free to add to them. Maid Baby sitter cook Nurse Counsler judge coach teacher

Thinking About Things
I been doing alot of thinking maybe im better off in Azorina i lived down here in south Carolina for about six mo. and i dont know anyone here where in Azorina i made friends that liked to hang out and go places i do have someone down here that i care about and moved from AZ to be here i just feel like im beind ingored most of the time like im not even here the one i care about here rather go places with her friends but when i ask it's i don't wanna go it seem like she is spending more time with her friend or maybe im just shelfish. Maybe it is that im around all the time but will i be missed if i stay in AZ when i go in a mo. is that what it takes to realize there's more to do then computer and games and texting most of the time? Where i used to live in AZ everyone i meet was really nice and helpfull the place where i used to live the landlord wants to rent the place to me for 300.00 a mo. i used to help them out when i was living down there and did vonlinteer work at a ranch the

Surgery Tomorrow!
[If you're a newcomer to the wonderful world of **Miss Tyler**, please read "Bad News From The Doctor - 2/17/2009" blog. That will explain the backstory!] Well, the LEEP surgery is tomorrow. It came really damn fast... and Ian and I have been fighting like fucking cats and dogs cuz he's been depressed. I don't get it. He's been sitting on his ass at home, while I've been working all week [BOGO at a kids shoe store.. it's been busy as hell, plus new dm came in for his first visit] and still going to class, then seeing him! Ugh, hopefully he'll be better tomorrow when I go relax in his bed to recover. The entire drive home, I was talking to Whitney. Telling her how bad I felt about fighting with Ian, how frustrated I've been, how much I miss her and need her..... There's such a void in my heart. I miss her so much. I wish she was here.... every fucking day... I wish she was still here. She knows all of it... but I just like talking to her. I love you, sweet girl. Well.

R.i.p.
My dad's cousin lost a battle with cancer today. He was 53. His cancer had gone into remission before Christmas then came back x100 basically. He went fast and peacefully, from what I hear, and had family by his side.

What Should A Girl Do..
i am so exhausted yet cannot sleep because there is so much on my mind. phillip and i have been together for over 5 years now and it hasnt been a day in the park by no means. the only thing we agree on is that we have two beautiful and loving girls. i want the gf/bf relationship to end. i am tired of being full of hatred and being mean to him that isnt who i am. when i am playing with our girls (which is everyday) i am so happy, i couldnt be happier being around them. i wont lie sometimes it is nice to have a break but i couldnt stay away from them for longer than half a day. phillip and i broke up last year around jan. and i went to stay at my moms for a while. i was miserable without seeing them everyday. i want phillip and i to seperate because we fight about everything and anything. he says mean things and so do i, but what hurts is that our girls are here when we fight. i dont want them growing up in an enviroment full of fighting and hatred. they are the only thing that matters t

Depression Sets In:4/3/2009
well its friday april 3rd, my pay day, i should be happy but gain im just sinking into more depression. Why you ask, well to start being alone isnt ehat you all think it is, its not glorified to be something great its downright heartbreaking, all you can do is liten to sad music, watch sad movies, and feel sad and sorrowful for yourelf, and feel kinda worthless...nit good eh? well u are right.i get to feel this way most the times because ad everyone tells me i try too hard to find Ms right so when she comes to me she can do the same to me as bein alone does lol. So i go look and find nada...not one is peaked to be with me on any site or offline for that fact....sooo more depression from that as well builds up and self esteem goes out the frain into the bay.....real nice..so this is why im so depressed and not feeling like doing anything but bury myself in the clovers and not doin shit..isnt life supposed to be cherries? well they came out terrible for me.....they all had pits in them

Daily Rant
My question of the day is simple.. Why does bad things always happen to good people. You find somebody thats awesome.. they let you down.. You find a job and in turn get 10 more struggles in the financial department, Your nice to a person you cant stand with the most inner part of your being.. they screw you over. Why is it people always seem to kick when your down. They never put a burden on you when you feel like you can take the world.. And it has always been like this as long as man kind has been in existance The world is so full of evil.. why are humans, the smartest of all the species. the most relentless of them all?. Why do they feel the need to create wrong doing on others? why do they feel the need to lie, cheat steal and murder their way through life.. everyone does it.. all of those They murder everyday! They kill each other on the inside.. and create more chaos then ever imaginable. People in this world need to learn that the misfortunes we expirience in life will

Offers For You To Be In An Auction
SOME AUCTION OFFERS 1-NUMBER 1 FRIEND AND OR FAMILY 2-COMMENTS RANDOM OR DAILY 3-LINK TO YOUR PROFILE ON MY PAGE 4-RATE PICS 10S OR 11S IF YOU HAVE A VIP (ITS YOUR CHOICE HOW MANY PICS YOU RATE 200-250-300 OR ALL ECT.)DURING HAPPY HOUR, YOU GET MORE POINTS THEN 5-RATE STASH (RATE SAME AS PICS ) 6-GIFTS ONE A DAY OR SO MANY A WEEK DURING HH (THAY ARE HALF PRICE THEN) 7-DRINKS ONE A DAY OR SHITFACED A WEEK (DURING HH THEY ARE HALF OFF THEN) 8-MAKE PICS OR TAGS (YOUR CHOICE OF HOW MANY YOU WANT TO MAKE) 9-YOUR NAME IN MY NAME (THE WINNERS NAME IN YOURS) 10-RATE BLOGS 11-MAKE (SFW) OR (NSFW) SALUTES ( YOU OFFER THE AMOUNT YOU WANT 1 OR 2 IS RECOMENDED) 12-ADD TO YAHOO MESSENGER 13-PHONE CALL (SFW OT NSFW YOUR CHOICE) 14-BIG PIMPING GIFTS ( YOUR CHOICE OF HOW MANY I RECOMMEND NO MORE THE 2) 15-BULLY OR BLOG PIMP OUT 16-RATE 1 OR 2 FOLDERS OF 1 OR 2 OF YOUR FRIENDS (YOUR CHOICE OF HOW MANY) 17-ADD MIDGET TO MY PAGE 18-RATE-ADD-FAN IF NOT ALREADY DONE 19-BE YOUR CRUSH FOR A MONTH 20-YOU CAN

Explainations
my mumm was seeing how bad i had been. Yes i had an affair with a married man. Unfortunatley for me i was given the wrong impression. 'Im leaving her' ' I dont love her i love you and we are going to be together' How much of an idiot was i to believe it all. His wife found out and confronted me. So, i backed off. Im never doing it again. EVER! So my mumm was to see how many of you decent folk have slipped up... and if i was a minority, and to make me feel better that i wasnt the only one in this world that fucks up.

Illness
Just a note to let everyone know that I will be off and on sporadicly for a while. My father fell and broke his hip on Tuesday and has had to have surgery to repair it. Complicating this is his heart condition. Today (Friday) he has been moved to ICU because his heart is causing problems and may require emergency surgery on top of the surgery performed yesterday. I will post more as I can.

Lounge Turds
as always, read from the bottom up... ->zero owner...: the Jedi High Council will be forced to shut your lounge downzero owner...: hell now sorry clean lounge->zero owner...: if it doesn not supply these minimal requirements....->zero owner...: Will your lounge have transvestite Ewoks? will it have shaved Wookies?zero owner...: explane->zero owner...: it's not that difficult....zero owner...: explain look i like starwars to but damn->zero owner...: will there be transvestite Ewoks and shaved Wookies? The Force and Jedi High Council demands that you supply these thingszero owner...: what do u mean sorry->zero owner...: i guess your lack of response means no?->zero owner...: i need to know this.... The Force demands you supply these things->zero owner...: will there be transvestite Ewoks and shaved Wookies?->zero owner...: well, that depends....zero owner...: joinn us

Poll Question:
Have you ever had a three-some that included you, your spouse or significant other) and another person? Check all that apply.CHOICES - No, I am a man, she can have sex with others as long as I don't have to participate., - I am a man and I like to watch my wife or significant other have sex with others while I watch and masturbate., - No, I am a woman, and I don't want to share my man with anyone while I am with him., - No, I am woman, he can have sex with other women as long as I don't have to participate., - Yes, I am a man, and the third person was a man., - Yes, I am a man, and the third person was a woman., - No, I am a man, but I have had threesomes with others., - No, I am a man, but the idea sounds exciting., - No, I am a man, and I don't want to share my woman with anyone while I am with her., - Yes, I am a woman and the third person was a man., - Yes, I am a woman and the third person was a woman., - No,

This World
Let me just start here, its not up for debate. I am here to blog my thoughts and feelings. if u have a problem with what i say, then move on. What the hell is this World turning into? It seems as if everyday there is a blood bathe going on. Today in Ny there was a shooting. 13 people killed, last week a man went into a nursing home and killed poor defenseless elders. This world is turning into a dark morbid place. Im beginning to think it is going to fail all together. We need to REMEMBER that we are all trying to survive this crisis, EVERYONE NEEDS TO TAKE A STAND and suck it the fuck up. I am a ARMY WIFE, a proud, active loving wife. And im sick and tired of hearing about how people dont appreciate what WE do.. They sit there and say we cheat, use them for their money. Holy shit, take a walk in my shoes for a fucking week, im sure u fall flat on your face OK rant over.

My Job
In my first year working at a grossly substandard animal shelter in Maryland, I forced myself to go in early to euthanize dogs by holding them in my arms and gently helping them escape an uncaring world without trauma or pain and to spare them from being stabbed haphazardly—while they were fully conscious, terrified and aware—in the general vicinity of their hearts with needles blunt from reuse and left to thrash on the floor until they finally died by the callous people who would arrive later to do the job. I always wonder how anyone cannot recognize that there is a world of difference between painlessly euthanizing animals out of compassion—aged, injured, sick, and dying animals whose guardians can't afford euthanasia, for instance—as PETA does, and causing them to suffer terror, pain, and a prolonged death while struggling to survive on the streets, at the hands of untrained and uncaring "technicians," or animal abusers. Diamond was suffering from a painf

Ladies????
So this Drill Sgt is new to Fubar and it really seems to fit my new found status as single. Seems to be alt of internet ladies in here that could make for alot of fun. Come on ladies... come and join my troop.

My Words 1
I ONCE HAD A WOMAN I COULD TRULY CALL MY FRIENDBUT ON THAT LONELY NIGHT HER LIFE CAME TO AN END.SHE SAID SHE LOVED ME AND THEN HER EYES BEGAN TO CLOSE.AND I WENT TO KISS HER AND BLOOD CAME FROM HER EYES AND NOSE.SHE WAS DYING IN MY ARMS AS I HELD HER CLOSE TRYING TO HELP HER SURVIVE.BUT DEATHS GRIP WAS TOO STRONG AND SHE DID NOT SURVIVE.SHE LEFT ME WITH A FEELING OF EMPTINESS THAT SEEMS TO NEVER FILL.NOW IM FIGHTING A BATTLE FOR MY SANITY THAT SEEMS TO BE UPHILL.NEVER HAD I LOST SOME ONE SO CLOSE TO ME IN SUCH A SHORT TIME.ALL I DO IS SIT ALONE IN MY ROOM AS WEEP AND CRY.LOVE ISNT SUPPOSED TO HURT BUT DEATH MAKES THAT HARD FOR HUMANITY.SO THE NEXT TIME YOUR WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE EXPRESS YOUR LOVE TO THEM SO THEY CAN CLEARLY SEE.THIS IS NOT A PLEA FOR SYMPATHY JUST AN EXPRESSION OF MY PAIN.I WISH FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO READ THIS TO KNOW LIFE IS A VERY SHORT GAME.MY WORDS IN THIS POEM ARE TRUE SO WATCH WHAT YOU SAY WHEN U LOVE SOME ONE AND WATCH WHAT YOU DO.

Inner Traveller (poem)...
INNER TRAVELLER Speak to me- Shaman of the Cherokee! As one seeking knowlege Of the Sacred Formulas- Prepare me for my journeys; Inward and outbound travels. Though I know the Sacred Cloud Will hide me from my enemies, What can protect me From myself? With my spells to follow, I can command Rabbit and Fish- Yet I sometimes have no self-cotrol Over some wicked, wayward wish! Though I can cleverly conjure Spider's seductive and winding web, I am helpless- if not hapless-

Not One Really
I've been nowhere And I didn't get there fast A third of my life rushed by me Leaving only an empty past sure there were good times, bad times, and times I can't recall, wish I could remember I may have enjoyed those most of all

Make Me Take My Time
No cutting in out of line, Make me take my time. I'm the girl in the corner, playing "Little Jack Horner" Show me that you'll walk that mile, Just to see me make a smile. I don't want to fall, no I don't want to fall, having no worries, is all. Make me want you Make me want to. Make me face you, don't make me chase you. Don't chase me Just want to play, you see. If I trip, then catch me yes catch me. But no cutting out of line. Make me take my time. No fools rushing in. My shoes worn thin. Don't play me, let my song be. I won't play you, I have always told it true. So make me take my time. I won't waste your dime. I want to feel Everything is Real, so no cutting out of line. Make me take my time.

Love You Day!
""""""Love you dayYOU HAVE 20 MINUTES TO TELL 5 OF YOUR SWEETEST FRIENDS THAT YOU LOVE THEM (INCLUDING ME)SO .... "I LOVE YOU"!GO! AND TAG YOU'RE IT!!YOU HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ONE OF MY SWEETEST FRIENDS ON MY LIST.... XOXOXO.L*O*V*E* Y*O*U*! Today is love u day. Send 2 everyone you love. Whether it's real love or friend love.Ur spoiled if you get 4 back"""""

Like A Medicine Cabnet!
Since all this shit went down with me having cervical cancer my brain pretty much turned to mush, I've been taking CYMBALTA @ 60MG a day then I've got XANAX @ 2MG 4 times a day now then I've been getting back pain after my radiation treatments I don't know if it's caused by the table that I'm laying on or what but I have had 2 CT scans PET scan an going through the rest of this bullshit that I'm hurting bad, so the doctor gave me some PERCOCET @ 5MG which I am to take every 4-6 hours however that did not touch the pain so now they have me on FLEXERIL @ 5MG in which I'm to take 1 three times daily. They said that if the pain didn't get better by my next treatment which is on Monday they'll be taking some X-RAYS. Although they've already taken blood work to make sure that it wasn't my kidneys, liver all that came out fine so they believe that it maybe a muscle issue. I'm just trying to hold everything together because here in 9 days I have to go into surgery for the interal radiation & i

Oh, I Forgot To Mention.
My hair has been falling out a bit more lately so I thought it would be best to get it cut a little shorter than what it was, now my husband says I look like a guy however if I was to lose it all at the time in which it was longer I think that would have bothered me more, although now I'm thinking seeing it's shorter it maybe a little less painfull on me to see it go, well anyways I know I've been talking alot about my problems however they say it's good to vent an talk about it to peoples ya know family, friends, nurses an such so ya know I've been trying to do just that.... I love ya'll, forever & always!

Would You Be In My Heart?
Would You Be in My Heart? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart... but if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own.... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to hand

You Have Got To Be Kidding Me!!!
WARNING!!!! I'm going to be very blunt... so if you're not into TMI... leave now! So, I get to Dr. Z's office at 1:40. I'm not let into the procedure room until nearly 2:15. My nerves are going absolutely insane at this point. My vag is spread wide open, numbed up... and then I get FIVE [yes, 5!] shots down there... AND THEN.... The machine doesn't fucking work. I have to do it alll over again. As I said.... "You've got to be kidding me." Unfortunately, they weren't. [he didn't operate due to my safety. I can appreciate that, but still!]

Nancy Pelosi
Saint Pelosi On a Saturday afternoon, in Washington, D. C., House Speaker Nancy Pelosi's aide visited the Cardinal of the Catholic cathedral. He told the Cardinal that Nancy Pelosi would be attending the next day's sermon, and he asked if the Cardinal would kindly point out Pelosi to the congregation and say a few words that would include calling Pelosi a saint. The Cardinal replied, "No. I don't really like the woman, and there are issues of conflict with the Catholic Church over certain of Pelosi's views." Pelosi's aide then said, "Look. I'll write a check here and now for a donation of $100,000 to your church if you'll just tell the congregation you see Pelosi as a saint." The Cardinal thought about it and said, "Well, the church can use the money, so I'll work your request into tomorrow's sermon." As Pelosi's aide promised, House Speaker Pelosi appeared for the Sunday sermon and seated herself prominently at the edge of the main aisle. And, during the sermon, as promised, t

W0w
I took my dad to the mall the other day to buy some new shoes (he is 92). We decided to grab a bite at the food court. I noticed he was watching a teenager sitting next to him. The teenager had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, and blue. My dad kept staring at him. The teenager would look and find him staring every time. When the teenager had had enough, he sarcastically asked, 'What's the matter old man, never done anything wild in your life?' Knowing my Dad, I quickly swallowed my food so that I would not choke on his response, knowing he would have a good one, and in classic style he did not bat an eye in his response. 'Got drunk once, and made love to a peacock. I was just wondering if you were my son.'

Gone N Forgotton? Wtf
Well Ive come to the realization that those who say they are friends and always be ther bla bla bla thats just wahat it is bla bla bla..My life took some funny and not so funny twisats and turns and I really found out while I wasnt here as much who my True friends were and are and For that Im forever blessed and grateful..for the rest who just want rates Plz dont bother coming to my page as I will not return any rates if ur just coming when u have an auto running..Not palying that futard game anymore..Am I a lil bitter yes I am..Oh well suck it upm or get over it..Life goes on..So to all my family and true friends I so love you...and for the others I hold no grudges or anger..Disappointment maybe..Have a great life take care and God SPeed Mauhz n Hugllez Deb................ PS..When Im not here you all know how to reach me...........

Missin Out
the thing i love about this site is all the odd folks on it! (not everyone btw!) I would love to meet a nice bloke.. kinda like the man of my dreams. i know im kidding myself. But i dont moan or sulk or spend loads of money. im brainy... ah thats it! blokes prefer dumb women!! i see now! never mind..your all missing out. i dont whine not bitch at my man. i let them have freedom. i like my own space, and hate to live in anyones shadow... but as you prefer the moaning and the bitchyness.. oh dear..shame your missing out

Worth A Shot
Dear President Obama,.............Patriotic retirement:There's about 40 million people over 50 in the work force; pay them $1 million apiece severance with stipulations:1) They leave their jobs. Forty million job openings - Unemployment fixed.2) They buy NEW American cars. Forty million cars ordered - Auto Industry fixed.3) They either buy a house or pay off their mortgage - Housing Crisis fixed.They could call this instant relief program the "Fifties Asset Relief Tender"...... or F.A.R.T. ....

No More
I dont know how to fix this....Was it my fault for her being there....at the wrong moment. this is so fucked... blame me bystander, sickly dripping with stories slowly melting to the wick honesty is a lie and a perversion in itself

In Remembrance
Yesturday would have been my older brothers 53rd birthday. He died of alcoholism in 1999. I miss him. A moment of silence for my bro'................................................................................ I love you Ken.

Have You Ever???
Can you imagine what life would be like if well all had to live it alone. What life would be like if there was no such thing as the truth or if the truth was really a big lie. What life would be like if there was not one star in the sky to wish on. what life would be like if death was birth. Birth of a new beginning. What llife would be like if drugs were no such thing. what life would be like, if music really was considered an anti drug instead of the key to tragedy... what life would be like if it was all just a big wish.. what life would be like f social existence didnt matter. what life would be like without all the pain. what life would be like with no such thing as a television. what would life be like with out love, heartache or pain. what life would be like if fthe midnight sky was painted with colors of summer or autumn. Have you ever wondered what life would be like if we all just agreed and stayed to ourselves. what life would be like without jealousy. what life would

My Inner Demons....
There are times in our life when we are either a part of, or just witness things that we wish we have never seen or went through! I myself have been there! Ive been abused Mentally, Physically, Verbally and Sexually. Ive been hurt more times then not and at times have wanted to give up! Ive been suicidal thinking theres noway i have anything to live for! there was a time in my life when i would ask GOD "WHY ME." Theres a time when my best friends were the pills that promised to put me to sleep,if i took just the right amount i wouldnt hurt anymore! There are times when i would cry myself to sleep because thats the only way i would fall into that lovely slumber we all so very much love and cant function without! There are times when writing eases all the pain in the world but like now it just heals it for a short time. If you met me and knew me, knew everything i went trough, knew all the pain that rests in my heart, if you knew all the things ive wanted to do and all the risks ive want

Sounds, The - Hope You're Happy Now
You can call me a slut You can call me a liar I got so many names now I can't even deny it You can call a thief and put up a fight bury me six feet under the ground But if you think I look mad today You should have seen me yesterday You can call me a beauty You can call me a beast But it's nobody's business what I do or please So this song is from me to you you make me mad and you make me blue Cause when you're looking like I do you know I can see you We dance to the same groove but I got the right move Hope your happy now But I'm not giving in I hope you're satisfied With your bullshit and your lies Hope your happy now But I'm not giving up I hope your satisfied Can't bury me alive They call me a slut Then call me a liar Got so many names now I can't even deny it They call me a thief They put up a fight Try bury me six feet under the ground So this song is from me to you You make me mad and you make me blue You're looking like I do You know I can see you We dance the same groove

Dead Man Walking...
Dead man walking, walking man dead. The first sentenced to death, for popping a bullet in the others head. Dead man walking, walking man dead. He caught her cheating, then he chopped off her head. Dead man walking, walking man dead. Both got drunk, one killed the other for what he said. Dead man walking, thousands dead. Built some bombs, Placed them in a shelter where the homeless were being fed. Dead man walking, walking man dead. Smoked some bad crack, That went straight to his head. Dead man walking, Too many people dead. Let's stop the killing; while we still have our heads. Amy S. Graham This poem was from a dream I had after a dear friends husband killed her when he found her cheating on him with her boss. Yes, he chopped off her head! Th, June 14, 2001 2:34:54 PM

[fredo]
I can not stop thinking about my alfredo sauce. Huh? Yeah that's really what's keeping me up tonight. No nightmares, no 5:00 FFXI party, no pining oversexed painful boner There's no snap to it, no brightness, just a level- smooth richness. There needs to be a brief flirtation with a vegetable. A mild crisp sweetness. And I just can't get past putting bell peppers or banana peppers in my alfredo. Now serving a yellow bell pepper is a bit on the nose, a bit too italian, a bit too damn... SIMPLE. Even if I served ribbons or rings it'd be too clunky. Not fork friendly. I can't have an unfriendly dish!!! No... no... the right choice was my first choice, and there's just a smidge more heat and sweet to the banana pepper. Rings of them. Yes. With semolina macoroni. I'll try to use butter over olive oil and add more garlic, but what might work out even better is a mince of shallot in the center. Oh ... GOD... what if they don't have it anywhere... they did last month. Am I really

What Do You Think Is Better?
I want a lil girl and have been tryin to decide what name sounds the best. So please leave comments on which you think is better. I have always wanted to have a lil girl named Jazzmin Lynne or Cassandra. I haven't found a middle name for Cassandra that I like yet. My middle name is Mae. I am french and italian so I have been thinking of a name that means beautiful or princess. I now also like the name Isabella Mae or Isabella Marie and I am leaning more towards that. She would have my middle name if I chose the first one,and first name means beautiful,so that'd be cool. I'd call her Belle or Bella for short. Let me know what you think of the names and thank you.

Will He Make A Good Husband
Will He Make a Good Husband? Something serious to think about before you marry * Does he go out of his way for you? Or are you always doing things for him? Does he try to make you happy? Does he want to prove he is good enough for you--or are you always jumping through hoops to win his love? Will he go places that you enjoy? Or are you always doing things he likes? If he doesn't aim to please you now, it will only get worse once you are married. * Is he hard working? Did he work hard in school? Does he work hard on his job? Or is he always complaining about his boss, his teachers, and never really working hard at anything? If he doesn't work hard now, it is unlikely he'll work hard to earn the money needed to live a secure, debt-free life. * Does he take responsibility for the quality and condition of his life--or does he see himself as a victim--always blaming others for his problems? If he blames others now, eventually he'll blame you for all his problems t

The Sweetest Kid
So I got a card from my Kid the other day, got me teary eyed. The front of the card has a Soldier on it with papers in his hand like he is writting a letter and it says. "Mom.. you are so very dear to me. I miss you! I love you more than I ever told you.. Though far away, you are always close in my thoughts.." Inside the card it says.. "Just wanted to let you know" Then he wrote in it... "I'm glad you support me no matter what I do if it's a good choice or even if it's not that great of a decision I made. You were the main reason I decided to get my diploma so I could see a smile on your face knowing it's there because I put it there. Can't wait till graduation for basic so I can see you. I love you a lot and miss you. Hope and pray everything will go well with the surgery." He appreciates his Momma afterall.. Just had to share.

Marked "nsfw"
So.. Im wondering if anyonelse gets " YOUR PHOTO HAS BEEN MARKED NSFW" and it completely shocks you. Im sayin... in the actual album NAME.. it says... "Some NSFW...Easily Offended Need Not Enter"... and still.. someone goes in... some... "Easily Offended" individual... and then REPORTS a fuggin picture as "NSFW" So then you have to go through all your pictures and try and figure out which one might offend anyone in a world of people (who by the way continuously offend me)... whom which are EASILIY OFFENDED themselves. Is that confusing? Following me? DO I NEED A PERSONAL BOUNCER at my DOOR?? Do I REALLY have to explain that there are real life insanely confused people who might wear purple robes that resemble the KKK's attire... satin purple, mind you. They happen to be Jewish (which incase anyone doesn't know... there ARE Jewish people in the world)... some of which are Homosexual (those exsist also).. and they're POSING... actually POSING for this picture. Someone finds the

Damned If I Do
Why do I feel so alone in a crowd of people I know? Is it wrong to feel so insecure and so unappealing? Why walk around in disguise with a fake grin on my face? What would it prove? What would I gain? I'd still feel so out of place. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you. Midlife crisis at the age of 22, who knew? I need some answers. Cross the street and down the avenue I stopped for the woman and Paid five bucks and got my palm read. And she said: "You shouldn't be smiling boy, this life line says you're allready dead." Just keep on moving forward never turning back. But with every step ahead I take they pull me two steps back. They pull me two steps back. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you.

The Surender
its dark out side as she stands by the window in the gentle spring breeze, the curtains billow round her like a soft caress, cool yet warming her with there simple touch she glances once more over the orchard, looking for the eyes she feels upon her naked body, wondering, if he will come for her again tonight. To take pleasure in the forbidden way that only he knows how. To tell her he loves her, breaking, mending and bending her to his will as only he can, only he knows how. Secretly she yearns fro his touch in a way no lady should, when they are together they ride the waves or ecstasy as one, for she has surrendered, given her self to him and been bound, one of the free yet his slave for the rest of her days.

Make Me Your Dirty Stalker...
Want to own me? I promise I'll be a good dirty little stalker! ;) Items that could also be included if the bids are high: One of the two bulletin Stickied (you pick)2 Personalized Salutes (content depends on the bid)Will rate ALL pics 11 if you run autos (one time)R/F/A up 10 friends of your choiceMy CrushAdded to Yahoo MessengerBlingy Blingy Babyyy! All items are negotiable based on the amount of the bid. :) *muahs* So whatcha waitin on? Go bid... ;)

Wanna Own Me For A Month?
I am up for auction. I'm Offering...... 1- rate pics with 500 11's 1st week 2- SFW salute made just for you. 3 I will keep you shitfaced for the month you own me 4- I will add you to my family 5- make you my crush for the month http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2322540&albumid=1598916&i=996511232&idx=12 http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2322540&albumid=1598916&i=996511232&idx=12 Bidding starts today at 50k ends april 19th to highest bidder i cant get the link to post right, if cant copy and paste it sb me for the link

Jion The Train
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Ohhhh Canada
1. Smarties 2. Crispy Crunch, Coffee Crisp 3. The size of our footballs fields, one less down, and bigger balls. 4. Baseball is Canadian - First game June 4, 1838 - Ingersoll , ON 5. Lacrosse is Canadian 6. Hockey is Canadian 7. Basketball is Canadian 8. Apple pie is Canadian 9. Mr. Dress-up beats Mr. Rogers 10. Tim Hortons beats Dunkin' Donuts 11. In the war of 1812, started by America , Canadians pushed the Americans back past their White House'. Then we burned it, and most of Washington .. We got bored because they ran away. Then, we came home and partied........ Go figure. 12. Canada has the largest French population that never surrendered to Germany . 13. We have the largest English population that never ever surrendered or withdrew during any war to anyone, anywhere. EVER. (We got clobbered in the odd battle but. prevailed in ALL the wars) 14. Our civil war was fought in a bar and lasted a little over an hour. 15. The only person who was arrested in our civil war was an

Game Over,check And Mate
This is for all the want to be playahs who think they can run game. I been away for a minute and while I been gone I've grown tired of the bull .I am not the same person anymore and reconize game when I see it, so save it . Enough is enough, I will no longer deal with liers and fall for thoses tired ass lines, I know my worth and for those who don't , ur loses baby. Keep it 100% with me and I will do the same, my time is precious and is not to be wasted. Those who know me knows Im a kind person and there r some who seem to take that for granted. As I said don't waste my time, or for that matter use me as something to do, til something better comes along, cause in my eyes there isn't anything better. And if u have ask is it me ur talking about, nine times out of ten it is, in other words "If the shoe fits wear it. Peace

After Over 2 Years
Well, it took over 2 years, but I finally made Godfather. Thankyou to all who helped me yesterday during my auto 11. It has been a long 2 years filled with a lot of twists and turns in my personal life. I certainly had my share of heartache at times. But through it all, I have made some wonderful friends that make it all better. I would list names, but you know who you are, and I thank you for everything you do for me. :) My heart is filled with love for you. My VIP ends tomorrow. And in all reality, Godfather is the last level I will achieve. I had thought to leave once I reached it... but there are some of you I just can't leave. It isn't about levels, or rates, or fubucks. It is about the friends I love.

Explanation
Ok look the reason that I have been thinking about deleting my profile is because I have more important things to do then sit on the computer and chat with people that I will most likely never meet. You guys have been great and you guys are awesome. I just want to spend time with my daughter. I have realised that there are more important things in life than being on the computer all day long. I am also fed up with all the bullsh*t that has happened because of this site. I will most likely not delete my profile but don't get mad at me for not being on as much as I used to be. Also I am going back to a ship and I just don't have the time to be on here all the time. I will be on every now and then. If you catch me while I am on hit me up and I will talk to you!!!! Just thought that I would let everyone know what was going on!!!!!

Sack Lunch
The Sack LunchesI put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat downin my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight.'I'm glad I have a good book to read. Perhaps I willget a short nap,' I thought.Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down theaisle and filled all the vacant seats, totally surroundingme. I decided to start a conversation.. 'Where areyou headed?' I asked the soldier seated nearest to me.'Petawawa. We'll be there for two weeks for specialtraining, and then we're being deployed to Afghanistan After flying for about an hour, an announcement was madethat sack lunches were available for five dollars. Itwould be several hours before we reached the east, and Iquickly decided a lunch would help pass the time.As I reached for my wallet, I overheard soldier ask hisbuddy if he planned to buy lunch. 'No, that seems like a lot of money for just a sacklunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'llwait till we get to base'His friend agreed.I looked a

Darkness Turned Into Light Edited By Phin.
Its dark like usual in my bedroom. I feel nothing but a slight chill every once in a while. I keep thinking, when will something happen? My hearing is more acute from lying in the dark. I hear footsteps outside my door. My heart beats starts beating faster and faster. I hear a door open. I’m even more curious now. I hear a voice whispering that I never heard before. I try to move fast to the corner of my darkened room afraid of what might happen next. Another voice joins in, this one is slightly familiar. It sounds like the man that has come to my room time and time again as I slept. He mentions my skin and my scent and how I toss and turn. The other voice is strange, deep and dark it scares me. He doesn’t mention the things the other man has he talks about my curves and how I moved so fast to get to the corner. There is a faint light coming from where they left the door open. I can barely see their shapes. The man who won’t stop talking about my scent and skin i

Blonde Joke
BLIND MAN IN A FEMALE BIKER BAR A blind man wanders into a Female Biker Bar by mistake. He finds his way to a bar stool and orders some coffee.After sitting there for awhile, he yells to the waiter, 'Hey, you wanna hear a blonde joke?' The bar immediately falls absolutely silent.In a very deep, husky voice, the woman next to him says, 'Before you tell that joke, sir, I think it's only fair, given that you' re blind, that you should know five things: 1) The bartender is a blonde girl with a baseball bat.2) The bouncer is a blonde girl.3) I'm a 6 foot tall, 175 lb. blonde woman with a black belt in karate.4) The woman sitting next to me is blonde and a professional weightlifter.5) The lady to your right is blonde and a professional wrestler.Now, think about it seriously, Mister.Do you still wanna tell that joke?' The blind man thinks for a second, shakes his head, and mutters....'No, not if I'm gonna have to explain it five times.

Salute Contest
Salute Contest Rules will be simple: Salute can be NSFW or SFW. Must contain my Name or ScreenName. Contest will run until April 15th. Due to NSFW and SFW I will offer 2 sets of prizes. Will have an updated blog soon. If interested please PM me so I have an idea of who is entering. Hope to see you soon Chris aka Dj Army Medic

Livin La Vida Loca
I woke up today all energized and refreshed. Feeling damn good now after being so worn out recently. Some of you may know I am a truck driver and most days are not bad, but I been on the road since December 27th so I was getting a bit burned out to say the least. Home now and got 10 days off. Well 9 now since I slept most of yesterday away. I always have a song in my head and the song I woke up with this morning...Living la Vida Loca by Ricky Martin. sidenote: I am not gay or bi, but DAMN Ricky Martin is a sexy motherfu...

Your Invisible Power
'' A feeling that greater possesions,no matter of what kind they may be,will of themselves bring contentment or happiness, is a misunderstanding. No person,place, or thing can give you happiness. They may give you cause for happiness and a feeling of contentment, but the Joy of Living comes from within''

You Can't Use The Force On This One, Baby
Sometimes ask why why, want to die? I want to die If I could I would not now "Don't do that" Why not? sexless or not, insides scraped out I am a basic skeleton of disgust you already hate me I die always in you you won't mind It will be beautiful.....

Pain Of Love 2
A waterfall of blood from my hand. god damn wish i was dead. put a bullet in my head. Wishful thinking. life now cascading. my life 4 the taking. broken heart and recreation. a soul not 4 the taking. blinded by the darklight. Soul burns out of sight. Searching the brake of daylight. no comisarating. death by a mental patiant. captured my soul in hells damntion.

Giving Up
My heart yern 4 a love so true and at that moment we both will kw its true. The world wld stand still. The war.s of love wld come 2 an end. I have given up on that true love. My heart achs from not being able 2 show the one i do that this much is true. I wld die just 4 u. Just so u wld never have 2 feel the pain in love that i do.

A Big Thank You For All The Love
I'd like to take this time to thank EVERYONE for showing me love. I already know I have the coolest friends, and now I've had the pleasure of meeting more of you. That's a definite turn on for me cuz I truly cherish my friends. I'd also like to take this time to ask my newer friends to please check out my family. My two sisters and brother are also here on Fubar and they rock too, trust me. Today has been one of the most enjoyable of all my days on Fubar, and I've been here for 3 years enjoying some good times. Thank you all again for extending the love, and please....KEEP IT UP...lol. I love you all my sweet friends. KEEP ON ROCKIN'

What Is The 'x' The Cit' & Mi' ...(1+1)...& Then +sum+
WHAT IS THE XCITMI'~11The ~X~of 1 & then {+} SUM....Many question MI'....Don't be naive..but SUM never see what there is to SEE....Some see with their eyes...OPEN....others' eyes are SHUT.....For MI'...?Neither!... I SEE... with my SOUL...It's a POWER.. a true 'in'sight, I take it all in MI'...and it is sometimes out of CONTROL....How the '1' spits out for you to recieve .....sometimes hard to conceive....The 'MI' just tells '1' to BELIEVE....What is the ~X~?The ~X~is ...just a ~X~.., just as YOU, as ANYONE.. The UNKNOWN FACTOR.... The ~X~POENENT!We are all considered or LABLED..Until I or '1' have it UN~RAVELED!...So, I ask YOU.. How do you dress your ~X~?for '1' to Conceive?For MI' ... as generic for SUM as I want to BE...or give SUM '1's' MORE of MI' (X to the XX to the XXX)The few I do give some more of ~X~ do SEE... what there is to SEE....this I do believe...TRUE & HONEST MI'....I do have and claimed MI" a place, a SPOT!!I call it... and do believe it cost MI' a lot...so

~sex~ By Micheal Ryan
~SEX~ written by Micheal Ryan Afterthe Earth finally touches the sun, and the long explosion stopssuddenly like a heart run down the world might seem white and quiet tosomething that watches it in the sky at night, so something might feelsmall, and feel nearly human pain. Butit won't happen again the long nights wasted alone, what's done indoorways in the dark by the young, and what could have been for some.

My Dearest Daughter/poem Written For My Cousin Who Was Killed, Voice Of My Aunt To Her Daughter!
Today marks the day my cousin was KILLED!! By a 19 year old boy strung out on drugs and alchol and was on some kind of TRILL... On this morning she was to meet the UNKNOWN...who would even ~X~pect this and Flashes of her life would be SHOW'N.... was asked by my Aunt to write her last WORDS.. to her daughter, these would be read and ALL would be HEARD!!How does 'ONE' even begin to write or ~X~press such SYMPATHIES....Words to be said from a Mother to her now Dead Daughter, and being my FAMILIES... So, I sat and what first come to My MIND.... What if I had to go on with leaving one of my Daughters BEHIND!!Out from the darkness the words come and just FLOWED.... It was powerful and some light shown and GLOWED!!!My cousin, her the same age as I am, was killed on this day by a 19 year old boy who had no driver's license, driving someone else's truck, hopped on drugs and who knows what else. My cousin woke this beautiful 'mourn'ing and was to only do her normal routine of a typical day and o

Candle Light
Candle Light Candlelight spills into my room.It falls across your face and even mineIt falls across your body,It discovers you, your perfections, your Imperfections,Your hopes and aspirations.The candlelight is soft and so forgiving.The candlelight is warm and inviting.When the morning comes and the candle isThrough it will have already discovered you.Now it is gone the warmth is lost.You are left in the twilight of early dawn.You have been stripped bear as sleep rushes in.Now sleep my darling, for I am hereI am still the candle that burns with in. @Portorican Princess

In My First Ever Auction
Im in my first ever AUCTION! Please help me make it a successful one!!! You know you wanna OWN this Sinful girl! hahaha Click above and love me!!! Kisses to all my friends and family! I love you guys and gals!!!

Some Of My Fav Quotes
Some of my fav quotes "In Italy for thirty years under the Borgias they had warfare, terror, murder and bloodshed but they produced Michelangelo, Leonardo da Vinci and the Renaissance. In Switzerland, they had brotherly love; they had five hundred years of democracy and peace and what did they produce? The cuckoo clock." - Orson Welles (1915-1985) "Its not the size of the dog in the fight, its the size of the fight in the dog." - Mark Twain (1835-1910) "When the only tool you own is a hammer, every problem begins to resemble a nail." - Abraham Maslow (1908-1970) "I am become death, shatterer of worlds." - Robert J. Oppenheimer (1904-1967) (citing the Bhagavadgita, about witnessing the world’s first nuclear explosion) "It is impossible to defeat an ignorant man in argument." - William Gibbs McAdoo (1863-1941) "You can get more with a kind word and a gun than you can with a kind word alone." - Al Capone (1899-1947) "Never interrupt your enemy when he is making a mistake."

Kind Of A Downer, But Meh :d
Softly for anyone who knows how it feels to cry and so i cry just a littlebegging to end it all oncejust to bleed a littleand let it all come undoneand i pray just a littleto a god i'm not sure i believebecause all i have is a littlehole where i think a heart is supposed to beand it hurts so much sometimesto know that i seem to always failand that noone will ever see me crybecause i hide the real tears so welland i have to wonder sometimeswhy i can't just let it all goand just move on with the lifethat i cannot seem to outgrowand so i let my tears flowsilently as the weight covers meand i just want to die every daythat i cry myself to sleep softly Nijah Redlin

The First Poem I Ever Submitted To Poetry.com
Challenging Myself i sit before this screen and am challengedby the blank space i could fill with wordsbut, in truth, i despise those whooveruse those words to make themselvesfeel special or importantwanted and needed when i am truly alonelost inside of this self-imposedmisery that i call my h*llso now i challenge myself as my friend hasto step out in belief that my words matterthat what i feel is importantand that someone out there truly understandsi may gain nothing but i am accustomed to itit has been my only constant for nearlytwenty years now that i look backso now i challenge myselfand place my soul in your hands Nijah Redlin

Random Shit. I Know It's Hard To Read.
Lost Truths © So, I'm sure people expected me to make an actual blog post fucking ages ago, well, oh well. I've never been much into talking about myself, obviously. YES I KNOW THIS SHIT IS HARD TO READ. ''tries to read it'' Fuzzyness. Anyway. I've been gone for a while, so, most of you probably won't care, anyhow. But, fuck you too

Heaven
Oh - thinkin about all our younger yearsThere was only you and meWe were young and wild and freeNow nothin can take you away from meWeve been down that road beforeBut thats over nowYou keep me comin back for moreBaby youre all that I wantWhen youre lyin here in my armsIm findin it hard to believeWere in heavenAnd love is all that I needAnd I found it there in your heartIt isnt too hard to seeWere in heavenOh - once in your life you find someoneWho will turn your world aroundBring you up when youre feelin downYa - nothin could change what you mean to meOh theres lots that I could sayBut just hold me nowCause our love will light the wayChorusIve bin waitin for so longFor somethin to arriveFor love to come alongNow our dreams are comin trueThrough the good times and the badYa - Ill be standin there by you

Making Animations For Offers
Hey all my wonderful friends I am making animations and pics if interested. I will do it for offers. I am trying to get up fubucks to pay for VIP or Auto 11's and Bombs. If you would like one PM me and let me know. Send me the pics you would like to use with a brief description of how you kinda want it to look. Below are some examples I have done for my wife so far. I will be putting up more as I make them. ANIMATIONS I made this for my wife she is a new member of Dangerous Curves. I made this for my wife when she had her 11's on PICS

More Small Brain Stuff....
This morning I am driving to Helena, the state capitol, which is about 90 miles from my house on the river, to go too the doctor. I am a vet and going to the VA Hospital there, which is the only hospital on this side of the state ( VA) I am a Purple heart vet and it is free care for life so worth it I think. You just have to drive to it...LOL There is another one on the eastern side of the state but if you have ever seen a map of Montana you know that is like going to Michigan for an appointment. Anyway I am seeing a neurologist about my tiny brain they discovered on the recent MRI!!! This should bother me I guess, ( having a small brain) but I have much to high an opinion of myself to let anything like that interfere with my illusions of grandeur. When you go to the VA it is like you are still in the military. And they don't care how many medals you received in your war. That was then, this is now. And you have to wonder about a doctor that would work for the VA when he co

Somebody
This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody. There was an important job to do and Everybody was asked to do it. Everybody was sure Somebody would do it. Anybody would have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought Anybody would do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

Home At Last!!!
I sure have a LOT to get caught up on here! I'm totally fine, I hope nobody was worried. I've been out at my friend's farm taking care of things for her because she was hospitalized again. We went to pick up our girls from their grandparents after March Break and on our way home my one daughter called to let me know my friend was throwing up. (We'd been taking shifts staying with her but my daughter was coming home that night and nobody was going out to replace her because it'd been about a month and she was okay to take care of herself again.) I told my daughter I couldn't do anything at least til we got home from Toronto, but I guess things settled down that night for my friend. The next day she called though and she was back in the hospital again. I tried to go back and forth to the farm for the first few days but it was just too much so I went out to stay on the Thursday and I've been there since. I came home twice just for the night once she was home again, she got home a

Easter Auction '09!
Going…. Going… GONE!OMG, GoIn4bRoKe is being auctioned! Easter Auction will be running 4/6 6pm(EST) to 4/12 6pm(EST)Come and BID BID BID!!He is offering the highest bidder the following:1. Owned by you in his name2. Your name as his status for at least 1 hour a day3. Rate all stash during HH4. Random profile comments5. 500 11’s during the month6. Link to their profile on his main page7. Misc gifts through the month, some big pimpin8. Pimpout blog9. SFW salute10. #1 family member and friend11. Keep shitfaced12. Crush for the month!So what are you waiting for?! Click his pic to place your bid!!Bulletin brought to you by:Viχεή ßεℓℓα ♥ [[ƒ*m*ƒ]]

Our First Encounter!
OUR FIRST ENCOUNTER Have you thought... ....dream of .... OUR FIRST ENCOUNTER.... As, if we were there... I have imagined it to be similar to this....while we are just all wrapped up in this little bliss... now pay attention as if we were there, ... where?....I have not a date for when, but this is how I believe this will all begin...this only importance to this message I am trying to send... You now know some of MI'.... as I do of you... now things have begun and somehow grew..... Now that we are past the introduction stage... we both know .... there is connection we engage... So, this place we have set to meet.... a place yet unknown but we will greet.... I am thinking I wont say much when I first arrive... we have already shared much and could write an archive.... So, a warm breath of a secret, I may in your ear... just to let you know I have arrived and I am close, and oh so very near.... I could come meet and shake your hand...but from behind... I imagine that would b

Send Me A Direct Link In Your Comment
I'm going to do another Cherry Bomb toight Tuesday 4-7-09. If you would like to bomb you and you have a folder with 250 pics for bombing and would like me to bomb you please leave a comment with a DIRECT link to that folder. Please r/f/a if you haven't already as well for me to bomb you. In the past I've asked for the link to be sent to my SB but that got way to confusing. I try very hard to hit my family members of the Americas Brave N Proud Lounge and the members of the Rating Revolution as well first. Also if you have auto 11's going to still be in affect tonight leave that in your message too if you could :-) help me and I'll be helping you too!!! Looking forward to new friends and fans. I try to keep up with anyone who f/r/a's me as well :) Also pleaz rate this blog as well :) UPDATE 4.7.09 PM My internet is running extremely SLOWWWWW so I'm going to wait until tomorrow to do my cherry bomb. So hopefully tomorrow night will be better to be able to do a Cherry Bomb :)

A Quick Teaser Of Something I Started Working On In The Last Few Days
This is a teaser for the newest project i'm working on. Lu Bu: Rebirth of a Legend Xiapi 198 A.D. "Too tightly tied!" Too tightly tied!" a man in armor said in frustration at the two men who escorted him across the battlements of a battle ravaged city wall, the tied man was large and powerfully built, but the ropes binding him were the source of his misery as they were tightly bound across his chest and arms, rendering him unable to move his arms to try and save himself as they brought him before a group of men wearing robes as he said "Too tightly tied!!" one last time. "A tiger should be really tightly tied" one of the men said to him as the man in armor looked at the group of men surrounding him, he recognized the one who had spoken to him as Cao Cao, then he saw Liu Bei and Guan Yu, Guan Yu's beard was unmistakable as it reached his waist and was beautifully taken care of. Looking at the two men who had tied him up to begin with he said with considerable heat in his voi

Growing Old
LOST IN THE DARNDEST PLACES An elderly Floridian called 911 on her cell phone to report that her car has been broken into. She is hysterical as she explains her situation to the dispatcher: 'They've stolen the stereo, the steering wheel, the brake pedal and even the accelerator!' she cried. The dispatcher said, 'Stay calm. An officer is on the way.' A few minutes later, the officer radios in. 'Disregard,' he says. 'She got in the back-seat by mistake.' ________________________________________________________________ FAMILY Three sisters, ages 92, 94 and 96, live in a house together. One night the 96-year old draws a bath. She puts her foot in and pauses. She yells to the other sisters, 'Was I getting in or out of the bath?' The 94-year-old yells back, 'I don't know.

To Some
To some, I'm just a picture That is seen passing by To some, an aquiantance With whom you say hi. To some, a little more Like flowers in the spring To some, a good friend And a smile it does bring. To some, it goes much deeper Like the waters of the sea To some, whos heart is true I pray it will always be.

Religion
I just finished another book by one of my favorite authors, Paulo Coelho. The latest book I read was "by the river piedra, I sat down and wept". The following is an excerpt from that book. I'm certainly not very religious but I think this has a lot of meaning."A spanish missionary was visiting an island when he came across three aztec priests.'how do you pray?' the missionary asked.'we have only one prayer', answered one of the Aztecs. 'We say, "God, you are three, we are three. have pity on us"''a beautiful prayer' said the missionary. 'but it is not exactly the on that God heeds. I'm going to teach you one that's much better.'The padre taught them a catholic prayer and then continued on his path of evangelism. Years later, when he was returning to Spain, his ship stopped again at the island. From the deck, the missionary saw the three priests on the shore and waved to them.Just then, the three med began to walk across the water toward him.'Padre! Padre!' one of them called, ap

Dr. Submitted Funnies~~
1. A man comes into the ER and yells, 'My wife's going to have her baby in the cab! I grabbed my stuff, rushed out to the cab, lifted the lady's dress, and began to take off her underwear. Suddenly, I noticed that there were several cabs -- and I was in the wrong one. Submitted by Dr. Mark MacDonald, San Antonio , TX 2. At the beginning of my shift, I placed a stethoscope on an elderly and slightly deaf female patient's anterior chest wall. Big breaths, I instructed. Yes, they used to be, replied the patient. Submitted by Dr. Richard Byrnes, Seattle , WA .3. One day I had to be the bearer of bad news when I told a wife that her husband had died of a massive myocardial infarct. Not more than five minutes later, I heard her reporting to the rest of the family that he had died of a, 'massive internal fart.'Submitted by Dr. Susan Steinberg4. During a patient's two week follow-up appointment with his cardiologist, he informed me, his doctor, that he was having trouble with one of h

Red - - - A Real Friend Would Read This
If the Red shirt thing is new to you, read below how it went for a man... Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together.. After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home.No, he responded.Heading out I asked? No. I'm escorting a soldier home.Going to pick him up?No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq , I'm taking him home to his family.The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days. I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you. Thank you for doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do. Upon landing in Chicago t

Your New Side
Your opening up this new side.Your taking down all the screener of your stage.Its bare and raw and I don’t care at all.The new u it darker this is true. I want to feel u feel me. Call me names in the dark. Stop my aching heart from breaking.make me bleed for u.I need your darkness I need your fearI need your taste to make things clear.I’m zoning the room turns black but my sprits are high.I never felt this pure before your my new sin your my new passion. When I feel your touch on my skin it makes me want to give in. Your bliss is my pain. Your pain is no gain your lose isn’t my reward. Your the one i need to score your my drug u get Me so high i cant wait to touch the sky. Take me with u on this magic ride to paradise free me.

Moving....
Well the day has come when I get kicked out. The (hopefully very very soon) ex wife, has finally pissed me off. She told me, that if I leave, not to come back. So fine, im moving out. I have found someone that makes me smile and shows me love and affection, which I was not recieving for numerous years. I now realize what is is to feel loved. For sometime now, I thought love was being belittled and lied to. I was blinded by what I thought was love on my part. What happens from here on out I don't know. But wish me luck as I start a new journey in life........ to be continued

Business Idea
After years of trying to come up with the right idea I think I've finally hit on a winner... I'm gonna open up a shop selling nothing but hot cakes. I thought about having a more expansive product range, but then I figured why lose focus when surely hot cakes are the only product guaranteed to sell bucket loads, whatever the customer base or whatever the economic climate.... As I understand it, they sell like hot cakes. I've never heard anyone report any different so how could it possibly fail?

Reflective Dreams
Intertwined like two Coi upon a satin pond In invincible safety, infinitely one. A spirit, an angel, a Goddess, a God Enveloped in a thousand year moment. She leans in, brandishing purity upon Her lips, Beaming connection from Her perception. Truth, acceptance, wisdom... I breathe, I smell, I taste. Rose pedal lips embrace my being, igniting soulfire ....and yet, I close my eyes and forget. And in an instant, we never existed. I wrote this after having a perplexing dream while dealing with finding my mother. I was in a bedroom, with a stunnning red headed angel. Stunning not because of her beauty, but becasue of her aura, her energy. She exuded absolute positivity, compassion, confidence, joy.....it was truly mesmerizing, especially becasue I could feel her bringing this out of me as well. While in a absolute peaceful embrace, she leans in to kiss me. Brandishing this wonderful energy, I pull her close..... This is where it gets weird. As we kiss, I sudd

Anger
anger.have you ever known one word to define hate so correctly.this is about my anger and what angers me.not much makes me angery but i admit i have an anger problem.i get upset quickly.and only the rain or some one i love can calm me down.i dont like being anger because its like someone else is controlling my body and all i can do is watch.when anger takes hold of me its like a beast is unleased.i scare my self.but i can controll it now if only bearly if you have anytips that may help please leave them thank you. i almost forgot the things that make me angery peer presure, talking bad about someone i care about, theft of something personal, and people who think their better then everyone else.

Moved
So as many of you know i have moved to OHIO...Oh has it been a complete crazy week. Schools to enroll in and jobs to interview for adjusting to do, and of course settling in. Getting use to being on my own is a whole different subject tho lol, not use to being this far away from L:ord Fury or not seeing Him for months at a time. It will be about 2 months before He is able to join me and belive me i am counting the days down until we are able to hold hands....touch lips....breathe close....MmMmM. I have however neglected many of you on here and for that i apologize it seems as if nothing is stopping, been so busy i barely have time for myself anymore. Oh yea i forgot to mention i got the job that i wanted....YAY! Start here on Monday, I am so very excited. I have however been battling demons within, struggles that i care not to go too deep into right now. Some have been there for me and know what is what others have not. For those of you that care enough to check on me i truly than

Lol
I am alive. Lost as always, but hopeful, now more than ever. I have someone who makes me smile no matter what. I have a daughter I love more than anything. And I have the entire world open before me and full of possibilities. I am going far away, as I seem to often do. And I will miss those who matter, just as much as I am sure I will be missed by the same. I will not forget, nor will I be forgotten, and for that I am truly grateful. To my fu-fam (and you know who you are ;) ), I luvs ya all wif all my middle heart. To my firends on here, I'm coming back, and I 'm coming back just as much of a smartass as I am now, so prepare yourselves in advance :D. And to all who don't matter, and if you aren't sure, it's probably you: You will never understand, don't bother pretending you do The only one you're making a fool out of, is you Later, Loves ya, Out.

Corny Couples Names....what Do You Think?
Lovey-dovey language - even your own - can be so corny it makes you want to puke. But researchers have found that it might actually serve a purpose: Pet names and code phrases pave the way to a playful, resilient, and satisfying relationship. One study on couples' "insider language" published in the Journal of Social and Personal Relationships reported that the more goofy names, made-up terms, and covert requests for nooky a couple used, the higher their relationship satisfaction tended to be.The quantity of sweet or silly nothings you utter on any given day may be even more important than the quality, says Jamie Turndorf, Ph.D., a NYC relationship therapist. Studies have found that couples who maintain a five-to-one ratio of positive to negative communications are far more likely to remain happy. "Using nicknames and made-up language is an easy way to inject positive communication into everyday life," Turndorf says. In fact, it's probably the single easiest thing you can do to keep yo

My Life Story Part 4
So I moved in with my aunt Willa Dee and uncle Albert. Uncle Albert is my fathers brother. He is a very intelligent man and worked as a maintenance man at the lumber mill in town. Aunt Willa Dee was one of the sweetest women I had ever known. I moved in and they immediately built a brand new room onto their home for me. I thought I had finally arrived at my last home. I was very happy and was still able to attend Winnfield Senior High which I had began attending at Kim's. They lived in the middle of town in the home my grand parents had built many years before, and they were actually buried right across the street in the town cemetary. Aunt Willa Dee allowed me to get a job, so I went to work at one of the local gocery stores. I had just turned 16 and felt like things were getting better. I was attending vo-tech in the mornings for welding and then the evenings at high school, then straight to work. I stayed pretty much to myself and out of trouble. That did not last long though. After

Rantrantrant
People are fuckin creepy. People play too many mind games. I'm not a fan of either. Mind games literally suck the life out of me. I have no patience and no tolerance. If you're not gonna be real with me, Just go the fuck away. The creeps that like to stalk and talk shit, Seriously, what is the point?? What could you possibly get from checking me out 478534x's a day? or sending me emails or one liners in my shoutbox? This sudden flood of weirdos is just...disconcerting. I don't like attention. Especially not negative attention. I hate this site now. It used to be fun. I know others feel the same. (I'm right behind ya, Jae) Ugh, ignore me, I'm sick and sensitive right now. Fuck off, weirdos :/ -REL

Trust Me (this Is Love) - Amanda Marshall
I look at this mountainSo many heartaches wideAnd I can't help but wonderWhere's the other sideI've got to be honestI've got my doubtsThese tears are asking me What's this got to do with love?Baby, I'll tell you somethingTo help us through this long, dark nightWhen this trouble passes overYou and I will walk awayKnowing that our love survivedAnother test of faithYou and I can walk on waterThe river rises, we rise aboveIt may not look that way right nowBut trust me, baby...this is loveLove isn't easyI'm torn, I confessWhen a heart is uncertainIt's bound to second guessThis love won't forsake usSo dry your tears I promise youWhen this trouble passes overYou and I will walk awayKnowing that our love survivedAnother test of faithYou and I can walk on waterThe river rises, we rise aboveIt may not look that way right nowBut trust me, baby...this is loveI'm here for you babyThere's nothing I want moreOur day is comingAnd we'll reach that peaceful shoreWhen this trouble passes overYou and I wi

The End
In this our lifeline Hate follows the pain Blind after mute Anger to the rage Nothing from everything Anything for something Everlasting evermore The pain and the greed Why all the pain remains Why all the tears faint In the end, end of the line It all fades away Why my scars wont heal Why my torment feels so real in the end, end of the line It all comes back Beneath these skies As long as man has walked hear the brothers have slayed each other Breaking the bonds and the promises For own benefit Neverlasting nevermore The truth, the trust, the life

D's 1st Furant (special Shout Out To All Demons That Live Under My Bed)
I love Fubar it's a great place to come chat, and all that, but there are some people on here that make me laugh. for instance I seen a status change on a friend of mine's profile asking someone else why he blocked her without chance to reply! from what I was told by my friend she had rated him already before, he doesn't even return the favor of rating her back, she later returns to his profile not remembering who's she has rated already, because she likes to rate and help out friends. Well she realizes she can't rate him again so early so she ends up leaving him. so I figure from what it looks like on his screen that she just visits him and does nothing. (now I would say ok whatever you don't want to rate me, I don't care.) maybe he didn't see her rating him before because when you get so many rates I'm sure he's gotten plenty when on auto 11, he didn't see her early rates. but what he does is laughable and made me laugh. he blocks her after leaving a message on her profile :-O

Thinking Of You
I think of you often and my feelings are real. I don't want to be just another friend, for the thought of you in my life seems so surreal. I wonder if you think of me like I think of you, Can you feel me when my heart swells with delight when I think of you in the morning and on into the night. Can you feel me when in my dreams I am holding you so tight. Our eyes held in a gaze and everything just seems so right. Can you feel me when I say those words from my heart that are soulfully true. Can you feel me when my thoughts run with passion, and are only of you......... Can you feel me????? Can you feel me???

Long Time No See
I know, I know... it's been a while since I have popped into Fubar and said hello to my friends near and dear to my heart and I just wanted to let everyone know just how much I have missed you all! As the days, weeks, months passed, I have thought of many often, spoken to many on the phone and even had the chance to visit with a few close by and must say I am grateful for your friendship, encouragement and support while I spread my wings and do what I must. This past winter has been full of new and exciting things as well as many challenges. I had to make some hard core decisions as to how to best utilize my limited time in this existence and have been extremely occupied with life outside the box. The Humanity Healing Network and the Daily OM have become a focus along with learning and teaching, becoming more active in my community and working hard with the powers that be (political, corporate and community alike) to make a change in the way we as human beings think and do business.

Sigh
How can I tell this certain person that I love him and that he will believe me? My love. It's true it's true. I love you. I love you with all of my heart. I will kill the people that bother you. Thats how much I love you. My dark love, oh how will we rule the dark brutal hell. You are my love. My lust. My life.

Feels Good!
It's a great feeling when your teenage son calls you during spring break and asks you do get on xbox live to play! He has called twice today. And says he is calling at 5:00 to tell me to quit working and get on to play with him. And it feels good when he wants to spend the whole break with you. But I did say he had to stay with his Mom a few days lol. He is my world.

Ritual Behavior
When dreaming, you may feel a need to repeat particular actions or behave in an unusual way at times. This is often ritual behavior. In your dream, the behavior is often necessary to avoid or undo some evil act that may occur. This is a reflection of the work of superstition in your life. If you are by nature superstitious, you may be getting a challenge from your subconscious to let go of a particular compulsion. Or, your superstitions may be receiving validation from your unconscious mind. In your dream, is the ritual empowering? As you compare the ritual with your waking behavior, is it comforting or troubling that you participated in it during your dream story?

Heart Walk Donations!
Danielle aka Evil Angel is walking to help fight Heart Disease on Saturday, April 25 and needs your help! The economy these days sucks, I know that, you know that, but even a few dollars can make a difference. Any Fubar member that makes a donation will recieve a custom made salute from Evil Angel, 100 picture rates, a gift, and she will get you Sh*tface if you are not already. This means a great deal to her as she lost two grandparents and other family members to heart disease and stroke. She has been walking in the American Heart Walk for 10 years now and if has her daughter tagging along to help! To donate just click the link below. Remember even a dollar or two can help! Click Here to Donate If you do donate pl

Blind Man In Biker Bar
BLIND MAN IN A FEMALE BIKER BAR A blind man wanders into a Female Biker Bar by mistake. He finds his way to a bar stool and orders some coffee.After sitting there for awhile, he yells to the waiter, 'Hey, you wanna hear a blonde joke?' The bar immediately falls absolutely silent.In a very deep, husky voice, the woman next to him says, 'Before you tell that joke, sir, I think it's only fair, given that you' re blind, that you should know five things: 1) The bartender is a blonde girl with a baseball bat.2) The bouncer is a blonde girl.3) I'm a 6 foot tall, 175 lb. blonde woman with a black belt in karate.4) The woman sitting next to me is blonde and a professional weightlifter.5) The lady to your right is blonde and a professional wrestler.Now, think about it seriously, Mister.Do you still wanna tell that joke?' The blind man thinks for a second, shakes his head, and mutters....'No, not if I'm gonna have to explain it five times.

Suicide
Aging Aunt Mildred was a 93-year-old woman who was particularly despondent over the recent death of her husband. She decided that she would just kill herself and join him in death. Thinking that it would be best to get it over with quickly, she took out his old Army pistol and made the decision to shoot herself in the heart, since it was badly broken in the first place. Not wanting to miss the vital organ and become a vegetable and a burden to someone, she called her doctor's office to inquire as to just exactly where the heart would be on a woman. The doctor said, 'Your heart would be just below your left breast'. Later that night........ Mildred was admitted to the hospital

Bombs Away!!!
OK ...Tonight during HH, I am gonna be activating my Cherry Bomb!! If you have 11's or are bombing yourself...leave me a pm if you wnat to be hit!! I'll bomb anyone with 250 pics...11's or not!! So leave a PM and i'll do my best to get to you!!! BOMBS AWAY!!!

The Church Organist
Miss Bea, the chruch organist, was in her eighties and never been married.She was much admired for her sweetness and kindness to all.The pastor cam to call on her one afternnon early in the spring,and she welcomed him into her victorian parlor.She invited him to have a seat while she prepared a little tea.AS he sat facing ger old pump oragan,the young minister nocticed a cut glass bowl sitting on top of it,filled with water.In the water floated, of all things,a condom.Imagine his shock and surprise.Imagine his curosity!Surely Miss Bea had flipped or something..!When she returned with tea and cookies,they began to chat.The pastor tried to stife his curosity about the bowl of water and its strange floater, but soonit got tothe better of him,anf he could resist no longer."Miss Bea,"he said," i WONDER IF you would tell me about this?"(pointing to the bowl)."Oh yes",she replied,"isnt it wonderful? I was walking downtown last fall and i found this little package on the ground.The directio

A Poem
"What Will It Take"I have lost friends I have lost loversWhat will it take to never hurt anotherMy life has become numbMy Life has become dimWhat will it take to never hurt againThe times have became hardThe times have become ferceWhat will it take to stop these tearsI have hurt my familyI have hurt my motherWhat will it take to mend the othersGrieve has overwhelmed me Grieve has overwhelmed friendsWhat will it take to make them endCrying wont make the hurt go Crying wont make the hurt changeWhat will it take to turn the pageI feel like my life is overI feel like my life should endWhat will it take to make this happenWill it be a razorWill it be a gunWhat will it take to make this turnI dont want this to happenI dont want this to solveWhat will it take to make this dissolveIt hurts so bad insideIt hurts so bad outsideWhat will it take to make me desideWhat ever it is I hope it comes soonI dont know if I will see another moonI dont know how long I can fakeI just want to know what will i

Angels & Animals Arise
Collapses under a blanket of rolling waves's, The Moon Shining on my comatosed head, Ready to float on a pillow of soft white fluffy clouds, Rolling over hues of green & blue to lands anew. Take the Wooden wheel upon your gritty hands, Let the flags do there magic, Fluttering in the sand, Theres a few special people upon this island reaching out there hand, Laying out sheets of gold, The translucent purple pearls. The Dolphins cruise by in echoes of the past, Across the gritty seabeds filled with rotten mush, A Mermaid is one not many see only in a glimpse, Keep your beady eyes open for that scaly feminine fish. She rises out the water, Trident in her hand, Expelling all that has harmed her & her sand, Withing some people there exists much power, To rise above the mist, Glowing in translucent mists. The Clouds open wide to expose the blue above, Angels & Animals form in mists of dust, To rule this mighty orb open to there trust, Letting out there echoes o

One Month
So I am sitting here thinking. It's been a month since I lost my mom and my life has been such a rollercoaster. Some days I just want to crawl under a rock and hide. Since I lost mom I have learned who truly cares about me and who was just using me. I have also looked at my life long and hard. I am 26 and my life is going nowhere fast. I have two kids who I love more than life itself and I have let them down in so many ways. So I packed my shit up and moved back home. Where I should have been to begin with. I know now what I should do and what I should have been doing to begin with. I realize now that I have been selfish in so many ways. But I am going to turn things around and make it right by kids if its the last thing I do. To my mom.... I love u and I know we said no regrets but I have so many.

In Loving Memory Of ... Abby - The One And Only
In Loving Memory ofOur Beloved AbbyRest In PeaceOur Precious AngelIt is with great sadness that we must announce the passing of our Fu-DaughterAbby - The One And Only. Needless to say, this has been a very rough time for Wild, myself and the others who love Abby, but we wanted to take time to tell you what we know and what is planned regarding her funeral and Fu Memorial Service. Dove returned from spring vacation on Monday to find an email saying that Abby had become ill on Monday and left work early. On Tuesday Mar 31st Abby was found at home, passed out and could not be revived. Abby suffered from health issues that effected certain organs, including her heart and this may have had something to do with her passing.We have been informed That Abby will be laid to rest in the UK on April 9th, 2009April 9th, happens to also be Dove's 48th Birthday and had planned a birthday bash with random bling giveaway. However, under the circumstances she is understa

Like Me
You say you can think like meReally do you want to deal with that atrocityDeal with the velocityOf thoughts pounding constantlyThe never ending questions of"What the fuck is wrong with me?"Always second guessingAnd never addressing The real issues that lie before meSkirting around the drama and hostilityLaughing it offBrushing it awayJust waiting for the next dayIn a hope that my mind will be quietStop with the riotSo do you wanna try itWanna be like meWanna weigh heaivly on issues that aren't really thereDeal with whispers and staresThat more than likely have nothing to do with youGet pissed at yourselfWhen all words escape youFailing to explain Deal with the paranoia That it's all gonna fall apartThat you'll finally loose your shitAnd end up with an empty heartDidn't think you would

Obama's Agenda
Who does Obama think he is to go to another continent and speak on my behalf telling the Europeans that, "We do not consider ourselves a Christian nation"? And then on top of that he breaks proper etiquette by grabbing the Queen of Englands hand with two hands. But she buckles and does not mind; all this because he is America's first black president. He has promised the world he is going to be some sort of savior for the entire planet. Then he walks around all high and mighty, with some sort of self important look on his face. The man denounces his own country. He talks trash about all the former administrations before him; like only a blak man knows how to run a country. This asshole bows to the Muslim leaders of the Mid-East countries, but has absolutely no respect for the people that inhabit the country who elected his pompous ass. Now comes the chatter about the fact that he has not chosen a church yet. Forget it; the man is not going to go to a Christian church. He has alrea

Four Days Away!
I've got four days left till I go into sugery in which I'm not ready for however I did get a call from my sister saying that her and my mother will be coming up on (SAT), I'd be grateful to have my mom here to be with me. Honestly she shouldn't be coming this way seeing she had just got out of the hospital herself not to long ago, I'm sure you've read the blogs about it anyways guys please wish me luck cause I can use it right about now... I love you all..

Almost
Wow, Can this really be true I woke up again reached out and no You? We had such a great time lastnight! laughing joking smoking and the lovemaking so intense I just know we made a baby maybe even twins! my greatest wish! I could so clearly see every inch of you the curve of your hip the shape of my favorite tattoo! the taste of you still fills my mouth and your smell is driving me crazy even at this momment!......I so long to see if it's all true My secret fantasy I almost kept you! You live in myheart and ecscape everynight ! I know this is wrong But damn it feels So right! He can't possibly love you like i do ,he has you everyday and some nights too but i know deep in your heart You want me too! thats why you come to me too bad you can't stay I'm still smiling cause i feel soon i will have mY WAy! And it wil be his turn to wake up and reach out! ok i'm closing this now before i give to much away just wanted to remind you I almost kept u today!!!

4-9-9
You Know While Your Mother Is Cooking The Macaronni Today I Figured Id Sit Down And Talk To You Since Your Old Enough. You Know Its Time That You Really Realize What This Family Is All About Cause About This Time Is When Your Gonna Be Able To Join In And Earn Some Real Money And Real Cash But Before You Do That I Wanna Teach You A Little Bit About Loyalty, The Main Name Of This Game Is Respect And Loyalty. Family Is A Big Thing When We Do This Kind Of Business Everything Is With Respect And When A Family Member Gets Outta Line And Another Family Dont Like It One Thing Leads To Another And The Next Thing You Know, Your Gone And Then Your Just A Memory Of Me, My Hearts Broke Then, But You Gotta Remember Theres Always Family And Loyalty, Loyalty Is The Main Thing. Obviously You Know I Dont Make My Money, I Dont Make All My Cash From Uh Construction Jobs We Do And Uh Sanitation And Private Stuff Is All Earned Money Through The Family And Since Your Of Age Now I Think Its Time I Taught You

I Am In Love With The Man I Always Knew Existed
im a lucky girl ... i cant express how lucky ... i have the love of a man who i can be myself with ... who wants nothing but the best for me ... the man who had my heart for years ... texted me last nite out of the blue ... Harley knows all bout him ... i tell that man everything ... well Harley called him today and said i think u texted the wrong person ... check that number and have a good day ... shortly after that call ... i got a call from kurt (the x b/f) who i spent 3 years with ..... off and on cause hes military ... always deployed .. upon his return from afganistan the last time he went back to his x wife .. almost killed me honestly... but i said no u cant come back when he wanted to run back to me ... hard thing to do but the right thing ... he left me without closure... and i had a hard time trusting anyone after that ... just kinda hung with the kids ... dated a lil but never let anyone close but one guy and we wont go there ... one reason i hadnt been with anyone for 8

The Secret
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation..Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

Endlessly (for You)
The essence of living is life, the essence of day is light, our very purpose for existance is love much in the way that I love you.Thru clouds shadowed with doubt and fearThru and beyond all the things I hold forever nearThru rain and sun and all these thingsMy love for you remains as beautiful as the springThru height and depth and far off placeFar beyond the dark outer spaceFar from any place that man's eyes have never seenBeyond all of our very own understandingMy love for you shall carry onOn and on til all existance is far goneAnd it shall be stronger in that dayThan it was in the beginning this wayWhen I tell you forever my love is trueIt is more pure than the bluest of blueIt is more lovely than the blue bird songAgain I remind you, my love goes on and onEach night when you lay your head down upon your bedAnd the day has passed and you think of all that was saidI hope you hear these sweet words mine Playing over and over in your dear mindAnd in that moment, I hope you findGreat

Vegetables, Guitars, And Some Ranting.
Lately, I've been eating what appears to me to be too many vegetables. I haven't decided what qualifies as too many veggies, but I usually eat a huge bowl of mixed veggies with lunch and another with dinner, and throughout the day I snack on baby carrots. I'm going to turn into a rabbit. I cut my finger on a can of vegetables yesterday, and it hurt. Afterwards, somebody offered to be a nurse for me. That was hot. I've got a show this coming Saturday that I have to play with a cut left index finger, which as a guitarist is not really a great thing. I'm feeling pretty sexy right now... ...except for the bandage on my left pointer finger. Rock and roll.

When I Could Stand
When I Could Stand I close my eyes again tonight I am so weary of my life The sleep that my body craves Will only seem to come by the edge of a knife I pathetically lay next to your picture For you lay next to another As I lay through the pitch of night Another missing piece I discover Can you feel my soul crack? Can you see the fire weaken in my eye? Can you hear my heart shatter? Can you see the man before you die?

Delete Or Take A Break
i have been on fubar almost a year may 3rd will be a year.i am getting burnt out with fubar.my goal was to make the top 10 but that has all went backward.i made it as high as top no.18 rank before i started going backward.i am now no.25 top rank. fubar has nothing left for me to do. so my question to my real friends is should i just delete and say the hell with it? or should i just take a break for a while

A Blog To See Who Is Really My Family Or Friend.
This is to see who is really my sister , family or friend.. My father has CLL (Chronic lymphocytic leukemia) It is not going to get better for him or us (mom and I) so I now have to prepare myself for his care and eventual death... though it may be some time before that, still I hate the fact that this is happening. Im angry inside because my father taught me so much in life. hunting, fishing outdoors stuff. car care, simple plumbing things to avoid costly repairs.... Many, many things to list but I learned them from him.. back in the day I used to see him lay footprints down from ridge to ridge when out hunting. now he can hardly walk from his room to the living room without feelin dizzy.. other health issues has taken their toll as well. the diabetes, his heart. (had a quadruple bypass years ago) Im 40 soon to be 41 on Mothers day and im not ready to see my father go like this...

Just Can't Take It
I don't even know what to say anymore. My closest friends know I lost my best friend when things with Candra ended. There are a few others I am close to, and the one who I talk to most has now left because of something in her life that happened tonight. Everyone I am close to is disappearing. :( I think I need to just stop trying

Please Read This Is So True!
You always hear the usual stories of pennies on the sidewalk being good luck, gifts from angels, etc. This is the first time I've ever heard this twist on the story. Gives you something to think about. Several years ago, a friend of mine and her husband were invited to spend the weekend at the husband's employer's home. My friend, Arlene, was nervous about th e weekend. The boss was very wealthy, with a fine home on the waterway, and cars costing more than her house. The first day and evening went well, and Arlene was delighted to have this rare glimpse into how the very wealthy live. The husband's employer was quite generous as a host, and took them to the finest restaurants. Arlene knew she would never have the opportunity to indulge in this kind of extravagance again, so was enjoying herself immensely.As the three of them were about to enter an exclusive restaurant that evening, the boss was walking slightly ahead of Arlene and her husband.He stopped suddenly, looking

Peace, Bitches!
So I've come to the conclusion I have no real reason or desire to hold onto this profile on this website anymore. So, it's on the chopping block. I'll leave it up for the next couple days and post my messenger id's for anyone that wants them so you can contact me. Then, this thing hits the black hole. Yahoo ID: thexpricexofxfidelity MSN ID: fall.before.me@hotmail.com AIM ID: Handgun Lullaby

Fukn Rude People
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Yet Again..........
she sits alone in a dark room staring into the endless night. wondering when she will find the happiness that she sees so many others have. why cant she have it? what makes her so different that she is undable to find one.....just one true one. someone who can stand and take notice. who can give her everything she so desires. a loving heart she has yet it is shut out all the time. why does she bother.......she asks herself this question a thousand times a day. when will she get her second chance at life.....love....happiness. do these things co exist in her world or are they seperate? she will never know....for she has given up all hope of reaching her answers. so she sits alone in the dark staring into the total empiness that is there...............

Bleh
Bleh...my weekend is all over and I go back to work tomorrow. Grrrr. I have this long meeting towards the end of my shift at work. Quartly meeting.... they're always sooooooo boring. Even if they're boring, I hope it's not our last one lol since Nike is suppose to have a huge lay off next month. I didn't go to the gym today so I gotta go to the gym after work tomorrow...bah!!! I'm stalling on going to bed...It's already 11pm here and I have to wake up at 4am...it takes me forever to fall asleep also...and I can't take my sleeping pill tonight.. Okays..... yeah

Awake
So I'm awake. That's wonderful. It's just past two in the morning and I have a German test in seven hours. If I weren't already somewhat proficient in the language, I'd be genuinely upset, but it's okay. I am wondering why I'm awake. I've got a few theories. 1. I've got too much energy. 2. I'm too horny to sleep. 3. I'm thinking way too much. 4. I'm too horny and I've got too much energy. Right now I'm leaning towards number four. Good grief. I can't wait for the weekend.

I Have A Digi Cam
I have a digi cam back in the house again. So, once again I can take some good quality photos and remove some of the older ones and post them up once taken. Or i could get the points needed to move up to the next level. Its up to friends and fans. However...what I want to know is what kind of photos would you like taken and posted? Let the responses on here or email me the responses. What would you like to see done and posted? This is YOUR CHANCE to SEE WHAT YOU WANT TO SEE! If there is no interest I will just not bother taking any new photos! So I will be waiting to hear from everyone! I would especially love to hear from females!

Part 2
Wordlessly, we embraced, and I felt the joy of her molding herself to me. I kissed her, and her lips parted readily, softly accepting me. My right hand was on her breast, as I held her around the waist with my left. She purred as I began to caress her, enjoying the moment in which I would find her perfect rhythm and guide her into complete readiness for my entry.And then she drew away!"Richard, I'm not ready for this." She paused. "I have too many responsibilities at home. I have to go now! But I do find the thought very sweet... very appealing.""What are we going to do about this then?" I posed the question to her, since she so clearly wanted to go further. She reflected quietly for a minute in my arms, while I looked into her eyes."What time will you be in bed tonight?" She stayed in my arms, rising on her toes so that she could whisper this, letting her warmth surround my restrained erection. I told her when I usually went to bed, and when I did that, she drew away and was off in a

Stop It Damit!!!!
OK EVERYONE, PLEASE STOP ADVERTIZING LOUNGES IN MY COMMENTS! I THINK IVE MADE IT CLEAR IN MY PROFILE I DO NOT GO INTO THEM! I DONT GIVE A CRAP HOW "METAL" OR AWSOME YOU THINK YOUR LOUNGE IS, I WILL NOT GO IN IT! SO STOP ADVERTIZING THEM ON MY PROFILE! MY COMMENTS ARE NOT AD SPACE!

Ford's Wittiest 6
FORRDDDDDDDAARRRRGGGGGGG! said: Â· You have a new Crush! Â· new friend request from 'Doug' received! Â· Doug became your fan! Â· Doug rated you a '10'! Â· Doug just checked you out! dude..... Doug said: LOL that crush wasn't me.... Nice try though Cuddle Slut said: Come on we all know its from you † Irish Goat † said: it was me ღмσ®®î gÅ ηღ™ said: [shifty eyes] FORRDDDDDDDAARRRRGGGGGGG! said: that's kinda believable... it's the giant ball tickler hanging from his chin.. that flavor saver's not gonna miss one drop for later..

Simply My Life~
When I sleep... I dream, simply joy.... I walk through life, simply with joy... When I hunger... I am consumed simply within the essense of joy... When Im exhausted from the days activity... I'm soothed simply within the warmth of joy... I'm simply, completely in love with my girl, named.... Joy... I love you baby girl (the pink is for you) ~W.H.~ ~2009~

Fill Out
whats your name? are we close? what do you think of me? do you have a crush on me? would you kiss me? would you date me? describe me in 3 words? If you had me for 30 mins,wat would you do? what was ur frist impression of me? do you still think the same? what reminds you of me? If you could give me anthing,what would it be? How well do you know me? What do you like about me best? Ever wanted 2 tell me somthing you could'nt? Could you love me? Give a nickname and explain why? Are you gonna out this on ur blog and c wat i say about you? Do you think im Hot? Anything 2 say b4 you go?

Racist?
I was minding my own business when I got this. Could someone PLEASE tell me when I became a racist? Bottom up! ->Ced-Smooth: I never said that. What I have on my profile says if you send a blank request I'll deny it. I said NOTHING about "not liking blacks" Ced-Smooth: so u dont like blacks huh.....its cool....god bless ->Ced-Smooth: you checked me out...rated me..but couldn't even read a profile before sending a friend request?

A Perverted Death In Texas
We invite you to meet Louis Conradt Jr. As long-time readers of the website know, back in November 2006 a child predator named Louis Conradt Jr. hit up what he thought was a thirteen year old boy and made sexual propositions. Police then went to his home to run a routine search warrant as it was noted that Conradt Jr. was deleting evidence. Conradt Jr was a district attorney and well aware of how such cases go. Rather than face a criminal proceeding, he decided instead to shoot himself in the head. Since then his sister has smelled money and tried to keep his story in the news. Some of you coming here have read about her attempts to make cash off her brother's suicide. Since you're getting one side of the story, we invite you to... Invitation: Meet Louis Conradt Jr. As we've written, people never want to take responsibility for the actions of their "loved ones." Conradt Jr. decided not to open the door when police knocked on it. Conradt Jr. decided it was more important to try

Grove (this One's For You Ezra, I Had To Post Something On The Beauty Of A Flower Lol)
A small grove amidst the rain encroaching has a moss-smothered swing too tiny for a toddler marble crucifix rising above the towering green the devout save their souls never notice the mystery enclosed a little coppice forgotten

Asshats
There is something truly sick about some people. Something that just is not right in their heads. Where they get their jollies off saying, doing or watching some really fucked up shit. For example, this asshat who calls himself stein. (http://www.fubar.com/user/2038866). He sends me the following messages in my shoutbox. stein: wheres your left hand in that pic? you rubin yourslelf of finger banging the babies ass?stein: hey fagot stein: pedophile, you make me sick stein: yeah thats what i thot you fucktardstein: im a fucking war pimp bitch!stein: and now i report you for child porn lol, fbi investigates all reports lol, there goes your comp for awhile Now what makes me curious is what possessed him to not only see what he believes he saw, but to come out and make such an accusation? Is he truly just an asshat trying to be a troll and failing poorly? Or is he actually sick and desperately needs mental help? For a normal human to confuse a father lovingly looking down on his newborn

Please Keep These People In Your Thoughts
I AM NOTICING THAT ALOT OF PEOPLE ARE IN NEED OF EITHER ENCOURAGEMENT, PRAYERS, OR JUST A SIMPLE I AM WISHING YOU AND YOURS GREAT BLESSINGS. PLEASE KEEP THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE IN YOUR PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS.... RAIDERSPHAN AND HIS MOM ARE IN NEED OF PRAYER FOR HEALTH REASONS DIBS FATHER -- HEALTH REASONS VnWARDOG -- HEALTH REASON SEABREEZE -- HER FAMILY LOST EVERYTHING IN A WILD FIRE IN TEXAS PLEASE PRAY FOR THESE HOTT LIPS MEMBERS... IF YOU WANT TO BE ADDED TO THE LIST OF PEOPLE TO PRAY FOR OR KNOW SOMEONE THAT NEEDS SOME ENCOURAGEMENT PLEASE PM ME AND I WILL ADD THEM TO THE LIST... WITH LOTS OF LOVE HOTT LIPS MANAGEMENT

All I Need
Aching for your lips on mine Your hand on my hip Not knowing how you’re feeling Not wanting to slip Deeper into love, than I already am It’s so frustrating This anxiousness inside Is what I’m hating Scared of what to do, afraid of what you will say Scared of what to say, afraid of what you will do Scars from other relationships Guard me away Wanting to let go To not hide a thing To be totally open Oh what joy that would bring Wanting to tell you this To show you this To explain with this To experience the bliss Not knowing why Not knowing how My mind is boggled Where are you now? Are you at home? Asleep in bed? Afraid, just like me? All emotions fled? Not knowing what to say Not knowing what to do Sure of only this at the moment All I need is you

Letting Go
This was up on the bulletin board at a place I go for classes and meetings and support groups and I thought I would share it here with all of you. It's about learning when to let go. > To "LET GO" does not mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.> To "LET GO" is not to cut myself off. It's the realization that I can't control another.> To "LET GO" is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.> To "LET GO" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.> To "LET GO" is not to try to change or blame another. It's to make the most of myself.> To "LET GO" is not to care for...but to care about.> To "LET GO" is not to fix, but to be supportive.> To "LET GO" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.> To "LET GO" is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.> To "LET GO" is not to be protective. It's to permit another to face their reality.> To "LET GO

Beautiful Lyrics
When I see you,I run out of words to sayI wouldn't leave you,Cause your that type of girl, that makes mistakes I see the guys tryna' holla,Girl I don't want to bother you,Cause your independent and you got my attentionAnd I'll be your baby father,Girl I just want to show you,That I love what you are doing I see you in the club, you gettin' down'I wanna get with youI see you in the club, you showin' thugs loveThat wanna get with you You're so beautiful, So damn beautifulSaid your so beautiful, So damn beautifulYou're so beautiful... Where'd you come from, you're outta' this world, to meYou're a symbol of what a beautiful woman should be (ooh wee) I see the guys trying to holla,Girl I don't want to bother you,Cause your independent and you got my attentionAnd I'll be your baby father,Girl I just want to show you,Cause I love what you are doing I see you in the club, you gettin' downI wanna get with youI see you in the club, you showin' thugs loveI wanna get with you You're so be

My True Age
11-20 Your true age is very young! You are very energetic and refuse to act like your parents did just yet. You have successfully managed to prolong your youthful days and others can clearly see it. But who cares what other people think! You love to be free and unbound to the constraints of life!

What Art Are You!?
You Are Ceramics You are open to the world and it's possibilities. You are able to start something without knowing how it will end. You trust your intuition above everything else. Going with your gut often works out. You believe that every day objects can and should be art. The best art allows ordinary life to be more stylish and beautiful. What Type of Art Are You?

Three Somes, Sex And Mind Altering Substances ...
...ok...so I'm game for the occasional girl on girl ....I actually love it when I'm drinking or high or stoned or whatever combination of party favors...call it the love of inhibition or the desire to feeeeelllll everything and new things....this is just as much for me with a guy as it is a chic or both... Anyway...I'm not sure if it is just me or the female species in general, but when I want to have and share a woman with a man....it can't be planned...it's one of those things that "happens"...it takes what I want to get me in that mode, mood and mindset....whether it be a few drinks or whatever...but it does take attraction, women, at least the ones I have talked to about it or been with, men can pretty much jump in the sack with anything that has tits and a pussy, get off and go home....if I am fucking "my guy" and a chic and the playing is going on, I want to enjoy it...I want to be the one with the control...I put my HUSBAND's dick in another woman while she was eating me out...

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Stupid People
IDIOT SIGHTING: We had to have the garage door repaired. The Sears repairman told us that one of our problems was that we did not have a 'large'enough motor on the opener. I thought for a minute, and said that we had the largest one Sears made at that time, a 1/2 horsepower. He shook his head and said, "Lady, you need a 1/4 horsepower." I responded that 1/2 was larger than 1/4. He said, "NO, it's not.. Four is larger than two..." We haven't used Sears repair since. IDIOT SIGHTING: My daughter and I went through the McDonald's take-out window and I gave the clerk a $5 bill. Our total was $4.25, so I also handed her a quarter. She said, "You gave me too much money." I said, "Yes I know, but this way you can just give me a dollar bill back." She sighed and went to get the manager who asked me to repeat my request. I did so, and he handed me back the quarter, and said "We're sorry but we cannot do that kind of thing." The clerk then proceeded to give me back $1 and 75 cents in change.. Do

Public Service Announcement....
Last night I had happen something most guys dream of here on Fubar. I had one of the hottest looking babes on this site shout me and ask if I would like to webcam with her. She sais she was horny and had to have me now. Since she clearly did not read my profile, something I find is the usual here rather than the exception, I knew she must be either really horny, doing a random act of kindness, or a scammer. Now if I am really horny I usually do not come on here and ask some random woman to webcam. I know you ladies have a different experience but that is just me. Call it a weakness. Random acts of kindness involve sending encouraging words and thoughts that I actually think about and make unique for the person receiving them. So I concluded she must be a scammer. But in the interest of scientific research I decided to play along. I have a spirit of adventure and always ready to learn new things about people. I am also a sucker for a gorgeous lady with huge breasts. Or not so

Intelligence Speaks For Itself
The Fear of Appearing Dumb The universal need to be accepted by others can be a barrier that prevents us from being ourselves around them. When we fear that the people we encounter will perceive us as inept or unintelligent, we frequently try to flaunt our grasp of large words or clever witticisms or our professional expertise in an effort to convince them that we are smart and capable. The reasons for feeling this way can be many, and they can often stem from as far back as your childhood. Many women in particular have the fear that they may appear not smart. Yet overcompensating for this fear can have the opposite effect if others are driven away by what they see as an immodest attitude or sense that you are urgently trying to prove yourself. The simple desire to be judged smart by both new and old acquaintances can cause you to reject your true self and adopt an affected persona. But in trying so persistently to project an image of supreme intelligence or capability, you deny oth

Breathing Into Order
Feeling Overwhelmed Sometimes we may feel like there is just too much we need to do. Feeling overwhelmed may make it seem like the universe is picking on us, but the opposite is true: we are only given what we can handle. Difficult situations are opportunities to be our best selves, hone our skills and rise to the occasion. The best place to start is to take a deep breath. As you do, remind yourself that the universe works in perfect order and therefore you can get everything done that needs to get done. As you exhale, release all the details that you have no control over. The universe with it‘s infinite organizing power will orchestrate the right outcome. Anytime stress begins to creep up, remember to breathe through it with these thoughts. Then, make a list of everything you need to do. Note what needs to be done first, and mark the things others may be able to do for you or with you. Though we often think no one else can do it correctly or well, there are times when it i

Broken Image
A younge Girl prays for death to end the pain and missouri she feels wishing someone could take it all away she is a boken image in a shattered mirror of life forgeton by her father in heaven left alone in this world with few who care on a dark path that gets darker the farther she walks down it with no light left to shine she keeps praying for a light or for death for she will always remain as a broken image for the mirror can never be whole again POEM BY AMANDA RAE DAGUE

Spend Carnival In Venice At Cross Purposes
How to share what I’ve been reading lately as well as prepare for Easter (or Resurrection Sunday, because it’s the Christian church’s annual commemoration of Jesus’ rising from the dead after three days … dead) should make for a fun entry to write! So hang on … last night after Martha and I got home from Bethany’s Good Friday service where as an added touch we picked up rocks inside that represented our sin – our active separation from God by our words and deeds – and lay them at the foot of a life-sized cross, we came home to an Easter egg hunt set up by our kids Sarah and Jeffrey and their aunt Mary. Martha had a better job finding her eight allotted plastic eggs than I did, but after getting the difference between looking across a room and looking up in a room (a regional thing, much like my pronouncing caramel as CARE-a-mel and Martha’s family pronouncing it car-MUL) clear, I got mine and then it was our turn to hid

Carlos Santana: Legalize Pot, Get Back To Spirit
By Denise Quan CNN LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- Whenever you speak with Carlos Santana, you pretty much know what you're going to get: lots of talk about love and light. spiritual analogies, name-dropping of people like Marvin Gaye and Mother Teresa. Carlos Santana will start a 72-show residency in Las Vegas in May at the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino. It may take a moment to enter the humble headspace of the 61-year-old guitarist legend, but once you're there, you realize that this is a man who acts with his heart instead of his head. Somehow, he's managing to live out his 1960s ideals in 2009 -- and he wants fans to experience a piece of that with his new Las Vegas, Nevada, show, "Supernatural Santana: A Trip Through the Hits." The 72-show residency at the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino launches May 27, with 36 concerts this year and 36 in 2010. As with all his events, a portion of the cost of each ticket will be donated to the Milagro Foundation, the cha

Why I Am Like This
I have had a few conversations on this topic recently. Usually it is someone happily pointing out my flaws. As much as I enjoy these conversations, they need to stop. It isn’t that I mind being told what is wrong with me; it is because you do not take responsibility for your part in it. I strive for perfection and am disappointed when I do not reach it not because I have high expectations of myself, but because you do. I have to be perfect, I have to be right all the time because that is what is expected of me. Too many people delight in every mistake I make, or love to point out the one time I was wrong. Most people can slip up, make a mistake or fail at a task and it is no big deal. We never mention it again. I make plenty of mistakes, but I have to fix them. I can crash and burn, and still be expected to win the race. People can outright offend me, and it is no big deal. Treat me like crap, hurt my feelings and no one cares. Yet I have to watch what I do or say a

The Platoon Of The Dead Available For Pre-order!
The Platoon of the Dead, the first of the no-budget horror and zombi movies that have been filmed in my home, is available for pre-order from Tempe! See if you can recognize me in zombi make up, lol! There is a DVD extra in which actress Amanda Bounds (Jill) and i give a house tour where we are very visibly stoned, hahaha! Since i am apparently incapable of inserting a link properly, you'll have to cut and paste this loooong link: http://store.tempevideo.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=TV&Product_Code=TD-1128 i know, i suck!

Shit Happens, Deal With It
So here I am, back in Starbucks hung the fuck over again. I'm afraid I'm gonna turn into that guy, you know, the asshole with the fancy coffee drink that sits in Starbucks blogging and shit, calling stuff "Shallow and Pedantic".. Whatever, my coffee ain't that fancy and I honestly still don't know what pedantic means so I reckon I'll be ok.Y'all probably figured out after my blog yesterday that I was feelin' kind of sorry for myself being stuck in NY, and getting stood up by my girl. Last night's lesson was: Everything happens for a reason. I was feelin' rowdy and missing my motorcycle and being around fellow bikers and someone told me about a little bar down in East Village or wherever called "Hogs and Heifers" I figured I'd check it out. Pretty cool place, the only bikers there was me and the bouncers; most everybody else there was a tourist or something. They had really good music though; You can't go wrong with a place that has PBR in the can for $2 and bartenders wearing tig

My Love
I wake up day after day And I hope I keep breathing My heart sings to you To keep you from ever leaving It hurts sometimes When I love a soul You are my life-like angel My heat when I feel cold. I could kiss you And taste your being When we touch I feel like I'm soaring.

My Bffe
I need you, like a heart needs a beat. I need you like a puzzle needs to be complete. I need you like the sun needs the rain, I need you like the scarecrow needed a brain. I guess i could say i love you, And i think of you all the time, Every time i see you, All i want is for you to be mine. I guess you could say I'm lucky, To have fallen for my best friend. Someone that will never hurt me, And that will be there till the end. I'm lucky to have found, Someone that i trust with my life, The one and only guy, Who i dream of becoming his wife. I'm lucky to have you, Even just as a friend, Cause no matter what happens, I'll love you until the end. There's a special bond between us, That no one can seem to break, Nothing should make you think, That what I feel for you is fake. I know that I've hurt you, But I was just confused, I just hope you never feel, Like your love will be abused. So take me as i am, And love me just the same, Please don't ever hurt me, Or treat this like a gam

4 My Fuwifey
What's a baby without its mommy? What's a bee without honey? What's a lighthouse without a coast? What's a father and a son without the holy ghost? What's a guitar without strings? What's a bird without wings? What's a book without pages? What's life without ages? What's a flower without rain? What's a fat kid without cake? What's a fish without water? What's a nightmare without a monster? What's a lung without air? What's New York without Times Square? What's a vein without blood? What's a heart without love? What's a night without a moon? What's a rainbow without blue? All i wanted to say is What's me without you?

4 My Soulmate
I am the girl that will always love you 'till you can't breathe no more the one who will not break your heart the one you should adore I am the girl who'll always stay right here close by your side sharing all the goods and bads and all the wrongs and rights I am the girl you can trust in the one to make you smile to laugh with you, to cry with you where you feel it is worthwhile I am the girl you should wake up to and sleep next to every night when you look closely, deep into my eyes you'll see that I am right I am the girl you should hold closely and firmly in your heart 'cause I'm the one to never leave and we should never be apart I am the girl who'll always be faithful and will always love just you the one to deserve your heart and hugs and kisses too I am the girl that's proud of you and supports you all the way the one to never give up on you no matter what you do or say I am the girl, the one for you but clearly you dont see that all this time, you don't realize that gir

Heart Break
I cant take it anymore .. My heart shouts .. I cant take the pain I get every day because I let you go .. I cant bare to hurt you , or cause you any pain .. but every time I try to forget about you I find your face popping inside of me and giving me air to breathe.. I am an organ , I know , but what I feel , nothing or no one can ever understand .. I am numb now .. I cant feel a thing .. I was bleeding for a while .. no one helped me , no one rescued me .. so I recovered by time .. I healed myself with my own dreams .. but then you showed up .. you came and opened me , and put yourself inside of me .. and carved your name in my four rooms .. carved your words .. the 3 words I love you i was too afraid to let you in .. too afraid to offer myself to you , and then one day you will hurt me and cause me so much pain .. leave me on the floor to bleed .. I couldn't bare to get hurt again .. for there is no blood left In me .. I was bleeding before and I cant bleed again .. I am sorry I

Stupid Fvcking Rent-a-cops
I met Fangbanger [Crystal] along with my ex [her bf] Dannie. I picked something up to steal, then ditched it... and the manager saw me pick it up... then found the packaging for it. I did not walk out of the store with ANYTHING. They found all the merchandise intact in the store. I was told that I was not going to get security called on me and the only punishment I was to have was not entering that store again. I walk out and security escorts me and my friends scoot off. I get fucking arrested for nothing. It's complete bullshit. I was so upset, I puked twice. Now, I can't even go to the food court to buy my lunch. I can only go to my store and my store alone. Fucking bullshit. I'm so pissed. :[ Bling would make me feel better though.

Suicide Is Never The Answer
i was on the internet looking at news and i was reading where this teenage girl took her life and it really bother me and i was thinking maybe if someone reached out to her and saw the signs and got her help then maybe she would be alive so i want to say to everyone out there that have or is thinking about takeing there life please from the bottom of my heart talk to someone or get help because i know life can be hard i have been there . i was in a bad place where i thought well if i took my life then maybe the pain well go away until i snapped out of it and got the help i needed and there was one band that saved my life also was the band slipknot there music can at the right time i remember when they first came out i was in a record store then i saw there cd and i got it and there songs moved me and there music made me understand that yes there is a light at the end of the tunnel . talking to people also have help me my close friends know what i been thur and always there for me when

In My Dreams
In my dreams I see you I feel you In my dreams You want me And love me back In my dreams I see a future That probably won't come true In my dreams I am happy I have what I truely want In my dreams I have a love That will last a lifetime

Rainbows And Butterflies
This hollow space divides us the emptiness where love for you used to be grows and expands until my heart is weak I long for things to be the way they used to be only a short time ago you don't understand how I feel you say that I am crazy that it is all my fault things are different between us now you say that me wanting to spend time with you and fix things is dumb you say that there are more important things to worry about well I hate to say it but you are no where near perfect in the way you have treated me I've never spoken bad about you yet your so quick to judge and run your mouth about me to your ex wife of all people yet tell me your relationship with her is none of my concern but yours with me is all her buisness and okay for her. You say its okay for her to be with another guy but she cannot know your dating someone how is that fair to me I've always listened to how you feel about the things she put you through even though I could care less anything about her even though she

The Passing Of My Sister On 9/4/09
some of u know that my little sister niome was sick with cancer. i got to speak twice with her on the day she sadly passed away, on those two calls i told her that i loved her and it was time to let go and be free of cancer and pain. although she could not speak she could hear me and i know in my heart she was telling me she loved me. then at 11:13 am in australia i got a phone call i never wanted to get again, it was to tell me that my sister had passed away. i collapsed on the floor in a blubbering mess, finally i pulled myself together enough to ring my mom neeky and aunty to tell them the sad news it was the second worst day of my adult life, i will never forget it. the feeling i have had since then i cannot discribe and not sure how to. now i have to prepare myself for her viewing and funeral which is to be held on tuesday and wednesday. so i'd like to say that i'll miss her her greatly and so glad i was able to be her sister and friend even if it was only for 26 years. bu