DjSaintAnghellic's blog: "End of Days"

Im tired of this life that i live
everytime i wake up i want to put that gun
to my head. dreams of the people beatin me
hittin me, kickin my cold dead body around .
im so sick of the people tellin me that
im worthless, sayin how your heartless.
truth is its the people out there that made
 me,that formed, inside im just little boy that
wants to be heard. voices haunt me tellin
me your so fuckin worthless, go fuckin hang
yourself your doin the work of others. go jump
off of a bridge, its not like anybody will miss ya
sitting there lonely hear the people sayin im sorry
i turn and say its too late the bullet’s in
 my head, im dead...

Chours 3x
end of days i cry
end of days i die
end of days im gone
end of days no more
 

People look at me, hearing them laughin
about how im a scrub, laughin about the clothes
i wear and the things that i do. if they knew me
they would understand the things about me
understand what im about and things i do.
they would think im not worthless im someone
who needs the love of others,who needs the
help of others, hopin they would undestand
what i need. No they look at me and say look
at him he’s nobody important why don’t you
go jump off a cliff or something. I hear that
and the pain isnt worth it, I sit in the dark
hearing the echos of the laughter, of the
comments, of the threats I hear and I beg
to god to take this life back. I just want my
days to end. But then I turn and theres my
friends, scrubs just like me, they hear the
laughter they get up and they laugh back at
them flipin em off and tellin em fuck off. I wish
I could talk shit and do shit like others, but i
Cant im to worried what others think. Till I
Realized that they were laughin at themselves
So I turn and say funny bitch heres
My contribution to the laughing my two middles
Up and a fuck off.

Chours again 3x
End of days I cry
End of days I die
End of days im gone
End of days no more

here i sit at the end of my road wondering to god why.
why am i here? why am i the one that gets all the pain?
i sit and ask god why the fuck does he have to pick on me
asking him why does he make me fuckin suffer
am i a guy in the past life fuckin gettin what he deserves
or am i the one who is getting what everyone else fuckin deserves
death is lurking behind me again waiting for me to make my move
when will i make it today, tommrow, fuck that im makin it tonight
ill let death win this round for once no more dodging and evading
a full on attack, for once in my life i will meet death and i will let
him take this worthless life away
farewell to all my friends my family farewell to the ones
who care, death is my shadow now
i will see you all up in Shangri-la