Brat's blog: "I want to jump"

I just want him to come home...he's in FL for another week..he's got no phone right now, so he has to call me..and it kills me to wait..got to talk to him for a half hour tonight. But he's not ready, he doesn't want to be with me..maybe one day..but I don't know...only time will tell. UGH. Why is life like this?