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Masks I Wear
I'm not complicated...I'm complex...There are many facets to me...Some of which I do keep hidden...It depends on the mask I'm wearing at the time...We all have them...We all wear them... I've often been told I wear my emotions on my sleeve...Truly..it should be more like my face...When I was younger...My uncle was watching a movie with me....At one point he started to chuckle...The movie wasn't funny...So I asked him what was so funny...and his reply was..."You"....Me? I asked him...."Yes, You"....He said that he'd never seen someone with such emotion on their face....That when something was funny...a smile would be there....That if it was in anger....I would scowl....That if sad....tears would form....I didn't like it....I didn't want everyone to know what I was feeling all the time...So the masks appeared.... Growing up I'd realized that my masks were there whenever I needed them....Showing a sign of weakness is something that I have a fear of doing.....I mean come on...if I show t

Be You Medic Or Coroner
These words, centered here My emotional battlefield The blood, the wounds All mine Desire to examine? Be you medic or coroner? Wadding through my liquid pain Be you medic… Witness why I bleed Be you coroner… Critique how I bled

Irish Marine New Address
Hey guys and gals! Our favorite Irish Marine is doing well he has a new address and wants EVERYONE to write him!! Edward R. Dunphy # JE8056 P.O.Box 200 Camp Hill, PA 17001-0200 Fill his mailbox up with lots and lots of letters..show him we love and miss him!!!

About Me In Profile Please Read
I AM A HAPPILY MARRIED MOTHER OF ONE AND DO NOT ASK FOR MY IM ID OR PHONE NUMBER YOU WILL BE BLOCKED!IF YOU WANT TO SEE NSFW GO FIND A FING TREE BUT NEVER ASK,I AM SO SICK OF MEN THINKING THAT A WOMANS FEELING DONT MATTER AND THAT THEY CAN FLIRT SERIOUSLY AND HAVE NO TROUBLE THINK AGAIN IT WILL GET YOU BLOCKED.DO NOT ASK FOR A TOPLESS SALUTE YOU WILL NOT GET ONE.I AM DONE WITH ALL MEN.DO NOT FLIRT ME I DONT DO IT. IF YOU DO YOU WILL BE BLOCKED.I AM SORRY FOR THE TONE BUT IT HAS TO GET THROUGH SOME HOW I AM ALSO PUTTING THIS IN MY BLOG,JUST IN CASE YOU DONE READ MY MAIN PAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Caliente !
As of late...I've been listening to a lot of batchta , merengue and salsa.Brings back good memories.... Listening to Elvis Crespo, Eddie Santiago, etc.I work with a lot of Puerto Rican's and Dominicans (and throw some Puervians in the mix as well). Sufficed to say I've been eating a lot of Platinos, Bacalaítos ,Taquitos,croquetas, Papas rellenas and cuban sandwhiches ...the whole 9 ! :DI guess it all started when I went to hs in area that was heavily Puerto Rican,Dominican and Cuban and Mexican. Loved the music, the food and especially...the ladies...the rest is history. The point of this blog post? Nothing really...just getting some silly thoughts out.

Never Mess With The Mummers
I can't get over the amount of smugness and right to ownership that the clique of regular MUMMers display. I recently posted a MUMM as a lark and a cheap way of getting points and Fu bucks. I don't deny my motives I'm sure I'm not the first person to do it. Well anyhow, maybe the topic was just too plain dumb ( something I don't deny) and the comments I got definatly reflected that. I don't mind the funny shots taken at me, they make me laugh too, it's when the comments become personalized attacks , it gets down right boorish. The mistake I made was trying to defend myself from the attacks, This isn't tolorated by the MUMMers clique. What happened to me in this case was a relentless onslaught of crude character shots belittling me to no end. Hey it's alright, go ahead , I mean if people have issues and the only way to resolve them is to belittle other people, it speaks volumems for their insecurities and the dependance on other like minded people to justify them. The thing that reall

40 Mistakes Men Make While Having Sex
NOT KISSING FIRST Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you’re paying by the hour and trying to get your money’s worth by cutting out nonessentials. A proper passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay. BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR Admit it, some kid at school told you girls love this. Well, there’s a difference between being erotic and blowing as if you’re trying to extinguish the candles on your 50th birthday cake. That hurts. NOT SHAVING You often forget you have a porcupine strapped to your chin which you rake repeatedly across your partner’s face and thighs. When she turns her head from side to side, it’s not passion, it’s avoidance. SQUEEZING HER BREASTS Most men act like a housewife testing a melon for ripeness when they get their hand on a pair. Stroke, caress, and smooth them. BITING HER NIPPLES Why do men fasten onto a woman’s nipples, then clamp down like they’re try

Hey If You Know Me Im Picky On My Lounges
but lisen to this i found one i love the dj"s are the best the people and room is great and lots of fun and the drinks keep you hammered only problem is its relitivly new and need lots of new members to hop it up on the charts so anyone that looks me over should atleast give my newest lounge a run by if you dont like it I will personly apologise to anyone who dont Its called legend's saloon and i promise its the best ive found

50 Mistakes Women Make While Having Sex
1. Assuming he can get a raging hard on when it suits you. Contrary to popular belief, men can't just flip a switch and get it up because you decided to stop being a frigid bitch. Getting it hard is your job. I suggest you figure it out.2. Thinking that kissing needs to be this sweet romantic thing all the time. Sometimes pressing your lips against your partners mouth while you get off is the hot. It depends on the situation.3. Leaving him responsible for your orgasm. You know what gets you off. Tell him. If you don't, it's your own fault when he's snoozing and you're all wound up.4. Expecting him to cuddle. Men and women are wired differently. Sex makes most women want to talk and bond and all that shit. It makes men pass out. It's a biological thing. Stop fighting it, and stop holding it over his head, it's not his fault.5. Expecting him to fall asleep with you in his arms. That shit is uncomfortable after awhile. A little snuggling isn't unreasonable, but when it's time to actually

What Friends?
They act like they care, Giving advice when it’s needed. They want to help when you’re hurting inside, Especially when times get tough. Times got rough, They all took off. Showing how much they truly care. What friends I have; I made a wise decision Just to get stabbed in the back. I won’t let it bother me, I deserve better than that. You can come back around, Don’t expect a word out of me. I gave you a chance to be my friend, You’ve gone and messed it up again. I don’t want to hear a word, Not a single whimpering apology. So to you I have to say, “Peace and asscheeks bitches, Stay the fuck away”. To those who are stickin by my side, I thank you in so many ways.

Smallest Angel
You made us smile when we were sad. You made us laugh when we cried. You are the angel God blessed us with; Thank you for being so precious. It made us sad to see you go, But the memories will live on. Our hearts are with you always; You will never be forgotten. Your heart was made of gold, All you did was love. We still hear your laughter, We still hear your cries; All we do is smile. We will join you someday With arms wide open for your hugs; And smiles to go with. We love you baby boy always, Like you will always love us!

Love Of My Life
The love of my life, The one who should never feel pain. I would take away the pain, The frustration is unbearable. I know when you’re in pain, I feel it in my heart, I’m here through thick and thin, No matter the situation, I’ll lend you my ears. I will not judge or discriminate against your opinions on life, I will not ridicule when it’s the wrong time. I will always be there, I will always feel your pain. You know it’s meant to be when you feel each other’s agony. I feel yours when you’re down, I feel it in my heart. It hurts to know you’re in pain. Every second you hurt, I hurt. When you cry, I cry. When you smile, I smile. I love the way I feel everything you do, I know that’s why I love you.

Someday...
Some Day… Someday I will be happy with myself. Someday I will have pride in myself. Someday I will find that special someone to make me smile. Someday I will have the family I’ve always dreamt of. Someday… The things I desire I shall receive; May not come all at once, But gradually is fine for me. Many sacrifices I made to get what I want Many more I will go through. The broken hearts, The wounded minds; The games played destroyed me. The “I love you” that makes a person get butterflies inside Or the “I miss you” that gave you gentle chills down your spine. Even the kisses that sent shivers racing through your body. Someday I will have it again. Someday it will be a happy place for me. Someday when all the problems are gone, I will find that someone to make all this happen again. Until that day I will dream, And hope for a better day. Someday.. I will be in heaven again, Hoping for your arms around me; Wrapped so tight I can hardly breathe. My happiness will

Tired Of The Bullshit....
okay well my b-day was on the 19th and i had a party on the 24th. so everything is going great and im having fun but friends show up start talkin and drinking having a blast then lil by lil people start talkin shit that im all up on my friend C.... and that im no good for my dude. so then my dudes cuz starts running her mouth talkin bout ima bitch and she wants to hit me so bitch fukin do it like im not scared of u but she claims that she wont cuz im wit her cuzin anyways BITCHget a life noone cares bout u and ur fuked up hand loser ass bitch. ugh so mad.... then a fight breaks out wit this guy and his bro n law like omg get a life yall acting fukin dumb ass hell... so my homeboy C.... takes me home im frusterated and tired and tired of all the bullshit and then everyone starts telling my dude that im out fukin someone else like um no i wanted to go home the fuker didnt wanna take me so i left on my own then wit the fighting and his cuzin talkin shit i dnt have tym for that so i left

If You Are Reading This....
if you are reading this, whether we do or don't speak often, post a comment of your first memory of you and me. when you've finished, post this paragraph on your own status; you'll be surprised what people remember about you.

Tired
No sleep last night......very tired. Rather stay in bed than be at work....But need the moolah and better to be at work than with him at home..just a couple more weeks until Im on my own....hopefully less...sigh,,,coffee,,a cookie and banana..for breakfast..yum....

Want My Points
U WANT MY POINTS FOR 12 HOURS I WANT EITHER A AUTO OR BOMB OR 3 MILL FUBUX WILL DO THEM ON FRIDAY AND SATURDAYS ONLY TIME IM REALLY FREE AND MORE HHS GOING ON THOSE DAYS U NEED ANYMORE INFO PLEASE SEND ME A MESSAGE IN MY SHOUTBOX OR A PM WE CAN SET UP A DAY IM JUST ON HERE NOW TO HELP OTHERS LVL FOR RIGHT NOW HURRY UP IF U WANT IT ALSO MY NUM 1 WILL BE DOING THE SAME SO U WANT THEM HOLLA AT BOTH OF US

Me Without You Is Like...
Me without you is like...A pot head who's not highA plane that doesn't flyA suicidal that doesnt dieA fat man with no boobsA condom with no lubeA starcraft with no noobsA hooker with no luckA hoe that doesn't suckA slut that doesn't f***A shoe with no lacesA nerd without bracesAsentencewitoutspacesA gay guy without styleS**t without a pileA phone without a dialA desk without a seatSocks without feetA heart missing its beat

Dormant Thoughts Brought Summer
The warm air in my lungs the cold breathe on my lips it took me a long time but i finally admit that a love lost now beats a life lost later as i sit here waiting for my heart to play catch up and my mind to remain under control i patrol my emotions that get the notion that maybe this could continue with great resolve dont tell me its over because my heart says so just leave and let me deal in the only way i know was this pain more fierce or did the fire die did the needle pierce the depth of your soul or was your consious to numb to notice? as my lungs lay deflated, gasping for breath let not my heart give out let me tell you this i will not repeat the mistakes that left me gasping for less much less than the three words you used so careless did it hurt, did it even sting, i hope a part of you dies when i cross the threshold we once shared dont you dare look back my heart reminds me as a tear graces my cheek believe me i wont weaken i will not fall or fail, crack

Bounderies
The sea just floats,I touch the skyBlue is overwhelming, defyingI drown in the midst of time and placeNothing else mattersNothing is awake but meMy essence engulfs the siteI am alivePeople begin to fade awayThey dissolve into the sweet locks of yesterdayAnd I liveI smell the revitalizing air of todayThe air is kind, givingFor I am grateful of where I amLost in this maze of abandonmentLocked inside a box of limitless boundaries Poem By Tammy C.

My Son Gideon
These are the times, I wish I had comforting words to give my 18 year old son who has autisum. He trys so hard to fit in with the teenagers at his school but un fortunetly lacks in the social skills. He thinks by dressing like them it will make a difference. All he wants is a good friend to hang with and when someone does pay attention it never last for long and he feels he messed up and is down for weeks. I try hard to explain to him hes young yet and has all the time in the world, just have fun hang with his friends at school soon those days will be gone. I understand fully hes need to be accepted by others, and being in a class for develpmentaly chanlleged is hard, hes not as bad as some. He just needs that extra help in understanding. I wish I could do something that would make it easyier for hiim but I cant . All I can do is be there when he needs to talk.

Pain
Some people feel pain to know they are alive Some people feel pain to hide Some people feel pain so the can fell something Some people cause pain to make their pain less Some people cause pain because it is all they know Some people cause pain because they were told So with all this pain how do you find happiness and joy find the strengh to keep going. It is in the pain I find the will to over come all things that hurt me and smile while i am still in pain

Beautiful
You are beautiful because you have a heartAnd that is a beautiful thing You are beautiful because you have a brainAnd that is a beautiful thing You are beautiful because You give adviceAnd that is a beautiful thing You are beautiful because God made You that wayYou are beautiful because in my eyes THERE IS NO ONE MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN YOU You are beautiful because you have confidence You are beautiful because you have determination and wit You are beautiful because you have goals and you plan to reach them You are beautiful because you are always there to lend a helping hand You are beautiful because God made you beautiful Master Perverted One

New Beginnings
I am like turning a new leaf. I have finally truly gotten over over that bullshit that happened a few weeks ago. Anyway enuf of that! I have been chatting, well trying to at least, been so busy with work and shit that I am not getting online that much any more, well back to what I starting saying. I have been chatting with this sexy lady here and I am like her fu-slave, anyway, I was talking to my friend today at work and told him she had mentioned something like bending me over and use handcuffs on me and spank me hard for being naughty, when am I not naughty!!!! I didn't think anything else about it the rest of the day at work. When we got home, sam was there waiting for us and she stood there and told me to strip immediately, I was like yea whatever and she spanked my bottom hard, I yelped and was going to say something until I saw her look, she has this strict school teacher she uses on her kids and she was using it on me now! Anyway, I played along and stripped naked and

Avon Calling........lol
This is to anyone who likes Avon products we are running great deals for the upcoming holiday come check out the deals at www.youravon.com/jyoung8452 if interested you have to register as a new customer on the site if you need anything please click on the contact me button and I'll be sure to get back to you

If
If Love had roots, it would seep through the quietflesh of winter's earth, and drink from a streamof cold spring that escapedthe wrath of ice. Somewhere in the woods, after a long, tirednight, a fresh leaf emerges, brushed by the youthful greenthat with long stridesgallops over the gray landscape. When the flirtatiousdaughters of the dandelions, begin to spread their passionback and forthto wherever the air flows, Love heals its wound. Like a rebelliousgrizzly awakens, in a mountaincave sealed by glacier, it shakes off the snowon its back, and bloomswith a Roar! Poem by Tammy C.

Wtf
What the fuck is up with ppl not saying hi back or even answering a person i fucking hate that shit but everyone on the fucking internet does that just hi fuck you or something my fucking god i want to stab ppl like that how fucking hard is that we ppl raised to be rude mother fuckers i think fucking not! So that is a rant from me

Profile Pimping
****PLZ READ ALL THE BLOG IF YOU LIKE REPOST TO FRIENDS AND FAM THXS**** ALRIGHT I KNOW EVERYONE LOVES TO PIMP THERE PROFILE BUT SOME DONT KNOW HOW WELL JUST HIT ME UP AND IM SURE WE CAN MAKE SOMETHIN HAPPEN 1)YES I NEED YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS AND PASSWORD (change your password to a temporary password until im done then ya can change it back to original) AFTER IM FINISHED WITH YOUR PROFILE I WILL DELETE UR PASSWORD OFF MY COMP SO ITS A ONE TIME THING 2)ERASE YOUR SB IF YA WANT IF NOT I DONT CARE THATS YOUR PERSONAL THING NO I WONT LOOK AT IT ALL IM INTERESTED IN IS YOUR SETTINGS NO I WONT CHANGE NOTHIN OR MODIFY NOTHING IN YOUR PROFILE EXCEPT THE ABOUT ME PART 3)PAY BEFORE I PIMP IT SORRY IVE BEEN CHEATED TO MANY TIMES PAYING TO GET BOMBED FIRST THEN NOT GETTING BOMB SO FUBUCKS FIRST OK NOW THATS OUT OF THE WAY I CAN ADD A SKIN ADD MUSIC ADD SCROLLING TEXT I CAN EVER MAKE YA A PIC THAT WHEN CLICKED WILL TAKE THEM TO YOUR LOUNGE OK NOW PRICES 1)SKIN - 1000 FUBUCKS

Rage One And Two Part Three Coming Soon
HAVE YOU EVER HAD THAT FEELING THAT YOU WANTED TO RIP SOME BODY HEAD..I DO AND I WOULD LOVE TO DO BUT I HAVE TO GO ALL THE WAY TO MT.VERNON,IL TO DO ..SO I AM GOING TO WAIT AND SEE WHAT THE ASS HOLE OF A JERK OFF IS GOING TO NEXT TO ME OTHER THEN KEEPING MY SONS FROM ME NOT LETTING THEM TALK TO ME OR SEE ME..I AM HURTING SO DAMN BAD MY HEART IS TURNING BLACK AND COLD..I AM PUSHING PPL AWAY ..I AM IN THIS DARK PLACE I AM NOT ABOUT TO COME BACK OUT OF ......

Darkest Hour, No God
There's no salvation In a world where you worship proven fiction And no redemption for a life of servitude You bow and you heed Unhallowed command Your only care is the money we gain It's the same place A hollow escape A palace of concrete and glass Keep waiting, keep waiting For no god To erase you No god To make you fall to your knees There's blood on these pages And the war inside your head Is with yourself Through the ages, through every form of "Hell" It's the same face A hollow escape A palace of concrete and glass Keep waiting, keep waiting For no god To consume you No god To be your burden No god To use you No god There is only illusion The usurper of life It'll bleed every last drop And it'll suck all the breath out of you And leave you forsaken There's no god To release you There's no god To make you fall down to your knees There's no god To deceive you There's no god To There's no god There's no god There's no god There is only illusion

Useless.. Babbling
I write as though you'll read it.. I wish as though.. you'll somehow.. give me what I want.Yet, you hold back, like your carrying a secret.One I wish I could help you burden.. I look out the window at life's... bleak existence.It's somehow not so bright.. Not so warm.. as I remembered it.Yet, when peering into your eyes.Everything somehow is made right.Asking myself questions over and over...Can't you see, what I see?Can't you feel.... what I feel?Strangely with you there.. Everything is still left unanswered.. Haunting me...Wishing.. hoping... Wanting... needing.. Aren't those all just the same of the same?

Russell 1
I am trapped in a cage of razor & fence, Justify my actions on the art of self defence, Protect my emotions from morbid mutilation, Battling myself like a rebelion to a nation, Defeating my enemies with needles & smoke, While in the mirror it's my throat those things choke, Thought it my destany to live by the game, But there living or dieing is one & the same, A twin sided coin no win, no loose, Just ramblings of fear that destroy & confuse, Thought myself smart, had it all figured out, Dreams of being top dog a god with out doubt, Unlimited youth & energy year after year, It was easy to see as long as I stayed out of the mirror, For all my cons & deciet all I fool is myself, Hiding behind power, control, & material wealth, I turn hallow inside & say fuck all the rest, Spend year apon year convincing myself I knew what's best, Many people tell me tell me to open my eyes, I view them as fakes, enemies, & spies, It is truely me against the world, Those who truely l

You've Got A Way
I know... I know Shania Twain... but this is a good love song You've got a way with meSomehow you got me to believeIn everything that I could beI've gotta say--you really got a wayYou've got a way it seemsYou gave me faith to find my dreamsYou'll never know just what that meansCan't you see... you got a way with meIt's in the way you want meIt's in the way you hold meThe way you show me just what love's made ofIt's in the way we make loveYou've got a way with wordsYou get me smiling even when it hurtsThere's no way to measure what your love is worthI can't believe the way you get through to meIt's in the way you want meIt's in the way you hold meThe way you show me just what love's made ofIt's in the way we make loveOh, how I adore youLike no one before youI love you just the way you areIt's in the way you want meIt's in the way you hold meThe way you show me just what love's made ofIt's in the way we make loveIt's just the way you are

Dunno Dunno
Dunno what to really write about... Right now I am feeling down and I dunno why. This weekend is suppose to be tons of fun. Having a Halloween party here at the house tomorrow, I am gonna be in scrubs and some weird ass wig, elton john glasses and have my complete face painted. My daughter is coming as well as a friend of mine and my daughters boyfriend, should be fun. The Saturday I am staying the night at my daughters, and at midnight we are going to Rocky Horror Picture Show... *YIKES* cuz I am a virgin to the show and it will be my 1st time attending with audience participation. Tonight I had to do a thank a thon type of thing for a few hours, calling and thanking the donors that helped with the fundraiser for the program I am in. That was kind of anxiety, 1st thought it was gonna be on tv cuz of where we were going, thank god it wasnt. Then I had everyone telling me what a great phone voice I had... yadda yadda Yes I have done plenty of customer service, BUT I had alot of anxiety

Music
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33
33 lbs gone total now...My goal is to go another 20 more lbs gone. After I move out in a couple weeks...Ill be hiting the gym to do more cardio again. Why is it that when I start to lose weight, people say I look so much better and I get noticed more?

Crap
It was an absolutely horrible day. Did it really get any better? No.I went to this supposed "conference" this morning. UGh. More like sitting through a class at school but more boring. The presenters were completely rude and lacking in any useful information. When I said rude.. I mean to each other also. Sadly I felt completely out of place being I was there as a student and didn't have some community agency initials next to my name. Every time a question was asked and I answered, I was completely ignored. How's that for a daily boost? *rolls eyes* Worst waste of money I've ever spent.. I'm calling the supervisor in the morning.Then Hope and I get to school. HAH! I'm always expected to take notes for all my "friends" when they aren't there, but do you think they could return the same favor? Well hell no because none of them pay attention.Screw it. The rest isn't worth typing out. I've just realized what I'm good for and I don't appreciate it. I think.. I made a stupid mistake that is g

Z
We'll start with C as in Cell Phone. I had to have one on me when I traveled due to the fact that Shirley was confined against her will in a Institution. Medicare and Tricare apparently paid until she dropped when it came to these institution. Bad though when Medicare is calling me up to see how a State Judge fits into all this. It was named Hampton Behvioral Health who I gave the news that there are limits by law on how long they pay. They dumped Shirley so quick. It is medicine and it's desire to make more money that old Phenothiazine class of antipsychotics were dropped starting with Haldol and when they got away with it the rest followed. Apparently they are back because these new meds have enourmous side effects just like the old and even worst. They don't work as well or cause other life threatning conditions. Medicine like the corner Pharmacy has got you coming in and going out. Why do they sell cigarettes in a Pharmacy. I guess every penny counts or in this case nail to your co

Wierd Dream
i had this dream where i was in some kind of group of friends i was wandering around with a couple of guys*not like that* in my dream i mustve known them awhile i was kinda like the lil sister or something, we were running from some guy that wanted to kill us and as we ran down this dock looking thing i saw a ship leaving so we ran after the ship and jumped onto it just in time to be too far for the guy chasing us to follow...i thought we were safe til some crazy lady that mustve owned the boat showed up and told me she had a deal for me..she sat a girl down at the table on the deck where we were all sitting and handed me a gun..she told me if i shot the girl in the arm we could stay on the ship but if i didnt she was going to throw us off into the water i assume...so i shot her in the arm after hesitating for a few and i actually thought of a spot to do it where it wouldnt be as bad she looked dissapointed at me like she knew what i did but allowed us to stay on the ship...then we doc

Knock Knock, Who's There?
So, it's come to my attention that I'm a complete brain dead zombie (well, not really, just sounds better that way). Is this a bad or a good thing? On the good side, it's hard to be stressed when your basically devoid of thought. Along with the fact that I have to be better at thinking on the spot. On the bad side, well, as most of you know, I'm not the most talkative chap. Along with the fact that thinking on the spot doesn't always turn out too well... But I'm still undecided really, not that I'll be changing any time soon, but you know, is good to think these things once in a while, get that bain alive for a couple of minutes.

Abuse Of Power
I quit my job today. Yesterday was the last straw with my boss who is a married guy who can't keep his hands off women who work for him. I threatened to report him but he said it would be my word against his and no one would believe me. I kind of wish now I would have set him up and agreed to meet him at the super 8 and then call his wife to show up and bust his nasty creepy ass. :(

Lily Allen Says It Best
my friend benji had me listen to this song in his car yesterday, and now i'm smitten with it. i blogged it for the enjoyment of my friends. hope you giggle, like i did. if not.. too bad for you :)

Time Clean List Again
TIME CLEAN MY FRIENDS LIST AGAIN,UNLESS UR ON MY TOP 25 FAMILY AND FRIENDS LIST THEN LET ME KNOW U WANT STAY OR GO AND U ONE MY T0P 25 FAM LIST U PROBLEY ON THE FRIENDS TO SO UR ON ONE THOSE 2 UR SAFE IF NOT LET ME KNOW BYE NOV 10 OR UR HISTORY. LOVE ALL RAIN

Very Important!!
Since I am a total idiot I have lost all the numbers that were on my old cell.I got my replacement cell today.Please text me with your name,so I can save your number again. My back is about the same,I go to court about it to get new docs next months.Not going to hold my breath on that one. I am still rarely poking my head in this site right now.The fun isn't here for me anymore. Miss tons of you.Please text me the numbers or send them to me via private message on facebook or I will check my messages on here for them. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- update 11/20/09 they posponed my courtdate AGAIN,at least they're sending me to another surgeon for an evaluation.Still just a waiting game. hugsnstuffs Kit

Hiding In The Shadows
She stands there upon the rock with her long hair blowing in the wind. The sun glistens upon her breast's drying the beaded pool of sweat that ran down below her. In her hand she holds a piece of meat and holds it over a pack of wolves teasing and commanding them. They whimper and cower at every move she makes not taking an eye off her and the meat. I look at this scene and think to myself I am not that hungry. I turn and walk away.

Oh Who Wants To Own There Very Own Bubzy?
So the time has come for me to auction myself off. This auction will end when I am satisfied with the bid. Here are my offers:1)300 11's2)3 Salutes3)3 Pimp outs4)Their name added to mineBids $50 and over, all of the above plus1) Added to family2) Top friend for a month3) Yahoo screenname givenBids $100 and over, all of above plus1)4 more pimp outs2) 15 minute SFW cam time on yahoo3) will altruize you ( you get my points for 12 hours) while I run autos and MAYBE a bomb.More to be discussed depending on bid.

Tantic, Down And Out
.... I love this tune coming up for air s o I can check myslef again and I stand proven to the man but sheltered confidence we tend to shelf and unexpected hunger drives me just shut up and stand beside me I dont need your understanding I don't need to change a damn thing though I'm used to have you here it doesn't change the (one) I was when you found me and there was no one else around me just turn the page and watch me grow there's so many things that you don't know about my soul live and die but this will not get old just when you think that you're down and out don't preconceive what I'm all about look for a reason that you have to start acting like a friend but you are not and when you think that we played it out we come from the bottom and knock it out look for a reason that you have to start acting like the friend that you are not nothing in between to fall through I'm being myself who are you? you stand above and look down you're just

Prologue:
It had been almost a month since Mike told me never to call him again. I have cried myself to sleep ever since then. I awoke with a call from Teresa asking me to come over and drive her to the dollar store when I got a chance. “I’ll be right over”, I told her. I got up, took a hot shower, straightened my hair and headed to my room to get dressed. I thought to myself, “Okay, if I do see him, I want to look cute. Wait, he doesn’t want to see me, so it doesn’t matter. No, I will look cute.” I sat there for a good ten minutes arguing with myself on what I should wear. I finally decided on short jean shorts, a black tank top, and tennis shoes. I quickly ran down stairs and got into my car and headed to Sarasota. After fifteen minutes of driving I pulled up to Teresa’s door and honked. After a moment or two I saw Teresa walk out and get into my car. “Its been awhile since I have seen you last”, Teresa told me. “Yeah,

Christmas Cards
For those who know JAK then you know he sends out Christmas Cards the old fashion way via snail mail. If you are interested in getting a card from JAK then you need to send your information to him in a private message (name, home address, screen name, and whether or not its just you or you have family). The plan is to have them in the mail the week before Thanksgiving to give the lazy bastards who work at the local post office plenty of time to make sure your card is delivered before Christmas (last few years JAK has heard cards didnt get to them in time). Now remember this is being done the old fashion way with an actual card, not an email version. Once the cards get mailed out then thats it. If you don't get your info to me in time then you'll have to wait till next year.

Swim Or Drown.
When I was in college, I planned a career involving the prosecution of criminals. So, my main focus was "proving" guilt. I learned to research, to document, to present, all in a manner that was to prove guilt. So, when I got out of college and had to go into the defense end of legal, what did I do? I set out to prove innocence. If you prove someone did it, then wouldn't you need to prove they did not do it? I was gifted a position with a seasoned criminal defense attorney that was also a former Marine. His cases ranged from running a stop sign to high profile murder. And damn, he was GOOD. As a learning experience, he would send his noobs to speak in a simple case before the judge. My simple case was a speeding ticket. And I was not happy to be defending someone since my training was in research. I discussed this with my new boss, and he said not to worry, he would be there with me for the entire thing. I asked him what should I do if I thought I was drowning, and he told me just l

Faithless Knight
I stand upon a lonely hill my sword and shield in place my black stallion nearby I'm a dark knight of unknown grace I am faithless... Black is my armor, black is my soul gray the color of my stance, red is the passion that burns within I'm a Knight worth a second look I am faithless... I gaze down upon a field of clashing swords, day and night, where lonely hearts long for a lover to have and hold till daylight I am faithless... I am more than most realize only a few know the real me, even as I mount my horse and charge the fields with courage. I am faithless My sword is razor sharp my shield, I hold fast lying dead around me are dragons, strange beasts that couldn't last I am faithless... I speak in riddles, a maze to the wise only they will see, far more than a dark knight watching as I slay the snarling dogs I am faithess... Within my blackened heart of courage,Lies a wound that does not heal,There where hope would dwell,Is a fountain that fills thisknight's

Tell Me
Bodhrán Amaze me with your voice. Love me with your verbs.  Explain to me, how I make your world blur.  Kaleidoscopic flashes, as I worship your purr.  How I make your insides warm, and colors merge.  Amaze you with the way I caress you, and make the pleasure surge.  You salivate, as you wrap warm wood and smile wit' the knowledge that it's all good.  It's no small feat for me to worship all of you; but I embrace it and savor you, like a holy jewel.  I understand your desire, I'm a part of you.  We grind in tandem, when I hesitate you move...I ride with you, and it's an animal groove.My fingers caress your lips, as I split you in two.  I won't stop, until you have an orgasm or two.  Explain to me your pleasure, and tell me truth.  Amaze me with your song, there's no words, but it's proof. That life is delicious, it's like Heaven in you.ANT ᵀᴴᴱ ЯANT Sitting face to face in this open space, no

Yes Im A Fu Idiot
just so you know i did not intentionaly get rid of all my bling....someone whos name i wont say...(shue)....sent some yankees bling to my page...well i hate the yankees almost as much as i hate child molesters...and so in a panic to get that crap off my page ...i deleted everything

Gas Face (e1t1)
These cats are wack, just jump off my nutsack, suckas like that suffer from character cataracts, Sycophantic guys, with those melodramatic lies, hate'n on his fellow guys,creaming their pants for sum sleep deprived, pretty miss, who gifts romantic eyes,whoa man, this bitch tries... way too fucking hard, and he'll say anything to be a star,creep into your convo with no regard, like a retard, talkin like BKPS ain't avant garde,so I had to pull on his card, leave his ego scarred, publicly feather and tared, up in Fubar,for actin out of place, hate'n on a brotha that has eclectic taste. he gets the gas face...

Who Knows
"WHO KNOWS" XMAS DAYIS A DAY AWAY AND I'M ALL ALONE WE HAD A FIGHTAND YOU MISSED YOUR FLIGHTYOU WON'T BE COMING HOME 2 STOCKINGS HUNG ABOVE OUR FIREPLACETHE FLAMES BELOW LIGHT THE TEARS ON MY FACE MAYBE I'LL TAKE A LONG WALK ON THE BEACHLIGHT UP YOUR FAVORITE PALM TREE AND LEAVE YOUR PRESENT THERE TOOWHO KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRINGBABY,I HOPE IT'S YOU. SO NEAR YET SO FARI WANNA BE WHERE YOU ARE BUT I CAN'T GET TO YOU MILES AWAYI'M NOT JUST LOSING MY FAITHI FEAR I'M LOSING YOU THE WREATH IS HANGING ON THE FRONT DOORBUT I CAN'T GET MY HEART OFFA THE FLOOR MAYBE I'LL TAKE A LONG WALK ON THE BEACHLIGHT UP YOUR FAVORITE PALM TREE AND LEAVE YOUR PRESENT THERE TOOWHO KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRINGBABY,I HOPE IT'S YOU.BUT I KNOW,THERE WILL BE NO SNOWON A XMAS OF BLUEAND WHO KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRINGBABY,I HOPE IT'S YOU. 2009 jewel in the rough tunes/GANG BANG BOOM MUSIC

Bumpin Knuckles.
Save all that pretense, cos we don't need it,My BK gents, will never be defeated,Live-wires, hell-bent and heated,I'm the type that vents when I get weeded,We hurt your feelins, we're so fuckin conceited, We ain't your friends, so then you gets fuckin deleted,Talk shit, get sent, to the hosp to get treated,Catch a dent to your snot box, if ya don't remain seated,Word to my friends, and the rest can get the penis.I'm sugar-free pimpin, you hoes are diabetes. Post this as a bulletin, so you bitches see this.

Bitter
Mother, Mother Can You Hear Me, I Keep Trying Just To Find Me All I Know Now, All You Show Me, Endless Questions, Hopeless Ending This Bitter Pill Is Pushing Me Away And Now I Feel Like There's Nothing Left To Say And I Pretend To Look The Other Way But In The End Will I Be Okay Father, Father Will You Be There As I Cry Out Silent Again, Turning Colder, Frozen Deeper, Numb To This Dream Sleeping Within Before I Face Another Day, Won't You Let Me Stay Asleep, Lost Among The Dreams That Always Comfort Me And Before I Find My Feet, Won't You Show Me What I Need, What I Need To Walk Again

I Miss Being In Love...
I miss being in Love… I miss how it feels warm and peaceful insideI miss those calls just to say he’s thinking of you I miss being in Love… I miss embracing him while laying by his sideI miss that feeling of intimacy when you know it’s so true I miss being in Love… I miss coming home to his arms open wideI miss dancing together to sweet loves melodies when your in the mood I miss being in Love… I miss those long walks side by side where our hands meet and held so tight I miss when he makes me smile when I was feeling so blue I miss being in Love… I miss saying I'm sorry when it was my fault because

Sins Of A Sinner And The Wins Of A Winner
->Kara: wow indeed...Kara: wow LOL->Kara: which sin was this?->Kara: 2 thousand years ago?Kara: no im not your just letting satan win->Kara: tell me this, Jesus... he died for YOUR sins?->Kara: you are brainwashed hahaKara: read the book 10 mins in hell and heaven God is the truth when you lose everything u will see->Kara: Your only hope is to pull wisdom from your belief... but unfortunately I think that ship has sailed.->Kara: the story of Jesus has been recycled countless of times. prior to nearly 2010 years ago->Kara: Your god is a story told to children to keep them content about the inevitable.->Kara: Faith is your crutch not your savior.Kara: God is the truth, I feel bad for your soul when it goes to hell->Kara: children of god... sheesh brainwashed monkey->Kara: listen closely okay? your god is make believe.Kara: wow u shouldnt say bad things to Children of god big mistake u will see->Kara: people in glass-houses shouldn't throw stones->Kara: isn't that just perfect? the mocker

Re Rated
Why in the fuck would I give a shit if you re rated me? If you felt compelled to do so, just do it and be on your way. No need to tell me that you re rated me. I am not going to feel obligated to reciprocate. If you are on my friends list and do this, then you are a fucking retard.

To All Of You Who Read These
if any of you get a note about me from someone you dont know it's probably my stalker who swears i still belong to her and she had driven a few pretty good friends away from me, i find it sad and phsycho that someone could create a fake profile to try to ward everyone awy from me just because they think that if they chase everyone awy that i would even think for a split second that they were the only choice i had left, for the love of god give up and grow up, for the frustration you have caused, and a few freinds i have lost because of your demented actions, let me just say if you were the last woman on earth and i was horny i would jack off !! and the friends you thought you chased away from me, still talk to me on my messenger , so it's your loss you have gained nothing but showing other people on this site how much you truly need the help of a shrink!

Just To Make This Clear.
I'm not 'looking for fun', i'm not gonna get on cam with you, I'm not some net-slut. Just because i have nsfw pics doesn't mean i'm easy. most of them are there for a reason- showing off why i hate me body/marking my pregnancy. the rest are old pics that i actually find pretty. I have a boyfriend, he is the father of my child and I love him very much, so please treat me with respect.

Would Appear
It would appear from talking wiith Jo-Ann and the surgeon that they want me to rush to the ER or dial 911. When the condition gets bad enough, apparently, I will do this? They don't know how much pain I can surpress. Diaassociate the personality and I can do thing's that are not possible with me. Imagine that. Norio

10 Years
10 years have passed and it still hurts as bad as the first. time is supposed to heal but it seems that things have gotten worse as time passes. i often wonder how different things would be if you were still here. where would i be? would you still act the same? would we be closer? and WHY? still goes through my head.. i guess it doesnt matter why.. I just miss you..always will

Never Never Ever Will.
I can't take it anymore.I don't ask for much and all I do is help.For those of you that want to see nsfw pics,forget it.I won't degrade myself for a bling or a bomb or anything else.If that what it takes then I don't need you as a friend,so get off my list.I have more respect for myself.If you don't like it,then kiss my a$$ and get off my list.

Gigantic, Unintelligible, Unaffordable, Over-regulatory Federal Legislation
After 13 days of secret, closed-door negotiations on health carelegislation, Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid (D-NV) announced Mondaythat he had reached an agreement with Senators Chris Dodd (D-MT)and Max Baucus (D-CT), and three top administrationofficials. Unfortunately, Senator Reid did not tell the Americanpeople much else.Even many lawmakers remain in the dark regarding the outcome of this"secret deal that Senator Reid wants to get passed and signed into law'this year,'" writes Heritage Senate Relations expert Brian Darling.Mitch McConnell, the Senate minority leader, summed it up: "It will bea thousand-page, trillion-dollar bill that raises premiums, raisestaxes and slashes Medicare for our seniors to create new governmentspending programs. That's not reform."Even as some of the final details of the bill do go public, it islikely that lawmakers won't know in advance entirely what it is theyare voting on. This is because the legislation the Senate FinanceCommittee "agreed" to --

Can You?
So my day started off well,then was icky,followed by blah and im bet'n will end with a %*#!!!!! I noticed a lot of people were feeling the same way,walking around like mindless zombies dwelling on how shitty ones day was goin. Well Im not gonna take it any more! I think I am gonna start a blog theme,neh a blog 1up if you will. Starting today I would love for people too post in here 5 positive things that happend to them on said day,Imean the day runs for 24 hours..ATLEAST 5 things being as simple as your fave jam/jelly being on sale at the grocer..or your pup goin a WHOLE day without being on your floor. hopefully this will turn out rather well, and if not for others... I know it will make me smile atleast. So here we go!!! 1.it was sunny today! hardly ever happens in the land on the freezing,wet,foggy world that is mine. 2.my pup started giving my kiddos kisses as the went on too school. I think its cute. 3.finally got around too sporting some sparkly pink nail polish (y)

Consider This!
This is mainly for sports fans and major league baseball fans in particular. Think about the sport of baseball, it's long and storied history. In thinking about that I would ask you, what team, out of all of the teams in either the American or National Leagues has been, by virtue of it's history, been awarded legendary status? What team has the most World Series Championships (26 in all) and the most players enshrined in the hallowed halls of the Hall of Fame in Cooperstown, NY? What team is, by far, the one most people, even those with no interest in the sport, connect with it? And which team's home stadium is considered to be the game's most important and enduring shrine? Now I'll grant that some hardheads would instantly say Wrigley in Chicago or Fenway in Boston but, really now. Stack up all of the historical evidence and include all of the winning they have done and there really is only one answer. The New York Yankees are baseball's premier team, folks, like it or not. Now consi

Sarah Remembers Mamaw Lives Far, Far Away On A Hill
Martha found out last night that she was having an extra day counted on her paycheck than she had expected, so after she dropped Mary off at work this morning (I would have done that, but I have been sleeping late the last few days and didn’t get up until eight-thirty) she stopped at McDonald’s and picked up breakfast for me, Sarah, Jeffrey, and herself! Sarah and Jeffrey split a big breakfast between them (and still didn’t eat it all, it’s my lunch at work because I hate to waste food), I had a big breakfast with coffee and Martha enjoyed a breakfast bagel with a caramel cappuccino. And she complains about my caffeine “fix”; the irony in that is that Fix is my wife’s maiden name. After breakfast, I called my mom in Kentucky whom I hadn’t talked to since Sunday when she was still in the hospital to receive some blood and treatment for pneumonia. When I was in the living room speaking to Mom with the others in the room, I mentioned wha

Please Some One Help Me Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have so many questions on how this works like how do u get shit faced and how do u make private photo albums and view other peoples private photos or can you do that? if u could please help me out

Kitten Revival
A mother looked out a window and saw Johnny playing church with their three kittens. He had them lined up and was preaching to them. The mother turned around to do some work. A while later she heard meowing and scratching on the door. She went to the window and saw Johnny baptizing the kittens. She opened the window and said, "Johnny, stop that! You'll drown those kittens." Johnny looked at her and said with much conviction in his voice: "They should had thought of that before they joined my church."

My First Auction Since My Return To Fubar
http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=429545&albumid=1890344&i=4220577138&idx=56 Of course, it had to be Twaune's auction!! I love that guy, he always rocks the BEST auctions.. come bid on a genuine kind of gal & also a mommy again :D I deserve some spoiling after what I went threw, lol... Im a true friend.

Two Of My Poems
Walking alone, no lights in sight to guide my wayI stumble around life scared, no one there keep me goingDay to day I walk in the darkNight after night I lay alone in the shadow of my lifeDreams of a happy life succumbs to the waking reality I am alone, I am afraid, I'm going day after day always the same wayI gave my love to the one that wouldn't give it back I keep it hidden inside, the wounds in my heart that keep my face in the dirtI feel your hand on this wounded heart of mine, will you heal me or be the one to kill me?With you in my mind, my reality seems more like a wonderful dreamWhen I look into your eyes so far away, I see the heaven that will save me

Outkast - Love Hater
Everybody needs a glass of water today To chase the hate away You know you've got company comin over So you scrub extra-hard And everybody needs somebody to love Before its too late Its too laaaaaaateee oh Dont nobody wanna grow old alone! Everybody needs someone to rub their shoulders And scratch their dandruff And everybody need to quit actin hard and shit Before you get your ass whooped (I'll slap the fuck out ya!) And everybody needs somebody to love Before its too late Its too late Love-hater Love-hater Hater of love [repeat 2X] Love-hater Love-hater [whispered] Everybody needs someone to love [repeat 2X]

Why Do I Always Mess Up
i dont know if im doomed or just have really bad karma but all i do is mess things up i find a great chic mess it up im tired of it i thought i was ready to move on and acctually give someone a damn shot but its just ugh im sick of this shit im sick of having a great friendship going with lots and lots of possiblities then boom someone else comes in the picture and im just thrown to the wayside it fucking sucks and im really kinda done with it

This Is One Theory Of Creation
My Great Grandpa V used to take me by the hand when I was just a very little girl and walk me towards the lake he lived on, right next to my Grandpa. He would tell me a story about a big whopper of a fish - it was almost as big as the whole lake! And I believed him! Now I take my little granddaughter by the hand and lead her through the Enchanted Woods that I forged from the forest behind my home, and I tell her amazing things about a wood elf, and fairies that dance around the toadstool ring, and the colorful swirling colored bench where rainbows come from, and the Dragon Lair where a very friendly dragon lives and always calls out - HEY LADY!!! (at least that is what I hear when I walk passed it.) There is a rest stop where the grass is as soft as a bed, then a little further on there is a bouncy tree bent to the ground that she can play on. My grandpa used to tell me that I must have found another soft centered nail when the hammer I was using to pound nails into a piece of woo

10/23 Holidays And Observances
Holidays and observances Chulalongkorn Memorial Day in Thailand Day of the Revolution in Republic of Macedonia Mole Day National Day (revolution of 1956 and the proclamation of the Republic of Hungary in 1989) in Hungary R.C. Saints – Saint Giovanni da Capistrano; Anicius Manlius Severinus Boethius; Saint Anthony Mary Claret; Saint Ignatius of Constantinople Astrology: First day of sun sign Scorpio in Western tropical astrology. French Republican Calendar – Céleri (Celery) Day, second day in the Month of Brumaire

10/23 Deaths
Deaths 42 BC – Marcus Junius Brutus, Roman senator (b. 85 BC) 525 (probable date) – Anicius Manlius Severinus Boethius, Christian philosopher (b. 480) 930 – Daigo, Emperor of Japan (b. 885) 1456 – Giovanni da Capistrano, Italian saint (b. 1386) 1550 – Tiedemann Giese, Polish Catholic bishop (b. 1480) 1581 – Michael Neander, German mathematician and astronomer (b. 1529) 1616 – Leonhard Hutter, German theologian (b. 1563) 1688 – Charles du Fresne, sieur du Cange, French philologist (b. 1610) 1730 – Anne Oldfield, English actress (b. 1683) 1764 – Emmanuel-Auguste de Cahideuc, Comte Dubois de la Motte, French naval officer (b. 1683)

10/23 Births
Births 1503 – Isabella of Portugal, queen of Spain and empress of Germany (d. 1539) 1516 – Charlotte de Valois, princess of France (d. 1524) 1634 – Hedvig Eleonora of Holstein-Gottorp, Queen of Sweden (d. 1715) 1698 – Ange-Jacques Gabriel, French architect (d. 1782) 1705 – Maximilian Ulysses Count Browne, Austrian field marshal (d. 1757) 1715 – Peter II of Russia (d. 1730) 1762 – Samuel Morey, American inventor (d. 1843) 1766 – Emmanuel, marquis de Grouchy, French marshal (d. 1847) 1771 – Jean-Andoche Junot, French general (d. 1813) 1790 – Chauncey Allen Goodrich, American clergyman (d. 1860) 1796 –

10/23 Events
Events 42 BC – Roman Republican civil wars: Second Battle of Philippi – Mark Antony and Octavian decisively defeat Brutus's army. Brutus commits suicide. 425 – Valentinian III is elevated as Roman Emperor, at the age of 6. 502 – The Synodus Palmaris, called by Gothic king Theodoric the Great, discharges Pope Symmachus of all charges, thus ending the schism of Antipope Laurentius. 1086 – At the Battle of az-Zallaqah, the army of Yusuf ibn Tashfin defeats the forces of Castilian King Alfonso VI. 1157 – The Battle of Grathe Heath ends the civil war in Denmark. King

Fee For Making Skinz
Would you like to have a skin made? I have been making custom skins for a while now and I do charge to make the skins. They might not be the best but it still takes time to make them. I've change my fee for making skins if you are interested fee is as follows. PAYMENT FIRST, ONCE I AGREE TO DO IT ***NO PAYMENT = NO SKIN*** 1 skin = Small Bling pack or 2 mill Fu-bucks 2 skins = 10 credit bling 3 or more = Auto 11 or Cherry Bomb If interested, send me a PM titled "Custom Skin" *NOTE* It may take 1 day or it may take a few days. I'll also need to test them to make sure it works. Here are a few sample of headers I've done!!!

Update 10-28-09
Well I was in that room again and did not want to be when we got a phone call........ Saying MY Aunt Donna has 6 months or less to live :(..... She has fought all she could but with the spine cancer they just cant do anymore so they are gonna make her as comfortable as they can......... I had the frickin pleasure of calling my brother Bryan..... I told him and was crying..... It sucked A$$....... I just dont see why there has to be fricken cancer in this world...... Hugs Kristina I need all the prayers and warm thoughts and HUGS to make it thru this plz and thank you........

Writing
It's been a long day, like most days are. A lot has been happening and I have much food for thought and material I could write about. Thus, I'm besieged by doubt; Whether I have something concrete rather than vague to write about. Wether it will again sound pretentious and patronizing as my writing tends to, in my mind. If ,in the end, the result has any value. I assume all aspiring writers are harangued by their own little potpourri of fears and doubts. I should set a day per week to write, whether I have something ready or not, I guess. I have all kinds of ideas; from erotic fiction of which I have had a couple of scenarios I'd like to write down, to abstract ideas, to fantasy and other types of fiction. Insights, conflicts and conclusions. Deductions and experiances. There is much I'd like staring back at me. In the end to be able to take all those pieces and attampt to make a whole. To eke out form and function that reflects the content. To find the chord that

Don't Look Up!
I can't look up anymore....cuz when I do, all I see are vultures.....Circling overhead, watching, waiting......Waiting for me to show the slightest sign of weakness. Waiting to swoop down and pick at my flesh, waiting to rip muscle and sinew from my bones...piece by piece, killing me slowly, torturing me....Ok, really, there ARE NO vultures hovering about my head...I was actually refering to men. Truly, it seems like every time I walk out the door, there is a new one there waiting, watching.....And if I show the slightest indication of weakness, ie. emotion, tenderness, caring, etc....they fuckn divebomb me and attempt to attach themselves to me like blood-sucking leeches. WTF? Do I have a sign that says "Losers Apply Here"? From now on, I'm going to go about things a little differently. Not gonna be nice, hell no. Next time a man approaches me and asks me out, my FIRST question is going to be "Are you gainfully employed?" If I recieve a positive response, my next question will

The Music Of Childhood - Made By Grown Ups
Lyrics by Korn - SHOOTS AND LADDERS; added cognitions by me: Ring around the rosies (my Rosy was an 80+ woman who took a shine to my 12 year old self and gave me the gift of her treasured songs.) Pocket full of poesies Ashes, ashes, we all fall down Ring around the rosies Pocket full of poesies Ashes, ashes, we all fall down (the red rose of memory needs to be given to all by those who have experienced war, poverty, torture, racism, ageism, sexism - all the schism isms - so we do not all fall down in ashes by reinventing the wheel of times gone by.) Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head Into my childhood they're spoon fed Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real Look at the pages that cause all this evil One, two, buckle my shoe Three, four, shut the door Five, six, pick up sticks Seven, eight, lay them straight London bridge's falling down, falling down, falling down London bridge's falling down, my fair lady Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head Into my

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
soft passionate kisses on your neck sends little shivers down your body your legs slightly quiver slowly i kiss my way down you back. my hands all over your body. now im down on my knees i slowly rub the backs of your legs. my fingers rub up along your inner thighs. reaching your soft milky ass a finger slips between your cheeks as i grab a handfull in each hand squeezing them apart my tongue licks a trail up the back of your leg. instictively you lean forward hands on the wall and you spread your legs. hungrily my lips my tongue and my fingers slip between your fantastic cheeks spreading them to reveal my ultimate goal. slowly my tongue does figure eights around your ass and hot wet pinkness as i hear you moan i take my cue and bury my face in your ass. my tongue fat and stuck out as far as it can go slips in your pussy as you grind against my face bending over a little more reaching down you find my hard throbbing cock and put it between your legs. your clit hard against m

Life Is Life Deal With It !
Life sometimes shows you a glimps into your past the things you always wanted your dreams ! One day you a young man or women and before you know it half your life is over! What became of your dreams did you fullfill what you planned to be? Sometimes in the coarse of life we make decisions that alter our lives forever the things we had once thought to be in our reach disappear. So what can we do about it ? I don't think anything in the past can be changed. The friends we chose the people we dated even those that we loved and married only to find that is was a horrible mistake. When I was a child and like in any school the teacher ask's "WHAT DO YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP" did any of us say I wanna be a drug addict or part of a gang go to prison be a menace to the world? I know I did't but I ended up doing just that. Am I proud of the things I have done NO can I change them NO am I different now then I was then YES ! I changed those things that destroyed me. I am a much bette

Passion - Nsfw Erotica
The warm light streamed down around her as the emerald blades tickled at her bare feet. She glanced about the quiet meadow and giggled, the sound of brush being disturbed behind her set legs in motion. She ran forward, her path weaving through the grass as it played against her bare thighs and the soft autumn breeze caressed her supple form. She had long since discarded what clothing she had been wearing when first arriving at the location, and although she was not quite sure where she was, she was sure she did not care. Hands clawed at the ground, her speed building as she raced towards the meandering brook that languidly made its way across the meadow, laughing in its own knowledgable way.Pausing at the stream she dipped close to it, full lips pressing to its crystal surface to drink softly of the brisk liquid before curling up on a sun warmed boulder. Ears twitched amidst cinnamon strands as amber gaze wandered about the meadow, she listened to the meadow lark complaining noisily fr

Is It Me Or....
Does it seem like pulling teeth trying to get ppl to talk to you on here? I try to put myself out there as much as possible, so I can make new friends. Anyone who actually takes the time to get to know me knows what I bring to the table. I don't even know what the point of trying to contact anyone is anymore. If anyone has similar experiences, let me know. I'm near the point of just not coming in here anymore. Another thing I have noticed is how many on here live their "lives" on here and other internet sites. It's sad how people will hang around here constantly, want to involve immerse themselves in others' business, yet refuse to even think about meeting people in person. A few months ago, I was interested in someone on here. I was told by more than enough to forget it, bc as others said, she lives on here, and makes zero effort in real life. They were right, and I moved on. Not trying to come off as a negative person, but go out and enjoy life, IN PERSON, instead of behind

Mom Opens "haunted House" In Home Where Kids Died In Fire
Mom Opens "Haunted House" in Home Where Kids Died in Fire KTLA News 5:04 PM PDT, October 26, 2009 The "haunted house" at 1460 North Lilac Avenue seen from outside. (KTLA-TV / October 23, 2009) Related links Mario and David Sisneros Photo

Grr, Stupidity At Its Finest
I refuse to protect anyone, that exceeds this level ... sportbiker...: hi ->sportbiker... hi sportbiker...: how r u sportbiker...: how r u ->sportbiker...: well, you? sportbiker...: am ok ty....have hardon like no other though ->sportbiker...: then go find a slut to take care of it sportbiker...: know of any ->sportbiker...: why would I know of any sluts? is there something in my name that says I do? sportbiker...: no u just look like a girl who would know many ->sportbiker...: that i do believe you ae mistaken ... if you take me posting my pic of me sticking out my toungue for knowing sluts then you need to rethink I know I probably shouldn't be upset ... but DAMNIT MAN ... WTF!!!! so now that poses a question .... should I change my default pic?? which would mean new and updated pics of me .... which would mean to take pics (grrr) But it is halloween ... should I put a bag on my face for my halloween pic?? I have the re-useable ones ... I could promote walmart!!!

Do The Same Thing
Would you do the same thing? I wanted to remain married to my then wife Shirley with the permanent restraining order in place so that she could receive the benefits from me. Also to pay her monthly for maintenance and as needed for new clothing. Bed and Board Divorce was and still is illeagal by the US ARMY. I nor her meet the criteria of it even though it is recognized. Only reason it would work as I stated in the letter to the Feds was that everything was run by private contractors by- passing the military authority. Even those that invetigate fraud is private contractors. Mr. Gievers that was the Director of ProACT at that time, not only had Shirley lie and commit Federal Fraud and State Fraud but the employee of the State of NJ with in Gloucester County ProACT. 1. Shirley was on Medicare and not Medicaid. 2. Shirley received her meds from Tricare through CVS Pharmacy and not through the State of NJ in Newark, NJ. I could not believe how persistant the Mental Health people were to

Sensitive
One of my biggest pet peeves is sensitive politically correct bleeding heart assholes. The ones that have to apologize for everything they say, assuming they have hurt someone's feelings. Like people that feel compassionate for lazy ass able homeless ppl that try to intimidate ppl into giving them money. or people that cringe at the word "cunt" CUNT CUNT CUNT

Sugarshock
I'm not a die-hard Whedon fan - I love 'Firefly' and enjoyed 'Serenity' but I was never a Buffy or Angel fan, and have yet to see any 'Dollhouse' - but there's no denying the man can put a memorable concept together, and has a real sense of fun. Both these characteristics come across strongly in this one-shot from Dark Horse, collecting the web-based strips for the MySpace Dark Horse Presents series. Three girls and a robot in a band shot from Earth to take part in an interstellar battle of the bands, with Whedon's trademark snappy dialogue and a large dollop of humour? Great stuff. Dark Horse page here (sorry, blogging up a storm today, think I'm done)

My Truck Abagayle.
Last night I was into it with both banks, of course one being personcal and another FIN, reasons with my truck now I've made many of payments to these asses and yet yesterday when calling to talk with a manager he rimmed my ass from one side to the next. I am like you moron ya don't yell @ a lady like that first of all secondly I have a business of my own now I know what the hell it's like in the field o.k. I was only 38 days late on this bad boy and the fucker says to me that eventho I went an paid the $449.13 I was still 8 days late well DUH o.k. I know this, although he says that if I didn't shut up he'd come get my baybay, oh BIG mistake there I called the police/bank an talked with the fire dept. because they are in with I/T o.k. if you know what that is? Anyways the misses in which I had spoke to tells me that they used my CARD not the postpone check in that amount over the phone with Pete now he said ty for given em a heads up so this way he wasn't slapped in the face later on n

Personal Injury Lawyer
Getting a pro bono personal injury lawyer Toronto , or anyplace for that issue, is likely to be rather a difficult order. This is because personal injury lawsuits, by their very nature, incline to be causes aimed at making compensation. Professional bono lawyers, on the other hand, incline to offer their services in subjects where the someone looking for their helps is the one being blamed (the one in defense), and where the person in question is incapable to otherwise afford a lawyer. What you are probably to find, however, is a lawyer probably to offer you their helps ‘for free’ on term that they get a portion of your compensation package in the event of your winning the case with their service. Whether you prefer for this later arrangement, or insist on taking a pro bono lawyer still, you would be advised to go for a lawyer who is a specialist in the special type of personal injury cause you have. If it is an industrial-accident connected injury, an occupational acciden

Coupland
Generation X: Tales for an Accelerated Culture (1991) Shampoo Planet (1992) Life After God (1994) Microserfs (1995) Girlfriend in a Coma (1998) Miss Wyoming (2000) All Families Are Psychotic (2001) God Hates Japan (2001) Hey Nostradamus! (2003) Eleanor Rigby (2004) jPod (2006) The Gum Thief (2007) Generation A (2009) Just trying to work out how much Coupland I have left to read. I think that's a : Yes, No, No, Yes, No, Yes, Reading, No, Yes, I think I did?, Yes, No, Yes Man, I have more left to read than I thought. Carry on.

Bring
What will today bring? Should I be a good little boy or not? We will behave as Gentlmen and Gentle Ladies or not? Whatever today brings will be a little different than the past. Checked out The Order? Rosicrucian Order AMORC in San Jose, CA. Take a look and try for awhile. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Norio

Poetry
Love is like magic and it always will be, For love still remains life's sweet mystery. Love works in ways that are wondrous and strange And there's nothing in life that love cannot change! Love can transform the most commonplace Into beauty and splendor and sweetness and grace. Love is unselfish, understanding and kind, For it sees with its heart and not with its mind. Love is the answer that everyone seeks... Love is the language that every heart speaks. Love can't be bought, it is priceless and free, Love, like pure magic, is life's sweet mystery!

Talk To You All Soon Blog To Take Affect After Monday ^_^
Hello everyone ^_^ Wolfie here... just need to inform you that i am moving as of this Monday but that is the good news.. the bad is that I have no internet at the new place, so I will be offline allot when I do get on I will be on to talk to my beautiful girlfriend Snaedis Snaedis - Princess Jiggy Wiggy@ fubar and my cute little pet kitty Talia BoDaCiOuS TaLiA~ LiL S3x KiTT3n ~@ fubar tehe and my mummy Mistress of Wolves ^_^ @ fubar Ah I truly love you all and will miss you so much. Think I will use this time to let some feelings out.. I love my girls they are my world and all I care about is there happiness and for this reason I am not going to be in good moods when I cannot talk to them.. Always happens to me. Hmmm well now I am moving in with my mum I will be sleeping in her lounge room... but I have an old friend who wants to share a place so I will be looking into that ^_^ should be interesting and scary.. I need to get to Canada so the first thing I need to do is

I Don't Understand
I don't understand how people can say they love you but don't really mean it. I also don't understand how someone can say they care but have a hard way of showing it. Its just very very fucked up! Im not pointing any fingers at anyone but its still very fucked up the way people treat one another especially when they love that person. I thought we were friends and I was hoping to have a future with this person but its kinda hard when i only hear from them every two weeks or so. So screw everyone I don't need anyone to make me happy!!

My Birth Chart
This birth chart shows the positions of the planets of Karin The planets in the signsThe position of the planets in the signs of the Zodiac has an influence on the character of the individual and these influences form a large part of the individual psyche.Sun in LeoShe is masterful, likes authority, aspires towards an ideal. A little too pretentious and always wanting things. She likes to give advice. She is honest, frank, loyal, open and sincere.Weaknesses: pride, vanity, arrogance, presumption and disdain of others.Moon in TaurusSweetness itself. Convinced of their ideas and strong-willed. She is foresighted and willful. She knows how to trust. She appreciates all the good things in Life. She likes and protects Nature.Weaknesses: excesses in pleasure, laziness, sensuality, thoughtlessness.Mercury in CancerShe adapts to every situation that arises, has a good understanding, is discerning and is full of insight. She is lucid and thinks things through. She likes to please and to create

Not Fair
Life often comes at us with TNT force, leaving us emotionally tentative and spriitually bewildered. Our circumstances often don't seem fair and certainly don't appear to me normal. But God plunges us into the water of the Great Sustainer.

Im Up For Auction ((=
Lol hey everyone I forgot I was up for auction and just remembered lol here's a link to my auction pic I´ll be offering more and we can arrange several things on there ((= my birthday is in november lol so help me make it special click on the pic belo to bid

I Miss You:(
I miss you more than i can say.your all i think about night and day.The sound of your voiceMakes me long for you to hear you even more..Your voice is like a songin my heart that i play andwill play for ever.When you sing to meit makes me hear the songin a whole new way..Make me feel it in my heartand in my soul.Is it hard to believethat i miss you when we had just talked not so long ago.. meer secondsor even a minute.I Miss you.but tis onlyuntil i hear your voiceor get your text.that i realizethat I dont want this toever end.Please tell me the time will fly.. so that I maysee you.. be able to touch you..hold you.. in my arms again...

Entanlged In The Stars
The earth opened outInto the sky. That night,I felt I mightFall into it,To entangle myselfIn a web of starsThat beckoned to meWith their twinkling fingers.I felt my own soul expandSink into the heavensFeeling the warmth of you beside meThe crisp air on my faceI felt the world would hold meFor a whileMy searching heartFound a universe in yoursSo that I felt I mightFall into itAnd entangle myselfIn the world ofWho you are. Poem By Tammy C.

Fragments Of Happiness
When April comes When I'm alone He's not here His voice how soft Like his touch The warmth of his lips He never existed Fragments to emptiness This trail leads no where Roses that never existed crumble into the void of dreams Everything he said I believed It was however playful talk Laughs shared Dreams imaginable Hopes bonding us All these laughs dreams and hopes Just memories I try to forget, Memories that never were I lead myself on to believe these beliefs that never will exist And when April comes Inside myself I'm still trapped Inside walls I've built Isolation from others Though my fist beat away The walls don't come downI walk this trail that leads no where Holding roses that only crumble Like our hopes and dreams and all he never said And I'm still alone And he's not here Poem by Tammy C.

Words
Every daythe words inside mestrugglein their birthingto find the breathto fillthese empty spaceswith energy.Sometimes they drownin the natal poolsof my mindsmotheredin second thinkingand the censorshipof doubt...At other timesthey come to lifein flawless linesof limitless possibility.Who knows how,they've been raisedto the surfaceof my consciousness.I can only hopeto capturetheir ephemeral beautynow,quickly,before the feelingfades... Poem By Tammy C.

I'm Back!
So, I moved last month and I've been off fubar since. No time. I have a day job. I'm taking horseback riding lessons and I've been full of life really. Just so much going on. My band is playing out this saturday and I forgot to market it on her, all well. If anyone is in mass and wants to go to a goth concert hit me up before saturday and I will do my best to give details. I'm dating. Was enguaged but he took it back and told me its was a "promise ring" I'm not ok with that and things may not last. Looks to me like someone has comitment issues and its not me... But shit happens and we move on. I will give him a chance and see if things get better. Home has been depression. I moved in with my bf. And now I see less of him then I did when I lived with crappy roommates. I see him 7 hours a week because of his job. He works 6-7 days a week because hes a head chef and its putting a strain on "us". We don't have sex. We don't cuddle and we don't do anything. Im an affectionate horn dog

Sleep Eludes Me...
So I log in... This is not gonna be long. I must leave for work in 4 hours. Thankfully its a short shift. I cannot sleep tonight. Perhaps its was a stressful night. Most likely it was a combination of things. My mind is restless and I can't risk taking a sleep aide. I do have a cute funny haha thing I will share though. I was asked for a loan. A small loan. A mere 200.00. (Chef Jay must be psychic and know I just typed this because he *sighed*) I am going to give this loan, not because I am loaded, but because I can't seem to find the word NO. It's going to a good cause. Paying bills for someone very important to me. Not the person who's name is on those bills...but the gorgeous little girl I am so very happy to be the mother of. That's right ;) So even though I am not technically responsible I am always responsible. And with this little laugh I am going to run silently for another moment or two. xoxxoxoxox p.s. I love you Ed! ha...there you can't say I didn't show you lov

The Game
THE GAME There’s a game in life that everybody plays it is played all over the world in many different ways This is a game that has many different rules it’s played by those that think they are smart, and it’s played by fools As every rule has it’s conception every rule has it’s exception As you use these rules as your tools you’ll find that every exception has it’s rules There’s a game you have to play to the end but it’s a game no one can ever win The game can be played for your whole life sometimes we even take along a husband or wife To play the game can really be cool some play nice and some play cruel The game can make your nerves run thin the rules of the game can sometimes make you sin There is a game that can keep you on the run some people play for keeps and some play for fun

To Die Well..
It was the typical San Deigo bar but to the locals it was quite obvious the people occuping the pool tables tonight were not typical at all. Each of them stood out from the rest of humanity somehow...they seemed more distant, more aware of what was going on. One of the strangers was leaning back against a wall his white messy hair dangling in front of his face in an almost gothic styled curl. He was wearing a large dirty brown duster a black t-shirt with the words fuck you on it and a pair of blue jeans. Nothing really stood out him persay just looked like another street freak during the month of October. This man was named Alex Margery and he is a monster hunter. Another of the strangers in the room looked like what one might picture of the typical retired cop. Over weight by at least sixty pounds but oddly in shape. He dressed in a very simple button down and a pair of slacks. He had a large tactical belt wrapped around his waste which had obviously seen it's time of wear and tear.

To Anyone That Thinks I'm Bitchy Lately
So in two months, I've lost 1 friend, my friends mom who helped raise me, two aunts and as of Monday, 2 uncles. I've moved to help out another aunt and uncle while my uncle is sick, going in and out of the hospital for surgey, and left all my friends and the rest of my family at home. I have to look for a job in a place I don't even know. I've been sick for the past two weeks and might have to get chest x-rays to find out the official problem. I'm stressed out constantly and trying to deal with a lot of shit that's being put on me. I thought that a certain person actually gave a shit and cared about me, and turns out, he only wanted what was easiest for him and truly doesn't care about anyone elses happiness or well-being but his own. I tried. I'm tired of people bitching at me about shit that I have no control over and then getting pissed at me for not being in the mood to joke around or even make any attempt to boggle myself more with constant contradictions between actions an

It's All The Same....
in these last few weeks, I've learned that some people just dont change. They are content to continue their aberrant behaviors and cause those around them to suffer. Butmy blog entry today isnt about gloom and doom. oh no... I'm happier than a kid in a candy shop. Why, you ask? BECAUSE THE MOTHERFUCKER HAS MOVED OUT!!! HA HA! yes, sir! For those just tuning in for the first time, "Motherfucker", is my nickname for my dad.. He and I have a very contentious and tense relationship, if you even want to call it that..sperm donor, more or less is what he is. But anyways, He is moving 90 minutes north to Tacoma, and I couldnt be happier! Its about time that the chaos ends...he's been in Washington State 9 months and he caused a fuckton of damage in such a short time. But next year, I'm moving as well..to where, you may ask? ah ah ahhh...only those that know me well will get the answer.

Autumn Chant
Autumn Chant "I will dance The dance of dying days And sleeping life. I will dance In cold, dead leaves A bending, whirling human flame. I will dance As the Horned God rides Across the skies. I will dance To the music of His hounds Running, baying in chorus. I will dance With the ghosts of those Gone before. I will dance Between the sleep of life And the dream of death. I will dance On Samhain's dusky eye, I will dance."

Akasha, Samhain Ritual
"Tonight as the barrier between the two realms grows thin, Spirits walk amongst us, once again. They be family, friends and foes, Pets and wildlife, fishes and crows. But be we still mindful of the Wee Folke at play, Elves, fey, brownies, and sidhe. Some to trick, some to treat, Some to purposely misguide our feet. Stay we on the paths we know As planting sacred apples we go. This Feast I shall leave on my doorstep all night. In my window one candle shall burn bright, To help my loved ones find their way As they travel this eve, and this night, until day. Bless my offering, both Lady and Lord Of breads and fruits, greens and gourd."

A Stiff And Harshly Worded Letter
So tonight when I left work there were several bins of pumpkins for employees to take home with them. This is a normal thing this time of year. However, they generally don't allow people to take one home with them until 2 days before Halloween. This year was no exception. I have worked at my place of employment for 4 years. Every year I have always ended up getting a shitty pumpkin because of the shift I work. I work from 1 in the afternoon until 9:30 at night. This means I have never been able to get a good pumpkin. I've always been pissy about it. Which means that this year if I don't get a fucking amazing pumpkin I will write HR and encourage anyone else on my shift that gets fucked out of a good pumpking to do the same. The letter will go something like this: Human Resources, For the last four years I have been a victim of this company's discriminatory policy of denying the people that work the evening shift the chance at a good pumpkin. This grievious error, whe

4melissa = Fake...
Are you really serious?.... ..from user .. 4 Melissa@ fubar Has stolen pictures claiming it's her from... www.melissamidwest.com Actually had the audacity to upload this salute..really... Nice to see nothing's changed. P.S. If you want to try and get me involved in your drama. I really, really don't care. Have a good night.

Lady Autumn
Lady Autumn, Queen of the Harvest, I have seen You in the setting Sun with Your long auburn tresses blowing in the cool air that surrounds You. Your crown of golden leaves is jeweled with amber, amethyst, and rubies. Your long, flowing purple robe stretches across the horizon. In Your hands You hold the ripened fruits. At Your feet the squirrels gather acorns. Black crows perch on Your outstretched arms.

Power Over A Man.
Ladies if you want power over men you need to keep your clothing on . A woman's power over a man is the mystery of whats under her clothing . Think of yourself as a finely wrapped present . The fun is taking off the wrapper to see what is underneath . If there is no wrapper there is no mystery . No mystery no power. .. ..........

To Catch A Bullet
Lets cut to the chase and feed me your bullshit while I sit here and take it if thats what it takes sorry to dissapoint you I'm always coming back for more so say whatever you want call me whatever you will week after week being taken for granted like a habit I can't seem to break I can't let go although God knows how hard I've tried when will we be enough? Nothings ever enough Nothings ever enough Here we go again another day to shut them up If you think I'll just walk away well thats not who I am I bet you'll need me one day to keep you alive and I'll spit in your face just like you did to mine week after week still going nowhere wait til you see what happens next I can't let go although God knows how hard I've tried when will we be enough? nothings ever enough I can't let go although God knows how hard I've tried when will we be enough? nothings ever enough time is wasting wait til you see what happens next time i

Concert Camera-chapter 3
I took back last weeks purchase, after being a bit disappointed in it performance. Olympus FE46, 12mgpx, 5x opt zoom, image stabilization; slim pocket size, sturdy design, decent user interface....wont take a concert pic from shit. Soon as you touch the zoom you can forget focus. Soooo, that bitch is out like a smothering gf. Todays purchase, the Kodak Z915, 10mgpx, 10x opt zoom, auto-focus, and up to 1/2000 shutter spd, hi-def video. Lil heavier, fatter, but if she treats me right, I'll let her stick around. It thinks a lil longer in between shots, but I dont mind that so much if what it produces gets me off. Fluff, shmuff, whatever; bottom line....... delivery/follow-thru. We will see this weekend.

The Truth
Islam a peaceful religion? My Ass! Millions of these warped misled sons-of-bitches are plotting, as we speak, to destroy our country and our way of life any way they can. Some of them are here among us now. They don't want to convert you and don't want to rule you. They believe you are a vile infestation of Allah's paradise. They don't give a shit how "progressive" you are, how peace-loving you are, or how much you sympathize with their cause. T

Toby Wayne Page
i remember the the day i got the call that you passed after a head on collision with an 18 wheeler i knew i couldnt be hearin rite, to this day i still cant believe its true that your nowhere to be found nowhere to be seen it still hurts almost 9 years later i still see your face how does one ever let go of somebody that put them through total hell growin up but as we all know those were the good ole days i miss those days but b4 the good lord took you away from us forever he made sure that you left us two little precious angels and what hurts the most is that i had my youngest on the day that you were taken away from us but it was 5 years after the fact and i didnt really even remember wat day exactly it was that the lord had taken you away to the heavens above but that is a day that i will never forget again bc i had my youngest little angel on that very day he will be three in may even though you never seen him i swear he looks and acts just like you i tell myself all the time i got

How Cant This Be
how can you take everybody away from me means so much to me its like my whole world has fallen apart i know that people say you don't take them away unless it is there time but sometimes i find that hard to believe and i honestly don't understand where you are coming from wen you take a father of two lil ones then a lil over a year later you took a 16 year boy and i know that he had no right to be out that late driving, now they have to live on in the hearts of there loved one they will always and for ever live on in my heart i know that much for sure but i still don't understand why there time on earth they were both so young when they had to come home forever i know you more then likely had or have something very special for them to do i know that they are the angels i feel around me all the time i see them in my kids all the time and they never got to meet either of them it just really hard to deal with sometimes cuz they act so much like them its not even and i thank god everyday t

Cant Believe
i cant believe what they say is true how could you be gone away forever never to beseen again on earth but you will always be seen in my eyes its still hard to this day to know that i missed your funeral it kills me day in and day out just to knowthat i didn't get to say my last good-byes to you the. the only person that ever truly cared for me no i didn't even make it to your brothers funeral and that kills me also but i wasn't nearly as close to him as i was to you my grandmother you were then just a grandmother your were my best friend we had alot of laughs but it is sad to think that we will never be able to have those laughs again on earth but you alwaysremember that i love you more then anything in this world you r my heart my soul and most of all your my grandmother the kids still ask about you every now and then but i haven't had the heart to tell them that they wont be able to see your smiling face in this world again we know you love us but still why did it have to come to an

" Dried-out Roses" By: Becca Woolf
Old red roses, dry and dead, Wilted petals fall instead, He once gave to me to keep. Those days they lagged like lonely sleep, And now they sit as time has passed, Alone, without a love at last. With shadows of out old love cry, And wilted roses that won't die, A phone with no one there to call, I try to forget, but dont at all. I once left your name to find, I called it sweet, and good and kind. But when i found it, it was gone. You took it back and then moved on. And so I sit here, cold and blue, With nothing more for me to do But sit, with nothing left to say And throw the roses all away.

Bird
feeling like a caged bird about to break its wings on the bars of the cage Love is a cage when its not returned trapped and struggling against the restraints A love unwanted cuts like a knife without the relief freedom is savored but granted not to me.

Maybe
Maybe you should know Everything I’ve held inside Maybe you should know There’s nothing left I can hide .. .. You found me over here Walked right through my walls You found me over here Hold me up now when I fall. .. .. Maybe you should know There’s nothing left of me Maybe you should know I’m not always what you see. .. .. Worlds collide here within me I’m a walking contradiction.

God Bless Me
WELL I WANT TO START BY SAYING THAT I AM HAPPY TO BE BACK IN THE BAR. I HAVE AWAY FOR SOME TIME BECAUSE I HAD TO HAVE A SURGERY ON MY HEART. I HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE AND OVER TIME THAT STARTED TO TAKE A TOLL ON MY ARTERIES AND THINGS, SO ALL OF MY MAIN ARTERIES THAT LEAD TO MY HEART STARTED TO TEAR AWAY FROM THE HEART. I WAS 10 MINUTES AWAY FROM DYING. I STILL CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT I ALMOST LEFT MY KIDS WITHOUT A MOM. THE THING THAT COUNTS IS THAT HE WAS NOT READY FOR ME TO COME HOME TO HIM JUST YET. I THANK GOD. I AM NOT GOING TO GO ANY FURTHER BUT I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR READING THIS

" Confused " By: Anonymous
My knees start to shake, when you're in sight. My mind is fillef with wander, my heart with fright. When will this feeling stop? When did it start? I'm so confused. What should i do? I can't think of anything, except you. Should i ignore you, or just give it time? I can't think straight, my heart controls my mind.

" Inside" By: Melissa Collette
Bottled up inside, are the words I never said, the feelings that i hide, the lines you never read. you can see it in my eyes, read it on my face: trapped inside are lies of the past i can't replace. with memories that linger- won't seem to go away why can't i be happier? todays a brand- new day. yesterdays are over, even though the hurting's not. nothing lasts forever, i must cherish what i've got dont take my love for granted, for soon it will be gone- of the love you thought you'd won, the hurt i'm feeling now wont disappear overnight, but some way, some how, everything will turn out all right. no more wishing for the past. it wasn't meant to be. it didnt seem to last, so

10/28/09
Well life has been very interesting. I have met a lot of wonderful people and very good friends. I am just sitting here pondering if there is more to life that I am missing out on? Then I pour me a cup of coffee, smile, and go back to writing my obituary. HAPPY HALLOWEENIE

The Era...
nine inch nails.even deeperi woke up today. to find myself in the other place. with a trail of my footprints. from where i ran away. seems everything i've heard just might be true. you know me, well you think you do. sometimes i have everything, yet i wish i felt something. do you know how far this has gone? just how damaged have i become? when i think i can overcome. it runs even deeper. in a dream, i'm a different me. a perfect you, we fit perfectly. for once in my life, i feel complete. and i still want to ruin it. afraid to look. as clear as day. this plan has long been underway. i hear them call, i cannot stay. the voice inviting me away. do you know how far this has gone? just how damaged have i become? when i think i can overcome. it runs even deeper. everything that matters is gone. all the hands of hope have withdrawn. could you try to help me hang on. it runs... i'm straight, i won't crack. on my way and i can't turn back. i'm okay, i'm on track. on my way and i can't go back

" I Need You Now" By: Becky Tucker
My friend, I need you now- Please take me by the hand. Stand by me in my hour of need, Take time to understand. Take my hand, dear friend, And lead me from this place. Chase away my doubts and fears, Wipe the tears from off my face. Friend, I cannot stand alone. I need your hand to hold, The warmth of your gentle touch In my world thats grown so cold. Please be a friend to me and hold me day by day. because with your loving hand in mine, i know we'll find the way.

Just Think
Just think, I'll drop soon and you wont have to worry? Joyce, you want to remember Chapter 7 Bankruptcy that you did not declare. That simple letter written to you was written to Uncle Bud and Aunt Carrol. They never answered, returned unopened, or come looking for me. So how is that car of Vicki's? Can't forget the Deptford Twp Police Department or the Woodbury, and the NJ State Police? Jo-Ann your not good at covering up and I'll have to ask do you have any family members that are FOP? Yeah John, I received blank pages and it said US Attorney's on my Caller ID but unlike you I had to answer those phone calls. Dr. Barb the first time you lied to me you lied three times about Lily and Company? Dr. Cater, you took that position of offense and by doing so forced me to contact the FBI and others. You want me to keep on going or stop and we all behave as Gentlemen and Gentle Ladies? Choice is yours, I see Jo-Ann tomorrow and lets hope the Dead Bolt isn't locked as once before. No

" Kiss " By: Emily Crane
Point your lashes down and you can picture my face- I'm smiling.... Open you mouth, speak with your heart and you can see my soul- I'm waiting.... Place your arms around my waist and you can embrace my uncertainty- I'm shaking.... Press your lips against mine and try to catch me- I'm falling...

He Finally Said " I Love You" By: Jennifer Orendach
As i looked into his eyes and found his longing stare i stopped myself from saying words that would show how much i care i put my hand up to his face to hold my feeling in i wouldn't say the words again to show my love for him the last time i had told him how much he meant to me he put my hands away from his and said to leave him be i never spoke the words again for fear of his deep fright i thought it was the last time until that blissful night his fingers traced around my face pushing hair away and i was quite unprepared for what he was to say my heart beat quickly, my head raced on he looked as if he might faint- imagine this strong guy but never would i be more impressed with anything he'd do than when he took that heartfelt leap

Wow
Time Promotes Green Sex Toys, Like Whips That Are ‘Cruelty-Free (to Cows, That Is)’ By Tim Graham (Bio | Archive) October 19, 2009 - 17:17 ET The liberals at Time magazine would never want to impose their sexual morality on you – unless it involves environmentalism. The October 26 issue features an article headlined "Sex and the Eco-City: Look out, petroleum jelly. Getting it on is getting greener." Writer Kathleen Kingsbury began: In many ways, choosing a sex toy is not unlike buying a car. Walk into most adult shops, and the new-car smell is undeniable. Salespeople tout motor speed and durability. And then there are emissions to consider. That's carbon emissions, of course. As the green movement makes its way into the bedroom, low lighting is a must--to conserve electricity--but so are vegan condoms, organic lubricants and hand-cranked vibrators. The captions beneath a collection of "eco-friendly" offerings to go "Green Between the Sheets" incl

"forgive" By: Danielle Rosenblatt
Forgive the sun who didn't shine The sky had asked her in to dine. Forgive the stars that heard your wish The moon prepared their favorite dish. Forgive the rain for its attack The clouds have tears they can't hold back. Don't hate the birds cause they are free Dont evny all the things they see. Don't block the wind, but hear its cry Or else that wind may pass you by. Forgive the storm it means no harm Could not resist to show its charm. Forgive the earth that never turns Don't hate the sun, because to much burns. Life intends to not cause pain The flowers bloom from all the rain. The storm will come and it will pass The sun that shines, it grows the grass. The wind it cannot help but cry The stars at night light up the sky. Forgive the world in which we live We'll all find peace if we forgive.

Yes
Yes, Rep. Andrews that letter to the Feds removed the guilt off of you and Mr. Yurick completely. Debbie, I never said or made any comments that Mr. Yurick lied or is a liar. Intresting to note the IRS "your name just popped up" and suddenly they're shy of how much to me? It was the NJ Mental Health Advocate office employee that named you Senator Andrews. As I looked at that time of these property price inflation and no one buying that talk of this Bail Out was headed past two trillion. Third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, and eigth. Norio

" I Am Enough " By: Chelsea Hellings
"You cannot change what is a part of you." although I've often tried. My body was never thin enough, m imperfections i'd always hide. I smiled when they said I was beautiful, I laughed when they said I was great. But it took a long time to believe in their words, I figured loneliness was my fate. The boys i wanted didn't want me, I was tossed, used and torn. So many took me as a joke, I crawled inside myslef - scared and forlorn. My self-esteem has let me down, My belief in myself was nil. I did not understand where i was headed, could not understand until... I finally decided to believe in me, I realized that I was worth so much. This was when I could see through the storm, When i allowed my soul to be touched when times get distressing and rough. But i know that i will always love myself, No matter what- I AM ENOUGH!

Is Radio Dead?
No radio stations are not dead but they need to see the doctor. According to a new study from TargetCast radio is still a strong force but losing its energy. TargetCast says that 50% of people between the ages of 18 and 24 prefer their MP3s to the radio and about 45% like internet stations to radio, and 49% say radio is not relevant to them. What does that mean to the future of radio? Your guess is good as mine but it doesn’t look great. For more info check out Jennifer Lane’s Audio4Cast at http://audio4cast.com/2009/10/26/consumer-media-study-highlights-impact-of-digital-media/ www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Pleiades And Samhain: The Celtic Connection
As we approach Samhain (October 31 - November 1) our awareness naturally moves in the same circles as our ancient ancestors as we all prepare for a shift in the seasons. In the Northern hemisphere, this seasonal shift manifests itself in autumnal themes, and Samhain is the cross-quarter holiday marking the midpoint between the Autumnal Equinox and the Winter Solstice. The ancient Celts simplified this seasonal transition by establishing two halves to their calendar: Light and Dark. Samhain marked the seam between light and dark in both agricultural and philosophical terms. Most of you already know this, but a little known fact is the connection between Pleiades and Samhain. The Celts were masterful astronomers and astrologists. From their geographic position, the Celts could see the open star cluster, Pleiades quite easily with the naked eye. Pleiades is cluster of nine stars, but only seven are seen with unaided vision. Pleiades is heliacal, which means this

Samhain Poem
SamhainRed leaves are carried in the salt west windAnd turn to brown on dry soil.The sun is bright still, but not warmOn the last rich gold of scattered fall.The great wheel turns, another yearOld, bright gold with death.Bare branches now, the Old Lord's limbs,Chill wind the Old Lord's breath.Like dancing leaves on sleeping branchesThe dark tide of memory is stirred.The deepest thought-flame now is kindled,Consuming, the fire in ancient words.Samhain, the thin veil opens, fingersReaching through the blackness deep.Through the grey cloud wisps, old voicesShapes, shifting, slowly creep.Mab's red-eyed dogs, howling, wanderThrough the fields as soil grows hardSearching for uncounted jewelsThe Fairy Queen's forgotten shardsThe last red morsels, undevouredReturned to Her who granted birthMab's womb, given up its children,Shrivels, cold with the hardened earth.In meadows that the scythe has tastedNow the Samhain fires are highThe circle dance is weaving, spinningOn graceful foot, on darkened

Guilt At Death Bed
Addmisision of guilt at ones death bed does you no good. You created the future for yourself. Karmic Laws are fulfilled by what you sow that you reap. Get it through your heads. No surgery, unless all come forward right from 2000 and spit, cough, or vomit the truth. Alive or dead for me is basically moot and does not matter. Whatever the world I am in I'll be able to reach any. On the other side there is no need to sleep or rest and can come at any in a mulitfacted manner. Get it, you place me front of a Judicial system and the ultimate is done by me. Gotta die anyway. So start with A and let Z bring the rear. If you want I'll name you all with support and who, what, where, when, how, and the infamous CITIBANK Account Number. Fun time is just around the corner with Holloween, Norio

Samhain And The Seven Swans Of Virtue
As we approach the cross-quarter holiday of Samhain, it’s a great opportunity to dive into ancient myth and stories. Why? Because ancient parables connect us with our ancestry and offer magnificent lessons we can apply to our modern way of life – thus making our experiences richer and more meaningful.Now, I realize surface research into Samhain uncovers some potentially disturbing and macabre symbolism involving death and dark powers. But, as with anything worthwhile, we’ve got to explore beyond the surface before striking true gold. There is priceless philosophical gold surrounding Samhain. One of these golden nuggets is nestled deep in the folds of Bardic wisdom (the realm of sacred Celtic storytelling). It’s the story of the Seven Swans of Virtue, and it unfolds, thusly:Once upon a time (I know, how trite…indulge me), there was a behemoth egg and the Universe was curled within it, growing steadily over millions of years. At the moment of its fulle

My Old Poem Done Bye My Dear Friend Firestar I Still Love It.
RainShe cries upon the world with her tears of pain and sorrow.A heart so full of love and compassion for all, ButLost to why all doesn’t see her or feel her hidden desire for love to belong within all.I stand under her tears like rain,I feel and know her pain, so I cry to her pain.Rain, oh sweet rain forgive me not caring enough.Let me show that life is truly can be free from all this death and destruction of reality.Let the sweet rain fall no more from your heavenly eyes.If rain must fall than Let it fall for joy and hope.Rain oh sweet rain forgive those, who can see.Touch them with your loving embrace with your sweet tears like rain.Guide them back to the path of reality.Sweet rain…Oh sweet rain,Please cry no more unless its for happiness and rejoice that love has a found a way.Rain upon me.Let me hold you close to my heart.Let me know that your tears embrace me with love and happiness.Rain falling from her heavenly eyes of sorrow,Please weep no more.Rain….Can yo

Who Is Sam Hain?
Who is this guy they call Sam Hain?I see his name in witchy books;But when I ask my witchy friends;They just give me the strangest looks.He seems to be so important;And everyone knows him but me;Each year they throw him a party;It sounds like THE cool place to be!When I ask my friends what he’s like;They all practically turn and run;I need to get to know Sam Hain;So I can join in all the fun!I asked friends to introduce me;I’ll have to introduce myself;‘Cuz when I asked they looked at me;As if I’m a demented elf!So I searched the yellow pages;I called up information too;I just can’t find this guy Sam Hain;I surfed the web ‘til I turned blue!I’ve heard my witchy friends planning;And although they’ll think I’m a pain;I’m going to crash his party;Then I’ll finally meet Sam Hain!

First Post
Yeah so these are always the worst, space filling posts...but I'll use it to give anyone who cares a chance to get to know me a little bit. I'm a 25 year old mom. My beautiful angel is three now and up until recently I raised him alone. The times were hard and only got worse when I lost my job a few months ago. Right now he is in the care of his father, a man I'm currently divorcing. I must say that we are at least being civil to one another and putting our son first in everything. My husband left me when my son was first born, but he wasn't around much while I was pregnant either. In fact the last time there was any action in the bedroom with him was the night our son was conceived. Six months ago, I told him I wanted a divorce and the man had the audacity to claim he still loved me. Being absent 3 years really proved that I guess. Enough about him though. I've moved on. Though I'm still married have actively started dating other men and enjoying life as much as possible.

Jeffrey Says Porcupines Are Pickery
Our son after I’d changed him for bed came from the bathroom last night saw my wife Martha reading “My P Book” (we have a whole series on the different letters of the alphabet and the words they begin) to Sarah and they’d gotten two-thirds of the way through. The main character, Little P, was collecting animals and foods that started with the letter “p” and Jeffrey pointed to a porcupine and said that porcupines are “pickery”. One of those teachable and laughable moments for the four of us; he was probably trying to say “prickly” because I know he’s heard me say it. After Martha was done, Jeffrey and I read “The Cat in the Hat” (I was surprised he remember where the book was, in our computer desk) and it’s Dr. Seuss, it’s hard for me to NOT act the story out and do the voices, even if Martha does complain about the “overacting” giving her an earache. But my dear sweet wife has been

Our Government Is Still Drunk On That Potomac Kool Aid
How can the government pretend that it can manage, overhaul, streamline, and reform the health care system in the United States when it can't even deliver enough flu shots to prevent a pandemic?We have seen the H1N1 virus coming for over a year. It is no surprise that much of America needs vaccination. It was no secret that the flu season was approaching. But, now that it is upon us, we find ourselves pathetically short of shots.One year ago, the government told us that we would have hundreds of millions of vaccinations available. Then, over the summer, the prediction was that 40 million would be on hand by the end of October. Last month, the estimate was scaled back to 28 million. And, as of late last week, only 11.5 million had been delivered, leaving tens of millions vulnerable and, tragically, likely leading to hundreds of preventable deaths. Given the tendency of the virus to strike the young, many of those deaths will be among children.

Not All "organic Products" Are Organic
As the environmental trend is growing in popularity, many businesses are beginning to slap the word “organic” on many of their products. Since there’s no law from preventing businesses to use the organic label, many consumers are often misled. When one purchases an authentic organic skin care product such as aluminum free deodorant, they will be able to experience many benefits for the body. It contains only the purest ingredients, allowing pores and glands to be revitalized so one could stay fresh in the underarms. Natural cosmetics are also another product that consumers need to pay extra attention to. Most women at least apply makeup three times a day; once in the morning, reapply for the afternoon, and possibly even change up the look for the evening. With the frequency that they use makeup, they need to ensure that their products contain minimal chemicals, if not none. With the continuous use of synthetic products, there is a greater chance that pores will be

Blah
SOMETIME WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WE NEED, SOME WORK VERY HARD TO GET AND NEVER GET IT. THE ONE DON'T DO GET IT. SOMETIME I WONDER WHY IS THAT. HALF TIME WE NEED OT STEP BACK AND THINK WHAT WE ARE DOING WITH THIS LIFE AND WORLD,ARE WE DOING RIGHT THING FOR KIDS FUTURE OR WE MESS THING UP FOR THEM SO STEP BACK THINK FOR MOMENT WHAT KIND OF FUTURE WE HAVE OR THE KIDS IN THE WORLD. THIS MIGHT NOT MAKE SXENT. SO WHAT HELL.

Some Peoples Children,
So I have had a great day thus far,got to spend time with my sister(she was wondering where abouts on her lower back she should get her tramp stamp done....sigh) found out my orientation for school is next Tuesday..which im excited about and yet nervous at the same time. Took Harley Quinn for a much needed walk thru our neighbourhood dog park and watched her run around like shes never seen or felt grass before. found a toonie WOOT! chased down my dog that yet again got into my purse and decided too help herself too my yogurt covered pretzels...bitch. Finally came home,jumped on into fubar and found a marvelous little picture comment for my default. truly I believe it to be one of the best picture comments I have got too date, im sure it took this fine young fellow forever too think of something so pleasant too type out,the kinda guy that would make his mother proud :D "WASSUP!!???4 hrs ago-- 5 of 5Yo baby I was asleep dreaming of me and my friend double teaming you !

Let Your Heart Sing
Be joyful, and be lead forth in peace.Stand at the top of a mountain, and burstinto a song. The birds will sing along, and the trees in thefield will be clapping there leaves,for life is all around you. Walk in the light of your presence, and rejoice all of your days. Your heart, filled with love and peace, bringinghappiness to all. I lecture you this, so that your life can be unique, there is no ransom in what I teach, just enter the everlasting light, and be complete.Delight and joy will overtake you, sadness and pain, will fly away. In Love. Poem By Tammy C.

The Pestilence That Walketh In Darkness-cryptopsy
«Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night For the arrow that flieth by day For the pestilence that walketh in darkness For the destruction that wasteth at noonday A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand At thy right hand: but it shall not come nigh thee Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold And see the reward of the wicked.» One last Perfect night of life on earth I saw a pestilence descend on wings Plague black As it rode the ancient star wind There are Things more horrible than death

The Type Of People I Just Can't Get Along With.
Seriously. I need to rant right now. I've had alot of things on my mind for like the past month that needs to come out. 1. Fubar is not my life, it never will be my life. 2. Just because you expired from me owning you and I never bought you back..doesn't mean I hate you. Get a life. If I hated you I would tell you 3. Im not a begger. I will not beg for things on this site. Period. I may have only joined a few months ago..and I am already at level 28 but I got here on my own thanks..I bought most of my cherry bombs and autos myself. But I do thank the people that have blinged me and bought me things on here. 4. Just because I talk to you daily doesn't mean I love you and I want you. I have a boyfriend and I have been waiting for this one for 2 years so don't even go there. 5. Im not here to steal anyone from anyone else. Just because I talk to your boyfriend or your girlfriend doesn't mean Im a threat to your relationship. So take your DRAMA elsewhere. 6. If I don't talk to yo

I Knew You Through Passing...
Written for a friend to read at the burial of his little brother.... Rest In Peace My Friend.... Today, the winds blowing, I heard it from the trees,Today, it hurts knowing, you cant be here to see,But when the wind blows, We're reminded that you're free.The fact we're gonna miss you is always gonna be.But we will always have you with us, The times that we're in need, Your love will fill our hollowsevery time we breath.Your voice is what fills our heads when we ride into the breeze,I know youre riding with us, just like it used to be.These memories live inside us, like you live inside of me.Now be calm and at peace,with what what has come to be..I love you little brotherPlease put your strength in me.

What 10-28-1996 Has Done To Me
It was 10:30 pm on October 28th 1996 near dunkin donuts and friendlys in Harrisburg pa. There was an accident that would forever shape the way I see many things in my life. The day was also eight days after my 6th birthday, so it was even more impacting than what people would think. My mother was walking to friendlys from work to get what she called her morning cup of coffee. (due to the fact that she worked graveyard shift at dunkin donuts) It is a busy highway type of road, more than two lanes going in each direction, and dark. My mother did this for several years from what I remember and from what I have heard. I do not remember much about her, but that only adds more to the pain. Two teenagers were driving down the highway, one hit her, and drug her body several yards, and then the second one did so as well, only dragging her further. I am glad neither my father or I saw it. This is just what I heard about the accident. How I heard was when I was trying to get to sleep, there wa

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Now This Is One Amazing Lady
(CNN) -- Amidst the sea of jerseys and bike shorts at New Jersey's City to Shore -- a 150-mile bike ride to benefit multiple sclerosis research -- one unlikely rider stands out. A tiny 84-year-old woman wears a neat, green turtleneck dress and an embroidered jacket. On her feet is a pair of high-heeled pumps. Her salt-and-pepper hair peeks out from the helmet that indicates she is, in fact, a participant in the bike ride. Her old-fashioned one-speed bicycle is purple, with a large wire basket on the front that carries her belongings and her number for the ride. Lan Yin Tsai doesn't give the impression that she could go five miles on that bike, let alone 150. But that's what she's done -- for the past 26 years. Eiko, as she's known to friends and family, is an institution at the annual City to Shore event. And over the years, she has become a symbol of hope and determination for City to Shore participants and MS patients. Her unwavering determination makes her an unusual person in th

Empty Shores
Where the brush grows thick,Where the water laps the shore,Where the thin wind parts the grassesWhispering through them 'Nevermore'There the willows weep in silenceFor the souls that passed before,The stars upon the waterWhisper softly 'Nevermore'Clouds have shuttered fast the moonlight,The silence falls once more,Then the thin wind through the grassesMoans across the empty shore. Poem By TammyC.

Ease
One would wishThe things of the worldwere Connected.They aren’t.It’s the inbetweensWe live in, live through,In all their disjointedness.There is no easeEven in that recognition.We have to findOur ease somewhere else. Poem by Tammy C.

Reflections Of Self.
Come now, what would you have me believe--That you are open, unique, beyond yourself?I try to make your little evasions make sense,Reach through the mist of your moving away.You can take up whatever defense the moon will allow,Become the left hand of truthfulness at night….The radiance of forgetfulness is not so endearingWhen friends lose faith; I have no measureFor the swerve of emotion left beneath the eaves.We can go straight back to hovering over forgiveness.We’ll return to our present wavering soon enough.Please touch the tip of your thought with graceUntil I find my strength in silence once again.I call you by name, my counterpart, high, brave windBeyond necessity, beyond the windings of compromise. Poem By Tammy C.

Gossiping Moms Of Junior High
I had something happen to me last night that made me realize that people of all ages are ignorant and heartless at times. I need honestly to learn to let it slide or take revenge. Right now Im debating on which i want to do.. here's how the story goes... We have moved into Jeff's house so to make Johnathan feel comfortable I invite him to have sleep overs on the weekend.. This week he decided to pick Elio. Now a little about Leo's mother is a registered nurse and has been raising him on her own for years. Because of these reasons you would think we have a connection but we don't. I like Elio hes a good kid but hes sensitive and I having gone threw this with Johnathan know what that's like. I also think sometimes Elio and his mom need a break so I try provide that for her. Don't get me wrong I dont assume this but she has thanked me and told me this as well.. Moving on Johnathan is mildly sick so I warn her that he is and as she drops elios stuff off for the night she takes a look at

Worst Horse Ever
A jockey is in the parade ring discussing race tactics with the horse's trainer. The trainer tells the jockey that this is the worst horse he has ever seen. It has had 23 races and finished last in every one of them. If it doesn't win today the milkman will be using it for deliveries in the morning. The jockey mounts up and takes the horse down to the start. The race begins and the horse is immediately 10 lengths behind the pack. So the jockey gives the horse an sharp thwap on the shoulder. Nothing. He then gives him a series of strikes on the rump.Nothing. He then gives him two wallops right on the hindquarters. The horse comes to a sudden stop, turns to the jockey and says "Give it a rest with that whip, will ya, buddy? I have to be up at four in the morning to deliver milk."

Agent Orange
New bill to aid vets hurt by Agent Orange - by land & sea BY Jake Pearson DAILY NEWS WRITER Wednesday, October 28th 2009, 4:00 AM The U.S. military dumped nearly 20 million gallons of the deadly herbicide to remove foliage during the Vietnam War. Related News Articles NYC College Tech builds up scaffolding education Graduate degree scholarship offer for city workers Bobby Condon was a young kid from Flatbush when he enlisted in the U.S. Navy to fight in the Vietnam War. Nicknamed "Brooklyn" by fellow soldiers, Condon, now 63, has developed an Agent Orange-linked cancer - but was denied coverage by the Veterans Administration because he never set foot in Vietnam. "I would have flown to Saigon and put my feet on the ground for 30 minutes [had I known]," said Condon, a flight operator on the

Status Comments...
are fine, and this isn't "Policy" or a "rule" or anything, but I guess I'd prefer if they responded to the actual "status" they were a comment on. Especially inasmuch as they give neither you nor me any points, or anything like that - or is that why status comments are preferred? Out of asceticism? (Not to be confused with aesthetics.)

I Need To Go To The Bathroom
During one of her daily classes, a teacher trying to teach good manners, asked one of her students the following question:"Michael, if you were on a date having dinner with a nice young lady, how would you tell her that you have to go to the bathroom?"Michael said, "Just a minute, I have to go pee."The teacher responded by saying, "That would be rude and impolite. What about you Sherman, how would you say it?"Sherman said, "I am sorry, but I really need to go to the bathroom. I'll be right back.""That's better, but it's still not very nice to say the word bathroom at the dinner table. And you, little Edward, can you use your brain for once and show us your good manners?""I would say, 'Darling, may I please be excused for a moment? I have to shake hands with a very dear friend of mine who I hope to introduce you to after dinner.'"The teacher fainted...

Firearms Refresher Course
We ought to have this done in needle-point and hanging over every mantle in the nation!!!1. "Those who hammer their guns into plows will plow for those who do not."~Thomas Jefferson 2. "Those who trade liberty for security have neither." ~ John Adams 3. Free men do not ask permission to bear arms. 4. An armed man is a citizen. An unarmed man is a subject. 5. Only a government that is afraid of its citizens tries to control them. 6. Gun control is not about guns; it's about control. 7.. You only have the rights you are willing to fight for. 8. Know guns, know peace, know safety. No guns, no peace, no safety. 9. You don't shoot to kill; you shoot to stay alive. 10. Assault is a behavior, not a device. 11. 64,999,987 firearms owners killed no one yesterday. 12. The United States Constitution (c) 1791. All Rights Reserved. 13. The Second Amendment is in place in case the politicians ignore the others. 14. What part of 'shall not be infringed' do you NOT understand? 15. Guns have only two e

More Lyrics With Meaning
What has come over meWhat madness taken hold of my heartTo run away, the only answerPulling me awayTo fall upon the nightThe source of my recoverySweet shadow taking hold of the lightAnother day has been devouredCalling me away, begging the questionWhy For saving me from all they've takenLetting my armor fall againGiving me the strength to face themFeeling it taking over nowOn a path to take it all awayThere can be no better way of knowing [Chorus]In a world beyond controllingAre you going to deny the saviorIn front of your eyesStare into the nightPower beyond containingAre you going to remain a slave forThe rest of your lifeGive into the night This self discoveryRedemption taking hold of my mindA serenade of haunting voicesCalling me awayTo feast upon the nightSo much felicityDark maiden taking hold of my handLead me away from hibernationStrong and unafraidNever a question why For saving me from all they've takenLetting my armor fall againGiving me the strength to face themFeeling

Lyrics That Hit Home
Never again will I be dishonoredAnd never again will I be remindedOf living within the world of the jadedThey kill inspirationIt's my obligationTo never again, allow this to happenWhere do I begin?The choices are endlessDenying the sinMy art, my redemptionI carry the torch of my fathers before me The thing I treasure most in life cannot be taken awayThere will never be a reason why I will surrender to your adviceTo change myself, I'd rather dieThough they will not understandI won't make the greatest sacrificeYou can't predict where the outcome liesYou'll never take me aliveI'm aliveI'm aliveI'm alive Change again, cannot be consideredI rage again, dispelling my angerWhere do I begin?The choices are endlessMy art, my redemption, my only salvationI carry the gift that I have been blessed withMy soul is adrift in oceans of madnessRepairing the rift that you have createdI am not alone, brothers, give me your arms now The thing I treasure most in life cannot be taken awayThere will never

So Busy
Between school, kids being sick and my great aunt passing away Monday, it's been hectic. On the weekend I was out of town sanding cabinets for my aunt who is getting ready to paint her kitchen and then I'll probably be back there when she starts painting. I did learn CPR yesterday, that was cool. Who wants the kiss of life? Anyone? So far I'm an A student, I'm the Hermione Granger of the group and get teased mercilessly but I don't care. I think it's funny the ex stripper is one of the top students! The women of the administration office asked me to start making jewelry for them to buy so I did and they are. Not rich yet but I just started last week and it helps with gas money at the very least. Well I have to get dishes done before I run off to school. Hope everyone has a great week! K

Lift The Wings! Irish Song!
The Wings lyricsHow can the small flowers growIf the wild wind blowsAnd the cold snow is all aroundWhere will the frail birds flyIf their homes on highHave been torn down to the groundLift the wingsThat carry me away from here andFill the SailThat breaks the line to homeBut when I'm miles and miles apart from youI'm beside you when I think of you - a Stóirín a GráHow can a tree stand tallIf a rain won't fallTo wash its branches downHow can a heart surviveCan it stay aliveIf its love's denied for longLift the wingsThat carry me away from here andFill the SailThat breaks the line to homeBut when I'm miles and miles apart from youI'm beside you when I think of you - a StóirínAnd I'm with you when I dream of you - a StóirínAnd a song will bring you near to me - a Stóirín a Grá

Brains & Virgin
Several starry nights ago In 1994, I tore your daughters dress to shreds And made her scrub the floor. Then I took her top off And I removed her bra Then I punched her in the kidneys Harr harr harr harr harr - 'Goldilocks & The Three Bananas' Brains & Virgin

Deleters And Stuff
It's been a long morning. I've had MAYBE 4 hours of sleep. I'm only awake because I might be called into work. Gotta love when my boss screws up the schedule. Anyway, I've been here for 3 years today. Seems weird. I didn't think I'd be here for a week. This place was confusing and I thought it was stupid. I was wrong. I've met some really wonderful people and wouldn't trade it for the world. My friends are awesome and I love them dearly. On the Fubar topic, there is an active MuMM where the guy deletes comments that he approves. [sigh] He won't even approve mine. I'm not sure why. I only said he needed to grow a set. Other topics now. I'm still sick. I'm coughing like crazy and I need coffee. I feel like I could pass out. I may doze off while I wait to see if I get a call. Bowling was horrible last night. I won't even get into my scores. I'll just say that I got above my average only one game, and that was barely. blah!!!!!!