The warm air in my lungs
the cold breathe on my lips
it took me a long time but i finally admit
that a love lost now beats a life lost later
as i sit here waiting for my heart to play
catch up and my mind to remain under control
i patrol my emotions that get the notion
that maybe this could continue with great resolve
dont tell me its over because my heart says so
just leave and let me deal in the only way i know
was this pain more fierce or did the fire die
did the needle pierce the depth of your soul
or was your consious to numb to notice?
as my lungs lay deflated, gasping for breath
let not my heart give out let me tell you this
i will not repeat the mistakes that left me gasping for less
much less than the three words you used so careless
did it hurt, did it even sting, i hope a part of you dies
when i cross the threshold we once shared
dont you dare look back my heart reminds me
as a tear graces my cheek believe me i wont weaken
i will not fall or fail, crack under the pressure
to see your face again, to hear your lips move
will be the last thing my ears will need to hear
for i fear, nothing you can say will crack a smile.
the bells and whistles have faded, water and clever word
tainted the beauty and sweet sounds of a "love" based on lies
based on what you will see as convenience, my love based on
something i will never lay a finger on, lest i cut it off.