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Lounge Party
DRINKS ON ME!!!!!       LIVE DJ!!!!!!!  http://www.fubar.com/lounge/64370 OK ALL LIVE DJ IN THE BUMP & GRIND LOUNGE. FEATURING RAINDEER KILLER AND ELVE INSLAVERCLICK THE PICTURE, YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO.  I DARE YOU TO BE NOSY!!!!!!
The Older I Get.....
The older I get, the more I learn about feelings, love, relationships in general.  I see some things in a different light, some things I don’t notice at all… I wish I had answers for everything I have questions to.  In time I will know what I need to but in the meantime I will just observe  … lol It’s a sleepy kind of day here … the wind is blowing and it’s pretty quiet for a Saturday.  It would be nice to stay in bed and cuddle on a day like this.  :)
Come Fall For Me
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Trucker Clock
Talk to teddybear  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQAsWbg-Qi8
Alter Bridge - Brand New Start
    Against the skyStreams of lightCall out to me and youWe leave as oneWe've just begunTo find the solace we're dueThis is the life we must choose[Chorus:]We will make a brand new startFrom the pieces of our heartsThe break of day is before usCast your sorrows to the windLet the highway take us inAs we escape the disorderThis desert roadThat we call homeThis is our destinyWe'll chase the setting sunAs we outrunA life of agonyGod how we ache to be free[Chorus 2x]We'll make our wayWe'll make our wayWe'll make our wayWe'll make our way
Costume Contest Prizes
      COME JOIN     HIGHTIMES FOR THEIR FIRST ANNUAL COSTUME CONTEST! COSTS 10K FUBUCKS TO ENTER THE CONTEST WILL BE HELD ON FRIDAY OCTOBER 30TH 9 PM EST YOU WILL HAVE 5 MIN ON CAM TO SHOW YOUR COSTUME IN ENTIRETY 1ST PRIZE(BEST COSTUME) 2 MIL FUBUCKS AND YOUR CHOICE OF 1 MONTH VIP OR $20 BLING PACK 2ND PRIZE(ORIGINAL COSTUME) 1 MONTH VIP OR $20 BLING PACK
Mr Magic
Pioneering Rap Deejay Mr. Magic Has Died John Rivas, the hip-hop radio deejay known as "Mr. Magic", has died of a heart attack.
Fireplace
Fireplace      As I fell asleep sitting in the chair, the fireplace is burning and giving out its soft glow as I awake I see your silhouette standing in front of the fireplace, its glow outlining your body. The sight is both beautiful and yet the same also very inviting. As I look at you it stirs an excitement in me. I get up from the chair and quietly walk up behind you. I put my hands on your waist and softly kiss the back of your neck, as I do I smell the scent of your hair and softly kiss your ear and say I Love You. I then go back to kissing your neck following your neck down to your shoulders and gently kissing each one. In between the kisses I’m ever so slowly following the curves of your body with my finger tips, I can feel your skin tightening as my fingers move along. I start kissing your back and then run my tongue down the middle of your back, as I get to your lower back you let out a soft moan as if trying to not let me notice. I move my hands back up along your s
Hightime First Annual Halloween Costume Contest
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A Real Friend
A Real Friend   If I could take a minute To help you understand I am a better person Because, you are my friend.   And it really doesn't matter If we're together or apart For I swept you up into my hands And placed you in my heart.   And if at any moment You ever start to doubt There's a special bond between us That I couldn’t live without.   You truly are the answers To many of my prayers When I told God I needed
Hala Hala
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Disillusioned Moth
..so, im grateful for those who helped me last night. heres a more sensible addendum. i suppose the planets were just misaligned or some great karmic debt was paid or the cosmos just wanted to give me a big 'fuck YOU, fucker!' last night.. whatever the reason, it was genuinely, deeply, absurdly fucking bad from every angle; that said, i simply have to believe, cos its the only way i know, that it was a necessary evil. some things are too heavy to even consider, so life runs off course and manifests in indelible ways at random times. fuck, i sound just as crazy as i did last night.. and i am.. but th falling from grace was sincere and genuine and necessary to 'us' and to ourselves. there was no ego involved with either of us..nor games..nor manipulation..nor orchestration..or even premeditation. it was authentic emotion on both sides.. painful,but meaningful, like most all things, worthwhile, in life.. well, again, thank u, my friends.. especially paul (he really was subjected to my ful
Age
  Today I realized that by originally posting my souls real age was getting me no where on Fubar. Where are all my old school ,vampire loving freaks???..... UUUGhhhh I am so sad I had to change to this bodies age - a simple 36years old-I am a ageless blood sucking freak who eats cocks to survive- lol- ok now that's funny I actually only suck them;  oh but I do eat pussy- but not to survive though it does help...   So So So Sad :`( Star  
Sweet Words
Sweet words are easy to say, Sweet things are easy 2 buy, But sweet people are difficult to find Life ends when U stop dreaming, Hope ends when U stop believing, Love ends when U stop caring, Friendship ends when U stop sharing. So share this with whom ever U consider a friend. To love without condition, To talk without intention, To give without reason, And to care without expectation is the heart of a true friend... Forward this to all the people whom U consider as your true friend. Dont forget to send it back to ME ..... If U Care........ Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile
People See
People see what's in front of them But, not all people see the same All I know is when I see her face Sometimes I can't even remember the day   I find it hard not to stare at her Sweet smile and eyes so true I could look at her all day Someday she will tell me I do   The physical part of her beauty The half you see is one part The other half is the greatest That is the beauty within her heart   The love she gives, without question Is the best gift she could ever bestow. I am the luckiest man in the world She's the most beautiful woman I know
Sometimes People
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.   Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight,
Kiss In The Rain
    A Kiss in the Rain   We step out of the car and into the street You can hear it hit softly, like the patter of little feet  It’s such a magical time, like sunset on the ocean We’re caught in its spell, and we move in slow motion  I move in close, with my hands on her waist I take it slow, no rush, and no haste  The rain slowly falls and the full moon shines She slides her arms around my neck, and says “your mine”  The rain picks up and it soaks our hair But our eyes are focused, we have no cares  I whisper in her ear, “I love you my dear “You will always be smiling; you have no use for tears&rdqu
Thinking Of You..
Thinking of You   I spend my time thinking, And wishing you was here. I stop and look around, Hoping that you were near.   Just because you are not with me, Doesn't mean a thing It's knowing that you know, That you’re my everything.   So whenever you feel lonely, Just look inside your heart. And know without a doubt, That in our spirits we will never be apart.
Your Beauty!
Lyrics to Beauty Is In The Eyes Of The Beerholder : Don't piss down my back then tell me it is raining. You just had to walk in before I kicked the table beneath my feet. If I can't have any friends I thought why not hang from the ceiling. Just because I ordered, doesn't mean I can't look at the menu. Not that there's any other fish in this sea I'd rather have on my plater than you. Just because I FUCKING ordered, doesn't mean I can't look at the menu. Not that there's any other fish in this sea. Don't drink and park, accidents in cars cause population. Fuck "more the merrier" there's only one person I need to feel this sinstation. If you need directions you can take the road that's down my sleeve, This time I'm taking you with me, but the cuffs are you; so good luck trying to leave! I hope one day I can cross your ocean, without feeling the puncture of your teeth. Believe me I'd rather drown myself, then knowing you have the power to pull me beneath. x2 There's so much oxygen th
Glass
Keep watching since the glass was tipped. Down the road is the box for phone and on a ladder is your connection. Back door will soon locked up. ABCDdcba Norio  
To My Friends And Family
first of all i want to thank my friends and family that attempt to keep contact with me, it means alot!   i dont have my own computer hooked up to the internet, i sometimes get a few minutes or hours a week when my roomates are all gone and i am awake and get to sneak on for a bit to check messages and play around on here but nothing regular and nothing extended with time so i do love and appreciate it when you guys copme to my page and send me messages and look at my pics and blogs i think its really awsome and i will get back to you with messages and try to return the love. if you really want me to return love/rates after you rate my stuff please send me a private message to my inbox either by gift or just message telling me you were here and whatever you want to say because sometimes its a few days or weeks before i get on and my bar tab gets cleared by fu so looks like no one has been here...   another thing... i dont have my own internet access but some of you have my yahoo me
No White Roses
    My heart constricts as the straight jacket of fear tightens love's blood flowPenned by my lover's words.Emotions run the gamut through this gauntlet of faith My body quivers at this primal finality as souls death blow is landedAnd it fetals me into a submissive stance and the moment becomes my truthas clenched fists are grouted in permanence, You looked at me with ever calling eyes, so life like with sincerityAs you whispered my soul's last rites,with your denialYou placed no white roses upon my body or before meBut only the stiff white funereal lillies of deathThat have no fragrance to permeate the air with their sweet scentBut leave the aromatic reminder of my lover's death words to me Your lips that know the feel of betrayal's breathWill no longer know the feel of my name passing between themAnd I pray your heart grows wistful and aches with need of it's sound Forever chanted to echo through the alter of your mindA litney of lost love with no absolution to ease your sorrow
Intimidation And Criminal Threats
Intimidation (also called cowing) is intentional behavior "which would cause a person of ordinary sensibilities" fear of injury or harm. It's not necessary to prove that the behavior was so violent as to cause terror or that the victim was actually frightened.[1] "The calculated use of violence or the threat of violence to attain goals political, religious, or ideological in nature...through intimidation, coercion, or instilling fear" can be defined as terrorism.[2]Threatening behaviours are supposed to be a maladaptive outgrowth of normal competitive urge for interrelational dominance generally seen in animals.Like all behavioral traits it exists in greater or lesser manifestation in each individual person over time, but may be a more significant "compensatory behavior" for some as opposed to others. Behavioral theorists often see threatening behaviours as a consequence of being threatened by others, including parents, authority figures, playmates and siblings. “Use of force is
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You Can't Build A Reputation On What You're Going To Do
This morning’s Breakfast With The Boys was actually relaxing and filling too!  Oh, we did have some discussion of what’s going on in Bethany Lutheran and how we’re going to react to our governing body the Evangelical Lutheran Church of America’s decision to ordain same-sex unions as well as allow openly homosexual or lesbian clergy in “committed relationships” to serve.  Many have already come out in our church as saying they’ll leave if nothing is done or our bylaws aren’t amended to reflect that Bethany won’t ordain or allow such unions or persons in leadership positions in our congregation.  And as I understand it, the rest of the churches in town are watching what we’re doing … we also ate really well, the eighteen of us, and this morning’s Men’s Bible study we SO needed.  The parable of the prodigal son is a favorite of mine. Today’s the second day in a row I’ve had to be dropped off at wor
Chris
My name is Chris,I am three,My eyes are swollen.I cannot see.I must be stupid,I must be bad,What else could have made,My daddy so mad?I wish I were better,I wish I weren't ugly,Then maybe my mommy,Would still want to hug me....I can't do a wrong,I can't speak at all,Or else I'm locked up,All day long.When I'm awake,I'm all alone,The house is dark,My folks aren't home.When my mommy does come home,I'll try and be nice,So maybe I'll just get,One whipping tonight.I just heard a car,My daddy is back,From Charlie's barI hear him curse,My name is called,I press myself,Against the wall.I try to hide,From his evil eyes,I'm so afraid now,I'm starting to cry.He finds me weeping,Calls me ugly words,He says its my fault,He suffers at work.He slaps and hits me,And yells at me more,I finally get free,And run to the door.He's already locked it,And I start to bawl,He takes me and throws me,Against the hard wall.I fall to the floor,With my bones nearly broken,And my daddy continues,With more bad words s
Tired
I am tired,physically and mentally. My mother can't harldly hear,is blind in her right eye and now can't remember something five mins after she asks you. I don't even know what i am doing half the time anymore. There is no one to talk to about it that sees it like I do. My sisters don't have a medical background and don't see where this is leading. Few of my friends even see her this way. I am supposed to be fine all the time,it's my job. My temper is short with my kids and they are hating me for it. I can't concentrate anymore and I sometimes just want to give up. I can't just take my kids and leave,who is going to take care of my mother? My sister can't do it alone and the other sister is no help. She is too busy off living her life and not giving a crap per usual. I think,maybe I should just go see a therapist,at least when I leave her office,I really wont care that I don't live up to any ecpectations. At least she is listening to me and giving me the advice I need and not the other
Help Her Out Yall
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The Trip
You told me there was life out there That I needed to look upon the stars So I took a trip across the constilation And drop kicked Jupiter into Mars I gatherd up some Moon dust just for added flare But got to be careful look what it has done to my hair I sailed across the Milkway and touched every star When you see life from this angle Heaven doesn't seem quite so far I brushed wings with a Angel but she told me not to speak Just to enjoy the ride my child for you do not want to become weak For there is so much beuty that you have yet to taken in So enjoy it while you have it and let the trip begin
*happy Dance*
So I was offered a job as a cashier a couple of weeks ago and they kept pushing training farther and farther back..Well I finally start on Monday! and they've offered me a promotion up to the day lead cashier! Yay! Makes being a cashier better! and yay! work! woot!
Great Weekend
just feel  always in love and   a great weekend  is  very nice  :) love weekends !  yeah workout and  stuff today  so feel good :) 
My Friends
hey all this one is to all my friends they are silly kooky crazy they are srpead across the globe ive never met them but i love them they are my fu friends when a gak needs someone all this queen has to do is log in they are always there in good time and bad wow i love you all guys hugs from your queen
Romance
I have tried but it's so uncontrolled. Crazed and ecstatic, Cupid's choke-hold. Like fighting the oxygen I need for my life. Bouncing around what's wrong and what's right. A familiar face and careful hands Holding me tightly as time lets me mend. Patient and lovely in all different ways. A beautiful soul, where my dreams lay. A haunted past, a world made from dust. Flammable words threaten to combust. Forbidden but wanted, secretive moves. [Nothing can stop me from being with you.] Consumed by the pain when he walks my way. And one word from you removes all the ache. My shoulders are heavy with my dirty deeds. But deep down inside, please forgive me. I have waited and pondered and thought, And I've concluded that you're what I want. Inside so pure and bright as the moon, I can't help falling in love with you.
Rio Is Always Lovely
last night i was 3+ million points from leveling and Rio did the altruize thing for me...never said a word, just did it(y)..and i leveled because of her help :D .she rocks...most of you know her and if you dont you should. shes one of those people who is always a sweetheart and happy, so show her some love...   thanx Rio (h) ♥RίoIśŁovəly♥FuMarriedtoArmy4Life♥FuOwnedByTotalChaos69♥@ fubar
Next Saturday, 10/17
Is gonna fuckin rock!    
They Outlawed The Ghost Dance
Crow has brought the messageto the children of the sunfor the return of the buffaloand for a better day to comeYou can kill my bodyYou can damn my soulfor not believing in your godand some world down belowYou don't stand a chanceagainst my prayersYou don't stand a chanceagainst my love
Do You Want All Your Pix Rated?
Do you want all your pix rated? It's easy just sb me or pm me when your ready to send me a 5 credit bling pack! All your pictures will be rated and if you want a reference just as i can send them to you lol. Hope to hear from you soon.
Deep Waters Do Not Run Still
Sie will es und so ist es feinSo war es und so wird es immer seinTiefe Brunnen muss man grabenwenn man klares Wasser willWas sie will bekommt sie auchTiefe Wasser sind nicht still
When You Have Lost Your True Love.................
   This topic was a mumm last night.I didnt get to share my vast knowledge because I was blocked for whatever  reason.      The answer is NO.It doesnt get any better. You dont cry in public for no apparent reason as much,you learn to find a more private place.Then one day your tear ducts  dont betray you and now you can feel all the emotional  release of a good cry while joking and smoking with the boys.NO it doesnt get any better.      You dont bury your face in the cloths she had wore and left behind.With just a hint of her perfume,or her favorite bath soap.Just the rite amount of Downey.No you dont pile them in the bed and try to sleep with your face buried in them.You finally wash them and put them in the Cedar chest at the foot of your Daughters bed.You know how fashion 360's.NO it doesnt get any better.       You know she's in a better place doing more important things than baby sitting your evil ass,when you realize she never left.Oh no she turned the reins over to someone mu
Friends
It is simple, you keep in contact with me, I will you. I will rate you...bling you at times..and be a true friend. I have a couple I call my friends, some I have seen just to be the fubar sluts they claimed not to be. If that is what you are, delete yourself. Everyone wants to level, but I am more intelligent than some points you give people. I do not want to be treated as a number in your list. And would like to be removed if that is what I am. If you want to talk, write me...I will talk..I added everyone for a reason...and love everyone the same. I am not talking about my top friends....i just want to see who is here to actually be a friend. Because, I am. AND TO HAVE FUN! Best of both worlds.  Love you all.
Bacterial Vaginosis Treatment
Bacterial Vaginosis Treatment If you have a fishy vaginal odor which is accompanied by a gray or white watery discharge and severe irritation around the delicate tissues of the vaginal area, it is likely that you are suffering from bacterial vaginosis. This is an extremely common condition which can effect 1 in 3 women over the course of their lives, although some experts reckon that almost every woman will have had a least one mild attack.Fortunately, natural treatment for bacterial vaginosis can be highly effective and, due to the very nature of the condition, can work much more effectively than expensive antibiotics and over the counter remedies.Bacterial vaginosis is caused by an imbalance of the naturally occurring bacteria within the vagina. Under normal circumstances, the beneficial bacteria within the vagina keeps the harmful bacteria under control by ensuring that the pH balance is maintained at a slightly acidic level. When something happens to cause an imbalance, the harm
To Late To Say Goodbye
the phonbe rings awaken from a dream i answer its ny sister the conversation is not good i get the news my aunt had died in her sleep omg my aunt no we were close i cant get down to ky to late to say goodbye i had thought of her the day before but didnt call why i wish i would have now but now to late to say good bye as tears well up i scream cursing god why is he being so crude to me what have i done in life to lose so fucking much i sit here now remembering her her tellin me be good bj the spakins i used to get for gettin in her stuff damn i cant even get to ky yo be there i think thats the hardest part whos next every body do the queen a favor tell your fams you love them everyday no matter what cause you never know when or if it will be to late to say goodbye I love you frannie tell mom and dad i love them to damn it why ppls why
You Call Your Self A Soldier You Don't Disrespect A Lady And One Whom Is A Navy / Army Mom
YOU MADE THE WRONG CHOICE OF WORDS TO ME YOUNG MAN AND YOU JUST DISRESPECTED THE SERVICE YOUR WITH 
Let Go
God forbid that I'd be able to let go. So D, it is almost impossible for me let go and just be a kid again. Any reaction and this includes silence from anything I place here or at myspace hits the nail on the head. Reaction is noted. Long time ago I had to grow up real quick. That is hard enough but the US ARMY was the final work that finished me. To this day I am not sure of exactlu what I did. To wake up this morning at 5:30 and then wake up close to 9 leaves me wondering, did the sleep catch up with me or was I doing something else. If I wake up in a strange bed or a strange woman or a woman I already know next to me in my bed. Well, that's the stunner isn't it? Interesting to note that I have an appointment with the surgeon in Haddonfield rather than Vorhees. Norio  
Come Join The Best Lounge In Fubar!
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Ooh - New Here!!
Soooooooo,   New to the place, just finding my feet. Used to work in admin, but recently made the move to become a full time, self employed photographer! Glad to be here, Forex Secrets Forex Investments Forex Self Learning Programs
Tasty Teen Tracy Getting Fucked
Hi everybody   As we continue the build up to the restart of new footage on The Adventures of James Wildfowler I would like to share with you a scene which will be released soon   It stars Tracy who is 19 years old and this is her one and only ever hardcore porn film and you can see all the action in the coming weeks   See her striping naked and showing off her wonderful young body and amazing tits before sucking cock then getting her shaved pussy fingered and fucked   Tracy then takes a face and mouthful of red hot spunk in this one off scene and is not to be missed   There is over 28 minutes of video and 225 hardcore pics   To see the samples use this link   http://www.jameswildfowler.com/teen-girl-fucked.html   Enjoy   James Wildfowler   www.jameswildfowler.com
Astonished And Disgusted
Ok so just how many people on here are fakes? I am sure a bunch of you now know about the fake nc cher/dok thing but recently we have come to the realization that it was more than just those two profiles and the one person doing them. I just have to say I sat and cried all day on Thursday when I found out about one of whom I thought at the time was a very good friend to me dying. And then come to find out it was all a joke and made up, and the person isn't even REAL!!! I mean wow I helped with his Happy Hour to remember him, and all the blings and stuff that he received and bombs and autos I just sent to him because I felt bad for him. I am just sitting here in awe and it's already been two days, but every time I get on I hear more and more and it disgusts me that someone can treat so many the way he did. I do strongly believe in Karma and I hope it gets you very good!!! Also if you want to even read more about it read this blog. http://fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=1486248432
Sweet Cherry Pie
    I just turned 40 and am a single mom of 3 and love all my friends dearly. My favorite saying is always remember what you do and to whom because Karma will return to you maybe not today or tomorrow but soon.I became a darke angel since they prove to be classy, sassy, and of course we are sexy. But first you have to believe in yourself and be confident of who you are and if you don't like what you see, change it before it's too late.I have been on fubar since 2007 and have met some superb people and have made some really great friends. I look forward to meeting more, so stop by anytime and say hello
Chapter 11 Time Alone With Bella Pt 2
“Are you all right?” I asked tenderly, reaching out slowly, carefully, to place my hand back in hers.  She looked at my hand, and then at my eyes, then back to my hand.  She continued tracing the lines in my hand with her fingertip.  She looked up at me and smiled timidly, and I smiled back. “So where were we, before I behaved so rudely?” I asked.  “Honestly I can’t remember.” She said shyly.  I smiled with a shamed look on my face.  “I think we were talking about why you were afraid, besides the obvious reason.”  “Oh, right.”  She said.  “Well?” I quipped. She looked down at my hand and doodled aimlessly across my palm.  The seconds ticked by.  “How easily frustrated I am,” I sighed. She gazed into my eyes.  “I was afraid…because, for, well, obvious reasons, I can’t stay with you.  And I’m afraid that I’d like to stay with you, much more than I should.”  S
Chapter 11 Time Alone With Bella
Time alone with Bella   The next morning I was at Bella’s house, waiting patiently for her.  She threw open the door and locked it quickly, almost running to my side.  I chuckled as I watch her; she almost tripped over her own feet.  “Good morning” I said still laughing.  “What’s wrong?” she asked.  “Well…you rushed to me so quickly you almost tripped, and we match.” I said.  She glanced over me and then herself and giggled.  “Yeah how funny, we do match.” I stood by the passenger’s side of her truck, waiting for her to unlock the door.  She climbed into the driver’s side and unlocked the door for me.  “Where to?” she asked.  “Put your seatbelt on…I’m nervous already” I replied.  She gave me a dirty look, but she complied. “So where to?” she asked again.  “Take the one-oh-two north,” I ordered.  We drove in silence for a bit.  “Were you p
How To Build A Solar Panel
Solar panels are capable of providing usable electricity to power to all your home appliances and it can be quite substantial as well. For the residential community, using solar energy is the most sensible decision for many different reasons. Click here to read more - home solar power systems and how to build a solar panel In recent years, home solar power systems have garnered some notable leaps and that continues as the price of electricity and other forms of energy continue to rise. These solar systems are the most common means that homeowners are harnessing solar energy. They harness the sun's energy and convert it into electrical power efficiently. These solar power systems are then connected to the house and the energy is transferred to the house powering it with usable electricity. Learn how to build a solar panel today!
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Get Nekkid With Tulip
on her Saturday morning radio show at 8am eastern!!! Get connected & happy listening! Of course Stay Nekkid! http://st1.webradioworld.net:8258/
Living With Lupus....
As some of you know... I have Lupus. I am asked all the time what it is, how you get it, if it's contagious, if it is curable, etc. Lupus is a chronic inflammatory disease... an autoimmune disease. Auto means "self". Your immune system mistakes your own tissues for a virus or infection, and tries to destroy it. It can affect various parts of the body.... the skin, joints, blood, organs, etc.Below is a link to a website with a lot of good information.... Click on the logo if you would like to know more about Lupus, or make a donation for Lupus research. For those of you who wonder why I am always sick, complaining about my pains, etc....Here is MY story:I have almost died 3 times....The first time was when I was 20, from blood clots....they started in my legs, and broke off into my lungs. The doctors didn't really do any tests, and just blamed the blood clots on smoking & birth control pills. So I stopped both, took blood thinners for about a year, and then got off of them.
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What Love Is
These three things are to be taken note of: the lowest love is sex - it is physical - and the highest refinement of love is compassion. Sex is below love, compassion is above love; love is exactly in the middle. Very few people know what love is. Ninety-nine percent of people, unfortunately, think sexuality is love - it is not. Sexuality is very animal; it certainly has the potential of growing into love, but it is not actual love, only a potential.... If you become aware and alert, meditative, then sex can be transformed into love. And if your meditativeness becomes total, absolute, love can be transformed into compassion. Sex is the seed, love is the flower, compassion is the fragrance. Buddha has defined compassion as love plus meditation. When your love is not just a desire for the other, when your love is not only a need, when your love is a sharing, when your love is not that of a beggar but an emperor, when your love is not asking for something in return but is ready only to giv
Changes Long Overdue
I have thought about this for MANY years & agonized over the decision. I have for a long time been unhappy in My male body. I just never felt "right". With the help of My wonderful Sis, I have chosen to take matters into My own hands & change into who I was meant to be....a beautiful woman. The road will be a long one, but one well worth it.   In advance, Ty all     Lovingly Yours Ani
Wolf - Demon
When you search for your inner lightAnd you've opened every doorI come to see you againLike so many, many times before I am the demonIn your mindI will make you blindI will make you blindIt's like you're dreamingAnd I'm schemingTo stay inside your mindInside your mind So you dare to raise me againIn the cold embrace of nightI'm your guide and your flame of lifeI'm the edge if a sharpened knife I'm liquid fireI am here to eat your flesh and mindYour flesh and mindI have the answers to your questionsSeek and you shall findYes, you shall find Now drink this holy cup of poisonDrink this blood of mineAnd I will ease your painJust let me be inside your veinsDon't you worry 'bout tomorrowPerhaps tomorrow never comesWhen you are lonely in the darkThe only friend you've got is me I am the demonIn your mindI have made you blindI've made you blindIt's like you're dreamingAnd I'm schemingForever in your mindInside your mind I'll take you away to my dark domainNo worries now I'll ease your
40 Tips To A Better Life
40 Tips for a Better Life1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-....depressant. 2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. 3. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep. 4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, ‘My purpose is to __________ today.’ 5. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy. 6. Play more games and read more books than you did in 2007. 7. Make time to practice meditation, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives. 8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6. 9. Dream more while you are awake. 10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants. 11. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts. 12. Try to make at least three people smile each day. 13. Clear clutter from your hous
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My Seminole Heritage !!
MY MOM IS SEMINOLE AND MY DAD IS SCOTTISH, WHAT A COMBO!!: FLORIDA, WHERE I LIVE has a history like no other.This ground that you walk, drive and live on was once the home of a band of savages chased here by the soldiers led by General Andrew Jackson.Made up of Cherokee, Creek, Choctaw and runaway slaves, they were known as the Redsticks.Now known as the Seminole.Andrew Jackson (Yes, the future " great American President" ) informed the different tribes that they would be re-located.If they didn't re-locate, all would be re-located or killed. Some re-located, some stayed, some fought, some died(men,women,children) and some organized to defend the land that gave them so much.Jackson chased the warriors and their families into Florida and scattered them under Spanish rule.Meanwhile,  he gave away the land that he said the peaceful indian tribes could live on, to any white settlers that wanted it.In the 1820's and 1830's, a half Irish. half seminole warrior took up the Seminole cause a
A Lovers Prayer
The love I feel for you is like no other every moment i am awake you are on my mind every time i lay down my head and close my eyes you are there beside me longing for the moment when i can be in your arms again holding you close, feeling your heart beat next to mine feeling your warm lips pressed against me in my heart, you are my husband no one else in this world holds a candle to you missing the smell of your skin the feel of your touch wishing you were here right now but thankful for what i do still have hoping and praying we will make it through these tough times we are facing but i know as long as we face them together there is nothing in this world that can stop us for true love is hard to find and even harder to throw away when two souls are meant to be nothing can bring them down so i sit here and wait for the day you come back to me and i will be right here for you hoping and praying you see as i do once again
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Bragging
I dont think there is anything more sad than a man trying to impress a woman by tellin her about his wealth and success. Nothing is more revolting than bragging, and when a guy mentions to me his huge house, or his paycheck, or whatever it is he thinks would impress the pants off of me, I just wanna puke in my mouth a little and chop his dick like a piece of liver.   The sadder part is, that there are women that would swoon and drool over brainless idiots like that. Just pathetic...
Wondering Who
Its late! And I am putting vids together for my new site coming up! I hope guys and girls love it?  
Musc99
As the week finally came to an end, we decided that a night out would be a good way to end a busy week. U came up with the idea of going out to eat, so u picked a place to go and eat. We arrive an we are seated and waiting patiently. I started to stare at u cause we have not had one night alone all week. U stare back at me and shake ur head no cause u knew what I was thinking, but I was nodding yes. I got up and walked away, u noticed that I was going to the bathroom so u figured that u would follow. As u walked in I locked the door behind you. I asked " If u are against it y are u in here"? You looked at me said "Icouldnt resist". U told me to get on the sink,and as a good girl I comply. U run ur hands up my shirt and gently kiss my neck, I start to wrap my legs around you and pull u closer. I grab onto to your back and start to scratch. I pull ur shirt up so that I can feel u alot better. You continue to kiss my neck but then u start to kiss lower. U stop and look at me and smile as
The Raven
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.`'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -Only this, and nothing more.'Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrowFrom my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -Nameless here for evermore.And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtainThrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating`'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -This it is, and nothing more,'Prese
Fake Of The Weekend 10/10/2009
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This Is Our "fake Of The Weekend"
Let’s play a new game - Name that Fake !! flakitcat ~Come visit me at the Pirates Cove@ fubar Really. Hey it got an auto today too. Rofl. Have a great weekend.
Bad Day--r.i.p Big Brother
today has been a fairly messed up day for me Oct 9 my brother steves bday or would be Oct 10 he passed away. Ive put myself through alot of emotion today when in reality I miss my brother. He was a great guy always positive always wistling or singing a tune. i just feel so lost today--Miss you big brother!!
Home
I AM BACK WITH MY FAMILY AFTER A YEAR AWAY, MY KIDS HAVE GROWN IN SO MANY WAYS AS I LOOK AT THEM IT MAKES ME SAD,CAUSE I MISSED A YEAR AS THIER DAD DOING MY JOB IN A FAR AWAY LAND I HAVE CHANGED TO THEM AS WELL, I AM NOT THE SAME MAN AS I WAS WHEN I LEFT BUT AS WE SPEND TIME TOGETHER WE NOTICE LITTLE THINGS WHICH MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AS I LOOK BACK AT THE TIME I SPENT IN THAT FAR AWAY LAND I REAIZE THAT I HAD SO MUCH FREE TIME ON MY HANDS WITH TIME TO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE I HAD LEFT MY WIFE MY KIDS AND FAMLIY AND FRIENDS SO NOW THAT I AM BACK IN THE BEST LAND A MAN CAN DEFEND, I LOOK BACK AND WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGIAN FOR THERE IS NO GREATER FEELING THEN DEFENDING OUR FREEDOM...JRO LOVE ALL MY FU FRIENDS  
Just Thinkin Of My Past
wb was born jan 25 of 2001 two weeks old i take him to the dr office he is not well the dr put him in the hospitl folks its rsv as a new mom i was scared for my little guy three days later they flew him to cable hungiton hospital the flight dr says they dont think he will make the flight omg iam in a panick me my mom and sister drives as fast as we can to cabel i dont know if my little boy will be there when i arrive i get there the dr makes me wait he is in critcilal oh god i thought no please dont take him 22 hour later they call for me iam tremblin is my baby boy ok i go in to see him looks like a horror flick tubes every where what the hell the dr comes in and says he is alive just a machine is keepin him alive i srceam why will he be ok i fall to my knees beggin god please dont take him please the dr takes me out of the room he explains that i have to be strong for j and me losin it willnot help but all i think you dont know what iam feelin omg they say he will be ok they dont kno
Questions 10-10-09
I'm bored..so ask me anything. No matter how innane, embarrasing, thought-provoking, or personal it may be...I promise to answer truthfully or bullshit so completely that you would never know I was blowing smoke up your ass. In return I will ask you a question...it will be fun. Let us entertain each other
Love?
how can someone write about a love when there are no words to explain, its' hard to go each day and not have the person you love to be with you it's hard to be happy knowing you have to wait to see them and when you do you only get a certain ammount of time i cry almost everyday to help ease the pain i feel from missing you and being alone to go to bed and reach for the one you love and they are not there just a space like the distance between us my heart has a cloud over it and when you come around the sun starts to shine through but when i have to say bye again the thunder and rain begin to pour over my heart. my lonely nights will someday end,but right now my pain is great with love you will have hurt,if loveing was always being happy then it wouldn't be love. because you will always miss it when it's gone my tears seem to ease my pain from not having you here to hold. so my eyes grow weary from the fallen tears through my eyes pour the rain from the storm over my
Untitled
can you solve for me a mystery of why things have to change. why is life so complicated why can't things just stay the same i understand that people grow and often grow apart but why did it have to be you when i had given you my heart, i held inside my feelings never told you how i feel but i need to tell you somehow that i know this could be real you have a special something i just can't figure out but i know that it could work that is what love is about ill keep inside my feelings i just can't let you know because of what will happen you'll change and then you'll go.....
To My Love
i wish i could hold you as you fall sleep and be the one to kiss you goodnight i wish that i could look into your eyes and see your smile shining bright i wish that you were mine to hug and to whisper in you ear i wish that i could look you in the face and tell you that i am glad you are here i wish that i could be with you and that i could be your tru love you heart is caring and you soul is true you make me blush uncontrollably and its' because i care for you
Poem
I'll surrender my world to you . if that is the only way i can become a part of yours. The beating of my hear is a drum and it's lost and it's looking for a rythm like you. if you love someone you have to look before you leap. it takes a second to say i love you but a lifetime to show it when i miss you i don't have to go far... i just have to look inside my heart because that is where i will find you. i heard someone whisper your name, but when i turned around to see who it was. i was alone. then i realized it was my heart telling me that i miss you if you love me as i love you then nothing but death can part us two
Been Burned...
Maybe I am noticing this more because I have been looking for it, but it seems there are a good number of women that feel ALL men are assholes, posers, liars, whatever...I use the internet to meet people, especially women due to my schedule and lack of time where women are. I have read many profiles on this as well as other sites that women, whom are trying to meet men I might add, feel that men are all liars or cheats. I am willing to wager about everyone that has dated on a regular basis has had their bad stretches. I have literally dated several women in a row that were crazy, stalker types. I do not condemn all women. I learn and start over. If I couldn't trust women anymore I would be a monk. I suggest women that feel that way should either get over it or become a nun. The rest of the world doesn't want to hear how you've become narrow-minded due to the last two guys that cheated on you. And smart guys won't want to date you. The only guys that will be interested will be the ones
Ignorant People
hello all do you hate ignorant people who thinks they can tear your world apart with rude comment well i do i work at mcds and we have one girl ho hates gay and bis of which iam bi and she knows this to top it off our store manger is gay and id hate to be her if our boss would find out one day someone will find who this girl is really and when she is on the spot light i know she will not like people makin fun of her for some one to point the finger surley has something to hide
My Baby
my baby left me here and went to fl for the weekend and i don't get to see her until sunday night.
Me In A Nutshell!
We chase misprinted liesWe face the path of timeAnd yet I fightAnd yet I fightThis battle all aloneNo one to cry toNo place to call homeOooh...oooh...Oooh...oooh...My gift of self is rapedMy privacy is rakedAnd yet I findAnd yet I findRepeating in my headIf I cant be my ownId feel better deadOooh...oooh...Oooh...oooh...
Home
I SPENT A YEAR AWAY IN A DESSRT FAR AWAY, I MISSED MY KIDS ND MY WIFE AS WELL NOW THAT I'M HOME ALL IS WELL I MISSED A YEAR OF MY KIDS LIFE, AND ALSO THE TIME AWAY FROM MY WIFE I SAT IN THE DESSERT DAY IN AND DAY OUT WORKING AND TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT, THE LIFE I LEFT BACK AT HOME; BECAUSE WHEN I DID I FELT VERY ALONE SO NOW THAT I AM BACK WITH MY FAMILY AGAIN, I THINK ABOUT THOSE DAYS AGAIN WHEN I SAT THERE AND THOUGHT ABOUT THEM, WISHING I COULD KISS AND HUG MY WIFE AND KIDS ALL OVER AGAIN THE HARDEST THING TO GET USE TO SENT I AM BACK AT HOME IS THE FACT THAT I AM NOT ALONE, I AM BLESSED TO BE HERE WITH THEM AND HOPE THAT I DONT HAVE TO LEAVE THEM EVER AGAIN BUT IF I DO IT WILL BE TO DEFEND THE RED WHITE AND BLUE...jro   LOVE ALL MY FU FIRENDS      
Next To You Lyrics
Girl I gotta be next to you [x2]I'm waiting, anticipating for you baby(cuz I gotta be next to you)And I'm wantingYou cuz you got meBoy you got me(cuz I gotta be next to you)Baby you on my mindAs long as we spending time girl(cuz I gotta be next to you) [x2][MIKE JONES]I ain't tripping about the lime light Cause when im with my shawty She keep my mind right When we up in the mallShe feel up shopping bagShe love to popp them tagsShe love to drive the jagsWhenever we aloneShe throw away my phoneCuz she dont want no in a rushes while we going strongMy baby, my babyDon't be on dat bullshit My baby, my babyKnow I keep her full clipThats why IMet her outside 745Thats why ITake pride when I slide up in them thighsMy baby boo she trueU know she hold me downSo when I get some timeI spend it with her nowI'm waiting, anticipating for you baby(cuz I gotta be next to you)And I'm wantingYou cuz you got meBoy you got me(cuz I gotta be next to you)Baby you on my mindAs long as we spending time girl(cuz
The Upper Level List ... Who You Can Help
      I do believe in awareness! This is the Upper Level List!! Only Level 30's qualify !! Can we hit hit the 300 mark? Let's keep it moving!! Gratitude: we have lost sight of that on the fu! But it's a must for this list! Upper Level List Top Sponsors : This are the sponsors they have spent real cash to help you! Thank them or get off the list! ד®ÎÇk¥ÐÏÇK™ Hey folks I run this list I set it up to help any level 30 member that knows how to say thank you can get free help!I do expect folks on the list to help other members it's only fair since, your getting free help. You must thank the sponsors & the people helping you to remain on the list! There is no clubs to join!!! Interested In Being A Sponsor Contact Me! ♥ CÄnðy Gi®£ ♥@ fubar Has Stickied 21 List for the Upper Levels that's She needs donations for spotlight so if you
Goodbye David
This blog is from Doktajay's page.... it touched me so much i felt that all my friends should see it too. David was a good friend of mine and I will never forget him.... he will always be in my heart and watching over us from the stars.   GOODBYE DAVID created @ 2009-10-08 01:59:55   It is with a very heavy heart that I pass on this news.Sometime early this morning, Thursday, October 8, 2009, my dear friend, David Michael Wolf, aka NC CHEROKEE WARRIOR here on Fubar, passed away in his sleep at his home in Joppa, MD.Those of you who knew David, knew that he had been dealing with terminal small cell carcinoma. David had continued to work, driving long hauls to help cover the cost of his medications. I knew David his entire life. His family and mine have been close for several generations. I used to watch David when he was a child, and I watched him grow up to be a very special man.David was first and foremost a poet. He turned many of his writings into songs,
Fragile...?
i feel a bit off. no a good bit off. the umph is not so readily within my grasp the intense colors are just average. my senses are dulled and im conflicted about that. strange that im in this haze. this too will pass for im too stubborn to bow this life is dull and listless enough as it so....                     i encourage brilliance of color be injected till then i carry on, slightly deflated, the senses not as acute. ill be here, when the time is right. i cant pass this up.      
Darryl Worley - I Miss My Friend
I miss the look of surrender in your eyesThe way your soft brown hair would fallI miss the power of your kiss when we made loveOh, but baby most of allI miss my friendThe one my heart and soul confided inThe one I felt the safest withThe one who knew just what to say to make me laugh againAnd let the light back inI miss my friendI miss the colors that you brought into my lifeYour golden smile, those blue-green eyesI miss your gentle voice in lonely times like nowSaying it'll be alrightI miss my friendThe one my heart and soul confided inThe one I felt the safest withThe one who knew just what to say to make me laugh againAnd let the light back inI miss my friendI miss those timesI miss those nightsI even miss our silly fightsThe making upThe morning talksAnd those late afternoon walksI miss my friendThe one my heart and soul confided inThe one I felt the safest withThe one who knew just what to say to make me laugh againlet the light back inI miss my friendI miss my friendI miss my fri
Thoughts
why do people treat animals like their not werthy of being on this earth and steals pets from disable people ,just to make life undeirable for them t o make life easier live .
Unraveling
..foremost, dont assume this is a silly lil fubar romance gone awry.. those of you who kno me kno better.. that said, ive hurt the most genuine love of my life, in some way, today. yes, im married and my mays is my dearest friend in life; always has been.. and he's the most amazing daddy to my veda.. and my home and my friends and my world are beautiful and happy and fulfilling.. but stevil is my true 'One'. the one who balances the weight.. who settles my crazy head.. who nourishes my soul.. who holds me more carefully than anyone else.. who touches me more deeply than anyone else.. who carries me on bad days and blows me away on good ones.. the one who has, single handedly, made me feel beautiful and meaningful and at ease with myself.. the one whom i feel most comfortable with.. he's my soul mate. my family knows he's in my life.. my husband is even grateful for him.. its THAT genuine..that tangible.. but somehow, today, i lost him along the way.. and now im just fucking lost in the
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor Reachin’ for the phone ‘cause I can’t fight it anymore And I wonder if I ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time It’s a quarter after one I’m all alone And I need you now Said I wouldn’t call But I’ve lost all control And I need you now And I don’t know how I can do without I just need you now Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before And I wonder if I ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time It’s a quarter after one I’m a little drunk And I need you now Said I wouldn’t call But I’ve lost all control And I need you now And I don’t know how I can do without I just need you now Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all It’s a quarter after one I’m all alone And I need you now And I said I wouldn’t call, But I’m a
Keith Urban - Only You Can Love Me This Way
Well, I know there’s a reasonAnd I know there’s a rhymeWe were meant to be togetherThat’s whyWe can roll with the punchesWe can stroll hand in handAnd when I say it’s foreverYou understandThat you’re always in my heartYou’re always on my mindAnd when it all becomes too muchYou’re never far behindAnd there’s no one that comes close to youCould ever take your place‘Cause only you can love me this wayI could’ve turned a different cornerI could’ve gone another placeBut I’d a-never had this feelingThat I feel todayYeahAnd you’re always in my heartYou’re always on my mindWhen it all becomes too muchYou’re never far behindAnd there’s no one that comes close to youCould ever take your place‘Cause only can love me this wayOoooohh…Na na, somebody love youAnd you’re always in my heartYou’re always on my mindAnd when it all becomes too muchYou’re never far behindAnd there&
Dfqergqerq
I was pretty bummed all day at work. I had went to the HR office talked to them about my benifits and all...they gave me a number to call some other HR place and I talked with them for about 10 minutes. I guess I hadn't had any insurance since March 31st...and all this time I thought I did. I never had to go to the doctor for anything betrween then, which is good...and I had my monthly pills for a while...but I've been out for a while...and out of sleeping pills to help me sleep. She was telling me that the doctuments that Rich supposebly faxed, didn't go through..something happened or maybe he didn't do it. I dunno.... That just frustrates me...what if something happened to me? She said she's going to try to figure out what happened and will phone me back...haven't got a phone call back yet.... I might have to wait another month to enroll....fucking sucks. A lot of stuff just started to get into my mind and I started to get real depressed. I thought to myself....how much longer can I
Out Of Reason.
Its hard to think when you've got that pervalent dry itch in your throat, and a dryer ache in your head.Like someone decided to replace that soft pink lining of your trach with the most rugged and gnarly portion of the salt flats.Beautiful.But out of place.Made me wonder if what I was doing was wrong.Bailing for a mid-morning panic attackon schedule, very regulationvery tumultous.Like being a test pilot, only without the fringe benefits of a cool call sign, the actual G's, twice the nauseatwice the urge to pass out in a sputtering hypochondriacal mess.Part of me says if she wasn't here- I wouldn't even bother being embarassed. Says I wouldn't notice, says I wouldn't break into a flushed terror every time I adjust my sweaty sack while I walkedreeking of bad cheese and a three week staff infection of the most foul.My mom always said she could tell when I was sickby how I smelled.Smell is important y'know.Helps us taste.Shows where we've been, where we belong.Attracts mates.All I'm attrac
Sleeping Princess In Devil's Castle!
And I hope every morning you wake up, it hurts more and doesn’t stop. And I hope every night you rest you lay and pray for death. You made a better trophy in my dreams. And now you are my nightmare. I wonder, “Where did I go wrong?” And you are all that’s left of what it meant to live. Don’t worry. This will only hurt for a second. Sleep soundly. Just where did I go wrong? Just where did I go wrong? And hoping for changes, we’ve wasted this, and what for? And what for? One more day of this weight. One more day of this dissolved presence.
Bling
Bling for helping me to decide on a new name...Winner will get some new bling...Also auto 11's or even a bomb would be nice hell even a vip or a blast anyone pweeze?
Happy 3rd Annual National Feel Your Boobies Week
  Happy 3rd Annual National Feel Your Boobies Week everyone -- have you felt your boobies today?? Feel Your Boobies, along with our Official 2009 Sponsors Alfred Angelo Bridal and Young Survival Coalition want you to...Feel Your Boobies. Remind a Frien...d.Use our great Boobicons (almost 9000 made so far!) to remind your friends or claim your free sticker (over 35,000 claimed already!) by using the Free Sticker tab above. http://www.boobicon.meRead More Boobicon.Me Home Source: www.boobicon.me
My Favorite Country Song - Absolutely Love It
Lonestar - Amazed Everytime our eyes meet This feeling inside me is almost more than i can take Baby when you touch me I can feel how much you love me And it just blows me away I've never been this close to anyone or anything I can hear your thoughts i can see your dreams Chorus: I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better i wanna spend the rest of my life, with you by my side Forever and ever Every little thing that you do Baby i'm amazed by you The smell of you skin the taste of your kiss the way you whisper in the dark your hair all around me, baby you surround me you touch every place in my heart oh, it feels like the first time everytime i wanna spend the whole night in your eyes Chorus Every little thing that you do i'm so in love with you it just keeps getting better I wanna spend the rest of my life, with you by my side forever and ever Every little thing that you do o
Done Deal
Surgery is a done deal meaning a success. I may fail. Mike cannot exist. I'm told I will succeed, however, I will fail. No help in any way. This is on me. Codded messages are sent out to? These are the friends I do not want, however, will face.  Any one understand The Master's or The Saint's? Why is the Roman Catholic Church, The Holy Roman Catholic Church. Aliance? Guide? God? The Christ? Brotherhood?  Resistance? Who or what are we resisting? Freedom? Liberate? Oppresed? Questions and doubts with Mike taking control. Norio  
Playing On Fubar Again
Sung to 'Stealer's Wheel - Stuck In The Middle With You'   Well I don't know why I logged in tonight,I got the feeling that something ain't right,I'm so scared that I may fall off my chair,Just saw a guy, wearing Glad bag under wear,Juggalos to the left of me,DJs to the right, here I am,Playing on fubar again.Yes I'm playing on fubar again,And I'm wondering, what is MFKN,It's so hard to keep this smile from my face,SO much to perv, yeah, I'm all over the place,Juggalos to the left of me, DJs to the right,Here I am, playing on fubar again.Well you started as a nubie,And you're proud that you're a self made man(or woman),When you feel disgusted, friends will come & check you out,Profile rate you 10s and say,Please don't de-e-e-lete.... Please don't de-e-e-lete.....Trying to make some sense of it all,But I can see that it makes no sense at all,Is it cool to go to sleep on the floor,'Cause I don't think that I can take anymoreJuggalos to the left of me, DJs to the right,Here I am, playin
Lying Azzhole!
I'm normally one to sniff out a scam and I apologize that I didn't sniff this out earlier! But "Mr Dokoto"tah(And one more thing I found the real david yott! he's not 32! He's 52! And died 1 month 2 days before this account was made! This is not for the weak these was the last moments that I protected all day. I will now show you how far this crap went! Please help these ladies cope! #2 #3 #4 Sad thing is my friends and I felt compelled to honor this guy! With a happy hour so, now I get to return money I don't have. Thanks for making me a fool dude I apologize to anyone on the fu that was taken advantage of the fu. No wonder people don'
95% Of Network Marketers Fail Because Of Untrained People Training Untrained People!!
Since I work with many companies and leaders around the globe I get the privilege of hearing and learning about things that many people don’t. I was listening to a group of distributors discussing the topic of training recently. It was very interesting for me to just listen and hear the input from different people and watch the direction of the conversation and then their conclusion (or lack of). Here is what I observed: The premise: To train or not train new distributors Argument for training: They’ll be better at M.L.M Argument for not training: Training doesn’t “really” help; it only slows growth There were many great points (arguments presented) for both sides and everyone had fun debating it; although it did get pretty heated at times. My conclusion was and is that it’s a worthless debate because the premise is incorrect. Again, the premise is train or not train. That assumes there’s an option to train or not train. With this group
I Was Mean??
i quickly typed this out and posted it.... hence, the typos and spelling errors..:p was i mean or not? should i mumm this? "i gently kiss your ankle, kiss a tad highs, glide my tongue up your shin to the knee. from there, with tiny kisses, light nibbles, i work my way slowly up your inner thigh, as you spread slightly from my touch. slowly.. slowly, i work my way up.. kiss there, niddle here, feeling you shudder and squirm with every breath.. farther up i go, until i reach your mound where i then run my tongue around that area, savoring every scent, every tingle you mak as i do so.. i kiss you just over your glistening pussy, bite softy and kiss again... then i get up and leave the room, because i need a beer..."
Wicked Treats (halloween Game)
This game will be open from 10/11 until 10/31 If you haven't rated my blog yet, could you please do that while you're here? Thank you! Game F.A.Q.Who can I order for?You may order for ANYONE on Fubar, with the exception of yellow staff, and anyone that refuses play. Anyone who wishes to be removed from the game may do so by requesting such through private message at any time. Not all people play for the win - most play simply to give the tokens as gifts to those they care for :) Please request removal ONLY if you do not desire to receive more tokens. Can I order more than one at a time?Yes, you can order as many as you want, for as many people that you want. To keep it organized, please send the appropriate amount of fubucks with a list of how many tokens are meant for each person. For example, if you send 5000 fubucks (enough for 10 tokens) you would say "5 to Dawn, User # 975528 and 5 to Cali4nialovin01, User # 884702." If you  have traded rates for tokens, you
Stormy
StormyI listen to my heartIt’s beat held in abeyance,All is frozen, waiting,In suspended animationSilent memory,of you.A shout was our last encounter,A celebration of friendship,I like you liking me…you call me David (hugs) ,I smile, my heart races.It’s all as vivid as my most recent breath,Were it my last it would be my bestI hold it expectantly.Memory of you in a corset, Blonde hair, shoulder cocked to one sideThe pause and silent expression of friendship,Blue eyes sun bright,Your departure,To spend with yourLivia, your love.My wish for your safe return,to meSo we may share love,And I may breath again,Look what my friend Does for Me.Cooldavid
39 Reasons To Drink Acai Juice (monavie) Each Day
39 Reasons to drink Acai Juice (Monavie) Each Day       Some of the most important reasons to drink Monavie Acai, the main ingredient of the Monavie juice is known to have a benefic effect on human health, and bellow are some of the things that this fruit can do and the best 39 reasons to drink acai juice - Monavie - that you will ever need: ...Reason No. 1 Acai Helps You Sleep Better! Because it contains nutrients like vitamin B and others, acai is able to decrease your level of stress and aids in the communication between your brain cells. Acai is able to do this by assisting with the making of neurotransmitters. Some known neurotransmitters are serotonin and dopamine. This will also help you sleep better ...Reason No. 2 Acai Will Increase Your Energy Level! Monavie can and is used by renowned athletes like Venus Williams, because Acai has a lot of nutrients, and especially a lot of lipids which are responsible for boosting up your energy level. This is why Monavie can be us
Monavie Featuring The Acai Superfruit!!
MonaVie Featuring the Acai Is HERE! MonaVie and MonaVie Active presented by Monarch Health Sciences, The Premier Health and Wellness Company. MonaVie will touch the lives of many people both health wise and financially.Top Health and Wellness company Monarch Health Sciences to Launch New Phyto-Blend Elixar with the Acai Fruit Berry as the Headlining fruit. ACAI Berry Named Top 10 Superfoods for Anti-Aging by Dr. Nicholas Perricone on Oprah's website and it is also touted by NBC's Matt Lauer as the 'Amazons Viagra', the Acai Fruit Berry is quickly gaining popularity. Experts predict that MonaVie is very likely to set industry records. (PRWEB.com) December 13, 2004 -- MonaVie's ACAI Berry Named Top 10 Superfoods for Anti-Aging by Dr. Nicholas Perricone. Dr. Perricone is the author of the best selling title The Perricone Promise" www.​MonaVie-​Emv247.​comThe benefits from eating healthy are endless. And, according to Dr. Nicholas Perricone, some foods can be eaten t
You Should Never Force Someone Into Doing Something They Don’t Want To Do From 8-21-06
Now that we have come to the final chapter of my blogs about Romance and Relationships, or at least for now. I'll be doing a recap in the next blog on all the topics I have covered. But now, I wanted to touch base on another thing that is important in a relationship. On doing something that is sexual, you don't ever, I mean never, force your partner into doing something that that he/she don't want to do. This is actually one of my pet peeves in life. I mean, this bullshit has always pissed me off, because, first off, forcing someone to do something sexual against their will is rape, even if you are going out or married to this person, it's rape. No questions asked. Rape has got to be one of the worst things a person can do to someone. In my opinion, I think rape is worse than murder. I mean, in some situations, the victim might as well be dead than to live with that agony for the rest of their life. Anyway, I have heard numerous stories about this happening around couples. For instance
Sometimes It's Just Best To Lie From 8-17-06
Ah, the joys of relationships. You're with a person that you love and you don't want to leave. But all of a sudden you find out some things about your partner that you are not comfortable with. Yes, one of those times that you wish you haven't said or asked anything about it. And when that seems to happen, you wish there was a way to turn it around. I'm talking about your partner's past. I know, I know, you say you must be honest with your partner at all times, which I could not agree with you anymore. But there are some things that I would, at least, be said as a lie. I'm sorry, but according to my past experiences with other people, it seems that telling the truth about it seems to cause a lot of problems. I actually witnessed a couple, and I mean a very good couple, go down the tubes because one of the people found out that the other was once a slut. And when I say slut, I mean it could be a male or a female, believe me, there are male sluts out there. Anyway, that is why I say it's
Dughtry Version Of Poker Face
Loney Mother
what's up people how life treating you.
Lieing Men
why do men on here who have girl friends in real life lie about it also why do women on here lie about it to i just do not understand i know this is just fun and games but some women  think they have found mr right and never check to see if the guys or women are lieing to them oh well
Men Who Abuse Women !!!
->Your Master: no im turning you in to fubar Your Master: I am hoping you make a folder with me in it I would love my own special place in your albums Your Master: your a whore you turn me on ->Your Master: your a dawg you mek me sick Your Master: those who have read my profile or have talked to me know me so you cant say or do anything that would scare me Your Master: I would love to stuff my cock in your mouth and listen to you gag ->hottyguy21: your a dawg ->..::MissDe...: Your Master: would love to fuck you look what your fuhubby said to me dam what a dawg !!!! Your Master: why not hottyguy21: ur wet pussy mmmmmmmm bb i want it hottyguy21: cum in my mouth bb shadow: mmmmmmmmm Your Master: would love to fuck you
Words Of Advice
If you have an issue with photos being forced as NSFW, photos that YOU don't think are NSFW, please don't express your anger by maliciously reporting OTHER photos. That doesn't help your case. In fact, it can earn you a fubar timeout. If you continue to do so after your time out, your account IS subject to deletion. That being said, if you think one or more of your photos shouldn't have been marked NSFW, contact a bouncer. Add them, then link them to the photo(s) that you want reviewed. This is your best action. Contrary to popular belief, fubar members can NOT mark your photo(s) NSFW. All they can do is report them as NSFW. Trust me. I know.    
Danielle
danielle baby  i love u so much u mean the world to me and so much more. you are the best thing that has ever happened. and i hope u feel the same way. i love you  
Sex
people should enjoy sex more  
Sometimes I Just Hate My Life
ok let me start this by saying i know there is always someone worse off than me and thats one reason i rarely complain.  but i got to tell u its getting me down.   the hours at work are slowly making me zombie.  i never know if i should be awake or asleep.  not going to get better for while either.  yeah i know im lucky to have job. i live in rv.  not exotic not yeahh camping it freaking sux  cramped no room to move or turn around.  sharing it with 17 year old girl is hell  its slowly ruining my relationship with my daughter and thats next paragraph.  i cant have a friend over even if i had time and potential.  no only man in my life lives way too long away for me to have anything remotly equaling sex.  i know im lucky to have roof over my head. My daughter and i are barely tolerating each other she is just being a kid i know that but its at point i need her to be the adult she says she is.  she now has no car i cant let her drive it cause cant get inspection sticker cause some dum
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Football Heaven
Three Football players go to Heaven . . . God asks Peyton Manning first: "What do you believe?" He thinks long and hard, looks God in the eye, and says, "I believein hard work, and in staying true to family and friends. I believe ingiving. I was lucky, but I always tried to do right by my fans." God can't help but see the essential goodness of Manning, and offers him a seat to his left. **** Then God turns to Aaron Rodgers and says, "What do you believe?" Aaron says, "I believe passion, discipline, courage and honor are thefundamentals of life. I, too, have been lucky, but win or lose, I've alwaystried to be a true sportsman, both on and off the playing fields." God is greatly moved by Aaron's sincere eloquence and he offers him aseat to his right. **** Finally, God turns to Brett Favre: "And you, Brett, what do you believe?" Brett replies, "I believe you're in my seat." =============================
Writing It Out: Step 1
There's a certain sobriety in the masses of people swarming, thrusting, pulsating around you. It comes on suddenly; bursting upward from the soles of your feet, rushing through your spine and out the crown of your head like a geyser - then it settles all over you, in you - settles you. There is absolutely no movement, no physical feeling - but it is completely real = totally vibratory, totally sensory - yet no sound. Maybe it is physical, tangible - but it's so light, so weightless, you can't tell it's happening other than that somewhere inside you, you know.In isolation, some kind of inebriation occurs. Maybe it's ego, drunk on it's own pretenses. More likely it's something more substantial; the parturient of your own existence - or the connection, unbreakable, with the rest of the world - that is so satiating - over satisfying. Delicious. Ravishing, this radience of self. I get still in the masses, but I am hungry for the satisfaction of alone
Borgore!
seeing Borgore Tonight with Ms Rosanne. Tha Darkmatter Crew be responsible for this one!
How Men Think
How Men ThinkA woman was in a coma, she had been in it for months.Nurses were in her room giving her a blanket bath.One of them was washing her private area and noticed thatthere was a slight response on the monitor when she touched her.They tried it again and sure enough, there was a small, recognisable movement.They went to her husband and explained what happened, tellinghim,"As crazy as this sounds, maybe a little oral s * x will do the trick and bring her out of the coma."The husband was skeptical, but they assured that they wouldClose the curtains for privacy.The husband finally agreed and went into his wife's room.After a few minutes the woman's monitor flat lined, no pulse, noheart rate.The nurses run back into the room. "What happened!?" they cried.The husband said, "I'm not sure, maybe she choked".
Joke
A poor but desperate man goes to a brothel and asks for the cheapest prostitute. The woman say she has one girl who really is shy, likes the lights off and wont murmur a word. He accepts and starts having sex with her. As he finishes he sees her foaming at the mouth. He runs down to tell the woman, who picks up the phone and says "Hey Marvin, the dead one's full again"
Secret Mission
I went on a secret mission today.... I drove may miles... I got a windshield full of dirt.... Ran out of Windshield washer fluid Stuck head out car the sun came up A gas station appeared out of no where I LOVE TODAY I won the mission GIRL SCREAM!!!!
Mumm
I thought mumms were supposed to be helpful for people, you know, to make up your mind. Not as an open invitation at an attempt to totally tear down ones self esteem.  I deleted my mumm and the name that people voted on. Scratch that, I used the one with less votes, JUST to be an asshole. And do you know why?  Because I can.  I don't really give a fuck what complete strangers think of me, honestly.  But I do know this much, human kind would be better off without a majority of the people in this world.  The ones who degrade others just for their own pleasure.  It's sick really, the fact that you all have such low self esteems that you have to try and lower others to boost your own. It's those kind of people who need to get a life.
The Way I Feel
I feel lost without a trace. Wanting something that you can't replace. Only hoping for a nice imbrace. Holding me close so that it don't erase.
Why Does It Hurt
why does this hurt so bad?the thought of you gone... why do I want to cry?I was the one who left you all along... After all...I am sure you will haunt my thoughts...my dreams...my every day existance... I won't ever forget.how could I even forget? I guess I deserve to hurt now...Since I hurt you so much... I hate myself... I hate the thought... I hate thinking... I hate the fact that now...you are really gone. I'm sorry...I never deserved you in the first place... Why does this hurt so bad?the thought of you gone... Why do I want to cry?i'm the one who left you all along... I guess after all I will see you in my dreams.
A Silent Whisper
I remember a timewhen rain poured from over head,its every drop embracing me like cold arms...Your voice like an ever silent whisper to me,holding back a mixture of amber and melody...your eyes grow bright as if the sun were no more,leaving behind a hint of what beauty you posses...Your smile touching upon my every dream,It makes me think of a time when warm rain softly hit my skin,making it impossible to go inside...My silent whisperhas gone unheard
Lorem Ipsum Beeyotch!
Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit. Sed lectus ipsum, adipiscing at ornare fermentum, pretium porttitor leo. Duis vehicula mollis urna, nec porttitor arcu rutrum vel. Sed eleifend, sem ac venenatis tristique, enim lectus sodales sapien, nec ullamcorper sem tortor ut enim. In hac habitasse platea dictumst. Sed vel lorem lacus, eu iaculis felis. Morbi malesuada vehicula purus vitae dapibus. Vivamus non faucibus augue. Nulla dolor augue, condimentum vel suscipit sit amet, tincidunt sed massa. Sed sed molestie erat. Vestibulum sit amet libero magna, sodales facilisis turpis. Pellentesque scelerisque aliquam orci, ac fermentum neque iaculis id. Etiam id erat consectetur velit lacinia hendrerit porttitor id eros. Quisque convallis consequat nunc. Mauris eu enim nulla. Donec porttitor dignissim lacus, eu pharetra magna egestas vitae. Aenean turpis nibh, adipiscing id gravida quis, fringilla id sem. Nam mollis tempus augue, in fermentum sapien rutrum ut. Nam in rutrum era
Your Last Chance
Its a frightening and depressing thought to realize at any given moment you might take your last breath. I always knew that you never know when you will actually go but attending a funeral of one so young you soon come to a realization that life is so short and precious.Today was my cousins funeral who died at the tender age of 40. Sadly enough his life was over at 19. He was in a car with a drunk driver and they got into an accident. I only hold one memory of him before the accident. Every memory after that consist of the hundreds of hospital and nursing home visits. He spent over 20 years in a coma.His brother blames himself for what happened that night. His brother and the driver of the vehicle forever carry the guilt. Even though it wasn't really his brothers fault. His brother said he should have given him a ride home. Just taken the extra 5 minutes to do it. You never know what's going to happen and you can't blame yourself for the events that took place.I think the hardest part
Ensign: Revenge Of The Sith
[Please note my email address now ends in gmail and not yahoo. -- David] All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3  AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS             9 October 2009 Palpatine: The war is over. The Separatists have been eliminated. And the Jedi rebellion has been foiled. We stand on the threshold of a new beginning. Bail Organa: What's happening? Padmé: The Chancellor has been elaborating on a plot by the Jedi to overthrow the Senate. Palpatine: The remaining Jedi will be hunted down and defeated! Any collaborators will suffer the same fate! These have been trying times, but we have passed the test. The attempt on my life has left me scarred and deformed. But, I assure you, my resolve has never been stronger! In order to ensure our security and continuing stability, the Republic will be reorganized into the First Galactic Empire...for a safe and secure soci
Bread Is Good - And Stuff!!
NEVER EVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVERADINFINITUM DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!!!! I really dislike beer, but I LOVE primal screaming and Rocking - so I figured I would just change the words to BREAD IS GOOD, and then write the recipe that I am just about to make: AMISH WHITE BREAD...       INGREDIENTS (Nutrition) 2 cups warm water (110 degrees F/45 degrees C) 2/3 cup white sugar 1 1/2 tablespoons active dry yeast 1 1/2 teaspoons salt 1/4 cup vegetable oil 6 cups bread flour DIRECTIONS In a large bowl, dissolve the sugar in warm water, and then stir in yeast. Allow to proof until yeast resembles a creamy foam. Mix salt and oil into the yeast. Mix in flour one cup at a time. Knead dough on a lightly floured surface until smooth. Place in a well oiled bowl, and turn dough to coat. Cover with a damp cloth. Allow to rise until doubled in bulk, about 1 hour. Punch dough down. Knead for a few minutes, and divide in half. Shape into loaves, and place into two well oiled 9x5 inch loaf pan
Observe And Evaluate
Observe, listen, think about events, actions, and consequences, then make an informed decision about what is truly good, and what is truly NOT good. It is not necessary or even advisable to PREACH to people. What will help them is to inspire them to THINK. Life, the media, our peer groups, everything around us conspires to cause us to see things in certain ways. The only way to TRULY see is to find a way to take the scales off of our eyes and see what is really going on.
I Miss Fubar Sometimes
I miss this site sometimes but I can't really come on it when I'm in school since we all know how addicting it is. This semester has really been kicking my ass. They say college is worth it though...we shall see.
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Nostalgia
Cycling home from work today I came off my bike... doing a fair speed I might add. The thing that'll I'll remember from today, though, more so than the pain, is that I was reminded of a sensation I haven't experienced in many years. The feeling to which I refer is that during the time one flies through the air with the hard street getting ever closer, there seems to be an abundant amount of time in which to consider "fuck this is gonna hurt!" before the impact actually occurs... It's a confusing phenomenon... always was. It makes me feel nostalgic about the good old days.   As I lay in the street a woman was walking past with her dog. She immediately rushed up to me asking "Are you Ok?" At which point, of course, I bounced straight up, smiling, and said "Yep, yep, completely fine thank-you." As soon as she'd gone past and couldn't see me anymore I doubled over impersonating those scenes from Family Guy when Peter has fallen and hurt his knee... you know the ones I mean? Then I had to
Auto Club
auto club
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Nothing That Any One Has To Read!
Yessterday was like deja vu from three yrs ago around this time, then on the 1st Nov it's all ended with crying an more crying. I got a call from my mother -law about her father my husbands grandfather, not doing so good!! Something we all knew was coming with the way he was deteriorating instead of getting better. his body is just too weak to hold himself up anymore, so hospice is gunna step in an help take care of him while my husbands grandmother get set up to go on dialysis because her kidneys are to small for her body. this is all to familiar with how my Grandfather was, hospice came to help out an one month later he was gone....IDK that this is the case with Dick, but know that having the same feeling over again isnt something I care for but it is unavoidable. it's numbing and I have to put on a show so that I dont disrupt my girls' way of life, I have to pretend that nothing is wrong, because my husband doesnt know yet, this will destroy him, his is very close to his grandfather
On A Serious Note...
I just finished budgeting my last paycheck and have everything all set aside for the next week. I feel inadequate though. I am sending monies to my babies but I feel like it's not enough. I'm not asked for any support because frankly I didnt receive any when I had my babies with me. But I do know there are things that need to be bought especially food and clothes etc. So I will be leaving shortly to go get the stuff sent and such. Then sneak in a nap before work. I have been working a lot in my time away. It is rather nice to have something to do with my time and get paid for it. This is the season to make all my money for the year (god bless retail hell). Okay enough seriousness. I will be signing out in a bit and don't know when I will be back on fubar. Thanks to everyone who interats with me on here. :)    
And After All...you're My Wonderwall
there are many things i'd like to say to you....but i dont know how.     maybe....you're gonna be the one that saves me...     Today I must thank the following people for my giggles. Wudegod (wudie) my very sweet handsome friend!! Philemon (with those symbols i'm not smart enough to add) Cubby (cuberoo) my favorite canadian :D Mr Adorable my favorite fingering friend :P *some guy who took me on an all day adventure last summer that ended with a most hillarious musical adventure Robert who may be too sick to read this :P and of course I must acknowledge the person who did request I sign in today :P FuzUrdaddy!!   Happy Friday everyone it is just yet another day for me to go to work so have fun, smile often. and for fucks sake get naked!   p.s. thank you Jim(gearhead) for always thinking of me even when I am not here xoxoxox   p.s.s. Bill you don't get mentioned because I will never have a day you don't make me giggle so I will just tell you I posted a blog when I call
Throwing Stuff At The Moon
"A pair of NASA spacecraft smashed into the moon at twice the speed of a bullet, as part of a mission aimed at blasting up signs of water ice." I told you science was my passion! evidence:   This drawing was done months ago before Nasa even thought about doing this. Science Bitches! I has it.
Circles
During basic army training, a sergeant was telling his group how a submachine gun sprayed bullets. He drew a circle on a blackboard and announced that it had 260 degrees. "But, sergeant, all circles have 360 degrees," remarked one of the trainees. "Don't be stupid," the sergeant roared. "This is a small circle." 
My Week.
those that know me to at least a fair extent, know that despite my sarcastic sense of humor, i'm an optimist, and good-hearted. it does take a lot to make me "lose my joy," as i like to call it. well, it's gone right now. i thank y'all for reminding me that when i feel i can't take anymore, that it is not weak to let others carry me. i love my fufriends, and i love my rl friends and family. damn, i know how to choose well. ;) ~~ the co. that moved me to el paso to work for them put me up in an exec apt complex. i'm single, and this area is very safe. back then, it was even worth the name, "exec living." now, it's not. things got so bad at my last apt., they moved me into a townhome to make recompense for the awful maintenance problems i was experiencing. my home -- my castle -- was ruining my quality of life. water leaks, ceiling raining down on my bed, having to cancel get-togethers at the last minute, you name it. ~~ almost as soon as i moved into my new apt, the leaking started
Survey.
My 100 Truths...1. Name – Leslie2. Like it – It's okay. I wish it was more feminine.3. Single or taken – Taken 100%!4. Zodiac sign – Aries5. Male or female- A total chica!6. elementary... Castle Heights7. Middle – 32nd St/USC Performing Arts Magnet8. High – North Hollywood Zoo Magnet9. College - Not yet. Getting there!10. Hair color – Dark auburn. 11. Eye color – Dark brown12. Hair length – To my shoulders, mostly. It's layered.13. Current worry – Money, job, money, job.14. Race – Half-Latina. No, I don't speak Spanish. 15. Are you a health freak - In certain ways. 16. Height – 5'017. Do you have a crush on someone? Maybe.18. Do you like yourself? - Yes. 99.9% of the time.19. Piercings – 4 in each ear.20. Tattoos – One. 21. Righty or lefty – Lefty!FIRSTS-22. First surgery – Nothing yet23. First piercings – My ears25. First award – I won an essay award in elementary school.26. Fir
Beneath A Stone
Subtly sensual blacks and grays swirlserpent-like behind my eyelids whereI hide hours beneath a stone-mysteries of darkness.When the sun sets my eyes snap open;these moments I liveinside you. Images of energy surround you, where my flesh walksI curl around the tangled foldsof indistinctly drifting thoughts,caught in the merciless currents ofincessantly surging obsession with passion.I long to run downthe curve that arches heart to thighsand catch in the hollow belowechoes of my bloodpounding for you aswords blow through me, inspireyour hands.I must exploreyour luminous landscapeflooded in tremors of stormy fireour celestial efforts make;and when the last restraints snap,we reap pleasure's dance,convulsively grasp lucid ecstasyI'm compelled to keep us there,accumulated effulgence filling us-And when we soar for hoursI'll hide mysteries of darknessbeneath a stone.
Vampire Want Nuts (old Movie Script I Made, Sorry If I Don't Post *all* Of It)
Vampire Want Nuts A survival horror comedy By Tyler Vittitow (M)Vanilla: (M) Light Vanilla: (M)Jack(Blue): (F)Nikki(Purple): (F)Ash(Pink): (M)Chuck(Red): (M)Seth(Green/Black): Policeman 1: Policeman 2: Zombie 1/Corpse 1: Zombie 2/Corpse 2: Zombie 3: Zombie 4: Announcer: Woody: Father: Master: New Policeman 1: New Policeman 2: Scene 1: A Night To Remember A house party stuck in the middle of nowhere, where teens are going wild while the parents are out for the night. Show a brightly lit house with no neighbors, surrounded front and sides by forest. A few cars are in the driveway. Inside, show two girls and three boys sitting and standing at different locations, drinking beer. Music is playing loudly. One boy rips off his shirt and begins swinging it over his head. Music fades down. Jack: Take it easy there, Chuck. Don't want to scare everyone off with those lethal weapons you have, called man boobs. Chuck: (Puts shirt back on and sits back down, gri
A Kiss...
A kiss blown is a kiss wasted; the only kiss is a kiss tasted.
Wonder How Many Of These I Can Stand To Watch... While Ignoring That Pretty Little Perv...
Mumms
...I'm avoiding them. Why you ask? Well seems like the most popular thing to talk about are the president and politics in general. That is one thing that I vow to never discuss.   I'm bored.  I need entertained. Wanna help?
Further Ignores
By:...marine1stsgt1976
Your lips gently press against mineA silent submission of tongues intertwinedMy mouth tenderly presses against yoursMy voice trembles as you start to explore... Electric shocks as your tongue touches mineAn erotic dance of passing timeMy heart's racing as fast as yoursMy body's craving for something more! Starving and CravingFor an eveningOf erotic blissWhere dreams come trueWith the sweetest Kiss.
Aids
Hubby and I are going to my homeland for a year, and he is required to take an AIDS test, since he is not a Russian citizen. I found that pretty hilarious.
I'm Ignoring Jasmine... Since She Is A Dirty Perv...
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One Amazeing Night
Thinking of you raises my tempature, the way your hands slowly glided over my body held up by the door fame you pressed aginst me.the warmth of your mouth as you kissed my neck ready for more you made that night amazeing leaveing me with a feeling of needing & wanting more.
Well ... It's Been A Minute
it's been a minute since my last blog 'eh? Well, here's a lil' something for your visual receptive things and thought processor unit   Windows 7   Blam   Microsoft finally did something right! This is exactly what Vista should've been Personally I was catious and Partitioned 10GB's of my HDD to try it out Ya' know .. just in case I did'nt like it   But shit, it's cash son and I am not disappoint   I'll probably be installing it onto my entire HDD when I'm not lazy and back my shit up lol   But I think most of you would like it .. well ... tech/comp savvy types at least almost reminds me of Linux .. Hmmmm ..   Oh well .. shit's cash ..   On a personal note, I got the Ultimate ... slightly tweaked version .. Tiny7   Want it? Want to Partition? Not sure how? Ask me and I'll guide you through it :) But it's really worth the money if you want to buy a legit copy *insert eye roll*   lol   'eh ...   See ya' around Fu-People
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Work
Just met my new store manager. Very impressed... He is ordering items we have needed in the store for a long time. Things like the RIGHT floor cleaner and pans. Things the old manager refused to order....
Whispers
There's a presence right beside me,And all around me, too.Rushing, dripping, I feel time,And all of those it's left behind.I feel the heartbeat of the past,Of every love that didn't last.And as the wind blows through the trees,I muse, 'When will it be me?When will my life be a story?Thought up in some author's head,That hears the whispers of the dead.When will it be me?'The sun rises and I see,Time is dripping, dripping by.Forever, death is doomed to sigh,"They never learn, they never find,The lessons I have left behind
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Aim
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Global
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Go A Head
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Making Friends
I changed my status to: "I just died. Can someone buy me a HH now?" and I got this from someone on my friends list:   -> Super_Soldier: how is buying someone a HH helping in their death exactly? I want to knowblock memberSuper_Soldier: its their fault for believing it? wow ur a piece of shut burn in hell u stupid bitch-> Super_Soldier: that's their fault for believing it. it's sad someone had to fake death to receive fake points on a damn websiteblock memberSuper_Soldier: its funny? r u fucking serious? ppls hearts and emotions got fucked with seriously over this and its funny to u?-> Super_Soldier: you're just saying that cuz the dude who bought you autos is a big liar-> Super_Soldier: no LOL it's funnyblock memberSuper_Soldier: seriously u cant let it go?   If you agree with this guy, you're an idiot, and you can delete me. I wouldn't want to talk to you anyway. :)  
More Boredom
Lighting For Thinner Pictures
Not much time today. The last tip for looking thinner on camera is lighting. Lighting from the side leaves a shadow on the oposite side. Your main light should be about 45 deg to one side. Indirect sunlidht through a window works great for this kind of shot. The shadowed side becomes less noticible so put the things you dont want to see in the shadows. Have a great day, and happy shooting.
Goal
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Should Be
This should be obvious that I am communicating with another through here. Why this change for me about this surgery? I had to wait for another to catch up would you think? Any axe to grind from me had to be dealt by me from influencing my decisions. To remain passive and unemotional is very difficult. Chracter trait on my part? Who knows? Does me no good to have this surgery and to stay in this world but just the same were I to leave, still no good. Ultimately any Glory from whoever goes to God alone. Often I am religious and at the same time by reading here and listening to me, anyone will get a false impression of me, that I am the opposite. Perception belongs to you alone and it is colored by self deception. This deception is on your part. It comes from life experience and what you accept as any truth of value. Join The Order yet? Remember, Rosicrucian Order AMORC in San Jose, CA or on the net. Read and if intrested try it with an open mind for three months. Will you learn anythi
A New Baby To Complete My Fubar Fairytale
♥Letting all of fubar know, BigJon and I are expecting our first baby(babies) thats right it could very well be twins!!!!!! We have our first Dr's appointment today and cant wait. We are almost 14 wks and hoping to see the sex of one baby if its a singleton pregnancy or both if it is in fact twins. EVERYONE says we are having twins but I doubt it. If we have a girl her name will be Isabella Rose and if its a boy his name will be Coltin Patrick. Hope to get some comments on the name!!!! should have pics today if we get an ultrasound today:D♥  
Blah
I barely got any sleep last night...I just kept tossing and turning. When 3am came around, I gave up and got myself ready for work. I have a smoke and notice that the car is missing so I texted Rich to see if he taken the car. He said he did and he would be back home soon. Been almost a hour now and I will be pissed if he's not here soon, otherwise I will have to walk to work, which is about 45 minutes away and I work in a hour. He must of had to take back the car he borrowed from his coworker...and I thought he said he would have that car for a while? Dumbass...and he said he was suppose to help find me a car since he fucked with mine...He can't even afford his own damn car payment all the time.. I didn't do toooo much this weekend. Did a bunch of packing..yay...so exciting. My friend's birthday was on Tuesday so I hung out with her for a bit.   Bah...I don't wanna go to work....Wish I had a sleeping pill so I can go back to sleep.
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When The Fuck Do You People Wake Up?
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No Nsfw/no Love
it seems as if the guys who i let in on my nsfw pics are so lovin me up until the pointi add them to my fam...as soon as they see what the diva has in store...i don't hear from them again! wow what loosers i deal with!! So being the diva i am just cleaned my fam list and posting video clips of me pleasing me and i know they would love to get in now huh...glad i just learned how to post vid clips...now i'm really ready to get nasty! so fam get ready cuz it's just the beginning!
I Want You All To Know I Am Here For You And Shit
Still Bored.. Dammit
The Little Things Amuse Me Sometimes
What's Wrong With This Picture?
I came to work last night and found my department (Electronics) completely reorganized. Now, this isn't uncommon. It's how Walmart operates, and that's fine. No, I wasn't told there was going to be a reorganization. We've been expecting a massive one sometime in the future because Walmart will be remodeling the majority of their stores over the next few years. *By the way, say goodbye to the self-checkouts at Walmart. Too many problems. They're going to phased out over the next 2-3 years.* **Oh, and it's no longer Wal-Mart or Wal*Mart...you know, the gay star thing in the middle. It is now officially "Walmart." Apparently, it caused too much confusion. If you haven't seen the change yet, you will eventually.** Anyway, I get to work and look at the newly reorganized "Children's DVD" section. This is what I saw, and tell me if you see anything wrong with the picture.   *facepalm* Are you fucking serious? I'm not kidding here, folks. The price tag was right there. The piece of
Sittin Spin For A Good Time
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The Dress For Bride And Her Mother
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Angels Watch Over Me
     Angels Watch Over Me.      I am a truck driver, a Road Warrior, and have been for over 22 years.  Have traveled almost 800,000 miles, it’s in my soul, and in my heart.  I am not a Roady, an over the road driver, but a Local Driver.  Angels Watch Over Me.       I have driven my truck, into the woods, at 60 mph, in order to avoid a major accident.  Not only did I survive, without injury, but I backed my truck out, and drove it back to the Barn, there was NO damage to my truck.  Angels Watch over Me.      I have dozed off at the wheel, in a dense New England fog, awoke instantly to the sight of total nothingness.  Then, drove the remaining 200 miles without an incident.  Angels Watch Over Me.      I have driven in snow so heavy, it was a total White out with visibility only about 50 feet, ice storms so bad, cars were sliding everywhere, and snow so deep, I left more than just wheel ruts, all with no incidents.  Angels Watch Over Me      Yesterdays, a 13 hour day rapidly
My Soulmate
I sit here in the darkness waiting for the light knowing patience is the only option wishing we were together again oh to feel your arms wrapped around me the taste of your sweet kiss how i wish i could gaze into your eyes once again how i wish your heart still belonged to me the choice is forever yours do you want me to stay and be with you or do you want me to leave forever never to darken your doorstep again never to have that light back in my life the pressure builds inside butterflies turn my stomach in knots hoping you will make the choice that i want to hear with the distance that keeps us apart realizations come tumbling in at this moment in time i know we are meant to be you are my soulmate, my one and only if not you, then i want no other no one else will be able to fill the void in my heart only your sweet words of kindness and love can return the spark back into a flame that i know is hidden deep down for in my heart i know we are meant to be so with these final words i let
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Love The New Breast Cancer Bling...
That's all :) Think pink!
Stress Elimination!
  With the death of my dad last month(not looking for pity, so dont even THINK of sending me a bunch of "oh sorries" )Im thinking about going through and "cleaning house" If You don't communicate im possibly going to block you and remove you from my friends list because your not worthy of my friendship. that being said i do understand that sometimes life happens and we cant always chat on a regular basis. but im also starting ( yea, i know just now learning) that this place is a "use and abuse" type of relationship environment. If you REALLY want to know the REAL me,look up my profile and bloggs on myspace by searching with my email:jrichardson6769@yahoo.com But PLEASE AT THIS TIME dont email me, or i WILL block you, and as some of you may have seen i do have some pretty kool friends on here and i dont think they will have an issue with "putting the word out" i wont condone it, but i also wont endorse people harrasing me. Peace and Oreo Cookies to allIn kilted freedom,James  P.S. tho
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Pretty
I have discovered so much about the world around me that makes me angry. I see people undeserving basking in happiness, while a pretty girl feels so alone and unwanted. I see people begging and pleading for little trinkets of meaningless status, fighting over nothing at all, and claiming to be unloved if not given their every little whim and desire. Children, only taller and slightly more pathetic, since they should know better. People seem to have forgotten how to be human. I met a truly beautiful person. A sharp wit, infectious smile, and a million things to say about any topic whatsoever. I've watched her go through pain with her head held high, seen her stand up for what she believes in, and never back down when someone's wrong. The epitome of all that a true lady should be. And she feels as a lone as I do. It's fucking disgusting. I once told her that if she was single, either she had a good reason, or everyone around her was retarded. Perhaps both. I cannot find fault with th
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Stupid Women "booty2you"
Why is it that women think they know what men want & want to talk about. how stupid is it to assume?...very!!!...look at the below message to me. do you want to know whats really fucked up?...you have to piss women off to get more then 3 fucking words from them. if you talk good to them & treaaat them with respect you get 3 fucking words if lucky. the below maaails proves it.   This coming from someone who has 0 friends!! Wonder why that may be? Maybe because you are an asshole!?! Or maybe because you don't understand people yourself!!! At least I did say thank you for a compliment that you said to me and was trying not to be rude. But you just pissed me off...maybe I didn't want to chit chat!! and if I did what would be the topic of conversation?? Let me start the conversation....Hi I am 31 I have a boyfriend of 1 1/2 years and I am very happy with him!! NO I will not show you any nudes, show myself on my cam or give you my number. So what else would you like to chit chat about now?
Magic Words.
The sweet sensation just before the plunge.  Her ass in my hands, one on each cheek, as I open her wide, my cock aching for her.  I push the head down on the small of her  back and ease it down the crack of her ass unitl I find her flower, feel her honey.  With just a push she lets me in, but take it easy, just the tip then pull away.  She lets out a moan and arches her back, an invitation.  I go in again, not too deep with slow short strokes, she grunts in frustration, wanting more.  Easy now, too much heaven can overpower.  In once more, but all the way, then stop.  Her body grips me, holds me tight, we are one, so close we can feel the others heart beat. "Please" she mutters under her breath.  Im ready now, so it begins, even stokes.  Strong and deep, we move together and find our rythem.  My hands grip her body, her skin is electric.  Were breathing hard and the bed shakes.  We have in now, we found our stride.  My head is swimming, but Im holding on.  Listening to her, the wonderf
My Music
"Trust" (quietly) You. You cannot tell. How much your love...  has put me. Put me through hell. The look. The look in your eyes.  They made me believe. Believe that every thing.  every thing every thing was alright. SO How. Baby, tell me how? Can you sleep so sound at night? Making me TRUST.   TRUST everything is all right? How can you make me trust? (quietly) You You walk down the street. Holding my hand. To our friends. Life seems grand. Us. Making memories. Or is that what you want me, you want me to see? SO How. Baby, tell me how? Can you sleep so sound at night? Making me TRUST.   TRUST everything is all right? How can you make me trust? (quietly) You You gave me your trust.  And then thrown it all away. In another persons bed. You went to lay. Building my trust with a lie. Every single day. Every single day. Baby...  every single day. Every si
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Every Day.... One Day Closer...
Well... Its now less than a week and I'll be in the place i have longed to be in for a while...... In my wifes arms.... A day that I never though would come.... And now that its here.... It feels like a dream.... a dream I know I never want to get woken up from.... I finally get to start a new life of happiness..... and get away from the pain and memories of my past..... I never though I could possible love someone as much as I do my wife..... And most of all... I never thought I would have someone whos my equal.... Someone that doesnt look down on my past or things that have happened before her..... She doesnt see me for my past.... She sees me for my NOW.... She accepts me for everything.... Before anythign else, she has shown me what it truely feels liek to not only have an amazing woman as my wife, but a woman who is also my best friend..... I couldnt possibly ask for anything greater than that...... I Love You Nicole, Heart, Mind, Body, And Soul!!!! Thank You for coming into my
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Against The Law
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Pee In My Vag
My buddy Andrew is comin over to my work to chill with me (I work graveyard shift), and last time he did, he passed out in a lobby on a couch. Which almost resulted in his hand bein dipped in warm water. It turned out too hot, and he got scalded instead of peeing his pants.   I have to come up with something for an old man to do (he is 49, so it cant be too severe)
Frustrated
GRRRR I know men are differnt than women but damn....when a certain someone gets moody then says certain things to me i get really sensitive and cry. Is that bad? Or is that just normal for a woman? Im just frustrated.
The Soul...
A submissive soul is so much more complicated than those most know. A submissive soul is one so pure so true. Ones who emotions flow like no other. A submissive soul so hard to get yet so easy to hold onto. Yes I am an owner of a submissive soul. My soul is one that is so hard to capture, but once it is...the rewards are great. Yet I'm a submissive who can not trust. So my soul stays hide. I so want to give you all the aspects of a submissive mind. And yet one flaw holds that all up. You so deserve it. And I so desire you. You fill my mind with thoughts desires wants and needs like no other. And I know it is returned. Yet I know I did wrong...and you pulled away. So now the steps are to take place to mend all that is broken. Time will tell...what it is we must do to continue. And I know my work has just begun. I must now prove myself to you. A submissive soul i hold for you to take. My steps are started...and step one is allow myself to trust you with everything about me. From past to
The Best You Gave
The best thing you gave me was freedom. The worst was your attention. Time spent in a land of illusion and deceit. My love for you hit me like an airplane, Your alleged love shook me like a tower and  my dreams exploded into nothing. I'd rather have willfully free fallenl from heaven heights. Then to remain and reminded at ground zero. My pain is selfishly remedied. Your joys await karma's satisfied smirk....E.D.M.L.
Sorry......
My biggest flaw in myself....the inability to trust..been hurt so much by so many. I lack trust abilities. Takes me so long to open up and give my all. Even when the one standing in front of me have done nothing to show I can not trust them. I wonder day and night how to allow myself to trust. How do I give my trust to another again. How can I give them everything of me. That they so have proved they have earned. I walk away, shut down...and loose all my senses.  I so want to give my trust..yet so very scared that history will repeat itself. How does one forget history and start a new chapter? I want nothing more than to give myself to one who so deserves it and so much more from me. God knows they so do. They have done nothing to show me otherwise. And yet my lack of trust has pissed them off. Hurt them and torn them also. And yet here I am once again, trust trust trust. How does one who has had their trust broken so many times, forget that and give their all to another......
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Kleptolagnia
Arousal from stealing.
Environmental Colapse
dark and deceited today we died in this place of steel a place of cold, we try to get to our feet but the litter drags us back down.  we find it hard to stand when the black waters of the world drag us out and sink our hearts hopes, we fumble for debri strong enough to hold us up but we sink further into this world covered in war and muck may we fight to bring it back but what a task it be, the never ending ruin of this world
Just As I Thought
well, it went as I knew it would................. ...you hear the numbers..............the expectations...............all the corp bullshit.   I presented my case.................I won if you count the promises.....   Well, at this point, we all know where we stand...............I am looking, and will contnue to give 100% until I am OUT.   I have a goal set for Oct 31st   Everything happens for a reason........................dig it I AM Tew..............................
Aloha, Part 2©
   Walking arm in arm, we both reflected one what we had just had happened. It was only the first day of our cruise. Playing on the flight over, in the shower in our cabin, and then again out on deck, had been amazing. Here we were on a cruise ship, sailing around the Hawaiian islands, a lover's paradise. Islands to explore, black beaches, hidden water falls, it was going to be ours for the taking. But after seeing that, a whole new world of possibilities had opened up.        As we laid together in bed, I couldn't get the image of what we had watched out of my mind. After playing on deck, to look over and watch two other lovers, that had been watching us, enjoy themselves. You know I am all Toy's and she mine, but I could shake those eyes hers from my mind. As we finished our playtime, they were just down the rail. He leaning back, pants open, and his woman slowly making love to her mouth with him. Toy and I stood frozen, our eyes meeting theirs. He just smiled as his lover very so
Happiness
nervous and flustered,knowing i am going to be near u sooni feel like a high schooler againtrembling with anticipationwaiting, hoping everything will turn out rightcounting down the hoursscared that you wont want mecourageous enough to take a chancebutterflies in my stomachwhen i think of your handsome facea smile lights my facethinking of your warm arms wrapped around meholding me close and safeso as i sit here counting the hourswhen i will be near u once againjust know u r always in heartand i will love u to the end
Should I Dye My Hair Red?
I was thinking about changing my hair color. I have been a black haired girl all my life and it has seemed to be working for me. So tell me a honest answer and comment on whether I should dye my hair red or keep it black. If you can tell my why.
Amazing
amazing its amazing how  u can smile at mewhen u really just wanna push me off a clip if u couldits amazing how u can whipe my tears, but behind my back ur the one causing it its amazing how u can say the sweetes thing to mebut then turn around n say most hurtfull things u canbut wuts the most amazing wit all off this, is thatu think i dont know*smirks* seriously how stuiped do u think i am?Bitch just fuckin speake up n cut the damn crap,why bother bein fake? i already know why waste ur time bein fake?aint gonna do u no good, just gonna piss u off more actuallyI LOVE MAKIN HATERS HATE ME EVEN MORE *smirks*
Doggie Tricks
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Nc Cherokee Warrior Gone But Not Forgotten 1975-2009
http://b.pcc2.fubar.com/73/87/507837/1411217319.jpg   When we lose something that is precious to us, we are left with a feeling of sadness. Whether it is a precious friend or even a treasured object, the loss can be hard to bear. It is as if a part of you has gone missing. Throughout our life we amass collections of friends and treasured possessions. Having close relationships help us feel as if we are not alone in the world. When we lose someone or something that is precious to us, we may realize that there is a certain aloneness that can never be filled. Ultimately the condition of life is one of being alone before G-d. MAY YOU R.I.P. NC CHEROKEE WARRIOR YOU WILL BE MISSED BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN:   LOVE ALWAYS, TEJANA POR VIDA
The Who "live At Leeds" Deluxe Edition
As a long time fan of there's I looked forward to hearing this early (1970) recording, and was not disappointed. The music lacks the polish of their later recordings, but there is a raw energy in it that is great. They also play some songs I hadn't heard before.
The Rat
It is a dark and stormy night (shuddering at the cliché, I use this as the opening line regardless).  I leave the cold stinging rain, finding safe harbor in a shadowy cave of a bar heretofore and everlastingly known as ‘the Rat’.  Of course, this has always been its name, short for ‘Rathskeller’.Charmed by the abounding number of leather-and-metal clad clients, I am equally entranced with the dog-like odor of wet hair and soggy animal skins.  Inhaling, my hair stands on end, sure that at least a dozen people are tripping the night iconoclastic; the contact high sends me reeling to the bar.I spit the words ‘something warm and wet’ from between dripping lips, misting the bartender.  She looks down at the drops sprayed on her cleavage (oh, the things I never mention, the details I leave out.  ‘Mona Lisa’ without her smile would never be the same.  Yet I omit the necessary detail that this veritable Venus of Vodka is shamelessly exposing the
I Am Ready To Move With My Life
Okay for all who know me from my last webpage you all saw that I was married right we guess what. I am no longer married that is right gentlemen but before you guys start bombing me with single IM and everything like that note this. One this website there is just only one love for me and I am not saying who it is cause he wouldn't want to be revealed. I love him and I have a child by him. Even know it was an affair with my husband I was willing to do anything for him. I love now if I was to shout it out to the tallest tower to the highest mountain. I want to wake up to him every morning and go to sleep with me in his arms. I hope he does read this cause then he knows that this is for him. I love es and I always will. I am using intials here.
Lies
You were the one, I thought would be there forever. You were my best friend, Companion, Lover Despite the drama you created. I took your threats, I dealt with your issues, I was always there for you. But, your problem? Your problem is you don't know a friend when you see one. A Relationship is built on many things. Communication. Reliability. Compatibility. Trust.... Your lies stabbed me in my back. It hurt at first, Sure. But, still, I stood by you. After everything I was there. Through every issue, I was there. Now, because of your lies, I am backing off. I have enough problems to deal with, I don't need lies on top of it! I'm sorry, I truly am. I probably shouldn't be. I was your friend, And it didn't bother you one bit, To lie, Even to steal. Well, thanks a lot. Once I get that knife from my back, I might return the favor some day. Well, You can thank your lies, Cause of them, I wont be there when you cry. Hope your happy now... Oh, I
Test
well im going through some test for my back. i went for a xray last month and this saturday im going to see what its about pray for me plz thanks my fubar family
My Name ... After Three Years
after being on fubar for over 3 years I get this message from Support after being suspended for 9 days by them. Your name was nsfw. You really seem to have an issue understanding what is allowed here. Please read the fubar bible and the tos, talk to a bouncer, etc. Since when is Ms. Cleavage considered NSFW ... what about all the names with "boobs" or "tit's" or "sex" in them ... how come they are allowed to continue using their nicknames and CLEAVAGE is considered as NSFW????  
Lonely And Despair
  Despair outloudDespair and fearIts all despair when noone hearsMy soul is screachingIt mourns  youIts like a whisper, its like a fluteThe midnight fence, that holds me backIt aches my heart with metal barsDespair is all i knowDespair its lonely yet its my homeDespair is simple, it holds 7 wordsDespaircome join meI wont Be alone
Lawyers Who Should Have Passed The Bar (on The Corner)
These are from a book  called 'Disorder in the American Courts' and are things people  actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by  court reporters that had the torment of staying calm while these  exchanges were actually taking place.  ____________________________________________  ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at  all? WITNESS: Yes. ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your  memory? WITNESS: I forget. ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us  an example of something you forgot?  ___________________________________________ ATTORNEY: Now doctor, isn't it true  that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the  next morning? WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam?  ____________________________________________ ATTORNEY: The  youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he? WITNESS: He's  twenty, much like your IQ.  ___________________________________________ ATTORNEY: Were  you present when
A Heart Compleate
  What therefore is the purpose of the heart you ask To beat, to breath, to exist is not its only task. It holds within it small and living cells A place where what we are, ultimatelly dwells It swells with pride and happiness and cheer It shudders with doubt and shame and sometimes fear Hidden behind skin, flesh and bone A heart is something we all say we own What therefore is the purpose of the heart you ask To beat, to breath, to exist is not its only task Even though it sustains human life It does not always stop the owner from causing strife When speaking of the heart, these words and more Soft, gentle, happy are words that we always hope for Heart is to stop the brain from becoming to ridged Heart is to stop the hopeless from becoming to frigid What therefore is the purpose of the heart you ask To beat, to breath, to exist is not its only task To bloom like a flower and awake from its cover As it lay exposed in the hands of a lover To take in its place, one g
Hmmmm
May I think these thoughts that tease me so... Thoughts that make my desire to please you overflow... May I kiss your lips just to taste the heat of your tongue... May I kneel before you and please you, as no other has ever done... May I take you between my feather-soft lips and bring you to the point of no return... May I taste you...trace you...make your fires burn... May I kneel on the floor... May I be collared and on all fours... May I feel the dominance of your hand against my aching skin... May I ask for another, Master, please...again...again... May I feel you deep inside... May I feel this enraptured, this alive... May I rock back into you and allow myself to go... May I go to that place that only you can take me...only you know... Master,May I scream your name and love you more... May I....like no other...ever before??
R.i.pdavid Michael Wolf, Aka Nc Cherokee Warrior
It is with a very heavy heart that I pass on this news. Sometime early this morning, Thursday, October 8, 2009,Our dear friend, David Michael Wolf, aka NC CHEROKEE WARRIOR here on Fubar, passed away in his sleep at his home in Joppa, MD. NC CHEROKEE WARRIOR Fu-Married to ~♥GreenEyez1103♥~http://b.pcc1.fubar.com/15/50/3340551/tn_738861507.jpg">@ fubar Those of you who knew David, knew that he had been dealing with terminal small cell carcinoma. David had continued to work, driving long hauls to help cover the cost of his medications. I knew David his entire life. His family and mine have been close for several generations. I used to watch David when he was a child, and I watched him grow up to be a very special man. David was first and foremost a poet. He turned many of his writings into songs, and he also wrote music to many of my poems. He had seven CDs of music that he recorded, and some of you here on Fubar were lucky enough to have received some of his mus
Looking Glass
Looking threw the looking glass can difficult. Looking around and seeing what everyone else has and wanting it, but not wanting it. Thinking one thing and knowing another is what drives you up to the wall. Why envy what others have, it will only put in a bigger slump. Finding and looking around and seeing everyone you love finnilly getting what they want and decerve. I dont know. When is it to start believing in others and what they say. I always say never. Most of what anyone has to say is just bullshit. Trying your damnest, but knowing its not going to happen for you. Play the cards your delt, do what you can with it. Man fuck that shit. Its fucking gay. But what ever i dont know later.
Flat Tire
I kicked the flat tire again. I cursed it in my head. I swore at it over and over. “Need some help?” I gasped as I jumped and turned to face the man who pulled over to help me. My left hand clutched my chest as it beat rapidly within its confines. “Oh my God, you scared me,” I gasped for breath. “I’m so sorry. I pulled over and saw you cursing and beating your poor car and thought you might need a hand.” I smiled. “I know how to change a tire it’s just such a pain in the ass. And its a little could out here.” I clutched my coat to my throat. “Let me guess, no one else has offered to help.” “No,” I growled. “I guess you can’t trust anyone today. Even vehicle stranded.” He smiled. “Look, you wait in my warm van and I’ll change the tire for you.” “You’re kidding! Oh my God, thank you! You’re the best.” “It&rs
Its That Time Again... End Of The Harvest...samhain To Some...
Samhain is one of the four Celtic fire festivals marking the quarter points in the year. Feasts were held and bonfires were lit throughout the countryside. The bonfires were to warm friendly spirits and ward off evil spirits, and also represented the sun which they wished would return, bringing heat and growth. It was custom to give an ember from the fires to attending families, who would then take it home to start a new cooking fire. These fires were believed to keep the homes happy and free from any lost evil spirits. The name 'bonfire' is believed to be derived from the custom of burning the bones of the cattle which were slaughtered at this time - a 'bone fire'.   Ok do enough of a Celtic/Pagan history lesson :P   How do you celebrate the holidays?  
Real
Why is it that real people or people who tell the truth are hated i thank its becouse they intimadate outher people becouse u are real and they are fake and u will comeout on top....
Fed Up
I'm so fed up with these fubar guys....they wanna say ur the only but then i see them all over fubar on the next bitch. i've ran into about 3 and i'm sure there's more to come....why can't we just have adult fun minus the lies...just tell me u wanna see my pussy and get off and leave it at that cuz i see through the bullshit!!!
Sick Of It All
i want ppl who dont know shit about me to  stop saying shit about me.i fuckin sick of  the high school bs on here. from now on i will only talk to ppl i know. so if u dont know me stay the fuck away from me
Society Has Created This For Us Y Conform
u know in the yrs i have been alive i have come to notice that no matter how i look at it poeple use poeple to get ahead in life and get waht they want and wehre they almost want to b and then get rid of that helping hand  in some of the most horrible ways even at the cost of friendships and or releationships.........but y has society created a norm for itself this way .........I SWEAR NO ONE CAN ANSWER THAT ? , CUZ THERE IS NO CORRECT ANSWER, only perception of ones own feelings and thoughts .........some of the nicest people can b trapped by this norm ,,,, but it is societys norm as well to pull down the advancing person as well but at the same point in time is it not the advancing  persons fault of choices they made in the past before the said advance to have others forms of society after them(cops, legal, ) ,,,, but how can we blame others for the misgivings of the sowing of choices that we may reap yrs later ..... we as society always seems to blame others for the bad thing
U'll
U'LLDEFINITELYHAVEYOURWORSTNIGHTTONIGHTUNLESSUREPOSTTHISQUICK!_______________________________________________as the following:s.l.u.t. = your single and you like somebodyh.o.o.k.e.r. = single and recently broke upb.o.o.t.y. = single and loving itl.o.v.e.=taken but confused about how you feel for he/hers.c.r.e.w. d.r.i.v.e.r. = heart brokent.h.o.n.g. = singles.e.x. = if you just don't give a fuck anymorew.h.o.r.e.= you are taken and it's going REALLY good so far!w.o.w. = miss someone a lot and cant get them out of your headc.o.n.d.o.m.= you're a motherfucking NINJAh.o.r.n.y.=your taken and you love him/he  
Lover Of The Dark
Review From Athena Press   This is the review I was sent for the book I wrote  Lover of the Dark is a short novel that displays a considerable sweep of the imagination. Its best feature- or this i how it struck the reader, being an enthusiast for the vampire novel, which was popular long before Buffy, and will be long after - is its readability and fluid narrative. It is also creepily sexy. Eljacee uses an approach that embraces, among other elements, a highly induvidual creative fantasy, as a resault has produced a very workable example of a popular genre Like many a writer before and after, she uses the creative imagination coupled with a good use of language to develope a metaphor of the human predicament of today. But the figures that inhabit this landscape are believably ourselves, they are not the creatures of science fiction or fantasy literature, although they inhabit an invented land of magic realism..What they certainly are, and what their environment d
My Way Of Thinking Just Way To Bored I Guess
let me start off by saying that this is what happens when I get to thinking and that is has in no way mad me sad or unhappy, just the ramblings of my mind going into detail over every little thing or in this case one thing at a time. it's how part of my mind works to make sense of things. read if you will or brush it off as what you think of it. a little insight to how everything makes it's place in my worldone sure fire way to live; is to let everything fall into its place without thought. but having the ability to let it happen without a thought is a whole other plane, to know where exactly they should lay, doubting where they lay, pondering at what they mean to you as a whole. these little things that make up your existence in this massive world that you live. your every thought put out on a very wide table stretching as far as your eye can see. your every thought you've made in your mind, you see them lined up on the table into categories from most recent to the every first unconsc
Sacred Tat2
  "Hello Juan," she says. He didn't recognize her voice at first; it had changed slightly since they'd last talked. "Randi?" He says into the receiver. "How've you been Juan?" She asks. "Not bad," he says, "How about you? What have you been up to?" "Oh lots of things," she stammers, "Always keeping myself busy." "Yeah, I'm sure," he says. "It's been too long since we talked Randi." "Yes it has," she replies & there is a long silence between them. "So, I wondered if I could come in & get another piece done this evening?" She asks finally. "I'm going to need a couple hours to get some other things finished. Is 6pm alright? Or would you rather do it another day?" She shakes her head, "No, it has to be done today, I don't know that there would be another time." "Ok, 6 it is then." "Thank You," she says softly, pausing to take a deep breath, "I think this will be the last piece though Juan." He opened his mouth but couldn't think what to say. She was just a customer, it always ended sooner
Family
Family hm wut to say, family suppose to be there for each other when its needed family suppose to care unconditionally family is suppose to help whenever they can without expecting any back that's fuckin bullshit! in reality, that aint the case today 2009 its all about yaself n wuts best for u fuckin bullshit, guess im not supose to be in this world cus shit like this aint in my book cant ever be that selfish n i refuse to turn like that shit so just fuckin kill me now n be done with it
Night Ritual
Around, all around, the storm clouds gather.My dread grows as the Dark One's touch falls against my naked soul.It wounds me, and darkly myblood dripsto the wicked earth that is my prison.In agony I dancewhile nothingness takes me.Now alone, my supplication falls upon cold eyes This is my salvation
~moments In Life~
~THERE ARE MOMENTS IN LIFE WHEN YOU MISS SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT YOU JUST WANT TO PICK THEM FROM YOUR DREAMS AND HUG THEM FOR REAL...WHEN THE DOOR OF HAPPINESS CLOSES,ANOTHER OPENS,BUT OFTEN TIMES WE LOOK SO LONG AT THE CLOSED DOOR THAT WE DONT SEE THE ONE,WHICH HAS BEEN OPENED FOR US......DONT GO FOR LOOKS,THEY CAN DECEIVE...DONT GO FOR WEALTH EVEN THAT FADES AWAY,GO FOR SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU SMILE..BECAUSE IT TAKES ONLY A SMILE TO MAKE A DARK DAY SEEN BRIGHT....FIND THE ONE THAT MAKES YOUR HEART SMILE.....DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM~GO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO~BE WHAT YOU WANT TO BE~BECAUSE YOU HAVE ONLY ONE LIFE AND ONE CHANCE TO DO ALL THE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO.....MAY YOU HAVE ENOUGH HAPPINESS TO MAKE YOU SWEET...ENOUGH TRIALS TO MAKE YOU STRONG...ENOUGH SORROW TO KEEP YOU HUMAN...AND ENOUGH HOPE AND FAITH TO MAKE YOU HAPPY....THE HAPPIEST OF PEOPLE DONT NECESSARILY HAVE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING..THEY JUST MAKE THE MOST OF EVERYTHING THAT COMES ALONG THEIR WAY..THE BRIGHTEST FUTURE WILL A
Resilient
Often I am resilient and were I not so I would of been done at the beginning. One either bounces back or stays forever down. Nothing wrong with staying down and often the choice is not yours to make. That decision may belong to God. Jo-Ann says how resilient I am or how stupid I am to even consider a come back of any kind, that's what I often feel. I told my Cardiologist that there is no reason for me to stay but there is no reason not to stay. In either case I gave up to a part of myself. I gave the go ahead for the surgery and currently taking a different med. for my Heart. Coreg for whatever reason was not good to me. Norio  
5am Blanket
And so it rains.It sweeps over me like a sea.A 5am blanket pulled over me.A kiss so sweet before you leave.Hands so strong and rough.Like petals floating down,to land all over me.You rain like a sea,crashing over me.So sweet, just before you leave.
Tonight
Death rides with me tonight. She’s dancing on your grave - The end is in her sight. Another soul for keeping, By my dashboard light. Your body’s for the reaping Death rides with me tonight
My Mind's Tardy Slip
There are alot of people who tell me I’m absent minded. I disagree. I always know exactly where my mind is…That may or may not be where they want it to be at any given time, however! Still, it’s hardly absent – if anything, It’s too many places at once! My mind’s very favourite thing to do is gallop. Yes. Gallop. It rides enormous white stallions across meadows of lucious green, where bees play with daisies and the wind can be smelled. It lays in the thickness of blankets of clover and drinks from streams of silver, Thunderhead at it’s side, whinnying gleefully, begging to gallop again. My mind rides that cloud fast and hard across the sky stopping for no man… and when Daddy asks me what I want for my birthday, I still say “a pony”...
No One Loves You Like Me
we’re all lonely never befriended wonder when if ever our hearts will be mended but dont you worry it’s all ok you’ll realise this on a day like tomorrow it’s not that far away if you thought i didnt care you’ll see no one loves you like me we’re all lonely always pretended we’re all torn apart our hearts are blendered but don’t you worry its all ok there’s a reason for pain and sorrow what is it you say i promise you in time you’ll see and no one loves you like me
Unknown
It’s bitter coldThe coldness of emptinessI can’t get close enoughIt’s killing meIt’s lonely aloneWanting what i’ve never hadNeeding to hear itBut knowing hurtsEverything hurtsAnd i can’t numb myself to the painNot of something lostBut of something never gained
I Don't Get Jealous
Pain and anger, fear, disdain,Broken fragments, of rotting brain,Shattered glass and anguished tears,Jealous eyes and held back fears,Knowledge that, your breath is sacred,Inept lies and your manufactured,Seperated by a line of division, but it’s his decision,When saying I’m pretty, you’re only teasingCoz’ you’re more than that, you’re aesthetically pleasing,There’s nothing I look forward to more,Than the day that you get shown the door,The rest of my life, there’s nothing to gainThis is what I invisage, each time he mentions your name.
You And Me
I need to write about you.You who exists solely to leave me.You who I know nothing of,who’s name I never matched you to.And me.Inexistent once the morning comes,once the liquid courage leaves you,and my heart again screams…For something.A single cotton thin thread of hope,a glimmer of you.Then i’ll fall asleep again,to silently recreate your soul.
Our Little Secret
It’s twelve o’clock midnight,outside it’s raining.I feel my body die,thoughts so draining.An image of my deceit,so clear behind my eyes.Justifications in my mind,that my heart openly denies.Decadently savouring sanity,before it slips away.The demise of respectand my trust’s decay.Our little secret,of actions unclean,is no longer a secretand should never have been.
Finally
Finally she closes her eyes,she’s been fending off sleep for hours.Listening carefully for lies,her concious stops struggling, cowers. Finally she’s fallen asleep,he’s been waiting to touch her all day.His fingers graze her soft cheek,telling all he’s been dying to say.
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Diamond Cut Girl
He wants a girlwith diamond cut legsliquid silver inbetween. He wants a girlwith silken spun armsfor holding him while he dreams. He wants a girlwith Jade deep eyesgreener than jealousy. I’m wanting himto hold me tightbut it’s only her that he sees.
I Remember
I remember holding on.Spinning through infinity,lips curled with glee. I remember holding on.Heads thrown back and open hearts,we looked the part. I remember holding on.I don’t recall, letting go…how fast we grow.
Tumbling Words
BreakingFevered shakingForgotten soulsAir QuakingTaking and takingRemakingLoving. Hating.RelatingIncompletePerfection bakingFaking and breaking and takingReitteratingMistakingForesaking
Nymphetamine
Laid to the river Midsummer, I waved A "V" of black swans On with hope to the grave And though Red September With skies fire-paved I begged you appear Like a thorn for the holy ones Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced when you left me A rose in the rain.... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again Bared on your tomb I'm a prayer for your loneliness And would you ever soon Come above onto me? For once upon a time On the binds of your loneliness I could always find the slot for your sacred key Six feet deep is the incision In my heart, that barless prison Discoulours all with tunnel vision Sunsetter... Nymphetamine Sick and weak from my condition This lust, this vampyric addiction To Her alone in full submission None better... Nymphetamine Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... Nymphetamine girl. Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... My Nymphetamine girl. Wicked with your charm I'm circled like prey Back in the forest
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The Girl
Sometimes the Girl feels lost, although she has travelled this exact road before. The Girl is a secretive predator. Experienced in the ways of the world and with knowing in her eyes… she can easily lull you into her trap. The Girl is a far better hunter than you. She knows all your secrets, though you never told her one. The Girl knows how to break you… to make you feel your soul unmistakeably shattering inch by fragile inch. The Girl will take you, but not keep you, and your heart will bleed poison when you are finally made aware. To the Girl, the perfect hunter, the feast lies not in the flesh from your body, but in the blood spilling from your broken heart and shattered soul. It’s her perfect murder, it’s my perfect sin.
My Star
My Star keeps me company and leads me through the night. My Star watches over me and fills my dreams with light. Some things change but some things shine forever as they are. In the sky, shining high.... My Star   ...Little song I've always adored and hope to sing it to my little ones in the far future. Can you guess where it's from?
A Lorne Rose Tribute
I’ve fucked myself with your inconsistency,Cleansed myself with your dead-end soul.Held myself next to inconsistency,Wailed and moaned at the same strangers face. I’ve fought the beast and slayed him willingly,Stabbed the wounds with the softest touch.Held myself out whole and tragically,Longing for your fall from Grace. Hated you with spite and jealousy,Begged and pleaded with myself.A heart so black decayed and casually,protecting itself from love’s known face.
Reminiscing
He has the kind of lips that say forever and mean it. The kind of lips that kissable does not well enough describe… the kind that start tiny little fires throughout me when they ever so softly touch mine. And his eyes! Bluer than heaven on a rainy day. The kind of eyes that pull you to pieces and then leave you complete. And hands. Hands that you can feel touch your soul. The kind of hands that don’t ever let go.
My Health
  Why am I in the hospital? I started to get really sick in August of 2007. After many tests, I was diagnosed with Sarcoidosis. The tests also showed indicated a brain tumor. Over the next several months, I underwent many more tests and my health continued to decline. After Krissy found me blacked out, I was admitted to the Mayo clinic in mid-August of 2008. Since my admission to the Mayo Clinic, I have been undergoing radiation therapy. These treatments have caused a number of side effects. The radiation treatments crashed my immune system resulting in meningitis and pneumonia. Additionally, I have lost my hair, my good eye sight, some of my hearing, and my voice. One of the worse parts is the never ending pain I have inside my torso! It seems that the pain is so bad that I can barely breath or think. I also feel like I have the flu but 1000% times worse than I have ever had. I have to have dialysis due to kidney issues from the meningitis. I started to have major r
Inside
From the moment you step inside you wish you hadn’t. The door behind you closes with an almost inaudible click but you feel it within you like a punch in the guts. Your stomach tenses into hard little fists and you swallow the sick that appears to have made its way to the back of your throat. Walk damn it. Finally you feel your feet ever so gently graze the air as you step over the debris and head toward the hall. It’s dark and musty. You notice your breath upon the air and realise you get colder with each step you take. This place is devoid of anything. Apart from the indiscernible debris you can’t make out a thing. You feel no life but your own and it terrifies you. You stand still for a while holding yourself to yourself and dream up catastrophic scenarios about what happened and wondering how long it had been since anyone else had breathed here. You’re getting colder and your heart is still and it aches. Stop it! You clutch your head in your hands, sque
Guns That Aren't My Friends
on a train to no-wherewith guns that aren’t my friendssitting in this carriagebulletshells in my headbefore i even know itthere’s salt upon my cheeksand right before my eyesthere’s blurs that were once seatsoutside the sun is dyingreplacing it, the moonin the end we’ll lose everythingbut i found out all too soon
My Everything
If we were allowed it you and I we would count each other’s sighs. Forget that there is a difference between heaven and your eyes. Climb one another’s faults til our love surpasses even the lies. Loving on forever together til our roses have all died.
I Will Meet You There
Socializing and entertaining in hotels and motels, I think are acceptable in our society today, if you can find reasonable accomodations. I will meet you there.
The Crave
I have a feeling deep within,it will not go away,unlike you, it stays,feeding off my rotting portions of heart,grasping me,living on my pain.To close my eyes, a deathwish.A summons of fearwithin…a thousand spiders crawling under my skin.I shiver at your touchthough I need it oh so much,to deny you of myself seems so insane.I can’t keep letting you take over my brain,but every time I’m craving it’s the same
Life Love The The Pursuit Of Happiness ....[[more To Come]]
Tell me how it feels to be loved, Tell me how it feels to be someones everything that when they see tears in your eyes that they caused it hurts them too. Tell me what it feels like to have something seem so perfect and yet it makes you feel shitty. Tell me what it feels like for someone to make you there everything and that they'd do nothing to upset you.... As i lay here and tears roll down my face I think if giving my heart away is worth it... is it worth the tears, the sleepless nights, the anger, the fear, the hurt, the feeling that how I feel and say dont matter. I can forgive but I never forget, especially when it comes to my heart. I cant forget the way I felt when I cried my eyes out with no ounce of hurt from the other person. So why cry you say? Crying is my emotional release the only thing i have besides these words that make how i am feeling well known. I try to hold back my tears but sometimes the pain and hurt I feel doesnt allow it. Its hard to give your everythi
Wow, I Did It!
Hello world! this is my first blog! Love you!, D.
Denied
I can feel you beside meThe heat from your body Burning my insidesWithout you Even touching me My cheeks feel flushedSo nervous am I That if it were notFor my hands on my kneesI’d be shakingMuch more noticeably Every part of me wantsYou to touch itAnd it’s like Each cell is fighting with the othersFor who will be first On the outside I’m so calmNo-one would suspect the chaosBuilding insideNow I’m not sure which part of meWants you to touch it more Between my lips Or …Between my hips?Both feel like An inextinguishable inferno I stand up and walk awayNot having said a thingI first sat down to say
If My Love Is Dirty...
When you came to me, I was alone. I stood unbarred, like a fresh soul caged within a miasma of hate – a soul full of colour in a world full of grey. You came and permeated the steel walls of my heart and you kissed me with your metallic tongue. You took my breath away. You dove headfirst through the keyhole in the glovebox of my car. I had to pull over, we laughed so hard! Your bloodied hand stroked my face and I kissed your tears. We drove on, silently, through the suburbs – streets filled with the chills of wanton stumbles home – the shortcut through the back of the field, where we first held so tight to these fantasies – I in your aura and you in mine. A night of stars and fears and chilled breath and whispers. I loved you and that’s where I went wrong. You never stood for love – prophesised it would kill us all. You were right when you said it should never have begun. Things that don’t begin have no chance to end – mistakes that d
My Suburbia
A blue tiger in a cage,been harnessed for his rage,a rattle on the floor at five to six.Fevered howling from afar,tyres screeching – death by car.A finger on the dead still beat of night.To let the beast run rife,with her little switchblade knife,then pass out at the door upon the mat.Raise your glasses by daylight,live in fear not by flight,Get out, this is my suburbia.
Introspection
She lies there,purposefully twirling a lock of velvet sea,Black as night.Black as night,yet pure in comparison to the blackest recesses of her heart.I know her name,but she’s hoping i won’t remember it,and i can’t decide what’s more enticing…The finesse of perfectly sculpted black curls…Or the silent invisible tears,stinging her cheeks,playing on her eyelashes,and burning rivers in my heart.  
Am I A Mind, A Body, Or An Overweight Glob Of Grease?
“The power of the story of the Garden of Eden comes from its mythic quality.  Genesis One reads like a kind of scientific statement, but the Adam and Eve story is obviously a myth.  In our culture to call something a myth is, in the minds of most people, to disparage the story.  A myth, for most of us, means something that is illusory, foolish, or false.  This view of myth comes from our ignorance about the meaning of mythology, and is most unfortunate, for a myth is a particular form of story which conveys powerful psychological and spiritual truths.” Actually, this passage from John A. Sanford’s “The Man Who Wrestled With God” (ISBN 0809123673), a 1981 book with the mouthful of a subtitle “Light from the Old Testament on the Psychology of Individuation” is not by my reading an attack on Biblical truth.  But besides taking us through the stories of Jacob (the man in Genesis best known for wrestling with God), Joseph, Moses, and Adam and Eve,
Sweat It Out
SWEAT! Glorious, beautiful, liberating sweat! Not perspiration. Not a slight glow. Sweat…. And thank fuck! I can feel it everywhere. Little rivets of it run down my arms and drip off my fingers and it trickles down the nape of my neck. Not just my own either… yours too… and yours, and yours, and yours and yours. I want to grab you and pull you close to me, rubbing your excitement all over myself. I sate myself with the fact that I can smell the tingling of flesh. It has become a part of me. You all have become a part of me, for tonight. I breathe in… deeply, savouring your used up air, feeling the heaviness of it travel through to my lungs and hit the pit of my stomach like a love punch. The headiness of it all makes me both weak and strong at the same time and I grab the rail in front of me for support. You, person whom I do not know, tonight, you and I are one in the same, for as long as the band plays on.
Glorified Suicide
Suicidal longing once again plagues my meager existenceAs dreams of me and whoever I am trickle down the nape of my neck…It creates a feeling not unlike I’d imagine my blood would feel tricklingLike molten lava making its way down my insignificant bodyPooling on the ground having gone as far as gravitational forces care to allowThe blood pulsating through my veins is giving this illusion that I’m aliveBut in my mind stirs the harsh reality that I’m dead to this worldTears now… Crying for myself when even my own tears are too good for meIt hurts to be walked all over, trodden on and mangledBut I’m sorry if I dirtied your shoes with my infectious bloodKnives pressed to my heart everydayThe long cold blade reminds me of scars and I smile We both know, I’m too much of a pussy to push it inNobody can love you until you love yourselfBut self loathing is too much to surpassHow can you love yourself when everyone else loathes you too?Now excuse me wh
Welcome
My Darling! Follow me, out of my mind, where the howling of souls and your heartbeat combine. Where the pavement is littered with corpses at dusk, and the jaded night sighs and gives in to my lust, as the moon plays on silent in sorrow.
Mr Wareham Parts (1) And (2)
(1) “May I smoke?” I ask politely.He says, “no, smoking on school grounds let alone in a classroom is a suspendable offence.” I light my cigarette and draw back on it slowly, without breaking eye contact. He coughs ever so slightly and looks at his desk. We sit in silence for a good chunk of time and i stub my cigarette out on the windowsill before he starts with the questions.“Lisa, why do you lie?”“I don’t”“Did you do it?”I lean over his desk so that he can see down my blouse. His temples pulsate.“No” I breathe“Yes you did, there are witnesses”“Then why did you ask me if I did it?”“I wanted to see your reaction”I walk to the window and flick the cigarette butt off the sill.“So… how did I do?”“Terribly”I spin around and accuseingly ask, “Mr Wareham, did YOU do it?”“No”I cross my arms“Well, I’m not convince
My Identity
So lost deep inside, Is all that makes me.My true identity, Is hard to see. To my friends and family, I’m a different me.I have a secret identity, Wonder if you’ll ever see.My thoughts and actions, Are all that makes me, But some things I may do, May not describe me.Now look inside me, If you ever feel, like it, I’m no-one but me, Never hiding my identity.Don’t say I am Liar, Because I never showed you, The real me.Now please, Just take a look  at me Try to see the real me.I’m no-one but, my real identity.Look at the real me, Inside me.
Corporate Suicide
She always told me that she loved the way I dance – said it reminded her of broken hearts. The way I drank vodka and smoked Marlboro Lights. I didn’t understand then like she wanted me to… We could do it all night, Sarah and I, til the sun’s blanket fell from it’s vibrant body and the morning brought to us unwanted light. We’d walk back to your flat, strip to our underwear and hold each other tight on top of the blankets, warmed by the drink and a new day’s light. Back then you were the girl of my dreams. Now your lacklustre smiles replace a mouth that used to glow, I no longer know what you know. When I see the gold adorning your wrists, I remember the beads that belong there – and the leather we bound ourselves to each other with. You no longer mention the days of vodka and dancing. You sip champagne adorned with strawberries next to your doting fiance’. You never ask me to visit for lunch anymore as your workmates snicker at
In Need Of A Zen Moment
I honestly don't expect anyone to read this. With people on here approving groups of friends all the time it is a wonder anyone sees anything worth value in the bar tab on here. So much greed and creating self worth from adding "friends" just to have large numbers of people to get them things. It all seems so pointless. But that isn't the reason for me writing, somethings have happened as of late and for some reason I feel like addressing them. What are people really looking for on here? I came on to meet new people and have a little fun. I am not looking for hook ups or my soul mate. I do how ever love to meet people and very often entertain traveling and seeing many people that I really like talking to on here. I traveled all over growing up and think I am way over do to do it again. A few times I have been asked a question and I have answered honestly. If you can't handle the answer then maybe you shouldn't have asked the question. I am straight forward and at times a little blunt
Drown Me Parts 1, 2 & 3
If I asked you really nicely…. would you hold my head under water for me? Or would that be stretching the friendship? You always said whatever I needed you’d be there. Yes, but…. Well I need this. I need you to prove to me i’m alive. Drown me. She stared into my eyes for a full minute before standing up and walking out. In the distance I could hear the delicious confirmation of the water against metal. My 16 year old saviour. I walked to the bathroom and found her sitting fully clothed in the filled bath. I got in and laid my head in her lap. With her wet hands she took the tears from her own cheeks and drew them on mine. I know this isn’t how you mean it…. But this is all I have to drown you with. Water, myself and my tears. Close your eyes and don’t open them til you understand that you’re alive. I closed my eyes and she held me under before I could reply. I felt safe with my life in the hands of the girl I love. I could f
Masterbation
Sighs as my right hand rests on the mouse. Slides it over to the start button on my computer screen. My finger clicks on the left side of it and opens the menu. I then clicking on shut down icon of the computer.I sit for a few minutes, waiting for the computer to turn off. My insides are churning. They are warm and on fire. My inner heat is aching for a needed and quick release. My mind is just whirling with thoughts and images. I had been completely immersed in the words I had just read on my computer screen mere moments ago. My heart is just hammering away in my chest....I get up out of my chair. Turning the lamp off. I head towards the bedroom. My bare feet skim over the carpeted steps and I ascend them in the darkness and the quietness of the house. I enter it. I take a few shallow breaths. I am anticipating what's to come. I am craving it. My body wants it so very badly....I close my eyes, lifting and pulling my sweater over my head. I unbutton my jeans and unzip them. My hands sl
Left Behind
Oh! Here! Take my hand! Let me dance within your blood and play throughout your veins. Taste your wilted hopes with every trickle down my throat. I beg you! Do not let me in the door!! Drink your inclination, rip apart your soul, devour all your confidence and feed upon you whole. I’ll gut you out to rot, an empty hole. Now… to fill you with the blackness of my kind, and ruin any chance of “left behind”.
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Immortality
There I will be, when the time arises, beating upon the door of your betrayal with dirty, bloodied fists… screaming your name from somewhere beyond my presence, in that soul destroying pitch, which I’ve unconciously reserved only for calling out demons. You will deny said events with silicone lips and severed tongue. You will touch my arm with bottled ease, only to recoil in fright upon realising the knowledge within me burns through to your core. You will know fear. Here you will begin to choke upon your lies and fall to the floor. The wings of righteousness will beat hard, caged within your chest… and you will beg. Oh, you will beg. And I… I will pity you and therefore keep your pretty face intact, so as they can drink from it’s impurities one last time.
The Sound Of Heaven
I’ve carried you this far, my Love, watched your colours fade… I lay you down upon the grass as seas below us rage. Your hand falls gently across your stomach to your waist, your head tilted ever so slightly to the sun, highlighting the tiny golden rivers that stain your face. I kneel beside you, take your hands in mine and place them upon my knee. I lick my lips and taste the salt that’s come to rest there. The wind blows strong about us and my heart beats in time with the waves that lap and crash at the rock formations below. We wait a long while in silence as I gaze upon your face, unable to tear myself away from the neverending blue of your eyes. Your still, emotionless, distant blue eyes. I bend down to lift your arm and drape it across my shoulders, placing one of my own under your knees and the other under your shoulder blades, I carefully lift you from the ground. In my arms your body grows colder by the second and it’s almost time to let go. I stan
My Monsters
There’s something in the way we maimIn the crass cold carnage of tearshedThat moves me.A certain joy in the pain outward bearingA carnal pleasureThat makes me feel alive. A vicious sin grows withinThis jealous mind unveils fantasiesNever to be fulfilled.When I see that precious look of anguishInside, it excites and thrills meThough I pretend it kills me.It was so long ago that i’ve forgottenWhat made this burning begin..Now i’m constantly terrified,That my monsters are going to win.
Do You Realise (1) And Then My Perception (2)
Same story different day.   (1) Nothing is where it should be and the world aches for you, my sweet. Silently you cry without so much as a tear. The hunger and the rage, the hope and the sadness, have all fled. What’s left makes me choke on my guilt. For weeks now you’ve looked at nothing but the ceiling above your bed… Please cry… so I don’t feel so bad… we both know this should be me. Awkwardly I fumble with a vase… the stupidity of flowers… you’ll only watch them die as we do you. I almost cry but I don’t. I won’t if you won’t. The circles in my head spin… and I wonder why you are laying in a bed that I made.   _________________________   (2) Tip-tap. Tip-tap. Tip-tap. I wonder why, if i’m wearing flats, each of my steps resonate so loudly. I want to be quiet. I want not to be seen… I want to surprise you today. But tip-tap. Tip-tap. Tip-tap. The slower I walk the lou
Auric Frequency
Unarmed, I'm sharper than a knife, death stare in my eyes - no child, no wife.  The war drum in my heart is my guiding light.  I know when to retreat, but there's no flight, ready to surge and down to fight.  I live my life like I've already died; Mars raised me right, a beast groomed for the arena where my trade is plied, fed strain and strife.  My heart is hollow and the pain is ripe, broken and rebuilt - immune to blight.  I severed my ties... to my body's hunger, and my mind's desire for a pleasant sight.  The Grey is where I ride.  I rebuke the black and the white, and blur the lines. Chaotic Good let's me do what I would through the prowess of mind and might.  The Game's my spouse, 'cause the sickest bitch is My Life... I'mma tell ya' like this, I don't give two shits about ya' penny-annie-ass politics, galactic ego, and little dick... syndrome, yeah, you make me sick.  You Napoleonic tick, you's a  sour-ass bitch.  I stunt on you parasitic little pricks... habitually, just to
I Close My Eyes
I close my eyes,your scent whispers memories.You outstretch your arms,palm up,as dawn’s snow floats down,melting upon the warmth of your skin. Our cigarette smoke plays on the wind,twirls and dances to our silence.Your heat prickles the palm of my hand.I close my eyes.
Sins Of The Flesh
I can’t escape the pressure inside me… It’s ripping out holes in my being, pushing hard against my shell, cracking me apart one rib at a time. Constantly. Without cease. No relief. With each breath in, a moan out…. There’s this searing down my sides… and the bloodshot swells of my eyes sure to explode if they weren’t held tight. Shut. Closed. And then there it is… the tingling in my toes…. the arching of my back. That knowing smile on your face…. ....It’s about time I prepared him for the heartbreak.
Choosing Your Tattoo Parlor
Choosing Your Tattoo Parlor
A Seamless Affair
You smell like musk and apples and when you smile, your little pointy teeth stick out ever so slightly over your bottom lip. Your hair is all in knots and dreads and your eyes mean everything you say when you say it to me. You drive me crazy with your I don’t care’sand you drink beer like a man,refusing to smoke my cigarette’s.I admire your pride.But you’re soft… and you’re sweetAnd in spite of everything you radiate warmthAnd it takes everything I haveTo not want you
Giving It To You
Take it from me. Oh Yes. I will give it as hard and as long and as best I can… and in the end you will be fulfilled and I will be emptied and cast aside. Just like last time. So I will beg and I will crawl and I will feed on every dirty piece of it I can find until some semblance of worthy dashes across the barren wastelands of my mind. Until the agony subsides and is replaced with a dull, constant, lifeless ache. Until I am no longer perpetually concious of my heart. Then, I will give it to you as hard and as long and as best I can… Oh Yes. Take it from me…
Shut Your Mouth
I distinctively remember this street – I’m so sure I’ve walked it before. The awkward click of my heels on concrete reminds me where I’m going. A thirteen year old B grade whore. Whisps of hair tickle my back and I remind myself to smile when he opens the door. I check my phone for the time. Five past four. You must be Lisa. Must I? I say I am. I look old enough, but the infantile lilt in my voice tells all. Hayden tells me to shut my mouth unless I’m moaning, so I don’t say much more. He says I can call him Joe but I call him nothing. We can’t do it in the bed – his mum will know when she cleans the sheets. So we do it on the floor. It’s filthy dirty, smells like piss and makes me itchy but I dare not protest in case he doesn’t give me the fifty. He doesn’t wear a condom and he smells like bongs, but at least he’s quick. I often thank God for small mercies. While he cleans up I think of places I want to vi
Ponyboy
Turn yourself inside out. I demand to see every little piece of your being. Read your soul like some intense, private novel.Delve into the essence of your heart.. discover what makes it beat.Breathe in the very air of your instability. You will hide nothing, for nothing can be hid. Even in the deepest, darkest, foreboding realms of you, I could be. I will be. Until you do this for me, we can't.
I May Be Taking A Break
So I may be taking a break from Fubar for a while, I have way too much going on right now in my life. I'm still not sure if I'm leaving Fubar or not yet, my life is spiraling out of control right now. I love you all. Shoutbox me or hit me up on yahoo messenger, I'll reply. Thanks.
Online Freindships Suck
it always happpens just when u start to get to know someone shit happens and they or u got to leave net.  then its over.  yeah u give numbers but if they call its rare then tappers off.  do they forget i dont know.  do i.  hell no.  i havent forgot one person that i got close to in anyway.  i sure as hell wont forget him.  bad time for me for him.  but he sure did impact me in way ill never forget.  I will never forget the smiles and the laughs.  hope things work our for him.  i hate that i cant help thats another thing that sux i never can help.  
My Youngest Son Gideon
My youngest son Gideon, has autisum, but you would never know it sometimes. It frustrates me when I have to keep reminding his dad, and his older brother who btw is like 27, that gideon does not act 18 years of age but perhaps 15. Gideon is into his games on the pc and his play station, and that is okay by me.  But when he gets something stuck in his mind, its hard to reason with him and explain the reasons I refuse to let him do that . Example:  He wanted the dentist to make him some vampire teeth, which btw is very expensive.  I said why?  His responds what ,  "Just to fit in at school", and so they wont think Im stupid! I just said, you dont need to be a clone of someone elses style,  but develop your own.  Besides if you lose one your out all that  money. Hes a blonde and he wants his hair black,  well his older bro is pitchin a fit over it thinking Gideon wants to copy his gothic ways. Its bad enough that Gideon is getting a tattoo, that his bro thinks hes copying him ther
Lumps
Doctors Have said Caffine will give the Lady Lumpy Breasts, heard that on the Today show, Just Means Ladys know your Bodys and family History get checked offten
Joe Had A Nice Bone.
Just watch...it's worth it.. I laughed so hard I snorted. =/   [video in comments]
Forever Crush-first Draft Of Song
a crush is just a crush untill it never goes awaythat when you have an illness and it called a forever crushlove for the young lady as a fresh man in my high school dayseven to today i still thing about you im addicted to you imagenever really got to knew you i was a shy boy at the age of 13moma told me never cross the scrimagewhen it comes to girls she they just want wont you got and that not the sex but the moneyso back all i did was try to ingore her writing answer on paper ending my sentences with a dotbut i can get you out of my mind my soul is dieingi need and angel to left me up from the place to new hieghtand i think you can do thatif i was back in school again i swear i just pull you to me and get what i want i hold you tightbut thats impossible so i'll just think of you as my forever crush.... when we did talked it was specialyou ask me "where i'm from"and i said "Africka"you smiled then laughedi was a nerd so i went back to doing my mathyou said"why you aint talking nomore"
Further Hatred Of Stupid People
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Saying I Love You...
Saying I love you is important, but not enough. Remember, love is a verb, an action word. Sometimes, passive because it happens to us, but also active, because we choose to do it.
Loss...
I hope this link works.. http://www.legacy.com/BDTOnline/Obituaries.asp?Page=Lifestory&PersonId=134122977 This boy is/was my nephew. 22 years old......He commited suicide! ( oxycontin and xanax). The wake is tonight...I really don't want to remember him this way....Would it be wrong if I decided not to go...?
Booking & Promotions
After a brief hiatus from the scene, I'm fully enjoying being back on stage rocking out for our fans and friends every weekend.  But I've noticed that some things have changed and they indicate a bad trend... one I've seen played out in L.A. years ago to the point of absurdity. I guess I'll open up with a question and I'd like you all to answer as honestly as possible... speak your real thoughts and feelings on the matter, not what you think others want to hear. Question:  Whos responsibility is it to fill up a bar or club, the establishment itself or the bands they hire? My opinion - These venues should have a game plan of their own.  Drink specials, the best bartenders, great service, nice atmosphere, cool regulars, clean bathrooms, etc.  and be able to draw people to their place based on that type of stuff alone.  But recently the trend is "we only book bands that can draw X number of people on any given night" and to me that's backwards thinking.  It's also taking advantage
Lose 10 Pounds In Front Of The Camera.
Photo tip of the day. Make you look thinner.Wow, take a picture and look 10 pounds thinner. Here are the secrets. Many of you have allready noticed that shooting from above with your chest out covers up the not so thin parts. It also makes you look up so your eyes look bigger. There are more ways to slim down in front of the camera. Women never face your body direct to the camera. Turn your body about 45deg angle away form the camera head tilted (either way for women (better to the camera for women) away from the camera for men) and chin down facing the camera. Turning your body away form the camera a little helps hide tummy bulge. Too much and it will be worse though. Head tilt and chin down help hide whats under the chin. Sit or stand up straight, chest out, bend at the belt line do not bow your back. Bad posture pushes out the jelly rolls and makes you look more rounded. Hope this helps some. More comming on this subject soon.
People Amaze Me.
Late tuesday afternoon, my two year old pug was ran over by a car while walking between our house and my father in laws property. My children, daughter 7 and son almost 2 and myself, were standing not 10 feet from the accident and saw everything happen. The piece of shit that hit him never slowed nor bothered to stop until he had hit my dog with BOTH front and back tires. He stopped shortly after hitting my dog, opened his door, and said.."Oh sorry, I didn't think he would run in front of me." He then closed his door and drove away. Now mind you, I am pregnant, had a HYSTERICAL 7 year old and a HYSTERICAL 2 year old, and an animal at my feet that was severly injured. I thought it was human nature to see a situation like that and offer to help in some way, in ANY way, but the bastard just drove off to his house. All I could do was to ask my extremely upset daughter to go to the house and get thier dad to help me. I had to pick up my dog, whom I had no idea how badly he was injured, and
Bad Manner Boss
I have a boss that thinks he controls everything. The worst is hes my husband to.
Пол Пути к Бесконечности
Пол Пути к Бесконечности
Katie
Hiya all...Just wanted to let you all know that Kaite is doing well.  Her boyfriend let me know that she was at her moms and cant talk for a few days.  She had surgery this past Weds.  She will get back as soon as possible.  Please go wish her well and let her know she is in out thoughts and prayers.    ~katie~   Fu-Engaged and  R/L G/F of  St. Michael..... and fu-owned by shOckingRR....@ fubar
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Whaaaaa I Want I Want I Want Gimme Gimme Gimme
1. I have never had a Happy Hour or the Spotlight. 2. I have never had a blast or a ticker bought for me. I have paid for 3 and won 2 in auctions. 3. I have always paid for my own VIP. Don't have it now because I'm broke. 4. I have bought VIP's, blasts, tickers and bling packs for others, but never have recieved one. 5. I have donated millions of fubucks to people. I have never recieved any back unless I worked for it. 6. I have never been given an Auto 11 or a bomb, but I have given many. 7. I have never recieved anything higher than a 10 credit bling. 8. I have given 416 blings. I have recieved 192. 9. Tomorrow is my 3 year fu-versary here. I've been here since Lost Cherry and still have yet to make it Prophet. 10. I have never had my account deleted. Some of you may think this is a ploy to get stuff, but if you really know me, you know that's not true. I see a lot of people on here, begging and crying for stuff and if they don't get it, they get all butt hurt. I'm thi
For A Friend I Didn't Get To Make
This is gonna make me sound like such a fag but here it is..I was bored last night at work so i decided to walk to the fueling station two building aways to have myslef a beer,lol. On the way of i saw a little bird flapping around but honestly didn't think anything of it, probably cause i was sober and not mentally on this planet. I chatted for a little at the store then enjyoed my brewsky. I was bouncing cause i had a sweet song in my head and was feeling that beer cause i hadn't had anything to eat in over two hours, then i saw that bird agaiin but it was just lying there. It was position sorta the way birds do when the sit in their nest, I would say perched but i would think perch to be standing but it was really lying down either, i would say relaxed or maybe even chill;STOP RAMBLING. ANYWAYS, i saw it sitting there again on the way back and realized that it must have fallen from a nest or was injured then fell. it didn't look like a baby bird just a small bird but it could have be
Mauk
I am a nurse. I am a very giving person and have a huge heart. I care a lot about people and treat people with respect . I work long hours during the week and love to have fun on the weekends. I love to play golf and enjoy the sun. I Like to attend sportings events as well as going to concerts. I Like to cook as much as going out for a nice dinner!! My family, a mix of Sicilian and Norwegian, has opened up the fascination I have with culture and the enjoyment of all that is different in life. I live close to my sisters and their families, seeing them often with my 15 year old daughter; With them there is much laughter, telling of stories, solving of problems and celebrating life... And good food. hostgator coupon hostgator coupon hostmonster review hostican review easycgi review
Tea Service
One day my mother was out and my dad was in charge of me and my brother who is four years older than I am. I was maybe 1 and a half years old and had just recovered from an accident in which my arm had been broken. Someone had given me a little 'tea set' as a get-well gift and it was one of my favorite toys. Daddy was in the living room engrossed in the evening news and my brother was playing nearby in the living room when I brought Daddy a little cup of 'tea', which was just water. After several cups of tea and lots of praise for such yummy tea, my Mom came home. My Dad made her wait in the living room to watch me bring him a cup of tea, because it was 'just the cutest thing!!' My Mom waited, and sure enough, here I come down the hall with a cup of tea for Daddy and she watches him drink it up, then says, 'Did it ever occur to you that the only place that baby can reach to get water is the toilet??' 
Seasons For Good Health
Prevention remains the most effective way to stay healthy. The H1N1 flu (swine) is still occurring throughout the United States and it is likely we will continue to see more cases during the upcoming flu season in the fall and winter. It is important to take actions to prevent illness and t to make plans in the event that you or your loved ones become ill. It is not known how severe this disease may become. As I write to you, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention currently projects 40 percent of Americans in the coming months will either become ill with H1N1 or be a caregiver for someone with it. Influenza is thought to spread mainly person-to-person through coughing or sneezing of those already infected. Get to know the dangers and counter the virus spread. CDC officials are outlining the following preventive steps to take over the next several months of the flu season: 1.Cover your nose and mouth with a tissue when you cough or sneeze. Throw the tissue in the trash afte
Our Deepest Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
Boat Holidays
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Love Dawned
The dark of night greets the dayAnd a restless heart it finds;Peering through that cloud of grayThat loneliness hides behind.And with heavy weight of heartTreading light on golden rays;A quest on which the soul embarked To find where love might lay.Down each and every wooded pathAnd fork in road I turned;In each wading pool and mountain bathNo stone I left unturned.But once upon this day it seemsHence came the sun and yawned;You were stirring in my dreamsWhen first my love had dawned!
A Love For All Time
Breathless kissesBurning touchesSoft-spoken words of loveUrgently spoken words of passion.A man and a womanOne complete loveSince time beganPredestined to be as one.We've been together beforeIn other lifetimesWe've fought dragonsAnd have been torn from each others armsYet our love prevailed.We've walked on this earth many times togetherPerhaps for a momentPerhaps for yearsBut our heart is one heartAnd we were meant to be.So when our time on earthOnce again comes to a closeHave no worries my dearFor we will find each other againAnd againAnd again.For our love is agelessEternalA love for all time
What Is Love?
Love starts out small-Too small to be noticed,But in the end it conquers all.What begins as a hug between friendsCan grow and growUntil it's something beautifulthat never ends.Love is never sure,But it trusts, With a faith that is sweet and pure.Along the way, it may stumble,But no matter how hard the fall, Its trust never crumbles.Love is a flower- a sweet, red rose-Yet it's thorns hold power;More than anyone knows.Nothing hurts more than love unreturnedAnd nothing's more dangerous Than a lover spurned.Love is so tender and sweetThat some may wish to destroy it,Through lies and deceit.Envy is caused by a love that is true, But no matter how jealous they are,Your love is something to hold onto.Love endures through allBecause it is willing to rise upOnce again after a fall.Through the pain & sorrow of the night, It waits patiently for the joy That comes with morning's first light.Love is a treasure above anything else,Much more precious than silver,And much bigger than self.So if love h
Pondering
So today I got to thinking at work:   a size is a really relative term. No, we are not talking penises here. I am talking about...us, humans. An elephant for ous would be huge, but in comparison to a house, its tiny. A house would be microscopic in comparison to a country. A country would be microscopic in comparison to a planet. A planet is microscopic in comparison to a universe.   The larger the object that we are being compared to is, the smaller we appear. So...although scientists are stipulating that there IS an end, or edge, to the universe, there is still something there, beyond it (a concept that is REALLY hard to grasp, but its like counting: no matter how huge a number is, you can always add 1, and make it bigger). So based on that, the larger the size of something, the smaller we are. So, technically, when being compared to the Universe, we are...almost nothing. As tiny as space between the atoms in a matter.  Same goes for time. Whereas an hour is a pretty good chunk
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What is love, but an emotion,So strong and so pure,That nurtured and shared with anotherAll tests it will endure?What is love, but a forceTo bring the mighty low,With the strength to shame the mountainsAnd halt time’s ceaseless flow?What is love, but a triumph,A glorious goal attained,The union of two souls, two heartsA bond the angels have ordained?What is love, but a champion,To cast the tyrant from his throne,And raise the flag of truth and peace,And fear of death o’erthrow?What is love, but a beacon,To guide the wayward heart,A blazing light upon the shoalsThat dash cherished dreams apart?And what is love, but forever,Eternal and sincere,A flame that through wax and waneWill outlive life’s brief years?So I’ll tell it on the mountaintops,In all places high and low,That love for you is my reason to be,And will never break or bow
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A dream to become realA memory I can feelI look into her eyes to seeIn her arms is where I'll beThe dream, a never fading happinessSpreads through my heartFaster and faster it beatsAs the memories begin to startA dream to become realA memory I can feelI look into her eyes to seeIn her arms is where I'll beThe memories, ones I'll never forgetI'll make sure to go at a slow paceAll I ever wanted was to wake upI open my eyes to see your faceA dream to become realA memory I can feelI look into her eyes to seeIn her arms is where I'll beI take a look into your eyesThe unbearable flame of pain welcomes your rainIt's an amazing feelingTo hold you once againA dream to become realA memory I can feelI look into her eyes to seeIn her arms is where I'll beYour arms like tress, cover over meProtect me from all the fearsA day, week, month passesYou will always be mine for yearsWe wait for that time to comeDreams we make shadow the nightmare to overcomeMemories that will never fade for eternityBeautif
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Every minute of every day I spend thinking of you,Hoping and wondering if you miss me too.So long its been since I've seen your face,Or felt the bliss of your warm embrace.I wonder if you're ok and who you're with,And how much longer I must wait for your kiss.Each night I dream I am back in your arms,Lost in your love, protected from harm.In my realm of dreams, all is right,We remain together one more heavenly night.The world is ablaze with a colorful fire,For it knows the passion of our unspoken desire.Here we'll remain lingering in our love,Drifting with pleasure in the heavens above.Then I awaken, and know that you're gone,nothing is perfect and everythings wrong.My world is bleak, tainted with sorrow,Knowing you'll be gone today and tomorrow.I can't wait for the day when you'll be home at last.Then all this pain can be put in the past.Until then I'll lay here dreaming of you,As I pray for the day that our wish will come true
Days Of Longing
A rushed phone call,A smile from a photo taken far away.The knowledge that the one you love,Loves you equally.These, that germinate the seeds of longing,A longing immense…never before felt.One that pulls at the heart without remorse.Yet from the pain instilled,Infinite pleasures are born. The thought of once again, Holding you in my now empty arms.Memories of the sweet tasteOf your warm lips on mine.Remembering the scent of a far off love…Anticipation of the moment our bodies will touch,Entwined in a timeless moment of passion.These somehow subdue the longing…Allowing the heart to continue its beat,For the days of longing now grow short
True Love
True love is a sacred flameThat burns eternally,And none can dim its special glowOr change its destiny.True love speaks in tender tonesAnd hears with gentle ear,True love gives with open heartAnd true love conquers fear.True love makes no harsh demandsIt neither rules nor binds,And true love holds with gentle handsThe hearts that it entwines
Dreaming Of Us
please tell me your dreams.let me make those dreams come true. all i want is for you to be happy. dancing all night shaking our booty. i dream of our first kiss. waking up besides you. i never want this to end. i want to spend my whole life with you. you're everything to me. i  close my eyes and dream of us.i lose myself into you.you baby make my life so easier.you make me feel so good. i scream your name every night.wishing you're in my arms.
Thank You
The sun setsUpon the golden sandWe sit togetherHand in handWe gently embraceAnd look into each other's eyesI wonder if you areAn angel in disguiseYou hold meLike there's no tomorrowI suddenly forgetThe past sorrowI kiss your soft lipsAnd you kiss mineI never knewLoving someone could be this fineYou pick me upAnd carry me to our roomOh how a love can blossomAnd a heart can bloom.Your touch is so gentleBut your hands so strongHow could a love like thisEver go wrong?My heart is beating200 times a minuteBecause my loveYou are in itThe sound of your heartbeatAll through the nightWe fall asleep in each other's armsAnd wake to the morning light.I look into your eyesAnd this is whenI say "Thank You"For teaching me to love again.
Passion's Flames
A touch, soft and tender.A whisper, full of desireA gasp of sweet surrenderAs passion fuels the fireNo words spoken between themNo promises to be keptNo lies being told tonightNo looking back - no regretsLonging to hold each otherSuch precious little timeBoth vowed to anotherBeing lonely their only crimeTomorrow bringing sorrowA brief moment of shameWith the memory of this one nightA release from passion's flames
I Had A Dream
I had a dream How beautiful life can be As long as you are My love, my life, my all And whenever you call to me Your arms open wide I’m the happiest woman In this world to be. How can this story be told Only through the love we hold. Because we care for one another The sun will shine on us forever. The stars will never glitter Their way across the midnight sky Never if I’m not with you my love. How I long for you Forever and ever May we part never. Take my hand, my love And my heart And walk through Eternity with me
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When I have no one to turn toAnd I am feeling kind of low,When there is no one to talk toAnd nowhere I want to go,I search deep within myselfIt is the love inside my heartThat lets me know my Angels are thereEven though we are miles apart.A smile then appears upon my faceAnd the sun begins to shine.I hear a voice, so soft and sweetSaying, 'Everything will be just fine'It may seem that I am aloneBut I am never by myself at all.Whenever I need my Angels nearAll I have to do is call.An Angel's love is always trueOn that you can depend.They will always stand behind youAnd will always be your friend.Through darkest hours and brightest daysOur Angel's see us throughThey smile when we are happy, and will cry when we are blue..Thanks for being my Angel my friendI will be there for you until the end
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      Safety Boundaries Feelings Self-Esteem Communication Types of Abuse Conflict Resolution Assertiveness Responsibility Healthy Relationships Domestic Violence Within the Family   Those 11 topics are part of the counseling program at a domestic abuse shelter called E.V.E. - Ending Violence (and I do not know what the last E stands for but I will fling out a few possibilities Eternally, Eventually, Ekphrasis.) ((I have never heard the word Ekphrasis but apparently it could to refer to all the writing I do in blogs - as my words do represent a picture of my individual life and mind))... We all know that Jackie Gleason never punched out his wife on the Honeymooners - but was he instructing boys to become men that would threaten their wife with a punch when he said I SWEAR ONE OF THESE DAYS, ALICE - POW - RIGHT TO THE MOON!! - or was it just a humorous hook. Probably it was just a catchy phrase for a program that was one of the first to capture a new generation that had
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Love After Love
Love after Love The time will comewhen, with elation,you will greet yourself arrivingat your own door, in your own mirror,and each will smile at the other’s welcome, and say, sit here.  Eat.You will love again the stranger who was your self.Give wine.  Give bread.  Give back your heartto itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignoredfor another, who knows you by heart.Take down the love letters from the bookshelf, the photographs, the desperate notes,peel your own image from the mirror.Sit.  Feast on your life.  ~ Derek Walcott ~  
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Last Saturday, eight American servicemen and two Afghan policemen werekilled in a terrorist assault in Afghanistan. This blow comes at a critical point in the war, when General Stanley McChrystal, the NATO commander, has reportedly asked President Obama for an additional 40,000 U.S. troops in order to beat the Taliban and al-Qaeda. Despite pledges to improve security in Afghanistan, the President now seems on the fence about fulfilling his commander's request.McChrystal has offered a promising strategy for the war. President Obama would be wise to embrace this long view strategy, writes Conn Carroll in the Morning Bell, "and avoid short-sighted policies that undermine our friends in Afghanistan and Pakistan, while encouraging our enemies." Americans should pay close attention to the path President Obama chooses in Afghanistan, since his decision will prove critical to America's national security interests.There appears to be some wishful thinking within the Obama Administration regard
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Well he finally got a hold of me today. He was in the hospital for a week. Poor thing. I'm so glad he's ok. But when it comes to him I can be so selfish. All I worry about is that I can talk to him. I never think something bad could happen.    Anyway, I gave him the news about Jason giving up half the money for a ticket. I told him he just needs a one way ticket because when he gets here, I'm not letting him go.  He's really excited and is gonna get the money as fast as he can.   I can't wait. He's what I've been waiting for my entire life. And hopefully soon, all my dreams will come true.
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I just read a blurb on the MSN homepage after I checked my e-mail. It said something about David Letterman and how will his "scandal" affect his ratings/credibility.   Am I the only one who doesn't get what the big deal is? So he had sex with a co-worker (or co-workers) a few years ago. He wasn't even married then. (And even if he was, who the fuck cares?!) Is there not more interesting, more hard hitting news to report on?   How many people fuck co-workers? Someone I worked with is pregnant by a co-worker and she's married to someone else and still living with her husband. THAT sounds more scandalous than what Letterman did.   I guess I just don't get it.
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This Is Very Sad
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Well, after a hellish 2 year relationship I had ended about several months ago I'm back on the single scene again. I couldn't have asked for more of a waste of my life than to be put through what I had to endure, jeez. I had been told when I met him, by his own family that he was an alcoholic wth an addictive personality due to the fact that he was adopted when he was a baby and his birth mother was a sever cocain and crack addict and had to have her stomach pumped while she was pregnant with him. Needless to say he was another statistic known as a crack baby. I felt bad he had to go through that but at the same time I thought it had no effect on his personaility at all. and I don't honestly know if it did contribute to the way he was or not. When I met him I knew he liked to drink but I never knew, until we broke up, that he was an alcoholic and was in rehab for it. I also had no idea he was an avid pill popper until I discovered that for my own eyes. There was one night where he got
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What a boring day. I didn't do much today...watched a movie at home, played on the net a bti, did a bunch of cleaning, more packing and tossing stuff away. I've thrown and packed so much and doens't seem like I've done much. But I know that I've done a lot and he's gonna have a fun time packing up his junk since he barely started and I'm not helping him. Just one more day off....bleh....then back to work
One Little Grin
she knows what shes doing,   she aint fooling no one.  with one little grin, my heart comes undone. she has that way, that crooked lil smile.  for that look through hell,  i would walk a mile.  she plays that game, like she's an all pro.  with that sheepish look,  i can never say no. she knows its true... it oughta be a sin. she gets whatever she wants from me,  with one little grin
Still Around
Yeah, I am still alive.  Lots of things have happened in 2 years..long story short, I lost another job, broke my leg and lost almost everything in a flood..not in that order. I am ok now but I still need a job..like way too many people.. I am hoping to be on more.  I spend too much time on other sites...
Sand And Stone From My Best Friend Februarys Angel :)
"""Sand and Stone"TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKINGTHROUGH THE DESERT.DURING SOME POINT OF THEJOURNEY, THEY HAD ANARGUMENT; A ND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONEIN THE FACE.THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPEDWAS HURT, BUT WITHOUTSAYING ANYTHING,WROTE IN THE SAND:TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.THEY KEPT ON WALKING,UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,WHERE THEY DECIDEDTO TAKE A BATHTHE ONE WHO HAD BEENSLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THEMIRE ! AND STARTED DROWNING,BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.AFTER HE RECOVERED FROMTHE NEAR DROWNING,HE WROTE ON A STONE:'TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSAVED MY LIFE '.THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPEDAND SAVED HIS BEST FRIENDASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'THE FRIEND REPLIED'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS USWE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWNIN SAND, WHERE WINDS OFFORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOESSOMETHING GOOD FOR US,WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONEWHERE NO WINDCAN EVER ERASE IT.'LEARN TO WRITEYOUR HURTS INTHE SAND AND TOCARVE YOURBENEFITS IN STONE.THEY SAY IT TAKE
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Hearts Imprisoned
All my nights are moonless now,Kissed only by ominous winds.My sleep is broken and filled with shattered dreams.And in the shards of these dreams,I see – Dark, shadowy woods tree-ed with terror.And the haunting silence swoops past me,As I crash through broken branches and fallen leaves. One terrifying, dark shadow of gloom – Shapeless, faceless and namelessRises up and grabs my arm!I struggle – Ceaselessly.In desperationI fight its slimy touch.I twist and turn, but to no avail.All I hear are the dying gasps of my fading hopes,Intermingled, with the sobs of my despair. Fear wraps its icy cold fingers,Around my warm beating heart,As I writhe in the vines of delusionthat snake around me in a vice like grip!I stop my struggling, shuddering at the Agony of my soul.I am bound ,shackled and chained,There is no escape for me. I am a prisoner of this night,from which I cannot break free! Poem By Tammy C.
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Dancing Skies
There is music in the air! Beyond the silence of this still, summer day. Behind the restless calm of motionless leaves From the grey depths of patchy clouds, Rains down a sparkling melody. Pulsating claps, of thunder. Bursting forth onto this earth A flash of wistful lightning, Startling away the gloom of dark clouds. This rain is so alive,it kisses on to the driest grass and brownest leaves, Life anew! The rhythm has changed now. No longer a gentle melody. It's the flamenco dance of the Gypsies. A frenzied dance, to the notes of lustful youth. Whirling around rocks and trees, Swirling round my bare knees, My excited, beating heart keeping time With the escalation of thunderclaps. Suddenly,through the blackest of clouds, Pierces, one golden ray. One single beam of pristine sunshine, That waltzes through the falling drops and shatters, like colored glass,
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You Don't Know Me By Ray Charles
You give your hand to meAnd then you say, "Hello."And I can hardly speak,My heart is beating so.And anyone can tellYou think you know me well.Well, you don't know me.(no you don't know me)No you don't know the oneWho dreams of you at night;And longs to kiss your lipsAnd longs to hold you tightOh I'm just a friend.That's all I've ever been.Cause you don't know me.(no you don't know me)For I never knew the art of making love,Though my heart aches with love for you.Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.A chance that you might love me too.(love me too)You give your hand to me,And then you say, "Goodbye."I watched you walk away,Beside the lucky guyOh, you'll never ever knowThe one who loved you so.Well, you don't know me(For I never knew the art of making love, )(Though my heart aches with love for you. )Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.A chance that you might love me too.(love me too)Oh, you give your hand to me,And then you say, "Goodbye."I watched you walk away,Beside the lucky guyO
The Key To My Heart
Key To My Heart   I had closed the door upon my heartand wouldn't let anyone inI had trusted and loved only to be hurtbut that would never happen againI locked the door andtossed the key ashard and as far as I couldMy heart was closed for goodThen you came into my life andmade me change my mindjust when I thought thattiny key was impossible to findthat is when you held out your handand proved me wronginside your palm was theKey to My HeartYou had it all along
Ones Worth
You can have everyone around you but still feel like noone is there. What is there to do when you dont know what to do. Whats to believe when you feel theres nothing to believe. I want to know why people will try to make you feel speical only to bust there on ego. Not caring what they are doing to the other person. I dont know what to believe from anyone anymore. Most everything everyone says is a load of shit, so what is there to believe anymore. You dont know me no one does. You can have a basic understanding of who or what i am, but you will never truely know. why i just say if your in it to talk shit to me and think your going to foul me into believeing something that you dont even believe yourself. No one seems to care anymore about the other person or what the affects of what your actions do. so thats why i just say leave me alone. im not worth it.
To The Hero Of My Dreams
To The Hero Of My Dreams   You come to me in my time of need.Comfort me and let me weep,for a love that is lost.It is with you, that I escapethe realities of my world.To a place where . . .thoughts are deep,life has meaning,and love is eternal.I wake in a foggy daze and sometimesI laugh at my foolishness.Most times I cry wondering . . .Why couldn't we have met atanother time or place?Where dreams of a love that is pureand true could have beenfulfilled.So my hero . . .I close my eyes to sleep,hoping to dream, so thatI can be with youonce again . . .
Distant Love
Distant Love   Did you ever say I love youAnd the breeze took your words awayDid you feel them as they lingeredThen slowly drifted on their wayDid they journey long, searching forThe distant love you hoped they’d findWas someone out there listeningFor words from heart and mindDid you ever hear I love youAs the wind blew through the treesClosed your eyes and felt them thereAs they came quietly in the breezeDid you ever say I love youAnd hear it whispered in returnFeeling your distant love beside youAnd the desire within you burnDid you ever see I love youFloating quietly to you with easeWandering peacefully there beside youComes I love you in the breeze
Longing For You
Longing For You   Deep inside my soul is achingLonging for your touchInside my chest my heart is breakingI'm missing you so muchYou just don't know how much I love youHow much I really careMy feelings are strong and oh so trueThis kind of love is rareA life without you is not completeI'm so empty insideI long for the day we will be togetherAnd no longer have to hide.
An Exerpt , Translated.
Besides congratulations, I would like to say a few more things to the class. -Never stop learning. All of your life, keep learning. -Never say you are sorry for doing your job -Never give up your integrity Our integrity is all we have. Our integrity is what upholds the honor of the service. Without integrity, we have nothing.The true test of your integrity is its refusal to ever be compromised. Nothing, absolutely nothing in this job is worth your life. Go home, every day, without exception. Concerning this, there is one other thing to think about. With this job, danger is out there coming for you. It is the truth that you could die in this job, but this is true for all of life, and we cannot fear to live our lives. Do not be afraid to live, for the end of life comes for all of us, and that is something we cannot avoid. Be courageous in all that you do. Be brave, and mighty unseen forces will come to your aid. And closing: Honor For life! Fin!
Drip Drip
All the pain builds so fastThe strength i build never seems to lastThe happiness just flows awayallowing me to barely last through another dayDrip, DripThe pain it lasts just too damn longAll the strength inside seems to be goneThe happiness feels so wrongThe loneliness makes me feel like another  pawnDrip, DripI want a release I want to escapebut everything inside says its to lateI don't wanna go I don't wanna leaveThe pain inside god you could never believeDrip, DripI see the pain flowing out of my skinJust waiting for the end to beginThis is the only release my mind seems to feelBecause it reminds me the pain is realDrip... drip...I start to calmDrip... drip...And now the pain is gone..
Hurt
I am having a really difficult time tonight, totally in tears, I need to blog just to get it off my chest some. My close friends know my situation. My son who is 18 lives with his dad and grandparents outside of town. My contact with my son is few and far between although I do try to call him or text him. My situation hasnt allowed me to do anything for him for xmas or his birthday this past year so I am sure he has some resentment for me. I havent seen him since Aug of LAST YEAR! Well my daughter asked me today if I knew that he was crowned homecoming king. I was like no way, and she was like it was all over his myspace pics with the crown and all. So I got onto myspace to snag the pictures, as soon as I seen them I broke down in serious tears. This is stuff a mom is suppose to know, this is stuff that needs to be shared and its not. I am so proud of him yet I feel like I failed as a mom worse then ever. Luckily I was able to savage my daughters relationship with the bad choices I hav
Alone As Usual
My breath is void of oxygen My heart a scribble without rythm I don't know what I'm doing Or what I should have done I need someone to hold Instead of only one I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be alone, The panic sets in As darkness becomes my comfort zone This tired soul is stuck here all alone Wondering what he has done to turn them all away The reason for his lonliness Only he can say I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am
What You Want Of Me
When did you become someone I sought protection from?When did everything change?The scars you gave me.I earned to eagerly.And in my dreams of perfectionI lost sight of what was real.And in my hopes to realize what was true.I struggled to stay sane.Time goes so fast,and no matter how hard I try I can't let go of the past.Though all the false smiles.I leaned to hold fast to my dreams.But even as I did so you took them away from me.And just because I'm not crying it doesn't mean I'm okay.And even though I say I'm fine I still grab the blade.Because you always to me so, that tears are just a waste.I'll be tough when I'm around you.I'll won't be what you hate.
Once Upon A Time...
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Chains
What you've done to meIt cannot be forgottenTerrible memoriesDecay and rottenFilled with deceptionA past of mistakesWishing this could changeWishing this would fadeEvery little lieCreates a link to this chainUnbreakable"Sorry" won't take them awayGrowing heavyAs the weight starts to stackI've been stabbed in the faceAnd stabbed in the back...These chains are oldRusted with timeYet I'm still locked downTrapped, in a bindThey will not breakI cannot be freeI'm stuck in this hellPossibly for eternityWhat you've done to meI try to forgetBut it's all I think aboutAs I lay in this pitDigging, scratchingThoughts eat at my mindTorturing my soulI'll never be fineEvery little lieCreates a link to this chainUnbreakable"Sorry" won't take them awayI can barely standAs this weight holds me downForced to the floorLaying on the ground...These chains are oldRusted with timeYet I'm still locked downTrapped, in a bindThey will not breakI cannot be freeI'm stuck in this hellPossibly for eternityWhere is th
Crimson Blood And Poison Tears
Rain, rain, go away, Because of you the pain will stay. Slit my throat, cut out my heart, Leave me here, tear it apart.   Poison tears stream down my face, My heart beats at a steady pace As I try to stand again; Alone and standing in the rain.   I don’t need you anymore… Is what I think while tears pour. I hate you like I hate my life; But love is what cuts like a knife.   Love is death and death is you; Its pain stains like a black tattoo. Those memories come back again And bind me in the ropes of pain.   Crimson blood streams down my head Like a long, silk ribbon, tied by a thread, To a platinum bullet, a hole in my skull…   ...Now just a memory that’s faded and dull. 
Fun Task 2
Fun Task......Go into your local toy store...pick up the nearest store paging phone...in a very serious tone and without laughing..page an employee to the TOY department..repeat the page until someone comes over to you or they drag you out..whatever comes first.
Fun Task
Fun Task.....Next time you are with a group of friends..Talk the whole night like a member of the opposite sex no matter what they say...Extra points if it's also an accent.

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