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Its All You
DO YOU LIKE THAT... DO U LIKE HOW I ACT... I KNOW I MADE A PACT... LETS SEE HOW U REACT.... BUT ITS TIME TO SEE WHERE U LACKED ... HERES A TIP.. I LOVED YOU.. PUT NOONE ABOVE U.. I GOT TIRED OF BEING DESPERATE.. THERE WAS NO LOVE... IM JUST TRYING TO FIND MY PLACE IN THE DIARY OF HEATHER... UR WALLS ARE LIKE LEATHER.. NO WAY THRU.... AND YOU KNOW THIS IS TRU... I SEE NOTHING IN YOUR EYES.. BUT LIES.... NO SUPRISE... I TOOK A DIVE.. I CANT WIN... THEN AGAIN I ALREADY LOST... YOU TAKE THE BREATH OUT OF ME.... WE WERE MEANT TO BE..... YOU AND ME... WHY CANT YOU SEE..... I AM TIRED OF SACRAFISING MYSELF... SO U CAN HAVE WHATS LEFT.. YOU THINK IM LISTENING BUT IM DEAF FROM THE LIES... REALIZE..... ITS NOT THE SIZE OF THE FIGHT IN THE MAN.... ITS HOW MUCH HE CAN TAKE... BEFORE HE BREAKS... THEN ITS TOO LATE... DOES HE TAKE THE BAIT... FROM THE GAMES.... OR DOES HE REFRAIN.... AND DEAL WITH THE PAIN... THERE IS NO GAIN... LIKE A BLACK WIDOW HE WILL DIE IN VAIN... YOU TREAT ME LIKE BLACK AND W

Its A Short Walk From Heaven To Hell - John Schniederelf
You were God's best creation but I didn't know what I had till it was too late When a man's getting older seems the girls are getting bolder and the temptations are sometimes too great You gave me all kinds of reasons to stay but like the fool I am, I still walked away And its a short walk from Heaven to Hell A few steps from an angel that loved me so well When I left, I shook hands with the devil himself and its a short walk from Heaven to Hell She was young, I was foolish but I needed that young thing to tell me I could still turn her on What I took for affection was just your reflection and thats where the whole thing went wrong 'cause when the loving was over and done what I took for love, she took for fun And its a short walk from Heaven to Hell a few step from an angel that loved me so well When I left, I shoke hands with the devil himself And its a short walk from Heaven to Hell Yeah, its a short walk from Heaven to He

It's Actually Funny
People want you to think the same way they do. Fuck that. I'm my own person. I will think the way I want to think, I will talk the way I want to talk. And no one is going to change that. And if you do not like what I have to say or think or do, you can get to stepping, kick rocks or whatever. I'm not going to bow down and think the same way you are. Fuck that. And if anyone does not like it, they can kiss my white ass. Period.

Its Alright - Seal
They say it's alright Say it's alright It's alright, have a good time Cause it's alright, whoa it's alright Now we gonna move it slow When the lights are low When you move it slow It feels like more (?)cause it's alright Whoa it's alright Now listen to the beat Kinda tap your feet You got soul Everybody knows that it's alright Whoa it's alright When you wake up early in the morning Feeling sad like so many of us do Hold a little soul And make life your goal And surely something's gotta come to you And you gotta say it's alright Say it's alright It's alright, have a good time Cause it's alright Whoa it's alright Someday i'll find me a woman Who will love me and treat me real nice Where my road has got to go (?)my love she will know from morning, noon Until the night And she's gotta say that it's alright Say it's alright It's alright, have a good time Cause it's alright Whoa it's alright Now listen to the beat Kinda tap your feet You got soul Everybody knows that it's alright Whoa it's a

"its All Coming Back To Me Now"
There were nights when the wind was so cold.... That my body froze in bed... If I just listened to it right outside the window... There were days when the sun was so cruel... That all the tears turned to dust.... And I just knew my eyes were drying up forever.... I finished crying in the instant that you left.... And I can't remember where or when or how... And I banished every memory you and I had ever made... When you touch me like this... And you hold me like that... I just have to admit... That it's all coming back to me...

It's A Brand New World
I bet you that I can make you so hot that you'll say " Fuck me " before this timer goes off. Let me get this straight. " If I can keep from asking you to fuck me until that that thing bings, I win a thousand dollars ?""Yup." And if I fail ?" "You'll get the best fuck you ever had. " " That sounds too good to pass up ." Bruce slid his hand up the inside of Deb's thigh , past the top of her stockings , and brushed the crotch of her panties. " You're soaked already ," he said , rubbing her crotch lightly. "Want me to fuck you right now ?" I can wait , Deb said, feeling the electricity that always jolted her body when Bruce touched her . She liked Bruce a lot and would have dated him with out the money , but he always insisted on paying. He tried to explain that it was easier for him. And like it or not she knew he could afford their frequent rendezous and Deb enjoyed watching a collage fund grow . He pressed his fully clothed body against her entwined his hands in hers , and placed his

Its Bout Fkn Time!
WOWWWWWWWW, FINALLY Jesus listened to me and GOT BLOGS :D oh now Im super duper happy!!! WOOHOO TY!!!!!! OOOOOOH WOW ok so yeah Ill try to get over the excitement :) atleast SOMETHING made my day.... So this week I aint been feelin so hot... sadness, started monday, thought I was havin some hunger pains didnt understand why because well I dont really get that and I had eatin breakfast so it was odd...so ok ate...well tuesday the pains were more frequent even when I ate...and by tue night ahhh major painnnnnns esp if I did eat then they got worse...didnt sleep a wink last night...well ok maybe a lil wink ;) but I was hurtin in muh tum tum SOOOO BAD I barely ate dinner that night so I didnt get it...worse pain in muh life I fkn tell ya...I hate dr's but it was so bad in the am...that n throwin up EWWW I KNO but if ya dont like it DONT FKN READ MY BLOG hahaha anyways...so I got in *its amazing usually they dont got any openings...* my old dr. moved to OR so I had lil mr Lee LOL! calle

It's Been A Long Week Already *lol*
Well, lets see.. I am still at work. I am trying to get a laptop configured before the vendor tech comes to swap out a video card. The lead came onsite today and we discussed where things are going what more role will be. LC ate my last blog, so I waited a day or so before trying to enter in a new one *lol* What else is going on? I wonder..

It's Better This Way
So there you were My heart finally ready to let go. To free myself from your agony. "It's not that I don't want to love you. I can't" you had said. I wasted so many tears on my broken heart. Now it seems your world is Shattered. All that you knew has slipped from your giants grasp. I cast aside my heartache, No longer needed. I am so much stronger in these days. I offer my friendship saying I am well enough now to offer this one thing to you. Your expression changes, to that of obvious hurt and my heart again sinks was I supposed to wait? Did you now want the love that you had chilled and hardened with your cold words? I really want to love you I just can't , I think as I close my eyes and turn from you. I want so much to be the friend you wanted when you broke my heart but the table has turned on you now. I know that behind my strength I am still fragile If you just asked I may still fall. The evening departs The moment I look into your sad d

Its Been Awhile
i know its been a while since4 i talked to anyone or left comments , sorry guys but unfortunatley while move i some how fucked up the power thingy on my computer so i cant turn it on......sucks to be me . now i dont have a computer . i can still go online every once in awhile , just to check messages and maybe to leave a few comments . but i promise as soon as i get my computer fixed ill be back to leaving everyone comments and checking out all the new shit .luv yall p.s. baby is doing great

It's Been Awhile
Its Been Awhile Staind (Break The Cycle) It's been awhile since I could hold my head up high It's been awhile since I first saw you It's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again It's been awhile since I could call you And everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem the consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted and It's been awhile since I could say I love myself as well It's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do It's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered, I've gone and fucked things up again. Why must I feel this way Just make this go away, Just one more peaceful day It's been awhile since I could look at myself straight It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry It's been awhile

Its Been Forever
hello i havent written in here in a while mostly because im at work alot and i dont ususally get time to get on before work and i have been workin days this whole week and when i get home im to tired to mess around on the internet so i pretty much just eat and relax and go to bed...i miss talkin to all the people on here but i gotta work to pay the bills ya know...i rather work nights then days...im like more awake then lol i dont really get up to early to go to work when i work mornings if i have to work at 10:30am i get up at 10am and get ready cuz i dont live to far away from work...today i had to get up at 6:30 am and work till 3pm it kinda sucked but i got done early at least...it was slow in there at that time of the morning and it stayed that way for a few hours or so...welp anyways im gonna stop now so i can watch law and order ci cuz i dont think i seen this episode...even though its a old one lol LaterZ

It's Been A Very Long Time
Storymaker2 IT’S BEEN A VERY LONG TIME She was looking for someone to be with; someone who could fulfill all of her dreams. She met him on-line and had been chatting with him for 6 months. It was Friday night and it was the night that she finally got to meet him. Could she do it? Would she have the nerve? She hadn’t been with another man since the love of her life died 5 years ago. She has needs like every other woman and these have to be taken care of. Hopefully tonight they would be. They were to meet at a quaint Italian restaurant and would let nature take its course from there. She walked through the door and the hostess showed her to the table. There he sat in all of his glory. Wow, was he striking! He stood up to hug her, hmm, about 6’5”, big hands, how nice. He had the most wonderful green eyes. They talked throughout dinner, discussing everything from family to politics. He then told her that he had reserved a suite at the Colony Plaza, in downtown Chicago, hoping tha

It's Blood Curtling, Do Not Read If You Have A Weak Tummy, Lol...
A drunk gets up from the bar and heads for the bathroom. A few minutes later, a loud, blood-curdling scream is heard coming from the bathroom. A few minutes after that, another loud scream reverberates through the bar. The bartender goes into the bathroom to investigate why the drunk is screaming. "What's all the screaming about in there?" he yells. "You're scaring my customers!" "I'm just sitting here on the toilet," slurs the drunk, "and every time I try to flush, something comes up and squeezes the hell out of my balls." The bartender opens the door, looks in, and says, "You idiot! You're sitting on the mop bucket!"

It's Been A While
Hey you guys and gals! It's been a while since i have been on here. I have just been preoccupied. Both of my grandmothers had a stroke last wednesday, my step-grandmother is fine but my real grandmother is not doing so well they are both in the nursing home where I work so I can see them everyday! Steve has come home he says just for the holidays so it won't be so bad on us. We'll see if he stays or if he goes. Well I am gonna jump off here for now I will come back when I have more time to stay I just got off work and stopped by my mom's to get the boys and now I am going home. See you all later! Bye

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like...
I'm apprehensive about my callbacks coming up. Not only do I have two in one day, but they're after an eight our opening shift at coffee wonderland. My theory is, however, the less I care about it, the better I'll do. Hell, it's gotten me this far. ... yeah, so maybe I'll work on them a little.

Its Been Done, But Who Cares
I'm just about stir crazy enough to get into some trouble. its not like anyone lives forever. and sometimes I just want to escape myself again and I do. and I have. and someday on this continent I call home, I will stop moving. I hope it will be in the mountains of my childhood in north carolina, but until then... I do not ever want to stop

It's Bullshit.
Well my ex apprently thought that because she broke up with me and said "I just wnat to be friends." that I would waste my fuckin time and get with her whenever she was ready again. Any one who truely knows me knows I am not a man of second chances. I belive that once a person makes up there mind about something they should do it. Know there's something I've made up my mind about. There is no love. There is no love like there is no god. I am tired of people saying oh you should give it another chance or I'm sorry you'll find the right one someday. I won't not anymore. I'm not seeking love out it's much easier to see it logically that it is nothing but a damned fairy tail. Fool's fall in love and I refuse to be a fool again. I tire of the game's played of all the bull shit invloved in trying to get someone to be there for you as more of a friend. I refuse to date or hook up ever again. It's time for me to remove the frustrations of a realtionship and just start looking for a fuck buddy.

It's Been A Rollercoaster Week.
They had a plantwide meeting Monday at Peterbilt. They told us that due to the new federal 2007 heavy truck emissions regulations that production would be cut from 68 trucks per day to 30 trucks effective Jan 29. . I watch my 80,000.00+ job go down in flames. Feeling rather numb , I drove home in a stunned silence and proceeded a rather pathetic attempt at sleep . Of course , with the state of things , that didn't work very well . I then made 30 minutes worth of phone calls , called in a few favors and lo & behold, scored an interview with a musclecar restoration company as the head of parts dept. Went yesterday after only getting two hours of sleep and scored it! The money will stay about the same as Peterbilt but the totally insane work hours will cease and no more turning of wrenches except on MY cars. I actually have a new job that will be exciting to go to instead of this zombie state with fat paychecks as the only plus. Moral of the story: Never sweat the small stuff and DON'

It's Been Awhile
I wanted to say hello to all my friends, fans and family. I know I haven't been on in weeks. I got a new job and have been working CRAZY overtime. I just wanted everyone to know I have not forgot about ya and I miss ya all. I put up some new pictures as promised when I first got on CherryTap. Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. I wish you all a great Holiday season. ~AZSGIRLYGIRL~

It's Been A While
It's been a while... A long time of living, a life all alone. No one to have, to hold, or to call all my own. The longer I go, the more allone I am, trudging through life, already damned. Solitary and separate from the world all around Someone out there, no where to be found. The heartaches and hurt, pains of my soul Needing release, but it's all I can hold Through rain, snow, and bone chilling wind. I've endured, persevered, alone without end Life mocks me, death taunts me, tortures my mind So long have I travelled, So much left behind. Few dare to journey,the dark, wild path. Face the true nature of Natures pure wrath A shelter from the storm, A fire to keep warm. Maybe, I'll see the morrow lay down my burdens, my pains, my sorrow A short time of peace, of rest, of warm place to stay, and by morning's first light, I'll be on my way.

Its Been....
Its been six months now and i can honestly say that it has gotten a little easier and now that the hoidays are ove I can say that is a lot better..The hardest part still is being able to pick up the phone and call him and just shoot the shit to see what he is doing. I know that you know Charlie how muched you are missed. I still can't believe that it has been six months since he has been gone and before i know it it will have been a year. I am sure that it will get easier and easier the longer that it goes, I know that cause it has been 3 years on the 16th of this month since i lost the love of my life Joshua and it has been a lot easier everyday that I get up. And now two of the peoplein my life that I cared a lot about are together looking down on me. I can honestky say that my heart is finally starting to except the fact that Charlie is gone but it will still be awhile before it all the way hits me. It took just about 2 years for me to except the fact that Josh was gone. So I am sur

Its Been
this is real crap its been damn near 24hrs and i still can not comment on pics....i'm getting closer and closer to leavin tap. how long do they make u wait b4 u can even leave another friggin comment after u reach u'r limit for the god damn day...this is bullchit

It's Been A While
Haven't been around much lately. Works starting to pick up again. I am so relieved. I ended up taking a month long forced and unpaid vacation. Even now it's still kinda slow but we got a bunch of stuff in the works. I also wanted to comment on all the people that have been putting out for the happy hour. You guys are the shit. I try to get over to their pages and give them props but I know I have missed a bunch of them. Anyways, thanks. A good friend of mine from the Marines just joined us. His link is at the bottom. If you get a chance and you're looking for something to do go show him some love. Also, a girl I met on here is going through a pretty tough time right now. Just want you to know I'm thinking about you and if there is anything I can do, you got it. I guess that's all for now. Gotta get out there and check out a couple of new installs I'm trying to schedule. Non carborundum iligitimae est Jon muther@ CherryTAP Go give him some love.

It's Been A Bad Week :(
now with my dental insurance backing out of the claim after they said they would cover the cost of complete mouth overall, I owe the hospital almost 1,500 at least for work that has been done thus far! and I still HAVE TO get the crown done on the tooth that broke off last Sunday. Retail isn't a good profession to be in when you have a bad front tooth. It looks better then it did before, it's now 90% there instead of only half present. I was going to buy a blast, but then my hair dryer died yesterday so that is more important. Just been a bad week :( and I'm getting really sick on top of it all. Going to bed as soon as this Nyquil knocks me out. Then I shall complain no more tonight...

Its Been Awhile
I went from bein on the computer everyday to not at all...I wish I could be on more often. Life has been pretty rough...I feel like I have reason to fear for my life and so I aks that you keep me in your thoughts and I travel on. Life goes on and I must stay strong....

It's Been A While
So I haven't exactly been on this lost cherry thing recently. Or well, now it's called CherryTap. Whatever. Same thing. The last time I was on here, I had a boyfriend who was also on here but since then we've broken up. I was a bitch to the guys who would write to me and no girls even wanted to go there. But now I'm willing to be more open minded about the people on here. So if you want to talk to me then send me a message or a comment. Whatever floats your boat. Well, I'm out. Peace, Carrie-cunt

It's Been Awhile...
YEAH!! It's another Sassy blog!! Ive been kinda blank lately on what to blog about... And I have been a lil busy with some other things... I asked my personal assistant Sven to blog for me...apparently i need to train him better cuz he does squat on this profile...hehe This is Sven, say hello!! I know there are lots of things i should be doing right now...hmmmm But I cant remember what they are... HEY!! Only 130 something more sleeps til... OMFG, i cant wait!! Well with that thought i am off to have the hottest, bubbly bubble bath i can have!! Was this blog as good for you as it was for me?? Oh and remember... RATE ME, FAN ME, LOVE ME!! X0X0X0X

It's Been A While...brief Update On Life...
hey...so I've been away from this site for a while now...since my last blog I have joined the Blue October official street team...THE BLUE MEANIES...hmmm...I have become slightly obsessed with the Zodiac Killer aka the Cypher Slayer...still obsessed with Buffy/Spike fan fiction and Veronica/Logan fan fiction...have recently started reading Jackie/Hyde from That 70s Show fan fiction...I still work at Raising Cane's...I still love Monty Python...I'm about halfway through with this second semester of my sophomore year and I think 6 credits short of starting my junior year...which is my fault because I should actually be a few classes ahead of the game if it weren't for that damn Hurricane Katrina and my depression/ADHD getting a little out of hand...but yeah...so that's about it I think...oh...and I'll be turning 20 on April 26th...goddess I'm getting old...heh...later ^_^ MONICA

"it's Been Awhile" Staind
"It's Been A While" And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I can say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day! And it's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorr

It's Been Two Weeks Since My Accident
I'm healed up almost completely from the visible bruising, but I still have pain in several locations and see my acupuncturist and chiropractor regularly to keep healing on keel. If you are local to San Diego I recommend Mission Valley Acupuncture, Judy Anne Gadler, she specializes in Traditional Chinese Medicine and Acupuncture. Also in the same suite, Limon Chiropractic, Dr. Alexandria Limon has full service chiro care and nutritional counseling. They accept American Specialty Health, and many health plans, also automobile accident care is a specialty. Your car insurance Med Pay is often available as medical care. Tell them I sent you! They're conveniently located immediately south of Qualcomm Stadium, on the first floor. 3456 Camino Del Rio N # 100 San Diego, CA 92108 Phone: (619) 281-7696

It's Been A Long Time Coming...
Wow. What a long and tiring weekend. Don't get me wrong, I had fun, but just exhausting. I'll kinda of start backwards with this, starting with today. I'm shooting all week this week for Fetish Fanatic 6. Today's shoot was me and Rebeca Linares, which I found out is spelled with only one "c". I got a call earlier in the morning from her agent telling me that her test was not back yet, but that AIM had given him a verbal of her STDs. They were negative, however her HIV test was still pending. Usually when this happens, it means they screwed something up and had to retest the sample. But, by the time we were in make and ready for some sex, the test results were in. She was fully clean and ready to eat me!This was my first time working with Rebeca. I was so anxious to work with her, she is beautiful, she's from spain and she has the smallest feet! I'm sure you can just imagine that I took advantage of that fact and did some very naughty things with them! Rebeca is VERY ticklish, but she h

It's Been Three Weeks
and it rained last night, I had work today... and was feeling confident when I saw the streets were dry. But as I approached the freeway onramp, I felt my anxiety kick in and by the time I was carefully negotiating the same ramp I flipped my 4Runner on, I was very aware that my heart was racing. My 84 380SL Mercedes is VERY heavy, and is more likely to skid than flip, so I have the same concern for this ramp being a danger when wet for lower profile cars and I've been going a lot slower on this ramp ever since, in both our cars. A 93 Bonneville feels frighteningly light when the gas tank is nearing empty, when I compare it to the MB. I've not run across any more victims of this ramps slick/air dynamics, other than my neighbor, who spun out into the fast lane from the same area. I was fortunate my truck went to the right. I've contacted the local councilwoman, Donna Frye's office, and spoke with an assistant who is helping me compile info on the accident rate for this location... Hope

It's Been Awhile Since....
~Gotten myself drunk. ~Sang some karaoke (LoL) ~Been to a bar ~Been to a BBQ ~Stayed at a friends till the sun came up. And even passed that. ~Been to a house party ~Played a drinking game (even though I lose, lol) ~Been to a local concert ~Been to a drunken Birthday bash ~Spilled my beer and made Umpa do the push up's (LOL) ~Danced with the other sexy metal fem's. ~Gotten hugs from everyone that would show up to an event ~Played pranks on the first person to pass out ~Been at a party that was shut down by the cops ~Seen a fight ~Been to a band practice ~Taken pictures with people and post it on Myspace. Then we swap pics afterwards. ~Played pool ~Watched movies with a bunch of people ~Gone to the Drive-In ~Heard the laughs ~Shared the stories ~Known you have people who have you back ~heard jokes ~Witnessed drunk (straight) men saying homosexual one liners (LoL) ~Done or Seen the ole' Kung Fu by the designated p

It's Been A Week
Well the kids have been here a week. Seven days today. They seem to be ajusting to life in the south just fine. They love it here. of course havent heard from their dad in about 5 days either. But they love Adam and he seems to love him. Adam's family seems to like them too. Krissie and Tresa get along great and Bud and Matthew do too and everyone loves Theresa but she is so little and cute who couldnt love her. But I wanted to let everyone know how they are doing.

It's Been A Beautiful Week
Beautiful weather, beautiful friends, and my beautiful daughter.. what more could a man ask for. I just wanted to tell ya all I'm thankful for each and everyone of you. Thank you for the time you spend chatting to me and all the wonderful comments you make on the pics. I hope you all had as beautiful a week as I did and I hope to hear from you all soon. Keith

Its Been Awhile
I just want to say thanks to all our friends out there that has comment or rated our page. I thought i would write to all you guys since its been awhile since i been able to get here and talk. Wonderful news me and jamie are now getting married on May 19 of this year just alittle over a month away. Well i am not working any more so now maybe i can get up here more and get my level up more. Well guys got to go tend to the kids. hugs and kisses

It's Been A While Hasn't It?
Figured I am overdue for a check in. My karaoke business is finally fully off the ground. I now have two regular paid weekly shows and I have a nice trickle of "one nite only" shows scheduled to the end of the year (with room for plenty more). I think two regular shows and a few extra shows a month is quite enough for a busy wife and mother. Nathan is gearing up for school and scheduled war games (in state and out). Thankfully, my work will keep me distracted enough not to miss him too much. If you are really interested in how I spend my time when I am not at cherrytap, please stop by my "real" blog at http://dizzydayz.blogspot.com. If you are in Colorado and are interested in stopping by one of my shows, please stop by my "karaoke" blog at http://360.yahoo.com/thisdivadoeskaraoke. Trying to keep up with everything has been madness, lately because I have had to meet with business prospects and still keep up with running a household and help my husband out since he got

Its Been Forever
well its been forever and a day since i have posted on this so here goes. well i now have an adorable cute puppy named ciara and shes the sweetest baby around.i had a job but ive lost it cuz they closed their doors so im back to looking for a damn job. ugh i hate this!!!!well im done for now.

It's Been A Long Time...
Honey why you calling me so late? It's kinda hard to talk right now. Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay? I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud Well, my girl's in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice say my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It's funny that you're calling me tonight And, yes, I've dreamt of you too And does he know you're talking to me Will it start a fight No I don't think she has a clue Well my girl's in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice say my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With t

Its Been So Long
Its been so long since I felt your touch I would give anything to hold you This feeling I've never felt so much I would love to kiss and console you... Its been so long since I kissed your cheek Or just sit back and share a laugh If I was there I wouldnt miss a beat But I miss my other half... Its been so long since you've been in my arms What a wonderful feeling that was And just the thought makes me feel warm Becuase thinking of you... thats love... Its been too long since I've seen your face A face that is one of a kind And there is no other face that could take your place Because baby girl, you are mine... -Nemesis the Nazerene-

It's Been A Day Now. . .
It's been a day now since my mom has died. And everything just keeps falling apart. I still feel lost and I suppose I always will be. I'm not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me, I'm not looking to throw a pity party. It's just that I feel that society has lost one of it's best women. She was a nurse and I was going to go to school to be a Phlebotomist.(A Phlebotomist is someone who draws blood) I'm also trying to enroll to be a tattoo artist/body piercer. Anyhow, like me, she was a Wiccan. She practiced magick and she believed in more than one god. I was, and I still am proud to call her my mom. (I MISS MY MOMMY!!!!!!!!)

It's Been A While
Ok so i haven't been on here much.I have been cleaning with my aunt and cousin for some extra cash!I also have been just not getting on here.I got burnt out & they started changing everything on here.I have returned to see whats up with my Peeps! O yeah i hope everyone had a great Easter & Great 420!~

It's Been A Year...
I wasn't sure what I was going to write so decided to place this in "Misc." for reasons being that I'm not sure where I'll wind up with this need to purge... Today is the one year "anniversary" of the death of my One, Master, Soul Mate and Twin Flame. I woke up as usual, nothing... a void, an emptiness... the lack of emotion concerned me because this is not like any grief or remembrance I have ever experienced and I have lost a many loved ones. I turned over in bed and opened my eyes to see a wonderful man that came into my life at my darkest hours to hear the words "I Love You" in his dry throated and gravely voice, and charming, sweet, sleepy smile. Climbing out of his arms and legs wrapped about me, I go to bring him his freshly brewed hot cup of coffee (all Hail the Goddess "Caffina" and the God Juan Valdez) and lie back in his arms thinking is this real? How can I feel nothing for the man that once was the very reason for me to keep on breathing just one year later after

Its Been A While......
Ok. I haven't been around for a while, sorry...I have been so busy doing the life thing its so different then doing the music thing. I was hoping by now the wrist injury would be heeled but it's not. It swells everytime I play. Will I be ready for the summer tours? No, I have to sit this one out... I'm hoping by next season I will be up and ready to go again, its a crap shoot at this point. I'm sad I took my music life for granted, it was one big party most of the time ..Yes, times would get trying..But I feel strange in the outside world and no one can begin to understand the life I came from. Sterotypes and other things get in the way of meeting intelligent people. Just because I played music of most of my life doesn't mean I want to meet some sexed up boytoy that loves drugs and a good party. I don't need anyone to support me I have done this most of my life. I can do anything I want because I have no ties to anything or anyone. I have a degree and have traveled the world. I have b

It's Been A Week.
First things first, I'd like to thank Sinister Sainthood. That is my brothers paintball team. First off I am very proud of my brother. His dream for over the past decade was to break into the paintball industry, this Saturday he opened Gateway Action Sports. His very own paintball field. As I said, I'm very proud of it, and the field looks great. I went out there to take some pictures for him, and when he found out that my finger was itching to get behind a gun again his team jumped on the opportunity to see what one of the founding members of that team could do after 6 years away from the sport. I think I did pretty good, I wasn't spectacular or anything, but I did pretty good. Played 4 games and had a lot of fun. Once again, thank you to my brother and his team. Also, Sunday I went to the Nashville Zoo. I took my godgaughter and it was so cute. My favorite pat was the reptile house, her family was there with us the entire time, but somehow in there we all got seperated

It's Been Awhile
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now: 1. Halter top 2. Flip-flops FOUR Things You Want in a Relationship: 1. Love 2. Honesty 3. Trust 4. A lot of sex! Three of Your Favorite Things to do: 1. Sleep 2. Read 3. Adventure Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment: 1. Something chacolatey 2. A million dollars Two pets you had/have: 1. Smokey - My kitty! 2. Magnum - Dog, RIP Two things you did last night: 1. Slept 2. Ate a lot of pizza Two people you Last Talked To on the phone: 1. Bryan 2. My mom Two of your least favorite things to do: 1. Work 2. Hmmm.... work? Love Part You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!! Do you have a crush on someone currently? Yes Have you ever been given roses? Yes What is your all time favorite Romance movie? The Notebook (of course) How many times have you been in love? Once for sure Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? No Do you think that you should put your friends first? E

Its Been Awhile
I think it was about 3 - 4 weeks ago now. I was heading into Scranton and on the major lane , RT 6, there was a vehicle disabled and stuck in the middle lane of 3. I looked over as I passed and watched every single vehicle doing there hardest to swerve away so they wouldn't be stuck behind. I pulled my car over to the shoulder about 100 ft above and ran down and asked the couple if they needed a hand getting the car off the road. They were an elderly couple about 60 and were some kind of foreigner lookin people.,, maybe hungarian or whatever,it didnt really matter much. The guy told me what was wrong , and to make a longer story short, I stopped the traffic behind him and guided him on to the shoulder and called 911, cuz he didnt have a phone or anything. He thanked me time and time again as I stood there with him talkink until the police got there, and he told me thank you, thank you, and god bless me. I told him to do me a favor and the next time he's out on the

It's Been Awhile Since I Did A 25 , So Im Going To Do A Brutally Honest One Right Now.. Muahah
1. I want to build my own bike.. actually 2 bikes my first one I designed the concept of when I was 15 , and still havent built it. Its the concept of a 78 Sportster softailed out with whitewalls and cali bars.. yeah.. its not quite a harley but not quite a chop. My second one.. Chop totally chop low low cruiser recliner type of chop to where I can sit on it and drive cross country if I feel like a road trip`. Thats the bike. 2. I fucking hate women. More accurately I hate women who lower their iq's to impress a guy. I hate fake stupid chicks or overt drama princesses. What ever happened to tomboy girl next door kinda on the friend side of lovin? whatever happened to that. 3. Tats.. i want alot of them, I have 5 now but someday the 5 I have will be a full back 2 full sleeves 2 full calfs and I want a tat on my ass. I want it simply to say , (Im not tellin haha) some of them, I plan on doing myself, just as soon as I replace all my equipement, I want to apprentice build my prof an

It's Been A While........
And it's been a while Since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while Since I first saw you And it's been a while Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been a while Since I could call you And everything I can remember As f*cked up as it all may seem The consequences that i've rendered I've streached myself beyond my means And it's been a while Since I can say I wasn't addicted And it's been a while Since I can say I love myself as well And it's been a while Since i've gone and f*cked things up just like I always do And it's been a while But all that sh*t seems to dissapear when I am with you And everything I can remember As f*cked up as it all may seem The consequences that i've rendered I've gone and f*cked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day! And it's been a while Since I could look at myself stra

Its Been Kind Of Slow Lately.
Things haven't been going anywhere lately. It almost seems like CT kind of died a lil bit. I'm even contemplating whether or not I should stay with CT. Meh, oh well. Life is good for the most part. I miss chatting with some of my friends on here. Well I'm keepin it short. I hope you guys have a fantastic day! :D --Jon ;)

Its Been A Month Now. . .(song And Lyrics Included)
Its been a month now since my mom's passed, and I thought I would put a song in this blog that she absolutely loved. . . EVANESCENCE LYRICS "My Immortal" I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus] I've tried so hard to t

Its Been A While.
Well hello everyone! Its been some time since I have posted anything in here. And I am not sure just how many of you read this, But oh well what the heck, I am going to do it any way. Well for some of you on my friends list, if you have read any of my blogs or post you moght alrady know and if you dont you will after you read this because you will and are going to go back and read the other ones......lol Well I am doing good at work once again they have moved me to another sotre and from what I have been hearing they are going to be moving me again some time soon. I am in good health other then a cold I just got over.I am still look for the speical friend and am not haveing any luck so far. But as I have learned I know its not going to be easy, but if any of you have some pointers or any good (nice) addvice I am open to hear it. I am so glade it is finley warming up here in Ohio, I could not take any more of the cold.....lol Well I hope that some of you really read the blog

Its Been A While...
okie... so its been a while since i have written in here... first off... im single... and have been for about 2 months now... i told phillip that i was pregnant and he ran! like the coward he is... and im not trying to be mean but its true... he kept coming up with reasons as to why we shouldnt get married... so yea... he already has a new girlfriend... we were together for 17 months... so yea... Hayven is walking and talking all the time now... she has 12 teeth now... its crazy to see how much she has grown in the 14 months that she has been on this earth... i went in for a DNA test over a month ago with hayven... but i dont know if her father went in or not... i guess ill be finding out here really soon... i have just been trying to live it one day at a time... mainly because if i try to dweel on the past then i just get overwhelmed and things get bad... so things are hopefully gunna start to go up... because i am just trying to move on with my life... even tho its hard..

It's Been A While
Howdy folks. It's been awhile since I blogged, and its been busy busy busy on this end. Due to another fine job of corporate thinking, our company failed to hire enough for the third year in a row, so we've been working lots of hours 530 is way to early to start a day, letme tell you. But I get home at the same time usually, and three more hours a day is definitely fattening up the paychecks nicely. Sebastian will be graduating from 8th grade June 1st, with his party the 3rd, so that will be a busy weekend. We agreed to go to a birthday party the 2nd, so I should be hung over the 3rd. Great way to face my ex lol. Demetrius is starting his late surge to get his grades up. I am amazed that he can do 5 weeks of D to F work, and 4 of straight A work. He has had a friend drop out, and one will be back for a 5th year, so that sort of opened his eyes. He says he doesn't want to be a "super senior". My wife is also working 12 hour days where she works, so we've both been ex

It's Better To Be Safe Than Sorry!
Subject: State Police Warning DON'T FLASH HEADLIGHTS AT ANY CAR WITH NO LIGHTS ON!! Police officers working with the DARE program have issued this warning: If you are driving after dark and see and on-coming car with no headlights on, DO NOT FLASH YOUR LIGHTS AT THEM! This is a common "Bloods" member "initiation game" that goes like this: The new gang member under initiation drives along with no headlights, and the first car to flash their headlights at him is now his "target". He is now required to turn around and chase and spot that car, then shoot and kill every individual in the vehicle in order to complete his initiation requirements. Their intent is to have all the new bloods nationwide drive around on Friday and Saturday nigh ts with their headlights off. In order to be accepted into the gang, they have to shoot and kill all individuals in the first auto that does a courtesy flash to warn them that their lights are off. Make sure you share this information with all t

It's Being Built!
Yesterday I met with my tech crew of welders/machinists and I am happy to say my new spectacular extreme stage escape, aptly titled, "The RAMMSTEIN" is now officially under construction. If preliminary designs are anything to go by this death dealing extreme fire device will look like something right out of a post apocolyptic industrial nightmare! I am sure the band RAMMSTEIN themselves will love it :) Construction will be completed by mid July and then I will be posting pictures here for all to see. Cheers, Steve www.thedarkmaster.com

It's Bed Time!
Why do we always do the right thing, or why do we always feel as if we should do the right thing?? It's like you're always expected to put others before you. Don't do this caus it'll upset this person! Don't say that or it'll upset that person! Well, I'm sick of doing the right thing, I'm always thinking about how my actions will affect others, damn it, I want to be happy doing what I want to do! So, for the rest of the day I'm gonna do what I want regardless of the consequences to world peace! I'm gonna speak my mind, I'm gonna go where I like and I don't give a shit what anyone thinks, until tomorrow that is! I'm off to bed!

It's Been A While!
Time just moves too swiftly for me these days! Good afternoon/good evening, everyone! Guess grandson Tim is moving back in for good! He has cheerfully driven his big bro crazy with his behavior, lol! Welcome to my world, Damian dear. Daughter Jenn continues to live in LaCrosse County Jail. Seems a deal has been worked out - she will stay in jail until an opening comes up in a certain prison-based drug rehab. That program is 14 to 16 weeks long! We'll see how this flies - I'm not so sure about it! Tomorrow is THE DAY - my belly dancing debut with the class, lmao! I'm a nervous wreck! But it will be fun, I guess! We are dancing at Butterfest, lol! Yeah, this is the Midwest. By 5:30 p.m. lots of people will have spent much time in the beer tent. This should be good, lol!! If the wind is blowing (and when isn't the wind blowing), dancing with the veils will be like dancing with saran wrap - too funny!! A big thank you to Illusion for helping me level up! I did a little "shame

It's Been A While....
Yea, so i haven't logged in here in a long time. Sorry about that to anyone who wondered where i went or why i didn't comment. I'll have to get around to some of that soon. I don't think i ever blogged this... but i am pregnant and expecting a baby girl in September! Yay, we are so excited! I'm 27 week along, it's going by so fast, it makes me sad almost! So that's pretty much why i haven't been around... i have been so busy doing things and getting my house ready, plus taking care of my other two. I hope everyone is doing well and having a wonderful summer so far! (Even though it's not officially summer yet, lol.) Much Love!

Its Been A Long Night
Ok its about 6am here in Salt Lake City UT and I still havent sleep at all. Its not fun. I'm physically tired but can not sleep. That's what a manic depressive state will do to a person. At least I'm find things to do and people to talk to. Though most people are night owls like I am and will be going to bed soon (I hope to be 'cause I'm off work today) or are just getting up from sleeping all night long and getting ready for a new day (damn lucky people you are). Khaos Faerie

Its Baby Time
Hello everyone im a dad to be. Doctors say the baby should be born aug 2 but me the fiance and her mother think its going to be sooner. All i know is im going to be a daddy and im nervious as nervious can be.

Its Been A Bad Week....
imikimi - Customize Your World I just wanted to apologize to all my friends,fans, and family for not being up to date on rating all the new stuff you have uploaded in the past few days. Monday at 2:00pm my very best friend of 33 years Frankie past away...he was only 43. He had a very long battle with Cirosis of the liver. So as sad as I am for his loss I am truely at peace with the fact that he is no longer suffering. But that is why I have been unable to be on here. I will be on more as the days pass!!! Thank you for reading this and being understanding of this. ~*~WE LOVE YOU FRANKIE...until we meet again~*~

It's Been Too Damn Long!
I haven't hung out in Dominican places in forever and now I'm wondering what the hell is wrong with me! lol Damn, was tonight fun! From the food to the music to the dancing and the guys! lol Now I can't wait to get down to the DR, and I even convinced my friend to join me in bellydancing! :)

It's Been .. Um ... "amazing" ... Lol
I had never heard of this site until a few hours ago ... I was sitting here, clad in swimwear to head out and work on my tan, chatting with a longtime friend on Yahoo .. when he said to me .. "Hey, you ever heard of cherry tap?" Well of course I hadn't so he got me the link and within minutes I was logged in .. Good grief, 5 hours later, here I sit, still clad in swimwear, having never made it to the pool. Within the first 15 minutes, I was ready to log off and never visit this site again .. for I had never seen anything quite as chaotic. I felt like I was under attack .. lol (Well, maybe I was .. *EG*) Anyway .. to those of you who offered help in my first few minutes .. THANK YOU ..you saved me from drowning .. And to those of you who have assisted me in these first few hours .. THANK YOU .. And um ..to those of you who um .. well, have gotten me a bit "excited" about being here .. THANK YOU! I hope the rest of my stay here will be as enjoyable as the first

It's Been A Fast 30 Years!
1970: Long Hair 2007: Longing for hair 1970: The perfect high. 2007: The perfect high yield mutual fund. 1970: Keg. 2007: EKG. 1970: Acid Rock. 2007: Acid Reflux. 1970: Moving to California because it's cool. 2007: Moving to California because it's warm. 1970: Growing pot. 2007: Growing pot belly. 1970: Douglas Street bridge. 2007: Dental bridge. 1970: Trying to look like Marlon Brando or Elizabeth Taylor. 2007: Trying NOT to look like Marlon Brando or Elizabeth Taylor. 1970: Seeds and stems. 2007: Roughage. 1970: Popping pills, smoking joints. 2007: Popping joints. 1970: Our president's struggle with Fidel. 2007: Our president's struggle with fidelity. 1970: Paar. 2007: AARP. 1970: Being caught with Hustler magazine. 2007: Being caught with Hustler magazine. 1970: Killer weed. 2007: Weed killer. 1970: Hoping for a BMW. 2007: Hoping for a BM. 1970: The Grateful Dead. 2007: Dr. Kevorkian. 1970: Getting out to a new, hip

It's Been A Fast 30+ Years
1970: Long Hair 2007: Longing for hair 1970: The perfect high. 2007: The perfect high yield mutual fund. 1970: Keg. 2007: EKG. 1970: Acid Rock. 2007: Acid Reflux. 1970: Moving to California because it's cool. 2007: Moving to California because it's warm. 1970: Growing pot. 2007: Growing pot belly. 1970: Douglas Street bridge. 2007: Dental bridge. 1970: Trying to look like Marlon Brando or Elizabeth Taylor. 2007: Trying NOT to look like Marlon Brando or Elizabeth Taylor. 1970: Seeds and stems. 2007: Roughage. 1970: Popping pills, smoking joints. 2007: Popping joints. 1970: Our president's struggle with Fidel. 2007: Our president's struggle with fidelity. 1970: Paar. 2007: AARP. 1970: Being caught with Hustler magazine. 2007: Being caught with Hustler magazine. 1970: Killer weed. 2007: Weed killer. 1970: Hoping for a BMW. 2007: Hoping for a BM. 1970: The Grateful Dead. 2007: Dr. Kevorkian. 1970: Getting out to a new, hip

It's Been Real, Unreal And Surreal: The Rest Of The La Trip!
All right, now that I told you about the Jib Jab experience, it's time to fill you in on all of the other exciting moments that happened in LA! Before I do that, let me remind you of the top 5 reasons why I wanted to go to LA:5) I Haven?t Left the Time Zone.If it wasn't for terrible jet lag the first few nights (Sarah can attest to how I was practically sleepwalking at the jazz cafe we went to!), then I really would have enjoyed it more. But I think I was like a little kid when I kept thinking what time it is in New York! It was actually the first day, when we walked through the Third Street Promenade in the late afternoon and I saw the Yankees-Red Sox game on the TV at a restaurant bar that I got really confused!4) Have you been to Binghamton?Apparently we went during the worst overcast time, and the one day we were prepped for the beach, it wasn't beach weather, but even seeing the palm trees everywhere were enough for me!3) I want to see the celebrities!AND THAT WE DID! I almost die

It's Been Awhile My Friend.
Well, I'm finally going to college! Yea! Life for the most part is pretty good. I had a little rant awhile back but I'm over it. I just embraced it rather than hate it. Well, I took the placement exams for college and I must say this without trying to be boastful... ...On the exams I had to make a 25 to pass and I passed them with flying colors! I'm so excited, I can't wait! I've been doing some art "exercises" lately. I would look at an object and draw either a cartoon character or something else by using that object as a base for the drawing. So I've been trying to get my art skills going. Its been 2 years since I've done much of anything. And quite frankly, I was getting tired of my father nagging at me about either going to college or get a job or even both. But, I'm a full time student. 14 hrs! Not to mention my ENG 101 class is at 7 AM. I didn't even think they had classes that early but my Adviser said otherwise. I actually made this blog post for a special friend that I

It’s Been Like This For About A Year Now…
The intriguing thing about my life, it’s direction and it’s events is that I have so many things that are coming together and falling apart at the same time. And just as I type this, I realize it all has to do with my definition of Polyamory. How Tarra Defines Polyamory: “The root concept that words like Love, Relationship and Family do not need to be limited to just two adults at a time.” Now, what this really boils down to is my personal conviction that the widespread belief that monogamy actually works is by far one of the greater tragedies to ever befall mankind. Facing simple facts, human beings are by their very nature an increasingly complex species. As our own evolution has pushed us past the primitive and into self-awareness. it has also given us inspiration, art, science, philosophy and rules to both live and love by. The range of personal needs that must be tended to in order to achieve happiness and self-actualization has also increased exponentially. What t

It's Been A While!!!!
And it's been a while Since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while since I first saw you And it's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been a while since I could call you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been a while since I can say I love myself as well and And it's been a while since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been a while but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day And it's been a while Since I could look at myself straight And it's been a while since I said I'm sorry And it's been a

It's Been Awhile...
1. Is there a tree in your front yard? Yes. 2. Where is your phone right now? Sitting next to me. 3. What do you usually do with you're dad when you're together? Watch sports or play poker. 4. Who is the first person you turn to when you're upset? No one usually, I keep it to myself. 5. What is the book you're reading now? How many pages? I'm reading a book called "Weird Michigan" about all the paranormal stuff here and I'm about halfway though. Can't tell you the exact page because I'm at work. 6. Is there a particular scene from a movie that makes you laugh every time? In Without A Paddle, the scene where they get chased by the bear. The whole damn movie is awesome. 7. What is something your friends do that annoy you? Call me at 2 a.m. when I have to get up early for work. Ahem. :) 8. Did you fail your driving test the first time you took it? Nope. 9. When you're on a fast roller coaster, do you scream? No. 10. Would you ever get your writing published? Yes. 11. Do your

Its Been Real....
its been real its been fun and sometimes its even been real fun TAAADONE! kissmylynn26@yahoo.com is my yahoo if anyone reads this and wants to stay in touch. I have been offline here for days with no mention from not one of my FRIENDS to say.. damn girl gont go.. or fuck the ppl that wanna piss you off So I didnt make a big of a impact on FuBar as I thought.. is my bubble popped? Nah... deflated a bit but Im sure Ill make it lol. I started here to make friends.. and I failed I wanted to complete my goal and be GodMother before I left here but without a friend to rate my pics and stash I cant do it.

It's Been Going Well. It's A Nice Change.
Wow. Things have been getting better. It's inexplicable. So very unexpected. But I welcome a small retreat to normalcy, or as close as I ever get to it... Some unexpected events occurred that have been conspiring against me. I can tell that this is all leading up to something. I have no idea What or When. And as to Why and Who? That could not be hidden in a more effective way. I am trepidatious of doing my own readings right now. I just feel too handicapped by my own feelings and thoughts right now. It is a little disturbing. Of course I could just be excited about the impending end of summer session and a week off, but I don't think that is the whole of the situation. Maybe with a little more time and a few more pieces to the puzzle things will begin to come into view. On the other hand, maybe this is just the calm before the storm. The inner pessimist in me says that is more likely, but until I am sure I will endeavor to keep a positive outlook. Either way, keeping m

It's Been A While Since...
Last night,I was given a verbal reprimand at work which I will only take partial responsibility for.A co-worker decided not to replace some food that used for the late night menu.Never the less,the food became spoiled.I take partial responsibility because I have seen her not replace food when it should be and I tell she should because eventually she(we) will be bitched at. I made the assumption that she would do the right thing this past Monday and she did not.Not to mention,the person who worked on Sunday,did not replace any old food.I woke yesterday morning thinking about all that and low and behold,the shit happened. I'm gonna play it cool and not rat her out to the chefs.It gives me the opportunity to step where she clearly she is not.Her current neglect is part of a growing list and the chefs know it.

Its Been A While
And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I can say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day! And it's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry And it's been awhile

It's Been Awhile
IT'S BEEN AWHILE • Album: Break The Cycle • Track Number: 04 • Performed By: Staind And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I could say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again.... again Why must I feel this way Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day And It's been awhile S

Its Bad When The Dea Agent Says
So Dee what do you think I should set your bond at? He is blown away about the family I was telling you about last night and at a total loss for words. He will be up to his ass in paper work for a good month or so at least I have a feeling. The thing he has to figure out now is who is the culprit the woman who they were "written" for the husband picking them up or what. It could be that the Husband and daughter are the scrape goats or it could be that hes ruining the wifes name. We dont know if the doctor is just pissed off at this point and that maybe some of the scripts were actual legit scripts or if all of them are actual ilegal ones. Its gonna be a fucking mess trying to figure this shit out. We dont even know at this point how many pharmacys in the area they have hit. It seems to be in about a 50 mile radius. Its really enough to drive you insane over. I really think his job would be so totally amazing to have and I would love to get to work with him for a couple weeks or so b

Its Been A Busy Day
ID LIKE TO LET ALL YOU GOOD PEOPLE OUT HERE IM GETTING AN EARLY NIGHT BEEN ON THE GO ALL DAY AN IM EXHASTED SO I HOPE YOUS ALL UNDERSTAND ,ILL BE BACK TOMORROW FOR A LITTLE WHILE TO TO DO ALL YOU GREAT PEOPLE WHOS BEEN SO NICE TO ME.ITS BEEN A PLEASURE TALKING TO UPS .TAKE CARE AN MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL .GOOD NITE TO ALL

Its Because Of You!!!!!!!
its all because of you im never sadand blue youve brightened up my day in your own specail way how can i get you to understand that i love you more than i can how can i get you to see that your the only guy for me its all beacuase of you all my dreams have come true your eveything ive iwshed for and i could never wish for more i cant discribe how much i care but when you need me ill be there to wipe your tears when you are sad to make you happy when you are mad no one is as special as you are to me now i hope you are beginning to see just how much i care for you and all my feelings will always be true I LOVE YOU

It's Been A While
1.Did you just wake up? about 40 minutes ago...just before 5AM...thanks RJ! lol. 2. Whose car were you in last? My Dad's 3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? I wish I knew lol 4. What is your MSN messenger address? yeah...SO not giving that out 5. How long is your hair? It's grown out a lot again...about mid back I think Where is 6-9??? 10. Last thing you drank? milk 11. Where did you sleep last night? In my bed 12 please??? 13. Are you happy right now? happier than I've been in a long time, at the very least lol 14. What did you say last? "Go back to sleep baby boy." 15. Where is your phone? One is on my bed where I dropped it when I hung up last night, the other is in the kitchen 16. What was the last museum you went to? Virginia Air and Space Museum 17. What color are your eyes? Green...ish 18 Also...where is it??? 19. How was your weekend? GREAT...I got SOOOOO much done thanks to my dad 20. Do you have a foot f

It's Been Awhile
So, it's been quite a long time since I've been on this here site. I haven't signed on since like May and that's back when it was Cherrytap. Anyways, forgot my password and the e-mail I used, so I had to create a whole new one. That sucks. And it ticks me off that I can only rate so many people within a 24 hour time span. I guess I'll have to find other ways to level up when that happens. I also want to become more popular on this here site, but not quite sure how, so someone please help me out!

It's Been Years....
I miss you. I still have dreams of you. I still cry when I think of you. I see you in every grandmother I see. I remember falling asleep in your arms the few days before you passed away. I remember that night... I ran to your room... I never cried so hard in my life. I love you! REL

Its Been Fun
I HAVE OVER THREE HUNDRED AND SOME FRIENDS AND FOR THE LAST 3 COUNT THEM 1,2,3 DAYS I'VE NEEDED LESS THAN 500 POINTS TO LEVEL UP! WELL IM GOING THRU THIS LIST OF MINE AND IM GETTING RID OF MOST OF YOU WHO HAVE NOT EVEN LOOKED AT THE NEW PICS I POSTED OR EVEN JUST SAID HI. SO IT WAS FUN AND MAYBE WE CAN BE FRIENDS AGAIN SOMETIME.

Its Been Awhile
Its been so long since I wrote a blog entry I don't even know where to begin. I moved from Missouri (which was a state of misery for me)back home to North Carolina. Starting over yet again but this time I feel more hopeful this time because of the support of my friends. That and I've dropped alot of emotional baggage that I've carried around for far to long. Trying to get back to the person I really am before I let the bullshit of my life drag me down. I will not lie the wounds left on my souls from my divorce still hurt but not as bad as they did. Will I find some happiness and peace I don't know time will tell. I am just going to try and enjoy the ride as much as I can. I'll try and post something else with in the next few days......Peace be to all of you

Its Been A While.
Here is a thing I have noticed. This website is definately not dial up friendly! so how about it freak! create another link where us losers who use dial up can access the pages here, otherwise send us cash so we can afford cable, or something higher. Do you realize how long I wait for a page to load? or to access chat? I mean its long enough were I can go take a dump and come back and still have to wait, shit. So here I am, Let me voice something real quick. I'm beginning to be dis-satified with my job, and I'm starting to really dis-like people period. It was bound to happen working in customer service and all. But please receiving a bill for a magazine you so carelessly ordered online cause you thought it was for free is not the end of the fucking world! get a grip people! So next time you talk to a rep on the phone be nice, she has access to your personal info and with that I would be very careful with what you say. Just a point I would like to highlight. I'm sick today, I don't

It's Been A Good Week So Far.....
Good morning or afternoon or evening? Some of you are a couple hours away and some are many hours away. It is kind of funny, for being a great week for the most part, it feels like the week is dragging. Does it to you? It feels like it should be at least Thursday! haha I was so tired last night that I got into bed around 8:30 and watched some tv for a while until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. (so no sex) I wake up a lot during the night because of the pain in my neck so I am not sleeping to well. I roll Biofreeze on my neck before I go to sleep and it wares off a few hours later and the pain starts all over again. I thin it is time to go to a doctor or something? Maybe chop off my head? Could be an idea! :o My son Christopher had a birthday last month and got a lot of money as gifts. Seemed to be all he got which is cool for a kid at 12. So he decided yesterday morning by looking at an add from the news paper that he wanted his own set of tools. I am not ta

It's Been A While
Well it's been a while since I posted anything on here... said much about what's going on in my life... I suppose consult older entries for the back story.. So the last couple of weeks have been a little strange for me. One of the factors contributing to the strangeness is.. Going 30 or so hours without sleep.. on more then one occasion.. sleep patterns shifting around so you go from waking up and 5 pm to 2 am to some other time.. hoping to become a day person somewhere in there... all the while trying to persue various job leads.. and getting ready for an up coming convention.. and trying to get all my stuff in order for that... It feels like.. well just like a constant state of trying to wake up.. but literally and figuratively.. As we speak I'm copying audio files off of my portable audio recorder onto one of my hard drives.. I'm trying to record a comment to a big time podcaster.. this will be my first time trying so.. the podcaster in question actually asked m

Its Been A Week Since Perderson Got Fired!!
Useless Athletic director Steve Pederson got fired a this week on tuesday, things with the huskers aint been good they aint playing like a nebraska team!!, may'be with Ztom Osborne as inmterin he can gets things going once again for the Nerbraska team?? I dont know I just hope he can turn it around for them. He was the coach of the national champs back in the day!!, everyone take care have a great weekend ttyl bye :)

It's Been A While!
I know, long time no see eh? I've haven't been on fer sometime do to my little ones being sick and well I found something fun, lol.. This kewl place called king.com some great games to play an well I've been doing alot of it, not won much but still gives me something to do. Anyways I'll hopefully be here more often, an chat it up with ya'll. I do hope you guys are having a good time an staying out of trouble..

Its Been Awhile-staind
And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I could say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again.... again Why must I feel this way Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day And It's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry And it'

It's Been Awhile...
1. How many surveys have you done in the past year? Over 100. 2. Favorite CD of all time? Guns N' Roses Greatest Hits. 3. If you had to be stuck on an island with one character from The Simpsons, who would it be? Moe, so he can bring me beer. 4. If you could choose one person, to never say another word for the rest of their lives, who would it be? My sister in law. 5. Have you ever looked at David HasselHoff and thought, "Wow, now THATS a man"? no freakin' way. 6. Pearl Jam or Nine Inch Nails? Tough one...NIN. 7. Cheers or Mash? Cheers. 8. Superman or Spiderman? Spiderman. 9. If you could know how and when you would die, would you want to know? No. 10. If you could rid the world of war, famine, prejudice, greed and hate forever by killing one innocent baby, would you? Yes. 11. Do you believe in God? If so, why? I believe in a higher power, yes. 12. Aliens? If so, why? no. 13. Time Travel? If so, why? no. 14. If you could live in any city, where wo

Its Been One Of Those Days
so yeah my day started off with haveing to call work to say i was gonna be a few hours late cuz i had to go to court. the court case was a child support hearing, well that didnt go too great. turns out i didnt have to be there, just Robby. Well first when i got there that ass had the nerve to bring his girlfriend (yeah the other baby's momma). well i didnt pay them much attention, just went to the other side of the court room and sat down. but i have really good hearing, especially in quiet places, and could here her start talking about me and him laugh. guess they were surprised i was there so they had nothing better to do than make themselves feel better, but thats not my problem. any how when they called robby to a table to talk to him he said he wanted a DNA test cuz he doesnt think he's the father. the lady asked him why he hadnt got one already and he said he had been denied a test. then she asked by who and he said me. oh i so wanted to go off! i got so pissed i started shaking

It's Been A Year Since.......
Wow, this is so great to me. On 11/9/06 I decided that I was gonna take a trip 100 mile's to meet the lady I had been chatting with for a few month's. We had chated every day and even seen each other on our web cam's. We talked on the phone quite a bit also. I made the trip all the way to a town called Mayfield in KY. It was a long trip and I got lost once in a town cuz my map didnt tell me the highway stoped then started again 10 mile's down another Rd. When I got to her town I missed my turn and had to call her. She helped me find my way to her house. When I got their I met her and I was so blown away bye her beauty. I fell into my shy mode and it took a while to get out of it. We sat around talking for awhile and enjoyed eachother's company. We ended up cuddled up on her couch watching tv and talking. I fell in over my head that night and I knew I had found my dream girl. We became a couple that weekend (I went right back up their that weekend) and Have been together ever since. We

It's Been So Good To Have You As A Friend...
It's been so good to have you as a friend: As sweet and rich as honey-colored sun Slanting steep across a summer lawn, Gilding life with all that love can lend. And now that you yourself have griefs to tend, I want to be the strong and caring one To count to you the lovely things you've done Until these troubles pass and sorrows end. You are so beautiful in form and soul That you bring happiness to all you're near: Just as a sea rose, flowering in mist, Makes a paradise of some bleak shoal, Turning truth to something far more clear, No pain unsoothed or rain-swept cheek unkissed.

It's Best Friend's Day!
FOR ALL MY FRIENDS If u love me (as a friend) u'll read the whole thing. What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend. dont ever leave the one u love for the one u like, because the one u like will leave u for the one they love. tonite ur true love will realize how much they love u between 1 and 4 in the morning. tomorrow the shock of your life will occur if u break the chain. you will have bad luck for 1

It's Been Fun
Well everyone, it's been a whole lot of fun, but it's time for me to move along. I have made a lot of great friends here and met some really great people, but due to personal issues, I am closing this account down as of December 2. This has nothing to do with anyone here, and I'm sure that there will be rumors and all kinds of things, but the simple truth is, I need to do this. I love all of my friends and family and will miss you more than you'll ever know, but I have too many irons in the fire and it's time to do the right thing for me. Take care and "Be excellent to each other!" Have fun and rate EVERYONE high, because EVERYONE has SOMETHING great to offer! Farewell FUBAR!!

Its Been Awhile
Since ive written anything to you fools? I go home this weekend. Yay. Ive finished my xmas shopping. Met some family yesterday that ive never met b4 lol I have cramps. Im drinking orange juice. I miss my family. I miss certain friends that dont talk to me much anymore,for reason i really dont fuckin kno. Im stating to get a slight obsession with Nirvana and The Cure. Ive been writing allot of poems and lyrics. You people should add me on Facebook im on there much more then stoopid fubar! xoxo

It's Been A Crappy Month
It's been a crappy month and looks like this will extend to another month. I just had a realisation: there is no such thing as stupid questions, only stupid people!!!! *GROWLS* Add me to the equation too: took me close to THREE years (it will be three this coming March 2008) to understand the company i work for comprises of idiots (nearly three quaters of them). i'm starting to question my "sound" judgment of people! *LOL* Not only that, i have lost my perfectly non-existent social life, am stressed as hell, been binging on chocolate hence have gained weight (my weighing scale broke last nite the moment i stepped on it - that's TOTALLY bad!) *then sighs* ah well, back to the grind!

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas...
YOU know....I just love Christmas. Some people don't get into the holiday spirit, but for me, it's about putting up the lights, the Christmas Tree, hanging up the holly and Mistletoe. It just gives you a warm fuzzy feeling inside seeing the house lit up for everyone to drive by and see and smile. I know my nickname is PureEvilness, but for me, i will always have a soft side for this time of the year. I'm not a God Hater, never have and never will. Just because i got a metal name, or metal style doesn't mean a damn thing on what or who i believe in. I am thankful of beauty and the art of making people smile. I just love to see the smiles on people's faces when they see the gifts i give. YOU Know i'm not much into material things, that's why i don't ask much from anybody. But i am big on the people that surround me, and who i've touched on personal level and on a friendship kind of level. So to this i say.... "may each and everyone of you, out there in FUBAR land....may YOU, YOU

Its Been A While...
Since I have written in here I have noticed....LOL. Well lets see...Saturday, Michael IM'd me wanted to kno if I was mad at him. I told him no...and he was like well you hadnt called and I was just curious if you were ok. I said I was fine. And he wanted me to call him sometime. Then later on that nite, Kandi IM'd me and asked me the same thing. LOL I told her the same. And besides it works both ways ya kno...and I told Michael this too...yea I didnt call but he didnt either...so its both our fault. And besides...if you hadnt done anything why would I be mad at you? LOL. Then Sunday I was online and talked to Michael a bit online. He asked me to call him...so I did. We chatted and BS'd a bit. Told him about a girl I work with...took a pic to show him. LOL. Stopped by his house after work and we BS'd for a bit...talked mostly it seems about August. Then he was like you kno we have known each other for a year...and I said no we hadnt its been 6 months. LOL I kno the

Its Been Fun... But I Have To Run...
Its been over a year since I joined this site... I have met alot of great people and gained alot of close friends... But as of Saturday Dec 15th, 2007; I will be either deleting my Fubar account or taking a "LONG LEAVE" from it... Those that I am close to know how to find me... It been fun being here but I gotta go take care of what is more important... Later yall...

It's Been A Long Time!!
The last time I updated was in June! I just don't make it here much anymore. I found the man of my dreams and I will be getting married. Amazing huh? lol.. anyway my bestfriend introduced us in May I was all hooked on another guy at the time. We happened to have lived about 10 miles apart in calif. I moved to arizona in feb of 2005 he moved here in april 2005 we both started our job's in April me the 18th him the 20 or 22, we both got a job at places that started with R and know we are sister casino's. We feel it is fate!! We have just found out that my mom has cancer and its been very emotional to say the least. I will try and make it here every so often. But my family is more important. Everyone take care and if you stop by thanks and if you do read this can you send up some prayers? Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas and to a wonderful 2008 Des

Its Been A Bad Year For Me
Well I just need to let this out and thought I would do it here. This year has been one bad for me, I lost my brother in Iraq on May 19,2007, then my mothers step dad passed away Dec 12,2007 and then I find out today that my other grandpa passed away on Dec 13, 2007. They say things come in setts of 3's but a person can really only handle so much if you ask me. This has really sent me over the edge, I dont know where, or what to do anymore. God only gives you what he thinks you can handle or so everyone tells me.. But I dont think I can handle all this in one year!!! I really think I am falling fast! I try to put on a face that dont show the pain I am feeling inside for my kids and my sister.. Anyway I have desided that I am going to spend time trying to pull myself together and see how it works.. I hope everyone can understand .. I do care alot for my friends on here..But my state of mind is not what it should be at this point.. ** When will my pain end??**

Its Because Of Them We Can Celebrate
Off Topic; but something we should ALL be thinking about.... This poem was written by a Marine. The following is his request. I think it is reasonable: "PLEASE. Would you do me the kind favor of sending this to as many people as you can? Christmas will be coming soon and some credit is due to our U. S. service men and women for our being able to celebrate these festivities. Let's try in this small way to pay a tiny bit of what we owe. Make people stop and think of our heroes, living and dead, who sacrificed themselves for us. Please, do your small part to plant this small seed." HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MED

Its Been Awhile
Well its been a while since I left a blog anywhere. Something happened last night that kinda made me need to just get out some things. I was on yahell with a friend of mine and during our talk she told me about how sad she was feeling. Work was going bad and her husband who is in the AirForce was still in another state for cross training. She felt alone and useless. I spent the next 4 hours reminding her of all the things that make her a joy unto this earth and why she should not let anything get her down. After 4 hours she finally found the strength to not do anything well...stupid. I think you know what i mean. It got me to thinking about this time of year for so many. Many ppl call this time of the year the silly season. A big holiday and being alone at this time of year could be misery. I prayed last night for all the people that ever have to deal with this that they find a friend..a light in their dark to help them through like i did my friend. I thought of our brave troops scat

It's Biker Night With Harley In The Bullet
(repost of original by 'Dj~HarleyMoon~Magnum Radio~Gates FU Wifey has Great DSL's' on '2007-12-22 17:12:00') (repost of original by 'DJ JAGERKING ™CO Owner of CrewRadio/ Station GM' on '2007-12-22 17:15:09')

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas!
The day is almost here. Some celebrate Christmas Eve and some celebrate Christmas day. Either way, I hope you all have a wonderful loving Christmas with all of your loved ones. I have not been on the internet at all the last few days. I have had lots going on. We had our dinner party Friday night with our friends and it turned out wonderful. Everyone had a great time and stayed late. I was a bit out of sorts yesterday, just tired. Peter and I ended up going out to lunch and then some last minute shopping. We were done with our shopping but somehow thought it would be fun to go out with the rest of the idiots! LMAO It wasn't too bad. We just picked up one more item for our kids. Then we headed over to our friends house and stayed until late over there having fun. Today, Peter is going to the S.F. 49er football game. It will be the last "free" game he will get to go to since my Dad decided to get rid of his season tickets for next year. It was just getting too hard fo

Its Back...
Its back ..that old familiar bondage of addiction. It seemed I had escaped its deadly tendrils for a season, but somehow it has found me again. I dream of it at night. During the day at work, I can almost smell the rich fragrance of sweat and leather. I feel the wind in my face. I’m 12 years old again…nothing can catch me, I can fly like the birds that follow us from tree to tree…at times, almost within my arm’s reach. Squirrels scuttle across our path, oblivious to our presence. I hear the creek rippling across the rocks, before its flow becomes a puddle, just beyond the small beaver dam. The whole world looks just a little different from this higher perspective…you see things you just don’t see when your feet are on the ground. Before dozing off to sleep at day’s end, I relax with a tack or farm supply catalog…as excited at the sight of saddle pads, leather and riding boots as most girls are with a Spiegel or Victoria’s Secret catalog. Yeah, I feel it even now, possessing my

It's Back !!!
I had an mri done yesterday for severe back pain. Found out this morning that the cancer's back and growing in my spine. Wednesday I meet with my oncologist to see what were going to do this time. Another bite out of the big shit sandwich of life!!!!! I do plan on once again kicking ass !! Thank you all for your prayers and support.

It's Been Awhile Since I Updated...so Here's To A New Year!
~~ From new perception of the world there comes a future very different from the past. The future now is recognized as but extension of the present. Past mistakes can cast no shadows on it, so that fear has lost its idols and its images, and being formless, it has no effects. Death will not claim the future now, for life is now its goal, and all the needed means are happily provided. Who can grieve or suffer when the present has been freed, extending its security and peace into a quiet future filled with joy? ~~ ~A Course In Miracles~ So I've decided that this is the best way I can look at this Year ahead of me... The Year behind me has been pretty rough, the Road has been long and tedious... But it was a Year of Lessons - about Love, about People, about Trust, and, most importantly, about Myself... The New Year will be different... I am in a New city that I am learning fast, making New friends while connecting with Old ones... I am working towards my more simple goals,

It’s Been A Year, My Baby Girl...
Saturday, January 05, 2008 Hard to believe that you died a year ago today. The agony of that horror is just as sharp, just as fresh at this moment as it was then. As no doubt it shall always be. But I know you see me. I know you feel me. I know you hear me each night when I include you in my prayers. And I thank you for healing me over this last desolate year. I love you, my darling, my daughter, my Christina Jane. And my promise to you is that I will live each day as fully as I can, as richly as I can because of you. For you. Your dad will never forget you, baby, and he will never quite get over your loss. But he will live the remainder of his life as a tribute to you and harbor the secret hope that one day he will finally see you and tell you how much he loves you. Such is my hope, and - in the end - it is hope that sustains us all. So like taking in the beauty of the rose are my thoughts of you: to admire it is to at once be filled with joy and wonder while at the

It's Been 5 Days
It's been 5 days since my mom passed away. I'm struggling to move on, I know it's going to take time. Her funeral was friday 1/4/08 and that evening my kids and I got home late. I caught myself wanting to call her to tell her how beautiful the funeral was and I wanted to tell her how many peoeple were there. We lived close to each other but if there was a day that went by that I didn't see her she would always call me or I would call her. The hardest part for me is just being able to talk to her tell her things and have her there to confide in. I have many friends and family that keep telling me call me anytime Nae if you need to talk. It's not the same I don't want to talk to them I want to talk to my mom. I keep having these thoughts of her being so cold and I need to cover her. I am going back to work tomorrow for the first time since my mother's death, and I have to take my daughter to a new day care, because my mom was the one who took care of her for me when I was at wor

It's Been A Long Time
The last time I wrote a blog here was in May 2007, and surely a lot has changed for me in that time. I just seem to be a lightning rod for failures, especially when it comes to relationships. I don't know why it happens, but every woman I've dated has cheated on me. I've had 5 relationships and they all ended for some given reason or another as to why they had to cheat on me. So what do you do? Give up and forget any chance of ever finding happiness? Or just keep trying? Neither would be easy to do, if that makes sense.

~*~it's Been Fun..~*~
I guess you could say I'm driving myself insane.. I guess you could say that I have been so freaking fake to myself above all since I moved.. I've changed so much and I don't even like who I've become anymore.. Have you ever had a moment where you say could've would've should've?? It seems as if I'm saying that a lot anymore.. Like almost I've lost sight on what I want and what I need.. GOD!! I just want to SCREAM!! I have felt like such an outcast down here, I'm afraid to tell anyone the truth anymore.. GOD WHY IS IT SO HARD!! I'm tippie-toeing around anymore afraid to face the truth! So Here It Goes, If I Hurt Anyone.. Then I guess it's your choice to hold that against me.. But Just A Warning.. I Don't CARE ANYMORE!! At Least For Once In A Long While.. I'm Facing The TRUTH! To EVERYONE (who has met me, talked to me, or thinks they know me) - I Have never in my life been to a place like this, BECAUSE Where I grew up my friends, had my back, no matter what.. I HATE FAKE PEOP

It's Been That Long?
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Its Been Almost A Year
WELL WELL its been almost a year since i have posted a blog. Once again its almost time for Bike week. I have my harley in my living room so i can was and polish it so its nice & shinny for Daytona. We will be stayin in Daytona for a weekend then leavin there & goin to Orlando, rididn our bikes from Orlando to the KEYS. We will stay the night in the Keys, & ride to Hogs breathe harley shop.get our souveniors and then cum back to daytona for a lil bit. then head back to the cold & snowy shit.

It's Been A While...
Staind - It's Been A While And it's been a while Since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while since I first saw you And it's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been a while since I could call you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been a while since I can say I love myself as well and And it's been a while since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been a while but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day And it's been a while Since I could look at myself straight And it's been a while since I said

Its Been Awhile, Come Look At Me Now!
Hey All...Been a few Months..Its been a really hard time of the year, but hopefully things will get better. Well, money wise..its been UN believely bad..it sucks, ya know..I want to get my VIP back so bad cause I got some new and Awesome pics I want to share..but its going to be awhile I think. :( I am so lovin being a grammy..She just turned 2 months old today, shes soooo cute. But I have to wait..UGH! So drop me a comment sweeties...ttyl. Love Sherry xxoo

Its Been A While. Friends Get At Me!
Hey there! Its been a long while since ive been on here but im back! been busy with work and such delivered a baby buffalo the other day it was crazy So how has everyone been ?? get back at me friends!!! I miss all of you! and would love to hear from you again

Its Been A While
It's been a hell of a long time since I've actually posted a blog. Well, gee golly, I guess its time to return the whining and the bitching that I always seem to be doing. Recent updates include: 1.) New Job 2.) Enrolled for School in August 3.)New Love interest blah blah blah blah and the best part is nothing works out like anything is planned, or how you want it to... I have a learners permit for driving a car, need it so I can go back to school.... and well... yeah so far the worst thats happened is I almost wrapped the car around a tree... Which would have been hilarious if you ask me cause I don't really care much for this world anymore.. or the douche bags that inhabit it. Uhmmm yeah... thats about it... My life... one steaming pile of shit after another. Congratulations I'm officially a failure. ~*Jackii*~

It's Been A Long Time...and This One's Pretty Cool
A really cool countdown survey. Be completely honest with yourself and you just may learn something. Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't list names): 10. Don't talk to me like that. You don't know me and I have given you NO reason to suspect I'm "that" kind of girl. Show some respect. 9. You confuse me. 8. Please stop crying at me. I've done everything I can for you and I can't pay attention to you 24 hours a day. 7. It's none of your damn business! 6. This is so not going anywhere. I know you want it to, but it just isn't. Thank you...drive through, please. 5. We're not really close. We pretend to be close, but we aren't really, but I have to let you live with the delusion that we are so you won't go insane. 4. OMG...that is the ugliest damn necklace I've ever seen! I'm not wearing that...ever. 3. You are the most pretentious, affected person I've ever come across and I think you have a lot of hard lessons comi

It's Been 9 Long Months
I can't believe you would have been 45 today my sweet husband....and its been 9 long months since you left us to take your place with Him. The kids and I are learing to live again finally but you are here with us. We feel your presence. I love you as much today as I did the day we married all those years ago. We miss you and think of you every minute of every day. I hope you have a wonderful first birthday in Heaven.......I love you now and always. We miss you and that laugh....the twinkle in your eyes.....the feel of your arms around me...sometimes its like I can still feel them. In memory of my Husband Robert Marcus Dodd 2/23/1963 - 5/23/2007

It's Been A While, But This Is What's Up ...
I've been to 3 dental appt's in within the last 30days.... There were 2 points of interest in my mouth. 1 is being treated with antibiotics at the moment. The other was biopsied and it will be a week or 2 before the lab results come in. I have been informed that, tho possible not cancer in and of itself, this growth could very well be a manifestation of HPV.. Human Papaloma Virus... Which, even tho it is a growth inside my mouth, may or may not be indicative of cervical cancer.. There are MANY strains of HPV and only a few are linked to cervical cancer, so I've got my head up high. I just need to wait for the biopsy results and in the meantime, see my ObGyn for related tests...(Ladies, you know whata I am talking about) Last but not least, I have what looks like a birthmark/mole on my right temple. Its been there for a while, but not since birth. I never really paid it any mind until recently it started to change. It is starting to raise up a little bit. If that wasn't un-n

Its Been A Bad Week
Its been a bad week . First off ive worked about 80 hours . thats not so bad in and of itself . But alot fo that was on emergency calls so i had already gotten home from work and was tryign to wind down when i had to rush off ( usually to miami) . On top of that i found out a friend of mine died . and to make matters worse it looks liek he died of somethign that i have as well ( sleep apnea) . and what rounded it off to be a totally horrible week ..Thursday when i got home from work my dog died in my arms . and if another person tells me " well shes better off , she was old " im gonna go shoot their grandmother . and i didnt even have time to emotionally deal with that . no sooner did i finish burying her than i got another emergency call and had to rush off to work again . so im a little blah today

Its Been A Year
It's been a year now Since he has been gone Since my Daddy left the pain and sorrow And I am still hurting All the pain they said would go away seems to get worse How do I cope How can I be the same without his words Good days and bad I still think of him every second I've learned to hide Hide all the pain the wanting to cry Nobody really knows What I am thinking how my mind goes Lost little girl Princess without a King to help her laugh To make her smile to hug when she cries They all lied It doesn't get better you just hide it inside Pain won't stop Missing him while I watch the clock Friends try to help Nobody can I have to work through this myself Daddy doesn't hurt anymore Prayer answered in a way I didn't want Was it my fault Was I the reason really for him to die as some have said I lost so much Can't seem to be who I was I try to deal with all this stuff All the hurt I feel Only time wi

It's Been A While
This week was bonus week at work!!!! yeah!! I bought my yearly splurge (a new Coach tote) and put the rest into savings for Steve's boat and our trip to Disneyland. My sister called last night and she is being induced on Tuesday. I will finally by an aunt!!!! They are evicting the poor little guy a week early because he is getting too big. He doesn't have a name yet either. I guess I will have to keep calling him "LG" (little guy) for a little while longer. I am going over there to see them next weekend. I am spending a week there to help her out and get my holding time in with LG!! Love to all my friends!!

Its Because I Can Stoopit!
so its saturday....and i am stoked to be headn out soon... everyday i feel more free and happy with the things yet to come... ive cut off painfull atributes in my life and begin to pump new blood in my new life.... i am truly free.... ima sick fuck..lol.. but free!... ive been to many mtgs this past week or so and have decided that 2008 is going to be my best year EVER!!!... i know it is.... i am ready to step forward and leave the old DICK behind...... ium so happy... and want u all to feel as i do....and u will when we r together.... hangin out on top of the world.... living free from any kind of pain and anguish... so my friends.... i will see u soon..... ps. rate me, add me, fan me, kiss my butt lol :).....

It's Been A While
Well i say its been well over a year since i have logged in, so it's been quite a while..I got rid some of the crap on my profile.Nowdays i like to keep things simple so i will have a better layout sooner or later.I've finished college and i have just started a new job.I just have to settle down and get used to everything.And my blog is http://darkpitofdespair.blogspot.com for for frequent updates which is every 2 weeks lol. peace out people

It’s Been A Hard Days Night....
After a long, hard day helping others and completely enjoying the fact that I am such a kindhearted, wonderful individual, I took it upon myself to finally take a shower. Yes, I had so neglected my own needs that I hadn't managed to bathe my soiled body until the rippened hour of 8:00 p.m. This, after having been up and about since 7:00 a.m., minus the fifteen minute nap I fell into while watching an episode of Sponge Bob Square Pants. It was the chocolate bar episode, which I've seen at least a dozen times...."CHOCOLATE!!!!" (you so won't get that if you've never seen the episode, so sorry...for you!) I say only fifteen minutes because that's about how long it took me to start snoring and abruptly wake myself up from that obnoxious sound...then just as quickly, I jumped up from the couch and hurried on as if afraid someone saw me sleeping on the job! It's cleansing time, so I walk into the bathroom, hit the lightswitch, as I normally do, although, this time my fingers s

Its Backwards...
I am a lesbian guys. I am not interested in you, your penis, or anything about you. If you are not a female and not ok with me being gay then just keep on moving. Don't spend any time on my profile. I am totally open about my sexuality and the fact that men are nasty funny looking wastes of life. You all think with your small head and unfortunately for you your small head has the bigger brain. If you are a man and have the nerve to message me asking if i will screw you, you wont get a response you wont get a picture, you wont get anything but ignored! The block user button works nice.

Its Been 3 Years
Its April and it has been 3 years since my brother was killed in a car accident. People think the passage of time makes it easier, but it doesnt. I just returned home frome the cementary where I was visiting, and I cried because I miss him. My brother, Shawn, was only 25 years old when he passed on. If ever there was a person that you could count on it was him. I like to write about him because I dont ever want to forget him. I try to take a lot of his ideals and apply them to my life today. The biggest one that I found the most important is to make time for the people in your life. No mater how busy he was he always made an effort to visit with friends, family, and to occassionally chat up a stranger. He never took a single day for granted, and neither do I anymore. I was not always like that. I was so busy that I used to put my friends and family last. I payed the ultimate price for that by losing out on the chance to talk to my brother one last time. You always think that there will

It's Been A Long Time
Daybreak, Once again I watch as The sun creeps over the horizon Slowly, with a menacing fashion. Overcome with that familiar feeling, I sigh. It showers me with its antagonizing rays, Portraying nothing but false pretenses. Yet another realization... Another eternity I prevail. I feel the hands of despair Grip tightly How will I ever break free? Would you deny me the air in my lungs? In a humane sense, no. Yet without you I have no existence You are the air I breathe, The blood that circulates Throughout me. Hard and fast I fall, Back into reality's Cold and barren embrace. It welcomes with me A distanced illusion. You've taken flight Off on a journey To seek answers, To the questions you behold. Every day I witness As you soar I smile How beautiful it is To watch you transcend. With my head held high, A tear in my eye, I know you will be all right. The tear is hot With one quick swoop It falls, Searing the skin beneath That

It's Better To Give...
New Rule: If you have enough to eat, then say "Take Mine". There is a real food crisis worldwide and it's not going to get better any time soon. This is an opportunity for us to lead the way and show the world that there are still Americans willing to help. The normal supply of rice is down do to drought, pests, and the freezing of exports. This results in prices going through the roof. International aid organizations are getting less and less rice for their dollar, and people are dying. We can help feed these people with a "Take Mine" approach. Just don't buy rice during the month of May - let those that need it have it. If enough people around the world stopped buying rice for a month then demand would drop, inventory would swell, and prices would decline. Aid organizations would then be able to buy more rice at a cheaper price and give it to those that really need it. Hmmm, bet this would work for gasoline too!!

Its Been Awhile
the old shout box hasnt had much action and when it has it hasnt been to interesting... this one made me giggle then thought to myself i should blog sooo there it is..... ->jay_blaze: i think not but ty for making me laugh! jay_blaze: hi there......might u be willing to help me with my panty fetish????? please????

Its Been Awhile
Its been awhile since I've been on here, But Im back for now :P Just wanted to put out there that I still dont need any drama. I also wanted to say I'm looking forward to talking to you guys again :D So If you have any questions for me send me a message, or if you dont have any questions send me one anyway :) XOXO Belinda

Its Been 3 Years
(I posted this on April 14th. The 3 year anniversery of my brothers death) Its April and it has been 3 years since my brother was killed in a car accident. People think the passage of time makes it easier, but it doesnt. I just returned home frome the cementary where I was visiting, and I cried because I miss him. My brother, Shawn, was only 25 years old when he passed on. If ever there was a person that you could count on it was him. I like to write about him because I dont ever want to forget him. I try to take a lot of his ideals and apply them to my life today. The biggest one that I found the most important is to make time for the people in your life. No mater how busy he was he always made an effort to visit with friends, family, and to occassionally chat up a stranger. He never took a single day for granted, and neither do I anymore. I was not always like that. I was so busy that I used to put my friends and family last. I payed the ultimate price for that by losing out on th

Its Been A While - But I'm Loving Life Here In Tn
Hey Everyone - Ok, so I know its been a while since I blogged last. First, I would like to thank those who have sent me recent friend requests - I certainly appreciate it. As for my update - ok, some of you have been paying attention to my pictures that were uploaded since being in TN. I have made a really great friend here - her name is Diane. She has pretty much been the person I have been hanging around most with. Micheal and Shaun, well, them too when I get out. Notice I said, "When!" Its not often because I am still working very closely with my brother in law in his rehabilitation from the accident. He is progressing but not as quickly as we had hoped for. Other things have started happening as well - my sister has entered an active phase of her seizure disorder I blame the amount of stress she has been under watching her hubby suffer in tremendous and unthinkable ways. He is in an immense amount of pain and we cannot get his pain under control. So, I now not only take care

It's Been A Long Time... Again! Lol
I've been with Holli for 3 months near-end of last year. Got back together with Kat then we broke up over something soooo stupid. We weren't friends for a day and half until a friend of ours helped us through and now we're happy to be in each other's lives (I am more happy cuz my life isn't complete without her. Feels realllllllllllly different without her, like my world was empty). I am back together with Holli and will be seeing her on June 15th for a week! She lives in Iowa, so I'll be flying (my second time flying). We've known each other on-line for 2 years and we're gonna finally meet! I can't wait! 21 more days to go! I'm excitedly nervous! lol Work... oh lord... well... I really don't wanna talk about, but I will say I love my new co-worker and buddy Barbara. :) Family wise - my nephew Rodney is supposed to graduate from high school in June and he wants to move to North Carolina after that. My nephew Matt is a pain in the A**!!! I wish he would move back to his moth

Its Been Awhile
Yeah I know its been awhile since I've had a blog, even with everything going on I have yet to sit down and blog. Well most of you know the major points of what's been going on the past few weeks so without rehashing details, but still brinigng the rest of my wonderful flock back inside the pen, my divorce is final and in a few weeks I will be spending a little over a month with Terra. I'm so excited. I already have all these plans on what we can do when I'm not working, when I can take days off to spend with her and all that. I will have her for her birthday and am not sure what exactly I will be doing for her but I know I have to make it special. It doesn't have to be all big and badass with a petting zoo and stampy the elephant (bonus points to anyone who gets the reference) running rampent down Clayshire, would be cool but not gonna happen, it just has to be something she can look back and remember and be happy about. Which is what I want all of our time together to be. So

Its Been Almost A Year Sense Our Horrific Loss
well those who were here for me and my juggalo family july 27th 2007,when we lost our baby juggalo in a horrible fire,i send out great thanks.we have survived barely,while some of us are still struggeling to survive this sad and unfortuneate loss.ive noticed myself feeling sadder alot more than normal lately,it probably has something to due with the fact that its been 11 months sense God took our wonderful baby boy Devlin from us.i sit at his grave site and talk to him and cry just bout every day.i miss him so much and so does the whole family...we hide our pain and sorrow pretty well behind our forever painted faces...but the ones who know us can see behind the paint.next month will be the hardest for us all.please show my juggalo family that you still care........lend us an ear or shoulder,it be appreciated! rest in peace Devlin 1/3/07-7/27/07 we all LOVE & MISS you baby boy.....

It's Been Awhile - Staind
Music Video:IT'S BEEN AWHILE (by Staind) And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I can say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day! And it's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile

It's Been A Long Time
So here I am...a year later. I don't think I've written in quite awhile. Why? Because I've been busy. Not busy GOOD but busy necessary. Unfortunately with busy comes "lack of fun". The good news is that my daughter is finally doing well health-wise, so that is a big load off my mind. Financially I am still not doing well, even though I've taken on another job and make pretty good money. The economy sucks. Where is my knight in shinig armor to take me away from all this? The reason I write this blog today is this: My daughter and I had a conversation last night that is still bothering me. I have posted a profile on a site for rich men (supposedly). She told me she is very upset by this. How could I "lower" myself to putting myself out there like that? How could I let everyone know that I am a gold digger? I explained to her that I am only trying to find a different caliber of guy...and that it's just as easy to fall in love with a rich guy as it is a poor one. Why

Its Been A Long Month
this month see about 5 months or less my moms older sister found out she has cancer and this month it hit her hard she ended up in ccu for a few days then they sent her to hospice where u pretty much go to die but for some reason shes fighting to live but they cant help her bc the cancer is in her brain and shes to the point she cant remember us but one of the best things happened she made it to her 65th bday witch was this passed tuesday the 22nd and iam soo happy she was able to know all of us and ended up haveing a grat day and i thank god for all he has done for my family if it wasnt for him we would never have over come all the hard and sad stuff that was sent are way....

It's Been A While...
Hey, it's just me saying that I'm sorry for falling off the face of the planet. I didn't do that intentionally. To my friends, I will be back as soon as I possibly can. Till then if you need to talk just send me a message and I will get back to you as soon as I possibly can.

It's Back
Wednesday was one of the worst days of my life and Thursday wasn’t much better. The whole day had been stressful enough. My mom’s power got shut off so I had my mom and my sister at my house and my brother had been going off about it all day. He’s mad that they were there because of how bad they treat me and talk about me…but I look at it the way I was taught to look at it, it’s family, when family needs help you give the shirt off your back if you have to in order to help them despite what they may have done wrong. At one point my brother was going off so bad that I thought there was going to be a blood bath. My day just kept getting worse. I had the worst wreck I’ve ever been in on Wednesday night/Thursday morning. I was heading home after running Mandii and to take her boyfriend and his friend home cause her car was acting up. I was headed northbound on Market Avenue almost to the corner of Easton by the Marathon. I was getting ready to pull into Marathon to stop so Man

Its Bullshit
i think its bullshit that married woman come on this site then bitch if someone likes sex and shows it sould'nt they be talking to their husbands and staying out of the bars???i am not saying they sould'nt join just that they sould keep their remarks to their selfs and their god.i just joined and i was getting bitched out about the pics i posted,if i had know this site is pg 13 i would'nt have joined ,peace out

It's Been Fun
WELP........its been fun! but its time i close shop and run along w/ my bad self......er yeah so im deleting this shit. i just don't have time anymore to keep up w/ the drama of the fubar. that and i really don't care to level or any of that nonsence. so yeah im in the wrong place..i guess! i don't need to be ranked high among those on a online popularity contest to know where i stand in life and shit. i mean shit .....all this site is is fuckin high school for adults who wasn't cool in high school. on top of that a good 75% of the people who i have talked to on here are so full of shit that they need to whipe they mouth with toilet paper!( thats a nogo!) ive been a bad mother fucker since i was in high school.....AND IM STILL A BAD MOTHERFUCKER! and i don't have time to attempt to relive the glory days! i know what it is......and so don't my family and closest friends! on that note........its about ......hmmmmmmm 5:50 ish.........when this gets posted.........ill be deleted and d

It's Been Hell
This last month has been nothing but pain, nothing but a sinking depression I felt myself sinking deeper and deeper into... yet, I remained hopeful and I tried my best not to show it. The last few months have been hell out here in Yakima, and I grew to hate this town with a passion. I'm not one to talk myself up, but I am over qualified for this town, making it hard for me to find a job... which is sad. Then there was the whole bilingual thing... no offense or anything, but you wanna live here, fucking speak the language. Ahem... Finding out about Baby, then having it ripped from me has literally destroyed me. I blame myself. Darryl says to much. I am still having a hard time sleeping at night, re-living that day is something that is going to constantly haunt my dreams. I've been bleeding for a month, chunks of lining from my uterus still falling out at the most inopportune times... My body has been going through massive hormonal changes and all I've felt like doing

It's Been Awhile
Well it's been awhile since I updated everyone. LOL Things are going ok for me, you know, could be better could be worse. My daughter is officially a Private in the US Army Reserves and planning on going active Army once she graduates. I am very proud of her for following her dream. My oldest son has gone to live with his dad for the school year. That has been hard on me, I miss him terribly, but it has been a good experience for both of them so far. I am still trying to find myself! LOL I have been "mom" for so long, that now that some of that daily responsibility is gone I just don't seem to know what to do with myself. I'm sorting my way through it slowly but surely with the help of my friends and family. I am just really trying to stay in today and not worry so much about what I don't have in my life. I'll update again, when I'm not so tired! Goodnight everyone.

It's Been A Looooong Year...
...and so much has happened. Let's see if I can give the 'short version' - for those of you who might give two sh*ts about it. My whole summer was shot. My mother, who doesn't like me one bit, had a stroke; I spent the summer going back and forth to Oregon to help her out. Much screamin' and yellin' and throwin' things later, she's set up and able to live her life with a minimum of worry and at least some semblance of quality of life. The rest is up to her. In September, at last I got to see Finntroll! Fun, fun, F-U-N, fun! They were on the same bill with Ensiferum, and all I can say is: those Finns know how to have a good time! Drink-laugh-drink-laugh ... drinkdrinkdrink! And, they treat their fans with respect and appreciation. Then again, the European musicians see things differently - just because a girl/woman is wearing a vinyl corset doesn't mean you have license to treat her like a whore - unlike many of their North American counterparts. Anyway, it was a fin

Its Bull
something that is bull is when ur still on the scheduale but not schedaled for any hours it says talk to one of the owners but there never in there its happpening to me right now i have not been schedualed in like 8 weeks

It's Been A While Now
Wow! I thought I had lost someone who I have been thinking of since we had first meet. This person had not been known to me untill that very first day when she found me here on line. I was caught on the blind side (by surprise). We talked for about Four (4) to Six (6)hours every night until the wee hours of the morning. We spent a Good, Fun week toghter in my apt. While We spent the week toghter I had to unfortiently work while She was there. It was good to return home everyday after work. She would greet me with a Hug, a Smile, and then We would start up a conversation of just about anything. I still remember the day she had to return to Her Family. I did not know what to think. I have thought about Her on may times since that day. Sometimes for no explantion at all, there She was in the front of my mind with thought, seemingly to scream from within telling me "Don't forget about Me". I really thought I had lost all, in the short time We shared together, what I found is special

It's Been Awhile
Hello my friends, Well, it has been a long time since I've been on FuBar, over a week which is long for me considering I used to be on almost every day. There has been a lot of heavy duty shit going on in my life, so I haven't had 5 minutes to think about getting online. I will be moving soon(sooner rather than later, hopefully), to escape much negativity and emotional distress that is wrecking havoc on my son, and my life. While I am going through this transition, you may not see me around. But, take care, and know that I will be back! Peace and Love JessyKah

It's Been A Long Time Coming.....
If you're local we're having a girl's night out on Sunday 11/30/08 in Norwalk.Let me know if you're interested and I'll send you the details. ALWAYS an awesome time with this bunch!! :0)

->its Been A Year Already
So its definitely been a year now. Im not even sure where to start. You were my best friend..You helped me through everything. You lived a great life and i really dont understand at why such a young age you had to go. Apparently god had bigger plans for you than any of us did. I remember talking to you end about stupid things and mindless subjects. Its so hard to live without you. it really is. What am i supposed to do when usually feeling like this i run to you and now i cant? i feel selfish for not talking about you much. But at the same time its still really hard for me to deal with it. I cant face the fact that your gone, i cant do it. Its so hard for me to live without you. But i strive to be the person you wanted me to be. I just wish you were here to see Madisyn grow up, and do all the fun things with us that we planned on doin. It hurts. The last time i spoke to you, before IT happened, you asked me to marry you. I wasnt sure if you meant it or not, but either way i said yes. J

It's Been Awhile :)
I have not been on here in what fills like ages. I just can't seem to get eough time in one day. So I wanted first off to say hello to all my friends on here I hope everuthing is going well for all of you. As to the update on me and my family here you go. What have I been up to ? Well I have 1 child in school so I have been getting up early everyday to take her them pick her up. Then we have the homework to do every week, the school music programs to go to and other things she wish me to be there for which I do go to everything. Then I have my 4 year old who is doing school at home this year so I have work to do with him everyday. there is my normal everyday things to do around here. So much to do so little time I guess you would say. I also have my Baby Boy he is doing wounderfull he is now 8 months old he is almost walking,He is talking so much he is also learning to sign ( no he dosn't need to ) . but it's a nice thing to know. He ueses the ones he knows alot. As for me I am lookin

Its Been Awhile
WOW its been awhile. Havent been at fubar well lets see my last blog was back in 07 and it is now 09 and i can still say that my life still sux A$$. My last bf just went back to jail dont know when or if i want to see him again. I love him but when i get a call tellin me that hes goin to be a daddy and im not the one thats knocked up then i have a problem bit what can i do at lest he didnt F up my life haha i feel bad for the poor girls life he did F up haha Well bye for now MissD

It's Been Awhile
so yeah here we are with a new year and so far 2009 is lookin pretty good I have a new job I'm startin on monday and yeah I'm looking forward to seeing what the year will have in store for me everyone out in fubar land stay classy later

It's Been Awhile
its been ahwile since ive updated ya'll on my life..well as you all may know im an army wife of a deployed solder in afganistan,suckyes..very. Honestly if it hadnt been for alot of you on here it woud have been harder than nessacary for us when our/my daughter Lizzie~[~AnglEyes passed away in Sept,o8.. On to a long year for the family as you would presume.. honestly it got much worse i was also left out of her obituary ...i have resent to have it redone..not because im mad because i forgave as soon as it happened,(some ppl know not what they do to others) But because they might as well of left her out ..if you all follow me.. i know just another blog on someones life .. honestly i dont care what you think other than my true freinds will always be there for me ..THats why their my family.. i have honestly been pushed to mylimit this year.. An yet i always find the strength ..im always here for my freinds on Fubar an probally always willbe... ***alot of you are brothers an sist

It's Been A Long Time
It's been a long time Since we've seen eachother's Eyes. I forgot how deep they Dwell into my soul. Knowing my every thought Before my mouth can speak it. It's been a long time Since we've touched. Oh, the shivers. The tingle in my heart. Between my theighs....sigh. It's been a long time Since we've spoken. Forgotten that sound... The sound of Ireland. Deep and heavy. How it easily pleases me Or frieghtens me. Please speak agian! It's been a long time Since I've run my fingers Through your long dark hair. Watched your eyes go Wickedly wild. The need pumping through Your veins. It's been a long time Since we've smiled. The one thing that Always brings me up Instead of tareing me down.. It's been a long time.....

It's Back: Mercury Is In Retrograde!
Mercury Retrograde Mercury retrograde in Aquarius [Jan 11 – Feb 1, 2009] At 16:45 UT (Universal Time), on Sunday, January 11th, 2009, Mercury the cosmic trickster turns retrograde in Aquarius, the sign of the Water-Bearer, sending communications, travel, appointments, mail and the www into a general snarlup! Since this is the day of the potent Full Moon in Cancer, people's emotions will be on high alert! The retro period begins a few days before the actual turning point (as Mercury slows) and lasts for three weeks or so, until February 1, when the Winged Messenger reaches his direct station. At this time he halts and begins his return to direct motion through the zodiac. Everything finally straightens out on February 14, as he passes the point where he first turned retrograde. Mercury normally turns retrograde three times a year, but this year he turns tail four times, which is unusual. The effects of each period differ, according to the sign in which it happens (see box for Retro

It's Because Of Her
It's because of her I am so full of hate. Waiting for the day I come home to get my revenge. No one knows how much pain I went through because of her. I gave you ALL of my heart! And I am not gunna remain silent about this anymore. It's because of her I can't live a normal life. It's because of her I am depressed. I am so over her, but not over the fact that she got away with what she did to me. My life is getting worse because of her. No one understands and tells me to let it go. I can't until I put my mind at ease. I am the most loving guy you'll ever meet but you brought out this side of me that I never knew I had. You are the worst kind of person. I hate you so much Cheating Ex Fiance: (www.myspace.com/ashleyavenger)

It's Been A While...
It's been a while since I've come across an idiot who goes around rating people less than 10. This one doesn't seem to understand why you would rate a 10 in the first place. Ahhh gotta love those people who take fubar as a serious business of expressing serious opinion. Of course you could make the case I'm taking fubar serious by even caring, but hey I'm bored. http://www.fubar.com/user/2369967

It's Been Fun... But.... Farewell Until Next Time....
I have met a lot of great people on here, with the times being the way they are I have had to do away with my internet connection as I feared awhile back. My parents are running out of their inheritance money (helping me out while I go through the disability fight). It's unsure how long I will even be living where I am now. I know I can't move back in with my parents I probably could but climbing the stairs is most painful and almost impossible. For the record I had been getting a good amount for food on the EBT card. And also my kids are on Medicaid, I used to be until the change. I hadn't applied for any other assistance at the time because I didn't want any possible future child support should it ever start coming in again or when they (I'm hoping they do soon) approve my disability and send the first check it would go to them. I have a few home repairs and I could put a good chunk on the mortgage. Ya I read the fine print if I receive the cash assistance as well they'd t

Its Bike Week Again
hey yall its that time again it snuck up on me pretty quick seems like we just got done with biktoberfest yesterday....startin tommorrow feb 27th ill be workin at bar from 530pm-330am so i wont be on that much till event is over

It's Been A Long Time...(somehow This Turned Into The Mother Of All Men-suck Rants)
I now have a very old school song stuck in my head... "it's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you, without a dope beat to step to..." SO not my type of musak (misspelling on purpose) and yet stuck in my damn head. Yesterday I had "stand by your man" stuck in my fucking head while playing chess. Do not even ask WHY I am obviously so fucked up today. Ok..you pressured me into telling you. I'm stressed out because of multiple reasons. Reason #1 I'm getting evicted. Reason #2 I have no fucking job. Reason # 3 I make a grand whopping total of $480 a month. That brings us to Reason # 4 I can't actually afford ANY apartment ANYWHERE and really I could keep going but I think that's enough depressing shit for now. What kills me about my situation is the people I know who don't grasp the sucky-ness levels. They are so happy and content in their little bubble of wonderfulness that they don't actually realize how badly fucked I am. Dude my life was shit circling the drain BEFORE

It's Been Awhile Update!!!
Aanii. Its been awhile since I have written a blog not because I forgot but because I am just to busy to do one. I am still a full-time student on the edge of getting my grade 10 math credit just have 3 more lesson books to do. I have also picked up an Ojibway class that goes right till the end of June plus two gym credits. I guess I am just keeping myself very busy with school work. I am getting some good marks which works out great for me. Now I am sure you all want to know whats going on with the wedding. Yes the wedding is still on well as far as I know...lol. Our stag & doe is set for April 18. For all of you that don't know what a stag & doe is its a fundraiser for the bride & groom. You have people buy tickets in order to come to the event you play games, 50/50 draw & so on. I have ordered my wedding dress which I am paying for on my own. I have gotten my shoes & tiara. My mom is buying my veil she just has to order it when she can. I spent days looking for a Maid of Hono

It's Been A Long Time But...
It's been a very long time since I've been on here but boy has alot happen since! As many of you know I got married and moved with my hubby, well he was restationed in Cuba and I'm back home visiting until I can join him there. Alot with me has changed as far as looks lol I bleached my hair platinum blonde then dyed the underneath hot pink about 9 months ago, had it like that till about a week ago when I tried dying my bangs pink and putting streaks through the blonde part, well I ended up with 95% pink hair but eh I think it suits me and it's just hair I can always change it. Well since I don't have a vip anymore on here I can't upload more pics, but here's a slideshow from another site I'm on and it has some of my recent pics. I also been working out the past 2 months so I'm more in shape too ;) More hot girls at RateMyBody.com Tell me whatcha think of the pink! lol

Its Bad I Just Can't Think Of Another Word But Bitch?
she's ambiguous with her speech committing errors of self-centerness but can I blame her? I can't this malice behavior leaves me unsure. thoughts are less translucent than before. the mind inside of me won't forget but maybe I can. there are no more words that I care to use.

It's Been Five Days After My Surgery!
I thought all went well however I'm in alot of pain now and the damn thing is I was bleeding when they had done the surgery and once they placed the sleeve in me I stopped untill Thursday then I started back up, I've been coughing alot an feel this damn thing an it's hurting like hell I don't know if it's normal for this to happen however I'll be talking with the doctor soon. I'm on so many damn meds that I can't keep track of anything anymore, but other than that I am walking alot fasting than what I was before which is a good thing because when I'd go to the store I'd be holding up peoples but hey if they can not understand than fuck em it what I say, anyways I've got 2 more chemo's to go an 4 more interal plus another 10 exteral radations which sucks but for the worst part they are tacking on a few more exteral ones do to the interal which will be 4-5 more, I'm damn near done with all of this and hopefully it has worked by killing all the cancer. I will keep you all up-2-date on me.

It's Been Years
It’s been years since we first met Since we looked into each other's eyes Not realizing that we were meant to be together It's been years since we shared our first laugh Our first smile Since we shared our first kiss I remember how strong your arms embraced me How soft you held me How warm and gentle you were I remember how passionate that first kiss was Now my heart is dancing Happy, knowing that it's been years It's been years since we first met And you're still here kissing me just the same You're still here holding me just the same What I felt for you is still the same It's been years And that feeling will never change

It's Been Awhile
I guess I don't fubar much these days. I'm not sure what the last thing I posted on here was (I'll go check later) but life has been busy since Sis and I opened a store. We've only been running a few months now but I am enjoying it. There's really not much to tell other than that, but I'd love to hear what everyone else is up to so let's hear it!

It`s Been A While
I am anxiously awaiting your arrival. We haven`t seen each other in I don`t know. 2 or 3 months, and I know my body is aching for yours.We decide to meet in a shopping center parking lot. It`s our hometown, and as usual, the kids are cruising around the lot. There`s also a classic car show in the lot, and while I wait I pass the time looking at the old cars.My phone rings, and It`s you, telling me you`re almost here. My stomach lurches with anticipation, and I can already feel the wetness between my legs. I want to give in and rub myself until you arrive, but I hold off. I want you to be the one to satisfy me.I see you then, coming around the corner in your corvette. My hands are shaking as you pull up and flash me that mischievous smile: the one that tells me that I am in so much trouble!I do my best at staying calm as I walk around to the door. You pop the door for me, and I slide into the passenger seat. You smile and say hello and begin to drive us away from the center. Suddenly, y

Its Been A While In Bed
· Angel of Daath rated you a '1'!· Angel of Daath just checked you out! yay...its been a while since a comment of mine got me rated a 1 AND blocked! So this Buds for you Mrs tits that look an ass on your chest!!! cheers! sorry just needed to vent my life altering disapointment by being blocked an unable to give her an 11!! and since I didnt get my bed to my new apartment tonight, I will be resorting to good old air mattresses! the kids think they are camping indoors, so its fun...but i gotta make the best of it... and also like to give credit to [[Per]] since i stole her double blog deal :P as you were

Its Been A While
Well it seems like forever since my last blog lol but for those who dont know we had our second baby boy born on 4-21-09 his name is Layne Matthew i have a slideshow of him on my profile......but other than that we are doin pretty good!

It’s Been Awhile
Premature ejaculation A distraction of the highest elevation It’ll have a woman losing patience With the love you’re trying to give; It’ll seem like she’s not mad But inside she’s cursing your ass And that lie you told was bad And she’s about to get up and leave;

Its Been Awhile
i know it has been so long since ive been on here. i am still alive even though at times over the last several months i would have loved being 6 feet under. well on october 22 i should legally be rid of the ex. its just the first court date since he wouldnt pick up his mail and they had to reschedule4 times. i have sucessfully managed to feed cloth and keep a roof over my kids head. i never imagined that would ever be a challenge, but when it comes between paying the phone bill and buying groceries for my boys they will always win out. i plan on updating my albums cause i got some awesome pics of my two little brats who i wouldnt give up for nothing. i am living proof it gets easier. trust in that

Its Been Awhile
its been awhile since i have been here on fubar...and i can see alot has changed.... so good some bad nice to see that i still have my friends on here...i have been reading alot of my old blogs and seen that i changed as well... i have a cold...still in pa working in a bar...new bf two teenage boys...sisters that drive me nuts....that hasnt changed....lol its nice to come back and see all the differences that are on here now.... so stop by say hi and i shall do the same

It's Been Awhile
It’s been a while since I’ve been around,It took a while to say that you I have found. It’s been a while since I’ve been walking this place, It took a while to find your face.I never would’ve thought that I would feel this way,I never would’ve thought that I would be writing this today.As I sit here and write, all I can do is smile.I think to myself, it’s really been a while.It’s been a while since I’ve had this feeling,For my heart- right now it’s healing.And being with you is different from being with the rest,You help me realize that it’s okay to be my best.It’s been a while since I’ve been as happy as this,Each day I wait for that flawless first kiss.I know it might be different because of what we are,But I know it will be amazing because of who we are.You understand me like no one else has before,And each day you make me laugh more.You talk to me like you’ve known me forever,It’s been a while

It's Been The Worst Day Since Yesterday - Flogging Molly
Well, I know, I miss more than hitWith a face that was launched to sinkAn' I seldom feel, the bright reliefIt's been the worst day since yesterdayIf there's one thing I have saidIs that the dreams I once had, now lay in bedAs the four winds blow, my wits through the doorIt's been the worst day since yesterdayFallin' down to you, sweet groundWhere the flowers they bloomWell, it's there I'll be foundHurry back to me, my wild callingIt's been the worst day since yesterdayThough these wounds have seen no warsExcept for the scars I have ignoredAnd this endless crutch, well, it's never enoughIt's been the worst day since yesterdayHell says hello, well, it's time I should goTo pastures green, that I've yet to seeHurry back to me, my wild callingIt's been the worst day since yesterdayIt's been the worst day since yesterdayIt's been the worst day since yesterday

It's Been A Hard Days Night
I think the hardest part of this whole trying to go to school thing is having to deal with the lack of definitive answers. I drove to St. Pete today to drop off yet another single solitary piece of paper to sing song Laura. I can't pretend to know what's involved in her job. A lot of her job seems to be telling me that I ask good questions. I too think that, "So will I be able to go to school in December even if the grants aren't through?" is a good question. I think that applies to anyone who wants to go to school. One of the first things to ask is, "can I fucking go here?" Regardless, I'm not sure that I got my answer. I got more a sing song version of options. I'm just going to show up on the 10th and keep showing up till they ask for money. When that happens I will throw sand in their eyes and run. But until then I will just hope that sing song Lauren's hair dye riddled brain will pull through for me. After that I drove to my sister's place. We talked a bit. mainly about how I

It's Been Awhile...
And since I've barely spoken to anyone here lately, I figured I'd write all this shit down in case someone actually gives a damn. First of all, I'm finally done with the really bad medical stuff. I'm just on oral antibiotics and my regular meds, no more IV crap and it seems like the staph infection is gone. I'm almost as far past my last surgery as I was with the first reconstruction when the stitches opened up, so *knock on wood* Yesterday would have been my father's birthday. He passed away in June, and I spent the day after Thanksgiving at my sister's house arguing over what stuff of his we each got to keep. Now my mom, who has restarted chemo due to her lung tumors growing again, is telling me she wants to go through her jewelry and furniture and stuff so my sister and I don't fight over it when she's gone. And she's sounding like she doesn't think it will last far into next year. SHE'S been the one telling the docs all along that she'll make it in that small group of peop

It's Been A While...
...Since I last blogged about the weird dreams I used to have. Last night I had a freakish one. It was about this small killer doll/girl thing and I was constantly running away from her. Then I just ran out and stabbed her in the stomach with this sharp bit of wood or something. And when that didn't work I shoved it through her mouth and through her cheek and pinned her to the ground with it. Then I just tried to rip her limbs off with my bare hands. I remember twisting the legs as hard as I can to pull it off. I even remember the smooth/rubbery feel of the skin. What's worse...this dream didn't even scare me like others had done before.

Its Been 30days And Im Feeling So Unwanted
TITLE STATES IT I DO FEEL SO UNWANTED BY THE ONE AND ONLY PERSON THAT I WANT MOST IN THIS WORLD I MUST BE THE WORSE GUY ON EARTH. her love and understanding is all i want things dont mean poop to me if she loved me and made love to me we could be broke under a bridge and i would still feel like i was on top of the world

It's Back!
Most of you who read my blogs probably read Hanna's blog. With her being gone I find that I not only miss her wit and twisted humor, but the recipe blog. I watched approximately 5 hours of Hubert Keller's Secrets of A Chef on WTTW yesterday and just printed about eleventy of his recipes to try. So I decided to start up this blog. Once I have tried a recipe I will post it (with any tweaks I may have made) and I will also try and put it into sparkpeople first so it will include nutrition information. Feel free to message me with any recipes you would like to share. I will be trying to keep the recipes I post fairly healthy, but I am always open to any recipe. It might be a bit before I post the first one since I just recently shopped and made a ton of soup and stuff, but get your ideas in if you have em!

It's Been A While
How come it always happens to me how come I always get screwed over how come I can't seem to find someone. Whenever I think I found someone who says that they love me they tell me that they had sex just after they loved me. I've been single for about a year and a month and I think I found this amazing woman and then tonight she tells me that she had sex. What the hell I mean I have feelings but they always seem to get stomped on . I mean I am still greving about my mom and my grandma both died in december both died a day apart. I don't need these friggen games played right now. I'm at my most vulnerable right now and it sucks

It's Been A Long Time...
Enjoy: Today, we were working with infant and adult CPR dummies. After practising flawless CPR on the adult dummy, I announced "And that's how you save someone." Then I tripped on the baby dummy and fell. My co-worker stood up and yelled out, "And that's how you kill a baby." FML

It's Been A While Wow....
You know... once again.. I am stepping on my soapbox. This time, I do it a different person, a changed person... Since new years, I have been though a lot of changes... many positive... I have closed one bad chapter in my life, and currently writing in some new chapters as well. Some of it is scary, but this is oh my god it's scary but good scary. I was sitting here and reading back on previous blogs I have written, and also contemplating the treatment I am getting from people lately on the fu. I know sometime back in December and November, I myself was not a happy person. I wasn't happy with my life, or my surroundings, and the pressure of the holidays did not help whatsoever. I know on here, these outside factors have impacted the way I behaved as well.. I know at one point, I wished people would drown in a vat of hypodermic needles tainted with AIDS for the new year, and I had all these friends and people who adored me for being this way. I would say in the past month or so,

It's Been 3 Years But I Managed To Find My Way Back.
After 3 Years I have managed to find my way back, show me some love people....I deserve it. I am hoping to add more photos down the road. Rate me a 10 and I will be sure to return the favor. I love gifts too, what girl doesnt? I live in central Canada and love it. Although the last week and a half has been nothing but cloudy sky and rain at least it is not snowing. Mother Nature can not make up her mind. It is hot and sunny one day then nipply cold the next. The heat in my building has been turned off but it should be on. My nipples are so hard I think they might fall off...did I mention I am wearing a sweater. HAha. Ok it's not that cold but close enough. In one month I am going to Vegas. Cannot wait for the heat, bring it on baby. Hopefully it'll be the "Hangover" all over again. The Count down is for sure on! I had a bad break up recently, I made the guy cry. Why do I end up with all the pussies?? FML. More to come, show me some love in the meantime.

It's Bee Awhile.... And This Has Been The Worst Year Of My Life So Far.
Well here's a quick breif and I'll bring you right into the present. So I've had a lot of bad shit happen lately. Start back in '08 my friend died after an accident on his Harely. He had severe brain damage and wasn't going to make it, he died 10-20-08, the day after his accident. I got the call when I was in my night classes for college. Then as I believe I have posted my dogs death already on here. She was a great dog and she was pretty much my world, she got hit by a car and passed 10-22-08, just two days after my friend Jeremy passed. July 2009 came around my grandmother had cancer was getting treatment and she ended up not making it either, she passed just a couple weeks before my 20th bday. My grandpa told me at the funeral not to cry because I needed to be strong for the cousin's so I've to this day never cried. If it wasn't for her cosigning for my loans I wouldn't have been able to go to college. She had a big heart she helped me. I seen her almost every single day for two ye

Its Been Forever! Well Not Quite.
So its been a while since i have been on fubar. Whats new? I work part time handing out samples and Sam's Club, i go to school full time although i am taking a break at the moment to try and sort out my leagle problems, i am being sued by so far two hospitals for failing to pay their way too expensive bills. Woe is me, i have to delcare bankruptcy, and that is no get out debt free card my friends!

It's Better To Have Loved And Lost...
Everytime a guy broke my heart, my mom would say to me "It's better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all". I didn't believe her until recently. I'm devastated about the end of my relationship, I really loved him. But at the same time, I wasn't happy with the way we were, and he doesn't want to try and see how we could be. At this point I don't either. He is too immature for me. I'm lonely though. There's no one around to talk to now that he is gone, and my best friend is in Texas till next year. School will help. Life is simple, it's just not easy. - unknown I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it. - Jack Handey You fall out of your mother's womb, crawl across open country under fire, and drop into your grave. - Quentin Crisp

It's Been Awhile.....
Greetings Neighbors, It's been a long while since I decided to place my ramblings in here, but, there is a slow fire burning in me and I just have to speak. It may not be of any interest to many, yet, I will move forward anyway. I came here a couple years ago looking just to kick back and relax. My aim was just to spend my free time here and have a good time, lurking while working, dropping a few puns in a lounge hoping to make a few people smile and just make some friends in general. As it is pointed out by many on this site, you will mainly run into two main things here; you'll make friends with real people or be pissed off by a few real foolish and foul idiots. Fortunately, I have been able to side step quite a few of those mean folk who live for chaos and rudeness. I merely treat them like dandruff on my shoulder and brush them away. Then, there those who I somehow or someway made a positive connection and for them, I am truly greatly because, in real, I am true intro

It's Back!
Finally, it's here. What do I speak of? Football! Watched the first game lastnight and the Saints won, thank God. They beat the Vikings and stupidass Farve. I hate that guy. Geez I hope this is his last year, finally. Guess we'll all see, right? Go 49ers!

It's Been A Time
Each day we live a life that life leads us day by day Each day we breathe a breath never knowing if the last it may be We follow dreams and war for good we hope we love we pray and still . . . we meet with things we never wished we live amid the rough it feeds upon the will hope we do for freedom for the knock upon the door yet when freedom rings will anyone answer or lie still . . . scared and shaking shackled on the floor get up get up stop the marish dream and live each day we live a life another day we live

It's Baaaaaaaack...and A Note.
Hey everyone, yea I'm still alive..lol...just been working on a plethora of things...something for the old timers here below too...I do get lot of people that have been here before, took time away and come back, years later even...just want ya'll know know that the lounge below is actually back and since so many of you enjoyed it back in the day, we can enjoy it again too!!...and of course, always looking for new friends as well...the owner is cool too, js...just click the pick below the wavey hand.. Otherwise yah, I have alot I'm working on. So stay tuned. Thanks to everyone who's kept in touch. I know it's been seriously quiet over here. And in case anyone doesn't know...check the previous blog posting for a serious, random as futard..ha...so on that note, stay tuned and hope everyone had a great weekend...peace.

Its Both Funny And Depressingly Sad....
I hopped from lounge to lounge tonight and not once did I see or hear anyone give thanks or mourning for my Brothers and sisters who A either couldnt be home to celebrate with their families because they are Busy Defending Freedom and their Country. or B Have died in the service of their countries. I find the modern trend of things to be rather frightening..... Having already picked up a rifle and defended my country once.... Why should I be ready to do so again if you cant remember me or be thankful? When the time comes will you Pick up a weapon? or will you roll over and die?

Its Been A While
it has been a long time since ive blogged. i suppose it shouldnt really matter because A. no one reads them and B. im sure they arent fun to read anyway. that said, your expectations should be lowered to the right level. im in kind of a shitty mood, they are calling for about a foot of snow in the next few days and my truck is broken atm. woe. wow, i had alot of things i wanted to say but now that im typing , ive gone blank. sorry if your time was wasted here. anyway....

It's Been A While.
I had this trend going on as I posted in social sites for a while; it was called Negative/Positive, where I would ideally name off something negative, but add the positive counter to it. Here is one of those this morning: Negative: Mass texting is so impersonal, and to be honest, rude in some instances. Positive: Mass texting is certainly useful in some instances, such as business. In my opinion, it's better to know the message you're receiving is meant for you :) Anti-social people are taking over the world, and while I've been in that category for much of my life, I want to come out of my rabbit hole, and love the world I live in! Part of that is learning to be direct with the important people in my life. So, what I am saying in this blog is, get out of your damned rabbit hole people! -Dean

It's Been A While
It's been a month or so since I've blogged here last, and apparently some have missed the last one I did post. (Take some time to catch up if you need to.) I know you clicked thinking you knew what this blog was all about. HAHA! You're so wrong! I wanted to take this time to put a spotlight on the importance of accomplishment. There are so many milestones in life (and I'm talking real life, not online life) that sometimes we forget to step back and really take the time to relish the feeling of accomplishment. Life moves so fast sometimes that we forget to acknowledge to ourselves that we have done something wonderful. There is absolutely nothing wrong with praising yourself for reaching a goal. As a lot of y'all that are close to me know, I just finished a remodel and the house, and it is now officially a home. However, what most people don't know, is that the house I remodeled actually is owned by my uncle. He's in the Navy and stationed elsewhere, and my sister is the

It's Been Forever Since I've Done This....
Woooow so it's been a loooooong time since I've been on here. Been engaged, been cheated on, and walked out on by my kiddo's father. Life has been very interesting over the last 2 years since I've posted on here. It's so different and I feel like I know nobody on here anyone...weird... so yeah.

Its Been Awhile Since I Spoke
It seems like its been forever since I let my mind rest my heart sigh I realized I was doing alot like holding my breath hoping like hell a calm would come but it never did trying to fix me is so hard but I know if I dont then im no better then the ones who broke me placing the pieces on the table I noticed each time I fell apart each time my heart screamed each time I did the dumbest things to make others happy but not me I would cry silently as they smiled it wasnt me being in a place I hated didnt help surrounding myself with people whose opinions were not mine they didnt see how much it hurt me that it was not their heart on the line it was mine my soul was shattering but they just didnt listen not to what I was saying they just picked at what they wanted dismissing the rest if they truly knew me then they would know I care I genuinely care I was never the mean person not once I was the one who listened even as I realized w

It's Been 2 Years!
Hey peoples! so it's definitely been awhile.. as in 2 years.. so I decided to check back here both to see what's going on with the site, who's still here and to shake my head at all of the old photos and blogs i've posted.. Anyways.. 2009 was quite possibly the worst year of my life. My grandfather passed away in January, his funeral was the day before my birthday (which I didn't end up celebrating.) my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and it was nothing short of horrible and heartbreaking to watch her go through it ( I shaved my head when she was going through chemo so she wouldn't be the only one without hair in the family) but i'm happy to say she is doing fantastic now and is 100% cancer free. A week after she was diagnosed someone broke into our house and robbed us, took a lot of my mom's jewelery ( a lot of it sentimental ) they were never caught, i got laid off from my job, and my girlfriend stopped talking to me out of the blue of and on for about 3 months because she c

It's Been Almost 2 Months
The 28th will be 2 months since mom passed. I don't know what's wrong with me. Half the time I seem to be alright, the other half I feel like I'm in some horrible B-Movie flick. The dreams are the worst. Last night I dreamed that I went to my mom and dad's apartment (he just moved from there on Sunday) and when I walked in she was sitting at the table. She smiled at me and I felt like my heart was going to explode from my chest. I didn't know what was going on. I looked from my dad to my mom and waited for an explaination. My dad said, they made a mistake, mom didn't die. She's fine. They were able to save her. They didn't want to give us false hope until they knew for sure she was going to be ok. Instead they made us think she had died. In the dream, I was livid. I was so angry. It made no sense. Why would he have gone through everything we had gone through if that were true. Then I looked around the apartment. There were boxes everywhere. They were moving and hadn't planned on te

It's Been Awhile...
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It's Been A While
So my ideas for saving every cent possible for college didn't go too far, so my other blog Getting Shit Done is pretty pointless right now. Nothing much has changed in the past month except I realized that I'm going to be moving down to Utah at the end of the next year. More job training options down there. It's going to be good to experience something difference for once, and build more independance in my life in a successful way this time. Things that I thought were permanent here have changed to impermanence. It is interesting how that happens, life is always changing leaving the present to serve as memories of the distant past. Interestingly enough I do not feel any apprehension about the move, knowing that if I take full command of life that things will work out for the better eventually. Other than that there's really nothing to write, so I'm done for now. Peace

It's Been A While
I know I haven't been around much so I've been kinda sucky. I dunno why this is the first place I think to come to when I haz issues. Anyways my dad went back to hong kong for 3 weeks during easter and i didn't go because I had work and stuffs to do, I felt kinda guilty cos I hadn't seen my grandparents in like 3 years almost.I bumped into my dad today and the first thing he tells me was that i should call my grandparents more often because they're really ill. My dad told me that whilst he was in hong kong my grandad had surgery for bowel cancer 2-3 weeks ago. I was surprised cos I did a video call with them whilst my dad was there and he seemed fine but my grandad actually had the surgery just after he spoke to me. Dad said he was in a lot of pain after the surgery and that all he can do is lay on the sofa, he said the pain was so bad that he would rather die. What's worse is that my grandad was the cook of the house and my grandma doesn't know how to cook, so all they eat now is tak

It's Been A While, Have You Been Traveling Upon The Narrow Path?
Greetings to one and all, welcome! It's been quite a while since last I've written to you here on Fubar, please forgive me. I can only live in the hope you've been asking-seeking-and knocking on Heaven's door of our beloved ABBA FATHER CREATOR after all that is seen and known and all that is not for HE loves all of us unconditionally. I pray you feel HIS love in your hearts. After you read this blog entry, please feel free to view the attached video at the end of this post, and may it bring you encouragement as well as inspiration to learn of ABBA FATHER through HIS beloved SON our MESSIAH YESHUA/JESUS CHRIST while being blessed with HIS HOLY GHOST. Hallelujah. Amen.In the past I've been asked about my faith and belief. I hope this brings ABBA all the glory and honor, and blesses those in some way who may happen to read this while on their search asking-seeking-knocking after HIM. If you're not, I pray you learn of HIM and all HIS grace, mercy, forgiveness, peace, and unconditional

It's Been A Long Time Since I've Seen My Muse
Emptied stand in your own judgement may the shadow cast drown your souls as it has mine. like acid it has dilluted and eaten away a surface once bright. cut into eachother slicing off pieces of heart until nothing is left but a miserable human average. Namesake I was given a name that carried a strange burden. there must be a cell that dictates the weight ever preseent on my heart. temporary gift of a 5 year lift. now over. and i am standing on the precipice. knowing and not knowing of the fall to come, and the crash landing that awaits. In the Park here i am, lost in private thought in a public place. sitting by cold stones that are older than generations. there is a sickly knowledge interfering with the peace of the moment. after years of cutting, moulding and shaping i'm still nothing more than the average. not a happy ending princess as promised but a fall back plan. a child in a world of adult rules and expectations. a bad poet without wiso

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It's Been A Month
So it's been a month...actually tomorrow it'll be 5 weeks. Might not seem like much to some, but for me it's amazing. I was someone who always thought marriage was a ridiculous outdated ritual that had run it's course and the high divorce rate and people struggling to keep a hold on the definition of marriage were signs that it was crumbling and unnecessary.I always asked why you needed to legally bind yourself to someone, if you love someone you should be free to love them. There shouldn't be an obligation to love them and that's what I felt marriage would be...a series of obligations. I had been engaged 4 times, and I ran away 4 times. Now I've been married for 5 weeks to my best friend and I can honestly say I am happy to be married to him. It's the right thing for us and I am honestly lucky to be with my soulmate. I sometimes look at myself and wonder what happened...then I realize, I did what I should have done long long ago, allowed myself to feel love and happiness

Its Been Awhile...
Hey what's up everyone?? Happy V-Day to all the Fubar peeps out there!! Today's ranting is about the struggles of life or maybe certain struggles in life...maybe demons that we all have that make life miserable for us. I have a couple skeletons in my closet maybe a demon or two in there as well. I think at one point or another in our life that we do struggle with our demons and its the matter of how to conquer them to feel better about ourselves. Sometimes i feel like I lead two different lives. One would be who I am now quiet patient understanding with some twists. The other...lol the other life is more complicated or not as complicated but it could be in the long run only if you knew what i was talking about is the whole thing but I wont go into specific details on what im talking about. The problem is having the two combined as one and not struggle to live two separate lives. it gets a little tiring. I think maybe thats what is draining me out is this. Im so different in m

Its Better But Worse
It is all together better but worse at the same damn time, go figure!! I just ordered from the Schwans man, yes I know it is more expensive. But see this is the deal, I have no car. I tried to get a license, I past the written. It was the driving instructor that didn't like me. No worries, I am surviving. None of you may see me on my three wheeler, which is kinda good. Besides its cool, and the seat has shocks!! I don't spend all day on the computer, even though I am logged in to Fubar most all the time. I do other things, things that shall not be mentioned right now. Maybe I'll go to type in this blog one day while I am zoneing, could just happen... don't go trying to tarnish my shine.... I have come across some evidence that amazed the hell outta me. Try as I might, I haven't figured it out yet. I'm not going to just avoid the kismet of the whole deal. It feels so damn good!! Fubar would be great if they could like possibily let you know if the person has liked you or even seen

It's Been 3 Years ? ,!
On December 15 th 2010' , I was sent to memorial hospital , where I fought for my life and stll am well considering. It was a serious wake up call to take better care of myself and to not take life for granted Peeps.. Rememberer to watch your health. As I am very grateful for the second chance I've been blessed with.

It's Contest Time
Hey all you Lost Cherry Ink Lovers it's time to show your INK. That's right if you're inked and think you've got the Sexiest or Hottest one then let's find out what everyone else thinks. So here's how it works... Going to have 2 catagories, 1 for the gals and 1 for the guys. The gals will be the Sexiest Tattoo on Lost Cherry. The guys will be the Hottest Tattoo on Lost Cherry. With the winner in each group to be announced on October 31st, 2006. Yeah Ink and Halloween what better match can you have? Please repost this so it gets around to as many as possible. Entering: Anyone wanting to enter should e-mail me letting me know what Tattoo they want to enter and give me permission to rip the pic to my contest folder. Also include a caption about the tattoo. All entries must be received by Oct 6th. Voting: As we all know Lost Cherry allows us to RATE pics when we vote. Since to me that's not an acurate way to do this I will judge it simply by the TOTAL NUMBER of VOTES

It's Carolines *25th* Birthday Today !!
Caroline@ LostCherry Happy Birthday Caroline!!! Its Caroline's 25th birthday today...please go show her some cherry love! Thank you all in advance! Much love, Mette Want one? Go to www.geocities.com/testiflash

Its Called Spell Check
its a program that most computers have- just enable it so that when you type something it does just what its supposed to do no it will not help with grammar but it will make comments/ bulletins/ and blog easier to read lets give it a try

It's Christmas To Me!!!!!
YOU CAN'T STEAL MY CHRISTMAS Poem by Sharon Steege I don't know who they are Saying I can't greet the crowd The way that I want to Can't say CHRISTMAS out loud. I walk into a business place See things that I'd rather not see But dare I not say CHRISTMAS And ask for a "holiday" tree. What happened to freedom of speech And living in the land of the free How can they take my CHRISTMAS money But can't say MERRY CHRISTMAS to me. Men and women have given their lives So we could still go free I wonder how they would feel At saying "HOLIDAY" TREE. Come on AMERICA let's wake up Don't let our freedom escape If they get by with doing this What else will they take. This is starting to get out of hand, And I've begun to keep track Well I've just about had enough I'M TAKING CHRISTMAS BACK. So MERRY CHRISTMAS AMERICA I hope this gets all over the net If we all stand united and take freedom back 'Twill be our best CHRISTMAS YET!

It's Christmas
k its getting near christmas and love is in the air but since you opened the bulletin you will be: single foreverrrr -or- have the love of your life taken away from you unless you repost this bulletin with one of these song as the title you got 5minutes after reading all of these good luck :) ¢¾ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU¢¾ if your crushing on someone and want them for the holidays ¢¾JINGLE BELLS ROCK¢¾ if your single and loving it ¢¾LET IT SNOW¢¾ if your just letting things flow for now ¢¾BABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE¢¾ if your taken by somone very special ¢¾ILL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS¢¾ if confused and lost ¢¾RUN RUDOLF RUN¢¾ if your wild, flirty, and horny;) ¢¾ WINTER WONDERLAND¢¾ if you have absoluty no idea wats going on in your life and wish everything would fix by itself.. and soon

Its Cold!
Well, winter is here! It's colder than a m$%^^ f%^#@!! lol! I love this time of year though. its the time when you snuggle with your significant other. You are closer to their ear and you can whisper how wonderful they are and how you love and appreciate them. Do yourself a favor, don't wait once a year to do that. Do it every day, every night. Let them know life is better with them than without them. Remember why you fell in love in the first place. It will keep things in perspective, I promise. God bless everybody on here and Merry Christmas! Sincerely, Chris

It 's Christmas Charlie Brown!
Remember when this was the movie that we all watched to learn the "true meaning of Christmas?" Part 1- part 2- I honestly havent seen this myself in years.. and though I'm neither Christian, or really celebrate christmas- the morals of this cartoon still point out so many things that I think when cartoons and 'Hallmark holidays' evolved, were lost. Kids don't see things like this anymore. and We've no one to blame but ourselves. If you have kids - please get them this movie, or if you see it on tv this season make sure to sit down and watch it with them. The funny thing is - as a grown up, every year I have my own Charlie brown christmas tree :)

Its Called Rainbow
ITS CALLED RAINBOW...... If I could catch a rainbow I would do it just for you And share with you its beauty On the days you're feeling blue..... If i could build a mountain You could call your very own.. A place to find serenity A place to be alone... If I could take your troubles I would toss them in the sea.. But all theses things i'm finding Are impossible for me... I cannot build a mountain Or catch a rainbow fair But Let me be....What i know best.. A friend that's always there......

Its Cold As Hell, Wanna Cuddle?
How to make a woman happy? It's not difficult. To make a woman happy, a man only needs to be: 1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist 16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer 20. a good listener 21. an organizer 22. a good father 23. very clean 24. sympathetic 25. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent 30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious 38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable 43. passionate WITHOUT FORGETTING TO: 44. give her compliments regularly 45. love shopping 46. be honest (white lies okay) 47. be very rich 48. not stress her out 49. not look at other girls

It's Cccccccccold....bbbbbbrrrrrrr
HOLY MOLY!!!! For all the Michiganders out in Cherryland, STAY INSIDE--DO NOT GO OUT--IT IS TOO FLIPPIN COLD!!! -2 degrees where I am, with a wind chill of 20 degrees.... My only suggestion would be to find a warm body and do what comes naturally...lol I'm alone, any takers??? Well thanks for letting me spew out my first blog...muah

Its Cold
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Its Cold
Its like 8 am and anthony and i havent been to sleep yet. Thats how wacked out we are. LOL well he tried to but i annoyed him to the point he couldnt sleep just so he would get up with me :P god i love that man :P lol and he just laughs at my sillyness. Oh to be young and in love. Oh wait i am :P We're going apartment searching soon w00t w00t. Time to get out of LAME ass millville mhmm. We're going out with our friend today, which shall be fun mhmm. My nose is cold. Its so damn cold out grrrowl. I hate it mhmm. Valentines day was seriously really wonderful. I loved it. I know i havent been the happiest person over the last 6 months, but things are finally looking up. I have my baby, and soon my other baby. Both my babys are and will be wonderful ♥ I love you anthony. Im going to do a blog of the day later with all the pretty icons and stuff i swear it! :) ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Rate this blog please if you like it :)

It's Cheaper To Keep Her. . .
Ronnie hadn‘t been in a club in so long that she‘d forgotten how loud it was. After a good twenty minutes she had had enough and was ready to go. Ronnie notices a girl dancing on the dance floor. She was working it. "She must have been a soul train dancer." Ronnie shouts toward Cathy. Cathy grabs Ronnie by the arm and pulls her toward the bathroom so they can hear better. "Ronnie I‘m gonna tell you something because I am your friend." Ronnie is bouncing to the music now, wondering why Cathy is holding her up from getting her groove back. "What is it?" Ronnie asks impatiently. "That girl out there throwing down on the dance floor is the woman that is sleeping with your husband." Ronnie froze. "How do you know that?" Ronnie asks grabbing her friend a little too tightly by the arm. "Everybody knows Ronnie." Cathy said. "Everybody but you." Ronnie looks away; trying to stop the tears she feels burning her eyelids, fighting to get out. "Get it together Ronnie, he‘s not worth it." Cat

Its Called "emulation"
Its called EMULATION.. iTS RUNNING an older console or pc on a newer pc.. I doubt vista will let me enjoy my emulators. dang it.. anywho.. MAME. Is the emulator of emulators. The reason I upgrade my pc is to see if that new ps2 emu.. will actually work! lmao And.. To play mrs pacman on my ws monitor.. hahaha I don't know where donkey kong is.. but i'd play it to death if I had it. hahahhaha gonna nap more on it later

It's Creeping Up
My heart is ache, the clouds are moving in again the lights are going desertion It is creeping up again, Cannot fight it, I will just lose. I am loss for hours on in. My voice not being heard, Tears falling like a waterfall. All the angry I have, Stay right here because there nowhere to go. You say I too hard on myself, I say if I am not then who, will. After hours of put myself down. I decide to pick up the phone. Call someone, anyone! Will they answer? Do they truly care, or are they acting Am I a burden? I sorry, I am worthless, are the words I say to them. It tries to creep back up but the person on the other line dose care, taken time to listen. To help, put a stop to it. So it, slowly creeps away, given me time to rest and think more clearly. For I never know when it will creep up again, Or how long, but for now I got it to creep away.

Its Called A Breakup Because It's Broken.
By now you know what I'm going to say: WHO CARES?! But for those of you who are just dying to know: is he as miserable as you are? Does he miss you? What is he doing? Who is he doing it with? What is he wearing? Does he want to get back together? What are his friends telling him? Is he hooking up with his ex? These are the thoughts that plague you when you can't sleep, can't work, when your falling asleep at work, and when your working at not sleeping. I understand that before you can fully get over it, you may need to indulge yourself with a little "what's he going through" obsession. Here's what you want to hear: "the only reason he hasn't called you is because debilitating sadness has left him lying on the floor of his apartment in a pizza box full of tears. The only activity he has been able to manage is feverishly planning a way to win your heart back. He's sworn off women (except you), booze, and fun because nothings fun without you. He may never smile or laugh again." The only

Its Comming Back!!!
BY POPULAR DEMANDTHE CONTESTS ARE COMMING BACK We are bringing it back and going to have alot more fun!!! Contest are now back and ready to go!!! Right now we have several contests going on!!! These are all pic contests and your all more than welcome to join in!!! The list of contests are shown bellow!!KLUB HOUSE BUTTSKLUB HOUSE TIGHT JEANSKLUB HOUSE TIGHT SHORTSKLUB HOUSE UNDERWARE You must register to see the contest gallerys and to add yourself to them!!!! Make a new album for each gallery made that you wish to be known by!!!! Winners per month will be placed in the hall of fame album!!!! There will be a monthly hall of fame and yearly as well!!! The one with the best will win!!! There are other gallerys as well and you dont have to enter the contests!!! The other gallery sets are as seen bellow as listed!!!!

It's Complicated
are you in? you might be if you are toting the new social status. in the emerging politically correct world, even this goes through a make over. no longer are you merely dating, seeing each other or even in a domestic relationship. it is now lumped in 2 words (or 3 if u include apostrophes). IT'S COMPLICATED. this is not to complicate the minds of the public. fact be known, it is to reflect the state of mind of the speaker (the one in the relationship). to say it's complicated is to say 3 things... 1. we've accepted that we don't have a normal relationship and we don't know if we want a normal relationship. 2. i do soooo want this to be "the one" "forever" type but i'm not sure if the other person feels the same way for as long as it would take. 3. i don't feel like explaining so bug off! in reality, the parameters of loving need not be complicated at all. even unrequited love is simple. you are in love, loving. for it to be reciprocated does not even matter, especially

It's Called "when I Fall"
I put myself in your hands And wait for you to cast me aside I promise I’ll be patient Until you are done I am dying But I won’t bother you to save me I’ll give you everything I have I don’t need it anyway All my words Fall like rain upon the pavement And run off for they just cannot be absorbed I’m well aware That I have chosen this enslavement But please tell me if all you wanted was a whore You won’t say you love me You won’t say you need me You won’t say anything, anything at all Your lips are sealed Yet I am pleading for an answer Will you catch me, will you catch me when I fall? You tell me I think too much But don’t you know that all I wanted Was to understand And help you if I could? Now I am bleeding But I won’t ask for you to stop it Please just drink all that I have I don’t need it anyway I kneel before you And I swear that this is true I don’t want for you to ever set me free I implore you If you will just give me a clue I’ll

It's Coming Soon!!!!!!!!!
Just wanted to let everyone know that I will be posting the cover of the book soon. I should hopefully have it before the week is through. As soon as I do I will be posting abulleting with the book info and the cover so everyone can SEE what they will be getting, big difference I think. Anyway, please watch the bulletins, it is coming soon. Thanks and everyone have a fabulous day :) Peter Britt

Its Called Speaking
I can understand you being upset and all, you could have given me the common curtursy to say something if you were upset of if someone did not like what I was saying. You tell me you wanted to ban me from day 1, well what stopped you, at least then i wouldn't have grown close to some of the people in there, and if I made some inappropriate remarks, how come no one was grown up enough to say anything to me? I guess its ok for others to say what they want but not me fine.Communication is the key to all good relationships yet I wasn't given the decency of knowing I was doing wrong, but as you say you don't have to explain your actions, so Que Sera Sera and you have a nice life too!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's Called A Sense Of Humor......
Seems that some people haven't got a sense of humor what so ever! lol. This profile is just something I made up to have fun with, it's fairly obvious as to who I really am though but if you can't guess who I am, then by all means if it means all that much to you, just ask and I'll tell you. lol. In other words, I'm not attempting to fake out anybody, that's not my intentions at all with this 'sock' profile. I love to joke n laugh and get others to do the same, that's all this profile is about. I hope you enjoy the profile and the silly pics that I post and I hope you can see the humor in it as well as get a good laugh. Don't take life so seriously, it's too short to not have some laughs & fun, so when you can, act like a kid again, it'll fill your heart with the laughter that you may be missing........ LOVE TO ALL.......... LOL HEELDA MCFEETIE!

Its Coming :)
Type: Package (MY DAMN XBOX) Status: In Transit - On Time Scheduled Delivery: 08/28/2007 Shipped To: MY HOUSE...haha, US Shipped/Billed On: 08/23/2007 Service: GROUND Weight: 8.00 Lbs Thats my baby right there....on its way back to me...so I can shoot people again..whoot!

It's Crazy
It's Crazy, I've never met you, Yet I feel like I've known you all my life. The second I saw your photo I already knew your voice, Your laugh, Your smile. I can talk to you about nothing, and everything, and know that you are smiling on the other end of the phone, and that just hearing my voice is enough. That it doesnt matter what people say That we know what we feel is real. I cant wait till I feel your arms around me, and the feel off your kiss on my lips. Cos although I have never met you, I love you. Simple as this.

It's Coming
It’s coming, What ever it is it’s on the way. Over the last three weeks to a month my self and a lot of my friends all over the world have been feeling a movement, a energy that is moving across the planet, this energy some of us believe is just the beginning of the awakening of the old world, and it’s races and old powers. Soon this world will no longer be under the influence and shackles of a religion that is so twisted and perverted that to believe in it one would have to be pure evil in ones own heart. Na what is coming is and will bring all into the open, and purge the lies from the truth. So I issue this challenge to all, shed the lies from your life, be true to your self and your God / Goddess. And never again walk in hypocrisy, for to do so leads only to death.

Its Crazy How I Feel
its crazy how I feel you make me smile you make me laugh then you take it all back my world floods swiftly and the dawen becomes dusk it's crazy how I feel like a child, so carefree my heart gives way to your words but my walls stay thick my words grow quick and then we sit it's crazy how I feel like I have no controll as if deep inside I can (not) cry then you show me how everything I do is wrong as you hold me saying " I've loved you all along" its crazy how I feel you make me crazy you make me wild I hate how much I love you my needs, my wants all my secrets ment for me Its crazy how I feel

Its Called Respect To Ask Before Ripping Stuff I Make For My Friends
'inocent_babygur...' just ripped your 'photo' from 'PsychoBitch Dizzy's FU Wife VIP assistant to Death of special forces'! inocent_ba...: no need i didnt ask for ur thnks ->inocent_ba...: i can make you one if you like ->inocent_ba...: ty ->inocent_ba...: ty inocent_ba...: ok iw will but u should be proud ppl like ur work ->inocent_ba...: out of respect to all here you need to ask the person not take it upon your self to rip ->inocent_ba...: and you need to delete it before i fix you inocent_ba...: then in your option block the rips ->inocent_ba...: excuse me i made it you have no right to it ITS CALLED " RESPECT " BEFORE TAKING WHAT IS NOT YOURS !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its Cuts
When I can't see your eyes looking back at mine, it cuts... when I long to hear you and cannot, it cuts... When my life falls to pieces at your hand, it cuts... When I cry silent tears, it cuts... When you don't blieve in me, it cuts... When you use my thoughts and pain, it cuts... When you don't see me, it cuts... I shiver in the rain for you, it cuts... I beg and plead for you, it cuts... When I do not wish to face another day, it cuts... When love that knows no bounds, it cuts... When forever is but a word, it cuts... When pain is freely given, it cuts....

Its Called Confidence Bitches
so its weird...in about 2 and half hours i am going to be having my fourth practical...really its only my third because the first ones we didnt really do anything but knife cuts but i digress...i have more confidence in myself then i have ever had...i know what im doing and i mastered both of the labs were we had to make these soups so i am feeling a tremendous amount of confidence...this time i am going to be able to spend more time on the final product with the garnish and what not...and as an added bonus me and my partner we are in the front kitchen we its just me and her and we have a stove top all to ourselves so i dont have to worry about bumping elbows with ppl or anything like that so i am generally excited about this so i guess i better get back to studying...peace out bitches

It's Crazy How Our Wants Over Rides Our Minds
It's crazy how our wants over rides our minds. I have this want, this strong desire to be held by you. I know this want, this desire cannot come to pass but I want to feel your hands on my body. I want to feel your lips on my lips A passionate kiss that breaths in all of you with the brush of our tongues and the slow and eager movements of our mouths. I look in your eyes and I see that want reflict in mine and I begin to feel a tightness that I never felt before And I want to devour you I want to feel the full and hardness of you in my mouth and my tongue I want to hear you moan in pleasure and scream my name And it is getting harder and harder to resist my wants My want to lose my fingers in your long thick hair and gently but forcefully pull that hair feeling you quiver hearing the sound of pure ecstasy ecscape your lips. I want to hear how much you want me, how much you crave and long to be inside of me to feel my wetness around you. I want so badly to feel you inside o

Its Christmas Day All Is Secure
ITS CHRISTMAS DAY ALL IS SECURE TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS HE LIVED ALL ALONE IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE I LOOKED ALL ABOUT A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE NO TINSEL NO PRESENTS NOT EVEN A TREE NO STOCKING BY THE MANTLE JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS WITH MEDALS AND BADGES AWARDS OF ALL KINDS A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT IT WAS DARK AND DREARY I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING SILENT ALONE CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER NOT HOW I PICTURED A LONE BRITISH SOLDIER WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I'D JUST READ CURLED UP ON A PONCHO THE FLOOR FOR A BED I REALISED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT

It's Called A Life
sure...fubar is a tolerable way to kill some time but for the love of god people....ITS THE INTERNET! meeting peope on the net is fine...but mature aldults having fu hubbys and wives?...it's really kind of gay dontcha think? perhaps a bit less time in fatansy land and a bit more in reality...may help with that bi polar disorder you are...or should be...medicated for...it's called A LIFE you should try it.

Its Comming Down To The Wire Only Need 14,483 And Counting Down
bombs away please come and help i know we can get this done today please help i will hand out fubucks to anyone who stays and helps till we hit the goal of 40,000 comments please come and help out

It's Christmas Time....and Stuff!!!!!
Well, tomarrow is the big christmas party at my grandma's and I just can't wait till it starts. Unfortunately, though I've got two little ones who have a nasty cough and cold. I have not really decided if I should go to the party with them coughing and such. My daughter however is very excited to be wearing her christmas dress...the same one she wore in the christmas pictures that I will hopefully be posting soon. My son is as handsome as a prince I can say and his christmas pictures were soooo great too. Surprisingly, he actually smiled for his pics and wasn't so jumpy and running everywhere. I just can't wait to get the pics sent out to everyone. Anyhow, my baby sis, Tina, is in town for the holiday and I got to see her newest little arrival to the family...Hayley Marie. Well, I hope to have at least one more baby before I get any older myself but who knows. Lets just hope that everyone gets better before the party. UPDATES!!!!! Well, I finally got some of my things

Its Crazy
its crazy i dont love him i feel that in the pit of my stomach but i get butterflys when i see him and when me and him are alone i can relax and sit sit still and breath, and hold him close and fall a sleep and smell im in my cloths the next day and i liked that he pisses me off and what scares me is there so many signs to say me and him are it but i dont know if i want him to him to be we fight so much when around other people It’s crazy I don’t love him I feel that in the pit of my stomach but, I still get butterflys when I see him and when me and him are alone I can relax and sit still and breath, then hold him close and fall a sleep. I love that I smell him in my cloths the next day. What scares me is there so many signs to say me and hima re it but I don’t know if I want him to be. We fight so mcuh when around other people.... but alone well alone is another story...

It's Christmas.
Well, I finally figured with all my friends, family, and fans on my list, I am not capable of handing out individual Christmas comments. I figured I would do this instead. I wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas in Fu land. It has been a wonderful year of meeting new people, and stayin in touch with the old. I wanted to thank everyone for all the great comments I have received. I am also very thankful for the great friendships I have been able to form with some of you. A lot of us have been threw some major changes in the year passing, and remember it makes us stronger people. All the ups, downs, laughs, tears, and jokes is what life is about. I thank all of you that have included me in these parts of your lives. My wish to everyone this year is to be happy, healthy, and strive for whatever your goals are. I hope you enjoy the holiday season with friends and family and not take it for granted. I also hope that everyone sits back and realizes the real reason we c

It's Christmas And I'm Alone
just like tha title say it's fuckin christmas and i'm sittin here pissed off and all bymyself...how fuckin great is that...i wounder how fuckin bad you have to be to not even be invited home for christmas...instead i get to sit here alone on someone else computer and do nothing.........MARRY CHRISTMAS NITA

It's Coming!
What, you may ask? It's THE NCAA Tournament! I'm a sports nut; I've sat from 10am to 2am in front of a tv on a college football saturday before. And there's no doubt that's my favorite sport, but the tournament stands alone as an event. From the gambling aspect, with the office pools, to the cinderella teams, its got it all! The games themselves are usually exciting and well played. You've got 48 games the 1st weekend alone! Luckily, I can watch the weekday games(I work the overnights)without missing work. Plus, my fav team won the last two yrs! That certainly doesn't hurt the event from my perspective :). Unfortunately they won't be winning this yr :( hell, probably not even in it. But it's still going to be great and I can't wait

Its Crazy How Your Killing Me!!
ITS CRAZY HOW YOUR KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know you've got something burning up inside, It's so unhealthy but so good for me! loved me would you tell me? relationship thing. A fire under you is so fulfilling, I fear there's nothing more. I'm giving you, the choke hold, My flirting with disaster is mighty loved. Ugggh you, you're so bold, My wanting to kiss you still is not enough. I'm getting over, all the comments. I'm feeling statements made by people are nonsense. I'm getting stronger, by the minute. You are the sweetest thing I've found since whenever, You're the only way my time is measured. You might be the silent type, but your appetizing louder now. It's crazy how you're killing me. I like to look at you, I love that smell on you, And I like it natural, No need for chemicals. Foggin up my senses You're making me sensless You're calling it sexual. And you're going to get yours. Might even be today. And it ain't no thing because I'

Its Complicated Sometimes
Do you think your wasting your time on the person you like? Yes. How many people have you kissed in 2008? 3 lol Can you fill this out without lying? Indeed. What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Pepsi Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew? Nope. Where was your default picture taken? in my room Can you play guitar hero? nope don't have one Name someone that made you laugh today? Drew was making me laugh How late did you stay up last night and why? bout 4am If you could move somewhere else, would you? Duh. Do you believe ex's can be friends? depends How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper? Anything with the word Diet is gross When was the last time you cried? the other day Where is your biological father right now? on the roof ...no seriously he is lol Where are you at right now? dining room Who was the last

Its Christmas Time Again
It’s Christmas Time Again Put your problems on probation Run your troubles off the track, Throw your worries out the window Get the monkeys off your back. Silence all your inner critics With your conscience make amends, And allow yourself some happiness It’s Christmas time again! Call a truce with those who bother you Let all the fighting cease, Give your differences a breather And declare a time of peace, Don’t let angry feelings taint The precious time you have to spend, And allow yourself some happiness It’s Christmas time again! Like some cool refreshing water Or a gentle summer breeze, Like a fresh bouquet of flowers Or the smell of autumn leaves, It’s a banquet for the spirit Filled with family, food and friends, So allow yourself some happiness It’s Christmas time again!

It's Called...
You know I really do hate to sound like an asshole people, but why do we give others the power over us to dictate how we feel about ourselves??? It's called self esteem for a reason!!! Now I know that I'm not the most handsome guy, the buffest guy, or whatever people seem to hold in such high regard nowadays. However, what I am is, sure that I am who I am, and that there is not anyone else in the whole world like me!!! If that's not good enough for some of you, keep it pushin', have a nice day! Quit listening to other peoples' opinions on who you are and who you ought to be, because in the end it's only you and if you give someone else the power to dictate how you feel about yourself, you're only cheating yourself!!!

Its Cobbles And Rain Time
So we are in Edinburgh. It took one big car move to do so; Ashley seems to have moved everything she owns to the mews house we rented. The place is awesome I have to say, though it’s full of antiques and expensive art work and there are two Samurai swords on a table in the hallway, just in case one of us develops schizophrenia and goes mad on the Royal Mile and slashes a big troupe of amateur actors, which can happen. Our first day here we got the flat organised, we got the flyers and posters in and we checked out the venue. My venue at the Pleasance Dome was all up and running, I couldn’t really see my posters anywhere but I always get paranoid about that. Meanwhile, there are GIGANTIC posters of some comics off the telly gracing the main area up at Bristo Square, I was sorely tempted to draw big moustaches and colour in teeth but refrained. Edinburgh council now charge you per poster that goes up on their precious boards across the city, which makes me insa

It's Christmas Time
three days till x-mas and i'm still here but hopefully i'll be going home on the 4th and be home around the 10th or 11th. but there's a litttle problem with paperwork. my home unit had me arriving here on the 4th of aug but i got here on the 19th july. see the difference they messed up my paperwork and there's a chance I may not be leaving on the 4th of jan but instead I might be leaving on the 4th of aug. well i'm kinda worried now see that might be staying longer.

It's Called Aesthetic Medicine
“I just knows.” I was finishing some business on the computer at home this morning when my daughter Sarah ambled downstairs and sat on my lap. Yahoo’s home page came up and the headline was President Obama’s speech in Tuscon after the weekend murders there – do you honestly believe this would garner the overage of attention it has if a Congressperson was not shot (who apparently will recover, unlike the six others) – and Sarah pointed to his picture and said he’s the President of the United States! When I brought her over to Martha after she HAD to turn off the computer (this is important to a four-year-old) and we told her what happened, my wife asked Sarah how she knew who President Obama was – I’m sure one of us has pointed him out to her – and she responded “I just knows.” On my way to the office this morning, I stopped in to pick up an apple for later (I know, I should have got a bag at a supermarket an

It's Coming
Could be Zombies. Could be anything. You ever get an extra sense that something is right around the corner and it's bad? This past week of face eating freaks I believe is just the start. Yes I'm fully aware that the dumbfucks were on "bath salts", but it doesn't change the fact that some serious shit is happening.....and it's all man made. All I'm saying is I'm ready....Are you?

Its Crazy How I Feel
with ihm it feels different it feels so natural .. we barely met and here i am thinking we may end up together .. such silly thoughts i have sometimes , as i look out of my window i was somewhere else .. somewhere closer ... closer to the ocean to him ... so strange these feelings .. so strong its scary .. im trying to hiold back i just get so excited its hard .. i dont know what ot .. i leave my window open and i hear the cars go by ,cars going everywhere .. people going out to dance to laugh to sing ... and here i am at home .. i might as well be alone .. and i can't stop thinking about him .. i'll dry the tears before they fall .. i'll stop waiting to sell if he'll call .. times only knows .. time seems to play such evil tricks on me .. i want to scream out his name .. and let him know how i feel.. its crazy .. i keep telling myself its just a crush .. and im crazy .. noo it can't be .. falling is not something i want .. it hurts so damn much ... falling falling .. hard

Its Come To My Attention
some people have messaged me asking me if im ok or if there is anything they can do for me and i was wondering why would that be so i asked someone and they say the music on your page some of the songs are sad and that you lost someone or are wanting it back,so i laughed and said thanks for caring enough to tell me.so ill tell you what i think from my thoughts, we go threw things in our pass present and soon to be future and with all the good and bad happy and sad we come across different ways of dealing with these things so for me i have always all my life related to music weather its old or new i live and breathe music my daily life has to have music or i just cant seem to function it give me reason for what or why things and people are they way they are. so as for me i learned not to go all in no matter the situation cause i never found the right song to lead me in the right direction so dont think its about anyone or any breakup or any man its just me and and my love for music.Tha

It's Called Who Are We??
Why should we sit on our asses and let President and Congress decide who should have guns? Because we need to clean up this country from those who wish to do us harm. That's why! It's about time people take savage and brutal attacks serious. It's about time we bear arms and knock down the very people who are causing us distress. It's time for action, not reaction as the President and Congress mull over taking our guns, and rights away from us.!!!!!!!

Its Cold Here
Laying in front of a nice fire with you would be heaven. I can see us wrapped in a furryblanket totally naked. Feeling the warmth of our bodies. Your tasting my sweetjuices, while our tongues tangle around each other. Holding me tight, laying onour sides with my leg thrown up over you. Your hand rubbing my ass, my breastsup against your chest. You reach between my legs and feel the warmth coming frommy pussy. You brush your fingers across my clit, teasing me. My wet kisses havemade your cock rock hard. Reaching down, I take your cock into my hand andsoftly stroke it. I feel your excitement growing, your fingers can feel thewetness dripping from my hot pussy. Pushing your fingers up inside me. You hearme moan with pleasure. You raise my leg up and roll me over on my back andguide your fingers deeper inside me. Stroking your cock I whisper ”Eat my pussy”. I run your fingers across my wet pussy bringing them up for me to taste.

Its Dusty Over There
i have been sitting here, but before i started with that i was over there standing and milling around the dusty cardboard keeper cage. breathing in the dirt and dead skin of many years before this one. sneezes were frequent as the old substance made contact with the scratchy passages to my throat and lungs. what if i inhaled deep enough and inhaled all of my surroundings into the depths of my chest where they would begin absorbsion upon contact with the moist mucusy membranes of the air bags kept under my ribs. what if the particles were so small that they didnt want to stay and squeezed themselves through the layers of tissue like a mole through my neighbors lawn. burrowing until it reaches its destination far far away from where you put it. far from where you ever wanted it to go. running like a convict who just scaled the glistening razor wire at yesterdays maximum security prison. working its way to the outer surface, striding toward the sun and away from the encasement in which it

Its Drone Like Sound
He walks In from work after a hard day on the Demolition site. The smell of steak and potatoes in the air. Dinner is Cookin but she is no where to be found. He wanders down to the laundry room to find her putting a load in the wash. Not hearing Him come in, he sneaks Up behind her, wraps his arms around her waist. At the surprise She rises To be met on the neck with a kiss and nibble. She turns around and Throws her arms around him as they embrace in a hug and a deep passionate kiss. They seperate, as the words flow from her mouth, "I've been waiting all day." She finishes loading the washer, as he teases her with pinches, pokes, kisses and nibbles. She heads to The door, he follows only to find that she flips the lock. She turns to face him, pulls him to her and runs her hand down the front of his filthy jeans. The smell of his sweat mixed with Concrete dust has her wanting him more than ever. She leads Him back to the washin

It's Done.
Its done, its over with. Now his focus shall be on his wife and his house. And, you know what? He'll be blessed for it. No more pain, no more sorrow. It's done. Also I plan on removing my CT profile because IDC to have it any more. So, yeah.

"it's Develop Or Die."
Where do you begin if you don't know where you're coming from? I am lost. My love stricken from me. Future pending. Heart rebuilt and destroyed. I yearn for a love I can no longer have. I am on the mend. My lust deepens everyday. Damnit!! Why the fuck do I love this girl so much?!?! I let someone in once, I get hurt. I let another in I get fucked up. I didn't let anyone in for 6 years. And when I did look what it got me. Not very much incentive here. I don't regret it though, not one bit. It was the best time of my life. And the only time I've really felt "connected to anyone or anything." I'll always love her. She is my best friend, and she saved me. Arsonist One stares at me from the dark corner of my mind with a soft, evil laugh. Starting to RELAPSE!!! Fight it! [It's develop or die]

It's Dark In Here
A married woman is having an affair. Whenever her lover comes over, she puts her nine year old son in the closet. One day the woman hears a car in the driveway and puts her lover in the closet, as well. Inside the closet, the little boy says, "It's dark in here, isn't it?" "Yes it is," the man replies. "You wanna buy a baseball?" the little boy asks. "No thanks," the man replies. "I think you do want to buy a baseball," the little extortionist continues. "OK. How much?" the man replies after considering the position he was in. "Twenty-five dollars," the little boy replies. "TWENTY-FIVE DOLLARS?!" the man repeats. "That's awful expensive", but because of the position he was in, agreed to the price. The following week, the lover is visiting the woman again when she hears a car in the driveway and, again, places her lover in the closet with her little boy. "It's dark in here, isn't it?" the boy starts off. "Yes it is," replies the man. "Wanna buy a b

It's Done
It's done.....the crying is almost over .....the heart is in retreat....but that doesn't make it any easier.....maybe I should just lock it away permanently......Why do I do this to myself....why do I let myself care too much about something I know will never happen....Maybe I was meant to be alone....but that doesn't make it any easier......I need to let go.....I need to stop caring.....I need to quit loving....... I NEVER MEANT TO LOVE YOU I NEVER MEANT TO CARE I NEVER MEANT TO SHOW YOU THE FEELINGS HIDING THERE I NEVER MEANT TO LOVE YOU I NEVER MEANT TO CARE I NEVER WANTED YOU TO SEE THE PAIN HIDING THERE I NEVER MEANT TO LOVE YOU I NEVER MEANT TO CARE NOW IT'S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE AND MY HEART NOT TO SHARE

It's Dying....
What you ask.. My infatiation with Cherrytap. I think Ive run out of ideas as to what to discover, SO if you have any ideas for me that I may not have found, that I could do...Please let me know. I have begun to do nothing but check my account, repost to those that post to me, upload images and rate pictures on the "Im Bored" listing... I lose my attention easily.. and I think I feel it fading a..........

It's Doesn't Matter To Me
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, And if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, For your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, If you have been opened by life's betrayals Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, Mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with JOY, mine or your own; If you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you To the tips of your fingers and toes Without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, Or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to b

Its Dam Hot!!!!
Well my therm outside says 100.. its 120 in my house and I am in here typing this.. I have offically gone completly mad!!! What do I do now?? I dont know.. tell the internet all about random facts and things that people really dont want to know.. Great Idea!! Well today SUCKED bad.. was way to busy at wrok and I was way understaffed! But hey what do you do.. help people and then help the next one and then the next one and on and on till you lock the dam doors!! Well I guess I just wanted to shout out to you all and let you know that I am GETTING LAID tonight!! Whoop Whoop!!! sounds good to me.. I was told to be ready to get my bones jumped around 11pm.. now I am just counting down the time!!! should be an all nighter if all things go well.. do dam bad its so FUCKING HOT!!! so I guess there may be some time spent in the shower as well!! nothing like doing the nasty in the shower under cold water.. trust me it works fine.. just have to stay focused!! Well got to go now .. hav

It's Down To 3: A Simulblog!!...
The longest series in the history of American Idol is coming to a close. But first we have to execute the historically-cursed fourth-place finisher. Then next week we can sit and watch as the three remaining kids are forced to sing a song chosen for them by one of the three stooges, one chosen by the main stooge Clive Davis, and one song that the kids get to choose for themselves.Because THIS is American Idol.And this is a Simulblog, where the action unfolds as it's airing on the east coast, so if you want to be SHOCKED, run, do not walk, to the nearest exit.And since the shoutbox appears to be "down for maintenance" please feel free to chat using the comment thread in this entry.Ryan brings up the fact that fourth place is traditionally cursed and hints around that we may be surprised yet again as he intros the retrospective of the night before. Followed, of course, by the random person on the street reviews that none of us really care about.Over 45 million votes were cast, Ryan tells

Its Dark In Here
ITS DARK IN HERE A woman takes a lover home during the day while her husband is at work. Her 9-year old son comes home unexpectedly, sees them, and hides in the bedroom cupboard to watch. The woman's husband also comes home. She puts her lover in the cupboard, not realizing that the little boy is in there already. The little boy says, "Dark in here." The man says, "Yes, it is." Boy - "I have a football." Man - "That's nice." Boy - "Want to buy it?" Man - "No, thanks." Boy - "My dad's outside." Man - "OK, how much?" Boy - "$750" In the next few weeks, it happens again that the boy and the lover are in the cupboard together. Boy - "Dark in here." Man - "Yes, it is." Boy - "I have football boots." The lover, remembering the last time, asks the boy, "How much?" Boy - "$2250" Man - "Sold." A few days later, the boys' father says to the boy, "Grab your boots and football, let's go outside and have a game of soccer. The boy says, "I can't, I sold my ball and boots." Th

It's Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Front Door
My friend call me today. Blood platelets are not forming right... white cells attacking the 'deformed' blood platelets because they do not recognize them. This is causing him to bleed a lot, wakes up with blood on the pillows he slept on that night, brushing his teeth makes the mess in the sink look as if he just got punched in the mouth and that punch caused teeth to fall out, bloody. (Chemotherapy or having his spleen removed) *equals-----> SOLUTION. Too bad (No Insurance + No Money) does not = solution. So basically one of the sweetest guys EVER can't get better because he can't pay for the necessary treatments.

Its Done
I did the hardest thing I have ever done yesterday. Stanly was "put down" I was there with him when it was done. I needed to be there, he needed to see me not some stranger. He needed to know he was loved. It was kind of peaceful, he just fell asleep. He looked so at peace finally, no more pain. It was terrible to watch but I am glad I was with him, scratching his ear. He is in a field now and will become part of nature. I will miss my baby but I am glad he is not hurting any more!!

Its Damn Good To Be Me
For whatever reason I have the renewed joy and beliefs I had prior to my latest..umm...afflictions as of present. I have everything I could honestly want or need currently in my life with out the much annoying existence of those in my life that I have had in the resent months. I am ridding myself of what is unneeded and gathering only what I want and is good to my world. While yes, submission is needed in my life but for once its not my submission that will be warranted. Im a switch and suddenly that prospect is highly amusing me. I know my own worth and there are those in my life who do too. Those who have failed to realize it are ignorant and I cant blame them for that, after all I do make it difficult for most people to like me much less trust me.However I am finding the plotting and planning I have done today amusing beyond measure because I stand to gain far far more than those who have casted me aside, both lovers and foe alike. And they will be the one begging in the end. Im don

It's Dead .....
AAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!! MY MP3 player is dead.... I just got done downloading a bunch of audio books for My flight back home.. and now I have nothing to put them on .... guess i will just go drool over the zune I have on My amazon wish list ...lol

It's Done!
I've been a fighter all my life Now I'm tempted to end it by the edge of a knife. I've been through hell and back My strength has now began to lack I'm exhausted and tired now I've lost my job, I was fired I've lost my home and all my stuff there's nothing left, it's just too tough Nightmares wake me in a cold sweat At least I lived with no regret So many times I should have died Too stubborn to die, too much pride My pride is vanished now, nothing remains I'm ready to go so I feel no more pains I'm so sick of this life I've led I know I'd be better off just dead I can not eat, I can not sleep instead I starve and lay awake and weep I'm alone, hungry, tired and cold I've got nothing left in this life to hold I had my chances, I never got things right I fought for so long with all my might I'm done with all this pain and dispair My life simply was not fair I'm in too much pain and sorrow please give me a gun to b

It's Down The Street...
Oksy..so the title refers to the semi-tasteless joke about slitting your wrists "its down the street, not across the path" which means you cut down the center and not across like you see in the movies. So yeah i do the depression dance still at this stage of my life but unlike my younger years I don't go so far to the other side of the gun that I actually try to take myself out. Don't golf clap or anything, because its not that I'm any more stable than I used to be (I don't think) its just simply that I'm a mom. I can run myself into the edge of oblivion, but i have absolutely no right to wreck my kids and leave them with the legacy of pain and loss that me taking a premature, self induced dirt nap would bring. I can't bring myself to be that selfish, no matter what amount of pain I think i'm in. That still doesn't stop me from writing about it. It's not that i'm still 17 and think its some sort of cool kids club i need to join to prove the validity of my pain, but I am just a

Its Different
stupid shit plasters the walls sizemic activity in the class room halls spinning lies fill their heads watching kids walk by as their brains were under fead the emptyness is aparent sad is the excuse of the kids these days respect is no were to be found additude has come to the screeching high but brains have fell since my day i guess i am just older now, wiser i grow in time maybe i was like that maybe i was the same way maybe maybe

It's Done
HI EVERYONE, Just wanted to stop in a second and let you know its official. I AM A HIGH SCHOOL GRAD. I can't believe it either but I'M done. Well, I'm head off to my party. Love you all, wish you were here. Gifts and cash accepted........lol luv u Tara

It's Deviant
I've got some of my best art and stuff you won't see here on Deviantart.com, if you would like to check it out. You have to click the text under the pic to make the link come up. Once you are there click each pic for a bigger view. Desert Sycamore by ~TimLaSure on deviantART

It's Dragging Me Down
My friend, Lindy, and I have been close for some time. She lives on my street, and we see each other nearly everyday. She has a vehicle, and I keep it gassed up, and we run errands, shop, etc. Our views differ on a great many things, but we've gotten along just fine... Now, she's driving me crazy. She's very negative, and judgemental, and I'm really not wanting to spend time with her. Tonight, I went over to return a movie, and was telling her how much I'd like a husband. She instantly started up on how much trouble men are, and how the stress would be doubled, and that getting married is stupid. She's divorced, and anti-relationship, and doesn't even have interest in sex anymore, and that's fine... But why does she have to be so negative about ME wanting it? She admits she's never been in love, but it feels like she doesn't even believe it exists. And I don't see a man as a liability; I LIKE guys. I want a partner, a lover, a best friend, a deep emotional bond built on mutual

Its Dj Chillys Birthday Show Some Luv A/f/r/b
LUV YOU BABY MUAH BIRTHDAY BASH IN HAZLETON, PA THIS STAURDAY NIGHT AT SHENANIGANS COME ON OUT AND SHOW SOME LUV!!! IF YOU NEED DIRECTIONS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO WRITE FOR CALL CELL IF YOU HAVE THE NUMBER

It's D&d
RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4. Tag 10 friends. 5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. 6. Have Fun! IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? Y'all want a single HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? Teenager WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Bleeding Mascara HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Fully Alive WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Weed with Willy WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? I Play Dead WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Dr. Stephen WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? All the Same WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? What I Got WHAT IS 2 + 2? Another Brick in the Wall WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Beautiful People WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Time After Time WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Aenema WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Kiss WHAT WILL YO

It's Done
Tonight, me and my husband had a BIG fight. To think, it was over giving my mom money. He told me that he is done with it. By that, he means it's over. Yes I said it. Me and my husband are getting a divorce. He and I were doing great until tonight. I'm in a state of shock right now. It's hard for me to realize that my marriage is over. I didn't want this for my daughter. I thought marriage was supposed to mean forever. Boy was I wrong. Anyway, I've goota run. I've got a massive headache. I''l keep you fubarians apprised of what happens. To all my friends, please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as i go through this trial in life. I love you all! Rayne

It's Done(update)
as of the last post, me and my husband have talked things out. we are deciding to stay together and give things another chance. this news makes me so happy knowing what i did wrong. i am the happiest and luckiest woman alive! the love i have for my husband and my daughter is way stronger now than ever before. especially for my hubby tho......lol thanks for all the well wishes and prayers that were sent my way!

Its Done
i started the blog. i've got a new post up tonight and i'm adding some of the ones you've already seen here on fu just for content. if you think you want to join in, send me a pm. there'll be several of us posting hopefully in the next few weeks and also some interesting images as well. www.boobietasselsforbuddha.blogspot.com i expect participation. thank you. j

It's 10:45 , Do You Know Where Your Soul Is?
"We are Born like this Into this Into these carefully mad wars Into the sight of broken factory windows of emptiness Into bars where people no longer speak to each other Into fist fights that end as shootings and knifings Born into this Into hospitals which are so expensive that it’s cheaper to die Into lawyers who charge so much it’s cheaper to plead guilty Into a country where the jails are full and the madhouses closed Into a place where the masses elevate fools into rich heroes." ----------------- "I felt like crying but nothing came out. it was just a sort of sad sickness, sick sad, when you can't feel any worse. I think you know it. I think everybody knows it now and then. but I think I have known it pretty often, too often." My g0d, Mr. Bukowski, you hit the nail on the proverbial head. Ever sit down or walk around and feel so totally empty? So lost,even though your surrounded by people? Going somewhere and actually hating hearing people laughing and having a go

It's Definitely Monday...
My nephew Michael just got taken to the hospital... He's been sick - VIOLENTLY sick - since about 10 lost night, according to his mom. He's also complaining of a headache. He hit his head getting into the car last night. We all kinda blew it off until this morning, when I remembered that he said he saw stars. His mom took him to the doctor later this morning, who sent them to the ER. They gave him an antinausea med, which, of course, knocked him out and gave him 2 IVs for fluids. He woke up an hour ago and threw up again. They and my mother are on the way to the hospital... I'm really worried now. I WOULD follow, but it makes me worry worse if I'm at the hospital, than if I'm here. Plus, I have to go to Seguin, Texas (about 5 hours south of me) tomorrow morning for work. Really not in a good mood now... Durham, AKA Shawn UPDATE: 9:01 Futime - I just heard he's had a CT scan, and they've determined that he has a brain. Also, that it seems okay - they dignosed him with a

Its...*dolt ... Fuckface
No clue who this shithead is...and....ya'll know Ive hardly been online for months...with that said..im only a cunt in sb if smeone comes at me in an ignorant manner.... Clear HistoryClose jm428 Buzz: pickled Level: 29 Gender: Male, 44 Location: Baton Rouge, LA Status: I FINALLY Got My Job!!! I Am Officially A Safety Technician For Harbor Environmental!!!!I Start Tomorrow Mon Sep 9Th!! Thank You ALL For The Love AND Support!!!XOXOXO jm428: Has Narcissistic And Egomaniac Been Used To Describe You?... It Seems To Me That You Think WAY Too Highly Of Yourself... You Truly Are A Joke... I Love People Who Think They Are Smarter Than Anyone In The World.. You Are WAY Too DEEP Of A Person For Me!...Thanks For Being The Oxygen Thief Waste Of Space You Are!...I Can't Belie

It's Election Day
There are a few questions to ask yourself on the cut and run policies the Democrats are preaching. 1. In this review ask, were we bugging these guys and provoking them to attack us? 2. In the latest 9/11 attack were we bothering them and provoking them at that time? 3. If we cut and run and turn our backs on the Iraqi people and let them and the rest of the world down, and we turn our backs on it all and bury our heads in the sand, what makes you think they will stop attacking us? These people take running as an act of cowardice and they believe they are winning and they then plan to move in for the "Big Kill." Has anyone bothered to read the Koran and all about this enemy of ours? After an attack as devastating as Pearl Harbor was there no interest in what we are up against? Was it just taken as a single act? Was this a scene out of a movie to most? If that is what you think and also think this isn't a serious matter then what in the world is serious to the m

It's Easier...
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me. It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair. It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me." It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care. It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen. It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand. It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted. It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain. It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul. It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes. It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk. It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection. It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held. It's easier for me to dis

It Seems Everything Is Grey And There's No Color To Behold
corridors walk the empty halls shattered dreams these empty frames pictures of my life broken hopes scattered among the debris can i overcome this face these obsticles clear a new path through this place the corridors of my mind. by john m

It Seems Like I Can Savely Say Im Scene
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It's Eternal
It's Eternal It's not the things you say to me that make me love you so much. If you never spoke another word, I would hear you through your touch. It's not the things you give to me that sets your soul apart. If I never saw another dime, I would still be rich in heart. It's not in the way you touchme when embraced in a lovers dance. If the song in your heart stops playing, we'll sing to the tune of romance. It's knowing you'll always be there, you're my once in a lifetime friend. And knowing that you still love me with a love that has no end. It's knowing in my final hour that your love will carry me through, as I drift into eternity, where I'll patiently wait foryou.

It's Eternal
It's Eternal by BlueWolf It's not the things you say to me that make me love you so much. If you never spoke another word, I would hear you through your touch. It's not the things you give to me that sets your soul apart. If I never saw another dime, I would still be rich in heart. It's not in the way you touch me when embraced in a lovers dance. If the song in your heart stops playing, we'll sing to the tune of romance. It's knowing you'll always be there, you're my once in a lifetime friend. And knowing that you still love me with a love that has no end. It's knowing in my final hour that your love will carry me through, as I drift into eternity, where I'll patiently wait for you........

It's Ekg Time, Or I Knew I Would Pass Out In A Trailer One Day.....
SO I felt a little ill today, tried to call in, but work wouldn't let me. I went in, feeling off, wondering if it was because I haven't been eating much lately, and noticing as I go on, it's getting super hard to lift ANYTHING!!! My neck and shoulders started screaming with pain, And then the room starts to get darker......So I sit down, then I'm getting so light-headed I have to sit down after every box I lift & it's getting harder and harder to breathe....."This is no good," I'm thinking......"and where the hell is my sup!!" I continue in this pattern for 20 mins or more, meanwhile boxes are piling up.....finally, the sup comes by & I let him know my condition..... "Scan for 2 more mins, I will bring in a power-loader, then break and you can go." Well I damn near passed out just doing that. So they let me go, I barely make it to my car, call my sis, and tell her what 's going on (since as you ALL know, the line home is busy) Wait 15 mins, drive home, grab mom and off to the

It Seemed Like A Good Idea At The Time!
15-year-old performs surgery in India By MUNEEZA NAQVI, Associated Press Writer 2 hours, 21 minutes ago The 15-year-old son of two doctors successfully performed a filmed Caesarean section birth under his parents' watch in southern India in an apparent attempt to set a record as the youngest surgeon, officials said Thursday. Instead, the boy's father could be stripped of his licenses and may face criminal charges. Dr. K. Murugesan showed a recording of his son performing a Caesarean section to an Indian Medical Association chapter in the southern state of Tamil Nadu last month, said Dr. Venkatesh Prasad, secretary of the association. The video showed Murugesan anesthetizing the patient. Murugesan told the medical association that he wanted to see his son's name in the Guinness Book of World Records. However, Amarilis Espinoza, a spokeswoman for the record book, said in an e-mail response to a question from The Associated Press that the organization doesn't monitor

It Seems That Mathematics Isn't So Impeccable After All! Especially When It
If you are having sex with two women and one more woman walks in, what do you have? Divorce proceedings, most likely. If you have two friends and six women, how many women do each of your friends get? None. Is three an odd number? Not in this day and age. If a 6-inch penis can attract 10 women, how many women can an 18-inch penis attract? Two billion. If you go to bed 9 hours before you have to wake up, and you wife wants to have 2 hours of sex, how much sleep will you get? 8 hours, 59 minutes - who cares what she wants! How are math and sex the same? I don't get either one.

It Seems I Have Gotten The Attention Of Ones I Never Wanted To Deal With...
As some of you know but probably not many. I am still in Europe dealing with things I wished I never even heard of... I don't know when I shall return. I am thankful to Jean Claude. He has sent help. I can't really explain much online as the internet connection over here sucks and Neither of us trusts this means of communicating. I have been gone for TWO months and in that time I have dealt with terrors even I could not imagine. I have been able a few times and for limited time to get on the internet. I would have been on more if at all possible. It is late now and I must retire to sleep. A sleep filled with nightmares I may add for they won't even allow moi to sleep peacefully. It would be funny if it wasn't such a serious issue. It would be funny if they didn't try to kill Louis for merely a thought. It would be funny if the leader (who I refuse to even say her name) wasn't a whole hell of a lot more powerful than Akasha ever was. It would be funny if they didn't fe

Its Easier......
give me the pain so I might feel give me the pain so I know life is real give me the pain that now stabs at my heart because love didn’t want it it just tore it apart. give me the pain its wants me for me give me the pain my soul..let it eat.. So ..... just give me the pain its just easier that way.... ~Candyce~

It Seams
it seams that no matter where i look it seams that no matter what i think it seams that no matter what i feel it seams that im not worthy of anyone it seams that i prefear asian women it seams that even with them i find they play games with me it seams that my heart is breaking to the point of not careing anymore it seams that all the good women have finaly gone away and are taken what about the good guys who are looking but being abused it seams that ill just be lonely always

It's Everybody
The fall of 1992 was a special time for me being a football fanatic, and the community in which I grew up. What I learned in those few months went way beyond football. Being a former player of my high school team, it was a given that I would roam the sidelines at every game. In 1992, two things changed that made our crowds to big to do that. First, we had an exceptional group of athletes that season and the team was doing well. They were small but enthusiastic single A type players with an obvious hunger to win. And second, West Virginia SSAC had expanded the playoff field for the first time to 16 teams. Since I was a kid we had gone 8-2 or 9-1 every season and failed to make the playoffs. But this year would be different. On a bitterly cold November night, the fans of number 14th ranked Valley High School traveled 3 hours south to see their team play the #3 team in the state. It was 16 degrees when we arrived at the field and hour before the game, lucky to have had my aunt and u

It Seems That Life Goes By Resembling Somewhat Of A Bell Curve Of What Is Considered Successful...
At age 4...success is...not peeing in your pants. At age 10...success is...making your own meals. At age 12...success is...having friends. At age 16...success is...having a drivers license. At age 20...success is...having sex. At age 35...success is...having money. At age 50...success is...having money. At age 60...success is...having sex. At age 70...success is...having a drivers license. At age 75...success is...having friends. At age 80...success is...making your own meals. At age 85...success is...not peeing in your pants.

It Seems To Be You
i dont undeerstand it. i dont understand how you can accuse me of something i haqvent done and then how you turn around and do it. it seems like your just angry at the things you want to do or things you think about and then you assume that because you feel that way that im going to go out and do it. maybe you should think about your aqccusations before you make them and decide weather or not your just afraid or angry with yourself.

It's Expensive And We Need Help!
So aside of the obvious of surgery, did you know ongoing cancer treatment it EXPENSIVE! This is not the financial strain you want if you are paycheck to paycheck. After my hubbys child support comes out of his check we are left with enough to cover our bills, rent, food, and necessities. We don't usually have much left over for alot of extras, but we manage some with careful planning or post yard sales..LOL We have some bills that need to get paid, and I honestly wish there was a time frame for cancer patients that was extended out past their treatment before demanding payment. Not only this but I have found how little financial help there is for people with Cancer! You have to have specific kinds of cancer before people will really help! Colon Cancer apparently isn't one of them. Most of the things I have looked into are dead ends, or have no funds available. Had I gotten Breast Cancer, there would be more help. Seems like a bit of an injustice. But hey I might be bia

It Seems To Me.....
It seems to me that all the people that know me, know that no matter what their need or cause, they can always count on me to be there in any way that they may need me to be. I've always over-extended myself to help my friends, especially those that I've considered to be family. Yet, and not so surprisingly lately, when the roles are reversed, and I am the one in dire need, my friends turn their backs to me as if I were a stranger asking for a hand-out. Well, it's time to cut those ties. Some have cost me more than others, and some have crossed me in ways that would seem unimaginable for one friend to do to another, some of those people often referred to me as a brother, but if this is how you treat family than I'm glad we're through. In your darkest hours, I hope you one day realize what you have done, and when you reach out for someone to help you when you have hit rock bottom, know that I will no longer be there to catch you from falling. It's time you've cleaned up your own sins. T

It's Early But...
I wanted to wish everyone a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!I probably won't be on for the rest of this week.I start my cooking tomorrow and from Thursday on I will be chillin with my family.I hope you all have a happy and safe holiday.Look out for my pics next week,especially the food gallery

It Seems To Me
It just seems to me there are some weird people out there on this site. If you are not happy why try to pull someone else down to your level? Let the happy ones be happy. If you are jealous...move along. I have met a couple that are truly in love. Kerri helps me in ways of dealing with a bad relationship and Jay is just cool to talk to. If you talk to them for a minute you will feel the love around them. They share a special love for each other and the love radiates around them. We do have some things in common though. They met online while me and John met through a blind date. We had never met our man before. But through fate or whatever you want to say...we fell in love with some great caring guys. True love is out there folks! You just have to sit back and let it come to you naturally. Thanks for letting me rant today. Since I broke my leg I have a lot of time to sit and think. Thanks Kerri and Jay for letting me be your friends so I can witness your amazing love for

It Seems To Me
It seems to me that there should be a place for me to go. Somewhere that I can laugh and cry somewhere that I can grow. It seems to me there oughta be a place where I belong. Somewhere that I'm suppose to be but gosh, I could be wrong!

It Seems Like
It seems like things have changed just a little it could be me but I dont think so,It upsets me just a little nothin worth gettin upset about but I can feel the shift. We got along beautifully now we rarely get to talk, now when we do talk I feel like I have said something or done something to annoy you.I am happy you are happy but...... sometimes it feels like me being around is no longer needed you dont talk to me or confide in me I feel as if I may be a burden instead of a pleasure to be around nowadays I see you long enough for me to go to work and when I come home you no longer have time for me you are either in bed already or heading there as soon as I walk in the house.I'm not tryin to sound like I'm complaining but it seems like you don't need me anymore or have time for me, I love you and you know who you are and I don't want to loose your freindship It just feels like we are slipping away from each other I feel like financially I dont pull my weight and I try my damndest but

Its Erotic Creative Writing...with A Point...comments Welcome!!
I turn you around and loosen your top, reaching inside I easy your tits from your bra cups...and then turn to the sink area...there is a very exclusive oil...that I pour into my hands and reach back inside your top....cupping your breasts I start to stroke and massage them with the palms of my hands....gently squeezing and massaging, circular motions....gathering the whole of each breast in my hands and rolling and kneeding them around and around.....I kiss the back of your neck and whisper and lick your ears....standing behind you, you can feel my cock growing in my trousers....as my hands work your breasts, kneeding and massaging.......your nipples are hard now, and your breath is begining to get heavy..... ......now I start on your nipples....., gently rubbing both of them between my fingers, rolling them backwards and forwards....then pulling them gently, out wards to thier full extent....backwards and forwards...feelling them harden all the time...feeling the areol expand to my to

It Seemed I Was Depressed, But Now I Don't Think Thats What It Was
~sighs~ ~growls~ ~bangs head against wall~ Lets see where to start? Just where and what have I been up too? To tell the truth, I couldn't even say, not because I don't want to, But more along the lines of I really don't know. It seems to me that the rash of time has lost all meaning. Some how minutes became hours, while hours became days. Soon Days were weeks, and now it seems that weeks have become months. I haven't got a clue as to why this has happened. Nor do I really care. It just seems a little strange to me though, that yesterday, was the start of a new year, and now here we are in the mist of April. The question that seems to be dwelling upon my over working mind is: Does time even have a constant meaning? I know that there are 60 seconds to a minute, while an hour has 60 minutes. A day has 24 hours, so on and so forth, But whose to say how long a second really last? With that thought fresh in mind, here goes the twist of man. We live each day striving to be the b

It Seems That Somebody Is Beyond Help.
I have no clue what kind of drugs this dipshit is on. But this is what I have received in my messages this morning. It seems he wishes to have a challenge after I have already challenged him. Of course that one he has backed away from out of fear. It sounds to me that he must be gay or cannot accept that he is a lesser man than I. from: Bob (The Love D... Online (Me thinks needle-dick Bounty is hiding!) Plano, TX subject: I knew it would work received: 07/23/2008 01:31 am replied: no block this member Flag as spam I just knew if I posted a couple of naked pics with my cock completely soft, you'd get that big ego going and try to act like you're all big cocked and shit and would spew that shit all over the mumms, which you did indeed.... talking up so much about how much bigger you were than me and bragging all over the place just like you do with everything else... damn predictable indeed. Well, what you didn't know is a friend of mine has already shown m

It's Elementary...really!
Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the knowledge you bring forth to the classroom each and everyday you are getting paid to be there, to which my tuition, I'm sure, finances a portion of...but puleez! Spare me the kindergarten classroom tactics and treat me like the 34 year old adult that I am! I don't need you to scold me into submission. Be direct, know what you are doing and I will follow. Respect is not demanded it is commanded and act accordingly! I will not rebuff your rules and regulations. It is only when they are set at your convenience and or anyone elses convenience that I have a problem! Make no allowances, show follow through, say what you mean and mean what you say. This is not scared strait as much as you think your intimidation methods influence my decision to respect you. Goes in one ear and right out the other. Believe me, I see with both eyes and take note, I am not afraid. You'll never get a handle on anything if you continue to be inconsistent. We