Fubar Blog Posts 2

David Bowie - Survive
Oh my, naked eyes I should have kept you I should have tried I should of been more wiser kind of guy I miss you Give me wings Give me space Give me money for a change of face There's noisy rooms and passion pants I loved you Where's the morning in my life? Where's the sense in staying right? Who said time is on my side? I got ears and eyes and nothing in my life But I survive your naked eyes I'll survive You alone across the floor You and me and nothing more You're the great mistake I never made I'll never lied to you I hate it when you lied But I'll survive your naked eyes I'll survive People boys all snowy white Razzle dazzle clubs every night Wished I'd sent a valentine I loved you I'll survive Your naked eyes I'll survive I'll survive My naked eyes I'll survive I'll survive Naked eyes I'll survive I'll survive I'll survive

David Bowie - Something
Your coat and hat are gone I really can't look at your little empty shelf A ragged teddy bear It feels like we never had a chance Don't look me in the eye We lay in each others arms But the room is just an empty space I guess we lived it out Something in the air We smiled too fast then can't think of a thing to say Lived with the best times Left with the worst I've danced with you too long Nothing left to say Let's take what we can I know you hold your head up high We've raced for the last time A place of no return And there's something in the air Something in my eye I've danced with you too long Something in the air Something in my eye Abracadoo - I lose you We can't avoid the clash The big mistake Now we're gona pay and pay The sentence of our lives Can't believe I'm asking you to go We used what we could To get the things we want But we lost each other on the way I guess you know I never wanted anyone more than you Lived all our best

David Ruffin
Somewhere there should be for all the world to see A statue of a fool made of stone The image of a man who let love slip through his hands And then just let him stand there all alone And there on his face a gold tear should be placed To honor the million tears he's cried And the hurt in his eyes would show so everyone would know Concealed is a broken heart inside So build a statue and oh build it high So that all can see Then inscribe the world's greatest fool And name it after me

David... Wrote It When I Was 16 And Just Never Finished It
Growing up was never really easy for me, as I did not know my father and my mom was out working two jobs just to provide for me and my older brother Matt. I guess will tell you a bit about myself I am 18 years old and a nerd, well that’s what I consider my self. I’ve won the science fair 3 years in a row. My father walked out on us when I was 6 and my brother Matt was 10 years old, he left for some girl that was 10 years older then my mom. I thought that I my luck was never going to change and that I would always be a loser, but little did I know that would all change when I met him. His name was David; he was 23 and drove a motor bike. I guess that I will tell you how we came too met. Every Friday night my mom allows me to go to the club down the street with a bunch of friends. I went up to the bar to get a drink of water, and there he was. He looked rite at me and started coming my way, I tried not to notice him but he kept walking until he was rite beside me. He asked me my name

David's Knots~
His slut and his alone!I arrive at the hotel with instructions to be ready.. You would be driving to the hotel right after work and I was so excited at the idea of seeing you again. It has been so long. I don’t have a lot of time to prep so I lite the candles and drew the curtains, fold down the spread and fluff the pillows.I take a shower to get myself ready for you. I know you will be upset that I didn’t have time to shave my pussy. I still don’t have time now but I am hoping that your desire to fuck me will have you over look my lack of the smoothness you prefer. I stand under the warm water covering ever inch of my body with scented soap so you will enjoy it as you touch and kiss me. My soapy fingers follow the trail yours did the last time we were together. Down my neck, so sensitive for your kisses and bites. Down to my breasts. Oh god, I can still feel your slaps and bites. How you pulled and sucked them. Each touch of my hands are like electricity. Each shock

David R. Ray
David Robert "Bobby" Ray (February 14, 1945 to March 19, 1969) David R. Ray was awarded the Medal of Honor posthumously. In addition to the Medal of Honor he was awarded the Purple Heart Medal for wounds received in action, as well as the Combat Action Ribbon, National Defense Medal, Vietnam Service Medal (with star) and the Republic of Vietnam Campaign Medal. His father was presented the Medal of Honor in a White House ceremony. Citation:For conspicuous gallantry and intrepidity at the risk of his life above and beyond the call of duty while serving as a corpsman with Battery D, 2d Battalion, 11th Marines, 1st Marine Division, at Phu Loc 6, near An Hoa, Quang Nam Province, in the Republic of Vietnam, on 19 March 1969. During the early morning hours, an estimated battalion-sized enemy force launched a determined assault against the Battery's position, and succeeded in effecting a penetration of the barbed-wire perimeter. The initial burst of enemy fire caused numerous casualties amo

David Carradine
BANGKOK – Actor David Carradine, star of the 1970s TV series "Kung Fu" who also had a wide-ranging career in the movies, has been found dead in the Thai capital, Bangkok. A news report said he was found hanged in his hotel room and was believed to have committed suicide. A spokesman for the U.S. Embassy, Michael Turner, confirmed the death of the 72-year-old actor. He said the embassy was informed by Thai authorities that Carradine died either late Wednesday or early Thursday, but he could not provide further details out of consideration for his family. The Web site of the Thai newspaper The Nation cited unidentified police sources as saying Carradine was found Thursday hanged in his luxury hotel room. It said Carradine was in Bangkok to shoot a movie and had been staying at the hotel since Tuesday. The newspaper said Carradine could not be contacted after he failed to appear for a meal with the rest of the film crew on Wednesday, and that his body was found by a hotel maid a

David Carradine Died??
My Dad used to watch him in the kung fu series when I was a kid.:D I can't believe at 72 he has left this world.:( Life is rather odd. No other thoughts at this time. No biography info.... sorry I'll leave that to Highwaysong.;)

David Banner - Play *love This Song*
"Play"Cum girl, I'm tryna get your pussy wetWork that, lemme see you drip sweatCum girl, I'm tryna get your pussy wetWork that, lemme see you drip sweatGon play with itGon play with itGon play with itGon play with itGon play with itWork that clitCum girlFinger fuck your pussy like you want some, girlWork it like a nigga straight licking on your pearlI wanna see you cum in the middle of the dance floorA nigga can't fuck, what you think your finger made forI'ma beat that pussy upYou get it wet enough, I might lick it upLickey, lickey, lickey, like a peppermint swirlLick that clitCum girlUh, I wanna see your legs shakeTake you to the crib, we can fuck til the bed breakUh, fuck you til your pussy acheThink about the type right now, girl, mastur(Uh uh) bate for a nigga, freak you in the clubsstop worrying about them other hoesIt's me in your worldWork that clitCum girlCum girl, I'm tryna get your pussy wetWork that, lemme see you drip sweatCum girl, I'm tryna get your pussy wetWork that, le

David Crockett, U.s. Congressman (1827-1835)
"We have rights, as individuals, to give as much of our own money as we please to charity; but as members of Congress we have no right so to appropriate a dollar of public money." -- David Crockett, U.S. Congressman (1827-1835)

David Bienenstock - Editor High Times
http://www.revelinnewyork.com/videos/david... As the Senior Editor of High Times Magazine, David Bienenstock has traveled the world writing about marijuana. He has interviewed everyone from growers to dealers to prisoners to politicians, which means he knows just about everything there is to know about pot. Check out www.revelinnewyork.com for more videos and for David's personalized city and culture guide to New York.

David Cook - Come Back To Me (omg! You Knew What This Would Do To Me Didn't You?)
You say you gotta go and find yourselfYou say that you're becoming someone elseDon't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at youYou say you're leaving as you look awayI know there's really nothing left to sayJust know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for youSo I'll let you go, I'll set you freeAnd when you've seen what you need to seeWhen you find you, come back to meTake your time, I won't go anywherePicture you with the wind in your hairI'll keep your things right where you left themI'll be here for youOh and I'll let you go, I'll set your freeAnd when you've seen what you need to seeWhen you find you, come back to meAnd I hope you find everything that you needI'll be right here waiting to seeYou find you, come back to meI can't get close if you're not thereI can't get inside if there's no soul thereI can't face you, I can't save youIt's something you'll have to doSo I'll let you go, I'll set you freeAnd when you've seen what you need to seeWhen you find you, come bac

David Cook - Come Back To Me
You say you gotta go and find yourself You say that you're becoming someone else Don't recognize the face in the mirror Looking back at you You say you're leavin As you look away I know theres really nothin left to say Just know i'm here Whenever you need me I'll wait for you So i'll let you go I'll set you free And when you see what you need to see When you find you come back to me Take your time i wont go anywhere Picture you with the wind in your hair I'll keep your things right where you left them I'll be here for you Oh and i'll let you go I'll set you free And when you see what you need to see When you find you come back to me And i hope you find everything that you need I'll be right here waiting to see You find you come back to me I can't get close if your not there I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear I can't fix you i can't save you Its something you have to do So i'll let you go I'll set you free And when you see what you need to see When you find you come b

David Cook - Lie
You whispered that you were getting tiredGot a look in your eyeLooks a lot like goodbye.Hold on to your secrets tonight.Don't want to know i'm ok with this silenceIt's truth that i don't want to hear You're hiding regret in your smileThere's a storm in your eyes that's been passing for awhileHold on to the past tense tonightDon't say a wordI'm ok with the quiet.The truth is gonna change everything. So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alrightSo lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the nightI don't mind if you wait before you tear me apartLook me in the eyeLie lie lie. Lie lie lie. I know that there's no turning back.If we put too much light on this we'll see through all the cracks.Let's stay in the dark one more night.Don't want to know i'm ok with the silence.It's truth that i don't want to hear. So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alrightSo lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the nightI don't mind if you wait before you tear me apartSo l

David Cook - Little Sparrow
Little sparrow, little sparrowPrecious fragile little thingLittle sparrow, little sparrowFlies so high and feels no pain.All ye maidens, heed my warningNever trust the hearts of menThey will crush you like a sparrowLeaving you to never mend.They will vow to always love youSwear no love but yours will doThen they'll leave you for anotherBreak your little heart in two.Little sparrow, little sparrowPrecious fragile little thingLittle sparrow, little sparrowFlies so high and feels no pain.

David Guetta- Sexy Bitch
Yes I can see her Cause every girl in here wonna be her Oh she's a diva I feel the same and I wonna meet her They say she low down It's just a rumor and I don't believe em They say she needs to slow down The baddest thing around town She's nothing like a girl you've ever seen before Nothing you can compare to your neighbourhood hoe I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful The way that booty movin I can't take no more Have to stop what I'm doin so I can pull up close I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful Dam girl Dam you'se a sexy bitch A sexy bitch Dam you'se a sexy bitch Dam girl Dam you'se a sexy bitch A sexy bitch Dam you'se a sexy bitch Dam girl Yes I can see her Cause every girl in here wonna be her Oh she's a diva I feel the same and I wonna meet her They say she low down It's just a rumor and I don't be

David's Memories ...a Work In Progress
Molly rolled over in the bed and realized that David wasn’t there it was 3 am and she figured he got up for a cup of coffee as he had been doing so she got up to join him. When she got downstairs, she wasn’t prepared for what she found it was David leaning over the coffee table weeping, wiping his hands on his chest repeatedly.“Davey are you alright?” she asked him as she put her hands on his shoulders sitting down behind him.“I can’t make the blood stop he keeps bleeding and I cannot make it stop. He took two rounds in the stomach and I can’t put his insides back in either. He is dying and I can’t make it stop what the fuck do I do now?” He kept repeating.She begins to weep along with him and is afraid the kids are going to come down and see their Daddy on the floor. “Please get up I don’t want the kids to see you like this David. Please get up off the floor and I will help you clean it up alright?” He wiped

David Ruffin
Common Man-David Ruffin I have dreamed a dream, there a common manAh, hoping to rise to the topI have sworn by my blood as your man, my loveThat one day, I promiseOne day your hurting would stopBut I'll never never never never changeI never change one single grain of sandOh, thanks to you babyFor just loving a common manI want to thank you this evening Oh, I thought, I thought that I failed you soBut that's when you turn around and look me in my eyesAnd you let me knowYou said and you said it softlyI didn't have to worry about being a common manYou said, "David, you don't have to worry about rising to the top"You said, you said, you said I didn't have to swear by my bloodBut ah baby, that one day your heartaches would stopThen you put your arms around me and you saidYou never never never never caredIf I never change one single grain of sandYou said, "I love you, babyI love you for just being a common man"For my gratitude just keep on growingYeah, for recognizing me, I thank you ba

David
One year ago my whole world fell apart. It feels like the knife is still lodged in my heart. When I heard you were gone I refused to believe it was true. I didn’t want to accept that this world would go on without you. But this world has continued and so has our lives. The loss is still strong; like a thousand stabbing knives. One day it will hurt less and I will no longer cry. Because one day my turn will come & I will have to die. Until then my angel my love for you will always burn bright. Sweet dreams. Sleep tight. I love you. Good night.

David (my Love)
You have the most beautiful brown eyes Not too big, not too small, just the right size Your loving and gentle touch I long for it and miss it so much Whether you’re gone a minute or a day The feelings are the same either way I love you with all my heart I can’t stand it when we’re apart It’s just the way I feel With you everything’s so real I watch you sleeping at night And I know that, with you, everything will be all right

David And Waldo
Today i helped a man named david and his dog, his picture came across my pit bull page last night and he was holding a sign, unlike most people you see everyday standing at the off ramps or near busy intersections, his sign said "please need dog food". this touched my heart and i felt compelled to help him, as did some others who are in my area(dallas). I woke up this morning and i packed a small luggage bag i wasnt using with a few shirts and a blanket for the dog, towel, toiletries, lighter, some canned food. i went to PETCO to see if they would help me with some food for his dog waldo. i explained who i was and what my org. does and the employees came together and got a bag of dog food for me to give to him. i also got him a portable dog dish for waldo. some might say that people like david should work or that they are lazy, well let me tell you, david is a war veteran and he fought for this country in korea! he saved his dog waldo from a kill shelter and is a great guy, waldo is ve

The Da Vinci Code, A Personal Opinion.
I should probably start with a disclaimer: You do not have to hate Dan Brown, any of his works, or any of the movies based off of his books, in order to enjoy my stuff. Promise. You'll see why. My family has been big on reading since my father was twelve. I read The Once and Future King when I was in sixth grade—for personal pleasure. My freshman year of high school had my English professor confused when I finished off one Tom Clancy novel a week. And I mean the big ones that could be used for door stoppers. So, when I started in on The Da Vinci Code, I figured it would be yet another book. You can sell me practically anything as long it's a well-designed, good story. I could not care any less about saving the whales, but I enjoyed Star Trek IV anyway. I don't think the CIA is the source of all evil, but I liked the film The Long Kiss Goodnight, since it was entertaining—and since the primary villain was a bureaucrat. From what I had gathered about the premise of Da

David....part 5
David was trashed that night when he was with Marissa. He can not recall being with her, he is trying to call her all day and night. Marissa is not taking his calls. She has been a shy one. And David likes this about her. He lights a cig. And sets and thinks back and wonders how he can get her to come to him. David is a bad boy. Marissa seems to have a lot of layers of secrets about her. David tries to call her again she is not picking up! " DAM.. her... bY LoVe GiRL Part. 5 Short Story

David Murphy Aka Robo Cop Of The Texas Rangers
Click on my Blog To Watch Some Videos and highlights of David Murphy Aka Robo Cop http://www.empowernetwork.com/kevin6821/blog/david-murphy-aka-robo-cop/I nicknamed David Murphy Robo Cop because of how smart of a player and especially how statistical of a hitter he is. He is a great hitter and the Rangers should be glad to have him and lately of course he’s been on fire especially getting people out.

Davinchi's World My Life And Times Personal Journal 2 The Royal Family Crest Fans
Being in front of the cameras and soaking up the lime light is not my true motivation in the machine of music.. I believe in order to develop a strong customer base you have to be like a 5 star baker and bake a cake with a different kind of ingredients to give birth to a new flavor!!! I love to write songs and record them to original compositions of music masterpieces.. After you have baked the most incredible moist phenomenal tasting cake.. You want to share your dessert with the entire world.. Because the world loves cake and eats all kinds of desserts on the menu.. The adrenaline rush of creating a new sound and delivering lyrics that dazzle and spark the imagination to get people to dance and feel your words like a 12.9 on the Richter scale like an earthquake is an amazing feeling.. To listen to the people chant your words and hooks makes you feel like you have a personal connection with the entire world!!! These people are hungry for a different flavor in a gourmet

Da Warrior Is Back
THE WARRIOR IS BACK FOR A SHORT TIME ONLY... join the greatful chaos he brings with him... and rock out to the tunes ! ROCK ON EVERYONE IT'S ME DA WARRIOR DJ KAIJAW... I'M BACK FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME... IF YOU WISH TO COME AND ROCK I'LL PLAY YOU SOME OF THE MUSIC I HAVE GOT AND TRY AND GET SOME MUSIC I DON'T HAVE SO HANG WITH ME AND ROCK OUT... T.G.I.F. from INTOXICATION HOME OF THE INTOXICATION LOCALS WITH GREAT PARTY'S AND AWESOME PEOPLE INTOXICATION home of the INTOXICATION LOCALS and crazy parties and AWESOME people we have got a new home now.. so please join us click this picture banner and save your self from another night of lounges with rules and harsh people we here don't judge and we for sure have fun INTOXCATION is a great place for you to come and play requests tunes and all that great stuff you'll love the people there cause they love each other... very open minded and all of that great stuff.. rock on and rock away with the tu

Da Warrior Dj Kaijaw On Air Right Now.... Join Him For The Huge Tunes You Want
i'm on air now INTOXICATION home of the INTOXICATION LOCALS and crazy parties and AWESOME people YOU WANTED THE BEST YOU GOT THE BEST.... the place to rock out with no end has come to you.... INTOXICATION get totally intoxicated ONLY @ INTOXICATION.... THE PLACE TO BE IS INTOXICATION YOU CAN NOT GET BETTER THAN THIS YOU MUST COME CHECK IT ALL OUT! THERE IS ONLY 3 RULES AND THERE IT'S LIKE ANYTHING GOES IN THERE GET DIRTY AND INTOXICATED! JOIN INTOXICATION RIGHT NOW YOU'LL LOVE WHAT YOU HEAR AND SEE JOIN THE MADNESS INTOXICATION HAS MADE A COME BACK.. WE HIT TOP LOUNGE STATUS BEFORE AND WE DID IT AGAIN... WE ARE GONNA MAKE IT FOR SURE THIS TIME.. WE ARE GONNA SHOW YOU WHY WE PARTY HARD AND HAVE FUN.. AND HAVE NOTHING BUT PLEASURE AND PLEASURE ALL THE TIME AT OUR LOUNGE

*da Weekend*
hey friends..jus wanted to say hi and aloha..im glad im in dis awesome site..i really lik dis..i really can make alot of good friends in here..i also wanted to say hi to my sister friend sweet soljah..so yah neways..today im hea to jus make alot of friends..while im watching and playing wit my niiece arien..and also da weather today is kine of HOT but it all good..it cloudy and it really killing me..so yah..dat wat i wanted to say and dis blog..so everybody..have a awesome day and a safe one..alllllllooooooohhhhhhaaaaa!! love love always ♥uiLani♥

Da Week
Man!! so far, it's been kinda crazy, i mean monday was aite, but goin to class and having to liftweights for football and run 100's on the football field which was not dat bad cuz it was cold outside. I feel like walkin outside naked at times but dat's just me aite.. it's supposed to snow here soon plus football has been gud with the record of 6-1 in conference and 6-2 overrall, we have two games here left and if we win both, we go to playoffs while it's snowing outside somewhere up north n montana which is freakin cold u know... otherwise... I had to get a new battery for my car because when the driver side tire popped out, it took along the battery and my crusie control too which pretty much sux for real... but i'm gettin da work done on so it's been lookin real gud in my opinion. I have been gettin over a sore throat sickness that got to my tonsils and made me not be able to eat nothing but just yogurt, wha's up with dat but today i'm finally gettin over it so that's goo

A Dawg's Life
I be da G-Dawg, The psycho Blood Hound A homeless gangsta who’ll Leave ya gagged and bound I be a hellraiser Whiskey bent an’ hellbound Ya gonna try ta take dis dawg down Send me to da dawgpound Got a bullseye on my chest Yeah I’m a marked man I stay on da run roaming ‘cross da land Got a hunger but no food Drinkin’ from a bottle at a dive Takin’ a five-finga discount just ta try ta stay alive While I be stealin’ from da rich An’ stealin’ from da poor I be robbin’ da hood An’ comin’ back for more ‘Cause I ain’t I got nothin’ ta lose I already lost my soul Been doin’ dis s*** Since I was five years old If ya can’t find me on da streets Den check da county jail I spend every cent Just ta post bail I know y’all wanna see me Wit a noose round my neck Wanna see da dawg choke But I never break a sweat I’m calm and cool ‘Cause I da natural born thilla Bodies pilin’ up ‘Cause I’m a blood thirsty killa It was a good day ta die But I st

Dawg Fans
Yes its true we lost to Vanderbilt... So what? Are we not gonna ever play football again? The output that was demonstrated by some of the fans yesterday was uncalled for.. plain and simple we got beat.. It sucked! But im not going to hide under a rock! Im Not going to accept all the bullshit that the AJC wants to slam us about.. Im damn proud that Sonny Perdue stood up for UGA and said "that aint right". Im still as big of a georgia fan today as i was yesterday before the game.. Unless you play for dawgs you've got no right to question those players that put forth the effort yesterday! Yeah we not going to play for the SEC title this year.. But we can still go 10-2 and have the chance beat.. Auburn, Florida, and Georgia Tech this year... We need to rally around our boys and not let the negativity of this loss get to our players. It makes me sick the way some of our "so called" fans were acting yesterday.. I also hate the way ESPN decided they need to rip the Shit out of us.. Im the Geo

Dawgs And Boy Scouts
Since I have joined CT, I have seen tons of stories in the form of bulletins that tell tales of nasty men. These men prowl the pages of CT in search of women in need of attention. They swoop in on these unsuspecting victims and promise them everything from the moon to the sun and stars. Their ultimate goal is to get the woman to invite into their lives in the real world. When this happens, these women find themselves being used by a man who is doing every female he can get his hands on. Sadly, these women get together on CT and tell tales that would make sensitive types shared a tear. These men, who judge their manhood by the number of women they are banging, fall into one category. These men are "Dawgs." Unlike the 4 legged kind, these "dawgs" simply don't care about anyone but themselves and if that means hurting you, then they will. However, if there is one constant in the universe, it's the fact that the universe is in balance. Opposites like in and out, up and down, ho

The Dawg Is Back!!
K... first things first...going to use one of the best quotes out there "Its friday bitches, lets get fucked up". Second... all the hater on cherry tap can go straight to hell...rating my stuff a 1... that dont fly with me. And third, all the peeps that wanna chat at me, feel free. And the DJ is back in the house for all your music needs!!

Dawg Is Going For Gf!
BAD TO THE BONE69~Founder Chopper Bikers Club~ is trying to reach godfather he has auto 11 on ,so lets all help out and give him a early xmas present......Please repost often tyvm BAD TO THE BONE69~Founder Chopper Bikers Club~@ fubar (repost of original by '!!!-AuSsIe-!!!- Zodiak Levelers Manager-!!! Proudly Owned by~LadySnowOwl~' on '2008-12-23 12:16:23') (repost of original by 'BAD TO THE BONE69~Founder Chopper Bikers Club~' on '2008-12-23 12:18:43')

Da White Sox
if anyone knows how to report someone, pls let me know..this guy on here with the handle Da White Sox just called em a fuckin cunt because he asked for my yahoo messenger..I TOLD him I'm hardly ever on there because I work alot..He asked for it anyway AGAIN, so I gave it to him...then he goes..ar you ever going to answer your IM..I then told him..yet again, that I hardly get a chnace to get on that thing becuase of work.. He then tells me to stop playing games..calls me a fucking cunt..and rates my pictures 1's.....

The Dawn Of The Spork Wars
I hereby propose we devide the LC into two groups: Those Who Love Sporks and Those Who Find Them To Be The Mutant Offspring Of An Unholy Union Between Two Glorious Examples Of Cutlery. In my photo gallery is a picture named after this impending war. Rate it. 10 If you oppose all things Spork. 1 If you are for the rise of the plastic defecto army. Let all the voices of the LC be heard! At the close of All Hollow's Eve the current average of that picture will reflect the voice of the masses and forever end the Spork Wars. -Robert

The Dawn
See me standing stong and proud. Life is black a dark storm cloud. See my faults and my mistakes. Watch as I turn, now your the fake. I see your eyes, they're wide with pain. Gazing through them is your distain. I close my eyes, the deed is done. Open and wonder where this corpse is from I poke, I prod, and then I taste. I shake my head, at all this waste. The blood is sweet and dark, and red. This one I know was not long dead. I lift my eyes and gaze at the moon. It's almost gone, the day is soon. I leap, I fly, and then I soar. And fall on another with a roar. Her blood is wrong bitter, and cold. I pause, a girl, pretty, not old. I stand to speak, to utter the curse. The night overwhelms her as she starts to nurse. My dark blak blood flows through her veins. Soaking up her all and any pains. Now she's like me a child of the night. The sun's almost up she jumps in fright. At the coming of like she follows my trail. fog matching skin, showing the pale. We slee

Dawn Dances
Dawn Dances cloud embroidered skies sweep the horizon sweep the horizon like a stiff bristled broom maid to land and water step-daughter to the moon a sail covered ocean greets the morning sun greets the morning sun in ever waving furls friend to friend forever a mother and her jewels luminous star of dawn dances in the snow dances in the snow with stardust in her hair ally, friend, and lover a bride must have her groom frolicking moonbeams bow to lovers suit bow to lovers suit must bow to lovers suit no more seen together a

The Dawn Of A New Day
Today the dawn of a new day the sun is bright as it kisses my cheek the wind is cool and crisp as it opens my eyes . Yes today is the dawn of a new day what a great joy it is everything refreshed and new what great new works have been revealed in my life , now that the old things have came and past what great joy this is love and life all brand new yes all brand new the dawn of a new day. T.M.P 2006

Dawn Till Dusk
YOU ARE MY RISING SUN WHO'S RAYS SHINE SO BRIGHT YOU ARE MY RISING SUN WHO MAKES ME FEEL SO RIGHT. YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE THAT LIGHTS THE DAY YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE THAT GUIDES MY WAY. YOU ARE MY SETTING SUN WHO BRIGHTENS AND GLOWS YOU ARE MY SETTING SUN WHO BEAUTIFULLY SHOWS. YOU ARE MY EVENING STAR THAT TWINKLES FROM UP ABOVE YOU ARE MY EVENING STAR THAT WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY LOVE. YOU ARE MY MIDNIGHT STAR WHO I WILL ALWAYS ADORE YOU ARE MY MIDNIGHT STAR WHO I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR.

Dawn
... ... DAWN In my secret world I see, YOU are all that Love can be: Spirit inspiration … Woman love sensations … Imagination’s dream come true. These happy feelings grow with YOU, inside of me; inside of me, I see I am afraid of YOU … I am afraid to feel you, filling my life. I an afraid to love you, dreaming of wife. I am afraid to need you, more than I do. I am afraid of YOU ... Inside of me, I see … I am afraid to kiss you, As the love of my life, I am afraid to want you, As my lover and wife, I am afraid to need you, I am afraid … for then, Can I live without YOU … Again? . . . N O 0 O o o o o … ! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Rhey W. Hedges, August 23, 2005

The Dawn
I've witnessed the dawn ensure, Bid farewell from a cold, forlorn twilight. Soon will be the bright blue sky To envelop the earth. Birds begun to glide in the air, Took swift strokes beyond the wind and their shadows traced me...the hidden me. I've chased, passed through the wings of time ...and captured the real unknown to anyone. I've sought, found and won, Got lost, and left encumbered. Someday, i'll look back at precious moments, and pour once more the pages of yesterday. A time when my pursuit for wisdom and truth would be remembered, cherished and treasured. Reminiscing the past, how i fell and stand These were memories unfold, dreams untold Yet, remain a guiding star, That flickers a hope of tomorrow.

The Dawn Of Inspiration
There on the window sill... ballet with the cigar smoke...but it wasn't what I had hoped for. The coy tendrils were only there to remind me, to mock me. "Get your life together old man." I say to a spackled ceiling... are those skyward pocks the huts of liliputians? If that were the case, wouldn't they fall groundward, floorward, bedward as it were seeing as that's where I was occupied in my chat with the ceiling. Do these liliputions find me to be some hovering God. Some angst-ridden, hair-thinning, birds eye deity of boredom. Am I so upside down... If I tried to touch you tiny worshippers... would I accidentally crush you? Would my benevolence break your fragile bodies. Does my tyrannically rumbling voice terrify your children... Do you live in fear as we do? My hand closes around air... I think to get my step ladder... but think better of it. God's should be invisible but not wholey unheard. Felt, but not reached. You have to use a delicate touch. A soothing, silen

Dawn
The mystifying splendor of dawn Moves the melancholy veil of night Commands the ghostly mists to be gone Banishes the layers of truth and right Once again alone to struggle and battle This staggering land senses the touch Of enduring friendships begging to settle Upon her wealthy shoulders - she judges Faith she had in many a passing Dawn who withdraws his loyalty With the eruption of darkness Casting her into the depths of the abyss Cautiously she permits the warm day of dawn To softly caress and stay

Dawn Of Time
* c. 20,000,000,000 B.C. – The Anti-Monitor appears at the dawn of creation to undo the universe. The Spectre, backed up by superheroes, fights the Anti-Monitor and allows the universe to be created (Crisis). * c. 19,000,000,000 B.C. – The current universe is created by (and in turn creates) The Source (Jack Kirby's Fourth World). * The Endless appear into existence. They appear in order: Destiny, Death, Dream, Destruction, Desire, Despair and Delight. (The Sandman) * c. 18,000,000,000 B.C. – GodWorld is formed. * c. 17,000,000,000 B.C. – Life begins to evolve on GodWorld. * c. 15,000,000,000 B.C. – Humanoid beings on the GodWorld became known as the Old Gods and fought titanic wars. * Imperiex is reborn in the new universe and begins his eons-long destiny of remaking the universe again.

Dawn Of An Apocolypse
Dawn Of An Apocolypse Did you ever think that it rains blood Inside the heart of a vicious monster Did you ever think that time would fade Beneath the still of the last pale moonlight And did you ever think that hate would evolve Evolve into something clever in disguise Can you feel the hate blow up all the heart inside Leave it to rest in peices side by side Can you feel the wind blow as a boy is told Life moves faster than we have time in our hands That a wall of deciet is here to remind us That everything we believe is nothing to believe As syndicate as the soul of the world The world is as dead as the fall is bitter Like a roach underneath the skin Hungered, broken and burrowed in With only the stale taste of sin In the darkest dead of a winter Out of the darkness came a witchy-eyed woman With destiny upon her fragile shoulders Above all things she carried death in her hands She withheld a sword of an apocolypse The destroyer of the human race and t

Dawning Of A New Day
Dawning of a New Day The day grows long And the night falls The stars arise And the moon calls The animals rest And the night bugs play The children sleep And their toys put away The grown-ups chat And the lights turned off The candles burn And the romance aloft The night continues And the day arrives The stars fade And the sun strives The dawn grows And the night mourns Everything awakens And the day is born Brad Christopher Copyright ©2007 Brad A. Christopher

Dawn Out Loving Mother
Dawn Our Loving Mother Mom's smiles can brighten any moment, Mom's hugs put joy in all our days, Mom's love will stay with us forever and touch our lives in precious ways... The values you've taught, the care you've given, and the wonderful love you've shown, have enriched my life in more ways than I can count. Her love is like an island In life's ocean, vast and wide A peaceful, quiet shelter From the wind, the rain, the tide. 'Tis bound on the north by Hope, By Patience on the West, By tender Counsel on the South And on the East by Rest. Above it like a beacon light Shine Faith, and Truth, and Prayer; And thro' the changing scenes of life I find a haven there. Your cry pierced the morning silence All I heard was you. I blocked out the sounds, I blocked out the sights. I see only you. Your tiny hand grips my finger Our eyes meet An instant bond is formed Your smell swirls around my head I begin to wipe off your body Your hair fresh to

Dawn
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Dawning Of The Moon (1999)
Fantasies of life and poetic dreams a simple illusion unknown screams shadowed ignorance and undefined bliss a questioned ritual and deliverance the circus plays a merry tune yet the darkness evades the night my spirit will call me from there and the sacred celebration shall be tonight the mourning of lost serenity and the passion of evil bliss transforms my wisdom allowing the light to twist black separation and sacred rendevous a blight upon intelligence and the dawning of the moon

The Dawn
I look to the sky for rain but my eyes bleed at the sun that burns into my soul. I hang my head in sorrow as my flesh sears from my body as the suns tears through my clothing. Is there no protection from the hate that is cast unto me from the heavens. I am cursed to die the death over and over as every DAWN aproaches my soul is released only to be reborn upon the dusk of eve and travel agian across the heaven to die with the DAWN of each new day.

The Dawn Of A New Era.
Here I am kicking back and relaxing and it hits me. It's 7pm, my football picks are doing well, I turn 37 tomorrow, and, OH YEAH, I start my new job tomorrow! I actually tried to get hired on with this company 2 1/2 years ago. I even got an offer. Then the owners rescinded the offer and I was left out in the cold after a 6 month process. Now there are new owners and I have a new job. And I'm pretty excited about it. Exciting work, good employees, great benefits and better money. What more could you want? Aside from a more sex, but that's not really the kind of job this is. Let's be honest, there simply are not enough jobs out there where sex is really a part of it. Unfortunately. So here's looking at a great week and a new stage in life.

Dawn Of The Dead
This is a few years old. I recently found it and have put it up here. Enjoy: Ok, so I just finished watching the newest Dawn Of The Dead. In my opinion it is one of the greatest zombie movies ever. Here is why: It starts off with a Johnny Cash song playing in the opening credits. Shotguns. Lots of shotguns. Probably the best weapon in zombie killing. Ving Rhames. One bad ass motherfucker! Cute ass redhead. The girl who's dad is bitten and then killed. Sigh, I love the reds. Gore, while not overly gorey, it has a fair ammount :) Humor!!!! That can help make any movie great. Boobs. yes, boobs. While its from a guys perspective boobs can help make movies more pleasant ;) Good effects. While I love the cheesy effects in the low budget movies this one had good ones. Plenty of heads getting blown off. What all good zombie movies need. Chainsaw zombie slaying. The chainsaw needs to be used more. Bad ass old lady. She totally takes some slugs and still s

Dawn
DAWN Dawn, a new day awakens, The sun slowly rises above the horizon, It’s rays creeping up into the sky. Birds are chirping their morning song As they busily hunt their breakfast. Flowers slowly re-opening their petals, Reaching for the sky, The cloak of darkness fades away. As the world arises to golden hues, Go about your daily tasks But keep in your heart The beauty of nature As it wends it path from dawn to dusk.. Dusk - with its majestic colors, The setting sun brings brilliance to the sky Once again darkness settles upon the earth As we await the dawn of a new day and new possibilities. Rita Teubner

Dawn
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Dawn
laying on the grass shadows slowly fade seeing her beauty rise golden brilliance blinding swaying softly with the wind opening to a deep blue enveloping the world shades of fire fiercely passionate yet soft, inviting offering myself the caressing warmth flows about me as a river of silk ecstasy without a touch I shall feel it tomorrow

The Dawn Will Come
When all your world is pain and the last tear has long since fallen There is nothing left to do but start your life again When your life of love has long since past and fallen into night All your hopes and dreams are gone they vanished with the light There is always hope the dawn will come. And with the rising sun new love Just keep your eyes to the east and soon you will see the light New love, New hopes, New dreams And yes just wait and see because soon the dawn will come To make the choice is yours to leave the life and the pain behind take those first few steps ahead and look towards the sun and soon you will see that you are strong and nothing is to hard even though you left it all there will be more ahead There is always hope the dawn will come. And with the rising sun new love Just keep your eyes to the east and soon you will see the light New love, New hopes, New dreams And yes just wait and see because soon the dawn will come

Dawn Of Night
Dawn of Night by LateNiteFantasy© The midnight sky is strewn with pixie dust Magically suspended in infinity Slung low and close enough to taste as our tongues play Connect the dots across time and space Though they are always too far away To reach out and touch, and tie up in ribbon If I could believe the night was velvet And the stars were precious jewels I could finally give you half of what you’ve given me But I stand empty handed and full of heart All I can give you is me As Dawn slices through Midnight’s throat Bleeding sunshine onto the horizon We are what happens to this brand new day

Dawnie
¢¾Dawnie¢¾Owner of Mr.7000000¢¾Proud Member of Thunder & Lightning Levelers¢¾@ fubar She's owned me for two auctions in a row, and she swears she's still not sick of me! I don't believe it either. But if you don't know her, you are missing out! I strive to be half as special as she is, and I still fall way short. This isn't your usual "I love my owner" bullshit blog. I've gotten to know Dawnie over the last few months, and she's probably one of the toughest, kindest, most wonderful people on here. She helps everyone, even the asshats who used her coding skills, then tossed her to the side. I get links every day from her for people she's seen that need leveling. Most she's never met. She makes graphics for her friends, she is always positive when things around her always aren't. I look forward to talking to her every day, and thats no lie. So get to know her, show her love. Let this special person into your life, and you'll be a better person for it.

The Dawn Of The Future
Change is supposed to be a good thing Growing up, I was raised to believe that every American had a voice and that voice was meant to be heard. I am not so sure anymore that those standards apply today. We all still have a voice, but it seems that the voices that drown us all out are the voices that should be working with and for us, not against us. The politicians who have taken an oath to do what is in the best interest of the people have taken it upon themselves to do what benefits them and big businesses. Those of us that work hard to provide for our families and to keep life together on a daily basis are the same people who pay the inflated salaries of politicians who just don't seem to care about us anymore. There was a time when political figures actually listened to the constituents of the communities that they worked in. But those days have been gone for a long time. It's time that we all took a stand. Change starts with us-- Americans are the ones who have built this country

Dawns Thank You
I just have to say that over the last 24 hours of Auto 11's I have experienced True Fubar Love The people on this list could have chosen any number of other people with Auto 11's. But they chose me, and that makes me feel special Yes, I offered a mere 20K for 200 rates, most never asked for the money, some that I sent it to sent it back, and a few kept it sending me their sincerest gratitude My Auto 11's was a great success due to these Most Awesome Friends I can not begin to thank you enough, I truly do have the best friends any girl could ask for.. Thank you so much I Love You All! ♥ Dawn ♥ ☆A K-MÁÑ'§ GÚR£☆@ fubar I would also like all my friends to please go r/f/a this wonderful man. He is everyone's Hero for keeping all Auto 11's user lists up to date DJ Picins420 *Catacones 420Radio* Fugaged to *Such A Beautiful Disaster*@ fubar A very special thank you goes out to my Friend WendyCaroline, a real sweetheart and the one that gifted me my auto 11's

Dawn's Operation Love A Soldier
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The Dawning Of A New Day...
I mentioned that I may have a few more entries to post and well...there should be no surprise. And as no surprise, fubar doesn't want to play nice so this entry will be a jumbled mess with no paragraph breaks. I apologize now in advance. It seems like I may just continue typing til the next day comes, which would make sense to the title of this entry. lol You know, I'm usually not one that's all that great on expressing myself. Well, I do, but not on the emotional level as much or as often as I should. It's a downfall of mine that I work to correct as I type. My actions haven't been the best either, but when you're near a deployment, what's the best or the right thing to do??? It wrecks my head sometimes...Call it the proverbial internal fight or conflict. So now...I gradually place my cards down on the table, curious on how they will pan out, but I can't expect what I hope for. I'm willing to take the risks. For once, I'm willing to. I don't feel like I have to and am gla

Dawn
Like the sunshine after the rain. My eyes have opened feeling the strain. To achieve true joy one must first surpass pain. Holding onto you tight for the ride so insane. So much to lose but everything to gain. Perfectly flawed despair flows down the drain. A fiery match so true it can not be explained. Walking side by side,not ashamed by the stain. Many nights I've pondered and never found a name. One thing that's for certain,we can never be the same..

Dawn
I had been up for a few hours the silent body in my warm bed stirred a few times cooing moans of my caramel skinned goddess between my dirty flannel. I'd light up but the faintest cough, the slightest stirring could let her know I'm awake, and its time to be together again. Still... I can't resist the tug of her infinite charm. Like an exotic perfume luring me, guiding me through the still air on tendrils of lazy rolling smoke. My fervor burning with all the quiet desperation of this candle. Flickering, sputtering, but never unanchored to the sweet well of his lover. Lover... That smooth skin, those parted dry lips... that gasp that escape of ecstasy as my fingers firmly round the finer points. That innocent crease of gently shut eyelids in the realm between sleep and little gasping deaths. Trapped in that moment before a kiss before desperate bodies are entwined one if not for a moment- an eternity. One is not the lonliest number it is the only. Wrapped

Dawn Of The Day Of The Night Of The Evil Dead (original)
Huntin' Down Infected And I'm Choppin' 'Em UpHands Gripped Around My Axe And It's Covered In BloodSwinging Down On Skulls So Disease Don't SpreadA Disease That Turn The Living To The Living DeadGotta Split The Head, The Heart Don't PumpCut It All The Way Off Leave The Neck A Bloody StumpIt's Been Twenty-Eight Days And I'm Still AliveI'm Suprised And I'm Wondering How Long I'll SurviveOr Fall Victim To This Epidemic Becoming One of ThemEither Way It Goes The Future's Looking Pretty DimBut This Will Make A Damn Good Evil Dead ThreeWith The Flesh Falling Off And The Sounds Are Getting EerieI'm Not Bruce Campbell Where's The Camera I Wanna Film ThisWhen The Brain's Severed The Body's Once Again LifelessFor Documentation of Why I Slaughtered These PeopleI Was Killing Off The Dead All The Residence of EvilDawn of The Dead Won't Let Me GoFind The Way And Let Me KnowI May Never Get OutThe Dead Keep Circling Round And RoundDay of The Dead My Darkness FallsBlood Keeps Gushing Out My SkullI Live

Dawn Of The Day Of The Night Of The Evil Dead
Huntin' Down Infected And I'm Choppin' 'Em UpHands Gripped Around My Axe And It's Covered In BloodSwinging Down On Skulls So Disease Don't SpreadThe Disease That Turn The Living To The Living DeadGotta Split The Head The Heart Don't PumpCut It All The Way Off Leave The Neck A Bloody StumpIt's Been Twenty-Eight Days And I'm Still AliveI'm Suprised And I'm Wondering How Long I'll SurviveOr Fall Victim To This Epidemic Becoming One of ThemEither Way It Goes The Future's Looking Pretty DimBut This Will Make A Damn Good Evil Dead ThreeWith The Flesh Falling Off And The Sounds Are Getting EerieI'm Not Bruce Campbell Where's The Camera I Wanna Film ThisWhen The Brain's Severed The Body's Once Again LifelessFor Documentation of Why I Slaughtered These PeopleI Was Killing Off The Dead All The Residence of EvilWhatcha Gonna Do When Your Hunger Turns Against YouNo God To Repent To They Try To Infect YouThey're All Out To Get You Even Your Loved OnesYour Parents Your Children Even Your CousinsSo T

Dawn Breaks
Each dawn breaking as the sun rises Every moon burning bright as the sun when it sets Water burns like fire as ice we cant breath So crystiline with misery, those who walk are not lost I have an understanding of teh sun so bitter and the moon so sqorching Ignorance can bee seen so easily, but understanding takes you beyond ignorance, nieve, and selfishness I see what most can not even comprehend The sun so bitter and the moon so sweet, every shadow, every light, Has there own pain, but I , I understand why each dawn breaks and the moon so sweet

Dawning Of A New Day
Dawning of a New DayThe day grows longAnd the night fallsThe stars arise And the moon callsThe animals restAnd the night bugs playThe children sleepAnd their toys put awayThe grown-ups chatAnd the lights turned offThe candles burnAnd the romance aloftThe night continuesAnd the day arrivesThe stars fadeAnd the sun strivesThe dawn growsAnd the night mournsEverything awakensAnd the day is bornBrad ChristopherCopyright ©2007 Brad A. Christopher

Dawn
Morning and night turn to embraceGolden rays peek out from behind white laceWarm kisses touch the vast landHeaven and earth walk hand in handEveryday the earth greets mornings gloryIt's an unending journey into a fairy tale story

Da Wooden Bowl
The Wooden Bowl I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now. A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year - old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. "We must do something about father," said the son. "I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor." So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl. When the fam

"dawson Street Blues" By Kevin/jack
By the "Gulfton Boys". Mostly country western. 1. Someday Soon 2. Amarillo by Morning 3. Here oh Lord 4. Old Flame 5. The Fugitive 6. Why Lordy Why? 7. Dixie 8. Freddy 9. Folsum Prison Blues 10. The Cowboy Rides Away They have recorded numerous other demos, but I don't have them.

Dax Riggs - Radiation Blues
Bury this and the rhythm of breath, there is only death Maybe you're dead and ya just don't know A shadow dressed only in sorrow Tomorrow might not exist and ya should've been dead Should've been dead like ten times over Like ten times over Should've been dead like ten times over By the hand of your lover By the side of the river should've been dead Bury this song and the rhythm of breath There is only death There is only death, only death These radiation blues sister Gonna make me true Movin' through the bones of you These radiation blues Movin', movin', movin', movin'

Dax Riggs - Dog-headed Whore
We knew the devil's hands We wish the king was dead How we waltzed upon the tombs Down at the carnival I'm a black clown In this prison rodeo Struttin' like a dog-headed whore Hopin' the moon explode Hopin' the moon explode Hopin' the moon explode Little spider left for Germany There's a hell of a whole lot of stars Between you and me Bless those black boots That I kneel before Struttin' like a dog-headed whore Hopin' the moon explode Hopin' the moon explode Hopin' the moon explode

Dax Riggs - Didn't Know Yet What I'd Know When I Was Bleedin'
Knelt a puppet on a string Along the vortex weeping Lord have you heard The roaring dragon eat the virgin I didn't know yet what I'd know When I was bleedin' I seem to forget what I learned When I was fallin' I didn't know yet what I'd know When I was bleedin' Neon ghost in mask and coat My heart is satellite remote When my chemicals go wrong Murder the devil Take his song for my own We sang I didn't know yet what I'd know When I was bleedin' I seem to forget what I learned When I was fallin' I didn't know yet what I'd know When I was bleedin' When I was fallin' Was I flyin'?

Da Xxx Horrorscope :p
Aries (March 21-April 19) LIVES for head massages. ANY part of their head: Lips, Eyelids, Eyes, Tongue, you name it! Aries also likes to fuck in public places during business hours. You need to be open minded with an Aries...If you don't feel like being duct taped to a wall and beaten with live ferrets: Tell Them. Be warned! IF you don't want to be kinky, don't be with an Aries. If you say 'No' too often to them you may lose them as a lover forever. Aries Idea of Heaven Is: Participating in live sex shows for money. Having their favorite human toy win first place in a pony boy/girl race. Fucking as an art form on display in a gallery. They secretly crave to be strippers or Annie Sprinkle. Aries LIVES to be jealous...they also like to coordinate other people fucking. Secretly desire to be fluffers. Aries owned a Violet Wand before it was popular. They are also Sadists. The best gift to give an Aries is designer colored nylon rope in their favorite color. They live to tease and tortu

2day. 20/9/2006
well, tom ashley, & dave came round 2day. They had some fat bud, every one of them have red eye. they keep, fuckin with the stereo. now they are going on about mr Blobby, are they on 'b'? & Tom keep's looking at the cover of a porno case. I said to him. "The picture aint goona change." he laffed & replyed to me(Robert), "She would get a dick." I replyed to, Tom. "It's ffunny you should say that, she get's quite A few." they all started to laff, they do my head in, sometimes. How stoned, Did they look.

A Day
A DAY She sits on the steps welcoming the morning. Quietly watching as others pass by. Thinking what their day will bring. Hers, she knows will be spent wondering. The day moves on without much care. She sits and ponders life's true meaning. The clues she has to this mystery are few, But she knows she loves the challenge, it's so rare. Her heart is tender and true. Not many have seen her soul. She is careful not to show it often For wanting to share her soul is new. The trust it takes to give, It is but a tiny thread, That weaves thicker as time goes on Because that's what it takes to truely live. The day is now over, Up comes the glorious moon. It's beauty is a comfort to her For she knows it brings her lover. by Darla

Day 3
Today was fun, we have been dubbed the "American Pit Crew" today. We performed the things we were taught yesterday, and pretty much had to disassemble and reassemble the robot, in under 30 mins. We managed to do it about 20 minutes, multible times. We learned some new stuff too! Other than that not much else going on! By the end of training we should be dubbed "American Masters". We hope to earn that title, but it will be hard. We've only done the easy stuff so far. Hell we haven't even gotten to how the robot works, or how to control it!!! Oh well. Dinner was good, lots of food though! That's one thing I love here, you will not go hungry eating in the hotel, resturaunts, or even in the Toyota lunch rooms...holy shit the amount of food you get!!! I was planning on shedding a few pounds, guess thats out!! LOL... Well that's about it for tonight, will write more tomorrow! I know the weekdays are pretty boring, but isn't that how it always is, unless you are on vacation? Later G

3 Day
Had a 3 day weekend, went out and got trashy friday night, played poker with the guys saturday night, watched football sunday my 49ers won yayyy. And yesterday just chilled out mostly cept went and watched the game yayyy Broncos. Hope yall have been well, and hope yall havent forgotten lil ole me

Day 1
I had a dream of her last night. It is the first I have had for a long time. Not that I remember my dreams alot but this one I sort of did. She was older. Her hair a little different but it was still her. As Gorgeous as ever. It made me realise that I miss her like hell. Granted I haven't thought of her in the longest time. That dream brought back alot of memories. About what could have been and what should have been. But the dream itself was disturbing. Because at first it was people asking me about her death. It felt so real that I can still feel my heart fall when I think about it. Nothing I do can make it go away. But I saw her in my dream. I saw her like you might see a family member in the mornings or something. Again the heart still gies a jump. I love her... I have always known that and I did get to tell her once. So I have that much at least. She never said it back because she was taken from my life by stupidity (will get to that later on). It is just s

Day 2
I can't stop thinking about her... She has been on my mind all day again. I just can;t seem to chake that picture of her I got from my dream. I went shopping in town tday and I saw a nice necklace in a window and I got this flash in my mind of her so strong that it was like she was standing next to me smiling at it too... So I went in and baught it. I won;t ever wear it but I think she would have liked it. God things are so confusing at the moment... I am trying to live my life and now she comes flashing into it just when I thought that it was getting on track. Nothing doing at the moment...

Day 3
I did it today...I didn't mean to. But he kept pushing me. It wasn't his words cause he is too stupid to say anything that wouldn't flow off my back. But he kept on shoving his hand in my chest. After a while it gets a it much. So I dealt with him. I mean I didn't want to hurt him but I know now he won;t do that to anyone again. But now my friends think I am a bit of a freak. It isn't normal. Althogh some ignored it. Like it never happend. But it did. I used magic on him. For the first time. I have seen it around. Well it is around alot when you can see it. But if you can't it doesn't exsist. If you know what I mean. So it didn't shock me as much as I thought it would. But it also scares me.... What if I was really angry with him. I could have killed him. I don't want to be a murderer....

The Day
The day I met you and saw your eyes You came to me at complete surprise My heart melted like the burning sun I cannot imagine all the fun The years to come The years to pass My life with you will always last No matter what you say or what you do My heart will always belong to you I never knew this could be the day These are the words i'd like to say You stole my heart and now its yours Please walk with me through these doors Share this life with me today I promise you i'll never say Those words you dont want to hear By your side i'll always be near

The Day...
THE DAY WOULD COME I NEVER THOUGHT THE DAY WOULD COME WHEN THE SUN WOULDN'T SHINE AS BRIGHT WHEN THE MOON WOULDN'T GUIDE ME AT NIGHT WHEN THE STARS WOULDN'T TWINKLE WHEN THE BIRDS WOULDN'T SING ME A MORNING SONG I NEVER THOUGHT THAT DAY WOULD COME WHEN I WOULDN'T HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE WHEN I WOULD HAVE TO RELIZE THAT YOU'RE GONE FOREVER WHEN I WOULD HAVE TO BE ALONE WHEN THAT WORDS I'"I LOVE YOU " WOULD MEAN MEAN SO MUCH NOW THAN ANY DID BEFORE I NEVER THOUGHTTHE DAY WOULD COME WHEN I WOULD LOOK AT YOUR PICTURE AND LET THE TEARS RUN DOWN THINKING WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME SO SOON? WHY ARE'NT YOU HERE TO SHARE MY LOVE AND LAUGHTER? WHY ARE'NT YOU HERE TO PROTECT MEAND HOLD ME TIGHT WITH COMFORTING HUGGS AND KISSES? WHY ARE'NT YOU HERE TO GUIDE ME WITH YOUR WORDS?

Day 1
I am looking for a Bimbo, yes...... a Bimbo for me. I am looking for one so much so you can see.... I have a hard time finding a slut, a woman that just want one thing, and that is sex. I am looking for a Bimbo..... One with huge tits, an ass you can rest on and a mouth that don't quit. (for sucking.) Is that too much for me to asked for ??? tell me, tell me, tell me right now.

Day 6
I dreamed of her again last night. It was so nice to see her. She is still as gorgeous as always. That smile of hers. Slightly raspy laugh. Unfortunatley I didn't hear her speak which would have been nice but it was enough. She has had some red highlights done some time in the past. So they look a little faded. But still look good on her. Different. I just wish I knew why I am dreaming about her again. I haven't seen her in eleven years now and all of a sudden she is back in the forefront of my mind. Makes me want to sleep a little more now so maybe I can dream of her again.

Day
I hope everyoned day is doing good. Mine is not that good. I just wanted to let everyone know that i am here and alive and thinking about u all..Hope u all have a good night and sweet dreams.. I will be on off and on but wanted to make sure this gets out now just incase i can't do it later..hugs and kisess to u all.I am so glad to have u all as friends. Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics by www.sexiluv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics by www.sexiluv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics by www.sexiluv.com

The Day
THE DAY WE MET I FELL IN LOVE THE DAY WE MET I KNOW YOU WERE THE ONE FOR ME THE DAY WE MET WE HUNG OUT THE DAY WE MET WE TALKED A LOT THE DAY WE MET I FELL IN LOVE THE DAY WE MET I DIDN'T THINK WE WOULD END UP GOING OUT THE DAY WE MET I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD FINE SOME ONE LIKE YOU THE DAY WE MET WE DIDN'T REALL TALK AFTER WE STARTED GOING OUT

Day 6
T-SHiRT CONTEST UPDATE DAY 6! HEY PEOPLE! iTS NOW BEEN siX DAYS SiNCE i STARTED THiS CONTEST AND UP UNTiL TODAY i THOUGHT i COULD PRETTY MUCH TELL WHO THE WiNNER WAS, BUT DAMN WAS i WRONG!! AS OF RiGHT NOW THESE ARE THE RANKiNGS: WOW LOOK WHO HAS COME FROM BEHiND TO TAKE THE LEAD!!! baltimorevibe Mikey iS NOW iN SECOND PLACE. i WANNA BE YOUR SUPERMAN LOVER iS CLOSE BEHiND iN THiRD! THESE 3 ARE STiLL RUNNNiNG NECK N NECK iN 4TH: !!Blood of a Slave~Heart of a King!!! mobetta dre AND STiLL BRiNGiNG UP THE REAR WE HAVE: ~-Sweet Cherry Pie-~ U.S.D.A Nigga STEVEN DOPSON(THE BLACKEST WHiTEST BLACK MAN YOU KNOW) OK SO THERE iS ONLY ONE MORE DAY LEFT, BUT ANYTHiNG CAN HAPPEN! LET'S SEE WHAT CAN BE DONE iN A DAY!! KEEP THEM RATES & VOTES COMiNG! DON'T FORGET THE 1ST PLACE WiNNER GETS A 3-DAY CHERRY BLAST AND THE 2ND PLACE GETS A 1-DAY CHERRY BLAST!!! link to the contest: http://cherrytap.com/images.php?u=65278&albumid=156643

2day
WELL 2DAY SEEMS A BETTER DAY-I SLEPT BETTER AN DAVE SEEMS IN A BETTER MOOD-WE GOT IN2 LAST NITE OVER HIS KIDS-IT HURT THAT HE BLAMMED ME NOT SEEING THEM THAT DAY-I DIDNT EVEN WANT 2 SLEEP NEXT 2 HIM WHEN I GOT HOME FROM WORK-BUT I DID CAUSE I KNEW IF I DIDNT IT WOULD HAVE MADE HIM MORE UPSET-MOM IS HERE DOING HER LAUNDRY AND I DONT LIEK IT WHENS SHE HERE-SHE STANDS OVER ME WHILE ON COMP AND HANGS OUT IN MY ROOM-GRRR-CANT DO MY NORMAL STUFF 4 SHE MIGHT SAY SUMTHING-MY BOSS HAS BEEN OUT LAST 2 DAYS AT WORK SICK-NICE NOT HAVING HER THERE-BUT SHE COULD BE BACK 2DAY-THERE HAS BEEN ICE EVERYWHERE IN THE MORNING-COLD COLD COLD-2MORROW AM GOING TO LISTEN 2 MY CD ONE BY ONE AND C WHAT SONG I WANT ON MY IPOD-WELL ITS NAP TIME SO GOING TO LAY DONW 4 MY GRAVEYARD SHIFT

Day 3
Today just sucked. I got a call around 9 am from my manager asking me to come in to work early around 2 or 3 instead of 5 like I was scheduled for. So I agreed and went back to sleep. Well then I woke up around noon and got out of bed and did things around my house. Almost skipped breakfast, well i had the cereal and the bowl on the counter and walked away from them, don't remember why. So I ate the cereal around like 1pm. Sat on the couch for a bit crocheting my blanket. Soon it was time for work I had to leave about 2:30 to be on time. I ended up skipping lunch at home, so at work I was silently yelling at myself on how I failed and the like. I made sure I ate a large meal at dinner, but still I felt like a failure. Then I told the bf on my skipped meal and he was like now is not a good time to piss me off. On the way home the voices of the eating disorder and my other mental condition, borderline personality disorder, almost made me cry. They were like you are worthless and

Day 1
The beginning of a different philosphy. I got a new book the other day, one that has been anticipated for quite a while. Its called the Eat Clean Diet by Tosca Reno. She is a world class fitness competitor and personal trainer. She cleaned up her eating program after she turned 40 and realized she was a mess. She lost quite a bit of bodyfat, toned down and now looks great. Its not going to be easy, even though I have been watching my eating program even more recently, I do still have my little slips. This is going to be tightened down even more. Im going to post frequent thoughts and updates as to if this program works for me. Its not a diet, despite the title. Its a complete change in theory and lifestyle. The nice part is, with my skills in the kitchen I know I can make even the blandest food taste good. If I am going to compete at the end of the year, it necessary to start making some changes now. The leaner you get as you approach crunch time, the less dramatic changes you h

Day 5
Wow it's been a pretty good 5 days. I'm a wasted cherry, and i have "67" friends. I will try to keep in touch with all of them. If I don't leave you a message, don't feel bad. :-) I have 66 other friends to contend with. LOL Any way. Uploaded some more pictures, and added lots of comments to my Iraq pictures (just in case you haven't looked recently) Anyway, I'm going to get going. Keep in touch my fellow Cherries.

Day 1
So here I am working at a hill, snowboarding my ass off everyday and what comes along. A movie, a movie about hot tubbing hotties. I wish. It is about dogs. Still fun stuff, so now i am just ripping around on a snowmobile for the next two weeks helping out. Don't worry all, I will still get my fix on the hill. ciao for now

Day 4
Well this is the start of Day 4 without a fag. Hmmm how do I feel? I am not quite sure, me concentration has gone out the window a bit more than it normally was. I am starting to feel the benefits of being able to breathe properly which is probably a good thing. Still feel wiped out and tired but that may have something to do with me attacking the house with a hoover on Sunday for the first time in many moons. I have been getting emails off the no smoking woman in work and did partner up with another guy who was quitting but he has been off all week and apparently folded on the first day. I do have Ruth and Patricia on me case every day asking about how I am doing, which is good at least they are taking an interest. I have the patches so at least I am not entirely nicotine free. But the hardest thing of all is because I am that used to rolling my own I kind of miss that, I did consider just rolling them for the other half but that would be too tempting and because he is still sm

Day 5
Well this is the start of day 5 of no fags, still feeling a bit strange, have weird severe dreams. Dreamt I was a surfer the other night, which is bizarre cos I cant even swim, but it was a bit mental as I was in a place with no waves. Dont know whether its the patches playing fuck with my mind. I was even in bed early last night which is not like me at all, so thats why I am awake at 6ish in the morning. its okay cos I have to work up my flexi time at work, I got told off because I was hours down, so doing me best to make that right. Anyway hardest time for me with this is the weekend as I never managed to get past them, so its going to be a bit of a struggle. So fingers crossed I make it, got the site to play with and some of the store stuff so that should keep me occupied enough not to want one I hope

Day 6
Well i a managed to resist the urge of what I normally do on Friday, smoke lots, it was tough last night as I was so dying for a cigarette but I never give in. I did spend time fixing up the site and doing mindmaps etc which helped keep me mind off wanting one for a wee while. As I said before weekends are the worst. I removed the patch last night and I didnt have no nightmares or strange dreams. I dont know whether I like this getting fit lark, I am up now at 6.38am on a Saturday, this is virtually unheard of i think I will go back to bed in a minute

Day 7
Well its nearly 11am and this is my 7th day without a fag, I had a sudden urge to have one before but I fought it, but that was the first time since Friday night I had one of them, so I am just glad for the patches as I think I would have given in by now, at least if they can get me through the craving stage then I will be okay

Day 8
Well it is officially day eight since I last heard anything from Teddy. I miss him more and more each day and this is proving to be easier than I thought it would be. We are so connected and everything that I know that he knows I miss him. Work was busy as usual and I\'m glad that I got everything done and over with until Monday. After this coming weekend, I should be eligible for a weekend off which would be nice. It\'s getting closer to him coming down for a week in the summer but I might talk him into two weeks that way we can get him registered for college and other good stuff and figure out what he\'s going to do about a job and a car and more... I\'m rather excited though. And even if he has to live with me until he can get his own apartment that is fine. We\'re wanting to do the Wiccan tradition of waiting a year and a day before we live together but he might not have a choice. : Rose said he fell off a ladder Thursday and my back has been hurting ever since. We can

The Day...
She stands alone as the wind blows around her It speaks of the unknown and sends chills to the bone The trees sway from side to side as the flowers mourn like someone died She slowly walks down the street not knowing exactly what she'll meet She was all alone and scared thinking that no one cared She longed for a different place to be A place where happiness comes so easily A place where she would rather be In her mind she'd pretend that she could only hear herself Until she heard a voice say that she can't go on living life this way Her fears and lonliness finally came to an end The day she realized she had a friend....

Day #1
Okay so it's now day 1 and I really miss Teddy like crazy. No he didn't disappear on me again. His roommate Stephen is going on vacation with his family for about two weeks. Sometimes I might feel like I can't do this but I know that I can. I survived 8 days and I know I can do 14. Though I might get a little on the crazy side, I still have friends to see me through. Today I got on the Gazelle and the ab lounger. Last night I joined a site called www.musculartrainingdevelopment.com and its really cool. It offers free advice and other tips to training and exercising. They are really cool. I'm hoping that since I joined that that I won't have problems losing the weight that I need to continue on. Hopefully, my exercising will finally pay off. I just give up to easily I admit. And when I'm not hungry and feel like I should eat, I'll drink water or chicken broth and I could even do more exercising. :) Right now my goal is to lose 5 lbs by May 17th. I know I can do it. Set small go

Day @
Well today made the second day on CT and it was pretty exciting. Not a bad place to hang out and still have fun. I've set back and listen and watch alot on here, and it seems like all are having an awesome time. This is pretty cool, just what I was looking for. Talk soon. Pussycat DollsButtons ft Snoop DoggMusic Videos And Lyrics On Demand

Day #4
Still holding up rather well. I've been rather happy. Making myself busy with other things. Like today, I'm going to Covington to an Antique Mall with my friend Mandy to do a yardsale. No I'm not selling a very special dress that means the world to Teddy. Even though I would not have any other reason to wear it... So by keeping myself occupied I'm less likely to get down in the dumps and cry or something. I'm not saying I don't miss Teddy or that I don't love him. I do miss him and I definately love him, it's just that...I don't need to cry all the time. Anyways...off to make a little extra cash

Day 2
still getting to all of you and so many sexy people out there i will get round you i promise let me know if i miss you if you want to add me madame_roxie@yahoo.com have sexy weeks roxie x ps leave some love for me too

A Day
Pain and Sorrow All from tomorrow The past is a mover and tills The present is still My thoughts on a sill The view is waiting and made Move then sway To return and fade The windows lock so tight The sun was bright Moon in flight Now silence from which to borrow Through skin and marrow God's face is an arrow Of surrender and trust until The present is still My thoughts on a sill The view is waiting and made

Day 1
Its Day 1 back in the states. Right now I am missing him so bad although I have seen him on cam and talked to him on the phone numerous times. Its just not the same not being able to reach out and hold him or to touch him gently. The flight back was horrid, the flight from Frankfurt into Detroit was awful! Being stuck in the middle seat when I specifically requested an aisle seat, I hate climbing over people to get out. On that flight someone became very very sick, they had him in back of the plane then had him sitting in aisle 46 hence I was in aisle 45. Once landing in Detroit they had the paramedics there waiting for him. In Detroit going through customs and immigrations was a pure NIGHTMARE, them asking what I was doing in Germany for 3 mths and how I afforded it if I wasnt working, I had to go through the spiel about 4 times that my boyfriend is German! Then they made me DECLARE my 200 grams of tobacco when that is allowed to be brought, as I stated it was a nightmare. Once I got

Day 2
Day 2 0719 am Well day 2 back in the states. Doesn't seem to be getting any easier yet. I am now at my moms and using dial up, which of course getting my CT addiction in sucks...So friends, if I am not visting profiles you understand why. I am missing Rudi so bad, longing to hear his voice, see him and touch him. Last night I didn't sleep well, kept waking up, hoping I was dreaming and I would be laying next to him. But of course that dream didn't happen. Last night I when I woke up at 230 I wanted to talk to him so bad so I sent him a text to call me, and he did. Hearing his voice makes it a little easier for the time being, but yet makes me miss him even harder! I am one of the luckiest people alive to have what I have, this I know. The only thing is the being away part is so damn hard!!! I don't know what I am going to do to keep myself occupied today, my mom and her husband are at work, and I am at the house and there are no busses near by. I do know I need to find a job to keep

Day 3
0853 Day 3 Well day 3 back in the states. Doesnt seem to be going to much easier cuz I find myself missing my him terribly! Last night stayed at my sisters so I could see him on cam before he went out of town for the week to work. This being on dial up is really difficult on me cuz I like to visit my friends and cant do much right now. I will be back on dsl this weekend when I stay at my sisters again. I need to be getting out and finding a job for the next 3 months just to keep my mind occupied. I have found that sleeping is difficult, I guess once you get used to sleeping next to a warm body and instead waking up to a stuffed animal (yes i am hopeless, its sprayed with his cologne) it just makes you miss that body so much more. While I was in Germany I always woke up before he did and I would just lay there and watch him sleep. Seems so weird to be back in the states having all my friends call just to see how I am doing. Then I am sure they get tired of hearing me say how much I m

Day 4
My Gosh.....wish I could be saying day 83 or something like that here. I just keep wishing things will get a little easier. If I had another connection besides dial up I could go to profiles etc etc etc and kill some time but I dont. Although this weekend I will be staying at my sisters so will be on dsl woohoo! But my main concern for staying over there is my hunni will be back at the apartment friday and I will be able to see him on cam. All this text messaging to Germany is a pain in the butt cuz I cant say half of what I want to say in a text message. He did surprise me the past 2 days and called me from a payphone in Frankfurt. That helped some just hearing his voice yet I long to see him as well. I have never felt such strong emotions in my life, they kind of amaze me cuz I know that I do have true love here. All the times before I must have just been in a caring status.... Just wanted to update a day 4..... on the lighter side of things........ Alles Klar!

A Day
I love the rain. I love the cool wind on my lips and the feel of the mist softly slapping my face. My cheeks. My eyelids. It kisses me and caresses. I love the fog. It comes down from heaven and wraps its cool arms around me. Just to simply embrace me. Ony me. The sound of drops hitting the ground is musical. These drops of rain that have gathered and gathered until they are too plump to stay on that small branch anymore and so these drops hurl themselves to the ground. Coming to land on my head. I often wonder where that small drop of rain once was. What it was before it evaporated. Where it had been. The grass that pops up is new. It is shaggy like a newborn babies crown. It waves and bobs in the wind. I love it. I want to lean down and with my fingertips warm from my pocket, I want to graze it with just the tips. I want to pluck out a strand and keep it in my pocket. The clouds up above are so thick and so fluffy that you can hardly see any sky. It is a grey day

Day 5
Well day 5 back in the states. Tonight I am staying over at my sisters so I am able to see Rudi tomorrow when he gets back to Trier. I am so excited to see him even if it is on cam and not in person. He has been a real angel, called me the past 3 days from a pay phone, it really helped the missing him quite a bit to just hear his voice. Today I went and applied for a damn production job and was turned down because of the conviction I had in 2003. That is so F'd up. The conviction was cuz I was married to the dope man and had gotten a conspiracy charge. But not getting the job due to that was really a downer. I have had jobs that I actually could see myself being turned down for but they gave me a chance. So now, onto looking for absolutely anything just so I can pass time till I go back to Germany. I wish this night would pass quickly because I know when I get up in the morning will be about the time he is getting home.

2day
kk it gettin really close 2 that time now...i have meetin wit my lawyer 2day & if all goes well then i b movin so im very exicted bout that but nervous @ the same time i been dreamin of cats but i cant wait 2 blow this town wish me luck yall eek! =)

Day 9
I think its day 9.... Things aren't getting a whole lot easier being back in the states. Sure I was able to see him this weekend on cam off and on, but it wasn't enough to satisfy me. I sound greedy I know, but when it comes to Rudi, I absolutely cant get enough of him. The other night I was really negative when I was talking to him and that was not a good thing! He straight out told me that if I wanted it to work I needed to try to remain positive for both him and I. Which after some thinking, I must say that I do have to agree with him. Tomorrow I am going to apply for a phone job (doing surveys), because its something easy, and they don't have to invest money in me and wont miss me when I leave in 3 months to go back to Germany. That is something else Rudi said to a friend of mine, is that I need to get a job so I keep my mind busy, its not so much about the money its just when I have nothing to do I sit there and analyze and pick apart every situation there is. He is so optimistic

Day 1
Day 1: I've seen webverts for 10,000 cheery pounds for taking a survey. Upon clicking said survey I found it was not available in 'my area'. This puts me at a distinct disadvantage I feel and would therefore like to claim Cheery pound income support.

Day 3
from havin my surgery. will its been painful but relaxing and not has painful has was before.if that made sense to any of you sexy people.. Today bein the 3rd day... not havin to really worrin about nurses or drs commin in to check up on u. was great.. but again i dont have that choice on gettin the strong meds.. the manly meds.. like i did while in the hosptial.. But that i have to get use to.. right.. will im goin to let u all sexy people go.. (ATTENTION PLEASE) if u all want me to move up to the next level u got to rated my pics that are not (NSFW). because the pic that is NSFW..I WONT GET POINTS ON THEM... OOK.. I WANT TO MOVE UP.. hugs and kisses:x

Day 2
I thought at first that things would be rough. Even though it was a short relationship, it still was a deep, meaningful one ( at least to me ) We're on day two, and I'm not sad anymore. I wasn't even sad last night ( Thanks Angel ) One friend threatened me with violence if I fell for anyone else within the next 4 months. They didn't even want to hear me say I loved someone at least till October or November. *laughs* Last night, I almost did say that to someone. I think it was just the caffeine buzz and lack of food, and I had to run before I said something I may have regretted later. (So now you know the reason, if you are reading this. *laughs* ) Thank you to my friends that listened to my rambles, argued and threatened me ... or who just sat and listened and offered a virtual hug, shoulder and kiss on the cheek. So, as I told a few friends - the Mouse is back. Hidden for a long time, broke free from his cage and is on the loose. :) Now, my friends, you'll see what

Day 1
Well, this is certainly one way to get to know the neighbors! Justin left this morning for the whole week. I slept all day. DonDon left for work around 3. I finally get up all the way around 5. I'm bumming around, washing some clothes. Then around 9 I figure the dog needs to go out and I'll have the first cigarette of the day. So I do. And I am quite proud of myself, right up until I try to open the door. Our front door has a feature that lets you open it from the inside and it's still locked. Yay. So after wandering around to every bloody window in the house, I notice my neighbor is outside in his little smoking bar. (Hard to explain, if you've been here you know what I am talking about.) So I ask him for a screw driver and he very kindly comes over and pops the door for me. Moral of the story: Being alone in the house for the first time in months, REALLY isn't all its cracked up to be!

Day 3
So, here it is Tuesday. (Happy Tuesday y'all! ) I reached the end of level 10 and had to make a salute. Okay, making one isn't so hard. A little scribble on a piece of paper, my handsome mug and off to the happy people of CT to decide if its worthy enough. BUT ... those that know me, know I am a slight perfectionist. Things have to be a certain way. And in no way can I make a salute look sloppy. So, I pondered ( all of 2 seconds ) and bought myself an upgrade to VIC. *laughs* Oh, I plan to do a salute, but I am going to get a few friends to help me design something that I can print out ( to hold for my sign ) - Something ... thats ME! I have noticed my old self has slowly been peeking out again. My close friends are noticing too. Now they are asking me if I am okay. *laughs* OKAY? Am I okay? Have I EVER been okay? *laughs* I am better. Getting stronger as the days progress. I have my friends to thank for that. :)

Day 1
i have decided to bide my time and make certan sacrifices in order to save money for something that i really want. i have 17 dollars and a jar full of change i might spend the change on a necklace but i have religious reasons for that. object controll spening save money to obtain my object of desire. oh yes, i am up tp something and it is bigger than a car, lets get the totals 50 in the bank minus 30 for checks and eposit tickets leaving about 20 in the bank. i smoke and have enough ciggies till next pay day, enough gas in the car for two weeks. i have enough food and all that. every thing in steps and step one controll my money, right now i am not very good at it cause i have not been accountable for a long time. maybe by me dooing this i am makeing my self accontable to you, or is it me since i am writing this diary

Day 2 7-4-07
ok now at the end of the day, i cashed in my change and gave two rides, spent some on beer and now i have a net of 31 and a pocket full of change. maybe this will finally get me to save money...but i am up tp something 2000 is my goal...

Day 2
Well, it has been 2 days since my surgery and I am feeling ok. I had my left side of my nose broken and reset to scrape down the septum to unblock the left side of my sinuses. I had a cyst removed from the right side. It is just all swollen inside and real sore, but I don't have black eyes from it or any change in my facial appearance so it's all good. I just have to rest for a few days and make sure nothing bumps into my nose, sleep propped up for a few days. Thanks for all the well wishes, get well cards, soup and candy yawl have sent me. U R 2 sweet.

Day 4
Well, last night was amusing. After the recietal of all the students who participated in group activities, a metric fuckton of us went to Centre-VIlle for a really cool concert. Then we went to Tour à Bière (and all my drinks were bought for me thank you very much!) and after that (read:2am) we went to go get some food. Well the place just down the road had closed like 5 minutes before so we ended up following the old drunk waiter to another restaurant. *sigh* The **NEW** restaurant ended up being a run-down, greasy spoon, G's on crack. Oh yeah and the food sucked too. Sooooooo after that (read:3am) my friend David and I started walking home because we live near each other and I didn't want to walk by myself in the middle of the night. Totally would have been fine, but (hey its me; you knew there was a but coming) about 5 minutes into our hour long walk, to started to pour. Not rain, not sprinkle, fucking POURED!!!!! I have never been so wet in my life!! Finally got home around 4am and

Day 3
Okay so I told you that story to tell you this story. My whole class took our professor out for lunch and drinks yesterday afternoon. Sooo I ended up at the Tour à Bière again, where I totally kicked ass at a "guess the movie" game in French. Woohoo! I have no life!! lol So anyway, the story. So we had our lunch and my friend Meagan bought me a beer (they actually have beer I like here. Scary!) and after the game I start walking back to school so I can catch the minibus back home. You want three guesses what happened??? One. . . Two . . . Three . . .It started pouring again and I was even more wet than I had been the night before. *sigh* The only good thing was I ended up not taking the minibus parce que my friend Kaleb gave me a ride home. But my new Sketchers are ruined I think and I broke my ChicoutiMère's dryer last night! I know none of you are surprised because, well, you know me but I still have to share. Hehe I am leaving tomorrow at 9:30pm but today is the last day I will b

Day 1
My thought for the day is this: When people join a site like Fubar, is it because they are seriously wanting to meet new people? Or because they have this insatiable need to feel like they are truly popular? What happens when someone like me, who doesn't feel the need to be popular, joins a community full of people who are insecure enough to berate people for rating their pics honestly? I have plenty of friends irl. I don't feel the need to be popular. I view this site as a game. I play the games, rate the pics, vote on the mumms, all for points to buy pretend stuff. That's all. If in the process I meet a friend or two, great! If not, that's fine too.

A Day
A day of sorrow and of grief A day full much of disbelief A day of 5 side brought down by one A day where no one thought of fun A day full and stained with blood A day where rubble looked to be a flood That filled the streets of the city A day with others filled with pity A day where many lives were lost Beneath the fires ashes frost A day where happy would seem insane A day not safe to fly a plane A day where many went up to heaven Yes, I speak of the day September 11 Tara Ljubica Jordan Copyright ©2007 Tara Ljubica Jordan

4 Day
Well, for those who dont know, im in the army and those that have been in or are serving know that sometimes geting a calm 4 day weekend is accually rare. ESPECUALLY(sp?) in a combat arms unit. For some reason, soldiers like to drink(ALOT). I dont know why, which is a lie. The only that erks my nerves is the drinking and driving that soldiers seem to do. LUCKLY, last weekend and this week no one has gotten a DUI. which is a change because i havent gotten to be able to enjoy a 4 day weekend in a while and ya. the 29th was my aniversery with da wify(celibrating 3 interesting yrs). Only reason its interesting is because of the army. But lets see, for those who have been around at least for a minute know what when one gets the time off they deserve(considering ive been working my ars off for the past few weeks) i defantly like to be able to relax. So, what are my plans. Tonight, the wify and i went bowling, grocery shoping, and now im just relaxing in front of the puter since she is in

Day 2
As most of you know from just talking to me or reading previous blogs my mother has been very sick, she had cancer which is now in remission but the radiation treatment messed up her intestines. She had part of them removed. Shes was in the hospital for almost 8 weeks. On the first day whatever could of went wrong did. I wont go into detail because its not very pleasant. We have a great nurse thats comes in. Shes very helpful and patient. Shes teaching how to take care of my moms machines and other things. Now the family everyone seems to know whats best but when it comes down to it no one wants to step up and say hey Ill spend the day with her so you can have a break....family you gotta love em. Well I think Im done babbling just had to get a few things off my chest.

A Day
Wow... What to write in this thing... I can't even say that I really want to do this, but I know if I don't then it will never get going... Went to the State Fair here, had about 20 mins of fun and then it was killed... I think it had to do with not having someone to go with that's not part of your family... Not to say that my family sucks, but... There's something different going with someone your dating or at least interested in. So anyway, after awhile I was depressed and bored... ( side note: What the hell kind of place is this really? Is it for dating or what? Because looking on this thing just makes me think that you should be getting fucked by someone) * sighs * I really should be getting to bed again, but I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep. I just need to force myself, so that's what I'm about to do. Since work calls in a few hours.

Day #1
OK... this is day #1 without drinking Pepsi!! Just to think I thought that quitting smoking was fucking difficult!! Of course... quitting smoking obviously didn't work... but hey... I have cut back!! Now... what am I going to do with myself and this unbearable longing for that sweet, fizzy, semi-caffeine rush quencher? Been drinking water and it's just not cutting it!! I'm so going crazy!! But I just keep telling myself that if I can just stick with this, I can lose most the weight I'm aiming towards losing! That and probably save some money in the long run!! this cold turkey shit is for the birds!! But I'm doing my best at sticking with it!!! GRRRRR!!! sooooo... fair warning... if I seem at all bitchier than normal... yeah... now you know why!!!

Day 4
It's day 4 since the surgery. It's getting easier, still a lot of pain. I hope it goes away soon. Painkiller isn't doing that much, but I'm dealing. I can't wait till I can do something other than stand,or lay down.

Day
Day Wake up....smile at my dream....stretch Growl while my coffee brewed. Stare at the two audacious doofus dogs at my feed whining for food before my coffee. Wonder why I have these two dogs. Plan a way to dispose of these dogs. Feed the damn dogs. Sip my coffee while wrapped up in my thick cream robe Make waffles Feed twirps Send the boy twirp off Twist the girl twirps hair into a bun... Watch her add entirely too many accessories Laugh out lout at LEAST twice in the short drive to her school. She is a funny get. Come home Slide my eyes over the kitchen...still clean (it's a miracle of friggin nature) Wade into the piles of never ending Laundry Finish my Chapter outline on birth orders. Log online. Growl. Dust off my red 4" Jazzberries. Sit back and try to figure out how to get my fabulous Jazzberries up someones ass who is 2895.84 miles away. Research discount shoe cleaners online. Flutter when I see him. Put my

Day 5
Hey everyone, Have been having more time to learn how to do things on here. Helps pass the time. I hope you start to rate my stash as I have just been enlightened by someone about it. Thank You, you know who you are.

The Day
Well i finaly did it.....I am now the proud wife of the most wonderful,man alive.We have been dating for 6 years and living together for 5 years so i think it was about time.He is the only person in this screwed up world that we call life that gets me for who i am,and is totaly cool with it.

Day 8
It is now day eight with no word from my best friend. Not even her closer friends have heard from her, and this is making me even more worried. Now i dont know if her friends are just not saying anything or what, but if they are, thats messed up. I wish she would call me, or her family, were all really worried about her. we just want to know if shes safe. i miss my best friend. she means the world to me and i just want to know if shes safe...i dont know what else to do.

The Day
the day was here when you learn the ture and the day you get hurt . when the day comes you lose love . and you become the lonely one that you was before you became before love came in your heart that day . so now you are hurt and crying . then you remember the days that you was before the day . those day was the wild life . but you will never change because people will not let you change so the day you was the bad person you will always stay that way . because you are a person that will never change so live the days getting old and alone . the day will come to die . then the end of the day is here and gone . good bye . done but christine

Day 1
Well, this weekend was our first weekend living together. We had first to meals together. We no corner tops and cabinets, but the range and refrigerator is working. Wishing our dishes in the sink and bathtub. It's a little fun. After my next exam, I clean out the last of stuff at my parents place. Kathy going to order our cabinet and we should have them put by Saturday. My network is setup my computers can come over. We order our bookselves and new entertainment center for the living room and then it will just be putting our stuff away. Life werid!!

Day1
omg..i already have a huge headache..and i am getting sick...its 2:28 pm and i already wanna pop the top on soda..i mean i know its crazy but i am addicted to it..and i need to get off of it..so yah..and i havent been eating junk food....so i have been eating sushi rice, tempura, salad, and salmon...my body hurts and my head hurts...i have bben burning sage to keep negativity out..and i have been trying to do stuff that keeps my mind off of my addiction...so far 1 day...is down and counting..

Day 1
Maybe you don't read poetry. Maybe this clear singing on paper is a sound you have heard only dimly, if ever, muffled in the dull thuds of rhythm, singsonged into a rhyming trance. But my songs are more pennywhistle than opera, more drum than symphony. And if you've ever breathed in the gray mist of a wet November and thought it a fine day, if you've ever wondered what the mice must think, or dreamt of speeches from the dead, if you would swear by all things holy that stones hum to themselves on hot, still days, if beauty to you is the cracked calluses of gnarled hands and love, the sweetness of silence, then you already know what I do.

Day 2
Cleanin the junk drawer... My mind is a jumbled mess of pencil nubs, a galaxy of knotted rubber bands, dispensers stuck without tape, happy meal artifacts, screws and bolts from things that manage to stay whole. I can’t concentrate. Sometimes I find pleasure peeling wallpaper, strips of vines and sexual flowers. Other times I make lists of things that need fixing. Or I drink. Tonight, with not enough to get half drunk, I stare too long at a chunky wooden puzzle on the table. A six piece circus scene with seal and tiger, elephant and clowns. The ringmaster is the one I become. I train squirrels that cuss me from a perch of oak, full of vim. We travel through the south and book state fairs. The Amazing Unicycle Squirrels. I slip them licks of mixed nut paste laced with a gentle sedative. I wear them like a gray fur coat and pass a rusty tin for tips. I shut the drawer. Truth is, I’m avoiding the news again.

1 Day
if 1 day i came to u and told u i was scared, i said i was dieing yet i was so unprepaired... would u hold me close while i start to cry, or wuld u go away n not even say goodbye.... wuld u smile an say that id b ok, or wuld u get scared n run away... if it was u id cry right along, i wuldnt go away 4 u id b strong... id smile n say yull b ok, cuz friend ill be there every single day

Day 1
Day 1: So, after a few trips to Switzerland, I got sick of looking at my boss's 1956 Corvette, sitting on a lift in the garage, not having been touched since it was crashed in a race over two years ago! Background: My boss's first race car. Hit got hit at about 85mph. The frame is bent, body cracked up real bad (It's all fiber glass).... Well, put it this way. The motor shifted over about three inches.... Got to love racing. He walked away. To continue, on my last trip I found out he had another frame sitting in his other garage! I pulled it out of the rafters, stripped off the remaining parts, and sent it out for powder coating. Now the project begins. It took longer to clean off the three inches of dust that had accumulated than to get the car prepped for "separation". I figured out a way to suspend the body from the ceiling (I know, kinda backyard), then lower the frame, engine, trans, and pretty much everything else on the lift. Very surprised to find I didn'

Day 2
Today went as well as yesterday! I again got a very late start (up too late posting on fubar I guess). Plus a few other little projects around the factory that needed attention first. Now, without a body.... there's not much left to the car. Four bolts and the engine and trans. come off together. I used the forklift (yes, backyard again) seeing as how there isn't an engine hoist... yet. Plopped it on the ground with some support, then started making the comparisons. The new powder coated frame is off of a '61. Still a C1, but of course, a few minor changes from the previous models. Some for the better. I'll also have to make some modifications for the roll cage. Because the front took such a hard hit, the front cross member bent, which is also the part you suspend the control arms off of. Anyone who's seen how large/thick this piece is (there's a pic of it on the new frame) will know how big of a hit this was. So, a spare of those was sent and came back from powder coating

Day 3
Another successful day in the shop. I got the entire rear axle, rear suspension, and brakes off in one shot. Surprising, only two bolts broke in the process. A quick pressure wash and I removed the fifty years of build up off the whole assembly. Tomorrow, I'll good through, inspect all the parts, and give them a quick paint job. I've already ordered all new bushings for the spring hangers, sway bar links, and new axle straps. The shocks are being measured and new ones are on order. In the mean time, it's hurry up and wait for the parts to come in. If they don't come in within the next few days, I'll hang the assembly up temporarily, to get the chassis off the lift (got some other projects too ya know). Anyways, a heat job to the busted bolts and they both came out without a fight. I switched my attention to the front suspension. The R/F is gone. Only a few parts survived the crash, and even they are subject to a very close inspection to ensure their quality. At this point

Day 4
Today I got a lot more accomplished with project `56. I removed the remaining pieces and parts from the old frame. The front suspension, even the damaged side was taken off. Having never experienced this style suspension set up, I thought it would be a good idea to disassemble the damaged side first, just for a trial run. I even read through the service manual first to get an idea with what I`m working with. It`s a complicated system, but broken down, I could see where we could run into trouble if not careful. I searched the frame for all remaining clips and retainers. Good idea to save all those pieces saved, even if you plan on replacing them. With a little help, we got the frame out of the shop for the first time in years! Woohoo! Organization is key, so I cleaned up a bit, and got ready to start fresh tomorrow. I got the water pump off of the motor as well. This was ness. so I could replace the front motor mount cross bar. The cross brace sits behind the water pump. I clean

Day 9
This is my 9th day of dieting, I just finished a 20 minute cardio workout, I am Hot and sweaty. BUT I lost a inch in my hips and waist YAY, no idea if I lost weight my scale batteries died. Could be a good thing. Well I am off to take a shower.

Day 1
I sent out a bulletin on myspace announcing my profile here to which my brother replied and laughed at the FUBAR name sharing the definition of the word - the letters being a acronym for 'fucked up beyond all recognition' which i suppose could be true considering it is a internet bar. *smile* I forsee a new addiction in my life, 'Fubaritis' adding to my current issues with insomnia. I am still learning my way around and am here to explore and make new friends. I am from Texas (the Dallas Metro area) but I have traveled a good bit through out the continental U.S., Canada, The Yukon, Alaska, and a brief trip to Russia. Be friendly, stop by and say hello. ;)

2 Day..
college life of a lost and lonley man...Its funny how I have always been a day late and a dollar short. I some how pulled out being an RA this semester. I barley got my app in on time and didnt get called as the first pic. However I got called the day tranning started to be an RA but couldnt make because im in the reserves and had drill. I'm partying several nights a week and drinking under age... running from cops at partys and talking my way past a securtiy guard who caught me carring beer...I have been a wingman more than once including sleeping with a girl that...well i didnt really want to sleep with so my buddies could steal the beer...lol college right... Im really just looking for a good soild girlfrind who will cuddle up with me and watch a movie after a long hard day...I'm working my ass of being an RA working on campus taking 15 hours of class and being in the reserves.....I need some one stable and loving... I'm not sure what im doin here..(here being in general)

2day
1. for those who wondered about King Jared... well he's off the computer for a while. School work, things he needs to do. Not sure when he'll be back but when he does I'm sure he'll change his status to show he's back. 2. my work/ not according to my publisher but according to myself... I'm very behind... I wanted the story to be done by now and just work on the pictures. I have pleantly of time but i'm going to cut myself on the time i'm on fubar and internet in general... that includes city of heros. 3. yesterday I was sick... I'm only sharing this because I got sick for the fact that I didn't have any coffee at all that day.... god damn if I ever stop having it i'll have to ease off of it... it's my drug. lol. Could be worse but well i'm glad it's not.

Day 1
yeah...i pretty much sucked today. spilled a whole till at work...all that effin change on the floor...had to pick it up..recount it...then i rented movies...left them in the office...pretty sure im gonna get hit with late fees. drunk guys hitting on me...wait..ugly drunk guys hitting on me.. working at a grocery store...sucks the big one

Day 1
For those of you who don't know, and that would be everyone reading this, because I told noone that today (March 26th 2008) would be my first day as a non smoker. I chose this day, as it is the Day after my Birthday, and like some else did, I did not want to be a miserable pick ON my birthday. Anyways, So far, I woke up and was craving, And I reminded myself, that I was not goin to smoke today. I got outta bed, went and made a pot of coffee..... And that's when the first "Oh shit" took place. I generally get the coffee started, turn it on to brew and go out to have my first smoke of the day. I can't tell you what I did instead of smoking, But I know I didn't smoke. After that, Things got tough. The cravings would wash over me. My muscles would tense tight enough, I am sure, to stop a bullet. My skin felt like it was crawling, Long story short, the height of the craving is a par to being elctrocuted by your standard 120V house outlet. To get through those intense cravings, I

Day 1 2008
Well didn't do much of anything today, other than spent lots of time on the phone making calls back home. Got an email from my son though so all in all it was a pretty good day. I think. So I will try and post more and more in the days to come.

Day #2
Well, I just woke up, And My coffee is extra strong. The Dull ache of a craving is sitting in my gut, and I sip Coffee. Today should be interesting, I have to be at work 8 hours. I can't decide whther I shold bring a couple smokes with me, incase I feel the need to kill, I can go and have one. Ir if I just Leave them at home, and Kill when the need comes. ANyways, I will NOT Smoke today. I just have to remember that.

Day #3
I Smoked yesterday, Day #2 in FAR Worse than #1 craving wise. Rather than a roller coatser of craving it is one insesant dull ache of a craving, and when sitting idle at the bus stop waiting to go to work, with what felt like the whole world smoking around me I buckled. THOUGH, I will NOT Give up, I will restart Tomorrow morning, as day #1 will be at home, AND Day #2. I may have better luck.

Day
Day A star lights up the east anew to paint the sky from black to blue. Heralding forth a brand new day while the morning bells toll away; the music echoing flaming hues. The fat old sun shines bright and true, burning the sky an azure blue; painting the day in it’s noon-time play. _______________A star reigns high. Ribbons of color in glorious hues, wispy orange dreams on a field of blue; all fading to a mottled gray, summoning the end of another day, with the promise of the morrow new. _______________A star lay down.

Day 3
I started a special diet thanx to my awsome friend Robin. I am now on day 3. I lost 4 lbs already. WOOHOOO TY TY QUEEN ROBIN If u r interested in a diet that really works here is the link http://www.idiet4u.com/diets/sacredheart.html Please show Queen Robin some love if it weren't for her I wouldn't be getting healthy again she's awsome. Queen Robin@ fubar

Day2
Really enjoying my time with the girls here, still sore from the spider bite, dayum looks rough too. My better-half started her kemo yesterday, really takes a toll on her and with me being down too makes it that much more difficult. I set up the bedroom yesterday before Hotpantz got home from the doc, I set up some flowers she had received from co-workers, set up the bed so she would be plenty comfortable and decorated with some things the girls and I made for her. Made my first successful batch O' cornbread last night! LOL really added a nice touch to Bar-b-que chicken, pasta salad and veggies. her appointment and next treatment is today @ noon, double dose so I will be driving her there and home. Yall show her some love and support if u get a chance she is HotPantz76!

Day 2
its day to the auction and i've gone from 50k to 200k, come on now i know my friends can do better than that. this is ur chance to own me and make me basically ur fu salve for a month or more depending on ur bid. my offer is on the pic, but it is subject to change based on bid... negations can be done.

Day 2
There was no day 1 were not skipping it just to tried to make 1 so day 1 n 2 are bloged as one. Friend sent me a invite to join this place pretty crazy. zombiegirl sent me a invite to GODS FORSAKEN and tell ya what if you ever get a chance stop by at nite there a kool crazy @$$ crowd to hang with help me thur the nites when im at work better then sitting there bored out of my mind. So other then that i sent some invites out to friends hoping they join and i see you in GODS FORSAKEN lounge to share a few drinks and stories.

Day 2
River Falls Recap: Saturday, 7/26 AM Practice Justin Olson - WPI By C.E. Wendler Warpaint Illustrated Columnist Posted Jul 26, 2008 Saturday, July 26, 2008 - Morning practice, 9:00 AM – 10:30 AM Clear skies and temperatures around 70 degrees greeted the Chiefs today as they finally hammered out a real practice inside the stadium. Dozens of Chiefs fans also showed up, the largest crowd at training camp thus far. Also in attendance was Chairman of the Board Clark Hunt. QUICK HITS When the Chiefs began 9-on-9 drills today, rookie Brian Johnston replaced Tamba Hali at right defensive end with the starters. On the other side of the line of scrimmage, Mike Cox joined the first-team at fullback. Defensive Coordinator Gunther Cunningham looks like he’s obsessed with fixing KC’s run defense, which ranked 28th year ago. He was extremely animated during a gap-control drill with his linebackers early today, and was again vocal during 9-on-9’s when his defense gave

Day 4
Monday, July 28, 2008 - Morning practice, 9:00 AM – 10:30 AM QUICK HITS Watching Herm Edwards play quarterback is easily one of the most entertaining parts of training camp, so when he started loosening up that howitzer again today, a crowd of fans approached the nearest fence. For a 54-year old, Edwards’ arm isn’t bad at all, and the raw enthusiasm he brings to the activity – yelling out mock signals under an invisible center, putting his assistant-coach backfield into motion – is just plain funny. “Herm the Quarterback” ran pursuit drills and threw interceptions to defensive backs this morning. As you’ve probably heard, defensive coordinator Gunther Cunningham is coaching KC’s linebackers this year, and he’s often stereotyped as someone who just yells a lot, but watching him with his new position group today, his attention to detail is remarkable. Cunningham ran a six-man drill focusing on linebacker zone drops this morning. Simple, right? Just backpeddle to a spot on th

The Day
I had a great day. I had two awesome interviews for a job I think I might get. I bought smaller jeans. So why am I not dancing around in circles? Because, no matter how hard I fight to declare my single-dom, a great day really is nothing without someone to tell it all to. That red couch you all have seen? It sits empty most of the time. I can't bear to sit on it alone, aware of how much real estate is spanning out next to me. It can't be just anyone. Who is it? Someone I have yet to meet? Someone I've just met? Someone who has been there a long time? I don't expect answers to anything...just needed to purge so I can sleep.

Day 5
As some may know I live in the area that was directly hit by IKE on Sat. My family rode it out I left friday afternon with ED and Jeremy. We headed to a friends out at Indian Lake in Dewyville. We got hit pretty bad. hardbtheret

Day 1
Well today is day one on my journey to lose some weight. I weighed myself and measured myself at four points on my body, points that I feel that I carry most of my weight...I'm sharing this with you in hopes that if I tell my friends I won't back down and quit before I get the results I'm looking for... we'll see! Here are my measurements: Height = 5' 11" Weight = 227LBS Chest = 46.5" Waist = 44" Hips = 41"

Day 1
okay just got this set up and tryen to stay awake since now instead of being cancealed like they told me this morning they call back later today to tell me oh no you do work 12 hrs tonite. Great no sleep and have to work, just about told them to f off but didn't really need to bloody money. So off work here in about an hour hope I can stay awake all bloody nite. Well add more on here later. me

Day 2
Well survived working last nite and this morning. Plus getting text from hubbie regarding our pup having puppies by 7 am today she had 8 live births and 1 dead one. 4 boys and 4 girls so she did a good job. She really doing good taking care of them. I got some sleep this morning layen on the floor next to her and the babies. When they whyin sounds like pack of wolves off in the distance really wicked. I have pic up later today or later this weekend not sure when. chow for now.

Day 2!
Hello One and all! I'm back...ok the newbie is back,yes,yes. I just wanted to let all you Fu People out that eating a whole turkey for Thanksgiving isn't a bad thing,just be thankful for toilets! HAPPY THANKSGIVING FUPEEPS!

Day 2...
So it is the day after working out..and I'm a little disappointed in myself. All things considered I am marginally to very little sore. I see that I didn't push myself hard enough to actually affect change. So, I have done enough exercise to feel the hurt (the good hurt all body builders, martial artists, and general health nuts know about), but it is so meager that I feel I have let myself down. So it's time to bring it for Plyometics. My goal is to complete the exercise all the way, and with all the intensity I can bear to handle. We will see what tomorrow offers. I hope I don't let myself down again.

Day 3....
So I awoke to my legs as planks of timber. They were hard to move and very sore. They were not sore as in over worked sore...just sore. I lost a pound, so we're on the right track. Today I work shoulders and arms. We'll see how that goes.

Day 4
Well here it is the end of my fourth day in Dundalk. I am stoked that the move has went well so far, though I do miss my Ohio friends dearly. They are my family, especially since myown blood relatives seemed to disown me (their loss). I am in the process of aclimating to a new pace of life. Even in this larger metropolitan area, the pace of life is much slower then what I am used to and I need to remember that the entire world does not work at the same rate. LOL

Day 4...
Okay...my core is pretty sore, and my arms are feeling it, but my legs are recovering nicely. Work has been pretty hectic, but I am coming to a slow point here real soon, so I'll probably pop onto yahoo by tonight or tomorrow night. Can't wait for my pay check....probably going to take the family out after I get paid, who knows. So I'm off to do yoga and workout my stabilizer muscles. Time to bring on the pain....grr...

Day 3
so what should you value more in your life the love of a man who you have invested time, money, blood, sweat, and tears with. a man who you thought was your knight in shining armor. the one who treated you like a princess every waking moment for the first few years. a man who when i told him i was pregnant he cried. the first time i had ever seen a tear come from his eye. at that moment i thought my life would be bliss. i found a man who seemed as though he worshiped me. i had never had that in my life. i grew up shy trying not to get in peoples way so i wouldnt have to hear the cruel remarks about my weight or my clothes. if i would or could have been a little more assertive. i decided in high school if i didnt make a move i would never have what i wanted. for the next 7 months of my pregnancy everything was great, except his drinking. i have so many people in my family that are alcoholics i thought it was natural. i remember going to the hospital the day of my c-section,

A Day...
A day we will all remember, A day which tested our American Pride, A day that showed others that we care about each other, And a day which will live in infamy, A day that showed me how much love there is in America, A day that showed the risks people are willing to take for others, A day that showed, no matter what, there is always someone out there that cares, And a day that displays the love God has for me, This day which will always be remembered is September Eleventh, A day that has changed entirely who I am today, A day that has changed each American heart, Even if they do not show it, A day that has me wondering why I was left here, Why was I not chosen to go, A day that has left me entirely thankful for everything I have, And a day that I will always remember as being blessed by God.

The Day...
Born to push you around Better just stay down You pull away He hits the flesh You hit the ground Mouth so full of lies Tend to black your eyes Just keep them closed Keep praying Just keep waiting Waiting for the one The day that never comes When you stand up and feel warmth But the sun shine never comes, no No, the sun shine never comes Push you cross that line Just stay down this time Hiding yourself, Crawling yourself, You’ll have your time God will make them pay Take it back one day I’ll end this day I’ll splatter color on this gray Waiting for the one, The day that never comes When you stand up and feel warmth But the sun shine never comes Love is a four-letter word And never spoken here Love is a four-letter word Here in this prison I suffer this no longer, I’ll put an end to this I swear This I swear The sun will shine This I swear This I swear THIS I SWEAR!!!

Day 1
So I'm on a work trip, in Canton Oh of all places in the middle of winter. Not sure if I should consider this punishment or a vacation, lol. Oh well, with being here over 2 weeks I'm sure to learn my way around and see whats up in this place. Hopefully I'll make a friend or two and keep myself from going crazy. Feel free to leave me some love cause I'm sure to need it.

Day 2
alright, day 2 here in Canton. Last nite was boring. Ended up going and checking out the mall, yea that was exciting. Hit up Chili's for some eats, but they look at you like your retarded when you are by yourself, lol. i guess today is my first day of school. so 8-5, then the rest of the day is mine. not too bad, but we'll see how it goes.

A Day
The day begins watching a sunrise that strongly resembles a Thomas Kincaid painting. With the orange, reds, blues streaking through the clouds. The only thing missing was the ocean and the lighthouse. The clouds roll in thicker ruining the moment, but define the day. The temperature wouldn’t be that bad but the wind is blowing. The sun tries to peak out every once in a while creating a battle with the clouds. “As I ponder weak and weary…” the wind sings and the clouds hypnotize giving actions to thoughts from dark corners. Corners that you thought were hidden and buried deep. People you haven’t talked to in years or how life is pushing ever onward. Wondering if it has a life of its own, breathing, bleeding, thinking, creating, destroying, and feeling. The radio plays songs that feed the mood “ Lonely Road of Faith” “In Memory” pulling the trap door ever more efficiently, adding weight to clouds. Reminding of th

The Day
from the corner of my eye your face shines i take a look and you were gone my heart trembled for i know now i will never lay eyes upon you again at days and weeks travel around me the thought of that glimpse has never disappeared i know that somehow, someway our path's will once again meet till then wait the day

The Day
He got to see her again today. Tomorrow, he thought, would be the day he finally spoke to her. But what would he say? He knew his best thought out topic would be blocked by his inability to speak when in her presence. He had to figure out a way to get around this. Maybe he could imagine her as someone else, someone easier to talk to. Thoughts of using his mother’s image for this purpose made him cringe as he obviously could not ask his mom out on a date. A couple days passed in the process of building the perfect image. Even though he had missed his next day goal, he thought it worth it to be able to speak to her. His efforts would soon be realized. He would use the image of the girl in sales to make his move. The day finally came when all was right for him to put his plan into action. He approached her with the confidence of the cowardly lion from the Wizard of Oz. He began to speak to her but instantly fumbled his opening line. His plan was not working. He could only s

Day 2
well today started off good, got the girls up, their hair done, breakfast cooked, and off to school on time, a little later than i wanted too, but still they were on time. and their clothes even matched ( i think), then went to the gym and ran 2.5 miles and off to work. while i was at work i got a few calls and text from my wife. she found out that i quit my job and went to work for my friend. she was kinda being a bitch. whatever. then like a dumbass, i text her a little later and told her i was thinking bout her and i missed her and i still love her. she sent me one back that said she loved me and what she is doing right now is for the best. as the day went on those words repeated over and over in my head. than it hit me best for who? best for the kids cause now their little sister is going to be raised in a different house than them? best for me cause my life is flipped upside fucking down and as stupid as it sounds i love her and miss her? or best for her cause she now lives at her

Day 3
well had today off, and found out i am off until tuesday. which sux cause im used to the monday thru friday thing,and i could use the money, but after that ill be back to my regular schedule. i had a regular morning with the kids, and my wife brought my youngest daughter Lilah to me, so we hung out at my house all day. it was the first time since all this shit happened that i have had her. i miss her bad, i didnt want to take her back, but she has to take breathing treatments for the next few days and all of her stuff is over there. so im gonna get up in the morning and drive out there to get her after i drop my other ones off. i cant wait. it was good watching all of my kids play together. you never realize the little things till they are taken away. my wife is still being real short with me, when she sent me that email last night, she told me all the things that i did to drive her away, and she also said that my oldest kids are almost out of control. she hasnt ever been around kids b

Day 2
Day 2 of being a drain on society is going rather well. I'm being a complete waste of space. I am sitting across from 2 baskets full of laundry that I could be folding and am purposely not making eye contact with them. I have now seen Madagascar 2 about 7 full times in 2 days and I have seen more Dora the Explorer I can take. My new existence is mind numbing, but I like it.

Day 1
well after a long ass flight and an almost missed connection in Atl i am here in Hawaii. 6am my time and can't sleep. rained in the middle of the night. first time in awhile i have heard that sound. Suffering from nasal congestion thanks to the over poluted San Fran air. the moment i walked off the plane i started to suffer.

Day 2-4
Day 2 bus was an hour late picking the 18 of us up. we had to call to get them to come and do it. organized this place is not. my two roommates both speak english and are leaving in two weeks. means i get the place to myself for at least a week. Lots of nice people on here. Swells are very high but no seasickness yet. crew food sucks but is filling. everything cost money even a glass of water at the bar. going to walmart in the Am. need to pick up odds and ends that i forgot. Day 3 got off the boat and went to walmart in the rain and cold. Had a "fireside" chat with HR and the safety officer today. heard some stories. found out where the crew bar is and the internet cafe. cant wait to get this week over with and into the kitchen. Day 4 in safety class today. talk about boring. crew movie is the transformers. i have now seen it 3 times today. food sucks again. no surprise there.

Day 2
well technically it's day 3 of me getting my body in shape. i'm heading to the gym in a few. second time i'll be going without being forced woo! i've survived so far. i'm starting off with two times a week. i was going to go this friday but i'm driving back home next week i'll go three times a week. then after a few weeks of that i'll go 4 times. fun stuff. my goal is to lose 15lbs. wish me luck

Day 6
Had a busy night last night. did not get out of class until after 8pm. Hit the crew bar. talk about cheap. 1.75 a bottle. the place has a pool table, a few big screens, and a shitty dj. passed the first aid test with a 96. Today was all about fire fighting. boring as hell. got a 92 on the test. Stuck on the one island that it is not safe to debark on. the local hate the cruise workers and a few of the workers have been put in the hospital. A wonderful view from the smoking deck. looks like rain is on the way again.

The Day
Feeling my smiles fade, you stood by my side. You granted me something, noone else could.Drawing out what was underneath the fake smiles and weak gestures of happiness.You carried my fears and unhappiness on your shoulders, just so I could feel again.Placing me on the furthest cloud, so no harm could capture me in it's ugly grip.I can still feel the weight being lifted, everytime I see your face, even if just in my thoughts.A long distance once kept us physically apart, but you have always been by my side.With the darkest moments, you smile and take my hand and lead me into the heartfelt light.Away from danger, you embrace the love I carry hidden, with just who you are.One day you will find in you what I see, as everyday passes my real smile stays in place.I have you to thank for taking me into your heart when noone else would....Always and forever I will always cherish that day from the past when you walked into my life. Written for Fairiesub with love ~Linda R Frieburg~

Day 2
well today is alittle better on here. ive gotten the hang of a few things, ive even bought a couple people some drinks. well i will scope this out some more and get back to you. take care all and have a good day. plain jane

Day 1
I'll be posting one of these a day. Hope they make you laugh. [fml means "fuck my life". No these did NOT happen to me. Day one: "Today, I was talking to my only grandson about how I was going to the dentist to get my teeth fixed and how it was going to cost a lot of money, he replied saying "Who cares, you're going to die soon anyways". FML"

Day 1
I guess there is so much intolerance in our society. It is not just the color of your skin or the way that you worship your God that people discriminate against anymore. Society as a whole is getting just so damn narcissistic and bitchy. Every other commercial on TV is about fixing what is wrong with you. What if there is really just something wrong with society? What if its okay to have one tit bigger than the other, two moles behind your left ear, graying hair, limp dicks, a few stretch marks here and there, and of course the terribly unwanted love handles? I would gladly be friends with real people, with real issues. I don’t want some fake made up shell of what a person wants to be. I would rather talk to a 85% burn victim about the way to solve cancer and global hunger than some super-model chick about Prada or Versace. We as a people have become so materialistic and uncaring. We have people living in hunger and homeless residenced in the richest country in the world, yet we

Day 2
“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.” “Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken. But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever.” In order for a relationship to last the trust value has to be evenly distributed. It’s a two way venue…both has to have similar strengths in how they trust each other. I think that one of the main forces of destruction for the value of trust someone has for the other is based on two opposing factors: reality and imagination. Imagination can lead to fictitious scenarios that can seem so real that they seem to betray reality. I say if you didn’t see it first hand or you haven’t been in a situation to have doubt then why act like the action happened?

Day 1
how they say that today is the first day of the rest of ur life. well 4 me it seemed like the end. i decided to get back to working out. yeah looks can b deceiving. i used to work out then i took spring break off with my son then it turned into summer break then it turned into fall break well u c where that went and that has been over 4 years ago...lol...well today i decided that i was gonna get up n get off the computer ok i was gonna start yesterday but it rained n i left the window open n my son hadn't cleaned up the room for me. yeah anutha excuse but i did get it all cleaned up this morning and i did get on the equipment. o wow! all i can say is looks r deceiving for me at least. i have people all the time asking if i work out cuz i look like i do but to actually start back today was well not a pretty site....to say the least. but im gonna stick with it. we decided to hit vegas for my bday....'NEW YEAR'S DAY" but u know the real celebration is on the eve n i think im gonna get t

(day 2)
it is day 2 as you can see and i failed in getting my weight but i see that i mit weigh atleast 220 pounds give a lot or take a little.today i ate cearl,for lunch i really didn't eat much but some fruit.for dinner a salad and home made mac&cheese.i hate my family well my older brother he calls me gay for not eating meat.which he dose to anything that isn't like him.i hate him.but i see that he just dosen't under stand anything that isn't normal to him,who has a baby momma and a second on the way.both of them figth nearly all the time beacuse of the kids,how get's on his neavers,they don't know how to act,o the baby momma has an other kid that's not his so she has two and a third on the way,he has one and another on the way.so you got to take care of two kids and worry about another soon.all i have to do is not eat meat.

The Day
The day The day starts still and silent.The birds chatter as the sun comes up.Chasing away the fog. I sit at your side. Watching waiting for you to open your eyes.The man stands in the doorway calling our name.His face unreadable.Will the words be ones I want to hear?Will his words tear me apart?Will his words be joyful or painful?I take hold of your hand.Holding as tight as I can as a tear rolls down my face.I feel the lights around me going outI feel so closed off.In the days end

Day 6
I finally found a place to smoke in peace, across from Parliament, the same parliament that wouldn’t let me smoke anywhere else. Apparently, Australia is the only place more hostile to smokers (even cigar) than the United States. Fuck ‘em! Yesterday was harrowing. Most of day was spent reorganizing my return, changing hotels and, most devastatingly, accepting the abrasive and abrupt reality that I am my own worst enemy. The person who I first came to see, changed plans to visit and eventually came to join for coffee (or Australia’s version of it) didn’t see me at all. I traveled over 12,000 kilometers and have the pain of unmet expectations to show for it. She did what she’s always done, wavered, waffled, invited, ignored, teased and tormented. And I did what I always do, ignore the signs, negate the input of others, head straight for disaster and sit quietly in pain wondering how I got here. I got here by being naïve, foolhardy, unreasona

(day 13)
hellomoto every one today is day 13 and i feel a little starved because we don't have anything to eat i feel so hunger for some thing to eat and i know that i won't eat meat but i will eat eggs and drink milk but i won't eat somthing that killed an animal for the food.but it's getting hard to find somthing to eat when their is nothing to eat at all in your house and dawm it i hate not being able to find somthing to eat when their is only meat.

Day 1
Dear bloggy, for everyone who doesnt know, i write a blog everyday well try to any way on myspace and now im going to start on here. their not for anyone in general but i do like my friends to read them and comment them and usally they have a insight about my day and all sorts of amazing things. a reason why im doing it on here is cause im starting to re like fubar i know kinda of crazy but i am. so for today i had track practice and al its test week and right now im tied for 1st! we both have 600 but i lost some points today cause i couldnt throw a football! i threw it 18 meters! i think im nfl material but i through med balls the 2nd furthest so it boasted my confedience. i had a math test today pretty sure i failed that! cause i just plainly suck at life. well i really dont know what else to say for today my shoes i ordered are in and i get my pay check tomorrow, so i might get the shoes tomorrow or i might wait untill friday :( i hate waiting i really want these shoes. so omg and

The Day
To some people is just another day. For me this is a day my life begain with my love.So I Stop, and think what we've been through and how much are love as grew. Yes we fight, and cry but never forget for you I would die. everyday I see your beautiful, smiling face, and there are moments that I stare and you take my breath away, and leave me with nothing to say, on this special day the day god bless me with my queen I ask myself how it is possible to love a person so much. my heart has been permanently touched. all the tears and pain seem to go away. The pieces of my heart that were chiseled away, you make them ok. once there was a deep dark hole nobody could touch, until you came and filled it with all your love. on this special day I want you to know, I love you More than I could write down, tell, explain or even try to show, In this life or the next. I've said things I regret, And they hurt you inside and made you cry, but let those things die,not you and I. I want to be with you t

Day 6
New favorite Song:: Dragonette "Pick Up The Phone " Oh Cherry, Cherry Ill read your fortune It says your too serious and such But I learned one thing Cherry You should understand That nothing really matters very much

Day 8
WARNING::::The Following Person may contain unsuitable language for people who cant take a joke, If you are this people please leave now or forever hold your peace. You may kiss the bride. Viewer Discretion is advised.

Day 1
ok so day 1. heres the scoop: im disappointed to find that being sick took more of a toll on me than i thought. im not 220, im actuall down to 210. FUCK ME so 25 pounds in 10 weeks i feel defeated already. i dont think its possible to put on the kind of size i want to put on in the time frame i have alotted myself. my body doesnt want to be that big. i hover around 215 when i dont work out. thats where my body wants to be. i have to really work hard to stay big. and im thinking now that it wont happen. anyway, the gym was more packed than i thought. tons of new faces but i did see alot of old friends. they all said the same thing... "holy shit, what happened? you used to be HUGE" thanks man. wanna stab me in the eye with a stick or maybe pour some lemon juice in a paper cut while youre at it? FUCK that SUCKED but i did my thing. i stopped myself from overdoing it and being too sore to go back tomorrow. hit up a quick total body workout and will probably do it a few more times

Day 2
so today went a little better. got more of a workout in. less people. getting into a routine is gonna be the hardest thing. but im living up to my end of the bargain. i figure i will step on the gas in about a week and start lifting like a demon. til then, slow and steady and keep the shoulder healthy feels good to be back tho. im likin it!

Day 1
So, I quit smoking today at 8:30pm. It's been 2 hours without a cigarette and It's kinda going ok. I want to smoke but I can't because then I would be letting people down and not only that I will be letting myself down. Im using the Patch to help me along with unlimited cuddles with my boyfriend and lots of candy....I'll probably come out of this with diabetes. LOL I hope that I accomplish quitting and not end up like other people have and just start back up right after I fully quit. This is going to take a lot of will power, and alot of support from my friends and family. I hope I can do this.

Day 38
Midway through week 5 of Stanza 365 and still going strong. Today I whine about having to write on my birthday ... trust me, it's much better than it sounds. lol You can find it, as well as all 37 previous days at ... http://stanza365.wordpress.com/

The Day
well its just another day. pain and misery feeling so alone . all alone in this town ive lived here or almost two years and still feel alone have everything just that one person has walked out of my life. she cheated on me but yet i still love her why is this?? makes no sense to me . she meant every to me and now dont even get a hi after knowing her for 20 something years just really sucks . i miss her to death and its been over a year . am i insane? i am far from stalker dont even stop by her place and know right where she lives

Day 2
Breakfast was Blah...Blah...Blah. Pretty much the same as day 1, and will probably remain pretty similar. I added some vegetables is the only difference. So lets get onto the workout Warmups the same Pushups-5 sets of 12 Situps- 5 sets of 10 Squats- 5 sets of 14 Pullups- 5 sets of 8 Chinups-5 sets of 8 10 minutes of stretches 10 minutes of cooldown exercises.

Day 3
I started the blog a couple days later than I started the exercise, so just need to get everything caught up with my routine. So I stated before, breakfast is the same. Always remember to drink plenty of water. Vitamins are a useful tool too for keeping you going. Warmups-15 minutes (same old same old) Pushups- 5 sets of 15 situps- 5 sets of 12 squats- 5 sets of 16 Pullups- 5 sets of 8 ((again)) Chinups-5 sest of 8 10 minutes of stretches 10 minutes of cool down I know I said before 15 minutes of cooldown, but I have decided to take it down a notch.

Day 1
lost...thoughts of happiness and gentle kiss ... i wonder ...hold my breath for a time...what do we keep...lost..only memories..or a piece of soul...what loves if you are lucky heart mind and soul...lost... would you give...give your soul..to be shared...loved...maybe that is the answer....maybe that is your fear...lost

Day 375
Well its been 375 days since I left home, my family and friends to come to Kuwait. My job here is pretty simple... I am an Emergency Medical Technician that runs the 911 emergency response for the military bases here. Very low call volumn for sure. I take care of teh sick, the injuried and the ones that just need a shoulder to lean on for a brief minute. Although I can leave at any time, it still feels like an obligation of sorta. I have missed my kids pass school, yet the military that is here does not have a choice and they miss the same thing. I missed Christmas and 2 out of 4 of my kids' birthdays... yet the military missed the same thing. Being over here has made me realize that I take alot of things for granted.. including my marriage. I am slotted to go home on leave in August and I will be getting a divorce. I guess I had this coming. In October after I finish the contract here, I plan to move to Ohio and start my life all over. This is going to be a real challang

Day 6
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why MY MOMMY OFCOURSE! shes the best literally, &i know....all moms are suppose to be the best, but she seriously is. all the shit i put her though, &she still loves me. all my horrible mistakes ive made &shes been by my side the entire time. words cant explain how grateful i am to have her as a mother, &to explain how much i truely love this woman :)

Day 08
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why 1. finish all my nursing classes, i'm so over giving pervy old men showers ¬ getting paid for it.2. spend more time with my momma, i miss her.3. spend more time with my best friends, i miss them.4. get my car fixed 5. getting all my grades in school to atleast a C+ average 6. getting new sheets for my bed, hah7. having more sex :)8. taking my ACT's9. fill in college applications 10. BE A BETTER HUMAN BEING nursing school is seriously cutting into 'me' time, i'm seriously over it :/

Day 1
Day 1 Probley the hardest day of anyone who sees someone they care about go into the Navy, Army, Airforce.. 8 weeks till he comes back from bootcamp. 8 weeks till I feel like I have a friend again. How long is 8 weeks...too long? Yes that's it...too long.

Day 15
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play 1. alice in wonderland- in a world of my own2. band of horses- the funeral3. cocorosie- werewolf4. fleet foxes- white winter hymnal5. gucci mane- lemonade6. imogen heap- hide and seek7. iron and wine- such great heights8. MGMT- kids9. mike posner- you dont have to leave10. yeah yeah yeahs- maps

Day 1
Day 1 is here.... the patch is one my arm... and my arm in tingly...lol I hope the patch doesn't kill me, you know cause I've been so worried about for 23 years that I have been smoking. spent my cigarette money on food, so there is no turning back now lol. I do want to tahank everyone for their support with this choice.... its going to be quite an expierience. You know for 23 years after dinner I have had a smoke, when I woke I had a smoke, when I got in the truck I smoke, when I went to break I would smoke. What the hell am I going to do with that time now. I guess if I quit smoking I can go back to the bar and become a raging alchoholic... lmao ( I stopped going becuase of the smoking ban cause I like to smoke when I dirnk) And yea... what to do about drinking now... guess I will have to find something to do with my life. Oh so yesterday I went to do a survey for Marlboro on there SNUS (SNOOSE) found it rather disgusting, my roomate likes it so he didn't by any ciga

Day18
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ finishing high school, and going to college to become a dental hygienist. while in college meeting some perfect guy, and finally, truly, actually fall in love with him. get married, &have as been babies as god blesses me with. ever since i could remember all i ever wanted to do was become a wife and mommy. i am a horrible girlfriend, but i know i'd be a perfect wife. i am a horrible daughter, but i know i'd be a perfect mommy...i honestly can not wait to grow up and have a family. i am going to love the fuck out of them.

Day24
Day 24- A letter to your parentsmy parents forever have been divorced so it wouldn't be right to only type out one letter... DAD:: firstly, i hate you because you gave me your ass, which is flat as a fucking pancake. i hate you because you left us, &you never came back for me. i hate you because when i was younger you took me on adventures, you showed me the entire WORLD &now its defiantly not like that, ignorace is bliss- therefore i wish that never ever happened. i hate you because BEFORE you left us you had another girlfriend, then you got married, and had another daughter. i hate you so much because you named her "kelsey nicole", my mother swears to me that was her named she picked out for me but papaw lee passed the day mom gave birth so TADA "kylee michelle". its like you literally replaced me. you give kelsey everything i ever wanted, and needed, same with my step mother. i know i should be happy for them, but i am not, you was MY dad first, so i should have gotten ev

Day 25
Day 25- What I would find in your bag broken necklaces, braclets, and earringsa shit ton of papers and receits moneys, and about a pound of change- i do not use changecoach wallet, that has nothing in it because i always throw moneys, plastics, change, and receits in the bottumsunglassesmedicine35mm fish eye camera flimbroken lighters, and working lighterspencils &caculater (i FUCK at math)hair pins, and hair tiescondomsgerm x my badge for the nursing homeextension holdera brushperfrumes tamponscamel crushes

Day 26
Day 26- What you think about your friends i've been looking forward to this question for weeks, and now when its here i'm at a loss for words...but plan and simple, i've had the same best friends for forever, weve all grown up together, and been through everything together, hell were closer together than our own damn families. matter a fact, my bitches are my family

The Day
She stood there with her torch held high To watch planes falling from the sky As silver bullets ripped apart The center of her loving heart With disregard for sanity In senseless act of lunacy She saw her children fall and die The day I saw my lady cry. I LIFT MY LAMP … so reads her plaque Just miles from terrorist attack Her open doors now violated By pure evil orchestrated Hounds of Hell have been released And Good must rise to kill the Beast. I saw her head droop, shaking "Why?" The day I saw my lady cry. Her tears will bring on bitter rain Unleashing winds of hurricane To circle globe in whirlwind force Uncover evil at its source Then seek exacting recompense From those who prey on innocents. They'll not forget, as time goes by, The day they made my lady cry.

Day 1
This is me how i feel about myself and i am sure it will chang day to day. i amunloveable it is clear to me now and its got to be something im doing wrong. i am in the army and i am incharg of people, but my wife wont even touch me she goes off with some other guy, not that i am complaining cause i dont love her any more but it would be nice to feel love, then i was talking to this great girl the one i was hoping to be with after she finaly lets me go(my wife that is) but lately shes avoiding me and idk y so it must be that i am just so unloveable. when i need people the most is about the time they leave me or find some one thats better, then again im sure there is alot better then me since im in the situation that i find my self in i am not single yet so i cant do any thing yet with any one no matter how much i want to. ik she knows who imtalking about even though i highly doubt she will read this but if she does i hope she knows howmuch i love her even still, and now there r othe

Day 1
Day 1. Your favourite song. Well, there is the first and biggest issue right away. I genuinely don't have 1 favourite song - like many folk it would depend on the mood of the day/moment. So, the question is how the hell do I answer this one and what on earth do I choose? I have thought about going for the obvious (a jovi choice) going for the random (something from Chess) going for the critically acclaimed however I've decided that I'm going to go for something that i return to time and time again year in year out. I've lots of songs that I do that with, a simply look at my itunes says "59 plays" of x track in the past few weeks. I love this particular version of this song; the mixture of the orchestral element with the heavy rock side - sort of "fusion" music. So, i suppose I've failed already with this challenge - I can't say that it is THE no 1 favourite song of mine...but it's certainly in the top 10. Enjoy and listen all the way through :) http://www.youtube.c

Day 2
Day 2 - Your least fave song. Well - I could wax lyrical all day there - there are quite a few I'm not fond of! However, the first two to pop into my head are Golden Brown by the Stranglers and Stairway to heaven (take your pick of artists!). I know I am going to take some flack for these...but I've really tried hard to enjoy/like Stairway however each and every time I listen to it it bores me senseless...I don't find it inspiring and it drones on! (ok..let me have it..Ive got my tin hat on!!) Golden Brown stretches way back to when I was 15..it was on one of the "now thats what I call music/hits" compilation albums directly before Wilson Phillips - Hold on. My friend and I loved the Wilson Philips song (what?!! I was 15!! .....again...i can take the flack!) and played it over and over...but usually had to endure at least some of the Golden Brown song first as it was either a tape or record - certainly wasn’t a CD! I’ve never enjoyed it and haven’t grown to lo

Day 3.
Day 3. A song that makes you happy. I have many many many songs that fall into my “happy song” category. However, my choice is a long standing fave and one that never ever fails to lift my spirits. I don’t care if you now think I’m educationally sub-normal, I really like it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpqdexBnNkM I’m off to listen to it right now – I hope you play the game and listen all the way through. Stella

Day 5.
Day 5. A song that reminds you of someone. This one goes back a bit to my late teens/early 20’s when I used to wear ripped jean shorts and DM’s with honey blonde hair that went past my waist (I have pics somewhere…I need to post them for a laugh!). Those days were filled with lots of music gigs..week in week out back to back – lots of trips up and down the motorway to Wolves civic hall. The guy responsible for it all was Tetley (hi hon x) and when I hear this band/song I’m instantly reminded of those days squashed in with hundreds of others, jumping when they jumped, us both coming out of the venue completely deaf having had a great night. I’ve seen this band a number of times and although they have changed their line up and had a rough patch in the middle of their career they are still out and about today – playing Download festival in 2010. They formed in late 89 (the lead singer previously being in the Quireboys) and the tickets I can

Day 6.
Day 6. A song that reminds you of somewhere. So, you will, by now, have seen that some of my posts have a bit of info in them. This is one with no background info or “personal” element to it. I don’t mind posting information about my distant past – lets face it, my “youth years” are far behind me. The more recent stuff however I won’t always post reasons why or info about. So, with that in mind; Late September 2008. New Hampshire. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwIGZLjugKA Enjoy, Stella x

Day 2
Well it is my second day on here. I have met come cool people. I would like to broaden the amount of people i meet on here so i will be trying to find more new friends. Just so anyone that actually reads this knows i do like to get to know my new friends. I have a basic understanding of how the site works now. I am still learning a few things but for the most part i think i got it. If anyone feels like talking stop on by i have a webcam or i will chat normally i am not picky. talk to you all later.

Day 1
This morning, due to the fact that I was up 38 hours (9 am Saturday to approximately 11 last night), i decided to forgo my fitness regime, though i woke up promptly at 3 am. i gauged how tired i was, and said to myself screw it, and passed out again.Today my plan is to at least finish weeding out a garden that it 2 school-buses long, and three times as wide as I am tall (5'7) and go to show practice for this year's community theatre production ofWho's Dying to Be A Millionaire? , in which I play the self important sheriff Jesse Marlowe.So far, college surfing is somewhat successful. My intention is start at UW-RC, two years' gen-ed there, and transfer to Platteville and do something in the arts.

Day 2
Well, i was up promptly at 300 this morning and did my usual stuff, with two added exercises.. leg lifts for 3 sets of 30 seconds and front leaning rest (push-up position) for a minute and a half. man, was that an exercise.I haven't slept since i got up...which i probably detrimental, but that's what happens when you get up at the wee hours of the morning to perform physical fitness exercises. The old adrenaline gets running and you can't get any decent shuteye.Yet another day of pulling weeds ahead of me...at least this one is most probably my last. I don't know whether to call it a squash patch or a fun-sized prairie, it's so overgrown. The show is coming along with less and less hitches as each day passes. We may just be able to get our act together by lights down...pun not intended.The search continues. What search, one might be asking. Since I was in eighth grade, I have had had a girlfriend every two years. and i mean, every two years. the longest any relationship i've had was fo

Day 4
I didn't do a blog yesterday because i was just beat, and anyway it was the last thing on my mind. i didn't do PT yesterday, but i did this morning.I find myself confused. Though I like the girl I mentioned in my last blog, i find myself interested in another as well. this one has attitude. What do i do? The girl i mentioned first is in my own state, not far from the capital city. the other is 5 states away. we just started talking the other day--literally the other day. What do i do?The friggin garden's done FINALLY...when i washed my hands on Tuesday, i was washing my hands of that garden, literally and figuratively.So now, I go to work every day, and come home tired. but what the hell...that's what it's all about isn't it?

Day 5
I think I've come to a decision...I don't want to do it, but I end up too tired to do it every day.I believe I'd decided to do PT every other day, because on the days I do it, i'm just too fucking tired to do it again. Yesterday at work was a testament to that.The conflict continues. With little opportunity to talk to either of them lately, i'm still unable to make a decision. Jesus jumped on a roller coaster...maybe i should be a monk jk lol. it's just so....aggravating, not having someone in your life who likes you for you, and not pushing you toward what they think you should do. someone to talk to and know that what you say will stay between you. nuts.

Day 7
Christ, i gotta get on the ball with this blog.well, tonight i worked at walmart...and i was in costume...i was a post-apocalyptic soldier of fortune. Desert print bdu pants bloused above my old combat boots, brown tshirt, my denim black jacket, fingerless leather gloves (made fingerless by yours truly) and a black BDU cover from when i was in staff school. amazingly, i'm not as sore as when i wear my converses..._~the first show is on friday...and i still don't have the second act memorized.dude i'm psychic...i was just looking at my cell phone, wondering if it was charged, and it finished charging. i'm like awwww yeah XD hahaby now i've lost all hope of finding someone who doesn't live halfway across the state, isn't psycho, and shit like that. right about now, i'm to the point where i don't care if she's fkn Pamela Anderson or the hottest chick on earth...as long as she likes me for me and is close. fuck it, i'll be a monk

Day 9
Well...it's been one week (or so) since i came up with the idea of getting up at the early hours and busting my ass. so far, i think i've actually lost some weight...then again, i haven't been sleeping like i have for 20 years and i've been trying (and to some degree, succeeding) to cut back on the stupid shit. i've gone from 162.4 to 160. yes...i may be killing my health...but what the hell. people might say i'm killing myself or i'm an idiot. Being called an idiot, i'm used to. As far as killing myself, I'd rather die on my feet doing something than in a fucking bed. quite honestly, i wanna die with a smile on my face, though these days that seems unlikely. Dying with a smile on my face...ha! i'll prolly die miserable and alone.Obviously i'm in a fantastic fucking mood while writing this.

Day 11
Christ, I gotta keep up with this thing.I had a blowout yesterday. it got to the point where my parent and i were nose to nose, ready to throw down. i actually ended up hollering at the top of my lungs "GET OUT! FUCKING GET OUT! NOW!" it's been 24 hours, and i still can't believe it happened. i don't even recall what got us to that point. all i know is that i was standing my ground, i was hissing breath through my teeth and my fists were clenched. after my parent walked out so we could both cool down, i was slobbering and snivelling, all because it was mentioned that maybe i need a good cry. being 20, i believe there is less and less need for "a good cry". people think i'm a pussy enough, i don't need "a good cry"...i just need a good screw.the real shocker though...after my parent walked out, i slammed my door shut. and then i was just so fucked up, i actually slammed my fist into my wall and made a respectable. up until now, i had no idea i could do that. i really didn't. it was the

Day 13
It was too fucking cold this morning to run. but that's not important. What IS important is that, despite my misgivings, Who's Dying to Be A Millionaire? was actually a pretty big hit. I was unsure...we looped a couple times with lines...especially me...I have until 1pm Sunday to really get my lines down so we don't loop again, but on the whole...itwasfuckingAWESOME!next show, i'm hoping to get the group shots...the crew of the gameshow, the townspeople, and singles yadda yadda...i don't want to miss a single shotwith all the show going on and shit, i haven't had much time to think about The Chase. i think i've given up now...fuck it.

Day 20
Christ...i'm droppin the ball on this thing....then again i was out of town for a few days, keeping my grandpa company. and to think...a year ago he was in the Cardiovascular Intensive Care Ward of St. Mary's in Madison. Screwy, isn't it? that's how i spent my 19th birthday too...eating a pizza a i didn't want (courtesy of my uncle, who forced the thing down my throat....oyy) being told it was too late to have plans for my own birthday by some twat who, by all rights, didn't even belong there. ah fuck it. i'll have a simple birthday...just sit on my ass on Monday the 14th, when i finally have to "grow up"...i HAVE to, but i won't ;) you motherfuckers are stuck with how i've been for the past 20 years muahahahahahahaa! anyway...first night of pt all week...this is gonna suck some SERIOUS ass...i tried keeping off the shit food while i was at G-pa's but...i think i kinda need some practice at it XD so...imma just sit on my ass and get on my computer...either that or read the latest and

Day 14
Today is Daylight Savings' DEATH!!! DIE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS!DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE!-Kicks DLS down a deep well like a rabid Spartan Gerard Butler-anyway...today's the last showing of Who's Dying to Be A Millionaire? and man...if we can just get through this without mishap...imma bee takin a lotta photos...it's my last year after all...but it's a little odd...i find myself lusting after two of my costars. one of them has a bg already and the other...idk. either way, i know they probably like me at least slightly...but welll, they would have nothing else to do with me i think. the only costar i suspect may like me in that respect is well under my own advancing age, and so is safe (haha).The Search is a constant subject in my blogs but it's a constant subject in my mind as well. i'm 20 and i've never even made out? FFS people. imma try turning down the nice guy...that seems to keep cock-blocking me. i've dabbled in it, but i have to turn that up...get some attitude for fuck's sake. 4:

Day 23? 24?
I've lost track of the days, what with all the days I've missed. I'm in what I call the Roaring 20s now. Today's my 20th birthday. All my friends used to say, "You're gonna be the 40 year old virgin". i disagreed, as i look nothing like Steve Carell (a badass comedian), but i can't help but think. i mean, ten years ago, i don't even remember what my biggest worry was...probably about what my reading grade was going to be...or the poem i had to memorize for thanksgiving, with Nadiyah Johnson. now i have to worry about work, getting a car, getting my license...my future...FUCKsome have said i cuss too much, especially in these blogs. To which i reply, if you don't like it, don't read it then. no one's making you read it.There's nothing i can do about getting laid now. i'll come right out and say it. nothing i can think of. there's no chick within 20 miles who'd consider dating me. Stepping up my game and trying to act like i've got a set of balls on me is, to me, kinda pointless. so wha

Day 27?
It's official...i've lost count of the days. I like going to my grandfather's, but it screws up my PT schedule and I can't blog...well I suppose I could, if I really wanted to, but haven't had the scratch to ask. it's enough that he lets my parent blog on his computer (which he hates...he's one of THOSE grandparents, but i love him :D), but i'm not exactly sure what his thoughts on my doing it as well are. it's probably worth an exasperated snort and a wave of the hand meaning, "go on whatever".well...I'm 20...i feel no different...preconceptions suck. I was hoping that somehow i would grow up a little (or at least get my head on straight) but yeah...that's the same preconception i had when i turned 18. hey kids, turn 18, you're an adult! FUCK NO hahai've been depressed since my birthday for a few reason, but the vanguard, the point of the V, is my virginity. yeah yeah yeah, here he goes again. but nobody's making you read this, so feel free to close off and perform something obscene o

Day 29?
Well, it seems i have a fan. a guy who has become like a brother to me...we went to school together through most of hour school careers. so that's three people.i've been told that the best thing to do when looking for something...is to stop.but how can i? day in and day out, i find myself surrounded by girls i find myself at least vaguely attracted to, thinking at the very least that they are cute. what am i to do when this happens? or is it possible that i'm totally shallow because of my desperation? I hope to god not...otherwise i may be totally screwed...and not in the way I'm hoping and have been agonizing over for the past 7-8 years. damn it all...sometimes i just wish i could focus on the real important stuff...like insurance and yadda yadda. but i can't help myself. Getting a car and insurance, along with a license, just lead back to the fact that it's just one more thing that i would need to take a girl out on the town, which leads into more ribald thoughts. it's a vicious circ

Day 1
On the first day I meet some one i want to fuck I: "accedently" spill something on my shirt so i have to take it off i drop something on the floor, bend over and wiggle my ass in their face i 'break' my bra so im not wearing anyting under their hoodie shirt i sit on their lap and rub my ass up against their penis until they're hard then i unzip their pants and take their warm, hard dick and put it in my mouth and then, we move to the bed (;

Day 32
Thanksgiving passed without much hitch, unless you count the approximately two onions i ate and tapioca that was mixed into my dinner, not to mention the twice baked potato and the french onion dip therein and the green bean casserole containing one of the onions and a good mix of dried french onions mixed in. Man, the afteraffects were, shall we say, so astounding, the sheer awesomeness required gas masks for awesome emitters receivers alike. Even skunks ran at my tread! kidding.anyway, today was a surprise...they actually cut me loose early. see yesterday (thursday, the 24th, also thanksgiving 2011 for future readers) was supposed to be my day off, but wednesday my Front-end manager asked if i was doing anything on thursday. i said no and was asked if i could go in 7-4 the next day, which i did. i was supposed to be on Friday from 630 am to 330 pm. however it was revealed that if i went the whole shift, i would go over hours. so i was released at 930. came home, booted up to 'puter

Day 34
Sunday, November 27, 2011 Day 34 well, i thought i'd have nothing to blog about, but i was mistaken...Some little hometown shit thought it'd be hilarious to make a run at yours truly with his car, and as a joke, pretend to try to run my ass into the ground.i was walking up from the town gas station, minding my own business, listening to my iPod, when the little shit in question comes down the street, presumably seeing me, and actually crossing a lane of traffic and onto the sidewalk to try and scare me, coming within 3-5 feet of me.. i swear and flip him off, and keep walking, but keep looking back, because i just fuckin KNOW the little shit's gonna come at me again. he makes a half assed attempt and speeds away. i'm swearing to myself, in a right rage, when a friend drives up, and instead of running my ass over, offers me a ride home. i get home, tell the PU (parental unit) what happened and then i found the shit's home phone, and left a short concise message, basically saying

Day 38
You know, i'm sick of shit that's other people's fault being pushed on me. I worked 9-5 today, and my PU works until ten, leaving five hours between, presumably to screw around. However, I've clocked out and i'm checkin my phone. Apparently, someone's coming to get me. Okay, fine. I head out with Xmas gifts in a bag toward one of the side doors. And I wait. I walk around the parking lot trying to find the person who's giving me a ride. I wait and look for 45 minutes, and no one comes. finally a good friend of mine pulls up and offers me a ride. I think about it, and finally get in. I call the gas station and let them know I'm riding home. Then they tell me not to get a ride with anyone else, and that the person will be there any minute. Considering the fact that i'm on the outskirts of the town preceding HTown, and getting closer to H-Town, that's not an option. So the PU comes on, I tell them the situation, and they say, "Dead." i make sure i've heard them clearly and they hang up.

Day 41
Well, my best friend is buggin me so i guess i'll post somethin... Speaking of, he came through when i was at work today...him and the idiot that tried running me over. I totally shut down. i spoke to him, but the little asshole i didn't even look at. after that guy walked off, i turned to the next customer, all bubbly like nothing had happened and said, hiya how ya doin?Classic, in my mind.Well, i also finished my Christmas shopping again. and now...we wait.

Day 45
Life is starting to unravel. Today I was on a belt register the entire day, and half the time i was either smote by a furious rage that started for no reason or having Adele songs stuck in my head, infuriating me more. nothing is more inherently annoying than Adele's voice; you hear it, and the whole fuckin day is shot. Still, the fact that i spent 2 hours in a secret state of high piss off for no reason annoys me. i should know why the hell i'm pissed...so it pisses me off when i don't know why i'm pissed in the first place...not to mention the squalling brats, screaming and crying because mommy and daddy aren't doing what they wanted. See, this is why the world is going to hell. Kids these days have no respect, and little to no sense of right and wrong. Punishment has been deemed crass, has been classified as "child abuse". But if I'd tried half the shit that I see these little bastards pulling, I'd have gotten a few well-deserved swats about the bum. When Pirates of the Carib

Day 52
Day 52 nuts... why do i bother? i can't keep up with this thing. facedeskIt's funny that all my life, I've wanted to be a celebrity, wanted to be famous for something, when i see all these celebrities like the Kardashians doing the dumbest fucking shit. So apparently Kris Humpries, the dude that Kim Kardashian hooked up with for life and dumped after 72 days, is gay.YOUSTUPIDFUCKSthey have more money than brain cells. IT'S CALLED DATING DUMBASS. try it sometime.these fuckers do all this crazy dieting shit and whatnot for headlines. what the fuck...i swear to god, if i ever become famous, and get that bad, someone PLEASE shoot me in the fuckin foot. god damn it.I have an idea. I'm getting a car tomorrow, and when i finally get my fucking license, I'm gonna see if i can take the girl from Janesville out on a no-strings-attached date, just so we can get the feel of each other, you know, hear each other's voices and talk about the stuff we've been talking about for months, and anyon

Day 73
Christ, I've lost so much track of the days, i had to call up the calendar on my computer. -facepalm- Well, I survived Christmas, though my aunt and uncle were so cold and indifferent, i almost felt my balls freezing. the only thing that i found enjoyable about Christmas day was dinner and seeing my cousins. otherwise my mother and i and my aunt and uncle ignored each other. New years, we went over to my grandpa's again, and stayed til yesterday. I worked, then went to GPa's we set up the taco dip, and then just sat around and watched a movie or two. finally mom got there after work, we finished laying out the grazing table and watched Battle: Los Angeles. Pretty good flick. Stopped at a few minutes to midnight, toasted Sparkling white grape juice and nommed herring.But anyway, on to the important shit.Last few nights i've been having dreams.The other night i was on the Madison Beltline at night, down by Park Avenue, only it was deserted and the eastbound lane was right next to me, b

Day 1
I woke up, not as motivated as the night before to start the diet, but thankfully I decided to start it. Breakfast was "oatmeal", consisting of 1 banana, 1/2 apple (peeled), 1 tsp of ground flax, 1 tsp. of ground cinnamon and 1/8 C. of almond milk. I blended it all together and consumed. It was DELICIOUS!!! Not that surprised, but I was surprised at how my appetite was satisfied. Snack was a carrot to munch. Lunch was Lettuce Wraps. I made a filling of sliced brocolli, cauliflower, onion, and carrots. I made a dressing of honey, fresh lemon juice, evoo, and salt and pepper. I mixed the dressing with the filling and then placed the flling in the lettuce leaf and rolled until it was covered and consumed. Again, very YUMMY and I'm not hungry after eating. YAY!!! Snack this afternoon will be some fruit. Dinner will be some spaghettie squash and... LOL... then I'm not sure yet.

Day 110
Day 110 Well i'm enjoying my return to the internet. Back and bsin with my friends, and stuffs.I've come to associate Katy Perry's "E.T." with my friend from Janesville...idk why...it just fits.nothing new to report really...except that i'll do my bet to keep up with this and not trash this damned computer haha

Day 111
God, I hate it.I hate being frustrated and pissed off all the time. I'm quiet, short and to the point, at work. My coworkers keep asking me if i'm all right. One of my supervisors told me today that she thought that i was always so short because of my 90 day review, which showed some things wanting. I assured her that wasn't the case, that i was working on what was needed to improve my next review.but that's not why i was so withdrawn today.i ended up telling rachele about the "arrangement" that my mother and i have...neither of us (meaning my mother and i) trust me with my own money. and well...i think whatever regard she may have had for me slipped a couple notches. i've only 3 really good friends, and this woman is the only person that i want to be with at this point.The truth is overrated. Reality as a way of life is overrated. There's times when telling the truth is ultimately worse than telling a lie, because when you lie, it's not as complicated, or fucking painful.'tell me a se

Day 112
Twentieth time in a row, i spend my Valentine's Day alone...everybody's so pumped up about it, bah...just an empty holiday, an excuse to eat candy and waste your money on soppy cards. Not to mention the fact that between Fubar and Facebook, i've 457 friends and no one wants to talk to me at all. Still no word from Rachele. i think the whole 'boss has the card' thing turned her off. Fuck me. yes i keep agonizing over Rachele. "Get a new subject," people say. "Move on, live life." I can't. i'm stuck in one place. She's the only thing that makes me happy anymore, talking with her. Cybering (when i do do it) has lost its appeal. i suppose i should get a move on with my book, but what's the point? once i get done with my bit, it'll just sit, because like everything else important to my life, besides my job, has no importance to The Management. not my job management, but the supreme management of my life. i can't get my license and wait the 90 days until the car gets a new passenger side m

Day 123
Saturday, February 18, 2012 Day 123 That's it. I'm done. JUSTFUCKINGFINISHED.I tried taking myself in hand, and follow the advice of my friends; communications between R and myself had been strained by my admittance of my financial paranoia about my own money. Now, i do believe i've not only screwed the pooch, but tied it down and raped the fucking thing to fucking death.I tried being myself at first, when I first started dating. That got me the whackos and social outcasts.Then I tried being like R told me; confident, going for what I want without being afraid to step on the toes of others. I tried talking to her, like all my friends told me. At first, nothing. then the reply came, and it was worse than the wait. I was right all along: something is broken between us, now more than ever. It's not so bad that she indicated that last she checked, we were never in pursuit of anything beyond friendship. and that's pretty much an exact quote. Fine...Camp out in front of my computer?s

Day 143
Day 133 Well, sports fans, the days have slipped by. I've been thinking about what happened between me and R...and I'm hoping I can salvage what friendship we have left. It was pointed out, in both our conversation and in my last edition of TA, that it was mentioned that I "camp out in front of the computer". Unfortunately, that's the only social life one can have in this shitsplat little town without a couple Budweisers, two dips, and a blue-moon toke to get you rolling. I just hope that I can tell her that, and that she'll understand. R's a smart woman...I hope to god she''ll understand. "last i checked we were never in pursuit of anything beyond friendship" Which is bad. As this woman is the only one I can see myself dating. I can't date anyone around here...besides...all the women i would consider dating around here are taken.Yes, yes, yes...whine, whine, whine...this is all I talk about in this thing...i don't have much else to talk about. it's been two years since I've been on

Day 156
Day 156 For some reason, I've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. some may say it's totally inconsequential shit, that i should be worried about other more important stuff. but i can't help it. i can't get them out of my mind: my 21st birthday, and who could i possibly date now that R and I are basically on our own separate tracks now.My 21st birthday: I'm pretty certain that i'm going to have at least one drink, but i don't know where. The boss wants to take me to some place called the Safe House in Milwaukee. Me i want to spend it with my friends, but for reason, it feels like there a developing rift between me and my friends. i'm starting to feel more and more alone. during my depressive spells, i knew i at least had my friends. but now, i feel like i'm alone. All my friends seem to be moving on...and while i don't begrudge them that, i hate it because i can't move on as well. so i'll probably end up telling the boss that i don't want to go to the stupid spy-themed bar

Day 177
Day 177 R and I have fallen out of contact with each other, after I shot my mouth off...sad but i guess that's what happens when you get a crush on your best friend, and ask her where your relationship is headed. Instead i've fixed on a coworker of mine. She's cute, feisty, and makes me giggle. And tiny.Why do i fall for the tiny ones with the interesting psychological problems?because i have IPP myself? prolly.ah well...she's cute :Danyway...life goes on and on...ya verk ya verk ya verk and den ya die, as de old svede said.

Day 186
Well, I've swapped my affections to another. This one, T, by initial, is feisty and smack talking...and i actually see her on a semi-daily basis...we're coworkers. She smokes, has some OCD, and just totally cute...makes me want to cuddle her, though if I tried, she'd either try shanking me, biting me, or do her utmost to take my balls off...if not any combination of the three. but what the hell, i want to date her. she just...idk i want to date her, not just to screw her.

Day 6 - 9
Today’s film was 9. This is the first and only time I will watch this film. After watching the trailer a couple years a go with Coheed in the background I was very hopeful of a great film but this film did not meet my expectations. This film is not good. It suffers from so many clichés and doesn’t come to any conclusion. This clichés bothered the film, and me throughout at least the story and characters, felt old and unoriginal. It’s sad because the visuals are beautiful. The art direction is great. I loved how the puppets and monsters looked. Even the one that looked like the spider baby from the original Toy Story looked great. But the heroine who is loved by the main character, the leader who is eventually bad, the dumb jock/guard, the death of the sidekick, all these clichés tear this film down. While watching I had my idea for the end and when it got there I was disappointed. This ending was bland and didn’t really make much sense. I was hoping of an orig

Day 212
Been awile...i'm planning on getting my license (finally) and then imma get me some ink. The Seal of Rassilon from Doctor Who on my left shoulder. Also I'm going to try asking T out on a social date...Dark Shadows is playing or somethin, idfk...i just want to try taking her out to a date somewhere. i think there's some feeling there, but i'm not sure XD it'd be awesome if i could manage to get us to a regular couple :D we'll see.

Day 219
Well, T thinks my parent is 'kick' and wishes that she, my parent, were her, T's, parent. T said that to my parent, across my chest, before i went home to work, and my parent said "i'd settle for parent-in-law". i was halfway out before the penny dropped...we had to call T back and let her know XD...we must have sounded like a house full of hyenas and lunatics we were laughing so damned hard. But my parent "proposed" to my best friend, whom i would like to date...the question is, did that save me? or fuck me?last night was T's last day at walmart...so we won't see each other as much as usual (tears to be shed!)but she said she'd come back to visit (heads to be lifted!) and we're planning on a tentative P-ville excursion for DS and lunch in the next few weeks (pants to be darkened!)in other news, D test in 8 days...now i know what to expect and sort of what to work on, i HOPE this will be the last time (prolly won't be, knowing my luck) gods help me

Day 221
Fuck me...in the past two days i've been presented with as many dilemmas: Number one: T or another friend i've known considerably longer?The logical answer would be T, with whom i already have a stable relationship (at what stage i've no idea) and a planned excursion. However, my other friend, H by initial, is a longtime friend who is in need of something considerably more than a moody, retarded farm-boy with anger management issues and a penchant for hitting women (and i am most fucking CERTAINLY not speaking of myself). It's been said that at this point, she needs a gentleman...guess who is the only gentleman in town? At this point, one would be facepalming and muttering "Fuck." Would I be thinking with my dick on this? Both are, to say the least, stacked, H a little more than T, but still...Dilemma 2: Continue living in the states or go to britain?A friend of my parent is offering a few rooms in a flat in Britain. I have made it no secret that I would love to go to Britain...

Day 231
Well, I have made my decision as to who I woo: T. We have an appointment in Mad-Town for lunch and a movie, and then whatever the fuck on the 11th. Hopefully nothing fucks that up...and i just jinxed it. However i hope things work with T.Now however, I am pissed (wow! when am i NOT these days.).Today was going fine, until about 2130 when this total stranger starts telling me "You should vote, and don't vote for that bastard Walker." This character further goes on to elucidate some dumbass story about the railroad from Milwaukee to Mad-Town, and Highway Funds being appropriated for some kinda debt. Then the cashier at the next register down pipes up and joins in on this guy's song and dance."You should vote. It's a historical moment."you should do this, you shouldn't do thatFUCK YOU ALL!Do not presume to tell me how to run my fucking life, i get enough of that shit at home. I'm sick and tired of people telling me how to run my life. I don't give a rat's AIDS-infested left TESTIC

Day 252
I seem to be making entries every two weeks here. Well...The eleventh went spectacularly, aside from slight blip in the transportation (we were barely 5 minutes to showtime ffs). T and I had a great time, pictures galore. and two-three days later, I find out that she's got a boyfriend in the army who comes home in at least 2 weeks. So...T's out for the moment.H has had a slight blip in her romantic life...her boy-friend seems to have a wandering eye and a quick-minded prick. She's on vaca in SD, but coming home. He sent her a text saying "It's over" basically. i just saw the bastard the other day, with a new girl on his arm. I've been chatting with H, and offering to help...as of right now, I owe her a big-ass bear hug, and oh! to feel those breasts against my chest! (i'd love to date her, but i must also confess that i would dearly love to fuck her brains out...and then fuck mine out, and any readers that know us both, if you let her know, i will neuter you and stuff what i cut

Day 265
I feel like I'm losing my mind (yet again). All day, I had Pink Floyd's "What Shall We Do Now?" from The Wall stuck in my head. No problem, happened before, songs in my head.What makes me think I'm losin' it is that along with the animation from the movie The Wall, I also had in my head a scene of sex and murder, involving me being the murderer. I don't know who the girl was, but I recall us both being in stages of undress, and my hands wrapped around her throat...and a certain perverse pleasure in strangling something.There's three or four possibilities:1. I need to lay off the Pink Floyd.2. I'm losing my mind for real (or at least, my mind is becoming unhinged by something.)3. I'm becoming slightly depraved for some reason (judging by what precedes the poor girl's death, I think the lack of having had any romantic contact of any kind may have something to do with it)4. Something in my subconscious is coming out.By nature, I'm a very friendly guy. Touchy-feely to the point wher

Day 266
Day 2 of Suspected Insanity. Yet again, I had "What Shall We Do Now?" stuck in my head, and snatches of sex and murder. Also, the song, when played in my head, evokes a pleasurable savagery that I cannot say I am familiar with. I have begun to hate the song, but I cannot get enough of it.There is a possibility, however, that this is not insanity, but my suppressed persona (the things I have wanted to say/do, yet didn't, so on and so forth...the feelings I have yearned to act upon, but again have not), and the "depravities" in The Wall have called to mine, and brought them to some light. After all, thinking the phrase "Fuck me like you hate me" isn't exactly standard material is it?Which begs the question: If i were to let down my own Wall down...what would burst forth?

Day 287
Today, I do believe I came close to losing both my mind, and my job today. See, last night was my hometown's Our Town Celebration, with fireworks at ten and a DJ immediately afterward until midnight. I danced till midnight, BSed with various drunken subjects, and went home, ate a meager dinner, and went to bed at 2. Four hours later, I get up, and I'm off to work. That's when shit got real...Really bad.It was a day of Murphy's Law...whatever could have gone wrong, probably did.See, one of my supervisors is a total bitchShe told a couple of assistant managers about two forgotten bags of stuff from today, and I got a talking to...a "coaching", if you will.Here's the good bit though:A couple weeks ago, I would, more likely than not, forget at least one bag A DAY (I know, I'm an idiot, but when the customers are coming hard and fast..)Never got a talking to then.Three bags in one day? Never got talked to...not that i'm bragging; I hate it when i forget shit. And as a bonus prize, me

Day 300
This is an internet blog. THISISTURN AROUND!!!Anyway.My best friend TBird is going back to Bulgaria, to school. Tonight is his going-away party. It's 2-3 miles outside of town, and is a costume party...I'm going as the 12th Doctor. But that's not the point.For some reason, something about this whole thing smells. Maybe it's me being paranoid, but there it is.And if it isn't a costume party, and I show up in dress, well, what the fuck, that's my own style. My only concern is H. She and some guy named JP used to date, and at one point he slapped her, and she dumped him. The two are going to the party together and my only concern is whether or not he keeps a civil tongue in his hand and a civil hand to himself. Because if he hits her again, and I'm around, the Doctor will kick some fucking ass. I've got a case of Mt. Dew Voltage for drinking...and i'm locking my car.I don't trust any of these stupid country fucks not to pull some kinda shit.And then there's the matter of work tomor

Day 302
Well, the party was a roaring success...in the case of some people, roaring drunk might be a more apt description...some people got really fucked up on saturday. Me, i was the soberest person there...albeit a bit tweaked on 6 1/2 cans of Mt. Dew Voltage...it was fucked up, but pretty decent. H was there...but things went wrong. I mean, try having some drunken asshole dump two pitchers of water on you, and see how YOU feel. I tried to help her, goddammit, but she wouldn't let me. I want to help her, dammit, but I can't if she keeps shutting me out. My mother has, on occasion, tried persuading H of the benefits of dating a certain someone. I'd like to, but she's just not looking. i fear she may get back with JP, the asshole who struck her. now apparently she dumped him because he didn't want to have sex with her...is that any reason to dump a guy? Fine. Truth be told, i was told this while JP was sitting right next to her...ah fuck it.I'm a very lonely man...very friendly, but ver

Day 1!
I'm starting my weight loss today. I'm going to buy a scale to help keep track of my progress. My goal: To lose 20 pounds Current weight: 130 **Mind you I only stand 4'9"** Plan: Eat 5 small meals a day, veggies, fruits, chicken, fish, all that goodness. Walk 4 miles 3 days a week: Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Sports on Xbox 360, pushups and situps on Tuesday and Thursday. Saturday and Sunday are days with my kids, playing, running around, enjoying life.

Day 334
Two months from now, I lose what little innocence I have left...yeah fuckin right. November 14th is my 21st birthday, and i'll probably spend it home, sober, and alone. As usual. T and I are making some progress. Her bf dumped her because of distance (He's in CO with the Army, she's here). She has confided her ambition to try out for midget wrestling...she's a full head shorter than i am...so she might make it. The other night she told me this, tears in her eyes, and expressing doubts about her abilities and her concerns that everyone will think less of her for it. I told her to go for it anyway (I really got into it, looking back on it, i feel awesome...when the occasion calls, i can be a bit of an inspirational speaker i guess), my arm around her shoulders (win) the entire time. She calls me her most annoying friend, but the only one she can talk to. she knows i want to go out with her, but still i got the vibe of FRIENDZONE lol. Nonetheless, it was progress. I want to go to w

Day 340
Dammit, I gotta move faster. T has met a guy already...goddammit, i was trying to set up a Doctor Who friend-date. fuck me twice.Her boss's son and best friend's cousin at the same time.As i've said before, i want to date her so badly it's ridiculous. She's my best friend, but to be honest, (and i know I've said this before) but i think i'm falling in love with her...i throw that around a lot i guess. but there's no one else around here i can look at. FUCK ME IN THE FACE. Call me obsessed with getting a girlfriend or getting laid, but i'm lonely. Everybody i know is getting into and out of relationships like it's going out of style...or some asshole is treating his girlfriend like shit. I'm right there, a guy that will treat a woman like a lady, and not some piece of meat. But as usual, my built-in perception with a built-in perception filter of its own (so i can't find mine and turn it off) is on full blast. Sometimes i just want to shoot myself in the face from the stupidity..

Day 360
Fuck you, Michael. Just fucking fuck you. You're stealing my best friend, and quite honestly I'd like to punch you in the fucking face for it. What's so special about you? What the fuck is so fucking special about you that you can steal the best friend I have? Not to mention the only girl that I can see myself dating in this fucking shitsplat of a county. Because of you, she won't text me back. At all. Goddammit, god fucking damn it. I don't know anything about this guy, and I hate him. Why can't somebody be that nuts about me? They're stapled together by the hip, and me? i've nothing better to do than roam around the fucking internet, doing stupid shit. it makes me want to fucking scream and punch something.

Day 370
More than a year...and nothing I had planned a year ago has come to pass...I'm just fluctuating wildly through the 160s on my weight.. I had a dream last night. Only in MY dreams do i go from an Alien-esque dream involving and Ark in Space, a bridge of landing in a dark Walmart parking lot and presenting a goat to an Indian guy, and going to a wedding reception, in which I'm the groom, married to one of my friends. and the friend i'm married to is T.And now she and michael are dating, and i'm all alone. I've got a new hair color (black-brown), a swiftly shrinking sense of pride in myself...and no one to actually fucking share it with. i'm always alone, and it makes me want to scream and punch something. All these people are getting together with such ease...why the fuck is it so hard for me? I love this girl and she doesn't even know it...she knows i want to be with her, but not how much. I can't get her out of my head at all, I text her every day, on my breaks. shit, i like to

Day 2
Today was rough.. but i am handling it... I have had: MF Dark Chocolate shake (added frozen coffee and a TINY bit of fat free french vanilla creamer... don't judge me) MF Vanilla Pudding (was surprisingly good....) MF Berry Cereal (tasted too much like fake sugar for me... will finish the box but won't order again) MF Pancakes with sugar free syrup (not bad actually.. a little thin.. but not bad...) Salmon (yum) and cabbage soaked in vinegar (yummy) annnd 2 pickle spears Total of about 720 calories I am hanging in so far... I still have Chili i can eat today... but that is all i have left.. luckily it is 920pm and i JUST ate the pancakes if i end up eating the chili it will be at 820 calories...

Day 3
MF french vanilla shake with coffee MF peach oatmeal MF Mac and Cheese MF Mint Chocolate Softserve stuff... only half of it though.. it was too much... Tuna steak and a little Cod... with about a cup of cucumbers today I am so hungry i wanna cry.... im chewing gum like a madwoman... my head hurts... and i want toast.. with my sister's organic apple pear jam....

Day 4
Ok. after my breakdown last night... i decided that i am going to add a little bit of carbs into this plan... under 800 calories a day plus practically no carbs about killed me... today i have eaten less than yesterday, but i added two pieces of toast (whole wheat 40 cal each slice) in and feel pretty darn good. SOOOOO breakdown so far. MF southwest eggs (added a tablespoon of shredded cheese and some salsa and ate it on toast... was very good and filling) 5 oz cod and 1.5 oz chicken with 1.5 cups of green beans... i am still working on the green beans... i have had about 4 hard candies through out the day.. not on my diet, but better than eating a piece of cake! and 2 pieces are about 50 calories so not bad.. the food is about 500 calories total.. the candies add another 100.. so 600ish? and i feel better... go bread go!

The Day:
When I look into The Day I see the past of when we were young and in love The day when we first meet Our first kiss the future that we would had together But that day will never come Because you are gone from Me The Present may be hopeful,I hope If not I will always remember you my love WROTE 2001

Day 53.
There was a lonely sense of discovery to what I was doing.Like I was lost over the horizonin endless salt sprayand dessolate wind.There was no fear of spiders, or crawly things in the night.Only a pastel skyline, empty and free.Tiny chains of islands, and misty sandbars.Why can't it be like this out there?Where I end, and this isn't.Where's your safe sense of infinite adventure?

Day 7
wow..is it really so long since I posted here? I had forgotten all about this so maybe I need to refocus and get on with it a bit... So, day 7 is/was "a song that reminds you of a certain event" The list isn't helpful in that it doesn't specifiy whether it should be a happy or sad event. In spring 2012 I was diagnosed with a skin cancer on the side of my face and although it is/was entirely treatable, at the time it was all very very scary for me. The day I received my diagnosis I headed to Blackpool to watch The Vaccines live at the Winter gardens. I went on my own and for a couple of hours I was entirely lost in the music, the energy and the moment. I was jammed in about 2/3 rows from the front, the crowd was very energetic, it was hot, sweaty and the wooden sprung floor was bouncing like you wouldn't believe. It was a brilliant and amazing gig and just what I needed that day. The song "Wetsuit" was one of my fave songs at the time and I really wanted to hear it live... it i

Day 8
Day 8 - a song you know all of the words to Well, that gives me a huge choice because, like many folk, there are lots of songs I know the words to! Singing along (or belting out the song!) at a live gig can produce every emotion known to man in me and I think I've pretty much had them all, from out and out joy, to sadness, to those rare spine tingling goose-bump raising moments. One such moment was when I heard this song live for the first time. Singing along with many other fans at Nottingham arena (after battling through the snow to get there) with the lightbulbs slowly decending and then surrounding Simon, brought the hairs up on the back of my neck. There are few videos from that actual gig and the sound quality of them isn't great. So, this link is to one of the other gigs they performed it at. I have had the good fortune, to have seen them a few times now including recently in a 900 capacity venue, jam packed with fans knowing the words to every song. They filled the wh

Day 9
Day 9 - A song that you can dance to. As far as I know, you can dance to any song can't you? I certainly don't do choreographed routines so *that* kind of dancing doesn't apply here! This was a bit of an "ip-dip" choice scenario betweem The Black Eyed Peas - I gotta Feeling and the song that I've ended up choosing. "I gotta feeling" is often played at parties, events and weddings as a "floor filler" and I have danced to it under a few spinning disco lights more than once! The song I have actually picked for Day 9 is one that I instantly loved the first time I heard it and it has become one of those songs that will be the cause of me dancing around the lounge without a care in the world. Rather embarrassingly for the friends I was with at the time, I couldn't help myself when this was played in a rather large HMV when we were shopping because I got a little carried away with myself and ended up having a little dance in the aisle. I don't believe in paying any attention to the r

Day 10
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep. Many years ago I used to fall asleep listening to my walkman (kids, ask your parents!) but now I rarely listen to music when I want to go to sleep. I did have a phase not so long ago where I listened to the album The Ghost of Tom Joad by Bruce Springsteen quite a lot. The whole album holds together so well and the mood follows through the album. For various reasons (not for public consumption) I found this quite a soothing album even though the subject matter in the songs is not entirely peaceful and tranquil. It helped me to tune out from the world and everything that was going on in daily life...and I did fall asleep listening to this album more than once. Stripped back and acoustic. Enjoy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_SxLsL3_tE

Day 11
Day 11. A song from your favourite band. Firstly, that isn’t going to be possible because I don’t have 1 favourite band. The band/music/song that I like on any given day is always driven by my mood at the time. However, in order to complete this music challenge I have to pick one. The first band I first saw live (over 20 years ago now) was Bon Jovi and I have seen them many times since then, in fact I’ve not missed a tour yet. Their live gigs are now more about meeting old friends rather than going for the music and although they have a special place in my music library let’s face it, when playing live they have the same big stadium shows with the huge anthem style songs year in year out. Personally I prefer their acoustic stuff, the different versions of the older songs and some of the stuff that the vast majority of the general public didn’t really get to hear (100,000,000 fans can’t be wrong box set anyone?!) The song I’ve chosen is an

Day 12
Day 12 - A song from a band that you hate I am bending or flexing the rules slightly on this one. I can’t possibly choose something from a band I hate for 2 reasons. The first being that I’m not sure I “hate” any one particular band, it’s a strong word. Secondly, by definition if I did hate a band I would struggle to pick a song because I wouldn’t know any of them! So, for this, I am choosing a song from the genre of music that I least like although, as with everything, there are exceptions. I have never really got into rap, hip-hop, grime, dubstep, garage etc. Not entirely sure why but it’s just one of those things. The one exception to this is that I have a fondness for Eminem. I watched 8 mile when it was first released and the movie had a big impact on me, far more than I expected. His book, The Way I am, is a really good read (try it!) and provides a fascinating insight into how he came to the music industry and his outlook on stu

Day 13
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure I have many, but this is the one that was the first to spring to mind. You may think its cheesy; frankly I don’t care! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RFzZ-xpyfoo Come on, sing along... you know you want to :) I believe the sun should never set upon an argumentI believe we place our happiness in other people's handsI believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for youI believe your parents did the best job they knew how to doI believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteemI believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself aloneI believe in Karma what you give is what you get returnedI believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burnedI believe the grass is no more greener on the other sideI believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye Enjoy, Stella x

Day 14
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love Well, I suppose that anyone who knows me really really well would not be surprised by this. I genuinely love this song and get those goose bumps whenever I sing it/hear it. However, it is certainly different from a lot of the song choices so far. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bvouc8Qs_MI Comments welcome...and could prove interesting! Enjoy x

Day 15
Day 15 – A song that describes you This is the choice that has given me the most trouble in trying to decide what to go for. Many songs that I could choose are simply far too personal and would lay everything about me right there on the table. I’m not going to do that! I thought about choosing an up-tempo, fun and lively song that reflects my love of live music. However, we already have a few of those. In addition to that love of live music I’m also known for being fairly straightforward and plain spoken about what I think/feel and in general I will usually try and find an appropriate way to voice my thoughts/feelings/opinion. This song goes along those kinds of lines. I’m a firm believer is saying what needs to besaid, out loud and clearly. From the song... “It's better to say too much Than never to say what you need to say again Even if your hands are shakingAnd your faith is brokenEven as the eyes are closingDo it with a heart wide open... wid

Day 16
Day 16 – A song you used to love but now hate As I’ve said previously I don’t actually “hate” songs so again, I’m bending the rules of the game. This is actually a beautiful song and I wish I was one of those gifted folk who could play the piano piece in this. I don’t hate the song but I don’t listen to itany more because I don’t like the memory associated with it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qx9br5ISRpo

Day 17
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio Well I have quite a few options here but this band is very popular at the moment. I’m often drawn to a band because of the vocal ability of the lead singer and Dan from Bastille did not disappoint when I saw them live earlier this year. This is right at the far end of the “pop music” end of the scale for me re musical taste but hey, who cares about labels? The first link is to an acoustic version of the song performed at the British Museum which I love love love! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27DelLooE1o And this link...is to the standard radio edit version of the song in the spirit of the requirements of Day 17! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F90Cw4l-8NY Enjoy :)

Day 18
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio This song. I Love it. I love the album it comes from. I love the acoustic version. I love the lyrics. I love everything aboutit. I would probably give a kidney to hear this live. However, I mainly love it very very very loud. Listen, listen really hard to the lyrics http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWRsgZuwf_8

Day 19
Day 19 - A song from your favourite album. We have already established that I don't have 1 favourite album/song/artist etc, it's all dependent on how I'm feeling on any given day. I judge albums by how many songs I skip through, and yes, I still buy whole albums rather than the odd individual song in itunes. There are loads and loads of albums that I listen through without skipping any songs so I have plenty to choose from here! My eventual choice (and it took me a while to come to this) is not a recent song or album, but it's one I still listen to and enjoy regularly. The song has the same name as the album title... Enjoy x http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HvliMzAFWHM

Day 20
Day 20 - a song that you listen to when you are angry. If I'm angry, it isn't so much about which song it is I choose (I genuinely don't have a "go to" song when I'm angry) but whatever it is it has to be loud. This band have been around for a while now, lots of great music and some very gifted musicians. I've been lucky enough to see them live more than once, the last time from the front row at Milton Keynes bowl a couple of years ago - that was a very crazy day/night but worth every bump & bruise! There is some naughty language in this video so you might want to be careful if you are listening in public or with delicate ears in range ;) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P34Msrjn5oA

Day 21
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you are sad. Unlike the "angry" choice at day 20 I do have some "go-to" songs when I'm not feeling so chirpy. I nearly went for 3am by Matchbox 20 which is one that gets played quite a bit however the one I've eventually gone for dates waaaay back to 1994. One of a few bands I saw live way back in the days of ripped jean shorts, DMs and crazy hair :) If you've not heard anything by AIC before, where have you been?! Please listen all the way through... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eBB2OS4IoTs

Day 22
Day 22 - a song that you listen to when you are happy. Well, that's rather wide open given that I'm happy for the vast majority of the time that I'm listening to music! This band has been one of the "bands of the summer" featuring at many of the UK festivals. They also undertook a small headline tour of their own with the rather good Langhorne slim and the Law as their support act. The gig I saw them at was at a venue holding less than 1000 people and it was a gig I was lucky enough to watch from the front row. I came away from the gig happy and with a general sense of things being ok with the world. They are on my list to see again, but I know I won't be lucky enough with my gig spot next time! This song has appeared in commercials, tv shows and has been all over the radio this summer so some of you UK folk might be sick of it by now however I don't think you can be anything but happy when listening to the album. So get on your feet, wiggle your bum, dance with me and enjoy

Day 23
Day 23 - A song that you want payed at your wedding. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...oh hang on let me catch my breath...hahahahahahahaha I can't ever imagine getting married in the future so this is not really an appropriate question. However, I will play along with the game and pick a song ;) I've photographed upwards of 50+ weddings so I've heard one or two "wedding songs" in my time! Some have been rather strange choices, some very personal to the bride and groom, others all soft and romantic and then there are the out and out crazy choices. This would probably raise a few eyebrows with any oldies at a wedding - but who cares about that?! Apart from having a great sax part in this song, I think this song says exactly how I would want any groom to feel about me - and not just on a wedding day but for many years after (and I assume other girls feel the same?!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIuutVcTkqk

Day 24
Day 24 - A song that you want to be played at your funeral. Well that's not an easy one. Firstly, if I have karked it then I won't actually care about what is played at my funeral because I'm not going to be around to enjoy it! I suppose I could leave instructions for various tunes to be played but I'm not sure that my music taste would be appreciated by everyone. I could have some fun with those instructions.. "Living in a Box", "we didn't start the fire", "underground" just for starters...hehehehe. Whatever music is played when I've gone is more for those folk who are still alive and it is for them to take what ever comfort they want/can from the music choices. I quite like this, its simple, it's lovely...it's actually a mash up of two songs... but it really is (despite all the crap that goes on in life) a wonderful world. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1bFr2SWP1I Enjoy Stella x

Day 25
Day 25 - a song that makes you laugh. There are very few in this category but this one sprang to mind as one that I actually did laugh out loud to when I first heard it. It's also the right time of year for this.. come on heee haw with me :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQrdxtWgHbE

Day 26
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument I used to play the flute and piano, to some degree I still can but certainly not as well as I used to! I'm not sure how I would go on now....but there was a time when I could play this on either of those two instruments. I think now I might be limited to chopsticks and twinkle twinkle!! hahaha Try and stay awake... :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t894eGoymio

Day 27
Day 27 - A song that you wished you could play on an instrument I wish with every part of me that I was talented enough to play/compose like this guy can. This is probably my fave piece of his...a beautiful piece. It is my aim, when I have some time, to at least get a little bit closer to being able to play this. I present Giovanni Allevi with Secret Love. I really hope you enjoy this as much as I do http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u-plXOt-KDA

Day 29
Day 29 - a song from your childhood. Apart from the usual childrens songs, my childhood was filled with music from the 60's/70's, welsh male voice choirs, country music and Mr Cash - quite a mix! This has long been a fave of mine and takes me directly to some special memories with my mum. Legend. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7K4jH7NqUw Enjoy x

Day 30
Day 30 - Your favourite song from this time last year. Last year? I can barely remember last week never mind last year! Again, I can't say that this was my favourite due to not having one fave song. However, I do recall that it was last summer/autumn that I bought the album "Some nights" by Fun! and around this time of year I was listening to the album quite a bit. Nate has a great voice and the energy that the band put into their live gigs is right up there at the top of the scale. I saw them over in Leeds and had a brilliant time at the gig, their live sound being (in my opinion) better than the production on the album. They seemed to genuinely have a really good time on stage and put everything into the gig. They have had a few chart hits over here so I am not going with the obvious choices of "we are young" or the album title track "some nights" although they are both good songs. My choice; simple, stripped back and acoustic but full of passion. I hope you enjoy it :) h

Day 1
Truly finding this time of year depressing. I am unable to get my children anything at all....i am working but just enough to pay bills....i am in a relationship but it seems to be failing.....and i love being on Fubar but can never buy anyone anything.....sometimes i feel as if id be better off not here and i often wonder....would anybody truly miss me.....

A Day At Home
Nothing much happened here at home today. Me, Mike and the kids got a lot of work done around the house though between laundry, the dishes, cleaning the stove and cleaning the porch we got quite a bit done. Mike and I decided that to reward ourselves for a hard day of work we would go and have supper at Pizza Hut. It was a nice dinner out with the kids. Well I guess that is enough for now.

Day 4 And We Are Bumped To
Hey all, okay yesterday we were dubbed “American Pit Crew” for the removal and replacement of the robots covers! Today we were dubbed “Professionals” for the repair of the covers. And let me tell you it’s not as easy as it seems!!!!!! If fact it is a royal pain in the ass!!! But we did well; we learned all kinds of new techniques today! We also started the mechanical maintenance portion of the robot. That started with oiling, polishing, and verifying that the trumpet works… (I think they had a couple trumpets that just needed to be cleaned LOL) … then we actually moved to the robot! That was fun as hell. Our instructor totally fucked one set of the covers up, then handed them to me and said “repair”. It took me about 20 minutes, but when I was done he said “You Professional Now! You Good Job!” it was funny as hell, especially since he only knows about 15 words in English. It’s all good though, he’s a great guy! Afterwards we went to the bar for dinner (at the hotel), and had a few drin

Day 9 And 10, Busy Busy Busy
Work work work...Yesterday and Today were cool. Yesterday we went over the electrical system, and how it all works! Then today we actually started programming and testing the robot! Cool as hell!!! We have been having a blast! Other than that I have to say THANK YOU to everyone who's been showin the love. Almost up a level, about 200 more points! I will be returning the love this weekend, so don't worry I haven't forgotten about you. I am in the middle of writing reports AND trying to return the love. It's a pain in the ass doing both, and unfortunately I have to concentrate on the reports (my paycheck depends on it)!!!! But I have Saturday morning and Sunday night set aside strictly for returning the luv!!!!! Well I have to get back to my reports, but I'll check in every so often to answer shoutouts, and return love one cherry at a time! Later Gators, -Fred Jr.

A Day At The Mall
Ethan and I visited the local shopping mall this morning. Thursday morning is a good time for shopping. Many people have to work on Thursday morning so the mall is not very busy. We practiced riding the escalator and seemed to do pretty well, however we need a little more work on the getting on/getting off part. Sometimes we fail to pay close attention and stumble a bit. The puppies in the pet store were especially cute. Some were sleeping and some were in a playful mood. We wanted to take one home, but thought better of it because we weren’t sure that our cats would approve. We saw many fine toys at the Disney Store and examined them carefully. But they all seemed to be a bit overpriced. After some discussion we decided to wait and see if any of them go on sale after Easter. Ethan found a balloon behind the counter at one of the specialty clothing stores and seeing no price tag on it, tucked it under his arm and headed for the door. The cashier said that he could

The Day At The Mall
The Day At The Mall by Sweet as can be BBW My girlfriends and I had had been wandering around the mall all day. We loved to just hang out and watch the guys, not the boys. We were all more into the guys in their mid to late twenties. They were always much more handsome and of course more knowledgeable in the art of sex. Although I was the only girl in our group that had never had real sex, just with the dildo that one of the girls had gotten me for Christmas last year. I loved that thing; I had managed my first orgasm with it, but had never been interested enough in a guy I had dated to let him in my pants. I refused to just fuck some guy, not that I was all into being in love. I just know that I could never just throw my sweet pussy into just any bodies lap; I am worth more than that. So anyway, we were hanging in the mall, laughing and having a great time in the food court, when we saw the most intensely magnificent man, he looked like a Greek god; Adonis perhaps. He had a

Dayam Took This Test Omfg
You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know how you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs.Suicide100%Stabbed80%Disappear80%Disease47%Bomb47%Natural Causes47%Posion40%Drowning33%Suffocated33%Gunshot33%Accident20%

Day After Halloween
so my day was SLOW. plus last night was too much fun. we watched all 4 scary movies and ate candy (which we still have a ton of). my sis and her friends were here too. julia, kenny's lil sis, my sis' best friend was there, and philip, and langston...and apperantly (i missed this sadly) philip was a fairy princess. my mom said he made a really good girl. lol i laughed hard. langston remembers me! i'm happy cuz none of my sis' friends remember me and to be honest i was really surprised. we (my friends and i) slept in the basement. the clocks were all wrong and wierd. it was like 7:30 and we felt like it was 10 or something. we finished the movies like, after midnight i think and went to sleep. by then it was a struggle to keep our eyes open (toooooo much sugar!!). i have discovered that the aerobed is much more comfy than my bed. i actually SLEPT on the aerobed and like refused to move in the morning when my mom called us. Half my class skipped until break i think c

A Day At The Races
A Day at the Races The Lineup: 1. Passionate Lady 2. Bare Belly 3. Silk Panties 4. Conscience 5. Jockey Shorts 6. Clean Sheets 7. Thighs 8. Big Dick 9. Heavy Bosom 10. Merry Cherry THEY'RE OFF! Conscience is left behind at the gate. Jockey Shorts and Silk Panties are off in a hurry. Heavy Bosom is being pressured. Passionate Lady is caught by Thighs and Big Dick is in a dangerous spot! AT THE HALF: It's Bare Belly on top, Thighs open and Big Dick is pressed in. Heavy Bosom is being pushed hard against Clean Sheets. Passionate Lady and Thighs are working hard on Bare Belly. Bare Belly is under terrific pressure from Big Dick. AT THE STRETCH: Merry Cherry cracks under the strain. Big Dick is making a final drive. Bare Belly is in and Passionate Lady is coming. AT THE FINISH: It's Big Dick giving everything he's got and Passionate Lady takes everything Big Dick has to offer. It looks like a dead heat but Big Dick comes through with one final thr

The Day After...
Well for me today is Thanksgiving since I worked yesterday... If your a lil hottie and ya want to laugh - shoot me an email.... Hopefully the laughing won't come from ever seeing me nekkidy!! A blessed day to each of you - enjoy it to its fullest!!! Smile and get one back!! See ya around I hope... Tom

Day After ..
So its the day after thanksgiving...busiest shopping day over the year blah blah blah...How many of you nuts were out there at 5 o clock this morning getting those *cough cough* oh so amazing *cough cough* deals? Not me...I did it one year and I'll NEVER do it again..People around here are a buncha Psychos -Worse than usual. Anyways..I'm going back through my list again today and deleting peoples from it.