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Dennis Miller Goes Nuclear On Harry Reid
I saw this show and was mad because I did not record it----now I've got it, and I'm going to keep it. http://hotair.com/archives/2007/06/10/video-dennis-miller-goes-nuclear-on-harry-reid/

Dennis
I don't think I could be any happier! I have found the man of my dreams and I'm secretly planning our wedding LOL. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I love falling asleep next to him at night and I love waking up to him in the morning. I love every damn thing about him! It is so weird actually feeling like I mean something to someone and to be treated like I'm the only thing that matters. Other than my son he is the most important thing to me. I just can't put it into words how I feel for him. If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. - Courtney Kuchta - I LOVE YOU DENNIS!!!!!!!!!!

Dennis Paul In Bodog Battle
Over 20 years out of the game I swore if I ever got back in, it was going to be a wild ride ... As of July 18th I was recruited into the Bodog Battle of the Bands !! Bookmark this link and *** Vote here Daily *** This is huge, Canada, US and Europe, competing for a $1,000,000 contract ... I intend on winning and to that end have begun to assemble a stage show to do the job. And so it begins ... are your in ?? To all Fans, Musicians, Sponsors and Promoters ... Check this blog to see how you can get involved with me on this venture. While this qualifying voting process unfolds, I ponder the wonders of the universe and plan the next phase ... Building a stage show that can win ... and here is where you can get involved If you fit the bill, as per competition rules, drop me a line right away !! Musicians, I can have up to 12 in the band - must be Canadian and have a valid passport Sponsors, We'll need a full compliment of stage gear - get your name involved

Dennis C. Geary
Dennis C. Geary Jr. Irwin Dennis C. Geary Jr., 22, of Irwin, died Sunday, July 8, 2007, as the result of injuries sustained in an automobile accident. Dennis was born May 18, 1985, in Greensburg, a son of Victoria Steiner Focht and her husband, Thomas, of Herminie, and Dennis C. Geary Sr., of Sutersville. He was a 2003 graduate of Yough High School, and attended Westmoreland County Community College. He participated in mixed martial arts and was a car enthusiast. He was employed by the Laurel Highlands Foundation, in North Versailles, where he was a program assistant. In addition to his parents, he is survived by his loving family; his maternal grandparents, Jerry and Gloria Steiner, of Irwin; his maternal great-grandmothers, Phyllis Balog, of Herminie, and Edna Mae Steiner, of Darragh; and his paternal grandmother, Ruth Ann Bernard, of Sutersville. He is also survived by his fiancee, Chelsea Smouse, of West Newton; and his aunts and uncles, Jerry and Debra Steiner, and Dana Geary. F

Dennis F Chambless Iv
Not sure if you don't already know but I love my son to death. Here it is I am almost 30 years old and I have this wonderful woman that has given me the boy that I have always wanted and waited so long to get. I never knew what it was like to have something that is so beautiful that I could call mine and will always be mine till the day that I die. If you know me you will know that I have been in a lot of relationships where she already had a child but it wasn't the same. I would never mistreat their child but I knew that he/she wasn't mine. I am sorry I just wanted to write down some of my thoughts. Thanks

Dennis The Menace
Drink Name: Dennis the Menace Category: Shooter Glass Type: Shot Glass Ingredients: 1 oz Malibu Coconut Rum 1 oz Peach Schnapps 1 splash(es) Cranberry Juice 1 splash(es) Pineapple Juice Directions: Pour into mixer with ice, shake well and pour into shot glass, serve and enjoy.

Dennisc214
Ok be the first to vip this man and you will recieve *1 morph,*1 pic modification,*100 11 ratings during happy hour (any other pics u have u will get 10's on),*30k fubucks*one profile comment per day,*and one special VIP Big pimpin Gift..so who wants all this. If it is you.. vip him and let me knowdennisc214@ fubar

Dennisc214
Ok everyone this is dennishe's a big time point whorelolbut he always returns the luvthat is given to him he's tryin to reach fulordand still needs over 100k pointsPlz help him out as much as you canI appreciate it, and so would heP.S. If you a girl and think he's sexy let him know loldennisc214@ fubar

Den Nubiske Tiger
nubiancheetah.blogspot.com: Some scientists believe that there were tigers in Africa a million years ago, but some species died out. The more recent hopes that the continent would generate tiger economies have been equally blighted. Afrika, eller ihvertfall egyptisk mytologi trenger en tiger. Jeg vet ikke hvem som innførte begrepet Nubisk Tiger først, men det kan ha vært en nordmann. Tigerstaden som navn på Christiania er eldgammelt. Om enn kanskje betydningen var Tigger-staden. Et sted med mange tiggere og løsgjengere. Tett tåke i gatene og bondefangere på hvert hjørne. Nubia er en region i det sørlige Egypt, langs Nilen og er i dag en del av det sørlige Sudan. Jeg innfører herved Nubia som en ny Gudinne i Egypt.

Denny's 2009
So my first week back to work since i took my maternity leave in March, wow my new job is great i never thought working in a brand new restruant for Denny's could ever be as much fun as I've had this week! It's wonderful I am so happy and you can't even imagine! It feels so great to get to go back to work!!!

Dennis Hopper
LOS ANGELES (AP) — Dennis Hopper, the high-flying Hollywood wild man whose memorable and erratic career included an early turn in "Rebel Without a Cause," an improbable smash with "Easy Rider" and a classic character role in "Blue Velvet," has died. He was 74.Hopper died Saturday at his home in the Los Angeles beach community of Venice, surrounded by family and friends, family friend Alex Hitz said. Hopper's manager announced in October 2009 that he had been diagnosed with prostate cancer.The success of "Easy Rider," and the spectacular failure of his next film, "The Last Movie," fit the pattern for the talented but sometimes uncontrollable actor-director, who also had parts in such favorites as "Apocalypse Now" and "Hoosiers." He was a two-time Academy Award nominee, and in March 2010, was honored with a star on Hollywood's Walk of Fame.After a promising start that included roles in two James Dean films, Hopper's acting career had languished as he developed a reputation for thro

Denny's To Charge 5% 'obamacare Surcharge' And Cut Employee Hours To Deal With Cost Of Legislation Read More: Http://www.dailymail.co.uk/
's election victory ensured his Affordable Care Act would remain the centerpiece of his first term in power - but that has left some business owners baulking at the extra cost Obamcare will bring. Florida based restaurant boss John Metz, who runs approximately 40 Denny's and owns the Hurricane Grill & Wings franchise has decided to offset that by adding a five percent surcharge to customers' bills and will reduce his employees' hours. With Obamacare due to be fully implemented in January 2014, Metz has justified his move by claiming it is 'the only alternative. I've got to pass on the cost to the customer.' A Florida restaurant owner who runs 40 franchises of the Denny's restaurant chain has threatened to add a five percent surcharge to customers bills in an effort to combat Obamacare The fast-food business owner is set to hold meetings at his restaurants in December where he will tell employees, 'that because of Obamacare, we are going to be cutting front-of-the-ho

Dennis
Dennis was like an Uncle to me he was my step father's best friend and he loved music and movies. Very Knowledgable about them too. In 1994 he was diagnosed with Brain and lung cancer but as he had had cancer before I thought he would beat it just as he did before. In October of 1994 we went to Concord NH to visit him, his wife and three children. It was a good visit but when we went to leave he followed us outside and gripped my hand as not to ever let go. I promised I would be back and nothing was going to happen to him. I made it back that following January by that time he was with the angels and we were there to lay him to rest. I broke my promise I was 15 when I made that promise and now at 35 I still regret not being able to keep it. Dennis you are missed more than words can convey and I am sorry Love Jenny.

Den Of Illusionzzzz - Check It Out! ;o)
HEY YA'LL THIS IS MY NEW LOUNGE...... PLEASE COME CHECK IT OUT AND JOIN WHEN YA GET THE CHANCE...? WOULD LOVE TO SEE YA IN THERE! ( btw, I'm a dj in it too if ya didn't already know lol ) LIVE DJ'S - WE PLAY YOUR FAVORITE SONG/GROUPS REQUESTS - FRIENDLY FUN MEMBERS - NO DRAMA! LET'S BUILD UP A HAPPY FUN FRIENDLY FAMILY! ;O) CLICK ON THE PIC BELOW TO ENTER.......THANX LUV YA'S! XOXOX'S .....JADE :D

Den Of Illusionzzzz.......
HEY YA'LL THIS IS MY NEW LOUNGE...... PLEASE COME CHECK IT OUT AND JOIN WHEN YA GET THE CHANCE...? WOULD LOVE TO SEE YA IN THERE! ( btw, I'm a dj in it too if ya didn't already know lol ) LIVE DJ'S - WE PLAY YOUR FAVORITE SONG/GROUPS REQUESTS - FRIENDLY FUN MEMBERS - NO DRAMA! LET'S BUILD UP A HAPPY FUN FRIENDLY FAMILY! ;O) CLICK ON THE PIC BELOW TO ENTER.......THANX LUV YA'S! XOXOX'S .....JADE :D

Denote The Stars....
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/tropical_weather Growing Ike nears Turks and Caicos, south Bahamas By BEN FOX, Associated Press Writer 36 minutes ago A strengthening Hurricane Ike loomed over this low-lying island chain Saturday as a dangerous Category 4 storm, prompting thousands of people to evacuate while those staying behind hunkered down and hoped for the best. As the massive gray wall of clouds approached from the east, people poured into the main supermarket in Providenciales, expecting that power would be knocked out and that food would suddenly become scarce. Shopkeepers and homeowners covered windows with plywood. Boats were hauled ashore or secured with multiple anchors. "I am very, very nervous," said John Moore, a fishing boat captain, as he tied down his 61-foot vessel in a Providenciales cove. "It looks like it might go right over us, so that's not a good picture." Ike's eye was about 90 miles (145 kilometers) east of Grand Turk Island Saturday aftern

De Nordamerikanske Indianerne
Hvis vi ser inkaene, aztekerne og mayaene som speilbilder av vår kultur må vi avslutningsvis ta med de nordamerikanske amerikanerne og deres Ulve-religion. Fenomenet gjenspeiler Anubis som problem. Hvis jeg har rett i at Anubis dannet grunnlaget for en forståelseshorisont mot Løvinnen er det opplagt at dette var mulig å angripe. Romernes Ulvemor var kun avslutningen. Det holdt for besøkende å poengtere at tross alt var hunder mulig å ligge med. Det poenget knekte imidlertid ikke Egypt. Anubis ble satt til balsameringstjeneste. Som forståelseshorisont mot kaos er han uangripelig. Problemet er at Amon som ble den avslutningsvise hovedguden i Egypt umulig kunne ha en annen funksjon enn en forsøksvis tilnærming til kvinnelig selvstendiggjøring. Amon fungerer innad i Egypt og ble derfor populær. Dette gjenspeiles i våre dagers kvinneidealer. Amon som Vær danner ingen forståelseshorisont mot Løvinnen. Væren blir ikke klokere av å slippes ut for å slaktes av rovdyr. Dessut

* Density *
Density Level The 5 fixed stages or phases of densification within the Primal Order of a Time Matrix, within which consciousness expresses in its manifestation and incarnation into externalized space-time-matter experience. The 5 Density Levels are fixed fields of electromagnetic reality that compose the Primal Order and structure of one 15-dimensional Time Matrix. Each Density Level represents one 3-dimensional reality field, or Harmonic Universe. The Density of matter manifestation within each Density Level or Harmonic Universe is governed by the ratio between vibration and oscillation within the Primal Energy Units (Partiki) of conscious energy that form the scalar-standing wave templates upon which the spherical electro-magnetic domain of the Harmonic Universe manifests. (Masters Templar Stewardship Initiative – Page 21) Harmonic Universe ,Density Level, Hova Bodies & Identity Level HU/Dimensions Density Type Hova Bodies Identi

Dense
mystery, is easy, hide in the fog of your creation. forgetting, that distance breeds distance, and the astronomy that allows us to find one another, grows more complex because of added trajectory. earthbound fog, complecates our telescopes even more, you create it, I create it. and all of it, hides out stars.

Den Standiga Resan
The Perpetual Journey When I think of the perpetual journey through life When it always feels like autumn The wind moves slowly to the north And the flowers die Rain falls in my dreams I must travel again and search for comfort I must search again for the voice of tenderness I must travel again to next autumn The perpetual journey to next autumn When I wander on the stony road through life When it felt like I carried a sorrow Then the sun hides slowly in the clouds and [indisinct] goodbye Soon the snow falls in my dreams I must travel again and search for comfort I must search again for the voice of tenderness I must travel again to next autumn The perpetual journey to next autumn Oooo the perpetual journey to next autumn [Den Standiga Resan-Opeth]

Dense Yeah, Sometimes
I am an average woman. Sugar and spice, and everything nice. Cherry pie served hot and tender. I am even dense sometimes but I ain't fucking stupid. So it is like get the message. I already know that it don't really matter how many people you tell, there is always some that don't have a clue. I have tried to get the news out, in my blogs, that I am not interested in anyones push up pop. I would like to find someone, but I don't really think its online. I have been used and abused by people I met online. I hold hope that something better is out there waiting for me. My someone knows I ain't a ragdoll or a bitching pyscho. He treats me like the person I am, not who he wants me to be. He can wait and not hurry me. Best of all, he accepts me and doesn't want me to change. May just be unimportant to everyone else, but see, it is all I ask. Knight in shining armor or a gentleman in jeans and no shirt, he is my dream, my one and only. He is smart but no smart ass. He is educated but not cor

The Dentist
THE DENTIST A man goes to the dentist to have a tooth pulled. The dentist takes out a needle to give the man a shot of Novocain. "No way, no needles, I can't stand needles." The dentist starts to hook up the laughing gas but the man again objects. "No gas, please the mask on my face is suffocating to me." The dentist then asks if the man has any objection to taking a pill. "No," said the patient "I'm fine with pills." The dentist then returns and says, "Here's a Viagra tablet." The patient says, "Wow, I didn't know Viagra worked as a pain pill." "It doesn't,"said the dentist, "but it will give you something to hold on to when I pull out your tooth."

Dentists
A Girl's First Time (Assume you are a girl if you are a guy) It's your first time. As you lie back your muscles tighten. You put him off for a while searching for an excuse, but he refuses to be swayed as he approaches you. He asks if you're afraid and you shake your head bravely. He has had more experience, but it's the first time his finger has found the right place. He probes deeply and you shiver; your body tenses; but he's gentle like he promised he'd be. He looks deeply within your eyes and tells you to trust him - he's done this many times before. His cool smile relaxes you and you open wider to give him; more room for an easy entrance.You begin to plead and beg him to hurry, but he slowly takes his time, wanting to cause you as little pain as possible. As he presses closer, going deeper, you feel the tissue give way pain surges throughout your body and you feel the slight trickle of blood as he continues. He looks at you concerned and asks you if it's too painful.Your eye

Dentist
My wisdom tooth has been hurting for 5 days now and I have plucked up the courage to go see a dentist :( I am sitting here shaking as I really hate the dentist and I know I am going to cry when I get there. I just want the pain to stop, I had 2 hours sleep last night it hurts so much.

The Dentist
A guy and a girl meet at a bar. They get along so well that they decide to go to the girl's place. A few drinks later, the guy takes off his shirt and then washes his hands. He then takes off his trousers and washes his hands again. The girl has been watching him and says, "You must be a dentist." The guy, surprised, says, "Yes.... How did you figure that out?" "Easy," she replied, "you keep washing your hands." One thing leads to another and they make love. After they are done, the girl says, "You must be a good dentist." The guy, now with a boosted ego, says, "Sure, I'm a good dentist, how did you figure that out?" "Didn't feel a thing!"

Dentist
Thursday I had a dentist appointment. I told my family I would be ok . I was justgettign two teeth pulled. Having kids takes alot out of a woman so this went bad in the back of my mouth. By the time I got to the dentist office I was already shaking like a leaf. I really didn't wotn ot do this but I new i needed to. One tooth was affectign my sinus and therefore interfering with my breathing. Once the dentist talked to me he then put me in his chair. My shaking increased. I was so scared tears were at the edge of my eyes. I was suppose to have a friend with me but I guess I pissed him off becasue I wouldn't go to his place afterwards. I didn't want to becasue ther is only ONE man I want and I wont except anyone else. The dentist held the kneedle to my mouth and before i knew it tears were coing down my checks. The crying got worse as the dentist and the hygenist whipped my eyes. I have NEVER creid like that at the dentist but I guess all that I have been thru the last

Dental What?
AHHHH another monday in the dental clinic. Now dont get me wrong I love where I work and I truely do enjoy what I do. Let me explain I work the a free dental clinic that offers services to those whom can not afford dental care, and as you all are aware of dental treatment is very expensive and there is nothing worse than a toothache. But as always I am so amazed at what I see. Ok if you have a tooth that is bothering you please please do not wait two years to get it taken care of. That hole in the tooth is not going to get any smaller. Alrighty that was my rant for the day. Time for me to drink a nice cold beer. yummy!

Dentists Are Evil
Dentists are evil. Of course I have no real proof to support my claim but from my observations, dentists are demons. They are armed with sharp metal objects, drills, grinders, files and guns (filled with water but it may as well be acid). They use x-rays to see inside your head and they figure out ‘what’s wrong’. But I don’t think they are helpful! I think they are trying to kill me! You see, I went to the dentist last night. I was expecting a filling. I would go in, smile at the nurse, sit down and await the demon. He would numb me (with a needle, of course), drill me and fill me and that would be that. I would be on my way. Instead this is what happened: I went in. I smiled at the nurse. She took an x-ray and exclaimed “Oh my god! Look at that sucker. Looks like someone took an ice pick to your mouth!” Yea… Just what I needed to hear, you TWIT! Dentist came in. Dentist (here on out referred to as Demon) pulled out his little mirror. Demon pried my mouth open a

Dentists
So one of my teeth broke, and started to hurt, i mean like oh my fucking god hurt. A week or two of this go by and rather than taking pliers to my own skull (very tempted) i decide to go to the dentist. I hate dentists. Ok continuing on, I'm poor, so i have to find an "affordable" dentist. In otherwords cheap. I find the western dental center, further to be referred to as hell. Namely one my apointment means nothing and i sit in the waiting room for almost 2 hours. Finally a radiologist who knows all of 4 words in english begins to shove terribly uncomfortable cards in my mouth. she came back 3 times to redo the same shots. anyways, finally i get escorted to my room. well room is a misnomer alcove perhaps. now to explain this room it's like 4 feet across and the back wall and corner is filled with all there surplus toilet paper and paper towels. all stacked to the ceiling, my chair sorta propped in the middle. After explaining to some lady that i dont hav

Dentist Appt And Cat
I went to see my dentist today and I do have a bad infection in my tooth.The infection got in my blood stream which is why my neck is so sore.They have me on antibiotics and will pull it June 10th.Yes I have pain meds.Ok my cat last night she had seizures.Why I have no idea.If it happens again tonight we are taking her to a vet.She is fine at the moment.

Dentist
I've had this tooth that has been bothering me off and on for awhile now, but kept putting off going to the dentist. Well Tuesday it started hurting again and this time it pretty much stayed. Yesterday the RedCross people were at my work.. they come every so often and people donate blood. I always donate if I'm at work on the day they are there. Yesterday was no different. I wake up this morning and had started my monthly .. yeah .. fun fun.. and was totally drained. Not sure if it was the combo of giving blood yesterday then losing more today LOL anyways I stayed home from work.. decided I should call the dentist too. They got me in.. did x-rays.. he asked me which toothe was bothering me. I told him. But said he could just go ahead and pull the broken one beside it! Everything was great, we ran errands afterwards.. had to pick up buns,meat & cheese to make the sandwhichs for after the game for the football team. But now that we're home and the numbing is wearing off my mouth HUUUUU

Dental Surgury
well i know that i told 1 or 2 of you that my daughter was has dental work done today thrue day surgury. im going to tell you she did great and is doing good still. she had gotten 5 or 6 teeth filled and her dentist had to pull 2 of them. but she is fine. so anyways just thought some of you would like to know.

Dentist
An old Texas cowboy went to the dentist with a toothache. After anexamination, the dentist told the cowboy he had a tooth that had to comeout. He said, "I'm going to give you a shot of Novocain and I'll be backin just a few minutes." The old cowboy grabbed the doc's arm and said, "No way. I hate needlesand I ain't havin' no shot!" The dentist said, "That's okay, we'll just go with gas instead." The cowboy replied, "Gas makes me sick. I ain't havin' no gas either." Without saying a word, the dentist turned and left the room for a minuteand when he came back, he handed the cowboy a glass of water and said,"Here, take this pill." The cowboy looked at the pill and asked, "What is it?" The doc replied," It's Viagra." The old cowboy looked surprised and asked, "Will that kill the pain?" "No," replied the dentist, "but it'll give you something to hang on towhile I pull that tooth."

Dentist
Today sucked, hard core. well most of you who know mw know that I work at a school and am a teachers aid for 25 kinders and I also have my own three children when I get home. So most think I am nuts but I would love to be at work instead of home at this point today, I had a dentist appt. there were to see why i was in so much pain. well I figured work on a few teeth, a few fillins so on. nope. They decided to pull a tooth and in the process, pulled my jaw out of place and cracked my jaw bone. Now if you really Know me you would think that I am just fine. NOT I passed out on the living room floor, havent done that in awhile and last time I did I ended up in my birthday suite when I woke, lol, anyway I am in pain and the pills make me goffy, k now that I just pretty much picked on my self talk to ya all laterz. ~COPE~

The Dentist
A man walks into the dentist\'s office with aline toothache, and after the dentist examines him, he says, \"That tooth has to come out. I\'m going to give you a shot of Novocaine and I\'ll be back in a few minutes.\" The man grabs the dentist\'s arm, \"No way. I hate needles. I\'m not having any shot!\" So the dentist says, \"Okay, we\'ll go with the gas.\" The man replies, \"Absolutely not. It makes me sick for a couple of days. I\'m not having gas.\" So the dentist steps out and comes back with a glass of water, \"Here,\" he says. \"Take this pill.\" The man asks, \"What is it?\" The doc replies, \"Viagra.\" The man looks surprised, \"Will that kill the pain?\" \"No,\" replies the dentist, \"but it will give you something to hang on to while I pull your tooth.\"

A Dentist's Wisdom
A man went to the dental surgeon to have a tooth pulled. The dentist pulls out a freezing needle to give the man. "No way! No needles! I hate needles!" the patient said. The dentist starts to hook up the laughing gas and the man again objects. "I can't do the gas thing - the thought of having the gas mask on is suffocating to me!" The dentist then asks if the man has any objection to taking a pill. "No,"- the patient says, -"I am fine with pills". The dentist then returns and says, "Here is a Viagara tablet." The patient says, "Wow - I didn't know Viagara worked as a pain pill!" "It doesn't,"- said the dentist -"but it will give you something to hold onto when I pull out your tooth."

Dentist
I admit it. I am scared to go to the dentist. It's not for the reason you think though. I'm not afraid of the needles, or the drill, or of pain. I'm afraid of how much it is going to cost to finally get the braces I ought to have had as a teenager. If you hear a really loud thud from this direction tomorrow morning that will be the sound of me hitting the floor in a dead faint when they give me the estimate.

Dentist Bill
A woman phoned her dentist when she received a huge bill. "I'm shocked!" she complained. "This is three times what you normally charge." "Yes, I know," said the dentist. "But you yelled so loud, you scared away two other patients."

Dentist
so i went to the dentist today, for a oral surgery consulation, it will cost us a little over $800 for the surgery, dont know how we are going to pay it yet, and we dont know when its gonna happen, i just want to keep everyone up to date on whats going on

Dentist With Not So Great Hands...
Good Morning and hello there. You ever determine that some people are not meant for certain jobs they specialize in? I have many stories along this line but this one takes the cake. No this is not about a cake thief! It’s about a DDS in Florida…hmm Florida Imagine that…Ok here is the story. Let’s call this the story of the Dentist Who Hates It When That Happens: Anne Greer filed a lawsuit in June against Winter Park, Fla., dentist Wesley Meyers over the death of her father last year during procedures to secure his dentures with implants. During the October 2006 visit, Meyers had accidentally dropped a screwdriver down the patient's throat, which required a colonoscopy to remove. The man returned the following year to give Meyers another chance (against his daughter's wishes), and during that procedure, Meyers accidentally dropped a torque wrench down his throat, creating problems that ultimately proved fatal. Now let’s be honest here. Why in the world would this guy still have his lice

Dental Surgery 07/08/08
Not good at venting but here it goes.... Ok... so due to losing the Enamal & Calicum from my teeth due to lots of problems (not counting lots of meds I take which doesn't help) etc. My teeth have been breaking apart & the fillings are popping out. Which has me in pain everyday and hurts to eat just about anything (the upside: I lose weight). I'm not a fan of the dentist & to be honest, I'm a big baby to the pain. Just going to the dentist for a routine check-up & cleaning freaks me out and is very painful for me. After so long of putting it off due to being scared and nervous, I decided to finally make an appointment & go to the dentist, plus face my fear. So my appointment for dental surgery was scheduled (1pm in the afternoon...geesh!) & I'm told not to eat or drink anything after midnight the night before coming in. So I go to this new dentist yesterday to get all of my bottom teeth removed, and was surprised how compassionate the dentist &

Dentist
I went to the dentist this morning. And I've discovered that I really enjoy having someone scrape my teeth and floss them for me. I don't know what it is. I feel so weird. But I like having someone's hands in/around my mouth. I'm such a weirdo. I had no cavities and everything looked great, said the dentist. My insurance is gone on my birthday. But I have to see an oral surgeon about my wisdom teeth. I'm almost 23 years old and I still need braces. Ugh. I don't have the money for that, but I'm tired of my messed up toofies. By the way, I got a purdy mouf now. I'm done rambling now. You may continue about your day.

Dentist
I went to the dentist today because of my bottom front teeth, yeah, the ones I still have left. She had previously taken advice from another dentist and the pair of them together hadn't thought my teeth were cracked. However, there is a line across all 3 at the bottom which they had originally put down to a quirk as I was only having problems with one. She did that thingy test where they put that cold liquid on to see if you get a reation .. nothing! My middle front one has definately died but she is unsure about the other 2. She is going to do a root canal filling in 2 weeks to the middle one but if she finds it is broken I will lose it. She says I need extensive treatment on all 3 teeth and will need to go up the dental hospital. She has also given me really strong antibiotics which mean i'll be do dahing for England over the next few days ... nothing like a good clear-out, huh? If all 3 are broken I will have them all pulled and a bridge fitted ..... trying to look on the brigh

Dental Insurance - Is It Really Worth It
2-18-11 There is 2 types of insurances, PPO and HMO. With PPO, Preferred Provider Organization, the provider (dentist) can be either in network or out of network. What this means is if the provider is out of network, you can see any provider you want. It is the patient’s responsibility to pay for the difference of the treatment. For example, if a crown cost $1,000 and the insurance pays $700, the patient is responsible for the other $300. Now, if the provider is in network, then the insurance will dictate the cost of the treatment. This means that if the crown is $1,000 and the insurance says that their price is $900, the provider can NOT collect the $100 difference. The provider has to write off the $100. Collection of this difference is considered as fraud. With HMO, Health Maintenance Organization, you can only see that particular provider. Personally, I think HMOs in dentistry are a fraud. With this type of plan, the patient’s cleanings and xrays ar

Dentist Or Nay?
So I haven't been for a dental check-up since I came off the NHS and my old dentist charges £60+ just for a check-up. But I haven't had any problems with my teeth ever apart from a small filling when I was about 7. But I dunno...I mean there's a possibility that there might be something wrong with my teeth but it's not something that hurts so I wouldn't know? All dental problems hurt right? I knooooooooow it's health and all that shiz...but 60 pounds could be spent on other things...like a dress. (I soo got my priorities right lolz). And I'm going to the opticians next week and I deffo need glasses and the only frames I like are Police ones so that will set me back about 150 odd for the frames and then there's the lenses which would be about 80-90 pounds on top. Aaaaaaaaaaargh and my lil stash of moolah is getting smaller and smaller... I should get a job really... But I don't feel like it.

Dental Tourisms, Mexico Hotel, Mexico Vacation
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Den Traditionella Kläder Kalla Fall Där Kunderna Contrarian Tillväxt
Kläder industrins tillväxt avtar. Rapporten precis släppt från Golden State Securities, Kinas textil-och är klädindustrin under 2012 definieras som "fadd". Som inkluderar antingen export eller inhemsk försäljning, kläder effektivitet sektorn 2012 minskade notoriskt utmärkta prestanda på den inhemska marknaden av utländska high-street märken tvingade också ett lågt pris rabatt till Showmanship. "Double 11" är den traditionella klädindustrin att spela en "stimulerande", att förlita sig på Internet kanal försäljning, där kunderna Eslite har nyligen meddelat en ökning med nästan 30% av försäljningen under de tre första kvartalen, är det fjärde kvartalet intäkter syn. Internet varumärkets vår komma? Traditionella kläder detaljhandeln erfarenhet "vinter" Den 2012 Kina kläder församling i Peking nyligen. Hedersordförande Kina Textile Industry Association Du Chau underströk att fortsätta den omfattande utvecklingen av det gamla sättet att leva, eller att bryta ny mark med stormsteg ovanför d

Dentist
Yesterday morning I had to go to the dentist to get 5 teeth pulled, along with stitches. I've been taking prescription ibuprofen and xanax to help me sleep it off. I'm not in too much pain today which surprises me. So much for handbell choir practice tonight, and we play Thursday on Thanksgiving. The church is still closed to the public due to the fire so we will be playing in the school. I go back to the dentist in a couple of weeks to get temporary teeth. I can't wait. i look aweful lol. And least I 'm getting my teeth fixed. It will be a long process though. I don't have to go back to work till Monday. I used my last 3 sick days(through Wed) and have Thursday and Friday off for holiday. Wed. I have to take Fiestysmee to Pope Animal Hospital to have surgery. Poor baby. He has a cyst on his head that needs to be removed. $400 bucks man. Hope you guys have a safe holiday Thursday.

De Nuevo,
De nuevo, esto está muy en la vena del iPhone, pero es un contraste con los teléfonos Galaxy de Samsung, que tienen espaldas presuntuoso plásticas que le permiten cambiar las baterías y enchufe en tarjetas de memoria. moviles baratos La cámara hace algo interesante, pero los resultados son decepcionantes. Es bien sabido que el aumento del número de megapíxeles de sensores de la cámara en realidad no hace mucho por la calidad de imagen, pero los fabricantes de teléfonos y la cámara parece que no puede dejar de usar número de megapíxeles como herramienta de marketing, por lo que los megapíxeles siguen subiendo. HTC finalmente ha tomado una posición en contra de esta tendencia, con un sensor de la cámara que tiene sólo 4 MP de resolución. Es una postura tímida, aunque, como HTC en realidad no digo que es un sensor de 4 MP. Más bien, HTC llama una cámara "Ultrapixel". La historia es que los píxeles del sensor son dos veces tan grande como lo son en la mayoría de las cámaras de los teléf

Denver Voters Can Ride To Polls In Style
Denver voters can ride to polls in style Sat Oct 28, 7:07 AM ET Don't feel like standing in line on Election Day? In Denver, you can get a limo ride to the polls if you take advantage of early voting Saturday. Fearing that new voting machines, new voting centers and a ballot full of measures could create gridlock Nov. 7, a coalition of advocacy groups is offering door-to-door service to the city's six new voting centers. "We're expecting a lot of confusion, voter fatigue and, because of the long ballot, we're expecting long lines on Election Day," Lindsey Hodel, a spokeswoman for the limo effort, said Friday. Her coalition includes groups aiming to increase turnout among Hispanic women and black voters. The coalition is nonpartisan, though some of its members have endorsed some proposals on the ballot. The group has reserved two limos to handle pickup requests. To get as many people to the polls as possible, the limos will be making multiple stops to fit up to eight

Denver News
Subject: Fw: Denver News] -------------- > THINK ABOUT THIS FOR A MOMENT. > > Denver Post: > > This text is from a county emergency manager out > in the central part of Colorado after todays > snowstorm. > > WEATHER BULLETIN > > Up here, in the Northern Plains, we just recovered > from a Historic event--- may I even say a "Weather > Event" of "Biblical Proportions" --- with a historic > blizzard of up to 44" inches of snow and winds to 90 > MPH that broke trees in half, knocked down utility > poles, stranded hundreds of motorists in lethal snow > banks, closed ALL roads, isolated scores of > communities and cut power to 10's of thousands. > > FYI: > > George Bush did not come. > > FEMA did nothing. > > No one howled for the government. > < BR>> No one blamed the government. > > No one even uttered an expletive on TV . > > Jesse Jackson or Al Sharpton did not visit. > > Our Mayor did not blame Bush or any

Denver!!
Woo Hoo!!! Made it to Denver Sunday night. Long ass trip but the house is still standing and other than the mouse colony in the garage it seems to be good. Truck didn't start and had a flat tire but nothing major. Been busy running around, setting up appointements and all... fun fun fun I'm in such culture shock it's not even funny! Man... ttfn!

Denver...also, I Need Help...
Well, I'll be leaving out early Saturday morning for Denver, Colorado...I have a photo shoot that I'm being paid five hundred dollars for...I can't wait! It's for www.DangerousCurveDesigns.com I miss all of you...It's been awhile since I got on...I wasn't able to take full advantage of my VIP status because I've been away for over two weeks...If anyone could be kind enough to buy me a gift vip, i'll return the favor when my bank card comes in...I'll rate everything you have 11s...And every time you upload something new! Thanks so much!

Denver Marijuana Panel Backs $1 Penalty On Small Amounts
Denver's marijuana policy review panel agreed Wednesday to send a letter to the presiding judge of Denver County Court urging a $1 fine as penalty for possession of marijuana of less than an ounce.The current fine schedule indicates a $50 fine for such offenses, plus a $100 drug surcharge required by the state of Colorado and a $10 "bureau fee."Mason Tvert, a member of the panel and the executive director of Safer Alternative for Enjoyable Recreation, which has pushed decriminalizing possession of small amounts of marijuana, said state law requires the surcharge and the $10 bureau fee.He said that if Presiding Judge Marcy Celeste accepts the recommendations, the penalty would still stand at $111.Tvert said lowering the fine would send a message to police "that it is not worth their time or the court's to issue any more citations."The panel agreed to send the letter to the judge on a 6-2 vote.Christopher Osher, The Denver Post

Deny Me The Truth . . .
Deny me the truth . . . I feel as though all I am is a lie and that all I will ever be are the tears forming in the shaded corners of your eyes reflecting your pain trying desperately not to fall that I may never have the satisfaction of being the cause of your anguish your misery denying me your tears as though they are all I desire Damn you for thinking that would bring me pleasure for thinking me less of a man than I already feel and damn you for allowing me so deep within your heart that I might be the one to break it that I should be the reason for you to give up on trust and hope Damn you for loving me for making it so hard to walk away December 1, 2006 Ezequiel J. Flores Jr.

Deny My Will
Suppress, me if you must Belittle my pride I shall take it in stride For your heart is corrupt I have read in the skies The writing of strength I shall never relent For my feelings are mine I do pity your heart For emotions you lack A desire that is black To tear my soul apart Look into my soul See the light that shines through For all that you do I shall always stand tall done by christine .

Deny
DenyBlack eyesIgnoreOnce more ChooseTo refuseDefeatThier criesDefyThe truthAbusedYou stayAwayA beltWeltsThier eyesHideThe painDisdainIt's realFeelYour heartStartTo breakForsakeYour prideSubsideSpeak outShoutIt endsWhenWe standDemandA change

Deny
Today I woke up and you were gone The whole day wondering what I did wrong It's like I'm falling from a mountaintop My heart keeps pounding and it won't stop Can you see this hell I'm living I'm not giving up Will you crawl to me Will you fall with me I'll never crawl to you I've done it all for you Well don't deny The hand that feeds you needs you Oh god I'd die to try to Finally please you There goes a piece of me Will I cease to be I've never lied to you Fought bled and died for you Well don't deny The hand that takes you breaks you Oh god I'd die to try to Finally please you There she goes and I'm on the ground, I'm on the ground, I'm on the Well don't deny The hand that feeds you needs you Oh god I'd die to try to Finally please you Will you crawl to me Will you fall with me I've never crawled to you I've done it all for you

Deny This!!!
OMFG... Now, I am not being a bitch...at least I don't THINK I'm being a bitch. I'm a very nice person for the most part...unless you piss me off. But, anyway, I should be flattered that I receive so many friend requests--but, I'm not. See...guys just click "add as friend" based on whatever pic they see. However, most do not take the time to check out my profile. If they would do so, they would see that I request that they send me a message....not a blank freakin' friend request. A sweet friend gave me a blast a while back and I am still "recovering" from it...lol If any of you have ever had a blast, you know that it can be overwhelming--at least it is/was for me. See, I still have not gotten to the bottom of the pile yet...er is that the top? lol Anyway, I just feel like it's kind of disrespectful to just throw a blank friend request out there...but, m/b that's just me. I don't care about rates and all of that shit...If I did, I'd simply click on "accept all"....well, h

Denying Fate
The act of forbidden love Such betrayal and lies The knife is sharp The blood is dripping from the heart How to fix such chaos To bend the rules Oh such sorrow for the suffering They can't go back We can't change the past So the tears will not help There will be no more sorries An act of true love The fate of two people Are they destined to be? Its already known in the hearts The hearts of two Always one will get hurt So this forbidden love Is this possibly the true love? Are they denying fate? Fate can't lose it always wins They will lose They do belong Now all they do is wait Written and Created by: KMD

Deny Addiction
I don't have a problem, It's not like I'm under attack. I don't have an addiction, It's not like I'm smoking crack. It's just marijuana, It's really OK. I don't have an addiction, I don't do it every day. Now I do it every day, But not in the morning. I don't have an addiction, So you shouldn't be in warning. Now I smoke it all day, But I'm not sniffing cocaine. I don't have an addiction OK, maybe trying it won't give me pain. Hey, it's not that bad, I'll just do it on weekends, OK? See I'm not addicted, Well that's what I say. Deny addiction, It's hard to admit. Rely on addiction, It's hard to realize it. No hard drugs, I'm going to be a responsible teen. OK just a little bit of heroin, It won't be too mean. I don't have an addiction, Get the fuck off my back. Stop saying I have a problem, I'm not smoking crack. It's not that bad, A drug here and there. An addiction? not me, Why would you even care? Deny addiction, It's a bad time. Rely on a

Deny Ignorance!
Flight has been the dream of humankind since they watched in awe as birds soared effortlessly through the sky. But, according to accepted history, it wasn't until the 1780s that two Frenchmen achieved lighter-than-air flight when they were lifted into the air in a hot air balloon near Paris. Then powered, heavier-than-air flight became the goal. And although it was theorized that heavier-than-air flight was possible as early as the 13th century, and in the 16th century Leonardo da Vinci designed winged aircraft and a crude kind of helicopter, it wasn't until the Wright brothers made their first successful flights at Kitty Hawk in 1903 that powered flight became a reality. That's the widely accepted history. Some researchers and a few rogue scientists believe there's evidence to suggest that humans achieved flight earlier in history - much earlier... so early, they say, that the knowledge of this technology has been lost and ancient stories that recount adventures of human flight have

De0ology
Let others know a little more about yourself, repost this as your name followed by "ology." MOUTHOLOGY Q. What is your salad dressing of choice? A. ranch Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant? A. wendys Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? A: anything mexican Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? A. i'm a good tipper Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? A. mexican Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice? A. pepperoni Q. What do you like to put on your toast? A. butter TECHNOLOGY Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer? A. my dog toby Q. How many televisions are in your house? A. 4 BIOLOGY Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed? A. right Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? A. yes Q. When was the last time you had a cavity? A. a few years Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted? A. i don't pick up heavy things Q. Have you ever b

De Opwinding Rond New Android Releases
Android-smartphones zijn het een ding dat elke mobiele telefoon eigenaar het over heeft. Deze telefoons zijn meer dan een flitsende nieuwe trend. Ze zijn uitgegroeid tot een primaire bron voor de nieuwe generatie telefoon gebruikers. De Android heeft gebruikers zo veel flexibiliteit om persoonlijke hun smartphones. Daarom de telefoon verkregen zo'n grote hoeveelheid populariteit in zo'n korte tijd. Binnen slechts de laatste 3 maanden het ontwerp van de Android is verbeterd, en nieuwe apparaten met nieuwe functies in de schappen. Gsm-gebruikers te wachten met grote verwachtingen over de nieuwe releases en haasten naar de winkels op te halen deze telefoons die komen met een betere apps, meer games, en een verhoogde mate van flexibiliteit. De recente release van de Nexus S van Google bewijst dat de Android alleen groeit sterker. De processor voor de smartphone is sneller, en het scherm is nog helderder. Er is zelfs beter software die wordt gemaakt om gebruikers te helpen hun apparaten s

The Departed...wicked Film
I saw The Departed by Scorsese on Monday and I must say, it is by far the best film he has made since Goodfellas. However, that does not imply it matches Goodfellas by any means. Goodfellas is one of American Cinema's greatest accomplishments and one with such a high standard it undoubtedly will not be matched. From editing to pacemaking and rule breaking to redefining narrative, that film is the master. But The Departed maintains the same desire for enhancing the narrative with great editing, and contains classic Scorsese shots. And, clocking in at just over 2 and a half hours, creates a magnificent pace when telling the story. In fact I didn't want it to end. The actors are in top form as well, with what I consider to be DiCaprio's best performance to date. The humour is perfect and is a great contrast to the violence, which as in Goodfellas is brutal and honest. I see Oscar contention all over this movie. GO SEE IT! FAVOURITE QUOTE IN THE FILM: Ellerby: [on Sullivan getting mar

Department Of Youth
We're in trouble all the time you read about us all in the papers We walk around and bump into walls a blind delegation yeah And we ain't afraid of high power we're bullet proof And we've never heard of Eisenhower missile power justice or truth We're the department of youth your new department of youth Aah ah we're the department of youth just me and youth We talk about this whole stupid world and still come out laughing ha ha We never make any sense but hell that never mattered But we'll make it through our blackest hour we're living proof And we've never heard of Billy Sunday Damon Runyon manners or Couth We're the department of youth your new department of youth Aah ah we're the department of youth just me and youth We got department of youth the new department of youth We got department of youth the new department of youth We got department of youth aah ah we got the power We got department of youth aah ah we got the power who's got the power we We got department

The Departed
By DAVID GERMAIN (AP) Director Martin Scorsese accepts the Oscar for best director for his work on "The Departed" at the... Full Image LOS ANGELES (AP) - Martin Scorsese's mob epic "The Departed" won best picture at the Academy Awards on Sunday and earned the filmmaker the directing prize that had eluded him throughout his illustrious career. "Could you double-check the envelope?" said Scorsese, who had been the greatest living American filmmaker without an Oscar. He also had never delivered a best-picture winner before, despite crafting such modern masterpieces as "Raging Bull" and "Goodfellas." Scorsese received his Oscar from three contemporaries and friends, Steven Spielberg, Francis Ford Coppola and George Lucas. "So many people over the years have been wishing this for me," Scorsese said. In an evening when no one film dominated as the Oscars shared the love among a wide range of movies from around the world, three of the four acting front-runners won: bes

Departure
It was at the end that I looked up from the broken hopes and dreams that I'd stitched I said you can wear it as a robe when the weather inside gets cold you just looked at me in that way that you always and laughed you said how can I how can I wear what is inside out and I realised that I'd used it all up forgetting the pattern so blind How was I so blind to forget your smile. You turned It was then that I broke down so glad I was that you could see only reflections I ached to reach outward to grasp tightly your strings to pull you back to tell you of loss to say the words that slipped from fingers falling, I fell to the ground but my legs were solid twas only my heart

Departure 2004
A long time ago, in a land not very far from here, our hero sat pensively, trying to decide what to do. Funds expended due to waiting for Petey boy to get off the death bed (having a portion of his intestines removed)left ol' Cotton in quite the predicament. But Petey boy did get better, so with a fond farewell to friends our hero mounted his steed and set off for Virginia. It was a warm day, the South Florida sun shining down on our hero as he drove off towards the strange land. Most of the trip was uneventful. A major accident with multiple fatalities did cause the course to alter, but our hero was not to be dissuaded. Once fate sets the path of destiny before someone, there is little that can alter it. There are many strange things one sees when on such a journey. Take for instance that if you get gas at one gas station, and drive 10 minutes north the gas is almost always cheaper. The difference between Florida gas and Georgia gas was unbelievable. Our hero made a note to

Departed.
It seems the world came crumbling down in crashing waves and lightening combined My heart sits broken. Tethered and torn another loss to tack to my board Here one minute and gone the next turned away leave heart and eyes wet The tears they fall and the heart does ache. Some people jus tdont know how much they mean But time will groom and healed even the deepest wound but never will it burn away That lovely momery of you. I hope this person sees this and understands that a part of me will miss seeing her smiling face.

Departure Soon...
Soon I will leave to the navy and be stuck in chicago for training for awhile. It should be well worth my time and effort to achieve goals and accomplish more then anyone else has. I probably wont be online for awhile but I will be back as soon as I can... I leave July 25 2007

De-paulification. Phase 1.
I need to hurry the process. The process of deleting him from my life. I just went all over my house throwing all kinds of shit away because he either bought it while visiting or he brought it from home. Anybody want some shot glasses from Cancun? How about a leather whip, the gimp mask, the wooden paddle, stripper shoes, monopoly money and liquid latex? Rubber sheets anyone? They're queen size..Err nevermind that Ill just throw that away. The kids the pictures drew of all of standing outside some pretend mansion,..it's in the trash. Hopefully they won't notice it's not on the wall in the family room. Goofy little pictures.. gone. Souvenirs from trips to crazy horse and the corn palace. Gone. That copy of some newspaper he was in.,It's in the trash. GAWD IM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW. Ok Im done venting.

De-paulification The Final Phase..
A little something that just popped in my head probably never to be read by the person I'm speaking of. I just thought about how much I hate you right now. Thinking back about a year ago we were hanging out being drunk and taking stupid pictures. But apparently you can't handle distance. You suck. You suck so much that Im not even really mad anymore. I am gonna enjoy sleeping the middle of my big ass bed! Not having to pick up your boxers off the floor because you can't unpack your crap and put it in the drawer i cleaned out for you. I won't have to sit and watch endless hours of baseball even though i was starting to like it. I won't have to hear you ramble on and on and on about the what president is from this state and who his vp was and what war happened this year or that babe ruth was a womanizer. I won't have to do as much laundry because you sweat like a fucking warthog when we're having sex. I can sleep soundly knowing that I won't be awake

Departed Love
In our brightest hour our candle burns away as I remember all the lyes and all the pain you caused me with your poisonous words of love and I bid you farewell and turn around and look you in the eyes and ask you was it worth it in the end To lose the love of a life time thats is me and my undying love and the purest passion that comes from my heart I walk to the broken road that is our relationship and I stand there bleeding from your lyes and your poison I cry out for you and you never come for me I have held on for many life times standing and bleeding for you for our love I will move on and aid my bleeding wounds and leave you behind and this is how it will be before I losse all control over my heart towards you and your poisonous words that cause my bleeding wounds

Department Of Treasury (irs)
Department of the Treasury Internal Revenue Service Washington, D.C. To: All Male Taxpayers RE: Notice of increase of tax payment Form 1040 - P The only thing that the IRS has not taxed yet is your penis. This is due to the fact that 40% of the time it is hanging around unemployed, 30% of the time it is pissed off, 20% of the time it is hard up, and 10% of the time it is in the hole. On top of this, it has two dependents and both are nuts. Accordingly, as of April 1, 1998, your penis will be taxed according to size. To determine your category, please consult the chart below and confirm this informatin on page 2, section 7, line 3, on the Standard Form 1040. 10-16 inches Luxury Tax $50.00 8-10 inches Pole Tax $30.00 5-8 inches Privilege Tax $15.00 4-5 inches Nuisance Tax $5.00 Please note: Anyone under 4 inches is eligible for a refund. Please do not ask for an extension!!!!!! Additionally, males exceedi

Depart Date!
I LEAVE MAY 5TH TO GET MY RIDE ON MAY 6TH. I START BASIC TRAINING MAY 16TH IN FORT JACKSON 2 DAYS BEFORE MY 22ND BIRTHDAY. AFTER BASIC I WILL BE AT FORT LEE FOR SCHOOLING. SO ILL BE GONE FOR A WHILE. BUT LEAVE ME MESSAGES N ALL N ILL GET BACK OK?

Department Of Human Services Is A Joke
can you believe that department of human services would be willing to keep a child from his mother claiming it is best for the child yet not caring that the child is getting worse because of it. only in iowa would department of human services get away with this crap. The television stations claim that they have it rough doing this to families and that they should be commended for this yet they dont talk to any of the families that have to go through this just to find out the facts of it but instead they just go off of what the department of human services has to say about it.

De-paulification....the Resurrection
Why.. Six months...oh no wait ....7.. 7 muthafucking months roll by....and you email me. Not to see how i'm doing...Not to see how the kids are, or how my schools going, or even how the fucking cat is doing.... No......you just want to know if I would still like to sit on your face. You have got to be FUCKING KIDDING ME. Bill gates should slap you upside your big stupid head for wasting good email paper to type that shit to me...not once...but twice. No. I do not want to sit on your face. I don't want to fuck you. I do not want you to touch me. I do not want to smell you look at you or hear you. Leaved Mes Alone. Go hump a cactus. Go buy a prostitute. Just don't fucking bother me. Fucking asshole. gah!! Fucking men....

Department Stores And Malls
The department store is the personification of capitalism. Many people enjoy just wandering through stores and malls to experience the numerous choices. However, they can be a little overwhelming. Dreaming of these places reflects a feeling of having choices or even too many choices. It may also be a reminder that you have not been careful with your money of late. Depending on your status as a potential buyer, being in a mall may reflect your sense of power or competency given the choices you have. If the choices all reflect items you would find in a waking-world store or mall, the items you are most drawn to may be the objects of central meaning in a dream. The salespeople you are bumping into may be significant if they are familiar. Perhaps you feel as though you owe somebody something or someone expects particular actions from you. Are the items that you want missing or available in abundance? This may be a metaphor of the balance, or lack thereof, in facets of your life.

Department Of Veterans Affairs
February 27, 2009 The Honorable Barack Obama President of the United States The White House Washington, DC Dear President Obama: On behalf of the millions of veterans represented by the veterans and military service organizations that have joined our effort, we write to express our serious concerns about a policy proposal that has been discussed this week in conjunction with the release of your first budget. We have been told that your Administration may be considering a proposal that would allow the Department of Veterans Affairs (VA) health care system to bill a veteran’s insurance for the care and treatment of a disability or injury that was determined to have been incurred in or the result of the veteran’s honorable military service to our country. Such a consideration is wholly unacceptable and a total abrogation of our government’s moral and legal responsibility to the men and women who have sacrificed so much for our freedoms. As

Departure Letter
From the time I started at whiskey falls saloon I had taken on pride for the lounge. I was loyal and dedicated to the falls and my duties as a Deputy. Watched line for line for inappropriate language and hurtful words against race, color, creed and orientation of life styles. I have been respectful, polite and courteous and I have never brought my personal life in to the falls or spoke ill of the saloon. I promoted it publicly and on my private web sites so when I had noticed that everyone’s tag reflected their position as of their status mine simply said lounge staff and I have taken this as a slap in my face considering the restless nights and countless hours I spent that far surpassed any other person I met while working for the falls that was working staff employee. All I had ever heard was step up as if I was not doing anything but talking about boy friends that I cant call a boy friend complaining how I wished I was somewhere else or not greeting everyone except

Department Stores And Malls
Department Stores and Malls The department store is the personification of capitalism. Many people enjoy just wandering through stores and malls to experience the numerous choices. However, they can be a little overwhelming. Dreaming of these places reflects a feeling of having choices or even too many choices. It may also be a reminder that you have not been careful with your money of late. Depending on your status as a potential buyer, being in a mall may reflect your sense of power or competency given the choices you have. If the choices all reflect items you would find in a waking-world store or mall, the items you are most drawn to may be the objects of central meaning in a dream. The salespeople you are bumping into may be significant if they are familiar. Perhaps you feel as though you owe somebody something or someone expects particular actions from you. Are the items that you want missing or available in abundance? This may be a metaphor of the balance, or lack thereof,

Department Of Defense Wants To Raise Costs To Veterans & Reduce Spending For Healthcare.
http://www.npr.org/2011/06/07/137009416/u-s-military-has-new-threat-health-care-costs We are standing at the abyss and the federal government in order to save money wishes to push wounded & retired Veterans overboard. They too are complaining about the rising costs of healthcare and how to cover it by raising the costs to working-age retired Veterans as a starter course.

Department Of Justice
One of my proffessors who was also a lawyer has told in one of the classes he witnessed lots of cases with people "undeservably" convicted of "anger management", " domestic violence", and "sex offenders". Judging people by their criminal records can lead to wrong assumptions. I had a friend in Ohio, with 200 arrests in his records and he had never been to prison in his life. The cops were arresting him always because he was out of the norm (He was a Satanist). A family father in my town when I was in Ohio, was convicted of 2 manslaughters. The story I heard (I didn't know him and his family personally) was that he killed those 2 guys because they attacked his daughter physically. In my eyes, someone has been arrested tens of times for petty theft, drugs, public intoxication, public disturbance can be more dangerous than someone has been convicted of assault or manslaughter because you can get convicted of assault and manslaughter for protecting yourself or a loved one an

Departed
Sitting in the shadows she takes form, Waits for her Prince of darkness to arrive. A light that went out when he left her side, A deep thought escaped her heart. A challenge she wasn't sure she could endure,The pain of her loss lingers within. Eyes wide shut when she could plainly see, She takes the silence and embraces it.. By: Estrella VonNostitz aka: AnGeL KisS 12/04/12

Depending On Family
I wrote this on my other blog. It was a huge hit, people loved it and such, so I'ma place it here. Depending on Family ....is like depending on a drugged up alcoholic to become sober in 2 minutes. Anyone who has ever dealt with the disappointment of a family/family member, can really begin to grasp what I decided to blog about. I am sure, that if any of you have paid any attention to anything that I say... you'll know that I've talked about how I've disowned my family, or maybe, they disowned me...? I'd like to think I won that battle, so we'll go with the fact that I disowned them =) me=1 family =0. Yes, I used to be the druggie loser of the family, while everyone else is rich, has great jobs, made something of their lives, etc. I am the low-life, so-to-speak. The only people in my family that have come to accept me and the things that I've done in the past, and those whom also know that I've changed drastically in the last 5 years, would be my parents and m

Depeche Mode-freelove
If you've been hiding from love If you've been hiding from love I can understand where you're coming from I can understand where you're coming from If you've suffered enough If you've suffered enough I can understand what you're thinking of I can see the pain that you're frightened of And I'm only here To bring you free love Let's make it clear That this is free love No hidden catch No strings attached Just free love No hidden catch No strings attached Just free love I've been running like you I've been running like you Now you understand why I'm running scared Now you understand why I'm running scared I've been searching for truth I've been searching for truth And I haven't been getting anywhere No I haven't been getting anywhere And I'm only here To bring you free love Let's make it clear That this is free love No hidden catch No strings attached Just free love No hidden catch No strings attached Just free love Hey girl You've go

Depeche Mode - Personal Jesus
Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who cares Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who's there Feeling unknown And you're all alone Flesh and bone By the telephone Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer Take second best Put me to the test Things on your chest You need to confess I will deliver You know I'm a forgiver Reach out and touch faith Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus... Feeling unknown And you're all alone Flesh and bone By the telephone Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer I will deliver You know I'm a forgiver Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus Reach out and touch faith

Depeche Mode-enjoy The Silence
Words like violence Break the silence Come crashing in Into my little world Painful to me Pierce right through me Cant you understand Oh my little girl All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Vows are spoken To be broken Feelings are intense Words are trivial Pleasures remain So does the pain Words are meaningless And forgettable All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Enjoy the silence ----------------- Depeche Mode Music VideosMusic Video Codes by VideoCure

Deperately Trying To Understand....
We were both married and had been flirting over several months almost a year, but what do you do when one has fallen in love with the other??? He's the one that contacted me, cause he liked my profile and picture...I guess he was having a mid-life crisis thing and he wanted to know what it felt like to have other women attracted to him besides his wife, maybe there were other reasons... So he found me and my profile and liked it...do i feel lucky now (hell no!!!) We really connected man, at lease i know we connected sexually and we had fun with it through instant communications, we wrote fantasies to and about each other, we even had phone sex at work after hours because work was the only time he could be contacted because of his home situation... he even told me once that he liked chatting with me, being sexy and a little dirty, but more so, it gave me a diversion from my home life...maybe my life became to much for him too...then one day a stalking comment was made, i remember

Depending On Love
I love you God, What dont you see Im in love with you You say ur in love with me Dont push me away Dont shove me around If I decide to stay It wont be entirely sound Dont ask me to stay Dont tell me you care If you already know You arent gonna be there I want to love you And I want to share In everything I do And show how much I care To be so far apart Unable to see you Is tearing out my heart And I dont know what to do I will not live Without you there Its my heart to give Your're my breath of fresh air

Dependent I Have Grown .............................
Dependent I Have Grown ............................. Oh, dark and gloomy days Are they really here to stay? The thought I cannot bear, Oft' I wonder - do you care? The future, we had planned, A lifetime in wonderland! This heart of mine I gave to you. You felt the same way too. I am happy when you're here, But sad without you dear. ~ Dependent I have grown ~ Why do you leave me all alone? Pride will never let me say "I pine for you, night and day

Depending On The Day
I wish I could run and hide and get away not talking to anyone depending on the day. I wish I could be someone else and not keep my emotions at bay to be able to open up to someone depending on the day. I wish I could talk to you and know exactly what to say hoping you feel the same depending on the day. I wish I knew what to do so please show me the way I want to leave this place depending on the day.

Depending On The Day (another Version)
I just want to stay in bed and sleep my cares away hiding from everyone depending on the day. I'm afraid to let you in keeping my feelings at bay can I really trust you depending on the day. Can I really talk to you I'm not sure what to say will you be judging me depending on the day. I'm doing really good what do you want me to say sometimes I get confused depending on the day.

Dependency: The 8th Deadly Sin
My heart is heavy today. I found out news that I was totally unprepared for, and floored me beyond the realms of recognition. My friend of 17 years died last night of a morphine overdose. I'm not sure of the exact details and did not wish to inquire about them at this particular point in time. Jimmy is gone now and there is no bringing him back. Jimmy is a few years older than me, and I always looked up to him because he was able to party like a fucking rockstar. 17 years ago that was cool as hell to me. I remember in my days of hustling pool when I was just shy of 21, he would constantly try to slip me a beer or a shot in the local pub where we used to hang out at. I was always allowed to play there, because at hat stage of my life, I was usually a lock to win a significant amount of money playing pool. I would always make sure to give the bartender at least 20%. They knew I wouldn't try and jeopardize my "hustle" by sneaking a drink and getting them into trouble. All who worke

Depends On The Day--green And Hazel
What color are your eyes? Black Eyes People with black eyes spend the shortest time in relationships except for the one with their current addiction. They always fall in love with anything that has two legs, a pulse.They are great kissers----until they vomit all over you.. If you don¡¯t repost this and you have black eyes you will either O.D., spend the night in jail, or wake up next to some weird guy you've never seen before within the next 2 days. ___________________________________________________________ Blue Eyes People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are kind, pretty or handsome, very good kissers and are really hot. They always fall in love with their closest friends and never understand why. They are very funny, outgoing and don't care what people think or say. They are very satisfying and love only that one girl/guy. Are straight up WARRIORS((aka SPARTANS)) when necessary. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss s

Depession Food
ya know i've ate alot of things when i tumbled into my bouts of depression but i gotta say i found a new sifull delectable that i just may get hooked on...and no its not sex or giving head....(to late for that...lol).... its starbucks java chip ice cream. chunks of chocolate mixed into a coffee icecream thats purrrrrrrrringly good...for me though i add cherries, nuts, caramel sause, and a lot of whip cream. ya know this would be great to eat of a guy ...if he could take the cold....lol so what ya'll think?

Depending On How You Look At It
this is a good thing or a bad thing... apparently the photos were all reset earlier today, allowing re-rating? Something like that? (Any attempt to "suggest" I get back to peoples' photos any more quickly than I wish to will be met with in a manner unbecoming, however. That said, all is appreciated, and I do try. (And with my salute uploaded I actually have a bit of incentive anyway aside from all of that ;^) ) Edit: to clarify, the ratings weren't reset, just the "did this profile rate this photo" variable - so people can now re-rate (once) each photo they rated before December 2nd morning.

Depeche Mode-home
Here is a song from the wrong side of town Where Im bound to the ground by the loneliest sound And it pounds from within and is pinning me down Here is a page from the emptiest stage A cage or the heaviest cross ever made A gauge of the deadliest trap ever laid And I thank you for bringing me here For showing me home For singing these tears Finally Ive found that I belong here The heat and the sickliest sweet smelling sheets That cling to the backs of my knees and my feet Well Im drowning in time to a desperate beat And I thank you for bringing me here For showing me home For singing these tears Finally Ive found that I belong Feels like home I should have known From my first breath God send the only true friend I call mine Pretend that Ill make amends the next time Befriend the glorious end of the line And I thank you for bringing me here For showing me home For singing these tears Finally Ive found that I belong here --------------------------

09/11/08 - Depeche Mode - Personal Jesus (gluttonus Bastard That I Am Edition)
SONG VERSION BELOW Personal Jesus (Single Version) - Depeche Mode VIDEO VERSION BELOW Personal Jesus (Remastered Video) - Depeche Mode LYRICS BELOW Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who cares Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who's there Feeling unknown And you're all alone Flesh and bone By the telephone Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer Take second best Put me to the test Things on your chest You need to confess I will deliver You know I'm a forgiver Reach out and touch faith Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who cares Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who's there Feeling unknown And you're all alone Flesh and bone By the telephone Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer I will deliver You know I'm a forgiver Reach out and touch fait

Depeche Mode-it's No Good
Im going to take my time I have all the time in the world To make you mine It is written in the stars above The gods decree Youll be right here by my side Right next to me You can run but you cannot hide Dont say you want me Dont say you need me Dont say you love me Its understood Dont say youre happy Out there without me I know you cant be cause its no good Ill be fine Ill be waiting patiently Till you see the signs And come running to my open arms When will you realize Do we have to wait till our worlds collide Open up your eyes You cant turn back the tide Dont say you want me Dont say you need me Dont say you love me Its understood Dont say youre happy Out there without me I know you cant be cause its no good Im going to take my time I have all the time in the world To make you mine It is written in the stars above Dont say you want me Dont say you need me Dont say you love me Its understood Dont say youre happy Out there without me

Depeche Mode-precious
Precious and fragile things Need special handling My God what have we done to You? We always try to share The tenderest of care Now look what we have put You through... Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we'd manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There was so little left to give Angels with silver wings Shouldn't know suffering I wish I could take the pain for You If God has a master plan That only He understands I hope it's Your eyes He's seeing through Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we'd manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There was so little left to give I pray You learn to trust Have faith in both of us And keep room in Your heart for two Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we'd manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There was so little left to give ---------------------------------------

Depervation
man ive been up for a long time 27 hr. i hurt my self at work, sum stell feel on top of me. so the doctor gives me hydro's you know the ones with the blue specks. man i'm wired but at the same time so sleepy. and still hurt like hell, good 4 nuthing pills. does anybody feel me? man mybe im rambleing on. i dont know let know what you think. PEACE

Depeche Mode
Yeah, Depeche Mode is coming to the Nissan Center in July of this years. Getting tickets to go see then. Route 66 is one of my favorite songs by them. You can hear Depech Mode at www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

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Well, Let me just vent here for a moment; Last night, I went to my (Now EX BF's) house, thinking everything was all good, little did i know he was going to tell me that we are DONE, for real this time, no more of us.. Makes me sad. ={ ugh, out of all the days he could have told me, He had to say it the night before my nephews funeral? are you fucking kidding me? I've been superbly depressed since Tuesday, Find out devastating news on Wednesday, Being there for MY family, Finding OUT more things that just make me want to pull my fucking hair out of my skull, and then this.. Like hello?? Does one NOT have sympathy for another? Could you NOT wait til everything has blown over to break it to me? Why does it seem like life can have you going really good for a few minutes and then, everything just shatters down in front of you? I hate feeling like this, I hate how everything is surrounding me negatively.

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Deployment Goodbye
Deployment Goodbye He wears his ACU's with such great pride, Turns to wave to his family goodbye. Tries to hide the tears that fall from his eyes, Doesn't want anyone to know this soldier cries. His children stand there too young to understand, Why their daddy has to leave this land. They said goodbye with a hug and kiss, Coming home alive is his only wish. His wife stands there with a look on her face, She not going anywhere, but she's in a brand new place. Suddenly finding herself as a single mom. Tries to hide the tears that fall from her eyes, Doesn't want her children to see their mommy cry. She says a silent prayer as he boards the plane, Unknown to her he does the same. Many thoughts run through his mind, As the plane takes off toward the runway line. Holding on to the photograph of his family, A tear falls from his eyes; He quickly wipes it away. Doesn't want anyone to see this soldier cry. He wears his ACU's with such great pride, As he exi

Deployment Life
Hello every. I thought I would tell everyone about life in Iraq. Not sure if anyone would be interested in how we live or anything. It's the holiday time and depression is setting in with some people. So, this is my outreach to other people and hopefully I won't get too depressed like I did last time. Well here we go. 6-Dec-06 Today was just as any other day here in Iraq. We did some of this and that getting ready for the mission tomorrow. There is so much excitement in the air. We are getting ready for the WWE comming to our camp on Friday. I am with the 1st Calvary Division out of Fort Hood Texas. Our thing is the Calvary. We used to ride into battle on horses but we use tanks, and helicopters. Well, we have a horse (not real) in our main division (D-Main), and with the WWE comming, they want to see if they will put Trigger (the horse) in a head lock. That would be awsome to see. Just hope I get a chance to see the WWE when they come. With me being the

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Deployment
just thought I would keep everyone updated, tomorrow I leave for a week long training exercise in the desert. It will prepare me for the up and coming deployment. I hope to hear from ya all soon. Semper Fi... Doc Scott

Deployment Anniversary
One year ago today it was a Sunday. I was being taken to the airport by my loving wife of 7 years. She would drop me off at the gate and I would leave without a hug or a kiss. Later on she told me that she felt bad for not doing that, but she was just in shock and did not know what to do. It was as if the moment was surreal to her. To me it was just another job. Another mobilization. Guam: 4 months. Bosnia and Serbia: 9 months. Another phone call, another mission. This time it was to be the Middle East: 18 months. My loving wife has since become my unloving ex-wife. One year of military living has taught me many things that no one teaches you in the civilian world. I think these are a few of the best things you can learn and experience in the armed forces: 1. You can trust officers 100%. 2. Everyone is your friend. And if they too wear a uniform, they are your brother or sister and will do anything for you, as you will for them. 3. Messing up on the job can get yo

Deployment Sucks!!
Well as you all know I am with someone.Hes in the marines.Hes been in for almost 12 years.(April 23rd). I have been with him 6 years.He has been deployed twice while with me and a few months back ago we found out that he is getting deployed in the spring of 07.April 9th is when he leaves. This will be my 3rd deployment with him. Its not even close to being april and Im down and blue. I wish he didnt have to get deployed the last time he was deployed was back in 04. I feel so lonely when hes gone.And so empty and so hopeless. i hate being here alone. Hes leaving january 15th to go to twenty nine palms for 2 weeks. Then after he gets back from that he has some more training in san diego.And he has duty on new yeras eve which blows. I do miss him when hes not here and I miss him when he goes to bed early, and i totally miss him when hes deployed. Like tonight he went to bed at 8:30 cause he has duty tomarrow. I love him very much and support him totally but just get so bummed about the fu

Deployment Comming Soon.......
The first of many blogs..... For the last few weeks I have truely noticed I am a Army Wife.... With the deployment coming on so fast and all the "normal daily things" time seems to be flying.I have noticed in the past I have been both mom & dad,friend,maid,caretaker,nurse,the works over the years and never really paid attention to my daily life. Yesterday my Husband came home from being in the field for 3 weeks and I sat up at the company for quite a few hours with the other wives and soldiers talking and being handed paperwork for the deployment not far off. See there is a few wives in my husbands company that have been through deployments before (that is NOT saying it is easy for them in anyway as a spouse) and they were like ok we know the routine.I being a first time spouse(not just a girlfriend/best friend this time) it was different. Even though I have been going through different field excerises (which are a week or longer at a crack) This one was the LAST one befor

"de Plane! De Plane!"*
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Deployed Again
Well the time in Qatar was fun, looking back on it. I made a lot of friends and had a good time just being me. Now it is time to serve once again. I am sitting in the airport in Istanbul, Turkey. I will move forward from here to Tajikistan for one year. It sure seems like a very long time. I love the USA and I am going to miss it!

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Deployment Time
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Deployment
I will be scarce for a while due to pre MOB training preping me to be in the desert by mid September. I will be in scenic New Jersy for no more than 25 days starting 26 August. Ft. Dix sucks. Any who off I go to the land of Hajis and such. All power, Chris

Deployment Blues....
I don't know what I should say in this, but here it goes. In the past week, I have had several friends leave for Iraq, or some other place like it. Although they are leaving, some other friends are coming home. I just want this whole war thing to stop. It's unbearable for the families and the friends of the soldiers. Like, my friend J.L., he and his wife just had a baby 3 weeks ago, and now he is gone. He won't be back for 16 months or more. His daughter won't even know who her Daddy is, until she's almost 2! I've sat down, cried, and gotten pissed off until I couldn't take it anymore. I'm just blue. There should be a deployment blues song. If you have never been through a deployment, I'm so glad for you! I hope you never have to go through it. It's not a fun experience. Well, that's all I have to say right now. J.L.'s wife and child are here, and I need to go comfort them. Until next time.......

Deployed To Iraq
well hell in iraq again and well this time even longer and even worse im going to go over a year without gettin laid. bored of my hands tired of watching porn, and hell my pocket puss has even given up on me what the hell am i suppose to do ahhhhhhh....

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Deployment Happens
Well, the time has finally arrived. I am off to the sand box for 15 months. Once I have an address I will send it out. My email at mark.wedel@gmail.com will still be working which would probably be the easiest way to get ahold of me for now. I will try to keep you all updated as best I can, when I can. I look forward to seeing you all in January of 2009 again stateside. Until then, we will have to communicate this way. See you all soon. Mark

Deployment
well, as some people on fubar know, i am in the navy. i am writing this blog for all my friends to let them know that as of yesterday, i am being deployed starting in november. i will be gone for aropund seven months and am not sure if i will be able to get on fubar while out to sea. in the event i cant get on here, just wanted people to know ive met some great people on here and hope that theres still some love shown here after ive shipped out. crazy amounts of love to friends and i'll see yall around.

Deployment
Ok everyone so another deployment is coming up for my husbands unit. This will be our second and the first was a trip. I had no idea what to expect but i did learn a couple of things. 1. Don't cry when they leave, smile give them a hug, kiss (grope if you like to torture your spouse) have them hold the baby, but don't cry till after they leave.....it makes them feel not as horrible as they leave you to get on the bus. 2. Get a babysitter for the first night cause you'll probably have a friend like mine who gets you tipsy on wine and than lets you cry in the shower. 3. Don't expect phone calls until at least 3 weeks after they leave....because if you do you'll drive yourself crazy. 4. Don't watch CNN or news channels, you'll never leave the living room you'll never change channels unless its to change the channel to another news channel while the first one is on commercials. It drives you crazy espically when you're hanging around just waiting for them to call 5. Don't expect calls

Deployment
When I sit and think about what all I have done in the Army I think back to the night we deployed, scariest night in my life, they didn't explain anything at all, just where we were going and to drink plenty of water. I had no family there with me, my wife had just left me and took my kids, I didn't get to say good-bye to them, I called family on my cell phone and that was it, the hardest thing I did was say bye to my mom and dad, my dad was positive on it but my mom was upset, not understanding why I had to go, all she kept saying was that she loved me. When we got to Kuwait all we did was basically relax until it was time to head out to Iraq. We got into Iraq June 24th and right then and there I started shaking, I realized this was real and that I could die. I called family telling them I made it safely and called my kids, they missed me and wanted me home, everytime I called and talked to them I cried, I tried not to but hearing them say they loved and miss me killed me insi

Deployment
As I sit here thinking of those that have gone before me. I can't help but wonder will I return home drapped in the Stars and Stripes or will I return only to find my life changed forever? As most of you know I am in the Army National Guard and I will be deploying after bootcamp and AIT. I think of my fellow brothers and sisters in arms and their safe return home. I know they will do the same for me when I am there and they are here in the States. Most of you don't know the fear we soldiers have of being deployed. Some of you ever say that we are murderers. Well that is your right and I will fight for that right and I will die for it if I have to. Will this war ever end? Will we have PEACE? I don't know but I will fight for PEACE and for the american way of life for I am An American Soldier!! And if I die I want to be remembered as a soldier. I care not for the fame, I care not for the pain. I took an oath and I plan on keeping it. I hope all of you can support my fellow soldiers and I

Deployment
Every now and then there comes a time in an individuals life when they must choose the lesser of two evils to accomplish something that they themselves set in motion. I joined the US Army knowing full well that I would one day deploy to a foreign country to fight for someone else's "just cause." I accept the fact that i am going away for 15 monthes to a strange world that some compare to "Amish Country" just to bring democracy to the far corner of this country. I guess what I am trying to say is that now that i only have 3 days until this nightmare comes to life, i have a very big choice to make, should i do the right thing and Deploy with the men i have spent the last 15 monthes with, or should i go back home to the people i grew up with? To most of you the choice is clear, just deploy and get it done with, which is exactly what i am doing... oh well... for some reason i just felt compelled to write a small little rant to release some repressed feelings... thanks, Doc Young

Deployment
Although fatique is kicking in...I still manage to turn on my laptop and send messages to those who care. Being here has made an impact on me as to my opinion on kids in war stricken areas. They are the most innocent human beings one can think of during these times. It hurts my heart to see one of them being injured by others or becoming a orphan and a refugee. while typing this I cry. I am here for a cause.I am not in harms way but here to help those who are. I am actually lost for words right now....tired and lacking zzzzzzzs.

Deployment
Deploying......Again Well another deployment has come upon us, and it seems that all is like it usually is. The endless preparation is far worse than the deployment could ever be. They say that were the last of our kind going over and everything will change. They say its better to be over-prepared than not...I say its better to be properly prepared than ready to go on paper. This deployment has 3 things that no other deployment has ever for me. Good Soldiers, NCOs, and Officers that understand what it is to do what we do and what we need to do. Good Leadership that spawns well motivated and properly mentored Soldiers. When you start out in the Army, they say that esprit de corps is important. When your 8, 6, 4, weeks from deployment and the young soldiers have a motivated smile on their face everyday, well thats what I call esprit de corps. No unit has all good or all bad leaders, most Ive been in have had a mixture of both. But when your leadership team strive to thoroughly

Deployment
Hi Fubar Friends! I'm here to let you know...after July 6th, my time will be VERY limited. I will be deployed to Afghanistan...YAY! So, love me while I'm here and write me when I'm gone. If you'd like to keep in touch, I'll write you or give you my YIM! Happy Fu'ing while I'm away! :D

Deployed
Hurry up and get there is a popular phrase, what are you looking at soldier, as I stand here hard willing in parade rest at ease. Raining down shells from the sky, this is one storm I wish away praying to God I am out of harm the rest of my stay. As I stand and watch the dust clouds fly by my thoughts are off thinking of my life and love I have left behind, it is the soldier’s oath that hold back my cries. Cut off from what I know as home leaning on the camouflage that surrounds me, I know I am not the only one alone. Back in the states songs are written, books are read, movies made, in the hopes to remember the lives we gave, in the end up they go a civilians thanks the standing O. Know one truly knows what we have seen, the hate, ugly, defiled, un godly things; you’ll never comprehend it in all your dreams. by: GM*FAMOSO*

Deployments/tours/bfs
i finally get what i want, to be shipped out again. that was before i met my best friend. i never thought a woman could make me feel so compelled to be a better man. i'm so damn scared to go now because i don't think she'll be here when i get back and that would really suck ass. i love it when we hang out and watch movies. she doesn't know it, but i never really pay attention to the movies because i'm too busy tracing the curves of her face with my eyes, just daydreaming. i guess it all comes down to this: i'm in love with my best friend, but she doesn't know it and now that i finally found her i don't wanna leave. i don't wanna give her the chance to meet someone better. is that too selfish? should i even tell her? i know she should know, but i don't wanna risk losing her friendship. any advice?

Deployment
So it's been a while since I've Blogged anything, for that matter it's been a while since I was on this website. But here I am. I'm currently in Iraq. I've only been here 2 weeks now. It's not too bad here. Plenty to do, good food, and a nice set up for my living arrangments. Plus I'm getting paid good too. LOL. Of course if you're reading this and you're in the military, you know what I'm talking about. Looks like I'll be here till June. So for now this is home. To be honest, it's not too different from Oklahoma. LOL. That is where my home station is. I went through 5 states and 5 countries in 4 days to get here. Wierd, I know. I couldn't wait to get here from all the traveling. Well I think I'll end on that note for now. Happy New Year everyone.

[depleted]
FM3 is done. And I mean... done. Not 100% but a lot of those skills have an activation/learn rate of obscene improbability. Not worth doing. I have more than the worthwile skills. I stomped the holy befuck out of that game. Ran into trouble in 2 spots in 60 missions. TWO. One was a protection mission where the weak underleveled NPC got rushed and murdered in a turn the other was the very last mission and I only -thought- I was in trouble. Outnumbered 9 to 4 very quickly became outnumbered 9 to 4 and only 3 of the badguys with arms and weapons. When I was finished I looked through the library again ... Same conclusions as before, I took another look at Ring Of Red (Another mech game) but, I really felt like I had already beat the pants off that game as well. Find the formation/range sweetspot for that map... kill bitches, make money. I guess it could be worse. I could be locked in a cell in the dark, throwing a button at the walls and feeling around to find it.

Depot Days
Well tomorrow big dawg(my bf),beerad,and myself are heading down the road to a celebration called depot days!Not only are we taking our 4wheelers,but beerad is going to spike my hair and dawgs(will be interesting to see the reaction of the people)...So i hope you all have a great weeekend...see you all on the flipside

Depois Do Prazer
Tô fazendo amor com outra pessoa Mas meu coração, vai ser pra sempre seu O que o corpo faz a alma perdoa Tanta solidão, quase me elouqueceu Vou falar que é amorVou jurar que é paixão E dizer o que eu sinto com todo carinho Pensando em você Vou fazer o que for e com toda emoção A verdade é que eu minto, que eu vivo sozinho Não sei te esquecer E depois acabou, ilusão que eu criei Emoção foi embora e a gente só pede pro tempo correr Já não sei quem me amou Que será que eu falei? Dá pra ver nessa hora que o amor só se mede Depois do prazer Fica dentro do meu peito Sempre uma saudade Só pensando no teu jeito Eu amo de verdade E quando desejo vem É teu nome que eu chamo Posso até gostar de alguém Mas é você que eu amo Vou falar que é amor Vou jurar que é paixão E dizer o que eu sinto com todo carinho Pensando em você Vou fazer o que for e com toda emoção A verdade é que eu minto, que eu vivo sozinho Não sei te esquecer E depois acabou, ilusão que eu crie

Depois Da Marcha Nupcial, Ave Maria Brasileira E A Músicas Mais Pedida Em
A preocupação com as músicas que irão tocar no casamento não se restringe apenas às escolhas para a pista de dança: o que irá tocar no momento da entrada da noiva na igreja também importa. Entre todas as escolhas, a marcha nupcial de Mendelssohn é a mais tradicional e também a mais pedida das músicas de casamento. Outra opção para as noivas mais tradicionais e religiosas é a música Ave Maria Brasileira, que costuma agradar muita gente! A escolha da música de casamento costuma ser bem pessoal e de acordo com o estilo da noiva, e existem muitas opções de músicas disponíveis. Caso a cerimônia de casamento assim esteja planejada- lojas de vestidos de cerimonia, poderá haver uma música para cada pessoa importante do seu grande dia. A lista de músicas de casamento incluem opções para a entrada dos padrinhos, entrada dos noivos, para a entrada da floristas e da dama de honra e fechando, para a entrada da noiva. Isso na primeira parte do casamento. Na segunda temos músicas para a benção, par

Deppressing Gift
Deppresion. the feeling of betrayal. no one understands, i'm gone...no longer here. friends. there are none. alone. lonely. No reason to walk this earth. if no one understands whats the point of living there's so much this life demands. I try to force a smile for all the world to see but the pain that grips my heart creates a face of agony. I laugh at your unfunny joke to make you turn away then I feel the tears return once more the hundreth time today I don't know why but I cry at the most unlikely times but the sickening spirit holds me tight "I have you now you're mine" I hold myself back knowing that this is no way to live deppresion is an ugly thing but one I'd never give

Depp's Sparrow
I can't believe I went a whole month without completing a drawing. I begun this portrait of Captain Jack Sparrow about a week after completing the Rambo portrait. I was taking my time as I was using charcoal and factor in all of the other things that have been going on in October and November I'm lucky I got it finished now. The actual amount of time on this one was 22 1/2 hours. I have the works in progress photos of this posted in my album on flickr. This is done using 6B, 4B, and 2B charcoal pencils for the hair, hat, and belt. I used 6B, 2B, and H pencils for the skin, bandanna, and other lighter areas. I also used a white charcoal pencil to help bring out some highlights. The background was done using Derwent's Burnt Orange tinted charcoal.

Deppression Sucks
Well sometimes you feel like killing yourself for all the wrong reasons. And today, that is my day. I just feel like no one cares and no one want's to be there for me. But I know when the day come's for my son to arrive, everything will be better !!!

Depp Back For New 'pirates' Film Coming In 2011
Depp back for new 'Pirates' film coming in 2011 AP – FILE - In This undated file photo originally provided by Disney, Johnny Depp portrays Captain Jack Sparrow … By SANDY COHEN, AP Entertainment Writer Sandy Cohen, Ap Entertainment Writer – Fri Sep 11, 5:17 pm ET ANAHEIM, California – Avast! Disney says a new "Pirates of the Caribbean" film is on the horizon. Johnny Depp sailed onstage Friday on a pirate ship at the Anaheim Convention Center to help announce the forthcoming installment of Disney's blockbuster film franchise. He was welcomed with a rousing standing ovation. Depp will reprise his role as Capt. Jack Sparrow in "Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides," slated for summer of 2011. It's the fourth in a series. Dressed as Sparrow, Depp staggered around the stage and embraced Walt Disney Studios Chairman Dick Cook, who announced the news to about 5,000 fans on hand for the D23 Expo, Disney's answer to Comic-Con. "H

Depressed
Well I thought I had found the man that I was supposed to be with. My oldest daughter loves him and my youngest I'm sure would have when she was old enough to know what that was. Things were okay I thought but he thinks that it is best to be just friends. So here I am..depressed..and crying..and heartbroken. Not knowing what to do. I need to get away from things but my daughter doesn't want to leave his side. I'm not sure what I should do, I just need to clear my head and figure things out.

Depressed....
I have been feeling sad and depressed the last two days. Something happen but I just dont feel like taking about it here. It did not happen here though. I just feel so alone, and sad. A part of me feeling like no one cares. :( I am sorry that I feel that way, but I do. I hope I will feel better soon. I guess I just need something to cheer me up... *sighs*

Depressed
i feel really depressed today i have not got much sleep latley i think its the weather changing or maybe i need to take a break from work and just lay back and relax i am always busy doin somethin rather its somthin for the kids or at work it gets old doin the same shit everyday i need to get out anyone have any ideas

Depressed
I dont give a shit if im a depressed person and if im selfish i dont give a shit what anyone on this stupid place called earth think about me. I am heartbroken i am hurt and all i want to do is to be dead. I dont give a shit about your opinion, or what YOU think, all my life has been is NOTHING i have nothing and i will never have anything ever. I have been living in this huge shadow and living with extreme anxiety and troubles and depression...im tired so tired....i just want to be dead

Depressed
my boyfriend is dating anoher girl.....th he told her he dumbed me ... soo soo soo soo soo sad.. guys are sad guys have no heart guys are careless guys are ass wholess guys have no feelings. there selfs and all they do is say one thing and mean another .....what jerks JERKS JERKS JERKS JERKS GUYS ARE ASS HOLES AND I HATE THEM CRYS...NOT FAIR

Depression
I went to go see my mom and get some stuff today and this is after she had knee surgary and she was in alot of pain and it made me depresse cuse i cant o shit about it and it seems that they are liveing a happy life without me. I know my dad dont care cause he is an ass. but i hate being depressed. it makes me feel that no one cares

Depression Is Drawing Near...
I've been doing alot of thinking these past few days, and realized that this Tuesday, (10-03-06), is not going to be a good day for me, mainly and foremost, because it'll have been exactly 1 year ago, on that very day, when my ex and I split-up, and to this very day, it still tears my heart from my chest to think back on what's it's been like to have lived, [if you can call what I've been doing "living"], without her for 365 days. She may not be effected by our separation, and I really can't blame her for that if that's truly the case, but it has made me realize that when I had everything I ever wanted, I threw it all away by doing some really stupid shit, and it was shit I knew I shouldn't be doing, but I did it, and was punished for it, as so I should have been... but in the back of my mind, I think that maybe, just maybe, throwing away an 8 year relationship may have been the tiniest bit on the extreme side. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm always gonna' have love

Depressed
Idolise Me Confuse Me Murder Dont Abuse Me Anger Me Love Me Dont Give In Give Up On Me Stalk Me Trace Me Your Mind Cant Erase Me Hate Me You Leave You Dont Know What You See In Me Scare Me Tease Me Inside You Wish To Please Me Smile Me Bleed Me You Know That You Need Me

Depression
Depression The loneliest thing I know As I sit recalling the past A lost little boy all alone Wishing for peace at last A big smile and bright eyes Was how my secret safely slept I did good hiding the depression Locked in my room while i wept I was invisible to my mother Lost because acquaintances weren't true friends But the saddest thing I recall Was wishing for the end The loneliest thing I know Used to be myself And I probably wouldn't have made it If my friends hadn't helped

Depression
Today I am Sad. I do not exactly why. It could be the change in seasons. It could be that I am very tired. It could be that I have strong feelings for someone who is very special but is far away and I wish him to be here. I talk on the phone with him and I feel, happy, safe and warm inside but then i remember he is not here with me. I have not felt this way about another person in a very long time. I want to get to know him better. I want to know him in person. see if we click. But i will have to wait. and I am saddened by that.

Depressed
well as u can tell ive ben kinda down for the last month or so. Sorry if ive pushed some of you away or have ben acting weird or shady. Ive ben going through alot of shit mentally and socially alot of women problems and family problems as well as some of my own problems about my self.Sometimes its hard to act like the real me and when i dont i fuck things up. it seems like i always end up hurting someone and im tired of it. I do my best to learn from my mistakes but seems like ive just ben making more and more of them these days. I just wish i had someone to really talk to about this right now.. but i dont so im just righting this dumb blog. -the end

Depression Overload
why am I so depressed I hate it can't stand it I feel like a mess it feels like im always stressed it makes me tense and make me tight sometimes i just wanna fight then you came along and everythings alright why am I so depressed I am always sad and half the time mad

Deprived...
You've wrapped me with your blindfold Deprived me of my sight Now you tease and taunt me Deep into the night Exposing all my secrets The things you make me do Not something that I've done before I've placed my trust in you You tempt my lips with berries Drip wax apon my chest Torture my tender backside As I become erect You kiss me oh so tenderly Then slap me in the face Call me names and laugh out loud To put me in my place Now you soothe my welts with ice Arouse my nipples too Only to push me to the floor To kneel in servitude IMspidey/M.M. 10/06 Copyright © 2006

Depressed
A Massachusetts' blonde was feeling so depressed that she decided to end her life by throwing herself into the water off of the Bourne Bridge in Cape Cod. She went up to the middle of the bridge and was about to leap into the frigid water when a handsome young sailor saw her teetering on the edge of the pier crying. He took pity on her and said, "Listen, you've got a lot to live for. I'm off to Europe in the morning and if you like, I can stow you away on my ship. I'll take good care of you and bring you food everyday."Moving closer, he slipped his arm around her shoulder and added with a wink, "I'll make you happy, and you can make me happy." The blonde nodded yes through her tears. After all, what did she have to lose? That night, the sailor brought her aboard and hid her in a lifeboat,along with blankets and food. From then on, every night he brought her sandwiches, water, wine and fruit and they would make mad, passionate love until dawn. Three weeks later, during a routine i

A Depressing Poem
Another slash across my wrists, The end is coming near. I do not know who will save me now, And my mind is full of fear. The hatred inside myself grows, To an unimaginable number. And pretty soon if I let the blood flow, I will be in eternal slumber. I have been through this before, But this time I seem so sure I will die. Because other times I knew it would be stopped, And the ticket of death is what I refused to buy. I am fading now right out of existence, I will soon be at rest. Once more I have tempted fate, And put it to the test. Will someone in my life whom I hold dear, Save me from my self today? I want to live, And the help of a friend is now to what I for prey. Â© Tanya Lanea Carson 2006

Depressed..
OK TO ALL MY NEW LC BUDDIES IVE NEVER CREATED A BLOG ON HERE OR ANHWHERE FOR THAT MATTER BUT JUS WANTED TO TELL U ALL THAT MY FEELINS ARE SO FUCKIN LOW RIGHT NOW I THINK IF I CAN KEEP THIS DAILY YU WILL KNOW EXACTLY HOW STACYS FEELIN DAY TO DAY .....TODAY IAM VERY DEPRESSED AND CONFUSED BOUT MY LIFE IN GENERAL....

Depressed Personified
i am so tired of being depressed. i hate it. i have no reason to hate myself and my life like i do right now. everything is going well. i am happily and peacefully single. i have a great family and some really good friends (u know who u are). Yet, today i had to fight it again. This oppression that tries to bury me, pushing me deep into the ground. it feels like it will never end. Red dawn attack Black lip cries Browned into black Pitiless eyes Soul will lack Mournful sighs Liquid sadness Will not atone Bricked in gladness Cold to the bone Draped in madness I fight alone

Depression.....
when will the depression when will it lesson why am i stressin? why do we let things bother us like we do?...depression kills it is so easy to let it take you over and spiral downwards into a neverending hole in which you cannot recover....its so easy to revert to anger as well...but the rage does nothing but give you a short lived ease on the pain but will bring more in the long run....so what do we do?...we suffer and become tougher look into my eyes tell me you dont see pain behind my shell....tell me you dont see me hiding my depression...well that is what you have to do sometimes not suck it up but understand things get better and worse all the time and you have to keep moving....ive been through alot....you have too if your still here with me then...you havent given in yet.... tell me what you think of this blog...

Depression
How can you just leave me Here and alone with my heart Lying there dried out on the floor All the blood drained just like my tears I can't stand this empty feeling Of misery and deep despair Feeling like your dead and gone But truly your just leaving Forever and ever never to come back To the place you once called home How could this have happened so fast Your feelings changed in an instant Over an argument we had Was our love that fragile That it broke just like that Over something so dumb and small If it's like that between us I guess it's just not meant to be

Depression, And My Fave Holiday....
I want my son to be home so bad right now. It is getting close to my fave holiday, and knowing he will be stuck at the hospital, just makes me sad. Lately I just want to be by myself. Just me and my son, no one else. According to my dr, it is post-partum depression. I dont want to talk to anyone, I dont want to do anything, all I want is my son. He is my best friend. You should see the way he looks at his mommy. He knows when I am there, and if I am not holding him, he is looking around for me. We have such a special bond. That no one can break. So please understand if I do not talk to anyone for awhile. I just need some time to myself. This is a very crazy time for me, and I just need some time to myself. So please just give me a few days, to be by myself, and to spend some quality alone time with my son, because that is what I need right now. Thank you for understanding.

Depression
Depression exhausts me. Depression blinds me. Depression strangles me. A wild depression Has stolen away the hope Which he claimed as his only friend Here on earth. Alas who will now flash A rainbow of hope Across his heart Sunk deep? No more depression, No more frustration, No more hallucination. In me I see a new dawn- A dawn that will reveal Divinity's life fulfillment On earth.

Depression
¦ Depression ¦ Honestly, sometimes it's not a hard thing NOT to have. Especially not if you're in my type of situation. "So, what exactly is your situation?" you might ask. Well, buckle your seat belt, lock the door and hold on tight, 'cause here it comes: If you've read some of my other blogs you probably know that I (in the past) suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury. ANYONE with a TBI knows just how fucking difficult it is to NOT have some form depression every single goddamn day. Sometimes it just really doesn't matter how many "good" things may (or

Depressed And Bothered
mnnk.. where do i start to talk about this isn't nothing easily propounded with something simple. my life is confusd th rollercoaster lt the grims depth carry m to the underworld again i am feling as if the whole world is ignoring me again i just don''t know the factors imma just write until my hands bleed as if my arms already arent i just wish precariously i had some definiton a clarity of the notion nothing can add up anymore you do not even recall to compar what i am feeling right now i society wants to burn me away into the sub cultures of the earth let it be i can return it also i try to be countr productive each tim i'll try to present with joy it's just a monster living in me the demon in my core tells m thy are lying they don't want me to succeed should i follow him and th door opens but th hall of that naughty gauntlet tests me i really do not think none of y'all are here for me real talk. i am scripting my life i could care less you cannot guide me to positive sunlight i

Depression Perception
Public Perception of Depression. I don’t know about he rest of the world. But lately I have been getting extremely aggravated with the publics perception and pre-judgements of anyone who falls under the category of ‘Depressed’. Whether someone suffers from Major Depression (Also known as Clinical Depression), Dysthymia, Bipolar Depression (Also known as Manic Depression), Atypical Depression, Psychotic Depression, Postpartum Depression or Seasonal Affective Disorder. The general public just automatically places them all under the category of ‘Depressed’. I know what am I am saying is summarising the entire general public and that is an unfair assumption. Lots of people do actually know a thing or two about depression and take more time to look at the individual. Despite this it seams that a lot of people still don’t know about depression. Or put any effort into learning about it. We teach school children about sex education. About drug education and other matters along similar t

Depression Hits Once Again
It's hard to love and accept that love is so far away it tears away at me like a dulled blade to know others love him just as much its hard to know if his love is true why should it be those other girls are gorgeous he could have who ever he chooses yet he instists on choosing me but tells me to take the chance if i get it for another so fucking confused.

Depression
I'm sitting here tonight feeling very blue, Christmas is just days a way and I am lonely too. I have some friends yes I know this is true, But then I ask can I count on you? You say that you understand and that your here for me, But when I really needed you your nowhere that I see. No one likes to listen to someone who is depressed alot so they moan and groan, But where does that leave me yes I'm all alone. I love a man who isn't here he moved so long ago, I gave up the chance to be with him for another man my love to show. I don't think he loved me at lest not in that special way, I hope that my true love will come and take my blues away. I still love that man that moved away and yes the other too, His friendship is more important and solid like some glue. So wish me luck as I move on that I shall find some hope, Cause the life i'm living feels like a hanging rope.

Depressed This Xmas
For all of you don't know i losted my father this year to prostate cancer he was 57 and i also lost my grandpa he was 99 i need alot of friends this time so if you can respond to me im trying to stay smiling but it is hard....

Depression
Today...i had a wounderful date...with a man that can make me laugh...and just have a fun time with ....the only thing is i don't think i am his type ...even though he says he likes me...i don't feel it...is it because im short that men think of me just as a friend...or is it cause i am so quiet and i am one of the few nice ones out there that who isn't a slut every time she is with a person of the oppiset sex...what is wrong with me...every freaken guy i talk to only wants me to do fucking sexual showes on cam..but when i actually find someone who doesn't ask he just wants to be friends...he doesn't know what he wants...just cause of his past relationships...i don't know what is worse..fucking up at an interview or a first date?? they are both pretty hard... WHat is so wrong with me....im not a sex person on line i hate it!!!!!!!!!! im not showing anything on cam but my face....so why don't guys view me ass someone they really want..if i turn them on so much why can't they be a genta

The Depression Test
I'm not surpised at all by this, lol DisorderYour ScoreMajor Depression:Extremely HighDysthymia:HighBipolar Disorder:SlightCyclothymia:Very SlightSeasonal Affective Disorder:Very SlightPostpartum Depression:N/ATake the Depression Test

Depression
Years of pain tucked away in a pocket come shooting back like a rocket Hopes strangled deep within the night gardens no longer basking in the light Sadness reverberates throughout the soul a river of tears beginning to flow Depression saddens the joyous of hearts seeping through to the deepest parts Stifling of emotions as not to share rooting deep not stopping to care Hiding away so not to be caught shut the door, keep it locked Curtains drawn, closed up tight wandering through this hopeless plight Surrounded in all this mystery keeping a hold of this losing victory

Depression Destroies Us All?
Fallen in the deep sea, Forever drowning in the depression of the world. Sinking like a stone hurled. The depression has seeped into me like a sponge. There's no way I can get this wieght off that feels like a ton. slipping...slipping away from reality. It's harder and harder to breathe til it's a fatality. Closing my eyes and going into a deep slumber seems like paradise. It's so peaceful i don't ever want to arise. Maybe if I quit breathing for just a little longer. And close my eyes I can ponder. What do i have to live for? And as my breath sneaks away even longer. Then I can ponder. Does depression destroy us all?

Depression Suck's~!~
~*~ EVERLASTING ~*~ No more torturing moments, With those so called people who cared, No more always thinking im respected, When really, They didn’t care for you from the start, Those twisted clandestine thoughts, Of detestation and suicide, Or concern for the world, No more forever scared, By those moments that fear you the most, The moment’s from the past, No more of these tears, The tear’s I have cried, Able to be drowned in my own misery, The anguish, I so longed to liberate, No more petrified moments, Of never being obtainable, Or even existing, I can’t fight that battle anymore, I no longer have that power, To grasp the world in my hand, To think there is a way to save everyone, For everyone to have perpetually a gratitude, But still, There is not care in the world, Do I really have a soul? Could everyone possibly know? My innermost judgment, Will I be able to close my eyes? To dream of such a wonderful place, The place I am lastly loved, W

A Depressing Day. Please Help!
I have had such a terrible day, I couldn't stop crying. I feel like my world is going to collapse and I don't know what to do! I just found out that my grandmother is sick and my family wants me to go stay with them for a little while. The only problem is that I have all of these bills that my ex left me and if I don't pay them, the bank will come take everything that own. This really sucks because I have a web cam that I absolutely love. I love when men tell me what to do and how to do it. It makes me feel so sexy and feminine. But no one wants to come watch me. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I'm just not sure I can take this much longer. I'd really like your help. Please look at my pictures and tell me what you think. And if you really like them please please please help me out and watch my web cam. You can also watch some of my girlfriends and a lot of other girls that aren't. I don't know what else to do! Help!

Depression
I really hate it... Most days are pretty good, will have a lil glimpse at my depression but thats it...then days like today that it becomes like a blanket and wraps me up and doesn't let me go... Days like today that I look into the mirror and see nothing at all...No reflection... I'm not even there. I can feel me, and I know its me, but its the depression and sadness talking and I'm screaming and banging to get out...Times like this that I feel like I'm suffocating , choking on the little air left in my lungs, everything getting darker and fading away. I know how to deal with this monster...I've fought it tooooo many times before... But its hard to find the strength to do it again and again and again... Been fighting it since I was 13... and it almost won when i was 14... But I'm still here. Lol I sound so emo at the moment. But I'll make it...just needed to vent... I really hope that this curse doesn't pass to Chloe'...

Depression
I'm not really sure what the problem is lately. In the past couple of days not only have I not been feeling the greatest but I've also been feeling pretty damned depressed. I've fallen into a situation that appears to be out of my control for the moment and I'm completely dependent on other people for now. It sucks. I haven't had to do that for awhile now really. I had the whole family thing going and now I'm in such a place that if it weren't for others, I'd be out in the cold with no place to go. Anyway, that's my rant for now. Not so much a rant as a complaint but anyway...... Take care people.

Depressed Yet Again, For A New Reason.
Ok well I feel like one of my friends doesnt even care to talk to me anymore or anything. It is really bothering me, I mean things were all ok till something happend a few weeks ago that got me upset and now its just worse and yeah. I guess its time to just forget about it and maybe not be friends with him so he can be happy. K sorry, just needed to rant. ~Ash~ PS. Hahah there is something else! i noticed i had 2 crushes, and now i dont have any. haha wow this is amazing. I mean they arnt a big deal but umm...well one of them was lets just say and i think i know why he deleted that. Thanks alot.

Depressed
I'm feeling: depressed Feeling very depressed because I find as I get older I still feel my life is very empty....I feel that I am not one of those people that is suppose to be happy.....I have searched and still can't find the one person I am suppose to be with...always end up with mr wrong....I have been through 2 abusive marriages and I don't want to go through that again..they were not physically abusive they were Mental Verbal and Emotional ....I came on here once befor searching and came acroos someone who called me a fool and I don't think I deserved that ...I have been hurt before online and yes it does hurt people who come on here don't realize that the other person on the other side of the monitor has real feelings and for them to come on here and play with others feeling is just not right and not fair...Like my mom always said "If you don't have anything nice to say than don't say anything at all"

Depressing Quotes
Let your tears come. Let them water your soul. Eileen Mayhew The secret source of humor itself is not joy, but sorrow. There is no humor in heaven. Mark Twain To perceive is to suffer. Aristotle The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy. Jim Rohn Few people can be happy unless they hate some other person, nation, or creed. Bertrand Russel Death row is a state of mind. Doris Ann Foster In a real dark night of the soul, it is always three o'clock in the morning, day after day. F. Scott Fitzgerald Tears are often the telescope by which men see far into heaven. Henry Ward Beecher If you board the wrong train, it is no use running along the corridor in the other direction. Dietrich Bonhoeffer Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison. Lord Chesterfield

De-pressing!!!!
OK that i am single for over since 1995 that I had a good girlfriend but little bit out-of-control !! We were good in loving somehow she left and I asked her why do she left me? Now I have been asking for lady to going out for dating but mostly o lady say to me!?! She say I am not intested with you and no long to loving with you! I have someone that I loves him lot more than you! I just beg and please then she refused then I have hard times to finding for lady that are in single?? I don't know What's next? I had askng a lot of ladies but most of say I am sorry I am TAKEN or Married or love with other person? I had bad depressing and makes me little bit jealous over someone having a dating on that day at Valentine's Day!!! Thank you for for reading my blog but little bit poorly english!!! Mike

Depression
Depression.... Able to look at the world through tear stained eyes, Knowing that you have been told only lies. Trying to accept the truth that it is over- only t express your thoughts that needed to be spoken. Keep trying to find hope in what you believe, And all is found is lost like a ship at sea. Trying to accept what is real, And telling the world how you feel. Wanting to end it all, Only to make it easier by nightfall. Keeping it all from the ones who love you, Seeing that the truth and hiding it so deeply as you do. Hurting with each passing day, When all you need for someone to whisper "I LOVE YOU yesterday, tomorrow, and forever... I will stay." written by: Becky aka naughtyBBWnurse on o2/04/2007

Depressed,sad
In a room full of people but yet I feel all alone.Sad,lonely,misunderstood,scared,hurt,pain,mad,angry,hate.This is how i feel.Sounds crazy I know try feeling it,,,, We all have these days some a little more then others.... days like today r days u find out who your friends r not and who r...Kinda funny to me how u can fix your heart and make it all cold and dead inside then u feel safe but then the min u open up to someone they crush it all over again.....Why cant people be honest and upfront with u from the start....i think some people go around being mean and hatefull just to get there rocks off..lol its kind funny when u think about it...and sad at the same time that people can be like that.....

Depression
It was such a forbidden love, It was not born from above, It was a love for Satan and his deeds, Because no one cared about my needs, No one saw me for what I really was inside, No one knew that when I got home I cried, No one knew that I hated God and heaven and such, No one knew about why I hated them so much, I hid behind a face of smiles, I have hidden since I was a forgotten child, I have such a terrible confession, I did it because I was suffering under depression, Do not blame me for what I did, Although you cried as they lowered my lid, No one understood why I picked up the knife, No one understood why I took my life, You all blamed me, and cursed in rage, No one even cared that I was still trapped in my personal cage, I hid my voice behind shouts and cheers, I hid my feelings behind the veil of unshed tears, I will not take the blame for this change of events, There was not one thing that I could prevent, It was your entire fault you

Depression
I feel so alone, like I’m the only person in the world who feels this way, and it doesn’t matter. It’s not important, maybe because I’m not important. Some days I don’t even know why I try. What can I do to be significant? I’m screaming out, doing everything in my power to be heard, yet even silence is louder than my screams. What can I do to be heard, other than tear down my world, break apart my life, die? Sometimes I wonder whether or not I’m becoming more alive or dying, sometimes I wonder if there is a difference. The pain never leaves. It never disappears. It never dies, it never fades, it never lets up. The more I try to forget the more it hurts, the more I try to move on the further I fall back. Desperation is worse than frustration, is living worse than dying? Is screaming worse than crying? The desire to destroy overwhelms me. If I break apart the world around me, maybe the world inside will feel more in tact, maybe it’s just relative. If I create chaos in my environment, my

Depression
I am haunted by you in the night You linger near in the bright sun light Your touch is cold and chills my flesh When you're around nothing can mesh You make me cave the ultimate sin And with out my friends you just might win The tears you elicit are deep inside Try as I might I can not hide You stalk me everywhere I go How to make you stop I do not know It matters not in forest or town You're always there to bring me down You're like a cat that steals your breath Your one desire is my own death I've beat you thrice and thought you tame But you keep coming back to play the game I try to make you go away You just seem to want to stay You make my mood dank and dark You latch on to me like a shark I know you long to make me sad It makes you happy to drive me mad I try to run I take a long ride But there are right by my side You fill my head with half truths and lies You work so hard to make me cry I'll close my eyes and sleep through the night And pray tomorrow y

Depression's Cry
In my prison walls I see People laughing..being free Signs of life outside this room Shattering the haunting gloom In this cage I've built myself Only and empty shell is left ****************************** I wonder why I feel no pain In this world of the insane Silence so loud all around me Demons of hell won't let me be Cannot stop the bleeding tears Or calm the twisting turning fears ****************************** I've built these walls all around No one has ever knocked them down In my lonely world I stay Sometimes to withdrawn to pray The shadows dance as they hear me cry Darkness beckons my will to die

Depressed...
so for the last few weeks,my son has really been pushing things.he treats me like im nothing like im just dirt to him.he will get in my face and yell at me.if hes not being just completeing rude to me he acts like im not on the earth.But when Dave is home Dylan still wont mind me but he does act different toward me.He acts like Dave is god and im a dog.And theres been many times ive cried and dave has always made me feel better.Dylans always acted like i was a no body. Well today i called my mother to ask her for help to ask her for some advice that might help.She told me it was all my fault.he acts this way becuz I havent done a good enough job as a mother to him.i called davecrying my head off.i called her for help. i put myself down all the time so much so that i dont need others to do it for me.ive been crying for the last i dont how long and my son keeps asking me y im crying, i love my son he is my life.i risked my life to have him.ever since i was lil ive always wanted to

Depressed
I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT HAS BEEN A PART OF MY PREGNANCY IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER....I HAD A MISCARRIAGE. I AM TRYING TO COPE WITH IT THE BEST I CAN...BUT IT'S HARD. I HAVE A GREAT MAN THAT IS TRYING TO HELP ME AS MUCH AS HE CAN...I LOVE YOU BABY!!! LOVE YOU ALL, SAM

Depressed
what is the meaning of depressed anymore I honestly dont know but I am and dont know why Maybe i just think about alot of ppl to much and I get hurt or maybe its a feeling of guilt always thinking that I am not anything just another human tha doesnt feel like he belongs on this earth. There are days i just want to crawl in a hole and die...

Depression
Depression Depression in so many It's always so sad to see The numbers are uncanny Just take a look at me So many in pain unseen As depression numbers rise Sometimes life can be so mean Just look into my eyes Afraid to go home Don't know how to deal You're feeling so alone This is how I feel Zoe Elsworth

Depression Sux
since no one ever reads these things i feel like i can safely say that my head is totally screwed up... i'm tired half of the time, i can't focus, and i don't give a rip about much of anything... in other words, i'm depressed. i went to a dr. about this, and was told that they have wonderful meds for my situation now. the problem is that my insurance only covers a fixed number of refills, so we are messin with cheap generics that don't seem to be doin much of anything in the hopes of landing on a medication that will allow me to give a fuk.... on top of that, i have been dating off and on with one girl for several months, but she's gone more than she's here. the sex is amazing, but not nearly frequent enough for me... [okay, i admit it - i'm horny all the time, so frequent enough would be all the time i'm awake.....] and to top it all off... hi. my name is rob. i'm an alcoholic. lol ... well maybe not, but i do love my beer... and have some every day. getting drunk is a

Depression
I'm Swimming All Alone In A Pool Of Depression And I Feel Like The Depression Is Slowly Pulling Me Under. I Yell For Help But No Ones There To Hear It. I Begin To See The water At eye Level And I Kick And Frail Fighting To Stay Above The water Of My Depression. But The Depression Won't Let Go Of It's Hold On Me And I Slowly Begin To Give In To The Feeling That Lies Below The Water Line, The Water Starts To Full My Lungs That Once Held So Much Left. Yet Now The Depression Allows The Murky Water To Replace That. I Know That This Path Doesn't Lead To Happiness But Why Doesn't Someone Grab My Hand Pull Me From This Grasp Of My Depression? Because No One Knows I Stand At the Boundary. The Boundary Between Light And Dark So I Give Into The Thing That Holds Me. All Of The Strength And All Of My Courage That I Once Held In My Heart Can't Save Me From My Depression, So I Slowly Slip Below The World Of Conscientiousness Undetected By The Occupants Of That World. I Do

Depression
Why is it that in life people think that they can tip toe on the daisies but trample on people? I have tried to understand why my life has been one train wreck after another. I try to do the right thing and think I'm quite curtious whith other people, only to feel like a door mat. the past 2 months have made me feel like I am not worth a dime what to do??? well when I figure it out I will post it.

Depression
Yea im sitting here depressed out of my mind! -My dog has to go to a shlter today because my ex husbands moving and cant keep him any longer -im geting a divorce at 21 -i can't find a job and if i do i cant hold it for verry long! It just seems like nothings working in my life and im tired of it I cant take it any longer! My cousin who i love dearly is in jail and it sucks beucase shes the one i would clal when life got to be too much! Im such a week person and I want help I cant get through this on my owno feel hopeless and like theres no point to my life anymore- I cant do anything correctly the only time i am happy is when im doing somthing destructive on my body like drinking or somthing! I have to ask my dad to bring me to the hospital today so i can get some help and work on my life and get things together In a way i dont want to beucause then i would be admitting all my faults for all my family to see and recognise they already tell me i have issues and need help an

Depression
It comes...when you least expect it...you know why...you see the signs,but ignore them.Pain...confussion....hate....run if you can,but oh my goddess, you can't! The sun shines...your soul rains....lightning...thunder.....and still that damn sun shines!! You fight...you struggle....why?you take a deep breathe,jump in and start over....why? Days drag on...everyone does their thing and I am worthless... Night moves in and I awake to nightmares and dreams...no one believes or understands... welcome to my real world....I can't control it or fight it or turn it on or off...a great day can crash in a moment...a moment can sparkle in a lifetime..... I just lost more than half of anyone reading this....lol...no worries....lost myself.....

Depression
The past 2 days have been rough! I'm so exhausted just from all that's been going on! Tuesday my daughter skipped school and was picked up for shop-lifting! Since then it's been a parade of people here and at the school! Sometimes I just don't know what to do with her!

Depression
You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets. Unipolar Depression 67% Borderline Personality Disorder 17% Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 8% Antisocial Personality Disorder 0% Eating Disorders 0% Schizophrenia 0% Which mental disorder do you have? created with QuizFarm.com

Depressed
Depressed Again It's been a bad day I'm getting used to it now another sad day I'd cry but I dunno how I'm drowning in thoughts of how things used to be my chest was shut tight complete w/ purity It's out in the open should've kept to myself I'll learn from mistakes take my heart off the shelf my soul has now fled it's my body alone and it's far too much hurt for my heart to come home I give it up now there's no way to win w/o you here my world still spins It's been a bad day I'll try to let it not show another sad day and I'm just letting go....

Depressing Shit
"THE POEM OF MYSELF" I AM A POEM NO ONE CARES TO READ COMPOSED ON UGLY PAPER WITH BEAUTIFUL WORDS, WORTHY OF A GLANCE FROM THOSE WHO TURN THEIR HEADS AWAY AND GORGE THEMSELVES IN THE VERSES OF OTHERS I CANNOT COMPETE WITH, (I WILL SURELY LOSE IN THE COMPETITION OF LIFE) AND WILL NEVER BE PUBLISHED IN THE BOOK OF WORTHINESS; FOR NOW I'LL REMAIN CRUMPLED IN LONELINESS NEAR THE TRASH-- WHERE I SOMETIMES FEEL I BELONG. ...Heather K

Depressed Much
i am trying to be positive but right now im jus not. i cant find a job here and i hate it and its making me sick, i want a job i want to work, i want to be able to support myself and be able to do what i want to do career or a job and i need income its drivin me nutzzzzzz.. ehhh.. hopefully i find a job here soon or i dunno if im gonna move or what but i cant just be here and not work and not be able to do anything. I cant stand being in the house as is.. ive been here 2 months and ive looked for a job, going to north myrtle and seeing all the jobs they have there and not being able to find one here, kinda pisses me off. Fuck.

Depression From A Fallen Freind
well it has been a couple days now. I am getting shit from heathers family. I still have nightmares and I wishe I could change the past. I play her favorit song in my head over and over.I wish I should of said no.. maybe she will still be here..

Depression
Nothing personal to people who are clinically depressed but uh whats your problem. I can understand why some people are depressed but people with seemingly perfect lifes are always complainign about stupid shit that doesn't even matter. I hate it when girls say im fat or im ugly. I don't care so what everybody has imperfections get over it. Or the excuse my parents were abusive well guess what my mom was a drug addict and abuive but ya know what i'm not crying about it and cutting myself get over it. Stop trying to get attention and get real life goes on. So stop being a loser. Everybody knows depression is just anger without enthusiasm so get some initiative and do something about it!

Depression
when it comes down to lt life is to short to let depression stand in the way WE cant help if you dont let us just give us a chance to help by pushing us away your only hurting yourself and the ones that care for you dont let depression stand in the way of freinds it takes a life to build up love but only a second to let depression get you down hold tight to your frends they will help.

Depression
Grab my head and just want to scream, to many thoughts driving me insane. Life just gets more complicated, to many twisted things going through my brain. Why do I let it bother me, just want my friends to know I care. Need to show them all, the love i have to spare. Such a beautiful day out , I need to go out and play. Here in this cold room, is where i perfer to stay. Glad you came bye to give me a hand, I will return the favor when i can. You know that I am grateful, and I am a tender hearted man. Look in the mirror what do I see, just a lost soul staring back at me. Haven`t always tired that hard, to be the person that I want to be. Sometimes I wish i was in a grave, six feet under like my father. Life sucks all the time, so why should i even bother! Contemplating what to do next, maybe talk to another friend. Or maybe wallow in my sorrows, and bringmy life to a bitter end!

Depressed
I dont really know what else to do, i guess writing in a blog that wont really be read by a lot of people would work. Im just utterly depressed and I cant seem to get out of that stupid little hole that I dug myself. I dont seem to be mending like im supposed to. And Im working so hard only to have it all slapped in my face after two weeks. An insulting paycheck, alone because I wasnt worth it anymore, i have to try and find more jobs to find some kind of balance while going to school and maybe telling myself that I'm worth someones time in the work field. Sometimes I wonder how much my life is actually worth living...and there are more cons than pros. Maybe I should just end it.

Depressing Easter Sunday
It's Easter. And this doesn't seem like a very good day. My parents are grouchy and they don't know how to act anymore. I asked why we weren't having a big dinner and mom was like because I'm broke. So...get out the frozen meats and cook something. Dad was like stop complaining. If you don't like it get out of the house. If only it was that simple. I really really feel like their failure. All I want is for a normal holiday. Nothing means anythiing to me anymore because they don't care anymore. I promise that when I have my children that I will never do them like my parents are doing me. Sometimes I feel like if I could just vanish that they wouldn't miss me at all. Not really. Their perfect children are Tina Van and Bubba. No one sufferes as much as I do. I think its really because I'm at JC Penney and I'm happy where I am and they don't care. They think of me as a lowlife. All because I don't make a whole heck of alot of money. I'm almost ready to tell them that if they want to b

Depression Is An Evil Seed....
Trying out and conquering my fearless flight, Only to find out I'm afraid of the night. I spread my wings in fear they maybe clipped, And in a dark well I have slipped. Further and deeper I descend, Only to find the bottom~ but there's no end. Answers to the questions don't come, No questions to the answers I give~ I feel so dumb. Depression is not a situation at hand, It is a disorder that not all understand. So if you see me sitting in the dark of a well lit room, Don't be afraid to comfort the gloom. A smile, a hug is all I might need... For depression is an evil seed. Written 4/26/07

Depression
Depression is hard on ones soul. Its emotionally draining on ones soul. The demons within me cry out for help and to be free. An impossible freedom that cries out to be released Freedom thats held within unable to escape Depression takes total control of me and my mind Bringing me down so easily. Some days are better then others, some days are worse then others Those demons within me some some days claw and dig into my mind telling me one thing and then doing another. These demons screaming within my mind, begging to be set free. These demons tell me over and over that Iam not a good person Iam. Though they say in time these demons can be released, hopefully sooner then later before it becomes to late for me and others around me These demons scream out in agony, begging to be released from the hell within my body and soul When the demons scream out for help seems that there is no one there Seems they are asking for help and no one is there to give them the help they are

Depressed
I have been in the worst mood today. This is the most depressed I have felt in a while. I have never felt more alone in my whole life. I dont have very many friends at all. And the friends I do have they have their own life to worry about. So they dont need me in their way. I feel like everyone and everything I love his gone. I dont know what do you with my life anymore. I have this baby growing inside me and I love it and I cant wait for him or her to get here. But I sit and I think why in this world did God give me this precious little gift...for me to raise up in my fucked life. Im scared Im not going to be able to give my baby everything it needs. I already took away the one thing that every little kid should have... and thats a family of their own. Yes, he or she has a dad but I know he wont be their for it all the time and he will walk in and out of its life as he pleases. I choose not be with the dad because he didnt treat me good when we were together...and I dont want to be wi

Deprivation April 28,06
beyond the age of deprivation.. scandal time and recreation ..mad emotion said devotion... loving all becoming notions ..within sadness within joy... make the commoner the better toy ... please... enjoy.. all that is ..the lives we live ..with every jizz... and titilate with every kiss.............have fun boys and girls the time is now

Depressed
Love... to me it's just a word it really means means nothing to me anymore... if i didn't have my family and the my friend sarah...I really don't know what I would do in this world... They alway's say "never give up on love, that i'm pretty and it will happen when it happens" that bull...All guys now days are just all liers... They claim that girls lie and cheat and yeah some do but they pretty much ask for it because they go for shallow skinny pretty girls that would hurt them in a second it makes me mad that the girls that all they want is to be loved or treated like guys treat the pretty ones get treated like shyt.... that's not cool all this shyt makes me sad nobody is better than anyone everybody makes mistakes, nobody is perfect everybody deserves a chance...some people are just to stupid to see that:((( sucks...And that's why I have decided that i'm given up on love it's just a word to me now it has no meaning to me what's so ever... Never been in love and never will be

Depressing Week~
Well this has been a depressing week for me. First my bf and I broke up and then my friend that was in the hospital passed away last night. And there was also a teenager here in town that passed away from a car accident. I am getting better though, the support I have is awesome. But I walked out of work 2 time's this week and the last time everyone told my boss I quit, so now I have to find a new job. I will keep you updated as the week goes on. Stay safe and have a great week.

Depression & Misery Go Hand In Hand
Can someone plz help me end my misery? I just wanna fuckin die. I've had nothing to live for ever since the one guy (outside my family) that really, truly loved left me alone and miserable w/out even a reason why. I've tried to live, but as each day goes by, I grow even more depressed. And the bad luck just keeps on comin. I feel I have no one I can count on. Hell, my own sister, who's been one of my closest friends, is even going behind my back. And if I can't count on her, then who can I count on. Sure as hell ain't me, for the simple reason that I'm so fucked up. My life has gone upside down, and the only way I see out is thru Death's door.

Depressed
Being hurt is such a horrible thing. Why does it always hurt to be heart broken? First I go thru a horrible relationship with my ex. being controlled and not allowed to do anything. I lost all my friends because of him. Now he wont leave me alone. I mean hes a great friend, But he wants to get back with me. But i dont, and he wont listen to me at all about how i feel. What should i do? Sometimes i just hate life. Im always depressed anymore. Sorry:( love always, Jessi

Depression Sucks
Depression sucks.. or so a friend said in her blog today. And she was right it does suck. It sucks for the person that is depressed.. and for those who care about that person. Now I'm going to tell a bit about my past and depression. Maybe it will scare a few friends off. But maybe it will help a few understand me.. and to help me. After all, my struggles right now are about finding myself, changing myself, making myself stronger. When I left my ex, I was happy. I had finally broken free. After 9 years of living with "the warden" I could be free. What I didn't realize was, I wasn't very healthy emotionally. About a month after leaving, it hit me. I had 4-5 nightmares every night so I stopped sleeping. I had anxiety attacks. I became claustrophobic. I had flashbacks to things I either didn't.. or didn't want to remember. I didn't want to be around anyone. I laid in bed and cried. I didn't eat. I couln't let anyone touch me without jumping.. not even my son. I couldn't

Depressed
i hate me! i hate my life! i hate that i am fat! i hate everything right now! i just want someone to love me! i want someone that will care about me and what i want! when is it time for me? life sux! i jsut want to be happy! fuck it all! fuck life! i cant say fuck it all! I have a son to think about! i care about him! I love him he is my life but when is it time for someone to love me?

Depression
Depression, if only it would go away It makes me wonder why I live life this way Why I go from day to day Trying to look for the light But the darkness just pulls me back Pain consumes me And I want to escape Not worth the breath of life I wonder why Im even here Life was just a mistake Just a face lost in the crowd Screaming so loud But its like no one hears I wipe away these tears But more fall Trying so hard to be strong But a silent tear is all I have to show I dont want to face this pain anymore I want to lock myself away from all the world Im so confused Sick of life Sick of the pain Sick of going through this shit from day to day Why must I live life this way? Guess Ill never know Silent tears are all I have to show

Depression Is Who I Am...
When I wake up in the morning I just can’t help but cry Because it really hurts to know That inside I want to die This life I thought I had Has fallen before my eyes And the only way to hide it Is to cover it up with lies It seems I'm always crying And crying is all I do And all this makes me question If ill ever make it through I thought I had it all But the truth is I was wrong And each day it gets harder To continue being strong My smiles looking fake And my eyes are showing tears And all I guess this shows Is that I have so many fears I’ve tried to make this right I’ve done my very best But it doesn’t even matter For in the end I am depressed Depression is what I am And who I am inside And even thought I’ve tried From depression I cannot hide...

Depressed
i am so depressed right know i think my husband may be trying to cheat on me when i have been faitful and honest about things. every one knows that i am married. but now for the past year i have not been happily married. i lost my uncle in 98 a friend in 2003 lost my brother in 2004 lost my husbands grandpa and a nother uncle of mine in 2005 now i am about to loose my grandpa and thats not everyone. i wish i could smile and laugh again. maybe find some one who change and brighten my world back up it is so gray and dark i cannt tell one day from the other some times. i thought i had found some one that made me happier and laughing again but after 2 days i found out he lied to me. i dont go for those who lie to me. why are all guys the same? i hope one day i will find that some one, or may be i have found him just dont give him much of a chance. i dont know. good luck to all the others out there searching for that true love soulmate.

Depress
Im writing this blog because this day, ive been crying so much its because of the pain that i feel right now..Just dont know what to do already, wish i was die already so that i wont suffer anything in this world.. I give too much love because this is what i am... NO matter what they do, they cant change me.. IN all of my life, all i have to do is suffer so much pain.. I remember when i was still young, we live in a very small house, whenever im hungry ill just go at the backyard and pick some plants which im going to eat.. Most of the time, ill just knock in every Neighbor's door its because im very hungry and dont have something to eat.. Everyone dont like me at all and even hate me so much, even though i havent done anything wrong to them.. They say some bad criticism about me and tell it to other people... My life is very miserable, just full of sadness and pain.. Im very jealous to those people who are very happy always even though im not.. The reason why im not so happy because e

Depressed, Oppressed Or Just Simply Bored?
*Sorry for the typo error Just when you thought you’re having the most depressing part of your life, all you need is a glass of wine and a cancer stick and a friend who will listen to you and you will be back to normal. For the past couple of months I am having a dilemma if I am suffering from a personality disorder or I am depressed. I am in this situation where I am so bored with what I do in general. My life would be waking up at 11 o’ clock PM to sit in front of my computer, stare at the monitor and hoping that I will receive an interesting email. While I do that, I consume my coffee and smoke. At that moment, I will listen to Jack Johnson, naturally, while my mind is blank. When I am done with my cup of coffee, its time for me to take a bath and get ready for work. When I get to the office, I will look for a station where it’s near my crush’s station, which is beside him. So of course I will get to be shy, and reasons to smile. My work is to receive calls, and activate a pers

Depression Sets In
Well the weekend I had planned went to complete shit. I didn't even make it half way and my tranny went out leaving me stranded on the side of the interstate for hours because no one could or would come and get me. It really sucks to know that you can't count on the ones you love. So I didn't get tattooed, or go to the biker party or see my daughter. I do believe the world hates me. Or atleast I am cursed. Nothing ever goes right and I can never catch a break. I just got back to the shop and had to get the bronco towed back here and ride along. I am so lost right now I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no one in this world and no matter how hard I try to get my life straight everything goes to hell. Some one please help me.

Depressed
The mental weakness is back again the same old anguish and the pain feels like my life is going down the drain The blood from the cut folding knife open and shut The stinging relief i feel from the blade's sharp steel All these things i want to go away not to return another day I am feed up with feeling weak I desire a normal life like we all seek I have anger and i am sad I hate myself I feel so sad I dont want pitty or to be a door mat A normal life is where i want to be at I need to find a getaway So i can fight another day not sure it will happen this time i am sorry to say.

Depressed
Another day of fighting, sometimes I think it would be a lil less painfull if he would up and hit me, cause man does his words pack a punch. No matter what I do I never seem to make him happy.I have put 8 yrs of my life into a relationship that was pretty much doomned from the first words *I-DO* , So many people including my parents warned me to think twice before jumping into a relationship with him. Now I regret never ever listning to my friends and my family. Now 3 kids later I am worse now then I ever was, I am stubborn and a tad bit hard headed and I dont feel that I have to give up MY home just because he wont leave. Alot of people ask me *Why do you stay*, it's simple it's my home too I may not work a full time job and get a pay check BUT I DO work, I take care the bills, the cleaning, the cooking , and raising my kids and putting up with a jerk of a husband that puts me down in a drop of a hat. And that my friend IS a full time job!

Depression Diet
Yeah, that title is kinda lame. Haha... but I've noticed when I'm depressed I can't eat... I just feel sick whenever I do... And Since I've been depressed for the last week or so I've lost weight... Ha... only cause I can't eat... It's kinda interesting... And a bit amusing... but it's the truth... I'm done that really all I have to say..

Depressed...and I Don't Know Why
Depressed...and I don't know why Well, today started out like any other day. Got up late. Didn't want to go in. Went to pick up my sister. This is were it was a little different, but not much. Maddie is sick, again, so Lisa stayed home. I finally got to work, blew some money on scratch tickets, and started doing her job, and mine. Makes for a fast day, but now here I sit waiting for her to call me to get a list of names from her. i hate waiting. Not to mention, the mailer we're doing is printing, but of course we ran out of paper for it and good luck finding anything in her office! Again, waiting for her. The passanger side tire on my car has metal tread showing through, but tires for my car are like $105 a tire. Who can afford that?! Not to mention, mom's still using the car, but doesn't help with the up keep. And very rarely puts gas in it. I'm told I've got a lot of friends, but none seem to come around unless then need something. Not all, so don't everyone freak out

Depressed
I am really upset cuz my hubby has my mind jumbled and i dont know what to do.He says he wants a divorce but tells me he loves me and kisses me and treats me like his wife and he cares. He just deployed today for 15 months and it is worrying me i dont want to think he wants to be with me and him end up not wanting to. All his friends have told him that they think i am great and that he is stupid for leaving me. i am just really confused as hell....

Depression Kit
Smoky quartz is a grounding and stabilizing stone. It brings calm and centering, lifts depression, enhances practicality, and generally removes negative energies, bringing happiness. Smoky quartz is also a good luck stone. It can also assist in tapping subconscious wisdom. Smoky quartz is a protective stone, particularly for physical protection, protection from negativity, and psychic protection. Physically, smoky quartz is helpful for kidneys, abdomen, pancreas, reproductive organs, menstrual cramps, fertility issues, water retention. Smoky quartz is associated with the root chakra. Rose quartz is a stone of unconditional love. It opens the heart chakra to all forms of love: self-love, family love, platonic love, and romantic love. Rose quartz has excellent protection energies during pregnancy and childbirth. The elevated energy of quartz gives rose quartz a property of enhancing love in virtually any situation. It also brings gentleness, forgiveness, and tolerance. Rose quartz i

Depression
depression is a verry bad illness,some say it is by choice but in fact it is not,i have bean depressed since i was 10 ,i tryed to kill myself at that age,then again when i was 36 and then again when i was 40,depression and bipolar is nothing to mess will it dose get in the way of relationships who in there right mind wants to date and be a boy friends or girlfriend of a bipolar,i suffer from bipolar it dose not control me i control it but people who have depression or bipolar is still human we can still feel and love,maybe even more,it dosent mean im crazy it dosent mean im nuts,what it means is i have bean traumatize and my brain has chemical imbalance ,im not afraid to ad mitt that i suffer from it,if people took the time to understand it it would be a better place

Depression
I hunger for you suffering I relish in your pain and anguish I am the drinker of souls devourer of the mind you can't avoid my embrace like a warm dream i captivate your senses maniacal and devious i claim domain you belong to me there is no escape other than death even then i have won your earthly pain may have ended but an eternity i have to torture you forever and a day my bliss is your tears cry for me, scream for me i welcome your disdain hate me for what i am pity me for i have need of you whatever you feel, i feel it more i will always be with you no one can get rid of me no matter how hard they try i am forever, an eternity of mind fuck and it is you i choose to fuck with so bow down and submit, for i am here to stay

Depression?
What is depression? If you ask one person they'll say someone feeling sad, or mad at themselves, or any number of other emotional words to describe it. A psychiatrist will tell you it's just a mental chemical balance mix up. But for all these simple explanations, how come there are never any simple answerws? Sure, you could pop a few pills but that isn't an answer once you stop popping you go right back down into that funk or grove that you've been in? Sure you could get drunk, high, wasted or any other drug induced state but those are all just temporary. To find a real cure one would have to find the real problem; is it genetic, because you have these genes than you're going to be depressed no matter what you do, or is it spiritual, because some greater power or God has chosen you as one of the happiless. Many people will say that depression can be beat with diet and exercise with spending time with loved ones and friends. But is that beating depression? I mean sure you'l

Depression Setting In
Well I just found out something that I really didn't want to hear. Before I start I want to apologize to my mom, she just found out not too long before I did, but I feel as if I have to post this. I just found out that my grandma's condition is getting worse. She has COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease), she has fluid building up in her lungs, and she has NO Oxygen going to her brain. Things are not looking good right now with her. Please pray for our family and I will keep everyone whom wants to know posted Stone Cold Fan 4 Ever

Depression
shit i know that im getting played like a fool , but i cant control it.....it hurts so bad that im in a depression stage now....im not sure what to think i cant even get my head straight thats not me to let someone hurt me like that....it hurts so bad that my heartaches every time i see him walk away....he's telling me what i want to hear just so that he can get what he wants......he tells me that he cares.....one night he tells me that he loves me and but then the next its like were just friends...i cry myself to sleep at night wishing that he would just let me be....to stop playing games with me to love me for me and not that other person that im not....i want him to know that i will always love him.....just one of these days im not going to be there any more....it hurts so bad that i have to say good-bye...he is pushing me away i have no choice but turn my back and and walk the other way...im sorry if i hurt you....im sorry that i let you down...im sorry that it didnt work out for u

Depression Kills
Distraught, depressed, I'm hurt and angry, Torn apart with shattered dreams and a broken heart, As the days break and the mornings bloom, I see no light only darkness and gloom. This broken heart I can nurse no more For it is in pieces, shattered on the floor, Please god, hear my cry and heed my call, Show me the way or show me the door, Ive had enough, I cant take no more. So this is me, telling you, Telling you I want to die, knife to my wrist and gun to my head, Now you all know I wish I was dead. As the blade runs up I scream in pain, Oh my god, I sliced a vein, Now thats over there's blood on the floor, I couldn't stop cutting, So I cut more and more, I lay on my bed with a blood stained sheet, Now my death, I'm ready to meet, Wanting to die makes me glad Because its far much better than always being sad. Laying on my bed with an inch of being dead, I woke up from this dream and started to scream, I realize now That was a vision, Tha

Depression...
there is a great deal of depression, that has overtaken my soul... it floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole. i wonder and worry throughout the day, what is to come, to my dismay. as a flood of tears flow out of me, in all my expressions, more and more comes, more and more depression. i assure myself everything is okay! but who am i fooling? then i burst into a spirit of rage. i have questions and there are answers, but i am afraid and much too weak. when i try to explain, i hear i'm hearing wrong and need to be meek. but this is how i feel, there is no wrong or right, but as i battle myself, i always lose the fight. i feel intimidated sometimes by others, but as i said, this is how i feel. the pain in me is very real. i lose control, my thoughts go wild, and here i am, only a child. if only you knew what i thought, if only you knew what i fought. i need my thoughts held captive, please assure me that i'm thinking normal, and you'll he

Depressed. Its Hard Not To Be When The One You Love Doesnt Know You Exist. Or Doesnt Wanna Know Anyway
there is this guy im completely in love with. and i dont know how to get ahold of him. no one likes me. and i wish someone did. ive been single 6 years, and no one wants to even know me. it makes me so depressed. i just wish that i could find one guy that would make me happy. the one, my one true love. and maybe my emotional pain would go away. i wish this could happen for me. but it never will.......

Depression In Me
Depression is the keeper of my hell u send me Death is the cold blood that runs deep thru me The doors to freedom are boarded up by hate My eyes are shut with the fear of its hateful mistake Depression that is soaking thru me like the sweat u intake Soaking thru my skin like acid rain from my tears Depression is my death ISN'T IT CLEAR? Where does love fit in when depression is ur air Like a moth to a flame, blacking sufficating killing what u hold dear Depression is the power of a rage from the past Where death is welcomed depression is its reflectionof what u believe is usually what u see

Depression
How is it that no matter how hard you try everything still seems to turn against you. Your family, your friends, love, life... everything! it doesn't make any sense to me. I guess thats how life goes, and I probably will never no the answer to that question! Love is a difficult thing. You think you have found someone so right and everything happens to make you believe otherwise... what do you do? Do you walk away and leave it behind or do you hope for the best and stick it out? Seriously... how do you know which path to take when there are signs pointing in both directions? I'm so confused! I don't understand the logic of it. I don't understand how something so beautiful could turn so dark and ugly! I don't understand how those you love could just turn against you! I just don't understand it! None of these things make sense to me. Nothing that is happening makes a lick of sense... its all Greek! I just wish I knew how to fix the pain and the troubled souls and the anger... how to be a

Depression Can Take Control Of The Soal.
Depression can take control of the soal. A depression so deep it finds a way into the Soul, and travels through every pore of your Heart. A depression so large it encompasses every bit of your Reality, and leaves Reality a cloudy memory. A depression so dense it compresses every will you once had, and bows you down to accept it as it's own. A depression so devious it takes you piece by piece, and consumes each piece day by day. A depression so truly disheartening, and leaves you no other emotions. A depression so dangerous, and kills, everything, inside, of you.

Depressed
He said that I have no reason to be upset, that I knew it was over a long time ago. I cant help it. Now, being she is here for a week, I feel my heart breaking all over again. As I just sit, locked, in my room, all I can think about is what they may or may not be doing in his room. I know the best thing would be for me to get out but I have no where to go right now, well, no where that I want to take my daughter as well. There have been others since him, but I still cant help but getting upset. I dont think I did anything to deserve this in my life. I have been honest, caring, giving, and supportive of all those around me, and I get nothing in return. No one to love or care for me like I want/need them to. All I want to do is cry. Its not fair. I havent really been happy in a long time. I hate being alone. I dont think anyone should be alone, but that is all I feel. Alone. No one to cuddle with or to talk to. No one to be there for me when I am sad, or share my excitment with me when s

Depresson Poem
I cry myself to sleep thinking bout you, what the fuck else am I posed to do, I work, stay up late, and hate myself, for being who I am, I'm in so much pain, my therapist dont even know what to say, my life is criticle, changing everyday, hes kicking me again, worthless I am, I do wat I can, i drown myself every now and again, he made my moms sleep on the floor, what kinda bullshit is that you stupid fucking DICK, but anywho, my life sux, my life sux, but who honestly gives a fuck, I am alone now, an empty space where my love use to be, is now blacker than a cobra, spitting its venom, my wounds will never heal, so spit this venom in my vein and hope I die this day.

A Depressed ...
looking regular enters a bar and orders a soda. The bartender asks why he doesn't want his usual shot. "I quit drinking" the man replies. "Last night I blew chunks." "What's so horrible about that?" the bartender asks. "Eveybody gets sick once in a while after drinking." "No, no," the man repplies. "You don't understand. Chunks is my dog."

Depression 08-11-2007
Here it is, Saturday morning, and I'm working again. Why? I'm not real sure. Our group is caught up. But here I am, and I'm not even working my area. Once again, I'm an hour and a half away from my house, in a town I'm not that familiar with, doing tickets because another group can't keep up, and don't put in an honest days work. So that sets my mood for the day. I have banking that will not get done, because I won't be home in time. I have a yard full of weeks that I need to pull. I have a bathroom that needs to get finished painted and trimmed. My son just got home last night, I'd like to see him. But none of this matters, because people won't step up, and take responsibility for their actions. I'd like to go out, and see a band I like who's playing tonite, but I know deep down it will not happen. My wife works 12 hours, then is getting her haircut, then she'll come home and say she's too tired to go out. She'll tell me I should go out by myself, meet up with friends, a

Depression & Alcohol
Do you still love me? You say you do and I am the one and only, but I can't understand why I can't feel it anymore. I used to feel it in your arms, in your voice. There was no doubt in my mind. I could feel you love deep in my bones, no matter how far away you were. Now it feels like you just say it because it is expected or out of habit.I want you to know I DO still love you with every breath that I have and I hope & wish that one day I will know you do too.

Depressing Poetry
I'm trying to live in a world full of mistakes, things from my mind that which cannot be erased. I seem to find the things that would make the most miserable in life, always the things that make me shed me a tear or two. Broken hearted with a secret life. When you see me I'm smiling but inside I'm drowning. I'm dying slowly and the pain hurts less and less, as I give up more and more. Each day I'm put to the test. Every time I think that the black hole as an end, I'm caught up in the world pool once again. I've given up all hope to find the happiness I long to hold, I've given up on the thing I use to want most because all there is... Are unfaithful truths to behold. I've tried so hard that I'm sick of trying; I'm mentally exhausted and physically dyeing. I've given up on the hope that I'll be happy one day... Just one quick slice... Please make the pain go away. I long to have the thing I've given up on and I long to never think about it again. I wish that for once... I could win. Eit

Depressed.
Why does it hurt so much When you love someone Yet don't know how to show it? Why is Pain such a part of Life When all it does to you Is make you unhappy? When will all the Feelings Of Disspair, Lost, and Lonliness Finally leave you in Peace? Why are they even there When all they do Is bring on more Hurt? Is it the way of Life For us to live like this With such Depressed Feelings??

Depressed
the lies u tell me u swear are the truth the calls in the night i always get from you you never answer your phone when its me calling you but god forbid if i dont answer yours you came into my life like a bull on the run i swear i shoulda looked before jumping that gun you have caused me pain and tons of grief for which i wont forgive you because your not worth it to me you ruin plenty of lives and take many of hearts for what i do not get is why your never care the people you hurt friendships you break is things i cant deal wit and its the things that i hate you make sure im not happy just to satisfy your needs i swear you get off sittin here watching me bleed the blade into my skin blood runs to the floor the 1 thing i only know for sure is you cant hurt me anymore

Depression I
This is Depression pt. 1 by Abyssic Hate. Right now I feel these words resounding within my mind... Far beyond the walls of all safety in a land Disgusting as the highest of God's heavens Starved hands keep appearing - clawing Tearing shreds out of the flesh and mind And as the sands crawl their unchanging path All means seemingly focus towards the end There is no reason to live anymore when the reason cannot be attained But the solace lay beyond the darkness In a land where light and life dwell Yet soon will come death and the numbing fires Only then will my mind lie to rest For I am alone on this world Enslaved and surrounded by the living dead Yet still I stand tall as I bleed Deep from within the cuts upon my skin

Depression Ii
Another from Abyssic Hate. Awesome project. I relate to the words, the hatred of man and life flows through my own mind. I think about life and feel pure hate about being trapped here on this earth Envying all deceased souls who've passed on from this ruined plane My dormant hours are filled with fear, my waking hours I will not face All will to life has expired I just want to fucking die! The thought of life reviving is nothing but pure illusion This impulse to end my life keeps on echoing through my mind Wishing that I had the strength to extinguish the whole of mankind I know that this goal of mine will never ever be attained I hate this fucking human race for what they have all done to me Driven to this destructive state Guided by insanity! The thought of life reviving is simply just pure illusion This impulse to end my life keeps on echoing through my mind My cries for help have gone in vain No need to endure this endless strain My screams of pain seem d

Depressing, Dont Read If In Good Mood.
John - Wanna go out for beers after my sisters wedding crap? Brad - naw not today. Not feeling great last 2 days. John - Ok bro, let me know, need to hit the padio soon. Brad. - You bought last time, my turn... Above isnt quoted, but was a MSN convo from last night. At 5:12pm today. A really great friend, and golfing buddy died. 25 fucking years old............... I just had beers with him on the weekend. He was in perfect health. Walked the golf course. And came to join me for a few beers at our favorite watering hole D'arbys. Yesterday he learned he had congestive pneumonia. Today he died. :( I am crying. And i'm pissed off at the world. Two things i have never done until about two weeks ago. This is the second BIG death in 10 days for me. Keith (ex's dad) lead a full and happy life which i thought was cut short. But Brad? 25? Who is in charge of this? And where do i kick their ass? Fuck god, Fuck the church. I've had it. Sorry, my last two b

Depression
have ya ever had a period of time where ya feel like a loser, where ya feel like no one wants you? This entire summer ive felt like such a loser, i feel very unwanted by anyone. My friends have all but deserted me because they all have significant others or are married with children or children on the way, etc. I cant remember a summer ive spent more time at home since i was old enough to drive. The dating life isnt going so well lately. I feel so ALONE!! I recent met a girl, been on a couple dates, shes sending mixed signals, but a brownie point for her is shes aware shes doing so and apologized for it, but is that a way of her being nice and trying to let me down gentle or what? I wasnt even looking to date when i met her, i was anti dating, i still am somewhat, but i saw something in her, enough to give it a shot. why do i feel so alone? why is it so hard for a decent looking 27(28 in two weeks) year old guy to go out on dates, have fun, and hang out with women and basicall

Depressing Day And A Repost Of A Friends Blog
First off today has been just a blah day.As most know if they read past blog we have to move after ten yrs here.My son best friend moved today from next door so he was so very sad I felt so bad for him. Was the first real friend he had in a few years that accepted him for his self.This whole mess of moving has just got to me lately. Then it seemed like all I touched to day went wrong so I said hell with it and went back to bed for a bit.Put I give up BBL next to my name on here and left. Well to leave this person nameless I actually got messages from friends not knowing why who were very kind and one I found very rude...... this is it >> today has got to be the worst bombing day ever, everyone keeps leavign like kids. lol For clarification this isn't from my bomb squad.It's from someone I have been helping bomb in contest. I cut back on helping them cause a few of my friends told me they were getting pic to click of me and her asking for help to bomb.I have kept kewl over this all

Depression
What can i do What can I say There's nothing left for me to see So I hide away To this empty place No hope inside And I can't get out Though I try I cannot escape My own escape It consumes me And I can't help it My body accepts But my mind shouts "NO" I cannot get out of this hole This hole called life

Depressed
I am just setting here thinking of chris and I and and I feeling a little blue...I miss him with all my heart and I know this is his job and I am going to be there for him all the way this is just a bump in the road I need to get over becouse this is our life now. I chose to be with him he had this job befor I was even in the pic so i just need to get off this feeling of depreshion is all. We talk on the phone daily to each other so its not like i don't hear form him at all. I just can't wait until I see him agean or I am able to go on the road with him too. I just feel like curling up in a ball and crying my self to sleep right now but i can't atleast not right now. Well this all for now ttyl good night ya all

Depression Is Us
All the arguing and screaming that seems to come my way it's a nightmare i am not dreaming nothing left to say i have tried everything i can think of nothing ever seems to work all i want to do is love not be kicked in the dirt i wish their was something i could do to puit an end to all the rain i am constantly feeling blue oh how i feel the pain all i want to do is die it's got to feel better than this in peace i will lie forever in eternal bliss written by: William P.

Depressed 2006
NOTHING TO LOOK FOWARD TOO ALONE AND CONFUSED ABOUT NOTHING. WHAT IS THE MATTER I ASK MYSELF FROM TIME TO TIME...MY OUTBURSTS HAS BECOME EVEN MORE VIOLENT.... HOW HAS THIS BEOME OF ME?...NOTHING IN THE WORLD COULD EVER STOP THIS BREAK OUT...NOBODY, NOWHERE, NO LOVE I CHANT IN THE MIND OF THE CRIMINAL...AM I THIS CREATURE?...NEVER THE LESS I THINK NOT...WHO DO U THINK I AM?...AN INVISIBLE HUMAN THAT CAN'T SEE EYE TO EYE WITH HIM UNLESS THE MIND TRAPS ITSELF INTO A HOLE OF NO OPPORTUNITYS...DO U EVEN GET IT I SAY?...OUTSIDE WORLD WILL NEVER GET IT UNTIL THE DAY I DIE!

Depression Days
I’m in my room Crying and shaking Wondering who cares And if they can feel me quaking. I want to die And leave this strife But I don’t have the guts To take my own life. I’m wondering if There’s someone out there who cares I need a long embracing hug And for the world to be fair. My mother still has me She has my soul She is so cruel She’ll never let me go. It seems no one cares Can someone step up to the plate Help me figure out my life Help me figure out my fate. I just want a real family Is that too much to ask I just want someone to love me Is that too hard a task. Nobody cares about Poor Pitiful Amber She’s ugly, fat, and white Her mother will never let her go She’s holding on very tight. No one understands me They don’t bother to try They can’t see past my fake smiles and stupid lies They don’t see how much I cry. I’m trying to get good grades And do well in school But…at the same time I’m trying to fit in and be cool. I have n

Depression
She goes about her day to day and does her duties to perfection, She cries alone and works her way through fears and self rejection. No one knows this angel is carrying around such grief, If they only saw a glimpse of things they'd sigh in disbelief. She seems to be so perfect not one single flaw, Everyone looks at her with envy If they only knew it all. Her heart aches with loneliness and her tears disguised with pride, Why does she care what they think its becoming too much for her to hide. She sits at home and pours her heart out to a man that doesn't really care, He never hears a word she says he looks right through her as if she’s not really there. She is running out of friends to confide in and family's gone astray, Alone and broken hearted, She slowly starts to fade away.

Depression
Depression in so many It's always so sad to see The numbers are uncanny Just take a look at me So many in pain unseen As depression numbers rise Sometimes life can be so mean Just look into my eyes Afraid to go home Don't know how to deal You're feeling so alone This is how I feel People don't see what is under my skin They just see the outside, not whats within They dont seem to see the constant pain im in In the battle of emotions, depression will always win This time though the depression is too strong It has to be sudden, it can't take too long I look at my life and where it went wrong However hard i tried i could never belong Did they ever even see me? Notice i wasn't happy? Did they ever try to help me? No, their own problems was all they could see Now it all is over, the battle has been won All these years of torment ended by the trigger of a gun. Lying alone and silent, forgetting those torturous years I kno

Depressive Love
A teenage girl... So alone... So afraid. She looks in the mirror And then she looks away.... Trying not to see the untruthful stare. Cheeks so rosy, Red and bright, Tears slide down them slowly. Mascara falls from her lashes As tears slide Making black pools down her neck. A razor slowly cuts her pale skin As crimson red flows gently. The pain is released now. Crying softly from the release The girl feels nirvana Finally, for the first time in her life. She drifts away As her star crossed lover Walks in her room. "She's gone" "She's dead" That's all he screams. It's too late He wishes she wasn't gone... But she's already there.

Depressed Again
ANOTHER SHITTY DAY JUST ABOUT GONE AND ANOTHER ON ITS WAY. I'M BEGINNING TO THINK THAT I HAVE A BLACK CLOUD STUCK OVER MY HEAD AND IT WONT GO AWAY. NO MATTER WHAT I TRY TO DO IT'S NEVER GOOD ENOUGH...EVERY TIME I THINK IM GETTING 1 STEP AHEAD I REALIZE THAT I'M GETTING KNOCKED BACK 2 MORE STEPS. I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I'M NOT SUPOSED TO BE HAPPY. I'M MEANT TO BE MISERABLE AND BE ALONE AND HAVE TO DEAL WITH MY EX'S BULL SHIT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I MUST HAVE "SUCKER" OR "DOORMAT" WRITTEN ACROSSED MY FOREHEAD BECAUSE I ALWAYS SEEM TO GET INVOLVED WITH PEOPLE THAT USE ME & TREAT ME LIKE A PIECE OF DIRT......I TRY TO HELP PEOPLE OUT THE BEST THAT I CAN AND ALL THEY DO IS GO BEHIND ME AND STAB ME IN THE BACK AND WALK ALL OVER ME. I'M TIRED OF IT.....MAYBE I SHOULD START BEING A BITCH AND JUST MAYBE I'LL GET SOME RESPECT. EVERYONE SEEMS TO LIKE BEING TREATED LIKE CRAP ....THE GUYS LOVE THE WOMAN WHO TREAT THEM LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT......PEOPLE THAT KISS ASS ,LIE

Depression
Mrs. WitchDate: 16 Oct 2007, 09:49 Wake up and pay attention!Turn Up Your Speakers & Listen! Why do people commit suicide?Why do people cut themselves? Why do girls become anorexic and bulimic? Why do kids bring guns to school?Why do kids get depressed...so they start using meds, and abusing them?Why do girls feel the need to act like sluts to impress guys?Why cant people show their sexuality freely, without worrying about being judged?In the Bill Of Rights, it says we have FREEDOM OF SPEECH! So why are we so afraid to speak up for ourselves?I KNOW WHY! "Whores""Geeks"

Depressed
Depressed, Crying Feel like Dieing Can't they hear my screams? Or do they only come out in my dreams? Help me, really, I'm not that strong I can't keep doing this its gone on too long When you look at me what do you see? Because I think I'm starting to lose ME!

Depression @ It's Best...
I don't know what I should think. I've got alot of overwhelming crap going on. We just purchased a new home. I have my first payment on the 1st. But we've also got a TON of crap to take care of and not enough cash flow to take care of it all at once. But went don't even have enough $$ to live at the moment. I know it will end. It is just the interm is depressing me soo much. ok I've vented that will help for a bit...I am tired....

Depressed
I was feeling a bit depressed the other day, so I called the Help Hotline. I was put through to a 'call center' in Pakistan. I explained that I was feeling suicidal. They were very excited at this news and wanted to know if I could drive a truck or fly an airplane....

Depressed
sometimes i just dont know what to do with myself. i try to stay busy, so i dont think about being in a strange country so far away from my family and friends. but with shawn away at training right now, ive been crying almost the whole time hes been gone. and hes only gone until the 8th. i really think ill go crazy when he leaves for iraq in april. i have no one here to talk to and i try to keep it together in front of my kids, but im a pessimist and just the thought that something might happen over there and he might not come back to us scares me sooo much! i really dont think i would be able to go on without him. im trying to be strong for my kids, but at night i just break down, i cant stop crying, its soo bad that i almost cant breath. well im sorry, but i just had to get that off my chest. thanks for listening.

Depressed
Just so you all know that Jason and I are I guess no longer together. This is a very very hard time for me, I won't be here much but you can find me at myspace ( see my previous blogs for the addresses) Thanks to all, I love you ` Heather

Depressed
Depressed Another slow starting day with waking To depression deep in my soul. I've cried so many tears, you'd think I could cry no more, all I do is long to be happy with you.. But once again I toke a wrong turn, Now I am back to being depressed. How this world can be so cruel! Another slow starting day with Depression deep in my soul.. There is no easy way to get away From all the pain, I know I've tried many times before.. Now I need to fix my head before I can fix things with you and me, In the end I shall win, Because I long to be happy with you..

Depression
Not all scars show, Not all wounds heal Sometimes you cant always see the pain someone feels Its true im in depression and my parrents have been thinking lately that im suasidle but im not im just in depression and im what some people call Emo Punk some Goth and down rite depressed but i get used to it

Depressed
okay, i'm fully depressed now... my ex just called me while his new gf was sucking him off and he was teling me about it.. WHY THE FUCK ARE GUYS SO CRUEL! i really loved this kid, he was perfect the otherday he dropped off all my old things that i had given him.. i gave him my favourite hoodie and he returned it to me ruined.. wtf is his problem... sigh...

Depressed
Today has been a lonely day. It was long and cold. The wind blew past me And made me feel empty. I feel unwanted, unneeded, unloved; Unless I am with you. I REALLY like you and I know you REALLY like me too. You are so sexy. Your eyes, Your smile, everytthing. I want you in my arms again. I feel safe and comfortable with you. You make me smile and laugh Like no one else has, But for now I am alone and depressed Until I see you again.

Depressed!
So you hold my heart in your hand What do you do with it? Would you give it back because you don’t want it anymore? Would you cherish it like the gift it’s meant to be? Or would you give it to another person and say it was yours? You hold my heart in your hand please don’t hurt it because it’s been through enough as is. In your hand is my love for you that deserves to be loved back. Will you love it too? I love you Adam and here is my heart. Don’t drop it because it will break. Don’t throw it away because it’s the only one I have. My heart is yours and you’re the only one that can have it. Now what will you do with it now that I have given my heart away.

Depression Poem
Life frozen or caught on fire, why does it matter? Cut deep or shallow scratch, in narrow alleys with a patch of darkness. Falling up or getting down, a cup of glass cutting our throats. Mass collections of suicide notes, and a small amount of hope. Falling into death in deep with darkness, seeking thought or maybe not. Going in circles with out a fight, not slavery and so far out of sight. Loss and false hopes binding us down, its our cost of not being found. Sounds of voices peek in our heads, fallen asleep deep in our beds. Graves of memories found in our dreams, deep dreams filling with passion and rising with action. Faith calling and showing our fates, knowing of death and full of hates. Sedating our minds and lost hopes of love, kind and gentle thoughts of warmness, Killed our fate of endless fought circles, lonelyness found here between worlds. The sound of calling, found and falling.

Depressed And Lonely
Since I have been working on transitioning into a female, I haven't yet found a girlfriend that will be supportive of me and go out with me for a long term relationship. I am tired of being lonely and it is hard being who I am. Not alot of females are into someone like me for dating and whatnot. I see everyone have someone and it breaks my heart that I have no one now. Where is the ones that live in Columbus Ohio or nearby that are willing to go out with me and be with me for me? Are you out there?

Depressed 11-02-06
TODAY HAS BEEN A HARD DAY FOR ME. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM FEELING HAS TO DO WITH MY MOM OR WHAT. BEEN HAVING PANIC ATTACKS JUST ABOUT ALL DAY TODAY. THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS I HAVEN'T REALLY FELT LIKE MYSELF. IS IT MY BODY TELLING ME IT IS GETTING CLOSE FOR MY MOM TO GO HOME WITH THE OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS WHO HAVE PAST ON BEFORE US??? I KNOW I AM DREADING THE DAY THAT SHE DOES GO. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO WITH OUT HER HERE ON EARTH. EACH DAY IT IS GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO SEE MY MOM. BECAUSE EACH DAY YOU CAN TELL SHE IS SLOWY SLIPPING AWAY FROM US. HER EYES HAS NO LIFE ANYMORE. HER EYES HAVE THE DEAD LOOK IN THEM. I KNOW ONCE SHE IS GONE FROM THIS WORLD SHE WILL BE IN A WONDERFUL PLACE THAT NO ONE CAN TELL US HOW BEAUTIFUL IT IS THERE. SHE WILL BE SO MUCH HAPPIER THERE. SHE WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY, STRESS, OR ANY OF TODAY'S LIFE'S TROUBLES. I JUST PRAY TO GOD TO HELP ME THRU THIS AND GIVE ME THE STRENGTH THAT I NEED TO GET THRU THESE HA

Depression
for months I have been doing ok with things. I handle everything that comes my way with out complaint, and struggle thru it all. But what do you do when you have had enough and are truely ready to give up? I am at the point that I dont care about anything (except kids) I dont care about my job, myself or my house. I cant talk to family, and now I am on meds.......:'( sorry just needed to vent

Depression
The Blues. Down in the dumps. Feeling low. Whatever you call it... depression is never a good thing. Stress is a regular part of life, but when it controls your interactions with your family and friends it can be a very bad bad thing. Maybe it is just the crap I got going on at my job or the fact that I havn't seen the sun in about oh, 3 weeks. Working the graveyard shift in the winter can be a very hard thing to keep a handle on when you are suffering from depression. I don't know why this is hitting me so hard but it is and I am having a real hard time relaxing and letting go of even the smallest of petty things that just set me off. I am going to off and on here for a few weeks so if I dont show as online this is why. Laterz all ~work~

Depression?stress?bi-polar? There"s Help!!!!
unfortunately...tis the season, when suicide is at its highest ! my friend brad wanted this relayed to anyone that needs help. REPOSTING this will not hurt you, but it may help someone in need! From: Brad Date: Dec 19, 2007 3:59 AM Subject: Depression? Stress? Bi-Polar? Body: The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service available to anyone in suicidal crisis. If you need help, please dial 1-800-273-TALK (8255). You will be routed to the closest possible crisis center in your area. With over 120 crisis centers across the country, our mission is to provide immediate assistance to anyone seeking mental health services. Call for yourself, or someone you care about. Your call is free and confidential. Depression, Sress, Bi-Polar

Depression
I try to help but get turned down. It seems no one wants me around. I voice my opinion and speak my mind. No one listens; I'm waisting my time. I'll wait until everyone leaves to speak. It's a common reaction; I'm way to weak. Voices around everywhere, They hit you like a stone in thin air. Floating high above the rest. Why am I so depressed? By...me Stacie Arnold

Depressed...
Well, I admit it. I am depressed.One of our cats was missing for a few days. When she got back, she was very sick.We took her to the vet on Tuesday (when she came back). The vet kept her overnight, giving her fluids and such. The vet said that she might have feline AIDS or feline leukemia, but since she was in such a poor state he didn't want to stress her with a blood test.Yesterday when we went there, the vet said that she hadn't eaten anything overnight, but that she might eat at home. We brought her home to see.She didn't.We force-fed her a few bites, but truthfully I don't think she's gonna get better.We put her in a little room I made in the bottom of a bureau, giving her an animal heating pad and her food and water. Today at lunch if she isn't better, we're probably going to take her to the vet to get her put to sleep.I wish we didn't have to do so, but I don't want her to suffer either...Be sure to visit my websiteJohn U. Seed's Seeds of Utopia

Depression
here we are yet another holiday season and of course the depression is setting in. i relect on the year and had.. and oh what a year its been.. lies, sex and weed...and beer.. dont forget the beer.. its just after i sit down and i look at it all i still fiond myself depressed and let down.. i feel like ive accomplished nohing in my life. i have nbo signifigant other.. the one that wants to be with me dosnt understand i dont want to be with her.. and the loneliness is eating at my soul.. its taking small chunks oif sanity and replacing it with depravity. i feel as i wanna explode but i know i cant and i have no way to vent or escape or anything..its just BLAH!! My moms currently in the hospital with severe breathing troubles. she has fluid in her lungs and she keeps refusing the mask ventilator.. and the doctor said if they need to the will sedate and intubate her...and she dosnt want to live with a tube down her throat. i dont want my mom to die but she wont listen to me or to common s

Depressed
I get a funny feeling, it comes from deep inside. I get all mad and angry, wanting to go and hide. My doctor calls it depression, my dad says it's just me. But the thoughts and feelings, no one will ever be able to see. Some say I'm psycho, some say I'm just weird. It's like I'm a different person, and the old me just disappeared. I get really edgy, I want to commit suicide real bad. Then I get a headache, followed by feeling sad. I wish I could get help, I wish it would go away. Maybe if I keep praying real hard, it will some day.

Depression
To all my friends, I'm sorry I haven't been on in a while. I'm still looking for a job and getting no response! I'm getting in to the depressed mindset, that I just don't care anymore and I sometimes feel that I have no true friends close to me that I can talk to. Alll I know is, I need to find a job soon, so I can stop taking so many antidepressant and anti anxiety pills! Plus, I'm starting to freak out over small stuff and it's pissing me off! Please continue to keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

Depressed Right Now
I guess I should be happy because he is getting overtime, but I got my mom to babysit the baby for me so we could have the night to ourselves. He is going into work at around midnight. I want so bad to tell him to stay, but I don't have the courage. Erick seems to not want me around tonight, so I guess he should just go to work. I don't know how to tell him I want him to stay. I'm really depressed right now because I think I am pregnant and last night I started bleeding after we had sex. The bleeding stopped, but I am worried. I had 3 miscarriages in a row. I don't know what to do. I need help to find the courage to tell him how I feel and what I want, but I am scared to. He would never hurt me, but I have my fears thanks to my ex husband. Well, I guess I better try for sleep tonight. I wanted to be alone with my boyfriend tonight, but I guess I have no choice but to spend it alone. The baby is with my mom and I won't get her. It's too late to head there to pick her up. I don't want to

Depressed
have ya ever been grounded in a depression just like that, but don't know why.. everything hits you at once and you don't know who to figure things out. I have noticed alot of things recently that I'm depressed and its because of me what I've done and so many things I wish I could change. Now its up to me to figure out what in the hell to do. like why me. what am I and who am I, when can I just free myself from all of this. I"m tired of myself and I'm not happy with myself either.

~depression Thoughts~
Now I cry more often Cause I don't know Where to start to open My door to be happy But I don't want to Keep running each time I am scared or hurt I just want my life To began I don't want to cry Anymore Or be depressed Each passing day I want to be accepted For who I am Not what I am Heart's are not to be played That's not what this is It's happiness Looking for peace Author notes I started crying last night cause of depression,hurt and more I just couldn't take it no more so I wrote this I still feel hurt and stuff just wanting to be happy is all I ask.

Depression That Won't Leave
I am still depressed and have not figured out why. Things are going great all except for a few things, but nothing major. I love my job which I will post a blog about soon. Today was my second day. :) Anyways...I can't seem to shake this depression right now.I have thought about doing stuff that I know I shouldn't be thinking about. The good news on that is that they are just thoughts that I will never act upon. I have no reason to. I love my children way too much to hurt them by taking my own life. I am having better days now with minimal suicidal thoughts. I am not sure why they are there though. I am trying to figure out what has me so depressed, but I can't figure it out. It doesn't make sense. I am a little disappointed in the fact that Erick is proposing without a ring, but that is not depressing me. He is giving me a temporary ring until he can get the engagement ring he is looking at. I don't mind at all. I'm just not myself right now and that has me worried. I need to figure o

Depression
Depression Poem Enslaved © By Jennifer E. Beyer At night I sit alone and watch the shadows dance around. I hold my breath and listen yet silence is the only sound. I reach for some comfort yet feel no embrace. I am tired of the emptiness and loneliness of this place. I can feel no more hurt because I have learned to live with my pain. I often wonder how I survived and continue to stay sane. I have hurt so deeply and cried too many tears. I have been empty and broken for so many years. I am tired of pretending that I am fine and all is okay. I am tired of hiding behind this mask I wear every day. I have drifted so far and can no longer be saved. These feelings hold me captive and to them I am enslaved.

Depression
Depresstion is a dangerous tool It can sometimes lead you to the unknow I am so lost in my head and heart Not knowing which path to part I know now life will never be the same With out the smiles and every day rain So I look with in my self to uphold A brand new day to smile and withhold

Depressed; Overworked; Job Suck; Unappreciated
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Depressed?
As a nurse I see so many patients coming in and being on all kinds of antidepressant drugs. It amazes me that some of these people arent in a coma from the amount of stuff they are on. Doctors these days are way too quick to put people on meds imo. My daughter told her physician that SOMETIMES she feels a little anxious when shes driving in her car alone. He prescribed an addicting antidepressant for her. A little over the top in my opinion. I happened upon this article....that says basically that sadness is not only NORMAL it is also healthy and can help you to be a better person and actually enhance your life more. I know...it sounds strange but check out the article. it does make some valid points, especially when discussing relationships. May explain why the divorce rate is so high.....not always happy with your mate? Just dump them and find someone that makes you happier. http://www.newsweek.com/id/107569 In thinking about it...Ive done some of my best work while feelin

Depression Handled
i make really crazy disturbing images when im outta whack. but then i usually feel better. anger through imagery is the best form of therapy. my brother just informed me there is going to be 3 new dino specials on discovery channel tonite, so i will be preoccupied with that and the 5 new documentaries i just got. so... yea... i'm done being gay and depressive. (and thx for caring btw... you know who you are....)

Depressed
It was such a forbidden love, It was not born from above, It was a love for Satan and his deeds, Because no one cared about my needs, No one saw me for what I really was inside, No one knew that when I got home I cried, No one knew that I hated God and heaven and such, No one knew about why I hated them so much, I hid behind a face of smiles, I have hidden since I was a forgotten child, I have such a terrible confession, I did it because I was suffering under depression, Do not blame me for what I did, Although you cried as they lowered my lid, No one understood why I picked up the knife, No one understood why I took my life, You all blamed me, and cursed in rage, No one even cared that I was still trapped in my personal cage, I hid my voice behind shouts and cheers, I hid my feelings behind the veil of unshed tears, I will not take the blame for this change of events, There was not one thing that I could prevent, It was your entire fault you see, You were all bl

Depressed
Drepressed? Yes, Who wouldn't be? There is no me, Only you, You,you,you! My wants don't mean a thing. Long as you get to do your's, Been twenty plus years. How many more? How many more? Whats in store, for you and me? You lost in your world, Me,holding on in mine. Times running low, Times running out, Time for you, to make time for me. by:Pat Crow,2003

Depression Is A World
Depression leaves you lost Depression drops you into a never ending black hole You want to get help But you can't When you do You wish you didn't Depression leaves you numb With fear Depression leaves you no hope No ambition Nothing to look forward to Tears well in your eyes Depression leaks out Out into the open BY: YOUR BELOVED TWEETY

Depressed?
Depressed? Depressed? Yes, Who wouldn't be? There is no me, Only you, you,you,you! My wants don't mean a thing. Long as you get to do your's, Been twenty plus years. How many more? How many more? What's in store; For you and me? You lost in your world, Me,holding on in mine. Times running low, Times running out, Time for you, to make time for me! ********By Pat Crow,2003********

Depressed
well lets start off with i got laid off from work. at 3:45 today i was called into my bosses office where i work and he told to have a seat and he said i have to lay u off. i asked why he told me the most meanist thing i ever heard from a boss he siad that i was to fat and that i cant keep up with the othe employees witch is wrong, and he told me that if i lose 50 lbs in 2 weeks he will higher me back witch is imposiable. so me and him got into a lil arguement and i chose to leave without doing something stupid but the ass hole followed me out and i slamed the door in his face.. then i leave call my mother and told her about it cause i worked with her and she is right under the boss she went bannas and got upset and called the big big boss and had a shouting contest with him and he told her the same reason he fired me. well my mom hung up on the big boss lol.. at the end of the day my boss asked my mom to go in to office and talk so she did and it got real loud in there real quick

Depressed Women Have More Sex!!
DEPRESSED women have more sex than those who are happier, regardless of whether they are in a relationship or not, a study of Australians has found. A survey of Melbourne women presented at an international mental health conference has concluded that females who suffer from mild to moderate depression have a third more sexual activity than those who are not. They also had more sexually liberated attitudes, a bigger variety of sexual experiences and, if single, were more likely to partake in casual sex, Sabura Allen, a clinical psychologist at Monash University, said. "It was more sex and more of everything from kissing to petting, foreplay and intercourse," said Dr Allen, who studied the recent sexual experiences of 107 depressed and non-depressed women who were in relationships. "We knew this anecdotally from clinical samples but this is the first time it's been shown in research." She said depressed women were likely seeking out sexual intimacy more often to help feel

Depressed
It never fails...when I major holiday comes up I always get depressed. You see, my kids don't live with me right now and my daddy and stepmom are gone. I miss them all like crazy these days. Seeing the kids in the neighborhood with their parents makes me even more depressed. So now I just try to hide when these family events roll around.

Depression
This was written by me 2-15-2008 Depression. you are in this crystal clear bubble floating around with lifes ups and downs. The bubble becomes filmy not quite as clear and still bouncing off lives challenges and pleasures. The bubble becomes milky and heavier. Not bouncing with the breeze, but rolling along getting by with life's quandries. The bubble begins to get greyer, darker, heavier. You must push to roll the bubble along life's downward spiral. The bubble becomes more of a dark grey translucency, becoming more a ball than a bubble. It feels like others are playing soccer with your bubble. Kicking you to get you to move. You push hard and fight to make the ball roll even just a bit. Trying to get over just a wee bit of ground. Fighting with all the energy you have left just to make it budge. The ball/bubble solid opaque. To heavy to move, to dark to see through. It just sits. To hard for others to play with, to heavy for you to move. Your ball is pushed aside waiting. The sile

Depression Is When Something Is Pressing You.
My response to a MUMM where a girl said she tried to commit suicide. I don't believe antidepressants are always the answer. Here are my words of wisdom (I just by chance found these quotations today when I was hanging out at the bookstore)..... "Depression is the surface manifestation of a deep, multilayered dynamic. It is painful beyond what those who have not experienced it can imagine, yet it covers for even more experiences that need to be unearthed and healed." "If you use the times of relief that anti-depressants provide to look deeply into your life, they will be an aid to you. If you use them to return to the same unexamined life that created your depression, they will be a crutch that you will find increasingly undependable." "Depression, like every painful experience, brings your attention to what needs to be changed in you, by you." "Every personality in the Earth school has lessons to learn and gifts to give." -Gary Zukav, author of Soul To Soul. I sha

Depression 7-16-05
So stupid all the time Can't do anything right Not smart whatsoever If you need directions Don't ask me... I can't find my way Out of a paper bag Fat and unattractive I don't understand How guys are attracted to me I am very self conscience Everyday I think Why am I here? I can't do anything I get lost and confused to easily Honestly I don't know What the hell to do anymore...

Depressed
Well my 15 yr. old daughter is sitting in juvenile right now. I went to a detention hearing today and she is going to stay in there until the 22nd when she has another hearing. I hate that she is in there. It hurt so bad when they said she was going to stay there. I really don't know what to do. My husband and family probably think that I want her to stay in there but I really don't.

Depression Part 1
DepressionIntroductionDepression is a serious illness. Health professionals use the terms 'depression', 'depressive illness' or 'clinical depression' to refer to something very different from the common experience of feeling miserable, or fed up, for a short period of time. The facts If you are depressed, you may have feelings of extreme sadness that can last for a long time. These feelings are severe enough to interfere with your daily life, and usually last for weeks, or months, rather than days. Depression is quite a common condition, and about 15% of people will have a bout of severe depression at some point in their lives. However, the exact number of people with depression is hard to estimate because many people do not get help, or are not formally diagnosed with the condition. Most of the 5,000 suicides committed each year in the UK are linked to depression. On average, 15% of people with recurrent depression (repeated attacks) have an increased risk of suicide. W

Depression
depression leaves me down it leaves me feeling lost friends they leave my side and left me feeling crossed time just takes it's toll the dark times take a hold sitting near gods flame feeling only cold looking at the sky then glancing to the floor then asking God this question what is this life for telling of a place that light won't show the way begging god to take me then begging him to stay writing words of rage inside the soul I tell lost inside the life lonely in my shell standing just to fall again sinking in depression telling in my rhymes the thoughts of my confession

Depression
Depression is like a tidal wave pulling you further in You don't feel upto facing anyone or anything Depression is a huge emphasis on feeling sad and low You feel like you're in a dark place with nowhere else to go Depression is like you're falling deeper into a black hole Your mind feels violated and as though you have no control Depression is having little energy or lack of motivation You feel tired and don't want to engage in conversation Depression is used in the wrong context by naive people They dont understand the seriousness of how it affects people Depression is isolation, withdrawel, low self-esteem and more You will never understand it unless you've been through it before

Depression
Now, I'm only 24yrs old. I've been through shit,we've all been through shit. I didn't have a dime too my name for a long ass time. But I was never depressed because I always had faith. What I wish I could pass too people who tell me there depressed, going too hurt themselves or worst is- Get off your ass, shake it off and suck it up,drive on. The whole time your depressed you could be looking for answers. Thers always a answer too a problem. Thats why suicide is never a answer. I went from having shit too haveing two cars and a great career, my family sure as hell didn' give me anything when i got out of school. You must have your own strength for life, if you don't have any do some soul searching sheesh snd for sakes, stop shooting people, if your in high school shut the hell up, your lifes not hard yet,if kids pick on you stop being quiet and fight back, you might get suspended or ur ass handed too you but i tell you wht when people know you won't take it they'll stop. Mabye you shou

Depressed
Why am I depressed today I've felt this way since I woke up Is it because my dad is away Or is it because of a love A love that might never be I do not know which I do know I want to be held But no one is here to do so I feel so alone right now And I hope this depression ends soon

Depressed
Okay, my first real blog on here. How many people hate drama and bitching, raise your hands. *Counts how many hands are raised.* Okay, you people can leave now, then, because you aren't really going to like what this blog's about. LOL. ANYWAYS...yeah. Where to start? Well, I have a migraine and people know that, yet they come to me expecting me to fix every little fucking goddamn problem they have. Hello, do I have the words "Come to me, I'm Ms. Fixit" tattooed on my forhead? Didn't think so. So when I say I have a migraine, please don't say "I'm sorry" then turn around and start laying all your fucking problems at my feet so you can have that weight lifted from your shoulders. I have enough fucking problems to deal with, and I don't need yours too!!! Please people! I feel like I'm dying here. I need help too. I'm not the girl next door who has no problems or no life. How about the next time I have a problem I need to work on, you help me with it instead of bitching tha

Depression
hey i am slowly getting over being depressed but it wants to linger and hold on; i just want to be happy everybody says find that happy place what if i dont have a happy place grrr i dont know hate getting into depression and hate coming out of it its like withdrawls almost sighs i dont know just moody with the coming new season i bounce back always do

Depressed
Come this weekend my gf is moving back home to ohio! I love her to death and really dont want her too but it is something that she has to do! I love you hunny it will only be for a little while ! the only thing that i can hope and prey for is that you love me as much as i love you ! So if i'm not on much its just because i'm very depressed ! but i will check in from time to time Take care everybody!!!

Depressed Again
It's been a bad day I'm getting used to it now another sad day I'd cry but I dunno how I'm drowning in thoughts of how things used to be my chest was shut tight complete w/ purity It's out in the open should've kept to myself I'll learn from mistakes take my heart off the shelf my soul has now fled it's my body alone and it's far too much hurt for my heart to come home I give it up now there's no way to win w/o you here my world still spins It's been a bad day I'll try to let it not show another sad day and I'm just letting go.... i miss you special k !!!!!!!!!

Depression
They want me to push you away. They say you hurt me, but I don't want to believe. For I find a certain safety in your arms of ugliness, the only things that want to embrace me lately. And even when I think I'm done with this abuse, I don't know the sweet words that will sweep you away, some old childhood incantation that crawled away from my bitter memory when it turned its back for a moment. You are a sickness; I cannot control you, though there are magical concoctions that can. But I cannot make the quest for them alone, and you have me feeling as though there's no one who loves enough to help. They don't believe me when I tell them that you have taken over who I am. I know not if they deny your power, your existenance, or the fact that you have chosen me for your victim. I only want to go back and forget I ever looked into your dark eyes. But it is too late and I feel as though our tainted courtship has ruined everything. You do not comfort me when I cry in dark cornors, but you pus

Depressing Much?
I was in the supermarket this morning before work, getting drugs. The guy in the queue before me was a character - middle-aged, looked slightly unwashed, unshaven, unkempt and overweight. It's 9:40 am, and all he's buying is a four-pack of Morrison's own brand "value" bitter. For 97 pence. There's a party I want in on....

Depressed
I think I'm putting more in than I'm getting out. He's lucky he's in another state. He's gonna get it when he gets home. Don't put stuff on the internet you don't want seen. Just a public service message for ya'll.

Depresion
Those of us who are truly depressed never tell anyone; those of us who are looking for attention tell everyone. The world of depression often leads people to a depth in which they see no way out… falling down a well you can not even see the light at the end of the tunnel. You know you should be happy. You can see those things in life that should make you happy. Your child just graduated college… your daughter is 17 and not pregnant. But so often then not your attention is pulled back down to your spouse is cheating on your for the fifth time. Your job drives you crazy and you spend day after day going in and wondering why this person is calling you and complaining about something you had no hand in screwing up. Or maybe listening to the bank call and leave another voice mail that you are behind on your payments and they want their money. So you collect all your belongings… feeling you are at a time in your life where it makes sense… you leave a note in your mail box thanking the mai

Depressed
I hate my job, hate dealing with mom every day, not having a life, gaining weight again cause I'm depressed and I don't eat right when depressed. I am 27 fucking years old and live under the same roof as my mother. I hate my fucking job, and I have never hated my job. I have no life, mom gives me shit cause I have no friends but freaks out when I try and go anywhere or do anything. I can't even call anyone while she's up, and yet she doesn't go to bed 'til after midnight. Ok, let's start with work: The company that owns our building is not paying bills, whether they aren't able to or just won't, well we're not really sure. The building is so old and a POS we're not even worth selling anymore. Stress there is horrible cause we all know it's only a matter of time before there's nothing left for us to hold together, even though the corporate office denies these claims. Those of us that are left are only still there because of the residents. That also means short staffed so too many

Depressed And Don't Know How To Make It Stop
Why does it seem like when one thing goes wrong, 10 other things follow? I'm to the point that I don't know how much more I can take. As I'm writting this I'm sitting here with a pounding headache because of crying for just about an hour straight. The crazy thing about it is that I couldn't tell ya what exactally I was crying about cuz the truth is I DON'T KNOW!! I've spent this entire month in tears on and off for the stupidest of things. I'm tired of being broke, tired of being me. I swear I've never been this depressed. Yeah, I know most my friends don't see it cuz it's easy to put on a smile and pretend everything is fine. Why burden everyone else with my problems? It's not like anyone can fix them. I just feel lik nothing I do is good enough. I'm in a hole trying to dig myself out, and for every shovel full I take out, 20 more are dumped on my face. I'm beginging to wonder if I'm ever going to get out. Yeah, pretty much this whole thing is me feeling sorry for myself,

Depression Can Take A Vacation
i know depression has its grip not the same depression i felt this i never felt before but still its depression now i feel i riding tis out a new high on the pill-popping mixing it with the pillpopping animal changes the aspect i feel on this like tis feel the head separetes and the rolls around in the clouds clouds like marshmallows so soft and flowy floating along do this flow bettter while i high up the numbing feelings comes over the body yet the head is fully aware where its at floating above the decap'd body ha

Depression
Depression, when it’s clinical, is not a metaphor. It runs in families, and it’s known to respond to medication and to counseling. However truly you believe there’s a sickness to existence that can never be cured, if you’re depressed you will sooner or later surrender and say: I just don’t want to feel bad anymore. The shift from depressive realism to tragic realism, from being immobilized by darkness to being sustained by it, thus strangely seems to require believing in the possibility of a cure… -Jonathan Franzen

Depresed Stuck In Marrage
depresed stuck in marrage u tell ur wife u go yur way ill go my way yur depresed u dont have girl friend u just whantr to go wear u whant at times dont need bossing to be left a lone she doesnt whant to her it fits with u no end u say at times well do things to geather other then that i go on my owen she says no she nout staying at home a lone when yur out having fun u tel her to find friend go wear u whant she tells u to nout come home thas what u whant she fits fits like crazy stuck in marrage no place to go u get tryed of fitting depreesed buy frank

Depressed
All the times i sat an cried,all the times they'd ask me why but i could never give them a reason for my pain never a reason for my tears could only sit there an cry some more, i dont know what is wrong with me and i dont know why i just wish it would all go away all this pain all this anger all this sadness i wish it would just all disappear i feel like im nothing, nothing at all nothing to anyone, not even to myself im so tired of feeling this way i wish i was happy, i wish i knew what happiness was but im to the point now that i have forgotten now all i know is pain an sadness i feel like im slowly going insane an no one can help me, i wish someone could help me.....i wish someone would help me, i wish someone knew but no one does, maybe no one ever will maybe this is my destiny, my fate

Depressing Thoughts Arent They?
sitting on a plateau watching the world go by,exausted,alone,the weight of my world resting on my shoulders. A butterfly flutters past brushing its wing upon my cheek, for a minute I allow myself to be positive about life but only for a minute staring up at the clouds thinking of love & laughter,Spring is almost over. The ground shifts & the fragile dirt that was once stable splits, I fall into a deep canyon of despair. The realization that life will never be ok hits as my limp body smashes into the ground below. The bottom line of my life, the reality that is ,all wrapped up in one hard thudding irony. The pain wracks me , making me want to crawl into the darkness & give in to oblivion, but the three bright stars that are my focus shine above me. They are always above me, always have been, always will be. Many hours of reality force me to only focus on those three, many hours of hoping life would end, knowing the reality is I dont deserve to be loved. Many tim

Depression Part 2
Depresson is alovely hurting black hole that infects the heart then the soul then the mind. That hurting that takes total control of our lives. To makes us feel so numb to this sin filled world that we can get punched in the back of the head and just laugh. For the only thing we feel with depression is PAIN. We constantly need to feel pain just to feel something then nothing at all. Thats why we get into horrible relationships od hurt ourselves in every way possibly. Some like me go down a much wronger path of addiction of sex. Some have other additions but sex is mine that is my ecstasy! I feel I'll never stop and I'll kill myself over it! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!!! I say it evrytime I even think about it but no one gives me true help! So its either continue on this disasterous path or a short one that will end in a deep sleep for me.

Depression
Fear is what everyone in the world has. Depression is caused by a great fear that scares you into insanity. Yelling for instance can lead to rage. Allowing people at young ages to hear there parents yell can affect them in a severe way. Parents who argue and yell in front of young adults show the minors that fighting and screaming is the only way to get there point across. Which is not true. Yelling can influence a person in 2 ways. Example number 1 is it can make that minor angry for the rest of there life and think fighting is right. Example number 2 that if the person is scared of the yelling it can allow other people to walk all over that person so they wont have to go through the yelling and the screaming and makes them a depressed person until they get out of the situation. And even then that person will still allow people to yell at them and push you around. My disease is that I am scared of the yelling and I never speak my mind if I have something to say. So that refers to me a

Depression You Are Now My Bitch
so while i was sick with some infernal sinus/head cold this past week, i was also suffering from a bout of depression. not that i let on too much about it, but that's how i am. i've been suffering bouts of depression for years, and it's something i've become resigned to. it's just part of who i am, and hopefully those that love me understand this. the main thing is i refuse to take head drugs. fuck that. i'd rather deal with my depression head on like i have been for most of my life than have my mind altered by some drug. just how i am. hey anti-depressantes work for some people, but me personally have always refused to take them. i've seen people i know and care deeply about have them totally alter who they are, and i just don't want to be like that. besides, doctors nowadays, are always trying to get everyone on some kinda medication for everything. hey i'd like to just be normal and suffer my random bouts of depression, manic energy and whatnot my way. i

Depression
Depression isn't obvious but suicide is. My pain nobody sees. My my mangled body they shall see. My head was all but a mess. Depression overtaking me. Suicide was to be my bid for freedom. Becuase deppression isn't obvious but suicide is. Depression is never obvious even when its staring them in the face. But now suicide will be obvious how can it not? Now my life is too much to bear. Suicide I shall commit. Now its obvious but its all too late.

Depression
How do you describe the emptiness inside you as your heart breaks? A void full of depression, hungering for more? Does it feel like a light has been turned off? What happens to a persons soul when that fire is gone? For some it more than they can bear, others, are so closed off they feel nothing. This dark endless pit called depression, aren't those who have escaped lucky? Those of us still stuck here are tortured every second, it never letting up. The more it hurts, the darker the void gets.

Depressed
I just very depressed somehow i offend and piss off everyone who comes near me. I dont consider myself blatantly rude but I also cant do everything everyone wants. I always end up feeling like I was just going to be the flavor of the week because I wouldnt put myself in a position to compromise myself.why should i compromise myself? I am really depressed right now I hate how misunderstood I always get. my heart is just broken and i am so depressed because people are so hyper sensitive... maybe im just rambling but somehow i feel like the fool but then again i always feel like a fool

Depression Prayer
May we discover through pain and torment, the strength to live with grace and humor. May we discover through doubt and anguish, the strength to live with dignity and holiness. May we discover through suffering and fear, the strength to move toward healing. May it come to pass that we be restored to health and to vigor. May Life grant us wellness of body, spirit, and mind. And if this cannot be so, may we find in this transformation and passage moments of meaning, opportunities for love and the deep and gracious calm that comes when we allow ourselves to move on. - Rabbi Rami M. Shapiro

Depression
Kinda feeling down lately..gets that way around this time. I have heard of many people who lose someone around this time..you would think we would all be depressed. Anyways..couple years ago my grandma who was also my best friend in life..died day after Christmas. Was hard to deal with. Now my uncle is down with pancreatic cancer. He just found out a month ago..and it seems to be bad right off the beginning. He isn't able to eat or drink..and has went from 140lbs to 125lbs. They been trying to get things arranged.. making him a no code..etc. Hes only 59. Well he was admitted to pallative care in the hospital 2 nites ago. Thats a room where they make you and your family comfortable while patient is dying. Not sure if other hospitals have a room like that or not. First time I ever really dealt with this kinda dying. I was there trying to just talk normally to him.. in my mind..thinking...how awful this is. He looked scared..but was holding up well. I am not much for comforting s

Depressed
I know this is gona sound all whiney and shit. If you dont like it dont read it. My whole life I have spent going from place to place. I have givin up more in my life then most people gain. My sister pointed this out to me last night. Well I am reaching my end. I am so tired I want it all to stop. I know what I want N there is someone that says they want to give it too me. I trust this person. My only thing is, I sometimes do destructive things when confronted with what I want. I already did it once to this person. I refuse to do it again. I wanna be everything this person needs and wants. I just dont know if I can. She tells me not too worry but I do. What if I fall short? Like in the past.

Depressed About Dating And Aging
But thinking is all I'm probably ever going to be able to do about it. If I'm interested in dating them, they're usually not interested in me. After all, how many gay men are interested in fat slobs? Not bloody many. And pretty much the same goes for bi men as well. It doesn't count as dating if you have to be passing out drunk to have sex. And the few who are willing to overlook my more visible faults usually live too far away. Somehow, I don't think going on a date every two to five years would make for a good relationship. I'd like to find someone I can see at least a couple times a week during the first few dates. Then if it turns serious a few months down the road we can talk about cohabitation. I doubt that would ever work though. Anyone unlucky enough to choose me would have to have a higher sex drive than most of the guys I've met. Once a day should be a comfortable minimum. Twice would be preferred. More often if they can swing it. And I'm not saying you need to have se