I dont really know what else to do, i guess writing in a blog that wont really be read by a lot of people would work. Im just utterly depressed and I cant seem to get out of that stupid little hole that I dug myself. I dont seem to be mending like im supposed to. And Im working so hard only to have it all slapped in my face after two weeks. An insulting paycheck, alone because I wasnt worth it anymore, i have to try and find more jobs to find some kind of balance while going to school and maybe telling myself that I'm worth someones time in the work field. Sometimes I wonder how much my life is actually worth living...and there are more cons than pros. Maybe I should just end it.
