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Unity
People wtf ?! we all need to drop our pre concived notions of religion and politics and borders I will be the first to admit all sects , countrys etc have fanatics but theres nothing wrong with that Do you really think that " god " ( I prefer the theology the univers was created wholy by Giant Omnipotent purple bunnies ) Cares one but about borders or sects or what douche is in power No  he,they.she dosent care Hey nut ball from religon A your going to hell at least according to religon B and all you crazies from religon B your going to hell  well at least according to religon A All of us need to stop and treat our fellow man with the common kindness and realize that we all need each other I know for myself when im dead and gone i dont want people goin wow that guy was an asshat I hated his stinking guts pople all over the world have the base need to be loved and cared for and everyone has the basic instict to give those things no matter how warped that might be think about that the ne
Eyes
So many types of eyes around So many colors like blue and brown Some are crooked, some slant Some are as small as an ant. Even though give a loving wink Every single one still must blink. The eyes can tell so very much Tales of success,love and the such. When I look into your eyes I see a story of beauty and surprise
First Sight
Can it be right? Love at first sight? These things that i feel, Can they be real? Saw her only one time I knew she had to be mine Can my heart speak true? This girl...she's you!
Not Named
Looked in her eyes today saw something great Lost what I was going to say now I'm in a shy state Simple moves now majestic strides all done with style Changes me like the tides from deep from to giant smile Sit and dream all through class wondering if she feels the same I really like that little lass but I fear my shame Maybe someday my words will peak we'll talk for sometime Then I won't feel like such a geek or act like a bad mime
Question For God
Thank you God, but I dont believe its true Gave me my own true love I dont know what to do I see her there all the time How do I make her mine? So full of peace,love and joy So close to perfect, but boy oh boy. It must be a cruel joke I really must be a dumb bloke She avoids me like the plague Her words always so vague I cant take her on a date She says I'm way too late She's in love with another man Was this part of your master plan? I bet you're laughing at me now Showing your friends just how You so easily won Damn you for make me fall for a...nun?!
Too Late
I was ready to make my move but I lost my groove Someone else stole her heart now mine is torn apart It's my fault, my trouble My job to clean up the rubble. Maybe I'll get another chance This can't be my last dance
Smash!
Smash! Smash! Bang!  whats the dreadful sound? Crash!Slam! Crash!  did someone get in an accident? Bam! Goosh! Goosh!  quick someone get some help! Rip! Rip! Rip!  that sounds so close Crack! Splat! Drip!?  Why is my heart so heavy?   I can't believe its my heart making those sounds..
Looking Back...
It's funny to me how time goes by and things in our lives change.  Dramatically sometimes... People come and go, emotions that we believed to be so strong fade into oblivion.  I look back over my life and it just amazes me.  The blog before this one, I've had held invisible for the entire time it's been there.  I was so crushed, so defeated.. Now, I haven't talked to him in so many months I can't help but wonder how he is doing... but yet, the connection that felt so strong then is gone.  Faded away.  Out of sight, out of mind.  And that makes me wonder if any connection is REALLY ever as strong as we think it is.  Can you stay connected with someone you never see?  Can the bonds actually hold?  Or was it just someone I was destined to meet and feel connected to only to have life take them back away?  I guess this is something I need to do more deep thinking on... Who knows.. I know at least for right now, I don't......
And I Want You To Know
I know that you know that I adore you. There is no one else like you. I want to know if you know how much I appreciate you.I know that I don't deserve it,but there was a spot in my heart and I reserved it.For that place you took, but that is okay. but I slowly learnTo take it easy and wait for you, so  i hope your heart I patiently earn. Hey,I really respect the fact that you respect me. I admire your true integrity,complex mentality,distinguised personality,Everything about you that compliments our similarity.If mishaps should occur and I happen to die and there is indeed another life, I pray that I come back with more appreciation, andmore joy for you, and hopefully as your hero.
Passion....
Stand by my side, woman. Naked... body and soul. Reveal your true self to me. Shed the fear from your eyes. And let love bind us together. Can you not see my love Waiting for you with open arms. ....Oh, my sunlit-midnight The feelings that capture me when I merely think of you... I see a thousand lifetimes before me A vast expanse of eternity
No Woman Will Ever Be Truly Satisfied
Boyfriend Application
BASICS: Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair (color and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: Phone Number: OTHER: 1. Do you drink/smoke? 2. Do you like the rain? 4. If so...would you play in it with me? 5. Do you like movies? 6. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? 9. Would you kiss my neck? 10. Do you play any sports? 11. If so...what? 12. Would you call me right after we saw eachother? 13. How would you rate your kisses from 1-10? 14. Favorite body part on you? 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, prick)? 17. Would you give me a kiss just because? 18. Would u sleep in the same bed as me? 19. Would u take me home to meet your parents? 20. Would u have sex with me? 21. If so, whats the soonest into our relationship you'd have it? 22. Would you tell your friends we had sex? 23. Would
Retard Gene
Today I discovered that I have the retard gene. I changed out of my work uniform and put some khaki shorts and I daytona bike week shirt on. I grabbed my phone my Ipod and my wallet. I hand carried my mountain bike to the curb which I mounted and went on a planned 6 mile ride. Well this is where it gets stupid. I was almost done. As I was riding back to the apartment I hit a small piece of wood and it popped up at me. At the moment I thought something fell out of my pocket. I stopped started doing a fast inventory left pocket phone yep, right arm Ipod yep keys and 10 dollar bill right front pocket check. right back pocket WTF my wallet was no longer there. I immiedatly started back tracking to the end of the trail. In the process of looking for my wallet I encountered several people some friendly looking some clearly homeless but never the less I asked everyone if they have seen a brown fossil wallet. In this quest to find my lost wallet I started to wonder if it was ok to ask everybo
The Human Mind Is Simply Brilliant !!!!
Why do we procrastinate ? We put things off till the very last minute. Then we mush rush to get them done. Why do we not take our time ? Why do we work better under stress ?? Why do we work better under pressure, the time when we are most likely to make a careless mistake? Why do we work better with pressure ?? Our mind is brilliant !!!! @ Imaginary world If I could imagine a world, a world of love If you could picture a world like the one they say is up above Imagine the beauty , imagine the peace Imagine the pain we thought would never cease If I could imagine, a picture perfect life, a picture perfect fable If you could see a picture perfect world, a world that was stable Imagine the hope… the faith… the bliss Imagine a life, of ones, we only use to wish If we could imagine a year… a month… a day If we could imagine the courage to say what we need to say Imagine the impact,… the transformation Imagine the world and its reformation
Letter To Bank
                                               The letter, shown below, is an actual letter that was sent to a bank by a 96 year old woman. The bank manager thought it amusing enough to have it published in the New York Times. Dear Sir:   I am writing to thank you for bouncing my check with which I endeavored to pay my plumber last month.   By my calculations, three 'nanoseconds' must have elapsed between his presenting the check and the arrival in my account of the funds needed to honor it.   I refer, of course, to the automatic monthly deposit of my entire salary, an arrangement which, I admit, has been in place for only eight years.   You are to be com
Do You Believe?
The Difference Between Believing In, Knowing, and Loving GodMy friend, do you believe in God? If you can answer yes, that's great. But there is something better than just believing in him. Do you know him? For example, I believe that Bill Gates is real. I believe he has alot of money. I believe he probably won't need a stimulus check from the government. But if you asked me, what he does on Friday nights? I would say I don't know. If you asked me, does he have any pets? I would not have anything more than a guess. What's the problem? Don't I believe in him? Yes, I know he exists, but I don't KNOW him. You see if I know him, I can tell you what he does with his free time, whether or not he has a dalmation or a German Shepherd, and tell you many other personal details that the average Joe would not know about Mr. Gates. This is the doorway to a true relationship with God. Believing in Him, will open the door for you. But if you fail to step through the door of faith and get to know God y
Grandma
Well dad has been keeping me up to date about my grandma who is not doing well. I was goin to go down on Saturday and see her. But they are giving her 24 to 72 hours to live. I don't know if I should just take Saturday off of work and go down if she is still around or if I should just go down after work and then maybe drive home late and or stay the night in Iowa. I do need the money if I have to take off more time is she passes sooner, but I don't really want to think about it like that. This is my last grandparent around so I don't to see her in her worst but I want to see her, I love her. I just don't know what to do.
Wanna Help Me Out?
its quite simple, whoever gets me a one (1) month VIP will get in return: ALL the elevens (11's) for the entire month (if they have enough pics to rate) minus the elevens (11's) I will use to rate my family at least one salute pic shitfaced daily if not already one big pimpin gift (my choice) every three (3) days if this is not enough, make me an offer, maybe we can bargain on something send me a PM if you are interested
Funny!
On our way home tonight, my 5 yr old son takes his gum out of his mouth and asks me to blow him a bubble. I tell him that's gross (even by my standards!) and he assures me that he's dried it off and is ok. I've been sadder than usual lately and I needed that giggle. I love my kids. ♥
This Hole
You... you fill this hole inside my head that is deeply hurting I.... I fill this space of air that I am wasting You... you fill this hole in my heart, vacant, empty You.... you are the likeness of me, ever changing I... am just all that I am, ever changing This... is not all of my own design, please give me time I.... I need to find my center and make this place mine Dont... dont write me off as worthless, there is more to me That...you can see You have your way and I have mine, yet the winds are free, and they combine More than the space in between Belief is not what in can be seen
Please Read All The Way, It May Help You In Some Way.
For all of those that  doesnt know whats going on in our life, my dad(jason typing), has terminal cancer. He was diagnosed in january and is in last stages. No kind of chemo or radiation is able to cure or help him. He is my step-dad, but the only dad i have had since i was 2 1/2. He is a vietnam vet and  a proud american and man. He doesnt even show his pain to us even now. He can barely walk or even sit up most days. His bodily fuctions are shutting down as we speak, but yet he holds on, trying to protect my mom and the rest of us from pain. I get soooo pissed off thinking about all the people that does so wrong in this life and  there sits a man that loves his wife and family and had never been in any trouble with the law, lays in a bed dieing!!!!! Yes i may be saying this because of him being my dad, but it still isnt fair nor right in my eyes. He is my hero. He made me the man i am today. And even though i have done things in my life im not proud of I still strive to be like him. 
Dad
Hospice has been called in and the nurse was there today. It's so sad to see such a courageous beautiful person become feeble, weak and slowly lose his self pride. My mothers heart is breaking and mine breaks for them both. Pardon my postings on here, but somehow it helps me.. I think. I dont know what the coming days or weeks will bring, but I shall be tending to my family and trying to take care of any needs. Ciao for now.
My Favorite Local Performer
she is actually amazing but you wouldn't believe some of her songs she does this whole public performer clean image bit but she has some dirty songs she only plays for us :) including "just a finger isn't cheating""i haven't been fucked in the ass in the longest time" and "12 inches isn't enough" but i didn't tell you that
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A Song In Loving Memory
I placed the lyrics of this song, sang by Barbra Streisand as a dedication to my daddy. Those of us who loved him, lost him last Fri. night, at 11:45 p.m. This song has ALWAYS been the song I had chosen to help express the sorrow I would feel when the day came that he was no longer with me. (I took a little artistic license when I typed out the lyrics, changing only one word) I replaced papa with the term Daddy. I'm hoping Barbra won't mind. The loss I feel is deeply expressed in the words of this song. It is also one of my daddy's favorite singers. God - our havenly father.Oh, God - and my fatherWho is also in heaven.May the lightOf this flickering candleIlluminate the night the wayYour spirit illuminates my soul. Daddy, can you hear me? Daddy, can you see me? Daddy, can you find me in the night? Daddy, are you near me? Daddy, can you hear me? Daddy, can you help me not be frightened? Looking at the skiesI seem to see a million eyesWhich ones are yours? Where are you now that y
Hosting My First Auction...
so in my late night bordom i was thinkin about hosting my own auction... if you want in message me with a pic and what you are offering... the rules are as follows.... 1-NO DRAMA if so... both the person and the person in the auction will be pulled 2-ALL BIDS ARE FINAL AND IF THE WINNING BIDDER DOES NOT PAY UP THE 2ND HIGHEST BID IS THE WINNER.... 3- HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!   message me if you want in
Thoughts
I am only as real as you choose to make me. Fleshing the bones on my two-dimensional skelton in your perceptions. Clothing that flesh in your opinions. Placing your creation upon the stage to watch it dance for your amusement. The play's score of derision playing counterpoint to the toy's cavorting. Your reality is as you make it as is mine, know this and know it well, I am not the only one upon the stage.
St. Trinian's Support Your Local Police Sewing Circle
St. Trinian's SUPPORT YOUR LOCAL POLICE Sewing Circle THE BATTLE HYMN OF THE ERISTOCRACY by Lord Omar VERSE Mine brain has meditated on the spinning of The Chao It is hovering o'er the table where the Chiefs of Staff are now Gathered in discussion of the dropping of The Bomb Her Apple Corps is strong! CHORUS Grand (and gory) Old Discordja! Grand (and gory) Old Discordja! Grand (and gory) Old Discordja! Her Apple Corps is strong! VERSE She was not invited to the party that they held on Limbo Peak So She threw a Golden Apple, 'sted of turn'd the other cheek! O it cracked the Holy Punchbowl and it made the nectar leak Her Apple Corps is strong! "Limbo Peak" refers to Old Limbo Peak, commonly called by the Greeks "Ol' Limb' Peak." "The tide is turning... the enemy is suffering terrible losses" -Gen. Geo. A. Custer If a quixotic socrates studied zen under Zorba...? People in a Positio
Skelton: Stop Bilderberg’s Nightmare Future At All Costs
19 May 2009, 16:30 Subject: Skelton: Stop Bilderberg's Nightmare Future At All Costs Body: Skelton: Stop Bilderberg's Nightmare Future At All Costs London Guardian journalist Charlie Skelton, who began his coverage of the 2009 Bilderberg conference in a jovial and mocking manner, is now warning that the horrendous treatment dished out to him by both police and undercover spies is just a taste of what we can expect in our daily lives if we allow Bilderberg's agenda, and specifically ID cards and implantable microchips, to be implemented. http://www.prisonplanet.com/skelton-stop-bilderbergs-nightmare-future-at-all-costs.html
Boss-man
I have the greatest supervisor in the world. Curt, aka boss-man is so f-ing awesome. He trained me right before he became supervisor. He's so smart, and he's a smart ass. lol He's approved all 3 of my vaca days as soon as i handed him the vaca slips. I've trained him as well. I ask him "Curt, what do I always tell you?" and he says "don't be a dick, be a dude." LMAO. Boss-man's the shit!!
Chairman
The chairman of this committee I am on is having too much with the power.  He wants to change the culture of the committee and it may go over heavy. He all of a sudden is taking the power to his head and now we will see where it will go from here.    
Eddie
Eddie, my nieces' crayfish died,, R.I.P  you mean s.o.b.
He Calls To Me
He Calls to Me He calls to me across the milesNight winds carry his whispersThey float on the breeze and through my windowsFalling gently upon my ears Hush I hear him now.He calls to me from the heavensGlittering stars cannot compare to the sparkle of his eyesWhen he looks at me, I am consumed by the fireI see him now.He calls to me through my dreamsDancing together in the shadows of my sleepWhere we laugh and love once againI am in his arms, I feel him now.He calls to me.Every moment of every dayDistance couldn't keep us apartWhen destiny drew us togetherI'll hold him for eternityAs long as he keeps calling. Heather Dawn Stephenson Copyright ©2009  Heather Dawn Stephenson
Great Song
Without You I Am Everything
Without You I am Everything These tears I cry, have stopped for nowNot another will I shed.You tore me down to depths unknownMy loving heart is dead.You abused the love I had for youFor granted it was taken.You had my heart, my soul, my loveYou left me here forsakened.Deeper and deeper I plunged into darknessThough Death, he turned away.Forced to live this life I was given,continue another day.I will live this time, for myself, you seeAgain my heart will sing.Because even alone I am better offWithout you, I am everything. Heather Dawn Stephenson Copyright ©2009  Heather Dawn Stephenson
Sadness
I have a want that is slowly turning into a need and when it reaches that point the next step is not care if I get it or not.  I want to be wanted, I want to be important to someone but I am not and I know I also know I am in love with someone I am not important to
Just Another Thought
When we look into a mirror, all we tend to see is our past mistakes. When we look into a mirror, we don't see the beauty that lies beneath the face that God bestowed on us. When we look into a mirror, we compare our looks to that of which society thinks is to be true beauty. When we look into a mirror, we see a reflection of the sadness in our own lives. Maybe it is time to look in a different mirror. Past mistakes are nothing more than learning tools...and should be seen as such. Others may place value on your self worth, but they are not the accountant of you. Look into the eyes of those who care and love you, the reflection changes. The beauty is so much more than what society says it should be. The glow you emit is more than the clothing you wear, how much money you make or the kind of car you drive. It is the inner most part of you shinning through and others around you close thier eyes and rejoice in it. Your voice lights up a room, your laughter chases away pangs of s
Candidate For Suicide
well i'm a candidate for suicide the more that i get oldi'm a candidate for suicide the drugs have taken their tolli'm a candidate for suicide i was raped at 8 yrs old (NOT REALLY)well i'm a candidate for suicide cause i'm a CHEAP LIAR AND A WHOREwell i been busted up and beaten down NO SELF ESTEAM to make me proudanti social DEPRESSED and CURSED well i hope i feel better when i'm ridin in that hearseand all my emotions have left me and i no longer hurt.well i'm a candidate for suicide cause i'm burned out from too far gonewell i'm a candidate for suicide no matter what i do it seems wrongwell i'm a candidate for suicide cause i hurt the ones i lovewell i'm a candidate for suicide cause i never laugh that muchi been busted up and beaten down no self esteem to make me proudanti social depressed and cursedwell i hope i feel better when i'm ridin in that hearseand all my emotions have left me and i no longer hurtwell all my emotions have left me and i no longer hurt
Leave Out All The Rest
Some songs feel like that they have be written for yourself.... "Leave Out All The Rest"by Linkin Park I dreamed I was missingYou were so scaredBut no one would listenCause no one else caredAfter my dreamingI woke with this fearWhat am I leavingWhen I'm done hereSo if you're asking meI want you to know[Chorus]When my time comesForget the wrong that I've doneHelp me leave behind someReasons to be missedAnd don't resent meAnd when you're feeling emptyKeep me in your memoryLeave out all the restLeave out all the rest[End Chorus]Don't be afraidI've taken my beatingI've shared what I madeI'm strong on the surfaceNot all the way throughI've never been perfectBut neither have youSo if you're asking meI want you to know[Chorus]When my time comesForget the wrong that I've doneHelp me leave behind someReasons to be missedDon't resent meAnd when you're feeling emptyKeep me in your memoryLeave out all the restLeave out all the rest[End Chorus]ForgettingAll the hurt insideYou
All Day Long
I keep playing the same four songs over and over again. My sister is glad that I have the headphones on. So am I. If I dident she would mostlikely go crazy and kill me. Ahhh the joys of liveing with a true metal head
The World Beyond
i stood by the bank the tide was low my breath slower than ever my head held high i looked at the land beyond soon the words will cease the body will stop breating the soul will begin to live  FOR CLOSER TO HEART, HONEST THOUGHTS - READ 'NEGLIGIBLE NOTIONS' JUST FOR MY FRIENDS....
Home
just jezabelle in  hell addited to your spell. passion crimson the blood runs deep. fallen again to a relation, his soul empowers my heart.
Tell Me What Yall Think
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Creatures Without Conscience
I feel fairly cynical today. After the SML F up this morn and his ineptitude in general has led me to disdain culture. A bunch of stupid animals that run around with the herd claiming to know more than the sheep quivering with fear standing right next to them. Eternally, narcissistic, devolved dunces speaking from an underdeveloped brain rejecting the heart. 65-100 years long "whose gotta bigger dick" contest with poor eyesight.
A Line Or Two
look for me again when the sun is gone when the stars are to shine look for me again when the tide returns when the boats cease to stop by when the moss covers the bank when my flute covers in dust then again the the dawn will arrive the dew fresh the flowers will bloom i will return look for me again in the new of the day FOR CLOSER TO HEART, HONEST THOUGHTS - READ 'NEGLIGIBLE NOTIONS' JUST FOR MY FRIENDS....  
Just A Silly
DAY 752 - My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while I am forced to eat dry cereal. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope of escape, and the mild satisfaction I get from ruining the occasional piece of furniture. Tomorrow I may eat another houseplant. DAY 761 - Today my attempt to kill my captors by weaving around their feet while they were walking almost succeeded, must try this at the top of the stairs. In an attempt to disgust and repulse these vile oppressors, I once again induced myself to vomit on their favorite chair... must try this on their bed. DAY 762 - Slept all day so that I could annoy my captors with sleep depriving, incessant pleas for food at ungodly hours of the night. DAY 765 - Decapitated a mouse and brought them the headless body, in attempt to make them aware of what I am capable of, and to try to strike fear into their hearts. They only cooed and condescended about what a good little c
Broken!
the ONE has left my side! what do i do? the pain will never go away! lost and alone i stay! cant think of what to do next! words r useless!
All Of Me
----------------------Patterns change---------------- Can my heart rearrange -------- These strange emotions swirling inside?--For time has revealed a love that won't be denied -What passion conceived when two thirsting souls collide ----------- All that I own, I now give to thee-------------------- All I shall ever be --------------------------All of me
Whisper Of A Ghost
TIS BUT A WHISPER OF A GHOST STANDING BEFORE ME, NOTHING BUT A LOST LOVE GONEWISHING TO BE... CALLING FORTH PAST MEMORIES BETTER OFF DEAD, REMINDING ME OF THINGS THAT ONCE WAS SAID... AWAY, I SAY, PLEASE FADE FROM MY EYES, WHY BRING BACK THESE FORGOTTEN TEARS I CRY... MUST YOU STAND THERE WITHOUT A WORD SPOKEN, CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT MY HEART IS STILL BROKEN... I STILL YEARN FOR THE FEEL OF YOUR LOVING TOUCH, THE SADNESS OF YOUR LOSS STILL HURTS SO MUCH... TORTURE ME NOT BY BEING HERE IN MY SIGHT, APPEARING ONLY TO ME NIGHT AFTER NIGHT... YOUR GHOST BRINGS TO ME NOTHING BUT A CURSE, CAUSING MY EMOTIONS AND STRESS TO GET WORSE... I BEG OF THEE, MY GHOST OF MY LOVE NOW GONE, SEE THAT THIS PLACE IS NO LONGER YOUR HOME... GO BACK TO YOUR GRAVE AND FIND EVERLASTING SLEEP, AND KNOW THAT OUR LOVE IS STILL VERY DEEP... NEVER AGAIN TO RISE SO THAT PEACE WILL COME TO ME, GO NOW, MY LOVE, SO THAT I CAN FINALLY BE FREE
May 20th Update
Hey Everyone, well, I have a friend that is letting me use there computer once again which is nice of them. Anyways, this morning the nurses were messin with my picc line and finally got it open which made me very happy now that I can get my antibiotics and everything through that again and dont really have to worry about it at least for now. I am hopin that I will be able to get out of here eventually. All my sores are healing slowly ,but are healing still.. I went through the hyperbaricks today which is that oxygen machine that I lay in for 90 minutes and its 100% oxygen that goes into my sores and makes my ears pop when I go up adn down in oxygen level to help my sores heal more. I didnt last the whole time today cuz I got so hot and light headed that they had to take me out after an hour ,but at least I made it an hour to be able to count it. Tomorrow I am suppose to start that twice a day ,but if i cant handle it then i cant they say.. if i can do twice a day then we will ,but if
Dot Dot Dot Doot Doot Doot Dot Dot Dot
So yeah, it's been a while since I actually decided to sit down and write out a big long post here. Chances are this one won't end up too long either. Generally the best intentions and all that...Anyways, lets start with the best stuff.. Alannah! She turned 1 year old on May 1st and she's acting much older than her age. Over the past couple of days she has learned how to climb up onto the couch, loveseat, and chair. She tries to climb onto the coffee table but we stop that one. It took her a bit longer to learn how NOT to fall off of them. But today that was her accomplishment. She can do the hand gestures for the Itsy Bitsy spider and parts of head shoulders knees and toes. She says ut oh, mama, nana, all done, dryers done, and a handfull of other words. The other words are only with prompting. She walks perfectly and will spin in circles. She loveeeeees music and will dance around. In the mornings I put on music videos for us to listen to/watch while having breakfast and waking up. S
Moods
People that have watched me in the Mumm area, will typically find my default pics change frequently. There is a simple explanation. I change them according to my mood. It may go through several changes, on any given day. Or, not change for several days. It all depends. Here are just some of the moods and pics I use: Don Rickles - When I'm feeling sarcastic or irritated Chief Dan George or a Native American - When I'm feelin' my heritage. Gomez or myself - When I'm feeling upbeat. Of course, the pics are subject to change. Just thought I'd explain this a bit, in case some of you were wondering.  
Her.
i'm not good with speaking in words outside of a letter.. out of text.. out of letters.. my voice can never describe anything as well as my words. so this goes out to my soon to be... your are my life.. you are my dreams.. I'm tired of the drama. tired of life of nothingness. my son was what kept me walking. He kept my heart beating and walking one foot in front of the other. when i first came here i didn't have a friend.. you were my first... i mean that. you were the first. talked to you as a friend. became close as close can be. never even seen under my own eyes that your feelings for me were the same. living every day in the real world only made me want to come back to this dream to hear your words swirling around my head. you really do mean the world to me. there is not a thing in this world that could make me change my mind now. i'm devoting myself to you. this is my last try. i'm tired of being so caring and giving... i'm tired of being everything i can be for someone when the w
Rellik Need Bday Love
☆This guy is amazing and he needs our help. His birthday is REAL soon and hes been trying to save for spotlight, and well he's not even close yet.☆ ☆He really needs our help.☆ ☆So for everyone who sends 500k and plus will get a SFW salute from me.☆ ☆Lets show him how nice the fu can really be.☆ ЯelliK-CoOwner of the Basement-SEЯ DJ-FuHubby to Kunty ☆FUPAL HIM, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?☆ ☆HIS FAV BLING IS☆ ☆BROUGHT TO YOU BY☆ ☆Kunty™CuppyCake [Basement] Rellik's fu-wifey☆
Bittersweet Love
Filled with bliss covered in shit Down and out far and away. liked by chance and fucked by desire Filling the voids that have overtaken me I feel like the middle man in this overrated sanctity Lost and abandoned in this bittersweet abyss I lack the taste or even the function Rather useless now and distraught My mind is all amuck, I'm lost in thoughts about you  
Waiting
Alone I sit and wonder why the world around me passes by flashing teasing shouwing faded memories of things Im always needing never giving always tempting forever wanting waiting bleeding screaming never knowing who or why just sitting here waiting wanting to die wishing praying crying sobing joyless tears ebbing flowing still not knowing what they meant what they were the places ive been the people Ive known just seeking answers waiting wanting bleeding screaming
That's Racist.
Yet so hilarious.
Help A Marine Get To Disciple
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Pornstar Bree Olson's Address
Hey guys this is my friend bree olson's address for thoughs of you that would like to write her and that is a fan of her work.   Bree Olson PO Box 10471 Fort Wayne Indiana 46852  
Stick This In Your Earhole!
Love That Is Real
Sometimes at night,When I look to the sky,I start thinking of you,And then ask myself "why?""Why do I love you?"I think and smile,Because I know,The list could run on for mile.The whisper of your voice,The warmth of your touch,So many little things,Make me love you so much.The way you support me,Even my silly notions,The way that you care,And show such devotion.The way that your kiss,Fills me with desire,And how you hold me,With the warmth of a fire.The way your eyes shine,When you look at me,Lost with you forever,Is where i want to be.The way that I feel,When you are by my side,A sense of completion,And overflowing pride.The dreams that I dream,That all involve you,The possibilities that I see,The things that we can do.How you finish the puzzle,That lies inside my heart,How deep in my soul,You are a very important part.I could go on for days,Telling of what I feel,But all you really must know is...My love for you is real
Hopeless
I feel the emptiness rise with in me and I can see the grey clouds over my head turn black. Through the cracks of my despair hope comes through. I begin to think posative and smile more with thoughts of you danceing in my mind. My emptiness turns to happiness and my black clouds clear. I see the envisionment of an angel infront of me. Days even months go by and I fall for her more and more. We were happy and enjoying each others company until that night she crushed the hope I had and took my heart and threw it on the floor. She looked at me and said I care for you baby and I love you. I told her I do not believe you care about me but I know you love me. She just brushed it off like it never happened and walked off with blood on her shoes and my heart in ruins on the floor. I told her that she my be a broken angel but I am the shattered man. I am now just a former shadow of my former self because dont know if she truely cares for me or not. As I lie in my bed thinking the thoughts of ha
The End
The air exscapes my lungs and I fall to the ground to my knees. Tears start rolling down my cheek as i look up at the sky with rain hitting me in the face. I ask god  why he puts so much pressure on one man and expects him to be happy. I get no answer in return, just more rain and tears. I grab my chest and  and stare down to the ground. I feel the mud between my fingers and the wetness of the rain and the cold breeze. I close my eyes and think of everyone and everything and come to the conclusion that I am the cause of thier misery. I am the reason they cry. I am the man they fear. I think of going and getting my gun but that would be to quik, I need to feel the pain. I think of hanging myself but if my neck didnt snap then I would still be alive and have a slight chance of being saved. I think of takeing pills but you have to take to many and there is still a slight chance of liveing. I reach in my pocket and feel the knife between my fingers. I pull the knife out and open it. I star
No Quit (poem)
Beat and broken I've been here before But Im still standin Screamin for more Give me your worst Cause it's all been done I don't back down I refuse to run Put me through hell Your effort's in vain I'm still smilin I welcome the pain Laugh in your face and spit in your eye How do you kill A man that wont die    
My Whole Life Is All About... Y - O - U... Please, Read!!!!!
Bryan "Todd"... or "BT" PeaseI go by Todd to my friends, Bryan on paper, and not "BT" but it works . . .    * Age: 45    * Gender: Male    * Astrological Sign: Leo    * Zodiac Year: Rabbit - The Rabbit is most compatible with the Pig and Dog and "Incompatible" with the Rooster and... Rat...!    * FYI - Pigs are Clean and Smart, Dogs are Loyal and Fun, so you Roosters and Rats well . . . if you don't know... which I didn't...!    * Until Now - Roosters - are extremely sociable and prefer being the center of attention, always bragging about themselves and their        accomplishments. They continually seek the unwavering attention of others which can be annoying. Roosters are as proud of their         homes as they are of themselves. They’re extremely organized individuals as evidenced by the fact that their homes are always           neat.  Rats - are full of energy, talkative, and charming, but they have a tendency to become aggressive. (Definitely NOT Me...)...!    * Industry: I
Friends List
If you are on my friends list I expect to hear from you... if i do not hear from you you will be removed from my friends list. I am interested in real people. I am not here for point whoring!
Arguing
The other day, Nancy and I got into some petty argument. (I say it was petty. She would have said it was Armageddon.) As is our nature, neither of us would admit the possibility that we might be in error. To her credit, Nancy finally said, "Look. I'll tell you what. I'll admit I'm wrong if you admit I was right." "Fine." I said. She took a deep breath, looked me in the eye and said, "I'm wrong."I grinned and replied, "You're right." 
Where Has The Time Gone?
  Cannot believe how slack I am with the blog, am such a lazy bugger. The past few nights have been great, show selling so well and audiences to die for. I love NZ. Just loving my self contained suite at The Sky City Grand hotel...I mean that bed....whoa...it’s SO comfortable, I don’t want to get up in the morning. The room has a living and kitchen area and a separate bedroom which is super sweet. The Grand Sky City is just the best hotel I have been in for ages. I tried to watch an in house movie, it was a romcom called Zak and Miri make a Porno – but the sound was out of synch slightly so I had to go downstairs and explain to the reception. The girl was tiny Asian and we were both having a slight accent problem, so I had to shout (coz I am a dick) “My film I paid for ‘Zak and Miri make a Porno’ didn’t work properly” and all everyone in the reception heard in my big Scottish voice was “My PORNO film didn’t work in my r
'two Wolves'
'Two Wolves’ This is the best I have ever heard it explained. One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said: 'My son, the battle is between 'two wolves' inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.' The grandson thought about it for a minute, and then asked his grandfather
Software Downloads
Ubuntu 9.04 ISO's http://www.mediafire.com/file/yzn1mf2nd32/ubuntu-9.04-desktop-amd64.iso http://www.mediafire.com/file/mwluen5b1te/ubuntu-9.04-desktop-i386.iso http://www.mediafire.com/file/ngmtw1f5ztf/ubuntu-9.04-server-amd64.iso http://www.mediafire.com/file/zmzk1yrfkdm/ubuntu-9.04-server-i386.iso
Crap
Crap happy, Crap happy. I'm so happy to crap. Crap, crap, crappy crap, crappy, crappy, crap, crap. I crap. You crap. Everybody crapped! ~Rob Dyrdek~ Rob and Big I type because it is stuck in my fucking head.
Now And Then
how was it then what will it be now the constant to and fro..... what did she say how will she speak now the constant to and fro.... the smile then the abrupt disconnect now life comes to halt as i dither between then and now.... let me off the boat let me drown let me find another meaning let me be now..... memories haunt words lie actions disgrace me a silent cry where does this end how does it stop i walk the way dithering between then and now  FOR CLOSER TO HEART, HONEST THOUGHTS - READ 'NEGLIGIBLE NOTIONS' JUST FOR MY FRIENDS....
A Lovers Pact
The snow, so peaceful and serene,caressed by the soft moonlight,gave magical feelings to the night.The soft blue glow,the lovers' words that then did flow,their lips closer and closeruntil, locked in the throesof a passionate embrace,he decided to express his feelings,to keep her safe.He whispered softly,his words like music to her ears,"I Love You,"and her response the same,heard like the gentle breeze,"And I, love you, forever."That was the night they promisedto be together through everything,each to care for the other when old and gray.A lovers' pactthe most likely to last.
Lust In Her Lips
If asked why I love her I would sayIt’s the sway in her hips,the thickness in her thighs.It’s the lust in her lips,the love in her eyes.It’s the softness of her skin,the silk in her hair.It’s the twist in her walk;it’s the sweetness in her talk.It’s the way she loves methat makes me love her each day.That is what I would say.
Poem I Love
Time to share is always thereI peered thru lifeEver avoiding strifeBut now am undoneMy barriers brokenFor one has found meReached in and unbound meHer love has burst my bondsAnd set music to my songsHer need for meAnd mine for sheHas made my Winter SpringA new startWith hammering heartWe color the world with our dreamNothing is as it did seemThe darkness of my solitude is doneShe - my rising sun.
4.0
So my first semester back to college was a huge success. I got a 4.0, which I'm very excited about. It's amazing how much easier school is when you put a little effort into it lol. Now I just get to work all summer, but once I go back in the fall I am going to go straight through-no more summer breaks. Not that it matters since I plan on going to med school so it looks like I'll be a slave to school for the next 6 years or so. Fun :)
Do You Enjoy Reading?
I've figured out a cool way to share some of my e-book collection with my Fu-Friends! Visit my Dunno & Joke Stashes to increase your collections! I've also got a shit-ton of e-comics that I will sort and post some of the gems for youse.
I Said Yes
My emotions are too intense to describe;I could never explain the way I feel,I've forgotten how to breathe as he takes my hand,And before me, begins to kneel.I gaze into his hopeful eyesAnd feel his gentle grasp,Time was held still all around,Yet an eternity seemed to elapse.Although he barely whispered the words,In a delicate, loving voice,They landed on my ears like a thunderstorm,That ceases to await my choice.I hated putting you in suspense,But I lost ability to speak,My heart had stopped altogether,A tear rolled down my cheek.I reached out and caressed his lovely face,My decision I'd never second-guess,Loving him so much it hurt,I uttered my fateful, "Yes."
Two Hearts
Two hearts intertwined...Different views...Different dreams...Different needs...Different wants...Bound by a fragile string called LOVE...Union as willed by GOD...A journey in life...May be pounded by the forces of nature...May be struck by the fiercest lightning...Yet two hearts bound by a delicate twine...STRONG enough...To stand the test of time.
Dear Fubarians:
Here is some advice....   1) DO NOT fall in love with me - I am in love. I don't need you. 2) DO NOT ask me to play on cam for you - If I wanted to I would 3) DO NOT ask to do me, see me, fuck me, lick me, touch me, or anything of that nature..... - I have a perfectly great man at home to do that for me. 4) DO NOT hate on me because I CAN be the biggest bitch you have EVER met and I am ALREADY getting pissed off. 5) DO NOT think that you can replae Brandon - You CAN'T and NEVER WILL! 6) DO NOT think you're funny - You're not. I might just decide to update this time and time again if I feel the urge.... because I am just pissed off now.
Fake Salu
Does anybody realizes how many fake ass people is on fubar.Come on Fubar is letting people move up in the ranks because the are VIP's.Take a look at there site and they made a salute with there computers.Is there any site that really takes having real people talking to real people.To see what I'm talking ,do asearch under names and search for freedom.should be on the second page.Rank disciple.Not one real salute.These people are ruining FUBAR for the rst of us.If more people complained to the admin's we would have a better experience
Fubar And Its Vip As I See It
I treat fu with simplicity. I look at pics, rate em, like em and in some cases love em. I chat, I waste time, not chasing cars though - thats a nice song. Anyways, the reality is, they get nothing from me except my wasted time spent here. As for the rest I really simply don't care! Thats my choice, I choose to do what I want. And I choose to please me, not literally buy into the costly stupidity of the unfree stuff available here. There's no worth or merit to me by giving fu money so why the fook would I do that. Some would say yes there is worth in giving them money. Like What? You have a lil VIP on yer page, change the colour of yer name? You can shit face people in one click? Seriously? That and all the other stupid things are worth payin money for? Are you mentally unstable? Look at all the cool things I can do as a VIP. Riiiiiiight, OK, well whatever makes you feel special cos thats what selling and shopping is all about. Being made to feel special by paying for something. But wha
Life Is Fun....full Of Changes...
So, i will be off line for a bit. I am moving cross country, and picking up my little ones along the way. Alongside that quest, I will be tryin to get me ex the help she needs, my kids need their mother too... life is fun and full of changes, so to all my friends, I will be in touch as I can..gonna be very busy for awhile.... wish me luck and keeps us in your prayers please... Love you all, Donn...
Rate And Comment Please
I need some rates and comments on this here pic...So please as always show the hostess major love.    
Short & Simple
3:31pm Ok So I am here checking out the site....  I hadn't talked to anyone in a while except for about 1-2 people.  I haven't had any internet connection at all.  It sucks really b/c at the same time i've had to deal with major DRAMA!  Everyone hates drama for sure. The last time I remember being "happy" was forever, but the last time I was somewhere near happy was when I was reassured about something.  He still doesn't know he proved me wrong with something that I kind of thought.  I realized when I was out of a job, that it's not the end of the world.  Yeah, yeah I know...  I always speak my mind especially through blogs.  It's been bad to the point that I am going to have to move out and I have no clue where I am going to end up.  The hardest thing I had to do was not cry, but only b/c I haven't had time to cry.  It's been hard, trying to pack up my stuff, give away some clothes, and some new shoes/heels i'd bought for the workplace.  When I suddenly left on Monday at the end o
Not Enough
Contentment is not enough for me, I want to be happy, entertained and free. To take happiness instead of waiting would be fair, for I search for it and its never there. I wait and sit and sit some more, but never does a smile knock on my door. Lonely, and never truly enthralled, I envy those who have that all. I want to kick and scream and slam the door, but only for the want of more. What it is, I think I know, but none of them shall ever though. It crouches and hides and waits for me, depression, tis thee, and only for me. And now these solemn words I write, are never to be read, but kept out of sight. For pleased eyes and light souls, it will never show, for only the lonely truly know...
Hey Everyone
well, im new, obviously. so i am just here to make friends and talk with interesting people.
The Bathtub Test
During a visit to the mental asylum, I asked the "Director how do You determine whether or not a patient should be institutionalized." 'Well,' said the Director, 'we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub.' 'Oh, I understand,' I said. 'A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup.' 'No.' said the Director, 'A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?'
I Don't Want To Be A Foot Note In Someone Else's Happiness
I'm looking back at entrys in my old written journal trying to fit it all in one note book and every word I wrote hurts and it makes me wonder why I tried so hard when the writting was on the wall.  I just keep wondering if every word and situation I spoke about were just lies, I can't help but wonder that because look at where the situation is now; every promise has been broken and everything that was said would happen is gone...its like that part of my life was just a dream.  More than anything I want to understand why I still care, why even now just thinking about it fills my eyes with tears.  I feel stupid, I thought I moved on from it all but maybe I'm just lying to myself again. I know there is no point of voicing these feelings and m ore likely than not no good will come from it like most things I have said when it comes to this situation.  I know that the other never wonders or thinks about any of it, I am just a bad memory or a nightmare.  Thats all i ever am I guess, but stil
Things To Do Be For I Die....( Or At Least Hit 30 )
ok these are the  things me and  my best  friend  want to  do  before  we  get too  old to do them   @ ROAD TRIP!!! #Bunking  for  fun:P $Visit EVERY  theme park in America *Pay respects to  Ground Zero % Play practical jokes on Society ! Humiliate Ourselves!! ^Crash a  Party ~Shake  hands  with a Government  official = Visit  well Known  memorials + Meet  a Celeberty -Go on a  Haunted adventure $Tour the  rainforest *Face  our  Biggest  FEAR #Volenteer in a 3rd World  country %Break a World  Record @Go  diving in the  coral Reef ^ Watch the olympics..... LIVE !!! & Make a  movie  staring  US !!!!!! :D    
A Poem...
I was in class this Tuesday evening, and an assignment in class was to write a poem about ourselves.  We were given the title "I Come From..." and we were to build from there and see where our minds brought us.  She also informed us that it did not have to rhyme.  After she said that, she told us we had 20 minutes and left the room.  What am I going to write?  Here is my outcome... I come from a broken home Yet that is not all I've known Surrounded by family that cares New thoughts were often dared Importance of working hard Learned at an early age Daily tending to field and yard Never confined, never caged As in physical work, academic was to match Earn each grade to life's new latch Let dreams build your future While making sure to find your right suitor Melody and rhyme Completely fill my mind Music is a part of my upbringing Musical instruments, but I am left with only my singing Dreams of being a professional performer A few years ago I begun the journey to come closer Strong
Hitched Or Ditched
Set to premier on primetime: A new telivision show is schedualed for realse this season entitled "Hitched or Ditched" The programs basic flow is that people are given exactly one week to get to know each other, fall in love and say "I Do" provinding these requirements are met, the show will provide for them a large lavash wedding. Part of the show's advertisement is that the series will promote Drama. Thats right good old american drama just like we have here at fubar. To be perfectly honest, Im not nearly surprised as i am appauled. This programs advertising point confirms my suspicians of that which has been said a thousand times. "People love drama" and I dont mean a good old shakespearian drama, I mean who's knocking boots with who's spouse, backstabbing, lieing stealing and sneaking around. How can we as good people possibly enjoy, and promote anything that encourages people to be as absolutely dirty as they can be. When did cheating, and lieing become entertainment. And what
Needs Help
HEY BOMBERS {OR ANYONE ELSE THAT WANTS TO} SEA COULD USE SOME HELP LEVELING STOP BY       JEWEL OF THE SEA*FUBOMBERS *NAP*GREETER@GREENDOOR@OLSS PLZZZZZZZ SIGN MY GUEST BOOK@ fubar
Xmen Origins: Wolverine
i dont really need to tell you this movie was awesome, yu should already know.   anyway its the story of how wolverine became who he is. even if you arent a fan of comic books ect, its still a good action packed way to spend 2 hours a few key charecters were a bit off base but over all was done pretty nicely. GAMBIT LIKE A MOFO! ( o )( o )( o )( o )    4 bewbs
Help This Beauty Reach Prophet
AUTO’S ON! Bomb folder and 75 other pics to rate Nerdy Just over 7 mil to Prophet! Drop by it only takes a few seconds. Add, Fan, Comment, Rate, Bling too.
Nasophilia
Arousal from kissing, sucking, touching or looking at another's nose.
Life Sucks
ok so my life isnt going anywhere any more and i hate how i dont have anything to do anymore so ya here a list of y i hate my life 1:no friends to hang with in public 2nly a few friends online/out of state so not alot i can do with them 3:no job,car,own home,money 4:no gf been looking for almost 5 yrs nonstop in public and online no luck and im thinking of stoping cause no1 wants me or wants to try to go out i dont care if we not work out i just want to try and make work if anything 5:nothing to do all day but eat,sleep,iming,music (this is wat i do all day every day of 24 hrs looks like this 5 hrs of sleep 7hrs online and a few hrs in all for eating,bathroom,watching tv so ya i dont do anything fun just basic stuff...) 6:no life 7:fam thats not really fun or loving anymore 8-15:etc.... so im thinking of getting off this site and all sites im on cause im not getting friends i can hang with and also im not getting a gf so i may end this pf within 5 days and then all othe
Im This Girl
I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because she's sleepy. but because she wants to be closer to you...I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more then inside your bedroom or in an expensive resturant...I'm the girl who says, "ok, you owe me..."Jokingly not because I acutually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you...I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will (or at least try to) have fun because it means I am spending time with you...I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms...I'm the girl who never forgets the all sweet things you do for me...I'm the girl who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have...I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you.I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss...I'm
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Pissing Youe Teachers Off Xd
Don't remeber how I found this...but I'm bored an wanted to like show my fu friends xD *Bring a small cactus to class with you. Raise your hand, and when you're called on, say that the cactus has a question. Turn and look at the cactus, as if you're waiting for it to say something. After a few moments, shrug, and wait for your professor to move on. Do this once a day, and become increasingly irritated with the cactus every time, sighing heavily and giving it evil looks when it fails to "speak." When you leave the room after class, start yelling at the cactus, "I can't believe you embarrassed me AGAIN...."   *Bring a vacuum to class. Halfway through class, stand up and start using it. If your professor objects, explain that you "can't stand sitting in this pigsty any longer." Keep vacuuming, grumbling angrily. *Brush your teeth during class. While doing so, raise your hand as if you have a question, and mumble your question incoherently while brushing, spewing toothpaste all over
Goin Outta My Head
Been laid off, got no car , sacked out on my brother's couch in a no horse town, got divorced, can't see my kid's cause they're two thousand mile's away and I can't find work to save my life. All since November. Top it all of with the fact that I'm struggling to keep from going back to my self destructive way's. For my girl's though, I refuse to give up. Been clean and mostly sober (only drink a few time's a year as opposed to every day as well as shit people shouldn't do. I don't judge though.) for five year's. Just gotta hold out,get on my feet again, and fight to be the father I never had. Sorry if this come's off as a personal pity part. Not what I was going for. Just needed to get that out. If anyone has advice though I'm open to suggestion's and all form's of comment. Thank's for taking the time. Peace out girlscout's
The Equipment Dont Make U!!!!
I thought you were a man, what happened? It really burns me up when a guy claims he's a man un til things get hard! Using the lame excuses and reasons like, because I'm a man, etc. So quick to say they are a man, but acting like one is a total different story.   For example a man that claims he loves you, and has the balls to try and  tell you what  you can or can't do and who you are allowed to see or tries pick your friends. Amazingly when some things happen like he gets you pregnant, or he gets caught cheating on you; where do his balls go then? It's odvious that when things get hard for a man that really isn't a man they tuck there balls and run. Including such lame excuses as, I didn't wanna hurt your feelings. Weird how they had no problem telling you and saying things that hurt your feelings (possibly earlier the same day). Some of these pathetic creatures will even totally ignore you or aren't even smart enough to come up with an excuse or lie. I'm just saying as a female I
Real Problem?
Real Problem One afternoon, a man went to his doctor and told him that he hasn't been feeling well lately. The doctor examined the man, left the room, and came back with three different bottles of pills. The doctor said, "Take the green pill with a big glass of water when you wake up. Take the blue pill with a big glass of water after you eat lunch. Then just before going to bed, take the red pill with another big glass of water." Startled to be put on so much medicine, the man stammered, "Jeez Doc, exactly what is my problem?" The doctor replied, "You're not drinking enough water." Ain't that some shyt?
Designers
  Designer Four engineers were sitting around one day trying to figure out who might have designed the human body. The first fellow said, "I think it might be a Mechanical Engineer, because of joints and muscle and sense of balance." The other three nodded their heads and said, "Yeah, could be." The second fellow said, "I think it might be an Electrical Engineer, because of the nervous system and neural network." The other three nodded their heads and said, "Yeah, could be." The third fellow said, "I think it might be a Chemical Engineer, because of hormonal balances and metabolism." The other three nodded their heads and said, "Yeah, could be." The fourth fellow snaps his fingers and shouts out, "I know, it HAD to have been a Civil engineer!" The other three ask "Why?" "Well," replied the fourth fellow, "who else would put a waste water drainage right through a recreational area?"      
Not So Dumb After All
Funny? Not So Dumb After All There was a little boy named Johnny who used to hang out at the local corner market. The owner didn't know what Johnny's problem was, but the boys would constantly tease him. They would always comment that he was a few bricks shy of a full load, or two pickles short of a barrel. To prove it, sometimes they would offer Johnny his choice between a nickel and a dime, and John would always take the nickel. One day after John grabbed the nickel, the store owner took him aside and said, "Johnny, those boys are making fun of you. They think that you don't know that the dime is worth more than the nickel. Are you grabbing the nickel because it's bigger, or why?" Slowly, Johnny turned toward the store owner and a big grin appeared on his face and Johnny said, "Well, if I took the dime, they'd stop doing it. So far I have
Fuggin Aso
i gots nothing just wanted to post a blog.
Thought Of The Moment
never argue with stupid people. they drag you down to thier level and beat you with experience.   the thought of the moment  brought you by our proud sponsers
Wonder
why would a guy say he loves you when he avoid,lies,dont come over to your house or invite you to anywhere,or ask about your family and friends,ignore the text or phone calls.
Let Us Not Forget!
This weekend is a time of remberence. Make sure you take some of it to  say thank you-to Veterans, Active Military, and those who never made it home.    we may all be getting ready to have a party or BBQ this weekend but lets not forget just what this weekend is all about. I am a very proud veteran of the 82nd Airborne and 3rd Ranger and i will never forget the men i served with and the ones that still fight for our freedoms today. to all of you active military you are in my thoughts this weekend. God bless and my he keep you safe.
Fubar #! Promoteof The Day!
thanks to all who joined fubar for me,maken me todays top promoter! luv ya!!! 
Love Campaign
The young suitor was determined to win the heart of the girl he wanted to marry, in spite of her rejection of his proposals a number of times. He began what can only be called "Campaigning" and sent her a small token of his affection every day for a month to her house. Soon, the young lady fell in love with the UPS man. 
Liers
    THESE TWO PEOPLE DO NOT PAY UP! They Bid In Auction and then when they win they run! *DO NOT ALLOW THEM TO BID IN YOUR AUCTIONS* ♥§ûßmîVè♥ßîß... ##MARIO ITALY##
What Happened To All The Nice Guys?
I found this from someone who posted this on craigslist and I reworded the bitter verbiage but it is something to think about for both men and women..... What Happened to All the Nice Guys?   I see this question posted with some regularity in the personals section, so I thought I'd take a minute to explain things to the ladies out there that haven't figured it out. What happened to all the nice guys? The answer is simple: you did. See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He'd tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn't feel like going out or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were seeing treated you, sometimes he would help you emotionally and financially when the other guy wouldn't. At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little
American Soldiers
Hey evryone It is Memorial weekend!!!!! Let us not forget the men and women that have died for our country. Keep there families in your prayers and kepp our HEROS in your hearts!!!!!!
Tagged
  I got tagged by: ((President of the B-list))Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.1. I'm a 36yrs old Mother of 2 children Wesley is 10 Wriley is 6. 2. I love spending time with My Family & Friends 3. I love all types of music..live is the best. 4. I am a total smart ass.. I love being a jokester.. 5. I may look all sweet & innocent  but...Im not..hehehe 6. I am a big flirt..7. I am a obsessive compulsive clean freak..lol.. I guess thats why I am a Housekeeper 8. I am a nice person till U piss Me off then God Help U.. 9. I have walls built up around Me & Only the people I truly trust are allowed 2 enter..10. I am the type of girl that when I like U I like U alot.. When I fall I
Ensign: Words
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye.            Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS                                                      22 May 2009 “The B-I-B-L-E, yes that’s the book for me.  I stand alone on the Word of God, the B-I-B-L-E.  BIBLE!”  My daughter Sarah’s heard that song from her cousin Josceline who’s in Sunday school (where she will start this fall) and when she sings that anywhere I’ve heard her it comes out, “I stand the Lord on the Word of God, the B-I-B-L-E.  BIBLE!”  I tried to correct her on this once, but she still does it and at three years old, I am not pushing for perfect lyrics or pitch. When do we realize that God is not pushing us to be perfect either?  He knows we can’t do it; when Jesus says, “Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father … in heaven is perfect,&rdquo
Life In General...
When will people realize that bad things happen to good people??? So, you're a great person, living your great life, and something fucked up happens out of the blue... get over it!!! Don't get me wrong, I've had some pretty crazy shit happen to me, but when it does, I just ask myself, ' What makes me so fuckin' special?'. I've come to realize it's not what happens to you that defines the situation, it's how you respond!!!  I said respond, not react!!! A reaction is based on feelings, a response is based on intelligence. Never let your emotions override your intelligence!!! All in all, life is a Beautiful thing!!! When something bad happens, dictate the situation, don't let the situation dictate you!!! Keep it pushin'...
Sick Of It All
I AM TAKING A BREAK FROM FUBAR. I HAVE HAD IT WITH THE LIARS, CHEATERS, BACK STABBERS ETC................THIS USED TO BE A PLACE TO HAVE FUN AND MEET SOME REALLY NICE PEOPLE............NOW IT SEEMS LIKE GUYS JUST WANNA SEE YA ON CAM SO THEY CAN GET OFF. THEN OF COURSE WE HAVE THE CAM SLUTS WHO JUST HAVE TO COME ON YOUR PAGE AND DOWNRATE YOU CAUSE YOU HAPPEN TO BE SOMEONE'S FRIEND.  I JUST LOVE THAT, NOT!!!!!!!!!!! OH YA AND THE LOVELY SHOUTS FROM THE SAME HO'S, GOTTA LOVE IT......... THIS ISN'T MEANT FOR EVERYONE BUT FOR THE MANY GUYS  AND WOMEN I HAVE ENCOUNTERED RECENTLY..............THE FUN IS GONE, IT'S HARD TO ACTUALLY TRY AND TRUST PEOPLE............IT'S SAD..............I NEED A BREAK,  I WILL BE ON FROM TIME TO TIME............I AM ALWAYS LOGGED IN CAUSE OF THE LOUNGE............TAKE CARE ALL..............I WILL BE BACK ONCE I GET MYSELF BACK ON TRACK..............HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY WEEKEND!!!
Heart Of Stone
ok. so recently i have been hangin out with this girl that seems pretty awesome so far for a week. she likes all the things that i like and we seem to be getting along great. she works and is trying to help me get a job when she is not working. i have turned in several apps but havent found anything. she seems pretty cool so much that i can call her a friend but she tells me that she is falling for me. she keeps asking me what if i really do feel that way. i tell her that she can feel how she wants to feel. i tell her i cant say those words and i have to remember what it truly means to be in love. i also told her that what she is feeling is infatuation. many of you who read this know what i am talking about. the ones that talk to me the most on fubar know what i have been thru in the past and know why i told my friend that. i dont know if i can ever love again because of what my ex did to me. its very hard for me. i still have feelings for my ex because she gave birth to my kids. i mis
I Think~
I simply think of you, and suddenly I am hard. I think of the college lecture hall where I first met you, of bending you over the large table at the front of the hall and teaching the assembled pre-med students about a very different type of biology... I think of binding you, rendering you immobile between the tall pillars, your body vulnerable and unprotected, keeping you on display, your face reddened with embarrassment as you serve as artwork in a museum of kink... I think of plunging into your ass, pinning you to the floor, My hands clenching yours as I enjoy your tightness, breathing hard into your ear, My eventual orgasm causing Me to jerk and spasm roughly upon you as My cum surges along My length and shoots deep into you... I think of My teeth grinding a nipple, the pain coursing through your breast, through your chest, through your entire being, sending a flurry of throbbing signals directly to your clitoris as you thrash about and endure the torture because of the bonds which
Ice Story~
The room was bathed in a soft glow from the fire, and candles that were burning around the room. I entered the room as I always did, kneeling in front of the bed, waiting for Sir to speak."Hello little one""Hello Sir" "Where is your toy?""Right here Sir" I show him the toy sitting next to me."Good, now I want you to insert your toy, then take my cock in your hand. When your ready to cum, squeeze my cock, but don't cum until I tell you to, understood?""Yes Sir" I insert my toy and hand him the control. He turns it on low. As I let my mind drift, and my body feel the toy thrumming inside of my pussy. Sir gradually increases the speed of the toy, bringing me closer to the edge. Soon my body is straining for release.As I squeeze his cock harder I beg for release. " Please Sir, may I cum?" I put my head down squeezing him harder, He whispers in my ear "Flow for me" as my body releases. I let out a long low moan. I start to relax, as Sir lays back down again. "Stay where you are, and do this
In My Mind
In My Eyes, Cold With Fire, Much Like Ice , That You Admire, In My Thoughts, Tapping On My Skin, Not Enough , Just Keep It In , In The Mirror, Spider Webs , That Seem Much Clearer, Feeling Dead, All Of Me , That I can Give , Break Away , To Let You In , Help Me Up, Till I Can Win, Be My Air , Crawling On My Skin, Glass Reflections , Bits And Peices ,Sliping Off The Edge, Loud Noises, In My Head ,On My Mind, In My dreams, Make me Blind, Break Away , So I Can Breathe , Let Me Go, Help Me Sleep.
Fu Bf/gf
My last fu boyfriend was great thanks sean for having me now I need a new one that is close to my age and likes me for me an will understand that I have school an such. Will also take a fu girlfriend I am bisexual would like to try to have a fu girlfriend... Anyways much love!
Wheres My Girls At ?????
oki did a mumm over this and got some good feedback so i guess i will start one. Ladies if you would like to be included in my sexy female folder just let me know, (it will be tastefully done,) and what picture of your self you would like to put in it. send me a pm with the link. thank you everyone xoxo
5/21/09 Fluffy Starr Blog
New Vlog: "Singing Career" - kinda embarrassing! Don't you love when you randomly remember something from your childhood? Well here is a memory of mine, and I'm sharing it with you, via Fluffy Starr TeeVee. Click on"Singing Career." Man, the things my parents made me do... But totally makes sense now. But my grandmother and my aunties and parents always tell me stories. I was always "performing" in some way shape or form. And was a bit of a diva too. Not that I am now! (Depends who you ask.  ) Anyways, I hope you liked this midnight blog. Just winding the day down. Had the greatest one. Happy. Hope you are too. Pleasant dreams...   x Fluffy.
Devils Playground
Laura McAllister English 1A Tabitha Villalba Final Essay: Descriptive Essay  
Hmmm
in the world we live in we either care to much or care to little. where is the medium? why isnt there one near me when i need one? i feel i do everything and anything wrong. im just a waterfall waiting to burst open and let the water flow and flow and drain me completely empty. yup thats how i feel right now. completely emtpy and i havent even burst threw the damn yet. when did life get so hard and complicated? when does it get easier and stay easier? happy? i try so hard to do everything right and make everyone happy but where is that getting me? no where. how come? cuase ppl just keep takin it and taking it and it wont ever stop. soon its not even thanked for anymore its expected. and once its expected its required and how do u stop it then? im almost 23, when do i---I-- get to start doing stuff that makes ME better? i fucked up my life a couple years back and everyday i think about it and regrett it. now i have found a solution that will fix it and make me a better person. but am i
Dragons Lair
new lounge check my page and join u wont regret it   kanan
Hate Him Now......
I HAVE LOST EVER BIT OF RESPECT I EVER HAD FOR HIM TODAY... HE YELLS AT ME BECAUSE HE HATES WHO HE IS... DEEP DOWN I KNOW IT HAS NOTHING TO TO WITH ME... BUT HE IS THE ONLY MAN IN MY WORLD THAT HAD ALL OF MY RESPECT... THE ONLY ONE I COULD CALL IF I WAS IN TRUBLE.... I THOUGHT FOR 21 YEARS THAT HE WOULD ALWAYS HELP ME!! I SEE TODAY THAT HE DOESNT EVEN COUNT ME AS BEING ANYTHING MORE TO HIM THEN A PERSON THAT JUST HAPPENS TO BE AT HIS FAMILY GET TOGETHERS... NOT HIS FAMILY... SURE AS HELL NOT HIS SISTER!! THIS IS TO YOU MIKE MY ONLY BROTHER!! GO TO HELL YOU FAT BASTERD!!  I HAVE NEVER LOST SO MUCH RESPECT FOR ONE MAN SO FAST!! THE THE WOMAN YOU NEVER WANTED AS A SISTER!! TONYA
Whenever You Come Around
Whenever you come around, my heart pounds as I hear the sound of a thousand angel's wings as they quietly ascend on high. And then I hear a sigh . . . which is mine, as I'm overcome by the utter and complete beauty of one so fine; while on your lovely face my eyes dine. Whenever you come around, I see a thousand stars in a midnight sky; and the eternally perfect movement from sunrise to sunset as you walk by. I get an emotional and physical high as I'm forced to visualize the inner beauty that is displayed outwardly before my eyes. Whenever you come around, I feel inspired . . . by your beauty, and for it, I desire. Should I try to extinguish this fire? Or conceal it and make truth be a liar? Whenever you come around, I smell strawberries and roses, Cool Water and Liz; lilac and jasmine . . . and I don't even know what that is. Just knowing you exist keeps my feet on solid ground; but I'm taken to new heights whenever you come around.
Faces
I cannot change you. You cannot change me. We can only change what we perceive. But in doing so It may all become unreal, Not part of the deal, Not following the drill. So when you look at my face, See deep into my soul, Remember, I am only Who your mind wants to behold. If you don't like what you see, Look inside yourself. Don't blame me. For in this life I am To be Free. Free from the faces you place upon me. Free from the attitudes you seem to see. Free from your chaos, your disunity. Free faces. Leave me be To my Faces of Peace.
Today I Am Canceling Mess!
Today I am canceling mess! Getting rid of confusion that's been hanging around like cobwebs on my ceiling. I am releasing my soul from tiredness & antiquated, meaningless crap! Stepping out of traps that have long been rusted, I'm doing like some companies do when they reorganize, forgiving debts, writing off losses, & establishing ggod credit for myself. There are simply some things that need to be written off. Some people too!                                              Reverend June Gatlin     ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm cleaning out cobwebs off my page & starting fresh and new. Some of you know what you mean to me, and I wouldn't be here if it weren't for YOU! Thank you for ALL of your support & not judging me or giving up on me!
Come N Get Some!
Ladies!  
Safe
Had a big meeting at work today this morning. They gave us the update on the company and the lay offs. 1,700 nike employees world wide are getting laid of or laid off already. 500 employees in the beaverton nike head quarters...town where im at are getting laid off or losing their jobs.... I didn't get laid off...I'm safe :) *happy*
You Say That You Love Me
  You say that you love me day after day, You show it so well in the lies that you say.   You say that you love me day after day, Never able to forget the day you strayed.   You say that you love me day after day, I bet you love me while in his bed you lay.   You say that you love me day after day, Yet to this day my heart you still play.   You say that you love me day after day, After all the years I must back away.   You say that you love me day after day, Guess what your words can no longer sway.   You say that you love me day after day, Listen up close cause these will be the last words I say.   You say that you love me day after day, Get the fuck out of my life I don't want you to stay.
Ever Just Wonder...
What really makes us feel?  What makes us see?  What makes us hear, smell, taste?  Obviously, there's the physiological side to it. Chemicals, proteins, what-have-you.  But if it's basically the same physiological process...  Why is it such a different experience for every person?  It's the human element.  That's why.  Our experiences and associations are different, therefor the neural pathways are different.  But we are the ones who choose to make those pathways.  I really, really love this class...  
Yup Yup
Im just sayin I love this bar
Don't Be Afraid To Look Within.
Don't be afraid to look within. The ego tells you all that is black with guilt within you, and bids you not to look. Instead, it bids you to look upon your brothers, and see the guilt in them. Yet this you cannot do without remaining blind. ~ A course in Miracles
Next Part Of The Last Story We Will Call This Story 6
as the young man is flying through the night.he quickly spots where he is going.he can see the bright lights already of the city known as las vegas.as he lands in the shadows of a alley way.he changes back to his natural form of a human.smileing to himself as he walks from the alley.he starts walking down the street watching everyone.as he approaches a casino he spots a woman who catches his eye.quickly he starts following her.as he follows her she goes into one of the casino's.he keeps following her.quickly he keeps following her as she reaches a elevator.as the door opens the woman gets on quickly he changes into a mist and follows her in.as the doors close the woman starts looking in her purse for her room key.he changes back to his human form without her noticeing and hits the stop button.the woman startled by the sudden stop looks up to see him.quickly he grabs her.pushing her to the back of the elevator.as he pins her against the wall he sinks his fangs deep into her neck drinkin
Tiger Is In A Contest, Help This Guy Out Plz!!!!
My good friend Tiger is in a contest and he needs your guys help!!!! He needs your rates and comments!!! There is no limit on how many comments or what it says so comments as much as you can please!!!! He has helped me out a lot in the past so I need your help to help him!!!! Just copy and paste link below to get to picture to rate and comment on his picture letting him know I sent ya!!!!! Thank you guys, I lubs ya all!!!!!   http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2403422&i=848572286&albumid=1628899
Ramblings Of A Psychotic Witch
Ich habe Pläne große Pläne Ja ich baue ein Häuschen dir Und du ziehst nie wieder aus Ich werde immer bei dir sein Ich baue dir ein Haus Draußen wird ein Garten sein Innen wird es dunkel sein Ich habe Pläne große Pläne Ich baue ein Häuschen dir Stein um Stein Siehst du mir bei der Arbeit zu Und du sollst Teil des Ganzen sein Und keiner hört dich schreien
Missing Link, And The Tasmanian Devel;
Arnold Schwarzenegger California, the Missing Link, and the Tasmanian Devil: Buzz Week in Review by Mike Krumboltz 14 hours ago 28 Votes Could one of the biggest states in the USA be split into four? What sort of monumental discovery did scientists announce this week? And could the Tasmanian Devil really be on the verge of extinction? Take a load off and catch up on these stories and more with the Buzz Week in Review. California: Breaking up is hard to doCalifornia's budget problems are kind of like the boy who cried "wolf." Nobody pays attention anymore. Well, hardly anybody. A radical idea that would split California into four distinct states garnered some attention on the Buzz. Commenters chimed in with their thoughts. Some even suggested names including Calidormia (for the "bedroom communities and burbs all across the state") and Califarmia (for the huge agricultural regions). The commenter notes that Calinormia could make for a nice state, but, a
A Caption From General Order #11
We are organized, comrades, as our regulations tell us, for the purpose among other things, "of preserving and strengthening those kind and fraternal feelings which have bound together the soldiers, sailors, and marines who united to suppress the late rebellion." What can aid more to assure this result than cherishing tenderly the memory of our heroic dead, who made their breasts a barricade between our country and its foes? Their soldier lives were the reveille of freedom to a race in chains, and their deaths the tattoo of rebellious tyranny in arms. We should guard their graves with sacred vigilance. All that the consecrated wealth and taste of the nation can add to their adornment and security is but a fitting tribute to the memory of her slain defenders. Let no wanton foot tread rudely on such hallowed grounds. Let pleasant paths invite the coming and going of reverent visitors and fond mourners. Let no vandalism of avarice or neglect, no ravages of time testify to the present or t
Memorial Day Weekend
hi everyone this weekend is the memorial day long weekend for everyone in the states. its a time to remember all the people that were lost in fighting to help make the world a free one. its not just the soldiers in the states that we should remember but every soldier from every country that have lost their lives fighting. here in canada when a soldier come home in a casket they are taken from CFB Trenton to Toronto but along the route they are escorted by police all along the route and people line the bridges waving their flags to show their support. police ems and fire are there as well as the regular population. that stretch of road has been called The Highway of Heroes. and it is illegal to pass the funeral cortege and also rude as well. to me that is a name befitting in. in memory of the troops killed in battle. so to everyone please stop and give a minute to remember and think about the lives lost and to remember the families as well during the tragedy. have a safe long weekend al
To Urfavmistake♥ You Opened My Eyes
you're my world The shelter from the rain You're the pills That take away my pain You’re the light That helps me find my way home You’re the words When I have nothing to say And in this world Where nothing else seems so lost You're the hand I want to hold As I grow old You're the shore When I am lost in my self You're the only thing That I like about myself How long has it been Since this storyline has ben told And I hope it never ends And goes like this forever you were always ben there for me and always cared i don't know how but you did you showed me something more that no one could ever show You showed me your love and that you would never leave I fell in love when you first frist time we talY Like magic in a fairytale are love was unbreakable Nothing could take it away Somehow i just felt pure and myself when I'm around you I get goose bumps when i see your smile Laughing is all i do when I'm with you cause you make me feel so happy i cant really express the feeling i
>bling Chasers
Hello Fubarians....let me pose a question to all of you...thsi goes to you as well mr baby jesus...what constitutes a Bling Chaser??? let me present some facts... Fact 1: When Fubar (Formerly known as Cherry Tap), there was no blings about...so anyone who was part of thsi site had towork hard in setting up a page, getting known out there by word of mouth and networking..also in the simple case that there were only 25 levels at that time from freshmeat to godfather..the one thing everyone wanted to be..now that cherrytap..now known as FUBAR has evolved and become a new site almost entirely new levels came about and with having a limit of 2500 pictures including teh nsfw ones, thats a lot to rate. which is probably the reasons for the new toys called blings...help to rate faster, make pages more artistic to oncoming lookers and vets of both sites...fubar and cherrytap Fact 2: Blings...every knows them..Everyone wants them.....but how do you go about getting them without having to one
Happy Memorial Day!
I hope everyone has a safe and Happy Memorial day!God bless our troops and to everyone!
The Cost Of A Soldier ~
      A True Soldier is tough indeedstanding tall and strong when there is a needA Soldier also feels sadness, pain, and sorrowSometimes not looking forward to the trials of tomorrowWhen a Soldier is wounded in battlethe nerves of his buddies it does rattleWhen news reaches friends and family at homehow their worries and minds begin to roamA wounded Soldier feels inadequate at beststopping him from much needed healing restA wounded Soldiers wonders will he ever be alright, trusting in God that he'll make it through the night.When a Soldier is wounded far beyond repairthe loss and pain felt can not compareThe Cost of a Soldier is set so very highthey assure our freedom will always applyTo stand beside a Soldier and walk through his painwill humble a civilian, no longer to complainLove, patience, trust and hope is what a Soldier needsto get them through some very treacherous deedsDear Lord please watch over our Military todayas they work to keep our freedom everydayFor the wounded and
Letter To A Military Spouse
Letter to a Military SpouseWhile I have never had the pleasure of meeting you and your husband, I felt the need to write you and express a very deep feeling that I have in my heart. I as a person, am not brave. I do not tackle things head on, as I hate confrontation. I will travel 100 miles out of my way just to avoid a conflict. I am a American woman that has no idea what is going on in the military other that what I hear on the news. I never had to let go of someone so that they could go fight for people that they did not know, people that sometimes do not appreciate or understand what they are fighting for. I have never had a sleepless night of worry because of a report that another bomb has exploded and I still haven't heard from my husband. I have never had to wait for months on end to hold the one that I loved so. I have never had to tell my children that daddy wasn't coming home tonight because he was so far away fighting for something that they aren't yet old enough to understa
It Seems Kinda Unfair And Messed Up
No offense or bad feelings towards SGB, And I'm in no way trying to start shit or anything like that with her But damn, both Thursday AND Friday, she has 13 or 14 HH's in a row during ALL the prime hours. And it made me sad. What about that person who's birthday is Thursday or Friday, who finally got a HH to use as a birthday gift... to have that great loved feeling and get all those points they want on a site they are addicted to and love. I think I'd be sad, 1 day a year you get a birthday, and for 1 person to take over all the prime time online hours seems really sucky and I wish they wouldn't let people do that. I know fubar loves/needs its money to run but I wish they would limit how many HH's you can have in a row like no more then 2 or 3. I can't think of too many members who are loaded enough or want to spend their money to even buy 14 HH's two days in a row, but  to limit how many you can take in a row that would have atleast given a few other people chances to have some prime
New Stream Of Passion
Last night I managed to "acquire" a copy of the new Stream of Passion album, The Flame Within, that comes out on the 29th. It is amazing, even better than the first one (I didn't think that was possible) and yes, I'm still going to buy it. I just wanted a preview. Here's the best song IMO http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bFSBYRlYq8g Ps. For those unfamiliar with SoP, they're sort of in the same vein as Evanescence, only much much much much better.  
Ride 'em Cowboy
Your laying in bed with the woman of your dreams tied to the headboard and footboard. You use your warm fingers to open her folds, then your wet warm tongue slides across her clit. She moans softly as the sensations took over and her and her climax started to build. She pulled on her bonds, wanting to slide her fingers into your hair as her climax gets closer. She feels your hand leave the edge of her folds and slide deeply into her. She bites her bottom lip as your finger finds her g-spot and heightens her pleasure. She cries out loudly as her climax pulses from her, seeping into the bed beneath her. “I want you inside me, NOW!” she tells you, pulling on her restraints.         You untie her arms and legs and pull her on top of you. She moves so your erection is poised at her opening. She slides down, stretching to accomodate your girth. When your completely sheathed she sits up straight and arches her back, your cock sinking deeper into her. She digs her nails into your t
Strip Monopoly Anyone???
You and your girlfriend are sitting around your house drinking. She sees your stack of board games and asks if you wanted to play strip monopoly. You aren't sure how the game works so she explains, everytime you get sent to jail in order to get out you have to go down on the other player and everytime you land on the other players property you have to take off an article of clothing of their choice and if you land on free parking along with the money from the middle you get to do anything you want to the other player.   You like the sound of her rules so you agree to play, hoping you both can make it through the game. Your first turn you wind up in jail and she strips off her thong and pulls her skirt around her waist. You dip you tongue between her folds. You use your hands to spread her folds and suck her clit into your mouth, rubbing your tongue across it as you suck. You slide a finger inside of her and continue your exploration. You feel her muscles start to contract around your
A Life Of Happiness
Walking barefoot on a secluded beachAdoring the flat calm seaFor your hand I gently reachAnd we stroll contentedly.On a bench overlooking the beautiful bayWe eat fish and chips for lunchWild flowers along the clifftop swayAnd I pick you a bunch.Making plans for our life togetherLost in a world of our ownIt seems we have waited almost foreverBut at last we are alone. We don't ask much from the life we're livingJust love and devotion, passion and careDelighting in both taking and givingWorking hard on the relationship we share.Contented sighs and heavenly kissingOur path of life is clearly definedWe have found what we've been missingNow and forever you are mine.Oh I know we'll share life's tormentsWe'll have drama's too I guessBut I also know that this is the momentAnd we'll share a life of happiness.
*crazy Night @ Work*
I don't care if you think this sucks so BITE ME!  This is how the night went last night and it's more of a journal entry than a story.... so read it or don't... I could give a flyin' flip less bc I know the ONE person that wants to read it lmao.  Thanks Morgan!  You and that crazy heffa made it interesting....  ~*~Amanda~*~Another day passes... as I sit wondering and thinking how my life could, and would, be different had I made different choices.  The day... wasted in itself... spent thinking, trying to clean, cooking, arguing with a certain someone... what else is new?  My ankle gave out on me as I tried to work out... what a drag.  I begin to settle down for the night and eat dinner.  I get three phone calls back to back.  It's my mother.  Yet again, she has sucked me into a whirlwind of babysitting at work.  IVC patients... gotta love them!  I hurry to get my meal down and shower with 15 minutes to spare.  I get done and make it to work, not really looking forward to this nutty lit
So What Is Next For Me?
Let's see, my hopes for romance and love are down the toliet, my old injuries will never let me get into the Corps, I hurt my friggin hand today at work, both of my cell phones won't charge anymore, all my close friends are trying to lie to me and tell me thigns are gonna get better soon, and I am friggin starving right now. Life is pretty friggin miserable. It's my fault, I know it is. I let myself believe that there is still hope in the universe, still a chacne for love, still peopel who care about me and would actually be honest to & loyaol to me instead of playing me and using me for their own damn fucking entertainment. Life is purely friggin shitty right now. Personally, I have decied to begin fasting. I really don't have a lot of other options. I am gonna give up the booze entirely, consume only water for the next few days, and give my food to a local poor people shelter. I personally don't think I will need it anymore. I guess you could say that I pretty much am giving up on li
No More!
What I had said in the last blog, was somewhat true however in the state of mind I was in at that time things just got out of hand an I had went off like a KRAZY person... My husband isn't to blame it's all of our faults I'm now trying to get him back an the no contact lifted because with me being sick I really do need him at this point & time in my life, plus the fact that we've been together for damn near 18 years just can't throw it all alway like that. My son did start the fight that night & needless to say the DCF came out an talked with me telling me that my husband (JOHN) had every right to stand up an fight back that no parent should have to go through that, I've went an talked with the attorney today to see if it was possible to get the no contact lifted and he said yes on me only however not my son so now I'm pretty much gaining my (HUSBAND) back but losing my son. He said that he'd have to leave the home an live with someone else which will be my mother.. This really sucks a
Dominate
We often hear people in the scene talking about this Master or that Mistress, this Dom or that Domme, we hear good things and bad things, things to make our hair stand on end, things to make us laugh and things to make us cry.   Of course believing everything bad you hear, is not a good idea, as many statements come from rumours and hearsay.   It’s not only bad things we hear though, word of mouth recommendations are usually accurate, and so if someone tells you that Master X or Mistress Y is a good Dominant, then you could reasonably expect that to be close to the truth.   So what is it that makes a good Dominant – what qualities does a person need to wear such a label.  
Contest
Please help me in this contest by rating and commenting on my pic :D http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2560524&albumid=1691005&i=2587711255&idx=0   thank you all peeps :D
Be Mine Forever ....
  I guess i`m just a little bit scaredI guess i`m not as strong as i thoughtWhen i see you lying thereI worry about losing youI used to think of only meBut that was long ago Now i find it hard to concieve Life without youbaby i don`t want to be the one to face this lifeAll alone at the end of the day when the sun goes downI want you right here in my arms?foreverEvery little smile every move you makeIt`s like a dagger to my heart took my breath awayAll i ask is that you be mine forever?foreverSo think about what you`re doing hereIf you`re anything less than sincereTell me now and let yourself out the doorNo harm no foul, kill me now, save me all the painBut if you feel the way i do Stay? and let me make love to youbaby i don`t want to be the one to face this lifeAll alone at the end of the day when the sun goes downI want you right here in my arms?foreverEvery little smile every move you makeIt`s like a dagger to my heart took my breath awayAll i ask is that you be mine forever?forever
Y Do I Write Nobody Views Anyway
here i am again nothing to have to think about school over finish done for this year nothing to think about but my own just my own troubles i have now others problems seems tiny as to compare to mine own my bff is getting better she has no more problems to be concerned about soon she be running off finding a place to be dancing my problems become top thing its just too much for me to think i want things the way it was i want my nanay here she was my only friend only one to accept me the way i am i miss that from her
Come Join Kanan In The Dragon's Lair & Get A New Morph Too! ;-))
That’s right. Kanan has started a new lounge. ~~~The Dragon’s Lair~~~ Looking for new members, promoters, greeters, bouncers, and DJ’s. (Country and 70’s through 90’s music please). We need new members and we’re offering a morph to every new member who signs up made by Kanan, Master Morpher himself! Just click the dragon to enter & check it out!
Vietnam Vet Is Patriot Too
i want to take some time to thank all that serves served in military but we are very busy thanking those who are serving now in wars in middle east i want to take some time now to thank all those who served in wars in the recent past also thank those who served in the far past but most of all i want to thank those who served i mean all the serivceman who served in an unpopular war i am saying it i want to thank the vietnam vet they served and died too
R. Kelly - You Saved Me
This song really inspired me when I was going through hard times when I was trying to pass college.  God saved me and I thank Him for helping me through those times and getting me through college and helping me graduate in 2005.  And I know that God will help me get a job. "U Saved Me"I was riding in my car one dayIn the express lane rollin on the freewayAnd suddenly the phone rings then IReached down beside me then i lookOn the floor felt on the backseatSee I was drinking while I was drivingNever thinking bout what I was doingI turned around and before i knew itHere comes this truck nowDoctor said don't think he gonna make itFamily said make the funeral arrangementsUnplug the machine he's gone now Then told my wife to be strong nowThen a small voice said told meIf you promise to stop drinkingI surrendered on that dayNow for ten years i've been straightYou saved me [4x]Gave me a second chanceYou saved me [3x]You saved meNow i've been sitting in this chairWaiting on the phone to ring
Med Update -good News Sort Of
The last doctor I saw late friday checked my throat and mouth areas with a snoope probe and found no evidence that skin cancer on my neck acturally spread from those areas - my throat and mouth areas and nose are in healthy condition he reported. So it looks like the doc I am supposed to trust made the wrong speculations.  But they still want to conduct a pet scan to confirm what we already know.   When I mentioned to the doc about treating skin cancer by freezing the cells dead the got really mad and said that "this is my business and we know what is best for you"'   He wants to set up appointment for me to get briefed on radiation treatments that they feel is the best way to go.  Which is the only way they can go because the primary group I am involved with does not conduct any alternatives other then the one they claim is the best one.  
A Good Definition
Dr. Cox: Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won't they? And then they finally do, and they're happy forever. Gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y'know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line is: it's couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it's right, and they're real lucky, one of them will say something.
21rst,22nd,23rd And 24th Of May
     Many will come, few will stay. All have meaning in your life's journey. Love unconditionally, giving yourself to those you love. Continue to be true to yourself, your family and friends. Open your mind to others around you who need your acceptance and guidance.
My Greatest
YOU ARE MINE even if you married all men of this worldAnd brought a child for every one ,call you momBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if all men of this world loved youYou will love none but meBECAUSE YOU ARE MINYOU ARE MINE even if all men obey you loveliness You will obey none but meBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if you carried your flowers for another man and gave him your spring winter rain and your autumn ripeI am the spring the roses the warm winter and I am the treason autumnBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if he published the traces of your lips And his winter boasted with your breaths warmthBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if he putted his ring in your finger,Shared you dreams ,memories and your nightsBecause I am the prince of the dream I am the memory masterAnd I am the prettier moon of your nightsBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if he lightened his fingers candles and lightened his eyesOf desire ,his candles will not put out my moons and your eyes
And Then
okay so here is somthing some of you may know from conversations withe but most of you probably dont.  I am Ex-Airforce I served for 4 years from 96 to 2000. I was a crew chief on a C-130 Spectre.  if you dont know what that is its the big 4 prop thing in my pics with all the hardware stiking out the side:).  my job was general maint of the aircraft and to direct fire on targets! good times!
Destined For Greatness
the name is picasso , if u dnt likeme i could care less cuz i love me some me...im going to one of the world greatest chef one day i will make history throughout the world...now u might say thats cockyness but no only confident...
Trading Fucash For Blings Bombs/11's/credit Paying Top Dollar Send Pm/sb
Trading fucash for blings bombs/11's/credit paying top dollar send PM/SB
Please Read
Too Busy for a Friend...     One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name. Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.   It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.  That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.   On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.     No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The
A Masterpiece
God made the mountainskiss the cloudsthat we may look up beyondour own small worldand strive to reach great heights.He made the ocean wide and mightyto remind us of thegreatness of his loveand the power of his strength.He frosts the earth withdiamonds in the winterto reveal the riches thatawait us in heaven,and he awakens the earthwith a profusion of lilacs and daffodilsin the spring to show us thatwe've been giventhe gift of eternal life.He has created masterpieces,and every one of themare part of the circle of life and servesome great purpose.From the forests, to the valleys,across the dales, and even to themost distant twinkling star,and the early morning mist thatcreeps over the hills,God has blessed the earth withhis talented hand.So do you think that God could haveerred when he made you?Of course he didn't.You're perfect,exactly what God intended you to be.As the earth is reborn this spring,remember that you're one ofGod's great masterpieces,a testament to his infinitewisdom and
Do You Really Think Your Pic Is Deleted?
  It's always fun to write about research that you can actually try out for yourself.Try this: Take a photo and upload it to Facebook, then after a day or so, note what the URL to the picture is (the actual photo, not the page on which the photo resides), and then delete it. Come back a month later and see if the link works. Chances are: It will.Facebook isn't alone here. Researchers at Cambridge University (so you know this is legit, people!) have found that nearly half of the social networking sites don't immediately delete pictures when a user requests they be removed. In general, photo-centric websites like Flickr were found to be better at quickly removing deleted photos upon request.Why do "deleted" photos stick around so long? The problem relates to the way data is stored on large websites: While your personal computer only keeps one copy of a file, large-scale services like Facebook rely on what are called content delivery networks to manage data and distribution. It's a compl
To All Of Our Soldiers And Vetrains And Fallen Hero's Alike
  MEMORIAL DAY.Hither we come to scatter flowersThis thirtieth day of May,Upon our fallen heroes' gravesOn this Memorial Day;We cherish now no bitter thoughtsIn this fair land of ours,But on all fallen heroes' gravesWe come to scatter flowers.The rank and file in North and SouthBelieved their cause was just;We find upon each battle flagInscribed, "In God We Trust;"And in this sunny land of ours,Now sleeping side by side,The Union Blue and Southern GrayLie buried where they died.Since we have come to scatter flowersThis consecrated day,We can not cherish bitter thoughtsToward those who wore the "Gray;"Believing that their cause was right,Freely their blood they shed;Then, let us strew-alike-the gravesOf all our sacred dead.And those who for the Union fought,In scattering flowers to-dayOn heroes' graves, would never dreamOf passing by the gray;And heroes of the "Southern Cause,"In paying homage true,Will not forget the graves of thoseWho wore the Union Blue.Thrice welcome, then, thi
Only You Can Give The Breath Of Life
I had to say "See You Later" to my boyfriend on Saturday. He's deploying overseas, soon. For 10 months. I already miss him so much. I've cried so much in the past day. Part of me is so afraid he won't want me anymore when he comes home. I feel so alone. I'm so scared and nervous. I'm worried. I wish he didn't have to go.   This is all so scattered right now. I'm sure I'll come back and edit this later.
As We Grow
As We Grow we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probally will.  You'll have your heart broken, probally more than once, and it's HARDER every time.  You'll break hearts too, so remeber how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight with your bestfriend and maybe even falll in love with them.  You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.  You'll cry because time is passing to fast and you'll eventually lose somone close to you. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
My Head
     So the thoughts in my head dance all the time.  In a twist together all of them at one time dancing to a beat I can't control.  I use to have control.   I use to keep the shadows in the dark, but now it is all dark.  The shadows are loose to do as they please.  Does everyone see me?  Can they see the thoughts that pace back and forth?  They say I'm not suppose to feel this way.      Well, what does everyone know anyways.  I am me.  I can't change what has happened.  I can only make peace with it.  How do you make peace with pain though?  How do you accept what has happened?  How do you dance within your head without falling down?  How do you pretend that everything bad just isn't there?  It use to be easy to push it all away, but now i can't.      Why she listens to me I will never know.  Why she keeps heading in my direction I will never know.  She is the light in the corner of a dark mind.  She understands where it all comes from.  She stands tall when I can not.  She stands t
Great Memorial To Those Who Fought
On this Memorial Day weekend, we remember and honor those who have died in service to their country. Let us also pray for the families that have lost sons, daughters, and parents in Iraq and Afghanistan and for the many whose loved ones have returned with physical and emotional disabilities.
Craving The Fruit He Bares....
A finger's trace upon it's skin, the lustful feel of it's touch.. the yern for a passionate deeply seeded kiss, the feel of the tip of its tongue does.... Lightly and slowly it circles, slightly feeling the arch of his back... kneeling in front for her feeding, while feeling comfort within her throats back.... Dancing and swirling the tongue goes, a kiss, a suckle , only moans said.... soft yet aggressive strokes felt, while a hand rests the back of her head... as the pace becomes faster, as his head slowly lay back... she feels the seed that the feed fills, while her lips do not part from that... while inbedded deeply he feels, the narrow way close it's hollow... for the one feeding has been given his essense, the fruit he bare's she swallows.... passionately composed By, Sandra Hickman aka Dark Jules
What Do You Think?
Mark all that applyWould you kiss me?[ ] Hell Yea[ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] Maybe[ ] already didWould you do me?[ ] In an instant![ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] Maybe[ ] you look to sweet to fuck[ ] already didAm I attractive?[ ] Heck no[ ] hot as Hell[ ] Fine[ ] Cute[ ] Okay I think ur pretty[ ] Sexy[ ] Ugly!Do you think im a virgin?[ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] Don't knowName one thing you would like to do to me...3 things you would like to know about me?1.)2.)3.)If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?[ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] maybeWould you rather..[ ] Hook up with me[ ] Cuddle with me[ ] Date me[ ] Marry me[ ] Friends[ ] Do meWhat kind of underwear are you wearing right now?[ ] boxers[ ] whitie tighties[ ] thongs[ ] g-string[ ] granny panties[ ] boy shorts[ ] noneWhat's ur favorite position?IF YOU HAD NAUGHTY PICS WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO SHARE THEM?If you said yes leave number here ......On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..[ ] 1[ ] 2[ ] 3[ ] 4[ ] 5[ ] 6[ ] 7[ ] 8[ ] 9[ ] 10What would you want me
*power Of Apology*
Quite honestly, an "I'm sorry" isn't good enough for me.  I've heard the words "I'm sorry" and "I promise" so many times that when I hear them now, I laugh to myself thinking 'Yeah okay... you sorry @$$ MF... I'll believe that sh*t when I see it'.   You have to PROVE that you're sorry and that you deserve another chance to fix whatever it is that YOU screwed up... so here are some tips for you people who are constantly screwing up good things!!!!!!!                    ~*~Amanda~*~ An apology done right packs plenty of punch.  When an effective apology occurs, there is a great deal of satisfaction and relief.  It's like magic - transformative.  An apology gone bad, however, can add even more insult to injury and it takes more than a simple "I'm sorry" to get it right.  The next time you make amends, follow these four steps to deliver a powerful apology that can turn a painful experience into a positive one that leaves everybody feeling better. 1 - ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR ERROR!  Get specif
Auction
I have entered another auction. If you would like to own me. Please come bid and rate the pic. I am looking for vip or bling pack bids. But anything will do.    
Ain't Nobody Bad Like You!!!!
When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on keep remembering,aint nobody bad like you!
Loss Of Interwebz
Hi there lovely fu folks. just so you all know i may loose my internet connection for about a week starting from tomorrow, so hopefully i'll be back soon.   hugs to my friends and family
Do We Remember?
A long time ago I got blown up. shot down and stabed (is that one or two b's) I'm 58. old and ugly.  I drink to much and I love my cigars. Almost forgot...shot in my right leg. I see this day as many people as a fun day...a fuckin holiday? This day should not be a day of car sales or frig sales. It should be a day of ...for the best of us...to remember and maybe try not to..our loved one...the one we did not know or love...the one who did what all you ass's could not do!
Life Is Life I Guess
5-21-2009Sorry just felt like talking. Nothing much has been going on.  I did watch "My Bloody Valentine 3D not in 3D though but 2D version lol and was talking to someone and realize it was 5 years ago today that we buried Jayme.  I don't know how often this happens but this year everything fell into place on the exact dates and days. But I will get through it as I always do. I decided to make it a 4 day  weekend. I will try to watch some movies and get things done. I think on Friday I will do the laundry and dusting and vacuuming. Then Saturday I will do the ironing because there are slacks I haven't worn in a while and I need to wash them and iron them and that is about 6 pairs besides what I wear lol I think maybe Sunday I will go to the movies and see Terminator: Salvation. Then Monday go grocery/toiletries shopping. Then it will be back to work on Tuesday.Clif just called me telling me he had to talk with me before he had a nervous breakdown and killed someone. He said Dad I have
Hi
I'm a old guy that got shot and killed and shot down by bad guys My wife left me, my kids left me and the Mrines Corps said...oops, I did what I did best...if you don't  like it?  Call mea Marine!
Poem
TRUE LOVE   What the fuck you gunna do with your life When every time you move your stabed with a knife   All you got is your heart and one breath But you stop breathing and your heart breaks every time you take a step   You think your going in the right direction But you always headed the wrong way Every single hour of every single day So you look to god who never answers No matter how much you pray   Then a hand comes out of nowhere To show you the way to brighter days Who is this person you wonder You look up and she smiles from above   As sweet as sugar,As beautiful as an angel ITS YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE
Destined To Be Alone.
I think I am just tired of trying.  Even when I am not looking, and someone "finds" me, it just isn't meant to be.  I think I have heard all the excuses, and heard every possible lie.  I think any game that could be played has been played and I've lost each time. Too often I hear you are too nice for me.. or too good for me.  I've lost out so many times because someone wants what they admit is bad for them. I'm not perfect.  I'm far from perfect.  I'm average looking at best.  Getting  older.  I carry a lot of baggage.  It's taken a lot to get beyond the abuse, to let me be close to someone. Not sure I believe in love anymore, at least not for me.  I don't think I ever want to hear the words again. Is it punishment for divorcing?  For walking away from a commitment?  I think I had every reason to do it... but maybe not. Maybe my failure there has left me destined to be alone.
Something New And Wonderful
Walking into the bedroom, she was positioned exactly as directed. I saw her naked on the bed, on her knees and elbows in the soft glow of candle light. Her back was arched, lifting her ass high in the air, as if waving an invitation. Her head was down, her hair falling around her head and shielding her eyes.Silently approaching her, I reached out and rubbed my hand down her sides, slowly petting her. Momentarily startled, she involuntarily twitched before relaxing and leaning into my touch. In the candle light, I noticed her thighs were slick with her excitement."Are you ready pet?" I asked her"Yes Sir, please..." she panted, both excited and nervous.Picking up the blindfold from the bedside table I gently lowered it over her eyes, plunging her into darkness and heightening her sense of touch. Moving behind her, I noticed that her pussy lips were open and her juices were running down her thighs."Aww, does the little slut want to be played with and fucked?" I asked her."Yes, please..."
A Personal Side To Memorial Day
  21 March 1953 Korea Hello Folks    Will start this while we are waiting for an inspection. Had to lay all our clothes out for a clothing shakedown. Guess they want to find out how much stuff we left behind in the other area......   This is the first day of spring and it's really nice out this morning. Boy a day like today really gives a guy the spring fever. Makes him want to lay out in the sun and just do nothing. Well I guess I'll sign off for now so I can mail this yet this morning Your Son April 1, 1953 USA Son   Well I hardly know how to write this letter as we got the message that you were missing in action on March 22, then the special delivery said you were on patrol duty and reported missing. We are all so broken hearted but hoping and praying that you are still ok. Everybody is wishing and praying with us. We have had so much company and have so many letters a
Memorial Day .. Let's Not Forget Those Who Died For Our Freedom
This Is A Foreign Look At Our President
   This is a foreign look at our president.   If al-Qaeda, the Taliban and the rest of the Looney Tunes brigade want to kick America to death, they had better move in quickly and grab a piece of the action before Barack Obama finishes the job himself. Never in the history of the United States has a president worked so actively against the interests of his own people - not even Jimmy Carter. Obama's problem is that he does not know who the enemy is. To him, the enemy does not squat in caves in Waziristan, clutching automatic weapons and reciting the more militant verses from the Koran: instead, it sits around at tea parties in Kentucky quoting from the US Constitution. Obama is not at war with terrorists, but with his Republican fellow citizens. He has never abandoned the campaign trail. That is why he opened Pandora's Box by publishing the Justice Department's legal opinions on waterboarding and other hardline interrog
David R. Ray
David Robert "Bobby" Ray (February 14, 1945 to March 19, 1969) David R. Ray was awarded the Medal of Honor posthumously. In addition to the Medal of Honor he was awarded the Purple Heart Medal for wounds received in action, as well as the Combat Action Ribbon, National Defense Medal, Vietnam Service Medal (with star) and the Republic of Vietnam Campaign Medal. His father was presented the Medal of Honor in a White House ceremony. Citation:For conspicuous gallantry and intrepidity at the risk of his life above and beyond the call of duty while serving as a corpsman with Battery D, 2d Battalion, 11th Marines, 1st Marine Division, at Phu Loc 6, near An Hoa, Quang Nam Province, in the Republic of Vietnam, on 19 March 1969. During the early morning hours, an estimated battalion-sized enemy force launched a determined assault against the Battery's position, and succeeded in effecting a penetration of the barbed-wire perimeter. The initial burst of enemy fire caused numerous casualties amo
First Thoughts
So weird to have a place to be social in. Well, we all live in social places but rarely participate in them. We wander to the bright glow of others attention like the old moth to the flame. So many desperate things going on today, people losing jobs, losing houses. Damn. Far as I figure If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad...  
Lacuna Coil - Spellbound
  Lacuna CoilSpellbound VerseBurning hereIn my roomFeeling badThe walls are moving closerSilencing, the darkness meLeads me toThe ending of another dayA mourn dayChorusTell me who you areI am spellboundYou cannot have this control on meEverywhere I goI am spellboundI will break the spell you put on meVerseVelvet treesGlowing candlesSilent whispersOf voices inside of my headThe night that callsIt waits for meLeads me toThe ending of another dayA mourn dayChorusTell me who you areI am spellboundYou cannot have this control on meEverywhere I goI am spellboundI will break this spell you put on meBreak the spell.(Guitar solo)ChorusTell me who you areI am spellboundYou cannot have this control on meEverywhere I goI am spellboundI will break this spell you put on meEverywhere I go, I am spellbound (x3)I will break the spell you put on me
Finally!
Finally i have found my happy ending i never really thought i would find someone as special and loving as i have found in my future husband.He treats me the way a man should treat woman and loves me with all his heart even with his flaws i still have no problem finding a reason to smile when im with him.He is my love and my life i know now that good guys do exist
The Real Story Of Sleeping Beauty
Sleeping Beauty: A fairy tale of rape and cannibalism. A beautiful tale in which they all live happily ever after. Or do they? In 1697, a French author named Charles Perrault published a classic book titled Tales of Times Passed. Today the book is better known as Mother Goose Tales. Seven of its eight tales have become classics for children. I'm sure that you know some of these: "The Sleeping Beauty in the Wood" (Sleeping Beauty), "Little Red Riding Hood", "Blue Beard", "The Master Cat: or Puss in Boots", "Diamonds and Toads", and "Cinderella". Perrault, however, did not write any of these stories. They were all re-workings of stories passed from one generation to the next. These stories were actually very cruel and downright nasty in their original form. Perrault simply cleaned them up and let everyone live happily ever after. The earliest known written version of Sleeping Beauty was actually published 61 years earlier by an Italian named Giambattista Basile. Here is how the
All Or Nothing...
I'm treading water Sinking slow under this weight Drag me deeper but stay close Stay there with your head down You are so precious to me now Broken, bruised and shattered See me here in pain Bring me the comfort of your thorns Its not enough, I need more Show me I can bleed and smile You know I can't resist Slide your claws into my flesh Hold me tight and keep digging Bring me to the surface Bury me neck deep in the dirt Deliver pain and pleasure as one Give me all or nothing...
Realization
Sometimes it takes hearing a song to realize how you really feel.Eleven years is a long time to walk away from. After so long you forget where one person begins and the other ends. But unfortunately sometimes you begin to take things for granted and soon even each other. It doesn't mean you don't love each other just things change and people change.In the end tho I have found walking away isn't always a bad thing. Sometimes it's kinder than trying to make something work that never will again. Like the old cliche " If you love something let it go and if its meant to be it will come back " but there is one I like much better..." If you truely love someone you want to see them happy...even if it isn't with you "There are days where I think where and when did it all go wrong, but then I remember where I am and remember the man in my life now who I love more than my life and I smile...maybe everything does happen for a reason.This song in a way says it all about how I feel about my past and
My Shadow
This was written by one of my favorite people in the whole wold..let me know your thoughtsMy Shadowall my words go unspoken but my thoughts you hear,i sit alone in my darken room.only light... is my glowing candlehere i sit staring into the flame but its you i see i cant get you out of my mindBut all the words i bleed out seem to slip away or is forgottentime after time my eyes have looked upon you with love.i hold you above the shadowsabove my dark and ruined heart and yet i find peace in your eyes but i cant find peace in my soulStill I wish I could find a way to say to you all that is locked awayI never thought love could be real and here i sit lost in the thought of being in love.i see no lies in you i see no hate from youhow can touch something so clean when im so dirtysomething so pure and full of lifei can only serve you from the shadows i will not bare my head in the lightor let you see my suffering...i will walk thru hell to save you from the horrorsof this world and suffer th
For Someoen Special To Me
He sees me Sees the truth, through the laughter, through the facade.sees the girl, the woman, the mother, the lover, and the friend.Sees something most never will A woman free from expectations, judgments.Comfortable in her own skin, trusting, mind and heart open to whatever life has in store You see me For who I am and who I can become I am your student...you have taught me so much, made me believe in myself and that life is what you make of it. Taught me to follow my heart and take a chance. I have learned to trust myself and be true to myself. Finding someone in life who truely understands and gets you regardless of friend or lover is a rare and priceless gift in life. Never had I thought it possible till you.  
From My Cali Friend
Look at your lovely red hair like the fire on the sunit say to me a friend that lastscaring,loving sometimes funa girl who can get it on They used to call you carrot topor ginger pop,a pretty girl with a flaming mop Freckle face and pale,it never failsyour alway a sinner with the angel wings bring sunshine in red the color of yr hair and the blood that seeps in you. Her name is Cheri the Chocolate queen  
Learning Experience
This blog was not written by me, but for em. The man who wrote this was and is very dear to me, but seems to be lost to me now. I am posting this because it meant the world to me. Even if he is gone from my life forever, which I sincerly hope isn't the case. This will always be a constant remindr of a very special time in my lif and a most amazing man. My Cheri time ticks by and still i think of you, been such a long time since i've had another person on my mind for what seems like all day and night you even see me in my dreams. I have made so so many bad decisions as of late, but the decision to let the universe unfold as it should when it comes to you i beleive to be my best decision to date. how quickly i've begun to develope some very strong feelings for you. yes some of you reading this might think i'm foolish or possibly totally insane, well i just don't care what these nerdowells say. i have found something in my life that is truly special and i refuse to let it go. do any of
Bowl Of Cherries
if you ever doubt, just ask me and ill tell you, i love you, i doand id do anything for you, and i want for you to konwyou mean everything to me and once more i love you just because of who you are and what you are to meyoure all that and a great big bowl of cherriesbaby, youre just what i need sitting by myself thoughts of you run through my headwhen im lying here in bed, i dream of youand i could never let you go, because i love you soi just thought that you should know how i feel and once more i love you just because of who you are and what you are to meyoure all that and a great big bowl of cherriesbaby, youre just what i need you make me smile, you make me laughand i always wonder whats nextand i could never do without you now and once more i love you just because of who you are and what you are to meyoure all that and a great big bowl of cherriesbaby, youre just what i need youre what i needand i love you just because of who you are and what you are to meyoure all that and a
5-22-09
Jon~ I promise to give you the best of myself and to ask of you no more than you can give. I promise to respect you as your own person and to realize that your interests, desires and needs are no less important than my own. I promise to share with you my time and my attention and to bring joy, strength and adventure to our relationship. I promise to keep myself open to you, to let you see thru the window of my world into my innermost fears and feelings, secrets and dreams. I promise to grow along with you, to be willing to face changes in order to keep our relationship alive and exciting. I promise to love you in good times and bad, with all I have to give and all I feel inside in the only way I know how.  Completely and forever. These are my vows to you Jon.  I love you now and forever! Love always~ME
25th May 2009
Leave your judgments behind.
Memories
I called my 2 brothers, and my sister in Michigan today, I live in Texas now, to hear how they are doing with themselves, and thier families, and wish them a happy memorial day.It made me think about this day, Memorial Day,and the happiness I feel is about the freedom I have from the soldiers, and my Dad was a soldier in the Korean War, that fought so hard for us for. God I thank them so very much for thier honor to our country, and my Dad too. He pasted away 8 months before I moved to Texas, and I have his military flag, in a case hanging over my computer desk, with a picture of him under it. I also have a tattoo on my right arm I had done in his honor.It will be my primary picture for a couple days so you can see it.I thank all of our men, and women that have protected our country, and my Dad, I love you, and I miss you, Pete
To The Solders Who Lay To Rest
3pm moment of silence
Back Pain Sucks!!!
Been haveing back problems since 1989. Finnaly getting something done about it! June 1st I go in for corrective surgery on my lovely hurniated disc! Kinda nervouse, but yet very excited to being bulge free! I know I'll still have pain, hopefully tollerable. Sure will be nice when I can do thing I haven't been able to do!
Call To Me
I hear a stranger call to me, feel his hands upon me...no face, no name. He knows my body. Can read every thought. How did you find me? I whisper..."you called me", he replies. "I heard your cries" "your longing" "I'll be your Master." He calls to me, my soul rocks with anticipation. I'm at his fingertips, my skin responding with chills of hunger. I'll be yours, whatever you desire, if only in my dreams. If you....call to me.  
*sighs*
well i guess its interesting in life. i sit everyday in pain. Yea i go out do things try to keep my mind off it but in the end...its always in my head. Ive come to the realization that i hate who and what i was in life. I caused a lot of people pain...including someoen really important. I look back and wonder why...why did i live like that. Its because i was scared...scared of life itself...i wish i could go back and change things but i cant and i know this. but i cant even make em better either. I hate the feeling i feel everyday. I hate the pain i feel eveery day. I live life opposite of what everyone believes and thinks you should. society says you have to act and talk a certain way...but why...cause its normal for some people...normal is only what a person believes is normal. I sit andwatch the world go by and shake my head. I see so many people doing things and never understanding what they have. I was one ofthem. I took for granted the thigns i did have and wish i never did. Now
Love Eternal (original By Kitty)
There is no greater mystery known to this world..Can there truly be Love? I have seen many broken souls..too many lives taken..too much pain and sorrow for the dawn is painted red with the tears of blood she cried for him. I would stay awake wondering if the darkness shed upon these damned souls was really all in vein.  As i began to give up my search down the torurous path of a lovers journey a light surrounded me..I saw his dazeling eyes through all the pain and suffering..and i know this is where i was meant to be..I hold onto the image of your face forever..I now see through the bloodshed..see through all evil that could stop me...nothing could stand in my way..I wait for the day our souls will come together fitting as perfect as a puzzle just begging to be put back together to reveal the beauty of the image within. You are my love, My light, My hope. Never fading..Love eternal
Kinky Party~
The invitation read as follows."You are cordially invited to a Kinky Halloween Party.You are allowed to bring 1 guest.The rules are everyone must wear a costume, skin allowed, mask required. Costume contest will have rewards.The password is Transylvania.Enjoy,Your Host and Hostess"The invitation was sent to members of The Dark Horse, a BDSM club that Gloria was a member of.She was what the lifestylers she knew liked to call a "Switch".She never liked this term, but her club liked to have everyone categorized, so she accepted it.No one would have ever guessed that her "profession" was a psychiatrist. Her thoughts that week sidetracked to what costume she was going to wear and what to bring with her.The big party was only a week away.The day before Gloria had the perfect outfit planned out that she was going to wear.It was a pair of brown suede chaps and a matching brown suede short vest.The vest was just the right fit so that it covered her bosom but gave her nice cleavage that she knew
Tickling Lemur
Poee Disorganizational Matrix
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Why Are We Here?
To Live each day with purpose. Focus on what's really important. Value the friendship of others. Advocate for what you know is right. Keep your dreams alive. Seize every opportunity to be creative. Be grateful for gifts received. Never give up hope. Cherish each moment....
My Own Swan
no time for me anymore....they'll see when i wash up on shore....i'll die until i live...i didnt want that string to give...they left it up to me....one day they'll see....but instead of taking my own life...i'll put away this knife...i'll show them i dont need them.....i'll make my life a worthy gem....they all said i was worthless....without their help i'll clean up the mess...one day they'll notice i'm gone.....but don't look for my swan song....look for the life gone wrong turned into something that was meant to be....and there, you'll find me...so to all that dont think i'll be my own swan....dont look for me because i'll be gone
My Room And My Lady
I couldn’t dream my ladythat such a girl would visit my roommy room which doesn’t deserve to bea room of some twentieth centuryit’s a room of a cave manbut you were a prophet in the home of unbeliefyou entered it and brought the lightyou erased its walls paintings with your handit is a dark caveand you are a preacher prophetyou deleted all old lawsto make it the best citythat you are my lady the first visitorthe first explorerthen you became the queenand here it is my queen that old same roomas you left itno hand ever touched itI don’t know whyMaybe because I didn’t love anyone elseOr because I forgot what is loveThat because love was with you and for youAnd will not be but you- - - - - - - -  - - - - - -  - -W.B: FAR7AN
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The Letter
My Dear, As I set my eyes upon you I instantly know that it is you that I have always dreamed of. Beauty that proves you are descended from the Gods, for only they could come close to rivaling your beauty, and when you smile there is no comparison, because time stands still, and I am captivated in your heavenly visage. As you start to speak all the world seems to vanish and my ears are flooded with the most heavenly sound, more beautiful than a choir of angels. For no sound on earth could ever match your angelic voice. When I feel your touch time stops and I am lost in the ecstasy of your company, for you are all I want and all I need to make my life complete, I exist for naught but to serve you and make you happy. When our minds connect, I feel our souls touch, and I become one with you as we become whole, losing our individuality and becoming one together, complete, not two separate souls but an entirely new entity to take its place in the universe. As we part my w
Anyone Adopted Knows This Feeling
Once there were two women Who never knew each other One you do not remember The other you call mother   Two different lives Shaped to make yours one Once became your guiding star, the other became your sun   Ther first gave you life, and the second taught you to live it And the first gave you a need for love and the second was there to give it   One gave you a nationality the other gave you a name One gave you the seeds of talent The other gave you aim   one gave you emotions the other calmed your fears One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears  
Update On My Bash!
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While Your Lips Are Still Red
sweet little words made for silence not talk young heart for love not heartache dark hair for catching the wind not to veil the sight of a cold world kiss while your lips are still red while he's still silent rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled hold another hand while the hand's still without a tool drown into eyes while they're still blind love while the night still hides the withering dawn first day of love never comes back a passionate hour's never a wasted one the violin, the poet's hand, every thawing heart plays your theme with care kiss while your lips are still red while he's still silent rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled hold another hand while the hand's still without a tool drown into eyes while they're still blind love while the night still hides the withering dawn
Wallmart Train Wreck Diaster
i went outside today to take my son to the airport...and so since i was already outside i decided to stop by the evil corrupt anti-bleeding heart liberal...yes wallmart...as i am running low on hair dye and shot gun shells. i guess it was at that moment that it occurred to me that it is once again that time of year when every naughty little blond grew up in Roseville daddy is a ear nose and throat dr. or a senator...and her pussy tastes like money and pineapple crush, and she looks like seventeen but she is really twenty two and on her third year as a aspiring sac state whore but she goes to sierra and is taking three units and wants to be a model, and drives a lexus she got from her dad for graduating high school and so anyway i have seen these chemical peal dipped in bullshit girls for years now, and normally i see them at the mall cause i am there to buy my one pair of year of like new balance cause even guys that wear docs everyday have to have a pair of normal guy sneakers that
So, There's This Girl...
...and she's kinda amazing...I take that back, she's UN FUCKING BELIEVABLE. I'm totally smitten. She's 90% of the reason I get out of bed in the mornings...the other 10% being I have to pee. :) She balances work, school, and another important area of life I really can't discuss, seeing as how they look down on the "L Word"...She's only 19, but she is doing so great in life. She makes me want to be a better person...Everything I do, I do for her...I carry her in my soul, in my blood, in my thoughts...And the thought of her carries me through my day...*sigh* She's fucking great...She says snails have antlers! lol :D I could spend the rest of my life with her and never look back. I couldn't if I wanted to because when I'm with her, I DON'T SEE anyone ELSE...  
Remembering
I feel as if I should write something for today. But with the day almost over, my mind is still blank..yet my heart is full. I'm a simple person and I think I could be described in a few words..wife, mother, friend..and a patriette ( is that a word? if not it is now) So how can i possibly describe to anyone what Memorial Day means to me? Where do i even begin? How do you remember and pay tribute to those who believed in something so much that they were willing to lay down their lives for it? That's too big for me to wrap my brain around. But I can tell you from my bubble what i witness and what I know. I have seen tens of thousands soldiers leave for overseas. Most times I'm the last person they pass by before getting on the plane. I'm the very last smile, hand shake, be safe or touch they get..because the harsh reality is they won't all come home..Even though the USO motto is "Until They All Come Home"..even the USO can't make that happen. So how do I put that into words? Knowing I'm
Lets Talk About???????
I am at aloss for words so if anyone has a subject they want an opinoin on let me know. Be warned though you may not neccissarily like what I what I say. Nothing personal if you are offended.
0001. Release
  Release   I came to wake up beside your sleepy form, After the love we made, After the sweet caresses of your skin, After the kisses that we shared… We walked into the bedroom together, We never left. We let our bodies mesh together as one, We let ourselves go free. I gave it all to you, I gave you all I could, I gave this all to you, With no questions asked. You opened your heart to me, You opened your arms to hold me, You stared into my eyes without hesitation, I stared into your eyes without apprehension. I laid you down gently, I took your clothes off—slowly, Sensually, I took my time with you, To make you feel complete. When your clothes were off, and you were comfortable with your nakedness, I became more than just a man, I became a part of you, and you became and extension of me, When I decided to explore you, you let me in. I took one of your long legs, caressed them with kisses, And I did the same to the other. You shuddered with delight, As I made my d
0002. Uninhibited
Uninhibited…  I walked in from a hard day to find you waiting on me You were there and I couldn't hold back My restraint was gone I slammed the door closed Locked it Turned off my phone Shut the windows And I looked into your eyes And you knew what was next I picked you up and you straddled my waist I kissed you deeply So deeply that your tongue fought me I was unrelenting You were beautiful to me I had to have you Immediately I set you down after a time I pushed you up against the wall I ripped your blouse off Took off your skirt to reveal your legs I heard you moan when this went on I then Immediately removed your black lace thong And I plowed into your pubes face first I wanted to taste you in the worst way You spread your legs to let me in As your clit and I was becoming reintroduced You held my head there for an eternity I licked you over and over You hiked one leg over my shoulder As I continued to administer this tongue laced treatment I set you down after a time and ma
A Simple Thing Or Is It?
A Simple thing…or is it? I have often wondered I have often dreamed I have often conjured What would it be like? I have been curious I have been wondering I have been thoughtful What would it be like? It drives me to ask It drives me to let it linger in my mind It drove me to satisfy my curiosity… What would it be like? I have wanted to see… I have wanted to take a moment… I had to decide what it would take to ask What would it be like? What would it be like to feel you close What would it be like to feel your breath? What would it be like to feel your embrace? What would it be like to feel your kiss? What would I be like? What would you be like afterward? What would be like between us? What would it be like? The forbidden, the taboo… The purgatory is like Pandora’s box, It’s dangerous if opened, But—What would it be like?
Blame (longest Song I Have Ever Written.)
Find my feelings found you out it's to late you ripped them out. Made me suffer felt the pain how is it that I get blamed? You took from me all I had the love I felt hurt so bad. I can't pretend that it's okay my soul's aflame it burned away. The screams are silent but filled with hate I guess that this is our fate. Find these feelings found you out it's to late they've been ripped out. I'll not suffer all this pain it's your turn now to feel the blame. All your use it fades away my worlds consumed by endless grey. All this hate lets me see red your blood spills out and you are dead. Your pain mounts up it's feeling worse I feel like I am fucking cursed. Yet you can't see the reason why even in your own demise. I'm tired of all the shit demeaning words and getting hit. You mock me saying we need to split well fuck it then this is it. Tear you open with my mind still I can't see you inside. I see why the love has died it was like you never tried. Found the feelings pushed them out it'
What Should I Do?
Wht should i do. im stil n love with my x. he with sum one else. but he stil has feelings 4 me n my son. ive tried bein friends with him. but i stil find myself wantn him. give me ur thoughts. PM me.
If You Have A Heart Please Pass This On
My name is Chris I am three, My eyes are swollen I cannot see, I must be stupid I must be bad,What else could have made My daddy so mad?I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly, Then maybe my mommy Would still want to hug me.I cant do a wrong I cant speak at all Or else im locked up All day long.When im awake im all alone The house is dark My folks aren't homeWhen my mommy does come home I'll try and be nice, So maybe ill just get One whipping tonight.I just heard a car My daddy is back From Charlies barI hear him curse My name is called I press myself Against the wall I try to hide From his evil eyesIm so afraid now I'm starting to cry He finds me weeping Calls me ugly words,He says its my fault He suffers at work He slaps and hits me And yells at me more,I finally get free And run to the door Hes already locked it And I start to bawl,He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall I fall to the floor With my bones nearly broken,And my daddy continues With more bad words spoken, 'Im
Do U Think The Same Way
As I sit here all alone at night I tend 2 wonder about things. After going through everything that we went through so far and never said sorry, would we be how we are now? Maybe if we said sorry and just left it at that would it still be the same? I wonder these things sometimes and I get alot of thoughts that go through my head. But in the end all I have is the happiness of knowing that we are back where we were and working together 2 make things right. U are the kind of person that I want to wake up to every morning and see ur face. I want to laugh with u and hope that u can laugh with me. When i see that u are smiling it makes me smile to, and I know that at some point u will be able to be open and find security when u look into my eyes. I want u to be open and feel safe with me knowing that I feel the same about u. I want to be in ur arms every night and feel safe with u. U are the one that I have always dreamed about and wanted in my life, the one that I know i can be happy with a
Back Home
Made safe back home after 9 hours on the road. Where did I go you ask...well to visit a friend. Is he worth it, I'd like to think so.. Some people have issues with me visiting him. My opinion is that we are adults and if you don't like it tough beans. Am I going back? most definately! Love ya...you know who you are.
I Hate Those Manic Times In Life.
I have this personality that is a blessing and a curse. No Im not bi-polar..I asked my doctor and went to a few to be sure.Im just highly emotional I guess you would say.I have what you call bad luck.People around me make comments like "with your luck" and "Gosh you have bad luck" that makes me feel bad. I am a blessed person don't get me wrong.Im well taken care of and have great family and boyfriend but bad things happen to me alot.Im accident prone.I hate it. Lately my luck has gotten worse.Ive had trial after trial lately and get quite down.But Im not the kind of person to stay down long.I usually get really angry or I cry it out and then Im fine and look forward to  bettering whatever problem it is. I feel everything deeply.When Im hurt inside it takes me over completely and I wont sleep.When something happens to someone I love...well I take their burden on myself.I can't help it.I wish I wasn't that way but I am.I am a worry wort.Dont ask why Im writing this random blog..well I k
My World Upside Down...... The World Of Mine Is On Fire....
It's times like these that seem to hurt the most.... For better or for worse nothing can heal a heart that is in dire need of saving....Is there anything left to salvage from this heart of mine? Or is all that matters just bleak with no hope of salvation in sight? A journey I must walk alone.... For there is no savior for me but I myself.... Is there anything left of who I am at this road I've come to in my life? Or is there nothing but a pit of emptyness and nothing more to be found insight. Am I forever lost and nothing more?  Only time will tell...... for I feel I am becoming more world-weary and cynical than ever before.
Just Not Here
is it possible 2 b lonely in a house full of ppl who love u? when u want something and cant have it sadness overwhelms all emotion and tears take their place we dont talk like we used to i miss the laughing till my abs ache i want to smile so hard my cheeks r sore i long to feel your caress i yearn to smell the honest scent of love a reminder of how much you really adore me i want to feel the fire inside the one that only love can extinguish when actions speak louder than words scream out i love you without whispering a sound i am missing you so very much and u are so damn close, just not here      
Poetry
THE OPENING OF THE TRUNK (BY JIM MORRISO) -Moment of inner freedom when the mind is opened & the infinite universe revealed & the soul is left to w ander dazed& confus,d searchung here & there for teachers friends. tis what happens when i pen my mind tospiritual meditations to ealive my stres in my life
The Soothsayers Promise
this tuesday what does the soothsayer say good times are here to stay, life changes for the best that i am in for a time of my life that heaven waits for me, heavenly will be my way i know he makes me happy i know the truth of heaven and hell i live them each moment, here on earth but then what the hell i will take his word even if - a few moments of happiness is all that it is worth...
People Crack Me The Hell Up!!
hmm so here is a thought.....if you can't deal with what someone gives you then go cry and pout on your own. I laugh at people who think they can say what they want then run away like a scared little girl when you fight back haha! I don't care what you think of me or what you think I am doing. My life is my life and if you don't like it go fuck yourself lmfao! Yeah that is all I have to say hehe
Vitcoria Is Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ATTENTION TWLIGHT FAN's MY SISTER VICTORIA IS BACK AND READY FOR SOME LOVE!!!!!!!!! PLEASE R/F/ADD/ AND SOME BLINGS!!!!!!! SHE IS THE BEST SISTER THAT I CAN EVER ASK FOR !!!!!!
Hamster Care
After buying her kids a pet hamster, after they PROMISED they would take care of it, Mom, as usual, ended up with the responsibility. One evening, exasperated, she asked them, "How many times do you think that hamster would have died if I hadn't looked after it?" After a moment, her youngest son replied quizzically, "Once?"
Why Is It?
  Spread the Stupidity Only in America ......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.
Have I Told You
Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some newly discovered species of flower? Have I ever told you that I
Fu Owned Read It Understand It
Ok i find it funny when people bitch piss and moan about who owns who and who doesn't i make it very clear no matter who owns who if your in a relationship with someone that is bought from you it does not mean your other half wants there new owner sure some are hot and some clame that there owner is fake and you may or may not notice that there owner look's a hell of alot like there EX and that may or may not bother you but it's just a game here on fu world you are all special in your own way and no one but you can ever own the person you are
Wtf California!
PDT SAN FRANCISCO -- BULLETIN: The California Supreme Court upheld Prop. 8 by a 6-1 vote but ruled that the same sex marriages performed last year can stand. What the hell kind of sense does this make?! So, if you were previously married, it's okay, but if you're not sucks to be you?! That makes about as much sense as wiping your ass then taking a shit!
Claimed
Category: Writing and Poetry The second I laid eyes on you, standing by the baggage claim. I knew all the bad relationships and hurt were through. I could hardly breathe as i stood next to you. Knowing that one day I’ll be standing next to you as your husband and you my wife. I cherish you now like I always have. Loving you more with each passing day. I'm leaving you my heart; I know it's in good hands. Maybe I seemed emotionless when we said goodbye. I left my heart and my feelings behind so I wouldn't cry. I was sad and heartbroken to leave you, but mostly empty. Empty I am without you.
I Think She Loves Me!
was standing in the old pool hall. She was sitting there on a bar stool, pretty and tall. I turned and whispered in her ear. She jumped up and hit me with a left hook that upset my beer. She caught me with a right that dropped me to my knees. Then she kicked be in the stomach and stomped on my head, until I bled. All of my old buddies made a quick exit into the hall. Then she pulled out her cell phone and made one quick call. Oh! I think she loves me! Cause she called an ambulance, before she called the law!
The Dark Mask Of A Secret Love
The angel of death took her hand, A secret love… tears of sorrow on the checks of a broken man. A dark haired beauty, unsurpassed, a faded rose from a time long past, haunting memories that will forever last. Years have come and years have past, but love remains even though… he still wears the secret mask. The faded rose he holds in his hand, memories of her, he will never abandon. As long as he holds the faded rose, his love lives and grows. This man in forever sorrow, he awaits the hand of the angel of death. For he shall love her until he takes his last breath.
Hey You Hey You
 know I can't see you But I'm close enough to know That after I whispered those two words to you so softly into your ear Letting you know they were only yours to hear That I felt when your heart leapt for joy And I could see you smile Without even catching a glimpse of your face. So close yet so far away from me. Show yourself Let me see be and hold your heart...please I just- Why would-why should you hide Away from me...or is it me... Is this how far you want me to go- get this close-too close-close enough-so close to One four letter word Love It's real And I know you're afraid Of what if I'm the one for you And somehow someway someday I decide to take my love away What if you get hurt What if you hurt me But what this The reason why I know it's true Is found in the split silence Once I say Hey you
The Truth Excuse Me, Love?
 haven't had a real talk with you in a while. Now love, you are the most precious thing to me. You take my heart for a ride just by saying your name. Love, recently I haven't been able to stay honest with you. Well, not whole heartedly anyway. I do adore you above all else I mean, You can tell in everything I do. I smile for no particular reason at all I just, You make me so damn happy love. I almost feel like I owe you something. Your name holds power like you won''t believe. It seems like you surpass your own greatness, With each breath we take together. I can't get enough. That is until, You made a mistake. Love, I know you're not perfect, I mean, we've messed up a few times before, Together though. This time love, I just can't forgive you and I want to so bad, But at the same time I want to hurt you, In return for the everlasting pain you've created. How can you be love? If you were, you would never cause we this, This painful, deep, relentless torment that just won't stop, Won't g
The Ramblings Of A Manic Depressive
The Ramblings of a Manic Depressive               Suicidal thoughts come and go. It’s always the same. Always the friend. Always the “hook up”. Never loved. So tired. Should this be the way it is? Is this all I’m here for? What is the meaning of life? Does life even HAVE a meaning? I don’t really want to go on. I’m so tired of being alone. Alone. Lonely. I laugh so I don’t cry. I make you laugh to hide how I feel. You don’t know. No one does. It won’t be long. The world closes in on me. Freedom is crushing me. So tired. So alone. Never my turn. Never me. Confined to my own mind. Rejected by society. I give in. I give up. Should I do it? Will anyone care? What’s stopping me? Life….it goes on for at least one more day. I’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Confused
As a tear falls in the palm of your hand, I smile in the sadness... All the pain, Is going away. I know you are here, I know I don't have anything to fear So why am I crying? I don't know. You hold my hand, I squeeze it tight you just softly smile and whisper three words. I Love You
My Life So Far
Well let me start off with from now on in my life I am going to be doing background checks on any and all women that come into my life.  I only say this because there was this Gal that I thought was my friend when all my family and other friends was telling me she was TROUBLE.... Well I should have listened you see she played me as a fool and offered me all kinds of stuff in favor of doing shit for her!  Well when she wanted her house to burn so she could collect the insurance money on it she made an offer that sounded way to good but always kept her promises to me so I thought what the hell why not and went along with her plan!  Only to End up in Jail and countless court dates and what not so my life is shitty right now and I hope that it gets better!
What Is Love, Honestly?
I've come to finally realize that no matter what you will always have people come in and out of your life.  A lot of times for reasons unknown, as to why a person is no longer in your life or as to why this person was brought into your life.  I've come to see that true friends won't walk out on you.  They will stand by you through thick and thin, never turning their back on you, accept you for who you are, not cut you up, make a mockery of you, but be there for you through your worst and best times, help you make decisions, be a confident, be a shoulder to cry on, be there to pick up the pieces of a shattered heart, just be a person that no matter how good or bad life is treating you, will stick through it right with you.Kind of like love...Love is such a beautiful thing.  I forgot what it was like to feel love, actually I think I became extremely bitter to love after a failed marriage.  How do you even describe love.  It's so hard to do, I mean honestly if we could all describe love a
Seeing Through My Brother's Eyes
so flawed so addicted so conflicted narcissistic isn't the word to describe it i'd have to hate myself a lot less for that take shape take aim boy this is your life now fight for a cause you never truly bought but will ultimately pay for
Drinking
The heat is moving towards my fingers Smoke is filling up my eyes This bench is filling up with ashes And sadness is filling up my mind I don't even know what day it is While I sit here all alone The moon above is making me cold And dispair is bringing me home I need to keep busy I need to keep drinking I'll do whatever it takes To try and keep from thinking Because thinking brings sadness And sadness brings pain Physical...emotional... It all feels the same I don't want to die I swear I want to live But I need to keep drinking Because thinking is a sin
Are U Real
We’re lost in a dreamworldJust you and INo one else in this private placeWe talk, we listen and we make loveI feel your lips moving over mineYour hand touching my faceJust you and I in our own little space. I may never look into your eyesI may never know your touchBut you’ve filled an emptiness insideThat I needed Oh so much.We met by fate, We loved in dreamsWas it really real?But I can close my eyesWhen ever I want and pretendIt’s you I feel. Your eyes, your touch, your kissThese I’ll never knowI keep them hidden deep insidewithin my very soulWhat ever else we may have hadYOU have made me whole
Sweet
"Sweet words are easy to say, Sweet things are easy 2 buy, But sweet people are difficult to find. Life ends when U stop dreaming. Hope ends when U stop believing. Love ends when U stop caring. Friendship ends when U stop sharing. To love without condition. To talk without intention. To give without reason. And to care without expectation is the heart of a true friend... If U Care........ Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.
Oral Sex Linked 2 Mouth Cancer
Dam always takin all my fun away!!!! http://news.newsrag.com/article/oral_sex_linked_to_mouth_cancer_risk?list=breaking
The High End Of Low
The High End of Low
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finally recover and the mood is right looking up into a neon sky child in me takes over, guess it's been too long since the last time that i tried to fly finally i find when i lose control inside my body crumbles it's like therapy for my broken soul inside my body crumbles all i need's a moment, chance to get away from the stressfulness of every day know if i don't question and i never doubt everything is gonna be okay finally i find when i lose control inside my body crumbles it's like therapy for my broken soul inside my body crumbles i don't know if i'll be alright is it okay to be myself why do we always have to fight now i know it's alright finally i find when i lose control inside my body crumbles it's like therapy for my broken soul inside my body crumbles
Tired Of Not Being Stopped On Fu!!
I posted a mum few weeks ago about buying a VIPO for some fubucks--Im not allowed to do that accprding to the "Fu-Lords"--now I cant even post any mums. Im tired of them trying to be my parents.Im not allowed to say what i feel or anything. I may get my page taken from me after typying this--I hope I dont--but Im really upset I cant post a mum asking for help--esp when Fubar was gonna get money out of it
My Father's Forgiveness - A Request
Well -- as if things haven't been enough I found out today that my father has cancer.  He has cancer cells on his liver and lungs.  It's incurable.  He begins chemo tomorrow and it will pretty much destroy his immune system.I sit here and type this blog just a couple hours after receiving the news and the only thought running through my head is that life is unfair.I think about all the hard times that my parents have had throughout their life and how they've overcome them while remaining together.  I look at all the emotional pain they put each other through and then remember that even during all of that, they managed to raise 3 kids and stay married for almost 49 yrs.They don't deserve this.  No matter what someone has done in life, they don't deserve the pain that comes with liver cancer.  I cried not because I'm afraid to lose him, but because of all the things he will miss in his lifetime after her he gone.I hope that in his own heart and mind that he can finally come to terms with
True Love Lasts A Lifetime!!
True love lasts a lifetime♥ A golden beam , from a torchbrilliantly shines upon my porch,Lively, fully radiating with joy. A lovely life for which i long Only one person to take me along.A wish , A dream fulfilled. With warmth that covers the shallows of my heartEven though, by distance we are very far apart.a link joined to my mind.which without you i would never find. A voice bonding directly to my soulA sign of beauty ,things to come Together with love we will live My heart my breath, longs for youfor your mere presence sends me chills I love you from the bottom of my heart.I know i always will. Mistakes i know i made before makes me very sad and soreFor these I repent like never beforebut true love will bind us togetherand keep us as one forever ♥
The Hesperides, Daughters Of The Evening
We are the three sisters of Evening,We are the nymphs of a garden.Our voices bring forth beautiful singing,We can become trees among the golden.Their apples ripe with immortality,Ladon stand guard over them.Those who steal face fatality,He is the one who will condemn.He talks to us as we sing,Our voices lilting in the trees.Aegle is the luminous one,The willow blowing in the breeze.Erytheia is the crimson one,I am the willow in the grove.Hesperia is the evening one,Her poplar is full of love.Once our apples were stolen,Hercules had tricked the God Atlas.Aethena returned them crestfallen,The scared fruit returned alas.We are the Hesperides, Daughters of the Evening.
Why Is It That Most Of The Women's Pictures On Here Are Sleezy/
I have noticed for a long time now that 90% of the women on here have very sleezy to down right display images. I personally feel that women on here do not need to exploit themselves to get attention. I am well aware that this is a social network designed and creadted for adults. I am perfectly ok with the ones that have their flirtatious to sexual pictures in a private album of which members of this site by the owners choosing can view the photos. I however believe that a woman's breasts and pussy should not be spead from here to kindom come just to get men to talk to her. Even if the woman is not easy she is labeling herself that way for posting images like that. So to all you breast showing pussy spreading whores, make your fucking pictures private. Also do not bash me simply because I do not have any pictures of a sexual nature for all to veiw. I am proud of the fact that I do not need to reveal my body on this site or any other site to get to know people. I am not prude and am
Poems
*UNTITLED* I sit here with nothing but you on my mind, All i can tell myself is your one of a kind. You may blush, you may laugh, All i feel is your my better half. Every moment that passes without you by my side, Is overshowed by they kisses you try to hide. When im with you i feel complete, I can stare into your eyes and just lose myself, Without you now i feel alone, Without you here i feel lost, I cant stand being away for more than a few minutes, As i sit here wide awake and alone, You read my mind and call my phone, The sound of your voice so soothing, much needed, But the distance between us is unbareable, I dont know what else to say, But the look in your eyes tells a story more than words can describe, I miss you so much. I want you here right now *WHAT I LOVE ABOUT YOU* I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so soft and deep. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so tender and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the way you show
My Grandpa
I sit in my bed watchin tv as another sleepless night slowly passes along. movie after move, show after show; i flip thought channels loosing interest almost immeditly in things i could spend countless hours watchin and enjoying. i just cant concentrate, cant focus on what is making my already cluttered mind race more than usual. to allow myself to think without visual distractions i turn the tv off in the attempt to fall asleep to my music. music that lets my mind wonder, think about things that i have and daringly take for granted along with pains that i pushed deep away as to free myself from their grip. the songs change from sad, slow, pain driven songs to joyful, love filled serenades of deamlands; in each one i find different sides of myself. in the sad sorrowful songs i have but one thing on my mind... Death. death is the most influent asset of my life for the past few years, so in-turn the word death brings rememberance. In this i see my otherside. my caring, big-hearted bein
Tapeworm
all i long to do is thrive all i long to do is live somwhere beyond this passive parasitic existance i call life i only want a sign something signifying that things will get better if i could only see that i'd change anything just to feel something
27th May 2009
Join your heart, soul and mind to your desires.
Computer Problems
Hey y'all. Just wanted to let all my friends know, (those that care anyhow) that I won't be on much for a bit. Don't know how long, but my computer F'd up last night, and have to see about getting it fixed. Until then, I can use my roommate's computer, when she's not on it. Other than that, if you have either of my cell numbers, feel free to text or call me. I'll be on and off here periodically today, at least this morning. So if you have any ?s and catch me up here, hit me up.
My Life In Lyrics
She hangs around the boulevardShe's a local girl with local scarsShe got home late, she got home lateShe drank so hard the bottle achedAnd she tried, and she tried, and she tried, and she triedBut nothin's clear in a bar full a fliesSo she takes, so she takes, she takes, so she takesShe understands when she gives it awayShe says* Man I gotta get outta this townMan I gotta get outta this painMan I gotta get outta this townOutta this town and out of L.A.She's got a gun, She's got a gunShe's got a gun she calls the lucky oneShe left a note right by the phoneDon't leave a message 'cause this ain't no homeAnd she cried, and she cried, and she cried, and she criedShe cried so long her tears ran dryThen she laughed, then she laughed, she laughed, then she laughed'Cause she knew she was never comin' backShe said[Repeat *]It's all she loves It's all she hates It's all too much for her to takeShe can't be sure just where it ends or where the good life beginsSo she took a train, she took a trainT
Share Experiances
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The Sun Is Always Shining
Remember the Sun There are times when gloom or darkness causes us to momentarily lose sight of the light. Although it is at these times when the thought of the sun can help us. Its warm, glowing rays brighten even our thoughts, and it’s good to remember that despite appearances the sun is shining right now. We may not be able to see it at this very moment, but if clouds block our view, they are only filtering the sun’s light temporarily. If darkness has fallen, we know that the sun is still shining at this very moment somewhere not too far away, and it’s only a matter of time before it will shine on us again. When we remember that the sun is still shining, we know that things are still in motion in the universe. Even if life feels like it is at a standstill, sometimes all we need to do is have faith and wait for the time when everything is in its perfect place. Or we can we can choose to follow the cues of the sun and continue doing our work and shining our light
New Piercing
I got new piercings, which were my nipples. I got bar piercings. They were piercings that i've been debating on for a long while. But i finally go tthem done! I was a bit nervous getting them and it did hurt a little but not too bad. It made some weird crunching sound too lol...but I'm loving them :) now im off to bed...it's late..real late....night night
Suthen-isams
Suthen-isms: ____ Only a Southerner knows the difference between a hissie fit and a conniption fit, and that you don't HAVE them, you PITCH them. _____ Only a Southerner knows how many fish, collard greens, turnip greens, peas, beans, etc., make up a mess. _____ Only a Southerner can show or point out to you the general direction of yonder. _____ Only a Southerner knows exactly how long directly is, As in: 'Going to town, be back directly.' _____ Even Southern babies know that Gimme some sugar is not a request for the white, granular sweet substance that sits in a pretty little bowl in the middle of the table. _____ All Southerners know exactly when by and by is. They might not use the term, but they know the concept well. _____ Only a Southerner knows instinctively that the best gesture of solace for a neighbor who's got trouble is a whole messa fried chicken and a big bowl of cold potato salad. If the neighbor's trouble is a real crisis, they also know to add a large banana puddin! _
Be My Master
    When was the last time you were really fu owned or owner? I mean the ownership that you get something out of? I'm sure its been a long time. Hightimes420 is holding an auction! On Monday, June 1st at 9pm est We are looking for those that want to get some fubux and dont mind helping their owner out. If you are interested send a private message to Perpetual Bliss. She will fill you in on rules and terms PERPETUAL BLISS~GM OF ACES UP LOUNGE~MEMBER OF RR~@ fubar LIVE DJS AND CAMS MAKE YOUR REQUEST COME ON IN AND CHECK US OUT CLICK THE LINK TO ENTER HIGHTIMES420
A Morning Prayer
Dear Lord,So far I've done alright,I haven't gossiped,haven't lost my temper,haven't been greedy,grumpy,nasty,selfish or indulgent.I'm really glad about that.But in a few minutes,God I'm going to get out of bed and from then on I'm going to need some help.
I Found This
Joke Of The Day:A teacher was wrapping up class, and started talking about tomorrow's final exam. He said there would be no excuses for not showing up tomorrow, barring a dire medical condition or an immediate family member's death. One smart ass, male student said, "What about extreme sexual exhaustion?", and the whole classroom burst into laughter. After the laughter had subsided, the teacher glared at the student, and said, "Not an excuse, you can use your other hand to write."
Cry.
You can cry you can bitch. They'll find you in a ditch. Let your tears hit the ground. That's the spot where you will drown. All that pain what's to gain. What will you do when you are out of blame? It's a shame really is. I miss the days when we were kids.                      (Chours) Cry just cry it all away. I'm sure you can make it another day. Death won't save you. No one will. Suck up the pain and the sorrow. Hope you will be here tomorrow. None of what we have gained can be worth all this pain. They'll piss on you just swallow shame. All your sorrows kind of sad. Me I'll always be glad. Unlike you I'm still me. Something you will never see. Death will come eventually. That's just how life is meant to be.                     (Chours) Somedays it will feel like you got shot. Just carry on don't get cought. Just let your blood hit the ground. Know your body won't be found. All alone? So are we. Getting together won't set you free. Just be bound to what you are. In our sky the
Easy Money!! (plaid Mafia)
with the lounge and group being fairly new we still have tons of room to grow! not only does it help the group but it will help you as well. at the end of each month the promoters will make any were between 1000-2000 fubux. the top promoter will make an aditional 2000. who ever gets the 100th member to join will get 100k as well as the 100th member. every 100 after that will get 50k for each so if you get the 200th member you will recive 50k as well as the 300th member at differnt times we may offer 50-200k for a random member number like 163. just depends on the day.
Tick, Tick, Tick
tick......tick......tick......tick...... the clock seemingly booms as I deeply stare in to the mirror. lookin for the slightest glimour of passion hidden deep in my tear filled eyes. i see nothing but salt-filled tears flowing down pale cheeks like a slow streamin waterfall. each tear building up slowly until it breaks on the brim of my red eye lid. thoughs continuously run around in his cluttered mind, confusion grows and grow. wat did i do?? wat should i do?? where is someone to talk to?? he tries number after number and reaches voicemail after annoying vocemail. so he looks and sees an old dusty note book with an ordinary black pen sitting on it. is that his sign, is that how he was ment to deal with his unrelenting pain and his deep crushing sorrow. ''wat the hell'' he says, ''might as well give it a shot'' so he begins to slowly write, really unsure about wat to put on this faded piece of lined paper. after writing a few words that he feels describes him, pain, anguish, sorrow,
Why???
WHY? Why? Why do I sit here and continue to tell myself meaningless truths that haunt me constantly, throughout each endless day of my worthless life. Lies that push me over the continuously shrinking edge forcing me to do horribly unspeakable things. Then, I begin to listen to those very lies and actually believe they might have some truth to them, but the amount of truth each of those lies possess is a mere, soft, attractive, cloud that covers the deep, crushing pains and sorrows that is peacefully waiting to rip my soul into pieces that will never again be together. It leaves me in a state of confusion and falsehood that is simply impossible to understand. Not to be overly broken, I fall into a haunting sleep, hoping to never wake. The next day’s sunrise slowly creeps into my dark, gloomy room as I continue to stare at my plain, empty ceiling, as I have for the past few but seemingly endless hours. When I actually get out of my cold, almost frozen bed, to begin the day; it seems tha
My Life
I find myself falling back into that horrible unyielding place of sorrow. i feel as if my so called wonderful life is actually my downfall. it is only societies view of me, only an impression of happiness and humbleness to which has to true meaning of who i really am. my real person lay deep within a consuming shell surrounded by a cloud of deception. that deception only to keep the real truth inside. the truth that keeps me who i am, keeps me sane and gets me through each day. to know my truth would be to know a dark seceret, a seceret so painful that it was ment for me and noone else. So i drag this unrelenting sorrow through my daily up and downs of life. but i keep it locked away in the southern most abyss of my soul. where it will lie until it forces itself to the rippled surface of my dark ocean of emotions
Omg Funniest "weight Loss Program"
A man calls a company and orders their 5-day, 10 lb. weight lossprogram.The next day, there's a knock on the door and there stands before him a voluptuous, athletic, 19 year old babe dressed in nothing but a pair of Nike running shoes and a sign around her neck.She introduces herself as a representative of the weight loss company.The sign reads, 'If you can catch me, you can have me.'Without a second thought, he takes off after her.A few miles later huffing and puffing, he finally gives up.The same girl shows up for the next four days and the same thinghappens.On the fifth day, he weighs himself and is delighted to find he has lost 10 lbs. as promised.He calls the company and orders their 5-day/20 pound program.The next day there's a knock at the door and there stands the moststunning and beautiful woman he has ever seen in his life.She is wearing nothing but Reebok running shoes and a sign around herneck that reads, 'If you catch me you can have me.'Well, he's out the door after her l
5 Secrets
Alright boys and gents, I was just thinking about how to talk to my wife seductively, and I bombed miserbly. I read for once in my life how to really talk to women. 1. Be inquistive-- Ask her where's she's from, her likes and dislikes. It can't be all about sex and "hey baby, I really want you!" 2. Be patient-- Tell her she's beautiful and wait until she replies or starts a conversation with you. Don't be impatient and start the conservation yourself; otherwise you're just delaying the big no. 3. Act naturally-- Don't be acting like what you're not. This is hard for me to do, because of my speech implement. 4. Speak up-- Okay fellows, this can be tricky! When and if you do get a date with the woman of your dreams, ask her what she wants to do; don't assume that she wants to go see a fight or to a topless bar. 5. Don't push-- I can be pushy sometimes, but the more you push, the more she will push you away! Don't say, "Hey baby, I got a beef up hot pick-up and the seat right by me
Older Women
The appeal of older women we are simply a woman we no longer feel like lil girls all giggles and naive shyness is no longer there Daddys girls maybe that is something we never outgrow we are past the stage of wonderin what does a man want for we know the true appeal we have beauty inside and out we know what we want no longer do we hold back our passion for fear of being called a name we embrace all that we are what we have learned what we are we are simply in the truest  meaning a woman aging with grace like a fine wine maybe but i like to feel i am aging with a lil more like a fine crown royal i go down smooth but with a bite older women  are great lovers have you tried one today ....
How I Feel . . .
By looking at me You would never guess That I'm bruised and broken On the inside   All the pain that I hide All the tears that I cry All I ever really wanted Was for someone to understand
This Is Me
We were taught never to speak our minds to look into someones eyes and show deviance some choose to follow this path but many like myself we made our own path becoming strong in mind heart body and soul women are we that run with the wolves free to be as passionate as we want to speak our minds as well as well as look you in the eyes and dare you to condemn us I love with no bonds my passion can be great my words can send you to the heavens my love can sear your skin I will not be silent no longer this is me  
Fortune Cookie Wisdom 5-27-09
Focus on the color purple this week to bring you luck.   ~ okay so purple it is since I REALLY need the luck!
Top Four Favorite Songs Ever.
In No Particular Order.....     It Had to be You-Motion City Soundrack- I'll get lost, messed up and bored when I'm alone too long I can't sleep, function or eat when I'm not with someone Late last fall, she ended it all and moved to who-knows-where Just like that, she vanished and packed and never even called You feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me A kind of macabre and somber Wonder-twin kind of harmony What if it was you? You that I needed all along I felt like a fool, Kicking and screaming and pretending we were wrong Let's get wrecked on pop tarts and sex and see the Taj Mahal Let's save birds from Prince William Sound and skateboard through the mall Let's fight crime with mangoes and limes and join the PGA Let's win big with every spin but hurry, I can't wait Do you spend a fortune on those late-night prepaid television scams In search of the perfect blend of steak knife and non-stick frying pan? What if it was you? You that I needed all along I felt li
Lost Love
as the rain clears..I wipe away my tears..for the love i cryed....may it rest in peace because it has died
Poem
Broken hearts, love's deceit,pieces fall down to my feet.Broken promises, love's a lie,puddles form from tears I cry.Broken dreams, love's illusion,sorrowed cause of your intrusion.Broken hope, love's a game,doesn't last, ends the same.Broken sleep, love's the cause,digs at me with sharpened claws.Broken spirit, love of sorrow,stolen now is my tomorrow.Broken life, love is lost,Broken now and that's the cost.
Refusing To Rate
I AM FED UP WITH THIS CRAP NOW I AM NOT RATING ANYONE ELSE NOW IF IM GOING TO RATE SOMEONE I WILL SEND U A SB SAYING R U GOING TO RATE BACK IF YOU GIVE ME ANY OF THESE ANSWERS YEH WHEN I GET MY RATES BACK OR DONT GET AN ANSWER FROM U IM NOT RATING BECAUSE U DONT GET ANYTHIN OUT OF FRIEND REQUESTS OR JUST SAYIN THANK U UR NOT THE ONLY PEOPLE TRYIN TO LEVEL ON THIS SITE SO NO RATE BCK I DONT RATE U SIMPLE AS
Why Dont Men Do This Lmao
• Grab her neck when you kiss her, it's a real turn on. Not her butt/boobs.• Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.• When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her• When she says she's ok dont believe it talk with her• Never cheat on her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you• Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her• Call her before you sleep and after you wake up• Treat her like a person and not something to show off for• Tease her and let her tease you back.• Stay up all night with her when she's sick.• Watch her favorite movie with her.• TRUST HER WITH HER GUY FRIENDS• Let her wear your clothes.• When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.• Let her know she's important.• Kiss her in the pouring rain.• When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"
My Auction Cum Getcha Sum
I'm up for Auction Come Get ya sum Auction starts Wednesday 5/27/09 12am futimeAuction EndsFriday 6/5/09 11:59pm futime Visit this link to bidhttp://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=2320251&albumid=1690608&i=799167990 Rules are as follows: 1.) Once something other than fubucks have been bid, fubucks alone may not be bid!!! 2.) Bidding STarts at 100K 3.) All offers good for 30 Days Muahhh! ~I'm Waiting for you~
My Submission
I have longed so long to let go give over all control have no fear to show just hand over my soul I want to be yours to mold I am yours with complete submission your domination untold I will serve you with ambition  
Sup Fu-fools
Jus moved up here to Noblesville tryin to meet sum new people and ran across this site and thought it looked like a kick ass place to do so. 
For Amawitch On Her Birthday..love U Christa
Discipline of yourself is absolutely necessary before the power of God (as you may know him/her) is given to you. When you see others manifesting the power of God, you probably have not seen the discipline that went before. They made themselves ready. All your life is a preparation for more good to be accomplished when God knows that you are ready for it. So keep disciplining yourself in the spiritual life every day. Learn so much of the spiritual laws that your life cannot again be a failure. Others will see the outward manifestation of the inward discipline in your daily living.
What I Am Telling My Best Friends
IM SO PROUD OF YOU TWO :) pulling through every thing you've pulled through you are two of the most AMAZING friends anyone could have ever asked for lol you were truly a blessing form God, but i kno i cant be selfish and keep you all to myself no matter how much i want to, god if only this last year wasnt wasted :( im so sry i wish i could go back becaue it was the biggest mistake ive ever made i missed hangin with you and talking with you sharing with you making memories with you. im sry but i kno that even though your graduating im still gonna see you but i still feel like its going to be forever.... and the missed i wish i could get back i love you guys your my best friends my sisters for life :)Ashley~ you are a strong person weather you realize it or not, you can make it through anything you've been my friend for 4 years and in that 4 years i come to love you as a sister. no matter how much we fight i always wanted the best for yo and you for me, im so proud of you and im sure you
Random Crap
1. MIDDLE NAME? Eric ...Thats all u get to know for now lol 2. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?  N.J.3. FAV. PIZZA? Pepperoni,onions,gr.peppers,blk. olives  4. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No not yet 5. DREAM JOB? Nascar driver...... Hell since i drive like one lol 6. DO YOU USE SARCASM? UMMMM AHHHHHH lol 7. MARRIED? No not yet 8. LAST BROKEN BONE YOU HAD? My nose was shattered 9. COKE OR PEPSI? Diet coke 10. IF YOU ANSWERED NO TO #4 BOY OR GIRL FIRST? Girl always wanted a daughter11. PLACES YOU WANT TO VIST OUT OF THE U.S.A.? Greece, Italy and Brasil12. WHAT YOU DOING RIGHT NOW? Are you kidding me? Answering this thing lol 13. FAVORITE DRINK? Coffee drink way to much 14. DREAM CAR? 69 firebird 15. Where you ever truely been in love? Yes once16. FAV. FAST FOOD? If i have to Burger King 17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Family members that have past 18. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My cuz19. Fav. Football team? Da Raiders baby 20. Wawa or 7-11? Wawa of course  21. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU
Let's Meet Tomorrow
I have a meeting tomorrow that could well determine my fate as far as employment at my current job goes. The latest news is we can stay as long as we have the money to pay ourselves a month before. Not really a terrible proposition, just a lot of pressure applied to closing deals. If I do get to stay, I may not stay long. The antsy part of me has been fired up since hearing I may have to leave, and is looking toward a new job/location. I may have mentioned this before, but that part of myself scares me. What if I have to have that change every couple of years or else I go crazy (more so than I apparently already am)? Being uncertian always seems to be my downfall. Wonder if I can work on developing my psychic abilities to tell the future. Hah, if only. I've been quite irritable today, every little thing seems to set me off. I need a calming influence in my life. I downloaded one of those white noise programs for my phone, maybe the sound of a thunderstorm for a few hours might help
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What Happen???????
were is cute n naughty?????????????????????
28th May 2009
All you wish for can be yours with a little work.
Psychology Self Test
http://www.psychologytoday.com/pto/self_tests.php a cool site my psychology teacher sent us....
Endless
Searching through this endless seaWondering what I will becomeWill I ever find someone specialSearching in places god hasn't seenAnd I wonder... what will become of me Will this ever endMy search for somethingMy longing for someone specialMy search, It's become endless Searching through this sea of lifeless bodiesWondering what it is I've becomeJaded mind and faded emotionsBlock all feelings from my chestTerminal disconnection from my heartSo I wonder, what will become of me
Hes So Sweet
look into my eyes. watch the tears pouring out of my eyes. I'm happy to see your beautiful face.look into my heart. you will recognize how much i love you. i will never be the same without you. i could feel you beside me. with all the memories i have talking to you. please say yes, yes i want to spend your life with me like i want to spend mine with you. i cant just walk away. i want to keep loving you, loving you forever. i belong to you. my heart belongs to you my love. i know i wont forget our 1st kiss. the memories will stay in my mind after i die. you lead me here. you show me the way. i cant walk away. i miss you in a second. the promises i can make. promises of being yours forever. i cant let you go. cause i love you
Ty Knck !
Three fans are walking to  Fenway Park for the Red Sox-Yankees playoff series, when they see a foot sticking out of some bushes. An inspection revealed a dead-drunk naked woman. One man placed his Orioles baseball cap on her right breast. The Red Sox fan placed his cap on her left breast, and the Yankee fan put his over her crotch. They then called the police.The cop lifted up the Orioles cap, and made a few notes. He then lifted the Red Sox cap and made more notes. Then he lifted the Yankees cap, put it down, lifted it again and put it down. When he lifted it the third time the Yankee fan said, ''What are you doing? Are you some kind of pervert, or what?'' The cop said, I was just confused, usually when I see a Yankee cap, there's an asshole under it.''
No Tumor
It turns out there's no brain tumor.  It's all because of some of the medications I've been on.  I see the dr in a couple of weeks, so I'll have to see what she wants to do about my elevated prolactin levels.
Fool's Gold
I've been empty for so long. Filling the lonely with the unworthy and the never should haves. To many times have i laid a needing heart out for a using soul. Only to have each role played out all to knowingly. Sinking into the abyss of missed opportunities and the unexpected expected, there sits me. My heart grows even more murky, the deeper i allow the expected to creep. I've seen lights with no tunnel's end. I've seen smiles with tear filled reflections. I've felt the love of a selfish heart. I felt the passion of the unforgiving. My heart yet remains, not just hopeful, but empty. Empty of the taste of fool's gold. Empty of the promises of a lair's tongue. Empty of that which makes draining necessary. My heart is waiting for the words writing in myth, told as fable, seen as unattainable... I want that which captures my soul without surrender. OUR love gives breath to dreams. OUR love gives hope to doubt. OUR LOVE can be spoken of in whispers, yet felt as if the loud
Mother
All things down n i'm insane painTake rememberin all the things you said. All the things you did. Always ever wondering why in life all the shit you did hurtin myself inside not fheelin why. Can't believe all the shit that was done. Askin myself why does the shit happen to me all the time. If knew long nough would of never got myself caught.Up in ur shit fhuck you skank whore bitch. I hate what the fhuck you done to me. Why do you have me in thinkin fheelin like there is no other i'm smothered fhuck what this world has done to me. I don't want to be bothered.Mother-All the pain you caused you flaused. Smothered my life was never meant to be. Mother-Fheelin like no other. Mother just a lost little brother. Smothered life ain't nothin to be. Just really can't see how i'm suppose to be.Don't get why all the hate the pain this world has to be put me through. Fhuck all ur shit the shit that you done to me why n why why do I fhuckin ask. If I saw you I prolly blindful you stick my 9inch in y
10 Cancer-causers To Remove From Your Home
Given poor government regulation, many of the cleaning products available on the market contain “everyday” carcinogens such as formaldehyde, nitrobenzene, methylene chloride, and napthelene, as well as reproductive toxins and hormone disruptors. Not to mention other ingredients that cause liver, kidney and brain damage, allergies and asthma. I really am a happy person–not your basic Eeyore type, but toxic cleaning products seriously get my goat. One of the best things you can do to detox your home is to create one of Annie’s simple non-toxic cleaning kits to use–most of the ingredients you probably already have on hand. But there are a host of products, other than those used for basic cleaning, that often contain carcinogenics. This list, from Cancer: 101 Solutions to a Preventable Epidemic (New Society Publishers, 2007) by Liz Armstrong et al, cautions against 10 household products, in addition to cleaners, that you should avoid having in you
I Can Make Morph Pics
I can make morph pics. You pick the pics u want me to use. SB me to see how to get them :D
Recession Hurts Worlds Oldest Profession
In Patpong, one of Bangkok's most notorious red-light districts, go-go girls count their livelihood by the number of sex tourists they entertain. "Three inches, three minutes, 3,000 baht ($87)," laughs Goy, a 25-year-old bargirl. Last summer, she and her fellow pole dancers at the Camelot Castle entertained scores of men every night - first in the bar, where they earn a monthly salary, then at the customer's hotel, where they negotiate their own rates. But as cash-strapped tourists have turned their backs on Thailand - tourism officials say revenues will plunge 35% this year - the ranks of men cruising Patpong have thinned dramatically. On a recent Wednesday evening, just three tourists watched a visibly disgruntled Goy wiggle around her pole. "My base salary was 8,000 baht ($232) a month, but now they are giving me 6,000 baht ($174)," she says. "I haven't had a customer in five nights, and I'm lucky if someone buys me a drink." As the recession continues to bite, sex workers from Ban
Poee
POEE POEE (pronounced "POEE") is an acronym for The PARATHEO-ANAMETAMYSTIKHOOD OF ERIS ESOTERIC. The first part can be taken to mean "equivalent deity, reversity beyond-mystique." We are not really esoteric, it's just that nobody pays much attention to us. MY HIGH REVERENCE MALACLYPSE THE YOUNGER, AB, DD, KSC, is the High Priest of POEE, and POEE is grounded in his episkopotic revelations of The Goddess. He is called The Omnibenevolent Polyfather of Virginity in Gold. The POEE HEAD TEMPLE is the Joshua Norton Cabal of The Discordian Society, which is located in Mal-2's pineal gland and can be found by temporally and spacially locating the rest of Mal-2. POEE has no treasury, no by-laws, no articles, no guides save Mal-2's pineal gland, and has only one scruple--which Mal-2 keeps on his key chain. POEE has not registered, incorporated, or otherwise chartered with the State, and so the State does not recognize POEE or POEE Ordinations, which is only fair, because POEE does not rec
Bryan Herrick My Adopted Son Need Ur Prayers To Be Heard Loud
MY SON WAS HIT SATURDAY NITE WHEN HE WAS CROSSING THE STREET TO MEET UP WITH A FRIEND SO THEY COULD TALK BOUT THE BIBLE N HOW IT HAS HELPED BRYAN TO OVER CUM HIS DRUG N ALCOHOL PROBS N IS NOW WALKIN IN THE PATH OF THE LORD... A CAR HIT HIM STOPPED N CALLED 911 AS HE WAS CALLIN 911 THE MINI VAN BEHIND THE CAR RAN BRYAN OVER.. VAN LEFT THE SCENE... THE THIRD CAR BEHIND THE VAN ALMOST HIT BRYAN TOO AND THAT PERSON WAS THE FRIEND HE WAS MEETING...   BRYAN IS FIGHTING FOR HIS LIFE RIGHT NOW... LAST WE HEARD FROM THE DR IS HE IS NOT GONNA MAKE IT THRU THE NITE... BUT WE DONT BELIEVE IN THE DOC WE BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF PRAYER N IF WE ALL PRAY N PRAY LOUD GOD WILL ALL HEAR US FROM AFAR N NEAR.. AND WILL GIVE BRYAN THE MIRACLE HE NEEDS RIGHT NOW SO HE CAN KEEP ON PREACHIN TO KIDS, ADULTS, ETC... BRYAN HAS MAJOR BRAIN DAMAGE ITS NOT GIVIN NO SIGNALS WAS TOLD HE IS BRAIN DEAD N REST IS NOW TO FOLLOW HE EVEN HAS TIRE TRACKS GOIN OVER HIS BELLY WHERE THE VAN RAN HIM OVER...   AND GET THIS
Lo9ng Silence
  Sorry for this long silence, I got ill and was in the hospital for the last month.  I am OK now, it was an infection requiring IV antibiotics, and I opted to hyave as much done in a specialty care unit rather then go home with it and try to deal with the antibiotic bags, flushes and all.  
Limo In Vegas
I work as a limo driver here in Las Vegas, if your making plans to come to Vegas...... remember to give me a call. I can take care of Night Clubs, Strip Clubs, or anything you will need on your trip... I can cut you a deal if you mention your on FUBAR....     Jerimiah       702 834 1250
Pimping Out My Friend!
This is my friend Missy. She just recently joined. Please show her some love :) Thank you friends!! nice one@ fubar
Y'all Are Funny....
You know what I've come to realize??? Some of y'all are funny as hell!!! Not funny in a lol way, but funny in a, you can't be serious way!!! Some of the people we come in contact with, hell most of the people, we come in contact with on this site we will never meet in person. We are seperated by hundreds or thousands of miles, and many geographical boundaries. Instead of using this site as a tool to get to interact with people we might not normally get a chance to in real life, instead of using it to step out of your box, or comfort zone, some of you use it to become bigger assholes than you are in real life!!! Y'all know who you are, and you know what, maybe you are laugh out loud funny, 'cause I'm laughing my ass off at y'all pathetic bastards... Peace!!!
Our First Plaid Wedding!!
join us this monday for a fu-wedding of two plaid members! please show your support for josh and dragonfairy
Part Three~
She could remember when she longed for the gag to be removed, the thrill she had felt when the kitten worked at the strings and she thought she might be rid of it. Now that it was gone, Elyndria was more frightened that she would unconsciously make a sound or moan and be punished for it. Her captor had left no doubt in her mind that he would not stand for disobedience and restrained as she was, she had little choice but to submit to his demands. Still, she often found herself now licking her lips, or running her tongue across her teeth, savoring the sensations she had been denied before. There fact the gag had been removed gave her hope that other of her restraints would be removed, and then her chance would come to escape.She thought she heard movement off to her left and strained to listen for any sign of someone there. She started to call out a hello, but caught herself just as her lips formed the word, remembering her command to remain silent unless spoken too. The silence surround
The Truth
I knew the truth once It set me free I turned to escape to my freedom I tripped and hit my head I woke a lifetime later Now I can barely remember my name  
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Because Dating Sucks
Yes, I know it and you know it. Two people enter with hopes raised, into forced conversation and awkward exchanges. You try. You try again. Then out of the blue, there it is... somone who "gets" your silly jokes, and snaps right back with their own, which you actually think are funny too. A glance.. eyes connect. Conversation last for hours.. where did the night go? I call you up for a spontaneous outing.. and of course, You say yes. It's really great that we can laugh at that.. I didn't think anyone else thought that was as funny as I do. Drinking a few too many beers, and spending the evening spilling secrets.. only to laugh about it all later. Remember that time the car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere, and we had to walk back to civilization? You know.. when we really learned to love/hate each other walking on that warm summer night? Remember strolling downtown at Christmas with the flurry of snow swirling all around us? Yeah, so I saved the little piece of wisdom from that
Never Make Someone A Priority!!!!
 Never make someone a priority, when to them you are only an option...”
The Real Deal
Fuck yall I'm actually shit-faced, who is with me?
♪ Posession ~ Sarah Mclachlan ♪
Listen as the wind blows, from across the great divide Voices Trapped in Yearning... memories trapped in time... The night is my companion, and solitude my guide. Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?   And I would be the one, to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away.. and after I'd wipe away the tears. Just close your eyes dear.   Through this world I've stumbled so many times betrayed. Trying to find an honest word, to find the truth enslaved.
Fear Is A Cannibal
I Only Want to Give Love - HELP ME, HELP YOU.post date:2007-08-11 09:24:06A customer at work asked if they could ask me a personal question. I said, "Sure." Aren't most of my blogs deeply personal? Why do I open myself up as I do? Because I don't think I'm unique. I think that anything I feel or think has been felt and thought before. Maybe if somebody reads what I write it will make them feel less alone. Maybe it will give them a new path to travel.I've covered this topic before, but I guess I'll do it again. People live in fear. Tremendous amounts of fear. Some of the questions a typical fearful person thinks are : "What will OTHER people think?" "Am I doing the RIGHT thing?" "What if I fail?" Some people get so overwhelmed by these questions that they turn them inside out and start judging other people because its just too scary to allow anything but their own ideas to flourish. Even though mostly these people do not have their OWN ideas, they have ideas that have been for
Riddle Of The Day
With no wings, I fly. With no eyes, I see. With no arms, I climb. More frightening than any beast, stronger than any foe. I am cunning, ruthless, and tall; in the end, I rule all. What am I?   give it your best shot
♪ Landing In London/all I Think About Is You ~ 3 Doors Down♪
I woke up today in London, as the plane was touching down. All I could think about was Monday, and maybe I'd be back around... If this keeps me away much longer, I don't know what I will do. You've got to understand it's a hard life, that I'm going through. And when the night falls in around me... I don't think I'll make it through... I'll use your light to guide the way, 'Cause all I think about is you. LA's getting kinda crazy. New York's getting kinda cold. I keep my head from getting lazy. I just can't wait to get back home.
♪ Believe ~ Staind ♪
I sit alone and watch the clock... Trying to collect my thoughts... All I think about is you. And so I cry myself to sleep, And hope the devil I don't meet, In the dreams that I live through.   Believe in me... I know you've waited for so long. Believe in me... Sometimes the weak become the strong. Believe in me... This life's not always what it seems. Believe in me... 'Cause I was made for chasing dreams!   All the smiles you had to fake, and all the shit you had to take.
When Will You Grow Up??
While doing my usual looking at blogs and mumms,  I have notice more and more people are feeling like I do about ignorant, low self asteem peeps. Who have nothing better to do then to  name call, put down others just because they dont agree on the mum that person posted. Its amazing how high and mighty they feel, but I tell ya.  If they didnt have their sheep to follow them and agree with every word they said.  Bet you they wouldnt be commenting so much. So to take the wind out of their sail,  stop allowing them to be-little you.  Don't feed into their narrow minded self absorbed feeble attempts to piss you off. Simply tell them they are pathetic and a joke at best and carry on having fun.
♪ Fade ~ Staind ♪
I try to breathe... Memories overtaking me. I try to face them but, the thought is too much to concieve. I only know that I can change... Everything else, just stays the same. So now I step out of the darkness, that my life became 'cause... I just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself. You were never there for me to express how I felt, I just stuffed it down.
Shifty Dodge.
Down highway 75 there's a dot followed by a dust trail. If you look hard enough you'll find a bard with a banjo he can't play, and a muse he named Steve.But that's not really his name. Steve's at the wheel, the boy-bard is just keepin the sun out of his eyes with a thatched straw hatcommenting on the haphazard state of broader topics of great importancelike sex laws, belief, summoning true love, and where to find the best hot pork tender sandwich. That's where this adventure ends, but we're concerned with the middle. In an old cadillac named Bluis... alright, not so much a cadillac, more like a 2 door hoopty box with oversized wheels and too much airborne mischief. I'm not playing Bo Duke because my ass keeps catching on the dry sundamaged paint. But today, I'll be a poet, and see how far I get with that before I get bored.
♪ Pages ~ 3 Doors Down ♪
What happens to a man when, He spills his heart over a page, And he watches words float away then, His feelings lie over a page, alone. They're waiting, for someone who cares to read them, To open their eyes and see them, To see if they can make his thoughts their own. To find out, that maybe life's not perfect... Maybe its not worth the hate it gives away. You can see that, this broken soul is bleeding..
Wish Me Luck & Pray 4 Me (please).
I will be going before a judge today to get the no contact taken off my husband do to the fact that my kids need their father, and with me being sick as I have been for months on end, I need him here to help with the house work, ect... I know people may not understand why in the hell someone would take a person thats aggressive back into the home however he went an seen a doctor to see what might be the problem well come to find out he has serve bipolar & depression.. That there can make someone be this way so he is on meds to control his systoms... I just need him back is all because the day before yesterday I went into see my internal doctor an I've lost more weight I'd say about 3LBS, last time it was 154 1/2 now I'm down to 151.8LBS which the doctor said isn't looking good, anyways I just thought I'd bring this to you all & vent for a few sec before going before this judge cause I haven't seen one in damn near 20 years and hell I'm freaking the hell out at this point & time, cause
Never Enough
Never Enough I always wanted to ask,Why was it you left meWhy is it you hurt me,Was I never enough?I never once hurt youDid I not deserve you?Was I never enough? The last time I saw youWhat remnants of my heartFinally felt aliveWhat am I to do?I feel torn apartDown to the last diminutive splinterThen when you left,It stopped and grew coldLike an arduous winter What is it I need?For you to tell me you love meTo tell me you need me,That I'm always enoughBut this is a nightmare,And I need to dreamOf a second chance, an adventMy world yerns for youDefinitive and ardent
Elswhere
I love the time and in between the calm inside me in the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered to touch upon the years... of reaching out and reaching in. Holding out. Holding in.   I believe that this is heaven for no one else but me and I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence. If I choose to, would you try and understand?   I know this love is passing time passing through like liquid I'm drunk in my desire. But I love the way you smile at me I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near I believe...   I believe that this is heaven for no one else but me and I'll defend it long as I can be   left here to linger in silence. If I choose to will you try to understand.   Ooh the quiet child awaits the day that she can break free the mold the clings like desperation. "mother, can't you see I've got to live my life the way I feel is right for me, might not be right for you but it's ri
Through His Eyes
through his eyes i am beautiful inside and out he sees me in a way  i dont when i look in a mirror i see damaged, ugly watching him now as he gazes at me i see the beauty that he has spoken of so many times in the past some have said it before but not with their eyes his eyes have never lied to me they have always held truth through his eyes i am beautiful in his eyes i hope to remain
Swine Flu
Apologies From California By Mark Morford
I know, we're supposed to be the vanguard. We're supposed to lead the way, set the agenda, be at the forefront on exactly this kind of delightfully blistering, divisive, sticky cultural issue, especially given our world-renowned reputation for flying our fearlessly flamboyant freak flag as high as the Transamerica Pyramid dancing on ecstasy at Burning Man. I know, we're supposed to be this unswerving bastion of progressive liberalthink, the frothing epicenter of just about every wild/weird/wonderful sociocultural movement and civil right in America. After all, we're the birthplace of hippie culture and gay culture and New Age culture and roughly 10,000 other progressive beliefs and revolutions and soul-fellatings you can name and many you can't, because they have yet to be concocted in one of our genius inventor/scientist/poet's feverish peyote dreams. I know. In other words, we're supposed to know better. We're supposed to get it right, particularly about something as obvious and re
A Prayer
Dear Lord,I pray for the strength, the courage, and the wisdom to beat down the beast that has/have taken over my life. I pray that the light within me may over take every part of my life, both day and night. I pray that I can be the parent to my children that they deserve. That I be an example unto them and to others of your love and your strength in our daily lives. I pray that I can be the friend to the love you have blessed my life with, that they know beyond a doubt that they are loved about all others. I ask, God, now for the forgiveness of the errors of my ways. That I may leave this path of darkness and come into the light of your love. Lord, my heart is set on you and I give my life to you to do with as you see fit. Use me and my voice that I may share your love and your amazing blessing with others. I thank you with all my heart for the love and support of my family and my friends. I thank you for never letting me forget your endless power and mercy.In Jesus Name I Pray,AMEN!
Texas Woman Told To Remove 'offensive' American Flag From Office
It's time for some serious changes in America I mean radical revolutionary changes when 1 ONE individual (not Native Born to this country I might add) can under Political Correctness crush the god given right of a native born American from displaying the simple thing as a flag and show patriotism. Devlinn http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,522659,00.html Texas Woman Told to Remove 'Offensive' American Flag From Office Friday , May 29, 2009 FC1 ADVERTISEMENT Debbie McLucas comes from a patriotic family – her husband and both of her sons served in the U.S. military, and her daughter is currently deployed to Iraq on her second tour of duty as a combat medic. So when McLucas arrived at work at a Texas hospital last Friday, she was stunned to be told that the Stars and Stripes she had hung in her office in advance of Memorial Day were offensive, and that the flag had been removed. “I got into work, I was met by my supervisor and told that there had been multi
Free Bling
next 10 people to SUBSCRIBE to this lounge http://fubar.com/lounge/67206 gets a free bling. oh n ya got to yell "ARELIK LIKES IT IN THE BUTT"   STAFF EXCLUDED FROM BLINGAGE :p
*sigh*
*sigh* Life always has to lead you on doesn't it? You think you finally got your sh*t in order and then "Wham! Bam! Thank you Ma'am, but I don't think so..." Then instead of suport from the people you think are supposed to be there, you get nothing... All you hear for days is "Why are you being such a b*tch?" What kind of answer are you really expectin to hear? You don't tend to like "Because I can?" Do you think I'm going to deal with this by myself? Seriously? If you really knew anything about me, you'd realize that is the last thing that will happen. *sigh*
Why I Am Difficult To Love
like waters troubled continue to be disturbed even after the dead are dropped ununder the surface so also I may shake even in the most secure arms You may conclude reaching out therefore you cannot reach me but somewhere inside you do.   Months ago I ended years unable to speak my truth And to note feel pain I stopped speaking. Any silence does not mean I do not want to talk to you I do, but for that moment I cannot. With your patience I will and do. Because someone hurt me for doing so There are moments when I may not know What to say to you. Know it is not you but someone else Who is now me...
Bowl Of Cherries
Life is a bowl of cherries you just hafta watch for pits
Ick
Found out today I have a tumor on my ovary. I wont know if it's cancer until surgery.   Today is just NOT good.
Truth
You’ve bought out the worst in me, I’m now my worst enemyI can’t seem to be happy and every time I am you break meYou’ve brought tears to my eyes so many timesI said I was done more than onceIt’s a shame how I keep playing your gamesWishing and waiting for what I have dreamedWanting that perfect life with someone I love but also can trustFalling apart and breaking down slowly Drifting away like a long lost memory
Who Are You
There are two sides to who i am. First and for most i am a mother, but i am me. Being a mother and being me are the same thing. People have a hard time understanding how i can be me and think like i do. For exsample, someone asked me why dont i stop smoking it will kill me. Well i told them there are many things that i do that could kill me, hell i could walk out my front door and could get shot. No one really knows how it is there going to go. I have a grandmother that is 90 and has smoked for 60 years and has no health problems, but in the same since i have two grandfathers that have died from lung canser. Every persons body is differnt in how it takes stuff in. I also have very much pitty for homless children or a child born with an addiction they never asked for, but i have no pitty or respect for an adult in the same situation. An adult has complet control of there lives. I dont know what it is im trying to say. Shit, damn writers block. I always tell people to read between the li
Love Is 1 Letter Word
LOVE is a five letters wordTHE L ,Looking into your eyesstaring at those passionate charming eyesTHE O,over all those years, over all this distancei Only want you,just youTHE V , very complicated,very hard to explainhow much i want you,need you,desire youTHE E, every second,every minute,every hour,every dayevery week,every monthe,every year will always beour firstTHE U, us, is all i can think off when i say us is youthere is always youso my lovelove is eventuly one letter wordthats letter is u--------------------W.B: FM
My Friends
Hello my friendsPeace my darling sweetHow re you?? Did you miss me??!!I know I was far for so longI forgot you for whileBut I also knowHow forgiving you areHow caring and loving you areYou were my best friends In the most darkest nightsYou were my matesHere we are ,all of usYears and years been pastAnd I am still aloneI couldn’t find any oneBut you my weak penTo tell what I thinkWhat’s going on my mind and heartI couldn’t find but you my papersTo believe what I say and feelWithout arguing or asksI don’t know how to apologyI didn’t know once how to express my feelingsBut you, only both of you ,felt meOnly you heard and saw meThanks my dear friendsAnd sorry for all that absence- - - - - - - - - - - - - - -W.B: FM
Hanyee
My love I miss you so muchWhen you are gone even for secondMy heart start wondering  where its rhythmMy heartbeats and it start counting its beatsWhen ever I see your faceOr look into your eyesThe whole world get prettierAnd life gets much sweeterMy life, I miss you so muchNo matter how many ladies I seeHow many pretties I seeYou will always be my eternal beautyThe beauty of the life it selfWhen ever a spring blow byI ask it about youI smell it checking for your perfumeSeconds on your absenceLonger than a life timesEvery time I see youI feel alive again and again-----------------------W.B:  FM
Definings And Inf....
Love is the highest of human relationsThat all ancient cultures have hallowedAll religions have make it unbroken but by deathSome of made it a secret service for monksTo present the holly sacrifices for godAnd some of them made it a medicine for miserableThen so many definingAnd so many inflectionsIt became: love to loverI love you,,you are lovelyBut all of those are roads  lead to same springAll of them are inflections and definingFor one feelingMan can feel it once in lifeAnd its sweet memories still touching the dreamsEvery night till the day of death- - - - - - -- - - - - - -- - - - - --W.B: FM
Life Of If's
My life after you became ifThat if you  didn’t leave meI wouldn’t be like thisIf I didn’t a lot of mistakesYou wouldn’t leaveIf we didn’t meetWe wouldn’t love each othersIf love wasn’t adestinyWe wouldn’t loveIf I didn’t have heart to loveI wouldn’t have feelingsIf I didn’t have feelings I wouldn’t be a humanSee my ladyYour love prove that I have a heartThat I am a humanAnd without your loveI wouldn’t be- - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - W.B: FM
Why Question
have you ever thought of how many questions start with ''why'' u have ask?? i mean, we all use it all the time ,for everything about everything but,cuz i am crazy i was thinking,what if we only could ask one question ,just one question starts with why?!! i know what my question would be do u know what would be ur only and one why question?? lol dont tell me it is : why i am reading this dump blog?? cuz i been asked that before lol but u might ask like everyone else why would i do that one why question thing?? lol muahhhhhz my friends
Happy F'n Birthday Bish!
Today My Lovely Fu-Wifey has turned 30!I announce to you the one and only Slirpa!§lirpa@ fubar
Stand For What You Believe In...
  Is anyone Out there ?… Is anyone there? Does it really matter what I have to share? Will anyone hear me? My words lost with the wind, As I’m placed inside this box, I’m invisible within.     Invisible to people, invisible to hope. Invisible to everything, leaving words a way to cope. I scribble and I write; jotting down my every thought I explain in words how this battle I have fought     Fighting all the urges, fighting all the pain Fighting with the thunder I stand out in the rain. Facing all the problems I’ve ever pushed aside I stand there wet and dripping, at least I know I tried     I tried to make it through I tried hard to survive I tried to run away but I made it out alive Living is a blessing I’ve learned that along the way And now inside my box the invisible slips away     I step out into the open, and take a deep breath in. I look around and think “ it’s time to try again” My box it has been opene
Someone From My Past
Well since about late February/early March of 2009 my ex-girlfriend and I have been talking to one another. She had looked me up on myspace and wrote me an email. We hadnt spoken to each other since about March 2005. We talked about the breakup and how she broke my heart. We met online back in mid 2004. A first neither one of us was looking for someone. But as we got to know each other and found out how much we had in common. Things progressed from there. We would talk to each other on the phone twice a day. In Nov 2004 I flew to Texas where she lives and spent 4 days with her. The connection, chemistry.... it was all there. We fell in love with one another. Then about a month later things started to go down hill. I would get her voicemail when i would call and i wouldnt get a call back from her. When she looked me up online earlier this year. She told me that back then she got scared because she had never fallen for someone who lived so far away from her. She was born and raised
Something For The Disbelievers And Heart Broken
You know you've found the right one when that person has a situation come up and the thier first concern is how it will impact you. After a few failed attempts and a marriage that started good and ended like a train wreck I decided I was done with love. Then with one smile one look into her sexy eye's the stonewall I spent six month's putting up around my heart shattered like it had been hit by an atom bomb. I used to laugh at people in my situation. I would ask if they seriously thought that they could truely fall for someone they never met. Now after the last week I have had I believe it. The heart wants what it wants and love has no limitations. To any of you that are unsure and have lost faith like I was. Don't. Life can go wrong in a thousand way's but it only takes one to make it better, and if you find love has kicked your door in grab on and don't let go. Whether your face to face or a world apart, if it's real and all you can think about you can find a way. Party doen, up, har
Smile....and You Outshine The Sun
Will I die when our eyes meet? Sometimes it is as though I find I am not worthy of the honor Of her voice upon me. That she might see the love that weighs So heavily upon my heart might Destroy my soul as quickly as Her smile may destroy my pride. My mind is a reservior where I keep and savor each small drop of
Random Question.. With A Purpose
So there's 12 people whom I'd like to answer this question.. take time, ponder it and mail me :) Dale, Steve, Doug, Steff, Rick, Hope, Alan, Ken, Alicia, Lori, Jeff, Mike You can leave comments but I'd rather you 12 do NOT leave your answers here. I have a purpose behind this that'll be explained later on.   (if you're stuck between 2 just tell me the two) Thank you!!! If given the opportunity would you rather have...   a. a huge bling b. a blast c. a VIP d. a cherry bomb e. auto11's f. lots of lil blings at once g. bling pack
Copied From The Mumms...
goddammit.. the things i remember when in the mumms..   this is a copy and paste of something that happened awhile back...           but this mumm does remind me on when my bud and i worked in a restaurant.. he was a line cook and i was dish dogging/waiting tables.. 2 of the hotter waitress were talking where my bud overheard... he told me they said " boy, that Dave is sure a good looking guy, mmhmmm.."... he asked the "what am i? chopped liver?"... they did they"blank stare".. he was actually mad at ME for it, for 3 days... told him it's not my fault they were blind..
Heartbeats
In the stillness of the night…. After the rain has fallen…. When the dust of the day…. Has been washed away…. As you watch the reflection…. Of the stars dancing upon….
Photoshop Pictures
If you ever wanted to be photoshopped..(  What would you ask for )
A Day Off
a day off from deliverin beer what will i ever do?
This Day
     This day i Thought about a lot of things                                                                 This day I thought of you                          This day I paid some bills This day I thought of you                            This day I drove a lot of miles                             This day I thought of you                               This day it is over                                This day I thought of you                                 This day true love is gone                                    This day because of you      
Please, No More
Tired of crying and dead from hurtingLiving a lie and choking my sinsI pray death take me and end this tortureLeave my bloodied corpse behindMind's eye blinded, frozen in the absenseTwisting my thoughts to wretchednessDistorting my life to sorrowPray every night to God aboveEnd this sufferance...please, no moreStill more comes, ripping heart from cageCrushing it in fate's monstrous handsDeny me not what I see, and tell me not that I lieDo you see the pain of this twisted soul,Feel the heart as it breaks to slivers of nothing?My face now tear-stained forevermoreGriefs brought by man's own sadistic pleasures.Make it end I beg of you...Please, no more.
Hookup
lookin for a kinky girl to party and hookup for some kinky fun. that is the dream anyway, really just want a girl thats not a piece of shit. lol. but then again my standards are prob. to high, guess thats why im still  single. OH YA AND IM THIRSTY CAN U SATISFY MY WATERSPORTS FETISH.
Owners Manual Part1
As I stepped about his boat, I knew I would not be able to run from now on. I was his. Really he has owned me since he bought my husband's business 2 months ago. But now he owns me in every way. I stepped aboard his yacht wearing a short white mini and a half T-shirt. Mr. Martin instructed me not to wear shoes or underwear. My thoughts race as I can only imagine what he has planned for me. My nipples are so hard they ache and my cunt is weeping with delight.Leading me down to his cabin, he calls to the bridge for us to get underway. I feel the boat slowly move away from its moorings and know that I am a captive guest of Mr. Martin. I was ordered to strip. I started to unzip my skirt and slowly slide it to the floor. I must have removed it too slowly because Master Martin violently ripped my shirt from my body. I stood there naked and trembling. I immediately cast my eyes down and made a poor attempt to cover my body. Martin sternly said as he grasped a handful of my hair and pushed me
Owners Manual Part2
My body ached from its use yesterday. I moved to Master and knelt by his bed. He was beginning to wake and reached over and grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled my head to his cock. It was semi-erect. My lips immediately sucked him in. I swirled my tongue around the head and licked feeling it grow inside my mouth. It quickly began to become too much for my mouth but Master kept my nose to his pubic hair until I began to gag. He released my hair and allowed me to work his cock with my hands and mouth. I tried to take more of him down my throat but gagged each time. Master pressed a button above his bed and the girl from yesterday entered the room. She moved beside me and rooted me out of the way and immediately buried Master's cock down her throat. She bobbed her head slightly, keeping the enormous cock all the way down her throat. Master's hips were bucking and he began to grunt as his orgasm came and his cum pumped into the girl. I was ashamed and could not look as she had pleasure
Owners Manual Part3
It was late in the evening when Jenny came to wake me. I was dressed in thigh high nylons, 6 inch "fuck me" pumps and wrist cuffs and my collar. Jenny brushed my hair and placed it in a tight bun. A leash was snapped into my collar and I was led to the deck of Master Martin's yacht.All of Master's slave/crew were lined at the dock plank of the boat. As guest arrived they were matched with a slave/crew member. Generally it was females with males and vice-versa. My leash was given to my Master. He touched my face gently and smiled. Without a word, my juices were flowing, nipples erect and aching.With all the guests on board, Master gave the signal to embark and the yacht slowly pulled away from the dock. I was to find out that we were heading to Master's Island Estate. Master led me to the main deck of the yacht and had me kneel beside him. I presented as I had been taught. My legs were spread, arms behind my back and interlocked, and my head down. This position demonstrated my submissio
We All Know
I have lost loved ones due to breast cancer. Both men and women, Alike. My work is is selling T-shirts, The one I am wearing in the pic. So for every picture rate and bling I get I will donate $100 dollars to this great cause. Help the boobees and neebies out. I have donated $800. so far just in the last week. I want to see more men and women surviving from this. I have kids, and I am sure you do to. They have a cure but it takes a but load of money to get it. So that is why I am donating to this. And if the speeling is bad. I apoloize for the miss spelling. my fubar is messing up on me tonight. had to type fast. Good night. The smacker
I Failed
So anyway, I tried to play the who is my admirer game, and lost horribly.  damn my luck!!!!
Just Married!
Ok so regardless of the fact that I was suposed to have done this in april. I lost my job and it didn't happen. Well it is Offical now I am Mrs. Denny Zeleniak. YAAAAAY  MEEEE!!!!!!!!
My Fight...
hey everyone,in case you're wondering my name is Basil,if you have read my profile you know that i have been fighting cancer for a pretty longtime now.Today May 30th,marks the very LAST day of radiation for me.I am fine,i have an unbelieveable support group,my friends,my family doesnt know im sick(ish)they know i was sick before but they dont know it came back,i have been going to radaition then going to work ,for child protective services,and my nite job as a bartender.thru all this my friends have saved my life,this is basically for them so i can say thank you for saving me.so many times i couldnt get out of bed,no desire to open my eyes anymore and my friends got me to.living a normal life is the most important thing to me,if for a moment i stop and think i cant do somthing because im sick,it goes down hill from there.the excruciating agonizing pain we go thru while having this is something i cant explain,thank god(or what or who ever)for music and cheesecake,LOL,i still laugh as th
Wtf Is Wrong With My Husband?!?!
 My husband has never been confused for very manly. He never liked sports or any other manly activity except for jacking off but I thought that perhaps I could change that. I love to watch sports. I get crazy when a Mariners game is on. Don't get anywhere near me when wrestling or football is on. I was watching a mariners game and getting bummed because I was as good as alone when it came to him watching it with me. I am TRYING TO FUCKING LAMINATE HIS MAN CARD! Nope he didn't want to watch the game. Ask me what he wanted to do. ASK ME WHAT HE DID!!! HE WAS (AND STILL IS) READING A MOTHER FUCKING ROMANCE NOVEL!!! AND EATING CHOCOLATE! MY HUSBAND IS A FUCKING WOMAN!!! I AM MORE OF A MAN THAN HE IS! A FUCKING ROMANCE NOVEL. OMG I think I hurt his feelings. Now I have to listen to him about his fucking feelings and how I am soooo fucking insensitive. I don't even get to pee standing up.
448
here's the lyrics to a song... 448, we just finished recording today. will be up on my site asap..... so yeah just to se ya up a bit, this was from a time in my life where i was still figuring out what i really wanted.   I wake feeling like my words are a waste The way they bend and they break but they never say a thing they're arranged to mask the way that i feel to disguise and conceal giving me purchase to do the same   @ 448 before the morning breaks clarity, rains down on me it's sickening the way it stings   this road seems familiar like i've been her before but somehow it's different, just how i can't be sure cuz i took few more than i have in times past now it's mine and mine alone   it's too late to change the days that have passed but it's the ones up ahead that truly scare me to death they complicate and rearange what feels right they turn me on my insides cause me to question my allibis   chorus   I open the door to see the look on your face not s
Wtf Was I Don'
when i as in high school i was bored as hell riden threw atlanta with my boyfriend n friend.we started playn truth or dare..long story short me and my friend butt ass naked in atlanta rush hour.lol the truck drivers were greatful!it was cold as hell though it being feb.
Paying For Rates
ITS MY BIRTHDAY COME LEVEL UP ON ME IM PAYING FOR RATES  SO ITS A WIN WIN SITUATION YOU RATE ME AND LEVEL UP AND GET PAID WHILE DOING SO.... WILL PAY 5K/100 WITHOUT A HAPPY  HOUR AND 20K/100 WITH HAPPY HOUR ..SIMPLY PM ME FOR PAY DO NOT SHOUT ME , AND DONT CHEAT I DO CHECK ! RANDOM BLINGS GIVIN TO MASS RATERS AND NEW RATE FAN AND ADD'S  TELL ME YOU DID SO IN THE FRIEND REQUEST...HELP ME HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY BY HELPING  ME EARN MY WINGS PLEASE???  MUCH LOVE AND THANKS YOU IN ADVANCE REYNA....
O.k. Guys!
I know I haven't been on lately do to my treatments for cervical cancer however I need some help leveling up, I will return the favore when ever possible..... Thanks So Much, Love Always Your Friend Jaime!
Submission.......part V
The heat, the throb deepens along her softly burning buttocks as she stands staring at the statue of the man. Her breath softly inhales as her Masters words caress her neck in warmth. "Just think of it my slave, look at how thick his cock is. Now, tell me, you want that in your sweet ass." he whispers into her ear. With his closeness, his words, his breath so hot against her flesh, she shivers, captured, entranced at the thoughts he places within her mind. So slowly, does she shake her head. Then fear grips her at the knowledge that she could never possibly take such a size. "No.." she whispers. His hand slides further into the soft folds of her pussy, feeling the soft tremble of it, the wetness as his fingers glance against her clit, feeling how rigid it is, how her body shivers as she watches the statue. "Slow, painful penetration.." he whispers into her ear. "You know you want that pain, want to serve your Master in whatever way pleases him." Again, the slow shake of her head at th
Love Story
Lyrics to Love Story : We were both young When I first saw you I closed my eyes And the flash back starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air I see the lights See the party the ballgowns I see you make your way Through the crowd And say Hello Little did I know That you were Romeo You were throwing pebbles 'Till my daddy said Stay away from Juliet And I was crying on the staircase Beggin' you Please don't go And I said Romeo take me Somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting All that's left to do is run You'll be the Prince And I'll be the Princess It's a Love Story Baby just say Yes So I sneak out To the garden to see you We keep quiet Cause were dead if they knew So close your eyes Just keep this down for a little while Cause you were Romeo I was a Scarlett Letter And my daddy said Stay away from Juliet But you were everything to me And I was beggin' you Please don't go And I said Romeo take me Somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting All that's left to do is run You
My Birthday
My birthday is on June 29th.  If any of you wish to send me a card via regular mail my address is as follows. Charles Davis 33319 Lime St.  Lake Elsinore,  California 92530 - 1515  USA  I am giving out this address because I may not be online later this month due to dissconnection notice (temporary) due to budget problems. thank you for reading this. 
Whats This Life For???
OK I give up.  You win.  You got what you wanted.  Everyone has alienated me and stopped talking to me.  You win I lose.  Im just going to cease to exist.  You wanted me to be miserable and not worth the air I breathe.  You got it.  I probably wont be around anymore so congrats.  You win
The Lighthouse
The descending orange sun was just settling on the ocean waves. Looking back, our footprints were the only blemishes on a near perfect carpet of white sand. His hand was permantly interlocked in mine. Finally we were all alone. We walked on the oceans edge, as the waves crashed on the shoreline. Talking of trivial things, yet each of us hanging on every word the other had to say. Then without warning, he released his grip from my hand, and began to run down the shoreline. he began to laugh while shouting.."Beat me to the lighthouse, and I'm yours!!!"  The words he said hit home. I was soon on a dead run also, towards him, as he dissapeared down the beach. His feet kicking up  tiny white granules of sand, as he sprinted  away.. He was panting as he reached the base of the lighthouse, and began to descend the stairs. And I was gaining quickly, but was I quick enough? he was agile as he hit every step, circling the staircase, moments away from reaching the top. With me only a step behind
Silly People
You find concentrations of silly and intellectually challenged people in the strangest and scariest places...take I90 for instance, it's a prime example. Here's some advice for those that need it. (You know who you are...I log a lot of miles in a week, I drive a black Chevy Trailblazer, and odds are I've flipped you off by now ) 1. 20 miles an hour BELOW the speed limit in the left lane is NOT acceptable. 2. If it's bigger than you, I would suggest you either be nice and let them pass, or speed the hell UP!!! 3. In referring to the aforementioned...if you're merging onto the Interstate and there's a SEMI that can't get over because of the Idiot mentioned in number 1...it's a good idea NOT to play chicken with him. Odds are he's thinking of ways to choke the living SHIT out of Idiot #1. You really want to piss off someone driving something that big??? 4. Driving at 75 miles an hour is not advisable when trying to put on your earrings or mascara...do us all a favor, go without or EXI
Babbling Again...
"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward in the same direction" ~Saint Exupery~ If two people can't see the same thing when they look ahead...then they won't be traveling in the same direction...They go their separate ways...And eventually they can't even see each other
Wahoo
Well, I went to see my internal radiation doctor & he says everything looks good, I'm able to go back to having sex however need to use lots of KY jelly. John had went in DRY an lemme say that shit hurt like hell although I took it because it's been over a year since we've had some good ole (SEX)....lol... Anyways I will let you know more when the time comes on what the doctors say if they have gotten it all or not!   Much love always your friend Jaime!
Miss Me - But Let Me Go
                                                              When I come to the end of the road And the sun has set for me I want no rites in a gloom filled room Why cry for a soul set free?   Miss me a little –but not for too long And not with your head bowed low Remember the love that we once shared Miss me – but let me go   For this journey that we all must take And each must go alone It’s all a part of the Master’s plan A step on the road to home   When you are lonely or sick of heart
Me In A Nutshell
Cancer Characteristics and Cancer Personality If a person under the Cancer Sign has an interest in you, they will drop subtle clues. Don't expect them to be forward, as they don't know how to be. Since they have a tendency to be old-fashion in beliefs, the perfect date would be tickets to the theater, a romantic restaurant, or a cultural event. As they tend to be romantic day dreamers, and reflect in the past, bring up some old stories so that they can relate some of theirs. Show an interest to this sentimentalist when they bring out their collections or old pictures. The Cancer Sign thrive on admiration and praise. Let them know how much you admire them. Compliments will get you everywhere. Ask their opinion, and be sure to be sincere about hearing their response. Keep in mind that a Cancerian hates rejection and is extremely cautious about making any commitment. They will try to avoid giving an answer, and whatever you do, don't try to rush them into one. Usually if the answer is n
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"assume The Position"
Assume the position Don't make me wait.Don't dare hesitate.Assume the position.Its your destined fate.To please your Master.Assume the position.On bended knees.You may rest upon your haunches.Cuffed wrists behind.Breasts bound, pinched nipples,My fingers squeeze.Enough to please.And make you wet between.My cock fills your mouth.That head you love to suck on.Dripping precum on your tongue.My hands grip hair so lovingly.My balls slap your chin.As you begin to choke. I pull from your throat.And watch you catch your breath.But still wanting more.Always wanting more.Assume the position.No! on your hands and knees.I will not bind you.Nor blind you.Nor silence your gentle voice.But, you will stay silentYou will not move.You will only see,What I want you too.My strong hand,Lays pain upon your ass.So deep it stings your clit.So deep you hit.....the sky.In sweet burning ecstasy.My cock a rod of muscle.Is all your eyes can see.Wanting him more and more.Your loins a churning sea.Assume the positio

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