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All Lies
I couldn’t ignore the pain any longer Life was just too much I never saw my life in future times Or happiness and love and such I’d been to the edge with the intent to jump And had become happy with thoughts of no pain Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse I had nothing left to gain The sun failed to shine In my world overcast Birds no longer sang And the first had become the last All things good and whole Had turned and went their way They were never to return to me So I felt I should just go away Consumption by hate, to save was too late Where should I turn now? Why do I get kicked when I’m down? When could I be happy? Or even better, how? Fallen and fetal I will return to the dirt Bittersweet battle within No longer would I hurt Smiles soon faded And hearts followed to break As I cried out for help I cried in heaven’s sake Routinely I cried For a hand to reach to me I looked blankly at emptiness’ stare And closed my eyes reluctantl

Mothers Milk
We believe in one drink, Guinness the almighty; Makers of cans and bottles; Of all that is drunk and un-drunk; We believe in one brewer;Arthur. The only son of Guinness; Eternally begotten of the hops; Hops from hops, barley from barley, True drink from true drink. Begotten, not made Of one distiller of the Father. Through it, all things were made for us men and our salvation. It comes down from St. James Gate. By the power of the market, he became incarnate, and was made a rich man. For our sake, we are crucified under Pontius Prices, Bad pints, suffer hangovers and AA meetings. On the next day we rise again in accordance with our scruples and ascend into oblivion. We come again to judge the living and the dead. We believe in one alcoholic beverage, Brewed and bottled under license. We acknowledge one, Arthur, inventor of the almighty pint Conceived in heaven, and sold on earth. Blessed is the one drink, through one father and many sons Sold under one label an

The Price Of Dishonesty Is Self-destruction.
The price of dishonesty is self-destruction. --Rita Mae Brown There once was a woman who told her husband what she thought he wanted to hear. She told him she was happy when she wasn't. She told him she liked his friends when she didn't. She tried to figure out what he wanted so she could do it for him. She felt hurt when he didn't do the same for her. She felt he should also try to read her mind and do what she wanted without her having to express it. She was scared to tell him how she really felt. However, her pain and resentment grew so much she couldn't stand it any longer, so she told him her true feelings. He was so used to hearing her lies that he called her a liar when she told the truth. Now she knew how much she had hurt herself by trying to please him at the cost of her own honesty and needs. Honesty is necessary for a good relationship with anyone. When we lie to ourselves, we cannot tell the truth to others. By being honest, we open our doors to others, we trus

Some People Just Have No Fuckin Clue
Here it goes... The reason for this is to clear up some Facts about This place know as FUBAR.. In the Beginning there was Lost Cherry… It all started September 23 2005… Ryan and Mike where looking for a way to communicate with their friends mostly the ones that travel a lot due to being Exteme Sport Athletes … If you didn’t know Scrapper / Ryan has a magazine called Kiteboarder. And babyjesus / Mike was working for one of those other web bases communities (which will remain nameless). Well they got together and started Lost Cherry. Now if ANY one you have they have read the core interests and if you READ them most of them are Exterem Sports… from BMX to Formula 1 Racing… Kite Boarding, BMX Racing, Surfing. Skate Boarding… just to name a few. You got the Idea now right? It was cool when I joined Oct 23rd 2005… that’s right one of the first members on here. Everyone was having a great time everyone got along and everyone joked with each other. Just hours of fun. No one cared ab

U, Me, And What?
Would you kiss me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Maybe [ ] Already Did [ ] Want to a lot right now! ***************************** Am I hot? [ ] No! [ ] OK [ ] Fine [ ] Beautiful [ ] Gorgeous! [ ]Sexy! ***************************** Would you hug me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Already did ***************************** Name one thing you would like to do to me... ***************************** I look like.. [ ] A player [ ] One time thing [ ] Next gf or bf [ ] A friend ....................................... [ ] A friend with benefits [ ] A possibility [ ] Another somebody [ ] A freak ***************************** If you saw me for the first time, would you talk to me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] maybe ***************************** Would you rather... [ ] Hook up with me [ ] Cuddle with me [ ] Date me [ ] Friends................................... [ ] Friends with benefits [ ] Fuck me? ***************************** On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate m

Thought Of Her....
I want to pour out myself to you to her to you I can pour Here's the lip, the spout But no receptacle Unless you hold it out. Go ahead choose a glass From your cupboard – take a glass, A mug, a cup, a blue glass choose the chalice chose the vessel Choose one, hold it up steady. Go into the kitchen, the floor is clean, Open a door, choose your favorite thing, Hold it to the light so nothing mars, Hold it to your breast, hold it to the stars. And if you find an empty glass With bright engravings all around, Hold it, there, just there Just hold And I'll pour. all that is me all that is you all that is all that will ill pour pour pou po p .!. _______________________________________

New Year
Yes another year is about to arrive & its gonna suck b/c I am alone. Well not really alone alone but without a guy & I can handle that for now as I think I found someone special but he is very far away & for now all we can do is talk on yahoo & thats fine. There are several other guys out there that I have been talking to as well and I really hope I get to meet some of you b/c you seem kewl as hell & I am sure we could have some fun hanging out. To those I have meet & you turned out to be disappointing WTF? But hey thats life you live & learn. Yes I can be jealous & very needy but that goes with divorcing an asshole who never told me I was worth anything. I am learning to deal with it as best I can. So if I piss you off or bother you too much just tell me don't just ignore me! Thanks and HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009! GO GATORS!

Toy Fun
Toy Fun I must have not been to naughty this year. St. Nicolas brought me lots of toys. Or maybe he wanted to see more of my wild side. Of course I had to try them all out. Cum on over to the member's sextion to see how I put them all to use. I test them all out in my sweet pink pierced pussy. I now have a new favorite toy. Can you tell which one it is. There is a video clip, in each sextion, of my newest video, "Baby Oil covered Exotic Flame" I make my luscious body so shiny with baby oil. I am ready for some slippery fun. XOXO Love XOXO Exotic Flame -- Hugs and Kisses Exotic Flame http://www.southern-charms4.com/exoticflame/main.htm

To All That This Affects
It came to my attention last night that someone has been under my sccount and being dirty. I spologize for anything that has been said. I did not do anything of the sort. I am not that type of person. Again I apologize for any harm or hurt feelings that was done.. I am trying to find out who was the person that was doing it. Thank you ~T~

Christmas Season
I am so glad to see that Christmas is over. I never really realized when I was a kid just how stressful the holidays can be for parents. Although at the end of the day, it is all worth it when you see their faces on Christmas morning. I love having family around but it is nice once everyone is gone and you can look back on a successful holiday and just smile. I was able to go through this holiday season with such amazing happiness looking forward in my life and no longer looking back on what had occurred over the last year. I truly understood the spirit of giving again because I was not only able to give presents but was able to give all of me, my time and my spirit. I haven't been able to do that in a long time. That was my Christmas miracle.

About Me
Hi there, my name is Kelly, half french and half Irish I love cheer leading, swimming and surfing the net. For those who may not know of me, I am a very kind, sweet, caring, independent, a leader and a loving person. I enjoy helping others. I would like to think I have always been an over achiever. I'm in the adult business and it started when I won in my first bikini contest. I started modeling bikinis and lingerie. I loved it. I couldn't get enough. I was showed a website and I immediately wanted one for myself. So I started a solo site and for those who doesn't know what a solo site is, let me enlighten you, lol, a solo girl is a term we use in the industry to describe a girl like myself. Solo meaning, her website only. No men and the main focus is she. Solo girls started the real girl next-door look, because we were just that. Real girls next door. I'm currently single and looking for someone who is on my level. A hard worker. Good looking, polite and has a good positive at

New Year...new Hope
For all who know me and have got to know me over the last year, they know that I have made some major changes this year. Some of them where forced and some of them were by my choosing. With all of them there is just one thing I can say, I am going to be so damn glad when this year is over. I will not look on 2008 with fondness other than for the fact that I finally got my shit back together during this year. I have a few simple wishes for the upcoming year. 1. I want to begin to live my life with purpose again. I never again want to put my career and job over all else in my life again. I love what I do but it is not what I am. 2. I want to spend more time with my family. More quality time. It is important to realize that it is not the quantity of time that you spend but the quality of time. My boys have already grown up so much right in front of my eyes. Now it is time to open up my eyes more and enjoy them. 3. I want to take the time to appreciate my friends both old

A Life Without A Dream Is Just Existence
Pastor Gerald made this statement in the sermon he gave the first Sunday after Christmas yesterday. He also referred to the day as being two special anniversaries for him; his wedding anniversary (he married Luann in 1977, thirty-one years before) and the anniversary of preaching his first sermon in 1969 (when he was a senior in high school, thirty-nine years before). Yet Bethany Lutheran is the first church he’s been pastor of because he spent most of his life as a farmer; in North Dakota, I understand this is not unusual. In fact, one of his sons still manages their family farm and he and Luann get out there a lot. I just hope when I’m in my mid-fifties I have a willingness to take a new direction in my life that I’d spent decades preparing for without even realizing it; I admire him a lot for that. Like most people who see our kids frequently (and even Martha and I do this), it’s easy to call Sarah or Jeffrey by the wrong name, especially if we’re in the middle of somethi

Pause For Thought
Why do we always want the things we can't have? Why do we always set ourselves impossible goals? Why do we then wonder why we are disappointed? Answers for a more stress free life....... Set yourself only reachable targets Ask for nothing Expect nothing Give only what you can spare The only exception in all these rules are: Your heart Your love For they should be given freely A broken heart is better than a frozen one

I Met An Angel Yesterday
I met an angel yesterday Her heart so pure and true The perfection of her features Her eyes a clear and crystal blue She shone with inner radiance Her goodness showing through. She laid her hand upon me And spoke gently in my ear She said let nothing worry you Nor should you ever fear Life is never bad enough To make you shed a tear. She said tears show The Devil That his work is going well For He wants us all to suffer And on misery to dwell But God wants you to be happy And avoid the road to hell. For all life’s tribulations Find a happy thought to hold Keep a smile within your heart You must be strong and bold A loving thought will warm you And keep the evil in the cold. Try to never harbour hatred Or do an evil deed And never judge another By their colour or their creed Prejudice of any kind Helps evil plant it’s seed. Please do not be frightened By the words that I impart I mean only to assist you In the discovery of your heart For you to turn yo

Death On Hold
I need to die But things keep me here I can't take my life just yet I'm waiting for a large cheque my bitch is going to have puppies we're going to the States in August It's my birthday in September. Every time I make my plans it's always the same someone needs me something has to be done I can't wait much longer the waiting is killing me, I have all the details worked out now all I need is the When. My friends and family.. make me feel selfish but I think it's they who're selfish if you saw a stray dog suffering would you let it continue? no, you wouldn't, you'd end it's pain Well I'm suffering every day is harder than the last. I need release I need an end I need to die but... I have to live

Squirting
History of Squirting If you were to refer to literature over the last 50 years you would be lead to believe that females have only been able to ejaculate since about 1980. Of course this is absurd, and just shows how "the experts" can be wrong for decades on just about anything. Many knew the experts were wrong, but had little success in convincing anyone. Needless to say this lead to many problems, needless surgery (to fix the poor women who would ejaculate), expensive counselling (got to find out what happened when they were children to cause this "problem"), and in some cases divorce. "The G Spot" by Alice Kahn Ladas, Beverly Whipple, and John D. Perry, has dozens of letters from women who went though various personal tragedies because they would ejaculate during lovemaking. Doctors, gynaecologists, and psychiatrists invariably told them they were peeing and needed either surgery or psychotherapy. Newsweek published an article entitled "Just How the Sexes Differ" in May of 198

Strippers Are Crazy
Back in the day, before Al Gore invented the internet, dating was much more tough for me. I didnt have the skillz to pay the billz when it came to meeting chicks. Approaching women in bars was a tough sell for me. So I tried the party phone chat lines. I had a dream last night that reminded me on a chick and I just had to write about it. I met a chick who lived about 10 minutes away from me. God help me, I can't remember her name. So I will call her Julie. She was Phillipino mixed with something else, and she reminds me of Ross' one time girlfriend on Friends that he royally dicked over for Rachel (who was also named Julie). It doesn't matter, this is MY blog and I'll call her whatever the fuck I want. On our second date, she came over my house because I was planning on sealing the deal that night. She claimed to be an artist and brought over some of her drawings which were not half bad. Let's just say, she shound;t quit her day job. Actually, her night job, because she was a s

I Hate You
I hate to smile I hate to laugh I hate to giggle and grin I hate to skip I hate to dance I hate to twirl and spin I hate the sun I hate the stars I hate that sort of thing I hate the grass I hate the trees I hate the birds that sing I hate the sea I hate the sand I hate the seashells too I hate the world I hate it all I hate that all I don't hate is you

The Difference Of This Friendship...
Okay...So here's What's Going On In My Mind IN case Any Of You Negative Assholes Have Anything to Say About Me And My Friendship With *AnotherHeadcase*...Not That It's Any Of your Businessess....He And I Are Good Friends. We're Not Dating Eachother There Is An Open Possibility With That...And The Only Reason Why I Feel The Need To Explain Myself...is Because This Feels Different In A VERY VERY Good way...And I Know That There Are Questions At My Sudden Interest Change...But That I Will NOT Go Into Details As It Was A Stupid Misunderstanding That Cannot Be Reversed So WHY Bring It Up...Clearly If Certain People Are Not Over What They Are Feeling And Not Honest About It...Then i Cannot Change ANYTHING...I Am NOT A Mind Reader. I'm Not In Love With Gil...I Haven't Known Him Long Enough To Love. Plus I Am Still Fresh On The Whole David Thing... He Is Not My Boyfriend...For Now I Am Still Single... I Really Like Him Because We Can Be Silly And Not Have To Worry About What Words Mea

Running My First Auction
Entery fee is 35k and all you have to is make a Tag with what u would offer i'll be in it too send me ur entry pic and 5k the auction will start when i get 5 people and if you want in when it starts you can get in too > > > > > Thank u

How Much
What I see, how I feel, what I want Is to lose myself with you To react from the deepest depths of my soul Knowing you'll use against me what you know I don't know if I have everything you want Or if I can give you everything you need But I'll be the person that brings you to your knees For what I have to offer is given passionately Take of me what you want, what you will Rule the spread of my thighs Make me shameless...make me hot I want you to fuck me inside out Bring the torrid hurricane down on me And I promise to scream your name in return Wrap my legs around you so tight Take everything you have to give every night I'm all yours, body, heart and soul Every morning I'll erase all your doubts of life and love As I crawl on top of you And prove just how much I love you 10 pm, Dec. 29, 2008

What Are You?
Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test... Joe Normal For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored less than half in all three, earning you the title of: Joe Normal. This is not to say that you don't have some Nerd, Geek or Dork inside of you--we all do, and you can see the percentages you have right above. This is just to say that none of those qualities stand out so much as to define you. Sure, you enjoy an episode of Star Trek now and again, and yeah, you kinda enjoyed a few classes back in the day. And, once in a while, you stumble while walking down the street even though there was nothing there to cause you to trip. But, for the most part, you look and act fairly typically, and aren't much of an o

Auto's On...in My Dreams...or Yours?
FUBAR’S DREAM….IN MY DREAMS…OR YOURS? AUTO 11’S ARE ON!!! HIT HER WITH YOUR BEST SHOT!! AUTO 11’S ON!!! HELP HER TO PROPHET…SHOW HER MAD LOVIN!! ALL IS RETURNED!! IF SHE ISN’T ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS…SHE SHOULD BE!! IF SHE IS…YOU ALREADY KNOW YOU SHOULD BE LOVIN UP ON HER!! CLICK BELOW AND HIT HER WITH YOU’RE YOUR BEST SHOT!!! In my dreams...or yours? ~*~Shadow Leveler~*~Fu Angel~*~Fu Bad Girl~*~The Pegasus Project~*~@ fubar Bulletin Made By: Jaded One ▲►Ĵådəd Ôņə◄▼ Owned by 7up aka Lil One@ fubar

Fire
she kneels quietly happiness glitters in her eyes as He looks down at her Their bodies glow softly in the light of the fire warming them as it snows outside hair caresses her skin the red curls falling down her bare back He adores her He thinks to Himself she yearns to serve Him with a passionate hunger Fate doth brought them together keeping their souls linked even though for a time they parted He reaches for her pulling her into His lap kissing the tender skin at her neck holding her close to His body enjoying the scent of her essence she purrs softly nipping at His ear in her heart she in whole feeling now more complete He sits there quietly no words needed to be spoken in the dark with each other watching the fire burn down low she serves Him with tenderness He owns her with love

Belly Button Pericings....
I have one...and today ..and every day since then ..I’ve had people call me gay...cause of that...now what I don’t get is ...why should a piercing make a man gay?...I also was a cheerleader for north branch ....but no I wasn’t gay then either…I just like things that aren’t normal. .and I love rainbows….so all theses things point to …what gay…HELL NO ….they point to a man that wanted to do something so …he did…and I’m PROUD of what I’ve done and what I got and what I like…..so do you consider me gat or straight?…cause get it straight … cause I am…

Prayers Needed !!!!!!
I know that me and my husband (Marlboroman # 1 on my list) have alot of good friends on here ,so i would like to ask each of you to remember his mama in your thoughts and prayers . Her name is Dora and she is in her early 70's . Her doctor has overdosed her on her medcation causing her to have a major stroke . Which has left her not to be able to do anything at all for herself . She doesn't even know anyone in her family no more . She did know her husband when he came to see her. She turned sick bout a month now and she is in the hospital and was put on life support last night . They lost her once already but was for only 2 seconds and they worked and got her back.His dad is taking it really hard they've been married for 56 yrs. It's an awlful time and we all have been hoping and praying for a miracle ,so please if you have some time to spare please put her and there family in your thoughts and prayers . Also feel free to stop by marlboroman's page and send him a few words.He would re

Bad News From My Endocrinologist
While at the endocrinologists office i was told that I may have thyroid cancer because there is a lump infront of my thyroid. :( I am calling her to see if she will order a genetic test and do a biopsy just to be safe and if it comes back that its cancerous I'll have it removed ASAP. I have been scared and depressed. Just wanted to talk about this. Thanks for reading!

"forever, My Light"
As long as I can remember, I have fought evil in a world besieged by darkness. Then I found you. My beacon of light in my world of darkness. When I look into your eyes, I can hear children laughing. When I hear your voice, my heart sings. You have touched more than my heart. You have touched my soul. I will love you, forever. Be mine, forever. Be my light.

How To..
If your here, you are here for the levels, gifts, and perks given from one fuMember to the next. I am talking bling, bling packs, Happy hours, fuBucks, and the ride range of gifts and drinks. I want you to understand that I am willing to give those who earn it what they want. We all know that money must be spent for the worthwhile things here on this site. And most of us who have been around for awhile know what each is worth. I do enjoy the view provided by this site. I am looking for personalized views for myself though. Send me a private message with what you want, what your willing to give, and we'll go from there. I would like Grape Ape somewhere in the picture or a message to me. I am not talking only NSFW pictures. Use your imagination. There are hidden benefits and pitfalls. Some things will instantly get you a HH and tons more and some things that will get you blocked. Oh, if you instantly think you know what those are, you don't know me and are probably wrong. fu-Own

Extreme Views ????
things that happen in this world affect me so anything i don't agree with i don't allow to happen.... "thou shalt not judge" is for idiots and pussies... i prefer "all that is necessary for evil to prevail is for good men to do nothing"... now i don't consider myself good(i've my own moral system) ... but we've been brainwashed into believing it isn't our place and we should respect others boundries and life choices... i mean good men wouldn't get involved in fights they "have no place in" right? i was told today in a conversation about men beating their girlfriend/wife that getting involved is a good way to get killed... so be it.. and that they just end up going back to them anyway... but what about the 1 in 5 that don't ,that pray for help, that cry in fear hoping they'll live to see tomorrow(watch .45 if you want an example)... should we let them suffer as well? ... to continue.. one man against 5 isn't fair, i don't give a fuck if he insulted your girlfriend... and a woman who sit

Welcome Back, Wolf
(Yes, I blatantly ripped this off and altered it. But it fits me sometimes.) ================================================================================================== I caught a glimpse of Heaven once. The Angels showed me. The idea was I'd kill for them. Clean up their mistakes on Earth. Eventually redeem myself for all my sins. Gain admittance to their kingdom. Tried it. Didn't like it. Told them where to stick it. So they brought me up to Heaven, to see what I'd be missing. God's love. Forgiveness. Peace. I hadn't seen that since I turned my back on hope years ago. Then I was cast down. Back to a world of killers. Rapists. Psychos. Perverts. A brand new evil every minute, spewed out as fast as men can think them up. A world where throwing a drug dealer or a child molester off a train bridge over the Mississippi River to tell his fellow scum you're back is a sane and rational act. The angels thought it would be Hell for me.... ...But they wer

When I Close My Eyes....
When I Close My Eyes When i close my eyes at night i see all the things that went wrong.All the things that could have and should have been avoided.All the things that should not have been said are thrown into the air for all to absorb.Things that are never helpful but instead cause more pain and anguish than one person can stand.One person alone can cause all these bad things, but it takes two to make them go away. I know that without the second there to say, "its ok, tomorrow is a new day" nothing could or would get better.Without that someone there who really understands you, and knows that sometimes your words are not meant in the way they are sometimes taken, you are left all alone with these thoughts and feelings you want and need to express.When these things are left bottled inside they react like a can of soda exploding when shaken. Close the door to the feelings and locking them deep inside is something I tend to do more than i really should, but i know of no othe

Falling Tear
Falling Tear There was a time when all felt right, days filled with warm sunny mornings and cool comfortable nights. There were days I felt I could do no wrong, but like all good things, it wouldn't last long. Sunny mornings turned to rainy days, comfortable nights turned to never ending fights. Rainy days seem to go on and on, washing away all the feelings till they're gone. Feelings that once were filled with love for life, hammered to the ground, stabbed by your knife. I've gone from enjoying the sunrise, to dreading opening my eyes. Some people want to live forever.....but me? I'd rather sink to the bottom of the nearest river. Sinking into the darkness, feeling my body die. All I can think of is all the lies. Lies that could have been avoided by telling the truth, but it's too late now, the lies are trapped under this roof. Try to remember the last time we shared a kiss...the last time we had true passion. Good-luck...it probably won't happen. Someday those f

Your Touch
Your Touch I can still remember the feel of your touch. A touch that made me feel weak in the knees, a touch that i knew was only for me. Your touch was all i needed to calm the anger inside, the anger that takes me over and does as it pleases till no one is safe, no one is happy, no one wants to be around me. Your touch used to make me smile, laugh, be the person i always wanted to be. A touch that held no harsh words, no cold stare, no hidden understanding for me to evaluate. Now the touch is different, it doesn't feel the same, it feels more like a touch of a stranger. A touch that was so gentle and loving, now feels like a shove in the face. I can feel all your hostility, all your hatred, all your loathing for me in a single touch. I've gone from willing to die for your every touch, to not knowing if i want to be touched. I don't want to feel this way anymore, i don't want to feel at all, feelings just lead to pain and heartbreak. I wish, that just for one split-sec

I Believe That...
that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. that you can keep going long after you can't. that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. that either you control your attitude or it controls you. that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequ

Reverse Funnel System Mlm
Reverse Funnel System MLMLearn about making REAL MONEY right nowThe Reverse Funnel System is an automated sales process for home based businesses that is said to perfect the most difficult part of any home based business...the sales process. The creators of The Reverse Funnel System created it to eliminate the human error variable present in every sales process so that you make more money and spend less time with tricky sales pitches. It's said that the only thing you need to do is market the system and that it doesn't matter if you're shy or if you lack sales skills because The Reverse Funnel System takes care of the entire sales process for you.The Reverse Funnel System was created by a team of professional online marketers. They provide you with the marketing materials and resources needed to make the system work for you but does it work? Many people claim financial freedom from the product and swear by its success. Many others have lost thousands of dollars and hours of their time

My Sweet Shadow By In Flames
I'm selling heavenly sketches A world out of my mind Ready to explode in purity to fill the holes inside An ever moving stream with glowing rays of light Emotions tied to pass lies and I know I should let go Tamed with confidence of a brighter future I found a flame in the burnt out ashes... burn out, burn out! Fueled, these new shores burn, dark past lies cold Shadow, my sweet shadow, to you I look no more Another dawn collapses Do I need to be reminded A glimpse of my safe home A path to hide all anger I found a flame in the burnt out ashes... burn out, burn out! Fueled, these new shores burn, dark past lies cold Shadow, my sweet shadow, to you I look no more In circles I catch A torch carried by the immortal From depths that I created In vain echoes fade Burn out! Fueled, these new shores burn, dark past lies cold Shadow, my sweet shadow, to you I look no more Fueled, these new shores burn, dark past lies cold Shadow, my sweet shadow, to

For All Those Who Want To Be In My Family
a lot of people keep asking to be added to my family.......looks like no one reads profiles anymore, just looking at pics. well when you want to see my family pics then i have a challenge for you: rate all the pics and profile of my nr 1 family: eric and become familymember of me for a while :-) when you do rate them, leave me a private message, no shouts since i don't read those much

Mumms
So is it just me or have mumms lost their purpose? Mumm means Make Up My Mind. What ever happened to that concept? Now days we have the jackasses that post crap like "Am i worth your bid?" They use the mumms as a form of bulletin because it gets posted to everyone instead of just their friends and family (although I have seen some special people that post these kind of mumms for friends only). So perhaps fubar should create a special sticky where your bulletin gets seen by everyone instead of just your group of friends. Sticky's should cost fubucks. But the sticky that allows everyone on fubar to see your bulletin should cost money. There are also a lot of people on here that post stupid shit like "What should I have for dinner? chicken or pasta" Then because of their idiotic mumm people start bashing them. But they aren't just bashing the idiots anymore. They rip everyone apart in mumms (or so it seems). So whats the point of even going to the people of fubar to help make up

Another Day, Another Eye Opener
So yesterday was my bday, and thank you for all the love from my friends. BUT, I never expected to spend my bday in the hospital and that is what happened. I had been having this pain in my knee for a few days and kept brushing it off, thinking I bumped my knee during my skid out on Xmas Eve. But when I woke up yesterday and could barely walk, I knew I had to go in. So the hospital did knee xrays, and nothing came back to say anything was wrong with my knee. The doc looked at my chart and saw I had had a Pulmonary Embolism in 2004 (blood clot in my lung), so he recommended a Doppler sonogram be done on my knee just to be 100% sure it wasn't a bloodclot. They did the Doppler and lo and behold...I have a bloodclot behind my knee. SO.....now I'm back on blood thinners BUT instead of complaining that I spent my bday in the ER all afternoon and evening, I am thankful that I didn't let my stubbornness keep me from going cuz I wouldn't have been here to tell you to Cherish Life always...it's

On Her Away To Oracle!
PLEASE HELP HER MAKE IT THERE! IF YOU DONT HAVE HER AS A FRIEND YOU ARE REALLY MISSING OUT! Scarlett{Shadow Leveler}{Yeahmon's Angels}~Proudly owned by Ms.Sassy,Gary&BooBoo~Loved by JonJon@ fubar

Two Days We Should Not Worry About !!
There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension. One of these days is Yesterday with all its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed; we cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone forever. The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow with all its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and its poor performance; Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow's sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow, for it is yet to be born. This leaves only one day, Today. Any person can fight the battle of just one day. It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities Yesterday and Tomorro

My Resignation
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly e

Strange Number
This is really strange.. try it! GET A CALCULATOR. 1. Key into the calculator the first 3 digits of your phone number (the exchange, not the area code). 2. Multiply by 80 3. Add 1 4. Multiply by 250 5. Add the last 4 digits of your phone number 6. Add the last 4 digits of your phone number again 7. Subtract 250 8. Lastly, divide by 2 Is this your phone number?

A Forever Friend
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is Forever Friendship. When you're down, and the world seems dark and empty, Your forever friend lifts you up in spirit, and makes that dark and empty world suddenly bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times, and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete, because you need not worry, You have a forever friend for life, and forever has no end.

Feeling Blue
Well 2009 is aproaching people another day or so lol ....But im feeling a little Blue was on facebook looking at some pictures some of my family members posted and it just reminded me about how much i miss them ....My holidays where pretty quiet spent it with my mom and her boyfriend and his grandson....my parents split about 4 years ago time flies let me tell ya....i think the first xmas with my parents being apart was the hardest but for some reason i still find it a little hard with my father being 13 hours away i see him maybe once a year or 2 years and thats being generous we barely keep in contact we talk once a month....but all in all i cant complain i have my health and some family members around ....new years resolution is gonna be hard i decided to quit smoking and cut junk food out of my life :s wish me luck lol but i have to do it for my health and myself im sure im gonna have my moments but ill survive......I hope all of my friends have had a verry merry xmas and have a ha

Momies Love
I have been writting to my mom since 2005. The year she died you gotta share though when it gets tough. So I am venting here. I don't know how much of you believe in the supernatural. I do know. I was cleaning the house one day, crying contemplating my marriage. When i saw out the corner of my eye a person at the top of my stairs. I looked up it was my mom. What do you think that means. I meen i was bawling around thinking of my marraige and there she appears. A woman who wouldnt leave a man if they killed her. Which i think her bastard husband did. but I have dreamed that one day that i would get to know here. I was in and out of foster care. I lived with my dad from the ages 5-12, not a picnis i tell ya. My step mom hates me she kicked me out after some crazy shit went down. My mom was proud of me though, I was the first from her side of the family to graduate, the 2nd to join the military. by choice. I miss her. If you read this feel free to geve me advise on how to coop i still don

For My Son... The Lessons He Is Sharing With Me What He Has Gone Thru So Far Being In The Army...
My heart goes out even more for the men and women in the army... granted i was in, but it was mostly peace time when i served, and yes i seen a lil shit its nothing like what the men and women r faceing w iraq and afgahanistan... when i went thru basic back in 87 they didnt teach us "combatives" like they r teaching now, i am glad to see this training is being taught but... i have friends who are vietnam vets and i come from a family who has a strong military history, i never thought my own children would ever do the same... i have so many mixed emitons now... i am so proud, i see that warrior spirit within my son, i know he gets this strength from me, yet my heart breaks cuz i pray he never has use it to stay alive. my heart really does go out to those who are the parents of the new soldiers... i hope u find the peace u need... the following videos are a look at what a soldier goes thru in basic training ...hope u enjoy. no this is not my sons platoon but it i

Gary
We hear you’re going to retire Start a chapter in life that’s brand new, No worry ‘bout statistics and deadlines And a lot of us wish we were you! Get rid of that pesky alarm clock Throw out those suits and those ties, Sit around with all of your buddies Telling war stories and all kinds of lies. Forget about files and faxes Stay in bed when the weather is cold, Chuckle a bit at all of us peons Who are doing the same old, same old. While we’re happy you’re leaving the rat race And facing the unknown with no fear, Once in a while come by and say ‘howdy’ ‘Cause you’re leaving a lot of friends here.

Something To Think About :d
Can you cry under water? How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered? Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to? Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity? Why does a round pizza come in a square box? What disease did cured ham actually have? How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage? Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours? If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing? Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV? Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground? Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway

It's Time
So I decided, today is the day that I look ahead and stop holding onto what happened with my ex-husband. Today is the day that I realize that I am worth fighting for. Today is the day I realize I deserve to be treated like a queen. Today is the day I take a step to my future. No matter how scary it is. No matter how hard it is. I have to move forward. I have to look ahead. Starting today. It's hard to start over. It's been almost 3 months now since I left the sorry situation I was in. It's been even longer since I felt like a someone important. It's time to leave that behind me. It's time to be the woman I know I can be. It's time to open up my heart and world to new possibilites. It's time to be ME again! It's time to take a step to the dreams I let go of. The ambitions that made me ME! Thanks to everyone in my life that has believed in me when I thought I wasn't worth believing in. It's a new day. And I'm a new me.

Stupid
Afraid Of you And what you mean to me Knowing That Im Alone in what I feel. Waiting For the day You finally walk away. Dreading The feeling Of life without you. Hiding From you So you dont know what I think. Smiling Through pain Do you look at me that deeply? Praying To God That I am enough to keep you. And all these things that I see in mah head. All these things that I feel in mah heart. Nothing that I know can stop me from loving you.

First Post!
So... I joined this site yesterday thinking it looked a little silly, but it's not to shabby... almost like a night life version of myspace or something, lol. It's alright! So.... I'm stuck at work right now in some serious pain... I have this stomach ulcer - had it since October 2007 when I left my fiancee. Stress related obviously! lol And sometimes when I get stressed out, upset, or just eat the wrong thing... boom - there it goes. Makes me feel like a little critter is eating my stomach from the inside out and splashing acid sauce on it for flavor. Ouch! Anyways, so I uploaded a few pics, what do you guys think? A few of my daughter, one of just me, and one of my and my sesSsy man EJ! More pics to come later when I find some I like. Anyways... so, I have two more days for work at this godforsaken job, I hate it so much here! Been working as a secretary for G&A Electronic Services (owned and operated by my grandparents) for about 4-5 years on and off. This has been the WORST J

Talk About California Girls... Yummy!
Come Rock with Cali4nialovin's Pacific Coast Party; only at Hot Rocks Radio Wednesday 3-6 P.M. Eastern. I'll make sure you get your rocks off!! Click on the Hot Rocks Radio Lounge banner below to join the party!

My 123008 Kiss Fortune
Tell them what you really think. Otherwise, nothing will change. --- Speaking honestly right now will save you much sadness and will set the course for you to move through life with strength.

Some Random Facts About Me Pt 1
- I am lactose intolerant - I have three nipples - I have had 2 sets of wisdom teeth - I can say "hello" in over 14 languages - One of my biggest fears is the ocean(which is ironic because im stationed in Hawai'i. -I hate the words moist, fiesty, nonsensical, discharge, bulbous, twaddle... more to come on that - My second biggest pet pieve is when people chew with their mouth open - My penis is named Mr Mistoffelees (soon to be Dr. Mistoffelees OB/GYN) and my balls are John Coltrane(R) and Richard Gere(L) - I talk to myself out loud more than the average person - Food that makes most people fat makes me skinny. I have 9 fingernails, and 9 toenails -I love Pride and Prejudice and Harold and Maude -Words I hate pt.2: Poop, Cav, Ideal, Whom, Towellette, Louvre, Derelict, Lummox, HOOAH, Roger, Corn-hole -I have to tap my feet or drum with my hands all the time -When I swim, my eyes change from Brn to Hzl then to Grn -If I say I am going to

Pink0828 Needs A Lil Love
Yes Yes Ladies our wonderful lady Pink has a little over a million to go to level up so why dont we all try to pull together and bring her in to a level while bringing her in to a new year!! much luv

Dvus And My Bully...level Us Up!!
AUTO 11's ARE ON BABY!! Do You Have Some Time? Want To Level Fast? WE HAVE AUTO 11's ACTIVE NOW!! Take Some Time And Level Us And Yourself Up...W00T!!. DVUS_1**OWNED BY BUTTERFLY N MISS HONEYPIE [[FU ENGAGED TO ?MizP£Å¥MÅTË ØF ?ÅWK?@ fubar ??Jåd?d Ôn??? Owned by 7up aka Lil One@ fubar

Mind Munchies
Everyone has the right to believe and accept what he or she wants, but reality doesn't discriminate. Reality is not different for different people. Not once has reality excused anyone for good intentions ignorance or stubbornness. Reality shows no mercy, accepts no excuses, and issues no pardons. Reality does not "turn the other cheek." This does not mean that reality is cruel, it just means that reality is what it is ................... accept it !!!!

The Perfect Christmas Gift Ever
I just wanted to share a really special gift I recieved for Christmas from my 21 yr. old son Lance!!!! I hope it touches you like it touched me. I couldnt ask for anything more..... Dang mom.. just now thinkin about how I dont got nothin to give you for xmas... so heres what i'll give you.. me! thats the best present any mom can get. lol. I love you so dang much you have no idea with out you theres realy no Lance. You are the most special person in my life. Your my best friend and your my mom.. I got 2 things in 1. I've alrady told you I couldnt live with out you and I still mean every word I said. You always put the biggest smile on my face.. I know some times im not around much and im sure you miss me and I know I dont say it too often anymore but I still miss you all the time when im not at home. You mean a whole lot to me mom. I hope you know how much you truely mean to me cause having a mother as great as you has been such a blessing. I am so glad your my mom. Im so glad you

What Makes 100% ???
From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this: What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life? Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions: If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26. Then: H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% and K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E 11+14 +15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% But, A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100% And, B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T 2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103% AND, look how far ass kissing will take you. A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G 1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118% So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close,

Olaya Tagged Me~ And I Get To Tag Others So Here Goes!
Here are the rules: Each player of this game starts with the "6" Weird Things about You." People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read your blog. 1. I pray nearly every day because if nothing else I need the practice in asking for help and recognizing that I don’t have all the answers. 2. When I'm listening to music I almost always listen repeatedly to one song over and over again, sometimes a whole day long. 3. I sometimes use my toes like fingers to pick things up. If I’m walking through the house and happen to pass something on the floor that shouldn’t be there, say a pencil, rather than taking the trouble to bend down and pick it up, I’ll just grab it between my first and second toe and lift my foot up to meet my hand. I then put it where

So Glad Were Sister's
(From my only sister to me) Darlene;I wonder if you realize how glad I am that we're sister's, Even though I may not always stop and tell you so. Your warmth and thoughtfulness makes such a difference in my life. I think you are really special, and I just wanted you to know. I hope this makes your life a little better. Dont ever forget I will always be here for you! I am the "Jefa" and "I love you sister" Michelle(From me to her) Michelle;There's no better friend than you my sister . There's no one more loyal and true . . . and even though we are different . . .our likeness come shining through! Perhaps it's a family resemblance that strengthens the bond we share . . .or maybe it's just that sisters live life with a similar flair! You know more than I will admit. You have seen me in some situations when silence just wouldn't suffice . . . and managed somehow to get by with those sisterly w

Parents
Some people look back on their childhood as, ‘The best years of their lives’. I, on the other hand, hated being a child because I always felt caged and restrained. I disliked having to ask for things. I specially disliked being told “No!” without a logical or fair reason. I hated being told what to wear,when to come home or where I could go. When I was very young I hated not being able to reach things. I really hated sitting in the back seat of the car being told to “Sit still and shut up!” When visitors came we were sent outside to play. We were usually sent to bed when we weren’t ready or tired. One of my earliest childhood memories has me standing at the gate with my mother’s voice calling from the house, “Darlene, don’t you leave the yard will you?” I was about three years old and I was wondering why I couldn’t go out of the gate. My father and my big brother left every day. They both got to go out of the gate, but I wasn’t allowed to. People walked past, stopped, said

Pic Contest Please Help!
I'm in a contest and all I need is just 1 rate Will Run From Midnight On The 30th Dec Till 31st Of Dec Midnight The Prizes As Follows 1,3,5,10,20 Credit Blings 1 Golden Star 1 Month Vip 3 & 7 Day Blasts Plus Bling pack The Most Person With The Most Rates Gets A $20 Bling Pack Click the pic below to rate my pic thank you This Contest Is Brought to You by… MZ.BELLE~Shadow Levelers~ Owned by Sexy Baby Blue Eyes~Fu Owner/Owned By I'm Smut~~and~~~Demented187~~~FU Owned by 'MZ.BELLE for life~~~Force 3 Bomber This Bulletin Brought To By: SinfulBrat

Join The Starry Night Auction!!
Puffz and Silentlizard are having an auction. Rules: Starts Sunday Jan 4th and ends Saturday Jan 10th No entry Fee!!! No Drama!! Auctionee has the right to refuse any bid SFW pics only please Can enter until Wed, Jan 7,2009 Fubucks and cash bids allowed Send link to pic you would like to use and what you are offering to Silentlizard This auction brought to you by: Puffz and Silentlizard

Your Age By Diner & Restaurant Math
This is SOooooooooooOoooooo trippy You got to try this.... I did it three times and it was the same every time. This is preaty neat.... DONT CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST! IT TAKES LESS THAN A MINUTE Work this out as you read Be sure you dont read the bottom until you've worked it out THIS IS NOT ONE OF THOSE WASTE OF TIME THINGS, IT IS FUN First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to go out to eat (more than 1 but less than 10) Multiply this number by 2 Add 5 Multiply by 50 If you have already had your birthday buy this year add 1756 if you have not add 1755 Now subtract the 4 digit year you were born You should have a 4 digit number The first digit of this was your original number..... The next two are your age (Oh yes it is !)

Changes
Are changes meant to help us learn Are changes meant to help up grow or do we enact change due to what we learned and how we've grown regardless how or why it comes whatever reasons it began the time does come when change occurs sometimes needed sometimes wanted but either way it begins a new phase but in that phase what does come next will but determine More Changes and choices to be made so where I choose to make a choice I have chosen to make a change and if I chose the choice I did then learn to love the change it made is what I must learn to do

Mscharlotte2u & I Trying To Prophet & Oracle
Mission!! To level.. Duh!!! I want to Level by or at the strike of 2009! I figure I have a 3 hour window..lol Ideally East Coast Time since that is where I am at, but would be just as appreciative at doing it in whatever time zone..lol as long as I bring in the new year as a Prophet..lol Some Phenomenal People have donated Auto's and helped me out so much, anything I can do let me know..I truly appreciate it!! I will activate another auto when this one expires for that final push.. Yes..lol I'll try and find more picsAuto on~MsCharlotte2U~ No Rate~No Add~@ fubar This is Linda.. She is on her way to Oracle.. She has a ways to go but she has her Auto's on and every bit helps, we all know that.. A rate for her means points for both!She's a sweetheart of a gal and strongly supports our troops near and far~LIN LIN~ ~ Secret Fu Wifey of... ? ~ Our Troops Rock!~ No Fan No Add@ fubarSo stop by and love us both up.. we both have our Auto's on.. Double your pleasure for Double the f

Help A Lady Need One Rate! Ty
"NOW I ENTER A RATE CONTEST AND A LITTLE TWIST MUST RATE THE PIC BELOW! I LOVE TO GIVE OUT BLINGS FOR THE NEW YEAR! SO IF YOU GOT TIME STOP AND RATE THIS PIC ON THE 30TH WILL START AFTER MIDNIGHT TILL THE 31 AFTER MIDNIGHT FUBAR TIME WILL END! MUAH HERE THE PIC HOST IS: MZ.BELLE~Shadow Levelers~ Owned by Sexy Baby Blue Eyes~Fu Owner/Owned By I'm Smut~~@ fubar

Why Does Everything Come Crashing Down
ALL MY LIFE I HAVE WAITED FOR THE MOMENT WHEN I WOULD BE TRULY HAPPY. NOW I KNOW YOU THINKING DAMN I KNOW THAT FEELING WELL READ ON. YOU WAIT YOUR WHOLE LIFE TO FIND THE ONE PERSON THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY, AFTER A WHILE YOU START TO THINK IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. WEL THEN ONE DAY WHEN YOU DONT EXPECT IT YOU MEET OR START TALKING TO THIS PERSON WHO FOR SOME REASON YOU CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT. YOU STAY UP LATE ON THE PHONE WITH THEM EVERY NIGHT, YOU CANT GO A MINUTE WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT THEM. SO YOU THINK TO YOURSELF HEY I'LL PLAY THIS ONE BY THE BOOK, YOU TELL YOURSELF THAT YOU WILL BE HONEST 100%. WELL YOU TELL THEM EVERYTHING, FROM THINGS THAT DONT MATTER TO THINGS THAT WOULD MAKE THE AVERAGE PERSONS HEAD SPIN. AND THEY SIMPLY TELL YOU THAT NONE OF IT MATTERS AND THAT THEY ARE ONLY CONCERNED ABOUT THE FUTURE WITH YOU. WELL NOW YOU ARE STARTING TO FALL IN LOVE, BUT YOU ARE SCARED TO BECAUSE EVERYTHING BEFORE THIS PERSON HAS BEEN A FUCKING LIE. SO YOU ONCE AGAIN TELL YOURSELF THIS WILL BE

So...
I leave to see Jeff in a week and a half. I'm excited. I really miss him. I hope everything goes well. We're supposed to look for houses and shit this visit. I've already picked out a few to check out. Hopefully we can work it out. Anyways, hope you're all doing well.

Dui Texas Style
Only a person in Texas could think of this. From the county where drunk driving is considered a sport, comes this true story. Recently a routine police patrol parked outside a bar in Austin, Texas after last call the officer noticed a man leaving the bar so apparently intoxicated that he could barely walk. The man stumbled around the parking lot for a few minutes, with the officer quietly observing. After what seemed an eternity in which he tried his keys on five different vehicles, the man managed to find his car and fall into it. He sat there for a few minutes as a number of other patrons left the bar and drove off. Finally he started the car, switched the wipers on and off--it was a fine, dry summer night--,flicked the blinkers on and off a couple of times, honked the horn and then switched on the lights. He moved the vehicle forward a few inches, reversed a little and then remained still for a few more minutes as some more of the other patrons' vehicles left. At last, whe

Asshat !!!
A BEWARE and FYI SCAMMER ALERT So how about a guy that approaches someone to please fuown me.....please....my owner is deletin her profile ......I will buy you a blast if you do doll.... Cost ONE MILLION So....a friend of mine, buys him. Does he keep the promise and buy the BLAST? No.....he blocks her and runs with the FuBucks! ASH@ fubar AND NOW TELLING SOME TALL TAILS....

Broken Like An Angel
Broken Like An Angel lyrics [Originally written by Dollybraid] She was a queen Lost within a dream Misconceived that he was fit to reign Lies take victims Separate them at the seams Cause them to fall apart Then move along to better things now She Wants to fall in love again Don't you know that He's Satisfied to own her No time permits to open up When you've been hiding thoughts so strong She's been holding out for an angel to come along No reply from the sky But she just keeps looking up She just keeps looking up now She Wants to fall in love again Don't you know that he He's Satisfied to own her She'll never know love's true potential Lost in the open wind To his impatience Never feeling they would fall apart She let her feelings grow To tears she'll never show now She Wants to fall in love again Don't you know that he He's Satisfied to own her You know he couldn't see That she could be his everything Bringing light to everything

???
Sleep didn't keep me Sadness won't leave me I'm held in darkness I can't take back what I thought was mine My Angel tries to comfort me My Demon won't stop tormenting me I'm lost in a world I don't understand Surrounded by people I hate Just go away

New Year Lets Hope For Better Things In My Life
well other year down am going to really try and change my life am going to get better confidence in me so i can talk to girls better when i go out in real life i hope to get gf and get laid lol i need to do this i need a change so wish me luck i need it lol ty for my friends on that talktome

Help Me To Godmother
The one and only GOTHIC SLAVE is less than a million points to GODMOTHER!!! Please come help her level before its 2009!!! She’s a sweetie and she’ll luv you back for every ounce of luv you show her! Come on and give her some good FU LUVIN! ♥ღ•:*¨¨*:•.ღ♥ Gothic Slave ♥ღ•:*¨¨*:•.ღ♥@ fubar MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com Brought to you by: ♥Brown Eyed Girl ♥ ™ ~ Sarge's Bad Girls ~@ fubar PLEASE GO SHOW MY GIRL ** BROWN EYED GIRL ** SOME LOVING FOR ALL THE HELP

What Would You Do?
Questions first... message with your answers...smile. 1. You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but is very plain and boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get your significant other's house, short or long? 2. On the way you see 2 rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend, of any color combination. What number of white and red do you pick? (you can pick all of one or any combo of the two) 3. You finally get to their house. A family member answers the door. You can have them get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do? 4. You go up to you boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed? 5. Later, it's time for bed. You a

What Will Be Next ?
2003 : sadness 2004 : wondering and caring, searching 2005 : mistakes, lies, deceptions, fights 2006 : tries, new things 2007 : desillusion and tears before a sunshine came in my sky 2008 : dreams, plans, waits, undecesion, fears but hopes, hopes, hopes 2009 : time for decisions and construction , a "fundation" may all your dreams come true...

Internet Difficulties
About 3 weeks back,Massachusetts Rutland Sufferd the worst ice storm in History.My internet was knocked out,around 11pm that Horrible night.trees were snatching at the tops,branches everywhere luckerly no damage to the main house where I reside.The small apt had roof damage the cover was broke off the outboard motor an the canu was ruin'd.no power for over a week.We heated house with wood stove.an cooked on it as well.sponge baths only with water heated from wood stove. Charter came to restore net,around 10 days later.Big arguement with me many phone calls later an the Fascist pigs at charter communications terminated my connection.my only choice then was Verizon.I had hoped to get it for x'mas but then it was delayed till 29th of dec.then wasn't fixed till 30th.then I only had fubar for 1 hr.damn tease I'm back now hopefully till my next enteruption of enternet.Which is now verizon DSL.The telephone line from the pole to the house is a bit worn an with yesterdays 50 mph winds didn't

Outside - Staind
And you can bring me to my knees again All the times, that I could beg you please, in vain All the times, that I felt insecure, for you And I leave my burdens at the door But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times that I felt like this won't end It's for you And I tasted what I could never have It was from you All the times that I've cried, my intentions, full of pride But I waste more time than anyone But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times that I've cried All this wasted, it's all inside And I feel, all this pain, stuffed it down It's back again And I lie here in bed, all alone, I can't mend But I feel tomorrow will be okay But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I

9 Sex Fetishes You Probably Didn’t Know Existed
So you’ve read the Kama Sutra, or whatever ancient book about sex there is. I doubt, however, that these books ever had something like “frozen pudding pop” or “red wings” listed in its pages. Because no matter how imaginative or creative the writers of these old sex guides may have been, they’re no match to the capability of modern man to come up with the most perverse, some even sick, ways of pleasuring themselves during sex. Here are some of them: 1. Red Wings Cunnilingus on a menstruating woman. Bloody hell. 2. The Burning Bush This one is appropriately named, because a burning bush is literally what happens when a man dips his willie in hot sauce, then penetrates a woman vaginally. Let’s see these pervs try this act with sauce made of the Bhut Jolokia, listed by Guinness as the hottest chili in the world. 3. Taco Fondue A woman’s vagina is stuffed with cheese, then the man’s dong stuffs the vagina, pulled out with bits and pieces of cheese stuck on it, then put in

I Love You Means....
"I love you" has so many meanings and 9 times out of 10 it's one of these: "I want to have sex with you until I get bored and move on" or "I want you to support me because I am too lazy to work" or "I want to have you as an ornament to dangle on my arm until I can get a prettier one" or "I love you, but not enough to stay if you get pregnant or if we run into any difficult problems."

Forget About Yesterday And Start A Fresh New Day.
Finish each day and be done with it. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well. --Ralph Waldo Emerson Two of the most useless phrases in the English language are "what if" and "if only." We waste so much time and energy thinking about what we might have done and wishing we had acted or reacted differently. We imagine how things might have turned out "if only . . ." All of us make mistakes. To go back and wonder and wish about our yesterdays prevents us from living fully today. Each day is a fresh chance; a new beginning. We can only squeeze what we can out of the moment and let the drops fall where they may. Some will evaporate and some will form rainbows. Can I forget about yesterday and start a fresh new day?

Thanks From The Dreaded Penguins
I don't know how to say thank you to all the people, who showed love to me ! I have no words that can express, how I feel towards all of you. You are my family here, whether you're in Omegas, Zodiacs,Shadows,Devils Advocates,daddys levelrs,twilights, Confederates, or my own Git-R-Done. The list goes on and on... I cant even begin to list all of you on here YOU ALL are special to me and always will be so from me to you all... THANK YOU!!! I hope everyone has a safe and fun New Year! HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM MY WIFE & I! I will be hitting pages for quite awhile, trying to return what was shown so bear with me, I'm coming soon Terry or as you all know me "The Watcher"

I Am Willing
I am willing to give someone all my fubucks to who can give me auto 11s, the reason is because I have never had auto 11s and I am willing to give up all my fubucks to whoever is willing to give me auto 11s. I have never had auto 11s and I would love to have them and give up all my fubucks just for having auto 11s. If you want to and or can, please let me know and I will be willing to go flat broke to pay whoever wants to give me auto 11s. Remember, I have never had them because I have no way to buy auto 11s. Yup, I am willing to go flat broke and pay whoever is willing to give me auto 11s.

Sportsmanship And Faith
They played the oddest game in high school football history last month down in Grapevine, Texas. It was Grapevine Faith vs. Gainesville State School and everything about it was upside down. For instance, when Gainesville came out to take the field, the Faith fans made a 40-yard spirit line for them to run through. Did you hear that? The other team's fans? They even made a banner for players to crash through at the end. It said, "Go Tornadoes!" Which is also weird, because Faith is the Lions. "I WOULDN'T EXPECT ANOTHER PARENT TO TELL SOMEBODY TO HIT THEIR KIDS. BUT THEY WANTED US TO!" It was rivers running uphill and cats petting dogs. More than 200 Faith fans sat on the Gainesville side and kept cheering the Gainesville players on—by name. "I never in my life thought I'd hear people cheering for us to hit their kids," recalls Gainesville's QB and middle linebacker, Isaiah. "I wouldn't expect another parent to tell somebody to hit their kids. But they wanted us to!

One Of Those Days...
WE'VE ALL HAD THEM The day starts off stellar, you're hyped to ride and then things rapidly begin to fall apart.Maybe you're clocking footage with your crew, shooting pics, excited to do that trick you just learned. Competing in a contest or just out riding like you always do and having fun. Then like a slap in the nuts and no bitches around to give you mouth love it happens. You get a flat, some dip shit walks in front of your line, you eat shit. Your homie filming forgot to press the button, you can't stick the trick! You get the fucken point. Temperatures will boil over that crap no doubt. Well don't sweat it because sooner or later it always turns around. The next block over has a better set up, you still have a second run, you'll pull it smoother on the next try... Tomorrow is a new day and it's going to be a good one now fuck off.

Wow Questions
CAN ANY ONE ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? how in the book of earlier prophets it states that when the messiah comes there would be a flood and it would be the last days and there never was? how come the bible has false information like Herod killing all of the boys under 2 years old when that never happens nor did any king of Egypt in history every order the deaths of boys like it says during the time of Moses? how come Joseph and Mary did not realize that Jesus was missing for 3 days when they went for the census? how come Jesus knew he was going to be crucified yet on the cross he screams my god my god why have you forsaken me? did he not already know his fate? how come the bible involves so many mythological beings like Apollo Hades Baal. god talks about punishing Baal but isn't he supposed to be fictional? how come in the earlier books of prophets they state the messiah (supposedly Jesus) is the one that is, was and will be yet to come? wouldn't this mean w

Emilyimax, One Night Only ... Yeah, I Wish!!
Emily knows how to FU.... PROPERLY! This Friday, at 6 p.m. Fu-Time, she has decided to Host a Happy Hour! ...and in Fine, Fubar fashion she'll be sporting Auto 11's! But, wait, there's MORE .... In one of her brief, lucid moments, she decided to PAY for Rates! Thats right .... Emily will pay 10k for every 100 rates you give her ! WHAT IS SHE THINKING? Must be lack of sleep from that toddler of hers!! .. yet STILL more !! O M G !! In her sleep-deprived fog, Emily will be randomly BLINGING! Yup, yup .... You have a chance to score even MORE! What are you waiting for??? Hmmmm .... ?? EmilyIMAX Be sure to F/A/R her. Level a few Greenies for her .... ..You know they'd LOVE the attention! Pimped with Love:

Dec 23 - Today In History
Today is Tuesday, Dec. 23, the 358th day of 2008. There are eight days left in the year. Today's Highlight in History: On Dec. 23, 1968, 82 crew members of the U.S. intelligence ship Pueblo were released by North Korea, 11 months after they had been captured.

Wth
I UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE GOOD FRIENDS WHO ARE WORRIED ABOUT ME BUT PLEASE JUST STOP. I'M FINE I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. THIS SITE IS FOR FUN NOT TO GO BASH PEOPLE AND START BS.... IF YOU ARE A TRUE FRIEND TO ME LIKE I THINK YOU ARE YOU WILL STOP...

A Dream
A Dream My one dream is to be with this very special girl To me she is perfect in each and every way, and she puts my heart into a twirl I adore her virtues to the point where she completes my world My one dream is to embrace her exquisite body And have it compelled, oh, so snugly against me So she can hear my heart beat, because her touch sends me into a frenzy My one dream is to be able to spend time With this angel I want to be mine And I hope that her love will come within time My dream is to fulfill this girl’s one dream Whatever it may be, I’ll see that is taken care of Seeing as, since day one when I first met you, you have had all my heart and soul All of these dreams fall into My one dream, which is to be with you Maybe now you can grow to care deeply for me, too If not, at least you know my one dream involves you.

Wish You Were Here With Me
Wish You Were Here With Me I'm sitting in my room on this lonely night. Wishing you were here, so I could hold you tight. I'm thinking of you and your gentle touch. All I want to do is to kiss you... so much! I want a passionate kiss, from the silky lips, That just send quivers straight to my fingertips. I just want to hold you for the rest of time. And feel your warm and gentle body close to mine. I want to see those elegant eyes, That remind me of the mountainous skies. I only wish, that you were to be. Nowhere else, but right here... with me.

For Chrissy Its A Suprise
An Irish Princess There once was an Irish Lass who was sitting out in the meadows crying. One day, a young Lad walks by and see the young Lass crying asking her why she is crying. She said ¡° I¡¯m sad because I am alone and my dad wont let me be with anyone but royalty¡±. Not knowing who she is, he says, ¡°You should be whoever you want to be with.¡± She looks up at the young Lad and agrees with him. She wipes the tears away from her face and walks with the young lad back to her home. When they got to her home, the young Lad asked, ¡°Is this your home?¡± She sighs and says , ¡°Yes this is my home. I am the Princess of Ireland and if my father finds out that I was with you, I would not hear the end of it.¡± She walks away and she forgot to ask him what his name was. When she saw her father, he asked her were she was and she said, ¡° Dad, I was out in the meadows crying and there was a kind young man that heard my cry.¡± Her father was upset and asked the guards to get this you

Real Life Friend Joined Fubar
Please say hello and welcome one of my 'Real Life' friends to Fubar..He is one of the kewlest people you will ever meet..well lol other than myself...I know He doesn't have alot up to rate but please at least stop by and tell him Gothic Rose sent you HellsCowboy89@ fubar

Two Defining Forces...
Twas the night before Christmas, when all through my home, not a sound could I hear, not even the phone. The stockings were hung by the chimney with care, I flipped on the TV and saw a soldier standing there. It was a young man, perhaps a Marine, with a desert in the background, it was a lonely scene. And I thought, ‘He’s so far from home and should be on leave, He should be here with his family on Christmas Eve.’ Then the soldier said, “It’s really all right, I’m over here by choice; I’m here every night. It’s my duty to stand, at the front of the line, That separates all of you, from the darkest of times. No one had to ask, or beg or implore me, I’m proud to stand here, like my fathers before me. Grandpa died at Pearl Harbor one December, then he said, “That’s a Christmas, Grandma always remembers.” “My dad stood his watch, in the jungles of Nam, And now it’s my turn, and so here I am. I’ve not seen my own son, in more than a while, My wife sends me pict

Good Bye '08...hello '09
As we sit here wishing 2008 a farewell and welcome 2009, we also reflect on 2008. The year has gone by so fast. We look back on the relationships we have formed and at the relationships that we have failed. The mistakes we have made and the lessons we have learned. We look back and see the people we have been given and the people that have been taken from us, but not forgotten. We look back and see the person we once were and the person we have now become. So as you bring in this new year once again, sit back and take a second to once remember the year 2008. Remember all you have done, people you have met, mistakes you have made and carry it over to the year 2009 and make this year YOURS. Happy New Year all...

Is It Time To Go?
Hello everyone I would like to wish you all a very Happy New Year and the best of luck for 2009. I have been getting itchy feet here on Fubar in recent weeks and months and it was my plan to leave today by just slipping away. I have been feeling that all good things come to an end and have come to realise that many people are only interested in points and levels, (which I genuinely couldn't give a toss about) and not true friendships or more. People who only talk when spoken too and I wonder if I am just a thorn in their sides or just tolerated. Many people have absolutely nothing to say or the time to say it. I have found that many people seem to think(and sometimes its very true!), that the most interesting thing about themselves is their tattoos! I have met some really wonderful people on here though and I hope that they know who they are, but I have also dealt with some scum too, out to manipulate, use and upset anyone without feeling or compassion. (Google "Sociopath

Reflection Of 2008 And My Solutions, Plus My New Years Wish
Having time today to reflect on the past year, I have noticed a few patterns that I thought I'd share. Mumms They have disappeared and in their place...polls, surveys, obvious failures at humor, and most disturbingly an increasing amount of real "legal" or "medical" issues that have no business in this forum and should be brought to professionals. My Solution Have an automatic mumm check script created that reads the mumm prior to publishing. If it's a non-mumm, or doesn't fit the forum, it will not be published, and the author will lose privileges for 6 months. Fake Profiles One of the biggest problems on this site. Every day I see dozens upon dozens of 'newbs' scrolling across the top. No verified email, no pics or pics that are generic web pics, no gender, and yet they are not weeded out after a short time period. Why? Because it pads Fubar's membership numbers for marketing purposes. The more members that can be shown to potential advertisers, the more money that can be cha

The One Above All
I'm called the Golden God I stand atop a mountain Above the many walking dead Who all must work so hard I can go anywhere I want At truly zero cost I don't even have to ask This is a real free lunch There are four others in my clan Each one rich but not like I am They may try to obtain my status Somewhat of an impossible task I'm called the Golden God I stand atop a mountain Above my naive minions So faithful and so blind Every god has a weakness It is a problem I have defeated The pen and lens that defeat so many Ceases in the presence of me I am THE Golden God I am the tallest mountain The sturdiest foundation At least I like to think so

Into The Setting Sun
Love has always been vague to me I thought I have found it quite commonly But everytime I found that love You didnt find it for me Then one day through my foolishness I found you acting like a fool People say that fools rush in But we were both fools together And with that I found you The feeling was there again The one I thought I knew But you said you knew it And you felt it too And with that said We know who we are And that we both feel the same... It isnt love At least I dont know it yet But I do know that I have fallen for you And I would fall harder for your love You say that we will be together soon And I know you dont lie I will keep my promise to be with you And from there We will learn to love and fly Above the clouds and under the sea Beyond the fragments of reality We will fly together Into the bright setting sun...

Quickie ;)
Before i head to bed i wanted to share a snippit of a convo i was having with my best friend. no one get offended, i've had many family mbrs pass away from cancer, mmkay? we're a little warped but this is how we are and we love it. :) p.s. this was via mssnger. HER: eeewww fn lung cancer nasty commercials !!! ME: the one where they go into the fucking lung? yeah i saw that today and went um... lung cancer looks like a wad of gum HER: yeah its fn gross dude ME: i stared at it going, 'and they can't hook that out? they can do abortions but they can't hook out a wad of gum?" HER: thats fn gross dude ME: i know i was like damn dude, get me a hanger, i'll get it HER: eeewww

Not What I Do (part 5)
its just really strange - its like things are happening really quickly - and thats so NOT me! ummm for instance - just the second i met him and the way i said my name right away! I never tell my real name when i first meet a guy! I just said HI - my name is Rebecca - Thats so out of character for me! but it just felt so easy - and for the first time in my life - i felt like I was me. I didnt feel like i was trying to be somebody else.

New Year's
I just hope that everyone has a happy safe new year. I hope that the new year finds everyone happier and more blessed. Much love to you all! I'm sorry I couldn't give every single friend I have a comment, but I have so many great friends. So this was the other way to go! MyHotComments

Pyramaze - Legacy In A Rhyme
come fly away with me close your eyes, you'll find a place between dream and reality that's where i live that's where i breathe oceans of creation A heart for the Heartless remember me pain i did not suffer and the pain won't hurt me anymore remember me and i am forever i gave my everything and i still do, my love let me bleed for you i know how to make a sacrifice i am the poet with the bloody knife what i have seen where i have been life that i created a miracle indeed remember me pain i did not suffer and the pain won't hurt me anymore remember me and i am forever i gave my everything and i still do, my love let me bleed for you no time to waste only time to treasure and i do every second of every hour (remember me, my love, i am forever) creating a memory, words of light (remember me, my love, i bleed for you) my love, my life, legacy in a rhyme remember me, my love, i am forever remember me, my love, i bleed for you no time

People Will Even Take Your Tooth Brush Given The Chance..
Well I learned some valuable info today.. People will even take your tooth brush given the chance.. My daughter who was staying till the last min in her bed bug infested apartment thought she had till 12:00 tonight.. WRONG we left to go get more boxes and while we were not there they came and moved ALL of there belongs to the sidewalk zoes new sewing machine, computer and every stitch of clothes they owned shoes EVERYthing! By time we got there it was all gone! Even there toiletries.. All there meds supposable were flushed (my ass) ADHD meds (speed), Valium, her pain meds for her back, antidepressants I’m sure are being sold as I type .. It was one of the most heart braking things to see my daughter and grandchild standing there like a deer in the headlights.. They now have nothing… so starting fresh for the new year means starting completely over down to there underwear.

The Storm
Its been coming, he knows it he's felt it in his bones for 26 yrs of his life his mind and body have been training him and living in the same area. He can tell his knee twitches the air gets gradually cooler and the animals act differently. He's a cattleman for his whole life he's spent it watching how they act move their habbits. Its two days later and his knee is acting up worse than ever this is going to be a bad one he gets his most valuable things together the things that cant be replaced he has placed in a safe that has already been through a torando once it can do it again. The whole day has been in preperation he knows in his mind its coming his children dont understand but they are watching and learning just as he did with his father. These are things that he doesnt realize but he's handing down to his children just as he learned them from his father without realizing it. 4 o'clock and everything is getting cooler the air denser its getting closer its building. Come 5 o'clo

Winters First Hard Hit
He has known its been coming since the middle of summer and throughout autumm. He's been working hard through the day hauling hay, getting the barn ready, checking lights and etc. His 5 yr olds without realizing it are being taught a valuable lesson one they will never forget. Its 3pm and a bitter chill is starting to set in. He does one last check and makes preperations for supper. After supper is done and the dishes are done he puts his coat and cowboy hat on and goes back to his work moving the newborn calves and their mothers into the barn, it still isnt cold yet and his neighbors think that he's going overboard. Later on that night the wind begins to howl and the cold hits and snow starts falling from the sky, at first its light and peacefull but then the fist of old man winter hits. The temperature drops to 20 degree's with a windchill of 10 and the snow starts coming down so hard he cant see 3ft infront of his face. He trudges to the barn and checks on his livestock, yep all ali

Bound
bound i am so tired of being alone watching the time pass i stare through this hour glass at the rain hitting my window waiting for you to come home as my sanity fades to when this pain wasnt here when you held me close and told me you cared you looked into my eyes and made me believe that this is all real how easily you decieved but now i am bound to these memories you have left behind i cannot hide these scars they remind me every day that i cannot run away from this pain it seems to just linger haunting my every thought i tell my self that you are gone but i cant believe it is true that i have lost everthing that i have lost you

My Little Girl
my little girl you were my only passion for life, my only reason in this crazy world to go on, you brought meaning to this life, you were my everything, my existence revolved around your every little breath, i brought life to you, and you gave life to me. you gave me joy every moment your tiny feet walked this earth, to see you smile, gave me such a rush let my heart jump a beat and to hear you cry broke it, you changed everything in my world, gave it new meaning everything i thought and felt before you, meant nothing and could never compare to what you showed me. around your tiny little finger you had me wrapped, and in your eyes i saw my world. and in just one moment in time my world crumbled, and now i feel nothin, a cold memory has been put in place of my heart, i am lost to the world, disconnected from this coil, i have become hollow, my only reason died with you, i seek your face in my dreams, and we play for hours, your laughter oh god your laughter, you crawl in my arms a

Dirty Things I Love
dirty things i love i love the way you look up at me. when your down on your knees. i love the way you beg for more. as you taste my disease. i love the way you scream. while you writh on top of me. i love the way you move your ass. and the way your body grinds. i love the way you hair smells. while im pulling it from behind. i love the way your passion tastes. as drops of you run down my face. i love the way i make you moan. when im deep down inside. i love the way you never say no. yet you pretend to be so shy. i love the lack of self respect. and the things you let me do to you. i love the way you let me press my luck and love it every time we fuck.

A Mans Lie
To hear your name makes my heart race. To smell your perfume on my pillow case, reminds of times long gone by. To see you brings tears to my eyes. I dont think i can take another day. To feel you close is all i need, it only comes to me in dreams. I pray to god to just see your face. To To hear your name makes my heart race. To smell your perfume on my pillow case, reminds of times long gone by. To see you brings tears to my eyes. I dont think i can take another day. To feel you close is all i need, it only comes to me in dreams. I pray to god to just see your face. To touch your cheek, a warm embrace. A chance to tell you that i've changed. I know that you've heard this all before, but I swear to god it's not the same. I wish you could look deep inside. I have bared my soul with nothing to hide. It is for you that my heart does bleed, and only you will i ever need.touch your cheek, a warm embrace. A chance to tell you that i've changed. I know that you've heard this

2008 In A Nut Shell
So long 2008...there were good times and rough times... Where did you begin 2008? With Friends and my Sons What was your status by Valentines Day? Single Did you have to go to the hospital? Not this year for once Did you have any encounters with the police? yes,, dang led foot Where did you go on vacation? Cancun and Vegas What did you purchase that was over $100? oh geez I'm sure groceries for one Did you know anybody who got married? Yes......Rob and Jess Did you know anybody who passed away? Yes, Lyle in my arms :( You are missed Chris, Suicide :( Wish I could of done something to save you Capt Tom Tennant, A good man taken from his family by a senseless act of violence.. TY Tom for protecting our community and making the ultimate sacrific Did you move anywhere? Yes What sporting events did you attend? MMA, Wrestling, Baseball, Football What concerts/show did you go to? mmm Tom Petty and the Heart Breakers (boy does this date me or what)

Fubar And Ratings
I haven't been on fubar long, just a few days as a matter of fact, but wanting to get points I have been jumping right on in their and trying to do ratings on people I run across. Therein lies the problem. I'm an honest person, most thing WAY too much so, as a matter of fact. My wife says that I am honest to the point and being cruel and sometimes passing that point completely. But I don't believe in little white lies and I don't believe in calling a pig's ear a silk purse....things are what they are and you might as well accept that fact. There is where the problem is. I have looked all around fubar, rating people and just looking at profiles....mainly of women, since I have no interest in men for either friends nor other distractions in life. What I find disturbs me about as bad as MySpace disturbs me, just in a more adult fashion. To date, I just haven't really found many women on here that are all that attractive and the ones that are, are so stuck on themselves that

New Judge In Town!
I guess you can say, in some ways the internet and *real life* are somewhat the same. MEANING: You meet people and you find, there's no difference. You sometimes find friendship and you find people *you just know*...I've run into both here. THERE WILL BE A *NEW* Judge-in-town...With my friends that I've met here *that have been a part of me*, I will keep close, for the *people I just know* you will see a difference, distance and change towards you. This is a NEW YEAR, NEW CHANGES, OTHER WORDS, new deal. MY BEST TO ALL!

Where Would You Most Like To Be?
Thursday, January 1, 2009 A year from now Where will you be a year from now? Where would you most like to be? ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; There is so much you've learned and experienced on your journey to this day. Imagine what you can now do with it all. This new year is a grand opportunity, filled with promise and possibilities. Choose now the very best of those possibilities, and know that you have the power to bring them to life. You will spend this coming year moving in one direction or another. Commit now to making that direction the one that will take you toward what you sincerely desire. Life in each moment is influenced by your presence and participation. As this new year unfolds, continue to make that influence a positive and fulfilling one. Consider today where you would like to be a year from now. For now is the beginning of the year in which you can truly make it happen. -- Ralph Marston

Car Problems...can U Help
Does anyone know anyone or someplace that would be fairly cheep enought to fix a transmisson in a 91 chevy baretta....i need this car fixed!!! im loosing my mind cause he wont let me drive the van....AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!

Ghost Riders Mini Pimp Out For 2009
4>I WOULD LIKE TO THANK THESE VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE. THEY HAVE BEEN HELPING ME TRY TO MAKE GODFATHER.PLEASE TAKE THE TIME OUT TO SHOW THEM SOME STRONG FUBAR LOVE.SO PLEASE COME ON OVER AND HELP THE GHOST RIDER OUT Lavendarebleu@ fubar Preciousmoments ~~ Fu Married to myself~~@ fubar †ÐÃRK£ÁÐ¥† -ÐÐ£ Famílÿ-HØF{ Øwñër¤¤ÐårkÐémøn§-£øungê }@ fubar ♥Ŋĭčέ♥{DSC}2nd Alarm Hottie/Owned by ~SouthernOutlawBiker~@ fubar Haven - Co-Owner of Vampy's Vampire Cave@ fubar ALSO IF ANYONE ELSE COMES AND HELPS ME TO GODFATHER NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO I WILL ADD YOU TO MY LIST OF SPECIAL PEOPLE. LET'S JUST SAY THIS IS MY HOLIDAY PIMP OUT. ANY THING WILL DO TO HELP ME OUT. WEATHER YOU RATE OR EVEN HAVE UR FRIENDS COME TO MY PAGE AND RATE. I WILL PAY 100,000 FUBUCKS FOR RATING ALL PICS AN 11 50,000 FOR 10'S NOT INCLUDING (NSFW) JUST LEAVE A MESSEGE AT THE END OF EACH FOLDER RATED AND ALSO A PRIVATE MESSAGE ON THE TOTAL OF ALL PICS RATED. ALL MESS

What Do I Feel?
What is this I'm feeling? Is it the same old confusion and pain I've become so accustomed to or is this an entirely new kind of pain and anguish from a loss I've never known before? Was this just another lesson in life, were we meant to be, or was it supposed to be temporary? If you love something set it free... If it doesn't come back, hunt it down and kill it!

The New Year
This year is going to be very interesting. 2008 sucked so much donkey dick I thought I was going to suffocate. This year I plan on getting the fuck out of oklahoma once and for all. I have no clue where I will end up this time next year...but I can't wait to see. Hopefully I'll have a new band up and going, be in a steady relationship, have a few more pieces of art on my body and be rocking harder than ever. So here is my advice to everyone for this new year, Have fun, Don't regret a damn thing, Get drunk, Rock the fuck out and tell everyone who doesn't like it to kiss your ass!

A Bit Of Humor For New Years
I was out checking my oil today. I live on a cul de sac, and there are a few kids that live down here. Some of them were out riding their new bikes they got for Christmas along with some friends. Their friends wanted to ride there nice new bikes. The following conversation gave me a chuckle: Kid A: I wanna ride your bike, man. Kid B: You can't. My Daddy doesn't want anyone riding our bikes. He spent like $200 plus tax on mine! Kid A: Whoa! How can your Dad afford that?! Kid B: My Dad is a cop. He makes. like, $500 a month! Kid A: Wow, he must have thousands of dollars! Kid B: I even know what a hundred dollar bill looks now! Kid A: Man, I remember what a hundred dollar bill looks like cause I saw one when I was a baby. Kid B: Ah man, the only thing I remember about being a baby is sitting around watching tv and poopin' my pants.

New Year Fury
It happened as it always does the New Year came at twelve surrounded by my loved ones I am ready to explode can hardly contain the fury wrath consumes me within I quake with held in anger I struggle with my ire the need to hurt is overwhelming the desire to maim overpowering but I must stay my hand control is required desired by all so I hide put myself away from all I would hurt I seek calm peace a tranquility of mind rarely found I succeed for now all are safe from me for now next time I may not be so lucky God help me!

Blue Skys
Blue skies The sun’s burning bright High in the sky. Smooth as silk, The touch of love. Flames flicker Deep in my heart Like a ray of sunshine. Don’t cry It won’t die. Wake dressed Get up For the start of a new day Upon the breath of the wind. The sun’s shinning bright once again High in the lovely sky Smooth as silk For I’m in love.

My Reailty .....
ok so I am in love with him . I am honestly and truly in love .. I have broken down a lot of my personal walls that were in my way of having a happy healthy relationship .. and now here I am stuck in this twisted mess I like to call my life . I find myself smiling a lot more than I have in quite sometime .I told myself and quite a few people that this is exactly what I did not want . And now that I have it I do not know what I would do with out him . He says he loves me .. I believe him I really do …here come the part that I chose not to accept he is not sure where his life is headed . I chose to ignore this .. Chose to not hear this ..I know somewhere deep down that this is the actual reality of where I stand in his life .I know he may not be here at some point .. But such is life . I will live in my reality .. I will choose to ignore this possibility until such a time comes that he makes this decision . As long as he is happy that is all I can ask for . I mean yes I hope he does not

What I Am About!
I am a mom and a wife. Happily married and a very Happy mother. Here On Fu to make new friends, THATS ALL! I am not interested in making a love connection or a sexual connection with anyone, I have that here at home, IN REAL LIFE! I am not out to "grab" your boyfriend or girlfriends attention. I am a friendly person with a big heart. When I make new friends I try to show the appreciation. Because I live in the mountains and they are not "up in the times" my only option for internet is dial up. WHICH SUCKS! So with that I do not do many profile comments. But what I do like is sending gifts and yes I know that means spending Fubucks but it worth it to me. I am a status reader!! I try to read any and everyones status's they put up and if they ask for help, or they need a drink etc I try my best to do so. I do not have a lot of money to buy bling, the money I do have gets spent on bills and my children, but if there comes a time that I do have extra cash and can buy bling I retu

January 1 Non-resolution
*Reflections of Self* I am an individual. I am deep and passionate, yet light and child-like. I will not conform to any mold and I will not sacrifice my purity of self to suit others needs. I dance at will to the beat of my own drummer; sometimes you will see and other times it is only in spirit. I am quirky and kind, considerate yet blatant. I have weaknesses and can be incredibly vulnerable; acknowledging and admitting this gives me strength. I AM a strong woman. In times of personal strife, I retreat within myself; I believe the answers I seek lie deep inside of me. I will ponder and soul search until I find what I need, even if it is not what I want. I tend to leave my friends in the dark. I have faults and will occasionally falter; as a friend, as a human. I have morals and will not stray from what I believe is right; my OWN beliefs. I am not perfect but I am perfectly me. I resolve to have no resolutions. I have nothing to solve, nor do I wish for anyt

I H8 Goin 2 Th Dr's
I went and had a mamogram done on wed.. Well the whole thing should have taken only about 20-30 mins....It took 2 1/2 hrs...this is why... First they tell me they want to get a ultra sound because they saw somthing... Then the tech tells me that he can see a small mass that looks like a cyst that is the size of a large red grape... And the doctor said that he also saw something else in there...soooooo they wanted to get a biopsy....sure I said better 2 b safe than sorry.... Well that shit hurt so freakin bad...Now I have to wait till either fri or mon or tue to find out the results...and now my left boob has one nasty lookin bruise on it...

Little One
Little One I'm alright And if you should die Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside I'm alright And everytime you cry don't breakdown Just keep me inside in your mind You only saw the outside Never knew what I was feeling Now everyday you lay in bed Staring at the ceiling But you don't see me no more You can fill your heart with memories And things from before But everybody got a purpose in life To survive when the sunrise You gonna live to see another day Just don't follow me and live Your life your own way I'm bein set and if you forget Get the picture with the Cord around my neck See me underground and I'm stuck But it's cool that's where I wanna be Keep the drama in hand but outta sight And know that I'mma be alright

Destroyed
The night fades into the light of day, And here I lay. My mind turns over a million things, And still it seems, I cant take back the all the pain. And Im to blame. I never thought that I would need, Someone to breathe. But without you I cant take a breath. Theres nothing left. An empty shell of who I used to be. Now this is me. Alone and hollow without your arms around me. And the silence is deafening. No whispered words of I love you. Since we are through. No sweet kisses and passionate stares. Theres nothing there. I sit and pray that it was all in my head. But now Im dead. No person hides behind these eyes. Shes lost inside. Living now with perpetual pain. Not me again. How I wish I could take it all away. Every single day. And now youre gone and Im all alone. Always on my own. At night I dream of one more night. To make it right. I cant go on living this way. Its so insane. I dont want to wake. I want to go to sleep forever and see your face. Never

Isle Of Lonely
No longer loved, I was cast adrift in the middle of my years To float about aimlessly and wash ashore in this desolate place, A forgotten and deserted isle in midst of the Sea of Human Tears,Where I wander about without the warmth of a shared embrace. Castaway, my soundless footsteps now walk the sandy seaside, With wide eyes searching the bleak and empty horizon before me While paying no attention to the rising and lowering of the tide. Around this solitary and obscure place, the deserted Isle of Lonely, Frantically waving to the nothingness and lighting signal fires, I busy myself with everything I can do to be rescued from here, But daily, the loneliness increases, as do my unmet desires. As I cry to selfish winds and an uncaring sky, blue and clear. From time to time, a boat for two drifts fairly close to my shore, But then, I clearly see a man and a woman upon the deck, And sadly sigh and know there is no room for one more. So here I stay stranded all alone to impati

My Star - A Beginning
I sit out here, miles from everything, and I thank my stars for being where I am … and who I am. There’s adequate turmoil in the populated world. I’m glad it hasn’t found my little neck of the woods yet. Of course, I didn’t always live out here next to Great Spirit. A short time ago, I was part of the rat race I dislike so much. But now? Well, there’s just me, my dog, my snug cabin, and a view back to the previous century. As I sit on my willow rocker, strumming an old acoustic guitar, I wait for night to fall so I can watch my special star rise into the clean and clear sky. This particular special star became mine only a few days ago. Before that, it was just an ordinary star, one of several trillion flickering in the great darkness that surrounds my place after the sun leaves us for the day. One night, it just seemed to flicker a little brighter; kind of winked at me; and we’ve been on the same plain ever since. Why this star picked me out of all the good citizens on ea

The Captain's New Hobby Reposted
(Note: This guy has fallen into the hands of a Pirate Queen....May God have mercy upon his soul. Any misspellings, grammatically incorrect phrases in my response are specifically designed to confuse, and confound the Enemy. They are MOST intentional. ) Dear Dr. Dukue Anni: I am so pleased to make your acquaintance and to receive this letter from you. I am Captain Bloodie Men Strual and I am in the service of the Queen as privateer of Her Majesty's Navy. In that capacity, we are often in the position of having to locate and find survivors of plane crashes, and very often, we do not find any. For example, we have been sailing around the Bermuda Triangle lately trying to find the remains of John Kennedy, the son of the late (always late) American President Black Jack Kennedy. His plane crashed off the coast of Martha's Friggin Vinyard, and so for the last several months, we have been searching for the bodies and the wreckage. I'm certain you can understand my frustration, and s

This Is Serious Or Resolutions
at the first of the year i was gonna quit fubar... why? because of some personal issues i had with someone on here that i feel really bad about. i was being an asshole. i guess that will start it off. 1. Don't be an asshole to people that are really nice to you just because you have issues. that said, i will be keeping an evolutionary log. good times, bad times, you know i've had my share. like things i want to do like... 2. Publish my first book in 11 years. 3. Finish my online classes for Adobe and go back to school to become a teacher. 4. Finish rebuilding my sites. 5. New better paying job. 6. Get my own place. Roommates are cool, but I miss my own stuff. 7. Participate in more community based events. 8. Quit smoking(once I finish the last two cigarettes) 9. Limit my drinking because it costs too damn much to be one of the boys and i'm incapable of getting anything important done. 10. Get another car that I'm not getting repaired every month. 11. Learn french.

My Poem It Sucks
I would give all I have to have you with me, To see tomorrow with you, To touch and hold the one thing dear to me, I would climb the highest mountains, I would swim the widest oceans, Closed my eyes and be blinded by your love, Trusting in you to lead my way, I would give all I had for you, To love you and be loved in return, To adore you, and be adored in return, I would give my all to be with you, To make the memories of yesterday forever, To see me and you in the future. Come whatever, I would give all I have for you, Lay down my life for you, To sacrifice my soul for your pardon, I would give all I have for you, Be it to travel to the ends of the earth, To catch the falling stars out of the skies above, I would give all, To hear you say the words I so needed to hear, The word that would heal my broken heart, The words that means all the world to me, To hear you say "I love You", And look into your eyes knowing you meant it, For I would give all I have in l

Nother Poem
I love you so deeply, I love you so much, I love the sound of your voice, And your kind, thoughtful way, The joy that you bring, To my life everyday, I love you today, As I have from the start, And I'll love you forever, With all of my heart.

Miracles Of Understanding One Another Through Love
Love takes time .It needs a history of giving, receiving, laughing and crying... Love never promises instant gratification, only ultimate fulfilliment. love means believing in someone , in something. it supposes a willingness to struggle, to work , to suffer , and rejoice. Satisfaction and ultimate fulfillment are by-products of dedicated love. That belong only to those who can reach beyound themselfs: to whom giving is more imporant then receiving. Love is doing everythingyou can to help others build whatever dreans they have . Love involes much careful and active listening. Its doing whatever needs to be done , and saving whatever will promote the others happiness, security and well-being. Sometimes, love hurts. Love is on a constant journey to what others say and to what others need. It must be attentive, caring and open , both to what other say and to what others cannot say... Love says no with empathy and great compassion. Love is firm , but when needed it must be t

I Miss You
As alot of you know who have been at my myspace page, my father passed away this past Tuesday, December 30th. I cant express to you the emptiness that I feel. Not only because my father has passed but also because now I have no parents left. My mother passed away on May 16, 1983 at the very young age of 59. I was only 22 and that was very hard on me because my mother and I were just becoming close and developing a special bond. My father was born on September 3, 1920 in a small town in Pennsylvania. He quit school in the 8th grade as most children did at that time to be able to work and help out at home. In July of 1942 he was drafted into the Army and sent off to war. He recieved an honorable discharge on September 11, 1945. My mother and father were married on September 21, 1946 and had three children. Jo Ellen, George and myself. My father loved to hunt and fish and when i was very young he would take me on long walks to pick berries for my mom or acorns for the sq

Starting A New Auction
Dark Is Having an Auction and needs a few more people in , Want in? CLICK THE PIC AND SEND HIM A PRIVATE MESSAGE INCLUDE YOUR PIC AND WHAT YOUR OFFERING (repost of original by 'Angel sassiebabe ~Owned by FoxiToxi~WILL PAY FU FOR BLING PACK PM ME ~' on '2009-04-02 16:52:42')

Bwauh
Didn't know you wanted to see pictures of kids so bad, but hey, if you really want, give me 5 HH's and a year long VIP and you've got access. === 'jakez' wrote the following at '2009-01-01 12:09:55'.. > > how do i earn a peek at your priv collection

Its A New Beginning
happy new year everyone vacation is over going back to school soon ma babies i will be offline studying again for my school i enjoyed being here for this short i still need to finish my homework this homework i had to read over holidays i hope yo guys enjoy me being here it was only a short time but i am serious with school this online is time consuming be back time to time when homework not weighting my shoulders hope i find yo all well Maligayang Pasko ng Manigong Bagong Taon

An Innermost Desire...
Wanting to hold you Caress you Kiss you Fondle you Take care of you Suck you Lick you Plunge deep within you Bring you to throes of passion Orgasmic delight for you Cumming, cumming again Wanting you to feel good Wanting you to be satisfied Enjoy being with you And having you feel wonderful And loved 'Nuff said

Darkness
the dankness the darkness won't leave me alone the devils and demons tearing my soul the ghosts and the ghouls refusing to go oblivion and solitude i'm growing so cold living and breathing take it from me i'm ready to go god's have forsaken i'm finally alone suffer so greatly is what i am told love is for angels not for me, i'm so old the demons are dwelling and rearing to go they sharpen thier fangs the sharpen thier claws ready to shred my only living cause my honor is failing my morals obsolete the demons are plotting my unholy relief my pain and my torture my death and demise i'm ready to except them with arms open wide i beg then come swiftly and torture me slow rip out my entrails and drain my blood slow tear out my eyes look at my soul shred all my flesh pull it so slow smile all the while calling me worthless saying i'm damned saying this all while twisting my head feeling the snap of my brittle bones while they lick the blood flowing free from my nose i'm

Auto-11's!
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Everything Is Possible If You Believe.
Your Daily Motivation – Everything Is Possible If You Believe. Friday January 2, 2009 EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU BELIEVE. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There are no real barriers to your success. You must simply overcome any doubts you have about your ability. Your self image prescribes the limits for your accomplishments. It prescribes the area of what is possible for you. Don't be afraid of living. Believe that life is worth living and you will create that fact around you. If you see yourself as prosperous, you will be. If you see yourself as broke, that is exactly what you will be. You will never succeed until you believe in your own mind that you can succeed. You can be who you want to be. Copyright 2008 www.yourdailymotivation.com Free Webinar => How to Thrive in the Down Economy Free Webinar => Weathering The Coming Financial Storm Free Webinar => Beauty To Die For? =

And The War Is On!
That's right Come check it Out! So I'm in this Auction, and it's been a long time, lol! So come get the bid on and you could own me for a month with lots of advantages! So click and go see what I have to offer!

Nbn Bully, Num3
ROCKING THE FU! sunday, Sunday, SUNDAY ... at 6 p.m. Fu-Time Naughty by Nature will be hosting a Happy Hour! She's got her Auto 11's turned on .... (Monday TOO, BTW!! DAYUM, You'll level on her alone !!) And she's gonna shake things up a bit ... ya know, make it more interesting! hmmm .....

Admiring The Moment
Sadly, I had to spend Christmas and the New Years alone. As a result I've been trollin' Fubar and trying to find a lounge that I fit in with. Having a hard time with it as my humor is 10% stupid, 10% corny, 20% funny, and 60% adult. Language is free, but few lounges has made me feel welcome. Maybe I'm not interacting enough and fading into the background, but it seems like you have to be apart of the group already to be apart of the group (hopefully that makes sense). Anyway, the past few days I've seen breasts, sex, drinking, and more. It's been a great way to welcome the new year, and I can't seem to get enough of it. Guess I'm a typical guy in that sense. What's strange now, is that I'm looking at them with a new eye. Rather than see women in a objectified light, I find myself admiring them and their bodies. The shape of the curves, the softness of their breasts, their tone bodies and silky skin. Mostly I admire their courage to show their beauty and sexual appetite.

Judgements
When someone seeks themselves they will try to make excuses for their actions or words to try to make it better, when all they need to do is let it go and run it's course. The feelings are many and in all directions they will blame all but themselves. Not all is one's fault except what one believes to be true. Time is short, live your life as you see fit. Love hard, but not so hard as you become paranoid by everything and everyone. You make yourself a target if you open your mind to hate, distrust, or sadness. The hardest sound in the world to hear is the sound of one's own heart breaking, most times you will find we break our own hearts with the pain we make to be true.I need time to help my mind to learn and have yet to understand or how this is suppose to work. When we make mistakes in our lives some let it go and move on and then there are some that just can't do that our of Fear, I have fear but i am still trying to figure out of what....Is it that I'm afraid i can't do it on my o

A New Hope
Well it's the new year. Loves found and loves lost. Hopefully a new start will set me straight. Maybe it's my year for better things to start happening. To start off I hope I can find a lasting love or maybe spend some time to work on myself. Whatever the outcome, I hope it's good on either end. How was every ones holidays by the way. I hope everyone had fun with friends and family. I know I did... well besides New Years, kinda sucked cause no one hung out with me so I slept early. Oh well.

Smiling Down On Me
The first time i heard this song it really touched me b/c of all the ppl i have lost in my life. it had me thinking what i have been doing to my body, mind, and everyone else that loves/cares for me. every single yr in the month of December i torture my self, not in the way of the word torture it self. i have never cut my self and shyts like that. i mean i go into a deep depression were i don't feel like eating for like 3 days straight. then when i do eat i eat maybe a sandwich and i go back to the 3 day straight of not eating. but hearing this song it made me really realize that my lost ones r looking down on me and looking after me and they don't want me to do what i'm doing to my self at all. cause they loved me when they were here on earth and they would rather see me happy in my life. i know in time i will be with them all once again, but that time isn't right now and i have to live my life to the fullest. they would want me to be happy and live my life one day at time.

Thanks To Those That Helped Me Godmother!
Do You Know This~*~Bad Girl~*~?Well You Should!She just GODMOTHERED FINALLY! VAMP MORTICIA~Wifey of SIRJP~LaLa's Girl~Sultry's Mistrs~STRYKER'S LVR~Pu$$yCat Playmate@ fubar These are the people that helped me out when we got really close! THANKS FOR ALL THE BOMBING! STRYKER¹™~Fubar Bouncer~@ fubar Thanks to my sexy fu-lover STRYKER the Bouncer for the Auto 11 in the first place! Dj €äЯŋąġƷ(AOD)LieutenantGeneral( GM@ reds rage)@ fubar Thanks to the SEXY DJ Carnage for sitting with me on cam all day keeping me company and rating ALL MY PICS! AND! Getting people to come to my page! Sarge's Bad Girls@ fubar Sarge is ALWAYS there to help me out! Thanks for the pic you made me! Sgt. Raider A.K.A The Sarge(Ecuadorian Goddess' FuHubby

Please Take Some Time To A/f/r He Will Return The Love
imikimi - Customize Your World! ~Bratt~ has her first new owner for the New Year. Come check out WASTNTIME and A/F/R and show him lots of love and tell him ~Bratt~ sent ya:)YOU WILL BE GLAD YOU DID! HE WILL RETURN THE FAVOR

Already There
I'm already there, don't make a sound. I'm the beat in your heart, I'm the moonlight shining down. I'm the whisper in the wind & I'll be there til the end. Can you feel the love we share? Oh...I'm already there.

Llama Levelers Team Pimpout!!
Miracle Monkey Chief of N.A.P Member of Club F.A.R Team Capt. Team Love@ fubar JoAnna"- Proud Member of the {{{Shadow Levelers}}}" & "Club Far"@ fubar ♥ Cherokee God Mama ♥ Founder Of N.A.P.♥Owner of Club F.A.R. *@ fubar Mascot Llama Levelers Home Page@ fubar Team Leader :::"JEWELS"::: * Club F.A.R. *Llama Levelers ~ LOVE New friends!@ fubar Pm Team Capt. sit_up_king *rate spanker* {{{SHADOW LEVELERS}}} *club F.A.R. *@ fubar Family List Michelle~R/L G/F of Miracle Monkey~Winterhawk~Native American Pride~Member of Llama Levelers@ fubar ♡♡♡onetruelovepjl&dal♡♡♡supportourtroops

What's In Store For 2009
Maybe your mother, possibly your sister, or girlfriend, or wife. Maybe it was your buddies mom or sister or grandmother or wife. Somewhere in just about everybody's life, someone has been affected by Breast Cancer. Either they are a survivor, or they succomed to this hideous disease. Uh... guys, pay attention here, it's not exclusive to just us women. Men can and do get diagnosed with breast cancer too! This is what we have to look forward to this year... * Approximately 200,000 women will be diagnosed with invasive breast cancer. * Approximately 50,000 women will die this year from breast cancer. * 1 in 8 women will get breast cancer in their lifetime. * EVERY 13 MINUTES A WOMAN DIES OF BREAST CANCER! (Here's a chilling thought, in the time it took me to write this, someone died of breast cancer) * 70% of all women with breast cancer are over 50. Breast cancer is the leading cause of cancer death in women between the ages of 15 and 54, and the second caus

It Means Nothing
I have no idea who Jess is but, she took a song that was in my head, matched them up with some graphics and put them on utube for me to find.........Thanks Jess :-) She should know by now it's for her......... :-|

A Question I Use To Ask Myself
why am i here? my heart feels so troubled why am i here? is it to love or is it to fear? to love is so beautiful but it scares me so much i wait for the pain as i wait for your touch i've heard all the lies and i'll hear them again thats why i'm fearing, inside i'll be hurt in the end should i be brave and let my heart go? could i trust you enough to let the love show? and if i gave in would you give too? is it really safe for me to fall in love with you? am i to love or am i to fear? Please God, what’s the answer? why am i here? that is, until I met Danielle. Now I know that it's to love. Thank you, Dani. Thank you for answering my question, my love.

My Wish For You In 2009
My Wish for You in 2009 May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet of $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires and may happiness slap you across the face and may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had forget your home address! In simple words ............ May 2009 be the best year of your life!!!

Holidays
Well I must say the holiday season is over and done with and I made it through them sober, and loved it. First year I was ever sober for any holiday. I am proud of myself for coming this far. Never thought I would do it but I did and I am glad I did it. A bunch of peoplethought for sure that I would at least drink but so far nothing. I dont plan on going back to anything. I now know I can have fun sober. I laugh and smile alot more theses days. Thanks to all my friends. You know who you are. XOXOXOXOXO

R.i.p.
So my mom told me today John Travolta's son passed out, it's sad but no biggie, not like we knew them or anything... but anyway, he died the same way my dad died in July 2007. My dad had a seizure in the shower and fell and fractured his skull, he was on life support for 10 days before we had to make the decision to pull the plug. so it's just a sad reminder and I feel for the family because it sucks. Anyways for those that don't know here is a clip of the article: NASSAU, Bahamas – John Travolta's teenage son, Jett, died in the Bahamas after apparently suffering a seizure and hitting his head at his family's vacation home, authorities said Friday. A house caretaker found Jett, 16, unconscious in a bathroom late Friday morning. He was taken by ambulance to a Freeport hospital, where he was pronounced dead, Police Superintendent Basil Rahming said in a statement. The teenager had last been seen entering the bathroom on Thursday and had a history of seizures, according to

Feeling Down
I've been feeling pretty down recently, and i don't really know why. Maybe it's because i'm so far away from my friends. I'm not sure, but i do know that it sucks, because i haven't been depressed in a long time. I'll feel fine when i'm on my meds because they're designed to stabilize my mood, but when they wear off i feel like shit again. I guess it really doesn't matter that much, but whatever

Ruler Of The Whole Everything
Okay. So there was this one time, when I was like 20 years old or so. I worked in a dumpy little retail store as a manager. I thought I was hot shit because I was a senior store supervisor and I could boss people around and whatnot. One of my job duties as “ruler of the whole everything” (by which I mean Sr. Store Supervisor of course) was to take the monies from the previous days’ sales to the bank to deposit. Which, hello… as ruler of the whole everything was the most major of responsibilities you could lay on a 20 year old, right? This only served to further encourage my (apartment sized) authority complex. Because really, what other 20 year old was in charge of thousands of dollars every day? I didn’t know any. You point him out to me, and I’ll just knock him down a peg and explain why I ruled more than he did. True facts. Anycrap, back on subject here. Although I was the ruler of the whole everything, I wasn’t in charge of the scoping out of new employees, or else I would have

Am I Going To Bitch? Ah Yes!
So I'm sitting here talking to my lovely, whorish friend, Josh on the telephone. I've been thinking for the past few months. Why can't people ever shut the fuck up? Why can't conversations between two friends ever be confidential? What is being said is that I talk shit behind one of my friends back. Let me get something straight here. I NEVER EVER say shit behind my friends backs that I will not say to their face. I may say shit to people to get my shit straight..you know to figure out how Im going to say it and what Im going to say, before I talk to you. Im not like these fake ass mother fuckers out there who claim to be your friend. You don't like what I have to say then tough shit. Im going to say whats on my mind. If you piss me off...then I will tell you. I don't know how MANY fucking times I have to remind you. I'm the most unique friend anybody could have. I don't understand why I put up with peoples bullshit. My fuse is getting shorter and shorter each and every day. I'm afraid

Burned
Okay, so I just finished this book today by Ellen Hopkins. It's called Burned. I also read Impulse by her. And they are really DEPRESSING. I just about cried at the ending but of course that would be stupid. Right? but maybe it was just written well enough that I felt connected with the main character. I've never heard such I sad story. Not even in her other book Impulse. I would love to talk to someone who has also read it. Has anyone read it? The ending bugs me because its the kind that leaves you to guess or make your own decision to what happened. AND I THINK SHE JUMPED or FELL(idk if was enthusiastic enough for a jump). so basically if you haven't read it, read it and talk to me about it. It's an easy read because its written in poetry but not what you would expect it to be like, just sentences in rhythm. It makes sense and you don't have to think real hard to make sense out of it but its deep. Although I'm not sure the dudes out there would like it as much but idk try it anyways

Spelling And Grammar, A Lost Art?
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The adrenaline rushed through me. My lungs heaved and heart slowly stopped pounded in my chest and ears. It seemed so loud the people next door could hear it, but they were dead. I looked back at the floor, and saw my mother, well, the thing that was my mother, decapitated. I looked at him, with so many questions in my eyes, but spoke only one thing…. “How did you kill her? I mean, she was dead! But, but, she wasn’t! She came back to life but it wasn’t her!” “She became the undead dear. If you or I didn’t kill her, she would have killed us. It’s simple really…. Haven’t you seen a zombie flick or read a horror story before? Destroy the brain… destroy the zombie!” He explained with a glee in his eye. “So what do we do now?” I asked him, expecting the worst. “We get the fuck outta here. This isn’t a safe place, I haven’t seen a living person on this whole block and nightfall approaches in a few hours. “ “Okay, where will we go?” “I have a place nearby that’s a solid

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you are the one i love. you are the one i need. you are the i believe in. you are the one i would squeeze. you became the one i need. im addicted to your love. i cant help i need your love. no i wont leave you. no i wont hurt you. no i wont forget about you. no i wont run away from you.

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no matter how long uve been married & then separated devorce is hard i have been away from my husband for well over 8 years & finally paying way to much finacaly & emotionally for something he is sitting back & not even helping me on. I know im ready to be devorced from this so called human being but what was supposed to cost me under $400.00 is now almost $1000.00 & what was supposed to be 3 weeks is almost 3 to 4 months. I thank god him & i never had children together, then he would make it harder then this really is now. I'm in 1 state he is in another & all he has to do is answer the door & sign 1 or 2 pieces of paper you think he could do that much heck no he cant & now the judge is threatening to pull us both in court. Well there is no way in hell i would allow him near me or even see me. I thought he would have wanted this over more then i do but im finding no matter what once some1 controls you they dont want to stop. He is trying to control me & im hoping he is figuring out t

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about 6:30 Last night, Friday. me-crying like a little bitch my car, crumpled and maimed because some bitch didnt pay attention to the road and either ran a red light or she was too busy with her phone or tv, or blackberry, or gps, or talking to her passengers....so she hit my 87 no frills 5th Ave. with such force that she destroyed it. And she had was minor damage to her driver's side. no skid marks....she plowed into me. and there i stood. crying like a little bitch all i wanted to was go home i had plans to work on stuff to present to my uncle on sunday. plans to make cookies with my daughter today. not planning to have cuts and a pain in my neck and spine. i needed a cigarette...i had 3....i want one today. ...and maybe a good friend to bring beer...

Give A Listen. Enjoy. Stuff.....
It's not about making tons of money, or begging you for yours. It's about getting the name out there. The exposure. Know what I mean? Click the picture, enjoy some tunes......and of course.............tell everybody ya know. :-) Thank you so much! Sean www.myspace.com/seanfaust

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Okay I know it's Murphy's Law. But, have you ever had anything that could go wrong to you go wrong. Like having 4 family memebers pass away, getting injured at work, losing your job (so they don't have to pay you for the injury), having to fix your house, having your child end up in and out of hospitals, having that stress keep pilling up on you, not really having many friends, and it seems like th ones that you do have you cn't keep, or getting new friends and scaring them away when they relize how messed up your life can be. It seems like everytime you get over one hump. (like having someone close to you in and out of the hospital and some people telling you that with there condition most people dont last more than 10 years some times only 5.) Something else messes up. And when you get through all of this stuff things will start to go really god for you for a while then wham here comes another tidlewave of stuff to deal with. It's just amazing what we as humans can put up with. Yes s

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A little boy came down for breakfast one morning and asked his grandma, "Where's Mom and dad?" and she replied, "they're up in bed." The little boy started to giggle and ate his breakfast and went out to play. Then he came back in for lunch and asked his grandma "where's Mom and Dad?" and she replied "they're still up in bed." Again the little boy started to giggle and he ate his lunch and went out to play. Then the little boy came in for dinner and once again he asked his grandma "where's Mom and dad?" and his grandmother replied "they're still up in bed." The little boy started to laugh and his grandmother asked, "what gives? Every time I tell you they're still up in bed you start to laugh! what is going on here?" The little boy replied, "well last night daddy came into my bedroom and asked me for the Vaseline and I gave him super glue

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that people are as fake as they can be just look around you and you will see what i am talking about. When someone changes their appearance from when they are with you to when they are out in public by themselves that says a whole lot about them ad it mostly tells you that they obviously are willing to do a whole lot more when you are not around. The way i see it people are just who they are and they are the same when they are with you as they are when they are not. To know someone is not ever an easy thing to do cause seriously how well can you ever really know anyone? I dont care o really know anyone i just feed off the info that they give me by their actions and the things that they do whether they think i know about them or not cause if you tell them everything that you know that they do then you are not holding anything that you cna use to fight the ignorance that they will soon spew to you about how you arent good enough or you are not treating them good enough and then you can

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Yes motherfuckers; I did let a woman with kids and no place to go move into the back bedroom after we broke up. Yes I did give someone who has fucked me over a chance to get her shit together so the kids I have come to love did not suffer. No motherfuckers we are not "involved" on any fucking level. No that does not give her any more right to listen to my conversations with ANY of my friends and decide to crash yet another site. No more than it gives the bitch the right to run my phone battery dead trying to hack the password so she can find out if I slept with someone last night or any other fucking night. The terms and conditions of our arrangement include her staying the fuck out of my personal life because it does NOT include her. So you wanna say some bullshit about the whole story...well choke on that shit. Next time someone wants to call me a liar...bring your happy ass to FL and I will be happy to knock your hypocritical teeth down your fucking throat. ANY FUCKING Q

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Hubby And Wife Nsfw
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A Good Dog Story
Mary and her husband Jim had a dog named Lucky. Lucky was a real character. Whenever Jim and Mary had company come over for a weekend visit, they would have to warn their friends not to leave their luggage open because Lucky would help himself to whatever struck his fancy. Inevitably, one of their guests would forget and something would turn up missing. Mary or Jim would trudge down to Lucky's box in the basement and there the "treasure" would be, amid all of Lucky's other favorite toys. Lucky always stashed his toys in his box and he was very particular that they stay in the box. Now, in the course of life going on, Mary discovered that she had breast cancer. Something inside told her she was going to die of the disease. In fact, she became certain that it was fatal. Mary scheduled a double mastectomy, fear riding her shoulders. The night before she was to go into the hospital, she cuddled up with Lucky, and a thought struck her. "What would happen to Lucky?

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I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 3 in the morning as I check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively that it's too late, but wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done to save his life. I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a call. "Whats wrong with the patient? It is minor or life threatening? Is the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a gun?" I wish you could be in the emergency room as a doctor pronounces dead the beautiful five-year old girl that I have been trying to save during the past 25 minutes, who will never go on her first date or say the words "I love you Mommy and Daddy" again. I wish you could know the frustration I feel in my cruiser or the cab of the truck or squad, with my foot pressing down hard on the pedal, my siren and air horn blasting again and again, as you fail to yield the right-of-way at an intersection or in tr

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You: What color eyes? Hair? How tall? How old? What city do you live in? Male/Female? The Private You: How many people have you had sex with in 2006? How many of those people were one night stands? How many serious relationships have you had? What is your favorite position? Have you ever slept with more than one person at a time? Him / Her: Eyes? Height? Weight? Body structure? Tall / short? Personality? Age? Misc: What is the first question you ask before having sex with someone? Have you ever considered or had a sex buddy with no relationship? If yes, how many? Have you ever not been in love with someone you had sex with? Top or bottom? Have you ever considered being with some of the same sex? What are 2 turn on's? What are 2 turn off's? Why did you feel it necessary to fill out this survey and post it for everyone to see? Who is most likely to repost this?

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i look forward and see a huge brick wall as far as the eye can see i walk towards it and press my hand against it looking for a weakness as i touch all over i dont feel any yet but this is no easy wall for my goal is on the other side but with time and effort this wall will fall but for now i will do all that i can to move it brick by brick i know they are for your protection and you need them but i will show you that i will be your wall i will protect you and care for you and together we will bask the glow of love

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Metal Queen is influenced by many extremely talented guitarists, yet her all time favorite is Randy Rhoads. She is a guitar nut. Her favorite bands are Iron Maiden, Judas Priest, Megadeth, Black Sabbath, AC/DC. The reason she likes being a DJ is she loves being able to bring people joy through music. There is so much metal out there that the world hasn't heard yet, so she is always constantly searching for new bands. Plus she has had the opportunity to meet a lot of awesome people doing what she loves. So what are u waiting for come and rock out with DJ Metal Queen @ Gods Forsaken Radio!!!!!

Come What May
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To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait." To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state line) to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. To every guy that she cried in front of. To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes. To every guy that would give his seat up. To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every guy

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Your Daily Motivation – Never Say Never. Sunday January 4, 2009 NEVER SAY NEVER. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There is no such thing as no chance. Don't think about the things you can't do. Think about the things you can do. No matter what the level of your ability is, you have more potential than you can ever develop in a lifetime. You have powers you never dreamed of. You can do things you never thought you could do. There are no limitations to what you can do except the limitations of your own mind. Your range of available choices right now is limitless. Look at things as they can be. Copyright 2008 www.yourdailymotivation.com Free Webinar => How to Thrive in the Down Economy Free Webinar => Weathering The Coming Financial Storm Free Webinar => Beauty To Die For? =============================== Free Webinar: How to Thrive In The Down Economy Our economy is bein

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To all my Fu family and friends, I want you all to know that I love you all very much. I am sorry I have not been online much lately. Those of you that I talk to frequently know that my mother and step father have moved back here for me to help take care of my mom, on top of taking care of my handicapped 20 year old and my 9 year old son. Plus I have been looking for a job and for Christmas we got a WII and I am spending lots of time with the family bowling, tennis, baseball, golf and even some boxing. Just want you all to know that I have not forgotten you and I really miss all of you. I will try to be online some this evening to chat and catch up with whats been going on. PLease send lots of love and I will return all of it. I know there is some hot new bling... i would love some .. but dont have money for a bling pack, so help a girl out if you can.... hehehe... MUAHZ

Truth
This house is not a home I take it out and put it to his dome put a hole in his head big enough to be a home no control take hold it’s a whirlwind of shit this is it its going to be over time to grow some balls while the lifeless body falls you did it its over finished no more stress sigh of relief the turmoil is over clouds are clear now u stand there with tears in your eyes pride had control but that head you turned into a bowl was your fathers skull it had to happen no more threats or fear you had to do what you did or you’d be dead wake up it was all a dream no more time to scheme make hate little time to waste move out before this happens he will eventually take over your new space get things right for a minute it will be tight but you will be okay pray to the lord one day will be your day no more tears little boy grow up that man you call dad will never show up left you at 8 had a hot date with the federal pen came back and didn’t expect you to be a man you own the house your not

My Life.
MY LIFE. By me I look into mirror I see myself, but as I was before The days where I had hopes and Dreams Know I see sadness, pain, death in my face And the wasted time I have spent here I broke my life apart, I lost everything exept myself I have nothing to gain or lose from life I only wanted a simple life , Now i want only to live in dark, In the shadow of my Dreams watching how the world dies, Day after day It burns in pain It feels hunger for blood I take a peace of Mirror glass and look into myself I see that many years passed. I see how old I have become How much pain I have seen How much did I gane Throught this years Now I have only one purpose, to live And there is nothing to change..... MRRCP2007

Rules For Nsfw..
IF U ALL WANT TO SEE MY NSFW PIC.. BEFORE I OPEN THEM FOR EVERYONE.. THIS IS WHAT IM WANTING.. IM NOT BEGGIN OR BEIN A WHORE ON HERE.. ITS ONLY FAIR..IF U GET TO C ME NAKED AND WELL I GET SUMTHING IN RETURN.. 1. U CAN RATE AND COMMENT ALL SFW PIC.. YES THAT MEANS.. 424 PIC.. PLUS. 2. U CAN BUY ME A BLING PK.. IT ONLY COST 11.99.. NOT THAT MUCH. OR 3. U CAN BUY ME A AUTO 11 BLING.. OR A BLST.. FOR 7 DAYS. IF THIS PISSES U OFF.. THEN MOVE ON.. OK.. I LUV ALL OF MY FRIENDS.. AGAIN IM NOT BEGGIN OR BEIN A FU WHORE.. IF WHAT U ALL CALL IT..

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Dipp: you ever date latin guys? ->Dipp: nope cant say that i have Dipp: damn wish I was there near you to give you a taste of it Dipp: you never even tasted a latino before? Dipp: I mean that in bed ->Dipp: k.. well have a good day

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Master had heard her growl and stood in a stunned silence as he continued to hold the no longer struggling Stephanie down. He had known that she had jealousy issues but had yet to see his kitten get truly jealous. It pleased him and yet greatly distressed him that she became this jealous of such a little thing. But his attention was again back on his kitten where it needed to be and for that he was a little grateful for his kittens little scene. Telling Stephanie to sit down on her bare ass, Master takes up a candle and digs his lighter out of his pocket. Walking up to his kitten, he tugged on one of the weights, just to hear her moan. Taking hold of the string tightly in his hand, he quickly tugged the string and the attached weights off. He massaged her sore breasts and nipples as she screamed, muffled by the gag. He waited until she had regained a little composure and was standing relatively still before he flicked the lighter and held the flame close enough to her pretty nipples th

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TIME IS A MUTHA FUGGA. YOU DONT REALIZE HOW LITTLE THINGS CAN ADD UP.I DID MY CRIME I DO MY TIME. THE HARD PART OF IT IS SAYING GOODBYE TO THE PEPOLE YOU LOVE.THE REASON BEING IS IT IS NOT FAIR TO THEM.AS FAR AS ME I KNOW I GOT WHAT I HAVE COMING TO ME. IM OK WITH THAT.I JUST WANT TO SAY SORRY TO THOSE I LOVE. SEE YOU IN SIX MONTHS

Darke Heaven Auction
GREETINGS AND WELCOME TO THE FIRST EVER DARKE-HEAVEN HAPPY NAWTY NEW YEAR AUCTION PRESENTATION. And here I am for your bidding pleasure.... Rememeber that that opening bid is 100K and the sky's the Limit... I'm offering myself in all manners of sexiness So get here and bid on me to start this New year off with a BANG! ~*~ Sexy Lil Hell Cat ~*~ Owned By The Greatest Whiteboy Alive@ fubar THE HOSTESS FOR THIS EXTRAVAGANT EVENT...

My Momma
here I am again....sitting alone in my house...in the early hours of the morning...with my deepest fears staring me in the eyes. Hearing the tick tock of the clock on the wall....wanting nothing more than to tear it off of the wall...and throw it across the room so it crashes....freezing time. My time...her time...keeping her for a little while longer. My heart is in a million pieces and I cant put anything together to even begin to console myself, my children, and my dad. To make sence of this constant nightmare that I am in. Fearing each phone call....each doctors appointment. I keep telling myself you are an adult....you should be able to be strong and accept that along with life comes death. Im not immune to it..I know this and neither is my mom. We all have our day. Is this the end for her story...is this it for our relationship? Do I have to say goodbye at 27? Should I feel lucky that I have some time to prepare...when some others dont? Is it selfish of me

Dear, You
Dear, you: one time you were my hope, my escape, and my love. Now you are a distant memory of what was. Did the time that we shared really mean anything to you? was I just another woman to fuck? was I a joke...using my heart as your punch line? Looking back...you must think I'm so naive to have believed your lies. Laughing at my expense. You reeled me in...with your smooth lines...and soft touches. I melted with your kisses, your caresses, surrendered in your embrace, and fell in what I thought was your love. I feel so stupid for letting you in. I had spent so many years protecting my heart. With you... my walls came crashing down around me. For once I felt alive. I felt wanted, needed, and desired. Most importantly I felt pretty. Now I am so afraid that those too were a part of your deceit. Were they just "things" that you told me to keep me around? I fell right into the place that you wanted me in. I was foolish to think that I was "YOUR" only one...tha

My Beautiful Ending
As christmas lights dance on the wall... creating a euphoria of happiness... I smile recalling a time in my life when it all made sense. When my life was simple. when I was loved. Now, sitting here in silence.... with only my thoughts to keep me company. I feel lost, confused, and broken. Searching for something or someone to take me back to that moment in my life. When I was whole, safe, and cared for. Looking for arms to hold me to tell me that it will all be ok. memories of my life playing in my mind like a silent film. taunting me tormenting me. mocking my whole being. sneaking up on me in only brief moments of happiness. Like a stranger in the night... hiding my life from me. watching the christmas tree through tear filled eyes I wonder who I have become. I have become a stranger to myself. I am a woman, a mother, a friend, a daughter, a niece, and a lover. Yet I am empty...I am nothing...I am so many things to ma

Mae Mae Has Auto's On!!!
GUESS WHO HAS AUTO-11'S? MAE-MAE!!! ♥ Mae Mae ♥ { Owner of Mae Mae's Love Shack } * SBG* {Club Mystic}@ fubar SHE NEEDS A LOT OF HELP TO GET TO PROPHET; SO COME GET SOME BIG POINTS AND FUBUCKS!!! PLEASE HELP TO GET HER THERE??? THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR ANY AND ALL HELP!!! DON'T FORGET TO PRIVATE MESSAGE FOR RETURN LOVE! FONDLY PIMPED OUT BY THE MEMBERS OF: Club Mystic!@ fubar AND CinDragon-Founder of ClubMystic-PegasusProject-FuAngel-I.B.I.C@ fubar This html code blatantly stolen from (and slightly altered): Ms. Sassy{Shadow Leveler}@ fubar show her some love as well, she RAWKS!!!

Direct Link To Own Me Jan 4th
GREETINGS AND WELCOME TO THE FIRST EVER DARKE-HEAVEN HAPPY NAWTY NEW YEAR AUCTION PRESENTATION. And here he is... Gbeaver being up for auction pleasure.... Rememeber that that opening bid is 100K and the sky's the Limit... So get here and place your bids on a great guy and start off this New year off with a BANG! DON'T HESITATE... DANCE YOUR WAY TO SEXY LIL HELLCAT'S PAGE TO FIND YOUR NEXT FU We are accepting more auctionees until Jan 9th.. so hurry up get your offers together and beat a path to Damien's door so that we can get you added to the New Year's Fun ~*~ Sexy Lil Hell Cat ~*~ Owned By The Greatest Whiteboy Alive@ fubar THE HOSTESS FOR THIS EXTRAVAGANT EVENT...

Friend In Need
Hey guys and dolls. This woman here is a really great friend. She goes out of her way to help poeple on here with anything they need. She's been wanting to level for a month now. I think its time we return the love to this woman. Ŋǚ§н¥™ åКǎ ŊűŊů Þü$$¥çåt§ PIMPΣƬƬΣ@ fubar

Lies
Lies I am the fool when I keep trying to believe How stupid can I be Is it desperation or the loneliness I feel; Somewhere I lost my ability to put myself first I believe the words spoken to me Only to discover they're just lies I don't really matter to people I see They use me for their own means Then discard me after a while When did I lose my reason When did I lose my mind Was it the need to belong I have no answers to the questions I ask Sue Price Copyright ©2009 Sue Price

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Lounges
Ok people heres the deal I am the head promoter in the Chubby Chasers lounge and well heres what i am think....Come in and check it out!!!!!!!!!!! Come join me and all of our other sexy fubar ladies in the Chubby Chasers lounge....We now have cams up and running and would love for you to join us.....We love to lick and give blow jobs.....only one rule in our lounge and thats that you have to be naked upon entering.....Once more thats the Chubby chasers lounge and we would love for you to come in and join us for some fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Faqs Please Read Before Asking
1. ~Are you happily married? If not are you going to divorce him and see me?~ Yes I am happily married. No he and I are not having problems. No I would probably not go see you even if I was single. You might be a rapist or killer. 2. ~How are you?~ Don't bother asking me how I am doing. I will always say that I am ok or doing good. Unless I know you really well and like ya enough to bitch at you. :D 3. ~Do you wanna join ______ group? All we need is nudes.~ I am not really fond of groups and such. I don't want to join groups that ask for sexy pictures. Not my thing. I prefer to go at the fu world without all of the rules that groups make you follow. I am not really a follower. 4. ~Do you have a cam? Wanna see me jack off?~ I only cam with people I know. Even then I keep my clothes on. Please don't ask if I have a cam, I do but no I am sorry you may not see me on it. As much as I dig men jacking off I would prefer to see my husband do it if I want to watch

Please Tell Me Why
Tell me why life can be so lonely sometimes? Even with everyone that tells me they love me, and how many people surround me, I still feel...alone... Tell me why people tell you when life gives you lemons make lemonade? What happens if you don't know how to make lemonade? or you make the mistake of salt instead of sugar? This new year is off to a mediocre start as far as I'm concerned but I have hopes that things will get better. A new start, and hopefully new and improved people. LOL

Be My Valentine Auction
HEY YALL I AM UP FOR AUCTION AGAIN. THIS TIME IT IS CALLED THIS IS WHAT I AM OFFERING: Rate all photos/stash during HH Link to your profile in about me Owned in name for one month Added to #1 friends for a month Added to #1 family for a month A profile comment a day If a 3 month VIP is offered then they will own me for 3 months. Salute to my new owner Will add more if the price is right... IF YOU WANNA OWN ME FOR VALENTINES THEN CLICK ON THE LINK BELOW TO START BIDDING. THE BIDDING ENDS ON FEBRUARY 13 @ 9PM FU-TIME.

Plz Help Firewalker To Godfather!!!
FIREWALKER IS TRYING TO GODFATHER AND HE'S NOT TOO FAR AWAY.......LET'S GET HIM THERE! RATE HIM, BLING HIM, LET'S DO WHAT IT TAKES TO MAKE HIM A GODFATHER AND LET'S TRY TO DO IT TONIGHT! firewalker@ fubar

I Story I Came Up Wit A While Ago
Erica and I had just gotten home from the club and were beat. Our Friday nights usually went on and on at the clubs. Most of the time spent dancing and drinking. Erica turned to me and said she was going to take a shower before we headed off to bed. I grinned inside, made up some lame line about being hungry, and was going to make something to eat. She nodded at me and stripped bare as she walked to the bathroom, tossing her clothes onto the floor. "Damn she's got a hot body!" I thought to myself. I waited for a few minutes, to try and make her believe that I really was getting something to eat. I frequently hopped in the shower with her and she's hardly ever surprised. I quietly stripped down in the kitchen and snuck into the bathroom. The tiny bathroom was filled with steam and the scent of her soap. I could feel myself grow hard as I crept up to the bathtub. I slowly pulled the shower curtain aside and there she was. Her back was to me, the water and soap blending and cascading down

Mind Ya Business
people should just mind their own business but they dont cause getting in other peoples business is so much more fun to them than taking care of their own stuff. I think that people are who they are because they want something that they cant have not because life makes them that way. anyway go ahead and weigh in on this and let me know what you think. thanks.DDS

Helping People
This is a fact ive learned in life u cant help anyone who doesnt want to be helped ur just fighting a lost cause. So find out who wants help and is willing to get it and try and help them if u can but dont hurt urself in the process

Oh My!!
Subject: LocoMotion Message: I am standing on the platform at the train station...waiting to board the train on that long awaited business trip I needed to take. I notice you standing about 10 feet away...wearing a short coat...that does nothing to cover your ample breasts...you are wearing a mini skirt with a slit up the back, allowing a great view of your uncovered ass cheeks. You drop your purse and bend over to retrieve it, bending straight from the waist...and showing the platform your ass...though...there are only two people on the platform, me and you. I do not think you notice me, as you hide your interest well. With the ample view of your back side that I just received, my cock is now bulging to be set free. The train tickets were cheap...for a very long trip...the reason we are the only people on the platform is because it is now 3 am...the train pulls in...and we board it. We enter the same car...the lounge car...chairs and seats everywhere...but not one single person

O Fortuna, Translated
Latin-English translation. If you ever wondered what this song was about, here are the lyrics. ==================================================================================================

Seduction
It was another lonely evening In another lonely bar When across the crowded gathering I see, there you are Intoxicating beauty and grace and poise Seemingly unaffected by the crowd and the noise I watched you deflect suitors by the dozen Hovering about and stalking you like a coven I sat and we talked and I no longer had a choice Uncommon beauty and a lively intelligence A rare combination beneath such a lovely countenance And, oh lord, such an exquisite voice Low and breathy, full of promise The voice of seduction Eroticism, witticism, full of compassion A voice that prompts thoughts of Nights of wild abandon Of full moons.... Above warm tropical rains Of long moonlit walks on the sands Of fine wines and candlelit dinners Of mountain log cabins with crackling fires Of romantic destinations, nights filled by sighs A woman whose conversation is an event Intelligent, inventive, romantic, and heaven-sent Knowledgeable about so many subjects With a voice that entra

Bad November - Track 2 - Mystery Girl
Bad November Disclaimer: This is the first chapter in a story I wrote. None of the characters in this story are real and any relation to anyone dead or living is not intended. I apologize for any wrong use of United Kingdom English because I am not that familiar with United Kingdom slang. Any input would be welcome and any flaming will be ignored. This story is planned to be revised and maybe I can talk the writer to let me post them here if people like them. Please comment and let the writer and me know what you like or don't like. Also if 2 male characters being romantically involved sickens you please don't read. If you're still interested please keep reading. One last note, if anyone wishes to copy my story please get permission first (Not that I think that will happen but who knows). Lyrics from the song Mystery Girl: Mystery girl/ We met under the moonlight/ Your lips taste like wine/ And I want to get drunk/ Mystery girl/ We kissed under starlight/ Will your love free

One Of My Good Poems
As we come with broken dreams,in which we hope to mend.We send a prayer to heaven,in the search to find a friend.We somehow meet each other,in the hopes of something new.I somehow seem to feel, just what your going through.In the tender waves of silence,with a promise in my heart.I'll be a friend forever,this is just the start.Give your all forever and if you ever feel blue, send a little letter and this is what I'll do.I'll silently search my heart, in a special kind of way. And do whats in my power to make you smile again. Wanted to say friends are special people if you pick them right. Craig P

Poem Of Love (a Work In Progress)
God knew what he was doing When he sent you for me to love He knew right from the very start That you alone would capture my heart Eyes so green, hair of night Relieve me of my lonely plight Joyful laughter now fills the air Where once only sobs lingered there My heart quickens at the thought of you Twinkling like the morning dew Your love surrounds me now For God has willed by the sweat of his brow Handle it with care and love It has been blessed by Him above Your warm caresses touch my soul My heart now yours to take at will

Thanks 2 All That Have Helped
CALLING ALL FRIENDS!!! pLEASE REPOST THIS AND IF U CAN STICKY I'D APPRECIATE IT CLICK THE HEART BELOW ALL OF YOUR RATES,TIME,AND PATIENCE, I KNOW IT TAKES PATIENCE TO SIT THERE AND RATE. MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE

Random Stuff...
- Why do people ask for your opinion when they don't listen to you or want to hear what you honestly have to say? Seriously, stop wasting my fucking time! I am going to have to drop down the sign "The Doctor is NOT in" - Girls, just because I rate/comment/talk to your boyfriend/husband does NOT mean I am interested in them. Get the hell over yourselves! If you are that insecure in your relationship I think its about time you set down and talk to your man. -Men, just because I rate/comment/check out your profile. Does by no means mean I am even slightly interested in what you have lurking in those nsfw folders. -I want to know what the big picture is. I want to know what life has in store for me. Where will all these twist and turns lead me?

The Path
i stand beside you my hand locked with yours as we both look down the path we look at each other and smile as we take a step forward i can feel your fear and i reasure you with my love as we take another step forward you squeeze tight and i whisper into your ear i will never let you go i will always be here right beside you never leaving your side another step forward and the darkness starts to fade and with each step the light grows as the the sun shines for the both of us we can see the path and its not so scary now i can feel your heart beating faster as you now have nothing to fear because you know i am not going anywhere without you and the light is so bright nothing is hidden now and you know the truth that resides in my heart and soul its all exposed for you to see and then our lips meet and you know that this path is our path one we will walk down together for this life and the next i feel you squeeze my hand one more time and we move forward

Coachella!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
april 17,18 and 19th....and stagecoach will be the 25th and 26th..... FRIKIN SWEEEEET!!!!!!!!! i'll be in LA by march 15th.....so holy crap is this gonna be badass.....the 10th anniversary of coachella and like the 3rd for stagecoach....so HELLS YEAH!.... that means my season starts like 10 days ahead of schedule. ....and i get to hit hawaii for may 1st-14th.... im stoked..... 70 days till it all kiks off! RP

Quote Sent To Me 041 (hurt)
Hurt – it’s the reaction of the heart when it disagrees with what the mind tells us. The fact that we’re hurting means we know what to do. We just can’t accept it. – Erlet 01/04/09 10:50pm

Forever In Your Heart
Forever in You Heart You know That I love you In every way You bring So many magical wonders To my day How could I ever leave One reason why Cause darlin without you I cannot breathe Youre the best thing In all my life The only one Who helps me through So much pain and strife Baby you know... Youll always be in my heart Well never have reaons To ever part When I look into yor eyes All I see is you and i Together, forever in your heart Darlin yes I love you more than words can say Youll always be mine No matter where you are Youre always at the front Of my mind Only for eternity Youve touched my heart With undying hope With your love My problems can cope No one will ever take your place When I close my eyes I see me Kissing your sweet face Youre much more beautiful Than heavens glowing embrace You'll alwyas be Forever with me Baby, just wait and see Youre my dream come true And all I can say Is that I love you All I can say I

Thinking Of You
Lying in your arms So close together Didnt know just what I had Now I toss and turn Cause Im without you How Im missing you so bad Where was my head? Where was my heart? Now I cry alone in the dark I lie awake I drive myself crazy Drive myself crazy Thinking of you... Made a mistake When I let you go baby I drive myself crazy Wanting you the way that I do Wanting you the way that I do I was such a fool I couldnt see it Just how good you were to me (just how good you were to me) You confessed your love (you confessed your love) Undying devotion I confessed my need to be free... And now Im left With all this pain Ive only got myself to blame...yeah... I lie awake I drive myself crazy Drive myself crazy Thinking of you... Made a mistake Let you go baby I drive myself crazy Wanting you the way that I do (wanting you the way that I do) Why...didnt I know it How much I loved you baby? Why couldnt I show it If I had only told you When I ha

This I Promise You
This I Promise You When the visions around you, Bring tears to your eyes And all that surround you, Are secrets and lies Ill be your strength, Ill give you hope, Keeping your faith when its gone The one you should call, Was standing here all along.. And I will take You in my arms And hold you right where you belong Till the day my life is through This I promise you This I promise you Ive loved you forever, In lifetimes before And I promise you never... Will you hurt anymore I give you my word I give you my heart (give you my heart) This is a battle weve won And with this vow, Forever has now begun... Just close your eyes (close your eyes) Each loving day (each loving day) I know this feeling wont go away (no..) Till the day my life is through This I promise you.. This I promise you.. Over and over I fall (over and over I fall) When I hear you call Without you in my life baby I just wouldnt be living at all... And I will take (I will take yo

What You Do To Me
Oh let me tell you Just whats on my mind I dream about it you all the time I just wanna give you anything I can Let me show you everything I am Why is it so hard to get through to you Just what I feel when you walk in the room? What you do to me I cant believe What Im feeling when When you look at me What you do to me Oh I cant conceive Just what Id do when you do What you do to me Used to getting anything I want S why am I letting you get to my heart I never thought that my mind would fantasize That Id reveal what I feel inside

Submitting Pic
I need some help so I want to submit a pic for Kodak and they need one that captures the revelry of the new year..any suggestions?? I was thinking about something along with like: maybe a new begining ya know with a new year new president..what would be the best pic to describe this? I even considered a sunrise as a new begining but how will they know thats what I mean?

The Valley & The Mountain
through the valley i walk to the mountain i climb. i tried to climb that mountain but cant get past the first peak. The valley is where i stay contemplating life. How can i climb that mountain?One day i will! Till then i stay in the valley wondering if im good enough to climb that mountain or im i destain to stay in the valley.One day I hope to conquer that mountain.My demons keep me in the valley of self dought,worth,and love.Will i ever be trully happy? Happiness is what is ultimate what everyone is striving for to get to the top of the mountain.Most of us are happy being in the valley but not all END

Episode 80- Redlars Bday Bash
This show started like so many before it, with technical difficulties, lol. Myself and one listener were able to type, while others could not hear but type. Once I finally got fixed that problem, about 10 mins later, we finally got the show rolling. The first show of the year, had alot of new things, new bits, a new intro, and best of all, new guests. We covered Dumb Laws of Sweden, Top 10 signs the Anti-Christ is a vegetarian, Red's 3 favorite songs, Redlars good deed of the week, Drink of the week, our King of the Hill, movie review of Benjamin Button, Hellcast Trivia, our sextalk with the girls from TMI, our Mad Lib- The Drunkest I Ever Got, Fractured Fairy Tale- Lord Redlar, Country of the week- Czech Republic, Slackney's Wisdom, On this day in history, our Presidential Address, Comic of the week- Lavell Crawford, 60 second science and so much more on the Aftershow... Each and every show is always so much fun, especially when the listeners get involved. To me, thats what it

To Put It Simply, I Want You
I want to be your companion and walk hand in hand, your strength over coming my weakness. Autumn leaves falling, scuffing feet and laughter, sharing nights, not finished by the dark. I want to be your confidant as you pen your deepest thoughts, as your heartaches, bleeds and finally break free. Your dreams, I keep as if my own. I want to smile as you smile and giggle with you at nothing at all. I want to be your lover and find the passions that move you to action. I want to be the softness that induces you to trust. I want to be the naughty that makes you come back for more. I want to please you. I want to share your breakfast every morning for all time. I want you in the shower and in your bed and with soft steps Id bring you breakfest in bed! Your strong arms, the legs that power your thrust, your lips of pleasure, these are the fuel of my desire no it is no secret, my love, and to put it very simply, I want you.

Open Your Own Door To Success.
OPEN YOUR OWN DOOR TO SUCCESS. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Success on any major scale requires that you accept responsibility. The one quality that all successful people have is their ability to take on responsibility. You must choose the thoughts and actions that will lead you on to success. Nothing will happen by itself. It can all come your way, once you understand that you have to make it come your way, by your own exertions. Find your pathway to success and begin your journey. Your life will become what you make of it. The golden opportunity you are seeking lies within you. It's not in your environment. It's not in luck or chance, or the help of others. It's in you alone. Opportunity is all around you. And if the door of opportunity is closed, you must keep on knocking on it, and keep on knocking on it until it opens. You'll develop your opportunity by applying persistence to your possibilitie

???not Sure What To Think
I just wanted to let you all know that Mom was taken off inpatient status at the Hospice House since a week ago Friday. It seems she is "improving", and no longer meets the criteria for inpatient care, which means Medicare is no longer paying for it. I just found out about this a couple days ago. Once again someone dropped the ball on letting us know. I was not happy. I think it is kind of ironic, though, that a person who has cancer, who would not survive treatment, cannot walk or take care of herself, and was given two weeks to live (she has lasted over three weeks since that statement was made) would be taken off inpatient status at a hospice... These are federal regulations... I believe the main reason for this is that at her time of admittance she was having tube feedings. The hospice doctor has since stopped the tube feedings, and we or the nurses are helping her eat and drink what she can and wants by mouth. She has really been doing very well with that, alt

Mmm Look What Naughty Naughtia Did To Me
SHE HAS WENT AND MADE ME A PRETTY....I LOVE IT AND LOVE HER TO PIECES MMMMMMMMM SUCH AN AWESOMELY SWEETY GAL!!! PLEASE SHOW HER SOME LOVE I AM IN ANOTHER AUCTION WILL YA PLEASE STOP BY AND PLACE A BID? IM HOUSE TRAINED... DONT HUMP LEGS WELL OK YEA I DO BUT STILL GOTTA LOVE ME LOL I DONT BITE BUT HAVE BEEN KNOWN TO NIBBLE~GIGGLES~ i dont pee on carpet im sometimes quiet as a mouse....well when im asleep i am anyway come on bid on me ya know ya wanna IF YOU WANNA OWN ME FOR VALENTINES THEN CLICK ON THE LINK BELOW TO START BIDDING. PLEASE SHOW MY GIRL SOME LOVE FOR HER AWESOMENESS BUT SAVE SOME FOR ME!!! GO PLACE YOUR BIDS I WANT TO OUTDO ALL THE OTHER AUCTIONS I HAVE BEEN IN AND BRING IN MORE THAN IN THE OTHERS SO LOVE ME HARD!!

2008 In Review...
2008... where the fuck did it go? Seems like it was yesterday that it was the end of 2007 and I was just creating my fubar account, getting to know some of the best people I have ever encountered... and here we are, 2009! Whoa!!! :) 2008 brought me lots of things... many good, some bad, but all in all, my year was more than I ever could have wished for!!! I met Jimmie, who is my best friend, soul mate, life partner, he is my everything. Handsome, I love you! ;) I rocked out at too many concerts to count, and loved almost every minute of it! Celebrated birthdays with all my peeps, drank, smoked, drank some more and smoked more than we should have... :) Went to more -itis shows than I can count! I know, I am obsessive, what can I say! I had fun at each and every one of them!!! I met wonderful people that I can't imagine my life with out any more! Jenny, you are the BEST, and I love you! Denny, I fuckin miss you and you need to travel through more often! Jeremy, I miss

Call It What Ya Will
HUMILITY We humbly ask the Higher Power and of our friends to help us to change. Creator is an ally who we are finely walkin with. There is no greater ill then being Spiritually sick. We, to, must start over in every area of our lifes. Humility is an attitude that will help us start fresh in every thing we do. To be humble is to get down on Mother Earth and ask the Higher Power for help on a regular basis. We all have a Self-regulator inside of us whose purpose is to keep us inside a "comfort zone". When we get outside of our emotional comfort zone, we might find ourselves gettin irritable and edgy. Juststice We are making up to those people when ever we can, except when to do so would hurt them more. As we walk, the path of forgiveness and justice we stay focused on the things we have done wrong. We are on this path to get right with the Creator and with others. Make your admends as quickly as possible. Some admends can be done by letter or by telephone. Pre

I Really Just Feel Like Crying...
Ok guys and girls… I have a bad news… THE BIG BOSS of the company 1633 (those real the one who’s taking care in Europe of the magazine : NewLook, Maximal and many others… So THE BOSS just decide that I’m looking way too young to be on the cover + interview… bla bla bla… they call me the women-child… anyways… I guess I’m not good enough for those one who always have in mind that a REAL WOMEN is a tall girl with big boobs and a different look than me… I’m not planning on writing you a big story but this news really crew up my day… I’m feeling like I want to cry… I’m going outside to change my idea… I need a breather. Take Care! Ariel Rebel

Forgiveness, The Gift You Give To Yourself.
Forgiveness--the gift you give to yourself. It's been 16 months now. 16 months of pain, grief, tears, acceptance, healing and growth. I have come to a decision. I forgive him. Not that he will ever know; I don't believe he would even care. I forgive him because it releases me. It sets me free to move on to a new life. Did I love him?? Absolutely. Do I wish I had never even met him? I used to think so, but no--I really don't. He taught me so much that I can carry into the future with me. He taught me many things about life, and about myself. He taught me that I can indeed love, even if foolishly, and too much. Truly, deeply and without reservation. He taught me that I can feel, genuinely experience emotions, in their every incarnation. I taught me that I can sometimes feel too much. He taught me that when a man says, "I'm not ready for a commitment." what he really means is "You are not the one, and I don't want to be committed to you!" He taught me that when a man says

3pm Futime; Get Ready! Tabby76 Is Turning On Her Cherry!!!
GUESS WHO HAS AUTO-11'S? TABBY76!!! **TABBY76**(~FuOwned By D*S*I*P~)**Member Of Club Mystic**@ fubar SHE WILL ACTIVATE HER AUTO-11 BLING AT 3PM FU-TIME, THAT IS 5PM CST AND 6PM EST!!! PLZ GET HER TO FU-QUEEN, AND WELL ON HER WAY TO GODMOTHER!!! ALL HELP APPRECIATED!!! LOTS AND LOTS OF EZ RATE PICS, SO AT 3PM FUTIME, GO F/A/R HER, RATE HER PICS, BLING HER, SHOW LOTS OF LOVE AND PRIVATE MESSAGE FOR LOVE RETURNED!!! SHE IS AWESOME! THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR ANY AND ALL HELP!!! FONDLY PIMPED OUT BY THE MEMBERS OF: Club Mystic!@ fubar AND: CinDragon-Founder of ClubMystic-PegasusProject-FuAngel-I.B.I.C@ fubar This html code blatantly stolen from (and slightly altered): Ms. Sassy{Shadow Leveler}@ fubar show her some love as well, she RAWKS!!! PLEASE REPOST LOTS? THANK YOU SO MUCH!

A New.....
What was your New Years Wish? Mine was to start over...you know...a new life, a new love, a new beggining to see happiness. Guess what, so far everything has gone that way. I'm happy for once in my life, with just about everything. If only someone could understand that lol Who cares though..... As long as I am happy that is what counts, at least that is what my mother says... Just wanted to update everyone... I've got a new everything and my health is getting better slowly but surely....dr's are releasing me to go back to work soon, yay! Thank goodness, I can't handle this boredom and stress any longer! Not sure what else to say right now, so will possibly fill you in on more later **Tinkers**

Pride Of The Fem Warrior
Lo and behold doest thou before me see this man. The one in shining armore. Is it? could it be? could he be? Oh! Sweet agony! I dare not hope nor dream, to wish. wouldst thou lay your pride whore? Nie!Nie! I wouldst not alive lay thy pride. For no man doest thou lay thy sword. could I? Dare I? Would it be? Nie! Nie! tis from man and man alone are these bitter wounds I've worn. Be fair warned oh stuborn one, thine soul you guard hadst been envaided all the while. could he have? Might I be? I pray the Goddess take me in her light as I pierce thy flesh with this blade so vile. Not for lust nor hunger shall I break way for man and his selfish ways. Am I safe? am I free? I flee I am of free spirit. With he and only he who honors this shall I lay. I am she, the warriorqueen with cunning and feminine ways. yes I am Yes I can May he who brings harm upon her agonize in wanting all his days. I am she the dragoness of fire and passion and yet water and tranquility. Yes I shall Yes

Journey's Begining
...........Come my child............. Thoughts and vissions swirling twirling round. Bright lights eluminating so peaceful, so sound. ...............Follow me.............. Feelings of euphorea filtering through, all round me glorious shades of blue. .............Feel the wind............. Arms wide open as if in mid air floating in still waters without care. ..........I am holding you............. Visions and emotions of days to come. Many unfought battles yet to be won. ............Look into tomorow........... All that shall come and go in sight. All that hide thoughts of harm in light. ...........Use the vission.............. The loves to come and all loves lost. All questions answered, I ask at what cost? .........What be this light?........... I am the Goddess that lives deep within. The white light you seek as each day begins and ends. .........Why now do you appear?......... The time for you has at last finaly come. Your purpose in life and journey has now begun.

On The Road...
As you may have noticed, I've been on the road quite a bit lately. According to the GPS unit, since Dec 20th I have traveled a total distance of 2,575 miles! I went to Atlanta, GA for a photoshoot and came home on the 24th. I hung around Knoxville for Christmas and then, at 4am the day after Christmas I headed for New Orleans, LA. I had a wonderful time. New Orleans is so different and I loved it! I can't wait to back :) Here's a few pics:Me in the French QuarterAt Frank's on Decatur Street. They have awesome food!!At the Big Easy Daiquiri Bar on Decatur Street.I'll write more of my adventures while I was there later!

Come Pray With Me.....
---- THE DRINKERS PRAYER ---- Our lager, Which art in barrels, Hallowed be thy drink. Thy will be drunk, (I will be drunk), At home as it is in the pub. Give us this day our foamy head, And forgive us our spillages, As we forgive those who spill against us. And lead us not to incarceration, But deliver us from hangovers. For thine is The beer, The bitter, The lager. Forever and ever, Barmen.

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Place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not Gone on a blind date Skipped school X Watched someone die X Been to Canada X Been to Mexico Been to Florida Been on a plane X Been lost X Been on the opposite side of the country X Been to Washington, DC (Through it lol) Swam in the ocean X Cried yourself to sleep X Played cops and robbers X Recently colored with crayons X Sang Karaoke X Paid for a meal with coins only? X Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? X Made prank phone calls X Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose X Caught a snowflake on your tongue X Danced in the rain X Written a letter to Santa Claus X Been kissed under the mistletoe Watched the sunrise with someone you care about X Blown bubbles X Gone ice-skating Been skinny dipping outdoors Gone to the movies X Got a speeding ticket(s) 1. Any nicknames? Nell, Nellie, Ru, Ba-na-na, n more 2. Favo

Auto 11 Auction
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Fight Against Child Abuse
My name is Chris I am three, My eyes are swollen I cannot see, I must be stupid I must be bad, What else could have made My daddy so mad? I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly, Then maybe my mommy Would still want to hug me. I cant do a wrong I cant speak at all Or else im locked up All day long. When im awake im all alone The house is dark My folks aren't home When my mommy does come home I'll try and be nice, So maybe ill just get One whipping tonight. I just heard a car My daddy is back From Charlies bar I hear him curse My name is called I press myself Against the wall I try to hide From his evil eyes Im so afraid now I'm starting to cry He finds me weeping Calls me ugly words, He says its my fault markus krom: He suffers at work He slaps and hits me And yells at me more, I finally get free And run to the door Hes already locked it And I start to bawl, He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall I fall to the floor With

Poem
Master Sir I felt your love go through me, when the candle dripped slowly onto my milky skin I knew how deep your love was for me as the flames become one with my sweetness You have molded me into a slave I can't deny. One drop has me bound as I become wild. Two drops sent me into ecstasy as my orgasm climb over the edge. The thorns pricked my skin and dropped blood from my wetness and you suckled it away. My hips rose and my clit met the wild thorn with pleasure. My body rose and become one with drops of fire. I beg for more as you walk away and leave my sweetness dripping Master please don't leave your slave like this take her into the darkness of pain. My slave I leave you dripping for my hunger The pain you will feel is nothing like what I am going to give you. The fire will dance across your body and the candle will burn into your clit leaving you to crave your Master Sir You will beg me to b

There Are More Than A Dozen Alternative And Advanced Fuels In Production Or Use Today
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Thanks For Helping Me Level!
WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HELPED ME LEVEL TO DISCIPLE. JUST TO METION A FEW, THE TWILIGHT LEVELERS, MY DSC FAMILY AND FRIENDS, MY SEXY SLAVE VODKAGURL, MY MZ JANUARY LIFE'S A BEACH, DJ IVORY OF THE DSC, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!, MY SICILIANCHICK, NAUGHTY&PRECIOUS SUB, MY FuBEAR, MY "YSC" MY SISTER TNK, AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO STOPPED BY TO SAY HI AND SPANK ME A FEW TIMES! FOR AWHILE THERE I THOUGHT I'D NEVER LEVEL @ fubar I HAVE 2 AUTO 11'S COMMING SOON SO BE ON THE LOOKOUT TO HELP ME GET TO THE NEXT LEVEL, ALL LOVE WILL BE RETURNED AND IF YOU NEED HELP FEEL FREE TO ASK, I AM ALWAYS WILLING! @ fubarBROUGHT TO YOU BY YOUR FRIEND BOBBYBONES, BROTHER OF TNK,OWNER OF VODKAGURL,FUOWNED BY VODKAGURL

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My Life....
Love sick Current mood: lonely Exploring possibilities, thoughts take their own direction Dissected to the pit of me, I mourn for his affection Disease is taking over me, love sick is my infection Addicted to the bitter sweet that feeds on my regression How unclear must the picture be, blind faith must get me through If loving you means I can't see, I'll trade my sight for you Inform me when you've had your fill, I never give enough Remarkably despite my feats I'm desperate for your love Whenever will you notice me, my God how long it's been The time loves truth can be embraced we both will truly win Sorrow grows from seeds of hope neglected by the sun I need your light to penetrate this solitude of one

Crazy Relationships
This one may not make sense to others... it's very personal to me... Water torture Current mood: exhausted Water spilling drip drop on my forehead won't stop getting colder numbing pain slowly driving me insane tugging hard against the binds trapped inside my fucking mind drip drop now increasing drip drop never ceasing hollowed head drowning in air sweaty palms strapped to this chair bound by honor flashing lights pouring words from lips that bite bleeding tongues from silent mouths my cup is full it's spilling out drip drop all alone echoed voice could be my own melted ice filling my veins getting numb still feel the pain broken pieces of shattered glass voids left from the leaky past drip drop it's colder now have to get away some how bitter waters get inside every orifice I can't hide wish I was steel it couldn't touch me wouldn't care if people loved me couldn't feel the water drop wouldn't mind if my heart stopped like Teflon I

All New
SO... new year... new thoughts, new look, new people, new feelings.... what can I say new everything... 2008... eh.. could've been better but no complaints.. Met people who I've gotten to know and learned to love, miss people who still mean a lot to me... everything's just been so damn different ever since I moved to PA... I still kinda hate it, I'm far from everything and everyone I care about. With new feelings, new thoughts, and new people, come new determinations and decisions that are life changing... I've gotten myself stuck in such a bind and dilemma that I don't know what to do... I'm waiting to see, let things happen how they're supposed to and just see what exactly is gonna happen.... Honestly, I just don't know what to do, head is saying one thing, heart is saying another, now THAT'S a problem once the comparison starts between the 2... what to do, what to do... Can't say I'm not happy though, I'm somewhat happy with my life now, everything that I've been through and everyth

Dj Ruiner @ Gods Forsaken Radio
Ruiner is influenced by Dimebag, that is the reason why he picked up a guitar, his crazy ass family, his crazy ass family here @ godsforsaken radio, and his baby cynthia. His favorite bands are Pantera, Slayer ,5FDP, Tool, and Slipknot. The reason he likes being a DJ is his brain is full of thoughts and ideas, in an effort to reassure himself that he is not insane, he brings them forth to the masses, if he ruins a few minds along the way....so be it. So what are you waiting for come and rock out with DJ Ruiner @ Gods Forsaken Radio!!!!!

Navratan Korma
Swiped from Kitchens of India: Navrattan Korma Veg Recipes Navrattan Korma Navrattan Korma is a mildly flavoured creamy dish made with different kinds of vegetables. Ingredients : 3 cups of boiled vegetables (potatoes, carrots, green peas, french beans, cauliflower, capsicum, cabbage, bottle gourd, cluster beans) 150 gms grated paneer 3 tomatoes 2 grated onions 1½ tsp ginger paste 1½ tsp garlic paste Aashirvaad salt to taste 1 tsp turmeric (haldi) powder 1½ tsp red chilli powder 1 tsp coriander powder (dhaniya) 2 tsp garam masala powder 2 tbsp cream 6 tbsp vegetable oil 1 tbsp ghee 1 cup milk or water ¼ cup dry fruits (cashew nuts, raisins) coriander leaves for garnish Method of Preparation : Boil tomatoes till tender. Allow them to cool. Then peel off the tomato skin to make puree. (Ready-made tomato puree can also be used.) Take 1 tbsp ghee and slightly fry the dry fruits for about 1 minute on medium heat. Heat oil in a pan. Fry onions and ginger-gar

Jan 6-12
Hey Everyone....headed to sunny Florida for some much needed rest & relaxation. Not to mention I need to escape New Jersey for a little bit...hate the cold weather! :) If I'm not on much this week, that is why!!! Leave me love and messages and I will get back to you all upon my return! XOXOXOXOXOX

Could Use A Little Help!
HEAR ME OUT HERE.. So.. times are rough for everyone right now money wise and well i've been wanting an XBox. I did some research and found this really awesome program that ACTUALLY WORKS, saw the videos and everything. I'm 20% done I just need 11 more refferals. There's 2 ways to do the system one is a point system where you earn your xbox all by your lonesome self. another way is via refferals getting other people to join which is what i'm doing. All i had to do to validate that was complete one offer and i did it for a free credit report *make sure to cancel before they bill you!* once you get your link you can do what i'm doing and get your free one to. It's a great program. And you may want to make another email address to catch the spam. Here's the FaQ: 1) What is the catch? Why does this company give out free XBOX? When you complete the offer, the advertiser will pay TRAINN some money. When you refer your friends, the advertisers will also pay TRAINN more money. So, aft

Pink Is Back Happy New Year
FIRST OFF I WANT TO WISH EVERYONE A BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS....I HAVE BEEN OFF FUBAR FOR 2 MONTHS DUE TO SOME ISSUES RELATED TO ELECTION DAY HOWEVER I DO WANT TO APOLOGIZE TO ANYONE THAT I MAY HAVE OFFENDED THAT DAY AND KNOW THAT I MEANT NO HARM. SECONDLY MANY OF YOU DON'T KNOW I AM 8 1/2 MONTHS PREGNANT AND EXSPECTING MY FOURTH CHILD YEP ITS ANOTHER GIRL AND I JUST WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL THE NEWS AND SAY HOW MUCH I HAVE MISSED BEING ON FUBAR AND HOW MUCH I HAVE MISSED MY DEAREST AND SWEETEST FRIENDS I MADE HERE. I ASK THAT NO ONE TALKS TO ME ABOUT POLTICS OR ANYTHING OF THAT NATURE THATS WHAT GOT MY OTHER ACCOUNT BANNED AND DELETED BECAUSE I ALLOWED A FEW PEOPLE TO GET THE BEST OF ME AND BETTER MY JUDGEMENT. I AM STILL THE SAME OLD COWGIRL IN PINK BUT BACK WITH A NEW AN IMPROVED ATTITUDE AND OUTLOOK THIS IS A NEW YEAR AND SO LETS MAKE EACH OTHER SMILE AND LAUGH AND REMEMBER WHY WE ARE TRULY HERE ON FUBAR AND THAT IS TO MAKE FRIENDS LAUGH AND HAVE FUN SO HOPE

Not With Stupid Anymore
Wow it's been ages since i wrote in this thing. I'm not with my stupid ex anymore. His name was Rob. I met him on here. He was a very violent and mean individual and eventually I had to call the cops on him and he went to jail and did community service, had to pay a fine and was found guilty of domestic violence. he's been gone for a while now, and I've had trust issues with men ever since. But I'm getting over it, time heals everything you know... I'm working for a school district here in Pierce County. I really enjoy my job. I'm an assistant to the registrar and love all the girls I work with and enjoy going to work each day. I'm currently single, and not quite sure what I want. I love making new friends and talking to people and helping people. I have a very few close friends in my life... I hate drama and I don't associate much with people who bring it into my life. (Hence part of the reason I got rid of Robert, he was the biggest drama queen ever lol) It ta

Your Smile Shines Through
You are beautiful within You are beautiful without There's no reason for your mind to Be consumed by senseless doubt There are times we will remember There are nights we won't forget If we value every moment We will never feel regret You have wisdom of exemption You are gentle like a child You will always be protected You will never lose your smile There are friend who will remain Within our thoughts throughout our lives There are ties that can't be broken There are bonds that cannot die Everything you do Your smile shines through

Here I Stand
I stand here all alone looking out into the mist, wondering what it would be like, to be held in someone's arms again....that I so much miss...To have the warmth of his breath on my neck... as he holds me close...While I feel our hearts pounding at the thought of a kiss...we lean back and look in to each other's eyes...seeing the fiery passion that burns deep inside...His fingers slightly moves my hair to the side...while I let out a little sigh, from his soft touch to my face... we draw closer for our first kiss...as our lips touch softly...while the passion deep inside of us starts to flow with loves embrace...So I stand here wishing... that my true love will find me...Smile

Hydaway Rx
I had a dream the other night that I was working at the Walgreens up the street from me. Yet everything had Rite Aid written on it. That was very strange. What was even more strange was that my manager was this chick Jessa from Hydaway Radio. I had seen her on cam earlier that day. She was wearing PJ's on cam, but in my dream, she was dressed up in a sexy business suit. She was walking out the door barking orders at me, telling me I needed to ring up a certain number of customers to keep my job. I needed 200. When I started the day, the register said 5 customers were rung up. At the end, the total was 395. So I had saved my job. The dream ended there. Its no coincidence that day, I was at Walgreens and I had seen Jessa on cam that night. I have always figured out that small instances throughout my day wind up being what I dream about. Very peculiar.

Everyone!
Hi to EVERYONE, Well I must tell you, I have had the most AWESOME 48 hours on this site I have ever had! So I wanted to take the time to tell everyone who came out to my page during my auto 11's and my happy hours on Sunday and Monday, THANK YOU SO MUCH for rating some or all of my pics. My birthday was Jan 5th also and I want to thank everybody for all of the beautiful cards, profiles comments, and all the wonderful gifts and drinks, you all sent me. I just cant say enough how absoutley awesome "everyone" that I have encountered on here is and I mean that from he bottom of my heart. So let me show you all some love...thank again, your friend always Diamond Deb MySpace Graphics & MySpace Layouts

Lonesome Suicide
Sitting in the silence of the darkend room All alone, thinking of such a doom The thoughts of suicide No longer will I hide My pain etched on my face Sleeping soundly will replace What was once the sound of tears The sound of once forgotten fears Tearing deep into my wrist Punching that hole with my fist Breaking down, I just want to die No, I'm not kidding, this is no lie My sorrow brings me to such a place Scars that this blade will once again trace Blood streams down my arm This pain disperses, I see no harm Black as coal the blood does flow Crimson, I think you should know I bleed black, black as the pits of hell Bitter and cold is this excuse for a shell My ears ring the sounds of death at my door My wounds bleeding, I rise off the floor I can see my body lying there, cold and still Where there is no hope there can be no will My last breath drawn in, I will be free No one will mourn my death as you see For they do not know what is before their

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I'm Tired And This Might Be Off The Wall
have you ever seen the dentek brand in your local health and beauty section in wal mart? They got a formula that relieves jaw pain...does that work if you've suckd to much dick? (This next one is kinda gross; but what the hell I am a crude person) Ladies have you ever wondered if vampires were real if you could sell your used tampons as meal on the go bars? And those bulky pads as the new sub sandwich? (see told ya so) Here's one for the men...For those of you that have or have considered getting a Prince Charles(a penis piercing), have you ever wondered if your lady or gent would have to sing themselves free like selma blairs character in The Sweetest Thing? Man that's all I got for right now...I'm too tired for this.

How A Marriage Works
A newlywed couple had only been married for two weeks. The husband, although very much in love, couldn't wait to go out on the town and party with his old buddies. So, he said to his new wife, 'Honey, I'll be right back.' 'Where are you going, coochy cooh?' asked the wife. 'I'm going to the bar, pretty face. I' m going to have a beer.' The wife said, 'You want a beer, my love?' She opened the door to the refrigerator and showed him 25 different kinds of beer brands from 12 different countries: Germany , Holl and , Japan, India , etc. The husband didn't know what to do, and the only thing that he could think of saying was, 'Yes, lollipop ....but at the bar...you know...they have frozen glasses....' He didn't get to finish the sentence, because the wife interrupted him by saying, 'You want a frozen glass, puppy face?' She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer, so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it. The husband, looking a bit pa

Thug Passion
THUG PASSION IS A WONDERFUL THING, IT CAN BE SO HOT ,BUT YET LEAVE SUCH A SWEET, SWEET TASTE IN UR MOUTH. JUST LIKE THE DRINK ALIZE REPRESENTS THE SWEETNESS AND SMOOTHNESS OF THE WOMEN, THE HENNESSY HARD AND HOT REPRESENTS THE MAN, AND WHEN PUT TOGETHER IT MAKES A PERFECT MIX. MAKING IT GO DOWN SMOOTH AND EASY,SO TRUST WHEN I SAY OPPOSITES DO ATTRACT.

Situations
I have been kinda down lately cause I realize that no matter how hard I try, things will never be the way I want them. My relationship had problems in the past about him neglecting me and not wanting to have relations with me. I feel that it is happening again. I know that I cant blame him cause he is far away right now, but he can make an effort. The conversations we have are mostly about his job and his school. The emails are just like the phone calls. If someone read the emails or listened to the phone calls they would think I am his personal assistant. He rarely tells me he loves me. I recently found out out some other stuff from his best friend that makes me question if he truely loves me. I just dont know what to do or think anymore. He never compliments me or encourages me on anything I do. I had weight loss surgery three months ago and I do work out hard and watch what I eat. When I tell him I lost weight he says of course you did cause you had the surgery. I want to say that I

The Pursuit Of Happiness
Sometimes in your life you meet someone who makes you smile no matter when you talk to them. Someone you just can't talk to enough. They click with you on so many levels you wonder how you have lived this long without ever knowing them. It is really odd that at this point in life that would still happen. I thought by now I would know all of the true friends I would have in life. I guess as long as you live you make new friends. Although, something feels good here, different. I really can't explain without going into too much detail and I do not want to give myself away. How on Earth do you meet "The One" and they happen to be in the same town? Do you realize how many people there are out there? How many people you have yet to discover? I suppose the reality of it is you meet someone, there is a spark, and you fall in love, and live happily ever after right? Or do you…. What if your happily ever after evolves something, or someone you never knew was out there? If you run into t

Yesh
well things are going great working for marquette so far although no internet on the boat sucks just letting all know im still alive and miss you all. Hopefully will get laptop replaced soon and be back online asap hugz

Conditioned Response
Reactions To Life Events Our experiences color everything. The events of the past can have a profound effect on how we see our lives now and what we choose to believe about our world. Our past experiences can also influence our emotional reactions and responses to present events. Each of us reacts to stimulus based on what we have learned in life. There is no right or wrong to it; it is simply the result of past experience. Later, when our strong feelings have passed, we may be surprised at our reactions. Yet when we face a similar situation, again our reactions may be the same. When we understand those experiences, we can come that much closer to understanding our reactions and consciously change them. Between stimulus and reaction exists a fleeting moment of thought. Often, that thought is based on something that has happened to you in the past. When presented with a similar situation later on, your natural impulse is to unconsciously regard it in a similar light. For example,

The Music Of This World
Natural Sounds Meditation The tool most commonly used to focus our minds in meditation is the breath. When we sit down to meditate, drawing our attention inward counteracts our habitual tendency to be scattered. Meditation on the breath helps us gather our energy into our bodies, centering and grounding us in the present moment. Almost as readily available as our breath are the sounds of the natural world. From rain to wind to the ocean and birds, meditating on these aural manifestations brings us not only a sense of peace, but also an experience of connection to the physical world. It is easy to get stuck inside our own heads and our individual lives. We get caught up in our goals and plans and almost forget that we live in a world that is always there, humming away in the background. There is an internal shift that occurs when we tune into that background and really give it our attention. It’s as if we are discovering a more expansive world, because we are. We are also experien

A Self-created State
Worry We have all had the experience of worrying about something at some point in our lives. Some of us have a habitual tendency to worry, and all of us have known someone who is a chronic worrier. Worry is an extension of fear and can be a very draining experience. In order for worry to exist, we have to imagine that something bad might happen. What we are worrying about has not happened yet, however, so this bad thing is by definition a fantasy. Understood this way, worry is a self-created state of needless fear. Still, most of us worry. One reason we worry is because we feel like we’re not in control. For example, you might worry about your loved ones driving home in bad weather. There is nothing you can do to guarantee their safe passage, but you worry until you find out they have reached their destination unharmed. In this instance, worry is an attempt to feel useful and in control. However, worrying does nothing to ensure a positive outcome and it has an unpleasant effect o

The Ways We Love
Choosing to Have a Mate or Being Single The way we choose to love can be as unique as the way we choose to make a living, maintain our health, or entertain ourselves. Some choose to seek out a mate and enter into a partnership with a special individual, while others find immense satisfaction in staying single. There is no right or wrong way to be in your life when it comes to deciding whether or not to be in a relationship, even though society tends to put an emphasis on romantic partnerships. Whether you choose to go through life as part of a romantic relationship or live as a single unit, there are benefits to both. Feel free to be comfortable with whatever choice is right for you. Choosing to be single is a wonderful way to spend time discovering yourself. You have more time and space to figure out what and how you want your life to be without having to keep someone else’s choices in mind. Being single gives you the freedom to do what you want at a moment’s notice and the prid

Working Through Silence
Noise as a Distraction Our lives are typically filled with noise. There are the noises from the outside world that we cannot control, and there are the noises we allow into our lives. These noises, from seemingly innocuous sources like the television and radio, can actually help us avoid dealing with uncomfortable thoughts and emotions. However, using noise as a distraction hurts more than it helps because you are numbing yourself to what may be internally bubbling up to the surface for you to look at and heal. Distracting yourself with talk-radio, television, or other background noises can also prevent you from finding closure to issues that haunt you. Noise as a distraction can affect us in many ways. It can help you stay numb to emotions that you don’t want to feel, allow you to avoid dealing with problems, distract you from having to think, and make it easier for you to forget reality. Drowning out the thoughts and emotions you find uncomfortable or overwhelming can complicat

All By Myself
When Isolation Is Ok We all need time alone. Even those of us who are social butterflies need some time to ourselves. Solitude is necessary for meditation and quiet reflection. We also may choose to isolate ourselves when we are busy and need to meet a deadline. We may cherish time alone when we want to give ourselves over to art or music, lose ourselves in a good book, or delve into a personal project. Having time to ourselves allows us to focus completely on our yoga practice or get into the zone while running or strength training. Sometimes we need to be alone to simply do nothing but enjoy the sound of silence. Our alone time revitalizes and replenishes us, grounding us in our own company. Yet, too much isolation, especially when our intention is to hide, withdraw, or not deal with the realities of our lives is not physically, mentally, or spiritually healthy. It is during moments like these when being in isolation takes us away from our lives, rather than enhancing it. If an

Honest Wisdom
The Power of Not Knowing There is wisdom in not knowing, and it is a wise person who can say, "I don't know." For no one knows everything. There are many types of wisdom - from intellectual to emotional to physical intelligence. Yet, even deemed experts in their fields do not know all there is to know about mathematics, yoga, literature, psychology, or art. It is a true master who professes ignorance, for only an empty vessel can be filled. There are many things in life that we don't know, and there are many things we may have no interest in finding out. There is freedom in saying "I don’t know." When we admit that we don't know something, we can then open ourselves up to the opportunity to learn. And there is power in that. We can’t possibly know everything. And when we think we do, we limit ourselves from growing and learning more than what we already do know. A person who can admit to not knowing tends to be more intellectually and emotionally confident than someone who preten

Should've Said No
Should've Said No It's strange to think the songs we used to sing The smiles, the flowers, everything: is gone Yesterday I found out about you Even now just looking at you: feels wrong You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance It was a moment of weakness and you said yes... [Chorus:] You should've said no, you should've gone home You should've thought twice before you let it all go You should've know that word, bout what you did with her Would get back to me... And I should've been there, in the back of your mind I shouldn't be asking myself why You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet... You should've said no, baby and you might still have me You can see that I've been crying And baby you know all the right things: to say But do you honestly expect me to believe We could ever be the same... You say that the past is the past, you need one chance It was a moment of weakness and you said yes... [Repeat Chorus] I can't resist... b

Dieing Inside
He promised her lost soul the world He said forever and took her hand Stole away her soul as he walked her down the path Shattered her heart as he whispered in her ear Broke her spirit and left her dieing on the floor Took from her everything she knew Ripped away a lifetime of love Left her mind broken, heart shattered Laying naked in a cruel dark world Walked out with the first to take his hand Leaving her soul floating amongst the lost once again... She reaches but can not grasp this reality Tears fall as she realizes she is dieing inside To forever be lost in this dark place No longer whole with a shattered heart and a broken mind....

Idk
Somethin inside me became different Yet another change Possibly another disgrace I stare in the mirror And I barely recognize her Same bright blue eyes But they feel like just a disguise To be who everybody knows Loves and laughs with To be that cryin shoulder To be that ear But there in lies the fear Of who's goin to listen Who will understand That she's not goin to be this way much longer She'll be even stronger Even more determined So who'll try to knock her down next I don't recognize her any more Feels like I've been on this road too long Tryin to find my home again One that was destroyed years ago By arguments and tears It's all different It'll never be like it was There is no more trust Smiles and lies Are the deception in this households eyes

The Apple (iv)
He swore and spit the pizza out in the trash. Learning from a previous mistake, he now placed it to cool off on a plate, and started chugging from a 2 Liter bottle of Pepsi. Finally, making sure he gave it enough time, he picked up the pizza and took another bite. And another; and another. Sloppily chewing greasy melted cheese and letting the oil run down his chin, he looked at the box. There were 5 more slices left, and although he genuinely enjoyed it at the moment, there was no way that he could have finished all this food. After inhaling the slice, he reached for another one. This time he did not feel extreme anticipation before eating; on a contrary, he was quite full and could barely take another bite. Glancing at an almost full pizza box, he let out a sigh, still holding a limp slice of pizza dripping oil on the floor and, finally making a decision, he flung the leftover slice into the garbage.

Kipster Is Just 100k Away.
He's a really good friend and always returns the rates. Let's give him a good spanking and get him to Godfather! Thank you and have a great night. KIPSTER ~ RATE SPANKER'S member ~(fu-hub to the queen)~@ fubar

Auto 11's On For 2 Straight Days
2AUTO 11'S BACK TO BACK ARE ON AND CONTINUEING UNTIL SATURDAY 7PM FU TIME. STOP BY AND SPANK ME HARD AND SHOW ME THE LOVE BROUGHT TO YOU BY BOBBYBONES, BROTHER TO THE GORGEOUS TNK, OWNER OF VODKAGURL,TEDDY BEAR TO LIFE'S A BEACH STICKY THIS AND PLEASE REPOST BOBBYBONES-DSC4LIFE-LOVIN MY SIS, TNK-YSC, FU-OWNED BY VODKAGURL@ fubar

The Day Of A Beer Man
I get up in the morningand drive the dreaded streets to work. All that is on my mind is I wonder what today is going to be like. What crazy thing is going to happenon the route and will i get help today. To my suprise I dont, this just ticks me off. I have over 600 cases and no help. It is and I have to get started. I laeve the warehouse and the first thing I run into is a slow moving car that is holding me up.NOw I am realy getting mad, they realy need to move or get off the road. If they only new how much I have to do and realy want to get through early today to take care of some business. Well I am at my first stop, DAMN the manager wants to cut his order, This just makes me more madder. Not only does this ass hole want to cut his order but he starts asking me all kinds of questions. I have no idea why he is asking , he should be asking the salesman, He is the one that gets paid to think , I get paid to paid to deliver this shit. Next stop is the same and the day is going d

Things That Only Happen To Me...
Waiting at the train station this evening for my bus. Minding my own business. Dum de dum de dum, when this black gentleman approaches me. The encounter goes as follows: "Excuse me miss. I don't mean to bother you, but I was hit in the head with bricks last night." He points to this pink circle next to his eye that was about the size of a quarter. "And I'm not in my right mind right now." Hmm mmm as I casually take a small step back. "And I was wondering if you had 80 cents for my bus card." *insert bus card being waved* Now I genuinely didn't have any change on me. I really don't carry it. It's my "California Fund" money! LOL So very politely, I told him I was sorry but I didn't have any change. "But I need it for my bus card." I'm sorry about that, but I don't have any change. He takes a step away before asking, "What about a dollar?" Um, no. Now granted, I did, but I'm not about to pull out my wallet at a bus stop. That's just asking to get your

A Poem...
LOST I am lost in the darkness, That is my life. I want to sleep, Until it is all over. I am lost in the darkest tunnel, In the biggest mountain. I am confused and sad, Frustrated and losing hope. I miss waking up, To a bright day. Looking forward to nothing. My job is going downhill, My life is going downhill. Why do I feel like this? Is there something I can do, To provide for my family? What can I do? I am lost in the darkest tunnel, In the biggest mountain… And I see NO WAY OUT! There has to be a way, Out of this tunnel. Help me out of the darkness, Back to reality. Nevermind… I HATE MY REALITY!! By: Michael The Smokin’ Gator

Please Hear What I Am Not Saying...
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the face I wear for I wear a mask, a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off, and none of them is me. Pretending is an art that's second nature with me, but don't be fooled, for God's sake don't be fooled. I give you the impression that I'm secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without, that confidence is my name and coolness my game, that the water's calm and I'm in command and that I need no one, but don't believe me. My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing. Beneath lies no complacence. Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness. But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it. I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed. That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows. But such a glance

Dont Understand
So, I"ve been on Fubar for almost 2 years (will be on Jan 29th.) In those two years I have belonged to a couple of bombing families. The second family was actually really close knitted. I thought we had become really good friends. I didn't realize that once I stopped being useful the friendships would end. It's sad really. To spend so much time helping others and them helping you only to end up empty. Guess I learned the hard way fu-friendship = fake-friendship.

Loves Gold
There was this man who loved gold so much that, everything he owned was yellow or just like gold looking.He had a yellow house,everything in the house was yellow. And even his bed sheets were yellow. His pajamas were to yellow as well. Then one day he came down with Jaundice and got real sick. By the time the ambulance showed up he was dead..The problem was they were having a hard time finding him.. With all the yellow around him.. So the moral of the story is: Don't hide your self in your glory cause you might never be found .. Have a blessed day.

Finally I Have A Full-time Job
FINALLY I HAVE FOUND A FULL-TIME JOB!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!!! SO WISH ME LUCK IN MY NEW JOB!!!!!! I will be starting Full-time work at Blacktown Hospital as a Ward Clerk in the Post Natal Ward. As of Monday the 12th of January'2009. Monday to Friday 7.30am to 4.30pm. Dont have to work weekends or Public Holidays Woot Woot. How ever it also mean's that I will be online much less now which is sad,due to time difference's ,and for those of you whom know me well, also know that I use my son's computer for now anyway,and he Love's to Hog it when he's not at his GF place:s LOL. So by the time I get home from work he's on the Dam computer till 11-12pm, and I will be Watching Behinde The Eye Lid's by then LOL at 10.30pm. Will try to be here as often as I can.And will miss catching up with all the friend's I've made. No Dought I will try to stay in touch!!!!!!! Well think of it this way. Now I can save up and Buy my own Computer LOL Love Ya Gooey Gut's All

Umm Yea,, Ok
Ah, yes if anyone ever wonders if they thought they ever can break me... Friends, enemies, others.. well I got news..My real name may not be Melody .. heh, but the attitude is just the same. (song down below if it plays) GRANTED I have a little Naive in ME. This is to no one in particular... If you think so....Then there is guilt some where. and YOU did wrong.. SHAME ON YOU, And you prove my theory correct.. I can't trust just ANYONE, first. No wonder that I have put up my walls up.. I despise: liars,cheaters,rapists, users, oooooh the list can go on ok the song could not be uploaded......scroll down for the name of the song,, I am 36 years old, you may think , I am not all put together in my head that some may fool me... If you had I'll move on. Don't get me wrong I get hurt just like everyone else..,,,,,, maybe more so.. If you have to break a day/night out and want to hang with someone else.. just tell me ...pfft.. If you can't think I can handl