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hey all.... miss all my friends. beween then computer issues and just being busy have not been on here much.. if you wanna talk to me more often just yahoo me...  i have it on my mobile so i can be accessed better--- luv and miss u all MUAH mad_curves_n_tx   cant see the underscores above in that link mc
I Wanna Know....
I would like to know your current favorite song and your all time favorite.   Mine are current Careless whisper by Seether (i know a wham remake) :P   All time i think it would be Ballad of Curtis Loew by Lynyrd Skynyrd   Ok whats yours ?
Don't Be Jealous
last night i got to meet 4 of my fubar friends. and tonight i will be going back to hang with them again and two more are going to be showing up tonight.  its gonna be a big fubar party!!! 
Red Riding Hood
The big bad wolf said to red riding hood "bitch suck my dick" red riding hood said "fucker dont change the story...ur supposed to eat me!!"
Horoscope For April 25th, 2009
The heat is getting even hotter between you and someone else today -- but you're going to have to cool it! Unfortunately, while this person is physically available, they are not emotionally available, right now. You need to pull your heart out of this situation and look at it with a practical eye. If they can't meet you in the middle, you need to go on without them, despite the fact that moving on will be difficult. You deserve someone who can totally connect with you.
Much Needed Break
just a short note to all my family and friends,im taking a very much needed break from here.i will be back next weekend sometime.ill miss you guys...joe and nancy you guys know how to get ahold of me if ya need to.
Under My Mask
Imperfection is only a mask hiding what really is the ultimate beauty. You just have to go throught hell to take off that mask. Can you do it? Or are you scared of what you'd find?Did you know?I love rainstorms.Did you know?Even though i wear black a lot, i love bright colors.Did you know?Even i watched Pokemon because my son took over the TV.Did you know?I'm quiet, but that doesn't mean i'm never loud.Did you know?I like to play chess.Did you know?I'm not good at it.Did you know?I try so hard to be perfect, even if i look like i could care less.Did you know?Sometimes i feel like my friends are only my friends because they feel sorry for me?Did you know?I'm afraid of bugs. Mostly spiders.Did you know?I don't really trust anyone.Did you know?Before i've thought that my family would be happier if i wasn't born.Did you know?I draw.Did you know?I love fantasy stories like Magyk, Flyte, and Phsik.Did you know?I'm good at Scene It? Disney version.Did you know?I feel like i'm only in the way
      Steve is graciously possessing me for 2 weeks :-)♏=Steve=♏ ENFORCER@DDR(SHADOW LEVELER)@ fubar Now this could be said one of two ways!1.)He was the only man BRAVE enough to take me on..OR2.)He was the only man STUPID enough to put up with me.♦MsCharlotte2U®~No Rate~No Add~♦Taken by Steve♦@ fubarHmmmmmm...I'll say he is a BRAVE soul!!!No matter how you look at it, he is a genuine sweetheart and a great friend to have.So please be kind and show this wonderful guy all the love he so deserves. The best thing I ever did was bid on this stranger the very first time. Pimped by:♦MsCharlotte2U®~No Rate~No Add~♦Taken by Steve♦@ fubar
Say You Love Me Back
You hide behind your mask and i can't make you come out most people only see what they wish yet most people aren't me you tell me to leave yet i stay and try to befriend you i miss you in your mask you hide in that mask of lies you hold me close and share your dreams yet i know you're only telling me what i wish to hear don't do this to yourself don't hurt yourself like this i could make it all better if you'd only believe i am the mask you were people only see me and people only see what i want them to see let me back in let me help you heal your hurts i only wish to encourage this person i see within so hold me even closer lover and let me heal your wounds let me be to you what no one was to me in childhood let me say the words i always longed for they to say i love you lover, until death do us part i love you lover so hold on tight i love you lover I'll never let them win the fight i love you lover just say you love me back
Sunbather (joke)
Sunbather A woman was staying at a hotel and she decided to go sunbathing on the hotel roof. When she laid down her bikini top fell off. But, she didn't care because no one would see her anyway.After a while she heard footsteps; it was the hotel manager. She hurried and covered herself up.The hotel manager said, "We don't mind if you sunbathe up here, but we really would appreciate it if you would keep your bikini top on!" She answered, "No one will see me anyway." The hotel manager replied, "I hate to break this to you. But, you've been lying on the dining room skylights."
Useless Gift Or Interesting Chance
My cat was sitting on the back step with a racoon a moment ago. Then my fat russel terrier, who has only one job in his mind - to guard me from everything - ruined it by rushing at the glass door and generally abolishing the communal peace vibe. There is no point to that commentary - beyond my appreciation of simple loyalty. Even when it ruins an interesting visual gift. I wrote a story about my Escapees - the donkey, the hound, and the chicken. In it I mentioned a bee. The innocent, wondering, curious baby animal of my story - from whom wisdom sometimes tumbles all unknowing - made a connection between the bee, family, flowers, and pollination. Except in his young mind he called the benefit of pollination a KISS. ''We are a family. We are a beautiful flower! The honey bee may come and kiss me!'' He laughed. (for those interested) And then a few weeks ago, perhaps a day or two before my beloved grandson, Harper, died from the leukemia he h
Ce soir a thousand eyes light the skymine shall fade within your eyessunset caresses twilight in brevitygaze thee now upon my sanityhazed in wisps of misty lightyour breath alone shall reign amidst  clouds vaporous delight Rose red in visual ecstasytonight my love you bloom for mescreams echo of mere forplaytouching the kiss of dark displayrippled in crested tides of doomhearts collide within a swoonmuch more this night will allowfor only you my sanguine dollbarriers lay but in mortal time            a puppet master preens sublimeyoung robust flesh is mine to ownstrings I pull from flesh and bonea tempest to fate shan’t be freeI can not let your carnage betonight your repose shall sate my lipsmy words are but a passing gift as love lingers euphoric evermore    Ce soir nous dansons mon amour
Hell I’d burn for eternity in the depths of your embraceWith your heart shaped flames kissing the sides of my face.Stretched out on a gasoline bed of hot coals and nailsIs as painful as the bliss of burning flesh that I smell.Devilish laser eyes burn holes through my heartAs the heat of lust boils our sweat dripping in the dark.And a tornado of emotional flames scorch my earsAs the taste of your hot magma evaporates my tears.‘Would try to escape my fate to bakeBut walking through fire makes nerves shake.No, not shaking in pain of your sexy flameLike a fiend I want to blaze ‘till I go insane.‘Till my eyes pop out and my body goes numb;‘Till the friction of our rubbing bones cause smoke to come.This is crazy I know.  I must be under some Salem witch spell‘Cause instead of going to Heaven I’d rather stay in Hell.
I Own You~ Version One
"I own you-you are my slave and mine alone" again and again, as if it is a chant, you tell me as you fuck me with long smooth thrusts, kissing me fiercely, waiting until you know I'm about to orgasm. Before I actually do, you slip out of me, pulling me up and onto my knees, grabbing and pinning my wrists together tightly. I gasp, the pain so sudden, so fierce. You tell me that you want to prove to me that I can place myself totally in your care. You ask me to surrender to you, totally, to obey you without any question; you tell me you will cherish me for it. Your blue, blue eyes stare unblinking into my soft brown ones as you wait for me to agree. I have no choice but to accept. I know, as well as you do that I am yours. I cannot refuse you. "Yes, My Beloved, Master, I surrender myself to you and I will obey you." I gaze up at you, and nod. You look at me kneeling in front of you with my wrists clamped in one of your hands and the moist swell of my pussy in your other. The expression
Here And Now
I just saw this on someone's profile and felt compelled to share it:   You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - BOB MARLEY
Cheap Hearing Aid
A man realized he needed to purchase a hearing aid, but he felt unwilling to spend much money. "How much do they run?" he asked the clerk. "That depends," said the salesman. "They run from $2.00 to $2,000." "Let's see the $2.00 model," he said. The clerk put the device around the man's neck. "You just stick this button in your ear and run this little string down to your pocket," he instructed. "How does it work?" the customer asked. "For $2.00 it doesn't work," the salesman replied. "But when people see it on you, they'll talk louder!"
If I Was Yours
If I was yours what would you do? Would you love me forever? Would you be true? Would you hold me all night? Would you dance under the moon? Would you scare away the nightmares? Would you laugh at my jokes? would you Keep me forever? Or would you leave when your through? Would you help me to live? Would you help me to love? What would you do? If I was yours?
Laugh With Me
Laugh with me For a little while Grin at me I love your smile. Hold my hand In your firm, warm grasp Meet my eyes Fall to the grass. Laughing like before Rolling around like old times Just hanging out, having fun Please can I call you mine? Hold me tight like when we last met Don't ever let me fall or go I'm in your grasp, I'm in your life I love you so damn much, don't you know? Help me to find the comfort Hidden within your arms Let me feel vulnerable But don't let me go. Rejoice for the terror has gone The resentment and anger has passed But still don't let me go Hold me tight within your arms So I can finally feel safe. Kiss me, hold me Never let me go Please just hold me tight I cant let you go. Laugh with me Fall with me Walk with me Rejoice with me. Smile with me Hang out with me Hold my hand And love me true as I have you.
For Grandpa
This isnt 100% finished. I still want to add more pics.   Grandpa, we miss you and love you. You are forever in our hearts     Make an on-line slideshow at       Make video montages at      
Mscharlotte2u Show Her Lots Of Love!
Check Out My New Owner!   She is a sweetheart and I'm glad to call her my friend and proud to have her as my owner for a whole month! Go show her lots of love RATE/FAN/ADD you will not regret it at all! :) ♦MsCharlotte2U®~No Rate~No Add~♦Taken by Steve♦ thanks for your time repost for me please xoxox ♥BRATTE♥ Owned By MsCharlotte2U & Say_Hey ♥P.H.A.T. Chicks♥Promoter @ Purple
Is This Love?
You turn away When you're in my sight; Tell me, Is this love? You have me crying Through the night; Tell me, Is this love? You draw my attention, Then ignore me again; Tell me, Is this love? You like me once, But despise my taste; Tell me, Is this love? You don't know Where your heart is placed; Tell me, Is this love? You think That my true love will pass; Tell me, Is this love? You don't bother to see Who's in my grasp; Tell me, Is this love? Why can't you be What I can see Beyond your handsome smile? Just look at me, And you will see How love can take a while. Oh, for the precious longing Of a present from above, God has given you to me, And this is all my love.
Support those who protect our country & in our community they fight for us everyday to keep us safe. we call them out for duty over seas they go some make it home some don't. we call them in the middle of the night when we have a prowler in our yard. they come to us when there is a fire so we don't lose our home. these men and women is our friends co-workers but most of there our FAMLIY. I am very proud to be part of there FAMILY
Looking Into The Night Sky
Looking out into the night sky I know it is time to say goodbye. I will walk away with a sigh. There's nothing left here but the pain, I am going insane. What happen to the laughter, there's only tears. My friends have all gone, where did i go wrong. There is a different kind of pain here. I look out into the night sky, i realize there is nothing left but the words goodbye. we traveled a road of hardships, it has been rough, even tough at times. There is no more ryhme. We were friends but it was never meant to last forever. The seams cannot be mended. I have to say goodbye. I will walk away with a sigh. Tried to make you smile, through the miles. tried to make the bad, not so sad. But now where are you, somewhere in this world. I am no longer a part of your life, all i feel is this knife. It rips at my heart cause now we are far apart. As I look out into the night sky, it is time for me to say goodbye.
Two-faced Baby
AFP - Noida - in India, New Noida'da three weeks ago in northeast Delhi'nin Indian baby born with two faces of the families of children with normal breathing can be fed announced. Baby girl names that are not yet exposed to the curious view by some is seen as a goddess. Father Vinod Kumar "First I saw a little bit scared," he is talking and the two-edged four-eyed baby ailesince Kumar were easily accepted. Family, children in need of surgical treatment on whether the doctor does not consider. In very rare cases the doctor found that the baby's skull in two with one another contraction is not possible to distinguish, but the baby is not in danger, to take precautions against complications that defense is necessary to control. Their health is normal when born, the doctor said the baby is being fed with a mouth to suck on another finger. Parents to feed the baby which is available for oral use it is. In India in November last with four arms and four legs was born Lakshmi Tata wake echo su
A More Worthy Man Than Me
His name wa Anthony James, and he was my son for 44 hours and 55 minutes. so heres his short and eventful biography.It started on Thursday. Sharalon, Anthonys mother, and I went to dinner and had an awesome time. Then later she started having a sour stomach, or at least thats what we thought. We get home and she became more upset and wondered if something was wrong with the baby. It got so bad that she started screaming at me and we got into an argument that lasted all night and into the next morning.Friday morning, I had to leave for work mad. I worked at a developmentally disabled group home for 12 hours that day. Sharalon kept calling me and complaining about how it hurt so bad and I finally convinced her that she should call her doctor. This was at about 6 pm. I got home about 8 30 pm and I started noticing her wincing every couple of minutes. I took the phone and I called her doctor and told her what I had seen. The doctor said that we should head to the hospital to find out if ev
Many Ways Of Love
i've seen love in so many ways some have been good... some have been bad... some have been nice... and some have been sweet...   show me what love is all about learning and growing as love spins all around you spinning the right way you will run into it not knowing when or where   but no love is like the love i feel right now for the one i love is the true love   shining bright into the storm pushing the storm out of sight i shall scribe her name in blood... i  shall scribe her name in stone... cause her name is scribed into my heart now
Waiting For My Dark Lord
In my black velvet dreams; your lips call to meskin pale as the moon; fangs dripping with anticpationyour bite is intoxicating; plunging me into a twilight abysswarmth rushes around me; senses tingling; passion flaringI awake; the daylight burns my eyesI'm left craving you and the darkness that follows
Bye Some Of You
well I decided to get rid of some friends why Keep people if they don't wnat to talk. Give me a reason why you stay.
Life Is Great
I woke up this morning think that happiestness comes from the heart/within.  Only we can make our own life the way we want it to be and if we cannot do for ourselves then who the hell will.  Life is too short to count on others.  If you want someting done right do it yourself.  Is'nt life great.
There Is No Greater Feeling
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Auction I'm In
i'm in an auction plz come rate and comment me
This is just me having a really bad day, and needing to put my thoughts down. You don't have to read it. . .it's likely nothing relevant to you. . .   Well, we all went up to St. Louis today to see my Grandma at Barnes. She's not doing so great. She's in renal failure, is fighting a bad infection, can't talk, on a ventilator, dialysis. . . and they're taking her off life support on Tuesday. So it's only a matter of time. . . I don't know how to deal with this. . .I don't know if I can handle another death in my life. This f'ing sucks. And my little girl will never get to know her great Grandma. . .never remember how sweet and giving and loving she was. And then I get get home from seeing my grandmother lying in a hospital bed with 10 tubes coming out of her, looking like a bag of bones, not even able to move or talk, and you know what Josh does? Yells about me not having his work clothes washed and calls me dumb and worthless. What a great ending to an already wonderful day, huh?
7up Is Busted! Drink Sprite!!  
I Just Want Answers
WTF??? I will never understand humans. We all say we love each other and miss each other and its always bull shit! Y even bother? If words in this world mean nothing then y even speak? I know my questions will never be able to be answered but I have to voice them some how to anyone who will listen! I just dont get it! Y does everyone always leave? They either run away from u, die, move or just stop all communication without any reason! WTF is so damn wrong with me that no one stays? Can anyone please tell me?
Can't Sleep
I can't sleep. There are so many things running through my head. Thinking about the person I am, the person I have become through the years. Things have changed so much, made me hard. Makes me wish for the days before the heartache, before the struggles, before the betrayals. I used to be so carefree, fun loving. How do you get those days back? How do you meet new people without wondering what their hidden agenda is? How do you trust when that trust you used to give freely and openly has been betrayed over and over? Friends come and gone, lovers come and gone. How do you know when a true friend comes along? One who will be there through thick and thin, not just for the fun times.  I am tired of the bullshit. There is no room for it in my life.
Nothing Else Matters-metallica
Bad Day
This is where I get to write anything I want? Love that! Ok- so today is NOT a good day. Yesterday wasn't so great either. I am intelligent enough to know that this is situational depression/anxiety. Maybe intelligence doesn't have anything to do with it. Probably more like experienced enough to know. Doctor wants me on drugs... not the good kind mind you. No narcotics to actualy give me a boost, some energy, something to make me WANT to get out of bed! Noooo.... she wants me to take the crap that makes me calm. Yes, it does stop my heart from racing but sometimes it makes me just not give a flying rats ass about anything. What is so difficult about being honest? BTW- I am a quote maniac and this is MINE (don't steal it uness you give me props)      "Each persons reality is merely their perception but perception is             much clearer when the TRUTH is known." I understand holding something back if you might crush someone with the truth. But people, there are ways to get your
Homer Simpson On Tv:
Television! Teacher, mother, secret lover.
My Very First Blog
Wow! My very first blog in fubar. I think the last time i blogged in my blog in blogspot was like on February. I kinda give up because i feel that i can't really write everything that involved the family or friends and they do read my blog. I need to write something when i feel low sometimes. I dont wanna worry any of my family or think im having a problem cos i usually appear cheerful. Recently, i quited my job as an IT helpdesk, i know i made a mistake but i cant do the job that doesnt make me happy at all. My aunt would tell me i shouldn't be picky at this point of time. A beggar can not choose. It's too late to regret and i know that things happened for a reason. Right now, i feel a bit panic about job. I want to do teaching. Teaching kids will be fun although the pay will be lesser than my IT job. It's more rewarding to build children future than helping nagging users on the phone who dont appreciate my help =/ Anyway, apart from that, im still happy to see my uncles again. We
My Inspiration
It comes and goes with all the faces I see although I've found one with a higher decree She can make me smile when all I want is to cry the simplest glance from her gets me by Touching her as we speak just to stay in the moment her dimples appear heavenly sent Why has it taken me so long to realize to finally surmise heavens in front of my eyes All the balance of caring and naturing one another seems like breathing for this single mother   My heart beats vibrantly within her hand unfolding loves petals with every step across waters & land leaving unexpected notes of my admiration everywhere the words come to life with our souls left to bare Like a children when they play we get lost in  a few  lusting displays bay But our bond is more than the physical attraction our own weakness is found strengthen with the others addition the air has no chance to whisper bye cause our breathe carries invisible kisses in the
Not Sure Why..?? Scroll Down ..... Hehehe
Reason, Season and Lifetime  .. People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. .. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. ... Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. ... Sometime
Hadyn- The Creation
Monday, April 27, 2009 Joy and beauty of ‘The Creation’ link up with Salisbury excellence MUSIC REVIEW Stephen Small, baritone soloist for the Salisbury Singers, sings as Raphael in Haydn’s “The Creation” Saturday night at St. Stephen’s Church. (RICH DUGAS) By Joyce Tamer Telegram & Gazette Reviewer Add a comment WORCESTER —  Joseph Haydn penned the inscription “Laus Deo” at the end of each of his many compositions as an indication of his deep religious faith. He also enjoyed nature and possessed a joie de vivre. In his music, particular
The Awakening
"The Awakening" A time comes in your life when you finally get it... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and
I Think They Change
So, when people change you can usually tell. But the question is do you change them, or they change on their own. If you have a bad day adn people are short the next day does that mean they are just upset, or they found out that they are not liking you? If you tell someone something and they shy away from you, is it that they no longer like you as a person, or they are just thinking? So many people change for reasons that aren't understandable. I may have mood swings but I am never different for long. I always go back to the sweet ash that everyone loves. But then there are those changes that really confuse you, like when an ex talks again after not talking to you for months! Suprise.. I got one of those today
2 Days And Counting...really This Time
Ok so here is the scoop...First of all let me say im sorry i havent been answering phone calls and just generally ignoring people...I dont love you any just tired and done..I love being pregnant but I am so ready to have my daughter in my arms....which she ISNT this is whats happening...Went to the doc on Friday...she was still sitting pretty and nothing was going on...I was frustrated(hence no phones) Went back today and she is in the right position but sitting high up and not wanting to come on down. Doctor said nothing is going on down there still so i have been schedualed to be induced on Wednesday night.They will do something with something(but no pitocin thank heavens) and I should kick right into labor within twelve hopefully(barring anything bad happening I should be holding my daughter sometime on thursday....I could kick right in and have her wednesday night...or we may have to get other stuff done and it would be Friday morning...however...withi
Not Warning
The truth of perception lies in the beholder; lies behold the perception of truth. I have been taught that the world is a playground and that life teaches us to appreciate be grateful and understand that someone out there has it much worse than I, yet at times I can't help but be a selfish prick. All knowledge has done is taught me that I don't know shit! Times like now are so unpredictable that even a mood ring will give up on me. Trying to do the next right thing and be a good person, help people that are less fortunite than me; even something as simple as trying to talk to people just to get aquainted is bullshit when all they can do is think about themselves. I try not to be like this. I don't want to be hypocritical but goddamn there has to be more to life than this. I may be rambling, anddoes it really matter if I am? Probably not. I think I'm just gonna stop here and wish that I didn't even start. And yet another wish unfulfilled. Oh well fuck it, this isn't an RPG,
Got Cast Off Leg!!!!
Finally!! Still neet to use a crutch for long walks but doing good!!!! Can move the elbow and shoulder without pain. Still can't pick up anything with it yet. The tailbone on the other hand is really a pain in the, well you know.  I mean there's not more I can do but sit on it!!! In the last month my Princess turned 5, my jock turned 11.  My eldest who I used to think was my closest child, we go to all the hockey games, we used to talk about everything! But recently, I discovered he's having sex and smoking pot. Used the excuse I did it when I was his age!!!! I lived in AK at the time, it's legal there!!!!! He is also failing 2 classes he is good at! No wonder right!!! Girls and pot aren't good for school!!! It was all so upsetting because he has been tested and is gifted, Been reading since he was 2 1/2. One of my dearest friends told me this morning that, a great athlete wont be great if they have no drive! He should know he is a great athlete. He also told me that just because you h
Missing You
Johannes i cant explain how much i miss you, you where my angel when things went wrong or i screwed up. My rookie year you looked out for me and constantly looked over my shoulder at everything i did. You were far more then just my instructer you became one of the kindest people i knew. No matter how many mistakes i made you always gave me a hand. You were someone who i trusted my life to on so many occasions. There were times we laughed and times we cried but no matter what we were there for one another. And i will always miss you and know that no one in this world can ever replace you for who you were and what you did.
Wake up in a land of dreams, enchanted with mountains hollows and streams,   Where morning sun becomes your friend,   And the gentle breezes of the four winds whisper for the day to begin.   An eagle and a hawk soon soar above, While well below are the calls of robins and doves.   A whitetail deer heads home on an early morning trail,   While young squirrels spend the day hiding behind trees as they chase each others tails.   On a lazy afternoon in the mountains a black bear takes a nap,   After a delicious meal of ants and termites and a dessert of honey sap.   For a moment evening sun sits on a mountain top before he descends down,   And pretty soon native night creatures will be the only sounds.   Then the mountains become covered with a smoky mist,   As nature gives the land a good-night kiss.   Every star is lit as they sparkle throughout the night,   And treetops dance in the water with shadows by the
Carolina Bike Rally April 25-26
News reel from this weekends Carolina Bike Rally     Smooth riding for motorcycle rally that brought thousands to area April 26, 2009 - 5:43 PM  With no known community complaints or law enforcement troubles, this weekend's Carolina Bike Rally was a "huge success," organizers said. The rally, held for the first time in Onslow County, was easily the second largest in the state, trumped only by Cherokee's annual Survivors Motorcycle Rally, said Mark Infield, editor of Full Throttle, a magazine for motorcycle enthusiasts. More than 5,000 bikers registered at the rally held at Cabin Creek Campground on U.S. 17 and an estimated 8 to 10,000 more bikers were in the area for the event, said chief organizer Steve Winsett. Not surprisingly, the rally was a real boon to the nearby New River Harley-Davidson. But sales manager Tracy Murphy said the opportunity exists to turn the rally into a yearly economic boost to the area. "I'd like to see it catch on and other businesses get involved,
Aria With Udo- Still
"Ink To Paper is Thoughtful : Ink To Flesh, Hard Core : If Shakespear Were A Tattooist We'd All Appreciate Body Art More!!!!"
Fuck You And Your Salute
I don't normally troll too many other blogs, but one caught my eye. Some little bitch crying about how people here don't care about her and, dammit, she is just going to throw a little tantrum and leave. I figure I'll post a very caring and sensitive message: "For fucks sake, you are 22 and female - get out and go enjoy yourself. Go to a bar. Go to a club. Go meet some actual people and quit spending "so much time and money" on any retarded site. Maybe you don't have any legs and can't go dancing so you don't want to go out. At least move your wheelchair back and forth and maybe you can meet real friends. Maybe you have no arms and can't clap to your favorite band so you don't want to go out. Learn to fucking whistle. People will think you look like that Venus Di Milo statue and will dig it. Maybe you have no head, which really explains why you stay online all the time. In that case you are pretty much fucked. Log off and go outside. Go speak to someone without using your keyboard and
Colors Of Her Soul
Red Passionate, Intense Compassionate, Warmth Anger LOVE Green Quiet, Hidden Gentle, caressing Envious CARING Yellow Bright, Cheerful Happy, Bubbly Mask SHINING Grey Cold, Broken Grief, Sorrow Gone LONELY Blue Deep, mysterious Unknown, Proud Collected LOVABLE Purple Royal, majestic Beauty, poise Insecure BEAUTIFUL Rainbow of her soul Only look past the blue To see the amazing rainbow She hides from the world Making me special Because I can see The amazing person Underneath You should look too See the rainbow Her beautiful rainbow
Not Alone
  I have recently listened to my heart's lament, Inspecting it critically because it's so content Like the feel of warm sunshine upon my face, Creating memories only God can erase Each night we talk and share our day, My heart longs to be with you in every way. I'm afraid of what I do not know, But baby, I DO know I want you so. Our relationship is bizarre, that much is true, We're not alone now, you have me ... and I have you!     Poem by Tammy C.
Living Life
In life there are to thing you can count on. Death and Taxs. Why is that? What can you do to change the way our life is?! No one knows and that is good to me. I don't want to know whats going to happen before it does.I really don't think that anyone really does.So thats why life is so hard at time. You cant always know whats happening and is it gets f#$%ed up. Just remember one thing.           LIVE LIFE FOR LIFE!!!!!!!
What A Fool I Was
The minute he walked through the door My heart began to soar. In his arms I always felt safe The feelings of comfort can’t be replaced.   I always felt such a connection It was all fake, I know in reflection. The eyes should speak from the heart But even they speak lies, I know now that we’re apart.   I thought every time you touched me That we were surely meant to be. Now I see that I was just a fool And realize that life is rather cruel.   I have to hope that maybe one day Somebody will truly love me that way.
You Ever Wonder?
you ever wonder what life would be like if we had our own lil way. no care in the world a safe place for the kids to play? violence has corrupted us long enough yet we continue like its a trend. we pay for research for aids and cancer but it seems to be no end. life was meant to be joyful and luxurious. but poverty is striking like bombs in iraq. we look forward to a end to violence but its seems were taking steps back. these words i speak arent to preach but to teach  i pray you take them to heart. lets stop the violence you can start by doin your part.... comment and rate it takes just a minute. if you wanna win the war on violence dont be a part in it.
Baseball .....lmao
A must read for Grandparents. Those who aren't will love it, too.                 At one point during a game, the coach called one of his 9-year-old baseball players aside and asked, 'Do you understand what cooperation is? What a team is?'   The little boy nodded in the affirmative.   'Do you understand that what matters is whether we win or lose together as a team?'   The little boy nodded yes.   'So,' the coach continued, 'I'm sure you know, when an out is called, you shouldn't argue, curse, attack the umpire, or call him a jerk. Do you understand all that?'   The little boy nodded again.   He continued, 'And when I take you out of the game so another boy gets a chance to play, it's not good sportsmanship to call your coach 'a dumb ***' is it?'   Again, the little boy nodded.   'Good,' said the coach. 'Now go over there and explain all that to your gran
Arousal from giving or receiving a sermon or speech.
Morals are private. Decency is public.  -  Rita Mae Brown
Never Fear Shadows
Never fear shadows.... that always means there is a light shining somewhere. ~Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
Wykkyd Ambition
Monday, April 27, 2009  Wykkyd Ambition Current mood:  savage Wicked AmbitionI have a wicked ambitionI have an evil dreamMy own dark addictionMy sweet unholy need i used to feel a heart beat where this void is now inside Nothing can fill that darkness Not all the tears I hide You are my wicked ambitionYou are my evil dreamYou are my dark addictionYou are my sacred needI have these empty bottlesThey are my hearts graveThese empty whiskey tombsWhere my love is laidYou are my souls afflictionYou are why I bleedYour wounds are never endingYour pain consuming meI have this wicked ambitionI have an evil dreamMy own dark addictionMy sweet unholy needYou are my wicked ambitionYou are my evil dreamYou are my dark addictionYou are my sacred need... I Have this broken glass pipe It cracked my wounded pride it's where I ran from my life From all the pain I hide inside I have this wicked ambition Like fire in my veins My own dark addiction Each heartbeat cries your name I
Battle Of The Sexes
I Miss You
Your heart was pure,Your eyes were soft,sometimes it makes me wonder,did i really love you enough?now your gone,and i see,that i may have loved you,but you had even more love for me,i have no regrets,a father figure you may be,i just wish i could see you one more time,i wish you didnt leave.
Two Hearts
Through the stars,deep within the sky,two hearts meet,one gal and one guy,though the two are different,they still fell into one,they twist and turn around eachother,never to come undone,well this story must cease,but this isn't goodbye,these two hearts have soared,they've learned how to fly,when they land be sure to say,thank the heavens above,thank god they meet today
We fight,We die,through the night,we cry,watching the light,pass us by,why should we fight?why should we die?it doesn't make anything right,Can't you see those hearts that cry,those who fight with all their might,often die,but tell me why,why make your loved ones cry,in kids' hearts they scream with freight,but tell me why,why scare our kids with the fight of all fights, wake up and see the light, and tell me why.
The Std Poem
My pussys like a scratch and sniff that smells alot like laxative. If you give it a lick, it will make you shit. But if you poke it with that mammoth dick youll make this girl scream with bliss. But when its over youll end up with a STD that ends with "tiv." Yes I mean HIV, will you die? Probably, I guess you should'nt have slept with me. LOL if this offends you Im sorry its just for kicks.
That Good Stuff
Mama said beware, the girls that wont share the good stuff between their legs. It may be real tight and it may feel real nice. But they'r probably just trying to get paid. LOL another humerous poem
At Days End
I lay here trying to sleep, trying to push the events of the day out of my mind. It all comes flooding back. Everything is so confusing. Why can't I just be happy and have people accept that? We've been through so much in such a short period of time. I've made mistakes. I've said and done things I wish I hadn't done, and I'm embarassed that I sunk myself to that level. It seems as though no matter what I do, the ghosts of my past will continue to haunt me forever. All I want is to be in the arms of the man I love and have everything else disappear. I want the hurtful things that have been said to me to be erased from my memory. As much as I hate that we've been through so much in such a short time, I am also greatful for it because we have overcome it, and it makes us that much stronger. No one will ever be able to replace the spot you hold in my heart. No one will ever be able to erase the loving words of support you have shared. Even though this all seems hard now, I know things
My Personal Experience.
I found the internet in about 1996.  I soon began interacting online through an email list.  Things have changed a lot from when I first started.  In those days the internet was just begining to become mainstream.   You could be reasonably certain that the people you were interacting with were of a certain economic and educational level.  PCs and internet access just weren't available to everyone.  This made the level of discousre much much more polite then we see today.  People routinely put their adresses and phone numbers in ther signatures. As the world wide web spread out and internet connectivity became avaible to more and more people, the level discourse got better (because there were more experiences and viewpoints brought in) and worse (because the increased number of people with internet access brought people with baser attitudes into many online communities). I moderate on three forums, two of them for professionals and one for the shooting community.  Through the email l
Angry Rant
I came across a MuMM today, one I didn't even think about looking at before, after reading it, I became so angry, that my mind was completely blank. So I'm gonna bring up this subject, Child Abuse. I've heard of some sick freaks who believe that it's okay to beat your child to the point that your own rage takes over, and your no longer a mother, beating your child until they are black and blue, and crawling on the floor, guarding themselves from you. The only way that I could post a blog from this point of view is 2 ways, either I've done it, or I've been through it. I would never hurt a child like that ever, no matter what they've done, unless they are a threat to my life, and I'm defending my life, would be the absolute only reason I'd ever lay a physical hand on a child, I went through that as a child, but there are different kinds of abuse, a lot of people go through them at different stages of life, some are lucky enough to not go through it, but abuse in children is growing.....s
I Wish Upon A Star
I wish upon a star that no matter how far apart we are. You will find me and you will see how perfect we are.I wish that if for some reason my wish doesn't come come true. That another person out there is wishing for me. . . Hopefully that person is you
*i Am Me*
*I am me* There will never be anyone like me. I am special because I am unique. I am stardust and dreams. I am light. I am love and hope. I am hugs and sometimes tears. I am the words "I love you". I am swirls of blue, pink, yellow, purple, orange, and the colors no one can name I am the sky, the sea, the earth. I trust yet I fear. I hide yet I dont hold anything back. I am free I am a child becoming an adult. I am me, and me is just right.
Wondering If I Could Make It
Wondering if at 38 years old i still have what it takes to make it in the U.S. Army. I was asked to rejoin this weekend at the gun show and cant stop thinking about it now.
Random Questions
1.) What is your name? Corrin 2.) Do you find it annoying when surveys ask for your name? fuck yes 3.) What do you plan to buy in the future? who knows what the future holds 4.) Where did you get the underwear you are currently wearing? target 5.) How many pairs of Converse do you own? 0 6.) Who is your favorite “That ’70s Show” character? the dumb one 7.) There is a mummy standing behind you. What do you do? kick it 8.) What do you think of Miley Cyrus? shes a kid 9.) Do you tend to think that you are always right? i'll admit it, yes 10.) Top Five Favorite Songs: at the moment: "please dont leave me~pink, "bleeding" five finger death punch, "drones" rise against, "photograph" 12 stones, "dont trust me" 3oh!3 11.) What was your favorite toy as a child? barbie 12.) Have you thought more about your funeral, or your wedding? weddings are dreams that few actually have the nerve to make a reality. nobody will cry at my funeral 13.) Dinosaurs or Unicorns? unicor
Marriage Views
First, marriage should be loveall encompassing, total, and free.Love that grows stronger each daysoft murmurs of Thee, Thee, Thee.Second, marriage should be sacrificegiving of self, regardless of reward.Gift gladly given, with open heartshielded from life's harsh sword.Third, marriage should be commitmentutter loyalty, deep to the bone.Absolutely, no questions askedfaithfully promised, never alone.Lastly, marriage should be foreverfamily bonded, yet all still free.Lives joined with love, sacrifice, and commitmentan eternity promised with -Thee, Thee, Thee
Incase You Wanted To Know
I wanted to thank all who even took the time to ask me not to leave or why I was going to leave.. Thank you for taking the time to ask me not to or why. Truly it means alot to me who does care. I dont really want to say why or what happen..I will say I am fine and if I decided to leave I would have been gone already. I will say , someone ( not sayin who) hurt me and I just couldnt deal with it at that time ..I closed my page and albums and just needed space. Im am fine with this person now so its all good. Really Im fine  now, so please dont worry. plz rate and comment,,thanks Much Love Diana P.S FOR THE HATERZ WHO WISHED ME GONE..KISS MY ASS
"I've come to realized that you're my past there's nothing we can do to make this last. I've wanted to tell you, so many things but to avoid all the drama that it could bring. If it were meant to be, the feeling would stay but you don't know me anyway. it's about time I close your door, I can't do this anymore"
Can't Stop Crying
I can't stop crying today My world walked out the door With her she took my heart For I will love no more The hours passed like seconds When our two hearts were one The seconds passed like hours After she said that she was done She was going to love me forever At least that is what she said Her heart belonged to someone else That is what her letter read I no longer live in color My world is black and white I always wonder what she is doing As I lie awake at night I hope tomorrow is better This is what I pray But right now my heart is broken I can't stop crying today
"River flows"   by OnLyMe2ImPrEsS A river flows from these eyes the day i found out u were looking down on me from the sky The question i have is simply why ? Why does this river have to flow form these eyes i didn't even get to say goodbye .. Heart ripped out my chest and pounded into the ground till there was nothing left like the knife that punctured your chest then u took your last breath I'm sorry u where alone and we weren't there U have been in all our prayers I want to go with u , just to be with u If i did maybe u will still be here Laughing with us Now all u can do is see our sadness Wipe our tears cause we cry for your love Be our angel and watch us from above A river flows from these eyes wishing i said goodbye knowing you where distanced form greatness For never telling u i apologize A river flows from these eyes I finally got to say my good bye ...
Is it truely too much to ask for?  Simple, basic things i expect out of life and out of people.  Do what you say.  Keep your promises.  Be true to your word.  Mean what you say.  Then if it isnt much to ask, why is it so damn hard for people to follow it?
Mike Disabled Pms? How Did He Do That?
'disabled pms/skins/midgets so i can finish up some maintenance.. should be done in 15-20 minutes. werd.-mike' This scientific breakthrough is fascinating.  I want to know more. !! 
Bedtime Suggestion
I'd had a pretty hectic day with my four-year-old. When bed-time finally came, I laid down the law: "We're putting on your p.j.s, brushing your teeth, and reading ONE book. Then it's lights out!" Her arms went around my neck in a gentle embrace, and she said, "We learned in Sunday school about little boys and girls who don't have mommies and daddies." Even after I'd been such a grouch, I thought, she was still grateful to have me. I felt tears begin to well up in my eyes, and then she whispered, "Maybe you could go be THEIR mom?"
I Got A Rock! Lmao
Jodi Wykle knew her son would be thrilled when she gave him a new Nintendo DS for his birthday. Instead, he was rocked. According to WTSP-TV, the confused teen opened up his gift only to find bunch of stones and a rolled up Chinese newspaper in place of the popular handheld. Needless to say, mom was equally stunned. "When he opened it, he was pulling the seal off, my sister-in-law carries a pocket knife and she opened it and that's when he pulled it out and it was Chinese newspaper and a bunch of rocks," she explained. The troubling discovery prompted the Florida woman to contact the local Wal-Mart where she bought the curious box and complain, but reportedly workers there told her it wasn't their problem and that she should contact Nintendo instead. Of course, Nintendo told her roughly the same thing, leaving mother and son with a $138 box of rocks. "They don't want to do nothing. They want me to keep the box of rocks. I'm not buying a box of rocks for $138," she said. Amazingl
Hello everyone in Fubar Land....I just wanted to say a quick sorry to all my friends on here....Everyone has been so nice to me over the past few years and ive just kinda been the background....Not all of you know what has been going on with me...but to say the least I had a really tough few years...This saturday something happened that changed my life forever...and im actually thinking clearly because of it..I care about alot of you on here and im going to start showing it alot more......Hugs and kisses to all                                                             -Keri
We Built Excitement
I must show some more photos of me when I was younger sometime.  Yesterday before work after the kids had eaten breakfast I got out one of my photo albums and showed the kids photos of me and other people from about eleven months old to my university days.  Several times Jeffrey would point to photos of me as a kid and say, “me”.  My son and I do look a lot alike and I know he didn’t understand that these photos were taken before he was born, but it was funny!  There’s one photo of me that was taken when I was seven years old (so my mom wrote on the back), when I had a dog I’d named Artoo and my niece Kimberly – who is a few weeks older than my wife – when she was two.  Sarah pointed to her and said, “that’s me” because Kimberly in the photo does look a lot like she did then.  It was fun to look back for a little bit after our walk … And I admitted to myself this morning when I asked my boss Erik about how I’d be
Did You Know?
Things You May Or May Not KnowMoney isn't made out of paper; it's made out of cotton. The 57 on Heinz ketchup bottle represents the varieties of pickle the company once had. Your stomach produces a new layer of mucus every two weeks - otherwise it will digest itself. The Declaration of Independence was written on hemp paper. A raisin dropped in a glass of fresh champagne will bounce up and down continuously from the bottom of the glass to the top. Susan Lucci is the daughter of Phyllis Diller. Every person has a unique tongue print as well as fingerprints. 315 entries in Webster's 1996 Dictionary were misspelled. On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents daily. During the chariot scene in 'Ben Hur' a small red car can be seen in the distance. Warren Beatty and Shirley MacLaine are brother and sister. Orcas (killer whales) kill sharks by torpedoing up into the shark's stomach from underneath, causing the shark to explode. Most lipstick contains fish scales. Donald Duck
Superheros! You need to check this out! LOL
Tuts My Barreh! Lmaoooo
A Womans Wrath
 a man maybe a fierce warrior he may even be fearless in battle pain may be nothing to him but a woman scorned her wrath is something that will shake you to the core for a woman scorned uses not only her wits her anger fuels her passion her passion to see you pay for the crimes you cast against her next time you think of crossing a woman think of this can you see the dagger placed at your throat while you slumber beware a woman scorned feel the wrath pierce your flesh
A Daughters Cry
does my daddy see me when i crydoes my daddy see the tears in my eyezis he there when i need him is he there when i see himbefore i sleep at nightis he there to hold me tightjus a kiss will it make things rightmaybe if i can hold him n say how much i love himwill he see me cryn catch the tear from my eye
Bad Day
Hey everybody, If you all think that you have had a bad day, then after you read this blog then you might think differently. Lately i have been looking for a job, but havent been able to find one. I keep filling in applications and checking in about them but it seems like no one wants to hire me. I live alone with no income whatsoever. i am lucky when friends and family give me food. i also get a food basket once a month from a local church but it doesnt come until almost the end of the month. right now i am running really low on food and i have no money. lately i have been collecting cans to make a little bit of money. right now i have no minutes on my cell phone. i have no power at home. i have to gas to cook anything on the stove. i go to bed early cuz i get bored and am lonely. i also have no running water. i go to my sisters to take a shower. i get my drinking water from the local park. I also have 2 kids but luckily they live with their mother because i cant afford to take care
Ride That Chopper!!!
The following rant is posted courtesy of Biker® magazine, written by Matt Hansen of M&M Choppers, Inc.     ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Many people out there these days believe that choppers are built just for looks and not really to ride. Totally Wrong!! My wife & I have proven, with over tens of thousands of miles on our choppers (both are hardtail, both are kicker only), that this is total B.S.  I once rode a thousand miles in one day without any issues. This kind of hard riding isn't much fun, bit it certainly can be done. The world of so-called "choppers" has turned into a circus sideshow. I've read enough mags, been to enough bike shows and seen enough television build off programs to determine that very few of the hotshot "Master Builders" are building motorcycles anymore. They are building statues - works of art disguised as motorcycles. Some of these bikes show excellent workmanship and incredible ideas, but if the end result
 Holy spring, 4:20 was great I am meeting lots of very cool people on here lately and started Dj'in for a lounge of really cool people, who knows I might be around here longer than I anticipated. The coffee situation is getting better I have cut back a lill bit but am at the point now where if I don't have it I am no good to anyone, bad attitude all that good stuff. New issues ... trying to quit smoking ciggarettes, they are raising the price again but for health reasons I should quit, I wanna hang out a bit longer, the only thing I really dont like about the whole ciggarette thing is that the gov. is jacking the price on them cause they are bad for you ... I am looking forward to seeing what happens when they do the same thing to fast food, candy, cell phones, television, porn ... well I guess everyone likes porn regardless, lol can you imagine those crazy f00kers who do that crazy shit in that crazy cesspool that is Ny city (ya no love for anything east of the city sorry :( ) the sma
He Knows.....
I hope one day I can be sure That what you feel for me is pure. You’re breaking down the walls I’ve built so high And showing me that perhaps I should give it a try.   You know many details of my painful past But still think I’m worth a friendship that will last. You’ve seen me at my darkest and brightest But it doesn’t seem to turn you away in the slightest.   I won’t deny my extreme fright When I go to bed each and every night. Never have I let anybody so close How it has happened nobody knows.   There are scars that run so deep
A Long Distance Love
People meet people from all walks of life. some meet on the internet and become man and wife. some have meaniful relationships, some struggle for that perfect answer. some treat there mates like they had a disease such as cancer. i loves are exchanged i hate you's are thrown around too. loving making is a form of expression except when its it only you. it takes two to make a solid relationshop work, but some are only thinking of themselves. some want a mate thats are genuine and some want a mate that has wealth. some care about looks some think all beauty is in the eye of the beholder. some take their lovers for granted some hold them on a pedstal up so high. some will go to great lengths to tell the truth and some will go to great lengths just to lie. so no relationship is me i should know. i have been there and done that i got the movie rights. but its life and thats just the way it goes....
I Know... Fe Fi Foe.....
i know who i am....i know what i control...i know that life isnt simple and the world doesnt revolve around me... i know i have drama  i keep most of it quiet but  ive never quiet gathered as much hate for someone as i have these past few months....when will they learn.... im not a teacher..its not my job to tell people what to do with there lifes... but..when you put yourself in the position to get yelled at for not owning up to your mistakes and fuck up... when you want to talk shit about the people that let you stay with them and in that agreement that was made and then you break the agreement,more than take advantage of the veichels that arent yours,when you mistreat a puppydog that you spent money on then yell at because it wants attention from you.... when you live in a room that reeks of bad odor and dog shit and piss because your too lazy to clean up after your self and yout pet.... and you wont take  the better step and help around a house that you lounge in all day,
Need Experienced Djs Helppppp
I need help with DJs the ones I have gotten wont stay or cant wait till I can get everything set up... now that I am ready I only have 3 that do short shows. If you can help pm me in my box and we can talk or come by the lounge    
Rough Day!
Today had to be one of the worst days ive had in a long time! i never do one of these blog things! but it was tough! i gave up my company today that hurt i have beed doing it for a little over a year and i had to give it up today! then i got stiffed for dinner was supposed to go to dinner w/ some women from work and relax and here i sit a gain in my Semi all alone. Story of my life!  o'well i guess it was just meant to be a bad day today! Also i try to talk to my son never get the chance so that makes me feel like i FAILURE as a dad! i have missed so much of his life doin this job time that i will NEVER get back! time that he will rember and what will he have to say?!?! DADDY WASNT THERE! The only happiness i have in my life is knowing when i get home i have a loving wife waitin for me at the door! that loves me for me! and that is the best feelin EVER! thus why im still here  
I Wanna Be A...
...DJ.  Don't ask why, as I am not sure.  It could be my loud, obnoxious, off the wall style of communication.  It could be my wild love of any and all music.  It could be the free perks, low pay, and quasi-local-celeb status.  Whatever the reason, I have decided I want to be a RADIO DJ.  (For those of you momentarily confused, I have no desire to 'remix' 'remaster' or otherwise destory the work of decent artists by polluting them with the horrid modern back beats and poor lyrical stylings of newer club-friendly, music).  Now, the fun part is how I pursue this.  I know there is no real job reqiurement, but rather an 'in' and a quick group of fans/followers.  Well, I have a redy-made fan base just waiting for me.  I have a friend in the business, but I also know she has no real desier to help me try and steal her job.  Otherwise, I have no idea and I probably lack the follow through to actually accomplish anything.  I am, however, open to suggestions.    So, just for today
Eye's On Fire By Blue Foundation
Eyes On Fire Lyrics ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh I’ll seek you out, Flay you alive One more word and you won’t survive And I’m not scared of your stolen power I see right through you any hour I won’t soothe your pain I won’t ease your strain You’ll be waiting in vain I got nothing for you to gain I’m taking it slow Feeding my flame Shuffling the cards of your game And just in time In the right place Suddenly I will play my ace I won’t soothe your pain (ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh) I won’t ease your strain (ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh) You’ll be waiting in vain (ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh) I got nothing for you to gain Eyes on fire Your spine is ablaze Felling any foe with my gaze And just in time In the right place Steadily emerging with grace ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh,felling any foe with my gaze ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh, steadily emerging with grace ahh-ahh-
I'm Just Not Good At It
i have terrible luck with men. i pick the wrong ones to go for. i think i'm out to sabbatage myself. i think i on purpose go for men who are not capable of telling the truth, who can't care about anything but themselves and getting laid, i go for people that i know have no intention of being in it for the duration. i think i do it because i'm scared to death of getting close to someone again...i was wicked hurt by the one man that i could honestly say i was in love with. every since then, i just don't trust anyone. i would like to. i would love for someone to prove me wrong, but, that's gonna be hard because i automatically assume that whatever poetry and prose comes out of a man's mouth is complete and utter bullshit. i met someone not too far back that i thought "wow. this person is entirely different than what i'm usually attracted  to. don't be an ass...give him a try." bad fucking idea. he's just like everyone else. talks a damn good game, but, it's words and that's all. it's anot
~ My 2nd Reading ~
Read from top to bottom Andi Strickler: Cool. Im glad you liked it. So just the general things or anything specific you wanna know about? juju: Love, friendship ... Family Andi Strickler: you got it. we doing a 10 card i assume? juju: yea they seem to be more on point then a 4 card one ... at least fo rmee Andi Strickler: the 10 card ones are deff to the point and more informitive juju: i liked it lots !! Andi Strickler: ooooooook...You member how it works right? You close your eyes and throw in everything dealing with love friendship and family... Andi Strickler: tell me when to stop.. juju: yes i do juju: ok stop Andi Strickler: want the deck cut? juju: the same as last time juju: yea Andi Strickler: did you have me cut it in 3's I dont member Andi Strickler: someone had me cut it in 3's Andi Strickler: lol juju: yea do 3 Andi Strickler: ok juju: ok Andi Strickler: ooook...lest start... juju: all rite And
"keep Holding On" Me And My Cuz's Song
"Keep Holding On" by: Avril Lavigne You're not alone Together we stand I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand When it gets cold And it feels like the end There's no place to go You know I won't give in No I won't give in Keep holding on 'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through Just stay strong 'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you There's nothing you could say Nothing you could do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on 'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through So far away I wish you were here Before it's too late, this could all disappear Before the doors close And it comes to an end With you by my side I will fight and defend I'll fight and defend Yeah, yeah Keep holding on 'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through Just stay strong 'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you There's nothing you could say Nothing you could do There's no other way when it comes to th
Cant Stand Roude Comments!!!
I might  be a large woman that turn off some men. I hate people who have gave comments like, you are so fat that if I made love to you on my bed it would brake. Or you are so dam ugly that my dog wouldnt date you. Or maybe if I close my eyes while makeing love to you a good looking woman would  pop up. I dont understand why people have to be so roude. But you know what ?? No matter how much I want to complaine about it thay will not change. I might be a lare woman. But I have a very big heart. I have love for mankind. I love metting people. Love makeing friends and I love to chat with all of my friends. So you know what?? If you cant say anything nice then why even brother to leave a comment in the frist place????
Let's Go Off!
SOoooO? My life is governed almost entirely by chaos. It seems to be where I accomplish the most. I discovered that I'm only able to stay put if I don't have a piece of earth to stand on. My relationships are hard and fast, my jobs are faster, and my residence in any city lasts only for a few months at a time. So why do I have this crazy urge to settle down? Fact: I left Portland to escape the stagantion of my existence. Every day, up at 0300, to work by 0430, and if I hadn't finished a Rockstar AND a cup of "coffee" from my thermos, nobody would speak to me. Get off work at around 1530 and either go to Tae Kwon Do, or go to the strip joint. Weekends: Clubs, whether I was DJ-ing or not. BOOOORING! Fact turned Fiction: Leaving makes it better. I discovered this little cycle a long time ago, when I left the safety of my parents at 13. I've traveled to all 50 states, Canada, Mexico (almost to the southern tip,) and Australia. Most of this by thumb or railcar. I never liked to stay in P
This is the mumm I posted the other night. Since then I've found that he not only blocked me on yahoo but unfriended and blocked me on both here and myspace. So I'm irritated.I was having a conversation with this guy last night that I have been talking to for quite a while on here and yahoo messenger. Our schedules never seem to work out so we can get together.Anyways... He was giving me shit over the fact that I don't have a web cam. I told him that a few people recently keep telling me I need a cam. I thought it was kinda funny.He starts going off about how he dosn't want to know what OTHER PEOPLE want. (he did put it in all caps) He then stormed off the chat. Tonight I found out that he has since taken me off his friends and I'm pretty sure he's blocking me on yahoo.He's not my boyfriend, does he have any reason to be so but hurt over me making this comment?
You chose meThe blessing of your friendshipsurrounded me.For me the door of friendshiphas long been close,If it had not for youI’ll still search for my dream.Thank you from the bottom of my heartThank you for chosen meThank you sweetheartThank you for who you are.I memorized a million things,to tell you, but wordsCan tell what feelings,want to say.True friendship only begunto a precious you.And when it moves into your heart.It never strays
Foreign Email
HAHA  ANOTHER GREAT EMAIL I GOT FROM A FOREIGNER.  THESE THINGS CRACK ME UP!     I NEED LOVE........I understand you are the only whom I am seeking, I share with you all your sorrows and joys, I will be your best friend and life partner I like to travel very much. It is very interesting to get more knowledge about the new countries, new people and traditions. It́s great to have such a possibility. Ím a quiet, kind, loyal.. A great meaning for me is a humańs soul. Circle of my interests is various. I like the literature, music, and cinema. personality traits are calm, honest, kind, loyal, flexible, elegant, sociable, sensitive, gentle, cheerful, optimistic, romantic .My perception of an ideal , I would like to see near me clever, intelligent, and reliable woman. Which would require my emotional heat, capable to like and respect . I have to let you know as well, that am an honest person as I have said, and I have to be honest with that, I dońt have any girl friend at present no
There are angel's above that watch over all of us no matter who we are they are there to help & guide through the tough times of life's travel's we have a path that we follow that takes us on may roads in life make that right turn with god's blessing make the wrong turn and life get's hard but i know that my angel will guide me back to the right road. My angel is silent and i know there here beside me everyday of the year,when i am sad my angel's wings will hold me tight. when i die there will be my angel there to set me free.
Outrage Over Arlen Specter
I hope Arlen Specter's party change outrages you. It should for two reasons: First--Specter claimed it was philosophical--and pointed his finger of blame at Republicans all over America for his defection to the Democrats. He told us all to go jump in the lake today. I'm sorry, but I don't believe a word he said. Arlen Specter committed a purely political and self-serving act today. He simply believes he has a better chance of saving his political hide and his job as a Democrat. He loves the title of Senator more than he loves the party--and the principles--that elected him and nurtured him. Second--and more importantly--Arlen Specter handed Barack Obama and his band of radical leftists nearly absolute power in the United States Senate. In leaving the Republican Party--and joining the Democrats--he absolutely undercut Republicans' efforts to slow down Obama's radical agenda through the threat of filibuster. Facing defeat in Pennsylvania's 2010 Republican primary due to his left-win
My Dad
Just wanted to tell ya'll about what's been going on and why I haven't been on much lately... My dad has been fighting lung cancer for the last two years and they have finally gotten it under control, but alas, fate has decided to leave him with the lovely present of prostate cancer.  It's very advanced and is only treatable with hormone therapy.  The doctors referred to this treatment as "chemical castration"...Whoo hoo, eh? Anyway I am pretty angry with cancer, life, God, or whatever higher power you believe in.  I'm trying very hard to not wallow in the "Oh woe is me" cestpool, but it seems to be dragging us all under this past week.  I'm sure it will get better with time.  that's why I haven't been here and probably wont be on as much.  I do ask one thing...If you could say a prayer for my family, to whoever it is that you pray to,  I would sure apprecaite it!! LOVE&LIGHT~~Amy
The Single Life
i am single ya'll so hit my page up and show me you care....comments, rate rape me, show my page luv.
Lookin For My Emmett
Wtf Was I Tryin To Say?!?
'Ello there internet happenin types that might actually hit this up, blog.  Not a whole 100% certain which could be the best reason accusation to stick with when it's a matter of being F'ed U'ed with fubar.  Whether it's an attempt at an email, a shout, a blog response, a gift either even, where's the major malfunction here??  Squeaky gets the oil, m'kay.  If FU-FOCKRS that actually get paid money to upkeep this site are hopefully just too lazy with more words or something, WOW!  Same sh*t GT class in public school was hoping.  And most importantly, are they rewarding one another with their time, cause hell yeah!  Who Isn't Having A Righteous Jolly Great Time Online!!!  Makes me wish almost to just be a parent, then I could just blame my kids then or something, and just like GT class in the past, hell, I'll do it.  I'll fix this damn thing, I probably already wrote the majority of it.  I prefer the usual, no mention, no money, neglect is the reward, go away, leave me alone, unless whil
"r" Troubles
A young schoolboy was having a hard time pronouncing the letter ''R,'' and all the other kids were, of course, teasing him about it. To help him out, the teacher gave him a sentence to practice at home: ''Robert gave Richard a rap in the ribs for roasting the rabbit so rare.'' In class a few days later, the teacher asked the boy to recite the sentence out loud. The boy nervously eyed his classmates--many of them already laughing at him--then replied, ''Bob gave Dick a poke in the side because the bunny wasn't cooked enough.''
9 Words
NINE WORDS WOMEN USE(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm.. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! (5) Loud Sigh:
Fix The Economy
            I love this plan!This was an article from the  St. Petersburg on Sunday. The Business Section asked readers for ideas on "How Would You Fix the Economy?" I thought this was the BEST idea. I think this guy nailed it! Times Newspaper Dear Mr. President,Patriotic retirement: There's about 40 million people over 50 in the work force; pay them $1 million apiece severance with three stipulations: 1) They leave their jobs. Forty million job openings - Unemployment fixed. 2) They buy NEW American cars. Forty million cars ordered - Auto Industry fixed. 3) They either buy a house or pay off their mortgage- Housing Crisis fixed. All National financial problems fixed!!!  
Poem For Daddy
MY DADDY Gentle HandsWarm smileGraying hairWhiskered faceCrooked walkLoud talkStrong armsClouded eyesSick sapLove warpedDevil drunkSweet soberTroubled soulWord wonderFix-er-upperLies stillEver more
My Secret
MY SECRET Hot violence burnsLike a cancer in my breastSubdued, controlled, hiddenPain grasps my heartIn a strangle holdHorrors Haunt meIn dreams in wandersUnwanted, unheeded, unbiddenFoul memories its sourceA secret barely kept
Sitting Here Thinking About Everything
as i sit here listening to this song by creed the song six feet from the edge.i am thinking how i wish i could just die right now and just be finished with this life.hell it wouldn't be hard to kill myself right now after what all i have been through here lately.but then i think what is the fucking use.and then i remember what i vowed to myself so many years ago.fuck those thoughts i will never let this god damn world beat me.i have to much left to do in this life,and to many people i want to meet and see in real life.and i also remember how many of my close friends on here who would miss me.and for everyone who doesn't know i have taken time off as a dj here on fubar to take care of my father who was in a recent car wreck.i will be on here hanging out in the lounge i dj in DEVILS if you want to talk to me come in there and see me.or hit me up on my yim if you have it or in my shoutbox on if you come in i will see you all there.
Well, I was going to put up some rawther convoluted poems that I  came up with last night, but now that I'm reading over them.....yeah, fuck that.   Anyways. lmao. some dude has Creed in all caps for his status message.   HOLD ME NOW I'M SIX FEET FROM THE EDGE        (and I'll push you. ^^)
5 Balls To Juggle In Life
Hi! This time I thought I would share with you something wonderful I found on the internet. Its a wonderful piece on LIFE depicting us a Juggler. We juggle some of the most salient aspects of life as balls giving more importance to one and forgetting the others. The author of this piece is Unknown but truly, TRUTHS ARE UNIVERSAL. Here we go: Juggling Your Life >>> Imagine LIFE as a Game in which you are juggling some FIVE BALLS in the air. >>> You name them - Work, Family, Health, Friends and Spirit, and you’re keeping all of these in the air. >>> You will soon understand that WORK IS LIKE A RUBBER BALL. If you drop it, it will bounce back. >>> But the other FOUR balls: Family, Health, Friends and Spirit are made of Glass. // >>> // If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for BALANCE in your life. HOW? >> 1) Don’t undermine your worth
New People
Children From 30's, 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's
 Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly, leave the rest to God."      Mary Tiller Campbell> > > > > You have all heard these things before but it is always fun to revisit.> > > > > > > > > > > > Attached Message> > > > > > > > This brought back many memories...enjoy.> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > *THOSE BORN 1920-1979> > > > READ TO THE BOTTOM FOR QUOTE OF THE MONTH BY JAY LENO. IF YOU DON'T READ> > ANYTHING ELSE---VERY WELL STATED **> > **> > TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1920's,30’s 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! **> > **> > First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they> > were pregnant. **> > **> > They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get> > tested for diabetes. **> > **> > Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs> > covered with bright color ed lead-based paints. **> > **> > We** *had no child* **proof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets> > and whe
Gods Plan
For Barmandon
when i was one and twenty i heard a wise man saygive crowns and pounds and guineasbut not your heart awaygive pearls away and rubiesbut keep ur fancy freebut i was one and twenty no use to talk to mewhen i was one and twentyi heard him say againthe heart of the bosomwas never given in vaintis paid with sighs a plenty and sold for endless rueand i am two and twentyand oh tis tru tis tru...A.E. HOUSTONty barmandon u made me think of this oldie but goodie poem
Own Your Very Own Sinner Today!!!!
Own Your OWN Sinner.  Just check out my Auction Photo Album and place your bids ((Clicking the picture will not work, sorry)).  Who will be the lucky person to own THIS Sinner? :)  
Getting Bored
Getting bored .......     AM I THAT EASY TO FORGET?   Hard to Find what i really want....   Show up soon.............     *sigh*
"the Last Time"
i dont know ive been cold for far to long ive seen you through the bottom of a hole i know everything will be ok the suns gonna shine down on me some day youre my storm lightning dancing in the sky so keep on smiling, keep on laughing, till the rain goes away. i dont know ive been so cold those days are gonna come when the rain goes away and your laughing for the last keep on smiling the sun will shine some day the sun will shine some day
Some Thoughts
Ok so as i sit here wondering about so many things one come us more then once. What is up with crazy people? I mean first of all that guy from the Village goes compleatly nuts trying to pull some lame stunt. Then Billy Bob is screaming at some guy that just trying to do his job. Why do people think this is fun?
Knights Honor #2
Come my lady. My hearts desire. My Little one. Who inspires, Great deeds. Know that I love thee. Need thee. Will have thee. Show thee, My hearts, True blood. Crimson, As your, Moist lips. Ride upon, This brave steed, With me. Feel his power, Within your, Virgin loins. As he fly's us, As if the wind, To our place, Amongst the bowers. Let your flaxen, Flow as a brook, Within the breeze. Trust and believe, That I am he, Who covets thee, With an honorable heart. A wise tongue. A Passionate soul. He, who has always, Been the spectre, Within your, Erotic virgin dreams. Know that I, Am your knight. True of heart, And deeds. That I hold thee, In my palm, Even as I, Build your pedestal. Know that, No azure sky, Can compete, With thine eyes. No spun gold, With thy silken hair. No flower, With thy true scent. No fruit, With the lush, Nor the blush. Of thy lips. No velvet royal, With thy skin. No confection, Nor nectar, With thy taste. That thou, Is perfection, To me. Come my Heart. My lady
Ladies Of Rock N Roll
Saying Good-bye
Life is a maze  It'll leave you in a daze Where one door opens  Another will close Always feeling the pain  Though it never seems to go away Crying out for help  But not sure of what to say Play back the memories  As if they were today People come and go  Your heart playing the part of the revolving door As the tears fall  You know that you have lost it all Watching the leave is painful enough  But saying good-bye; that's always tough
Club Playing On Saturday!!!!
We Need A Leader Like This
    Prime Minister Kevin Rudd - Australia Muslims who want to live under Islamic Sharia law were told on Wednesday to get out of Australia , as the government targeted radicals in a bid to head off potential terror attacks.. Separately, Rudd angered some Australian Muslims on Wednesday by saying he supported spy agencies monitoring the nation's mosques. Quote: 'IMMIGRANTS, NOT AUSTRALIANS, MUST ADAPT. Take It Or Leave It. I am tired of this nation worrying about whether we are offending some individual or their culture. Since the terrorist attacks on Bali , we have experienced a surge in patriotism by the majority of Australians. ' 'This culture has been developed over two centuries of struggles, trials and victories by millions of men and women who have sought freedom' 'We speak mainly ENGLISH, not Spanish, Lebanese, Arabic, Chinese, Japanese, Russian, or any other language. Therefore, if you wish to become part of our society . Learn the language!' 'M
Guilty Pleasure.....
Ok... I want to know a secret. Whats your guilty pleasure song the one that you really don't want others to know you like but it's stashed on your a playlist , cd, or ipod.   Mine is (here we go)   George Micheal...Faith (and i'm not even gay) lol          
The moon is full, The darkness surrounds me. And in the shallow streets, The people stare... But they cant have my innocence. A child roams, Cold and naked. All alone. With no one to feed him, Hold him, Love him. He is left to die. A woman cries... She drowns in her pool of atrophy. Her hunger eats at her, until she dissolves in her starvation. And that my friends, is only the beginning
Accidents Do Happen.. But When It Hurts Someone It Blows
I'm always that person that thinks i say the wrong thing and it never happens.. but today it did and hopefully the person that i hurt reads this.. you get a forwarded text message and what do we do? we forward it.. well i accidently sent it to my very good friend by accident and it upset him.. i feel horrible... i care deeply for him and would do anything to take it back.....
ok so i know someone who says she missed her period and hopes she aint pregnant but is pretty sure she mite be... even though she didnt think she would get that way bc they were sure they were protected in ways... but heres the problem... she hasnt told him... and she isnt planning on it although someone told her she should... she doesnt talk to him any more... and shes kind of not wanting to... that way she can make sure she dont hurt him bc hes already been hurt enuf... but shes thinkin she dont want to keep it... not abortion just give it up... she thinks she can hide it from everyone who knows him considering she wont see most of them much longer... should she tell him or just let him think nothings different... bc they dont talk to eachother anymore and she dont want him stuck with her over a mistake.... i just wanted to know what yall think so i can tell her bc i dont know what to think... please comment on this if you can... im begging you...
I have 3 finals left until I am done with my first semester back to college. I should be studying right now, but I can't get motivated, blah. I'll be so happy once it's all over.
For My Owner Dino......daddys Little Boy
my son came home from school the other day, said daddy i know what i wanna be when i grow up. i looked down into his big brown eyes and said what is that son, he took my hand and we sat on the floor and he climbed up into my lap. he said daddy i wanna be a soldier just like u.i wanna fight for my country that i love so much. he stood up and gave me a hug and trotted off to his room, he was 5 then, when he turned 18 he came to me and asked me to join him for a ride. we went to the recruiters and he joind the military..i helped swear him in as a proud father,tears and over whelming emotions came over me. when we left from there and were driving home he stopped alongside an old country road, he turned and looked at me and said i did it dad i am a soldier now gonna do my best and make you proud. gonna serve my country and protect it the best i can. gonna give my all gonna be the best i can be he got his first orders iraq he was bound one whole year with out him around felt
So Irritated!!!!!!
Hey Im back again! Today has been the most Irritating day ever. People tend to ask me why I have a hard time believing people or I just think that alot of people are liars? Well that is because they are, at least in my experience they are. I cant like someone and think that what they are telling me is the truth, and then all of a sudden there it goes everything changes and all the things that they have said is nothing but a bunch of crap! Go figure, I never have the luck where I can talk 2 someone and believe what they say and in the end it is all a lie cause they feel like being an ass and not talking to me bout something or asking me things for themselves. How irritating that I cant make arrangements for something and actually stick to it cause someone feels like being stupid and always has to find something to ruin it, not once but twice! How irritating that I cant talk to someone cause I have no clue if it is going to piss someone off or have the other person think of that conversa
The act of licking a person's eyeball for sexual arousal/fulfillment.
12 Things To Remember
12 Things to Remember...   Some of you have already seen the 12 Things to Remember video from The SHIFT Project.  I thought it would be great to send you the video's inspirational message in written format.   Here it is:     1. Life is short. If you are stressed, worry, eat unhealthy, or focus on the negative "stuff" - your life will end up being even shorter.   2. Your troubles of today are only temporary. Look for the silver lining. If you look hard enough, you will find the silver lining and it will make all the difference in how you perceive your situation and how you feel. 3. When things are good in your life, they will seldom become great. We rarely make changes when things are good. Only when we hit rock-bottom, are we forced to make changes -and that will lead you to greatness. So, if you have hit rock-bottom, hold on to your socks and start celebrating because... your greatest life is just around the corner! 4. Stop staring at the closed door (the negative stuff). 
End Of The Road
When at the end of the road We find that we can no longer function We all face the same dilemma. What is there left to do? There seems to be this alternative: Either go on as best we can to the bitter ends Or find a new way to live.
Some times in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding But theres also a chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better then you know yourself is the same who's been standing beside you all along.
Jus A Lil Paul Mooney Jokey Joke Retold By The Degetodragon(2)
a white man finds a lamp in the sand...picks it up and rubs... genie pops out and says ' you have three wishes....' the white man said ' i wanna big mansion'...*poof* he gets a mansion...second wish ' i want beautiful naked women runnin through mansion'...*poof* beautiful naked women runnin through the mansion...hes third wish...three klansmen beat him to an inch of his life and hangs em...the genie is at the bar drinkin a beer and tells the bartender...'still to this white men all wanna mansion, all want naked women runnin through the mansion...but im always clueless about the third wish: why all white men wanna be HUNG LIKE A NIGGA'
Beau Puma
c'est amazin comment quelque chose aussi simple qu'un sourire peut vous inciter à changer votre vue sur des choses. Tandis que non étonné par ce seul. je suis étonné comment un sourire que vous ne pouvez pas voir vous rend heureux. Merci sexy. Vous m'étonnez conitnually. Hmmm fait le massage la nuit venir à l'esprit…
New Nsfw Auction!!!
      I'm going to host another auction! This time it's going to be NSFW!!!   Interested??? If you want in all you need is a SFW pic, a NSFW pic, and the 10k entry fee. Oh yeah, and you must be willing to do a NSFW salute for your winning bidder! The auction will run from May 8th- May 15th!   Still interested??? If so send a PM to me with the following: -The link to your SFW pic
Makes Me Wonder!
When you rate others folders, bling them, bomb them, just plain spoil them and you get nothing back in return, is it time to get upset? Do you delete them from your friends list? I never delete anyone cause I feel everyone deserves to have friends, but I have to say, I work my fingers to the bone luving on others to help them level, notice when it is their birthadays and send them gifts, even send drinks to those I notice level and I don't get the same in return....hmmm... I bomb however many people I can in as short of time I can even if some don't have elevens turned on, But when it comes to showing the same fovors back I don't see it. I have gotten a few bling, but even those are scarce. When I don't have elevens on I will rarely ever see a bomb on my folder. Is being nice too much or should I just continue being the nice person I am and love on my friends anyway? I want to say though, to those few that do atleast acknowlede their appreciation to what I do for them, THANK YOU!
Eye Of The Storm By The Cruxshadows
The trials you now are facingThey are not greater than your willFor there is nothing under heavenYou cannot overcomeSee the door that lies before youAnd know this too shall passThe confrontation of your tearsIn strength drawn from the pastWhen the silent voices whisperFind the course that is your ownAnd however great the obstacleYou will never be aloneFor I have watched the path of angelsAnd I have heard the heavens roarThere is strife within the tempestBut there is calm in the eye of the stormIn fragments of an instantThe chaos has returnedAnd all that was left to sentimentBeneath the banner burnedAnd as that voice was slow recededInto echoes, memory My doubts were re-ignitedAnd fear awakened from its sleepI believe in what I fight forAnd I have paid for it with painI am here because my contributionsMay help turn this fate awayAnd all who stood by and did nothingWho are they to criticize?The sacrifices of othersOur blod has bought their livesThis is the moment of truthAt the point of
Help Celebrate My 40th Birthday Today
Military Supporter110% All The Way
    I put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight. 'I'm glad I have a good book to read perhaps I will get a short nap,' I thought. Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down the aisle and filled all the vacant seats, totally surrounding me. I decided to start a conversation. 'Where are you headed?' I asked the soldier seated nearest to me. 'Petawawa. We'll be there for two weeks for special training, and then we're being deployed to Afghanistan . After flying for about an hour, an announcement was made that sack lunches were available for five dollars. It would be several hours before we reached the east, and I quickly decided a lunch would help pass the time. As I reached for my wallet, I overheard the soldier ask his buddy if he planned to buy lunch. 'No, that seems like a lot of money for just a sack lunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'll wait till we get to base ' His friend agree
Nunca Te Olvidare?translation Please Lol
Nunca Te Olvidare lyricsPueden pasar tres mil anos.Puedes besar otros labios,pero nunca te olvidare,pero nunca te olvidare.Puedo morirme manana.Puede secarse mi alma,pero nunca te olvidare,pero nunca te olvidare.Pueden borrar mi memoria.Pueden robarme tu historia,pero nunca te olvidare,pero nunca te olvidare.Como olvidar tu sonrisa.Como olvidar tu mirada.Como olvidar que rezabapara que no te marcharas.Como olvidar tus locuras.Como olvidar que volabas.Como olvidar que aun te quieromas que a vivir, mas que a nada.Pueden pasar tres mil anos.Puedes besar otros labios,pero nunca te olvidare,pero nunca te olvidare.Puedo morirme manana.Puede secarse mi alma,pero nunca te olvidare,pero nunca te olvidare.Puedes echarme de tu vida.Puedes negar que me querias,pero nunca te olvidare.Sabes que nunca te olvidare.Como olvidar tu sonrisa.Como olvidar tu mirada.Como olvidar que rezabapara que no te marcharas.Como olvidar tus locuras.Como olvidar que volabas.Como olvidar que aun te quieromas que a vivir
*i Hate It When...*
Yeah this is kinda about me being dumb and believing that a certain person actually cared more than my friends HAHA I hate it when people think that after breaking your heart or pushing you away... you'll always come back.  Guess what... this time was one time too many.  You can push a person away over and over... and all that's going to do is make them lose interest.  I know that shit happens... so guess what else... pick up the pieces and move the hell on!  You're gonna miss me... and I know it... because I gave you everything I had.  Trust... you'll never be able to get to me again.  I wish you the best and good luck in whatever you decide to do!  Deuces and I'm out...
Crash During Festive Event Queensday 2009 In Apeldoorn
Queensdag 2009 in Apeldoorn (celebration of b-day Dutch Queen). In footage you see open top bus which has Royal family in them...witnessing the accident. Causing now 4 deaths and 5 severly injured others less severe injured. 1 policeofficer injured 1 mp officer injured. A black page in history *update* indicated that this incident was done on purpose by attacker !!!    
My Husband Edward Cullen Profile
Edward Cullen ( A Twilight role playing profile) Looking for my Bella@ fubar
Hybrid Car
My uncle in Detroit tried to make a new kind of car. He took the engine from a Ford, the transmission from an Oldsmobile, the tires from a Cadillac, and the exhaust system from a Plymouth." "Really? What did he get?" "Fifteen years for theft."
Yesterdays Mumm
OK, so yesterday I posted a MUMM about President Obama's first 100 days.  I foud out there are alot of Bush supporters here, so I just want to make a point.  I serveved 4 years in the Army (not gonna say when)  I support the Commander In Cheif no matter who it is.  I have to say though Bush was the worst President in American history, Jimmy Carter may be second worse, although I think he does alot of good now.  Now as a person I like Bush, but his policies, or lets say Carl Rove's and Dick Chenney's policies have cused this country harm from wich it may never recover.  Bush went to war with a country who could not have attacked us, and left an unfinished war with a country who supported thos who did.  Then allied with Pakistan, who is more of a threat than any other country on the planet, and has Nuclear weapons.  Then he csused the housing crisis by having the feds lower interes rates right up till nov 2004 (mid term elections) now look at the mess.  Now you Republicans are saying the
Good News
OK so someone went on a flagging  spree, and guess what? I'm sick of it. Red names can hold fingers over their nips and have their whole effing bewbs hanging out, but my CLOTHED photos are a no-no. LOL. Eff you Fubar, you gd prudes. The gd newsletter with their slut of the month makes you think Fubar is all about nudies. Soo all future GGW teaser pics, or just "forbidden" photos will NOT be posted on Fubar, because won't someone please think of the children?! is way better. And free! I should lock all my non-default albums to family only. At least they can be trusted
Woman And A Fork
Woman and a Fork   There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness  and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things 'in order,' she contacted her Pastor and  had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes.She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in. Everything was in order and the Pastor was preparing to leave when the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her.'There's one more thing,' she said excitedly. 'What's that?' came the Pastor's reply. 'This is very important,' the young woman continued.  'I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand.' The Pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what to say. 'That surprises you, doesn't it? ' the young woman asked. 'Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request,' said the Pastor. The young woman explained.'My grandmot
You Want It ,come Get It!!
So,it's that time, we have some new faces on the block...and they have some great offers,come check em' out,bid on em',love em' won't regret it!!Auction starts May 1st and ends the 15th. Check out who alls in it...just click any link below and it'll take you to the AUCTION folder!! What are you waiting for?? NICCI~OWNER OF DEMENTED NAUGHTY ANGELS~FU BOMBER FAMILY MANAGER~KASEY & ADAMS MISTRESS ▪Вīģ.Đ▪The Do it Guy qtaubrey sexiimama ash ~Greeter @ Club VooDoo~ SIDEWAYS OWNED BY WikedlySweet SwEeT ImPerFeCTiOn Bi-Green Eyed Angel Tech N9ne Soldier (aka HPLP1978) tina r/w to lost(derrick)~Owner of The Blue Moon Pub~fu married to lost~member of rating relovutions Big Steve *~One Hot Sexy Mama~* {Ashlyn*s Mommy}{R/L GF & Master 2 Twisted~Rebel}{Promoter@SDL}
You & Mi' On The Ice....
You and Me on the Ice...  Since you are playing on the ice... let me take you someplace warm... and very nice.... would you like somewhere to place that puck... I know a place.... and .. .would be a great fuck.... you could put it in my ...aaaahhhhhhhhh.... clit... ooohhhh.... such a warm... wet.....soft... and nice ... little slit... ohhh.....please come slap it with your stick.... and hit me again....and again... I would tell you...
Blaxjax(my Dad) show my dad some love he is my real dad!!!
A white guy asked a Mexican if they had Jews in Mexico? Mexican says Yes estupid. We have orange jews, apple jews, grape jews, & horchata!
For Nevaeh!
You were our little angel we loved to hold so close the softness of your baby skin like petals of a rose.   We loved it when we cuddled you in our arms You were our little angel with sweet angelic arms. We think back to memories so precious and so few.   For God had chosen you to be one of His little angels too.   For NEvaeh Rose Roush born: July 27, 2008 sadly taken: July 27, 2008   I love you Nevaeh!
Done With The Fu!!!
I am really beinging to wonder if I should just say fuck it and delete my account on here... I'm holding a NSFW auctioni and was going to post a ticker about it... It got denied because I used the letters NSFW!!!!!!!!!!! WTF?!?!?!?! So I sent a reply asking why it was denied... and instead of answering me they tell me I need to change my status (which said " NSFW auction, read blog for more info") I replied again and was told that i change my status or they would lock it! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?! seriously... this site says NSFW all over it but I am not allowed to put it in my fucking status?!?! It's not like I have a fucking wagging cock on it or a big pair of tits! I am seriously sick of this shit... I think I'm going to hold this auction (since I already have people in it) and then get the fuck off here... I'm on many other sites for those of you who want to keep up with me... Myspace, facebook (my fav), twitter (my least fav). Just let me know if you want the info!
To Tom (06hdfxwg) Muah
It's 1 am... 4 quarters and a heartache later.. I called to say hello... Im sure I shouldve called befor... to say I miss you... But what I really needed was to hear it from you ... For the first time I can remember without saying you told me how you felt .. That you beleive in love an d truth and honest...  I want love like rain is to earth needed.... Like rain and and earth collide.. As long as were happy.....                                           IM FOREVER BY YOUR SIDE                                                   LISA
Nsfw - A Special Night With Special Lady Pt. 2
Your eyes open widely at me and you ask, “what else do you have planned for us after THAT!” I smile and wink at you, “Baby, tonight I’m going to start making up for all those times I wasn’t in your arms.” You laugh and say that a few more nights of what you just got would do that, but I shake my head. “This time, I’m going to spoil you a little bit, to let you know who’s your man….and why you’re my slut.” You laugh again and I tell you to go take a shower. You raise an eyebrow, but I motion you towards the bathroom as I pick up my phone and start texting someone. You hear me yell from the bedroom, “make sure to shave again!” You roll your eyes and begin to wash up. When you come back out of the bathroom, you find me standing at the edge of the bed drying off and getting dressed. We have two showers, and you were wondering why the hot water was a little cooler then usual. On the bed is a big box with a
Bidz Plz   Make me rich and make me your pet for one month!!!!!! Copy and past link to make your offer!
Please Help !!!!
I f you could help me please go to this page and show him some mad love he is a very good friend that is new here and I been doing my best to help him, but could use some help..... Thank you Bluewizard CoFounder of the Spider Bombers and Member of the Shadow Levelers & member of the Rating Revolution......
Go Betty Go -- Ticking Bombs
It isn't easyTo continue what we've got hereWhat should we do?It's been years since the first time it startedI thought I knewI'm not the same person that I was back thenTime passed and I'm so uncertain about thisMore and more you cry each nightIt's all my fault and you wonderWhy I'm gone so all the timeIt's like a bomb ticking in our livesI'm sorry but it's hard being honestI'm not like youI'm getting doubtsAnd I don't know how to stop themI can't tell youDisappointments add up when it's hard to reach youAll the thingsWe both worked hard forWe'll loseMore and more you cry each nightIt's all my fault and you wonderWhy I'm gone so all the timeIt's like a bomb ticking in our livesYou have to know that I'm getting sad and quiet, it's nothing newI try so hard to bring up fallen causesI always loseMore and more you cry each nightIt's all my fault and you wonderWhy I'm gone so all the timeIt's like a bomb ticking in our livesIt isn't easyTo continue what we got hereWhat should we do?It's been
Come Bid On Your Favorite Dilligaf
I Owe Much Luv
i know i have been slackin and i owe tons of luv to many....i will be around to return the luv you have left for me..kisses and much luv... your gurl ~sunshine
Could Be Mine
You could be mine,The taste of your skin rollingGliding over my senses.Erotic fantasies flashing overIn my mind, to let me know howMuch they don't compare to you.I can almost feel the soft press ofYour body, warm, firm, molding withMine to form a perfect being.Nimble fingers and hands workingTheir spell over my desires.We could be one, you know that,We could become trapped in ourFancies staying tied down in ourOwn little play world held back byA thirst that can't be quenched.I could be yours, wrapped in clearBlanket on display for your amusementTo show everyone the catch you've madeThe servant you're found, the lover you choose.We could be ours.
Lovers Dance
Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance,seeking pleasures from each other,seeking wonder and romance.She touches his face with tenderness.He draws her body near.Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses,their tongues begin passion's war.Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly,she arches up for his caress.He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness.She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away,wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body,eases him into her feminine hollow.She leads him on a rhythmic dance,his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then,to hear his wondrous sighs.She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unreels,and tangles them in a lover's knot that every answer reveals. Sated, they lie side by side,s
Wanting More
I see myself holding you close to me,Squeezing your body tight.But for all I see as I daydream-I know I'll get tenfold tonight.Running my palms across your breast,As you tremble and bite your lip.Feeling your hands upon my chest,The softness of each fingertip.Tasting your neck so sweet, so soft,And slowly lowering my kiss.Over pert nipples, across your navel,And finally into pure bliss.Looking upon your face from below-As you tilt back your head.Feeling your fountains begin to flow-As you ease back on the bed.Your "innocent little devil" look-Crying insatiably with the sensation.Lip to lip lapping up every drip-From the well of your creation.The way you pull me up by the hair-To the heat of your mouth, on fire.No other thoughts, no other cares,Just the quenching of mad desire.Riding the tide of passion,Pushing my love into you.On the waves of your emotion-In slow motion, so sweet and true.Pulse pounding in resounding rapture,Taken to the hilt, then just past.Rhythm growing, faces glowi
3 Words
If we woke up naked together using only 3 words what would you say to me? Pass it on to both genders see what funny things you get
Perspectivev Right Leg Quote Tatt's
This will be a list of quotes i like/love and would like to get tattoo's on my right leg in scroll work 1) "You do not love a woman because she is beautiful, She is beautiful because you love her - Unknown" 2) "Any time spent with a redhead is worth more than any man can afford - Me" 3) "While the rest of the human race are descended from monkeys, Redheads derive from cats - Mark Twain" 4) “Sex is like air, it's not important unless you aren't getting any - Unknown” 5) "Try not, Do or do not, there is no try - Yoda"
Wherever You Go
Why Do I Feel So ............
I just got a call from my father. Oy vey! How is it that he can still make me feel so goddamn small? I'm damn near 51 years old and he still fucking intimidates the FUCK outta me! Dammit Jim! Now I'm in a bad mood and such! :( Somebody snap me out of it!!    
Im Sick Of Smiling & So Is My Jaw
I heard about your trip.I heard about your souvenirs.I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights,and the cool guys that you spent them with.Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.I guess I should have heard of them from you.Don't you see, don't you see,that the charade is over?And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.So kiss me hard'cause this will be the last time that I let you.You will be back somedayand this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips will be of serviceto keeping you away.I heard about your regrets.I heard that you were feeling sorry.I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us.Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.I guess I should have heard of them from you.I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,I'll be all right when my hands get warm.Ignoring the phone,I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my're calling too late,too late to be gracious and yo
Your So-called "drama" Is Not Mine...
I would just like to say that I feel that I am in the very fortunate situation to actually say, that I have no antimosity towards anyone on here. I have no beef with no guy or girl, regardless of mutual relationships or situations. I am here STRICTLY in a recreational and entertaining manner. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am just a big goofball. I don't take any of this fu-stuff seriously, and I'm not supposed to. More of you that do take this too seriously, should re-evaluate priorities and "relationships" on here. I refuse to take a place or medium seriously where you can give a $100 unicorn to someone, and have it mean "something" lol. I understand that not everyone on here will get along with certain others. However, that doesn't mean that the enemy of my "friend" is my enemy. I don't give a flying rat's butt cheek about someone's "beef" with another. And no, that doesn't mean I'm a punk, or a pussy, or a "lame ass nigga", as has been mentioned in my shoutbox or random profi
Happy And Sad
Cupcake Application
  So you wanna be a Cupcake?MUST meet the following requirements.*You must be an ACTIVE member of the Beautiful Brutality Lounge**You HAVE to show us that you can be brutal.. we may all LOOK sweet & stuff.. but that is NOT ALL we can be**You must have your page open to the public so that all the girls can go and see what your about and get to know you on they're own**You must have a yim & give it to one of us so we have a way of contacting you**We do EVERYTHING together... if you think this is one of those groups you can just put in your name & not participate in.. you're dead wrong**IF all members of the mafia think you "fit" into our family we will then welcome you in**You must provide ur OWN photoshopped or painted tranny hamster & give it a name* (we will explain the meaning of this upon entry to the group)*This is not an easy group to get into although it seems like it is.. we LOVE our family and ONLY bring in the BEST of the best girls.. and we ARE r/l best friends with one anot
Losers On Drugs
I was ask the other day  about my views on drugs.  I told my friend you really honestly dont want my opinion do you He said yes.  I said well if I tell you,  it may end our friendship.  He looked at me strange but said no come on I ask the question say your piece. I said and I tried hard not to bore him or now bore you with the details but here goes Since the age of 5 years old,  my mother (not bio mom) got hooked on meds to help her slim down.  It went from them to harder shit.  Most were uppers and downers. It was a horrible life,  she was always out of her mind on drugs.  She would slide across the floor pissin and shittin,  yelling to the top of her lungs. I never understood why my father not real father bu adopted,  stayed with her. She made my life a living hell and I feared for my life all those years till I moved out at the age of 19. The only good thing she ever taught me was what drugs will do to you.  They fuck you up!!!! I said so in my opinion drugs are for losers.
New Member Here's A Little Info
A real wild passionate sensual man down to try out all new things with the ladies also looking to meet real down ass people.
May God Look Over His Family
Authorities say 32-year old Shawn Stewart of Walkersville was killed Monday while turkey hunting in Lewis County. A search of the Stonewall Jackson Wildlife Management area was launched when Stewart failed to meet up with members of his hunting party after a day in the woods. A number of volunteers and emergency personnel combed the woods until locating Stewart's body Tuesday evening across the bay from the Vandalia Ramp of Stonewall Jackson Lake. He had been shot in the head.   State Police and Conservation Officers from the DNR are investigating the incident. Officers say he suffered a gunshot wound to the head, but investigators aren't saying if it was a rifle or shotgun. State Police collected forensic evidence Tuesday and authorities are today interviewing other hunters who may have been in the area at the time of the shooting.   Stewart was an avid outdoorsman and very familiar with the area. He was an accomplished bass fisherman with several wins on the West Virginia Bass F
You Love A Woman Because;
The More You Have
Touches Your Heart
A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart
Of Students, Former Students & Panties
As a high school teacher, I meet some interesting folks. A few events from April of '09 prove this point. - April 9 ~ A former students went on trial for murder, was found guilty, and sentenced to life in prison. - April 15 ~  A bright, hard working, yearbook staff member from 16 years ago was charged with multiple counts of rape and sexual battery. One assault was on a 78 year old women, another was of a boy of 13. - Most recently, one of my student aides, a 2001 graduate, was  describe by authorities as having "an underwear fetish" after police recovered 276 pairs of women's underwear, 38 bras, 58 bottles of perfumes and lotions, and "hundreds of photos of his victums taken as souveniors."  I could go on and on, but hey, we all know there are some strnge folks of there. In fact,  we could be one of them - lol                                   
Auction Hot Me Up!
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Swine Flu Makes Zombies???
There has been a small outbreak of “zombism” in London due to mutation of the H1N1 virus into new strain: H1Z1. Similar to a scare originally found in Cambodia back in 2005, victims of a new strain of the swine flu virus H1N1 have been reported in London. After death, this virus is able to restart the heart of it’s victim for up to two hours after the initial demise of the person where the individual behaves in extremely violent ways from what is believe to be a combination of brain damage and a chemical released into blood during “resurrection.” The World Health Organization (WHO) has raised the alert to phase six, its highest level, and advised governments to activate pandemic contingency plans. In Mexico, the epicentre of the outbreak, President Felipe Calderon urged people to stay at home over the next five days. There are many cases elsewhere - including the US, Canada, Latin America, Europe, Israel, and New Zealand. BBC health correspondent
What Color Would U Use
what color would u use to paint your bedroom orange or light purple
Godmother Kelly Ann
By A Very Smart Young Girl!
SLOW DANCEHave you ever watched kidsOn a merry-go-round?Or listened to the rainSlapping on the ground?Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?You better slow down.Don't dance so fast.Time is short. The music won't last.Do you run through each dayOn the fly?When you ask How are you?Do you hear the reply?When the day is doneDo you lie in your bedWith the next hundred chores Running through your head?You'd better slow downDon't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow?And in your haste,Not see his sorrow?Ever lost touch,Let a good friendship die Cause you never had time To call and say,'Hi'You'd better slow down.Don't dance so fast.Time is short.The music won't last.When you run so fast to get somewhereYou miss half the fun of getting there.When you worry and hurry through your day,It is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.Life is not a race.Do take it slowerHear the musicBefore the song is
Wow,how Amazing Internet Is"
i lazily sat here last night , just trying to wander the cyber world" from this site to that site , type this topic and this topic"...  then so unexpectedly, surprisingly, i saw my hubby's, his picture from many many years ago,  wow".. of all people, .. my husband's picture?  so curious...". i keep on clicking"... and so there youa re"     I CANT BELIEVE, I HAVE FOUND MY STEP DAUGHTER" ... MY HUBBY'S LONG LOST DAUGHTER.. SHE I 27, SO SIMILAR TO MY SON, THAY HAVE A GREAT RESEMLANCE .. THIER MOUTH AND NOSE.."  SO SURPRISED SO HAPPY, I CLALED MY HUSBAND".. I TOLD HIM , LOOK, WHOS HERE.  HE BECAME SO INTERESTED.. I CAN UNDERSTAND... WOW, TODAY I SPENT MORE TIME SEARCHING FOR HER.. AND FOUND HER VIDEOS ON YOU TUBE".  I DONT KNOW NOW, WETHER TO CONTACT HER OR NOT, BUT I FEEL HAPPY THAT MY SONS HAS ELDER SISTER.  STILL HANGING IN HERE. WAITING FOR  WHAT WILL BE THE NEXT"...  BUT I SAW HER EX TOO, ..  LOL".. NEVER MIND".  ISNT ITS SO AMAZING".      
Come Two Wicked
the best place to be on  fu
So I am at work and I have a headache the size of texas. This place frustrates the hell out of me, however I am grateful to be working. Night shift sucks and I really should learn to say no lol I guess I am just venting cause I have no one to talk too lol I've had it rough over the last few months and i can't wait for things to get better. Blah........Well that's all I have to say for now lol Peace
True Friends
guys wake up some girls have jobs  just cause u buy rhe blaststs and autos u arent gonna meet very man of them i love women more then anything but lets get real ive been guilty my self buy a playboy or huster its cheaper u wont see harddly any of yhese girls but u can see there pics is that worth it true love is worth more dont be suckers i have and i see my mistates dont fall for it! kanan   watch for the spam girls  
I Dont Understand
I dont get how some on who cares about you can lie striaght to your face like it was nothing .. After 6 years you think there would be some kind of guilt but aparently not ...Im such a fool for sticking around so long an living in a dream world when will i ever wake the F up grrr
Wish I Knew
I don't think that I've ever been so quiet at work today. I couldn't really talk to anyone. I had a lot of stuf on my mind. I was sad most of the day. One of my coworkers said she can see something is wrong....said she never seen me so quiet and asked what's wrong. I couldn't tell her. I couldn't sleep too well last night, which is pretty normal anyways on Thursday nights. But it took me a while to fall asleep like usual....thinking too much. I think about certain things over and over again and wished to hell that I knew what I was doing...what i was going to do...I feel like a freakin' mine in a box or something. Everything that I think about just runs in a freakin circle. I hate not knowing what I'm doing....but I know I have to figure it out cause I can't be like this...It's going to drive me insane. I worry about how I'm going to hurt some people....even when it's hurting myself...I would rather hurt myself than anyone else. A lot of times, I just want to disappear...not like t
Refers to someone that is sexually aroused by faces
On My Way
  So i've been thru a lot in the past, but of course who hasnt.  but finally... things are starting to look right.  with in 3 months i've managed to fix my license, get a car, title insurance and all, and just got promoted to a management position.    but of course,,, i honestly couldnt do all of this without the love and support of my baby, Xavier (Eternal Beast Of Burden).    Next step is to get a place of my own and then finally the love of my life and i will be able to be together... not just on vacations.... but actually together.  nothing makes me smile more then the thought of that.  All i gotta do is keep strong now... and well.. im a stubborn cookie... so i know things will work out just right.   i love you baby.  
What Some People Forget
We the People of the United States, in Order to form a more perfect Union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defence, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America. Article 1. Section 1 All legislative Powers herein granted shall be vested in a Congress of the United States, which shall consist of a Senate and House of Representatives. Section 2 The House of Representatives shall be composed of Members chosen every second Year by the People of the several States, and the Electors in each State shall have the Qualifications requisite for Electors of the most numerous Branch of the State Legislature. No Person shall be a Representative who shall not have attained to the Age of twenty five Years, and been seven Years a Citizen of the United States, and who shall not, when elected, be an Inhabitant of that State in which
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Meet Bella Marie Swan Cullen
About me: I moved around a lot when I was younger, living first in California and later Phoenix, Arizona. Last January I moved to the small town of Forks, Washington. I was hesitant about the move at first, it is always cloudy, rainy, and cold. Not to my surprise, I hated Forks. It was so green. I missed the sun against my skin and the busy streets. I was out in the middle of nowhere and felt very alone, especially on the first day of school since I knew no one. So many kids and faces but that is when I first saw them. The Cullens. So stunning and beautiful that any model would envy their looks. Five strange pale skinned people and they made a gorgeous family.   Even though the male population of Forks High was giving me a strange amount of attention, it was Edward Cullen who I was drawn to. The first time we met, in biology class, I was surprised by how much he seemed to not want to be around me. Later I found out that it was because he was trying to resist the smell of my blood;
Meet My Sister Rosealie
I was born to a middle-class family in 1915 in Rochester, New York. My father had a stable job in a bank while my mother was a housewife. My parents were social climbers and I was the ticket they needed to reach their social aspiration. I was clearly the favorite of my parents, with two younger brothers. While growing up, I dreamed of a lavish life--a life with a rich husband and children as beautiful as I was. My parents influenced my want of material things, which made me vain and conceited. I wanted a big house that someone else would clean, with a large lawn that I would play with my children on. In Rochester, where I grew up, there was only one family that had what my parents wanted--the Kings. Royce King owned the bank my father worked in. His son, Royce II, saw me for the first time and began dating me. It was a quick courtship and we were soon engaged. The engagement went too quickly and wedding plans were made. I couldn't help but feel something was missing from my relationsh
Affiliations: By My Forever Amawitch
Affliations created @ 2007-04-29 19:32:41   You make a connection with another soulSomeone who listens, responds consoles.The world seems different, distinctively newThe outlook on life a warm crimson hue.Friendship, response, a reply in the windCan keep someone going, "alone" redefinedA person out there took time from their dayTo write you and let you know its okay.Listening to emotions come from a wordReflection accepted acknowledged, heard.Oh what a gift that energy brings Isolation divorced, free with new wings.Thank you for hearing my words indirect Meanings lurking that somewhat reflectHow I might feel, just what I believeWrong or mistaken, you just receive.Your response a discovery, revelation for meYou heard me, still care, helps set me free.Ability, and power to find who I amLove knowing that someone just gives a damn. amawitch/2007
Meet My Mother In Law Esme Anne Cullen
About me:I have had an uncanny passion for nature and its beauty all throughout my entire existence. It all started when I was sixteen years young. I was deeply fascinated with trees and their strength; and, unfortunately, I paid the price of being too adventurous as a child. After climbing to the top of that magnificent tree and maintaining the proper equilibrium, I suddenly lost my balance and proceeded to fall to Mother Earth, breaking my leg in the process. The pain was near unbearable, I dare say. Do understand that my family and I lived on the very edge of town, out of the way from any nearby hospital, as you can imagine. We set out on our way to the doctor’s, foreseeing an entire day’s travel ahead of us. We arrived at the hospital, just as night fell — the norm doctor was away at the time, as we learned. Instead, the youthful—looking, stand-in doctor Carlisle Cullen treated my wound. He was beautiful, unlike any other I had ever beheld. I will never trul
Meet My Husband Edward Anthony Masen Cullen
I was originally born in Chicago, Illinois on June 20, 1901. In 1918, my parents, Edward Sr. and Elizabeth Masen, died while the Spanish influenza was going around, and my mother asked Dr. Carlisle Cullen to "save me." He turned me into a vampire, as there seemed to be little hope of me living. From then on, Carlisle raised me as his son. Eventually, others joined our family. "It’s twilight... It's the safest time of day for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable..." I'm living in the quiet, tiny town of Forks, Washington. With the exception of my family, this is your average small town. Nothing too exciting happens here. Well at least not until one day, when a new girl named Bella Swan arrived at school. I could barely control myself. I was intrigued by her, and she smelled so good. I tried to stay away from her because I thought I wouldn't be able to control myself, but I was unable t
Meet My Father In Law Carlise Cullen
Hello my name is Carlisle Cullen I have lived and seen through my years many things but even through many things you still find only one thing that will ever mean anything to you I was born long ago in Italy as a child I was interested in learning and hearing my father was a well respected doctor and we knew many people in the village,My father was strict and obsessed with hunting these creatures he would tell me about creatures to be so fowl that you would wish to be dead than 100 feet near one these creatures were vampires that my father beileved to have been attacking the villages through Italy but there was one particular hunt I helped my father with that hunt would be my last,it was dark and cold when I was coming through the village I happened upon a group of beautiful people standing on the cobble road they stepped out of the dark shadows into the gleam light of the moon and I knew what they were there was no use running I knew very well but I did when suddenly one sprang near a
Short Funny Sayings
Honk if you love peace and quiet. On the other hand, you have different fingers.Back up my hard drive? How do I put it in reverse? Always remember that you are unique, just like everyone else. He’s not dead — he’s electroencephalographically challenged. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted, then used against you. I wonder how much deeper the ocean would be without sponges. How many of you believe in telekinesis? Raise my hands. If you think nobody cares about you, try missing a couple of loan repayments. You can’t have everything — where would you put it? You never really learn to swear until you learn to drive. On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key. To steal ideas from one person is plagiarism; to steal from many is research. A conclusion is the place where you got tired of thinking.
Inviting Everyone To My New Lounge
Welcome, all patients, to the ward. Your medication will be given out shortly. In the mean time feel free to commit yourself and join us, one free straight jacket with every admitance and a hot nurse to medicate you. As a patient here you have the option of being heavily medicated, and are under the supervision of the hospital staff. Be yourself and go Wild, the walls are padded for a reason. Psycho Asylum
Bottle Of Wine
A woman and a man are involved in a car accident on a snowy, cold Monday morning; it's a bad one. Both of their cars are totally demolished, but amazingly neither of them is hurt. God works in mysterious ways .      After they crawl out of their cars, the man is yelling about women drivers.      The woman says, 'So, you're a man. That's interesting. I'm a woman. Wow, just look at our cars! There's nothing left, but we're unhurt. This must be a sign from God that we should be friends and live in peace for the rest of our days. '   Flattered, the man replies, 'Oh yes, I agree completely, this must be a sign from God! But you're still at fault.....women shouldn't be allowed to drive.' &
Mazda Sends Hydrogen Rx-8s To Norway
By Tony Borroz April 30, 2009  |  2:32 pm  |  Categories: Alt Fuel Mazda, which has been fiddling with hydrogen cars for a long time, is sending some hydrogen-fueled RX-8 sports cars to Norway. Norway? Yep. Norway loves the stuff enough to build a hydrogen highway, and Mazda is more than happy to send them some cars that run on it.   Although there’s a lot of debate over hydrogen’s near-term viability, the possibilities it presents are, to paraphrase J. Robert Oppenheimer, just too technically sweet to overlook. Hydrogen is the most abundant element in the universe, and it creates the opportunity for true zero-emissions propulsion. But there are some big hurdles to making it work - the distribution infrastructure alone is a big one - and a lot of people say hydrogen remains at least 40 years away. Most of the major automakers have jumped on the battery electric bandwagon, but Hon
Something Stupid
Written March 3, 2009 Sittin in da closet. let my tears fall. I told myself i wouldnt get hurt again. I did sumthing stupid dis morning. my ex couldnt b straight fwd wit me. so i found out da hard way dat she wit sum1 else. it had me broke dwn n cryin all morning. tried 2 call but da bitch just ignored me. so i took da blade 2 my wrist. n if it wasnt 4 my mommy callin me n demandin i go 2 da hospital. I wouldnt b here. now i gotta see a pyscologist. n get da rite medication i need. damn im such a fuckin fool 2 believe dat u was gonna b wit me.
Pnn Bullie
Passing Time.
Derby Day
Derby Day is a huge thing in Kentucky.  I remember being overseas the majority of my military career and being able to watch the derby on Armed Forces Television.  The unique thing of the derby, is the song "My Old Kentucky Home".  Overseas, it rang home hard in my heart when i heard it sang.  Standing there coming in from patrol, from being in the mud, the muck and the guts.  To this day i get just as misty eyed as i do with the Star Spangled Banner.  My Old Kentucky Home will always have a place in my heart, only a true Kentuckian would understand.   My Old Kentucky Home, Good-Night (1853) Words & music by Stephen Collins Foster (1826-1864) 1. The sun shines bright in the old Kentucky home, 'Tis summer, the darkies are gay, The corn top's ripe and the meadows in the bloom, While the birds make music all the day. The young folks roll on the little cabin floor, All merry, all happy and bright: By'n by Hard Times comes a knocking at the door, Then my old Kentucky Home
Slowly Dying Each Day!
I have come to realize that I really do not like myself much! I realized that I do not respect myself much! I realized that I know what real love is and don't have it where it should be! I have realized that a part of me is dying each day but something new is growing and that is true beauty, intelligence and love! Sure I share it with friends but I want more. Perhaps it is selfish of me to want more but we were not meant to be alone! I want to share it with someone who appreciates what I give and will gladly return all those things without thinking! Each day is a new adventure and a new day to take full advantage of life! Life is too short to sit here and waste time wondering...I am going to find out :)
This Does Not Exsist ! !
When I have no one to turn toAnd I am feeling kind of low,When there is no one to talk toAnd nowhere I want to go,I search deep within myselfIt is the love inside my heartThat lets me know my Angels are thereEven though we are miles apart. A smile then appears upon my faceAnd the sun begins to shine.I hear a voice, so soft and sweetSaying, 'Everything will be just fine'It may seem that I am aloneBut I am never by myself at all.Whenever I need my Angels nearAll I have to do is call. An Angel's love is always trueOn that you can depend.They will always stand behind youAnd will always be your friend.Through darkest hours and brightest daysOur Angel's see us throughThey smile when we are happy, and will cry when we are blue.. Thanks for being my Angel my friendI will be there for you until the end.
If You Are Surrounded By Angels
Angels are the guardians of hope and wonder,The Keepers of magic and dreams.Angels watch over you wherever you go,Keeping each day perfectand promising a bright new tomorrow. The motto of all angels is"It is a wonderful life." Wherever there is love,An angel is flying by. Angels help you carry the ball,carry a tune, carry your weightand carry on! Your guardian angel knows you insideand out and loves you just the way you are. Angels keep the world safe for hummingbirdsand butterflies and rainbows in spring.Angels keep it simple and always travel lightAngels love whispering secretsand whistling in the darkWhenever you hear music,an angel is speaking to you. Remember to leave space in your relationshipsso the angels have room to playYour guardian angel helps youfind a place when you feel there is no place to go. Keep a spare angel in your pocketAngels carry high-beam lightsto help you through the darkest hoursWhenever you feel lonely,a special angel drops in for tea. Every time yo
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Angels 0f The Light
Swine Flu
It amazes me that 100 cases of swine flu break out and everyone is running around wearing protective masks, yet a million get aids and people still don't use condoms.  Go figure. Bunny
More Than A Friend Poem
As the sun glows with a pretty sunset, I think of the wonderful girl I have net, as stars shine with a heavenly light, thoughts of her touch have me higher than a kite, As day after day come to an end, I find comfort in knowing she is more than a best friend, as she looks at me in that caring way, There's no need to speak- her actions, they say, As she fills every room with care, you are more than a friend, your the meaning of love, and for you, I will always be there.    
My Feelings On Relationships Etc
Hey Everybody i just want to get something cleared up when i see a relationship status on anyone's profile if that relationship status says in a relationship weather it be a male or female especially female or even if it says married  i respect that in a person so  i wouldn't ever try to break up that marriage or relationship especially if it is a strong marriage or a strong relationship i respect a loyal boyfriend and girlfriend and husband and wife  relationship/marriage so i hope this clears up my feelings on a relationship i respect all relationships including that of mum and dads with their kids or uncles and aunts with their nieces and nephews and granddads and grandmothers with their grandkids and so on from Bruce
Not Moving
so it turns out i wont be moving after all thank goodness for that the landlord was stupid enuff to come by and do the math in his head with out useing a calculator turns out he wanted more then the rent agreement well so he came by later on to say iam sorry so atlest he was able to admit that he fucked up god i wish everything was that easy in life
  Think of the gate in larger terms as an opening in a boundary or secured area where one is not normally allowed access. Is the gate locked or unlocked? Do you have to open it or is it opened for you? Depending on your answers, these questions may reveal some level of tension concerning an opportunity that may exist for you.What is inside the gate: a building, a sacred or taboo place, or a place of tranquillity and safety? You may see yourself going to such a place alone or with a helper for some kind of ritual experience. If you go through the gate with somebody, it may herald that a relationship in your life is moving on to a different level (for good or bad). Are you at a loss for opportunities, or do you feel prevented from making progress towards a particular goal? The gate may reflect potential progress, or the hope thereof, depending upon where it leads in your dream.
Things That'll Win My Heart
Okay, since I posted the last blog about things that piss me off, I figured I should write somethings that'll win me over! You should be happy, I never let people in the inner workings of my masterminding brain, heheh. *clears throat* How to win over the black, icy heart of Lucifer's Muse: ~Remember the little, trivial things about me. ~Don't take me for granted. ~Make me smile atleast once a day. And a laugh goes a long way. ~Surprise me, even though I tell you I don't like surprises. ~Stroke my face in a loving way. ~Hold my hair back when I puke. ~Laugh at my jokes, even when they're lame. ~Come back with a wisecrack when I lay one on you. ~Be a man. Know when it's okay to stand your ground. If you let me walk all over you, by the gods, I will. ~Treat me like a lady. ~Be good to my children. ~Don't be on the computer all day and night. Get out and do something with yourself! Hell, I'll help you work on the car. I'm not above getting dirt under my nails. I know this i
Love Love Is Not Good
my life is beautiful in love is p shit
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All My Boys Are Home
My boys stay so busy with all there activities. Tonight is the first night in a long time, that they are all here, under my roof sleeping. Dad feels right with the world.
Lost Angel
Have you ever walked into a room,and witnessed a miracle?To see such grace, That your heart wants to stopbut races out of control. To fall into such a hole that is filled with such happiness.Yes, its true! An angel does exist. For I was touch by his presence.To be so captivated,No, im in awe! Such beauty, Why does his smile cause me to feel so weak?That Eyes that pierce my soul,His aura is so becoming.I feel that I am in a dream with every second im in his space. I wish to never close my eyes. For now my mind drifts and my soul reaches out to the sky. Suddenly- my eyes blink and truth bares itself to me again.I look and notice that I'd lost my dream once again.
Lock The Door
Nothing matters anymoreI've turned away and locked the door I've turned the key and closed my eyes Let spill the tears and stop the lies I want no more to do with this place I want to leave without a trace To pack my bags and disappear To have no regret to have no fear To abandon all my life long dreams To stop the nighttime nightmare screams To leave behind the pain and despair To move on with existence without a care If only this could all be true To go away and start anew But I must live with these tears and lies So I'll lock the door and close my eyes
The Global Impact Of The Multi-national Pharmaceutical Industry Part 4
In 1955, a drug called Stalinon killed 102 individuals in France.  Between 1957 to 1962, Thalidomide was responsible for 12,000 fetal abnormalities.  145 infants were poisoned with 36 fatally by Morhange in 1972.[1]  Chilling numbers yet distant enough to where they could be, not excused, but explained as ‘primitive’ examples in the history of pharmaceutical testing before such standards as the “Good Clinical Practice” policy.  These were the ‘rough years’ when the industry was still untamed and thus tragic accidents could perhaps occur.  Sadly, this is not the case.  Even in this ‘modern age’ of pharmaceuticals, tragedy can be traced to greed.  During the race in the 1980s to open up pharmaceutical testing and speed up the processes in order to combat the terrifying new virus known as HIV, profit dominated and corruption occurred even at the highest and most trusted levels.  Factor VIII by Bayer Pharmaceuticals had accidently become tain
My Song To You Babe
A Lil Somethin
I ereased all of your pictures todayYour memory still burned in my f@uked headI tried to drink you awayInstead i almost drove off this cliffBut I relized your not worth it anymoreYou treated me like sh!tWhen I was on my death bedI fought to keep my life for youBut you never wanted me to began withFRLW 9-25-09
Mix Thoughts
My thoughts and words are mixed right now I dont know what to think or what to say I dont know if I want to unmix them, cuz Im afraid I might hurt you Hurt you with what I find when I unmix my fucked up mind and turn them into words Words that will hurt anyone I say them too    FRLW  3-16-09
A Poem I Wrote In Treatment
theres no more meaning thers no more time he goes he buys a bag, he buys a dime cant face the world, doesnt even want to try he snorts it up, shoots it in wants his brain to fry dont want to think, dont want to feel he sits out his window, so much time to kill   nothing to do, nothing to see so many things he wanted to be he sits alone in his room nothing to see, nothing to do   needs some money, theres never enough hes comin down, hes out of stuff there goes the bracelette, there goes the ring there goes the rent, there goes the t.v.   nothing to do, nothing to see so many things he wanted to be he sits alone in his room nothing to see, nothing to do   robbing a bank, stealing a car gunshots fired, didnt get very far out of the car running in fright two shots in the head in the middle of the night   nothing to do, nothing to see so many things he wanted to be he sits alone in his room nothing to see, nothing to do  
Time To Get Things Done
So here I sit, thinking, of exactly what needs to be done.  I will accomplish this.  Even if I have to take it from an inheritance that isnt mine.  See, there is a plan, set in motion, that I really can not speak aloud right now, but it requires a bus ticket, and a hell of a lot of pacients from me.  So people are not going to like the idea, but the chocie has been made.  Now, its time to follow through with it.  We will see, cause yea, I love her, and I'mma prove to the world, just how deep that runs.
Can You Foregive Me?
If I never can fix these painful thoughts can you ever foregive me? Will you hold it against me for the rest of my life? How ever much longer it will be? No one knows, not even the doc These painful depressed thoughts are takin over Takin over more and more each day I dont know how to beat them alone anymore Im to afraid to ask anyone for HELP!! Thats my problem ive never been good at askin people for help Instead I suffer by myself and make the depressin worse more everyday Dien inside more and more each passin day Wishin I wont wake up tomorrow   FRLW  9-1-08
Alls I ever wanted was a dad to play catch with and spend time with me But you were just to busy with yourself to take a few minutes a day to talk to me and toss a ball around Now down the road your tryin to make it up me But it might be a little to late for that I can always foregive you and love you But I will never forget how you always said no to me No when I asked you to spend just a few minutes with me If it was what you wanted to do, we did it But if it was what I wanted to do, we didnt do it Ill never be able to say these things to you in person I cant understand why I cant, but I want to So im askin you to PLEASE pick up a ball and toss it around with me before I die here in this hospital bed   FRLW  8-9-08
why does it seem like as soon as the pain stops theres always another fight or a lie ending in sobs if you loved me really why did you do it thats just kinda silly then you got mad and threw a fit when really you were wrong you did the dirty deed and sang her that love song and even planted your seed why do you keep hurting what once wasent enough so you keep flirting so twice you try mu love but end of round two you did one last thing and lied about it too had a little fling this all could've been prevented if you'd just shut up and listen but i was wrong, but look in the end you tried to excuse it as jealous now you see that i was right and she came between us you were blind as night this is hard to deal with dont know whether to cry or throw a fit but ill try its all i can do the damage is already done was it worth it to you do you feel you won are you trying to test me see how much i can take sre you trying to see how long till i break all i a
Gun Control
I think gun control is a stupid way to try and control crime.would you try to rob a house when you know the owner has a gun inside?or would you go to the house next door where the people are anti gun and you know they dont have one?what are you going to do call the cops ? how fast do you think they could get there 15-20 minutes? is that quick enough ? while you quiver like a leaf in your closet listening to whoever is in your house destroy it and take whatever they want.oh its not over yet here they come upstairs you hear them kicking doors open getting closer to you.they kick in your bedroom door take anything that means everything to you. then they kick in the closet door you see them they see you ok now what?do they kill you or just beat you into a bloody mess is that something your willing to gamble on?
It's Time To Get This Done
    SBG TICHA IS UNDER 600,000 FROM LEVELING! Ticha*FuGf2CuddleGoddess*FuEngaged2BigDaddy4LifeHIT THIS BAD GIRL HARD! TICHA RETURNS ALL LOVE! (Fumail her to be sure.)
Ttfn ;
i will probably be absent from here for the next 3 weeks excludeing  the weekends when ill be home friday night till sunday night if you still wish to chat with me or even drop a line your best bet would to have a myspace becasue my nintendo dsi handles myspace better than fubar lol... damn it time comes upon us fast.. ill be in sanford at the tdi wish me luck... that is all...  
This Is A Must Read...go
Threesomes ShareNow, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.Three Names I go by1. Anissa2. Anissa Christine3. I don't have any nicknamesThree Jobs I have had in my life1. Pharmacy Tech2. Elementary School Teacher3. Psychological ResearcherThree Places I have lived1. Michigan (lived there for 34 years)2. Ohio (while I went to college at the University of Toledo)3. Texas (where I have lived for the last 3 years)Three TV Shows that I watch1. Americas Next Top Model2. Project Runway3. LMN moviesThree places I have been1. Toronto, Canada2. Las Vegas, NV3. Lake Tahoe, CA Three people that e-mail me regularly1. The people I work with2. My friend Rusty3. David Three of my favorite foods1. Chinese (Kung Pow Chicken)2. Veggies3. Homemade Pizza (the kind that's better for you)Three things
Singin Simple Man
I'm So In Love
I love him, I love him, I love him, and when he comes i'll follow, i'll follow, i'll follow, he'll always be my hero, my hero, my hero from now until forever, forever, forever.. i will follow him, follow him where ever he may go, there isn't an ocean too deep, a mountain to high i can't reach, he is my destiny.
Love Hurts.....
Love hurts , love scars,Love wounds, and marks,Any heart, not tough,Or strong, enoughTo take a lot of pain,Take a lot of
What The Hell?!
Something I don't quite understand anymore and I'm to the point of not giving a shit anymore. We all know that we live in a piss-poor economy and there really isn't anything that can be done about it. Some of us have to do what needs to be done in order to survive anymore. Others can only do so much then it's back to square one. All of us know that the economy sucks balls but most of us are too damn afraid to admit it to ourselves, not I. I know that the economy sucks and I'm not afraid to admit it. I'm not even afraid of opening my mouth about it either. I don't give two shits that I'm talking to President Obama about the issue but I still wish I had a chance to throw it in Bush's face because I'd straight up tell him to go fuck off and that he shouldn't have even been president. All of you nay-sayers and Bush supporters can blow me because if I was standing face to face with Bush right now, I'd kick him in nuts and punch him right in his big-eared face and not gave two shits about it
Soooo Awesome!
So, The Bamboozle day one  - The secret guest was ..... Journey!!! That was so awesome to finally be able to see them live! Too bad they didn't have a longer set, but they were great regardless.     (the Bamboozle is a rock festival in NJ for those not "in the know" - just an FYI)
When De;pression Slams You Like A Hammer
There is so much missery in this world, and its sad that people have to add to others life and purposely turn it up side down. If you have never experienced depression,  you're lucky.   NO! one can even fathem what its like to  try and keep your self in check. To not jump the gun and wonder if its you or others that are jumping on your ass for nothing. Your scared to even give your views on anything cause it will be taken the wrong way. You just want to crawl inside your self and let the world go by.  Anything is easier then dealing with other peoples shit. Yet here I am on this web site,  reading mumms. and shaking my head at  some very mean ass people with nothing better to do then be little others just for a laugh. Makes me wonder and think,  if they dont have some form of depression,  cause you see them lash out to a compleate stranger. I promised myself not to get to emotional over some mums I read and not take to heart the insults of others.  They dont know me so what word
Waitin Is So Hard To Do~
Well I got up early, was very excited to see jJoy, we have talked many hours on the phone, and in MSN IM, as well as texting like two school kids...   Her flight was to arrive at 10:45AM on Monday, here it was 9AM Monday, I was like pacing, not nervous but so excited, ok ok I will admit I was, its just not the same as talking on a phone, this was like the breaking point..."what ifs" kept creeping up in my mind...   I arrive at John Wayne Airport located in Irvine/Costa Mesa area... I show up exactly at 10:45 AM with parking and all took a bit to get there, waiting around, then looked at the flight times, and my luck shes running late, I thought..."Dont that figure?"....   So she texts me from the plan as it taxis to the hub to unload passengers... Joy: Im here and im so excited... H.: well how much longer? Joy: its taking to much time H. well Im here waiting Joy: people are in the isles H. just wait let it clear Joy: here I come! then nothing for like 15 minutes Im like
Loving, Learning,her...
I head off to the restroom to well hey Im a dude, I had to go potty!   I return still no Joy, Im like well shit!   Im standing near the flight board get a call, "Hey Baby!", where are you, Im right here, I started to discribe to her whats shes wearing, teasing her, laughing as I did, she said "hey baby thats not fair!"...   I said turn around...we locked eyes well kinda...we both wearing sunglasses... she walked to me...I took her into my arms, softly kissed her, whispered into her ear...   "Welcome Home baby girl"   We gathered her baggage, good lord what is it with females?, why so much shit.... We arrived at the hotel, and we barely made it to the room, and Im serious..Barely!   we spent time loving one another, learning one another, we talked about our past relationships, how we felt how they ended up, and both thankful that they did, or we wouldnt have found  US... I watched her sleep, she watched me sleep, its hard to explain, I mean I can honestly say, I found the
Her Puzzeled Look
I told her on wednesday I have somewhere I want to take her, she was all excited, she stated she wanted to take a pic of the "Hollywood" sign , I said, lets go!   We arrived at the store, it was almost hidden, its call TJ Stockroom, its a BDSM clothing and utilities type of store which include jewelry... she was taken back by the things, we spent a lot of time there...I said come here babygirl I want you to take a look at these rings...she looked said this one was nice...we returned to the car, I looked at her, told her...your all I have wanted in a female,   I told her I was nervious, she had a puzzeled look on her face... I took the ring out and said calmly...   Will you marry me?, I will do what it takes to keep you happy for the rest of your life...
Her Departure
well the night before we pre-packed so we could spend as much time together as possible... we missed the flight and had to reschedule her to leave 3 hours later, which I must admit I enjoyed... we spent more time talking.. making plans... when I dropped her off I can say I truly didnt want her to leave, I was torn, I knew she had to leave to get the kids, but I wanted her here with me...   I got out, we kissed and hugged on the curbside of the airport...gave her, her carry on... I pulled away with a completely lonely heart.... I texted her and talked to her nearly all the home, we originally were set up for 90 day turn around, but its going to look more like 5 weeks... I love her so, and cant wait to start my new life...   I love you Joy...
Complicated Confusing Questions And Remarks.
When the curtains rise on the show called life, when does the act really begin? Or do the clowns come out for a warm up act because life is meant to be a comedy? Hilarious actions sent down to the unforgotten angels living in this pond scum of a place called home. They sit upon their thorny chairs waiting for the day when the blood stops flowing and the world becomes dark. But in those days a single celled life form can come up and overthrow powerful creatures no one knew existed. But in the end everything is a fucked up mess and no janitor to clean it up. When the walls of lies come tumbling down and the fortress of frailty becomes unclear, what do the soldiers of hatred do? They stand on their heels and lick their lips for the waiting slaughter about to ensue. Swords raise to the hilt and shields held high to protect.   Life is a game. A challenge. When you fall of the horse, your said to get back up and dust ourself off and climb back up. But what if you fall off the horse and th
Broken Dreams
Broken dreams are falling down on me. Showing me the side of pain I used to know. Never knowing the end of anything. Show the scars I caused to myself everyday. Broken dreams are shifting away. Just because you said your final good-bye. Never again I will never be alone I sit in my lonely room. Just sitting and thinking and drinking away the pain.   Broken Dreams are me Broken dreams are everything Broken Dreams are what I have to feel Broken Dreams are me   She left me the day I died inside a misery Never saw the signs, never saw the sweetless goodbye Shifting around here, feeling so lonely I never thought I would be sitting here passed on the floor But my mind keeps dragging me down into despair Never again to breath the lifeless mentions of her   Broken Dreams are me Broken dreams are everything Broken Dreams are what I have to feel Broken Dreams are me   Final laps of my mind shows the end of me Having nothing left I sit here and cry Broken selfless and
Becasue ....master Says So.......
He is the master and he is going to do everything he wants with the couple who experience hardships in their sexual life, he’s going to give it a new life and his cock is going to help him… Of course I knew what was going to happen but I also saw plenty of emotions on the faces of a young couple – embarrassment, excitement, even fear before the man they knew little about and who demanded to call him “Master”. However, people say I look like a reliable person who can be trusted. This time it worked as well. After a few phrases which didn’t mean much the tension went down a bit. This is Alex. He is just the same I’ve expected. He considers himself intelligent (because he graduated from Harvard) and sexually skillful (because he likes fucking). He obviously loves his wife but in the letter to me he calls her “a bit strained” and says she “isn’t sensual enough”. The situation seems familiar to me. Many women suffer
My Life
I wonder if there are people out there that are the same as me.  I am 26 years old and dealing with the average problems every 26 year old does along with a few others.  These are not major problems in comparison to some others I have seen and trust me I am grateful for that.  For every morning that I wake up and get out of bed I am also thankful.  I may not be the healthiest but there is always someone much worse off then I am so again I am thankful.  I may not be able to do alot of things your typical 26 year old does but hey I get by.  I may need alot of help with my day to day things that everyone does so easily and almost take for granted that they can complete these tasks on their own.  Trust me, I was one of these people.  Nobody realizes how much everything means to them till they don't have the ability to complete the tiniest tasks that they do every second of everyday.  Just to be able to wake up and get out of bed, stretch and say "Hello World!" without any help would be a d
Most of you know my situation if not check out my blog entitled "My Life" and it'll explain a little bit of what my life is like for the most part.  But for now on to the reason of this blog...Dating.   I was always kind of shy around women and never really did the whole dating thing.  I guess I just never had any self confidence when it came down to it.  But, when I was about 19-20 I started to come out of my shell and found it easier to talk to some women.  Then my health went down hill and subsequently ended up where I am today, in a wheelchair.  It seems as though by shyness is back ten fold and I don't know what to do.    Every morning as I go through my daily routine with my aide the same thoughts go through my head...Will I ever find that special someone or will I end up alone?  If I do find someone how will everything work out in the long run?  I can do some things on my own but for most part I need a fair amount of assistance.  If I end up finding that special someone wha
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Im in a really pissy mood i need cheering up! Someone cheer me up damn it
Shattered Heart
Burnt and sold out, Pierced by your soulless blade, Do you know it hurts to hear your name, I curse the pain you've made. Twisted and impossible, You've torn me apart You'll never find these pieces Of my shattered and scattered heart.
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Your the straw to my line, euphoria blowing my mind. Your the lighter to my pipe, I know its wrong it feels so right. Your the candy filled needle to my vain, the withdrawl brings me pain. Your my addiction, my affliction, my heaven, my hell. Keeping you in my heart doesn't do me well.
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Are There No Real Gentlemen Here?
Why is it that eeryone seems to think that they can turn their manners OFF when they turn their computers ON?  I don't understand.  People online will say a million things to others that they'd never say in person!   Here in this "Online Bar," a man will say the wilest things to a woman: "Hey, I'd love to see you naked" or "Hey, do you like to suck kok?" or even "I'll pay you $xx.xx (Fu-Bucks) to let me watch you (on webcam)."  In most cases, if the same man were in a REAL bar with the same woman, andmade the same crude comments, the woman would likely SLAP the shit out of him or have him hauled out by the bar's security.   Why is it different online?  Why are you allowed to hide behind the relative anonymity of the internet while you run around like a dog in heat e-humping every woman in sight?   Well, to all those of you who are unmannered bafoons, I say I've had enough!  I expect the same here online that I would expect in the real world.  If you say something to me here that,
For Every Moment In Your Life
Make sure you keep reading this.... What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of saddness? What would you do if your best friend dies tomrrow and you never got to tell them how you really felt about them? So I just wanted to say even if i dont get to talk to you.....your special to me....I look up to you, respect you and truly cherish you....... You would post this if you truly care.....
Love Or Lust
here's a few more subtle thoughts to taunt the mind:)When two bodies are joined as one,YOu feel every touch from head to toewith passion.Feels like your blood is boilingwith electricity.Seems spiritual,these feelings are so mutual.Electric waves to form air friction.We ignore the wrongs of sin,and we live fully in heavenly orbit.Sweet as sorbet.Your heaven on Earth, give Ceasar the world.For I want only you for all the treasures in the sea,YOur my breath, my soul.Don't want to ever let go.
Secret Pleasures
Secret Pleasures... I did have to pleasure myself love after writing my laststory for you... Naked almost - robe open - legs parted - softness wet with anticipation...On my bed - luxurious sheets - lots of pillows. Silk and satin....burgundy and gold - My long black curls of hair streaming out over the pillows - onthe sheets. Dark room...a quiet room...just the sounds of pleasureescaping my lips... My hands gently rubbing my personal place - my legs trembling - my softnessaching for a man.... A man who will bring me to the edge and back - who can use hiswiles and character to talk his way into my bed.. Whispers of lust and devotion - telling me what he wantsand what he is going to do to me... I feel energy and desire enveloping my body raw sensualenergy from head to toe pulsing through my veins I am truly alive awake and aware of my passion for raw sexsensual pleasures!
Beautiful By Joydrop..
with some added blood
It takes a real man to sit here and call a woman a cunt because she rated his photo a 1. Come on did it hurt you? Did it make you bleed? Do you need a person on a computer to tell you that they find you attractive? Well if so then you need to shut your computer off an go find a life!!
I still get called a fake, like I steal my photos or something. OK, I have a salute. I have Youtube videos. If you're trying to get me on cam, it won't happen. I have the proof. I have so-called "potential clients." Guys that say they're thinking of buying my sets. Um you either do or you don't. Simple. One thing that annoys me also is my fans saying they're going to buy me "something expensive." It's like waving a dog treat in the air. "What will you give me, girl? HUH HUH?" Look, I'm not a hooker. Gifts are supposed to be friendship, not a bartering system. If you want to bang a chick for money, go to
Memorial Day
Memorial Day is held annually on May 4 in the Netherlands. It commemorates all civilians and members of the armed forces of the Kingdom of the Netherlands who have died in wars or peacekeeping missions since the outbreak of World War II. Until 1961, the commemoration only related to the Dutch victims of World War II. Since 1961, the victims of other military conflicts (such as the Indonesian National Revolution in Indonesia) and peacekeeping missions (such as in Lebanon or Bosnia) are remembered on May 4 as well. Traditionally, the main ceremonies are observed in Amsterdam at the national monument on Dam Square. This ceremony is usually attended by members of the cabinet and the royal family, military leaders, representatives of the resistance movement and other social groups. At 8:00 p.m., two minutes of silence are observed throughout the Netherlands. Public transport is stopped, as well as all other traffic Radio and TV only broadcast the ceremonies from 19.00 until 20.30. Since M
Forbidded Sex Stories
Ash.Wee..:i meet pimpy at a club....i see her across the room... go over and tap her ass and say "baby whats up"..she turns to me and kisses me passionatly...marissa sees us from across the room and it catches her intrest...shs nvr been with a girl before....she comes over amd breaks up our kiss and asks if she can join...we say of course b/c she is stunning...we are wasted and deciide to take a taxi back to my place....we have the wine and whiksey at hand...we go to my bedroom and because marisa is new to thiis we lay her first..tak her clothes off andkill all iver her body....we see how in lust sh is so we get soo much more turned on and me and pimpy start kissin...marrissa says "girlsss i neeeeeeeeeed more"...THE END USE UR IMAGINATIONS
This Is The Speech That I Wrote And Read At My Mommy’s Funeral On March 21, 2008!
I never in a million years thought that I would be standing here before you today at my Mommy's funeral. This is the absolute hardest thing that I've ever had to do in my life. My beloved Mommy was much more then just a Mom. She was my life, my entire world and my very best friend. She was the most dedicated, devoted and loving Mom that I have ever known. She would have done and sacrifaced anything for my happiness. My Mom always put my needs above her own. She called me her pride and joy and the light of her life. My Mom would say that the day I was born was the happiest day of her life. She would tell anyone she ever met that I was her entire world and whole reason for living. Everyone always knew that wherever I went my Mommy would be standing right there beside me. Neither one of us could stand to spend even a minute apart and we had lived together since the day I was born until my Mom passed away suddenly and unexpectedly last Thursday. On that day my world forever changed and my
**here Are Some Random Facts About Amy Lynn To Help You Get To Know Me Even Better**
**Yes, I'm very honest...probably too honest, but this is me**I do not like odd numbers. In fact, everything I do has has to be done evenly. Yes, I know it's very OCD like. I still have not mastered the microwave. Either I undercook things or overcook them. Actually cooking in general does not go well for me, but I really want to get it right. Practice makes perfect! My Mom and I always cooked together, so if I had a question I could ask her. Cory's (my last ex boyfriend) Mom bought me a cookbook. Yay! I like to take pictures and I will sit in front of my webcam and take pictures of myself in various poses or different hair styles. Cory said I take way too many pics because I wanted to take pictures of him and I together every day. I can't help it. I love to take pics and then post them online! My senior year of high school (1994) was absolutely the best and I wish I could go back to those days. I'm a big kid at heart and I would much rather be around kids then adults any day. If I go
Should Never Love...
I must look just like a fool herein the middle of the road standing there in your rearview and getting soaked to the bonethis land is flat as it is mean a man can see for a hundred milesSo im still praying I might seethe glow of a brake light. But your wheels just turn, down the road aheadIf it hurts at all you aint showed it yetI keep a lookin' for the slightest sign that you might miss what you left behind I know there's nothing stopping you nowbut I'd settle for a slowdown.I held on longer then I shouldLeaving you might change your mindthose bright lights of Hollywood would fade in time. But your wheels just turndown the road aheadIf it hurts at all you aint showed it yet I keep a lookin' forthe slightest sign that you might miss what you left behind I know there's nothing stopping you now but I'd settle for a slowdown.But your wheels just turn down the road ahead if it hurts at all you aint showed it yet your just a tiny dot on that horizon line come on tap those brakes baby just o
03 May 2009
Validation of my thoughts will come from my words.
Meet Mine And Edwards Daughter Renesmee
My story is unlike any other. Most babies take up to 9 months in a mothers womb until birth. For me it only took about a month after my parents, Edward and Bella Cullen's , honeymoon. I was the reason behind it all. From my mothers insane cravings all the way to her unusual mood swings. Little did most know, it actually was possible for a vampire and a human to conceive a child. Thus, making me a human-hybrid. At first they wanted me outta my mommy thinking it would endanger her life. But my mommy and aunt Rosalie couldn't have it any other way. When I was born it almost did kill my mommy and me. Thankfully my daddy was there to save her and I by getting me out and turning her into a vampire. After my birth I was introduced to everyone, including Jacob. It wasn't until three days or so I was able to finally see my mommy after she had a quick hunt. She was just as shocked as everyone else about my ability. My ability is to let others see whats playing inside my mind just by touching the
Bee Stings
  Subject: Fw: .BEE STINGS ! Do Not Delete .. BEE STINGS !  > >   This information may be something to remember, as this season will soon be here again...> > It might be wise to carry a penny in your pocket while> working in the yard.......... BEE STINGS !> > A couple of weeks ago, I was stung by both a bee and hornet while working in the garden.> > My arm swelled up, so I went to the doctor.  The clinic> gave me cream and an antihistamine.  The next day the> swelling was getting progressively worse, so I went to my> regular doctor. The arm was Infected and needed an> antibiotic.The doctor told me - " The next time you get> stung, put a penny on  the bite for 15 minutes".> > That night, my niece was stung by two bees.  I looked at> the bite and it had already started to swell.   So, I taped> a penny to her arm for 15 minutes. The next morning, there was no sign of a bite.  We decided that she just wasn't allergic to the sting.> > Soon, I wa
No One Knows Me
No one knows the real me. No one knows how I feel. No one knows what I go through. No one knows who I am. If no one knows me why? Why do I bother? Why do I stay? Why do I care what they say? No one knows me so goodnight. Goodnight forever. No one knows me or wants to know me. So when I say goodnight it means goodbye
Back Stabbers
The Friends I Were Talking About Are Back Stabbers  and She's A Phycotic Troublemaker. Her Fiance Sticks Up For Her When She's In The Wrong Which Is Why He Doesn't Know The Whole Truth. She Messed Around With Another Guy While She Was Here And Her Fiance Was At Work. They Blocked Me On Here,But Oh Well Cuz What Goes Around Comes Around And Bites You In The Ass.
New Saying 5-4-09
The Gods in the sky hang their heads in envy with one swipe of my sword and i will end your misery
Something To Talk About
Let's start it off with, are you single?nope Where did you get your last bruise from?IV Have you ever thought you were gonna die?uh... plese dont get me  started on that. to many times. Were you happy when you woke up today?i guess Are you a planner?try to be What kind of mood are you in today?mellow Have you talked to a complete jerk today?not yet... day aint over yet tho Do you love the last person you called?he's my best friend, of course!!! How late did you stay up last night and why?till about 1045 i think... i was 2 sheets to the wind and talking to my best friend How many of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends are with someone else now?i could totally care less What kind of phone do you have?sidekick How much cash do you have on you right now?not enough lol Do you like to cuddle?very much so!! i miss it horribly right now.... What jewelry are you wearing?rings, necklace, watch and bracelet How many people on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with?just one
hi be nice to the people on your way up because you need them on your way down
What The ???
how do you navigate this dam place ??????
Have I Forgotten
Have i forgotten on who i am or have i forgotten on what i do? Too many question i ask myself so i seek answers from many but all have failed. Seems there are no answers for me in this world maybe in the afterlife but who am i to judge well things must come to an end but the real answer is are you ready to tkae th challenge?
Transformers 2: Revenge Of The Fallen - Official Final Trailer [hd]
How To Have A Forever Love
Measure me not with your man-made measures …For I would never do such things to you …For I have known the heart of new-love …And it transformed my world anew. How might I prove the truth of this? …That it is in giving that we receive …That it is in loving that we know true-love …Finding no means then
A Sutra To Watch Rocks Grow By
I have been watching rocks grow and trees smile And drinking tea from an empty cup. And I have discerned that... Past the measure of time’s final footsteps… Past the ebb and flow of the ocean’s last tide… After the final arching of the last cloud’s tear… I shall still long for your smile. Is it not enough?
Ten Thousand Tears
Far from the clouds that Covered the home of my youth, (The poet mused with eyes wide open, After thinking for ten thousand years), I have seen much and made sense of it… … Streets bright after the rain, …Mountains which hide the blazing sun, …Black woods where no mortal dwells, …The sadness within the eyes of Death,
Earthly Angel
In you there lies a part Of that first dependence; Love that found itself Because it was a part of us And not related to the actors Who might have played upon lusts Indifferent to our ne
Walk Of Shame.
I live in a small college town, which is great because it greatly increases the amount of random shit you are a witness to. It’s 8:45 Sunday morning. I’m driving to church. It’s cool, maybe 50 degrees, overcast and a misty rain is falling. A young lady is walking towards me. She’s a big one, and I notice her from a distance. She is wearing a slightly outdated emerald green formal. She’s a college sophomore or junior, definitely not a high school girl and when I say, “She is a big one”, I mean five five or five six, two thirty, at least. This time of year is spring formal for many of the fraternities. I wasn’t in a fraternity in college so I don’t know how many of these things work, but I don’t think it is supposed to end this way. She doesn’t look happy. She looks fucking pissed. Here hair is completely disheveled, half out of last night’s upsweep. Heels in one hand, purse and keys in the other. Her strand of fa
Come On You Know You Want To!
Skud has autos on! Skud☠Metal☠Grey {Savage Executioner @ The Gallows}@ fubar now go rate his ass and level him, and level you while you're at it! he's only level 21 right now, help a guy out! ~Sin
Rub My Nipples
A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and told the clerk she wanted a refund for the toaster she bought because it won't work. The clerk told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Suddenly, the woman threw her arms up in the air and started screaming, 'RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES!' The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager in front of a growing crowd of customers. The manager comes to the woman and asks,'Ma'am what's wrong?' She explained the problem with the toaster, and he also told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air and screamed, 'RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES, RUB MY NIPPLES!' and doing so draws an even bigger crowd! In shock, the store manager pleads, 'Ma'am, why are you saying that?' In a huff, the woman says, 'BECAUSE, I LIKE TO HAVE MY NIPPLES RUBBED WHEN I'M BEING SCREWED!' The crowd broke into applause and her money was quic
Halo By Beyonce
Remember those walls I built Well, baby they're tumbling down And they didn't even put up a fight They didn't even make up a sound I found a way to let you in But I never really had a doubt Standing in the light of your halo I got my angel now It's like I've been awakened Every rule I had you breakin' It's the risk that I'm takin' I ain't never gonna shut you out Everywhere I'm looking now I'm surrounded by your embrace Baby I can see your halo You know you're my saving grace You're everything I need and more It's written all over your face Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won't fade away I can feel your halo halo halo I can see your halo halo halo I can feel your halo halo halo I can see your halo halo halo Hit me like a ray of sun Burning through my darkest night You're the only one that I want Think I'm addicted to your light I swore I'd never fall again But this don't even feel like falling Gravity can't forget To pull me back to the ground again Feels like I've been awake
Judge Me
Like I said, you ether like me, or you dont. You ether understand me, or you just dont get me. I work hard to support my kids and give them what they need. I would never NEVER choose anything over them. They are my life. You fuck with my kids, you just fucked with the wrong bitch. I am a pretty easy going person, but when you go far and beyond and try to mess with my children, I will hunt you down and make you wish to god you never where born. I love my children with all of my hart and soul and would do anything for them. I make sure they have a nice roof over there heads, clean cloths on there backs, and good food in the bellies. So dont try to justify to me what you may think is morally right. What I find to be right is, I have an good job that i have been at for a long time, I pay my taxes, and my bills. I make sure they have before anything or anyone else.
Seryoga & Azad- Dva Kaizera
In the silence she sits fleeting thoughts in her mind Awaiting the destiny that lay before her Cherishing every image of him in her mind Longing for the day that she can call upon him to be with her Yearning for the feeling of her hand rapped tightly into his Wrapping each other in a sweet embrace she longs to be his Awaiting the touch and the feeling of her breath on his neck To be able to grasp the feeling of the emotion he has been yearning for his whole life Slowly and steadily she approaches this mystery she would like to call her own Knowing in her heart that this is what she has truly been longing for The feeling is indescribable as he approaches this beautiful woman for the first time in his life Feeling as though he has yet to be complete without her Within this sweet embrace she realizes that this is the man that she was made for With tears in her eyes she whispers I love you
Shroud Of Shadows (drh)
soulful eyes fixated upon nothing more than a fury of emotion that pours from them with a resonance that mutes even the godsso still there as the world fades around you,  deafened by the screams of rage as your inner peace is raped with iniquitysilent now, you utter not a sound but the breath of your warm sigh the only thing to leave your lips.  pressing your fingers to your mouth you attempt to hold even it insideheld in a momentembraced by the demons seeking to diminish your light and like dirty thieves coveting your joy - you appear a rock though a closer look exposes the brokenness behind the exoskeleton of the man that you once knewshrouded in the shadows that drape upon your form the cool brush of the breeze reminds you that you are - and hence you return to the world you know and face it outwardly with the mask of smiles you wear so well.
I encounter so many people on a daily basis and almost always I can find something that I like about each of them.I do the best that I can to interact and be sincere and honest to people, it is a quality that has seemindly been misplaced over the generations in people and I really wish could be brought back.I am a sucker for love and romance and my desire to be overwhelmed with romance and affection is often mistaken for something more devious.The truth of the matter reamins that if I say I love you I really do - there is something about you that draws me in and makes me yearn to keep you in my life. This means that I care  - that I will worry about you and go to great lengths to care and nurture the bond that we have or are forming.I dote affection to my friends on a regular basis. It is generally a feel-good thing to do. Compliments make people feel good and I think it is no crime to make someone smile if you are able.It takes alot for me to cast someone out from my life. If you mana
Just To Let Some Ppl Know
i wont be on fu much anymore.....i got a new job that requires alot of my time and i just cant take some of the things going on anymore. ill have someone getting on everyday to use my 11s til my vip runs out then depending on how i am then ill decide if i wanna delete the acct or not. i have met some wonderful people on here and some people who i have came to love, but like always things dont work out and shit goes bad....its time for me to get away for a while....ill be checking my page like once a week but prolly wont be on but long enough to reply to those and be done with it for then...ill prolly come back for a bit in like 2 months or so but for now i have to do me and be done with all this shit.
Goin to be goin up to sacramento on Thursday (7 May) and will be gone from 7-18 may. I'm goin up there for my bros bachelor party and wedding. Should be good times
Hey My Peeps
I am sitting here in da Bar lots of nice ladies downing a cold Miller Lite and watching WWE Raw ,, Oh Hell Yeah !!!!!
Hug A Mexican!
Happy Cinco de Mayo! Yeah I know most of you don't give to shits about Cinco de Mayo except to have an excuse to choke down some chips and salsa, Coronas, tequilla and a mojito or two BUT since you gunna use it as an excuse to get loaded at least know why. The holiday of Cinco de Mayo, The 5th of May, commemorates the victory of the Mexican militia over the French army at The Battle of Puebla in 1862. It is primarily a regional holiday celebrated in the Mexican state capital city of Puebla and throughout the state of Puebla, with some recognition in other parts of Mexico, and some U.S. cities with a significant Mexican population. It is not, as many people think, Mexico’s Independence Day, which is actually September 16.
Carguy Wtf?!
Carguy24$O...: whats up haottie can i get a bling i am trying to build my profile and am new and dont get anything ----------------------------------------------- HAHA! BLOCKED!
Picture Perfect
You make my head bubble, with sparkles every night, and keep me floating high, when things aren't alright. The world seems to dim, and stars fill the sky. Sing softly to me, my dear, the lover's sweet lullaby. Your words make me smile. I hope these do the same, so I can capture the moment, and put it in a frame. Then hang it in my heart, where you'll always stay, and we can hide together, and make everything okay. Waves crash against cliffs. You crashed into my world, and I hope you stay forever. I want to always be your girl.
As the rain hits our faces I look into your eyes I see the blue depth It's the color of the skies The rain soaks our bodies Through our clothes to our skin I start to get cold And my mind starts to spin Your lips gently touch mine As your kiss melts my heart I think I've fallen in love So we can't be apart I searched for love And you're what I found Your simple kiss makes me forget everything As I block out all sound Your kiss is so gentle Acting as if i would break But you have cured me From my last heartache We listen to our heartbeats As love and rain collide As long as I'm happy I'm forever by your side
Deathes Angel
Tears Seep Bruise deep Standing still In a crimson storm Frozen candle and melting blood Winds of disguise flowing with rage Passion gush through vein Broken heart Lost dreams Dead Soul
U Dnt Kno Me
Every time I look, I am standing alone. Poetry is all I can call my own. Words fill the page, but don't fill the space That can only be filled with a familiar face. Every time I look, I've lost another friend. Where does this path of lonely end? Tears fill my eyes, but don't heal the pain. Why does life leave this stain? Every time I look, she is still dead. Thoughts of that night rushing through my head. Lies slip so easily, behind this shell. All the things you think you know so well. Every time I look, a stranger looks back. Running, but today there's only one track. You think you know me, but I'm not the same. The girl inside wasn't born with this name.
I Love Lamp
So, I have a theory. If your physical appearance resembles that of someone you want to be with they will be attracted to you. What I mean by this is: alot of the time you see a person with tattoos in a relationship with someone with tattoos, a person that dresses in expensive clothes with someone who wears expensive clothes, etc. So I figured if I got piercings maybe I would attract some people with piercings.   Has my theory worked?   No, not that I've noticed lol but I like my piercings anyway.
Wanna Work @ Club Paradise ?
Thank you for your interest in applying for a position here at Club Paradise. Below you will find a simple application that you can email to us where we will consider all applications. Here are examples of the Job Descriptions so that you can better understand the duties of each position. DJ: Using the SAMS Broadcast software, play music through the lounge to entertain the listeners. Actively monitor the request line page and communicate with the Head DJ, in regards to any schedule conflicts. Above all else have fun. The more fun the DJ has the more fun there is in the room. Greeter: While in the lounge, actively engage people as they enter, and continue to make everyone feel welcome and a part of the family while also trying to get visitor’s to hit the subscribe button. Make everyone feel welcome and have fun. Promoter: Promotion is an all encompassing task, from going to people's pages and leaving comments, to talking about the lounge as you interact with others on fubar.
Immortal Beloved
IMMORTAL BELOVEDThe First Letter   July 6, in the morningMy angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time - Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine - Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be - Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I - My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o'clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to
Intense Life Changing News
On May 1st my mom went to get an MRI of her chest because Dr. Mallon (her ortho) wanted to try to figure out why she has been in so much pain and stuff. It even looks like her rib cage is all twisted or something. Iunno, anyways...Since we missed the 2 phone calls that day an hour after she had gone for the scan  we didn't receove the results until yesterday.Unfortunately the radiologist believes the tumor she now has is coming from the lung and causing destruction of the bones in the area.Today we're going to go see a thoraxic surgeon at about 3:00 so I guess there will be more updates then.Either way we are both staying positive that this isnt going to be too serious of a problem one way or another.Until then I plan to spend more time with her and do everything around the house, in the yard, etc. so that she doesn't have to. I'm also getting intensely involved in focusing on writing my book(s). But there will be more about that later.
Dom Deluise Dies At 75.
Dom DeLuise, the jovial comic who enlivened such madcap films as Cannonball Run, Blazing Saddles, and Spaceballs, has died. He was 75.
live life to the fullest n ever looking back on the past
Dewdrops On The Grass
DEWDROPS ON THE GRASS a poem of remembering by john p reedWritten from January 2007 through February 2008                                                                                   I thought of pearls on a string, of a seagull dip-skimming the Sea of Time  flap dip - flap - flap - dip - flap - dip - dip this came out...                                                                                    Dedication  This piece speaks of and toa love that I have always knownthat I have always been a part of.This is dedicated to her and she knows it.++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++   Outside of this time-frame, there is only us.Speak or type - feel or imagine - dreaming or awake, the words are the same - we are one in this loving and knew it when we first traded words. Our world was immediately circumscribed into us, and them. Ever since then, we have danced together, motes in the simple continuum of YHVH, knowing always that while we may wish our love to be carnal at times, our lo
Someday In The Future
Someday in the Future “Thank you, this seat is fine.” “Yes, the weather is nice this afternoon, all grey and cold like that, definitely puts you in a wintry frame of mind.” “No thanks, I think I’ll start with a cup of tea, Earl Grey if you have it.” “No, no thanks, just tea while I read the menu please.” “Thank you, no cream I’m not much on milk products, thanks. Yes, I’m ready to order, I think I’ll start with a bowl of soup, the vegetable beef please, and then I’ll have the Turkey Club sandwich. French fries please no salt on them if you would. And another cup of tea until the food comes, than a glass of ice water, thank you. “For dessert? Oh – I’ll have the cherry pie please, my mother always made cherry pie, and it’s my favorite. Did you know, you are one of the last restaurants to serve regular pie? I know all the other places say they have pie, but then when you ask
No Title
Completely consumed by emotions and a thought Mind and spirit together working a vision that comes to naught a shadow of happiness lurking somewhere in the room cannot stay long as its swept away with a nice straw broom thoughts come and go just as the seconds tick tock things change at every level just like the hands on the clock never the same time for more than the moment never the same person for more than the same moment.....
A True man does not need to romance a different girl every night, A true man romances the same girl the rest of his life..
My Hospital Stay
Ugh lol Just wanted to let everyone know where I have been. I am very sorry for not returning drinks and such, I will be working on it all day. I just spent the last 28 hours in the hospital with a bleeding ulcer. :( Yuck! But it has been cuterized, and I'm all better and home now. Thank you all for the warm wishes! Your the best! :) Lots of Love!
I Got Fubar Bucks 9million
make  a deal with me onbling pack if you want fubar bucks
Songs Through The Years (1966 Top-100
The Top 100 Songs of 19661.    The Ballad Of The Green Berets     SSgt Barry Sadler2.    Winchester Cathedral     New Vaudeville Band3.    Cherish     Association4.    (You're My) Soul And Inspiration     Righteous Brothers5.    We Can Work It Out     Beatles6.    Monday, Monday     Mama's & Papa's7.    Summer In The City     Lovin' Spoonful8.    Reach Out I'll Be There     Four Tops9.    The Sounds Of Silence     Simon & Garfunkel10.    You Can't Hurry Love     Supremes11.    When A Man Loves A Woman     Percy Sledge12.    My Love     Petula Clark13.    You Keep Me Hangin' On     Supremes14.    Hanky Panky     Tommy James & Shondells15    Wild Thing     Troggs16.    Paint It Black     Rolling Stones17.    Paperback Writer     Beatles18.    96 Tears     Question Mark & Mysterians19.    Last Train To Clarksville     Monkees20.    Strangers In The Night     Frank Sinatra21.    Poor Side Of Town     Johnny Rivers22.    Lightin' Strikes     Lou Christie23.    These Boots Are Made For Walki
I feel temporary to your world.... You have the strangest effect on my world.... I feel out of sorts and full of loneliness....... You say you want me for ever yet make me see temporary.... Your eyes say it all...... Maybe in another time and place we wouldn't have been so TEMPORARY
Kreative Kissable Kissers Kiss Me!
kissable kisses and kissers alike kreate krafty kisses and kiss with delight kiss with a smile kiss in a pile kiss all the while and kiss while you wish kiss with eyelashes kiss on the lips kiss with sunglasses and make your hips switch kiss when your krying when your lying in green grass and when your angry kiss my ass kiss with courage kiss with pride kiss with lovely lips painted like wine kiss like kreative kissable kissers do kiss me, and I'll kiss you kiss me here kiss me there kiss me in the rain or on a train or in a plane but never, never, make it plain kiss me soft or in a loft kiss me high kiss me low kiss me with my hair in bows kiss me sweetly kiss me neatly kiss me beneath the sea kiss me with your eyes shut tightly kiss me slow try to delight me kiss me fast and first and last in future and past with my hand to grasp where my necklace clasps and while people applaud kiss me just kiss me before all my kisses are gone.
If Yur My Friend U Can See Them
€ If u  like come look .. got to worn u thow.... There Hot
The Mask She Wears
She wears it like a mask Each time she comes to me, A shroud to cloud my eyes, A veil I cannot see. But her mask is just a ruse, An aspect of her game. It hides the girl behind The fiction of her name. That name is but a symbol Of the role she plays for me, A promise unfulfilled, A hope of what could be. Removing all between us, Clothed only in her name, Her touch is my illusion, Setting heart and loin aflame. A mirage within a dream, A ghost of fragile youth, She is fantasy. And fire. And beauty born of truth. Her name is but a name, A symbol, just a mask - Concealing what I see, Revealing what I ask.
Survey, Need Done By Tomarro Please Help Lol please take it lol would be awsome
Caa #98
ANother dear friend has ciontacted me and her son also needs angel prayers, angel healing and angel love.   Please sen out emergency prayers for him as well as all the other sons and daughter who may need our prayers.   Doc
How Every Women Should Be Treated
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. .... To every guy that she cried in front of... To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes..... To every guy that would give his seat up... To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every guy that reassure
*wait... What?*
How is it possible to get along PERFECTLY with someone that you've never even met?  Wow... this is awkward... but I LIKE IT!
A Note From The Dalai Lama
Now, there are many, many people in the world, but relatively few with whom we interact, and even fewer who cause us problems. So, when you come across such a chance for practicing patience and tolerance, you should treat it with gratitude. It is rare. Just as having unexpectedly found a treasure in your own house, you should be happy and grateful to your enemy for providing that precious opportunity.-His Holiness the Dalai Lama
Meant To Be
The separation is too muchI want to be in his arms, to feel his touchEvery minute of every dayWith him is where I'll beWith him, where I'll staySeconds ticking by slowly, heart beats frozen in timeOne thoughtless word turned to rhymeSeductive whispers, soft and gentle kissesA moment of thinking, wondering wishesAgony of waiting, dreams and time slowly fadingFrozen rain masking the painThe pain of missing himThe sun in my sky, the rainbow in my eyesJust down to moments left, no more fighting the criesI can feel him now, thinking of meThe light in his sky, the one he can seeA gentle embrace, a comforting hug just happens to be my everyday drugMy personal moon, rising in the sky soonAs I wait..seconds move byTime still frozen, meant to lastIt won't be long now, hopefully it will be fastThe voice I need, waiting for meAll is frozen in place, just as it was meant to be....
Fuckin Hilarious
20 rules for drunk dialing 1. Only drunk dial when you are drunk. Everything else is falseadvertisement.2.It is okay to call someone 27 times in one night. If you don'tremember it, it didn't happen.3.If you are going to drunk dial a family member, say something nice. Ex. "Mom I'm in McDonald's and they're playing our song. I love you"4.Dirty talk while drunk dialing is always preferred. Who doesn't want to hear your best raspy, phone sex voice at 3 in the A.M. asking to bend them/you over something.5.Voicemails are always better. This way your friend can let theirfriends have fun at your expense for days, even weeks to come.6.Drunk texting is alright... If you are prepared to read what youwrote the next day when you are sober.7.It is definitely a good idea to call all of your exes and remind them that you were the best lover they've ever had and everything they know, they learned from you. This way you can sleep well at night.8.You can also call this same ex and let her/him know,
Fubar Stalker Alert   He think to solve problems you need to fight and not work things out . He is a drug addict and abuses alcohol . I really feel for his parents they have gone through a living hell with him . He was just recently kicked out of court ordered rehad for fighting. So if you dont want this kind of person on your page please block him .      
Knee Surgey
ok so last monday i went in and had my right knee scoped basically i had all my torn cartlidge taken out . I went to the the doc for my follow up visit and found out that i have partial bone on bone and no dcartlidge left in my right knee so wich means within the next 10 yrs i will be going in for a knee replacement which should be fun NOT.
Why can't I control my heart? Why do I always screw up every relationship I've ever been in? Why do I love so hard yet walk away. Why? Why can't I just find a girl who loves me for who I am? Why can't I find some kind of happiness in my life? Why am I crying when I write this? Why? Why should I not delete my profile here at Fubar? Everyone says it is just a game. Why play games? Life is too short and love too hard to find to play games. Why was I such a fool to think I could find love here? Why? Why do I think I will actually find love? Why don't I just realize that I was made to walk this earth alone? Why???
Convo Between Me And An "old" Friend
Okay This is within Trillian, trillian is an Instent Messenger Servous that allows afew other Messenger servers to be all in one area, the one i have is for YIM, MSN, AOL, and ICQ. i used to have icq but had to delete it, i dont have aol, but i do have MSN and YIM. the reason for me to get trillian is because of my MSN fuxing up. And thats why i have it, no idea why im explaing why maybe cuz of the Time stamps. LMAO, but anywho. They guy that im talking to is an "old" friend, thats not really a friend anymore cuz of his abusiveness of how others are different in their own lifestyles, and no this isnt the first time this type of convo happened this confo happened May 6, 2009 around 10-11am (check time stamp, its in millitary time i think). This convo is the 2nd convo with him about how i should live my life, as you can see im stubbern, LMAO! [09:19] guardianengel4ever: haveu learned anything bout the way the world works yet or not[09:19] *** Auto-response sent to guardianengel4ever: I
New Life
My husband passed away back in June of 2008, this month I have gone ahead and begun a new life with a new man and am living with him. We've known eachother for 6 months now-so, it's not rushing into anything. I waited until long after the passing of my husband to begin going into the dating world again. It's scary living with someone again-but, it's a natural flow to the relationship that I'm having. Everyone have a blessed day-and hope to talk to each and everyone of you soon.
5/6/09 Dilbert
Awesome Mom :)
Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body... I didn't know how special it
Gold Watch
"As a symbol of our gratitude, we have created this special gold watch to serve as a reminder of your many years with the company. It needs a lot of winding up, is always a little late, and every day at quarter to five, it stops working." 
shapedby john p reed2009.04.28   now is a momentsliced from eternityby our attentionlooking forwardthe unknowns we graspcannot be held, notin hope of more than we arein fear of less than we will be the now that we share andchoose to so foolishlywaste trying to shapewhat we will haveis also changed bythat hope of morethat fear of lessof what is not, yet, our now has becomechanged by, shaped bywhat we hope, we fearthe ghostly memoryof tissue promises and liesthat reshape the momentswe will slice from eternity asthe next moment rushes to us
First Job Hunting
Recently, our 18-year-old daughter started hunting for her first real job. She spent an afternoon filling out applications, leaving them on the kitchen table to finish later. As I walked by, a section of the application on top jumped out at me. Under "Previous Employment" she wrote, "Baby sitting." In answer to "Reason for Leaving" she wrote, "Parents came home."
Another One
i was a lost soul wondering around in the dark trying to find my way. then you came into my life. and the darkness went away. i felt like i had found what i was searching for. but now your gone out of my life and im cank in the dark not even trying to find my way. i just sit and cry out your name with tears of blood running down my cheeks. hopeing one day that my angel comes back to me and the light and the joy i felt will be back again also
Cradle Of Filth- Nymphetamine
Lead to the river Midsummer, I waved A "V" of black swans On with hope to the grave And though Red September With skies fire-paved I begged you appear Like a thorn for the holy ones Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced when you left me A rose in the rain... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again Bared on your tomb I'm a prayer for your loneliness And would you ever soon Come above onto me? For once upon a time From the binds of your lowliness I could always find the right slot for your sacred key Six feet deep is the incision In my heart, that barless prison Discoulours all with tunnel vision Sunsetter... Nymphetamine Sick and weak from my condition This lust, this vampyric addiction To Her alone in full submission None better... Nymphetamine Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... Nymphetamine girl. Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... My Nymphetamine girl. Wicked with your charm I
Dark Lotus- In Bloom
[Shaggy 2 Dope] We in bloom, many thoughts rearrangingpollen's everywhere, that's the reason that we're changingFlourish in the rise of the new timesTaking lives, nobody survivesYou got your hatchet, throw it in the skyFive petals appear right before your eyesSo don't get attatched to your head on your neckCause I'll disconnect, Dark Lotus in effect[Blaze Ya Dead Homie] Rise out the water for the first worst nightmareLotus petals bloom and take shapes off in the night airHere we got the wicked to share and didn't nobody careTil they see the shadow creeping, now they all scaredGone but not forgotten, in the dark they leave us rottingWith the crosses on our face that's thesymbol of the doubt rhymingDark Lotus return, the reason is the wordThe season for the sheperd is now to lead the herd[Chorus] This is the returning, everything you tried to buryIn between the patch of roses makesthe Lotus rise, Lotus riseWinds of deadly ages makes the blood drip down the pagesAnd between the dying rose
My Days", My Moments.
been busy lately.. and my world here and there has different stories.... but i guess, i am happy these days".  my life here at home is smooth sailing' so far, ceasefire!!! no arguements, no discussions..   i am living pretty quiet these days.. and am happy too, coz , i am learning how to really assert myself to do the things that i want.without really asking my hubby's approval".. and i am glad he is starting to let me do things that i feel  i enjoy doing".  so i wake up early morning, send my kid to school, have my breakfast.. rush to my class, then  spend few minutes chatting, talking non sense with my classmates, and rush to the gym for an hour of aerobics.. then again rush to  do some shopping, by 11 i shd be home...  a little bit earlier than cinderella's curfew,... and of course i will be busy cooking lunch... within one hour, i shd have my lunch ready  coz my son will be coming home from school , and u know, his lunch must be on time.. or else, he will  not really compromise o
My Attitude Adjustment
working on the rest of this message and will post later
Never Be Me Again
For those of you who don't know yet, after 2 years on the fu, i have officially retired as a fubar DJ & as lounge staff.. I have accomplished everything in the lounge world that one could on here, I have put out tunes and managed some of fu's top lounges, as well as owning a top lounge myself, not quite sure what ima do on the fu from here on out, but i will be droppin in from time to time to the lounges were a lot of my fam is... i have been considering guest dj'in, but if i did, it would be very rare and depend on the lounge, come holla atcha boi.. Nati ~
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as i sit writeing this tonite .Iam so happy to have my tiny dancer in my life and in my arms ...........she sits down loading as i sit writeing this ... she is so sweet i will never know what she sees in me but i do know that i have never felt love like this .... nor has anyone ever shown love to me this way ...........tiny i love you  you are my light .my flame,my soul ....... may life always be on your side
Where Do I Go?
Where do I go? Have you ever been so lost?Lost so far within your selfScared and frightenedNot knowing which direction to go?Confused on which path to takeEach could have a different resultOne path could lead to happinessThe other could lead to pain and despairJumbled thoughtsPressing your mindScreaming thoughts and demandsPeople judging and criticizingEvery error you makeTelling you different pathsThey feel you should makeIn the end it's up to youTo choose which way to goStay on the well traveled pathOr choose where othersAre too afraid to go   Carla K.
Trapped Inside
Compressed feelings,Stored deep down insideScreaming to get outYearning to be freeA little child trapped insideFilled with great painWeeping in fearFear of the unknownShe is scared and frightenedShe wants so muchFor someone to hold herAnd let her know she is lovedShe has been wronged by the worldWronged by those she trustedHurt by cruel wordsTorn by constant liesNo one knows where she isNo one cares that she hidesShe is hoping somedaySomeone will dig down deepAnd let her frightened self out   Carla K.
Not Giving Up...
Foolish mistakesEndless tearsWishing and hopingyou could be hereI was a foolwho just didnt see I threw away the lovethat was right in front of meendless apologiesjust arent enoughI guess I deserve thisall because of trustyou were always therewhenever I was blueI cant believe I thought you weren't trueI'll always love youI'll always be hereI'll keep hoping and prayingthat there is still a chance hereI refuse to give upbecause I love you soI refuse to believethat you aren't the oneI hope you seeHow much I'm sorryand I hope you find your way back to me
Closing Shop
Walking into the mist leaving all in a stream as I stop and cross the bridge No more words stories or poems nothing just the howling abyss guiding my thoughts and my soul Wandering in the dark but strangely feeling at home Numbness is not bad at all no pleasure no pain nothing clean nothing that carries a stain Given it all i got but still cannot depart it has burned so hot in my soul i swear there are blisters on my heart  
My Scottish Name
Alastair Macnab
My Life
My Plan...Alright...most know that I am done with school...except for the CLEP test that I am studying hard for. This test should take care of the 3 credits of science that I am missing so that I can get my Bachelor's Degree. My plan is to move to Amarillo TX. Those that know me are probably saying...WHAT?! Yes, I hate Texas, but this time around (yes my second try for Texas) things seem to be falling into place. I am going to be applying for a case worker position. I know this isn't juvenile probation, but I cannot get that type of position without experience. So, we all have to start somewhere. I knew when I chose my career goal and my major that I would not be making a truckload of money, but that is not why I chose this. I am excited to venture forth into my new life and I can't wait to see the changes that God has in store for me.My bf...Part of the reason for moving to Amarillo is for Mr. Chris (he soo loves it when I call him that! JK). :D :D :D that's me grinning from ear to ea
Treatments 2....
I went through my 4th treatment today, it sucks so damn bad. They are going to  do the last one in the O.R. on the 13th of this month now tomorrow I have to go in for my chemo which sucks as well, sitting there with nothing to do an really none to talk with, anyways I can not wait till this is done and over with....   Much love always from your friend Jaime!
Even In Death
Give me a reason to believe that you're gone I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong Moonlight on the soft brown earth It leads me to where you lay They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home I will stay forever here with you My love The softly spoken words you gave me Even in death our love goes on Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love They don't know you can't leave me They don't hear you singing to me And I can't love you, anymore than I do And I can't love you, anymore than I do People die, but real love is forever.
Darkness Falls
Disclaimer: This was written from pure creativity and is NOT a reflection of how I am currently feeling as previous writings have been...Enjoy!   Darkness Falls   Darkness falls like a curtain covering the windows of my mind, Blocking out the light that once brought a happiness you rarely find. What was once a pleasant place to dwell;
Hussein Obama is a liar and a fraud. He lied about Air Force I flying low over NYC for a photo op coz the a**hole won't show the pics! He lied about being not being born in Keny coz he will not present evidence to back it up, like a birth certificate and school records.
Eat This Not That
On our new Eat This, Not That! Web site, we rounded up the best foods to munch on when you need a mental boost—and found studies that show, in fact, that you can be up to 200 percent more productive if you make the right eating choices. Stock up on these items to halt mental decline, jog your memory, sharpen your senses, improve your performance, activate your feel-good hormones, and protect your quick-witted sharpness, whether you’re 15, 40—or not admitting to any age whatsoever!  FOR SHORT-TERM MEMORYDrink This!: COFFEEFresh-brewed joe is the ultimate brain fuel. Caffeine has been shown to retard the aging process and enhance short-term memory performance. In one study, British researchers found that just one cup of coffee helps improve attention and problem-solving skills.  Not That!: ENERGY DRINKS/TOO MUCH COFFEEEver heard of the concept “too much of a good thing”? If you OD on caffeine—too many cups, a jolt of caf from the late afternoon onward,
Going For A More Healthy Weight For Me Again..
Well, I have been noticing some weight gain over the last seven months or so after my extreme weight loss goals that I accomplished last year in the first six months of 2008. I managed to go from 230 pounds last year in February to just under 200 pounds by my 30th birthday last year, and than by mid June, beginning of July I made it to between 175 and 180 pounds.. I felt much better after the weight loss especially since my acid reflux dissappeared after dropping below 200 pounds. In the last couple weeks I noticed some acid reflux again, and realized that I am at 210 pounds. My goal is to get myself to drop at least 10 pounds by my birthday again this year which is just over two weeks away. I have started as of Tuesday night this week with similar to what I did last year with control of intake on how much food I am eating. I had 350 calories approx. in 24 hours, and will probably have similar for the next 24 hours, and so on and so forth. Still eating some of the same foods I have b
Always And Forever
If one day u feel like cring...Call me. I don't pomise that i will make you laugh but i can cry with you.If one day u want to run away-dont be afaraid to call me. I don't pomise to ask u to stop...But i can run with you.If one day u don't want to listen to anyone...Call me. I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet. But one day if you call...And there is not answer...Come fast to see me.Maybe i need  u.                  Remember everone needs a friend don't ever leave the one you love fot the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Up For Grabs Again ;)
      Wanna own me????   I'm up for auction again!!!   Come check out the goods!   Click the pic to place your bid!   Brought to you by yours truly... ~*~Trippy Bitch~*~R/L Fiance to Her Beloved Pain Puppet~*~Member of Fubar's Finest Melons~*~@ fubar
Well Duh
budget cure: Marijuana taxes?In this desperate economy, some argue that legalizing and taxing marijuana could plug multibillion-dollar holes in federal and state coffers.Rate this ArticleClick on one of the stars below to rate this article from 1 (lowest) to 5 (highest) LowThank you for rating.HighAverage rating: 4.34 from 10597 usersE-mail us your comments on this article View all top-rated articlesBy John Dyer, MSN MoneyDaniel Stein says the salvation of U.S. taxpayers could be marijuana. As Washington breaks the bank on Wall Street bailouts, President Barack Obama's stimulus package and other spend-now, pay-later measures, most observers agree that politicians will eventually need to increase revenue or cut spending to cover the federal government's debts. Stein believes Washington could begin to balance its books now if politicians would take a serious look at his industry. The owner of two retail outlets that he claims generate $1 million in revenue annually, Stein says he pays
Unspoken Words
Everyone has that one person they love the most. The one that can make you smile just by a phone call away. One that makes stupid jokes but you laugh anyway. It's always that one particular person thats written all over your heart but don't even realize it. At times its that one person that you know you wouldn't be able to love. Watching people love, watching people hurt. Now I realized how much love can stab you like a knife because of these stupid rules that others spread around. Specific things that one can not do because others say they can't. Is that really love? Is it hard to accept truth? Questions building up inside me, making me more confused then I already am. Being stuck in the middle is not always easy. One thing I'd like to ask everyone. Isn't "Love" something that's shared by others no matter how much you dislike that someone or something? One that can learn to move on from previous wounds. One that can accept the truth. Sometimes I wonder how much better life would be if
Let Me Dream
Let me dream.. Like I've never dreamed before.Let me dream that I'm in love.That I'm a free and flying dove.Just let me dream.Let me dream that I can be.Happy for the rest of eternity.And that one day you will seeWhat a perfect woman I can be.Let me dream that you secretly stare.And inquire about my when and whereLet me dream that I'm the oneAnd other than me...You want none.Let me dream that you think of me.And whether we one day will be.The lovers who had no chance.To be who they wanted to be.Let me dream that you are waiting there.And that life might at last be fair.Let me dream of your silly smile.And that loving me was worthwhile.Again..These are just dreams.That might never be real.But one day you might know..How hard secret love feels.
Dont Know What To Do
I'm scared.. no terrified.I don't know what to do.My heart and mind are at war.They're fighting over you.One says, "Let go,He doesn't really care.You need to move on,Wake up from this nightmare."The other tells me to hold on,You know him and his ways,He's scared of getting hurt.Screw what others say.The others... I forgot.They tell me to say goodbye.This isn't a real relationship.Why do I bother to try?You give me no hope,No ounce of affection.We hardly talk at all.It feels like rejection.Maybe I can't take a hint,Maybe you never loved me.Maybe I'm a stupid girl.Maybe this is how it has to be.I hold on anyways,Though it hurts everyday.I fell in love with you.What else is there to say?You thought I would forget,But now I think you see,I meant everything I said,about you and me.
I Burnt It All For You
Butterfly KissesBrush Across My CheekWhispering WordsTo Sweep Me Off My FeetSing Song VoiceSaying My NameEverything You Do To MeDrives Me More InsaneLie After LieYou Swear Your Love Is TrueI Feel Like A FoolBecause I Believed In YouCriss Cross MarksDecorate My WristBegging MyselfTo Somehow Change ThisHeart Pounding HarderYour Face Haunts My DreamsSmiling Face, Teary EyesNothing's As It SeemsPhotographs ScatteredLaying On The FloorMatches Lit, In My HandTo Me, You Are No More
Do A 180
When I was young, I was sort of poor, got picked on some because of my shoes, of all things. I believe it was 7th grade, I was standing there waiting on the bus and watching a young man getting picked on for the same thing by 3 bullies. I don't know if I did the right thing, but that main bully found himself on his back. Now I didn't know this young man, but when he walked up to me and said thanks, and stood with me there to our busses came, it brought a good to my heart. He felt safe there with me, I had protected him, stood up for hiim against the evil that he was experiancing. Well, the bullies didn't bother him again after that. At that age it's hard to figure out what is right or not, but in my heart at that time, I felt it was right, and for the first time I stiood up and defended a young man, and I remember I felt good about that. I never made friends with him but in high school, he came to me one day and thanked me again, told me was the only thougthful thing anyone had done fo
Effort Vs. Reward
June 18, 2009, will mark my three-year anniversary of being a member of this site. During this time, I've made friends, had encounters, run into old friends, and gotten a good look and the ins-and-outs of what Fubar, in whatever shape, form or name, has had to offer. Recent events, however,  have made me ask myself whether or not what I'm getting out of this is worth what I'm putting into it. Initially, when I was putting this blog together, I thought about writing how being a bouncer has changed my outlook on the site's progress. I am not going to turn this into a "Bouncer is a Thankless Job" article. Instead, I'm going to take a more generalized approach, since a lot of my thoughts seem to be more related to how I'm interacting with people - friends and strangers alike. A recent conversation with a member (who turned out later to have feelings for me) went awry. I made the mistake of going to Yahoo chat and uttering the four worst words known to mankind: "Hi, how are you?" She res
Only For Grown Folks
AN INTELLECTUAL OBSERVATION OF THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF COCKS MISERABLE DICK- When the guy is extremely handsome. He says the right things,does the right things. When it comes to sex, he is lacking in this department. He sucks your tits too hard, kisses your mouth too long, stays around your neck forever, fingers you like a GYN Doctor, licks your pussy like he was in a track meet and has a very small dick. You try to give him some head and only find that you are actually sucking a pacifier. This is so miserable. You think, "how can a guy so fine, so polite have weak game?" To top everything off ladies, how about just when in your mind your going to try to get the best out of this even if you have to make yourself cum and he beats you to the punch. DAMN, I cannot believe he came in 3 minutes!!! TOLERABLE DICK- This is funny dick. He eats major pussy. He eats it so good, your knees feel a little weak. It was good enough to make you shed a tear. Then he puts his dick in, for you to realize
1ne Two (one)
earlier today I took a walk down high way 121 andacclimated myself to my surroundings, and I began to realize that I feel like a total fish out of water here..these plastic bible thumping fucks with a second to spare try to preach to me, telling me I'm a broken soul in need of redemption..hellonly one person's opinion matters to me in that own.. anyways, I have been thinking about and planning a friday bash for me and a certain friend of mine now now, only those of you that know me well enough will even have a clue as to whom she I'm not telling..but  I will say this-- she has been on my mind since i landed .  
The Day I Met Rutger Haur
Was a day like any other. I was staying in the same hotel I am at now. I had a scottish freind who worked at the sheratin hotel's skylounge right next to the Schipol international airport. There was like a 10 foot long conference table. I was at the top right ith my 17inch laptop plugged in drinking beers and espressos. Playing diablo II lord of destruction no less. I am not even really paying attention. I look up and there across the tbale is an old guy with white hair and 4 aribians guys on hos side of the table and an empty chait to my left and a couple guys in buisnesssuits at the two end chairs. I look up cause my beer was getting low and notice these guys. So I endup sittin there blabbling away being myself and talkin with these guys. And I am thinking this guy sure looks like rutger haur. So I endup talking with these guys like an hour or so and I head to the bar and order a beer and espresso. My scottish freind and you have to imgine this ina scottish brougue says "man! ya know
A Beautiful Soul
I see inside your beautiful soul A piece of Heaven And if I can share in even a part of that beauty Even just a little piece Than I am more complete I'm not sure if my heart is big enough To love you near enough But I will spend to my last breath trying And I will be happy,every second of the way. Poem by Tammy C.
Maybe God Wants Us To Meet A Few Wrong People
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.Don't go for looks; they
In My Heart.
I'll give you the key. I'll open the door willingly. I'll let you see what's within. Step inside. Travel through the chambers, each locked, Each holding a piece of me, A piece of you. Try to find your way through, I know it's a bit cluttered, sorry for the mess. Discover what's behind every door, Find what's in every drawer. Make yourself at home... Sounds funny to say, because in a way, you already live here. Don't be afraid of the dark room down the hall, That's where I keep my secrets, Where my guilt intensifies. And that room with all the books? Each page is filled with my regrets. You can read each and every one of them, be my guest. You might wonder, Why I have shelves upon shelves of what seems to be water. But it's not, Those are my tears, Collected over the years. If you happen to come across a treasure chest, Lift the lid carefully, and you will see what is precious to me, My friends,family...and most importantly you. Once you've seen all there is to see, Pleas
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Girls Stay Awayfrom This One
Ghost_writter2000 is nothing more then a lier and cheat. He tryed to play me and two of my friends and got cought all three times. He will tell you what you want to hear as long as you are tell ing him what he wants . He will make promisses that he will not keep. HE is nothing more then a preditor .... Head my warnings .. stay away from this one ...   Dont want a nothe woman to get hurt again from HIM
Joke Of The Day
A cowboy walks into a bar in Wyoming and takes a seat next to a very attractive woman. He gives her a quick glance then causally looks at his watch for a moment. The woman notices this and asks, 'Is your date running late?'   'No', he replies, 'I just got this state-of the-art watch, and I was just testing it.'   The intrigued woman says, 'a state-of-the-art watch?'   'What's so special about it?'   The cowboy explains, 'It uses alpha waves to talk to me telepathically.'   The lady says, 'What's it telling you now?   'Well, it says you're not wearing any panties.   'The woman giggles and replies 'Well it must be broken because I am wearing panties!'   The cowboy smiles, taps his watch and says,   'Damn thing's an hour fast.'
Just Me
ok so here i am just me. i am not what people think i am. i am a quiet individual who is honest and true about what she means. alot of people seem to think that if your out going and your loud and obnoxious that you have all that self confidence. well thats not me. i maybe loud and my personallity may shine like the sun. but in all reality, i am this quiet little mouse that sits in the corner and waits until someone notices her and ask her to join in and then i come out of my shell. until then i just sit back and i am real quiet. those of you who know me best know this. i am honest when someone asks me a question that i want to answer and if i dont want to answer it i just will ignore you till you go but hey its all in good fun sometimes just being me. I never thought i would get as far as i would get today in this world. and to be honest i never should have made it past 16. but someone or something was watching out for me and made sure i made it to this age that i am now. My
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Anyone Want To Make A Salute For Me?
taking personal saltues....any takers???
Check Out Demonik
sup boys and girls.yep im hottstuff's roomate,going to school for photography and hottstuff is my practice dummy lol jk well sorta anyone looking for photos to be done check me out and drop me a line peace out.
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