blackbird84's blog: "love"

ok. so recently i have been hangin out with this girl that seems pretty awesome so far for a week. she likes all the things that i like and we seem to be getting along great. she works and is trying to help me get a job when she is not working. i have turned in several apps but havent found anything. she seems pretty cool so much that i can call her a friend but she tells me that she is falling for me. she keeps asking me what if i really do feel that way. i tell her that she can feel how she wants to feel. i tell her i cant say those words and i have to remember what it truly means to be in love. i also told her that what she is feeling is infatuation. many of you who read this know what i am talking about. the ones that talk to me the most on fubar know what i have been thru in the past and know why i told my friend that. i dont know if i can ever love again because of what my ex did to me. its very hard for me. i still have feelings for my ex because she gave birth to my kids. i miss them so much. i feel like i have a heart of stone and i cant let anyone else in in fear that i will get hurt again. im not sure if i should tell my friend that i just want to be friends or  not be friends with her at all. she says she dont want to be hurt either and i told her i dont want to hurt her. please leave comments in what i should do. thank you for reading.