I feel the emptiness rise with in me and I can see the grey clouds over my head turn black. Through the cracks of my despair hope comes through. I begin to think posative and smile more with thoughts of you danceing in my mind. My emptiness turns to happiness and my black clouds clear. I see the envisionment of an angel infront of me. Days even months go by and I fall for her more and more. We were happy and enjoying each others company until that night she crushed the hope I had and took my heart and threw it on the floor. She looked at me and said I care for you baby and I love you. I told her I do not believe you care about me but I know you love me. She just brushed it off like it never happened and walked off with blood on her shoes and my heart in ruins on the floor. I told her that she my be a broken angel but I am the shattered man. I am now just a former shadow of my former self because dont know if she truely cares for me or not. As I lie in my bed thinking the thoughts of harm, not to others but unto myself , I know none of it will ever happen. I may be the cause of your pain and suffering as well as everyone elses but I just can not bring myself to ending my own life. I will just have to walk the rest of my life with a smile on my face and a hole in my heart. Maybe one day my broken angel will repair the damage she caused to it but I can only think that.
