VOODOU DARLINGS's blog: "blue eyed devil"

There are two sides to who i am. First and for most i am a mother, but i am me. Being a mother and being me are the same thing. People have a hard time understanding how i can be me and think like i do. For exsample, someone asked me why dont i stop smoking it will kill me. Well i told them there are many things that i do that could kill me, hell i could walk out my front door and could get shot. No one really knows how it is there going to go. I have a grandmother that is 90 and has smoked for 60 years and has no health problems, but in the same since i have two grandfathers that have died from lung canser. Every persons body is differnt in how it takes stuff in. I also have very much pitty for homless children or a child born with an addiction they never asked for, but i have no pitty or respect for an adult in the same situation. An adult has complet control of there lives. I dont know what it is im trying to say. Shit, damn writers block. I always tell people to read between the lines and you will find your anwsers. Well i guess in order to really understand me you have to beable to read me inbetween the lines. I know im a hard person to understand or even get. I have horrable grammer and cant spell but i always mean what i say how i say it. When someone makes you look at yourself and rethink how you dress, act, or think. Then you just let someone take a little control over you. I hate that. I do stand out in a crowd because of the way i look and dress, I dont mind, but in the same way i dont like people. I dont like being stared at, I dont like hearing wispers behind my back, and you best believe i will turn around and say something. I have a load mouth and will use it.  But how can i exspect and thing different though right. Going out with tattoos and peircings wearing odd clothing. Well I exspect people to mind there own self. Im just like everyone else I just have a better understanding on how people think. Dont ever let anyone second guess who you are. Thats when you will lose a part of yourself. Well damn i think i got off topic big time well ill just write more later. Damn dont feel better. Oh well will later though.

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