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Cry Out
Cry out ~Tony Martinez Gasping for air Each mouthful is a struggle The pain in my ribs is so great ANGEL I cry out to you You slowly appear in front of me Crying as you see my mangled body before you Give up you say I'm not worth it you say I grab your hand and wrist I pull you close to me with the last bit of strength in me Painful to speak I whisper in ear firmly YES YOU ARE WORTH IT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WORTH IT Never give up angel Never give up with what I know is in your heart I will heal We will heal We built something strong Don’t fear my love The Darkness can't win The Darkness can't defeat me My light shines ever brighter for you No matter what happens I love you My angel

Sts-117 Atlantis Flight Day 8
STS-117 Atlantis Flight Day 8 Astronaut Sunita L. Williams, Expedition 15 flight engineer, wearing squat harness pads, poses for a photo while using the Interim Resistive Exercise Device (IRED) equipment in the Unity node of the International Space Station. Credit: NASA 6.16.07 11:30 p.m. Shuttle and Expedition 15 crew members prepared for STS-117’s fourth spacewalk and held a news conference Saturday. They also learned that flight controllers cleared Space Shuttle Atlantis’ heat shield for landing. Mission Specialists Patrick Forrester and Steven Swanson prepared the spacesuits and tools they will use during Sunday’s spacewalk. They also reviewed procedures for the spacewalk, which was added to the schedule after STS-117 arrived at the station. The excursion is set to begin at 12:33 p.m. EDT Sunday. After reviewing the procedures, both crews participated in the joint news conference. They fielded questions from media members in the United States.

.home.crap.home.
i think... i died... i got 'home'...bout an hour or so ago. decided another nite was not in the cards cuz i need...good...sleep. so yeah. we think the baby has chicken pox. n that'll be fun too. not so much. im showered. clean. clean clothes. tangle-free hair. in bed. muahahahahahaha *yawn* i need water. i dun wanna get up n get it. mah children are in the shower washing off 'road-trip' n one of them just said 'poop in a jar' Monkey said her first two word sentence. not tellin what it is...cuz its mine all mine..so there! uhm...boy texted all nite on his trip. woke up to bunches of texts. and uhm... yeah. that is all.

Ticked Off
Ticked off ~Tony Martinez Some people yell Some people cry Some people throw things Me? I calm down I focus I feed off the energy I work even harder I say nothing No tears fall as a fire burns in my eyes I channel my rage into defeating you, who has ticked me off So tell me Do you really think it was a good idea to tick me off?

In A Bad Spot Right Now,so Fuck Off!!
this is whats going on if anyone cares. I'm working my as off lately and haven't had time to be online much. when i do get on all i get is hell for not being around. It's like if your my true friend you'd understand, that my mom and dad are sick,and between takeing care of them and trying to pay my bills i don't have time for me. I'm all my mom and dad have because my brothers are to busy with their own lifes. The last damn think I need is for people who say they are my friend and love me is for them to jump down my throat and say i'm lieing to them,that what i'm saying i'm doing i'm not. so back the fuck off ok,i'm close to the end of my rope and right now i need people who really give a shit about someone other then them!!

Sad Lately
i ve been depressed lately i dont know why..and when i try to figure out why im sad and start to cry.. i dont know whats wrong with me.. i just feel so lonely and unloved well i just dont know im weird i guess...=(

~willingly Being His~
Everything i ever wanted i found it in myMaster. Everything i ever wanted to explore, myMaster guided me. Everything i ever need myMaster has helped me. Everytime i ever needed myMaster's protection He never hesitated to give it of Himself. myMaster is a true Dom, a true Man, my true Master. i love You very deeply so Master,,, Your devoted slavegirl, tallyssinae[R]

I Don't Care If I Lose Friends Over This
Mommy I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion? Month Six I can

Profile Is Looking Wicked.
Well spent the last few hours browsing around online looking for things for my profile here..and ive found some pretty wicked items as im sure you'll see if you check out my profile online. Thanks to everyone who has stopped by rated me and signed my guestbook..i appreciate it. Those who havent checked out my profile feel free to stop by check it out and sign away there. TC and HAGN peeps....im outa here for the night... To all you dads and fathers out there.... Happy Fathers Day!!!!!!!!

~he Invades My Dreams Nightly
*dreaming of my arrival at Master's place, * It started in the hallway the minute He unlocked His front door after retrieving me from the bus station, He charged me like He was lost and had seen a desert oasis of sweet wet water like a heavenly mirage Hands under my arms He crashed me through the door face forward, i arched back into Him as He ravaged me in the darkness from behind on the floor As He turned to close the door i gasped for air as i turned over to watch Him close and lock the front door, He turned back to me seeing i had moved over onto my back He flashed that wicked grin of His and topples me back flush to the living room carpet He flippes up my skirt, oddly to His surprise i had no panties on, granting a wish for a erotic and freaky demise grabbing me forcefully He spread open my pussy right after intensely biting me over and over again above my knees on both of my inner thighs Now on the carpet in the darkness i claw at His neck and back ripping His s

Plans And About Me
I plan on flying across the pond at some point again this year it will proberbly be towards the end of the year. This year has been a year of stress and that is already..lol...But enough of that..the reason for this blog is totell you all a little about me. Well iam prberbly one of the last true romantics in the world. I value honesty and honour almost above all except love. I don't lie as iam terrible at it. I have one daughter who is 13 years old who lives with her mother. i train in the martial artsand withthe Creators and the Goddesses blessing I will soon be able to move across the pond permanently. Iam single and yes Iam looking ofrthat special someone to share my life with.

Don't Go
I feel my days are running away like rain I'm trying to hold on even though it's in vain off and on every day we change all and all love and pain remain I wish I could exist without your love I wish I wouldn't be dependent on don't lie to me to make it all allright when your eyes are telling me good-bye Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you so Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you more than you know Don't go I know the way you feel won't stay the same I wish that I could rise above the pain on and on I'll take it day by day all in all I make it through the rain Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you so Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you more than you know you're breaking my heart Don't go you tear me apart Don't go you're all that I have Don't go cause I love you more than you know When you look into my eyes can you see the fear I'm holding back

50 Mistakes Women Make During Sex
I saw this posted amongst the stash for SexxxiMilf. Not sure how I cam across it, but I did. Anyways, after reading this, I just couldn't resist posting it for my friends on here to see. It was just too funny. Also, if anyone has 50 or however many mistakes men make during sex, please post it or send it to me, I would love to see it. Anyways, without further hesitation, I present to you all, 50 Mistakes Women Make During Sex. 1. Assuming he can get a raging hard on when it suits you. Contrary to popular belief, men can't just flip a switch and get it up because you decided to stop being a frigid bitch. Getting it hard is your job. I suggest you figure it out. 2. Thinking that kissing needs to be this sweet romantic thing all the time. Sometimes pressing your lips against your partners mouth while you get off is the hot. It depends on the situation. 3. Leaving him responsible for your orgasm. You know what gets you off. Tell him. If you don't, it's your own fault when he's snoo

55 She Has A Way
she has a way to shoot me down so easily she shines my day tells me to think carefully open doors and open heart in my arms safe as a song can you tell i'm a blindman do you think that i am wrong she has a way a picture perfect smile shakes my endless greys gives me reason for each and every mile close my eyes and close the door one day closer to forever she knows i'm wanting more one step closer to never she has a way shows me pleasure in the pain solitary soul is a small price to pay she is the drug flowing in my veins waiting for her daily tell her how it could be mostly rain storms and cigarettes she has a way that she can never see

A Question Of Self.
Who am I? I’m not sure, you know. I find myself in a state of doubt, questioning not only who I am, but who I should be and who I want to be, as well. As time is wont to do, it continues without the least thought for intentions. I’ve been up all night watching the seconds tick away, but an epiphany is lost on me.

Is Today The Day?
Is today the day? Will this be the day I receive the news that my life will take a new direction? Will I start walking the path that most women fear? Is this the day I will become intimate with sickness? Will death be much closer to me now? As I sit in a room, waiting for the news, I ponder so many dark things of this world. How sick will I be? How much pain will I experience and endure? how will my loved ones take the news? Will they be strong or turn from me with sadness and despair? Will they hold me close when I need human touch? Will they be stronger than me in my moments of weakness? Will I have to pretend to be strong for them just so the can handle the devastation they will see happen to my body? Will the Goddess guide me thru these dark days to the path of beauty that I have yet to see? Will she open the dark shades of my eyes to see the beauty that has been all around me since my birth? Will the memories that I leave behind bring joy or sadness to those that w

I Wanna Know
i wanna know what you think about you future can you tell me what you think what you think about your life i wanna know know what you think of me your friends i wanna know how you've come to be i saw you take it all looking greater somewhere around you went there took it all and all the time now take the fall i want to know how you feel when you wake up i wanna know how you feel when you sleep i wanna know what you're dreaming through this world where you gonna go what are you gonna achieve when you say you want to get all your friends say well he's so high i'm gonna kick you off your cloud want to know if you want to see the shit or see my soul wants to get between the self and i know your reasons you could always be an astronaut well you could be an astronaut will you see this world as happy made you know where i am to safe now while your sitting there do i all looking greater when you go i want to know how you feel in this life

Photo Ratings
I try to keep up with everyone that rates my photos- but sometimes because i post alot of mumms i dont get to see all the people that rated me, if you have rating me and I have not returned the favor please let me knoe. thank you and have a great night

F@ck The Low Ridas And Bikaz
i create a better madiness// i tear threds from leather jackets fuck the low ridas// my rymes tightest blow up bikas, like fat women on slim fast-diets// igot evil green eyes. can y ou feal the vibe when i steal yur bike// next to the stars,you see tred marks, on yur heads and arms//

Eroticism
His hands run through her hair. Waves of dark amber flow between his fingers. Legs kick off his pants. Anticipation rising to levels never seen before. He hold her face in his hands. Kiss black red lips gently. Tongue travels down, further then before. Tastes of musk and sea water fill his mouth. She guides his head, his mouth, his hands, his heart. He is under her control, her spell. He moves up, fumbling towards ecstasy. Fingers grind at flesh, fingers trip towards eternity. Manhood in check, pushes forward. Throbbing towards the dark opening of excess. Motion controlled by separate worlds. Sighing, crying, dying, feeling. She stares at him lovingly. He stares at her with eyes wide with fear. She closes on him. She tightens the grip. He falls back into his mind, wondering if it will be like this always. Heat rises towards heaven. Fear banished to hell. The writhing bodies climb to places never seen or felt. He looks down. Sees the sliding,g

Insect
I see the sound rushing towards me, I feel the speed hit hard. Doors opening, windows closing, The rush hits, and i cannot see your face. Inside, anger, despair, wanton and abandoned, A simple cut and grown into a heart attack You make me feel like shit, You make me feel like god. I slip into the black pool, and loose myself in the black book. Time keeps ticking....lives keep changing, And I....I stand still...feeling the buzz.

My Beautiful Baby Bear By Jared Warnick
My Beautiful Baby Bear My baby bear makes my world go around and i am very happy that she for me and found. Me is always gonna love her plant flowers in the spring so they can blossum like our love has blossum into a beautiful flower.I am gonna love you angel with my mind and body and charming personility and gonna cook and bring food to you every day and night. She makes me feel like and kid in a candy store and when she blows kisses to me my heart stops for a momment and i always hit the floor. My love for you angel is like a fine wine after a long time when the grapes and sugar it's grows together to make something beautiful and strong like our love. It's hard me to express my feelings for love for you angel but i have a way of telling it. Love is where two people gets together and share their darkest secrets and fears, love is where we share foods, sleeping in the same bed after a long day of cuddling and be romanic and working all day for each other, love is where we have ki

One Day In My Life
I was brought up to be a good girl.Never to hurt any ones feelings and never to make "waves" I must be a magnet for the scum of men.I have been used and abused by men.I'm sure some would say it was my own fault...but then those people don't know me do they.This is just one of the experiences that helped shape me into the person I am today. My first marriage,my husband tried to kill me. These are my thoughts,feelings and memories of that day.This is more for me than for you.If you don't want to know ,don't read any farther.... It was 1997.I was 21. It was summer time. We (my husband and I )sat outside a local strip club waiting for my friend to get off her shift so we could give her a ride home. I had said something harmless(i thought so anyway) but he didn't think so i guess. He leaned over and slapped my face.The bouncer was told about it(I'm guessing)because he came out and asked me if i needed his help.I was scared of my husband and I said no.WHY? Why w

My Kinky Turn On
You scored as Blind Folds, Your turn on is the blindfold. When you can't see, that makes your other senses more aware... including your sense of touch. So who wouldn't enjoy being blindfolded???? Sex isn't sex without enhancing your sense of touch.Blind Folds100% Biting67% Chains/Handcuffs67% Whips67% Bondage33% Blood17% What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

The Power Of Thoughts
The Power of Thoughts Thoughts are more powerful than actions because they are the creators of actions. You have to keep in mind that the thought-waves of your good wishes and pure feelings, your vibrations of peace and love, can once again bring harmony in nature and happiness in the world. Brahma Kumaris, World Spiritual University

Poetry
Before i had you i was so alone the world was so cold my heart was a stone i didnt think true love could exist ignorance is bliss how could u knock all my walls away with just one kiss? before u i didnt know if i was strong i never thought that i would belong but fuck it all! if loving u is right i dont ever want to be wrong. without you i am incomplete its amazing how you can make my heart skip a beat every time our eyes meet let me say this once if its not clear "I LOVE YOU BABY!" there are no if, and buts or maybe

The Dance Of Life
Life is full of strange twists, turns, disappointments and more than ever excitement. Through each journey we take and every person we meet, we take a new step in the dance of life. Many things happen during the dance and for the most part we totally enjoy the things we experience at that time. But like any normal dance every now and then we get our toes stepped on and we feel a little pain. But in the end we still enjoy the memories of the dance and the people and things that we shared the dance with. Just like in a normal dance we learn to get better and better and learn lessons along the way. We cherish the moments of the dance and wish they would last a life time, but when the song ends and the dance stops we hate that it has ended and sometimes the pain of the dance that was shared. I my good friend Garth Brooks could not have said it better in his song the dance and I agree with him one hundred percent. For if it was not the dance we would never know what it would have been like

Today Is A Special Day Dads...
Fathers are wonderful people Fathers are wonderful people, too little understood, And we do not sing their praises as often as we should, For Father struggles daily to live up to his image As protector and provider and hero of the scrimmage, And perhaps that is the reason we sometimes get the notion That fathers are not subject to the thing we call emotion. But if you look inside Dad's heart, where no one else can see, You'll find he's sentimental

Beer For Bags
In New York City, one week out of the year, a little messenger bag store does a beer for bags promotion. They tell you what beer to trade for a bag and then invite you back for a party to drink the beer people brought. My two friends and I, one of my roomies and my birthday bitch, (we have the same birthday but she's a few hours older than me) decided to participate this year. My BB price compared distributors. We found 2 that had good prices for the beer needed. They both got cases of hoegaarden and I got a case of Grolsch. Can you imagine the stares thrown at a white boy and 2 gurls luggin cases of brew thru Harlem? Hilarious. When we got downtown. We didn't feel so awkward as people smiled, knowin where we were goin. The shop was filled to the brim wit beer. Cases were stacked from floor to ceilin. After they take the beer, you get your bag and take a pic. The pic if an invite to a party the last nite where you drink the beer everyone bought. Don't believe me, check out the website

Poem
Loneliness your silent wisper fills a river of tears through the night memory you never let me cry and you, you never said goodbye sometimes our tears blinded our love we lost our dreams along the way but i never thought you'd trade your soul to the fetes i never thought you would leave me all alone Time through the rain has set me free and the sands of time will keep your memory love ever lasting will fade away but be alive within our beating hearts dry your tears with love and let your heart guide you through the darkness

As Always
Like always im the fool my heart hanging on bits of string maybe nothings wrong maybe its all in my head whats going on? with me with the world have i done something wrong am i being punished? i dont even need to know the answer to that i know i am but why i cant love? i cant have feelings for another? my insomnia reaches new heights will i sleep now? or later? i feel nothing my heart barely beating i feel numb inside please tell me its not true i wanna know i deserve to know, the best i ever am isnt nearly as good enough what am i to do? god please help anyone these tears running down the sides of my cheeks i wanna do whatever possible just to be the best example of man everything i could be, When i was younger i was wild brave an never asked anyone for help so anyone everyone please lend me your hearts your ears an sometime i can see it laughing at me that ive found something wrong but why has it done so to me...is it that that i am wrong my intuition has never been wrong though

You Can Get Peter Britt's Book Now!
Well the links are here to get All That I Am, I Think!. You can get the paperback or the hardcover book with the links below. Prices are respectively: Paper back: $19.99 shipping included Hardcover: $23.99 shipping included Please remember that when you get your book through these links you are getting your book direct through Peter Britt, so your book WILL be personally autographed to you. It is also necessary that you please contact me with your mailing information so Iknow where to send it! :) Here are the links: Use this link to purchase the hardcover book:Click here for the hard cover book Use this link to purchase the paper back book: Click here for the paper back book

Fantastic 4: The Rise Of The Silver Surfer
I went to see this one yesterday and I just say it was tons better than the first one. Jessica Alba's hair for her wedding was absolutely beautiful along w/ the rest of her of course. There were more funny parts in this one...I don't think there were any real cheezy jokes thank goodness. The effects were great. Stan Lee was in there of course and as himself. That was pretty funny. All in all anyone who goes to see it will probably like it.

Spidey 3
Spider-Man 3...alls I can say is OMG!!! That was so AWESOME! I will admit though that it wasn't quite as good as the 2nd one but it was still awesome all the same. They tied up some story lines but didn't leave much for another one but I'm sure there will be. I'm not saying another word about it. According to a Yahoo! News article Sam Raimi (director) will be taking a break from Spidey at least for a while. Although Tobey and Kirsten have said that they'd come back to do a 4th one if Sam was at the helm. Of course for me it doesn't matter as Spidey has always been my favorite comic book hero. It's smart, witty, and sometimes even down right funny. He's our nerdy geeky every man. The person who is insecure and unsure about himself. Someone we can all relate and identify with one in form or another. I know I certainly can.

Father's Day
Good Things Come in 3's Grandpa, Dad & Me Sitting in a folding chair he'll wait the tip of his pole moves a bit still too soon to set the bait A grin on his face about to split. "Got one!" he says with grandpa-ish pride As me and Dad look up from each side. Covered in grease, all sweaty and hot I go to the shed for a tool I forgot We keep working, Dad went for a part All of hope this heap will start After cleaning up we all sit inthe shade Me and Dad have cokes, Grandpa has lemonade We talked about this and argued about that, We helped build that and demolish this, But of all of my memories, all the best were these. David A. Shorey 1999

63 Ways To Piss Off A Cop!! Lol!!
1. When you get pulled over, say "What's wrong, ossifer, there's no blood in my alcohol?" 2. When he asks why you were speeding, tell him you wanted to race. 3. When he talks to you, pretend you are deaf. 4. If he asks if you knew how fast you were going, say no, my speedometer only goes to...... 5. Ask if you can see his gun. 6. When he says you aren't allowed, tell him I just wanted to see if mine was bigger. 7. Touch him. 8. When he asks why you were speeding, tell him you had to buy a hat. 9. Ask him where he bought his cool hat. 10. Refer to him by his first name. 11. Pretend you are gay and ask him out. 12. When he says no, cry. 13. If he says yes, accuse him of sexual harassment. 14. If the cop is a woman, tell her how ugly she is, but in a nice way. 15. If he asks you to step out of the car, automatically throw yourself on the hood. 16. When he asks you to spread them, tell him you don't go that way. 17. When he puts the handcuffs

Friends Is Friends
This sorta says it all. Remember "Friends is Friends".FRIENDS VS. SOUTHERN FRIENDS FRIENDS : Never ask for food. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Always bring the food. FRIENDS : Will say "hello". SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Will give you a big hug and a kiss. FRIENDS : Call your parents Mr. and Mrs. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Call your parents Mom and Dad FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Cry with you. FRIENDS : Will eat at your dinner table and leave. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Will spend hours there, talking, laughing, and just being together. FRIENDS : Know a few things about you. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you. FRIENDS : Will leave you behind if that's what the crowd is doing. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds' back-ends that left you. FRIENDS : Would knock on your door. SOUTHERN FRI ENDS: Walk right in and say, "I'm home!" FRIENDS : Are for a while. SOUTHERN FRIENDS: Are for life. FRIENDS : Might ignor

The South Talking Tough
The South Talking Tough If you are going to live or visit in the South, you need to know these rules. 1. That farm boy you see at the gas station did more work before breakfast than you do all week at the gym. 2. It's called a "gravel road." No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Navigator. Drive it or get out of the way. 3. The red dirt -- it's called clay. Red clay. If you like the color don't wash your car for a couple weeks -- it'll be permanent.4. We all started hunting and fishing when we were seven years old. Yeah, we saw Bambi. We got over it. 5. Go ahead and bring your $600 Orvis Fly Rod. Don't cry to us if a flathead breaks it off at the handle. We have a name for those little 13-inch trout you fish for -- bait. 6. Pull your pants up. You look like an idiot. 7. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of mallards are making their final approach, we will shoot it. You might want to ensure it's not up to your ear at the time. 8. No, the

Happy Father's Day
A father is defined as the male parent of a child. Like mothers, fathers may be categorised according to their biological, social or legal relationship with the child. Historically, the biological relationship paternity has been determinative of fatherhood. However, proof of paternity has been intrinsically problematic and so social rules often determined who would be regarded as a father e.g. the husband of the mother. WHICH TYPE OF FATHER ARE YOU? Natural father - the most common category: child product of man and woman Birth father - the biological father of a child who, due to adoption or parental separation, does not raise the child Surprise father - where the men did not know that there was a child until possibly years afterwards Posthumous father - father died before children were born (or even conceived in the case of artificial insemination) Teenage father/youthful father - may be associated with premarital sexual intercourse Non-parental father - unmarried fathe

Me
I SEEM TO IRRITATE, PISS OFF, CONFUSE, OR SOMETHING CERTIAN PEOPLE THAT I CALL FAMILY...SO HERE IS A SIMPLE SOLUTION. I AM GOING TO TAKE A BREAK. YOU ALL CAN GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER, AND DO IT WITHOUT ME AROUND MAYBE THEN IT CAN HAPPEN HUH? HONESTLY I DON'T THINK I'M TO BLAME BUT AFTER I OPEN MY MOUTH AND PEOPLE "OH WELL GTG LATERS" IS WHAT I GET....WELL YEAH I SEEM TO BE THE PROBLEM....I'M NOT YOU PEOPLE NEED TO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND SINCE IT SEEMS THAT WHEN I'M ONLINE AND AROUND THAT I'M A 'PROBLEM' I'M FIXING THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE. AFTER TONIGHT I WILL BE POPPIN ON AND OFF OF CT AND WILL NOTBE ONLINE ON YAHOO..... ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY....ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS GET IT TOGETHER DAMN. I HAVE MY OWN LIFE AND DRAMA, I WILL NOT BE IN THE MIDDLE OF YOURS WHICH IS WHY I AM TAKING THIS BREAK........TAKE CARE OF YOUR SHIT. FOR THOSE THAT KNOW HOW...THEY CAN GET AHOLD OF ME. LATERS. JENN if this doesn't make sense to you then it probably doesn't invovle you and fo

Thank You
This goes out to all my friends and fans that actually take the time to know something bout the people on their lists. Thank you from all of you that sent me gift and cards and dropped by to leave profile comments for me wishing me happy birthday,it is refreshing to see that some people look at their friends lists as a little more than just stats or cherry points,lol,i gotta get better at things like that,it woke me up as to my personal shortcomings yanno? thank you again

Your Troops
You stay up for 16 hours He stays up for days on end. _________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. __________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. __________________________ You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. __________________________ You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls. He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists. _________________________ You complain about how

Dad
my dad hasn't been much of a dad since i was born and he left me and mom when i was two years old and then when i turned 9 they divorced and then when i was 13 his new wife came into our lives and messed up everthing majorly. she has ruined my family and they turn to me for support and im there back bone that keeps this family a float. my dad married a real loser for a wife. she has tripped me and she has grabbed me and she has just bout smacked me in the face and she is poisoned my grandma my dads mom while my dad was out trucking to make money. my dad that i really call an asshole im sorry to those dads that are dads but this how i feel bout my dad. my dad isn't a dad he would rather be with his wife and let his wife walk all over me. she has done and said some shit that my family isn't very happy for a women who can't have kids she opens her mouth and expresses how everyone should raise there kids i don't believe in that. i don't tell anyone and i wouldn't tell anyone how to raise t

Makes One Think......
Thinking....I do entirely too much of it most times. I tend to hash and re-hash thoughts, ideas, and especially concerns and worries. It's Father's Day. I'm blessed with two children of my own, a son and daughter, and of course, I've quickly become the "father" to young Mr. James. I love them all with everything I have. I awoke this morning to find cards from my daughter, and my housemate and her son, as well as a nice video I've wanted. I was also given a Father's Day card from my other housemate and her two daughter's....as well as the assortment of greetings and comments left on "MySpace" and "Cherrytap." All in all, I welcome and treasure them. I'm blessed to be a father, whether by my own creation, or simply stepping in where needed for other children in my life. My housemate's children liven up, and make every day more interesting and unique. I'm old enough to be dealing with grandchildren, (none thus far though), but young enough to enjoy children in general in my day-to-d

Happy Fathers Day
i wanted to wish all the good daddies a happy fathers day and hope you enjoy it. also i no longer have vic so no more pics lol, oh well its 90 degrees here today ugh too hot my birthday is next month so start saving, lmao j/k also if anyone wants to get me a blast or vic, you will make me very happy as soon as more interesting things actually happen, ill keep you updated

Rant Of The Day
okay its been over a month since this so called drama with a certain person came about but yet half my friends STILL wont talk to me... i get its hard to trust people hell i dont trust many people as it is... but I AM NOT LIKE THAT.. i have a salute.. ill make u another one if u want more proof, ive met people from ct ask them theyll tell ya... im sick of being punished by people who claimed to be my "friends" because of some other freakin person. its really kinda sad.. i get it... it messed with alotta peoples heads but dont blame me cause it happened.. i had nothing to do with it.. it pisses me off someone would do that but theres nothing i can do about it... dont treat me like an outsider because someone lied to u, its life it happens i get lied to alot but i dont doubt none of u!!! it just actually kinda hurts my feelings and if ur not talking to me or avoiding me this means u!! i know alot of ppl have left ct or dont get on much at all... for example, bad example & tracy.. but i

To Who Ever Wants To Get To Know Jesus Christ Our Savior
DAYTON BIBLE WAY CHURCH,INC 2901 E.FOURTH ST DAYTON,0HIO 45403 1(937)256-4631 HEBREWS 13:8 JESUS CHRIST THE SAME YESTERDAY, AND TODAY,AND FOREVER. COOL MySpace Comments

Skinny Dipping Anyone???
You're out drinkin with a bunch of friends at the lake and you all decide to go skinny dipping. It's hot and muggy outside and yall figure it would be a good way to cool off. Everyone strips down and heads for the water. You kind of lag behind wanting to get a chance to talk to your best friend's sister alone. You've had the hots for her for as long as you can remember and you're hoping that tonight will be your chance. She grabs your hand and pulls you toward the water, away from everyone else. You follow her into the deep water and she climbs on your lap, your erection poised at her opening. The sensation of her body sheathing you almost brings you over the edge.You hold her still for a moment, not wanting to climax right away. She locks her lips onto yours and starts to move. You thrust into her as she pulls up, making her quiver and moan loudly. She starts to move faster, digging her nails into your back. You thrust harder, making her cry out in ecstacy as she climaxes, bringing yo

Elevator
Ok, you're riding an elevator all alone, there's no one else around and the doors open and the woman of your dreams comes on. She gets as close to you as she can, and you look at her funny, not knowin who she is. She slowly grabs your ass as the elevator doors close and you turn toward her, ready to say something. She locks her lips onto yours, not letting you say a word. You pull her close, wrapping your arms around her. You thrust your tongue into her mouth, tryin to swallow her whole. She unbuttons her shirt and lets it slide off her shoulders and pool at her feet. She slowly unbuttons your pants and slides them down your hips to pool at your feet. You break your mouth away from hers and give her a questioning look, before you can speak she holds her finger against your lips, telling you without words not to speak. She pulls your shirt over your head and throws it across the elevator. She runs her hands over your chest, feeling every ripple of muscle along the way.She shoves your bo

Library
you're all alone in the library and it's just about closing time. you look around and there's not another person in sight, worried, you start walking around looking for someone, anyone, hoping you weren't stuck there for the night. you hear some noises comin out of a closed door behind the check out counter so you go behind the desk and see a barely dressed woman standing there. she turns and looks at you and you realize it's the librarian you barely looked at earlier. she was hot, with a body to die for, all you can think about is the evidence of your desire swelling in your pants as her eyes travel down the length of your body. she didn't look like that earlier, she looked like any other librarian, just there. you stumble over your words, trying to come up with something to say as to why you're there but all you can think about is her body and that long blonde hair splayed across the desk behind her as you drive into her again and again. her big blue eyes barely opened and cloudy wit

Lost 3 Today......
I have a friend in Iraq. The place he's at was hit today & hit hard. We lost 3 of our boys & some of the local police were also killed. My friend says he is okay & wasn't injured, which i'm very grateful for, but my heart still hurts for the boys we lost. I'm sending out prayers to the families & will keep them in my thoughts. When my friend & i "chat" he is sitting in a hooch with "big guns" all around him pointed out. He tells me not to worry, but i do. Today is one of the reasons that i will worry even tho he tries to reassure me. Before i met him, i supported our troops & knew that there were some who weren't coming home to their lives & families, but it was a sort of abstract kind of awareness. Now that i have a friend over there, the reality of it has hit home & it hit hard. I now live each day knowing that my friend may not come home. It hurts. So please, those of you who support our troops, keep saying a little prayer for them to come home safe. To thos

Happy Father's Day!!
To all my friends who are daddys. Children need a Daddy For many, many things: Like holding them high off the ground Where the sunlight sings! Like being the deep music That tells them all is right When they awaken frantic with The terrors of the night. Like being the great mountain That rises in their hearts And shows them how they might get home When all else falls apart. Like giving them the love That is their sea and air, So diving deep or soaring high They'll always find him there. For Stepdads: Stepfathers are no less than those of blood: The spirit is more comely than the flesh. Equally, two mysteries might mesh, Paired by nature or by neighborhood. Fathers are defined by how they love, And not by how they multiply or breed. Though you did not supply the primal seed, How you've loved me does your kinship prove. Each child must turn when life's too hard to bear, Regarding someone's arms or empty air. So do I turn, and always you are

My Thoughts At 5 In The Morning
I dont see the point in allowing anyone into my heart anymore when all it seems to end in is heartbreak. I cant stand the feeling of my heartbreaking because of someone that I love or have loved. All it does is make me have extremely bad thoughts that is best left unsaid. My name says crazy one and there is a reason for that. I am crazy just ask anyone that really knows me. So from now on no one is allowed to get into my heart anymore. So if you talk to me thinking you will find love here you are wrong. There is no love here anymore for anyone. I am tired of playing stupid games with people that lie and cheat and build you up just to let you fall again. I know how low someone can get and worse I have been there. I will not be taken back to that place again I have gotten out and not going back ever. My craziness is deeper than anyone knows even the people that think they knows me dont really know anything. They dont understand how I see no point anymore in anything. The only reason I do

Do You Agree?
I just got this from a friend in another site .He got this from his son . Love This Comeback One of my sons serves in the military. He is still stateside, here in California . He called me yesterday to let me know how warm and welcoming people were to him, and his troops, everywhere he goes, telling me how people shake their hands, and thank them for being willing to serve, and fight, for not only our own freedoms but so that others may have them also. But he also told me about an incident in the grocery store he stopped at yesterday, on his way home from the base. He said that ahead of several people in front of him stood a woman dressed in a burkha. He said when she got to the cashier she loudly remarked about the U.S. flag lapel pin the cashier wore on her smock. The cashier reached up and touched the pin, and said proudly," Yes, I always wear it and probably always will." The woman in the burkha then asked the cashier when she was going to stop bombing he r countryme

Crispy Mexican Chicken
Crispy Mexican Chicken From: Frenchs Prep Time: 5 minutes Cook Time: 20 minutes Serves: 4 Ingredients: 1 1/3 cups French's® Cheddar or Original French Fried Onions, divided 1 tbsp. chili powder 4 skinless boneless chicken breast halves 1 egg, beaten 1/2 cup taco blend shredded cheese Directions: PLACE 1 cup French Fried Onions and chili powder in a plastic bag. Lightly crush onions with hands or with a rolling pin. DIP chicken into egg; then firmly coat with seasoned onion crumbs. Place chicken on a baking sheet. BAKE at 400ºF for 20 minutes or until no longer pink in center. Sprinkle with cheese and remaining onions. Let stand 2 minutes until cheese softens.

Yankee Pot Roast Of Beef
5 lb. chuck, rolled & tied 2 tbsp. flour 2 tsp. salt 1 tsp. pepper 1/2 tsp. sugar 2 tbsp. cooking oil 1 1/2 c. water, tomato juice or combination 2 med. onions, sliced 1 bay leaf 1 tsp. thyme Minced parsley Mix together the flour, salt, pepper and sugar (for browning) and rub into the surface of the beef. Heat the oil in a deep heavy pan and brown the beef on all sides over medium high heat. Lower the heat, add the onion, brown a little, then add the liquid, bay leaf and thyme. Cover and cook very slowly 3-4 hours or until meat is fork tender. Add more liquid from time to time as needed. Transfer the meat to a heated platter and keep warm. Meanwhile cook the gravy by immersing the pot in cold water and skim off the fat. Pour half the gravy into a bowl to be sealed and set aside for another day. Heat the remaining gravy; if not thick enough stir 2 tablespoons of flour into 1/4 cup of water, then add to gravy and bring to a boil. Check seasoning and pour into a gravy b

Angel's
I believe in angels that they'er always hovering near, Whispering encouragement whenever clouds appear, Protecting us from danger and showing us the way, Performing little miracles within our lives each day... Yes,I believe in angels, and I'm sure that you do,too. And I'm convinced that Angels are watching over you. Christina

Grilled Rock Lobster Tails
4 med. Rock lobster tails, frozen 1/4 c. butter, melted 2 tsp. lemon juice 1 tsp. grated orange peel Pinch of ground ginger, aromic bitters and chili powder Thaw Rock Lobster tails and cut off the thin undershell with scissors. Bend tailback to crack shell to prevent curling. Combine melted butter, lemon juice, orange peel, ginger, bitters and chili powder; brush over lobster meat. Broil on grill over HOT coals for about 5 minutes with meat side up. Turn shell side up, brush with sauce and broil 5 to 10 minutes longer or until meat has lost its transparency and is opaque. Serve immediately. Serves 4. Preparation time 15 to 20 minutes.

Plea
Passionate ploy Body distressed Mind set racing Spirit impressed Totally everything Simply a plea Hold me tightly Set me free Anyone present Look not this way In single heartbeat My passion to play Pieces entirely Together apart Body and soul Being and heart

French Fried Butterfly Shrimp
2 lbs. uncooked shrimp, shelled and deveined 1 c. sifted regular flour 1/2 tsp. sugar 1/2 tsp. salt 1 c. water 2 tbsp. shortening, melted 1 egg Oil for deep frying With a sharp knife slit shrimp deeply down back without cutting all the way through. Wash shrimp thoroughly and dry between paper towels. Combine flour, sugar, and salt in bowl. Add water, melted shortening and egg, beat until smooth. Dip shrimp, a few at a time, in batter. Fry in deep fat heat to 375 degrees for 3 to 5 minutes. Drain on paper towels. Number of servings 4.

Interestin Days Ahead...
Hi Everyone.. well to let u all know.. the next few weeks will be real hectec around here. busy schedule.. i just got home from the lake... today.. celebrated fathers day for my husband, son, n future son in law.. and boom.. i will be gone in the morning again.. I will return for an appt wed.. n another one thursday.. and to.. do a sad venture.. have my puppy dog put down.. :( .. i am sad.. but she is 15... she can't make it anymore.. she is draggin her legs behind her.. and in alot of pain.. with some tumors.. on her back side.. its time.. she will be well missed.. but had a full life in a 1 family home.. then out the door again on friday .. back to the lake.. again... i will be home sunday for sure.. and the following friday morning leave again.. *(THE 28th) leave for a 10 day vacation at the lake.. I will return to the main computer.. *SUNDAY the 10th of July.. to all of my american friends.. HAPPY INDEPENDANCE DAY!!!! To all my friends.. I will return .. fully relaxed.. n

How To Make Trademarks Symbols On The Keyboard
Alt Key + Calculator Number = Symbol I was excited when I found out that I could use my keyboard to make certain symbols. This really makes it easy in e-mail, HTML Generators and Graphic Programs. Try it out, it's very easy. Hold the ALT key & using the "Calculator" (right hand side of keyboard) type the number indicated that is next to the symbol you want to create, then release Alt Key and the Symbol will appear. If you would like the printable version of the Alt Key Symbols for reference, then CLICK HERE. The page will open up in a new window. © = 0169 Copyright ® = 0174 Registered ¤ = 15 ¶ = 20 § = 21 Ç = 128 ü = 129 é = 130 â = 131 ä = 132 à = 133 å = 134 ç = 135 ê = 136 ë = 137 è = 138 ï = 139 î = 140 ì = 141 Ä = 142 Å = 143 É = 144 æ = 145 Æ = 146 ô = 147 ö = 148 ò = 149 û = 150 ù = 151 ÿ = 152 Ö = 153 Ü = 154 ¢ = 155 £ = 156 ¥ = 157 ƒ = 159 á = 160 í = 161 ó = 162 ú = 163 ñ = 164 Ñ = 165 ª = 166 º = 167 ¿ =

Grad Party
Yesterday we left the house around 4:15 to go to Tigers nephews wedding reception. Stayed there till around 7, left there and had to head to Findlay to my nieces grad party. So we got there close to 8. Well my dad was getting ready to leave around 10 and I told Tiger he could just ride home with him if he wanted to. I forgot that Jordan was going to spend the nite at my sisters that nite. Well .. I decided I didn't want to drive home by myself late at nite when it was an hour drive and I had taken a pain pill, so I decided to stay too. BAD IDEA!! I did NOT sleep well AT all. I didn't get to bed till 1am and tossed and turned till about 5:30 got up and messed on the computer for a little bit. Finally tried laying back down around 7 and slept till 9 :O Then we helped clean up and haul chairs and tables back to where they had to go. Jordan & I just got home about an hour ago. My ass is draaaaaaaaaaagging! So I'm going to eat a little something and take a nap. Hope all the dads are having

Video Of Me Getting....
A new video of me getting undressed out of a dress that my partner decided to catch on the cam! Enjoy! http://www.boysfood.com/uploaded-videos/9641/0.html Just uploaded so it might not work for 5 minutes yet!

Rating You Pix
To All My Friends, My Alert Box Has Not Been Working for 3weeks so if You Have New Pics,Please Let Me Know so I can rate them for You.CT Has Done NOTHING to Fix the problem even after 5 e-mails to them. Thanks, OBob

Pics
Well, at my wife's request, I posted a naughty picture on my gallery. It's just one now, but if I get a good response, I'll post more. She said to post more, but I want to be sure people want to see that kind of stuff first. :)

Vampire's Lust
I flew into a tree as she dropped him off. I had been watching them since they left the movie theater. She gave him a kiss on lips as she left him at his door. I didn’t listen to their conversation because I really didn’t care. The only thing I cared about was the girl leaving that doorstep. She was a redhead which always sparked my curiosity. When I am out to feed, my favorite is a natural redhead. I had to know if her hair was real. I flew down a foot step behind her. I noticed the curve of her ass from the black pants she was wearing. I also noticed the curve of her neck and the throbbing of a vein. A throbbing that could only be associated with a desire unfulfilled. She turned startled. I smiled, concealing my teeth for the moment. I nod and say, “Hello, sorry if I frightened you.” She keeps walking, but looks over long enough to say, “Its ok, I just wasn’t aware that anyone was behind me.” Through a small laugh I explained, “I don’t know why, but people say I am a hard person to s

Dad.
I called my dad a little while ago to wish him a Happy Father's Day and chat for a few minutes. No answer, which is really unlike him. I left him a message and still have not gotten a call back. I did talk to my sister though and she said she upset him this morning when she didn't attend church with him. So evidently he is not speaking to any of his kids now. Grrrr. Sometimes I don't understand grownups.

Sick Very Sick
I had a wonderful afternoon yesterday I had a wonderful evening yesterday I wake this morning me and the kids are sick I maybe taking us to the emergancy room if we don't hold done the water and gatoraid we are drink. I wont be on much till I feel better

Ratings
I rate everything a 10 if I look at it. From what I've seen and have been told everyone on here expects a 10 an anything less is an insult. Kind of makes me wonder why we do not have thumbs up or down then up but really to me ratings are not points and I'm in to the points. Some ARE all about ratings though and well get REAL upset for anything less than a 10. That said if you rate me a 1 I have to assume it is some sort of attack because that is just plain rude. I rate those people 1 and block them. I do not play people like that. Here are some of the ones that have low rated me lately. You might want to block them before they visit you: · iMsOgAnGsTa rated your photo a '1'!(MIA) · REALLY rated your photo a '1'! · tobis rated your photo a '1'! · emily rated your photoa '1'! · [jUsT aDoRkAbLe... rated your photo a '1'! · Draco332 rated your photo a '1'! · bigg-C rated your photo a '1'! · dragoncycle rated your photo a '2'! · LOVE ME THEN LO... rated your photo a '1'! · Qu

Mistress In The Dark
Mistress in the Dark I can't make out the details of her face, when she leaves she won't leave a trace. Her visits are becoming rarer and fewer, I'd give anything to see her. She walks in without a sound, everything she does is unbound. I can't remember the last time she came, things can't just stay the same. I look into the night for her gentle figure, hoping this time she'll pull the trigger. I love the mistress of the dark, just as natural as the sky loves the skylark. She has my heart and soul, when will she show? I guess its time for me to leave, only my love have i reaved.

Happy Father's Day To The Best Dad Ever !
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO MY DAD THE BEST THERE WAS ! EVEN THO HE IS GONE ALL HOLIDAYS ARE HARD BUT FATHER'S DAY HAS TO BE ONE OF THE HARDEST! DAD UR MISSED AND LOVED SOOOO MUCH ! ENJOY YOUR DAY DADDY .. I KNOW U WATCHING THE RACE *SMILE* Myspace Graphics at WishAFriend.com I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!

Even Though I Refuse To Accept I Am Grown Up...
The "Older People" Survey (Meant to be completed by those ADULTS out of high school) Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids? 'Have you ever kissed someone?' 'Missed someone?' 'Told someone you loved them?' 'Drank alcohol?' Here are some questions for the people who are a little more mature... Okay, okay... OLD FOLKS like us...... 1. What bill do you hate paying the most? The vehicles! 2. What's the best place to eat a romantic dinner? hmmm. Mellow Mushroom? lol 3. Last time you puked from drinking? Hubby's work Christmas party.lol 4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar? 2 years ago? 5. Name of your first grade teacher? It was actually my mom. 6. What do you really want to be doing right now? Sitting on my ass..just as I am doing. 7. What did you want to be when you were growing up? a nurse, a police officer, an astronaut. you know, the usual. 8. How many colleges did you attend? 2 so far. 9. Why

Baby Powder
Why is it that children always decide to act like barn animals on the same day?? About a week ago, I put my kids to bed. All of a sudden, my 18 month old randomly just starts SCREAMING. You would have thought that someone was trying to kill her!! I swear, not 2 seconds later my 4 month old started screaming.. he and my 3 year old share a room.. I walked in there and the WHOLE ROOM was nothing but a white dust cloud... BABY POWDER. When the dust cleared in there, I also found lotion on the floor that my 3 year old thought would help clean up the baby powder. My daughter had ripped off her diaper and was really upset about it.. and my 4 month old couldn't breathe through all the powder. Never in my whole life....

Fake Account--ladies Check It Out--be Cautious!
ThomasAnde...: good, block away loser ->ThomasAnde...: ok have a good one, I have already removed u from my friends list, so now I will juss block you---no big loss here! lol ThomasAnde...: Well the fact that you are questioning it, to be honest, has already irritated me. Ask some of the people here who have met me in person. But you are married anyways, and I am looking for someone interesting...so never mind. Bye. ->ThomasAnde...: i c---add more ;) then there will be no reason to question ya huh? ThomasAnde...: Well, I am on other sites...if someone else is using it then they have lifted it from me ->ThomasAnde...: yea but ur pic is not real--- i have seen that one before. ThomasAnde...: Well I am real you can pinch me if you want ThomasAnde...: ah ->ThomasAnde...: I doubt it, i usually dont talk to people that only have 1 picture, and no salutes---to many fakes out there. ThomasAnde...: I want an open minded wife like you ThomasAnde...: YOu still are cute Thoma

Sick Of This Shit
ok for those who know what i have been thru the past few weeks and especially the past few days ...i have had alot to deal with yeah SOME people may think eh its nothing you will get over it in time.well ya know what go to hell!!!! have you ever had to love something so much and have it taken from you like in a matter of hours? well i have and for those who really do are thank you for still asking how things are goin thank you for wanting to be updated so as for the title to this blog....I AM SICK OF THIS SHIT !!!! and what i mean by that is some oif the so called friends ya think ya got. i have begun to notice that thre are so who you KNOW that care and then there are some who just pretend to care to make ya feel good ..well pardonm my french but FUCK THAT i am goin thru to much right now to hagve a bunch of fake concerns coming at me i have learned who my friends are and arent...to those who ARE thank you so much for being here for me this past week it has really meant alot

I Miss Her
Jan, 26 1933 - July,18 1995 God looked around his garden and saw an empty place. He then looked down from heaven and saw your tired face He knew that you were suffering and a cure was not to be. So he put his arms around you and whispered 'come to me. With tearful eyes we watched,as you slowly passed away. And tho we loved you dearly,we could not make you stay. Many times we have needed you, many times we've cried. If only love could have saved you you never would have died. I miss you with all my heart Love your daughter and your friend

Today Is Harder Than I Thought It Would Be
today is fathers day. I thought I was ok, until I went grocery shopping. I found myself putting things in the basket for homemade beef stroganoff. It was daddy's favorite and I made it for him every year it seems. when I realized what I was doing I started tearing up. I put the stuff back since my family could care less what they eat for dinner (the kids would rather have hot dogs or something). As I was leaving the store, this annoying jerk behind me who had been attempting to hit on me started "playfully teasing"(??) me about how I need to make sure I be a good girl and tell my dad happy fathers day, I looked him in the face with tears forming again and said "I hope he does, he passed a month ago, thanks." The lady behind him called him something rude and asked if I was gonna be ok. I got a hold of my composure and came back home All of this happened on top of a lack of sleep the past few days, a sick child (and I mean messy sick), a bored older child (when does school start agai

Sick And Tired
I AM JUST SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF BEING TREATED LIKE SHIT, I DO EVERYTHING I AM ASKED LIKE A LITTLE BITCH AND I STILL GET PUSHED AROUND WALKED OVER TREATED LIKE A FUCKING DOOR MAT AND I AM FED THE FUCK UP WITH IT. I AM ABOUT TO GO THE FUCK OFF. I SWEAR TO GO IF JASON DONT HAVE A JOB BY THE END OF THIS WEEK I AM GOING THE FUCK OFF ON HIM AND I AM NOT FUCKING PLAYING AROUND ANYMORE!!!

Beautiful Angel
Mysterious woman A gift to the world She rivals the power of an angel The grace of beauty she absorbs Never a jealous item Legendary soul hides deep inside Her immortal body. Eyes that direct attention Soft skin that no man can touch A goddess to many Who may gain a small moment Observing her walk How she lives She is beyond the absolute. Who is this woman All men drop to their knees Silently worshiping Angel of beauty Unique flower alone in a garden She exists in everyone To share the love She holds inside.

Baby Watch!
Ok so it has been awhile since anyone has heard from me on here, and some of you are probly thinking I have vanished. In truth I have just been way to buisy. I don't have much time now, however since it is fathers day I just though I would pop on and let you all know how the baby watch is going. my luvley wife who some of you may know, is now one week past due and still hasn't popped. I hope it happens soon. Anyways hope you all have a great fathers day and stay safe.

Of The Dragons Rebirth
i guess its time to go into full disclosure mode and tell you about my life before i became the dragon. im sitting in this little shithole hotel thats got a five star rating waiting for edmond gonzales to return from his funeral. again i ramble fuck i never used to ramble. anyways back to my lifes story. i was your average kid until i was 12,my father was never home and my mom was slowly drinking herself to death(ha father she was right you would be the death of her.)When i was twelve father started injecting me with a tar-like substance called it my vitamins but i should never tell my mother. it went like this for years my father would come home and id get my vitamins whether or not i was asleep. if i was asleep it would always end up with me having nightmares about little demons running in my body tearing apart my soul. so just after my seventeenth birthday im lying in bed awake waiting for father to come home when i hear the door open. they argue for a minute which was unusual i hav

Frosted Windows
Your breath twists and flutters a pale blue Under the moonlight Before disappearing into the wind The warmth overpowered by the cold Much like a wilting rose in winters chill Your smile bites back your words, choking them down A window to your soul left unguarded Tells me everything I stare into them unblinking Naked, no pretense, no masks to hide behind Love in all its darkness defined

Redneck
1. Have your ever said Hey ya'll watch this and ended up in the hospital? 2. Used a road sign to sight in your rifle? 3. Drank so much that you have woke up in the bed with a woman who weighs twice as much as you do? 4. Ever threw up in your boot? 5. Woke up naked in your front or back yard? 6. You scratch yourself no matter when are where you are at? 7. When you fart you invite others to come share the aroma with you? 8. You have ever shared a spit can. 9. You got lost in the woods, chased up a tree by wild hogs, then have an owl fly into your head. (Bodine your my hero) 10. Poured you sippin whiskey in your truck to give it enough gas to make it home. 11. Have ever shit on your overall straps. 12. Touched yourself in an impure manner while in your tree stand. 13. Accidentally shot a hole in your house while cleaning your gun. 14. Fell out of your tree stand and break both of your legs. (You D man HD) 15. Gave yoursel

Happy Father's Day To All The Dads Of Cherry Tap
I JUST WANNA SEND OUT SOME SPECIAL LOVE FROM ME TO ALL THE DADS OF CHERRY TAP THIS INCLUDES ALL FATHERS DAD'S TO BE AND TO THE FUTURE DADDY'S TO COME KNOW HOW SPECIAL YOU ARE TO YOUR CHILDREN AND TO YOUR FAMILY IT'S A BLESSING FROM GOD TO BE ABLE TO HAVE SOMEONE THEY CAN CALL DAD IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOUR A FOSTER DAD OR ADOPTIVE FATHER'S DADS ARE GREAT AND THEY DESERVE ALL THE LOVE HONOR AN RESPECT NOT JUST THIS ONE DAY OF THE YEAR BUT EVERYDAY AND MOST OF ALL THEY ARE LOVED AND NEEDED BY THEIR CHILDREN EVERYDAY SO HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD'S. LOVE YA ALL PINK

Omg It Was An Alligator No Kidding
What a day!! I was cleaning the yard today, just tryin to get things done, and when I went into the garage, I seen an alligator, At first I thought it was hubby tryin to play a trick on me cause it didnt move, and my mother has a fake one, so I didnt even think about it until I moved the lawn mower and it moved, OMG I freaked out yelling OMG theres an alligator in the garage. No one would come an help me I sent the kids to get my hubby, and that bastard wouldnt even come to help either, So I grabbed my cell phone and called 911. Poor 911 operator I am yelling while hyperventalting theres an alligator in my garage, I swear I had to say it 4 times before she understood what I said. Finially my brother in law came to see what I was yelling about, he believe i was flippin out over a kids toy, He kept saying Trace I dont see any thing , I yelled move stuff, all of a sudden he yells omg there is an alligator in here, By this time my hubby and neighbor come from the other side of the house

Close To Home
I STAY CLOSE TO HOME,BECAUSE HOME IS NO FURTHER THAN MY HEART,FOR I CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT IT,...IT SENDS A TOUCH OUT THAT REACHES SO FAR, EVEN IF THOSE CLOSE ARE FAR AWAY,YOU TAKE ME AS I AM,AND YOU SEE INTO ME,MY SOUL,THERE IS GOOD THERE,AND SOMETIMES I THINK YOU FORGET THE LITTLE THINGS I DO,WHEN I FEEL LIKE LETTING MY LIGHT SHINE,BUT THEN YOU DON'T,FORGET,AND MAKE MY DAY,WHEN ONLY TIMES WHEN I REMEMBER SOMETIMES LITTLE THINGS MEAN SO MUCH,...Tim McGraw Videos | Video Codes | Downtown Chicago Real Estate

Letting Go...
These many years I have been working with the theme of... letting go... To relinquish the people one loves is especially hard, and yet this is the nature and requirement of love. While I cling to another, I can never truly love that person. When I love the other I will free him or her to follow a path that is not my path, to hold opinions that are in opposition to my own, to have friends that will never be my friends, to live in a city that is not my city, to leave the circle of my love for another's love. Him that I love, I wish to be Free. Even from me. ......sigh ............Its time to turn the page

It's Too Far Back...
So like... ok... I'm on the phone with my kids a few evenings ago (They're in KY visiting their father for the summer)... and my daughter tells me "Dad says we're not native american, it's too far back." Unbeknownst to DAD... I've been receiving information for quite some time from about our lineage... So I tell my daughter, "Well perhaps Dad should rethink this. One, he has absolutely no clue about MY side of the family, Two he's never really known what the fuck he's talking about and with that type of mentality...Aren't Adam and Eve too far back?" My daughter rolled with laughter and said, "I LOVE YOU MOM!" Put that in your Christian pipe and smoke it..."Dad" *evil grin*

Road Trip
From the 24th of June to the 5th of July, I'll be on the road again. Going from Virginia, to North Carolina, South Carolina, Lousiana, New Mexico, Las Vegas Nevada, Colorado, and Utah so far. Driving across Texas, but no one to see or hug yet. Anyone want to meet and be hugged? ~Feldar

Interesting Night Last Night
I have a very eventful night last night...... I went to hang out with some friends of mine after work last night and by 10:30 pm I had to go to the hospital to get checked out to make sure everything was alright (for those of you that dont know or I didnt tell sorry I am pregnant) I have a little over two months left to go and I started having contractions at about 11 pm last night and didnt get released til 9:30 am. I only slept about 2 to 2 1/2 hours between 8 am yesterday and now so I am exhausted to say the least. But yeah so anyways there isnt much else to report so I am going to end this for now. XOXOXOXO SPOILEDBABY

Online Bickering
i know you've probably all seen it already...but bickering online is like the Special Olympics...in the end...everyone is still a retard--pardon the offensive terminology...not intended to slight anyone, only a figure of speech to emphasize the level of such behaviors

Imagine
My body has a fever Burning hot to touch, Erotic thoughts fill my head I want you oh so much A shivering sensation Travels down my spine, An overwhelming desire I have to make you mine Churnng in my stomach Dizziness in my head, I am drifting into fantasy Alone here in this bed Heavily my eyes do close In to ecstasy I go.... Now you are mine my love And no one has to know As this passion rises Mt throat feels hot and dry, My hungry gasping breath Becomes a long satisfied sigh One day I will have you Not a fantasy in my head, Be sure that I will get you I desire

To Whom My Concern
well, i had surgery yesterday.i had a cyst on my tailbone.have to go back tothe doc monday to do a follow up.hopefully i will be able to work who knows. wish me well :) ps my meds are kickin in so i be going to bed soon have me on hydrocodone and clefurumine(sp)

Look
Feel the blowing leaves and reeds Lying on our backs in that field Felt like we were the only humans Banished in the middle of no where Staring at the thousands of stars Feeling the crisp night prickle my spine Feeling your heart beat so close to mine And repeatedly saying the same three words "I love you" is what you told me Before we promised we would be together Forever and ever, you have my heart And I could feel your warm embrace And now I'm here, all alone Wondering what I've done so wrong Watching my whole life before my eyes And feeling the cruel world crash down on me Can't you see what pain you've caused?

What About Me? The Reason Why I'm Alone
Read the list that's lying there Tell me what you see A hundred things to do today But none of them include me There's wood to cut, grass to mow And weeds for him to pull A car to fix, a tire to mend And a friend who needs his help He runs all day and works so hard He says it's all for the family And when the day comes to an end He's on the couch and fast asleep There is no time to talk to me To show me that he cares He can't remember what I say It often seems he doesn't hear I cry silently in the night When he has gone to sleep I dream of love and tenderness And some time that's just for me

Working On Morphs
1st off hope all you dads had a great fathers day with cookouts and all. 2ndly working on morphs...found a site that has freeware morphing software...works very good so if anyone might want a morph created ...you know how to give me a haller. And to those that visit here feel free to check out my profile and sign my guestbook on your way out. Thanks

Don't Wanna Let Go
It's over. He's gone. Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled. In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting: it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bitters

Todays Horoscope
You draw people to you just by being you. Is it your fault that you're practically irresistible? When you're ready to go, there's no stopping you. Now's your time to shine, so take glory in being in the spotlight. that is so freakin right.. i cant help im irresistible !!!! :D

Prettiest Plus Size Cherrytap Lady Contest
I am having a contest for the Prettiest Plus Size Cherrytap Lady Contest Rules 1. You My Bomb Yourself 2. No Auto Bombing 3. No Down rating 4. Must Be A Picture Of You No Morphs All entry's must be in by Thurs. June 21st @ 12 noon est... Contest will Start Just 21th @ 4:30 pm est an run until THURS. June 28th @ 6pm est... the 2 with the most comments and 1 with the most rates will move on to the judges and the winner will be picked by them Prize will a BIG PIMPIN GIFT Fireman 7 C.T. FIRE DEPARTMENT@ CherryTAP

Our Sons, Duaghters, Husbands And Wives
This will probably change more times than I want before it's done. I'm starting this in honor of all the men and women in the Armed Forces and especially for those that have given their lives for a cause that no one but the people in office know about. We lost three of ours yesterday morning at 8:23 to a VBIED and one of them was a friend of mine. Not the first friend I've lost, but the first good friend I've lost for a reason that I'm not sure of. This is for all of you. Whether you're religous or not. Say a prayer to whatever god or God you find comforting. If you are an atheist, then then ask your car, money or what have you to keep them safe. These are the same people that we may see walking down the street every day. The same people that may help you in your time of need. The same people that protect our right to be on a site lik the one your on right now.

When I Must Leave
(just a little poem that i like) When i must leave you for a little while Please do not grieve and shed wild tears And hug your sorrow to you through the years But start out bravely with a gallant smile; Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer And i in turn will omfort you and hold you near; And never, never be afraid to die, For i am waiting for you in the sky.

Information On "mcgills Community" Website, To Help Lil Johnny
PLEASE KEEP LIL JOHNNY IN UR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. PLEASE HELP OUT ALL U CAN, IF EVERYONE WOULD MAKE A DONATION, IT WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED. BRYANT MCGILL HAS VERIFIED AND ENDORSED THIS CAUSE. MORE INFO ON THE LINK BELOW. TY http://www.bryantmcgill.com/forum/index.php/topic,4202.msg16648.html#msg16648

Maroon 5-she Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen She had some trouble with herself He was always there to help her She always belonged to someone else I drove for miles and miles And wound up at your door I've had you so many times but somehow I want more I don't mind spending everyday Out on your corner in the pouring rain Look for the girl with the broken smile Ask her if she wants to stay awhile And she will be loved She will be loved Tap on my window knock on my door I want to make you feel beautiful I know I tend to get so insecure It doesn't matter anymore It's not always rainbows and butterflies It's compromise that moves us along, yeah My heart is full and my door's always open You can come anytime you want I don't mind spending everyday Out on your corner in the pouring rain Look for the girl with the broken smile Ask her if she wants to stay awhile And she will be loved And she will be loved And she will be loved And she will be loved I know where you h

Hi To All
I Love You With my every breath, With all I have left, From the deepest depths, Of my heart, I love you. With all of my strength, With ten miles' length, Every thought I think, I think that I love you. For the length of forever, As long as we're together, Through good and bad weather, For always, I love you. Until the very end of days, Until God takes my breath away, Until death separates our ways, Until then, I love you. When no one is there, When you think no one cares, When love seems too rare, Remember, I love you. When everything's gone, When all has withdrawn, When hopelessness dawns, Don't forget, I love you. When you fall down, When your dreams come unwound, When hope can't be found, Be happy, I love you. When you make mistakes, When you're filled with hate, When you're old and gray, Even then, I'll love you

Angel
You scored as Angel, Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.Angel92% Faerie75% Mermaid75% WereWolf58% Dragon42% Demon17% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

Relationships
The Wounded Current mood: contemplative The Wounded….what you ask do I mean by that? Tell me, how many walking wounded are out there? I'm not talking about battle wounds. Well, I guess maybe I am but not the kind you are thinking about I'm talking about those who've endured and survived the carnage of the relationship…What makes someone dedicate themselves to that one woman? Overlooking even the obvious faults and warning signs. What makes one forgive anything, no matter how hurtful? What makes someone endure blow after blow to someone's self esteem delivered by the one held so dear and close to the heart?...Love?...it would seem that love does in fact mean you never have to say you are sorry. What makes someone do things so cruel and torturous to those told they are so dear? How do you watch as the one who loves you suffers at your hand? How do you treat with such, ambiguity the one who claims and has proven time and time again their undying devotion? How do you sleep a

Just A Blog
I am new to C/T and I am here to say I am hooked. This is so much better than MySpace and their is so much to do on here. It is a great interactive site and I see myself spending alot of time on here. Well, I will go for now. My Blogs will get more interesting in time I promise.

At This Moment.......
♥ "At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes.. all you need is 1." ♥

Rating
I am so tired of all this b.s I rate all my friends pictures and stashes. I have more than a few friends here yet only 6 of my friends return the rates I mean come on people you expect me to rate all of your stuff well im not doing it anymore.The 6 or 7 who do return the rates and talk to me and dear friends you know who you are Iloves yas each and every one!!!

Walk Away
Walk Away I wanted you more then anything would have given up my life but you weren't ready for that you wanted your old life i let you make your choice knowing what it would be i pretended it wouldn't hurt but it is killing me i tried so hard not to cry but i can't hold back wanting you to be happy all i could do was step back so happy i was with you in my life but wanting you to be happy i had no choice i stepped away not willing to fight i think now maybe i should have the fight for your life i wnt you to be happy from now till you die i know she will hurt you again but i can't do anything but cry i told you i was rebound litle did i know you would run back to her leaving me to hurt i just want you to be happy no matter what don't hurt anymore because what i do best is take the pain for all the rest i may never love again but i'll be ok because i'm strong i've always been that way just don't forget that i care for you i sit and cry

Yay!
BlueGrass! So I went up to Grassvalley this weekend for the annual fathers day weekend Bluegrass Festival. It was AWESOME! Now I know a lot of you will think, bluegrass, isn't that oakie music? Well, yeah some of it is, but not all of it. I would have to say that my favorite band from this weekend was John Reischman and the Jaybirds was my favorite. I caught all of their shows- there were three. Their music is just mellow, kind of like a mixture of country and folk. I just sat there and listened and read, wrote, or closed my eyes and picked out a certain instruance and focused on it (too many years of music classes!) It was awesome though. My Friday was pretty nice too. I am disappointed that I didn't get to conquer the tree. I need to go back. We had a challenge at our off site meeting. We were to climb a tree on big industrial staples, to a ledge. get on the ledge and jump. I made it about 5 feet from the ledge and stopped. I was too scared to make it all the way. I was shaki

Idiot's
Well I had another bad day at work. There is this one asshole here, which thinks he can yell at people. Well yesterday was his last time for that with me. I had to call my boss and have him contact the shift Forman about him. I was sooooo piss off that I was shaking all over. I take meds to control the anger and rage that come from a very bad up bringing. I do not take kindly to being yelled at by anyone. I can’t do anything to him at work, but I will catch him out someday, and on that I will break him. I will mark him, he will be owned by me. The best part, I will only get 1yrs probation, six months in a mental ward, and about six months of therapy, because I am being treated for an illness that makes me mean. It’s called intermittence explosive disorder. Along with some other mood disorders. Lord look at what the world has done to me. I am by far not a mean person. I am very kind, and loving. Just don’t get on my bad side is all. You wouldn’t like me when I’m angry. Peace and Love to

Goat Cheese Croutons:
GOAT CHEESE CROUTONS: 1 pound medium-soft goat cheese logs 3 sheets frozen phyllo dough, thawed 2 to 3 tablespoons olive oil Cut the goat cheese into eight 1/2-inch slices. (Tip: Use dental floss to slice the cheese logs cleanly.) Cut the thawed phyllo into long, thin strips (chiffonade). NOTE: A pasta machine cutter works well and makes uniform sizes. Wrap each goat cheese round in a nest of phyllo strips (they should look a lot like shredded wheat). Place them on lightly oiled baking sheet; set aside. (NOTE: the croutons may be refrigerated, covered, at this point for 1 hour). When ready to use, preheat broiler. Brush the phyllo/goat cheese rounds with olive oil. Place under broiler in oven until lightly browned; turn them over and brown the other side. Remove from oven and transfer to the individual salads with a spatula.

Young King Arthur
Young King Arthur Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death. The question?.... What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end. He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer. Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be high; a

No Internet
Sorry everyone, my internet had technical difficulties tonight and I was not able to get on for the evening. Just wanted to let you all know that I will be back in the Coyote Ugly Bar tonight and ready to party and dance and have a great time. Hope as many of you as possible will stop by and check us out! Look forward to seeing everyone there! I should be in around 10pm and ready to have a rocking blast!!!

Together
Together My hands through your hair, fingers entwined together around your neck, and a soft touch to your face. I look into your eyes and see a longing that has consumed your entire being. I am lost in the moment as I pull you to me in order to feel your lips on mine in a kiss a million moments in the making. Eyes closed, lips licked, leaning into each other, soft flesh touching, and lips parted. Your hesitation is deafening as you pull back ever so slowly, as if to say, "I know this is wrong, but I cannot help but to want to consume that intoxicating, passionate, somewhat erotic kiss that you offer me." I pull you in with fierce intent, and press my lips to yours. You are lost in my control of this moment. I have conquered that fear that caused the sudden hesitation. I'd call you my slave, but I cannot for the fact remains I too am a slave to you. There is a passion building with each breath taken as this kiss seems to last an eternity. I can feel you against me, and I wa

What Do I Do?
Ok, so I'm here battling an inner war about a person. I love this person but I know he does not love me. How do I tell my heart to give it up and let go? I can't stand the lack of sleep, the constant crying, not eating and just being miserable. My life is being affected. I put on my happy face during the day for my children's sake, but I'm miserable at night. It's now 2am and I have to be up at 5am, so why am I still up and not able to sleep? Because my heart is missing this person and just wants to think of him, but as I said...he feels nothing for me anymore. What do I do?

What A Fathers Day!
So yeh my step dads fathers day started off at 1:15am when my best friend (like a sister to me) called me and woke him up saying that her grandmother got worse (grandmother has lung cancer) So she was crying and talking all suicidal cause her grandmother has taken care of her since she was born, so she thinks it should be her in the hospital and not her grandmother. Well i was finally able to calm her down and told her to go get some sleep cause she was tired of course. Next thing i know shes calling back at 3:50am saying that her grandmother passed away. So my mom was crying and my step dad was trying to calm her down and the friend that was over my house drove me over the see my other friend (the one thats like a sister to me) So i got there at like 3:55am and my mom kept calling us cause there was no one else at her house, it was just me and her. She was crying so much and i feel terrible! I stayed there till 3:30pm cause finally her aunts and uncles got there. As for me

Hello Doopie
Too many subjects to fall into one genre Current mood: awake Category: Life Might I wander through these Fields in Knowledge...Aware...Impressed upon...Spoken to by the Voice which spins these Universes...these many Fields which Move these Revolutions. These Revolutions. May I wander and Wonder in amazement at the Beauty which Surrounds our Simplistic Capabilities. Might I remain humble as I squander this gift among those who may not See. May I be Blessed enough to be given the Audience to which I am received in Honesty. Who might Hear me in Truth...more than simply to the Crowd which Emily Dickinson referred to as "the admiring Bog...Who am I?" Shallow narrowness is so much Easier for the Crowd, is it not? Pass it by. Live in the Box which you yourself have Created. Choose Ignorance...it is a Simpler Path...little or no complication. Effortless and unrequired. No need to Participate. So, I am on my soap box just a preachin' away....but if you stop to Listen...there are Pearls

To Thouse That Have Lost And Loved
this message goes out to a reminder to all of you who have loved and lost. we all have loved someone in our lives Whether that be a friend, a boyfriend or girlfriend, or even a close family memeber. Each day they carry around a piece of our hearts, evey where they go in life it is with them no matter how far away they are or how close are love for them they carry. It is only harder to watch that someone who holds a tiny piece of your hear pass from this world and take that piece of you with that, and even though you may feel a part of you has died with them since they held a small piece of your heart thats not true for even you held a small piece of there heart and since you still live so shall they in your heart so you will always love them and carry them with you as they had done. to everyone that knows me personaly an none this reminder I wrote to you all is to give you closure for your lose, for I just his past sunday have lose someone close to me, my grandmother past June 17

My Life Dreams
My dreams for my life don't seem like they are going to happen so I think I should let them be known at least. My life dream is to find someone that will love me for me, not want to change me in anyway. I want to find someone that will not tell me lets just be friends. I want this person to be patient, understanding, knows how I am feeling without having to ask, will never hit me or lie to me. I want this person to be honest and open with me about everything in his life past, present and future. I dream of eventually marrying this person, not a big wedding just friends and family maybe outside like in the spring or something like that. I wanted to wear a white gown but that is probably out of the question for certain reasons that are best left unsaid. I want to have at least 4 kids becaue I want more than just 2. My reason for that is because it is only me and my sister and I don't like the idea of that. I sort of been thinking of names for my kids which I don't think I will ever have.

Another Word For Love
Another Word For Love by Steve Goodier I knew a woman who always found an excuse to love. I met her working at the most difficult job of my life - as a helper in an after-school daycare center. I was completely unprepared for the work; I had no training and my temperament seemed to be particularly unsuited to the position. I reminded myself that I was hired to watch the children, play with them and lead arts and crafts - not fix all of their problems, of which there were many. And my only help was Mrs. Tucker, a 73-year-old retired social worker who worked with me. All that stood between the kids and disaster was me and a 73- year-old woman. And I wasn't that sturdy a defense! But I soon learned that Mrs. Tucker was a master with these children. "Some children just need more love," she always said. A case in point was Timmy. Timmy received special help at school because of his emotional problems. He was developmentally delayed. He ofte

Art Aguirre Talks About Body Modification
I dont have many ppl i look up to in my life or should i say i dont look up to anyone but one man i do on a completely spiritual level and his name is Art Aguirre here he is talking about Modern Primatism and piercings.... i hope you enjoy the article ive found... Art Aguirre Body modification artist and shop owner Church of Steel, San Diego, California www.churchofsteel.com DB: You were called the "Modern Primitive" on Sci-Fi channel's reality show, "Mad, Mad House," is that the correct term and what does it mean? AA: I, myself, would be considered somewhat of a modern primitive, but the actual term modern primitivism came from one of the pioneers, a very respected individual that is known in the body modification industry that had in a sense revived in western culture and brought to all of our eyes and a lot of our minds and gave us visuals and brought back to life body modification as a whole, and that would be Fakhir Musafar. He is one that is known to ha

My Playlist
i added more songs to my play list... wayne toups is a local boy and the song empty glass sounds better when Richard LeBeouf sings it. couldn't find richard to download so make do like me.. lol still more to come......

Red Neck If 1
You think "loading the dishwasher" means getting your wife drunk. You ever cut your grass and found a car. You own a home that is mobile and 5 cars that aren't. You think the stock market has a fence around it. Your stereo speakers used to belong to the Drive-in Theater. Your boat has not left the drive-way in 15 years. You own a homemade fur coat. Chiggers are included on your list of top 5 hygiene concerns. You burn your yard rather than mow it. Your wife has ever said, "Come move this transmission so I can take a bath." You read the Auto Trader with a highlight pen. The Salvation Army declines your mattress. You've ever raked leaves in your kitchen. Birds are attracted to your beard. Your wife's job requires her to wear an orange vest. You were shooting pool when any of your kids were born. You have the local taxidermist's number on speed dial. You've ever hit a deer with your car...deliberately. Your school fight song was "Dueling Banjos". You

Some Old Poetry.
"THE PATTERN" The Pattern Break me Hate me Love me …Leave me Hold me Hug me Guide me …Leave me Kiss me Touch me Fool me …Leave me Fuck me Obstruct me Hurt me …Leave me Mock me Shock me Taste me …Leave me See me Hear me Cease me …Leave me Enjoy me Destroy me Envy me …Leave me

How To Tell If Wife Is Makin Dirty Movies
Here are some foolproof ways to tell if your wife is making dirty movies behind your back: Every couple of weeks she has to fly to California to care for a "sick aunt." When in bed, she just lies there until you yell "Action!" Just as you're about to make love, she asks, "What's my motivation?" She keeps getting mail addressed to "Patty O'Plenty." Whenever you go out, drooling men ask her for her autograph. She looks suspiciously like the Hustler pin-up in your neighbor's garage. She knows sexual positions that would put a circus contortionist in the hospital. She wears a micro miniskirt and six-inch spike heels to go grocery shopping. On your joint tax return she lists her occupation as "passion princess."

What To Do While Wif Shoping In Walmart
Here’s a list of activities that you can do while your wife/girlfriend is shopping. Get 24 boxes of condoms & randomly put them in People’s carts when they aren’t looking. Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute intervals. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official tone: ‘Code 3 in House wares’. . . and see what happens. Go to the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M’s on lay-away. Move a ‘CAUTION - WET FLOOR’ sign to a carpeted area. Set-up a tent in the Camping Department-and tell other shoppers you’re sleeping over; invite them in if they bring pillows from the Bedding Department. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask: “Why can’t you people just leave me alone?” Look right into the security camera, use it as a mirror and pick your nose. While handling guns in the Hunting Department, ask the clerk if he knows where the anti-de

She Wonders
She doesn't want to leave him But the hurt just perseveres She doesn't mimic him Or the pain he caused for years… She doesn't want to need him He tells her she won't exist without him She knows she couldn't leave He wouldn't let her… Oh how she would love To never cry again But every night is the same And the fights begin… He is driving her further away from him He is pulling her back by the hair She wonders what she did to deserve this She knows that life's not fair… She can't let everyone down She's been through it before But what should she do this time around He just ignores her… She always gets the feeling Things aren't as they seem She wonders what he'd do without her If she'd fulfill her dreams.. He used to hold her hand And he used to kiss her softly She can never understand The hate he displays for her now…. He says he doesn't hate her He knows he hasn't changed He says it

This Is Who I Am
I'm the girl who HATES socks. I'm the girl who LOVES to cuddle. I'm the girl who can't decide on what to wear. I'm the girl who complains all the time. I'm the girl who NEVER feels good. I'm the girl who runs away from her problems. I'm the girl whose in love with you. I'm the girl whom you love. I'm the girl who can't manage money. I'm the girl who hates laundry. I'm the girl whose horrible with dishes. I'm the girl who cries herself to sleep. I'm the girl who LOVES sleeping naked. I'm the girl, that is me. I'm the girl who's cell phone addicted. I'm the girl who is sad. I'm the girl who misses her friends. I'm the girl who wants to leave. I'm the girl who hates so much. I'm the girl who loves the unlovable. I'm the girl you wish you were. I'm the beauty you dream about. I'm the girl whose a little chubby. I'm the girl who has no self esteem. I'm the girl who wishes for nothing.. except that you would accept me

Horoscope June 18, 2007
A hidden need for something different and exciting might make you crabbier than you actually are. You need glamour, romance, excitement. The stars say all of that is within your grasp -- you just have to reach for it. Can this only be in your dreams?

Ex's 92 Year Old Grandfather Update
Yesterday was Father's Day and I found out that the ex's 92 year old grandfather passed away on Saturday, June 16, 2007 at 10:10 PM. Just on the 5th of June the grandparents had celebrated their 70th year of being married and the grandfather fell and broke his hip. I feel so bad for the grandmother. I did the upmost respectful thing to do...I called my ex and told him I was sorry for his loss as well as the grandmother and the ex's father. I don't know what I would do if I lost my parents. I hope and pray that the grandmother will be ok. She is such a sweet lady and deserves to be ok. But I have a feeling she is gonna give up and won't have the will to live herself. I hope I'm wrong.

Horoscope For Today
Your appeal is on overdrive. If you're partnered, your sweetheart can hardly bear to be away from your side. If you're single, you'll have to fight 'em off with a stick. Accept all the loving attention that's lavished upon you. ** yeah right, would love to know where they get their info from lol

Our Last Night
Our Last Night We spent our last time together last night For at least five hours everything felt so right We laughed and talked and held each other She kept changing the radio stations from one to another We ordered room service and had dinner alone It was the first time since we use to do it at home As the night went on time really went fast But this was a moment for us that will always last We started kissing and then we made love We were joined as one from heaven above As the night went on I knew she had to go But there is something inside that both of us know The feeling of love we had was always so true And no one will ever change that for me and you As we kissed and we both started to cry The reason was its not easy to say goodbye. We will be together again we both know In the place in the sky were soul mates go.

Compromise Of Character.
I have noticed here on CT as in life. Alot, I'm not saying all just alot, of people want to be accepted. They go to alot of lengths to ensure this. Some compromise their own morals with NFSW pics to be accepted. What I mean by that is they really don't want to do them or post them, but they do so someone will talk to them or accept them. They will stop talking to certian people, because others they feel are more popular say don't talk to them, or block them. Some will take what others say about a certian "type" of person and completely stay away from that "type" so they are accepted. The problem with this is....it creates a false acceptance. Once someone compromises their own beliefs and ways of thinking to fit in. It takes away their character. It only makes it where you must walk on egg shells to be part of the popular ones. If you are yourself and you live by your own set of rules and think for yourself, people accept you for you. You will find that is where happiness is. You

Nicole Contest
OKAY ALL IT IS MONDAY MORNING JUNE 18 AND NICOLE IS IN A CONTEST AND SHE IS IN 5TH PLACE AND IF SHE WINS SHE IS IVING HER BLAST TO THE HOMEPAGE SO LETS GO HELP HER TO WIN. SHE NEEDS LOTS OF HELP SO I WANT EVERYONE TO GO AND HELP HER. JUST CLICK ON THE LINK ABOVE AND THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

Another Short Story I Wrote
Imagine I'm looking at the little dimples on either side of the base of your spine. How perfect and symmetrical and incredibly sexy. The little dip in the center of your back, which shows the outline of your backbone, rises vertically. Your blonde hair hides your graceful neck, but your bare shoulders are arched backwards, causing your shoulder blades to compress into the middle of your back, creating a small canyon of shadow. I notice the freckles on your fair skin and think how wonderfully they complement blonde hair. The round curves of your perfectly formed ass hover four inches above my stomach. I can see and feel my erect cock disappearing into the wet folds of your cunt. Your legs have straddled me and your feet are on the floor. I’m slumped on the couch, with my feet resting on the floor, knees at a 90-degree angle, making a rock-hard table of my stomach. You are slowly rising and falling, impaling yourself on my manhood. The muscles of your legs extend and inv

"to All The Girls Who Look Past The Nice Guys."
I'm sorry that i bought you roses to tell you that i like you I'm sorry That I was raised with respect not to sleep with you when you were drunk I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club I'm sorry I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy. I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to talk to, but never good enough to date I'm sorry That I always held your hair back when you threw up, and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car, but when we went out you went home with another guy I'm sorry That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your n

Murphy's Law Bites Me In The Ass Again
Well It all started when I decided that computers just wasnt bringing in enough cash. I started working on small motors. Again. So to get extra cash for things around here and for us to have money to go and do things....I started doing this. A guy brought me a go cart that needed work. I got it up and running. I took it down the sidewalk...and then around the block. It ran good...fast as hell...good pick up...even with my big ass on it!! LOL. I came back was adjusting the carb on it for even more power....I started it back up...the throttle cable stuck....and it took off. All I could say was Oh SHIT!!!! I was going like a bat out of hell......then it took a left turn....right into the neighbors gas meter. OH FUCK!! I ran down the driveway....I shut off the go cart....and the pipe to the meter is busted. I yell for my g/f's dad to call the gas company...I run back to the garage to gat a wrench to shut off the gas line. The neibor comes out chews my ass for this....Then here come the fi

What I've Done
It wasnt like I planned it, what I've done I've been lost and trapped in darkness now that I'm out it's finally quiet there's no more screaming from the pain I step back to reality and find that no one likes the way I found to be happy not that I expect less it's how it's always been: I have to crawl to keep myself, my thoughts, my choices while all around my voices tell me to do it their way it sickens me, knowing that it's always gonna be this hard to be happy no regrets, this is how I live, how I survive no choice but mine, fuck giving in I'm gonna live, I don't wanna lose my friends but I've gotta be me, I need to do things my way to be able to breathe

I Swear To God
OHk, so im tired of downraters, every time a guy looks at my profile and my pictures, he rates them a 1. I have a feeling these guys are just jealous because every woman who rates me gives me 10's, to this i say, i dont give a fuck what guys think, because as long as i look good i the eyes of the only gender i really care about, then im fine. if your going to downrate, then you can just shoot yourself in the fucking throut

Between The Sheets...
Between the sheets that’s where I want you to be. Not a sound except the moans from you and me. Rain beating on the window creating the mood for loving. Bodies combined hugging and rubbing. Between the sheets silk on skin heat generated let the loving begin. Faster, harder, deeper are the sounds I hear from you. That’s it baby, make it do what you do so well. Between the sheets that’s where I want you to be right here right now no place I'd rather be Author Unknown

Update!
Ok Ok OK... I'll post an update on my lil ole life. Well, I'm about 2 months into my divorce process.... meaning 1 more month and it's all final. Said and done, that's all she wrote!!!! I'll be free from ties that bind. Still, I don't regret the past due to the fact it brought me here to the future. and to the people I know now. I love them all. Besides that. Work is going great. Kids are doing good. Still in need of a car.... blah. But Life is good. Life is SWEET.... DUDE...... SWEET! sorry lol Fish are friends not food! lmao. Stevie u crack me up babe! Anyways... I'll post more at a later date. luv all, Amy

Thank You All For Your Prayers
I want to thank everyone for the prayers that were sent up on behalf of my Dad, Carl Peterson. Dad did not make it through his struggle, and went home to be with his Heavenly Father, on Saturday, June 16th, at 2:35 p.m.. He spent his Father's Day with Heavenly Father This has been a most difficult weekend, as will be the next few days, and months, trying to adjust without him in our lives. My Dad was 88. We arrived back home last night, around midnight, and will be returning to Lebanon tomorrow for visitation in the evening, and the funeral on Wed. morning. I ask that you please continue to remember our family in prayer, especially my mother. This is going to be extremely difficult for her, trying to move on without her life partner of 61yrs. Please just remember us all though this difficult time. Thank you again, so much, for all your prayers, and continued prayers. Much love, Lev

School
Not off to a great start...I missed my 1st class because I couldn't find it...how stupid is that? Should have left my hair blonde so at least I would have an excuse for it...Have a class at 1pm...won't miss that one because I know where it is:) Anyways...by the looks of it, I may have chosen some difficult classes for this quarter, I already know that one class I have to read anywhere from 90 - 160 pages a week!! I like to read, but it seems difficult when I know I HAVE to do it...Well, its like I said, I can't afford to fail any of my classes this quarter, so I am going to have to buckle down and do it....man, I should have picked easier classes for the summertime!!! Well, you all have a good day, and I will try to get on here for a little bit later on...if not I will talk to you all when I get a chance...~kisses~

Sex Me
SEX ME I know the touch of your hand Even when your not around I know the touch of your kiss Even when your moving down U let me know how you feel And let's me know it's surreal Sex me with your touch, your kiss and tongue Let me know it's good to you and your wanting more-wanting more I know the look in your eyes, when you see me It let's me know in my heart were you art to be Even though you wine and dine Even though you spendin time Even when your not around I can feel you going down U let me know how you feel And let's me know it's surreal When I'm next to you the passion inside Makes me want to sex your body, I can't deny To know that the love, can take over me And I can't wait till next time you on top on me U let me know how you feel And let's me know it's surreal Sex Me With your lips from head to toe Feeling the passion overflow Feeling your tongue on my thigh And then we connect, for the long ride Sex Me With your lips from head to toe F

Icon Week: Bruce Springsteen
Just wanted to do something different this week. This week my page will be donated to Icons we may know. Each day I will donate time, energy, blogs, stash and reviews to Icons. Today will be spent on the "Boss," Bruce Springsteen. Please feel free to share your thoughts on this American Icon or experience you may have had.

Referral Issues
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Summer
I'm not a huge fan of summer because it's HOT and I sunburn really easily. But...I do like going to the beach and just the laid backness (not a word, I know) that it brings. I remember being a kid and just playing outside all summer with NO worries. God, I miss those days so much. Then I remember being a teenager and sneaking beer and hanging out late all summer. Still carefree. Now...I have to work all the time and worry about bills. Not so much fun, thus is life. I have managed to fill my summer with going to see baseball games, wrestling events and some concerts. I have: Flaw on 6/30 Mushroomhead on 7/7 Papa Roach, Hinder, & Buckcherry on 9/8 I need to find a few more to go to. There isn't really a point to this blog...just some rambling.

Numbers
Numbers! Don't blame me. I'm just passing it on. So often, we get caught up in a debate over political semantics and end up ignoring the hard-shell realities of what we're talking about. According to ImmigrationCounters.Com, here are some of the realities that Flake-Gutierrez would airbrush out of the picture: Number of Illegal Aliens in the Country: 20,807,645 Money Wired to Mexico City since January, 2006: $22,213,001,672.00 Cost of Social Security Services for Illegal Aliens since 1996: $397,450,739,563.00 Number of Children of Illegal Aliens in Public Schools: 3,958,789 Cost of Illegal Aliens in K-12 Since 1996: $13, 965,063,431.00 Number of Illegal Aliens Incarcerated: 332,594 Cost of Incarcerations Since 2001: $1,398,127,429.00 Number of Illegal Aliens Fugitives: 642,799 Skilled Jobs Taken by Illegal Aliens: 9,872,838 Figures can trick your eyes. Take particular note that items 2,3,5, and 7 reflect BILLION not millions of Dollars -- and that i

Summer
hot-days ultra violet rays// its like heat of the night with the crime-rate// when hookers trying to find-a-date// something wrong with there mind-state// over heated motors bad body oder// sun glasses, redest biggest asses, with heat rashes// sun-oil,making blood boil// over Cook meat in the sun we have toasted buns// is like satan obulating,// and rosey odonald sitting naked on the pavement and smelling like baccon// idont mean sound like a sinster// but least i got air condisioner// so when school-out, get in the pool-now// tell the youngers next time u smell something harsh in the dumster,tell your mother// thats the smell of summer//

Sentiments
Just a sentimental fool Looking in the mirror Seeing another girl Crying her tears She wipes her blood shot eyes Red-rimmed and angry She's fed up with his lies She feels so cold, so empty She cried today An endless well of tears She is hurt, confused, and angry She's full of fear She thought he loved her She thought he really cared While all the while His hatred reared She was a sentimental fool See those scars on her heart? That's where her love Ripped it apart She wipes her face And bends to take a sip of water When she reappears in the mirror So does the face of their daughter She thought he loved her She thought he really cared While all the while, His Hatred reared She's a sentimental child See those tears in her eyes? Those appeared The day he made her mother cry. He's a sentimental fool Looking in the rearview mrear viewWatching the dust settle As he dries his tears He wipes his bloodshot eyes, Red-rimmed and angry Fed up

A Few Updates
lol i hope the ppl who ask me the questions read this i dont have yahoo i dont cyber i dont cam i cant put anymore pics up, and i wouldnt put nudes if i could get to know me and be my friend, you may find out how cool a person i am, dont start talking nasty and try to get in my pants right off also im extremely sarcastic and i dont ignore ppl, if i dont answer you, im not at my pc, so keep calm lol anyway thats enough for now love you guys

Feeling The Pain Of A Heart Break
i thought it was forever i know you thought so too you said your feelings had changed there was nothing i could do it was hard to say goodbye not to the memories we shared but to the love and happiness and the way that you cared months have passed by and i still feel the same way i'm broken and confused why didn't you just stay? the answer to that question i know very so well but i can't yet accept it i just wanna hide in my shell for all the tears i cry are wishing you were with me i'm still in love with you and always will be

Eternity
Eternity flows through satin sheets while a simple soul, whispers so sweet Binding the hearts in erotic bliss securities blanket wrapped in a kiss Shawdows from the past fade away Consumed by the future, found this day.

I Really Wanna Get Married Now.
ooooo, i wanna get married now.... 10. who is gonna care about Morning breath? U love eachother 9. Landry is Fun... 8. checking account? thats why i have a Visa Check card: u only pay with the money u have. 7. 1 is a lonely number, 2 is better, and 3 or more is awesome. 6. Who cares about the remote control when u can give massages all u want... 5. Eating? Now I don't have to make All the meals. 4. Sharing, Cuddling, and ur partner not saying "what is THAT?" in bed. 3. Snoring is usually muffled when u cuddle up to her Tits, or his dick...lol 2. Sure its My car, but what am i gonna use it for other than going to the store to buy food? Especially since its big enough for a 5 person family. 1. IN-Laws are awesome and fun during the summer...especially if they have Money. Did i miss anything?

Alone
Sitting alone, about the to cry The pretty girl sits and wonders why Why did he leave? Where did he go? She wanted his touch but she said no The moment was right The moon was high She loved his kisses but not his hnds on her thigh The more he kissed her, the more she fought He's going to rape was her only thought. When the awful act was complete The perpetrator made himself look clean and neat He never said a word as she cried The pretty girl thought she had died She went home by herself She laid the ring upon the shelf Her true love was no more All we wanted to do was score He told her things that were not true Now the deed was done and they were through No love had grown She was scared and alone

Rating
Ok people. You put your pics out there for people to rate then you want to throw a hissy fit when people don't give you the rating you want. IF YOU DON'T WANT THE TRUTH DONT PUT IT OUT THERE!! Someone had the nerve to tell me to go back to myspace with the other babies, because i did'nt rate her boob shot a 10, get a lift then we'll talk BITCH! She also thought that she would warn me that I will make many enemies here, I guarrentee you, I DON"T CARE!!! You like me, good, you don't, your loss. I am honest, DEAL WITH IT! Thank you and have a nice day.

Update On Lil Johnny. Everyone Please Help Out All You Can, Info For Making Donations In Blog.
ALOT OF PEOPLE THINK LIL JOHNNY IS MY SON, HE ISNT, I AM HELPING THE FAMILY BECAUSE HIS STORY TOUCHED ME SO DEEPLY. I AM THE TYPE OF PERSON I LOVE HELPING OTHERS OUT. I JUST WANTED TO CLEAR THAT UP BECAUSE ALOT ASSUMED THAT JUST BECAUSE I AM HELPING OUT THAT I WAS HIS MOM, BUT THAT ISNT THE CASE. LIL JOHNNY IS SEDATED, SO HE CANT PULL THE TUBES OUT, THESE PICS MAY OFFEND SOME, BUT THIS IS WHAT THIS LITTLE 2 1/2 YR OLD IS GOING THROUGH. IT BREAKS MY HEART TO SEE HIM LIKE THIS. SPOKE WITH LIL JOHNNYS DAD LAST NIGHT. LIL JOHNNY IS STILL ON THE VENTILATOR, SINCE HE IS HAVING PROBLEMS BREATHING, HE HAS A VIRUS RIGHT NOW, THE FATHER AND DOCTORS HAVE DECIDED AGAINST GIVING HIM THE MEDS FOR THE VIRUS, BECAUSE IT WILL KILL ALL HIS WHITE BLOOD CELLS, AND THEY WILL BE STARTING OVER FROM DAY ONE. ALSO JOHN AND THE DOCTORS RESEARCHED THE MEDS AND ALOT OF PEOPLE, HAVE DIED FROM BEING GAVE THESE MEDS. SO I DONT BLAME HIM FOR NOT WANTING LIL JOHNNY HAVING THIS DRUG. JOHN SAID L

Forgot To Mention
I WANT CINNAMON ROLLS!!!!! I swear they are all I can think about. . .tasty tasty cinnamon rolls. . .with royal frosting. . .MMMMMMM Thats it as soon as possible I"m going shopping and buying all the fixens than I am making some cinnamon rolls!

Big News From Peter Britt
Hi everyone.... I wanted to share some news with everyone. Something my record label has been working on just happened today I found out. As of today, my music is live worldwide on itunes! I am very excited about it. Being on itunes is a very cool thing indeed and it offers a degree of exposure that is phenomenal. So if you have itunes, go get some Peter Britt music. If you don't, go download itunes, then go get some! I've been waiting for over 12 weeks for the record label to get this all in place, and it finally is now. You can get the cd, or a single track on itunes and there will be more there soon. I hope you go and check it out and download some music, but I wanted to share this news with everyone I know. Thanks to all my friends and fans for your support and for putting up with me and my messages. I do appreciate all the friendships I have and I thank you all for your continued support. :) www.itunes.com Peter Britt Click anywhere below to visit one of

Prepping... For Battle?
So I just finished listening to my IAG CD and it's making me completely giddy. Friday, Ryan will learn the meaning of revenge. Myself and Ruby are going to toture him for the Jaeger shot from February... Be afraid Ryan, be very afraid... Oh no wait, you already are cause you told me!

Genies & Golf
A Husband takes his wife to play her first game of golf..... Of course, the wife promptly hacked her first shot right through the window of the biggest house adjacent to the course. The husband cringed, "I warned you to be careful! Now we'll have to go up there, find the owner, apologize and see how much your lousy drive is going to cost us." So the couple walked up to the house and knocked on the door. A warm voice said, "Come on in." When they opened the door they saw the damage that was done: glass was all over the place, and a broken antique bottle was lying on its side near the broken window. A man reclining on the couch asked, "Are you the people that broke my window?" "Uh...yeah, sir. We're sure sorry about that," the husband replied. "Oh, no apology is necessary. Actually I want to thank you. You see, I'm a genie, and I've been trapped in that bottle for a thousand years. Now that you've released me, I'm allowed to grant three wishes. I'll give you each

She Had Left Me No Choice But For Me To Go Home And Fuck My Wife... (weekend In Review)
so as i havent blogged in a few days... here's my past few drunken blundering days in a recap...friday I was supposed to go meet up with a friend in new philadelphia to catch Hostle 2 and just drink too much jager until i fell down and she made fun of me for being a cheap date... however as that didnt happen I called up Jamie Mayhem (not the same Mayhem from the Chaoschicks site with the mohawk... who's first name is also jamie actually heh) and we ended up meeting at spitfire... I got there early and was instantly harassed by some chick that tattoos from her house and was trying to get me to call her about getting some ink done... not really into her delivery or conversation I kind of just sat there trying to seem disinterested but she wasn't having it and asking me all sorts of questions and being too flirty/pervy for my tastes... i never learn that i shouldn't tell people i shoot porn in thinking its a fuck off response and they'll leave me alone... never works... just either brings

Rough Times
had a real rough weekend this past weekend and it all finished today with me doing sutten i shouldnt have so unless u r certain people (and u know who u r) then give me a few days to myself to relax and recover from things. if u r one of the few people i will still talk to then u know how to get ahold of me

Sick, Sick People!!!!
Parents need to know about the sick, sick movement known as "pedophile activism". I am not joking. Look up pedophile activism on wikipedia.org for more information. They have created these symbols, so that they can identify each other, create a support network, it's sickening: This is the symbol for "boy love" called BLogo http://i63.photobucket.com/albums/h153/friskymonkeyfilms/myspace/blogozy8.jpg This is the symbol for "girl love", called GLogo http://i63.photobucket.com/albums/h153/friskymonkeyfilms/myspace/160pxglogokt2.png This is the symbol for "Childlove Online Media Activism, CLOMAL http://i63.photobucket.com/albums/h153/friskymonkeyfilms/myspace/clmedialogo01150xa7.png This is the symbol for all-encompassing pedophilia, CLogo http://i63.photobucket.com/albums/h153/friskymonkeyfilms/myspace/pedophilebutterflyec2.png This is not a joke!!! If you see these symbols on someone's myspace, they are a pedophile. If you see someone with one of these sy

Member The 90's
This is our childhood to the T!!! 1988 Anybody under the age of 13 should not read this, and if you do, you should not repost this. Just because you were born in '97 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid. It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the 90's just wont cut it. You're a 90's kid if: You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _ ] You remember watching Doug, Ren & Stimpy, Pinky and the Brain AAAAAAAH Real Monsters! And who could forget: Clarissa Explains it All You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!" You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west philidelphia born and raised . . ." You remember TGIF, Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. You remember reading "Goosebumps" You too

One Of Those Days...
Have you every had one of those days where you just wished you never got out of bed? Yesterday from the time I woke up until this morning when I went to bed was one of those days. Maybe it had something to do with Sunday being my fourth twelve hour night shift in a row, or maybe it was only getting five hours of sleep for the last several days.. Whatever the reason I am glad it is over :)It started up with waking up too early, at 1:30pm after going to sleep around 8:30 or 9.. Since I couldn't go back to sleep, I ended up spending too much time on here and going to get my hair cut.. (which I am not totally sure if I like yet). When I got back from getting my hair cut, one of my cats puked o the floor, so I had to clean that up.. Once I got to work I found out that I was the only nurse in the room with the sick infants to have three patients.. It seemed all of them required lots of work.. While I was running around caring for my patients I discovered that nurses in the 'easy' room with

Recruteing
i am trying to get all of My Friends into my lounge i DJ there as well and will play what YOU want to hear ... come and see me in Seductive Pleasures and if u need help finding it send me a shout i will give ya a link...Hope to see all of You soon.....................

Thoughts On Love
Ever feel like everything that comes out of your mouth isn't right? Every time you think you found a plausible solution to a problem it only leads to either more problems or it was wrong solution? Love feels like that. No matter what you do or try - there will always be some tripping point where you feel utterly useless. You do what you can for it - because in the end, we all want to be loved. However, what do you do when it takes its toll on your mind and well being? Not the hopeless addiction - rather when it hurts so much to deal with it. It hurts because of the world you have set up. You really want to scream and cry In fact, you have screamed and cried - yet there is still nothing you can do about. Then love because shakey. It becomes unstable and uncertain. It threatens to take away its happiness and only causes fusteration. Can you find happiness in lonliness? No - I really don't think so, but I think you could be forced to find out because that is all there

A7x- Seize The Day
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past I found you here, now please just stay for a while I can move on with you around I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture) Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over Newborn life replacing life, replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in No longer needed here so where should we go? Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if there

What Is Love?
Love is to watch a child sleep An angel at rest, so peaceful and quiet Completely vulnerable and trusting Gentle breathing tells of comfort Their dreams full of laughter and happiness Love is running fingers through their hair Caressing soft smooth skin Snugging a blanket to keep them warm Love is tears of happiness Lying next to something you’ve created A part of you so innocent and pure Love is anticipation of morning Tiny fingers wipe away the sleep The sparkle in their eyes Love is being loved A child’s love

Angel
An unhappy child Needing love and attention Saddened by neglect A father reaches out Wanting to make things right To ease the pain And to lighten the heart She pulls away Keeps it all inside But buries herself In loving arms The angel’s sorrow Tears him apart A sickness wells up Breaking him down

Winter Sorrow
The air bitterly cold and crisp Night’s stars shine bright above Of the few comforts to a lonely soul A tired mind drifts back in time When life’s burdens were light and few Images so vivid, the air thickens Ripe and near, taken back to a moment It fades as sure as it comes One wonders how it could pass Bright flames begin to diminish Time passes by with little warning

Training
Well, I'm running up to 1.5km and biking just over 10km! WooHoo! I only have to be able to run an additional 25 km and bike about 100km more...lol It's getting there slowly but surely. If I keep on track I'll be able to do the half Ironman next year! Look out world here I come!

My Sex Appeal....
You Are 87% Sexy Your Sex Appeal Is: Off the Charts! Let's face it... you're one of the sexiest people around. And you don't let anyone forget it. You're crazy hot, and you deliver on what you promise. You are definitely one wild ride. How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Death Ye Know Me Well
you came to me once, i was but a child. you came to me twice, i was 14 years old. you came for me thrist, i was 19 years old. so many times you have come yet you turned away. atleast 20 times, these past 4 years, but each time you have been denied. but now im tired of dodging, its time to rest in your arms. take me away, my will be done. the fight in me is gone. dont want to keep on, time is hear, clame your prize, because life serves me purpose no more

Men Vs Women
IT'S WOMEN VS MEN IN THIS CONTEST. STOP BY AND RATE MY PIC AND LEAVE ME SOME COMMENTS!!!!! I'D APPRECIATE ALL THE HELP I CAN GET! COMMENT ON MY BLOG WHEN YOU COMMENT ME AND I'LL MAKE SURE TO STOP BY YOUR PAGE!!!!! AND HEY.. PASS IT ON TO YOUR FRIENDS TOO. COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED!!!!!!!! The Rules Are... 1. 2. 3.No downgrading or downrating will be tolerated. Please advise your friends of this rule. 4.If we determine your entry inactive, someone else can have your spot. 5.No Freshmeat accounts allowed to bomb. 6.You can comment bomb yourself. 7.You may pimp yourself til your hearts content. 8.Bombing Families welcome. 9.Have Fun! 10.Minimum 10,000 comments in Battle Royal for the VIC. Prizes will be as follows: To be given as extra prizes... The first Woman to get 25 ratings, will receive, an Oscar and a dozen roses. The first Woman to 7500 comments, will receive The Ladies Diamond ring and earrings. Final prizes at the end of the 2 weeks will be...

Depression Diet
Yeah, that title is kinda lame. Haha... but I've noticed when I'm depressed I can't eat... I just feel sick whenever I do... And Since I've been depressed for the last week or so I've lost weight... Ha... only cause I can't eat... It's kinda interesting... And a bit amusing... but it's the truth... I'm done that really all I have to say..

Daddy Do It Very Well
DAMN BABY HOW THE HELL CAN U JUST COME TO MY ROOM REMOVE MY CLOTHES N THROW ME ON THE BED. TRACING MY BODY WIT YA SOFT TONGUE. GOING DOWN TO MY HONEY POT. TRACING THE OUTLINE OF MY KITTY. DAMN U KNOW HOW TO MAKE A GIRL PUSSY PURR. I SAY FUCK LAYING ON MY BACK I GET FACE DOWN ASS UP SO U CAN LICK ME FROM MY CLIT TO ASS. MMMMMMMM DADDY U SLIDING THAT TONGUE IN N OUT MY TIGHT ASS. B4 I CAN SAY NE THING ELSE U SPREAD MY WET KITTY OPEN N WITH ONE MOVEMENT U ENTER ME ALL THE WAY. HAVE ME SCREAMING WIT PAIN N PLEASURE. SLIDING OUT OF ME SLOWLY THEN ENTER ME ROUGHLY. U KNOW HOW LIL MAMI LIKE THAT SHIT DON'T U. PULL MY FUCKING HAIR N FUCK ME DADDY. SLAP THIS PHAT ASS AS I THROW IT BACK TO U. YEA I KNOW U LIKE TO SEE MY ASS SHAKE. WATCHING ME CUM ALL ON THAT DICK. I LOOK AROUND AT U TELL U TO STOP CAUSE I WANT THAT BIG CREAMY DICK IN MY MOUTH. MMMMMMMM DAMN I TASTE SO GOOD ON THIS BIG POLE. TAKING U DOWN MY THORAT. U GRAB MY HEAD N START FUCKING MY MOUTH OOOOOOOO SO ROUGHLY. U KN

8 Reasons Why Anti-americans Suck
1. Your beer is not better than ours I hate to be the one to break this to the English, but Colorado has better beer. Nuff Said. Mabye Germany :] 2. Your chicks may be skinnier, but ours have bigger boobs Boobs are what matter the most. Don’t let anyone ever tell you otherwise. Although I do agree that Brazil kicks America’s ass when it comes to hot chicks… and European women are much more open about sex… and most foreign women like American dudes… wait, there was a point here and I think I broke it… 3. Fuck soccer Girls play soccer. It’s not called football, it is called soccer. There is a reason the Vince Lombardi trophy is not awarded to the winner of the world cup. Vince was a man who only stood for man stuff, like football and running until you pee blood. Soccer players don’t pee blood. They pee horseradish. I’ve seen it... 4. Red Foreman was an American So were Thomas Jefferson, The Rock, Hunter S Thompson, and Richard Pryor. Don’t get me wrong, there are cool guys i

If I Had A Million Dollars....
Horrible day….. I show up to work “trying” to be cheerful for all the fucking customers. Yet I find out that I have the lame ass job of begging groceries. OK fine not a big deal, there are 4 other courtesy clerks. So my duties of the day include restocking bags, paper and plastic, restock the ice, clean carts, go retrieve carts and sweep. So I start off as bagging, then go get the bags to restock, then the ice. Well I was interrupted with a plea to go and check for someone who is late. Well the pleas were ignored by myself because I had other duties as my position as a “courtesy clerk”. So I go gather carts for about 45 minutes, because lucky me all the other “courtesy” assholes disappeared. Well I was “conned”, excuse me, “told” to go relieve someone for a break at the check stand. Which with a smile on my face I obligated to the person who really is not in charged but he grabs his balls like he is. So I stood there and took over, so later she arrived and decided that she was not rea

Sex
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 100% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

.secrets.n.stuff.
*does the ive got a secret dance* *giggles* ya cant tell you. under penalty of death and since i like life for the most part...it will never leave these lips or fingers. tho i will giggle amongst myself intermittantly. the kids are out and about so ive got the house to myself...which is totally delightful if i do say so myself. lookit this wouldya - "Today's Rank: #87" good sauce. i should be packing...something...anything... but im not. cuz yesterday was a 'need to recover day' and today is a day of...'hey look i can walk' ha and uhm...yeah thats about it. tadum.

9 Words... Soooo True... Read!
#1 FINE: this is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shutup. #2 FIVE MINUTES: if she's getting ready, this means half an hour. 5 minutes is only 5 minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. #3 NOTHING: this is the calm before the storm. this means something, and you should be on your toes. arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. #4 GO AHEAD: this is a dare, not permission. don't do it! #5 LOUD SIGH: This is actually a word, but its a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.) #6 THAT'S OK: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's ok means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake. #7

Just A Man
I am just a man All I have to offer is all that I am I can’t give you the moon and stars All I have to offer is my heart I can’t promise I wont make you cry I do promise to dry your eyes I can’t promise to be perfect I can promise that you are worth it I wont have all the answers But you will be a part of my heart forever I can’t tell you I have the perfect plan Because you see, I am just a man

Pdems Or Mbms?
I have just be diagnoised with a rare but potientally very deadly syndrome. It's called PDEMS (Premature Deletion of E-Mails Syndrome). What happens is someone who suffers from this reads an E-mail only once and than delete it without responding to the writer. The cause of this is unknown at this time. There does not appear to be any cure but it is easy to spot. If your friend or loved one doesn't respond to messages or ask you for information or photos they know you give them but they can't fiind it they could suffer from PDEMS. PDEMS should not be confused with MBMS. Multi blog Messaging Syndrome which has to do with someone belonging to more blog sites than they can keep up with. The messages are still available they just can't remember where they read it

Next Week,what A Week
So next week my sister and mum will be leaving for the whole week ill be here running the show lol fun?yes i like it headache? of course! but i enjoy my cleaning and taking care of others plus mum promised me a captain spaulding doll if i do this muahahaha love it love you wut can i say im fulll of love today =D

Alone
Alone in the dark i sit here in peace i wait for your touch an your soft sweet kiss i try not to cry while sit here all alone i keep looking around and no one is home why do i do this why do i put myself through pain why do i sit here knowing i have nothing to gain why do i feel all this sadness and pain why cant i let go why cant i just move on please someone help me please help me go on

I'm Sorry, But I Love You
I'm sorry but I love you And I don't know what else to do I'm sorry my love makes you feel less than Tell me how to fix it, I will do all I can I need you to know my intentions are pure That's hard to do when you throw them on the floor Burn me at the stake just to prove a point All I ever wanted was to bring you joy Guess I have been doing it wrong all this time Instead of a smile on your face, I brought tears to youreyes I never thought I would say something so cruel I'm sorry, but I love you

My Day...
My day started out so nice. I got to work late because of a therapy appointment. This meant I missed the weekly company meeting. I had managed to buy a phone card for my old cell phone over the weekend (cheaper than the one I bought to talk to the poly family) as well as buy some more blades for my electric razor. I was (and still am) wearing a new shirt and undies (as well as older shorts, socks & shoes).I felt on top of the world. Then...Well, over the weekend my wife mentioned that one of the poly family members looked at her CherryTAP page. I thought it was odd, but didn't think much else about it.Until I found that the same person looked at my page... Hmmmm... I went back to that person's page because (supposedly) in CT if you block somebody, they can't view your page. I could view the page, so I wasn't blogged. Just a bit confused, I went on my slightly-less-happy way.However...I received a message from the person, asking why I went to that page. I told the person that

Been There Done That Will I Do It Again?
Once again I find myself at a cross roads. I have been here more then a few times. Will I dip my toe in the kink pool one more time and dive in head first with out any thought to the consequences? Will things be different or will I once again get so fed up with the same old same old BS that drives me away. I have been fairly happy for the past year or so, I am cool with me I like hanging out with me and have come to terms with the things I need to deal with. But if I take another chance and crash and burn what’s the point in getting back up. My liver went through a very hard time, my health is pretty freaking important to me. Once again I’m looking down the paths again and wondering WTF to do.

My Dark Printzess
Here I am Deep in the darkness alone. Then I come across another lost soul. I walk up to her and drop to my knees. " I though noone shared this darkness with me." She gives me a slight glance and then I know. I share the darkness with another lost soul. " I am the printz of darkness here. Stay with me and lonelyness I shall no longer fear." She is my Printzess and the drakness we share. A dark Printz and Printzess is now here.

To My Unborn Child
This I solemnly swear to do... Be your encouragement when you feel you're not good enough Be your happiness when you feel only despair Be your strength when you feel like there's nothing more to fight for Be your heart when you feel you have none to give Be your feet when you feel weary Be your support when you're discouraged Be your cheerleader when no one else stands by your side Be your wise advisor when your path gets dark and troublesome Most of all, I swear to always love you no matter your faults For you are my child in whom I'll always have the greatest of Faiths.

Life-long Impression
In Loving Memory of James L. King An Acquaintance I had tha gift of making A man so kind and dear A smile brighter than the sun A heart purer than gold A soul more beautiful than life itself A darling man whom has touched my heart If he only knew...how no matter what he brightened the dimmest of days A spirit so free and sincere A spirit so strong...allowed me to see all of this in little time A mere moment is all I needed for I know he will always be with me God has called his dearest home By God's side he is in his true form... An Angel I wrote this several years ago in memory of a great man that I was taking care of. He was buried with a copy so I'd always be with him.

Give Me A 10
So I up load a pic and have a handful of ppl view it and I get only 2-3 ratings, wtf? Since you went and looked at it you might as well give me a 10. If you cant show love you might as well delete me, it will save me the trouble of having to delete you. Onl true friends wanted on my friends list, plz.

Soulmates Forever
Your soul is so beautiful, beyond mesmerizing. I love your smile, so hypnotizing. You connect my soul like no other. You make me breathless, I could smother. Of all this, I can't deny... Only one on which I can rely. Enrich, enlighten, fulfill my every need. I hope you feel me as you read. My whole life i've searched for love so true. My search is done, it ended with you. With love like this, I can't go wrong. You are the one I've been looking for all along. Your touch sends shivers down my spine. I am yours and you are mine. The very sight of you engulfs my soul. You complete me, make me whole. The two of us together, we can do it all. I swear baby, I won't let you fall.

Apparently I'm Just Not Safe For Work?
So again I've had a MUMM pulled. This time I got in trouble for saying that only consenting adults should be engaging in sex, and that adults should be responsible enough to ensure they have condoms handy if they plan to have sex. Seems like commonsense n'est pas? But surprisingly I wrote this MUMM in response to an earlier one wherein every comment by a woman stated that if a woman got pregnant because a man didn't have a condom than it's all his fault. Right. So here I sit, alittle mystified as to whom I could have offended this time, and I figure I should play it safe and compile a list of people who would label my MUMM NSFW so I can avoid offending them in the future: 1/ Pedophiles: They'd object to "consenting adults" only being allowed to have sex. I should of thought of those oppressed bastards. 2/Catholics: The previous Pope was staunchly against condoms, so my advocating the use of protection would be offensive to all Catholics. Obviously. 3/ The President: He

Rest
Be free, Walk with me Through the golden fields So lovely Lovely. We regret our sins, but We sew our own destiny and Under my face I remain So fragile. Behind my fear, I smile, Forever alone, afraid. Behind my mask I'll be Waiting. Almighty freedom Almighty freeer of the soul Rest now Rest now And imagine, resting with peace at last. It's lovely, this land. It's lovely. No one can believe or understand How far I came just for Family. My family. I should have been there with them when this world crashed down. But now they rest with me. I'll never forget How I felt that moment: I became free.

Lol At This One!!
An old man was sitting on a bench at the mall. A young man walked up to the bench and sat down. He had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, blue, and yellow. The old man just stared. Every time the young man looked, the old man was staring. The young man finally said sarcastically, "What's the matter old-timer? Never done anything wild in your life?" Without batting an eye, the old man replied, "Got drunk once and had sex with a peacock. I was just wondering if you were my son."

The Hedgehog And The Fox
Taken from here... "The Hedgehog and the Fox is the title of an essay by Isaiah Berlin, regarding the Russian author Leo Tolstoy's theory of history." The title refers to a fragment of text attributed to the Greek poet Archilochus: "The fox knows many things, but the hedgehog knows one big thing." (This part is the only part of this article I knew and have heard before, a rather quotable line... - Eric) Isaiah Berlin (after giving a number of examples of authors in each category...) considers Tolstoy, and after considering that it seems that he falls in neither category suggests instead, that while Tolstoy's talents are those of a fox, his beliefs are that one ought to be a hedgehog, and thus Tolstoy's own voluminous assessments of his own work are misleading. (Edited excerpt concluded, will look for book...)

Pool Closed
this morning I invited sissy and the boys over to swim. they came over and we slathered the kids in sun block got all ready and went down to the pool. got all the kids there and like a sun flare it struck me!!! The pool is closed on Mondays for cleaning! AHHHHHHHHH! so instead we loaded them in the car and went to her in-laws pool. then back to my house where a bunch or suppossedly "starving" kids, didn't eat lunch really, and I made some dumplings for me and sissy. anyway, now I am off to her place to have a little afternoon relaxation and watch something other than Hannah Montana or Suite Life of Zach and Cody (the kids really need to go back to school now) anyways, I will catch you all later.

Broken
To the outside she looks ok, everything seems so good to me i see pretty pieces where a strong woman once stood. Shes lost shes broken no one knows of her pain Shes walking alone tangled and hurt through the cold freezing rain. Never to look up and seeing nothing but the ground shes tired lonley and helpless with no one else around. Many mistakes have followed, many regrets remain how can she over come this how can she get rid her pain? No answers follow, questions left unanswered no one to lend a ear. how can she put this past behind her when its all darkness in here? She tries to put the pieces back to fix what has been broken. Shes not that strong he holds her soul as his beautifull little token. They tell her to be strong 2 just hold on a little longer. With every breath she takes she knows hes even stronger. To her weakned knees shes falls begging to be let free. she begins to pray not knowing if he ever will see. Not knowing what to say not kno

Drink
Drink My blood is breathing, Its free flowing. Its the water that keeps me going. Pour it into the cup and give it to your lover. Let her drink from the cup and fuck her. Then suck it up and drink from the cup. Red on white, we fall from the night. Take a breath and we're out of sight. So take a bite as deep as you might, gash your teeth and everything will be alright. be alive and receive the night. So suck it up and drink from the cup. Blood on water, you've got demons like your father who beat you like a lamb to the slaughter. You lick the blood from your lips, wishing they were sucking your girlfriends tits. Gash your teeth and everything fits. So suck it up, suck it up, and drink from the cup.

Freemasonry Exposed!
For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry…—1Samuel 15:23 In understanding the spiritual difficulties of a Born Again Christian being a Mason, it is necessary to realize that there are highly occult elements woven into the very warp and woof of Freemasonry. Thus, the Lodge is not just "another religion" like the Muslims or the Buddhists—although that alone should be enough to keep Christians from involving themselves in it. The nature and character of the Lodge’s deepest theological underpinnings are rooted in Witchcraft and Paganism. Now that may be an astonishing assertion to some, especially to most Masons. However, it is very easily proven. Few people, within the Craft of Masonry or otherwise, perceive that just because a Bible lies open on the altar and Bible verses and characters play an important part in the ritual of the Lodge, that this does not prevent the Lodge from being of the nature of the occult or Witchcraft. This ca

Holy Shit
Well it that time of yr finally I am on my way to marital bliss this sat. I will be a wife I was naver gonna be a wife but I guess thats what love does make you do things you never really wanted to do . Soooooooo here I go wish me luck

Whats Your Perspective
well... I don't know where so came from but this is the first 5 minutes I've had to do anything since may 25th and as soon as I log off I'm back to the same old worky shit til the end of october. I flat ran outta time and that sounded like the easiest way to handle my shit before I was going to really drop off the face of the earth. sorry I'm a coward. not going to ask you for anything because it would be flat wrong at this point and I've caused enough trouble for one lifetime, and no I'm not on drugs unless my job is now considered one. Sorry I flat fucked up and I guess I can't take it when someone cares. If someone sent you this letter what would you think they were saying?

Pomes
Hunting Ground When I sit here in this field with the moon coming up. I think about the day gone by. And I know I will feel the cold of the dark sky. When the stars come out I can't help but start to cry inside for the ones that have died. Could I be next? I sit and wonder. Will I see the moon lit sky? This I can't say but for now I must live day to day. I can hear the others now so I must go. I might be a follower and not a leader but I have a place here. I will remember and think of the others as I run. And soon my time will be done . I can see the others in our hunting grounds. And I know I belong and not to the man kind but to my pack now. It is feeding time and I know my time has gone by and now it is time for me to return to the hunting grounds in the sky. -------------------------------------------------------------- Little Blue Bird Little blue bird fly away you are free. Please don't stay with me. I am th

My Goth Went To The Funeral Of My Emo Whose Ass Was Kicked By My Inner Punk
Once again, you know I LOVE Oracle's sloppy seconds!!! Whats Your Stereotype? ____________ •HIGH CLASS:• ____________ •[] You go/have gone to a tanning salon. •[X] You own an iPod/mp3/mp4 player. •[] You love Starbucks. •[X] You have been called a brat. •[] You have tons of shoes. •[] you have more than 5 things from nordstrom/sax fith avenue/neiman marcus/bloomingdales. •[X] You have a laptop/your own comp. •[] You like going shopping. •TOTAL:3 •GOTHIC:• _________ •[X] Black is one of your favorite colors. •[X] You wear chains. •[] you like heavy metal. •[X] you've shopped at hot topic •[X] You have worn black lipstick. •[X] You have/had/or wanted piercings •[] You own a pair of Tripp pants •[X] You have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend. •TOTAL:6 ______ •PUNK:• _______ •[] You can skateboard. •[X] You like plaid. •[] You have Converse. •[X] You hate mtv. •[X] You have/had/wanted blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair. •[X] You lov

Ggrrrr...
I don't think I will like this place. has too many stinkin' window pop-ups to deal with. and oh, wait...I have contacts that are already on my contacts list and I know I haven't gone to their sites or whatever to accept them into my profile friends list. what else? rather friggin' irritating that I can't figure out what the fuck goes on here...hell...I would love to figure it out...but dammit... its getting on my nerves. maybe another time with more nerves to update or play with this w/o getting fed the fuck up. geezus h. fuckin' christ on a stick!!! GRRR!!!

I Lov You Anyway
Don't ignore me That's just boring Cut the chord What are you waiting for Get it done Hope you had fun How long have you known While my love for you has grown You don't want this anymore Just leave my heart on the floor I've patiently waited While you've debated How to deal with this There's one thing you missed I'm a part of it I wont "just go away" Say what you need to say No we can't be friends This is where it ends You know how I feel For you that's too real There's nothing left to say In the end, I love you anyway

Movie Review From Imdb
The kids will love it!.... adults, sorry enjoy the pretty colors!, 14 June 2007 7/10 Author: hoove1970 from United States *** This comment may contain spoilers *** Let's Start off with saying I'm giving this movie a 7 out of ten for children out there who love a good time. As for the adults I'd have to go with a 5 or 6. On to the review... I sat in the center of my row listening to the crowd throughout this blockbuster movie and it was a crowd pleaser. perhaps forty percent of the crowd consisted of real 'fans', meaning people who either loved the comic books or the first movie and were hoping for more. At this advance screening there are always large quantities of opportunistic freebie lovers there that don't even know what they are seeing. The writers gave the audience what they wanted in many ways with lots of laughable one-liners and schmaltzy goo to make the average crowd clap and 'ahhh' at the right moments. but it was screaming, "where is my plot" throughout the en

Through My Eyes
If you could see through my eyes Maybe then you would realize Why I feel the way I do About everything about you From the way you smile To your indelable style From the way you look at me To the way you set my heart free Your beauty you couldn't deny If you could see yourself through my eyes

As Close As A Tear
As close as a tearStronger than your fearsLove strong as steelMore real than realSweeter than honeyA need stronger then any armyBliss finer then wineResolve that defies timeI will be hereAs close as a tear

Another Job Interview Tomorrow
have another job interview tomorrow at THE Cash Store, for assistant manager..not sure if im even qualifyed but it said they had on the job training soo if this works out this could be a great job even a career for me! and no more worrys about money for me! soo will see what happends... oh i forgot to write about it but i had a job interview at best buy as i told some of my friends, havent heard back from them yet but whatever....

Land Of The Plastic People
You're from the Land Of The Plastic People Not even your hollow soul is real You hide in your fear induced denial It's so obvious with your painted on smile But your eyes tell a different story Voices from the past say you aren't worthy You don't even know who you are Battleing your internal war I opened you up to see what was inside Just a shallow grave where your sense of self lies The real you begs to be resurrected Near fatal wounds scream to be mended A heart scarred by acid tears Emotions numbed over the years You've become a fragile vessal Living in the Land Of The Plastic People

Ct Marriage
!!!This is called CHERRYTAP MARRIAGE! The first person to message you saying "I do." could be your Cherrytap Husband/Wife in the near future. Now, this is just for fun and to see who likes you to be your wife/ hubby so you can have a boyfriend or girlfriend in real life. You'd be surprised who wants to be yours. Repost this or your marrige will be plagued with bad luck. Repost it with the title of "cherrytap marriage'' (repost of original by '¢ÓDJ¢¾L1ps¢ÓAdrenaline¢¾Radio¢Ó' on '2007-06-18 15:22:21') (repost of original by '~CherryGrl Shalyna/Twix/Club Far of s*u*p*~' on '2007-06-18 16:16:41') (repost of original by 'techdestroyer - The Clodhopper "Lolly's Candyland Candies"' on '2007-06-18 16:56:10') (repost of original by 'DJ PLEASURE ~NIGHT MANAGER @ INFERNO~' on '2007-06-18 17:23:05') (repost of original by 'techdestroyer - The Clodhopper "Lolly's Candyland Candies"' on '2007-06-18 17:41:56') (repost of original by 'Chantil

Am I A Firefighter?
Am I a Firefighter? In Phoenix , Arizona , a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. Although her heart was filled with sadness,she also had a strong feeling of determination. Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up & Fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible. The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dream to come true. She took her son's hand and asked, "Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with Your life?" Mommy, "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." Mom smiled back and said, "Let's see if we can make your wish come true." Later that day she went to her local fire Department in Phoenix , Arizona , where she met Fireman Bob, who had a heart as big as Phoenix . She explained her son's final wish and Asked if it might be possible to gi

A Thought
im down right now well my dad first of all is a dick and then not only that my electric goes out then my tv goes and it doesn't come back on and then my stereo goes and it hasnt' come back on and then to make matters worse my electric in my room is out. im done trying to make my room my space. im frustrated with how things are getting given to me. i get the shitty part of every hand and i got a shitty dad im sorry to those dads that are dads but my dad he isn't a dad he hasn't been for a while. i cried my hardest today and i hate it that now i can't be in my room cus the electric is out. im sick and tired of this shit. im down cus each and everyone of my friends are married and have a family of there own and im left out in left field. my dad has a new life and he is remarried and happy and he doesn't care bout me his wife is the number one thing in his world that makes him happy and live life to its fullest.

The Sweetest Night
If you would like me to be honest, I will admit that I was very nervous. While dinner simmered on the stove, I wondered through the apartment, making sure that everything was set just perfectly. The small studio apartment had always been large and spacious to me, but just now it seemed no bigger than a closet. The long tan couch that separated my ‘living room’ from my bedroom’ had my favorite deep blue fuzzy blanket draped over it, with one fluffy pillow on each side. The ‘living room’ consisted on that couch, a chair, my coffee table, and an entertainment center with my big screen tv. My ‘bedroom’ was far simpler, consisting of my queen sized bed, a bookshelf and my burrow dresser with mirror. As I’ve never been one to sit down at a table to eat, I had been forced to get creative. I covered my oversized coffee table with a black cloth and set the table for two. My incense was burning, mixing with the sent of dinner to create a warm, inviting aroma. The windows w

Im Just Typing To Make The Pain Go Away
what is it that is causing me to feel this way.. it just hit me out of no where, BAM!!! a feeling i would compare to, well maybe something similar to getting hit by a 16 wheeler. not that i ever have, but thats the first thing that comes to mind in trying to compare. i'm probably gonna ramble on some, don't really expect you to read this,, if you make it all the way through,,thanks.. GGRRRRRR.. this is just so freaking annoying, i am usually so happy and content with all that happens in my life, and it's not even like anything has happened to bring about this completely overwhelming feeling in which i am fighting. struggling not to let myself drown in my own misery.... fuck it,,, i can't let this win,,i can't be beat down by my own mind!! i am strong,, i am willing i am thankful, i am blessed, i am loved, i am appreciated, i am enthusiastic, i am able, i am ok writing helps,,,just getting out whatever may come, no second thought about it, no proof reading, just

So Much Better
Cherry Tap is SO MUCH BETTER than myspace right now. The people here are amazing. There's no drama. The website is always working. It's just purely amazing. I want to thank my friend, Tommy, for telling my about Cherry Tap. Words can't describe how much happier I am here than Myspace. It was ALWAYS drama, drama, drama over there and I'm sick of it. I hope to get to know a lot of you. All of my friends so far are VERY nice and I hope to make a lot more!

The Marine
I got this from another site & I'm proud to send it along as far as i can. Keep it going, to support our troops!!! THE MARINE We all came together, Both young and old To fight for our freedom, To stand and be bold. In the midst of all evil, We stand our ground, And we protect our country From all terror around. Peace and not war, Is what some people say. But I'll give my life, So you can live the American way. I give you the right To talk of your peace. To stand in your groups, and protest in our streets. But still I fight on, I don't bitch, I don't whine. I'm just one of the people Who is doing your time. I'm harder than nails, Stronger than any machine. I'm the immortal soldier, I'm a U.S. MARINE! So stand in my shoes, And leave from your home. Fight for the people who hate you, With the protests they've shown. Fight for the stranger, Fight for the young. So they all may have, The greatest freedom you've

Am I A Good Kisser????
Play-By-Play Lip Locker You make an attentive kisser because you enjoy the melding of you and your partner's kissing style. Depending on the mood and the moment, you may be more adventurous or more soft and gentle. It may take you and your partner some time to really get down a compatible style, but once you do, kisses can become very intense because they are showing the deep connection you and your partner have with each other. Make sure to allow things to happen naturally rather than focusing so much on technique. Be confident in your skills and open to new styles of kissing.

Heart In My Arms
Heart in my arms I miss the feeling of your heart in my arms. I miss the way you would melt to my charms. I miss the knowing you were desperate for my touch. I miss the assurance that you loved me, and how much. I miss the adoration, that would sparkle in your eye. I miss feeling loved, so much, I would cry. I miss that feeling, you would love me forever. I miss how you dreamed that we could be together. I miss being certain, that true love would prevail... And I miss you. And I love you. As I have, without fail. by David Higgins, 14/10/03

Black Widow
Provoking thoughts gleam in her eye. She's spun her web too deep. Before her, all her lovers die. Her poison starts to seep. She takes great pleasure in her act. Seducing many men. Into her web they wander. And are never seen again. Her story has eight legs to it, And plenty of odd spins. The black widow they call her. Queen of a thousand sins. Targeting her victim closely, He's worth a one-night stand. Before it reaches morning, His blood is leaking 'cross her hand. A black dress with a white chest, That white has now turned red. Her innocence has disappeared, Embracing lovers as the bled. Adrenaline is rushing. She's waited long to catch this prey. Using the same methods. She's quickly swept away. Racing fingers down her body, He seems to know which notes to hit. She moans in pleasure and surprise, To his handsome charm and wit. Cradling her gently, Until she fell asleep. He took out his septic blade. And slowly let it creep. Toxic blo

Made It Through The Weekend :)
I made it through the anniversary of my Dad's death. I must say that it went better than I first thought. I worked that morning then off to my nephew's game. My nephew played a great game saturday. I couldn't have been prouder. :) Afterwards, I went to see Fantastic Four. I must say that I did what I do best. I kept my happy face on and did what I could to keep my family laughing. My mom of course thinks I look alot like my dad. Sometimes on days like this, I get more hugs than usual etc. We had a great day and were able to talk about my dad. Laugh. Only one complaint.....my mom and sister put flowers on my dad's grave friday only to find it moved to another grave Sunday. Come on seriously...why steal flowers from a grave....geez...go to the dollar store or wal-mart and get your own.

Comfort
Looking upon the moon, the darkness eases the self doubt away and the Shadow can be the person not many see. Some only see what they want to see, for once she wishes that they see what she cannot express. Some are too busy to even notice for she always listen to them no matter what but when it comes to her...some are around and try their best to help while others...are not truly listening. She hears the howl of a wolf. She smiles as the wolf comes to where she sits on the bank of the river. Nothing has to be said. As the wolf sits beside her, he stares at her with those amber eyes, understanding the secrets she holds in her soul. That gentle creature places his head in her lap and she strokes his head, soaking in the strength and love he gives to her. He sleeps as she gazes into the moon for her peace for the time being.

Hurt Feelings!
It was my birthday on 6-17-07 and I got more kind thoughts from strangers, my husband to be, and people on cherrytap, then I did from my own friends and family. I thought that my friends for a year or longer would at least drop me a line to say hi and happy b-day. Maybe I am asking to much but, this has really started me to think. If I am there for my friends/ family no matter what comes, then they should be there for me too. There is one thing I can't stand is fakes and 2 faced people. So for right now I have been doing alot of thinking and I am not just going to be there for people that don't care. Also I am not going to take the family members / friends shit anymore that just want to put me down. I have had enough! If this blog bothers anyone than I am sorry, but this is how I feel.

When I Asked God
When I asked God for strength...He gave me some difficult situations to face....When asked God for brain and brawn....He gave me some puzzles in life to solve....When I asked God for happiness...He showed me some unhappy people....When I asked god for wealth....He showed me how to work hard....When I asked God for favor...He gave me some opportunities to work upon....When asked God for peace...He showed me how to help others....God gave me nothing I wanted...He gave me all I needed.

To Let Go
To let go doesn’t mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that I don’t control another. To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences. To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands. To let go is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself. To let go is not to care for, but to care about. To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive. To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being. To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own outcomes. To let go is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality. To let go is not to deny but to accept. To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them. To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires but to take each day as it comes

How To Make The World A Better Place
As said by Rodney Carrington.... Well it seems to me that this whole world's gone crazy There's too much hate and killin' goin' on But when I see the bare chest of a woman My worries and my problems are all gone No one thinks of fightin', when they see a topless girl Baby if you would shows yours too, we could save the world Show them to me, show them to me Unclasp your bra and set those puppies free They'd look a whole lot better without that sweater Baby I'm sure you'll agree If you got two funbags Show them to me I don't care if they don't match or if ones bigger than the other You could show me one, and I'll imagine the other Even if you're really old, there's nothing wrong Don't be sad, your boobs ain't bad, they're just a little long Show them to me, show them to me Lift up your shirt and let the whole world see Just this row, show your globes and a happy man I'll be If you got dos chi-chis Show them to me I've met a lot of them, but never one I ha

Cherry Tap Family
lets see you have this place on your cherry tap called family. the place where the friendss that are the dearest and most special to you go right? today i wa slookin g a tmy family section on here and dont see anyone on that has really visited my profile much lately with the exception of a few. thos epeople know who they are.so i was thinking i just might clean it out and start again with the few that were mentioned prior in this blog.i put friends in my fmaily that i thought were special and dear to me but now tey are showinmg me a different side and i know that some dont ge ton as much anymore.so im really thinking about cleaning out my family on her eand leaving those few.i know things change and thats life but some dont even rate my pics anymore .

Update On My Cousin
Some asked me to keep them updated on my cousin so i will anytime i hear anything new..she is still in ICU with no improvment. They started her on some new meds today so hopefully they will help. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers!

You're The
You're the PEANUT to my BUTTER, You're the STAR to my BURST, You're the M to my M, You're the POP to my TART, You're the MILKY to my WAY, You're the FRUIT to my LOOP, You're the MILK to my DUDS, You're the LUCKY to my CHARMS, You're the ICE to my CREAM, You're the GHETTO to my BOOTY, but mostly.... you're the BEST to my FRIEND If I happened to show up on your door step crying, would you care? If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened, would you come? If I had one day left, to live my life. Would you be part of that last day? If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me yours? This is a test to see who's your real friends are or if you are just some one to talk to you when they're bored. . . Send this to everybody on your list including the person who sent it to you. I just did....because you are my friend. First I like u, then I loved u, Now I'm afraid to lose u. p.s a friend sent this to me thoug

Find Out If You Have A Sex Offender Living Near You!
Find sex offenders near you!!!!! Check it out...just an FYI for anyone who has kids that use myspace...they have been working with the different Sex Offender Registries to keep those people off myspace!

Tru Shit For All Da Females
ღஐ!**~2 Tha femalez N Luv~**!ஐღ "A nigga can love u from the bottom of his ¢¾, and say that shit and really mean it which he probably do but juss always remember there's still room left at the top for some one else!!" ღஐ!**~2 Anybody N Love~**!ஐღ "If you ¢¾ someone, put their name in a circle, not a heart because a heart can be broken, but a circle goes on forever." LOVE starts with a smile, grows with a KISS, and ends with a TEAR. The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. Its ok to kiss a fool. Its ok to let a fool kiss you. But never let a kiss fool you. Dont frown; you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Dont cry over anyone who wont cry over you.

Bulletin: Post From Law Enforcement Agencies
***State Police Warning*** June 13, 2007 Body: STATE POLICE WARNING PLEASE READ Please read this.....I hope that all of my Friends Post this and help keep our internet friends safe. State police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to. If a person with the screen-name of imahustlababay or http://www.myspace.com/ineedatipdrill contacts you, do not reply. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his/her instant messages or e-mail. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet. Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on, as well. This screen-name was seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, and Excite so far. This is not a joke! Please send this to men too...just in case! Send to everyone you know

Death Becomes Her
I have not been inspired to write a poem since 2000 when I wrote my other posted poem “The Princess Warrior and The King” for a friend. This poem is for my girl, Something Diabolical@ CherryTAP, who's name on her last two profiles that she had to delete was Death Becomes Her........ Malinda, this is a magical, spiritual and symbolic story of the circumstances in your life when you found my blogs, learned to love yourself and feel alive again. I remember on your first profile you had pics for Tripp, and I assumed that he was a big part of your life and I know you have a special girl in your life too. You have overwhelmed me with your love and respect. Your comments, your salute to me that I had to find impressed me so much and the appreciation of who I am is all I could ever ask for. The fact that you love what I do to help others and that you want to be a part of it and that you want your girlfriend to be a part of it is something that inspires me to do it even more. I really

My Kissen Spot Is Under The Stars.
my kissing spot is... Libra : Under a tree. Sagittarius : In A Pool. Taurus: On a trampoline. Capricorn : In the hot tub Aquarius : In the Elevator Aries : On the beach Pisces : On The Kitchen Table. Gemini : Under the stars. Virgo : In a car. Leo : In the rain. Scorpio : Everywhere. Cancer : In the Bathroom.. Post as " My Kissing Spot Is____ " Repost This In..... 1 minute - You Will Be Getting A Kiss Tomorrow. 2 minutes - You Won't Get Kissed For 5 years

Kissing Techniques
KISSING TECHNIQUES The secret to great kissing involves listening to your partner's needs and being creative. Most of all have fun! Kissing can be intimate, playful, passionate, and arousing all at once. Whether you're a teen girl looking for kissing advice for boy kissing, or an adult looking for some new kissing excitement we've got some ideas that'll be sure the spice up any kissing experience. If you're a woman kissing a man, a girl kissing a girl, a boy french kissing a girl, we've got tips for you. Unfortunately we don't have any kissing pictures available on this website. Read below for a list of different types of kisses and kissing techniques. 1. The long kiss - this kiss combines mouth movement with tongue action, where you gently suck in while your tongue pushes back and forth. This kiss is quite intimate and is best done slowly and steadily. 2. The suspense kiss - this is where there is a build up before the actual kiss. Either a man and woman are unsure as to whether there

Hurting
Why does love have to hurt so much? I wish that i wasnt so insecure and nervous when in a relationship. I love someone and feel like i am losing them. I always make the same mistake in relationships. I always think that they are out to hurt me and that they dont really love me. I cant ever distinguish when someone is joking with me or when they are serious. then I overreact. I miss this person so much.... They made me so happy. I dont know how to tell this person that i am sorry and that i love them. I just wish that they understood how i felt. Writing seems to somewhat ease the pain. I was told not long ago that this person was a player and I went off on him.. I fogave him for what could of been just jealousy. Now that i said something that i shouldnt have he cant forgive me or wont i am not sure which. I cant sleep at night because i lay here and think about what i should of done but now it is too late to do it. I dont understand why love has to hurt so much!!! It is not fair, i know

Dog Vs. Cat
The Dog's Diary: 8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing! 9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing! 9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing! 10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing! 12:00 pm - Milk bones! My favorite thing! 1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing! 3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite thing! 5:00 pm - Dinner! My favorite thing! 7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing! 8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing! 11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing! The Cat's Diary: Day 983 of my captivity. My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength. The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape

Our Deepest Fears
Our Deepest Fear Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure about you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Marianne Williamson

What The Fuck Is Wrong With Me !!!!
so i let myself get fucked over again ........... david called and asked me to move back to spokane with him and of course me being a dumb bitch i said yes ...... this was saturday night..... i just finally got a hold of him tonight after trying to get ahold of him all god damn day and what the fuck does he tell me ! that HIS P.O. dosent want anyone living with him ... sounds like a crock of shit to me .... fuck this is so fucked im going to have no job no money no whare to live after this pay check wich is on thurs ... my grandma is selling her house so i cant stay here i cant move back to spokane.... my check is to small to get any kind of apartment and IM SOO FUCKED I DONT KNNOW WHAT TO DO !!!! fuck i really fucked my self over this fucking time ... i dont even have any one i can move in with around here ... havent i lost enough in my life now im going to BE FUCKING HOMELESS ! this is just so fucking awesome ... i guess t

The Syndicate Family Radio
COME LISTEN TO OUR NEW INTERNET RADIO STATION AND SHOW!!!!! I WILL BE PLAYING YOUR FAVORITES JAMS, INCLUDING NEW AND UPCOMING MUSIC FROM SMOKE E. DIGGLERA, FROM "THE TRUTH IN THE BOOTH" ALBUM!!!!! CLICK THIS ONE TO GO TO THE SYNDICATE FAMILY RADIO STATION CHERRYTAP LOUNGE!!!!! OR CLICK THIS ONE TO LISTEN TO THE RADIO STATION, USING WINAMP OR ITUNES!!!!!

Robin's Head
Today i almost had a break down. Things have been pretty rough with the move and all... dennis is just fucking up shit and as usual has his head up his mommy's ass... but today... in combination with trying to pack and move again... for the second time in the past month... and just started working... have no day care for this week cuz of dennis... although i did get that fixed tonight... and then my grandpa said some fucked up shit to me... and i jst broke down crying... i mean just bawling... hyperventilating... and i had a "robin moment"... for those of u who know me know what i mean... and i broke down... i feel like i'm losing control of my life... and i'm a control freak... i have to be in control... my life is so fragile... I've been thinking so much recently about the whole "borderline personality" disorder "bi polar" thing... i have one hell of a narcissistic personality. Sometimes i don't even know who i am... what i'm doing... or why i'm doing it... recently i was talking to

Should've Been....
Ok, after thinkin about it for a while, i realize that i should have been born a boy..lol NO i'm not a lesbian or anything, but when it comes to sex, i think like i guy... i wanna be able to do my thang and go.. not not have all that emotional ties crap attatched. I mean yea, a relationship i suppose is ok.. but for right now... GOOD LORD.. i take it there isn't a such a thing as a guy who could handle sex whenever he wants with no strings... AHH THE SEARCH CONTINUES......

Big Mac Bitches
[[BIG MAC]]I need a double cheeseburger and hold the lettuce Don't be frontin' son no seeds on a bun[[BIG MAC]] We be up in this drive thru Order for two[[BIG MAC]] I gots a craving for a number 6 like my shoe[[BIG MAC]] We need some chicken up in here In this dizzle For rizzle my nizzle[[BIG MAC]] Extra salt on the frizzle[[BIG MAC]] Dr. Pepper my brother Another for your mother[[BIG MAC]] Double double super size And don't forget the FRIES...[[BIG MAC]] I'm In a Goofy ass Mood

Hmmmmm
Im not sure where to go, what to do or even what to say anymore...Why do I deal with the things I deal with? My heart is telling me because its love, but my head is telling me that love isnt supposed to be like this..I am not supposed to feel this hurt an pain all the time...Would I be feeling like this if when I had the chance to change things I stood up an spoke my mind to that someone....Would things be different if I didnt keep all my feelings bottled up inside an not share them? What would happen if I did open up an share how i felt with someone? Would my life be different? Would I have the things in life I dream about all the time or would I still feel the pain? These are questions I ask myself daily an can never seem to come to an answer for any of them..All I want in my life is to be happy an not feel the way I have for so long now..I want to live life, laugh an feel happy with out all this pain....Is that really too much to ask for?

Underneath It All
Underneath my exterior Underneath my clothes Underneath my words A special person grows. I may not be pretty My clothes may not be the best My words may not always be kind, But I am as good as the rest. If you look underneath it all You will know it's true You will see the beauty inside and understand me too.

Nice 1's Finish Last!!!
Why is it that people ALWAY respect the person who has been mean to them more then they respect the person who has always been there 4 them?? Why is it that the person that hasn't been proven trust worthy always picked over the person who has proven they can be trusted??? Why is it that a true friend can be sitting right next you, they liston to all ur problems, helps you come up w/ the answers, but then the favor is rarely return?? Why can't the person who has always been there, proven trust worthy, has been a true friend, n always listoned be threated the same way???

The Begining
hey there this is my first blog :) but im kinda new to cherrytap having a great time so far. met lots of cool people and hope to meet a bunch more :) if you visit my page fan , rate , add me :) o yah and dont forget to sign my guest book on the main page in the about me section :) gl to all jason

What I Want In A Soulmate
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they l

At The End Of The Day
You'll laugh if only you knew The number of times today I've wanted to kiss you I've wanted to hold you Closer to my heart Closer than you can imagine I felt this from the start But what can I do What can I say At the end of the day It's all up to you At the end of the day It's all up to you The first time I saw you In the corner of my eyes Waiting for something to happen You looked so alive that night Oh, it must be a hundred stares... fading Today, when I think of you Today, when I think of you What can I do What can I say At the end of the day To prove my love for you My love for you My love for you My love for you My love for you

Does Anyone Out There Fuckin Feel Me?
ok... about the sh*t i rock... and about my playlist... each song on my playlist has a reason why i chose it. every artist on it is outstanding. the individual songs were chosen for a reason. i feel it's necessary to explain myself to those who maybe haven't been paying attention. a couple examples + a brief ex[lanation of songs on my ppl: walk away by dropkick murpheys; i've been alot of places and seen alot of faces, some people i wish i had a chance to reunite with. there's some i've re-connected with thanks to myspace and other resources, i'm thankful for that. but "the ones who you love the ones who you left behind" i just hope you can forgive me for being the one to bail on good friends and never properly say goodbye when i left town. black enforcers by gutternouth; this song is about how hip hop and r&b control clubs and radio. what the hell is left for those of us who don't really dig love songs and booty shaking? "that's it" tortured soul by the ducky boys; it sounds realy

Bikini Contest Winners!
Congratulations to "Don't Even Bother", our 2007 Texas Car-B-Q Bikini Photo Contest Winner! She won a one week blast and a Texas Flames T-Shirt! Also earning blasts were: Payton Guerra (3 Day Blast) Riddin Dirty (1 Day Blast)

Camoflauge Clothing...
There once was pirate captain who, whenever it looked like a battle would be imminent would change into a red shirt. After observing this behavior for a few months, one of the crew members asked him what it meant. "It's in case I get shot. I don't want you crew members to see blood and freak out." "That's very sensible, sir." At that moment, the crew member spotted eight hostile ships on the horizon. The captain all of a sudden looked very concerned. "Get my brown pants."

Blessing Children
Blessing Children I give thanks for the blessing of the children in my life and in my heart. I give thanks for God’s blessings of children and grandchildren of my own and all the children of the world. I find joy in observing children as they find delight in even the simplest aspects of life—the excitement of finding a bug in the garden, the fun of rolling in the grass, the joy of running in the rain. I am grateful for the love children and I have shared and for the wonderful adults they are becoming or have become. I may not have children or grandchildren in my home, but I thank God for the chance to mentor children who might not otherwise have a positive role model in their lives. I revel in their excitement when they have learned a new skill or mastered a difficult subject. “Thank You, God, for each and every opportunity to love and work with children.” “Let the little children come to me, and do not stop them; for it is to such as these that the kingdom of heaven belongs.”—Ma

I Am So Fucking Pissed...
Now, I am not usually one that brings the intimate details of my life onto Myspace, but I have to fucking vent. I've spent the last week or so milling about, because I felt like I had made a great mistake. This mistake was breaking up with my pregnant girlfriend. I thought that breaking up would allow us some time to cool our heads, and possibly be less angry with each other. WAIT! Let me back up a bit.. When we first got together, I was "a lot more attentive and caring." I supposedly only did it to get her. Then it turned to me being attentive because my computer was around. As my being a computer nerd, and liking to waste hours on here and playing games. As my being a bit anti-social. As my preferring only to be in the prescense of others, and not exactly there. I could've sworn I told her this. But I didn't, obviously. We argued. She did it for attention, she claims. She called me names, again for attention. She hit me. A lot. Again, for attent

Alone
Alone I sit same as always eyes stareing blankly at the scene that lay before me. Always they smile, always I cry but no one seems able to save me. Harsh wind slaps into my face, tears begin to fall down my cheeks my fist tightins but still no love no hope do I feel. Why are they all like that? Why do they leave me alone? Ignoring my screams my tears my crys for help and love Alone again Alone forever I wounder how it feels that feeling called love

More Than Words Can Explain
It's a blessing That I don't deserve To be with the greatest Guy in the world It's been fun Being your friend But all this time I wish we were more Then back then The smiles that you brought Upon my face Was never matched By anyone so great I hold out my arms Just to feel you there To know that You always care I can feel it Deep in my heart And I know you've felt it Right from the start The closest friends To the very end The times That were apart Seems like years Begin to dart The times we've had Goofing around Will replace all the times I was ever mad I can't remember that awful fight Or the days and nights We spent close to fright Of losing what I loved so much A friend whom I wanted To be so much more He's the only guy Who can lift my spirits With his random jokes And peculiar faces But don't be fooled by whats outside He has a heart of gold On the inside I love him dearly For everything he is And I wont change that Because love is

Idiot Sightings
IDIOT SIGHTINGS Recently, when I went to McDonald's I saw on the menu that you could have an order of 6, 9 or 12 Chicken McNuggets. I asked for a half dozen nuggets. "We don't have half dozen nuggets", said the teenager at the counter. "You don't?" I replied. "We only have six, nine, or twelve," was the reply. "So I can't order a half-dozen nuggets, but I can order six? "That's right." So I shook my head and ordered six McNuggets. ********************************************************* The paragraph above doesn't amaze me because of what happened a couple of months ago I was checking out at the local Foodland with just a few items and the lady behind me put her things on the belt close to mine. I picked up one of those "Dividers" that they keep by the cash register and placed it between our things so they wouldn't get mixed. After the girl had scanned all of my items, she picked up the "Divider" looking it all over for the bar code so she could scan it. Not

New Day...new Begining
Well just a shout out to let people know that yes the Stealth's and myself was asked to leave the GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY,not totally sure of the reason and not concerned for I am sure Hitman6 has his reason's.I just wanted to let people know that the Stealth's are still here but very weak at the moment so any new recruits are welcome and encouraged.I'd also like to take this opportunity to say TY to wildman55 and Tweetybird for all their hard work while Stealth's,you both will be missed and feel free to stay in touch.If any GIT-R-DONE family member's wish to be removed from this site as friend/family please feel free to drop me a c-mail and will remove you. granadaghia75

Do You Remember When
DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN .. ...? All the girls had ugly gym uniforms? It took 5 minutes for the TV warm up? Nearly everyone's Mom was at home when the kids got home from school? Nobody owned a purebred dog? When a quarter was a decent allowance? You'd reach into a muddy gutter for a penny? Your Mom wore nylons that came in two pieces? All your male teachers wore neckties and female teachers had their hair done every day and wore high heels? You got your windshield cleaned, oil checked, and gas pumped, without asking, all for free, every time? And you didn't pay for air? And, you got trading stamps to boot? Laundry detergent had free glasses, dishes or towels hidden inside the box? It was considered a great privilege to be taken out to dinner at a real restaurant with your parents? They threatened to keep kids back a grade if they failed. . . and they did? When a 57 Chevy was ev

I Dont Need Superficial Friends Thanks Anyways
Just for once I would like to chat with someone, who's not superficial. Who doesn't pretend they're something they're not.Someone who is forth coming in all that they say. The way I see it, if you can't be liked for who you are, that you have to pretend or hide from the truth. Then your not worth my time, or the person your hiding from is not worth yours. All my life I have been judged, by everything about me. And I say..Oh well. I am who I am. And I have no problem with it. So if you do..then move right along and join all the other superficial jerks. Because I have no time for you or your nonsense.

11 Mexicans Came Out Of My Attic
I had this dream the other night...I was getting dressed in my closet when the attic opened and three mexicans came out of my attic ready for work. I screamed and ran to tell my husband and called the cops. When the cops came they found that 11 mexicans had been living in my attic since 1999. There were women, children and men. What does this mean? Oh...and I have NOT read the diaries of Anne Frank in almost 20 years so there is no connection to why I dreamt this....

Attitude Is Everything
Attitude is Everything John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!" He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling them how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day, I went up and asked him, "I don't get it!" You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it"? He replied, "Each morning, I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood." Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positi

Hey Folks!
I know its been a long time since my last blog entry but I figured since I'm bored I'd get another one up. For those of your that actually read blog entries, I have a shit load of phtos for ya'll to rate and comment on. Although the points wont do me any good until I can finally get a salute photo up, it always nice to see that my friends leave me some love :D So get to it if you already haven't done so and until next time, I'm gonna grab me a rubber chicken, some super glue, vasaline and head out to the local shelter for some entertainment lmao! P.S for those intrested in reading it, I have some poetry I'd love some more feedback on! http://www.thestarlitecafe.com/perl-bin/base/search.cgi?name=Lordviper

Driving
Traveling down yet another country road. Funny how I always end up on one. Two lanes of blacktop. Usually a few pot holes. The lines hardly visible. I was wandering this day. Just driving around by myself. My family was in the city “shopping” and I had made an excuse to get away for awhile. As I drove, I was struck by how things had changed yet were the same. It had been years since I’d been here. Since 1976? Thirty years? Had it really been that long? Yeah it had. Just out of High School, feeling immortal, I had moved to South Georgia to live with my Dad. It had been like stepping back in time. Everyone drove up and down the main drag (Shotwell Street) on Friday and Saturday nights. Maybe take in the Drive In. Try to buy beer. That was my endless summer. 1976. As I drove it occurred to me where I was. Out close to El Dorendo. Not a town just a wide spot in the road. I smiled. Barbara. I laughed. Of course. She lived close to here then. I had met her on one of those

I'm Confused
I made my first ever picture for a salute but it was rejected. Can anyone tell me what I did or didn't do right? Please feel free to check out the picture. I have it in the album marked "Salutes". Any feedback would be great because I want to submit another one but I want to get it right because if I don't do it right my account will be closed lol. Thanks!

Amber, You're My Everything
Each day is like heaven I feel it each time we kiss I savor each touch and taste Of life with you, lived in bliss My love, you’re my everything I will ever hold dear Let me hold you gently close whispering into your ear Love you more then life itself it’s a true love, and real Look deep inside of my heart Want you to know how I feel That you are the one for me With you I want to spend life I long to be your husband for you to be my wife

What I Hate About People
I hate when people judge about others not thinking that it might have been a misuderstanding - cultural/national/regional/educational/emotional/religious differences often cause such. But we can always sort things out by simply 'talking'... But of course, there are some hot-blooded, self-centered ones who would rather make their own conclusions than think before they make their minds... I don't want to name the person who caused this blog post, but of course it was not just a post for post's sake... Thank you everybody for reading.

There For You By Flyleaf
Sometimes I'm selfish fake You're always a true friend And I don't deserve you 'Cause I'm not there for you Please forgive me again I wanna be there for you Someone you can come to Runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you I wanna be there for you Swirling shades of blue Slow dancing in your eyes Sun kisses the earth And I hush my urge to cry, cry I wanna be there for you Someone you can come to Runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you I wanna be there for you 'Cause I hear the whispered words In your masterpiece beautiful You speak the unspeakable through I love you too I wanna be there for you Someone you can come to I wanna be there for you And be someone you can come to The love runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you

Just Had To Blog This One...
->looking in...: you gonna bore us to death? fuckwit ->looking in...: whats that then? looking in...: dont make us take out your country next looking in...: not at all im friom america u know what we are capable of ->looking in...: ROFL is that the best you have little boy? looking in...: it is a mumm now so shut up old prune