Is today the day?
Will this be the day I receive the news that my life will take a new direction?
Will I start walking the path that most women fear?
Is this the day I will become intimate with sickness?
Will death be much closer to me now?
As I sit in a room, waiting for the news,
I ponder so many dark things of this world.
How sick will I be?
How much pain will I experience and endure?
how will my loved ones take the news?
Will they be strong or turn from me with sadness and despair?
Will they hold me close when I need human touch?
Will they be stronger than me in my moments of weakness?
Will I have to pretend to be strong for them just so the can handle the devastation they will see happen to my body?
Will the Goddess guide me thru these dark days to the path of beauty that I have yet to see?
Will she open the dark shades of my eyes to see the beauty that has been all around me since my birth?
Will the memories that I leave behind bring joy or sadness to those that were in my life?
I ponder as I sit and wait...
Is today the day?
Written by Paulette ~06-17-2007