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What Am I Supposed To Say...
So what do you expect me to say. I keep getting this sinking feeling. Nothing I say is ever going to change a fucking thing. No matter what I say, I’m being an asshole. No matter what I do, I’m asking for too much. I expect to have the things that I once did. I want the life I had before. But its gone. I stand here and swing for those goddamn fences every fucking day. And every fucking day I strike out. Those fucking fences. I don’t think those are even fences really. I think that the closer you get to them they end up being a giant fucking wall. Kinda like that ballpark in Boston. Poor fucking Red Sox. I’d hate to go there to play a game. But that’s what I’m doing isn’t it. By being here Im just like the fucking Red Sox. At least they won one. I cant even seem to get to first. Fuck man, Im not even making contact with the fucking ball. But I show up every fucking day. I swing for that fucking home run. Deep down I know that it’s never going to happen. But I can

My Baby's Birthday!!!
Well on Thursday, my lil boy will turn 9 and makes his momma feel a lil bit older. He has a couple of friends staying over tonight and its going fairly well except for him getting mad at the Playstation because he's not winning. It should be a fun-filled weekend with a house full of boys and tomorrow another birthday party to go to for my step-daughter. What wonderful fun!!! Just a short vent there for a sec. . . Hope everyone has a good weekend!!!

My Life
Where do I start......I have been thinking about my life alot today(to much time alone). I sometimes think that if I died tomorrow would anybody miss me? And the answer to that is yes! First off there are my kids, they would miss me, my best friend she would, my baby the love of my life she would. Outside of that I dont really care. Im bipolar, so that makes life kind of fun. Most people dont want anything to do with me because of that. Cant keep a girlfriend at all. Well just the one. We broke up about five years ago and she got married because she was mad at me. Well she infromed me that we never really broke up! She still is in love with me, she left her husband for me, she understands me, she wants me, for who I am. She is there for me when no one else would be. After to marriages and alot of bad realionships, Im very bitter and jaded. After my oldest daughter was killed I went cold. I dont have any feelings or anything, my expressions are flat no emotions show on my face. When I a

Hi Everyone Just An Update
hi everyone just wanted to let everyone know that i moved back to my hometown of lovely boring old providence,ky. i am trying to find a job here and get my life back in order. but to everyone back in radcliff ky and the surrounding areas i will be back up that way to visit as soon as i can. i am also letting you guys know i am not dating anyone and i am single and pla on staying that way for a very long while. but i will be online to talk to some of my friends so please if you are looking for new friends add me and i will return the favor. thanks

4-27-07 Astrology
Is a no-nonsense type suddenly buttering you up? Are old friends suddenly being ultra assertive? Listen to these topsy-turvy signals and be cautious. Moving with a measured tread helps you avoid any snakes on the path.

The Spirit Of Love
Feel the spirit of love, It is floating everywhere, Carried far by the wind, None other can compare. Sooner or later it finds you, Love tearing at your heart, For one reason or another, You'll feel it at the very start. It makes your heart sing, Where ever you may go, Guiding your every step, Setting your day aglow. The spirit of abundant love, Makes the world go round, Unfortunately at times it fails. Beware when it lets you down. The spirit of true love, Is so very reliably strong, If you believe in it's powers, It will always rebound.

You Call Me Racist
You call me, "redneck" ,"hillbilly", "slaker" , "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey", "Gringo" and you think it's OK. ...But when I call you coon,jiggaboo, Kike, sand nigger, rag head ,Towelhead, WOP, Camel Jockey, Gook, nigger, slant eyes or Chink you call me a racist. -You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? -You have the United Negro College Fund. -You have Martin Luther King Day. -You have Black History Month. -You have Cesar Chavez Day. -You have Yom Hashoah -You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi -You have the NAACP. -You have BET. -If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist. -If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist. -If we had white history month... we'd be racist. -If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist. -If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist.

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A desire so wanting to the depths being wonders in taking grasp of mate so warmth of frigidness. waking to day's morn truth of blind consuming of breaths as nothingness by side engulphs emptiness. Within Gazing Blackenedness of tainted beseaching love's posions drifting below of the Known slumbers awating upon shadows of no existence.

Madness
I retreat into the dark recesses of my mind once again Hiding from the harsh realities of this all-too-jaded world. My confusion never seems to abate, not at all. My mind a chaotic whirlwind of terrible thoughts. I pull them around me closely, like a security blanket the chaos comes naturally to me, feels comforting. I long for the things that once made me safe Things that once numbed my senses into false reverie. Once upon a time I could crawl inside a bottle And feel my troubles melt away, if only for awhile. Or smoke the sacred herb, sweet scented security and not feel or care about anything awhile. But too many times I awoke on the floor wondering where I was; where everyone had gone. Lost and alone, feeling sick and afraid, The darker thoughts coming back with a vengence. The anger and pain clouds my mind again; Medication lasts only so long, helping only a little Before the rage returns, battling my sanity, Ripping my mind

"i Love You" Has 8 Letters But So Does "bullshit"...!
"why Promise to Give Us "Y" if We Do "X " if by Doing "X" Our "Y" Will Become a "Z" ? It Would Be More Like Promising to Give Us "Y" if We Do "X", and We're Thinking "Y" Means "W" When it Really Means "Z". It's still "Y".

Ok Everyone Gonna Try To Race
this weekend im going to try to race. docs said no and haven't cleared me yet to race they say 2 more weeks. i think they are wrong and im going to race. will post results, pics ,or whatever i can later

Life Goes On, The Next Chapter
I joined Lost Cherry back in October of 06. Soon after I joined, the name changed to CherryTap. I never realized how that name change would effect me. Well, the name change it's self didn't do anything, just my dedication to this on-line comunity. I have met many good friends here, including some local people. November found me in a bit of depression, leading me to write about the life I had with my first wife. By Christmas I was dealing with the decision weather to spend the Holidays with my 2nd wife. I all most fell prey to the madness that is my ex-wife. I had a moment of clairity that I would rather spend the Holidays alone than have the weight of her around my neck. Hell, my kids didn't like her either. I found myself spending most of my free time at night chatting and rating pics. Trying to weasle my way into private folders to see those risque pics. Face it, most guys, regardless of what they say, wanna see naked flesh. One evening I found myself chatting with

Sexual Sign
Sagittarius You are fun loving and independent, and you don’t like any of your partners to get in the way of that. You enjoy having a lot of flings and short term relationships because you get bored in a long term one. In bed you are demanding of your partner. You want to have hot sex all of the time. You also like to experiment sexually, with different positions and fantasies. Sex matches: Aries, Leo, Libra Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

The Blood Thirst, Wanna Meet People
I LIVE LIKE A VAMPIRE, I SLEEP DURING THE DAY & WAKE IN THE NIGHT. I LIVE FOR HEAVY METAL & GOTH. IT'S LIKE GENE SIMMONS TOLD ME, "KEEP ON ROCKIN'". I KNOW ALOT OF FAMOUS BANDS & SINGERS. I DON'T NEED A BACKSTAGE PASS, BECAUSE I'M WELL KNOWN IN THE MUSIC BUSINESS. ALSO SAY MY NAME IN LOS ANGELES YOU WILL GET ALOT OF FAMOUS TURNS.

Oh What A Night, Late In April Here In "07" Lol
Well. urmmmm . hmmmm. I think I'm over my cunkness lol. No I do not have a hangover. I dont get those lucky me, I can hold my liquor. I've seen some funny shit over my time.People drinking to the point they couldnt remember their own name and waking the next day up chucking and have a head ache the size of Tx lol. soooo funny. I didnt much care for having to clean the mess *yuck*. I've seen and heard it all. OMG I cant stand a crying drunk that shit gets on my nerves real damn quick like. I dont get vicious when I drink, actually I have been told by several I'm quite goofy, as if thats any different from being sober with me lol. Seriously I am feeling fine. I have put the bottles away , it may be months before I tie another one on who knows. Well happy bloggings to all until I blog again. I'm going to take a gander at a few pages I think and take me happy go lucky arse to bed. love you all my Ct pets muahhhhhhhhh . Ps. watch out for the smurfs on here, they are easy to spot,

Why Are So Many So Freakin' Stupid?
I had a rare moment of clarity, just a moment ago... Why are there so many idiots out there? They're outbreeding the smart ones. I mean, think about it... While the geniuses of the world invent new cell phones and make new things to blow crap up, everyone else screws. I mean, really, do you know how the monitor you're staring at WORKS? I sure as hell don't. And I consider myself reasonably intelligent, go figure. I mean, really, survival of the fittest, natural selection, it's supposed to weed out the things that aren't supposed to pass on their genes... But it doesn't happen anymore with people. Everyone survives... And when you look at the wilderness, and how 1 out of an entire litter or hatching of many animals actually makes it to adulthood... Nature used to weed out the 90% that was unfit. Not happenin' now. We actually ENCOURAGE the people who do nothing to breed. What's the end result? A society of people who can't build a rowboat, much less a toaster. Eve

Memo From Mexico
V Dare | April 23, 2007 Allan Wall Is It Wrong For Us To Call Ourselves Americans? "Although we realize that the term American is commonly used to refer to the U.S. population, we view American as including other North and South Americans as well. Therefore we have tried to limit the use of this term when referring to the United States." These words of wisdom are from the introduction to Multicultural Education in a Pluralistic Society , a book that VDARE.COM columnist Athena Kerry has informed us was foisted upon education majors in her university. So is it wrong for us citizens of the U.S.A. to call ourselves Americans? Last year, there was a proposal in the Michigan Department of Education to prohibit the use of the term "Americans" from referring to U.S. citizens and Karen Todorov, the Social Studies advisor to the Michigan Department of Education, went so far as to assert that "It is ethnocentric for the United States to claim the entire hemisphere." Mrs

More About Sissy
I have spent all day thinking about her. She had been with me since I was 23... Before I had my daughter I used to take Sissy with me everywhere. Stores, restaurants, bars, movie theatres... literally everywhere, usually hidden inside my shirt. I miss her. She was my constant. She loved me and only me. You should have seen how she protected my shoes. It was absolutely hilarious and I am gonna miss seeing her attack ankles if someone came to close to a pair of my shoes. I can't really describe this loss, it was sudden and caught me totally unaware. My vet now believes that she had an aneurysm. That she went very quickly in her sleep. There was nothing I could have done. I truly thank god that I was able to have last night with her. She layed on my bed with me and cuddled for a bit. She never stayed long, just long enough, but she always had to come up on the bed at bedtime. This is pain, like I haven't felt in a very long time. She was my friend and with me through all the bad times, sh

The Devil In Disguise
I FEEL LIKE IVE LOST ALL FEELING AND HAVE BECOME SO NUMB SOMETIMES I FEEL EMPTY AND DISCONNECTED FROM THE REST OF THE WORLD I HAVE NOTHING TO KEEP ME GOING AND NOTHING TO TO MAKE IT A LITTLE BETTER I FEEL THAT IM A GRAIN OF SAND AND NOTHING MORE OF NOTHING LESS IM TOLD IM A LOSER AND I WILL NEVER HAVE ANYTHING OR ANYBODY WELL DEEP DOWN INSIDE I CRY FOR HER ACCEPTANCE AND ENCOURAGEMENT BUT SHE IS SICK AND DEMENTED AND EVIL WITH THE WHIP OF HER TONGUE I WILL NEVER BE NORMAL OR THE SAME AFTER HER MY HEAD WILL ALWAYS BE FUCKED UP FOR THATS WHERE SHE WANTS ME I CRY TO HAVE HER JUST LOVE ME AND ACCEPT ME BUT SHE NEVER LOVED ME SHE SHOWS LOTS OF HATE AND JEALOUSY TOWARDS ME I ASK MY SELF WHY DID THIS WOMAN GIVE BIRTH TO A PEICE OF SHIT DAUGHTER WHY COULDNT SHE HAVE HAD AN ABORTION SO I DIDNT HAVE TO BE PUNISHED AND SCARRED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE I HATE TO HEAR AND THE BAD WORDS AND NEGATIVITY LASHING OUT AT ME MAKE ME FEEL IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYTHING OR ANYBODY I HATE THESE FEELING DEEP

The Inner Key
I search desperately for the key The key that unlocks the inner me Have u seen the key? I wring my hands in despair I can’t find it anywhere I ponder for a few minutes Just what is that inner me? I look long and hard And think I see just a glimpse Of a small light or maybe it’s just a spark Then it all fades to dark The depth of darkness is so real It’s the different shades of light that seems so unreal If I found the key to unlock my inner self Would what I find bring me joy or peace? Or would I sink further into darkness and despair? As I ponder the choice of unlocking and freeing my inner self I speed the search for that special key Even in my uncertainty I need to find the key The key that unlocks the inner me Written by ~Paulette~ 4-28-2007

Roadside Memorials
I have an issue.... And it's with roadside memorials. I don't understand why you would want to drudge up pain like that everyday. There are cemetaries for the dead. Places we can memorialize them. There is a headstone and their name on it. I mean that's as permanent as you can get. But these roadside memorials, I mean what do they do for the person or people that lost someone there? You drive by it a lot, or everyday, and all it will ever do is remind you that the person is gone. I understand it must have been hard to lose them, but how do you ever expect to move on, get through the pain, if you are constant reminded of it? Pain is best dealt with by time. But it's just like a wound. If you keep playing with it, picking at it, it will never heal. Get over it and move on. That's my rant for this week.

What A Real Witch Is....
Oh yeah - "What is a "REAL" Witch, anyways?" I think that one does not become a Witch through practising spells and rituals, going through initiation ceremonys performed by well-known Covens and then obtaining a status that simply marks how long you've been studying, and what magickal abilities can be seen by the human eye, just as a Christian does not become a Christian just by reading the Bible, attending Church each Sunday, and talking the talk. To be a Witch, you must *be* a Witch. What I mean is, you don't get to call yourself a Witch because you can cast spells, or because you can read the Tarot and scry in candle flames. You become a Witch by honoring God and Goddess or the Lord and Lady, you become a Witch by knowing, believing and demonstrating that all life and energy forms are equal, that one is not better than the rest. You are a Witch if you recongize that Nature is a Divine Force, not just a thing or a planet we live on. You are a Witch if y

Solitary Witchcraft And Witches
There are many more self-initiated Wiccans and Witches out there than practically any other variety of Pagan. While a valid and legitimate spiritual path, self-initiation and working solitary pose a few unique challenges to those who would follow this particular path to the Old Gods. By its very nature, the solitary path doesn't have a lot of guidance available--usually you strike out on your own to discover it all for yourself. So why self-initiate? Why be a solitary practitioner? These are questions you have to answer for yourself. No one has a monopoly upon wisdom, nor on the Mysteries--these are not things that you can own, only experience on your own terms, and even then they keep moving, changing and growing. Anyone who approaches the Gods with sincerity, respect, and integrity can and will discover their own way to commune with these essential forces of Nature. It means hard work, requires creativity, persistence and determination--it is a challenging path to

Year I Was Born
In 1975 (the year you were born) Gerald Ford is president of the US Evacuation of US civilians from Saigon as Communist forces complete takeover of South Vietnam FBI agents capture Patty Hearst, who is indicted and convicted of bank robbery Teamster Jimmy Hoffa disappears without a trace Marines rescue the crew of the American ship the Mayaguez near Vietnam First Lady Betty Ford says in an interview that she thinks her children have tried marijuana Natalie Imbruglia, Drew Barrymore, David Beckham, Enrique Iglesias, Angelina Jolie, and Tiger Woods are born Cincinnati Reds win the World Series Pittsburgh Steelers win Superbowl IX Philadelphia Flyers win the Stanley Cup Production begins on Star Wars Jaws and The Rocky Horror Picture Show are the top grossing films Soul Train premieres on television in the United States "The Way We Were" (performed by Barbara Streisand) wins the Grammy for best song Saturday Night Live and Wheel of Fortun

11 Thngs To Realize About Cherry Tap(i Escpecially Like The Part Of The Stalking Ex's Lol)
This is hilarious and so true, I had to repost it. Sorry if some of it is offensive!! ONE. there is NO SUCH THING as a CT tracker. it does NOT exist. so quit posting stupid bulletins like "OH-MY-GOD this WORKS!!!" no, it doesnt. TWO. To the people who have like 25,000 friends, are you serious? You're stupid. Go play in traffic. THREE. Don't ever post pictures and say "OMG, I'm so ugly" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. And if u do ur a fucking moron. FOUR. NOBODY cares about threats over the internet. Don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. FIGHTING ONLINE is like racing in the special olympics; even if you win, you're still retarded. FIVE. Quit crying b/c you're not on someones LIST. who cares? ITS CT!!! SIX. Who really cares if I don't accept you as a friend? MOVE ON!!! Don't send me another request or message asking "what's up with you not adding me?" I don't want you as a friend, that's what's up u fucki

Maybe Part 2
Maybe if I had been treated well my whole life Maybe if I really knew what love is Maybe if I could only see what you want Maybe if I was kinder Maybe if I saw more grey Maybe if you held me all night long Maybe if I was yours Could I see what you see in me? Could you love me even when I am bloated? Could you speak up for me? Could you hold my hand in public Could you not make a big deal about it? Could you keep driving my car and loving it? Could you keep hating the music I listen to? Perhaps I need this Perhaps I can get used to this Perhaps it just takes me sometime Perhaps it is you that I want Perhaps I can love you Perhaps you could love me Perhaps we could go on vacations together. It appears that I may be to late It appears that I hurt you It appears that I am a fuck up at times It appears that you call me nice things It appears that I run through your mind It appears that I can't get you out of my head It appears that this could maybe work

Sweet Ass Story
It was another Payday and I was tired of Mr. Goodbar. I saw Miss Hershey standing behind the Powerhouse on the corner of Clark and Fifth Avenue when I whipped out my Whopper and whispered, “Hey Sweetheart, how'd you like to Crunch on my big hunk for a Million Dollar Bar?” Well, she immediately went down on my Tootsie Roll, and it was like pure Almond Joy! I couldn't help but grab her delicious Mounds because it was easy to see that this little Twix had the Red Hots. It was all I could do to hold the Snickers and Crackle as my Butterfinger went up her tight little Kit Kat and she started to scream “Oh Henry, Oh Henry!” Soon she was fondling my Peter Pan and ZagNut and I knew it wouldn't be long before I blew my Milk Duds clear to Mars that gave her a taste of the old Milky Way. She asked me if I was into M&M, but I said, “Hey Chicklet, no kinky stuff.” I said, “Look you little Reese's Pieces, don't be a Zero, be a Lifesaver. Why don't you take my Whatchamacallit an

Tattooed Dreams
I love chicken soup stories and this one came to me at the right time, I need to believe there is hope out there.... Tattooed Dreams By Carol MacAllister I didn't like going to the beach, but I had no choice. My boys were at that age where it was best to keep an eye on them. It wasn't that I didn't like to sit in the sun and feel ocean breezes tease through my hair, but at forty-five, I felt fat and out of shape. Middle age was not a good time. Sounds of the old beach stirred up emotions. I sat in the sand chair wrapped like a mummy in a long beach cover-up. Ageless aromas breezed from concession stands carrying memories of my teenage years, especially the good times with Jimmy. We had spent summers on the beach jumping through waves, kissing under bubbling foam, holding hands as we walked under starry summer skies. Mother never liked Jimmy. Her comments were always laced with negative remarks. "He's irresponsible. He'll never amount to anything."

Almost Love
Almost Love How can you yern for something you have never touched? How can you need arms you have never been in ... so much? How can you miss something you've never had? How can something you never had be something you need so bad? How can a voice be so etched into your mind? How do feelings like this get defined? How can someone you never seen make you feel free as a dove? How can this be ?... It's Almost Love How can you lose sleep from not sleeping beside someone you never slept with? How do two people who never met seem so fit? How do you have the urge to say I love you to a face you've never seen to adore? How can you just say Hi when your heart cries to say more? How come someone you've never met with pretty words lifts you to heaven above? How can it be? It's Almost Love. How do you tell them what your feeling inside? How do you feel this and continue to let it hide? How do you feel this emotion for someone and never let it show? How do you get rid of

I'm Tired, Written By A Man, Serving The Usa Even Tho He's Almost 60
I just read this in a Blog that was posted by Army Cowboy. I just had to share this with Everyone!! army cowboy - real life husband of RodeoQueen http://cherrytap.com/blog.php?blogid=25009&pid=328863 Please go to His page and Rate him & his BLOG. ---------------------------------------------------- I'm Tired Two weeks ago, as I was starting my sixth month of duty in Iraq, I was forced to return to the USA for surgery for an injury I sustained prior to my deployment. With luck, I'll return to Iraq to finish my tour. I left Baghdad and a war that has every indication that we are winning, to return to a demoralized country much like the one I returned to in 1971 after my tour in Vietnam. Maybe it's because I'll turn 60 years old in just four months, but I'm tired: I'm tired of spineless politicians, both Democrat and Republican who lack the courage, fortitude, and character to see these difficult tasks through. I'm tired of the hypocrisy of po

Pourquoi Sont Le Moyen De Personnes Dans L'américain Maintenant Des Jours
Je souhaite que j'aie été de retour en Europe au lieu de l'Amérique. Je manque comment les choses ne sont pas SIMPLEMENT au sujet du dollar et comment les gens s'inquiètent réellement environ un un autre et pas occupe de l'essai de trouver des moyens de se baiser plus de comme ici dedans l'Amérique. J'espère que je rencontre certains encore ici qui vraiment m'inciterait à penser autrement. Je souhaite que j'aie eu l'argent à rester là-bas, mais puisque je suis un Américain je biseautez obtiennent un visa de travail pour rester dans l'E.U.

Love's Lost
In the darkness I see her in the distances, Yet no matter how fast I run she never gets closer, I cry tears of blood for my lost love! My heart it burns with all the shadows of her life, Yet in this darkness she has gifted me I weep, Weep for her pain witch keeps me so far from her warmth, From her tenderness and love. I fear I am reaching the end of my time And yet I am no closer to her, She looks so radiant in the moon light! Yet as I look upon her beauty I weep tears of blood. I do not cry because she is so beautiful although I should! I do not cry because I can not love her because I can! I cry tears of blood because I can never have her for my own, Never shear the love she has or the pain she bears, Never hold her soft body or smell her sweet hair, Never taste her sweetness or bed with her! I stop running now and turn! I do not give up! But I do know when I can not win! Alone I start to walk, And I shall never stop walking until my love returns to me! I am T

What You Give Away, You Will Receive.
Securing an advantage over others will only bring you outer value. And that outer value is constantly vulnerable to theft, attack and decay. Inner value, on the other hand, grows stronger and more firmly entrenched the more it is given away. The value that flows out from you creates positive connections with whatever it reaches. It is an exercise in folly to try and force the world to bend to your needs and desires. Instead, send your dreams into the world and you will cause the world to resonate with those dreams. Dare to visualize the most magnificent and fulfilled life you can imagine. And dare to find a way to bestow that level of fulfillment on everyone you know. What you are willing to give is surely what you are even now becoming. From the beauty that lives deep within, you have so very much to give. Let the value flow from you. And live in the exquisite fulfillment created as that value takes form in the world around you. -- Ralph Marston

Bad Abusive Member
ive been on this site for a few months now and chatted to really nice people i have to say it upsets me when i get abuse of men a man on here called batman got very abusive with me because i wouldnt rate his cock pics excuse my french ive had to block him as hes sent me some very abusive mail its pretty sick and disgusting what hes said to me just because i wouldnt rate his cock pics it i just wish men like that would learn respect and grow up!!

My Fantasy
This might be everyones fantacy but I think of it offen. I want to travel to a beautiful, warm island. I want to >lay on the beach, holding someone that I am physically >and emotionally in love with. I picture my lover >being on his back, me kissing him from his toes, to >his knees, running my tongue on his thigh and sucking >on his testicles (very gently). Moving my hands to >the shaft of his penis and my tongue up the back of >his shaft, reaching the head. Rapping my lips around >the tip of his penis, gently >gripping and moving my tongue around the very tip. >Then devouring his penis, gripping tightly with my >lips with each movement back and forth. Stopping, >kissing his belly and nibbling on his nipples all >while my hand is caressing his cock. Biting his >neck just a little to create a little hurt but not >pain. Straddling him, kissing his lips, reaching >down and guiding him into my moist vagina. Not all >the way but just the tip. His hands on my breasts, >wait

The Word That I Associate With
Hedonist....this one word describes me to a tee. I am one of those people who move from one pleasure to the next. Thinking that this is all there is to life. Well, it is true. What is life without pleasure? Many may say that this is not the right way to live but what other reason is there. Would you live for pain? I wouldn't. I know that you have your good with your bad and I accept this. Yet I take special interest in the most pleasurable of moments. Why letthe mfly by and only have one in a life time. Am I trying to pack to much into this one life? Maybe. Really though it is my life and I find it very fulfilling. Maybe a little lonely because I still don't feel like I have a connection to one person but still is is pleasing to me. I have my children and my animals for now. SO my little family is whole bunch of hedonists. In many ways we are barbaric. We do have a code of ethics around here. Of course everyone has to have some personal morals. If you didn't then there wouldn't be any

More Rain?
FFS... The cops found my van... I should be happy right? I mean aside from the mother trucker breaking out the ignition theres nothing else wrong. nothing stolen etc. SO why am I not happy? Constable Gallant has my van towed to impound? WTF? Why should it be impounded and why cant I have called my Auto club and towed it strait home... duh cuz fucknuts...errr I mean Constable Gallant fucked up. Yeah nice he fucks up and I gotta pay the city 104 bux to get my van... But hey its all cool. just submit the billwith the police file number and the city will be happy to refund me...One teensie problem... I dont have 104 bux nor do I have a credit card. Why cant they release the van and let me get on with my life? What the fuck is it about these dipshits? why cant I just get a break... anybody want a dark cloud? Cheap?

Silence
Is there anybody listening? Be quiet. Always told to be quiet; forever silent in a world of noise. Mommy can I have... Be quiet! Daddy can I do... Be quiet! Brother can I go... Be quiet! Always to to be silent in a life dependent on speech, my vioce muted by the masses. Is there anybody listening? Son can you do... Be quiet! Wife can we... Be quiet! Boss can we discuss... Be quiet! Doctor can you help... Be quiet! Now that I am silent the cry, weep and mourn. "Don't leave me, pleaswe say something!" No. I am now quiet, forever silent.

What Time Of Day?
You Are Noon You are upbeat, ambitious, and never at loss for energy. You have a lot that drives you in life. The desire to be the best, and a secret hope of fame and power. And while you definitely have a Type A personality, you are still fun to be around. You have a ton of charisma and a genuine interest in others. You are adored by many.

What American City Am I?
You Are New York Cosmopolitan and sophisticated, you enjoy the newest in food, art, and culture. You also appreciate a good amount of grit - and very little shocks you. You're competitive, driven, and very likely to succeed. Famous people from New York: Sarah Michelle Gellar, Tupac Shakur, Woody Allen What American City Are You? Boy this site must be retarded since I'm far from NY lol I'm soooo Boston!

How Jealious Am I?
You Are 35% Jealous You're occasionally jealous, but you wouldn't be human if you weren't You keep your jealousy under control. You accept it, deal with it, and move on. In fact, most people would be surprised to know that there's a jealous bone in your body. So congratulate yourself for keeping your emotional impulses under control! How Jealous Are You?

Mandatory Family Commentments
Hate being Harsh,But to belong to my Family u must be Loyal to me.If you are not,then you have no business being in it.All I ask is 1 hr. of your Time to Show Some Love,to members that run themselves raggit in contests.That Simple.Now give this members Baby some Damn Love. Here is the link, just click the pic~ All my Commitments are with B.G.D's at the Moment.as I have Limited out with Comments 4 days in a Row.As long as Lovingman continues to gain ground,I will continue to Vote for B.G.D's

A New Friend !
I see the children play, there are all so merry and gay. Man,I wish I were that way, but not on this dreadful day. I woke up feeling so blue, had a terrible dream about you. Still don`t know what to do, walking around in the morning dew. Yeah I will go for a long walk,find me sometime whom with I can talk. See a young lady and come to a halt, why is everything always my fault. She says" what are you talking about?", I say "oh I just thought I would get out". She looks at me and has some doubt, then she says" so why did you come out?" So early on this sunny day, I asked her if she could stay. With me and maybe I will say, then she turns to walk away. Okay I say I will tell you why, and please don`t think I am a weird guy. I know you don't think I am shy, so here let me give it a try. She says you look like you need a friend, I smile and say that I don't have a lot of time to spend. Then I think well my job has come to an end, so we talk until we see the sun descend. Don`t know what happ

Four Things You Cant Recover......
THE STONE......... AFTER THE THROW. THE WORD............... AFTER ITS SAID. THE OCCASION.......... AFTER THE LOSS. THE TIME...................... AFTER ITS GONE. One of my friends emailed my this and just thought I would share it.

Am I A Tease?
You Are a Tiny Tease You like to flirt and show off your body, but what confident woman doesn't. You enjoy male attention, and you're usually pretty good at not leading men on. However, there are times when you get carried away with your sexy behavior. It's okay to use your amazing flirting powers for good - but never for evil! Are You a Tease?

I'm Not One To Judge!
I am a good person,, I'm not one to judge people and or make fun... If you have something to say I will listen,,, and if theres a problem I will try an help in whatever way possible,, just remember this when ever you need someone to lean on.

One Nights Dream
There are no horses in my dreams tonight Rats, bats, and other scary things are not in my nightmares A time of war is now troubling my sleep I raise up each morning willing myself to remember what dreams or nightmares I have had Yet, I can not remember them fully in truth I see a feather falling in the darkness The light from it shines like a star Voiding out the suns rays Yet when I stop dreaming in my sleeping wakefullness I see a pure white feather long and slender As I take it to hand, it becomes like stardust glittering to nothingness Now I am fully awake, to say, "Thank you for this one true dream of peace of mind heart and soul" In Jesus name I pray, Amen Now I rest my head upon the pillow to sleep a new night As I drift off to sleep, I wonder a new Will I find the feather in the darkness again Mabye it will be the rats, bats and other scary nightmares Or will the horses be in my dreams at last. Amen God,

For People Who Post Stop The Drama Bullys..you Are Bullies Who Create The Drama.....trying To Destroy People ..worry About Your Own Poinst Fuckers
I THINK CHERRYTAP IS PISSED OFF AT YOU FOR PUTTING ME IN THE TOP 1000 IN LIL OVER A MONTH.. SOME HOW PEOPLE FEEL I DONT DESERVE IT..EEN THOUGH I SPEND ALOT OF HOURS A DAY HERE........I SHOW EVERYONE LOVE OR HEY WOULDNT SHOW ME NONE.. I WORK HARD TO GET TO MY LEVEL I HAVE BOUGHT 2 HAPPY HOURS..I ANSWE EVERY MESSAGE AND SHOUT...THE POINT OF THIS..SINCE U HELPED ME YOU SHARE THE BLKAME.....SO WHEN YOU SEE BULLETINS TTALKING ABOUT CHEATERS.....THEY ARE ABOUT YOU...YOU CHEAT TO GET ME WHERE I AM...YOU SHOWED ME TO MUCH LOVE TO FAST...WHEN THEY TALK ABOUT LIARS..BE OFFENDED,....THEY THINK I LIED TO YOU OR USED TRICKERRY....IF THEY ARE RIGHT..YOU ARE STUPID......SO BE OFFENDED....AND EVERYTHING THOSE BULLETINS SAY IN RELATION TO THIS SHOULD OFFENF YOU...CAUSE SOME ONE HAS T O GET CHEATED LIED TO TRICKED DECIEVED CONNED. AND I CANCELED THE EMAIL DRIVE SO THEY WOULDNT SAY YOU WERE THE PEOPLE WHO GOT TOOKEN...BUT I WILL SAY THIS TO THE PEOPLE WHO THINK IM A CHEAT.. FUCK YOU...WHY THE FUCK Y

Song Of The Bones
Ancestral bones cared for with thought's of love Forgotten and scattered now in time One remembers, Ancient history Ears of by gone times, gone by in dust From humans to animals Beloved to feared The bones tell of the history Forgotten or never spoken of Ancient Rome, Tory, Atlantis The crusades for Isereal The battles of known wars, like WW I & WW II Only the bones of the forgotten remember Should the bones sing they would sing joy's of happiness and laughter to the pain and anger of war and life Never forget the sarrows of plagues and diseases thundering thru the ages Just listen, you will hear the ghost of love ones Speaking from the bones of yester-years The song of the bones quitely echo's out The voices of the dying past Listen, hear, it in the song of the bones

Blessed Sabbat!
Beltane Beltane (otherwise known as Bealtaine, Beltaine, Cetsamhain, Walpurgisnacht, May Day and Roodmas) occurs May eve and May 1. The name comes from either Bel-tinne ("Bel's fire") and Belotenia ("bright fire"). It marks the beginning of summer, when the snow is all gone, the leaf buds are opening, birds are nesting, and livestock is moved to summer pasture, and it is finally warm enough to do outdoor rite! In Pagan tradition Beltane is the second-most important Sabbat in the Wheel of the Year. Placed opposite from Samhain, it balances that somber festival with wild celebrations of life and fertility and pleasure. The God and Goddess mate for the first time, bringing in renewed vegetation growth. They are in their aspect of youthful lovers: Young Stag and Oak Maiden, Satyr and Nymph, Hunter and Quarry, etc., complete with raging hormones. Some traditions celebrate the wedding of the Lord and Lady, while others also add the sacrifice of the God after the mating, the Goddess pre

:-(
I'm kind of sad, I placed some new pics in my default folder, and hardly anyone has commented on them. Granted, I know you guys want to see more of me naked, but just trying to add all around pics as well. More of those pics will be coming as well.....Amy

He's Just Awesome !
Well I've been on CT for a little while now and have met some great new friends. Some good and some not so good, but no one compares to Bill. He is just so AWESOME ! Bill has become my closest and dearest friend. We have so much in common and always have something to talk about. Just talking to him makes my day go by much faster and a whole lot smoother. Just want to say " Thanks Bill....because of you the sun always shines at my house " !

Price Of Gas Wa State
Monday the price of gas was was $3.17. Today went up to $3.32. Just what the hell is going on with oil companies who are reaping all time ever profits. Now the news is saying it will settle down at $4.00 a gallon. Talk about price fixing. Some thing must change and I fear it will not until our elected officials change. Guess what nothing is going to change. The media I believe had a hand by keep stating how much fuel cost in Europe compared to America.

Just A Survey
You scored as Blood. Your turn on is blood. You adore the colour, the taste, the texture, the thickness... everything. You probably like to bite/to be bitten. Sex isn't sex without the ecstasy of blood.Biting100%Chains/Handcuffs100%Blood100%Bondage100%Whips67%Blind Folds50%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

Rulers Rule
WE STAY BIZZY LIKE BONE WE OFF N DA ZONE PERPETRATERS N VIOLATERS TRYIN 2 INVADE OUR HOME BUT WE ARE TAME THEY ARE WILD LIKE THE BUFFALO ROAM WHILE U & I PROCLAIMED KING & QUEEN OF THE RIGHTEOUSNESS THRONE I MIGHT JUST GO ON B4 I PRICE THIS COLOGNE.... N SPRAY DAT SNAKES N FAKES STAY BACK BLING PLAYED OUT FADED OUT N DA MAYBACK N THEY SAY MICAH HOW CAN U SAY THAT?! STILL I PRAY THAT WE LIVE 2 THE FULLNESS OF AGE AND STAY BLACK....THEN DIE AS OUR ETHER IS RELEASED INTO THE SKY MOLECULAR STRUCTURE THEN HAS PERMISSION 2 FLY & LIKE BUD DRY WHY ASK Y I NEED MINE MOIST FLUFFY & STICKY DONT MESS WIT BUD DRY VISINE 4 RELIEF OF DA EYE OR TEARS 4 FEARS 2 COVER MY CRY.... CAUSE HURT IS PAIN SHALL WE RULE ETERNALLY OR REIGN IN VAIN.

Ur Death Clock
What do u do when someone gives you a time of how long you have left on this earth most of us complain about this life but when its about to end its changes everything you wish you would have done things alot different ...why is it that we only live for the day when you know you might not be alive for tomorow.. We all know someday we will die but some of us mite have the advantage of not knowing when or how or is it a disadvantage? we all say i wanna know how i will die but would u really? but yet we always make plans for the future like theres always a tommorow we always leave unfinished arguements or business cause we have this mind frame we will always get to come back to finish but we mite not.. that chance sometime slips from us cause we let it..When ppl die everyone says oh they are in a better place but we really dont know where they are the last place you see them is in the ground or in a coffin ...we dont know what really happens after that.. Ask a crowd of ppl all over the wo

Three Little Words
Three little words I want from you Is this something you can do Keeping me close within your heart Saying my dear we’ll never part Then our love to be assured No more loneliness to be endured I’ll say a prayer that this is true I’ll keep on dreaming of loving you

Close
My heart kept close is all I ask Is this such an arduous task We’ll be together it’s a promise I’ll keep I dream of this each night I sleep Dreaming this in dreams that usually come true You holding me tightly close next to you Once we are finally together Our love will bind us forever

Need Some Lovin Here...
K people I know that most of you notice my posts here before a bulletin. So Here it is again in a blog. Share some love I have entered a poetry contest and need some love ratings! Come on you guys I know you have it in ya to show luv and help a friend out. Jusy click the link I made it easy :P http://www.poetry.com/voteforme/poemvote1.asp?PID=11955568 Please repost this also the more the merrier! LOL

Stuff
I would want forever, For that solemn swear, And I’d be there forever, For you to be there, But nothing is forever, But the promise of forever is all I have, I’ll want you forever, Until forever is gone: Forever Both of us will drift along in the wind, For this is my message, The message I will send to you, So drift with me forever, Until forever finds its end!

My World
my world has changed majorly in the last few mos ive recently moved back home close to family but im moving again i just need some time to myself i had a my mid life crisses lol and i need to make some changes with that all under way i can finnaly say im happy i have my 3 awsome kids who mean the world to me and want to make them happy in life lead a great life i have my magick i pratice daily i love it i love to play magic the gathring its a really fun game thanks to all who took the time to read my first blog blessed be rate me fan me and friend me if ud like to

What I Like
You scored as Bondage. Your turn on is bondage... all out. You don't have a specific part of kinky sex that turns you on more than any other... everything working together turns you on. And why shouldn't it? Sex isn't sex without all the trimmings.Bondage92%Chains/Handcuffs83%Biting67%Whips67%Blood67%Blind Folds17%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

My Life
It's weird how life has differnt destinations for everyone. Mine hasn't made sense yet. All the happiness I've had turned into pain. All the dreams I've had turned into nightmares. The help I've given out was not taken into consideration. I've taken people out of the darknss and been left behind. The ones who were their, showed compassion. If I were to say good-bye, would anybody cry? Would people reconize that I'm gone? How can I smile when all has been devoured? Love taken away. Used to cover up someones past misersy. I try to smile But what is their to smile about? Why, When i needed help for my mistakes nobody was their to lend a hand? So alone, I try to climb back up the road to recovery. Beliefs and reliefs fail. I see visions of happiness float by in the distance. Not near enough to grab. I'm tired of this feeling I hold in side for so many years now. I want to close my eyes and reunite with those miles away up above. I see though, taken my life away thing won't g

Untitled
Alone with your thoughts Lost in the moment Driven by passion Never knowing when to stop It follows you, stalks you, torments you Diving deeper into the black abyss Ever changing All knowing Seeking freedom from the thirst Ready for love Never to find it Too trusting Losing your mind Hoping, Waiting, Wishing, Flying, Falling, Drowning in silence Thriving for Lust...

Another Day At Work
I have had to work alot here lately.We have been pretty busy with the storms and all.I was pleased friday when i got to work and there was a thank you letter from the parent of the little girl.the father praised me for what I did. I called him and told him that it was my duty to do that.I am glad that the SOB that hit her is still in jail.May he rot in jail.Letters like that make it all worth while.

Suck On This
You scored as Blood. Your turn on is blood. You adore the colour, the taste, the texture, the thickness... everything. You probably like to bite/to be bitten. Sex isn't sex without the ecstasy of blood.Biting100%Bondage100%Blood100%Blind Folds100%Whips83%Chains/Handcuffs67%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

98 Rock Fest
Ok So tonight I am going down to Tampa to stay the night in a hotel for the Concert tommorow. Check it out. http://www.98rockfest.com I can't wait its gonna be so much fun!! I should be home late tommorow night, so I will catch the M.C.G.H Family and friends when I get back. Have a Good Weekend!!

Chapter 6 Of What I Learned On Xbox Uno...
So now I guess you are wondering what all we talk about during this simple family game of Uno. Well there are lots that we talk about...For example, the next one we talked about was deep breaths. Now I'm sure you are pondering what the hell we were talking about when it comes to the words "deep breathes"... Honestly, I was laughing so hard to what we were all talking about, and being that I'm a smoker, it all caught up with me. It felt as if I was in the middle of a heart attack. I could not breathe to save my life.... what an oxymoron that is. Ha. I was also coughing so harsh that I had some nasty flem come up from the back of my throat...but I will leave on that note because there is a chapter on that as well... just keep reading and you'll see. Until next time, Ciao!

Whispered
As you arise from upon your bed You hear these words whispered from behind your head I Love you and support you in all that you do I’ll always be here to motivate you As you arise from upon your bed You hear more words whispered from behind your head I want you and need you in all that I do You start my days with faith anew

Come And Get Me
You scored as Goth. Your A Goth!Goth95%Rocker, Mosher40%Trendy20%Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev20%Emo10%Prepy10%Skater0%What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy Ectcreated with QuizFarm.com

Another Survey
You scored as Emo Kid. You listen to emo. 'Nuff said. You know how to dress. You usually feel as if nobody understands you. Emo Kid80%Punk67%Stoner60%Goth47%Loner40%"Ghetto"27%Hot20%Geek/Nerd13%Prep7%Jock0%What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To?created with QuizFarm.com This is bullshit, where's my fucking razor, aw shit, I am emo then...:(

Smeared Black Ink
Mom is dying And she's taking us all with her So tired of being alone And strung out She said she'd tie me up As a bundle of sticks Carry me to the woods and keep me There where it's safe. Said she'd stay there with me And my brother. All warm, bundles of sticks. I'd like to reach across These three states that part us And take that bottle from her hand And put my brother there instead. Wrap him in my arms, and tell him Things will be okay They can't always be this way, But days like this I really don't believe it. If i could I'd show her all she's doing All she's done. If i could only make her see The way she's going The path she's on is drowning. It would make all the difference It would all stay just the same. Have another, Mom. Here... Have one on me.

A Blur Of What Was Last Night...
Friends and food, the ones who wernt ignoring me. Hmmm drinking? yes drinking sounds like a splendid idea. MMM yeager! tasty. Goes down easy. I did not know i needed a babysitter! They left the bottle unguarded. Swig swig, 8 shots in a row followed by two redbulls to chase... mmmm.. no texts Wow dancing? when do i dace, do i know how to dance? Chiodos? no hardcore dancing in the livingroom? Oppps sorry didnt mean to spill that. Randy, randy left his aim on...oh oh tryin to talk a gurl into comming up to party. hmmmm lemme see what i can do, yes yes uh huh, come up and drink with us... woot still got it. wait what? flip cup can i go? "no your too drunk" its my last weekend in the port dont leave me...they do. no texts Wait MSI two hookers and a 8ball? Really? Awesome i could go for that. Gayland! Rocking out to MSI hes the most clean cut of us all! Hmm well me and alex will dance... Knock knock... did somone order a drunk girl? mmmmm strawberry vodka. no texts no no my

Rating Pics
To everyone, especially the downraters,, I'm tired of the ppl that are "new" or just here to cause trouble. if you want to rate pics as a 1, make yourself a second profile and go back and forth on yours. if you cant rate someone elses pic a 10,, DONT RATE IT! AND DONT BE AN ASSHOLE! plain and simple. We are all here to have a good time and be with friends, and the next 1 rating I get is going to have it's downside, that person better expect about 2000 1 ratings right after that. so how low can you go?

I Know Your Out There
There is an emptiness in my heart that can't be filled unless you are with me of your own free will. That is how I will know that you really care, I know your out there in this world some where. You will lighten my life when ever you are near, Oh god how I wish you were here. I need to find you so I can hold you tight. I need you with me every night. We are destined to cross the same path someday and I will leave it to fate to show us the way. We will be happy together the rest of our lives and I will prove my love to you till the day I die. (Just one of many poems I have wriiten over the years. I hope you enjoy it)

Heat From My Pen (music City Writer)
This song is all about the lyrics if u can follow them. Track produced by Dezo aka Trackripper...i liked the philosophical vibe i got from the melody so i lay out my view point statement in words.

Life
Well, this is life. All through my years in school in Penns Grove, i was an outcast. I was always made fun of, picked on, fights picked with, and etc. One day at recess, i was told by a girl whom i thought was my friend, that a certain boy named Josh McLaughin liked me. She said to go up to him and ask him out. So, of course, i did. To my surprise, he said "Yes!" so i said "Okay" and turned away. When i was walking away, he said really loud "Hell No!". It was upsetting! When i got into middle school in 1995, i was made fun of more, got picked on more, and was threatened a lot. I never had the name brand clothes, shoes, and my parents never had a lot of money. I made it through middle school and went on to high school... same story! When i was 18, i met a guy i thought was in love with me... but i was wrong. When i told him i was pregnant, he left me! I met the man of my dreams when my son was 2 months old. We were engaged in 2003. He left for Iraq in 2004. Came home in 2005. Now i am

Adult Quiz
Adult quiz... Body: OK, now that I have your attention. An Adult Survey - Be honest. If you aren't honest then what is the point. Fill it out and re-post as a bulletin. Have fun. 1) Ever been to a strip club? YES 2) Ever been to a bar? YES 3) Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club? NO 4) Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out somewhere? YES 5) Kissed someone of the same sex? YES 6) Thrown up from drinking too much? YES 7) Had sex in a car? YES 8) Had sex in a park? NO 9) Had sex in a cinema? NO 10) Had sex in a bathroom? YES 11) Had sex at work? YES 12) Have you ever been in an "adult" store? YES 13) Bought something from an "adult" store? YES 14) Is there anyone on your friends list you would consider having sex with? OH HELL YES....LOL 15) Have you ever had a threesome? YES 16) Are your breasts real? YES 17) Have you ever kissed a stranger? YES 18) Does anyone have naughty pics of you? NOT THAT I KNOW OF...LOL 19) Ever had oral sex in a nightclub? NO 20) Ever had sex with some

Me And My Girls!
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The Drunk Driver...
Recently a routine RCMP patrol parked outside a bar just off the main Highway at Goobies , Newfoundland . After last call the officer noticed a man leaving the bar so intoxicated that he could barely walk. The man stumbled around the parking lot for a few minutes, with the officer quietly observing. After what seemed an eternity and trying his keys on five different vehicles, the man managed to find his car, which he fell into. He sat there for a few minutes and then threw a hook and line out the window and seemed to be trying to catch a fish. A number of other patrons failed to observe this crazy drunk as they left the bar and drove off. Finally the drunk started the car, switched the wipers on and off (it was a fine, dry summer night) flicked the blinkers on, then off a couple of times, honked the horn and then switched on the lights. He pulled in the hook and line and moved the vehicle forward a few inches, reversed a little and then remained still for

Fantasies
I lay here alone with thoughts of you playing in my head, feeling all that we shared was a moment that will forever remain in time. Your gentle caress, the tenderness of your kiss. The passion that only lovers can express. Candles lit, our bodies becoming one, feeling the sweat glide across you and I.Glistening under the moonlight, The gods blessing our union if only for this one moment. Bodies united by our souls.I say you name so softly under my breath that only you can hear. Your breath against my face so warm as you release all the passion deep within.Two bodies as one, this romance has yet to begun. Deep within me, I feel you, learning, teaching, being all that is true. I think of you with a small smile, that when the days are lonely, I have this memory that has yet to be, the union of you and me. My fantasy of you.

When Shit Hits The Fan It Hits Hard In My Life
Whats with my luck lately? People i care about either not giving two shits about me and not caring what I think, or just not wanting to be with me anymore. But also why do people think it's ok just not to talk to someone when something is wrong? I hate that. I want to know if something is going down. I want to know what the hell is up. Life is just a myriad of problems. From the hard times at cop school and needing major moral support, lack of hours at work (12 a week), having 350 bucks taken when i dropped it, to people just flat out ignoring me, to other problems I would rather not share. People really dont realize that i truly hurt too. They dont realize that i always have felt when hurt and recently there's been enough hurt to leave a thick coat of scar tissue around my heart. I pretend not to feel anything but way deep down inside im insecure, scared, unconfident in myself, and dissapointed with my life. People need to be clear in how they feel about me. I care about certian peopl

Interested In Seeing Kenney Chesney In Vegas?!
Are you interested in seeing Kenney Chesney in Vegas? I've got 3 tickets that I'm selling on e-Bay right now. The show is this Friday, 5/4/07. Check it out: SEE KENNEY!! If you know of anyone going to Vegas let them know so they can check out the auction. Thanks!

Chapter 13 On What I Learned On Xbox Uno
This one goes along with the who it's never to big for the head. After this was said it got me thinking. For what you may ask, well for a nice come back of course. And being that our minds were in the gutter that night, the only thing that came to my mind was " as long as the head doesn't spit" LOL! Go ahead laugh out loud. We did. And we laughed at that one for a good few minutes straight. I know I know. I crack myself up sometimes. What can I say I'm a regular comedian. You can thanks my step-father for that. I learn from the best. Well keep this one in mind because it goes along with some more to come. Until next time, Ciao!

K.f.c.
I was driving down the road on the way to work had all you can eat mexican food the night before it was about 10am my tummy was startin to hurt I was fartin real bad too plus I also had to pee. I finnaly found a place where I could stop off K.F.C. I was fartin soo bad now could feel it right there I rushed inside the girls room was locked soo I decided to try and sneak inside the mens room got in there and lock the door wow the toilet was soo dirty and full of crap too. soo I did the next best thing as it is could not hold no more I bent over alil to slide off my panties I already had some marks in them soo I put them in the mens urinal and bent alil and wow it started to flow soo good omg it felt soo good never thought id finnish finnaly I was done and I wiped and left the bathroom there was a big contruction type that went in after I got out hmm for some reason as I watched he was in there a good while finnaly he left and walked straight out the door after words. I snuck

Moving.. Ugh!!!
Well Tuesday I'll be movin back to Eugene... Right now I am a lil shit hole wanna be town (35 miles north of Eugene) Crawfordsville... God this place sux ass big time... Nothing to do here at all... There is one lil market and a post office... That is it for this town... Wouldn't be so bad if I had friends over here... All my friends are in Eugene & Springfield area though... So I can't freakin' wait to get back to a "real" town... A bigger one at that... No worries, I'll be online as soon as I get there Tuesday... lol Have a great one y'all!!!

I Want A Little Boy
heheh today at the kids fair i got to talk to a bunch of kids it was awsome. i think if i ever do have kids i want a son first ... although it really doesnt matter. this one little boy he was 4 i asked him his name and he told me and then he asked my name and i said katherine but everyone calls me kat and he was like hi kat how are you today hahaha it was so cute and then he started walking away and his dad was still at the booth so i went and got him and he gave me a big hug lol im such a girl sometimes anyways thats all it was fun the kids for the most part are awsome

Sex Iq
You have a sexual IQ of 131 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Contest
Here the deal, this is to all contest giviers, I think it time one of you to give one call C T ELLER contest. I personnally it time to apoint and offical CT ELLER to watch over this growing C T Family. I for one would be the first to join, you all know I can not win any of the sexy, or best dress, or meanest. So what do you think THE HANKSTER

Spoiled
Made in the USA : Spoiled brats The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the president. In essence, 2/3rds of the citizenry just ain't happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, ''What we are so unhappy about?'' Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job? Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year? Maybe it is the ability to drive from the Pacific Ocean to t

Updates
okay im feeling better after my brief scare involving health issues for my friends, actual ppl i talk to not just on my friends list, if you play pogo, we can play together, im there all the time just let me know privately what your name is on there everything is running smoothly so far so i guess thats all for now thanks for reading

Hello To All
Im sorry to say Iam closing my account with cherrytap and I wanted to tell u all Have a great summer and it was great here with you all. I had fun. u all were fantastic with me and i loved all your comments:-) if u like to be friends still u all could find me on bermudez_pagan48@yahoo.com & paganjoanna@aim.com Good Luck to and I love u all SUPPORT OUR TROOPS I love them very much men and women that are serving..MAY GOD BLESS THEM ALL and U TOO THAT ARE NOT IN THE MILITARY.. HAVE A FANTASTIC WEEKEND Joanna u also could find me at http://www.myspace.com/venus1955

Nurse
A nurse walks into a bank, totally exhausted After a 20 hour shift. Preparing to write a check, she pulls a rectal thermometer out of her purse and tries to write with it. She looks at the flabbergasted teller and without missing a beat says, "Well, that's just great.........that's really great..........Some ass hole's got my pen

You Gotta Love Neil Sedaka..lol
I'm listening to renee olstead and peter concitti's rendition of this song..it's awesome Don't take your love away from me Don't you leave my heart in misery If you go then I'll be blue 'Cause breaking up his hard to do Remember when you held me tight And you kissed me all through the night Think of all that we've been through Breaking Up Is Hard To Do They say that breaking up is hard to do Now I know, I know that it's true Don't say that this is the end Instead of breaking up I wish that we were making up again We were making up again I beg of you Don't say goodbye Can't we give our love just one more try Come on baby, let's start a new 'Cause breaking up is hard to do

To All My Cherry Friends
HEY ALL MY CHERRY FRIENDS MY COMPUTER SHOULD BE BACK IN 2WKS THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO HASNT FORGOT ABOUT ME I WILL REMEMBER YOU WHEN I GET BACK ON FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT DID WELL I GUESS ILL HIT YOUS UP 2 THANKS FOR EVERYTHING LOV YAS

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I learned how. Not long ago. They say you write what you know. I know that I don't know my heart. And that's not a problem. Because it was never mine to know. Step. Fall. Catch. You know. And it will be fun. Learning how. With you.

Update On Life
Well right now im sitting waiting for the phone call that will tell me one of my very best friends i grew up with since day one, and someone i hold dear to me as more than a sister has passed away tonight. Its been about a month and a half since mom passed and i've pretty much taken on the role of cook/maid around the house since i have time now. Currently lookin for a job, cant get anything, and the bills are stacking higher. I tend to have breakdowns alot periodicly due to the pts (post tramatic stress disorder) that i was diagnosed with two years into caring for mom. I've gotten pretty good at convincing myself she hasnt actualy passed and just isnt around anymore, people cope a lil differently i spose. I've recently become very self destructive, phsycotic with pulling hair out and trying to knock myself out and often cant tell when one of those episodes will hit so not trusted alone a good amount of the time. I split from my relationship the day after moms funeral (not by cho

Can't Anyone In The Upper "cherryland" Tell Time!
Just because my pc is faster that the cherry server, thats no excuse to extend the 10 minute time-out. its now been about a half hr and still cant rate. common jesus, either update the server or just maybe, not overload it yourself with the other 2 sites now using it!!!

Love Of A Life Time
can u have more than one true love what u had him and didnt relize he was ur true love till it was to late is it possible to win there heart back again what if uve changed everything he said went wrong in the realtionship but for some reason u cant bring ur self to tell him ur still in love with hes one of my best friends and every time i see him i just want to lay in his arms but im afraid if i tell him it will ruin are friendship what do i do please help do i tell him or pray to my magical gods hell read this blog

I Learned This Today...................
i just got back from riding my harley all day, and from church. this is what i learned........as i rode all day today with the wind blowing in my hair.....i saw people that are just so much in a hurry, so i slowed down to see what would happen. i let people go in front of me in lines today because they had to hurry up and get somewhere else in thier ever so busy lives. i heard people saying that there was not enough time in the day for them to get done all that they wanted...i talked to poeple that said that did not have time to stop and talk or the day would end and they would still have to much to do. i let people blow by me on the road only to see them a few minutes later at the stop light they just had to race up too. they were cussing and carrying on only cause they had to hurry up and wait. i just smiled and let them go on with thier busy lives today because i was just sitting back and taking my time and guess what i got alot done today and i was happy to do it. why do we have to

Fan·ta·sy /ˈfæntəsi, -zi/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[fan-tuh-see, -zee]
an ingenious or fanciful thought, design, or invention.....but what is it really...is it a thought we want to play out....i wish we want to come true.....what is a fantasy......and will it be a FINAL FANTASY.......

Ugh..i Hate The Pain...
Pain stuffed inside of me Can't let anyone near me Can't let anyone see the real me Can't let anyone even hug me All this pain that's held in me Why can't anyone see the real me Why can't anyone help me Why can't someone just hold me All this pain that's eating me Can't let go of the pain in me Can't get this pain from me Can't get this pain out of me When will the pain stop hurting me Why can't I just feel me Why can't I just be me Why can't someone take this pain from me i seriously just feel like im drowning in it right now..i cant get up...i cant get out....its just attacking me...i can release it...but only for a moment..i can make it not so bad...but it doesnt last long..but i can only do that so many times b4 it hits the end...i only have so much room to work with...i just cant get out from under....i hate this..i really do...how can something hurt this bad?

Got My Prom Dress ^_^
Music Video:SUGAR, WE'RE GOIN DOWN (by Fall Out Boy)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone yay...hans helped me remember chris...fuckin a. *sigh* it's been over a year since me and chris broke up and i'm STILL not over him! so yea...fall out boy "sugar we're going down" is my and chris' song. damn you. happier note, i went shoppin today. i've really been going shoppin a lot this year...i have to make sure it doesnt become a habit! but i got my prom dress today. it's really pretty, i'll put pix of it up in a week. i have to let kenny know now so he can "coordinate". apperantly it's part of a formula that only kenny's mom knows (and she has to teach me!) lol, i love her, she's amazingly awsome ^_^ i also got new shoes, 2 pairs of pj pants, make up, nail polish, silver sharpies (omfg yay!!!)...and i'm sure there's more but i cant remember now. i'm wearin the corona pj pants right now that i found in the guys section of TJ Maxx. i'm really really tempted to wear t

Then My True Love Has Hair Of Red
My sweet’s embrace grabs hold of something deep within my soul. Her magic touch soothes my heart and fills an empty hole. My sweet’s kisses are so soft and gentle, more exquisite than fine wine. Her slender fingers course through my hair, sending shivers down my spine. My sweet’s gaze I dare not meet too long, although it may be bliss. For in her eyes of ocean blue, I may fall into the abyss. My sweet‘s an earth bound angel, whose wings she had to shed. If my sweet be my true love, then my true love has hair of red

Lyrics For (darude - Sandstorm)
alright, if anyone knows the song sandstorm.. they will be like 'wtf?!' i ran across this just a few minutes ago.. and had to share it... so here it is.. Darude - Sandstorm Lyrics?! Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dundun dun dundundun dun dun dun dun dun dun dundun dundun BOOM dundun dundun dundun BEEP dun dun dun dun dun dun dun BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BOOM daddaddadadsadadadadadadadadadaddadadadadadaddadadaddadadadadadadadadadadadaddadddadaddadadadd dadadadaddaddada d dadadddaddadaddadadadddadadada nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nnyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo nnn nn nn nn nn nn n nn nnn nn nn nnn nnn nnnnnnnn dddddddd ddadadadadaddadadadadadaadadadadadad BOOM nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM nyunyunyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu nyu BOOM BOOM BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP dadadadadada dda

Seasons
THIS BEAUTIFUL POEM WAS WRITTEN MY A DEAR FRIEND....DJ FAWN....I THINK IT SUMS UP WHAT WE WANT IN LIFE....THE LOVE.....THE TENDERNESS.....THE GENTLE TOUCH....THE WHISPERED WORDS....THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU FAWN.....MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS AND WISHED COME TRUE As the trees bud and the grass turns green Winters last hold can be seen All around are signs of spring And all the promises it can bring The appearance of the robin is a sure sign That warmer weather is down the line Sunny days without any snow Warm rains to make flowers grow Warmer weather there is even yet As the summer heat makes us sweat Swimming pools and summer nights Thunder storms and the northern lights As falls rounds the corner it can bring chills Autumn leaves can give us all thrills Piles of leaves to run and jump through Can give children fun with all they can do Winter follows with a blast of cold It makes its stand and is quite bold Snowy days and an artic blast Makes us all wis

Ratings
I don't understand the point of the lost cherry ratings. I thought it was supposed to be a rating system of 1 through 10, one being the lowest, 10 being the highest. If everyone is rated 10s, they mean nothing. What the hell is the point? I rate people honestly. If you don't like that, too bad. Stop complaining about how I gave you a 3 or even giving a 7 or an 8. A 7 or an 8 is good to me! It means well above average. 5 is average. I save my 10s. When I give them out they mean something.

U Know When Ur In Love !!!!! Funny Tatics
well u know when ur in love when ......... 1)u sleep beside the loudest snorer in the world .. 2)u put up with bad eating habits and the way they just lay around 3)when they hog the bed and u just deal with it 4)if u feel comfortable to sleep completley nude and have no shame in ur game ..lmao yeah these are just some of ma tatics when u know when ur in love ....

How I Am Feeling
WELL IT LOOKS LIKE MY OTHER BLOG DID NOT SHOW UP. BECAUSE I DONT SEE IT. I HAVE BEEN GOING THRU ALOT THESE PAST 2 DAYS. NOW I AM BEING BLAMED FOR THE PROBLEMS THAT ME AND MY OTHER ARE HAVING. HE TOLD ME THAT IT IS NOT HIS FAULT THAT I AM INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF. I AM NOT. IT JUST UPSETS THAT HE HAS BEEN TALKING TO THESE FEMALES BEHIND MY BACK. HE SPENDS MOST OF HIS FREE TIME ON HIS LAP TOP THEN HE DOES WITH ME. BUT IM SUPPOSED TO BE OK WITH THAT. AND IM NOT SUPPOSED TO GET JEALOUS OF THESE GIRLS WHO ARE CLOSER TO HIS AGE AND BETTER LOOKING THAN ME. IM SUPPOSED TO JUST DEAL WITH IT HE SAYS BECAUSE THEY LIVE FAR AWAY. WHY AM I THE ONE TO BLAME FOR WHAT GOES ON. HES THE ONE DOING THIS NOT ME. I DONT IGNORE HIM. I DONT GO LOOKING FOR OTHER MEN LIKE HE DOES WOMEN. I DONT SPEND ALL DAY LOOKING AT WEBCAMS WAITING FOR GUYS TO GET NAKED. LIKE HE DOES WITH THE FEMALES. I AM BEGINNING TO THINK THAT HE DOES NOT CARE FOR ME ANYMORE. I AM JUST SO CONFUSED. ON TOP OF THAT MY GRANDMA IS GETTING WORSE W

4/27/07
Friends and family who've been unreliable now have to earn your trust. Keep that in mind. While it's important to give people the benefit of the doubt, you can't be naive or silly about it. Remember that you are a valuable resource. **************************************************** Ok damnit...who's name do I start with first???

December - Attitude
¢À JANUARY =SHYNESS Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your repu

If Your Having A Good Day Don't Pick Up The Phone
well its that time again. it was a Tuesday. I'm over a friends house. we had a case of beer about 15 lbs of fresh raw meet to BBQ up and a day that was damn near perfect. so I'm inside making hamburgers getting everything set up so i can go and cook, than the phone rang. something told me not to get it but i did anyway. (me)Hello. *Cody*Bardo. ()Yeah whats up man? **its Cody bro. did you hear about Mikey? ()no i haven't talk to him in about a week. why whats up? **he wrecked his car Friday night. ()Oh shit dude is he ok? **no man, hes dead. he died yesterday. come one man don't fuck with me like that. **i wish i was man, i wish i was...

Oct.
¢À OCTOBER = SEXY Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

I Miss Sir Fuzzmuffin
I left him at home while I went off to college this last time, he's the only thing that kept me sane here....blah, but he's much happier with space to run around and places to jump. My little bunny :( I'll see him in two weeks. thanks for listening to my boring blog. b

The Road Not Taken
What does this poem mean to you?? The Road Not Taken Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. -- Robert Frost

Fucktards
OK so its the internet and what do I really expect , yes I hear you all asking this allready , but when it comes to proposals of marriage and long time spans that you have this happen then yeah it is just a bit different yes ? Now to the matter at hand , yes there will be foul language because I am now going to talk about the fucktards , first the fiance , Lord Bathum as he is called here and on myspace , now he has been engaged to my very dear Mistress of Wolves since well before I ever met her , and all of this will cover the entire of their time knowing each other , it might be hard for you people to grasp so I will try to take it slowly . you see when she met him , he was supposedly in hospital in London after an assault that left him badly scarred , and rather depressed also just split with someone , this may seem normal so far but and here is the kicker , the UK does not have internet support facilities for patients in our hospitals , it is too damn expensive ( since the h

What Kind Of Flirt Are You?
***You Are a Natural Flirt*** Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt. And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting. Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt. And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive! What Kind of Flirt Are You? http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofflirtareyouquiz/

Love Defined
What is love, but an emotion, So strong and so pure, That nurtured and shared with another All tests it will endure? What is love, but a force To bring the mighty low, With the strength to shame the mountains And halt time’s ceaseless flow? What is love, but a triumph, A glorious goal attained, The union of two souls, two hearts A bond the angels have ordained? What is love, but a champion, To cast the tyrant from his throne, And raise the flag of truth and peace, And fear of death o’erthrow? What is love, but a beacon, To guide the wayward heart, A blazing light upon the shoals That dash cherished dreams apart? And what is love, but forever, Eternal and sincere, A flame that through wax and wane Will outlive life’s brief years? So I’ll tell it on the mountaintops, In all places high and low, That love for you is my reason to be, And will never break or bow.

Too Much, Too Many
Too many tears wasted Too much time lost Too much pain tasted Too many feelings tossed Too many dreams thrown away To an undeserving man Too many thoughts of yesterday Thrown aside in the sand Too much heartache you've begun Now all I feel is hurt Too much of my life gone Wasted on someone who treated me like dirt So I'm writing this to say I'm done with you and your lies I can no longer stay So it's time to say our goodbyes...

First Night
They held each other close Both wishing time would end Their bodies pressed together Their heart beats did blend He knew he had to leave She knew he'd soon go The next time they'd be together Neither did know The goodbyes were silent Each knew what the other meant One hug, one kiss And both were content They parted with sadness But no tears were shed For they still had the memories Of their first night in bed.

Perfection In My Eyes
All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart, And for us to be together, to never be apart. No one else in the world can even compare, You're perfect and so is this love that we share. We have so much more than I ever thought we would, I love you more than I ever thought I could. I promise to give you all I have to give, I'll do anything for you as long as I live. In your eyes I see our present, our future and past, By the way you look at me I know we will last. I hope that one day you'll come to realize, How perfect you are when seen through my eyes

When You Were Cheating Nyahaha!!!
by sara evans You say your every day, Is a bad dream that keeps repeatin', Maybe you should have thought about that...when you were cheating How do you like that furnished room The bed, the chair, the table? The tv picture comes and goes, Too bad you don't have cable. How do you like that paper plate? And those pork and beans your eatin' Maybe you should have thought about that...when you were cheating How do you like that beat up car? I think it's fair we traded Your pickup truck is running fine It's a cozy ride for datin' Yes I've been out a time or two And found the comfort I've been needin' Maybe you should have thought about that...when you were cheating You made your bed and you're out of mine, You lie awake and I sleep just fine, You've done your sowing, now you can do the reapin' Maybe you should have thought about that...when you were cheating Now what became of what's-her-name After she spent all your money? Did she leave you just like yo

~into The Light~
Current mood: ~creative~ Category:Writing and Poetry For so long now my soul has been broken. And like the sun on my face at dawn, you opened my eyes and my heart. So many have tried and failed. As i sit here i ask myself what is different about you? The sweet words you say have been said before, but when you say them 'i believe'. We are similar you and i, our hearts speak the same language and our souls sing the same song. Although you would have me believe otherwise, trying to explain to me how harsh you really are and how mean you can be. It almost makes me laugh when you say these things, for i know the beauty inside you, the goodness you possess. Your gentle love, your sweet words, your warm spirit, has broken through all walls i had built around my heart. In my heart and soul i know i was meant to know you and to love you. You are my savior in some ways, bringing me out of the dark and into the light to feel the warmth and beauty, this life and

Update, 4-29-07 Through 5-4-07 !!
Just wanted to let you all know that for the next few days you probably won't see much of me, i'll probably pop on once in a while to check messages and stuff but other than that i'll be busy with my daughter who will be home only for a short period of time. **hugs to everyone** take care and have a good week!!

3rd Child On The Way
ok to all my family fiends and fans i say wooooohoooooo me and ninja bob are expecting our 3rd child so say some prayers if your in to that keep us in your thoughts if your not and hope we get to see this one born.MMFCL TO ALL P.S, i so sleepy so if this looks like crud who gives a flying f^&(

Daughtry - What About Now
Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading From all the things we are And are not saying Can we see behind the scars And make it to the dawn Change the colors of the sky And open up The ways you made me feel alive The ways that I loved you For all the things that never died To make it through the night Love will find you WHAT ABOUT NOW What about today What if you're making me All I'm meant to be What if our love never went away What if it's lost behind Words we could never find Baby before it's to late WHAT ABOUT NOW The sun is breaking in your eyes To start a new day This broken heart can still survive With the touch of your grace As shadows fade into light I am by your side where love will find you WHAT ABOUT NOW What about today What if you're making me All that I'm meant to be What if our love never went away What if it's lost behind Words we could never find Baby before it's to late WHAT ABOUT NOW now that we're here Now that we've

Vampiro Is Dead
as of now, my former alias, Vampiro is dead 4 good, no coming back. i brought back the name cause it was the original name i carried 4 a long time, and it was wut pumpkin knew me as, and he liked when i carried the name cause it was a reminder of how long we hav been friends, and now he has threatened to close down the lounge that he and i built up 2gether, and he has also stated that he may leave ct. i am as of now a FREE AGENT and until i decide, i will stay that, but now it is up 2 all the lounges to decide if they want me, if so, then give me good reason to join, if u cant do that, then i will stay a free agent, until i find somewhere i want to b ÐJ ÐËTH

Lost Art Found
I just found a photo of one of my father's paintings. He said that he wanted to be buried with it, but I snatched it when his eyes were closed. It now hangs on a wall in my son's house. Not for sale. I love this one.

Ny Police Report Bomb To Frame Activist As Terrorist
"By the time the government finds out, you'll be in the hole thirty days" 9/11 Truther is Told By Officer Who Admits to False Accusation of Having a Bomb Aaron Dykes & Alex Jones Prison Planet Saturday, April 28, 2007 Two persons identifying themselves as New York police officers interrupted a 9/11 Truth demonstration on a public sidewalk in front of the new WTC 7 Building to intimidate free speech, stating "Larry [Silverstein] doesn't want to hear it," before accusing We Are Change founder Luke Rudkowski of having a bomb and that his cell phone was "a gun." The officer was apparently responding to refusals to stop filming their faces as police attempted to impede free speech on behalf of Larry Silverstein, making slanderous and knowingly false accusations including: "I think he's got a bomb in his bag. Saw wires coming out. Think he's got a bomb in there." The police officer carried on during the encounter, saying "A terrorist act-- I guess they go away for about 3

The End!!
As she crawled in the soft bed, her body begged for another storm, but she knew it was late and tomorrow was going to be a big day. So she curled up on her side and sleep, dreams of him flooded her mind and body. She was right in the middle of one of those long walks they would take in the middle of the night.Where they would walk the shadowed walk ways. He had her up against the tree and was taking his dark pleasures from her. He was deep inside her and was about to bite her neck, when a crash of thunder woke her up. For a second as she looked around her room she was confused then a shadow crossed her sight. As her eyes caught it,she couldn't breath. After all this time had he come to her room. Yes , it was him as he crossed over to her bedside a flash of lighting show his body off very nicely. She just watch as he came closer to her with nothing but a smile and a deep look to his eyes. He slipped in next to her and said in a soft husk voice I told you not to give up on me,

Let It Go For 2007.
The power of goodbye Let it go for 2007. By T. D. Jakes There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't k

Last Night At Work
Ironic that this post is NSFW because it happened at work. You see, I work 3rd shift at a hotel. Sometimes my girlfriend accompanies me to keep me company since often there isn't anything to do. She was in the lobby; I was sitting in the back office. I'd left her chatting with a friend on her laptop. After a few minutes of being idle at 4 am, I started to doze a little. The phone rang, waking me up. I went to the phone but as soon as I put my hand on the receiver, the ringing stopped. I looked up to say to Natasha, "That was weird" but she wasn't out there. Immediately, she was coming into the back office. She grabbed me by the collar and kind of threw me into the desk chair there. She straddled my hips and started grinding against me. I got hard fairly quickly especially since she started kissing me passionately. When she took a breath, I asked her 'What brought that on?". She barely paused long enough to say 'I don't know'. She reached down and grabbed my dick throu

As I Grow
As I Grow Please... UNDERSTAND that I am growing and changing very fast it must be difficult to keep pace with me but please try LISTEN TO ME and give me brief clear answers to my many questions then I will keep sharing my thoughts and feelings REWARD ME for telling the truth then I am not frightened into lying TELL ME when you make mistakes and what you learned from them then I can accept that I am OK even when I blunder PAT ATTENTION to me and spend time with me then I can believe I am important and worth while DO THE THINGS you want me to do then I will have a good positive role model TRUST and respect me even though I am smaller than you I have feelings and needs just like you COMPLIMENT and appretiate me then I'll feel good and I'll wnat to continue to please you HELP ME explore my unique interests talents and potential in order for me to be happy I need to be meand not youor someone you want me to beBE AN INDIVIDUALand create y

Come Check It Out
hey i jus gave bob a commentgasm, click on his pic and leave him some comments and give him a commentgasm...not sure how many it takes, but give him atleast 20 to be sure, he likes getting commentgasms, thanks friends jus click the pic

Gia
Darkened dreams Eclipsed by a ravaged sky Painful sorrow Heart torn to shreds Weeping willow Pain eternal Sweet beauty Raped and broken Torn from the world leaving behind such sadness Blood red sky Acid rain falling like tears Mother earth laid slain Her children damned Bittersweet tears Adorning tattered cheeks The poisoned earth Screaming in silence Begging for salvation A shockwave of anger Splitting the world in two No lust no want All forsaken Gias heart torn and battered Her innocence lost for all time She sheds tears as black as oil Heart ripped to dust Winds stopping No water does flow Black heart No mind Earth laid barren Wasteland no life left Eyes of the damned turning to you Her body raises from the ashes Her eyes venom to the world Tongue speaking in riddles You are cursed Your all damned Brought on by your greed Teppered lies No one to blame but YOU Vengeance soon to be served

The Weekend Is Almost Over :o.
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com I hope you all had a great weekend. I had a great weekend, it was relaxing, I really needed it after a long week. ;) My weekend would have been complete if my love Alex was around. :*/ Oh well, ces't la vie. Te iubesc babe. Who can remember the weekend? :D If there wasn't any broken windows... then it wasn't a party! :P Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

Nevada So Far...
So after my first "horrific" greyhound trip lasting of a never ending 4 days I arrived in Nevada to be greeted by my sister, her boyfriend Alan (whom we all affectionately refer to as "cookie") and my mother's new fiance Brandon. What Angel neglected to tell me is that Brandon is almost exactly like me with two exceptions: his sarcasm is much drier and he's highly athletic/fit. After getting to know Brandon and Cookie better I finally got to see my baby brother and sister. Not only are they both quite large now (almost too heavy for me to hold) but in school, speaking perfect english and highly intelligent...Well Nikki is anyway ^_^;; I got to spend time with "Bubby Rick", my fantastic one of a kind uncle who's an inspiration to all that meet him. We went to his "play house" and played pool and darts, mom kicked my ass. (The playhouse is a huge warehouse he owns with surround sound stereo, two pool tables, air hockey a wide screen darts and its own built in bar. Plus 3 couch

Chapter 17 On What I Learned On Xbox Uno
I had it on the tip of my tongue. Yes I'm sure you're thinking omg here we go again. Well to tell you the truth, it's exactly how it sounds. When we were playing our small family game of Uno, we were coming up with ideas on what I could blog about. Well during this time, I was coming up with some good ideas, but in the midst of all this chaos, I kept forgetting what it was I was trying to think of. I hate when this happens. I associate this as "brain farts". But I'm sure you're bored with what I have to say about that...let's talk about what I could have had on the tip of my tongue... Hm, let me think.. a head... cum... gum... tic tacs... a nipple... a finger... let eh possibilities be endless... what do you think I should have on the tip of my tongue? Until next time, Ciao!

Chapter 18 On What I Learned On Xbox Uno
I don't know if I told you but when playing these kinds of games, if you have a certain cam made for the Xbox console, then you can show yourself just like on a computer cam. Now, I don't have one of these per say, but one of our esteemed friends, Zion, had one. He seems like a good person, very funny and loves to engage in some good conversation. Well while he was talking with us during our game, he was making some good hand motions. Yes I said it hand motions. And I'm sure the only thing that comes to your mind is the one and only "up and down"...well you're right. It just seems he was obsessed with this hand motion. That's ok hunny, there are a lot of guys who I'm sure has had a problem with carpal tunnel due to the Penthouse mag. LOL! So what other hand motions could be taken as sexual oriented? Can you think of some...I'm sure you can...post them and we'll talk about it in one of our later editions of "What I learned on Xbox Uno". Until next time, Ciao!

To Go Beyond Yourself
How far beyond yourself are you willing to think and act? Have you ever done anything that will benefit the world not today, not next year, but a thousand years from now? If you limit your awareness to only your own concerns, you will continually be frustrated and disappointed. That is because your true nature exists far beyond the superficial, petty concerns of your shallow and fragile ego. Imagine being able to live without fear, in a constant state of pure peacefulness and effortless fulfillment. That is the terrain you can inhabit when you let go of the concerns of self. When you erect impenetrable borders between you and everything else, you push life's immense abundance away from your experience. The walls of exclusion and judgment that you create do quickly become your prison. Your awareness does not have to be limited by your perceptions. Beyond the confines of time and distance there is no end to the fulfillment that can be known. What you can achieve alone is quite

Help Me
SOooooo i want a CHerry blast but i am out of room on my credit card ... and ur not gonna get me one r ya lol but if u r i would luves u but still if ur not do me a huge fav click on that and go comment bomb the hell out me just go over and over again i need about 9000 to catch the top but i got to 1000 in 4 hours so i think its doable with some help Much LOve Sheila so least 10 comments or buy me a blast lol :p ok fine u dont have to but i liek it if u would

Good Morning/good Afternoon, Everyone!
I actually have a day relatively to myself! What a concept! The belly dancing workshop and performance were absolutely wonderful! I so enjoyed my day; lol, and yes there were vendors! I have the music that we used for the rather complicated dance we learned; a warm-up DVD, specifically for belly dancers; one hip scarf with coins, one without that can be used as a shawl. And a wine-colored stretch velvet choli - one of those short tops that shows your tummy, lol! No beaded and coined bra tops for me as yet, although they were available, lol. This was a rather rigorous workshop - we had lots of professional and semiprofessional dancers, as well as all the newbies! Yeah, I'm a little stiff and sore. My left shoulder will take some work to stretch out, it is quite painful, but I expected that! Old injuries just take alot more stretching!! Tim has moved back in with Damian! I've told them both that there will be NO moving back and forth everytime someone gets pissed!!!! Deal with i

The Final Chapter On What I Learned On Xbox Uno.
I hope you liked my little story. Thanks to everyone who has read, commented and rated this for me. I do appreciate it. Now to leave you on a note until the next time we play Uno and I decide to write other blogs. Some of the other things that were said I didn't have time to write down to talk about. Some I can't ever remember because we were laughing so hard my mind was having "brain farts". But here are some of the ones that I did have time to write down: Sleeping in silly pants while it gets hot- this was what someone had thought I said. No in actuality I said that I am sitting here with my ceiling fans on and I'm still getting hot... Pop goes the weasle- ? Sending messages before I get off- now I had gotten a message from a friend of mine while I was playing this game. The thing is, I didn't have time in the middle of the game to go to the main menu to retrieve this message. So I said "My friend had messaged me and I have to send him a message before I get off....N

Funny
25 reasons you know you have grown up 1. Your house plants are alive, and you can't smoke any of them. 2. Having sex in a twin bed is out of the question. 3. You keep more food than beer in the fridge. 4. 6:00 AM is when you get up, not when you go to bed. 5. You hear your favorite song in an elevator. 6. You watch the Weather Channel. 7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of "hook up" and "break up." 8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 14. 9. Jeans and a sweater no longer qualify as "dressed up." 10. You're the one calling the police because those %&@# kids next door won't turn down the stereo. 11. Older relatives feel comfortable telling sex jokes around you. 12. You don't know what time Taco Bell closes anymore. 13. Your car insurance goes down and your car payments go up. 14. You feed your dog Science Diet instead of McDonald's leftovers. 15. Sleeping on the couc

Poem
My following words may reflect a bit of insanity But I would like the elements that compose my physical cavity, the temporary ability to become miniscule particles in the wind permitting you the opportunity to inhale me inside like oxygen Let my essence climb up your nasal passageway, Gently dance my way to your mind like a ballet Authorize me direct access to your beautiful mind I want to take a tour around and see what I may find Into your memory warehouse…please grant me admission A means to understanding your most personal cognition Provide me with the keys to your file cabinets of retention The files will permit me to relive them with you in a different dimension I want to witness first hand your past anguish, trials and ordeals Therefore I can observe what your mouth always conceals I’d experience events that gave you a sensation of bliss that seemed surreal Enabling me to realize what you consider optimal, exemplary and ideal During times of your stressfu

All About Me!
All about me.....I many mental disorders: bipolar disorder, Intermitten explosive disorder, 2 other mood disorders that I cant think of the names, depression. Because of all these things, life for me is hard at times. I cant seem to keep a realionship going for long. Even though I am in one right now(with the love of my life) she understand that at times Im going to be out of my head. So she just holds on for the ride. Guess thats anybody can do with someone like me. I have come to learn that many people dont want to deal with someone like me. It is hard at times. It is also very upsetting when someone you love up and leaves because they cant handle all the mood swings. It has happened so many times to me, that I started believing that I was to blame, that I was just useless, that no one can love me for me. My own mother (who I love dearly god rest her soul) didnt even want me. I have said alot of nasty things about my second wife, but she must have been a saint to have stayed with me

(sik) Bombsquad
Fear The Grunts (SiK) Bombsquad Founder @ CherryTap Family Members My heart belongs to Lance Corporal Lender @ CherryTap USMC Lover @ CherryTap DJ Cash @ CherryTap {**SNAP BLUE**} @ CherryTap SEXYSISSY @ CherryTap rebelgirl @ CherryTap *USMC Sweetheart* @ CherryTap matt isenberg member of Cherry Tap Fire Dept @ CherryTap Shelby_69 @ CherryTap ♥DJ PASSION CO-OWNER OF CB ♥DMR♥DCR♥ @ CherryTap Just Shizzle BabyBoo's Nizzle x (SiK) #11 x -nWo- x F.A.R x The House of Rhyme Family = Nvasion Lounge Security @ CherryTap Outlaw "ICE" P. G/F to 'AdDicKtIve SinS/Dep. She

Truth Is
The truth is.... The writes I usually post are real superficial. Barely scratchin the surfeace. But I'm pregnant with thoughts and truths; I think it's time that i birth this. Work this. No longer flirt with. Being real. Trying hard to conceal me. Protecting the real me. From being exposed, on blast, revealed. See. For me... This whole process is more intimate than intercourse. I'm doing it quietly, holding back and with the lights off. So no one hears the real voice. And no one sees my flawed parts. My Private parts, my soul, my heart. Feel like I'm in a peep show window Naked but not sure who sees. Two way mirror. The fear and horror. Scared that someone may see past my alter-ego and undress the real me. It's like a burlesque show. Showing just enough, but not too much. Or the" new age" lap dance. Look but don't touch. Don't touch my heart, my soul, the true me. There is a wall , ten feet tall and a moat to seclude me. Elude me... from anyone wh

The Valentines Day Present
There were three men drinking in a bar, a doctor, an attorney and a harley biker. As the doctor was drinking his white wine he said, "For Valentine's Day I'm going to buy my wife a fur coat and a diamond ring. This way if she doesn't like the fur coat she will still love me because she got a diamond ring." As the attorney was drinking his martini he said, "For Valentine's Day I'm going to buy my wife a designer dress and a gold bracelet. This way if she doesn't like the dress she will still love me because she got the gold bracelet." As the Harley Davidson Biker was drinking his shots of whiskey he said, "For Valentine's Day I'm going to buy my wife a t-shirt and a vibrator. This way if she doesn't like the t-shirt she can go f*ck herself

What Every Girl Wants
1. Hugs from behind. 2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other(don't make her grab yours). 3. When standing, wrap your arms around her. 4. Cuddle with her. 5. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING. 6. Write little notes. 7. Compliment her Honestly. 8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible. 9. Be super sweet to her. 10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams. 11. Comfort her when she cries. 12.Wipe away her tears 13. Love her with all your heart. 14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down but really she loves it). 15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her). 16. Don't let your friends talk trash about her, it'll get back 2 her! & DONT ever act diff in front of ur friends than u r when its just u and her!!!! 17. Take her for a long walk at night! 18. Always bring a blanket where ever you go outside when its cold to comfort her and hold her close 19. NEVER LIE TO HER!!!!!! because then she will think everything you ev

Frankly Speaking....
Frankly speaking, I am disgusted by what I call my "fellow" americans. I pride myself in loving this country, even with all the problems we have today. I see people claim that they love america, calling themselves patriotic, saying they feel this war isnt right, Bush should pull all of our troops out of the war, send our men home, blah blah blah....When it comes right down to it, these people are just talking out of their ass. Why, you ask, is this woman spewing forth such indignified rants? Is she crazy? No. Just damn mad. You see, not to long ago, an Iraq veteran worte a blog on Cherry tap....one reaching out asking for his fellow americans for help. He was getting the run around from the government concerning medical attention that he truly needed. He begged for help...BEGGED!!!! And you know what? Out of the FIVE people who read that blog, I was the ONLY person who got him the help he needed. Not one comment was made, not one person offered any help. It took me a total of 10 minut

I Need Two More People
I need one for best cleavage and one for goofiest drunk pic hit me up so we can start in an hour thank u hugssssssss I am running a different kind of contest only accepting first five people for each category I am running them for two weeks the one who wins out of each category will have to run against the others for another week to see who is the final winner the final winner gets their pick out of these prizes.. Happy Hour or Month Blast or 7 day blast for each month for three months or a 3 day blast each month for six months straight u decide what u want . The five categories u have to choose from or you can go in all but have to be first five to enter is most drunk pic the nicest dress man pic, nicest dressed woman pic, best cleavage pic and longest tongue pic Shout out or message me what category or categories u would like to be in..thanks I WILL NOT TOLLERATE YOUR FRIENDS HELPING YOU, BASHING OTHER CONTESTANTS OR STARTING SHIT IF THEY DO YOU ARE OUT OF THE CONTEST A

George Carlin's New Rules For 2006
i think this could be for this year.... New Rule: Stop giving me that pop-up ad for classmates.com! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them! Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days: mowing my lawn. New Rule: Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chili. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What did you expect it to contain? Trout? New Rule: Stop saying that teenage boys who have sex with their hot, blonde teachers are permanently damaged. I have a better description for these kids: lucky bastards. New Rule: If you need to shave and you still collect baseball cards, you're a dope. If you're a kid, the cards are keepsakes of your idols. If you're a grown man, they're pictures of men. New Rule: Ladies, leave your eyebrows alone. Here's how much men care abo

How I Feel Sometimes
You didn't say I love you when you Hung up the phone And the times we could be together You are always gone And this knot inside my stomach tells me Somethings very wrong And I'm here All alone So I'll smoke another cigarette And let go of the things that might have been And remember that altho the night is dark The sun will shine again And somewhere on a distant breeze I hear your voice as it calls out my name But that voice is far behind me now Even though you're gone The memories remain

Pet's Love Element Is Earth (odd...)
Your Love Element Is Earth In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation What Element Is Your Love?

My Grandma Part 14
Well it is day by day.. All grandma kids are here and grandkids.. I am crying my eyes out.. I love her so much.. She is slipping away very very slow.. I will miss her very much.. I don't know what I would do when this happens.. I know I am screwed because I need a place to live on my own.. I really don't know what is going to happen to me.. If I do get my own place I will have to wait to get my own computer and my own stuff but place if you all want to know how I am doing I have my girlfriend sabby to give you and update ok.. um if any one lives in the States I may give them my Cell phone number.. All I have to say is I am looking at the old pictures with my grandma in it and I was crying so hard, I will never forget that day to be honest.. I really love her to death.. I am really really close to my grandma, but it is going to be really hard of me for the next couple of years and knowing that she is in or going to be in a better place.. I know that for sure.. Saying thank you to her fo

What It Did For Me
ya know back then I honestly wondered why in the world I got grounded for and well hell, why me. I know I've done some stupid things in my life to get grounded but I'll tell ya this it was fun doing what ever. I remember being grounded for sneaking out of my parents house to get laid at my gf's, it was a double surprise when I got home and where I left was all locked up again and had to answer my parents of what I was doing

Meth Info...plz Read And Take Action!!!
1. Strawberry Quick Strawberry flavored methamphatimines, often used to entice younger users to experiment with meth. Used to flavor meth during the cooking process (not after) which does not impact the potency. I also found an article posted on USA Today Strawberry quick: The new & improved form of meth? ************************************************** OK I did a google search on this to see if it was REAL and it indeed seems to be valid- there was a contradictory report that claims its all a hoAX BUT AS THE MOM OF A TWO teens im not willing to take that cance! please pass this on- im going to blog it as well even though noone ever looks at them :P ~Temptress~ *************************************************** Body: Department that they have received emails from emergency responder organizations to be on the lookout for a new form of Crystallized Meth, that is targeted at children and to be aware of this new form if called to an emergency involving a child that may

Im Not Racist But Its True
You call me "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey", "Gringo" and you think it's OK. ...But when I call you Kike, Towelhead, WOP, Camel Jockey, Gook, Nigger or Chink you call me a racist. -You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? -You have the United Negro College Fund. -You have Martin Luther King Day. -You have Black History Month. -You have Cesar Chavez Day. -You have Yom Hashoah -You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi -You have the NAACP. -You have BET. -If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist. -If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist. -If we had white history month... we'd be racist. -If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist. -If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist. -In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and r

Who Is The Racist? Not I Said The Fly
You call me "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey", "Gringo" and you think it's OK. ...But when I call you Kike, Towelhead, WOP, Camel Jockey, Gook, Nigger or Chink you call me a racist. -You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? -You have the United Negro College Fund. -You have Martin Luther King Day. -You have Black History Month. -You have Cesar Chavez Day. -You have Yom Hashoah -You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi -You have the NAACP. -You have BET. -If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist. -If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist. -If we had white history month... we'd be racist. -If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist. -If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist. -In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and r

My Sons Poems
War Bombs explode And people die Screams fill The Smokey skies Bullets whizzing Past your head Sometimes you wish You were dead Suicide bombers Run the street And the earth trembles Beneath your feet As the bullet Pierces your skin You suddenly wish All this will end

Six Reason You Should Think Before You Speak
Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak... Have you ever spoken and then wished you could immediately take the words back? ...or that you could just crawl into a hole? Here are a few testimonials of a few people who I am sure..wished they could..lol First Testimony I walked into a hair salon with my husband and 3 kids in tow, and asked loudly.."How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blowjob?" I turned around and walked out and never went back in. My husband didnt say a word..he knew better. Second Testimony I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type, I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking men that worked at the store. He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said..."I think I like playing with men's balls." Third Testimony My sister and I were at the mall and passed by a store that sold

A Soldier Vs N E 1 Else
It may take you two minutes to read this, but if you do not take the time to read this you are one of the people this post is talking about. You stay up for 16 hours He stays up for days on end. _________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. __________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. __________________________ You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. __________________________ You walk down the beach, staring at

Please No More Pain
why do i have to have this illness? why did my ex-husband have to do what he did to cause me to have this? i am entering the final stage of fibro and looking at ending up in a wheelchair...my legs are beginning not to work very well and i am living on vicodin...i don't want to be on the pain pills but the pain is becoming unbearable....GOD WHY ME?!?! I PRAY FOR JUST ONE DAY PAIN FREE ONE DAY IS ALL I ASK! PLEASE!!!! AMEN

Sex Is Good!
- THiNGS WOMEN MiGHT WANT TO KNOW - 1) 94% of men lie about their penis size. According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men need to use extra large condoms. 2) The average man is 4-5 inches long when erect; no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the truth. Incidentally the average vaginal capactity is only 6 inches, for you women who think you can handle king dong. 3) 80% of American men are circumsized, though Pediatrics say it is not necessary. 4) No matter what all the ads say nothing but time can make your penis grow. (most men reach the end of their growth by the early 20's) 5) There is no correlation between penis size and shoe size, hand size, or nose size. 6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically called "prostatic congestion." 7) Only 16% of men shave their privates. - THiNGS MEN MiGHT WANT TO KNOW - 1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider themselves "attractive" (20% of British women do). 43% of women use the term "natural", 24%

~*you Can't Break Me*~
You cant break something thats not breakable... you cant rip something apart thats stronger than ever ....My heart stands strong for so many things, My 3 wonderfull kids are the number one thing that stands strong in my heart and then come that wonderful man that i love with all my heart and no matter how hard the boat rocks he still there to tell me that things will be ok and that we will make it through whatever we need and whatever we want in our path of life...So many things come around some many things pass through and some of us just ingore it and dont pay no attion to anything till its to late. I can say im glad i have my kids in my life because they are our furture and im glad i have such a great man in my life that treats me with respect and no matter what goes on he says to me its ok we will make it ....Baby hold on to me, we will make it through it all through thick and thin and good and bad.... There isnt a day in my life that i dont for get just how much my kids and him m

April 27-29~weekend
Friday~ went to the track n worked SAturday~went to the track n worked n there was a big ass fight after wards.N TO MAKE THIS CLEAR FOR EVERYONE WHO GOES TO THE TRACK N KNOWS MY COUSIN BRAD KRESS HE DID SO GET FUCKING BLACK FLAGED SO BEFORE U COME TO THE OFFICE N RUN UR FUCKING MOUTH ABOUT BRAD KNOW WHAT THE FUCK UR TALKIN ABOUT. Sunday~im gonna watch the race later

Phish - "waste"
Don't want to be an actor pretending on the stage Don't want to be a writer with my thoughts out on the page Don't want to be a painter 'cause everyone comes to look Don't want to be anything where my life's an open book A dream it's true But I'd see it through If I could be Wasting my time with you Don't want to be a farmer working in the sun Don't want to be an outlaw always on the run Don't want to be a climber reaching for the top Don't want to be anything where I don't know when to stop A dream it's true But I'd see it through If I could be Wasting my time with you So if I'm inside your head Don't believe what you might have read You'll see what I might have said To hear it Come waste your time with me Come waste your time with me So if I'm inside your head Don't believe what you might have read You'll see what I might have said To hear it Come waste your time with me Come waste your time with me Come waste your time with me Come wast

We Used To Be When We Were We.
Single sets of treason reek of remembered feats- dead records, dead traditions, lessons not learned. Where the trends set new horizons the horrors fade in the thin cosmetic trickery of imposing silences, spaces cleared of remedial rubbish slimed behind the puppeteers levering masses of incestuous flesh through the motions of betrayl like rubber knives. Fare thee well, oh tequila mornings when you sang and the tune plucked strings of dark rainforest, beads of drawn faces left alone in stress. Fare thee well, oh acid afternoons when we walked on the hysterical sidewalks of solicitous leavings, gray flashes pricking our retinas with tears. Fare thee well, oh sleepless nights, when flesh wasn't enough, and we played sailor in a ship harboring doubts that outshone current certainity. These are gone. Now there is they, the track-marked sentinels gripped in a broken gaze, searching for something we used to be when we were we. They chase our traitorous blood from our red-h

Fyi ( I Stole This From Someone's Profile And Made Slight Alterations But It's All True)
- 1 - Love to chat and get to know new people and keep in touch with those that seem to be the type of people I enjoy being around. - 2 - I love men and of course their bodies... but not up for a fling, teasing... well hey its healthy. - 3 - I do not put up with BS, Drama or the point freaks that want nothing but "Cherry Points", so dont bother adding or comment etc. - 4 - I am a laid back person, enjoy a good time and sarcastic as hell. If i offend you, get over it! - 5 - I have done and seen many things, so I doubt your can surprise me, but feel free to try. - 6 - I am alittle rough around the edges, but I am a likable person. - 7 - I use both MSN and Yahoo, ask me for the info, and i will be happy to give it to you, if I like you - 8 - Lastly, If you want to know more about me, feel free to ask.

Where Sunshyne Video Is On The Web
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Tears
There are tears that fall in grief and sadness; Slow and mournfully the cheek they stain, Every drop a sob, a lamentation, In its dew a throb of bitter pain. There are other tears, bright, clear, untroubled, Shining as the sun, untouched of care, Like the violet rain, calm, cool, refreshing, When the scent of earth is on the air. There are tears all silent and mysterious, From the soul's love-yearning depths that steal; They relate to us long tales of sorrow, Buried loves which mourning veils conceal. There are tears that seem to me like laughter - Like clouds tempest-tossed, that roam for aye, Flinging lightnings to the winds of ocean, Drifting, mistlike, out and far away. There's a dry tear, burning, never falling - Liquid flame, intense, consuming, dread - Not to pass until the eyes are ashes, And the mind is ruined too and dead. Tears, I know you all, though

Help Me
If anyone knows,, of a place I can get a guest book please do lemme know cause I did have one from slide.com but it's messed up bad an I've re-done it over an over again but no deal so if ya'll know of any places gimme a holla! Thanks 4 Your Time.

Still A Woman..
I'm a woman, not a toy.. I want a man, not a boy.. I have a mind and I use it.. I am a fighter, I never quit.. I have green eyes, not blue.. If you can't remember that, fuck you. Say that you want me, never that you need me.. Want me for who I am, not what you want me to be. Walk beside me but, never, never in my way.. Never under estimate me, it would be a mistake. I am flawed, my scars are only part of my all. If you're looking for perfection, buy a doll. I know I'm a little rough but, I am also human. I've been hurt, I cry, I love, I'm still a woman. Don't be intimidated or hate, I don't bite.. Drama is a waste of time but, also part of life. You say you don't have it, come on stop lying.. Think you can hurt me, maybe but, ya won't find me crying... Not because, I'm too hard core or a bitch, what ever.. No because, lifes to short, and I can always find another.... I'm still a woman..

Me & You
Me & You by Peggy A. Snyder, April 29, 2007 for my husband Silk Sheets, Me & You-- Wonderous Adventures by moonlight that is just part of what our love is... Long rides, watching the tides, Me & You-- wonderous adventures in broad daylight that is just part of what our love is... Mowing grass- giving ya sass Me & You-- Wonderous Adventures that is just part of what our love is... raisin' kids- that's some kind of adventure-- Me & You-- Thank God,for that love we share! Backing me up, in more ways than one-- baby, I love it- Me and You-- Wonderous Adventures just a part of what our love is... A garden to sow- watching it grow, take ride out to the forests, riding rough in the jeep shoot off a round -- Ill give you my .38 special! kissin is really fun -- not a complaint, not even a peep-- Me & You-- We have plain ol' fun adventures and it's just a part of our life, of what our love is...

Where Can I Get More Information?
For more information on neurological disorders or research programs funded by the National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke, contact the Institute's Brain Resources and Information Network (BRAIN) at: BRAIN P.O. Box 5801 Bethesda, MD 20824 (800) 352-9424 http://www.ninds.nih.gov Information also is available from the following organizations: Association for Science in Autism Treatment 389 Main Street Suite 202 Malden, ME 02148 info@asatonline.org http://www.asatonline.org Tel: 781-397-8943 Fax: 781-397-8887 Autism National Committee (AUTCOM) P.O. Box 429 Forest Knolls, CA 94933 http://www.autcom.org Autism Network International (ANI) P.O. Box 35448 Syracuse, NY 13235-5448 jisincla@mailbox.syr.edu http://ani.autistics.org Autism Research Institute (ARI) 4182 Adams Avenue San Diego, CA 92116 http://www.autismresearchinstitute.com Tel: 619-281-7165 Fax: 619-563-6840 Autism Society of America 7910 Woodmont Ave. Suite 300

My Dating Scan
well today is the day ive been dredding and been really excited about, i dont know if its every womans fear but it is mine, and its that whn i get to the can that there will be nothin there so we will see, its why i havent got myself too involved just yet, well trying not to anyways lol. but here goes .... got up at gone 10am and comming round like i said takes me ages to come round in a morning lol. im surposed to drink 2 pints of water and hour before the appointment, should be fun i hate water at the best of times but i have to do it. so i got my first pint and a straw lol its quicker for me to drink it with a straw, and within 2 mins it was gone, yuk yuk yuk. next one lol went to get it and started to drink it, i started to struggle halfway down it lol, but hey ho. i had drank the 2 pints and feeling really uncomfortable and bloated we made our way to the bus stop, waiting for the bus we met chris's friends mum, and started to talk to her, she too was goin to the hospital

This Morning The Gods Hate Me.
Rawr. I swear its like the gods hate me. So yesterday in my mad spring cleaning I came across the fact that my fish tank is leaking, rather rapidly. So Henry will soon be waterless. Go out this morning and spend $200 for a new tank and new crap for it, get it home and its like 30 inches across, while my old tank was only 27.5 inches. So now it wont fit on the stand I had. On top of that, I get home to no parking(ive got 3 spots in front of my house, no drivway or garage, the ONLY people on the street without a driveway mind you) And the people across the street(who PAVED THEIR BACK YARD FOR PARKING) have parked in ALL three fucking spots. So i got to haul a 29 gallon fish tank down the street along wiht almost 30 lbs of rocks for the bottom of the tank. You better believe i was bitching them out the whole time. And now im going to sit here and stew and smoke and try to get Henry's tank set up.

Listen
Listen... Can u hear the pace oh my heart quicken as my desire and need for u builds. Come closer baby so I can kiss those lips that have my thoughts at attention. U can feel it can't u. you feel my heart pounding . Do u want me? Is that the pounding of ur heart I feel as we kiss? Does ur heart beat to the same rhythm because ur desire is as great as mine? I want your body to surrender itself to the pleasures my soul is intent on giving u. Feel me in a kiss, want me inside, and need me forever... E.D.M.L.

My Son
### NEWS FLASH### The Grey Angel has been tied down =p hehehe My Girlfriend Gemma and i are expecting a son on the 22nd of sept this year, i have posted the scan pics form his first scan in my pic albums enjoy! Grey Angel

Bad Day
Well, I was suppose to go and do something fun today, but it got canceled on me. I should've known better. I am in love with my boyfriend, but there is someone that just keeps wanting to stand in the way of us. Once of these days soon we will be able to be together and have this side person out of our lives. I'm really getting sick of the FUCKING DRAMA with this whole situation. If I didn't have the feelings that I do for my boyfriend I would just say FUCK IT to the whole situation and release myself of it. Why is it that when I find someone that I have a lot of feelings for and care about that someone else has to be in the picture. Can't people open their damn eyes and realize that life has changes and sometimes it's not what they want, but that it's just the way it has to be. Anyways, my day was fucked from the moment I opened my eyes this morning. I wasn't even awake and was told that our plans had been changed. Oh well, I guess. Life goes on. I hope that the rest of you

Sad Days
There are days that are good , days that are bad and then there are days that are just sad. Those days when you hurt, like never before. When your heart feels the pain ten thousand times more, not due to a man or even a friend, but from the words of innocent children. These days have been tough, with the ups and the downs, when faces that smile suddenly frown. When eyes normally glowing with cheer, look up at you filled with tears. With all the days in my life that I've met, these days have been the worse yet.

Big Willie
ONE DAY A LITTLE GIRL AND HER MOTHER WERE IN A STOP SHOPPING. THE LITTLE GIRL WAS ACTING UP VERY BADLY SO HER MOTHER TOLD HER IF SHE WAS GOING TO KEEP ACTING LIKE THAT SHE WOULD LEAVE HER IN THE STORE ALL ALONE. THE GIRL KEEP ACTING UP SO THE MOTHER DID EXCATLY WHAT SHE SAID SHE WOULD OD, LEAVE HER IN THE STORE. WHEN THE MANAGER WAS LOCKING UP THE STORE HE NOTICED THE LITTLE GIRL WANDERING HTE AISLES. SO HE ASKED HER WHERE WAS HER MOTHER, SHE REPLIED "SHE LEFT ME! CAN I COME HOME WITH YOU?." "NO!" HE SAID. SHE SAID "IM GONNA TELL MY MOM." SO HE TOOK HER HOME WITH HIM. WHEN THEY ARRIVED HE TOOK OUT THE FUTON FOR HER AND SHOWED HER HOW TO WORK THE REMOTE AND SAID HE WAS GOING UPSTAIRS THE TAKE A SHOWER. SHE ASKED "CAN I TAKE A SHOWER WITH YOU?" HE REPLIED "NO!" SHE SIPLMY SAID "IM GONNA TELL MY MOM." SO WHILE THEY WERE IN THE SHOWER SHE ASKED "WHAT'S THAT?" HE SAID "BIG WILLIE." SHE SAID "CAN I PLAY WITH HIM?" HE SAID "NO!" "IM GONNA TELL MY MOM." SO HER LET HER PLAY WITH BIG WILLIE. WHI

Spelling To Get Into Heaven
A woman arrived at the Gates of Heaven. While she was waiting for Saint Peter to greet her, she peeked through the gates. She saw a beautiful banquet table. Sitting all around were her parents and all the other people she had loved and who had died before her. They saw her and began calling greetings to her "Hello - How are you! We've been waiting for you! Good to see you." When Saint Peter came by, the woman said to him, "This is such a wonderful place! How do I get in?" "You have to spell a word," Saint Peter told her. "Which word?" the woman asked. "Love." The woman correctly spelled "Love" and Saint Peter welcomed her into Heaven. About a year later, Saint Peter came to the woman and asked her to watch the Gates of Heaven for him that day. While the woman was guarding the Gates of Heaven, her husband arrived. "I'm surprised to see you," the woman said. "How have you been?" "Oh, I've been doing pretty well since you died," her husband told her

Help Her Out U Guys
she always participates in contests and helps others out yet i dont see many come to help her out in those contests..she is a great person now lets show our cherrytap love and help her out in this contest thanks alot..love my cherries xoxo

Small Real Entry
You ever just get so bottled up in the city that you just HAVE to take a vaction or you'll explode? That's how I've been feeling lately. So I took a mini vacation to someone in the middle of nowhere with some friends. If nothing else it'll help me get the poetic muse back because I've had seriousl writer's block lately. Alright that's enough yapping on my part. Ta

Todays Quote Is: Arguments
"He who strikes the first blow admits he's lost the argument." Baquera says: Feeding the fuel to an argument is not my thing, it is a waste of time and energy. My first blow will never be with my hands but with my mind, but don't play me sweet! People are always trying someone, but for what purpose I could not tell you. Life is to short for aruguments and I don't intend to waste mine on mineless people. Living, Loving and Laughing is all I have time for!

Childhood Revisited
We have such fond memories of our childhood When we chat it all seemed so good Playing kiss chase around the yard At valentines crafting a card We used to have such fun I know But would it be fun now we’re grown? You’d yank on my pigtails and pull funny faces We’d dart and dash and run silly races That note you left me touched my heart Asking if I would meet you in the park It was so sweet when we were small But would it be sweet now we are tall? When I didn’t arrive it broke your heart As a young boy you were torn apart If I’d have known I would have come And maybe loves young dream begun We can’t go back and change that moment But can we revisit it as adults? You tell me the heart of that boy, eleven Still lives inside now you’re 27 You’ve never got over me, your very first crush Hearing you say it was such a rush The feelings you felt were strong and true But did I feel the same about you? I rem

.shut.in.itis.
i was gonna cross post...but then decided against it. cuz im too tired. and cuz well cuz i dun wanna. so there. i needa nap. but moving to the couch requires too much energy. plus im mumming. cuz stupid people amuse me. *yawn* this is completely pointless cuz i dun wanna delve into the circling thoughts in my brain. sometimes...being a semi-shut-in is a bad thing. specially when it comes to adult interaction and conversation. there just...isnt any. not that i dun have moms...cuz i do...but even then...theres just some things ya cant share with your mom. or maybe thats just me. today is just one of those silent kind of days cuz theres this dam...and if it opens well things could break. or something else that makes sense. i could do with some conversation. something. anything. other than the regular monotony of mom-dom. and that is all.

Andolicious
rant rant rav rav.....I like my Andy babe...hes the shit don't ca' know....now stop drop and roll cause I'm on fire down in my soul yeah that's why this is called randomness....anyways I just wanted to say that this man Andy man...Captian Butthead of the world rules...and he is the only kind of his bread, so everyone else is screwed I got the last model on sale at Big Lots bitches!! =0)

Troubled Times
have you ever woken up out of a dream...to find yourself to be very disappointed that you had to wake up to your reality? do you ever get the feeling that there's something else out there for you to do...but it seems impossible to find...you search and search only to become disappointed.

Sexual Fantasy
She leans up against the wall and watches him walk towards her. He doesnt say anything. He just looks into her eyes. She is a little nervous because this is their first time and she barely knows him. Yet she trusts him and she has been waiting for him for so long. He is now standing inches away. She can feel his warm breath against her face. He doesnt touch her yet. He just stares at her with his smoldering eyes. Finally she cant take his eyes on her any longer and she turns her head to the side and closes her eyes in embarrassment. She feels his fingertips lightly move across her collarbone. When he gets to her neck he whispers, "I have wanted to bite you right here for so long." She shivers at the words and a small moan comes out. He grabs her chin and forces her to look at him. His fingers trail up to her lips. Her tongue involuntarily peeks out and catches his eyes. He leans down and his lips lightly touch hers. His kiss is soft and sweet. Not too fast. Perfect. He lifts his mouth

Goofy Drunk Contest...
OK guys...with as many friends and fans as i have on here this shouldn't be that hard...there are only 2 other pics in this category...you already know i have and will help you guys out when needed so lets see some love!!

~~be Careful...this Could Happen To You~~
The Wooden Bowl I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now. A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. "We must do something about father," said the son. "I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor." So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl! When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, somet

Okay, So It's Not Politically Correct...
okay, so it's not politically correct... Appliance department of a Sears store in Chicago . He was at the Sears store to protest the fact that all the washing machines were white. So the clerk called the store manager, who asked, "What's the problem here, Reverend?" Jesse pointed at the machines and loudly bemoaned the fact that all of them were white. The manager replied, "Well, Reverend, it's true that all the washing machines are white, but if you'll open the lids, you'll see that all the agitators are black."

Angel Or Vixen??
Are you an angel or vixen? Whats on your mind? what are you fixing? You walk by and guys say have mercy. The things you say and do can be transversy. You say you're angel, but show as a vixen. so come on tell me what you are mixing. Are you trying to be an angel? A tongue can be in a mangle. Are you trying to be a vixen? Are you going to tell or just be vexing.

Open Wound
At times it is still so difficult. I feel at one moment that I am healed of love and other times all I can do is think of you. Every time I see you my heart beats faster, my palms sweat, and my hands shake a little. All I can think about is the great times that we had together and the times I wish we could of shared more of. I already know I am a fool and was a hypocrite when it came to you. Realizing that even though we had so much in common and loved each other that maybe it never was meant to be and is better for us to be apart. It still doesn't make it any easier knowing that what I wanted wasn't what you needed or wanted either. Sometimes having what you need is not as good as having what you want. I try to use anger as a replacement for the feelings I still have, but in the end it always fails. The heart is a big thing, and you will always have a place in it.

Live Photo Session May 1st Free For All - Details In Here!
Many of you tuned in to watch the last live photo shoot with Angel Eyes last tuesday and now we are going to do another shoot on this coming tuesday with her and Sunshyne!!! You can see pics of both of these ladies by going to photo section here on the tap and and checking the folders labeled Sunshyne and the other is Angel Eyes.Watch what happens when you had lots of bubbles and these 2 ladies to huge garden tub!You may not want to miss it! To watch the show simply add sunshynevideolive to yahoo messenger and on tuesday check out the live cam!You will get a chance to also hear these ladies live on Sweet Azz Crunk Radio.Please hit me up if you have any questions!

Dont Care
Written by a housewife from New Jersey and sounds like it! This Is one ticked off lady. "Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?...Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11 . I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi

Tired
I am sooo tired of "friends" claiming that they want to help me move and then not even calling to say they can't... I have been moving stuff I'm not supposed to (lifting WAY over my 25 lb limit, bending and stooping, and lifting and moving stuff way over my head) for 3 days... All because it's the only way things MIGHT get done... The only people that have been helping me these past 3 days are my wife and her fiancé... Finally one other person stopped and helped today... but only when I offered cash... And a friend helped last weekend but won't even return calls about stuff of his at my house this week (yes the one I wrote about before in the other entry...)... probably cause he doesn't want to help or he's upset cause he told me he "loves me" and I told him I care for him as a friend... but not "love" love... What was I supposed to do? Lie? I'm honest to a fault when it comes to stuff like that... I want him as a friend... I care about him dearly... But "love" lov

Friday Night
well first blog on this place. last friday night i had a great time at Hathors Garden. i spent the evening with a great young lady who is wicked cool. Rock Angel on this site. it was fun. im hopeing that Kayleigh and i get the chance to hang out agen. at club or otherwise. I think she is realy cool and stuff. but then agen theres that little part of me who thinks she wont want to hang out agen. it allways seems to happen. i dont want to end up fucking things up with this girl. hopefully we can be good friends and injoy time with each other. who knows what could happen after that but hay. well all i ask is that if theres a problome let me know. so later everyone. hopefully everyone has a good day :) peace monty

Pisces
Pisces - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring. Sweetness - you're the most romantic person your partner has ever met. You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with. Your negative traits: You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood. It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should. You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest. Your ideal partner: Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreams Is a total romantic, with an artistic or creative side Loves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways Your dating style: Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners. Your seduction style: Fearless - you try what your partner suggests, no matter how unusual. Loving. You'll take your pleasure second

My Final Words
I hear your cries As I spread my wings To the night skies The sorrow angel sings A song of our bittersweet love Only to be torn apart By the forces of above I give you now, and forever, my heart Even now as I lie in your arms My soul is rising to the gates Lost to all the earth’s harms The life we shared destroyed by fates Do not fear for me my love For I go to a better place Higher than the day’s sky blue Finally to see the creator’s face Alas, my breath is slowing fast Your eyes brimming with salty tears Along the path is our joyous past You hold on tighter, giving into fears The beating of my heart is ending The life in me is draining away I can see my judgment pending As your grip upon me begins to sway With these words, I bid my farewell The loves of the heaven’s reach Is whispering that this is my place to dwell Until you my one, will make the breach Between the border of life and death The sweet song of the birds Fail to cover with my last breat

Pain(fave Kittie Song)
Kittie - Pain Lyrics I feel your pain Almost lost it all You are all the same The wounded bleed to death Tarnish my name You deserve nothing at all... You knew that life was a game... You deserve nothing at all... You must endure your own PAIN! Life in the dark without a light Hollow empty Let’s get it right You deserve nothing at all... You knew that life was a game... You deserve nothing at all... Red dress serpent... Just stop it.. Just stop it... Red dress serpent and you’ll stay here! You deserve nothing at all... You knew that life was a game... You deserve nothing at all... YOU MUST ENDURE YOUR OWN PAIN!

Entrapment
Entrapment by Christopher Hopelessly bound unfettered by the chains of love's grip - greatest gift, fate's cruelest curse. Wherefore do I weep at knowing the joy, the warmth, at feeling the peace, the fire. Wherefore do I weep unable to complete , to be, unknown the kiss, the flames. Wherefore do I weep at loving not living seeing not touching breathing not sharing holding not loving? All, because I, The Fool, am no more?

Blog Restructuring; If You Read My Blogs, Please Read This
I have decided to restructure my blog. All my stuff is currently under the single blog heading of Night in the Abyss. I am going to break this up into a number of blogs, one for each Seperate piece of fiction, one for my erotica, and one for just personal stuff. So that you can avoid going back and rereading to see if you missed anything, this restructuring will take place Tuesday (I hope to finish it all in one day), so any "New Blog Entries" you see from me this Tuesday will not be new at all, but will just be me re-organizing these things. I am not doing this for ratings, but because some people have come in on some of the fiction and felt a little lost,so I am trying to put everything together so that they will be able to immediately see the number of previous chapters, and not have to hunt and peck through a bunch of other stuff. I hope this helps everyone out, because my ego has really enjoyed all the compliments, and I do hope to keep things going. Thanks.

*grr*
Do you know what really pushes my buttons? Liars. Whether you're lying straight to my face or leaving out important details and lying to me by omission - I hate it. I hate it when I find things out on my own that I should have been told up front. I don't like to use the word hate - it's such a strong, vile word - but here, right now, I can't think of a better word to use. *grumbles* Feck you, Mr. liar-pants!! I know, I know. Such harsh language from such an innocent mouth. *giggles*

Why The English Language Is So Hard To Learn
1. The bandage was wound around the wound. 2. The farm was used to produce produce. 3. The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse. 4. We must polish the Polish furniture. 5. He could lead if he would get the lead out. 6. The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert. 7. Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present. 8. A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum. 9. When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes. 10. I did not object to the object. 11. The insurance was invalid for the invalid. 12. There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row. 13. They were too close to the door to close it. 14. The buck does funny things when the does are present. 15. A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line. 16. To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow. 17. The wind was too strong to wind the sail. 18. After a number of injections my jaw got number. 19. Upon seeing the tear in the paint

No Right, No Wrong
the moment comes to breathe and it's as if she's forgotten. earth seems to sit still, no breeze, and life is halting. movement comes slow, rigor mortis in its motion. how tight can she hold to it? it slides through her grip like so many others, like luck chose this moment to kick her in the ass. break away from the gaze, burn down to the wick, run so fast, so fucking far away, let it never happen. and for what? to be human? to love someone and never reveal it? never had so much beauty been so scarred by time.

Have A Great Sunday
Hey there sweeties hope everyone had a great weekend. I got some great updates for my southern-charms site this week. monday- I am wearing a sexy peach nighty then a bubble bath to nothing at all. thursday- me in my evening dress/satin gloves lots of great pantyhose and bareleg stuff for you. Have a wonderful day... Lorie http://www.southern-charms4.com/lorie (for adults only) Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

Spiritual Rules On Breaking Up
HERES THE 5 STEP ON HOW TO BREAK W UR BF OR GF W/O HURTING THIER FEELINGS... 1.Don't forget that ending is not a nice thing. Own up to the shadow aspects of this important job. Be prepared to be the "bad guy" and discover that there can be joy in that role. 2. Before you have the ending conversation, get it clear in your mind. You want and need to end this now. Set aside complexity for a while and go for simple. 3. You don't have to give reasons. You know that the reason is that you don't love this person now. Don't be led into the tangle and trap of looking for valid reasons. Love is not a reasonable thing. 4. Be gentle, but also be firm and clear. You can be one part firm to two parts gentle, but no more gentle than that. 5. You have already ended it in your mind, so after the conversation let it be. No regurgitation. No tying up loose ends. Do the main job of ending and let all the details take care of themselves. End of discussion. 6. In spite of rule #5, kn

Nude Photos!
I posted my nude photos here because people were asking me to post them cause they wanted to see them. So i decided to post the limit of what I am currently at...which was 100..now 110...I wanted to make people happy..well I posted them and someone now thinks of me as White Trash...LOL..it does not matter to me what that person actually thinks.. The photos I have posted are only a portion of what I have..in reality I have about 350 + photos... I started a Business called sexual enterprises a while back in which I was selling all my photos on a CD, which made it convenient for people to see my pics cause now all they had to do was upload the CD and they were now on there PC..it also came with my panties... So I been thinking about starting this back up once again...IF there is any interest from anyone here let me know.. I know you can see photos (nudes) 4 free, but how many of them are real?? A real person! :) Anyways let me know!

30 Apr 07 - Monday
30 Apr 07 - Monday 1933 Willie Nelson Abbott TX, country singer (On the Road Again) 1952 Tom Pesek PC programmer (creator of HAL 9000 program) 1961 Isiah Thomas 1963 Michal Waltrip 1968 Paulo Jr Brazilian pop bassist (Sepultura, Morbid Visions) 1982 Kirsten Dunst actress (Interview with the Vampire) 0311 Emperor Galerius recognizes Christians legally in the Roman Empire 1006 Brightest supernova in recorded history is observed 1763 London Journalist John Wilkes confined in the Tower 1789 George Washington inaugurated as 1st President of US 1798 Department of the Navy is established 1803 US doubles in size through the Louisiana Purchase ($15 million) 1804 Hague's Theater opens 1812 (Eastern) Louisiana admitted as 18th US state 1828 Shaka the great Zulu king, killed 1864 New York becomes 1st state to charge a hunting license fee 1885 Boston Pops Orchestra forms 1898 Championship wrestling match at the Metropolitan turns into a brawl 1904 Ice cream cone makes its de

I Am Sick Of..
I am sooo sick of making new friends that I love talking to then they all of a sudden delete there account... I know they really have no obligation to me... it just makes me sad... then I have friends I make that I get excited to then they up and stop talking to me... I am feeling rarther unloved :(... i know this sounds whiny... and it only applies to a few people.... I am just being rarther sensitive I gather :(... and because i am soooo lonely to begin with... I dont know...

Contest
Alright everyone, I'm level 4 now. It took long enough, but I am. And that means that I can have a crush now. So, here is a contest: tell me why you should be my crush. Simple. Just come up with a really good reason and the person with the best reason wins it for at least a month. I dont know, just thought it would be fun. Dont worry, your answers will be confidential. We'll just see who's paying attention and who cares, lol.

Women
ive pretty much given up on trying to figure out women.they tell you one ting and mean another and are really hard to make happy.And y is it that most great women always stay with losers who treat them like shit instead of giving the good guys a chanch huh. well who knows maybe one day this will change but damn im sick of it.

Hopefully Your My Lifetime ;)
People come into your life for a REASON, a SEASON or a LIFETIME. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They brin

Life Is Boring!!
My life is boring. I just moved out of my parent's house a couple of months ago. I thought life would get more interesting but it hasn't it seems to be more dule. I don't go clubbing anymore and all I seem to do is work. I go to work everyday and come home. My days off are spent with my family or at home alone I really don't like it but that is all I seem to have time for. I wish there were more hours in a day. I wish I didn't have to work so much and yet the ironic thing is I'm thinking about getting another job.... I don't even understand myself. Irony sucks, it's a real bite in the ass. I don't want to work so much but yet I want more money. I want more time and more money not a good combination.... Ok I have to go because I have to go home and sleep for work in the morning... Ironic ain't it!!!

Burning Calories The Fun Way
CALORIES BURNED DURING SEX: CALORIES BURNED DURING SEX! REMOVING HER CLOTHES: With her consent....12 Calories Without her consent....2,187 Calories OPENING HER BRA: With both hands....8 Calories With one hand....12 Calories With your teeth....485 Calories PUTTING ON A CONDOM: With an erection....6 Calories Without an erection....3,315 Calories POSITIONS: Missionary....12 Calories 69 lying down....78 Calories 69 standing up....812 Calories Wheelbarrow....216 Calories Doggy Style....326 Calories Italian chandelier....2,912 Calories ORGASMS: Real....112 Calories Fake....1,315 Calories POST ORGASM: Lying in bed hugging....18 Calories Getting up immediately....36 Calories Explaining why you got out of bed immediately.... 816 Calories GETTING A SECOND ERECTION: If you are: 20-29 years....36 Calories

Soliders
Soldiers come in all shapes, shades, weights, sizes, and states of sobriety, misery, and confusion. He is sly as a fox, has the nerve of a dope addict, the stories of an old sailor, the sincerity of a politician, and the subtly of Mt. Saint Helen. He is extremely irresistible, totally irrational and completely indestructible. A Soldier is a Soldier all his life. He is a magical creature. You can kick him out of your house but not out of your heart. You can take him off your mailing list but not off your mind. soldiers are found everywhere... in love...in battle... in lust... in trouble...in debt...in bars and ... behind them. No one can write so seldom and yet think so much of you. No one else can get so much enjoyment out of a letter or clean clothes or a six pack. A Soldier is a genius with a deck of cards. A millionaire without a cent and brave without a grain of sense. He is the PROTECTOR OF AMERICA, with the latest copy of playboy in his back pocket. When he wants somethin

The Tax Audit
At the end of the tax year the IRS office sent an inspector to audit the books of a Synagogue. While he was checking the books he turned to the Rabbi and said, "I notice you buy a lot of candles. What do you do with the candle drippings?" "Good question," noted the Rabbi. "We save them up and send them back to the candle makers, and every now and then they send us a free box of candles." "Oh," replied the auditor, somewhat disappointed that his unusual question had a practical answer. But on he went, in his obnoxious way: "What about all these bread wafer purchases? What do you do with the crumbs?" "Ah, yes," replied the Rabbi, realizing that the inspector was trying to trap him with an unanswerable question. "We collect them and send them back to the manufacturer, and every now and then they send us a free box of bread-wafers." "I see," replied the auditor, thinking hard about how he could fluster the know-it-all Rabbi. "Well, Rabbi," he went on, "what do you do w

What The Hell..
I was listenin to the news the other day not really paying much attention..when the reporter said something that caught my attention...A child molester had gotten caught..Apparently this guy thought that being he couldn't find a girl (or guy don't know his preference) he would go after someone who couldn't defend their self. A child. I'm working on getting my Bachelor's in Criminal Justice and I had a classmate pose a question once asking, "If it were up to us, what sentence would we give to rapists and child molesters?" Now if it were up to me, I would find a way to make the guy feel the same thing that he made his victim feel. And would give him the death penalty. Screw lethal injection..They don't feel that....He would get THE CHAIR!!!

They Wont Let Snopp Dog In
Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com AND THE AUSTRALIAN GOVERMENT WONT LET SNOOP DOG INTO OUR COUNTRY BECAUSE THEY THINK HE'S A BAD INFLUENCE ON OUR YOUNGER KIDS. WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT. WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Caught
I catch myself looking at your pictures, when I need to smile. I catch myself reading our conversations, when I need to feel loved. I catch myself thinking of that smile of yours, when I need to feel happy. I catch myself just thinking of you when I want to feel closer to you. That’s when I realize, You’ve already caught me. That’s when I think, “I am yours, and you are mine!”

To My Sister
Largest Database of ImagesFor Comments And Profiles at FreeCommentTags.com I want to dream with you and tell you all that I wish for. You are my sister, my friend and my diary. You have been there with me though all these years, knowing when to dry my tears, hugs and laughter that is what we haved shared. Moments of hate and jealousy that we now understand. Never knowing which way to turn or where we would end up, yet we always seem to be together. The ones that tried our love only to make it stronger. I have fought for you . Lied for you, I would never turn away from you. I do not see our parents when I look in the mirror, I see you standing beside me. With you I know that I am never alone for you are with me till the end of time. I know that I don't say thank you enough, or that I miss you at times, or even that I love the memories we share and can't wait for the ones to come. We have shared stories, and experienced life not ever alone, I have cried you tears, felt your pa

Firefighter's Tears
The alarm rang, as it had so many times before. He was the first of the fireman up and out, awakened from his bed at the station by the clanging of the bell. Engine 3 pulled out of the bay, dispatch paged another station. And all the firemen aboard the truck were tensed with anticipation "It's gonna be a nice 'un, boys," He said as he donned his gear. And the young bucks smiled at him as they drew ever near. They turned onto his own street and he could see the fire's work He hoped their mother woke his kids to see their dad at work. His heart sank as he saw the home that he so dearly loved going up in smoke and flames as he donned his gloves. Agressively he hit the fire and searched the rooms above. And with a flare of personal vengeance he saved what remained of his home. As he left the world of flaming hell he saw his little girl He ran quickly to her side and said "Honey, Daddy's here." He would never forget what next she said As he held her close, "I love you, Dad

My Life Experience
You've Experienced 64% of Life You have all of the life experience that most adults will ever get. And unless you're already in your 40s, you're probably wise beyond your years. How Much Life Experience Do You Have?

~25 Questions~
1. What is the last thing you watched on tv? Aqua Teen Hunger Force 2. The Last song you listened to? Good Direction~Billy Currington 3. Cuddle or snooze? Cuddle for sure! 4.The last person you talked to on the phone? Patt

Fake Fux
u guys give me the shits ur my friend til i can't help u anymore i know i sound like a broken record (for u youngins that's what they now call vinal(spelled wrong) )but it's the same shit over and over and over. there are so few of u who aren't just here to be told how hot u r or wanna be a cherry pimp or whatever the fuck. u know maybe it's me maybe i misunderstand how this is supposed to work.i came back lookin for the few friemds i thought i had and i'll be dipped in shit if i ain't caught up in the same bullshit right out of the blox. I would give a friend the shirt off my mother fuckin back but i ain't loosin no shirts here fuck me. and what's funnier this prolly won't even get read.

My Stripper Song
Your Stripper Song Is Closer by Nine Inch Nails "You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no Soul to tell" When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy. What Song Should You Strip To?

Dont Waste My Time
if we make plans to hang out or do anything and you have to cancel fucking tell me dont waste my godamnd day why because when i make plans i dont let other things come up or make other plans to do shit and i dont appreciate waiting for plans to occur whem you know godamned well your not gonna fucking show

The Wondering Continues
So since my last blog post, I have still no real results to what I am praying for and so with that I have decided (against hubby's better judgement of course, but then again he knows me too well as it seems) to call the doctor in the morning to see if he'll get me in sometime in the afternoon. All I want to know is IF I am in fact pregnant and if I am not what the real deal is here. I would love to be able to call my parents up this week and say happy early birthday (dad) and happy early mother's day mom your going to be grandparents for the fourth (my first child though) time. They became grandparents when my brother got married in 2000, then again when my brother and his wife had their first child together (she had two from a previous marriage) and so this will be the icing on the cake to be able to give my parents yet another grandchild. So that is what has been going on. To all of my CT friends and Family (also fans) I love you all and appreciate your love and support.

Brothers
Brothers are there to stick by one another and I have one that has done that he has been there beside me through thick and thin. My brother is the one who has helped me through a lot of stuff when we were growing up. The times that I was having trouble in school he helped me when I asked. We even go to games together and bs about old times like we did when we were growing up. I look up to my brother and this is something that i never thought I would do is look up to someone as much as I have looked up to him throughout the years. He is an angel in my eyes as far as I can see it and for that I thank him I love u bro and stay the way u always have been.

R.i.pmom
Get More at COMMENTYOU.com I WANT TO THANK ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE HELP ME IN THE LAST COUPLE WITH WEEKS . MY MOM PASTED AWAY TWO YEARS AGO ON 4-30-05, THE PAIN NEVER NEVER WENT AWAY. I DONT I WILL BE ON TOMOROW I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU MY MOM WAS MY HERO ,BUT I NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO TELL HER , OR TELL HER HOW MUCH I LOVED HER , WHY CAUSE WE WASNT SPEAKIN . MOM I LOVE YOU YOUR MY HERO WELL MEET AGAIN DAY , I CANT SAY GOOD BYE I WILL SAY SO LONG FOR NOW Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Spiderman
Ok well I guess my other attempt didn't work. I'm posting up all my latest work for music videos here. Some may find one or two offensive, so don't go reporting I have already marked the blog NSFW so if you don't like it then don't watch it. For the rest of ya, enjoy! Online Videos by Veoh.com Online Videos by Veoh.com Online Videos by Veoh.com Online Videos by Veoh.com Online Videos by Veoh.com

Faceless
josephine is coming home... loving longing moments took her there. fresh sunlight beats down on her face, top down, wind swirling, she can feel that moment of purpose. she's squealing the tires, punch it just a little harder, it's such a smooth ride. the scenery around her is so serene, the dust billowing up around the car, the clouds pointing in arrows to guide her. her head is filled with memory where she's going, where she's been. josie, won't you tell me that story again? i'll live vicariously... through your heart, through your eyes, the golden blaze of sunrise in his arms, and you can sip your coffee and i can sit on the edge of this chair, pretend i'm there with you, pretend he's never gone. josie's shoulders are heaving, the sobs come like torture, wracking her body with such great intake, such gravel, such grime. josie, just tell me the story once more. let it hurt, let it burn, let it smear on your face like mascara. i'll hold you here and sw

Things Moving Slow Or Just Not Moving
I am tired, it is almost 1:30 am and i have to work today, oh well fuck it i have delt with no sleep, before, just tired of this lonely life, I would say there is a good woman out there for me somewhere, but I don't want a good woman, no I want the kind that my mother always warned me about, just can't meet one, I mean how hard should it be, I am young handsome, and well thats something I aint talking about, but it seems like nothing I do changes, and for all of you who think I am just bitching, well if it had been three years since you had been laid you would bitch to. This is all I want, and all I have wanted for a while, I want a woman who is older, even just a year or two older, intellegent, sexy, and above all else be able to match my creativity, both in life and the bed room. Anyways, I think I am going to try and sleep, I will probably end up putting something else on here later, for now I better stop rambling and go to bed.

I Can Cry
Can you not see me? My eyes are filled with tears Can you not hear me? Iv been crying all these years I guess I've hidden it inside Pushed it as deep as it can go I guess I'm a pretty good actress And never let it show I'm afraid they see me weak For just a single moment of the day I'm afraid they see the little girl Not the bitch that's tough in every single way Only a select few have ever seen at my worst Very few people have ever seen me cry I apologize to those They are not your problems, but mine But as strong as I look I have so many fears And as tough as I seem I've shed too many tears.

‘al Qaeda': A Figment Of The Fear- And War-mongering Propagandists' Imagination
Damian Lataan | April 25, 2007 Yesterday the Australian Prime Minister John Howard and his band of fearmongering lunatics warned Australians gathering at Gallipoli for ANZAC Day to be aware of a ‘ terrorist threat' . In the UK Guardian today it is reported that the ‘head of Scotland Yard's counterterrorism command said yesterday that al-Qaida had survived the six-year long "war on terror" launched by President George Bush and Tony Blair, and its central leadership had retained the ability to order devastating attacks on Britain.' As well as Gallipoli that is. And in Iraq, where it seems the Iraqi franchise of ‘al Qaeda' has claimed responsibility for the deaths yesterday of nine US troops. So good is the ‘al Qaeda' franchise business that even the Israelis have tried to set up an ‘al Qaeda' shop in Palestine . Unfortunately the locals soon discovered that the business wasn't genuine (apparently Mossad hadn't paid bin Laden the franchise fee) so the business was quickly shut down

New Wine For Seniors
Aussie vintners, in the Barossa area, which primarily produces Pinot Blanc, Pinot Noir and Pinot Grigio wines, have developed a new hybrid grape that acts as an anti-diuretic. It is expected to reduce the number of trips older people have to make to the bathroom during the night. The new wine will be marketed as... PINO MORE I HEARD IT THROUGH THE GRAPEVINE

Hmmmmm Wow I Really Dont Know Wat To Say Here
well here we go again.another day in tha life of me. yeah i think thats tha way this shit here should start out..well my week was iight i guess.nuttin to great ya know.goin to nc soon in like a week i think.spend time wit tha family that i havent seen in seems like forever.was goin to see someone else but yea i dont know bout that shit now.but just wanted to let u guys know wats up wit me.... and ps they will know who this is to i never really thought that it would hurt like this.

Lost
Title: Lost Lost among a crowd nowhere to go, can't be found. Why does life feel this way, why do we have to frown. I long for the better days, a time when I felt I had a place, a purpose for life, a reason for being. Lost among a crowd help me find myself because I don't know how.

Her Beauty
Title: Her Beauty With beauty so radiant, that it can not be compared to that of a setting sun. I see her. Beauty so spectacular, it will not be compared to that of the most exotic water falls. I see her. Beauty so unbelievable, it can never be compared to that of a full moon on the most amazing of nights. I see her. Her beauty will never fade, it will never go away. Because in my eyes she is and will always remain the most beautiful girl to me.

Cries Out
Title: Cries Out As tears fell like rain drops, his soul cries out. Like a spartan long since time forgot, he can show no emotion, no feelings, no fear, no joy, no heart break. He must learn to deal, not dwell on things that should remain in the past. His soul cries out begging for mercy, begging for forgiveness that is long time over due. He dwells in the past, things that have been forgiven but far from forgotten. He knows what has happen has made him the person he is today, yet still his soul cries. As he sleeps he can hear his own soul cry out, from this forgotten memories begin to surface. He feels as if he was drowning, falling deeper into the mist that is his mind. His soul cries out for resurrection, hopes of a better tomorrow. His soul cries out to resurface, to regain control. But he knows not when this resurrection will take place or when he'll resurface. All he does know is as tears fall like rains drops, his soul CRIES out. VCP 4/30/07

Husband And Wife In Bed
HUSBAND AND WIFE IN BED . She feels his hand rubbing her shoulder. . She says "Oh, that feels good." . His hand moves to her breast. . She says "Gee, honey, that feels wonderful." . His hand moves to her leg. * . She says "Oh, honey, don't stop." .... But he stops. . She says "Why did you stop?" . He says "I found the remote"

A Reflection In Time
A reflection in time Day After dayEndless,is the search learning a little more about who we are.That,which dwells within.Pondering,at what we try to keep cypress.Look!!!hard in the mirror.At that,which you cast out.This dismayed by lore.knowing,that what's enbedded in ones heart.Who is it,you see?Or,what may it be?Look deep within,your secret place.Tell me ,what you hold in sight?To that what makes you shine?Or,did you lose it?In a thought,or on your path?The one,you took this time.Don't forget,who you are.And where it is your roots lie.Cause the ones who truly love youWill be at your side.Wrong or right!its all grey to you ,now theystand before you,in waiting for youto see the light.Love is true.allways giving.And will allways stand by you.To,let you choose.But in the view,that’s been casted.We see there is a part of you,that’s Lost.In those moments,of so called Lovewhat is it's cost?Cause there is one!To lose a little part of who you are or could be.Look at the canvass!Painting you

Gone Out Of Town
I just wanted to remind everyone that today I will NOT be around as I am going out of town. I am going to the Toronto airport to pick my mom up. This is the first time I have seen her since September of 2004. I will not be around much tomorrow if any. I have lots of things to get done around my place help my mom get her stuff in order. I will get my comments done as soon as possible. I hope everyone has a great day and I will be back as soon as I can. I don't think I have ever gone a hole day with out being on ct all the time to check my messages and talk to my friends. Don't miss me to much everyone. Well I am off have to drop Tristen off at preschool then a quick run home to pick up my stuff then I am out of here. Have a great day take care all. Happy tapping Stay at home mom

More Than Passion
Silently she awakes and gazes upon him there. She sees him sleeping peacefully and longs to hold him near. She reaches out her trembling hand to gently touch his face. Remembering short hours ago, sharing love's embrace. He stirs just then and spies her tender. loving stare. Then places his hand over hers, stunned at the extent of her care. Their eyes never leave each other as she caresses his soft skin. She smiles at him slightly as she moves closer to him. He takes her in his arms placing a kiss upon her cheek. She turns her head slowly, his lips for her to seek. A subtle moan escapes her as his hand explores anew. Passions kiss intensifies as their rhythmic dance ensues. He proclaims his love for her as he kisses her wanting neck. She moves her hands over him finally to rest upon his chest. Feeling her velvet secret engulf him again and again, And feels her building climax escaping from her then. She arches back, catches his eyes adoring their allure. As they reach

Interrupted Dreams
It's 604, was that someone at my door I was asleep but now I'm a awake My dreams interrupted by thoughts I can't shake Were you here tonight, or did just imagine Were you with me in flesh, please tell me I can't stand it You were so close, but now you seem so far I often lay wondering where you are Are you dreaming under the same moon as me Are you laying awake wondering where could I be I've told you before I'm not hard to find Look deep in your heart and there you'll see mine Two hearts brought together, across so many miles Two hearts that beat waiting for each other's smile We tried before, we knew it would work We made a mistake and realized who we hurt The pain that we feel is the distance between us The distance we fear is so easy to cross The time will come when we must meet Our fears and our passions will force us to seek We will cross the miles knowing just what we will find We will look for the smiles and know from the shine That what

Lyrics To The Song Loser By Three Doors Down *i Found My Theme Song* Heh
Nothing seems to fill this place I need this every time, Take your lies get off my case Someday I will find a love That flows through me like this This will fall away, this will fall away You’re getting closer to pushing me Off of life’s little edge Cause I’m a loser And sooner or later You know I’ll be dead You’re getting closer, You’re holding the rope, I'm taking the fall Cause I’m a loser, I’m a loser, yeah This is getting old, I can’t break these chains that I hold My body’s growing cold, There’s nothin left of this mind Or my soul Addiction needs a pacifier, The buzz of this poison is taking me higher This will fall away, This will fall away You’re getting closer, to pushing me Off of life’s little edge Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later You know I’ll be dead You’re getting closer, You’re holding the rope and I’m taking the fall Cause I’m a loser You’re getting closer, to pushing

Salutes ( To Do Or Not Todo)
Recently I've been seeing alot of typing about people that don't have SALUTES. They are talking about it in BULLETINS, MUMMS,and EVERYWHERE. I think they are like me just hate the idea of making a fool of themselves by doing them. YES, I know they have to be done. I always thought if you didn't do one by the time you hit level 8 you couldn't move up, but I've seen that alot of the other higher levels that don't have a salute pic but that's their choice and who am I to judge them and I'M NOT. I just don't understand what's the BIG DEAL. But removing them from your friends list just because they don't have a salute (in my eyes) is just stupid. No I'm not calling them stupid just the action.

Read This Shit. Then Delete Me If You Feel The Need.
I'm about to lay forth a small piece of my mind that you may find offensive personally or politically. I'm not saying it in a racist/hate crime/purist way, because I'm none of those things. A large portion of my friends and family are of very different races, religions, lifestyles and belief systems than I hold. This isn't a vent session aimed at any of your families or close friends, or any of mine. If you're seriously and personally offended by this, I appologise, but I do NOT take it back, and if you can't deal with that, delete me fucking immediately. So here in Fucked up Florida, the majority of the population is either cuban or haitian. And I'd say roughly 80% of them don't speak English (by choice), are here illegally, and are assholes to boot. Before you start tossing out your holier than thou bullshit like, "Wait a minute now, we ALL originated outside the U.S at some point, they're just here to make a better life for themselves blah blah blah whine moan bitch", take a min

Stressful
Shits been hectic lately. My sisters due with mackenzie in 4 days, so weve been getting the house ready for that. PLus working all the time. Plus Ive been really stressed. So here's a recap of the last few days. I may have a job at a strip club as a bartender. Not sure yet, but Im pretty sure I got the job. Thursday I went and finally got my Florida Dl. I was putting it off for as long as I could. and I did. so I went and did that (which took, like, 3 hours. then I went to my college and got set up and summer classes and talked to financial aid. Then I took ANOTHER bus to work. got there 25 minutes early, so I went and checked my myspace and cherrytap. Then went on the floor and got lectured for talking to fast. WTF do you expect? not only am I from NJ, but Im italian and spanish. get the fuck over it. So I came home and just hung out. Friday I went over to my moms house and deanna took me to work. it was just really hot and I didnt wanna ride my bike. So I get to work around noon and

More To Life Than Ct
I know sometimes it seems like there is nothing else in the world besides CT, but you know there really is. WHile I still leave it open and check from time to time, I have not really paid too much attention. I really only look for some close friends to say hi. It's been forever since I went out adding people, or just rating pics, or checking out new members. There was a reason I "lived" on CT for awhile, but that reason isn't a reason anymore. CT means different things to different people. I think I let it become too real to me. A lot of people here will say and do a lot of things to get your attention. And that is all they want, attention. The things they say aren't real, they don't feel things they say. It doesn't matter that you really believe them, or believe in your own feelings. Last weekend, most of my friends that I talk to were not on, and I sat and asked myself what the hell I was doing sitting here staring at the screen. Then I tried to figure out what to do

Candlelit Seduction
As you arrive home you see a solid white candle sitting on the doorstep, its been lit and its glow emphasises the envelope propped against it. Its bright red and they've both been there a while, a few drops of white wax almost cover the name "Ben" written on the front. You smile as you recognise the handwriting as mine, instantly wondering what it is I'm up to. As you open the envelope you catch a whiff of my perfume. Bringing the envelope to your nose you smell it stronger and realise I've sprayed my perfume on it. Inside is a bright red piece of paper that simply reads "I hope you've got lots of energy, you'll need it." You open the front door and step inside. Theres complete darkness except for more candles, marking a path through the living room. Near the door to the hallway is another red card, sitting atop a red giftbox. "Put them on" the card says. The 'them' it refers to is the black silk boxers in the box. You pause and quickly take off your clothes, careful to avoid the

Nice Ladies
THERE ARE QUITE A FEW OF NICE WOMEN ON THIS SITE VERY CONVERSATIONAL . THE ONLY THING I WISH IS THERE WAS A WAY TO POST ABOUT A MEET N GREET LOL . iF THERE IS ENOUGH INTREST I CAN RENT MY APARTMENTS CLUBHOUSE ITS NOTHING MAJOR BUT WE COULD COOK OUT AND HAVE A GATHERING byob AND GRILLABLES CAN HOLD ABOUT 35 PEOPLE

Swan Poem 4-30-07
No longer what am I what she put in my head The Ugliness is dead all that is left is a swan beautiful and free all that is left to be there is more to me than what you see and so much more than of what is left to come intelligent and sweet, sweeps you off your feet and as poetic as a modern day romeo . Kind and caring , romantically daring and a spirit that is unique and bold writing this from the heart what a great place to start Blessed by the ones that I love and the Heavens above I swim off into the sunset like a swan I am quiet I am peaceful I am loving I am meaningful like a swan I am not alone copyright 2007 David Allen Bosley

Quote For April 30
Leaders of countries called me and asked for sex. You look at any picture of a politician with some girls around him and at least three of them will be mine.... If I really came out and talked, I could have stopped NAFTA. -- Heidi Fleiss Bonus Quote: We were attracted to each other at the party, that was obvious! You're on your own for the night, that's also obvious... we're two adults. -- Alex Forrest Fatal Attraction This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

What Is Life
WHAT IS LIFE I ASK? LIFE IS HAPPY AND LIFE IS SAD. LIFE CAN BE LIKE ROLLING DOWN A HILL OR PLAYIN IN THE SAND. LIFE CAN BRING YOU HURT AND PAIN. LIFE WILL NOT ALWAYS BE THE SAME. LIFE IS EXPERIENCES THAT WE ALL DO THROUGH. WHETHER THEY ARE GOOD OR BAD. LIFE IS LOVE. LOVE IS OFTEN MISTAKEN FOR LUST. LIFE WAS A GUN BEING HELD TO MY HEAD. LIFE WAS THREATING COMENTS ALWAYS BEING SAID. LIFE IS FULL OF FRIENDS YOU TRUST. FRIENDS ARE THEIR TO GUIDE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU THROUGH ALL THE TOUGH TIMES WE HAVE. LIFE IS FULL OF FRIENDS THAT HURT. FRIENDS THAT DRUG YOU OR ABUSE YOU, LIFE IS FULL OF RAPES AND MURDERS. RAPES CAUSE YOU TO HURT AND CAUSE YOU PAIN. THEY LEAVING YOU FEELING LOST AND CONFUSSED BUT MOSTLY LEAVE YOU WITH THOUGHTS THAT ALWAYS STICK WITHIN YOU. OH WHAT IS THEIR TO GAIN?? HURT AND PAIN. LOSS OF ONESELVES CONTROL THOUGHTS OF ONLY HURT THOUGHTS THOUGHTS THEY NEVER LEAVE THEY ONLY CARRY ON... WHY IS LIFE THIS WAY.? CHERYL PIKE

If I Dont Hear From U
hello everyone if i take the time to leave u a comment out of respect i would think u would do the same for me if not then i will start deleting people who are just here for points i am here to make friends and to have fun and laughs so come on show some love

Frozen Heart
no touch can reach me ice has insulated my heart protecting me from feeling keeping me safely apart no arms need hold me this numbness gently enfolds amazingly calm now though only my soul it holds no one dare reach for me its layers are unsafe to grasp serenely it holds me steadily within its frozen clasp no one can enter the entrance is neatly secured i want no one to have me of this you can be assured i invited this comfort removing myself from pain no one is welcomed inside myself i shall remain A. Boudreaux 2007

"but It Was The Annual Macy's Sale!!!"
Norfolk lawyer rebuked for delaying case to go shopping The Virginian-Pilot © April 28, 2007 NORFOLK - A local lawyer has been disciplined by the Virginia State Bar for telling a judge she had to postpone a case because of a commitment in another court when in fact she went shopping instead. Defense attorney Cynthia D. Garris received a public reprimand from the State Bar, according to an announcement Friday. The reprimand does not affect her law license. Garris, whose office is at 132 W. Olney Road, told a Norfolk Circuit Court judge last summer that she had to postpone a case because of a court commitment in Williamsburg. The judge later found out she had gone on a shopping excursion instead. The judge found Garris in contempt and fined her $250. Garris later apologized for her "immature, selfish and inexcusable behavior " in a letter to the judge.

First Time
Since this is my first time to blog on a nw site, Im just gonna say enjoy, and post a poem I wrote........ So....ENJOY! I wish I could look into Your lying eyes And believe with my heart Once more… To be shaded once again From loves blinding light I wish I didn’t see the truth That was mocking me, Laughing… I wish I could go back To the way I was And believe your Promises… Oh, sweet promise Sink into me once more Blind me from truths To hard to bear Use me, abuse me Like all those times before Let me bask in the warmth Of false pretences For it hurts far less than Truth… I once was blind But now I see That the sweet words, so softly spoken Were naught but pretty lies You told to me ~Amy~

Finals
Hey Hey! Finals are today ...well for me anyways. I have my Math final today @ 3pm and I'm kinda nervous so wish me luck I guess heh. I am taking summer classes as well. I will be taking my next Math class and ASL III which is American Sign Language. It should be fun lol.

Returning To Chaos
Nothing ever seems to go right. Thursday I had a blast hanging out with a couple of friends at the bar. Got to see a great band called Mason Dixon. Friday I drive back to Wisconsin to almost get into a fight throughout the night with a few different people cause I was helping bounce at the Coral bar in Abbotsford. While having to "take care" of a friend of mine who had a little much to drink. Then Saturday I do basically the same thing but also find out that my ex fience has cancer and he won't talk to me and is being a jerk. I can't help still worrying about him I was suppose to marry the man. The a friend of mine kind of goes over the edge and calls me and I thought he was going to go suicidal and he very well could have. My stress levels are so dreadfully high right now. I still don't have my living situation taken care of yet. Nor have I found another job yet, I haven't even gotten a phone call back from any of the places I dropped an app. Things must really get better so

Insult To Injury
By Linda Robinson Posted 4/8/07 In the middle of a battle in Fallujah in April 2004, an M80 grenade landed a foot away from Fred Ball. The blast threw the 26-year-old Marine sergeant 10 feet into the air and sent a piece of hot shrapnel into his right temple. Once his wound was patched up, Ball insisted on rejoining his men. For the next three months, he continued to go on raids, then returned to Camp Pendleton, Calif. Chad Miller The former Oregon national guardsman was wounded by bombings in Iraq in 2005. Miller, 39, is appealing his zero disability rating.KEVIN HORAN-AURORA FOR USN&WR But Ball was not all right. Military doctors concluded that Ball was suffering from a traumatic brain injury, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), chronic headaches, and balance problems. Ball, who had a 3.5 grade-point average in high school, was found to have a sixth-grade-level learning capability. In January of last year, the Marine Corps found him unfit for duty but not disabled enough

Burning Desire
Into and across my field of view you walked Once my heart was all scared with a mark It seemed I did nothing but be stalked Then and there a flame began to spark You looked into my eyes and my words were bloched The flames burnt up those big spots that were splotched Ive got a burning desire and its out of control Ive got a burning desire that only you can stop Ive got a burning desire raging over my soul Ive got this burning desire and its ready to pop Help me please quench this burning desire Show me the steps to take to still this fire Bring me up out of the sinking mire Drench this smoking hot burnin desire I cant stop this burning desire so help me now Ive got a burning desire and its out of control Quench this buring red hot desire Ive got a burning desire that only you can stop Its out of control this buring desire Ive got a burning desire raging over my soul Ive got this burning desire and its ready to pop

Wolf's Song
A wolf in all his splender stands upon a mountain top, looking donw at the valley with eyes of wonder. A strength renewed as the night wares on toward the coming of th dawn, he waits listening for those who approach from behind. He is the leader of a pack, slowly his head raises, his ears turn downward as his mouth begins to open. Out comes the sound that has rang throughtout the ages past, a call from his forefathers that has sounded like music to them who has listened to song. Eerie to those who are astranged, but a call of love to those who know him best. A call that will ring out so long as his spirit goes on, if his kinsmen do all pass away together no more to roam. So to will his song that brightens those who listen and join in for if he lives on only in pictures then who will carry his majestic and timeless music of the night.

Risin' The Dead Calm
Standing in the door way, breathin is the only sound I hear. To far away from me, yet still so very closely near. Spillin' out the silent words in the moon light. Sharply out comes the sound nothin to sight. Risin from the darkness is the dead calm bring the flash bang of the bomb. bringin the silence of nothin. stealin the sound from my ears. I manage to calm the sounds i hear. Risin the dead calm is a bomb. Of of my hand into the last palm. Its frightin' and maddin' this silence i swear. Too calm for the peices I still have much to bare. The rage building up slowly and softly goin no where. Findin things to which all can be in the mix to share. Barin, feelin, sippin, stillin, everyones to near. Risin from the darkness is the dead calm Bring the flash bang of the bomb. Bringin the silence of nothin. Stealin the sound from my ears. I manage to calm the sounds i hear. Risin the dead calm is a bomb. Of of my hand into the last palm. Be pateint and all thin

Obstruction
Leavin me with no choise in the middle of a drought. When the rain of love is needed, high and dry as the desert sands. The heat of anger and rage, with no cooling winds or fans. Bringin me no real truths, leavin me with all kinds of doubts. Braisen off things to bold, in the night some voices calls out. Raisin higher and higher till it becomes a long howling moarnful shout. Free me from this obstruction, give me my freedom. I dont want this obstruction you gave me, i want peace instead. Take it away and leave me lone, back it the hell off me. Send this obstatrution from me, send it the fuck away. Freedom, freedom is what I creave from this obstruction. Your putting me through hell, in this obstructional state. Time seems to slow in this Obstruction, life is fleeting passin on. Peircing jagged edges of tears racing down the lonely faces of the dawn. This obstruction has nothin for me, someone get me before it ends. See

The Journey
Tracking up and down the beach line, trying to find what is mine. I walk here and there throught it all, rain and snow, witer, spring and fall. Bouncing around from day to day, sometimes wondering to and fro in every way. The emotions wondering and running wild, sometimes its hyper, and sometimes its mild. Hoping everything is accomplished right, when it comes to the end of this journey's sight.

Make The Woman Happy
In the world of romance, one single rule applies: Make the woman happy. Do something she likes, and you get points. Do something she dislikes and points are subtracted. You don't get any points for doing something she expects. Sorry, that's the way the game is played. Here is a guide to the point system: SIMPLE DUTIES * You make the bed (+1) * You make the bed, but forget the decorative pillow (0) * You throw the bedspread over rumpled sheets (-1) * You go out to buy her what she wants (+5) In the rain (+8) But return with Beer (-5) * You check out a suspicious noise at night (+1) * You check out a suspicious noise, and it is nothing (0) * You check out a suspicious noise and it is something (+5) * You pummel it with iron rod (+10) * It's her pet (-20) SOCIAL ENGAGEMENTS You stay by her side the entire party (0) You stay by her side for a while, then leave to chat with a buddy (-2) Named Tina (-10) Tina is a dancer (-20) Tina has silicon implant

Surrender
lay your head back lover, relax your troubled mind, let me fill your world with peace, leave the past behind. fill the night with pleasure, sweet, erotic bliss, movement of both places and time, suspended with a kiss. lift your hear to soar above, gaze into my eyes, the single sound to reach our ears, love's releasing sighs. entwined as one, a single cord, we'll surrender in the night, staying here forever, in the moon's cressing light.

The Grey Area...
see but i dont get it....its all the same you say... and well i dont think you understand... you see theres a difference between right and wrong and then theres this grey area... where you dont know how things should be because theres more than 2 options and both look lousy and the 3rd option is somewhere in the middle... well heres the plan.... forget them all and find a new path... you see people lie and nothing that comes out of their mouths is truth, so search for the right and wrong in it all and youll find that the grey area is where you usually end up.... even in my dreams i dont know the difference between my nightmares and my dreams now....sometimes im not even sure how to classify them...so what would you do?....would you cut yourself off from the world or would you hold out for another round and just be left in the dark on what other people are really thinking about you and your situation?....either way...its hard to trust anything or anyone when you feel this indecisive...i

A Poem Called: Me
A Poem called: Me Me © 8/25/1994 Peggy A. Rowe-Miller Did you see what I said about me? Warm and Wonderful.. Is that ME?!?!??!?!?! It's all come full circle... this little dance... come full circle, I have taken the chance. I have finally become a woman... Not because of being with a man.. Because I've come 'round full force, and saw who I am.... All grown up, and learning the nuances... with all the bumps and bruises... I am... I am still beautiful to me. Celebrate with all my internal forces... Know that I create all my own sunshine... and that the power belongs to me.. Creative consciousness... Lack of dissociation... I've done it!!! I belong to ME! Step on me... Beat me... I'll stand up... For I am a woman... I never give up. Down and depressed... angry.. and repressed... took me too long.. but, I am still here. All in one piece... and all of it, All of it is Me!

Wishing
Wishing Sitting here wishing Could things be better or should they be the same Life is always difficult but in reality it is always Wishing it would be easy but thats always a wish Wishing I was home again I miss all my friends want to have a fresh start could it be possible or not Guess I can wish for a better life with the ones I care about with new careers and lifestyle could that happen or not by: Kelli Snyder

The Bath
Me in warm bathwater in a sunken tub... bath oils, suds... twenty vanilla candles lighting up the room, their flames licking at the air like hungry little tongues...vanilla incense burning in the corner of the room... a gentle hand washing my legs, then moving up to my hips, then the small of my back, and on to my shoulders... my neck... slowly, firmly but gently working the muscles loose into a relaxing bliss... ...lowering my head, while the hands loosen the body and the spirit... a warm body gently sliding up behind me in the bathwater, gingerly resting another's chest on my back... I can feel the breath of another on the nape of my neck, as my shoulders and upper arms are slowly massaged, and deep down within my body begins to tingle... ...lips gently on my neck, juuuust behind the right ear, then up to my lobe, gently tugging on the earring there, teasing the skin there with the tip of a tongue, while hands run down my arms and reach my own hands, fingers entwining tog

Abuse Of Bulletin Reposting
At 3:15 PM there are 30 bulletins on my page; 22 are from the same person, all doubles and all reposts. WTF people, get a grip, ok. Why should there be 2 of each bulletin from a person posted every 20 minutes? That's ridiculous. If it weren't for the on or 2 a day that are worth reading, I'd turn off the feature completely. What a waste of a resource tool.

Wow Whata Night !!!
well i went out for my b-day last sat night it was okay but i wanted to get drunk and didn't so this sat that just went by i went out again i got totally trashed and i had so much fun i went out with my bff and her bf and a blind date first time doin that..... i was so scared to go out with this guy but it turned out to be all good... all i could say is .... thank u so much Dee i love u bunches bitch ...lol ~besos~ just 4 u baby hehe talk 2 u later DEE and 2 u all reading ~besos~ ur gurl Sandra

Back To The Grind, Another Awesome Weekend Gone. ;)
Myspace Graphics Myspace Graphics I hope ya'll had a great weekend :D. Now that there are some great memories for some of us and sadly none but the same'ole shit different day for others. I hope ya'll have a great week ahead, back to the ole'grind and get those bills paid. ;) A new weekend is coming up the highway and is waiting for us to survive another week. Hey babe, te iubesc pe zi ce trece mai mult si mai mult. (K) PEACE LOVE DANCE watchingufromthemoon™ AKA lifelover2000™ Myspace Graphics

What I Think About People Going To Church
WHAT I THINK ABOUT PEOPLE GOING TO CHURCH I THINK 99 PRECENT OF THEM ARE NUT CASES,I SEEM HOW PEOPLE ACT AROUND ME I SEEM HOW THEY TURN UP THEY NOSES AT ME I DONT WANNA SIT BY ME, I THINK MOST PEOPLE ARE A JOKE WHO GO,ID BENE TO THEM ALL AT 1 TIME IN MY LIFE,SO A BUNCH OF FAKES,PHONEYS,GOOFBALLS,THE PASTORS MAKE OT MUCH MONEY I SEEM THEM DRIVING NICE CARS AND STUFF,I THINK THATS B.S OTHER PEOPLE ARE HOMELESS THEY HAVE TO HAVE MILLION DOLLAR HOMES ,COME ON GIVE ME A BREAK,THEY ACT SO PREFECT THEY OUT PROBABLY HAVING SEX WITH EVERYBODY,I THINK IF U BELIEVE I NYOUR SELF YOUR FINE,LIFE TO CONFUSING ANYWAY,TO MUCH HURT IN THE WORLD.I HATE THOSE REGLIOUS CHANNELS THEY SHOULD BE REPLACE WITH OTHER THINGS,I THINK BENNY HIIN OR WHAT EVER BEING FAKE OFTHEM ALL,SOMEDAY U WILL SEE THE BLACK METAL WORLD WOULD TAKE OVER WE ALL JOIN TOGETHER,JOIN ME

One Last Time
I have acquired a lot of friends here on cherry tap....however, that is not why i am here. I want to focus on who my real friends are and the people who are interested in getting to know the real me. Therefore, in the next few days i don't receive some sort of sign from you that you what to stay my friend, i will be deleting you from my list. I am not doing this to be mean, like i said above, i would rather have a quality friendship than quantity. tons of hugs to all of you who really care..... tracy MWAH

It's A Bird! No, It's A... Yes, It's A Bird...
Last Thursday, my wife found a bird on the ground near my work:She thought it was some sort of baby hawk, since it couldn't fly and since it had a wide mouth it'd open when she got close to it.We tried feeding it canned cat food at home, but it wouldn't eat it. We finally managed to shove a little down its throat.Anyway, Saturday we took it to the Oak Mountain State Park Wildlife Rescue place. Instead of a baby hawk, it turns out it was an adult whippoorwill. They eat by swooping through the air with their mouths open to scoop up bugs. Chances are, this one smacked into the side of our building. The lady at the place said that it blew out both its eyes and probably wouldn't survive. We tried though... tag: bird, wildlife rescue, life -*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!Join me at CherryTap.com

How Much Can One Person Take
I have happily waited for you time after time, thinking someday you would be mine. to feel your loving embrassy. watch you sleep seeing all the lil smiles you make.Feelin you close and never wanting to let go. but somehow i always come in last, just a friend that you can count on in your time of need. when i wanted to love you in every way take the good & the bad face this life complete. for you & for me..But i have to take 2 steps back for you have someone recurring from ur past.All that goes threw my mind is to runaway fast. to a place where you cannot hurt me anymore...shut & lock the doors on love. hearing my screams i have had enough!!!!!!!!

Touch
lines and creases of hands clasped in oblivion unaware of anything but the moment concealed within themselves, each other, and covered in the security of darkness this is all that is right now the sensation of fire flowing through needling the extremeties giving birth to contentment and longing like gravity pulling down to the basest of things freefalling together through a fluid dream to the bottom of the soul and the sudden awareness of the tightening grip growing with every pounding beat of the heart touch...

Done
The clock strikes ten the death of an hour. No more pain a total loss of power. The rush dissolved the pain intensified. Everything consoled, now threatens again. A second of release two minutes of pain a permanent scar. No more the same yet completely unchanged. Your own secret and painful reality, Tucked away neatly in the sleeve of your shirt. None to expose yet all to deepen. A whispered lie a deeper wound. A damaging rumor a hospital room. Shattered concern unaudible cries slowed voices FLATLINE

I'm Tired Of It...
My first blog here, hooray! LOL Ok, down to brass tacks here. I'm REALLY getting tired of the wife's zero sex drive. Coming up on our 14th anniversary in July and I'm getting it once a month if I'm lucky. I swear to god if it wasn't for masturbation I'd have gone insane. I have a fairly high sex drive and even so I respect her wishes and not push the issue, but every time I try to get intimate I get an excuse. I know whoever reads this, if anyone does, really shouldn't give a damn if I'm getting any, but it's important to me and she just doesn't care at all. To add to it, I am the one who 99.99% of the time initiates it. I've even tried seducing her, like making her dinner (which I do all the time anyway), running a nice fragrant bath with candles all over the place (again, which I do all the time), anything I can think of to get her in the mood. Long back rubs, anything. To no avail. This sort of thing has happened before years ago and I'll admit, I cheated. I like to know I'm appr