WELL IT LOOKS LIKE MY OTHER BLOG DID NOT SHOW UP. BECAUSE I DONT SEE IT. I HAVE BEEN GOING THRU ALOT THESE PAST 2 DAYS. NOW I AM BEING BLAMED FOR THE PROBLEMS THAT ME AND MY OTHER ARE HAVING. HE TOLD ME THAT IT IS NOT HIS FAULT THAT I AM INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF. I AM NOT. IT JUST UPSETS THAT HE HAS BEEN TALKING TO THESE FEMALES BEHIND MY BACK. HE SPENDS MOST OF HIS FREE TIME ON HIS LAP TOP THEN HE DOES WITH ME. BUT IM SUPPOSED TO BE OK WITH THAT. AND IM NOT SUPPOSED TO GET JEALOUS OF THESE GIRLS WHO ARE CLOSER TO HIS AGE AND BETTER LOOKING THAN ME. IM SUPPOSED TO JUST DEAL WITH IT HE SAYS BECAUSE THEY LIVE FAR AWAY. WHY AM I THE ONE TO BLAME FOR WHAT GOES ON. HES THE ONE DOING THIS NOT ME. I DONT IGNORE HIM. I DONT GO LOOKING FOR OTHER MEN LIKE HE DOES WOMEN. I DONT SPEND ALL DAY LOOKING AT WEBCAMS WAITING FOR GUYS TO GET NAKED. LIKE HE DOES WITH THE FEMALES. I AM BEGINNING TO THINK THAT HE DOES NOT CARE FOR ME ANYMORE. I AM JUST SO CONFUSED. ON TOP OF THAT MY GRANDMA IS GETTING WORSE WITH HER DEMENTIA. MY GRANDPA SAYS IF SHE DOESNT GET A LITTLE BETTER SOON. HES GONNA PUT HER IN A NURSING HOME. SHE IS GETTING TOO MUCH FOR HIM TO HANDLE ALONE. THEY ARE IN FLORIDA RIGHT NOW. MY WORLD IS SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL. I AM STILL LOOKING FOR THAT DARK HOLE TO CRAWL INTO TO DISSAPPEAR. MY INSIDES ARE ARE HURTING FROM ALL THIS STRESS. SORRY TO DUMP MORE OUT THERE. BUT IT JUST HELPS TO WRITE IT DOWN. TY
