Fubar Blog Posts 4

It Doesn't Get Easier...
Caring and loving people never gets easier, no matter how old you are. The feeling of being willing to jump in front of a bullet for someone. The horrible way your stomach twists and make you want to puke. It doesn't even matter how long they have been in your life. If you love someone, you love someone. It doesn't matter if you have loved them five minutes or fifty years. It is insane and intense and it turns me into a sappy, tear-filled little bitch. What the fuck?! Why is it possible for people to have this kind of power on your emotions? I was doing really good at being dark and brutal and full of hate. Then you meet new people and they turn your idea of shit around. BLAST YOU FUCKERS! I have a lot of shit I need to think about!

It's Done
It's done.....the crying is almost over .....the heart is in retreat....but that doesn't make it any easier.....maybe I should just lock it away permanently......Why do I do this to myself....why do I let myself care too much about something I know will never happen....Maybe I was meant to be alone....but that doesn't make it any easier......I need to let go.....I need to stop caring.....I need to quit loving....... I NEVER MEANT TO LOVE YOU I NEVER MEANT TO CARE I NEVER MEANT TO SHOW YOU THE FEELINGS HIDING THERE I NEVER MEANT TO LOVE YOU I NEVER MEANT TO CARE I NEVER WANTED YOU TO SEE THE PAIN HIDING THERE I NEVER MEANT TO LOVE YOU I NEVER MEANT TO CARE NOW IT'S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE AND MY HEART NOT TO SHARE

Happy Birthday Immortal Love :)
Happy Birthday Immortal Love . You are an awesome friend. :) I couldn't ask for a better one. Send her some Birthday Luv! Rate her.. Fan her... Be her friend. And send her lots of birthday gifts!

Police Warning To Women
JUST GOT THIS MESSAGE RIGHT NOW... PASS THIS ON TO ANYONE YOU KNOW! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TE POLICE WARNING Body: STATE POLICE WARNING TO CherryTap USERS Please read this.....I hope that all of my Friends Post this and help keep our CherryTap friends safe. State police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to. If a person with the screen-name of imahustlababay or http://www.myspace.com/ineedatipdrill contacts you, do not reply. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his/her instant messages or e-mail. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet. Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on, as well. This screen-name was seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, a

Lover Lay Down
Lover lay down, Let me kiss you softly. Let me touch your soul. Let me taste your health.. Lover lay down, Give so sweetly to me your heart. Let me caress your inner light with these ever so childish intentions of playing in your garden.. Let me watch your flower bloom....see those beconning vibrant colors of a fleshy pink to a blushing red... This color red so inviting...inticeing my fingertips to induldge in the simple pleasures of your majestic beauty... So Lover come and lay down with me in this eden of life, lets swim in this ocean that we have made, you and me baby all the way.... Lay Down Lover Lover Lay Down ~Goddess Of Green

Love(for My Man)
L. is for the LONG lasting life I pray to god I will be able to share with u O. is for the OVERWELLMING emotions I have for you and they grow with each passing day V. is for the amount of VALUE in the relationship we have the words spoken and the times we have together E. is for never being able to get ENOUGH of everything about who u r to me

Poem
And I start off with this: Most of my poetry No matter what the subject, what the theme Though I never purposely start off with a scheme Most of my poems, my dear friends Are inspired by him. But I tell no one And I sometimes deny this Even to myself I search, always, in my mind The words to describe the way I feel about him Though sometimes there are no words to be found And so I compose these stanzas About apparently nothing Though he resides in all the flow And all the sounds of my words No matter how many years have gone down. I often look back and see The depth and reach of my poetry And I read them all the time. All my word play, pace, and internal rhyme He just won’t know how little I’ve tried How little I have to try To keep his blood running through my verses Sometimes my thoughts go deep And I go off on abstract curves I can write anything, Freestyle, sonnet, haiku, blank verse But never once do I waver From drenching it in his flavor Every

Changes
I beening thinking alot about my life my past my future but mostly about my past ,by past i mean my younger days when i was starting to become an adult when you start to feel childish things slip away no matter how hard u want to hold on to them.I thought about my frist kiss and my frist girl friend who i liked very much but moved away before things ever got serouis. in away it was a perfect realtionship we enjoyed being around each other. there was no tesion and even though i was a teenager i wasnt concerened with try to sleep with her. It was very innconet which isnt something most people get to experencie most people get to have anymore. I thinking back on old freinds who i havent seen in years and i wonder whatever happened to them. I think of the times before u realize someday your parents will die and so will You. I just miss the wonderment of growing up ill be 30 in less then 2 years 30 use to seem so far away. I loved being a kid and i held on to as long as i could haveing a so

In Good Company
There it was. That sparkle...that ephemeral whisp. It glimmers on the pool's surface. Like a full moon? Like a fist sized diamond? Like hope? ...yeah. Like hope. You're the queen. He's the pawn. And who am I? What have I? I'd like to think... I'm the king. No. Better yet. The player. And in one forfeiture... placing my finger on his crown to dance a moment with his wobble. thoughtlessly whimsically wantonly tip and all the king's men fell with him. Pierced their throats in surrender at the tragedy that befell their lord. Fresh out of the box. Layed neatly in a row. Steeled for conflict... and then... silence. The light extinguishes Hello emptiness...did you miss me? But what of our widowed queen? Left... pure, virginal, perfect in the ruin.

Got Rid
of him.. i found out so much shit about him last nite.. it wasnt funny... not did i get one phone call but many... and it was from the same lady.. but she wouldnt give me her name or anything.. i wrote him or should i say text him because he wouldnt answer his phone.. and i told him that he is truley fucked up in the head... and he fucked up a good things here.. and will im done with him. not only did he hurt me.. but it make me think that there is not good men out there.. what the hell.. will that is how the rest of my weekend went.. and he still has this women over there... i feel sorry for her..she will see what he is all about.. he was a good man.. and he never treated me like this... and we were friends for 2 yrs..

I Know Whats Happening Now
Well yesterday something happened that I didnt think would.. I came to realize that I am better then all this shit that happens all the damn time... I am better than drug users girlfriend.. I am better than just being someone's FUCK I am better than just being told what to do I am the kinda person, the kinda girl that loves to take care of people.. I love knowing that someone is benefiting from something that I am doing for them.. But, I deserve more than I have now... I am ready to be me.. and not be someone else or meet someone else's expectations... I think I am a great person... I think I can be something to someone... I am capable of being there for someone 100% but there isnt anyone there (except a few people) who are there for me 100% and thats bull shit..

When?
My heart is in complete silence. Was it real...the pin pricks on my fingers. The sweet taste of her sweat. The salty aroma of her anticipation. Silk raked across her skin. Nails teased across her heavenly body. And it keeps floating to the surface... It insists on popping. Who dares interrupt my revelry today? What new hell? What new travesty... Who dares tread on this holy place. Where I contemplate the profane and the divine... My sacred... Your sin... as I paint my vows on her skin. Stiff. Like death. Like living. Chained down... gagged... and pierced. Violated... Invaded... Sullied...ruined... as I lay here... waiting for you to release me. Release me from real. Erase my emptiness. Today... Was it on the tip of my tongue... or the tip of my thoughts?

Water
I just spend a few days out in the desert, and my body is functioning in prime form. Everything I drank was absorbed almost instantly, all the food I ate was burned off and I’ve been sleeping well for the past couple days I’ve been home. Something about a blazing sun and blistering heat throws your insides into overdrive and you feel…good. I would drink a bottle of water, and aside from quenching my thirst and aiding in keeping my body cool, I could feel it absorb and be used up. Still right now, two days later, I have a 1.5 Liter of Evian at my desk and every drink is being absorbed. And on the first day, I was sweating and by the end of the day I felt like scum. But my body must have flushed out all the toxins because the next day I sweat just as much (if not more) and I didn’t feel as grimy. On top of a second-layer tan, my skin got really soft. And my allergies…*POOF* Gone. What am I getting at? Go out to the desert with your spirit guide and spend two days list

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I Need A Girlfriend!!!
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Poems
Blessed Are Those I. Blessed are those who stop and listen to my chatter. You may not understand me; but I love when people talk to me, for I long for companionship, too. II. Blessed are those who take my hand and walk with me when the path is rough, for I easily stumble and grow weary. But thank you, too, for letting me walk alone when the path is smooth, for I must learn independence. III. Blessed are those who take the time to tell me about special happenings, for unless you make special effort to inform me, I remain ignorant. IV. Blessed are those who wait for me. I may be slow, but I appreciate your patience. V. Blessed are those who are not ashamed to be seen in public with me, for I did not choose to be born thus. It could have been you as well. VI. Blessed are those who do not pity me, for I don't want pity. All I want is understanding and respect for what I have learned as well. VII. Blessed are those who notice my accomplishments, small as they may

Poems
This funny little dragon and poem were made into greeting cards for children and families affected by autism. PEOPLE SEEM TO LOVE THIS!.. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- “Aubrey the Autism Dragon” The other day I met someone Who gave me such a fright… He came into my bedroom and He stayed all day and night! He climbed onto my book shelf and He looked for snacks to eat But couldn’t find what makes him smile He likes a special treat! So when he looked into my box That’s filled with toys and such He smiled with glee and reached down in And said, “Thank You very much!” He ate up all the puzzle pieces that I had inside Then rubbed his big fat belly and opened his mouth wide. The last bite that he took made the dragon burp and say. Good-bye for now, but don’t be sad, cause I’ll be back some day! -By Amy Sellers

Come On My Babies... I'm Waiting For You All!!
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Friend Material
What the fuck! Okay I have heard this so many times and I am fucking sick and tired of hearing it. I cry every time I hear it. FRIEND MATERIAL! That's all I'll ever be... Yes this is my pitty party don't like it don't fucking read it! I've had enough of guys saying "oh your so beautiful and I like, but I don't want to date you." That's a bunch of shit. Then there are the guys that say "hey lets have sex." Uh lets not! I'm a nice person, just not now. LOL! Becuase I am pissed! If men took their hearts and eyes out of their dicks maybe they can see the beauty within girls. They would also be able to see and feel when they are letting love pass them by. Yes I know there are women out there that are just as bad maybe even worse. But my problems right now are with men. No I am not going to turn into a lesbian. That's all I have to say for now. If I can find one guy in this world that can prove me wrong that all men arent the same, then I will be truthfully happy.

New Routine
It took me the better part of today to make the rounds to the people in my "Fan-Of" list. I'm behind on adding new Club F.A.R. Members & rating my new friend's stuff. So I've come up with a routine on how I'm going to start doing things. Monday ~ Make comment rounds & try to hit people's pics as they are uploaded. Tuesday ~ Make comment rounds to just those in my "family" as I consider those people to be good friends. (Have openings to anyone wanting to get to know me & be a real friend.) Add new Club F.A.R. Members & rate pics/stashes. Wednesday ~ Make Hump Day comment rounds. Thursday ~ Make comment rounds to my "family" list. Add new Club F.A.R. members. Rate pics/stash & contest bombing if asked by the person in the contest & not a friend of a friend. Friday ~ Make comment rounds only. Saturday ~ Make comment rounds to family members only. Sunday ~ Make comment rounds to family members only. Rate pics/stash & perhaps contest bomb if asked. I still h

Do You Know This Person?????????please Help
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Oh Oh Lol
blonde woman was having financial troubles so she decided to kidnap a child and demand a ransom. She went to a local park, grabbed a little boy, took him behind a tree and wrote a note. "I have kidnapped your child. I am sorry to do this but I need the money. Leave $10,000 in a plain brown bag behind the big oak tree in the park at 7AM." Signed, "The Blonde." She pinned the note inside the little boy's jacket and told him to go straight home. The next morning, she returned to the park to find the $10,000 in a brown bag behind the big oak tree, just as she had instructed. Inside the bag with the cash was the following note. "Here is your money. I cannot believe that one blonde would do this to another "

Attitude
The Longer I Live The More I Realize The Impact Of Attitude On Life. Attitude, To Me, Is More Important Than Facts. It's More Important Than The Past, The Education, The Money, Than Circumstances, Then Failure, Than Successes, Than What Other People Think or Say or Do. It's More Important Than Appearence,Giftedness,or Skill. It Will make or Break a Company, Church or Home.The Remarkable Thing Is We Have A Choice Everyday Regarding The Attitude We Will Embrace For That Day. We Can Not Change Our Past....The Fact That Certain People Behave in A Certain Way.We Can Not Change The Inevitable. The Only Thing We Can Do Is Play On The One String We have,and That Is Our Attitude. I Am Convinced That Life is 10% What Happens To Me and 90% How I React To It......And So It Is With You..We Are In Charge of Our Attitudes

Trust
You wonder what the word "TRUST" really means. Should you believe someone you just met, or someone you have known for years. When someone new comes into your life, you want to believe them. What could they have done to you yet? That is the mystery about "TRUST". Who should you put "TRUST" in? "TRUST" is a very big word and it should be used very wisely. "TRUST"

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No Gas...on May 15th 2007
NO GAS...On May 15th 2007 Don't pump gas on May 15th 0n April 1997, there was a "gas out" conducted nationwide in protest of gas prices. Gasoline prices dropped 30 cents a gallon overnight. On May 15th 2007, all internet users are to not go to a gas station in protest of high gas prices. Gas is now over $3.00 a gallon in most places and their are plans of gas going up to $4.00 a gallon. There are 73,000,000 + American members currently on the internet network, and the average car takes about 30 to 50 dollars to fill up. If all users did not go to the pump on the 15th, it would take $2,292,000,000.00 (that's almost 3 BILLION) out of the oil companies pockets for just one day, so please do not go to the gas station on May 15th and lets try to put a dent in the Middle Eastern oil industry for at least one day. If you agree (which I can’t see why you wouldn’t) resend this to all your contact list. With it saying, ''Don't pump gas on May 15th"

Pweor Of The Mind
AOCCDRING TO A RSCHEEACH AT CMABRIGDE UINERTISY, IT DEOSN'T MTTAER WAHT OREDR THE LTTEERS IN A WROD ARE. THE OLNY IMPRMOETNT TIHNG IS TAHT THE FRIST AND LSAT LTTEERS BE IN THE RGHIT PCLAE. THE RSET CAN BE A TOATLE MSES AND YOU CAN SITLL RAED IT WOUTHIT A PORBELM. TIHS IS BCUSEAE THE HUAMN MNID DEOS MOT RAED ERVY LTETER BY ISTLEF. PRTTEY FREIKANG AMZANIG, HUH?

Just A Bunch Of My Poetry
To ponder mysteries of love and to wonder why Is it a fools quest that remains lost until we do die For none can explain why we feel and about whom And when we have not one to love we do feel the gloom Love it is not about looks so much as the soul And without one to love we are often less than whole To search a lifetime for true love only to abandon hope To give up the dream unfound and reach the end of our rope And then to have love find us when finally we let it go Is proof beyond all that there is some thing we should know A divine spirit guides the way and for each has a plan To ponder mysteries of love is a foolish nature of a man By R. Thomas Dinsmore Twist and turns on this life’s trail Like a boat on an ocean without a sail I drift along unknowing the fate Unsure of all and yet free of hate Mind at rest an eye in the storm Till hopes and dreams take the form Of loves sweet hopes and desire Of one who holds and keeps the fire Of passion the is without

They Wanted To Up My Insulin
gee they wanted to up my insulin today and i told them to go to hell. im done taking the shots 12x a day. asked for the pump to stop the torture. and they refuse so he didnt like it when i said im not upping it and just gonna sit back without it. anyways im thru taking these shots. eventually they would have no choice but to give me the pump

These Walls
These walls that enclose me, severing my soul. Depriving my family...They don't even know! These walls have no feelings. They're concrete & steel; They punish,; They take everything that is real These walls do not care, nor do they brood. Living off humans , as if we were food. They capture our memories & keep them inside; Not worried 'bout loved ones, who languish outside. These walls that are built to enclose us & hide; can't steal my feelings, & boy have they tried. Please understand me, my friends one & all; These walls that surround me, someday will fall

10 Steps For An Un-happy Relationship
Find as much as you can to get annoyed about on a daily basis. Get angry about the annoyance so that you create an atmosphere of hostility in your home. If anyone suggests you need anger management, be sure to cite all the annoyances that caused this, so they know it's not your fault. Do what "you" like to do and brush off or point out the absurdity of your partner's preferences. If they try to do something for themselves, be sure to accuse them of selfishness and greed. Claim they always focus on money. When you start an argument, make sure that you win it through intimidation and anger. If your partner suggests that you are manufacturing things to get angry about, make sure to accuse them of starting it or claim THEIR behavior is what causes your outbursts. When you've made them mad enough to fight back, be sure to declare that they are, in fact, the one with the anger problem. When you criticize, do it often and for every infraction you can think of—like windows up

Love (undefined)
The word "love" may be the most battered, abused, and misused word in the English language. To define love is impossible due to the over-whelming abundance of emotion; Yet, lack of time and vocabulary. We have little trouble saying it, but more difficulty sharing it because so few of us truly feel it. To "feel love" is the ONLY way to "know love".

10 Golden Rules For Taying Happy W The One You Love
First & foremost, love each other. Realize how lucky you ate to be in love with someone who loves you. Say "I love you" often & in different ways. Surprise each other with gifts of praise to show your love. Remember that love grows in an atmosphere of freedom & trust, not from restraint and obligation. Do things to keep your love and romance new & alive. Don't take love for granted, ever. It's such a blessing… Listen objectively to each other, as you would to a friend. Acceptance is a key to understanding & a buffer for tension & resentment. Don't take things personally; give each other the right to have different opinions, the right to disagree. You don't want anyone to control your feelings, so don't try to own someone else's, not even the feelings of the one you love. Never stop treating each other like sweethearts. This is important! Talk to each other as sweethearts. Do things that sweethearts do. Share the chores around the house. Work together in achieving your goals. Do

Part 7
Well, when we last saw our main character, it was the middle of July, 2005. By this point I had set up my retirement ceremony for Friday January 20, 2006. If you have never been to a military retirement ceremony, they can be either very short and sweet, or can be real tear jerkers. My goal was to make even the toughest guys shed a tear. As a First Class Petty Officer, it would have been normal for me to select 6 other First Classes to be my side buoys. I had not taken that route because the results from the Chief Selection board hadn't come out yet. What I decided was to select 3 men and 3 women who don't work in my division, to be the side buoys. Also, there were to be 2 Third Class, 2 Second Class, and 2 First Class petty Officers. I decided on the male Third Class. This guy was a Quartermaster, whom I had done a lot of talking to over the course of my 3 years onboard. He had struggled with adjusting to military life, especially when he was working in the galley as

Sensual Touch
SENSUAL TOUCH Her lover's flesh asleep with dreams,between two silken sheets She watches on with adoring eyes,inside she feels complete By the window in the still of night,the moon shines on her skin As cascading hair softly flows,so does the love within Tempted by the tender memories,fresh within her mind Her senses come alive again,arousal's silhouette defined Against the wall so cool,she leans and licks her lips As the taste of him unfolds again,remnants of his kiss Thoughts begin to stray, as she turns her face into the night Gazing out the window,at the stars and moon so bright She traces a painted nail,slowly over an ivory breast Pondering sensuous ways,she could touch her lover next There within the stillness,as the wind howls a tune for lovers Silently he breathes her in,her fragrant scent upon the covers Awoken by the missing,of her warmth and nakedness He rises with an aching need,to feel her soft caress His footsteps on the wooden floor,brings to

Before You Open Me
Before you open me Make sure this is truly something you want to do Right now all you have is an outside view Are you ready to explore what lies within? Think about this for a while before you begin What you’re about to experience is very precious Some would say priceless I am wise beyond my years as my soul is old Some would say ageless Few have scratched the surface And many failed to grasp its meaning Of the life that has taken me Far beyond simple dreaming. Are you prepared to dive Into the black sea of my soul? Can you abandon all your fears And all that you’ve been told? Are you ready For a new kind of addiction? I think you like danger At least that’s my prediction Learn what makes me smile And what touches my heart Learn why it is I relish the dark Hear the laughing demons Tuck me in at night Feel the lustful passions Lurking behind my blackened sight Open me Touch my pages Be careful I can be quite contagious Smell the scents of st

Yea May Babies
MY B DA IS C"MON SOON YALL finally and a month left of school well shit this is the last month cheaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so time 2 grad throw my cook out party and hit the club 2 celebrate u kno ha ha

My Best Friend
In this world I have many friends.But I only have two best friends.they are two people whom i care about and love very much. My bestest friend is my husband Jesse.He has made me the woman I am today.He has taken me from the broken little girl I used to be to the confident,strong woman you see before you today.He has never judged mein any way ,shape or form.He knows all about my past and things Ive been through and here he stands with mestill til this day.I want him to know that I Love Him Vety Much.My love for himis like Ive never felt before with anyone and that i never will feel with anyone else but him. My best friend is Matt.He has been a stronghold for me.Whenever I feel down,lost,or just phsycho(lol),he has always been there for me.He knows when i need just a smile,or when i need that little touch that just says "heydarlin,hold your head up,your a great person"."I love you babygirl".He is a very special person to me.To Matt,I just wanna say Thanks for being that best friend

Problems All The Fucken Time..when They Gonna Stop?
Ok so I am hurt, discusted, upset, miserable, down right mad....more than anyone can even think!!!!! My mother is getting married on July 7th of this year, and you know something? My sisters are in the wedding but not me!!!! I have to find out from my best friend when the wedding is..as far as time goes..who would be marrying my mother and her boyfriend..which would be my grandmother...all that good and happy go lucky bullshit!! Then my sister calls me and tells me to drop the cell phone money off to her tomorrow after I am done taking the kids to the playground, just so she didnt have to call me and tell me herself!! So when my sister calls me I go off and ask her if she is in moms wedding and she says yes..which I already knew of course...and then I say about how nice is that when I dont even get invited to the fucken thing!! She then tells me that mom hasnt sent out any invitations yet..HELLO!!!! DO I NEED A FUCKEN DAMNED INVITATION TO MY OWN MOTHERS WEDDING?????????? DO I HAVE

Friends Only
I had to turn all my stuff on ct to friends only...and Im not gonna be accepting anyone new as a friend unless u have a salute pic bc my freak stalker just informed me he has 42 FAKE accounts....sorry for the inconvience..much love to yall and thanks for ur support maria...

All My Friends And Family
I had to turn all my stuff on ct to friends only...and Im not gonna be accepting anyone new as a friend unless u have a salute pic bc my freak stalker just informed me he has 42 FAKE accounts....sorry for the inconvience..much love to yall and thanks for ur support Tabby...

The Wallz
I sit up at night, it's at least 3 or 4 Blood drippin' out my knuckles From knocking skin on drywall I see a face like flashlights on they chins The more I blink the more it happens again, damn Victims, from like '89 Floating their faces on the wall like it's the last time I'm gonna see them again The same time every night The wall gets bigger with every flash of day light Are they like venting on me Walls confining me, inside of me There's an emptiness that won't go away I never said that I was right inside of my mind But I'm sure over time I'll learn to climb the walls I'm sure that over time I'll learn to right all of my wrongs Sure it's right, four walls reflecting my life Every night that I sit and watch the replay Tell 'em I can feel them looking at me I can even hear them talking when I'm tryin' to sleep Sometimes they start spinnin' or just closing in And it's just too much to be, I can't win Don't grin, it ain't funny I just set it ablaze I had

What Do Your Eyes Say About You?
You scored as Passion. You are very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. You have great power over others and they seem to flock to your service. You are very competative almost to a fault. Perhaps you should let someone else win for a change?Passion75%Eyes full of Pain25%Mysterious17%Diamond Eyes0%What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Changes
Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around much. My real life is interfering with my online one, lol. There’s been so much going on. First off, I finally told my dad that my life is my own and I’m going to do what in college and afterward. I expected him to go completely postal but he didn’t. He told me he respected me for the way I handled it and apologized for being too controlling. Total stunner. But it’s a real weight off me. I was stressing about it for weeks. I moved out and I’m living with Jack and Jessica. We have a pretty nice apartment on the 6th floor. Oh but next time we’re hiring movers because shoving that couch into the elevator was an epic battle that I’m not eager to repeat. It’s an awesome building downtown with a rec room, pool, and computer lounge. Sometimes we get on each other nerves (like if Jack doesn’t stop leaving hair in the sink when he shaves, I’m going to cut him with that razor) but so far we’re getting along great. I have a kitten! She’s so cute. All t

Im Sorry
LAST NITE I WROTE A BLOG USINGSOME BAD LANAUAGE IM SORRY I WAS HAVING A REAL BAD NITE AND I TOOK IT OUT ON MY FRIENDS I SELDOM USE THAT KINDA WORDS BUT IT JUST ME UPSET WHEN PEOPLE USE THEIR DISABLITES TO MAKE [PEOPLE FEEL SORRY SO ON THAT NOTEILL CLOSE FOR NOW BYE HUGS EVIS

What Mythilogical Creature Are You
You scored as Angel. Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.Mermaid75%Angel75%Faerie67%Dragon33%WereWolf33%Demon0%What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

Makes Me Sick
Dont really apply to me but gotta love our future. Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lie

I Only Wish....
I only wish he would call me beautifull, gorgeous, and alluring. I only wish he would look past the fact that I may not be as skinny as all those women on his page but that I am as beautifull on the inside. I only wish that he would realize what a big heart I have and how kind hearted I am. I only wish he realized how much I care about him. I only wish he would take the time to get to know the real me, the person on the inside. I only wish that he knew that I would do anything to be the one for him. I only wish....well I guess it is time to stop wishing and make it a reality and I will do what ever it takes to do so. Just something that was on my mind. Not feeling sorry for myself but just starting to come to a realization. I am not speaking of any inparticular here, but I think there might be some other women out there who might feel the same way. If not, well I am sorry for saying so.

Empty
Life,Death Steal my last breath Hurt,Pain Open Me And Drain Discarded,Bereft I have no Feelings Left Forgotten,Forlorned My Heart You Have Shorn Broken,Bleeding No Hope of Reprieving Lust,Love Ill Have none of Despise,Hate I sit here and wait Here is a Lame attempt..comment as u see fit

~*with All My Heart*~
With all my heart i can say there isnt a day that dont turn the world around and make me think of all that has made me happy and turn my life into something more than i would ever think of with wonderful friends,family and a truely wonderful man that are there for me and back me up....with all my heart i love each and every one of them. My friends talk me through ruff times and tell me its gonna be ok and things will work out. My family well they back me up and they stand there with me and fight when ever needs to be delte with. The same as the kindness warmest hearted man that i could ever be with he does all that he can from standing at my side to talking to me, easeing any pain that crosses my path. Hushes my tears when they start to fall down my face with his words With all my heart i love them all for being there for what ever crosses my path as ill always be there for them With all my heart i love the one and only man that has made me see that there is love out ther

Happy Mother's Day
Mother I would give you the most beautiful spring day I would give you soft clouds in a deep blue sky I would give you warm sunshine to match your grace I would give you a gentle breeze to lift your spirit I would give you full trees to shade your brow I would give you cool fresh water to quench your thirst I would give you all of this and so much more I give you my respect and love forever Happy Mother's Day ©Dark

Breaking
As I sit in a corner Contemplating life or death Contemplating whether or not to pop pills Or cut my arms and legs I slowly remember all the pain Losing what is left of my sanity Slowly breaking down Feeling tears creeping out of my eyes As painful memories return Memories of what used to be pleasant things Remembering all of the people who wouldn't care Picturing the funeral where only few would show Knowing all of them will be asking one question one I can't take it I am weak As I lay down, crying Breaking... Wishing many would die As my weakness prevails Crying while many sleep Dieing inside Breaking inside and out

What Ya Think, Huh?
The True You You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you. With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies. You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match. Who's The True You? You Should Have Been Born Under: You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam. You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing. Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long. Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word. You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger. What Year Should You Have

Underage
Just had a run in with a minor on Cherry tap who was 14 didn't post an age at all and when I found out that she lied especially about her age being 16 and then her sister got on ( being much older ) had told me their mother was killed by an internet stalker that got me thinking is there anything safe any more - The minor was flirting with me a 34 year old man - that shows me that all those tv shows about stalkers on the internet is just one more excuse to watch your kids better to know what they are up to and to let them know about the dangers that lurk out there I closed our conversation with you know next time she may not be so fortunate Thanks for listening and watch yourselves

Walking Suicide
I'm a walking suicide but you'd never know cause' I hide I got too much pride to show my depression I think about dying everyday but never say anything cause' people will stop me rob me from succeeding in my goal. I fold my letter up saying how sorry I am for being a disappointment to my family and you'll be better without me. You'd never think little baby girl would try something so bold didn't know that the mold you made her in turned it's grin and that hell really existed in her eyes and she cries for god to please just let me die and be free from the reality she's facing!! I'm a walking suicide

This Is For Her, The Bitch!
Forget every word you spoke. Regret this life to choke. Purity, just a blinded coward. Seventeen, the number you chose me. Seventeen curses now will be blamed on your sacred black heart. Now I'm awake. My will is stronger than before. You don't know me, and you don't see me. You will never fucking know me. Everything went black tonight. Now I'm sick of being blamed for your worthless identity Of a victim, the claim you make. A false claim for a bullshit tear. Not from me, anymore. Not from me, anymore. Anymore. Not anymore. Now I cast a thousand plagues on you. So left behind, to make amends. Now I am set free, and I can see right through you, But you're too blind to see me. Now I am set free, and I can see right through you, But you're too blind to see me. Red. Red is the color that makes me sick, And is paid for in blood. It's paid for with your blood. And now we're taking it back. And we keep on taking it back. And now we're taking it back. And w

Just Had To Vent A Lil
Ok ok I know some people like contests on here, kewl for them, some people have mutual people on friends list.. even better.. But why complain about people not bombing or rating you. I try to return the LUV to all vistors, friends, fans etc.. I cant help everyone with a contest or I wont get to enjoy CT in my own way. If I dont participate in ur contest, please dont take it to heart, there are gadz of people on here and gadz of people on everyone's friends list, which means gadz of people posting & reposting bulletins saying help me win this contest or that contest or help my friend win.. Good luck to all those who do participate in em, its just not for me.. I'll help if I have time or energy but plz dont try to make me feel bad by saying if you dont help ur not a true friend and will be removed.. If you wanted to remove me, u would of by then.. Heck remove me now and make both our CT experiences alot easier.. again just had to vent its not aimed at any one person ..

I Am New To Cherry Tap
Gypsy-Agent-69 Says... Hello My Name Is Steve. And it really is such a honor to meet you. I am a Romanian Gypsy & Part Greek.. I have black hair & blue eyes. Right now I am single and looking. I work for Microsoft Computers. Microsoft gave me the name Gypsy_Agent. Because I am in the Security Department.. What I'm Into I Like Computers Cars Sports. Dancing Music. Fine Food. Also wine tasting. White Zinfandel is my favorite wine. OK To tell you the truth it gets me horny LoL. My Dreams To meet a real nice down to earth women. Who is not into playing games and likes to laugh and have fun. The KEY-WORLD HERE IS Fun ! It's good to be serious when it calls for it. Also I am attracted to being in good shape women who has a fun and open personalty.. A women to me with a personalty can go a long way in life. Think about this when your looks runs out what do you have left ?.

Mortal Enemy
BITCH,YOU BETTER RUN,YOU BETTER HIDE THERE IS MORE TO COME THAN WHATS INSIDE,I AM ONLY ONE,BUT OH SHIT,I COULD FUCK YOU UP,SO WHAT THE HELL,IN THE HOOD IS UP TO ?YOU DRAIN MY LIFE,CAUSE ME SUCH STRIFE,40 PEOPLE AFTER YOUR ASS,YOU BETTER BE THINKING A COFFIN MADE OF BRASS,NOT THAT I THINK YOU DESERVE SUCH A HONOR,BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO VALOR,CIRCLE OF FRIENDS YOU BETTER FIND A NEW ONE BECAUSE IT NEVER ENDS,I AM MORE FRIENDS WITH A JUGGALO YOU FUCKING HOE,YOU ARE A CUNT,AND BITCHES AND ASSHOLES ON THE HUNT,YOU BETTER NOT BE FREAKIN'COME OUT OF OUT YOUR HOUSE YOU'LL BE STANDING IN A CORNER LIKE A FUCKING MOUSE,MORTAL ENEMY ARE YOU BLIND,DON'T YOU SEE,...NOW BITCH THEY CALL ME LIL PSYCHO CUZ IM A CRAZY BITCH AND YOU MIGHT REMEMBER ME CUZ'YOU FUCKED OVER MY BROTHER YOUR NOTHIN BUT AND LOW NASTY SLUTTY UNDERCRUST, OHH DAMN THATS 4 FEET LOWER THAN A CUNT YOU MUST BE A NASTY WHORE BUT LET ME REMIND YOU THAT I PREFER THE DARK AND THE SHADOWS SO THERE I WILL WAIT AND LINGER TILL MY PRAY COMES TO ME

Please Help Me
IM HERE TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT A PERSON THAT I THOUGHT WAS A MAN,BUT HE WAS A DOG! ITS TRULY HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW HE COULD BE LIKE THIS. BUT HES OUT THERE AND WE NEED TO STOP HIM NOW.HE HAS TOLD 4 WOMEN THAT HE LOVED THEM,AND THAT HE WANTS TO MARRY THEM AND LIVE WITH THEM AND IT SAD THAT HE COULD GET INTO EVERYONE HEART AND PLAY PEOPLE FOR A FOUL. ITS SAD THAT HE THOUGHT HE COULD HAVE GOT AWAY WITH IT .SO PLEASE HELP ME TO GET THIS DOG OUT OF CT. HIS NAME IS PETE AFFRUNTI. ANY WOMEN THAT IS IN CONTACT WITH BEWARE HES A DOG,

Scared
scared So it is 11:30 pm....I should be in bed asleep, but here I am. Well as most of you know I accepted that key position, it is either the smartest move I have ever made or the dumbest, I haven't decided yet, all I know is that it scares the crap out of me. Hopefully it will get me going in the right direction to start making my dreams a reality. I am just so tired of living in limbo, I am ready to start living my life, I am ready to be happy again, to smile again....truly smile again. I honestly don't remember a time in my life where I cried as much and as often, I am ready to stop crying myself to sleep. I know what I want, just need to figure out how to get it

Men Laws
1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella. 2: It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances: (a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master. (b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse. (c) After wrecking your boss' car. (d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game". (e) When she is using her teeth. 3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies. 4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours. 5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her. 6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable. 7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly optional. At that point,

May 1st 2007
WELL HERE IT IS MAY 1ST 2007 28 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY AND COUNTING ILL BE 28 THIS YEAR ALSO MY 4TH ANNIVERSARY ON THE SAME DAY IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MY DAY TODAY DUE TO HAVING TO GO FIND OUT IF I NEED SURGERY FOR MY BACK BUT ILL BE OK GRANDMA STILL NOT ANY BETTER BUT GOD WILLING SHE WILL BE DOCS SAY SHE GONNA BE OK BUT I THINK THERE IS SOMETHING THE DOCS ARE NOT TELLING US ABOUT WHY THEY KEEP POSTPONING HER SURGERY I AM SURE THEY WILL CONFESS SOONER OR LATER WELL THATS ABOUT IT FOR TODAY ALL CATCH ME TOMORROW FOR ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF THIS ANGEL

The Angel
The angel is curiosity as she ponders the design and function of previously unseen objects. The angel is happiness as she interacts with those around her, bringing joy and laughter to their lives. And at day’s end, the angel is weariness, for she has given of herself much this day, asking little in return. And now the angel sleeps.

Rough Sex !!!!!
Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!! Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile. Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard .......................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal

Testament Viii * Comments Rate Plz*
"It was said the comet always prescedes them by inspired light blessing never fails" To believe in somethin that proven fact must always be seen but to already know opinon is no need to believe becuase its already forseen and understand. Wat is the line between faith and fact when we want to accept outcome?..natural gift assume the position of of talent not knowledge. we begin to understand that knowledge is a small piece of material so fragile to talent it becomes center piece politic for power. why do we insist that knowledge hold the key to perfection if talent is the one door that take risk for mistakes. knowledge can be erasable and tolerent talent is energy preserve so the lesson posesses that strength should be summon carefully. to cheat optimisic is one weakness that can be achieve but if both work together can discover the secret of the answers without questions. we can not abbreviate love becuase of its meanings but if U is a constant and I is a vowel then we can e

Meancholy Season
All year I wait for my December The best of times I remember A time for family, together as one Yet, this year I have but none Why are we lonely On such a festive time of year (Excuse me while I grab a beer) I might shed a tear as I throw on fake cheer in front of no single one that is here I know in my heart is where I'll start No matter how much it falls apart I live to love and learn to live But there's only so much my heart can give We can't always be with the ones we love So we love the ones we're with Is it a gift, we learn to bury Or just some humor inside above Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired It's an acronym I live by All just a life of a hunted lonesome dove Enough of my distress How was your day Mines less than 22 Days or bullets, one may guess But something I must pursue Who does care When no bodies there I… do

Maybe I Should Be Good
for a while hahah. i did it once before hahah 5 months anyways...although it was pretty tough for a while ... maybe it would be best though. clear my head and get inside myself focus on my art and maybe take pics if i can actually get out during the day haahahah all i ever do is work or play on the computer not that its bad its just i dont draw or paint or do much of anything anymore but day said shed develope my pics for me for cheap so i can get back into photo and shit like that lol i can live off rice i guess hahah anywyas im just rambling keeping myself occupied

Recipe For Making Love
Recipe for Making Love Ingredients: 4 Laughing Eyes 4 Well-Shaped Legs 4 Loving Arms 2 Firm Milk Containers 2 Nuts 1 Mixing Bowl (fur-lined or smooth) 1 Firm Banana Directions: 1. Look into laughing eyes. 2. Spread well-shaped legs with loving arms. 3. Squeeze and massage milk containers very gently. 4. Gently add firm banana to mixing bowl, working in and out until well creamed *For best results, continue to knead milk containers. 5. As heat rises, plunge banana deep into mixing bowl and cover with nuts, leave to soak, (preferably NOT overnight). 6. The cake is done when banana is soft. If banana doesn’t soften, repeat steps 3-5 or change mixing bowls. Notes: 1. If you are in an unfamiliar kitchen, wash utensils carefully before and after use. 2. Do not lick mixing bowl after use. 3. If cake rises… LEAVE TOWN!

The Crushes
You know... it really sucks that CT won't even let one GUESS who has a crush on them. Sheesh... OK - MY crush knows who he is. I told him flat out (he would have figured it out anyway). I'm NOT saying that my crusher absolutely has to come clean, it would just satisfy my curiosity. Open note to my crusher: If you want to keep your identity a secret. That's OK, I don't mind. Just know that you have my warm thanks for crushing one me. ~I

No Longer Shall We
It is time for our countries to rise up and say no more, it is time for our people to tell those in charge that we are unwilling to pay tens of billions of dollars per year so that Israel can go about terrorizing their neighbors, it is time our people stop and open our eyes to the lies that have been spread over the last seventy years and it is time we as a people rise up in unison and take back what we fought and died for. My fellow white men and women it is time we put a stop to the Jewish influence we have been bombarded with, it is time we force our corrupt governments out and reinstate a more just form of law. We live in a society that is not for those who fought and died to make our countries what they are today, instead we the white race are forced to support those who not only had no hand in the creation of the societies we built, but whose soul intentions are to destroy what we have built and have us suffer. A cleaning of our borders is long overdue, we must start at the to

Introduction...
This is an ongoing functioning work in progress...For all you Occult and Vampire fans out there...I hope you get great fun out of my characters... If you don't like sex, death, mayhem, and chaos...don't read my short stories!

Clouds Of Love
On the night I met you my heart stopped beating it froze with desire at what I was seeing On this night for us that shouldn't have been what lay ahead nobody could see You alone started these flames of wanting desire a million seas couldn't quench the fire But love isn't always the easy friend you have to sail the storm to receive the love you send So till the day comes that these arms can hold you near I'll sail the storms and watch as the clouds disappear

When A Guy Misses You...
When A Guy/Girl Misses When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you she wants you to hold her hand When she wants a hug she will just stand there When u break a girls heart she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more tha

Sexiest Brit Verses Sexiest American - A Must Enter Competition
welcome to the hottest competiton on cherry tap yet!!! we have had all sorts from best ink to best kids etc this contest is the sexiest brit verses the sexiest american, you can be male or female, or both haha, the way the contest will work is a heat of the sexiest brit, also a heat of the sexiest american, the winners from each heat will go head to head to become the sexiest cherry, i am looking for contestants, so if you think the sexiest cherry crown belongs to you , contact middlesmash or candygirl uk the contest will start when i have 10 uk and 10 american contstants , so come on what a crown to hold there will by prizes for the winner of each heat and another one for the overall winner - what you waiting for !!

My Horoscope
Daily Horoscope: Leo For May 1,2007 The toughest thing in the world isn't beating someone with your superior mental or physical strength; the toughest thing in the world is being strong enough to be vulnerable. Take a risk and show your real self to someone who counts.

He Is My World
before u; i was lost in love, no where to go, no where to turn. there u were popping up to say hey not realizing that u would steal my heart away. the late nights on the phone, were simple and sweet and pretty soon u were in my dreams. day in and day out u were on my mind, hoping one day you could be mine. your smile melted my heart away, your eyes took me to another place. your voice made my knees buckled, and your love made the holes in my heart complete again. for once im not afraid to love agian, for once i can be worry free. babydoll you dont know how much you mean to me, thanks to you my life is complete.

This Has Got To Be One Of The Most Clever
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com E-mails I've received in awhile. Someone out there either has too much spare time or is deadly at Scrabble. (Wait till you see the last one)! DORMITORY: When you rearrange the letters: DIRTY ROO M PRESBYTERIAN: When you rearrange the letters: BEST IN PRAYER ASTRONOMER: When you rearrange the letters: MOON STARER DESPERATION: When you rearrange the letters: A ROPE ENDS IT THE EYES: ! When you rearrange the letters: THEY SEE GEORGE BUSH: When you rearrange the letters: HE BUGS GORE THE MORSE CODE: When you rearrange the letters: HERE COME DOTS SLOT MACHINES: When you rearrange the letters: CASH LOST IN ME ANIMOSITY: When you rearrange the letters: IS NO AMITY ELECTION RESULTS: When you rearrange the letters: LIES - LET'S RECOUNT SNOOZE ALARMS: When you rearrange the letters: ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S A DECIMAL POINT: When you rearrange the letters: IM A DOT IN PLACE THE EART

Fuck Me Baby.....
OH this should be interesting... CAUSE.... YOU GOT F**KED!!!!! That's right, time to start the game. Post this to see how many will sleep with you! How many will kiss you! How many will marry you! How many will have your kids or you want them to have your kids! How many will make love to you! How many want to make out with you! And the catch? If you want to do these things to the person who sent this. LET THEM KNOW!!!! Don't hide, don't be bashful. Tell them and they might thank you for it. Give them the opportunity to respond by Reposting!!!! If you don't. You will have some bad luck

Fuck Me Baby!
OH this should be interesting... CAUSE.... YOU GOT F**KED!!!!! That's right, time to start the game. Post this to see how many will sleep with you! How many will kiss you! How many will marry you! How many will have your kids or you want them to have your kids! How many will make love to you! How many want to make out with you! And the catch? If you want to do these things to the person who sent this. LET THEM KNOW!!!! Don't hide, don't be bashful. Tell them and they might thank you for it. Give them the opportunity to respond by Reposting!!!! If you don't. You will have some bad luck

Taken Part 2
You smile and twist my nipple ring as you take my whole cock into your ass. The pace you set is so rhythmic I can only smile and breathe. Your ass is so incredibly tight and the picture of you on top of me with you pussy showing fully I could cum just over looking at that. I move my hand down to play with your pussy but you move my hand away. With expert care you reach down and begin to lightly pat your clit. I am amazed at your skill. You're straddling me, balancing yourself on the back of the chair and spanking your pussy. Well I can tell that you won't last long at this as your pussy swells right up and I feel the accumulation of your sweet nectar on my lower belly. I help you by taking your hips and lift you up and down taking some strain off of your arms and legs. As I can feel you hunger increase I realize that this position isn't going to be enough to get you off again. I wrap my arms around you pick you up, cock still buried in your ass, and take you to the counter. It's the

Just Put Some Ice On It Part 2
“And?” She smiled at me. “Size matters,” she informed me with a wink. “And this,” she paused to kiss the head of my cock before continuing, “this masterpiece should be a lot of fun.” My hands fell to her hips as she guided my cock into her. She rubbed the lips of her pussy around the head of my cock and I could already feel her juices sliding down my shaft as she shivered. Slowly she began to slide inch after inch of my manhood into her. She was unbelievably tight. Her juices rolled in rivulets down my balls, tickling as they went. Her fingernails burrowed into my chest as she began to piston up and down my shaft. “Oh god I love your cock Ian.” She sighed. “I love fucking you. I love how you fill me up.” Her body began to shudder again and I felt her pussy contract around my pulsing member. I couldn’t believe how quickly she was cumming. She was pounding me into the mattress. She laid back and pulled me on top of her. Her hand wrapped around my slick shaft and she squeezed

Horoscope For Gemini May 1st (so True 4 Me)
Surrender the wheel to the universe and you might find that your destination is a lot more fun. Funnily enough, the ride there becomes a lot smoother too. Trust in the process and you'll soon see results.

This War
Hey there let me ask you a a question, nothing too diverting, does this world make you sad if I may, why are you are hurting? Have you asked it did it come calling, did you go looking, who started this fight? Did you throw the first punch, did it kick you? Why the tears now, down the road, can you stop it can you unload? When you wind it down, no one's around, ask yourself, who started this fight?

Everything...
Everything I Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten Most of what I really need to know about how to live and what to do, and how to be, I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandbox at nursery school. These are the things I learned: Share everything. Play fair. Don't hit people. Put things back where you found them. Clean up your own mess. Don't take things that aren't yours. Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody. Wash your hands before you eat. Flush. Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you. Live a balanced life. Learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some. Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world, watch for traffic, hold hands and stick together. Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the plastic cup? The root

Final Inspection
THE FINAL INSPECTION The soldier stood and faced God, Which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining, Just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, you soldier, How shall I deal with you ? Have you always turned the other cheek ? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord, I guess I ain't. Because those of us who carry guns, Can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, And at times my talk was tough. And sometimes I've been violent, Because the world is awfully rough. But, I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep... Though I worked a lot of overtime, When the bills got just too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place, Among the people here. They never wanted me around, Ex

Torn By Miles
Our love is torn by miles, not by choice. Soon, soon, my darling, I'll be coming home. At night I play your body and your voice, But soon the hands and cries will be your own. I want to love you all the hours we've missed, And do the things I've fantasized for you: Kiss you all the places my mind's kissed, And put you everywhere I've wanted to. My only fear's desiring you so much That dream will overwhelm reality; Time, for both of us, must temper touch So love can once again be slow and free. My mind's already half insane with pleasure; Soon, soon my body will consume its treasure.

Full Fledged Rant Grrrrrrrr
I know everyone has the right to make whatever screen name they chose but when it is disrespecful to full figured women I have a tad bit of a problem with it. If you have a problem with a womans size, FINE!! you shouldn't be allowed to show your ignorance in your name, well in my opinion you shouldn't be able to. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr discrimination shouldn't be allowed in any shape or form The person actually has the screen name that says I Dont Dig Fat Chicks! come on now show some class and respect. My stree level is shot. My sister is back in the hospital after having yet another surgery I dont need to come here to find a BBW basher sigh ok off my soap box now

For Anyone Who Knows Me......
The toughest thing in the world isn't beating someone with your superior mental or physical strength; the toughest thing in the world is being strong enough to be vulnerable. Take a risk and show your real self to someone who counts. and anyone who knows me....would look at this and know it`s probably one of the hardest things for me to do! But it`s my horoscope today so who knows maybe i`ll surprise myself....

To The Man I Love
you`ve taken the darkness, turned it into light. brought passion and loving, into my life. the burning deep desires, that i feel for you. the yearning and churning, the fire inside. like a sleeping volcanoe, you have brought me to life. the warm glowing feeling, never leave my seide. i love you my darling.xx

The Best Living Will I've Seen
I, MAXINE, being of sound mind and body, do not wish to be kept alive indefinitely by artificial means. Under no circumstances should my fate be put in the hands of pinhead politicians who couldn't pass ninth-grade biology if their lives depended on it, or lawyers / doctors interested in simply running up the bills. If a reasonable amount of time passes and I fail to ask for at least one of the following: Glass of wine chocolate Margarita chocolate Martini Cold Beer chocolate Chicken fried steak cream gravy chocolate Mexican food chocolate French fries chocolate Pizza chocolate ice cream cup of tea chocolate Chocolate Sex Chocolate it should be presumed that I won't ever get better. When such a determination is reached, I hereby instruct my appointed person and attending physicians to pull the plug, reel in the tubes and call it a day. There are two theories on arguin' with a woman. Neither one works!

Harry The Chicken ...
Harry came home drunk one night, slid into bed beside his sleeping wife, and fell into a deep sleep. He awoke before the Pearly Gates, where St. Peter said, "You died in your sleep, Harry." Harry was stunned. "I'm dead? No, I can't be! I've got too much to live for. Send me back!" St. Peter said, "I'm sorry, but there's only one way you can go back:...as a chicken." Harry was devastated, but begged St. Peter to send him to a farm near his home. The next thing he knew, he was covered with feathers, clucking, and pecking the ground. A rooster strolled past. "So, you're the new hen, eh? How's your first day here?" "Not bad," replied Harry the hen, "but I have this strange feeling inside. Like I'm gonna explode!" "You're ovulating," explained the rooster. "Don't tell me you've never laid an egg before?" "Never," said Harry. "Well, just relax and let it happen." Harry did, and a few uncomfortable seconds later, out popped an egg! Harry was ove

Rules For The Phone.
How ALL business phones SHOULD be answered! GOOD MORNING, WELCOME TO THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA . Press "1" for English. Press "2" to disconnect until you learn to speak English And remember, only two defining forces have ever offered to die for you: Jesus Christ and the American Soldier. One died for your soul, the other for your freedom. If you agree......keep it going

A Fade Away
My heart aches cause of the love slowly fades away. My thoughts plonder away at my mind like a jax hitting the ground. My spirit stares out my eyes making noise as it cries. That which you gave to me m'lady has left my soul laying there in the darkness undead. I have lost that which I truly desire in heart and soul. Now that you gone you will always be with me in my heart.

Written At A Different Time, Diferent Place
web of dreams lost in mist dependent on a single kiss yesterday gone away life awaits future fate thoughts unclear I can not hear see through haze all these days blind and deaf I know not yet confusion sets in all around I'll be lost, Untill I'm found one long glance lost in trance preparing me for what will be the time will come after the sun come face to face with my fate dreams will be my reality my life direction, at her discreation

Talents
Everyone has a particular calling and station in life. When we respond to this, we discover we have certain talents to fulfill our station in life. Our developed talents benefit us in a number of ways, including the ability to pursue and fulfill our station in life. In addition, another valuable benefit that developing our talents provides, is that of making a worthwhile contribution to society as a whole. There is a certain confidence and peace when we respond to our particular calling in life.

Protecting Yourself Against Heartbreak
I have been hurt many times throughout my life. I had built a wall around my heart to protect it and I met someone in high school and she was able to get behind the wall. I eventually put in a gate and then after a while I started to dismantle the wall and open myself up again. Then she decides she would rather be with someone else and basically just throws several pounds of C-4 where the wall used to be and sets it off. So this left me with a crater. I was starting to fill that crater in and I stumbled upon someone else and I thougth we got along great. Granted we hadn't spent that much time together but I was falling for her. Well I have been informed that she is now wanting to be with someone else. I will have to go get some bricks and mortar to start sealing off my heart again so this will not happen again. The only ones that have free access to my heart now is my 2 daughters. They are the only ones I trust with that access right now.

The Collar
A little boy got on the bus, sat next to a man reading a book, and noticed he had his collar on backwards. The little boy asked why he wore his collar backwards. The man, who was a priest, said. "I am a Father." The little boy replied. "My Daddy doesn't wear his collar like that." The priest looked up from his book and answered. "I am the Father of many." The boy said. "My Dad has 4 boys, 4 girls and two grandchildren and he doesn't wear his collar that way!" The priest, getting impatient, said. "I am the Father of hundreds" and went back to reading his book. The little boy sat quietly thinking for a while, then leaned over and said. "HMM - - -Maybe you should wear a condom and your pants backwards instead of your collar."

Always Dreamed About This New Life
now, it's done, i am single and this is so exciting... today it's laundry and i am in front of this stupid machine, let check all the steps so i don't fuck it all........ 1) sort clothes : ok, easy, dark on one side, clear on the other.... ok but what about deep orange ? dark or clean ??? hmmmmmmmm ok, we'lle see next time about this shirt 2) select the correct program : delicate 40°C seems ok... easy ironing porogram added and drying program for 1 hour : yeahhh sounds cool 3) turn on the machine : wait........ what don't is start ??? fuck... whay did i miss ???? i told you, so exciting..

How To Begin Each Day With A Positive Out Look
1. Open a new file in your computer. 2 Name it 'Hillary Rodham Clinton' 3. Send it to the trash. 4. Empty the trash. 5. Your PC will ask you, 'Do you really want to get rid of 'Hillary Rodham Clinton?' 6. Firmly Click 'Yes.' 7. Feel better. PS: Next week we'll do Nancy Pelosi

The Pentagram
The five-pointed star, or pentagram is one of the most potent, powerful, and persistent symbols in human history. It has been important to almost every ancient culture, from the Mayans of Latin America, to India, China, Greece, and Egypt. It has been found scratched on the walls of Neolithic caves, and in Babylonian drawings, where it marks the pattern the planet Venus makes on its travels- a secret symbol of the Goddess Ishtar. Scriptures, especially Hebrew, are abundant with references to pentagrams. So, why does this symbol have such a sinister reputation today? The Pentagram in the Ancient World The earliest pentagrams were rough diagrams found scratched into stone age caves. While they are believed to have some spiritual significance, the meaning of the star-shape to early humans is a mystery. In the civilizations that followed, it held various meanings, usually astronomical and religious. Pentagrams served to mark directions in Sumerian texts, and represented the five vis

Please Pray For My Aunt!!
My aunt Terri.. My mom brothers wife.. collopsed yesterday morning, at 11:00 o'clock lastnite.. She was and i hope still in ICU!!! With 10% of pulling through this... Her Kindeys and liver have failed to work..I feel sooo bad for my uncle ron.. The whole family rally together lastnight... Well look like a small concert... Sooo They didnt think she was going to make it lastnight.. I dont know, I hope someone calls and tell me she made throught the night.. I heard from my uncle she was taking vicdin... and was taking aspian on top of it.. and between the 2 broke down her liver.. but i saw her in ICU... My sister, cousin, his wife and another uncle was in there.. With my uncle ron.. Just sad to see this... I am asking all of you that read this.. to give my family and everyone that knows hers.. Give us strengh keep us strong.... I ask you that you pray for the kids involved that they dont lose their mother... Thanks All.. Jeannie

Explanation Of God
THIS ONE IS FABULOUS!!! It was written by an 8-year-old named Danny Dutton, who lives in Chula Vista, CA. He wrote it for his third grade homework assignment, to "explain God." I wonder if any of us could have done as well ? [ ...he had such an assignment, in California, and someone published it, I guess miracles do happen ! .. ] EXPLANATION OF GOD: "One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grownups, just babies I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way he doesn't have to take up his valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers." "God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times besides bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because he

Bicycling Season
It's here! Finally the weather is better & I can get out & bike again! Because I am cycling & working a new job I am not online all that much anymore. I am still looking for that special someone though so if you read my profile & think you wanna bike with me leave a message! ;) XO Kat

Rough Sex Facts
Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!! Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile. Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard .......................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal

Horror Movie Survival
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If the house you're living in tells you to "GO AWAY", do so immediately. Never take a bath or shower with a maniac/spirit/demon/creature in the house. When it appears that you have killed the maniac/spirit/demon/creature, DO NOT check to see if he/she/it is really dead. Keep hacking at it until it is in pieces small enough not to be a threat to you. If you've shot at it, shoot it again in the head, and remember, shoot till it stops moving, and then keep shooting till you're out of ammo. Then reload and shoot it some more. Then set it on fire and burn it up, this works with everything except demons and spirits. Then get the hell out of there! If plumbing fixtures or other structures in your home begin shaking and spewing body fluids, it's time to leave. Never read aloud from a book that summons demons. Even as a joke. Don't look under the bed. Do not search the basement, especially if t

Dreams/nightmares...
so heres my dreams for last night/this morning... im dreaming about breaking into a prison to get $152,000 with like 3 or 4 other people and when the prisoners find out we broke in they start to evacuate the building to find us, and we try to leave with them. i end up having the money on me in the end, so i get to the gate to leave and all my accomplocises have already escaped, but i cant find my id so they are leary of letting me go... thats how it ends with 2 of the escaped accomplocises coming back through the gate to try and take the money from me without the gaurd seeing, but i wont let em.... the end of that dream/nightmare....see thats what im talking about. i dont know how to classify my dreams/nightmares anymore... :P "how can i change tommorrow, if i cant change today?" - hatebreed

I Have Been Waiting...and Waiting... And Waiting...
Current mood: anxious Hey guys…so I know that it has been way too long since the last post. Reason? Well, I have not had any real exciting news for you. I still don't, but I can at least tell you what I know…and then give you the "hearsay". What I know is this…We have an amazing record finished! We have all the artwork for said record finished! We have a new myspace layout about to drop. (Yes I'm sure, I've seen the proof)! We have new merch! We have some shows booked! (Although still waiting on a tour). Soooo…. When is the record coming out? I honestly don't know. I've been trying to get answers from the label and management, but unfortunately, the business of setting up a record for release and radio is something I know very little about, and is too complex for them to explain it to me? What I can tell you is that there are people working very hard to put this thing together. The thing that everyone needs to understand, and what I need to understand, is that this is a crazy

Something To Think About.......
So this is my horoscope for today. I looked at it for several minutes, which is something I never do. I seem to read them, laugh and discard them. this one stuck out to me though. Maybe it's because I am always in the gym and the physical aspect stuck to me...... not sure. Tell me what you all think about this. The toughest thing in the world isn't beating someone with your superior mental or physical strength; the toughest thing in the world is being strong enough to be vulnerable. Take a risk and show your real self to someone who counts.

Wow, What A Day!
Blessed Beltane, dear friends! To make things a little more interesting, there is an energy wave cresting, getting ready to break, so to speak! Ride the wave, lol! Use the energy, if you know how and are able to use it! Let's not forget the full moon tomorrow morning! No wonder I feel unsettled and stirred up, lol! I've already attended two meetings this morning! Taking a break before I head to work, lol! At least I don't have clients until much later. Unfortunately, I will be much later getting home tonight - probably 8 p.m. or so! Everyone have a wonderful day, lol! Ride the energy wave! If it is too unsettling, ground and shield - you should be doing that anyway, my friends that are new to energywork! Much love and warm hugs for all! Blessings go out to all my friends/family/fans, all over the world! What a blessings you are to me! Later! Muah!

Quote For May 1
He who controls the present, controls the past. He who controls the past, controls the future. -- George Orwell Bonus Quote: I want to fly like an eagle To the sea Fly like an eagle Let my spirit carry me I want to fly like an eagle Till Im free Oh, lord, through the revolution -- Steve Miller This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Funny Shopping Experience
Woman Gets Expletive On Store Receipt Matt Bush, Online Content Producer Last Updated: 4/27/2007 3:42:11 PM A popular shoe store is trying to explain the outrageous receipt printed for a Texas shopper. The receipt looks harmless enough, until you start looking at the fine print, where there is a nasty surprise. Angie Martin is a Rewards Member at Famous Footwear, so you can imagine her reaction when she saw her name changed on a receipt to Angiestupid Martin with an expletive added at the end. "I was totally shocked I just I didn't know what to say," says Martin. Angie had made a complaint online after an unpleasant experience when she returned a pair of shoes. "The manager that was on duty was upset that I was doing it without a receipt. She gave a big sigh and didn't want to speak to me," said Martin. The district manager called and offered Angie a discount. "When I went to the counter to see if they had my discount and how long I could use it, they had

Anyone Want To Model With Me?
Photographer Plans Mexico Nude Shoot Apr 29, 6:57 PM (ET) By ISTRA PACHECO MEXICO CITY (AP) - American photographer Spencer Tunick said Sunday he was hoping to draw his largest crowd of nude people for a shoot next month in Mexico City's enormous Zocalo plaza. Tunick, famous for photographing crowds of nude people around the world, said the May 6 shoot could be bigger than one he did in 2003 with 7,000 volunteer models in Barcelona, Spain. "This could be my largest work ever," Tunick told a news conference. "We're really hoping that all eyes will be on Mexico City on May 6 because this could be ... bigger than Barcelona." The historic Zocalo plaza measures about 21,000 square yards - the size of about five football fields - and can fit up to 85,000 people standing. Tunick said last month that 3,700 participants had registered for the shoot. On Sunday, he said more were signing up but declined to give a figure. The Brooklyn, N.Y. artist said he had all the necessary pe

Here's A Normal Family. .
Indian woman locked in a room for 15 years by family Posted : Sun, 29 Apr 2007 09:10:00GMT New Delhi - Police in India's eastern state of West Bengal have rescued a 40-year-old-woman who was imprisoned by her husband and in-laws in a cramped room for 15 years because she did not get enough dowry, a newspaper reported Sunday. Police found Madhabi Das inside a room at her in-laws' residence in Baruipur district near the state capital Kolkata on Saturday, and said the woman had lost her sanity because of the long detention, the Times of India reported. Investigators said the woman had spent her youth inside a small and dark room as her in-laws and husband started demanding a huge dowry soon after her marriage. Police have meanwhile detained three members of her family including her mother-in-law and husband and sent Das to a mental asylum for treatment. Dowry is exchanged in a majority of Indian weddings though its practice became illegal in 1961. According to a UN report

May 01, 2007
Sometimes you gotta do something bad just to remind yourself how very good you are. Let someone else take on an extra project. Go see a matinee instead of doing housework. Have some -- what's that word? -- fun for once. --------------------------- Procrastination!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!

Chp 6
All was quiet at the waterfront and the bodies lay where they had fallen, disturbed only by the large waterfront rats. They could find no ship-master, so they agreed upon a small scow with a single sail. They loaded their gear and horses on it and set sail. Once they were well out of sight of land, Bruthar stretched out on the bottom of the boat. “We’ve both had a hard night of it, but your exertions were more pleasant, so I claim right to first rest. Keep us headed south by south-east and wake me an hour after the sun is up.” With that, he fell fast asleep. When Bruthar awoke, the world was a hazy, grey-white. They sailed along in a bank of thick fog that diffused the high sunlight. Bruthar stretched his stiff limbs and looked at Bryan, who was intensely scanning the clouded sea before them. “I thought I bade you to wake me an hour after sun-up. It looks to be near noon.” Bryan looked at the sky casually and nodded, “So it is. The fog overtook us near dawn and I wasn’t qui

Chp 7
They tethered their horses near the bank and built a small fire. They finished the last of the meal from Dover and some of the cheese and fruit from Ghent, along with a skin of that magnificent red wine. After they sated their hunger, Bruthar eased back with a pipe of tobacco – a luxury he stringently rationed – and called to Bryan. “Fetch your mando, brother. A night such as this could be made better only by your playing.” Bryan nodded and retrieved his instrument. He wet his throat with the wine, then sat down and tuned the strings. In time, he began to strum out chords and sing; “Listen now children, as I shall tell, Of the fall of King Brogdan at Gorums vale …” “Nay, brother. Tonight is not a night for history lessons. This is a night of bittersweet beauty. The sky is clear and the stars are bright but we are far from home and all we hold dear. Come now, we are brothers. Surely, you can feel it, too.” Bryan nodded in agreement. “Aye, I know of what you speak.” Bryan

School's In
Okay, I know I am jumping around with my fiction. Some is stuff I already have transcribed, some is on paper and needs to be entered, and some is still in my head, so I use this stuff as a buffer. Hey, variety is the spice of life. Disclaimer Most of the characters and events in this story are true. Nothing said in this story was done with malicious intent, or the purpose to cause harm. The names have been changed to protect all identity, however, if this is someday published and you recognize yourself, get in touch with me, and I will gladly share the royalties with you. I would be glad to see any of the real characters mentioned in here. This story is a semi-original work of pseudo-fiction, written by me, Bruce A. Lower, in this 1st month of 1990. Chapter 1 School’s In The stereo kicked on, and the blaring music nearly knocked me from the bed. I reached over and turned the volume to a tolerable level, smiling bleakly as Alice Cooper tried to convince

Night In The Abyss, The Beginning
Here is a piece of fiction a friend convinced me to write... "Left here, at this alley," Karen instructed Dennis. Dennis pulled into the turn lane and turned on his blinker, waiting for a clear path. He glanced over at Karen. "Um, are you sure? This looks like an abandoned warehouse or something." Karen sighed at the sound of the slight tremor in his voice. "Yes, Dennis, this is it. It is in an old abandoned warehouse. Most techno clubs are." Dennis drove slowly down the alley, and soon they were passing a number of cars and people in all manner of garish dress standing around, talking, smoking, and necking against the vehicles. He found an open spot and pulled in. As he set the parking brake, he glanced over at her and smiled. "Have I told you tonight how lovely you look?" Karen grinned outwardly, but sighed again inside……"Why thank you. You look pretty chic yourself." Karen was amazed she was able to get that out with a straight face. He was dressed in a white knit

Poem: The Honor To Say
I don't know what, to really say to, someone's else's Mother.. LOVE is very important, on this special day, and that's on the 13th of May.. YOU and to all Mother's, hold a special place, in my heart and I want, the honor to say HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.. Sign: Raymond Starns dated:5/98

Don't Forget Me
At night,when I'm alone I see the real me No mask to hide who I am The tears are now welcome As I cry myself to sleep I'm so tired of hiding myself away Pretending to be who I'm not Being untrue to who I am Just to please everyone else No-one knows how I feel inside I keep the walls up Protect myself And let everyone see a side of me that doesn't exist Each day I get ready Fake a smile and face the world Act polite and happy When I'm dead inside Don't feel like everyone else Just wanna be alone But that just leaves me time to wallow in self pity and unhappiness If you saw me cry Would you understand See that I'm only human And need to be helped like everyone else Would you turn away Because I'm acting like this Showing emotions,and not being afraid to present who I am I won't I never will I'm not selfish Don't want to ruin anyones expectations Or hurt peoples feelings So I'll hide who I am And cry when I'm alone I fall asleep

Trapped
the day goes on the sun has set but my love has not died yet you said to call and there you'd come but here i sit just me, alone was it a lie your song to me do you wish me to just let us be? but done we're not you and i both know will you give us a chance or will you let us just go?

Stay Or Leave
The sun comes up The world's day starts Except for me And my broken heart I had it all And walked it well With my back turned Everything fell Life's burned me In so many ways My soul lost in An internal maze I've found my voice And freed my heart But the damage is done With no place to start The love we had So pure and true Is drying up What can I do? Fight with passion Is all I know Will you stay? … or will you go?

Girl's Night Out
Girl's Night Out Imagine that you go out one night to a really nice bar with your friends and have a few cocktails ... They taste so good, so you have a few more and then the DJ plays your favorite oldie -- 'I Will Survive,' so you're off to the dance floor . After an hour or so of shakin' your goodies, the DJ plays that irritating head-banging music , so you rejoin the group for a rest and another cocktail, or three You notice a group of men standing nearby and one of them is looking at you. You look back at him and there is tangible chemistry between the two of you. YOU buy him a drink He lik! es a wo man who is not afraid to buy a man a drink. He approaches you to chat and you get along really well. When the time seems perfect for both of you, he leans over and kisses you . You have never been kissed like this before, an electric kiss and a tingle shudders through your entire body and you don't want it to stop. "I don't usually do thi

Market Research
FDA's Market Research In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic name. For example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen. The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin. Also considered were Mycoxafailin, Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix, and of course, Ibepokin. Pfizer Corp. announced today that Viagra will soon be available in liquid form, and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage suitable for use as a mixer. It will now be possible for a man to literally pour himself a stiff one. Obviously we can no longer call this a soft drink, and it gives new meaning to the names of "cocktails", "highballs" and just a good old-fashioned "st

Lonely
u know im gone for a couple days and when i finally get the chance to get back here whut do i find? NOTHING. now honestly for the most part it dont surprise me, but there are a couple people on here that i actually thought would contact me. but u know whut, i dont care nemore. ive started a new chapter in my lyfe. and from now on im not gonna let little shit worry me. and i realize now that i should have taken that adivce when it was given to me months ago. but i guess its better late thennvr huh? so if neone actually reads this and would like to keep in touch with me, sent me a msg and ill let u know how we can make that happen. to the rest, y do u keep coming to my page???? i really would like to know..........

My First Published Poem
The crooked corners of my mind are where i spend most of my time , hoping not to leave the edge and forever lose my mind . The edge is where the boundry ends , or maybe just begins . I've been beyond once or twice but can't remember how it ends . the end.

Disorder List
Resources Disorders that are usually first diagnosed in childhood or adolescence. Disorder List Click on the Disorder Name for more details Disorder Name Short Description Asperger's Syndrome Asperger's Disorder is a separate Autistic Spectrum disorder which does not meet criteria for other Pervasive Developmental Disorders or Schizophrenia. Features of Asperger's Disorder are severe and sustained impairment in social interaction and the development of repetitive patterns of behavior, interests and activities, and significant impairment in social, occupational and other important areas of functioning. Because there are no significant language delays or cognitive deficits, Asperger's is considered a form of high functioning autism. Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD), sometimes inaccurately referred to as ADD (There is no clinical term by this name) is a disorder usually first diagnosed in infancy, childhood or ado

Answer These! If We Had Sex........
1. Would you be in control? 2. Would you whisper in my ear? 3. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? 4. Would you say my name? 5. Would you go down on me? 6. Would you let me give you a hickie? 7. How many rounds would we go? 8. What would you wanna do afterwards? 9. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly? 10. Would you lick and bite me all over? 11. Would you like to play or get straight to the point? 12. Would you want me to take my time? 13. Would you want me to go fast or slow? 14. Where would you wanna "do it"? 15. Would you be loud or quiet? 16. Would you mind if i liked you? 17. Would you do it today? 18. Would you do it tomorrow? 19. Would you call me in the morning? 20. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you? Repost as "If we had sex".......see who responds

Darkened Souls
Darkened doors swing away Open up and show me the way Locks clang down to the floor As we crawl through the door Lead us to the path of light Make us in your perfect sight Keep me warm till dawn sets in and makes my blood flow pure again Breaths as deep as canyons low tears that stream and tears that flow Mindful cheers abound by few Who take a step upon the new Tired legs and broken heart tear me up and tear apart But silence is thy sword and stone To have to hold and be alone

What The Flags Mean! Lol
Above are the flags of racing. Well, where I come from this is what they mean: Green: means go or BOOGITY BOOGITY BOOGITY AS DW WOULD SAY Red: means stop, the whole field must stop where they are so that the track can be cleared. Blue/Orange: means move over for lapped cars Black: means get off the track White: means one lap to go Checkered (black/white): means IT'S OVER AND THE FIRST PERSON TO CROSS THE FINISH LINE WINS. Last but not least YELLOW: YELLOW MEANS CAUTION THERE IS A WRECK, BUT NOT FOR JEFF GORDON. I GUESS NASCAR THOUGHT SINCE HE WAS STILL SHITTING YELLOW THEY WOULD JUST LET THE YELLOW FLAG BE HIS "CHECKERED." I AM SURPRISED THEY HAVEN'T GOT A PINK ONE FOR HIM.

Look Into My Heart!
Look into my heart, You will see nothing dark, Nothing but love inside, Feelings of happiness abide, Why are people so scared? All i do is care, I have a heart of Gold, From what I been told! Get to know the real me! Maybe then you will see, This is one person whose real! This is one person who feels! Stop and take a look around, No need to put a human being down, I would do anything for my friends, Including being there till the end! Take the time to get to know me, Then you will see, I am not capable of telling a lie, Cause theres nothing but love and happiness inside!

I Miss You So
Though you are not here wherever I go or whatever I do I see your face in my mind and I miss you so I miss telling you everything I miss showing you things I miss our eyes secretly giving each other confidence I miss your touch I miss our excitement together I miss everything we share I don't like missing you It is a very cold and lonely feeling I wish that I could be with you right now where the warmth of our love would melt the winter snows But since I can't be with you right now I will have to be content just dreaming about when we'll be together again... One More Day VideoOne More Day lyrics - Diamond Rio lyricsDiamond Rio Music Videos

Feelings!
Feelings, am I not allowed to share? Feelings, should i just not care? Feelings, should i just set them aside? Feelings, should i just let them die? Feelings, does anyone care? Feelings, does anyone want to be there? Feelings that are heart felt and deep, Feelings that I would love to keep! Should i change my thoughts and desires? Should i extinguish this passionate fire? Should I change my heart inside? Should I just suddenly hide? Should i give up what I believe? Should i stop caring what people see? Should I turn to thoughts of hate? Should I close the gate? The gate to my feelings inside, Feelings of human pride! Should i set aside my very desires of my heart? Should i give in to the dark? Should I no longer care? If anyone is there?

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I got my medicine today! I just hope I dont have any reaction to it or anything.. I cleaned my house.. yeah its freakishly clean.. im tired of being the only one who does anything.. but, at least I have the satisfaction knowing its mine I cleaned it and its all thanks to me.. I am tired WAY TIRED of people lying to me.. wtf? why cant people be honest and just be them.. I have thought about moving out of state.. back to iowa.. and living with my parents.. there isnt much keeping me here anymore.. but I do this.. I get uneasy and run from shit.. instead of facing it.. I guess its my way of dealing with it.. I wish people cared about me and how I feel.. but what friends I do have I am thankful for.. I just thought people were different.. but I guess I was wrong... I am such a good person.. And have changed things drastically in my life.. for me and not anyone else.. but still im miserable... I am goin to be alone for the rest of my life.. so fuck.. why wait anylonger... ma

I Want To Live My Next Life Backwards...
I want to live my next life backwards... You start out dead, and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old age home feeling better everyday You get kicked out for being too healthy:go home and collect your pension. Then..... when you start work you get a gold watch on your first day. You work 40 years until your young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party, your generally premiscuous and you are ready for High School. You go to Elementry School, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a baby, and then..... you spend 9 months floating peacefully in luxerious spa-like conditions with central heating, room service on tap, and larger quarters everyday... And then you finish off as an orgasm. I rest my case

Just My Own Thoughts
today i was out and heard someone tell another friend that looks are everything......well maybe for some that is true but for me its not sure looks matter a little but what really counts is what is in someones heart...sitting down and getting to know someone and finding out what they like and dislike what makes them tick and what they and know and have learn..another thing if you only choose people with looks or ones who have these awsome bodies then the word shallow should follow you were ever you go...look deeper then looks or the way someone is built curves and pretty blues maybe nice to look at but if there is nothing going on upstairs then its going to be a pretty boring time after you get past the looks...just dont judge on looks listen to the person and see what they are all about before you turn and walk away because if you dont stop and get to know them you may have just walk away from a really good friend.....

What Love Is Not
Love is not, telling someone you dont want to be with them, then freaking out when they find someone else... Love is not, making your significate other feel like shit for talking to other people, when they themselves are doing the same... Love is not, giving your gf/bf a guilt trip for wanting to borrow money... Love is not, letting your best friend be rude to your gf/bf and not saying anything to them..... Love is not, being stengy with your money till they take off them giving them the world.... Love is not, sufficating.... Love is not, keeping track on everything i do and everyone i talk to, and Love is not made of money, even though it helps, love takes time and with me it will be a long wait... but remember.... you can't buy me love

Job Interview
Four men were sitting around a conference room table being interviewed for a job. The interviewer asked, "What is the fastest thing you know of?" The first man replied, "A thought. It pops into your head, there's no forewarning that it's on the way; it's just there. A thought is the fastest thing I know of. "That's very good," replied the interviewer. "And now you, sir," he asked the second man. "Hmmm, let me see..... a blink!," said the second man. "It comes and goes and you don't know it ever happened. A blink is the fastest thing I know of." "Excellent!", said the interviewer. "The blink of an eye. That's a very popular cliché for speed." He then turned to the third man who was contemplating his reply. "Well, out on my dad's property, you step out of the house and on the wall there is a light switch. When you flip that switch, way across the paddock the light at the barn comes on in an instant. Turning on a light is the fastest thing I can think of." The inte

When I Must Leave You
When I Must Leave You When I must leave you for a little while Please do not grieve and shed wild tears And hug your sorrow to you through the years. But start out bravely with a gallant smile; And for my sake and in my name Live on and do all things the same, Feed not your loneliness on empty days, But fill each waking hour in useful ways, Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer And I in turn will comfort you And hold you near; And never, never be afraid to die, For I am waiting for you in the sky!

I'm Free
I'm Free Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free. I'm following the path God has laid you see. I took His hand when I heard Him call, I turned my back and left it all. I could not stay another day. To laugh, to love, to work or play. Tasks left undone must stay that way. I found that peace at the close of the day. If my parting has left a void, then fill it with remembered joys. A friend shared, a laugh, a kiss. Oh yes, these things I too will miss. Be not burdened with times of sorrow. I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My life's been full, I savored much. Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch. Perhaps my time seemed all too brief. Don't lengthen it now with undue grief. Lift up our hearts and peace to thee. God wanted me now; He set me free!

Reasons Public Schools Fail To Educate
Here are some reasons why government schools are prone to failure and can't be fixed. See John Taylor Gatto's web site for more indepth discussion and analysis (www.johntaylorgatto.com)... (Gatto was the 1991 New York state teacher of the year.) ...You're my hero, John! (1) Critical thinking skills are basically omitted. When's the last time you remember seeing a school offer a basic course in elementary logic or had an in-class debate on important questions of life? (2) Failure to discuss any of the big questions of life, as though they are irrelevant or unimportant. When is the last time any school class involved any discussion of concepts such as evil, life after death, man's purpose for existence, the foundations of ethics, and ethical choices are justified, etc? In fact, when is the last time the whole purpose of education was ever discussed? These types of questions are at the very core of man's inner being, yet are never discussed. Why not? Maybe producing independent-th

Letter From Heaven
Letter From Heaven To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say. But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you. It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone. As far as your dearest family, they'll be here later on. I need you here badly, you're part of my plan. There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you... in the middl

The A To Z Of Me
A] - AVAILABLE: nope [B] - BIRTHDAY: 7-8-70 [C] - CONFUSED: a little.... [D] - DRINK U HAD LAST: an orange pop [E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: my self and a good friend of mine [F] - FAVORITE MUSIC GROUP/BAND: hmm the list is a long one [G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: i guess worms but neither can scream when u bite off thier heads [H]- HOMETOWN: born seattle wa [I]- INSTRUMENT(s): idk [J] - JUICE: orange i guess [K] - KILLED SOMEONE: in real life or in my dreams?? [L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE:dunno been a while since i got to go on a road trip [M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: peanutbutter and chocolate.. [N] - NUMBER OF PETS: none at the moment...miss mine tho... [O] - ONE WISH: to be stable and happy and loved and secure all for just being me [P] - PERSON WHO YOU KISSED LAST?: my kids [Q]- QUIT A JOB?: yes [R] - REASONS TO SMILE: my children my real friends and the one i love [S] - SONG YOUR LISTENING TO: Flyleaf broken wings on repeat at the moment...kate bush this womans work

The Day The Penis Asked For A Raise
The Day the Penis asked for a Raise I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. I work in a damp environment. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures. My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely, P. Niss The Response: Dear Penis: After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons: You do not work 8 hours straight. You fall asleep after brief work periods. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative, you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. You leave the workplace rather

True Friendship
True friendship(with none of that sissy crap).Here are a series of promises that speak of true friendship. You will find no cutesy smiley faces-just the stone cold truth of our great friendship. 1.When you are sad....I will help you get dunk and plot revenge against the sorry SOB who made you that way. 2.When you are blue....I will do my best to dislodge whatever is choking you. 3.When you smile....I will think you finally got laid. 4.When you are scared....I will rag on you about it every chance I get. BOO!! 5.When you are confused....I will use smaller words. 6.When you are sick....Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want to catch whatever you have. 7.When you fall....I will point at your clumsy ass and laugh. This is my oath. I pledge it to the end. Why, you may ask? Because you are my friend. *****And always remember...when life hands you lemons, call me. I'll bring the taquila! I assume you have the salt?*****

Im So Much More Relaxed Now....
This weekend I actually got to be a Bud Girl. Very Cool. There was a promotion going on for the Bud Beach House and I was trying to convince already drunk people to buy some Bud Light :) I also got to talk about the Beach House Book-www.beachhousebook.com, which I guess is best described as a Face Book of sorts for those lucky enough to have shore houses so everyone can network and hook up.... I was very enthused to finally replace my pocket rocket, which for those of you not in the loop is probably THE best vibrator on earth. Somehow I have managed to burn through 3 of them-even when I have a lover it gets a lot of use ;) I replaced it yesterday and gave it a trial go. Bless whoever thought that thing up :)

Oprah Quizzie My First Blog Post Pop Tha Cherry.
Below is Dr. Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out! Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Answers are for who you are now --- not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon / early evening c) late at night My answer:c 2. You usually walk... a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly My answer:c. 3. When talking to people you... a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair My answer:c 4. When relaxing, you sit with... a) your knees bent with

Break Me !
They all tried and failed, broken bones and bruises. Still I go on living my life, because I want to live. Why do they try and "Break me", many have and they are no longer here. Survivor is what a I am, against all odds my entire life. Not strong enough, short and overweight, but my spirit is what keeps me going. For that nobody can break! God, my angel and I is what I have. So to all the demons of the world, you can all stop now. Because I just get stronger, what doesn`t kill you will do that. She tried to "Break me", and so did he. You know what, I spit in both your faces! Oh yeah, and next time try harder. But I know it want work, for no man or woman can.... "Break Me" !!!

Brand New Start
Put down the bottle, that want solve anything. Cant you see all the happiness, to my life that you bring. I see the tears in you eyes , and all you talk about is fear. Why do you do these things to me, cant you just let me love you ,my dear. All we really need is each other, to get through our miserable life. Wont you just come to me, and I will make you my wife. We can share each others hopes and dreams, why is it so hard for you to see. That all I want is for you to be happy, even if you have to be without me. I don't know what there is to come, but I do know where we have been. Anything can be better than, what we went through back then. No drinking will not help us, and neither will doing dope. Just let God show us, and please have a little hope. For I know life isn't easy, and we both have had a broken heart. But there is nothing better, than getting a Brand New Start!!!

Have Questions About Hydrogen?
http://www.silverwoodenergy.com/hydrofaqlarge.htm I found that to be a pretty good source of information. "Biomass" "solor radiation" ? ... we have that in spades. Now... Let's move our attention to conspiracy, webs of oil companies and the government and vetos. Have a nice day.

My Horoscope For The Day, Sometimes These Things Are So True!!
Sometimes you gotta do something bad just to remind yourself how very good you are. Let someone else take on an extra project. Go see a matinee instead of doing housework. Have some -- what's that word? -- fun for once. So I need 2 find someone to do my work 4 me haha Lord knows I need to have some fun!! lol

Size Doesnt Matter
Meet a pretty lady at a bar, she even has her own car. Told me she can make me a star, maybe that is going a little to far. So we go outside, and take a little ride. She begins to move over to my side, I am looking for a place to hide. So she take it out and starts sucking my cock, I found a place to park,down by the dock. There are geese in the pond beginning to flock, until I hear the sound of the town clock. Damn, honey you sure work pretty fast, she says I just hope that you can last. Then all of a sudden she fills a blast, in her throat, Shit, I came to fast. We are really getting into it, and I like it I have to admit. She pulls harder on my ass, she really is good enough to give a class. She moans and says ahhh, that`s right, lets not waste the rest of the night. She gives me just a little bite, and I fuck her with all my might. She really does have a nice place, but on her bed we are running out of space. I brought some protection just in case, I still pull it out and cum on he

Shy Little Angel
You watch him from afar, always afraid to be seen. Ashamed of yourself, and all the embarrassment you might bring. You don`t even know your own worth, just want to meet someone who cares. Then you see him looking back, at you, it turns into a stare. Don`t know what to do, but still afraid to take a chance. Go and grab him girl, or he will be gone in a glance. You will never know , unless you go up to him and try. Never know with him, he may be just as shy. All you have to do is open up yourself, and show him your winning smile. As a matter a fact, I know that is not your style. Sometimes we just have to go against our mind, and go with what is in our heart. So go up and talk to him, that would be a really good start. Just let yourself free, and let your true feelings show. After all you will never know, and the worst he can tell you is no. Have some courage and go get what you want, for you are pretty , that much is true. Even if he does tell you to go away, that just means he doesn`t

Its Me!!
im bored so i thot id drop in and ramble.... things i like....dragons, my truck (cuz she so fly!!) i built that too!! tattoos, ink, airbrush, art...things no one knows about me ?? hhmm....i like old movies(john wayne westerns..fav is mcclintock..the red head (yes i know her name) was hot for an old lady ..lollol) i am a published writer, artist,poet, photographer....i can do anythng artistic...just gimme 2.2 secounds!! lol the only chevy i will admit to likeing is a CORVETTE...theres nothing like a 63 split window!! the only ford i will admit to is....a thunderbird..the old like 50's n 60's!! music...well...everything from rap, joan jett, malissa etheridge....aint to crazy about country but theres ust sumpin bout the way terri clark looks!! got to meet her summer of 05!! we even talked DODGE....cuz she gots one!! loli will stop here.... anything u wanna know?? ask!! later!! S

Silence
can you hear it late at night, do you ever see it in the light, i even here it when it is in the rain, and it brings me so much shame, i want to stop these voices in my head, they tell me i should just drop dead, i know i want to live instead, cant drive them all out of my head, voices are everywhere can you hear what they say, silence is what i want to hear, these other things are bleeding my ears, stop it, stop it , you got me in tears, oh my god , can you hear it, is that a cry for help, maybe it is my heart beginning to break, or maybe it is the silence, thats what i really want to hear!!!!! SILENCE!!

''don't Pump Gas On May 15th"
Don't pump gas on may 15th ...in April 1997, there was a "gas out" conducted nationwide in protest of gas prices. Gasoline prices dropped 30 cents a gallon overnight. On May 15th 2007, all Internet users are to not go to a gas station in protest of high gas prices. Gas is now over $3.00 a gallon in most places. There are 73,000,000+ American members currently on the Internet network, and the average car takes about 30 to 50 dollars to fill up. If all users did not go to the pump on the 15th, it would take $2,292,000,000.00 (that's almost 3 BILLION) out of the oil companies pockets for just one day, so please do not go to the gas station on May 15th and lets try to put a dent in the Middle Eastern oil industry for at least one day. If you agree (which I cant see why you wouldn't) resend this to all your contact list. With it saying, ''Don't pump gas on May 15th"

First Blog :-)
Hello every.. I've been on myspace so long I got tired of it. So I decided to try this out. Well a lil about me..I love posing naked and I'll try anything and everything sexual. I've taped most of it, hehe. I love getting pounded doggie. I also enjoy licking and playing with my Double E breasts. Check out my site at www.thickcaramel.com I'm doin to site to raise money for me to go to school in the fall, so even if you only sign up just to help me that would be appreciated :-) Holla at me anytime. -Thick Caramel

Illegals Protest??????
Okay screw being "PC" for a minute. What the hell is going on here? Illegal immigrants took the streets to protest what exactly? What that they dont have special rights? Rights like the LEGAL citizens on this country? Does that make sense to anyone? No they dont have the same rights as citizens of this country and they shouldnt have the same rights. What they should get is deported!! Before you start crying about their feelings and shit, lets look at another example. If I have a kid and no money, is it okay for me to go steal some, or will I go to jail for it? Its the same thing here, a crime is a crime. If you want to come to America, do it the right way. But if you come here illegally then you should get deported plain and simple. A fucking rally? My God, they should have have a bunch of INS trucks there and checked green cards. As far as the legals protesting, shut the fuck up! You dont have anything to bitch about. Dont like it? LEAVE! Go back to the place you didnt want t

Setting The Record Straight
Just for the record, as I have received countless messages of random hate and insults, and no, I am not a BBW HATER.(REPEAT, I DON'T HATE BBW'S) People that I don't know are projecting their hatred towards me; it just shows nothing but a demonstration of the self hatred that they have for themselves. For the ones that foolishly follow for the sake of just throwing cheap shots, are nothing but insecure cowards that use this site to promote their self worth via a rating system and follow around like a pack of wolves! I gave this woman a 1 rating! So what, get over it. This world is not designed for everyone to think you are a 10. I give a 10 when I feel a person deserves, and not just so they can give me a 10 in return. The rating system has 10 numbers for those that can count which means we have 10 choices. well, really 11 if you don't want to rate at all.

Dating Sucks
I was seeing this guy for about a month, and one night we were suppose to go to a party. But instead he text messaged me and broke up with me. How nice! 6 hours later he was kissing all over another woman, and took her to the party. I just happened to be there, that was a blast. But i don't get it now he wants me around again, and hardly ever talks or see's the other woman. Should I move on, and say fuck it. Or do I give him abother chance?

More Beltane Lore
Beltain Beltain is that point in the year when you normally feel the springtime has arrived at long last and you just want to be a part of the Earth and the things that are growing in it. Each Beltain we try and connect with that spirit of lightness and growth that signifies the season and this includes your garden, your mind and your spirit. If you are lucky enough to be a part of a large group, you could make a traditional May Pole and do a dance around it. This is an old pagan rite that personifies the mating of nature with all things. You need a pole that is at least 16 feet long, and it should taper from the bottom to the tip in a gradual way. Each person that is taking part in the rite brings a ribbon that is 16 feet long. (Urge them to bring different colors.) The ribbons are attached to the top of the pole with a length left swinging free. The pole needs to be put into the ground very firmly, some people use a 5 gallon bucket filled with sand and then sunk in

If You're Going To Slaughter Us...
Here's a tip for all you would-be mass killers and the like. If you're going to slaughter an office full of strangers, it's not a good idea to call the office first and leave a message stating you are planning on slaughtering everyone at said office. It kind of tips people off, and gives them a chance to call the police. And now I have to go out and buy a stupid security camera. All because some idiot decided to be... wait for it.... and idiot.

San Jose Sabre Cats
I was in San Jose for the first time to see a Arena Football League game and I tell you what... that was an exciting game. Fast, and very exciting from the start to the end. San Jose beat Utah 69 - 48 to get the first place position for the western division. If you have not seen an AFL game before... do so... cheap tickets and a family entertainment that cannot be beat. We may see the game in San Jose on June 16th against Arizona. That will be the second to the last game in the season. 36d hugs, Ms. Cleavage

From The Crow
I've lived a thousand lifetimes to Find a soul like yours. A soul so pure, a soul so brave. An angel who takes my breath away. I want to lie with you forever. I want to sheild you from all evil. Protect this love we found. Love me with your sprit. Promise we'll never part. We are the same as other lovers. We Are Forever

I Was Reminded
as we lay there quite I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively your laugh, and the way it tempted me your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me as we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons I love you your smile, and the way it brings such life into me your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts as we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you your smile, and the way it confuses me your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me youe eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

On My Page...
This Is How It Works.... Family-- Gets a lot of Comments and rates, Gets to use shout out box and see all pictures.---- IF you want to become family and are not on it just show me some more love or if you feel u have already done so just message me..... Friends-- get some rates and a comment here and there, Use shout out box, and access to all Pictures--- To become a friend just add.... Fans-- Get a profile rating, and fanned bck (sometimes b/c I can't keep up with all of you) then basiclly nothing lol unless u are both a fan and a friend.... Regaurdless of what u are I still love ya.... I know right?? absolutely pointless now u can go bck to reality...lol riri

Winds Come Whistle
Winds come whistle howl across the vista of the imagination sprinkled dreams of starlike qualities tender mercies lost inside a vision that was laying on an empty seat in some coach or another travelling to another town that no ones ever been to or ever will again changing as it does with every shifting grain of sand scattered by the breeze and if a tear should wake the dead and grant them dreams anew then maybe we'll dance again maybe me and you...

So You Are Calling Me A Piece Of Redneck Trailer Trash?
So you are calling me a piece of redneck trailer trash? I'm sure it was intended as an insult, but it was actually a compliment, let me explain why. Once upon a time, a long, long time ago, there was a place called the old world, and in the old world there were lots of King and queens, and Lords and Ladies, and as well as those people there was millions and millions of dirt poor people, who toiled the lands with the bare hands, so the Kings and queens, and Lords and Ladies, could all wear nice fancy dresses (yeah, even guys wore dresses back then), and go to parties, and eat nice food, while the dirt poor people shivered in the cold and dark, and went hungry and died from diseases, and other equally nasty things. Now one day this guy is out in his boat, looking to score some goods to get in favor with one particular king or queen, so that he might get enough money to buy a pretty dress, and go to some of these fancy pants parties, when instead of finding some spices, or whatev

You
Close your eyes, come on close them, now take a deep breathe, hold it there for 30 seconds. Don't open your eyes yet. Smell the air? Soak up the aromas around you. Do you smell the fresh day ahead of you? Do you smell the newness of it all? Now let your mind let go of those old, stale thoughts of yesterday, the last few hours, the last few minutes and let in the the new, fresh thoughts of NOW. Don't go back to what was, let it go and move ahead w/a freshness of starting this very second NOW. Hold onto it, don't let it go. Take the bad w/the good, use it to grow within yourself. Take what you need to nourish the growth of yourself internally, but discard what is not nourishing you. Throw out the trash thoughts, talk, motives, and actions. Each day gives us an opportunity to start over and let go of the dirt, rubble and burnt ashes left on our souls, hearts and minds. Dust yourself off and go again for the gusto. Do not give up or let others discourage you. Hold

A Special Thanks To All My Wonderful Friends That Helped Me Win!!
I just wanted to thank all the wonderful ppl that helped me win the 7 day blast! U all Rock! & I ♥ u guys! =D Show them some Cherry Luvin, they deserve it!! Ðĵ Çã§ђ™[Lµ¢¥s CT Hubby][#38 S*U*P*][CT 24/7 Krew][SiK #3][Founder of RAWR] Rate me H2 Amanda tastyflutterby laurel WOLF- Member of Club F.A.R. Darksider ~Insane Asylum Rejects~ Black Panther Medic BRAD - ©REAL MEN WEAR PINK ™® fuccky Club F.A.R Member(Everyone Sign My GuestBook) Finster Baby L1ps_0f_an_Ang3l77 [Owned by Dj Cash][CLUB F.A.R. Member] Ңŷđяø°°Đą Řє

Moving?
Alright, so I just found out that we are moving...for the 4th year in a row. This is a move I have wanted to make for quite a while now. Syracuse, NY to be exact. Same city as hubby's family and an hour away from my parents and my brother. I am incredibly happy to be moving to a place where we both actually have roots. But... It's moving. moving sucks, and as I have mentioned, this will be the 4th year in a row. It would be our last move for a very very very long time. Perhaps until the kids move out. But this move involves more work than the usual move because it was a house that was inherited, his parent's stuff is all still there. more than 30 years worth of stuff to be exact. The feeling is bittersweet. I need a cigarette. I need a beer. I can't get a beer, but I can certainly have a cancer stick. I need to go and buy a kitchen scale so that I can print my ebay shipping labels at home. That is all.

Friendliest Cherrytap User Contest!!!
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Right Through You
I recall the scent of you when everything was fine I remember all the words stuck inside my mind Cause all the promises were nothing else but lies I don't have to look at you to see it in your eyes I see right through you Everything's broken I see right through you Everything's gone Everytime I close my eyes I picture you inside Though I know I've lost it all, forever you'll be mine But all the fears inside lme left me with your lies I just have to look at you to see it in your eyes I see right through you Everything's broken I see right through you Everything's gone Now I'm leaving this behind I'll erase you from my mind You were never meant to be mine

For The Girls... Lmao
For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Nowadays, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage. Men are like.... 1. Men are like ...Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you. 2. Men are like. Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like ......Weather . Nothing can be done to change them. 4. Men are like .Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why. 5. Men are like ..... Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips. 6. Men are like .... Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say. 7. Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off. 8. Men are like .....Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature. 9. Men are like .....Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion. 10. Men are like

The Vampire
It was a clear morning when we were dropped off in the North Beach area of town, to be honest it was a relief, it had been foggy enough the last few days and we thought we'd be greeted by thick sea mists that would spoil the trip. There wasn't that many of us, there was a family from Arizona, I think the father had lived in frisco during the 60's and was bring the family home to look at the magical places that lived on in his mind, then there was a young guy from Portland, quiet, slim guy, and myself, and another young guy joined us as we reached the golden gate park, I took him for a local, I'm not sure why, he just looked at home there, I also think he may have been some kind of artist cuz he had a large pad of paper and a case with him that looked like the sort of case you carry paints in. At first he intrested me quite a bit, his local knowledge seemed useful, the tales of the city, the sights, the sounds, the history and culture, but I soon turned from him cuz he talked to much

;;electric!
;;I see you, in the sun && the moon, in the morning, in the night time, whenever, where ever, you are every where, in every thought I think, and every dream I have, you are... and the very moment that you vanish, will be the death of me, the end of being, of dreaming, of loving, of breathing, because without you I am... Close your eyes, and think of me, join with me, in this fantasy, where our worlds are united, and our dreams can come true, me and you, electric... Je suis un porn star, when I think of you... rawrrr!!!

Life
What does life mean to you? At this time mine sucks and has no meaning at all to it. Like having that dark an lonely feeling Just like a lifeless body A life that has no meaning, feels like a heart that has stopped beating Life as i see it now is like a road that has come to an abrupt end. Or even a fire that burns ever so strong and vibrant and in a moments notice gets put out by an abundance of water Life is like a flower that has had its petals wilted away Only to thrive and crave a drink of water Its even like dirty dishwater that sits just waiting to be drained from the sink Life is like not getting ya cherry on top of your hot fudge sundae. Life is like a clock that has stopped running cause the batteries have died. My life is full of anger and despair. Only to have the feeling of hate and no good Also as of now it is meaningless and no good Life as of now feels more like death then it does life it self

Written By Poet
Drugstore Princess Gliding through The mall Acknowledging my Subjects with a Nod & a wave of My umbrella scepter… Lightly stepping (In my Princess Slippers) My eyes admire My shoes, sparkling with Their small inset Mirrors, tasseled Purple – Pier One Dreams of Persian Royalty (in My Princess Slippers) I am draped with my Apron as if it was a Gown of Ermine and Sidle up to My counter, Smiling countenance – “May I help you?” (In my Princess Slippers) Prince Charming will Come, passionate love We make, my Feet pressed tightly To the small of His back (In my Princess Slippers) But I know that I will continue To sell the Ben Gay and tampons Until I change me – for me, Maybe in need to Assert me – for me, Should I trade In my Princess Slippers (for say - Jackboots)? Poet 37 years ago

Just Me In My Own World
I'm sittin home all alone, another love gone wrong. Another time,another place A new day a different face another way to make it through, Its like starring in a mirror looking at you. When I see myself looking back. Nothing ventured,nothing gained I can't feel the pain. Another knife cutting through, its just like you, to leave me life before you standing right in front of me all I needed, left me falling to my knees.

Thanks Alot Friends
I posted a bulletin about a dying child and no one can even take the time to read it.But you put something up there about sex and everyone does.Thank you i wont post another its a waste of my time and a waste of bulletin space that could be used for something more important then a dieing child.Have a good night !!!!!

Lullaby (baby)
I sing to you a lullaby, The words I’ve never known, But I open up my heart, And this is how it goes, Sleep so softly little angel, And know you’re surrounded with love, From your mother and father, And the good lord above, Rest peaceful our child, So safe and warm, Cradled and wrapped up tight, Safe from the world, Cuddle up quiet, With out a care, And sleep so peaceful, The answer to our prayers, Dream so sweetly, As I rock you to sleep, know I'm always here for you, to tend your every need, I lay you down gently, kiss your little eyes, tuck you little angel, sleep tight,

So I Says To Mabel, I Says...
So this broad Mabel at work keeps transferring actual subscribers to my phone. As if I care about their problems. As if I'm not already so overwhelmed by the sheer volume of crap I have to sort through each day for the dozen or so evil, manipulative clients and their evil, manipulative marketing teams. And the phone calls make my head itch. It itches with the itching of what I imagine a thousand itchy infections of a thousand less-than-clean *wink wink nudge nudge* must itch. My large, shiny head itches. And it's Mabel's fault. I shall blame Mabel for everything. I have no idea what that was all about. But it's Mabel's fault.

The Confessional
A married Irishman went into the confessional and said to his priest, "I almost had an affair with another woman." The priest said, "What do you mean, almost?" The Irishman said, "Well, we got undressed and rubbed together, but then I stopped." The priest said, "Rubbing together is the same as putting it in. You're not to see that woman again. For your penance, say five Hail Mary's and put £20 in the poor box." The Irishman left the confessional, said his prayers, and then walked over to the poor box. He paused for a moment and then started to leave. The priest, who was watching, quickly ran over to him saying, "I saw that. You didn't put any money in the poor box!" The Irishman replied, "Yeah, but I rubbed the £20 on the box, and according to you, that's the same as putting it in!" There once was a religious young woman who went to Confession. Upon entering the confessional, she said, "Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned." The priest said, "Conf

Fucking Asshole People
some mother fucker ripped off my 'pussy is low carb' button from my leather jacket. what the fuck. seriously. that shit is uncalled for, rude, impolite and all that other shit. im down with bein a dick and liberating shit from people and places which dont deserve whatever the fuck im liberating, but to take MY shit, off MY coat...thats bullshit. cause i represent. and the bartender found another one of my buttons on the ground when he was cleaning. no one has ever bastardized my shit like that before. im fucking mad. i cant even look at the missing spot cause i start to have a panic attack. that shit aint gonna get replaced. even if it does...it aint the same. but your ever in crown town and see someone other than this fine piece of sexy wearin a button that says 'pussy is low carb'...smack em in the mouth and take that shit...ill give ya a reward or somethin.

For An Ex-named Justin
I breathe, and you suck the life from within me I see, who you really are, But, I know who you used to be when nobody else could see you A guy like you stands out too into him self to care, you played it out. And I was to naive to see, when i was "18". I never knew the screwed up side to you everything u used to do. So who can you Trust? Who can you Love? Where can you Go,When nobody sees the tears falling down your cheeks? Where can you Escape the bitterness? Well, fate never brought you back and my whole world fell apart and nothing ever felt the same since that day,that year. Where did this go wrong? Whose to know what might have happend had I stayed What happends next? Who cares about anyone now? Its clear to see you never gave a damn about me. Theres no escape when your already gone. Its like you were never here. And I know its 3 yrs too late in Life searching for answers, that never existed all along.

Kiss Me Softly...
Kiss me softly, your supple rosy lips bringing pleasure to mine. A deep kiss so long that the thought melts my heart with each kiss. My heart yearns deeply for each long, deep kiss as a beat. A beat that skips for every thought I have when you're not here.

My Lover...
My Lover touches me, I flow with feelings. I get excited and giggle as she tickles my arm. I smile with pleasure as she touches my body. I love her as she writhes with pleasure. My lover touches me, I flow with feelings.

God Damnit...
oh yeaher.... so last night at work i had to work with the boss man owner guy. he haTes when i read at work. which i do when we're dead and theres no conversation or ANYTHING for that matter and im tired of looking at the floor, ceiling, out the window, walls, etc. oh...i also like to read my books when i poop at work too. so im leavin last night and my books missing. what the fuck. seriously. shit dont just get up and walk away. i looked. made it known i was pissed, but that it was late and id look wedsnday when im again with this boss guy. that mother fucker better not have fucked with my shit. period. i been on thin ice for the last couple o months. i will destroy. rawr.

Longing...
Can you feel the longing, the needing in my heart? For I long to hold you close, in my heart I need. To hear you breathe, to feel your touch. The softness of your skin, your gentle way of loving me. I long to hear you talk to me, to say those lovely words... I need you...

To My Asshole Grandparents,who Never Gave A Damn About Me...
How can you do the best with what you have, when you have nothing? How is nothing something, when you have nothing inside? I'll give you a piece of my mind I'll pour myself a glass of wine I'll let you keep wasting your own time I'll let you go ahead and keep talking This is when I start walking maybe,its just hopeless,hoping you'll come around This is me blocking out the sound, of your big mouths, Keep Talking... I wont hear you I can't listen to this can you read the words off my lips??? You can't make something out of nothing, You can't touch and reach for something thats not here. I waited half my life, for grandparents like you to love but, you never came around and I dont need u no more. I can't cry anymore when you hurt me I dont care about you, you let me down Everytime. And i've been wasting my Life, my heart, and now i'm living it apart from you.

The Starter Pistol
A man was having problems with premature ejaculation so he decided to go to the doctor. He asked the doctor what he could do to cure his problem. In response, the doctor said, "When you feel like you are getting ready to ejaculate, try startling yourself." That same day the man went to the store and bought himself a starter pistol. All excited to try this suggestion, he ran home to his wife. At home, he found his wife was in bed, naked and waiting. As the two began, they found themselves in the 69 position. The man, moments later, felt the sudden urge to ejaculate and fired the starter pistol. The next day, the man went back to the doctor. The doctor asked, "How did it go?" The man answered, "Not that well... when I fired the pistol, my wife shit on my face, bit 3 inches off my penis and my neighbor came out of the closet with his hands in the air!"

Social Retardation.
Just as a reminder, I am what scientists call "socially retarded". At some point I will say or do something that will make you think, "Holy hell, this guy is retarded or something." Don't be alarmed. Just nod and smile and walk away.

I Reach Out For Your Hand
When my world falls down around me, And the ground is sinking sand; When peace can't be found on this earth, I reach out for your hand. Then when your hand wraps 'round my own, A strength pours from your soul; It brings me to a quiet calm, Till once again I'm whole. A peace beyond all reason, A rest there in your touch; Something in your quiet words, My heart yearns for so much. If I but rest my worries, Upon your shoulder there; The strength that pours forth from your soul, Will wash away each care. Like a cool, sweet taste of water, For a tired and thirsty man; My heart finds peace, my soul is calm, When I reach out for your hand. ~AUTHOR UNKNOWN~

Whats Up With Chrys??? - The Dreaded Doc Edition
So, the time has come again. Another What's Up With Chrys blog if you will. I just need to vent a bit, and let some things out. I have so much going on inside my mind right now, that I am not really sure where to begin. I had a doctor's appointment today. Not with the back doc, as that hasn't really been giving me trouble. Tis a good thing, considering. The longer it stays better feeling, the longer I have to put off surgery. I was at my regular doctor today for 3 hours. We had much to talk about, but in the process something new came in to light. For some of you that got an email from me, some of this next part (ok bits and pieces) may seem a little familiar. And that's because I am too frustrated to keep writing the same thing over. Truth is, I just copy pasted some of it. Added to it. Took some away. You get the idea. ~HANGS HEAD~ I am sorry. I know, twas wrong of me. ~sighs~ Ok, my

Grow Room Only...
Hey people cum and join us in the GROW ROOM with ROPEMAN *GROW ROOM OWNER* Come Check us out!! .. Pleace leave the dramma at the door! All are welcome!!. We are here to chill, hangout, kick your feet up and listen to the tunes.We play it all..Each one of our DJ`s has thier own style!! So come on by and check us out!!

Losing The Battle!
Life ALWAYS throws hard curves at a person.One can try and try again, but continues to lose at everything they do! Picking up the peices and moving on seems like the thing to do, but how much MORE of the same old thing, can ONE person take before completely losing their minds!?! It's a battle that some just DON'T WIN!

Frogs
Once upon a time there was a bunch of tiny frogs who arranged a running competition. The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower. A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants. The race began... Honestly: No one in crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower. You heard statements such as: "Oh, WAY too difficult!!" "They will NEVER make it to the top." or: "Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!" The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one... Except for those, who in a fresh tempo, were climbing higher and higher... The crowd continued to yell, "It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!" More tiny frogs got tired and gave up.... But ONE continued higher and higher and higher.... This one wouldn't give up! At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower. Except for the one tiny frog who, after a big effort, was the only one who reached the top! THEN

Abortion..
saw this just now and made me sick of what stupid people would do... yes I'm also against it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~` Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am beco

The Talking Pig
One day the first grade teacher was reading the story of the Three Little Pigs to her class. She came to the part of the story where the first pig was trying to accumulate the building materials for his home. She read, "...And so the pig went up to the man with the wheelbarrow full of straw and said, 'Pardon me sir, but may I have some of that straw to build my house?'" The teacher paused then asked the class, "And what do you think that man said?" One little boy raised his hand and said, "I know...he said---'Holy Shit! A talking pig!'" The teacher was unable to teach for the next 10 minutes.....

Hey Everyone
Hey peeps; I got some more news on what is going on with my hip. Surgery is near but not near enough, 12 more months or sooner all depends on the opening for to have it. But I do have an day surgery where they will stick a nice needle in my hip to see if there is an infection. Isn't that going to be so much fun. I am not that empressed about it, but when i looked up the precedure on line, i almost passed out.....so not cool. Check out the site on what they are going to do for the hip aspiration... http://www.radiology.wisc.edu/divisions/msk/interventional/Hip%20aspiration/index.html and then tell me that thats not going to hurt.....

Disgruntaled Ct Addict
The Contests of Contests.B.G.D.'s vs. Lovingman.We held the lead by 2,000 points the entire way but lost it today.Traitorous Loyalty or lack of it,caused this Defeat.It's my Appinion that Ct Corporate controls the outcome of these friggin contests.The errors u sometimes get at the most inoperative time is just to regular to be accidental.As I have commenting Bombing down pat.There all fixed.Just like my Morph contest that was Fixed at well.Can't prove non of it,just Gut Feeling.But I know it was. Hopefully I can get back into leaveing comments for my morning rounds.I also will be Deleeteing up to 200 Traitors whom came to my Cof from either the L.D.C or Club F.A.R..All friend Requests will be put on hold,as well.All Family members if u don't have a Morph pic yet an if u want one let me know.I'd rather have everyone with a wolf Morph.Shame I join'd club F.A.R,I'd rather not be affilleated with any organization here on the Tap,to tell the truth.I'd rather have just 50 friends,no call f

Did You Touch Me?
Did You Touch Me? by: La-Shanta Holloway Did you touch me? I know, I know that sounds like a weird question to ask But, as I stand here in awe-struck confusion, thinking of you, I can only ask, Did you touch me? It might have been that soft caress your eyes brushed on my face as you gazed deep into the heart of me Or, it could have been that breeze off your breath as you whispered in my ears With words so soft they crashed into me so hard they drew tears Could it have been a fathom graze of your fingertips on my skin? I ask again, Did you touch me? I listen daily to your words of endearment from your mouth to God's ears, bypassing my soul, my yearning desire, lighting a fire from my toes to the tipy top of my head Causing confusion and excitement and loss of breath; a light to glean in my eyes for everyone passing by to see, I need to know, Did you touch me? As I sleep and dream, toss and turn alone in my bed as my core being begins to burn with th

New Pic Organized
Hello all I have upload new and rearranged my pics. I really want to level up cause I get to rate 1000 pic a day at my next level. Which means i get to help all you more So also would like it if u repost it so i can try to get some more friends. Its hard go get alot points cause i cant afford blasts or happy hours. So i ll close with Thanks to all that helps me. TECH

Ok I Stold It
I have always loved philosophy and insight. Sometimes there are "AHA" moments, "duh" moments and "ouch" or "oh shit" moments. The following stolen philosophy is a little of each: The toughest thing in the world isn't beating someone with your superior mental or physical strength; the toughest thing in the world is being strong enough to be vulnerable. Take a risk and show your real self to someone who counts.

Recent Bulletin Post
I recently posted a bulletin about my cousin and recieved a great response from those of you outside my family and friends. I want to send out a huge THANK YOU for your responses. I also want to thank those of you in my family and friends that also reponded with sympathy.You mean alot to me and lots of love to you all. However, there were those of you who chose to ignore my request and have therefore been removed and blocked. No you did not just miss it as yor point whoring, people hating bulletins were posted right after mine. Unless you are blind how could you miss it. those of you that know me well enough know I don't care for the Drama of points or hate. I have been there for many of my family and friends to laugh, share, love, and even cry. I have attempted to respond when needed and haven't asked much. I won't either. I am here for a good time. Let's laugh, share, love, and maybe if you need it a shoulder or hug to help you get through a tough time. i don't like remov

Falling Rain
i reach to touch your face but you're not there and i'm nowhere closer today than yesterday i feel your tears everytime it rains i remember every drop hit my heart i let you down after i promised you my life i let you down crashed my heart into the ground i reach to touch your face but you're not there only falling rain...

Employee Training
In order to assure the highest levels of quality work and productivity from employees, it will be our policy to keep all employees well trained through our program of Special High Intensity Training (S.H.I.T). We are trying to give employees more S.H.I.T than anyone else. If you feel that you do not receive your share of S.H.I.T on the job, please see your manager. You will be immediately placed at the top of the S.H.I.T list, and our managers are especially skilled at seeing that you get all the S.H.I.T you can handle. Employees who do not take their S.H.I.T will be placed in Departmental Employee Evaluation Programs (D.E.E.P S.H.I.T) Those who fail to take D.E.E.P S.H.I.T seriously will have to go to Employee Attitude Training (E.A.T S.H.I.T). Since our managers took S.H.I.T before they were promoted, they do not have to do S.H.I.T anymore, as they are all full of S.H.I.T already. If you are full of S.H.I.T, you may be interested in a job training others. We can add your

Home
IT WILL BE GOOD TO BE HOME, WHERE I NEED TO BE, WHERE I AM HAPPY, WHERE I WILL BE FREE. IT IS DESTINY, IT IS WHERE I HAVE BEEN, I KNEW IT ALL ALONG, AND NOW IT IS A REALITY, HARD TO BELIEVE, I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN, JUST LIKE MY DREAMS, THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON, AND THIS IS THE MOMENT AND THIS IS IT.Little Big Town Videos | Music Video Codes | Minneapolis Homes

Too Close To Home
All at Once the Fray There are certain people you just keep coming back to She is right in front of you You begin to wonder could you find a better one Compared to her now she's in question And all at once the crowd begins to sing Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same Maybe you want her maybe you need her Maybe you started to compare to someone not there Looking for the right one you line up the world to find Where no questions cross your mind But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt Much longer for you to sort it out And all at once the crowd begins to sing Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same Maybe you want her maybe you need her Maybe you started to compare to someone not there Maybe you want it maybe you need it, Maybe it's all you're running from, Perfection will not come And all at once the crowd begins to sing Sometimes We'd never know what's wrong without the pain Sometimes the h

Eat A Burger, Save A Species.
There's a group of folk on this planet who think people should live on wheat grass, pea pods and corn husks instead of eating dead cow meat. Their reasoning goes like this: Killing cows to eat them is immoral and inhumane. It's also not good for the planet. It takes to many of Earth's resources to raise cows for food, as opposed to the amount of time, energy and space it would take to grow edible plants. And it is cruel and unusual punishment to turn a living, breathing animal into teriyaki kabob. Cow meat also is too high in fat, and so is not good for the human body. Oh yeah, cows also burp and pass gas, and these odorous emissions destroy the ozone. I read all this kind of stuff and watch it on television, and it really makes me dig deep into my brain, right down to the medulla oblongata, and consider the philosophical ramifications of the issues. But I resurface from this Zen brain scuba dive like a metaphysical Lloyd Bridges with the same question on my lips: "We're talkin

The Winners
THE WINNERS IN 7 DAYS BLAST CONTEST ARE:N 1ST PLACE WINNER FOR:7 DAYS BLAST WITH TOTAL OF:Current Rating: 10.26 (35) Comments: 42643 2ND PLACE WINNER FOR: WITH TOTAL OF:Current Rating: 10.09 (73) Comments: 35519 3RD PLACE WINNER FOR: WITH TOTAL OF:Current Rating: 10.03 (67) Comments: 16392 GIFTS WILL BE SEND TOMORROW THANKS YOU ALL FOR THE PARTICIPATION IN MY CONTEST. ۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞

Excerpts I Stole From Jess' Blogs Hahaha
"Kitteh! I am shooooo...mad that I'm still smiling...GAH! ^^" hahaha that was a great day :) "Weeks til Colorado- 3 or 4...we really need to figure that out ...>>;" that never happened....but we are supposedly going there this summer...i really want to see this place because I know I have already decided after school I am gettin the FUCK up outta VA, quick and in a hurry. "I just wish that I could have seen Tool *sigh* maybe they'll come back and tour down here...." 2 hookers and an 8ball!!!....my bad...a.d.d...im listenin to MSI....anyway.....that happened and it was the best concert ever...the pigeons outside hahaha :) good timez "YAYAYAYAYAYAYA DEFTONES!! ^^" crazy silly girl on caffeine.... :) itz alwayz fun when Jess is hyper "I hope I passed math...Gawd. I love my life." I remember I used to hangout with her until the bell rang because my photography teacher didn't care. haha that was such an awesome class i lterally didnt do anything and passed with a

Memories Of You...
My mind is always on you, my memories will never fade. Your eyes, your face, your soft gentle skin. The way you held me close, telling me everything will be alright. Your long flowing hair, the sweet gentle waves. Your love is touching me, every single day. Telling me things that words cannot say.

Wiccan Rede
Bide the Wiccan Redes ye must, In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust; Live ye must and let to live, Fairly take and fairly give; Form the Circle thrice about, To keep unwelcome spirits out; Bind fast the spell every time, Let the words be spoke in rhyme. Soft of eye and light of touch, Speak ye little, listen much; Deosil go by waxing moon, Sing and dance the Witches' Rune; Widdershins go by waning moon, Chant ye then a baleful tune; When the Lady's moon is new, Kiss hand to her times two; When the moon rides at peak, Heart's desire then ye seek. Heed the North wind's mighty gale, Lock the door & trim the sail; When the wind comes from the South, Love will kiss them on the mouth; When the wind blows from the West, departed souls have no rest; When the wind blows from the East, Expect the new and set the feast. Nine woods in the cauldron go, Burn them quick, burn them slow; Elder be the Lady's tree, Burn it not or curs'd ye'll be; When the wind begins to turn,

Beltane Preperation
Beltane Preparation: Two white candles are on the altar with a wreath of spring flowers. Quarter candles are green. HPS leads the coven, riding poles if possible, about the Covenstead with a quick, trotting step, singing: All: O do not tell the priests of our Art, For they would call it sin; But we will be in the woods all night, A-conjuring summer in. And we bring you good news by word of mouth, For woman, cattle and corn, For the sun is coming up from the south With oak and ash and thorn. A ring dance follows after which the High Priestess casts the Circle. High Priest draws down the Moon upon the High Priestess. All are purified in sacrifice before Her. She then purifies the High Priest at her own hands. All Partake of Cakes and Wine followed by feasting and dancing and singing and the Great Rite, if at all possible, in token or truly.

Heart Broken And Fed Up
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Well, after a 6 year marriage with the man i thought i loved, I have finally decided to put up my rings and call it quits. Why is it that the ones you love and care for the most....insist on breaking your heart? After being completely faithful to an unfaithful hubby...I decided "I deserve better than this." Marriage is taken too lightly in this country. We see too often, two people take on vows that they either do not intend to stand by or completely miss the meanings of. It breaks my heart to see something taken for granted so, and Discarded so quickly. When you take anothers hand....look them in their eyes and tell them that you vow to love and cherish that person forever...till death do you part...Does NO one understand the emotion and sanctity of this? HELLO!? *KNOCK KNOCK* *Sigh * ok ive vented.....Anyhow.....Divorce sucks no matter which way ya look at it. But im to the point......Im done. I deserve be

"happy Mother's Day" Means More
"Happy Mother's Day" means more Than have a happy day. Within those words lie lots of things We never get to say. It means I love you first of all, Then thanks for all you do. It means you mean a lot to me, And that I honor you. But most of all, I guess it means That I am thinking of Your happiness on this, your day, With pleasure and with love.

9-11-01 Tragedy
From out of sight. There was a red light. Two Eagles flew out of no where. Two twins were standing there. Pain of agony, and tears of sorrow. Birds falling out of their nest, and the twins follow. The eagles collided into the twins. As everyone's world spins. Pain, death, agony, and revenge in the peoples hearts. As the twins began to fall apart. Twins crashed and so did the eagle in the middle of no where. Another eagle crashed and rolled into the pentagon. Screaming on the streets and crys of help under the fallen twins. Questions, and hate whirls and spins. Revenge is very near. Prayer is coming from every where. Many survivors. Some survivors lay forever. Searching for revenge and justice. Searching for others and laying others down to rest in peace.

Salute Contest
My contest will open tonight [May 1] at 11 pm central time...it will end one week from today [May 8] at 11 pm central time! There are two separate contests...one is the ladies and one is the gentlemen. There is a 3 day blast for the winner of each gender...so even if you're in the contest you can bomb for someone of the opposite gender. THERE IS NO SELF BOMBING Each comment will be worth one point. In the case of a tie the number of rates will be multiplied by 2 and added to the number of comments to determine the winner! And now the fun stuff! Here are the contestants for my salute contest! The ladies first: Alison Mommy 2 be USMC sweetheart White Tiger Misty Morbid Dragon Slave Dragons Fire brat Bending Paris Babydoll0215 AND now the gentlemen: Mysta Rhyme The Big Mike Harley Rider

Seriously, When Will It End?!
Okay, so, half the population of my living room (which consists of me, the fat one, the tall one, the skinny one and the dull one with very large, immasculine man-boobs)is bantering the question: do aliens exist? Well, of course they do! Four prime examples are sitting in my living room and they don't even - - OWIE! Okay, okay. New subject. So, we gathered a case of Mt. Dew, some pixie sticks left over in the untouched candybowl from Halloween, and several unclassified photos of some very... *ahem*... large carrots in verious lengths. If that weren't bad enough - two of us, who might remain nameless for the right price... (*cough*Sam*cough*Brent)... had been playing D&D non stop for forty hours. You'd think they would pass out from the amount of carbon monixide they had been creating in their hovel of a hobbit hole. But, alas, I am pleased to inform you they have found a way to become immune to its effects. I guess once you become brain damaged, there isn't much else left to

Metallica - Low Man's Lyric
My eyes seek reality My fingers seek my veins There's a dog at your back step He must come in from the rain I fall 'cause I let go The net below has right away So my eyes seek reality And my fingers seek my veins The trash fire is warm But nowhere safe from the storm And I can't bare to see What I've let me be So wicked and worn So as I write to you Of what is done and to do Maybe you'll understand And won't cry for this man 'cause low man is due Please forgive me My eyes seek reality My fingers feel for flame Touch clean with a dirty hand I touched the clean to the waste The trash fire is warm But nowhere safe from the storm And I can't bare to see What I've let me be So wicked and worn So as I write to you, yeah Of what is done and to do, yeah Maybe you'll understand And won't cry for this man 'cause low man is due Please forgive me Please forgive me Please forgive me So low the sky is all I see All I want from you is forgive me So yo

And The Winner Is
Blue-Eyes@ CherryTAP SO FAR HE WON A ROLEX..I WILL BUY DURING HH....AND HE WON A COPY OF CT FOR DUMMIES AND NOW HE WON THIS U CAN SEND ME YOUR SHOPPING LIST OR SAVE MONEY FOR NEXT CONTEST IN 5 MINUTES

I Need Some Serious Help, Attention Bombers!!! Please Repost (repost)
ok... i just got online, only to find out a contest i'm in has already started! Needless to say, i'm very far behind. i need as much help, and as much love as everybody can give me. i have always been there for everybody who has asked for my help. i will really appreciate any and all comments, and if you cant, i would really appreciate even a rate. i'm not asking for a kidney or anything like that, just some love...

Choice
The Moment We Begin to Fear the Opinions of Others and Hesitate to Tell the Truth That Is In Us, and From Motives of Policy are Silent When We Should Speak, The Divine Floods of Light and Life No Longer Flow Into Our Souls.

My Horoscope For May 2nd 2007
A strong fixation isn't always undesirable; in the right context, the birth of a new obsession can be a very beautiful thing. You find yourself immersed in a new subject, and its study could change you life. Sometimes these things are so right, lets see if this one is, I hope so anyways lol

Flesh
I crave the flesh I long to taste I need to feel I crave the warmth The need to be enveloped In soft warm flesh But soon it gets cold Then I crave once more Part of me wants to stop But the craving is strong No compassion? I have compassion Compassion for the flesh Always the flesh

Ripples Of Memory
She sits by the river Throwing stones in the water as the water ripples Memories come and go She remembers heartache and love Good times and bad times She weeps and laughs As she sits by the river She watches children playing And thinks of how she cannot have children She weeps once again As the ripples cease She leaves this place She'll return another day Maybe

People On Ct
I Just wanted to write a blog about some people on my list that i wanted to say ty too...My girl Paris....J.R, Drew, Steve, Righteous, Mike, Louis, and many more of you im forgettin cuz its 2:47 am, but you guys are so awesome and make this site worth coming to everyday. Ive come to know alot of people on here and loved every chance of getn to know you guys and whether its once a week or once a day i talk to you, you all rock. I slack in showing love sometimes and i do apologize for that but this site can be crazy at times and i try to spread my love around...but dammit i cant do it all in one day..lol...but for those of you that help me out when needed just ask me if you ever need anything and ill do my best to help you in return...just wanted to let everyone know i appreciate all the love on here and hope i can meet many more people just as awesome as you guys...much love to you all...muahz and hugz

Submission Or Abuse?
Some times it seems there can be a fine line between submitting to someone and the relationship being a proper D/s relationship and the Master taking advantage of a persons submission to them and abusing it... abusing them. I've talked it over with many that I know in the lifestyle and it always saddens me when I hear a story of a girl I know that gets out of the lifestyle because she had an abusive Master and possibly even lost all perspective of how it should be... or gains a self belief that it isn't what she origionally thought it should be. I have known many different levels of submission, and different Masters. I have also known those that have claim to be Masters but are in the end laughable in the title.. and a horror to any that submit to them. It comes up time and time again, that perhaps the abuse isn't totally in a Master's actions.. but rather if He ignores the limits set by the one who is serving. An abusive Master is one of such that has the attitude of... "Your

The Unknown
He sits in the circle watching his crush watching her laugh and play Making him smile when she glances at him He wanting more than friendship But knowing he cant have her She sees him as family and nothing more Letting his heart break and heal again He watches on being the unknown All the things he feels for his crush She may never know how he truly feels Not wanting to ruin the friendship they have So he sits and is silent saying not a word For he is the unknown

Prisoned Mind
Im in a dark sad place but people dont see it Its hell and scares me Im a fake I pretend Im happy but I am not It hurts to be alone Pain brings me brief joy The blood stained blade is a temporary friend Love is being said But not felt to be held would be bliss Im in a dark sad place but YOU cant see it Its a prison its my MIND

Mid-life Crisis
When I was married 25 years, I took a look at my wife one day and Said, "Honey, 25 years ago, we had a cheap apartment, a cheap car, slept on a sofa bed and watched a 10-inch black and white TV, but I got to sleep every night with a hot 25-year-old blonde." Now, we have a nice house, nice car, big bed and plasma screen TV, but I'm sleeping with a 50-year-old woman. I said to my wife, “It seems to me that you are not holding up your side of things." My wife is a very reasonable woman. She told me to “go out and find a hot 25-year-old blonde”, and she would “make sure that I would once again be living in a cheap apartment, driving a cheap car, sleeping on a sofa bed and watching a 10-inch black and white TV”. Aren't older women great? They really know how to solve your mid-life Crisis.......

Marriage
Marriage (Part I ) Typical macho man married typical good-looking lady, and after the wedding, he laid down the following rules: "I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time I want -- and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great dinner to be on the table unless I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing, and card-playing when I want with my old buddies, and don't you give me a hard time about it. Those are my rules. Any comments?" His new bride said: "No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every night...whether you're here or not." (DARN SHE'S GOOD!) ************************************************ Marriage (Part II) Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary! The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads, 'Here Lies My Wife -- Cold As Ever'!" "Yeah?" she replies. "When you die,

Goddess Set Ablaze
I'm just another pearl on this necklace. Part of a continuing session of things that are pretty but not unique in any way shape or form. Something to look at fondly and blur with the others as you drape them around yourself.

You Have To Wet It!!!!
You Have to Wet It To make it stand you wet it. To make it wet you suck it. To make it stiff you lick it. To get it in you push it. What are you doing? Scroll Down Any Ideas Yet Damn, when you get older, threading a needle is no joke. Get Your Mind Out of the Gutter!! Got You!!!!!!

Wednesday May 2
OK guy's we gonna try and see if we can get Hitman and Bigdawg's vision of what this family can be started again.Below is links to friends that are in contest's as we still currently have no family member's in one.Pick one or go hit all with a rate and some comments,the more bombing the better as it will prove that we can be a bomb squad and make our presence felt around the site.Let's show all family member's that we can be there and bomb and maybe one of us will join a contest knowing they have a family backing them to the finish.C-MON guy's let's GIT-R-DONE. eye's to your soul...mother's day contest She is a close friend of the family and possibly soon new member.Let's show her why she should join us. Texas Dragon a close friend of our dj whiteangel2229. Contest ends friday May 4 Tasha Bear of the confederate bomber's of ct...yes we are friends with another bombing family.Believe me,I've been involved in bombing long enough to realize sometimes you need an all

Wanted To Say
I want to say thank you to every one that has read my last blog and commented on.That has left there words of wisedom.Life is not always what we think is should be or doesn't always turn out the way we want it to.I'm sad to say that i'll be movein away by the end of this month.Not sure when the internet will be turned back on but as soon as i get it i will let everyone know..To everyone that has viewed my page Thank you or my pic or left a comment or rated me. Thanks to you also.I hope everyone can stop by my page before i leave and i will stop by all of yours and leave a little something for you from me.. Thanks to all you great cherrys....

Psalms 103
I got this from my friend cecil jacob PSALMS 103 VERSES1-4 VER.1 BLESS THE LORD,O MY SOUL,AND ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME BLESS HIS HOLYNAME VER.2 BLESS THE LORD,O MY SOUL AND FOR- -GET NOT ALL HIS BENEFITS; VER.3 WHO FORGIVETH ALL THINE INIQUITIES; WHO HEALETH ALL THY DISEASES; VER.4 WHO REDEEMETH THY LIFE FROM DESTRUCTION; WHO CROWNETH THEE WITH LOVING KINDNESS AND TENDER MERCIES we hear about the scripture in ISAIAH chapter 53 when it is said' WITH HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED, BUT , in the scripture ,above it gives you more depth, , of what you're healed of , can you imagine what all includes, EVERY DISEASE KNOWN TO MAN , and unknown , this is where you stand on GOD'S WORD AND BELIEVE , THAT YOU'RE HEALED, because it's right there in the WORD , so you can claim your healing , how strong is your faith , WHEN THE DOCTO'RS SAY THERE IS NO CURE , WHEN THEY TELL YOU , YOU SO MANY DAYS LEFT , when they say turn the machine off , , how stro

My Horrorscope
Someone's developing drama threatens to throw your day off track. This situation may require more patience on your part, but don't let this change throw your confidence for a loop -- you can make decisions on your own. Why couldn't this have been mine for Monday?

Kinda Early
I'm just sittin here at work. its about 8 in the mornin not really doin much because no one is here but me... Tried to figure out how to get Bit Torrent workin on my computer but no luck there sigh... i dunno its just not makin any sense to me. I'm tired... broke, angry, single, lonely, just a lot of conflicting emotions are flooding my mind right about now and i am not sure how to deal with them all anymore. I mean i like to think that maybe there is someone out there for me but i tell ya heh 6 years without actually having a physical relationship(i've had online ones) and you start doubting that line. i dunno i'm just really nervous about the fact that i'm 25 this year and i've still yet to have a relationship thats lasted more then a year! i dunno what to do anymore...

Keep Him In Ur Thoughts And Prayers If U Pray Please
One of my greatest friends and protector who i am so proud of, just qualified for KING OF THE CAGE I know he is a big boy and can take care of himself but I would love it if you could all just think of him time to time and send him great prayers and thoughts.. he starts his training soon for it..thank you..xoxo

Check This One Out
Where did VAN GOGH? VAN didn’t GOGH. Instead he said, “VICTOR HUGO” VICTOR didn’t go too, for he saw GAUGUIN For those who are a bit behind (just-in case) ….. Where did Van Go ? Van didn’t Go, Instead He said Victor U Go VICTOR didn’t go too, for he saw GAU Going

Shit Happens
Eighth Place In Detroit, a 41-year-old man got stuck and drowned in two feet of water after squeezing head first through an 18-inch-wide sewer grate to retrieve his car keys. Seventh Place A 49-year-old San Francisco stockbroker, who "totally zoned when he ran," accidentally jogged off a 100-foot high cliff on his daily run. Sixth Place While at the beach, Daniel Jones, 21, dug an 8 foot hole for protection from the wind and had been sitting in a beach chair at the bottom when it collapsed, burying him beneath 5 feet of sand. People on the beach used their hands and shovels trying to get him out but could not reach him. It took rescue workers using heavy equipment almost an hour to free him. Jones was pronounced dead at a hospital. Fifth Place Santiago Alvarado, 24, was killed as he fell through the ceiling of a bicycle shop he was burglarizing. Death was caused when the long flashlight he had placed in his mouth to keep his hands free rammed into the base of his skull as

Grrrr!!!!
OMFG! I'm so god damned horny. And this is killing me! No sex, no sex, no sex. Got to keep telling myself that. Not that I couldn't get it if I wanted, but I am trying to be good until I find someone I really care about. I was to hedonistic for to long and sex ended up losing all emotional value for me. Trying to put a little heart back into sex, but noooo! Everyone I talk to has to sit there and describe in detail what they want to do to me and then I end up with a wet pussy and no dick to fill it! GOD DAMN IT!!! I JUST WANT TO BE TORN APART RIGHT NOW!!! I want to be fucked so hard right now I can't walk. I don't want to be able to move. I want to be bloody, bruised and aching from being fucked so hard! Jesus fucking christ. Now excuse me while I go wear my vibrator out a little more

Moms
This is for the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers in their arms, wiping up barf laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and cherry Kool-Aid saying, "It's okay honey, Mommy's here." Who have sat in rocking chairs for hours on end soothing crying babies who can't be comforted. This is for all the mothers who show up at work with spit-up in their hair and milk stains on their blouses and diapers in their purse. For all the mothers who run carpools and make cookies and sew Halloween costumes. And all the mothers who DON'T. This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see. And the mothers who took those babies and gave them homes. This is for the mothers whose priceless art collections are hanging on their refrigerator doors. And for all the mothers who froze their buns on metal bleachers at football or soccer games instead of watching from the warmth of their cars, so that when their kids asked, "Did you see me, Mom?" they could

Columbus Gamers: Question
For any of you RPG freaks out there in the Columbus Area, I need to know where to go buy some gaming dice. Are there even any gaming stores in the city? It's almost impossible to find the right type of place online.

What U Want You Got It..!!
YOU WANT TO GET SOMETHING NICE FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE BUT YOU DONT HAVE THE CHERRY BUCKS TO BUY IT.. WELL WORRY NO MORE.. I HAVE JUST WHAT YOU NEED.. NO MORE LETTING YOUR LOVED ONES GO WITHOUT WHAT THEY DESIRVE. YOU CAN NOW SHOW THOSE YOU LOVE JUST HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM.. I HAVE AN EASY PAYMENT PLAN EVERYONE CAN AFFORD.. IT JUST TAKES A FEW COMMENTS PER DAY AND SOON THAT LOVELY GIFT THAT YOU WANT FOR THAT LOVED ONE WILL BE YOURS. I WILL PERSONALLY HAND OVER THAT GIFT ON BEHALF OF YOU THAT VERY SAME DAY YOUR LAST PAYMENT COMMENT WAS DROPED. SO THERE ARE NO MORE EXCUSSES SAYING I CAN'T AFFORD IT.. HERE IS YOUR CHANCE TO MAKE SOMEONE IN YOUR LIFE VERY HAPPY.. SO WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO GET TODAY.. JUST PICK AND IT CAN BE YOURS.. CHERRY LIPS 200 COMMENTS CHERRY TAP FOR DUMMIES 200 COMMENTS BOTTLE OF ASPRIN 200 COMMENTS DEODORANT 200 COMMENTS ICE CREAM SUNDAE 200 COMMENTS BALLONS 200 COMMENTS SHOT OF EVERCLEAR 200 COMMENTS G

Abc's Of Me...
A-B-C's of Me A - Available: Maybe...who wants to know - Age: 33 - Annoyance: Tim Hortons screwing up my tea!! B - Best Friend: Spazz, Deandra, Jenny poodle and Tim - Beer: Ugh...vodka please - Birthday: Feb.20th C - Crush: Shhh, its a secret - Car: Ford Escort Sport, red with a snazzy spoiler. Lol - Candy: Swedish Berries D - Day or night: Night - Dream Car: A hummer E - Easiest person to talk to: My mommy - Eggs: Fried with cheese in a bagel F - Favorite Month: October - Favorite Memory: Besides my kids births...too many to mention G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: neither, ew...slimey - Giver or taker: Always the giver H - Hair Color: Dark brown - Height: 5'6" - Happy: Always I - Ice Cream: Butterscoth ripple(see the 10 other surveys) lol - Instrument: Whats these instrument things you speak of? J - Jewellery: Rings, toe rings, earrings, necklace - Job: Interior Decorator K - Kids: Proud mommy - Kickboxing or karate: Neither.

Drug Alert - Protect Our Children
Everyone of us have children in our lives, even if they are the children of our neighbors, the children in our churches, schools, community centers. Be sure to read this snopes file to the end. It is frightening but it is also something we all need to know. Drug Alert - Protect Our Children Then join my column readers for laughs at real life singles. Cra-Z D8s (click here for more)

I Am The Girl....
I am. ....I am me. I am energetic and I am fun loving, I am therapeutic and I am wise beyond my years, I love whole heartedly and crave your passion.. I want to know what makes you tick and feed off of your energy, I am the girl who loves to see you speak about what you love and how happy it makes you feel.... I am your shoulder to cry on and the arms that catch you when you can not stand, I am your brick wall and your smile when you thought you couldn't breathe. I am your soul and I am your friend at 2am and even at 6 when you can't sleep. I am the smile that hopes you can forget the pain if only for a split second. I am the girl with just one look I know whats wrong and I am the girl who doesnt need you to talk... Lets just sit. I am the girl....I am not perfect actually I am far from perfect, I screw up and screw up often I couldn't list my imperfectionsons on ten hands and twelve feet, I am self conscious and would rather look at the floor than in the mirror, I am optim

Military Choices
So last night my parents placed an ultimatum on me that was so desperately hard to refuse and it forced me to make a decision...a BIG decision about where my life is headed and how I can prevent that in my current situation. I know I haven't blogged alot about my problems and such so lets just bring you up to date and suffice to say I'm at one of the lowest points of my life and I'm not even sure if I'm willing to give up the stuff that is the cause. Anyways, my parents told me that if I enlist they will bring my car payments up to date immediately and continue to make the payments while I'm gone. They are torn about wether I should go active or not my mom rooting for reserves. It makes it harder to make my decision when they haven't either. It's a real eye opener when you have gotten so careless about yourself and when you feel you have no more self worth left and your parents can even see it. It makes you stop and wonder are things really that bad? I thought I was in contro

Natural Viagra!
Thank God I don't need THIS treatment. . . Natural Viagra: Brazilian Spider Bite Causes Hours-Long Erection Tuesday , May 01, 2007 By Jeanna Bryner WASHINGTON — A Brazilian spider delivers more than a painful bite that sends most victims to the hospital. Its venom stimulates an hours-long erection. Now scientists have figured out the chemical that seems to be responsible for the penis boost. In Brazil, emergency room staff can immediately spot the victims of a bite from the Brazilian wandering spider (Phoneutria nigriventer). Patients not only experience overall pain and an increase in blood pressure, they also sport an uncomfortable erection. "The erection is a side effect that everybody who gets stung by this spider will experience along with the pain and discomfort," said study team member Romulo Leite of the Medical College of Georgia, presumably speaking only about male bite victims. "We're hoping eventually this will end up in the development of real drugs for the

Sad News
Just found out that my aunt passed away... She when at up to heaven at 8:00 this morning.. Its has been rough... The whole family pulled together... and tried to make the best of the worst.. But she was up there for 2 days after collposing.. May your prayers.. Please include the family members that are taking this hard.. To ease their pain.. Thanks to all that... have keeped us in their prayers.. I thank you and my family does too.. Thanks... Jeannie

Just Me
hey everyone.... im new here so give me some time to figure the site out... ok.... let me know if there is anything i can do to help the site out... i will to do what i can... thanks for having me and the warm welcome... talk to u all later

How To Start Each Day Positive
HOW TO START EACH DAY WITH A POSITIVE OUTLOOK 1. Open a new file in your computer. 2. Name it "Hillary Rodham Clinton" 3. Send it to the trash bin. 4. Empty the trash. 5. Your PC will ask you, "Do you really want to get rid of "Hillary Rodham Clinton?" 6. Firmly Click "Yes." 7. Feel better. PS: Next week we'll do Nancy Pelosi

A Open Letter Of Thanks!
Dear stupid kid with the spraypaint..... I woke up, went outside and found overnight your artistic rendering on my mailbox. Not a the large fence, not the house but the frigging mailbox!!!!!! I live in Sandbridge. As I don't really think there is gang activity in Sandbridge this must mean you either drove all the way down here with nothing better to do but spray paint a mailbox..... or one of neighbors has a wanna be baby thug who thinks spray painting a mailbox gives him some sort of street cred. What's worse,I can't even read what the hell you are trying to say as it's all black and scrolly psuedo gang type garbage. So next time kids,please make it legible if you wish to "represent" I'll have it all painted over for ya by tonight. That's right a nice fresh white mailbox just awaiting your next missive. One small request....... if you want to re decorate for me again,I really like "The Scream" and think it would look lovely on my mailbox. I know my neighbors myself and my m

Beauty
Beauty does not live On the surface It is born in the Deep silence of Utter humility It takes special eyes To see beauty Eyes that have seen Just the opposite Eyes that have shed Unwanted tears For beauty lost In the world Beauty does not live On the surface It is hidden In the soul Of a broken man Who has surrendered all To his Spirit Beauty lives In this knowledge That nothing created Is beautiful That only love Given in it purest form Is beautiful And all that the heart has Suffered Is beauty

Family Contest Rules
Anyone that does not have a salute photo or whom I know personaly will be removed from my Friends, Family and Fans List. NO EXECPTIONS ! This will be to a Result of a Bombers FREE For ALL I was going to Host. ANYONE in one of my contest MUST have a verified Salute in Their Profile to be added to my Friends List. Here is the New Bombers FREE FOR ALL. Up Until May 12th 5 PM Central I will Accept All Friends Request that have 1 Verified Salute NO EXEPTIONS! The Contest Will Start at 7 PM Central on May 12th Thru May 19th 7 Pm CentralThe Contest Will Start at 7 PM Central on May 12th Thru May 19th 7 Pm Central The Bomber Families Leaders Will Send me a link to Rip ONE Photo or Logo and I Will Place in a private folder and set it as Friends Comments ONLY! NO FRESH MEAT and No Persons Without Salute photos will be able to comment However anyone Added to My List with A Verified Salute will be able to Comment Bomb on What Ever Team they choose as well as the family members.

Bombfest - Update - Updated 05/01/07
The Contest Will Start at 7 PM Central on May 12th Thru May 19th 7 Pm Central The Bombfest Family List are as follows. 1. RAWR Family 2. ALLEGIANCE Group ( Confeds and Patriotics ) 3. TEXAS Bombers 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. There are only 8 Slots for Families to Bomb Their asses off.To win a Prize and Bragging Rights and currently 6 slots open, UNIFIED BOMBERS have decided to pull out of the #3 Slot. Prizes Any family with a minimum of 2000 WILL Recieve a 3 Day Blast for participating, The Winning Family will Win a 30 Day Blast Instead of the 3 Day Blast. REMEMBER anyone wishing to BOMB MUST add me to thier friends list to be able to bomb in this contest THIS CONTEST is restricted to VERIFIED SALUTES CT MEMBERS ONLY and NO FRESHMEAT. This limits to real people bombing and not junk sendary accounts GET THE PICTURE ? As far as I know this is the first Contest on CT that attempts to make the Bombing contest 100% Legit and chokes down the cheating with secondary accounts

The Favorite Toy
(This is dedicated to those of us who are to caring and kind to be apethetic.) --------------------------------------------------- The world is dark for me, a cold, unmoving black that consumes me. I sit and wait in this inky void, awaiting the savior to once again bring the warth of sunshine into my bleak existance. As if my prayer is answered by the creator, nourishing light fills my world in a radiant, blinding flash. A brilliant burst, as if the heavens have bestowed my salvation. She stands before me... a dark angel to rescue me from my privat hell... a god sent... a beautiful mother... the gentle love that I so desperately needed in these dark hours. For a time I am her world. We are a joining of weary souls that inspire the greatest tales of bliss... this union has made my being weep in joy and happiness. Time passes and bliss fades, as is fate. I am forced to watch as the ecstasy that I once saw in her eyes dwindle. I sense a familiar darkness on the horizon.

My Sister's Pad--a New Site!!!
PLEASE VISIT THELILYZPAD.COM TO SEE MY CT SISSY'S NEW AGE JEWELRY CREATIONS. THEY ARE THE BOMB. I HAVE CREATED A NEW ALBUM AND AM LOADING IT NOW. SHE IS MAKING MORE EVEN AS WE SPEAK. PLEASE CHECK IT OUT. SHE IS VERY TALENTED.

From A Friend To My Friends
Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you. Send this to all your friends including me and see how many you get back...

My Life All The Pain
In my life I have been through a lot of pain and lost of people I love. Something I can never get out of my head is the day when I was five I was raped by my twin sisters boy friend Billy that memory go though my head day and night I cant sleep some night or other night I wake up crying and screaming because I have a dream of that day. The other thing I can never get out of my head is when I was in fifth grade when my foster father Sherman who adopted me when I was six months died but the thing I remember about that day is two hours before he died I told him I hated him and wished he was dead and two hours later he was given the meds he was allergic to and had died ten minuets later ever since that day I have thought that his death was because of me. And also I can never get the day of the fourteenth birthday my best friend Brandon held me at gun point and raped me. These thing that have happened to me are things I have never got out of my head because of it I have had to lie most o

To Blacken
To keep shunned from what is within is to cave in the pressure to discover one self is never an easy process you find the positives as well as find the black the disgusting in you that lurks within you making it human for all that is angelic to blacken the heart is to assume theres soul to presume you have more heart for love to have shatter though we are blackened by the negatives we have it is to live with the evil and to soak in the good ~Timmy~

Playing With My "big Girls" Cause I Am Bored!
This may sound wierd to some of you, but, I have large rubberbands around my big titties. About four of them, contemplating on putting more on. Not individually as that would promote blood restriction to quickly. I keep the nipples stimulated which makes the titties grow and rubberbands tighten slightly! I have bent over my dresser where nipples will be stimulated by the edge of the dresser. I rock back and fourth like I am being fucked from behind and my nipples are 'flicked' by the edge. Feeeeels goooood! Tried tieing off my nipples but could not 'catch' them! Having the bands around my titties make them jiggle and bounce more whenever I move! The bands cannot be seen so I took the trash out and checked the mail!!Hehehe!! All because I am bored..so I use my titties as as source of intertainment! And...it is fun!!!! I also heard long time ago, the more tits are played with, the more they will grow and stay big. Has anyone heard of this??? Let me know!! I want

Interestingly Enough But Maybe Not 4 You
so i watched saw 1 2 and 3 the past 3 nights and each night i have these weird dreams/nightmares....i still cant classify it...but my first dream last night was about a little girl i know (5-7yrs old?) having a scorpion in here hand and kept trying to put it on me....that was freaky/scary...and this one from this morning is hard to remember for some reason...weird huh?....well heres to another boring ass fucking blog for you to read and me to bleed...not really bleeding thouGH:)

And The Winner Is
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Greeting Cards That Didn't Make It
1. So your daughter's a hooker, and it spoiled your day. Look at the bright side, it's really good pay. 2. My tire was thumping. I thought it was flat. When I looked at the tire. I noticed your cat. Sorry! 3. You had your bladder removed and you're on the mend. Here's a bouquet of flowers and a box of Depends. 4. Happy Vasectomy! Hope you feel zippy! Cause when I had mine I got real snippy 5. Heard your wife left you. How upset you must be. But don't fret about it. She moved in with me. 6. You totaled your car. And can't remember why. Could it have been. That whole case of Bud Dry? "Looking back over the years that we've been together, I can't help but wonder: What the heck was I thinking?" "Congratulations on your wedding day! Too bad no one likes your wife." "How could two people as beautiful as you have such an ugly baby?" "I've always wanted to have someone to hold, someone to love. After having met you, I've changed my mind." "I must a

They Were Just Two Kids Who Fell In Love....
They were just two kids who fell in love. They actually met during a church service, each checking each other out while the rest of the congregation got saved. He noticed her pretty white dress, and soft brown hair. She liked his smile, and the fact he was a football player made him seem almost surreal to her. They saw each other again at high school, almost running into each other in the hall way. He finally got up the nerve to go over to her table at lunch and say hi! He was nervous, and a little afraid she would say nothing to him. She was nervous too, and barely could get a hello out of her mouth. He asked her for her phone number, and she gave it to him. All she could do the rest of the day was think about the call she hoped would come that night. This was before cell phones, and she knew that she would get some teasing from her brother when he found out a boy had called her. It was almost a right that he seemed to think he had, teasing her since she was his little si

Got's Me Burnin'
Got this song in my heart Don't know who has the key Adrenline has me running Having this feeling That leaves me incomplete Tide is turnin' Soul is churnin' Wondering what you want Got's me burnin' Kinda restless just wanna sleep Open my window So I just can breathe Hear the wind howling Who must it be Tide is turnin' Soul is churnin' Wondering what you want Got's me burnin' You say follow your lead Is this my last ride I'm ridin' this storm out Girl, until you tell me This is not a dream Wondering what you want Got's me burnin' Got's me burnin' Got's me burnin' Got's me burnin' BY: William Burton

Today's Thoughts
As the chaos of my feelings run rampent in my mind The lack of stability in my living situtation drives me further into the depths of my soul I must find a way to fix the many wrongs in my life I need to find a safe place to lay my head and be able to afford it and everything else in my life I need to know what my ex fience's motivations are if he just really wants to put the past behind us do to the cancer or if he wants to try and play me again which I know won't work cause I am not that dumb anymore I need to be able to spend more time with my daughter but with the living situation and the lack of fubds I am struggling to see her as much as possible I need to feel loved I long for love's arms to wrap around me each night I need someone to make me believe everything will be alright I am almost wrenching enough each day to satisfy me but I still want to do more I am finally getting a glimpse that people might actually respect me for the things I do in and out of work

Check Out This Site
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Ok
There are so many words I cannot say, when I look into your eyes. I want to be able to tell you one day, but I'm left speechless every time that I try. You must have stumbled across the key, and discovered so much more. You found a hidden place in me, you found my heart and opened the door. And I cried in pain of losing my dear friend. Will it ever be the same again? If it passes will it be the end? I realized it was worth so much, as I lie in bed that night. So I allowed my soul to be touched, without even putting up a fight. Are my eyes deceiving me, when I see you standing there? Are you playing games, just to prove I care? You speak my name in a prelude, in a reference to love, with such loving attitude, as if it were a message from above. With the palms of your hands pressed firmly against mine, a white doves lands, and the sun begins to shine. Someday I will see, though that day has not come yet. You'll say you l

Wicked Intentions Family
To go away from family to make things new; Is certainly the hardest thing to do. To have so many loved ones around you near; To have in a place of your heart that you hold so dear. Even though we are all so far apart; Please remember you're always be in my heart! So until we are able to come together again; Please remember, I will love you all to no end!

Erotica: Wifey
I had been temporarily station in my little hometown in eastern Washington State when I met Trish. After a rocky start we started dating and six months later we were married. Shortly afterwards I was cut orders for a transfer to San Diego. Now I'd be taking my little country wife to the big city. It was the first time she'd left home and was understandably nervous. We got lucky and got into Navy housing in Point Loma almost right away mostly thanks to my recent promotion. The place was quite nice. It was a town house style place with a small balcony on the second floor and a small grassy back yard surrounded by a fence. Trish is a natural beauty about 5'4" with wide hips and large 36D breasts capped with thick nipples. Her reddish brown hair trailed down her back almost to her heart shaped ass. She had and still does a habit of wearing clothing that revealed a lot of skin. She had this little pale blue outfit with a short top that barely came below her tits and left her midriff

Dublin Coddle
Dublin Coddle This is a very popular dish, especially in Dublin, and has been so for many years. It is nourishing, tasty, economical and warming - what more could you ask? Although it is best made with a good stock - water in which a ham has been boiled, or even a ham bone - a light stock cube will substitute. 1lb/ 500g best sausages 8oz/ 250g streaky bacon 1/2pt/ 300ml/ 1 cup stock or water 6 medium potatoes 2 medium onions salt and pepper (serves four) Cut the bacon into 1in/ 3cm squares. Bring the stock to the boil in a medium saucepan which has a well-fitting lid, add the sausages and the bacon and simmer for about 5 minutes. Remove the sausages and bacon and save the liquid. Cut each sausage into four or five pieces. Peel the potatoes and cut into thick slices. Skin the onions and slice them. Assemble a layer of potatoes in the saucepan, followed by a layer of onions and then half the sausages and bacon. Repeat the process once more and then finish off with a layer

Lazy Ass Muther Fuckers
WHY IS IT THAT ALL THE LAZY ASS CROWNED UP BITCHES IN THE WORLD GET OFF SCOTT FREE, AND THE ONES THAT WORK THEIR ASSES OFF FOR ALL THAT THEY HAVE GET FUCKED WITH? PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR INPUT.

Without Trying...
If I close my eyes, I can still see those gorgeous eyes of yours. If I breathe deeply, I can still smell your cologne on your skin. If I listen closely, I can almost hear your voice and laughter. If I touch my hair, I can still remember the way you ruffled it while teasing me. I shouldn't miss you, But I do. I shouldn't care that I haven't seen you in 2 months, But I do. I shouldn't think of you so often, But I do. I shouldn't want to be with you as much as I do, But I do. Hard to believe I can fall so hard, With only a hug, Hard to believe I could fall so hard, Without even a kiss, Hard to believe I could fall so hard, Or miss you so much, Hard to believe I could fall so hard, That I worry you already stole my heart.

If Tomorrow Never Comes....
If I live tomorrow....well I just can't say. If I live tomorrow....well I just can't say. But I know for sure...I don't live today. No sun coming through my window...feel like I'm living at the bottom of a grave....No sun coming through MY window...feel like I'm living in the bottom of a grave....Hope someone'll come and rescue me, so I can be on my miserable way.....cuz, I don't live today....maybe tomorrow, I just can't say but (ya know) I don't live today. It's such a shame to waste the time away....like this....

My Philosophy On Life!
TO LIVING LIFE ON LIFES TERMS, TO DEALING WITH LIFE AND ALL OF IT'S GERMS. TO LIVE WITH ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS, TAKING IN LIFE AND ALL OF IT'S BETS! TO LIVE LIFE WITHOUT STRESS, WOULD BE LESS OF A MESS! TO PUT YOUR LIFE UPON A SHELF, WOULD BE LIKE NOT LIVING LIFE FOR YOURSELF! SOMETIMES WE PUT OURSELVES UNDER ARREST, IN ORDER FOR US TO DO OUR BEST! TO LIVE LIFE ON ITS TERMS; TO DEAL WITH LIFES SCARS AND ALL OF IT'S BURNS! TO FEEL SO BROKEN UP INSIDE, TO KNOW YOU HAVE NO WHERE ELSE TO HIDE. FROM ALL YOUR THOUGHTS AND ALL YOUR FEARS. TO HAVING YOUR JOYS AND SHEDDING TEARS! BUT KNOW ONE THING AND THAT'S FOR SURE, JUST KNOW WHEN YOU FIND SOMETHING IN ME IT IS PURE!!!

Globalization Report (check Up)
I have just finished the sixth chapter of Wealth, Women, and War: A Look at Capitalism and Globalization. It is at 10,923 words so far. I am beat. But damn, I am excited. It is coming together so very well. As I write it, I am re verifying my data, and everything is checking out. Not only that, but I am finding additional data, that is supporting essential points in the thesis. That is fantastic. I am bias (admittedly), but this is a compelling, challenging, enlightened piece of work. It is a joy to be getting it done.

A Tribute To Virginia Tech
Created by Crazyprofile.com There was ample knowledge aforehand that Cho was imbalanced. He was stalking his ex-girlfriend. There were signs and no one took those signs seriously. Various issues gave birth to my column Cra-Z D8s. Although I strive to inject humor into each article for the benefit of the victim of this bad date, I also strive to inject meaning and lessons into each article. Some issues are minor in comparison to the severity of say date rape, such as a person's fear of rejection when wanting to enter a music club and her struggle with that fear over the known horror of no human contact. However, what the devastation of stalking can produce in the end is a prime example of why I started my column. I try to keep it light with humor but I also hope the lessons I have embedded inside them are apparent to all who read them. Thank You for reading more and supporting my efforts to make single life easier, safer and more enjoyable. Bree Cra-Z

Lasting Impression
Just like sun swept mountain hues, Colouring the skies in purples and blues. Just as the ocean waves rise and fall, So to does the trees so big and tall. Everything always leaves them, It doesnt matter how what or when. These things in which I speak, do you know? If you havent guess by now always show. Impressions is the answer to the question, Now come on, lets be real to the confession.

Unexspected
Sometimes things arrive without notice, We often miss what they have to show us. Sometimes if we are lucky, and get a clue, It might come in many forms, like a shoe. They are not always right up front, Sometimes they are a slow bunt. So listen close to the wind and listen to the rain, So be watchful and listen close before you miss the main. For it could be something that can be effected, It always comes in forms unexspected.

Just Some Advice To Get Ya Through Life
Everything! I repeat Everything for sale at the Flea Market has been Peed on (PERIOD). If you buy from the Flea Market you're buying soiled goods. End of story; be wary of that great deal you found because alas, there surely is urine on it. Don't get drunk in 2 states inside the same bar. For real, don't drink in any bars that fall along 2 state lines You're asking for twice the trouble when you leave. Who would want to voluntarily put them selves at twice the legal risk? Certain places in Texarkana fall into this predicament, and there are other cities across the nation where this applies. If you are in with the world there is just one reward, and most of the world would just assume make it come true. You will always sleep soundly with a 12ga pump under the mattress, even if it creates a uncomfortable lump.

Look Of Love
i sit alone in dreams your photograph in my hand iknow its hard for you to understand i try to play it cool when im away oh how i long for your smile today something betwen me and you i dont want to hide thers nothing more its love so true can you see the look of love in my eyes when i hold you i would give you every star in the sky... the look of love i never felt before the way i feel right now life has changed for me somehow...... were thousands of miles apart and im looking at you just remember deep in my heart whatever i do i do it for you can you see the look of love in my eyes when i hold you i would give you every star in the sky.... i can see the look of love in your eyes when i hold you feeling your heart beat just like mine time after time my days are much too long without you cant wait to come back home but theres nothing i can do can you see the look of love in my eyes when i hold you i would give you every star in th

Now We Know Why Real Estate Market Is So Dead!
Couple touring home find woman's body Tue May 1, 11:18 PM ET This real estate agent will likely do a house check before letting her prospective customers tour on their own from now on, after a couple happened upon a homeowner dead in bed. Linda Chabucos-Galow, a real estate agent with Shorewest, stood in the dining room while Justin and Colleen McKeen walked through a house Monday night. Before long, she heard Colleen scream as the couple stood at the doorway. "I thought, 'What's wrong?' Maybe it was a dead mouse or something," Chabucos-Galow said. But then she peered into the bedroom and saw the body of Linda L. O'Leary, 55, the owner of the home. She had been dead for about two weeks, officials say. "It looked like a Halloween prop," Chabucos-Galow said. The uncovered body was wearing dark shorts. Chabucos-Galow said her legs were wrapped in material that appeared similar to cheesecloth or support hose. "If we spent five minutes in there, I'd be stretchin

She...
She was the cool air of a summers night, yet inside were strange confusions. She had confident exteriors but could she ever be the person that she really was? Her dreams were folded neatly and placed in open view, a mask to cover up her anxieties, but I knew behind it all she was everything she ever said she was, but some how she'd stopped believing... I knew inside of her were angels, singing a soft chorus of melodic hope, monochrome tears for a world she didn't know, and even as she passed from view, and faded out beyond the street light, I knew one day everything would work out, it has to, doesn't it?

She...
She was the blizzard that lies between the sacred eternal sleep, and the deafening silence of the heartless city streets. Even the brightest, most colorful, neon reflection, on the perma-rain soaked streets fades next to the hypnotic fire of her eyes. She was walking temptation, at the gates to a thousand years of blissful torment, troubled sleeps of imperfection, in the face of ultimate obsession. She was a glimpse in the corner of my eye, that grew to become everything. No one could feed her todays, so how could I ever hope to satisfy her thirst for tomorrow? I touched the razorblade within my mind, and watched my soul turn to blood stained red. Hard and fast images, of nightly news bulletins, and adult movies, with sub-stratospheric stars, that twinkled only in their secret despairs, foot on the gas, no hands on the wheel, eyes closed, as the cliff edge hurtles towards them, at warp speed infinity. Permanent decline of a never ending empire. Sometimes, between

Untitled Memory
Somewhere inside of every dream is a rainbow, not the sort of rainbow you get when the sun hits the rain, but one where a thousand lonely tear drops hit the bright rays of hope, and create a kaleidascope of uncertainty. Sometime, maybe in the past, or the future, when I was filled with such doubts, I felt the rainbow stir inside of me, a million beautiful colors, touching ever corner of my body, tingling me with energy, and anticipation, and I closed my eyes and floated on the moment, soaring over giant redwoods, like a magnificent eagle, wild, untamed, and free, looking down upon the world, seeing everything, but unshackled of it's problems. After many hours of flying, that took but the blinking of an eye, I settled on a raft in the ocean, a small wooden raft, that had floated upon the seas for all eternity, that had been floating there before you, and I, and forever were even dreamt of, and I lay there, still in the morning sun, with the gentle surf lapping just inches from my

Content
Slumped in your chair in the land of dreams Embraced by the dancing shadows Flickering flames from the fire Throwing orange and yellow patterns Across your chair as you slip into the dreamlands seduction I run my palms gently Across the curve of your cheek The tips of my finger so lightly , Over the line of your bowed lips Bending just enough Too brush my kiss across them Your eyes still closed As you slumber with fatigue Stirring, a hint of smile quivers, At the corners of your intoxicating mouth Just being close to you this way Fills me up with tenderness Full and complete Silence of the fading evening light Listening to the clock ticking The Rythem of your breathing The woman in me content

On Cold Nights...
On cold nights I wrap myself in thoughts of you velvet dreams of warmer times of sweeter times of... O my word I really couldn't say on a public site On cold nights I wrap myself in thoughts of you sweet subtle thoughts of us entwined of... You fill my mind with exstacy Let me caress you love you fill you with sensual dreams of... On cold nights I wrap myself in thoughts of you velvet dreams of warmer times of sweeter times of... O my word I really couldn't say on a public site...

Rubbing It...
Fuck I am HORNY!!! I would ask if any of the local ladies would be interested in saving me the trouble of jerking off and come over to fuck me…but that might be too forward…huh? ;P …But I mean…if you want to…Just let me know! heh ;) At the very least…Anyone willing to talk dirty to me? :D Fuck! Damn, I’m horny! And fuck do I need some pussy, real fucking bad!

The Bird Nest
THE BIRD FEEDER I bought a bird feeder. I hung it on my back porch and filled it with seed. Within a week we had hundreds of birds taking advantage of the continuous flow of free and easily accessible food. But then the birds started building nests in the boards of the patio, above the table, and next to the barbecue. Then came the poop. It was everywhere: on the patio tile, the chairs, the table...everywhere. Then some of the birds turned mean: They would dive bomb me and try to peck me even though I had fed them out of my own pocket, and others birds were boisterous and loud. They sat on the feeder and squawked and screamed at all hours of the day and night and demanded that I fill it when it got low on food. After a while, I couldn't even sit on my own back porch anymore. I took down the bird feeder and in three days the birds were gone. I cleaned up their mess and took down the many nests they had built all over the patio. Soon, the back yard was like it used to be...quie

For My Boo Again
I've never seen you Or touched your skin I've never felt your lips Or held you tight But I know I love you Not because of the way you look Or because of that sexy voice Not because of the things you say But because of whom you are When we meet I will kiss you And hold you all night I love everything about you Because it's you

Heres Another One For You Boo I Love You
All I have, is all I give With my body mind and soul My breath, with my existence And my heart that you have stole All my love, is yours alone For all the world to see All I have, is yours my love For all eternity All I want, is all I need With us walking hand in hand Talking, touching, having fun How our lives will be so grand All I think, are thoughts of you You never leave my mind All I want, for evermore That our hearts remain entwined All I feel, is all I see When I look into your eyes I see the meaning of true love And it makes me realise All I am, is all I'll be In everything I do All I feel, within my soul This is my gift to you

Such A Nice Day...
Or not... Fuck the VA... Fuck a system that works for everyone but those that put money and blood into it... Fuck old people... Fuck Minivans... Fuck old people in minivans... And fuck the bill I gotta pay thanks to old people in minivans... FUCK!!!!!

Musings
Thoughtful Questions...Which TV family would you like to join?The SimpsonsThree suitcases or one carry-on?one carry onWhat superpower would you want to possess? Why?Mind Control..to make ppl fucking behave and stop being total douchebagsThe movie or the book? Or the Cliffs Notes?Always The BookIf you started a treehouse club and could only invite three members, who would you pick?Natalie Portman,Maria Sharapova,Pauley PerretteWhat was your favorite subject in school? WhyEnglish and History..because I enjoy english and historyIf you could go back in time and relive one day in your life, which day would you choose and why?My Birth..so I can see how many times I was droppedWhat are your three main goals in life?To Crush My Enemies,See Them Driven Before me,and to hear the Lamentations of WomenWhat is your most missed memory?being a coupleIf you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?I'd kill my mother before she gave birth to meWhat one thing do you want most in

How Sex Start
..a smile leads to a laugh ...a laugh leads to a high 5 ...a high 5 leads to a hug ...a hug leads to a kiss ...a kiss leads 2 a makeout ...makeout leads to a feel up ...a feel up leads 2 a finger ...a finger leads to a hand ...a hand leads to a lick ...a lick leads to a suck ...a suck leads 2 a fuck. ...So tell me how many people are you gonna smile at after you heard this cuz sex is like math. ...u add the bed ..subtract the clothes ...divide the legs ...leave your solution ...and pray you don't multiply

Surgery And Kurt Cobain
just thought i would let anyone who cares i might be out of pocket for a while...and if i do not ever show back up then you all know it did not go well... i miss the 90s i dont care how much stupid shit came out then but i am glad i was a teenager for them because everything sux now.. i miss the 90s mainly i miss the friends my youth getting stoned no worries...myso called life... doc martins walking everywhere we went...lots of the music playing super nintendo to white zombie...sneaking out.. getting into clubs.. the movies that came out then,,,hours at dennys on coffee.. the shows and concerts getting dropped off at the mall to make fun of evryone and getting kicked out because i had to climb that huge copper armadillo..stealing concert shirts... smoking on the roof... jumping off the roof swimming... jumping off anything climbing up high shit cuz someone dared me to running doen a country road naked because someone dared me too... the 4 hour make out sessions... always havin