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A Poem I Wrote
He came to me perhaps by chance I heard his words for which to dance My heart succumbed to his ether breath This unconsious state is worse than death His sweat that burns like acid rain Could this be the cure to all my pain Razor blade tongue and heated eyes The touch of his hand so full of lies I'm set on fire with just one look If he only knew it wasn't me that he took....

Beneath The Cover Of Darkness - By: Royce F Murray
Here's a bit of Star Trek Fan Fiction I wrote for a contest a couple of years ago. Should be very different from the last one, but no less enjoyable I hope. Cheers. Skip xoxo -------------------------------------- “Shields down to twenty-three percent!” Natasha Yar shouted from the Conn station. Sparks erupted from the ceiling and surrounding bridge stations. Smoke filled the command centre, the acrid smell of fried circuitry and half-melted duranium burning the inside of her nose. The body of Ensign T’Palt, the Enterprise-C’s new helmsman, lay cold and still on the deck to Tasha’s right. “Two more Warbirds have just entered sensor range, bearing oh-three-five mark seven! ETA…three minutes.” “Bridge to Engineering,” called Lieutenant Richard Castillo from the Captain’s chair. “Divert what you can to the shields. Take it from life support if you have to but we have to hold out as long as possible. Seconds count.” Tasha watched the tactical display as the figu

Labels
What is it with people and labels. I'm so sick of someone looking at you and judging you. People get real please get to know someone by their personality. Not their looks. This is the real world not high school.

Like, Totally.
1. Someone knocks on your door at 2 a.m. Who do you want it to be? *Publisher's Clearing House (as if) 2. Your boss tells you he/she will give you a $20 raise if you'll do your job naked. Would you stay? *do I get to hide in my cubicle? 3. Put yourself in a nutshell: *not possible, literally or figuratively. 4. Have you ever seen a ghost? *seen? no. felt or sensed? yes. 5. Are you happy with your body? *yeah. it could be better though. 6. What’s one reason you would move to Iceland? *to visit my ancestors. 7. Name a place you've lived that you miss: *my first apartment. 8. What’s a job you would never do regardless of how much you were paid: *whore. 9. A band you thought was cool when you were 13: *Bone Thugs 'n Harmony. 10. You have a nightmare, who's the first person you think to call? *no one. i deal with it on my own. 11. Do you want to have kids before you're 30? *not really. i like happiness too much. 12. A memory from high school

Vent Time!
I figured it was more than time for a new blog, so here goes nothin'. I apologize way ahead of time if this blog goes off on random tangents and never gets back to a point, I just have a lot to say and no way of combining them together. Better yet, I hope I confuse the crap out of you, and you love every minute of it. Knowing you, you'll just continue reading in search of a point to all of these ramblings. Joke'll be on you, it may or may not have one. Stay with me on the Ramblin' Road, it gets bumpy: First things first, idiotic customers. Here, I'll give you a snippet of the convo I had with a guy just a few minutes ago. Keep in mind that he left his old motor with us for junk: Customer: "Hi, I just bought a motor from there today and I'd like to check that I got the right motor." Me: "Ok...." Customer: "The motor I brought in said 1425RPM and the motor I got said 1725RPM." Me: "Alrite, what motor do you have now?" Customer: "The one that says 1725RPM." Me (though

The Wager (part 2)
Raymond smiled. Rebecca stood toe to toe with him, staring unblinkingly into his eyes. “Well?” she said. “Do we have a bet or don’t we?” “Indeed we do,” he said. Rebecca watched as Raymond removed the pack from his pack. H held it in one hand and opened it, rummaging deep inside it. Rebecca wondered what he was up to. A moment later, he removed a pair of steel cuffs. They glinted in the early afternoon sun. Rebecca’s breath caught in her throat. “What are those for?” “The wager is about what you can do with your mouth,” Raymond said. “I’m going to cuff your hands behind your back to make sure you don’t cheat.” Before the girl could protest, Raymond gripped her shoulder in his free hand and spun her around. She was too shocked to do anything, and Raymond gripped her left wrist and pulled it behind her. Rebecca’s mind whirled. Why did he have handcuffs in his bag? A moment later she felt the cuff grip her wrist and heard the small clicks as he closed it ti

Down On Life!
Have you ever reached a point in your life where everything seems to be going wrong and gettin worse with each day that passes? This is pretty much the way that i feel this week and I really dont know why. There were a few times this week at work that I would feel so damn lonely that I would start crying, but like I couldnt figure out why I was even crying. Yeah that's right, I'm a man and yes I do cry and i'm not afraid to admit it. Maybe I need to get on some kind of medication or something. I'm tired, my mind just keeps racing on thoughts over and over again. I just keep worryin about everything and doubting myself. Hell I even worry about my relationship with my wife and wonder if i'm good enough for her. I could go on and on, but I can't keep my mind on one subject for more than 2 seconds right now. I guess I just need to relax this weekend and get sloberin ass drunk and hope it gets better. Hell maybe it's just this cold ass weather after having temps in the mid 70's the other da

Song Of The Day! Afternoon Edition
i don't care what you say this is a kick ass song.. i needed some happy music for this afternoon and this song popped in my head so enjoy :D eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonite go on and close the curtains 'cause all we need is candlelight you and me ... and the bottle of wine and hold you tonight [ ohh ] well we know i'm going away and how i wish - i wish it weren't so so take this wine and drink with me let's delay our misery save tonight and fight the break of dawn come tomorrow - tomorrow i'll be gone save tonight and fight the break of dawn come tomorrow - tomorrow i'll be gone there's a log on the fire and it burns like me for you tomorrow comes with one desire to take me away [ ohh it's true ] it ain't easy to say good bye darling please - don't start to cry 'cause girl you know i've got to go [ohh ] and Lord i wish it wasn't so save tonight and fight the break of dawn come tomorrow - tomorrow i'll be gone save tonight and fight the break of dawn c

Sex Interview...ladies...if U Would
1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would like to have sex with? 2. Do they know it? 3. Have you had sex with anyone on you friend’s list? 4. Do you like making love or having hott sex? 5. Have your ever had a 3 some? 6. What is your favorite position? 7. Do you want to have sex with the person who posted this? 8. Give or receive oral? 9. Kinky or sneaky? 10. Loud or quiet? 11. Ruff of soft? 12. Foreplay or not? 13. Do you like to bite or be bitten? 14. Spank or be spanked? 15. Condoms or not? 16. Masturbate or not? 17. Role-playing or not? 18. Are you brave enough to re-post this?

I'm Gonna Miss You So Much Lil Bud
THIS MORNING MY BEST FRIENDS 2 YEAR OLD SON PASSED AWAY AT 6:35 AM.. HE MENT THE WORLD TO ME HE WAS MY LIL BUDDY AND I'M GONNA MISS HIM SO MUCH.. Get Code | Create Your Own! THIS WAS HIS FAV SONG AND WAS PLAYING THIS MORNING IN THE HOSPITAL WHILE HE PASSED AWAY.. Jon Secada - I'm FreeMusic Video Codes By Music Video Code

Sexy Survey
1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would like to have sex with? 2. Do they know it? 3. Have you had sex with anyone on you friend’s list? 4. Do you like making love or having hott sex? 5. Have your ever had a 3 some? 6. What is your favorite position? 7. Do you want to have sex with the person who posted this? 8. Give or receive oral? 9. Kinky or sneaky? 10. Loud or quiet? 11. Ruff of soft? 12. Foreplay or not? 13. Do you like to bite or be bitten? 14. Spank or be spanked? 15. Condoms or not? 16. Masturbate or not? 17. Role-playing or not? 18. Are you brave enough to re-post this?

...but The [blood] Splatters Nicely.
rape me. rip me open, eyes convulsing. body burning. saline in rivulets dripping down my face. and cheeks blushed from violent hands. slap me harder i'm your slut. [meaningless sex.] fuck me hard against the wall. face shoved into blue no. 7. until the paint cracks from the pressure. until my mind cracks from the pleasure. broken bones. bleeding from the hate. [meaningless sex.] spin me around. throw me down. my nails draw up flesh. i'm not the only one who gets a taste. sanguinary dreams. dripping onto white satin. stark white. crimson divine. [meaningless sex.] screaming prevails. blood splattered hands. torn from the inside out. innocence stolen. and fucked too hard to remember. but i see it all clearly. [meaningless sex.] you make me a whore. but when it's all said and done, i want more.

My Body Heat
My body heat is so complete When you’re next to me Baby I wanna be your freak When I hear you speak I just can’t think ‘bout nothing else but You and me in between the sheets Lay down next to me I feel I’m in ecstasy When you’re close to me This is where I wanna be My body heat isn’t there without you I just imagine your warm body laying on top of me Just caress my back And I’ll caress your mind Say straight to your eyes Cuz baby you so fine I can’t get enough of Your beautiful face And when you rub me down I know there is no better place I need to feel the warmth of your Smooth sexy skin And when I feel your touch I get the slightest grin Just to put the right spice into the night I want you now baby I’m feeling just right Tonight is the night Where our bodies become one I’m shiftin and lickin my lips Come out the bathroom In something see-through Grovin it down to my V suit I’m so all about you I’m down to show you How I feel about you Car

Searching My Soul
The Drive to build life is very strong Lost is the feeling cause something’s wrong Search for the meaning it’s so hard to find Am I the only seeing soul in a world gone blind ? Living to consume in this express lane Wonder why my body feels so much pain Push for the perks and things that pass away Am I the only soul seeing in a world gone astray ? Seeking to fill the void of an empty life No laughter of children, no love of wife Only the things that cold hard cash can buy Am I the only soul seeing this world pass by ? Time that just flies with nothing to show The young grow old before they know That living is more than things and money Am I the only soul left in this world to see ? By R. Thomas Dinsmore

It's You
back again seen this place before now and then I make it back to the door I close my eyes and everything comes rushing in im hypnotized wondering when life begins another day another round of pain some how some way I lose myself again to you its always been you inside my head its you another lonely night again I turn away shed a tear remembering when you made me smile sadness was for someone else and now i walk a mile just to fix my face again I try to live a life im supposed to and for awhile i make myself believe its true but its you that takes my world from me and its you that has a hold on me always you ill never be set free ill be here in pain where im supposed to be

Comments.....
ok so lots of people stop by and read my blogs but most of the time never comment.... so whats the go with that i ask???? are you trying to be polite and not say random shit about peoples mindless ramblings??? i jibber jabber away alot and its nice to know if people like the jibber jabber or are sick of the same old shit i jibber jabber on with... i can jibber away till the cows come home so my mindless ramblings can go on and on most of the time i think i am going crazy... other times i have mental blocks... so ideas would be nice.. do i write some more erotic stuff or kiss and tell??? do i write more poetry about hte darkness in me... or shall i just jibber jabber away about nothing at all really???? comments are more than welcome to me as i bear no ill will or grudges for too long... i almost always have a larf at myself and what goes on in my life like waiting for cancer results..... gota laugh or you go crazy... any way that is some more jibber jabbering for now till

Fair Warning About Tomorrow
TOMORROW WILL BE A DAY OF JOY AND SADNESS FOR ME.. IT IS SO HARD TO DEAL WITH THIS DAY. AS IM NOT SURE WHICH MOOD I WILL BE IN YOU SEE TOMORROW MY DAUGHTHER MARY TURNS 31. FOR WHICH I AM VERY LUCKY. AS SHE ONLY WEIGHED 2.13 LBS AT BIRTH AND THEY GAVE HER THREE DAYS TO LIVE. MY LITTLE MIRACLE BABY AND THEN ALSO. MY DAD PASSED AWAY 16 YEARS AGO TOMORROW. HE DECIDED TO BE SELFISH IN BY KILLING HISSLEF ON HER BIRTHDAY. MY DAD HAD DEPRESSION AND HE DECIDED TO HANG HIMSELF SO TOMORROW IS ALWAYS FILLED WITH SO MANY MIXED EMOTIONS. NOT SURE IF I WILL BE ON TOMORROW.AND IF I AM IM NOT SURE WHAT MOOD I WILL BE IN. SO PLEASE JUST BEAR WITH ME AND HAVE PATIENCE WITH ME THANK YOU FOR READING THIS AND UNDERSTANDING HAPPY ST PATTYS DAY TO ALL HUGS AND KISSES VICKIE

I Want To Win! Vote For Me!
It's that time again. The voting polls are open for the Fame Awards! I'm listed in quite a few categories and last year I won for only Best Gonzo, If you're a true fan, please vote for me in all the categories you think I deserve to win! Your vote may not matter during the 2008 presidential election, but it most definitely counts for this!VOTE NOW!

Not Just A Number
I know I have many people on my friends list I have never even said hi to. I'm sorry :( I don't ever want people to think they are just a number on my list. And I don't want to feel that way either. I wish I had the time to talk to everyone. But anyone who says hi I will talk to you. :) There are some of you I talk to every day :). I don't know what I would do without you. You make me feel special. You help me stay sane... or close to it. :). I wish I had the chance to know you away from the computer. Of course then I would be shy..lol. But I am so lucky to have the friends I talk to here on CT. I almost left a few times for good... but that would have been a mistake because I would have lost some of you. I am glad I am not just a number on your friends list :)

.cats.n.candy.
so. just got back from the Humane Society. Meems got her kitty. thank god its not a kitten...i dun like kittens...they bite n scratch n stuff...which is what cats are sposed to do i spose...but im not an effin scratching post...so no please. there were two...that just...yeah even i liked them. both were torti...both were female...one was a Manx...the other...wasnt...one was spayed which meant we could bring her home today...the other while we could have the joy of paying for her...we'd have to wait a few days so she could be spayed first. well Meems is impatient...so we took a look at the Manx...adorable. affectionate. full o hair. so we bought her. she's currently residing in my bathroom...to get used to the environment bits at a time. she hopped outta the carrier n went right to the litter box...highly impressive. we named her Poe. as in Edgar Allan or the musician take your pick i decided to have a beer with lunch...cuz its saturday...and i have them...so wh

45 Things Woman Would Die For
45 things a girl would die for 1-touch their waist 2-talk to them 3-share secrets 4-give her your jacket 5-kiss them slowly are you remembering this? 6-hug her 7-hold her 8-laugh with her 9-invite her somewhere 10-let her be with you when you're with your friends keep reading 11-smile with her 12-take pics with her 13-pull her onto your lap 14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back 15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved Are you thinking about someone? 16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her 17-kiss her unexpectedly 18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST 19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy! 20-tell her the way you feel about her! ..20 u need to show her you mean it too 21-kiss her on the lips 22-kiss her on her forhead 23-kiss her on top of her head 24-make her feel loved 25-we might d

This Bitch
this fat balding bitch whose tits are bigger then mine, the same guy who accused throat fawk of having a sex change is not only rocking my salute but running arround talking shit to people like bbg robisue and others with my pictures on it, when i contacted bouncers they asked him to remove them their still up that was what one bouncer did 2 others sent me massages on how if i dont want my pics ripped i shouldnt upload them and the other 3 didnt reply, how wonderfull is this, gotta love cherry tap im serriously so close to deleting my fucking account FAT SKANK@ CherryTAP

3-17-07 21st Entry
Well I have my first visit this thursday with the sleep apnea portion of the surgery process. Its been a LONGGGGG couple months. If all goes right, and it doesn't take long to get the actual sleep test done (I am only seeing the doctor thursday), I can call the surgeon office with hopefully good news (aka no sleep apnea). As far as I can tell the only steps I have left til the actual surgery are: Sleep apnea doctor visit, sleep apnea test, inform surgeon of results, if all is good there and insurance has approved surgery (still waiting on that result too, my fam doc office should have sent my records over by now so the surgeon office and push surgery through), I then go on a 2 week special diet to shrink liver then last, but certainly not least, surgery. Maybe I'll hit it lucky and get it done in April. Spend the wet part of spring recovering from surgery so I can enjoy the dry part of spring outside while I'm still off work in recovery. That would be nice. Although I'm a

Sooo Hmm
ok so this guy named joe. was talking to me. like saying really sweet things to me.but who doesnt.(not trying to sound conceited)but then i notice like some other girl.soo i like visit her page and he;s pretty much saying the same things to her as he was to me... i mean wtf..so im thinking to myself.wtf im so stupid for believeing him. and then we talk and then he tells me all this stuff and then like yeah hes still talking to her oh fucking well i dont care anymore.. and he said she looked at my profile and got jealous.but ya other than that i really hate getting my emotion toyed with like that...wtfever..

If Tomorrow Never Comes
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day. If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say I love you, instead of assuming you would KNOW I do. If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything right. There will always be another day to say our I love you's, And certainly there's another chance to say our "An

Week Four Or So
We finally started using weapons and armor in fencing class this week. It was quite the transition. I became unusually skillfull with the gloves Coach had us working with. That is, you held a glove within your hand and tried to hit somebody with it. As hard as you could, to get bragging rights. That wasn't the drill, but it's what ended up happening. Whenever my opponent turned their back on me, I gave them the famous towel snap. You probably know what that is. When my instructor saw me do it though, it wasn't quite so impressive. "Ryan, what was that??" "It was warrior instinct, Coach." "The next time 'Warrior instinct' takes over, make sure you're holding your weapon like a sabre instead of a club." "Yes, Coach." We got our armor issued to us this week. I am the proud bearer of a school fencing jacket that is much too tight and squeezes my nuts, but Sports Chalet doesn't sell fencing jackets so I will have to bear with it for now. Sometimes I think I can hear the

Day 7
Well its nearly 11am and this is my 7th day without a fag, I had a sudden urge to have one before but I fought it, but that was the first time since Friday night I had one of them, so I am just glad for the patches as I think I would have given in by now, at least if they can get me through the craving stage then I will be okay

Better Not Touch!
Good Morning all you hungover pplz! I spent yesterday watching house and cleaning the kids rooms. I need to grocery shop. Its so boring. Everyones run away for the weekend. I am so unloved :( Imma go cry in my Stewarts Birch Beer :( EDITED TO ADD Cant embed you tube no more?? WTF

Update On Mom
It's been a while since I've had time to post an update on my mom, but it couldn't be helped. For those of you who care, my mom is doing much MUCH better! While she was in the hospital in Chicago, they adjusted her meds, and so far to date it's working. It's amazing to me how irratic thise disease is. About the time you think you understand it, something happens to make you confused all over again. My mom is back in the nursing home in Indiana. She's not having to be restrained right now, she's calm, copperative, and is making sense to a degree. She also knows that she can never leave the nursing home, and is adjusting very well to that fact, which in itself is surprising all of us. We were told by the staff that she is interacting more, participating in some activities, and is alot more accepting of being there. To say we are relieved is an understatement!!! Two weeks ago, we were told if she didn't get better, they wouldn't be able to keep her there because she was to

One More Day
Well, gang, we got one more day until Angel(my g/f) goes in to have her surgery. For those of you who don't know about it, read my other blog, "About my g/f", it will tell you whats going on. If you have not stopped by her page yet, swing in there, say HI, wish here the best of luck, fan her, rate her, add her if you like. I will let everyone know tomorrow night how everything went and how she is doing. Thank you, Wildman Here's her link: lildevil@ CherryTAP

Tomorrow Is The Day
I quit smoking and drinking.....its going to suck for couple weeks....but I have to do it my stomach won't take it anymore...starting to end up with a bad stomach like my mother...popping acid reducers everyday..so I figured it's time...wish me luck....send me good vibes my way :)

My Blessing
One day I was a wreck. The next I was feeling complete. Suddenly things were clear again. Thats what happened when you found me. So much was a mess as far as my life was concerned and I must say that since you stepped into my heart things are for once okay. Youre a blessing to me without a doubt. You take the time to understand. You never judge, just try to see and that makes it so easy to be your man. With you in my life I see the sun even through the rain. With you in my life I see the new and no longer am I feeling pain. You bless me with love in the purest of form. You give me your all and expect in return that only I love with all of my heart and never allow what we have to burn. A blessing to me is what youve become and I am thankful everyday. I get through the stress because I know best in the end it will all be okay.

Can You Say?
Can you say in parting with the day that's slipping fast That you have helped a single person of the many that you've passed? Is a single life rejoicing over what you did or said? Does someone whose hopes were fadin, now with courage look ahead? Did you waste the day, or lose it, was it well or poorly spent? Did you leave a trend of kindness, or a scar of discontent? As you close your eyes in slumber, do you think that God would say You have made the world much better, for the life you've lived today? I didn't write this but I feel it every day... Thanks for stopping by...

Self Esteem
well, i know that it's a total cliche and a complete turn off when a woman says that she's not pretty enough or that she doesn't think she's all that. Looking at my pictures you see someone that's flirty and perhaps a little adventurous...and yes, that's me...but not until you get to know me and I'm comfortable being with you. For me it's not that I don't like myself or that I think i'm utterly dispicable and it's not like I'm outrageously overweight, although I'm not what I used to be. What it mainly boils down to is that I have some "extra padding" as they say. I have a daughter, and she's 5 and I'm just not like most really petite women that have had children and just bounce back to being firm and in shape and utterly perfect with boobs that could poke your eyes out. What gets me is that I'm totally cool about making friends day to day outside of my computer interests, and that seems to go well. I have men flirt with me at work a lot, but I just don't know how I would feel if a guy

Poem
Dream or Reality We all have dreams, but yet we live in reality. Have you ever thought of this!! There may be a chance that you are dreaming. Is reality truly real? Or is it a manification come to life. Most of us have pleasant dreams and wake up refreshed. Some of us have nightmares and wake up in cold sweats. Be it a dream or reality that wwe live in. Be glad to be alive. We can always make our own dreams come true. Working hard and staying healthy and active, I but only a small portion of it. We must also excersice our minds. Some of us believe in the power that dreams hold. Time for you to break from the normal, And bring your dreams to reality.

Big V.s Skinny Vs Who Gives A Damn!!!
Aiight Ladies & Gentlemen, Whut's the deal??? I know we all have our sexual preferences that we like,but dont put people down because they not up to YOUR standards!! Thats bullshit! Not only that but it makes it harder for guys like me to get a shot of ass cause you done broke some womans heart! Not to sound selfish but i like to fuck as im sure every human on this planet likes to do. I have no preferences in my women im not a big guy, i'm not a millionare, and i damn sure ain't Mr.Perfect. So? Whut do i have to offer women who find me attractive? I'll tell you and this may be the secret to get more women to like you, Wan know whut it is?? TELL THE FUCKIN" TRUTH!!! That's it! Easy huh? It sucks that i waited 28 yrs to start doing it, but better late than never. Anyhoo, yea tell the truth, i do. When i meet women sometimes i tell them flat out i wan fuck. They seemed surprised at first but it's the truth! Why wait 3wks, 3mths before we come to the inevitable?? at least i know im not was

Addicted To You
Addicted to you As I sit here thinking about my life and what has gone on in my life your name and face pop up in my mind. You are always on my mind no matter what is going on. Right now you like cocanie to me you are very addicting to me . Your laugh , Your smile, hell even your voice I can not get them off my mind. When I think I can finally kick this habbit I cant because it happens all over again. Sprits as they call them keep pulling me back into this web I have spun myself and I am once again stuck on you.I can not pull my self far enough away from you because no matter what you are always on my mind and always will be on my mind and in my heart. I guess I am addicted to . It is a pure addiction it is not one that can kill me but it does hurt from time to time. So once again I sit here thinking of life in genral and i am back to thinking about you. This addiction must stop befor I go spinning out of control. I wrote this tonight let me know what you think it i

Roses
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My Dad Is Very Sick
I FOUND OUT YESTERDAY MY FATHER IS HAVING MORE COMPLICATIONS DUE TO HIS DIABETES, HE HAS HAD ONE TOE REMOVED SO FAR DUE TO FEET ULCERS, NOW HE HAS TWO MORE ON HIS FEET, THIS COULD LEAD TO APUTATION OF HIS FEET, I AM VERY SADDENED BY THIS NEWS, I HAVE ALMOST LOST HIM TOO MANY TIMES ALREADY, I CANT IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT HIM, I AM VERY HEART BROKEN.

For Those Who Simply Believe In A God Or Higher Being...
For those who simply believe in a God or higher being... WHAT HAPPENS IN HEAVEN This is one of the nicest e-mails I have seen and is so true: I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around. We walked side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels. My angel guide stopped in front of the first section and said, "This is the Receiving Section. Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received." I looked around in this area, and it was terribly busy with so many angels sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from people all over the world. Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section. The angel then said to me, "This is the Packaging and Delivery Section. Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed and delivered to the living persons who asked for them." I noticed again how busy it was there. There were many angels working hard at that station

Another Set Back
Just as I thougght things were getting better, something creeped round the corner and knocked me down again. I got a phone call this morning of my Ex, to inform me that my Son from that marriage has been diagnosed with Cancer, he is only 27 he'will be 28 later this year. Steven has severe Learning difficulties, due to been starved of air when he was born. Here is a photo of him taken last Christmas, he is between my 2 brothers, that is Caitlin and Charlene in the front

Letting Your Senses Take You Down The Road Of Defeat...
Many Christians walk by their senses rather than by their spirits. As a result, they are running into a multitude of problems which will lead them down the road to defeat. Although people may be saved and even filled with the Holy Spirit, they are not attaining and living the overcoming, victorious life. So what's the reason? It is simply because they have not made the change from the realm of the senses to the realm of the Spirit. The only way to make that change is with a renewed mind. A mind (spirit) that is renewed with the Word of God is always at war with the un-renewed mind, always in conflict, always engaged in a battle with unbelief. Unbelief is simply the conflict between the spirit of a man and the senses of a man. Your senses will always demand tangible, visible evidence concerning the reality of the things of God. In contrast, the man who walks by the spirit is always governed by the Word of God, independent of the senses. It is easy to see why many Christi

Will This Ever End!!!
OK so yesterday I thought this cold was leaving...I'm walking in the park talking to Josh and felt really good:-)!!! Today I wake up and i feel horrible again!!! I know my imuune system is like really shot right now with my treatments, but this is getting ridiculous!!!!I have tried the whole chicken soup, sleeping, meds routine..Anyone have any good home remedies for colds???? If so Please share:-)~~~ XOXOX Michele

Is It Friday Yet?
If it is not Friday yet I am gonna go back to bed and not wake up till it is. Headache is a little better but light hurts like h#ll and everything is a bit blurry though not as bad as last night. One of our biggest pain in the A$$ clients is sending emails today with stuff that makes no sense at all. She is one of those people who will ask for something, you do it, talk to her about it, and then she asks for it again the next month,, and forgets you even talked about it.

Mourning A Loss.....
never thought i'd be the one to say this but i am to inform those who do not know the loss of my sweet spirit. She over dosed on pain medication... So many things i wish i could say to her now so many things i know i cant now. I'm sorry Ash... I promised you i'd protect you and i failed I'm sorry, Please rest now , You are in a far better place then us. You are safe now my sweet Spirit, No one can hurt you now and no one can make you cry. You were always my angel girl. And now you are an angel above to watch over us all. I'll see you again my sweet Spirit. I'll be seeing you soon.

And Again We Go...
I think that I am way too nice with some people... For absolutely NO reason, a friend of mine as gone psycho on me once again. What did I do? I have no clue..Maybe it's because I was there for him and I always listened to him or maybe it's because I love him so much...

In Your Hand's (poem #1) By : Outlaw Angel
In your hands I lay my heart Running the risk of being torn apart. In your hands I lay my dream with hearts connected we're a loving team. In your hands I lay my eternal devotion my heart swells when I have this notion.

Candle Light Kisses(poem #2)
Candle light kiss's between you and me make promises for a future to be. Candle light and a shadowy face will this lead me to fall in disgrace. Candle light kiss's and whispered words from the heart. Our souls will never be apart. *note i know the words are not spelled right but these are how she has written the poem and I am not changing the way she has anything Im typing it as it is written*

To All My Dearest Friends, I Need Some Help.
My cousin's cat had kittens and he was able to give away all but 4 of them. I told him I would help him find homes for the last 4. I can't take one because I am allergic, but if you could take just one it would be such a help and the kittens coul d have a nice home. Since he lives by the Nuclear Power Plant, I'll go pick them up for you. Below are pictures of the last 4 kittens. Will you help?

Feel The Fire #47
Feel the fire burn deep in my heart I don't think our love could ever fall apart. Feel the fire as it burns deep in my soul My fire for you will soon take it's toll. Feel the fire as it consumes you and me, From this heat you will never be free.

Learn To Speak Chinese
ARE YOUHARBORING A FUGITIVE-HU Y HAI DING SEE ME A.S,A.P.---KUM HIA NAO SMALL HORSE---TAI NI PO NI YOUR PRICE IS TO HIGH----------NO BAI DAM TING DID YOU GO TO THE BEACH---WAI YU SO TAN? I BUMPED INTO A COFFEE TABLE----AI BANG MAI NI I THINK YOU NEED A FACE LIFT---CHIN TU FAT ITS VERY DARK IN HERE---WAI SO DIM? HAS YOUR FLIGHT BEEN DELAYED?---HAO LONGWEI TING? THAT WAS AN UNAUTHORIZED EXECUTION---LIN CHING I THOUGHT YOU WERE ON A DIET---WAI YU MUN CHING? THIS IS A TOW AWAY ZONE--NO PAH KING YOU ARE NOT VERY BRIGHT-YU SO DUM I GOT THIS FOR FREE--AI NO PEI I AM NOT GUILTY---WAI HANG MI? PLEASE STAY A LITTLE LONGER--HIA DEI KUM STAY OUT OF SIGHT---KEI LO HES CLEANING HISAUTOMOBILE--WA SHING KA DOES THIS BATHROOM STINK!--HU FLUNG DUNG? DARLIN MOTHER

Sick
Sorry I have been neglectful all my lovely friends.. But I have not been feeling all to well lately... I went to the drs today.. Another hour long office visit to find out I have and upper respiratory infection.. boarder line bronchitis and close to pneumonia .. just lovely.. so I have to take to different cough meds.. for now and if I get worse go back to the dr... lovely.. oh well.. But that is why I haven't been up to my normal part of rating and comments.. Megan.. Freak Of The Irish...

Why Do You Come Here?
Ya know, I just spent 20 minutes of my life reading a blog by someone I expected to be impressed with... only to find out in the end it's just another "This is an evil person!!" blog. I hate those... especially the ones that someone feels the need to point out that they don't care how evil this person is... just that they've been tracking them for weeks now and gathering all this evil data about thier evilness. Ya uh huh, you spent how long, and you're telling me you don't care? Either you're lying or you're just a REALLY sad masochist. So then I started typing a message here... hit the wrong button... and since the site's not smart enough to help you, my page changed and POOF... data all gone. Happens all the time, usually it's a message coming on the shoutbox and you hit delete and the browser changes back a page... and POOF message all gone. So I started thinking... why DO I come here? I mean really... at LEAST 50% of the bulletins are full of "add me rate me fan me" or "add h

Friendship
Love is friendship set on fire....Jeremy Taylor. Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship, never....Charles Caleb Colton. The miracle of friendship can be spoken without words...hearing unspoken needs, recognizing secret dreams, understanding the silent things that only true friends know....Unknown. Friendship, said Pooh, is a very comforting thing....A. A. Milne. Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget....G. Randolf. Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend forever....George Fox. The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him....Ralph Waldo Emerson. A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway....Fr. Jerome Cummings. True friends

I Love You
" I Love You " Deeper than the Ocean do I love you. Higher than the sky is my obsession for you. I love breathing you, seeing you, feeling you too. These are my true hearts confessions. You prance through my dreams, it's forever it seems, before i get to see you. prancing through my heart, through every part. heating my soul anew. Inside me burns a passion deeper than anyone knew. It preys on your sway, released when i say. Those soft warm words. " I Love You "

Gre
i went and took the GRE this morning (the test you take to get into grad school). The good news is I passed, or at least got the score I needed to get into the graduate program I've got my eye on. The bad news is all the stress last night and this morning made me sick :(

My Mother!!
My mom has had cancer for the last 2 yrs and had half of her right lung removed..we thought everything was going good until recently when they found another spot on her neck which they removed last week..well today I found out that friday she has to have a cat scan done on her brain to see if it spread to there which I hope hasn't but the doctor told her that if it did there wasn't a cure and she was just biding her time now..I would like to ask all my friends and family if they could please say a prayer for her.I would greatly appreciate it!!

For Those Of You With Pets . .please Read !
Please check your pets food ...Numbers are listed toword the bottom of this Blog ..!!!! Pet Food Tests Kill Seven Animals, Feds Say By ANDREW BRIDGES AP WASHINGTON (March 19) - As many as one in six animals died in tests of suspect dog and cat food by the manufacturer after complaints the products were poisoning pets around the country, the government said Monday. A federal investigation is focusing on wheat gluten as the likely source of contamination that sparked a recall last Friday of 60 million cans and pouches of the suspect food, said Stephen F. Sundlof, the Food and Drug Administration's top veterinarian. The ingredient, a protein source, is commonly used as filler. Agency investigators are looking at other ingredients as well. The wet-style pet food was made by Menu Foods, an Ontario, Canada-based company. Menu Foods told the FDA it received the first complaints of kidney failure and deaths among cats and dogs from pet owners on Feb. 20. It began new te

Just A Random Thought
I know that this has happened to everyone at some point. Why it never ceases to amaze me I'll never know. Have you ever put your whole heart into something whether it be a friendship or a relationship, only to get dumped on in the end? With no explanation as to why? I don't understand how those people can sleep at night doing that to others. I get tired of opening myself up to someone only to get hurt in the end. I need to toughen up and be a bitch like so many others can be. I don't know why it still shocks me that people act this way. I expect it, my intuition tells me I'm going to get hurt, yet I never listen. I try giving someone the benefit of the doubt and in the end I should have doubted them. Oh well. Another life experience tucked up under my sleeve I suppose. Doesn't make it hurt any less. My girlfriend told me I have too good a heart and those people don't deserve me in their life. If that's true, why does it still hurt? Hope everyone is having a better month

Answers Women Have Always Wanted To Know
1. WHY ARE MEN SUCH JERKS? It's a testosterone thing. Much similar to your PMS thing. We men suffer from testosterone poisoning. Why do you think the average life span of a male is typically 10 years shorter (and it's not just from all the griping and nagging we have to endure)? Hormones modify behavior. We're just misunderstood. 2. WHY DO MEN ALWAYS HAVE TO OGLE AT OTHER WOMEN? Again, this is a testosterone thing. Do you honestly think that all the testosterone just fell out of our bodies the moment we met you? Besides, women do it as well. Women are just much better at not getting caught. I'm fairly certain it's some sort of photographic memory deal. Women take one quick look and memorize it for later reference. Since men lack this ability, we try to burn it into our memory by staring as much as we can. 3. WHY DO MEN ALWAYS TOUCH THEMSELVES, ESPECIALLY IN PUBLIC? We occasionally need to adjust our little friend and make him happy. It's much like adjusting your bra. Being in public is

If Ur Horny Or Bored Read This
im laying in bed with you lookin into your beautiful eyes. As I play with ur gorgeous blonde hair your lips move closer to mine, then my lips move closer to yours and we begin to kiss passionatly. Im holding you in my arms as you hold me in yours, you whisper I want you into my ear and then you begin to suck on my ear lobe. Then i begin to kiss and suck on your neck makin you so hot as my hand caresses ur body i rub ur stomach, then i begin to rub ur pussy and by now its already warm and damp. I continue to suck on ur neck and begin rubbing ur pussy harder and faster while your paintining i start to caress ur tits and tease ur nipples, makin u go crazy, your nipples get so big i tease them a lil more and the i suck on them and suck hard makin u scream with pleasure. while im doing this i start to give you my 3 finger special and u are having an intense orgasm at this point ur juices squirting all over my hand. as im fingering u u start to play with my cock and u love it. then u start

My Heart
I have given a part of me Do you see it I have opened up my heart to you Do you feel it I have stood in the shadows and adored you Do you notice I have shared your pain in every way Do you know it I have put my thoughts to paper And sent them to make your day I love you in every way a man can Yet, still i have so much to say And so if some day you can feel my words And know in your heart they are true If the lord permits, I will still be here The one, ....who is loving you.

What I Need...
1. I need to feel safe. Before I can begin to open my submissive nature to You I need to feel safe and have reason to trust You. To let down my walls and give You control of my will may take time and testing before I feel safe enough to permit either of us to go beyond the initial stages of our relationship. Even after I've given myself to You fully, I need to be reminded I am safe with You. I may like to feel the thrill and excitement of fear and the unknown, but I need to be sure no matter how You stimulate those emotions during an intense scene or situation, I will remain safe in Your care. 2. I need to know You accept me for all I am. I will be many things to You as our relationship grows and I need to know You accept me as a person during each transition along the way. I need to know You accept me as a friend, lover, companion, and Your submissive but also accept me as parent, child, employee, community member or other roles I fill in my obligations to family or society.

Alone Again...
ALONE AGAIN I picked the flowers Smells so sweet To find you The one I wanted to meet Thought you were different A one of a kind The lost breed Painted eyes of perfection Over my shade of blue I wake and realize The hurt caused by you Different…no Same as most A liar, a cheater I took my heart Gave it to you You smashed it And handed it back Shattered pieces to see Are all that’s of me Close my eyes Blue day Colors no more They went away Tears on my skin For I am lost Yet another man Scored… Nice win. Alone again…. Written by Melody 3-20-07

My Mother!!
I have not asked anyone for anything since I joined this site however everytime someone asks for my help I am right there to give it to them.well I asked one simple request yesterday and only a few responded to it and this was something very important to me because it was about my mother.I didn't ask to comment,rate or help level me up it was to say a prayer for my mother whom has cancer.I see only a few of my friends have done that which means they are "true" friends.It would only have taken ppl a couple minutes of thier precious time to repost my bulletin seeing as my mother's precious time left on this earth is limited..If you choose to delete me that is fine so be it but if your a real friend than you know where I am coming from..

Why Does Life Have To Be So Damn Difficult
why does life have to be so difficult eapecially when you are trying to start a relationship and just loose your job. i feel so damn depressed right now and dont know what to do about it. if anyone has any advice for me please feel free to. i am out looking for new jobs and it is hard to deal with especially when i am under a lot of stress. i need all the advice and help i can get thanks everyone...

Today At The Ortho
I TOOK ALAN BACK TO THE ORTHO THIS MORNING, THEY SAID HIS ARM HAS HEALED UP WELL. THE CAST CAME OFF AND THEY PUT A SPLINT ON. WE HAVE TO GO BACK IN 2 WEEKS TO MAKE SURE THAT IT IS COMPLETELY HEALED. ALAN WAS SO EXCITED TO BE ABLE TO GO TO USING HIS WALKER. I WAS HAPPY ALSO. ANYWAY JUST LETTING YALL KNOW.

More Joey Porter Drama!
Word has it that Levi Jones also lost some jewelry in the altercation with Joey Porter the other night at The Palms. Seems that about seven people were involved in all. Goeff Hobson at Bengals.com sums it up best: "The Bengals game against the Dolphins in Miami this season now has some hype". This appears to be a case where Joey Porter needs to get shot in the ass again. Perhaps somebody from Levi Jones' crew can take care of that. Maybe Pacman Jones is available? He's been out of the news for a few weeks now.

Little Sister Update
My sister called me last night to give me an update on my youngest sister. She had her surgery yesterday. Apparently it was the orbital area that was injured from the motorcycle accident, but she couldn't have the surgery right away because she was having bleeding and pressure around her eye area. Once the bleeding stopped, they proceeded. As for her boyfriend...they only THOUGHT he walked away unscathed. Further examination found that he fractured his C-7 vertebra. The cervical spine area being what it is, he's now in an imobilizer to prevent him from turning the wrong way and paralyzing himself. They're not sure yet if he's going to require surgery. They're both lucky to be alive...and by the sound of things, so are a few other people. My sis asked Vanessa (the youngest sister) what happened. Her response was to the effect that they basically had no choice but to wipe out or risk a 10 car pile up. It tells me either they were being tailgated or they weren't being as

My Child's Taste In Music
Good: My daughter loves the Beatles, Evanescence, and The Offspring! (I did not influence this.... She is two, so she is more likely to do the opposite of what I'd like, even if she wants to do it!) Bad: She said, "god DAMN" the other day whilst eating her apple and consequently dropping it. This is directly attributable to The Offspring. *slaps bad mommy's hand* Oh. And she hates the Ramones. *sobs*

For Friends Xoxo
A Nice Thought To All My Friends! Although I'm busy as heck right now doesn't mean I've forgotten about any of you - Muaaaaaaaaaah xoxo His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer. One day, while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog. There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad from what could have been a slow and terrifying death. The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse surroundings An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved. "I want to repay you," said the nobleman. "You saved my son's life." "No, I can't accept payment for what I did," the Scottish farmer replied waving off the offer. At that moment, the farmer's own son came to the door of the family hovel. "Is that your

Lustfully Yours. . .
The steam issuing from the shower only added to the pleasures going on within. Two water drenched bodies, glistening in the floestet light, moving as one. His hands seemed to find and cover her whole body. His lips only the better. Her hair a tangle against his chest down her back. Full breats fill is wanting hand as he cups them, making the excitement increase in his hips. A small moan escapes from between her lips, her back arches and she steadies herself against the tile. He bites her neck sending bolts of electric like intensity down her body. She turns her head to allow is hot tounge to fill her mouth quieting her. They stay entwined in th embrace as his thrusts pick up speed. No longer able to keep it inside, she lets out a scream of ecstasy as he fills her making her whole body melt in pleasure. Letting his body relax after the sweet release he holds her panting body as the water still falls upon them.

Deleting Time
TO ALL MY SO CALLED FRIENDS BUT NEVER REALLY SAY ANYTHING TO ME I WILL DELETE U OUT OF MY LIST .... TO THOSE ONE WHO STILL WANT TO BE MY FRIEND SAY SOME IN HERE AND I WILL LET U STAY IF NOT OH WELL U WILL FIND OUT WHEN I DONT SEND A COMMENT OR SAY HELLO ANYMORE LOL

Wtf!!! Ok This Is Now Getting Juvi
I AM QUOTING HERE GANG..." I am so not scared of you and the wanna be's. Ice the only fat cow i see is you and Pink made you the deputy sheriff you look more like deputy dog" YUP REAL MATURE.. ROFLMMFAO!!

Heros
OK THIS IS BULLSHIT WHO EVER DONT THINK FIREFITGHER,POLICE AND EMS ARE NOT HEROS JUST REMEMBER WHAT HAPEN ON SEP 11 2001!!!!!!! I wrote this as I watched in horror the day our world changed. I heard the angels screaming as they saw what was to come Someone killed God's daughters they also killed his sons The angels were there waiting for the people on those planes The angels were there waiting so our people felt no pain. the whole world was on their knees and crying As we watched so many hurt and dying The angels were there waiting, even in the flame The angels were their so God's children felt no pain Worse than any movie ever made Our memories will never fade To remember such a tragic day That changed our lives in every way But the angels are saddened by such a senseless loss To see so many murdered, as Jesus on the cross. It' hard to understand such evil can exist So many families changed so many will be missed Thanks to many hero's on flig

What Is Important..
I JUST FOUND OUT A FRIEND I KNEW ONLINE HAS DIED.. HE WAS FIGHTING CANCER AND HAD KEMO AND YOU ALL KNOW IS HARD ON THE BODY AND HE WASNT A YOUNG MAN.. HE WILL BE VERY MISSED.. I HAVE LOST 4 FRIENDS ONLINE AND I TELL YOU SOME REALLY HAVE HIT ME HARD.. SO WHATS IMPORTANT TO YOU?>> FOR ME ITS MY GOOD .. AND WONDERFUL FRIENDS..WHO ACCEPT ME AS I AM... WHO STAY IN TOUCH AND CARE.. JUST LIKE I DO.. MY FAMILY WHO ALWAYS IS THERE.. AND WOULDNT BE HERE IF IT WASNT FOR THEM.. DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT BELLS PALSY IS?? WELL ABOUT A YEAR AGO.;.IT IS LIKE A STROKE IN THE FACE.. AND WAS VERY PAINFUL..AND STILL HAVE SOME OF THE SIDE AFFECTSONE EYE AND MOUTH.. BUT MY FAMILY AND HUSBAND SAID YOU DONT REALLY NOTICE IT MUCH.. AND THEN LOSING M Y PARENTS LAST YEAR,., MY DAD FIRST.. AND MY MOM WENT 4 MONTHS LATER.. NOW HAVE A LOT GOING ON WITH FAMILY SO AFTER THIS WEEK MIGHT NOT HAVE MUCH TIME TO BE HERE.. SO IF I DONT KEEP IN TOUCH LIKE I USUAL DO YOU WILL KNOW WHY.. TAKE TIME TO TELL THE ONES YOU LOVE HOW

Mccaylah's Blast Coming Up Watch For It Please
This is a Reminder that the Blast Purchased in Memory of McCaylah Has now been Made and As soon as It is Approved I will be placing her picture as my Primary and Will Let everyone know so You can watch for it .. This is what I Said in the Blast I couldnt name and Ty everyone Personally So Please Dont be offended But I did Say Ty to everyone Who participated and used her tag as Your Primary :o) Love u all .... Be Watching for it :o) _____________________________________ The Blast : April is child Abuse Awareness Month The Picture in this blast is Of McCaylah A Special ty to {Mads} ToXic SiN For this blast In Memory Of Her she Murdered by her Parents Its Posted in My Blogs Many Things were made for her & Tributes .. A Special Ty to Rosie for eveything & Everyone To many To Thank Indiv..Thank You to Everyone who Participated & Used her Tag as their primary

Dextromethorphan Hydrobromide.
Way back college boy, live on eleventh floor. head out my window, wonder what I'm living for. Knock on my door, what's in store, it's my buddy Bux with the rabbit ear pockets saying he is out of luck. Need a forty for party thrown by Laura Kang at Rubin. All he's got is snot and a box full of Ludens. Tell'm bout the tussin, we're Hayden ho hustlin' interrupting discussions about Reagonomic reprocussions. Fuck'm, we're fuckin chugaluggin. soon my stomach I'm huggin I'm trippin or something my coat I button, keep it down like a dungeon. you could call me the cough medicine curmudgeon. frankly, the feeling's fuckin fantastic I'm tripping like Jesus in the desert when he fasted, Like it's the night before we all get drafted, Like we're rowing through some rapids with Kevin Bacon, white water rafting Like you're in Epcot center on acid? Exactly.

Excitement
over my birthday!!! hehe boo on getting older! lol BUT its ok im going to go party it up!! so hopefully the day after will be all for sleeping, cuz hangovers need sleep!! hehehe Happy Birthday to me! :P

A Call To All Cnc And Fff Of Ct Ice P Needs Us Now All Friends An Fans Who Support The Cnc An The Fff
OKAY LISTEN UP ALL MEMBERS OF THE COWGIRLS AND COWBOYS OF CT AND ALL MEMBERS OF THE FURIOUS FIGHTING FIRE FIGHTERS THIS IS A CALL FOR HELP TO GO BOMB THE HELL OUT OF ICE PRINCESS CONTEST PIC AS SHE WAS BEING GIVEN SHIT TODAY BY SOME UNKNOWN NAME PERSON AND WE REALLY NEED TO PUT AN END TO THE CRAP AND SHOW ICE P WHAT THE HELL WE ARE REALLY MADE OF SHE PUTS HER LIFE ON THE LINE EVERYDAY 24 HOURS A DAY SHE SAVES LIVES EVERYDAY LIVES LIKE YOURS AND MINE LETS MAKE HER SEE WHAT WE ARE REALLY MADE OF SO MYSELF AND FIREMAN185 AND OUTLAW ANGEL AND ONECRAZYMAMA ARE ASKING FOR ALL OF YALLS HELP ANYONE WHO HAS BEEN READING MY BLOGS AND ICE PRINCESS BLOGS KNOW WHATS GOING ON WE WANNA MAKE HER FIRST AND GIVE HER THIS WIN FOR THE CNC AND THE FFF OF CT SO COME YALL GO BOMB HER ASS SHE NEEDS US NOW MORE THEN EVER..>/b>

Will It Ever End...
OK i have been drinking lots of juice and eating nothing but basiclly soup!! This dang cold refuses to leave..Guess my next option is to sweat it out!!! Any volunteers to help me!!! u pervs i wasnt talking about SEX..i was talking like brisk walking..sheesh HA HA!! Hugs to you all, Michele

My Bondage Heart Tattoo (revised 04-01-07)
I have revised the wording, for when I wrote this, I used words that was not actually what I wanted to say. This is the true meaning behind my tattoo. I didn't intend not to "Love" again, but to simply not let "Love" break my heart & spirit as it has in the past.

Im So Damm Sick And Tired
I NORMALY DONT VENT ABOUT SHIT BUT I CAN'T HOLD IT BACK NO MORE ....Im tired of the damm drama that people want to cause and tired of the damm bullshit...Play the games and do as u want because ur just mad becuase u dont have what everyone else has......Fuck the haters and fuck the wanna bee people get a damm life if u know something then see and it and walk away from it all before shit gets start that shouldnt of started in the beging...NO MORE PLAYING NICE leave me alone and everyone else alone and get a freakin life ......IM tired of people thinking they can win over something when they know good and damm well they need to rethink of whom they are and were they stand because im here to say that losers are loser and winners are winners and i have one once before and i will always be a winner....Just becase one has money or one has a thinks they are better dont mean nothing because no one is better then anyone else we are all thesame weather we are purple, black. green, red, orange wh

Beauty And Age
I just came across a lovely woman's page today that made me realize just how irrelevant age is in the eyes of the beholder. I think that many people spend entirely too much time worrying about their age, even when they say it doesn't bother them. Depending on how you take care of yourself, how you present yourself, and perceive yourself, you will either look beautiful/ugly, or young/old. I've met (and work with) women into their 50's and 60's who act like preteens. In the same sense I've met teenagers with mentalities of the elderly. this also applies to beauty. If you feel you're beautiful and you take care of yourself, and look for other ways to be beautiful beyond physical and superficial means... then it will come to pass. However, if you take it too far and are conceited, or on the other end of the spectrum, you lack self esteem... or you have an overall horrible personality and lack of respect... you'll appear ugly. Chances are, finding someone who genuinely wants y

My Thoughts
Well some things have come to my attention about this site.. that well kinda annoy me... first off: why is every one begging to be added as a fan, i dont really understand the concept behind the whole fan thing on this site... i dont know about most people on here but i would much rather have FRIENDS then Fans... soo im not looking for fans just FRIENDS! i see all these people that say Fan me befor u add me or whatever, thers way too many people desprate for attention on this site... and the sad part is most of them are alot older then i am. Secondlly: i know its not just this site there are many other sites like it but im getting really annoyed with every profile site turning in to a rating contest, who ever has the most fans friends or points wins....pritty stupid and childish if u ask me, i dont ask to be rated nor do i even care to be.. Thrid: i dont get the whole cherry blast thing, why would u waist your hard earned money just to gain attention to a Free profile you

.swallowing.heart.
i need to blog whore. deal with it. cuz i think i just swallowed my heart. my girlies know what i mean dammit. ya ever...*remembers to breathe* try and convince yourself that you're ok with something...just for the sake of being ok with it...cuz everyone and their mother knows that in the long run its the best possible solution? and you really think you're ok. cuz things are ok. swimmingly in fact. and then...one single moment...rises to the surface...and rips away any sense of security you had within yourself...and it feels like not a single second has past...and you've just swallowed your heart...so theres this huge lump in your throat...and you can barely breathe...from the shock of it all... and theres nothing... cuz theres nothing... and ya really just...wanna curl up into a ball...and cry..until you cant cry anymore...but deep down you know thats the stupidest possible thing you could do...cuz its never done anything good for you previously so ya keep tal

What Some People Take Me For???
I will tell you this one thing and one thing only. I might be an old fart but I am not going to stand by and let someone play me for a sucker. I do not like it when someone says that thay r going to do something for someone and that it goes on and on for days at a time. So i will say this that ifthis happens to me one more single time I wiil take my things and leave this site forever. But then again who gives a shit???? I am just new to all of this stuff and I am stilllearning how to work the computer and it just upsets me that I cant return to people pics or cards like thay do send me..The only way or me to show them any kindness is to give them a gift or to say thank you. And please belive me that hurts me that I cant do the same for them that thay do for me I am so very soory if I have stepped o anyones toes but I am hurt my self that I had only aske for this one thing and one thing only.

I Miss Iraq. I Miss My Gun. I Miss My War.
A soldier's lament By Brian Mockenhaupt A few months ago, I found a Web site loaded with pictures and videos from Iraq, the sort that usually aren't seen on the news. I watched insurgent snipers shoot American soldiers and car bombs disintegrate markets, accompanied by tinny music and loud, rhythmic chanting, the soundtrack of the propaganda campaigns. Video cameras focused on empty stretches of road, building anticipation. Humvees rolled into view and the explosions brought mushroom clouds of dirt and smoke and chunks of metal spinning through the air. Other videos and pictures showed insurgents shot dead while planting roadside bombs or killed in firefights and the remains of suicide bombers, people how they're not meant to be seen, no longer whole. The images sickened me, but their familiarity pulled me in, giving comfort, and I couldn't stop. I clicked through more frames, hungry for it. This must be what a shot of dope feels like after a long stretch of sobriety. Soothing and

Oh Well
I am not saying they all like that but for me is helping some one out too level them up out off the order now... When someone post a bulletin asking oh please help me out too level up ...i do it if i got the time...i don't ask for gifts ore too rate my stuff..i don't need it....but were i ask for cost nothing.. nothing at all...a normal thank you... But for some i think it is too much asked for...oh well you never stop learning.... :o)

Please Help To Get Justice
A Cornell University student who brutally beat and bleached a dog until it was bloody and half-blind is being arraigned in Ithaca, New York. This guy was taking care of the dog for his friend!! Please go to this page to sign petition calling for the harshest punishment possible for this sick a-hole. Sign This Petition! I also think we should all write to the President of Cornell University demanding that this kid be expelled from the college. The news reports said he was not remorseful and joking about what he did to the poor dog. Write, email and call Cornell University President David J. Skorton: Email Cornell University's President!

Stalker Applicant # 5 Opium Kiss
Name: (yours, silly) My name is not Silly. It's Opium Kiss. =-P Please identify and describe yourself: A kick ass chick who strips to Union Underground and knows what to not do with intergrated mother boards. Age: 28 Sex: None in 2 whole years. Oh, gender...got it. [ ] Male [x] Female Height: 6'1" Weight: 240 Hair: Asslength, Auburn with blonde streaks Eyes: Green, baby. Why do you want to stalk me? Because you are geek girl hotness with a cherry on top. Please rate your sanity: bad poor average fair good [x] Fucking Nuts Dowright creepy Being a stalker requires a great deal of imagination and creativity. You must be an "effective stalker"! If you want to be MY stalker you must do follow these rules: 1.) You should write amusing comments that we will all laugh at. 2.) Commenting my bulletins and blogs to let us all know you were here. Do you agree to these rules? [x] I agree I do not agree Please list any special qualificatio

What I Love About You
What I Love About You I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so bright and blue. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care. I love the way you say, "I Love You," And the way you're always there. I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine.

Smoke
You never really know if the man standing before you is the one but it is great finding out. He is always there for you honors you cherishes you and respects and protects you.Smoke I hope that you know I love you with all my heart and i hope that love never dies and we continue to grow. You have made me very happy thank you.I hope all my friends can find the love like i have. Have a good day

Good News
Well i just got home from my oncologist and it seems that my chemo might be working a bit..Before my tumor measured 6 cm now it is down to 5.5 cm.. So i am very happy and now I am very hopeful!!! Seems that all this sickness I have been going thru might be worth it a bit!!! Anyways continue praying for me ..Hugs to you all!!! XOXOXO Michele

This Penis Wants A Raise -lol
> > I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for > > the following reasons: > > > > 1-------- I do physical labor. > > 2.------- I work at great depths. > > 3.------- I plunge head first into everything I do. > > 4.------- I do not get weekends or public holidays off. > > 5.--------I work in a damp environment. > > 6. -------I work in a dark area that has poor ventilation. > > 7.------- I work in high temperatures. > > 8. -------My work exposes me to diseases. > > > > > > Reply: Dear Penis, > > > > After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have >raised, > > the management denies your request for the following reasons: > > > > 1. You do not work 8 hours straight. > > 2. You WORK IN SHORT SPURTS AND fall asleep after EACH > > brief work period > > 3. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. > > 4. You do not stay in your designated area, and are often seen >visiting > > other locations. > > 5.

Here We Are
Here we are, you and I, together at last. I feel as if I am complete now. I feel as if all that happened in the past is no more. You have shown me happiness You have shown me acceptance You have shown me compassion You have shown me it is okay to trust I felt before alone An alien to the world of love I felt before betrayed It was all I had shown I felt before not worthy I was always told I was too much I felt before a hole in my heart Each time I gave love, it was not returned I felt before my future was to be alone Too many broken promises had been done to me Now, I stand here with you at my side No longer am I alone No longer am I betrayed No longer am I too much Together we will face life Together we will share our love Together we will walk this road Together we will complete each other I know that I know, I love you...... Poet's Heart....

Oh-effin-k!!!!!
Here we go. In the words of Alex Varkatzas: So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high! Tell your stories, run your mouth, and tell your lies! oh! on the plus side I hear that I may possibly get to see Mikey next month! ♥

I Will Not Rest Until Your Gone From My Life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok now most of you already know everything about me and what has been going on in my life over the last several weeks. For those that don't I am going to lay it out on the line for you. I have written in my blogs about things I have done that were stupid and foolish and I didn't deserve forgiveness. Well I got it and we have moved on with our lives. Well someone needs to grow up and move on with her own life and leave me alone. It is not going to be pretty if I ever run into her and I will be honest about that. You are going to go around and tell people that you are going to have my son taken away from me. Know I heard that you are going to take me to court and try to get custody of my son. Let me tell you something right to the point, you are not his mother and you are not his father. I am his father and if you think that a court in this country will even grant you temp. custody you are smoking something. As far as talking shit about me, I must be the most important thing i

They Don't Change Their Spots...really.
Identifying a Pathological Liar Pathological liars, or "mythomaniacs," may be suffering from histrionic personality disorder or narcissistic personality disorder. The following comments basically reflect a pathological liar who has the characteristics of histrionic personality disorder. Some characteristics: 1. Exaggerates things that are ridiculous. 2. One-upping. Whatever you do, this person can do it better. You will never top them in their own mind, because they have a concerted need to be better than everyone else. This also applies to being right. If you try to confront an individual like this, no matter how lovingly and well-intentioned you might be - this will probably not be effective. It's threatening their fantasy of themselves, so they would rather argue with you and bring out the sharp knives than admit that there's anything wrong with them. 3. They "construct" a reality around themselves. They don't value the truth, especially if they don't see it as hurtin

A Little Fun
a knock at the door u open to find me standing there. i grab ahold of u & start kissing u hard, pushing u up against a wall, while kissing u i unbutton ur shirt taking it off, slowly moving my lips to ur neck kissing every inch rubbing ur chest, slowly my lips reach ur chest kissing every inch while i reach down & unbutton ur pants letting them fall to the foor, i slowly move down more & more not leaving 1 inch of ur body untouched by my lips, then finally i reach ur already rock hard cock slowly i begin to lick & tease the tip while rubbing ur balls, then slowly starting to take it all in every inch sucking u slow & easy at first sucking u like u'v never been sucked b 4, then starting fastr & faster & fastr & harder & deeper takin in every inch of ur cock tasting ur juices sucking u good......................i got to go play bye!!!

The Game
The Game... IT'S ALL A GAME, IT'S ALL A PLAY. YOU MESS WITH MY MIND AND FUCK WITH MY HEAD. YOU SAY ONE THING, BUT WHAT YOU DO ISN'T THE SAME. YOU PLAY A GAME OF HIDE AND SEEK, YOU SHOW ONE CHEEK AND TURN THE OTHER AWAY, IN HOPES OF HIDING YOUR DEVIL-LIKE GRIN WHICH SHOWS THE WICKED WEBS THAT YOUR SO INTENT TO SPIN. YOU SAY YOUR THE MASTER OF THE GAME, WELL NOW IT'S MY TURN TO PLAY. I'LL SHOW YOU THE MASTER, I'LL FUCK WITH YOUR HEAD. YOU THINK YOUR SO GOOD, BET ME AND LOSE. IT'S MY TURN TO HURT, IT'S MY TURN TO TAINT. I'M THE MASTER AND IT'S YOUR TURN TO PAY. SO WHAT DO YOU THINK, HOW DO YOU FEEL? IS IT A GAME, OR IS IT FOR REAL?

Just A Short Joke That Made Me Laugh!
THE WORLD'S SHORTEST PSYCHIATRIC JOKE A man walks into a psychiatrist's office wearing only underwear made of Saran Wrap. The psychiatrist says, "Well...I can clearly see your nuts."

Poem..3
Dark my veil. Hands clenched painfully, tightly. "Why so white-faced?""To think, just to think! It was I made him to drink; of the biting Wine of sorrow I forced him to drink. "How forget? Out he staggered with failing Strength, and face oddly twisted and grim. I ran down without touching the handrail, To the gateway I ran aftre him. "'Please don't go!' I gasped out. 'I was only Jesting... Please!.. Or I'll die...' With a blind, With a terrible smile, almost tonelessly, He brought out 'Do not stand in the wind'"

Tired Of It
it seems that i cant go five minutes without someone asking me if im okay... NO im not okay 99.9% of the time when im asked but im betting if i told you that i would get about a million questions... NO i dont need help ill be okay in the end, i have my own little way of dealing with something thats bothering me... NO im not glass i wont break, so stop treating me like im so fragile, im able to make my own choices and live with what happens by making those choices... YES i can get through my own little problems if you just give me time, i may not be okay right now but i promise you i will be... if your wondering what brought this about, its the simple fact that i get jumped on by so many people when i say im not in the mood to talk or when someone sees blood on the carpet i automatically get a knock on my door saying "arm check" and seeing if im okay, yeah i know i have a past of doing not so good things while upset but im over that and im learning how to deal with it so

It Is What It Is!
Last night a reconnection was felt within my soul, An uplifting rejoyce of comfort and serenity was gained, It seems that this discomfort i felt has been a very long road, I look within my wants and desires and see that lately it hasn't rained, A true connection is what i lost with his fist, many months back, With every blow to my body and ego, My stupid ass kept letting him come back, Like leaves in the wind one day i had enough, Be it another reason to make him leave, and just so i could have my sanity back, No tears have fallen this time due to my inner strength, His ways are not missed and his drama of rain can not hurt me anymore or bring any pain, I have always wondered why a man does this to one he claims to love, Why control and be abusive when the other one involved loves you with no disdaine, Happy days once, were a cherished part of my life, Smiles and laughter from the kids, when they'd talk bout me being your wife, The trips we took

Myspace Bulletins Survey
A different kind of SurveyTAKE THIS SURVEY!Take this surveyHi, my name is:MaggieNever in my life have I been:ContentThe one person who can drive me nuts is:my husbandHigh school was:wonderfulWhen I'm nervous:my heart poundsThe last time I cried was:last nightIf I were to get married right now my maid of honor would be:I am still marriedMy hair is:waist length and grayWhen I was 10:I broke my ankle.Last Christmas:was strange, almost nonexistentI should be:happyWhen I look down I see:a floor that needs vacuuming, lolThe happiest recent event was:the birth of my niece Maria's third little boyIf I were a character on 'That 's Show' I'd be:?????By this time next year:I will be single, againMy current gripe is:these teenage guys don't help with the housework!!I have a hard time understanding:intoleranceThere's this girl I know that:will dreadlock my grandson's hair for me!You know I like you when:I hug you!If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be:I'd blog it on CherryTAP, lo

Alone In The Room
close to enough not feeling a thing showing off that diamond ring you think you know it all you leave people alone you think you've got it all that new friends on the phone leave everyone behind the ones that are there for you weeks go by you wonder why im blue if you only knew what it was before you blew me off before you met that friend before you thought he was the one you may think you got it all but when you need my support you got nothing at all ~timmy~

New....
Hey everyone. I am new to CherryTap. I have to say this is very different from other sites. I can't get up with my alerts and am sorry for that. if i don't get right back to you, sorry. i will get the hang of it soon, hopefully:-) take care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here's The Lastest On Angel.
Well, everyone, here's the lastest. You know the other day I said that A ngel migt get to come home either late Wendesday or Thrusday, well it looks like it might not be until Fiday now. The doctor did a blood count on her and it came back low, so they gave her two pints of blood and did a catscan on her stomach last night. The results came back this afternoon and she had a abdominal hematoma. Now they are wanting to keep her a little longer to keep a eye on her blood count and all. Right now her blood count is normal and they are hoping that it will stay there. They have her off the pain drip and iv free now. Tonight, when my kids and I went to see her, she had to go to the bathroom and she wound up getting sick at the same time. That's the first time that she has gotten sick since the surgery, something that she didn't want to do. They gave her a shot, I forget what it was but it calmed her stomach down and it also put her to sleep. I know that I should not be getting worried or anyt

Let Me In...
Let me in. Let me in. Let me in and I will lay claim to you like no other woman ever has. Ever will. I will lay claim to you. I will love you like no other. I will capture your heart. I will consume your soul. I will be your everything. I will be your mind freak. I will be. Let me in. Let me in...

Picture Ripping
I REALLY DONT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ANYONE RIPPING PICS THAT I MAY HAVE UP ON MY PAGE..BUT WOULDNT IT BE CONSIDERATE IF YOU JUST TAKE TIME TO ASK..I HAD A LADY TONIGHT THAT DECIDED TO RIP 3 OF MINE...OH AND NO SHE ISNT ON MY FRIENDS LIST NOR HAVE I EVER BEEN TO HER PAGE...ANYWAY SHE REPORTED ONE OF MY PICS FOR NSFW...WHICH IS BULL. OH HER NAME IS BUSINESS MINDED WOMAN. SO IF YA SEE HER BEWARE..AFTER SHE RIPPED THEM THEN SHE MADE IT TO WHERE I COULDNT COMMENT, RATE OR ANYTHING ON HER PAGE. ANYWAY..I GUESS IM DONE RANTING FOR NOW..YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD NIGHT AND HAVE FUN CHERRY PICKIN...LOVE, KISSES AND HUGS.

So, You Think She Loves You ... (lmfao)
A man and his wife are dining at a table in a local restaurant. Soon he starts looking over at a woman reordering drinks as she sits alone at another table. The wife noting this asks, "Do you know her?" "Yes," he sighs, I recognized her. She's an ex-girlfriend. I once heard that she took to drinking right after we split up seven or more years ago. Someone told me that she hasn't been sober since." "My word!" exclaims the wife, "Amazing to think she could go on celebrating for that long?"

Office Sex Pt2
Jamal is in his chair at his desk waiting for what she has to say...but to his surprise she doesnt say anything..she began to play with her pussy, as she is doing that Jamal dick gets hard again watchin her finger herself, and rubbin her clit...moanin out she looks at him like are u gonna come help me cum some more....Jamal looks at Rachel and says "You need some help over there"? Rachel looks at him and moans. He stands up and walks over to her as she is on the couch, she looks up and smiles at Jamal, saying you want more? Jamal tells her take my dick and put it where you want it...Rachel smiles at him really she says? Jamal just smiled! Rachel is rubbin her pussy as she tell him to lick her pussy..Jamal gets on his knees in front of her, kissing her stomach then kissing her inner thigh, then kisses her pussy, Rachel smiles and bits her lower lip waiting for him to begin lickin her clit. He teases her more and more...he begins to lick her pussy and sucks on her clit, make her juic

Crazy Thoughts
So being out here in the desert, women are a bit scarse. Cute women even more rare and a woman who would give me the time of day... priceless So I'm standing in line behind this girl, can't see her face, she's in DCU's so it's not like I can see her figure but her neck.. the hair at the base of her neck is just so damn sexy. I just want to breathe her sweetness, nibble on her neck, her ears, cup her bare breasts with my hands and have her reach around and hold my head as she grinds into me...... Or when a girl comes out of the shower and crosses your path, you smell her soap, her shampoo and it is just so damn GOOD! "Excuse me miss, would you mind if I came over to your hut and performed oral on you for a few mn?" And that is what goes though my mind these days... Or when you start to pull down a woman's underwear... and her pubic hair is a bit compressed from being confined and it puffs up a bit when you free it.... the hint of moisture as you run your tongue across her lips

Sometimes..
I'm torn between wanting to forget about you- ..and yet wanting to keep my memories. I'm torn between wanting to move forward- ..and not wanting to betray what I feel. I'm caught between wanting to be a good person- ..and needing to be a bad one. I feel foolish and weak for having a good heart- ..when I need to Not have one period. I feel like I have a Devil on one shoulder- ..and an angel on the other. Do I listen to my soul,or do I listen to my Spirit?

Bulletins
this is bullshit ive not been on here much today and this is the first bulletin i see on my home page YOU ARE A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT IF U DONT REPOST THIS, BECAUSE UNLIKE YOUR FUCKING CHERRY BUCKS, THIS SHIT IS REAL!! (REPOST) (repost) i seeing more off this crap on my homepage everyday not to mention the I WILL DELETE YOU IF YOU DONT REPOST/COMMENT BONB/ADD THIS PERSON type bulletins, anyone getting sick of seeing shit like this, i come to cherrytap for fun not to be talked to like crap, ps sorry for the rant

This Goes Out To The Faceless, Gutless Pig
OK, I DON'T KNOW WHO THIS FACELESS, GUTLESS PIG WHO HAS BEEN HARRASSING MY SIS PINK, YOU REALLY NEED TO JUST SHOW YOUR FACE AND QUIT ACTING LIKE A STUPID ASS. BUT JUST A WARNING IF YOU KEEP MESSING WITH HER AND ANY OF MY OTHER FRIENDS YOUR GONNA END UP HAVING TO DEAL WITH ME AS WELL AS A FEW OTHERS, AND TRUST ME WHEN I SAY YOU DON'T WANT THAT. WE WILL MAKE IT SO BAD FOR YOU THAT YOU'LL WANT TO LEAVE CHERRYTAP AND YOU'LL LEAVE CRYING LIKE A BITCH, WITH YOUR TAIL TUCKED BETWEEN YOUR LEGS. SO JUST REMEMBER ALL THIS THE NEXT TIME YOU WANT TO GO ACTING LIKE THE FACELESS, GUTLESS PIG YOU'VE BEEN ACTING LIKE LATELY. SO ALL I CAN SAY IN CLOSING THIS BLOG ENTRY IS LEAVE PINK ALONE IF YOU WANT TO BOTHER SOMEONE WITH YOUR FACELESS, GUTLESS SELF BRING IT ON OVER TO MY PAGE, UNLESS YOUR A COWARD.

Is This Torture?!?!?!
WELL HELLO EVERYONE.... I HAVEN'T WROTE A BLOG IN A FEW DAYS, NOTHING REALLY TO SAY. BUT QUESTIONS TO ASK. OK, SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN SOMEONE THAT SAYS "I LOVE YOU" TO YOU, WINDS UP HURTING YOU OR YOU WIND UP HURTING THEM? THIS VICIOUS CIRCLE OF LIFE. IS THERE REALLY ANY END TO THE HURT OR THE PAIN? OR IS EVERYONE DESTINED TO BE IN SOME KIND OF PAIN? OR DOES HURTING SOMEONE SO NATURAL, YOU JUST DON'T REALIZE YOUR DOING IT? I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE THE ONE DOING THE HURTING. ESPECIALLY HURTING THE ONE THAT SAYS THEY CARED THE MOST... IT'S APART OF LIFE, I KNOW. THERE'S DAYS WHERE I JUST WISH IT WASN'T.... WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE THE BEARER OF BAD NEWS. WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO HURT ANYONE, EVEN IF IT WAS UNKNOWN TO ME. AIN'T LIFE A BITCH WHEN IT THROWS A CURVE BALL AT YOU?!?!? I'M UNSURE OF WHAT TO SAY ABOUT IT ALL. I KNOW THAT I DIDN'T MEAN TO DO WHAT EVER WAS DONE.... I REALLY CARE AND CHERISH EVERYONE AROUND ME. I JUST DON'T THINK I CAN PLEASE EVERYONE ANYMORE. I GO THROUGH LIFE, TR

Death Threat??? This Asshole Is On Ct..
Last night, I had my cam on, yeah i do go on from time to time...Im in a group that requires you to have a cam..Now now now.....not all cam groups are like what your thinkin...Well, my cam froze, so i had to shut it off and this is the message I recieved! narutofiend2006 (3/21/2007 1:01:05 AM): why the fuck did u kick me Debbie myob (3/21/2007 1:01:19 AM): froze narutofiend2006 (3/21/2007 1:01:52 AM): ok reallow me then and don't let me miss ur cam narutofiend2006 (3/21/2007 1:02:10 AM): ............. narutofiend2006 (3/21/2007 1:02:17 AM): are u fucking kiddin me? narutofiend2006 (3/21/2007 1:02:44 AM): whatever think u're the coolest one but ur not u will regret this bye narutofiend2006 (3/21/2007 1:03:53 AM): die die bitch Yes this asshole is here on CT as well..All i can say is "dude fuckin build a bridge and freakin get over it"! I know its all just words, but some should just go unspoken!!

I Do Not Fan For Free!
IF YOU WERE SENT THIS LINK BY ME OR ANYBODY ELSE THEN YOU ARE IN FOR A RUDE AWAKENING. NO!!! I AM NOT BECOMING ONE OF YOUR FANS! AND I DON'T GIVE TWO FLYING FUCKS WHETHER YOU ADD ME OR NOT. IF YOU ARE BEGGING ME TO BE YOUR FAN THEN YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO HAVE ANY FANS. YOU ARE A FUCKIN LOW LIFE PIECE OF SHIT THAT HAS NOTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO THAN TRY TO COMMAND SOMEONE TO BE YOUR FAN. IN ORDER FOR ME TO BECOME YOUR FAN YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING THAT BENEFITS ME. I AM NOT GOING TO SIT AND WASTE MY TIME ON PEOPLE WHO ABSOLUTELY HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER ME. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? I DON'T EVEN FUCKIN KNOW YOU FOR ONE THING. AND A LOT OF YOU THAT ARE BEGGING FOR FANS ARE NOT EVEN THE LEAST BIT ATTRACTIVE! YOU DON'T EVEN GET POINTS FOR HAVING FANS NOR BEING A FAN SO WHY WASTE THE FUCKIN TIME? YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOMETHING FOR ME TO ADMIRE ABOUT YOU FOR ME TO BE A FAN OF YOURS. YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOMETHING I RESPECT. AND THAT RESPECT IS GONE ONCE I SEE YOUR BULLSHIT STATUS NAME "RATE A

Blah And Icky
So today is my birthday. I am turning 32 and I am hating it sooo much. Between counting greys and wondering where my perky boobies went it kinda has me feeling blah. And I am not doing a thing for my birthday either so that has me saying blah too.

Cake Or Bed
> A HUSBAND IS AT HOME WATCHING A > FOOTBALL GAME WHEN HIS WIFE INTERRUPTS, > > HONEY, > COULD YOU FIX THE LIGHT IN THE HALLWAY? > IT'S BEEN FLICKERING FOR WEEKS NOW. > > HE LOOK AT HER AND SAYS ANGRILY, > FIX THE LIGHTS NOW? > DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE > "GE" WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? > I DON'T THINK SO. > > FINE, ...THEN THE WIFE ASKS, > WELL THEN, COULD YOU FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR? IT WON'T CLOSE RIGHT > > TO WHICH HE REPLIED, > FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR? > DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE WESTINGHOUSE > WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? > I DON'T THINK SO > > FINE, SHE SAYS > THEN YOU COULD AT LEAST FIX THE STEPS > TO THE FRONT DOOR? > THEY ARE ABOUT TO BREAK > > I'M NOT A CARPENTER AND I DON'T > WANT TO FIX THE STEPS. > HE SAYS, DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE > ACE HARDWARE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? > I DON'T THINK SO > I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU. > I'M GOING TO THE BAR!!!! > > SO HE GOES TO THE BAR AND DRINKS FOR A > COUPLE OF HOURS............................... > > HE STARTS TO FEEL

Dogs Vs Cats
(Sorry, been house/dog sitting and my schedule is so hosed now. Hope you enjoy...got this in an email) Dogs vs Cats The Dog 8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing! 9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing! 9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing! 10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing! 12:00 pm - Milk bones! My favorite thing! 1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing! 3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite thing! 5:00 pm - Dinner! My favorite thing! 7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing! 8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing! 11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing! The Cat Day 983 of my captivity. My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to

Question!! Please Respond
One of my friends here on CT suggested that I start off a website with just pictures of me and in return, since I need $$ anyways, I would have you guys send me money and then I would personalize a picture for you in return. What do you guys think? Would anyone be willing to do this??

News Not Too Good
Well this is not so good my girl , LIndsey called me last night and informmed me that she will reside in the Dallas Childrens Medical Center for the duration of her pregnancy which is 11 -12 weeks. She has really high blood pressure (it's genetic??(spelling?) ) and boy I wish that there was something I could do about it but no there isnt. Some things are harder in life to digest than others this is one of the hard ones. The doctore are already talking about birth defects and just WELL SHIT man! It really sucks and if you have read this well then thank you I am just needing a place to put the energy that i dont know what in the world to do with right now guess we will just call this the rambbelings of a worried girl. g

Something I Wrote The Day She Turn 1 In 1984!
GIRL OF MY DREAMS She is the girl of my dreams Though I have never seen her eyes seeing me I have never seen her smile or her cheeks, yet She is the girl of my dreams She came to me one day in '83 I can't get her out of my head will she ever know what she means to me? She is the girl of my dreams I've never heard her laugh only cry Yet she speaks to me in my mind She is the girl of my dreams We never had one moment at first yet She is the girl of my dreams One day maybe her face I will see, One day maybe it won't be in my dreams Until the day forever ginger

Little Rock
I'm in Little Rock for a conference, but I'm avoiding going to any of the conference sessions. I may go have lunch here... unless I find a bar soon that will serve me eggs. I really need some protein. The weather: Lovely. It is close to 80 degrees, there's a light breeze, and though it's partially cloudy, the sun is bursts out from time to time and I take great pains to sprawl myself out on park benches so as to absorb as much of the sunshine as possible. I am like a starving child in a third-world country, except I've been deprived of Vitamin D, not food. Regardless, I look equally sickly and pathetic. Thankfully, there aren't a lot of flies here. There was an open bar last night, so I tested out the wine reserves. The cabernet was vile, and the only beers were Bud light, Miller Lite, and Budweiser. Fucking lame. So I switched to gin and tonic. Registration for the conference was $300. I think this may have been a fair deal. Already. After the open bar ceased to

Income Tax!
I checked my bank account this afternoon and my refund was deposited today! *dances around* One good thing working for H&R Block on the side was getting a free return done.. now, what to do with my money - bills or playtime! hrmmm decisions decisions!

Four Words
If you don't read the Little Rock blog first, this won't make any sense. That will make it pretty much like any of my other blogs. ------------- Rob's comment on the Little Rock blog speculated on how I used the four assigned words. Rob's guess: Not even close. In a lull in the conversation, I mentioned that we'd seen a guy with a pegleg. I followed up by commenting on how that was pirate-ish, but that he didn't have a hook for a hand. I then looked pointedly at Gail, fully expecting her to chime in and say his hands were more like tigerpaws. She didn't, so I had to say it. One of the guys was chatting on his phone, so I told his friend that phone-boy was like a dildo, but worse. He was a dildon't. Phone-boy's friend didn't know how to respond. As for firecrackers, I was tired of the game, so I just asked Gail something lame about whether there were a lot of firecrackers in Orlando. She stammered a bit, didn't respond. Then we fought with phone boy about wh

Totaled My Car
I TOTALED MY CAR ON 3/20/07....I DID PUT A FEW PICS ON HERE IF ANYONE WANTS TO SEE THEM! I AM OKAY JUST BANGED UP WITH SCRATCHES AND BRUISES.....LOTS OF PEOPLE HAVE SAID IF I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD MY SEATBELT ON I WOULD BE DEAD..... OKAY, YEAH WHAT HAPPENED.....I RAN OFF THE INTERSTATE AND OVER CORRECTED UNDER AN 18 WHEELER RIGHT BEFORE THE BACK TIRES...MY CAR WAS DRUG 20--30 FEET. MY CAR DOES NOT LOOK AS BAD AS IT WAS...TRUST ME I WILL THANK THE GOOD LORD EVERYDAY FOR BEING WITH ME ON THAT ROLLER COASTER RIDE..I LOVE ROLLER COASTERS BUT DONT RECOMMEND THAT ONE TO ANYBODY!!

Someone Shared This
Through The Storms..... I did not know His love before, The way I know it now. I could not see my need for Him, My pride would not allow. I had it all, without a care, The "Self-sufficient" lie. My path was smooth, my sea was still, Not a cloud was in my sky. I thought I knew His love for me, I thought I'd seen His grace, I thought I did not need to grow, I thought I'd found my place. But then the way grew rough and dark, The storm clouds quickly rolled; The waves began to rock my ship, My anchor would not hold. The ship that I had built myself Was made of foolish pride. It fell apart and left me bare, With nowhere else to hide. I had no strength or faith to face The trials that lay ahead, And so I simply prayed to Him And bowed my weary head. His loving arms enveloped me, And then He helped me stand. He said, "You still must face this storm, But I will hold your hand." So through the dark and lonely night He guided me through pain. I could n

Mixing It Good
ok ladies and gentlemen, boy and girls, cherrytappers alike, I am making my first blog. And its for people local to me.... If you happen to live in the youngstown, ohio region, and care to have some fun this evening... As you've all seen by my pictures, Im a dj by profession, only sadly i havent had the opportunity to work the clubs for some time.... That changes tonight!! :0) Pal Joeys on midlothian is proud to announce.... ME!!!! 10 UNTIL 2 DJ CHRISTOPHER SCOTT SPINNING ALL YOUR FAVORITE MUSIC ALL NIGHT LONG.... come spend time with your favorite attractive, entertaining dj!!!!!

Poetry
I walk along a forest trail The leaves are colored & oh so frail. The woods are still as I walk thru As if it senses what I mean to do. I reach the lake & think back in time The tiny ripples on the water shine The place where we had met & loved With just the clear night sky above. Your coal-black hair & piercing eyes Had touched my soul and hypnotized We laughed & loved & talked & cried My love for you I couldn't hide. Your gentle caress & lover's touch I never loved someone so much We need not talk or say a thing Our hearts knew the right song to sing. The moon one night was full & clear You never showed, did not appear I hoped & prayed you'd come to me To love once more and hold me I know now that you've gone away You've gone up where the angels play But I'll be with you very soon The only Witness... the shining moon.

Saying Bye
i am saying good bye to all of you i have had fun while i was on here but i think it is best for me to just let this account go and never to come back on here again since there has been some problems so goodbye thanks to all of you that have been great and rated all my pics and left me comments i wont forget yall. i hope everyone has a nice and enjoyable life.

Im Not Online Much Now
heya all my puters down , so till its up and running again im usen my friend karters. so im only on very very little till mines better. mostly ta just check mail. so if ya wanna chat write me here.. I'll get back in touch with everyone soon.. And im very sorry........but im stuck till its worken.. hugs xoxooxxoxoxo and remember my e-mail addy is stormi25night@yahoo.com

Husband And Wife
Husband and wife in bed together. She feels his hand rubbing her shoulder. She: "Oh, that feels good." His hand moves to her breast. She: "Gee, honey, that feels wonderful." His hand moves to her leg. She: "Oh, honey, don't stop." But he stops. She: "Why did you stop?" He: "I found the remote."

Booty Call ~ Wikipedia Definition
A booty call is a telephone call, other communication, or visitation made with the sole intent of engaging in sex with the person being contacted. Traditionally this phenomenon, especially the term booty call, is associated with a person calling another person for a sexual encounter after having already established either a casual or more serious relationship involving sexual relations. In most instances, a booty call is made when the prospect of a traditional romantic date is highly unlikely (e.g., late in the evening, after midnight or in the pre-dawn hours), thus making it obvious that the intent of the call is for the sole purpose of obtaining and engaging in sexual intercourse. The phrase originated in a comedic routine by stand-up comedian Bill Bellamy in the early 1990s. It is used by persons of either gender, and many ethnicities, to request sexual favors by calling an acquaintance that may or may not be romantically linked to the caller. Booty calls can be used by one pa

Me Again
well its me ofcourse.it is wow im so bored im in tacoma washington tonight its raining and cold here.nothing going on here.just whanted to show some love to all my friends and family and fans hope you all have a great night

Poem-lost
I'am on the outside trying to get in - I feel hopeless ,don't know where to begin - Just exisiting can't tear down my wall - No connection without a fall - Grasping for that which is not real - Wishing some bliss I coul'd steal - This darkness is constantly tearing at me - My soul is suffocating ,longing to be free - Always reaching for what's not there - Emotional larceny,destination fear - Hopelessly fighting anger and fear - The light I seek,blurry ,un-clear - Can't give up can't go on -When will this darkness become dawn...

"properly Commenting Candy" By Angstycoder
As requested: A guide to properly commenting on Candy, her page, and the elements therewithin. 0. You are not expected to be perfect (I sure as fuck am not,) but there are certain grammar pet peaves of which you should be aware. 1. Candy is a she. She is not a they. Thus, she is not a their. Ergo "I went to Candy's page and thier photos were phat!" is fucking moronic. 2. Their is a possessive pronoun; it describes something belonging to 'they'. For exmaple, 'they have their watches, which they bought over there.' 3. There is a place or direction. There does not mean that something(s) is(are). Neither does it quantify that which belongs to they. 4. Our other friend would like to note "they're all good uses of their 'there' skills, but your skills, which I hope you're simply hiding, are lacking." 5. Similar to their/they're, your is possessive 6. You're means "you are." 7. UR is great if you are in limited space for texting, and using a keypad. Typing 'you'

70 Things O Crap
70 Odd Questions What is your middle name? Emily What color is your mailbox? metal? Are you single? ya huh Have you ever hit a deer? no but ive eaten one Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home? fuck NO! What color is your room? red n black Do you have a small driveway? do you have a small ass? Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you? no huh What do you do first in the morning? tell monkey to shut up What brand is your printer? hp Do you enjoy fighting with people? most of the time...unless they're stupid Is your hair naturally straight or curly? curly like a mo fo Who was your kindergarten teacher? some dead lady What is your ringtone? get your freak on Are you taller than your mom? nope What curse word do you say the most when your pissed? motherless sons of bitches Are you God? not last time i checked... Do you like someone? *whistles* Do you enjoy writing in colored pens? i hate colored pe

A Moment Of Peace Please ...
It is with a heavy heart that I leave this post to you. Early this morning my maternal grandfather lost his battle to the cancer that has spent the past 10 years ravaging his body and mind.Please hold my family in your thoughts and prayers as we navigate these sorrowful days ahead.Sunny

Stressing
The last couple days I have been stressing a lot... work stuff mostly. I know I shouldn't let it get to me, just have to keep searching for an answer. Seems like there has been so much CT drama lately with people I know. Drama sucks.

Friendship..
What is friendship anyway?? I have friends that don't even fully trust me... Is that what friendship is?? Do you always have to prove yourself in order to keep a friend? If so, that is not my definition of friendship... I like my friends the way they are and I don't want to change them and I trust them... Why do you want to change me and keep things from me? Don't I deserve to know the truth? Don't I deserve your trust? I have done everything you ever asked me to do and you still doubt me... Have I not done enough? Have I not been a good friend? Maybe one day I will get the answers but for now...I am still here... Maybe it's foolish of me to do so but I am here no matter what!!

What Would You Do?
Many years ago in a small Russian village, a farmer had the misfortune of owing a large sum of money to the village money lender. The money lender, who was old and horrible, fancied the farmer's beautiful daughter. So he proposed a bargain. He said he would forgo the farmer's debt if he could marry his daughter. Both the farmer and his daughter were horrified by the proposal. The cunning money lender suggested that they decide the matter this way: He told them that he would put a black pebble and a white pebble into an empty money bag. Then the girl would have to pick one pebble from the bag. 1. If she picked the black pebble, she would become his wife and her father's debt would be forgiven. 2. If she picked the white pebble, she need not marry him and her father's debt would still be forgiven. But if she refused to pick a pebble, her father would be thrown into jail. Standing on a pebble-strewn path in the farmer's field, the m

Quick Revision
ok people here we are if ive missed something let me know please tell me ends today not sure wen ends but soon im sure just in an a giveawy i think im blocked so need u there wen possible an a good friend of the family well mine an aly an anyone who knows her really good luck all take care im here if u need me hugs an kisses all round an yes i love u all good work j

Untitled
Don't leave me broken hearted... Don't leave me sad and blue... I know what I want in life, I know I need you. Don't walk away an forget, All the love we shared... Because through it all, You were the only one who really cared. You are my life, You are my dreams... You're the moon, the stars, my solid ground, And everything in between. You make even the darkest days seem bright, My nights are filled with dreams of you... You say you love me, I love you too. If I could take back the hurtful words, Believe me, I would... But you and I both know, Even if I tried, I never could. I wish you could hold me in your arms, And whisper sweet nothings in my ear... Tell me your dreams and wishes... Tell me what I need to hear. I need you in my life, I need you here with me. You fill me with so much joy, I never want you to leave. Your kiss, your touch, Without you, where would I be? Lost and confused, broken and bruised... You are the only one I want wi

The Circle Closes
I've nejoyed being here, but I'm thinking it may be time to leave. I've appreciated the comments I've received on everything from my writing to my photos (and especially my lovely submissive), but this sight eats up a lot of time for me. I browse here when I should be doing other things. I have a few things left to do here as a promise to a very special lady, and once those are completed, I may not be back. So, in the event that I don't return, thank you to all for your kindness. If you want to stay in contact outside of this site, drop me a private message and we'll see what we can do.

The Town I Live In...dammit
"Turn Around Don't Drown!" Have you ever heard that said before? Well I didn't until I moved to this "great" state of Texas about six months ago. I thought I was going to die laughing when I heard the weather man on the local news station say it after announcing a flash flood warning. He said "Remember...Turn around don't drown!" It kind of reminded me of how a fire fighter tells a first grade class to "Stop Drop and Roll" should they ever catch fire. It is a "jingle" that this frequently flooding city of San Antonio, Texas has developed to try help keep the geniuses that reside here from accidentally killing themselves. My aunt told me that although I thought it was funny, I shouldn't laugh because everytime it rains, someone actually dies or goes to the hospital after trying to drive through 6ft of water. Apparently the number of people needing to be rescued after a failed attempt of trying to transform their vehicle into a boat had gotten so high that the fire department

T.g.i.f. Vs S. H. I. T.
Subject: T.G.I.F. vs S. H. I. T. A businessman got on an elevator. When he entered, there was a blonde already inside who greeted him with a bright, "T-G-I-F." He smiled at her and replied, "S-H-I-T." She looked puzzled and repeated, "T-G-I-F," more slowly. He again answered, "S-H-I-T." The blonde was trying to keep it friendly, so she smiled her biggest smile and said as sweetly as possibly, "T-G-I-F." The man smiled back to her and once again said, "S-H-I-T." The exasperated blonde finally decided to explain. " 'T-G-I-F' means 'Thank Goodness It's Friday.' Get it, duuhhh?" The man answered, " 'S-H-I-T' means 'Sorry, Honey, It's Thursday!' "

Nightmares
For the last few nights i been having some fucked up dreams...I know its because of the upcoming dr visit on the 27th....The dreams or nightmares have ended the same way with the dr saying "sorry son we can't fix you" and it shows me in a coffin..I know it is only dreams but the way I have been feeling it wouldn't surprise me if it comes to that

100 Things About Lil Ole Me
100 truths 1. real name ¨ Kristin 2. nickname ¨ Katt 3. single or taken ¨ Single 4. zodiac sign ¨ Cancer 5. male or female ¨ Bitch 6. elementary ¨ Nunya 7. middle ¨ Yah Right 8. high ¨ Do I have fuckin idiot across my head? 9. eye color ¨ Hazel / Orange 10. hair color ¨ Blonde and Brown and Burgundy underneath 11. long or short ¨ MIddle of back 12. current location ¨ West Coast 13. body type ¨ Sporty? I played soccer for 16years 14. are you a virgin ¨ My nostrils are 15. are you health freak ¨ No 16. height ¨ 5'4 17. do you have a crush on someone ¨ Sure the hell do 18. do you like yourself ¨ Yuppers Id do me 19. piercings¨ 9 20. tattoos ¨ 27 21. righty or lefty ¨ Righty FIRSTS : 22. surgery ¨ On my eye I split my iris open 23. piercing ¨ ears 24. tatoo ¨ dolphins 25. sport ¨ Soccer 26. pet ¨ Guinea Pigs 27. vacation ¨ Disneyland 28. concert ¨ haha Jefferson Starship

Wedding Anniversary What They Stand For
Anniversary Year Associated Gift 1st Wedding Anniversary Paper 2nd Wedding Anniversary Cotton 3rd Wedding Anniversary Leather 4th Wedding Anniversary Silk or Flowers 5th Wedding Anniversary Wood 6th Wedding Anniversary Iron 7th Wedding Anniversary Wool 8th Wedding Anniversary Bronze 9th Wedding Anniversary Pottery 10th Wedding Anniversary Tin 11th Wedding Anniversary Steel 12th Wedding Anniversary Silk 13th Wedding Anniversary Lace 14th Wedding Anniversary Ivory 15th Wedding Anniversary Crystal 20th Wedding Anniversary China 25th Wedding Anniversary Silver Wedding Balloons - Click Here 30th Wedding Anniversary Pearl 35th Wedding Anniversary Coral 40th Wedding Anniversary Ruby 45th Wedding Anniversary Sapphire 50th Wedding Anniversary Golden Wedding Balloons - Click Here 55th Wedding Anniversary Emerald 60th Wedding Anniversary Diamond

A Tender Little Kiss......(poem)
A tender little kiss on the tip of your nose. A gentle caress in the field where love grows. A fingertip on your cheek, a heart that's humble and meek and affection so warm and so caring. My whispers softly blowing through your hair. My joy of knowing that you always are here. Not a word spoken in haste, not a rose that's laid out to waste but the tender feelings the two of us are sharing.

When You Are Not Around.(poem)
When you are not around the sun doesn't shine, When you are not around then nothing is fine, When you are not around my heart doesn't beat; but as soon as you come, I fall at your feet. When you are not around I feel lonely and cold, When you are not around I feel sickly and old, When you are not around there is dark all around, but as soon as you come, I know light has been found. When you are not around there is love in my heart, When you are not around I know we'll never part, When you are not around I know your love burns so bright, and as soon as you come you create day from the night. Yes you are the kindling, the spark and the flame, you are the laughter in lives lovely game, you are the warmth that forever I cherish; yes yours is the love that never shall perish.

For A Dirty Little Girl Out There
i opened the door and stepped inside made my way down the hallway stopped at the bedroom door i heard something leaned in just a little there it was a soft moan and the rustling of covers.I peeked around the corner there you were laying on your back legs spreading. my heart started racing.I slowly and very quietly unbutoned my pants slipped off my shoes you were very soflty caressing the lips of your pussy i unbuttoned my shirt and stood there fully naked my cock throbbing i could already see the pre cum leaking out of me making the head all shiney. I glanced back at you i could see your pussy starting to become excited your lips were parting ever so slightly i could just see a glimmer of juice as your fingers dipped in for a taste of what was to come. I grabbed my cock and felt it twich from the excitement i thought about how i loved your pussy i could spend hours sampling the dew off your petal how i yearned to trace the folds of your vagina with my tounge lovingly circle

Fucking Pissed!!!!!!!!!!!1
YOU KNOW I CANT STAND IT WHEN SOMEONE AGREES TO SOMETHING THE "RULES WE WILL CALL IT" AND THEY CANT ADHEAR TO THEM AND JUST GO AHEAD AND DO WHAT THEY WANT! KEEP YOUR FUCKING WORD OR DONT MAKE THE DEALS! IN LAYMANS TERMS "DONT WRITE CHECKS YOUR ASS CANT CASH!"

Adam And Eve
Seems God was just about done with creating the universe but he had two extra things left over in his bag so he decided to split them between Adam and Eve. He told them that one of the things he had left was a thing that would allow the owner to pee while standing up. "It's a very handy thing," God told them, "and I was wondering if either one of you would like that." Well, Adam jumped up and down and begged "Oh, give that to me! I'd love to be able to do that. It seems just the sort of thing a man should be able to do. Please. Please! Pleeease! Give it to me." On and on he went like an excited little boy. So Eve just smiled and told God that if Adam really wanted it so badly, he should have it. So God gave Adam the thing that allowed him to pee while standing up and he was so excited. He whizzed on the bark of a tree and then went off to write his name in the sand, laughing with delight all the while. God and Eve watched him for a moment and then God said to Eve, "Well, he

Read This!
Desiderata Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in you business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity a

Soooo Very Embarrassing, But There Might Be A Silver Lining To It All!!
Ring... ring... "Hey, Mom! Are we still meeting to eat??? .... Where at??? .... How soon can you get here??? .... Is it okay if Aaron meets us there too??? ...." The call came in around 5pm. Because of traffic, I didn't catch up with her at Chuy's until close to 5:30. Aaron arrived after I did; just as we were called to be seated. What perfect timing! All things were good....until we were seated at a table on the back porch area. I sat down..... CRUNNNNNNCH!!! The dang plastic chair gave way and I fell on my side to the knee. The chair scraped my skin and ripped open the side of my pants. My son in law helped me up and offered to do something. I asked him if he would mind getting me one of the empty metal chairs from the other side of the outdoors area. Sat down in that and my pants continued to rip and was way to airy to the crowd of folks eating outdoors. I was going to move the chair to the other side of the table, but then I noticed that blood

Sex&green Eggs And Ham
I WILL NOT HAVE SEX WITH GREEN EGGS AND HAM, I WILL NOT HAVE SEX WITH SAM I AM, I WILL HAVE SEX ON A BOAT, I WILL HAVE SEX WITHOUT MY COAT, I WILL HAVE SEX OUTDOORS, I WILL HAVE SEX ON HARDWOOD FLOORS, I WILL HAVE SEX WHEN IM WET, I WILL HAVE SEX ON A JET, I WILL HAVE SEX THAT MAKES ME QUIVER, I WILL HAVE SEX BY THE RIVER, I WILL HAVE SEX IN THE RAIN, I WILL HAVE SEX ON A CRANE, I WILL HAVE SEX IN THE CAR, I WILL HAVE SEX AT THE BAR, I WILL HAVE SEX WHEN IT'S DAMP, I WILL HAVE SEX WHEN WE CAMP, I WILL HAVE SEX WITH A GIRL THAT'S BI, I WILL HAVE SEX IN PLACES THAT ARE HIGH, I WILL HAVE SEX IN A SHED, I WILL HAVE SEX ON A BED,.... SWEET&KINKY

What The Fuck Is Wrong With You People?
Ok seriously, what the fuck is wrong with some of you? CherryTap Weddings? And getting excited over it like if its a real marriage? o.O honestly...have your social skills degraded that badly that you're taking a net joke seriously? How the fuck can you love someone whom you have never met, never touched, never even been around. Sure you can develop "feelings" for someone based on their personality without seeing them, but you can't love someone truely without being in their presence. I read someones blog the other day who was asking for information about visas and the like because after net marrying someone, she now wants to fly to his country and do it legally. What the fuck is that! There are certain things about people you just don't know without being around them. Fuck, do you know how easy it is to be someone else online then you are in real life? Heck I'm sure half of you do it without even realising it! For all you know the apparent love of your life (whom you've n

To Everyone In Fff And Cb/cg
AS OF RIGHT NOW I AM RESIGNING FROM BOTH GROUPS TILL THIS SHIT ENDS. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO MAINTAIN ORDER WITHIN THIS GROUP IF THE 2 HEADS ARE HAVING ISSUES. THE ONLY WAY I CAN DO IT IS TO TREAT YOU 2 LIKE I WOULD THE OTHERS AND KICK BOTH UR BUTTS!!! I AM SORRY IF THIS PISSES SOMEONE OFF BUT I HAVE SPENT THE LAST 2 DAY THINKIN ABOUT THIS.

Enough Of The Bullshit!!
Alright folks! I'm sick and tired of trying to make frinds on this fuckin thing and to be ignored by some bullshit you confused about!! i don't have to explain a fucking thing about myself if i don't feel like tellin you or if you don't ask. I don't just blurt out my fucking personal life for no damn reason!! I talk to people on here for one reason and one reason only and that is to MEET PEOPLE!!!! nothing more nothing less, If i meet you in person,cool! If not i can still keep up on the internet in some form or another weither it be Cherrytap,Myspace, or Yahoo!! My one major pet peeve is when i talk to someone and they just leave me hanging, if you don't want to talk don't fucking talk but at least tell me "Hey, i don't want to talk to you". I'm a big fucking boy i can handle rejection. I've got too much time and too many things on my fucking mind to be worried about why such-and-such got an attitude with me. Most ladies i talk to on here think im about one thing! And you damn right i

One Night Stand
ONE NIGHT STAND "One who has seen the EYE" i am a man of science love who met a woman of literature sexual art. we discuss a theory of measuring lust density with love whith without destroying the fact about confession. we round off our compatiblity and divide our difereneces to have equal qualities. we subtracted our martial status and add attraction for our own being of respect.eyes make mistakes when bumping into each other accidently when the needs of attention across stumbling was meant on purpose weather its business worksite or public relations. At home dealing with dailiy life our mind are supposily stablized but our heart isnt in that enviroment. it is hard to walk way from lust when we turn our back on love so pasion can consume us. We pretend we are at focus of debated attention not fighting but watching so we act like we are at war. the only peace we bring is our eyes of silence unless one of us has the same thing in common to make the move first. It wont

Please Forgive Me Yet Once Again...
Well I have been having a rough time here, between school, work and my momma bein a bone head. She is real sick and refuses to talk to me, so I may not be here as much till i find out what is really wrong, she has a lot of ppl in hawaii that are really worried about her... now time for me to b mommy to my mommy... hugs n kisses

Got This In A Bulletin Today.....
For all who Know Motorcycle Riders ____________________________________________ I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather coats

Surgery Went Well........
My surgery (to remove my gallbladder) went well the other day, but i am still in alot of pain. I wish i knew the other day what i know today and i would have never had it done! I would have let death take over. I dought that after all i have been through yesterday that i am going to go through with my 2nd surgery ! I am praying that i will be better before tomorrow cause i cant handle this pain much longer expectly with these kids. Its really hard trying to explain to a 5 year and 8 year old why they cant touch you.

Saturday Night
24 Saturday Night By Ms. Cleavage It was a few minutes after 11 pm when we finally went to bed. I was following my husband down the hall to our bedroom when he entered the room and I walked up behind him as he stopped to pull the blankets back. He stood before me with his back to me only wearing his boxers. I reached around his chest with both of my arms and gave him a big hug. I made sure that my breasts pressed up against his bare back so he can feel them give his shoulder blades a hug while I pinched his nipples that he loves so much. I took my fingernails and ran large circles around each of his nipples and I could hear him take a deep breath as I did so. I stepped back a bit and ran my nails over his shoulders and down the length of his spine very slowly teasing him with the touch all the while. I dropped to my knees behind him and then tugged lightly at the elastic band at the top of his boxers dropping them slowly just so that I could see the top of the crack o

Why Does It Still Hurt So Bad????
OK! here goes....I'm not into writing this blogs to express my feelings,but here goes! Well as some of you know i've been divorced for almost a year now.Granted we had some good times and some bad, who does'nt? What i was wanna know is why does it still sting a little after the fact? Is it normal to have such anger and rage as i'm feeling now? Could it be the reason why i'm so "moody" as i've been told before? I guess the reason i'm asking this is cause last night i had a dream about bumping into my ex at a county fair( dont ask)But after a lil tit for tat with her i proceeded to beat the ever loving shit out of her!!! And what's worse is it felt so real i woke up in a sweat.Seeing as how she fucked me over after we got divorced this was a feeling i really wanted to carr out in person,with my own hands i wanted to stangle the shit out of her! But i don't do shit like that, So how do i release this anger i have buried so deep within myself? Is it healthy to keep things bottled up like t

Saying Rude Things To Me...
Ok I am usually a sweetheart. but there are always a few who have to say rude things to me!!! For those ppl you will be blocked..just like THIS FOOLZin57@ CherryTAP!!!I DO NOT LIKE RUDE ASSHOLES!!!!

Dating Again Lol
Well I am single again....Which is a good thing for me..So I am placing this on a dating site and would like feedback....come on family and friends let me know what you think, and if there is anything I should change...I want to date again but not scare anyone off...lol So here is my information...let me know what you all think.. I am a single mother, kinda shy, until I get to know you, then you can't shut me up or so my friends say lol...I am looking for female and male friendships and dating around my town of Virginia MN. Not that I do not enjoy IMing, but I want to get out and enjoy life with friends. I am very upfront, maybe to blunt, but I try not to hurt other's, but if I do, I make amends as soon as possible but I am not a mind reader, so I expect you to tell me, so I can do what I can to make amends, if it is important. In other words, you will alway know where you stand with me. I am nonjudgmenal and supportive to my friends. I am always open to two way converstatio

Check Ur Tires Please!!!
Check it out, i went riding yesterday with a friend who isnt as experienced a rider as me. beatiful texas day around 78 degress, we come into a S curve and i look in my mirror and i see my friend going strait instead of curving(i knew this wasnt going to be good) he went strait thru the curve into a ditch that had that large riprap rock in it and dumped. He's fine ego and arms legs and ribs bruised and cut. But this was so avoidable. well i went back and while he was praying and think God that he was fine i got his bike out and we got it to a near by house. Come to find out he had 10 pounds of pressure in his front tire. If you dont know anyone would have trouble turning expecially big front wheeled bikes(i'm a skinny front tire guy myself). Check ur friggin Tires expecially if the bikes been sitting(which his had about a week) and if like now the weather goes from cold to hot every other day. Also dont Push yourself if you arent confident yet dont rush it it'll come,and above all re

Cleaning Poem
Cleaning Poem ** I asked the Lord to tell me Why my house is such a mess. He asked if I'd been 'computering', And I had to answer "yes." He told me to get off my fanny And tidy up the house. And so I started cleaning up... The smudges off my mouse. I wiped and shined the topside. That really did the trick... I was just admiring my work... I didn't mean to 'click.' But click, I did, and oops I found A real absorbing site That I got SO way into... I was into it all night. Nothing's changed except my mouse It's very,very shiny. I guess my house will stay a mess... While I sit here on my hiney. Get more at www.hostdrjack.com

Ct!
Lately i saw a lot of bulletins about people being odd with other members and it makes me sad. If you're a little bit mature and civilised, you should know you're freedom of speech ends where someone else's starts. So if you don't like someone, just keep it for you. No need to be an ass and say stupid things. By the way i think some of the CT members/families act like teenage kids. Learn to live in society and act normal. I try to be openminded and if i don't like someone i keep it to me.

Ten Ways To Marry The Wrong Person
By Rabbi Dov Heller, M. A. 1. You pick the wrong person because you expect him/her to change after you're married. The classic mistake. Never marry potential. The golden rule is, if you can't be happy with the person the way he or she is now, don't get married. As a colleague of mine so wisely put it, "You actually can expect people to change after their married...for the worst!" So when it comes to the other person's spirituality, character, personal hygiene, communication skills, and personal habits, make sure you can live with these as they are now. 2. You pick the wrong person because you focus more on chemistry than on character. Chemistry ignites the fire, but good character keeps it burning. Beware of the "I'm in love" syndrome. "I'm in love often means, "I'm in lust." Attraction is there, but have you carefully checked out this person's character? Here are four characteristics to definitely check for: a.) . Humility: Does this person believe that "doing the right thing"

Train...
The train wasn't busy but, even if it was I would have spread my things out a bit anyway, for extra room, I took a seat next to the window. I'm not crazy about public transportation, but sometimes it does offer a different view on the world and life in general...the rocking of the train caused me to slip off for a while, and when I opened my eyes an older, good looking, dark haired gentleman was sitting across and over a bit from me...he seemed absorbed in his paper so I studied him a minute from half opened sleepy eyes, expensive suit and coat, Armani perhaps, cashmere for certain-it has that soft expensive shine to it...crisp white shirt with just a slight touch of stripe woven into the fabric, expensive chinos and supremely polished shoes...must be on his way to an evening foray... I was a little bored and slightly horny, having just had an online chat with a lady friend in the States, I was dressed for an evening out with various associates and knew I looked quite handsome...th

Ratings
so like i got one here and i noticed someone rated my pic a 1 and guess what its a guy im glad poeple i dont know go around ratings pics a 1 u know if i didnt like ap ic i wouldnt rate it but yeah thanks to this dude that gave my pic a 1

Ah....yeah. Ignorance Is Bliss
Somedays...ok, most all days I really hate people because the world seems to be overwhelmingly filled with them. Lacking social skills, devoid of a broad spectrum of Understanding and Diversity. Bigoted and Narrow...unable to Soar to new heights of Awareness and Understanding. But,like the Buddha says "Ignorance is Bliss." Well, there are a lotta happy motherfuckerzzzz out there.... jt/poet/seer/thinker

Yes Im Fucking Venting
I really am so fucking tired of hearing about fat vs skinny chicks .So i read that stupid mumm , and decided to ask my RL friend who I was talking to in yahoo what he thought.I dont fucking understand why guys are so fucking shallow .I really dont get it . Yeah Im a fat chick , Its not like I planned on ever getting fat , I spent my whole life skinny in sizes 3- 10 .. I had a perfect fugure at one point in my life(36 26 36). yeah the original perfect figure before the anorexic look came in. I deal with the disgust in my self every day , because Im not skinny enough for modern society , most of the time Im fine with it because I know that even in a size 16 I can be sexy .But seeing shit like that mumm and peoples opinions just makes me want to puke. Hell maybe why thats why Im really single , and I really feel sorry for people , because I might not be thin , but Im a hell of a good person , carring loveing and giving , and there should be a whole lot more to a person then their fuckin

Drinks And Women's Personailities
Seven New York City bartenders were asked if they could nail a woman's personality based on what she drinks. Though interviewed separately, they concurred on almost all counts. The results: Drink: Beer Personality: Casual, low-maintenance; down to earth. Your Approach: Challenge her to a game of pool. Drink: Blender Drinks Personality: Flaky, annoying; a pain in the ass. Your Approach: Avoid her, unless you want to be her cabin boy. Drink: Mixed Drinks Personality: Older, has picky taste; knows what she wants. Your Approach: You won't have to approach her. She'll send YOU a drink. Drink: Wine - (does not include white zinfandel, see below) Personality: Conservative and classy, sophisticated. Your Approach: Tell her you wish Reagan had had four more years...Alzheimer's and term limits be damned. Drink: White Zin Personality: Easy; thinks she is classy and sophisticated, actually has no clue. Your approach: Make her feel smarter than she is... Drink: Shots

What A Perfect Woman Would Say...
* I'll swallow it all . . . I love the taste. * Are you sure you've had enough to drink? * I'm bored. Let's shave my little kitty, you big lion king! * Oh come on, what do ya say we get a good porno movie, a case of beer, a few joints, and have my friend Tammy over for a threesome! * God..if I don't get to blow you soon, I swear I'm gonna bust! * I know it's a lot tighter back there but would you please try again? * You're so sexy when you're hungover. * I'd rather watch football and drink beer with you than go shopping. * Let's subscribe to Hustler. * Would you like to watch me go down on my girlfriend? * Say, let's go down to the mall so you can check out women's asses. * I'll be out painting the house. * I love it when you play golf on Sunday's, I just wish you had time to play on Saturday too. * Honey, our new neighbor's daughter is nude sunbathing again, come see! * I've decided to stop wearing clothes around the house. * No, no

Cobatives 2 Update
well im finally done with level 2 combatives training. i wal away fro it with a certificate, hurt ribs,2 sore legs,sore back, right shoulder and elbow sore.maybe i need to look into getting a massage.

Blind Eye (poem)
Truth I attempt to avoid In hope I'm just paranoid Caught you in another lie Ask questions and wonder why Where have you been at today By yourself I hope I pray But I can't turn a blind eye Or begin to sympathize We have done this all before This time I must shut the door You could never be my wife So I leave behind our life Start again with someone new And wish to just forget you * This one is about my ex-girlfriend from a while back, it's been sitting on my pc and finally finished it today.

Please Take The Time........
Hi all, To all the men who are going to take the time to read this... If you are not my friend already then please don't request friendship just to see the pics. I may be baring all but I am NOT here just as a piece of meat. I do have a brain. This profile is a release for me from my home life. I can let go here... But if you treat/talk to me like I am a sex object then move on because I am NOT interested in your words. If sex talk is all you want then f' off and hit the Cherry walk......

Ridin' Solo
well I'm ridin' solo again. I have the worst kind of luck but maybe this what I need right now. I thank all my true friends have stand by me the last day or two. I know what will happen but I feel I made the right choose for once in my life. what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I am hold on to faith and hope and will make the best out of this.

I Hate The Fact...
I hate the fact that when someone rates you something lower than a '10', they are anonymous to you unless they put a message on your wall. If someone rates me a '1' I would wanna know who and then ask them why I deserved a '1'. If this wasn't so anonymous, I don't think anyone would have the balls to rate below a '10', but since their identity is safe, they can be the punk bitches that they are. If I rate something below a '10' then I put a comment why I did so, but then again I've never rated below a '10'. So I say, if anyone out there rates anything of mine below a '10', please let me know who you are and don't be a punk ass, trick ass, mark ass bitch about it. If you feel something in your heart about me, LET IT OUT! LET IT BE KNOWN TO ME AND EVERYONE HERE! Can I get an amen?!

Why Women Cry... By Sweet Sex Latina
Why Women Cry... A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God answered, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be Special. I made Her Shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an Inner Strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a Hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without co

Self Deprecating Humor
Yes folks, I've just had this brilliant idea that self-deprecating humor is perfect for people like me. It's a great way to set up the would-be admirers with in-your-face-can-you-handle-it dialogue with your pitiful-but-abundantly-witty-state of mind. The objective of this downhill run is to see if you can spot the defective areas from a distance, calculate whether or not the slope is do-able. Mentally prepare yourself for the twists and turns. Learn how to ski in armor for protection of the barbs and broken glass scattered around the course. The object is to have quick reflexes and not take anything too seriously as it really is just a matter of luck if anyone actually makes it down the slope. Most will say, screw it and walk away. Which brings me to another great point of self-deprecating humor. It separates the gutsy ones from the whimps. The champs from the chimps. And if anyone should actually make it to the finish line, you'll damned well know they effin deserve a little

I Give Up
Well I quit, I give up, and no matter what I do I just can’t win. I am tired of all the games, tired of all the lies. People say one thing, but when it comes time to follow through, its always one excuse after another, hey I heard them all. If you don't want to be with someone just tell them that, don't lead them on forever, worrying about hurting them, guess what, leading them on like that hurts even more. And the ones that live real far away just conveniently are supposed to be the ones that want you. Oh yeah, just another excuse.

Fallen Angel
My whole life seems just One long wait Until my dreams disintegrate And the sky falls down on me Crushed by Clouds and misery Heaven is far too far for me And life is much much too cold Angels don't fall from the sky to me I'm too much of a cynic Or just too old I can't believe in anything I wish I could be that naïve My mind just questions everything I know the truth but can't believe I cannot go against entropy And chaos is ruling all around Just like I can't deny gravity And pick myself up from the ground Plastic, music, amphetamine, And a world that can only fade Abhorring the pit I am living in But I'm destined to lie, My bed is made A flick of the wrist Slash, slash of the blade Determinist? My future is made I have no choice But the illusion of such I have no voice I just talk too much So what is there left that I can do? I can hope and hope for better things And I hope you will finally see the truth That this fallen angel has broken her wings

Words From My Brother Sparrow
I hear and feel it. Here I stand here I stay listening to the spirts on the wind. Seeing the warriors of the past ride past me onto the next hunt or battle, some to ride again some who ride in the great hunting grounds, but all will ride again.......

This Is Lisa. He's Okay.
Richard made it to Columbus in one piece and is currently in his new home. He is however without internet access for awhile to come. He has asked me to post this so that he can let you all know he is safe and okay and will be on as soon as he can. Hugs and kisses to all from both he and I. Lisa

The Story About My Name Blackheart For All That Wants To Know!!!!
Some know on here about my dauther Robben!!! Why i have not seen her and how much pain i go there everyday because of it!!! I have never seen my little girl her mother ran with her two month befor she was to be born just so i could not be there to be on her borth papers for the last year and two month i been fight the courts to find her!!!Her mother jumps state to state as soon as she think i know where they are just to keep me from my dauther!!! My dauther is a big part of my life even thou i have never heared her kissed her hold her in my arms she still makes me smile everyday know she out there and one day i meet her !!! But after the smile the pain hits me hard for i trully do love my little angel all i wish for is for her to know that i do!!! Why does her mother do this to me because she know it hurts me !!! Why would she want to hurt me because in her mind she feeles i should be hurt!!! but ever day my heart hurts more and more get to be where it only a couple of people have been

Rose
Rose Spring of the dawn morning light of the sun shining down like a stairway to heaven a rose has bloom essential to scent that air once gave life to its beauty tears from the sun painted its color and gave it life to blossom to something beautilful and elite each day reflection change a bit to better the worse into maturity a sign with a gift from the air supremacy that give off ofspring of its smell her desziny sweet ecstasty answered prayers of eternity a rose bless by wind that speak in silence peace bless her wings of charm that flap 180 degree in the deep blue sea of sacred faires that breathe clean worship of freshiness snowflakes that keep her warm weeds sworn protector of her golden pride garden of Eden generate her heart full of joy and pasion of poularity attracted from the world of tourism such as wing-lords of the skies, signs of the stars, eyes of the wises, and animal of the rainforest Rose.. chanchellor of cloud nine

Psycho Bitch
I want you to quit Calling me Calling me Following me Following me Why do you trip with me After you get through Swallowing me Never knew this Bianca Would explode Like this Now that I know this I must reload Gat clips How many ever met a Psycho bitch Down for the minute But a major twist Came With a bit of game Met that bitch Sickness Everybody peep The evil symptoms So you'll know When sexual activity happens And tears start to flow Time to go They come with a Big package in back Chest is twice that But the fatal attraction Will only get you Ice packs Better watch what you do When you sleep with a woman That's on the edge In your bed Cause you'll be resting In red Killa killa They'll find the number To your residence Non-hesitant Unprecedented Ain't no mystery To her steez She's demented I ain't never gonna get myself In another mix up With a psycho bitch Millimeter With a master plan So you won't be off in a ditch Like this Wild

Dreams
chasing dreams can be a game chasing dream can be a chore chasing dreams can be part of ones life but dont let your dreams dreams slip away from you hold on to them as long as you can if it was meant to be it will be yours if it wasnt meant to be let it go if it comesback it will be yours til you say its time to let go my way of chasing dreams

Hope U All Didnt Miss Me To Much!
HEY EVERYBODY, Im back from Vegas......it was freakin awesome, if anybody cares hehe..... I honestly didnt have one thought of CT while i was gone, to be truthful hehe but im glad to be back, but im very tired hope to talk to u alll sooooon!!! Luvz ya... Cindy

Honesty
I have not been completely honest with anybody including myself ever. When i'm finally honest with a guy turns out he's the one who hurts me the worst. Is honestly such a good, i wonder? I fell head over heels in love with him just to get hurt!!!! What the fuck was I thinkin? I have been up most of the night pondering that very question. I feel like an ass, I told all my friends and family that he was in iraq to learn he doesn't go back til May. I took pics that I wouldn't of for anybody else and I took them for him. I love him so much, that he should have told me the truth instead of making me wonder. Well, time to end for now, Steph

Epitaph
The wall on which the prophets wrote Is cracking at the seams. Upon the instruments of death The sunlight brightly gleams. When every man is torn apart With nightmares and with dreams, Will no one lay the laurel wreath As silence drowns the screams. Between the iron gates of fate, The seeds of time were sown, And watered by the deeds of those Who know and who are known; Knowledge is a deadly friend When no one sets the rules. The fate of all mankind I see Is in the hands of fools. Confusion will be my epitaph. As I crawl a cracked and broken path If we make it we can all sit back and laugh. But I fear tomorrow I'll be crying, Yes I fear tomorrow I'll be crying.

How Come?
the people I really want to talk to on messenger want to talk to me? When they do want to talk to me then I'm never here. I figure what is the point of having messenger at all. No one really talks on them Also the only time most of them IM me is if they are horny and think they can get some from me. Even though they know for a fact that I WONT give it to them. FUCK MESSENGERS!!!! /end rant

Please Support Autism
> Hi all, > Autism Awareness month is April and I am asking my friends and family to please support "MY SON" who has Autism and all of the other children and familes to at least default an Autism Ribbon at least a week or even better the whole month of April. > > > I am not going to twist anyones arms of course but I will give a VIC gift to everyone who does this that is my friend or family. > > > I myself and all others that Autism touches them personally appreciate this. Autism is a complex Disability and it is a blessing to see others who care. > > > > > > Myself and my husband " MATING_EAGLE" appreciate your love. > With much luv and hugz, > > Leopard_Goddess > > > > > Nancy Leopard_Goddess aka " Seargent of Arms of the Confederate Bombers of CT" > >

Stupid!! Stupid!! Stupid!!
DAM THE LAST I CHECKED I WAS 41 YEARS OLD, AND FOR ME TO SHOW MY CLEVAGE, WHICH I HAD MY BRA AND SHIRT ON, AND I GET FLAGGED (NSFW) OMG THAT WAS JSUT WRONG , THIS IS WHAT MAKES THIS SITE, SURE THERE IS A POINT YA DONT CROSS BUT HELL, LOOK AT ALL THE NUDE CONTEST AND PICS OUT THERE * WHICH PERSONALLY MOST OF THEM I LIKE..HEHE* BUT CT IS GETTING WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY OUT OF HAND BY FLAGGIN A LOT OF THESE PICS THAT ARE CLEAN BUT YET LEAVES A LITTLE TO THE IMAGINATION, I GUARANTEE U IF I WOULD OF HAD MY SHIRT OFF IT PROBABLY WOULDNT OF BEEN FLAGGED, PEOPLE COME ON THIS SITE TO HAVE FUN, NOT BE PUNISHED FOR A DAM CLEVAGE SHOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!!!!!!!!!

O0o0o0o And The Plot Thickens
So not only was my mum from last night takin off the panel but i am no longer allowed to do mums! Haha i luv gettin banned from doin stuff that is so small compared to things that are so big. Wait was that a sexual reference...lol.

Rated R .....
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Can you feel them, My Love, Softly touching your cheek Tracing the lines of your mouth Trailing down your neck? Can you feel them slowly Unbuttoning your shirt And tip toeing across your chest With teasing nails and warm fingers Leaving fingerprints of fire? Can you feel the silk of my hair Falling against your bare skin? Do you feel the pleasure of hot lips Kissing you deeply Tongue dancing with tongue Twirling in passion's Tingling tango? Can you feel skillful hands Against your zipper Touches like flame against your thighs Gentle squeezes of your hardness? Do you feel my lips and tongue Here and there, everywhere You want them to be? I am caressing you, with my words Do you feel the subtle softness Of firm mounds and hardened buds Between your fingers and lips Held and worshiped within The warm welcoming sanctuary Of your waiting mouth? Is t

No M O R E!
I can't deal with the constant liquor intake. i'm getting too old for this shit. *checks concert schedule* No no wait.... Fuck. Halifax. Oh well there goes that plan. I'll quit next week.... *Checks concert schedule* Forget it. I'm gonna be drunk all year. Great. Come party with us!

What The Meaning Of My True Love Is!!
What the meaning of love is to me, and what I want outta it!! Ya know sometimes people have a different picture of what they want or think love is, and I am one of em, true love isn't something you work on like alot of people say.... true love is something that just happens and is very effortless!! So why do people think that for your true love to happen, they will fall into your lap, and then you have to work on it, and arguments and fights are normal, yes they are normal, in a way........but true love you would be able to sit down together and talk about the problems you are having with an effortless way of doing it...... So here it goes this is what I want and why it is so hard to find what I call and want true love to be in my life!! True love is a very passionate love, doesn't matter if you have 3 children and she has 3 children, or you have none..... True love is when I want to race home from work everyday of my life to get to her, not wanting to work any overtime whats

Reality
************ Self Represented***************** By The Poet Magic Mike C-Towns Finest It was a hot and sunny day, I felt all the super heated breezes blowing my way.. So I decided to hit store for a little cooling off, But when I opened the door you wont believe what I saw.. The woman that stood before me, was as sexy as any woman can be.. Her skin was that of a color hard to describe, and her eyes drew me in deep inside.. As I asked her name and who was she with, she just smiled and said I've seen you and know where you live.. we exchanged a few words more or less, but I was caught up in those sexy breast.. her lips were full and soft and wet, and alas her name was? hell I forget.. she said let's get out of here, and I said after you just so I could watch that rear.. she had ad ass that tigh,round and fat, and I just had to get next to that..we got to my spot about seven or eight, adn I already knew that this night was going to be great.. she wore a shirt with some brand printed

An Explanation
SOMEOF YOU MIGHT HAVEWONDERED HOW I CAN BE SO SWEET AND SENSATIVE. Yes i believe there is a reason. I was hit y a car, and when i landed i landed on my head so I broke my neck. I had a near death experiance so i got the oppertunity to go to Heaven. God did talk to me and he told me its not my time i have to go back, i really didnt want to but he said I wasnt done. So he sent me back and ive been sweet and sensative ever since so i believe that i was given a blessing. Also because so many of my friends are woman i believe that thats a blessing to. Cause without u i dont think i would be able to be so calm. So i consider it a blessing that i can express myself so well. I also would like to thank all of you you help me out so much even though u dont know it, just talkin to u guys helps calm me down sometimes

Real American By Rick Derringer
This is recognized as the signature entrance theme song of Hulk Hogan. But to me, this song has a lot deeper pride behind it. I am a real American, Fight for the rights of every man, I am a real American, Fight for what's right, fight for your life! When it comes crashing down, and it hurts inside, ya' gotta take a stand, it don't help to hide, Well, you hurt my friends, and you hurt my pride, I gotta be a man; I can't let it slide, I am a real American, Fight for the rights of every man, I am a real American, Fight for what's right, fight for your life! I feel strong about right and wrong, And I don't take trouble for very long, I got somethin' deep inside of me, and courage is the thing that keeps us free, I am a real American, Fight for the rights of every man, I am a real American, Fight for what's right, fight for your life! Well you hurt my friends, and you hurt my pride, I gotta be a man; I can't let it slide, I am a real American,

Dont Understand Men
this is one subject ill never get not gonna vent because omg then i would be a drama queen but i just have to say ill never understand guys and what and how they think...all the while they think women are the issue i think it def starts in the xy gene pool..........and you guys are all the same ive yet to find a unquie one that stood out among the rest!! your allllll the same ok dunzo haha have a fabo day/night whatever it might be for ya toodles

Suduce Me
She stood there in front of the mirror. Beads of tiny water drops inching down her body. She reached for the lotion. Smoothing it over her neck, then down and around her Beautiful breasts. Down her navel to her legs, working and smoothing down to her tiny feet. Taking down a perfume bottle she mists her body. The sweet smell lingers in the room. Candles flicker and dance in the darkness. She slips into a black satin negligee, which caresses her skin softly. She pulls back the crisp red linens on the bed. Now she awaits her seducer.... ...I am here my love

Nsfw Madness
Here is the link to the blog to sign to support the NSFW abuse thing..This whole issue is not a bashing party as some have stated its a group of people who believe the NSFW stuff is unfair and double standard. Its not even bouncers marking things its people who have an issue with whatever it is on your page you are trying to represent. Its like ive said TIME AND TIME again if i was a size 2 barbie my "butt"( in jeans) pics would not have been flagged they would have been drooled over lusted after. HAd I been born a man and ran around with no shirt showing nipples no one would say a word..Had i been a perfect "church goer" and not had things on my page that went against what others THINK I should believe I wouild not have been flagged. The last time I walked out my door I still lived in the USA which gives me the right to freedom of speech , Freedom of Religion and above all else equal rights for EVERYONE. This site is advertised as an adult site granted not everyone wants to see T&A B

We Maybe Moving
Our landlady came by today, and let us know that the bank will be takeing over the house we are renting in 3 days, from today, we can save it by takeing over paymants, and paying $3,620, something we do not have. and then 700 a month after. then house would become ours. this I regret will not happen, so we are now scrambling to pack and get ready to move. Yes my many friends, this sucks, but we have 1 or 2 rabbits to pull, but we do not know if they will work out or not, if they do then at most we will be gone a few days, then back on line, if not then i do not know when we will be back out side of loging on at friend houses. If you do not hear from us, then Thank you for your friendship and we will see you when we can. John-David Mitchell~ dragoncat

Lost Love
I long for the intimacy that we used to share, the inside jokes, and just knowing that at the end of the day, you'd be there. Maybe this feeling will find me again someday. I can only hope and pray,because I may learn to live without you, but I can't live without love. Why are you the first thought on my mind at the beginning and end of each day, when I doubt you think of me anyway. When the phone rings, my heart wants that to be you, it screams I love you, but only a fool lips would let that show. I need to let you go, I know you won't be coming back. I have to let go of hope and that is what's so hard to do. Most of all I need a friend right now, but the only friend I have had for so long -has been you.

I Cut Myself Today
If you had previously commented and rated I thank you, I was forced to delete then repost this. Not everyone will read this quite the same but it is what it is. I cut myself today to let out all the pain I cut myself today before I go insane I cut myself today to watch you walk away I cut myself today just to make you pay I cut myself today to bleed you from my soul I cut myself today my life slipping through this hole I cut myself today a thousand stories I could tell I cut myself today as I descend into my hell I cut myself today and you don't care I cut myself today save me? don't you fuckin' dare I cut myself today because I've had enough I cut myself today because this life is too fuckin' tough I cut myself today nothing left to lose I cut myself today my life's blood does oooze I cut myself today because I have the thirst I cut myself today Because..........you cut me first

Valhalla
"Loath there do i see my father, Loath there do i see my mother, and my sister's, and my brother's, loath there do i see the line of my people, back to the begining, now they do call to me, they bid me take my place among them, in the halls of valhalla, where the brave may live forever." I may not be scandanavien, but i just love that line.

Bad News
A couple of you are aware that my father has been undergoing treatment for cancer, specifically lymphoma. Last week, we had to put him back in the hospital for dehydration and disorientation. A CAT scan was ordered because he'd fallen, and something was detected on his brain, so he underwent an MRI and spinal tap. Today the results are in, and they're not good. The growth on his brain is carcinoma, a far more aggressive form of cancer. It would still be treatable if it were more lymphoma, but with carcinoma, there's no point. The only treatment he's getting now is to be made comfortable. The doctors are talking in terms of days, not weeks or months.

Lust
Tell me what I'd have to change, who I would have to be, to slip into your arms, for you to make love to me? Must I climb the highest cliff, swim on the ocean floor, crawl over broken glass, would you demand that I do more? Could you take me as I am, with my issues and my flaws, pull me to your chest, without hesitation or pause? Wrap me in your passion, expose your every need, press your lips to mine, every secret freed. Need me more with every breath that slips into your chest, please me nightly, miss me daily, never compare me with the rest. Grip my wrists, look into my eyes, and say the words I long to hear. Kiss me sofly and say my name, forever, hold me near. Do I ask for wishes that could never quite come true? Is my sin my greatest fault, that I really do love you..

36 Reasons Why It's Good To Be A Woman..so Don't Complain !
1.Free drinks. 2.Free dinners. 3.Free movies (you get the point). 4.You can hug your friend without wondering if she thinks you’re gay. 5.You can hug your friend without wondering if YOU’RE gay. 6.You know The Truth about whether size matters. 7.Speeding ticket? What’s that? 8.New lipstick is entirely a new chapter. 9.You never had to walk down the hall with your binder strategically positioned in high school. 10.If you have sex with someone and don’t call them the next day, you’re not the devil. 11.Condoms make no significant difference in your enjoyment of sex. 12.If you have to be home in time for Melrose Place, you can say so, out loud. 13.You know which glass was yours by the lipstick mark 14.You don’t have hair on your back. 15.You don’t have to fart to amuse yourself. 16.If you cheat on your spouse, people assume it’s because you’re being emotionally neglected. 17.You’ll never have to decide where to hide your nose-h

Why Do Most Women Like Assholes?
I'm just wandering why most women like's a guy who treats them like there nothing, while all us nice guys who are sweethearts gets shafted like were a disase. I'll never understand that cause im a swwetheart and the sweetest guy out there and all the assholes out in the real world gets all the hotties and women in general.

Im A Sweet Person How Come Ppl Use And Abuse Me?
It seems like being sweet can cause major pain for a person nowadays, cause your either to nice or not nice enough. Being to sweet can cause more pain cause ppl like to take you for a ride then ditch you once they get want they wanted out of you and toss you to the curb like you were trash,. And not being to sweet can cause problems cause the person thinks you don't care enough about them but in realitiy you do but you never know how sweet or how nice you need to be in order to be loved and cared about. Life is confuseing to me maybe i'll never understand it.

Erotic Story For Ya Pleasure
the nites are pitch black the moon ripe as full a woman half witch and half fairy with fresh pair of twin killer thighs of steel and starling eyes that dare anyone to penatrate its senses of pasion a low-key during sunlight and irresible in the nites searching for prey for uncondtional intimidation relationship fouled by a spell that becomes her stregthen in desire sexual intention and a weakness in erotic confession of wanting to be loved outside she is screaming but inside she is crying wantin to be held her pure virginity is cursed by desprate lust waiting for her long lost rescuer to retrieve and uncurse her love. each time she looks into a mans eyes her heart beats the sound of thunder having burning sexual energy giving her body in desperate measures but only one is her eyes most wanted that will cure her dying satisfaction wat she doesnt realize is that she has curses is remain in effect until sunrise unless her fulfiller responds to uncurse all

Bad News
To All; Today i got thee worst news i could have ever goten i found out my grand father was dead and has been dead for 3 almost 4 months and my fucking uncle was hiding it so he could get what my grand father left me and my mother i cryed most of the day away he may have hated me but he did love me 2 and he was family and i am now the only male left with my last name i will miss him even thou he was mean but it was cause he was sick but now he is in a better place and he will never be sick again and he is with my grand mother i will miss him still i am makeing a memorial up for them both tonight and they will be posted in my blogs so if you get the chance please tell me what you think i will be makeing my grand mothers first since i do not know the day he died yet

.smurf.balls.
k so while in the kitchen cleaning the ice cream out of my cleavage...i realised something why i dont like blueberries. and its simple. and strange all at the same time i dont like blueberries...because...if smurfs had genitalia...thats what they would look like...and theres no way im putting anything in my mouth that could have been removed from a little blue guy which also happens to explode in the mouth when bitten...the connotations of that are just...sometthing im not willing to think about further. i now return to my own retardination...which seems to be coming in bouts...which last longer n longer...but thats ok...cuz i dig it. and that is all

Labels
I Gossip - So I Guess I’m A Bitch I Like To Get My Nails Done - So I Guess Im A Prep I Like To Dance && Shake My Ass - So I Guess I'm A Hoe I Say What's On My Mind - So I Guess I'm Ignorant I've Been Stabbed In The Back 506874523 Times - So I Guess I'm A Drama Queen I’ve Been Depressed - So I Guess I’m Emo I Wear Black - So I Guess I’m A Punk I've Looked In The Mirror && Thought I Was Beautiful - So I Guess I'm Concieted I Like To Get Wasted With My Girls - So I Guess I'm A Drunk I've Talked To Someones Boyfriend - So I Guess I'm A Slut So Throw Me A Label - You’ll Do It Anyway

You Wane See Something Sexy??? Then Open This And Repost It Please
Now that i got your attention WILL YOU PLEASE HELP ME OUT ON THIS ONE i need comment bombing not 1 comment loads off then please if you want me too pay the 10 cherry bucks back i will lol So push on the picture and start bombing

So
so i havent posted one of these in a while.so last night i got my tragus pierced.it didnt hurt that much.i just got kind of like a chill when it was first going in but when it was in all the way i was fine.and the clamp didnt really hurt me.but i could tell it hurt ashlea but she had like 5 tattoos soo ya.i kind of like this guy.i dunno though cuz i piss him of alot..so i dunno.i get paid wednesday yay..cant wait.well g2g.peace

Please Read This
first of all i wouldnt go to any bodys page and rate it or any of there pictures less then a ten i dont know why ppl do that but ppl leaving my pics a rating a 1 dont even bother rating it at all i think it is rude and i would never do it to anyone i would just not rat the picture at all before rating it a freaking one give me a break thank larry

Long Day Or Long Life
Long Day or Long Life I'm about to go crazy! I have so much anger in me now. I'm not sure what to do. Deep breaths Deeper and Deeper Trying to keep it down very deep inside. SMILE It will help to take the anger, hurt and pain away. Just keep the smile and laughter. It will all get better. I keep saying!! Will it? When? How DAMN Long is this going to take? Will patience work? Hell No!! Will Love? HELL NO!! Will Caring and Sweetness? HELL NO!! Will cooking and cleaning? HELL NO!! Will Money? HELL NO!! Will Sex? HELL NO!! Will Leaving? HELL NO!! Will Anything on this fucking earth? HELL NO!! So what is left? What can be done? What is next? Have I tried everything? Is there something I haven't tried? What is it going to take? How much can one person take?? When can it all end and happiness begin? Is it just all a fucking joke or a dream? Is this a nightmare? Or is this just life? I'm not a anger person!! Why do I feel it burning deep inside? What

Just The Way It Is
LIFE IS JUST THE WAY IT IS SOMTIMES U DONT NO WHAT IS COMING TOO U IN LIFE BUT NO MATTER WHAT U HAVE 2 DEAL WITH IT I HAVE LEARND JUST SMILE AND THINK ABOUT THE GOOD PARTS IN LIFE AND IT WILL HELP U THIS IS PROBALY SHIT 2 MOST OF U BUT I BET THUR IS THAT 1 PERSON HOW KNOWS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT

On The Subject Of No Contact
I thought that it was finally over...I had finally been able to forget about everything that was going on..and then, contact was made again when there wasnt suppossed to be... I'll let it go THIS time though...because I'm finally over that hump and onto other things..

Downrater
It would seem we have a dumb fuck in the equation and you know who you are. Yes it would appear some one has taken it upon them selves to break one of the rules of the contest. Down rating,Hmmm,That was real fucking mature.If you have any clue who this maybe then speak up.It is Bull shit and you know it.So from here on out ratings no longer apply and if this pisses any one off then fuck you and have a nice day.This was supposed to be a friendly contest and if any more childish shit occurs then I pull the plug.Points be damned.And to those of you who are innocent I apologize for the dumb ass who triggered this note. THE THE RULES 1~ No down rating please,we will find out who is the down rater as we did before,and any contestant friend of the down rater will be deleted. 2~ Self commenting is allowed 3~ comment bombing is allowed 4~ Good sportsmanship are a must! AND AS A REMINDER TO ALL CONTESTANTS AND THEIR FRIEND I WROTE IT AS A CAPTION BELLOW ALL CONTESTANTS

Mr Bean.........for A Friend, Go Watch The Trailer Lol
http://www.mymovies.net/trailers "Mr Bean's Holiday" Synopsis Release Date: 30/03/2007 Certificate: PG Genre: COMEDY Run Time: 89 mins Director: Steve Bendelack Cast: Rowan Atkinson, Emma de Caunes, Jean Rochefort, Willem Dafoe Mr Bean is heading to the South of France for a simple holiday in the sun. His voyage from London to the Riviera soon transcends into one of mischief and mayhem as he inadvertently creates havoc wherever he goes culminating in an unscheduled and riotous screening of his own video diary at the Cannes Film Festival. Trailers (2) Mr Bean's Holiday Mr Bean's Holiday - Trailer 2 News (3) Mr Bean gets some friends! - 27/05/2006 08:00:00 Willem Dafoe, Emma de Caunes and Jean Rochefort have all signed up for supporting roles in Working Title‘s "Bean II". The sequel to the 1997 hit "Bean" started filming in Paris last week and finds the hapless Mr. Bean (Rowan Atkinson) travelling to the South of France on holiday. Along

Another Child
So... Got the news that another child with CDLS passed away. That makes 2 this month. This child lived well past his life expectancy. He was 26. I didnt know him personally, but know what his parents went thru raising him. How much love they must have had for him. Always saddens me when I hear of a child passing. But when one with the same genetic disorder my children have passes it really depresses me. Brings back all those fears and doubts. And memories of being told that my son Devon would not live. Well he showed those doctors didnt he. If you have children, love them like there will not be a tomorrow.

Leave Us Alone
For all the people that keep coming and checking my profile If you dont like me so much why the hell are you coming on our profiles? have you nothing better to do guess not well just to let everyone on Cherry tap know I am doing my own thing and I am happy with the person I am with When I get to see my son again I will be happier but that will come in due time What I dont understand is alot of people on here that I know doesnt like me and personally I could care less if they do or not keep looking at my profile and look at it every day dont bother me none I just find it funny that they dont like me but care enough to check my profile out well keep on keepin on I am and I am going to start a new life and start fresh So to all of you that still like me I will be around Eddie

My Son Starting To Be Happy Again..
This was my son in his glory last week..this is how much snow we still have..really good to see my son being happy again after his father died it was so hard for all of us but just look at him now ..I am so proud of him..he is only 8 and with my help and the help of others he will be the the only one on his dads side that will know the traditions and will be married traditionally..He hopes to go on his first hunt this fall..im so excited for him..in this picture he is doing winter camp..making winter fire and on dog sled team and then at one of the hotsprings we have here..I like Liards Hot Springs better haha..but what the hey..lmao Just about what traditionally married means to us my son will trade guns, horses, blankets and moose and sheep meat when he is older for his wife with honor, that is our dream for him as he is the only male left to bring that back for his family..his ndn name is maskwasis meaning lil bear , his other names he is named after a great warrior, he also take

Grow Up!
I am so tired of people marking my pics NSFW..if you dont like them stay the hell of my page! Its really that simple. Since when I a picture of naked people suppose to be offensive? Not like I am posting women and men having sex? I am not posting crack users or kiddie porn or anyhting like that..I post what I feel is art...and I wish that people would either rate it or leave it alone. I DO NOT mark anyones pic NSFW because it is their right to be able to have views of what they feel is art. I have noticed everything is getting tagged..from a mermaid (which arent real people) to a babies bottom..which if you find that pervertted then you have the problem ...we all have bottoms and we all ran around naked at one point in the history of the world! oh well..I see that I am not alone in my hate for NSFW censorship but of course there is nothing to do about it..except if all the VIC decided to cancel one day..what a thought that is!

Like A Diamond
What we hadtogether wasso special, so rare. Everything we had together was like a diamond. Our love was just so strong it couldnt be broken. You are so beautiful, you have ore beauty than the rarest diamond in the world. You tend to brighten up the whole room when youu enter it, as the light twinkles around you just likethe shine of a diamond. When i look into your eyes i can always see a bright twinkle comming from them. My love for you is so rare, its so hard to find these days. My love is something so many other woman would value, and would newver throw away. Just like a diamond they would keep it with them always and would hate to loose it. Our marriage islike a diamond it is supposed to last forever. Why are you so ready to give up? We were made for each other. I married you cause i thought it would last forever and we would never even think about seperation.

What The Hell Is Up!?!?!?
OKAY, SO TODAY... I HAD THE RUDEST ENCOUNTER WITH A GUY ON CT.... I FOUND HIM PRETTY F-ING RUDE.... WHY IS IT THAT MEN, SEEM TO THINK IT'S SOCIALLY EXCEPT ABLE TO TREAT WOMEN LIKE "WHORES"? I'VE NEVER BEEN TREATED SO BAD BEFORE.... AND THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTS!! UP THE WALL AND DOWN AGAIN. I'VE NEVER TREATED ANYONE LIKE THAT!! EVER!! SO WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!? YES, I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING.... IT'S NOT JUST MEN THAT DO THAT, BUT WOMAN DO IT TOO. I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE WOMAN, NEVER HAVE BEEN AND NEVER WILL BE.... WHAT IS IT THAT PEOPLE GET OUT OF TREATING OTHER PEOPLE LIKE THIS? I WROTE BEFORE ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THAT.... WHY PEOPLE TREAT OTHER PEOPLE BAD AND WHAT THEY GET FROM IT. I KNOW THAT IT DOESN'T MAKE THEM FEEL ANY BETTER. I KNOW IT DOESN'T RAISE THEIR SELF ESTEEM. WHY DO PEOPLE GO THROUGH THAT VICIOUS CIRCLE? THE WHOLE TIME I'VE BEEN ON CT... I'VE NEVER BEEN CALLED A WHORE, OR BEEN TOLD TO BLOW SOMEONE, CAUSE I CALLED HIM AN ASSHOLE.... WELL HELL HE STARTED THE CONVERSATION WITH :CA

Torn
"Torn" Do I ignore their betrayal and keep them as friends? Do I try to forgive them, and make amends? Do I accept their illusions, and its hypocracy? Do I follow instinct, and put them out of misery? Torn between decisions, decisions I must make. Torn between two worlds, who is real who is fake? Why do I lose my mind everytime I lose a bet? Why do i get scarred for life by people i just met? Why do i get tread on, nearly constantly? Why is it so fucking hard, to keep my sanity? Torn between decisions, decisions I must make. Torn beween two worlds, what is real what is fake? How do i go through life, should i live it day by day? How do I know what path is right, How do i know the way? How do I know that people are speaking honestly? How would you perceive people, if you were me? Torn between decisions, decisions I must make. Torn beween two worlds, what is real what is fake? When do I get to live so fuckin happily? When do I get to start my own family?

Is Love Worth The Pain?
Is love worth the pain that is inflicted on one person or the other? The pain that comes from words spoken in anger, or frustration, words that you can never take back once spoken? Is love worth the pain? When distance seperates you from the one you love, knowing there isnt a damn thing you can do about it? Is love worth the pain when you see the one you love is hurting, knowing that you can't hug then or comfort them in anyway other then saying a kind word to them. The pain is unbareable. but what are we to do. Accept it and move on with life. Does it even matter?

Wish You Were Here
Sunshine through my window, children laugh at play, but there laughter I can't hear, the sunlight I can't see, without you beside me, It's always dark and grey , I think of all we could share, the things that we could do, if only I was with you, just to have you to hold, the nights wouldn't be so empty, the days wouldn't seem so cold, wakeing up each morning, wouldn't seem like such a task, if only we were together, we would know true love atlast, Wish You Were Here.. Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Love Sux
Love Sux Love sux when the one you love or think you love lives 3,000 miles away. You both love hearing each others voice on the phone but the distance when its time for you to hang up makes it seem like they live on the other side of the world. Can a long distance relationship survive. What are the odds that one or the other finds someone that lives in the same town that they live in. If by chance these 2 people ever meet, what gurantee is there that the attraction will still be there. Is it worth taking the risk?

Your First Time With Her
You’ve been out on the dates, made those late-night phone calls and sipped your coffee or digestif with her. The dessert has been devoured and you find that the walls of the restaurant have been replaced by the walls of her home or your apartment. You’re almost too aware of that soft surface beckoning you, and you impatiently want to sink under the plush covers -- that is, while you plunder and sink into the woman you most want to unravel. Yet, while you fumble with clothes, a niggling little thought appears in rapid and dampening succession. Does she want me to stay? Is the bathroom clean? Is that my roommate coming home? Is her roommate coming home? Did I wash the sheets? Did I put that picture of my ex away? Tiny little questions like these can quickly become your bane if left unchecked. After all, these considerations can mean a second encounter or can sadly result in your unreturned phone calls. Here are some tips to secure that your first time with her will lead to a seco

Grandmas Boyfriend
A 5-year-old boy went to visit his grandmother one day. Playing with his toys in her bedroom while grandma was dusting, he looked up and said, "Grandma, how come you don't have a boyfriend now that Grandpa went to heaven?" Grandma replied, "Honey, my TV is my boyfriend. I can sit in my bedroom and watch it all day long. The religious programs make me feel good and the comedies make me laugh. I'm happy with my TV as my boyfriend." Grandma turned on the TV, and the reception was terrible. She started adjusting the knobs, trying to get the picture in focus. Frustrated, she started hitting the backside of the TV hoping to fix the problem. The little boy heard the doorbell ring, so he hurried to open the door, and there stood Grandma's minister. The minister said, "Hello, son, is your Grandma home?" The little boy replied, "Yeah, she's in the bedroom bangin' her boyfriend." The minister fainted.

God Love That Pig!
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.) If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!) The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (O.M.G.!) A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.) A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.) Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour (Don't try this at home, maybe at work) The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off. (Honey, I'm home. What the...?!) The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football fie

Some People On Here Are Wierd
in a bad way, im pritty wierd myself. im never one to admit im normal lol, but i find it kinda funny every day i see some one rate my new morph pic down like giving me 1's on it, dam ive had the thing for a few weeks now and i think Ogary did a hella good job on it to, soo i dont get why people rate it down, hell if u dont like it dont look at it you idiots! whats even more pathetic is they do it anonomouslly.. well i just dont get some people on here. ive never rated any one less then a 10, like ive said befor i dont like the rating on this site anyways it leads to a lame ass rating contest... soo from now on people if u have a problem with anything on my profile or any of my pics message me about it directlly dont just be a dumbass and downrate it anonomouslly.

Sadness...
Why do i have these feelings feelings of not knowing what to do how to feel. What to feel. Do I even know the feeling of what love is supposed to feel like anymore. What do you do when your heart is broken, how do you heal? how do you numb the pain? How do you heal that hole that was filled by your true love? Will the hurt ever stop?

Falling In Love Fast
Falling in love fast wondering how long that feeling will last you see that person you want and think you need Wondering how your going to make it, wondering if the distance will make you or break you. When i fell for you in love with you i fell fast and hard, now its too late to save my heart. My heart is in your hands very fragle and breakable. will you take care of my heart or Crush it?

Story I Am Writing (untitled) Still A Work In Progress
She looked at herself one last time in her rearview mirror and fixed the strand of hair that had fallen over her eyes. Thoughts running through her head about how this was a mistake in the making, still she could not will herself to leave. Opening the door to her car, she grabs her phone and keys and locks the door as she makes her way to his door. Unsure of what will happen she hope that she will not regret a single moment spent with him tonight. He opens the door to her second knock and invites her in. He helps her out of her jacket and tells her to take a seat. She is still shocked at the small connection that she feels to him even if they have not spent a moment alone till now. How is she going to get through the rest of the night without letting go and giving in to the temptation to go to him and kiss him. Choosing a spot on the sofa as he hands her a drink, she places her phone and keys on his table. He turns and takes a seat on the other sofa and takes a drink from his beer as

One Flaw In Women
Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman i

The Ppl That Wanna Change Ur Life For You
AINT IT JUST REALLY NICE WHEN PPL WANNA CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR YOU?WANT YOU TO DATE CERTAIN PPL THAT IT JUST ISNT GONNA WORK.I HAVE FOUND THE ONE THAT I LOVE AND WANNA BE WITH AND NOBODY IS GONNA CHANGE THAT.AND THEN THE OTHER THING IS THE PPL THAT WANNA TREAT U LIKE UR A FUCKING KID IT IS FUCKING BULL SHIT IM FUCKING 23 ALMOST 24 I'M NOT FUCKING 5YRS.SO FUCK AN A GIVE ME SOME FUCKING CREDIT HERE U WANT ME TO DO SHIT WELL GUESS WUT FUCK THAT SHIT IM DONE WITH ALL THE BULL SHIT THAT I HAVE BEEN PUTTING UP WITH.FUCK IT ALL...

Downraters
To all u immature, rude down raters, if u dont like my pics, dont rate them, I wouldnt give u anything but 10s, so stay off my page if ur gonna be an immature jealous azz, Ive noticed its women down rating too, u dont like my pics, go buh bye, I dont want ur rates. So if u cant leave 10s, dont leave anything at all. This is an adult site, GROW UP!!

A Little More On Female Convicts
So I bet you are wondering how a pretty girl like me ended up doing time inside of a prison.Well dah I got caught.I got caught up in the street life at an early age because I was one of those kids who knew more then her parents and I didn't need anyone to support me and I was going to make it on my own.I ended up with my daughters father got pregnant and he turned abusive.I wanted out of the relationship so bad but didn't have any where to go so i left him and went to the streets.I was barely 18 at this time..Enough for now

I'll See You There
One morning you will never wake up, do all your friends know you love them? I was thinking...I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships that needed rekindling or three words needing to be said. Let every one of your friends know you love them. Even if you think they don't love you back, you would be amazed at what those three little words and a smile can do. And just in case GOD calls me home before I see you again....... I LOVE YA!!! I will be waiting for you in Heaven & I hope your Mansion will be next to mine!!!

A Picture Is Worth A 1000 Words.. Right?
Hey! Here is a wacky fuckin idea.... HOW ABOUT YOU BE VERY UPFRONT ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE ON CT FOR? You see so many profiles with interesting looking people and lost somewhere in the glitter ads and flashy shit trying to cause you an epileptic seizure might appear something about them being happily married or in a relationship but you missed it because of the Kink O Meter and Slut Puppie Quiz results and the hint of her massive rack or tasty looking ass! Introducing a nifty idea.... right up front... cut down on the unwanted advances with a graphic stating what YOU thought was obvious! Im no artist but... Maybe you just arent READY for YET ANOTHER moron coming on to you? Even just for today! Maybe you are just here looking for other bi or gay chicks? Just a thought

No, It's Not About That
Late at night Right before I Fall asleep I have this dream It’s like you Are still there Even though you Never Were before A nightmare Of a Fantasy A bitter truth Of you and Me The other side Of the pillow Provides no Release I could not Protect you So now I don’t sleep

Memory
its funny how some songs make memories flood back to you that youd normally not be thinking of,....the mornings id lay there while ud be hanging the clothes out on the line.....i ask you why when we had a dryer ,..you said you liked the way they smelled on my skin....you seem to be the reason to smile everyday for me ,.....its funny how when the song ends so does the memory.......or does it....

8 Inches...o Yeah
RANGE OF 8 INCHES LONG. THE FUNCTIONING OF WHICH IS ENJOYED BY MEMBERS OF BOTH SEXES. IS USUALLY FOUND HUNG, DANGLING READY LOOSLEY FOR INSTANT ACTION. IT BOASTS OF A CLUMP OF LITTLE HAIRY THINGS AT ONE END AND SMALL HOLE AT THE OTHER. IN USE, IT IS INSERTED, ALMOST ALWAYS WILLINGLY, SOMETIMES SLOWLY, SOMETIMES QUICKLY, INTO A WARM, FLESHY, MOIST OPENING WHERE IT IS THRUST IN AND DRAWN OUT AGAIN AND AGAIN MANY TIMES IN SUCCESSION, OFTEN QUICKLY AND ACCOMPANIED BY SQUIRMING BODILY MOVEMENTS. ANYONE FOUND LISTENING IN WILL MOST SURELY RECOGNIZE THE RHYTHMIC, PULSING SOUND, RESULTING FROM THE WELL LUBRICATED MOVEMENTS. WHEN FINALLY WITHDRAWN, IT LEAVES BEHIND A JUICY, FROTHY, WHITE STICKY SUBSTANCE, SOME OF WHICH WILL NEED CLEANING FROM THE OUTER SU

It's My Life!
For All The Years. All the Patience's. All the Talks and The I'm sorry's The Tears The Pain This is all a fucking game! Don't you see!! What you are doing to me!! LOOK!! I'm a human being!! I'm alive! I See I Feel I Hear I Hurt I Cry I Care I Love and Now I Hate!! But I do have a Heart That you can't Take. It's not broken. It just has scars Scars from my life. Can't you see!! You can't break me!! You try and try Years and Years go by All the knots and bruises go away The blood and tears wipe away But the scars always stay! It's Time for YOU to fade away!!!! You can't break me!! (I wrote this 3-28-07)

Madness
Madness I am madness, hear me scream and shriek my deafening cry of rage obliteration, oscillation, devastation chaos all around me, push me down and hit me HARDER, FASTER, bloody my face like you Bloodied my heart you liar, thief of trust to legged desecration of the human spirit! I am madness, watch me bleed pouring from the ears and nose you think me mad, I am now, was not before the cruel cold hands of manipulation came to roost upon my soul and shred it to crimson-soaked ribbons! Do you hear me scream? DO YOU HEAR ME POUND THE WALLS of your conscience?! AM I TO ROT HERE in this CELL you CAST ME IN?!!! OH how madness breaks takes smashes grinds apart a man Crashes, lashes, corrupts the babe to sin and HERE WE GO TO HELL AND BACK AGAIN!! MAKE UP YOUR MIND, do you speak truth or spew out lies

Illiterate Rage
Illiterate Rage Forr I may saave yor lyfe some dayy yu never know if the stuupid will turhn out tu be sumone you maay haf two dephend on az a frend? Forr us, cant you open yor hart and try to treet us as an equall and whith thu respekt that wee shuld be given thaht I know you du not have for uss illiterate, dumbass typs wee are below youu like dogs like animalls Du you kno the meaning of frendship or do yuo chuse onlee the ones you feel worrthie to bee bye yor side? Becaus no one is invincibull foreverr and if u go onn castiing aside the peeple who arr 'uncivilised' thenn truulie the daay will come when yu will be ahl alon, with your massterful inteleckt, and your grate acheevements, and yor wunderful suxess. Cuz when yor world wil fall apahrt, yu will find onlee us therr, survivurs of thiss refuge wether you lyke it orr not won day, you will neeed a frend. and that frend will be a peece of garbage that you think wee are.

How Rude!
why is it that people come to rate photos of us, and they rate a 1 or a 3? that is rude, if you don't like it, then don't rate it! just go on your merry friggin way! ugg. people are so rude. makes us feel ugly. :( mel

God Said, "no!"
"God Said No" I asked God to take away my habit. God said, "No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up." I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. God said, "No. His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary." I asked God to grant me patience. God said, "No. Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned." I asked God to give me happiness. God said, "No. I give you blessings; happiness is up to you." I asked God to spare me pain. God said, "No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me." I asked God to make my spirit grow. God said, "No. You must grow on your own but I will prune you to make you fruitful." I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life. God said, "No. I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things." I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me. God said, "Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!"

"from Where I Stand"
She lies on her side her curves a silhouette so golden. her hair so black, only lightend by the heat of the sun. the sent of her hair is as if the dew of a honeysuckle lay on her sweet neck. Her breast a soft brown and her lips you only dream to kiss. Ah, she is beautiful here in the sun where she lies. She is not like the incompetent girls, who's nakedness is only to hide the truth... nor is she like the painted girls from home, where the rain only washes there beauty away. She is of the west land and the sunlight; The west land of the people of the tribes--- where the people are one with the earth. The wind blows here where she lies; the trees and the prairie grass: standing tall in great meadows they roll on the wind all the way from the Dakotas to Indiana. I feel myself longing to be a part of the western wind and devoured by her land. Under her knees I would be; the green grass of comfort... under her smooth thighs I would give a soft touch to where she lies

Food For Thought
SOME FOOD FOR THOUGHT!!! Things I had on my chest that I wanted to run by you all! When did men stop being men? Now a days men, and I use this word loosely, have degenerated to something that RESEMBLES a man but truly isn't, have just fallen off. walking around with barrette's, finger waves, pony tails, pig tails, down - lo, flip flop, pink shirt, fur coat wearing, Shirley Temple curl having, not knowing how to fight, gun toting, men checking, jealousy having, no kid supporting, women hitting fag ass bitches. Start being men, KINGS. Man doesn't mean going to jail, shooting his own brother over BULLSHIT, abusing alcohol and drugs, having a bunch of illegitimate children all over the place, thumping your chest about all the DUMB shit you do to stay in trouble. A man has respectability, accountability, responsibility, fortitude, desire, humility and drive. A man TEACHES his little men to be MEN, not animals. When was it o.k. for women to be bitches? A bitch is a

Just To See
If I happened to show up on your door step crying, would you care? If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened, Would you come? If I had one day left,to live my life, Would you be part of that last day? If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me yours? This is a test to see who your real friends are or if you are just someone to talk to when they're bored. Send this to everybody on your list including the person who sent it to you. I just did....because you are my friend. First I liked you, Then I loved you. Now I'm afraid to lose you. If I don't get this back I guess you're not my friend

Complete Retard And Coward
Here's the story, this guy has a "hall of morons" folder. He ripped a pic of AngelMoRn and put it in there, and then ripped a pic of me and put that in there, cause I asked why he put AngelMorn in there. This is what he put under my pic "'Had to block him and add him here. How many times do you have to tell these people you're straight before they quit shouting to you?" This was the first time I'd ever talked to him, lol. Now the best part is that the little coward fucker made the folder private, and blocks everyone in it. How retarded, stupid and cowardly can you get? Not much more me thinks. Just warning my friends that you may not want to go to his page. Porch Monkey 4 Life *I win :-)*@ CherryTAP

What Happened?
What happened??? At first I thought this was funny...then I realized the awful truth of it. Be sure to read all the way to the end! Tax his land, Tax his bed, Tax the table At which he's fed. Tax his tractor, Tax his mule, Teach him taxes Are the rule. Tax his cow, Tax his goat, Tax his pants, Tax his coat. Tax his ties, Tax his shirt, Tax his work, Tax his dirt. Tax his tobacco, Tax his drink, Tax him if he Tries to think. Tax his cigars, Tax his beers, If he cries, then Tax his tears. Tax his car, Tax his gas, Find other ways To tax his ass Tax all he has Then let him know That you won't be done Till he has no dough. When he screams and hollers, Then tax him some more, Tax him till He's good and sore. Then tax his coffin, Tax his grave, Tax the sod in Which he's laid. Put these words upon his tomb, "Taxes drove me to my doom..." When he's gone, Do not relax, Its time to apply The inheritance tax. Accounts Receivable T

Sweeter Than Everything And Anything
Sweeter than anything and everthing in the world is haveing things that mean so much to me one specail man has everything, anything and means everything for me...When in dout he picks me up and makes me see that he is there he isnt going no were what so ever and i thank and owe him so very much for all that ...It goes to show that true love is out there and true lov can uphold anything in the world no matter what is tossed in there path I love him and he loves me and to all that cant stand it oh well no one asked u to enter our life !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mandie

Motorcycle Classes?
So, I'm thinking about taking some motorcycle classes at my college to get 16 more credits towards my electives and I can gain a cert from it too. I'd take all 4 motorcycle repair classes and get a motorcycle repair cert plus 16 credits towards graduation. My worry? I know I'm going to be one of either few girls in the classes or the ONLY chick in the classes. That freaks me out because I know some guys have huge egos and dont believe girls should even BE in classes like that. And look at me... I'm petite as hell and I look weak, but I'm not. So, that right there throws the stupid stereotpe in my face. Argh. I just know I'd have to prove myself. And I hate having to prove to people that I can do something. I WANT to learn to work on my own bike and this is one way I can do that plus gain a cert from it. I dont know what to do. I'm intimidated.

Power Spending At Roberto Cavalli
I just posted this blog but it disappeared. Oh well here it goes again. So I got a call from my BFF (Miss Brittany ) today saying that she went to the doctor to get her hand checked out and to see if she is going to need surgery for her carpel tunnel. It turns out she only has Tendinitis as she will just need Physical therapy. So she leaves a little earlier than expected and she has 30 minutes to spare. She was in Beverly Hills so she happens to walk by a Roberto Cavalli boutique and next thing you know, within 30 minutes she spends $9000.00 (That's nine thousand dollars for those people who think I it was a typo.) A dress, a purse, shoes, a blouse, and a pair of jeans. WOW!!! I was totally shocked. That must have made a salesperson day. Same blog is posted at MissBrittany page

The Lost Of My Son
i lost my son junior about two years ago he was tragically ran over in front of my face i did cpr but there was no saving him he died instantly my son went from playing one minute to being dead so if you have kids please cherish them they might make you mad but they are only kids! i would give anything to have my son back or to have taken his place but it is to late for that! i miss him everyday i think of him constantly so i am working hard to make it to heaven to see him and i will make one way or another! i miss his smile his laugh and the way he took to everyone he is my angel and he was and is my best friend he is my hero cause he taught me the real meaning of life and love! i miss you son and mom will make it to you one day! that is a promise! r.i.p junior you will forever be remebered and missed!spread your wings and fly

Child Abuse & Domestic Abuse
From: Dare to Dream Date: Mar 29, 2007 1:08 AM Alyssa Lies Child Abuse Video Add to My Profile | More Videos The children lie because of the fear they feel....we continue to lie about the abuse when we are adults.....once again because of the fear! Fear of being beat by the one your with.....fear of ridicule & fear of nobody coming to your aid. It's the continuing cycle of abouse & fear....we most put a stop to it! I've lived through both & Have learned to survive! Please help others to learn to survive & get past the fear!

Wtf??????
I read this morning on http://carryabigsticker.com/index_new.htm that these T- Shirts have been banned from sale in the USA!! WTF???? Are we a Democracy?? When R the people going to B heard and LISTENED TOO?? We want our BOYS home, we want to support them too :"(. Y are we being denied this human right of ours in this so called democracy?? How many more of our troops are going to end up on the wall? I wanna hear all y'alls comments on this one,cuz I am sure y'all have something to say about this too!!

Eating Out
I just had my first sexual experience eating a woman out. I must say that it was a nice experience. Now I know why some men love doing it so much. There is just something about making a woman cum like that. It is really cool making someone feel like that.

Things On Ct That Have Started To Get To Me.
CONTESTS!!!11!!!one... WTF Is up with these things. I mean they aren't even about who is actually the "hottest girl" or the "coolest tat" or w/e they on. I mean its all about how many friends you can annoy enough to start bombing your shit and come on, not a damn person on CT likes to spend 30 min of their time bombing something. No one should like that. I mean I have 300 or so friends and at least 50 of em are in some kinda contest right now. I usually bomb a good 100 comments or so.... so to try to keep up with that is impossible since it would be around 5000 comments a day... and then you know what happens the next day? I'm still not in first... or I dropped to second! or do you think you can do it again? I mean this is seriously rediculous. There has to be a better way to run contests on this site that doesn't involve such time consumption and the winners actually deserve it. For the record this isn't because of some grudge or somethin I have, just gettin sick of seeing 200

Goodbye
I will be leaving CT by the end of the day. It will take me some time to completely delete everything. I have a few reasons for leaving, and let me explain. The #1 reason is that I just do not have time to be on here anymore. I have school, and now work study. Another reason is, when I do look on CT, there are so many "attention whores" on here, it annoys me to no end. I just dont see the point. There is so much high school drama that goes on here, I have no room for it in my life. I'm not writting this for attention, I am dead serious about this. Most of the people on my "friends" list will not even read this. That's another reason..lol. But that's cool. I also have an extremely personal reason for leaving, and that will remain between me, and the other person, whom will have my heart for the rest of my life. So, peace out my peoples, stay cool, and keep the high school drama to yourselves! No one wants to see that shyte. ~~Denele

Last Night
Did anyone watch South Park last night? They did a dig at 24 and they named every possible website you could think of during that episode. I laughed so damn hard that I almost fell off my bed. I mean Cartman was Jack Bauer. It was sad cause I was able to name every last person that was in relation to the 24 character. I can’t wait for them to show it again I have to record it!

The Oral Caress
Cradled between your tender thighs I lift you to my mouth. The abundance of your wetness greets me and my mouth overflows with your warm essence. Your sweet taste is on my tongue and your fragrance delights my senses. No gentle lick this visit. No bashful cautious approach For I wish to consume you. Push against my hungry mouth As the tip of my tongue slides up the slippery furrow that welcomes me between rows of delicate pink petals. Thrust against my generous tongue. Show me the power of your desire for my oral caress. My exploring tongue lifts the hood and finds your smooth firm pearl. You squeal in that unique way, signaling that I have found your special spot. I harden in response. My jaws protests what my open mouth provides but I am unrelenting in my gift, intent only on your fulfillment. I feel your body tense, and you are quiet now... Concentrating... bearing down. Soon now my love, ecstasy approaches. You push ha

~300 Million Living In The Usa
The population of this country is 300 million. 160 million are retired. That leaves 140 million to do the work. There are 85 million in school. Which leaves 55 million to do the work. Of this there are 35 million employed by the federal government. Leaving 15 million to do the work. 2.8 million are in the armed forces preoccupied with killing Osama Bin-Laden. Which leaves 12.2 million to do the work. Take from that total the 10.8 million people who work for state and city governments. And that leaves 1.4 million to do the work. At any given time there are 188,000 people in hospitals. Leaving 1,212,000 to do the work. Now, there are 1,211,998 people in prisons. That leaves just two people to do the work. You and me. And there you are, sitting on your @ss, at your computer, reading my blog.

Just A Thought
If you come to my home and see my many books about Magick on my bookshelf, and you ask yourself if I was studying witchcraft. You could have a tremor of fear in your voice. When you ask me. Yes, I will answer Oh, don’t do that, you might plead, your understanding of the word “witch” coming from the usual channels of misinformed media and vested interest pulpit. But I’ve always been a witch, I will say, and so have you. The day you pulled your children out of church, took them to a field of flowers, and told them they didn’t have to go to church to find God…you were a witch. Every time I pick an herb to make a tea for a sick friend…I'm a witch. I sit in my garden, realizing I'm part of nature, a child of Earth…I'm a witch. I take a moment, focus my intent, and dream. When that dream manifests…I've made magick. Magick is the art of changing the visible with the invisible. Pagan, ancient Earth religion, of the Earth, about Goddess, Gaia, the Earth Mother, about Communion,

Cherry Tap Hubby Apply Here...guys Only Pls
ME AND MY PARTNER IN CRIME ARE LOOKING FOR A CHERRYTAP HUBBY FOR ME IN ORDER TO BECOME MY CT HUBBY YOU MUST ANSWER TEN QUESTIONS AND ME AND HER BOTH HAVE TO AGREE ON WHO WILL BE MY CT HUBBY.... IF YOU WANNA APPLY FOR MY CT HUBBY YOU MUST ANSWER ALL TEN QUESTION HONESTLY AND SEND IT TO ME IN A PRIVITE MESSAGE AND BY FRIDAY ON MY PROFILE WILL BE MY CT HUBBY AND HE WILL ALSO HAVE TO PUT ME ON HIS PROFILE AS HIS CT WIFE... QUESTIONS ARE.... 1) DO YOU LIVE WITH MOMMY OR NO? 2) ARE YOU ALREADY MARRIED ON CT OR HAVE A CT MARRIAGE? 3)WHAT ARE YOUR BEST FEATURES? 4)WHAT MAKES YOU A GOOD CHOICE TO BE MY CT HUBBY? 5) WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE MY CT HUBBY? 6) IF YOUR PICKED TO BE MY CT HUBBY CAN YOU AND WILL YOU BE FAITHFUL AS MY CT HUBBY? 7)ARE YOU WILLING TO GO THREW MY PARTNER IN CRIME FOR APPROVAL? 8)IF YOU WERE TO BE CHOSEN AS MY CT HUBBY HOW WOULD YOU MAKE OUR CT MARRIAGE LAST? 9)WHAT MAKES YOU A GOOD CANDIDATE? 10)How many gifts are you willing to provi

To All My Family, Friends And Fans!
Although I may not get to you today, I will get to you another day, Life has a way to take away my time to play, but i'm here to stay so don't go away! I am just posting this blog to let you all know I am here and I do try to post to everyone but there are so many and much to do. Then there is life outside the box. In which there is such a thing you know lol. Anywho, don't want anyone thinking I have forgot about them it is just hard getting to everyone everyday or even sometimes every week. Thank you for still being there and stopping by! I will be by your place soon! ~Sweet*Angel*Love~ To All!

41 Mistakes Guys Make During Sex
1) Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you're paying by the hour and trying to get your money's worth by cutting out nonessentials. A proper passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay. 2) BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR. Admit it, some kid at school told you girls love this. Well, there's a difference between being erotic and blowing as if you're trying to extinguish the candles on your 50th birthday cake. That hurts. 3) NOT SHAVING. We often forget we have a porcupine strapped to our chin which you rake repeatedly across your partner's face and thighs. When she turns her head from side to side, it's not passion, it's avoidance. 4) SQUEEZING HER BREAST. Most of us act like a housewife testing a melon for ripeness when they get their hand on a pair. Stroke, caress, and smooth them. 5) BITING HER NIPPLES. Why do we fasten onto a woman's nipples, then clamp down like we're trying to deflate her body via her breasts?

Bill Has Health Problems
One day Bill complained to his friend that his elbow really hurt. His friend suggested that he go to a computer at the drug store that can diagnose anything quicker and cheaper than a doctor. ''Simply put in a sample of your urine and the computer will diagnose your problem and tell you what you can do about it. It only costs $10." Bill figured he had nothing to lose, so he filled a jar with a urine sample and went to the drug store. Finding the computer, he poured in the sample and deposited the $10. The computer started making some noise and various lights started flashing. After a brief pause out popped a small slip of paper on which was printed: "You have tennis elbow. Soak your arm in warm water. Avoid heavy lifting. It will be better in two weeks." Later that evening while thinking how amazing this new technology was and how it would change medical science forever, he began to wonder if this machine could be fooled. He mixed together some tap water, a stool sample from his

Onslaught
wander in the nightime, far from light of day, listen to the voices, close to what they say, look into the darkness, find me withered away, sitting in the corner, pleading stay away, you lift my eyes to heaven, ask me see the skies, but I see the horror in your face, stripped of my diguise writing in the shadows, demons at my pen, madness running over, where do I begin? looking for the reason, questioning my own life, seeking my true lover, making my sacrafice, wander in the midnight, seek the light of day , find me still sitting there, slowly fly away angels scream in heaven, for every tear I've cried, eyes lifted hight to heaven, where is my disguise? Question bourne in heaven make me turn away, lift my eyes to heaven, burn my eyes away roses on the window, sitting where once did I, looking back to heaven, where is my disguise? Do not see me naked, never been so bare, as in your eyes you tatse me, and I fall throughout the air, living for tomorrow, pray I find a way, find me in t

Furious
Ok! I am furious!!!! I have been played a fool at work, and I know now that I can never trust this person again under any circumstances , what so ever. Here it goes.. what would you do in this situation? My baby girl of the big age of six, sufferred a bad case of a stomach virus at school today. She was throwing up, curled in a ball , crying and embarrassed because she messed her pants and her clothes. The school calls my husband and tells him that she has had an accident and we need to come right away. We work together, 30 min from the school. He in turn comes to tell me, but i am with customers , so he tells a coworker to tell me to be ready to leave right away. INSTEAD OF TELLING ME THIS, SHE GATHERS EVERYONE UP AND SENDS THEM TO TOWN, LEAVING ME ALONE AND WITH NO AVENUE TO LEAVE. MY HUSBAND TRIES TO CALL AND TELL ME BEFORE THIS COULD HAPPEN. SHE INTERUPTS THIS CALL AND EVEN HELPS A COWORKER FIND NEEDED INFORMATION TO TAKE WITH HER. THEN ONCE EVERYONE IS GONE SHE TELLS ME THAT MY C

Haters Go To Hell!!!!!
To all you pussies out there who think its funny to rate the pictures of a Marine anything less than a 1, I only have one thing to say. Grow some fucking balls and let me at least have the courtesy of knowing who you are. You obviously didn't have the nuts to join yourself so I'll tell you what. GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!

No No No No No
I may not be on a lot soon. I'm having some major financial issues, which would all be solved if I just had a fuckin' job, but no one in this damn town seems to give a damn about hiring people. Even though I have NEVER had a hard time getting a job, ever, I have great credentials...but lately...who fuckin' knows? All I know is I'm having issues, and no one's going to just give me money, so I have to do something...and very very soon. After all, I have bills and rent to take care of...ugh... Too much stress, between money, and the semester almost being over...I don't know what I'm going to do with myself...*sigh* I need help...:(

What A Day Today...
OK some of you know (now all of you do) that I work as a Federal Skip-Tracer as my full-time job... What a day I had today! Friend of mine asked me to find someone for her, and not only did I find this guy but he works for an aerospace firm... He turns around and puts $20,000 on a credit card as a down payment for his defaulted student loans like we throw a couple of bucks at McDonald's. Must be nice... I'm in the WAYYYY wrong line of work I swear to gods.

The Hormone Guide
The Hormone Guide Women will understand this and the men should memorize it! Every woman knows that there are days in the month when all a man has to do is open his mouth and he takes his life in his own hands! This is a handy guide that should be as common as a driver's license in the wallet of every husband, boyfriend, co-worker or significant other! DANGEROUS: SAFER: SAFEST: ULTRA SAFE: What's for dinner? Can I help you with dinner? Where would you like to go for dinner? Here, have some wine. Are you wearing that? Wow, you sure look good in brown! WOW! Look at you! Here, have some wine What are you so worked up about? Could we be overreacting? Here's my paycheck. Here, have some wine. Should you be eating that? You know, there are a lot of apples left. Can I get you a piece of chocolate with that? Here, have some wine. What did you DO all day? I hope you didn't over-do it today. I've always loved you in that robe! H

To The One That I Love
you are the one that i awake for in the morning.you are the one that makes it hard for me to go to sleep at night when ur not in my arms.you are the one that i can't wait to talk to everyday.you are the first and last thought that goes through my mind.you are the one that i met in my dreams every night.baby you are the one that has made it possible for me to love again and be loved.and for that hun i will always no matter wut love you and never leave you i will always be by your side.even tho im not there with u right now baby i will be soon i hate being away from you and baby i kno you have been through alot in your life.and yes i kno that i cant change that but one thing i can do is make sure that you dont ever have to go through any of that fucked up crazy shit again.and that i promise you my love.i am you shoulder when u need to rest your or to have a good cry.i am you ear when you just need sumone to sit and talk to.baby i kno it has been hard for us so far but hunnie i promise it

Boobies
Further to my blog 'Green Tea': Breastfeeding alone cuts HIV risk Breastfeeding is the 'best option' for mothers in developing countries Exclusively breastfeeding until a baby is six-months old can significantly reduce the risk of mother-to-child HIV transmission, an African study says. The South African researchers compared solely breastfed babies with those also given formula or solid foods. They say breastfeeding carries a low transmission risk, but protects against potentially fatal conditions such as diarrhoea and pneumonia. They say it is the best option for most women in the developing world. Breastfeeding remains a key intervention to reduce mortality Professor Hoosen Coovadia, researcher In the developed world, the risk of mother-to-child HIV transmission has been cut from 25% to under 2% because of the use of antiretroviral therapies, exclusive formula feeding and good healthcare support. But these benefits are often unavailable in the d

Yum! Chocolate Jesus!
Nude Chocolate Jesus Angers Catholic League Candy Statue Created Anatomically Correct POSTED: 8:46 pm EDT March 29, 2007 Email This Story | Print This Story NEW YORK -- The Catholic League for Religious and Civil Rights is calling for a boycott of a New York City hotel that plans to display a chocolate sculpture of a naked Jesus during Holy Week. Sculptor Cosimo Cavallaro calls his Jesus figure "My Sweet Lord," and said viewers will be invited to lick it and eat it before it's taken down on Easter Sunday. A press release advertising the sculpture to be displayed starting Monday at the Lab Gallery at the Roger Smith Hotel describes it as "Jesus, the 485,460-calorie Messiah." http://www.wesh.com/2007/0330/11442998.jpg

Ammused
I am chillin on CT and watching VH1 Classic, love when I take off from work! Anyways this Volvo commercial cracks me up. It some guy down and out and holding a sign saying the end is near. A guy drives by telling him his Volvo is under 17 grand. You then see the man, in disgust, throw the sign in the trash can. I know, this is a lame blog, but it doesnt take much for me to be entertained!

Someone Please Enlighten Me...
Im not trying to come off as a cry baby or anything but what the fuck is it with all the players?? Why cant people just be honest... I am furious,, is there a damn thrill in playing on someones emotions and breaking their hearts?? If it is a thrill then it is one sick, fucked up demented one that I choose to just not be a part of.. I really feel for the nice men and women out there that are truly genuine and real because the asshole players make it damn near impossible for anyone to be trusted....

Tgif....
It been a good week it went by fast...Start a new job...Good money the hours kind of suck but thats OK...Plus it what I'm use to doing..Working at Pilot Travel Center...Love to work with the public make the time go by fast...Claire doing good growing everyday...Puppies are growing too..Sarah find out she having another baby in Nov...we are hoping for a boy baby this time..Then their done having babies...Im going to have 2 grandbaby that enough for a while...Claire's already a hand full dont know what she going to do with 2 babies running around...Call Nana to come get one LOL...Well have to go have to run after ClaireBear..Bye bye for now..Have a Great Weekend..

~show Your Southerngal Some Love & Support~
Ok my friends, I was entered into the best Morphing pic contest. It starts today at 2 so stop by and show your sweet friend some luv and support. Comment as much as you like, it counts. Luv to all my friends.... The link is below... >

Honesty
Why is it no matter how long or much you care about someone they can't be honest with you? Does anyone know that? How could someone that your friends with let people talk shit about you behind your back and agree with them. In the in the next breath they talk to you and never mention it. Pretend everything is fine! And one last question why would some that is your true friend let them get away with it?

Eric Icxtac Barry User #651004
this m/f right here decided he'd block me from his profile after having his jollys with my nude pics. This is the only way to warn other ppl about him. It's my dumb ass fault I should have known better now who knows what he's done to the pics and frankly his penis wasn't big or average it was just there.

My 'tired_of_the_drama_bullshit...just Delete Me' Bulletin
Tired_Of_The_Drama_BullshitI see that two people that I consider friends were for some reason or another going at it, I am talking about the beef between my great friends GothiqueTemptation and Lestat of L.D.C.F, well from what I get he did something in his past, she found out and was thinking of telling people what is already public information if a person knew where to look..Also.. I want to stretch this fact as much as I possibly can...they are both fucking adults.. so what ever was done in his past ..and what ever she was planning on doing with that information the whole second and third parties hosting their opinions was unnecessary and unwanted...what the fuck is this second grade..the kid bullshit "you say something about my friend and we jump on you" I must have been sadly mistaken when i thought that this was a site for people 18 and up..If you are one of the people who continuously repost the bulletins which just draws this bullshit out longer please click the link below and

Dave Matthews
dave matthews & tim renolyds tickets went on sale today. at noon. so there i sit - ticketmaster window open. 11:58. ready to roll and rock. noon hits - i can't get two seats together to save my life. all gone. so i decide to see if a few ticket agency's online have them. SEVENTY FIVE HUNDERED DOLLARS FOR FLOOR SEATS?! ARE YOU PEOPLE OUT OF YOUR FUCKIN MINDS?! .... apparently i'm not as i went to link to show you and they've already been sold. shit. i wish i had that kinda money to piss away on one night. oh well. what a night it would have been.

Ok Maybe...
ok so.. im really getting frustrated...why do guys lie...and think that girls are fucking stupid when they are not.im tired of being treated like bait and being like one out of like millions..i mean...im not somebody that u can just fuck with there head and u keep doing it but yet talk to other girls..thats not how i fucking roll..i think thats wrong if your gonna get a girl wound up dont fucking talk to other girls...gosh..i guess its too fuckin hard..but w/e.. i dont care anymore.. im done.. ♥ -Me-

You Know What I Find Funny...
All these people that are high ranked cherries...they use model pics to get them there when all reality it's men that women wouldn't even talk to in real life. Do you really need someone to validate your existence by posting fake pics? I have one of those people in my list but he's actually funny so I keep him around. But you see it all the time and the guys on this site fall for it like o0o she's hot haha. Suckers!!!

Good Advice!
"someday you're going to realize that every single lying son-of-a-bitch that ever broke your heart had their own purpose in your life. someday, you're going to meet someone who will make your stomach drop everytime you see them...and every night spent crying yourself to sleep, every moment wasted with someone who wasn't 'the one,' and every second you thought was wasted wanting someone you couldn't have...it will all make sense. because soon, you're going to have someone who makes it all worth it. and all those lonely nights will fall into place because they'll make you appreciate the ones where you won't be holding onto a pillow for comfort. you don't know love until you know heartbreak. and i know you've had your fair share of heartbreak...so that means you'll get more then your share of love. girls like you don't go left unnoticed. wait for the boy who does more then notice you...wait for the boy who can't take his eyes off of you." too bad i had that and lost it :(

Who Wants To Party?
So this is my weekend to find my party self all over again. And let me just tell you I am enjoying every fucking step of the way. Tonight is the poker party and I am ready. I dont know how well we are going to play fucked up but its all for fun right? Well the gayboi's are ready to show me what I have been missing these past few weeks, worrying about falling in love and dealing with stupid internet bullshit. ITS ALL FAKE! I am ready to go out and enjoy my life once again. So if you are in the Tampa/St Pete area send me a message and I will see what I can do for the party invite. LOVES IT!

Stuff
Someone tell me just what is wrong with this pic, I am getting quite a few very LOW rates on it, for that matter, some ball less person had even rated my profile a 6.... wassup with that ? I rate very good, and am pretty generous with my 11's for that matter.

The Fine Art Of Down Rating Pictures...
Otherwise known as "I'm a chicken shit that thinks I'm hurting some one by giving them a low rating." Since I seem to be a recent "victim" of someone (or multiple someone's) down rating a picture, I figured I'd speak my mind on it here in my trusty blog, that all four or five of you read. Now, really... What is it supposed to accomplish when someone down rates a picture? Hurt their feelings? No, not really. Irritate them? Yeah, some what. Make an ass out of yourself? Most definately. What people don't seem to get is that the ratings while (Wrongly, in my opinion) are anonymous, it's not too hard to figure out who's doing it, especially on low traffic pages like mine. But that's not really the point of the blog. Nope, my point is the immaturity of people that pull such a stunt. Probably the same types that cruise CT for boobies and get pissed when they don't see them. lol Some do it out of jealousy, some do it out of anger, but when it comes down to it, th

Update
Well I met the man that i was so nervous of meeting. Now we are dating and i'm starting to fall for him. I never actually thought that I could actually meet somebody like him. He's a perfect gentleman and everything anyone can ask for. He's not the sexiest man in the world but hey he's MY man and he treats me very well. okay here goes.... He tells me everyday how he feels about me. As it seems at this moment he is in more over his head then I am. I'm trying to be careful ya'll just pray that i'm right in this

Wtf!!!!!!!
I HAVE BEEN DOWN RATED TODAY TO DEATH 1 3 4 REALLY NOW IM ATLEAST A 8 LOL....HAS THIS SITE FLIPPED ITS FUCKIN LID....SO SUP EVERYONE ITS FRIDAY IS EVERYONE HAVIN A GREAT WEEKEND SO FAR I KNOW IM NOT ITS FUCKIN BORING I WENT EASTER SHOPPING FOR THE KIDS THE NEVER REALLY LIKE WHAT THEY GET ANYWAYS SO W/E....ITS LIKE AT X-MAS THE GRAY HAIRED BASTARD GETS ALL THE CREDIT AND AT EASTER THE BUNNY GETS IT ALL WHEN DO WE GET ANY CREDIT WE DONT WE SUCK IN OUR KIDS EYES HAHA!!!! WELL I WALKED 3 MILES TO NIGHT DUE TO THE FACT I GAINED 12 POUNDS DR SAID GET IT OFF APPERANTLY IM A FATTY...BEEN PLAYIN TENNIS (YES QUICK PEOPLE DO STILL PLAY TENNIS)LOL....WELL I GEUSS I HAVE TOOK UP ENOUGH SPACE AND TIME LATER...XOXOX, MESHA!!

Appointment Today
Had a long day. I had an appointment with one of my new doctors. I am also being refered to several other departments for different medical problems. I go back in 2 weeks and I'll have to ask my neurologist if he/she could refer me to yet another department for learning disability testing because I need medical documention for the college I'm looking to transfer too. Other than that, not much else went on today.

Cyber Lovers
Dedicated to cyber lovers everywhere... Always happy when the work day is done, I pull into our driveway as the garage door opens. Your truck, clean and newly waxed, sits in there. A faint smile appears on my face as I find myself visualizing your sleek, hard body slowly laboring over your truck, perspiration glistening on your skin. I sigh when the smell of you associated with that vision seems to drift right under my nose. What an erotic smell it is. I pull into the garage, turn the ignition off and gather up my purse and briefcase. Entering the house, I don’t see or hear you, but I still anticipate the smell of you. Kicking my shoes off, I throw my purse and briefcase on the couch like always. I walk into the kitchen and grab a glass of water, not trying to be very quiet and wanting you to know I’m home. It’s so quiet... you must be in the den and online, surfing, researching the latest technology, or downloading those naughty pics you know I like so much. I walk down the hall a

You Need Not Be Afraid
When the day reaches end, And the sun all but gone, Know I’m here for you, Know you’re not alone, When the hour is upon us, When the world begins to fade, My arms will cradle you, You need not be afraid, Tho your tears are falling, Life is spinning round, I won’t leave you hurting, I won’t let you down, Now close your eyes, Let it all fade away, Rest peacefully in my arms, And softly I will pray,

Photo Ratings....
Well, it looks like my default profile photos is making the rounds of being rated with five's, seven's, eight's and nine's....give me a fucking break!! If you don't like the serious nature of my pic, then don't bother to rate it...it's not going to bother me anymore one way or another...I am a Sagitarius, our demeanor by nature is supposed to be intense...we are passionate, loyal and protective of what is ours. I don't claim to be good looking and when you get older, your looks tend to fade away. Most likely, it's the young and the beautiful giving me the bad ratings. I'll tell you young punks one thing: your time is coming... There is a reason why I dubbed myself TheDarklord...I have a dark side that I am in tune with. I like darker nature of society...I love the gothic themes of Iron Maiden, Metallica, Megadeth, etc...If I was a happier, joyful person, I would have been called TheLightlord... So keep on giving my pic low ratings...I don't give a shit anymore...

Hm.
You know? Recently I have been wondering. What IS love? Most of the people that I have loved.. or people that have loved me.. drop me like yesterdays buisness. Basically I become really good friends... they fall for me... and then BOOM. It's like I don't exist. Or rather as if I am yesterdays plague. Am I THAT bad of a person? I basically give all that I can and am shot down right in the face. I don't mean to sound conceited but... I am probably one of the best friends that you could possibly have. I stick towards one side through eternity. Then because I am not perfect... BAM. Maybe I am over-reacting. Maybe not. Em gee I am depressed. Sam.

Angelus And Drusilla
Drusilla looked down, past her full white breasts, at Angelus, his fangs bared, inches from her vagina. A month ago, the sight would have horrified her, but now, she presented herself willingly, shivering with desire. Angelus gripped her cool thighs and began with his lips, planting icy kisses all over her crotch. Drusilla writhed as his tongue licked her vulva, thrusting her hips needily. Angelus gave her a deep searching stare, a look that was older than she could imagine. He didn't need to say anything; she knew his intention. She licked past her own fangs and nodded devilishly. He returned her vicious smile before diving in. His teeth sank into her crotch and he drank. Drusilla experienced a sensation unlike any she could have felt when still alive. Her bare legs jerked in the air as her essence flowed into her mate. After an eternity, he finally let her go. Her hands slowly moved up to her abdomen and rubbed softly. Barely conscious, she watched him dizzily. He seemed to m

My Pets
I took my Tara to the vet today he has told me she isnt in pain yet but when she is he wants me to bring her in and that I cannot do :( so I will ask a friend (although most of my friends adore her too they might not be able to do it either) or my dad... I wish dogs could live to be a 40 or 50 they are taken far to early from us and that sucks... I sat here thinking of all the ppl out there that get animals only to treat them like crap they should be the ones that die early:| soon i will be down to 2 dogs and then one as another will go soon aswell grrrrrrrrrrr grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I hate being so emotional C

The Havamal
The havamal Young and alone on a long road, Once I lost my way: Rich I felt when I found another; Man rejoices in man, A kind word need not cost much, The price of praise can be cheap: With half a loaf and an empty cup I found myself a friend, Two wooden stakes stood on the plain, On them I hung my clothes: Draped in linen, they looked well born, But, naked, I was a nobody Too early to many homes I came, Too late, it seemed, to some: The ale was finished or else un-brewed, The unpopular cannot please, Some would invite me to visit their homes, But none thought I needed a meal, As though I had eaten a whole joint, Just before with a friend who had two The man who stands at a strange threshold, Should be cautious before he cross it, Glance this way and that: Who knows beforehand what foes may sit Awaiting him in the hall? Greetings to the host, The guest has arrived, In which seat shall he sit? Rash is he who at unknown

Round Whatever It Is...
So it's still pretty ealier in the morning and I am bored out of my mind.I have decided to write some more about my female convict attributes(is that the word I want to use there)?Our society sees convicts as dirty poor trailer trash.Well as you can see society isn't always right.I am 39 do I look like trailer trash to you? Hell I never have even lived in a trailer.It is just that some times situations happen....I am the 2nd to the youngest outta of 7 brothers and sisters.The day I was born my aunt told my mom 'Bonnie this one you are going to have to give an extra mile too'.It just so happens she was right.I over excel in anything I do.So I tend to fuck off alot knowimg in the end I will get er done quicker and more effeciently then most.I became a stoner (yeah every body must get stoned).And eventually smoking bud got me to where I was ditching class and just doing stupid juvenile bullshit....thats enough for now more later..

Ok..
so yesterday work was pretty good if you ask me.. i loved it.. some guy gave us a 20$ tip..fuck yea..and then later i talked to DAVE.. he's awesome...but ya..im gonna leave it at that... and im listening to rob zombie..yea buddy... earlier it was raining soo hard.. i like ran outside to move my car cuz it already had got flooded once...ugh..sucked..

*evil Grin* This Is A Good One!
It took me the entire month of March to finally figure out what Uncle Nick wanted to write this new blog about, but it finally hit me, so here goes, Uncle Nick's Magical Moral Hour! Parents should most certainly learn to control their kids in public. Now now, don't get all offended that I'm insulting your parenting skills, but I'm only here to tell it how it is. Seriously, that's one of my biggest pet peeves: parents who've given up on the reprimanding and just let their kids run around stores on their own. Parents, listen to me. Hey, I'm over here! Either you give your kids the whoopin' that they deserve, or I will take it upon my own responsibility to do so. It's clear that you've apparently exhausted every other option that you know to keep your kids in line, so why not give someone else a try. Everytime I see little Junior runnin' around like a chicken with its head cut off, I'm just incredibly tempted to put my foot out and watch him skid across the store floor. Hey,

Liquor
I went to the liquor store today. I sat in front of it for thirty minutes. I then decided to leave. I felt guilty. Is it so wrong just to want a drink? I've surrounded myself with recovering alcoholics and people who don't drink at all so I wouldn't ever be tempted. Now I am anyway. I actually pray for myself. As of now, I don't know if God even listens to me anymore. If he does, why is sobriety so hard? It's been over a year since I've had a drink. Will I ever know what it's like not to have a deep craving to get drunk or high? I don't know why I wrote this, just so I could get this stuff off my cheast I suppose. I hope everyone is having a great weekend. I may not be on tonight.

A Poem My Sis Wrote For My Daughter..
A POEM MY SIS WROTE FOR MY LIL GIRL "RIP DESTINY" A little new soul came down today On a sunset cloud from far away She stole the blue from the morning skies And a star for each of her pretty eyes She grasped at the dawn with her fingers The rosy glows of the morning lingers A little new soul came down to lift Our weary hearts with her hopeful gift She brushed by the sun and plueked its gold And she brought gods love for our arms to hold A little new baby with dreams in her eyes Came to show us the pathway to paradise

Vampire Story Part 2
sits down in the chair as Mr. Heath sits across from him on the couch. “Have you found out any more about Evelyn’s death?” Mr. Heath asked. “I...we found some things that might you might or wouldn’t approve of your daughter.” “Oh” Mr Heath reacts with a bit of surprise. Lance explains to Mr. Heath that Eve had been living a darker life than what he knew. Telling she worked at the club along with Mr. Stone and Jenna. Mr. Heath admits to that Jenna and Eve use to be best of friends, but did not know of his daughter’s behavior. His family were church going through and through and in light of everything maybe because of their force feeding church onto their children, this was Eve’s way of rebelling. Nevertheless none of that will make things better again. After Lance finished his part, Mr. Heath was physically shaken. “You have my full cooperation on this, Mr. Sheek.” Mr. Heath meaning every word. “Would it be okay if I talk to your daughter? See if she knows anything?” “Absolutely. I’l

California F*ucks Bully Owners
Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger signed SB861 into law creating a new path for Breed Specific Legislation to take effect in other states nationwide. As of now, the Bull Terrier breeds are now BANNED statewide and anyone having these animals in the state, whether residents or visitors, will face heavy fines and possible jail time. It's also possible that any bully owners still owning these dogs after the bill was signed into law will have their animals taken from them and destroyed. Here's the catch... SB861 was signed into law WITHOUT the consent of the California voting public. This bill was never presented to the citizens of California for their thoughts on it. It went straight to the Governor's desk and it was signed into law. This is what we have to look forward to if the "Governator" runs for goddamn President?!? Is this who you want in office signing things into law without the consent of the American public?!? The Governor of California went too far and unfortuna

The Wind To My Heart
My heart flutters, with every breath of you. My thoughts are all of you. The treasure of your soul, that i stive to have. The pleasentness of your touch. The look in your eyes, when i tell you how i feel. The moment the wind rushes thru your heart, it goes thru my soul. I often, wonder if i am good enough. I think the doubt in my mind, has not affected my heart, So please just been paitient with the process. Cause you know, that i bleed just for you. So i am going to kick back, and let the wind blow into my soul.