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Life Part 33
I get so frustrated with this site! Seems like so many problems and they never fix any of them. I really hate that when you log off, it shows you still on for an hour or more. Apparently, it shows me still on for many hours! Why? Why keep people logged in when they are not there? It makes people confused thinking you are there and ignoring them.
The photo glitch last week was a bad one. Then my pictures disappeared for a while and then when they came back, they were in the wrong folders and in the wrong order. How do pictures disappear?
Now, I go pick up my son from school and come back and I look at my crush and it is gone. I didn't delete him. And.....the 8 crushes on me are gone! I went to my crushes profile and it said 1 crush on him (me) and he had one crush (me) but it was not showing up in mine! So I re-crushed him.
I went into Fubar support lounge and they were no help at all. She tells me it is the first they had heard about it. Although, I did see som
Life Part 34
I am trying to switch it up today. I just had no desire to walk today. But....I did anyway. I walked for 15 minutes. So, now I will rest for 10 minutes and then get back on the treadmill and walk for another at least 15 to 30 minutes. I know it is good to switch up your routine, otherwise, your muscles get used to the same thing and it gets rather stale.
So hopefully when I get back on that thing, I will be more energetic to maybe jog on it? I am hoping so. Maybe I will try it 3 times. 15/10 off/15 on/10 off/15 on? See how that goes??
My son Christopher has not had a good couple of days at school. He has also lost his cell phone that I just replaced!!!!! Argh! He has always been so good about keeping his cell phone. I guess he lost it when playing tag at someones house. Hopefully it is found.
Anthony has been doing good. Keep your fingers crossed! lol
Okay, time for me to go get back on the treadmill, ciao~
Life In General
Well I am gonna be back in Virginia on the 14th and i won't be back in NOLA till the right before new years on the 29th. So I will see you then and hope you all have a Merry Christmas. We Will be kickin it on New Year's In New Orleans.
Love Peace & Happiness OK well i am at a turning point right now. Either I get myself headed on the right track or I never will. Family is Moving to Different states, Daughters are moving back in with their parents and I am here Somewhat lost not knowing what to do. I Need to work but not sure what i wanna do anymore. L A Hardbodies is where I will be working this weekend, but i want more than that. I have so many things I am good at but I just have gotten Lazy. And that is not something that I believe myself to be. So it's time to act my age cause i damn sure am not getting any younger.... Well i have A New girlfriend and she treats me so wonderfully that i have no clue how I got her. And Now my uncle at the age of 30 is finally leaving the h
i wish i could get sum.i havent in long time. am i just that ugly. damn it. all i want is a lil bit of action. if anyone out there is interested let me kno.
All these memories
Distorted, confused, unaborted
As a product of
Circumstances granted existence
Bestowed to me
Give me closure
Searching for solance
Closure - am I still lost?
And so you've forgotten me
The boy devoid of your nursery
For these lifetimes gone by
I can't help question why
Through the years denied this
Searching for solance
Closure - am I still lost?
Tears gone uncried
And no face to relate to names to reply
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife
Left with just pages to which I confide
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife
Left with just pages to which I confide
Give me closure
Searching for solance
Closure - am I still lost?
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife -am I still lost?
Left with just pages to which I confide
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife -am I still lost?
Left with just pages to which I confide.
I READ ALL THE LETTERS, I REA
Life Part 35
Oh, what have I started? My bedroom walk-in closet has become a catch all for everything! It was getting to where it was hard to put my clothes away after I washed them. I figured that I didn't do anything this morning and my morning was disappearing, I would actually spend some time doing something like cleaning!
I start pulling stuff out. Going through stuff that needs to be given for donation. So, now I can see my closet floor but...it is all on my bedroom floor now. LOL I need to put it in boxes or bags to give away. I still haven't even gone through the clothes that are on the big side now. I really didn't think I would be spending that much time in my closet but I think it has been a couple of hours off and on now. I think I am going to get rid of a bunch of shoes and clothes that I haven't worn in the last year and a half. I figure if I haven't worn then in that time, I never will so why hang on to them??
It is almost 1:00pm and I am still in my pajama's and no
I recently experienced a challenge that Life journeys throws at you. I almost lost the one person that is my life, besides our three kids we have together. And it was all over being honest.
How do you go from being a closed up person to a completly opened and honest person. My girl has always been completely opened and honest to me and now I almost lost her because of my past that I kept from her, when she never kept anything from me.
Any comments please feel free.
I have very few close friends to me right now, because i have either pushed them away or have just plain out stop talking to them. it has taken me plenty of time to figure out what I want in life and what makes me happy. I know what i want in life, but I don'tknow whats going to make me happy all the time. At one point in my life I was very Happy. I had a man named Eric, he was the love of my life He made me so happy, but then he left me to go to Iraq. We would have been together for three years this past November and would have been married in May 2009. Yes i did say would have. Unfortunatley we lost contact a few short months and gained contact back. Just in time to hear him say that he loved me with all his heart and that he always will and then the phone went dead.My heart stopped. I didnt think anything was going to be that painful. The love of my life was no lponger in my life. he was gone.I still think about him often and I still miss him terrible. Sometimes i wonder what my lif
Life Part 36
Good morning. So I am in the hottest/sexiest Mom contest. 2 people are putting it on. Wildcat and Cherrybomb. I eamiled Wildcat about it but they put my picture under Cherrybomb. I went to my link and it said private!
She has the people in the contest private which is frustrating because the only way to see me and vote for me is to ask to be her friend! So I sent a request but she is not online at the moment. For all of you that are so kind to vote for me, you are going to have to ask to be her friend too in order to see the link.
I know I won't win, it is just fun. I know a lot of people out there "comment bomb" and that is all they do. I think we all have better things to do with our time. Just a comment here or there will make me feel good. It runs for a week I think?
I am really doing this because someone wanted me to. He says I am the sexiest Mom on Fubar and that was enough for me! It made my day!
So as soon as I get accepted to be her friend, I should ge
Well as most of you know my father passed away on 10-10-07 at 2:30 am. You would think that after the long battle and the sleepless nights that our family would finally manage to come together. And let my father rest in peace.
However there again this is my family we are talking about. My uncle who is the one handleing all the arrangements decided NOT to have a service of any type for my father.
He has decided that his ashes will be spread in New Hampshire (where dad did want them) and whoever could make it could make it.
What the freak. I am pretty much ready to explode right now seeing as this is going to be done on a sunday in which some of us have our children that have to go to school the next day. And also don't have that type of money available.
I find it sad that most of the family will not be able to say their final farewell to my father myself included. I just have to take comfort in the fact that I said what I had to when he was alive.
Anyways just had to ve
Life Part 37
It is Sunday morning. Lovely outside, cool but sunny. Fubar has had some major issues this morning but what else is new? They always do!
So, I have left some more comments on my picture for the contest. The one girl is so far ahead of me. She keeps coming into my picture and "checking" up on me. I have no idea why? It isn't like I can catch her or anything!
I am asking all of you to ask your friends to help me out. Please, every comment counts. I would like to come in at least second place. The girl that is winning has friends that are leaving bulletins saying that some of their family members are working against them for the contest for me. I have no idea who these people are and last time I checked, aren't we allowed to comment on who we want?
They are so worried that she is going to lose. I actually think they did this contest for her. Her "family member" is one of the persons that put on the contest and they are voting for her. Kind of funny. If you are putt
Unhappy But it came As No Really Shock.
I guess thats life.
He Knows he Lied
He Should Also know That, I'm no Longer For him..
I Wish Him The Best
Truly i Do.
I Hope hes as Happy As I Am.
Good Luck to you
Life Is Too Short
My cousin just passed away. she was only 26. remember to tell your loved ones how much you care. you never know. it could be the last chance you get. spend your time wisely. and remember
Live to Love and Love to Live
Life Part 38
Fubar has cut me off for the day. :( I was able to get about 625 comments on my picture today. I gave another person in a contest 25 comments. I really just want to come in second place. There is no way that "club F.A.R." is going to let me win this contest.
I personally think it is silly that they act this way but....it is their life I guess? They take it so seriously!
I am getting solid help from a few people. I need more. Anyone you know that would like to help out, please ask them. I wish the contest was only for 3 days! Why 10?? Damn long time.
Christopher had a great day at school today. Yippee! My other son, missing assignments again according to parentloop but I will let him show me the work before passing judgment.
I hope you are all well!
Wow, I just did over 300 comments this morning. I am so far behind that one girl. Yet she keeps checking up on me every chance she can get.
I need all of your help! I need all of you
Life Part 39
kay, so I am doing this contest. Just for fun. I don't care about any of the prizes. It was just for fun. Now the 2 women sponsoring the contest have turned it into something else.
I was leaving comments today for myself. Calling myself a point whore, calling myself a pimp. Just writing random things. Then talking to myself. Leaving messages that only me and Martin understand. The girl that is winning, comes and looks at my comments constantly. Many times a day. To me, that is stalking! Any way you want to dress it up, it is stalking. Then, she comes into my profile. Then, her "family" come into my profile one by one. Then they keep going into my picture, constantly. Then, I get 3 emails, 2 from Cherrybomb (host) and one from Wildcat (host).
This is what they wrote:
Them: I tried to shout at ya but I guess your shout box is family only,no one is spying on ya or stalking ya,please stop harrassing my family member,I'm sure you wouldn't like it if someone will
Life Is Short
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love Truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you Smile.
Life Is Good
Well now it is time for me to ramble. I have to do all of these interviews about my award. And it is amazing how some people in the media will try to take what a soldier does in a split second and microanalyze it. I just want peopl to know we do what we do in those brief seconds because we have no other choice and it is the right thing to do. Do I like shooting people? No. Was he going to kill me? Yes. It is that simple!
Life Part 40
This site has had its ups and downs since I have signed on to it back in February. It was new and exciting for a while. I met some great people on here as well. Without Fubar, i would have never met Martin and for that I am grateful.
I consider myself to be a nice person. I do anything for anyone and I don't like hurting people's feelings, at least not on purpose.
I had a miserable Fubar day yesterday with the whole contest thing. Having 4 people keep coming into my picture constantly to check up on me and then keep coming into my profile constantly. I consider that stalking! These ladies must have been afraid I was going to catch up to "their family member" in the contest. Accused me of bashing other contestants and the hosts. I will just say this, that is not what happened.
This is make believe. People can be anyone or anything on this site. Sad. I am who I am and I don't pretend to be something I am not on here. I tell the truth. I don't lie. I have a big
I gotta tell you what I'm feelin' inside, I could lie to myself, but it's true
There's no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I'm out of my head over you
I lived so long believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time
It's forever, this time I know and there's no doubt in my mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I'll be lovin' you forever
I hear the echo of a promise I made
When you're strong you can stand on your own
But those words grow distant as I look at your face
No, I don't wanna go it alone
I never thought I'd lay my heart on the line
But everything about you is tellin' me this time
chorus - yeah!
I see my future when I look in your eyes
It took your love to make my heart come alive
Cos I lived my life believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time
The wall is crashing down... the feeling inside is about to come out... how do I keep it locked in so it don't have to be shown.... the pain the sorrow makes me feel alone... I know some day I'll see you again but it don't help the pain I'm in....
Life And Everything In It.....
According to studies, the first letter of your first name reveals your sexual identity ... What do you think? Repost this with the letter of your first name.
You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up front person. When it comes to sex, its action that counts not obscure hints.Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating. You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern.
You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very ha ppy to receive gifts as an ___expression of the affection of your love
Life's A Beach
Life is a beach that will teach you well
Between heaven and hell your soul for sell
Incoming tide is great you see
Outgoing tide leaves nothing for me
Tracks in the sand from all you know
Washed away quickly and some kind of slow
Wind in your hair and sand on your cheek
Life isn’t easy and not for the meek
Shells on the shore are covered by storm
Only return when life is at norm
Wind is strong and the water is high
But when it’s calm you simply get by
Life is a beach it’s easy you see
High tide is simple, and happy, and free
Low tide is different and hard to contain
Pain and depression is hard to retain
Life is a beach and easy to read
Happy and sad together indeed
The tide is in and sometimes it’s out
But it’s always changing , with this there’s no doubt
Thomas Vern Ellison Jr.
Why oh why do people play mind games? I dont understand it or appreciate it.
In my other blog "regrets" I talked about this "friend". Well that so called Friend text'd me tonight and we've been fighting for hours.
He doesnt see my side of things. Its all about him. Funny 3 other people are totally on my side on this. Ugh!
I just wish he'd go away. Its obvious he doesnt care about me so why bother msg me?!?!?
Life Part 41
Well, I am getting a little discouraged about Fubar. The contest went bad, I was accused of things I did not do, and my comment ability was taken away. I have emailed 3 times to support and no one has bothered getting back to me. They just don't care.
Those 2 nasty women have written ugly things about me and that is okay because they are friends with Support. They can get by with what ever they want. So I enter what seems like a harmless contest and then all Hell breaks loose.
I haven't really even been on Fubar. Every time I log on and see no email back from Support, I get more discouraged. Sorry if it seems like I am ignoring you all but there really isn't much I can do on Fubar any more but blog and use the shoutbox that doesn't work 50% of the time.
It being Friday was supposed to be a good day. I get woken up by Peter at 5:30 in the morning with him searching for his wallet. He is tearing apart the house looking for his wallet. Keeps coming in the room, yell
Three Things that can never come back-
Three things in life that can destroy a person –
Three things in life that you should never lose-
Three things in life that are most valuable –
2. Family & Friends
Three things in life that are never certain –
Three things that make a person –
3. Hard work
Life's Little Annoynces
Life's Little Annoynces - things that drive a sane person nuts
* You have to try on a pair of sunglasses with that stupid little plastic thing in the middle of them.
* The person behind you in the supermarket runs his cart into the back of your ankle.
* The elevator stops on every floor and nobody gets on.
* There's always a car riding your tail when you're slowing down to find an address.
* You open a can of soup and the lid falls in.
* It's bad enough that you step in dog poop, but you don't realize it till you walk across your living room rug.
* The tiny red string on the Band-Aid wrapper never works for you.
* There's a dog in the neighborhood that barks at everything.
* You can never put anything back in a box the way it came.
* Three hours and three meetings after lunch you look in the mirror and discover a piece of parsley stuck to your front tooth.
Life Part 2
I am sitting at my desk working. Not something I like doing on the weekends but sometimes it is necessary. I pass back and forth to my step sister the accounting disk for work. We both work for my father. I am the lucky one that gets to work from home while she has to go in to the office every day! :p So I will spend a couple of hours today getting things I need done for the last quarter end of accounting, really boring stuff!
Yesterday, we didn't get an early start to our day but we ended up driving up to the mountains to Apple Hill. There are about 75 apples ranches up there where they sale pies and apples and anything you can think of to do with apples. They have it open all during apple season. Peter was really wanting to go this year and we haven't in a few years. The drive through the mountains is so beautiful this time of year! All the trees leaves are yellow or orange or red. So beautiful. We only ended up going to a couple of ranches but we had fun. It was so c
Life Of The Enigma
If I had to sum up this past weekend in one word, it would have to be 'insane'. As much as I don't look forward to the end of weekends, this has to be one of the few times I will make an exception.
Friday, I had the doctor in the morning. We reviewed what we were gonna do next and we set a date to start the next wave of chemotherapy: November 9th. He then said my blood cell levels (both white and red) were too low. He decided on giving me Neulasta that day and Procrit I will get later in the upcoming week. So from now until November 9th should be quite the trip! (Ugh!)
I ended up taking a long nap after that, and with good reason. I was doing an intervention on my brother. His girlfriend told me he is drinking again and he is getting worse, so she and I, as well as a handful of others he knows, went to talk to him. I haven't had a physical showdown with my brother in years, but we almost had one that night. He went to leave and I stood in front of the door. He put his
Recently, I had a very unfortunate thing happen. A woman with whom I was VERY close decided to end our friendship and to say the least, I am very sad that this happened. Now before I go much further, let me explain the relationship I had with this woman. We would email each other many, many times a day typically from about 8 AM until late at night. I traveled frequently and her emails saved me from many a boring night. I would share my very soul with her and I knew that I had nothing to fear. She shared her sorrow with me when her Mother died and her frustrations with friends & neighbors and even the dating scene. Though we lived in different States, we would meet periodically for lunch. All in all, I can say that I loved her but, unfortunately, she did not reciprocate. The long & short of it is that I wasn’t her type. Oh and did I mention that she is drop dead gorgeous? Blonde, slightly taller than me, VERY statuesque and her smile never failed to make my heart skip a beat.
Life is to short for games ,lies an evil alibis in my life I have been through to much an loss to many so when I say I love you I mean it completely we in all hesitate cause we are afraid to lose but once you hesitate you might miss out on what’s true so listen to what I have to say hesitation prevents opportunity in this world today so say what you feel show how much you care let the ones you love know you will always be there cause no one knows when our time will end an when you realize its to late then you see why you should not hesitate........
Life Part 3
I am sitting here at my desk sweating profusely. I had a good fast walk and then ran longer then I ever have before. I am so hot. I figured I would write before getting in the shower so I can cool off a bit.
I always find that the faster the music is on my ipod, the easier and faster I walk.
I am feeling a lot better today. I was so tired yesterday and it lasted all day long until I went to sleep. Not sure what my problem was? I am not sick so that isn't it.
Last night, I was watching a recorded show (I never watch live tv anymore) and the doorbell rang. Peter answered it and it was a woman and her son with an electric car in his hand.
I have seen the kid before because I have given him a ride home from school and I know he lives a street over from us. The woman was wanting to talk to Christopher who was in the shower at the time. This woman was going on and on about her son's tires on his car, that Christopher had given them to him but another boy told him Chri
Most people always wonder when they're going to die, but do you ever wonder how you're going to die? There are a lot of ways to die, whether it's trying to put a cue ball in your throat and trying to get it back up not knowing that the cue ball is bigger than the other billard balls, or a sword swallower trying to deep throat an umbrella and accidentally opening it while it's in the throat or my favorite, being high on mushrooms and having a hallucination of people dress up as animals for an animal orgy and trying to get frisky with a bear not knowing it's real, and getting mauled by it. I have to warn the females about this one...don't get frisky with a carrot. Anyways, have any of you heard of any strange deaths? They say you neevr forget your first pet, but you also never forget your very 1st best friend..it's true what they say..a dog is a man's best friend, and he was mines.
imikimi - Customize Your World Do any of you still feel treated like a kid by one of your parents? My mo
A lovely rose with petals soft
A scent so sweet and light
So beautiful a flower
With colors shining bright.
But something not so savory
About the fragrant rose -
The thorns, so sharp upon the stem,
That sharpen as it grows.
Yet still lovely is the flower
Despite the thorns that prick
Just as life and love are sweet
They too have thorns that stick.
But do not fear to live or love,
Life's not exempt from pain -
So pick a rose, you may get hurt,
But you will also gain!
My insanity exceeds this dream of extasy
Your hopes and wishes become your dirty dishes
My life of lives is dying tonight
My faith is gone
I have no one
All of these people around me
But ignorance is all I see
The shimmering light is dying tonight
Everything that was will never be
Everything that is will always be
Nothing is working out for me
My passion and virtuosity
Have become another hurdle for me
All of this stress has taken its toll
I have become weary and cold
You are judged by your appearance
But now I'm fearless
Closed minds make for weak people
And somehow I'm stuck in the middle
Life has its way of working out
But it also has its moments of doubt
With life comes uncertainty
Just let your demons out and set your self free
Everything's made to be broken
I wish I knew who I am
I don't think that you'd understand
I'm lost in my mind
In this dream of extasy you'll never find
Acidic questions are flowing like wine
I wonder, is
The saying that it is better to forgive is easier said than done, to some it comes easy, yet to others its a struggle. We go through trials in life and during our journey mistakes are made along the way and every s often we learn from them.
yet there are others who hold onto the the resentment and the pain because its all that we have, and if we let it go it would leave us with nothing.
and thats the scariest thing of all, having nothing to hold on to.
No love, no hate, no resentment or pain, only you..
whenever we feel like love has betrayed us and that there is no hope for the future it is almost inpossible for us to believe that love is out there waiting for us. I believe in true love yet for me it wasnt easy to find or accept it when that time finally came. I was stuck in the belief that the one I had lost was the only one for me and even though I hung on to him he moved on and fell in love with another. Angry and full of pain at the thought that I could be dismissed a
"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth."
I am 33 years old and you would think that by now I would know not to let myself fall for someone so fast. I should take it slow!!! I always meet these guys who are sooo sweet and they really seem to care and wanna get to know me and seem into me and my kids and then wham once I let myself fall something happens. Its like they purposely wanna hurt me of something. Who knows. I just need to know what to do to keep myself from getting into these guys. I seem to fall tooo easily and it just gets me hurt. Now i am a very friendly, kindhearted person and maybe thats whats wrong...i am tooo damn nice. Do i just need to go back to the way I was before and what I mean by that is to keep that wall up? I really think I should. I know I may let a few good ones get away but oh well....keeps me from getting hurt. I do these blogs to vent but am always open to some good advice. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am going to be deleting my account. Too much stuff going on here an
Life In General
Seek Not My Heart
Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?
Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?
Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?
Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.
It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.
It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.
No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.
Why does it matter what other people think about us? Should be feel bad about ourselves because other people dont like us? Why do we try to chang
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11 . Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their Journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything
Never say "I love you"
if you don't really care"
Never talk about feelings
if they arent really there
Never hold my hand if your gona break my heart
Never say you're going to...
if you never plan to start.
Never look in my eyes
if all you do is Lie
Never say "Hello"
When what you really mean is "Good-bye"
If you really mean forever...
You really would have tried.
Never say forever...
Cuz forever made me cry It isn't that I just woke up one day and realized that I fell out of love with him...
No that was not the case at all...
Its more like I had fallen in love with the MAN that he wanted me to believe that he was...
It just so happened that i realised that he never really was that man he is someone different... just someone else, someone that I knew but didn't fall in love with...
I hold out hope that someday, just maybe
maybe one day I will meet THAT man....
OK WELL NOT THAT MAN...
But someone that is atleast Honest an
Life Part 4
I am a bit tired. Woke up at 6:30 this morning after not sleeping well all night. My neck seems to be bothering me again. I felt the pain all night which isn't good. Time to make another doctor appointment and maybe this time he will set me up with physical therapy?
I miss my love so much. It feels like days since we have chatted. He is traveling now so it will be another day at least before we can talk. Sms is nice but online seeing him is better! ;)
Anthony has his drivers permit test this afternoon. I sure hope he passes it. Otherwise, he has to wait a week before he can try again. Then, he does one driving lesson with a company and then he can start driving with me and Peter....oh boy! I remember how scary it was the first time I had Ashton get on the freeway! I hope he is a good driver and cautious!
I have a lot of work to get done. Sales tax and stuff. I will be working all day.
Kiss Martin, love you!
Kiss and hugs!
Whoever came up with the phrase "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade" needs to try making it themselves because chances are they NEVER did, they just came up with the stupid saying. and you can't just make lemonade with lemons you have to add other things, to make it better so the person just needs to come up with a different saying THEN make sure it makes sense. The reason im rambeling about this is because sometimes i get overwhelmed with stuff and thats whats happening now. I also didn't exactly KNOW what to talk about so i just started making crap up because sometimes THAT is how I ROLL. lol ok im not making sense anymore so i'll just warn you now..THAT IS NORMAL. :P
Thats it for today.
Life Part 5
I am sitting here sweating, red faced and very hot. No, it wasn't from sex! I had such a good workout on the treadmill. Walking and running. I always have to cool down before getting in the shower or else I just don't seem to cool down. I know, I know...take a cool shower. But, I can't!
I feel so much better today! My neck was really hurting bad yesterday and I mad an appointment to see the doctor again tomorrow and he will sign me up for physical therapy. i am sure that is what I need to help it.
So glad you are back home safe love and thank you for sending me the text to let me know you were home. It made me feel loved and special.
I need to get in the shower. Badly! I am so sweaty. It is a good thing. I have not been in this good of shape and felt this good in years! Probably 8 years. That is a long ass time!
My son did not pass his drivers written exam yesterday and he was quite disappointed. Very upset. He can try again next week. I looked at the
Life Is Funny
well here i sit waiting to go to work and thinking about someone dear to me, who is far away. ok well actually 2 people. both i have feelings for but in different ways. 1 is an ex the other i am seeing where we will go, but both live far from me. other than family members who would have thought i could care for 2 people at once. the feelings for the ex are fading but still linger maybe because of our history and our kids, the other i met and we had a BLAST. so much so that i never wanted to end when it did, but will hopefully have more soon. oh well now i have to go to work and think about mainly 1 person til i can talk to him again!! you know who you are. sorry all i was just bored and needed to vent, but thanks for checking.
When I originally wrote this I was thinking of 2 people. now I am sitting here thinking about only 1 person in this blog. He has my heart and has since 1999,we have not been split up for too long, only about a year, I try to let him go but, somehow we always e
Life Part 6
I have worked so much today. I feel like I am ahead of the game. I am almost completely done with the 3rd quarter job costing.
I did sales tax yesterday and didn't send it in to my Dad to sign today which wouldn't have mattered since he didn't go to work today and is in Seattle at the moment and is not coming back until Monday night to turn around and go to Palm Springs on Wednesday for a week! I think he has retired but just forgot to tell me, Peter and Jennifer! lol
So I call him to ask him if he just wants me to sign his name to the Sales tax form and he said yes. I hate forging but it was a must. So I practice my Dad's signature and it looks pretty good. Then I go to sign the Tax form and it looked so bad! It does not look like his signature at all. Oops. He can just tell them he was drunk at the time of signing it if it is questioned! hahaha
Speaking of lies!!! I found out something today about some guy that used to be my friend on Fubar. When I deleted my
I took this from http://www.fubar.com/user/852813
We all need to read this one over and over until it becomes part of who we are!
HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Try everything twice. On Madams tombstone (of
Whelan's and Madam) she said she wanted this epitaph:
Tried everything twice..loved it both times!
2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down. (keep this in mind if you
are one of those grouches;)
3. Keep learning : Learn more about the computer,
crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain get
idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the
devil's name is Alzheimer's!
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp
for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you
laugh, spend lots and lots of time with HIM/HER.
6. The tears happen: Endure, grieve, and move on. The
only person who is with us our entire life, is
ourselves. LIVE while you are
To my fu bomber family and all my friends..I have hit rock bottom at the moment. As of Wednesday I no longer have a home. I got evicted in court today. The judge was not nice and made me cry in the courtroom, because I love my pets. I told him I would find another place for them to stay, but he said I only have unti Wed Jan the 7th to be out. I also have to be back in court and prove that I cleaned the place up. So farewell for now..I will hopefully be back in touch with everyone soon... Muah and take care. I thought I had found something good, but it was a stopping place in my life. I knew it was wrong to begin with, but I needed the break in my life. I did come back to my husband. I had hoped they would change, but he did for about 3 weeks.
I did find out however that I am stronger and more beautiful than what I thought I was. I now know that I can make it on my own if I have to. I also found that I have more friends than I had thought.
Life sucks sometimes... I have given up
Life Part 7
The weather is turning again after having a rather warm week. I am glad it is getting cooler. The air has been dry and the wind warm. It makes you feel like everything inside your nose and throat are dry. It has not helped with Southern California either. It seems as if all of Southern Cali is on fire. My brother in law went down Monday to help fight the fires and apparently was up for 3 days straight doing so.
I have not been myself today. I opened up an email from school and it stated that my son Anthony has failed 2 classes, math and english. So I was quite upset since the grades for the quarter end today. I was quite upset to say the least. I am feeling like a failure as a parent at the moment. He had a minimum day for school today and called me to tell me he was walking home. I confronted him over the phone about his grades and he tells me that he has a print out of his grades and they are way better then what school loop says. So, I will just have to wait and se
So i met this girl and we've been out a couple of time. We get along very well and she asked me today if there could be something more to come with this relationship. and yes i could see more then just us "dating". The thing is I am only in town for another couple of weeks, she is married but says she is going to get a divorce, she has 2 kids (which is not a problem for me). She would never move because she doesnt want to take the kids from thier father. I honestly dont see how it could work out. I am thinking it would be better for me to end it before we get to emotionaly attached to each other. Or maybe i should just ride out the couple of weeks she'll be here cause i do like spending time with her. sucks that life cant fit perfectly into my world.
Life Gone Wrong
How do I get through one night without you? If I had to live without you, what kind of life would that be? Oh I need you in my arms, need you to hold...you're my world, my heart and soul." I am thinking about you
Even in my dreams you
are there in my soul
it won't let you out of my mind
There is nothing that
is going to stop it
until i am with you
feeling your touch
feeling your kisses
Wanting to feel
your warm breath
touching my skin
as you hold me as night
There will be nothing
in my life worth
fighting for until
I am with you
You are the sun
in my hair
the wind in my face
the air that i breath
You are the one
that means everything ot me
and my life won't be
complete until i am with
Holding you close to me
feeling the love
that both of us
so much need from eachother
Wakin up next to you
and having you smile
at me as you
kiss me that sweet morning kiss
There is only one
thing that i want
one thing i need
that is to be with you
Life Part 8
Okay, I am officially an idiot! I think I must be superwoman and can do shit by myself like oh...lift a California King size mattress by myself! Um, does anyone know how much they weigh? HEAVY! Ours also has extra weight on it because it has a 4" thick memory foam pad on top of it.
Let me back up here. I bought new bedding about a week ago, probably longer. We wanted (I) a change. Sick of the palm tree look for our bedroom and wanted something a little more exciting! So we bought a cheetah print! Yes, pretty wild. I have been wanting to change everything but Peter wanted to wait to do it so we could paint first. The cheetah print doesn't go with yellow and green walls! He wants to retexture the ceiling and walls before he paints because he never liked the way it was done the first time. So this is going to be a huge project.
Well, little impatient me is sick of looking at the bedding in the bag still. I want it out on my bed! I had to get a new black bed skirt,
Life In General
Ok guys I need your help. My honey just joined and I need you all to go add/rate/fan him. Thanks guys So things are going pretty good for me lately. Granted I work at wal mart...not the greatest job in the world but life is good. I finally go full time in two weeks. Isaac is spending the day with me. And driving me up the wall. And of course the child won't tell me what he wants to eat...grrrr...So my ex husband shows up at my job the other day and acts like a total jerk. Nothing new there. But did he have to do it at my place of employment?? Oh wait...og course he did!! Anything to piss me off!!! OK I think I'm done ranting now...but life is good other than the drama with the ex...
Life And Such
When I was a kid in my mid-teens, my sister who is 4 and a half years younger than me, would steal stuff from her family to give to her friends. In later years, she would snub her family to help her friends.
We, my wife at the time and myself, were living with a friend in Texas when her electricity went out, My nephew and her son blew the box on the pole. It was going to cost $3000 to fix and for some reason the city would not fix it, even tho it was their box on the pole.
Well, my friend was my ex-girlfriend and my sisters best friend. When we lost power, my wife was about 3-4 months pregnant. My sister took in her best friend and her two sons, one was 10 and the other was 15. Meanwhile, we were had no where to live but in a trailer with no electricity and no heat. I was working, but was making only $6 an hour, and being in Texas, the rent was more than we could afford in every place we looked at.
During this time, we were watching my friends dog. The trailer got infested wit
Life Is Great
Christmas is my favorite time of year. I think it is that way for many people. I find that people are kinder and more thoughtful at Christmas.
This weekend we are decorating the apartment and our tree. I remember the first year that my husband and I were married, he came home from work to find the whole apartment turned into a winter wonderland. He wouldn't let me put the lights out for 3 days. We have put together a village that we add things to almost every year. Only when money was really tight could we not do it.
When I was a child, money was always tight. My mom did the best she could (my mom and dad divorced when I was young). I remember the first Christmas that we were alone, my mom took us to buy a tree. It was so tall that it stood up by itself. She spent an hour trimming the stump with any tools she could get her hands on.
I always tried to make Christmas the best it could possibly be. I began a new tradition of making my family tree ornaments that I paint and de
Just want to thank everyone who took the time out to vote and comment on my Mumm.:):)This was my first global ya'll
Much love to ya!!!! The joys and sorrows of living,
often brings up feelings untold.
You try but you can't deny it,
because it lives within us all.
Happiness is expressed by laughter,
tears is a symbol of pain.
What it does to you as a person,
Is sometimes hard to comprehend or explain.
kizzy Sometimes in life you just need to sit by and let the you care about make their own mistakes and hopefully learn from them.
At this point although i care and is very concerned about my sis she has her own life to live.As the saying goes how ever u make your bed you have to lie in it. I don't think there is anything else i can say that i already haven't.
I have my own life and that of my family to be concerned with.
Life Is Rough And Tough
I am in a contest for a 30 day blast!! I need 35,000 pts to win. comments count as 1 pt and 5 pts per rate!!!! I got a late start to the contest due to moving into our new house!! Any and all help will be appreciated!!!!
for all my fubar friends and family, sorry I have not been around much to rate and comment everyone. But my life has been really hectic the past few weeks. My middle brother Steve (who just turned 49) was diagnoised with colon cancer and went through 2 surgeries(one would have done except the first surgeon screwed up big time) and it has been a big strain on all envolved. Hopefully things will settle down and I can be there for everyone in fubarland!! thanks for reading my venting, but isn't that what blogs can be for too?!! Have a good one everybody!!
I have had the luck of meeting someone, that seems to be going ok, but for the last few days, has been stressful, because they are having personal problems. I am trying to be patient.. and yet, my heart is being torn right now, because it didnt end on a good conversation earlier tonight. I'm hurt and sad right now, and there isn't a damend thing I can do about it. The whole situation they are going thru is out of my hands, so I feel like I am right smack dab in the middle of it... Yeah, I am sure that all made a bunch of sense, considering, I took Fiorinal for my headache, but I just needed to get it off of my chest, which it seems to do no good, regardless. Why is it when you tell someone how you feel, you get shot down or they get pissy at you?
Life's Hardest Moments
on the 19th of november we had a very close family members father pass away and, at the same time i was in sacramento with my daughter as she was trying to give birth, in which she finally had to have a c section and our baby was born with problems, now in my heritage of native american, when one old soul/spirit passes there's a birth for that spirit to go to, but you see my dilema is this i was not able to be there with my best friend to comfort him when he needed his friends and at the same time i was where my child needed me to be, i just dont think that i can get passed the feelings of guilt. My friend was there for me when my mother passed and i will eternally love and respect him for this , its rough to figure out the reasoning of all this, stop by my page and view the awesome tribute he drew in respect for his father
Life,how can you describe it.We have our ups and downs,we fall in love and we fall out of love,we hate and we forgive,we prosper and we fail. Unfortunately for me my life right now feels like someone kicked me in the balls and i don't want to get up but i know eventually things will feel better and i will walk again(a little sore though).Things are ment to happen when we least exspect it for the better or the worse.But the problem is we ask why and stay down for a long time instead of looking at the good things or people that have entered our life.
THIS IS MY DAUGHTER BRITANI SHE HAS BEEN MISSING SINCE 930AM OCT 16TH THURSDAY MORNINg. SHE WAS LAST SEEN IN DES MOINES IOWA WEARING BLUE JEAN MATERIAL CAPRIS, A LONG JOHN BLACK SHIRT WITH SKULLS AND CROSSBONES AND BROKEN RED HEARTS AND COULD ALSO BE WEARING A GRAY HOODIE WITH FADED BLACK PERMANENT MARKER WRITING ON IT. SHE IS 5 FOOT 7 ABOUT 180 LBS GIVE OR TAKE blue eyes and brown hair . IF YOU SEE HER please EMAIL ME CALL MY CELL 515 993 0331 or the police thanks Just one of those days when i wonder what Im doing and why? I mean really who did i piss off to get such bad luck...oh well life goes on I think LOL
Rejected at birth for my lack of noble worth
Chaos incarnate let loose upon this earth.
A serious union of love& rage victoms of doubt despite thier age.
Trial& hardships pay for your right
another life given that never sees the light.
Abandoned like an old minners claim
Another adoliscent casuality with a long list of blame.
Rage my most common alie, Sorrow like a cancer within
Self destructive by nature alive on the outside & dead within.
Seduced by the posibality of beating inevetability
Taunting the deamon that darkend my days
My mental health needs mental help an S.O.S sent but never delt why am i wasting away. alive on the outside still dead within..
Sinner@ fubar Rejected at birth for my lack of noble worth
.Chaos incarnate let loose upon this earth.
.A serious union of love& rage victoms of doubt despite thier age.
Trial& hardships pay for your right
another life given that never sees the light.
Abandoned like an old minners claim
Another adoliscent casu
As many know i had surgery back on the 12th *yay me right?* so anyway im doing well and recovering i desided to come sit on fubar for a few just to see how long i can sit at the computer without hurting i learned not very long lol ive been sitting here for about about 45 mins and my leg is swollen like woo so im gonna get off here and go put itup im not wanting to push myself but i do wanna get back on my feet asap so you all have fun out there and all that jazz!
Oh ya my bday is 20th and i'll be down and out yay me again lol oh well my bday has never been a good thing since i turned 13 so maybe this is a good thing oh well im gone now for real have fun yall! ABOUT NURSES: Somebody asked: "You're a nurse?!? That's cool, I wanted to do that when I was a kid. How much do you make?" The nurse replied: "HOW MUCH DO I MAKE?" ... I can make holding your hand seem like the most important thing in the world when you're scared. ... I can make your child breathe when they stop. .... ...I can
Life Or Something Like It 1
Today is the kind of Monday that you think "ugh,,,it's Monday, do I have to get up?" I didn't sleep at all last night. My stomach hurt all night long and kept me awake. I went to the movies yesterday and ate popcorn and that is what upset my stomach.
I saw "Things Lost In A Fire" with Halle Barry and Benicio Del Torro. It was a good movie. About a woman who's husband was killed for trying to save a woman from being beat up and the best friend of her husband whom she hates, she tries to save from drugs. Complicated....a bit. The cinematography was done beautifully.
I was sitting there watching Benecio, he is someone I have always loved watching. There is just something about him. He usually plays a dark character in movies. But as I was watching him and looking at his face, I realized who he reminds me so much of. My brother Kevin. Especially in this role. Handsome but insecure, self loathing and the drugs. My brother used to have a drug problem for many years.
why is it that all people want to do is treat the people closest to them like shit and expect to be treated like gold. Someone very close to me keeps promising to open up cuz they are like a brick wall and keep everything in well she was suppose to open up three days ago and still hasnt. you know some people want you to back off before they open up.which i can understand but when i back off i get nothing. if you make a promise then keep it if not dont make it cause all that makes you is a liar. why say your gonna do something then not do it. you know this person wanted me to back off and i did and diddnt say anything about her promise for three days and nothing has been said. then to top it all off this person has a fubar page and has all these pictures, now let me remind you she is the most important person to me, and there is not one picture of me anywhere on her page. thats bullshit how can you be close to someone and not even admit that they mean something to you no matter how much
Life Is Hell
Fuck Bullshiters, Fuck Assholes, Fuck Drama, Fuck Life!!!! I'm tired of this stupid living in this stupid world of nothing but lies, betrayals, broken trust, and pain. Fuck it Im done!!! This constant pain of living, the constant hurt of being fucked over, the constant broken trust, its nothing but damned bullshit. Is there any reason other then to destroy our own selves for living in this damned Hell Hole???? Isn't there at least one night I could actually sleep, and if so sleep well???? I'm damned tired of it all. There's nothing but pain, nosice, hurt, sleepiness...... nothing but destroying ourself it seems..... Yes I have problems sleeping, and yes I have depression, but still I try to live in this damn Hell Hole we cal life on Earth..... doing nothing but destroying it and ourselves...... Enough is Enough I think...... I've hade it with Life and all its stupidity....... if there isn't anything outher then damned stupidity here in our lives then what kind of life do we have???? Fu
Life As A Mutt
I guess I like it when we play
(The way you drag me down)
I guess I like it when you hate me
(The way you drag me down)
‘Cause I can’t face myself in a mirror
(I’m left alone with all my pain)
And I disgrace myself in the mirror
(I’m left alone with my shame)
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I’ll heal you in me
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I’ll heal you in me
I guess I like it when we fight
(The way you drag me down)
I guess I like it when you smite me
(The way you drag me down)
‘Cause I can’t face myself in a mirror
(I’m left alone with all my pain)
And I disgrace myself in the mirror
(I’m left alone with my shame)
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I’ll heal you in me
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I’ll heal you in me
You’re out of luck - can’t get a piece of me
It’s all blown up. Don’t even fuck
Life Or Something Like It 2
My son has not had very good luck with his cell phone lately. I got him one about 2 years ago when he was 10. He needed it so I could call him and know where he was if I needed to get a hold of him. It was more for me then for him.
He did really well with it for the first year and a half. Never lost it and kept it in good condition. Until....September. His brother told me that Christopher's phone was broken. So, I have insurance on the boy's phones which is probably a rip off. I pay $3.99 a month to have the insurance and you can only use it 2 times within a year. When you do lose a phone or it gets broken, you call and they send you a refurbished one! They charge you $50 for the phone and charge you $36 for turning the phone back on. So I did this, get the phone and then Christopher tells me his old phone isn't broken. Anthony just thought it was.
So he has his new phone for a week and it stops working. I send it back and they send another one. He has it for a wee
Life Of A Child
100 years from now it will not matter what my bank account was,the sort of house I owned,or the kind of car I drove...but the world may be different because I was important in the life of a child."
I know I haven't been around here for a while but I was trying to spend as much time as I could with my dad. He has now passed away. It doesn't make it any easier knowing that this day was coming. I am grateful he isn't suffering anymore, the last few days were such a struggle for him.
Might be awhile before I will be around again.
Susie I want to thank all of you that have sent me your wonderful condolences on my dads passing. It has been hard but I am getting through it.
Your friendship means so much to me more then you can imagine, especially at this time that has been very difficult.
I love you all!
I just wanted to let you guys know I will not be around for awhile. So much is going on in my life now and I just don't have the time. My life has been crazy to say the least this year, and is really crazy now, esp with my dad being in the hospital again. It's not good and he is in ICU where they are trying to stabilize him so they can amputate the good leg he has
Life...love...and All That Junk...
I am not looking for a boyfriend. I want a guy that I can talk to and get to know. Take things slow. If we become more in time, so be it. But right now I am in a very emotional state. My boyfriend who I thought would be there for me when I needed him, wasn't. But instead broke up with me because for the first time, I needed him even though I was always there when he needed me which was all the time. I would just like to have someone to talk to that will care about me and not just pretending to care. I am tired of people taking advantage of me because I am a very caring person. I'm not doing it anymore. If you are a good, caring guy that is sincere, send me a message. Thank you for reading this. Blessed be. I haven't seen my boyfriend in over 2 weeks. I have been very understanding. Now when I ask him if I will see him this weekend, there is yet another excuse. Fuck it! I'm giving up on him. I told him I will try to find a way there so he don't have to drive here. I'm sure there will be
Life Is A Gift!!!!!
Today before you say an unkind word -
Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who we nt too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children -
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive -
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job -
Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.
And when de
Life Or Something Like It 3
I won't be on much today unless my neck starts feeling better. It started hurting worse then it ever has in the middle of the night. I think it might have been from me doing my arm exercises while walking on the treadmill yesterday. I won't be doing that for a while! Kiss Martin, love you.
ciao Oh, I see my favorite Fubar psycho is doing the Happy Hour, oh joy! haha
Well, yesterday was eventful. I took my son to go take his written drivers test yesterday to get his permit to start driving with a trainer and us. He has to have 3 lesson's with a professional. Not sure how professional they are but...we have to pay $89.00 for each lesson. Luckily I already paid everything up front.
He passed his test this time. Congratulations! I think the questions on the test are so stupid. Why do they feel the need to put trick questions on the test??
So I let him drive the car yesterday after he got it. He did pretty good. The only thing is he takes corners too fast. His fi
Next time you feel you have the perfect love, the perfect life ,the perfect job sitt back and remember why ,PAIN , HURT ,LOST LOVE, LIES ,DEATH, LOST JOBS,LOST FRIENDS, becuase without those things we would not know how to LOVE ,LIVE ,LAUGH,OR BE HAPPY so if youve been hurt and your not trusting your own feelings and your a little scared remember you cant be truly happy without a little hurt
Three things in life that, once gone,
never come back -
Three things in life that can destroy a person -
Three things in life that you should never lose-
Three (really four) things in life that are most valuable -
Family & Friends
Three things in life that are never certain -
Three things that make a person -
I ask the Lord to bless you
as I pray for you today;
to guide you and protect you,
as you go along your way.
Life In General!!
Well a year ago on oct. 12th my mom was seriously hurt at work, a tree fell on her and put her in the hospital. She was put in to an induced coma for 3 weeks. She had so many things wrong with her and still does. She has no use of her left arm at all beacuse the main vain in her harm was severed so the little vains in her arm had to take over. Im very thankful for my mom being here today. I tried blaming people for it but couldnt it was a freak accident the wind took it and blew it the wrong way. Well anyways she went to the doctors today for her evaluation on her arm and to meet all her doctors. NOV. 6th she goes in for surgery. Im excited because she'll be able to use her arm again not as good as we can but it will work. Im as nervous as she is but im glad its finally happening. Please Pray for and pray that everything is going to be alright and work out like we want. Thank you!!!
There comes a time in your life when you realize that if you standstill now, you will remain at this point forever.You realize the if you fall and stay down, life will pass you by. Life's circumstance's are not always what you think or what you might wish them to be. The pattern of life does not necessarily go as you plan. Beyond any understanding, you may at times be led in differnt direction's that you may never imagined, dreamed, or designed. Yet,if you have never put any effort into choosing a path, or tried to carry out your dreams, then perhaps you would have no direction at all.
Rather than wondering about or questioning the direction you life has taken, accept the fact the there is a path before you now. Shake off the "why's" and "what if's" and rid yourself of the confusion. Whatever was~is the past. Whatever is~is what's important.The past is a brief reflection. The future is yet to be realized. Today is here.
Walk your path one step at a time,with courage, faith, and deter
I have learned a lot in the last year and I have also found a new side of me. I got saved almost a year ago then I also found out I could love again. I think that maybe that is something that went hand in hand. For years I was a closed door that know one ever got through.I have went through downs and lots of ups but through it all I had faith that my life would end up where it was supposed to. It is strange for a man that has never depended on anyone to surrender his life to faith. I had trouble and I fought it and in some ways I still am but this love I have it is a lifetime love full of the troubles true love has and the mountains that must be climbed to succeed. Nothing worth having comes to us easy and this I have found out for sure. Just as my love for God grows daily so does my faith that he would never have sent me this way if it wasnt the right thing for me.So I will take this one day at a time and hope that in time it all works out for me and my life. My path led me to her an
Losing someone close
to you makes it so hard
because where ever you are
there will be a time when you
will need them.
It may be a hug, it maybe just
to talk to or just having fun
But surely as life goes on they
will always be in your heart listening
to every word that you say.
They have never been gone because they
will always be with you in your memories
and in your heart.
In every change that you experience in life,
there will be times when you'll wonder if you can endure.
But you'll learn that facing each difficulty one by one isn't so hard.
It's when you don't deal with a situation
that it sometimes comes back to confront you again.
Changes are sometimes very painful,
but they teach us that we can endure
and that we can become stronger.
Everything that comes into your life has a purpose,
but the outcome is in your hands by the action you take.
Be wise with your life,
be willing to endure,
and always be willing to face life
ok i figured i would take some time to just rant about some things that are bothering me. like for one my sister in law was in a good mood all day because her niece mia was born, but after she woke up she has been a complete bitch to me and im scared to even go into the same room. I am a nice person until i get pissed off and right now i am pissed and hurt and just not sure what to do.
for the second thing my fiance and i have not been getting along at all. we hardly talk and when we do all we mainly do is fight so i dont know what i am doing wrong to make everyone want to fight with me or not be with me but its driving me crazy.
but before i start crying or get really upset im going to stop writing it may be better that way why does everyone have to take it upon themselves to make fun of others just because they are diffrent. It pisses me off that just bc i talk diffrent from someone else bc of where i was raised that im gonna get riddiculed for it. I have lived in the country
You know its a damn shame when someone comes here to relax and have fun, get away from the real hate filled world, and instead get trashed by others who must not have very much self esteem of their own. I dont really care if i get any responses but i do care that one of my best friends felt the need to remove himself from a competition because of nasty people. Grow up this isnt grade school! Remember what goes around comes back and bites ya in the Ass!
Scotty I love ya babe!
Some friends of mine have started a website. Feel free to check it out.
It's all about just being silly and having fun...anonymously!
NO MENTION of it on my page tho...as my hubby doesn't know about it and I'd like to keep it that way!
It's still under construction, but you can see how it's going so far! And keep coming back to see what new pics are posted!!!!
Here's the link http://scott.geekpowered.net/jugs/jugs.htm
Tell everyone you know to visit!!
Ladies...if you want to join in on the fun...just send a pic and an e-mail to the link on there! What happened to the goth crowd?
Is it just me…or does being goth no longer mean what it used to mean?
I've been pondering this since last night.
Beazil…definitely a true goth…had time to go out last night and headed up to what was once his favorite place to be- The Church.
He doesn't get to go very often now. Work schedules have made it difficult. However, in the recent times he's been able to go up t
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This is the last day for this contest, it ends in about 3 hours and 15 minutes! I am all used up with my picture comments for the day but would greatly appreciate all my friends helping her out! Click on it and leave her a bunch of comments! thanks! If this link didn't work, I will do it again. Love to you all!
in life you get two chosses live like theres no tomorrow or live for ten years down the road if you live like theres no tomorrow you miss out on life and if you live for ten years down the road you forget abouthaven fun and what life really means so you tell me what life really means so you tell me what i should do miss out on life or forget about fun and what life really means is there a in between or is it just that should i have for the things i need should i have to cry myself to sleep cause life isnt working out should i have to fight for my life thats just it you get nothing for free life just one big fight you fight for your you fight for your job so you can feed your self you fight to keep your family and friends safe you fight to survive in a world your not ment to fight is that it are we fighting a fight we wont win is there no hope should we just give up and not fight but thats it if you give up on the fight your called a failure but if you keep the fight going what are you
"I wish you enough!"
written by Bob Perks (c) 2001
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."
*You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's the only thing you are sure to keep for the rest of your life.
*You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called "Life on Planet Earth". Every person is a teacher as well as a student, and every incident is part of the Universal Learning Experience.
*There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation. "Failures" are as much part of the process as "success".
*A lesson is repeated until learned. It is
Life Is Not Short...........
Life is not short, by any means. Actually, the longest thing you will ever do is live, so make the best of it! No one cares how much money you have, and no one will care that how successful you were in life. What they will remember are the small things. The times you lent an ear when they needed someone to listen, the time you helped them change a flat, when you gave them your last dollar so they could buy a soda to have with their lunch. The little things are what people are remembered by, make someone smile at least once a day; kiss your kids for no reason other than to let them know you love them. Wake up every morning knowing that someone is grateful for having known you. Touch someone's life! People will come and go, cherish them, and the time you have with each of them. Spend less time yelling at your kids, and more time dancing with them to the silly songs that come on during commercials. Say "thank you" to the drive through worker, wave to a construction worker, do the small th
Life Is To Short
Many of you don't know this so just to give a little background, I own a bunch of sports related websites.
The one that started it all was Phinzmania.com, a Miami Dolphins based site.
We have a pretty good group of guys not only from a knowledge of football stand point but from a human being stand point.
2 of my closest friends I met through the site.
Any ways enough about that.
This past Sunday, I was on the site and one of members, one of the really good hearted people posted a thread titled "Important".
The following was his post.
FIN FAN IN ALASKAHey guys, know its been a while since I posted, but I wanted to make sure I got you guys praying with me. My son (Cameron - 11) had a severe allergic reaction. I can't provide alot of details because I am just doing this while I grab a change of clothes for me and my wife. He is in the Peds ICU at Providence hospital here in Anchorage.. He has been unconscious
Hello everyone....I am posting this blog to look for that "someone or someones" that may be interested in spending a night, or two, with STORM and myself.
What we are looking for is a bi-female that either lives close by, or isn't afraid of a little drive, to caome join us for a few nights of awesome fun and sex.
This person must be disease free and someone that both me and "STORM" can agree on to join us. We love clubbin, watching movies, and SEX.
When we go clubbin we goto clubs in the St. Robert's and Waynesville are. We really enjoy being with one another as much as we do being with someone.
We both love to eat pussy. My biggest thrill is having another bi-female eat my wife's pussy while I eat theirs. We enjoy having sex with another female there with us. She really loves watching another female suck my cock alomost as much as I do watching someone eat her pussy.
So....if you are interested in this and you may want to join us....hit us up, rate us, fan us, friend us and we w
Life Or Something Like It 6
I am home alone tonight with my 2 sons. I told them to be home at a certain time and neither one of them made it home on time! What to do, what to do? It gets dark early now because of the time change Sunday. We have had trouble with Christopher not getting assignments done for school and Anthony...we don't even want to go there! Peter and I are trying to come up with a solution to this problem we seem to be having with them.
We have decided they need structure. Sounds like something we should have figured out a long time ago but hey, it takes other's longer to figure out life!
The kids need structure and consistency! Consistency is the hardest thing to follow through with. You think it would be easy but it is so hard. Life gets in the way. I think we need to write on a board everyday: School, play, homework, chore. Maybe even have them sign it!
So tonight is the first night of this and guess what? Peter is going to a basketball game with a coworker! So out the wi
What is it about someone that attracts us to them? Is it chemistry? Is it mere lonliness? Is it that they represent a desire and adventure that we have never experienced before? Or is it merely boredom?
I am ruled mainly by my emotions. It is how I make decisions in my everyday life. A lot of impulse not a lot of thought. Spontaneity is exciting and sexy and dangerous. And very very foolish. All of my life I have been hidden by this guard around my life and my heart. Never letting anyone too close to my heart but yet allowing them to have my physically. And even now I find that I am ok with that.
Sometimes I find that I am a cover to a book that everyone thinks that they have already read. A knowledge of what I am about, what I desire, what I need. They think I'm an open book. But what they fail to realize is that image they see, that cover, is an illusion. Not the real girl. Not even close. Yes the face is real, the body is real. But the emotions are not. It i
Life In General
Body: Forget Rednecks, here is what Jeff Foxworthy has to say about folks from Oklahoma...
If someone in a Lowe's store offers you assistance and they don't work there, you may live in Oklahoma.
If you've worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you may live in Oklahoma.
If you've had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed a wrong number, you may live in Oklahoma.
If "Vacation" means going anywhere south of Dallas for the weekend, you may live in Oklahoma.
If you measure distance in hours, you may live in Oklahoma.
If you know several people who have hit a deer more than once, you may live in Oklahoma.
If you install security lights on your house and garage, but leave both unlocked, you may live in Oklahoma.
If you carry jumper cables in your car and your wife knows how to use them, you may live in Oklahoma.
If the speed limit on the highway is 55 mph -- you're going 80 and everybody is passing you, you may live in Oklahoma.
Life Is Full Of Colors Now...
NOW SINCE WE MET I HAVE BEEN SEING THINGS MORE CLEARLY THRU DIFFERENT EYES IT SEEMS...
COLORS SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL IT AMAZES ME , HOW WHEN BEING IN A PIT OF DARKNESS FOR SO LONG BLINDS YOU.
TO LIKE JUST BEING BORN AGAIN , HAVING EVERYTHING YOU SEE AND HEAR STAND OUT LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN THEM BEFORE ....
ITS WILD MY LOVE AND OVER WHELMING AND OH SO INCREDIBLE THAT THE COLORS MELT INTO ME STRIAGHT TO MY HEART...
THE WORDS FROM YOUR LIPS , YOUR HEART AND YOUR SOUL PENITRATE ME WITH SUCH INTENSITY AND SERENITY I CANT DESCRIBE THIS HIGH IM ON.
THE DARKNESS WILL NEVER COME NO MORE......
Life Or Something Like It 7
Men! Do you all like to have 2-3 projects going on at the same time? Mine does! We are in the middle of redoing our bedroom. We could have just painted the walls, pretty simple but....Peter doesn't like the flat walls so he wants to texture them. Big project that takes time and is quite messy!
So now....my husband decides to start having the front of the house painted. He sent over 2 workers today to have them p[rep the house for painting. Does he have all the right tools for this for these 2 guys? No! They are asking me where this is and that is. I have no idea. Peter isn't answering his cell phone. Argh!
On one hand it is nice to be able to have this done for us instead of us having to do it but it would be nicer if Peter had all the right tools for these 2 guys! I haven't even picked out the colors I want! I have to make that decision today! Now, that isn't rushing me is it? LMAO!!!
We also need to do the front bathroom again. Maybe I should start that
Life Or Something Like It 8
It is Thursday morning and I am just not feeling very cheerful today. I should be, my house is getting painted today. I have been wanting to get it painted for about 2 years now. I think it is my neck that is bringing me down. I just seem to always be in pain lately and it is getting a bit depressing and the process of trying to figure out what is causing the pain is just not going fast enough. That is Kaiser for you!
Okay,I have taken my son to school, ate breakfast and am drinking my delicious latte I made myself so I am feeling a little happier.
All it takes is a smile, a quick hello from a loved one or a great cup of coffee!
Well, that is it for this blog. I better go check and make sure the guys are using the correct paint for the stucco! LOL
Kiss Martin, missing you.
my friend was fount dead this afternoon... they dont know if it was natural cause, murder, or suicide... he had a family: wife n 4 kids... who in hell would want to do that to a person if it was murder?
Life Or Something Like It 9
What a busy day! My house is almost completely painted. Tomorrow they are going to come back and do a second coat in some areas and the trim. It is looking nice!
Peter and I just got back from a parent/teacher conference for Christopher. She told me his grades do not reflect his ability. That he is very intelligent but just can't seem to sit still and focus to get things done at times so a lot of stuff doesn't get finished. Isn't that just dandy? It is better news then I thought. Highly intelligent but can't focus. Hmmm? Something I have always known but not knowing how to fix.
Now my neck feels like it is just going to fall off, I am in a lot of pain. It sucks. I could barely sit through the conference. I walked on the treadmill today without moving my arms as to not hurt my neck but it must have hurt it anyway. It makes me very sad to think that I can't do that without the pain afterwards. This better be something the doctors can fix!
Have a good night every
Life Or Something Like It 10
I got a phone call this morning from Visa asking for Peter. I had to have them call them back. Someone has used his Visa Debit card online and it wasn't him. They didn't get the card number from Peter being on the internet because he doesn't use it over the internet. It had to be someone writing his numbers down from some store he went to.
This has happened to us 5 times this year between him, me and our daughter! It is just ridiculous how insecure places are with visa cards. They really need to get control over this. It is an inconvenience to us because now he is without a debit card for 2 weeks and a cost to the visa! Somehow I think that it is going to happen again, especially since it is that time of the season....buying time!
I just really would like people to stop stealing for a living and go out and get a job! People are so lazy that they want everything for free. Kind of just makes me sick.
WHERE EVER YOU GO ,
WHERE EVER YOU ARE ,
NO MATTER HOW FAR,
YOU ARE IN MY HEART,
YOU ARE IN MY MIND,
ILL TAKE YOU WITH ME,
THROUGH THE DEPTHS OF TIME,
ILL WALK YOU THREW
THE GOOD TIMES AND BAD
YOU CAN LEAN ON ME
WHEN YOU ARE SAD
ILL OPEN MY DOOR
WHENEVER YOUR COLD
GIVE YOU A HUG SO
YOU KNOW YOU ARE LOVED
BE THERE FOR YOU
WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS
COMFORT YOU WHEN
YOU HAVE WENT THREW HELL
SHOW YOU THERE ARE
BETTER THINGS IN LIFE
THAN THE ASSHOLES
THAT BROKE YOUR HEART
SO JUST KNOW YOU ALWAYS
HAVE ME WHEN YOU ARE AT
THE END OF THAT BROKEN ROAD
CAUSE I AM YOUR FRIEND..
THIS IS FOR MY GIRL, CRYSTAL.. ILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU .. LOVE YOU GIRL
Life Or Something Like It 11
Wow, what a mistake I made on the color (cloUr) of my trim on my house! I went out there earlier today and didn't like it when they first started painting the trim. I should have had them stop if I had used my brain. No...I think that maybe it will darken and look better when it dries. HELL NO! It is uglier then before.
It is really bad around my beautiful front door. It ruins it. The guys painted part of the door that they weren't supposed to paint. They also got trim around the garage door they weren't supposed to get. I want to scream! I just hope it is fixable.
I am going to go with a nice blue color for the trim instead. More subtle then BRIGHT PURPLE! I can't believe it turned out like that. Sometimes the color of the paint doesn't look like the chip you see.
The only bad thing besides having to prime over it and then paint all the trim again is that we will have to wait. It is supposed to rain and we all know you can't paint when it is raining so we ar
Why does life go on the way it does. Why can't people be honest and why do people let things go on and on then when they are done it just hits ya like a ton of bricks?
I try to understand....I guess I can't really. When someone knows your feelings, you give and give and give and get little in return and then just totally act like you never meant anything. At least this is my interpretation of it. They say they made a mistake....but am I really the mistake??
Is there a way to get over it...I don't know. I keep ending up in the same situations. I guess I need to block everything out and keep to myself. I feel thats the only way I can keep from getting hurt. I don't get it. Why does life have to be so complicated.??
" Life "
IN LIFE WE GO THROUGH , LOVES . LOSSE'S , CHANGES . ALWAYS EXPECTING LIFE TO BE SIMPLY BUT, NOT ALWAYS THE SAME FOR PEOPLE.
NOT WANTIN TO BE IN PLACES WHERE WE ARE.
SO, WE ALL GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS OF WILL DO THIS OR THAT
AND GO TO A DIFFERENT PLACE , DIFFERNT PLACES AND SCENERY.
IF THAT WAS THE CASE , I WOULD OF STAYED IN COLORADO SPRINGS , WHERE I WAS REALLY HAPPY ! AND SETTLED
WROTE BY CHERIE 9/02
LOVE .vs. LIKE
Never leave the one you [LOVE] for the one you (like)
because the one you LIKE will leave you
for the one they LOVE
the one you LIKE will give you goosebumps;
the one you LOVE will make you laugh
and send shivers down your spine.
When the one you LIKE cries, you feel sorry for them;
but when the one you LOVE cries, you cry for them.
True Love Doesn't Have A Happy Ending
BECAUSE True LOVE Never Ends
tonight your true LOVE will realize how much they love you.
Maybe . . . We were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
Maybe . . . When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.
Maybe . . . It is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been
Okay well for my first entry I am just going to rant. lol
Well lets look at my life shall we? I am a DIVORCED mother of 3 at the age of 21 NONE of my babies fathers care about there kids and I am the only one busting my ass trying to support them. I only have dated losers in my life and now my kids are suffering for that. I am so sick of all this drama that I have created for myself. I always pick Low life losers to date. People who rather use me and my children for a house to live in food in there stomachs (SP?) and money in there pockets (SP?) NO more of this shit is going to happen. I have growen up alot in the past year but I will amit i have had my down faults and I hurt a friend in the process but i cant live my life as a teenager anymore.
I am a adult now i am 21 years old it was my choice to have my children younge and now i relized I forfited my ttenage years when that happend. (Not saying im a stuck up old lady :) )
but i relize i have to work hard for what i want in li
Life Or Something Like It 12
This is the fist time I have been online all weekend. I stayed off so my neck could rest. It is not hurting near as bad as it was Friday! It is getting better and it makes me happy.
Yesterday, I got up and went to the hardware store with Peter. We started to leave and Christopher who was only in boxers came running out of the house with his clothes said he wanted to go with us. So he gets in the car practically naked and he gets dressed in the car. I wanted to go to the hardware store because this is not your typical "man" store, they have lots of decorations and things for your kitchen. They have all the cute Christmas decorations out and it was all 20% off yesterday.
I got a snowman nativity and a cute snowman that stands or squats. Very cute. The main reason we went there though was not for decorations, it was for paint! Yes....more paint. We picked out a nice blue for the trim. It goes well with the other colors and will look so much better then PURPLE! The new c
life is full of suprises, u never know what is going to happen until it is to late, life is just one big rollarcoaster ride with no end the only way off is death, and no one really wants that. but you live and learn and hopefully don't make the same mistakes twice. one peice of advice is listen to your gut it normally don't steer you wrong, and if they do you obviousley you wern't listeneing right. well that is life and it must go on life is full of choices, that is easy but the choices u make will effect the rest of ur life. u just have to know which ones to make. if i know what u want then go for it follow your heart and your gut, i know what i want in life. that isn't hard to figure out lol. but for some other people it can be hard hard to decide, and for the rest of them they are like me and know what they want. for everyone who don't know what they want, stop and listen to your heart and your gut then go for it. some people will make some dumb decisions but you will learn from th
Can you cry under water?
How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
What disease did cured ham actually have?
How is it that we put man on the moon before
Life Is Prison
Life Is A Prison
Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.
Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.
Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you're better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.
Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.
Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.
Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.
Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don't let on that you're not,
What you're pretending to be.
Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.
Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.
Life Or Something Like It 13
It seems as if a lot of people are very frustrated with Fubar lately. They keep making change after change and not listening to the members of Fubar. The latest is that they have taken away the ability to comment bomb. I really don’t care. It does make it frustrating but most of the people holding these contests are not doing it to be kind and give away prizes out of the goodness of their hearts, they are doing it to get more stupid points so they can be the highest person on Fubar. Why? Sounds almost pathetic to me.
There is a friend on Fubar that throws contests and she does it the right way! She only allows one comment per person. I think that is the way it should be. Not see how many comments a person can possible do in one day! We do have better things to do with our time, don’t we? It seems a complete waste of time to sit and leave comment after comment. I did it for a friend because I think she is great and I promised her I would. I am so glad it is over and so
yep life its what we all go through waiting for death neway lifes pretty good its all good got money go t paid got my hustle on got high so shit lifes goin good i suppose could be better cant wait till i get off probation it will be a badass party as soon as i get off lol
Live life one day at a time and if you find true love grab ahold and hold on to it tight.
Life Or Something Like It 14
Monday night and I hear the sad football game on in the background. Peter's 49ers are sucking once again! Maybe someday they will be better? Doesn't look like anytime soon!
My 12 year old son went on kind of a date today with his little girlfriend and her friend. They went as friends. They went to see Bee Movie. How cute is that?
We broke down and bought my 15 year old son a Yamaha YZ125 on Sunday. It isn't like he deserves it but we did tell him months ago when we sold his 2 YZ80's that we would replace it. So this was a deal we couldn't pass up and bought it now. Now he thinks he is going to take it out riding after school this week. I would rather him be doing that then just hanging out with his friends playing video games!
My neck is doing so much better today. I didn't get online but one time for a short period on the weekend. I was told by someone that I might be sitting at my computer wrong or using my mouse is causing part of the problem. He was right!
Where else to find me!
http://fubar.com nick starlightmoon
FOR MY- MY SPACE FREINDS LOL
YOU MAY BE A MYSPACE ADDICT IF:
* Check your email before your regular mail
* Switch between showing yourself on and offline
* Check to see if sent messages are read, and if they are, wonder (or stress out) whether or not the person is going to respond
* Have done every survey known to man
* You have committed Myspacide, only to rejoin two days later because you’re going nuts
* Have friends all over the country that you have never met
* Comments make you happier than actual compliments in person from someone (no one els
This is definately a rough time of year. Thursday 11-15-07 will be 1 year ago that my 1/2 sister lost her fight with brain cancer. It was rough for a while I wasn't super close with her the past year but when I was younger I was and just the guilt of letting stupid shit let us not be close was rough.I was standing beside her when she passed away and I thought that would have bothered me but it actually helped because she went peaceful after a long day of a horrible breathing sound and her being in a coma type state. Anyways we have the same father is how were related and I'm very close and very very much admire my dad and its just been so hard seeing him break down he still cries soo often and I know its just going to be so hard on him this week.Hes 74 yrs old I'm just not sure how much more heartache he can handle.
On 11-27-07 it will make 2 yrs since my mother in law passed away suddenly and unexsplained.My husband has said a few things lately out of the blue so I know its weighin
I believe that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
either you control your attitude, or it controls you.
money is a lousy way of keeping score.
sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometime you have to learn to forgive yourself.
no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
the people you care about mostin life are taken from you much too soon.
Ilife is more precious t
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It is a beautiful day! The sun is shining and it is 69 degrees outside! Having fantastic sex last night kind of helps too! ;) I got to talk to my love for a long time today. He is so special to me and me to him. We have a very special bond.
So far no drama on the home front. That is a huge plus! Both boys so far have had no trouble this week but it is early! I am not sure I want to hold my breath waiting for something to happen!
My friend Melissa is in a contest that started last night and she needs everyone to leave just one comment. Only one. Hard part is you have to be friends with the person holding the contest first to be able to vote. Easy if you just take the time. We want her to win!
My son had a hair appointment for today but decided he didn't want to have his hair cut. I had to call and cancel the appointment. I wonder if his new little girl friend has something to do with it???? Hmmm? My other son decided to shave his own hair last night and he i
Help me level thanks! Would you ever have liked to pick
your family members?
Life In The Freak Lane
I had a very sobering experience today that really opened my eyes and scared me stupid. Colt (the boyfriend) hadn't been feeling well most of the day but decided to try and go to work. I told him not to but he's stubborn like that. He'd been throwing up all day and had a terrible headache that wouldn't go away. I did not want him to drive to work but he insisted on it.
Not even a half hour after starting his shift I got a call that he was getting worse and heading to the hospital. He didn't want me to be with him at first but I wouldn't take no for an answer so I rushed out the door and did 90 the whole way there.
It turns out that he was extremely stressed out and his body couldn't take it. He'd been vomiting so much that there was practically no liquid left in his body so they gave him fluids through an IV along with medication for his headache and nausea.
We spent nearly 4 hours at the hospital and thankfully by the time we left Colt was feeling a lot better.
My cat of over 19 years, died yesterday Aug. 20th of old age. She passed away sometime in the morning between 1:00am and 8:00am while I was sleeping. Galadriel would have been 20 years old this december and will be dearly missed. I will keep her photo albulm up for awhile and will be adding the last pictures of her that I have soon. Please stop by and rate some of photos in her memory. I don't really always understand everything. Understanding is more a gradual process than an immediate elightening. But regardless, I have a gift for understanding the bizzare, mundane, and even weirdest of situations.
Today I had such a revelation of sorts, and wonder of the relevance of my role in unfolding future events. Because of my unique situation, I often ponder if I can find some piece of happiness for myself in such an enviorment. How can I relate to normal people if I'm not normal? Will they always fear me because I'm so different? Those are some of the questions that I think of al
Life Is Beautiful
"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start now and make a brand new ending".
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I have been working away at invoices. I really hate incompetence! I actually thought I was all done with the quarter ending September a few weeks ago. Isn't this November? I made an appointment to see my accountant to go over everything and I find out from my step sister that she doesn't have everything done. It doesn't help that my Dad has been gone for almost a month between two trips he has taken!
So I had to reschedule my appointment 2 times. I am going this Friday only to just have gotten an email from the accountant saying she has a conflict now with it because she has to leave by noon. I told her I could be there as early as 6:00am if she needed me to! ARGH!!!!! Not going to be fun.
So last night Peter brings in my package from work. It has a stack of invoices in it. I sifted through them this morning separating Sepetember from October....again, isn't this November??? I now went through all of the Sept. ones and added them in and checked to see if they were
Those who follow the rules are letting fear lead them.
For those who do not follow the rules, Life is simple. They make choices and they don't look back.
LOL Everywhere I go, they follow me! It's like a never ending cycle! Oh well, show's how much I'm admired.
I guess they just dont realize that there's a little monitor on this website where I can see whom is looking at my page and what not. Wow...I feel admired. YAY! I'm a rolemodel now! -giggles-
The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The pr ofessor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and
Life Lived By Me
I am currently without a computer and the one I use cannot let me rate anyones pics and stuff! AS SOON as I can I PROMISE to rate everyones pics and stuff on your pages! THANK YOU everyone for rating mine and reading this!! KISSES!! LOVE to you all! Regina Wheres the man who still opens the doors?
Does he pace upon his floor
thinking that life has passed him by
I hope he gives love just one more try.
Wheres the mother who loves her kids
with no doubt that she ever did?
Waking up each day with them on her mind.
Bringing them up to be trustworthy and kind.
Wheres the father who stays around?
Boasting about his family all over town.
Knowing that his role in life is to be a model
for his children, son or daughter.
What has happened to being good?
Why dont ppl love the way they should?
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Ah, today was a long day. Kind of a tough day. I met Peter at Kaiser this morning at 9:00 for our first meeting with getting Christopher checked for ADD or ADHD. It was a long morning. We had lots of paper work to fill out and then we went into a room with other parents and went through the process. Then we had to wait for one of the psychiatrists to call us in to talk to us alone. So they can find out all about Christopher and how long he has not been able to focus and sit still.
It all went well but we were there for over 2 hours. During that time, our son Anthony kept calling and we couldn't answer. Peter finally called him back to find out that he was sick, called his sister and dragged her out of class to go pick him up from school to bring him home. I feel like pulling my hair out.
The only good part of today was getting to have lunch with my friend. We try to have lunch at least once a month together to catch up on stuff. She gave me some great advise on par
1 honest answer.
Thats all you get.
You get to ask me 1 question. (TO MY INBOX)
Any question, anything, no matter how crazy dirty or wrong it is.
But I dare you to repost this.
And see what people ask you
It little things drive me nuts, most everyone knows I recently moved. I have a job which doesn't start for another 3 weeks. I don't due well sitting around with nothing to do. I am staying with a friend and you can only stay with a friend so long without going crazy. Its great having such a good friend, I'm just use to having my life. I am having problems getting my Virginia EMT-I licence and an stuck as a basic. I am not able to use my computer and can't download instant messanger so I can talk to my friends. I feel like I am going crazy.
The best uncle
I just got the call that my uncle passed away a little while ago. He's been sick for awhile and I know he is better off. He is free of his cancer and his pain. Its just hurts because he was the best. I remeber going to my grandparents to visit and as soon as he got to there house I got the best bear hugs. I know that when he loved us he truly loved up even when he had a hard time showing it. When I would go to California to vis
The Wild West provided many horror stories. But few can beat the fate of George Donner's wagon train, taking new settlers to California. In August 1846 it took a wrong turn and got lost in the Sierra Nevada. Starving, the 26 men, 14 women and 44 children decided on a new method of staying alive. They ate each other. The settlers became cannibals - and they are not alone. Cases of cannibalism: During Napoleon's retreat from Russia in 1812 some 12,000 men perished at Vilna in December. Over three days the cold and starvation got so much that many began to eat parts of the already dead. Some four years later - in July 1816 - the French frigate Medusa ran aground off Senegal. Some 151 men built a raft and attempted to escape. Starvation, drowning and eventually murder led to ten surviving. Many of them had been eaten. One of the worst modern cases concerned a Uruguayan plane en route to Chile in the winter of 1972, with 45 people onboard. It crashed in the Andes. Slowly they began to die o
Life Sux Without........
Life sux without......420
Life sucks and then you die so come on peeps lets all get high, Roll a joint and take your toke...
Breathe in deep, Try not to choke. Now that you're done w/your hit, pass it here, dont babysit...
Dont like the joint, then hit the bong. The ganja for which all tokers long.
I swear to you that it's no joke, life sucks without chronic smoke.
---> by BabySmooth
Well yesterday I signed up to sell Avon....i know lame but i feel i got to do something.
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What a day it has been! Wow, and it is only 2:00. I have been awake since 5:00am but woke up many times before that. I was working by 7:00am with our accountant and it took us over 3 hours to find and fix the mistakes that Jennifer made to the previous quarter. A bit frustrating to say the least!
I found out my computer is 6 years old. Kind of old for a computer when you work on it daily! It is time for a new one. Especially since it has been giving me the System Failure error when I start it up and have to keep pushing the start button until it decides to work! lol Jennifer said she would have Richard at work order me one but then I would end up with what he picked out and not what I want! And I am sure it would be a Dell he would pick out for me and I prefer HP!
I need some chocolate really bad! That or wine? Hmmm? Decisions decisions! I am horny. We have had great sex 2 nights this week and none the last 2! I need sex!!!! I better get to have fun tonight!
Life As I See It
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When
you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you
have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to
provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any
wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will
or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they
Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a
stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered
and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, gr
Life I Guess
so i just started selling avon and need to find a bigger customer base so i thought i would put the online link out here for all to see and what not and see what happens. dont get me wrong so far it is going great and im having fun and get to work from home so i get to spend time with hunter but i am thinking so much bigger than it is so far. so....see what happens by doing this i guess. cant hurt to do so... anyway heres the link to my online site: http://www.youravon.com/cynthiaepperson
My new company is now up and running after a long waite. I am doing taxes for any one who needs it done just go to my company website and contact me me there. The website is located at the link below
have a great day
to live is to love to love is to die to die is to awaken
Why is no matter what you do for some one its never enough. Your working your ass off so you can provide for your family, and give your kids the christmas you think they deserve. but its never enough. not to mention you see people you never knew was family
then you find out that what you got them was returned to the store. how nice is that?
why cant any one just like what they get do they think it was bought to make them hate it, ITS CALLED A GIFT
some day i hope to see the real meaning of the holidays not the greed but the love and joy of spending time with the ones you care about.
i know its all a dream but hey its the holidays i can still hope.
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It is a BEAUTIFUL fall day. Sunny and the air is crisp and cool! I can say that I barely have any pain in my neck! This is just so wonderful! It seems to be getting better and better! Now that I make myself sit up straight at my computer, it is helping a great deal. Now maybe I can go back to walking on my treadmill daily like before?
I got my wish last night! We went out to dinner and then came home and had great sex! Wooo hooo! I thoroughly enjoyed myself! ;)
Now, Peter is getting ready to take the boys and their friends out to ride their moto x bikes out at a local track. Anthony got a new motorcycle last Sunday and he has been dying to take it out ever since then. It is a bigger bike then before. It is a Yamaha 125. Christopher and his friend are bringing their bicycles out there since his friend doesn't have a motorcycle. I think they will have a lot of fun!
We had a full house last night! 3 kids stayed the night. I get up this morning to find Anthony's
Life And All The Bs That Goes With It
I was given a bit of advice to write this,I hope you can understand the reason behind it and maybe write one of your own.
In time you are going to discover a very upsetting thing about how your father really died.Do not think because he died that way you will too,I know it is difficult and through out your life you will try the same thing.Keep your head up and just keep living your life like you know how to do.Many bad and horrible events will occur during your life but your family and friends will be there for you and help you through it.As a result you will become a much stronger person and more determined to improve yourself along the way.You will join the Navy like you have dreamed of doing,but it will not become the career you wish it to be.It is of no fault of your own but just a random action that accures alot within the naval service.You will be scared to death of both losing your life long dream and of entering into a new phase of your life that you know nothing o
On Monday, January 14, 2008, I was arrested for domestic violence against my soon-to-be- ex husband, as well as a felony tampering with a 911 call...well here's the real story:
I get home after having an argument with my fiancee, and we were gonna go in the room and talk about our fight. I had told my ex (Kevin) to stay out of it b/c he always likes to get the middle of things. He refused and started up, and of course I started yelling at him. My girlfriend had been calling my phone but I couldnt answer it bc it was just about dead. So Kevin takes my phone from the table behind me and I tried to get it back from him. We ended up wrestling for the phone bc I was going to go in my room and charge the phone so i could call my gf back. He knew the phone was dead, he NEVER specified tht he was going to dial 911, AND he NEVER attempted to DIAL 911...so I dont see how the charge is gonna stick...anyways we continued to fight and i was hitting him tryhing to get him off of me...then when Da
Wow it has been a busy day! A good busy though. Peter and I took off this morning to go see his brother's new house that they have been building over the past year and a half! It was worth the wait! OMG, it is the most beautiful house I have ever seen in my life! It is about 4,000 sq ft. and is Mediterranean style. Everything about it is ME!!!! They live up on Vine St. which is a pretty large hill and overlooks most of the city. Almost all of their walls are glass so when you look out, you see all of the valley. It is truly breath taking. I want to move in with them! lol I want that house! We are going to have Thanksgiving over there Thursday with Peter's family. They just moved in and were still unpacking boxes this morning and still have a lot to go. I hope they get it all done this week!
Then we went to Lowes after being at Paul and Betty's for a couple of hours. We bought a new area rug for our living room. I hope it looks nice. We haven't put it down yet. Pete
I am a member of a few dating sites...I know silly me! But although I am not a small girl, it never bothered me, I am who I am, take it or leave it! But I recieved this message on one that said " NOT ONLY ARE YOU A FAT B*&%H BUT YOU SCARY UGLY TOO!! I have never been so annoyed, shocked, depressed in MY LIFE!! Who do some of these guys think they are??
It is Monday morning and it was nice sleeping in but what is funny is I can't really sleep in! I wake up at 5:00 because I have to go to the bathroom and then go back to sleep for maybe an hour. I have never been one that could sleep in past 7-8. I don't know how people do it and sleep until noon! To me it is wasting your day.
Something very funny happened last night. Peter and I went to sleep around 10pm. At 10:44 our light turned on, then off and then on and stayed on. It woke us up needless to say. I looked at him and said "what the fuck?" The light is by remote and was on my bedside table next to me. It was Barney. Barney is our ghost. Yes, we have a ghost. A lot of you may not believe in them and it took my husband a long time to believe that we had one but they do exist!
Barney likes to play pranks. Why he wanted to turn on our lights on us is a question? I wondered if he was trying to get our attention for something. Like Anthony sneaking out at night or so
The Life And Times Of...
I live in New York City. The pace of things here is to say the very least, faster then most. I find myself walking fast, eating fast, even sleeping fast. Every morning I have a similar routine; get up, walk the dog, feed the dog, shower and suit up, and off to work on the 4 or 5 train. I stand at the same place, get on the same train car, walk up the same steps, take the same escalator and out the same door of Grand Central. I do all these things to shave a few seconds off my commute to the office. I do it so that I will be there faster.
The ipod is like my personal trainer for my commute. It pumps me up with its quick beats and flowing melodies all so that I can walk swiftly and with purpose, all so that my pace will be maintained. Take the ear phones out...and im like a child lost in a crowd.
THis morning was no different from most, except I walked the dog to day-care/groomer for a "spa day" before I take her to Chicago for the holiday and I hopped the train. So much
Why does a man treat a woman a certain way until they meet, and then all the cute little things they did before just go away? Like the sweet little texts to let you know they are thinking of you... the calls just to hear your voice...all the things that mean so much. Why does a man call you every night and talk about everything or nothing at all and then once you meet boom, it' s like they forgot how to dial your number? Do men not like affectionate women anymore? Women who love to hold hands and curl up next to you and kiss alot? Is it too much work these days when men can feed their savage beast at any time, especially when women out number them. And why are there so many people unhappy with the one they are with, yet not willing to change anything to be happy? Yes, unfortunately I speak from experience. What really upsets me is that so many women take for granted what they have and don't appreciate it when there are so many, like myself who search and search and sacrifice their hea
Today it was confirmed that I am needing by-pass surgery. I am scheduled to go in Monday after Thanksgiving. I refused till after the holiday.
I am a 41 yr old mother with a 7 year old at home. I inherited the heart problems from my dad who passed away when he was only 39 so I am scared to death. I have the fact that he passed 27 years ago and the technology has come along way since then on my side but the thought of something going wrong and my not being here to see my 7 yr old grow up is tearing me apart inside. And because she is here with me I have to keep it inside. So I thought I would blog and let my friends in on some of whats going on with me. I will not be on alot the next few days with the holiday and all.
If you see my account on next week stop in and say Hi it will be my oldest daughter and she will know whats going on with me if anyone wants to know.
Also if you need leveling let her know she will use my 11's for you. I've tried to tell her how to work Fubar so help he
Damn, I have been sleeping the day away! I had an appointment this morning for an MRI on my neck and the last time I had one and only my knee was in the machine, I had a panic attack. I am claustrophobic! I don’t like small spaces what so ever. So they told me to take valium beforehand to help me relax. I not only took a valium, I also took a muscle relaxer. Ooops.. ;) But I wanted to make damn sure that I wasn’t going to freak out. Peter drove me there so I didn’t have to worry about driving. I almost fell asleep in the car for the 25 minute ride. I made it through my scan without even moving. I was fine. I won’t know the results from it until my doctor contacts me. I am sure with the Holiday; it won’t be until next week.
Then I came home and tried to work and I was just so sleepy so I laid down on my bed and fell asleep for hours! I had to wake up because the “My Favorite Things” Oprah show is on right now. I enjoy seeing all the neat gifts she gives the entire aud
Life As We Know It (ems Stories)
The other night I was at work when it happens, I looked like a complete ass in front of everyone.
We were on a roof trying to talk down a suicidal patient. When some other medic decides to call my phone. Well I had my phone set to vibrate earlier and had no clue that it had some how gone to loud mode.
Well as I am right behind the patient telling him that things will be fine and that I am here to help him, my phone rings and all you hear is the funeral march. Well damn that just made everyone stop and turn, they all had the look of horror on their faces. We thought for sure the patient would freak out, well he didn't and we were able to talk him down after 6 hours on the roof. Good thing he had a sense of humor and wasn't offended, and we were all able to get a laugh after all was said and done.
I just don't think I will ever live this one down, and no I am not Death contrary to popular beliefs folks!
*Note to self Turn off cell when on scene*
Last night I held the ha
1. Take into account that great love and great achievements
involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s:
ØRespect for self,
ØRespect for others and
ØResponsibility for all your actions
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a
wonderful stroke of luck
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate
steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and
think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the
current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It i
I am beginning to wonder if anything is made in the United States anymore, or any other country besides China? I bought some shoes the other day that are supposed to be European. They have a European size and as far as I know, they used to be made somewhere in Europe before. I thought the shoe was very cute but the quality just doesn't seem to be what it used to be from this company. ECCO is the brand. Known for comfort.
So I turn over the shoe looking at it closely, I see the words "Made in China". I was shocked. Then I looked at another pair of my shoes that are supposed to be made in America, it is an American Company and sure enough, it said "made in china"! I am disgusted that a majority of American companies do not have factories in America. This isn't anything new but it seems to be getting worse and worse. So these Multi Million dollar companies can get cheap labor in China and Taiwan that they give up on quality for mass production and to save money! Quality just
Life Is Beautiful
hi everyone there is email circulating around the net called life is beautiful.. if you recieve one of these emails........ PLEASE DO NOT OPEN IT DELETE IT STRAIGHT AWAY it contains a virus which when opened gains access to ALL YOUR PERSONAL INFORMATION INCLUDING PICTURES AND ALL OTHER INFORMAION ie your bank details etc......... so please remember to delete it straight away
It is hard to believe that tomorrow is Thanksgiving. It feels like it sneaks up on me faster and faster every year. I really do enjoy Thanksgiving because the only thing it is about is family and or friends and eating. No gifts. It is a time to reflect and be thankful. It has been a hard year with my two boys but I still have a lot to be thankful for.
I am not a big fan of turkey and that is what is traditional to serve for Thanksgiving but I do love everything else that comes along with it. To me, turkey is just kind of bland. It is much better with lots of gravy! No matter how you cook a turkey or what you put on it, it always tastes the same to me. I also love pumpkin pie. Has to have whip cream though! What is pumpkin pie without whip cream? It is a crime is what it is!
We are going to my brother-in-laws house tomorrow here in town so that makes it easy. Not sure what time we are supposed to be there? They always say dinner will be at such and such time and it n
Life, In All It's Wonderment!
Well, here we are, the Wednesday before Thanksgiving. I've definitely had an interesting week so far, that's for sure. The crud hit me Thursday morning, when I got up for work.. Janis sent me home early at around 2 pm, so I was thinking, "Hey, I should be over this pretty quick, it's not that bad.." Friday morning rolls around, I was worse.. I didn't feel like I could make it into work, but I did. I walked in, and both of my bosses were like "What are you doing in here?!? GO HOME!! You look awful!" I had paperwork that had to be mailed out, so I was only there for an hour and a half, 2 hours, and they were practically pushing me out the door. Kept getting worse through the weekend, and I called Linda Monday morning, and she was completely awesome about everything.. She said "Honey, don't worry about us, we can handle things here, you just need to rest and get yourself better.. You've been working your ever-lovin heiney off for this place, you deserve the break." I'm like "Okay, but I j
Life is a peach
rotting in the refuse
Of society's failure
The rain washes away
The last remains
Of the days greatest moments
Filled with the tears
Of those left to suffer
Those who died this day are the lucky ones
For those left to endure another day
Must accept the stench of the rotting peach
Copyright 2003 Jeff Hargis
Life And Love
A while back I had told myself that I was done with the whole relationship thing. I was just going out and partying and having a good time being single. But then one night while I was visiting some friends I met the most wonderful man. Neither one of us wanted anything more than a friend, and we both made that very clear. As the weeks went by we continued to run into each other and spend time together, I just couldn't help but look at him in a different way. He is the most kind, loving, cuddly, and handsome man I have ever met. He treats me like I have never been treated before. I can't get enough of him when he is here, and I miss him terribly when he is gone. I honestly don't think that I could ask for more out of a man that truely loves me!!!!!!
Life Is Like
I AM THE ONE TO BUILD YOU UP WITH ONE SINGLE TOUCH....AND THEN TO TEAR YOU DOWN LIKE I OWN THE TOWN.....IF I LOVED YOU LIKE I SAID I DO I WOULD OF NEVER DONE WRONG TO YOU....AND THEN TO LOOK IN YOUR EYEZ THATS WHEN I DIE....I SHOULD OF NEVER LET HER CONTROL MY LIFE AND DIRESPECT MY WIFE....IF I COULD ERASE MY PAST WITH THE EXCEPTION OF MY KIDS I WOULD DO IT SO FAST....WAS LIFE REALLY NEVER MENT FOR US....I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THOSE WORDS I DON'T TRUST....TO BEAR OUR OWN TO RAISE A CHILD IN A SINGLE OR DOUBLE LOVING HOME....TO BATH HIM OR FEED HER....RAISE THEM AND READ TO HIM AND HER....I DREAM OF THE DAY DANTE TAKES HIS FIRST STEPS....AND KAYLA SPEAKS HER FIRST WORDS....BUT LIFE IS NOT THAT GOOD TO HAND US WHAT WE PATENTLY WAITED FOR....SO ANGER FILLED MY SOUL AND HATERD CAME UNTOLD....ARGUMENTS FILLED OUR PRESENCE AND LIFE SEEMED SO BLUE I'M SORRY FOR WHO I BECAME TO YOU....THOSE RINGS DOWN THE DRAIN YOUR HEART THAT PAIN....MY UNCALLED MEANNESS MY CUNNING EYEZ THE TONE IN MY VOICE AND
The Life Of The Damned
To live the life of the Damned
Is to forever be hidden in the dark
Forever be a part of the Shadows
Living in the Darkness of the night
Feeding on the fears of others
Just to stay alive one more night
Sleeping during the day
Being away from the sun
Never to feel it caress your skin
Living night after night
Never to age once
Forever being in your prime
Waiting and Watching
The world around you
Die as you stay alive
Never to get close to anyone
For fear of seeing then age and pass
Knowing you can not help them
As you never grow old and live on
This is the life of the damned
Is this what you truly wish
If so then I shall bring it to you
Just let me know when you wish it
I'll come to you in the Night
As this is my time to walk
To make you into a Child of Mine
To forever more live the life of the damned
I shall wait 'till you are ready my child
Then, and only then, shall I come
To give you the Blessed Kiss
To bring you to be one of the Damned
It is Saturday afternoon and I am waiting for my daughter to get home from work so we can go shopping. I just went to lunch with my husband and then we went to a store to buy a leaf blower, how exciting! hahaha He is excited anyway.
I had a really good and long Thanksgiving day. We left the house by 1:00 and got back around 10:00pm. I brought my camera to take pictures of the most awesome house but never took the camera out of my purse! Bad, bad, bad! We spent all day yesterday running around. We bought 2 more are rugs, one for the family room and one for the dining room. It looks really nice. We have wood floors and I have been meaning to buy rugs for a long time now but could never find the right ones until now.
Today seems to have flown by. Yes, it is only 2:00pm but there is so much to do today. Peter has been doing yard work so he can get the Christmas decorations down and put them up. He really makes our house look spectacular for Christmas. We live on a corne
2007, it has been an interesting year for me. I have allowed many into private areas of my heart, some, more than others and I even opened areas there that I have never allowed anyone.
Please know that if I gave you a hug, a kiss, told you I love you, said I accepted you as you are, or even shared myself physically with you, I did so to share with you a part of myself. I have a great respect for each and everyone of you.
I know I have failed some friends and I cannot change the past. I can only say I am sorry...and even then, that may never be enough, especially when it was those friends that helped me keep on keeping on through some rough areas. My pride, my ego, my loss of self, and neediness pushed some away. To them, I say thank you, for without you saying what you said, doing what you did... well... I do hope that perhaps we can rekindle our friendship in the future, I have not given up.
From the year 2007, I shall carry memories of loss, love, laughter, stupidity, new
It has been really nice having the last 4 days off. Normally it is a time when Peter takes the boys to the cabin right after Thanksgiving dinner on Thursday night and comes back Sunday. He decided to stay home this time. I think it may even be a first!
He and I have spent the last few days shopping and cleaning. He finished up some paint in the front so we couldn't see any more of that horrible purple! Today, he is taking down the Christmas decorations from the attic. I have so many Christmas decorations for the inside of the house it is crazy! I tried to downsize last year since I only put out about half of them. I got rid of a bunch of old stuff. I think I would rather have elegant than it look like Santa barfed all over our house! LMAO!
So I will sift through the decorations once again maybe downsizing again. I have so many snowmen because they are my favorite and I also have tons of Snow Babies. I guess I could start making a box of stuff for my daughter when s
Life Is ...
Sometimes I wonder wehre I've been,
And who I am & where do I fit in.
Without your love all I'll ever be,
Is out here on my own.
I love you with more desire,
than I knew I had in me; And now it's gone.
With God by my side & in my heart,
I know I will go on.
I don't know how or where I'll be,
Just that sometime yet to come;
I will wake up & say,
"GOOD MORNING" to a brand new me.
A me without you & the love we shared,
But this time around;
I know that it was me who was important;
And that is all that I have to share.
And more & my heart will break,
Because the pain I feel inside;
Is so hard to take,
My life is still so young & waiting for me.
So ready or not, I'm here to take what I can & face it head on, despite the tears & the love I leave behind.
They say that time heals all wounds,
I guess they are right on that;
But will it heal all by itself,
I do not know.
My heart & soul were yours,
To twist & turn to make us whole;
My life is pretty fucked up today and just to prove it, here's my fucking horoscope for today.
"You're not entirely sure what's going on with that new romance, job or opportunity, so now is the time to ask big questions. You may not get the answers you're hoping for, so be prepared to back out if necessary."
Isn't that real fucking funny. Life a fucking bitch. Maybe I'll fucking die.
Current mood: touched
Category: Romance and Relationships
Think about that for a minute.......Now say you meet someone you are attracted to. What was the first thing that attracted you to him or her? Was it the way they dressed, the company they keep, the car they drive or maybe they have a great job and big fancy house. There are several reasons we are attracted to someone, these are but a few. The above mentioned are all superficial. Being , they don't matter. The fact they dress well, nice car etc. is irrelivent in all cases.
The fact is, we have to be open to accept this person for who they are, their morals, convictions etc. Not who we precieve them to be. Fore, to precieve is to pre-judge.........we all do it, it's human nature, unfortunatlly.
Something brought 2 people together for whatever reason. The key here is to get behond the inital attraction. If you are really attracted to this person, you will be patient, understanding with them. Don't expect t
Life One Day
My hopes for loved one if I find her!
You're the thought that starts each morn,
and the conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do
And everyting I say.
You're the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.
You're the hand that is laced in mine,
And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
My shoulder to lean on.
You're my silly, mature, caring,
thoughtful, bright, and honest gal.
The one who holds me tightly,
When I need to cry.
You're the dimple in my cheek,
The eber constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
The happiness of my life.
Yoou are all I've ever wanted.
You are all I need
You are all I've dreamed of.
You are all of this to me.
One day A woman in my life will be this!!
I have invested years into my relationship, and man I am telling you theres not much we havent been through. You know, I got alot of stuff going on, some pretty big things in my life, and I see this bigger picture now. I am the type of girl who stays true, I am gonna stick by your side no matter what. I reached a point where enough was enough, either you could roll with me, or roll off. I thought there was a mutual understanding about that. One girl, that was me. I want to handle things differently. Man I been a good woman, alot of peeps can't say that these days, but I want to always be able to say that about me. Now, I see limitations on what I can do in my relationship, and I would never come close to doing some of the things, my other half does, guess thats where the difference is. His limitations are different, what do you do about that? I try and be a woman about things just brush it off, but some things really bother me. Sometimes feels like a slap in my face. He lo
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....
To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy wh
I have a bad headache. Not sure when it started? I imagine when I decided to pick up Anthony from school instead of him walking home with all his friends. I picked him up, dropped him off at home and told him not to go any where and he got mad and slammed my car door. I then went to pick up Christopher from school.
Sitting there listening to classical music made me calm but it didn't make my headache go away. I got a phone call from Peter telling me that there was a war going on at home between Ashton and Anthony. I decided to let Christopher go to his friends house after school instead of coming home to that. I came home and both the kids were out in the garage talking so I let them be. I guess my daughter blew up at her brother big time! I am glad it was all calm by the time I got home.
I am not looking forward to tomorrow. I made Anthony an appointment to see a psychiatrist tomorrow at 1:00pm. I will have to pick him up and take him there and I am worried how he wil
To live life with out love and music means there's no life to live
Life's Lesson #1
Life's Lesson #1 YOU CANNOT MAKE SOMEONE LOVE YOU, ALL YOU CAN DO IS BE SOMEONE WHO CAN BE LOVED! THE REST IS UP TO THEM.
Its not like any of us can go up to someone with a gun in tote and say "love" me damn it. Where would we get if we did something stupid like that. We cant just become gun toting pscyhotic people just because we feel lonely and right at that very moment want someone to love us. We have to be someone that can be loved first. I know in my mind I sure dont want to love someone that is going to force me to do so.
The best advice I got for this was to just be yourself. Dont become someone your not just to get someone's attention. Now a days most people can't stand fake people anyway so you might as well become someone that everyone can love. Hell i know i try to be and if you just dont like it I guess oh well. At least I try and dont pretend to be someone I am not just to make someone fall for me. I just cant do that.
So, I haven't been to fubar in a very long time. It's time to return. Life got too busy for a while, but it's back to normal now. I miss everyone and I hope a few of you missed me as well. I look forward to catching up with you all again. This has been, by far, the worst Valentines Day I have ever had. It started last night when I went to bed about 1:30am. No Valentine wishes. I got woken up by my "boyfriend" at about 4:30am as he was looking for something in his dresser. No Valentine wishes. He couldn't sleep so he was drinking beer and playing Black Ops online. I got to work at 9:30 this morning and he is sleeping on the couch. I come home for lunch at 4pm and he is still drinking beer and playing Black Ops. Only now his speech is slurring. I ask him to lay off the beer for the rest of the night and I get "I'll think about it." I told him he was a fucking ass. Still no Valentine wishes. It is now almost 9pm. I am home from work and he is passed out on the couch, Blac
is not to arrive
at the grave safely
in a well presevered
but rather to skid in
sideways totally worn out
"HOLY SHIT "
WHAT A RIDE!!!
Well, as bad as yesterday was and believe me, it was bad! Today is a much better day. I had to run and take Anthony's project to school today because I had told him I was going to pick him up at 1:00 to go to his appointment but then didn't tell him I had changed the date. So since it was my fault, I had to rush to his school before the class ended.
This morning when I dropped him off at school, he sat in the back of the car and when he got out he didn't say "I love you" like he does every day. :( but when I dropped off his stuff, I said it and he said it back so that made me feel better.
My boys are home from school and Anthony is home and working on his homework. He knows he is grounded and I thought I would have a fight on my hands today but it seems to be ok.
I ended up chatting a lot of the day away. Oops. Didn't mean to but...what do you do? I think I needed it since I had such a stressful day and night yesterday.
I noticed on Fubar that they have added ne
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of
arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but
rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in
the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming
"WOO HOO what a ride!"
How do we do this to our selves over and over again? All each of us wants is to find someone to make us happy. Someone to spend our lives with, Good and bad. I for some reason keep getting my self fucked up. Maby I give into love to easily? Maby it's just karma kickin me in the dick again. Whatever it is, it's makin me crazy. So much heartache and misery. Is this only happenin to me. I can't be alone on this, there is no way. If there is anyone else that feels the same or has been through it let me tell you one thing. You can only be as happy as you let yourself be. Chew on that shit for a minute.
Peace To everyone who knows me, really knows me, thanks. Thanks for stickin it out and puttin up with my shit. You know who you are and thats all that matters. To the rest of the world, let me start by saying... Fuck this place, its bullshit, im outta here. Now on a more serious note. Some of you know whats been going on with me outside of fubar, and i thank you for y
Life Sux At Times
As if I dont have enough problems with my marriage.. etc. We just had another freakin kick in the ass.
Hubby called up to tell me the lovely news that hes getting a nice Christmas gift from his boss. The fucker decided he doesn't want the spouses included in on the insurance. There fore.. I will have to pay for insurance through work. Which working for hospital..its good insurance..but its also costly. I am not sure how much it will be for just one member..who works part time. I am about to blow up at his boss in general anyways. Each year..it just keeps getting worst and worst. He comes home pissier and pissier. I told him I think its time for a new job..but hes getting paid good now. Just all of this crap plus our own personal issues makes life sucky around here. Not sure how much more I can take. Hubby said, now we got to figure out what to do about this. I told him just kill me off. LOL.
He just might.. so in case you all don't see me around... just letting ya know..
It has been a long day and it is only noon. What does that mean exactly? I took my 15 year old son to his appointment to meet with the therapist. Not something he was wanting to do but it was needed.
He got really mad when he saw that he had to fill out some forms and then when his Dad showed up, it made him even madder. So he filled out the form saying yes to everything instead of really filling it out. I told the therapist that. He did not want to talk to her so Peter and i talked to her alone and then Anthony talked to her by himself and even though he said it was a waste of time, I do think it accomplished something. He was mad walking out of the hospital and it was a very long appointment, 2 hours! I told him I would not talk to him as long as he kept on acting rude to me. So we got in the car. Peter got in his and he went back to work. Most of the ride home was in silence but then Anthony just started talking to me normal.
He seemed to get out of his angry mood
Well I went to bed feeling like crap, and I woke up feeling the same. I don't know why I let some things get to me the way they do, but yesterday started really great and by the end of the day I felt like I did something wrong. Made me realize I really need to rethink some issues. Breaks my heart but I'm not feeling like this again.
i just dont understand boys they confuse me so bad theres this one guy that i realy like but hes a complet dick and i know nothing will every be more than friends and then theres dallas who is a realy sweet guy and wants more than jsut friends but i dont have the goosebumps and butterflys with him this sucks so bad why cant all men just be good guys than i wouldnt have this problem i am so sick of coming last in the game of love this is relay sad i passed on by a 19 year old because he likes my roommates 15year old kid that cant even stand him i am so sick of this shit i just started my 2nd semester of college and i am already lost in my bio class i hate science so bad
I am very upset at the school system in my city. Everything has gotten out of control with fear so much so that they have no tolerance for anything. If a kid looks at another kid the wrong way, oh...he is suspended. That is just about how bad it has become.
I am really pissed off and my husband is pissed off even more! I got a phone call from a teacher at Christopher's school. She is acting Principal today because the principal is out sick today. She tells me that Christopher has been suspended for 2 days for hitting another boy in the mouth and made his mouth bleed. Now it sounds bad but this is what happened. Chris and a bunch of other boys were play fighting and this kid got hurt. They were playing and it was an accident. The kid that got hurt was the one that started hitting other boys to begin with. So she tells me that she has no other choice but to suspend Christopher.
I called Peter to tell him this and he called the school and ripped that woman's head off over
When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24
>> a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of
>>professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front
>>of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and
>>empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then
>>asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The
>>professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.
>>He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas
>>between the golf balls . He then asked the students again if the jar
>>was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a
>>box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up
>>everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students
>>responded with an unanimous "yes." The professor then
>>produced two cups of coffee from under the table and pour
Last night my Dad and Step Mother came over to our house to pick us up and go out to dinner and then over to Paul's house (my brother in law) so my parents could see their house for the first time. They were excited about getting to see it.
It was just supposed to be the 4 of us going out but then Ashton and Christopher tagged along. My stepmom just got a brand new car. A BMW 7 series and let me tell you, I have never seen a more cool car then that one! It has everything you can imagine putting in a car. It even has remote control shades that come up on the side windows and back window with a push of a button. Oh and the doors, you just barely shut it and it closes by itself. Too cool.
So we go out to dinner and the damn restaurant took forever! We didn't end up at Paul's house until like 9:30. My Dad was very impressed with Paul's house. My Dad just found out that they have a termite problem and a sewer pipe burst under their house so the whole front of the house n
*sigh* If it's not one thing it's another over here I swear.
So I had to sign a 6 month lease for this stupid cracker box I'm moving to so I'm stuck and hating it.
The phone was suppose to be hooked up already but it wasn't my number, okay, it looks like that's fixed, FINALLY.
Now I find out cable isn't available there. Stuck with a dish and 500 channels that I don't care about. (maybe I'll just watch movies on my lappy, I dunno)
Here's the real pisser~~~~after thinking DSL was no problem there, come to find out it's not available. FUCK, it looks like I'm going to be stuck with dial up cause as my luck has been, wireless isn't going to work either. $#@%$#%^!!
This place is too backwards for me, I can't wait to get off this rock.
End rant/ So originally I was moving into my exes for a bit since I have to be out of where I live by Dec.31st.
I've spent the past few days around him a lot and can clearly see that we would drive each other crazy if I stayed there. He's an
Life Is Too Short...
Life is too short. Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. They are a waste of perfect time and energy to be happy. Laugh whenyou can, and as often as you can at everything possible. A ppologize when you should and let go of what you can't change, beacuase it will only change you in the end. Love deeply and forgive quickly, because in not forgiving you only hurt yourself. Share your life and your lifes experiences with others. Teachlove and happiness and you shall recieve love and happiness in return. Take chances, give everthing and have no regrets. Life is too short to be unhappy. You have to take the good withe the bad, smile whenyour sad, love what you got and always remember what you had. Always forgive but be sure to never forget. Learn from your mistackes inlife but never forget them and never regret them, cause eachaand everyone of them taught you somethingin life that made you grow as a personin some way. People change, and things go wrong, sometimes terribly wr
The Life And Times Of A Freak! Hehehe
Can anyone tell me why I seem to go out of my way to hurt myself?! I don't mean in a self harm kinda why...but in a emotional way.
I like a lot of women always seem to end up getting involve with 'bad boys'. Not because I like the life style they lead (eg gangsta's etc) but more just bad = wrong. They tend to have crap jobs, or no job. Or take too mu=any drugs/alcohol. Or end up in fights a lot.....It isn't this things that attract me to them...it tends to be Ink that does that. What can I say..I like it. I like a guy with it even more. However how many guys do you know of (in the uk) Have a lot of ink AND a good job! Not very many I can tell ya.
So about 8 months ago I met someone who did! yeah...still big problems there in the form of his wife! hmmmmmm what the fuck did I do in a past life to get dealt the crap I seem to end up in all the time! lol.
Fuck it you know what I quit! lol this is my problem I really don't care anymore...I just want someoen to have a laugh w
The Life And Times Of My Cat
Hey as youwill find this has nothing to do with my cat . I am new to fubar and I need friends and lots of drinks. LOL. I am a mother of two married (sorry boys) . I have four cats and I am attending a local community college. I have many interests so talk to me PEOPLE
Hey everybody i am in a comment contest starting rioht now for the next seven days please bomb me and show me some mad love here is the link you will need
I love you all Life is to short to wake up in the morningwith regrets. So love the people who teat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it, If it changes your life, let it. Nobody ever said it was gonna be easy they just promised it would be worth it.
I am here to meet cool ass people and maybe find a online relationship. If you are a perv ar a hater please don't bother. I am a cool ass bitch who likes to have a good time, and party. I have a really big heart and it gets broken very easily. So please haev some respect and don't bother if you don't mean it.
A person never knows when they got a drinkin problem. I know for instance.I almost lost my life the night of november 3 morning of november 4. i was stupid for drinking and driving. i hit a bridge head on with a truck that didn't even belong to me. it belonged to my boss. i pray to god and count my blessings each and every day that i get out of bed that i was able to walk away from that accident that almost took my life. i suffer from a broken neck and loss of feeling in my left arm. doctors aren't sure if the feeling will ever come back. i had to have surgery on my neck. they stuck 2 steel rods and bolts in my neck to keep it together. they also did a bone graph on it.
will keep you all updated as doctors do me.
Life Is Wierd Yo
life is wierd yo... asked a few girls out in the last few months... they reject me.. go out with abusing drug addicts and wonder why they are miserable.. but then again I've come to realize a lot of people in this town are addicted to misery.. which is why they stay here and I don't fit in.. I'm used to being around people who enjoy life.. I don't belong in this town
So I just recently got back from Iraq one of many deployments. The main difference is this time when I got home my reason to return home was gone. I came home to an empty building where a family use to reside. Why I don't know She does but she isn't talking she just wants to pretend like nothing is wrong. Like maybe if we don't discuss it it will just go away. So I am moving on now is that someone i really want in my life? Oh well life goes on you meet new people some people will always be there and some won't eventually you find out who your real friends are.
Why does life hurt so much? Why cant things be right? I dont understand it hurts so much inside... Im proud that im gonna be a father, and I brought a new breath in tis world, I wanted out child to have the life we never had... I wanted that family, that love of my life, and all in one night it all gets taken away. I dont know how to deal, I dont know how to cope, You might as well tkae a knife and cut my fuckin throat, you took my breath, you took my heart, you splattered it all, now im coated in blood, I cant take the pain or the hurt, just one more cut, just a lil more squirt, a few more minutes, and all ends soon, Wait... I cant leave this world yet, I love my my child, I want the normal life, maybe just a lil while, I love you so much even though you you hurt me so bad, I hate this feelin a pain so bad, I want to make you laugh, no more tears, I want it all to stop ill drink no more beers... You left without a clue no warning, no sighn, all I ever wanted was for you foreve
Well, it looks like I am not going to get my car until tomorrow. :( *tears* I guess it would be more inconvenient for them there is we came in tomorrow? Who cares about inconveniencing them? I want to see my car! I want my car, damn it! I have only seen the other colors and not the one I picked out so I am anxious to say the least. I love dark gray with black interior so it should be beautiful. I looked at a Lexus again online. There are things that the Lexus doesn't have and the interior on the Lincoln is actually nicer looking.
I just want to trade in my vehicle but his brother wants us to sale it ourselves. I personally don't want the hassle. Yes, we can get a couple thousand more for it but....I don't want to have to go through that!
As long as they save that car for me, I guess I will be alright with it. I am just not a patient person what so ever. When I want something, I want it now! Oh wait...that would be a woman thing ;).
I am not going to be happy if
This life is a rollercoaster-
makes you scream and laugh out loud
at the same time. Everything is moving
too fast, and I'm losing control...
... closing my eyes, catching pieces of dreams
colored like butterflies. This life's not
as it seems- there's a snake in every field
a secret behind every smile.
This life's a cocktail of mixed emotions-
bitter- sweet with sugar and salt.
Skeletons in the closets dance to the
symphony on replay, written with lies.
This life is a merry-go-round -
makes you sick right from the beginning.
I shiver, left out in the rain;
broken inside, for just being myself.
TODAY WE LOST ONE OF THE MOST TALENTED "FUNNYMEN" OF OUR GENERATION. FROM THE "HIPPY DIPPY" WEATHERMAN, TO THE THOUSANDS OF STAND UP ROUTINES, HE WAS THE BEST AT WHAT HE DID!
I PERSONALLY MET MR. CARLIN IN THE LATE 80'S. HE WAS A DOWN TO EARTH AND GENEROUS MAN.
LET'S ALL HAVE A DRINK FOR GEORGE!
HE'LL BE MISSED. THIS IS A SHORT LITTLE BLOG...WITH MEANING.
MAYBE LIFE REALLY DOES STINK.BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO SIMPLY ROLL OVER AND DIE! YOU DON'T GIVE UP!!THE WORSE THE ODDS ARE....THE MORE YOU TAKE THEM ON!!!
THERE IS "ALWAYS" SOMETHING WORTH FIGHTING FOR!
THINK ON THAT.
1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
2. Don't worry about what people think, they don't do it very often.
3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.
4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
5. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.
6. My idea of housework is to sweep the room with a glance.
7. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.
8. A person, who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person. (This is very important. Pay attention! It never fails.
9. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.
10. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.
11. Bills travel through the mail at t
my name is denise,im 46,5"1,140lb brown hair hazel eyes.i am happly married for 15 years.i have 6 kids and 3 grandkids and 2 more one the way.i have 17 tatoos and 5 body pericens.2 dogs,6 birds.i love to spend time with my hubby and kids and grandkids.i like gardening,cleaning,being with my friend and partying,to much some times.i don't drink just like to smoke a fat one.i love animals.i like to go for walks.hate tv,but love music.and would like to meet some new friends.im not as boreing as i seam just get to know me u will see.
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HELL, I hope you like things hot, stuffy, agonizing because you're on your way to HOTEL HELL-where you don't ever check out and the TV is stuck on Teletubbies. May I suggest canceling your reservation with a good deed or two? Maybe join the boy scouts, or help the old lady with her groceries...hmmm? K, where to start...
Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Have you ever had feelings for someone and they dont have them back or wont tell you they have them. Well that is what is going on with me. I love this person with all my heart and soul and in my heart I know it is supposed to and meant to be. But they have this problem with saying how they feel. For a while we were really happy together then things went bad. Life through rough spots at us, and instead of working through them, he gave up and walked away. Now time has passed and we both have learned from our mistakes, b
Life On The Road.
Well I've been stuck in portland for three days. Bored out of my f'n mind. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Hope everyone is havein a great weekend. Till next time, peace.
Well, I suppose for this to make sense to anyone I have to at least tell you a little background. I'm 37 years old and currently drive truck. I spent 10 years cooped up in a factory in the lower Michigan area, and although I made fantastic money, I was basically a lemming until one morning it was announced that I, and 44,999 employees were going to be jobless. Fun times huh. Well, long story short, 14 months later I find myself driving truck across this beautiful country. I've seen so many amazing sights over this last year, and figured I'd just start keeping a little record of some of the things I get to witness, hope you all enjoy them.
I'm currently sitting in Olympia WA. A state that I lately have begun to call, " the Island we call WA" There is so much water that some of the overhead freeway s
I'm a single mother in the mist of raising a preteen daughter whos age is 12. Life can be demanding at times especially when you also have a 2yr old son right on your heels. I embrace every day as a journey through the unknown. As I navigate through I remind myself time is unique, precious and very significant not only for me but my daughter as well. She is sorting out who she is and who she wants to become. She is taking shape in every imaginable way-body, mind, and soul. I'm worring about the role I will play in her life as all these changes take place during a few short years as she becomes a woman.
When she was younger, she spent her time playing with dolls-but now, I find her and her girlfriends trying on makeup and picking out bras in magazines. One minute she is on edge with excitement, the next, stopped dead in her tracks by fear-only to bust out in hysterical laughter, and then betrayed by her tears. Hormones, well, that is something we as woman all deal with. Like crying for
It's 4 AM , I just held my daughter while she balled on my shoulder, her best friend of 4 years, father has just passed on to heaven, she is unable to get the veiw of the last look of him out of her head, on a rotating bed to keep the blood flowing a hole in his lungs and pretty much a vegi with is eyes wide open with no blinking, this was at 7 45 pm, This was a good man with a huge heart, My day will be rough today as I mourn with the family , Please say a prayer for them to get them by through out this rough time in life, Thank you!!!! I will now go continue to comfort my baby girl!
I am worn out! Yesterday, I headed to San Francisco with Peter to buy my new car. I was very excited and anxious since I had picked out a color (colour) that I had never seen before. As soon as I saw the car I knew that I made the right choice! It is so beautiful, it is gray on the outside and black leather on the inside. It looks so nice with that combination.
They took my car (Honda) out for a drive to get an estimate for a trade in value. Peter and I were worried that they were going to try to buy my Honda for little money. They were gone for a long time so it was making me a little nervous. I also left them no gasoline in the car either! hahaha So when they finally came up with a figure for my car, he walked over and said $20,000.00 which is a great trade in value for my car! We were both shocked they were giving me that much for my car. It was in really good condition and only 20,000 miles on it. I thought it was only 20 months old but it was actually almost 3 yea
Life As I Know It!!!!
What the hell is wrong with America these days I dont understand why everyone is so superficial these days. I mean why does everyone get so bent out of shape if one hair is out of place or if they dropped some food on their shirt Its stupid. People just need to lighten up be a little more laid back and take life as it comes!!!!
I don't think I have stopped much this week. I have been on the go. I guess it is that time of year?
I got my computer files all saved and added to the new computer. I never turned off my old computer last night because I know that when I do, it won't turn on again! My new computer is so fast! When I added the pics on the new one from the flash drive, it only took a few seconds! damn! ZIPPY
I went and got my hair colored and a tiny bit but. I have been growing it out and don't want anything cut off the length. I wanted to just dye my hair black but my hair beautician freaked out and didn't want to just do black. LOL So I picked an almost black color for the base and a red highlight. I put pictures up so you could see but the flash made my hair look lighter than it is! It is dark. I love the color and so did everyone else there. It is really pretty.
I also took pics of my car and posted them on here. The car is dark gray, called Alloy and the inside is black lea
Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind.
Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind...
Life can be blissful and happy and free...
Life can put beauty in the things that you see...
Life can place challenges right at your feet...
Life can make good of the hardships we meet...
Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin...
Life can reward those determined to win...
Life can be hurtful and not always fair...
Life can surround you with people who care...
Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs...
Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns...
Life teaches us to take the good with the bad...
Life is a mixture of happy and sad...
Take the Life that you have and give it your best...
Think positive, be happy let God do the rest...
Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet...
Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet...
To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall...
Take each day that is dealt you and give i
my life is so gay i hate it with a passion i just want to end cuz im tired of my family treating me the way they do and stuff like that and now i have my friends treating me the same way and i hate it with a passion that everyone has to judge people all the time by the way they act why dont they just get to know them first and then go from there
Friday! Glad it is Friday. Are you? It has been a busy week with getting my car and a new computer and having to transfer everything over. I am glad all of that is done. I still have one thing to add and need to go buy Microsoft Office since any old versions don't work with Vista. I think Vista is cool but I guess the main complaint with everyone is the computability with old software. It sucks to have to buy new stuff! Oh well. Office 07 is actually rather cool. They give you a 30 day trial instead of the entire program like they used to. They don't add many things to new computers any more!
I so need to shop for Christmas. I am so behind. I think part of my frustration is not knowing what to buy? My Dad and step Mother's birthday is today and they flew to Los Angeles to see a play that they have been wanting to see. They are spending the weekend there. I bought their birthday presents the other day so at least that is taken care of. It is always a pain to have to
Life At The Bottom Of The Food Chain
I'm an old retired truck driver. I grew up in the 60s when sex drugs and rock 'n roll were the theme of the day. from there, I joined the Army thinking and we get away from that scene and found even more sex drugs and rock 'n roll. I spent two tours in Vietnam and came home addicted to cocaine and heroin and labeled a baby killer. I finally got myself clean and sober and attended college for two years and ended up driving trucks and warehousing for 20 years. I have been clean and sober for the past 20 years. I never married, because it seems as though all the women I ever knew already belonged to someone else so I kind of lost my trust in them. So I guess I earned the nickname sancho. I'm not proud of that I just view of life as it comes at me. In my case it was just women want to have sex with me, but not a relationship. I am now retired and semi-disabled, and I spend my time learning to play guitar, drawing and painting, and playing on the Internet. Ladies don't get me wrong, I
once in a life time people find it hard to deal with life, for a sample, A woman stay with a man for so long and the man cheats on her, or beats her, which I think is bullshit, but that woman stays, WHY???
this is not for just woman, it happends to men also.
when you look back on all the years that you have lost in that relationship, you wonder was it ever worth it? well sure it was, but the heartache will always be there, wondering why did he/she every hit me, and what did I do to desirve it???
life is short people, get a grip at reality, and move forward to better things in life, I know I have.....
thank you all for reading this, have a wonderful day
People are unreasonable, illogical and self centered
Love them anyway
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives
Do good anyway
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies
The kindness you show today will be forgotten tomorrow
Be kind anyway
Honesty and frankness will make you vulnerable
Be honest and frank anyway
The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind.
Think big anyway
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight
People really need help, but may attack you if you help them
Help people anyway
Give the world the best you have, and you might get kicked in the teeth
Give the world the best you have anyway
life, take it as u will , but sooner or later things arent gonna go as planned , life is about taking risks and taking chances but alot of people hold back on taking any risks or chances, everyday someone in life is gonna step up and take a chance or risk and they can have either have 2 options they can fail or succeed but the ones who succeed have more options in life than the ones who fail the people who fail will most likely take every option that they pssibly can to make life better. some people take life for granted and think thing should just come to them instead of following and chasing the things in life that are necessary, for example .a homeless person doesnt have the oppertunity to have a butler or maid to cook them breakfast or food that they want instead they are the ones who have work to hard in life to get the necessary things to get through in life some of them dont want to work for the things they need they think it should just come to them and think other people shoul
today one of our stores close to us called and talked to my pharmacist...well they said they were faxin over a copy of a forged prescription they had gotten....so we got the fax and it obviously was a forge b/c when we got it...if it was legit...it wouldve had void across the script and it didnt. well that store couldnt find the doctor in our system so they were gona have to call the office to verify the script...so they called the office, expecting to get an answering machine type thing to leave a msg for the office to call back tomorrow to verify the prescription .... but when they called some girl answered and said "dr so and so's office" on a SUNDAY!! the phone number was a 432 prefix i guess and i saw that and asked the pharmacist if cell and land lines have the same prefixes and up here they dont.....well the prefix to my cell is 432 which was the same as the number on the script for the doc office; the medication it was written for was oxycontin....the directions were "take 1 t
well i am new at this blog thing...but you kow man it helps me out soo much...man the last one lifted a load n maybe this one will do the same thing.. man iu have been fightoin for my rites as a father to c my son n well i have been support n payin for the "visits i susposed to be gettin but they havent been happening..my son is four years old.. i ahve now seen him 3 times in his fours of living n his mom will not let me take pictures...i am havn court over n over ...have a paternity test at her cost n asking for the last fours years of his life worth of pix at her cost cuz i have rights to have pictures of my son...she has based everything in court from when we were together on why i cant c my son n which she doesnt know i have prvon everything wrong so far n still havnt gotten shit! i dont undertand...she asked for drug n alcohol assessment n a mental eval n i passed all that shit....while this other motha fuker gets a DUI goes to jail n gets out n still has his child i dont fukn ge
Husbands are like children -- they're fine if they're someone else's.
Never trust a man who says he's the boss at home. He probably lies about other things too.
A woman's work that is never done is the stuff she asked her husband to do.
Go for younger men. You might as well -- they never mature anyway.
Scientists have just discovered something that can do the work of five men -- a woman.
Men's brains are like the prison system -- not enough cells per man.
Men are like place mats. They only show up when there's food on the table.
Men are like mascara. They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
Men are like bike helmets. Handy in an emergency, but otherwise they just look silly.
Men are like parking spots. All the good ones are taken.
Men are like lava lamps. Fun to look at, but not all that bright.
Men are like bank accounts. Without a lot of money, they don't generate much interest.
Men are like high heels. They're easy to walk on once you get th
I Love You Baby girl..
Current mood: depressed
Category: sad Life
Sandi I hope someday you can read this and know how much I love you..
Perhaps you will be mad at me 4 talking to Mom and Dad...I did it because we love you..I love you.. We are desperate to help you annd it was the only way..If I had 2 do it again and choose between you getting mad 4 a while or trying 2 help the Dr's and you parents save your life..If I had to I would do the same thing all over..
From the moment we met we bonded.. you have been my BFF, my love, my sanity 4 2+yrs now..
I wish I had been more available these last few weeks..perhaps we would be on the phone now or online or exchanging gifts..
Instaead I'm writtting this..trying to ease the pain in my heart.. It's not helping... I look at your pictures, comments, messages, everything reminds me of you..
I call the house everyday to check on you...I talk 2 your mom or dad 4 awhile then I hang up and cry
I hope Don had nothing t
If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you. -A. A. Milne
This was a saying that came up to me, and I thought back to a blog I wrote a little while. This is something for those who are still in love, or with thier husband to think about. As much as I wish for someone one, this has nothing to do with me.
What does is this. I have been scorned and I am not sure of my feelings of late. I know a small part longs to have Stephanie back in my life. But the majority of me knows that she doesn't want this, that she is no longer has any feelings for me. I wish I could simply just ask for that piece of my heart back, but we all know its not that simple. So my only option is to try to move on.
And I have. Tiffany I felt would have been my future. And still, she may still be. If I hadn't gone though what I did then perhaps our breakup was premature. But I wasn't strong enough deep down to maintain the pressure
Yesterday I did a lot of thinking about my 15 year old son. We really need to keep a closer eye on him and take away a lot of his freedom for a while until he proves to us he is really trying. His grades suck, plain and simple. He says he is trying but we know he would rather hang out with his friends then to do his homework! So his social life is coming to a stop. He has a new girlfriend ad she is welcome to come over here anytime she wants but for him to just go and do what ever he wants....NO!
Every day seems like a struggle with life. My daughter was so easy and so responsible. This just really hit us upside the head not knowing what to do when Anthony started acting up. Maybe it is easier if the first one isn't so good and then you can know that you need to squash the others! hahaha
So my house is clean, all the laundry is done and put away and my candles are lit in my room so it is a little more peaceful now. I love having candles lit. I just wish I could find so
Life, Living, And "our" Politics
So, we have decided to do very little xmas shopping this year. We are only buying for our immediate family and not even for each other, cuz we are going on a cruise to the Caribbean in April, where we are going to get married inthe Cayman Isles., but anyways, we decided to buy some gifts for some senior citizens. So many people donate to the needy kids, that we often forget about the other end of the scale.
Thinking about my last living Grandparent, who turned 93 in November, we forget that alot of seniors are alone in this world, but they should not be forgotten. So we purchased gifts for one male and one female, in hopes of making their lives a little brighter. And we felt great after doing so. Everyone who knows me, understands that one of my worst fears, is being alone! TO PEE! OR NOT TO PEE?
Like a lot of folks in this state, I have a job. I work, they pay me. I
pay my taxes and the government distributes my taxes as it sees fit. In
order to get that paycheck, I am
Life Is More Fun With A Sense Of Humor.
December 18 is New Jersey Day, the day New Jersey officially approved the United States Constitution, and I, for one, am ready to proclaim -- I love the Garden State and all its citizenry.
After two years of living in the filthy, overpriced, nose-in-the-air concrete mold growth that is New York City, I went to the Jersey Shore for the Fourth of July and had one of the best weekends of my life. I fell asleep listening to Bon Jovi and woke up listening to Bruce Springsteen (not an exaggeration, that actually happened). Everyone was so friendly and intent on showing me a good time, and had I chosen to, I could have gone the entire weekend without paying for anything. Young women and 60-year-old-men insisted on buying me drinks. So when my lease ran out, I got the hell out of Brooklyn and moved to Hoboken, New Jersey, America's number one city for singles.
So it would be my honor to take a few minutes to clear up the most outrageous and offensive slander about my adopted home state.
What is life? I mean really. I was talking to my next door neighbor today after a rather rough day and he thinks we are put here to try and be as happy as we can. It sounds nice, but what do others think? Are we really put here to suffer? To find some one to love? To help others? Or maybe, do we all have our own purpose? Is his purpose to be happy so that his wife and children reach their peak? Maybe he is even happy so that he can help me see the brighter side of life. He shared some pretty personal stuff with me... like things he has been through and stuff and it made me realize how strong he is and how lucky his wife is. I talked to her when she got home and she didn't have a lot to say, but she listened to me spill my guts about what was bothering me. Truth be told I envy their children.... their parents are so approachable, and they are also so in love with each other as well as their kids. It seems unfair but after hearing what I heard I realize that it is fair. They had their ro
Gateway has passed. he was a fighter. but he also knew it was time to move on!! i love you, Gateway! you will always be in my heart!! i lost a grandfather 2 yrs ago on NYE with cancer n now i have a grandmother who is not going to make it another month!! neither one of them smoked and yea they use to drink a lil, but nothing horrible. i on the other hand, smoke n drink. i am not sayin my day wont come, but why do they have to be taken by summin tht never should have affected them? i kno there isnt a "real answer" to tht, i am just venting. i feel i should trade places with my grandmother, let her live some more. i kno others will say, but she has lived a good life, THTS MY POINT!! WHY TAKE IT AWAY NOW? any way i am going to stop b4 i write a novel. i know alot of people think its stupid for people to love their pets like kids. well, i have a cat that i have had for 6 yrs, his name is Gateway. a few months ago, i had to have his leg removed because of cancer. he seemed to be doing fine
Hello all, Yeah I know there isn't going to be many who read this, but I am gonna type it anyway. There are those of you on my friend list that i talk to everyday and those who talk to me everyday. Then there are some of you that talk to me every once in a while. Then there are those of you who do not speak to me at all or do not leave messages and or comments. There are those of you who are just on my list for big friend numbers. If you are one of those people please remove yourself from my list. I am not trying to sound like a bitch but I want real friends. All of my real friends and those of you who consider yourselves my friends please remain on my list. Any drama makers please disappear. Anyone who doesn't want to really be my friend, just remove yourselves from my list. Once again I am not trying to be mean but I am not gonna put up with a bunch of people who r so unreal and not true friends. HELLO ALL, HERE ARE A FEW OF MY BLOGS FROM MY SPACE. YES I CAN BE A BITCH WHEN I FEEL TH
Wednesday and the week is half over. It is a good thing but also that means Christmas is that much closer too. Am I ready? NO But it is going to come and go whether or not I am ready. It is a fact!
Last night Peter and I went to our son Anthony's choir concert. Yes, my son that gets into trouble almost daily is in the school choir. He dropped one of his elective classes and signed up for choir instead. I know he thought it was going to be an easy class. It is. So this concert last night was part of their final and if they didn't attend, they would fail the class. So he thought it best to go sing last night.
He didn't want us going to watch. We went anyway and he acted like he was mad that we were there but I know deep down he loved that we showed up to it. He is a tough guy on the outside but has a huge heart inside!
We didn't get home until 10pm last night and there was no time to decorate the tree. Tonight, anthony has a big History project he needs to finish b
Last night turned into a very busy night. What we planned to make for dinner was not enough since our daughter informed us her boyfriend was coming over and my son had his girlfriend over so we ended up getting good ole' pizza!
The kids were all about decorating the tree until Peter spent an hour and a half trying to figure out why the lights on the tree weren't working and then realized that the power strip he was plugging them into had an on/off switch! Brilliant Peter!
So I ended up decorating the tree all by myself. No one but me put ornaments on the tree. Very pathetic! It does look pretty. I do it in white, clear and silver ornaments of all kinds. I stopped doing the "kid" tree 2 years ago and started doing the tree how I wanted to have it done. Selfish? Maybe.
My freako neighbors from next door had their house go into foreclosure. They moved out last weekend. I feel bad for the old woman but so glad I will never have to deal with her psycho ex son-in-law agai
Life And Times Rants And Raves
For along time now Halloween has been my favorite holiday before that when the kids were growing up it was Christmas. This year it will be Valentines Day. Most girls are brought up with this dream, fantasy of one day meeting the perfect someone where everything just fits like it was always supposed to be. Their soul mate, their best friend above and beyond all friends, their other half, mind, body and soul. I to had that dream at one time but life took it's twists and turns and I found myself married for 13 years in a marriage that was just convenient and not really love at all. I raised the kids, cooked the meals, cleaned the house, worked full time and did it all with a smile on my face like it was all great. I was everyone's clown and I played the part well but inside I was alone. With the kids grown and gone there was nothing left to hold on to about 6 years ago on my bday it ended. I thought this was the worst birthday anyone could have and I wouldn't ever celebrate it like most p
everyone runs around so called life as if they look for something satisfaction as u might say but in the end they end up were they started an they are satisfied because the fact of the matter is human potential tests itsself without any help because of the will to do something and when u act apon this will u acheive satisfaction
Tonight is our office Christmas party. We normally have it at a restaurant but this year it is at a country club. I have never liked going to the office Christmas party because an alien takes over my stepmother's body and she is usually evil to me the entire night. Every year! Last year I promised myself that I would never go to one again so to not put myself through that kind of torture. Oh, for those that don't know, I work for my Dad.
But it kept getting closer and closer to the party date and I decided to that this year, she is not going to be evil to me. This year, she is going to be kind. I am not quite sure why she is so mean to me at these things? We have been getting along quite well over the last few months and I am hoping that tonight goes well.
I will show up at this party with a smile on my face and a song in my heart and go up and hug her first thing! How can someone be mean to someone that does that? Thats what I thought!
I just hope it doesn't run to
It is Saturday morning, almost afternoon. I started to write this earlier but then had a chance to talk to Martin so I stopped.
Last night was my office party and I have to say that it was a blast! We were the first to show up. he first hour was for drinks, then dinner after that. Everyone started slowly trickling in. It was set up beautifully and the food and wine was sooo good! We laughed and joked with everyone all night. It was a really good time. We ended up getting home around midnight. I am so happy that it went well. It made my season just not having to deal with the usual bullshit that I have to at these parties.
My Dad ave a speech last night and his speech was about Peter and how much he does for the company and does stuff he isn't even required to do. He just gets what ever job done that needs to be done. Told everyone that it seems to go unnoticed with the things Peter does and no one pays attention to all that Peter does there at the company and he just w
Life Upon The Sea!!
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND!
Hello everyone!! I just want to say thank you for being my friend.
I'm flying out tomorrow morning, staying overnight in Mobile and
joining the ship on Monday. The first day will be extremely hectic
... touring the ship, safety classes, customs, immigration, and crew
sign on. After that I will be in rehearsals until Feb. 10 and I have
no idea how much free time we will get over the next month. I will
miss you all and I will pop in every now and then to say hello. The
six months after rehearsal will be a lot easier and I should be able
to get on more often. Until then Stay safe and keep on making life
MEXICO HERE I COME!!! YAY!!!
Be sure to check out the video or just enjoy the song as you as you check out the rest of the page!! :)
There are many jobs that are self explanatory. I'm sure everyone knows what a dishwasher is and can figure out what a pastry chef does. Then you have those jobs th
Life On A Daily Bases
Never argue with an idiot. The people watching might not know the difference.
If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.
On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key.
When you're laying in bed at night looking up at the stars, don't panic when you suddenly wonder "Where the Hell is the ceiling?!"
Remember, when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your face to frown. BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and SMACK the asshole upside the head.
The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four people is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends -- if they're okay, then it's you.
Just remember........if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off.
Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film.
Some people are like Slinkies . . . not really good for anything, but you still can't help but giggle when you see one tumble down the stairs.
It is December 17th! wow. Only 8 days to Christmas. I have so much to do and so little time. I spent all day wrapping presents and didn't get them all done. I have a package coming on the 20th with presents that I will have to wrap, some stuff I ordered on the internet.
I still have my Dad, my Step mother, my brother-in-law, my niece and nephew and grandfather to buy for. I still need to get a couple more things for Christopher too. After wrapping his presents, I noticed he has been shorted.
I think I will either go shopping tonight or go tomorrow after my physical therapy appointment. Friday we are having a dinner party. I always have a dinner party for my friends at Christmas and make a prime rib roast. They all look forward to it every year. It is only 8 of us this year since 2 of our friends moved away. It started out years ago with people in the neighborhood and they have come and gone. Now, it is us remaining in the neighborhood that do this. We have known
Life As I Sometimes Call It
I hate MySpace! The one thing that really, really pisses me off is when you make your profile private and people will bust balls trying to find you. I look at it this way..If I wanted you to find me I would've told you where to look!
I hate men who think just because you are a woman you MUST let him see you naked! Ladies seriously we've all had it happen some penis who thinks he's the hottest thing since pop tarts sends you a message saying "Can I see you naked?"
Where do men come up with their full proof(or so they think) pick up lines? A penis IM'd me the other day with this..."Can I put you on my Christmas list?" Kinda cute...but..GAY!
I hate it when people ask "Is black your natural hair color?" Ummmm have you ever seen a pale ass white chic with natural black hair?" I'm sure they may exist somewhere, but seriously...
I hate it when someone IM's you asking if you're Male or Female..I swear I must look like I have an Adams Apple or some shit cuz I get it all the freaking
I got really sick and havent been on for a while, I know some of you like to talk to me, and probably thought something happened. I'm feeling alot better, and decided to get online again.
I had a physical therapy appointment today. We discussed what she should try on me this time since taping up my shoulder didn't work and my skin reacted to the tape when she did it.
She tried this electrode machine on my back and shoulder to react to the muscles. She left it on for about 20 minutes and it helped a lot. That is until she went to turn it off and she accidentally turned it the other way and shocked the Hell out of me. She felt so bad. It scared the shit out of me. LMAO!
So she ordered me a machine to be sent to my home so I can do it to myself. I was really surprised how much it helped me. She said to do it 1 to 2 times a day to relax those muscles.
Unfortunately she informed me she is pretty sure I have a torn rotator cuff in my left shoulder from back in April when I fell down some stairs in a restaurant! I never have gone in to have it checked and have just dealt with it. I guess I should really have is x-rayed and get it taken care of but that mea
The Life And Times Of A Slave Girl Named Mandy
For only being 20,I have learned a lot as time has gone by.Things dont always turn out they way you want and they never are what you think they are.In one day,your whole life can change.And you wont have a say in the matter.You wont even know what happened.But that is all that it takes.One day for your life to become something else.What seemed to matter to you before,only seems like a childish game in the past.And that is basically all that it was.A childish game.Looking back at my 20 years on this planet, it has had a lot of good and bad times.A lot of ups and a lot of downs.But thats the thing.You have to take the good with the bad.No matter how good something can be, there will always be something bad to follow.Ive put people through things they should have never encountered.Ive made my parents go on trips to hell and back pleanty of times when all they were trying to do was help me out and look out for me.They didnt deserve an eighth of the things they have gone through.I know I ca
I just got back from shopping. It wasn't too busy yet. I got everyone done! Yippeee. I still have one more store to get my son one more thing but all the hard people are out of the way!
I love having a new shopping center in my city. It is so nice and has a good selection of stores. Easy to just run over there and pick up something. They aren't even done building it yet and it is going to be really nice when they are done.
I think after Friday night and all the mess is cleaned up from the party, I think I might want to take the kids to San Francisco Saturday. It is so pretty there this time of year with all the stores decorated and such. It would be great if I could get a reservation for Neiman Marcus for brunch but they would laugh at me over the phone. They book up fast around the holidays. Their restaurant is on the top floor and is in the dome part. Very cool!
Peter plans on going to the 49er football game on Sunday. Then Monday is Christmas Eve. It is all
Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates!!!
Written By: Larry E. Williams
Laying there in bed, all the lights down low
You don't want to see or talk to anyone you know
It seems like yesterday, you held her in your arms
Then you went away like all those other times
Now you're feeling all alone and empty
Like you wanna fade away
Close your eyes and then make time fly
But then, it don't work that way
All your friends trying to help you over
You just wanna be alone
I don't know why that cold wind blows
But there is the thing that I know
Heartaches gonna find you no matter where you go
When you miss the one you love
Sad songs are all you gonna hear on the radio
When you miss the one you love
Gray skies are there to remind you
The blues are never behind you
When you miss your love
I know that you wish you could be with her right now
Living out your dreams, not passing thru this lonely town
And down this travelling road, the only life you've known
You swear you're gonna give it up, but the road goes on and on..
I wanted to game Friday and Saturday nights but that kinda got chopped and screwed. I was horribly irritated and not because of the reason everyone thinks, it’s because of the disrespect of asking someone about gaming for 2 weeks straight and then when we get ready to game NO ONE was into it. Everyone was into something else. Ok so I’m pissed within the first five minutes of gaming. My boyfriend and I were completely clueless; we were there to have fun and to game. Well we’re sitting there and one of my “best friend” is talking about a dream she had about 5 guys and 3 girls, one of the guys happened to be my boyfriend, nothing to do with me, and had his x in it. Well we are gaming, get going about 5 minutes, I run to the restroom come out and my bf’s x is there. So I get pissed. We tried to finish gaming, but everyone’s attention was on her and this dream my “best friend” had. Reason I say “best friend” the way I am is because she was the one that invited her over. My boyfriend and I b
Friend: Calls your parents "Mr." or "Mrs."
Juggalo: Call your parents "Mom" or "Dad."
Friend: Has never seen you cry.
Juggalo: Has the best shoulder to cry on.
Friend: Asks you for your number.
Juggalo: Asks you for their number.
Friend: Will leave you hanging to be with a crowd.
Juggalo: Always has your back.
Friend: Runs for help in a fight.
Juggalo: Jumps in the fight to help.
Friend: Will bail your stale ass out of Jail.
Juggalo: Will be sittin' right next to you saying "That was fucking awesome!"
Friend: Will help you move out of a house.
Juggalo: Will help you move a dead body out of the house.
Friend: Bums you a cigarette
Juggalo: Bums you his last pack
Friend: Is there when you need them
Juggalo: Is there even when you dont need them
Friend: Gets drunk at a party and pukes on your carpet
Juggalo: Feels worse than you do about puking on your carpet in the morning
Friend: Hides you from the cops
Juggalo: Is probably the reason the cops are after you in the fi
Somehow when the system went down today, more than just your shoutbox and bar tab were reset.
It seems that even though your picture ratings have stayed the same and NOT reset, ALL of the people who have rated your pictures are able to re-rate them, and you get full credit for the second rate.
That means that you can also re-rate ANY picture that you had rated prior to the reset this morning... So go back and re-rate your friends, and maybe they will do the same... EVERYBODY WINS!!!!! -- We ALL get credit for the rates we receive, as well as the rates we give
SO MAKE IT HAPPEN PEOPLE!!!!!!
Life N Things
I have been on Fubar for awhile and have made some of the best friends and meant the man of my Dreams, but for the past few weeks Fubar has not been good to me and i need to find out why and why me, I always showed respect to everyone and never been anybody but me Lisa
I want to wish everyone a very MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR
love always Lisa
The day is almost here. Some celebrate Christmas Eve and some celebrate Christmas day. Either way, I hope you all have a wonderful loving Christmas with all of your loved ones.
I have not been on the internet at all the last few days. I have had lots going on. We had our dinner party Friday night with our friends and it turned out wonderful. Everyone had a great time and stayed late. I was a bit out of sorts yesterday, just tired. Peter and I ended up going out to lunch and then some last minute shopping. We were done with our shopping but somehow thought it would be fun to go out with the rest of the idiots! LMAO It wasn't too bad. We just picked up one more item for our kids.
Then we headed over to our friends house and stayed until late over there having fun. Today, Peter is going to the S.F. 49er football game. It will be the last "free" game he will get to go to since my Dad decided to get rid of his season tickets for next year. It was just getting too hard fo
ok well last week me and the girl was have been dateing for a year in a have got in a little fight . i went to work came home and found my stuff packed up.so i moved out and have tryed to csll her but she wont answer do i say screw it and go on . even thow i love this girl with all my heart or do i still give her the xmass gift i got her and try to make up with her.and the outher night i got a privte call on my cell that no one has the number to
Life, Or Something Like It
When you were young, or perhaps even now, did you ever get that overwhelming feeling an anticipation for something. Your birthday, a field trip, or some other thing that you KNEW was coming, but you had to wait for. Thats how I feel right now, stomach wrenching, dizzying anticipation. I feel like I've just mixed every hallucinogen I can imagine, and took a swig/shot of it, a poison.
A month feels an unreachable span of time that will never come to pass, at least not soon enough. This waiting, this wanting, it's already driving me mad and plans were made only a few days past. Will I be completely incoherent after a week, what of two, and three? If only there were a quicker, easier way to make the days count past.
Though, there is one release, seeing those eyes, that face. Despite the distance, it's nice to see him how he is in the passing of seconds, minutes, and hours. Webcams are one of the greatest inventions for that very reason. It's not quite enough, but it's fine enough
1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in.
4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get.
5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much Worse it could be until you quit whining.
6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.
7. When you are sick - - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.
9. This is my oath .... I pledge it to the end "Why?" you may ask; "because you are my friend".
Friendship is like peeing your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel it's true warmth.
Remember: A friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you
so ive been going through alot lately. ive been takin my grandfather to his dr. appt every week and takin care of him daily. on top of that i found out my friend jesse is in the hospital. i dunno what happen to him cuz no one is talkin about it. i'm so worried about him. every time i ask mel if hes gonna be ok she tells me she doesnt know. so whatever happen to him it is serious. hes been in for a week and a half. no one can go see him except his family and mel. so if anyone can say a prayer for him that would be great.
L I F E
Life is such a train.
It has stops and moves
In every stop there are many who join (new born)us and many leave us (death).
We recognize who is setting beside us or in the same car but the train is full of cars.
some people come to our car from different cars and some from our car leave it t other cars. One day we will have to move either to another car or we will leave the train permanently.
That is L I F E
النساء مخلوقــات عجيبــة
If you kiss her, you are not a gentleman
لو قبلتها , تكون رجلاً غير محتــرم
If you don't, you are not a man
ولو لم تقبلها, تكون لست ر
Well, it is all over with. A big huge build up for a month and it lasts one day! Actually, that isn't true because I have been celebrating for a couple of weeks now. It is just such a big let down when it is all over. The 26th sucks!
I look at all those decorations I need to put away and think to myself that next year I won't put out as much as this year. Yea...right!
It is 10pm and I am getting very tired. What a wimp I am. I can't even stay awake past 10pm anymore. LOL I guess that is part of getting older?
My Christmas was amazing. My husband is a crazy man and bought me a Journey diamond necklace for our 20th anniversary that was back in September but gave it to me on Christmas Eve. It is 1 1/2 cts! He hung it from the mantel and kept trying to get me to notice it by lighting a fire, turning on the lights over the fire place and I still hadn't noticed. Then he tells me to light the candles on the mantel and then it caught my eye! I as shocked! It is beautifu
The day after christmas was a very depressing day . I had to wake up with a phone call of the passing of my grandmother. Not very easy to do after christmas was so good. So dont take life for granted.
The world can be a dangerous place.
I was at dinner in Philadelphia with a friend. We finished up around 10 P.M. My friend used the valet, but I parked in a indoor garage. She offered me a ride but I passed because it was only a block and a half walk and she was on a one way street going the opposite direction from my garage.
As I was walking down the street I felt like someone was walking behind me. I looked on the window of a shop across the street and saw the reflection of someone walking quickly behind me. I stayed calm but picked up the pace of my walk (not that I can walk that fast in heels with my short legs). Before I knew it, someone grabbed me from behind. Luckily I was able to react quickly without thinking. I scraped the back of my heel against his shin, slammed the back of my head into his nose and filled him over my shoulder. He landed flat on his butt in a seated position in front of me. I reared back and hit with a roundhouse kick to the temple and he crumpled t
Thursday evening and I am alone in my house with my cat. She is asleep on my bed where she is at all times. I have spent most of my day taking back gifts that didn't fit my kids or the style wasn't right. I had good success at returning or exchanging things. I still have one more pair of pants to return and then I will be done. I figure I will do that tomorrow or maybe if it isn't too late, I can do that tonight?
Peter and the boys will be home tomorrow around noon. They have been at the cabin. He has taken 10 days off of work to just relax. I am sure he needs it.
Hopefully the weather isn't too bad this weekend and he can take the kids up to the snow. Although...they are in the snow right now. Peter called me today and said it is snowing pretty heavy at the cabin. That makes me wish that I had gone with them!!! I love the snow. Or more so the snow and then warming up by the fire with some hot chocolate!
I have spent some time today putting away some of the dec
Ok I am a pretty laid back, open minded girl but I am getting tired of all the same BS every day so, I only ask that you please 1 - Don't send me messages that just say "hi" or "whats up" or "you're hot" or "i want to fuck you" etc. 3- No I don't want to give you my phone number 4- Don't send me pix of your dick. 5- Don't ask me to email you or text you nude or x-rated pix of myself. 6- Don't ask if you can get with me because it ain't happenin. If you don't do any of the above, then I will most likely respond to you & if by some chance u do do these things DON'T expect me to be nice to you! **YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED** Ok so we got to see our oldest son Michael for 15 minutes on Christmas Eve Day cuz I guess my Grandmother had some other things to do...but do we believe that? HELL NO! She just didn't wanna come over so that we could see Michael but we did. I mean this Christmas was not the best Christmas in the world but at least we got to see Michael that's all we care about.
A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust listens to you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need it
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plains thing you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality
i have made many bad decisions
and some good ones
i learn in good and bad decisions
i have put my life on hold for my family
to help them get through the tough times
sometimes it only takes a few days other times it takes years
pain of the heart is very real
being in Limbo for your chil
lifes too short to deal with peoples bullshit. i know most women have issues a lot with men of coarse. lol. don't need to deal with the assholes. they just cause more problems in the long run. I know it may not be easy to just walk away from the situation sometimes cause of certain things. always best to atleast try if your having hardship Ie.. guys beating on women treating ya like shit. not right. most women i know always give excuses to good guys because theyre not interested. or they don't wanna hurt their feelings or not sure. cause ya not use to being in a relationship with a good guy. there are those that like the hard relationships. who knows why. just gotta live life to its fullest and enjoy it for what its worth. don't let anyone get in your way. another note guys are all assholes unless they can prove you wrong. work from there see how it works. never know.
Gosh my days are all so mixed up with Peter being off of work and the kids being out of school. I just realized today is Saturday! I didn't get online at all yesterday. I was quite busy with who knows what? I guess it was important?? LOL
We did buy a new television stand and a bookcase for the family room yesterday. Our old one is getting sent to the cabin since it needs one and we have been looking to replace it for a while now. Peter has spent hours just putting the bookcase together shouting some rather nice profanities as well! Now he is starting on the television stand. I wonder how long this will take him??
It has been so cold here the last few days. It is snowing in low levels here in California. I thought that it might snow here yesterday but it didn't get quite cold enough. :( I want it to snow!
My son got xbox 360 for Christmas and he has been playing it all day. Funny thing is, Peter is really getting into it too and he has always said the games were
When you have quiet a bit of history with someone and about eighty percent of it is bad; why do you think about it so fucking much? I know there are alot of us out there that know the entire situation is wrong but I guess the out come we are looking for may seem that it may follow through. But in the back of our minds way deep down we know that we are just lying to ourselves. Then the questions arise: when is enough, enough?, what is it going to take to realize what the real reality is? You can ask yourself those questions over and over but is thier ever an answer? That certain someone knows how to get in your head and keep you thier and every word that comes out of thier mouth is truthful to you but bullshit to everyone else. So like a dumb ass you stay, you sleep, you buy, you basically do whatever it is they desire but it's gone in an instant and you feel like shit! Then when you actually know your tired of it and just totally loose contact right when your on the right track, they c
Old Age, I decided, is a gift
I am now, probably for the first time in my
life, the person I have always wanted to be.
Oh, not my body! I sometime despair over my body, the wrinkles, the
baggy eyes, and the sagging butt.
And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my mirror (who looks like my mother/father!), but I don't agonize over those things for long.
I would never trade my amazing friends, my
wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair or a
As I've aged, I've become more kind
to myself, and less critical of myself.
I've become my own friend.
I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio.
I am entitled to a treat, to be messy, to be extravagant.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before
they understood the great freedom that comes with aging.
Happy New Year everyone. It has been a rather rough year for me, well not the entire year, just the last several months because of my boys. They have put me and my husband through a lot with school and getting into trouble. It is fixable so I will not worry about it too much. They just need to be put back on the right track.
I started this fubar thing back in February of this year when it was Cherrytap. It seemed like once they changed the name, some of the fun left with the name. I had to change my entire profile and start all over again because of a psycho but it was for the better. Having a 100 friends vs 3,500 friends is much nicer. The most important thing that this site has brought to me is......Martin. We have a very special relationship and hopefully some day we will meet, it is inevitable. Whether it be in this life or the afterlife.
I have also met some other special people as well and have become close friends with them. Kim, Melissa, Jade, and Bart to n
There are moments in your life that make you and sets the course of who your're going to be. Sometimes they're little, suitable moments. Sometimes, they're big moments you never saw coming. No one asks for their life to change, but it does. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who are are....
I was so out of it yesterday! We got home around 1:45am yesterday from the party that I said I was going to only have 1 or 2 drinks at. well....it was more like 4-5. I never felt drunk though and that was over a period of 7 hours so that wasn't bad. We didn't wake up yesterday until 11:30 am! Almost noon. I never do that. EVER.
I spent the entire day doing much of nothing because I was so tired. I did manage to vacuum the floors....with my Roomba robot vacuum cleaner. LOL I think it is my favorite toy. I can't wait for my Scooba. My step mother was supposed to give that to us too but she said they were sold out and she would buy it as soon as they restocked them. The Scooba cleans the floors where the Roomba vacuums them.
Today, Peter went back to work. He has been off for the last 2 weeks! He was very proud of himself because he got his garage cleaned and organized over the weekend. Now if he can only keep the boys out of it, it might stay clean! They love to b
I am sitting here at my desk freezing. I just walked outside to get the mail and it is cold out there! My house says 70 degrees and usually that is warm enough but it sure doesn't feel like 70! I just put my warm fuzzy robe over my clothes. lol
I have been working all day. I got spoiled with being off for a while.
I don't know who reads my blogs anymore besides Martin, Kim and Steve? It seems that because of the stupid info of everyone voting on mumms and so and so left so and so a comment, no one sees any bodies stuff anymore. To me, Fubar has made it more of a pain in the ass to see the things your friends has done. Maybe it is time to start deleting people again. The ones who don't even bother and just use you as a number and points?? They won't notice anyway! haha
I just thought I would take a 5 minute break from work.
Life In General
So once we made it to the residence we went in and got a parking pass for my car, cuz we didn't know how long I was going to have to hang around till the storm let up.
We went up to Scottys room and tried to order pizza but the guy on the phone said they werent delivering. Which was a lie since we seen a delivery guy downstairs when we came in...lol So we headed downstairs to find some food, there is a subway but it looked closed. So we ended up spending like over $20 on junk food, well not all junk, we got a frozen pizza and a small mac and cheese for me. We headed up to the room and we broke the pizza in half and cooked it in the toaster oven... Yum yum!
As time passed we hung out and ate our junk food, and tried to get Megan a cab home. We kept getting the wrong cab company and haveing to try again and again. Eventually we were calling it and I got through on my phone, and she had a cab on the way. It came fairly quick too. It was getting late so Scott and I headed up to his r
i cannot be labeled as this although many of those things has happened in the past......therefore i can just be me. it is not my choice to how i get treated by others...i can only gain the experience needed to understand how to better myself & those around me(if im given a chance). i do not blame anyone or anything that has occured in my life. i have just gained the knowledge to know & understand how to treat people as fairly & without judgment as possible until im proven wrong................
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take alot of pictures, laugh, and love like you've nev
It feels like it should be Tuesday even though it is Thursday. Next week is going to feel like a long week because there is no holiday to break it up. :( Oh well, I will get over it.
Chris starts his medicine to help him wit focusing this weekend. He only needs to take it during the week for school and not on the weekends but his doctor wants him to start it a couple of days ahead of time to get him used to it. He said he should not really feel much but just be able to get everything done he is supposed to. He said it wears off about 12 hours later so he should take it an hour before school starts. I am hoping this helps because he is so smart but just can't sit still long enough to get any work done.
I have been paying bills this morning and working. Oh joy. We spent a LOT on Christmas because of what Peter bought me. I had it all planned out with what we would spend and had the money set aside because we do a Christmas account and then he ended up spending $3200 more t
There are just a few certain people you'll come across in this journey of life whom, indirectly, can allow you growth and improvement of character.
Re them tools, using them gracefully for your own personal growth and maturity.
However, beware the weeds in your garden...
While they intend no personal malice, they will indeed vex you, sometimes in the most bothersome of ways.
Likewise, these weeds impose their own unwarranted, selfish interests upon you, and often, so carelessly impliment a saddening lack of compassion and respect upon your soul.
Stop! Allow them no effect; rid yourself of these weeds as soon as possible and pursue those ardent and worthy assosiates awaiting your hand in this wonderful journey of life.
Be humble; continue to edify and grace others, and watch the vehement come forth... TWENTY NINE LINES TO MAKE YOU SMILE
1.. My husband and I divorced over religious differences. He thought he was God and I didn't.
2 .. I don't suffer from insanity;
Life....live ,luv ,& Laugh
Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So, take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back
I woke up this morning to hearing wind and rain. The news talked about how California was going to be hit hard by many storms over the next 5 days. The rain doesn't scare me, it is the 55 miles per hour winds that scare me!!! It is crazy. It is supposed to get worse. I just hope our roof doesn't blow off our house!
Our pool is full even though it self drains when it gets to a certain level. It is just filling up too fast and it is sloshing around.
My cat is acting crazy wanting outside. I let her outside and then about minutes later I opened the door and she came flying in!
I have so much work to do. January is my busiest month for work. Last night I found out that my stupid step sister has not been doing her part of the job for the last few months which makes me have to do even more this month. Oh well. Even if I have to work 10-12 hour days, I can get it done. Why I ever think she is capable of doing anything is just stupid on my part.
Well, I just wanted to
Ask yourself: If you are an absolute honest person, how are you supposed to survive being yourself in this dishonest world?
It seems to be my experience that the more honest you are, the more burnt and taken advantage of you get!! There are three different results that I can think of right now:
1.) Keep being yourself (the only way you know to be) and continue to get beat down.
2.) Get the hint and learn to be something you're not in order to survive.
3.) Become an introvert, not trust anybody,be paranoid of people, and lose you mind.....give up!!!
I will never understand this world and the cruel people in it.
Is married life for real? I mean you can completely give your whole self to someone and they can care less. When do you finally say enough is enough? Is it possible to love someone so much that you don't even realize how aweful life really is for you? If you are just content in a marriage should you stay? What about sex? If he's not giving it up, how do you know where he's really getting it from? I'm at a loss right now in mine....my new moto for 2008...NEVER MAKE A MAN A PRIORITY WHEN HE MAKES YOU AN OPTION. Just needed to vent a little and maybe see what others have to say about it. Thanks for your time! So here goes yet another 7 yrs of my life down the drain. Why did i even bother. I mean do i set my own self up for failure? Is there truely a man out there that will like me for who i am. I am just going to say that i am done. Life sucks and im done with it all. Ok so only 21 days left in this hell hole they call Killeen, Texas. My marriage is over since hubby decided
What a pain in the ass! Our power went out yesterday morning after I wrote my blog on here. I thought it might be out for a couple of hours. NO! It didn't come back on until about 45 minutes ago. I have never been with out power that long as far as I can remember.
It was a very bad storm wit high winds and lots of rain. It has rained off and on today but the worst is to come tonight and it is supposed to be a 5 day storm. I am worried that I will lose power again.
You don't realize how spoiled we are until we lose something like electricity and phones. Then we act like big babies without them. LOL I am one of them though! At least we have a good heater and it heated up the house pretty fast. Earlier when I had to go to the bathroom, my butt was cold from the cold toilet seat! hahaha Guys have it easy.
So it has been an interesting couple of days. I need to go pick up my son from the movies. Luckily the movie theater didn't lose power. It is quite busy there.
Current mood: good
The Final Analysis
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
...Forgive them anyway!
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
...Be kind anyway!
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
...Be honest and frank anyway!
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
...Be happy anyway!
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
...Do good anyway!
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
...Give the world the best you've got anyway!
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.
1910 - 1997
Loving father of Nigel,
born 3-24-96 and died 6-10-96
Life And Love
here it is a new year already. with all that happened last year, i still have a couple of things to be thankful for. first and foremost, my son alex and rose's daughter erica. and then, of course, my sweet rose. without her, i probabley would have given up already.
when i broke my hand back in august, then lost my full time job working for my uncle after nine years, i thought it couldn't get any worse. at that point, i had lost almost 50% of my income. well, just in time for christmas, my new full time job, which i had been working part time for over a year until i broke my hand, decided to cut my hours in half. merry christmas, huh? so, now i have lost 3/4 of my income.
through it all, rose has been here for me. as frustrating as it has been for her, she has still kept believing in me and continues to encourage me to never give up on my dreams. lately, i guess that i have been withdrawing. it's tough to keep a possitive attitude with all that has gone wrong, but somehow, rose
Sometimes in life, the person you want to be with the most is the person you are better off without. There are some walls you can walk through and some walls you can not. Recently, I have been catching myself walking through walls I can not walk through. People get together everyday. There is no reason I should be alone, but I am beyond doubt sick and tired of the B'S
Well, the power went out yesterday but only for a moment but for some reason, I didn't have internet access all day! Argh. Today is a beautiful cold, crisp day. Sun is shining and no rain or clouds. They say it is supposed to rain again tonight, we shall see.
I have been at the doctors all morning with my son Anthony. He hurt his shoulder and it doesn't seem t be getting better so I took him in. First he saw the doctor, then x-ray and then physical therapy all in one day. We were lucky to get physical therapy because someone just canceled their appointment. They showed him some exercises to do and hopefully that works. If not, MRI and possibly surgery.
Today is my husband's birthday. He is 43 today! I am going to make him a cake that his Mom used to make him years ago. She gave me the recipe before she passed away. I thought that would be nice. I never bake so hopefully it turns out! I also have a doctor appointment at 2:30 so somehow I am going to find time in bet
I am taking a little break from my work for a few minutes. I have been working more then normal lately. A break here and there is nice.
I made a cake yesterday for Peter's birthday and it turned out good! I never bake. When I do, it is always yummy but I always think baking is a pain in the ass. I make these cookies that are to die for but time consuming to make! One time I made a pie that was the best thing we all put past our lips! I made it once and never made it again. I still have the recipe but it was a pain to make the crust by scratch and so on. So....we must live with the memories of the best pie in the world! LMAO!
Peter and I went out to dinner by ourselves since one of our kids was still not home and one of them was at his girlfriends house and the other didn't want to go! Nice kids we have! It was nice just going out to dinner ourselves though. I wanted to make him lasagna, something he loves that I make but I didn't have time. I haven't made it in a
Life And Times
16 hours at work and I'm so tired. Someone tell me why we do this to ourselves?
Well this is my first couple hours here, so please excuse my dull profile. Give me a few days to learn my way around, and in no time I'll have the hang of it. LOL
To all you that come to visit. I will get back to you I promise. In the mean time, I'll go to a corner and try and figure this site out.
Life As I Know It
After going through the hardest 20 years of my life, I have found a peacefulness, something I honestly don't think I have ever felt. I have always lived my life for others, not taking into consideration myself or my well being, always doing for others first. And now, even though my children are #1 to me, I am finding out who I am. I know, about time...
Finding myself has been a difficult journey, one that I will continue traveling on for the rest of my life. I have always been something, for someone... such as : daughter, wife, mother...and along the way I lost Louise, who she was and what she wanted and needed.
I have grown alot, now realizing that I can be all those things to everyone else, as well as being myself. A concept that I thought foreign for so long. I have truly found myself, and what makes me happy, for the first time in my life.
Part of finding myself happened recently. I have realized that my key to happiness is in my own hand, and has been all along.
I have been sitting here on fubar reading and voting on mumms. There is nothing on tv. I wish the writers strike would end! I guess there is laundry to be done and other stuff but I am not feeling very domestic at the moment!
So I have been wasting time reading a lot of silly mumms. I am writing this why? No one reads my blogs anymore but 2 or 3 people. I guess I am boring? Or is it that Fubar has become more superficial? hmm? Maybe the later.
My battery is about to die in my laptop so I will say goodnight in a few minutes.
My stepmother just dropped by to bring Ashton one of her Christmas presents that didn't make it in time for Christmas. It is a Juicy Couture purse and is so damn cute! I think I might have to borrow that one from her. Since she loves to borrow my car, I might just have to borrow her purse! My stepmother told me that she ordered me the Irobot Scooba finally and it should come soon. Another Christmas present that didn't make it under the tree. I am looking forward to getting that one. No more mopping my floors! I am very excited about that. As I write this, my Roomba is in the kitchen vacuuming up the floors! Gotta love it.
My youngest son has a big heart and has a hard time telling people no. He is the kind of person that doesn't want to hurt anyones feelings. He is a lot like my Dad. So this kid that lives in our neighborhood asked him if he can start getting a ride to school with us. Christopher said that I wouldn't mind.
So last Sunday, this man shows up out fron
I used to take it so personal when someone on this site would give any of my pictures a low rate. I always thought it was so rude to rate anything less then a 7. I would get so mad and go in their profile and ask them why they did it. I think only a couple of times people said it was an accident which I can understand. The laptop's touch pad can be a little touchy and I have made mistakes before because you barely touch it and it clicks on something. Sometimes I find myself in someone's profile I had no idea I clicked on it! oops!
Anyway, once I got rid of my old profile and started fresh, I could care less if someone downrates my pictures. It doesn't mean that I am ugly, it just means that they are acting immature and stupid. They are hoping to piss people off because those kind of people live for it. I ignore them or simply just block them right away. I don't go into their profile and rate them low. Why? Because that is what they are hoping for. To lower you to their
Well tonight is my last night in Texas. I am going back to my hometown in Alabama. It may be a few days before I can get back online but I want all my fu friends to know I love you guys.
I am heading out in a little bit to meet a friend for lunch and just wanted to write before I leave. I actually got my ass on the treadmill this morning. It felt like I was walking with a sandbag on each leg. After my neck started hurting 2 months ago, I got out of the habit of walking and the there was Christmas and the treadmill was put up for a month.
I kept saying I was going to start again and finally did this morning. I am going to have to work up to where I was before. Crazy how fast you lose muscle and stamina! I want it back. I bought a book the other day called "You The Owners Manual" by Doctors Oz and Roizen. I am only to about page 57 but it has me motivated. Dr. Oz is the one Oprah has on all the time and he is filled with such great insight to your body.
So hopefully it keeps me motivated long enough to make walking a habit again. Getting into the habit is much harder then to break the habit of exercise!
I am going to go to the cabin this weekend.
I had a really good time this weekend with my friends at the family cabin. We went up Friday night, stopped for pizza on the way and got up there to a freezing cabin. Luckily we had power and Peter built a fire so it warmed up fast.
The kids and guys rode the motorcycles and quads all day long. We ate, drank and played all weekend so it was a good time. Our friends loved it so much that they want to go up there often! My friend Lisa made me promise to go up when they do so I did and hopefully I keep my promise!
The only thing that bothered me all weekend was my son Anthony. He didn't want to go to the cabin with all of those people up there and he was such a mess Thursday and gave us complete Hell Thursday night that Friday when it was time to go, he said he wanted to stay with his friend Jordan all weekend and we gave in. Not the smartest move we ever made.
I was worried I was not going to have a house to come home to when we got back. We have no phone service whi
Life In My Town
Do people ever stop and think,..
when they open their mouth to speak,
that gossip can tear a heart apart,
and make the soul grow weak?
Vicious lies about a friend,
spoken behind their back,
could affect the very life they live,
all because of their attack.
Families could be torn apart,
ones that were solid like a rock,
lies could hurt the children,
cause the truth was never sought.
Kind words are slow to travel,
to bad that's not the case with lies,
like a fire caught up in a windstorm,
they could take forever to die.
How do you convince your lover,
or even a life long friend,
that the stories they've heard of you
no substance do they lend?
Many family's hopes and dreams
have come crashing to the ground,
on account of vicious gossip,
when the truth was never found.
So when you speak about someone else,
make sure you get it straight,
don't even say cutting words.
THE TRUTH SHOULD NEVER BE LATE!*
*Those of you that are this way know who you are
Life Is What You Make It
LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT
They say... Life is what you make it.
So many try to succeed,
but once again get pushed back down,
Having to pull themselves up again.
We fill t.v. with violence,
But we hinder the acts of it,
We fill songs with profanity,
But we yell when we hear the shit.
We fill our schools with policemen,
So children think they're in a bad place,
We tell people to speak only the truth,
But our own truths we can;t face.
We try to help the poor,
But we put up big buildings where the homeless had there homes,
We try to call religion our friend,
But we pray to as many god;s as there are flowers,
I could sit here && talk about the government for hours,
But you would still have your own oppinion.
We sell ciggarettes,
Even though on the back of the box theres a card that says to quit,
People say get off your butt and go get a job,
But the jobs require you to succeed,
But tosucceed you need a job,
There addictions to feed && there are mouths to pay,
so now i am a single newly seperated female and it is kind of hard to get used to living this life. I am still working and maintaining but it is a struggle not to break down and cry knowing that the man that i love doesn't want to have me in his life. He says he doesn't know how to love, he says he wants to be single, something that could have been told to me before i married him and decided to give up my single life...i gave him a ultimatum the second year it was either me or his life in yerington..he said he loved me and wanted a life with me and we got married...now 5 years down the road he doesn't love me?? I don't get that but you know talking to females these days where their men are abandoning them for these whores...i don't feel so alone! I talked to a lady the other day, who has 5 kids and her husband left her for another woman ...i am so glad we never had kids together...and that i am still young enough to move on from this experience to live my life. These women who you see
Wow so just cause I had some experiments with black guys I get shut down by guys on this damn fucking website....seriously guys it's a fuckin site don't get to thinking your going to marry someone off of here or get something serious...it may happen that it can but who knows.. plus WHY IS IT THAT IT'S ILLEGAL FOR A WHITE GIRL TO FUCKING LIKE BLACK GUYS IN A WHITE MAN'S EYES? seriously but it's okay for everyone and their mama's to be sluts and whores... just irritates me sorry had to get it off my chest
*~* me *~*
i am done being made to take the responsibility of others stupidity. not a day goes by i am stuck being left out of the loop of those around me and then when told something at that last minute its my fault for not keeping in touch or asking questions when i am not even included in others thoughts or ideas and what not.
i am sick of dealing with the negativity of those around me, just wish everyone would just finally go fuck and off and leave me the hell alone i have no need to be put thru everyones childish negativity.
i learned to have no need to include myself amongst people who show me no sign of interest of including me in their ideas and plan.
i feel empty within my soul. nothing but darkness surrounds me and no way to find the right path. ifeel coldness grasping its hands around my heart. thoughts and feelings have become anger and frustration. i feel like there is no one to turn to for a hand. silence has overcome me, no one wants to listen everybody is afraid of truth
Life And Happiness
Is it really possible that life and happiness can come together? I am sooo sad and sooo alone. Hello to all my Fu-Friends,
Just wanted to let everyone know that I have been VERY sick for the past 2 days and I will continue to be sick for at least 2-3 days more. I soooo appreciate all the concern and love and friend request. I will return all the love as soon as possible. Please bare with me.
Beautifully Broken January 19th. 1990 had to be the worst day of my life. My best friend,confidant,and the best person you can ever imagine meeting and having the privilage to meet and enjoy, was taken from me and her family, and all the MANY people that loved her. She was so young to leave us, 46 years old. So full of life, having a heart that was big enough to love soooo many people, and was loved back by each person more than she loved. I think back to her last days with us, My son was only 5 months old, and not really realizing anything that was
Love is the emblem of eternity: it confounds all notion of time: effaces all memory of a beginning, all fear of an end.
Love must be as much a light, as it is a flame.
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
And when love speaks, the voice of all the gods makes heaven drowsy with the harmony
"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."
"Love is a friendship set to music."
"You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have really lived, are the moments when you have done things in a spirit of love."
Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it.
No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow.
Love is the enchanted dawn of every hear
you know life can be funny sometimes. like after being married for nine years and all of a sudden your divorced how does that work i mean does the preson just wake up one morning and say i dont love you anymore and leave. Or is it something else i wish i knew, but for everydoor closed another opens i met someone and she is great so i guess we will see where it goes and ill let ya know You know everyone fears the day when one of their parents pass away. Well im no different. It happened o March 9th this year. My mother was 72 years old and have a heart attack due to kemo therpy after recovering from breast cancer.I know that it must have been time for my mom to go but i hate that i had to lose her. I know that she will always know that i love her and miss her. i just need to express my feelings. I LOVE YOU MAMA. You will be missed rest in peace
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Come July it will be four years that I been married ,I've been treated like I'm invisable,disrespected etc. When he was deployed in 2004 I was forced to be homeless because he left with with out money.
I've always been there for him ,I've put him before myself.
Morning of Jan. 3rd ,he had a sever flash back,I couldnt get him to snap out it so I called 911,He was admitted . I went to see him while he was in ICU and also while he was in the mental ward.He has been home for about a week, and been acting like he don't appreciate what I did and treating me invisable.
We did separate, and agree to see other people.He met a female in the area which I don't mind at all ,she was coming and picking him up which I didnt mind that because he was leaving the truck we have home just incase I wanted to go somewhere while he was gone but now her car is "supposively" in the shop. I have a doctors appointment this afternoon that I already reschedule once because he was in ICU,and last night he knew w
Realizing things and acceptance.
Life can play cruel jokes on you. You can be happier than ever and be at your lowest and so hopless a second later. They say you go through shit and you learn and it "makes you who you are". Sometimes I think I don't know who I am anymore. I have a lot to be thankful for. There is nothing I could ask more for . How ever there is no reason for anybody to make this mistake please listen and listen good. ..
LIFE IS TOO SHORT.
Don't take a second for granted. Don't take anything for granted. No matter how small or tedious something may seem , pay close attention because the most memorable the most beautiful things , will be under your nose and go neglected for so long and before long they'll be gone. You'd have missed the single most important beautiful memories you could have had. Take the time to smell the flowers. Stop and breathe realize how precious and fragile you and your life really are. You only live once and make it worth it. The old adage
"life Is Simply To Short"
"LIFE IS SIMPLY TO SHORT"
Well I've learned today that life is actually to short to CARE what people think, and to short to WORRY about what people do, and to short to WONDER what tomorrow holds, and to short to ANALYZE what comes along, and to short to STRESS over the small stuff, and to short FEEL sorry for yourself, and to short to EXPECT anyone to understand, and to short to CHANGE some ones mind, and to short to try and UNDO what has been done, and to short to LOOK for all the right answers, and to short to REASON with the unreasonable, and to short to ARGUE with the ones you love, and to short to FIGHT a loosing battle, and to short to WASTE your time, and most of all LIFE IS "SIMPLY" TO SHORT TO GIVE A FUCK..............................................
I am just so numb today. Last night took a lot out of me. When I picked up Anthony from school, I asked him why he cut school Friday. Of course he lied and said he was at school. I also asked him why he thought it was okay to grow pot in his room. Yes, you read that right. I went into his room to look for my make-up case and I felt one of his cabinets and it was covered with a blanket and warm. I opened up and there was a light shining on a pot.
I told him that he was grounded, no phone and no friends to come over. Peter came home and I asked him where the kids computer was so he started looking for it. He asked Anthony where it was and he said it was in Christopher's room some where. So to make a ling story short, after calling Chris and him not knowing where it is, Anthony comes up with some bullshit story about a guy coming in and stealing it. I know and Peter know that is not what happened. Either he sold it to buy alcohol and drugs or one of his so called friends s
Life In Savannah
I just got back home from telling you goodbye. I heard the stories as to what happened and it passes through my mind. I wish no one had told me the details, but listened to Kenny cause he needed to talk. And you are no longer there for him to go to. I know he will be there for the boys, he can not take your place by no means, but he can support them the way you would want him to. You had your demon, and it seem to never let you go. But that demon is no longer there, God has taken him off for good. I love you so much Billy. The way you could always make a person laugh, the way you were always ready to give a hug to some one if you thought they need it, and the way you were quick to stand up for your family. You never denied who you were and never lied about the things that you did. if you did it, you were man enough to say you did it. Aside from that demon, you were a great man, and we all know it. You are with God now, and he is keeping you safe. He took yo
Life And Love
Love is kindLove is patient Love is strongLove is.Love is ToughLove is softLove is TenderLove is.Love strict Love is leneiantLove is obedientLove is.Love is cool Love is refreshingLove is clear Love is.Love is actionsLove is wordsLove is silentLove is.Love is hereLove is ThereLove is everywhereLove is.Love is yesterday Love is today Love is tomorrowLove is.Love is foreverLove is togetherLove is apartLove is.Love is gained Love is lost Love is foundLove is.No matter what it is Love is here, today, foreverLove is found, everywhere, togetherLove is Love in my eyes. I sit here on my 26th birthday looking around at everything that has been accomplished and all that is still left unfinished. I ask myself, are you happy? You know what, I cant even answer that. I have thrown myself into something that could be great, or could fall apart under the pressures of its own self. Why have I done this? To hide from everything that i
so the only reason why im getting out of bed tomorrow is for the fact that i have an interview at anchor blue but if i didnt i would be in bed all day cause tomorrow it would have been 2 years since my grandma died the only good thing about next week is that i get to see my friend Corey cause i havent seen him in 3 years but other then that its going going to blow i truly dont have to see my most of my family next, i know i cant deal with there shit this year, im already having a hared time dealing with the my grandma's death, i would have been able to deal with them this year but im not due to the fact that the one person i was counting on being there with me just broke my heart by dumping me
so this last week has been one crazy week for me i went to Oregon for the first time, that was great we went up there to work on stuff for Laura"s wedding, it was great being able to see lil grandma and grandpa (i think its been about 3 years since i seen them last) i have some photo's up
Life And Its Twist And Turns
it is crazy how life has its twist and turns and it seems so unfair sometimes…he loves me so much and with all his heart and i once loved him the same, but now i don’t want anyone. i need time to heal ya know become a better person and work on the things that i have wanted to work on for a couple of years.(after 5 pregnancies i need to get my ass back in shape, if anyone wants to be my trainer i am game lol) but i miss how he use to pull me close and just kiss me for no reason.. he brought my girls over today and i love seeing them i posted pics of mariah and me together…i love the girls so much and i miss them. i wanted to go to GA cause i feel like i am falling apart and i need somewhere to escape to…but i cant bring myself to leave the girls..i finally cried for a brief moment something i fuckin NEVER do (well i did yesterday, but it was only for like 5 minutes lol) and he held me for the first time in a long time, and i was glad to have a friend but i cant go back all we do is arg
Life As A Sub
I was just wondering if there is any other uncollared subs out there. My Master gave me the task of finding an female sub for another Master. If you are an uncollared sub, please hit me up and let me know if you would like a Master.
Will hopefully know later today or tomorrow if house has sold. The past two weeks have been especially hard on me. Listing my home for the past nearly 30 years because we lost it, ending a marriage of nearly 30 years(been together over 30 1/2), and having the man I fell in love with stop talking to me.
Packing up and tossing 30 years of things accumulated with love because the love is gone on both our parts, is harder than I expected. With no help from my children its as if they either can't wait for me to be gone or are hoping it isn't going to happen, makes it even harder.
To lose a blossoming love just was the kicker that has me even in more of a funk. We used to talk for hours and its now been over a week since he told me goodbye because he thinks this is what is best for me is killing me. There are days I don't even want to go on.
I am happy, i got a job with the post office that I have been after for awhile now. I do not got a start date yet but the job is mine, yay better pay =) As some of you may know I bought a choc lab puppy and was supposed to pick it up today (22nd) I called them yesterday to confirm pick up and found out she died. Sad day for sure. Luckily I got my deposit back and I found a male black lab, I will get him Monday. Will be sure to post pictures
Life 4 Days Of The Week ..
The Corrections Officer's Creed
Current mood: cold
The Corrections Officer's Creed I walk through the gate of wrought iron, under arbors of razor wire. The clanging shut of all the gates, is the start of my day. Wondering some where deep in my mind if I will walk out the same way. Voices raised in anger, are the first words of my day, garbage flying down from the tiers reign upon my head. Words of hate and ridicule are their daily song. Why you here boss man? What did you do wrong? Not a blessed thing Human rights are a funny thing, guaranteed to us at birth. But as a guard within these walls, I am sorely hurt, I am spit upon, and cursed out loud. Have urine thrown upon me. All of this is by the ones, the government says should not be free. I guard the lowest of earth's scum, the guilty and the judged. Who have more rights than me. I spend my life as a free man, yet behind these walls of concrete and steel is where I am condemned to be. And all for the simple reason the inmates
Life Before Computers
A Poem by an Old Timer
A computer was something on TV
From a science fiction show of note.
A window was something you hated to clean....
And ram was the cousin of a goat.....
Meg was the name of my girlfriend
And gig was a job for the nights
Now they all mean different things
And that really mega bytes
An application was for employment
A program was a TV show
A cursor used profanity
A keyboard was a piano
Memory was something that you lost with age,
A CD was a bank account
And if you had a 3 " floppy
You hoped nobody found out
Compress was something you did to the garbage,
Not something you did to a file
And if you unzipped anything in public
You'd be in jail for a while
Log on was adding wood to the fire
Hard drive was a long trip on the road
A mouse pad was where a mouse lived
And a backup happened to your commode
Cut you did with a pocket knife
Paste you did with glue
A web was a spider's home
And a virus was the flu
I guess I'll stick to m
Life-- Or What Lack There Of Lmao
alright, so i bombed out on an audition that i got begged into doing when i wasn't at all prepared.
at first i was broken, musics the one thing ive always been good at.
But i've picked myself back up.
I've just come to the realization that i just can't do that screamo shite, that nu-metal crap.. i like to actually sing.
So rather then wallow in self pity, I'm going to do the smart thing.
I'm going to go record a demo of some of my songs and use myspace to network.. hopefully someone will respond.
there is life after a failed audition lol Ok, so current status so angry at my boss i cant sleep,
I've been loyal to this small ass company since i got the job, and i just found out a girl whos been there since august is getting a raise.. me getting one.. haha funny not fucking likely.. oh and not to mention my boss wont give me more than 3 shifts so that she has a fall back someone who has room for more hours.. so because im the most dependable employee im shorted hours so if s
life is how you make it not how people make you.
some poeple try to change others but they dont look at there selfs as well. so here to the judgers ,,,look at urself before saying something that you might regret cause you my end up on the other end one day. then what do you have to say then???????????????
i hate judgers. there is only one judge in my life that is THE MAN UP STAIRS.
be urself not a fake or how someone wants you to be.
The Life Of Jenny
Okay, for those that are curious about what happened that caused the plane crash, here goes..
My daddy and stepmom always brought fresh fruit with them to Paradise Bar Lodge. Daddy loved the homemade strawberry shortcake that the cook always made for him with the fresh strawberries he would fly in. He would share with another lodge on the other side of the river that was owned by the same people.
Before he left, he asked a pair of lady hikers if they wanted to go on a quick trip with him and my stepmom to the other lodge. (Daddy loved to give rides and share the gift of flight.) They said yes, so off they went.
To understand what happened, you need to look at the pics of the Rogue River that I have up. It's in what's called a box canyon. The canyon is very narrow and difficult to fly. Daddy had flown that area for over 15 years, so he knew what to do, when to do it.
Apparently, from witness accounts, he was flying very low over the river. (I must say that was very sur
Life In The Sand
Do ppl really care that I am out in the sandbox... or has everyone just gave up on us out here .... The Truth is that it is the hardest thing in life to be out here and see great ppl leave this world to soon... But Like i always say at least they went with god... And rember All gave some but Some Gave All How do ppl really know what we feel out here... When the news never really talks to anyone but the big guys.... But it is all good... Soon everyone will be happy when we all come home
Life With Unblind Eyes
You say that you love me
But you are not sure
For you even doubt your own feelings
From within your Heart and Soul
You live in this world
Letting your mind control
Over your Heart and Soul
Not truly living at all it seems
The very mind you have
Can lie to you all the while
Unlike that Heart and Soul
Hidden deep within your very being
Come and see what I mean
To live with your Heart and not your mind
To truly be free and blessed
Within this world and realm
Granted living as I do now
May cause you some heartache and pain
But in living life this way
You are no longer clouded and blind
Open up your Heart
Let it see past your mind
Threw renewed eyes and light
To the purest joys of the night
Rejoice in this new found happiness
For that is what it is and will become
A life with out anymore lies
A life to live to the fullest of times.
Life With Unblind Eyes
You say that you love me
But you are not sure
For you even doubt your own feelings
From within your Heart and Soul
You live in this world
Letting your mind control
Over your Heart and Soul
Not truly living at all it seems
The very mind you have
Can lie to you all the while
Unlike that Heart and Soul
Hidden deep within your very being
Come and see what I mean
To live with your Heart and not your mind
To truly be free and blessed
Within this world and realm
Granted living as I do now
May cause you some heartache and pain
But in living life this way
You are no longer clouded and blind
Open up your Heart
Let it see past your mind
Threw renewed eyes and light
To the purest joys of the night
Rejoice in this new found happiness
For that is what it is and will become
A life with out anymore lies
A life to live to the fullest of times.
My life in a nut shell... well love to party... if you didn't already guess. I grew up in foster care and it sucked. I Love strippers and computers. Online Web Cam strippers and me... a perfect match. lol. I luv strippers. If you become my friend I'll let you check out my stripper girl... supplies limited so join now... jk... and for the ladies reading this... I'm not a total prev... well maybe I am!!! I've been in college only a short time and it's a headache. By the time this spring comes around I'll be a Sophomore. My major? Radiology my first choice after that I would have to say medical. I don't want to spend all this time in college and come out not making any money. Gotta have some green in my life. I love having material things like my 35$ hat, my 1,500$ laptop, but my friends on fubar: Priceless
Life And The Way I Feel Right Now
So i haven't posted a blog in a long time. So i am updating everyone. I'm sitting at home trying not to cry, things are so hard and it really freakin sucks. I moved back to Ohio around the 2nd week of October from Florida damn that was stupid of me.. Anyways, i get here and i talk to you guys and get to know them what i think is pretty well only to be shot down because i am not the barbie doll type of girl. I am not skinny and i'm not huge either as of right now i need to lose 20 pounds but i'm am going to lose 30 maybe even more. I joined a gym about a month ago so i have been working out 4 days a week. I wanna get to the perfect body size that all guys seem to wanna have.I get to talking to awesome guys and then when i meet them i'm not good enough. I am a good person and i treat everyone with respect. All that i ask for is trust, loyalty, honesty, and a friend maybe more from there. All that i want out of a guy is to be loved nothing more or less and i feel that right now that's lik
Robin Williams, wearing a shirt that says "I love New York " in Arabic.
You gotta love Robin Williams......Even if he's nuts! Leave it to Robin Williams to come up with the perfect plan. What we need now is for our UN Ambassador to stand up and repeat this message.
Robin Williams' plan...(Hard to argue with this logic!)
"I see a lot of people yelling for peace but I have not heard of a plan for peace. So, here's one plan."
1) "The US will apologize to the world for our "interference" in their affairs, past & present. You know, Hitler, Mussolini, Stalin, Tojo, Noriega, Milosevic, Hussein, and the rest of those "good 'ole' boys", we will never "interfere" again.
2) We will withdraw our troops from all over the world, starting with Germany , South Korea , the Middle East , and the Philippines . They don't want us there. We would station troops at our borders. No one allowed sneaking through holes in the fence.
3) All illegal aliens ha ve 90 days to get their affair
My granfather past away on the 27th of December.I spent my whole life around him.He was my hero and my best friend. A day before he past away I was in the floor working on a paper with my laptop. My granfather got in the floor and was wondering what I was doing and wanted to learn something about computers.He being 85, I was afraid he would get down and could not get up.He always acted as if he was alot younger than he really was. The Wednesday before Christmas I went to do a little more last minute shopping when my phone rang, My granmother screaming please help me.I dropped everything and ran out the door. My life changed at that moment. He had a stroke and was dead before I got home.I never got to tell him I loved him.. Always live life as if it was your last.Things could be taken away from you when you least expect it........
I am just tired of B.S. Life just suxs. Nothing seems to be going right since October. Frickin depressing as heck. Oh well, I will get off my soap box now!
I used to sit at the edge of darkness, wondering what it held. Now it envelopes my every move. Day by day it pushes on every side of me. It wants to take me away but I won’t let it, I fight back. The fighting gets harder with every tick of the clock. The people, the love are all gone yet the darkness stays. It is becoming my blanket, my security, it will not leave me. The tears open the way for the darkness to grow stronger. It is too powerful to fight alone, yet I bring it upon myself, I choose to be alone, to suffer and to let it win. I want to fight but it is becoming to hard. The heart and soul have been torn to pieces, the mind, the body are no longer awake. The death of all parts is the punishment of love. To care, to give, is to die alone. The fleeting feeling of happines is doomed to the agony of lonlyness. The heart bears the burden of loss while the mind searches for the answers. There are no answers for the mind and in truth all love is lost for the heart. Life ha
Woman and a Fork
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things 'in order,' she contacted her Pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes.
She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in.
Everything was in order and the Pastor was preparing to leave when the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her.
'There's one more thing,' she said excitedly.
'What's that?' came the Pastor's reply.
'This is very important,' the young woman continued. 'I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand.'
The Pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing
quite what to say.
That surprises you, doesn't it?' the young woman asked.
'Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request,' said the Pastor.
The young woman e
through out life you are constantly presented with choices. decisions you must make, and only you can make them weather they are as mundain as picking what to where, or a searious thing like choosing a carrear or decisions in your love life. which ever the case may be all you can do is go with your gut and hope it is right.
now in my life i have made more bad decisions then good. now dont get me wrong i am not trying to braig or make it seam like i am proud of them in any way. when i look back on my life now there is more regret i see than anything else. there are so many people i have hurt and so many things that i have done wrong.
most of my life i spent chasing the next high, the next piece of tail, and my next easy paycheck. never worring about who i hurt on the way there or what i had to do to get there.
now it wasnt till this last year that i really started thinking about these things. and really began to think about life and what i want from it. and more
My exhusband and I have been friends since we split up aout 7 years ago. For the most part it has been amicable which is great since we have a daughter together. During the first four years of our split she lived soley with me and occasionally saw her father (no child support, occasionally he would pay for school lunches). A little over three years ago I moved in with him temorarily to help both of us get on our feet. we were not back together, at the time I was actually dating someone else. Anyway, when I moved out we gave my daughter the option to stay there so she could continue going to the same school or to move with me. She chose to stay there. Over the past 3 years I have seen her tons with the exception of the last year. Now everytime I call or try to stop by to pick her up she is never home. My ex has been letting her just run the streets. He never tells me where she is so I can pick her up from there. So a couple of weeks ago her and some friends of hers trashed a vacant hous
Will you give this to my Daddy?
As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support 'Red Fridays.'
Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I
was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me
beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed
one of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen.
Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they
began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone)was abruptly
to their feet with their hands waving and cheering.
When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and
cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded
American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their
Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young
unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so
we can go to school, work and home wi
One day a woman's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in
The warmth of their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning
that sometimes there isn't anymore. No more hugs, no more special
Moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more "just
One minute." Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and
Goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, or say "I love you."
So while we have it, it's best we love it, care for it, fix it when
it's broken and heal it when it's sick. This is true for marriage .. and
old friendships .. and children with bad report cards, and dogs with bad
hips, and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are
worth it, because we are worth it.
Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved away or a
classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that make us happy, no matter
Life is import
Life Is Short
well last night i tried to kill myself...i tried to end it all...ive been havin a lotta personal problems...so now im sitting in the ICU...under 24/7 watch...i was found last night at 12am...unresponsive and near dead...im sorry all...but i just needed to go....i just wanted yous to know the real me...here it is...all fucked up...is you wanna knoa me...here it is...open and exposed... In the wake of the young Heath Ledger..
23, died Oct. 31, 1993, from a drug overdose outside of the Viper Room in Los Angeles. River was a promising young star who made his mark in Stand By Me.
Brandon Lee, 28, died March 31, 1993, after accidentally being shot on the set of "The Crow" in Wilmington, N.C. The son of a legend, Bruce Lee, he was also a rising young star who played the lead role in The Crow.
Four weeks before his death, Cobain attempted suicide in Italy, leaving him in a temporary coma, widely reported in the media at the time. Kurt Cobain's body was discovered on April 8, 199
So, i'm down here visiting my gurl charity.. having a blast i might add. i cant remember the last time i laughed so hard and so much. It sure is nice to get away from everything once in a while. it seems though i never leave the house and i'm always demanded upon. I ve been seriously contemplating leaving my home and starting a new life here in tennessee. things here sure would be different. sometimes different is good.
sometimes life has a funny way of making us look at things differently.I was just recently diagnosed with being diabetic. so life has taken a sharp unexpected turn on me. Its interesting.
eh.. i'm strong i'll find a way thru this tough time even if i have to pave my own way. sometimes it would be nice just to have it easy.
Life In General
I posted a mumm today and have received MANY votes and comments on it. And I have to say that several of the comments from the guys impressed me! Gee... why can't you all be around here instead of all over the US? Not meaning A THING bad about it, but some of the guys gave advice and left comments that sounded like my 'sensible minded' friends. Stop and think shit. Maturity and all. I know, not all guys and men are like that in the world, but it's nice to find out that PERFECT STRANGERS are level headed out there. One even suggested something that I hadn't thought about that I am going to do. And it solves the whole situation, too. So this is ME - - giving PROPS where PROPS are DUE! Hats off to you guys out there for showing me, and anyone reading my mumm that there are GENTLEMEN left in this world!!! Well, it's been one hell of a week for the last seven days to say the least. Just about everything I touched turned to ashes instead of gold, lol. But I think I may finally be on an upsw
For over 7 years, Regina Brett was a columnist at The Beacon Journal in Akron , Ohio . During that time, she was diagnosed and successfully treated for breast cancer. Regina is now a columnist for The Plain Dealer in Cleveland , Ohio .
Lessons in Life By Regina Brett
To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written.
My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here's an update:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to choc
You have to take the good with the bad
Smile when you’re sad
Love what you’ve got
And remember what you had….
Always forgive but never forget,
Learn from your mistakes
But never regret
Things go wrong
Life goes on!!
Life Is Funny
ok to start this off.life has its ups and downs. you have good times and bad times,it just seems that the bad is always there more than the good. and why is that did you ever wonder wht that is. take relationships for instance.in the beging everything is cloud 9 , the air is crisp and clear, sun shines more bright and colorful than ever,you see life as the most awsome ride of your life. then when things get rough and you (2) dont fix them it can start to get dull in the air and the sun gets dull and life turns dull. what i have learned is that one person gets blammed for everything , now is that really fare? then as time goes by so does the distance between these (2) that in the beging every breath that person took you wanted to taste it because that was how much you loved that person, now that breath they take is a bitter taste to you.in ending if you have the ups and downs in a relationship you both should fix because if its left for one person to do it than its not a relationship no
Life is like a jigsaw puzzle u may have the pieces. The challenge is to put those pieces in place to make it all work out.
Life's A Mess
OK as some of you know we lost our house thanks to my husbands recent jobs. Its on the market and been spending a lot of time on house and djing as we've lost a lot of djs :(. If I haven't been showing y'all the love u deserve I apologize. Just doesn't seem to be enough time during the day and I can only stay awake so long. Trying to keep up with comments and friend requests is about all I'm managing. Some days I'm lucky and can actually post comments b4 I receive them this week will be spending a lot of time sorting through not only the stuff for moving sale but getting stuff onto ebay in the hopes of making some real money, in the hopes of doing some work on the house and maybe upping the price on the house or enough to JUST get it sold. My brain can only handle so much and I guess at the moment its on overload. So IF I ignore you or don't show the love I know you deserve please forgive me
Was admitted yesterday to st joe's hospital room 1501 will be having surgery i broke my c1 which is putting pressure on the base of my brain and i have a severe spinal compression and i'm not to move even coughing could paralyze me surgery will today.
My surgery went well, I have my whole neck fused. I had busted open the origianl fix in my neck and the screw came withing 1.6millimeters of severing my spinal cord. I do finally have freelings in my arms and legs. and I feel 110% better than I did when I first got here. I do know who wrecked me whihc was a stalker of mine, he is one of the reasons I got myself the gun. anyway thank you all for thinking of me.
had C1 to C6 fused and repair of my spinal cord that came within a 1.6 millimeter from severing on my original cage that was in my neck that blew apart during the accident
they had to reopen me up and take out the drain that was draining fluid from around my spinal cord and from the sac around my brain stem and tighten up the sc
Do you ever wonder why you do things .Why you keep trying or just being nice.I only ask for people to be honest and truthful dont make excuses for things you dont want just be honest and upfront with me.But i guess that is not meant to be kinda starting to like the look of a long lonesome highway just wanted to let you all know i am ging to be away a few day and wont be on hate that i wont be leaving yall comments and showing my love i really do love all yall and will be back next week hey everyone i am going thru some things with me the job and health things i will be back soon so dont forget me and i love all the things yall leave see you back soon and i love you all
So I have always had this fear of driving since my kids were born. Now its gotten worse. There are so many bad drivers out there.
There are so many people that don't think when they are driving. For example, I was taking my kids home from their friend's and this truck just pulls out and cuts me off! I was going straight, so obviously i had the right of way. They even had a stop sign. I guess they were in a hurry or just didn't care. These are the kind of drivers that make me mad.
Even worse are the ones that speed. I guess they get some kind of thrill from it? I don't understand why people have to race each other either. Is it for the competition? For example, in front of my work last week there was a bad accident. It was a Mercedes and a motorcycle. They thought they could beat each other. Well the man on the motorcycle died almost instantly(went through the windows of the car) I don't know what happened to the other driver.
The worst kind of bad drivers are the ones that dri