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Life And A Can Of Beer...
LIFE AND A CAN OF BEER...
When things in your life seem almost too much to
handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar ------and the beer. A
professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began,wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into thejar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the
jar was full. The students responded with a
unanimous "yes." The professor then produced two
cans of beer from under the table and poured the
Here I sit in a hotel room hundreds of miles from home with nothing but my thoughts.I spent today at Asistencia Rehabilitation Center with my 93 yr old Grandmother watching her go from bad to worse b4 my eyes. 1 week ago they drained a quart of fluid from her lungs.....they believe it contained cancerous material but will not make a diagnosis because of her age. They say chemo at her age is unnecessary. Who are they to decide when her life should end. Tomorrow they xray again and Monday we find out if she will recover or if they medicate her and send her home with hospice. As i sat there and watched 4 generations bustle around the room it hit me....this one GREAT WOMAN is the glue that holds our extended family together....what happens when she is gone? She lived a long beautiful life and I believe she is readt to let go, why can't my family let go? I wish they would let her go in peace.......
Sorry to all my friends that have been wondering about whee the hell Ive been. I have been so busy with school and my mother in law dieing its been real rough. but im back and have missed fubar.....-smiles- so hit me up anytime i will respond now.
People are unreasonable, illogical and self centered
Love them anyway
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives
Do good anyway
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies
The kindness you show today, will be forgotten tomorrow
Be kind anyway
Honesty and frankness will make you vulnerable
Be honest and frank anyway
The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind
Think big anyway
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight
People really need help, but may attack you if you help them
Help people anyway
The Life And Times Of Just Another Asshole In The Crowd....
Your results:You are Apocalypse
You believe in survival of the fittest and you believe that you are the fittest.
Click here to take the "Which Super Villain are you?" quiz... Your results:You are Batman
The emptiness and darkness is returning,
that lonely feeling; the heart is burning.
Once, I pushed those feelings away,
they were gone for awhile, they're back today.
This time could be the end for me,
I could finally be gone-my sad soul set free.
The empty hollowness in my chest gone forever,
could it happen? please? no-never!
I was so happy for a long time there,
the pain disappeared, ran off somewhere.
It didn't go too far, found its way back,
right when my life was finally on track.
Finally I've come to a harsh conclusion,
all my hopes and dreams have been an illusion.
So much heartache, pain and strife,
what I want is to end this life.
That won't happen, I'm not brave enough,
tell me why this life has to be so rough.
Your help, dear Lord, is what I need,
nobody knows how my heart does bleed.
Everything’s piling up, I'm quickly sinking,
no rope to grab is what I'm thinking...
Within this twilight world
Lies emptiness and hate
I seek an epic journey
In the past two weeks I have had the life from hell I've never been so terrified, so depressed and in so much pain, I have gone from chilled and high to depressed and suicidal, changing every hour, its like being on an emotional roller coaster, certain people have made it worse than it should have been but hey ho.
Anyway, throughout this all there have been a few people who have been very nice to me and they know who they are and I'd like to thank them...
theres one person inparticular who I'd like to mention... who has shocked me and made me think beyond anything. He has totally made himself noticeable in my life above anyone else and has given me the most emotional experience ever. So yes... I would like to thank my ex, Rich who rather than just saying things, rather than stressing me out, he has gone and done something that is so kind and (add posh word here that means doing something for someone else without expecting anything in return... like unselfish but a damn
will always be just a lay because I don't know what u want in life I make guesses,e when it comes to life is that what u want ? IM just the lay !That is want life is ! If It is just a lay then its the game of life
Do u really want to be played? Ore is it just love what you are looking for If its the game of who fucks who ! Why does it hurt so much why when I have some one in my life you all seem to care about my feelings?
When IM not with anyone no one care about my feelings
Why does everyone show up at the same time ! What is it IM that dam good all u people want some of what everyone wants that is me? IM not just the lay I get in five mints it take a lot more ! As you all know in not the minute man its take a long time u all get off Meany time when it it my turn? I know that its my true when you tell me you can't go any longer and I still don't get my true to let it go inside you so I just give up I have give you all what everyone wants but all I can say when is it time
last tues i lost my mate of ten years she went in sun with a heart attack was kept on life support ,she fought to recover but at 2:30 a.m lost the battle she was 72, since her death i,ve been working on dealing with never seeing her again or hearing her voice , i,m getting better day by day but i know i have a long road ahead, i,m gratefull for all the support i,ve gotten from friend and strangers online it helps the recover process alot.
As many of you know, I've been spending alot of my time with my grandmother who has alzheimer's and is rapidly slipping away. The last 2 weeks, she has gone downhill very quickly, and we're trying to find a solution to all of this that will work for her. She can't be left alone anymore due to her confusion, and, we can't get her into a home right now. My mom is up from Mississippi to stay with her until the end of the week, and then I will be going there with my kids to stay as well when my husband starts his work cycle again.
This whole situation has been very rough!!! I was raised by my grandparents, and I owe my life to them. Grandpa passed away in 2005, and now, seeing this happen to my grandma is horrible. I just feel helpless! I know that many people have it alot worse than I do, but it's just tough to see somebody you love slip away in front of your eyes.
Thanks for reading this, and I'll try to get on here when I can to say hi to our friends!!!
Life In The Fu-future
Well, as most can tell, this is my first time around the Fu-tastic world of Fubar, and I am making the most of it. Aside from the corny jokes I make about it, things seem to be shaping up, thanks to my brother Wiccan Crystal and my sister DJ Snow Dragon aka DJ Lady Lestat.
But, I do warn you, sometimes I wont be such a pleasant Gypsywolf to be around. As typical of my breed, we tend to overshadow our niceness with our humongous attitudes,so please bear with me if I seem un-Gypsylike.
Oh and if you want to get to know me outside of Fubar, just ask me for my IMs and we'll see how things go from there, mkay? Mkay.
Have fun, Fubar fans.
Life In The Day Of A Soldier
You can never judge a day by the sweat upon your brow, for you never no when you will sleep or eat again. People say they care about what happens over here but they honestly dont want to know the truth of what happens in a third world country.
Yet war is an animal in itself com=nsuming the meek and meager, once you se foot on ground and se the things that we see you will never be the same. you never will talk about it for fear of what you may hae become. you only hope that life will be kind and let you forget the events of your past.
Why does our country send us to a place we are not wanted, why are we here t help people who dont even want to help themselves and why are we met with such resentment and regret when do give all we can to these iraqi people.
your tired and hungry and you want to go home, when will it all be done, when will our time come. will it be the end, or must we all do it over and over again. what good have we done
Well I have done a lot of soul searching here the past few weeks. In doing this I have realized a lot about myself and my life. My happiness is due to the choices I make in life. Bad ones make life not so great and good ones make it effin awesome. I realize I have made some pretty bad choices in my life these past few years. I have beaten myself up a great deal for it. I have talked to a few of my newly found friends and realizr that I am only human. I make mistakes. They have also made me realize that I am a pretty awesome, sexy, smart, and funny woman who is one tough cookie. That everyone makes mistakes and that if people judge you for them than they suck and are not worth my time. Or are they worthy of my friendship, my heart, or time. For to long I have allowed people to use me, miss treat me, and make me think I am the most aweful person in the world. Well I'm not. I am caring, loyal, strong, happy, and really just an awesome chick. If people can't see that and get over the past
Life And Death
Today was the funeral of my favorite aunt. She was a staple in this town, always there to lend a hand to anyone who needed one. She watched my youngest daughter every day after school for years and never took a dime, she didn't want my money, I was her niece!! Special lady and she will be missed. As I spent the last couple days at the funeral home and at the funeral and saw the 100's of people who came to pay their respects, I made contact with old friends, and family I haven't seen in years; it made me think that someday my friends and family would be gathering like this for me, and it made me wonder if I have been the type of person that my aunt was. I hope so, for sure. I know this is the computer, and I have not met most of you in person, but some of you, you know who you are, have touched my heart and I know my life is greater because of our conversations and relationship/friendship. I just felt the urge to let you all know that I care about you, on line friendship or not.
Have no fear, for when I'm alone, I'll be better of than i was before, I've got this life, I'll be around to grow, who i was before, i can not recall, long night's allow me to feel I'm falling. I am falling, the lights go out, let me feel i am falling, i am falling safely to the ground. i am, i will take this hole that,s inside me now, like a brand new friend, i'll forever know, I've got this life and the will to show, I will always be better than before,........... long nights allow me to feel i'm falling, i am falling the light's go out, let me feel i'm falling, i am falling safely to the ground.
The Life Of Me
I haven't posted a blog in a while but I never had anything interesting to blog about. I know one thing though, I am miserable! July 20th 2008 I married a man whom I thought was sincere, honest, and respectful. Boy was I wrong! Almost a year later... He never takes anything seriously unless it could threaten his career, he doesn't respect me at all. he acts like a fucking child! I'll tell him not to touch me in certain areas but he'll do it anyway thinking it's a game. He calls me names, he'll even use suicide and our 1 1/2 month old son as a form of blackmail and threats! just yesterday I asked my husband if he could pick up some formula for the baby because he was running out. My husband then asked me what I wanted for dinner and just because I said "I don't know" he said "well I guess Gabriel (our son) won't get his formula and will starve because you don't know what you want to eat" I hung up on him pissed off because he's constantly using the "because you won't eat he won't" threa
I am on my to start my vacation and party with friends. I can't wait, it has been a hard last year. I have lost so many people in the last year that I think it is time to go and have fun. See everyone when I get back.
Ya know when you reach that first turning point in your life where you wonder if it really doesn't get any better? I am so there. I have just recently taken a look at my life and wondered... What else is there? With the economy going down the toilet and absolutely no freaking jobs available anywhere, what the hell am I going to do for the rest of my life? I have no idea, and then you wait a few years and you get your "groove" back and things are going good. Then you hit like 30. And life as you know it has ended. You wake up, eat, go to work, come home, eat, go to bed and then do it all over again. For another 15 years. Then your 45, then you don't know what the hell you are doing. You are old and decrepid and senile. Hahaha. Then you enter the retirement stage of your life... And if you were smart and started saving when you were young up until the day you quit working you will probably be set for the rest of your miserable life on this miserable earth. But if you were stupid and didn
I am frustrated, tired, and just generally ready for some peace in my life. I was separated from Jared for a bit, but decided to work stuff out and I am beginning to feel he does not want the same thing. Take today for instance....
So today I had a doctor's appointment at Walter Reed and they pretty much told me this Med board thing was going to take awhile. They want to try this medication on me to see if it helps alleviate some of the symptoms I have. They are putting me on Tegretol which is the same thing my brother uses for his seizures. Well anyhow they want to evaluate me on it and take some video of me and take it to some movement disorder clinic and well there is a lot happening and like I said it was going to take awhile. To top it off the only doctor who specializes in this is located at Walter Reed, which yeah that is great but leaves me stuck here for awhile. Well I am stressed. Seriously wondering if anything is going to work out in my marriage. And Jared who f
Now I lay myself down to sleep
The lord I pray my soul to keep
If I should die before I wake
Then I will know I will not break
Will you be there when I get back
For I know you will cut me no slack
Dare I ask what you will do
If I come back all askew
You have no right to tell me why I should stay
But I know you will keep me at bay
Now I lay myself down to sleep
Do I know what I want to keep
What should I do when I wake
Should I ask for a wooden stake
Because it wouldn't take much
To do a task as such
The lord I pray my soul to keep
When I lay myself down to sleep
Life Will Be Ok
When and where we may fall down.
Everything will be alright.
Wanting to cry and wanting to frown.
Wanting to stay out of sight.
Remember their are those who care.
Care for the ones that have fallen.
Trying to keep your spirits in the air.
The ones that care, will keep calling.
They'll leave a message for you.
Letting you know it will be okay.
That life will get better day by day.
Never give up and never give in.
Everything will fall back into place for you again.
I hope the best for all my friends.
Things will get better,for this is not the end
There are 365 Birthdays. Out of all of the billions of people who live in the world, there has got to be somebody born on each day of the year. We're going to try to accomplish the task of seeing if we can fill the calendar up with a birthday on every day of the year.Add your name next to your birthdate and lets see if we can do it!!! (Hey and don't delete any one) Copy and paste and make a new bulletin! ! ! ! ! ! ! !January 1-Dustin Engler!!!January 2 -January 3 -January 4 -January 5 -January 6 -Courtney BryantJanuary 7 -Ricky "Dunn Dunn"January 8 -January 9 -January 10-January 11-January 12 -January 13 -Judge D.January 14 -Samantha marie KlossJanuary 15 -autumn nicole pateee(:
1.You have 10 dollars and need to buy snacks at a gas station: Mt Dew, reese's pieces, sour cream and cheddar potato chips2. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be? Dolphin 3. Whos your favorite redhead? Reba McEntire4. What do you order at IHOP? Bluebery Pancakes 5. Last book you read? The Bible and still reading it 6. Describe your mood. Content 7. Describe the last time you were injured? about a month ago when I fell through the kitchen floor 8. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? all of em 9. Rock concert or symphony? rock concert 10. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone? a beach scene on two, and green neon lights on the other11. Favorite Soda? Mtn. Dew, 12. What type of shirt are you wearing? Pink shirt13. If you could only use one form of transportation: a 4wd jacked up pick up truck 14. Most recent movie you have watched in theatres? None don't care for the theaters much 15. Name an actor/actress/singer you h
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you a
Life's Like That
I hear your words.
yet I see the truth,
Which way to go,
is this dream true?
And I see the world,
walk past my door,
But I feel the pain,
soaked by life's rain.
Oh Dear Friend,
Can you see me now?
I am myself,
yet like you somehow.
I'll ride this wave,
to where it takes me,
and I'll hold the pain,
Oh Dear Friend,
Can you hear me now?
I'm not myself,
Not like you somehow,
I'll wait up in the night,
for you to speak to me,
I'll open up,
please release me.... Well, yet again, we were rooted out of our homes, only to look back at them and realize this will be the last time we actually see them as usable places of rest and comfort.
Everyone thought when Rita blew through in 2005 that the floods that followed were nothing more than a freak thing. Little did anyone really "know, that due to the natural barrier reef being dredged out, for the use of roads and such....the salt water was encroaching in
Life Is Short
Sometimes you never know how lucky you are until reality slaps you in the face. If you are reading this you probably know about what I have been through the past few months with death, and you know Dave is away with his job. He has been in CA fighting the fires making a difference in the world. He was sent away for two weeks and I have not had any contact with him and it has been hard. He got back in CA today and asked me if I heard about the helicopter that went down last wednesday in CA and that nine of the firefighters were killed. I told him I was so thankful he was out of CA when that happened. He told me that was part of his team that was on there, and if he would have been in CA he would have been with them. My heart just stopped. I told him everything happens for a reason. My friend at work said someone "up there" is looking out for him and I just smiled and said Yeah, my dad. He knew when he left this world that he did not have to worry about me anymore, that I fina
I juss want to open my eyes
And see your face
Your the only one i ever wanted and still want
My mind is going crazy
I miss you
Lifes Little Surprises
is it me or is a lot of the stuff on here pretty funny? i literally find myself cracking up at the content of most of the mumms and such. puts a smile to the face, of course, but its all so random...and unusual. ha. keeps me entertained.
You sit there and bicth,
About your life,
And that itch you want to scratch,
But do you forget,
That some lost all,
Yet you bitch about,
Your lack of money,
Your lack of sex,
On a day when thousands died,
yet you still bitch,
Have you forgotten,
Or are you that selfish,
That everyday is about you,
That you can't set aside 24 hours,
To think about others,
I dare you to try,
And think about your life,
Then think about someone,
Very close to you,
Dying in your arms,
Or in a collapsing skyscraper,
Or in a war,
or by a drunk driver,
or by a drive by shooting,
Life's too short and unfair,
To bitch about the little things,
So STFU and remember those,
That lost it all,
And cherishing those close to you,
Because someday they will be gone.
And so will you! No matter what I do, no matter what I say...it's just not good enough for my dad. I've tried to do just like he tells me to. When I work I do my job and don't socialize, because I'm there to work not
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 glasses
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous yes.
The professor then produced two glasses of wine from under the table and poured the entire c
Life In Florida
----- You know you're a Floridian if.........
... Socks are only for bowling.
...You never use an umbrella because you know the rain will be over in five minutes.
...A good parking place has nothing to do with distance from the store,
But everything to do with shade.
...Your winter coat is made of denim.
...You can tell the difference between fire ant bites and mosquito bites.
...You're younger than thirty but some of your friends are over 65.
...Anything under 70 is chilly.
...You've driven through Yeehaw Junction.
...You could swim before you could read.
...You have to drive north to get to The South.
...You know that no other grocery store can compare to Publix.
...Every other house in your neighborhood had blue roofs in 2004-2005.
...You know that anything under a Category 3 just isn't worth waking up for.
...You dread love bug season.
...You know what a snowbird is and when they'll leave.
HELL IT HAS BEEN 24 MONTHS AND I AM GOING THROUGH HELL AS I MISS MY DAUGHTER AND IN ALOT OF PAIN AND HEARTBREAK I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL LIFE WITHOUT PAIN ANYMORE IT SEEMS LIKE THE WORLD IS AGANIST ME IN MY FIGHT TO GET MY DAUGHTER HOME WHERE SHE BELONGS AND IT IS MAKING ME FEEL DEPRESSED AND HURT I DONT SLEEP WELL CAUSE I AM WORRIED ABOUT HER MY HEART ACHES I CRY ALL THE TIME AND FEEL HURT LOST AND ALONE ALL THE TIME IT SEEMS LIKE MY MEDS DONT EVEN WORK ANYMORE I JUST WISH LIFE MADE SENSE SOMETIMES AND I WOULD FEEL BETTER BUT I DONT FEEL ANY BETTER I AM ALWAYS SICK AND IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITALS THE DR'S BLAME THE SOCIAL WORKER FOR THE WAY I FEEL I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO FEEL SO IF YOU SEE ME ONLINE APPROACH WITH CAUTION AS I MIGHT BITE YA HEAD OFF I AM NOT IN THE BEST OF MOODS EITHER SO IF YOUR A FRIEND OF MINE SB ME AND TELL ME TO CHILL OUT AND I WILL if your traveling in west virginia go to hillbilly hotdogs they are they best in west virginia and has been on diners drive ins and d
Life....and How To Live It.
I'm gonna rant for a bit.
I don't get people. I don't get life. Maybe it's the Aquarian in me.
Ya know, I was married for 10 years, and my wife up and left me for no reason. To this day, I don't know why.
I was the perfect husband, the perfect Dad, etc...she just got "tired of being married".
She left me for a man 20 years older than me. I never questioned her, I just let her go, and wished her happiness, and made sure that I paid my child support, and spent all the time with my boys that I could.
As I type this, I just got back from her house setting up her DSL internet connection so my boys could do what they love.....surf the Internet...I gave my ex wife shit because she's so technology stupid, but, as I was leaving, I also told her I loved her. And she knows I do...
Ian, my oldest son, asked me to look in the mirror as I was leaving...he said "Dad, what do you see?" I replied "A hot Italian Lover, what do you see?" He said "I see my dad...thanks for helping mom
Every day we wake up not knowing what is in store for us. And every day we continue on our way not knowing where we are headed for most people this is acceptable but for a rare few it is not enough. I recently had a thought that shook me to my foundations and made perfect sense, love is nothing to be chased it is meant for some but not for all. In this thought it occurred that maybe it is health not to know what you want but to know who you really are. For no one knows what the future brings, the only sure thing in life is YOU.
Hey for all of you who have been great friends to me, I greatly appreciate you. One thing I can say is because of some of you, I finally got the boost I needed to get back into school. I will be going for my Bachelors in Criminal Justice, Majoring in Computer Crime. It's been almost 10 years since I've been thinking about going back to school and I finally got it. I will be attending online courses at Kaplan University. It's a great school and they help you out in every way, every step.
So if you are thinking you want to go back, don't hesitate!
Ciao! I made the President's List of Academic Excellence. I feel pretty good about myself especially since I've been out of school for almost 10 years.
Keep smiling and work hard and you can achieve anything!!!
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is costly, care for it.
Life is wealth, keep it.
Life is love, enjoy it.
Life is mystery, know it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Top Six Reasons To Forgive
Top Six Reasons To Forgive
No one can change the past, but you do have the power to upgrade how you
feel about it, and that makes all the difference. You can take your
power back from all those painful memories, and make peace with your
past. Forgiveness heals the guilt and the hurt, and does this quietly,
privately, and thoroughly. Forgiveness
Life Is Now
Life is now
No matter how much joy you've known, there is always more joy to be experienced. Each moment brings new possibilities for adding richness to life.
The best days of your life are never behind you, unless you choose to see them as such. For no matter how life has been, there will always be opportunities to experience more goodness.
Everything you know about has already happened, so it can be very easy to view life as nothing more than what is receding into the past. Yet life is infinitely more, because life is now.
By all means, hold firmly to the goodness you've already known and carry it forever in your heart. At the same time, open yourself fully to the positive possibilities that are yours right now.
Now is the moment to live. Now is the time for all that can be.
The sun is just now rising on the bright golden possibilities of this day. Life's great and beautiful promise is now.
About 8 months ago a girl I was best friends with for 4 years and I stopped being friends. Well when we had actually been friends I knew her sister had been trying to get pregnant and actually had concieved a baby. Today I get a text from my ex best friend saying that her sister had lost the baby and just thought she'd let me know. I seriously had no idea what to do...I thought about trying to talk to her a couple times but I am a very stubborn person and I dont make up with people easily. I called another friend and told him what happened and I asked him if I should text her back, call her back, ignore it etc. He convinced me that life is too short to have grudges against people and that I would be the bigger person if I tried to reach out to her. So I worked up the courage to call her and it went to her voicemail and I left her a message saying I got her text about her sister losing the baby and I was really sorry for her family and that I would pray for them and that if she ever wan
Saturday afternooon i was walking home from work about 6pm on west genesee st, i saw this house with smoke pouring from the window out of the first floor apartment. There was a fan blowing smoke out so i thought everything was ok, i thought to myself keep walking everything should be fine. Something told me to turn around and check. So i did i walked up to the apartment building and walked inside. I knocked as hard as i could on the apt with the smoke but no answer, i kept hearing a smoke detector going off,at this point i knew something was wrong. I didnt have a cell phone so i started running up and down the stairs of the apartment building knocking on everyones door to see if they had a phone to call 911. No answer form anyone. I then ran next door to the local day spa but they were closed so i continnued to the barber shop but they were closed. I then ran down to the apt building and i seen a woman and a man pointing at the window and they asked me when i reached them if everything
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Hating living in 2 different places!
Standing in the road
Two paths before me
The signs clear
Like the changing of seasons
One bringing pain
The other is known
for various reasons
Words of beauty
Have the ring of truth
Fall to the wayside
When put to the test
They hold no substance
The reality is
They are like all the rest
The clock is ticking
Time has told
Truth has been revealed
No comfort to be had
No friend at my side
There is nothing
No safety to shield
My foot to the path
Which way to go
The words have dried up
The beauty is dead
For the path of old
Understanding has dawned
It was only in my head
My life has never been a bed of roses and Ive always been told that nothing worth anything comes easy. Im happy with who I am and I feel that I have come along way. I have struggled but that has made the little achievements mean that much more...I think Im a good person and I try to do whats right....some
Life....it Is What It Is......
well ya'll life- it is what it is....
funny how things have a way of biteing you in the ass just when you think they have gone away....
lets see- theres cheating spouses, looseing kids, quiting your job, going to jail, haveing kids, falling in love- and i am sure that there's about a 1000 others that i left out but thats ok.....
life it is what it is even if it bites you in the ass later right.....
Why? Why do people think that words don't hurt? Hurtful words are emotional scars that never heal. People really need to think before they speak sometimes. Think about what you want to say, BEFORE it comes out wrong. Because no matter what, name calling does hurt. Rejection hurts too. To be told that you're not good enough, or you're missing something just hurts. I just don't understand it sometimes.
I am a good person. I have a big heart and will help anyone that i can. So why do people turn shit around and try and use it against me. And that's just not right. If i confide in you about something, you do not go and try and use it against me. And another thing, don't tell me what you think i want to hear to get what you want. I am a human being. I have feelings too. I bleed just like everyone else.
People make mistakes. Everybody does. And you have to learn from them. I have. And i still am. Nobody is perfect. I am my own person. I am a somebody. I have my own opinions and my
Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates
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You take the good with the bad Smile when you're sad love what you got & remember what you had Always forgive but never forget Learn from your misstakes but never regret When things go wrong just remember life goes on.
Life & Society
She's holding her last breath
While staring in the mirror
She looks back on her life
Then falls her final tear
Her one last thought
Is "What have I done?"
But it's to late now
For she has gone
A troubled girl that hid it well
No one ever noticed the slits on her wrists
She had been depressed for so long
And it's finally come to this
She seemed so happy
And had so many friends
But no one ever got
The message she was trying to send
She always felt alone
No matter who was around
So many people were shocked
After seeing the suicide letter found
"I'm sorry that I was never good enough, No matter how hard I tried. People always seemed to hurt me, And no one ever realized how much I cried.
Yeah I know this doesn't make sense, And it's hard for me to say. But I've always felt alone, Thats why I had to get away.
I couldn't take it anymore, All the drama in my life. I never had someone I could really explain it all to, Thats why I relieved it all with my knife
AS LAY HERE THINKING OF MY PAST FREINDS I HAVE LOST THE TIMES THAT WE HAD, A RANGERS LIFE IS ONE OF HONOR IVE BEEN ALL AROUND THE WORLD FROM ONE PLACE TO THE OTHER, A DAY THAT WILL ALWAYS MAKE ME ANGER ON THE DAY OF 9/11 THE CRYS WERE HERD AROUND THE WORLD THEY STILL ECHO IN MY BRAIN
ON THAT DAY I SCREAMED WITH VENGANCE DEATH FROM OF ABOVE WILL KILL EM ALL AND LET GOD SORT THEWM OUT......
I'm done, I've had enough; love is an sick and elusive figment of the imagination that I will never find and nor will it ever find me. Quite frankly, I think that I'm probably better off alone; because it seems that whenever I get set in a "relationship" I always leave a path of destruction behind me.
It is getting to the point where I can no longer repair the emotional pain or damage that I have set upon myself. I am just gonna let life go on without me trying to find a significant other, because they tend to waste my physical and mental time. My ex fu wife/r/l/g/f is now my ex everything because she didn't have the self restraint or patience to wait long enough until we could be together in real life. She needs someone to hold and cuddle and etc... I was asked for a 2nd chance and like a fool I allowed it. Time passed and my suspicions and paranoia were starting to come to a head and the question that ended it all was asked. I am not even going to attempt it anymore. I don't ne
So is being yourself really that simple. No actually it really sucks being who you are. Most people who try to be something there not dont really go far in so why is it that the ones who try and show that they really care get thrown in the dirt. Simple its hard to be a genuine person, i mean you can be nice and help in everyway and your still the bad guy. I dont think it matters if someone has more or less were all the same so why act so damn ignorant. Ignorance gets you no where, people just need to start accepting that an know that though many including myself... have been fucked over numerous times not everyone is the same.
get the hell over yourselfs.
To the friends and family of Joseph Patrick Haley,
My father was a good man, a simple man, a man who enjoyed the smallest things in life. He was a hero fighting in Vietnam, but that’s not what made him a real hero what made him a real hero is the value and love he placed on his family and friends. He lived too short of a life, but there is a saying “the good die young”, but I thank the Lord each day he gave my father to all of us to love and cherish. Yeah maybe he wasn’t around all the time as a father, but he worked hard his whole life to support us girls, and he never complained. He loved his woman, wife, Lisa with all his heart and cherished her with every last breath he took. His sense of humor was straightforward , but silly. He’d make you see his point, but you couldn’t help but laugh. He taught me to never take life so serious. That some things are not as bad as they seem and there is always good in everything. My fondest memory of my father was when we were really little I was
WOW , neevr thought anything about being with a widowed woman, now that i am i"m confused. she means eveything to me i think about her when im away and cant wait to get back to her. she loves me too , but the thing is that i know i can never replace her husband. i am not try'ng to but i always feel like i am compaired to him.
Makes me feel like im lose'ng her at times cause i can't do this like he did , or i cant take her here like he did. or dont act to thinks like he did.
Maybe im just afraid of my feelings for her , i don't know, just so afrad that one day it will be over
Give a man a baby.
And watch him become the child he was.
Lose the heart of a woman.
And watch him become a shell of what he was.
Why is it that I must awaken every day?
To have to face rejection all over again?
Why is it that I must I awaken every day?
To a heavy empty feeling heart?
Why is it that I must awaken every day?
To feel Im kept here not for love that was?
Why is it that
Life And Feelings
You've left me to fend for my damn self so many time when I really needed you.
For that I HATE YOU more than you'll ever know.
Think back to when I was a little kid,and you droppin me off here and there wit family(at least)
For that I HATE YOU more than you'll ever know.
You choose your men and drugs over all three of us boys.
For that I HATE YOU more than you'll ever know.
To this day you still think that you were really a mother to us.....
For that I DONT HATE YOU for it,but instead I sit back and fuckin laugh at you for it....
Your selfish,foolish,just down right grimmie for that.
Im so fuckin happy that Iam nothing like you...
For that I......really dont know.
life is short yet full of fun, love, and hurt. It all comes from knowing people! Sometimes I feel like the pain isn't worth the knowledge of realy knowing people, but just consider how life would be if we always made the right choices and made all the right friends and lovers. We would never learn, we would never know the true value of those who make life that fun and love for us. So there for in picking sometimes the way wrong person as a friend or lover, we find in ourseves what we are realy worth and thats a far greater gift then always being alone and never learning or experincing what makes us US. Life changes over time. Seems that there comes a time that everything hits at once. Most you see coming, but even that, some how the pain still hits hard. Some you don't see coming, but looking at the things you have done you know how you got there, but it still hurts. You can look back and see how you could have done it different, but does it change the hurt or the present? No it does
so im a single guy now. 32 and divorced.
why is it so damn hard to meet ladies?
i mean im in the bar seen all the time but
they are all just players, what the hell?
this must be our new population control.
Lifes Rough Spots
There have been alot of times that i have felt alone, most of the time while i am single or depressed. I know there are others out there who feel that way quite often. Wishing that they could find someone who is willing to date and makes them feel happy and good.
Me, I feel lonely even when im married.
There have been times when i will go to bed wishing that i had someone who would cuddle up with me all night rather than sleeping on the far end of the bed. There have been times like even now that i feel alone while my wife 'needs to get out of the house' and im here. Honestly, i would love to have some me time and get out of the house away from this life for a bit. But i dont. Why? because honestly i dont know enough peaple other than work who i could go visit. I am one of those people that would rather stay home and do other stuff. However there are those moments when being lonely realy sucks and hits hard, making me wish that i had someone in my life who would appriciate what i do
I think it's time for me to take a Fubar Hiatus. I think for all the good that being here has done for me there has been just as much bad.
I find myself not really knowing who I am lately or what I'm supposed to be doing with myself and this is very much the result of living a life that isn't really 'real' here on Fubar. I allow myself to believe I am someone who I'm not right now. Maybe I can become that someone someday but not today. I think in order to find out who I'm gonna be I need to refocus on what's away from the computer screen.
I've made a lot of wonderful friends here. People who I'd like to be friends with for as long as I live if possible but that friendship will have to be in a different form then this social networking site. Those of you who have become close to me know others ways to contact me if you want to stay in touch. For anyone else I'd be happy to stay in touch through different means so please let me know.
I don't expect for people to understand wh
hey people i'm new on here just checking it out umm if any one wants to help me figure this out sure.
How come i said going into this i just wanted to have fun nothing more, but as the days go by, the more time i spend with him, the more i get to know about him the more i want to be with him. everday this gets harder. to keep my distance. i dont want to get my heart broken and i'm afraid to say anything, i almost got the ballz today but chicked out. why is it some ppl think its ok to lie about everthing even love. Life is hard as it is then we have ppl who are just out to fuck you over because they think they can, well grow up.....fuck heads.... Why is it when you open up to someone, they tear you down, and use your heart as there own play ground. Act as it don't matter what your feelings are.
You admit to them you have feelings for them, and they take that and twist it to get what they want (for there own gain).
You ask them don't lie to me. Be open to me about everything. Don't hurt me! I cant take it again, but nooooooo they couldn't give a shit.
Just want one of two
Life Of Nikkilee Riot
So Im Nikkilee, 19, proud owner of a vagina.
Im an Aussie and have been living in Tennessee for since June of 08.
I have a passion for animals and their welfare, aswell as Music and singing, but shh dont tell anyone.
In australia I had alot to do with promotions of local events and gigs, aswell as a little event management.
Ive been riding horses since I can remember.
Im a sarcastic bitch, and you either love me or you hate me, either way my name is on your lips.
I love my friends more than life and miss the aussie gang TERRIBLY. I have a stickam account, ask for the link. Im live a few times a week.
I have a cat named Kitty and a chowXshar pei dog named Lucy. They are way cooler than your pets.
I live on myspace, yes I know.. ghey.. dont care.
I live with my mother and stepfather, have lived out of home for the last 3 years in australia and came here for a new start. YAY. =/
Anyways thats me.. well all you need to know.. and im fucking exhausted so.. good
I love life. Many of us just get caght up in the bullshit in life. People need to realize that we only live one time, so why not live life to the fullest. Living is a gift from God. We spend so much time worried about other peoples lives and do not pay attention to our own. Life is full of hills and valleys, so hang on for the ride. And remember, ride this motherfucker till the wheels fall off............Living!
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Current mood: miserable
on september 2nd, 2008, myself and my wife katie went to the doctor to hear the babys heartbeat and for a routine check-up. the doctor was not able to find the heartbeat, then told us that the baby had passed away weeks before. my wife delivered on the fifth at 5:43 am in lake st louis. the absolute worst day of my life. i watched my firstborn child be born dead. on the 11th of sept. i left my wife. i frequently use the excuse that the death of our child is what split us up, but the truth is that i was not a big enough man to stick it out and try to make it work. we had two different feelings for each other, and in my eyes had too much not in common for it not to work. i do love her, but not the traditional love of marriage. more of friendship, and of how great of a person she is. my wish for her is that she can one day find someone that will share her love and will treat her like the Queen she is. Rest In Peace, bab
Life Is Hectic
isolated imprisoned by my own emotion, laying hollow broken by the vary thing i yearn;your touch still like fire,ice still running its course;why can i not,be a corpse so this pane could fade;
nothing so sweet as it once seemed,all their tainted memories and no ears;to allow these mourning feelings breathe,i find myself alone the last thing i need;treading days like a death sentence,my useless immortality;
unable to end this eteran pentance,the sin i cannot seem to redeem;what is it i have done,that is utterly unatoneable;please just let me break free,im now lost in loathing;with nothing left to dream,knowing ill only be appointed to disappointment; http://meatspin.com/ http://www.fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=364795556
Life And Stuff
two of my cousins were involved in a shooting. both were shot by policemen who claim that they felt threaten by my cousins.
at a baseball game...really? carlos is a marine who just got home from iraq who took his girlfriend along and jose was with his kids..
ugh. i hate this.
they're both in critical condition. i hope they get better.
i'd ask you if you can pray for them but i don't believe in pray. thanks for reading this though.
(h) I passed my written test
I missed 4. :P
Only one more test and i'll have one of these
XD stupid vince. here's 25 useless things about me.
1. My real name is Annabel Iglesias
2. No, i'm not related to Julio or Enrique Iglesias. (however, my brothers name is enrique and my cousin's julio --different last names though--)
3. When i sleep, i tend to kick and punch the air. :P
4. If you ever see me on the road driving, RUN. Or turn at the intersection, whatever.
5. I admit I can be a little needy at times.
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
I got this from my friend Heather's web page and she got it from Josh Grasin's Page & Josh Got It from A Book.
Life Sucks Right Now
Hello to all my friends on here. Have reached a point in my life where I have no pride left and am having to ask for help.
As some of you know either thru my blog or from having talked to me life has really sucked lately.
Anyway recently found myself to be homeless with 2 teenagers in tow. We had ended up in the emergency shelter but I was given a random drug test, I was told that I tested positive for meth, anyone that knowa me, knows this too be not true. We were licked out of the shelter that day and ended up staying in a motel with my kids, not fun.
Well my Aunt and a family friend came up with the deposit and the rent for til the end of the month. I have to come up $460 for next months rent and utilities. As I am between jobs and my health is not that great, find myself coming to you for help.
If anyone can assist in anyway, even if just a couple of dollars would be very much appreciated.
If you are able and willing to help, please contact me. This was the very last thin
Life, Love, Relationships, & All That Other Crap...
Dave and I broke up! That's what everyone wanted, so that's what everyone got. Yes, I had it planned to break up with him if things didn't get better by the 1st but not the way he did it. The way he broke up with me is the little bitch's way!!! Everyone kept saying I can do better, I deserve better. Well guess what- I loved him and wanted to be with him. Why else do you think he treated me like shit and I stayed? But its over now and everyone can be happy. Just wanted to let everyone know that. And maybe its time for the real me to come back. The one who don't give a damn who gets hurt by me or anyone else. I used to never care if I hurt people, part of the reason I am called a evil bitch, but itll go back to that. And I think my dark side really does need to come back out. Nobody will ever hurt me again!
Much Wicked Love
Lifes Sick Game
i just found out a friend commited suicide an hr ago
he was 35 wit 2 lil girls still in highschool. yesterday i was plannin on doin the same thing. as i look back at me i realize i was stupid. i have tryed 30 times in 4 yrs and faild all 3o times. this was his first attempt and he succseded. he was very sucessful wit a net worth of $45.81 million a gorgeous wife 2 beautiful girls and 1 lil granddaughter. he had everythin we all wish 4 so y did he do it?????? it turn out he had cheated on his wife and couldnt live wit the guilt. he never told her and the guilt just built up. i knew he had dont it and had told his wife she was just waitin 4 him 2 tell her. i only bring this up cuz wit wut happened 2 me and now findin this out i now realize suicide is not the answer just a piece of the puzzle. death is not a way out of ur problems... so 4 those of u that read this wit thoughts of suicide dont do it u will hurt more ppl than u realize Y DOES LIFE HAVE 2 B SUCH A BITCH????
I FELL IN LOVE
Today is NOT a good day...I shall not go into details but I found out today that a work mate and dear friend passed away yesterday and it looks as if he took his own life.......
Why is it that some people seem to be less able to cope with the bad that life throws at us yet some cannot only cope but overcome it and get stronger with each passing day!!!.
God bless you Paul and may the angels keep you safe from the pain that drove you from this earth.......I will miss you.
Life Is A Phenomenon Created By Love
Just want to share someone that means the world to me. Even though she's not physically here anymore she's still with in my heart.
Just want to get a few ideas and thoughts out of my head before they drive me insane. A few who know me on here knows that I lost my mother in April to kidney failure. It was sudden, and totally unseen. Not like anyone could ever prepare for some one close to them to die, but it was a complete shock that to this day I'm still caught off guard from time to time. Usually I can keep my mind busy so I don't think about the loss, but with the holidays happening and I have no clue how to stop them, I've been thinking about my mom alot. I've been dreading Thanksgiving because even though I've cooked about 8 turkeys in my cooking history, I've ALWAYS had my mom around for me to ask what temp and how long. And yeah I know most turkeys come with directions it was almost like our tradition. It was a way to keep my mom involved even though she could no longer stand
The Life Of Your Favorite Addiction
So, I have decided to actually post a blog on here for my Fubar friends! I stopped posting them on myspace because I never thought anyone actually ever read them lol. We'll see how things go here. I'll try and keep you posted on a day in the life of you're one and only, which for the most part is sometimes pretty interesting.
I guess I should start off with the most recent thing thats been happening which is of course the break up which happened a couple weeks ago and my ex wasn't too happy when he found out I had been seeing another guy so soon after a 3-4 year relationship. Someone had made a pretty threatening phone call saying they're watching me and coming to get me and when they do I'm going to wish I was never born and that I'm a fucking whore and all sorts of other stuff... All with a voice disguise machine and of course using a private number. And who else would it be if he works at a Halloween store and has recently called me a whore? Lol. So I called the cops and if it
This is the best I have ever heard it explained.
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said: 'My son, the battle is between 'two wolves' inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.'
The grandson thought about it for a minute, and then asked his grandfather
Ike Drink Recipes
For the tea totallers this is great humor. For the real enthusiasts, this is pertinent to your survival:
2 oz. Midori
2 oz. rum
1 scoop vanilla ice cream
After your home loses power, combine Midori and rum in a cocktail glass. Add a scoop of the vanilla ice cream that is melting in your freezer. Stir, and drink through a straw.
1 1/2 oz. Absolute Ruby Red vodka
1/2 oz. vermouth
Combine vodka and vermouth in cocktail glass. Fill remainder of glass with equal parts Clamato and prune juice. Stir. Drink. Ask next-door neighbor whose ficus tree blew over and crashed onto your roof -- even though you'd warned him for months to uproot it -- if you can use his bathroom. Repeat.
1/2 oz. vodka
Why is it that life isn't always fair??? Why is it that no matter what you try to do, it just isn't enough?? Why is it that no matter what I try to do, it either isn't enough or isn't right??? Why is it that I can't make anyone happy???
As a child, I couldn't wait to grow up.. Couldn't wait to be out in th REAL world.. Be my own boss, do the things that I wanted to do..
As an adult, the real wold is crule.. Life is crule.. Things that happen to each & everyone of us in one way or another can be crule.. There is no rime or reason for may things & I don't always understand them.. I guess I never will...............................
Lifestyle contract - Agreement of Power Exchange
I, , as a strong, devoted woman who has an ongoing commitment to , have the desire to express my love and dedication to the man I love and adore and thereby enter into this agreement with a free mind and a devoted heart. I give the gift of complete ownership; my heart, my body, and my soul to as a vow of this devotion. That the submission of my will is given to him knowing he is taking me into his care and guidance to grow together in love, trust and mutual respect. I regard myself as his property at all times. He accepts the keeping of my body and mind for the fulfillment and enhancement of our sexual, spiritual, emotional, and intellectual needs.will assume ownership of my other relationships, reserving rights over these relationships, however he will not interfere in them without my full prior knowledge. Furthermore, I agree there are no limits other than the ones that himself will decide upon. I regard myself as existi
Life Is Short
Hey y'all. Just wanted to let ya know if you didn't already that I graduate college tomorrow.
I'm also moving sometime next week and will not have internet for a while..... Last night someone near and dear to my heart was robbed at gun point. He was working night shift at a gas station. The gunman took his wallet with his drivers license (home address) and money as well as whatever he got from the store.
As scary as it is that this person now has lil D's home address and could strike him personally again.... I realize that this situation could have been a whole lot worse. I could be telling y'all about a death right now.
The point of this is to take a minute to remind y'all that life is short. It can change in the blink of an eye. Don't hold grudges. Forgive and forget. Hold those you love close to you, and take every minute you can to let them know that they are loved, and to you- they MATTER.
To my friends: I want to thank you for taking the time to read
Life The Last Month...
I have been dealing with a lot of things in my life the past month...
Somethings I have shared..some I haven't. With the death of my grandmother I really realized how many true friends I have...and who really cared....
I have went thru some really personal things and I know with time I will work thru them and be a better person In the end...
I have changed a lot in the last month and most will notice the change...i have been stuck using my phone to get on the net for the last month so my interaction has been limited...
Some of u may not like the change but that is your problem not mine...
There will be more to come in this blog....
My life is rough
Day in and day out
I feel like a dishrag
That has all been wrung out
I had heard all the stories
About being an adult
I didnt believe them
Now i found out
Life is hard
That is no lie
All you do is work
Until the day that you die
So tell your kids
Not to grow up to fast
Tell them this story
And hope that it lasts.
You ever have a day, where every song you hear, you can relate to? It all seems relevant to whatever is going on in your life? I know that nowadays everyone has their ipods and mp3 players and who the hell burns cd's still, haha, so we can make our own playlists and keep those tunes and choose whatever we want to listen to, thats not really what I mean. But, turn on the radio, and every song they play during that car ride to work hits you somewhere? Ya. Love that feeling. I love how I can tell my life story in song. Here are just a few "theme" songs of my life--- I am sure if you know anything about me, you know why I picked most of them. My Own Worst Enemy-PinkI Like Big Butts-- Sir Mix a LotNot Ready to Make Nice- Dixie ChicksGunpowder and Lead- Miranda LambertThere Goes My Life- Kenny ChesneyNever Enough- Five Finger Death PunchPain- Three Days GraceI'm a Bitch- Alanis MorissetteWalk This Way- AerosmithOnly the Good Die Young- Billy JoelU + UR Hand- PinkBring on the Rain- JoDee Mes
Life, Love And The Persuit Of Anything Close To That!
So, why do we, as people, deliberately do things we know is going to hurt ourselves and others? And why do we prolong the pain? Shouldn't we know it is best to avoid such things, or to at least stop them as soon as we realize its happening? or are we just prone to self destruction? We all know the old saying, "misery loves company," but shouldn't happiness love company too? I know, I for one, would LOVE to find love and happiness, and would just as much, Love and be happy to share that. Yet even I have a tendency to do exactly the opposite of what I know is the better path. Leaving myself alone, lonely and tired... I wish I could say I have given it all I've got, but you all know I am not really a "liar." I might omit things once in a while, which goes along with the deliberate task of self destruction. I know the things I SHOULD! do...But I rarely put forth the effort, it's like I lack any drive or stimulus. I try to say, "Oh, I would do all that, if I was happy and had love" an
Sit back and enjoy the ride!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i believe everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you apprieciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together
-Marilyn Monroe everyone deals with life their own way.....its what you make of it day after day kinda like what i live by you really try and do your best in life you will get the best but do your worst you'll get nowhere........how do you live your life day by day? from what i see i dont understand how ppl live by always putting themselves down always looking at life like its a joke...why??? you can always do better if you really try put your self out there make new friends really listen to what you have because you will learn so much dont always look at the flaws that you dont like about yourself change them you have so much to live for..
I am still trying to find a house. I have found two actually but things always go wrong and no one has money and if i have to stay where i am any longer i am going to die and i cant stay any longer there is nno room. my bro got kicked out of his apt so he is on the couch and no where to go and my grandmother is coming to visit again no room. i hate it i need a house some body calm me down or i am never going to to sleep. I HATE HOUSES!!!!
how is it that just when you think you are over someone you get a reminder that the pain has only begun..... Where do you go when you have no where left to turn, when every bridge has been burned and the world you know turns thier back on you? Do you hide within yourself and refuse to come out or do you pick up the pieces of your broken heart and refuse to give up? You think you got the best of me but little do you know i've already moved on...... Well after 6 years as of 10:25 this morning I will be officially leaving West Texas and flying to good ol' Houston! While this time for me is a sad one, and I leave many people behind I have a bright future in store for me and i'm all smiles so you guys keep holding your heads high and keep smiling for me cause you never know what tommarow might bring.I love you all very much you are my familia....you are my heart...
A Life's Lesson
Life is like an on going teacher that never ends.
Like the people you meet who come into your life and you know
right away that they were meant to be there,that teach you a lesson,
or help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.
A neighbor, your new child, a friend, a lover,or even a complete
stranger, but when you lock eyes with them,you know at that
very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
People will love or hate, and you will fall victim to these
fates. But If someone loves you, give love back to them in
whatever way you can.Not only because they love you, but
in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open
your heart and soul.
If someone is hurting you,betrays you, or breaks your heart,
forgive them.For they helped you to learn about trust and
the importance of not hurting others. It has taught you to
be more cautious about whom you open your heart and arms to.
Many times great things in our lives make us feel
It does not really matter how fast you’re going if you’re heading in the wrong direction To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.” Nobody grows old by merely living a number of years, People grow old by deserting their ideals, dreams, goals and beliefs. Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up goals, dreams and beliefs wrinkles the soul. It is not the years in your life but the life in your years that counts. The best part of the art of living is to know how to grow old gracefully. The knowledge you possess. All the mistakes you have made throughout your life and learned and have grown from them. You can't help getting older, but you don't have to get old. You're never to old to become younger in your heart and in your thoughts. Wrinkles should merely indicate where the smiles have been. I truly don't know what the big deal is about old age. So many elderly shine from inside and look 10 to
i was thinking should life be fair 2 me ,or should i be fair 2 life
Hi there. It's been a while since I've been active on here. Makes me kind of sad.
But I now live on the West Side of Hamilton with my boyfriend/baby daddy.
Soon we'll have our own apartment/house!
I finally graduated O.N.O.W.
It was amazing.
I got a 94% in my writing class
74% in my psychology class.
I knew and wish I would have done better.
But there was so much stuff going on.
My brother is in jail/prison soon in two weeks.
I'm going to go see him today.
My son Landon will be one in 10 days!
His birthday party is going to be March 27th though.
Thats all for now.
Life In Texas
Have an overnight test on Thursday at Lackland AFB, should be cleared to depart the states within a week or so afterwards. Then once I finish up some training, I'll be "Leaving, on a Jet Plane".
Been busy on my end. Really busy. Well, I'm in Texas. Got here on the 28th. Signed in, took my free "time-off" to find a place to live and to go get furniture from my house in Arkansas.
I found a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom duplex with a garage. It's about 1300 square foot, in a quiet new subdivision. The house is only a couple of years old, and well, it's safe. I looked at a bunch of places before deciding on this one, and even continued to look before deciding, and some of them closer to base scared me.
Then I signed into the replacement detachment for some inprocessing. That is nothing new. Same old same old. I am SO danged glad I do not have to live in the barracks. They are having formations at 10 PM everyday, and on the weekend 10 AM. The weekend formations include this wee
Ahhhh....where do I start...My life is a stressful one...With the economy the way it is, I think everyone's is...Unless of course you are a liar and/or a thief...I just dont get people like that...I dont know...I just need to bitch about that...Dont take something that doesnt belong to you, whether or not they owe you something or not...just be the bigger man...oh well...enough of my bitching for now...have an awesome night guys...and of course gals....
VIOLETS ARE KORNY
WHEN I THINK OF YOU
OHH BABY I GET HORNY,
IF YOU KISS ME,
DON'T BE SASSY,
USE YOUR TONGUE AND MAKE IT NASTY!!!!
its good if we can be a baby again..Dont need to think...all we need to do only sleep n no more thinking....huh.....everday need to think...n need to work....to get a life...
I know this is gona sound all whiney and shit. If you dont like it dont read it.
My whole life I have spent going from place to place. I have givin up more in my life then most people gain. My sister pointed this out to me last night. Well I am reaching my end. I am so tired I want it all to stop. I know what I want N there is someone that says they want to give it too me. I trust this person. My only thing is, I sometimes do destructive things when confronted with what I want. I already did it once to this person. I refuse to do it again. I wanna be everything this person needs and wants. I just dont know if I can. She tells me not too worry but I do. What if I fall short? Like in the past. You Can Only Type ONE Word.
Not as easy as you might think.
Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.
It's really hard to only use one-w
This is beautiful!
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but
Life In General
Well its Monday and today has been a rough day. Work wasn't all that bad but it was one of those days where you aren't sure what you are going to have to do and you really can't prepare yourself.
But other than that I've had a great day. And life in general is going good. House is great, kid is great, job is good and friends are plentiful. I just wish that I could trust what some people say. I hate playing things by ear and not knowing whether people are telling you the whole truth, ya know? But that's what's gotta happen for now, so that's what I'm doing.
Wish me luck!
a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always
there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see
the world, I will marry you.'
someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages
came off, she was able to see everything, including her
her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The
girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The
sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected
that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life
led her to refuse to marry him.
boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her
saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before
they were yours, they were mine.'
how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what l
jealousy---is an emotion experienced by one who perceives that attention, love or affection is being given to a third party when it should rightfully be given to them. For example, a jealous lover might dislike their partner spending time with other members of the opposite sex, because they feel that they are the rightful sole recepient of their mate's attention
trust--The trait of trusting; of believing in the honesty and reliability of others Have confidence or faith in
Can you truly love someone if you feel jealous of things they do even though you have trust in them?? I battle with this on a regular basis and I don't know how to concur the jealousy even though the trust is there!! The sad part is at times I feel like I am loosing the battle and if I do that I will loose the best think that ever happened to me and that breaks my heart!! I can't sleep..without dreaming
I can't dream..without sleeping
I don't sleep..I don't survive
But to survive..I have to sleep!!
On 9/25/08 Edisto Electric came out and turned off my power when I was not home. When I called them to ask why they said I had not paid them in 3 months I quickly proved them wrong but they refused to turn my power back on until I pay my bill ($391) and give them an additional $225 (bringing my security deposit from $75 to 300) and give them a $50 reconnect fee.
Now on that was 9/25 this happened and on Sat 11/11/08 I received a FINAL bill (not even 30days after cut off) where they refunded my original security deposit (from 7 years ago) of $75. It is my personal belief that they did this as a way to increase there security deposit by brute force.
The sad part about this electric company's actions is they it not only affects me but it affects a totally disabled woman and 2 children.
What is this society coming to when an electric company starts bulling there customers because they know you can not go anywhere else for power and its either pay them or do with out.
The laws o
why is it that when you think its going to be a great day. EVERYTHING goes wrong. it all starts when you think something great is going to happen and your all stoked and then the opposite happens and its all downhill from there.
whats the point in being happy when you just get letdown once again?
Life In General
I have always been a firm believer that many things we consider "bad" at the time occur because it is a way to force us to change what we are doing. Fate is a sneaky creature. I would have never left my job at the prison if all the shit that occurred wouldn't have went on. I had become comfortably numb....hell I used to joke about it. I just let crap happen, I bitched about it but then crawled back in my hole and went back to work even through I wasn't happy. I am so glad that thing got stirred up so that my hand was forced and I finally broke and resigned. I have been happier than I have been in a long time.
Yesterday I found out that there will be a social studies job opening up in December at a local middle school because a woman has chose to retire. It just happens to be at the same school that my best friend already works and where another one of my best friends just applied for a job. I am just wondering....OK.....hoping and praying that this is just another wonderful turn
I really don't understand my ex... He is just a very cruel person. He loves to play these little mind games.. I haven't been with him in over 7 yrs and yet he still does these stupid things to try to get to me...I'm a strong woman and he can't break me down.. He is finally involved with someone and yet still being a jerk...I don't go out of my way to try to make him unhappy or even bring up all his past mistakes but it seems like that's all he wants to do..Who hasn't made mistakes? I've learned from them and they shaped me into who I am today...
Life The Universe And Everything
THE FUBAR GRAND TOUR !!..watch and Enjoy
The non-existence of God. "The argument goes something like this: 'I refuse to prove that I exist,' says God, 'for proof denies faith, and without faith I am nothing.' "'But,' says Man, 'The Babel fish is a dead giveaway, isn't it? It could not have evolved by chance. It proves you exist, and so therefore, by your own arguments, you don't. QED.' "'Oh dear,' says God, 'I hadn't thought of that,' and promptly vanished in a puff of logic
Alot of things have changed. I had two horses stolen, which we haven't found yet, :( I moved in with my love, which is absolutely wonderful. I got a new job, barn manager/vettech, I absolutely love my new job.
I'm not on here much anymore, working and searching for my stolen horses, and planning on doing some remodeling inside the house.
Not ignoring my friends, though it seems like my friends are ignoring me on here. Which has me thinking of leaving fubar.
I hope all is well, I'm headed to work, have a great day!!
Life In Rockwall
Well i moved to Rockwall about 2 months ago...from Tucson(lived there a year)...and so far its been about 90% negative and 10% positive...but i'm estimating. So far i still havent gotten to go see a movie...which was a fairly regular thing i did in Tucson. I go out to eat every now and then...but nothing is the same here. My job...well it isnt that great...i work at the same place i did before moving...sam's club...but here...its so slummy. I get stuck doing extra work every damn night because dayside people dont do their part.
So far been in 2 accidents...i nearly totalled the car in the first one...because of damage underneath. No i wasnt drunk...no i didnt fall asleep at the wheel....i flew over a median on my way home from work that morning(was still dark out) doing 35,40(the legal speed limit where i was at). It did not have yellow paint on it...it did not have reflectors on it...obviously making it blend right in with the dark. The other i wont go into details about. Just ca
May Christ Who was crucified for your sake
free you from excruciating pain.
May Christ Who died for you
free you from the death that never ends.
May Christ the Son of the living God,
set you in the ever green loveliness of His Paradise,
and may He, the true Shepherd
recognize you as one of His own.
May you see your Redeemer face to face
and standing in His presence forever,
may you see with joyful eyes
Truth revealed in all its fullness.
Life is like a roll of toilet paper..the closer you get to the end the faster it goes....
Life As We Know It
why does it seem when one good thing happens and things look like they will be ok, things start to go wrong. when one goes wrong it seems it all starts to fall apart. how do u keep ur head up? why do bad things happen to good people?
Life And Love
Please Hear What I'm not saying
Don't be fooled by the face I ware.
For I ware a thousand masks, and none of them are me
Don't be fooled; for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure, that confidence
is my name and coolness is my game.
And that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in aloneness, in fear.
That's why I create a mask to hide behind, to shield me,
From the glance that know,
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance, if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from my own self-built
I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing and that I'm no good,
And that you will reject me.
And so begins the parade of masks.
I idly chatter to you.
I tell you everything that's really nothing and
Nothing of what's everything, of what's crying with in me.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying.
In simple terms-
I am getting a dress and going to have a good time.
I am then going to go to the court house to have my last name legally changed.
Only difference between what I will be doing and a real wedding is it will be cheaper as there is just me and there will be no honeymoon.
I am doing this because I will never marry, I have known this for some time. Someone once told me marriage is just a piece of paper, and they are right. What does it matter if you are married or not as long as you love the one you are with, but I also hate my last name and usually that is the only reason to have your name changed. So basically I am having a party before I change my name (Out with the old, in with the new).
This did start off as a joke in the mumms, as I have thought more and more about it, it is something I want to do.
So I have wedding dresses picked out (folder labeled wedding dresses), which I need to narrow down to one (all help appreciated not asking for rates
Well the summer is almost all over again and once again I babysat my sisters kid once again this summer..I swear the older they get the more I get stressed out.. I watch my niece who is 13 and nephew who is 11 with adhd and I am stressed out again.. My sister doesn't pay me to way them.. and I keep them at my house all summer except the weekends when i take them home.. They don't listen to me and they walk all over me..I try to deal with them but I can't.. I'm to the point to tell my sister to find someone else to watch them during the summer cus I can't take it anymore and I see it not getting any better.. they are putting a strain on my when i have high blood pressure and don't need need the stress and also with my hubby and i cus we fight over it.. I don't want to hurt my sister but I got no other choice.. I don't know what to do besides talk about it in my blogs...thank you for reading Im just sick in tired of being alive. I have No Life, No friends ( well the only friends i think
The Life Of The Mind
Well, I had warned friends that I'd eventually almost completely forget about logging on here, and sure enough...
Been busy as heck with one thing or another. Mostly bouncing up and down Belmont Shore and PCH doing the job hunt for the umpteenth time in six years and having just as much luck as ever...which is to say, none. Considering the state of economy right now, that's no surprise.
So, back to old reliable. Writing and music composition.
Haven't done either in a long while. Yes, I know, it's red alert when I'm totally unable to write or compose. It's not that the ideas aren't there, those never slow down. Just lately been totally unmotivated.
Looking to change that shortly though. Working on revamping my public profiles on networking sites towards the music edge. My friends keep telling me my composition is good enough to make money with. I don't exactly agree, but then I've always had low opinion of my own work.
Not giving up the writing. "Scar
what can i say i think life sucks right now im 28 divorced onec married twice filing for divorce number two what can i say i have 2 beautiful baby boys and cant let my husbands unfaithful ways go unnoticed so he has lost his family guess i really am cold hearted like they say i can be lol
Life In General
...FUCK with my family...
Yesterday/early this morning my "sister" called me distressed and on the verge of tears b/c of some bitch that she once called her friend. BEST friend even. Telling me she got into a big fight w her and they're no longer friends.
She explained to me the shenanigans that this girl used to do. Now get this scenario...her friend has a b/f, and lives with him. She hasn't seen my sister in 2 weeks but has not seen her b/f in 4 days. When my sister calls out to her for help, to just be there for her and comfort her in this time of enourmous stress, that bitch pretty much tells my friend fuck you in your neck, I'm gonna go get fucked by my b/f. All the while, my sister has dropped so much just to be there for this girl.
Now, the reason I call her my "sister" is b/c we have a relationship that surpasses one of best friendship. And for her to be calling me crying, it's enough to piss me off.
What's more about this chick, is that she's had a b/f for 8 months
Always go out with a bang.... ALWAYZ! Its the only way to be remembered... or else you'l be considered as 'juss another'.... well I'm far from juss another..... hell, apparently, I was "The One"... so how do you go from being "The One" to juss ....one?
When you meet someone, you initially like them for them... and you alwayz say "I like you for you".... so why down the road do people try to change you? And then you try to change for them, and what do they say? "You changed! You're not the person I first met and fell in Love with...." Lol..... make ya mind up...... so My remedy? I don't change.... only thing that changes is my location and/or work schedule..... I have female friends still, love em to death (shout out to Charlie! Her son birthday is today ;o) also shout out all my homegirls thas still here even though you don't approve of my choice in girlfriends...) yep, love em.... I make music, been doin it for so long in fact that cats in the Army ask me "why aint you signed dog?"
Life-saver Of The Month For October!
Hello Ladies & Gents! Introducing your Life-Saver for the month of October....here's UnknownCowboy!
Cowboy you will get Dee's, Emily's, as well as, my 11s for a day.
Please help us in saying congrats to Cowboy by doing what we all do best...showing love!
Thanks to everyone who took the time to place a vote (and then revoting to break the tie). Who will be the next Life-Saver of the Month? Could Be YOU!! :)
Thank you for reading this blog !!
Donna aka GEM
Life Is A Journey
I'm moving to Omaha Monday and then I'm going to upstate NY next Friday. After Christmas I'm going back to NY for good to go to school and be with my girlfriend. I'm so excited!!!!!
I'll be on sooner or later.
Talk to you guys later. I'm tired of all the lies. Tired of putting in all the effort and never seeing a damn thing in return.
Do I look like a fool to you?
Don't give me your excuses; I need results.
I know what I am and what I have to offer. Don't mistake my kindness and gentle words as naivete or weakness.
Don't play games with me. I've seen and heard most everything.
That being said, if your only intentions are to try and make a fool of me, save it for someone else. Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. Y
I must be a failure
I must be an asshole
I keep fucking up
I dont know how to stop
i dont know how to keep you happy
I fail all the time and keeping peave
maybe i should quit
im sick of this
im sick of fighting and
never doing things right
Well Im done fucking up
Im done with it
I have failed at that
and i guess i have failed at us :-( so last night i was told im not welcome at my father in laws house where my fiance and daughter are living before that my fiance decided she needed a break and now i have nothing idk what to do anymore ive lost everything the last month i lost my apartment my fiance my daughter and what lil family i have left :(been seriously thinking about just disapearing for a long ass time then i wouldnt be bothering anyone if i disapear then everyones life becomes so much easier My heart has stopped
from my blood on the floor
the knife cuts so deep
i feel no more
The pain subsides
as the last breathe leaves
I sit and think
about how much
Life As I Know It ....
Well, it t'was a Charley Brown Xmas ... to a point. Lemme tell you, those of you who are divorced, become FRIENDS with your ex. Firstly, the kids will THRIVE. Second, when the chips are down, they'll step up. We never cut it as man and wife, should have STAYED friends. It works SO much better. Christmas was WELL taken care of. The kids had a good time. Of course, having THREE sets of Grandparents doesn't hurt either. :) I'm planning on a small Xmas in January for the extended family and friends.
Still nothing from AT&T ... -Supposedly- the 'check is in the mail' .... Shall see. Till then, there's food in the pantry, gas in the truck and I've got all day to clean, clean, clean !!! (And, perhaps, a bit of Fu :P ) I finally have time to get this place the way I like it !! :):)
Again, Thank you ALL for your support. ... ... GAWD, I sound like a Wine Cooler Commercial. Yeah, I'm old. :P:P .. Can you name the brand?? :P
Life Is What It Is ....
there are so many questions left unanswered
time has finally caught up and
slowed me down, leaving me breathless
intent to teach me a thing or two;
disturbed thoughts push my dreams away,
waiting to be fulfilled,
my dreams linger around
weighing me down every day;
one by one, i lose sight of
those once around me and
trudge on on my own,
through rain and through sun;
as i pretend to live life,
darkness (silence) engulfs me
painting my heart black
while my eyes continue to
scan the road that seemingly
has no end;
WELL HERE GOES I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH ALOT OF SHIT IN THE LAST YEAR.. IV'E WATCHED MY GREATEST HERO IN LIFE(MY POPS) DEAL WITH CANCER TO ALMOST WATCHING MY BEST FRIEND IN LIFE... LOSE THERE BATTLE WITH THEM SELF.. AND KNOW IM LOSING EVERTHING ELSE.. I'VE BEEN ON TOP I'VE OWNED B.M.W'S IVE OWNED HOUSE'S...HELL I EVEN HAD A POOL(LOL).. BUT IN RECENT WEEKS I'VE WATCHED MY LIFE GO FROM BAD TO WORSE.. I DO EVERTHING UNDER THE SUN TO STAY AHEAD AND BE A GREAT DAD(BY THE WAY I HAVE THREE KIDS AND THE BABY AINT MINE ITS MINE FROM MY X-WIFES SECOND MARRIAGE..BUT IM RASING HER SO SHE IS MINE)I'VE LOST MY SELF IN TRYING TO BE EVERONE ELSE'S ROCK AND FORGOT ABOUT ME...WHAT EVER ANYONE DOES IN LIFE DONT EVER FORGET ABOUT YOU.... IF YOURE LIKE ME IT TAKES ALOT TO CARE FOR SOMEONE.. BUT ALWAYS FORGET ABOUT YOURSELF?? I HAVE AND IM SLOWLY TRYING TO FIND MYSELF SO IF YOU READ THIS DONT JUDGE ME UNTIL YOU WALK IN MY SHOES...JAY WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE OR SOMETHING DO SET THAT PERSON OR THING FREE?? YES Y
Yes another year is about to arrive & its gonna suck b/c I am alone. Well not really alone alone but without a guy & I can handle that for now as I think I found someone special but he is very far away & for now all we can do is talk on yahoo & thats fine.
There are several other guys out there that I have been talking to as well and I really hope I get to meet some of you b/c you seem kewl as hell & I am sure we could have some fun hanging out.
To those I have meet & you turned out to be disappointing WTF? But hey thats life you live & learn.
Yes I can be jealous & very needy but that goes with divorcing an asshole who never told me I was worth anything. I am learning to deal with it as best I can.
So if I piss you off or bother you too much just tell me don't just ignore me!
Thanks and HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
MY Gators are in the BCS Championship game after we KILLED BAMA!
I have been talking to some pretty kewl people on here. Have actually
Is life a contest that everyone is involved in? If so...why is the outcome the same for us all? Does it make a difference who's at the top or the bottom of a status quote, or is life just one big enevitable story that we play roles in? Whats your thoughts?
Life As We Know It
thru the dark
search for dreams
reaching for those
bright beams of light
that peirce the night
that false hope
of sweet thoguhts
while high on dope
as really we die
on the reality
of what we can't see
thru the darkness
we think it will end
or does it just begin
evil is in all that we find
if it 's dark or light
as our screams fill the night stars falling
as you turn away
all the corners of my soul
stealing the light
in all of my life
as my thoughts of you fade
my blood slows within my veins
i hear all again
over my disappearing heartbeat
i seem to shrink
away from the world
getting smaller and smaller
my vision is blurred
like my life without you my heart was empty
the days were long
no place at all to call my own
i was all alone
than i saw a name
and could not stop
myself from thinking of it
i heard your voice
and i wanted to hear more
to know that person
who held me in a
Life As We Know It
the tears fall like rain
on my soul
as i learn
that all i know
is a lie
love is just a joke
at my exspense
tearing me apart
so i welcome the rain
that causes pain
to erase you
from my soul
the only problem
is to erase you
i will have to erase myself
so may it rain
hard and fast
so im gone at last i kiss and hold you
my sweet darkness
to heal what is wrong
and make you strong
my heart is yours
as your will be mine
as i hold and kiss you
till the ends of time
no other will there ever be
who can reach
where you can
the deepest ,darkest places
and make it brigth
with your ever present light
to own me
to love me
forever yours alone
My Dark one
When life get tough and rough rememeber your battle is rght the to help you threw to the end!!
I laugh out loud when I see them. If I don't rate them, here's why.
5. Gang Signs- Real gangs use them to communicate secretly. You use them to publicly communicate your stupidity.
4. Cut out the ex- I know they were there, why hide it or pretend they weren't? That crop job sux.
3. Graduation photos - Nothing was ever cool about these. We look like wax dummies or dorks or funeral parlor directors. And for goodness sakes, if you need to, use them as contrast to the present or the expiration date is 2 years. Example: This is 2008, you can only post them as a primary photo if you graduated up to a year ago or they can be posted in your main gallery for two years after graduation. Move on already!
2. Glamour shots- More makeup, more cowbell. Yes they are glamorous...for 1993.
1. Multiple cellphone self-portraits- STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT! Rule #1:Only three different shots with the same outfit with three different poses. Rule#2: Use different environments. Rule #3: If you can
Life Is Life
Hi people! Well, what to say.. I am Violetta from Russia. People know me as Letta Moreva. I compose and sing songs, write novels and live my interesting life =) Here you will be able to get to know my life better :)
I have been through a lot in my short life. I have been trying to hard to get someone to love me and every time i do I get someone that wants to Beat me or Cheat on me. Frankly I have had it. I am tired of being cheated on.I think i am just going to worry about my children and not worry about men anymore. I spend more on paying for things that get broke and everything else that goes on when i worry about love. I am done with men. I am tired of being told lies and believing lies from a man.
Can I help it that I've grown up,
I can't take back mistakes,
I know in my heart and see with mine eyes,
Time has brought some change,
I've changed for the better,
Although some may not see it for the blinders on their eyes,
They count me for who I was, not who I am,
In my past, failed I have,
I am but only woman,
So out with the old,
And in with the new,
But unchanged true is my heart,
It longs for the same and gives of it's all,
For it's love is all I've got. Live not for tomorrow,
Live not for what might be,
Focus your energy, use all your strength,
To achieve happiness today,
Know in your heart that now's all you've got,
For what is to be tomorrow unsure,
Treat others as you want to be treated,,
Keep your heart pure,
Speak only the truth,
Even if in speaking it brings your own death,
Rejoice in all good,
Clear your mind of bad,
Live not for this earth,,
Live not in the past. It seems today as the pain wi
Life Part 4
Just wanted to let you know that i have been in and out of court apperiances on my father and he is now after 12 years in prison for what i would call not long enough 15 months. I don;t know what i will do if when he gets out he finds me but i know that wont be hard. His wife moved from here to wichita and i don't blame her i do although blame her for all the crap i went through she was supossed to be there for me like all moms should. Maybe she thought i was not good enough for her to be there for me i do know that i did the right thing getting him out of here and away from my kids.
Life Of A Well...me...
He wakes up the room is dark he is alone he realises shes not their he starts to sweat he calls her name...no answer the darkness starts to suffocate him he crys out in fear his angel...his savior is gone he hears her laughter in the darkness he screams she laughs darkness's tendrils grab at him tearing his skin tears and blood pools the floor yet he lives feeling darkness peirce his skin like a million dull knifes tearing a path to his heart they prod at his crumbleing soul and his warm heart his soul tatters his heart grows ice and becomes still and cold. She floats just above eyes shining like green emeralds a tear of blood rolls down his cheek as his life ends Hard thoughts and black shadows
Red tears and Gray thoughts
Razor blade love kisses my bones
Haunting thoughts regretful words
Long hurtful Loneliness Sour hating arms
Bony knuckles flowing life forces
Last passionate kiss never to be done again
lustful goodbyes secrets screamed in your eyes
trying to forget both yo
I'm A Single Father, Not Looking For Anything, Really. Don't Have Much Of A Life Anymore, Just Work & The Baby (Who Just Turned 3 Months.) His Mother Is Mostly Out Of The Picture, As She Keeps Blowing Off Her Visits With Him, & Spends The Rest Of Her Time Hounding Me Into Giving Her An Off-Schedule Visit. Usually When The Weather's Bad. He's Already Gotten A Cold Once, From My Taking Him To Her Like That. I'm Not Chancing It Again.
I'm Just Wanting To Meet New People & Talk To Those Out There Willing To Be Friendly. Don't Get Out Much Anymore Because My Little Issac Comes First.
Life Is About.......
1.) Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the best antidepressant.
2.) Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3.) Buy a Tivo (DVR), tape your late night shows & get more sleep.
4.) When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement,
’My purpose is to________ today.
5.) Live with the 3 E’s -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
6.) Watch more movies, play more games & read more books than you did last year.
7.) Always pray. Always.
8.) Spend more time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of Six.
9.) Dream more while you are awake.
10.) Eat more foods that grow on trees & plants & eat less foods that are manufactured in plants.
11.) Drink green tea & plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salm on, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
12.) Try to make at least 3 people smile every day.
13.) Clear your clutter from your house, your car, your desk & let new & flowing energy into your life.
Life, As Told By Nathaniel Jameson Simmons
Life is stated to be simply living. Mabey this is all we get, just one life. The complexity of the universe makes this seem trivial. A useless ten seconds compared to the millions of years the earth has been in existances. How can we live out the day by day simple walk of life with this in mind? Why couldn't we push the envelope a little: do something wild and crazy: something unpredictable? Why not? I sit here in my rough, plastic chair, alone, boared out of my mind as i com to this comclusion. I felt like doing nothing today. Im sorry i didn't do something fun. I'm sorry i decided to be average. I hope no one follows this example. Mabey from now on we should pledge to be different, odd, and spontaneous. Message me if you agree.
A Different Christmas Poem
The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light,
I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight.
My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,
My daughter beside me, angelic in rest.
Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white,
Transforming the yard to a winter delight.
The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,
Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.
My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,
Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.
In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,
So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.
The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,
But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.
Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the
Sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.
My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,
And I crept to the door just to see who was near.
Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,
A lone figure stood, his face weary and tigh
Life Is Too Short
Life is too short. With evrything going on in the world these days, you need to step back and take a good look at life. Are you happy where you are at? Where are you going? Since being in Fubar, I've seen a lot of people taking this thing way to seriously. It is supposed to be fun. Is it a popularity contest? Maybe. I don't look at it like that. I have met some great people online here and I enjoy the company. I have a different attitude about life thanks to a few of you. I never read blogs until i stumbled into a fu-woman named fuzzy bunny's bolg page. If you get nothing else out of this blog, read what she has written. you will LYAO. And I met someone else on here who has shown me that there is hope in life. She may be half way around the world, but she has helped me focus on what is important to me in life. I'll be there some day, because , life is too short. and you need to get to where you need to be before life passes you by.
life can throw u alot of stuff good and bad and i have had them both this year the best part was marrying my best friend and lover he has been there for me thru alot and now we can do it togather i love this man with all my heart and nothing will ever make me lose him i sometimes wish i hadnt waited so long and that we had met before we married our 1st time but i have him now and i wont lose him
Life And Fun
Hello i am writing another blog for my pleasure cause most people dont read blogs but i dont care
I am finally getting a night out tomorrow and i am so excited. My mom in law is keeping the kid over night and me and the hubby are going out. We are going to dinner and then probably to the funny bone and then to adobe gilas for some fun. What is great is we wont have to worry bout what time to get in cause we wont have a kid to take care of that night. It has been awhile since me and hubby have had a date and we really need it. I hope that it is all that i am hoping it will be. After 13 years of being together he has a habit of making my heart melt, unless he is pissing me off lol. I love him with all my heart and there are times when i fall in love with him over and over again. I cant imagine life without my two favorite people, my daughter and my husband.
Being a mom has changed me a great deal. I never knew i could possibly love someone so much. She has made me such a better perso
Lifeis An Isnt About
Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have
Or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend
or if you're alone.
It isn't about who you're dating, who you used to date,
how many people you've dated,
or if you haven't been with anyone at all.
It isn't about who your family is or
how much money they have,
Or what kind of car you drive.
It's not about how beautiful or ugly you are.
Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have,
Or what kind of music you listen to.
It's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black, or brown,
Or if your skin is too light or too dark.
Not about what grades you get, how smart you are,
how smart everybody else thinks you are, or how smart
standardized tests say you are.
It's not about what clubs you're in or how good
you are at 'your' sport.
It's not about representing your whole being on a piece of paper and seeing who will 'accept the written you.'
Life just is
hello i just thought id write about my life and and how its going. well first thing is im lonely. see i always fall for girl right off the bat and never think that its never going to end. then i found out that they play head games and leave me hanging in the balance. wondering if they are going to be with me
Life, Liberty & The Persuit Of Happiness
disclaimer- spell check is broken. stfu if there's a misspelled word or twenty :p
I couldn't eat a burger @ a fast food place for almost a year after watching "fast food nation"- but out of sight, out of mind, right?
I bought a book a couple weeks ago called "Skinny Bitch" since I'm a fat ass, I am trying to become a skinny bitch. Anyway, this book sat on my desk for these two weeks, and this morning I decided to drink my coffee on the deck and start reading.
I got to chapter 6 before my stomach (which was empty, thank God) started to turn. The chapter is called "you are what you eat" This book is promoting vegitarianism. HAHA- if I had read that little tid bit of info on the back cover, I would not have bothered to buy the book. These sneaky bitches left that out- and so here I get slapped hard across the face with detailed information about slaughter houses and cruetly to animals that I have been frying up, bar-b-queing- boiling-baking for years.
I seriously wanted to
Do you ever have a time where life just gets you down and you cant seem to pick yourself back up that's where i'm at right now. Hopefully things will start looking up soon before i end up even more depressed than i am now.
i see how people are day and the future
donot understand or they donot want too
maybe they need to walk in their shoe
poor, middle, and rich
we bleed the same blood
and color is red
we live paid check to check
one day at time
Know what? I gotta be the Stupidest guy in the world. I had My Life going in a Good Direction. A Direction that My Mother actually approved of & was hoping that I would stay on. Let Me give You alittle background. 3 1/2 years ago, I was unemployed & sleeping on the couch @ My brothers. Didn't have much of a future. Well, in the mornings I noticed this attractive Woman that was about My age. She's actually 2 years older than Me. Well, We got to talking & soon after I got a job. It's the job I currantly have now & have had for almost 2 1/2 years. I really like My Company & the People I work for. Well, back to the story. As Me & this Incredible Woman talked the More I liked Her. She had been married a couple times before & has 5 Wonderful kids, All of whom to this Day I Adore & Love. Well, We would meet each morning for the bus. Me going to do My morning routine of hang with Friends before work & Her going to work at a local Hospitol. Even on My days off, I would be out there every mornin
Hey everyone if you want to join me and my husband in some fun you have to live in Indiana or Louisville and want to come to sellersburg to join us if your interested please let me know I'm curious to say i've been with a woman before and want to experience more and I love my dick so All Guys Welcome even couples if your interested Let me know.. Thanks...
Now I know I dont usually write blogs dealing with stuff relatively important. But times have changed. Life seems to have thrown me a lot of curve balls over the years. Be it bad relationships or what have you. And Ive come to survive those obstacles. But there are times when I think to myself is too much enough? Its no secret at all that I used to be heavy into cutting. It was the only way to deal with pain at the time because the pain of a cut cancelled out the pain in my soul. And while I havent done it in years the urge still comes and goes at times. But I fight it. Now people can go and say oh thats emo and blah blah blah wtf ever. And to those that DO then save it. You dont live my life and dont know wtf goes on in it. Dont be so quick to judge.
The air rushes past my body as I plummet towards the icy water I so love. As I’m in the air I think about my first jump and I... my thoughts are shattered as I plunge into the icy water once again. Such is life; I’ve come to enjoy the freedom of “flying” from the cliff into the icy water. Sure it’s a rush leaving what I know as “stable” ground and leaping off into the air to be greeted by icy water but its being “weightless” for those few seconds that I truly love. Freedom from the stability, a view you can’t get anywhere else and nothing can touch you, if nothing more then a few seconds. I try to live my life according to this everyday that I can. Life is short, its what you make of it and if one tries hard enough anything can be done.
Life What You Make Out Of It
At 5 am.....I got a phone call. A person that we consider to be in our family went to the hospital. She was pregnant I didn't know........
I ran to the hospital.....she had cramping and bleeding so I stayed there comforting her for 4 DAMN HOURS. THEN I HAVE TO TAKE HER TO THE DOCS FOR HER APPOINTMENT AT 1430!!!
SO IF YOU WANT TO PISS ME OFF TODAY IT'S A GREAT DAY TO DO IT BECAUSE GUESS WHAT I DON'T CARE IF YOUR THE FUCKING QUEEN OF GOD DAMN ENGLAND. I WON'T TAKE SHIT FROM ANYONE, ESPECIALLY TODAY!!!!
Ok something good did come out of everything today....weighed myself and I'm 115. LOST 5LBS THAT I THOUGHT I COULDN'T LOOSE!!!
It feels so good and I guess that eating once a day thing, smoking like hell, and exercise works.
I drink alot of pop which I know I shouldn't but I want to stay just like this.
So anyway that is my accomplishment and I'm going to start making 1 accomplishment everyday if you don't like it so what it's my little goal you could say.
Life "is Pain"
What Love means to a 4-8 year old . . ...
Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. From the mouth of babes.
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, ' What does love mean? '
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:
'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn ' t bend over and paint her toenails anymore
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That ' s love. '
Rebecca- age 8
'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth '
Billy - age 4
'Love is when a girl p
Life And Friends
well i just had a few word to say bout fubar friends and life. fubar is 1 of the best online places to meet new friends and friendare a very important piece of my life so my heart goes to all my friends that i know now and to the 1's that i will meet jus wanted to sya that i love ya guys and hope you holidays are as joyful as mine will be. this x-mas i get to spend in michigan with my kids that i haven't seen in almost 2 yrs and if i could go back in time i would try to make their life twice as good as it is now but i'm not a miracle worker. their mom and i tried and tried we sacraficed our happiness for there's and i would still do it if that what it would take to make them happy. jus ramblin on n on well thats all i have to say for now ...... To MY LIL Ladies court kayla and lala DADDIES COMMING HOME FOR CHRISTMAS AND I MISS YOU GIRLS SOOO MUCH DADDY LOVESSSSSS YOU
i feel so unimportant to some like it is i am here to please others. others feelings are supposed to be important but mine arent. in life we are always taken for granted but we arent to take others for granted. my thoughts mean nothing to people and what i say doesnt matter. oh well such is life nothing changes nothing stays the same. if wondering is this about somebody, no one in particular yet everyone in particular. if i cant do something for someone they get angry at me yet my life is busy. i am a mom, i cant help that. no one will understand my blog yet i do. will i explain it no i wont. for the most part i dont mind these feelings but today they are overwhelming. do i want pity no i dont i dont need pity or anything just wanted to get thoughts out on paper. I swear to fucking god i hate my mom. I do everything i can for her and she does nothing but bitch. I am taking her to the doctor tomorrow but i cant do anything today so she says if i dont step up for her tomorrow then she n
Life... Is Hard.
So the last couple months have been really hard on me. First I had to get an emergency root canal. That cost $600. Then I got laid off from my job because they didn't have the budget to keep me on. Then I got a job stocking over nights. While working there I sprained my knee. The Friday following that I was in a car accident where I received blunt force trauma to my chest and strained my back and neck. This past Thursday my beloved cat Jade died. The vet thinks it was her liver. I am so tired of the bad stuff. I am behind on all of my bills and I'm at my wit's end.
Life Sux And Then...
Ok so here is the deal...I was given 10 days notice to move.Seems my lease will not be renewed due to the owner wanting to move family into the house...I have looked at so many houses/apartments/condos/townhouses that my head is spinning...avg price here for 3/2 home is $1600 a month and most if not all want the same as a deposit and last months rent AND $250-300 as a pet deposit for my cat. So i am looking at like $5 fucking grand to move in...I'm fucking pissed 2 weeks before Christmas an not having the coin to move!I hate my life. Well if you read my last blah-g you know I was pissed about moving...well I signed the lease on a new place and the owner let me in with 1/2 the $$$ everyone else was asking...as it turns out he owns a ton of rental property...I told him I was handy and would be willing to take money off the rent to help maintain his properties. That sealed the deal...I WILL NOT BE HOMELESS FOR CHRISTMAS!
Life Could Possibly Be Nsfw
As We Sit here And think of the Crap That i get On a daily Basis Is Leading Me To belive That If i can Make it i Can Do Anything.
If i have the Support of everything and everyone i can Make it and do Anything.
Life Or Something Like It
I wake in the morn thinking of you.
I spend my waking hours
Wishing I could say,
One simple phrase to you
So I could make my day complete.
Cause when i sleep at night,
I dream of you.
In daylight I say not a word,
But when I'm alone in the dark,
I scream out your name
As if you could hear me far away.
In the winter, I wish you were there
To make me forget about the unbearable cold,
And I wish you were there in the rain
To share my fun and joy.
I wish I didn't scream out your name,
But whisper it in your ear.
But you'll never know
That when I wake in the morn,
I think of you. A gentle touch from the one you love
like a gift from the stars above
can kindle a flame so deep inside
even your heart cannot hide
Hide from the beauty
within you that lies.
Hidden in sorrow.
hatred the diguise.
So rare a beauty
So pure a heart
that it broke when we last did part. I'll take my blows and one for you
Remembering all that I've been through
Donning facades as I turn away
In order to find what you are looking for, a person needs to know what they want. And this is what I did. I have been looking for this qualities in a man for a long time and praying that God blend them together in a special person and when it is in His will, introduce me to this wonderful man.
By listing the qualities, I was able to focus more clearly on my prayers to God regarding this man that I know is out there.
Helpful- I think every woman hopes to find a man that will help with things around the house. Washing the dishes, the laundry, making the beds. I love to think that the man I will spend my life with will enjoy spending this bit of time with me. Making it more of a fun game then a chore. I want a helper. A man that can be helpful when I need some help. I am not helpless and very rarely ask for help from my friends and loved ones, but sometimes I do need help. As well as I went this man to be helpful to others as well.
Lighthearted – It is always refreshing when
On my way to the auction sale, I stopped in the little town
As I sipped my coffee I knew for certain there were no galleries to be found
But I inquired of my waitress, who smiled and said I’d see
The finest paintings ever done, within “Life’s Gallery.”
You see, in the city where I work I write a column there
That tells the world if art I see is good or bad or fair
And sure that I was wasting time I found the little shop
With the faded sign that said, “Life’s Gallery” perched upon the top
So not expecting much, I stepped in though the door
To behold a sad display I saw was something less than poor
It really was ridiculous, the paintings hanging there
A sick idea of a joke for all the canvases were bare
I muttered a curse beneath my breath and turned to leave the shop
When a soft yet firm hidden voice said the words “Please stop.”
I spun and saw a little figure of an old man standing near
Who went on to introduce himself, his words I still can hea
Life Made From Poetry
as I waken from the nights sweet peace I see what is most lovely of all
for beside my heart is a love to true so much more lovely than august fall
ever breath I take is like the first drink of water for a soul that thirst
because she has held me loved me and captured my being she is first
I will embrace her cherish her love her night and day every moment I am awake
her mystic beauty enchants me even my dreams are of her softness i cant wait
you know my love this moment will last for eternity in our lives
for seventh heaven i will take you I will help you reach the skies
once loved by you I cannot fathom what life would be without you in my life
so long I do crave you, adore you will keep you safe and loved free of strife
be gentle with myheart my love for it is yours to keep and enjoy forever
and it will keep your hunger and hope and thirst quenched like a river.
This is a quote
"life isn't measured by the number of breaths we as h
Life Is Great!
Merry Christmas everyone! I just got in a ride this morning and I FEEL f-ING WONDERFUL! Time to catch a buzz and go spend time with family. Holiday pics in a couple of days.
Christin mountain biking is the name of my game. There is no better rush than 60+ down a mountian, no-ing that your probably going to be hurt, but I'm a junkie to the adrinaline rush! If you don't scare the shit out of yourself did you really ride? Life is too short for Watching TV and lying around on your ass! There is no better feeling than pulling off something that you know was stupid and you could have been hurt or killed. Live life on the edge as much as possible and make every day count. Just got some jamican elephant ear!
Christin For new years im going to memphis, tn, to my family's bar to a hugh party!A buddy and myself went and picked some shrooms (that still grow wild in arkansas, milking cattle) and all the booze behind the bar at the BLUE MONKEY, ITS SHOULD BE A WILD N
Ok were having a disscussion in a different blog about not bein able to be with loved ones on christmas. me ill be working both christmas eve and day. i do not get so see my sons face to open up presents. but then i have goin on in my mind. how the hell can i afford christmas when i can just skid by on making rent and bills. and then you have people that are like well christmas is about family and spending time with each other and all that.. i understand this as an adult. but try explaining that to a 5 year old. they want the world, they expect like 432542542 gifts under the christmas tree. and they are getting more and more expensive as the years go on. kids are getting more and more spoiled. lol. why cant it be about family and what not. not the screaming kids that are crying and stompin there feet cuz they didnt get there Wii (or how ever you spell that fucking thing) or there playstation 3's. i dont know where im goin with this but my issue is chrismas sucks. lol.. its been tainted
Well here is my story my life. I was a wild teenager unlike most. I ran away did drugs partied and never got caught, until one time. Well I guess it was worth it but I did stuff way to young. That was all before I was 17. When I was about 18 I found out I was pregnant with my first child. The father was my high school sweet heart and we were together for a few years. We got married and then just a little over a year we were divorced. He sis stuff that wasn't rite. Then I eventually met a man who I thought was great, a God even . He treated my son like crap and me too after we were married for 5 years I found out he was cheating on me and that ended that. I learned to settle down a lot and now I live in Ohio and love it. I am with a guy who I have known for years as a friend we have a son and he is now 8 months old. There have been a lot of hard ships. My son was born 3 months premature and has a lung disease from being on a ventilator so long about 2 weeks. He was premat
Here I sit this morning with only 10 days to go before I take this leap off into the unknown. I have never made a decision quite so quickly before in my life. Truth be told I am scared to death. When giving birth you have 9 months to prepare yourself. When you get married you have the engagement period to prepare yourself. I made this decision on a whim and now I am just plain terrified. What if I get to where I am going and hate it. What if I just put a monkey wrench in all the goals and dreams I had set for myself? These are all things I think of. I have been so wrapped up in school and preparations for my move that I am finally starting to slow down and think. I know at this time it is the best decision for me. But I am not the type of person who worries about me. I worry about everyone else involved. Everyone else and their happiness comes before mine. Its the way I live my life. Anyway, I guess I'm just venting. Deep Down I know it will all work out.
My life is a CRAZY hectic mess,lol. But I love it and wouldn't change it for the world.. I'm sick of lying men so if you think to just use me and lie to get me then hit the exit door running or you'll be missing half an ass cheek! Honesty is always key,lol. And TRUST me I LOVE SEX! And if I want it you'll know..so don't harrass me please..I like to flirt and know when Im ready to do the talk,lol..
Life Of Freyja
I'll be on very little until Wednesday 01-21-09. Its girl scout cookie sales time and additionally, i have influenza currently at my home and a stomach virus. Family of five so its a disinfecting nightmare. Luckily i had the flu shot and i hope will not get the bug. Anyway I will be busy to say the least. Kisses and loves to all. Now at work trying to catch up coz i was late today.
Freyja! I'll be gone starting this afternoon until Monday 12-22-08, due to the holidays I will miss you all so much!
Leave me love and surprises while I'm away because I will be thinking about you
Your Freyja! I'll be busy the next few days
We lost my Grandma on Tuesday January 27, 2009,I saw her on Sunday she was at the store we were selling girl scout cookies i had hugged and kissed her that day she was well and smiling as usual. She had just moved into a rockin retirement center. She turned 89 in December and was getting somewhat depressed hanging around he
You know I have seen a lot of racial tension lately, whether here or in real life and it really pisses me off. Yes this 2009 and i really thought we have surpassed all of that nonsense long ago. Look at us now. Did we ever think we would ever get a black president? No i didnt and when we did i was like WOW we have really grown but yet all i have seen is negativity. It is like we expect him to perform miracles. We didnt get this way overnight so give it time. Dont criticize him for every small thing he does it is his right.
If this was any other president he wouldnt be given a second thought but because he is black it seems like he is being watched and people are just waiting to pounce. I am not saying that this is a racial thing but he has already gotten more publicity than most other presidents. His job is the hardest, most stressfull, most unappreciative jobs out there and yet he choses to stay and try to lead our country in the right direction. I say give him time and instead of c
There are a million facial expressions
each with its own meaning
the teary eyed of ashamed confessions
which can cut the deepest
the sadistic grin can give you the shivers
it can expose what's really within
the frown of a beautiful face
it can bring tears to my eyes
but there is one I cannot place
love, there is no expression
just a feeling of being complete
It's the only true cure for depression
but the best expression is a passionate kiss
it can take away all your pain
and leave you in heavenly bliss
The Life Of Me
I didn't know! You didn't know! How could we know?
Did you know that DUE TO THE TROOPS:
47 countries have now reestablished their embassies in Iraq ?
Did you know that the Iraqi government currently employs 1.2 million
Did you know that 3100 schools have been renovated, 364 schools are
263 new schools are now under construction, and 38 new schools have been
completed in Iraq ?
Did you know that Iraq 's higher education structure now consists of 20
Universities, 46 Institutes or Colleges, and 4 research centers, all
Did you know - that Iraqi women are now allowed to attend schools?
Did you know that 25 Iraqi students departed for the United States in
January 2005, for the re-established Fulbright program?
Did you know that the Iraqi Navy is now operational? That they have five
(5) - 100-foot patrol craft, 34 smaller vessels, and a naval infantry
Did you know that I
Okay, so I was checking on my friend after the holidays and trying to find out if her son made it back from his stay with his dad. He is 2 1/2 too. Well, when I talked to her she told me that her son was sick and was running over a 103 degree temp when she got him back. I guess, apparently, her ex fiance did not have any heat at his place and no food in the house for the ten days that he had his son. I told her that she should have filed a CPS report against him but it would do no good as he lives out of state. Basically, she had to take her son straight to the emergency room because he had the first stages of pnemonia and was very very sick. Luckily, she knows that she will not allow for her son to ever go back to his father again and that he will get only supervised visitations. I am still wondering today that since her ex allowed this to happen she should have called someone about her ex, though. Her ex is finally back at his home and now my friend is caring for a very sick child...
Life Seems To Be A Quick Sucession Of Busy Nothings.
And so it begins...
So yeah I get it. I'm attractive, I appreciate the positive attention. But seriously? Get to know me before you demand my YIM id.. I'm much smarter than I'm given credit for.
Shoutbox is funny today... (Read from the bottom)
(then he ignored me AWW!)
wassup: go fuck yourself cunt
->wassup: The best part is? Your only picture is a hash out of DRAMA...And the fact that you're in my shoutbox starting shit is only making yourself come across as an asshole. The irony tastes so sweet! Go play in traffic. :)
->wassup: lol.. Nevermind. It's obviously over your head.
->wassup: I, however am not one of them.
->wassup: Trust me, there's lots of sluts around here that will get you off booboo ;)
wassup: not here to play your silly games
->wassup: Well for starters that's privileged info for family only...
wassup: cool, what's your yahoo?
->wassup: I do..
wassup: do u have yahoo messenger?
how easy is it to put up a wall around your hart.... ever think about that? and then one day u meet someone and u start talking then dating and the next thing you know the wall you put up gets in the way. and you dont know how to take it down. you would rather feel safe then happy or get hurt again. well if you know how to take a wall down around a heart let me know. because thats my life.
i had an epifany!! the other day i tripped so hard i saw my whole life flash before my eyes. i watched my 2 yr old, my 3 yr old, and my whole family grow u and start their own lives. i saw my kids start school, get boyfriends, get married, and have kids of their own. i saw my son, which i dont have yet, be born and get in his first fight, grow up and start his own family, i watched my eyes fade as i got old. i saw my grandchildren before i turned 25. i experienced the good times and the hardships of my life without even realizing what it was. i saw my dearest family members grow old and pass on. i lived out my entire military career, and saw wars that havent happened yet, and the blessings and the turmoil that the world and everyone in it goes through everyday. and when it was all over, i woke up on my back, on the floor with my 2 yr old next to me smiling. when i looked into her eyes a thought came to me; life is shorter than u think, think before u act, choose lifes choices carfully,
My Life is a good one I guess I have a son who calls me his mom. I am But I want something more in my life I want a REAL MAN to love me for me and not for what I can offer. If you read this message me.
I never realized how precious life is until this morning. Now mind you, I have encountered a near death experience before back in 2004 after having my youngest son and 3 weeks later was hours away from death when I was rushed to the hospital with a blood clot in my lung. Thankfully God spared me that time and I cherish my children more because of that experience. But nothing could have prepared me for this morning. It's December and of course weather is nasty here in NY. I had a doctors appt at 8am this morning and the drive normally takes me an hour. After seeing we were having freezing rain over night I decided to leave an hour earlier to make sure I arrived safely. I was fine after getting my early morning cup of coffee. I'm driving on the highway going with traffic at about 55 MPH. The roads were slick in some areas and slushy all over so I'm driving with precautions. I was on a 3 lane highway. I was in the far left lane and an 18 wheeler was in the far right lane. Out of nowhere,
so this is what i found out in my life. people dont give a dame about people or their fellings of thous people when they hurt them its a hared thing to take but guess what people its true
Life Goes On....
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius,
and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous
than absolutely BORING.' I don't care if you lick windows,take
the special bus or occasionally Pee on
yourself...You hang in there Sunshine,
you're FRIGGIN SPECIAL.
As we grow up we learn that even the people
that wasn't supposed to let you down probably
will.You will have your heart broken probably
more than once and it's harder every time.You'll
break hearts too,so remember how it felt when yours was broken.You'll fight with your best friend.You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.You'll cry because time is passing to fast.You'll eventually lose someone you love.So take too many pictures , laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt, Because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of HAPPINESS
you never get back.Don't be afraid that your life will end,be afraid that it will never BEGIN...
Okay I know it's Murphy's Law. But, have you ever had anything that could go wrong to you go wrong. Like having 4 family memebers pass away, getting injured at work, losing your job (so they don't have to pay you for the injury), having to fix your house, having your child end up in and out of hospitals, having that stress keep pilling up on you, not really having many friends, and it seems like th ones that you do have you cn't keep, or getting new friends and scaring them away when they relize how messed up your life can be. It seems like everytime you get over one hump. (like having someone close to you in and out of the hospital and some people telling you that with there condition most people dont last more than 10 years some times only 5.) Something else messes up. And when you get through all of this stuff things will start to go really god for you for a while then wham here comes another tidlewave of stuff to deal with. It's just amazing what we as humans can put up with. Yes s
So yea....way too much goin on in my head tonight so thought id blog it....went out last night with nicole, ended up hangin with the guys which i hadnt done in awhile...i missed it! Had a blast! I definatley needed that since id been so down and bored and stuck at home! So saw a guy that i like and its got me thinking. See heres the thing....we had a lil fling goin on awhile back...and well not intentionally i broke his heart :( But i believe he is still into me which is good but he is also my ex boyfriends best friend. Makes things a tad difficult. He is a really great guy and i know he would treat me great and thats what i deserve!!!! He has been a great friend lookin out for me too. I just dont know whether to pursue something again or not. Id definatley like to hang out some more and see how things go...so i guess thats what ive come too cause thinking beyond that things get all cloudy lol anywho im freezing and im hungry so im out......
Place an X by all the things you've done a
So here I am writing my first blog on fubar which i do have several on blogger and myspace. Here I am going to school full time and working to full time job but I still can't please anyone. People still want more from me. I am trying to better myself but i just seem to keep falling farther behind and can't get ahead. Where is the limit when people can finally say he has done enough and he can't do no more so lets give him a break. I have sadly come to realize that in the economy that we are in nothing you do will ever be enough people will always expect more. So for me I guess I am stuck in this prison and can't get out though I hope that when I finally graduate ( fall of 2010) I will be able to finally break free.
Sometimes life can be so stressful, so confusing. Ugh, where to start? Seems like you can never say enough. Almost like you can never get through to anyone...no matter how hard you try. Some days things are Great and others its just another non-stop confusing circle. Ever get tired of showing you care? Especially when it seems to get you nowhere?? Some days I feel like giving up, like all the worrying and trying I do just really isn't worth it. Too often I feel like I'm being taken for granted, like my kindness is my weakness. Maybe I should just say fuck it all and be done, but there is always something that pulls me back. why? I don't know and still haven't quite figured out how to stop it...... ugh
well i broke up with my girlfriend just before xmas so i will probably be on here alot more
Life In Thought (theories)
ok everyone knows it's an on going battle, but think about it, if the egg came first then how'd it get there, what fertilized it, what incubated it, and what fed the baby chick when it hatched cuz we all know a chick cannot feed itself As I see it, there are always two sides to everything, what if it was just one big whole?
Recently I have made a realization. There are two societies in the world (in general).
This consists of friends, family, and associates. The associates don't really have much of an impact on your life as they do not really care, they are just there. Friends are people whom you can count on to a point, they all have their weaknesses and strengths, pros and cons. Then you have your family, who will always be there for you when you need it even if you don't want it. They will not judge you for anything at any time. Family is by default blood, however, as you grow older you gain family by growing close relations with others. having sai
Life, As A Bitch
When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
Being a bitch
means I won't
in my heart.
It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes
TEACH ME HOW TO KNOW DEATH AND GO ON WITH LIFE.
TEACH ME HOW TO LOVE LIFE AND NOT FEAR DEATH!
WE ALWAYS HAD A SPECIAL CONNECTION, ONE THAT NO ONE COULD BREAK!
WE COULD ALWAYS TELL EACH OTHER EVERYTHING, OR AT LEAST
THE NIGHT YOUR GRANDMOTHER TOLD ME YOU WERE DEAD,
I TOLD HER TO STOP MESSING WITH MY HEAD.
I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU FELT YOU COULDN'T TALK TO ME,
I WONDER WHY I WASN'T THERE FOR YOU,
I WANT YOU BACK SO BADLY,
BUT NOW THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.
HOW DID I NOT SEE YOUR PAIN, OR IS WHAT YOU TOLD ME, WAS IT ALL IN VEIN.
AS I AM LEFT HERE ALONE, STANDING IN THE RAIN, I WANT TO KNOW SCOTT, WHAT YOU REALLY HAD TO GAIN!
IM LEFT TO WONDER IS THERE ANYTHING I COULD HAVE DONE,
THE NIGHT THEY TOLD ME YOU WERE GONE, AND HOW YOU HAD DONE WHAT YOU DID, I WANT TO KNOW YOU DID IT WITH A GUN?
BEFORE YOU PUT THAT GUN TO YOUR HEAD, DID YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT YOU WANTED TO BE DEAD?
YOU THOUGHT NOBODY CARED, WELL YOU WERE WRONG,
YOU ALWAYS HAD ME, BUT NOW YOU
I currently am living in a house with my family that we share with my Step-mother In-law and my Mental Sister In-law. They both think that the world revolves around them and that they do no wrong. The Step-mother In-law has no knowledge of how to properly budget her money and spends money in away to were the bills for the house are months behind and she blames everyone else for her not having the bills payed. Same with my Sister In-law she gets a monthly check and just about always has her bank account over drawn. Mean while my family live in the basement and I pay my bills and the the electric bill for the whole house as well as do repairs to the house and the vehicles that are not in my name. While my truck sits and I can't come up with the money to get my transmission fixed. Just can't wait for me to be able to file for my taxes and get my refund cause that will get my truck fixed and solve the living situation.
2008 sucks for me I lost my dad on dec 10th and my wife on dec 30th.
The pain is really bad but i will make it some how some way.
the only thing is i miss them very much!
Life Is A Theater ...
Life is a theater - invite your audience carefully.
Not everyone is spiritually healthy and mature enough to have a front row seat in our lives.
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.
It's amazing what you can accomplish when you LET GO, or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going-anywhere relationships/friendships/fellowships!
Observe the relationships around you.
Pay attention to:
Which ones lift and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones always have DRAMA or don't really understand, know and appreciate you and the gift that lies within you?
When you seek growth, peace of mind, love and truth, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the FRONT ROW and who should be
To day life was ok but some people think that thy should be able to drive 45mph in a 60mph high way then thy couse others to have to get around them. if U cant drive the speed limit dont drive right.
The past two days I have learned to never take anything for granted. We take our health, family and friends for granted everyday. When life takes a turn we are shocked at how something could intrude on our normal everyday existance. My father was being treated for high potassium which caused leg tremors/spams. Tuesday he had a seizure from it which resulted in an emergency room visit and then a various scans. These led to brain cancer, and then lung cancer alas cancer in the adrenal gland. He still has not had a biopsy, but the Dr's mentioned stage 4 cancer. The cancer in his brain is about thesize of a quarter and they say it is new and has been there about three weeks. They are unable to do any types of surgery because they are afraid of clotting and immediate death. His cancer is aggressive. I am not ready to lose my dad. I am thankful that I have been able to make him feel special on many occasions during his life, that I told him I loved him after almost all telephone conversation
Life As A Diver
I pack up my bags and grab my hat,
These are the tools I use for a job I am good at.
Its 2 am and on my way to the shop
Man oh man I never saw that cop
I talk my way out of that I'm proud
Now I'm late but so is the rest of the crowd
We jump in a van head to the dock
Only making a few piss stops.
on a boat don't remember the name
We find out this ride is quit lame.
We get to the rig from which we will stay
Man I wish we could just end this day.
So we finish the paper work and JSA's
Now why won't they let me hit the hay .
Finally a break, while the tenders are on deck,
They call me out but this place is a wreck.
SO back to my rack I retire,
Please don't wake me for atleast 4 hours
Ok Ok they wake me up
Time to go out and do my stuff
I get dressed in all my gear
Step to the side of the boat in the water I pear
One big jump I leap right in
Down to the depths end
I am amazed at all the glows,
As I pass these
Life As I See It.
All my life I’ve been told
A man’s word is his bond
As I look at myself
I see my life as a fuckin fraud
With everything ventured and yet nothing gained
I need an escape, to get my mind right, to rearrange
To crucify me and burn me at the stake now
Hands held empty, what more could I fuckin take now?
With all the problems of the world surrounding me
It’s do or die, once I’m gone will they finally see?
All the words left swirling, friends’ backs turning
Left in the cold, all relationships burning
On the pyre, to extinguish an eternal flame, one soul burned
And allowed to rise from the ashes, left to return
To take form, and to fly away
Moving forward, Quit looking to yesterday cause tomorrow’s today.
All the time that was spent to help you move on
Sacrificing myself, not to travel alone
To reclaim a man, once lost and dead
Following his heart, torn apart and all but bled
Free me from these chains, that once contained me
Transplanted to a world, allowed to breath
9:50 AM Wake up use bathroom
9;52 AM Get dressed
10:15 AM Take roomie to pck up check
10;30 AM Take her to bank
10:40 AM Take her to WAWA
10;43 AM Drop her off at work
10:45 AM Go to Food Lion get food
11:08 AM Get back home start dishes
11:30 AM Start cookin brunch
12:05 PM Leave to pickup brothers friend
to take her to work
12:30 PM Leave where she is staying to
head to her work
12;50 PM Drop her off and head to store
to get kids batteries and while
im there a few odds and ends
1:30 PM Get home just in time for nephew
to arrive to be baby sitted
WOW A REPRIEVE...........................
3:30 PM Take something to my roomie at work
3:40 PM Take kids to Game Stop
3:50 PM Go by ABC store for friend
4:15 PM Get back home wait for sister
to come get nephew
OH WOW REPRIEVE #2............
6:20 PM Grab daughter and go to take a
CD to someone for him
6:40 PM Stop and get the kids so
Life Of A Vw-harley Davidson Trike
This is my FIRST BLOG. For those who have taken the time out of their very busy day to read my thoughts about My Trike, I thank you.
In the 1990’s I knew NOTHING L about “Trikes”. I came back to California in October 1998. I was introduced to a very strange Sub-Culture just by happenstance . I felt like Alice tumbling through the rabbit hole. There are so many different ways to fabricate a trike. Let your imaganation be your guide The only limit is the MONEY. Very powerful limit, MONEY.
I began gathering other peoples JUNK in 1999. Between then and now I have assisted in building 4 trikes and this last one I did 90% of all the welding, cutting, bending, and paint. I was quite proud of this one.
I bought a NEW 1995 Harley Davidson Heritage, Springer front fork‘.. I got a solid, 21“, highly polished aluminum, “Centerline “ front rim and a pair of 17” x 10” Crieger SS chrome rims on the rear. I had just installed a newly rebuilt 1776cc VW Bug, air co
Through life you go through many changes, you take many different roads, not knowing where each one will lead, but it is the roads that you take that you learn many different things. Love,happyness,caring,trust,let downs and sadness. yes you may fall but each time you get up some times you get lost , but then some one comes along and shows you the way. as you grow you will loose people that are close to you such as a parent a brother, a sister, a cousin, a niece,a nephew, a grandparent and es even real close friends.you think to yourself why did this happen you get angry and yes sometimes think that you think it should have been you instead. things in life happen for different many reasons, but they will alway's be close to you . along they way you meet many different people and yes some become your friends, and yes friends have fights and some times you get over it and some times you don't . you also may have 1 love or maybe more, but in life you get that one person that just knocks
still lost..I just don't know what I want, where I want to be or who I want to be with. I am trying so hard to stand on my own two feet...not doing very well, I don't think.
I spend most my waking hours high...I mean MOST of them.
I am still after the same thing though...happiness. I have two people who "love" me and yet I am still unhappy. I don't understand myself. That is all I want...happiness. It always seems just out of my reach. I guess the thing to figure out is what makes ME happy. It's hard to think like that when you have lived your life for someone else. I am 28 years old and 10 of those years I lived my life for my husband. TEN!! That is a lifetime. I have so much going on inside my mind right now..just trying to figure out how to live my life alone is killing me. I know it sounds insane but...I'm lost. Starting over is hard I know...I heard all the pep talks I can really stand, though I needed everyone of them.
So now after smoking 5 B's I am no longer hurting..emot
you continue to make the same mistakes! We all know the cliche learn from our mistakes. I have learned over and over, and Im sure I will keep learning. The thing is do we continue this manotony because we are literally idiots, or can it be the dying romantic that suffers here?
Life Long Freinds
so im sitting at my computer and an im pops up its a great girl that i have known since i was twelve,let me start it like this a week ago she rights me and tells me that she went to the doctors today and she was told that she has a disease in her heart that they cant cure,theres things she can do to slow down the disease but she wil have complications as she get older,today the im pops up and me being a smart ass asked her how her and her sexxy body are doin today and she replies not so sexxy with a sad face.so i ask whats wrong and she replies that she went to the docs again today for the follow up and they give her a lady physical and tell her there sorry but they found a lump in each breast,she has a long line pf cancer in her family and they know this they said that she will prob have surgery but ussually where these lumps are its bad so she is gunna have to have her breast removed.i am a grown man and i broke out in tears becuz she is only 29 and has three kidsshe doesnt know how
Quiet chilly Saturday morning
just the purring of a cat
she is helping my type this
she is a solace in this empty morning
silence hangs in the air
silence who sometimes is a friend
has left me cold and numb Pulling yesterday while holding on to today as I reach for tomorrow
Standing in one spot in three different times
Pulled three different ways
Smile as yin and yang swirl in a sphere inside of each other yet completely oposite
Let go of yesterday push away tomorrow
Today right now breathe
Hold your hand in front of your face
See the hand of god.....
does God have somethingagainst me. i try to do everything right and he keeps throwin more and more at me. see its not like im already in pain enough then he has to take another from me. he took two of my children and now a close one. and what hurts the most is that i never got the chance to aplogize to this person. i wisht death apon this person months ago of a major heart atytack. and what the fuck happens early this mornig she dies of an major heart attack. now that is something that i live with on my chest for the rest of my natural life. i really think that God hates me cause if he didn't he wouldn'tkeep putting me in these situations. could somebody tell me why he does this shit to me. i lost two kids in a 6 month period. thats fucken pqinful and both kids i accepted. they never made it to see one day. some lady just happened to run in the back the fuckin truck. she came close to gettin her head blown off. but i guess what she did was not intended on happening. now i have another
Life Is A Long Lesson
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.
Life As You Semi Know It
This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it every day.
You may not realize it,but it's 100% true.
1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE think s about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8.. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received.. Forget about the rude remarks.
*Good friends are like stars.....You don't always see them,But you know they are always there.
I guess I really should start take the depression meds that have been prescribed for me on a regular basis. But for some reason, when I don't feel that they are working like they should, I stop taking them. And then that gets me to thinking. Thinking about the way my life is, and how it got this way.
I am surrounded by people that love me, I know this. But there are times when I become angry, not jealous that these people for whatever reason find others in my life more interesting than me. I can't explain this only to say what I have just said.
Because of my feelings, and not wanting to hurt anymore, this Friday, when it comes to going out, I don't think I'm going to go. I'm not going to prove a point, but because my kids will be here and my roommate's children will be here as well. My roommate has to work, so I figure I will let the other roommate go and have some fun. It's the least I can do.
I guess I am just to the point that I am not satisfied with anything
A hidden treasure rises from the depths.
When life seems like it is getting darker and darker,
A light appears right in front of you.
Sometimes the best thing in your life,
Is right in front of you.
You just have to look at it from a different angle.
Life plays funny games sometimes,
And you have to play to win.
If you are only playing,
You will lose every time.
Sometimes you have to put it all on the line,
To see the reward at the end of the trip.
It is better to have the love of your life as your best friend forever,
Than to lose them for all eternity.
HONEY... THIS IS FOR YOU!!
Life Of Me
Ok, for anyone who knows me knows that life is tough for me. What you don't know is that I always seem to mess up. Who doesn't right? Well, I know that I have messed up a lot lately. Particularly, in doing things that I really should not do because I know better. I always keep telling myself that it is ok because it is the right choice at the moment although I know that I should think more about whether it is going to be the right choice in the future. Right? Anywho, people should know that I love my kids to death. What I can't get over is the fact that the good lord apparently thought that I was able to deal with things that he would throw my way with dealing with them. Sometimes I question whether he/she could be wrong. Actually most of the time I am sure that he is wrong. I mean who thought that a 27 year old would have to deal with a 7 year old child that has ADHD with medications that doesnt work, who also has a blood disorder that requires so much of the whole family. Doctor appo
-life is a twirl and twine
-so when your relaxing drinking your glass of wine,
-realize that to succeed you must use peace of mind
-there will be ups and downs but through it all you must not nag nor whine
-there will be times of darkness and times of light
-you must not be vulnerable to the grim of night
-to get to the top there shall always be some kind of struggle to fight
-but just stick to your goal and your results shall be bright
-but you cant complain
-because in the end you'll have lost nothing, only opportunity to gain
-yes it might have cost sweat and pain
-but now you are the one that shall ordain
-so now its off to find your date
-someone who could be your future mate
-the perfect someone you could only find by fate
-this is life, so find a goal and succeed before its too late
i am going crazy trying to fig out how i am going to get my car paid off by june of 09. i am trying to fig out how i can make extra money on my days off of work, but not sure what to do cuz i am always tired now since i started working. i want to move back to florida by june but won;t be able to do that if i can't get my car paid off by then, and yea i WAS counting on my tax return but as it seems i am not getting much back..300 if i am lucky.
if anyone has any ideas please share them with me. ty
Sometimes life can become so hectic
that when it finally slows down, We look around and realize that we
don't recognize our surroundings, and we wonder “ How did I get
here?”. You suddenly realize, You don't know your friends ,much
less that they are even the same friends you acquired along the crazy
trip to nowhere. You look inside and realize that you are not the
same person that started trip. You realize that you don't know
yourself. And you become afraid. Your wants are the same. But your
needs have changed. Sometimes you drag other people along just to
find that they themselves might secretly resent you for it. You work
so hard to find something anything to hold on to. Only to see that
there is nothing. Because all at once you know that you are just
plain and utterly alone.
Smells, don't smell the same. Things
don't taste the same, friendships don't feel the same. And most of
all love doesn't seem to be around you. And even if it was, the
question remains “Would
Everything in my life changed on the evening of August 16, 1997. Everything was going well after the first week of school my sophomore year. That night, me and my best friend at the time went to the bowling alley about 5 miles from my parent's house because they were playing bridge with some friends that night. It was time to leave the bowling alley and go home, so my friend and I took our stuff out to his car. We put the stuff in his car, and were in the parking lot talking to people, so I sat on the trunk of his car. I don't know exactly what happened after that, but the next thing that I remember was getting into an ambulance going to Charlotte for apparent rehab. I thought nothing of it and that I had broken my leg because I couldn't move it very well. Little did I know the events that had transpired the three and a half weeks before. While I was sitting on the trunk of his car and we were talking to people in the parking lot, somehow he didn't know that I was still sitting on the
i just writing to get stuff off my mind , i have alot of stress in my life right now, i some times dont know if i can keep on going, but i know i have to. i dont talk to anyone, i hold everything that happens inside and i know one day its going to be bad thing for everyone, cause i will just blow up and well thats a bad thing. but i dont know if i can go on after all thats going on is over if it turns out for the worst, it will kill me to much and so i and hoping that it will turn out great, i guess i will have to wait and see. all i know life can suck so much. and thank god for having family, that is helping me......
Life Of Darkness
hi all just want to tell about me im 43 going to be 44 i smoke both kinds im married but split up for allmost 4 yrs now girls like me for me but dont want to go out with me guys some likes me and most want to go out with me no im not gay but i should have been sence meny guys likes me then girl i dont chat much cuss im a bad speller I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... because it's our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, big boobs, round booty, long legs, sexy lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. Girls prefer being called beautiful instead of hott or sexy. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have
Life And Times Of A Doofus
so yeah...kinda wish i'd gotten paid today but i didn't!! whatcha gonna do? ha ha
on a side note, my little brother (who is the upholder of our family's legacy) found out he cannot wrestle his district tournament due to a stupid technicality.
tell me, if you were a senior and this was the biggest match of the year, would you not be upset?
this is all due to a district ruling because he failed an elective that he opted to take but does not need to graduate.
i get it, he failed. but i can't help but feel a bit upset over it. *sigh*
on yet another side note, i am really looking forward to the weekend.
also, i finished reading hana yori dango in its entirety in two days (that's 242 chapters for those of you who wanna know!) and it was an amazing ride. i'm sad it's over and i ain't gonna lie: i felt a little dissatisfied cause there wasn't any sex in it but i googled a fanfic and BAM! i got my fix. :) check ya later!
i'm curious as to what i can do and who i can meet
Life And Me
So I am not a stay at home mom anymore. I work long shifts everyday and sometimes I just wanna quit but I don't because when bad days come, I just think to myself that it will get better and it does. I have been working for seven months now and have also been promoted in my field of work. So yeah..I never saw that coming. I have been thinking about moving up again. I love my boss. She is awesome. We both think alike also. Our lives were hard when both of us were kids so we have a lot in common. She has a asshole for a husband but she is giving him a chance. Unfortunately, I already know she is gonna end up learning the lesson and not him because he isn't gonna change. But whatever. It is her life. I can't stop her. But I do worry about her tho. She will get it eventually.
Life has changed a pretty good bit for me. I don't know where it is headed but so far so good.
The kids are getting bigger. Renee is already working on her second new tooth. She pulled out
Wow 2008 has been a bad year for me. I sure hope 2009 goes better. My son has had Crohns disease really bad the entire year of 08' since then he had surgery. He is gaining weight again which is great. He was down to 110lbs. at one time and for a 6' tall kid thats not good. He now weighs about 155lbs.
I have also had marriage problems...I think my asshole of a husband is cheating on me... So just trying to get thru that mess.
I'm also looking for a job...I know a lot of people are.
I'm really trying to get thru a lot right now so please 4give me friends for not keeping in touch.
Alcohol really seems to help...LOL!
I hope everyone else on here are doing much better than me...Please leave comments and if you do...anything that makes me laugh would really be great!!!!
Take care to all my friends!!!!
Life & Friends
Just needing to rant & rave for a lil....
Over the last few years I have had some really tough times and I've had one friend that I could really count on, even if it was just to talk. Now it seems that I can't even get a response from them when I send an IM, SB or even a private message. I know that they are going through a lot theirself but we use to share our problems....lean on each other. Now I feel as if I have no one to lean on. I have asked if I have done something that could have made them mad but all I got was...'I have a lot going on'. I feel as if im not important anymore. Which has been the theme of my life for a long time....guess its going to continue. I am now at the point that I am about to pack my kids up and move out of this state and start completely over....if I'm going to be ignore...might as well be by strangers than by friends.
We are lovers true and through and though
We made it through the storm
I really want you to realize
I really want to put you on
Ive been searchin for someone
To satisfy my every need
Wont you be my inspiration
Be the real love that I need
Im searchin for a real love
Someone to set my heart free
Im searchin for a real love
Oooh, when I met you I just knew
That you would take my heart and run
Until you told me how you felt for me
You said Im not the one
So I slowly came to see
All of the things that you were made of
And now I hope my dreams and inspirations
Lead me to want some real love
I got to have a real love
Loves so true and oh baby
I thought your love was true
I thought you were the answer to
The questions in my mind
But it seems that I was wrong
If I stay strong maybe
Ill find my real love
So I try my best and pray to god
Hell send me someone real
To caress me and to guide me twards
A love my heart can feel
Life Is Like A Black Rose
I've been through hell and back loving every minute with no regrets. If I had to do it all over again I would. I don't back down from any challenges and welcome any that come my way. My husband knows I don't tolerate anyone's bullshit, never have and I never will.
My husbands name is Denver, he's 31 and such a great man to the kids and myself. He has 2 kids from a previous relationship whom I love as my own. I call them my kids because I have never thought of them any other way. To some people it might be viewed as a bad thing but if they knew what I knew then chances are it would be better understood. My daughter is soon to be 11. My son is soon to be 10. I have been in their lives since 2005, watching them grow up more and more each day. They are both jewels in my husbands eyes as well as mine. The love I have for them all can withhold anything.
This is my family and my life. I'm taking things one day at a time making it better each day.
I have recently met someone that I am completely stricken by. Even though there are things goin on in my life that need work, She takes away all my problems. My first marraige was a bust. No biggie. I just dusted my shoulder off and moved on. But nikki, she has opened my eyes to something I thought i had before. Just thinking about her gives me butterflies. She has shown me that not all women are like my ex wife. She has given me something to live for. A reason to keep on trucking forward. And to finish this blog, there is only one thing i want to say
I love you nikki!!!!!!!!!!! you are my aussie angel!!!!!
Lyrics to This Fire Burns by Killswitch Engage
Yeah ( screaming)
All I ever wanted was destined to be fulfilled
It is in my hands
I must not fail
and I must not fail
Even through the darkest days
This fire burns always
This fire burns always
This is the broken ground
Misery begins to rise
Turn away from yesterday
Tomorrow is in my hand
Life's True Mission
last night my wife exposed and forced me to face emotional scars that have been holding me back from allowing myself to fully reach the potential of our relationship
as deeply as we're in love there is still such a depth of stronger bond we can share
after my ex had left me it built trust issues with her and I
i built up the almost indestructible wall around my heart
and in the wall i built doors that allowed my emotions to exist between claudia and I
but in being that the wall stood i failed to realise that it kept my relationship isolated from the entirety of my life
in recent days she's brought this issue to the forefront of my personal issues to conquest
this issue has caused insecurities
be it me having to confront with insecurity that should never have existed
had i full torn down the wall i built to protect myself this prevented me from reaching the level of empathy i could have for others
from being the person i was capable of being i looked through windows i
In loving memory of Robbie R. Robertson Jr. age 38 passed away on Feb. 1st! You will be missed by Thousands! I will miss you and your wonderful smile and the way you made some many happy at skateland when you where the DJ! It will never be the same! God Bless I will always love ya!
Life Is Crazy
OK it has been a while since I blogged but things have been crazy here. We found out last fall that Soldier Boy will be deploying this summer. I adopted my 2 grand daughters so they are now our daughters. I finished my theology courses and now I have my doctorate degree. I am taking certification classes to be an Interior Designer and also taking Art classes. I do not have alot of time to get on the computer anymore with all the work I have to get done. I am currently actively looking for an associate pastors job with in the area. Tamyra is going to be 5 in a week and then it will be time to start school for her. We just had a new grandson this week and he is doing well. I will try to do better and blog more but thanks to all my friends who have been there for me in spirit. I am sorry I have not been on here for awhile but studying for my doctorate was a terrible load on my brain. I will be here more often. LOVE YA ALL
Well I dotn know much about this site and thats fine with me I guess. It is nice not know anyone and have a place to vent a new start. I have reached an impass in my life. I have ran into a wall of uncertanties. I have spent so much time running from my pain that now I have no where to run. To many one night stands and empty feelings haunt me now. I'm a guy I guess I shouldnt care, but I do. I have a son who I love with all my life and his mother we been broken up. She is on and off hot cold. Me I am lost and nt sure what I want I grwe up with out a father, so I want me and my son to be a familly with his mother. Though I realize she wont change she thinks only of her self I need more. So its hard when we see each other she says she wants us to be again but I dont think I can really. the scars runs deep, no I havent been perfect but who is. Still I need love. This empty life I have been living has left me void of all hapiness. Yeah it strange to just put this blog up here seeing I dont
There was this girl named Nicole that lived in a small town. She was born into a loving and caring family. She had blonde hair and the deepest blue eyes you had ever seen before. Her life was goin great until she was about 12 years old.It was November 14, 1998 Nicole got up just like any other day and got ready for school. She walked down to the end of the road to catch the bus. What Nicole didnt know was that while she was at school her mother was at home packing up her bedroom. She got off the bus and started to walk up the road to her house. As she was topping the hill she noticed that all her brothers and sisters was at the house. She started to think if it was someones birthday and noone came to mind. So she didnt pay any attentaion to and opened the door and walked in. Nicole was stunned at what she saw. It was her mother sittin at the kitchen table crying. Nicole's sister walks up to her and asks her to come back to the bedroom with her. So Nicole goes back with her sister to he
Life & Times Of The Juggalette
i've heard that over the course of our lives, we're going to meet ppl that change not only our character, but also the way we view the world and our role in it.
it's funny how much shit can happen in two years. funny too how sum days it can feel like it just happened yesterday and others it feels like it happened a lifetime ago. two years ago, this coming march, i lost two of the most important ppl in my life. my rich and my bestie joey. thankfully i got my bestie back. but my rich...no matter how much i wish otherwise, i'll never get him back.
he was the strongest, kindest and most loyal person ive ever met and i loved him completely. he was the kind of person that everyone was just drawn to. he had charisma, a crazy sense of humor and a mouth that, more often than not, got him into trouble. my rich loved to work on cars and race them. that was his passion. he use to joke that if he could get the same pleasure from his car that he did from a woman, he'd be single for the r
Life As We Know It
~SO FAR INT HE DISTANCE... I SEE YOU STANDING THERE... YOUR EYES GLARING TOWARD ME... I CAN FEEL YOUR BREATH ON ME... BUT YET YOU ARE SO FAR AWAY...
I SMILE AT YOU... BUT YOU DONT SMILE BACK... I LEAN FORWARD TO TOUCH YOU... BUT YOU LET ME FALL...
I STAND UP ON MY OWN TWO FEET... WITHOUT HELP FROM YOU... I GAZE BACK AT YOU AND SMIRK... FOR YOU THOUGHT I COULDNT MAKE IT WITHOUT YOU...
WELL I PROVED YOU WRONG... CUZ HERE I AM... NO LONGER BY YOUR SIDE... NO LONGER IN LOVE WITH YOU... NEVER GONNA TAKE YOU BACK...
CUZ BABY YOU JUST LOST THE BEST THING THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN TO YOU... ~the pain i feel inside is like no other... crawling through my veins like a spider... i wish i could take back what was done... but reality prevents me from doing so
~did you ever feel like a thousand knives were stabbing every vital organ in your body??? or feel like someone was blocking off your wind pipe without them every physically doing so???
~dreams seem so far away. every t
"I own you-you are my slave and mine alone" again and again, as if it is a chant, you tell me as you fuck me with long smooth thrusts, kissing me fiercely, waiting until you know I'm about to orgasm. Before I actually do, you slip out of me, pulling me up and onto my knees, grabbing and pinning my wrists together tightly. I gasp, the pain so sudden, so fierce. You tell me that you want to prove to me that I can place myself totally in your care. You ask me to surrender to you, totally, to obey you without any question; you tell me you will cherish me for it. Your blue, blue eyes stare unblinking into my soft brown ones as you wait for me to agree. I have no choice but to accept. I know, as well as you do that I am yours. I cannot refuse you.
"Yes, My Beloved, Master, I surrender myself to you and I will obey you."
I gaze up at you, and nod. You look at me kneeling in front of you with my wrists clamped in one of your hands and the moist swell of my pussy in your other. The expres
"You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her."One year later and 140lbs less, I feel more alive. For the past year I have eaten no junk food. I stopped eating any white bread/pastas. There was a time when I would skip the vegies and go for the burger first :P. Those days are pretty much over for me. I've decided I want to be around longer so I can see more of what this world has to offer.There is one thing however that bothers me. It's not that I don't like the attention... but ever since I lost weight it seems people want me around more. People seem to pay more attention & to respect me more. Don't get me wrong- that's grand and all. I think everyone should be treated with respect and given a chance however no matter their size. Everyone needs friends and to be loved. It just makes me sad how judgemental people are sometimes.I want to be in a relationship that I can say how I feel and not be looked at like I'm weird. I want to be able to
I know why men have dicks, it is because they are dicks. Why can't a good loving woman find a true sweet man who wants me for more than just my body? When I have a man he is always sexually satisfied but I am sick of men lying and saying they want more then just using me and disappearing. Jerks, wish I could become a lesbian but I am turned on by men damn the luck. Maybe I will become celibate again. I am getting so sick of lying men. Why do they say they are into me and then after they get sex just up and leave and not call like they say they will? This makes me wonder if I should just give up on it all and stay a single woman the rest of my life. I really wish I could find one man to date and give my all tender loving to, just one man whom I could treat as a king.
I MET SOMEONE AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME I AM VERY HAPPY AND PLANNING THING IN MY FURTRUE ONE MORE AND LIFE IS GREAT AND I WAS NOT LOOKING TO FIND NO ONE BUT I DID LIFE GREAT
THANK YOU ALL MY FRIENDS
A Life Story
I never knew there would be a better tomorrow But you've come into my life and taken away all my sorrow My days of sadness are a thing of the past Because I have found true love at last My days of emptiness are gone for good Because you fill a void in my heart You've opened a window You've shown me the light And my love for you will continue to burn bright. You stay up for 16 hours
The Soldier stays up for days on end.
You take a warm shower to help you wake up.
The Soldier goes days or weeks without running water.
You complain of a 'headache', and call in sick.
The Soldier gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.
You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.
The Soldier still fights for your right to wear that shirt.
You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.
The Soldier clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.
You talk trash about your 'buddies' that aren't with you.
My life is not a game. My heart is not a toy. Why can't anyone see what is really going on? i worry myself sick over friends, i make time for them in my life only to be told theres no time. Theres promises that are made then broken just as quick as they're made. Theres been lies and rumors and bullshit that's made everything come undone. to many questions left unanswered. i've become so confused. alone or together, right or wrong. i want it all done.
no more questions, no more lies, no more confusion, no more half hearted love no more.......
I think that it is going to get worse before it gets better Why do people come in to your life. I think they do to help you understand life better Well how long do u have to wait for those good things to come?
There is quite a bit about me I choose not to share. If, however, you talk to me, there is much you will learn.
I try to live life as simply as possible but the more I learn the more I find that I am nothing but a web of mystery and riddles. I am not complaining by any means as I can keep myself occupied hours on end. I also enjoy talking to people in depth and learning about them, not by what they say, but by how they say it.
I was given a gift when I was born and through the years, I have lost touch with it and have found it, again. I am a devout in my beliefs. Who couldn't be after some of the things I have gone through? But, in my devout ways, I am a curious being and find my way into a world that doesn't exactly agree with all that I believe. I believe I was given a special gift and I choose not to use that gift to hurt or harm others, only to answer questions and ask for guidance or protection. How is it a person can believe so strongly in something yet finds themself sn
while life goes round, I stand still, afraid to of being wrong, so alone I sit and wait writing lyrics to this song. The day is dark the night does fall, and singing is my light, so sing with me and dance away the darkness of the night. Now mornings come the light is here and with me do you lay, in my arms your fears do drift so very far away . Awake for the first time my eyes do see. What this life has given to me . Standing by the road a bag at my side. Beaten and alone but knowing i tried. Not afraid or even in a state of confusion. I wait for another day filled with illussion. No tears do i shed or sweat do I break. For in my mind this is my own mistake. Travel I will with no where to go. Not in a hurry so taking it slow. My mind does remember the boy I once saw. With out a clue that life has a flaw. So onward I go across this great land. With only a bag in my hand.
Life As Seen By Lilo
Written Sunday, February 15, 2009
There are so many layers to every person. The depth of a human being is immeasurable and the length to which this affects the world around us is exceedingly important. Good and evil, confusing and straight forward; “to every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.” Life itself is complex. Grouping people into a single category is for the feeble minded. To die abruptly is sad but to die with unlived life in your veins is much worse. Tears they fall at the conclusion of life, a mysterious cycle of emotion that never quite ends.
©LittleO™ Written Sunday, February 15, 2009
Civilization by definition is said to be an advanced state of human society. Imagine the puzzlement I possess pertaining to its description. It’s as if the writer had never experienced “civilized” living. People surround you with their opinions hoping that their judgments will have the power to persuade you from being yourself. Society has become so “advanced” it seems t
On February 22nd 2008 (my 23rd birthday)... I was on vacation visiting my love and my wheelchair tipped over a step. Due to my fragile bone disorder, the impact broke my legs and injured my spine. Because the hospital was unfamiliar with my condition, the doctors gave me some heavy pain narcotics that my body could not handle. The drugs put me in a state where my lungs almost stopped working and I was experiencing respiratory acidosis. That means that my lungs were not getting rid of the carbon dioxide. I had to be intubated and put on a ventilator and eventually the doctors had to perform a tracheotomy. I was in the hospital a little over 3 weeks and had the trach almost a month. I almost died and the doctors said I would have to live with the trach in the rest of my life.
Today almost a year later, I am trach free and feel honored and blessed to be alive. That was a scary, scary time for me and I thank my family, friends and girl friend for
WELL MY LIFE AS OF NOW KINDA STINKS EVERY GUY I'VE EVER KNOWN OR BEEN WITH HAS PRETTY MUCH HURT ME AND THE ONLY GUY I COULD EVER TRUST WAS JOEY HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND SINCE WE WERE IN LIKE 8TH GRADE AND WE WERE TIGHT ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS TOGETHER HARDLY EVER APART HE MEANT THE WORLD TO ME AND NOW HE IS GONE AND NEVER COMING BACK ITS LIKE IVE LOST A LITTLE PURPOSE IN MY LIFE I STILL FIND MYSELF CALLING AND TEXTING HIM...HES BEEN GONE FOR A WEEK AND 2 DAYS AND ITS HARD I KNOW IF JOEY WAS STILL HERE WE WOULD PROBABLY BE THE ONES TOGETHER AND IF ANY DUDE EVER HURT ME JOEY WAS RIGHT ON HIS ASS ANYWAYZ YEA THATS MY RANT FOR NOW :/ I LOVE AND MISS U JOEY SO SO SO SO MUCH !!!! THIS ONES FOR YOU JOEY U ALWAYS HAD UR EYE ON THE PRIZE ILL NEVER FULLY UNDERSTAND WHY U DID WHAT U DID BUT ILL ALWAYS LOVE U NO MATTER WHAT U WERE MY ONE TRUE BEST FRIEND U HAD SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR I KNOW THINGS WERE MESSED UP BUT I COULDA HELP U TURN EM AROUND I LOVED U SO MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL I STILL WAKE UP CRYING THIN
when life throws you curve balls straighten them out and live life to it's fullest life is a precious thing might as well enjoy it until the end.
life is what you make it . If you want to succeed in life do it. If you like failing then fail. But whatever you do, live life to the fullest.life is what you make it
Why is it woman complain about not having a good baby father..but yet the father is trying to be in his child life but the mother aint letting him. I mean dam he is always asking to come see the child and is always buying stuff for his son but you wont let him see his son or give the stuff to you for the child. but yet she complaining cuz he dont do shit for the child..thats exactly why men dont want to take care of theyre child because of woman like that. Woman need to grow up and act like a mother.
I know it aint all woman who are actin like that. and that there are men out there who aint tryin to do nothing for theyre child.
but woman need to realize when a man is tryin to be there. because if you dont you will end up like the woman i no..being taken downtown for a custody battle over a 1 year old boy.
i dont understand how a mother can put her son threw all this just because ur baby father moved on to somebody else that u dont like..i mean come on u moved on so y not let him..
Life And Me
Never in life have I been a vindictive person usually just let stuff roll right off my back and chalk it up to a lesson learned and a mistake I won't let happen again. Going through divorce is really testing me . I have two constants in my life right now first I love my children , and second I truly love a man that came into my life at a time I least expected it . So many things are out wieghing my constants that some days I am so over whelmed and fighting off anger and being miserable . The soon to be X husband swore he would never take the kids away from me , but hell he swore his vows too and fucked them all up one by one . Hard to trust anyone after being with someone 16 years watching your youth fly by and over time hating yourself more and more . Being a firm believer that no matter what you are going through someone else is going through something a bit worse I find myself sitting here pushing on and pushing foward. The kids have been sick and on "his days" have been left for me
Life And Love
WHEN YOU REALLY TRUELY LOVE SOMEONE THAT YOU LET GO AND WISH YOU WOULD GET HIM BACK WHAT DO YOU DO?? HELP!!!!!!
Life's To Short
I STOLE THIS FROM J~BREEZY WHO STOLE IT FROM HAZEL WHO STOLE IT FROM TEMPTRESS WHO STOLE IT FROM WV REBEL. AND NO MATTER WHERE YOU "WORK" I HOPE YOU READ, PAY ATTENTION, AND ENJOY IT AS MUCH AS I DID.
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always
there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see
the world, I will marry you.'
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages
came off, she was able to see everything, including her
He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The
girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The
sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected
that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life
led her to refuse to marry him.
Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her
saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before
they were yours, the
They say the answer to that question is to make lemonade. I say the answer is..Throw the motherfuckers back!!! I am so tired of analogies..Metaphors..ect. I am tired of so much that is going on in my life that I always keep to myself. I am honestly just ready to blow! I mean where do I start? I know the begining is always good, but even the begining isnt good enough. Ever since I have moved here..all I get from anyone back home is.."Come home...we will welcome you with open arms!!" We all know it will never be "Open Arms!" We all know what would happen if I came home. Someone would open their mouth to the wrong person..and I would be someplace I dont need to be. Or even better yet...someone would start shit all over again and use me as a god damn scape goat for their pleasure. With that I am referring to that BS that went on a few years back on Yahoo 360 that I got blamed for. Either way...most know that you couldnt pay me enough to come home. But with what is going on around here...it
ya know I am male so if you have NSFW I am gonna look... but I will admit... 1/2 the reason I look is to what kind of STUPID ass comments that guys make.. I mean ... cmonnnnnnnnnnnn ... do you really think a comment like " I wanna fuck that ass " is gonna impress a girl ? ....rofl...
just saying.... Well Gavin choose to come in about a month early and ta daaaaa here he is via emergency c-section. He was born @ 3:44 today and wieghed @ a whopping 3 pounds 5.9 oz. Rather small but so far he is doing great. O2 is good so he is breating on his own. He has pooped already ( yay ) and is holding his own heat. I am uploading pics in a few min and of course expect more once things calm down. ( yes we are g33ks and brought laptops to the hospitol ) .
Mom is doing well...rather tired and sleeping soundly and im starved....
Update day 1. He is holding his wieght and heat well...still haveing a little trouble holding down food but thats expected when your a month early ( my 2nd dau
will i think i understand y girls go 2 girls now days, cause men they make up every excuse y they can't give u some. plus there is a big age difference between me and my fiance. a 18 yr age difference. but im young and like sex and he should realize that when he got with a 26 yr old. i might just try the same sex 4 once cause men just ain't doin it. who knows might just b talkin out my ass. i luv my fiance but he has got 2 get with the program.
im sitting here w/ zach wondering if my life has been a total crazy mess or if this is the "hell before the calm" (if that makes since)
last week was so hard for me, Damien turned 6. i cant believe its been 6 yrs since he passed away. 6 yrs of wondering how he wouldve looked, how he would act, how he would smell, how he would feel in my arms..... it kills me. i miss him so fucking much!!
noone understands the pain i go thru everyday.... noone understands how hard it is to see other children and wonder if you baby couldve been that way.... i will never know!!
my "closest" friends tell me the are there for me... then they leave me and dont talk to me for weeks. WTF?? do you even care that im dying inside? do you even care that my heart is broken and cannot be mended?? do you care that i dont sleep? do you??
you might think i am over doing it.. but how do you get over it?? how do you ever say goodbye?? how do you ever go a day w/ out thinking of that sweet angel?? i cant... i
Just got in from a long ride from Orlando to West Palm Beach FL. on the Harley.
Didnt want it to end!
I think that I will ride to the ocean, get a drink at the bar.
This is the time of year when the main part of our business, watergardening, is the busiest. My time on here is very limited at times and it can take me a couple of days sometimes to return comments and accept friend requests. I have noticed that a few people have taken me off their friends list probably because i didn't get back to them right away. fubar doesn't pay my bills and i have to attend to the part of my life that does. I know that most of my friends understand this, and those that don't...i guess they were never really friends.
I just want to say thank you to everyone who understands and the hell with the ones that don't.
Love to all!
(can someone tell me how to put a damn picture on here?) I just had someone remove me from their friends list, said that the only time that I came to their page is when they activated and cherry bomb. Now most of you know that I have 2 new grandsons, have been getting busier with work at the flea market, and now with spring coming up I'
Remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground,
The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties,
Your worst enemies were your siblings,
Mom was the prettiest girl you knew,
Dad was the coolest guy ever,
Race issues were who ran the fastest,
War was a card game,
Wearing a skirt meant you were a princess not a sluut,
The only thing that hurt were skinned knees and paper cuts,
And the only things that could get broken were your toys,
Life was simple and carefree but,
All we wanted to do was grow up.
Long Story Short
You meet a dude
you like the dude
you hook up with the dude
you give him your heart
then bam..he gives you some story about someone he met on some stupid ass site called My Yearbook. He considered this person his gf at one time, knew her a year...before hooking up with me told me he had no contact with her then bam..i get some ass story that she is hurt due to a car bombing...she lives in Canada...and when they found her she had his picture in her pocket and he is the only one she remembers. Meanwhile he never met her before, and claimed that her best friend contacted him and he feels he cannot be with me because he thinks now he still loves her and he is the only one who can help her.Meanwhile he has no contact number for hospital or Canadian Embassy (odd huh? considering they feel he is the only one who can help her)
He never even told me about this chick till i got the Dear Eleni Letter..i could go on and on but why bother. Yet ...he still says "but u know
Life In General
This year has been weird, Number one I found my childhood best freind which is great. But the best thing of all is I reconnected with a freind from kentucky when I lived there, Not only is he a freind he is becoming so much more to me. We have everything in common. hes a gamer , he loves music and hes a great dad. I feel so wonderful knowing that he is going to be such a big part of mine and my kids life.
I have seen and lived enough pain in my life to kill most people... I wake up everyday not knowing how I will make it thru.. I thank GOD and all my TRUE FRIENDS that stand beside me and help me walk this hard road. WITHOUT YOU AND GOD I WOULD NOT MAKE IT!!!!!!
this pain I have you can not see
this pain i have is deep in me
what lies on the surface is all you see
why do I let you in just to hurt me
you say you love me
but this I don't see
I know you are you and I am me
but together we could be
sometimes we don't always see what we need
but I love you and you love me
you need to open to me
and i will show you what I can be
I'm sorry i'm depressed this you see
all i ask is common courtesy
you are truely worth it to me
love me or leave me
the choice is yours
but forever in my heart you will be
baby I love you and I hope you love me so just when you think you figure it out you have to start over. Nothing like life its kind of like my music"constently starting over" but anyway can somone tell me wny females have to be so heartless. I'm tired of being treated like a steping stone or door matt. Sometimes I feel like I'm just another drink or a way into the club or bar or whatever.Well that gets old after a while. Why can't someone
This morning I'm at a loss for words. The best person in my life has passed away and I don't know how to deal with it. I've lost so much this year and to be a little dramatic I welcome whatever the supposed end of the world has. i'm so angry that she is gone and that my children will never know how she loved them. My depression is at an all time high. Words can not express what I feel. I only hope to be reunited with her again. Grandma I love you so much. today was one of the hardest days that i have had in a while. a close friend of mine was finally laid to rest and although i know he is in a better place it doesn't make it any easier to say good-bye. i appreciate all the support. i know it will all get better in time. I feel temporary to your world....
You have the strangest effect on my world....
I feel out of sorts and full of loneliness.......
You say you want me for ever yet make me see temporary....
Your eyes say it all......
Maybe in another time and place we wouldn't have
Life ... =)
Well I may not be around much within the next few days since my cousin passed away on wednesday morning. It bothers me that my daughter & i just had breakfast on monday morning ... he came around on tuesday and next thing i know i get "the call" letting me know that he was found deceased in the morning ... wow what a bomb ... so needless to say this is gonna suck because i have family coming from everywhere, so California & all and they are in for a major let down since i live in a little itty bitty place in Oklahoma. But regardless ... the next few days are gonna be stressfull. =( Last night i realized my children are growing up ... what a hard lesson. My daughter's are both 18 (mixed family ... lol) and one just had a baby 2 months prior ... they now want to move! WOW!! I think i wen from feeling hurt, to scared, to anxious ... i probably can name more emotions ... just plain OVERWHELMED!!! It didn't seem to hurt so much when it was my boys ... (dunno why) but my girls ... it just
Life, Friends, And Enemies.
MY FRIEND THAT HAS CANCER.. HE JUST FOUND OUT THAT ITS NOT IN HIS STOMACH AND HES NOT TERMINAL AND THEY CAN REMOVE IT!! THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just recently found out that a friend of mine has cancer. I will not say his name because he is here on fubar. He is an ex of mine, but also a really good friend. It's stage 3 right now and the doctors don't know if they will be able to remove it or not yet. He's scared.. as we all would be... and so am I. I feel a little selfish because I don't want him to die... I wouldn't know what to do with myself.. I would go clinically insane. It's tearing me apart inside and out.. and I know it's breaking him down too. He's in his late 20's, but sounds like an 80 year old man because it's effecting him that bad. He has a 5 year old son also.. I'm not sure if he knows or not. I'm sure he can tell something is wrong with his daddy. He is the best father I have seen.. he tries to be. He doesn't deserve this.. out
It takes only one drink to get me drunk. The trouble is, I can't remember if it's the thirteenth or the fourteenth."
"Happiness? A good cigar, a good meal, a good cigar and a good woman - or a bad woman; it depends on how much happiness you can handle."
"Relationships are all about honesty. If you can fake that, you've got it made."
"Whiskey is by far the most popular of all remedies that won't cure a cold."
"Ninety percent I'll spend on good times, women and Irish Whiskey. The other ten percent I'll probably waste."
If you think you know the secret of life stop and ask your bartender how many drinks you have had before you share it.
Why is it the more people drink the smarter they think they are?
boozes are like women get a little and you want more get a lot you get a head ache.
Life..or Something Like That
I am writing about Life these days...I am super sad and depressed! I want to try different things in my life..with different people. Well, with one person in general. I am not sure where to begin on this blog except for that...change is a hard thing for me.
I am a real routine type of gal...I got my very own daily routine..and getting off balance is one of those things that gets to me!
And besides that; this person is pretty damn far away from me...but that connection is just there for both of us..not quite sure what I wanna do with it all just yet.
I am pretty sure where I want things to go.
The questions are (1) Is he ready
(2) Am I ready for a major change/ shake up in my life.
(3) how will these changes affect my children/his?
See it aint all about me....of course I have always liked to think that the world revolved around me...but I know that it doesnt. LOL...
I guess I will change my philosophy to life...It IS my world..I am just letting you all live in it!
Life Has A Way Of Taking Over
Recently i have went through many changes...deep emotional pain and health scares to start...and then life awakenings which have brought me joy, smiles and a new outlook on life and new discoveries about myself. Needless to say...with all this taking place...it has left me very little time for the internet. I have enjoyed Fubar very much...i have met some very special, wonderful people on here that have enriched my life through their words of wisdom and encouragement. I'm not deleting Fubar...I will be checking in when i can. I just won't have the time to devote to it like i used to so I apologize in advance if i don't rate and re-rate as diligently as i have in the past. Thank you family, friends and fans for making Fubar such a fun ride.
Life And Death
WASH THEM FIRST Please Don't Erase this message before forwarding on
This is Serious! This incident happened recently in North Texas .
A woman went boating one Sunday taking with her some cans of coke which she put into the refrigerator of the boat. On Monday she was taken to the hospital and placed in the Intensive Care Unit. She died on Wednesday.
The autopsy concluded she died of Leptospirosis. This was traced to the can of coke she drank from, not using a glass. Tests showed that the can was infected by dried rat urine and hence the disease Leptospirosis.
Rat urine contains toxic and deathly substances. It is highly recommended to thoroughly wash the upper part of all soda cans before drinking out of them. The cans are typically stocked in warehouses and transported straight to the shops without being cleaned.
A study at NYCU showed that the tops of all soda cans are more contaminated than public toilets (i.e.).. full of germs and bacteria. So
ok so im starting a voyeur cam that means a cam thats basicly just turned on when im home....
im gana do everything i would do normaly with the cam just on
no directing please im doing nothing to amuse you
it is just an expiriment about people viewing into anothers life
probabaly wont be walking while on it.... cuz i wana treat it just like i would if it wrnt on means usuly not looking at myself whlile online
and basicly u guy can just watch me.... do what id do any day.... but dont get to excited i live a pretty boring life
oh i also will cover up when i smoke cuz i dont wana pass the legal to illegal grey line so on facebook i jokingly engaged my friend cole.... for some reason this girl from my highschool saw it and felt she needed to verbaly bash me for being engaged.
im been out of highschool for 2 years and have not once spoken to this girl since. so the idea that my life can mean so much to her completly suprized me. for some reason she felt she had to tel
Its funny, when we are young we never think of how we will look, what we will have , or our health for that matter.
Then as the years creep up, we see phyical changes that we really arent impressed by. And some of us try and fix the problem.
Some of us resort to surgery's, and for the poor like me, we just try and keep our weight to a certain point but sometimes its not as easy as it was, when we were in our mid 20's.
Then theres the health issues we have to face and it just for some of us depresses us beyound words.
I think now that I am 51, if I could just have a second chance how much I would change. But that isnt reality its just a dream.
I get so emotional, that I cant walk as far as I once did with out having breathing problems, I cant do the things I once did.
And I think ffffffffffffffffffffffff, Im only in my 50s, this sucks. Wtf am I gonna be like when I hit the 60's with God's blessing.
It hit me hard when Michael Jackson died. We were born the same year. An
A Lesson In Life
I was happy. My girlfriend and me were dating for over a year, and so we decided to get married. My parents helped us in every way, my friends encouraged me, and my girlfriend? She was a dream!
There was only one thing bothering me, quite much indeed, and that was my mother-in-law to be. She was a career woman, smart, but most of all beautiful and sexy, who sometimes flirted me, quite obviously too, and made me feel uncomfortable.
One day, she called me and asked me to come over, to check the invitations. So I went. She was alone, and when I arrived, she whispered to me, that soon I was to be married, and she had feelings and desires for me that she can't overcome. So before I get married and commit my life to her daughter, shewants to make love to me just once..
What could I say? I was in total shock, and couldn't say a word. So, she said, I'll go to the bedroom, and if you are up for it, just come and get me. I just watched her delicious behind as she wen
So, I went and saw a different doctor yesterday, and feeling MUCH better about this one. After twenty minutes of questions and actually listening to everything I had to say she wrote me a prescription for a migraine blocker and a some darvocet to get me by until the blocker's had a chance to build up in my bloodstream, and she wants me to come back in today for some bloodwork to try and suss out why my blood sugar keeps crashing. Yay! Only weird thing is, I started the migraine blocker last night and now I can't taste anything. I'm sipping a latte right now and I'm telling ya, I can feel the warmth from the drink and the texture of the froth on my tongue, but I can't taste it. It's probably temporary though, so not freaking out unless it lasts more than a few days. :P
Peace, love, and automobiles,
Vanashe the Tasteless When will this end? Every day I go through the motions, an actor in someone else's life. Then I stop off the stage and my entire world falls apart. I stumble, I fall,
Down from a pack a day to 3 cigs a day and starting the Herbal Magic weight loss program.
Just signed up and joined today.
In 3 months I'll be thinner than ever and ripped for my T.V. series.
There is something I don't understand. Why do men lie? I mean honestly...Is so hard to tell the truth that they feel like they have to hide it away and make up an excuse? Can they not just come right out and say things? Do they not realize it hurts more finding out the truth from someone else rather then from them? Or are they just so stupid that they think they wont be caught?
Most of you know that I have been in love with the same person for 6 years or more now. Yes, I have been with others in that time. Yes, I was nearly engaged...Unless you count one day as an engagement. And yes, I have told others I love them. BUT...I was never in love with them. I've tried my best to look the other way and let things. I've done my best not to let what he does with others bother me. But, I can't let this last indiscretion go. I can't just turn the other cheek on this one...No it doesn't work that way anymore. I have run out of cheeks to turn and yes I am counting ass cheeks in this one.
Why is life so hard sometimes? I've been going through a divorce with my soon to be ex-husband. I am so tired of the drama that goes along with it. I just want it to be over. It would be a relief. I feel like I have no one to be there for me when I need them. Its not anyones fault, thats just how i feel. Last night was one of the hardest nights of my life. I needed someone to be there for me to tell me it was going to be ok...and i had no one. But in the same breath, I could not go back to my ex. I know there is nothing there to fix. I'm just sad...and don't know why....
life it to short
people need to live
go out into the world
make use of it
we only have limited time here
so live it up as much as you can
Its been 10 months since I wrote anything meaningful, and 2 years since I've written about anything going on in my life. SO! Here goes everything: (Rant warning!)
I've decided to actually leave this site for a while. Maybe not for good. Only time will tell. Between trying to get my life straight and listening to half of you bitch and complain about how you never get shit on this site, fuck it. I'm done listening to it. Sadly enough, I'm always by my family's pages. I don't even have my computer to use to get on everyday. BUT I STILL SHOW LOVE DAMN IT. So screw all of you who come by my page once every 2-3 weeks while i'm at yours every day.
I have a lot of frustration in my life right now. What I need is not stress, and this site and the people on it are doing just the opposite. Since I don't have the spare cash to level, or show love important enough to warrant getting anything in return It's time for me to say my goodbyes for a while. The only time I will be online on Fubar is to p
Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been
It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.
Life Sucks At Job Corps
life at job corps suck cuz everthing is limited to u and we cant even any thing we want to do and if ur 21 u cant drink in ur own roomand thats bullshit plus they say that gonna give u 900 dallors but no they r only gonna give u maybe 489 dallors if u can find a job in time befor u live
In times of sadness,sorrow or pain, remember to lose,you also must gain. If only to learn or mayby to grow, slowly but surely,the reasons will show. So use these setbacks as directional guide, for the river of life is rapid and wide. Take each little obsticle that may come your way as a lesson you've learned and may need the next day!!!
Life Is As Hard As U Make It!
Sometimes, especially in the recent past, I have let other peoples actions effect my own personal well being/happiness. What I am starting to realize is that it isn't them who is doing it to me, but me allowing it to happen. For the most part, my life is going reletively well, I have a nice home, a beautiful and intelligent daughter, and most recently, a man that I have come to care about. I think the hardest part of my life is learning how to deal with a relationship after having spent the last 7 years single. My insecurities always seem to get the best of me. I think the biggest thing I can do is learn to CALM down. I have lived my life on my own for many years and can continue to do so if I so choose. I am not sure why I am blogging about this tonight. I guess, I just wanted to put into words my current thoughts. Life is pretty good, I am looking forward to a lot of things, and dreading a few others. But all in all, I am way ahead of the game from where I was even 10 years ago! Than
The Life Of A Juggalo
here the the 7 baby names that i like... let me know witch one yall like.
kassandra nicole rayne
jessika nicole marie
people are so untrust worthy....i dont know if i want to keep being as trusting as i am. even when people screw me over i still trust them and they then screw me over again. im tred of being nice to people who dont deserve my kindess.
i have been stressed out that i started to rock again. i do it composivly and a lot of the time i dont know that im doing it. patricia fucked alot of people over...in a big way. i dont think that she ever cared about me killing myself. she never cared about david or nicole. she used james for 1,200 and spend it on her self...took money out of my moms purse...she took my brothers xbox 360 and my mamas 4,000 bracelett....i could care less about the skank. she has done nothing but make people misserable. all the skank cares about is sex in a relatonship.
DJ DARK COMMANDER Is up for auction!Auction Ends April 21st, 2009 @ 4pm EST!Bid & rate the pic Please!!!!!!!!!!!Click the pic below to bid!!!
so here goses some of me singel dad fightting to have myy son full time been thow hell all my life and trying to get a holed on it but not easy at all now hiring lounge staff if you want a to join hit me up on yaoo
Life As A Truck
getting started with a new company is crapy.stuck in a hotel with a bunch of new just out of school guys that do nothing but bitch and wine.i cant wate to get my truck and get on the road.i am going to buy my first truck.but being stuck in this hotel with all these new guys is almost to much.well wish me luck.i should have my truck on thursday.do my best to update everyone.
Hey everyone. I know im not the blogging type of guy but i thought id give it a shot. Well as some of u may know i was released from jail in May of 2008 an i have been out for just about a year. It has had its ups an downs but for the most part things are still looking up.
Im not working cause i got laid off back in November of 2008 but from all bad things comes something good. I have talked alot about going to school an doing something with my life well i finally did it.
On Tuesday April 7th i start college classes an Globe University for IT. For all of those who dont know what IT is it Information Tech. Ill be going to school full time for about 18 months. Once im finished with that im going to start my other major which will be Video Game Programming an Design. Its part of the IT feild so i would have as many classes to take but thats ok with me.
Im really looking forward to starting school its the first thing i have done cause i wanted to for me not for anyone else.
On a diff
I sit here with a wall built around me so that no more pain can come in or out I hear voices screaming at me to come out and no matter how much I want to I cant!!!!! I scream back for everyone to leave but they all stay around me and the wall that bounds me and my thoughts… no where to go no one to see I sit there thinking of everything that is in my mind depression consumes my mind and spirit to where I can not release it… so much pain, lies, and abuse bring me to this point in my life… will I ever get better will I ever be free? No one knows… the time I have in this wall that is around me will decide what my life holds so hold on and keep screaming for me to come out cuz one day I will till then just deal……
ok so theres this guy jesse right??? and we became really good friend just talked everyday and he was there for me and i was there for him
I finally know how to say what i feel... Do I care what you think? LOL NO!!!! I dont... Do you care how I feel?? LOL again NO!!! Whats left to be said?? Im not the person you thought I was.. Im sick ... SICK of Being ignored.. Sick of being walked over!!! this goes for every one!!! Dont under estimate me!!! you dont know me and what I am capable of.. Do you throw the word Love around like a toy?? lol Peace betches!!! There are times in our life when we are either a part of, or just witness things that we wish we have never seen or went through! I myself have been there! Ive been abused Mentally, Physically, Verbally and Sexually. Ive been hurt more times then not and at times have wanted to give up! Ive been suicidal thinking theres noway i have anything to live for! there was a time in my life when i would ask GOD "WHY ME." Theres a time when my best friends were the pills that promised to put me to sleep,if i took just the right amount i wouldnt hurt anymore! There are times when i w
Life's Deepest Truths
".i believe the environment should get a stimulus package"- NORTZ
The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship, it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that some one else believes in him and is willin to trust
I found this on Queen Desa's page. This girl has so much wisdome on heer page that i would love to travel her mind in person. Why Gratitude? by LaSara Firefox, MPNLP
Gratitude offers benefits that range from the physical, to the psychological, to the spiritual, and affects both our inner and outer lives. Gratitude practice, in and of itself, bring us into creative co-creation with our personal reality, our beloved family and friends, the world, and our experience of it all. In this quick overview of why gratitude practice is such a good idea, we will just scratch the surface of some of these topics. For a deeper look into the pragmatics of how some of this works, see The Science of G
Well to all that actually come to my page and rate and comment and well just say hi how are you doing. This is for you. I have been struggling over the last few months and I have gotten to a point where I do not think I am going to be able to continue to pay for my internet service. As much as I have thoroughly enjoyed making some very awesome friends on here, I will miss ya'll the most. I have some of your's personal info like Yahoo IM or a phone number to chat with. I will be able to stay in touch with you guys. I am not getting rid of my profile here...... I will only be on when ever I visit someone who has internet until I can afford to get it turned back on. I am not sure when it will be turned off so I hope it will not be in the middle of a conversation with one of you...... ok so a few have said here and outside about fee dial up..... have ya ever used it? fubar would crash the connection within five seconds ...
A very smart man that I have spent a lot of time with once said "Being nice will not get you anywere but hurt".
When I first read it I wasnt sure where he was going with it but I believe I undetstand now.
*No matter where you are going in life there is always someone there to throw you off course.
*If you regret anything you have done in your past think back because that is what got you where you are today.
*There is no guarantee that love will find its way to your heart until you have a child.
*When life gives you lemons grab the tequila and have the best fuckin party anyone has ever been to.
*Never assume your heart knows what is best when the voices in your head are tellin you different. Them voices were put there for a reason.
*Broken hearts can only heal when you let them.
*Never settle for what could have been when you can fight for what you know is.
A wise woman once said that the fastest way to a man's heart is with a kitchen knife. LOL Not really well maybe but it aint worth the time in jail if the body is found.
Best advice one can get: Fuck em and Leave em cuz that is what they are planning first. (ok maybe not all of them sometimes it ta
Hey, If you choose to read this please at least rate it. If you feel like post a comment.. Thats Fabulous! Thank you!
About 2 months ago, I woke up one morning and I found a lump on my leftside ribcage. I asked my Fiance to feel it. He said he could feel anything. So I let it pass till that morning. I then had my roommate feel the spot where the lump was. I didn't tell her about it. I let her tell me about it. She felt what I felt! So I called my dr office and he was full. So i asked for a referral to see another dr at another clinic. Which was kind of a hug run around.
I get in to see this Dr. He examed me.. Said he thought it was a gas pocket. It would pass in a coupld days. If it didn't then i was to go back in. He didn't even want to bother with me.
I waited a week. Its still there. I for sure wasn't going back to him. But they did call and I did express how i felt about how he wanted to do nothing about the lump not even take some sort of pics of it. I said I wasn't g
Lifes Meaning To Some
I used to roll the diceFeel the fear in my enemy's eyesListen as the crowd would sing:"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"One minute I held the keyNext the walls were closed on meAnd I discovered that my castles standUpon pillars of salt and pillars of sandI hear Jerusalem bells a ringingRoman Cavalry choirs are singingBe my mirror my sword and shieldMy missionaries in a foreign fieldFor some reason I can't explainOnce you go there was never, never an honest wordThat was when I ruled the worldIt was the wicked and wild windBlew down the doors to let me in.Shattered windows and the sound of drumsPeople couldn't believe what I'd becomeRevolutionaries waitFor my head on a silver plateJust a puppet on a lonely stringOh who would ever want to be king?I hear Jerusalem bells a ringingRoman Cavalry choirs are singingBe my mirror my sword and shieldMy missionaries in a foreign fieldFor some reason I can't explainI know Saint Peter won't call my nameNever an honest wordBut that was wh
I have adopted some extremely dear friends of mine recently. I wrote this for SpicyChiliPepper and her daughter Nicole.
There's no reason to feel sadWhen you can joke insteadThere's no reason to become angryWhen all you need to do is smileThere's no need to feel aloneWhen all you need to do is callThere's no need to act shyWhen you look into a room it lights upThere's no cause for putting up with assholesWhen programmers made the /ignore commandThere's no cause for stubbornnessWhen you can have a gentle free willThere's no excuse for bad behaviorWhen energy can be used elsewhereThere's no excuse for someone mistreating youWhen you have someone like me to go toI'm here to lend a helping handI'm here to be your friendJust come to me when you need to talkAnd I'll be here 'til the end! You have torn my heart in pieces
You have taken my life and thrown it to the ground
You have spoiled everything that is fucking great in life
You have betrayed all aspects of honesty
You have fucked
Change.It's always been who I am. I grew up in an unstable home with one parent in the military, and the other dealing with mental issues from a very traumatic childhood. Things were never stable, and one moment's respite was quickly swept away in another moment's tragedy.In and out of foster homes, group homes and the like, moving across the country or even the globe. I was never in one place for long, sometimes I'd find myself back in a familiar place, but it was rare and never for long. Nothing was ever lasting, nothing stayed. I found myself withdrawn in those things that I couldn't be taken away from. Books, video games, toys, withdrawn in myself. My 2 brothers and sister were there for me often, but not always, sometimes I wouldn't see them for weeks, months. Not to mention I was the oldest, with my father consumed by the army and my mother mentally unfit (for a long while, until they were able to finally figure out and treat her illness) I was the authoritarian figure.
Life Is Good
Life is so damn good right now. I am loving it.
Life is a lot like a book. You're born and each year you get older but also that year is a story of your life. For each year that is a chapter in your book. As you grow, and get older not only are you taught but you learn lessons, make memories, meet people, you love, and loose people and so much more. You can't write your life as you would a book, you just have to live and try be happy as you do it. Hope for a happy ending.
Now I will be the first to admit not all the chapters in life I like, hell I would love to forget a few, but we all would. Really if we did that, it could change things as they are. You may not have what you got.
For all those that know me, and what I have been though understands this blog. All my fights in my life, the lose of my daughter have brought me to this point. Not only have I learned to love and live again, I have found love again. Never thought I would be happy, but damn I am. I smile all the time, an
At different times in your life you have life changing events. Some stronger than others, but affecting you and changing the direction of your life. I have had a wonderful life and when I least expected it, someone comes along and just grabs ahold of my heart and hangs on for dear life. I have found what love is all about again with a woman who means more to me than anyone who I have ever met. She loves me for who I am and who I will be. All that matters is our future together which is full of love for one another. She has opened up many suppressed feelings and emotions that were long since gone. You go through life sometimes aimlessly or actually thinking that you know where you are going. My course has changed from where I thought I would go. Kim, you have changed my life for the better. You have given me reasons to go forward in a new direction with my life and want it to be with you. I love you with all of my heart and soul. I thank you for what you have brought to my life. I
What is the point sometimes! i have been movin every 6 to 8 months now, for the past 3 years. i meet new people jus friends and some people it felt like a little more. i work my ass off all the time and i am never able to get ahead ever. Now i am heading out west. Suposivily it is supposed to make things better but at the same time i know it is goin to come to me and my brother mike fightin to survive.
i am a open person i am will in to try new things to make life a little better. but i am exhausted i want to settle down stay somewhere and be happy. will it come i dont know. i hope it dose and fast before i give up for the last time. ( iam venting this is not a suicide note)
Life And Death.......
I have spent my whole life opening my heart, arms and the doors of my home to anyone in need. I have given them whatever I can whenever I can. All I ever wanted in return was to be happy and feel loved. When I was 19 I got married, I was head over heels in love with her. But all she wanted to do was drink, party and do drugs. I got mad alot, she never wanted to just be a family. A couple weeks before our 1st Anniversary she took my son and ran off with a guy who supposedly a friend of mine and apparently had been seeing on the side for quite some time, at the time I didnt know it but she was pregnant with my daughter. When she left me I tried very hard to end my life, I slept with nasty women, drank myself into oblivion and did enough drugs to make Snoop Doggy Dogg blush. Just when I thought it couldnt get any worse, I get a bill in the mail for 10,000 dollars from the state of Arizona for child support. Great My wife cheats on me and now I have to pay her for betraying me, what a worl
Life & Survival
LIFE & SURVIVAL
There is a difference between Life and Survival.
Whatever medical science may profess, there is a difference between Life and survival. There is more to being alive than just having a heartbeat and brain activity. Being alive, really alive, is something much subtler and more magnificent. Their instruments measure blood pressure and temperature, but overlook joy, passion, love, all the things that make life really matter. To make our lives matter again, to really get the most out of them, we will have to redefine life itself. We have to dispense with their merely clinical definitions, in favor of ones which have more to do with what we actually feel.
As it stands, how much living do we have in our lives? How many mornings do you wake up feeling truly free, thrilled to be alive, breathlessly anticipating the experiences of a new day? How many nights do you fall asleep feeling fulfilled, going over the events of the past day with satisfaction? Most of us feel
I was fucking kidding myself I tried to change who i was to be with someone. I know some of the changes were for the better but now that things have so drastically changed and I see things for what they really are I gotta ask myself was I trying for the wrong person? I never figured out how someone could tell you that they love you and then just walk away like nothing ever happend, are these people just heartless fucks or did I just give my heart to the wrong person? I think I need to learn this trick. Mayb they dont even know they do it hell I dont know and I guess I probably never will but you know what I dont wanna know I like the fact that I am a caring person and I like the fact that I am trying and doing it on my own. Best of all I like that you really get to see how a person is when everything is said and done. I am sorry that I lost him cause yea I did and do truley care. Well I guess it just goes to show you no matter how old you are you still gotta try new things cause y
The Life And Times Of Ian In Song Lyrics
s experiences and people move in and out of our lives, I reflect that to covet them and ask that they remain and always be there for us is a selfish response - a response that doesn't take into account the wishes of another.
In essence, they don’t need you, so why should you need them?
Yet the pain of losing someone can cut deep, and the fear of losing someone can lead one to drastic measures in a vain attempt to keep someone that doesn’t desire to be kept. But if we know that we have given of ourselves to the best of our ability - without regrets or hard feelings, than we can move on and keep the good memories while discarding the not-so-good ones.
Our bodies are temporary, the actions and works and words that we leave behind will live on even after our bodies turn to bone dust, as our stories are told and retold, and our creations are passed down through generations.
It’s common for people to question unconditional love, to advise those who practice it that the
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experie
Life On Fubar.com
Ever screwed up and hurt someone you was starting to care about - but really didn't mean to. Ummm that sucks - you feel like an ass about it as well. Well, Killed my profile and thought about just staying clear of fubar for awhile - was new anyway. Got to missing it on this rainy day and joined back up. Sucks when you find someone you really feel you click with and, I don't know, maybe just being MAN - I screw it up... I seem to do that only with the ones I am VERY into, which is rare. Normally it is me dumping someone, funny... Anyway - So back now.
Darn let me get to rating some people so I can get some ranking. Got to start traveling some next week - so until then... Bye
Life Changing Events
So, I was working at one of the local jails March of 2008, and was meeting some very interesting people. But, as with any situation one in particular caught my attention. He was extremely out of place in the facility. He was clean, well spoken, polite, and extremely intelligent. On several occasions when I wasn't having a great day, no matter how hard I tried to mask it; he would call me out on it. It became almost therapuetic talking to him. When it came about I was going to have to leave that job I was heartbroken and scared. Yes I was terribly upset about leaving my job. I loved it. But, I was more scared because I had come attached to this fine man. I came to know Robert as an extremely kind, careing, loving, intelligent, and beautiful man. We worked out a system to write so that it would not cause problems. About two weeks after I left I wrote the first letter. I was extremely shocked to quickly receive one back. From then on it seemed as if each of us was flooding eac
so i thought at time goes by things are supposed to get easier, i guess who ever said that was so so wrng it is just gettin wrse and hrdr to deal with. Day after day i sit and try and figure y i love someone that does not seem to love me back and it hurts. i have never loved and hated someone so much at the same ever in my life. i guess i jus want what i cant have. I wish it was all diffrent and that it will get easy soon. I cant handle bein hurt any more and seem to just keep gettin hurt more and more every day. I really do not kno how much more my body handle if it can handle any at all. Im worn and my body is havin a hrd time adjustin to this along with other things im currently not able to mention. I jus want it all to better bit idk that will eva happen. I think of my life and things that i want to say and can't and jus cry for hrs on end, i cry myself to sleep every nite as i think y me. There are so many thing i want tell him but cant find a way and when i do he seem alwatys idk
My old gf is 7 months pregnant and 40 years old. Back when I was pregnant with my oldest (12 years ago)
she had a big issue being around me due to fact she was hurting and couldnt have kids. They tried vitro and all.
Anyways..she wouldnt even come to my babyshower. After 15years of marriage..there marriage went to hell cuz her
hubby had a affair on her and got a girl pregnant. We tried to be there for both of them.. but once she used us to help
her move out of there house..we didnt hear from her again til she needed help moving again. Seemed like
thats only time we heard from her. Anyways.. now shes having a baby shower and called up like best of friends.
I didnt want to speak to her so she spoke to hubby..saying she was gonna send a babyshower invite.
I guess I am spiteful..and all. Part of mes happy that she finally is pregnant..but part of me just pissed over how shes
been over the years. She says this is gods miracle...and says her ex is pissed that shes finally pre
This week can be either very promising
full of disappointment
Tomorrow I have my GED assesment test...
which, for those who don't know, is the first thing they have you take in good 'ol K-port TN
It just tests you to see how smart you are and what not
if you score high enough you take a practice GED test
and if you score high enough on the practice test then you can take the GED test w/o the classes
So lets Hope i pass the assesment...
wish me luck...
Then Thursday i have my second Interview with Bojangles
seems promising but i dont want to count my chickens before the hatch...
so wish me luck on that as well...
other then that im just chillin...
doin the usual...
which lately is cleaning and unpacking....
i can't wait till i get this place the way i want it :D
Life And Love In 09
I have thought about my life lately,thinking of what i want to do with the love i have in my heart I have come to realize that meeting, and falling in love with you is the best thing that has ever happened to me. My love for you is beyond words, beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I am content with our life, what it will hold, the exciting things we have ahead of us, to experience together, as a couple. I am ready for all that our future holds for us, the good and bad, we will get thru it all together. We had withstood the test of time, the test of a long distance relationship, and have suceeded thus far. If we can overcome these tough issues, then any and every thing is possible for us. I am ready to face this future of ours, this wonderful future that we have ahead...together.**I wrote the above on 4-3-09**4-19-09Well since writing this some things have changed, and we are faced with a situation of my creation. I am very regretful for what I did...I am filled with more remors