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A Life Of Lies
I will never understand why
Why do you choose to lie?
The lies you tell cut like a knife
In spite of this, I have no doubt I will be alright
For it is you, my dear who will have a stormy life
A life full of turmoil with no friends
Unfortunately for you, true love will never cross your path
You will never be truly free, your heart and mind will always be in chains
You are like a prisoner and the lies will keep you behind bars
Telling the truth is your only escape
Hopefully, someday you will find the courage to change
To live more like a human being and less like a liar
I hope you someday choose a life of truth, honor, and self-respect
And leave behind a life of lies
Until then, there is only one thing left to say
Life Is Sometimes Bitter Sweet
Well..here i am again...as you know, it wasn't but weeks, just weeks ago that i put my Daddy to rest...Mom and i spent two and half months walking through steps to get Dad set with hospice, getting him home, tending to home only briefly for the seven days he was home before he passed..Mom and Daddy were married 35 years, yes, she is, she was my step mom, but the only woman i call Mom...me and mine were beginning to heal, to try to move forward, i sent Mom off to Hawaii for 10 days, she didnt want to go; i said she needed to get out of the house, to go sit in the sun, see the beauty...she went kickin' and screamin..lol...she got home 4 days ago..now the house was quiet..the kids and grandkids gone, friends had stopped coming by in droves with condolenses and well wishes...she was now feeling what life would be for her; alone...she sat to eat her supper, turned on the TV...she always said these days she was so tired she had to nap before she slept...she was tired, sad, broken-hearted...s
Life Is A Bag Of Skittles
I stole Brandons' Girlfriend application and figured i'd hae fun, answer the quetsions and see if people consider me to be a good plausible girlfriend..hrm....
Name: Amanda Jean aka Mandy
Hair color: brown'red
Eye color: blue, with green in them
Favorite color: orange and green
Favorite food: italian
Whats your AIM or MSN screen name: texasrain0606 (all 3 )
Tattoos?: none, but someday
Piercings?: none, not sure if i want one
Drink?: occasionally, im still a cheap date lol
Smoke?: YUCK. hell NO.
Any Other drugs?: no way
Would you care if i did drugs?: eh, yea.
Would you care if i drank?: no AA meetings, plz.
Are you a virgin?: nope
Do you have sex?: ...i'm being good.
(if so) How Often?: ...being good.
Is sex all your looking for?: no way.
Do you have any STD's?: no
Would you kiss me anytime?: mmmm i like kissees
Do you like to cuddle?: thats a must
How much?: a lot. i lovve
Ok, so I am now entering my first year as an assistant football coach for my sons team and let me tell you all about the experiences I have had. We have NOT even had a practice yet.
So when deciding where my son should play football, me,my ex wife and her husband decided to let our son play for a organization formed only one year ago. This is indeed a great organization who are trying to teach the young men football along with many other important lessons to becoming a man. Only problem with that is what they expect the parents and/or the coaches to endure.
It all started last December when a football recruiter approached my ex wife at a basketball game at which my son was playing. Yeah I said recruiter. He stated that the program was looking for bright kids with any kind of athletic ability. He passed on his website and told her to give them some serious thought when choosing a team to play for. She shares this experience with me and I was all for it. This was our first step at
WHY LIE TO PPL AND PLAY GAMES?
TODAY WE LOVE AND WE LOSE AND EVERYONE SAYS TOMARROW MAY NEVER COME BUT IT ALWAYS DOES!REMEMBER TO LOVE TO THE FULLEST OF YOUR ABILITY AND RESPECT THOSE AROUND YOU FOR TOMARROW WILL COME AND YOU WILL REGRET THE LOSS OF WHAT COULDVE BEEN!SO TO ALL OF YOU HERE ALL MY LOVE AND RESPECT I SHALL LOVE YOU ALWAYS!
Well wow life.....as of right now life is going along nice....I have a couple jobs to pick from.. i just dont know what one to take...i really want the job at the YMCA or at LaneBryant.....i love working with kids,so that works great with the YMCA, and i love to shop and love to shop at LaneBryant.....but anyhow damn this sucks i have no idea what job to take.....Im lined up to start working at Giant here in Gettysburg...but im not sure i really want to work there...if i pick Giant then i have to work in the Seafood....i dont know if i want to come home everyday smelling like fish...and that means i have to get the lobster out and touch them...i dont know about that part...but ohh well we will see what job i take and ill keep ya posted on what one i take....Damn i wish i would have found a job right away when i got back home here cause my girl Joanie asked me to come out to Oceanside Cal....to help her back and move into her new house cause her husband is going out to sea that day...so
LIFE CYCLE - watch closely and just wait for all the changes.
This is pretty awesome (and from a technical side, especially
for a .gif file)...
I hope you like it.. I loved this when I saw it.
i have a lot of stress right now. i just started a new job and its great very easy. but other things in my life are causing me stress. so what i am going to do is break up with my boyfriend and be single i was the happiest then. i hope he understands i just dont think he wants a girlfriend if he does its of convenince . and thats not what a boyfriend is. thats is where most of my stress is coming from. I have had some changes in my life the last two months and i maybe going thru some more as well. But i may need some advice. I am dating someone which i moved in with for about a month and half. well he couldnt put me on his lease so i moved out. but since i have moved out he doesnt hardly call me and when i get him on the phone he doesnt say anything. used to we would say i love you all the time, now he doesnt say it when i do and he says its cuz he is around friends but the way i feel is that if someone really loves you it doesnt matter where or who they are around. i am going back to
Lifehouse And Goo Goo Doll Concert
i haven't had that much fun at a concert in years. lifehouse started the show but put on a great show, but of course goo goo dolls was the main performer and rocked the house. they also put on a great on core at the end. (performed at Mohegan Sun Casino)
I hope this will give you a laugh. I had to travel out of town last Wednesday. I got to the airport and was asked for my drivers license. All I could find was my expired license. The new one was missing. So what if they sent me to the potential terrorist line. I just had to deal with it lol. I had planned on charging my expenses to my AmEx card and getting reimbursed when I got back. I went to have dinner and a drink at one of the airports on my way and found it was missing. So, I'll use my BB&T card I thought. Also missing. Fortunately, I found my last bank card to use. While I was gone I was calling my office, my roommate, everyone I could think of to look for these cards for me. I remembered my purse had tipped over on my bed one night and thought maybe my roommate would find them on the floor of my bedroom, but she didn't. When I returned home and saw my daughters, ages 6 and 8, and told them of my adventures, my youngest said she thought she knew where they were so I
I think of my life....
Where am I going?
I wonder with childlike dreams.
Dreams of love endlessly searching in a ll the wrong places.
My life is a mystery, even to me.
A secret door that even I have not seen.
Where will it lead? Will I make the right turn?
Will I lead my own way? Or follow the heard?
The road less taken is such a beautiful road.
A road in which i can make my own path,
with out the burden of somebody else's tracks.
Where will I go? Where will it lead?
I am so scared, I am down on my knees.
I pray that I will do the right thing.
Take the sure path, but lately it seems
I am always distrated, always led astray
I try to be honest, but sometimes it's hard
When I make a mistake that goes straight to the heart.
I am so weak....so afraid
That I will not survive this world that's strange.
So much suffering...so much pain
It hurts me to see
how the young children must pay.
They are so innocent
yet some are so old.
Wasted lives, souls that are so
I KNOW EVERYONE ON THIS ENTIRE EARTH, AT LEAST ONCE IN THEIR LIFETIME HAVE FELT THAT WAY.... OR SAY THAT THEIR LIFE SUCKS.... YADA YADA...
WELL, THAT'S LIFE.... WE ARE ALL SENT HERE TO EXPERIENCE THIS THING WE CALL 'LIFE'..... WITH ITS UPS AND DOWNS.... AND I HAVE NOTICED IN MY LIFE THAT SOME PEOPLE (LIKE MYSELF) WILL EXPERIENCE MORE DOWNS THEN THE UPS.... WHY???? TO LEARN, MAYBE..... SO YOU KNOW AND REMEMBER WHAT YOU DID WRONG, HOW IT HAPPENED, AND TO TRY NOT TO DO THE SAME DAMN THING AGAIN. AND TO PAY ATTENTION .... DUH.... BUT SOMETIMES WE DON'T..... AND MAYBE THAT IS THE BAD THING..... NOT PAYING ATTENTION....
SO RIGHT NOW, I AM TRYING TO TELL MYSELF, THAT GOD ONLY GIVES YOU WHAT YOU CAN HANDLE..... GOODNESS, HE MUST THINK I CAN HANDLE A WHOLE LOT OF SHIT....... AAARRGGGGGGH!
Life That Sucks
So I have this life that sucks, well only when it comes to my family consisting of my dad and brother. Here is the story so you can see why it sucks. My story goes like this....I was born in Ohio in 1979 to 2 alcholics, not 1 but 2 and off and on in my life my dad proceds to tell me that he did drugs then so its a wonder im ok, anyways i had a good childhood that i can remember until i turned 7 and my brother was born. All hell broke loose then, things got really bad around home, I remember times of mom and dad beating each other up, the cops there all the time and mo and dad both being hauled off to jail. I got older and things got worse, being of alcholics my parents spent most of their time in the bars and i had to take care of my brother. I had to take him everywhere with me, to band practice, to the store, to my then boyfriends(now my husband) house everywhere. When I turned 17 it was also my senior year of highschool and my paents decided it was time to divorce and then hell brok
i know you are probably tired of hearing me talk about this. But this is the only way i can get my feeling out is by writing. a couple months back i lost my mom my best friend and my bowling partner. life has thrown me some curve balls. but im trying to deal with. my mom raised me all by herself and i feel she did a good job she made me into the man i am today. im going to be blut im tired of leading my life like this by trying to keep up with fashion or new phone that come out im just going to be Desmond and if most people dont like that i dont know what to tell you im just going to be true to myself and not try to impress people. i feel like im doing that at time i wanna have the new phone first or lastest jordans but no more im just going to be me I LOVE YOU MOM RIP 4-21-07
Hello all, Just wanted to say hi. My wife and I are good. I am still having issues with my step kids "father", that jack ass had me arressted not to long ago, for something I did not do. And I am currently on probation, so that is bad. Now he keeps on jerking me around, and I am ready to loose it.... I do not know, I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for listing.....
So here it goes well where should I start hmmm I have a wonderful boyfriend..... He and I have been togather for sometime now.... we have been through so much in the time that we have been togather..... so much that i dont even know where to start... We ment back in Sept 06 and we hit it off so well... by the mid October I could talk to him about anything.... I would often wonder what it would be like to be with him and when I was away I would miss him I thought to myself how is that possible when I never met the man in person....so most of my nights would be taking care of my kids and getting to talk to him as much as I could... I was begining to have feelings that I didnt know should be there ..... I tryed to ignore them but I guess when they are that strong there isnt nothing u can do to not feel that way..... I could truly say I loved a man that i never met but I still felt like that wasnt possible so me and my best friend went shopping and we came up with this nutty Idea to meet h
Just a snippet of information on my present situation.
I have been living with my sister for six months now and I can honestly say that it has been a worthwhile experience. The original premise for moving in with her was so that we could support each other during our own little pitfalls; she suffers from depression and recently attempted suicide, myself I was recently diagnosed with a second cancer in addition to another operative cancer I was already dealing with.
We get along so well, which suprises me, since we had not really seen each other for a number of years. We lived four hours apart and never really made a strong attempt to see one another. Sad.
Anyway, she is seeing a therapist and is at least stable. She amazes me. No matter how down she gets, she throws her concentration to me if I am having any down time myself. All of my three sisters are amazing individuals.
As for me, I have reached a point in my battle where I am at an empasse. Do I continue with worthless tr
I AM TROUBLED WITH THE COMPLICATIONS OF LIFE"S LITTLE BUMPS IN THE ROAD....WE ALL HAVE THEM WE ALL FACE THEM IN OUR OWN INCOMPETENT WAYS....YET WHY IS IT SOME OF US FACE INSURMOUNTABLE TROUBLES... YET OTHERS SEEM TO GLIDE ALL THE WAY....I SIT IN DEEP THOUGHT WONDERING THESE THINGS FEELING THE PAIN OF YET ANOTHER GRAVE DAY....I SMILE AND I NOD TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS WHEN INSIDE I'M BURNING TO SCREAM.... I FEEL EACH OF YOUR'S PAIN AS YOU TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS... I TRY TO REACH OUT AND HELP YOU ALONG...BUT HOW CAN I HELP WHEN THIS STRUGGLE IS BUILDING INSIDE...BURSTING MY HEART AND MY SOUL...HOW DO I FACE YET ANOTHER DAY ....I START WITH A PRAYER ...AND I LOOK INSIDE..I KNOW I AM GOOD AND WORTHY....I THINK OF THE LOVE I HAVE IN MY HEART...FOR THE LOVE THAT IS SHOWERED UPON ME...I LOOK IN THE ADORING EYES OF MY CHILDREN ...AND THINK OF THE HUGS I WOULD MISS IF I DIDN'T FIGHT FOR MY PLACE IN THIS WORLD....SO REMEMBER MY FRIENDS NO MATTER HOW HARD THINGS SEEM TO GET...YOU ARE LOVED IN A MOST P
I am starting to wonder if there is such a thing as true happiness. I am coming to realize that there just might not be. You have to take the good with the bad. When things seem to start goin right for me. Something always happens. Well I have learned alot over the past few months. I am not gonna let it get me down. I love life. I have so many good things goin right now to let the one or 2 lil bad things bother me. I have Awesome friends and 2 great lil boys. Job sucks but hey it pays the bills right lol.. anyway. I suck at blogs but. think i am gonna start doing more..
Life How Fast It Flys
WEN I WAS LIL I HAD NO 1 . NOW THAT I HAVE ME BABYS I WISH I CAN SOME HOWE REDEW MY YEARS.I WANT 2 BEABLE RASE MY EYEBROW AND SAY LOOK IM A GREAT DAD.IM NOT JUST SOME THUG
I SIT ALONE
MY DREAM MY LIFE MY SOUL MY BREATH MY AIR NOTHING CAN STAND BETWEEN ME AND MY LIL SOLDIERS im a devorsed dad with kids some times i feel like i dont do enough i pay 5oo a week never late 4 them i dont care about money why is is that i feel so empty is becouse i dont have them every min are am i failing as a dad AS A LAY ME HEAD 2 SLEEP I WAKE IN A SWEAT WOUNDERING IF IT WAS REAL LOOSING ANOTHER CHILD CANT DO THIS AGAIN GOD TAKE ME NIGHT MARES
Every now and then we need to stop ourselves from the daily grind to look back at the failures we have made in our lives. When we look back and evaluate what went wrong on our own parts we get to learn from these mistakes, if we look back to find what others did wrong then there is no moving forward from within ourselves. I have made a great deal of mistakes in my life and I have payed the ultimate price. I almost lost my family now a year and a half later I have really gotten to see where I went wrong. I did not balance my life as I should have. Now my 2 son's and myself get to live as a trio with out a mother's love to help guide them and as I would not give up my children for anything, on the flip side I would do anything to give them a mother that would love and help guide them in their lives, for now we will go on and continue forward until we can find some one worthy of this great pleasure.
Life In The 1500's
>The next time you are washing your hands and complain because the
water temperature isn't just how you like it, think about how things used to
be. Here are some facts about the1500s:
Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath in
May, and still smelled pretty good by June. However, they were starting to
smell, so brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor.
Hence the custom today of carrying a bouquet when getting married.
>Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the
house had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and
men, then the women and finally the children. Last of all the babies.
By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it.
Hence the saying, Don't throw the baby out with the Bath water..
>Houses had thatched roofs-thick straw-piled high, with no wood
underneath. It was the only place for animals to get warm, so all the cats and
other small a
You are so full of energy, you constantly attract hotties, and you are always the dominant one in the sack. It is very easy for you approach people because you have so much confidence and you are very forward about your feelings.
You are very likely to have lots of sexual partners, (sometimes all at once), and be the most sexually experienced of any of your friends.
Sex matches: Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius
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Life As It Happens - Or Not ...
I know this is gonna get comments - on way or another ... but - I do ever so want to thank you for all the sweet comments on my shoutbox, like "I wanna fu** you" - or "man I wanna suck those" or my fav "give me your yahoo ID" .... please don't take it personal - but I don't nessesarly want to cyber with everyone I meet on here - I like to talk and have fun - now i'm not a prude or a bad BITCH - but if I say not now or no, then at least please respect me. I'll do the same for you. There's nothing wrong with asking - just know that no means no and if I can't get back to you soon then I must be BUSY !!! I really do have a life (somedays). And sometimes I will even sign on in here but minimize the window and don't even see that you are here - so NO i'm NOT ignoring you. I really am not a bad person just human (mostly) and have other beings in my life too. So with all that known - stay sweet and keep it bottoms up ..... later, me Life begins again ... i'm new on this planet so be gentle wit
Ive been havin a lot of pent up feelings lately n dont really know what to do with them, so a friend of mine said write them down...so here goes! my life this past month or so has been a whirl wind of emotions from beyond angry to depressed. I don't understand whu thoes closest to you and who you love the most have to hurt you! I can honestly say im not confused anymore!! He left his family for my best friend (ex) yet again. I feel sooo stupid for not listenin to my insides when we got back together, i knew it n i still went back. i thot he was what i wanted, don't get me wrong i do love him and always will but i can't go thru that again, and now that i have a son with him he will never be completly out of my life! they can't seem to leave me out of their drama either. Ya c she has (or had) a boyfriend and last weekend threatened my exes life cause she lied to him yet again about what was going on. so that means everytime he leaves with our son i gotta wonder if that will be t
Life And Such
I personally believe things happen for a reason. In some past life I must have been or done unspeakable, unmentionable things to someone or a whole lot of someones. Because if it doesn't happen how I believe it does. Then. Well.
Can't life just give me a break? Isn't 25 years of hassles, heartache, terror, fear, loneliness, problems, fights, tears .. more than one person should have?
It's likely just the emotions talking, but on the other hand I so know that it isn't. Feels like every single time I turn around. Something is going wrong. Is happening and I have utterly no control what so ever over it occuring.
I'm not the type to give true details. But life hasn't been nice these 25 years of living. I feel lucky to have survived it all, and that I still want to continue on.
Of cause. I have someone else to think of now. Just not myself. Perhaps that's my greatest worry. In a way. That for all my hoping and wondering that I'll do good by this baby once it's born, that I won't
Lifes 3 Rules
PARADOX: Life is a mystery;
don't waste time figuring it out.
HUMAN: Keep a sense of humor,
especially about yourself. That
is a strength beyond all magic.
CHANGE: Know that nothing stays
**Dan Millman Quote**
The journey is what brings us
happiness; not the destination.
Be happy now, without reason--or
you will never be at all.
Little mandy and billy were young kids who lived next door to each other
everyday they would come out side and have a teddy bear picnic and eat there pb&j's .They would play afternoon after afternoon and always have fun
theyd go to the beach hold hands and collect shells andd make sandcastless even though they were young this was a start of somthing neww
but one day after mandy's 6th birthday day billy came up to her and said will you be my girl frreind and she agreed they sat there by the pond and they promised Forever.
they hugged they kissed and there mom and dad's new they were perfect.
everyday as they grew older there love kept growing stronger
they became teenagers and they were loving better thn ever
they spent there summers together
they had sleepovers and they were the best of freinds and lovers
they loved everywhere .
even if they were miles apart
it was perfect. years past and passed and they got married
one day after billy got home from work
sorry that i have been that good of a friend. but i have started a pt job. My oldest has started school too. and have a few issues i have started some med for anxiety. i hope to be back to normal son. i am sorry to all my friends and thanks for love. i miss ya'll hope all is well.
Life As A Swinger
Dan and Jennifer are an awesome couple that cover a wide range subjects about the Swinger life Style.
"When legends die, there are no more dreams.
When there are no more dreams, there is no more greatness."
PATHS 3:49 PM 8/2/2007
I woke this morning thinking of paths.This thinking continued with me.
I did smoke prayers.Still I am thinking of these paths. I try to push them away, they are distracting.
I open my emails.
I receieved one from a sweet sister of mine. This email followed with my thoughts.
I realize Creator wishes to speak with me and I have not been hearing.
This is important and I have to pay attention. So I stop trying to control these thoughts.
I sit,am quiet and let them run.I use my life and myself for an example. This is what I see.
When we are first created we are put on our lifes path.Our road through life,beginning to end.
Creator gives us this gift. We do not have to seek for it. Through our l
Soldiers come in all shapes, shades, weights, sizes and states of sobriety, misery, and confusion. a soldier is sly as a fox, has the nerve of a dope addict, the stories of an old sailor, the sincerity of a politician and the subtlety of Mt. Saint Helens. He is extremely irresistible, totally irrational and completely indestructible.
A Soldier is a Soldier all his life.
You can kick him out of your house, but not out of your heart.
You can take him off your mailing list, but not off your mind.
They are found everywhere; In love, in battle, in lust, in trouble, in debt, in bars... and sometimes behind them.
No one can write so seldom and yet think so much of you. No one else can get so much enjoyment out of a letter, clean clothes or a pack of smokes.
A Soldier is a genius with a deck of cards.
Brave without a grain of sense.
He is the PROTECTOR OF AMERICA, with the latest copy of Playboy or Sports Illustrated or GUNS & AMMO in his back pocket.
When he wants s
Life At This Point
I just uploaded new pics of my son on here so check them out and tell me what you think! He's my Doll Baby and the apple of my eye! I am still hurting over the decisions that Rande has made concerning us and our child. To have him choose someone else that he met while I was pregnant and raise her child to call him Daddy instead of his own has rally delt me a hard blow. I am making it though. I have to stay strong for my son. he is my world and my life. I keep up with the day to day so as to make life better for him. I never want to cause a tear to cross his perfect face. He's an angel. I have some awsome friends that have supported me no matter what, even when I didn't know what I was going to do and felt like giving up. They are my stability. I have a great family that has allowed me to morn and give me a break from Aiden (my son) so that I can have some time to myself from time to time. I am still the same person I feel but different. I still enjoy the same things and ac
A tear can come so quickly
A heart can break so fast
A memory lasts forever
As if there were no past
I wake up every morning
Wishing to re live a happy day
Where I can wake up to see
A smile upon your face
A day with a happy begining
And and ending that way too
A day to just be on the couch
And cuddle next to you
For: Jeffy's Mom My words may mean nothing
But they come straight from my heart
I have prayed for your recovery
from the very start
I know you do not know me
I am a stranger this is true
But I think of you every day
In hopes that you pull through
Your family really loves you
They show it every day
I feel as though I know you
In a special kind of way
So the only way I can show you this
Is to sit and write to you
I wish that god sit by your side
And lovingly guide you through
Help you through your rough times
And Ease away your pain
In hopes that you can
Ride your board
At least one more time again
May God Bless you a
I have two more sitting for my wings got the first set done last night in about two to three weeks getting the sec set done then in another two to three the last set done .......I well post pics when I up load them soon I have been in a good mood most of the day and night till I get home all the kids have move out now †not stress out or any thing wtf I get asked why are you always in your room.I like being in there it is dark and my place that I can come to when I am in a dark dark mood ...some of you just do not get it I am a dark person. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON THE EGDE OF LIFE AND JUST WATED TO END IT ALL WELL THAT WAS ME THE OTHER NIGHT ALL I WANTED TO WAS JUST END IT ALL.I LOOK BACK ON THAT NIGHT AND SEE MY LIFE IN MY HANDS AND LOOKING AT IT AGAIN I AM GLAD I DID NOT DO NOTHING LIKE THAT I HAVE TWO LIL BOYS WOULD BE LOST IN THIS FUCK WOURLD WITH OUT THERE MOMMY
Life, The Final Frontier
Life, the Only frontier...
Current mood: rejuvenated
I have never posted a BLOG before, especially none like this, but I can only hope that this one is good, and it strikes a chord in all of us.
You who get this on your site, know who I am, and what I am about. If anyone out there reads this in passing or gets lucky and reads this, excellent! If you read it and think I am an asshole. Then good, think of it as like you hit the free game on the 19th hole of mini golf, it is nice you won but you may never go play it again or give a fuck. Fact of the matter is I DO care.
I am 35 years old and I have been through more than most of you have, maybe a lot less than some of you have. Either way, I am tired of peoples bullshit. So I say this to anyone that can hear this, you wanna be my friend on here, then Sweet! If you do not want to be a friend here or in real life Sweet! If you are a person that wants me as a fuck buddy and does not care about anything else, Sweet!
Life's Treasures, Unexpected Of Course
Sometimes, we walk through life wandering aimlessly. We never really know what we are looking for. In fact, we aren't really looking. But sometimes, good things do happen to good people, and things fall into the right place. Now, I am not one of those that are big into fate and destiny. However, I do believe we are in control, and have the keys to our own futures, in our own very own possesions. Isn't it awesome though, when you have the THEE key, have no idea of what it belongs to, then out of nowhere, comes the lock, that opens the door, to all the good things you have been missing? Sometimes life is better than just shaking a Magic 8 Ball... Sometimes life can be like "A box of chocolates."
Life At My House
Well today was going just fine up until about 9pm. Then my dog got loose. I took the car to find her and my boyfriend was walking the alley with the puppy. I finally found and needless to say, I saw the skunk before I saw her. She jumps right across my lap and gets in the passenger seat of my car. I was thinking that she could have been sprayed by that damn skunk but she was. She smelled like skunk, I smelled like skunk, my car, my house...everything. I tried the whole tomatoe juice thing, took her down to pet wash and wouldnt ya know it...they were out of the de-skunker stuff. Just my luck. So today, well tonight, pretty much sucked. I got a recipe that is supposed to work on dogs to get rid of the smell of skunk but he says to make sure you dont get it in their eyes....well, she was sprayed in the face, so how can make sure not to get it in her eyes....so now i dont know what to do. If anybody out there has any idea what else i can do to get it off of her, and get the smell outta my
Life With The Family
I just got a little punked out (and I DESERVED it) by a buddy of mine who came out to look at the water heater today on his lunch break...
This is my friend, Danny:
He services appliances of the water variety, and without him I would have been shooting in the dark. Oh, and NOW he tells me he could have installed the damn thing!
Thanks big guy! This has not been a groovy weekend! Well, Isaac's party was great, but that's a different blog!
On Friday morning, I noticed a little wetness on the carpet in front of the fireplace. Having three kids ages 6, 4, and 3, I naturally thought that one of them may have spilled some water in front of it. I come home from work that evening to find that there's a HUGE puddle of water in the garage and there are two SOAKING WET spots! Now I'm terrified that my house is falling apart!
Alisha and I go clean up the water, and when I step out of the room, she accidentally knocks over a can of paint...3/4 gal of PINK paint! She's
What i have learned in my almost 22 yrs of life is that it's unpredictable.
I could die halfway through typing this 4 all i know.
Too many people go through life worring how pretty they aree or how skinny they or even how popular they are.
The truth is who fucking cares... life is what it is u can not make people like you.
You can not make your life longer and u will never be able to change who your related to.
Another thing that i have learned is that shit happenes!
Good or bad it happens, and it always happns 4 a reason!
Some things and the reasoning behind it never make sence like why children are abused or why women and men are raped and/or murdered.
Why innocent people are killed everyday.
Life is not ment to be understood so to speak or to be overanalized, life is well just that life.
It is a rollar coaster or a card game, u get hwat you delt and u deal with it and it will turn u upside down and snap you in all sorts of directions.
Even with that all said it is
Life Is So Confusing
life is so confusing especially when it comes to relationships,your partner says they want to be with you, that he loves you,but he acts like he dont want to be with you. you ask him to spend time with you but he says he is to tired so you go to bed and he gets up and plays on the computer. love is so strange at times.
Life In General
Hope all is well with everyone out there. I have been busy with sortin bears that people have donated .Thank You if you have. I have also been sewing. I make all the vest from camo material, have to cut them out from the pattern and then do alot of sewing to make the final vest ready for the bear. This past week,I have made about 160 of them.
I have alot still to do but am at a stopin point since I have no more material.
Always keep our Soldiers and there families in your prayers till they all come home safe and sound.
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I also have been busy since both of my boy's played summer baseball. I also take them to see the NBWA (pro wrestlers) out of Danville.They have a show coming up on August 12.
My oldest son is heading into Jr High(Feelin Old Now lol) and he is playing baseball for the school team as well. Youngest son heading into 3r
Life Has To Better
I'm sorry but I've had enuff. Moved Arkansas a few monthes ago from Georgia. I thought life would be better new start. He's gotten worse. I love my husband but I hate him. I'm not going to explain. I'm just venting. I'm a widow on weekends, he comes home whenever he's done drinking and whoring around. I can't take this anymore. He's making my soul die inside. I have to go back home. Anything is better than this. whew. that felt good. have more to say but not going to at this time. Will post another vent another time. Wow, didn't know just that little bit would help that much.
Hurricane Dean passed Jamaica's south coast on Sunday afternoon/evening. It was devastating. Numerous houses suffered extensive damages caused by heavy winds which were, at times, up to100mph. There was heavy rainfall which caused low lying areas to be flooded. Cleanup excercises are now underway. The island is now under a state of public emergency as there are many areas that are still without electricity and water. GOD help us all....
Tomorrow is a big day for me. I am extremely nervous. I have my one year check up tomorrow & it is kind of a big deal. In fact I am not just nervous I am scared shitless. Afraid to hear those words again..."you have cancer". So much has happened in the last year since, my world has literally fallen apart before my eyes. And this time my friends & family aren't here with me. I am truly alone & freaking. I thought I should let you all know what is going on so you all aren't all freaking on me.
I did go to the GYN yesterday. He is no Dr. Hennessey, but still a wonderful doctor. Of course things went as well as can be expected. I won't have any results right away (of course...they have to be sent to the lab).
I do however have to go for more tests at Parkwest. Parkwest is a larger hospital in Knoxville that has more state of the art equipment than the hospital that I work at. Mine is only 50 beds & considered a "rural" hospital. We don't even deliver babies or have a peds
I was 20 when my best friend Michelle, also 20, was murdered. I had seen her the night she died, before it happened. She was at my house, and we were talking of how happy she was in her current relationship. She didn't mention anything out of the ordinary. She left to go to her boyfriend's house. The next morning, my phone rang. It was Michelle's mother in hysterics. She told me Michelle had been stabbed to death by her boyfriend. I couldn't believe it!
Two weeks later was her funeral. So many people turned up; she was a loved girl. I cried the whole time. My heart was breaking. I still couldn't believe she was gone! I was asked to go in and see Michelle in the casket, to say goodbye. I made it as far as the door, but I couldn't face to see her. I broke down before I could do it, so my roommate went in instead, and when he came out, we just exchanged silent looks and didn't speak a word to each other. I felt nothing but guilt for not going in to see her for the very last time.
Can't a bitch ever get a break? Today was a shitty day, starting from the time I woke up until now. Seems like I have more and more days like that. I suck at life.
I promise you my love ..I promise you my heart..I promise you my life..I promise we'll never part..I promise not to hurt you..I promise to never make you cry I promise to always trust you I promise not to lie..I promise you forever.. I promise you tonight..I promise you my respect..I promise to do things right..I promise to always be there..I promise until the end..I promise to always love you..I promise to be your best friend..I promise you my love I promise you my life..I promise this forever..I promise our friendship is my life..your the peanut to my butter..your the star to my burst..your the m to my m..your the pop to mt tart..your the milky to my way..your the fruit to my loop..your themilk to my duds..your the lucky to mt charms..your the ice to my cream..your the ghetto to my booty..but mostly...your the best to mt friend...until the end......... AS A LIL KID LIFE WAS SO EASY AND SO GIVING AND UNTHOUGHT OF HOW IT IS TODAY AS WE ALL GET
Life Is Not Over
A man in Grand Rapids, Michigan took out a $7000 full page ad in the paper to present the following essay to the people of his community. It really touched my heart and I hope it will yours too.
How Could You?
By Jim Willis 2001
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I "was bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent, and roll me over for a belly rub.
My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs,"
I lie alone
My life a mess
No family, no home
My life a misery torn apart
Just like my little beating heart
My life of being sad
Just makes me mad
I do not wish to be lonesome
As if love would make me wholesome
Like love would fill my heart
No one is there to make me smile
Just there to tease and tear my heart apart
While laughing all the while
My tears of hope drift out of me
just like a sea of misery
Life Is Ending
Life is Ending
I dont think I can deal with this anymore
no love, just agony and pain
the pain makes me want to walk out the door
staying much longer will drive me insane
i realy have the desire to kill
mine is in danger even if i lie
but i would be the victim of this trill
i surelly will be the next one to die
simple, sweet just a very young woman
love again i will never really feel
i cant go through this kind of pain again
i do not have the rapid urge to heal
today is going to be my real end
always remember me.
Your True Love
My fiance, a man of honesty and purity of heart, 20 years old, is taking on the duty of stepping up and defending our freedom in the United States Army. He is an Active Duty Soldier being placed in Iraq for a deployment of a 15 month duration. I have been with this man for about 2 years. I never thought that anything would be this hard. To love, back, and stand beside a man who I hardly see. Love is what it is and you know fate when it smacks you in the face. I met him a week before Christmas in 2005 and have been faithful to him since then. He was in Washington State for 6 months and I stayed, and then in Germany for a little over a year, and here I still am. I have a bond with him that I believe nobody else posesses. We are stronger than ever now. He is a man of morals and believes that sex should wait until marriage. I love and respect him very much for that. He knows about my past and looks past it for our love. I respect him for the strength that he holds and I would give anything
Life Savor Flavors
A teacher was doing a study testing the senses of first graders, using a bowl of Lifesavers.
The children began to say:
Finally the teacher gave them all honey Lifesavers.
After eating them none of the children could identify the taste.
"Well," he said, "I'll give you all a clue; It's what your mother may sometimes call your father."
One little girl looked up in horror, spit her Lifesaver out and yelled:
"Oh My God!!!! They're assholes!"
I cant think
just a wink
a gentle smack
wake up from this
someone save me please
I can't release
Tears are falling
you just can't see
I am fading
thoughts of feelings
racing through my head
I want to
I have to I just can't find the time
loneliness is my trouble
acceptance for it so weak
I cant hardly speak
I am searching beyond my boundaries
and nothing I have found in there
mind so wondered
with illimulating faces
simply just tease
my lasting uncovered The other day I was sitting around and got to thinking, "what do i want to be when i grow up".
i sat there for a few minuets and realized exactly what i want to be. I want to be like my Ma'am (Lady Twisted Karma) She is one of the most wonderful people who have blessed my life. She is a very strong, beautiful,spiritual, caring, intelligent woman. She is always there for me, and anyone who asks for help. She has an answer for just about everything, and if she doesn
I learned last week in church about answers to prayers and why some are not answered. They said there are 3 answers
when God says yes we muust make the most of it
when God says wait We prepare for what is next
when God say No that is when we recieve Gods best
there are 4 reasons why God says no
Wrong Actions(sin problem)
All in all I think that God always knows whats best and in all of our lives we are very thankful that we have had a lot of unanswered prayers.Personaly I know of a few lately that I am thankful he told me no about.
I know I believe that God knows what is best for me and as I pray I ask that if it is his will please answer this.
May God Bless and answer all the prayers that he sees you need today and the days ahead
Sometimes the choices made in Life are not the right ones and even seem wrong and unfair to others. But as a Man you stand behind your choices and the decisions you make. I have made tough c
I am off to the dentist and to work. I would however like to ask a few of those who do read this to explain to me why I get ignored by so many on my friends and fans list.
Fubar is made up of many people. Some who live on the site, Some who simply stay logged into the site, some who come and go as they please, and lastly some who come for a spell and eventually leave and never return.
Lots and lots of folks have good intentions and come to get away from the reality of life. I know i come to make friends but find people to simply discuss life with and talk about day to day stuff.
But I do find what little time i have to make new tags and pictures I find fun and different to post. It allows me to show off my artistic side instead of just simple chat and fellowship.
So many people request a friendship and make me a fan here that you would think that when you post a bulletin or a picture they would actually come and check out the new stuff.
As for me I know one person ha
why is it i am so freakin stupid?i fell for a guy whom is a marine and i kno i cant have him......UGH! So yeah I finally am done with counseling....my counselor,Karen,said that to have counseling I have to have a problem and seeing that my only problem is my anger,she said to do something creative or something time worthy(like a jigsaw puzzle) to help calm my nerves.The only reason I dont have to see her for my anger is cuz im not 'lashing out' or hitting other people...i hit objects.but yeah....its pretty freakin awesome....she did get annoying sometimes...lol.I do still have to see my psychiatrist but besides that...things are looking up.woo!
Life In General
Do you have yahoo...yes who doesn't these days. Just because I have it does not mean I want to add someone I have only said hi to on here to it because they are too mechanically challenged I guess to use the shoutbox. Yes people it does close on you in mid sentence at times which is why you can click open shoutbox and guess what easy typing from there out... just thought i might mention it...just trying to keep my mind occupied with something other than recovering from my bad headache>< Kisses and Hugs I still love ya even if ya ask me to yahoo LOL As the day that would of been comes closer,
I am finding my emotional level rising.
I never really have been much of a blog poster,
but these feelings I won't be disguising..
I am so sad
And yes I'm mad.
These circumstances I can not forget.
However, I am grateful for all the friends I have met
With your support I am making it through,
But please forgive me, for right now I am blue. Instructions......
Once you have bee
THE UNCIVILIZED TRAGEDY OF THE HUMAN PARADOX Human beings were not created to be civilized. We were created to survive.Human beings are much more social creatures then most would have you know and for reasons that are not excepable to social standards. Never the less, those needs that drive people to one another are ever present just underneath the surface of the people you've just met, are meeting now and are going to meet all at one and not in order. The maturity of patience I think leads a person to value wisdom over knowledge because when you have wisdom you donít own it leaving you humble before what you hear, see and feel unchanged by what you want to exist over what actually is and yet wisdom inevitably becomes a part of you. Which in my opinion is a beautiful thing because what you have learned can never be stagnant always changing forever growing with youíre understanding of the world around you and the people in it. Wisdom stands humble before what it dose not yet know, and
I think that people tend to get along better when they see characterizations of people as traits an not flaws,cause no one is perfect Life's tragedies no matter how big or small only allow us to grow an become richer of heart an spirit!
Life Resembles A Rose
Life is like a beautiful red rose.
You put the send into the ground, water it, give it lots of love and care for it until it blooms
Into the most beautiful and strong red rose.
You enjoy watching it as it grows.
Then as fall enters it slowly dies.
As the last petal falls you sit back and reflect on that red rose.
You remember all the joy and happiness that the red rose has brought to you.
Then all you have left is the memory of that
beautiful red rose.
Written and copyrighted by Linda Parker (me) :)
I just found a cool lounge...called World Rock Radio.
Awesome DJ Mystic 777
she had played some awesome classic rock!
And then, I had found out the right bands to the right songs. :)
I felt like a duntz...but I got 'er done...and requested away...
Go check it out, if you like that kind of tunes. :)
Have a good blessed night! Rated "R" Blog
Current mood: forgotten
Yup. I got to thinking today. And got to ramblin' inside my head, too. So I thought I should blog about it.
Today was the official day of the Rag. I had bled Hard. And I don't usually bleed hard or have some hellacious cramps, neither or have them often, when I do have my Rag. It was a nice feeling to feel the pain of it. I usually don't bleed til like its 2 days from taking my b/c pill again. And I hate spotting...cuz I feel something is wrong with me. I mean, I am not the rip-roarin' Lucy-girl anymore...where I could get guys almost every wk to come and play with me. I feel I have been in
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00
>>the room of 200, he asked,
>>"Who would like this $20 bill?"
>>Hands started going up.
>>He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you
>>but first, let me do this.
>>He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
>>He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
>>Still the hands were up in the air.
>>Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
>>And he dropped it on the ground
>>and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
>>He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
>>"Now, who still wants it?"
>>Still the hands went into the air.
>>My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
>>No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it
>>because it did not decrease in value.
Life Is Ironic
It seemed to be like the perfect thing for you and me
Its so ironic your what I had pictured you to be
But there are facts in our lives
We can never change
Just tell me that you understand and you feel the same
This perfect romance that Ive created in my mind
Id live a thousand lives
Each one with you right by my side
But yet we find ourselves in a less than perfect circumstance
And so it seems like well never have the chance
Aint it funny how some feelings you just cant deny
And you cant move on even though you try
Aint it strange when your feeling things you shouldnt feel
I wish this could be real
Aint it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you dont want to face whats wrong or right
Aint it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart
Sometimes I think that a true love can never be
I just believe that somehow it wasnt meant for me
Life can be cruel in a way that I cant explain
And I dont think that I could face it all again
Just what makes a Great person? A great Leader? A Great Lover?
This is what I think, but I want to know what YOU think!
A great person:
A great person, for me, is one who has no fear and no regret. They are compassionate to all people and equally patient with those who resist unjustly.
A Great Leader:
He/She should care equally about all people in all nations, not just the country assigned to that person. They should care about all opinions and follow only their own reasoning powers. They shouldn't fall to black mail, or crush under pressure and should be fair but just.
A Great lover:
A great Lover is someone who, to me, is sensitive and strong, who is willing to defy the odds to win. Someone who will always suprise you and never leave you. Someone who should care about you with all their heart.
I woke up this morning with some nasty sinus pressure. It all feels like it is on the right side of my face. There is pressure above and below my right eye. I am calling in sick from work. I dont trust my attention to be there for driving safely into work.
Well it sucks as usual but I am doing better for it. Going to Move to AR and try and get a new start hopefully it will do something for me. I can start paying off my bills and get my own place in a cuple months. At least thats what I am going for.
IF I HAVE LEARNED ANYTHING AT ALL IN ALL MY YEARS, ITS THAT THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.WHETHER WE ARE PRIVELEDGED TO KNOW THAT REASON OR NOT,IS A WHOLE OTHER STORY. ALL THE TRIPS AND FALLS, BUMPS AND BRUISES, GOOD THINGS AND NOT SO GOOD THINGS, THEY ARENT JUST RANDOM OCCURANCES. THEY HAPPEN BECAUSE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN. THEY ARE WHAT MAKES US WHO WE ARE. THE TRICK IS FIGURING OUT WHAT TO DO WITH WHO WE ARE.
I just wish I can have the fairy tale life. Everything being brought to me and I don't have to do a damn thing in the cleaning department of life. I wish I could have it easy like other people do. I know that never is going to happen. I have many dreams and wishes that have not come to true yet. I just wish it would already.
Many of my friends would understand exactly what I am talking about but, if you don't well then just ask.
heart of gold, sold my soul
missing much to make me whole
want to be wanted, need to be touched
fever burning, wantings torched
inside and out, upside down
showing my smile, to hide a frown
get back up, dust myself off
honest, real, let you know what I feel
laughter and tears
through all of the years
life goes on
My uncle passed away over the weekend.
He'd been fighting with Leukemia for some time and had just had a bone marrow transplant.
He seemed to be winning. His counts were going up. He was eating more and had more energy. His wounds were healing. His hair was growing back.
Then...overnight he was just...gone.
This is first time I've lost someone close in the family.
I can't go to the funeral because it will be out of state and I won't get paid if I miss work.
I feel miserable that I can't go. Wish us luck. Going to go meet with a lawyer to begin a custody battle for Beazil's son.
It's a whole long story as far as the history with Beazil's ex-wife goes...but trust me...she's nuts and we need to get Beazil's son out of there.
(I'm sorry...but a 6-year-old shouldn't be obssessed with demons...or be making himself puke...or holding down other kids at school and beating them...etc.)
It's going to be a hard fight...but with all the contempt-of-court issues
Hey ya'll just wanted to say thanks for everything as of today things are much better and i couldn't ask for anything else. Sense last we decided to sell our house that burned so we can start buying a new one. I'm no longer kinda depressed but, actually really stress free and happy. Good news i finally met a wonderful man and were going to take things slow oops did i forget to tell some of ya i was gay LMFAO. I also have met a very few dear friends on here that are always there and you know who you are and i just want to say THANKS A MILLION TO YOU ALL. Now with that said i hope ya'll are enjoying your days and i'll keep you posted on the relationship and the new house bye for now.
CORT 1976 I honestly don't know what i would do if i didn't have all my friends in my life... My friends mean the world to me and lately I have had to learn a hard lesson on who my true friends were and for those who are there no matter what I LOVE YOU!!!!. I have been threw a lot in my
Life iswhat you make of it good or bad....
This is just my thought's and how I fell and think....
Everyone needs family and friends.....and I Love all of mine....For Good or Bad....
There are good times when we find that special someone and take that big step...everyone dreams about..as thay say in the story books live happily ever after....
And there's a time when you have your family and friends that make you happy....The one's that Love you no matter what...
Now for the bad times...you have people that you love..or loved that just wanted you so thay could get what thay wanted from you....that could be family or friends....
And there's the time when the one's you Love die....
Those I think are the hardest time's in life....you have those special times you thank about or someone will say or you hear something....and you'll remember that special person....
I really hope this will not make anyone mad....It's just my thoughts.....
Love to all my o
just tired of everything.....i feel like im a worthless piece of shit that isn't even good enough. i dont know what to think anymore. maybe i should stop trying and just give up period. im tired of this life...i dont even care anymore. im dying on the inside anyway and im just not wanting to care or live anymore. if you hate me for my words...oh well, you just dont understand nor will anyone ever understand or even care. i just can't live with this sadness anymore. it's killing me slowly each and every day! and i dont even know wny im bothering with this blog.
Life.... So They Say....
SO.....5 years .... 5 long, 50+ hours a week no vacation time years and my ass gets booted to the curb with not so much as a real explanation or a 'thanks'. I have to beg for the vacation time owed me since I never take any and they continue to screw me by telling me that vacation time doesn't roll over in our company. Uhm... whatever. Had I been told that, I wouldn't have worked my ass off so much to keep the business afloat.. bitter? me? not hardly... pissed... hurt... disappointed.. you better f'n believe it... and one had the audacity to ask me if I was going to come back at a much lesser position...... uhm... hello... are you HIGH?? .. hmm let's see.... how can I say this nicely... "Radio EDIT"? ... .. there .. that little bit of anger out ... love blogs.. they allow you vent a bit .... of course, there are people in my friends list that still work there, so someone will probably be laughing about this on monday at work.... well, this is my disclaimer .. nothing personal ladies an
Lifes A Bitch!!
You know what sucks! Moving back n with yo Mommy n Daddy...No choice tho, its the only way i know i wont go spending crazy...Need to save, plus my ex-roommate is leaving me. :( very sad! Gonna Miss Her very Much! well lata until another time!
Life Is Sweet....
I have been a recoverying Meth addict since May 9, 2006 and I have to say that life is so different. I used for 12 long yrs & I missed out on an entire world of things. I just wanted to let everyone know life is alot sweeter with my head on straight & damn there is no drama N my world NICE..........
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if i were glass would you break me...
if i was china would you drop me...
would you carry me with the most gentelness...
would you wrap your arms around me so tight to where i wouldnt fall...
keep me safe...
would you put me on the top shelf and forget about me and leave me to clooect dust...
or would you take me out to display me as your lovely peice of china your perfect glass that you wouldnt break...
sit me on a pedistole and say to me... i would never break you... i will never drop you... you are my perfect glass and my rare peice of china...
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well its been 4 yrs ago i lost my youngest sister in a car wreck she was hit head on by another truck basicly killed her on the spot threw my neice from the car still strapped in her car seat broke a few of her bones and she had road rash and she survived my nephew was still in the car in his car seat with burns on his face from hitting the seat so hard like carpet burn..
Life And Love
CHAIN'S OF STEEL,CHAIN'S OF PAIN. SOME CHAINS FEEL COLD, WITH NAUGHT TO GAIN.
THOSE COLD HARD CHAINS, SO HEAVY WITH WEIGHT. ARE NOT WHATS NEEDED, NOT WHAT IT TAKES.
SOME FEEL THE WEIGHT, SOME FEEL CONFINED. ITS SPECIAL ONES WHO FEEL SUBLIME. CHAINS MADE OF STEEL, MADE TO CONFINE. THEY RUST WITH AGE,GROW OLD WITH TIME.
BUT CHAINS OF LOVE, CHAINS THAT SET FREE.LOCKED PON YOUR WRIST,AND OFFERED TO ME. YOUR EYES ON MINE, YOUR SOUL ON FIRE. BIND TIGHT YOUR WRISTS, SET FREE YOUR DESIRE.
LOOK DEEP INSIDE, SHOW ALL YOUR NEED. SOFT GENTLE ONE, A GROWING SEED.
YOU'VE MET YOUR MAN,NOW SHOW YOUR TRUST. WITH CHAINED UP WRIST AND HOT FLOWING LUST!
Monday, November 21, 2005
TIM as planets soar, off into space. and tidal waves, lay beaches waste.
as wind and rain, with awesome force, tear at your life, and change its course.
as freezing cold, bone cracking ice, rolls through your life, breacks off a slice.
its natures way, of waking up. of changing times, her bitter cup.
Have you ever noticed that with life..there are all sorts of interesting things that happen to us? From just the simplest of things to the most outrageous events. But all in all it is life. We live it...unless of course you are those that choose to sit on the sidelines and watch as moments and opportunities pass you by. Me....I would rather live life through all the hardships out there than just sit by and say..I should or I wish I had of....So live life...look at it like it is one big adventure...some good and some bad...but still an adventure worth being in.
Every so often we come to a point in our lives where we have some major realizations. These can be big or small. I realized today just how stupid I really am. I am way to trusting and want to see things in people that aren't there. From now on my attitude is just fuck em all. Fuck everybody who ever lied to me or used me. If you don't like it then fuck you too! I have too much shit to worry about! Some people come into our lives
and quickly go
Some people stay for a while
and leave footprints on our hearts
and we are never ever the same.
i am thankful for all who have left their "footprints" on my heart. When did life get so messed up? Things used to be so easy when I was younger. If anything went wrong or I screwed up really bad I could always turn to a best friend or my family. They would do anything and everything in their power to fix it or at least make it better. They hated to see me hurting and sad and I never worried about anything. I know life is supposed
As we grow up,
we learn that even the one person
that wasn't supposed to ever let
you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken, probably
more than once, and it's harder
You'll break hearts
too, so remember how it felt when
yours was broken.
with your best friend. You'll
blame a new love for things an
old one did. You'll cry because
time is passing too fast, and you'll
eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures,
laugh too much, and love like
you've never been hurt because
every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back
Today I looked back on a lot of things in life..I went to thinking when I was a kid and I didn't have to really worry about anything and all you had to do was be a kid and go to school?...I have been doing alot of thinking about when ya get old enough and you aren't Holding onto "mommy and daddy's" hand and your out on your own its hard...But I've managed to take care of myself and have my own house, a car, 2 jobs, and go to college full time and I am also a parent to my beautiful 4 year old son and now I could have another kid along the way..I put myself in my kids shoes to see from their point of view such as us as we were kids...Its weird being a parent....I have more to come..
Not to long ago I was so happy had everything I ever wanted a beautiful wife and 4 beautiful children then out of nowhere my beautiful wife OF 8 YEARS desided that she wanted to seperate now I Have lost everything that mattered to me why because all I ever wanted was to have a happy family now all I keep thinking about is wanting to end it all. I have lost a part of me and I dont know how to get it back. Im so hurt ,lost ,and confussed I dont want to live anymore I love her so much and cant take the pain anymore Dear Lord Help Me PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
ok i have to get this out and now i really think its bullshit how people on this fucking site can backstab in the matter of minutes and think they are right for doing it there are people on here that i have NEVER done a damn thing to that are trying to make me feel bad all i have is when i make friends they are true friends not just INTERNET BS so here is some advice if you cant be a REAL LIFE friend delete me off your list and move on dont look back bc i wont lol for the rest of you that have been with me by my side threw so much i love you all and you all should know that xoxoxo
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Life's Tough...but Its Tougher If Your Stupid!
ONE Recently, when I went to McDonald's I saw on the menu that you could have an order of 6, 9 or 12 Chicken McNuggets. I asked for a half dozen nuggets. "We don't have half dozen nuggets," said the teenager at the counter. "You don't?" I replied. "We only have six, nine,
or twelve," was the reply. "So I can't order a half dozen nuggets, but I can order six?" "That's right." So I shook my head and ordered six McNuggets
TWO I was checking out at the local Wal-Mart with just a few items and the lady behind me put her things on the belt close to mine. I picked up one of those "dividers" that they keep by the cash register and placed it between our things so they wouldn't get mixed. After the girl had scanned all of my items, she picked up the "divider", looking it all over for the bar code so she could scan it. Not finding the bar code she said to me, "Do you know how much this is?" I said to her "I've changed my mind, I don't think I'll buy that today." She said "OK," and I pai
A FRIEND SENT THIS TO ME YESTERDAY HAVING NO IDEA THE EFFECT IT WOULD HAVE ON ME AT THE TIME,
WE ARE ALL HERE WITH NO IDEA WHEN WE MIGHT STOP ON A DIME...........I AM REPOSTING THIS AND A FEW OTHER THOUGHTS AT THE END BUT TAKE THE TIME AND TRULY READ AND UNDERSTAND THE TRUE MEANING IN THIS PASSAGE:
One day someone special will be gone.
And on that clear, cold morning,
in the warmth of your bedroom, you might be struck with
the pain of learning that sometimes
there isn't any more.
No more hugs, no more lucky moments to celebrate together,
no more phone calls just to chat, No more "just one more minute."
Sometimes, what we care about the most goes away. never to return before we can say good-bye, Or say "I Love You."
So while we have it . . it's best we love it . .
And care for it and fix it when it's broken .
and take good care of it when it's sick.
This is true for marriage .... and friendships .. And children with bad report cards;
And dogs with bad hips; And aging par
Life...or Something Like It
I would always think if i wrote something and got it out, things would get better. But somehow its not this time. Its starting to frusterate me. What else can i do to block out this depression? Somedays are easier then others......I hate sensitive days....like today. I read a letter from my ex husband, it made me cry. I listen to 3 songs on my page, it made me cry, i saw my brother it made me cry...( im sooooo kidding on that last one.) I don't want to feel this weight of depression. It cramps me in a box, with wall i cannot break. Im tired of people who are so FAKE it makes me sick stand in my way. Its so hard to break these chains that the world has seem to put on me....I cannot even begin to think about.......well....anyways......uhm, .......go with me on this one....
Have you just sat somewhere, not really secluded, but away from everyone? I have my perfect spot. I live right on the river in my town, and of course the river is empty. I sit on the bank in between two
Life And Death
It has been over a year since my bother had passed away, I remember this event with great detail.
A few weeks before he had passed my mom called my telling me that my bother was in the hospital with a liver problem. About ever other day I would get a call on his status, this was like riding a rollercoasterÖ He went to possible recovery to No recoveryÖ
The call came in at dinner time on a Sunday Ė My bothers condition has turned for the worst. This time I knew that there was no way he would pull out because my mom had bought ticket for me to fly out to CaliforniaÖ As I scrambled to get packed and ready to leave I was sick to my stomach Ė My bother who I have only talked to a few time in the past 12 years was ill and I had no idea how ill he had beenÖ
I arrived to California on a Tuesday Ė I stepped into the hospital and was met by my mom, my younger bother, and my bother's wifeÖ we all hugged and then I proceed to get caught up on his conditionÖ Betw
Well... in a way things couldnt get much better. I am married to the man of my dreams...and we are expecting a baby feb of 2008!!! the only thing missing is the fact that he isnt here with me right now. i am in NY and he is in KY where he is currently stationed in the U.S ARMY. We are waiting right now to see if he is going to get his transfer approved for coming to Ft Drum where we can be together!!! so pray with us that he gets it!!!!
and baby....I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH
Life In The Corps
Ate lunch today with President Bush. I was one of 175 people on base that got to eat with him. I will say I was extremely impressed. Found out friday that I'm going to be a logistic officer in the Marine Corps. I've been an officer for almost a year now, and I've spent all that time in schools training to be in charge of MARINES. Looking forward to going to my last school before I stand before my first platoon. I'll be in NC for 2 two months of Logistic Training. Looking forward to the future, will keep you all posted.
Mike Cali in 2008...
I had the opportunity to go out for some drinks and fun with two great ladies last night at a place is called "Sundance" and is more of a sports bar than anything but last night was karaoke night, heh. Since this was the first time I've met a Fubar patron away from the net we were more into the conversation than the singers. I don't think the night could have gone better if it was scripted. The three of us ended up hiding outside from the music so we could all hear each other. K has a great sense of humor and can split your sides with a look. D was, well..D! :) she always keep the conversation going on new topics, and both of them were looking ready for a Saturday night out. Today a few great friends showed up on my page and help me allot, thank you Cali4nialovin , Ms. Naughty N Nice, & Joanna. You three gals made short work of the 4k + points I Needed to level up. You even continued rating long after my rates were spent.
Life, Family And Good Friends...
So I think I got a little part of this down now. I know how to blog, for sure. My space thought me that but because that was the first time I joined anything like that. Now it is an addiction that I try and not let this machine replace the real world & the real ppl in it.
I home school my 9 yr old grandson & would love to chat about homeschooling, so message me
I am married to the guy of my dreams & am NOT interested in finding or talking sentimentally with any other guy so don't go their! I am taken!
I have 2 kids, all grown now.... :(
I have 2 grandsons and I feel blessed! :)
I am anxious to see what else life has to offe me.
Stop by and say hi? Kat
sometimes life just doesnt work the way everyone wants it to trying to get by like the rest of the world but when you got one trying to take someelse spot and isnt ready to move on in his own life just really bites and cant make a mind up of friendship or more and is being the biggest turtle and is trying to get you jealous given you obsticles and test while he is still vary much with his other partner really bites and makes it hard for the other ones life to move in the direction it should be going to.....lol im just really bored i guess lol but why hide when its only a friendship especial a friendship of 20 years thats the confusing part lol ......
Life Is Like A Novel With The End Ripped Out
My eyes see right through you
Love you for everything you are
Everything you want to be
You make me smile when I want nothing more than to cry
Being in your arms makes me feel safe
I try and fight it but I canít
It consumes me
I try and deny it
I donít want this
I am scared to death
Feels like youíre crawling under my skin
Into my heart
Itís easier to be broken & hide
Always waiting for that second chance
Memories seep through my veins
Emotion takes over
Dreams become reality
Reality becomes a dream
I smile in the eyes of the sun
I open my heavy eyes
I see you smiling upon me
Reaching for my hand
I want to take a chance
LIVE IS LIKE A NOVEL WITH THE END RIPPED OUT
Life In General For Me
well is ok just dealing with my kids father who needs to be more of a dad to the children just spend time with them shoot ..just throw a ball around with our son and play tea party or something with our daughter nothing serious not asking for a million dollars just asking for him to spend some quality time with them like they desereve so props go out to all them single fathers who are doing their thing for their children ....
ok well thats what i am dealing with in my life as of now well life has thrown me a curve ball for sure i go to drs for my yearly check up like everyone does and what happens i find out i have cervical cancer ..so now i am having surgery on october1 to remove the cancer cells so we shall see what happens from there the dr says ..but dam it i just started to get my life together and now this aint that some shit ..ok i am done ..
thanks for reading my blog
This archaic term no longer exists in my life, and im probably better off for it. Im a simple man, treat women with respect, and all i want is someone to love, but i cant find them, oh well.. I give up
Well, tonight is my last night as a free man! Tomorrow i go to the processing station in Dallas, take the physical,and take theoathof enlistment back into the Army. I know there is the possibility of me going to Iraq, but its a chance every soldier takes when he puts on the uniform. I am happy to be going back in, and i know the great spirit will protect and watch over me. John
Well damnit, life has thrown me another curve ball. I was all set to go back into the Army, and then i get an upper respritory infection that killed the physical.. Oh well, wasnt meant to be. We'll see what the great spirit has in store for me now.. Who knows, b
Letting go of someone you love is one of the hardest things you'll even have to do. The more alone time you spend, the more thinking you get to do, the more realization of truth you encounter.
I think that once you balance out the reasons why you want to hold on and the reasons you have to let go, you will come to an understanding as to what you're really dealing with and see the true colors of the cards you are holding.
Life brings people into your life for a reason and when its time for them to leave its because the lesson has been left and its up to you to see it, feel it, and live on what you've learned.
I've recently decided to let someone go from my life. Although, its with a heavy heart that I make this decision, I decided it was for my own good and for the best for the both of us.
We just dont see eye to eye, we dont think close to the same, we dont believe in the same rules, and we're in different levels overall. Sometimes being on different levels alone causes a
Life As I Know It
Watching blood stained windows
I must just love the pain
See the children crying
In my dreams my mother died again
Dig her grave much deeper
The fatal price she paid
I hope I'm here to hold her
When she comes back again
I see the death and the disaster
There is no happy ever after
The time has come
Is the armageddon
Finally here at last?
You may see the mushroom
But you won't hear the blast
Don't need a self made prophet
Don't need a holy war
Don't need another leader
To even up the score
I'm cursed with living on a fault line
The doomsday clock was made by mankind
No place to run
I see the death and the disaster
There is no happy ever after
The time has come
The Countdown's begun Well it's been a week now since my mothers death...and now I'm getting all these different emotions coming at me that I never expected.....Mostly guilt..like not being around as much as I could have...and why couldn't I of even picked up a phone to say hi..Guilty for being so
Every story has a end but in life every end is just a new begining
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The Life Of Me.....
So I was at this music store that sells records, and by that I mean 45's and the like and this guy was talking to his friend about this chick he started talking to from Fubar. Me being the nosey little mouse that I am was like wtf is Fubar. Well now I know. My what a place. There is a lot going on. All types of sounds and people saying hello. It's really nice. I just feel bad sometimes. I don't want people to think I'm mean because I don't write back. *scratches head* I've leveled pretty fast which means according to the bible means I can do more. Maybe thats tomorrow's goal. I like the place. Just wonder what a blast is?
Also I got a kitten today. Went to the store for a collar. Maybe put the pictures up tomorrow. Like any one wants to see my new kitten. I'm such a girl sometimes.
Also I can't spell, so if that bugs you. I'm really sorry. :)
If I started talking to you today but kinda dropped of, don't take that as a sign of anything. It's called wireless and a new kitten. Lo
Things are getting a little out of hand around my house in that my wife doesn't seem to want to take any responsibility toward helping with the bills. I grant you she is 34 years younger than me and she is very imature but she want all the crap we have but is screwing around instead of helping like she should.
I think I know one reason why she is like this but, agaain, this shows how imature she really is. I will not put it in here because I may be wrong and if I am there is no need to start trouble.
Maybe things will straighten out soon, at least I hope so, ut I am not holding my breath on it.
So Lets See...Erm Well All I Gotta Say To One Person And He Knows Who He Is After He Reads This...I'ma Miss Ya, Will Always Love Ya, But I Gotta Say Goodbye...In Some Ways..
I Have Finally Gotta My Life Slowly Goin In The Direction I Want. Well Mostly Because I Have The Love Of My Life Now. I Wanna Be With Him Forever And We Plan To Be. Hopefully After I Graduate And Get Things Settled We Can Move In Together :D hehe. Erm. I LOVE YOU!! Haha.
Umm I Found My Long Lost Older Sister That Was Taken From My Dad When She Was A Baby And Given Another Guys Name. She Has A 8month Old Son, Named Duante, And Is 5months Preggy With A Baby Gurl. Named Kaiya Arihona Nichole. And Well THAT MAKES ME A AUNT! I'm So Happy. We're Goin To Maine To See Them This Weekend.
Erm I Started Classes Again Last Night And Im Workin My Butt Off And Spendin As Much Time As I Can With My Baby. haha I LOVE YOU so Much!
The Life Of The Kool-aid Man
This is it, last week of regular classes...then finals week and then the big day, December 20th where i will receive my bachelors in Broadcasting and then its off to the real world. Wow, college went by so quick It's starting to hit me now....Graduation is little over a month away and then its the real world. No more waking up 10 minutes before class and walking out the door, no more fraternity stuff, no more having a shit tone of free time, and most of all i wont see my g/f every day (if im lucky it will be twice a month). Instead il have to get up probably an hour and a half and start my career in broadcasting and the the not so fun part, paying off student loans. After five and a half years, i'l have my bachelors...to think about it, its all surreal to me because i thought id ever get a bachelors, hell i never thought id make it in college but i did. They say that college are the best years of your life and i can honestly say that that's true...these have been some of the best
I am so hungry that my stomache is growling but I can not seem to get off this computer. I know a little wierd but that is how it is. anyways I will stop this bable and continue to rate and add friends love you all chow Living life is easy when you have a great family and a bunch of rowdy friends. I live my life to the fullest and hope to have a wild ride. Live life there ain't no tommorow. Talk to you all soon......
Well, LIFE SUCKS with in the week I'VE LOST two great aunts... I so hate life.. its to short to mess around... but not long enough to do anything else. so live life to the fullest or shortest what ever comes first hopefully the fullest..love u all RAIN AKA STORM OF THE JLM
you only live once have fun injoy life
In a few days my internet is being suspended, for a few months..
Its gonna be a tough, rough lonely few months without my darling Fu-friends, but I'm sure I'll cope, somehow.
Meanwhile, dont forget to show me love cos I'll be getting out more visiting my mates, and damn right I'll be nagging to pinch some internet time to check on you all!
I'll miss you all so much.
Cheers! so far I have managed to keep from losing my internet....
We'll see how long it lasts, I can only catch up on this stupid bill a bit at a time so its just a matter of hoping I can beat it.
I'm wrapped I can still be here with yas all. You make my day so much brighter.
Thanks Guys! You find out interesting things when you have sons, like ...
1. A king size waterbed holds enough water to fill a 2000 sq. ft. house 4 inches deep.
2. If you spray hair spray on dust bunnies and run over them with roller blades, they can ignite.
3. A 3-year old Boy's voice is louder than 20
Never take a person for granted..
While you're annoyed that she wants to hear your voice and talk to you on the phone, he's there calling, texting and caring about how her day was.
While you'll do anything to get "your space" and do your own thing, he's making sure he sets aside time so they can do things together that she'll enjoy.
While you get irritated that she wants to cuddle or be held, he'll glady take her in his arms.
While you let all other things take priority in your life, he's making her his number one.
While you're finding it hard to let go of other women and their attention, he's pushing away every female just to give his focus and attention to her.
While you're questioning if she's really the one, he already knows there's no better.
While your finding excuses not to commit, he's supplying reasons why she should. And then one morning, you'll wake up and realize that you really do want her...and that same morning, she'll wake up next to the guy that already
thank you all for your prayers for my son. I am starting school september 19th for criminal Juatice CSI. Im still working as a security guard and taking care of all 4 kids on my own. YES still no man but one day maybe. I think i am holding up to the pressure of raising the four kids on my own and 3 of them special needs but i do break down but who wouldn't huh.. If i havent given you love on ur pics or profile let me know and if you just want some loving let me know. Take care ya'll and love you all. Peace from Biloxi, Mississippi my home. I will keep you up to date on the boys surgerys.
I really wanna go to the movies, but I don't have anyone to go with yet.... do you mind going with me?
Blahhh... whatever. So, I've been talking to few girls in here for some time now. All the sudden they don't remember the conversations they had with me. I'm either losing myself or gettin messed up in the brain 'cause of the alcohol, 'cause if there's one gift i have, is to remember shit! But for some reason, few girls in here don't remember what we have talked about before. It could be me..... shit. I'm really fucking confused right now! It's funny 'cause it has been a few of them that had told me they don't remember the conversations.... I could understand if one didn't remember, but more than 4 people within 48 hours? fuck, i'm fucked up in my brain! So I had my friend stay with me last night, and I had asked her to set her alarm so I could wake up to come here to work. Alarm was supposed to go off right at 6 AM. But it never did. Woke up around 7:3
Summer is my slow season, but I never anticipated it would get this slow. After spending 3 months barely keeping my head above water I was hoping things would turn around, stupid me...
Thursday I get a $525 charge from one of my vendors for something I never ordered or received, my bank tell me the vendor needs to fax them this, this and that, ok... I call 'em, they apologize for the mistake and tell me they'll fax the stuff over... Bank can't find it, they say the sent it AND claim they issued a refund. Bank says there's no refund posted and could take 7 days to post from the time it's issued. OK, I don't have 7 days... I'm fucking broke, account depleted... I have to wait 7 days (they say 30 days in some cases)! I have commitments to customers, I can even pay for shipping the products that have already been paid for! So I have to take it in the ass for someone else's mistake? "capital must protect itself"... Fucking Jew philosophy! I don't want to engage in "commerce", I'm not
lifes a bitch then we die so fuck the world lets get high. LIFE SUCKS THEN ILL DIE. SO FUCK THE WORLD SOMEONE GET ME HIGH i need a drink right now like a baby need his candy.!!!!!!!!
Just giving everyone that doesn't have the updates the scoop.
The boys are great they both love the new place and they have their own playroom now. I love that feature keeps the rest of the house clutter free :)
I have a wonderful man in my life that keeps my head screwed on straight as i do for him. Full time working mom and soon to be a manager at the store i work for, cant wait for weekends off again.
Other than that everything else is a day to day basis and whatever happens, happens. I live my life to be happy and to make my kids happy. The only thing that matters to me is a roof over their heads and food in their stomachs.
Keeping in touch as much as i can give me a shout if you dont know all the details already. Life has been so crazy lately w/ everything thats going on (most of you already know the details, and i dont feel like going into them right now) I havent had much time to check emails and things like that. I posted some new pics,
Life As It Is...
i am so confusseed on what i want or what i want to do...I am so tired of my mind wondering...My mind wonders why i am in the moment i am in...Wonders do i love who i am with, cause i feel no love like i have before in other relationships.....some moments i am happy, other momemts i am miserable...i hate the fact that my heart loves someone else....i hate the fact that i am torn between the decision of something that will alter my life...sometimes i just wish my life would cease to exist, no i am not sucidal i would never take my own life...but sometimes i wish i wouldn't wake up from my sleep...cause when i wake up my mind wonders day in and day out... Last night on halloween the worst thing happen to me and my bestfriend...We were coming back from trick or treat on the way home...this guy in front us was messing around and was drunk or on drugs one of the two.....Well we had two kids in the car and my bestfriend got mad.. so when we stopped dude started yelling out the window bitche
Girls Cry Because.....
They fell in love with the wrong person
They're Missing someone
They're tired of abusive relationships
Their Heart Is broken
They're in love
Their souls have been torn
They met someone they cant have
They feel cheated
They hurt so bad inside
They feel unloved
BOYS!!!: If any girl you know is crying, and you see them, don't just
stand there like an ass and say you're sorry, hold them, kiss them, and
tell them everything will be ok, even if you have no idea what is wrong
with them. Girls go through more drama than you can imagine! Girls just
want to be held and know that someone cares about them.
Girls: Repost this if you're tired of dealing with the drama, and
you're sick of putting up with the bullshit!
Boys: Repost if you're a loving, caring, sensitive guy, who hates to
With all my years before,
I still come unprepared for these tumult and strife,
It is as though I take one step forward,
And two leaps back.
I stand short with all my courage, tall with all my pain.
This life is so unpredictable, With immeasurable amounts of loss and tears.
I cannot see ahead and must never let these eyes set me back
Stagnant, If that's the word describes the life I lead.
I once had a dream,
One bigger than easily fathomed.
The talent is gone and my hands just cannot do the same.
I find peace in chaos.
Love in hatred.
But I cannot find hope.
Life Changes When You Least Excpect
Well its been over three weeks and still feel like im living in a dream. I dont know which way to turn .. For those of you who dont know I lost my long term partner suddenly. She had been well apart from a few what the doctors called
minor heart attacks, they only just registered as attacks. Well after the first one Jo was given an angioplasty, a little shunt put inside her heart to unblock w partially closed vein in her heart. Hey she has a heart I had joked to
some work mates, i used jokes throught out this period as it was my only way to deal with what was going on. It was only two years ago 15 march we had a little boy together after a very hard pregnancy, we went thru hell but after 4 days
he died. We then went thru this second part of hell the questions about if we could have done anything to hace avoided it. For a long time it was just one long numb dream. We then found that Jo was pregnant again this time from the
moment of her first scan , which was very ear
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, "I f I could only see the world, I will marry you."
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'
The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'
This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.
Life Is a Gift
Life Part 1
You know, I don't take Fubar serious. It is the net. People on the net usually pretend to be something they are not because they can get by with it, for at least a little while.
I know a lot of people on here unfortunately do take it serious and I can see how it is easy to get wrapped up in it. I just really don't like the meanness on here and people telling other people to get a life and how ugly or fat someone is.
There was a 18 year old boy that was mean to my picture and even when I was nice to him and gave him a 10, instead of the 1 he gave me, he came in and gave me another one and told me "it is the net, get over yourself, this isn't real". Um, ok. I never did say it was jackass and in real life, I wouldn't give you the time of day either.
So for now on, when people give me a 1 just to be spiteful, I will just block them right away and not rate them at all. They are the ones that don't have a life.
I only go in to the mums that my friends write. Only to vo
As life seems to become hard at times, its those times when you realize that each of those hard moments make you a stronger and better person. AS each day goes by, new things open my eyes and I learn what to say or what not to say. sometimes after the fact (DUH). sometimes it's best just leave your mouth shut.and sometimes you need to speak your mind. Just knowing the place and time to do each is what I am learning. and the best thing is that honesty leaves all the lies out, and not having to try and remember what lkie to cover up what lie. so life is easier and makes it more simple and a lot less STRESSFUL. AHhhhh I feel better. Why is it that, a woman can go out tell you she loves you. she wants to spend the entire weekend together with you. THen turn around ditch you and then decide that you aren't worth spending the entire weekend together? There are times when she says she wants to spend the entire weekend week end with you and then turns right around in the smae breath and says
Life Is Wonderful!!
Ok, since August was a shitty month for me, i.e. having gall bladder surgery (August 6th)and the car accident on August 30, the ONLY good thing that happened to me was Sea L coming home finally!!
So let's just hope that September will be a better month. So far so good. He and I are having lots of fun with each other. We try to do different things and I'm trying to show him more of this town, but with me working 2nd shift and also working over time,it's hard to get out.
But I have to thank God for bringing us together. I love Sea L more and more everyday, depsite how much he picks on me!!! LMAO But he's the best and I know I don't have to worry about anything with him in my life. Iconic Daredevil Evel Knievel Dies at 69
By MITCH STACY Ė 3 hours ago
CLEARWATER, Fla. (AP) ó Evel Knievel, the red-white-and-blue-spangled motorcycle daredevil whose jumps over crazy obstacles including Greyhound buses, live sharks and Idaho's Snake River Canyon made him an international icon
summer is almost over
almost time to see leaves fall
time for some to break up
time for some to make up
all things seem to change
change for good or bad
life is like that
it is a revolving circle of the never ending
so just sit back and go with your own flow
don't worry about what's going to happen next
things have a way of eventually working out for the best
take life with a grain of salt
i'm not saying it's easy
but it will be in the long run
live life to the fullest
at least that is one thing you won't regret Nothing
I feel it now
More than ever
That never-ending longing
Longing to be free again
To return to where I once was
To be classified as ďweirdĒ
To do things that are crazy
To lose myself in the nothingness
That sounds so wonderful
To act like nothing matters
To feel like nothing matters
To be nothing
Nothing, nothing, nothing
Itís calling me
What do I do
Itís pulling me hard
I feel it
Deep, deep ins
Life On The Road
I finally got a promotion with my company after trying for 11 years and I love my new position, but have been on the road almost for 2 months since I started this position in July of this year.
The only downside on it is I am by myself and miss my family and wish they could enjoy seeing some of the things I have seen over the last two months.
I have driven to Los Angeles twice now and getting ready to make the drive again on Monday, if anyone ever gets the chance to make that drive down I70 from Denver to LA I recommend doing it cause the sites are amazing all the mountains, rivers and valleys you get to see are just incredible. The one thing that impressed me the most was coming into Las Vegas around 10 at night and popping up on top of this ridge and then just seeing the lights of the city as it stretchs across the valley for miles is something to see.
she questions why? why me? she looks for answers but none ever seen to come to her, searching her face she seeks for a clue as why her, but it is a question that will not be answered, for she can search her eyes and tell there isnít any reason, she turns and he is there ready to take her into his arms and hold her, stilling her fears and tears, and she knows it will be Ok, he will make it all seem worth while She sits and stares ahead of her, trying not to think of the words being said to her. The voice continues to break into her dreams, pushing deeper and deeper until she can no longer hide, Why her? What could she have done to deserve this? She gives and gives, always checking, always planning, why does it continue? She belives it can change, things must get better. She thinks back and remembers at time when everything was new and the words caused no pain. The touch was light and gentle the kisses sweet and plenty, when did it change? She dreams of being better, making him happy, do
u dont know what u have till u cannt do anything for yourself. i broke my foot a couple of days ago and it really sucks. i cannt do anything for myself and it sucks. i have to have everyone do everything for me. im used to being able to do everthing for myself and now depend on everyone. life really fuckin sucks. everything is takin away from me. i miss it so much i want to thank my family and friends and my best friend sally. she has been here everyday to help. i want to say thank u and luv u
How is anyone meant to be happy in life when A) his grandmother passes away(please refer to other blogs) & B) when his parents tell hjim that they would rather him dead cos he isn't a doctor, a lwayer or an accountant. & that he shouldn't have his life on the line with his security/personal bodyguarding job. They have neever done anything for me in my life for me as i had to do it myself or i never got anything for myself. I can't rely on anyone cos no1seems to give a shit about me. No child should ever have to hear those words that i heard come out of my parents mouths. then after i heard that my grandmother passed away that was the final straw in my life!
Life Is Scary
Very important info.....
Google has implemented a new feature which enables you to type a
telephone number into the search bar and hit enter and you will be
the person's name and address. If you then hit Map you will get a map
the person's house. Everyone should be aware of this! It's a
reverse telephone book.
If a child gives out his/her phone number, someone can now look it up
find out where he/she lives. The safety issues are obvious, and
Note that you can have your phone number removed or blocked. I tried
number and it came up along with the mapquest and directions straight
our house. I did fill out the removal form for myself, and encourage
of you to do the same. Quite scary!
Please look up your own number!!!!!!!
You may know someone who needs to know this -that would have little
It takes Sex Offenders right to your front door!!
Please share this information with friends and family.
A good message.
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours
in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 glasses
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in
front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very
large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the
jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas
between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar
was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else He asked once more if the
jar was full. The students responded
so this is when you learn what its like to be a person and be on your own.
it's hard at first but once you get the hand of it, it's easy.
there's drama, heartbreak, deaths, criminals, etc.
but once everything is done with you just learn from the things you have done and the things that the people around you do.
i mean lifes a bitch & thats that.
it's hard to let go of things that were so amazing.
but it's honestly the best thing you can do.
no matter what people say or think it's the only thing you can do.
learn from everything.
and don't live wiht regret.
cuz everything you did was for a reason.
this is lifeee.
so don't try and change it.
people make mistakes no matter what.
NOONES is PERFECT.
they may think they are but honestly they aren't
Our greatest crime is cultivating our anger. Instead of fighting it we allow it to grow. Its our true alter ego. Its free floating, poisonous, and destructive, yet perversely empowering. Anger is passion and passion makes you feel alive. Can we truly change? Everyone should have the power within them to change. Is it really possible to change yourself fundamentally? Past experiences are hidden tripwires lying dormant within you, ready to sabotage actions still in the future, ready to circumvent any attempt at reinvention. Character is destiny, and thus fate is set!
There is no more lively sensation than that of pain; its impressions are certain and dependable, they never deceive as may those of the pleasure women perpetually feign and almost never experience. I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN
Life In General
I have an update for all of those who care... my aunt whom recently passed away in Florida did in fact commit suicide. She called her brother and asked him if he would pick up her baby for a little while and by the time he got there she had shot herself in the head... I appreciate everyones prayers and ask that you continue to pray for my cousins and the rest of my family. hugs to all!
Sabrina alrighty guys im in an auction and i would love for all of ya to come bid on me :) heres the link
http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=800157&albumid=1456110&i=3026743017&idx=34 ok... i dont get it... i go to a bar... not necessarily to pick up guys or to get hit on but it normally makes me feel good if i get a little attention... here lately though everytime i go my friends always get the guys or get the attention or at least here damn ur good lookin ... not anything against my friends but come on what is so wrong with me... hell even when i do go somewhere to meet guys im just the friend... FF
What were you doing that tragic day?
I don't think I'll ever forget that day, September 11, 2001. It's forever etched in my mind. It was a Tuesday that will always be, for my generation, my December 7, 1941.
I was a young 26 year old, living in El Cajon, California (just outside San Diego). I was in my seventh year of my enlistment in the United States Navy. I worked second shift at that time. I was the work center night shift (navy talk for second shift) Production Supervisor, as well as the work center Collateral Duty Inspector (basically Quality Assurance). At that time I was becoming a seasoned Aviation Electronics Technician Second Class (AT2 / E-5 rank) and close to being the LPO (Leading Petty Officer) of the shop. This, in retrospect, was not too common at NASNI AIMD (Naval Air Station North Island Aircraft Intermediate Maintenance Detachment).
I was fortunate to be where I was, considering two years prior I was stationed in Yokosuka, Japan. I was very content
Life Part 2
I got some bad news today. My step mother called me and asked if I had heard from my brother Kevin. I had not. So she tells me that he is getting a divorce. After 15 years of marriage! I know it happens to a lot of people. I know this. I am not naive. It is just that him and his wife who were heavy drug users in the past, made it though that and jail time for drugs, got clean and made it through not being able to have kids have now decided to get a divorce after just buying their first house just last November!
I know I don't know all the details. I just worry. I have seen what drugs do to my brother and it is so ugly. I worry that even at 40 years of age, he will slip back into that life style.
They seemed to have gotten their act together. She went to school and is now a nurse. He has a great job. They bought a house and bam! It seems like when you think things are perfect, they really aren't.
My sister in law is a great person and I hope they can make it with
Life is the most amazing thing that could possibly have been invented. I love Harold Redden so much and I don't know what I would do without him. He is the apple of my eye. He is my rock and my shield. He is everything to me. I wouldn't want to throw that away for anything. He is going down to Mexico and I won't be able to talk to him for like 9 days. I will miss him so much. My life is awesome... how is yours???
I have come here
Just to inform you...
I'm NOT sorry,
For what I shall do.
I have no guilt
For leaving you
To your life game.
Life holds nothing...
Nothing for me.
I'm in debt.
I'm in pain.
I cry, knowing
I'm not sane.
Cause I see me dead.
A gruesome scene.
My knife in my throat.
The bloodiest of dreams.
soon that will find me.
They'll call the police.
But I'll be long gone,
No one gives a fuck.
No one will care,
While at my corpse,
Just another one.
Another fucked up kid.
You're better off
With what I did.
I went quiet.
I went alone.
I went to find
A new home.
I'm with the others.
Those like me.
Helpless, lost, dead...
Gathered alone in our misery.
I'm going to hell.
But it's probably
Just as well.
I loved you.
I just don't know
What else I can do.
I'm sick of hurting.
I'm sick of crying.
I'm sick of all the
my life is getting worse by the day all i can wish is for me to just disappear ad never return. last year if you have read my sickness blogs you would know i was in hospital for a while with pnumonia then i have had problems at where i work where i nearly lost my job. my life change for the better when i got talking to a lady on here who helped me change my life for the better.
now my life is on the way back to nothing as i have had x-rays on my chest and spine as my doctor thinks i could have damaged my spine. he has also done tests on me and found out i am diabetic. then i get in today and find that the lady i had fallen for has blocked me from her page so my life sucks.
I just wanted to let everyone know that I am having surgery on June 4th. They are going in and cleaning out my left knee. There is arthritis in my knee and a small tear in the meniscus. I am going to also ask my doctor if he can look at my hips because some days they hurts so bad I can barely walk. Last night, I had my friends Kelly, Jimmy, Lisa and Chad up for supper. I made turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, and green beans. After we ate another so called friend named Charles stopped by for awhile. When Chad left, I asked Charles to go get Tigger so she would not run out the door. He went to pick her up because another friend was leaving and I didn't want her to run off. Well Tigger either got scared or something and scratched him. Well instead of bringing her to me, he held her up as high as he could by the back of her neck and she was hissing and growling, I told him to bring her to me but he didn't listen. He threw her on the floor really hard and she bounced off the floor
Life Really Fucking Sucks At Times.....
my kid brother (well, hes my exes little brother but we're tight and i think of him as my own) bought himself a scooter on saturday
he has a history of bad luck with scooters and bikes
well, this time was no different
at 3.00pm on monday he was involved in a serious crash with a car
we are not sure wtf happened yet only that the car turned right and across him
we dont know if he hit the car or the car hit him
we do know he went through the window of the car
we do know 2 doctors were there almost instantly and the police got there in under 2 minutes
it was so serious they called in the air ambulance to airlift him to hospital
the first his mum knew of it was when a police car screamed to a stop outside her house and a policeman knocked on the door
the poor woman didnt even know he had bought a scooter as she had begged him not to any more
she called me from the police car (they were brilliant, they got her to the hospital in record time) totally distraught
I am starting to finally feel whole again. It has been a long time since i have felt this way. I met a great man who treats me the way that ive always wanted to be treated. He loves me for me, including all my faults. He knows my thoughts and can complete my sentances even before i start them. He accepts my kids as if they were his. And althought we both have been through hell somehow we found something in one another that broght us together. Its hard sometimes to try not to wonder if whats happened in the past is going to happen again, but i can only hope that the love he says he has is stronger than the rest. Cause this heart of mine is tired of building walls just to have them knocked down. Only time will tell. Well today i start a new job. Its part time nights and weekends which is fine cuz i want to go back to school and finish my Criminal Justice Degree. I wish I never would have let my ex stop me from going but now i have no one in my way. I can go to school during
Life Part 3
I have decided that my life is a circus! A 3 ring circus that I have to juggle and try to get through every day with little scathing!
Yesterday, I get the news about my brother. It is life and we all move on. Yesterday my son forgot his vocabulary words yet again! Peter had to take him back to school, get someone to open up the classroom and get them. Not fun. I had a bad email from his teacher also telling me that Christopher had a bad attitude with her. So my day always tends to go to Hell after the hour of 3:00pm.
We got through last night with all homework done and not too much yelling on Peter's part. I hate yelling! It doesn't work. No one listens to someone yelling. Anyway, with another "pep" talk last night and this morning to Christopher on how to behave at school and bringing home his homework, today is another day!
Here goes the circus! I am talking to my love on line today, being naughty with the cam with him. Everything is great! We say goodnight
Life Of A True Nutmegger
Only one man owned my heart, body, and soul and that man died when I was 19. Shamus Richard Cerreta was my everything and in many ways still is. I would never let another man get that close to me ever.
I am not too fond of telling men how I feel about them either if I feel anything at all, fear of hurt and rejection I suppose but whatever. So if I have told you how I feel about you consider yourself special because most of the times I clam up and let them up and walk away from me if I want to keep you in my life there has to be a very good reason for it whether it be on a friendly scale or lovers scale.
But I am fickle sometimes as soon as I want you in my life I want you out of it even faster so there you have been warned
I do not want another relationship EVER EVER EVER again. Very much doubt there is any man left out there to tame me anyways. Hey don't fix what isn't broken and by no means am I broken.
I fancy the crap out of someone on here, he makes my heart race with every se
Life Part 4
Ugh! Today was not a very good day. I wonder what is out of whack with my universe? I wrote a blog earlier and a guy that I thought was my friend just berated me in my blog. It wasn't a nice comment at all. So I told him he knew nothing about me or my family and that he wasn't very nice leaving me that comment. I deleted his comment, the blog and him!
Today is my son's birthday. It should be a great day, right? I got a phone call from my son's teacher saying that he wasn't doing anything in class. That he just sat there during a math test and she had to send him to another class room to see if he would do something and still he hadn't. I was shocked to say the least. It is his birthday. Why is he not having a good day?
I talked to him on the phone and asked him if something had happened and he said no. But he was not really talking. I dropped him off at school all happy and then this. His teacher sent me an email telling me she would call me after school about an i
Life Is Life
Life is Life"
People; we go through life seeing, meeting, touching, experiencing, and hopefully growing as a result of interactions with other people. Growing is the key word. For some growing emotionally, spiritually, and just growing up is slower process than for others. We welcome/allow people into our lives. Sometimes the experience is great, sometimes just ok. Sometimes we allow our selves to be vulnerable, and sometimes we are betrayed.
We go through life meeting people that are; very different than we are, some with similar interest, some with the same values as we have, and some who's values are very different than the one's we hold so close. Life is life, and people are people. No bad guys and no good guys, (As I always say).
I was once told to pray for someone who has wrong me, when I didnít know how to look inwards and look at my own part. Only by looking inwards can I find the solution. By pointing fingers and blaming we donít grow. I have been praying for diffic
Life's A Dream
life's a dream
goin' full stream
know what i mean?
it runs like water
thru a mountain stream
it passes you bye
and you wonder why?
you just live
until you die.
you just live
and you give
a laugh or a cry
but the truth always be a lie
then you die.
like a moon beam
nuthin' is as it seem
just a reflection
of the sun
and what you have done
then your life is done
ain't no do over's
and over's and over's
ain't no way to begin agin'
life's a dream
it runs like water
thru a mountain stream
or the light from a moon beam
ain't nuthin' as it seem
nor as it oughta' be
life's just a moon beam
and a mountain stream
aint's nuthin' as it seem
it's sure not what you thoughta'
your life would be
when you look back and agree
that moon beams
and the water
runnin' thru mountain streams
ain't what they seems
and moutnatin streams
as your years pass
Hey everyone....I just wanted to update you all and let u know that I will not be on for while. I am gettin ready to move back to another state to be with my husband. He is coming home from Iraq and I can't wait for him to come home!! It's been a long ass year with him being gone. I hope that u all will be praying that he has a safe return and that I make it to where I am going!! Thank you
Hey list'n up... U Live n u DIE so dont get all discouragd. just get ur lasy azz off the couch n grab LIFE by the horns.. n stop be'n pansie's bout girl's if ur not kool bout ur self then the girl's will think the same way.. so think positive n confident n u'll have a great Life n maybe a great girl or even a family... U never know what lies ahead of even around the corner.... I even have to take my own advice.....
Life In Afganistan Of A Canadian Soldier
Hey all my Fubarian Friends:)
I'm on here for an hour or two...because we're getting supplies then back off to the mountains.
I've got a friend looking after my fubar account while I'm not here.
He's a pretty cool guy...his name is Mike
No he doesn't belong to Fubar.
So please be nice to him...:P
So please rate/fan/add me to your friends list
I'm just a lonely Soldier out here in the Dust Bowl of Hell!!!!!!
well I'm off now...got to go check my emails and write a letter home to my MOM!!!
Thank You ...roamnhands...AKA Dave Taylor SGT
I LOVE ALL MY FUBARIAN FRIENDS HERE and HOPE TO MAKE MORE FRIENDS!!!!!oxoxoxoxoxoxox hey all you Fubarians
its me roaminhands..:P
I leave the safety of my home base to go up into the mountain here in Afdganistan...to do what I'm train to do
so I wont be on here for a little while
but please rate/fan/add/and comment please
I'm a very lonely Canadian
Soldier here in Afganistan
so hopefully all my furbarian friends miss me
well I'm of
Life Part 6
I may regret telling the world this but....I just went pee and as I was peeing, I remembered that I had used the last of the toilet paper earlier!
I look around and the box of Kleenex is missing. I open up the vanity drawers and nothing. Nothing that remotely looks like a piece of cloth to use. I am all alone. What do I do? I sit there for a minute and laugh and then I had to take my hand and use it for toilet paper!!! What else was I going to use? Yes, I thoroughly washed my hands after. I then went and got the box of Kleenex by my bedside and proceeded to wipe properly!
I just thought it was too funny not to share! Now, there are 3 roles of toilet paper in my bathroom!
Thought you could use a good laugh or......be grossed out! haha
Ciao~ This seemed like one very long week. There was a lot that happened with my boys pretty much every day. It is over and today is a brand new day. The sun will set and another day will be fresh! Right? I think so.
Girls Cry Because.....
They fell in love with the wrong person
They're Missing someone
They're tired of abusive relationships
Their Heart Is broken
They're in love
Their souls have been torn
They met someone they cant have
They feel cheated
They hurt so bad inside
They feel unloved
BOYS!!!: If any girl you know is crying, and you see them, don't just
stand there like an ass and say you're sorry, hold them, kiss them, and
tell them everything will be ok, even if you have no idea what is wrong
with them. Girls go through more drama than you can imagine! Girls just
want to be held and know that someone cares about them.
Girls: Repost this if you're tired of dealing with the drama, and
you're sick of putting up with the bullshit!
Boys: Repost if you're a loving, caring, sensitive guy, who hates to
Life Or Something Else...
i have been extremely irritated lately. i am not sure if it is becuase i am unhappy where i am at, the ex huby getting on my nerves, school, parenthood or all of the above. but in the past few weeks i have made almost everyone that i come into contact iwth cry. in the past when this has happened (yes it has happened before), i usually go and get a tattoo and i seem to be all good after that. but this time i have this strange feeling/vibe that i just can't shake!! i am not trying to hurt anyones feelings, but i don't have a very high tolerance these days for bullshit!! i have tried pretty much eerything to get me to relax but everytime i start to relax i hear this one question repeating in my head, "why have i been put here...to suffer, to be miserable and in pain, to struggle or have i been put here so that everyone has someone to crap on?" i am not trying to feel sorry for myself, not by any means. i guess i am just trying to figure out is this the way my life is going to be or
Life The Universe And Almost Everything
In life we try many times to live upto other peoples expectations no matter how hard they are to achieve, we have hope in our hearts that we will lead a good life and that people may remember us as such, my expectations have always remained the same i know that at some point my life will change, i know this because its happening now, things are starting to move, people are starting to come back and generally things couldn't be much better on a mental scale, these blogs are more about me unbottling my emotions than a serious look at life but there personal experiances that im trying to share, im reaching the peak of what i call progress in my mind, i wanted to marry and im sad that now that no longer seems to be happening, but happy that im still 29 and a whole future of events lies infront of me, i applyed to a soup kitchen today to help out, being told im selfish and whining today made me think twice about somethings, my immense care for the people who matter does lead me to be over s
Life Part 7
It is Sunday and I have been going through stuff that we have seemed to put in boxes and hidden in the garage for years! It was time to go through them and get rid of shit that we have not seen in years! Like 20 years. It is all dusty. Not a good thing to be doing on a Sunday but it has been needed for quite some time now.
Yesterday was Christopher's birthday party. It turned out so nice. We had family and friends over and the kids went swimming. Even though it wasn't hot outside, the pool was warm and the kids enjoyed themselves! For being mostly boys, they were pretty calm in the pool. The adults just sat around and talked. Very stress free birthday. I had prepared the food beforehand so I could just relax during the party and that made it really nice for me.
I left the party when it was winding down because I had to go to another party. I enjoyed myself. I am always the last one to leave. I guess that means I love to talk or to have a good time? My friends hus
Life Is Sucking At The Moment
So my life right now is pretty shitty. I feel like I have absolotutely no one to turn to. I live 20 minutes away from my friends and I don't have a car so it's hard to meet up with them. I got a 3.0 going on in school and that is the only thing making me happy right now. But I just wanted to get a couple words out so here ya go. Peace out and thanks for reading. Tiff~~
It's a funny thing about life if you refuse to accept anything but the best you very often get it. If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right ou'll probably never do much of anything. The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.
Life Is Sweet!
Before I hit the sack..:) This pic was marked NSFW. Can anyone explain to me why?..LMAO
Just thought I would ask...giggling
Thank you all for the great Happy Hour(for the most part...lol) I just want to say give me some time and I will get back with you. If I haven't gotten to you, please send me a letter and let me know ok? I will try as soon as I can..thanks again!
By the way, who ever you are...please feel free to continue your tirade through my stash and pics please...if it makes you feel better..LMAO
I LOVE THIS BAR...(giggling)
WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT MY FAMILY,MY SISTERAE NOTHING TO ME ANYMORE I AM SICK OF ALL THERE CRAP.AND AS AR AS MY MOTHER SHE CAN GO STRAIT TO HELL TOO!!!!!!
I feel broken, and alone. Iím angry at myself, because I put myself here. I gave too little, and pushed too hard. There is no one to blame, but me. I have faults, and flas that I hate. Yet itís those same faults and flas, that make me who I am. Am I proud of who I am? NO! Why, because who I am, is why Iím alone. Do I feel like I will, be alone for the rest of my life? Honestly, I feel that I will be. With everyday that passes, I loose a little bit more hope. But again I say, I am the one to blame.
hmm well so far all men have proven me right that they are all assholes ... but can u be the one to prove me wrong that not all men are assholes ... that there really are some good ones out there? I really hope so ... but who knows all i can do is just wait and see. Just take life day by day and wait it out and hopefully you will prove me wrong!! I can only take a chance in life and this is a big one ... so just be ready if u break my heart ... cause its gonna suck!! ive had my heart broke too many times before and im not ready for it ne more ... not yet ... i dont want a controlling asshole i want someone who will stand by my side and love me ... someone who is not going to critize me for woking when im not supposed to! I want someone to encourage me not someone who puts me down ... r u that someone?? just thinking ... there is someone i really truly like ... and i am scared to get involved only because i know if and when i do i will fall so hard to that person and i am scared i am
A Life So Unordinary Its Well... Ordinary.
SO.. I went to Salem this weekend to visit my mom, sister, and nieces. It was a good time I guess except for the hangover that haunted me all day. After visiting with them I went to go see a few friends before I left town to come back to this hole in the mountain town called Oakridge. I went to see one and ended up seeing three all the the same place. Of course it was good to see them and chat for a bit, but I did get an earful about how I left town and it was like I fell off the edge of the Earth never to be found again. So on the drive home I was thinking about past friends and how what he said was true.. I do disappear off the edge of the Earth when I skip town. I guess I do it so much that I never really notice that I do. I also don't mean to disappear the way I do, but things happen, and I guess I get caught up with work and trying to make new friends in the new area. So to those folks out there.. sorry.. I will eventually come back around to say hi. Yeah more than meets the eye a
Life Part 8
We were cleaning out the garage most of the day yesterday. Well.....I supervised! I said what to throw away and what not to. Although, Peter never throws anything away! I say get rid of it all.
We were going through this box that had stuff in it from a cedar chest we used to have. When we got rid of it, I shoved everything in a box. I found a card in there that had a check in it for $60.00 from my friend. I never cashed that check! It is dated 7/23/91! Do you think it is still good? haha!
I know I didn't cash it for a reason. Just can't quite remember what that reason was any more. Memory! Not so good. I think she was paying for half of her dinner from when we went out or something and I told her not to pay me, that it was my treat and she sent me the check anyway.
I am going to send her a card with the check inside to be funny. Odd finding things like that laying around. I guess sometimes it is good to keep some things because by me keeping that check, it re
Daily Horoscope: Cancer
For October 24,2007
Your emotional nature is dominant today and you are that much closer to flying off the handle. Make sure that you avoid stressful situations and do your best to remain calm when you're provoked.
Daily Horoscope: Cancer
For September 17,2007
You're taking care of so much weird emotional business right now that you might be torn between one important person and another. Take a deep breath and try to figure out your priorities quickly!
when life throws u a bunch of lemons....what do u do?.....u make lemonaide
what do u know someone hit my hubbys truck from behind while i'm in the process of making a left hand turn. to make a long story short, i ended up goin to the hospital last nite only to find out that i badly bruised my left shoulder blade in the accident and now my left arm is in a sling for the next week.
Life As We Know It
yeah well we all know i suck at life i always find a way of fucking thingss i know that no one is perfect but damnit...I try to be i try to do everything right an i am not doing so well...its been said that i am the best she has ever had that i treat her so well...but then how do i look past some major detail an not tell her...i feel like ass. a failure...i want to fix it but you cant change the past its over an done with an i know this but it doesnt change the shity feeling i have of being a terrible gf. how does one become perfect why is it not possible? ::hangs head:: I have to become better! life as i know it is making a huge turn around! the clouds that were hanging over head are passing over, with the new gf an new friends that i have made life is oh so much sweeter! my gf has three lil boys that i adore an love to death! An hell i could not ask for a better gf because let me tell you they dont get better then this one!
....to be continued!
Life Part 9
I think songs are really interesting when you pay attention to the words. Most people do not take the time to really think about the lyrics. They sing along with the song not even knowing what they are singing about. Some songs have very powerful statements. A lot of the songs today are angry. They talk of killing and stealing. I have never been one to blame music for anyone's actions. I have always thought that was so stupid. I do wonder though now. Music can give you an attitude or confidence or make you feel sad or happy. It is very powerful.
I love to sit and listen to music with headphones on and the reason is because it blocks out the rest of the world and lets you get lost in it. I listen to different types of music depending on what kind of mood I am in. I have been into the "coffee house" type lately. It seems to be less angry and more fun. I do get in my mood to listen to hard stuff. I wonder if I will ever grow out of that? I doubt it.
Here are the lyri
Life Is What You Make Of It
hi this is stacey -n- this is my first blog. I don't have anything thrilling to say at the moment. Halloween was interesting this year.
You should have seen me I was wearing this green little headband with green -n- sliver poms -n- a black dress..it was kinda flashy looking but it pass for my costume, I was a alien dress up as a human..silly huh.
it was fun esepcially when I got to hang with my bffs..we always have fun together we watch scary movies-well they was suppose to be but it takes alot to scare me. Well anyways we went to this church festival -n- got tons of candy -n- free krispy kreme donuts. We just walk all over the place -n- laugh at people when they stare at us.
Life Part 10
I made my first cappuccino this morning since buying my fabulous espresso machine! I have been drinking espresso over ice since I got it. Now the weather is changing and getting much cooler so it is time for warm coffee drinks.
I put the milk under the steamer and it heated it up and then made froth to put on top! For my first try, it turned out pretty good.
I really do love my machine! I know, I know. I am a freak! But at least I am a freak that is enjoying her warm cappuccino! ;)
Enjoy your day.
Ciao~ Today was a stress free day! A first in a very long time. Anthony started back to school today from his um...3 day vacation from school! He has a lot of work to make up and get in so his grades will go back up.
I got an email from Christopher's teacher today and she told me it was his best day yet! This makes me happy.
At least one day without worry and stress over school and my boys. How nice. Now...if we can only keep it up! Staying over them like a w
Lifestyles Of Nightfall
...but Im done lending my helping hand to people. People just dont motherfucking learn. They dont. Hardheaded people we got living this fucking world. Its fucking dumb, Im tired digging out everyone from the stupid holes they keep falling in. Cmon...
LEARN FROM YOUR FUCKING MISTAKES!!!!
So I end this one saying that if you feel its right, go ahead and do it. I am not going to come back and tell you that "I told you so" when the shyt hits the fan. Im not going to pick you up anymore when youre down. Im not going to be the shoulder for anyone to cry on.
Ive been used and abused for way too fucking long. Live YOUR life. Dont expect me to live it for you becuz you dont know how...
-J Why Im being tortured within myself, I dont know. I dont think I am ever going to find out either. A bad button got pushed.. I need it reset..
"I donít know who to trust, no surprise, everyone feels so far away from me... Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies. Trying not to break but Ií
i hate the face that i hate my life. i hate the fact that i cant find that one person i'm ment to be with. i hate the fact that my aunt passed aways amd isnt here to spend halloween and xmass with us i hate everything right now. i hate the face that my dad is where is and cant be here with me. i hate the fact that i dont really have anyone i can talk to right now that knows whats going on in my life. but one of the things i hate the most out of everything. is that everything is happening at the sametime. and that there hasnt really been time for it to hit me one thing at a time. i hate the fact that i hate everything and that nothing can go good for me. i hate the fact that i cant sleep because on all this. i just hate everything right now. i hate me life and that thers only a handful of ppl that know why and but most of all i hate the fact the their all to busy to talk to me and clam me down like old times.
sorry to everyone that gets mad at me for this but i had to get it out. i'
LIFES A BITCH THEN U MARRY ONE
Every day we go through trials and it's human nature to not forget. However, it's up to us not to judge one another for who they are today with what we've done in the past- For the past is what we have learned from to become what we are today!! Everyone makes mistakes and holding these things over someones head does not make "everything all better". It's like putting someone down to try to make yourself feel better. In the end all you do is invite negative energy into your heart and soul and make it dark. Enjoy the days you have with the positive energy by surrounding yourself in it. Life is too short! Enjoy it while you still have it!
Life Part 11
OMG! Is it possible? 2 days in a row? No stress, no fighting, no arguing. Kids getting their homework done. I got an email from Christopher's teacher and she said he had another excellent day! I am so happy. The sad thing is, it could have been the mocha's he was drinking every morning before school!
Yes, I am crazy. See, coffee has the reverse affect on kids. If kids have trouble concentrating, you can give them coffee and it is supposed to help. So I was giving him a mocha every day before school. Now, it may not have been the coffee itself, it could have been the chocolate and white chocolate I was putting in it! He does have trouble with sugars. Who knows?
So yesterday, he didn't mention wanting one so he didn't get one. He did great at school. Today, same thing and he did great at school again! Must be a correlation, right? We will see if he behaves tomorrow. He is not getting a mocha!
I added some pictures, a request from a sexy guy that I want to j
I'm tired of being alone even with others in the house.
I'm tired of hurting all the time.
I'm tired of the damn buzzing in my ears.
I'm tired of wanting a hug from someone other then my boys.
I'm tired of having to be the "tough" one.
I'm tired of not having someone to hold me and just let me cry.
I'm tired of taking care of everyone else.
I'm tired of not being able to work.
I'm tired of not being able to give my room mate/landlord/best friend more money then I can now.
I guess I'm just tired of it all and if my body wasn't in such bad shape, I would just start walking and never stop. Just get lost and never feel like I am putting someone out or sponging off them. If you look in my photos and go under family, you will see a pic of my 20 year old son Sean. I have decided to "auction" him off as he is known as "He-Slut" for a reason.
If you offer him enough he might even take you up on the offer. LOL Well, Starting at 7:30 pm est, I will be in the hospital un
Morning light lands on her face
As another day begins
In her eyes there's a story of a lover
Who's been disappointed once again
So she combs her, she'll wash her face
Sing her favorite song as she forces out a smile
Now the song's the same but her world has changed
And everything she held so dear it's all on trial
She said love, I don't need it anymore
She said love, it lies in pieces on the floor
Love, I don't need it anymore
She said love, it keeps walking out that door
Daydream weaver, paints a picture perfect in her mind
Make believe, the author of a story
Where the ending always turns out fine (right)
So she takes a drag of a cigarette
With her head in her hands she keeps askin' why
All the bad luck comes as good love goes
She's cryin' up a river
But that river's about to run dry!
Right back at ya baby!
Lyrics by The Union
You say you don't want me
You say you don't care
You say that your heart
Ain't got no room for me there
You say you don't n
oh well.. my life is pretty suckie right now.. but not much i can do about it.. seems I can not get out of this depression I am in.. no matter what I do and how hard I try.. I just seemed to get sucked deeper and deeper into it... all my friends try to help, and I do so appreciate that.. but it seems nothing well get me out of it..
when i seem to finally be coming out of it.. bam something else puts me even farther in.. people who have no respect for me make it worse.. especially when I do everything I can for them..
I guess I am just gonna have to become the bitch again... well it will be good for me but bad for everyone else..
I guess its time I worry about me for once and less of everyone else...
I guess thats all for now.. thanks for reading...
Life Part 12
Wow, today is Friday. I love Fridays. Yes, it is a work day but you know it is coming to an end and that you will have 2 days off to do what ever you want. It is always a good feeling. Unless you are unfortunate to have to work on the weekend but that just means your Friday is a Tuesday or something?
This has been a really good week compared to the weeks prior. It has been a good week for my 2 boys which means it is a good week for me. Christopher has done well all week in school except for Monday. I am pretty sure it was the mocha's. Anthony is really trying, I think? I hope! Except for a hiccup with him on Wednesday, he has been very positive! He has turned in all his missing work. We really want him to do well and be able to get a job and get his drivers license. He just has to prove himself to us. It may take a while.
I had such a productive day yesterday! I worked and got most of a project done that I will finish up today. I was proud of myself! haha I have
Life Part 13
Last weekend, my cousin came over for Christopher's birthday party. She had the cutest purse! It was black and white with zebra stripes. I told her that I would love to have it. She told me where she bought it and that it was inexpensive and that they should still have more.
So, I finally go out yesterday to find this purse. It is no longer there. :( I searched high and low and no cute purse! I was bummed. Bloody Hell! So I go to another store maybe thinking that they might have it and again, I was disappointed. So, it was not meant to be. I go back home purseless and sad.
When Peter got home, I told him about it and that I wanted to go to the mall to look for a purse since now I am on a mission to get a new one. He decided to go with me. Why did I bring him? I have no idea?? We went to Macy's and he walked through the purse department in about 3 minutes and said there was nothing there but ugly purses! I was still looking at the first few. I told him that we
Life Kicks You In The Ass...so Kick It In The Balls And Then Knee It In The Face!
i'm so freakin tired right now. for those who don't know or don't know me, i'm pregnant. very pregnant ( try almost 9 months pregnant. and i'm on bedrest, which sucks balls.
and it's a little hard to be on bedrest when you have two kids ( my angel are 2 1/2 and 4). i'm always chasing them and on top of that, my daughter( the eldest of the two) is in speech therapy so that takes a big chunk of my time. thanks to a very special man in my life, i'm not having to go at this alone, though its not the man you're all thinking of. sadly, the father of my children is an asshole from hell and isn't there for them. i don't even think he cares, which is fine b/c i feel like my head's gonna explode everytime i have to hear him speak and tell me bullshit lies about how he's got more important things to do besides pay his childsupport and visit his kids. and the saddest part of all is, it's mostly his fault that my poor little girl even has to go to speech therapy. she took mine and his divorce ha
Life Part 14
Oh boy! My day started early this morning. Like 3:30 in the morning, I hear some noise in the bathroom and I ask Peter what he is doing. He tells me he has heartburn and is looking for Tums. Then, about 4:15 in the morning, his damn cell phone starts ringing. I tell him that his phone is ringing only I realize that he is not in bed. Now it isn't a normal cell phone ring or a nice song. It is an obnoxiously loud BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! It does this over and over. He did not answer it, he was out front getting ready to leave to go up to the mountains!
I try falling back asleep but it takes me a while. I finally wake up and I have a kink in my neck. I can't move it to one side. I have spent most of my day reading which I never do. As the day seems to go on, it is getting worse. I have had this trouble before and have a prescription from the doctor to relax the muscle. One is not fazing it so about an hour after I took the first one, I have taken a second. The pain is
Life After ?
Courtesy of MsTags.com
Life after domestic violence is not the happy experience that people think it is. You have to go through each day one step at a time. Your whole life for how ever long you endured the violence was your existence; you did not know anything else. Everything that you suffered during that time over shadowed what life really was supposed to be.
Coming to terms with the fact that you are a person, that you are not the useless human being that you were made to feel is the most difficult first step.
For months or years you have been a no-body, someone not worth looking at or even someone to know. How do you start to rebuild your life? To be honest this is a struggle that I am going through every day, I still feel worthless even though I know that I have a purpose in life and thatís not to be bullied or battered by someone who claims they love me. I am yet to find what my purpose in life is.
To start with my struggle began with just getting out of bed in t
Life Is A Waterfall
Life is a waterfall,
We're one in the river,
And one again after the fall.
Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lost ourselves,
But we find it all?
Cause we are the ones that want to play,
Always want to go,
But you never want to stay,
And we are the ones that want to choose,
Always want to play,
But you never want to lose.
Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.
Life is a waterfall,
We drink from the river,
Then we turn around and put up our walls.
Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lost ourselves,
But we find it all?
Cause we are the ones that want to play,
Always want to go,
But you never want to stay,
And we are the ones that want to choose,
Always want to play,
But you never want to lose.
Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.
Aerials, so up high,
When you free your eyes,
Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
I found this when I was cleaning my desk at work and I remembered how much I liked it and how much sense it makes to me. Thought I would share.
~~~ LIFE INSTRUCTIONS ~~~
1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
2. Memorize your favorite poem.
3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
4. When you say, "I love you", mean it.
5. When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye.
6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
7. Believe in love at first sight.
8. Never laugh at anyone's dreams.
9. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's
the only way to live life completely.
10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
11. Don't judge people by their relatives.
12. Talk slow but think quick.
13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask,
"Why do you want to know?".
14. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
15. Call yo
Life And Living
I am beginning to think that happiness is over rated and that everyday doesn't begin with a kiss....... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
1...I DRINK ICE TEA MORE THEN I DO WATER
2...I LOVE MY LEOPARD SLIPPERS
3...MY SON IS SMARTER THEN MOST 5TH GRADERS LOL
4...I NEVER KNOW WHERE MY PHONE OR MY KEYS ARE
5...I AM A GOOD IRISH GIRL
6...I HAVE ALWAYS HAD LONG HAIR AND I WANT IT TO GROW FASTER
7...I AM IN LOVE WITH BEING IN LOVE (IF THAT MAKES SENSE)
8...I ACTUALLY FINALLY QUIT SMOKING
9...I DON'T HAVE CABLE TV
10..I HATE MUSHROOMS.....fungus grows between your toes and mushrooms are fungus icky icky
OK, IM TAGGING...Sin, Rider, Shane,Tiffy, & Ryot
DO we as civilised creatures allow our true potential to achieve be negated by having the wrong train of thought?
Or do we accept that only a few are lucky enough to have been given something to get started?..
Its true that if you were given the best in life your off to a very good start..
But what about those of us who werent gifted with an ubundance of financial stability and security?..
Are we doomed to fail or live the rest of our existence in a constant revolution of what is deemed acceptable?..
Work and sleep?? These TWO NESSECITIES take at least 14hrs of our already short day..
Leaving around 10hrs to fit LIFE into..
Eating,playing sport,shopping,time with friends and loved ones,sex, and time to relax just to name a few..
I for one can spend my whole day on any one of the forementioned..
I will not accept that!!
I accept that if u want something.. And that is all you focus on and think about.. You will have it!! Just stay focused..
Is there such thing as true l
Life Part 15
This weekend has been 2 longs days. Only because I was in so much pain yesterday and all by myself. I am irritated at Peter which doesn't help. Then, Peter was too tired when he got home last night to rub my neck to make it feel better! And to think that I had sex with him this morning! He is in so much trouble!
I guess he thinks he only needs to spend every other weekend with me? Not okay by me.
My neck is a little better but I think it is wearing me down and making me tired.
I went to a few different stores today. Driving was not fun since I can't turn my neck one way! Backing out was what was difficult. Anyway, I went and bought some fall flowers to make an arrangement for my front porch. I made one in the spring that were summer colors and it just doesn't look right for the fall so I figured I would make a new one and replace the other one. They are fake flowers and damn are they expensive! One stem was on sale for $2.50 but it takes a lot of stems to fill up
What am I doing?Can't Tell anymore I feel like I'm on a good path happy with my ife...but...I find myself lookin for dout in the complexity that is in the inner workings of my brain.Like in this weird world my brain is tryin to stop my happy.I feel the dout growning only haulted by the re-usurance from my other half that I am loved should I feel this way?WHAT is wrong with me I do not know but had to write trhis no one will prolly read this so this is how I feel so for those of you that dis on bloggers go ahead cuz I needed to write this
Life Part 16
I am so happy, I just finished a project for work that my Dad asked me for last weekend. I do the bookkeeping and job costing for one of my Dad's companies.
I started it Wed. and just finished it today. It feels good to be done and I can hand it to him tonight when I see him for dinner. We are supposed to go out to dinner, a company is wanting to take us so they can get our business. Hopefully it is enjoyable for me. The food will be good because it is one of my favorite restaurants.
So now I can breath and not worry about getting it done in time. He has been concerned about some specific jobs if we need to be estimating more when bidding on the jobs. Hopefully this gives him a clear picture.
Now, if only my kids have a good day at school and come home happy! That will make me very happy.
I hope all of you are having a great Monday!
Broken me if i had one more chane with her one more time to be near her. Broken me that sits here with out her the love that we had i thought it would last for ever. Broken me i can not cry because i know that is weekness in my eyes. Broken me i am here thinking about u 3 years later. Broken me i am still in love with you and i don't know how to let anyone eles in. Broke me i feel dead in said with a broken heart that can not be fixed. Broken me this is how it will be. My heart is made up of all diffent thing from this world. What i have done what has been done to me. The pain that
That i have made for my self and pain that i have sent to the ones that ki have care for or loved in my life. My heart is full of love and will always hold places for the ones i have loved or care for in my life that is all good night and sweet dream and always rember when u wake in the morn it is always a new day to start over.
Life and love go hand in hand so be ture to thy self an
Life Part 17
How does a day go from being great to not so great? I worked all morning and got my project finished and was feeling really good. I was talking to Martin and we were cut off by MSN yet again. Or, he got mad at me, I am not sure? I hope it was msn and not the other.
I was all dressed and looked nice to go out to dinner and then Peter calls me to tell me that I would be the only woman if i went, the other person backed out. So, I decided not to go since it was going to be a business dinner and I didn't want to sit there with a bunch of men. So me looking cute was for nothing!
Instead of going out to a nice dinner, I had take-out and get to work on Quickbooks since I was given the disk and I have to return it in the morning.
So I am home alone yet again. Yes, my kids are here but they are off playing right now.
Sorry if this is a little "oh poor me", I was just all excited earlier and it is as if my bubble was burst. By whom? Pick a person.
Life, Love, And Death
This life is what you make of it,
You could be the happiest person or feel like shit,
Life isn't as bad as people think,
But life moves so fast its hard to blink,
Love is an extension of life you do it and you lose,
Supposedly you get one person forever but who?,
This is the tricky part you continue to pour your heart out just to reveal another failed try,
All seem successful for a period of time but always end in the same goodbye,
Death is frightening to most and embraced by others,
It always occurs one way or another,
Some are afraid of dying alone some are afraid of death as a whole,
Some have experienced connection between 2 souls,
Why do we continue to try the impossible?,
Keeping someone happy when your dead isn't possible,
You can't really be with someone forever because Death interferes,
One day your partner will leave and never come back here.
-You know me
Life Part 18
Ah, it is early morning. I woke up and feel refreshed. I slept well. Yesterday was not such a good day but that is behind me and today is a new day. The weather is going to be beautiful today. Supposed to be in the 80's, just perfect.
After talking to Martin yesterday and calming down a bit, my son's principal called me to tell me that she had Christopher in her office. When I see the school district phone number come up on my phone, I kind of hold my breath. He apparently acted up in violin. He was talking and would not stop is what she told me. Then I got a call form his violin teacher to tell me the same thing. We talked for quite a while. She says he is one of her best students but if he doesn't think he is the "star" of the class, the best, he starts acting up.
When Peter got home, we had a long talk with Christopher and told him that good behavior is better then bad and we think he would rather make people happy then angry at him. He understands but it is hard f
life, what a wonderful gift. how we live it is up to us. how we treat others reflects greatly on us. how we take how we are treated by others reflects on us as well as them. do you believe in the golden rule or are you a believer in more of the old testament, an eye for an eye? over the years i have treated others not as i would like to be treated. now i try to treat others as i would like to be treated, and let me tell you that change takes work. Ok, lets see I am 43. I have been married 5 times. Since 1995 I have either been mechanicing or driving trucks. The company I currently work for I do both.
I have 4 kids. My oldest Chris is 25 from my first wife. Ethan 11, Logan 7, and Makayly 3, from my current wife, Amanda, we have been together for almost five years. We have had our share of ups and downs.
There has been cheating on both sides. She has cheated on me with an ex shortly after our daughter was born. We worked thru that. We finally got married Mar 17, 07. Since then she ha
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Life Sucks When......
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ok...so I"m back after 2 years...anyone interested in the rollercoaster ride of a story, holla!! lol...its one hell of a train wreck! ...I missed u all...come show some luvin'!!! .....
Here we go!.....one night after my husband went to work I packed up my kids and left, driving all night from Fresno, California back home to Ogden, Utah...My husband is an abusive man, both mentally and physically and I couldnt take anymore. When I arrived in Utah I was turned away by my family because they thought I was being selfish for wanting more out of my life, I then got stuck staying with my oldest sons dad, not such a good idea but I had nowhere to go.† A few months down the road I found out my sons father (his name I'll keep to myself 'cuz hes not very well liked) was using and selling meth...I was at a pretty low time in my life, so curiosity got the best of me, I figured what the he
Life Part 19
Okay, like I don't have enough gray hair already! The school system in Vacaville is going to drive me crazy and completely gray!
Earlier while I was talking to Martin on line, I got an email from my son Anthony's teacher saying that he was missing 5 assignments!!! He had an F. Actually, she sent the email the other day only I didn't see it until today. So I am ready to strangle my son.
Then, I go on to school loop again just now and it says he has an A in the class. He kept telling me that he had turned in all of his work and I had seen some of it so I knew that he did it. I couldn't for the life of my understand why he would do the work and not turn it in? So she was just behind on grading papers is all and made me angry at my son and thinking that he is just being stupid and irresponsible yet it was just her!
So he is listening to me and Peter. We have been having daily talks with him and his brother.
On the other hand, I got an email from Christopher's teac
Life's Tooo Short
LIFE IS TOOOO SHORT!
Life is too short to be wasting away waiting for good things to happent to you. So get up and go "make it happen."
Whatever your heart desires, your goals, your happiness, your friendships, etc. Sometimes things happen to us and bring us down, sometimes to the point when we think we can't get back up--or maybe we may not even want to get up.
But it is time-out for self-pity, and depression. Life has so much to offer but we just have to be aggressive and go get it!!!!! Meeting people, hanging out with good positive friends, furthering your education, doing things for other people can all bring pleasureable joy to your life.
If we just stop and look around us and see all the things that God has given us to enjoy life--and stop looking at all the bad things--we might have unspeakeable joy. Everyday we sit around and waste, moping because someone has hurt us is a day that we have added to death.
Life is tooo short when there is soooo much that
Life Part 20
Happy Friday everyone! Boy has Fubar messed up this time! When I logged on this morning, I saw a bulletin about how anyone can see your private pictures. I didn't believe it at first but I went into my pictures and noticed that someone who was not my friend had seen my private picture! So it was true.
It happened last night and it still not fixed yet. I tried to make a new folder with new settings but it didn't work, the pictures disappeared! Great! Hopefully they didn't go to someone else's profile! That would not be cool!
I took some new pictures last night. When I was out in my backyard last night, I noticed that my hibiscus plant that I love so much and has not done too well this year had a bloom on it. It is such a beautiful plant. The flowers almost look fake. I touched the bloom and it fell off in my hand so I decided to use it for some pictures. They turned out really nice but I don't want to put them up just yet until they fix the picture problem.
You know, I sit and read some of the blasts. Over half of the ones I have seen are for people on their birthday from a friend. I guess that people just don't really give blasts to their friends at other times much. I wonder why. I have given out several to my friends just because. Oh well. Such is life! Well, I am living life in Big Spring. Have a decent job for the area. Looking for a new place to live right now. Have given up all hope of ever finding anyone again. But such is life. Kids need me more anyway. I turn 36 tomorrow. Not really sure how I feel about it yet. Seems weird. I remember when my dad turned 36. I was 12 and life seemed so much different back then. Oh well. Anyway, take care and may you find all that you look for in life.
Well, I figured I'd try this site out, but there is so much going on at one time. I think I had 5 friend requests after 10 seconds of being on. It's friendly here, that's for sure. Thanks everyone for being so invited.
Life Part 21
My little sneaky daughter! I just took a shower after walking on the treadmill and got dressed. I am supposed to go out to dinner tonight so I was trying to find some pants that don't look terrible on me and look like I am wearing someone else's clothes! So, I find some pants that look descent on me, they are black. Not too baggy. I am thinking that I will wear these tonight to dinner.
So I just walked by where I keep my purses and my new black purse is gone! My daughter told me she thought it should be for her when I bought it. I said NO. It is mine! So last night she tells us that she is staying at a friends house and then they are getting up to go to San Fransisco for the day. Now I can guess where my purse went! I just called her to ask her if she had it and she was being coy. I told her that I wanted to use that purse today and she could have asked! Little sneaky girl!
I should be doing laundry but I can't! Why? Because my husband decided to undo my washer and
Life Is Short!
At 34 it feels as though you are probably about 1/2 way through life. At least that was how I felt. Somedays wondering if I was on the right path for me. Most days putting up walls and not letting people get too close, other that maybe a couple of trusted friends, after all when you let people in you get hurt! Just work everyday, take care of the kids, let life pretty much roll on by. Then in the middle of the night all of that can change....you can end up in the hospital, unsure of what is really going on, not remembering who you spoke to 5 minutes ago, hooked up tp heart monitors, and IV's and scared.
The you go home, to a shell of a home, a place just to lay your head...not your heart. Suddenly you realize all that you have done to protect yourself from pain has just alienated you from love, from laughter, from everything. Only you can change that! I did! It was not easy, and I am sure I still have a very long way to go. But I have great people on my side who are pushing me to be t
meet me in pure ecstacy lounge its hot up in there so wut u waiting for?
Life Part 22
Oh boy. I drank a lot of water last night before going to bed. Big mistake! I got up probably 15 times in the middle of this night! That does not make for a good nights sleep. My neck hurt all night long so I decided it is time to buy a new pillow. I have a tempur-pedic pillow but it is old now and not working the way it used to. It is made for people that sleep on their side and it supports the neck. So, time to shell out $$$ for a new one. Since my neck feels worse laying in bed all night then when I get up and move around...it is the pillow!
It is Monday. The work week and school week. What does today bring? The weather is cloudy and rainy which is okay. It was beautiful all weekend. I can handle a rainy day here and there. I hope now that Anthony has really good grades, he keeps it that way. Christopher...that is an every day thing. Never knowing what kind of day he is going to have at school. I told him when I dropped him off that I love him and to have a gr
Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have
or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you're alone.
It isn't about who you're dating, who you used to date, how many people you've dated, or if you haven't been with anyone at all.
It isn't about who you have kissed.
It's not about sex.
It isn't about who your family is or how much money they have
or what kind of car you drive.
Or where you are sent to school.
It's not about how beautiful or ugly you are
or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on, or what kind of music you listen to.
It's not about if your hair is blond, red, black, or brown
or if your skin is too light or too dark.
Not about what grades you get, how smart you are, how smart everybody else thinks you are, or how smart standardized tests say you are.
It's not about what clubs you're in or how good you are at "your" sport.
It's not about representing your whole being on a piece of paper and see
seems now adays that when you want to smile
things turn it upside down alot, the wars we are in, conflicts in our hometowns and such, the only thing that keeps me going is seeing other smiles, man woman and child aloke, just one smile or a soft hello from a friend, male or female places the fown i usually get to the side someplace when im unhappy.
Always remember that we have feelings that can be touched by a certain someone, or many someones lol
it could be something they said, or did, but they did itto make you smile,laugh,giggle,chortle,all that fun stuff.
Today i sawe something precious a membe herewith a puppy...she held him so close...that made me smile.
for that my friends was PURE LOVE...not fi;ltered thru some electeronicc garbage lol but pure dangidy dog gone love as my fave actor would say....
be goos t o each other and hey
SMILE! :) why are we here?LOL its raining here, the pittering of it makes me want to curl up in the bed and sleep till it stops lol
Life Is So Wonderful
well me and my wife split up and then after three months I find a GIRL ( note a girl) that kinda in a way broke my heart but introduced me to her ex-fainces ex-girlfriend and me and her hooked up now I'm in the predicament with her boyfriend/ex-boyfriend ( being that he doesn't know at this moment in time but does know that me and her are sleeping together and he don't care due to the fact that he gave me permission) coming into town and wanting to spend some time with his girlfriend (that want to break up with him and be with me) and also me and her got engaged today Sept. 30, 2007 and we are planning the wedding date for Oct. 31, 2008 after which my divorce will be finalized I hopewe found that love can come in some of the most unpredictable ways we started out as fu*k buddies and turned out to be perfect for each other my family loves her unlike my soon to be ex-wife and ex-girlfriend and I found someone that does love me and won't hurt me and her name is Wendy I love her more than
Life Part 23
Yesterday was really good for the most part except for my mini nervous break down over me being insecure.
Both my boys had great days at school. They came home in a good mood. I made a really good chili for dinner that everyone was happy with. It was the best one I ever made. Then watched television with Peter.
I told him I wanted him to take a shower early so we could go to bed early. I had plans! We were in bed by 9:00. The boys had gone to bed early too so it makes it easier.
I had one thing on my mind...sex! I kissed Peter a few times and then guided his head down below! Of course, this turns him on more then anything. Knowing how bad I want it. So we are in the middle of having great sex. Many different positions. At one point, he has my legs up in the air and I hear a knock on our bedroom door. We both panic because the door is not locked. So he jumps over to the side and we pull the sheets up over us as fast as we can. It was Ashton and she opened up th
If you knew me you would know I stand for my friends. If you knew me you would know that I do not leave my friends behind. If you knew me you would know that I have an open heart
HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS THAT LIFE THROWS AT YOU?
I WENT HOME THIS PAST WEEKEND AND I THOUGHT MY BOYFRIEND WOULD BE HAPPY TO SEE ME. WE HAVE AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP WHERE WE SEE ONE OTHER PERSON THAT EACH ONE KNOWS ABOUT. I THOUGHT I WOULD SURPRISE HIM AND LET KNOW THAT I WAS HOME WHEN I GOT THERE. SINCE I HAVE BEEN GONE(ATTENDING COLLEGE AND ONLY BEEN GONE FOR 3 WEEKS) HIS WHOLE ATTITUDE HAS CHANGED.
WELL WHEN HE FOUND OUT THAT I WAS HOME HE CALLED AND SAID THAT HE WOULD BE OVER. YEAH HE CAME OVER AND STAYED 30 MINUTES THEN OUT THE DOOR HE WAS GONE. AND HASN'T REALLY CALLED SINCE I BEEN BACK ON CAMPUS.
HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT THAT? IT USED TO HURT BUT IT DOESN'T HURT ANYMORE. I HAVE TWO OTHER MEN OUT THERE THAT ARE TRYING TO STEP UP AND TAKE HIS PLACE.
Life's Short Enough
HEY EVERYONE.NEED NOT TELL YOU LIFE IS A SHORT RIDE.SO EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT ONE.
Life And What Its Worth
Sometimes I think we live through things only to be able to
tell them, to bear witness, to say this happened.
And it wasn't to someone else. It was to me. And I lived despite it.
Sometimes I think we live to beat the odds. And sometimes I agree
that life can only begin with the knowledge of death. That it can all
end, even when you least want it to.
It's scary...and lucky...how much we can forget. Scary because we think
the past gives us our bearing, and lucky because in those moments I'm
talking about, you realize it doesn't. And it never had to.
I am not a crazy , even though they mistook me for one. I live in
the same world as the rest of you.Only I saw more of it.
And the seeing is the only way you can hear what the truth around you
is saying: you can always start believing in things you don't
already believing in. And, while you're alive, it's never too late.
I promise you, No matter how bad the days and things around you
look, they look better awake than they
Life Part 24
Good morning or afternoon or evening? Some of you are a couple hours away and some are many hours away.
It is kind of funny, for being a great week for the most part, it feels like the week is dragging. Does it to you? It feels like it should be at least Thursday! haha
I was so tired last night that I got into bed around 8:30 and watched some tv for a while until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. (so no sex) I wake up a lot during the night because of the pain in my neck so I am not sleeping to well. I roll Biofreeze on my neck before I go to sleep and it wares off a few hours later and the pain starts all over again. I thin it is time to go to a doctor or something? Maybe chop off my head? Could be an idea! :o
My son Christopher had a birthday last month and got a lot of money as gifts. Seemed to be all he got which is cool for a kid at 12. So he decided yesterday morning by looking at an add from the news paper that he wanted his own set of tools. I am not ta
Life Part 25
Wow, I am so not happy with my son's school. I have had issues with his principal in the past. She tends to be a hypocrite! I have had issues with teacher's in the past. But I have had it now! This is the last year at this school and I am so happy about that.
My daughter started kindergarten there. It was a great school back then. All 3 of my kids have gone there. Over the years though, the school has gone down hill. A lot of the good teacher's left and the wonderful principal we had left a few years back. I was tempted to move him to a different school but it isn't so easy and there has to be an opening and it has to be during open enrollment time! I decided to keep him there for the remaining years so he could stay with his friends.
I had gone to so many different schools when I was young. I went to 7 different schools from K-6th! So making friends and keeping them was quite difficult and believe it or not, I used to be very shy. No, we were not military either.
finding a bit of a different way these days...
'cause at heart i love my chaos
but it takes me out too far
eyes gain shade, mind can blur
yet what i want...
to be that liminal creature
who looks best at dawn and dusk
who wakes with a smile
to wax poetic over coffee
throws good deeds at the day and spins
fueled by smoke and fire
into the night
but this my body now disallows
and 'yes' can't be my constant reply
purple hair in the light...red up close
what to say if anything, or how to fill in the air
then we fell back again and listened to the talk
words of happy or go lucky or you fill it in
'leave some balance baby'
overheard in a day lit bar
on purple brick wrapped by black iron
spoken by a boy in black
hair pulled by nervous, or anxious, or just plain bored hands
maybe just the need to do something, subconcious action made by overmoving mind hand
then he came
that gap toothed smile well spaced friend
the one filled with to
So here is a question for all those ladies out there. Why are so many scared away from a single father? Have to be a good person or they would not be the single parent right? Well thought I would start with a thought provoking question and see what I may just get start.
OK LIKE CHECK THIS OUT. . . I HAVE BEEN AROUND THE BLOCK A FEW TIMES, AND I KNOW ALOT, BUT STILL WILLING TO LEARN.
THE WAY I SEE IT IS LIKE THIS, PEOPLE GO AND DO THINGS IN CYCLES, RANGING FROM THE TOTALLY ABSURD TO THE MUNDANE. FOR EXAMPLE THE MOST RECENT POLITICAL DEBAUCLE OF SPITER, WITH A HIGH CLASS PROSTITUTE, NOW TURNED INTERNET STAR.
I AM TOTALLY SO FREAKING TIRED OF OUR ELECTED OFFICIALS, GETTING CAUGHT EITHER IN SOME KIND OF SCANDAL, OR WITH THE WILLIES CAUGHT IN SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE ELSE.
I PRAY AND HOPE THAT WE CAN ELECT SOMEONE WHO WON'T THINK WITH HIS, OR HER GENITALS, AND THINK WITH THERE HEADS ON THEIR SHOULDERS, AND NOT IN THEIR PANTS.
AS A SIMPLE PERSON, WHO JUST SEE WHAT THE WORLD IS FROM READING BOOKS, AND WATCHING THE NEWS, MAYBE I HAVE BECOME A BIT JADED OVER THE YEARS, BUT THAT'S . . . . . HOW I SEE IT
OK PEEPS I LIKE CHECK THIS OUT, I AM HERE TRYING TO DO MY OWN THING AND LIKE ALL SORTS OF WORKING FOR MY OWN SELF OF WELL BEING.
My ex Josh Bradburn, is taking my kid to West Virginia and I will never be able to get pictures of him unless I was to move there with them....well I dont think so. I am not getting used like trash again. I am through with my kid being used as a door mat. I dont mean to sound like a bitch but I am sorry. Its cold and the sports are the shit. The weather sometimes sucks but I can get used to it. I am looking for the best songs to put on my page so if you have something that I might listen to let me know...I am into pretty much everything.
Life Part 26
I am just not feeling good today. I felt pain in my neck all night which made it difficult to sleep and I woke up this morning with a massive headache. I am really tired of this pain. But...do I call the doctor? no. not yet anyway. I just haven't had the best luck with doctors. I love my ob/gyn and my kids pediatrician but other than that, hasn't been a good thing.
I have been blah all day. Went and got my hair cut and colored earlier and it looks great but I feel so tired and lethargic. I have been sitting here working like a busy little bee but I would much rather be laying in my bed right now.
I am going to call the doctor right now! Martin keeps telling me to see a physical therapist and I need to. So, I am making the call right now!
Okay, just got off the phone with them. They tell me there are no available appointments for the next 2 weeks! What is up with that? Someone is supposed to call me back within the next 2 days to hopefully fit me in. This is on
Lord help me...i need strength....or should i be asking satan for help?...im tryin to sleep today...i had a rough night at work...my phone starts ringing...its the nurse where my daughter is at...she has been admitted to an inpatient unit where we live for those that dont know...she is throwing a hissy fit over a shirt she cant wear...because she wants to let her boobs hang out...she is being disrespectful to every one and i can hear her in the back ground...the nurse tells me she cant wear the shirt...im like cool...and all the while i hear her talkin like a crazy person in the back ground...i told them to make her take the shirt off and i will bring it home with me when i visit on sunday...i go back to sleep....10 minutes later i get another call...they had to take her down by force because she wouldnt take the shirt off and put her in the time out room.....so i gave up tryin to sleep...some one say a prayer for me....i dont know what the world has come to that kids have to be ass ho
Life Isnt Fair
Everyone is asking me what is wrong. I have some personal issues going on in my life. Yes Im truely hurt I never knew anyone could ever treat me so poorly, with dis respect and such hatred. When it has involved my heart and my childrens hearts I know it is time for me to move on. All of you that I talk to on a regular basis know my yahoo ID and I will be on and off there I will keep my fubar page for now but I feel very dead inside and dont know what to say to anyone. My TRUE friends Please get with me on yahoo.
Isnít life interestingÖ
Today my son, Chad, age 10 was playing football at school
During recess, flag football of course, (YEAH RIGHT)
Only to have a so called friend tackle him grab him by the shoulders
And slam him to the ground. Little did his friend know, that my sonís leg was now behind his own back.
Me being a single mother of two, work becomes a very important thing.
I am a substitute teacher, I have been for 3 years, I truly love what I do.
I have been with the school corporation for 10 years. I always shut my phone
Off in the morning before going into work. I worked at one school this morning and just
Arrived at another school to start my day in the afternoon. I was talking to the teacher I was
About to replace for the day, and all of the sudden, my cell starts ringing, puzzled by that, Iím like
Wow, that is weird, I had my phone shut off. I grab the phone to turn it off and see that
My sonís school is calling. I quickly answer, only to find the se
Life Part 27
Well, I went to the doctor yesterday. I found out that I have a tine tear in my muscle in my neck that needs to heal on it's own but I have not been letting it heel. I was told that I have to stay in bed for 2 days and do nothing. No computer, no work, no anything! I am breaking his rule at the moment but just wanted to tell everyone why I won't be on for a couple of days.
I am on a strong anti-inflammatory and muscle relaxers that I have to take 3 times a day so I am going to be out of it.
If my neck isn't better within 2 weeks, then I will do physical therapy. Apparently it has to calm down first! lol
So I hope all of you have a nice weekend.
Life Must Go On
i have to leave for a while i have magor family drama going on and its takeing it toll on me i will be back on and off to hello to every one
TO ALL MY FRIENDS ON HERE.. SORRY I HAVE BEEN VERY DISTANT AS OF LATE.. ITS BEEN A REAL HARD ROAD FOR ME. LOTS OF STRESS AND DEPRESSION LATELY.. WE HAVE LOST A BABY COUSIN THAT WAS ONLY A YEAR OLD.. IT'S STILL UNDER INVESTIGATION AS TO WHAT HAPPENED... ITS NOT EASY FOR US AT THE MOMENT...
WE ARE MOVING IN STRIDES TO TRY AND HEAL THE HURT THAT IS SO UNBEARABLE.. ITS TAKING TIME... AND A LOT OF ENERGY. PUT WE ARE DOING THE BEST WE CAN. I DON'T THINK THE HURT IS EVER GOING TO STOP..
ALSO JUST THE STRESS OF DAILY LIFE SEEMS TO BE MAKING IT WORSE.. I AM JUST THANKFUL FOR THE FEW GOOD CLOSE FRIENDS I HAVE.. AND MY FAMILY I HAVE THAT CARES..
I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW WHY I AM NOT REALLY MYSELF... I ALSO LEFT THE FREAK SHOW FAMILY.. A LOT OF STRESS HAS BEEN TAKEN OF ME FOR THAT.. I LOVED THE FAMILY AND I HELPED CREATED IT. BUT THE LOVE AND BOND THAT WAS THERE WHEN IT WAS STARTED ISN'T THERE ANYMORE..
NO ONE CARES IF ANYTHING HAPPENS AND NO ONE TRIED TO HELP ANYONE ELSE.
Life And Lies
i know many guys have always wonder bout certian things. that the oposite sex saids to them. well i have decided to compose a list of things i have heard females say to me why they not take a chance on how they feel towards some one.
1. your to old
2. oh you to far away
3. you to young
4. im interested in you ( but then they come up and be telling some one else they love them)
i have heard all these things and ive been burn so many times but i still dont judge any one by their looks. by how far away they are. and specially of their age. as long they are legal.
now ladies i ask you this why would u not let the person know that u not interested instead of them look like a fool.
now me personally i will say this if i love someone it is gointo be with my heart not my body parts or how hot or sexy they look or their age now.
for once i wish a woman would accpet me for who i am. for the way i am, and for the way i live my life. im sry that i am a old fashion guy from t
Life has a funny way of doing things. It can give you the one you thought was the love of your life, take them away just to show you someone eles that you could be intrested in. Life affects and treats everyone diffrently. There is no way that we can judge another person by what they have done or was disitions they have made. We have not lived the life or know whats going through there head. No matter how many times and how many diffrent ways they try to explain things you can never know the hole situation. No mater how much u think you know someone or how long you have been in there lives your not there every second of every day. You wernt raised like them or experinced the good and bad things they have. All you can do is try to understand and move on. Whats done is done. The future is a hard thing to predict. It can be easy and everything can go right or the worst possible things can happen. Sometimes we have control of it and sometimes we just have to go with the flow. Either way ou
Life Or Somethin Like It
ummmm where to start. i am writing this with a heavy heart as my husband has passed away. no i am not jokin it is the truth. he had surgery yesterday and had a hard time in recovery but they still let him come home. and today he took his pain meds and layed down and never woke up. i tried to bring him back and so did the paramedics and the dr's at the hospital but it was to late he had been down for to long. i will be leavin his account open till the end of the month then i will delete it but i will still be here.
goin to end this now thanks for readin this i guess i just don't know what to do right now.
berta lynn 13's wife so after we drove all the way to where my dad was to get his treatment and it took us and hour and 45 mins to get there cuz of the weather and idoits who don't know how to drive (i mean come on people this is ohio we have snow 6 months out of the year) we find out that his last treatment knocked the cancer out for now and he don't have go b
Life Part 28
I am not supposed to be on the computer. I am not following what the doctor said. I can't lay in bed for another day.
The drugs I am on make me sleepy. they relax all my muscles, not just my neck.
What a way to spend a Saturday!
I wrote a blog a little while ago and then erased it. I was hurt and upset by something. again! Is it me? Must be. I just don't get it. I must be too emotional. I must be too attached. I must care too much. I don't now what it is?
So sorry if you went to the blog and it was empty. I just am a little confused and am on strong drugs right now. I am not even sure that this is going to make any sense.
Well, I hope all of you have a better weekend then what I am having. I hope to be better soon. Typing on the keyboard is a big NO NO so I will stop writing.
Life Part 29
I guess I should have listened to my doctor! I tried to lay in bed today but couldn't stand it any more. I have done some laundry. Then, the laundry was not folding itself so I had to hold it which then caused my neck to hurt again. I guess that was idiotic on my part? I just can't sit still for very long. So now my neck is in pain.
We are having friends over for dinner. Peter is making a yummy dinner. Steak with melted blue cheese on top with twice baked potato's and green beans. Henry helped Peter out today with the cabinets in the garage so I wanted to have them over for dinner to thank him.
I would love, love, love to have a glass of pinot nior with my dinner but it says no alcohol with my meds I am on. So I guess I need to be a good girl.
Anthony started driving school today. He has it this weekend and next for the education part of it and then he has to do 4 driving lessons before getting his driver's permit. He is excited. I will not be excited about the
Life Is Too Short Not To Laugh
You know none of us is guaranteed tomorrow......
Like Tim McGraw Sings...Live Like YOU Are Dying!
The older I get....Hey now comments on my age either......
Life get shorter and shorter......
Tell someone that you love them and say it and mean it.
Love you guys.....
Life In General
I work at Autozone and come home from work, yes my life is boring. If your life is pretty much the same let me know. THIS WOMAN SHOULD RUN FOR PRESIDENT!!! I'D VOTE FOR HER!!!
Written by a housewife from New Jersey and sounds like it! This is one ticked off lady.
"Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores onSeptember 11, 2001 ?
Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania?
Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they?
And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" w hen an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?... Well, I don't. I don't care at all .
I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those i
Life And Questions
ARGH! I have to move by friday of this week, and i STILL don't have a place. It's driving me insane! My parents won't let me move in with them, all of the friends that I would move in with live with their parents, and I don't have enough money to get my own place. This is getting seriously ridiculous. I don't know what the fuck to do. I'm starting to think that I'll never find a place.....and if that happens......I don't even want to think about it. All I wish is that some miracle would happen and I'd magically have a place to live. People say that love isn't an emotion....that it's an ability. Well, if that's the case, then why do people get so emotionally attatched to people they love? Just a question. I was in Seattle today doin my own thing. People watching mainly. I saw a couple that looked completely opposite of what they were supposed to look like. The girl, clearly a prep, was dressed in Abercrombie jeans, a pink hoodie, and Doc Martins (WTF?). The guy? The complete opp. He wa
Life Part 31
It is Monday, I get up and start my computer and it won't start. It tells me that I have to insert the disk because of system failure or something like that. So I am using my laptop which won't let me on msn because it says I have an old version. what does that have to do with anything? So at the moment, I am trying to download msn plus on the laptop. I also had been told that I am a jealous child which wasn't a good thing to wake up to. I suppose to some degree, I have been a jealous child. So far, today has sucked.
Do any of my friends not know I am married? That I have been married for 20 years? I hope all of you know that about me. I don't keep anything a secret. I am an open book and if there is anything any of you want to know about me, please ask. I write about my husband and kids in my blogs daily. They are my life.
I got some bad news from my youngest brother yesterday. So 2 of my brother's lives are falling apart. I feel like I am helpless and all I can d
Life Part 32
Oh boy what a morning and it is still 11:00 am! I got my computer to work, after unplugging everything and then taking the big dust ball off the back of the computer fan! My poor computer couldn't breath! So now it is working but I need to to a complete backup of everything before this happens again and it won't start back up! My work and life are on this computer!
I still need to open up the back and clean the dust out but will do that later after I back it up.
I need to walk on my treadmill. I haven't in days because of my neck and the doctor told me not to for a few days but really need to get back into the habit. It is hard to create the habit of exercise but so easy to get out of the habit!
I kind of feel like I have been through a lot lately. I am a strong, independent, stubborn, loving woman that has the will and tenacity to get through anything. I have been wearing my feelings on my sleeve lately and that isn't good. I guess it means I care too much about peop
I know many of you have wondered where I have been, or if I am still on the earth. But just to let you all know I am still alive. I have had some good advise come my way so along with work, I am going back to school and working on me. Getting over people and places and things thats been going on in my crazy world this is why I have not been online much and as far as the people who have requested that I delete pics done, let me know if theres any more you'd like me to delete. Anyway if you have the need to contact me please do it through my mail ( fu, yahoo, myspace, tagged, hi5) just so I make sure to get any and all messages from my good friends. I have missed most of you and if I dont talk or see most of you soon I want to wish you a Happy Halloween... bye till I come around
Dan Founder Of The Order Of The Dragon
P.S. Thanks to everyone who shown me love while I was away
So many things in life are taken for granted. I too had done that before, But no longer!! I
How did I end up in the psch ward for 2 days?
After me and my gf had our big falling out, she went to get the cops. I was so angry I got my rifle out and filled the clip, went 2 the bathroom and waited, shaking like a leaf. The police entered the house. When they got to my bathroom I had already drew down on them. I'm very lucky 2 be alive. God must have bigger plans for me, idk. After a 37 min standoff, I came out in cuffs. The officer I pointed my rifle at told me " You're not going to jail, you're gonna get the help you need. Not many people point a gun at the cops and live to tell about it. I feel like I was given a second chance to do things right and I intend on doing just that. My life as I know it has changed. Some of it for the better, some for the worst. For those who dont know me, I have a rare mental disorder called intermittent explosive disorder. I have trouble controlling my temper and impulses. I just got out of the hospital today after attempting police suicide. Me
Life Part 33
I get so frustrated with this site! Seems like so many problems and they never fix any of them. I really hate that when you log off, it shows you still on for an hour or more. Apparently, it shows me still on for many hours! Why? Why keep people logged in when they are not there? It makes people confused thinking you are there and ignoring them.
The photo glitch last week was a bad one. Then my pictures disappeared for a while and then when they came back, they were in the wrong folders and in the wrong order. How do pictures disappear?
Now, I go pick up my son from school and come back and I look at my crush and it is gone. I didn't delete him. And.....the 8 crushes on me are gone! I went to my crushes profile and it said 1 crush on him (me) and he had one crush (me) but it was not showing up in mine! So I re-crushed him.
I went into Fubar support lounge and they were no help at all. She tells me it is the first they had heard about it. Although, I did see som
Life Part 34
I am trying to switch it up today. I just had no desire to walk today. But....I did anyway. I walked for 15 minutes. So, now I will rest for 10 minutes and then get back on the treadmill and walk for another at least 15 to 30 minutes. I know it is good to switch up your routine, otherwise, your muscles get used to the same thing and it gets rather stale.
So hopefully when I get back on that thing, I will be more energetic to maybe jog on it? I am hoping so. Maybe I will try it 3 times. 15/10 off/15 on/10 off/15 on? See how that goes??
My son Christopher has not had a good couple of days at school. He has also lost his cell phone that I just replaced!!!!! Argh! He has always been so good about keeping his cell phone. I guess he lost it when playing tag at someones house. Hopefully it is found.
Anthony has been doing good. Keep your fingers crossed! lol
Okay, time for me to go get back on the treadmill, ciao~
Life In General
OK well i am at a turning point right now. Either I get myself headed on the right track or I never will. Family is Moving to Different states, Daughters are moving back in with their parents and I am here Somewhat lost not knowing what to do. I Need to work but not sure what i wanna do anymore. L A Hardbodies is where I will be working this weekend, but i want more than that. I have so many things I am good at but I just have gotten Lazy. And that is not something that I believe myself to be. So it's time to act my age cause i damn sure am not getting any younger....
Daddy It Hurts!
This Is a true story and If you don't pass this on you don't have a soul!!!
My name is Chris
I am three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I cant do a wrong
I cant speak at all
i wish i could get sum.i havent in long time. am i just that ugly. damn it. all i want is a lil bit of action. if anyone out there is interested let me kno.
All these memories
Distorted, confused, unaborted
As a product of
Circumstances granted existence
Bestowed to me
Give me closure
Searching for solance
Closure - am I still lost?
And so you've forgotten me
The boy devoid of your nursery
For these lifetimes gone by
I can't help question why
Through the years denied this
Searching for solance
Closure - am I still lost?
Tears gone uncried
And no face to relate to names to reply
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife
Left with just pages to which I confide
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife
Left with just pages to which I confide
Give me closure
Searching for solance
Closure - am I still lost?
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife -am I still lost?
Left with just pages to which I confide
Especially when the memories
Cut like a knife -am I still lost?
Left with just pages to which I confide.
I READ ALL THE LETTERS, I REA
Life Part 35
Oh, what have I started? My bedroom walk-in closet has become a catch all for everything! It was getting to where it was hard to put my clothes away after I washed them. I figured that I didn't do anything this morning and my morning was disappearing, I would actually spend some time doing something like cleaning!
I start pulling stuff out. Going through stuff that needs to be given for donation. So, now I can see my closet floor but...it is all on my bedroom floor now. LOL I need to put it in boxes or bags to give away. I still haven't even gone through the clothes that are on the big side now. I really didn't think I would be spending that much time in my closet but I think it has been a couple of hours off and on now. I think I am going to get rid of a bunch of shoes and clothes that I haven't worn in the last year and a half. I figure if I haven't worn then in that time, I never will so why hang on to them??
It is almost 1:00pm and I am still in my pajama's and no
I recently experienced a challenge that Life journeys throws at you. I almost lost the one person that is my life, besides our three kids we have together. And it was all over being honest.
How do you go from being a closed up person to a completly opened and honest person. My girl has always been completely opened and honest to me and now I almost lost her because of my past that I kept from her, when she never kept anything from me.
Any comments please feel free.
You know how people say if you get off the horse to always get back on the horse? Well I got knocked off the horse big time and the horse ran off. I know must people have their own sappy story about their life and such and heres mine.
When I was 19 I was diganosed with a heart diease. Something that could and still can kill me. I have had my head above water snice then. All of a sudden I get worse news a few weeks ago. The doctor had told me your liver isn't in good shape and I am afrid to tell you this but it might shut down bc of all the meds that you have been takeing. I was shocked when I heard this news. I mean I am 21 yrs old and I have two major organs in my body shutting down on me. My grandmother would say that I am just feeling sorry for myself and that I need to cheer up. Well With a life like I have lived for the past two years how can I have a positive out look on life. Then to top everything else off, two months after i got told about my heart condition, I was told
Life Part 36
Good morning. So I am in the hottest/sexiest Mom contest. 2 people are putting it on. Wildcat and Cherrybomb. I eamiled Wildcat about it but they put my picture under Cherrybomb. I went to my link and it said private!
She has the people in the contest private which is frustrating because the only way to see me and vote for me is to ask to be her friend! So I sent a request but she is not online at the moment. For all of you that are so kind to vote for me, you are going to have to ask to be her friend too in order to see the link.
I know I won't win, it is just fun. I know a lot of people out there "comment bomb" and that is all they do. I think we all have better things to do with our time. Just a comment here or there will make me feel good. It runs for a week I think?
I am really doing this because someone wanted me to. He says I am the sexiest Mom on Fubar and that was enough for me! It made my day!
So as soon as I get accepted to be her friend, I should ge
Well as most of you know my father passed away on 10-10-07 at 2:30 am. You would think that after the long battle and the sleepless nights that our family would finally manage to come together. And let my father rest in peace.
However there again this is my family we are talking about. My uncle who is the one handleing all the arrangements decided NOT to have a service of any type for my father.
He has decided that his ashes will be spread in New Hampshire (where dad did want them) and whoever could make it could make it.
What the freak. I am pretty much ready to explode right now seeing as this is going to be done on a sunday in which some of us have our children that have to go to school the next day. And also don't have that type of money available.
I find it sad that most of the family will not be able to say their final farewell to my father myself included. I just have to take comfort in the fact that I said what I had to when he was alive.
Anyways just had to ve
Life Part 37
It is Sunday morning. Lovely outside, cool but sunny. Fubar has had some major issues this morning but what else is new? They always do!
So, I have left some more comments on my picture for the contest. The one girl is so far ahead of me. She keeps coming into my picture and "checking" up on me. I have no idea why? It isn't like I can catch her or anything!
I am asking all of you to ask your friends to help me out. Please, every comment counts. I would like to come in at least second place. The girl that is winning has friends that are leaving bulletins saying that some of their family members are working against them for the contest for me. I have no idea who these people are and last time I checked, aren't we allowed to comment on who we want?
They are so worried that she is going to lose. I actually think they did this contest for her. Her "family member" is one of the persons that put on the contest and they are voting for her. Kind of funny. If you are putt
Unhappy But it came As No Really Shock.
I guess thats life.
He Knows he Lied
He Should Also know That, I'm no Longer For him..
I Wish Him The Best
Truly i Do.
I Hope hes as Happy As I Am.
Good Luck to you
Life Is Too Short
My cousin just passed away. she was only 26. remember to tell your loved ones how much you care. you never know. it could be the last chance you get. spend your time wisely. and remember
Live to Love and Love to Live
Life Part 38
Fubar has cut me off for the day. :( I was able to get about 625 comments on my picture today. I gave another person in a contest 25 comments. I really just want to come in second place. There is no way that "club F.A.R." is going to let me win this contest.
I personally think it is silly that they act this way but....it is their life I guess? They take it so seriously!
I am getting solid help from a few people. I need more. Anyone you know that would like to help out, please ask them. I wish the contest was only for 3 days! Why 10?? Damn long time.
Christopher had a great day at school today. Yippee! My other son, missing assignments again according to parentloop but I will let him show me the work before passing judgment.
I hope you are all well!
Wow, I just did over 300 comments this morning. I am so far behind that one girl. Yet she keeps checking up on me every chance she can get.
I need all of your help! I need all of you
Life Part 39
kay, so I am doing this contest. Just for fun. I don't care about any of the prizes. It was just for fun. Now the 2 women sponsoring the contest have turned it into something else.
I was leaving comments today for myself. Calling myself a point whore, calling myself a pimp. Just writing random things. Then talking to myself. Leaving messages that only me and Martin understand. The girl that is winning, comes and looks at my comments constantly. Many times a day. To me, that is stalking! Any way you want to dress it up, it is stalking. Then, she comes into my profile. Then, her "family" come into my profile one by one. Then they keep going into my picture, constantly. Then, I get 3 emails, 2 from Cherrybomb (host) and one from Wildcat (host).
This is what they wrote:
Them: I tried to shout at ya but I guess your shout box is family only,no one is spying on ya or stalking ya,please stop harrassing my family member,I'm sure you wouldn't like it if someone will
Life Is Short
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love Truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you Smile.
Life Is Good
Well now it is time for me to ramble. I have to do all of these interviews about my award. And it is amazing how some people in the media will try to take what a soldier does in a split second and microanalyze it. I just want peopl to know we do what we do in those brief seconds because we have no other choice and it is the right thing to do. Do I like shooting people? No. Was he going to kill me? Yes. It is that simple!
Life Part 40
This site has had its ups and downs since I have signed on to it back in February. It was new and exciting for a while. I met some great people on here as well. Without Fubar, i would have never met Martin and for that I am grateful.
I consider myself to be a nice person. I do anything for anyone and I don't like hurting people's feelings, at least not on purpose.
I had a miserable Fubar day yesterday with the whole contest thing. Having 4 people keep coming into my picture constantly to check up on me and then keep coming into my profile constantly. I consider that stalking! These ladies must have been afraid I was going to catch up to "their family member" in the contest. Accused me of bashing other contestants and the hosts. I will just say this, that is not what happened.
This is make believe. People can be anyone or anything on this site. Sad. I am who I am and I don't pretend to be something I am not on here. I tell the truth. I don't lie. I have a big
I gotta tell you what I'm feelin' inside, I could lie to myself, but it's true
There's no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I'm out of my head over you
I lived so long believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time
It's forever, this time I know and there's no doubt in my mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I'll be lovin' you forever
I hear the echo of a promise I made
When you're strong you can stand on your own
But those words grow distant as I look at your face
No, I don't wanna go it alone
I never thought I'd lay my heart on the line
But everything about you is tellin' me this time
chorus - yeah!
I see my future when I look in your eyes
It took your love to make my heart come alive
Cos I lived my life believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time
Life And Everything In It.....
According to studies, the first letter of your first name reveals your sexual identity ... What do you think? Repost this with the letter of your first name.
You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up front person. When it comes to sex, its action that counts not obscure hints.Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating. You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern.
You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very ha ppy to receive gifts as an ___expression of the affection of your love
Life's A Beach
Life is a beach that will teach you well
Between heaven and hell your soul for sell
Incoming tide is great you see
Outgoing tide leaves nothing for me
Tracks in the sand from all you know
Washed away quickly and some kind of slow
Wind in your hair and sand on your cheek
Life isnít easy and not for the meek
Shells on the shore are covered by storm
Only return when life is at norm
Wind is strong and the water is high
But when itís calm you simply get by
Life is a beach itís easy you see
High tide is simple, and happy, and free
Low tide is different and hard to contain
Pain and depression is hard to retain
Life is a beach and easy to read
Happy and sad together indeed
The tide is in and sometimes itís out
But itís always changing , with this thereís no doubt
Thomas Vern Ellison Jr.
Why oh why do people play mind games? I dont understand it or appreciate it.
In my other blog "regrets" I talked about this "friend". Well that so called Friend text'd me tonight and we've been fighting for hours.
He doesnt see my side of things. Its all about him. Funny 3 other people are totally on my side on this. Ugh!
I just wish he'd go away. Its obvious he doesnt care about me so why bother msg me?!?!?
Life Part 41
Well, I am getting a little discouraged about Fubar. The contest went bad, I was accused of things I did not do, and my comment ability was taken away. I have emailed 3 times to support and no one has bothered getting back to me. They just don't care.
Those 2 nasty women have written ugly things about me and that is okay because they are friends with Support. They can get by with what ever they want. So I enter what seems like a harmless contest and then all Hell breaks loose.
I haven't really even been on Fubar. Every time I log on and see no email back from Support, I get more discouraged. Sorry if it seems like I am ignoring you all but there really isn't much I can do on Fubar any more but blog and use the shoutbox that doesn't work 50% of the time.
It being Friday was supposed to be a good day. I get woken up by Peter at 5:30 in the morning with him searching for his wallet. He is tearing apart the house looking for his wallet. Keeps coming in the room, yell
Three Things that can never come back-
Three things in life that can destroy a person Ė
Three things in life that you should never lose-
Three things in life that are most valuable Ė
2. Family & Friends
Three things in life that are never certain Ė
Three things that make a person Ė
3. Hard work
Life's Little Annoynces
Life's Little Annoynces - things that drive a sane person nuts
* You have to try on a pair of sunglasses with that stupid little plastic thing in the middle of them.
* The person behind you in the supermarket runs his cart into the back of your ankle.
* The elevator stops on every floor and nobody gets on.
* There's always a car riding your tail when you're slowing down to find an address.
* You open a can of soup and the lid falls in.
* It's bad enough that you step in dog poop, but you don't realize it till you walk across your living room rug.
* The tiny red string on the Band-Aid wrapper never works for you.
* There's a dog in the neighborhood that barks at everything.
* You can never put anything back in a box the way it came.
* Three hours and three meetings after lunch you look in the mirror and discover a piece of parsley stuck to your front tooth.
Life Part 2
I am sitting at my desk working. Not something I like doing on the weekends but sometimes it is necessary. I pass back and forth to my step sister the accounting disk for work. We both work for my father. I am the lucky one that gets to work from home while she has to go in to the office every day! :p So I will spend a couple of hours today getting things I need done for the last quarter end of accounting, really boring stuff!
Yesterday, we didn't get an early start to our day but we ended up driving up to the mountains to Apple Hill. There are about 75 apples ranches up there where they sale pies and apples and anything you can think of to do with apples. They have it open all during apple season. Peter was really wanting to go this year and we haven't in a few years. The drive through the mountains is so beautiful this time of year! All the trees leaves are yellow or orange or red. So beautiful. We only ended up going to a couple of ranches but we had fun. It was so c
Life Of The Enigma
If I had to sum up this past weekend in one word, it would have to be 'insane'. As much as I don't look forward to the end of weekends, this has to be one of the few times I will make an exception.
Friday, I had the doctor in the morning. We reviewed what we were gonna do next and we set a date to start the next wave of chemotherapy: November 9th. He then said my blood cell levels (both white and red) were too low. He decided on giving me Neulasta that day and Procrit I will get later in the upcoming week. So from now until November 9th should be quite the trip! (Ugh!)
I ended up taking a long nap after that, and with good reason. I was doing an intervention on my brother. His girlfriend told me he is drinking again and he is getting worse, so she and I, as well as a handful of others he knows, went to talk to him. I haven't had a physical showdown with my brother in years, but we almost had one that night. He went to leave and I stood in front of the door. He put his
Recently, I had a very unfortunate thing happen. A woman with whom I was VERY close decided to end our friendship and to say the least, I am very sad that this happened. Now before I go much further, let me explain the relationship I had with this woman. We would email each other many, many times a day typically from about 8 AM until late at night. I traveled frequently and her emails saved me from many a boring night. I would share my very soul with her and I knew that I had nothing to fear. She shared her sorrow with me when her Mother died and her frustrations with friends & neighbors and even the dating scene. Though we lived in different States, we would meet periodically for lunch. All in all, I can say that I loved her but, unfortunately, she did not reciprocate. The long & short of it is that I wasnít her type. Oh and did I mention that she is drop dead gorgeous? Blonde, slightly taller than me, VERY statuesque and her smile never failed to make my heart skip a beat.
Life is to short for games ,lies an evil alibis in my life I have been through to much an loss to many so when I say I love you I mean it completely we in all hesitate cause we are afraid to lose but once you hesitate you might miss out on whatís true so listen to what I have to say hesitation prevents opportunity in this world today so say what you feel show how much you care let the ones you love know you will always be there cause no one knows when our time will end an when you realize its to late then you see why you should not hesitate........
Life Part 3
I am sitting here at my desk sweating profusely. I had a good fast walk and then ran longer then I ever have before. I am so hot. I figured I would write before getting in the shower so I can cool off a bit.
I always find that the faster the music is on my ipod, the easier and faster I walk.
I am feeling a lot better today. I was so tired yesterday and it lasted all day long until I went to sleep. Not sure what my problem was? I am not sick so that isn't it.
Last night, I was watching a recorded show (I never watch live tv anymore) and the doorbell rang. Peter answered it and it was a woman and her son with an electric car in his hand.
I have seen the kid before because I have given him a ride home from school and I know he lives a street over from us. The woman was wanting to talk to Christopher who was in the shower at the time. This woman was going on and on about her son's tires on his car, that Christopher had given them to him but another boy told him Chri
Most people always wonder when they're going to die, but do you ever wonder how you're going to die? There are a lot of ways to die, whether it's trying to put a cue ball in your throat and trying to get it back up not knowing that the cue ball is bigger than the other billard balls, or a sword swallower trying to deep throat an umbrella and accidentally opening it while it's in the throat or my favorite, being high on mushrooms and having a hallucination of people dress up as animals for an animal orgy and trying to get frisky with a bear not knowing it's real, and getting mauled by it. I have to warn the females about this one...don't get frisky with a carrot. Anyways, have any of you heard of any strange deaths? I know a lot of people like to or wantt o believe in a lot of things, but I'm what you consider a "non-believer" some of things I don't believe in might be controversial, and I know† a lot of you will disagree with it, but everybody has their own beliefs, and I respect th
A lovely rose with petals soft
A scent so sweet and light
So beautiful a flower
With colors shining bright.
But something not so savory
About the fragrant rose -
The thorns, so sharp upon the stem,
That sharpen as it grows.
Yet still lovely is the flower
Despite the thorns that prick
Just as life and love are sweet
They too have thorns that stick.
But do not fear to live or love,
Life's not exempt from pain -
So pick a rose, you may get hurt,
But you will also gain!
My insanity exceeds this dream of extasy
Your hopes and wishes become your dirty dishes
My life of lives is dying tonight
My faith is gone
I have no one
All of these people around me
But ignorance is all I see
The shimmering light is dying tonight
Everything that was will never be
Everything that is will always be
Nothing is working out for me
My passion and virtuosity
Have become another hurdle for me
All of this stress has taken its toll
I have become weary and cold
You are judged by your appearance
But now I'm fearless
Closed minds make for weak people
And somehow I'm stuck in the middle
Life has its way of working out
But it also has its moments of doubt
With life comes uncertainty
Just let your demons out and set your self free
Everything's made to be broken
I wish I knew who I am
I don't think that you'd understand
I'm lost in my mind
In this dream of extasy you'll never find
Acidic questions are flowing like wine
I wonder, is
The saying that it is better to forgive is easier said than done, to some it comes easy, yet to others its a struggle. We go through trials in life and during our journey mistakes are made along the way and every s often we learn from them.
yet there are others who hold onto the the resentment and the pain because its all that we have, and if we let it go it would leave us with nothing.
and thats the scariest thing of all, having nothing to hold on to.
No love, no hate, no resentment or pain, only you..
whenever we feel like love has betrayed us and that there is no hope for the future it is almost inpossible for us to believe that love is out there waiting for us. I believe in true love yet for me it wasnt easy to find or accept it when that time finally came. I was stuck in the belief that the one I had lost was the only one for me and even though I hung on to him he moved on and fell in love with another. Angry and full of pain at the thought that I could be dismissed a
"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth."
I am 33 years old and you would think that by now I would know not to let myself fall for someone so fast. I should take it slow!!! I always meet these guys who are sooo sweet and they really seem to care and wanna get to know me and seem into me and my kids and then wham once I let myself fall something happens. Its like they purposely wanna hurt me of something. Who knows. I just need to know what to do to keep myself from getting into these guys. I seem to fall tooo easily and it just gets me hurt. Now i am a very friendly, kindhearted person and maybe thats whats wrong...i am tooo damn nice. Do i just need to go back to the way I was before and what I mean by that is to keep that wall up? I really think I should. I know I may let a few good ones get away but oh well....keeps me from getting hurt. I do these blogs to vent but am always open to some good advice. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am going to be deleting my account. Too much stuff going on here an
Life In General
Seek Not My Heart
Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?
Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?
Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?
Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.
It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.
It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.
No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.
Why does it matter what other people think about us? Should be feel bad about ourselves because other people dont like us? Why do we try to chang
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11 . Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their Journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything
Never say "I love you"
if you don't really care"
Never talk about feelings
if they arent really there
Never hold my hand if your gona break my heart
Never say you're going to...
if you never plan to start.
Never look in my eyes
if all you do is Lie
Never say "Hello"
When what you really mean is "Good-bye"
If you really mean forever...
You really would have tried.
Never say forever...
Cuz forever made me cry It isn't that I just woke up one day and realized that I fell out of love with him...
No that was not the case at all...
Its more like I had fallen in love with the MAN that he wanted me to believe that he was...
It just so happened that i realised that he never really was that man he is someone different... just someone else, someone that I knew but didn't fall in love with...
I hold out hope that someday, just maybe
maybe one day I will meet THAT man....
OK WELL NOT THAT MAN...
But someone that is atleast Honest an
Life Part 4
I am a bit tired. Woke up at 6:30 this morning after not sleeping well all night. My neck seems to be bothering me again. I felt the pain all night which isn't good. Time to make another doctor appointment and maybe this time he will set me up with physical therapy?
I miss my love so much. It feels like days since we have chatted. He is traveling now so it will be another day at least before we can talk. Sms is nice but online seeing him is better! ;)
Anthony has his drivers permit test this afternoon. I sure hope he passes it. Otherwise, he has to wait a week before he can try again. Then, he does one driving lesson with a company and then he can start driving with me and Peter....oh boy! I remember how scary it was the first time I had Ashton get on the freeway! I hope he is a good driver and cautious!
I have a lot of work to get done. Sales tax and stuff. I will be working all day.
Kiss Martin, love you!
Kiss and hugs!
Whoever came up with the phrase "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade" needs to try making it themselves because chances are they NEVER did, they just came up with the stupid saying. and you can't just make lemonade with lemons you have to add other things, to make it better so the person just needs to come up with a different saying THEN make sure it makes sense. The reason im rambeling about this is because sometimes i get overwhelmed with stuff and thats whats happening now. I also didn't exactly KNOW what to talk about so i just started making crap up because sometimes THAT is how I ROLL. lol ok im not making sense anymore so i'll just warn you now..THAT IS NORMAL. :P
Thats it for today.
Life Part 5
I am sitting here sweating, red faced and very hot. No, it wasn't from sex! I had such a good workout on the treadmill. Walking and running. I always have to cool down before getting in the shower or else I just don't seem to cool down. I know, I know...take a cool shower. But, I can't!
I feel so much better today! My neck was really hurting bad yesterday and I mad an appointment to see the doctor again tomorrow and he will sign me up for physical therapy. i am sure that is what I need to help it.
So glad you are back home safe love and thank you for sending me the text to let me know you were home. It made me feel loved and special.
I need to get in the shower. Badly! I am so sweaty. It is a good thing. I have not been in this good of shape and felt this good in years! Probably 8 years. That is a long ass time!
My son did not pass his drivers written exam yesterday and he was quite disappointed. Very upset. He can try again next week. I looked at the
Life Is Funny
well here i sit waiting to go to work and thinking about someone dear to me, who is far away. ok well actually 2 people. both i have feelings for but in different ways. 1 is an ex the other i am seeing where we will go, but both live far from me. other than family members who would have thought i could care for 2 people at once. the feelings for the ex are fading but still linger maybe because of our history and our kids, the other i met and we had a BLAST. so much so that i never wanted to end when it did, but will hopefully have more soon. oh well now i have to go to work and think about mainly 1 person til i can talk to him again!! you know who you are. sorry all i was just bored and needed to vent, but thanks for checking.
When I originally wrote this I was thinking of 2 people. now I am sitting here thinking about only 1 person in this blog. He has my heart and has since 1999,we have not been split up for too long, only about a year, I try to let him go but, somehow we always e
Life Part 6
I have worked so much today. I feel like I am ahead of the game. I am almost completely done with the 3rd quarter job costing.
I did sales tax yesterday and didn't send it in to my Dad to sign today which wouldn't have mattered since he didn't go to work today and is in Seattle at the moment and is not coming back until Monday night to turn around and go to Palm Springs on Wednesday for a week! I think he has retired but just forgot to tell me, Peter and Jennifer! lol
So I call him to ask him if he just wants me to sign his name to the Sales tax form and he said yes. I hate forging but it was a must. So I practice my Dad's signature and it looks pretty good. Then I go to sign the Tax form and it looked so bad! It does not look like his signature at all. Oops. He can just tell them he was drunk at the time of signing it if it is questioned! hahaha
Speaking of lies!!! I found out something today about some guy that used to be my friend on Fubar. When I deleted my
I took this from http://www.fubar.com/user/852813
We all need to read this one over and over until it becomes part of who we are!
HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Try everything twice. On Madams tombstone (of
Whelan's and Madam) she said she wanted this epitaph:
Tried everything twice..loved it both times!
2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down. (keep this in mind if you
are one of those grouches;)
3. Keep learning : Learn more about the computer,
crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain get
idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the
devil's name is Alzheimer's!
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp
for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you
laugh, spend lots and lots of time with HIM/HER.
6. The tears happen: Endure, grieve, and move on. The
only person who is with us our entire life, is
ourselves. LIVE while you are
To my fu bomber family and all my friends..I have hit rock bottom at the moment. As of Wednesday I no longer have a home. I got evicted in court today. The judge was not nice and made me cry in the courtroom, because I love my pets. I told him I would find another place for them to stay, but he said I only have unti Wed Jan the 7th to be out. I also have to be back in court and prove that I cleaned the place up. So farewell for now..I will hopefully be back in touch with everyone soon... Muah and take care. I thought I had found something good, but it was a stopping place in my life. I knew it was wrong to begin with, but I needed the break in my life. I did come back to my husband. I had hoped they would change, but he did for about 3 weeks.
I did find out however that I am stronger and more beautiful than what I thought I was. I now know that I can make it on my own if I have to. I also found that I have more friends than I had thought.
Life sucks sometimes... I have given up
Life Part 7
The weather is turning again after having a rather warm week. I am glad it is getting cooler. The air has been dry and the wind warm. It makes you feel like everything inside your nose and throat are dry. It has not helped with Southern California either. It seems as if all of Southern Cali is on fire. My brother in law went down Monday to help fight the fires and apparently was up for 3 days straight doing so.
I have not been myself today. I opened up an email from school and it stated that my son Anthony has failed 2 classes, math and english. So I was quite upset since the grades for the quarter end today. I was quite upset to say the least. I am feeling like a failure as a parent at the moment. He had a minimum day for school today and called me to tell me he was walking home. I confronted him over the phone about his grades and he tells me that he has a print out of his grades and they are way better then what school loop says. So, I will just have to wait and se
So i met this girl and we've been out a couple of time. We get along very well and she asked me today if there could be something more to come with this relationship. and yes i could see more then just us "dating". The thing is I am only in town for another couple of weeks, she is married but says she is going to get a divorce, she has 2 kids (which is not a problem for me). She would never move because she doesnt want to take the kids from thier father. I honestly dont see how it could work out. I am thinking it would be better for me to end it before we get to emotionaly attached to each other. Or maybe i should just ride out the couple of weeks she'll be here cause i do like spending time with her. sucks that life cant fit perfectly into my world.
Life Gone Wrong
How do I get through one night without you? If I had to live without you, what kind of life would that be? Oh I need you in my arms, need you to hold...you're my world, my heart and soul." I am thinking about you
Even in my dreams you
are there in my soul
it won't let you out of my mind
There is nothing that
is going to stop it
until i am with you
feeling your touch
feeling your kisses
Wanting to feel
your warm breath
touching my skin
as you hold me as night
There will be nothing
in my life worth
fighting for until
I am with you
You are the sun
in my hair
the wind in my face
the air that i breath
You are the one
that means everything ot me
and my life won't be
complete until i am with
Holding you close to me
feeling the love
that both of us
so much need from eachother
Wakin up next to you
and having you smile
at me as you
kiss me that sweet morning kiss
There is only one
thing that i want
one thing i need
that is to be with you
Life Part 8
Okay, I am officially an idiot! I think I must be superwoman and can do shit by myself like oh...lift a California King size mattress by myself! Um, does anyone know how much they weigh? HEAVY! Ours also has extra weight on it because it has a 4" thick memory foam pad on top of it.
Let me back up here. I bought new bedding about a week ago, probably longer. We wanted (I) a change. Sick of the palm tree look for our bedroom and wanted something a little more exciting! So we bought a cheetah print! Yes, pretty wild. I have been wanting to change everything but Peter wanted to wait to do it so we could paint first. The cheetah print doesn't go with yellow and green walls! He wants to retexture the ceiling and walls before he paints because he never liked the way it was done the first time. So this is going to be a huge project.
Well, little impatient me is sick of looking at the bedding in the bag still. I want it out on my bed! I had to get a new black bed skirt,
Life In General
Ok guys I need your help. My honey just joined and I need you all to go add/rate/fan him. Thanks guys So things are going pretty good for me lately. Granted I work at wal mart...not the greatest job in the world but life is good. I finally go full time in two weeks. Isaac is spending the day with me. And driving me up the wall. And of course the child won't tell me what he wants to eat...grrrr...So my ex husband shows up at my job the other day and acts like a total jerk. Nothing new there. But did he have to do it at my place of employment?? Oh wait...og course he did!! Anything to piss me off!!! OK I think I'm done ranting now...but life is good other than the drama with the ex...
Life And Such
When I was a kid in my mid-teens, my sister who is 4 and a half years younger than me, would steal stuff from her family to give to her friends. In later years, she would snub her family to help her friends.
We, my wife at the time and myself, were living with a friend in Texas when her electricity went out, My nephew and her son blew the box on the pole. It was going to cost $3000 to fix and for some reason the city would not fix it, even tho it was their box on the pole.
Well, my friend was my ex-girlfriend and my sisters best friend. When we lost power, my wife was about 3-4 months pregnant. My sister took in her best friend and her two sons, one was 10 and the other was 15. Meanwhile, we were had no where to live but in a trailer with no electricity and no heat. I was working, but was making only $6 an hour, and being in Texas, the rent was more than we could afford in every place we looked at.
During this time, we were watching my friends dog. The trailer got infested wit
Life Is Great
Christmas is my favorite time of year. I think it is that way for many people. I find that people are kinder and more thoughtful at Christmas.
This weekend we are decorating the apartment and our tree. I remember the first year that my husband and I were married, he came home from work to find the whole apartment turned into a winter wonderland. He wouldn't let me put the lights out for 3 days. We have put together a village that we add things to almost every year. Only when money was really tight could we not do it.
When I was a child, money was always tight. My mom did the best she could (my mom and dad divorced when I was young). I remember the first Christmas that we were alone, my mom took us to buy a tree. It was so tall that it stood up by itself. She spent an hour trimming the stump with any tools she could get her hands on.
I always tried to make Christmas the best it could possibly be. I began a new tradition of making my family tree ornaments that I paint and de
Just want to thank everyone who took the time out to vote and comment on my Mumm.:):)This was my first global ya'll
Much love to ya!!!! The joys and sorrows of living,
often brings up feelings untold.
You try but you can't deny it,
because it lives within us all.
Happiness is expressed by laughter,
tears is a symbol of pain.
What it does to you as a person,
Is sometimes hard to comprehend or explain.
kizzy Sometimes in life you just need to sit by and let the you care about make their own mistakes and hopefully learn from them.
At this point although i care and is very concerned about my sis she has her own life to live.As the saying goes how ever u make your bed you have to lie in it. I don't think there is anything else i can say that i already haven't.
I have my own life and that of my family to be concerned with.
Life Is Rough And Tough
I am in a contest for a 30 day blast!! I need 35,000 pts to win. comments count as 1 pt and 5 pts per rate!!!! I got a late start to the contest due to moving into our new house!! Any and all help will be appreciated!!!!
for all my fubar friends and family, sorry I have not been around much to rate and comment everyone. But my life has been really hectic the past few weeks. My middle brother Steve (who just turned 49) was diagnoised with colon cancer and went through 2 surgeries(one would have done except the first surgeon screwed up big time) and it has been a big strain on all envolved. Hopefully things will settle down and I can be there for everyone in fubarland!! thanks for reading my venting, but isn't that what blogs can be for too?!! Have a good one everybody!!
I have had the luck of meeting someone, that seems to be going ok, but for the last few days, has been stressful, because they are having personal problems. I am trying to be patient.. and yet, my heart is being torn right now, because it didnt end on a good conversation earlier tonight. I'm hurt and sad right now, and there isn't a damend thing I can do about it. The whole situation they are going thru is out of my hands, so I feel like I am right smack dab in the middle of it... Yeah, I am sure that all made a bunch of sense, considering, I took Fiorinal for my headache, but I just needed to get it off of my chest, which it seems to do no good, regardless. Why is it when you tell someone how you feel, you get shot down or they get pissy at you?
Life's Hardest Moments
on the 19th of november we had a very close family members father pass away and, at the same time i was in sacramento with my daughter as she was trying to give birth, in which she finally had to have a c section and our baby was born with problems, now in my heritage of native american, when one old soul/spirit passes there's a birth for that spirit to go to, but you see my dilema is this i was not able to be there with my best friend to comfort him when he needed his friends and at the same time i was where my child needed me to be, i just dont think that i can get passed the feelings of guilt. My friend was there for me when my mother passed and i will eternally love and respect him for this , its rough to figure out the reasoning of all this, stop by my page and view the awesome tribute he drew in respect for his father
Life,how can you describe it.We have our ups and downs,we fall in love and we fall out of love,we hate and we forgive,we prosper and we fail. Unfortunately for me my life right now feels like someone kicked me in the balls and i don't want to get up but i know eventually things will feel better and i will walk again(a little sore though).Things are ment to happen when we least exspect it for the better or the worse.But the problem is we ask why and stay down for a long time instead of looking at the good things or people that have entered our life.
Just one of those days when i wonder what Im doing and why? I mean really who did i piss off to get such bad luck...oh well life goes on I think LOL THIS IS MY DAUGHTER BRITANI SHE HAS BEEN MISSING SINCE 930AM OCT 16TH THURSDAY MORNINg. SHE WAS LAST SEEN IN DES MOINES IOWA WEARING BLUE JEAN MATERIAL CAPRIS, A LONG JOHN BLACK SHIRT WITH SKULLS AND CROSSBONES AND BROKEN RED HEARTS AND COULD ALSO BE WEARING A GRAY HOODIE WITH FADED BLACK PERMANENT MARKER WRITING ON IT. SHE IS 5 FOOT 7 ABOUT 180 LBS GIVE OR TAKE blue eyes and brown hair . IF YOU SEE HER please EMAIL ME CALL MY CELL 515 993 0331 or the police thanks
Rejected at birth for my lack of noble worth
Chaos incarnate let loose upon this earth.
A serious union of love& rage victoms of doubt despite thier age.
Trial& hardships pay for your right
another life given that never sees the light.
Abandoned like an old minners claim
Another adoliscent casuality with a long list of blame.
Rage my most common alie, Sorrow like a cancer within
Self destructive by nature alive on the outside & dead within.
Seduced by the posibality of beating inevetability
Taunting the deamon that darkend my days
My mental health needs mental help an S.O.S sent but never delt why am i wasting away. alive on the outside still dead within..
Rejected at birth for my lack of noble worth
.Chaos incarnate let loose upon this earth.
.A serious union of love& rage victoms of doubt despite thier age.
Trial& hardships pay for your right
another life given that never sees the light.
Abandoned like an old minners claim
Another adoliscent casuality with a l
As many know i had surgery back on the 12th *yay me right?* so anyway im doing well and recovering i desided to come sit on fubar for a few just to see how long i can sit at the computer without hurting i learned not very long lol ive been sitting here for about about 45 mins and my leg is swollen like woo so im gonna get off here and go put itup im not wanting to push myself but i do wanna get back on my feet asap so you all have fun out there and all that jazz!
Oh ya my bday is 20th and i'll be down and out yay me again lol oh well my bday has never been a good thing since i turned 13 so maybe this is a good thing oh well im gone now for real have fun yall! Life as it stands now and the world in general (not the ppl) sucks...that is all
oh wait my friends here you all rock sorry ive been away hard to get net time with a 4pm to 1am shift and all anyway im going to bed its 430 so party hardy if you are if not go back to bed! Well as many of you know i finaly got the date for my
Life Or Something Like It 1
Today is the kind of Monday that you think "ugh,,,it's Monday, do I have to get up?" I didn't sleep at all last night. My stomach hurt all night long and kept me awake. I went to the movies yesterday and ate popcorn and that is what upset my stomach.
I saw "Things Lost In A Fire" with Halle Barry and Benicio Del Torro. It was a good movie. About a woman who's husband was killed for trying to save a woman from being beat up and the best friend of her husband whom she hates, she tries to save from drugs. Complicated....a bit. The cinematography was done beautifully.
I was sitting there watching Benecio, he is someone I have always loved watching. There is just something about him. He usually plays a dark character in movies. But as I was watching him and looking at his face, I realized who he reminds me so much of. My brother Kevin. Especially in this role. Handsome but insecure, self loathing and the drugs. My brother used to have a drug problem for many years.
why is it that all people want to do is treat the people closest to them like shit and expect to be treated like gold. Someone very close to me keeps promising to open up cuz they are like a brick wall and keep everything in well she was suppose to open up three days ago and still hasnt. you know some people want you to back off before they open up.which i can understand but when i back off i get nothing. if you make a promise then keep it if not dont make it cause all that makes you is a liar. why say your gonna do something then not do it. you know this person wanted me to back off and i did and diddnt say anything about her promise for three days and nothing has been said. then to top it all off this person has a fubar page and has all these pictures, now let me remind you she is the most important person to me, and there is not one picture of me anywhere on her page. thats bullshit how can you be close to someone and not even admit that they mean something to you no matter how much
Life Is Hell
Fuck Bullshiters, Fuck Assholes, Fuck Drama, Fuck Life!!!! I'm tired of this stupid living in this stupid world of nothing but lies, betrayals, broken trust, and pain. Fuck it Im done!!! This constant pain of living, the constant hurt of being fucked over, the constant broken trust, its nothing but damned bullshit. Is there any reason other then to destroy our own selves for living in this damned Hell Hole???? Isn't there at least one night I could actually sleep, and if so sleep well???? I'm damned tired of it all. There's nothing but pain, nosice, hurt, sleepiness...... nothing but destroying ourself it seems..... Yes I have problems sleeping, and yes I have depression, but still I try to live in this damn Hell Hole we cal life on Earth..... doing nothing but destroying it and ourselves...... Enough is Enough I think...... I've hade it with Life and all its stupidity....... if there isn't anything outher then damned stupidity here in our lives then what kind of life do we have???? Fu
Life As A Mutt
I guess I like it when we play
(The way you drag me down)
I guess I like it when you hate me
(The way you drag me down)
ĎCause I canít face myself in a mirror
(Iím left alone with all my pain)
And I disgrace myself in the mirror
(Iím left alone with my shame)
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! Iíll heal you in me
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! Iíll heal you in me
I guess I like it when we fight
(The way you drag me down)
I guess I like it when you smite me
(The way you drag me down)
ĎCause I canít face myself in a mirror
(Iím left alone with all my pain)
And I disgrace myself in the mirror
(Iím left alone with my shame)
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! Iíll heal you in me
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! Iíll heal you in me
Youíre out of luck - canít get a piece of me
Itís all blown up. Donít even fuck
Life Or Something Like It 2
My son has not had very good luck with his cell phone lately. I got him one about 2 years ago when he was 10. He needed it so I could call him and know where he was if I needed to get a hold of him. It was more for me then for him.
He did really well with it for the first year and a half. Never lost it and kept it in good condition. Until....September. His brother told me that Christopher's phone was broken. So, I have insurance on the boy's phones which is probably a rip off. I pay $3.99 a month to have the insurance and you can only use it 2 times within a year. When you do lose a phone or it gets broken, you call and they send you a refurbished one! They charge you $50 for the phone and charge you $36 for turning the phone back on. So I did this, get the phone and then Christopher tells me his old phone isn't broken. Anthony just thought it was.
So he has his new phone for a week and it stops working. I send it back and they send another one. He has it for a wee
Life Of A Child
100 years from now it will not matter what my bank account was,the sort of house I owned,or the kind of car I drove...but the world may be different because I was important in the life of a child."
I know I haven't been around here for a while but I was trying to spend as much time as I could with my dad. He has now passed away. It doesn't make it any easier knowing that this day was coming. I am grateful he isn't suffering anymore, the last few days were such a struggle for him.
Might be awhile before I will be around again.
Susie Today my dad was discharged from the hospital and sent to a rehab facility. When I walked in there with him my heart fell in my chest. The place was disgusting. It was old, smelled and just plain gross. There was no way in hell I was letting my dad stay there! I wouldn't even leave my worst enemy there. I immediately got on the phone with my dads Dr and insurance. After a major fit on my part I got him into another one which where he went before when he had his first amputation. The administrator of the first facility wasn't too happy with me, but frankly I really don't care.
So everything is going well with him and hopefully stays th
Life...love...and All That Junk...
I am not looking for a boyfriend. I want a guy that I can talk to and get to know. Take things slow. If we become more in time, so be it. But right now I am in a very emotional state. My boyfriend who I thought would be there for me when I needed him, wasn't. But instead broke up with me because for the first time, I needed him even though I was always there when he needed me which was all the time. I would just like to have someone to talk to that will care about me and not just pretending to care. I am tired of people taking advantage of me because I am a very caring person. I'm not doing it anymore. If you are a good, caring guy that is sincere, send me a message. Thank you for reading this. Blessed be. I haven't seen my boyfriend in over 2 weeks. I have been very understanding. Now when I ask him if I will see him this weekend, there is yet another excuse. Fuck it! I'm giving up on him. I told him I will try to find a way there so he don't have to drive here. I'm sure there will be
Life Is A Gift!!!!!
Today before you say an unkind word -
Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who we nt too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children -
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive -
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job -
Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.
And when de
Life Or Something Like It 3
I won't be on much today unless my neck starts feeling better. It started hurting worse then it ever has in the middle of the night. I think it might have been from me doing my arm exercises while walking on the treadmill yesterday. I won't be doing that for a while! Kiss Martin, love you.
ciao Oh, I see my favorite Fubar psycho is doing the Happy Hour, oh joy! haha
Well, yesterday was eventful. I took my son to go take his written drivers test yesterday to get his permit to start driving with a trainer and us. He has to have 3 lesson's with a professional. Not sure how professional they are but...we have to pay $89.00 for each lesson. Luckily I already paid everything up front.
He passed his test this time. Congratulations! I think the questions on the test are so stupid. Why do they feel the need to put trick questions on the test??
So I let him drive the car yesterday after he got it. He did pretty good. The only thing is he takes corners too fast. His fi
Next time you feel you have the perfect love, the perfect life ,the perfect job sitt back and remember why ,PAIN , HURT ,LOST LOVE, LIES ,DEATH, LOST JOBS,LOST FRIENDS, becuase without those things we would not know how to LOVE ,LIVE ,LAUGH,OR BE HAPPY so if youve been hurt and your not trusting your own feelings and your a little scared remember you cant be truly happy without a little hurt
Three things in life that, once gone,
never come back -
Three things in life that can destroy a person -
Three things in life that you should never lose-
Three (really four) things in life that are most valuable -
Family & Friends
Three things in life that are never certain -
Three things that make a person -
I ask the Lord to bless you
as I pray for you today;
to guide you and protect you,
as you go along your way.
Life In General!!
Well a year ago on oct. 12th my mom was seriously hurt at work, a tree fell on her and put her in the hospital. She was put in to an induced coma for 3 weeks. She had so many things wrong with her and still does. She has no use of her left arm at all beacuse the main vain in her harm was severed so the little vains in her arm had to take over. Im very thankful for my mom being here today. I tried blaming people for it but couldnt it was a freak accident the wind took it and blew it the wrong way. Well anyways she went to the doctors today for her evaluation on her arm and to meet all her doctors. NOV. 6th she goes in for surgery. Im excited because she'll be able to use her arm again not as good as we can but it will work. Im as nervous as she is but im glad its finally happening. Please Pray for and pray that everything is going to be alright and work out like we want. Thank you!!!
There comes a time in your life when you realize that if you standstill now, you will remain at this point forever.You realize the if you fall and stay down, life will pass you by. Life's circumstance's are not always what you think or what you might wish them to be. The pattern of life does not necessarily go as you plan. Beyond any understanding, you may at times be led in differnt direction's that you may never imagined, dreamed, or designed. Yet,if you have never put any effort into choosing a path, or tried to carry out your dreams, then perhaps you would have no direction at all.
Rather than wondering about or questioning the direction you life has taken, accept the fact the there is a path before you now. Shake off the "why's" and "what if's" and rid yourself of the confusion. Whatever was~is the past. Whatever is~is what's important.The past is a brief reflection. The future is yet to be realized. Today is here.
Walk your path one step at a time,with courage, faith, and deter
I have learned a lot in the last year and I have also found a new side of me. I got saved almost a year ago then I also found out I could love again. I think that maybe that is something that went hand in hand. For years I was a closed door that know one ever got through.I have went through downs and lots of ups but through it all I had faith that my life would end up where it was supposed to. It is strange for a man that has never depended on anyone to surrender his life to faith. I had trouble and I fought it and in some ways I still am but this love I have it is a lifetime love full of the troubles true love has and the mountains that must be climbed to succeed. Nothing worth having comes to us easy and this I have found out for sure. Just as my love for God grows daily so does my faith that he would never have sent me this way if it wasnt the right thing for me.So I will take this one day at a time and hope that in time it all works out for me and my life. My path led me to her an
Losing someone close
to you makes it so hard
because where ever you are
there will be a time when you
will need them.
It may be a hug, it maybe just
to talk to or just having fun
But surely as life goes on they
will always be in your heart listening
to every word that you say.
They have never been gone because they
will always be with you in your memories
and in your heart.
In every change that you experience in life,
there will be times when you'll wonder if you can endure.
But you'll learn that facing each difficulty one by one isn't so hard.
It's when you don't deal with a situation
that it sometimes comes back to confront you again.
Changes are sometimes very painful,
but they teach us that we can endure
and that we can become stronger.
Everything that comes into your life has a purpose,
but the outcome is in your hands by the action you take.
Be wise with your life,
be willing to endure,
and always be willing to face life
ok i figured i would take some time to just rant about some things that are bothering me. like for one my sister in law was in a good mood all day because her niece mia was born, but after she woke up she has been a complete bitch to me and im scared to even go into the same room. I am a nice person until i get pissed off and right now i am pissed and hurt and just not sure what to do.
for the second thing my fiance and i have not been getting along at all. we hardly talk and when we do all we mainly do is fight so i dont know what i am doing wrong to make everyone want to fight with me or not be with me but its driving me crazy.
but before i start crying or get really upset im going to stop writing it may be better that way why does everyone have to take it upon themselves to make fun of others just because they are diffrent. It pisses me off that just bc i talk diffrent from someone else bc of where i was raised that im gonna get riddiculed for it. I have lived in the country
You know its a damn shame when someone comes here to relax and have fun, get away from the real hate filled world, and instead get trashed by others who must not have very much self esteem of their own. I dont really care if i get any responses but i do care that one of my best friends felt the need to remove himself from a competition because of nasty people. Grow up this isnt grade school! Remember what goes around comes back and bites ya in the Ass!
Scotty I love ya babe!
What happened to the goth crowd?
Is it just meÖor does being goth no longer mean what it used to mean?
I've been pondering this since last night.
BeazilÖdefinitely a true gothÖhad time to go out last night and headed up to what was once his favorite place to be- The Church.
He doesn't get to go very often now. Work schedules have made it difficult. However, in the recent times he's been able to go up to The ChurchÖit's become obvious that the scene has really changed. And not for the better.
It seems every time he does show his face around there nowÖthere is always some young punk who wants to bow up at Beazil for no reason, telling him he doesn't belong there and calling him a poser. I know it's happened to other people also.
Same thing last night as well. Some kid feeling a little too big for his britches decided to walk up to Beazil and attempted to mark The Church as his territory.
Beazil usually just rolls his eyes at these immature outburstÖand it g
Life Or Something Like It 4
This is the last day for this contest, it ends in about 3 hours and 15 minutes! I am all used up with my picture comments for the day but would greatly appreciate all my friends helping her out! Click on it and leave her a bunch of comments! thanks! If this link didn't work, I will do it again. Love to you all!
in life you get two chosses live like theres no tomorrow or live for ten years down the road if you live like theres no tomorrow you miss out on life and if you live for ten years down the road you forget abouthaven fun and what life really means so you tell me what life really means so you tell me what i should do miss out on life or forget about fun and what life really means is there a in between or is it just that should i have for the things i need should i have to cry myself to sleep cause life isnt working out should i have to fight for my life thats just it you get nothing for free life just one big fight you fight for your you fight for your job so you can feed your self you fight to keep your family and friends safe you fight to survive in a world your not ment to fight is that it are we fighting a fight we wont win is there no hope should we just give up and not fight but thats it if you give up on the fight your called a failure but if you keep the fight going what are you
"I wish you enough!"
written by Bob Perks (c) 2001
"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."
*You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's the only thing you are sure to keep for the rest of your life.
*You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called "Life on Planet Earth". Every person is a teacher as well as a student, and every incident is part of the Universal Learning Experience.
*There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation. "Failures" are as much part of the process as "success".
*A lesson is repeated until learned. It is
Life Is Not Short...........
Life is not short, by any means. Actually, the longest thing you will ever do is live, so make the best of it! No one cares how much money you have, and no one will care that how successful you were in life. What they will remember are the small things. The times you lent an ear when they needed someone to listen, the time you helped them change a flat, when you gave them your last dollar so they could buy a soda to have with their lunch. The little things are what people are remembered by, make someone smile at least once a day; kiss your kids for no reason other than to let them know you love them. Wake up every morning knowing that someone is grateful for having known you. Touch someone's life! People will come and go, cherish them, and the time you have with each of them. Spend less time yelling at your kids, and more time dancing with them to the silly songs that come on during commercials. Say "thank you" to the drive through worker, wave to a construction worker, do the small th
Life Is To Short
Many of you don't know this so just to give a little background, I own a bunch of sports related websites.
The one that started it all was Phinzmania.com, a Miami Dolphins based site.
We have a pretty good group of guys not only from a knowledge of football stand point but from a human being stand point.
2 of my closest friends I met through the site.
Any ways enough about that.
This past Sunday, I was on the site and one of members, one of the really good hearted people posted a thread titled "Important".
The following was his post.
FIN FAN IN ALASKAHey guys, know its been a while since I posted, but I wanted to make sure I got you guys praying with me. My son (Cameron - 11) had a severe allergic reaction. I can't provide alot of details because I am just doing this while I grab a change of clothes for me and my wife. He is in the Peds ICU at Providence hospital here in Anchorage.. He has been unconscious
Well......let'e see, I moved to Missouri from Michigan about 11 yrs ago. I am a 38 yr. old male, 155lbs., hazel eyes, 5'9", and athletic build.
Storm is a 28 yr.old female, 145lbs., brown eyes, 5'8", and athletic build. We have three boys, 10,9,and 6. We own 4 pitbulls and just had a litter of 7 on Oct. 26, 2007.
We are here to look for female friends that might want to be friends, hangout, and enjoy each other in "whatever" we all may do. She is a bi-female and I am a straight male and I need to stress that we are looking for bi-females or bi-curious females, to join us in some fun and activities. Very descreate and no strings attached fun and friendships. If interested let us know and we will get ahoild of you if you interest us......thankz Hello everyone....I am posting this blog to look for that "someone or someones" that may be interested in spending a night, or two, with STORM and myself.
What we are looking for is a bi-female that either lives close by, or isn't afraid of a l