CLAYDOUGH's blog: "Risque'"

Now convinced i lay my life to waste that no one loves me and my saddened face and in this time i only mourn for a taste, of me and you in any place i cry sometimes the word's slip out "why" why can't you love me? why must we lie? i attempt to cover the pain deep inside. but it's never sheltered only intensified. moments to days, it's all the same not much left, but me to blame i'm so filled with regret and eternal shame destined to die burning in sorrows flame my lament grows to bitter insanity and soon they will find what my eyes precieve wrath upon the gods that fake harmony they've left me, with nothing, but me. the rage within builds turning to misery of all that i've lost and all that i've done if there is a god, i pray for you to be with me please have pity on this bastard's son i wash at your memory to go away! i scream for you to forever stay! but i'm left with only the thoughts of when we played. and the burden of loving you more every single day. 10:24 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

"Half a World Away " Half a world away, she stares through the screened personalities, with eyes the color of the Pacific, wading in the entwined web, wondering if this masked world can hold some sense of truth for her. Half a world away, he shuffles endlessly, casual in his efforts, reluctant to depart from the surf, sinking into his enthralled thoughts of this verbose, yet vacant palace. Until arises a tide and by fate alone the two blue waves collide into one white withdrawing unity; however, the sounds they make are not quite the same. Hers holds a sweeter darkened tone, while his sighs in subtle oddities. So strange the current made that a unique bond is formed. Now gently swayed backwards the two are pulled within the vastness of the oceans. There they dance about the Earth, glimmering and reflecting laughter from one to the other, sparkling infinitely among the twilight. From half a world away they have drifted into each other. Unaware that they were only broken halves, up until this inevitable moment that has brought them together. ….each from, half a world away. Robert Clayton Waters THIS POEM IS ABOUT MEETING PEOPLE ONLINE ...I WROTE IT FOR *WESSY* ... but it falls short of what she actually means to me..

if there is nothing there ,then was there anything ever.. so i collapse !! do i indulge in this to feel better..or do i make myself feel worse to obtain normality...i can no longer tell.. somedays i am so focused , i just know that i will make everything i touch shine and sparkle...other days i crawl into my cave of despair and sulk in the tacit malaise.... i have no patience for people ..cause deep within i know they respect nothing that doesn't pretain to them specifically... this world is pathetic...it hollows humanity with it's commercialized conformatiy....i hope it ends soon ... before the spirit of man is extinguised... dolor we have become when eveything we love is bought...extirpate social standards and salvage mankind's soul... goodnight...

Tomorrow dawns and the sky will break with nebulous emotions you may never negate. So wake warm and content nursing on innocence, free from this world of malevolence, happy and benevolent. As sweet as nectar exposed in sunshine. More intoxicatng than crimson wine, remain ardently divine, be sublime. Eyes scintilla blue, essence of aster in bloom, never let anyone askew, the beautiful exuberant you.