well whats is there really to say but your my boy and i will miss you always and forever.. here's the story . my boy nick zedrema who was 21 years old died last night at his home of a heart attack. he was a real dude that would do anything for his friends, and his friends would do the same for him. the thing that i dont understand is how someone of 21 yrs of age could just drop like that out of nowhere w/o any type of sign. i mean the guy was fairly large but besides that idk if there is anything else that would be a problem w/ health. its just really fucked up how there are so many grimey people out there that God doesnt take away but he takes the ones that are good.. but sometimes that makes you think if they did everything that they were supposed to do here on earth and that it was their time to go to the next. i know that he is above looking down at everyone knowing that we all truely and deeply cared about him.. right now i dont know what to do. this couldnt have come at a worse time for me. i know i sound selfish but hose who are close to me know the deal and things im going through. this is the only way that i know i could get through in my head that we arent gonna smoke any more blunts together or drink and redbull and vodka's. what bugs me out the most is that we were gonna go in a limo in 10 days to ny and party it up and it really gets me tight that i didnt get the chance to speak to him before he went. but i know that deep down inside he know that he was my homie and i was willing to ride or die if it came down to it, as he i know was willing to do the same. in the lifestyles that we have sometimes shit happens when you dont expect it and you either have to go w/ the flow or make your own, go against the grain. i have been dealing w/ someone that i care about either one of my friends or family dying for most of my life since christmas in the year of 1985 when my father died. im still not used to it it still hurts, yeah im still human and yeah i might be tough when it comes to some aspects but i still have a heart and i know how to care and i know how to grieve. and right now this is how im grieving. i just wish that i could have done something but there is nothing that i could. im still in a state of shock as is his fam and all his friends. im really dreading the funeral and i want to be able to be strong for his best friend which is my friend and i know that its going to affect him the most b/c they were like brothers. its just really hard b/c i knew my boy nick for a good 8 or 9 yrs before he started highschool. all i can say right now before i close this is that life is too short you have to live it up. at least my boy had a ferrari 360 modena before he died. thats living it up just wish it wasnt so short. we will all miss you my nigga lots of love and prayers. hope to see you in the afterlife my nigga 1
Nicholas James Zadrema
February 23, 1985 - November 28, 2006
