For My Daddy
My mind says "jump!" My heart says "wait! You're putting too much upon your plate!" If this love is true It won't go fast, If you don't push hard it's sure to last! I need his love it feeds my soul, He's the half that makes me whole. I can't believe that this is real, I love the way he makes me feel! A gentle touch a goodnight kiss, I swear I must be dreaming this! Is this a dream? Am I awake? Is it real or is it fake? I think of you each night and day, hoping that you're heare to stay! If there's one thing I know is true, it is this, baby I love you!

From Pooh
From Pooh (the girl I was dating had two kids...I bought them the book and this is how it was signed) For _________, I offer an experience rare Full of magic and wonder with never a care For ________, an adventure is about to begin With Tigger, Piglet and the rest of our friends There will be Rabbit and Owl, Kanga and Roo Grumpy ol’ Eeyore And me, Winnie-ther-Pooh So I ask you both, come explore with me The 100 aker wood... Oh, the wonders we’ll see With Christopher Robin as our guide and our friend Sharing the magic from beginning to end So I give this book for you two to share Signed, with love by me, Pooh Bear

My Perfect Rose
My Perfect Rose On sight, I sigh She pleases my eye With her beauty and her radiance Her golden hair So fine and fair Fills with joy my every sense Eyes of crystal blue Heart uncommonly true She’s a Dream walking the Earth Her kisses so light Dreams fulfilled at night My passions for her given birth This Perfect Rose Her soft eyes close As I draw her near to me In tight embrace I gaze upon her face And dream together we’ll always be Her softness of touch I desire so much; Sensations race up my spine I bend for the kiss Heart filled with bliss I confess, I want her as mine Again I look in her eyes And I fully realize This is the woman I chose So will you be mine? I ask you for all time For you are my Perfect Rose

Our President Elect
I got this in an email today- provoked a thought or two in my little mind... Fellow Business Executives: As the CFO of this business that employees 140 people, I have resigned myself to the fact that Barack Obama will be our next President, and that our taxes and government fees will increase in a BIG way. To compensate for these increases, I figure that the clients will have to see an increase in our fees to them of about 8% but since we cannot increase our fees right now due to the dismal state of our economy, we will have to lay off eight of our employees instead. This has really been eating at me for a while, as we believe we are family here and I didn't know how to choose who will have to go. So, this is what I did. I strolled thru our parking lot and found 8 Obama bumper stickers on our employees' cars and have decided these folks will be the first to be laid off. I can't think of a more fair way to approach this problem. These folks wanted change; I gave it to t

Men And Their Games
I hate when men have to play games with me. I had one that wanted me to take my NSFW pics down because he was jealous of the other guys that saw them. Then he turned into a royal asshole because I did not want a relationship with him after I told him I needed time. I was not playing any games with anyone, but he insisted I was. Thanks Eddie. Then, I tell a friend how I feel about him. I can understand saying lets just stay friends,ok. But he had to lie to me. And its apparent now that I was a piece of ass because thats the only times I saw him. So Im done with games. Go play them somewhere else.

Politics
Something told me to write a blog about what's going on in my mind. That is what blogs are for of course. I normally don't write blogs or my thoughts down because I would rather act on them then record them. I wanted to talk about Obama, race, and freedoms from a logical point of view. That is very hard to do without invoking an emotional response from people, but I will anyway. I'm just that kind of guy. Obama is in my opinion a physical representation of what the country wants to be, but didn't know how to go about it. He is of mixed race even though everything about him is black, all the way down to his wife and kids. On top of that he is idealistic. One thing this country lack is idealism in the government. I personally am scared of people who have no ideas. That tells me that they are run off of programming like a robot and can not think outside of a box. The American people had to think outside of a box just to vote for Obama in the first place. I see much needed social cha

She Is So Awesome Go Bid!!
show her how much she is worth!!!

Shania Twain-you're Still The One
when i first saw you,i saw love.and the first time you touched me,i felt love.and after all this time,you're still the one i love.looks like we made it,look how far we've come my babe.we mighta took the long way,we knew we'd get there someday.they said i'll bet they'll never make it.but just look at us holding on,we're still together still going strong.you're still the one i run to,the one i belong to,you're still the one i want for life.you're still the one that i love,the only one i dream of,you're still the one i kiss goodnight.ain't nothing better.we beat the odds together.i'm glad we didn't listen,look at what we would be missing.they said"i bet they'll never make it"but just look at us holding on,we're still together still going strong.you're still the one i run to,the one i belong to,you're still the one i want for life.you're still the one that i love,the only one i dream of,you're still the one i kiss goodnight.i'm so glad we made it look how far we've come my baby

Nfl Jersey And Who Can Wear It Better
Show your NFL team spirit. I am having a contest. This contest will run from 12/01/08 to 12/05/08 (midnight to midnight EST) All I need is a photo of you sporting your favorite NFL team. This is a comment bomb contest. First person to have the most comments wins. First prize: 3-Day blast or a pack of blings (ur choice) Second prize : 50,000 f-bucks Third prize: 25,000 fu-bucks Come on and Enter! Need at least 10-people... if you are interested, send me the link to rip your photo of your NFL team. Thanks and have fun!

Am Letting Go" Goodbye..love Of My Life"
GOODBYE MY LOVE" a song in my heart" EVEN IF" all those sleppness nights, all the tears i've cried, all the pain i keep inside". i keep asking myself why".. we have to say goodbye", was it just a dream? or there is someone new in your life", i could have ask you why? do we have to stay , when it really means goodbye". even if it takes the whole world damn to me" i can forget you, wait and see, i can be strong even without you, I CANT WAIT MY LIFE FOREVER HOPING YOU , COMEBACK TO ME"..AND STARE ALL NIGHT, WAITING YOU"... BUT DEEP INSIDE I KNOW"... I'LL STILL BE WAITING HERE FOR YOU".......

I Can Make Graphics Now
I Am Making Graphics. If you would like one Plz Send me a PM. I have 17 days left in my free trial. Give me 1k fubucks and I'll make ya a Graphic like the one below! Click the kitty Below to see the other graphics i have made!!!!!

Fairy Tale
Dreamland awaits you, Close your eyes, Imagine you and I, Close as breath, Skin upon skin, Lips touching, For you taste of Raspberries, sweetly irresistible, The fragrance of you, Takes my breath away, I am burning inside, A torch of fire, Burning fuel of passion, For you are my desire, My heart beats with every breath, You are my destiny, Your eyes evade me, deep, dark, mysterious, I am your slave, Your love has captured me, Grab my body, Pull me close, Show me your love, In ways I could only dream. Wake me I must be dreaming, This is a fairytale.

For Neeky
a rose joins with my heart...ever to feel for my distant love...I search the stars for the light amid the darkness...and seek the hand of time`s memory Sexy Comments & Profile GraphicsI love you Katie

Could You Survive Another Great Depression?
You Are 44% Likely to Survive Another Great Depression Your habits are pretty on par with the average person. Unfortunately, this means your chances aren't good in another Great Depression. Start saving your money now. Living in debt isn't doing you any favors. Also figure out how to live a little more cheaply. Every little bit you can trim will help. Could You Survive Another Great Depression?

Dream When I Die
Days continue to pass me by As I sleep the hours away In any bed I can find And the pattern doesnt cease I wake up and I feel like weaping For another day has passed me by I feel that sleep is a waste of life My body may be weak But it can still stand the test of time No matter how broken my body feels Or brittle my mind may be I wish sleep would wait until I die There is a whole life ahead of me But in the days I lose to sleep It feels as if I skipped a century While all my friends and family sleep I am awake and alone with only thoughts And then back to sleep I go While the world wakes up outside I feel that sleep is a waste of life My body may be weak But it can still stand the test of time No matter how broken my body feels Or brittle my mind may be I wish sleep would wait until I die Dreams may be good for what we cannot have My desire is my life within my grasp And even if I won't see it all With my eyes open I will get what I can D

In The Heat Of The Moment
In the heat of the moment, wild passions flare. Tongues, teeth and finger tips, aching to touch and share. Invisible boundaries designed, to quell this heat with a shiver and a chill. Anticipation the red flame, that melts an iron will. Passions born of hell, yet known to God as pleasure. Finger tips burn skin, while touching lighter than a feather. A dance in near darkness, awakes once more this passion. Erotic this crucifixion, outdated by modern fashion. The world slips away, as we dance in the fire. Lips touching skin , animalistic this desire. The tempo grows quicker, hips interlocked not breaking. Hearts pound, brain whirls at this risk we are taking. The CD a rumble, like distant thunder. Passion riding the storm, of this spell I'm under. Lips along jawlines, passion threatens to burn us. Forged far below, in Hades' own furnace. Lips brushing lips, searing the flesh. Bodies interlocked, as to the music we mesh. The beat so st

Yes Master~
All day we have been messaging one another about the naughtiest of things. All day you have been tormenting and teasing me with words of the things you want to be doing to me. All day I have been the very submissive woman you have trained me to be. Throughout the day you have told me all the things you want me to do to myself while I await your arrival. First, you told me that I must get completely naked. I followed this order and sat before my PC in the nude. After approximately an hour of nothing from you, you send a message saying, “Pinch your nipples while you think of me biting them. Pinch them until they are sore.” Again, I do as you request. Always, after an order, I simply reply, “Yes, Master.” Next you tell me to move one hand between my thighs and to push two fingers in and out slowly, to get myself nice and wet. I do as you say, my fingers moving easily in and out as my own fluids start to flow. “I can’t wait to fuck you tonight,” you send in a message. My heart

One Word
You Can Only Type ONE Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? dresser 2. Your significant other? karen 3. Your hair? wet 4. Your mother? strange 5. Your father? quiet 6. Your favorite thing? breathing 7. Your dream last night? none 8. Your favorite drink? coffee 9. Your dream/goal? living 10. The room you're in? mine 11. Music? metal 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy 14. Where were you last night? home 15. What you're not? sad 16. Muffins? buttered 17. One of your wish list items? girlfriend 18. Where you grew up? california 19. The last thing you did? worked 20. What are you wearing? clothes 21. TV? on 22. Your pets? cat 23. Your computer? acer 24. Your life? content 25. Your mood? de

Naughty Application
Reply by copy and pasting these questions and give me your answers. 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm sexy? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? Copy and paste this into your blog to see what yo

If Ya Didnt Know......
For some time many of us have wondered who is Jack Shit? We find ourselves at a loss when someone says, You dont know Jack Shit? Well, thanks to my efforts you can now respond in an intellectual way. Jack Shit is the only son of Awe Shit who married O Shit, the owners of Knee Deep N Shit Inc. In turn Jack Shit married Noe Shit. The couple had 6 children: Holie Shit, Giva Shit, Fulla Shit, Bull Shit, and the twins Deep Shit and Dip Shit. Deep Shit married Dumb Shit, a high school dropout. After 15 years, Jack and Noe Shit got divorced and she married Ted Sherlock and became Noe Shit Sherlock. Meanwhile, Dip Shit married Lota Shit and had a rather nervous disposition named Chicken Shit. Fulla Shit n Giva Shit married the Happens brothers n had a double wedding. The newspaper invited everyone to the Shit-Happens wedding. Bull Shit traveled the world and returned home with an italian bride Pisa Shit. So from now on, no one can tell you that you dont know Jack Shit......

Void
Void, canceled, simply annulled. Endlessly aching, unconsoled. Life without you, cause without reason. Touch without sense, time without season. I face life now facing a cancerous sore, A sordid parasite that eats at my core. All that makes me whole, all I hold deep within, Leaving me lifeless, or at least not livin'. A shallow face, anguished and marred. An empty space, scaled and scarred. Sweetly abiding to a cynical charade. Secretly hiding 'hind a fictitious facade. Still, lost within this heart of glass, This fragile and yet unfeeling mass. Lies the remains of a love that glowed, The gift to you I once bestowed. But honor and pride now bereaved- By your love for me so misconceived, Ripped from my inner depths, impeding- Mind and body and spirit, bleeding; Now's crushed to sand from thy ruthless hand, A cold stare I just can't understand. I feel that somehow, somehow I'm dying, At least my soul and all that's underlying. A simple void, is that what I'v

Computer Christmas Poem
'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the Net, There were hacker's a surfing. Nerds? Yeah, you bet. The e-mails were stacked by the inbox with care, In hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there. The newbies were nestled all snug by their screens, While visions of Java danced in their dreams. My wife on the sofa and me with a snack, We just settled down at my rig (it's a Mac). When out in the Web there arose such a clatter, I jumped to the site to see what was the matter. To a new page my Mac flew like a flash, Then made a slight gurgle. It started to crash!! I gasped at the thought and started to grouse, Then turned my head sideways and clicked on my mouse. When what to my wondering eyes should appear, My Mac jumped to a page that wasn't quite clear. When the image resolved, so bright and so quick, I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick! More rapid than mainframes, more graphics they came, Then Nick glanced toward my screen, my Mac called them

Re-doing Dis Blog Cuz Of Da Harassment
dey is harassing me cuz i been watching them Hi There is a group forming calling themselves "TruRaters" they are downrating people using this as an excuse that they have a choice but they are spreading hate cause my dave commented one of them in sb as to that they dont know who they are downrating when they downrate artwork and then they attacked him rated him "1" then "7" then back to a "1" if thats not hate what is ? There is a mumm asking people to join and they have a lounge too The lounge: http://fubar.com/new_lounge.php?w=1&lid=62402 The mumm to asking to join up is : http://fubar.com/mum.php?id=484542 We need to send them a message click on link go to their page dont do anything but block them. just blocking them so you give them no points If you downrate them too they get points Following are links to their page then block them thats all You wont miss them http://fubar.com/user/2226275 http://fubar.com/user/2253376 http://fubar.com/user/2259340 Send them

Tag, Your It!
You Can Only Type ONE Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? nunya 2. Your significant other? question 3. Your hair? curly 4. Your mother? work 5. Your father? school 6. Your favorite thing? you 7. Your dream last night? him 8. Your favorite drink? sunkist 9. Your dream/goal? happy 10. The room you're in? office 11. Music? variety 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? home 14. Where were you last night? sleep 15. What you're not? arrogant 16. Muffins? Yes 17. One of your wish list items? snow 18. Where you grew up? mountain 19. The last thing you did? almond 20. What are you wearing? blouse 21. TV? cartoons 22. Your pets? cat 23. Your computer? someone 24. Your life? confused 25. Your mood? fussy 2

My Answers
You Can Only Type ONE Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? Charging 2. Your significant other? peter 3. Your hair? short 4. Your mother? pennsylvania 5. Your father? new york 6. Your favorite thing? hubby 7. Your dream last night? None 8. Your favorite drink? soda 9. Your dream/goal? Peace 10. The room you're in? Bedroom 11. Music? country 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Alive 14. Where were you last night? home 15. What you're not? rich 16. Muffins? Blueberry 17. One of your wish list items? Happiness 18. Where you grew up? virginia 19. The last thing you did? Typed 20. What are you wearing? tshirt 21. TV? yes 22. Your pets? dot 23. Your computer? Laptop 24. Your life? calm 25. Your mood? h

Come Bid On Me!!!
This is my first auction. Would love for you all to come check it out. Cant wait to see who bids and who wins. The auction runs from Dec. 14th (2pm est.) thru Dec. 21st (7pm est.). Come bid and have fun! GOOD LUCK!!!!! :) http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1631848&albumid=1327290&i=3935916293&idx=20

Heaven
Eyes tell a story of an old soul, deep beautiful green and wise A smile more than just simple expression, the power of her smile chases all pain away, eases every agony and makes all darkness go away. To some just another lady, to others an angelic figure who makes the world a lovelier place To this one much more than any of those things She is precious much more than any man made word can describe. Her name I may never know, Her face is the only glimpse of heaven I will ever have.

More Playmates
Well We All Have Heard About, Now Its Your Chance To Come See Them In Action On Cam!!! > If You Click The Picture Above, It Will Take You Directly To The Playmates Profile, All Of Them Will Rock Your Socks Off! And I Can Guarantee That > > We Are Also Hiring Playmates, And All You Have To Click Either Tied Up's Or Boatman's Button, and include these in the private message * Name * Profile Link * Yahoo Instant Messenger Screen Name * A brief Message Stating Your Are Interested In Becoming A Playmate * Don't For Get To Write Application To Be A Playmate In The Subject Link So Why Not Click One Of The Pictures Below To Come Visit The Playmates, Or Better Yet Click Both And Join In On The Fun And Be Entertained By The Lovely Playmates!! > >

An Update....
and this is why i think she's the perfect girl: Tiffany Cable: No its me Tiffany Cable: I just decided we're getting drunk together ray cooper: huh wtf? ray cooper: i would like that Tiffany Cable: I'm paying for my drink though and I want one like what paige wanted last night. ray cooper: why i mean what happened why the change of heart?

A Family Christmas
Growing up my family was very unorthodox. Christmas time was always full of beer can Christmas trees, drunkin caroling, cheap non-useful cat pissed stained presents and brandy cleverly disguised as eggnog. We did however have a family tradition. Every year this message graced our answering machine: Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house Not a creature was stirring, so drunk was the mouse. The clothing was strung 'cross the floor and lamp shadies With a sock in the fish bowl? My head felt like hades The phone it dared ring and was kicked off the shelf. My sposce (friend) said to get it, I said, "GET IT YOURSELF!" It ring, rang and rung and echoed through my head I stumbled toward the phone, my limbs felt like lead. The machine picked it up as I tripped over a beer Merry Christmas everyone, leave your message right here. Written by: Mom I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season!

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Brutal Mastication
Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Brutal Mastication Brutal Mastication is out of HOllywood, Florida. The band members are Jimmy Ferovechio, Brian Cramer, Jorge Lopez, Todd Ewing and B.J. Santiago. Brutal Mastication has a record label with Hook N Mouth. The band started recording their album Rage Uncontrolled, bust still need to mix and master the album when they ran into problems. Jorge Lopez went to visit his family in Chile for the holidays and could not return due to his imigration status and lack of U.S. Citzenship. It was a hard blow to the band. Jorge was the key man to the band due to recording everyone because the owner/engineer of Studio 13 became ill. The band decided to go to Canada to play a few shows and finish up the album, when once again Jorge was deported again in the states and was sent back to Chile insteed of meeting the band in Canada, so the band returned to Florida. The band knew the album had to be finished so they spent many nights on the internet download

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Real Steel
Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Real Steel Real Steel is out of Cleveland - New Philadelphia, Ohio. They have a record label with Retrospect Records. Their influences are Rainbow, U.F.O., Judas Priest, Thin Lizzy, Kiss, Van Halen, Deep Purple, and Savatage. Real Steel emerged from the incredibly fertile Cleveland Ohio Metal Scene of the eighties. Real Steel was actually put together in rural Tuscarawas County by Dave Hasselbach, Scott Smalley, and Bobby Stocker. After a year of trying different people in the other guitar spot, the final piece of the puzzle was found in the form of Parma High School Sophomore Paul Klaff! These four musicians had an incredible chemistry together from the first note they ever played, and also an incredibly intense work ethic that bordered on obsession! Songs came together quickly, and the classic Real Steel Sound of melodic virtuoso guitars, catchy riffs, leather lunged lead vocals, soaring three part harmonies, and

The Ankle I Miss The Most...
11-24-2005, 02:51 AM Kyrandos Newb Apprentice Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: Fort Bliss, TX Posts: 10 ::kills everyone:: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You all just got owned. PKers rule. (said Kyrandos, the only ankle I have ever curled around besides a PKer known as Balor) 11-24-2005, 04:53 AM LadyChina ImagINNeer Grand Master Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Michigan - MIRC = enterthegame #themercs Posts: 296 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Death Scene: *shrieking* "Es Tu, Kyrandos!? Es Tu?" *Staggers, shaking hands cupping, err clutching her breasts. Panting, low moans escape her shriek ravaged throat. She's not long for this world.* "Please...have MERCY." *Falling, a chair breaks her descent, a resounding THUMP follows her forehead connecting with the table top. A backward flop completes the work Kyrandos be

I Need All Your Help Everyone
All my friends here on Fubar already know that i am on a Semi-Pro Football Team.. And right now i am needing everyones help.. Go to the Follwing links !!!!! i need help spreading these 2 links like WILD FIRE !!!!!!! LINK 1 LINK 2 These Links Are a fundraising that the entire SouthSide Demons Team is doing here on the internet.. PLEASE I need your Help ... These are Fundraising Pages for the football team.. Jake aka D.J. Skillz

Just Below My Skin I'm Screaming...
How can I change the world If I can't even change myself I cannot change the way I am I don't know I take a look at the world behind these eyes Every nook, every cranny reorganize Realize my face don't fit the way I feel What's real I need a mirror to check my face is in place In case of upheaval fundamental movement below What's really going on I wanna know We don't show on the outside so slide Just below my skin I'm screaming... I need a mirror for my spirit Can you feel it When I get deep Wanna hear myself sleep Not drowning Just tumbling around in the voices Like a crowd in my head so loud I wonder what it's like to be dead I hope it's quiet, Noise in my head like a riot Any remedy you have for me I'll try Just below my skin I'm screaming... I'm going so deep that I can't sleep The pills ain't cheap but the bills are steep So I with a booze and a spliff Try to snooze Who's dreaming this is win or loose Put down the drink try not to think

Angel Tree *(no Shame Here)
once again this christmas is going to be extra special for my children, thanks to the people at rcho. palos verdes interfaith and angel tree church members draw the names of local children that have parents who are inmates. and...since dad is locked up and we do not speak this was a pleasant surprise this year. what an excellent way for the children to be able to recieve gifts (from an absentee parent) the people annonymously contribute according to the parents descriptions of the children and their interests, then they wrap em all up and sign the cards love dad... so this year my children will have a good yule because of the good hearted people and their churches who participate.

Sarcasm Lost...
cubbies88: cool u r hot ->cubbies88: you are the sole reason I came here from Russia cubbies88: ok when??? ->cubbies88: ofcourse, I was waiting for this moment all my life cubbies88: we should hook up lol ->cubbies88: for you-always cubbies88: u single?? ->cubbies88: thx cubbies88: ur fine as hell ->cubbies88: hi cubbies88: heyy cutie

Durnkered And Bit By K-9 Police Dog
So I went to a friends house Saturday night and had a few drinks. Well she is a local police officer and the other female officer for the dept. Was there too.. We had a few good ones. well all was well.. Till thismorning and i found a new hole in my pants.I guess her K-9 Police dog bit me.. and I have a huge hole in my jeans and a bruse and marks where he bit be.. Damn u Max.. anyway.. so I have a couple pics of it ill post and me sittin in the bath room.. My dumb ass friends giveing me vodka.. I could kill them.. they now how i get.... any way legs not that bad more brused than anything.... and till nxt months drunkered outing.. Hope every one has a merry x-mas and happy new year!..

The Christmas Village Surprise
(originally written in 2005, occurred around 1997 - treasured in my heart forever.) I love Christmas. I named my daughter Savannah NOELLE, thats how much I love Christmas. I spend hours of my life's moments creating an idealistic miniature Christmas Village every year. I painted the buildings myself. Farm animals stand next to hay bales in mangers near the barn festooned in evergreen bows. A toy shop window glints with carefully painted shiny toys. A church stands on a hill created with a shoebox laid under the mantel of angel hair snow. Pine trees line a small town square where a trio of Christmas carolers are standing side by side with their carol books in their hands, mouths wide open in whats obviously one hell of a loud rendition of "O Come All Ye Faithful". A fiddle player stands nearby, his elbow high as he draws his bow across his instrument. A drummer boy beats a rat a tat tat while his dog sits nearby, a bow tied to his collar. One day I came home and stopped to admi

Ok Please Read I Am Going To Be Off Of Here Tonight
My nsfw's are open again get your last look boys! As of tonight I am closing the account, no I am not getting talked out of it lol. But I will before I close it send someone the FuMoney I got and the bling I have like 9 credits left. If you want to add me to yahoo my id is supergirls93638, please let me know who you are I have a horrible memory. THANKS GUYS AND ENJOY THE SITE!

And Another Poem I Wrote
Why dosn't life seem to be? alone tired sleepy conjested or just plain discusted through out the test of time why does everything has to be not so strong just like a tree going through wind,rain,snow,cold,hot,and humid weather but again nothing to bother strong and slender as it should be why can't we? guns violance murder and hate feels some eyes but to me theres no surprise everything goes so fast but memories will be left to last. Closing our eyes for the night after our hard work is done resting in our hearts content hoping our time with loved ones is well spent As we awaken from our slumber we open our eyes knowing its not our number.As time quickly comes as people go this is the time to watch our feelings grow tred lightly my dear friend walk tall be proud as you should know. But, I do have a question I must ask are we going to last? or are we going to let hate show I dunno but quickly I must answer I want to be that tree and spred kindness just like cancer strong and slender I

I Have Come To The Conclusion That Love Is Just A Figment Of My.......
IMAGINATION ...... well the reason i say this, is cuz after long and hard thinking, i have decided to say that is is kinda like an illusion... You think it is there and u are jus so happy, but just at the blink of an eye.... ITS GONE .. sometimes it may be jus a one way gone.. meaning u still see it but the other person doesnt.... which in my case seems to be a one sided thing... o well right... LOL .. but anyways.. I have now moved more north and it is cold as hell here... wait hells hott... okay hell frozen over lol.... but neways.. i have started a new life got a job, and lookin for a rent house or apartment.. maybe from this experience i will b alot smarter in the next reltionship if i so choose to try another one, but at this point it is time to take a break from the relationship scene for awhile

My Life Part 5
The need for medical insurance Well, I got very ill no insurance in and out of the hospital, no one could figure out what was wrong, severe pain that brought me to my knees in my chest. I just knew I was going to die. Then they figured it out. I had a gahlbladder that was not functioning correctly causing all the pain. I had surgery was off work and got very far behind in bills. My wife did not work and she didn't then. She should have. I went back to work sooner than my doctor wanted me to. I had a wife and three step kids to support, but It was killing me I hurt it seems that some people recover more quickly than others. I was in the "Other Category" It took me a long time to get back to making good money again. I was paid by commission, so speed was important. I just did not have it at that time. We had to bail on the house and the car went back, I was barely making enough for utilities and food, much less anything else. My beginnings into Motorcycle clubs I had a fri

Iraq
I never thought that in all my travels that I would have ever ended up in Iraq. Since being here, I have got to meet some of the Iraqi people that want to change their country. They often talk about what it would be like to visit American and visit places that they have read about in books or seen on tv. They often ask me about my family and where I live back in the States. Sometimes it is hard to tell them about yourself and your family, cause you really do not know if you can or should trust them. But in telling them, I am trusting them. Should I do it, I do not know. The guys that I am stationed with say(and think) that I should lie to them a little, so that they do not know to much about me. But I thought we were here to change their minds and give them a reason to trust us. I want them not to view us as soldiers only, but as there friends too.

Friendship Defined
1. When you are sad --I will jump on the person who made you sad like a spider monkey jacked up on Mountain Dew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you. 3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in. 4. When you're scared -- we will high tail it out of here. 5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining, ya big baby!!!! 6. When you are confused -- I will use little words. 7. When you are sick --Stay away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have. 8. When you fall -- I'll pick you up and dust you off-- After I laugh my butt off!! 9. This is my oath...I pledge it to the end. 'Why?' you may ask -- because you are my FRIEND!

It's A Very Very....mad World...
in the ideal all the flaws would be visible... complete with ups and downs... not perfect by far... i hate the idea of perfection... because nothing is absolute... to think something is perfect just means your blind to the truth... i'd take living in the gutter to a sugar coated fantasy any day...i'd rather see the cracks to find the flaws.. to know that something is real.. not just a delusional fantasy or misguided notion of happiness... i would perfer to see things as they are...i don't want the world to be perfect...granted i would like to see them get better.. or at least different ...things are kinda stagnant...i've been in this hole so long i can't remember daylight...but i suppose it's better then being fake.... but everything can change... or so i've heard(could this be my opinion....or an attempt to make failure easier...i'm not allowed the luxury of forgetting past mistakes... think i've been living with my flaws inadequate nature and failures for so long ... i wouldn't know

Too Many Puppies
Too many puppies are being shot in the dark. Too many puppies are trained not to bark. At the sight of blood that must be spilled so that We may maintain our oil fields. Too many puppies Too many puppies are taught to heal. Too many puppies are trained to kill. On the command of men wearing money belts that buy Mistresses sleek animal pelts. Too many puppies. Too many puppies with guns in their hands. Too many puppies in foreign lands. Are dressed up sharp in suits of green and Placed upon the war machine. Too many puppies are just like me. Too many puppies are afraid to see. The visions of the past brought to life again, Too many puppies, too many dead men.

Happy New Year
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

It Means Nothing
I have no idea who Jess is but, she took a song that was in my head, matched them up with some graphics and put them on utube for me to find.........Thanks Jess :-) She should know by now it's for her......... :-|

Hi...
add me in my yahoo want to gain friends here megrech_25@yahoo.com ill be waitin mmmwwwaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Being Bad
It was a lovely weekend day, and I had a date of sorts with my friend. We planned to spend sometime together, and have a little fun in the process, some naughty fun. I picked her up and was taken in by her beauty. She wore a fun white dress that showed off her figure, and tattoos. I took her on a drive along the base of the mountains, and we came upon a new development of gorgeous houses. I pulled in and we walked over to the model homes. A woman greeted us, she hurriedly told us she was sorry. She was with clients signing a deal, but we were to feel free and look at the houses. She gave us a card and apologized again. I had been here before and knew this was her day to take appointments. I knew we would have free run of the houses. There were three model homes, the first was a basic model one level and no frills. The second was a nice two story, but the third was a wonderful place with all the extras. I lead my friend past the first two and into the third. As soon as we c

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My Life....
Love sick Current mood: lonely Exploring possibilities, thoughts take their own direction Dissected to the pit of me, I mourn for his affection Disease is taking over me, love sick is my infection Addicted to the bitter sweet that feeds on my regression How unclear must the picture be, blind faith must get me through If loving you means I can't see, I'll trade my sight for you Inform me when you've had your fill, I never give enough Remarkably despite my feats I'm desperate for your love Whenever will you notice me, my God how long it's been The time loves truth can be embraced we both will truly win Sorrow grows from seeds of hope neglected by the sun I need your light to penetrate this solitude of one

The View From 39
I'm coming into a place in my life where it occurs to me "mid-life" isn't just a catchy word for turning 40. It's very much a reality. I'm not sure I'm over the hill, but I feel the weight of my elders dragging me forward. On one side of the hill, my parents, grandparents and their peers are passing on. My mother must go to a funeral a month. I hear the tremble in her voice when she talks. It is painful for her to let them all go. Her peers represent her youth, the experiences of love and laughter that have brought her to this twilight. On the other side are my children, full of mischief and hope, as they charge forward. My oldest is 14. I can feel her straining to peddle her life faster up the hill. It frustrates her that we continue to push her back down, because she can't see over the top, and we can. They don't know that innocence is a blessing. I went to the cemetary on Christmas Eve. I rarely go. I don't find any comfort at the site of my father's grave. Mos

This Is Me
At work With other people At times On the outside I look fine I seem fine I feel pretty good I have a positive attitude... But inside, alone, I carry dark & heavy thoughts -- fleeting thoughts of suicide. The words cannot convey, the feelings, the pain Somehow I ignore them -- for a while, perhaps -- a long while, all day, or many days -- figure it will go away -- ignore It's automatically not even recognized mentally. I go back forcing myself forcing day to day, week to week, contact with people and life My sorrow is hidden, My anguish contained. I push forward; I feel like dying. I tell no one. No one knows how I feel..

Deathly Dreams
At times I can have some pretty vivid dreams. Last night was no exception to this, and the dream I had disturbed me slightly. I dreamed that my dad had been very sick, and was in the hospital. After weeks of suffering and being told things wouldn't change he decided he did not want to live that way. I believe he was on some kind of machine and decided he wanted it turned off so he could die. Out of my whole family I was the only one affected by this. I was upset, angry at them, and couldn't stop being emotional. They, however, were the calm and collected ones. This dream is disturbing to me in two different ways. Obviously the first way is that I dreamed I watched my father die, never a good thing in my book. Secondly, and more psychologically deep is the way I reacted. To understand this, we'll have to have a little back story. About four or five years ago my dad found out he had a tumor on his kidney and that the best way to take care of the problem was to remove the kidney. M

Read, Learn & Heed This
Young relationships DO NOT last, ESP when BOTH are under 25, MORE esp if the guy is younger than her. The more under 25 the LESS they last. Toss in a kid and/or the military, game OVER! Realize this, dipshits.

Why
Dreaming, talking, walking, living, why are we here? Does it matter what we do, who we see, or where we go. Does it make a difference, hell I don't know.... Somewhere, somehow, someday, I will find you untill then dreams are my only place to go. Your perfect, that is to me. perfection is not only what you see. Why have I not found you, why are you not in my bed. Why are you not holding me close. Two hearts as one. Instead you hount me always in my head. You have no face but to me the rest is clear. where are you why havent you found me, love of my life, my one an only fear.

Top 10 Little Known Facts About Tim Tebow
Here are the Top 10 Little Known Facts About Tim Tebow, Quarterback for the University of Florida Gators: 10. Tim Tebow doesn't do pushups, he pushes the earth down. 9. Tim Tebow's tears cure cancer, too bad he's never cried. 8. Superman wears Tim Tebow pajamas. 7. Tim Tebow counted to infinity - TWICE. 6. Tim Tebow once won a game of Connect 4 in 3 moves. 5. Tim Tebow won the Tour de France on a unicycle to prove to Lance Armstrong it wasn't a big deal. He thinks yellow wristbands are gay. 4. When Google can't find something, it asks Tim Tebow for help. 3. When the boogie man goes to sleep, he checks his closet for Tim Tebow. 2. What color is Tim Tebow's blood? It's a trick questions. Tim Tebow does not bleed. 1. People with amnesia still remember Tim Tebow. Go Gators!

Finally
FINALLY I'm back online...It's seemed like an eternity while I was gone...I want to thank all of my wonderful friends who continually showed my page love even when I wasn't able to return them back...I have the best friends on the fu, thank you all for being my friend...Ok now I wanna sing thank you for being a friend from the golden girls lmao...There is no way I can even return all the comments over the last several months, but will get back into the swing of things around here...Muahz love you all...

Your Father's Curtain Rod, The Weapon Of A Jedi Knight
About two hours before Martha and Mary got home from work yesterday, Sarah, Jeffrey, and I were upstairs in her room (which Martha this morning told me is wet on its edges because there’s so much snow on the roof that it’s starting to melt through) and while Jeffrey was fumbling about with the toys in the playpen/toy chest Sarah stood on an upturned laundry basket and waved a detached curtain rod toward me like a sword. I took the other one that I kept out of her reach and we dueled, the first clink over Jeffrey’s head on the Fisher-Price toy piano, a scene that reminded me of Luke and Vader’s clash over the Emperor’s head in “Return of the Jedi”. With roughly the same, almost toothless laugh as accompaniment! Back to the beginning (and also explaining why I wasn't around Friday), yesterday by nine in the morning we’d had a foot of snow, all the schools were closed, and 20-30 mile per hours were winds were expected in the afternoon. Just as I’m washing the dishes with my daughter

Groundhigs Day
well as some of you may know groundhogs is almost here and punxy phil will be the one and only reason for this little town to have one killer party. i just want to know what you think.and why.ty

Cancer
BCOMMENTED.COM Why Now, and not later The breathing shallow The vision dimmer Bones ache Each moment is filled with pain I am nauseous I vomit with regularity I shouldn’t feel this way Fuck it It grows A black stain on my lungs The doctor says The cure is worse than the disease My hair falls out I do not go softly into that good night I scream I cry Why poet BCOMMENTED.COM

Friends.....
i really don't know where to begin seems like all my life its one thing after another...i let people in and when they start to get a little bit close or i start to feel something for them i push them away i say things i don't mean i can be a real (bitch)......i really don't know what i want out of life as far as men are concerned i like getting to know someone and talking for hours laughing communicating feeling wanted.....seems like everything gravitates toward sex in some kinda way or another...i give an i give an i give..thinking to myself "this makes him happy"....but what about my happiness i seem to forget about myself in relationships...i always put the other persons wants and needs before my own an when i try to put my needs first it turns into a problem...and in the end i take all the hurt and pain...i will be the first to tell u...i am a very emotional person....my feelings get hurt easily....i trust no one....i don't know where my life is headed but i just want to be loved..

Broken
Broken Broken hearts, love's deceit, pieces fall down to my feet. Broken promises, love's a lie, puddles form from tears I cry. Broken dreams, love's illusion, sorrowed cause of your intrusion. Broken hope, love's a game, doesn't last, ends the same. Broken sleep, love's the cause, digs at me with sharpened claws. Broken spirit, love of sorrow, stolen now is my tomorrow. Broken life, love is lost, Broken now and that's the cost. reminder of lizbeth.an the pain an damage you done still dealing whit an hope to over come,,,

My First Poem..more To Come If Successful
Never Fading Love My love for you can’t possibly fade The moment I laid my eyes on you A couple is what needs to be made With you gone, there is nothing now for me to do The moment I laid my eyes on you My heart had then become filled with joy With you gone, there is nothing now for me to do All you can see in me is a boy My heart had then become filled with joy You and Me, I believe we are meant to be All you can see in me is a boy There is something you just do not see You and Me, I believe we are meant to be You’re so beautiful like a waterfall’s cascade There is something you just do not see My love for you can’t possibly fade

Help Queen Of Hearts
Queen Of Hearts Is Trying To Get To Godmother.. She Currently Has 1,288,429 Points to go ..Lets Help Her Get There... We Can Do This. ~*~¢¾¢¾Queen Of Hearts¢¾¢¾~*~

The Weekend Is Here
Got up this morning at 0730, and did a nice short 3.4 mile run, about 1 mile into the run I felt my hamstring hurting, so I decided to ease up on my speed. I found a race in febuary that I'm intrested in (San dieguito half marathon/5k), I haven't made up my mind yet on wich race I plan on running, but either one I plan on making it a blast. I'm really in need of a good race, I'm not to fond of being stuck in a classroom, and studying all the time. I went to the gym after my run, and decided to do a ab workout, I noticed alot of cute caucasian females in the gym this morning, that made me extend my workout even more longer in the gym, and they were in really good shape, thats always a good thing in my book. Called my mom (hehe mommy) today, and told her about my rough schedule at the school, and that I have dropped to 136 pounds because of my lack of eating, etc. On weekdays I seem to average only 1 meal a day, and that's during lunch time, my evening meal always ends up being so

Think Before You Speak
Think before you speak... Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak - the last one is great! Have you ever spoken and wished that you could immediately take the words back...or that you could crawl into a hole? Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did.... FIRST TESTIMONY: I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, 'How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?' I turned around and walked back out and never went back. My husband didn't say a word...he knew better. SECOND TESTIMONY: I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen who works at the store. He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said, 'I think I like playing with men's balls . THIRD TESTIMONY: My sister and I were at th

Ok I'm Bored..
Any SBGs Want To Make Any Bets With Me On Todays N.F.L. Playoff Games??? I'll Let You Choose What The Bet Is.

What Does Freinds Really Mean?
well i think a true meaning of freinds is someone who will be there for u trough the good ad bads someone who will go out of there way to help u out, someone who will give u money bc they believe ur needs are more important then ur own. im a true freind so if u need one add me as a freind ic an help u havea better life or help u level up, tell ur freinds bout me too.

Near Death Experience?
ok, maybe not so much. I came in to work, and my 2nd shifter told me that the maintenance guy was about to go home, but decided to doublecheck the electrical room. Well, he found that...a heater for a swimming pool was on friggin fire! Not only that, but it was right next to the gas valves for the fireplace in the lobby. Fire and gas valves don't really go together that well, so the Fire dept was called, and they had to put out the flames in the electrical room. If the dude didn't go to check, the left wing of my workplace would've been found 5 miles away. on a brighter note, tho, we have a deal with a local pizza place run by Bulgarians, and when we have enough orders from the guests, they sign a sheet, and we get free pizzas :) I came in, and the sheet was full, so I called in to order food. The dude noticed my accent and name, and asked if I was Russian. I said yes, and he said he is Bulgarian; we chit chatted in Russian for a bit, and he took my order for a greek salad, che

How To Love
Love is a strange thing. It can be the most amazing feeling in the world, or it can really hurt, but in the end love is something most, if not all of us, will face. While there are many different ways to define love and there are many different ways to love someone (even yourself), here is a general guide to loving. Say it. When you say the words "I Love You", they should carry with them the desire to show someone that you love them, not what you simply want to feel. When you say it make sure you really mean it and are willing to do anything for that special person. Empathize. Put yourself in someone else's shoes. Rather than impose your own expectations or attempt to control them, try to understand how they feel, where they come from, and who they are. Realize how they could also love you back just as well. Love unconditionally. If you cannot love another person without attaching stipulations, then it is not love at all, but deep-seated opportunism (one who makes the most of an

Tag
You Can Only Type One Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? charger 2. Your significant other? chandra 3. Your hair? short 4. Your mother? work 5. Your father? home 6. Your favorite thing? laptop 7. Your dream last night? none 8. Your favorite drink? pepsi 9. Your dream/goal? job 10. The room you're in? mine 11. Music? rap 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? sucessful 14. Where were you last night? bed 15. What you're not? fake 16. Muffins? blueberry 17. One of your wish list items? bike 18. Where you grew up? washington 19. The last thing you did? text 20. What are you wearing? casual 21. TV? off 22. Your pets? 7 23. Your computer? vaio 24. Your life? grat 25. Your mood? happy 26. Missing someone?

I Like You...
Telling someone you like them is hard isn't it? Because, you have to pick the right place, to tell them those three words to their face, You have to tell them what you feel, hoping what they feel is also real, You have to tell them "I like you", and hope they say back "I like you too.", You have to tell them cause it feels right, and it's time to say the speech you practiced all night, You really want them to know it, but you're too afraid to show it, So your waking up everyday, letting time just pass away, Not telling them is a bad thing to do, so quit being shy and just tell them what you believe is true, just tell them "I like you"

Biography For Mae West
Biography - Mae West Date of Birth: 17 August 1893, Woodhaven, New York, USA Date of Death: 22 November 1980, Hollywood, California, USA (complications from strokes) Birth Name: Mary Jane West Height: 5' 1" (1.55 m) Mini Biography: Mae West was born in Brooklyn, New York, to "Battling Jack" West and Matilda Doelger. She began her career as a child star in vaudeville, and later went on to write her own plays, including "SEX", for which she was arrested. Though her first movie role was a small part in Night After Night (1932), her scene has become famous. A coat check girl exclaims, "Goodness! What lovely diamonds!", after seeing Mae's jewelry. Mae replies, "Goodness had nothing to do with it". Her next film, in which she starred, came the following year. She Done Him Wrong (1933) was based on her earlier and very popular play, "Diamond Lil". She went on to write and star in seven more films, including My Little Chickadee (1940) with W.C. Fields. Her last movie was

Forgotten Ideals Of Our Forefathers - Part 1
"President Barack Obama says Americans must hold tight to the ideals of our forefathers." So this is part one. And we'll focus on the 2nd Amendment. There are two quotes I want you to think about as you read this. First, "Those who fail to remember the past, are doomed to repeat it". And second, "If you want peace, you must prepare for war". Sad but true reminders. The ideal of our Forefathers was to have a Republic, formed by the people, of the people, for the people. This was spawned by the want to get away from the Monarchy in England, who imposed one set of rules for the aristocrats and the political elect, and another for the peasants. Rule was handed down by the Church of England, by the Monarchy, and by Nobles. They decided what was good for everyone else, forced others do these things, then lived the way they wanted to, as they were unaffected by these laws. Unfortunately the old saying is true, "If you want peace, prepare for war". So with th

Please Read
i deleted a bunch people if u were one of them im sorry jsut means we dont talk at all i dont do drama i dont want drama if u got it take it somewere els please i dont want it here my life is complicated enough wiht running a buisness and rodoe which take up most of my time thank u as for the rodeo my next date is feb 6th in fort worht texas then form there gillete wyoming then to oklahoma city so keep watch for updates hope everyone is have a good weekned and keep your heads up life is to short to be pissed all the time

The Under 30 Crowd
THE SPOILED UNDER-30 CROWD!!! If you are 30 or older you will think this is hilarious!!!! When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning Uphill... barefoot... BOTH ways Yadda, yadda, yadda And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we wanted to know something, We had to go to the library and look i

Body Stats
Body Statistics It takes your food seven seconds to get from your mouth to your stomach. One human hair can support 3 kg (6 lb). The average man's penis is three times the length of his thumb. Human thighbones are stronger than concrete. A woman's heart beats faster than a man's. There are about one trillion bacteria on each of your feet. Women blink twice as often as men. The average person's skin weighs twice as much as the brain. Your body uses 300 muscles to balance itself when you are standing still. If saliva cannot dissolve something, you cannot taste it. Women reading this will be finished now. Men who read this are probably still busy checking their thumbs. =

Update On "request For Prayers"
A warrant for his arrest was issued on Fri 1/23/09 Thank you everyone for your love and prayers. You all mean so much to me! Your kindness and friendship has helped me be strong for my daughter to help her get through this dark time.

*feel The Wind*
Can you feel the wind As it blows through your soul Can your heart find its way When it knows not where to go. Would your path lead to me If all in you was clear Am I anything in your heart That you truly hold dear. I will wait patietly For to ease in your mind Even till the winds never blow Till the end of time

Love
Too love so completely you hurt for all they do is this really worth it? To give yourself and feel lonely still is it worth it? Love can be the greatest thing yet also be the cause of so much pain, so is it worth it?

Soundgarden Vs. Blue Stahli
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Boxxy
Enjoy :P

Last Chance
Steely light caresses your face Lighting it in eerie stillness Pale angles come to be Enhancing your inner illness A face so beautiful, so serene Shining gaily in the light of morn Shielding from view your pain Of your fragile heart torn Only the grey, dim light From the harsh, cold moon Shows your tattered inner self Unseen in the rays of noon No doctor nor counselor Can mend nor patch the tear That is the soul and heart Of someone that I care I foolishly have tried to bridge The chasm that has grown From reckless and cold men Keeping a part of you alone Give your all to me now And finally you will know There is someone in this life True love to you will I show I hold out my hand to you No string will I attach I only offer hope and redemption A bandage your heart to patch If truly I am the one to spend This life and the next w

M.c. In Tribute - To Be Finished
Rolls off on crimson shades As the wheel turns Bent at the will off the mind Its can be made off butter Iron is not strong Shine down beyond the stars Feel the love of the sun Absorb the taste Pills amade of cards Tranced out Tigers Killer Caterpillars Evel Weevilsssssss Hitting the ivory paer off memories as pencils flex in strange odd way & The light side of all It is the Twilight zone

Heres To Us Wit Broken Hearts ... Creation Belongs To Mi Hermana, Bella
Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught shit from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while. We went through t

Bathroom Doors
There are many concepts out there that are hard for a human mind to comprehend. For me, one of those concepts is a door in a public bathroom that requires a handle to be pulled in order to open it. Obviously, these doors are designed for us to physically touch that handle in order to let ourselves out. It is also obvious that whoever decided to install those types of doors by now has got to have some sort of desease caused by constantly touching the said handle every time they use a bathroom. Why? Because, while in an ideal world all creatures would wash or at least rinse their hands after having their them in such close proximity to their not so clean nether regions, we do not live in such world. There is always that one individual that, as much as our peripheral vision lets us, we see make a bee line from a stall or a urinal directly to the door (we also usually try to look in the mirror to see if we personally know this savage so we can tell our coworkers about his/her awful h

It Was Late (poem)
Late night cells coexist within the flames of candlelight bathing skin but the night begins as a peach and purple corset watching over with her flesh the prisoner as straps and curves down to the fishnets that capture better yet the thong with her booty in attendance attached eyes to the panty line fall to the 6inch spike purple & peach trimmed heels that appear kind to the eye with his man to the sky he realizes the gift he has to UNWRAP he reaches out but he is out of time when morning comes he awakens and opens his eyes to find Nothing

Thanks To Stupid Morons I Had To Make A New Yahoo
thanks to stupid morons i had to make a new yahoo the.dark_prince1@yahoo.com

Quote
Your daily kiss fortune: Speak this day in the universal language of love. --- Be brave - speak from your heart and the answer you receive may surprise you.

1st.
ive been listening to the super 21345 song shuffle on the ipod lately. stuff comes up and im like 'oooooooooooooooh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.' first up. steppin' razor by sublime. off of robbin' the hood. that is some good shit.

Joke Of The Day
***joke of the day****Two nuns are ordered to paint a room in the convent, and the last instruction of the Mother Superior is that they must not get even a drop of paint on their habits. After conferring about this for a while, the two nuns decide to lock the door of the room, strip off their habits, and paint in the nude. In the middle of the project, there comes a knock at the door. "Who is it?" calls one of the nuns. "Blind man," replies a voice from the other side of the door. The two nuns look at each other and shrug, and, deciding that no harm can come from letting a blind man into the room, they open the door. "Nice gazongas," says the man, "where do you want these blinds?"

Life
I am in a world were all I do Is work and take care my children An yes I am thankful and love doing it

I Guess It Is Time To Show Fubar Something
I pay for this site the same as many of you ! We are being told that we are to do as only they would have ... Now we are to rate real slow ... our auto 11 has been turned into something useless. the whole purpose was to gain points and now fubar has made a big mistake ... I think all of us should choose not to renew our vip ... not to purchase bling packs ... not to buy happy hours... this will send the message that needs to be heard . We are the customer ! We are their paycheck ! We are dissatisfied !

Was This Nsfw ?
My MUM was deleted and I was told it was offensive. I think fubar just did not like what I had to say ... I voted by cancelling my VIP . It ends on the 18th. I won't renew . Funny but this site really has no idea of how to treat customers. I pay for this site the same as many of you ! We are being told that we are to do as only they would have ... Now we are to rate real slow ... our auto 11 has been turned into something useless. the whole purpose was to gain points and now fubar has made a big mistake ... I think all of us should choose not to renew our vip ... not to purchase bling packs ... not to buy happy hours... this will send the message that needs to be heard . We are the customer ! We are their paycheck ! We are dissatisfied ! Am I wrong ? DEAD WRONG 25.9% (15 votes) Right On 74.1% (43 votes) 58 votes 249 views 42 comments Report mum as NSFW (Not Safe For Work) [?]

Story From Drfeelgood79
So there you are in the hotel room, your nerves and exciement mixing together causing you to pace the floor in the outfit we picked out together over emails. You are in the sundress and shoes we picked out on emails. You glance down at the bed and look at the blindfold you bought. You shake your head not understanding how you were talked into this, but the anticipation is something you can't walk away from. You're feeling as if one touch to your body will send an orgasm through you. You pick up your phone, take a deep breath, and call my phone letting me know the room number. I ask if you are still ok with this plan and you say, "yes." I tell you that I'm just entering the lobby, so I'll be up in a couple minutes. You go to the door, open in slightly as we discussed and go to sit down on the corner of the bed. You are still shaking your head and wondering why you find it so exciting to "meet" like this, especially since you have only seen my picture. It's not long before you hear th

The Past Week
so this last week has been one crazy week for me i went to Oregon for the first time, that was great we went up there to work on stuff for Laura"s wedding, it was great being able to see lil grandma and grandpa (i think its been about 3 years since i seen them last) i have some photo's up if you want to take a look, sadly there was not a lot of snow just some on the grand when we were going thought the pass. But its all good, so i get home and mom tell me that Quentin might be going on strike but as of right now all they did was some of the clock pickteding but from the last that they told me there not going to go on stricke cause they like they way the new contrack so yea im happy about that then on wednesday we get a call from my aunt Kelly (she is Quentin sister) letting us know that my aunt Sharen is in the hospital an well its not looking all that great for her so yeah im really going to miss her i do have one thing to look forwared to Mike will be coming up on wednesday

My Mind Plays It Over And Over ....
I'm leavin the same way I came in It's lookin forward but I can't see straight It's just like I know where I'm going It's just like me to fool myself I'm what happens Buried by the words of a liar I'm what happens But I'm alive and I'm still breathin yeah We're sane because of her taste You didn't say enough (?) My mind plays it over and over Slow motion But we're moving faster, moving faster So much further Let's not lose control Light a match just to watch it burn Struck Light a match just to watch you burn Where are you goin? How far? Where are you goin? Let's give them HELL! We're sane because of her taste You didn't say enough (?) My mind plays it over and over Slow motion But we're moving faster, moving faster So much further Let's not lose control I'll bite the bullet Just to save myself Oh! Oh no, this ship is quickly sinking We gotta take control, gotta take control Oh no, this ship is quickly sinking We gotta take control, gotta take c

Turn The Other Way.. Avenged Sevenfold
Got my ticket already! Yay! Slit my wrists, take away the pain. Slit my throat, there's no one to blame. Lost in the fields of confusion. Restless nights, they're not far away. Away, what. I came here for something and I'm not turning back. Strong piece of mind but you still hold my keys. Keeping my fate deep within your threshold. Petty inconvenience but it means the world to me. You have the power. To set me free. Caught in your grasp, how? Just let me be. Give me control out. Out of these depths. A fiery hell. I pray for death. I've been the wrong one time and time again. Now I'm on my knees forgive me please. Tore out my heart, handed to me on a silver platter. Sew up the hole, emptiness in the place of compassion. You made me this way. I am the product of your creation. Sew up the hole, right now, Now you look the other way. You've turned away from me, The future's much to far away to see. I hope you learn the truth, not the way things wer

Atm Robberies And Dangers
PLEASE PASS THIS INFORMATION ON. THE RECENT TRAGEDY OF A YOUNG WOMAN BEING KIDNAPPED AND EVENTUALLY KILLED;AFTER SHE HAD REPEATEDLY GIVEN THE KIDNAPPER A WRONG PIN TO HER ATM CARD. IF SHE KNEW THE METHOD BELOW, SHE COULD HAVE BEEN SAVED. SO I THINK IT IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH TO LET YOU KNOW. HERE YOU GO. IF YOU SHOULD EVER BE FORCED BY A ROBBER TO WITHDRAW MONEY FROM AN ATM MACHINE, YOU CAN NOTIFY THE POLICE BY ENTERING YOUR PIN # IN REVERSE. FOR EXAMPLE IF YOUR PIN NUMBER IS 1234 THEN YOU WOULD PUT IN 4321. THE ATM RECOGNIZES THAT YOUR PIN NUMBER IS BACKWARDS FROM THE ATM CARD YOU PLACED IN THE MACHINE. THE MACHINE WILL STILL GIVE YOU THE MONEY YOU REQUESTED, BUT UNKNOWN TO THE ROBBER, THE POLICE WILL BE IMMEDIATELY DISPATCHED TO HELP YOU. THIS INFORMATION WAS RECENTLY BROADCAST ON FOX TV AND IT STATES THAT IT IS SELDOM USED BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T KNOW IT EXISTS. PLEASE PASS THIS ALONG. You can go on snopes to verify

Obama
What an unadulterated D-bag. Things aren't going his way so he runs away to Camp David with his tail between his legs? He's a coward and his inexperience is coming through. What a lousy horrible four years of corruption and scandal this is going to be.

Is This The End... Or A New Beginning???
~the pain i feel inside is like no other... crawling through my veins like a spider... i wish i could take back what was done... but reality prevents me from doing so ~did you ever feel like a thousand knives were stabbing every vital organ in your body??? or feel like someone was blocking off your wind pipe without them every physically doing so??? ~dreams seem so far away. every time i believe I'm one step closer... i fall 50 steps back... only to go through the same shit all over again ~i cause this hurt and pain upon myself. why do i lust after this behavior of myself??? is this all i truly know??? is this what I'm destined for the rest of my life??? ~I'm not used to being treated like i am loved by someone. i love the way i feel when im around you. but if i love the feeling of being loved back... why do i always find a way to ruin it??? could it be an imbalance in my mind??? is this how i truly am??? ~i don't like the person i am... can i die and be reborn

Texaco's Mess
In 1967, Texaco discovered oil in traditional indigenous territories in what is known as the Oriente region of Ecuador. This area, also known as the Ecuadorian Amazon is located in the Upper Amazon basin which covers portions of Colombia, Ecuador, Peru and Bolivia. The Ecuadorian Amazon is a biodiversity hot-spot containing one of the planet’s largest array of species, including many large cats like the puma and jaguar, over 20% of the world’s species of birds, and at least 200 different types of orchids. -I love orchids by the way, have many in my home. Texaco began oil drilling operations that would continue over the next two decades. The main pipeline was built across known fault-lines and spilled 17 million gallons of crude oil — one and a half times the amount of the Exxon Valdez oil spill — into the pristine area. In order to save money, Texaco cut corners instead of following industry-approved standards of safety that are the standard in the U.S.. Normally, the toxins used for

My Weakness
Weakness comes over me when I see the darkness in your face. I want to reach out, hold you and take away the shadows in your life. But I see her there waiting for you, closer than I , to catch you as you're falling, to be the warmth and the light when your world leaves you in the cold and dark. So I step back in my own shadows and wait now for my own glimmer of light.

Rediculous
Okay everyone has noticed all these new changes to fubar supposedly its for the better i honestly think its getting a little outta hand i got up this morning and realized that the drink prices have sky rocketed it 950 fubucks for a 20% drink what the hell! i totaly understand that its just prtend money not a big deal but this site is supposed to be fun and here lately all i see is a bunch of gouging i have quit rating because it has just became a hassle and only comment those who comment me or thatse on my familys list. now fubar is draining my fubucks just to buy virtual gifts for my friends which would mean that if i want to keep buying for my friends i must rate to get the fubucks but it takes so long just to rate a hundred pics so idk if its worth it any more i have only been on this site sence it was cherry tap and everyone that i know thats been on here sence it was lost cherry thinks that it was better then. i must agree this site was once just for the fun and the connections an

Randomness
Not sure what to write here as this is my first ever blog...Woohoo I feel like on of the cool kids now. Ok so I guess i'll tell a little about myself and where i'm at. I am in the Army National Guard in PA. I am currently serving in Iraq. I am in the infantry and my current jod is as the squad leader for the PSD (personal security detail) of an MiTT which stands for Military Transition Team. They help train the Iraqi Army. Any time this team goes outside the wire, my team must go along to provide security/protection for them. Let me say a BIG thank you to any Fubar members who have been here before. It is a different place than when some of you were here and I can't imagine what you may have witnessed. Thanks!! Uh oh---gotta go for now but will add more to this later. Bye and thanks for stopping in : )

All About Me
Well Im 6' weight is about 175! I Enjoy spending time with my family and friends. I enjoy riding motorcycles and 4 wheelers. I Have 3 Wonder children. I love my future wife to be by the way for the ones that dont know it is Dj Acid. If you want to know more just come to my lounge and find out. The Jack Daniels Lounge

.lmao.
Some people really make me laugh. Anyway I'm not into drama so its cool. You're not going to start any with me so don't try :) Bitches get a life, for real.

Tokens Of Love: Never The End
In Tokens of Love I introduced Cosmo and Wanda - colorful little zebra finches that my husband bought me because I have an enduring childlike glee in anthropomorphism - the attributing of human traits to animals and other objects. The story continues... I found Wanda dead in her food bowl one morning last year. It really was not a good year for my critters. The great rat plague was also last year; no, I was not fighting a vermin infestation, I just howled like a wounded banshee (imagine the racket) when Miss Muppet, the most determined and independent rat in the whole world, died in my hands on the way to the vet. Then her mate keeled over, and then the little replacement rat that we got to keep Miss Muppet's widower company kicked it too. But back to the bird brains and strains... Hurt Wing - the amazingly caring father of the doomed Weeble - just disappared from the cage one day. One can only imagine the velocity at which he needed to fly in his one direction only circle

Fantasy 5
the night is long as a fierce storm rages,and the rain has flooded out the road.the young woman tries useing cell phone but all signal is down.as she is sitting there,she quickly realises she won't be able to make it home this night.as she turns her car around and starts heading back.she's only been driveing a few miles when she notices a castle off the road and up a big hill.she sees lights on inside,and knowing she is drenched and cold and not wanting to keep driveing turns down the road leading toward the castle.as she approaches the castle the young woman notices men walking the grounds patroling.smileing to herself knowing she will be safe here,she keeps driveing up to the front doors of the castle.upon reaching them,as she turns her car off and tries her cell phone one last time.the front doors of the castle open and standing there bathed in the light stands a man with long white blonde hair dressed in dark black clotheing wearing along dark cape with blood red lineing.the man wa

Megaten
http://megaten.aeriagames.com/

Moonlight - Prologue
(This is a SL done with my good friend M. We've been writing together now for over a year. Hope you enjoy) ' "The genetic splicing of the subject was a success. Testing will resume as scheduled... " ' ' "The subject completed the maze in record time..." ' ' "She's broken out of her cell! LOCK DOWN THE LAB IMMEDIATELY. .." ' Roxane Yamagashi awoke with a start from yet another nightmare. Sitting up in her bed, she pushed the silken strands of her raven hair back from her face as her breath came out fast and deep, a light sheen of sweat covered her brow. Tossing aside the bedcovers, Roxane slipped from the bed and went into the en suite bathroom. Turning on the overhead light, she gasped when she caught sight of her appearance in the mirror. Her deep coppery colored skin appeared to be a sickly yellow under the harsh lighting of the bathroom; and her large green-blue eyes had dark circles beneath them. Turning on the water faucet, Roxane splashed some cool water onto her f

Vengence
How can I be... So in love yet so consumed by anger? How can it be... That you are still in my head, still pissing me off? How can I... Forget how I loathe you? How can I... Forget how you promised me everything and gave me nothing? Who the FUCK were you... To lie to me, use me, make me your glorified whore? How could I... Have wasted it all on you? Every kiss, every tear, every cent What do I have to do... To make you go away? You played me for a fool I trusted your bullshit and bought your promises You told me I was it for you...the girl you never thought you'd find...the one...the best...the only...forever... I bled for you...I begged for you...I waited for you... You broke me...buried me...pissed on my grave You put me in a box....up on a shelf...and found another toy to play with She buys your lies...falls for your charms...believes your fake affection But one day...it will happen...she'll give it all...you'll take

Sex
Two deaf people get married and during the first week of marriage they find that they are unable to communicate in the bedroom with the lights out since they can't see each other signing, or reading lips. After several nights of fumbling around and many misunderstandings, the wife figures out a solution. She writes: "Honey, why don't we agree on some simple signals? For instance, at night, if you want to have sex with me, reach over and squeeze my left breast one time. If you don't want to have sex, reach over and squeeze my right breast two times." The husband thinks this is a great idea. He writes back to his wife if she wants to have sex with him, reach over and pull on his penis one time. If she doesn't want to have sex, pull on his penis two hundred and fifty times.

Adult Site? I Think Not!
When I 1st joined this site a little over 1 full year ago it was promoted as "The MySpace for ADULTS"!! Why then is it that the adults here are forced to hide their N.S.F.W pics in private albums? Sure, it is fine for those who have certain pics they only want to share with their fu friends and fu family. Or for the gold diggers who want to make a buck or 3 off their pics by charging REAL $ before they grant access. Which is fine their page, their pics, their choice as much as it is my choice to move along to another profile without rating adding or even fanning those members. Anyway. I think the answer can be found by looking at the limp wrist pansy assed self appointed "moral policemen" that are allowed to remain on this site after they REPEATEDLY flag pics as NSFW EVEN after those same pics have been approved by the bouncers over and over and OVER again!! Solution? Take the anonymity out of the equation. Make it where if I flag someones pic(s) as NSFW or someone flags mi

Contest
so there this contest iam going to today its a tournament for street fighter 4 so hopefully i win first place get a free copy of the game iam not sure on whats 2secd place has probably nothing

þðr¢¥lïñ Ððll
This porcylin doll sits in my head observing all life but crowling with dead Dust rots its temptuouts veins Dripping through blood entering brain This porcylin doll it sits in my heart seeping with posion stabbing with darts Choking my air as I long for escape Returning to darkness my only embrace falling with stars in this flash of demise bleeding with joy to the tears I cry Filling its beauty with hauntidly strife gaining my weakness my scream to my life This porcylin doll it is my own self stealing my thoughts but sharing its wealth Leaving my corps through dusting ashes my porcylin doll and my many own clashes

Blah
Putting words to thoughts My mind is crossed Mangled and tangled Im lost...

True Idiots Of 2008!! A Must Read!!
Just in case you need to feel good about yourself today. . . Number One Idiot of 2008 I am a medical student currently doing a rotation in toxicology at the poison control center. Today, this woman called in very upset because she caught her little daughter eating ants. I quickly reassured her that the ants are not harmful and there would be no need to bring her daughter into the hospital. She calmed down and at the end of the conversation happened to mention that she gave her daughter some ant poison to eat in order to kill the ants. I told her that she better bring her daughter in to the emergency room right away. Here's your sign, lady. Wear it with pride. Number Two Idiot of 2008 Early this year, some Boeing employees on the airfield decided to steal a life raft from one of the 747s. They were successful in getting it out of the plane and home. Shortly after they took it for a float on the river, they noticed a Coast Guard helicopter coming toward them. I

Finally Done!
I went into day to get the procedure done, I'm so damn glad it's over however after he was done I felt faint, almost passed out on the nurse that was in the room with me & the doctor/mother.. I did not feel a thing while he was doing it which is a good thing although, knowing that it's emmbersing I had shit all over the place why I do not know, maybe from my nurves or because of the speculum pushing on my rectum anyways he gave me some killer ass pain meds/ antibiotics can not take that till a week from now, I am to see him 5 weeks from today but the fucked up thing is John & I have reservations on the 23RD of March which falls in the line of when he wants to see me, so I'm going to try & try to get an APP on the 19TH which will be 4 weeks I mean hell what is a week? Anyways I am glad that it's all over an everything came out o.k. for know till I get the results from the LEEP, we're all praying here that all comes out o.k.... I thank everyone who was there with me/praying an support

Rip Grams
OK FOR ALL THAT DOSE NOT KNOW AS OF MONDAY AT 8:50 AM WASHINGTON STATE TIME I LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME SHE WAS LIKE A MOM 2 ME MY GRANDMOTHER SHE WAS 62 GOIN TO BE 63 ON THE 25TH OF THIS MONTH IT WAS A TOUGH ROAD THAT LED UP TO THIS POINT BUT WE ALL NEW IT WOULD GET HERE IT WAS ONE OF THE HARDIST THINGS THAT I HAD TO DO SHE DIED HERE AT HOME AND IS BEAIN CREMATED SHE PASSED AWAY WITH A SMILE ON HER FACE AND SURROUNDED BY THOUSE WHO SHE TOUCHED WITH HER KIDNESS AND WHO LOVED HER DEARLY SHE MAY HAVE PASSED AWAY BUT SHE IS NOT TOTTALY GONE AND SHE IS NOT FORGOTTEN SHE WILL ALWAYS BE PART OF OUR LIFES. I KNOW SHE WAS SAD BEACUSE SHE DID NOT GET TO MEET MY HUBBY AND BE PART OF OUR WEDDING BUT I KNOW SHE WILL BE THERE IN SPIRET SHE HAS TOUCHED MY LIFE LIKE NO ONE HAS DONE BEFORE SHE MAD ME WHO I AM TODAY AND I KNOW SHE IS VERY PROUD OF ME THAT I AM STARTING A LIFE WITH SOMEONE AND GETTIN MARRIED THAT IS WHAT SHE WANTED TO SEE BEFORE SHE PASSED AWAY WELL GRAMS I AM DOIN NOT JUST FOR YOU BUT F

Go Ahead And Be A$$holes
This is just for fun to see if I could do it. If you want, go ahead and repost this and see if you can answer all the following questions using only one word responses: Where is your cell phone? Charging. Your significant other? Away. Your hair? Down. Your mother? Unknown. Your father? Ditto. Your favorite thing? Conversation. Your dream last night? Unwell. Your favorite drink? Coke. Your dream/goal? Equilibrium. What room are you in? Study. Your hobby? Things. Your fear? Puking. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Home. Where were you last night? Bed. Something that you aren't? Finished. Muffins? Blueberry. Wish list item? Time. Last thing you did? Typed. TV? House. Your pets? Ferrets. Friends? Loved. Your life? Erratic. Your mood? Sick. Missing someone? Terribly. Drinking? Nothing. Smoking? Nope. Your car? Cobalt. Something you're not wearing? Necklace. Your favorite store? Krogers. Your favorite colour? Purple. When is the last time you cried? Yeste

Hory Clap
Donna@ fubar

Me
I'm a quiet shy man. I enjoy the quiet country life. My hobbies are hunting, fishing, camping, hiking, BBQ cook out, Monster Trucks, tractor pulles, family , nascar races , and anyother races. I look inside the heart and soul that what count in a person not the outside. My famliy are most important to my life. I trying to teach our children to respect other people in the southern way. I always here for my family and to love each of our children. I support each of family member in where is going on in other life. When I joke with you that a way to show I like you.

Love Lost
I am a stupid man A vaster a dream that’s all she will be Close too my heart but far from my touch The girl that I loved too much Skin smooth as a river flows as beautiful as a sweet red rose That’s how her beauty flow she stole my heart won't give it back for all the love she seem to lack I am such a stupid man to let her love slip thru my hands for know she loves another man and for that fact I can not stand because I am a stupid man This is dedicated to Nadia (my first love) if you are there some where reading this I’m not a thug any more or a drug dealer and you don't have to worry about me dieing all the time.

Life And Other Disappointments
Whats the point of being with someone if they cant respect you? Whats the point of having someone sleep next to you if they wont hold you? I just dont get how I am always the only one to try when it comes to a relationship. All I want is for someone to treat me the same way I treat them. Is that too much to ask for? My ex just keeps popping up. He says he wants to see the kids but he only comes by after he knows they should be in bed. Then he just wants to sit here and say how he wants me back. All I can do is ask what happened in the last three years of our marriage. When he cant answer me I ask why did you hit me. He still doesnt answer. I can deal with a lot of things as long as I love someone. The only two things I cant deal with are cheating and abuse. He knew that from day one. You hit me or hurt my kids thats it, its over. He says he wants another chance, but he doesnt want to try. I wont deal with someone using me as a punching bag reguardless of him being the f

Heheharhar
You’ve Been Tagged Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I brush my teeth in the shower 2. I hate cooked mushrooms 3. I like to drive around town blasting music 4. I only wear black socks with me new shoes 5. I own 2 Nsync shirts and I wear them proudly 6. My tongue ring hurts 7. I use anti bacterial body wash 8. I' am almost out of toothpaste 9. I could really go for a steak right now 10. Heretic secretly wants me I tagged Nicole, independent_sk8er, Raven, Scrapper and Eric650.

Still Hanging In There
well, for the past 2 nights I have stayed up WAY past my bed time so I could bid on spotlight....as you can see WE have not made it yet. I have the bux...my puter and fingers are just not fast enough, I guess. So, for now, I will continue to rate pics for bux and continue to take any donations and I'll try again next week. I am busy the rest of this week and I want to be here when WE do get spotlight. (remember, it's not all about me!) So for now....go by and see my girls VIVI, REEKA, and QUEEN COBRA. VIVI and QUEEN COBRA have birthdays the next 2 days and REEKA is having surgery on Thursday.....they need extra love this week! Thanks so much for supporting me in the fight against breast cancer.....have a great day! ~~smooches~~

My Dream
in my head these things i see i close my eyes and i picture a sky just as the sun goes down isee the reflection of the moon in the water and wonder some times what will that reflection show each time i close my eyes evry time i see some thing different some times good sometimes bad some times i see my self as my father and some times as a kid sometimes different things i cannot explain these images what do they mean i can see waves coming in now the water is at my ankles and i ccant move as the water rises i feel the sand beneath my feet begin to disipateand the sea slowly swallows me and i dont even scream and then all thats left is the reflection in the water and the moon Cody Fortescue: and my body becomes the sea Cody Fortescue: thats one of my dreams

The Reader's Revolution And Giving Up The Four C's
“In 1970 barely half the people in the world were literate, and many of them could only afford a few books. Middle-class people needed installment plans to afford an encyclopedia. Local libraries offered a limited selection of books; new titles were on sale in bookstores but soon disappeared unless they were bestsellers. Today, more than 80 percent of the world’s people can read, and 22 percent have access to the greatest library in history. The Web provides classic books and reference works like Wikipedia free of charge, and the online network of booksellers means that no book ever really goes out of print. Whatever it is, old or new, someone somewhere will sell it to you, often at a bargain price.” I needed something today – these excerpts from the February “Reader’s Digest” article, “It’s A Wonderful Life” have certainly been helping me – when I came online and found one friend I have on a page slurred with the same message thirty times. I can only delete one comment at a

To My Friends And Fam
hi all i'm writtin this to let u all know that i'm really sorry that i haven't been able to help u all out..as some of u may know that i've been goin through somethings and it has prevented me from bein on here i try to get on when i can to see ppl and to let u all know that i'm doin ok...once i get things straight i'll be back on and ready to help all that i can..

On The Road Again!!!!
well i will be heading out tomorrow morning..something a little different for me. going to work for a hotshot companie out of chico, ca. they run five trucks and will be going all over the country. pay is good and as for the equipment...2009 dodge duelly with 40 foot flatbed 5th wheel trailer. I WILL UPLOAD A PIC TO MY PHOTOS... as you see by the pic no sleeper.. i'll havea corperate card for motel stays along the way each nite. these things are set up pretty nicely. i am starting out in the morning taking some frieght down to BRAWLEY. CA.. down by the salton sea south of palm springs. this will be a different thing for me. so i will keep in touch as best i can...will be out 8 to 10 days at a time. so hope it all works out as planned...will be a first if it does. so take care and keep me in you thoughts...ola...marty

Untitled
Twilight, trust how quickly will sunrise descend upon us. La Primavera indeed! Deep waters swell, run clean and cold. Nervous shivers tickle my sides, make my limbs restless. A simple, pure energy envelops me, curls my lip. The whole world is alas drawing itself in; All at once the pieces sigh and settle against themselves. Satisfied, I chide at my needless worry; after all, now, what for? It seems, at this moment, things are just, and how they ought to be.

Dreams In Indiana
My dream job actually exists! I couldn't believe it when I heard, only problem is that it's in Idaville, Indiana. For someone who's never lived outside of California, Indiana seems like another world away. So, back to the job, it's at the Great Cats of Indiana. It's a large cat rescue facility over there. I don't presume to think I am in any way qualified for the job...yet, but I graduate next year, and I'll take the State and National board certification exams, then I will be Veterinary Technician, then some day I will eventually go to Vet School and be a veterinarian, but that's over-reaching my current goals. My other problem is getting there, and getting somewhere to live. That takes money, and a full time student with a part time job making minimum wage can't even hope to afford a one way plane ticket accross the country. What would be interesting to know is if anyone out there would be willing to go and take the tour they offer and look around the place for me and give me

Love
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Never Have I Fallen Your lips speak soft sweetness Your touch a cool caress I am lost in your magic My heart beats within your chest I think of you each morning And dream of you each night I think of your arms being around me And cannot express my delight Never have I fallen But I am quickly on my way You hold a heart in your hands That has never before been given away ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Love Is ... Love is the greatest feeling, Love is like a play, Love is what I feel for you, Each and every day, Love is like a smile, Love is like a song, Love is a great emotion, Tha

The Stars I Wish On At Night.
The stars I wish on at night Current mood: depressed Category: Life Here's an interesting situation. Recently I found out that my 3 year old son broke his elbow in 2 different places. Social services was called on to try and look into the matter. The information I got back was just absolute bullshit. They said they cant build a case cause they didnt think there was no abuse done to him and took no further steps to pursue the matter. Now how is it that a little boy at 3 yrs of age could break his elbow in 2 different places and the mom says it was an accident? In my opinion only violent abuse could have done that to him. I just wish he could just be placed with me forever and lead a decent life rather than be subjected to that kind of bullshit. Its just so weird how the state in which I live in just doesnt give a damn about its own children who live within it. It seems that no matter what I do, I cannot get the state to do anything against this fucking bitch cause she always find

Threesomes.... Sadly Not A Dirty Thing
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. *side note i am participating only with the understanding that i don't have to be honest serious and very openly sarcastic Three Names I go by 1. mine 2. dysskrasia 3. and now i am even bozo Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. us army 2. bar fly 3. whore... only sometimes i gotta make that green too Three Places I have lived 1. appartment 2. house 3. your closet Three TV Shows that I watch 1. house 2. the sheild 3. becker Three places I have been 1. couch 2. bathroom 3. kitchen Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. fubar shop *asses think everything i do is nsfw* 2. random and often scary looking strangers *hides* 3. other then that mostly sb no emails Three of my favor

My Younger Brother Vs. David Jordan 4
Mon, 2/9/09, Matthew Kestner: A painting has several colors, does this make you the center of the universe? No answer. This is addresing David's website article concerning Earth being 'the center of the universe'. The obvious answer is no. Mon, 2/9/09, Matthew Kestner: Last I checked the geocentric model was very inaccurate, care to SHOW ME otherwise David? No answer. Mon, 2/9/09, Matthew Kestner: What happens to 'Old Jerusalem' champ? No answer. Mon, 2/9/09, Matthew Kestner: Savior myths predate Jesus, too the point where he just stole their reputation (via Christian law enforcement). No one could have pagan demigod's, with the exception of JC. He replaced Apollo, Mithras, and several others, so when will it be enough? No answer as to when it be enough. Mon, 2/9/09, Matthew Kestner: How many more attributes does you're 'Savior' need to be picking up off of others? No answer. Mon, 2/9/09, Matthew Kestner: Where does 'the WORD' sa

Best Of Me
Why cant I, leave him alone? Break the chains that trap me in, and let him go Why cant I.. just break free? I can't explain what kind of hold he has on me I wanna say No, but all I say is Yes I wanna move on, and not second guess I wanna let go, but he just gets the best of me What is this, that makes me weak and fall? Even tho, he aint no good at all What is this, that keeps me here? When its brought me so much pain thru the years I wanna say No, but all I say is Yes I wanna move on, and not second guess I wanna let go, but he just gets the best of me Don't know why I stay It should be a crime what your doin to me And how u keep me comin' back And I don't understand how u do me like that But all I do is love you When all I should do is leave But it aint easy when he's got the best of me

Music Madlibs
RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF Hey Porter - Johnny Cash WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? The Arms of Sorrow - Killswitch Engage HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? London Calling - The Clash WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Forever Fades Away - Tiger Army IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? Kill the Poor - Dead Kennedys WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? Faithless - Social Distortion WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Boot 2 Boot - Horrorpops WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? More Human than Human - White Zombie WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT? Post War Breakout - Anti Flag WHAT IS 2 + 2? Ghost Tigers Rise - Tiger Army WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Shake - The Creepshow WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Joe Grind - The Aggrolites WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GRO

This Is Soo Mean And Hurtfull
Frist off yes I come off as a bitch but I am really nice and a sweet girl. And the ones who have got to talk to know should know this. Yes I havent got to all of you but I have been trying. Well this is why I come off the way I do. I am soo tired of this from guys and girls. Please take a look at this and see why I am hurt and crying http://www.fubar.com/images.php?u=2623894&albumid=1542377&idx=0

Come Bid On Me.... Auction Starts Today!!!
HEY I'M BEING AUCTIONED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!! COME SEE WHAT I AM OFFERING SOME LUCKY PEEP WHO HAS THE RIGHT BID!!!!!!!!!!!! AUCTION RUNS MARCH 1ST 5PM FU TIME TILL MARCH 8TH 5 PM FU TIME. CLICK ON THE PIC. TO BID PLEASE

Robbed From Psyche
Stole this because im bored....enjoy 1. What is your best friends name? dave 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? blue boxers 3. What are you listening to right now? nazareth 4. Whats your favorite number? 13 5. What was the last thing you ate? leftover souvlaki 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? tan 7. How is the weather right now? warm, sunny but gonna rain soon 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? donna 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes/boobs simultaneously 10. Do you have a significant other? Nope 11. Favorite TV show? naked archeologist on history intl 12. Siblings 1 bro and 2 sisters 13. Height? 5'10" 14. Hair color brown/silver 15. Eye Color? brown 16. Do you wear contacts? not putting anything in my eye 17. Favorite Holiday? st pats day 18. Month? may 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? last time i cried was when my dad died in 1986

Intriguing Phrasing...
words that i use, and don't remember where i got them, and thouroughly enjoy ( i do remember where i got some, credit where credit is due.) from an ex life long friend comes tremonstrous, hughnormous, and ginormous. others, are family, the rest i have no clue... seriously bent deeply nuts (movie quote) crazy not stupid ( from a joke, anda movie quote) i'm sory i don't believe i speak your english, would you translate for me please? genius level stupidity politely burp proudly fart sometimes it's even worse *pointing to a patch of the sky* that kinda blue random acts of kindness no good deed goes unpunished i like it square 2 guns, one for each of you my guardian angel is a loan shark and a billion or so more... love to those deserve it from a slightly odd perspective!

Blueeyedbrat Wants Spotlight
My friends are having a spotlight fund raiser to help me get the spotlight. We have salutes up for auction and I have 600 11'sup for auction If you like to auction off anything please shout or pm me. :) If you like to donate fubucks to send please send them to me here BlueEyedBrat ~ SargesBadGirl ~PROMOTER@SYNFUL DESIRES@ fubar Here are the sexy fu-friends of mine that is auctioning off a salute to help me out! :) Click the picture below to bid on 600 11's

Resources
You CAN Do it yourself! Avast! Antivirus This free anti-virus by AWIL Software is by far one of the best I've ever seen. Using Heuristic algorithms to detect virus "like" behavior - Avast is by far one of the best free scanners to date. AVG Free Another free anti-virus AVG by Grisoft has a long time in the field. AVG has been trusted by many, for a long time. I however am not a fan of this tool. AVG is lighter then avast and is good fro systems that lack power. Where Avast is a bit heavier and can slow certain low end machines. ZoneAlarm Personal Firewall If you have a router you dont need this. If you have a router but its in switching mode you probibly do need this. The easiest way to find this out is to take the folowing steps. Go to START > Run > and type "cmd" (without quotes). (( Vista Users do not have run, so just type "cmd" in the search box )). When The cmd.exe window opens type the folowing. Shell C:\Documents and Settings\user\> ipconfig /all this will

Halo 3
this is a retarded way to ask but hey if it works it works lol. anyone that has a 360 and halo 3 if u wanna get online and have a huge free for all with about 10 people let me know. i need someething to do when i got out of work and since none of my friends wanna hang as usual i figured that i would get people to join up and just have fun shootin each other up on halo. if u wanna join let me know. adios

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Thinking.......
Hey all, I know its been a while since I have wrote anything or even been on. Well I have something I have been thinking about & I just wanted to get it out before it festers. For the past month I have been working & have been going over to my former girlfriends house (b4 work & on my days off). We have been talking & I know that we are just friends, but I need to get this out. It does hurt that we are only friends, I miss her like you wouldn't believe & YES I'm still very much in love with her. She is helping me with A LOT & for that I am very thankful. I made a new year's wish that If I had 1 more chance to have her in my life I would take it. Well I guess this is my chance. I do miss saying I Love You, I Miss You, calling her baby, hunny, etc. Its very hard not to say it. I enjoy my time with her in whatever we do. Well I feel better that I got that out. I'm headed to work now so I will chat at y'all later. Dave

...
He was her artist Her body his canvas His lips the paintbrush She closed her eyes and imagined what a beautiful piece of art she was becoming as she felt his lips brush against her skin. Each sensation feeling more heightened than the previous... Vibrant greens and blues mixed with a shimmer of sliver swirled through her mind. The artist began smoothing his hands along the curves of the canvas, still continuing to apply bursts of color with the brush. The colors were becoming warmer and more intense... Violets, reds, and oranges danced in the center the painting. The brush kept dipping in and mixing colors together. The artist kept applying short fast strokes until the paint was just the color and consistency he wanted. The finishing touch was perfect as he stood back and admired his work. A translucent shimmer cast over the painting making the whole canvas seem to glow. This was indeed his masterpiece.

All Me
My life is mine and its revolves around my family and kids. I've decided not to let anybody in whose gonna tear me down or make me feel less important. I have to be happy in order for my kids to be happy. I am a loving mother and girlfriend who needs to learn how to be patient and trust others. That is my goal or I will never be happy!!!

Im A Hooker
buy my ass, you know you wanna

Why?
Is it necessary for people on this site to share EVERY detail of their lives? Why do I need to know about your sex life? Why do people feel the need to tell me how they enjoy anal sex? Is it absolutely necessary to be completely candid? Shouldn't SOME of these things still be off limits to tell a whole site full of random perves? It's one thing when you are having a one-on-one (no pun intended) and you're discussing these issues, because that's a private conversation. But turning around and sharing the details with the masses just makes the person in question seem easy. Maybe I'm just a prude, but I won't be sharing my sexual preferences in a mumm, or a blog that everyone can read. Sorry guys.

Crazy Thoughts
Why is it when your sleeping it`s called drool but when your awake its called spit? Why does the Easter bunny carry eggs? Rabbits don't lay eggs. Why doesn't the hair on your arms grow as fast as the hair on your head? If someone owns a piece of land, do they own it all the way to the center of the earth? Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle? If the FBI breaks your door down do they have to pay for it? If you fart and burp at the same time, would it make a vacuum in your tummy? If a doctor suddenly died while doing surgery, would the other doctors work on the doctor or the patient? Why do we sing "Rock a bye baby" to lull our little ones to sleep when the song is about putting your baby in a tree and letting the wind crash the cradle to the ground? Why do sleeping pills have warning labels that state :'Caution: May Cause Drowsiness? Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized? Why is it that no

March 12th
Totally Made Up News: A recent study aimed at women in long term relationships with men wanted to answer a simple question: “What physical improvements would you like to see in your man?” The creator of the study wanted to see if there were certain features of a man that would make women happier if those improvements were made. Originally the study was to be focused on general improvements in all areas, but it was soon realized that there would be no amount of paper available in the world to record the results. Narrowing the category was a delicate process, as most men find their physique an area of great sensitivity. The results were astounding. What do women want most from their men? Greater finger dexterity. Complaints on the subject had a large range, but most focused primarily on the ability to perform certain tasks. Among the list were typing, reaching things that had fallen behind desks, penmanship, removing splinters from other people, and at the top of the list, tying bo

Russian Bitch
I have a fiance, we been together for a longest time. Last week it turned out he was talkin to this Russian bitch from here, for a longest time. SHe has no decency at all, and have led him on to have feelings for her. The bitch is married, mind you, and its pissin me off that she would try to play my man like that. I didnt snoop around, but he left his messanger run and I saw her talk dirty to him like a shameless bitch. I know he doesnt want her, and that he knows she is married. But I am pissed as al hell that some one like her would do somethin like that. I kno he doesnt want her cuz we live miles away from where shes at. Adn she is not even his type. Watch out for her, so she doesnt do that to you. She is a bitch, and enjoys leading people on for fun.

Extenzeshuns
This is a spoof of the ExtenZe commercial that plays relentlessly after any sort of television event that men of a certain age might watch. You know that certain age - the age where the spirit is willing but the flesh is limp. I did some investigative reporting on the phenomenom of Erectile Dysfunction last night. I asked my husband endless questions regarding how it happens, when it happens, and the exact effect on a male psyche when it does happen. I wanted to know if a man felt desire for a woman, but the message just did not get from one head to the other - or if he just did not feel desire. I wanted to know if it was possible to have an orgasm if the pump handle on the sperm well of life was too noodley. He finally told me I was asking the wrong person and then proved it. But still... the comedy music was playing in my mind and so my windows movie maker was fired up and my creative juices flowed - all over the place. I decided to add some helpful hints as to what women

The New American Tea Party
there is a new american tea party....kinda like the boston tea party........look for their website...new america tea party.com, or american tea party.com!! they just started, and if you disagree with this bail out plan..the so called pork, the raising of stamps to .45 cents and so on, all they want you to do is........ to MAIL a TEA BAG to WASHINGTON DC on APRIL 1ST, SO THEY GET IT BY THE 15TH!! thats all they want you to do...if you agree where the money is going and stamps going up again...then dont send one.....that money could be given to every person....which comes to about 15,000 dollars and be told to spend....how many would pay mortages, credit cards off, but a newer car....hello theres the boost in the economy...hmmmm think about it!!

Mcdonalds
So, I used to play this online game about ten years ago. We had a habit of having really strange, but funny conversations. The following is a log of one of those conversations about McDonalds. Please note, all of the conversation from someone named Kalan is from me. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- S O L A R E C L I P S E --------------------------------------------------------------------------- [162 Mlnbn R 9] [VeNgeAnCe] Kalan, Founder of Windows, 1900 edition, Y2K LIVES {Anti} [201 Rhthn R12] [ ShiNobI ] Elite_Champion Strife pimps like Ronald McDonald [WED] Kalan gossips 'Strife, I have been wondering, does your title mean you have sex with small children?' Rufus falls down laughing. Strife gossips 'No no, that's Micheal Jackson, NOT Ronald Mac' Justice gossips 'You sure?' Rufus gossips 'Ronny M ' Strife gossips 'I think.' Rufus gossips 'Ronny does it with clown makeu

Rant
Isn’t it an interesting thing… Why do people keep assuming how you think and feel? Why do they try to put you in a role? And when they should KNOW you better, still do that? It has happened so many times I have learned to keep my heart guarded And to be assumed as just being like a butterfly, flitting from one flower to another? Is it any wonder I am still single, and ready to tell all who are looking, to look in the hottest part of hell? I have found and lost. Some would say a lot, others would not. Rather than get shot at and just stand there, I am just not going to be there to be shot at. And to be told it is your fault when they are gone? That you pushed them away? How interesting, I never realized I was that much a masochist. It gets even more intriguing when it is assumed what you will and won’t do. That some things turn you on more than others. That anything beyond the moment is more than you can handle. That you can’t possibly consider anyone’s heart but your own.

How Do I
I HAVE A FEMALE FRIEND WHO WON'T GET THE HINT THAT I AM GETTING TIRED OF HAVING HER AROUND ME ALL THE TIME .... IF I AM ON HERE SHE SITS RIGHT BESIDE ME AND READS EVERYTHING I WRITE ... I SENT HER HOME YESTERDAY AND SHE CAME BACK LAST NIGHT ABOUT 1 IN THE MORNING SAYING SHE MISSED ME .... THEN SHE TOLD MY SON I INVITED HER BACK ... SO NOW SHE IS LIEING TO GET TO SEE ME .... I HAVE CAME RIGHT OUT AND IGNORED HER AND NOT PAID ANY ATTENTION TO HER AND SHE STILL STAYED AT MY HOUSE FOR 3 DAYS ... DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS ON HOW TO GET HER TO LEAVE

Taking A Fu-break
Well I am taking a break..I know some or going to assume or judge me on it and they can go ahead. I have to make a choice on what is important in my life. my real life and my bf and our relationship is whats important. I love him more then anyone on this site can understand or comprehend. For some reason I let people on this site bother me that shouldn't have. I love my friends and family on here esp. my forbidden inc family and I am sorry that my Dj'ing is taking a back seat but some things are worth sacrificing for the greater good. To anyone that I offended or pissed off I apologize that's and honest apology I was in the wrong and I am a big enough to woman up to that fact. Tommy a.k.a Dj Ghost is my bf and not just a fu-bf we live together..sleep together...eat together we are a couple have been for going on 3 years, and the past week I have been out of line with some females on their relationship with him . I have trust issues not going to get into why but I do ..the point

No Sense At All
A woman reads my profile on a dating site and comments in email as follows: "Just wanted to say something about I read in your profile. I am very open-minded, but men or women that talk about sex in the first couple conversations usually leads to a relationship based on sex. Believe me I've had a lot of experiece to guys doing that and then the conversations turn to sex only. One time this one guy felt so comfortable that he sent me a pic of his private part. I couldn't get the pic to focus, so I gave it to my 11 year old. He knows more about that than I do. I grabbed that phone, just before he realized what it was. Sex is better left for a face to face conversation, and it is very important, but not every other word. Which it eventually leads to, and I promise that is not the type girl you would want around your son. Just my opinion from someone with too much experience at that kind of talk." My reply: You of course realized you started a conversation about sex, right? D

Dirty Buisness
im going to lose my mind. i feel it slipping away from me. where is it going to? When will it return? These dreams i thought were a good thing. Now the world has turned to shit. Where to go from here. just another hypacryt Dancing with the devil for so long. Not sure now what to do. You consumed me body and soul. destroyed my innocents the best you could. now you dare to question my sanity. your the lunitic in this tragedy. so go and tell everyone the news. youve won your sick game. IM OUT OF MY MIND AND I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME...

Drugz Are Not My Best Friend
another lonley day for me to get through i need to find my way but thats hard to do.sobriety hurt so bad i wish to forget but i gave it all i had i knew i couldnt handle it.i need to find a high and ride it till the end without it i cant get by drugs are like my best friend.it picks me up when im low and at times gives me hope it helps the real me show and even helps me cope.it never lets me down and it never tells a lie it takes away my frown and helps me to get by.drugs are like my best friend when im all alone on them ill always depend because im scared of the unknown its been a hell of a ride but now it must end i know deep down that drugs arent my best friend.

Why
People always ask me the same question: waht was your reason to come here? uhm...the answer is the opportunities. In this country, I have all the opportunity in the world to make a better life for myself. Then someone sometimes says: "you have a college degree, and work an hourly job at a hotel at night. What gives, if this is a land of opportunity? Not taking advantage of opportunities doesn't mean you don't have them. I PREFER not to be a desk slave, to go anywhere whenever I want, to get big fat hotel discounts when I travel, and have time at work to do my art. I dont give a shit for flat screen TVs, salons, fancy purses, other shit, so why would I work extra hard for it? My only goal in life is travel and more travel, and I need a flexible job to do that. My parents are better examples of opportunities grabbed by the pants: I remember my mom working as a PhD'd scientist, and making less money than my friend's mom that was a chair factory worker. Same with my dad,

The Morning After Reality
Can someone in all honesty fall in love with someone and know in there heart and in there mind that it will never happen. Can two souls be so alike.. being in total sincronicity with one another ..knowing that just a single kiss could ruin this. Why do complications of the heart always fog the better of ones judgment .. is it the lack or reason or thought .. can love have purpose other then just the common thread that we all see it as .. Why can loving someone have such larger meaning and devotion yet cant. What is love.. a thought or a concept of what happiness is. When does happiness become love, just the simple questions one never thinks yet alone asks ..

Naughty Game 2
Lets play the If We Had Sex Game... Now don't be scared.... you never know who really wants to do you! Here are the rules to the game.. REPLY SO ONLY I SEE IT AND REPOST SO OTHERS CAN FILL OUT! 1. Would you be in control? 2. Would you pull my hair? 3. Would you whisper in my ear? 4. Would you talk dirty to me? 5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? 6. Would you say my name? 7. Would you go down on me? 8. Would you let me give you a hickie? 9. How many rounds would we go? 10. What would you wanna do afterwards? 11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly? 12. Would you lick and bite me all over? 13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point? 14. Would you want me to take my time? 15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10? 16. Would you want fast or slow? 17. Where would you wanna "do it"? 18. Would you be loud or quiet? 19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet? 20

April.11.2009
As everybody knows, every New Year some of us make a New Year's Resolution in an attempt to change our lives in some way, shape or form. Some of our resolution involves issues such as health, relationship, money, or personal goals. For the first couple of months, some of us will stick to our resolution or work as hard as hell to pretend like we are succeeding in our goals. However, half way through the year, the newness and excitement wears off and we start to forget what it is that we wanted

Without You...
With each kiss to your lips from him My lips warm with each kiss With each hug from him to you My body still warms with your touch With each moment of passionate love My body still feels you touching me With each moment your with him My body longs to leave this world For each time he touches you I am tortured by the memory I am flagrantly needing of you I am longingly desiring you I am hopelessly without you.

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What Should I Do Now
what kind of pix do yall think i should start putting up. pix of friends. pix of me. pix of me in work. i have had someone say that they want pix of my dick should i do that? im just not sure what i should do

There's No Love In Fear
Saw the gap again today, While you were beggin' me to stay. Take care not to make me enter. If I do we both may disappear. Maybe I will choke until I swallow. Choke this infant here before me. What is this but my reflection? Who am I to judge or strike you down? But you're Pushing me and shoving me. You still love me Still love me But you didn't think shit on me You still love me Still love me But you didn't think shit on me Rest your trigger on my finger, Bang my head upon the fault line. You better take care not to make me enter. 'Cause if I do we both may disappear. You're pushing and shoving Pushing and shoving You're pushing and shoving me You still love me Still love me But you didn't think shit on me You're pushing and shoving me Pushing and shoving me And I'm slipping back into the gap again. I'm alive when you're touching me, but not when you're shoving me down. But I'll trade it all for just a little Peace of mind. Pu

Twitterpated
Spring is the time where Twitterpation is most often seen. In my back yard is a perfect example. Every night, two by two, come the possums, the raccoons, the deer (although they were both does, so I do not know how that works out ultimately). By day there are the male and female bluejays, cardinals, sparrows, swallows, robins, doves, and squirrels. Nature has added a pond to my back yard. Its a gigantic mudpuddle, but to twitterpated ducks - a male and a female - it is the perfect place to swim. My cat also enjoys the new addition to the scenary. Stealthfully he made his way over the brush pile that I put in to place in order to combat any zombie attack - see the blog E.Z.A.D. - ENTITIES of ZOMBIE ATTACK DEFENSE - and there he still sits, ever so hopeful that the ducks might swim his way. Speaking of Twitterpated things. I just joined Twitter. Its really important that I be able to tell the world what it is I want to say. Minute, by minute, by minute - in excrutiating detail.

Life
so here goses some of me singel dad fightting to have myy son full time been thow hell all my life and trying to get a holed on it but not easy at all

Breakaway
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Hmhm
I said if we never get a chance to be together go with Jah,Jamie loves ya, wha me seh? It's a pity you already have a Man and me done have a Women inna mi life rudeGirl it's such a pity I woulda like one of these mornings to wake up and find your face on a pillow lying right next to mine I woulda cut out the partying the smoking and the rum and buss a extra wine and make we seal up a son well everytime mi fantasize me see your lips me see your eyes Your trigger finger do something a lef the rudeboy hypnotized For you it's just a thing, just another little fling But for me this is Heaven and the angel them a sing Fi buck you up inna public and cant even touch It really fuck me up because me check fi you so much The respect weh mi have fi your woman fi your kids believe me rudeGirl mi criss, a nuh matey this who knows? maybe one day the world will be evolved enough we'll share you in a civilized manner between the two of us But until then I woulda love see you again,

Conficker - Day 2 In The Bunker
0732 PDT - I am scared. I should have provisioned with something besides Smarties and Jelly Bellys. I woke up this morning in a Smartie induced haze and surrounded by plastic wrappers . I think the animals got into the sugary stash last night because the alpacas have all killed each other and the donkey is braying maniacally. 0758 PDT - My cordless electric razor has no charge. Conficked no doubt. 0850 PDT - I am trying to find out if the world has ended by listening for signs of life on my short wave radio. All I can pick up is a Mexican radio station blaring some accordian fueled Norteno music. I think its a Confick trick. 0945 PDT - Somebody shut this fucking donkey up! I am slipping into insanity ...

The Nameless
I wrote this thinking about a few people I've been very close too that have all either abandoned, or turned me away for some reason or another.  Your best served not asking if any of it applies to you, the best revenge lies in never uttering a word of reasons of the ifs, whens, whys, or hows or whats of the things that hurt you.  It was actually very theraputic writing this one. *smiles*I tenderly buried all of your secrets within the catacombs of my heartSo you could proclaim your innocence, and I could die with the burden of the sinsConsumed by the anger inside my soul that can't be dismissed or forgaveLeaving behind an empty vessel that waits praying to be filled full of rain Knowing that this is the existence I'm keeping as long as I'm inside this mental cageI ask only that you continue running as far away as the path your on can lead you awayFor there's no more neatly penned passageways, the whole world just scribbled lines upon a pageAs I sit with my head entombed into my palms t

R.i.p Aunt Connie
I still can't believe it....I just talked to her last week and I wake up to my mom telling me they found her dead in her apartment...the only decent person in my whole fucked up family is gone...she always kept us together or tried to but now it's gonna be hard to get anyone to do anything.... something about them finding her.....I don't like that and it really bothers me more then anything  I don't care what anyone in my family thinks about her, granted most never cared for her....I did and I still do and always will no matter what....she wasn't perfect but who the fuck is...no one... R.I.P Aunt Connie....I love you and miss you     

What Would You Do For 1000 Bling Credits?
please give a response what you would do for a $650 1000 bling credit.

My True Joy~
I wish i could wake up every morning And see your smiling face Holding you in my arms Seeing all your grace I wish i could fall asleep in your arms Every night of every day Feeling all your warmth Feeling so very safe Nothing could make me happier Than kissing your tender lips Hugging your body Feeling your gentle finger tips A day without you is hell With sadness and much pain But i know that without you completly I would never be the same I can help but think... How alone i used to be How unhappy i felt How i had sorrow for myself But then you came, to save me from my pain You have brightened my face, my heart, my soul You have made me feel special, my heart feels whole I never want to leave you I always want you to stay Because every part of me Loves you in each and every way! ~W.H.~   ~2009~

Themes
Ok, So my friend just talked me into doing a photoshoot for a calendar. My month is going to be December. So Im wondering if I should do a "Miss Xmas" theme orrrr like a "Santas Lil Helper" kinda thing... Lol, what are your thoughts or suggestions for themes or poses? Note me please!

Addicted
I'm so addicted to All the things you do When your going down on me In between the sheets All the sounds you make With every breath you take Its unlike anything when you're loving me oh girl lets take it slow so as for you well you know where to go i want to take my love and hate you till the end its not like you to turn away from all the bullshit i cant take it's not like me to walk away i'm so addicted to all the things you do when your going down on me in between the sheets all the sounds you make with every breathe you take its unlike anything when you're loving me yeahh i know when it's getting rough all the times we spend when we try to make this love something better than just making love again its not like you to turn away all the bullshit i cant take just when i think i can walk away, i'm so addicted to all the things you do when your going down on me in between the sheets all the sounds you make with every breathe you take its unl

The Second Amendment
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All I Need
Aching for your lips on mine Your hand on my hip Not knowing how you’re feeling Not wanting to slip Deeper into love, than I already am It’s so frustrating This anxiousness inside Is what I’m hating Scared of what to do, afraid of what you will say Scared of what to say, afraid of what you will do Scars from other relationships Guard me away Wanting to let go To not hide a thing To be totally open Oh what joy that would bring Wanting to tell you this To show you this To explain with this To experience the bliss Not knowing why Not knowing how My mind is boggled Where are you now? Are you at home? Asleep in bed? Afraid, just like me? All emotions fled? Not knowing what to say Not knowing what to do Sure of only this at the moment All I need is you  

Giggle
So i might be wrong an i might be mean but it gives me a good giggle to see people walk into the big glass window at work . I mean how can they miss that its a window an not a door come on there is a comp. on the other side of it . I cant help but laugh when they do this . But then again i have to act like i didnt see it hahaha .. Im an evil bitch i know it

Fubar Rules
u can rate folders with 1click if u have the extras, if not u get the rating 2 fast message,whats up with that,that makes no sense. then u have the rating limit 4 ur level per day cmon, thats silly also.were adults here so get a grip. what does it matter how much or how fast u rate,its not like ur gonna send me a big check for rating.this a game i thought,yeah u gotta make a little money 2 keep the site going, but fubar is not the only thing n life.

Mumms And Blocks
Why do people post mumms,asking for opinions,then when you give an opinion,you get this: · jsh rated you a '1'! · jsh just checked you out! they respond to your post in the mumm,then block you so you cant respond back in the mumm or in a shout....people who get butthurt in the mumms need to get the fuck over it,thats the way it is there. If you dont like people posting replies to your attempt for attention,then post a comment-approval mumm next time. This is the 2nd time this has happened to me for saying the exact same thing everyone else in the mumm was saying. I wonder if they got blocked too? It takes a coward and a pussy to ask for an opinion,get one,rate that person a 1,respond to their post,then block them so they cant respond back. Grow the fuck up, people.

How Well You Think You Know Me?
   

Pedifile Profile
PEDOPHILES....There is a class of individuals who prey on children sexually. They are known as pedophiles. Pedophiles will go to great lengths to gain access to children. Pedophiles have volunteered at church youth groups, worked as camp counselors, coached youth athletic teams and more. Though the number of pedophiles is unknown, from the amount of pedophile-oriented pornographic material on the internet it can only be assumed that there are more pedophiles than current estimates suggest. An individual does not necessarily have to molest children to be diagnosed a pedophile. The term is a medical diagnosis applied to adults who have these abnormal sexual desires and urges."Single mothers are particularly vulnerable to the designs of the pedophile. This person will offer to be a friend to the child participating in sports, taking on hiking trips, etc. The mother, anxious for the children to have a male image, often readily goes along with these offers from 'such a nice person.' The fix

25 Random Things About Me!
I would like ot see 25 random things about you :) please let me know if you plan to post  25 yourself .... 1. half my friends dont even know my real hair color2. Im a gamer ( yeah i know call me a dork already)3. Ithink my dogs are the coolest things in the world4. I dislike human beings in general5. I own 6 Cujo jerseys but never met the man in person :)6. I scare random males for being able to carry on a conversation about hockey 7. I find #6 hilarious as hell and do it often8.When I grow up I wanna be sane9. it'll never happen ( youve met my family you understand)10.im allergic to morphine11.my cellphone goes EVERYWHERE with me 12.I have a weakness for impossible men (hence #11)13. Iwrite (not well mind you but hey)14.I am so not a morning person15. I hate the color orange & im not sure why16.There is no less than 12 different *flavors* of lotion sitting on my dresser17. i *drink like a guy* ( according t o my boss) LOL18. my family says I have a type (see #12)19. Id rather read th

Mom. Done!
“Mom.  Done!”  So our son Jeffrey said when he heard the buzzer go off on our oven last night to indicate that the burrito meat had finished cooking!  They are getting to be quite perceptive; this morning after breakfast our daughter came in the kitchen wearing her Easter dress (which she saw when Martha was home with them and I had to run an errand) and Martha took the opportunity while I was doing the dishes to clean out our large silverware drawer with her.  I got introduced to a pickle grabber, one utensil shaped like a long hypodermic needle with a retractable grabber than can pick up a small food item (one really funky tool from Pampered Chef, I recall) and joked with Sarah as she and my wife were loading the bag on utensils we don’t use anymore that we were going to eat them.  “No we’re not, Daddy!” Water levels are actually starting to fall throughout the state, but almost all of North Dakota is under a flood watch!  For the last week and a

Thoughts
I thought of you with love today But that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday And the days before that too. I think of you in silence.I often speak your name. All I have now are memories, And pictures in frames. Your memory is my keepsake, With witch I will never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart. Oh millions and millions Of times I’ve cried. If love alone could have saved you, You never would of died. In life I loved you so dearly, In death I love you still.

Shit
It seems the farther we get in life the more shit we have to deal with. Weather we have to eat it, take a bunch of it, or be under it (get shit on), it seems like it gets rougher as the days go by. I've been shit on mostly my whole life - school bullies, ex wives, girlfriends, whatever. Yet for some reason I'm happy this way. When my life is in turmoil is when I'm the most happy and when I'm the most productive . I'm not good at working under stress but you make my life hell and you better be able to keep up with me. Those that say they love you are always the ones that will be first in line to shit on you. Why is that ? I don't understand why I let myself get into the situations that I get into. Yet everytime I get myself in a pickle, I'm always o.k. and am twice as wise fom it. At one time I really wanted to die. If it was by my own hand or the hand of God, I truly wanted my life to end. I was angry, I was terrified, I was every emotion a person could possibly have but all at once.

Tell Me Everything
IF YOU’RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 36things about you. I don’t care if we never talk, or if we already knoweverything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...You’re on mylist, so I want to know you better.1.)Q. Are you currently in a serious relationship?A.2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?A.3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?A.4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?A.5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?A.6.)Q. What was the last book you read?A.7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you?A.8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.A.9.)Q. Worst Habit?A.10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?A.11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?A.12.)Q. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?A.13. )Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?A.14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?A.15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you.A.16.)Q. Do you have any pets?A.17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?A.18.)Q.

Charity
So my charity endeavors are bleeding me dry, so I thought I'd do an experiment and allow for donations. Kind of dorky I know but if I were writing for a magazine I'd be getting paid so it's not so off base and I heard a lot of bloggers do it. I know, "If bloggers jumped off a bridge would you?" I'm not sure, depends on how high. So anyways, I think it will be an interesting social experiment at the very least.

Poem
STAND We stand here in this world looking around. Trying to decide which path to take in life. Trying to take the correct path. Is it the left or is it the right or is it in front of us? There isn't a sign telling which way to go. We need to make mistakes, so we can learn from them. We couldn't be human if we didn't make mistakes. None of us are perfect, not even close. There are so many different paths to take in our lives. Some of us may take the easier path and some my take the hardest path. The easier path may seem to be the hardest path to take. The hardest path may be the easier path to take. It's up to us to decide which path in life to take. As we walk along the path, we choose we can always ask for as for help or guidance. As humans mistakes are apart of life. We couldn't be human if we didn't make mistakes. None of us are perfect, not even close. Who knows what's in our future, all we can do is Try to find the correct path to take in our lives.

Keep Our Love Between Us
If you can't see who I am then why stand here and look at me? You can not see what I have to offer you but everyone else can I only ask for so much and you can't even to that Tell me what is the point to life Tell me why do you love me What do you see in me Now why arn't you happy my friend? Stand next to me Take a walk with me You will fall in love All I ask for is to have your love And for us to never share it You are my best friend You are my lover I pray you can understand who I am and what you have standing before you. I pray that God is on my side tonight

Another Lil Something
well friday after noon my boyfriends mom's dog passed away. She had this dog for 5 years, and he died from medical problems.  So saturday afternoon we went and picked her up and took her to lunch. After spending lunch with her I felt so bad for her I had to do something. I mean this is an older woman who lives alone and spent her day careing and giving this lil dog anything and everything he could want. So what do I do... Well I spent 5 hours looking around town looking for a new pup. Now she dose NOT like big dogs. So as you can imagine a lil puppy is hard to find. well one that will stay little.   So i finally found the perfect little puppy. Well little to me. She is a cocker spaniel / lab mix. She has more collie in her than lab. So she will be a medium size dog. So I take her to the groomers and get her all clean and smelling good. Cause she was outside in a pin next to a chicken coop.   So now the big moment taking her to his moms and hoping that she wants her. So we drive b

Now Where To Go?
Finally decided, we shall be moving to NJ. Either back to Spotswood/Helmetta or North Brunswick. So I guess I'll be looking to find "friends" in that area whom my wife  & I can "connect" with. We put our house up for sale a coupleof weeks ago and we are hoping to move sometime in September. Is that a realistic timeframe in this market? Boy I hope so. Kinda tired of this area. Would like to get back closer to my kids in Plainsboro & closer to friends/family in Brooklyn. Would luv to move to Brooklyn, but I definitely can't afford a home in the areas I want such as Dyker Heights, Bensonhurst, Bay Ridge or Boro Park. Can't believe 30 yrs ago the house I lived in went for $35K & now it's around $850K. Wish I would stuck around and bought there all those yrs ago.

Emotional Bond???
To start this blog off, I want to make it perfectly clear... I DO NOT WANT MY EX-WIFE BACK!!!!!!!! Many people think that cause I talk about my feelings.  Ok now that I got that out of the way, time for my current inner problem.  I have recently been feeling quite a strong link to my ex.  There are times I know exactly what she is doing an where.  How I get these feelings, I dont know.  I am not following her, nor do I even want to see her.  I cannot shake these feelings and this bond. I dont know how to get rid of these feelings and emotions.  Everytime I get a "dream" I wake up breathing heavy.  It is usually very late in the evening, or very early in the morning.  Once I wake up I cannot go back to sleep.  Please if anyone has any suggestions, or advice to help me, I would appreciate it.....

Gizmos And Tweaks
Once upon a time, in a land thought dead There lived a strange creature with eyes glowing red It's soul was not twisted, as you might expect Just shaped in the mood of the world one would suspect Not far from the abode of the creature called Tohm Stood a dreary village, as if it were hit by a bomb All the poor citizens, especially the children Had no reason to smile in their village of Boraiden Sitting alone in his home in an endless brood Tohm frowned and winced, in a constant sad mood When a sudden loud crash sounded from nearby Tohm shrieked and wailed as he thought he was going to die Recollecting himself and emerging from the corner Tohm didn't think he was to be a victim of murder Stepping outside after a cautious stride He opened the door, but used it to hide Peeking from behind his wooden barrier Tohm discovered soon the sound was a carrier Carrying supplies to the land called Kiljoy But mistakenly dropping a precious toy Tohm lifted the object with peaked curiosity He studied

I Agree , Where Is Obama?
".i believe the environment should get a stimulus package"- NORTZ  

I Am Someone
  I am someoneI walked past a dead faceeven though the person was aliveI saw my eyes in the mirrorand cried at the sightI looked at a person I didn¹t knowand I met a friendI got heads to turnwhen I walked pastI learned a lot about myselfwhen I lost a new friendI cried every tear in my bodywhen I thought about loveI got hit badthen got back in the ringI climbed a mountain of rocksand saw an eagle fly over- headI heard terrible things about myselfwhen no one thought I was listeningI realized I was strongwhen I didn¹t cry when it hurtI found out who I waswhen I was with someone elseI thought I was lost foreverwhen a friend found meI held a life in my handand it was my ownI was a pawn in someone else's gameso I surrendered to a brookI walked the fine line between survivingand not wanting to surviveI still amI am someone

The Perfect Fit
I could make a dress A robe fit for a prince I could clothe a continent But i can't sew a stitchI can paint my faceAnd stand very very stillIts not very practicalBut it still pays the billsI can't change my nameBut i could be your typeI can dance and win at gamesLike backgammon and lifeI used to be the smart oneSharp as a tackFunny how that skipping years ahead Has held me backI used to be the bright oneTop in my classFunny what they give you when you Just learn how to askI can write a songBut i cant sing in keyI can play piano But i never learned to readI can't trap a mouseBut i can pet a catNo i'm really serious!I'm really very good at thatI can't fix a carBut i can fix a flatI could fix alot of things But i'd rather not get into thatI used to be the bright oneSmart as a whipFunny how you slip so far when Teachers dont keep track of itI used to be the tight oneThe perfect fitFunny how those compliments canMake you feel so full of itI can shuffle cut and dealBut i can't draw a handI c

Reckless
Nowadays, there are millions of advice on how to keep safe from predators, online or in RL.  Most of that advice targets women, being under assumption that only women are prone to become targets of violent crimes, psycho behavior, etc.   I guess Aileen Vuornos doesn't ring a bell.  While women are extremely cautious to meet new people from online, due to a hype that every outsider is a predator, men are always eager to hook up with any strange flooze out there. Its not too hard for a woman to lure a man in, then attack him with mace/knife/gun. More often than not, she might have an accomplice, which would carry out the deed. There are alot of psychotic women out there, nad its sad that men completely disregard this fact, and that all those warnings are mostly for women.

Baseball .....lmao
A must read for Grandparents. Those who aren't will love it, too.                 At one point during a game, the coach called one of his 9-year-old baseball players aside and asked, 'Do you understand what cooperation is? What a team is?'   The little boy nodded in the affirmative.   'Do you understand that what matters is whether we win or lose together as a team?'   The little boy nodded yes.   'So,' the coach continued, 'I'm sure you know, when an out is called, you shouldn't argue, curse, attack the umpire, or call him a jerk. Do you understand all that?'   The little boy nodded again.   He continued, 'And when I take you out of the game so another boy gets a chance to play, it's not good sportsmanship to call your coach 'a dumb ***' is it?'   Again, the little boy nodded.   'Good,' said the coach. 'Now go over there and explain all that to your gran

You Lost The Bet...shoulda Never Bet On Me.
There you sit in a jail cell with nothing to do but think of me!! in all your misery you plead for me to have sympathy. You took a risk and decided to gamble with me, and lost that hand, yes you sure did, you bet on me. You are mistaken when it comes to me baby, when this girl walks out, she walks for eternity. I hope you think long and hard about all that you have done to me and realize how you so bitterly took me for grantid when all I did was go above and beyond for you....and you want my sympathy? as you cry and plead for me I am making my own destiny...one that doesn't include your criminal insanity. Me and you walk in oppisite directions and with a completely different stride. I pulled off miracles and continually fought hard for you, trying to save you from you... all the while you were killing me. I wish I could have been enough for you, I wish I could have been enough but I wasn't. The cards in the deck have been dealt..so I will take the hand I have been given and except our

Sitting Here Thinking About Everything
as i sit here listening to this song by creed the song six feet from the edge.i am thinking how i wish i could just die right now and just be finished with this life.hell it wouldn't be hard to kill myself right now after what all i have been through here lately.but then i think what is the fucking use.and then i remember what i vowed to myself so many years ago.fuck those thoughts i will never let this god damn world beat me.i have to much left to do in this life,and to many people i want to meet and see in real life.and i also remember how many of my close friends on here who would miss me.and for everyone who doesn't know i have taken time off as a dj here on fubar to take care of my father who was in a recent car wreck.i will be on here hanging out in the lounge i dj in DEVILS PLAYGROUND.so if you want to talk to me come in there and see me.or hit me up on my yim if you have it or in my shoutbox on here.so if you come in i will see you all there.

Words Not Said
Sometimes you have to just not say some things, because saying them means you have to acknowledge them. Spoken words require an ear to hear, and hearing can be scary. Hearing means you have to deal with what is said. So sometimes we  sit in silence, cause the words that want to be said, can't be said. At times it can be a comfort, to be silent. At times it is the most painful thing ever. Sometimes it would be easy to give up, Sometimes hanging on is all I can do. Letting go would be so easy, but I can't quit. So I'll hang on, until the very end. Will I regret it? Most asuredly, on some lonely nights. Do I regret it now? Sometimes. And sometimes I sit in silence.

Emergency Rooms
So here it goes. I am an er nurse and have worked in many ers before. If you come to the er come in with some sence. I can not help you with something that happened 2 weeks ago. I can only help the present. By the way, I need a work note for yesterday is not an emergency. If you read the big Red letters that say EMERGENCY ROOM it should clue you in that it is not for check ups. Yes we want to help you but medicine is not exact. The person that can and will help you is you. Most doctors and nurses get clued into what is wrong and how to help from you.

It Was 32 Years Ago Today...
(Originally posted to my real blog on 4/30/06) http://hardly-angelic.livejournal.com/57399.html April 30, 1977 - Led Zeppelin breaks the record for the largest attendance for a single-act show in the Pontiac Silverdome with 76,229 in attendance.I was one of the 76,229 fortunate souls, and arguably the happiest person in the entire stadium. I was 15 at the time - ridiculously naive, yet still pretending that I'd seen it all, done most of it, and perfected a lot of it. Led Zeppelin was my favorite band. Actually, it still is my favorite band. One of the things I miss the most about being a teenager is experiencing the sheer joyful rapture that a certain band could bring to you. Those days are gone forever for me now, but I still have a ton of memories. I've seen the original Elton John band; Alice Cooper, back in the days when he was still thought of as a menace; I was fortunate enough to see Freddie Mercury and Queen several times; I've probably seen Kiss more times than I've attended

My Vows To Craven, Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Cherished are the memories thatBrought us to this day,For yesterday, was just a dream ...A wish to contemplate.A fantasy where in my mind,A fleeting glimpse I'd see ...A vision of the true desiresI longed for endlessly.And when I dreamed, I did not knowThe love I'd feel today;The height of my true feelings,And the depths they would portray.And if I had one wish today,A simple wish t'would be ...Is that the love we feel this moment,Lasts eternally.Reality has merged nowAs you stand here by my side;And as I join your hand in mine,My heart does fill with pride.For as I pledge my love to you,I see in many ways,Reflections of my love for youAre mirrored in your gaze.And by our presence here today,And for the love we share,I thank you for our yesterdaysThat brought us to be here.But more than this, I vow to you,My wishes yet to come ...Tomorrow's dreams and fantasies,This day that we are one.Tomorrow's an adventureThat we'll share together now;Our future's intertwined forever,Through this ho

A Fake!
Real_Soldierhttp://www.fubar.com/user/2193844If he is such a real soldier than why judge a person such as myself all cause I have a chipped tooth, I am not one for judging someone but I say he had no right to do that all cause I didn't give him my cell phone number. *rolls eyes* an he has no salute either only has one pic and that is not right being level 12 to the rest of us who does a salute.

What Flavor Smoothie Are You?
You Are a Pineapple Smoothie You are adventurous and brave. You aren't afraid of much. You are in love with new experiences. You are usually the first to try something. You get bored rather easily, and you need to be challenged in life. You are turbo charged. Most people find it impossible to keep up with you in any capacity. What Flavor Smoothie Are You?

Wish I Knew
I don't think that I've ever been so quiet at work today. I couldn't really talk to anyone. I had a lot of stuf on my mind. I was sad most of the day. One of my coworkers said she can see something is wrong....said she never seen me so quiet and asked what's wrong. I couldn't tell her. I couldn't sleep too well last night, which is pretty normal anyways on Thursday nights. But it took me a while to fall asleep like usual....thinking too much. I think about certain things over and over again and wished to hell that I knew what I was doing...what i was going to do...I feel like a freakin' mine in a box or something. Everything that I think about just runs in a freakin circle. I hate not knowing what I'm doing....but I know I have to figure it out cause I can't be like this...It's going to drive me insane. I worry about how I'm going to hurt some people....even when it's hurting myself...I would rather hurt myself than anyone else. A lot of times, I just want to disappear...not like t

Fubar People
afraid I just dont get it...why do so many people put up such flashy high profile pages on here with all the flashy goo gaws and when you go to view em they put restrictions on to keep you from seein it. whatever. its like how people use the word Free now, ironically (as in the use of a word for other than its literal intention not the messy vague inane use of the word ironic that has taken hold over the past couple decades) anyway. No worries, I have stated repeatedly I know Im ugly and that appearence and cash are all anyone in america wants to know about so Im pretty much going to live and die absolutely alone and it doesnt bother me anymore, but yeah, I think what is bugging me is the lies. oh well. I will still be honest even if the rest of you all choose not to be.

I Have Returned
Yes, I decided to come back. But I still stand by all of the things I had said in my last blog. I still believe this place is shit. But I came back because of the friends I missed, that is all. Don't really know what else to say. Later.

The Way It Is !
You know I been lookin' around ,and checking things out in this ole' world a long time. I been on my own since I was 9 yrs old. I have lived through many things in that time. I look on Television and the net,and see alot of complainin' goin' on ,about how folks are scared 'cause of the economy. Global warmin' ect. The one thing I know is we live here on this earth,and ther ain't a thang going on that this ole' world ain't seen before. Here in America we got it alot better then alot of folks. Thier is poor folks that cain't get nothin' to eat . There are countries where their leaders just go on mass murderin' spree's. Her in the U.S.A. we ain't got worry 'bout all that mess. We are still a great nation. My brother died for this nation we live in. Yeah maybe thangs cost a little more. All that means is ya gotta get yer hustle on. The rich ,and priviledged ain't gonna crash, and they need us regular Joe's to keep 'em rich ,and priviledged so we ain't either they cain't let that happen the

The Moonlit Garden
Moonlit Garden Seeing you bathed within the pale moonlight like some Greek goddessClaiming the fragile beauty within the lunar waves with a flavor all your ownThat leaves me assured even Aphrodite's gaze is through jade tinted pupilsSerenity itself, surely is becoming intertwined within the syllables of your nameI. however, remain hidden off in the forlorn shadows of the treesThe lusty gaze in my murky brown eyes, glazed over with a hint of fantastical illusionQuietly wishing I could see your lips formed in a tight, yet innocent smileGazing down upon me, while I indulge myself in sweet ambrosial liquidsOf a distinct, yet indescribable sweetness, such a heavenly flavor....I return to reality long enough to realize the cold and harshness of truthSuch amazing beauty shall never waste her time with a savage beastRegardless, I'm still hidden amongst the trees watching you within your gardenAs your eyes slowly drape lower, waiting to enter the realm of dreamsPerhaps its in bold futility I

?
Taunted boy just told pals, ‘Bye’ 11-year-old killed himself last week By MARK DAVIS The Atlanta Journal-Constitution Sunday, April 26, 2009 Morning came with the usual chaos. The kids struggled into their clothes for another day of school. Downstairs, Masika Bermudez yelled at them to hurry. To sweeten the order, she reached for a morning favorite, Cocoa Puffs. Her children loved them. Enlarge this image Jason Getz/jgetz@ajc.com A.J. Brown, 11, talks about the last day he saw his buddy Jaheem alive. His mother, Alice Brown, tries to comfort him. HOW WE GOT THE STORYStaff writer Mark Davis interviewed Jaheem Herrera's friends, A.J. Brown and Peter Vincent, both 11, with the permission of and in the presence of their mothers, Alice Brown and Eschondria Vincent, at the Vincent home. He spoke with Jaheem's mother, Masika Bermudez, by phone from her lawyer's office. The DeKalb County school system has declined to talk about Jaheem, citing a confidentiality

My Love
I realise how amazing my lovely baby girl is and how perfect she is!     Kota,  my sweet baby girl. I love you soo much. You have no idea how much my heart loves you.

Parents
So I got a phone call from my dad early this morning. Now anyone who's read my blog at some point in time will realize these usually aren't events in which to be joyful. We get along, but only because I've been taught to respect him. He tries hard to do what is right for me, but I think we're just in a different world. Anyway, he tells me he's got something that will brighten my day. He tells me this joke: A teenage girl is talking to her grandmother and asks her how her grandfather died. The old woman says "He died by lovemaking." The young girl is astonished and asks her grandmother weren't they a bit old for that? and she replies "Well, we normally made love on Sundays, and we did it to the time of the church bells. Ding was in, dong was out. Everything was fine until that ice cream truck came by." Now you must understand that for my dad, this is pretty heavy stuff, he's a preacher. The joke is terrible, but it actually made me feel a bit better.

More Random Thoughts
You know I see people everyday here on Fubar and in real life thinking they are all that and a bags of chips. But let me tell you some things that i've seen that is all that and a bag of chips.     Have ya ever just got on a horse and explored the world? Well there was a time when i had, and there is nothing greater than seeing the world come alive from the back of a horse. Watching the animals with their babies going for that first drink of water in the morning, waking up under a big old oak tree with your back hurting from the ground just to see your horse cropping grass with a deer along side of it. Hearing the sounds of a natural spring making it's way to the ocean. Watching what the good lord created do what it was meant to do without the buildings and the streets. But that was long ago when there was more than just concrete and steel everywhere you looked.     Mothers and some fathers see the wonders thru the eyes of their children when they are being born, you want to see some

My Name
WHAT IS A NAME?     WETHER GIVIN TO YOU OR TAKEN ON A NAME IS WHAT YOU CALL ME BY AND IT IS ME BUT YOU DONT NO WHY I CHOSE MY NAME I LIKE THE TITLE LIKE IT OR NOT I DO NOT CARE CAUSE IF YOU LOOK A LITTLE CLOSER YOU JUST MIGHT FIND IM MORE THAN THE NAME YOU SEE THERE

Sleepless
Is it normal not to be able to sleep, when you think about someone constantly?  Is it normal, to wake up when you do sleep, and the first thing you want to do before anything else is to that persons face?  To hear thier words?  Is it normal to love someone so much that you cant even find words to describe it?  These are all the situations I'm experiencing.  Every little bit.   18 Days until departure.  19 Days until Arrival.  I almost wish I could close my eyes, and wake up for it to be so much less!  Its odd, that I feel this way.  Has someone broken the walls that I'm put up?  Has she finalyl accomplished it?  People call me insane.  I look at them and tell them they are right.  Now they are right for a completely different reason.  Insanity is that of a bizzare emotion, so love could be insanity.  If this is the case, lord lock me up and throw away the key.  I have felt love and pain before, but this love...this type of love.  This bounding of the souls.  Its enough to even drive th

She's Pretty Damn Hot ;)
And she wants to level. Help her out? tell her Chels sent ya. ღ Karma@ fubar  find her in my fam list. thanks!

A Soldier's Life
A SOLDIER'S LIFE   THEY JOIN FOR MANY REASONS MOST DON'T UNDERSTAND IT IS NOT FOR FAME NOR GLORY, BUT JUST BCAUSE THIER A MAN THEY JOIN FOR PRIDE, HONOR AND DIGNITY, BUT FOR MOST THEY JOIN OUT OF A LOVE THAT THEY FEEL DEEP WITH IN, THEY CAN'T EXPLAIN IT NOR DO THEY TRY THEY ARE YOUNG AND MOST THE TIMES HAVE NOT GROWN TO THE MAN THAT THEY HAVE KNOWN BUT WHEN IT COMES TIME FOR THEM TO GO, TO FAR OFF PLACES THAT MOST DO NOT KNOW THEY NEVER QUESTION THEY JUST SAY HOOAH, FOR THAT IS WHAT IS UNDERSTOOD THEY ARE MEN AND WOMEN ALIKE, AND THEY STAND SIDE BY SIDE AND FIGHT THEY LIVE IN PLACES THAT  MOST PEOPLE JUST CAN'T IMAGINE AND DON'T COMPLAIN CAUSE THEY ARE GLAD TO HAVE THEM AND WHEN IT COMES TIME AND LORD LETS HOPE IT NEVER DOES THEY WILL DIE TO PROTECT THE LAND THEY LOVE AND PEOPLE OFTEN ASK ME WHY I DO WHAT I DO AND I JUST REPLY CAUSE I LOVE THE RED WHIT AND BLUE.....jro

I Wear My Heart On My Sleeve...
     I wear my Heart on my Sleeve…   InkedGirlz first Contest!   June 10th thru June 15th   Are you or someone you know a girl with ink?  We’re looking for the girls with the best arm ink on Fu… Email the picture to BeautyisInkDeep@Gmail.com We’ll send you a confirmation that we’ve received it

Rather Bored
I'm rather bored. It's in that everybody else is doing their own thing time frame, so I went to bed. Yet, all there is to do in bed (current;y) is read or play on the internet. I've got a book I haven't started yet, but I'm not really motivated to get to it yet. So the internet gets my attention! The internet is full of wonderful distractions. But sometimes I feel like my time on the internet is spent basically going through the same routine. I have several websites I check daily, in a particular order, simply because that's the way I always do them. Normally in the order of the least interesting to the most interesting. Speaking of interesting. I use a chat app called Digsby wich feeds you facebook updates as well as serve as IM's for yahoo, aim, msn, ect. And I saw today that one of the guys I went to high school with had the status "Getting ready for Nate's wedding" and it made me think of my cousin Nathan, who we called Nate. During my infamous dad call he told me Nathan was gett

Salutes!!!!!!
I see that there alot of people who make salutes for other people! Ladies! I would love to see who would actually take the time to make a salute for me! I am quite sure that if someone takes the time to make me a salute that would mean they seriously would like to be friends with me! SO, if you make me a salute not only will I return the favor but I will indefinately add you to my family! I am intruiged as to see how many people will make me a salute! Once you have made it please send it to holliwood12@yahoo.com so that I can post it on my fubar page! Thanks and hope to see a salute from all of you!!!!!!

Saga Of My Tears
I sit all alone in this roomAs memories unfoldTears streaming down my face againThis pain never grows oldSome say it's a state of mindBut it's my heart that really hurtsI only aim to please you allBut what's a smile really worth?This is the story of my lifeThe saga of my tearsA story told a thousand timesRemade over the yearsIf you listen up closelyMaybe you might hearThe beating of my heartAnd the saga of my tearsThey say that life's a tripI hit the ground face firstLost everything I ever wantedBut it could have been worseOr that's what they tell meDo they sit alone in the dark?Or stare into broken mirrorsThinking it's the pieces of their heartThis is the story of my lifeThe saga of my tearsA story told a thousand timesRemade over the yearsIf you listen up closelyMaybe you might hearThe beating of my heartAnd the saga of my tearsThis is the saga of my tearsA saga that never endsThis a the saga of my tearsThat fall from cheeks til the end

You Belong With Me
You're on the phone with your girlfriendShe's upset.She's going off about something that you said'Cuz she doesn't get your humor like I doI'm in my roomIt's a typical Tuesday nightI'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't likeAnd she'll never know your story like I doBut she wears short skirtsI wear T-shirtsShe's cheer captainAnd I'm on the bleachersDreaming about the day when you wake upAnd find that what you're looking for has been here the whole timeIf you could see that I'm the one who understands youBeen here all along so why can't you seeYou belong with meYou belong with meWalk in the streets with you and your worn-out jeansI can't help thinking this is how it ought to beLaughing on a park bench, thinking to myselfHey isn't this easy?And you've got a smile that could light up this whole townI haven't seen it in a while since she brought you downYou say your fineI know you better than thatHey whatcha doing with a girl like thatShe wears high heelsI wear sneakersShe's cheer ca

Stars & Stripes Event @ Playboy Mansion 5/16/09
So this will be quick but I'll come back and add as I have time.  First of all, the Playboy mansion is beautiful and huge...well the outside at least, they didn't let us inside.  I walked all around and got more pics to post soon, like the zoo, very cool! The people there were amazing, so sweet and supportive of the charity, Wounded Warrior Project, the auction made a lot of money and if a soldier didn't have a model on his arm he had lipstick on his cheek!  I met my personal idol, Metal Sanaz, and after my 'fanboy' moment told her about the concert and she offered to get us a guitar for the auction, also for WWP, from Dean Guitars! Then she gave me her phone number! :D I also spoke to the west coast contact for WWP who was very excited about the upcoming concert and thought I was the coolest, which seemed so silly considering what they've been thru and what they do and extremely flattering of course!  My other feel good moment was when a wounded soldier asked me why I paid to ge

Missin' U
As i sit with little to do,my mind is filled with thoughts of u,as i work hard through out the day,i miss your smile that's mile's away!As i lie down and try too sleep,it's merories of u i will always keep.U must know this,That my love is true,and that i will spend all my time missin' u!

Update On My Bash!
  Copy and Paste this link if you need help finding it!!http://www.mapquest.com/maps?city=Canton&state=OH&address=3000+Atlantic+Blvd+Ne&zipcode=44705  

Ensign: Quam Minimum Credula Postero
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 29 May 2009 Even if we’re not conversant in Latin, most of us know the meaning of the phrase “carpe diem”.  People often cite it as an injunction to live in the moment and not be overly worried about the future.  It translates roughly (like all translations) as “seize the day”.  The original phrase found in the Odes of 1st century BC poet Horace is part of a sentence.  Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero.  “Seize the day, [and] put no trust in tomorrow!” It becomes easy for us to think that there is no rush to live in our witness for God – in fact, out of context you could make the argument from Scripture that NOT doing so will postpone the rapture and Jesus’ second coming indefinitely.  The fact that one criterion is the entire world

I Think I'm Getting This Now...
Thanks to @zmyth who showed me the ropes Friday night before I passed the fuck out. Now that I know I can search for local people it's a LOT more interesting to me. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty of virtual friends, but I've much more interestd in making friends here in meatspace. (like @zmyth and CherryPie) Anyhoo I think tomorrow I'll put up some more pics, maybe my first salute. I'm looking forward to using fubar more! -R

Women's Rights Around The Globe
After 500 young women in Uganda endured genital mutilations for initation rights a physician law-maker is trying to out law the practice go to www.womensenews.org

To My Home That Was E.n.d
TO THE FAMILY THAT I ONCE HAD....ALL I CAN DO RIGHT NOW IS BE VERY HEART BROKEN.....LET ONCE WAS A AWESOME CLUB LIVE ON....WE WHERE THE REAL THING NOW IT TIME TO MORE ON FROM EVIL NEVER DIES TO SOME THING NEW ....I AM THE FOUNDER OF FAMILY OF FREAKS AND MISFITS AND I HAVE SPOTS OPEN....

Tomorrow
Tomorrow smile at someoneThat you've never seen before.Take time to think of others thatYou feel compassion for.Tomorrow tell somebodyHow they brighten up your day.Let random acts of kindnessPut your feelings on display.Tomorrow hug your childrenSomewhat tighter than before.Be sure to think of all the thingsYou can be thankful for.Pat your dog a little longer.Hug and kiss your husband/wife.Thank your God for granting youAnother day of life.

[[story Of My Life]]
You're on the phone with your girlfriendShe's upset.She's going off about something that you said'Cuz she doesn't get your humor like I do... I'm in the roomIt's a typical Tuesday nightI'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't likeAnd she'll never know your story like I do'But she wears short skirtsI wear T-shirtsShe's cheer captainAnd I'm in the bleachersDreaming about the day when you wake upAnd find that what you're looking for has been here the whole timeIf you could see that I'm the one who understands youBeen here all along so why can't you seeYou belong with meYou belong with meWalk in the streets with you and your worn-out jeansI can't help thinking this is how it ought to beLaughing on a park bench, thinking to myselfHey isn't this easyAnd you've got a smile that could light up this whole townI haven't seen it in a while since she brought you downYou say your fineI know you better then thatHey whatcha doing with a girl like thatShe wears high heelsI wear sneakersShe's che

Seryoga + Asa= Dva Kaisera
mehh

Want Want Want
Okay. This is... possibly the most awesome looking laptop I have EVER seen. WANT.  

Who Wants To Send Me Naked Pics
Hey I was just wondering if any of you gals would send me some naked photos! I am horny all the time and love looking at ya'll naked!   MY E_MAIL IS austin.meek@yahoo.co   please send all photos there!

First Erotic Story Xxx
You ever wonder what things would be if you like if every one of your deepest and and darkest fantasy could come true. The Fantasy I'm speaking of are the ones you have been planning on for you years. Weather it be the one were it's you a stranger fucking the shit out of each other till both of you are cover with sweat and each of you have cum so many times you lost count. Are is it the dream you have were you sitting back in a nice relaxing red eye flight heading to see some old high school flame, and you fall asleep and then wake up with the nice young graduated student heading home for Christmas break, taking all you cock inside her mouth, and since you on the plane with just three other people, who are more worried about themselves, then to notice your cock is about to exploded in this young woman's mouth. Our one of my all time favorites, the one where your out on the town, doing a bit of barhopping on a Friday and you end up in a bar with high count of women who look like that ha

Yo Ho Ho And A Bottle Of Cum
*shrugs* if an ugly mother fucker like that can get laid maybe i stand a chance 

Outbreak
here are the rules just figure i would put them here so i dont lose them on my computer OUT break -Weapons- Use any item in the playing field that would be deadly. (Shovels, pipes, etcetera.) If the weapon would be deadly on contact (everything in the field except boffers and water guns) players must use “ Safety kill”, a safety kill is when you are in range of a strike with your chosen weapon you call out “safety kill” to avoid harm to the actual player. -Items- CLOTHING: Items of clothing you find will provide extra protection to the area they cover. Only useful against the standard turned zombie. (Jacket is for upper torso and so on.) 2) FIRE EXTINGQUISHERS: Flame Thrower!! Spray and the zombie has 12 seconds till death. SPRAY CANS: “Spray” on yourself for short term scent “camo”. Normal zombies can’t smell you for up to 5 mins. BOFFER CLUBS: Hit zombies on the head for a kill. A strike in any other area will be counted as damaged. Damage effects movement and

Bad News
My aptd mom found something out about herself.... She has not told that many ppl about.. She is going to call me some time this week coming up....... it is not good news at all... then found out that one of my other -friends got some bad news too... I donot know if I can take any thing else right now.. plus  my sons are with there daddy still that fukking jerk off...... i just want to hide.. i have my friends to talk to ..

Why???
Okay I am going to let it all out. You are warned. Who gave women the right to fuckin have more then two or three children in their life time. There becomes a point that it is to much. If you are having more then one child to try to save your marriage or trap some poor guy into something that is unhealthy to begin with then you should be put out of your missery. It is wrong to be spitting all these kids out into our society. Most of them if not a selective few are completely out of control. And 90% of the blame goes to the mother.  If you are going to teach your children that it is okay to act like a complete baboon then you have no right o be a mother. You are not helping them in life. You minus well get well aquainted with the police department because you will most likely be spending a great deal of your time there with your child.  Why do they have to be given what ever they want. You are not helping them survive that way. I here the excuse I want them to have what I never had.

One Of My Stupid Lil Poems
The love I have for you takes me far above, I know truely I have found my one true Love.If we split up and fell apart, It will truely break my heart.Without your love I will surely die, I am sure you would move on and time would fly by.But my question will still remain, Would you even remember my name?

True Love
Find arms that will hold you at your weakest... Eyes that will see you at your ugliest, and a heart that will love you at your worst... Then you have found True Love.

Sex
This ain't a story. A conversation I had earlier made me end up writing something. Reading it, I think it's probably quite shareable. Why? Because I felt like it! So the conversation was about oral sex, with a friend of mine. Not the oral sex with her, the conversation. ;) So anyway, we got to talking about things we DON'T like members of the opposite sex doing when they're going down on us. Then we got sortof bored after like, two things each, and decided to guess what we thought the other didn't like. Since we've had sex maybe eight or nine times down the years - she and I have this random thing where suddenly we just want to rip each other's clothes off, the rest of the time we're nothing but friends, it's kindof weird actually... anyway, since we've actually HAD sex, this should be easy, right? Wrong. She had no idea the things I don't like, despite having mentioned a bunch of them in the past. This amazed me, frankly, since I'm hardly reticent about saying what I don't enjoy. O

Facebook
Ok, so I logged into facebook today, I dont go there to often. On the side they have that whole, people you may know thing, and who do you think pops up in there......Dawn!! The one woman who I can't seem to get away from!! What is up with that? She is also on myspace too. In her profile, yes I looked, she has that she likes spending time with her boyfriend. Her "boyfriend" is butt nasty, and a major dirtbag! I know I am not the best looking guy in the world but this guy is just ugly, she had to stoop very low to get him. He is a drunk, and now she is too, and user, he brags about how he inst worryed about having to work cause she takes care of him. She thinks he is sooo great. If she where to lose her job, and she will, he will be gone in the blink of and eye. I will sit back and smile and say "I told you so". I worked with this man I know him very well. And it will all come to pass, in time. I might be unemployed but I will not ever let someone take care of me. OK OK I am letting the

Sex Goddess
read my profile and send me a message..... tell me if ur hot lol

Just A Lil About Me
hey Imma a 29 yr old male, been married for 8yrs this coming october and I dont add men so dont try unless I know you, so ladies only send me your invites, rates, blings, drinks, and whatever you want to to me.

Tagged
1 I masturbate daily to animals 2 I used to watch my grandmother take a shower 3 I like to stick my fingers in my butt then smell them 4 i bite my nails 5 I was on a date once, and I farted in her food when she left 6 I like Hello Kitty 7 I have a lesion on my penis, forever now 8 I like Japanese food 9 I grew up poor 10 I have a kid that I dont visit

So Heartbroken.
People say he’s only in my headIt’s gonna take time, but I’ll forgetThey say I need to get on with my lifeWhat they don’t realizeIs when you’re dialing six numbers just to hang up the phone,Drivin' cross town just to see if he’s home,Wakin' a friend in the dead of night,Just to hear him say it’s gonna be alrightWhen you’re finding things to do not to fall asleepCause you know he’ll be there in your dreamsThat’s when he’s more than a memoryTook a match to everything he ever wrote,Watched his words go up in smoke.Tore all his pictures off the wall,That ain’t helpin’ me at allCause when you’re talking out loud and nobody’s there,You look like hell and you just don’t care,Drinkin’ more than you ever drank,Sinkin’ down lower than you ever sank,When you find yourself falling down upon your knees,Praying to God beggin’ Him please,That’s when he’s more than a memory.he&

Dreams
Os meus sonhos são um refúgio estúpido, como um guarda-chuva contra um raio. My dreams are a stupid refuge, like an umbrella against a thunderbolt. - Fernando Pessoa

I Live
I LIVE,I BREATH,I SEE,I THINK,I NOW FELL ALIVE. MY SHADOW IS MY FACE AND NOW ALL I CAN DO IS GET DRUNK AND SHOW THE THIS PLACE IM ALIVE TO DRINK.

I Cultivate A White Rose
I Cultivate a White Rose By Jose Marti   I cultivate a white roseIn July as in JanuaryFor the sincere friendWho gives me his truthful hand . And for the cruel person who tears outthe heart with which I live,I cultivate neither nettles nor thorns:I cultivate a white rose.

Tonight
Every time I close my eyes, your face is all I see. It keeps me in a funnel cloud, of thoughts and mystery. The words I hear don't mean a thing, they don't come from your heart. Each time we talk I realize  how far we really are apart, I've cried at least a thousand tears, you never even knew. I thought the feelings that we shared, were of a love come true. No matter where you are tonight, wherever you may be,  whoever you are holding tight, I sure wish it was me...

More Random Poetry By Me :d
It's all a game, don't be a loser, or you'll be a life abuser, when you get your cards, strategize your attack, or you'll get my regards, stabbing you in the back...   -----   selfish, heartless, immune to your touch, I'm starting to think this life is too much, bending, breaking, can't take anymore, wishing it could be like before...   -----   It starts everyday when you open your eyes, without even knowing you've planned your demise...   -----   which way to go? there's nowhere to run, your starting to realize that life isn't fun,  there's no games to play, and you'll never win, you are waiting for hell on earth to begin...   -----   you can run but you can't hide, when you keep your thoughts inside, on the outside nothing shows, but in your heart the anger grows, all the hateful, hurtful words, start to flow like soaring birds *unfinished*   -----    

Poem For Me
"Sueanna"   Through life's deceptions flowering gracefully above the decay A beautiful Amerind flecked southern rose made her way How harsh the weather, upon one place for so long a time Tho the same weather that made her strong in her prime   The fairest of flowers, open hearted in all she sees The fairest of tears rolling in the cool Spring breeze With each passing second and each passing year Until those she truly loves move from far to near   Beholding her against the sunset sky is perfection's will And those who flowered from her will know her still Through all the facets of life and all the faces of love May they behold her once more with God's grace from above   Richard Martin  

Holla!
Hey Gang, Ok looks like I now have something else to become addicted to!! I love meeting new people and these are some cool digs to do it in. So school me peeps... Give me the 411 and let me know the dos and donts of this fubar thang. Catch ya later! Jerzgal

Filler Pics
This is gonna sound like Andy Rooney, but here goes...Ya know what really irritates me?    Photo after photo after photo of 'screen shots' or pics of various cartoons, logo's, and worse; pictures of other people not related to the persons profile at all!     If I wanna see cartoons, logo's or unrelated pictures of beautiful people, I will cruise a different place on the net.     I know it's just my own opinion, but when I started on Fubar, I always enjoyed reading about people and seeing pics of their lives, or situations they have been in.     When I open a folder in someones profile I wanna see pics of them, their funny/sexy/or at least RELEVENT pics of their life, not generic crap that they downloaded just to get points..... That's all, I'm just one guy with an opinion that says, "HEY!!  Let's keep it REAL!!"

Currently Untitled
If I were to die would you cry? Would you scream and yell and ask why? Would you miss me? Wish you'd kissed me? Would you wish you hadn't dissed me? Would you wish you'd listened to me? Would you wish you'd loved me harder? Would you wish for a life restarter? Or would you simply dismiss me into the abyss of death? Amy S. Graham 6.22.2009 @ 10:30 PM EST

Salutes
you want a salute picture from me let me know.. I'll add you to the list but I would like one in return please.. thanks - BabyDoll

That One Thing Wots It Called..... Oh Ya Love Or Some Shit
When someone loves u its a gift, dont take advantage of that gift cuz u never know how long u will have it, or if they will take that gift back... Love is an amzing thang its sexy, its hot, its kinky, its just sureal.. If u got it hold on as tight as u can and never let it go...

What In The Hell!
so i woke up today, and the strap on my tank top was like cut in half, and i have sscratches all down my side!   um wtf?     and no i didn't drink last night

Questions Of The Day
Q: "YOu want your cake, and you wanna eat it too?"  Who the fuck came up with taht? If I have a cake, I damn sure want to eat it. As fast as possible.   Q: What happened to Travis Barker's genitals? (the guy that was in a plane crash)

Me
Everyone sees who I appear to be... But only a few know the real me.... You only see what I choose to show... There's so much behind this "SMILE" you just don't know....

My Love
My love of my life, my biggest regret, (that day) we didn't get to say goodbye!! I will always love you!!!

Somewhere-within Temptation
Lost in the darkness, hoping for a signInstead there is only silence can't you hear my screams?Never stop hoping, need to know where you areBut one thing is for sure you're always in my heartI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happenedThe truth will free my soulLost in the darkness, try to find your way homeI want to embrace you and never let you goAlmost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soulLiving in agony 'cause I just do not know where you areI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happenedThe truth will free my soulWherever you are, I won't stop searchingWhatever it takes, I need to knowI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happenedThe truth will free my soul

I Guess This Is Growing Up.
Your best friends become your worst enemy, lollipops turn into ciggarettes, the innocent ones turn into sluts, homework goes in the bin, mobile phones get used in class, detention becomes suspension, squash becomes vodka, kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the swings? When protection meant wearing a helmet, the worst thing that you could get from boys were cooties, mom was your hero and dad was who you wanna marry, the worst enemy you had were siblings , race issues were who ran the fastest, and war was just a card game, the only drug you knew of was cough medicine & wearing a skirt didn't mean you were a slut, the only thing you smoked was the tire on a bike, the only thing that could hurt was skinned knees & the only thing that can get broken were toys, goodbyes meant only until tomorrow. We couldn't wait to grow up. Huh?

Every Drop I Desire
Every Drop I Desire   Escaping into our lustful desires under the stars Venturing into silky thighs so dangerous Entrance into her sweet cherry filling my tongue goesRoaming deep into My Loves hidden pleasureYearning for her to climax as I tasteDrawing upon lips as sweet as morning dewReveling in the fantasy that is My AngelOverwhelmed by her scent and tasteProbing deeper into her succulent wares Indescribable is the love My Angel givesDesperate to fulfill her every needEnchanted by My Angels true beautySipping down her nectar as her fire grows Inner thighs shake as sweet lips swellRelease of tensions shake the night skyEvery Drop I Desire

Joshua Tenzley.
I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.Is it over yet, in my head?I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.Is it over yet? I can't win.So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.I'm going all the way, get away, please.[Chorus:]You take the breath right out of me.You left a hole where my heart should be.You got to fight just to make it through,'cause I will be the death of you.This will be all over soon.Pour salt into the open wound.Is it over yet? Let me in.So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.I'm going all the way, get away, please.[Chorus:]You take the breath right out of me.You left a hole where my heart should be.You got to fight just to make it through,'cause I will be the death of you.[Bridge]I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hiding.[Chorus:]You take the breath right out of me.You left a hole where my heart should be.

So Much For That
Dont think Ill ever get why cops try so damn hard to stop folks from killing themselves. that said it wont be long before nature takes its course anyway as hunger has a way of killing folks pretty thoroughly in and of itself. anyway just here to put up a few more pics, this time of my doodlings. I dunno my neighbor cays theyre art and I should try to sell em but I dunno. you make up your mind for yourself. also, if you happen to meet my "parents"-Pam Rocklin of Camarillo, CA and Dennis Roof of Sherman Oaks (or thereabouts now not sure) CA do something to hurt them, even if its just to remind them I died cause they let it happen. I still dont understand how they blame me for my inability to get a job in this job market-hows a guy with so little work experience supposed to compete with recently fired boeing engineers, microsoft programmers and starbuck executives. whatever I dont control the economy or this greedy ass country. You can rest assured if I did NOBODY would be homeless or hun

Dull
DULL IM LOOSING GRIP AS I START TO DRIFT I CANT COPE IVE LOST ALL HOPE IM DULL DULL LIKE THE RAZORS SLICE ONE & MANY MORE TO GO SLICE TWO IM GETTING NUMB SLICE THREE IVE LOST CONTROL AS THE RAZOR FALLS THE BLOOD FLOWS FROM MY ARM IM LOOSING MY SANE 11/30/04

Lost Love
I love the though of seeing two people in love that is something so amazingI think about love everyday. is she in love?how can I show her my love. What makes her smile? Now I think to myself on why do you love the thought of something I'll never get back?you are too old my friend, A life without love is life without a partner that you can laugh with, cry with, fight with love in the afternoon with. Love is your partner for life not the moment. you have lost love my friend   Psycho~Sexy

Fuck
Just like I thought, the laundry did NOT put itself away after I left it on the floor. Fuckin bitch laundry

Are Ppl On Fubar Really That Lame???
What in the fuck is going on??? People want to pay fake money ( fubucks ) for something that people bought that actually cost real money???? OMFG I am cracking up....Do people really do that on here swap fucking stupid computer made shit  they bought for real money and stupid stuff only used for this site for fucking fake ass fu money.....please tell me this isnt so.......

Friends
I need new friends to join my page please stop in.

The Ever-present Past Is Prologue
“She reached the point where the only freedom she really wanted was freedom from responsibility.  There could be only one result.  If men insisted on being free from the burden of self-dependence and responsibility for the common good, they would cease to be free.  Responsibility is the price every man must pay for freedom.  It is to be had on no other terms.  Athens, the Athens of Ancient Greece, refused responsibility; she reached the end of freedom and was never to have it again.” The speaker at this Saturday’s Fourth of July ceremony referenced this passage from Edith Hamilton’s Voice of America radio address in the 1950s.  I recognized it because one doesn’t often hear this classical professor and writer of “Mythology” (still a seminal text on Greek, Roman, and Norse legend despite its publication in 1936) referenced anywhere, and we’re at a loss for it.  Reverend Hathaway also worked in the signers of the Declaration of Independenc

Sigh
I grow wearier every day, hearing on and on about Love. I think maybe, in the interest of preventing suicidal depression, and mental illness in general, that Hallmark should be Nuked and all manner and forms of the concept of Love stricken from the record and language. Wow, never thought I could be that succinct.

To Meet You Was My Fortune, To Love You Is My Pleasure.
Wine is better in your mouth, an “I love you” is always more tender in your voice, in your body the nights are always shorter; I am becoming sick with love.   I would like to walk your hair; I would like to make night in your skin, to think that it was all a dream and then discover you again.   It is unbelievable to love you like I would, like a man does a woman, and for you to be mine. So mine, just mine, make you part of my skin. To meet you was my fortune, to love you, o woman, is my pleasure.   I would like to drink from your breasts sunrise’s honey, my fingers explore for trails and finally reach the end of your essence.   Body to body we will slow dance, and with a love poem fuse myself in the shadow with you.

Playlist Quiz Time
Today's playlist quiz! I know I promised this MONTHS ago, but I get distracted easily!! Anyhow, this time I gave you the first letters of every word in the title and the band name -- SO DON'T FORGET TO GUESS ON BOTH!!   Have a great time. The name of this playlist - "Music To Thump Yer Ass To"   Y_ L_ [I n_ a D_ W_] by P_ F_ Will some cold woman in this desert landMake me feel like a real man?Take this rock and roll refugee B_ B_ by  L_ S_ Well, she's shakin' that thing (Bam-ba-Lam) Boy, she makes me sing (Bam-ba-Lam)   W_ P_ by The A_ B_ I don't know why, I let that mean woman make me a fool   R_ C_ by M_ PULL UP YOUR PANTSSTEP OUT, TAKE A CHANCE   H_ M_ by S_ H_ Tight pants and lipstick She's riding on razor's edge She holds her own against the boys Cuts through the crowd just like a wedge   E_ W_ Yo_ by B_ S_ You crave attention--you can never say "no"Throw your affections anyway t

Seeing Through Closed Eyes
The sun is setting behind my closing eyes. I stared into a mirror and overlooked the life which wasnt meant to be. Broken, the mirror falls to the floor. On my knees I recall the events of my life, one by one in the individual shards of glass. While staring into those reflections with great joy, happiness, pain and sorrow flowing through my eyes I realize that a life separated is no longer a life. With my warmth flowing down my hands onto the floor covering the life left behind, I understand that that bad can not be seperated from the good in your life. Cluttering the shards into a disorganized pile to be discarded like so much else viewed invaluableunwanted. Staring at the life left in disarray on the floor, the reflections fadeas the sun setsbehind my closed eyes.

Tiger Lily :)
We drive tonight,And you are by my side.We're talking about our lives,Like we've known each other forever.The time flies by,With the sound of your voice.Its close to paradise,With the end surely near.And if i could only stop the carAnd hold onto you,And never let go (and never let go)I'll never let go (i'll never let go)As we round the cornerTo your houseYou turned to me and said,"i'll be going through withdrawal of you For this one night we have spent."And, i want to speak these wordsBut i guess i'll just bite my tongue,And accept "someday, somehow"As the words that we'll hang from.And i (i..), i don't want to speak these words. 'cause i ('cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse. And i (i..), i don't want to speak these words. 'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse. Why does tonight, have to end?Why don't we hit restart,And pause it at our favorite parts.We'll skip the goodbyes.If i had it my way,I'd turn the car around and runaway,Just you and i.And i (i..), i don'

Juju Road
One story on Juju Road is that during the slave days, a slave named "Juju" was hung for looking at or raping a white girl.  They say the tree is right over the road and that at night you can see him hanging from the branch.  Another story is that "Juju" was a slave that had been free after the Civil War, and that one day there were two children fishing on a bridge, and Juju killed them.  They hung him and he was buried in a cemetery on Swan Lake Road, marked only by an old oak tree. An E-mail from Wimberly:Two friends and I went down there plenty of times to just hang out on the dirt road. I had a two door ranger and we were sitting on the back of the truck when we heard what sounded like a tree limb break. All three of us stood up to see what had happened and yes sir we saw a black man hanging from a tree limb. His head was leaning over towards the river next to a tree looking down. We all jumped into our trucks started going back down the road towards Airline drive. We got

Take Me Outta My Misery
WELL JUST A TAD OF INFO ABOUT ME...MY FULL NAME IS MARJORIE MICHELLE MOSHER , I AM 36 YEARS OLD. WAS MARRIED FOR FOURTEEN YEARS ,I HAVE NOW BEEN DIVORCED FOR OVER A YEAR....I WAS MARRIED TO A MAN WHO WAS VERBALLY AND MENTALLY ABUSIVE, STILL THE MAN TEARS ME DOWN WHEN HE CAN , I THINK MY CURRENT RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE HAS ENDED, I HAVE TO LISTEN TO THE WAY HIS BODY LANGUAGE IS AND HOW HE NOW TALKS TO ME DIFFERENT , PLUS HE LEFT HOME AT 10 AM TO SUPPOSEDLY HELP HIS DAD AND HASNT COME HOME YET, MY INSTINCTS TELL ME SOMETHING IS WRONG. I JUST CANT SEEM TO FIND AN HONEST MAN WHO GIVES A DAMN ABOUT ME , MY LIFE CANT GET AN WORSE , I HAVE LIVED IN THE HOMELESS SHELTER FOUR TIMES, LIVED IN MY CAR FOR FIVE DAYS AN ONLY ATE TWICE ,WAS IN JAIL 51 DAYS AND WAS DUMPED THAT DAY WITH THE EXCUSE THAT HE COULDNT HANDLE IT , THE EXHUSBAND WOULDNT BRING THE KIDS TO SEE ME ( HE GOT EVERYTHING IN THE DIVORCE) , WHEN I WAS IN JAIL I WROTE MY KIDS EVERY DAY AND NEVER GOT ANY LETTERS IN RETURN ,ACTUALLY SL

Just An Idea
so we all go down this dark allyway called life filled with dumpsters  hobos and hookers wondering  what kind of light will be waiting for us at the end  but all we do is crunch the broken glass that is shattered like our hopes and dreams or we see if we can haggle the toothless hooker to our left into sucking 10 minuets of synthetic pleasure from our viagra induced ressurections of youth gone and past but still we trudge on barely able to make out the rats at our feet pretending that they like our fears in life arent really there  wanderding from dumpster to dumpster looking for a answer to it all like a bum looks for somebodys leftover takeout that might still be warm when will we ever learn that every corner we turn hoping for a exit just takes us to the next ally over

On My Knees...
I know this is way different than what I usually write but just wanted to make it a little bit interesting this time around…Lol : P My man will be one of a kind…Because when we bump and grind He will have me on cloud nine…Especially when were doing the sixty-nine Than I’ll turn around and he can have me from behind I don’t mind if he takes a hold of me and pushes me against the wall He is there standing tall waiting for me to get on my knees and give it my all I softly bite, lick… oh yeah even suck all the way down to his balls I will have him moaning…looking down on me and it’s my name he’s going to call Wanting more he pulls my hair and gradually pushing my head further down…deeper, slower I go and as I come up stroking, choking on his c*ck He will put one leg around my shoulder making sure I don’t move away as he has me on a lock…That gets me more excited wanting me to slowly take my time …Now I

Lounge Bulin
i need help on a lounge bulin so i can past it to my profile so people can come to my lounge if you can help me with it please im me on yahoo messenger gismoe1313  thanks

How To Fight Drug Addiction
Annihilate all junkies. Just wipe them out from the cities, and make compost out of the bodies.  

Memories...
Saturday I ended up going to a music festival thingie with a couple friends.I ran into the ex wifes Aunt and Uncle. I was always close with Uncle Tom, he is a loveable lush, always has a fresh blue joke for ya, and accepted me from day one. After we seperated I hadn't had any contact with the family at all other then her brother. It kinda hurt when I never heard from Tom again, but I got over it.Anyhoo running into him brought back some painfull memories.Le sigh

Someone
It feels sad to miss someone badly.. Especially when both of you shared an unforgettable realationship. its so sad not to feel the presence of that someone. It burns your heart with such sadness and longing.. with all that burden your going thru.. you thought your someone misses you, but only to find out that the someone you know was enjoying someone and not you :(

Kiss
The best kiss? It's the one when you don't want to stop but you have to because you can't help it but smile.. :)

Me At 16, Vid (oathetic)
So my best friend found her home vid from when we were all fresh off the boat, at her 16th party!   This cannot used against me later as a blackmail ;p   3: 10 is one of the most pathetic parts of the vid tho, and shows that I might have had some brain damage :)  

Fri Nite
Ok, so I am all alone on Fri nite, wtf should I do?   mind you, I have no friends, and no life. PLz take that into consideration.

Holy Fuckin Shit
So I posted a fake ad to find out how many losers would actually come out to a hotel .to meet some blonde skanky whore     40 emails!!!!! The parking lot is gonna be PACKED with horny retards! ZOMG!!!

Unleashed
Leave the emotionsCheck them at the doorWe both knowThey have no place here     Take me as I amLet's go real slowAs we open our mindsTo this darker side     Take me by the handLead me down this pathOnly you know so wellBecause my body yearns to go     Touch my bodySet it on fireOpen it upTo this burning new desire     Feel my touch on your skinPure need, unleashed from withinAllow me to bring it outWithout being afraid, allow me to show no fear     Leave the emotionsCheck them at the doorWe both knowThey have no place here ©xoxoJ

Blame Me
You know very well that you failed me and that you forgot about your promise.  You know for sure that you deceived me, even when no one can love you as I do.  I have many reasons to despise you, but I wish you well.  Please tell who ever asks you that I never loved you, tell them I cheated and that I was the worst.  Blame me, and with my pain cover your back.

I Will Not Fall In Love Again...
I will not fall completely in love again. Why should I, the first time I surrendered my heart I was wrong? I will not fall in love again because love is deceptive and it left a bad taste in my mouth. It took away the will for love. I will not stumble again, I will not fall for anyone, I will not fall in love again.

"how I Spent My Weekend", Or "i Can't Decide If God Loves Me Or Hates Me".
Some of you are already aware that I was in a major car accident on Saturday. If you aren't, then sorry for the abrupt news. If you are, then here are more details.No other vehicle was involved. Both hands were on the wheel. Both eyes were on the road. The weather was fine, the traffic was light, and I was going the speed limit. I turned on my blinker to switch from the fast lane to the center lane, and the car must have hit some oil on the road or something, because the back end fishtailed and I couldn't get the car back under control. I went head-on into the wall. Thank God I didn't go over it. This was on a monstrous overpass, and if I'd gone over the wall...it's about 500 feet straight down into a Marathon refinery.The lap belt, shoulder harness and airbag saved my life. I got out of the car on my own because I thought it was going to explode. I only lost consciousness for a moment. There were three guys from the Border Patrol behind me that saw it happen, called 911, put their own

A Da Blah
I hate it when I forget to turn up the volume on my cell phone to wake me up, but luckily I had another clock set. I didn't wake up too late though... I met up with Evan and Laura at a sushi joint. They were waiting on their sushi for their breakfast. I didn't have any, I had coffee and a cookie. Took the train down town and wondered around the mall for a while. I don't even know why Evan came along..he was pretty tired and it was basically me and Laura looking at clothes. We had some lunch at some burger malt joint in the mall...never been there....they're alright. I wondered into the arcade area and found a game that I haven't played in the longest time. It's like that Dance Dance Res game, only you just use your hands...so I played a round of that. Then they left early to get ready for nerd night or whatever and I wondered around the mall alone. I felt a bit lonely...and wasn't that fun seeing them all over each other lol...I miss that... I actually went back to the arcade plac

Gtalk...work
Changed the names to protect identities   3:02 PM guyiworkwith: I haven't been paying attention to google talk!   you sensitive little girl, maybe later we should go out and find a dress on sale, maybe that'll make you feel better 3:04 PM me: talking smack from behind the anonymous computer screen only works if the person doesnt know where you are... least you not forget i have no problems pummeling you  guyiworkwith: you're a girl 3:05 PM me: your a dead man   ....look behind you  guyiworkwith: and you have boobs  me: magnificant boobs  guyiworkwith: booby mosley  me: boobs that you can never have the glory of nuzzling   SPELL MY NAME RIGHT DICK 3:06 PM 12 years.. holy christ on a stick... with nails\  guyiworkwith

Frozen
So, I need to start producing more artwork, but have no ideas. I'm BRAIN FROZEN! Any ideas?   fuck...   btw, its painting/woodburning, so...    

I Need Attention
i have a low tolerance for boredom and a compulsive personality, so that combination usually leads to risk taking behaviors. I'm going out on a limb this evening and giving out my net10 phone number so you can leave a voicemail. Be sure to say your fubar name so i know who you are! Will call back tomorrow morning. 603-3698748  

The Other Side Of The Coin
Recently, I started a new path for making money (also known as a job) and I cannot believe how hard it has been on me. For those that know me well, you know that I have been working in the security industry for over 10 years. My new career path is in the home health aide field, talk about a change huh, lol. IF this blog does actually get read by one of my friends I wold like to point out that I have been out of work for over a month and off of Fubar too. While things are looking up, barely, I am still scared shitless about doing this job. The worst part is that I dont know why I am so freaked out. The job is not "hard" or physically demanding in any shape or form and I have worked in some very high stress situations doing security work. Yet here I am shaken and unsure about myself about working in a house with a few people that just need some help doing the things that we all do everyday. Washing dishes, mopping floors, washing clothes and paying bills. Not a single harmfull thing on

Second Chance
From Shinedown's new album,Sound of Madness, The)My eyes are open wide And by the way, I made it Through the day I watched the world outside By the way, I'm leaving out Today Well, I just saw hailey's Comet shooting Said why you always running In place? Even the man in the Moon disappears Somewhere in the Stratosphere [Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realise This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a Second Chance Please don't cry One tear for me I'm not afraid of What I have to say This is my one and Only voice So listen close, it's Only for today Well, I just saw hailey's [ Second Chance lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ] Comet shooting Said why you always running In place? Even the man in the Moon disappears Somewhere in the Stratosphere [Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realise This is my life I hope they understand I'm

A Thought
You are Always in my heart you are always on my mind and theres no one that could come close to ever taking your place I loved you from day 1 you captured my heart and sent my mind into outer space i prayed to have you in my arms each & every night for the rest of time my prayers go unanswered and my heart beats out of rhyme you stay in my heart you stay on my mind

Just Give A Penny
How many years did I wander through life, noticing the little DONATE containers on countless counter tops of stores and gas stations and never realize what GOOD I could do with just a penny.  None. ...because I never even NOTICED. In the work place I always had money taken from my paycheck and donated automatically. But the daily concious decision to just take even ONE PENNY from my change from any given transaction and drop it into the box just never popped into my mind.

Thinking Of You Again..
  Wake up rise to my little world I left the T.v on I can't sleep again.... so I look to get it on track as soon as the morning what the hell is wrong with this situation get me thinking of you again.. today was supposed to be the last time I thought of you and Im alone an on the edge of that grey blue water seemed like everything else to late its going to be goodbye to our love and all that lies alone along the edge of that lonely water took a chance threw it all away Don't know the time to think about it so the memories won't seem to fade so i keep kicking myself to move on to something else better the wounds won't heal rip up those love letters I drove miles to get away and ..miles took a chance and threw it all away Today was supposed to be the last time thought of you and im alone into that pale blue water to our love and all that lies alone back to that lonely water .

Strange You Never Knew
I've knocked down all your walls inside you & I pierced into your heart Now I want to hold the hand inside you I want to graze your scars Live out your life, but don't go into the dark If you linger to much you'll come apart You'll want to feed the monster The colors in your eyes will disappear   Fade into you Strange you never knew I'm fading into you Yes, I think its strange you never knew   A stranger comes in slowly A stranger comes & holds your hand You put your hands over your head A smile comes & covers your heart   Fade into you Strange you never knew I'm fading into you Yes, I think its strange you never knew.

Thoughts
I never would have thought thatthere'd be a you and me.It wasn't plausible.It wasn't possible.But out of the star-crossed skyfell an opportunity.It feels great.Its so special.Its like magic.It makes my lifesuch a blissful state of euphoria.My eyes sparkle.My soul dances.My heart rejoices.My body quiveres with your every word.My mind can't believe this is not a dream.Could you be real or just a figment of my imagnation?Should I allow myself to belive there is a prince charming?

What I Mean
I am an object of desire an illusion created by longing open to Suggestion submissive but in demand. You use me to fullfill fantasy filling a void unable to satisfy ashamed to admit what you need. I can tease you, I can please you knowing I have what you want, what you need you use that against me ignorant of the cost to me. She doesn’t give what you need she doesn’t care to satisfy so you seek relief elsewhere turning to me. Offering nothing of yourself expecting all I have to give stealing my love leaving me empty and hollow.  

A Slight Detour Thru Japan Part 1
  A Slight Detour Thru Japan Or How To Make Caligula Look Like a Schoolboy   "Ok, you own bitch, 24 hour.  You have fun, she make good sexy... but you no leave permanent mark.  OK?" -Mr. Kim, to one of my buddies on his birthday Japan was the best travel I ever made.  It's true.  For those of you who have read my "slight detours", and know of some of the shit I endured during my adventures (and for those of you who haven't read them, yet, give 'em a try, they are kind funny, and filled with, "...music, adventure, and fun and you might learn something before it's done ...HEY ...HEY ...HEY" Cosby Kids RULE, Mutha Fuckers! Japan was great.  I was in my early twenties, single (sorta), and was making way too much money.  I was an "executive without portfolio", working for the American Tobacco Growers (ATG); a company that my roommate from boarding school's father owned, and for which he was the sole son and heir.  I had just received my advanced degree in Psychology, and to be

Mother's Day
    IF YA CANT SEE IT GO TO THIS LINK   http://www.nbc.com/Saturday_Night_Live/video/clips/digital-short-motherlover/1099491/

Daydreams
Daydreams Should you cross my mind a single time in passing through the day I could call it happenstance a fleeting moment and continue on my way But for all the times I turn around and find you standing there I can not shrug it off simply continue on without the slightest care It is not only at nighttime you come through into my dreams If that were true I’d be sleeping now as I look at you standing before me If I must continue alone through these mundane days of mine I could not ask a better fantasy having you with me as they go by

School And Carousel Begins
After everybody was up and had breakfast this morning (in a few years, I’m sure this will be a blessing since Sarah and Jeffrey will be going to school in the next two and three years, as their older cousins began today), Sarah came to the table with me and got hold of some receipts we were due to shred anyway and said she would help us “pay our paybills”.  Inside I’m laughing like a bowl full of jelly; I’m sure she’s seen Mommy and (occasionally) Daddy writing out checks to pay bills and she wants to help “us guys”.  OK, Sarah, we’ll just take it our of your trust fund … earlier that morning before Martha headed to work out a little before coming home for her day off with the kids (and Mary, who called in sick today) I was looking for matched pairs of shoes the kids had outgrown.  There’s a church here in Minot today with a Mayflower truck parked in front marked “Afghanistan Shoe Drop”.  I explained this a

The Hangman Comes
(written by Glenn Barr (me)) Been reading the pages of my magazine todaydamned drama around me, I cant get awayBeen losing my reason, sense of insanityI've got blood on my boots and a bad attitudeSo I think you better STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!YOU TAINT THE AIR WITH YOUR DEVIL MY CARE AND I'VE JUST ABOUT HAD ENOUGHYOURE A DAMNED DISEASE, I WANNA PUT MYSELF AT EASEI'mma GONNA FUCK YOU UP!Youre crooked reason, makes me go insaneSlightly demented, broken, bent, it makes  me think you havent got a brainTake one step, and you'll regret you ever STEPPED RIGHT IN MY WAY(I) CURSE THE GROUND, I CURSE THE DAY WHEN YOU GAVE ME MY FUCKING NAMETHE HANGMAN COMES, MOTHER FUCKER...TO TAKE YOUR SOUL AWAY     

Mike's Peace
Mike had no idea why he walking along the beach that morning in his Dress Greens, his patent leather shoes were soaked, covered in dirt.  He kept wandering about having no real idea how he even got there in the first place."Hey Top."   He heard from behind him was a small framed woman with a big smile on her face, "you going to wander out here all day or come inside?"  He took her hand she was holding out for him as she guided him back inside the lakeside funeral home.  Mike could remember her face but, her name was escaping him somehow as he walked behind her.  He felt dirty as he kept thinking to himself how much he liked watching her walk in front of him, her hair was curled just so and the wiggles at the bottom were rustling against her curvy little bottom."My eyes are up here Sarge." she giggled as she stopped and sat him down next to the casket right before the preacher began to give his speech."We are all gathered here today to honor this man, the father of six, a husband and a

Child Brides In Africa: A Heartwrenching Problem
It is early Monday morning. Your alarm clock goes off at 6 a.m. You're getting up and getting ready for school. You go downstairs to have breakfast. Your mother has made you eggs and bacon but you decline because you would rather have cereal. Your mom finishs helping you get ready and then you are off to school. You are 11 years old and a girl in sixth grade. You like playing Barbie's with your friends and softball. Does that sound pretty typical? In America, yes. In other parts of the world people would do anything for that life. While that 11 year old girl is getting ready for school, other girls around the world her age and younger and preparing for their upcoming marriage. Yes, marriage. In rural parts of Africa such as a region called "Magadi", people live on barely $1.00 a day - if even that. There is no running water, no electricty, no phones, and the nearest hosptial or doctor can be 500 miles away. The way children have fun is by chasing goats, playing in dirt, and creating

Ptsd
here a link for people who dont no what is ptsd   https://www.google.com/health/ref/Post-traumatic+stress+disorder

Free Blow Jobs
Just kiddin, haha   I just realized that in my 27 years of life, and 12 years of living in this country, I have worked in almost every industry there is...thats scary...

Definition Of A Whore.
Female who "meets" you on Fubar, buys you drinks, "Spicy Gifts", talks sex with you, comments how bad she wants your cock when she looks at your NSFW pics, cams with you once, gets what she wants, claims to then have computer problems while playing in the mumms, gets caught, blames you and moves on. Beware.  

Moms Update
Doctor called today moms tempature spiked again this time 104.8* now they are giving her a cocktail of different antibiotics if this don't help knock out the fever and  kill the bacteria that is in her blood  she will have to have a blood transfusion and  hope that this works.   so i still ask that you keep her in your prayers     

Two Become One
The soft seduction of your lips Your venture down to my hips Squirming, shivering, pulling you near I invite you in, I have no fear Our bodies engage two as one Pure excitment, the play has just begun Breathing, sighing, calling your name I assure you for me, this is no game Two hearts beating, sounds just like one Far from over we have just begun Arching, sweating, screams of delight I surely could get use to this every night

I Laid My Eyes On You
Love is patient, love is kind. So the poets say.Those were merely words to me … just another phrase.I never saw my future in someone else’s smile‘Til I laid my eyes on youNow you’re the warmest blanket on the coldest winter’s night.You’re the other side of me I never thought I’d find.Every angel up above was smiling on the dayWhen I laid my eyes on youThough it’s hard at times for me to find the words ...To paint the perfect picture of just how much you’re worth.You should know I’ve been thinking stars and counting blessings tooSince I laid my eyes on youAnd when the world wants to bring me to my knees,I always find your hand reaching out for me.There would be no other that I could ever loveOnce I laid my eyes on youOnce I laid my eyes on you ~ C.T.  

Farewell To Sleep
I was just about to sleep. I was tiredThe weight of the world on my shoulders had drained my spirit.But before I closed my eyes, I caught a glimpse of you.From beneath my heavy eyelids I could see your strength … of heart, body and mind.The light from your soul shining so brightly I should have shielded my eyes,But I didn’t for fear I might miss even a glimpse of who you are.And now I find myself awake. Aware of my surroundings and of the beauty in a single moment … the poetry in a single word.You have awoken in my soul a sort of calm knowing.I understand that my passion need not be wasted.My words need not remain misunderstood.My beauty is more than the shell that holds my essence together.My soul is beautiful and good and should shine like the sun.I glanced over my shoulder at my bed.Blankets folded down - inviting me to return.But I no longer want to sleep.Dreams are beautiful, but not as beautiful as you.

Fw: Very Important-----please Read
Anyone-using Internet mail such as Yahoo, Hotmail, AOL and so on. This information arrived this morning, Direct from both Microsoft and Norton Please send it to everybody you know who has Access to the Internet.. You may receive an apparently harmless e-mail titled 'Mail Server Report' If you open either file, a message will appear on your screen saying: 'It is too late now, your life is no longer beautiful...'> > >>> > >>Subsequently you will LOSE EVERYTHING IN YOUR PC, And the person who sent it to you will gain access to your Name, e-mail and password. This is a new virus which started to circulate on Saturday afternoon. AOLhas already confirmed the severity, and the anti virus software's are not capable of destroying it. > > >>> > >>The virus has been created by a hacker who calls himself 'life owner'. > > >>> > >>PLEASE SEND A COPY OF THIS E-MAIL TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS, And ask them to PASS IT ON IMMEDIATELY!> > >>> > >>THIS HAS BEEN CONFIRMED BY SNOPES. > > >>> > >>http://www.snopes

Pc Police
Seems like anymore you cant say anything without someone jumping your arse. You cant say things like gay... Wanda sykes will kick your ass. (have you seen that comercial. I love that woman but damn... DONT ever say retarded or mentally retarded. Cause someone might know someone who knows someone who is related to someone who may be mentally retarded. OMG. And people still describe me as a bald guy.... I have hair... (on my ass). But what bothers me is... the people who are advocates... When they are not any of the things I wrote about above... mind ya own business okay?      

Worried
  DAMN I CAN NOT WIN FOR NOTHING THESE DAYS .. FOUND OUT YESTERDAY MY MOM IS NOT DOING SO GOOD... MY PUP I HAD WHEN I WAS A KID PASTED AWAY....WATCH A VID THAT REALLY HIT HOME..SOME PPL LIKE THAT NEED TO BE SHOT...I AM SO SICK OF THE PPL THAT HURT THERE CHILDEREN IT MAKES ME SICK TO MY TUMMY....I KNOW MY LIFE IS HELL SOME TIMES BUT I WOULD NEVER HIT A CHILD NOT EVEN IF HE OR SHE WHERE NOT MINE....I LOVE MY SONS VERY MUCH...HEY I AM NOT THEBEST MOM BUT I AM STILL LEARNING NEW THINGS EVERY DAY...SO YOU PPL OUT THERE WANT TO BASH ME FOR BEING A BAD MOTHER GET A FUCKING CLUE OR BETTER YET WATCH THE NEWS YOU DUM ASSHATS.. GOD THAT PISSES ME OFF EVEN MORE.... OK BACK TO WHAT I WAS SAYING RIGHT NOW MY HEART HURTS I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT MY MOM DAMN IT...

Here I Am Again
Here I am again, feeling restless, trapped, furious....and I know the emotions coming next...  Resignation.  Despair.And then, I'll find a glimmer...in a book...in a person...perhaps even in myself, and I'm reminded that not all is awful...  I'll feel motivated to try and push through all the arbitrary obstacles.  I'll fight the good fight....Only to repeat it again. And again.I'm so weary of this cycle.  One could call it bipolar disorder.  It is the popularized medical definition, right?  The current buzzword?  The cause for me is simply circumstance.  It's not chemical at all.  My fear though, is that by constant outside restraints, it could become a normal response.  A chemical chain reaction induced by a constant relentless events that are completely out of my control, keeping me away from the world.I try to be constructive.  To participate.  To be useful.  But to no tangible influence.   My wheelchair breaks down, and I'm tied down by weeks of waiting on medical red tape to get a

Dealing With Assholes.
Dealing with Assholes This is for all of you who occasionally have a really bad day when you just need to take it out on someone!!! Don't take that bad day out on someone you know, take it out on someone you DON'T know!!! Now get this. I was sitting at my desk, when I remembered a phone call I had to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered nicely saying, "Hello?" I politely said, "This is Patrick Hanifin and could I please speak to Robin Carter?" Suddenly the phone was slammed down on me! I couldn't believe that anyone could be that rude. I tracked down Robin's correct number and called her. She had transposed the last two digits incorrectly. After I hung up with Robin, I spotted the wrong number still lying there on my desk. I decided to call it again. When the same person once more answered, I yelled "You're an asshole!" and hung up. Next to his phone number I wrote the word "asshole," and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills,

Home Again
i cant stop my heart from breaking,as the days pass by and your not here.i feel alone with only memories,reminding me to be strong with care.everynight the tears falls down my cheeks,as we say goodnight.i stay strong knowing it would hurt you,as i tell you im alright.its a lie i know,but i would prefer to hurt then you.knowing you had enough pain and misery,to deal with without more to go through.i know the moment we touch,  your love will heal my broken heart again.like you did the day when we kissed, or when you knew i was in pain.knowing i had your wings to keep me in the clouds,is the reason i learned to fly.i dream about the day you will return home,cause that will be the day i wont have to cry.

Latley Ive Been Talking To Jesus
When I made it there this morning . He was sitting on the edge of the bed, He had a suit case packed beside him, and his face was swollen red. The room seemed so cold, The years had finally took there course, And when he spoke he seemed so lonley , you could here it in his voice. He said latley , Ive been talking to Jesus , lattley I've been talking to the moon , talking to myself in public places , latley , I feel just like a fool . Sometimes just like a child, I wear my heart out on my sleeve , And latley , Ive learned that faith, Gives you the strenght, To do some awesome things. He droped his head to the floor.then he looked around this place, he said thoes pictures on the wall, remind him of her ways . He said he went to far a few times, and come close to the end, its like fighting an up hill battle, In a war that you can't win . Borrowing against time ,and barley getting by, Bitching over a dollar , and saving every dime . He said latley ,Ive been crying to Jesus ,latlety Ive bee

Have A Look At My Blog!
look at my naughty blog http://blog.misshybrid.com/

My Fu-friends
My Fu-Friends   My husband has finally gone to workMy child has finished his playhe`s gone to bed his stories readNow it's my time of day.I've had one of those daysyou know what I meanso I sit back and relaxand turn on my screen.I'll talk to all my friendswho know just what to sayto make my stresses goand my troubles fade away.My friends you're always there for mewhenever I feel blueand though we've never met beforeI know our friendships true.And although we haven't been friends for longin this short time it seemswe shared so many things alreadyour hopes, our fears, our dreams.We come from different walks of lifebut we share a common bondand it's time to say that of all of youI've grown so very fond.So thank you friends for being therewhenever I've needed youI know you're always there for meand you know I'm there for you.

Rudeness
I hate it when I come on here and I've messaged someone and I get no reply. That's rude if someone takes the time to write to you you should reply to them. I also hate people asking me to shoutbox them when they are on and when I do I don't get a reply.Another thing that's pissing me off is when people ask for help to level up and I help them out but never get it back in return.I'm on fubar to make friends and have people to talk to. I'm not here for leveling up I only do that to add pics. I'm not here to play games or to deal with drama queens and players and liars. I'm am down right honest person and very blunt and as nice as I can be and I will tell you how it is and I'm telling you now I'm not playing with no one you wanna start you'll see how much of a b*tch I can be.

Longing For You
Longing For You   Deep inside my soul is achingLonging for your touchInside my chest my heart is breakingI'm missing you so muchYou just don't know how much I love youHow much I really careMy feelings are strong and oh so trueThis kind of love is rareA life without you is not completeI'm so empty insideI long for the day we will be togetherAnd no longer have to hide.

Aids
Hubby and I are going to my homeland for a year, and he is required to take an AIDS test, since he is not a Russian citizen. I found that pretty hilarious.

Woooooohooooooo
3 – Transformation: A bite victim who survives the coma will awaken fully transformed into a vampire. An acclimation period follows, characterized by confusion, despondency and paranoia. Most vampires begin to hunt within 24 hours of transformation. The vaccine is of no use at this point.   Mathematic Scepticism Untill today some people still believe in the exsistence of the HVV. To destroy the mythological virus, the american magazine Skeptical Inquirer published a mathematic calculation to prove that there is no vampires living in earth. This calculation is simple: each person that has been bitten by a vampire turns into a new vampire. In this way, the vampire population grows up in a geometric progression and the human population begins to disapear in the same way. If the first vampire came up in 1600 AD,  when the world had 563 million of people, and they really had fed themselves with human blood one time in a month, then just 30 months would be necessary untill the who

What's Your Best Trait?
Your Best Trait is Creativity You may seem like you're a bit flaky or flighty, but you're really just deep in thought. You are the artistic type, no doubt. However, you are also highly analytical and logical. You are able to solve problems in unique and interesting ways. Your ideas are unpredictable, but they always end up making sense. You are picky and sometimes downright critical. You expect the best of yourself, but others are not prepared for your exacting standards. What's Your Best Trait? Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Dilemma
So, the luck has FINALLY struck me, and I found a chick on craigslist to mess around with. She is pretty cute, and is also a bitter sarcastic asshole. I have talked to her on the phone, and she lives like 10 min from me. BUT...     she has MS. So now I have no idea what that makes her like. Meaning, if she has some weird behvaior and shit due to it...   Should I do her?

Commercial Shoot Today
What a blast! Did the 1-800-Safe-Auto thing today.We had the actual jingle all rocked out revved up and ready to go, and when we mentioned that we'd been jerkin around with some of our covers made into jingles, they said "Let's hear some." So we did and AC/DC version, Red Rider, Tom Petty, Golden Earring, etc and had a blast making up the lyrics as we went. They want to do the AC/DC version I think. Anyway, there was talk about flights and real sets and maybe some L.A. or NYC action in the future so cross your toes for us.

Response To A Nasty Man.
I am getting sick and tired of people in Mumms telling me how wrong I am because I dont see the natural wonder of the conservative wing of the Republican Party.  Yesterday I was attacked as thinking that I was smarter than the attacker because I was a Democrat. Following was my answer: My friend, I am smarter and better educated, more insightful, better read and probably taller, funnier and better looking. I suspect I make a better omelet have a better car and trim my toenails with more precision. I am a better pilot, swimmer and have more underwear than you do (although that one is subject to an audit that I dont chose to conduct.) I have a better sense of introspection, better diagnostic skills and a top spin serve that would mop you up. I also dont define everything in terms of politics. Nice talking, once again.

Why I Was Away
Left my house wednesday morning on the way to have lunch with my son at his school...as I was walkin to the car I started feeling a little bit of pain in my stomach. By 2:30 I could barely stand up and was admitted into the hospital. My Colon exploded...for lack of a better, more medical term.  Diverticulitus was the start of it.   Anyway....had emergency surgery wednesday. Hung out in the hospital til today. Got two open wounds in my gut.  Gotta shit thru my stomach for a couple months...then go back to the hospital and have all the wounds sown back up. Fun Fun Fun    

Touch Me
  I hear him call my name. I walk toward his voice and he leads me to the back, in a corner, far away from prying eyes.I think he has something to show me, some tidbit of gossip to relay. Anticipating nothing more than the latest news, I follow. Looking up at him with questioning eyes…he only stares back.My hands are by my side and he reaches for them, putting one of his huge rough ones in each of mine. Slowly he lifts them and moves them about shoulder height and pins them softly against the wall.Confusion is in my eyes now as well as questions….but I don’t pull away.I can feel this animalistic heat animating from his body. It is making my body respond in kind. Even though no part of our bodies touch but hands, I can feel a tingling sensation coursing through my veins, I feel tension in the pit of my stomach, my nipples harden and some random thought.He is still looking at me…and my tongue sneaks out and wets my lips in anticipation.He lowers his head and

How Government Works
How Government Works;Once upon a time the government had a vast scrap yard in the middle of a desert. Congress said, "Someone may steal from it at night."  So they created a night watchman position and hired a person for the job.Then Congress said, "How does the watchman do his job without instruction?" So they created a planning department and hired two people, one person to write the instructions, and one person to do time studies.Then Congress said, "How will we know the night watchman is doing the tasks correctly?" So they created a Quality Control department and hired two people. One to do the studies and one to write the reports.Then Congress said, "How are these people going to get paid?" So they created the following positions, a time keeper and a payroll officer. Then hired two people.Then Congress said, "Who will be accountable for all of these people?" So they created an administrative section and hired three people, an Administrative Officer, Assistant Administrative Offic

One Really Cool Person
DirtyLilDevil{A.K.A. Demona:Greeter@RAZIEL\'S UNDERWORLD}http://b.pca2.fubar.com/81/77/2877718/tn_4220333003.jpg">@ fubar

If You Are Reading This....
if you are reading this, whether we do or don't speak often, post a comment of your first memory of you and me. when you've finished, post this paragraph on your own status; you'll be surprised what people remember about you.

My Spark Is Gone Today...
if someone finds it, please send it back. I am not a very "Funny Redhead" without it. Years of love and nurture went into that spark... ugh.

(h)
Finally You were all I could think about , You snuck into my dreams ,You made me feel like a beautiful woman inside , When you stopped & stared at me ,You played games with your eyes like you were in disguise, Hiding from me like a child,I thought I really loved you , I thought that it was really true , I thought there was a man inside of you....

Fu-mafia
FUCK OFF! I am not interested!

Please Take This Quiz Send It To My Inbox
Y=Yes N=No Would you? Will you?[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _[_] kiss me?[_] let me kiss you?[_] take me out to dinner?[_] let me drive you somewhere?[_] take a shower with me?[_] buy me a drink?[_] take me home for the night?[_] let me sleep in your bed?[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?[_] let me make you breakfast?[_] help me with homework?[_] tickle me?[_] let me tickle you?[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?[_] get wasted with me?[_] instant message me?[_] greet me in public?[_] hang out with me?[_] bring me around your friends?[_] make out with me?[_] in public?[_] fuck me or get fucked by me?[_] in public?D0 Y0U...[_] think im cute?[_] think im hott?[_] want to kiss me?[_] want to cuddle with me?[_] want to hook up with me?[_] want to live happily ever after with me?AM i...[_] smar

Busy Week Tgif
Wow I have had a busy week, and it isn't even Friday! Sunday, started feeling sick and went out with a friend to Club DJ's, before she got on a plane and went down to Mexico, without me the little punk! Monday, I was really sick, but still had to go to class and take a test on Form Factors and Power Supplies. Let me tell you I never wanted to know so much about voltages and watts and amps until I opened up the pretest and saw all the questions were mostly about them. Tuesday, I swear I was going to die! I spent most of the day either not being able to breath or whipping my nose. So that meant sleeping and staying in bed, also studying for a test on Processors and Chipsets. Oh and one think I learned that day, Chicken and Rice soup is not good, in fact I think I have to find out who came up with it and kick them. But hey I have a sister who doesn't mind stopping off at the store to pick up some stuff on her way home from work even though she is sick herself. Wednesday,

Erotic Story Teaser
This is a portion of an erotic story I wrote and have posted on my blog site www.eroticknights.blogspot.com. If you enjoy this, then you can go there and read more :)   Spring had finally seemed to arrive and I decided it was time to take advantage of the new found warm weather. I had been planning on surprising her with a new sex adventure, and had told her that I wanted to surprise her with it one day. All she knew was that she needed to be ready for anything, at anytime. She knew that I was pretty much capable of doing anything. I had racked my brain trying to think of the perfect adventure. The more I thought about it the more I became enticed with some type of role play. Since both of us had wanted to do a kidnapping for some time I decided that would be the way to go. I started plotting my kidnapping of her about a month in advance. I was simply waiting for the weather to get warm enough to carry it all out, and that day had finally come….She was faithful to go the gym e

My First Letter To God I Wrote After Losing My Baby Boy Many Yrs Ago.....
My first letter to God(In a form of poetry)....after Christians passing. Current mood:  calm Category: Life Dear God, You took my precious little baby!Treat him well and love him as I would,with tender loving care. Give him hugs very often and kiss his little face,let him feel loved by the arms holding him in a warm embrace, Bless his little hands and feet,and bless his little tender heartbeat.My precious baby was meant for me, I had him in the hopes to be,A loving mommy and tender too!!To give hugs and kisses and security like he never knew. But,Lord Jesus,you had bigger plans for my precious son,its just that its still so hard to let go,as for my heart,He has won!!xoxoxo                                                 I Love You Christian,                                                                     Mommy

Naughty Dream
You trail your lips along my silken skin as we lay there in what seems like forever. Your fingers caress my senstive areas like never before, sending erotic pulses through my body, making me quiver in sheer climatic bliss. Kissing ,caressing each other, licking, tasting, teasing..making one another climb that wall and never coming back down. You bind my wrists to the bed with silk , kissing my lips tenderly as you tie one wrist then the other. Kneeling between my legs i feel you, i want you in me to take me to devour me, but instead you lean in only to trail your tongue once again on my wanton mouth..letting a moan come from them as i feel you almost enter me but then you pull away..leaving me heavy panting and wanting for more. I almost wrap my legs around your waste but you grab my legs.. lifting one of them in the air.. i watch you as you bring one leg close to your lips.. feeling you kissing then trailing your tongue down my calf..passing my knee, up my inner thigh..only to bite m

I Love Being Lesbian!!!!!!
I walk in to my house it is all dark then someone hits the lights and everyone yells HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I party for a long time and say good bye to everyone. One person remains. My sexy lesbian friend Clair.  She was naked and asking me to come and show her my true feelings.  I strip down and we come to the bed. e go into a 69 position and her juices tasted so great. We then played with each other for a little while. Then we decided to really get it started.  i went in to my closet and got out my toys. We started with a first course of vibrators for us both. Then the strapons started. Second course was me fucking the shit out out of Clair. Third course was her fucking me. That was a great night!

How Do You Tell The Truth?
You Are Brutally Honest Hey, the truth hurts, but that's not exactly your fault. You call things as you see them and pull no punches. You believe that you shouldn't be punished for speaking your mind. It's a lot better than being a liar. In fact, you have no tolerance for dishonesty of any kind. In your mind, a white lie is still a lie. You rather that people give it to you straight. You pride yourself on being tough enough to handle the unvarnished truth. How Do You Tell the Truth? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Native American Poetry
Some of my favorite Native poetry and quotes... Native American Prayer (Author Unknown) Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow; I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain; I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft star that shines at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there; I did not die. Treat the earth well. It was not given to you by your parents, it was loaned to you by your children. We do not inherit the Earth from our Ancestors, we borrow it from our Children. --Ancient Indian Proverb When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice. --White Elk Humankind has not woven the web of life. We are but one thread within it. Whatever we do to the web, we do

Never Say U Aint Beautiful!!!!
                              Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own Everybody has a private world Where they can be alone Are you calling me, are you trying to get through Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you I'm just so fuckin' depressed I just can seem to get out this slump If I could just get over this hump But I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps Fell down and I got right back up But I need that spark to get psyched back up In order for me to pick that mic back up I don't know how I pry away And I ended up in this position I'm in I starting to feel distant again So I decided just to pick this pen Up and tried to make an attempt to vent But I just can't admit Or come to grips, with the fact that I may be done with rap I need a new outlet I know some shits so hard to swallow And I just can't sit back and wallow In my own sorrow But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow One tough act to follow Copy

Chapter Five: The Conclave
Faust awoke to find the sun setting behind the horizon, and also to find himself laying at the base of the Rocky Grave mountains, almost at the exact spot of his rescue of Shelata. He had no time to marvel at the coincidence, however, and he immediately took off for his nest. On the journey home, Faust thought all about the conversation that had taken place that day, or the day before, or whenever it took place. Or maybe I had imagined the whole thing? Faust thought to himself. Well, I can't take that chance. That Avari is one crazy magician, too. And what did he mean when he said Dragons weren't good pets? I would make a great pet! At least until I ate my owner. Faust chuckled to himself. He soon arrived at his nest, and called out his servant, James. "You called, Master?" James emerged from the forest, wearing what Faust figured to be his nighttime clothes. "Indeed I did, and I have alot to discuss with you." Faust then related the entire conversation with James, and was happy that h

Irony
Ok so I'm watching the news which I rarely do these days because it's so filled with tabloid journalism that I can do without.  What pops up is the growing "scandal" on climate change.  I see daily postings on facebook about climategate ranting about sham this deception that and these people will finally get exposed.  Me personally, I believe is global warming.  Its crazy to sit and think that mankind can do what they please on this planet and have no ill effects.  The same holds true for my views on evolution.  I am a person of faith, but my faith does not lead me to ignore the fact that evolution happens everyday.  To do so is ludicrous.  So back to the story..lol.  How was this critical information on the lies of Al Gore and other "liberals" found?  It was hacked!!  Hackers illegally went into computers and stole information.  The keyword here is "illegally" because when I last checked hacking was a crime punishable by fines and prison sentences.  So the people against global warmin

What Was The Point Of Lex Luthor?
“A human being who dared to challenge a god, he was surely the greatest of his kind.  I often look back upon those days and wonder what he might have accomplished without me.  The triumphs he might have achieved in the name of his species.  Perhaps he existed to keep me in check or, as someone once hypothesized, perhaps it was the other way around.  This is why he despised me so.”    Superman’s arch-enemy inspires equal resentment on Superman’s part, but I have no doubt it’s tinged with a grudging respect for all one man with what seems like all the cards stacked against him is able to accomplish.  It seems it is just Superman whom Luthor wants to beat down, not the entire human race.  The excerpt above comes from an alternate history of Superman, the graphic novel “Superman: Red Son” (ISBN 9781401201913) that posits what would happen in the champion of “truth, justice, and the American way” had instead landed in the Soviet Union

Sometimes Even A Clown Cries
life is full of mysteries and wonder,but most of all its full of living,ive had a pretty good life i thought,until i met someone who made me realize that it wasnt over,but rather just beginning again,This woman filled my life with such joy,but also some sadness,but i never doubted that we would be together the rest of our lives,so my tears went from sadness,to happiness when we moved in together,thers nothing like hearing a little angel call you dad for the first time,or waking up to the love of your life telling you that she is the happiest woman in the world,for you being there.this week we put up our first tree together as a family,and i got to put on my wedding band,this week was the best week i have ever had,ive laughed and ive cried,but most of all i have lived,and i plan on laughing and crying with her for the rest of our lives his lips quiver at the thought of kissing hers,her legs weaken at the thought of his kiss,his arms stay strong at the thought of holding her,her heart r

Wow ... Wtf Did You Do???
I went and re-designed myself ....      

Morning ~n~ Stuffz
first things first ... COFFEE, and need more of it!!!

Harry Potter
ok .. last night I watched the "latest" Harry Potter movie ... FUCK ME RUNNING BACKWARDS WITH A STICK UP MY ARSE!!!!  This was the first time I got to see the "new" Dumbledorfe ... he did a fairly good job, but like any actor you get acustomed to a certain person and no one else is capable.  The move itself is well played out.  BUT DAMNIT man ... I am NOW ready for the last two movies (Deathly Hollows is rumored to be done in two parts).  Just needs to hurry up.  Like most of the Potter series they do leave it open for the next one ... BUT not like this one ... the door is left wide open for all kinds of speculation.  Ohh and if you haven't seen it .... well, someone dies, and when he does you kinda expect and think he's just gonna jump back up and ask "Why is everyone gathered here" ..... but yeah, he doesn't and it goes on ...

Email To Babyjesus
BabyJesus;I have been having the same issue for months now and I can't seem to find anyone to help me get this straightened out.  I have emailed a couple time to Fu-Support, I have emailed Scrapper, I have gone to the Support Lounge numerous times to get the same answer and no one can help.here is the issue.  My Status and My Icons do not work.  I can't post a status message nor can I put up any type of Icon.  I have done everything known to do.  Dumped cache, upgraded everything, Adobe, Quicktime, Java, FF (which is the browser I am using).  I have even gone so far as to create a new profile to have it not be able to load a status message.  This is driving me crazy.  I would like to be able to enjoy and have fun with the other on here ...If it's because I don't spend money on this site, that is completely incorrect.  I have I just got done buying bling ... TWICE ... I have in the past bought blasts, VIP, tickers, bling, I even went through 2 HH ... All I am requesting is some help in

Staind -tangled Up In You
  LYRICS: You're my worldThe shelter from the rainYou're the pillsThat take away my painYou’re the lightThat helps me find my wayYou’re the wordsWhen I have nothing to sayAnd in this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youI’m still tangled up in youStill tangled up in youYou're the fireThat warms me when I'm coldYou're the hand I have to holdAs I grow oldYou're the shoreWhen I am lost at seaYou're the only thingThat I like about meAnd in this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youI’m still tangled up in youHow long has it beenSince this storyline beganAnd I hope it never endsAnd goes like this foreverIn this worldWhere nothing else is trueHere I amStill tangled up in youTangled up in youI’m still tangled up in youStill tangled up in you

No Matter What...
I have to remember...I'm a BBW, only slightly attractive, BUT I'm an honest, caring, loving, and passionate person who is damn funny. I have to believe that someday some one will accept it all. The short comings, the dorkiness, and the lonliness I've had to overcome...the sadness. I have to remember that it's all me, and I can't apologize...won't ever change. it's just me. I have to believe some day that I'm worth it. I have to remember...everything good and sweet and wonderful. No matter what.    

The One That I Become
I hope the sun shines so brightTo fill your day with light.I hope the birds can singThe song I used to sing.I hope the wind can whisperThree words I used to whisper.I hope the moon will always be thereTo inform you I still care.I hope all of the stars up aboveReminds you of my true loveAnd i hope that special someoneThe one that I become.

A Steady Reminder Of What I Will Not Have Again
I see you here and there Your pictures are truly haunting me I want to be with you and still I am alone I could make this a poem but all it is a memory of what I will never have.

What Happened To Tim Last Decade?
just a quick recap about me during the last decade.. than im going to go to bed cause im sick of watching people kiss.  in list form in no particular order Had a girlfriend for a few months. Had my civic and camry Worked for a grocery store, biotech company and now im for the state in the courthouse 96% of the time i was single (rough estimate) Got into the NFL big time Got cheated on Said no to sex (trust me easier said than done) My grandma died this year Graduated college still need to go back though Shannon *sister* got married, moved out, moved back in..and now is moved out again Well thats just a few personal things for me that happened.  What about you?  have a happy and healthy christmas..umm halloween..shit what holiday is this now...oh yeah  happy new year!  where's the fucking jack? Tim~

Death
It calls out to me with its shiney metal blade It calls out to me tempting me to play Just one push against my soft translucent skin The warm crimson seeping out from within No one would know it cries No one would care if I die Hands shaking I bring you closer Just one quick motion the pain will be over

Who Did Start The Fire ?
Ok, so today I was listenin to my IpoD at work like I do everyday, and one of my favorite songs came on. It is "We Didn't Start The Fire", by Billy Joel. I'm sure most if not all of you know the song. It is a list of events in his life. Starting with the year he was born and working to the year the song was released. There are so many events listed...Disneyland, the Kennedy Assassination, Space Flight, and The Cola Wars among others. Important and interesting. It is his legacy. His claim to History and what it has left us. So here I was singing and dancing and it hit me...why not write down the events of my life? My, or I should say OUR legacy. So for all of you born around the same year I was, this is for us. For those of you reading who are perhaps older (Hi Pops), your legacy stretches further, and entails so much more. So without any more blabber and even less ado, let us begin our walk through History. 1971I was born August 19th of that year. China joined the UN that year as well

Random Thoughts And The Slow Burning Ash~by Jd
Cold winter days, Wasting away time just another saturday drone, Nothing good to do so im counting the tiles on the ceiling for hours to come. Light me up the next ciggarette, The sand in the hour glass flows fluid i like to call it " liquid time", Hurrying up just to wait even longer, Somehow this day seems pointless this is what its like to feel alone.   Entrapping myself in music to escape the endless thoughts of reason, The laughter of children in the background brings a soft smile to my serious face. The fire on the back of my lungs flows silent and deadly into the atmosphere, Such a deadly habit, But such a beautiful addiction and right now i love the fucking taste.   I could stare out the window and dream of things to come, Yet i would just hate this more, Walking in circles and trying to find ways to be productive, Bet it would be fun to slam my head into the door. I feel somewhat animated, Bet if i tried hard enough i could make myself fly and leave colored trails,

What Flavor Hot Chocolate Are You?
You Are Vanilla Hot Chocolate Vanilla hot chocolate may seem like a bit of a contradiction, but you are full of contradictions. You're funny but serious. Outgoing but thoughtful. Wild but traditional. No one can quite figure you out. You're the type most likely to handcraft the perfect hot chocolate at home. Your friends are blown away by your drink making skills. The truth is that you're a complex person with complex tastes. And you know that a little vanilla makes chocolate taste better. What Flavor Hot Chocolate Are You? Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

I Can't Do This
So I went and took him lunch and cigarettes. I know I shouldn't have. But I can't stop caring, and loving him, and I knew he hadn't eaten breakfast. When he called this morning and wanted me to bring him something, I got excited, it gave me an ounce of hope, I thought, well he called me and not her. And I clung to that hope. Then I got there, and a friend had to call and calm me down, he was late going on break and all these thoughts came into my head. He finally came out, and it's like I knew this was it. This was the last lunch I'm ever gonna make him, this is the last trip i'll ever take to his work when he needs something. The look in his eye, it was just....he couldn't even look at me. It didn't feel like he was looking away because he felt bad for what he did, it was like he was just done. I don't even know why he wanted me to come up there, was it because he left me with the rest of the money and had no other way to get cigs? Did he actually want to see me? I don't know.