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11 May 2009
Only you have the power to give yourself what you deserve.
We breathe , sit , watch the smoke rise, From every candle that burns in the darkest off nights, Watching the mesmerising colours, Red orange & blue.   Passing on our blessings, Evoking emotions we never knew, Butterflies ascend from the dark, Passing loveing unto you.   They have delicate wings , yes they do, Embroided with silk, cotton or blue, They are here to spread there colours, There scent is beautifull & sweet.   When you pass a stranger in the street, Don't stare at them as a piece of meat, Stop ...... say hello ...... if only for a fleeting moment, There in as much need as you.   Don't be blue, Look out, spread colours, We all need help in times off need, Stitch those tattered wings & fly, There's always an angel looking over you.
The Military WifeThe good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into his sixthday of overtime when an angel appeared. She said, "Lord, you seem to behaving a lot of trouble with this one. What's the matter with the standardmodel?"The Lord replied, "Have you seen the specs on this order? She has to becompletely independent, posses the qualities of both father and mother, be aperfect hostess to four or forty with an hour's notice, run on blackcoffee,handle every emergency imaginable without a manual, be able to carry oncheerfully, even if she's pregnant and has the flu, and she must be willingto move 10 times in 17 years. And oh, yes, she must have six pairs ofhands."The angel shook her head. "Six pairs of hands? No way!"The Lord continued, "Don't worry, we shall make other military wivesto helpher. And we will give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell withpride in her husband's achievements, sustain the pain of separations, beatsoundly when it's over-worked and t
Red-breathe Your Life Into Me
And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to meAnd this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from youAnd this is who I am when, when I don't know myself anymoreAnd this is what I choose when it's all left up to meBreathe your life into meI can feel youI'm falling, falling fasterBreathe your life into meI still need youI'm falling, fallingBreathe into meBreathe into meAnd this is how it looks when I am standing on the edgeAnd this is how I break apart when I finally hit the groundAnd this is how it hurts when I pretend I don't feel any painAnd this is how I disappear when I throw myself awayBreathe your life into meI can feel youI'm falling, falling fasterBreathe your life into meI still need youI'm falling, fallingBreathe into meBreathe into meBreathe into meBreathe into meBreathe your life into meI can feel youI'm falling, falling fasterBreathe your life into meI still need youI'm falling, fallingBreathe into meBreathe your life into me!I'm falling, falling
Today I did not go to work. I woke up with my  alarm clock going off, I got up, went across the room and turned it off, looked back at my bed, and decided that I wanted to be there instead of my office. The interesting part is that all today, I felt no guilt about not being  there. That is the first time that's happened with this job. I'm afraid I've reached the point where I just don't care about it anymore. Every task that I complete looks just like another mark on a page that says "Done for nothing." The worst part, I have to develop a strategy for what these people are going to do when I am gone. I have to write my own replacement manual. Talk about making yourself feel useless. Anywho, today's activites: Took care of some work stuff (go figure, I'm not at work and still working, kinda contradictory to what I just said). Played video games. Went to the pool. Went out to eat. Didn't talk to a single person who wasn't in front of me. I've been getting a little flak for my new pol
Best Friends
If Our Hearts Could Talk Life is kind of like the ocean,You can see how it starts, but not the way it ends.So lets just take things as they come to us,And be happy we're best friends.Let us learn from each other,We can help each other grow.And let us always be there for one another,At times we are feeling low.May we always be able to put a smile on each others face,And a twinkle in our eyes.And let us never forget all the good times,Like watching shooting stars fall from the skies.The laughs just keep on coming,Nothing can ever take that away.Cause they start from the inside,And get deeper everyday.They make us stronger,As they bring us closer together.They always make our days brighter,No matter the weather.Just the sound of that laugh,And the sight of that smile.Makes every risky minute,Worth the while.A moment where nothing else matters,And a chance to be free.All the rest fades away,And its just you and me.We can just walk together,To that beautiful place.Side by side,With that lo
Getting Older...
As I sit here on my bday I have come to realize a lot!!    I will be applying to medical school next week in hopes of becoming a successful  anesthesiologist.. I figure I am 25... in 10 years I will be set... Have my career going, my kids both in their preteens, god help me, and this little family growing and building.. paving a way for my kids future!...   I wear my heart on my sleeve, anyone who really knows me knows this... I dont really think any of you actually know me, or if you want to, you just havent really tried... I am a brutally honest bitch.. People love me or hate me, and honestly I could careless... I do try hard for one persons approval, an approval I dont believe I will ever get!   I got my boobs done hoping it would make me feel better about myself, and I couldnt want them gone anymore then I do now... They brought me joy when I thought they could bring me the real joy I strived for.. But it didnt work the way I planned...   Here I sit, wondering, pondering!
Perfect....    Come close to meand look into my eyes,Tell me what you see.Try to look deeper in themand find yourself in me.During the day or be it nightWhatever I see... it's you in my sight.I see myself in the mirror... it's you.Thoughts are worthless thoughtsIf the thougths are not... of you.Am I myself??? I wonder at timesor is it you in me that shines?Have you lost yourself... in me?For it's only you... my eyes can see   There's nothing I can say nowNo words that could describeThe way my heart is poundingAnd how I feel for you insideSo I'm not going to botherI promise I won't even tryBecause you'll see what I can't sayWhen you look into my eyesI thought I was certain about youBut I've never felt so sure tonightYour imperfections take my breath awayI've never seen such a beautiful sightI took a risk, and jumped right inBut you were there to catch my fallI still can't believe that I am the girlWho is lucky enough to get it allI've always thought you were perfectBut as the days p
Cupcakes And Trees
so this guy is walking through the park and sees another man with his arms around a tree.He asks him why and the tree hugger replies, I am listening to the trees. you should try it sometime it's very soothing.Out of sheer curiousity the man proceeds to wraps his arms around three.The tree hugger proceeds to handcuff the man to the tree strip him and rob 1 very embarrased calls for help from another passerby... the passerby approaches andasks what happened.  with much shame he tells his story, man 3 proceeds to stand behind him forcefully and say " it just ain't your day cupcake."
Funny But True
I Thought I was a Cowboy Until... An old cowboy sat down at the Starbucks and ordered a cup of coffee. As he sat sipping his coffee, a young woman sat down next to him. She turned to the cowboy and asked, 'Are you a real cowboy?' He replied, 'Well, I've spent my whole life breaking colts, working cows, going to rodeos, fixing fences, pulling calves, bailing hay, doctoring calves, cleaning my barn, fixing flats, working on tractors, and feeding my dogs, so I guess I am a cowboy.' She said, 'I'm a lesbian.   I
Drink Or Food??
some peoples are like foodany kind of foodno matter yummy it was or badno matter u liked it or notat the end of the day u just gonna poop it outthe most expensive caviaror just a peice of breadthey all have to go through the same way down to the p exitso dont bother ur self looking of which kind of food u want to belolmy selfi am like water,juice,drinksanykind of themcuz even after i get out of the p exiti return to be a steamthen a cloudthen damnnn rainand yes now u can imagine which human being urine dropsu r enjying when u  dance in the rainnahhh m just kidding uyes i knowI AM CRAZYBUT I DO ENJOY ITDO U??-----------------W.B: FAR7AN
Pics U Want 2 C Of Me Or Salutes
Hi everyone just wanted to know if anyone can help me think of new pics I should take. I try to be adventurous but extreme is out of the question. I am still debating any sex on pics. But I am sure a lot of positions I could get in that I can not think of you can. Also I would like to trade salutes with others. I will not get nude. But I have a new bikini I want to show off.
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Creatures Without Conscience
I feel fairly cynical today. After the SML F up this morn and his ineptitude in general has led me to disdain culture. A bunch of stupid animals that run around with the herd claiming to know more than the sheep quivering with fear standing right next to them. Eternally, narcissistic, devolved dunces speaking from an underdeveloped brain rejecting the heart. 65-100 years long "whose gotta bigger dick" contest with poor eyesight.
A Line Or Two
look for me again when the sun is gone when the stars are to shine look for me again when the tide returns when the boats cease to stop by when the moss covers the bank when my flute covers in dust then again the the dawn will arrive the dew fresh the flowers will bloom i will return look for me again in the new of the day FOR CLOSER TO HEART, HONEST THOUGHTS - READ 'NEGLIGIBLE NOTIONS' JUST FOR MY FRIENDS....  
i'm not good with speaking in words outside of a letter.. out of text.. out of letters.. my voice can never describe anything as well as my words. so this goes out to my soon to be... your are my life.. you are my dreams.. I'm tired of the drama. tired of life of nothingness. my son was what kept me walking. He kept my heart beating and walking one foot in front of the other. when i first came here i didn't have a friend.. you were my first... i mean that. you were the first. talked to you as a friend. became close as close can be. never even seen under my own eyes that your feelings for me were the same. living every day in the real world only made me want to come back to this dream to hear your words swirling around my head. you really do mean the world to me. there is not a thing in this world that could make me change my mind now. i'm devoting myself to you. this is my last try. i'm tired of being so caring and giving... i'm tired of being everything i can be for someone when the w
The Saga Continues
So more about me, well lets see I was born on a friday night at about 8pm, just in time for the party! because of this I am always hyper on fridays, no matter if I am at work or not, and if its a full moon and a firday..dont even bother, you get within 10 feet of me and you will be electrified the energy pules out of me in waves! Yes I love full moons, vampyres are kick ass on a random note, If I could be any mythical creature it would be that one..if they are mythical lol.  yes I like twilight and loved the books! lol.  interview with a vampire was a great show as was the 90's version of brham stokers dracula.  I am all about the laughs if I can make you laugh at least once then I have done my job as your friend.  I love being the center of attention, mainly cause im good at it lol, and yes im humble too:) true story people will always gravitate towards me in a crowded room, girls and guys, I know this is a little cliche but in my case its true you either see the real me and
Daddy, Stop Talking.
Yesterday at work one of my customers brought in his two-year-old son Azen.  I’d seen him and his wife in the office before, and I asked how she was doing since last time I saw her she wore a cast on her arm from slipping on a walkway during our very late winter.  I got an “I don’t care” from Steven (their son’s name is a combination of the first two letters of her name Azusa and the last two letters of his) and there are moments I’ve felt the same way about Martha, so I didn’t press it.  After getting home from my church’s youth group which was part two of the chat n’ chew with Pastor Janet about our teens there and their attitudes toward sex (yes, sometimes sex DOES come up in church) and receiving the subtle impression that boys and men are unethical slime when it comes to anything below the waist, I got home where Sarah wanted to play outside with me. I expect my son Jeffrey did too, but he’s not as clear speaking.  &ldqu
Next Part Of The Last Story We Will Call This Story 6
as the young man is flying through the night.he quickly spots where he is going.he can see the bright lights already of the city known as las he lands in the shadows of a alley way.he changes back to his natural form of a human.smileing to himself as he walks from the alley.he starts walking down the street watching he approaches a casino he spots a woman who catches his eye.quickly he starts following he follows her she goes into one of the casino's.he keeps following her.quickly he keeps following her as she reaches a the door opens the woman gets on quickly he changes into a mist and follows her the doors close the woman starts looking in her purse for her room key.he changes back to his human form without her noticeing and hits the stop button.the woman startled by the sudden stop looks up to see him.quickly he grabs her.pushing her to the back of the he pins her against the wall he sinks his fangs deep into her neck drinkin
This Is Funny
I think its funny when people on fubar see my picture and they automatically assume that I'm emo but if those people actually took the time to know me they would definitely know that I'm not emo but I don't care if those people are labeling stereotypes because eventually they'll know how it feels to be stereotyped as something they're not so it doesn't hurt my feelings if they want to stereotype me I know what I am and what I'm not I'd thought I'd share that with whoever reads this becuase its amusing to me =D
Your Forever
We always said we'd write the oceanher very own love songs.And you swore forever and neverwhile I kissed my pinky and your wrist.It's funny, bein' up here in the stars with you'cause the music is so much lovelierwhen it laces its fingers through the gold and silverof a imperfect moment.Snap shot of this moment wherewe're rising from the rings of dustto try again. We're too big to be anything lessthan a you and me- we.I am starving for your words,'cause your friendship is so much more.I don't ever want to change it,'cause I love the dance we're in.We're so composed in this instantwhere we're watching the tide crash around us.And everything is as it should be.....I've fallen in love with the puzzle piece chaos.Write me a song, forever mine?'Cause I love the ones that I can dance to..And can't you see the stars rain around us.This is what forever looks like.
Just A Lil' Some Thing To Think About...
i'm selfish,impatient,and a little insacure.I make mistake's,i am out of controll,and at time's hard to handle,but if u can'thandle me at my worst times,then u sure as hell don't deserve me at my best....
Dr. Called Today..
6-8 hour surgery...has me concerned..also found nodule under a centimeter in lung....many risks but under 3-5 letting God take over at this point...and nothing is coincidental...whats to b will b....i hope and pray for the best..
The Dieing Heart
my heart was alive and beating it beated just for you now your gone never to return the longer your gone the more the heart slows down as the heart slows to a stop it incases itself into a tome of stone so a heart that once lived is now dead and put to rest waiting for the day that that tome of stone can be opened and to be brought back to life untill that day the heart will remain dead incased in stone  
God Is My Copilot
Acouple of days ago i had someone leave a comment in my shout box about my status line of "God was my copilot but we crashed".  It said if god was my copilot than i was in the wrong seat.  This really pissed me off becouse this person does not know who i am, never asked what i meant by it or anything of the sort, if you don't understand something i write than ask me to explane it!  I am not afraid to explane anything or defend anything that i say.  So now that i got that out of the way my thought on the status line is this, God is my copilot he guides me(or pushes me  most of the time) and when i crash he is there to pick me up and ask me "Now what did you learn from this one?" If God was the pilot we would never crash, never fall down and scrape your knee, and never have to learn how to get back up and walk down the road. I think if God is your pilot you would never have to learn anything and therefor never grow mentaly and spiritually becouse you wouldn't have to do anything becouse
Well I've been on Fubar for about2 months now and have learned alot about the sight with those of you that are on here.  I do not judge or wish to be judged but its in our nature.  This morning when I logged on.  fewer messages than usual, which is cool, but one stuck out to me on my shout.. this guy compared me to "Ilovepapsmurf" In the beginning I talked with her and even added her as a friend, went to rate her photos and she had sveral nude photos, she is a cute girl, but because I would not put naked pics up or email her some she deleted me.  Thats fine.  But this jerk said I was an internet whore just like the bitch Ilovepapasmurf.  Am I missing something here?  Yes all you pervs will check her out to see the nakedness, thats cool, but is that what you are really looking for on this sight?  If this is what it is then Im int he wrong place.  I will not put pics up like that.  I have a son and a reputaion to keep.  You guys need to to think about it, you never know what dirty laundr
Tick, Tick, Tick
tick......tick......tick......tick...... the clock seemingly booms as I deeply stare in to the mirror. lookin for the slightest glimour of passion hidden deep in my tear filled eyes. i see nothing but salt-filled tears flowing down pale cheeks like a slow streamin waterfall. each tear building up slowly until it breaks on the brim of my red eye lid. thoughs continuously run around in his cluttered mind, confusion grows and grow. wat did i do?? wat should i do?? where is someone to talk to?? he tries number after number and reaches voicemail after annoying vocemail. so he looks and sees an old dusty note book with an ordinary black pen sitting on it. is that his sign, is that how he was ment to deal with his unrelenting pain and his deep crushing sorrow. ''wat the hell'' he says, ''might as well give it a shot'' so he begins to slowly write, really unsure about wat to put on this faded piece of lined paper. after writing a few words that he feels describes him, pain, anguish, sorrow,
Not Myself. . .
feel like ive lost myself in someone im not!i feel like a worthless piece of shiti feel bad for messing with your head like it was a toyrevenge wasnt as sweet as i thought it wastwo wrongs doesnt make a rightand for what i did i feel like a shitty personeven tho it was nothing compaired to what you did to meand im sorry.i know that doesnt make it rightbut atleast i feel better for admitting i was wrongwhen will you ever admit you was wrong tho?
When Smiles Collide
Two whispered soulsFrom across the roomWho have thoughtsof despair and gloom.But for just a moment They're lost in timeAnd spirits liftWhen smiles collide.Suddenly, they feelthat all's not lostKindred souls togetherA simple gesture's brought.A gentle lift of sunshineupon lips that cannot hideThe act of human kindnessWhen smiles collide.
Sup Fu-fools
Jus moved up here to Noblesville tryin to meet sum new people and ran across this site and thought it looked like a kick ass place to do so. 
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother!!!! I care about my friends! But FEEL there is a lack on their part.And get this... I have been told countless times that I don't know a damn thing when it comes to relationships!!! Bullshit! I have put 250% in any relationship I am in. Whether it be with a chick or a guy! And yes... even my exhubby! But... again the same cycles occurs!Is there something really wrong with me? Is it a bad thing to actually give a damn about someone? Yeah, I know I wear my heart on my sleeve. But that isn't gonna stop me from caring and loving my friends! I am not asking to be on their priority list. I could never ask to be #1. Hah... very unlikely! But it would be nice to know I am #5,394 or #141 or #83,172. I know, I know, I know! I am being a whiny baby! I am big crybaby! I never give up on anyone!!! I am not a quitter! I just don't drop anyone cuz I am bored with them or feel too "way out there".Yeah! I will admit I will close up when I feel threatened! I got
1st Timer
You know you can't avoid it ..IT JUST HAPPENS . That 1st time it creeps up on you and sometimes you dont know it. It just happens ,Its unavoidable. OR IS IT ?? I've decided to go ahead & Blog away my thoughts,feelings,rants , etc etc etc. Let whatever come forth from my fingertips come forth for all to see. SO on that note be forewarned It could get ugly or it could be really great ...who knows Where to start  ?? Well I guess I'll start with this last weekend. My band just happened to land a pretty big gig here in SA. playing at the SOUTH TEXAS ROCK FEST 2009. The 2 day event is topped off by GREAT bands including legends SAXON and QUEENSRYCHE. My band was chosen to play DAY 2 of the event and open for Queensryche. We ended up with a great slot ! Right before the awesome TEXAS band Dangerous Toys ! These guys have been one of my favorite bands for years ! The day started out kinda shaky with rain in the forecast and sure enough right before the gates opened it POURED. Like freaken c
Never The Same
Parts takenStitched from scrapsHeld together with insanityNeurons fire down a cold spineUp the neck punctured with Razorblade teethWarm brain, blue body lying on a bed of deceit170 thumps to the head every minuteGive me new form...lifeNew instructionsTo go forth and infectTo resurrect ones mind without painful memoriesWithout recallSimply no existence
Kids And The Kobayashi Maru
Our family made Tuesday’s newspaper!  Monday to a light rain my daughter Sarah, my son Jeffrey, their aunt Mary (who’s only referred to as “their aunt” in the newspaper article), and I went out from our house at eight in the morning to Veterans Memorial Walkway, a former bridge across the street from us where a few dozen people had assembled for the display of the color guard and the strewing of the flowers.  Sarah’s grandmother, my mother-in-law Sharon, is the Disabled American Veterans Auxiliary commander this year and she strew the rose petals in the river and later laid the wreath at Rosehill Cemetery.  That’s when the photographer snapped the photo of Sarah accompanying this entry.  The caption: “Sarah [her last name] twirls her umbrella.”  Mary’s in the jeans and jacket to her left and that’s me in the slacks behind her. Martha had to work at WalMart Monday morning, so she didn’t get home to see us until the after
My X's Bull Shit
Ok kids. I am going to be a DAD soon! My X's has been fucking my life over and over agen!! braking up with me asking back and then more of the same!!! She just tolled me it is her body missing with her and she is takeing it out on me!! If so how shoud i feal abut that? Thake it and try to deal or move on and just be a weekend dad. right now i dont like eather of them but I AM THE DAD and i know i have to do the right thing! It is just killing me can some one help me out with some info??? thanks  
I Am...
I am a daughter,sister,grand-daughter,neice,a cousin,friend.I am a partner,a student,a young girl,a grown women.I am confident,and scared,Terrified,and excited.I am loving,and careing,and thoughtfull,and hopefull.I am sick and tired,i am shy and friendly,and caring,and careless,i am broken,and hole,i am missunderstood,misguided,and misled.I am hard working,and determined,but a lil' scared on the inside.I wish on stars,and dream my dreams,i pray to god,and cry my tears,i smile on the outside,when i'm dying on the inside.I listen to others ,who won't listen too me.I walk on eggshells,and walk on fire,I belive in passion,and true love.I might love u and push u away,I want u but not too cloose,i am afraid u will push me away,I am every thing and nothing all at once,and all i want is for u to.....    LOVE ME
Wtf Is Wrong With My Husband?!?!
 My husband has never been confused for very manly. He never liked sports or any other manly activity except for jacking off but I thought that perhaps I could change that. I love to watch sports. I get crazy when a Mariners game is on. Don't get anywhere near me when wrestling or football is on. I was watching a mariners game and getting bummed because I was as good as alone when it came to him watching it with me. I am TRYING TO FUCKING LAMINATE HIS MAN CARD! Nope he didn't want to watch the game. Ask me what he wanted to do. ASK ME WHAT HE DID!!! HE WAS (AND STILL IS) READING A MOTHER FUCKING ROMANCE NOVEL!!! AND EATING CHOCOLATE! MY HUSBAND IS A FUCKING WOMAN!!! I AM MORE OF A MAN THAN HE IS! A FUCKING ROMANCE NOVEL. OMG I think I hurt his feelings. Now I have to listen to him about his fucking feelings and how I am soooo fucking insensitive. I don't even get to pee standing up.
Price Change!!!!
Hey boys! I guess 500,000 fuBucks was a bit steap! SOOOOO $150,000 fubucks and you horny little men are in!
Nothing Lasts Forever..
Nothing last forever so live it up,drink it down,laugh it off,avoid bullshit,take chances,and never have regrets,because at one point,every thing you did was exactley what u wanted...
Check Out This Game Please.
here's a really fun vampire game for those into that sort of thing. follow this link and viola! its cool honest. thanks in advance for those who join.
A Little Beetle Story
This past year has been a very interesting one, to say the least.  I've had changes forced upon me that I hated and didn't understand.  I felt alone.  At times, I felt unloved and unlovable.   But I learned a lot.  I had adventures that I would have never had.  I walked 60 miles by myself, but made great friends in the process.  I heard stories that reminded me of everything that I had in life.  I went places by myself (something I have never been comfortable with) and introduced myself to new people.  I impulsively went to an all day seminar of Mike Dooley's.  I started meditating again.  I started praying again.  And this time, not to take away the bad things, but just thankful, joyous prayer for all that I have and the many blessing in my life.   Change is hard.  I've never really liked it.  But it is often so very good.  This year last year has been one of the best years of my life.  It has been the year were I started to actually really BELIEVE that I was truly a Goddess, and
Three Months Into The Wilderness
“In the third month, when the children of Israel were gone forth out of the land of Egypt, the same day came they into the wilderness of Sinai.”   So it’s been three months between when Moses led the children of Israel out of Egypt and their arrival at the base of the present-day Sinai Peninsula.  Exodus chapter nineteen verse two confirms their departure from Rephidim where the Israelites fought the Amalekites and, since the account doesn’t say the Israelites moved from their encampment, where Jethro met Moses in chapters seventeen and eighteen.  So Israel sets camp at the base of the mountain at the peninsula’s southern tip.  There they wait. Verse three records Moses going up into the mountain to speak to the LORD and receiving what he’s to say (not Aaron, whom Moses originally told to say what the LORD had said to him, note – Moses has to grow as the leader too) “to the house of Jacob, and tell the children of Israel”.  Verse f
A Glimpse
A GLIMPSEpeering through the openingof a doorslightly ajarenough light to form shadows of memoriessensual memorieserotic memoriesfingertipsteasing, taunting, slippingacross fleshmemoriesbreathwarm moistwhisperingto increase heartbeatmemoriessoft sensual lipssuggestingkissesgentle, lustfulkisseslips that nip, caress, bite tongue that probes, thrusts, teasesmemoriesvibrationszippers ,clasps, hooks, snapssoundswhispers, moans, groanserotic musicliquid desirememoriesthe dooropens a little morebeckoningthelight createsShadows ofmemories yet tocome
Copy And Repost
BE VERY SURE AND READ THE VERY LAST PART ! Please read and forward to as many people as you can. You'll understand after reading this. To My Child (don't delete ~ its being tracked) Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is. Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together. Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.. Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by. Just for this afternoon, I won
Insane Drivers ....
I got up late today and on top of that i had to work so i got dressed ASAP and was driving my way to work when i realized that i forgot my cell ...... i was like GRR ... you know the feeling lol so i had to go pick up my cell and on my way back to work again ...this f*ing driver in front of me didnt wanna let me pass through on my left turn,  so i had to drive over and he gave me a fucking horn so i just gave him the f*kng BIG finger ..... i was so pissed at him .... but i had no time to fight lol so i just drove away Don't you just hate the bitter starts to a beautiful day cuz of few insensitive ppl ....
13 Lbs Gone
13 lbs gone since i've been at my heaviest weight. I haven't seen myself at this new weight in a long while. Pretty happy with myself, even though it's shedding real slow....but it's healthy I suppose. At least it's not fast. The weather should be nicer on my days off....I'm going to head to the pool again, swim some laps again and try to sun bathe again. I know that i lost weight..but I don't even notice it...maybe if I lose more..ill start to notice
Life Changes And So Do We:)
well i sitting here writting this with a broken wrist got to see the hand surgeon tomorrow, was in the middle of packing to move when I slipped and fell  saturday/. Being 8 months pregnant I threw my hand out to catch my self so i would not hit my belly, luckily i didnt .. but in  the fall i managed to break my wrist in to places.    My 8 yr old son my self and this unborn bundle of love will be moving to north texas in just a few short days to start a life on our own, changes everything does, life changes so do we and whats important, the only thgs that are important to me right now is my kids and the new life we are getting ready to start. so with a big sigh here goes nothing both feet in jumping into the deepest water i have jumped into in  along time wish me luck!!
The Real Fashion Thrills
How do you define fashion thrill? I was promenading the busy Hong Kong shopping district. I dropped by a retail store to look for a good stuff of clothes intended for my husband back in my Home at Los Angeles. I stroll along and my feet lead me to a wholesale clothing shop in the famous Tsim Sha Tsui district. The store where I am standing that time was the similar store I have seen crowded with people.  
My Children's Check Up
This morning I took my babies for their check up. Took forever to get them into the cat carrier. Im talking about cats here...not Mittens was all pissy and poor baby. She got a shot and will be going back to the V.E.T tomorrow to get her teeth cleaned. Tigger got some hair ball treatment and amazingly he lost some weight...just a couple pounds but he's still a big guy.   Hmm took a nap afterwards...then i forget what else I did...uhh went to my friends house had dinner there, went to starbucks and food shopping. Tomorrow I'm going to cook up some shrimp fried rice and egg rolls... Wow..I have such a exciting life..oh yeah....i have pink in my hair...sweet..I'm more of a freak now..   I have no plans tomorrow....just dropping baby girl to the vet.... yea...
Why is it that when a guy is looking for a relationship that they go by the outer appearance when most people that they shove there nose at are the best people to have a relationship with and treat you good? Why is that when a relationship ends that the other person who hurt you tries to walk back into your life like they did nothing wrong when they just took your heart and stomped on it like it was trash. So tired of giving my heart out and it getting stomped on. For once i would like to find someone who accepts me for me and we in my life because of no other  reason but they are happy and they love me. I just want to find someone to give my heart to, share my feelings with,  build bonds and enjoy life to the fullest. I know i am not hot but i know that i am decent looking and all i want out of friendship or relationship is honesty so i ask you all women out there what matters to you and why, and what do you think of me, be honest, i don't care if you hurt my feelings i just want hone
Never Take Your Loved Ones For Granted... They Could Be Gone Tomorrow
All of my dreams seems to fall by the side Like a discarded thought or the days fading light But I know that if I could just see you tonight Forever   At times we may fall like we all tend to do But i'll reach out and find that Ive run into you Your strength is the power that carried me through Forever   Your kindness for weaknes I never mistook I worried you often yet you understood This life is so fleeting these troubles wont last Forever   You inspired me truly you did from the start To not be afraid and to follow my heart Theres a piece of you with me they cant tear apart Forever   At times we may fall like we all tend to do But i'll reach out and find that Ive run into you Your strength is the power that carried me through Forever   Forever I'll find you forever we'll be Forever your power and strength stays with me Forever
I walk down the long, dark winding tunnel. Darkness consumes my soul with every step…. yet still I walk and walk and walk. Searching, searching for something elusive, something essential that will make my life complete yet not knowing what it is. Despair claws at my core, heartache consumes my being, indifference is what I strive for, always trying to lessen the ache of being alone. Friends are there yet not around, they try to understand, but how can they understand when I can’t fathom what’s erroneous. Smiling faces all around, laughing, full of glee… poison in my soul and wounds, slowly consuming, ever consuming until all is gone. Humanity, compassion, kindness all fades to nothingness in the face of sadness and freezing cold hatred for all things light and pure…the world is inky black and devoid of hope, how much longer until all feel as I do and weep for their salvation? Rodney aka Rhino    
For Sale!!   This is the E-bay Website for the auction on all my Magic cards!
Death Of My Grandmother!!
I will be down in Florida for a while due to my grandmother kissel passing away at 3am this morning so for all concerns they go to my mom sweet southern angel.
Revelations And Compensations
When did Britney Spears start being featured in the annuls of gossip magazines and starry blue screen skies as more of a hedonistic harlot, and less of a pop star princess; when she invited the curtain to be pushed back. Suddenly the surface  of Mars, filled with men with hard helmeted astronaut suits, all begging to be the victim of her OOPS!! I DID IT AGAIN heart piercing, discovered a regular, gum chewing, country girl who bred with a BACK UP DANCER, of all things - and the light that shone from within her (directly into the fantasy playland of denizens of both Mars and Jupiter), was down watted. Right sized. She only regained some of her sheen when the curtain was pulled back into place and the three rings of the circus were restored. The last time royalty fell in love with a commoner - he abdicated his right to the throne. King Edward VIII of England fell in love with Mrs. Wallis Simpson - an  American and a divorcee. Such a scandalous state of being. They married June 3, 1937.
Love Is Temporary, Divorce Is Forever!
The crazy Bitch struck again.  Apparently -she managed to put a bill in my name, back in september.  I found out today when the collection agency called me.  Anyone wanna take care of this recurring problem for me?  I will give ya lots of rates!! 
She Needs A Good Leveling !!!
Both Hands Tied Behind My Back For Nothin
So there's alot that i just need to get off my chest. Time to vent. Anyways, most people dont know what i mean when i say "both hands tied behind my back for nothin" so i'm gonna explain. It pretty much means i took myself off the market, made myself unavailable to everyone, and gave my all to one person for absolutely nothing. Im so fucking tired of being hurt. Seriously though, out of all the times i've been hurt, his has got to be the worst. I've never been so in love with anyone before, and i've never been so torn apart. He never could give me a reason as to why he did this to me. 3 fucking girls. No telling how many more. How can you tell someone you love them, wanna marry them, wanna spend forever with them.. n then cheat on them?! I just dont understand. All i ever did was love him. All i ever did was give him chance after chance like a fucking fool. I've lost my mind within these past 3 months. And finding out about this last girl just completely drove me over the edge. I've be
An Old Man A Boy And A Donkey
An old man , a boy & a donkey were going to town. The boy rode on the donkey & the old man walked. As they went along they passed some people who remarked it was a shame the old man was walking & the boy was riding.   The man & boy thought maybe the critics were right, so they changed positions.         Later, they passed some people that remarked, "What a shame, he makes that little boy walk."   They then decided they both would walk! Soon they passed some more people who thought they were stupid to walk when they had a decent donkey to ride. So, they both rode the donkey.   Now they passed some people that shamed them by saying how awful to put such a load on a poor donkey.     The boy & man said they were probably right, so they decide to carry the donkey. As they crossed the bridge, they lost their grip on the animal & he fell into the river and drowned.   The moral of the story?       If you try to please everyone, you might as well... Kiss your ass goodbye!
Hey all, just wanted to let you all know I'm calling it quits on fubar, its been fun and have chatted with some nice people, but its time for me to go....i'll leave this up till tomorrow morning in case anyone wants to say "cya" than after that, poof I'm gone.......Take Care all !! and have tons of fun!!
Second Evaluation
Where the scale is a discouragement, the measurements are a time for rejoicing! I've lost a total of 3-1/2 inches! 1/4 in off each arm 1/2 in off shoulders, chest, waist, hips, and each thigh 0 off neck and each calf (which is expected for me) flexibility is a whole inch further. :) My fitness test went from below average to average. That test is 3 minutes on the stairstepper at 9.2 flights per minute. I did 43 crunches in 60 seconds (vs 40 last time). Managed 20 pushes on the bench press (weights) with 45# bar. And 20 pushes on the leg press (weights) with 90#. I believe I only did 15 each with lesser weight last time on the machines. These results and only twice a week. I'll have to work harder on the food aspect of this so the scale can show results as well. To me it seems like such a small effort for these results.
Poems I Wrote
EVERYTIME why do I put my heart out there every time every time I get my heart broken why am I so forgiving? Every time I fall hard every time I love I get hurt why do I even brother or try anymore? I’m tired of every time I cry all these tears I’m tires of every time  I get hurt every time I think I met the perfect right guy I only get hurt and pain every time I get hurt I always say never again will I let it happen again? COLD SAD DARK WORLD here I sat alone here in the sad dark world, wondering what did I do to deserve this treatment wondering if it's me or the guys I pick or pick me, wondering why I attract these guys wondering if it's just me against this sad dark world, it's lonely here where I am at in this sad dark world here all myself alone wondering why they about themselves to me, wondering why they can't ever be honest be who they really are to say what they mean and really want instead of lying about everything pretending who and what they r
Saturday, January 20, 2007 6:35:28 PM Many people may call me a "bitch," but none of them know me. They always judge without knowing my story. If only more people were like me I'd be better understood. The fact of the matter is that I am the way I am because of how others have treated me in my life. It all started with my family, well for most people it starts with their family. My Dad apparently never thought about anyone but himself. He and my Mother married and filed for divorce, then found out they were pregnant with me. Now, a smart person would see that if they couldn't make a go of it then that I wasn't going to help. Children only complicate things, guess their parents never told either of them. Hell, the two of them couldn't even decide on a name for me, they thought; "Oh well, we'll just call the baby Michael and if it's a girl we decide on something then." Guess what, I'M A GIRL! Then of course, things were further complicated by my Fathers' drinking and drugs. I don't know
Les opinions ont plus causé de maux sur ce petit globe que la peste et les tremblements de terre Opinions have caused more ills than the plague or earthquakes on this little globe of ours -Voltaire
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The Insanity Of Eating Out
Working in the food industry, I am finding in very difficult to satisfy my guests. It all about getting a $20 meal for $3.99 price. For some strange reason they seem to inspect a $20 quality and are damn right mad when they feel the got the $3.99 standard. Yes we must do our best to deliver the best product possible, but lets get real for a moment here. When you order $50 worth of food through the drive thru, dont you think its going to take a few moments? And not to mention the fact the people behind you r waiting just for a fucking coke. How inconsiderate can people be.....very!!!!! Just ask, me I know. Get off your lazy ass and think of others for just a moment in your self absorbed life, and walk in the store. In the end the guests behind you will feel better, the crew producing your food would feel a little more realazed, and guess what? you won't have to call because your order wasnt rushed through the window which caused some errors..    Here's one for you...This women stated sh
Buttons For My Lounge
This goes out to everyone on fu that has a program that will create specific buttons.  I have created a lounge with a ghost theme and am in need of special buttons for the options.  Some examples are: Spirits = Drinks Cross Over = Join Entities = Members   I have a specific look for these buttons, but have been unable to find it.  The buttons need to look like disappearing smoke or mist with a transparent background.  I've seen several that look like flames, but haven't found anything like what I'm looking for.  If you think you can recreate what I am looking for, please send me an example of your work.  I don't have much in the way of fu-bucks, but will gladly pimp you out with a specialized bulletin that you can pass around to all on fu and keep in your stash.    Thank You for your time, Kare
dogs of war its 3 am and has been for daysas the same damn thoughts they flood my brainit starts we are dog the dogs of warwe are cast aside have a home no morewe fight for peacea peace of mindwe fight peace we'll never findthe same damn thoughts they flood my mindit 3 am and has been for daysthe picture of you its starting to fadefirst your eyesthen your smileI'm left with a taste on my lipsone i cant defineits 3 am please don't leaveif only for the night i need you to stayplease don't go your all that keep me saneits 4 am and somethings wrongi feel a bit offI'm left and that's not righti try not to thinkits going to be a long nightits 4 am I'm alone in the darkdog of warwith no voice to barkI a dog a dog of warI bow my headI say no more
If I Could Leave Just One Piece Of Wisdom To My Sons, This Would Be It...
This is a song that I've sang to my two sons since they were just babies.  I've told them that if can leave them with only one piece of advice that they truly take to heart... it is the msg in this song.   Mama told me when I was young Come sit beside me, my only son And listen closely to what I say. And if you do this It'll help you some sunny day. Oh, take your time... Don't live too fast, Troubles will come and they will pass. Go find a woman, oh baby, you'll find love, And don't forget son, There is someone up above. And be a simple kind of man. Be something you love and understand. Baby be a simple, kind of man. Oh, won't you do this for me son, If you can? Forget your lust for the rich man's gold All that you need, is in your soul, And you can do this, oh baby, if you try. All that I want for you my son, Is to be satisfied. And be a simple kind of man. Be something you love and understand. Baby be a simple, kind of man. Oh, won't you do this for me son, If you can? Boy, don
Please Tell Me...
The days are passing by and I am not able to talk to you.  Each morning I attempt to forget you, but I can’t.  Your memory hits my soul hard every time I get careless. Like a Stealth Hunter it seeks me throughout all my solitude.  When I finally think that already forgot you and I’m able to love again. Your memory appears out of nowhere and then I become undone.   Please someone tell me.  How you forget.  How can I snatch away forever this feeling form my heart.  Please someone help me because it is urgent.  I am looking for someone to remove this pain from me.  I am looking for someone that is able to love me for ever, someone that accepts me just as I am. Who ever it is, please hurry.
The Obama Nation
  by Pam Geller    I am a student of history.  Professionally, I have written 15 books in six languages, and have studied history all my life.  I think there is something monumentally large afoot, and I do not believe it is just a banking crisis, or a mortgage crisis, or a credit crisis.  Yes, these exist but they are merely single facets on a very large gemstone that is only now coming into a sharper focus. Something of historic proportions is happening.  I can sense it because I know how it feels, smells, what it looks like, and how people react to it.  Yes, a perfect storm may be brewing, but there is something happening within our country that has been evolving for about 10 - 15 years.  The pace has dramatically quickened in the past two.  We demanded and then codified into law the requirement that our banks make massive loans to people whom we knew could never pay back?  Why?  We learned recently that the Federal Reserve, which has little or no real oversight by anyone, has "loane
Baton Rouge!
- Too Late -
i wait until i am too close, it's too late.i had to take myself out of the equation to keep you safe. ...and now it's late at night, i waited too, too long to stop, to ask,where does the story end? ...there's nowhere left, for me to go, i know it's too late....we waited til it got too hard, and now it's too late.                            
Humpty Dumpty
Now why in the hell was humpty on this friggen wall firstly? Horribly off balance anatomically by nature, who the fuck put his largeness upon such a place. And then he falls. Now did he live? Die? Bounce? I am pondering a run for the US Senate so I can procure a large earmark to study this perplexing anomily. I will ask for a cool billion. Not far from the narcicists we vote in is it?
Fighting An Unshakeable Destiny....[6/26/09].
Quick Fix
All of us desire for a quick fix. I, too, had wanted the pill, the program, or the person to rescure me. But getting healthy emotionally is the hardest work I've ever done... But also the most worth while.
Well, I just cleaned house a bit. Deleted a number of "so-called" friends. Found out I'm nothing more than a fucking notch in their "fubar belt". I don't do that to people. If they ask to be friends, then I allow them to be, with the expectations of communications, etc. Well, that hasn't taken place with them, and I'm keeping my eye on some others that I have kept. If they prove to be nothing more than ratings whores, then they'll go down the shitter too. This is fucking ridiculous. If you ask to be a friend, it's with the knowledge you wish to communicate and keep in touch. Not those I deleted, and so far- not the ones I'm keeping my eye on. So, this blog is to serve as a warning. Maintain communications and quit salivating at ratings, bombs, and 'luv'. Just be a fucking friend. That's all I ask.
Lost But Not Found
Whispers travel through the wind clear blue skys become distance Lillaby Rain falls with no sound deaf to ones ears words become tears of crystal   Lost but not found Make ones passage the wrong one Closing walls like nails on a wall No hope but to dwell on internal pain   Live the life for what you want the say But they forget the falling rocks of torment Why such lost for one soul guess thats how it always end for now
A Solitary Man
Melinda was mine 'til the time that I found her Holdin' Jim And lovin' him Then Sue came along, loved me strong, that's what I thought But me and Sue, That died, too. Don't know that I will but until I can find me A girl who'll stay and won't play games behind me I'll be what I am A solitary man A solitary man A solitary man I've had it to here - being where love's a small world A part time thing A paper ring I know it's been done havin' one girl who loves you Right or wrong Weak or strong Don't know that I will but until I can find me A girl who'll stay and won't play games behind me I'll be what I am A solitary man A solitary man A solitary man Don't know that I will but until I can find me A girl who'll stay and won't play games behind me I'll be what I am A solitary man A solitary man A solitary man A solitary man A solitary man A solitary man
my heart by mysticgirl38The edges of my aura ripped and torn around megiving room to the blackness that tries to invade methe emptiness reminding me every minute of every daymy continueous struggle seems futilebut not one that i will give up onthough i pray for a match for my soul it never comesto love unconditionally, i ve always donethe souls who i bump into never able to dounwilling and unable to feel the warmth from my heartmy love doesnt smother nor does it judgeit just isno limitations of how much to give or receive this is the love that i will wait for even though i feel its killing methis is the love i must live    
Cold Cruel World...this Says Pretty Much Everything Of How I Have Been Feeling
"Cold Cruel World" [Intro: Random people talking] I don't know what to do anymore After I quit with medicine I became psycotic I suffer from depression Complete depression Had it my whole life I have had it so bad that uh... I had anxiety Been diagnosed with major depression Lots of phobias, lots of fears Anxiety, panic attacks Manic depression before, I didn't think that Depression could be so bad [Verse 1:] Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders Everything around me closing in, it's starts to grow colder It's like I'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion Shits real fucked up, my brains filled with much confusion Do you know what it is to sit a 3am With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin' Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills Cause the fuckin' rent's due and you can't pay bills Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart I'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart Ten motherfuckin' seconds just from endi
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Comfortable Insanity
~Comfortable Insanity~   I am unsure of my own existence. I pinch myself and all I feel is a dream that I cannot wake from. I do not exist to live, I live to exist. Always moving in one consistent idea. I have things, but I have nothing at all. Looking inside me, I'm looking out at you. Free in a trapped world. Dying to live. Building towards a ruined understanding. I run with no destination.
It's another time to clean things up a bit...first, so called "friends"...well, quite a few more when down the shitter. I wonder who's next? I can't clean out "fan"s... but what good is it that you're a "fan", and you don't even fucking say hello? What the fuck is that? Game or's fucking stupid. All that have gotten the axe, fucking deserve it.
Fuck It
I guess I like it when we play (the way you drag me down) I guess I like it when you hate me (the way you drag me down) �cause I can�t face myself in a mirror (I�m left alone with all my pain) And I disgrace myself in the mirror (I�m left alone with my shame) Fuck it! I see you in me Fuck it! I feel you in me Fuck it! I�ll heal you in me Fuck it! I see you in me Fuck it! I feel you in me Fuck it! I�ll heal you in me I guess I like it when we fight (the way you drag me down) I guess I like it when you smite me (the way you drag me down) �cause I can�t face myself in a mirror (I�m left alone with all my pain) And I disgrace myself in the mirror (I�m left alone with my shame) Fuck it! I see you in me Fuck it! I feel you in me Fuck it! I�ll heal you in me Fuck it! I see you in me Fuck it! I feel you in me Fuck it! I�ll heal you in me You�re out of luck - can�t get a piece of me It�s
Lament...dedication To My Father, Lost In This World
At last I wish, The return of my father, For he left whence, The night became clear, He ripped apart my heart, When my mother cried, A sorrowful mourn, From her sweet gentle lips, All I remembered was glorious days, Full of laughter at my dad's side, A spitting image to him, A beautiful reflection in the mirror, Would my father come back, To a home full of warmth, Within my mother's loving arms, Who would know, As I kneel by my bed, And utter a silent prayer, I dream of the day, My father returns home.
Comin Out
People....they fascinate me...   So, the British spy got outed by his wife...   I don't know what is sadder: to bee that dumb to post pics of your husband, house, and kids on Facebook when he is a  head of British spy agency, or whatever.   Or to be married to a dumb cunt like that.    
I'm still trying to figure this whole Jacko thing out. The man has not done anything relevant in a really long time, became a recluse, acted wrecklessly with his children (let's hang them over a ledge), and has been accused of some of the most despicable things a human can do (and bought people's silence) .............................and people act like this. Where is common sense folks? Since when do we celebrate this kind of thing? There were U.S. soldiers killed in Afghanistan on the same day he died, this was not reported on most networks, instead there was a love fest for this turd. We've got our priorities all wrong. As to Jacko, I feel bad for your children losing a father, but I'm not sorry about you, you brought it on yourself with your chosen lifestyle. RIP to those troops whose blood was spilled so Jacko can have his coverage.
Wtf Shaft???
So its after 1am, here I am sittin here watchin my baby sleep, which is what I should be doing as well but how can I sleep when my babies hooked up to all the fkn machines? So I let my bestie talk me into signing up for this fkn site. Lord I must be outta my fkn mind. Fk it~ Idgaf anymore! I have learned in the year of being a single divorced mom that if a man has the internet~ he ain't bein faithful to you! PA-LEASE! Too much fkn temptation, even if every bone in their body is loyal. You put a lappie or pc in front of that muthafkr and he will find his way into some badness! Even if your man is over seas in sandland doesn't matter if he's talkin to you 24/7 on im ~better believe hes lookin at another bitches titties on an im window. lmfao! Been there~done that! It's sickening to me that noone seems to be faithful or geniune anymore. Seriously! You meet someone and you click but something just ain't quite right. You wanna trust em but at the same time there's that instinct telling yo
Breakfast In Bed: Through A Man's Eyes
FOLLOWING IS AN ORIGINAL STORY COPYRIGHT PROTECTED BY: KAYLA B./SHAKTI SHAMAN. Breakfast in Bed – the man’s perspective   Hmmmmm, I can’t believe the power of sensory memory.  I can still fell Kayla’s warm sensual lips running up and down my shaft.   As I reach down to relieve the ache, her soft cheek meets my searching fingers, and I smile.  I feel her answering smile in the palm of my hand, in the change of her mouth surrounding me.  In a smooth motion she replaces her lips with the warmth of her hands as she kisses a path to my mouth – “Good morning”, she says.   I then watch as she places a finger against her lips.  Her tongue flicks out to moisten the tip, indicating promises to come. She then slips her finger into her parted lips and circles it with her tongue.  Slowly she withdraws her moistened finger and places it on the breakfast tray she has placed on the console table beside the sofa bed. Her finger lazily stirring on the tray
I Don't Have Any Friends So I'm Gonna Blog!
I've been sick. I called out of work the other day. But today I decided to suck it up and go in. Totaly should not have. It was not worth it. I feel even worse now. I hate pretty much every one I work with. The labor part of it is also not fun when you are sick dizzy fevery and puking. I only puked a little bit while I was at work. A few things have changed at work about the daily schedule.  I tried screwing around a little bit with some of it but nothing seemed to be saving correctly so I gave up.   I just wanna go to sleep and when I wake up to feel normal again, no rash, no runny nose, no fever, no headache, no dizzy. Oh well. I did take advantage of the fact that WalMart has Star Trek TOS on sale for $50 a season. So now I have that to watch later.
I Sold My Soul For A Photograph
  I Sold My Soul For A Photograph   I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, I would have sat upon the sun, I would have swallowed a bullet from a gun, I would have given up my heart & lungs, Just to see the photograph again, I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, I'd swim into the jaws of death, I'd get a knife stabbed into my chest, I'd swallow nails just for a laugh, If you think I'm crazy, You don't know how far I'd go, I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, Of you; Just to see your smile again..
What Do You Think Of This Dream?
I am making myself get up out of bed to type this one out... I have had quite a lot of strange and epic dreams lately about people I know that have been providing me strange insight into what is going on behind the scenes in their lives. So last night (or this morning, as I fell asleep around maybe 6am?) I decided to start recording my dreams again in some type of way whether recording them in a book or on a tape and keeping a way to record these dreams beside me or near me in some way that would/will be easy to convince myself to get up and write these ideas down.   Somewhat recently I received an email from some stranger who says he goes by the handle of “seerinc” on many of the sites he has run across me on. This name seems vaguely familiar but I can't think of what specific instances I may have actually spoke to him in. He goes onto say he has some what of a psychic ability and had a strange dream about me and my grandmother and was warning me to cherish my time w
Lafitte's Blacksmith Shop
Lafitte's Blacksmith Shop HAUNTED PUB - Lafitte's Blacksmith Shop ADDRESS: 941 Bourbon Street, New Orleans, Louisiana, 70116. 504-522-9377 LOCATION: Lafitte's Blacksmith Shop Pub can be found on Bourbon Street, in the residential section, about two or three  blocks away from the rowdy center of Bourbon Street. It's address on Bourbon Street is between Dumaine Street and St. Philip Street. DESCRIPTION:  This two story, brick and stone, plain rectangular building  is solidly built, in the French style and has stood on this spot since the late 1700's, sometime before 1772. This building has the distinction as being one of the few remaining original "'French architecture' structures" which still grace the French Quarter.  The building escaped both the fires in 1788, and 1794, remaining untouched.  This explains why most of the buildings in the French Quarter were rebuilt in the Spanish style of this time. This building's claim to fame is that it was the place of business, for
Chck Me Out In Kings Auction!!!!!!!!
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The Rendall Building
The Rendall Building The Rendall Building is located at 601 Texas Street in downtown Shreveport, and is said by some to be one of the most haunted places in town.  This building was built in 1922 on the site of another building that was also owned by the Rendall's.  Since it originally was a drug store, the basement was essentially a large walk-in freezer.  Conveniently enough, the Caddo Courthouse is only a stone's throw from the Rendall Building, so the Rendall's large freezer was used to keep the corpses on ice.  It is also said that some of the local funeral homes also used the freezer for their corpses. Since then, the building has had several tenants, such as Rockmore's Italian Restaurant, Zero Gravity night club, and most recently, Caliente Mexican Restaurant.  Despite the building's activity, the ghosts have still lingered around the building over the years.  Recently, I received an email from a man named Charlie, recounting some of the different experiences that he
Come Celebrate With Me Tonight
Hey my peeps.... Coem celebrate my new position with me as Manager of Centerfolds 2000!!!  Drinks on me tonight so get your booty on down and join us...   Centerfolds 2000
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Oh Shit
Work Poop Survival Guide CROP DUSTINGWhen farting, you walk really fast around the office so the smell is not in your area and everyone else gets a whiff but doesn't know where it came from. Be careful when you do this. Do not stop until the full fart has been expelled. Walk an extra 30 feet to make sure the smell has left your pants. FLY BY The act of scouting out a bathroom before pooping. Walk in and check for other poopers. If there are others in the bathroom, leave and come back again. Be careful not to become a FREQUENT FLYER. People may become suspicious if they catch you constantly going into the bathroom. ESCAPEE A fart that slips out while taking a leak at the urinal or forcing a poop in a stall. This is usually accompanied by a sudden wave of embarrassment. If you release an escapee, do not acknowledge it. Pretend it did not happen. If you are standing next to the farter in the urinal, pretend you did not hear it. No one likes an escapee. It is uncomfortable for all involved
Fill It Out!!!!
NAUGHTY APPLICATION" CUT AND PASTE AND REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE. DONT BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. LET THE FUN BEGIN.........1. Your Name:2. Age:3. Favorite position ?4. Do you think I'm hot?5. Would you have sex with me?6. lights on or off?7. Would you have to be drunk?8. Would you take a shower with me?9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?10. Would you leave after or stay the night?11. Do you like cuddling afterwards?12. Condom or skin?13. Do you give Oral pleasures?14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures?15. Have sex on the first date?16. Would you kiss me during sex?17. Do you think I would be good in bed?18. Threesome?20. How many times would you like to cum?21. Would you use me as a booty call?21. Can I use you as a booty call?22. Do you like foreplay?23. What is foreplay to you?24. Can we take pictures of the act?25. Phone number?26. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
Brother Cane
Bullet Boys - Smooth Up In Ya
Hurricane - Dance Little Sister
The Dragons Moon [7-20-09]
Effects And Stunts For Horror Film In Aug
Zombie Make up: 2, 2A, 6C, 7, 8, 9A, 9B, 10, 11, 11A, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 17A, 17C, 18, 18A, 18B, 18C, 19, 20, 21, 22 Stunt: 8: Uncle tom pushed out into field, tumbles back 9: Guest hurdles over fence 10: Uncle Tom pushing bottles into zombies (choreographed) (reverse action), 12: Bowl smash over zombie head. 14: Guests falling from weight of zombies (random). 15: Joseph and Amanda strike zombies with blunt weapons. Zombie fall. 17: Zombie falls back reacting to shotgun blast. 17C: Uncle tom leg takedown and zombie fall. 18B: "Headless" (won't show) Zombie falls back in reaction to shotgun blast. 18C: Fight (choreographed) (bearhug) between Reggie and Joseph. Reggie under material (material thinned to have zombie teeth breaking and gnashing through. Amanda kicks person under sheet and he flys back landing on the ground. Priest hits zombie with butt of shotgun. 19: Chair bounces off zombie head. 21: Wendy and Uncle tom drag zombie away from Joseph along ground. Speci
New Roomie!!!
So far so good in living with my friend, he keeps to himself and lets me do whatever I want.  He told me when I moved in that it was up to me if we had sex or not,  that he wasn't letting stay there just to get a piece of ass!  that's why I like him so much!!!!! Good news on roomie front!  Samatha, my friend from school, the girl I wrote about.  Sam came over last night and we went out to late dinner, just her and I.  She was wearing these tight jeans that hugged her ass, damn I wanted to peel them off her! :)  Anyway, we talked for a few hours while nibbling on some rabbit food.  We talked about everything except sex.  I finally brought up her bf and what she was going to do.  Sam said that she didn't want to stay with him anymore, that he changed way too much, getting to be too posessive and even "suggesting" things for her to wear.  She said she could stay at home with parents for a little while but they wanted to sell their place and move out of state soon and she has a good job h
What To Wear?
I am trying on different slacks. Putting and taking off. I removed one, I noticed a draft. Looking down at my pants on the floor is my panty..still in the pants. Don't you just love it when your panty is attached to your pants?? LOL Back to deciding what to wear.....
Conspiracy Theorist
In lieu of my Fubar general character lists, I forgot to mention (or rather someone asked me to) another type-a conspiracy theorist.    This is a person that spends most of the hard earned money he gets from working for the Man on buying endless rolls of Aluminum foil that is used to make cone shaped hats. These hats are then used to prevent any mind altering and controlling rays and electromagnetic fields that the Man could possibly inflict upon its measly manservant during his overnight stint at a local Walmart. The CT usually believes that he knows the truth about a number of controversial topics, such as 9/11, abortion, death pentaly, and the location of a latest load of laundry that his mother did for him when his water bill was left unpaid for.  He likes to impress local liberal arts scholars, especially females. In fact, he often, even at a middle age, takes classes at a local community college in order to spread his word, and eventually his seed, to unsuspected naive 20 some
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You Stupid Fuck!
I Truley dont understand why you have to be such an asshole all the fucking time. Im your daughter, but yet you insist on acting like a fucking dick! All i ever wanted was for you to get your act, your life and your mind togeter. Why dont you just kiss the drugs goodbye? You really dont know how much and how badly you effect us kids...Like i said before, i dont know the love of a father. You are 38 years fucking old, act like it you stupid prick. Lastnight when we got into that fight, you yelled at me, telling me you wanted to knock my fucking teeth out.. nice dad, you WOULD say that to your 20 year old daughter. I dont understand why you and mom decided to have more kids, when YOU cant take care of them. Mom and I are doing all the fucking work here!!!! not one cent, not anything to help us out atleast a little. YOu are a selfish fuck, and i hope that you rot. You are are a disease. Have fun with your drugs. I NEVER ONCE GAVE UP ON YOU, NOT FUCKING ONCE, YOU WERE MY BE
Farewell Farewell worldfarewell daughterfarewell till my eternal slaughterday to day living has driven me insanefinding the courage to not drive this spike into my braini hate this life, consistantly filled with strifestruggling to not lose my mindi hate myself always wanted to be thinno one ever beheld what i had withinnever seeing the beauty they say that god has givenfarewell worldfarewell daughteri welcome my eternal slaughterisolated by my belovedseemingly death i have devotedmy decaying body soon found bloatedsaddened with every effort wastedtrue happiness i have never tasted pricking my finger on this thornwishing that i was never bornfarewell worldfarewell daughterthe abyss swallows me as i step into my eternal slaughter Jennifer Wilkes Copyright ©2009  Jennifer Wilkes
Prayers From A Horse
  Give me time to know what you wan of me.I don't understand your words. Dont be angry with me when Idont understand.I have only you to explain. Talk to me.Even if I dont understand your words,I understand your voice. Be aware,however you treat me, I will not forget it. Keep me safe from harm.I am no longer wild and able to know my enemies. Before you hit me,remember that I have teeth that could crush the bones in your hand and hooves that could kill you.I choose not to use them. Before you scold me for being lazy ot uncooperative,ask yourself if I am doing well or if something is bothering me. My life is likely to last 20-30 years.Please make sure I am taken care of because I cannont care for myself. Go with me on difficult journeys.Dont say "I can't stand to watch it" or "let it happen in my absence". Everything is easier for me if you are there. PLEASE TRUST IN ME AND I WILL TRUST IN YOU.....  
Sweet, I weighed myself this morning thinking I would of gained at least a pound but I lost another!! Yay me!! 19 lbs gone!!
Test New Bully  
Taco's Theory's Vi
I though I had an idea, For a sec I wondered what was the thought. So I was thinking on what I thought. The thought was on the idea of thinking of just ideas. Ideas of events that might happen if I let them. If I let the ideas grow within. Then the following statement is true-- I am a slave to myself?
My Brain Hurts- A Rant About Idiotic Children.
My brain hurts. I'm utterly sick of children nowadays. Here's a conversation I just had- "Hi.""Um, Hello.""*crosses fingers* r u a satanist?""I'm not a damned sheep. Do you even know what it is?""um ru at evil at least?""You're an utter moron. Goodbye." Kid's gotta be like fucking 10 years old. Seriously. I just sat there, staring at my screen, feeling my brain scream in agony. How can anyone be such a complete and utter fucking tool? Lemme clear something up about satanism- First off, most popular figures use the imagery simply to sell albums, books, videos, etc. Hell, Tom araya's a catholic. Don't claim to follow a religion you know NOTHING about because some band uses it to make themselves popular. Hell, even a lot of black metal bands that supposedly follow it only do it for the publicity. Secondly, do you children even know how many different types there are, or do you just claim it to be a "rebel"? Yeah, it's SOOOOOO rebellious to be a fucking idiot. Way to go. I can name
Me And My Bro Msn
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To The First Person
To the first person that helps me understand, I want to give her my time and my faith. I am not asking for things to go well but I’m tire of losing you against my will. To the first person that helps me come out of this hell that I my self decided to live in, I will give her any afternoon for the both of us. What I’m saying is that right now I don’t even have a place to be in. The gold for whoever wants it, but if we are talking about yesterday, I have been drinking so much of it and I am still thirsty. At least you knew it and at least I did not tell you that things are not what they seemed. To the first person that helps me feel again, I am willing to give her my life and my faith, even if you are not the person I dreamed about. What can I do about it? Nothing!!! What am I going to do about? Where are the dreams? What will I do with those kisses, what will I do with all those things we dreamed about? Tell me where am I going to put all of it? Where am I goin
How Many Would Miss Me
The Sense Of Smell & Personal Time Travel.
Wow - Have you ever took in a smell for a prolonged period of time, that took you back in time to an earlier stage in your life?  A former student sheared the wool off my daughter's county fair 4-H lamb.  Lambs arent crazy about getting a haircut, so I helped hold him in place while the shears did thier work.  Lanolin, found in the wool -smells its strongest at the point of shearing.  Something about the lanolin - took me back to an earlier state of mind.  I am positive it had to do with all the good memories I had when I was a kid & times spent at the fair.  Its amazing to mentally travel back in time. Has this ever happened to you?  If so -what smell does it for you?
What Is Your Heart Made Of?
Give me your heart, small like a lime. You! Give me your heart! Listen girl, I know that you like, when you get mad, you like, a little fight. But I want to find out what your heart is made of. I want to know if it is sour or sweet.I feel it when you sing, like a chill, very cold… Is like a little thing I am yet to understand. Hmm, how can I explain this to you…? Sometimes you feel, sometimes you sing, sometimes you sleep, but sometimes you bite.
Fake Ass People
Why is it that everytime a person makes a friend and lets them into their home, life, and family they end up getting screwed? Are there really any real friends in the world anymore?? I dont know about anyone else but I am personally getting sick of all of the fake people in this world! Can anyone tell me if there are even any REAL people left???
Was having a good day at went by pretty fast until I get a text my husband...ex...roomate..whatever the hell ya call him now. He's all like, "thanks for freeing up my Wednesday". I'm like...what the hell are you bitching about? Aparently Emory found out that him and some of the other nerds been doing D&D night on Tuesdays because they didn't want to game with Emory, Fesha and JP. So they decided to have a private game...a hush hush game on Tuesday nights. Well, Emory found out and I guess he been talking to Rich. So Rich was going on accusing me for saying something to them. Why the hell would I even mention anything about their nerd night? I don't give a shit...I don't care what the hell he does with his life. Why would I want to mess up his cool nerd nights when stuff are already messed up? Then he's like...well I was just guessing, assuming it was you because you are still upset with me and been giving me the silent treatment the last few days. he said I gave him a smirk
Thinking Out Loud
holy shit what the hell happened??  friday things were great... i come back and shit's everywhere!!! i think i know why i'm so damn reclusive... cause i'm sick of putting myself out there for ppl and getting nothing in return... maybe i have a bad picker or i did pick a good friend just too scared to have a backbone.. but for once it would be nice if someone proved me wrong... for once i would like to have ppl in my life that i can truly care about and not have the fear of attachment only for them to leave... then again like i said maybe it's me.... eh well... hopefully when i wake up later it will be a better day... i know it won't be better but i can hope that something goes right... good bye to my friend i hope he stops beating the shit out of you, goodbye to my baby sitters 1) i hope that you don't do what you told me you would on friday and i have the same hopes for your brother 2) i will pray that your mother finally listens to you all before something terrible happens 3) in my d
Loss Of The Family Pet
i had to put my dog "Troubles" to sleep yesterday, he was so sick and there was nothing that could be done.  i had him since he was 6 wks old and i watched over him constantly. i insisted he be trained and cared for the best i knew how. he was a good dog and quite alot of enjoyment. he was a loyal companion. i will miss his smile. the look in his eyes when he was excited, the touch of his coat. even his barks and the way he would talk to us in a growl sort of way.  i had him for 5 yrs and yes there were times i was frustrated with him but he stuck by me no matter what.  he will be missed. the house will never be the same without him.
Who Woulda Thunk It...
Ok... so I make my scratch designing, building, ans supporting computer networks for small to mid-sized businesses... the average lebgth of a client relationship with the companies I serve is 10 - 12 years... I am not the wham-bam-thank-you-maam sort of network guy... I spend a lot of non-billable time taking the 20+ years of experience and trying (more often than not vainly) to educate my clients on smart business practice where their data is concerned - I am a stickler for backup systems, and I urge all my clients to spend the time (and money) to have a Disaster Recovery plan developed and tailored for their system... Today I have spent the better part of 12 hours thus far working on recovering an e-mail system that had the unfortunate luck to be connected to a faulty power protection device... so.. let's go to the back up - in fact the redundant backup... because this client lives and dies by e-mail accessibility... So.. when I go to restore the system, I find that the last known
10 Things Most All Men Want
It seems to me that there is an abundance of misconceptions as to what it is that men really want from their women. Now I certainly cannot represent all men but some of the basics are usually the same as my own so I thought I would share my top ten list of things that I want from my girl.   10. Criticize me Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want you to tell me a list of all my faults or constantly feed me reasons I suck…but when I wear a shirt that doesn’t suit me, if my jeans are too tattered to wear any longer, if my deodorant isn’t holding up it’s part of the bargain, please let me know in a loving way so that I can be more attractive to you. If I’m not doing something right or if my thoughts are bigoted or stupid, talk with me about it so that I can grow from you. We men are just learning our way and we could use your loving help.   9. Talk about me Women so often get with their friends and talk negatively about their man. Why would you do
Money Money Money,without money,we arenothing,Money paysbills,get you clothesget you food,a roof over your head,a car,a flat or housewhat ever you want,youcan buy it,when it run"Sthen we are stuck,thenyou ask yourself,damm it"S gonewere did it all go.
So IL made it illegal to text and drive. Whats next?? Are you gonna tell me I'm not gonna be able to steer with my knees while playing yahtzee with a midget in the back, and reading Cosmo through binoculars?? Its racism, at its best!
The Most Talk Thoughts
Thris morning I awoke to the sounds of my teenage daugher russling around outside me bedroom door.  Last night or early this morning she floated in to me house at 4am.  she is 16 and a vary good kid vary honest always upfront wtih me about what is going on.  With that in mind I brought her out to breakfast at the ungodly hour os 7am and we had the pill talk.   after many moments of cold swets and anginic attacks I was pressed to agree that my daugher go on the pill.   My friends have all said how "forward thinking I am."  I me self find it hard not to get in me car and go run over her boy friend many many times in a proticular part of his anatomy  feel free to post your thoughts always looking for a counter answer
A Blind Eye (act 6 )
Sleep didn't last too well for him. The vivid dreams and memories of what was passed through the subconscious process of his thinking, driving him into a dark hell where mercy no longer existed. There was no Auntie Cherrie, no way to get back to the radio to call for help. Just him and the reaper. For a while, he did sleep. It was something that had pulled him in with a twisting effect, spiraling into the confines of darkness where the dreamless venture unfolded to an unkind monstrosity. He could see his mother standing there, holding her arms out to him. She had a smile on her face- But that was the last thing he remembered before the phone began to ring somewhere. It was a battle of awareness and mechanical function as he was pulled from such a sweet slumber. His eyes snapped open and for a moment, the reaper was staring him in the face. He rolled over to his side and reached for the cell phone that lay resting on the stand. The number was blurry as he tried to focus but he still a
In Honor Of The Late ...great Mr. Hughes
Iona (Pretty In Pink) You are a super cool chick, baby! You own an awesome record shop and can catch shitty teenage shoplifters from the back of your head and turn on them with a staple gun. You have an amazing vintage style and are probably on a first name basis with The B52's. You just need to stop getting involved with bad boyfriends who leave you tyed up in the back of their car.
...the Silent Majority Has Awakened!
              The following letter is rapidly circulating around the country. Americans everywhere identify with this 53-year -old woman. She has given us a voice. (Her letter was read on the Glenn Beck show.) Once you read this, you will want to forward it to all of your friends... GLENN BECK: I got a letter from a woman in Arizona . She writes an open letter to our nation's leadership: I'm a home grown American citizen, 53, registered Democrat all my life. Before the last presidential election I registered as a Republican because I no longer felt the Democratic Party represents my views or works to pursue issues important to me. Now I no longer feel the Republican Party represents my views or works to pursue issues important to me. The fact is I no longer feel any political party or representative in Washington represents my views or works to pursue the issues important to me. There must be someone. Please tell me who you are . Please
Stealing Loved Ones
I can't believe that people would steep that low to steal other peoples spouses. People must not: 1 be able to find a person who would go out on a date with them so they have to steal others loved ones. 2 have no respect for themselves. 3 no personal morals. 4 set examples for there kids. All this is showing them that it's ok to let your self stoop so low and have no respect for your self. Before people should go and steal other peoples loved ones they should stop and think how much hurt, pain, trouble, and drama they are going to cause. Also they should stop to think of what others will think of them before they do what they do. Also people shouldn't put pictures up because all it saying is how much of a horrible person they really are. It also causes more pain, trouble, and drama. Next time people should really stop and think before they go and do things like stealing other peoples loved ones.
It's not suppsed to hurt this much But it can never feel the same again I'm left with nothing But the memory of the way you used to feel I guess you finally took the deepest cut I guess the blade on my tongue was just too much Every word that I said came from my dark side Now this emptiness is real You reach beneath the surface more.. So go and leave me with my last regret Let me feel the way you left me dead Too blind to see You stole my honesty I think about the time we've lost I think about the time The silence could be words And now the only sound I hear Is my guilty conscience Screaming out your n
Books And The Dreams That Make Them
So I left for work this morning after another first for our kids; at about twenty to eight, Sarah and Jeffrey were both rushing down the stairs past me, who’d just driven their aunt Mary to work to pick up a ride to the Dickinson Kmart store and eaten breakfast, to the bathroom.  This is significant because Jeffrey had finally been given a toddler bed to sleep in as opposed to his crib that he’s had since birth.  My in-laws bought the toddler bed as well as five oversize chairs from our dining room table (I say oversize because the chairs are a set, but they crowd into the table when you push them under) this Saturday and placed them in the house while I was out with Sarah and Jeffrey at Oak Park’s annual “Rock the Leaves” music, game, and food festival conducted this year to raise money for a local child through the Make-A-Wish Foundation. My kids and I even got a caricature of us done there by Joe Davis, a Minot State University student who’s alwa
im sorry for the past few weeks, i been going through alot. i lost a friend of 15 years. shit here has been stressful too. with the album coming out and shows and drama at home. plus being a full time mom, it does wear a person down. I am way over due for a vacation. ALONE!! maybe one of these days, but for now, bare with me. I always bounce back. love you guys
Take Word
If I put you in my family ,,doesnt and have no way for you to put me in yours. I will watch out for you..shitface and pimpout,,no matter what,, These condtions are always due to change if ya not right to me..slander me,,or anything abusive to me.
The Incantation
Veil the image with black cloth    The spirits shall appear as a red vapour before the image, and the essences within the cranium shall  beckon their lust, and they shall enter through the mouth of the vessel. When they are within make  the sign of KOTH and seal up the mouth with red clay (which you have before prepared) saying VOLEC DEMAS, ORIS, through this earth you shall not pass. The words have been  spoken, the Sign has been given, for as long as I so will it you shall dwell within this  vessel I have fashioned with my Art and thou shall give true answers to my demands  when I shall have need of you; for Balon your Master has cast you forth from the hosts  that serve Him to be obedient to my will in return for my worship and due sacrifice   When wish to know of anything which is hidden from you in the world of man or realm of  elemental spiri t -Unveil the head, turn the face to the North, ask what you desire to know and : address the image in these words   "I have f
What Is Truth?
"You are a king, then!" said Pilate.  Jesus answered, "You are right in saying I am a king.  In fact, for this reason I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify the truth.  Everyone on the side of truth listens to me." "What is truth?" Pilate asked. With this he went again to the Jews and said, "I find no basis for a charge against him."    Jesus and Pilate (John 18:37-38)   In this exchange is the summary of preaching the Gosple to the blind world.   "Here is the Truth, right in front of you!"     "What truth?"   Those who would be blind don't see it. Yet those who hunger for the truth will.  many don't know they are hungry for it. Others have searched their whole lives for it and never find until someone exposes them to it. But that is always the exchange: Those who know the truth must share it with others; those who don't know it have to decide whether or not they will receive it, then God will reveal it to their hearts if they will hunger and thrist for it.   W
Bound To You
Let me be in your arms just once more Take the pain like you have before Hold me in your sweet embrace Take me away from this horrid place Away from all in the world that's wrong Once more softly sing me our song Be with me one more time Adding your rythm to my rhyme Work your magic on my soul Once again make me feel whole You will always be a part of me Bound together we are and will be I still need you in my life Although no longer as your wife A bond of friendship is what we have now One that won't be broken, this I vow An inexplicable bond we share Even if our love we can't repair
life is something great its what u make it and how u live it is up too u soo make the best of it and love it to the fullest
Your Gone
i said hello,i think i'm broken and the world was was only jokin',It took me by suprise when you went away.I was trying to be clever,for the life of me i never would have guessed how far this simple truth would lead,You knew all my life,and all my tricks,and how to heal all my pain,that no medicine could ever fix.I blessed for the day i meet you,and i  i'm thankfull that he let you,lay beside me for a moment that lives on.the good news is im beter now because i can look back at all the time we spent together.Looking back it's still suprising, i was sinkin' and you were ricing.with this look that caught my attention every day.Now i know god has his reasons,but some times it's hard to see them,I lay awake at night,and find that your not there.You made me find hope in hoplessnes,you made crazy,sain,you became the missin' link,that helped me break my chain,and i'm so blessed for that.But the bad news is your gone,you only got a one way ticket over their,and i will miss you so much....
Brilliant ... Radiant ... I am not just a sun sign I am the Sun. Brilliant ... Radiant ... Violent ... I burn for you and yet despite the fact that you are fortunate enough to find me in the center of your universe, you allow yourself to be distracted by a multitude of lesser lights around you ... lamps, candles, heaven forbid - even flashlights. Like a moth to a flame you turn away from the sun ... towards some fleeting shimmer of light and find not illumination but a light that flickers in even the gentlest of breezes - one gust and its flame dies. Perhaps you expect the sun will always be at your back .. that you will always feel the warmth of my rays. Some wobbling on your axis is to be expected, but you continue to test the limits of your orbit and that tells me that you would prefer to float free. So be it. I am no longer a star burning brightly in your sky.  Think of me now as a supernova ...a bright burst of light that you will experience only once ... though y
Thay Don't Give A Fuck About Me So Fuck This World Thay Don't Care About Me !!!!!!!!!!!!
Ive caught myself starrin at the wall ItZ kindA hard cause Im barely believin that my life waZ scarred Playin the father figure to my LIL brothers and sisterZ Mama always had it HarD so now Im beggin for riches Got my Mind based on dirty gameZ How can I cHange? well Im stUck in tha Flamez& fEELin NOTHIN BUT PAIN! a juvenile tht COULDEn't crack a smile Im only 5 feet PrAYin for another mile buT will Tha finD ME? Drownin in my own blood demonz behind me clowniN whILE we slang drugz clutchin my 9 free bustin @ them fuckin scrubz wishin thay'd try me knowin how this block waz we could never find peace hopein that thay give me love @ timez icoulden't sleep til a nigga gotta buzz burnin tha streetz here im still runin4 that major leauge here I hope you understand the game thay givin me !! with all this PaiN in me im screemiN FUCK THA WORLD CAUSE NO 1 GIVES A FUCK ABOUT ME! Now waz it my elevation that got me ready 2 ride ? bein certin revalations got me ready 2 die I close my eyez and Pictur
ok first off, i'm gonna start out by saying shut the fuck up! god! i'm sooooooooo tired of hearing all of you tell me, how beautiful i am, that my husband was an idiot, that anyone would be lucky to have me, blah blah fucking blah! fuck you! i hear this shit on a daily basis! yet i still go to bed alone every night, and wake up alone every morning! unless you're actually gonna do something about it then just shut the fuck up! i don't care that you think i'm beautiful, i don't care that you think my ex is an idiot for leaving! your words mean NOTHING to me. they are just words! i've heard them all before! so now some of you are wondering "well wtf happened to lee?" yes i know, it ended just as quickly as it began! i'm not gonna go into detail, all i'm gonna say is, once again i open my heart up, just to get left standing alone in the dust! so next time you even contimplate telling me how beautiful i am, or how lucky you would be to have me, just think about what my reply migh
People Get Mad About Nothing
N.M.E.: Whatever... I don't wanna argue. Be a fucking lame-ass bitch. I don't care anymore. ->N.M.E.: fair is fair right? ->N.M.E.: lol now i am an idiot? ok well ill have Don go on and have him not force me to go on N.M.E.: You don't wanna see me and I can't fucking FORCE Kim to go on..... idiot ->N.M.E.: cant show me then complain i wont show you ->N.M.E.: ok then , but yet i am CORNY and you never wanting to show me isnt correct? N.M.E.: I never saw you and I guess I never will. ->N.M.E.: and DID YOU EVER LET ME SEE? ->N.M.E.: if you dont think i am real, not my proble
I'm Lost
there are some days when things happen I just can't understand.  My childrens father, who won't support them, has now moved his girlfriend and her child into his house.  He will support complete strangers but not his own flesh and blood.  What gives?.....Pfft...
Damn Fubar Drama
I hate fubar drama, especially the kind that makes people who use to be friends turn on each other because of jealousy or anything like that. Just like last night it happend again...the man who I claimed to be my fu-dad came against me and was telling me how I was wrong in a choice that I made and basically called me stupid. That was the last straw  for me. I had to do something so I put him on block and delted his ass. It killed me tho but I know in the end I will be stronger because of it.
Oh Shit.
There's a chance i might ALREADY be thirteen weeks along, since my last "period", in july, was just some minor spotting. which means I won't be able to get an abortion. My aunt's trying to help, but there is no way i can come up with 500 bucks in the next two days.     If i AM already past the time i can get one, we're in trouble >.>
Clearing The Fog Off My Glasses......
You don't have a face, you are nary an idea, I know what you will be like, magic, gorgeous to me, you will have a wonderful smile, the kind that lights up a room, you will be light and graceful, we will enjoy one another, want to talk to each other, we'll hold hands and embrace warmly, you will fit perfectly in my arms, when we cuddle you will make me tingle, I will stroke your hair as I pull you close, yer kiss will make my heart scream, and each goodbye will be agony, I know you exist, I may or may not know you, I dream of you, you are in store windows, reflected in creeks and lakes, I saw you yesterday in the rain, you were dancing and so alive, moving, turning, all I could do is smile at a phantom image, I have a longing deep inside to find you, but I never look, I will know, the day I meet you, the day you reveal who you are, I will know it is you, and I will secretly, and softly, in my soul, introduce myself to you, and I will know where foreve
In My Eyess
In My Eyes I can pretend with our friends That there’s nothing wrong I can write you love letters Like I’ve done all along I can put on an act They’ll believe all the lies But I don’t think we Can do this anymore Cause you’ll see it in my eyes CHORUS In the eyes that held you Closer than my arms ever could The window to my heart That’s now torn in two I can fool everyone else I don’t even have to try But I know you’ll see it In my eyes The dream of you and I Came crashing down tonight In my imagination There was nowhere we couldn’t fly So now I’ll just imagine That everything’s fine But I know For all that’s worth You’ll see it in my eyes CHORUS In the eyes that held you Closer than my arms ever could The window to my heart That’s now torn in two I can fool everyone else I don’t even have to try But I know you’ll see it In my eyes My heart can fool everyone else It ain’t the first time he’s lived a lie But you’ll never believe it
They Twinkle For You
They Twinkle For You Have you ever looked at the stars Wondered why they twinkle so Well I have the answer It's time that you know They've heard all about you I talk to them the whole night through I bet you didn't realize All the stars, they twinkle for you CHORUS When they shimmer They're trying to get your attention When they shine They're letting you know That I'm telling them right now And they know my heart is true How much in love I am All the stars, they twinkle for you They know how beautiful I think you are How I've given you my heart How much it hurts me Now that we're apart Each night they put on a show Trying to get through So when you look up just know All the stars, they twinkle for you BRIDGE If they seem a little blurry It's from the tears in their eyes When I tell them how much I love you It always makes them cry CHORUS When they shimmer They're trying to get your attention When they shine They're letting you know That I
Why is it when you have someone in your life everyone wants to be in your life but when you have no one in your life no one else wants to be in it?????
My Broken Heart
"Your so sweet, your so cute, know will you please pick up the phone" my phone started ringing loudly." hello" i answered"hi, you sleeping? did i disturb you!" Luke said he was in the other end."n.....ope, i..was just....... anyways what happen you called?" i replied" remember you have to meet me today at six, we have to finish that project and your my partner?" he said " yeah! i will be there on time..... bye... take care" i hurriedly ran to bathroom. it was already five fifteen by then.Luke and i are friends from our CST101 class. i ran the bell of Luke's door at sharp six. Luke live with his parents. he had two brothers only. most of the time they were always out. i see them very rarely in the house.Luke opened the door and let me in. as i set on the sofa i saw someone coming from Luke's bedroom.he was tall, had dark hair, brown eyes and was wearing a shirt and jeans. actually he was handsome.he was calling to Luke. then Luke went to him and they had a small chat and again he went i
Signing Up For The Squad
 This blog is for signing up for the Zombie Squad,if you haven't read what we are about read the blog titled "The Zombie Squad - Wnat 2 join? What we are about" if you've read that and want to join just leave a comment in this blog saying that you want to join up and I will begin the process of making your card after figuring out what rank and division it is that you wish to join up to.
Fucc Da Chic Rainbow Fuckn Bright
Men!!!!   this dude is trying to see how many will block him and he is rude very innappropriate he is lucky I didn't have to get my boyfriend on here but do NOT trust him ladies he'll offer a plane ticket to see him an do something sexually it is rude in my eyes since I have a man and am in a relationship.
Acwuired Nemesis
I have these things, That trouble me. They won't go away, No matter how much I plea. A list of disorders, I consume in my life. Some give me pain, Others give me strife. Schizophrenia and Bipolar, Manic and Psychotic Depression. My Isolectic disease, Kills my expression. Social Phobia, OCD, Both disorders of anxiety. Some I was born with, Some acquired from society. Oppisitional Defiant Disorder, And Cannabis Dependence. With all these meds I'm taking, I still have no independence. I take Seroquel and Risperdal, Both antipsychotic medication. All these chemicals in my head. Such a large combination. Amitryiptyline, Wellbiutrin XL. Two antidepressants I take, That puts me in a spell. Trileptal is for Bipolar, 900 milligrams of it a day. I took three other meds, But they took all those away. I've been in three institutes, I spent in all of them in total of three years. Ever since I left Ridgview, I couldn't shed a tear. I've done jail time for my crimes, I've laughed at every one. I've b
the ultament test of life is courge
Hmmm The Good And The Bad
I Am Moving!!!!!!
Is the person you last kissed at least a bit cute?well my son is adorable.. and the other is sexy as hellIf you found out your friend was smoking weed, would you be disappointed?no.. bc i already know they do..What would you do if the world were to end?well if it was a suprise ending i woouldnt be able to do much would i?Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them?usually... its common respect.. if people dont look me in the eye I know they are not being completly truthfulWould you prefer a kiss on the cheek or neck?depends who is kissing me.. my mom os son (cheek) my man.. neck OR Lips.. well anywhere really!!! LOLDo you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything too?yeppers i doIs there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?yeah.. but appearently i didnt mean that much to them or they would have stuck aroundDo you get drunk every weekend?never realy been drunk.. i only drink ocasionally and after this weekend i remember whyHave you ki
I love the girl I am with and things have been tuff. We both have 3 kids each which makes it harder. She has been talking about moving out to relieve some stress. I don't think that is fair just giving the kids what they want. What do you think?
My Response To Tettibear
UPDATE: I probably should have given some context to this.  A few nights ago I commented in a blog posted by Tettibear ( about Obama's health care plan.  She seemed fairly reasonable so I shouted to her and we chatted for a bit.  When I expressed my disgust about people calling Obama a communist fascist socialist nazi, she retorted that Obama is a socialist.  I challenged her to find evidence of this, not conjecture.  She responded with an article from Accuracy in Media (here:  A poorly written op-ed piece by a conservative think tank penned back in February of 2008.  Again, I challenged her to find evidence, not conjecture or talk of loose associations as the AIM article does.  Her response is below (you can also find the article she pasted here:  My responses are in bold.  ŦĕĮĮıßéâŗ: Students and young
Jesus Camp Documentary
After viewing the indie film "Jesus Camp" for the second time; I still have the same exact views on it an the people in it. I find it quite ironic that there's a radio listener calling in saying that atheists beam an "authoritative sense" to Christians. In my experience I have been confronted numerous times and handed enough miniature bibles the paper matter could make up for half a redwood forest. I work across the street from a Church and at least twice a week someone is coming in voicing their opinion that I didn't ask for; wether it be about my tattoos and asking why I did this to my body and if I know it's a sin, to asking if I know why Jesus died for our sins. It really irritates me that I am interpreted to be ignorant of religion. The entanglement of politics in religion is also another thing the movie mentions that is a pet peeve of mine. One too many a candidate has used god or their religious views to win votes or capture a certain demographics attention. It shouldn't matter
The Wake Up I Didnt Want
8 years ago. My best friend woke me up. Told me you need to see this. As I opened my eyes. Grabbed the coffee he made for. I reached for cig. as I started to light it up he told " This is not gonna be easy for you to see". The tv came on. The 1st tower was hit. I dropped my lighter in shock. Then the phone rang. My heart now in my throat. Thinking In my head plz dont let that be for me. It was. As the second plane hit. It was My cousins wife. Frantic, crying, rambling words. I told her to calm down whats wrong. All she could mutter over her tears is albert's in there Im losing albert! Just then my cigs feel to the floor as my phone did too. My cousin , who I never met face to face. Was the closest cousin I had. We talked 3 times a wek like it was religion. wrote each other all the time. when he got married I had custom rings made for them.I was suppose to finally meet him the next week. A cousin I loved more than Life itself now gone. I hung up the phone. It rings again. My USAF recrui
Long Story Short...
*does a spin, comes out looking like Krevlornswath, sings*   I feel good! Dun na nuh na nuh na nuh.     I have seen the light! And, the light is, moping is for people who actually LOST something. Can't lose something that was never real. And, Now that I know the truth, I'm giddy. Self-concious, and feeling kinda fat and stretchmarky, but giddy.
What I Say To People To Cheer Them Up
I've always been a hyper person. So with that being said i like other people to be hyper too. Theres nothing more to stress me out that someone being pissy. To get a person in a good mood or to just take the edge off i always ask them if they want to bang. I've said it so much to everyone around me that its become my trade mark saying.
Link To Bulletin To Rememberance Of 9-11-2001
Another For The One - Whoever You Are
About Me
  ABOUT ME:    Have the virgins with their honesty... guarantee? We move like vandals down darkened streets  And talk like dime store novles   beth amphedamine, cindarella, dentine ice, whats her name, all real tall...all the same...all call me by my magus witchboard coven name...comic books  fishing hooks...hard to find black magic symbols on the cover of my really rare cook books..     I hear the ratters of tatters of home Kick over the buckets of the wells run dry I can't see but I don't care Nothing is the best gift you can find   things you cannot measure...things your sure are treasure...moments you think feel good inside your heart...make you feel good...bring you.. pleasure   Deepest darkness in our blackened hearts Got no time for you bleeding hearts hurry and explain this mood before you get caught....for crimes of the mind with individuals you are sure must be real....but maybe not...grant you all that you have wished for leaving fragments black and dis
$15,000 And 15 Miles Don't Make You A Biker
Remember when you could afford another Hog, a new pick up truck, or Carhart work clothes.    Cause some dudes will pay what ever it takes we all!    Remember when you could count on the other biker in the bar to back you up, and not be some lawyer (to want to sue fer ya), or some dentist (to want to fix yer knocked out teeth), or some gutless weezel who runs for the door when the first glass breaks.    MAN....I see all these shiney new scoots with riders in t-shirts from places they never been, brand new engineer boots, chain drive wallets, black carhart jeans, and not a fuggin beard, tatto, or long hair among em. Is dis that yuppie scum shit I been hearin about? How did they get on my mountain? How do I get rid of them....?    And now you yuppie says to me you got a computer and a web I says, I never walked around in high waters with a pocket protecter and slide rule. I admit I'm a computer geek wanna be......why you actin like a Biker!    Ya....I know
Good Friends And Fu Family
I am writing this blog to personally thank all my fu friends and fu family that made mine and illini rebels wedding awesome. I cant personally write you all each a thank you note but you know who you are. I am going to name some of you if i dont name everyone please dont be upset with me I still love you to pieces. First I want to thank my Rockin_C_Cantina family they came together in a short time make things go smoothly and well they are the best. I want to thank Pastel for making our wedding bully and our marriage pics. She is truly a beautiful lady on the inside as well as the outside. I want to thank Dj Sexy Doc for being my witness and TxRebel for being Jim's. I want to thank Crazy Cowboy and Chris and Connie and the list goes on and on. Thank you Bud for coming your the best friend and Sniper a person can have in their life LOL. Ty ty ty everyone. I am a very happy woman today because of all of you. Hugs and Kisses your fav Sin
Somtimes I am thinking; ok, ALL the times. And the recent mind wretching cognitive spasm was targeted towards "being good"   I feel like I get too many good things in life that I totally dont deserve.  Without gettin into further details (and curious cats will get their claws dulled), I have a most wonderful hubby that I find to be too good for me.  I have friends that I find to be too good to me. My health is not too fucked up yet, as opposed to some people that actually deserve to be in good health but aren't.   It strikes me as shit when I see people who REALLY deserve all the good stuff get fucked over...and OVER... I'm not sure what it is...I find the whole Karma premise to be a load of crap, since I see worthy people get shat on all the time, manipulated, played with , etc.   While people like me have a ball in their ballpark. I dont get it. I guess my bigest punishment for being me is ...being me, which is a hard thing to pull off. I dunno, I'm just bored and rambling...
Ok, so Im new to this and I was rating people...unbenouneced to me they aren't anonymous. Well, Im sorry all..i figured they were. And, I was trying to be honest and rate with an honest opinion verses the typical 10 vote for everyone. That's all peepz. Im sorry if that offends...but thats just me.
Rip Pamela! 1974-2009
I just received news that my only family member here, Pamela, passed away at the age of 35! She died from complications of surgery after donating her kidney to save her eldest child who had kidney failure! Are you KIDDING ME?!?! What sadistic "god" takes away from this world such an unselfish and loving parent?? IT AINT FUCKING RIGHT!!! As if I didnt already have enough doubts in my mind that a god truly exists...    RIP Pamela! You will ALWAYS be Loved!!!!!!!!      
Highly Not Interested
So, I am really getting sick and tired of you people who think you can ask me if you can see my boobs. I realize I have them and they are slightly above normally however I am a lady. I am not here to cator to your sexual needs. I am here for friends. If you can't handle it don't talk to me.   Thanks
A Dream Come True
I dont want to have to think about it , If in my heart I know its not true. And the more we talk about it , The more i want to give in to you. But this hearts been broken ,Far to many times. Theres peices lacking , Your love will never find. And i fear that one day you ll stop,Trying to always be.The one thing in this world , I know is  good for me. Last night we'd satyed up talking , Till day light broke the dark.For a moment it felt like , We weren't worlds apart. It seems like i searched a lifetime , For someone just like you.  And for the first time in a long time , I know that dreams come true.
Just My Luck
Just my luck that it turns out my lease is up in November instead of Feb. So that gives me two months to get things figured out. Rich is the one who told me that while I was out of town and he tells me that I need to hurry up and find a place and get things packed, donated or whatever and he hasn't even done shit with his stuff. So why the hell tell me what to do? I've already gotten some stuff taken care of. He still thinks I should take his car...fuck that..I'm not taking his stupid car payments so that he won't have another bill to worry about...a bill that he does poorly with. I'm going to have a lot more bills than him to pay for when I move out. He tells me not to worry about a car right now but a place to move to and whatever. Yeah that's something that was on my mind before but thought I would have more time instead of two months...the whole car thing is still on my mind since he fucked me over and it's like he's still trying to fuck me over. Well that's not going to happen.
Been hurt many times by different men in my life many different ways. Physically, mentally, enslaved, knock down, and made to believe that I am not worth much. Always try to give all of myself and more to anyone in my life. I have had many journeys end in sorrow. I am now on a journey now with a wonderful man. Hoping that we will be able to defeat all obstacles in our lives. I know that if you stand together with your loved ones you can overcome anything. I really want nothing more than happiness and to share my life with a great man. I hope this journey turns out to be all that I expected.
Yard Sale
Well the Yard Sale didn't go that great we are carrying it on to tomorrow. But good news my brother-in-law is going to be selling his two trucks, one 1994 Ford F350 1 Ton and one 1993 Ford Bronco. I am thinking that nothing is going to be sold tomorrow either. *Blah*Oh well I am tired, hot, and sunburned. I am taking the rest of the night off!
I Am Not Interested......................
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, And if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, For your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, If you have been opened by life's betrayals Or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, Mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with JOY, mine or your own; If you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you To the tips of your fingers and toes Without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, Or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to b
Send Me An Angel
Send me an angel to dry my crimson tears Send me an angel to kiss away my fears, to make everything all right Send me an angel to take away these pills To make the pain stop, and replace the way it feels Send me an angel to take the gun from my bed Just in case Im not afraid next time I put it to my head Send me an angel to stop these shaking hands An angel who will help me when I fall, to stand Send an angel to love me for better or for worse To make the pain disappear, even when everything hurts Send me an angel to put the smile back on my face The one which the frown long ago replaced Send me an angel on whose shoulders I can cry An angel who makes me want to live, even when all I want is to die
Wings Of A Butterfly
Heaven ablaze in our eyesWe're standing still in timeThe blood on our hands is the wineWe offer as sacrifice Come on, and show them your loveRip out the wings of a butterflyFor your soul, my loveRip out the wings of a butterflyFor your soul This endless mercy mileWe're crawling side by sideWith hell freezing over in our eyesGods kneel before our crime  
The Piece That Is You
She smells of  Champaign and roses. Combined together, they mark the touch of loves passionate kisses mixed with the satin warm skin that has become the map of my exploration of her pleasure.       Her lips invite my kisses. Her moans encourage my desire. Her heart sets the rhythm that my body moves to. She is my symphony, playing to my hopes and dreams. Sweeping them up into her arms as we dance upon the blankets of her bed.       Great seductress of my heart. Angel of blessed passion. Healer of my heart. My giver of everlasting, I name you all of everything that is me, for everything of you has woven the threads of us into one. We are forever inseparable. We are all that is love and all that love could ever be.      This time, this moment, cannot be compared to anything that has passed. For nothing that has been transcribed or thought could come close to the wonder of this stroke, this kiss, this taste or the very moment of your eyes looking into mine. To perfect for perfection
Birch Tree
birch tree, I see you stand all aloneIn a clearing, so far removed from others.You strive to belong in the woods with them,To be among your sisters and your brothersBut strong roots keep holding you down to the ground,All you can do is tilt your head and flail your armsHoping they will see your struggle, come to you,But they are attached as well, and can't abandon their realmsAs days and nights go by, you hear them whisper in the wind.You want to share your dreams at night, and celebrate beginnings of each day;But distance is too big, and they can't hear;You look at them with tired eyes, and quietly wonder what they sayThe day is coming to an end,The clearing and the forest stand in the darkYour green head is tilted down, you feel defeat,And clear bitter sap is running down your bark.You fall asleep and see the dreamsOf standing in the woods, with theirs your branches intertwine.You feel the wind caress your leaves,And bring your soul a little closer to divine.At night the clouds gathe
what does being in love realy mean. dont know still trying to figure it out. how do you know that you realy love someone? would like to know before it is to late to show the woman i care about that i realy do love her. have alittle family and dont want to break it up. i love being part of a family and being accepted by her family as part of the family. i need help here i am asking for everyones help.
When He Puts On His Mask, Then You Will See Him
From the gospel according to my daughter Sarah … yesterday she was sitting at our dining room table having breakfast and drinking water from her bottle with a Winnie the Pooh (who is always referred to as “Pooh” or “Pooh Bear” by others, I’ve noticed) topper in his Super Sleuth outfit from Disney Channel’s “My Friends Tigger and Pooh”.  Pay close attention, and you’ll notice Pooh sports a domino mask – you know, the kind with eyeholes – on his head, but we’ve never seen him put it over his eyes.  It wouldn’t make much sense since there are no other Pooh Bears to distinguish himself from, and if it is a disguise it’s not much of one … anyway, I pointed out Pooh never wears the mask he sports on his forehead, but he’s always got it ready.  Thus came Sarah’s response, the title of today’s narrative of my life.  It sounds Zen to me, but it makes sense. What doesn’t mak
Distant Love
Distant Love   Did you ever say I love youAnd the breeze took your words awayDid you feel them as they lingeredThen slowly drifted on their wayDid they journey long, searching forThe distant love you hoped they’d findWas someone out there listeningFor words from heart and mindDid you ever hear I love youAs the wind blew through the treesClosed your eyes and felt them thereAs they came quietly in the breezeDid you ever say I love youAnd hear it whispered in returnFeeling your distant love beside youAnd the desire within you burnDid you ever see I love youFloating quietly to you with easeWandering peacefully there beside youComes I love you in the breeze
All is not lost. I am free. A wise song writer once said "freedom" means "having nothing left to lose." While it may be true. It opens up all sorts of possibilities. I have a few friends. That is good. The economy may be in the tank, but in the log run that is good too. It is like a forest fire that clears the woods for new growth. Painful to lose what was there, but it makes room for growth none the less.Life lessons there, too. Someday I hope to have a place of my own. A place where I can hang my poster of Isis and Osiris. A place to put up my statues of the Morrigan. A place to put my alter to the old ones. Nothing fancy. Just a place that is my own. I hope to have a submissive who will honor me, adore me, and whom I can treasure. I hope to have the love and the trust of the one person who can understand the power of a man linked to the old ways. All that will wait ... maybe in time I will find what I seek. For now they are dreams or goals to seek. That is all for now.    
What I Love To Do!
I love to lay you on your back while fondeling your clit with my light touch of hand while kissing you passionately and then alternating from your lips to your nipples. I stroke your clit faster as you get more and more wet and lick,nibble and suck those breast just as fast as you get closer to climax! I caress your each and every sensitive curve. You dont get to do anything to me till i have given you your multiple orgasm b4 penetration! As you cum iam right in your ear saying " THATS RIGHT YOU LOVE HOW I PLAY WITH THIS PUSSY, DONT YOU! DONT YOU? KEEP CUMMING FOR ME DONT YOU FUCKING STOP! I CAN PLAY WITH THIS PUSSY ALLNIGHT!" After you have cum for about 10 straight minutes i then  place my dick right in front of your mouth and say " SUCK THAT DICK!" You place it in your mouth and slow suck it for only a few minutes. Then i tell you " GET YOUR ASS UP ON THAT SHIT!" You mount up and slowly put it in yourself. You are riding me now and iam kissing you passionately and talking nasty, tel
Come See Me
on Jan 22 at 8 seconds saloon in indianapolis. Me and several other bouncers will be on stage doing a strip tease, we are the opening show for Hunks. its a women only show and all must be over 21.  you can see us on youtube. we are tippen scales. we was the opening act for chippendales in aug. check out our video its will be fun. hope to see you there. im not in the video on youtube. i was waiting tables at the time. but in jan i will be. i will post more on ticket prices.
Return On Investment
“And he made the altar of burnt offering out of shittim wood: five cubits was the length thereof, and five cubits the breadth thereof; it was foursquare; and three cubits the height thereof.”  Bezaleel, the son of Uri, the son of Hur, of the tribe of Judah, is the man commissioned to build all the furnishing and objects to be used in the LORD’s tabernacle.  The thirty-eighth chapter of Exodus opens with Bezaleel’s action to build the altar of burnt offering that Moses had first been given the instructions for in chapter twenty-seven verses one through eight.  Remembering that a cubit is roughly eighteen inches long, that puts the dimensions of the altar itself at seven and a half feet long by seven and a half feet wide (making the altar foursquare, forming a square with all four sides being equal) by four and a half feet high. Each corner of the altar sports a horn also made of acacia word and overlaid with brass per verse two.  These aren’t just ornament
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Legalize Weed!!!
If you smoke weed, or just want to help the economy. Call 973-409-3274. No joke. Obama would legalize it. 1- Think of all the money spent on drug enforsement,.... MILLION'S a year. 2- If there was a tax on it,... Deficit GONE! 3- Employers could still have a "drug-free" work place, the chose is yours. I feel it's a win-win situation. 4- NOW, for the negitives. Society would be changed.
Clown Love...
This Is How Every Woman Should Be Treated!!!
To: Every guy To: Every Woman As "that" Guy...I really thank my friend for posting this to me This is how women should be treated...and the men who treat them this way should be valued   To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. .... To every guy that she cried in front of... To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just
Just A Memory
Just a memory: Just a memory sometimes,On an overcast day,a haze of smoke moves about,The rain is falling as she listens to a distantvoice, somehow sadly,singing a song,a death smeared song of an era long gone, Just a memory sometimes,Illuminated back wall of rose red lights,so strange,so old and piercing,And the rhythm dragged out,a melodious haunting plea,the song mood indigo,Enter the faceless man in black,Is he her fate? a dangerous destiny ? Just a memory sometimes,Of a room like a cold black box,She does not sleep this night,Insomnia, a black knight,a sleepless night,No valium, the night passes in black organza song.
I weep as I hang my head in an act of contrition,and whisper, "Don't let go of my hand" For I am ashamed that I see no beauty today,And I have asked for you so many times,for so many things, sometimes I wonder if you sigh when you hear me ask again,But yet, you always reach to comfort me, I have so much to be grateful for in my life,I have felt the wonder of my children move against my heart within my body, I have loved and been loved unconditionally,And sometimes, I did not deserve such devotion, I have laughed and cried, and I have shared so many wonderful things,But,I find only sorrow in my life now and the oppression of lonliness, It is hard to find the beauty,and the joy that used to be here,Although I search each day To find my purpose and fill this emptiness, I find only a restless repetition of yesterday,an endless journey for happiness and I am weary, I have hidden my heart away and now even I cannot find it,And yet I search for someone to give it too, Maybe bringing
Beauty In The Eye Of The Beholder
I find it befuddling how many women on claim that they are "hot", "sexy", "beautiful", etc. I get tons of compliments (on FU), and yet I am completely aware that the status of my looks is completely relative. I am aware that some people are not into short brunettes with smaller chests, and would much rather go for busty blondes or redheads. Thus, to them, I am not beautiful/ sexy/hot/schmexy/other shit.  So I can never claim something that relative. How fuckin vain do you have to be to self appoint yourself as a beauty queen.
These Truths I Hold To Be Self-evident...
Things I've learned in life and truths that I hold as self-evident: You can't turn on the range fan If you're a guy, and you can't get laid in Atlanta, you can't get laid anywhere Fat chicks are absolutely better in bed Pakistan smells like shit, with a slight whiff of curry Afghanistan smells worse Getting shot at makes for an intresting life experience Laughing about it afterwards is even better Some times its better to be lucky than good But luck goes to the competent When the air slightly chilled and crisp I feell more awake than I would after a dozen cups of coffee Autumn in New England is perfect Sights and smells of unusual places make life fascinating The smell of burning trash on a cold winter morning while I was walking down a path through a Bosnian minefield was one of my happiest sensory experiencs I don't think this makes me insane Dead people rotting smell sweet.  That is probably scarier than anything. I'm in love with Princess Some day I'll get her to r
Ever Growing Darkness
so small  the light that pasts the walls anymore, no longer the darkness stands out for now it has became the surroundings, pain is most plentiful and fully enjoyed, marks on the walls are not those of signs for help but rather signs of comfort. each new breath welcomes the shadows ahh yes  they are coming  it is time to become them
Single Mommys Are Worthless Bottom Feeders
fuck all you single mommys. nothing but goldigging tramps..and of course damaged goods,lol
If I Cant Have U
If I Can't Have You I don't want nobodyIf i can't have youoh i can't love nobodyunless i'm loving youchorus:the way you hug methe way you squeeze methe way you kiss meya ya ya ya ya ya ya ya yaif i can't have youi can't talk to nobodyunless i'm talking to youi don't wanna hold nobodyunless i'm holding youchorusi can't be kissing nobodyunless i'm kissing youi just don't i just don't i just don't want to be bothered with nobodyunless i'm bothered with youchorus [ If I Can't Have You Lyrics on ]  
Holy Shit!
I don't normally do this, but you have to check this out.   Go to the 2nd page of pics and the bottom row.   WTF!!!
My New Owner;)
The Morrigan The Celtic Raven
The Morrigan (also known as the Morrigu) was the shape-shifting Celtic Goddess of War, Fate and Death. She also presided over rivers, lakes and fresh water, in addition to being the patroness of revenge, night, magic, prophecy, priestesses and witches. Her name is interpreted in various forms..."Great Queen," "Phantom Queen" or "Queen of Demons." She was said to hover over battlefields in the form of a raven or hooded crow and frequently foretold or influenced the outcome of the fray. The Morrigan was often depicted as a triune goddess whose other aspects were manifested in the Goddess Badb (meaning "Vulture" or "Venomous") and the Goddess Nemain (meaning "Frenzy" or "Fury"). The Morrigan was one of the Tuatha De Danaan ("People of the Goddess Danu") and she aided in the defeat of the Firbolgs at the First Battle of Magh Tuireadh and the Fomorii at the Second Battle of Mag Tured. The Celts believed that, as they engaged in warfare, the Morrigan flew shrieking overhead in the form of
You have a Sexual IQ of 149">When it comes to sex, you are a super genius.  You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it.  You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.'What is your Sexual IQ?' at
What Should I Be For Halloween..
So i have yet to decide what i should be for halloween..  I have 2 ideas, one is to wrap myself in xmas wrapping and bows and go as gods gift to women..  the other is to make a paper bag out of poster boards with the letter D on the them and go as a dbag..  which do u think i should do..  any other ideas would be helpful..
Fortune Cookie Says.....
I once learned the handy quote from a most unfortunate fortune cookie, "What's vice today, may be virtue tomorrow." This was my past and should remain it indefinitely, but it's made me realize that the most important part of making decisions is choosing those that reflect what your heart tells you. Sometimes it seems like we make decisions based that way when in actuality we're being uncreative and using those observed by others. That isn't how you get anywhere in life however, one needs to find the truth in their own hearts as hard as it might seem presently. As valid someones point may seem at the time, they may not be considering all the options or people you are. Always, always, always take those closest to your heart into primary consideration because they'll do the same for you. I don't know how to organize the rest of my ideas, bleh, maybe I'll finish later.
I Am Getting Divorced
Subject: I am getting divorced!     >> DIVORCE> AGREEMENT>>>>> THIS IS SO INCREDIBLY WELL PUT AND I CAN HARDLY BELIEVE> IT'S BY A YOUNG PERSON!!! WHATEVER HE RUNS> FOR, I'LL VOTE FOR HIM.>> >> OUTSTANDING!>> >> Dear American liberals, leftists, social progressives,> socialists, Marxists and Obama supporters, et al:>> >> We have stuck together since the late 1950's, but the> whole of this latest election process has made me realize> that I want a divorce. I know we tolerated each other for> many years for the sake of future generations, but sadly,> this relationship has run its course. Our two ideological> sides of America cannot and will not ever agree on> what is right so let's just end it on friendly terms. We> can smile and chalk it up to irreconcilable differences and> go our own way.>> >> Here is a model separation agreement:>> >> Our two groups can equitably divide up this country by> landmass each taking a portion. That will be the difficult> part, but I am sure our two sides
Immigration And The National Language
Where to start? Nasty issue sure to flare some tempers,but true is true any way you want to slice it so here is my take from the south,and a state that has seen an influx of illegals in the hundreds of thousands. Here,neighbors who are illegal mexican natives live on either side of 15 or more to a house thats 4 bedroom,drive gas guzzling SUV's that most people earning the money they make..illegally and off the tax roll mind you couldnt afford...They pack into these homes like roaches,sell fucking cocaine,create crime in the process in the form of addicts who want the coke and will do anything to get it. Rob people,break into their homes and harm them,prostitute,shit you name it. Not to mention the school system is flooded with their children which in turn has caused property owners taxes to soar to pay for the extra costs,the state government is allowing these illegals to collect welfare benefits,which also cause tax payers to pay more..whats the fair trade off here? There
Selling My Truck
2008 Ford F-150 Supper Crew 4x423xxx miles5.4L V-86 1/2' bedBlack on BlackFully loaded:Moon roof, rear sliding mirror, All power, Everything works.  The only thing this truck doesn't have is heated seats.Special offer if you would like it.  It'll come with a Bed rack, which is black.  Sitting on top of it will be a barely used OK Lime Green Frenzy With two matching combos, (5'6" barefoot rods with penn 9/0 reels loaded with 600yards of 80lb Jerry Brown, topped with 60lb mono.) The truck is in clean shape.  Nothing wrong with it.  No wrecks.  Sadly a few small scraps here and there from tree limbs  :(  4x4 works good on it.  No tares or scratches on the seats.I hate to get rid of the truck,  Just needing something a little bigger.Sticker price was 42K.  Blue Books at 28K.  Take a look at it and lets talk.[IMG][/IMG][IMG][/IMG][img]
So I Woke Up Exhausted...
On the phone with Princess until 2am.  Had to be up for work at 5am.  My own stupidity.  Yes, I was a completely selfish asshole to probably the most wonderful woman in the world.  Much apologizing ensued on my part.  Moral of the story, be a jackass, wake up tired. Had to do a job interview today.  Didn't go well.  I hate crushing someone's hope for something better.  Especially here.  I've come to really like these people.  Amazing, since their Pashtun cousins in Afghanistan are mostly sub-human troglodytes.  I've found Pakistani Pashtuns to be warm, friendly people.  I hate seeing them get blown up. Spent some time this afternoon hanging with the Pakistani cops drinking chai.  Great bunch of guys really.  Most hospitable people in the world.  I honestly like them far better than some of the imbecile Americans I work with.  Its amazing how one side of their society can be so byzantine and conspiratorial, while on the other hand, they can also be the most simple and giving of people
Wondering if things in the near future will be worth it all. I wonder a lot....I worry a lot... what if everything goes wrong and my dreams are shattered...
No filter, all wit,a gold plated razoragainst their jade skin,drawing red tears of esteem. Your cuts bleedpretty little puddles,pretty little streams.Almost unnoticed at firstyou dance with atomss
Yet Again, More Writing...
Feedingmy mood swingwith a bleeding of fearsfallinglike leavesaround my feetblending with tearsthat hangstrips dripsfor just as muchno-reason-at-allas the panicwelling swellingand still
*sigh* More Writing...
How much fat shit can you talkin a smacked up hour or two?I know, or rather, I knewhow to chew down,spin out, contain, seep up, in three different ways,back in the days,the good old,very old,better left untold,beautiful haze.Better left untold?Here I am, spitting out,and the fat shit I talk nowcould never compareto how tongue and wit danceddefaced, defecated, dominated.Or at least, that's what I thoughtwhen the haze and the slurof three different waysto spin out, contain, seep upwas the kindest of friends,letting me love my dancing,dominating fat shit wit.I never understoodthat no one understood,but my beautiful hazeand I.Never dominating,always dominatedby seep up, untold,smacked up hours,three different ways,and beautiful haze.How much fat shit can you talkwhen breathless from numb nerveswho can not communicatethe fatigued limbs, back, headbecause seep upand beautiful hazewill not let you knowhow tired,so far from bold,beautiful, daring,and dominatingyou really are?When you parade wh
Hmmm, More Writing. Who Knew!?
Words flowed from my fingertips.lust in blood with tearsof fear and love written on the body. A secret language in passion,encrypted messages understood by no one.Except his eyes.She holds the code that deciphers this heart this mind which lies within the deepest part of meHerein, he defines creation.It is raw emotionI spill for himboth complex and simple that moves the muse,stirs an echo of little words. I leak from vital points.Almost visceral its tearingthoughts from me...thoughts of him.Words formed, everythingeverything I want.I want to say.Shouldn't.
Hmm, Writing, Again
black velvetsliding like raincaressing soft moundsshifting to make wayand make day out ofblack velvet nightsliding sleepy slowlyrevelling ravishingwonders of daylightbright skinstraps finallyfalling from shouldersto release, revealwhat I achingly seekbut no, oh nostill clingingto curvesby some magicmagnetic marvelin those hallowedhallucinogenic hipsyou knowyou know so wellhow to capturemy attentionhow with nothingbut velvet bindthis heart to yoursforever and a daywith a slightestof sighsgravity conquersyour resistanceat lastand youconquer me
The Flow {you Probably Don't Wanna See This}
since I'm usually a miserable bitch, I don't notice the PMS really. yes, I do get slightly more of an attitude, but I blame that on the horniness. OMG do I get ever so desiring sex during that icky time. there may be a day or so that I feel horrible with nausea or fever like stuff, but nothing too bad. this is such a glorious time for me. not because I want it all the time and that makes me wanna be a naughty slut, but I like the way I feel when I'm horny ALL the time. *shrugs* there are a lot of times that I ignore those feelings. not being with someone makes sex kinda um not happening, yano. the sad part about a lot of things is that, for the most part, I'm not sure how people behave. like, I don't interact enough to understand um...people. where was I going with this? anyway, I'll be rawr for a little while. please don't test me or try to hurt my feelings and stuff cause I have been super sensitive lately and taking things way too seriously. thankfully my friends(yes, you know who y
Work In Progress Hit List For Original Gangsters.#4
hey everyone my buddy in iraq with me is new here and needs some love check it out...http://www.f
You Can Find Me Here...
you can also find me here!!!
I Felt So Inclined
Hello beautifulThe mask you wear keeps slipingHow do you hold onto sanityI remember the absense of colorof your heartYour mask is fallingTake it off and show meShow me who you really are
  YOU HAVE BEEN FUCKED! (don't be offended, keep reading until the end)Spread the legs and go at it! Pick any of your friends and FUCK THEM! This is for any one you think is hot!RULES:1- You can fuck the person who fucked you, of course.2- You can fuck the same person as many times as you can (c'mon, ENDURANCE)! Be creative!*3- You -MUST- spread the sex! At least 1 fuck is fine and dandy!4- You should fuck in public! Be adventurous, damn it. Paste it on their user page so they feel slutty!5- Random sex is perfectly okay!6- Please, don't worry about same gender fucking, it's HOT.7- You should most definitely get started fuckin' right away!This is about showing everyone how much you care for them and HOW BAD YOU WANT THEIR ASS! Make everyone feel a little loved (and roughed up!). Please don't take this too personally, BUT I JUST FUCKED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!F.U.C.K. Stands For:Friends U Can Keep.So promise me we'll F.U.C.K. forever! Send this to 10 people & 1 back to me. To know who your t
One thing I hate more than Chicagoans is the ones that are Cubs fans. I hate baseball, but I hate the Cubs even more. Their fans are loudmouthed stupid assholes that will cheer for anythin shitty.
What Am I Doing Wrong?
Background information:  Newly divorced, attempting to navigate the dating scene..... My friend has hounded me for months to "hook up" with her uncle.  Finally, against my better judgement, I agree.  We meet, go for a ride on his motorcycle, we have pizza with my son, he leaves....Two days later he shows up, UNINVITED, at my house with an armful of roses....sweet gesture, but NO ONE just shows up at my house without an invitation.  Not even my parents...Rule #1 broken, straight out of the gate...(yes, I relish my privacy, and I just might be a bit antisocial....)  Then he starts calling....all the time.  Ok, if I don't answer the phone OR reply to texts, chances are good that I DO NOT wish to speak to you....Rule #2 broken....Now a week or so passes, this guy is relentless.  I call him and politely explain, AGAIN, that even though I had a nice time on our "date" (that lasted all of three hours) I am NOT looking for a relationship of ANY kind....the phone calls/texts continue.....I exp
The Return Of The Ghost: Memories Of Lies.
This marks my return..from the many chains..and pains..given to me..holding me down..yes..ive drowned away my empty beer bottles..yet..i still this shallow reality..its been way to long..since ive been im back..gathering memories of lies..upon each and every life time..feeling so incomplete..but free..its like being born again..but without the skin..for each of my sins..i paid a no longer interested in love..thats beyound me..this is reality..and im only living it for me..i understand this thinking might lead me to being rather be alone..then living a lie..learn my lessons..gave it my all..and watched all fall..think i want to do that again?'d be smoking..something..if you thank me a lie..more shellshocked then this all a see what one can get out of another..if so..just dont count on me..when your alone..dont call my phone..i have better things to do..then to baby you..its your choice..not mine..i
Things That Potentially Made Me Retarded
Chewing tar as gum when I was little Chewing lead based paint chips...alot Putting graphite from colored pencils on white gum, to make it colored Falling off the table when I was a newborn eating weird mushrooms as a kid banging my head on the floor /walls when i was younger drinking half a bottle of vodka at 13  
What The Little Pink Bear Said
In “The Lost Princess of Oz”, L. Frank Baum’s eleventh Oz book and the fourth one I had ever read – Oz beat out Narnia for me as my younger-kid reading growing up by thirty cents, but that’s another story – the title character for this entry was like the other bears of Oz’s Bear Center that could walk and talk stuffed with magic, but he had to be wound up before he could tell you anything that had or has happened, not what is going to happen.  “Something animates him – when you turn his crank,” and this was an important plot point in finding the lost princess; when his answers to any question posed to him appeared cryptic or unclear, the Lavender Bear and later Dorothy stood up for his honesty because, since he was technically a robot – that term would not be used in English for a mechanically-run being for another decade – he couldn’t lie. It was just that other people could not always understand when he to
New Video Only For 21 Days!
Ok here is a video of me in the shower. Toying around with a new Flip Cam a little bit on the shaky side cause he kept getting wet . Its only going to be on this site for 21 days. If anyone knows a free hosting site let me know so i can upload it there. Enjoy!
Moving Bye Bye!
I start moving in less than 12 hours. Just finishing a few things up then heading to sleep. It's suppose to rain also...bah! Maybe will get lucky and the rain clouds will go somewhere else.. Until then...I'll be back whenever! Bye bye!
only 32 days till Christmas  wow!!
For Our Mafia!
I had a buddy of mine make us a tag so that we can get more ppl into our turf and our crew. I will get all a link to it so when we use it they will click the link and it goes right to our turf and that way we can BLAST OURSELVES!!! My good buddy The Dark Man made this for us so please you guys give him much thanks for what he did cuz he has his own crew but he hooked us up, here is his link ...
My Being Here
I joined this site on August 9th this year,now I think it time for me to leave. 1.Because I may have offended some people and 2.I may have hurt some peoples feelings. That is certainly not the reason I came here it was to meet new people and make friends but It seems I have done the opposite of what I did come for,I don't know when or if I will come back and incase I don't I want to do at least one thing right and wish you all a Happy and Safe Holiday Season.
Not That This Will Do A Damn Bit Of Good, However One Must Continue To Try....
Sent to the President of these United States of America via E-mail Dear Mister President, I had a dream last night, not an uncommon event and in this dream I found myself sitting in a military induction physical center waiting my turn to be examined by the staff.  One of the doctors present came over to me somewhat upset.  “I remember you!  You were here back in January of this year, we disqualified you from service.” I looked up at this person already feeling tears rolling down my face and asked. “What am I suppose to do?  This has been my life ever since I was a kid!” He didn’t answer that question, I’m not sure there is an answer to that question.  For the very first time that I can remember I dreamt I was praying.  When I awoke from this dream my lips were still moving as I had been praying aloud in my sleep. I grew up believing in dreams, people told me over and over again to follow my dreams to whenever they lead me.  The one dream I ha
Beginning Today
Beginning today I will no longer worry about yesterday. It is in the past and the past will never change Only I can change by choosing to do so.Beginning today I will no longer worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it. But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today.Beginning today I will look in the mirror and I will see a person worthy of my respect and admiration. This capable person looking back at me is someone I enjoy spending time with and someone I would like to get to know better.Beginning today I will cherish each moment of my life. I value this gift bestowed upon me in this world and I will unselfishly share this gift with others. I will use this gift to enhance the lives of others.Beginning today I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter. I will face challenges with courage and determination. I will overcome what barriers there may be which hinder
Chapter Two: The Pink Dragon
Flying east, the Golden Dragon had time to view his domain. The vast plains that stretched across the southern half of his realm were barren now that his rival's corpse lay rotting in some pit. Trees stretched north of the plains, huge forests, laden with pits and trip wires that were all carefully set to stop intruders lay guarding the Golden Dragon's secret lair. The one river in his entire domain, known as the River of the Dead, twisted its way from the mountains to the north, on through the sea of trees to emerge at the sea to the west. This sea, known only as Big Blue, was too vast for even a dragon to cross. Not even the Golden Dragon had any idea as to what lay that direction. He had more important things on his mind, however, and gave a great flap of his wings to gain some altitude. As he thought about the invading Dwarves, he couldn't help but remember the day when he first encountered them, his fifth birthday, not that he knew it was his birthday. The morning had dawned brig
Being Paranoid
i am becoming a bit paranoid  nowit has been some time now since i went to the 2 doctors that was design for my casesince my lawyer told me to go tothings went fine however when i try to call heri either get the voice mail or i get the investigator that is for my case i dont know what is going to happen or if iam going to prisonbut at this point i just dont care no more iam done caring i have lost everything that i ever did care about nowstill no word on if i have to find a place to live or notand even if i do what is going to happen to my stuff and my cati cant pay rent if iam locked upi feel like iam broken and used up ready to be just either replaced or just toss away like garbagethat is how my life is beginning to turn out and that is how i feelthey say everything happen for a reason then please do tellthis year i wont have a xmus or any other day probably more then likely   and the funny thing is i just dont care iam tired of fighting iam tired iam trying iam tired of making a eff
Always forward ------------------> What if there's a stop I'm dying to make? The push towards progress The push towards the elusive "goal" stifles me. I've never been good at multi-tasking I can't remember me and love you. I can't move forward and take in all the sites. I sit here on the beach and I am overwhelmed by how perfect this moment is. Just enough breeze to keep me company The waves rolling in slowly If I didn't come here with the muse, I might let the ocean talk me into bed. But I have words to write A neglected soul deep within my breast screaming, "What took you so long?" "What? You couldn't call ... you couldn't write?" I used to be afraid of being alone. I was afraid of what people would think. Now I am terrified to be surrounded by them. I cherish the moments alone with my thoughts. When I am surrounded I feel silenced. My words are not my own, but the ones carefully prescreened and approved for general audiences. I no longer worry about what others think - just you. So
That Which Has Not Been Dealt
The truth of two hearts Spoken in the Darkened hoursBetween the meeting of Rise and SetStarlight carries all the UnsaidUntil all that is...existsfor what is not spokenmay never beand what has has always been What a bliss to lingeramongst the Known and Feltnot having to embracethat which has not been dealt
I'm Happy That This Is My First Blog. How Fitting. Thanks Alex, My Brother In Arms.
(Reprinted without permission from Henderson)If you’re an Infantryman:-Underwear is entirely optional at all times-who wears underwear?-You have pooped in the same bag you ate from.-You put that bag into your Ruck next to your sleeping bag.-You’ve pooped in a hole more than a porta potty-Every time you poop, you tell everyone everything about it.-You go on missions with your fly undone so you can piss while pulling security.-You have no problem running 5 miles drunk.-You have no problem maxing a PT Test drunk.-You have no problems doing a 12-mile road march drunk.-You have no problems but drinking problems, and you don’t think it’s a problem at all.-You would fight for a guy you barely know, as long as he’s an Infantryman.-You’d fight your best friend, even though he’s an Infantryman.-Monday morning formation should be taped and sent in to the Howard Stern Show.-You know someone who has done the following:1. Pissed themselves, shit themselves,
The Power Of Words What Can They Hurt
you know the internet can be many thing to many people but mostly its a gate way of communication a gateway that many abuse yes people love to chat on cam but because of the horemongers and the power of the pronogrophy business many people are afraid of turning on thier cams or accepting some one elses because they are afraid of what they may or may not see...the chat lines or boxies aree so badly abused that people are afraid to give out there yim;s and quite frankly i dont blame them,and all the sights like this one and the many others are becomeing more and more commercial or game orentaited then ever before what happen to the internet its become a free for all,and the reasone for this to many people have this notion there are no way these people and i are going to meet unless i make an effort,and ya know there they think they can say any thing and it want matter....BUZZZZZZZZZZZZ wrong answer folks no matter if on the net or in real life people have feelings,and they c
The Stand Still~by Jd
How long are you going to stand still, How many times must you tell yourself that you are the one to blame? Living with so much desperation and hostility, Remember this is your life take control of the reigns.   You've always contained a stroke of genuis, So maybe you've been a little watered down over time. There has to be some time for rejuvenation, Dont you grow tired of walking through life blind? There must be room left to heal and still continue to learn, Regain that "self" control.   Why must you keep this hard to bere chip on your struggling shoulder, No-one ever asked you to carry the weight of the world. For now lets just make haste and skip past all the details, Lets pretend you now walk alone, Afloat high above this broken world.   How many more years will you decided to go about disillusioned? Holding back so much potential and for so long you have wanted to burst. So ready to step foot into the unknown and experience the forbidden fruits, No-one has even
The Inner Mind
Amazing how you can dream of someone or something from the inner part of your mind (the sub concience) while you sleep and dream, for instance...I dreamt of my father and could see and hear him quite vividly after 8 years of his passing yet can't do that while i'm awake. Kind of spooky in a way....
Fruitcake, Needed!!!
...don't Look
A dark night. A lonely, winding road. Silence, pain and God, the shadows.   The silence struck like windshield glass to a developing thorax. The dark was palpable. Like ink falling at the edges of the panels. You could feel it infecting your eyes. Drooling down like boney fingers threatening to peel away the lens. It felt wrong...just wrong. A haze fell everywhere, even in the foglights on the front of that pumpkin orange Pinto. If it wasn't a gift, it would have been funny. But it was, so it wasn't.   The truth is that noone knew which side of the road it had come from. Noone could say where it had been before it was just...there. Just a bone cracking sound, wet thud, jarred feeling. Stopping the car wasn't hard as much as it was...instinctual. The dust and dirt that kicked up made it a romance novel, a Hollywood horror film, something just...wrong. The smear on the bumper told the tale, but where was it...what was it?   And the shadows whispered "Don't look"   Bu
Khmer Boxing
Khmer Boxing (Boxing of Cambodia) was apart of the khmer empire's military training in Cambodia. The king was the expert in combat techniques. Warrior's learned Khmer boxing or Khmer kickboxing to supplement the sword in close range combat. Khmer boxing techniques use hands, elbows, knees, shins, and feet. Our philosophy is to teach students discipline, self-confidence, respect, patience, developing body coordination, speed, balance, and mental health. More importantly we teach our youth to be good citizens. Some people may confuse this art with Muay Thai of Thailand and maybe even american kick-boxing. Both of which are break offs of the much older form of kicking boxing that originated in Cambodia. Kmher Boxing as a sport Before each fight the boxer perform a ritual dance called KUNN-KRU. which pays respect to family's and teachers. Fights consist of three minute rounds with two minute rest periods. The fights are controlled by a referee and decis
Jose Cuervo Christmas Cookies 1 cup of water1 tsp baking soda1 cup of sugar1 tsp salt1 cup or brown sugar4 large eggs1 cup nuts2 cups of dried fruit1 bottle Jose Cuervo Tequila Sample the Cuervo to check quality. Take a large bowl, check the Cuervo again, to be sure it is of the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink.Turn on the electric mixer. Beat one cup of butterin a large fluffy bowl. Add one peastoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point it's best to make sure the Cuervo is still ok, try another cup just in case.Turn off the mixerer thingy.Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit.Pick the frigging fruit off the floor.Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaters just pry it loose with a drewscriver.Sample the Cuervo to check for tonsisticity.Next, sift two cups of salt, or something. Who geeves a sheet. Check the Jose Cuervo. Now shift the lemon juice and strain your nuts.Add one table.Add a spoon of sugar, or somefink. Whatever
Have you ever gotten a message in your shout box like this?   From JD ok this has nothing to do with Doug anymore you pissed me the fuck off.. Who the fuck do you think ytour talking shit to? You obviously have no idea who i am or who i know so i will make this easy for you and fuck off bitch cause seriously Santa Barbara isnt too far away to find a bitch.. You turned this whole thing into something it didnt need to be but keep talking shit bitch Over a comment on a mutual friends page that simply said: "Miss You". LMAO. Silly Stuff...                         
Today Is .....
Full of nothing but RAIN ... I woke up at midnight and it was raining ... and it's still RAINING!!!!  they are going to dump the levy's at some point and flood about 5000 ppl out of there homes .... Stupid engineerz
Once Again ... Shameless Self Promotion!!!
here I go again ....   My fu-bday is right around the corner ... 12/27 and I know I am KING!!! and it's great to be the King!!!   But I want to be a GOD!!!!!!   1.7mil points away from being a GODDESS!!!!     **ok shameless self promotion is over ... back to what you were doing**  
Every Day
Everyday is a journey; and every step takes on that journey; and when we get home; we hope we have gotten a happy landing
The Icing On The Cake Aka Your Little Muffin Tingles Cause I Am Inside Of Your Mind And Body....your Machine THATS ALL FOLKS TECH NINE IS DONE..........go to sleep
Players Dork Family
Sail Away
Little girls molded ... groomed for their place.We buy the fairytale ... we make the plans.White for me ... black for you.Cake for everybody. And somewhere along the waywe  learn the secret that no one had the decency to share.Generations of the tricked biting their tongues;Clenching their fists.As the ice castles melt around us we are left damp ... hurt ... bitter. What's worse still is the destruction left in our glacial wake.Babies ... friends ... parents ... siblingsOur hearts ... destroyed ... broken ... and numb. We drift along in the cold waters.We see others floating on the tide.But never again can we risk drowningand so we cling to our rafts. I hear a voice call to me.Telling me there is shore if only I will step onto it,But even the chilly water around my ankles gives me pauseand I jump back into my boat. Sail away ... sail away ... sail away
Is It Really Worth It?
Is it really worth it to be back here after I was gone for a year? The answer is clearly becoming NO. I thought when I left the first time that there was too much begging and too many self serving people on here. This site was for ADULTS but it was the "go by my rules on life bible thumpers" who were trying to DICTATE what we posted, did and said here. Since my return, I have seen MORE beggars, cheats and liars than ever. No wonder this world is the way it is. Doesn't anyone EARN their keep anymore. It's so unnerving when I see so many supposed good people BEGGING for this and that. MANY OF YOU NEED TO FACE THE FACT THAT YOU AREN'T WHAT YOU PRETEND TO BE ON HERE NOR ARE YOU WORTH THE TROUBLE OR THE MONEIES SPENT EITHER. I have tried to be friends to so many of you and yet you don't return the gester only begging for me to join this or buy you that. To this I will tell you "FUCKING GET A LIFE LOSER"! This world does not, will not and never will REVOLVE AROUND YOU! There have been only
Forever Young, Enternal Unrest Of The Loveless Soul~ By Jd
Over exhausted and feeling like i need this, Getting a grip never seemed so hard and its easy to get sick of it. Feeling out of sorts and almost as if there will be no change to come, Looking back now, I have come to realize why most say they wish to live "forever young".   There were no restrictions, As children our minds roamed free of care, Friends came and they went, We laughed, We cried, Our thoughts genuine we were alive. As we grow people change, Once good friends become strangers that carefree feeling fades away, Left to wonder when it all was lost and just for what reason hopes and childhood dreams fade to grey.   Living the good life is only a dream when life deals a hand thats almost impossible to beat, How many times must we be broken and stuck to repeat, Life is so real but leaves us with so much grief. Self righteousness makes us want to give in to the beatings we take, How easy it would be to pull the plug, Water runs dry and we will wake to face another dar
I Wonder If This Is Really Hidden
can anyone actually see this?
I'd run but i just cant get away.  So I sit waiting for a brighter day.  Im fading fast.  Still trying to find myself. The only me i know is you.  Say something new just give me back.  I cant face this world with out you. I know its gone.  Just come back give me, me and then I'll let you be .   The days are now months. will you let them turn into years?  Leave me lost in this dark.  Left alone with all my fears.  Im broken worse then i ever thought i could be.  Your the only way i know how to fix me.  Im fading fast.  Im wishing for my past.  This loneliness is something i just cant grasp.  Bring me back to me.  Can't let this go. You wont even attempt to know.  Everydays another fight.  I'd run but i just cant seem to get away.
The Eternal Sleep~by Jd
Dreams fall upon my lifeless body, Here i lay asleep, Roaming around my unlimited universe, Faces blurred except for me. Slowing dissapearing right through the brick walls and half stepping all the way down long halls, Surroundings unfamiliar im walking into the unknown as the future shows itself behind sleeping eyes.   Vivid colors and Places i've never been, Will this be my future to come? Hearing noises and seeing life before me, Seems so real and hard to believe its a dream. Waiting for the next role to play its part, I am weary and the anticipation has me feeling dizzy, Opening rel stained doors only to see my beautiful dream twist into many shapes and dozens of pieces apart.   Regaining my step i have before me a white picket fence, The road we travelled has lead to some sort of horizon, I get closer to the fence and i am determined to get past this test, Something is summoning me from the greater depths. Forever young and this world of mine makes it easy to just hurd
Keep Your Cats Indoors, Cats Are Found To Pick Up H1n1 /swineflu Easily And Carry It
Keep Your cats indoors, Cats are found to pick up H1N1 /swineflu easily and carry it
Esto Perpetua
Thursday, June 25, 2009   It’s 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I have the worst song stuck in my head - Neutron Dance by the Pointer Sisters. The cat wont quit licking my face, and I've decide to get up and crack my last beer. I stare at the computer for a few as I wash down my Effexor, Bupropion and Methylphenidate with a cold Keystone Light. You can't buy beer till 6:00 AM, the bank doesn't open till 9:00 AM, and I don't work till 5:00 PM.   I feel now is a good time to share my trials and tribulations of the last 2 months. I grew a beard and drank myself half to death on more than one occasion, and cut off, pissed off, or pushed away friends and family. I've endured heartache, self-loathing, loneliness, and regret only to realize that life is a journey to the center of yourself. I put these things in perspective and deal with them accordingly. With the combination of psychiatric drugs, fishing, a warm camp fire and plenty of alcohol; I've managed to rise from this
Id Come For You-nickelback
Just One more moment, that's all that's needed. Like wounded soldiers in need of healing. Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now Everyday I spend away my souls inside out Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow. By now you'd know that I'd come for you No one but you, yes I'd come for you But only if you told me to And I'd fight for you I'd lie, it's true Give my life for you You know I'd always come for you I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing My mind was closing, now I'm believing I finally know what just what it means to let someone in To see the side of me that no one does or ever will So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone I'd search forever just to bring you home, Here and now this I vow By now you'd know that I'd come for you No one but you, yes I'd come for you But only if you told me
It Just Can't Be! So Shocking!
Found out something very disturbing about my Chris last night....he has NEVER seen the masterpiece that is fight club! I cannot...I mean CANNOT marry a man that does not know who Tyler Durden is! The wedding is in 5 weeks, we must do something about this!
Lets Play A Game Contuine My Story....
Ok so lets make up a story ill start and you continue... from the person who commented above you ... dont finsh the story tho... so its more fun keep it going... Once upon a time... There was a very Beautiful Princess.. But she was not happy like all the others ,her brother prince ________
Drop It Low
I love my mother! For all of you who aren't too proud to say thank you to your moms for helping you be the great person you are today... please copy and paste to your profile! I expect to see this many times on my page! Some people no longer have their Moms here to appreciate, but we can still say THANKS for their love....... I love you mom
Ensign: Knowing The Unborn Push Six Months Later
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 21 January 2010 Six months ago I wrote an Ensign titled "Knowing the Unborn Push" using a sign I'd read in town as inspiration to present God's call to life and how even the well-intentioned pro-life movements often get it wrong. We can't just say "let the baby be born" and then leave them at the hospital. Here in the United States where I'm writing, tomorrow is the thirty-seventh anniversary of a Supreme Court (that's the head of the judicial branch of our government which interprets the laws) decision that legalized what Hippocrates called "an abortive remedy", e.g. abortion of a human being in their mother's womb. Every year you will hear in this country about prayers and attempts and cajoling to "overturn Roe v. Wade", the 1973 decision that made abortion a legally sanctioned if not ethicall
So this is going to contain poetry. Fuck yeah, poetry! In case you didn't know (and since I currently do not think anyone on my list actually doesn't know me at all, weirdly), I'm a poet. I am not yet published as I do not see any current need to be, but I have already written at least nine hundred poems. Some with my bare hand and a pen and only night for a witness; others typed with a clacking of clickity keys. I seriously need a slave helper to type some of them up! Anyway, if you do read any, feel free to criticize. Just bear in mind if serving mockery that I have a strong backhand. ;)
Complaints Against Me
If anyone truly has a complaint against me ,comment on this blog.  Thanks and have a wonderful day!
what is nsfw for a stripper bar, clothing?
From The London Times - An Email From A Great Friend
Outside England's Bristol Zoo there is a parking lot that can accommodate 150 cars and 8 buses. For 25 years, its parking fees were managed by a very pleasant attendant. The fees worked out to $1.40 (U.S.) and $7 per bus.   Then, one day, after 25 years of never missing a single day of work, he just didn't show up; so the zoo management called the city council and asked it to send them another parking agent.   The council did some research and replied that the parking lot was the Zoo's own responsibility. The zoo advised the council that the attendant was a city employee; the city council responded that the lot attendant had never been on the city payroll..   Meanwhile, sitting in his villa somewhere on the coast of Spain (or some such scenic place), is a man who'd apparently had a ticket machine installed – completely on his own – and then had simply begun to show up every day, commencing to collect and keep the parking fees, estimated at about $560 per day, for
....true Words....
My love for you it grows so fast how and why I shall not ask I'll give it to fate, put it in her hands I cannot explain in words how I feel You've shattered my walls and dispelled my fear I trust you won't hurt me far or near Your voice and words have reassured me Your actions thus far have inspired me My only desire now is to love you eternally To make you happy and make you my world To take care of you and your daughters, makes three To never let anyone of you down, that is your gift from me To love you forever and always til fate takes me this is my promise to thee for eternity I'll not let you down as long as u love me
Meeting Guys
I met a great guy today. He was funny. Smart. Real. A beautiful soul. We talked for two hours About anything and everything.  We made each other smile. But I knew my time with him was limited. He told me he met someone last week that he wants to give a chance to. He said nothing in life and relationships have guarantees. Could he fall in lov e with her? He isn't sure. He is only sure he wants to give their relationship a try. I hope it works out for him. I just can't help but wonder what would have happened if he met me first. But somehow, I always seem to be a day late and a dollar short. I won't interefere. It isn't my style. I'm sure we will remain friends. He's good that way. As I said, a beautiful soul. I hope there's more like him out there.
Be My Lover! Fill Out & Send To Email
BASICS: Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair (colour and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: ------------ ------------ ------------ OTHER: 1. Where would we go on dates? 2. Who are three (or more) of your favourite bands/artists? 3. Do you drink/smoke?? 4. Do you like the rain? 5. If so...would you play in it with me? 6. Do you like movies? 7. If so, would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? 9. Would you kiss me often? 10. Do you play an instrument? 11. If so...what? 12. Would you be waiting by the phone wanting me to call you right after we saw each other ? 13. How would you rate your hugs from 1-10? 14. Favorite body part on a girl? 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, slut,pimp)? 17. Would you give me kisses just because? ------------ ------------ -------
Animals And Zombie Contagions
Here is what will happen. Animals can and will contract the contagion.There minds don't work like ours and they will attack and kill whatever they can take down even members of there own species. This will be very dangerous for humans..Animals like tigers and big cats,dogs can all out run a human on foot. The best way to deal with this is a sharp eye and quick hand at the trigger of a gun. If you see an infected animal and are on foot get into a shelter as soon as possible and try to find a way to kill it..Remember all this information is meant to save your life in a zombie outbreak.More to come when information is available.
All In Or All Out
All in or all out (my problem) Category: Blogging All in or all out.....I can never find a place in between. I've tried and it never works....I end up all out. When I find myself in the middle, I get restless....dont very much like being in the gray zone. Will it be? Will it not? Maybe I expect to much, maybe I expect to get what efforts I put forth with the same understanding and energy of a common thought. I've always believed, that u get what u put out or it should end up that way, I wonder if I just expect it to be that way and maybe it just doesn't work in that fashion. If it doesn't, that would be a disappointment, because I don't know really how to change myself to accept the middle road. Patterns and routines of how we live our lives engrade inside us....can it be reprogrammed? This is the one area I doubt I is the Irish part of me.....oh us fucking Irish, lets have a beer, tell everyone we love them, get into fights for getting the wrong look, and spill our guts o
These Blessed Lips
A kissTouching my lips so softlyGently with passion and heartTremblingWishing for time to stand stillWishing it would last foreverBut beneath those lips lie Beneath those lips hide the same dark secretA need for salvationAnd a need to destroyWaiting for the moment to strikeWaiting until that final hourThese blessed gifts have haunted meMy entire life has them come and goEach one the sameAnd yet differ only in timeThe time it takes to tear me downThe time to feed on my very soulNow I sit wantingWanting that same kissThe embrace of the devilA touch from the crazedMy life in her handsAnother kiss of death
Lovers Lust #2
Lovers Lust 2~~~~~~~~~~~~Rebecca only had one love in life. The passion she had for him was unnerving.  She never felt the desire in her before for any other man.  His eyes always seemed to gaze deep into hers even when he wasn’t directly looking at her.  He sometimes didn’t even take notice of her.  She wanted him.  She wanted his touch.  And most of all she wanted to have him call out her name.  His name was David.  David Harwell.  She would whisper his name in the dark, looking up at the stars.  She would look at the moon and see his face in the pale light.  By candle light she would look at his picture and give it soft kisses with her lips and after each kiss she would whisper “My love.”  Her love for David was not a romantic one.  She didn’t have dreams of a home by the lake and children in the yard.  Her love for him was carnal, lustful, untamed.  One could almost say it was dangerous.  She would lay naked in bed and her hands would slid down her bod
Books, Didnt Mean For It To Turn Out That Way
Ah another day, another moment to realize how stuck in life i am at the moment.   Its odd ive never really felt that before. I always seem to have had some plan to get where i want to go. For the past few months ive think ive gotten the point where i just wanna keep going but not really head in any direcation in particular. I just wanna stay where i am and thats it. Time can feel free to stand still. That would be fine with me Ive gotten used to having to accomplish no goals, other than laundry and dishes. Ive gotten lazy, not in the body, in the mind. Every once in a while the occaisional fresh air topic or diane rhem guest on NPR will get my brain going, get the rusty gears in my head turning. (Yes i listen to NPR, and wait wait....dont tell me is one of my favorite shows) Speaking of exercising the mind, i have been reading more lately. In the past few weeks ive managed to knock a few books off my list. The Glass Castle  was a great read. In it the author recounts her childhood
The Zebra Test
You Are Original You're one of a kind, baby! The jury is still out on what kind though... You are creative, zany, and totally wild. You're all over the board, and having fun doing it! People may accuse you of being totally random... you just have your own way of doing things. You may go off in many different directions at once, but you always end up where you're supposed to be. The Zebra Test Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything
Wriiten By Gothic Cowboy To Me ( Such A Wonderful Man)
Indulge me if you willa glimpse withinas I ponder so many thingswithin the darkness of the nightwithin the silencebut always when I think of youthere is lightand a smilewhen I think back to your voiceyour laughsome small kindness youve shown mefor no gain except to make me feel your warmthor to show me where yoru turest beauty laysfor it lays withinwhile all others may coersce and attemptto gain your passion form withoutalways know that I endevour it from withinalways know that I see you as more than just an object of effectionbut a woman taken as a wholeas each day I see and learn more of youas each day my faith in myself is returnedas each moment my belief in a relationship is restored by the little things you dothe little ways you show mejust know that your heart is a fragile thing and I would never knowingly cause it harmThank you for helping to return my music to methank you for your gentlenessyour passionYour an amazing womanand each day I'm going to show you in word and deedhow
Rude Ppl
hmm does everyone get many rude ppl  on here if so  what too do i will tell you i will not put up with rudness its just not right  respect  beacuse i will tell you off iam 37 a mom  and very single i put up with alot of shit from my exhubby i will not put up with that shit  ok
Girl Problem
My friend likes this girl and he is having problems aproaching her. She dosent know that he likes her but she might have an idea. any tips?
Help My Good Friend She Needs Some Love
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From Melody To Fran To Nicholas To Peter ... To Me
Sixteen years ago …   Matthew 13:31-34                                                                                              February 13 91 days [to graduation]                   13 weeks                                      3 to intern! Margie Duncan                                                                                     9402.13   [Jesus] told them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and planted in his field.  Though it is the smallest of all your seeds, yet when it grows, it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and perch in its branches.” 31,32
I`ll Be Therefor You- Bon Jovi
ya right anymore,
Desecration Annihilation
For the women who have been beaten and bruisedfor those left hurting from all the abuse This is our standOur lifeblood No longer will we be pushed aroundNo longer will we be used We will not tolerate the hateWe will not let you make us feel this way To the men who hurt us to find releasethe men who bring us to our knees You're power is not found in the force of your handCausing me pain doesn't make you a man You mistook our love for weaknessOur trust for acceptance But that love has been removed for strengthAnd the trust turned to determination Your malevolance will not be toleratedOur offenses will be justified I will not sit here allowing you to hurt meI wont let you break me I am not weakI will not go down quietlyEven if I dieStill you will not own me You can't take my lifeIt's mine to liveMy heart and soulThey are mine to give
Me Singing!!
Family Tradition By Senses Fail
I tried to be the one that everybody loved Where has that gotten me? I tear myself to shreds to prove that I'm someone That I could never be Now these unsightly marks define me So help me, please someone come quick I think I am losing it Forgive me, I inherited this From a stranger I'll never miss... I'm sick. My father taught me first hand how to be set free Give up and runaway I wish I could drain out his half of blood in me But I'd still have his face I curse reflections, everyday So help me, please someone come quick I think I am losing it Forgive me, I inherited this From a stranger I'll never miss... Here is my own family tradition Following footsteps into addiction So is there a way that I can find peace While still numbing my pain Is this my fate? Cause your only son still can't seem to find his way So help me, please someone come quick I think I am losing it Forgive me, I inherited this From a stranger I'll never miss. So father where the hell are you now? I think that you wou
Poem Of The Day...021910
Last night my slumber was peaceful Across the world some were not This breaks my heart No child, woman or man Should ever sleep in fear.
Dreams I Have A Lot More Now Then Before:
Does anyone have a dream of skinning people and decorating their house with all skin and body parts and such? I do a lot. Could it be because of all the hate I have built up inside of me from past things? I honestly find horror movies or pain and torture to be exciting like porn is to others.
Poem Of The Day...022110
Sleep doesn't come When it does It's like thunder and lightning Nightmares flash Tears fall Morning can't come too fast.
In Memory Of Buddy
I remember when i first got you you had no self e-steem had your head hanging down and was hiding under a table scared...i knew that we had a special bond...  after i got you home and told you everything would be ok i could see the life comeing back in you. i remember the endless nights where i would just set up and talk to you even tho you couldn't talk back i knew u listen. i remember all the good times we had the walks at the park when i asked u if u wanted to go bye bye u would bark and carry on until we went. i remember the trips we took to tennessee and just to see u sit so pretty in the passenger seat was priceless. i miss the way we played i miss the way u made me feel i miss your comfort i knew even after a long day at been at school or at work i could come home and you would be waiting on me... no matter  how late it was.. i remember everytime i was leaving the house u wanted to go with me no matter where i was going... i miss your bark your grawl when we played i miss the wa
Who Wants To Own Me???
Hey Everyone!! Evil, Wicked, Sweet, and Naughty (the bestest friend in the world!!!  Love you xoxoxxx  Mwah!) is hosting an auction featuring little ol' me!! You can bid to own my AZZ!!  Even if you can't bid drop by and vote on my pic.  The contestant with the most pic rates (not comments) wins!!!!! Tell you friends and Fam!!!  They'll have to add her because its NSFW.  (But she's more than worth it to have as a friend!!) Love Ya!!! xoxoxxx
It's A Date To Call Me Ishmael
Ten years ago …   The Dawn of ’66 came not with a bang but a whimper.  Protests come and go to our minds, but not our hearts or out of our mouths.  What have I got to say to people, especially the pious, who are sick and unforgiving?  As unforgiving and afraid as I am …   How the Antichrist comes to power in the Left Behind series is so obvious yet so unexpected, no wonder millions of people will be deceived by him!  I pray not to be here when he does, and also not to be so afraid.  Lately whenever Pamela and I have talked to each other, somewhere in there she apologizes for being no negative.  Well, I’ve been under a cloud of gloom for a while too, and it’s nasty.  Truthfully, aren’t I afraid sometimes to say what I’m thinking?  That is bad thinking when what I’m withholding will edify others or lead them to edification, becoming more Christlike.  (Why is that so hard for me to say?  I’m not in danger of getting killed for it
Poem Of The Day...
The moon glistens through the clouds A million tiny stars reflects the moon glow on the fresh snow.
TrippinThe silent whispers that surround meNoone seems to hearThey come from all directionsBut none are really clearA room full of peopleall eyes are on meAs the whispers become louderI put my hands over my earsThe noise is making me psychoticIts deafening to hearThe whispers turn to laughteras they watch me squirm and sweatPerspiration drips from my browmy shirt begins to stickMy stomach is turning, feeling emptyLike a bottomless pitMy legs are getting weakerI feel like I could fallThe only thing preventing thatIs leaning against this spiked wallMy body is vibratingfrom the core to my fingertipsI feel so damn thirstyas I constantly lick my lipsPeople brushing by me seem to stop and stareThey smirk at me and chuckleThen they suddenly disappearMy eyes are feeling heavythe lids pulled down by weightsI just want to rest, I want to sleepI want to go and dreamOf puffy clouds and pretty colorsAnd purple flowing streamsI want to collapse my bodyGo and find a floor to lay downAnd shut out the
Poem Of The Day...030110
Go beyond dreams Go beyond pains Go beyond stress Only then will you be free.
When my heart tears flow...The sadness overcomes me...For everytime you say goodbye... a piece of me is denied....I break off little by little...till there is nothing left....If only you could see the place I have for you in my would never leave....An the only thing I would know.. is J.E.Bischoff
Read today’s title from top to bottom, and you’ll see the screen for bowling at our nephew Patrick’s birthday party this past Saturday night!  First bowled Martha, then me (David), then Margaret, then Dad (Martha’s dad Robert), then Mary, and then Chuck a friend of Margaret’s on lane 33.  It occurred to me that’s probably a Roman numeral, but you’d have to break it up into three numerals; so M equals one thousand, D equals five hundred, and C equals one hundred.  If you can get an easier handle on today’s title by calling it “fifteen hundred, fifteen hundred, eleven hundred” then go for it!  It sounds like a Borges short story when I do, though.   Everybody got to play two games and in my first I actually bowled three strikes.  Several others kids were having their birthday parties at North Hill Bowl as well, so all the neon lights are flashing and it almost looks like a discotheque.  Music videos are playing as background (
When every candle has burned outAnd all the dreams have endedWhere are you?I'm searching through long past daysAnd all the memories that remainfrom what it wasEvery day it was me and youAll night, so empty nowGive me the answer tell me howI am still longingAs the storm drives a seaAs the sun goes downAnd never waked up moreBut we will love each otherAs the waves caressing a beachAnd whisper your nameMinutes turns to long yearsAnd if your time is heavy and difficultThen I will be hereI'd sacrifice everything I haveIf you could stay hereAnd believe in meWithin me the fire still burnsAnd it will burn for a long timeSo look at meI want to be with youI can wait an eternityIf I know that you come to meI swearI will always be here
The Man Who Loves Me
One of my deepest, most dreaded fears has always been that I would never know what it is to be genuinely loved by a good man. It is something I’ve thought about often and written about several times. As I aged, I had become more certain that it would be a fear that would be realized; and that I would die without experiencing being the recipient of real, deep, true love from a man. I have recently realized that this fear of mine is no longer valid.   He has only spoken those words to me twice that I remember; and once he wrote them -- in the card he gave me for my 50 th birthday. Not a flowery, mushy card either. It was a funny card, just like I’d expect. Yet, without speaking a word, he says “I love you” every single day. He doesn’t just say it, he lives it.   He makes me laugh. I’ve never laughed so much in my life as I have since I’ve known him. We make each other laugh until I cry AND wet my pants.   He found out that I love to cook an
Fun Stuff
I'm a gadget guru and fan of desk toys, office toys, and all geek stuff!" Office Toys Geek Shirts Unique Gifts
I Really Need To Start Titling These
follow me into the mouth of darkness leave the world of the suns buning light and I shall lead you into the night follow me and exit this place then your life shall be reveald and you and your true form shall meet face to face follow me into the night to find the truth under the eclips of the moon abandon hearing smelling fealing and sight followme into the night
How Do I Know I Love You?
How do I know I love you?Even though we're far apartYou'll always be here in my heart.Through the thick and thin we've been throughYou know I'll always be with you.As you hold me in your armsAnd also tease me with your charms,I know you'll always comfort me,And that is how I want to be,In a paradise for two,That's how I know I love you!
Hopefully you read his before reading any of my blogs. Any poetry posted here is written by me and only me. All is copyrighted and some is even published so you take my'll be fkn sorry. If you do read, please at least leave a rate, youre on the damn page anyway! And comments are always very much appreciated so thankyou in advance for them. Most of my writing, as demented as it is, comes from somewhere deep. But interpretation is different for all and I use alot of sybolism so what you read isnt always about what is on the page. Just so ya know, Im not some depressed sad woman who was done wrong lol...I just write that way and it works for me and it makes for more interesting reading. I think most can write a sappy love poem but take a demon and a noose and make a poem out of it....hell thats alot more interesting if ya ask me!! So please read and enjoy and thankyou. Java
Lost means loosing your mindLost is when you become a stranger in your life Lost is when you can't tell the difference between black and whiteLost is when day looks just like nightLost is when you can't remember the person staring back at you in the mirrorLost is when you don't know if you are a boy or a girlLost is when your room looks like a whole new worldLost is when you can't recognize your own familyLost is when you can't tell what is an illusion and what is realLost is when you're scared and lonelyLost is how i feel
Good Guy, Bad Guy
Do women like good guys or bad guys, or it depends on the women and the guys.
If It Ain't Broke, Don't Fix It!
fubar was perfectly fine, why so many changes?
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there were one set of footprints This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints. So I said to the Lord, 'You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there have only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why? when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?' The Lord replied, 'The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you. MY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY MEMBERS WHO ARE NO LONGER HERE WITH US IN A PHYSICAL FORM, KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH! I WILL ALWAYS HAVE PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU!
One Last Breath By Creed
ONE LAST BREATH by CREED Please come loveI think I'm fallingHolding on to all I think is safeIt seems I've found the road to no whereAnd i'm trying to escapeI yelled back when I heard thunderBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me say...Hold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far downI'm lookin downNow that its overReflecting on all of my mistakesI thought I found the road to somewhereSomewhere in His graceI cried outHeaven save meBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me sayLet me say..Hold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far down(repeat)I'm so far downSad eyes follow meWell I still believe there's something there for meSo please come stay with meCause I still believe there's something left for you and an and meHold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinHold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far down....Please come nowI thi
The Bogged Down Man
Late at night When the moon is right And the dogs are out, You will find me in the moors. I'll be in the mud With a stick in my hand Waiting, for the bogged down man. He was old with grey hair, He had a hunchback suit, With light blue and yellow stripes. His teeth were old and yellow, His eyes were brown, His skin was red, white, black, and blue. His skin was peeling, His hair was falling out. Who was he? I'll tell you. The Bogged Down Man. The clock struck midnight. The fog rolled in. The body began to rise. It sat up with a jerk. It stood with a groan. With a glare he eyed my soul. Forward he marched The mud and flesh dripping off with each step. My blood rose high, My body grew cold. I was praying for day. Closer and closer he crept. Farther and farther i lept. With the flesh having fallen off The blood ran down its hands. Till nothing was left, but the bone. The hand reached forward And death scratched my soul. I looked to the face for recognitio
Who Am I???
Even though I am 1crazyfcker I was given a name a long time ago and that name is Will. I'm a 38 yr. old full time daddy and it has been just David and I since he was 6 months old (he is 7 yrs old now). My entire world has revolved around David and it forever will, and I made a promise to myself when I became a full time single daddy that I would remain single and not allow a bunch of different women to come in and out of David's life causing him further unnecessary hurt and confusion. I have even stayed out of any sexual relationships so as not to break that promise and until fairly recently had done so 110%. David is a special little boy and has needed and demanded so much of me that I have been unable to have any social life at all so I decided to join FUBAR when a buddy told me about it just for the social interaction and outlet. I wasn't looking for a "hook-up", or relationship or anything intimate with ANYBODY. Then one day I went into this lounge (as music is one of my biggest pa
  As days go by and the nights grow dark and weary my heart sinks with the sadness that seems to want to consume me.  The tears want to fall from the darkness surrounding the pupils of my eyes.  When the tears fall a waterfall they will become without an end to the dreariness that my heart feels inside. There is an emptiness that seems to hide away in the shadows of a Fallen Angel.  Life is like a star that twinkles and slowly fades away to evaporate into the universe.  Life is short for those that live however even shorter for one that will never breath upon birth.  People take the breath given and take it for granted but innocence robbed before it can have a chance.  Self centered and self consumed people seem to forget that they are not the only ones that hurt, feel pain, cry, care or even love.  Relationships that seem to fade with each blossoming of the roses that fill a room of scents unknown.  Changing for everyone around you to become who you may never have been meant to be. 
Naughty Application
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s) 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Three sum? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Do you like fore play? 23. What is fore play to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
Twisted Reality
For my X~wife started December 11, 2007 finished January 27, 2008   Before you become interested in me. You might want to search your darkest fears. There you will see death. You will be looking at me.Your soul is the only thing that I do lack. When your life ends, trust me, I will not slack. When I retrieve your soul I will just be taking it back.   It was just for you on loan. Time for it to come back home. Cant have it wandering aimlessly, cant let it roam. Not like you, that mindless drone. Careful where you go, you wandering to close to my zone. Turn away and leave, this I dont condone. Stay away from me, I will show you true reality.   You come near me, your throat I will slit. Your blood on my face, it will spit. The look in your eyes , it will make you shit. Your soul when I do pull, that wasted life becoming eternally dull. Your life, pety and pathetic. You fucking make me sick. Your wasted soul from your chest, cant wait to rip. Your life soon, I will strip Your time,
Listen Closely
Listen Closely,Stand still for one moment'.Can you hear me?When I whisper your name at night starring into the stars,Do you feel a cold chill come over you?Do you feel me like I feel you?Do you long for my tender kisses for that soft gentle touch?Or am I just delusional in this madness I once thought was love?When I pray, do you feel the power of love I am sending?When I cry, do you feel the pain I am feeling?Every time you turn me away, do you know how I hurt, do you even care?Do you ever sit alone and wonder what things might have been like together?I am at war with myself every day, telling myself why I should forget you, why I should let go, how foolish I am for hanging on'Nothing seems to work. I have tried making myself hate you, to not care'I have reminisced the past, and even dwelled on all the bad memories, all the horrible words we have shared together trying to convince my self you are the enemy,So many times I see you in my dreams’ and I am sure to see you tonight.The
-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s -- Not "Found in Old St. Paul's Church"! -- see below Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especi
I Am 63 And I Am Tired!
This sums it up completely! My sentiments exactly !!! "I'm 63 and Im Tired" by Robert A. Hall I'm 63. Except for one semester in college when jobs were scarce and a six-month period when I was between jobs, but job-hunting every day, I've worked, hard, since I was 18. Despite some health challenges, I still put in 50-hour weeks, and haven't called in sick in seven or eight years. I make a good salary, but I didn't inherit my job or my income, and I worked to get where I am. Given the economy, there's no retirement in sight, and I'm tired. Very tired. I'm tired of being told that I have to "spread the wealth" to people who don't have my work ethic. I'm tired of being told the government will take the money I earned, by force if necessary, and give it to people too lazy to earn it. I'm tired of being told that I have to pay more taxes to "keep people in their homes." Sure, if they lost their jobs or got sick, I'm willing to help. But if they bought McMansions at three times the price of
My boyfriend hinted at getting me a ring for our 2 year anniversary, 9/11/10. That would be extremely exciting and amazing.
And On The 7th Day God Said Thou Shalt Exploit Thy Neighbor
Life is all about exploitation,  give what you have to and take all you can.  no human encounter or relationship will ever deviate from this ideal.  you stay in a commited relationship only for what you can take from the other person.  only for what that person is willing to give you.  when there is nothing left worth taking you walk out and find a new pet to take all your needs from.  humans are selfish manipulative creatures.  and yes i said creatures.  no matter what you think it will not change that fact.  we are the only creature not interested in any natural law.  survival of the fittest has become survival of the fattest,  minority is now majority.  and sex still remains a dirty little secret. every body has it everybody wants it,  and we all want to talk about it but SHHHHHH its a secret.  dont let anyone see or hear you might offend your neighbor who uses sex to produce the maximum allowable spawns to collect the maximum amount of public aid.  we work hard and play harder just
Twice? What is your problem?  Should I charge any kind of fugifts including fubucks NEVER to show my moobs?  A. Try it B. Are you stupid?
The Dark Lady
He screamed again. Not that it mattered; the only one who could hear him watched as blood shot out of his aeortic artery at a frighteningly fast pace. Within mere seconds he was dead, floating face down in the bathtub, filled with his own blood. A cat walked up and rubbed herself against the killer. "Yes, he was good company; for a while at least." The woman pointed her finger, and the body disappeared entirely. Disrobing herself, the woman climbed into the bathtub nude, and gave a moan of pleasure. Pointing her fingers again, this time at some candles nearby, they sprang to life one at a time. "A wonderful thing, that paralyzing poison. Tasteless, odorless, and just a dab in some wine leaves them helpless." The cat purred as she reached over and stroked its' back, talking to it some more. "He was quite gifted sexually, but alas, so boring after a while, like they all are. The woman sunk a little lower into her bath of crimson water, relaxing as she hadn't done in weeks. Killing qui
Bob Marley
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. she loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human & making mistakes, hold onto her & give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, &miss her when she's not there. " -Bob Marley
Mans Best Friend
I love animals...if u go to someone's house and their animals do not like u its a big flag to me.......on the news a man house was on fire. he told his dog to get help....the dog ran down the dtreet and found the police and brought them back to save the day. now if thats not amazing i dont know what is.......does anyone else have any animal marval stories? or r u just like to me tell me what u think....asta!
Sean Penn
I really cant believe this man! what an exemplary human being...others talk the talk sean, walks the walk! ive always been a fan...but in recent years my resspect has grown to an unimaginary levele...while other "famoudpeople" adopt a child here and there to "help" Sean goes and save lives!  if u want to help ...adption a child from troubled countries is just a drop in the bucket! if u want to adopt...try the millions of children right here in the US! if u want to help...I mean really help ...follow Seah Penn's example......much love and respect will be plessed in the afterlife! more like this man? we would be lucky tohave i more in the Famouse category doing somthing other than talkin. it almost brings me to tears just how full of BS most of them are. And we, the american public, put them on pedistals and almost worship them...please! put your respect and worship where it belongs! Place that respect and support in people like this man!
For You My Love
You walk up and sit down next to me. Lean in and whisper in my ear Your hand in my lap, feeling my cock as it is getting bigger in your hand. Reaching up, you undo my belt and unbutton my jeans. Pulling you closer , my hand sliding between your thighs. The heat from your pussy i can feel from beneath your clothes.Your hand now down my pants. My cock between your fingers. Moving your hand up and down over my cock. My fingers slipping in between your hot swollen lips. Your wet juices all over my hand, your sweetness I can smell. A smell so very intoxicating. Pulling out our hands, you push me to the back of the booth. You bring your legs over mine. You grab my cock and slowly guide me inside of you. Your hot, wet, pussy.Pulling my in to your chest as you carefully ease yourself down upon me. Undoing your shirt with my teeth, spitting the buttons across the table. Sliding my hands up the back of your shirt, undoing the snaps of your bra. Your Beautiful breasts fall from underneath. My ton
New Account...........need Leveled
_I really am not happy with the fu right now, I have an account and have had it since 2007.  I get locked out of it, I try to message support and nothing I do works.  So I emailed them and have not heard back yet.  So Here I am had to make a NEW account so I can try to get my OTHER one back.............So please, have it in your hearts and help me BACK up through the ranks please.
No One Love Me:(
Am I the only person on Fubar that hasn't gotten fu-married?
At Last I Am Here
At last I am here, standing naked before you. We look into each other's eyes. I was hard in the car as I drove here alone, hard before we got to the room, and it's painful now - I'm dying for you to touch me, dying to be inside you. Yet we stand still, looking at each other's nakedness, taking in the reality and savouring the thought that we will soon be making love. I close my eyes and smile in pleasure at the thought. You, meanwhile, sink to your knees, and I instantly feel your hot mouth around my cock, your hands on my balls. 'Oh, God... oh God...' You squeeze my buttocks and pull me deeper inside you, looking up into my eyes as you do so. Unexpectedly, because of the sheer bliss of the moment, I feel the cum welling up, feel the orgasm immediately begin to blossom. I let it move upward with each cycle, from stage to stage, closer and closer to the point of no return with every thrust into you... one more and I'll be there... impossibly I pull away from you at the last moment and t
Beared From Noble Blood
  Beared from noble blood in the realm of ancient Targe. My father and Mother, King and Queen of all they survey. My lineage traces back, over eons of nobility. I was taught in the arts of elegance and grace. One day my place would have been on the throne. Except for a dark day in my families history that will forever dwell within the recesses of my mind. A night of pure horror and terror, as these beasts, the kinds that are told in fairy tales descended upon our kingdom. Mauling and murdering all in their wake, Our kinsmen tried in vain to repel the onslaught. My father and mother, the true rulers that they were, lead at the helm of the army. Both were slaughtered along with the remaining Defenders of ancient Targe.t AS I hid, still a young boy, the screams echoing in my ears, A mysterious masked figure entered my room. His voice almost a whisper on the wind, bidding me to come with him to safety. Almost as in a trance I followed him from the ruins that were now my kingdom. We snuck
Blood On My Shirt
I stare down in disbelief at the blood on My shirt. My eyes follow it slowly upward as it trickles down from the wounds in My neck. You can't believe you're still alive. Everything feels different; every sensation feels new. But above all these new and strange feelings rises a terrible thirst. One such as you have never known before. You feel a deep, pulsing need. I can hear... breathing... footsteps. I see a shadow out of the corner of your eye. Someone is walking through the alley, unaware of your presence. I must feed. Pay with the last of your human blood to transform... I lurk in the shadows, silently waiting for your prey to appear. Once she's in your sights, you leap in to strike. You don't hear her struggling or cries for help; I am only aware of the urge rising within Me. Suddenly, from the mist-filled alleys shapes begin to emerge and become clearer. As my eyes adjust, I begin to recognize familiar faces. Old friends who, i now realize, you haven't seen in daylight in a
Secret Secrets Are No Fun, Secret Secrets Hurt Someone.
10 things no one knows.. or, well, 10 random facts the general public can't learn about you from a google search & a quick facebook stalking session.   1) I own two Backstreet Boys cd's and i'm not ashamed to admit it, although I probably should be. 2) In high school I faked illness and missed a good portion of my first two years, on the brightside, I beat Final Fnatasy X more than once. 3) In my teenage years my bedroom was directly below my parents'. There are still times when watching Saturday Night Live makes me cringe, and not because of how bad it can be at times.   4) I think I ran over a cat once. :( Still hoping it was a skunk, or that it lived. 5) I pick fights just to argue. Playing Devil's Advocate is a hobby of mine. 6) While it has only once worked successfully, or never depending on who you ask, I consider myself a girlfriend-stealer. 7) I hate cheap booze. Can't stand the taste. Fuck Admiral Nelson. 8) I want to own a llama. 9) My hairline is th
More Then Life As We Know It
Even the broken wings that won't let you fly will not keep you from the sky....The soul is meant for higher you don't need a pair of wings....Hope and faith is what keeps you together...even through life's stormy weather...Family and friends will lift you helping you and blessing you with so much J.E.Bischoff
you know you life sucks when you realise that your friends only have you around when you have money.  now i dont believe this is intentional at all it just sucks
Fuck That Shit (for All The Haters Out There)
Dont try to tell me how to talk or how to live my life   Fuck that shit, fuck that shit   Everytime I'm right, a little part of you dies   Fuck That Shit, fuck That shit   should I ever be pardoned for crossing the line   fuck that shit, fuck that shit   it was made for those that cant think for themselvesfuck that shit, fuck that shit       DIE! A little part of you   DIE! a little part of youDIE! a little part of youDIE a little part of you       You keep judging my prescence never what I think(fuck that shit, fuck that shit)I'm just another maggot in your world of hate(fuck that shit, fuck that shit)You try to play god, you try to fuck me in the ass(fuck that shit, fuck that shit)consequence-- I'll fucking shoot you in the head(fuck that shit, fuck that shit)DIE! a little part of youDIE! a little part of youDIE! a little part of youDIE! a little part of youREVOLT-- ITS REVOLUTION!BRING OUT THE GUILLOTINE!REVOLT-- ITS A FINAL SOLUTIONBRING OUT THE GUILLOTINE
I Will Try
I will try not to make this whiny.  How many people have blocked you, yet still HAD to comment on your mumms or blogs?
Legal Vs. Illegal Murder (an Argument For The Death Penalty)
I guess I should open this up with an explanation of where everything stems from. This semester, I took Philosophy Ethics (Understanding Right and Wrong). We have debated everything from ecology to racism to abortion to capital punishment. As the semester was getting closer to being over, I chose Capital Punishment as my topic for my final paper. I made this decision over a month ago. At the time, a friend of mine was trying to get her 1,000 vote mumm. Considering I was already studying the death Penalty, I decided to write her mumm for her based on Capital Punishment and Lethal Injection. Although she did not get her 1,000 votes, the mumm was surprisingly successful with the mummers, who generally detest the mumms of the point whores. After days of debate, argument, and highly intelligent conversation, the mumm finally wound down, and things lay dormant. Now I have revisited that mumm to gather my thoughts on the paper I must write. Although I am keeping my quotes from t
Judging People
It makes me sick when someone see's a hot guy/girl and automatically want sex with them why cant people go by what's in the heart?  THATS WHAT COUNTS!!!      
Ok People Its My Happyhour Now And Only 700k To Level! Compe Rate As Much As U Can Plz
The Pasture Test
You Are Flexible You believe that wherever you go, there you are. And you are able to be anywhere. You can easily adapt to changing situations - in fact, you think a little change does you good. You are incredibly observant, and because of this, you are very wise. You have an impressive memory. You are a very visual person. You never forget a face or a scene. The Pasture Test Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!
Memorial Day
memorial day comments and graphics
Masters Cock
        Me and Master where all alone. I just got done with the dishes, he was watching tv and I was in a very horny mood so I decided to surprise him by doing the one thing I know he loves me doing to him. So I got on my hands and knees and slowly crawled to him with my ass in the air like a horny cat does. When I noticed that he had his eyes closed I smiled and went a little faster to his lap. When I was in between his legs I slowly unbuckle his belt and undo his pants. I slowly pulled his cock out. Smiling I get up a little where my ass is in the air, I slowly pop the head of his cock in my mouth and softly suck on it.        I slowly look up at his face and noticed he was watching me from under his lashes. I knew then he was going to watch me and not stop me. So smiling I started to put more in my mouth to where I have all of it in my mouth. But instead of going back up I start to suck on him to make sure he was good and hard before I slowly go up. But I stop every few inches to su
Have A Good Weekend
have a good weekend and check out my cousin,
A Blast From The Past
A trucker who had been out on the road for three straight weeks stopped at a brothel outside Vegas. He walked straight up to the Madam, plopped down $500.00 and said, "I want your ugliest woman and a bologna sandwich"   The Madam was astonished. She said, "OK, sir, but do you know that for that kind of money you could have two of my finest ladies, plus a three-course meal??" The trucker replied, "Listen, sweetie. I ain't horny....I'm homesick!"  
This Blog Thing Is Not Working For Me, And I Have To Add Them To My Page """ !!!!
There are so many REAL people on this site, should I cut my time on fubar, to weed out the fakes, or figure that is the way it is!  No fu-icide for me!
The Morning After Reality
The Morning After Reality Can someone in all honesty fall in love with someone and know that in their heart and in there mind that it will never happen.  Can two souls be so alike..being in total synchronicity with one another ..knowing that just a single kiss could ruin this. Why do complications of the heart always fog the better of ones judgment .. is it the lack or reason or thought .. can love have purpose other then just the common thread that we all see it as .. Why can loving someone have such larger meaning and devotion yet cant.  What is truly love.. a thought or a concept of what happiness is.  When does happiness become love, just the simple questions one never thinks yet alone asks.
I'm A Fish Ya Know
Lets101 - Free Online Dating Network
Do you enjoy fucking with people's heads?  I do!
Love And Lonelyness
most people look for love at some point in there lives,most never find true love so they settle for something less,and most of those people are sad alot and some,s relationships are full of i dont like drama and fake ass people or until i find that dream girl i guess ill be a lonely old fool.
Ensign: On This Journey
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 1 July 2010 At church Sunday, Pastor Gerald made an interesting distinction between taking a trip and taking a journey in regard to being a follower of Jesus. It’s easy for many of us, I expect, to hear Him call “follow Me” and not immediately be able to drop everything that we think is important to us (or really IS important to us). But were Peter, Matthew, and the rest – YES, even Judas – necessarily any busier than you or I are now, or do the tools we use and the people and priorities in our lives just have different names? In most dictionaries, “trip” and “journey” in the sense of travel from point a to point b are synonymous, but when we enter the gospel it takes on a new dimension. Since my family and I just got back from a “trip&
You Knw What U Chicks Need To Stop Tearing Eachother Down Its Not Worth We Should Be Supporting Each Other .... Js Its Gotta Stop
Are U Following Me On Twitter? are u following?
Politics And Fucking
Are politics and fucking basically synonomous terms?
I Think I'm God's Gift Of All Women Because I Cheap On My Wife.
Secret Love...
Every day he go's there. To see her. she doesn't notice him though, just another face in a faceless crowd. She smiles and greets him, but he knows it is all forced. Her job requires it. But he imagines what it would be like, to hold her hand, walk down the streets while talking about nothing. He even goes so far as to write her a note. But he doesn't give it to her, instead he orders coffee and leaves. For weeks it goes on. Then one day he goes to get his coffee, and she is not there. Disappointed he leaves without it. He goes back the next day thinking maybe she just had a day off. But she is still gone. Then he asks about her. They tell him she got married. So she quit her job here to move away. Now he is alone, with a cold cup of joe, and regrets of a life he will never have. So he walks out of the coffe shop and into the rain thinking of the girl whom he will never have a chance to love...To love someone secretly can sometimes be as painful as loving someone whom does not love you
Its All The Same
Have U Ever Felt Like This?
lol i know sorry im a nerd i still love olds skool brit haha
Friendshipheart From Mark
How Great Is Our God...
we put up shock strips on our entry bars was hilarious watching people run the gates into the community and have their car die instantly.  then watch p.d arrest them for trespassing and attempted vehicular manslaughter.  sooooooooo   much fun!!!! lol. today was a good day, and there still more fun shit to
Farm Stand By Lizz Tayler
I think it was something about the way she looked when she drove her truck.I'm not going to lie and say that it wasn't also her strong shoulders, the way she exuded confidence or the way she made butterflies flutter in my stomach at the mere mention of her name, but it was definitely the sexy way she looked when she drove her truck that first made me look twice.Working at a farm stand isn't perk-free. You get to be outside for most of the day, there's no greasy fast food smell hanging on your skin that's pretty much a given if you work at a fast food chain like my best friend, Toni, or whiny kids and even whinier parents you find at the local pool where my other best friend, Chris, works. Sure, sometimes you get uppity yuppies rolling in from the suburbs who want to impress you with their knowledge of pesticides and "country living" but for the most part, you see the same faces week to week and mostly, they're happy to see you and whatever's been hauled into the stand.Hauling isn't rea
So Just Wondering
I found out that my ex husband put up some pretty raunchy pics of me - without permission, of course, and he had also told me these pics had been destroyed (LIAR!).  So I was wondering if anyone would be interested in seeing the pics I have of him and his - and his equipment, such as it is.  Not to be mean, but I'm pretty sure he might not be too happy if I were to play the same stupid game he's playing. But yeah - I have pics!  Wanna see?  Just let me know.
not much happening other than a resident calling in a break in.  turns out that the H.O.A  disapproved of a tree they had planted in their front yard.  while they were all at work the H.O.A had gardeners come in and remove it.  these people could get it through their thick ass stuck up skulls that no one wanted them to plant the tree in a public part of the community, lol.  I'm begging to see how much lots of wealth can change a person from being normal and intelligent to a complete and total dumbass.  go figure aye...  BTW, H.O.A stands for Home Owners Association.
The morning sun shines  as the sky warms up like a beating heart. The night time stars glow in the presence of  beauty, giving a spot light on whom most deserves it. The earth rotates only to move slowly, it seems to dance in circles. The ocean waves grace the shore, crashing upon the rocks. Energy in life is alive. The moon makes a trail to follow so nothing ever seems as scary........just for you.   If I take your hand will you dance with me? Let me move your body as if we have our own music. If I lean in to kiss you lips will you greet me half way? If I want to walk with you, go any where and see anything would you come? When you get tired, rest your head on my lap. I will be their when you awake. Still running my fingers through your hair.....just for you.  
November 2010, How Sweet It Is
Obama is in way over his head. Americans are starting to recognize this. Even the mainstream media seems to be catching on. He appeared to connect with people in his run for preisdent but has disconnected from the people. There is no longer a trust that he will do what the American people want. That he knows best, trust him. He was going to be the healer. Bring people together. He seems to demonize people. Say what you want about Bush, but he recognized that his enemies were overseas. The reason Americans will vote the Democrats out is that they will not allow any more thoughtless and unnecessary legislation to be passed. Like I have said before and will continue to do so......"if you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything!" Mainstream Americans are a very smart bunch, unlike what the dems would paint us as hillbillies! In the end, the hillbillies will win! So, make up my your heart of hearts do you wish for like it used to be?
You Ask Me
YOU ASKED ME You asked me if I loved youcame yes was my replybut with my tender heart I worryabout the tears in your eyesYou asked me if I still wanted youstill desired your loving touchmy reply was yes dearyou'll never know how muchYou asked me if I missed youwhen you're not at homeand without hesitation I repliedmy loneliness won't leave me aloneYou asked me if I could go onif we should ever partmy reply was to youit would surely break my heartYou asked me what I would doif my love you betrayedI told you in a whisperI'd just turn and walk awayYou asked me if I would believeif other's told me liesI told you I'd find the truthhiding in your eyesYou asked me if I'd tell youthat I'd fallen out of lovewith you with a nervous smile I repliedthat's something I'd never do.
They go to work come home and dont say anything to you and they head straight for the game.They  finally go to sleep and then they wake up the next day and do it all over again.They only pay attention to you when they want to.They think that being in the same room with you all day is spending time together,even when their back is turned to you the whole time. They only do things when they want and they refuse to do anything u want unless u beg and plead with them untill you feel  you have irratated them so you walk away, then they feel like they have to so they get ready,but by that time you dont want to because you feel as though you have upset them.When u ask them to watch a movie with you or lay with you, they say things like IN A MINUTE....but that minute never comes, or YEA..but they stay in the computer chair and only watch the movie from the side. You tell them your feelings and yet they just blow them away like they never even  mattered in the first place. You cry
The Sound Of Her Master's Voice: Chapter 2 Part 2
Heather felt a twinge deep within as she listened. She knew that something, some hint of what the BDSM “lifestyle” was about to come. And knowing that it was coming for some reason made her begin to get excited again. “We talked of the mundane in those first few weeks,” Kitty went on. “How are you? What about the weather? Would you like your usual? “Then things progressed after a while. He asked questions about me and my life, how I had ended up working at the lunch counter. I, in turn, began to ask about him. Found out how old he was, where he had grown up, where he went to school and college, and learned that he ran a small shipping business.” “Once the basics were out of the way our discussions began to revolve around service, or more to the point my need to serve.” She paused and sighed once more. “I knew that I wanted something more than what I had. I wanted something that felt greater than what I was doing, and he kne
Criteria For A Good Drug Rehab Center
Criteria for a Good Drug Rehab Center Addiction to drugs is already spread like a vicious disease and is still spreading. Many people of different age are falling victim to it specially people of the first world countries. There are the lives of millions of teenagers involved where they drug for the ‘feel good’ purpose and get into inseparable habit of drugging. This drug addiction comes in various forms, sometimes accidentally addicting to drugs and sometimes it is done intentionally. The effect of drugging is only harmful. Drug addiction is not a habit that can be stopped easily. It can be done at a Rehab center most effectively. There are all sorts of treatments at a good rehab center which puts you out of the habit slowly but surely. A good rehab center like ours is the best way out of the addiction and habit. Today drug addiction treatment is no more a problem. There are drug rehab centers like ours where a person is made to realize he is getting physic
There Once Was A Man From Nantucket...
There once was a fellow McSweeny Who spilled some gin on his weenie Just to be couth He added vermouth Then slipped his girlfriend a martini       There once was a man Robin Hood Who lived in a Knottingham wood He learned how to f**k from old Friar Tuck And made Marion whenever he could     There once was a fellow O'Doole Who found little red spots on his tool His Doctor a cynic said Get out of me clinic, And wipe off that lipstick you fool!   A randy marsupial named Reeves Spent some time with the whores 'tween their knees When they'd asked him for money He'd say "Listen honey A koala eats bushes and leaves."     There once was a man from East Kent Whose tool was so long that it bent To save her some trouble He folded it double And instead of coming...he went   A bear taking a dump asked a rabbit "Does shit stick to your fur as a habit?" "Of course not," said the hare, "It's really quite rare!" So the bear wiped his ass with the rabbit.       To his
There are a couple of positive things in my life right now, I have my 2 beautiful baby girls back with me and I know that they will be happy healthy and safe. I also have the most amazing boyfriend, he has been so supportive comforting caring and loving, although I had to move back home with my parents everything is going to work out. He has faith that things will be fine and that no matter what happens I will not lose him because of all the drama with my ex. I love you baby, you mean this world plus so much more to me and I wish that I could still be with you right now but I will see you again soon and I can't wait! I love everything about you and you make me so incredibly happy I can't even say it enough, without you I don't know what I would have done when I had to go to Va for court, even though you weren't with me you still tried to comfort me over the phone. I miss you every minute that we are apart but when I do get to see you it will be utterly amazing, I miss your kisses and s
     If you were expecting someone perfect,  you  picked the wrong girl. Go buy a damn barbie!     
On Eagles Wings
On Eagles Wings Written by Michael Joncas Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk and not faint."         Refrain And He will raise you up on eagle's wings, Bear you on the breath of dawn, Make you to shine like the sun, And hold you in the palm of His Hand. Refrain And He will raise you up on eagle's wings, Bear you on the breath of dawn, Make you to shine like the sun, And hold you in the palm of His Hand. Refrain And He will raise you up on eagle's wings, Bear you on the breath of dawn
Dear Children,
I know you did not ask to be brought into this world, but having you in my life is a blessing that is beyond any other.  You are a reason to laugh, to love, to live life.  You are my babies, my angels, my best friends, and always will be.  I know this is not a perfect world.  There are many things that are wrong.  There are also many things that are good.  You will scrape your knees, you will cry, and you will fall.  I will be there to kiss things better, wipe away your tears, and help you to stand again.  You will have hurt feelings, broken hearts, and days that you feel nothing is right.  I will be there to hold you, to hug you, and to let you know that there will be brighter days.  You will hate me, you will curse me, you will not speak to me.  I will love you always, no exceptions. I will yell, I will scold, and I will get upset.  I am not perfect.  I will make mistakes.  I will love you always, no exceptions.  I will teach you, I will learn from you.  Each day will be
I Am A Rotund, Less Than Average Looking Fellow
therefore, is ugly is as ugly does?
Condoms Lol
A girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time. Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. The pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex. At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he'd like to buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all. That night, the boy shows up at the girl's parents house and meets his girlfriend at the door. "Oh, I'm so excited for you to meet my parents, come on in!" The boy goes inside and is taken to the dinner table where the girl's parents are seated. The boy quickly offers to say grace and bows his head. A minute
To Someone Special
My About Me
I use to be a daydreaming girl...always in love, always optimist and a pure believer in dreams...then some mother fucker woke me up and showed me that life is shit...people is shit and all the world is covered with shit! U know what?...I don't care! I'm still a believer, I still dream and I still think this world is fucking nice!! I am a sweet & generous senuses romantic Latin who love to smile. Independent open-minded outgoing social butterfly with a great sense of humor, fun loving person. I usually get along with most people. I try not to be rude as much as possible... but if you piss me off I can be a MAJOR BITCH. I try to have a positive out look on life at all times. So I guess you can say I’m an optimistic person. I believe in GOD and I believe that everything happens for a reason and everyone has a purpose in life. Forgive but never forget and never take a single second of life for granted its to short too waste. My friends are amazing I love them .. And
Liars In Church
Liars in ChurchThe Preacher finished the service one morning by saying,"Next Sunday, I am going to preach on the subject of liars.As a preparation for my sermon, I would like you all to read Mark 17."On the following Sunday, the preacher rose to begin.Looking out at the congregation he said:   "Last week I asked you all to read Mark 17.If you have read the chapter, please raise your hand."Nearly every hand in the congregation went up.Smiling, the preacher said, "You are the very people I want to talk to.Mark has only 16 chapters      
Friendship ~ None of that sissy shit.You will see no cute little smiley faces on this Just the stone cold truth of our friendship.When you are sad I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.When you are blue I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.When you smile I will know you are thinking of something that I would probably want to be involved in.When you are scared I will rag on you about it every chance I get until you're NOT.When you are worried I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining.When you are confused I will try to use only little words.When you are sick Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.When you fall I will laugh at your clumsy ass, but I'll help you up.This is my oath .... I pledge it to the end. 'Why?' you may ask because you are my friend.
::one Of The Best Feelings In The Word::
When a man appreciates you for who you are and makes you feel like a real, beautiful woman and not some ugly, disgusting nobody. I haven't felt this way in the longest time
Figuring Out What I'm Doing Wrong.
For the past 5 years, I’ve been in and out of relationships off and on. These relationships are either full blown ‘I love you’ affairs or just flings, too people just getting together and doing what animals do. While fun I found they are not providing me with any sort of deep fulfillment. Every single relationship has crashed and failed spectacularly. This last one takes the cake. More on that in a moment. In the past… I would try to put the blame on them. Rightfully, so ya know? They are the problem with my failure in love, not me. In a lot of ways, they were... pretty much every previous relationship I was in failed after the girl went off on a tangent and fucked some other guy. So this is a round-about way of saying I’ve been cheated on a lot. But why have I been cheated on? Why is it so easy to dismiss me for somebody else? Why have I not been worth it to these women that I choose to invest the best part of me into? Well part of the reason is that
It's Snow Joke
Despite how much I love it when it snows (I've only ever seen snow four times in my life now), it doesn't love me. In fact, it's very dangerous for me.   When I was barely old enough to walk, I was put on growth hormone treatment that continued til I was almost 7. In my first year of proper school (not pre-school) I was still only the size of a toddler, which was the cause of much ridicule as you can image. My hormone treatment regime ended rather abruptly when the NHS suddenly withdrew the treatment without prior notice, and they gave no official reason as to its withdrawal. I found out the reason when I was 15. It had some real nasty side-effects over long-term use. One of it's nastiest was that it interfered with the way your brain wires itself you many health issues from then on such as non-existant short-term and very little long term memory capabilities and affecting the way your body controls it's core temperature. Unfortunately I now suffer from both these aff
Rip Grandma Marie
Spiders Web
Spider's Web Your stench beckons the flies Black and souless you spin A huntress of the weak Depravity your weapon of choice Punish and humiliate the bringer's of pain Those men who wrung your heart so dry In those early years when you were still alive Whispers of love that proved empty and hollow Those words bit deeply and sucked you dry Now empty of all but pain Eyes still and cold you lay your webs Tempting and teasing the insects To suck the unweary as dry If only you understood the power you wield Your a souless womb Vomiting up your angry blackness From birth to death From life to this I've come to your feast of flies To hang in your spider's web
Wondering What I Will Be Like 50yrs From Now I Wonder What I Will Be Like 50yrs From Now.
       I wonder what I will be like 50yrs from now. I mean I look at my mom and grandma and I see how and know how long they been alive. And it dose make me wonder what I will be like when I reach their age.  Will I be like them or will be I different. Honestly I hope I will be different. Reason being I don't want to be like anyone but me. But another reason is well I don't what my future holds for me nobody does really. All I do know is that it will either make me or break me but it will make me stronger. But it does make me wonder about it sometimes. Will I do great things? Will I still be married to the same man? Or will I be with another? I honestly don't want to be married two or more times. I want to be married only once and grow old with the love of my life. Yes I know I think about this stuff to much. But if I didn't I wouldn't be human now would I? I mean will all think and wonder what we will be like from so many years from now.                                               
Open Political Forum For All Parties And Persons To Express Their Own Political Stories, Agendas Etc.
I'm a Conservative. I believe in balanced budgets and less government. My goals are to vote for those who best represent the Conservatism.
Corvette Owner Etiquette
Yes almost everyone would love to own one of America's most famous sports cars the Chevrolet Corvette . However like clothes some are just not made for  each individual to wear or look good in . After intensive study and research here are the results for those who and who shouldn't think of purchasing a Corvette .   1st Generation 1953 to 1962 These beautiful Vettes are for the true Auto Enthusiast who respects the history of this vehicle who is in their late 50's and up . 2nd Generation 1963 to 1967 These babies were sweet and by 1965 Big Blocks were being dropped into them , these models are for those in their mid 30's and up . 3rd Generation 1968 to 1982 These sexy fast rides are for guys and girls in their late 30's to early 50's . 4th Generation 1984 to 1996 5th Generation 1997 to 2004 6th Generation 2005 to present These last 3 generations are nice but these are for the the 20 somethings and for most part are disposable cars . ' If your in your mid 40's and up " No
Modern Philosopher
It was just another morning and I woke up feeling rightThough this particular day, I had an epiphanyPerhaps this life is not as golden as it seemsEventually the polish will wear and I will see things clearly. I grew up with a well-adjusted familyI was loved by all I made contact withSo the idea of an underlying dread is ludicrousThough I’ve never been sure of anything more than I do now.I realize now I’m on an islandDisconnected from the real worldI’d like to cross these waters to what I’ve missedBut it’s so much easier to stay planted where I am It’s just another sunny dayWith my epiphany I’ve had this morningI decided to open my diaryAnd sing to it all my thoughts This is not my usual way of speaking my mindI’m accustomed to being an open bookNow I don’t want to be given a single lookSo my feelings for the most part will remain with myself I realize now I’ve lived a lieDisconnected from realityI’d like to open my m
The Battle Must Be Won!
Butchering and slicing his way through the battlefield, my-lord Beloc  make's his way to his loathed enemy....the one that has hunted him and  his people almost to extinction....fighting hard and swiftly with his  brutal attack's on the enemies army,he finally reaches his targeted  prize . In the midst of the hard battle blazing around them their  sword's raise as their eye's meet once again,......Louwyn, his foe, has  taken his stance and has braced himself, for he know's from his previous  battle's with my-lord, this will be no easy task. Beloc slowly circles  Louwyn, tracing his step's before he land's his sword's first  strike....while in his mind's eye, his attack already reign's victor. In  a sudden wink, it has begun....muscle's tightened...teeth are clinched  as their sword's clash together in a mighty rage....bending and  twisting, they fight harder with each strike more powerful and mighty  then the one before. As I watch from the safety of the tower's...I see  the sign's of
Quote from a friend of mine: Who needs a man when I have my shower head and vibrator, they get the job done quickly or slowly, depending on my mood, and after I have had my orgasm, I can go read a book or watch television without a whiny voice asking for more. fucking true...

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