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Just my luck that it turns out my lease is up in November instead of Feb. So that gives me two months to get things figured out. Rich is the one who told me that while I was out of town and he tells me that I need to hurry up and find a place and get things packed, donated or whatever and he hasn't even done shit with his stuff. So why the hell tell me what to do?
I've already gotten some stuff taken care of. He still thinks I should take his car...fuck that..I'm not taking his stupid car payments so that he won't have another bill to worry about...a bill that he does poorly with. I'm going to have a lot more bills than him to pay for when I move out. He tells me not to worry about a car right now but a place to move to and whatever. Yeah that's something that was on my mind before but thought I would have more time instead of two months...the whole car thing is still on my mind since he fucked me over and it's like he's still trying to fuck me over. Well that's not going to happen.
I am happy that I can move out sooner than deal with him anymore but at the same time, it stresses me out cause time is running out. I'm hoping that I can get a one bedroom aparement where I'm at. He tells me it's about 625 a month here. Otherwise, I will have to look around next week and get more ideas. I have a couple places in mind but wouldn't want to move over in that area.
I'm going over to my parents house after work on Monday. Tell my mom about it all cause I hadn't had the chance to tell her yet. Dad knows already...just mom now.
Even with so and so not being home when I'm home, it's nice..but I see all his stuff here and things that remind me of him just...blah.. I don't want to see it. How nice is it that I come home and the kitchen is a mess that I spent time cleaning before I left town. The upstairs bathroom has all his shavings all over the skin and counters...AGAIN!!! I just cleaned that shit before I left too. How fucking hard is it to clean that up?
On my next days off, I'll be packing up things faster now...getting rid of stuff...looking for a new place..blah blah blah.. I asked him if he's gotten the divorce papers yet and he said he hasn't.
Hard to believe that I been with someone that long...never thought I'd get married...and get to this point. Saddens me. Never thought I'd be there..but..oh well...wish it was done way before hand.
I know that I'm going to be stressing out a lot in the next few months, feeling depressed and all...but I'm going to try to keep strong. I have so far, right?
