Fubar Blog Posts 4

Song's Written
up in smoke, that where my money goes, in my lungs, & somtimes up my nose, i can take this, silmolty butar, on the paine, say orsoojenwhore, & then say soosajenwhor, but i say, allybetware, all the good stuff u can find, 4 k our, our good times get high times, come on let's go & get high.

Withdraw
Hello blog readers! I just realized that I haven't made an angel since Saturday, that's the longest I went since my first one I made back in April of this year. 271 made *whew* I know there is two more special ones I am making when my model get my photos done. Should I make it an even 275? (you know I'm 'OCD' so numbers drive me crazy-*er*) *shrugs* I guess you can say there may be a little withdraw ... (as I segueway into my subject title) I bumped into some old (computer) folders and found a profile (posted here under "OLD PROFILE") and reading that, its funny the things that I mentioned that are not even in my life any longer. Heck the profile was made originally for a community site call 'OkCupid.' I loved that site (then) as much as I love "Lost Cherry" (now). Everyday, two to three times I logged on. Much like this site, I was one of the first 10,000 people to join. I watched it develop into a major player. I witnessed first hand its growth and it changes. (all wi

Elizajay - The Filth And The Fury
Ultimate Survey (377 questions long)time started:0727 full name:JASON nickname(s):PASTI, CROWMAN birthday:19TH FEB 1966 where were you born:NR LIVERPOOL, UK zodiac sign:PISCES height:5' 10" weight:11stone hair color:NATURAL PALE BLONDE, MOUSEY ROOTS eye color:BLUE/GREEN shoe size:11 ring size:? skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.):NORMAL blood type:? grade:? GPA:? siblings:1 BROTHER - 10Y OLDER tattoos:NO piercings:EAR-7, NOSE-1, NIPPLES-2, hobbies:ASTROLOGY, favoritecolor:PURPLE food:VEGGIE CHILLI candy:RASPBERRY TRUFFLE type of cheese:EXTRA STRONG CHEDDAR pizza topping:SEE ABOVE salad dressing:SEE ABOVE sandwich:CHEESE, MARMITE, PEANUT BUTTER cereal:CRUNCHY NUT CORN FLAKES fruit:BANANA vegetable:SPROUT berry:STRAWBERRY cake:

Colds, Arent They Just Wonderful
Well tis the time of year for colds and other various sickness' arent we all just so lucky .. *Place sarcasam anywhere*.. Im battling a humdinger right now . just hoping it doesnt decide to turn into One of my all time fav's pneumonia .. * Yes more sarcasam*.. Thought I had my voice back but Nope .. worse today than it was yesterday I sound like some sort of mutant Muppet or something of the like .. Perhaps I should lend my vocal talents to Disney or Pixar for some evil sniffling sneezing wart hog or something of the sort ..Hummm that might actually be interesting to see ..Well just popping on to let you all know Im not avoiding anyone I just feel as if a Rhino has taken up residency on my chest and Big bird has shoved himself up into my nose ..and at this moment is deciding where to put his vast arrary of feather boa's .. I hope you all have a wonderful week and stear clear or these colds althou they may give you some alone time from all those stray people wanting to come and invade y

Men Vs. Boys
Men appreciate women of all shapes and sizes, understanding that its what is inside the package that truly counts. They could care less what label is on her jeans, or how much (or little) she paid to get her hair "done." Boys are more superficial. They'd never dream of dating someone who buys clothes at Wal Mart or goes out in public without makeup on. Men don't brag about sexual conquests or skills. They are confident in their abilities, but not cocky *no pun intended* Men get pleasure from pleasuring their partner. Boys talk the talk, and can't walk the walk. Men understand that sometimes the best things in life are free, and that a walk in the rain can mean so much more than the most expensive piece of jewlery. Boys think that jewlery entitles them to an all night romp in bed because they "deserve it." Men will sit on the couch with you without groping. They're content to hold your hand or have you snuggled against them. Men know that little things matter. A su

Sex
TV LAST NIGHT I CAME HOME AND TURN ON THE TV AND IT ALL SEEMED THE SAME TO ME....SO I CONTINUE TO TURN THE CHANNELS IN HOPES TO FIND SOMETHING THAT I HAD YET TO SEE YET AS I CONTINUED TO WATCH I RELIZE THAT EVERY CHANNEL WAS PICTURE OF YOU AND ME IN BLACK AND WHITE AND COLOR TOO IT WAS ALL THE SAME PICTURES OF YOU THE PICTURE OF THE WAY YOU HELD ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WITH THE WINDOW BESIDE US RAISE AND THE GENTLE BREEZE BLOWING AGAINST OUR SKIN AS YOU BEGIN TO PLACE YOUR HAND AGAINST MY FACE AND THEN DOWN TO MY PRIVATE PLACE SO AGAIN I TURN THE TV AN ANOTHER PICTURE TOOK ITS PLACE A PICTURE OF US IN THE RAIN ...THE WETTNESS OF OUR SKIN AS WE TOUCHED EACH OTHER FROM END TO END ...FIRST WITH OUR HANDS THEN WITH OUR TOUNGES AND THEN WITH THE PASSION OF OUR LOVE ...IT STILL CAUSES MY BODY TO SHRIVER SO WET NOW IT HARD FOR ME TO SAY THE THINGS THAT I ENJOYED THE MOST THAT HAPPEN WITH YOU ON THIS DAY ...YOU MOVED MY BODY LIKE IF WE WERE ONE ...YOU EXHALE I INHALE WE

Ass Kickin For Action
DID YOU KNOW THAT IT'S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO KICK YOURSELF UP THE ARSE? WELL DID YOU? GO ON THEN, YOU DISBELIEVERS, PROVE ME WRONG TRIED? FAILED? IN PAIN? AHAHAHAHA BY NOW YOU'RE PROBABLY THINKING I'M STARTING TO TALK OUT OF MY ARSE AND A GOOD TOE-POKE UP THE JACKSIE IS EXACTLY WHAT I NEED. AND NOT ONLY WOULD YOU BE RIGHT, BUT I WOULD AGREE WITH YOU! PONDER THE CHANGES SOCIETY HAS SEEN IN THE LAST 50 YEARS THE 60s VIETNAM CIVIL RIGHTS THE 70s WOMENS LIB CND THE 80s GREENPEACE SOLIDARITY THE 90s HANDS ACROSS AMERICA THE 00s THE ZEROs SO WHO'S 'KICKIN ASS' NOW?? JUST AS THERE ARE MORE ARSES NEEDING A GOOD HOOFING THAN EVER BEFORE!! 'KICK ASS' HAS BECOME 'FAT ASS' 'BOOT UP' BECOME 'REBOOT' ANSWER: WE'RE NOT MEANT TO KICK OUR OWN BUTTS OTHER PEOPLE ARE MEANT TO DO IT FOR US SO I PROPOSE "ARSE KICKING AID" TOMORROW GO OUT AND BOOT 3 PEOPLE UP THE ARSE (SEVERITY DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH OF A KICKIN YOU THINK THEY DESERVE) IN TURN TELL THEM

The Wish
The Wish Looking at you from beyond the window Watchin as your hair blows gracefullyin the wind. Everyday you pass me by with a beautiful smile and eyes full of passion. How my body weakens with every glance that you make at me. So many thoughts running through my head,full of love, of lust, of passion. As I sit and watch you leave from the shop, oh how I wish to have you. How I wish to hold you in my arms, to look into your eyes of burning untouched love. Wanting to softly kiss your sweet lips of extasy,and wanting to caress your body. An everlasting feeling of joy releases from our bodies as we climax. Sharing one anothers breath as tears of joy and understanding shows in our eyes. Holding each other, hearts beating in unicin,never wanting to let go. But one can only wish of these things, only time will tell what may happen. For that is my wish , as it was the day before and the day before that. Osiris Vallecallazo.

Sayin Thanks To All The Wonderful Ppl
me an my friend crazywhiteboy just want to think all of u wonderful ppl who helped us out by sendin us friends request an becomin our fan an sendin user comments its all appreciate it.. give us time an we'll repay u bak an show u guys some love an become ur fan.. we're just tryin to straighten things out on here.. again thank very much for all ur help.... u guys rock!! muah!!! much love to ya

Another Funny
Philosophy GREAT TRUTHS THAT LITTLE CHILDREN HAVE LEARNED: 1) No matter how hard you try, you can't baptize cats. 2) When your Mom is mad at your Dad, don't let her brush your hair. 3) If your sister hits you, don't hit her back. They always catch the second person. 4) Never ask your 3-year old brother to hold a tomato. 5) You can't trust dogs to watch your food. 6) Don't sneeze when someone is cutting your hair. 7) Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time. 8) You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk. 9) Don't wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts. 10) The best place to be when you're sad is Grandpa's lap. GREAT TRUTHS THAT ADULTS HAVE LEARNED: 1) Raising teenagers is like nailing Jell-O to a tree. 2) Wrinkles don't hurt. 3) Families are like fudge...mostly sweet, with a few nuts. 4) Today's mighty oak is just yesterday's nut that held its ground. 5) Laughing is good exercise. It's like jogging on the inside. 6) Middle age is when

A Poem By Me!
Sorry Current mood: crappy I'm sorry for all the pain you went through. The pain of loving, I've done it to! I shut people out without a care. Thinking they would always be there. I did them wrong and I'll admit I did. Now no ones here and I wish I were dead. I wanna start over or atleast make a stand. But if you dont want anything to do with me... TRUST me, I understand! Hey whats up? Yeah I was bored the other day so I wrote this poem. I really dont know who it is dedicated to it just sounded good...lol...whatcha think?

I Knew I Was A Wolf...
You scored as WereWolf. WereWolf: Craving rare Meat, feeling caged, aggitated by being around people. Unable to control one's anger or temper. The person will give off symptoms of the shift. They will seem more hostile, blood thirsty, aggitated. They may even growl, bare their teeth or other animal like tendencies. In rare cases, some will physically change. Facial hair will grow thicker or darker, nails will become longer, canine's will seem longer. Embrace your wild side, for you are The Misunderstood WereWolf.Demon100%WereWolf100%Faerie59%Angel58%Mermaid50%Dragon34%What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

What Superhero Are You??
You scored as Batman, the Dark Knight. As the Dark Knight of Gotham, Batman is a vigilante who deals out his own brand of justice to the criminals and corrupt of the city. He follows his own code and is often misunderstood. He has few friends or allies, but finds comfort in his cause.Batman, the Dark Knight79%James Bond, Agent 00775%Lara Croft71%Indiana Jones67%The Terminator63%Captain Jack Sparrow63%Neo, the "One"63%El Zorro54%Maximus50%William Wallace50%The Amazing Spider-Man

Sad...
Loneliness... It's gettin' to me now It's festering in my head Causing me to lose control. Emptiness... It's closing in on me Consuming my heart With it's darkness. Sadness... Is filling my soul Eating away at my Hardening emotions. Time... Just keeps mocking me Each tick reminding me Of my unrelenting fate. 2/13/06

Yeah.
So like todays been an odd day. Im happy cause like hes back! Hes been gone for a while and im amazed. He wasnt suppose to be back for 2 more years. Hes been gone for 5. God did i miss him. Im glad to have him back. Friends forever < 3 Dear heart. Protect me from the bad things. Make everything work out for the best. Dont let any boys hurt me. And make the one that did feel pain. Oh and since i see you reading all my blogs. Seriously back off. Leave me and Ashleigh alone. We dont need your drama or your bullshit. Its not our problem you were a horrible boyfriend. Now bye bye. Anyway heart. Just make the right choices please. Love me.

Grr...
I HATE STUPID PEOPLE!!!!! my sister told me yesterday that this little jerk emailed her and was calling her a bunch of names. Well i had her email me a copy of that letter. she doesnt' even know who this little fucker is. some little 17 year old that feels like he has to put people down in order to make himself feel better. this is what he sent my sister ~lol wtf... your fucking dead ass dead ass! u look like your dead. u retard. i hate u kinda ppl. so fat,,, and ugly. with your purm in da hair ass bitch and this was my response what the hell is your problem??? i wanna know why u feel its right to email people telling them that they're fat and ugly? it shows that ur REAL MATURE when u email people u dont even know and tell them that u hate them kind of people if they're *big* and that u dont like their purm (oh by the way, its spelled PERM). next time why dont u grow some balls and grow up before u feel like u have to open ur mouth. hope u have a wonderful day =) His resp

Soldier
The Soldier I’ve fought up on high mountains, on dry deserts and on plains. I’ve fought in dazzling sunshine, and in snowfalls and in rains. I’ve fought my way through hedgerows, and on dozens of distant beaches. I’ve fought in dark infested swamps, with their gators, snakes and leeches. I’ve fought in ice cold foxholes, when feet were frozen numb. I’ve fought in stifling jungle heat, and rice patty’s stinking scum. I’ve fought down in dark tunnels, and in fields laden with flowers. I’ve been badly wounded in battle, and lay there alone for hours. I’ve fought with blind and total fury, and with gut wrenching fears. I’ve knelt beside downed comrades, and I could not hide my tears. I’ve fought with muskets and with lasers, with my helmet and my fists. I’ve fought hand to hand many times, those my bullets may have missed. I’ve fought from behind stone walls, from trenches and from tanks. I’ve paraded in splendid court yards, as people gave their

Alone On An Island
Please don’t misunderstand; I am grateful for all of the wonderful friends I have made on here. Some have become better than others. Everyone is different; they have different likes, dislikes and very diverse personalities. Yet there is one big commonality among all of you, I can’t get to you. I don’t know exactly why but there is only 1 person on my friends list (of almost 800) that lives within a reasonable distance from me. Unfortunately as terrific of a lady as she is, she is unavailable. Granted many people don’t have their locations listed so there could be more people on my list from the Metro St Louis area, but they have not identified themselves as locals, I can only assume there is a reason for that. On an earlier blog, I explained my schedule and for that and other reasons I am severely challenged as far as the opportunity to get out and meet people. 99% of the people I work with are married, therefore they can’t… ok SHOULDN’T go out prowling on a weekend night. Tho

can objects break that are already so badly cracked? bright, beautiful colors all around, inside is still nothing but black am able to love whole heart, mind, body and soul too many unfulfilled promises have severly taken a toll with a simple act to be made uncomfortable, feeling like a fool the distance sets in, stubborn as a fuckin mule are feelings supposed to be turned off with a flip of a switch? cold hearted, ice princess, liar, whore, bitch

What Is Your True Element?
Take the quiz: What is your true element? (anime pics and detailed answers)FireYou're typically friendly to most people, but when something bugs you, watch out! You're very short tempered and don't take crap from anyone. You have a lot of friends, some closer than others, but you're a free spirit that can't be tied down. This is great because it lets you be your own person, but it causes you to have a certain phobia when it comes to comitment. You're very strong willed, and always have to have your way This usualy isn't a problem, you can charm others into getting you what you want. Watch out, though, you may unknowingly hurt a friend or relative in all your mood swings. Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

What Is Your Spiritual Gift?
Take the quiz: What is your Spiritual gift?MeduimYou have a very special gift. You are a Meduim .....AMeduim is some one who can talk with spirit and bring peace to those who have lost loved ones and the loved ones they lost. This is a gift that you must use wisely and not take for granted.Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

I Know!
I know all these contests"nicest cock" "nicest chest" ect for guys what about a contest for girls? sexiest ass or nicest pussy? Or my fav nicest naked girl just wearing socks! ur judged on how cute ur socks are and how hot ur naked body is! Or is it just pervey when a guy wants to have a contest like that???? LOL

The World Is Bright!
Hi! I had lunch today with someone who is just so cool! I love her to death. It was cool to hang out with her and talk! Thanks!!! (You know who you are)....and on to other things. I'm so glad I came to LC. When I did I never knew I'd meet HIM!!! Woohoo! I'm so happy now! I look for him first thing when I come one and we can talk for hours. Woohoo love you! Jerusha

Going To Japan
Well it's official I am going to Japan this month. Leaving either the Wednesday the 27th or Saturday the 30th. It will be a business trip, and I will be there for 5 weeks. I plan on taking LOTS of pics, and blogging about it for my friends and family. Since it is a business trip for training I probably won't write everyday, just on the weekends, and the holidays (there are 2 Japanese holidays while I'm there). I will definately be posting the pics, and I will probably call the album Japan (just a heads up). Anyway I hope you all take the time to read my blogs (hopefully I can keep them interesting), and you enjoy the pics.

Because...
You're my life, you're my love, You're my shining star, you're my beautiful dove, I love you so much, you don't even know, When I think about you my face starts to glow, I'm so blessed to know you, Just talking to you makes me feel less blue, I've always wanted somebody like you in my life, Someone who's kind, adorable, and usually very nice, But I never stop to think, That what God's given me could be gone in a wink, It's never really occurred to me, That God could easily take you away from me, So while we're here, let's make it great, And whatever happens, is up to fate, Because if there's one thing in this life I know is true, It's the simple fact, that I LOVE YOU

It's 1:14am
my ass can't sleep cause my roomies decide that they want to be up half the night listenin to something stupid on the radio. Well it's what I get when you live with crazy folks...oh well. I am just here trying to decide if I want to play Warhammer, or watch porn...hmm like that would be a hard decision to make....

Another Way Of Thinking
The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get in the end of it? A death. What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. (1) You should die first, you know, start out dead, get it out of the way. You wake up in a an old age home, feeling better every day. (2) You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, then, when you start work,you get a gold watch on your first day. (3) You work 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party, you're generally promiscuous (hey, you've only got a few years left, what's the big deal?!?) and you get ready for High School. (4) Then you go to primary school, you become a kid,you play, you have no responsibilities, and, finally, you become a baby; (5) The last step, you spend your last 9 months floating peacefully with luxuries like central heating, spa, room service on ta

My Worst Fear -rascal Flatts.
Last night you gave me a kiss You didn't know it, but I was awake when you did You were quiet, you were gonna let me sleep So I just laid there pretending to be You said some things you didn't know I could hear And the words I love you never sounded so sincere It's gonna make it hard to tell you that I'm leaving Now that I know just how much you care You finally gave me one good reason not to go But staying here is my worst fear This morning I rolled out of bed Recalling all the sweet things you said This was the day I was gonna hurt you bad Called out your name, but you didn't answer back I searched the house to find out what was wrong Like a ton of bricks, it hit me you were gone All along I knew that there was something missing And only one thing left to do I had to leave behind this life that we'd been living But the only thing that left was you It's gonna make it hard to tell you that I'm leaving Now that I know just how much

Meh.
I hate being female. I cry at the oddest times. Reguardless if im happy or sad. My mind wonders. And then bam here come the motherfucking tears. I hate it. Im so sick of the shit. I guess i should probably sleep or something. Cause if i dont. Ima keep crying. And I dont wanta cry no more. I hate it. I hate lots of things =/

It's Official!
It's official! I get to go away on holidays! I know to some that doesn't sound like a big deal, for me it is. I live and breathe work and home. I'm in desperate need of a break away. 3 of my girlfriends and I are headed to Vegas in a few weeks! Whoohoo! I've never been there before. The others have. Also I have never been on a plane before, so this will be my first flight. I can't wait. 4 days, 4 nights in Vegas on the strip. So much to see and do, and don't plan on wasting a moment! I plan on taking plenty of photos, so I'll have some new pics to put up. Anyways, it's late, I'm cold and tired, so I'm gonna go. Later all!

Time
My daughter turned 24 Tuesday. She spent the day nursing a hangover and flying from vegas to manhatten. She had to throw away a gift bottle of champagne because of the airport fluid restrictions. The world keeps getting crazier and I keep getting older and older...Red was seven when my daughter was born...LMAO...I'm a "chill cherry" now..thanks people!

Things You'd Love To Say...
I can see your point, but I still think you're full of shit. ####################### I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce. ####################### I see you've set aside this special time to humiliate yourself. ####################### I'll try being nicer if you'll try being smarter. ####################### Ahhh... I see the screw-up fairy has visited again... ####################### I like you. You remind me of myself when I was young and stupid. ####################### I have plenty of talent and vision; I just don't give a damn. ####################### Thank you. I'm all refreshed and challenged by your unique point of view. ####################### The fact that no one understands you doesn't mean you're an artist. ####################### Any connection between your reality and mine is purely coincidental. ####################### I'm not being rude. You're just insignificant. #######################

Funny
What Fictional Vampire Archtype are You? You are the Bloody Siren. Vain, selfish, sexual fantasy, you lure mortal men to their dark end. You are sex and illusion and you use up men to feed your wicked desires until they surrender to you their last, crimson drop.Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Animal I Have Become
I am one to take lyrics from a song and relate them to my life - here is the latest I feel that related well to things I have been battling again. I'm just waiting for someone to help me through this hell... Animal I Have Become I can't escape this hell So many times i've tried But i'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal (This animal, this animal) I can't escape myself (I can't escape myself) So many times i've lied (So many times i've lied) But there's still rage inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the

"annie"
If I haven't been around much, there's a reason for that. I am currently working the show "Annie" at the LaSalle Bank Theatre in Chicago. I am working 16 shows in 2 weeks and am making close to three grand in that time. After this show, I may roll right in to another show where I'll make another couple of thousand dollars. I hope to be working The Rolling Stones at Soldier Field in October. I will be stopping to to see if anyone has sent me any comments, messages, rated my pics or anything else. So far, I don't see much activity coming my way.

Think About It
Well this is just some questions i have to ask..... O r should i say propose to make you go Hmmmmmm. Well um does anybody really knows what it means to be happy? Do You really need anyone else to be happy? Or can you be happy alone? What is happiness? does it really exist? Why is it that when you think you are happy you really arent? And when you think your not and want more you really are happy. So whats up with that? Is happiness material things? Money? Or is it that all happiness really consists of it lookin into the eyes of the one you love, or the one who loves you? But see it really isnt that simple ....I mean what is Love after all? Is it the way he or she holds you? Is it the way they cater to you? Is it the way she SUC^s and FUC^s you? Or is it the feeling you get when he or she looks deep into your eyes and all you can do is shake as a chill shoots down your spine???? Does anybody really know the answer to these questions? And if you do i ask you one thing.....

F*** It!!
happy, proud, content. shocked, frightened, saddened, raged. calm, collective, confused. dismissed, betrayed, deceived. hurt, rage bubbling, pause. careful, time out, sit in silence. why did you.....and with a smile? didn't you feel? didn't you care? didn't it matter that i do? that we do? what were you missing? maybe i put to much on you? you should of walked away earlier. f*** it, all is fixable in hinesight. since we are linear we just have to go forward. i will miss you. hope what you went for is worth it.

For The Man I Love
The chances of you reading this are slim to none but I'll say it anyway. I'm done. I am done persuing you in any manner. I am tired of being pulled closer to you only to be pushed away. I am tired of your insensitivity, your inconsideration and all of the other bullshit. When you need someone to run to your blog and make comments...I won't be there. When you want someone to tell you just how wonderful you are...I won't be there. I have always done everything you've asked of me and NEVER asked a damn thing of you in return. You will now have to find someone else to bend over backwards and kiss your ass my favorite little attention whore. Your good little lap dog has finally been kicked enough to turn around and bite you in the ass. You told me this morning I was crazy for loving you...that all the good in you was gone. That's not true because I still see it. What it boils down to is that you have a hard time accepting the fact that someone could actually love you for all that you

A Bubble Bath
I lie in the water feeling the warmth comfort and soothe me Melting away the stress of the day Bubbles of sweet smells enveloping me Candles lit and their fragrance of White Tea Fills the air, such a sweet, intoxicating smell The stereo is playing I have chosen Sadeness by Enigma As I lay there with my eyes closed I feel the music seductively enter my soul It fills me with a sense of mystery, desire, hunger I let out a sigh Visions come to mind as the words are sung My lover is with me, touching me in forbidden places As my head rolls from side to side, eyes still closed I feel the pressure on my flower and I let out a low moan Rhythmically he caress to the beat that is in the air Sending my desires to places that it has never been The feel of his hands hungrily caressing my skin I shiver as my body lets go of the first wave of sweet juice My lover continues, his rhythm gets faster as the music reaches climax I let out a scream

A Lil Advice?
God I have no idea what I should do. A friend of mine is being led on badly. I have no idea if he knows or he doesn't. I want to talk to him about it but I have no idea how to. What if he doesn't know? How can I tell him the girl he loves is just leading him on? Im so lost. Any ideas or comments please tell me, it would be greatly appritiated. It always gets me so sick to my stomach everytime I see him follow her like some love sick puppy....please help love and kisses fallen

Spellbound Sneek Peek 2- Chapter 1
Chapter 1 Eudora, 3000 years ago The air was silent and still in the Amethyst Forest as Aurora Phoenix looked around the clearing. She listened to the birds as they chirped from the treetops. She frowned as a raven flew overhead. Something about the raven made her uneasy, but she did not have the time to search it’s mind as she heard one of her friends making an attempt to sneak up behind her. A sly smile curved her lips as she reached back and grasped the hand before it could touch her arm. Her movements were fluid as she spun a tawny-haired teen around and pressed him back against a nearby tree. His honey brown eyes widened in shock before he flashed her a grin. “There is just no surprising you, is there, Aurora?” “You should know that by now, Dorian,” she chided lightly, casting a ghost of a smile at him before pulling back away. “You should know that I will keep trying until I can.” Aurora arched an eyebrow at him. “If you so wish it, then b

Bollox To The Antichrist
FOR THE PURPOSE OF THIS HYPOTHESIS ASSUME THE WHOLE CHRIST/GOD BLOG AS FACTUAL(NB: BLOG IS BIBLE- LOG)S0FACT: CHRISTIANITY/RELIGION IS DIRECTLY RESPONSIBLE FOR ALMOST ALL WARS AND CONFLICTS IN HISTORYFACT: CHRISTIANITY/RELIGION ISSUES STRICT DOCTRINES TO CONTROL A PERSONS THOUGHTS, ACTIONS, AND MOVEMENT KEEPING THEM WITHIN ITS WELL DEFINED CONFINESFACT: CHRISTIANITY/RELIGION CAN MAKE PEOPLE ACT IN WAYS THAT DIRECTLY CONTRADICT THEIR NATURAL INSTINCTSS0USING THESE IRREFUTABLE FACTS I CONCLUDE THAT THE ANTICHRIST AND THE TRUE CHRIST ARE IN FACT THE SAME ELEMENTALL THE TALK AND WITCHFYNDING ARE MERELY SCURRILIOUS SCAREMONGERING BY SECULAR ORGANIZATIONS TO TRY TO RECAPTURE THEIR EVER DECREASING FOLLOWERS, AS MORE AND MORE DISCOVER A MORE PERSONAL SPIRITUALITY AND SO SHUN THE STRUCTURED AND ARCHAIC CREDO'SIN SUMMARYFORGET ABOUT THE COMING OF THE ANTICHRISTHE HAS ALREADY GONEFORGET MIRACLES IN GARDENS IN GETHSEMENY, JUST REMEMBERVAMPIRES CAN RISE FROM THE DEADMYTHICAL DEAD JEWS ON CROSSES

My World Is Crashing Around Me.
Well I feel like my world is crashing down all around me, between trying to keep a friend of mine from killing himself and then two of my loved ones are now in the hospital again. Wow this is so much stress for me to handle, my friend just feels like he would be better off with no life compared to having the one he has now. And then my great grandma is back in the hospital again after just having surgery a week ago. And my poor uncle is going to have surgery tomorrow, and he is way too weak to survive the surgery. So now I have to deal with the big possibility of losing my favorite uncle. So to my friends, if I am short with you or I seem distant then forgive me I have alot of stress and alot of bad things going on right now that I am dealing with. I feel like I want to curl up in a ball in the corner and just be all alone, but yet I know the best thing for me to do is surround myself with friends and their love.

Here U Go Cue
YOU HAVE BEEN FUCKED! Spread the legs and go at it! Pick any of your friends And FUCK THEM! This is for any one you think is hot! RULES: 1- You can fuck the person who fucked you, of course. 2- You can fuck the same person as many times as you Can (c'mon, ENDURANCE)! Be creative!* 3- You -MUST- spread the sex! At least 1 fuck is fine And dandy! 4- You should fuck in public! Be adventurous, damn it. Paste it on their user page so they feel sluttish! 5- Random sex is perfectly okay! 6- Please, don't worry about same gender fucking, it's HOT. 7- You should most definitely get started fuckin' Right away! This is about showing everyone how much you care for Them and HOW BAD YOU WANT THEM! Make everyone feel a Little loved! Please don't take this too personally, BUT I JUST FUCKED YOU LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! ............................. F.U.C.K Stands For: Friends U Can Keep. So promise me We’ll F.U.C.K forever! Send this to 10 people & 1 back To me. To know who your t

The Boyfriend
So my boyfriend comes home from work..I was in a great mood up till then...He started bitching at me because i didnt clean the house..Well fuck him..Im sick as hell and he KNOWS that..Im not going to bust my ass for that ungreatful idiot... So yeah...besides that my day is going great :D Lol -Ash

Blah.
All my friends but like 2 are male. And i dont mean just on here. I mean in life pretty much. Like ashleigh and tanya are seriously the only chicks i talk to. I dont even talk to my mother. Odd i know. But ive come to realize lately that like. Most of the males i talk to. Like "like" me or are in love with me and shit. And its hard cause it leaves me with pretty much no one =/. Ive got val! Can't forget her. But shes busy with her move and stuff. So ugh. I guess the purpose of this blog is. Maybe i need to make more female friends. But they dont seem to like me much. Cause they get jealous of me really fast and stuff so ugh. Rawr.

Another Poem!!!! Lol
IF you love me like you say you do, prove to me your love is ture. Say you love me and hold my hand, Tell me that you'll always be my man. this is so0o0o TURE!!!! i dont care what anyone says bout it ............i think it is sooooooo TURE!! well love yalls all!!!!!!

Today
So today I get a call from my son's school telling me that. He is not showing up to 8th hour. 8th hour is kinda like a study hall/ detention that takes place after their last class. After having met with most of Colton's teachers and the school psychologist we had all agreed that he would attend 8th hour everyday. Not so much as a form of punishment but as a forum for him to get extra help completing his assignments, etc. The call I received was informing me that my son has not been showing up to these classes and that they were putting him on a "contract" that stated if he missed ONE more they were going to suspend him from school for 3 days, the next offense would be 5 days suspension or expulsion from the school. Are you God damn Freakin kidding me? SO I called the psycholgist and told her I really felt that he WAS in fact showing up to these classes and that we needed to get it straightened out. I have not heard back from her. But, Tell me something. Why in the HELL would they susp

Why?
Confused. You tell me I’m beautiful You say I’m special Why? I look in the mirror And I just see me. How am I beautiful When I was so ugly before? Was told forever How worthless and useless I was Am still telling myself These horrible things. Then along come my friends Telling me so different Telling me I’m beautiful. But even though you tell me Over and over and over And you get angry and hurt When I don’t know how to take it. I still have one question. I’m not fishing for a compliment I’m not trying to get you to stroke my Nonexistent ego I’m not about any of that, I just have one simple question to ask. Please answer it truthfully Please answer it carefully Please answer it fully…. WHY? d. r. hyden ok... answer that question and i'll forever be grateful... is it possible? hugz

Sometimes I Cry............when The Keg's Been Sucked Dry.
Sometimes folks think they can do things that aren't ok and be ok. You can't rape a small furry creature in it's ass and expect anything good to come from it. I mean really who the do these fux think they are tearin' up Fido's asshole like it's going outta style. There can only be one Highlander apparently, and that's horseshit, cause if there was 2 then things would add up in math class like a motherfucker with that Goddamn TI-82. The real question is is not what your country can do for you, but how you can do the country bent over a table wearin a school girl outfit while holding some Goddamn smiley face balloons. The United States are not so "united" when you need 4 Goddamn languages to talk to folks all through out. That's division motherfucker, and I ain't tryin' to get all off in that spectrum of areodynamics. Cornchips are no place for a warrior!! Deer should not be able to cross a busy street while on the cell phone. I mean come on!! Common fucking sense people!! Them bit

Life From Life, Love From Love
Shes been there for me since day one. Showing mom the ropes on motherhood. Shes taught me so much about life. You've given me so much knowlege. Cooking, our country, our everyday lives. You have been there watching and protecting me as if I were your own. Through out the years it broke ur heart to hear me cry. You tried to make my life easier when it was at it's hardest. You gave me strength when i was weak. You were my midnight phone call whenever I couldnt sleep or just needed to hear the voice of someone familiar who cared. Although I know you still wouldnt mind me doing it, I would not do that to you in your condition. For life has taken its toll on you. The years have caught up and now sickness is your closest friend. You suffer. I wish u didnt suffer. You yearn for air, I wish I could bring it to you. You are so weak. I wish I could make you strong! I love you so much, I hope you know it so well you can feel it. Thank you for always being the light in my life and alw

Life...sigh
Have you ever just wondered why life can seem so freakin tough sometimes? I mean what have you done to deserve one thing after another hitting you an knocking you back down knowing you just got up from the last hit. Just one of them thinking nights obviously and before ya even read on NO I am not suicidal(sp)lol. Seems like everytime I have a positive outlook on something, something seems to go wrong. Guess that would be the story of my life right now. All the stress that I have built up seems to never set free. If its not work its my personal life. When does it ever end? or does it even? I'm begining to think not. The work stress really is stupid. Its not my job that stress's me really, its the atmosphere around me. Always having to be on your toes. Not knowing whats gonna happen next due to the people in the work place around you. The freaking cowards an hypocrites that the are. So nice to your face, and talkin shit behind your back. The only solution I even see to this is for me

Morphing Pictures
Ok so here I am on this site and it rox all kinds of ass. However I apparently I find that people on this site can morph into Goddamn Wolves, deer, elves, eaglse and tigers. That's just plain fucked up right there!! How the fuck would that date go? I'd be all chillin there with this bad ass chick and then all the sudden she all morphs into a Goddamn Snow tiger and starts maullin' up the Godamn couch and eatin all the steak in the fridge...man that'd be twisted up as fuck.

Why Oh Why???
ok so theyve changed my meds lunesta instead of ambein for the ever ellusive sleep we see how well thats working abilify for a mood stabilizer and still on lexapro they took me off lithium!!!! yay!! not like it was doing anything anyway but the next week or so should be fun it always is when they screw with my meds damn them!! the dr asked if i had thoughts of suicide i said increasingly lol asked if i wanted to harm ppl i asked other than my bf she said anybody other than yourself i said of course so here we go again on the drug cocktail of the month pray for me ppl!!lol or at least wish me luck!!

About Me(for Da Ladies)
Wassup, ladies! , just thought, i'll write this to you to tell you more about me, this spot is just one side of my personailty, i looking hoping, to find that special lady, is it you! lol!, for me i'm a hopeless romantic, i believe that any woman should be treated as you would treat your mother, those little things like leaving notes, arround the house, or just anywhere, spoiling her!, but not too much lol!, i'm very affectionate, i like to hold hands, kiss in public, i like to cuddle, i'm very touchy feelly, i'm getting to a point in my life now, that i want to settle down and have a family. I like to be able to go back home one day back home proudly and madly in love with my woman and i side by side, or should i say my queen! i have a different aspect on life as what peeps see as sexy and beautiful, and by that i mean, not physical more mental, menatlly sexy what turns me on is a womans, mind , personailty, soul, as the same as beautiful mentally, but don't get me wrong there's

Thats Me In A Nutshell
You scored as Blood. Your turn on is blood. You adore the colour, the taste, the texture, the thickness... everything. You probably like to bite/to be bitten. Sex isn't sex without the ecstasy of blood.Biting100%Blood100%Bondage83%Blind Folds75%Chains/Handcuffs75%Whips42%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

What Is Your Fave Elton John Song
HEY People i am just curious i want to know what is your fave Elton John song it can be from any album including peachtree road and since he's released the captain and the kid i will later edit this blog to include that album and it can more than one if you choose to put more than one song i don't mind i am just simply curious from Bruce

Ode To The Mighty - Poem
Ode to the Mighty - Poem the tails carress my thighs so tight her leather fingers releasing my fight with the hot white blast from deep inside her smile so wicked there's no where to hide her lips pull deep on the stained white butt as she blows her smoke to the face of her slut enhaling deep on all that she gives this puppy knows She is why he lives and she sits astride my chest so bare running her fingers through my long wavy hair slipping the length of her phallus so deep i will swallow each inch for i am Hers to keep and the power of her thrusts when she's taking my ass are like that of a Goddess from mythology past and she drives and she drives and she makes me cry out flicks her ashes on my back and smiles as I shout then she sits on my mouth as she reads from her book the subject of leather and chains and of hooks when her lips let her nectar trail down over my lips her hand slides in my hair and she tightens her grip Then her

Drive Thru Whorehouse
If you were the owner of a new "Drive Thru Whorehouse", what would you name your business? (personally, I'd name it "Buns on the Run".) Surely you men can come up with some creative names so cum on... write em down for me! If u can think of more than one, write them all down! I've been keeping a log of all the names people have come up with for over 2 years...

Poem 2
You bound my wrists and tied me tight Secured me to your bed one night. You made me beg, you took control And gained my heart while i lost my soul. You brought me to new heights of need My desire laced with wanton greed. Your touch inflamed, made me aware Of every nerve that pleasured there. You forced me up onto all fours As i struggled and moaned you made me yours. You entered me and took those things That only domination brings. My body and soul are yours for the keeping You awakened a life deep within me, sleeping.

Icp :p
words from Violent J himself Message From Violent J written by Violent J, this shit is soo true we need to love this family more. -JUGGALOZ- Sorry to be all deep and serious but i got lots of shit on my mind. I'm tired of everything and everybody. The only thing i give a shit about in this hell we call a world is my Juggalo Family. The Carnival saved my life and my soul. My Juggalo Pride is the best thing that ever happened to me. It's starting to scare me for the fact when I sit back and actually observe the juggalo world, It seems like its going down hill. It seems to me that a lot of ninjas are out for self and trying to prove whos a bigger juggalo that who. There is no big or small juggalo. We are all the same. It doesn't take $4,000 is psychopathic merchandise to be a juggalo. Just because I got an old school mostastless jersey doesn't make me any better than a ninja with only one t-shirt. Being a juggalo is whats in your heart not whats on you clothes. I've seen juggalos callin e

Happy Blog!
Yes for once, im going to right a happy blog lol. I know suprising haha. Dear heart, thank you :) For this. For everything love me. Im happy. And im putting my past behind me. All of it. Matt and everyone else. Just letting em go. Moving on. Being happy and stuff. Ahaha and my brother keeps saying gag me lmao. But anyway. Hi :) haha. Oh and Mike aka Nizzie is awesome like woah. And onea the nicest guys ever. So show him love. And jason rocks like woah and is seriously just awesome :) < 3 Allie love ash ash < 3

The Silent Treatment
The Silent Treatment A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up." Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests

Jimmy Fuckin Read This
YOU NEED TO CHILL! I HAVE GUY FRIENDS THAT I JOKE AROUND WITH JUST LIKE GIRL FRIENDS THAT I'M SURE YOU JOKE AROUND WITH! I HAVE SEXUAL JOKES WIT SOME FRIENDS AND NOT WIT OTHERS BUT SERIOUSLY!!! i'm not cheatin on u, stop pickin a fight on everything. YOU compare me to your exs almost as much as i compare YOU. i'm so TIRED of gettin home to do homework and talk to you and then ending up cryin or some shit cuz you say i did something to hurt you. just STOP!!! just fuckin tired of it, dude. yes, i'm makin this as public as i can cuz if YOU can post bulletins sayin i hurt you, then i post blog entries about how DUMB it CAN BE!!! 1) WE'RE an online relationship ANYWAY 2) i DO MEAN everything i said 3) i HAVE GUY FRIENDS!! 4) i'm FUCKIN tired of cryin, beggin you to NOT hurt urself and being depressed over you, STOP tryin to control me and keep me by sayin ur gonna kill urself or threatening to burn urself, cuz ur threatening a CUTTER so i DONT GIVE A FUCKIN CRAP! if i can

Fun Famous Quotes From Fellow Drunks... Like Me.
“Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy.” “Worthless people live only to eat and drink; people of worth eat and drink only to live.” “I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day.” “Alcohol may be man's worst enemy, but the bible says love your enemy.” “Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut.” “The problem with some people is that when they aren't drunk, they're sober.” “I am awake, I might as well be drinking” “It is well to remember that there are five reasons for drinking: the arrival of a friend, one's present or future thirst, the excellence of the wine, or any other reason.” “Sometimes too much to drink is barely enough.” “Responsible Drinking? Now that's an Oxymoron.” “I envy people who drink - at least they know what to blame everything on.” “Drinking is a way of ending the day” “Drink today, and d

As I watch the pics that scroll across the top, I wonder how many of the pics are actually a true represenation of that person. I mean a lot of the chicks are smokin hot, and just hard for me to beleive that they are real. Just a random bitch and moan...you may continue with your regularly scheduled program.

Let Me Know What You Think....
I'm thinking of posting a weekly blog about what I did and where I went during my week on the road. Tell things like what I saw, the weather, etc. Also I will pick a song for each week..... just something that stuck in my head. Let me know if this sounds worth it or not. If nobody is interested, then I won't do it.... but I may do one just to see how it goes. Thank you... my sweet cherries (well the girls anyway! LOL) Brad

An Amazing Love Story
An amazing Love Story He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she accepted. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. "would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously; why you have this habbit? He replied: "when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are st

Sweet Dreams
to all that read this , its now ten to one in the morning in england , i have been on here all day , ive spoke to some wonderful people and made some wonderful new , friends , but i must bid good night as i am so tired , I LOVE U ALL SLEEP WELL XXXXXXXXXXXX

Name Of The Game!
Body: Okay guys and girls.... this should be a blast... I want to see how many people I can get to play. The name of the game says it all. All you have to do is. Take the name of a movie and replace one of the words with "Orgasm". Don't forget to put your name on it - then I can see who my friends are. NO REPEATS!Just comments! Kimber --- ORGASMS with Wolves Shelia -- Waking up in Orgasm Donna***** Sleeping with the Orgasm Rene ---------Million Dollar Orgasm Hoodafuk---Charlie and the Orgasm factory nikki----ORGASM BALL Billie-------American Orgasm Ray--------Orgasm Dynamite Ress-------Orgasms in the Hood Nichole-----The Neverending Orgasm Ana ---- 101 Orgasms Kathy --- The Little Orgasm Ami ------ Gone with the Orgasm Meg ------ Men in Orgasm Alex ---- Sleeping Orgasm Levi----- How To Lose A Guy In Ten Orgasms Sarah--The Perfect Orgasm Nick-----The Hitch-hikers Guide to the Orgasm Kristina----Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Orgasm Thom----A Few Good Orgasms Am

What I Would Do To Her....
sneak up on you from behind and wrap my arms around you. one around your waist and one around your chest. then i would pull you close to me while devouring your scent. then i would kiss you shoulder and ever so gently lick my way up your neck to your ear. where i would gently nibble and lick you, until you squirmed out of my grasp. then as soon as you thought you were free i would turn you so you faced me, and slam you up against the wall. then i would make your whole body tingle from the most passionate kiss you have ever had/felt/tasted.

I Guess I Am Not Hot
You Are More Mild Than Wild You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are. Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive. Are You Hot?

Rating.....
Okay... now we're rating blogs... so this mean all my SEXIE readers are gonna start going through my blogs and leave me some 10's huh.... come on.... if you feel you're SEXIE hit that 10th cherry!!! you know you wanna... ok this is just an entry because I just noticed the ratings thingy up there... will post another Fabulious entry soon!!! *Hugs n Kissies* *~*PurteeLadee*~*

Body: 22 RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS Body: OKAY YOU OPENED IT.. NOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT .. AND BE HONEST! 1) Single, Taken? 2) Are you happy with where you are? 3) When you meet the right person, did you fall fast? 4) Have you ever had your heart broken? 5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok? 6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? 7) Have you talked about marriage with another person? 8) Do you want children? 9) How many? 10) Would you consider adoption? 11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know? 12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? 13) Do you want someone you cant have? 14)Do you believe love at first sight exists? 15) Do you believe in celebrating anniverseries? 16) Do you believe that you can change someone? 17) If you could get married anywhere, where would it be? 18) Do you have feelings for someon

Candy From A Stranger - Erotic Story
Candy From a Stranger, by B The most powerful force affecting the lives of human beings is thought. One thought by itself is like a gentle passing breeze, but the same thoughts repeated over and over take on the full force of a hurricane, destroying anything that stands in the way of those thoughts becoming reality. Such was the effect of my thoughts about Joel. He had a girlfriend in waiting; but we had shared fantasies. We had in very explicit terms described the things we wanted to do to each other. He was down to earth type of guy and had shown he was caring and compassionate towards me, and yet the things he described were so fascinating and exotic. Somehow that made the fantasy all the more intoxicating. Over and over my thoughts returned to those things. I knew it was only a matter of time. I had agreed to meet him. We discussed “rules” and expectations. We explained safe words and how they worked. I said, “No. No safe words. You won’t get the complete experience if you

Why Do I Need A Subject?????????
You Are Scooter Brainy and knowledgable, you are the perfect sidekick. You're always willing to lend a helping hand. In any big event or party, you're the one who keeps things going. "15 seconds to showtime!"The Muppet Personality Test

So I'm Pretty Sure I Hate Field Day...
It's retarded. But you know I have mixed feelings here... 1. Treat us like fucking adults!!! There is no one here under the age of 18, so why does the MC have to play "mommy" and inspect our living quarters. I've owned my own place before this. It is degrading to me... BAH Of course then you have the dipshits that make their living space unlivable. If it weren't for those few nasty people I wouldn't be forced to undergo stupid ass inspections every week... I'm just irritated.... But I feel a little better now... Iraq is just 9 days and counting...

Perception/interpratation 1/14/2004
For those of you who know me, you know how much I hate it when people post Lyrics in their diarys. Knowing this you may be wondering why I posted this song. It's to demonstrate the title of this entry. You see, not to long ago I learned that this song is considered to be in reference to smoking pot and getting stoned. From the first time I heard it, I took it to be about a couple's passion for each other and how it could still grow from where it was and how the guy wanted the girl to turn him on. I always took fire to represent passion or desire. Light My Fire You know that it would be untrue You know that I would be a liar If I was to say to you Girl, we couldn't get much higher Come on baby, light my fire Come on baby, light my fire Try to set the night on fire The time to hesitate is through No time to wallow in the mire Try now we can only lose And our love become a funeral pyre Come on baby, light my fire Come on baby, light my fire Try to set the night on

Unquenchable
loneliness engulfs me as i long for your embrace with every action, thought, and word spoken memories of your beauty flood my mind and paralyze my senses in all that i do, a constant reminder of you lingers you can't be here holding me safe and content know that i long to be with you now submersing myself in the beauty of your soul looking out upon a vast and open sea calm with pleasure, strong with passion my reflection gleems back warmer somehow in a manner that reveals all scarce pages of my life have been written your name is focused on all pages that truly count our chapter together is beginning in a book kept far off the shelf time is flowing all around us yet a drought is ever present for a drop only intesifies instead of curing my thirst for you i'm opening my heart and mind to you a seed is sprouting with lightening speed the pedals are growing strong fresh and clean as the days rush by i think of you always speak of you with persons i meet

Cnc
I have been sitting here methodically picking out cookie chunks in my cookies 'n cream ice cream. I compare it to an archaeologist carefully digging up a bone or fossil. I'm more interested in the cookie chunks than the ice cream. I get all excited when I see a big chunk. Yeah, I'm a little nuts.

Blogs Rule!
I kinda like this blog thingy! I can say the random crap that falls out of my brain and people respond! I have spent the last couple hours running virus software and messing with my hair. I found an assload of bobby pins and decided to put them to good use. Well, when I looked in the mirror I wouldn't have called it "good" but it passed the time. There is a cricket with a death wish chirping his little heart out in my dining room. I went on the cricket hunt and saw his ugly mug sitting on top of a box. He jumped away when I got too close. I'm going to try to catch it on video cuz I have nothing better to do. HA!

Confession
Where to begin???? To all my friends who've commented and called me sweet and nice and so on and so forth. Have you ever asked yourself why I'm the nice sweet guy. One that's real and not a fake. You may have answered your self many times and then again you may not have. To begin with yes I am real and not a fake. I have never led anybody to believe I was something I am not. My comments were always truthful. There were some that I struggled with to insure they weren't rude. The real me. At one time in my life I was so hot for jesus. I was baptised and became involved in the church I attended. Somewhere I lost that passion. Something happened in my life that rocked my world and I didn't quit loving him. I quit loving me. I gave up on me, I quit caring. Somewhere I lost that passion and I started walking away from him, and kept going. What I'm trying to say is I'm a christian who fell from grace, and the only thing that stopped my butt from slamming into the ground is Gods

How Do I Know
HOW DO I KNOW how do i know i love you, is the question you asked? i will explain it all to you since this is my task. the moment i saw you i can not lie, you outer beauty is what caught my eye. your beautiful smile and you glamorous hair, is unsurpassed by others, i can not compare. your body so perfect, flawless in every way. i could not stop staring. could not look away. when i had a chance to hear you speak. my heart skipped a beat, and my knees got weak. when i saw into your mind, so that i could get to know you. i found that a beauty was not skin, deep but all the way through. since that moment we spent hours together. through sunshine and fun times, even stormy weather. you have been there for me, and you have always been around. always there to pick me up if and when I fall down. i give me all, and all i give is to you. that is how i know, that i love you.

1st Night Back To Work
well i did it, i survived my 1st night back at work after almost 3 years off due to being disabled from heart failure, of course i havent told my dr's nor will i for now. i was nervous at 1st think i might have forgotten how and what to do, guess not. i started out by foldin boxes and then prepared pizzas for deliveries. pretty damn easy, once i got my 1st 4 deliveries, bam! i had a blast. i made 46 bucks tonight, not counting hourly, so i made pretty damn good money on 12 deliveries in 4.5 hours. counting my time i made 84 bucks. pretty damn good huh. and it was slow. so friday sat, sun will be busy so i should rake in more. spending money for my road trip. hopefully i'll make 300 this weekend. and hope my health stays strong as i do this.

Lost Cherry Cult
Webster's Fifth Edition 2004 Dictionary defines one of 6 definitions of a cult as being: "a group or sect bound together by veneration of the same thing, motive, or idea generally originated by a person claiming to have sole insight into the nature of said cause, and capable of employing methods regarded as unorthodox or unscientific to further it." How does this relate to Lost Cherry? There is a group on this site, (and without naming them, any person who has been on this site for more than a day can figure out which group I am refering to) that act as if this site is their personal property to do with as they see fit. With the exception of the everyday asshole who simply gets cheap thrills out of screwing with people, all drama that I have seen on this site has been linked to or generated from this group. Do I compare them to David Koresh and the Branch Davidians or Jim Jones and the residents of "Jonestown"? No. But some of the methods that they employ are similar to th

Real Men Like Real Women...(real Naked!!)**sexually Explicit**
Emrace of the Vampire(Alyssa Milano) Embrace Of The Vampire - video powered by Metacafe Bound(Jennifer Tilly & Gina Gershon) Hottest Scene Ever Jennifer Tilly & Gina Gershon - video powered by Metacafe

Yaaaaaaaay
Its almost the weekend =)finally!! I dunno about anyone else but i feel like this week went by so slow. Even though its the weekend, i dont have much planned. haha im such a bum. I think tonight im going to take is easy tonight, i 've got to work tomorrow morning...but it should be fun..i like my job. haha and then i think im heading to a party on saturday night. As usual, i have tons of homework, suuuuuuuuuucks. Anywhose, i hope you all have a awesome weekend =)

A Few Words By: Me
across the greatest of divides I stumble for a reach just a breath away sometimes it seems wandering just outside the corners of yours and mine this game we play the treading to and fro here i am and there you be ur shirt says ur waiting for me but you cant see the sign behind says Not quite Yet I pronounced Id wait but was a lie i didnt i cant i wont first chance i get ill snatch and hold close to my chest professing love i can not even fathom only wishing i was capable of something so deep and holding yet bitter still better enjoy while it lasts thats what they say im only gemini born this way got to keep both of me happy working on you would become to easy if you would only admitt most of the time im full of shit Tuesday, January 17, 2006, 9:44:21 AM © 2006 Amanda Knapp (All rights reserved)

Kelly
Kelly, I truely wish I had met you years ago! You are a man with a genuine heart and an amazing friend. You are always there for me when at all possible and know exactly how to make me smile, and know when I need some cheering up. I would trust you with my life, 'cause somehow I know you'd never let anyone harm your friends. You are the kind that will go the distance and arn't afraid to feel within your heart. Many could learn from you! I will be back to visit Cali next spring and we will get our Harley ride, if it is the last thing I do on this earth! You are very special to me and I love you dearly, my friend! Love, always ~ Katja

Shelly
Shelly, my lil lady! You've grown on me at a fast pace, sweet woman! You are beautiful inside & out. You've given me a wonderful friendship and I bless the day I started talking to you! Even thank the person that led me to you. You are an amazing girl and I wish for all your dreams to come true! Thank you for being you and thank you for being so amazing and sweet! Who wouldn't love you for who you are?! I sure do, sweetie! Love ~ always, Katja

Stayin In Touch
Well I see everyone wants to be added me to be added, etc etc. Well I leave comments, rate pics, rate profiles, etc. Whats the point in all that if u don't plan to do the same in return?! I go to EVERYONE I HAVE on my list and leave comments, try to rate and comment pics etc. Where are you? I will give credit to those that do, but there are alot out there that don't even say BOO to you when I say BOO back. Come on now people, if ya want friends and to be given all that in return, you gotta do the same. Am tired of tryin to stay in touch with people and they just blow me off like am a piece of paper in the wind. If you don't want to talk, stay in touch etc, at least have the courtesy to let me know and will leave you alone, delete you off my list etc. Oh by the way, am not in it for the points, cherry bucks, whatever. I like to make friends not anything else!!

What Would You Do
If u woke up 1 morning and saw me in ur bed what would u do? 1) go back to sleep 2) slap me 3)cuss me out 4)just tell me to leave 5)climb on top of me and cuddle 6) f**k me ... details please! 7) lick me up 8) make me breakfast 9)ask me my name (lol) 10) call the cops. repost this message or u will be alone for the rest of ur life and see how many ppl want u in their bed. u might be surprised by the answer

Why Is Selling Your Body A Crime? It's Your Body
If I wanna go have sex with a whole bunch of ladys so that I can get money from them why is it a crime this is my body what gives the law the right to tell me what I can an can't do with my body?

Superman Gets Horny
Superman Gets Horny One day Superman is really horny and sees Wonder Woman sunbathing on a beach naked! He gets an idea... "They've always said I'm faster than a speeding bullet and I've always wondered what she'd be like with all her powers. So he zooms down and does her in a flash and is gone before anyone can notice. All of a sudden WonderWoman sits up and says, "What the was that!?!". Then the Invisible Man gets off her and replies, "I don't know but it hurt like hell!"

How I Am
I wanted to tell you some things about me. I have been told that I am the sweetest person and very honest. I will tell you what I am feeling and what I think is right. I love making new friends. I was born in raised in Dallas, Texas and have lived in Austin, Texas, New Port News, Virginia, Val David, Quebec, Rowlett, Texas, Carrollton, TX and now reside in Plano, Texas. Family is so important to me. I have had a busy life and its been sad and stressful at times. I take my days one day at a time. My parents are wonderful people, don't know where I would be today if I did not have their full support. I have two beautiful daughters and stay busy. Anything else you want to know about me, please feel free to ask. I am just on here to have fun and make new friends. I am not looking for anything other than that. Sorry. Good luck and have a wonderful day. Hugs and Kisses!

Deep Thoughts
"The greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows your flaws, your weaknesses, and mistakes and is still able to love you with all that they have." I just saw this on someones profile and though yeah, that's how I feel... I want that! SO I posted it here so I wouldn't forget it! :)

Fireman
WHAT IS A FIREMAN? He’s the guy next door - a man’s man with the memory of a little boy. He has never gotten over the excitement of engines and sirens and danger. He’s a guy like you and me with warts and worries and unfulfilled dreams. Yet he stands taller than most of us. He’s a fireman. He puts it all on the line when the bell rings. A fireman is at once the most fortunate and the least fortunate of men. He’s a man who saves lives because he has seen too much death. He’s a gentle man because he has seen the awesome power of violence out of control. He’s responsive to a child’s laughter because his arms have held too many small bodies that will never laugh again. He’s a man who appreciates the simple pleasures of life - hot coffee held in numb, unbending fingers - a warm bed for bone and muscle compelled beyond feeling - the camaraderie of brave men - the divine peace and selfless service of a job well done in the name of all men.

Prayer
A Fireman's Prayer When I am called to duty, God Wherever Flames may rage Give me the strength to save some life Whatever Be its age Help me embrace a little child Before it is too late Or save an older person from The horror of that fate Enable me to be alert and Hear the weakest shout And quickly and efficiently To put the fire out I want to fill my calling and To give the best in me To guard my every neighbor And protect their property And if according to your will I have to lose my life Please bless with your protecting hand My children and my wife

Panty Shot!!!
5 year old pantyshot i can see between her legs 5 year old pantyshot 5 year old mother fuckin pantyshot cant complain i didn't even touch her so i cant be blamed 5 year old pantyshot in my brain my life has meaning when she spreads her legs 5 year old pantyshot i can see between her legs 5 year old pantyshot shot shot shot 5 year old mother fuckin pantyshot can't complain i didn't even touch her so i cant be blamed 5 year old pantyshot in my brain my life has meaning when she spreads her legs 5 year old pantyshot i suffer again because me want to fuck and touch and fuck and touch the children me fucked for life me grow old and then they dont want me but i still want them they want me fucked cuz i be da monstar getting down in my evil ways i'm getting down in my evil ways right me suffer again cuz me want to fuck and touch and fuck and touch the children they want me dead because i be the monstar they see baby they think im

Fancy That
A man with a bald head and a wooden leg gets invited to a hallowe'en party. He doesn't know what costume to wear to hide his head and his leg so he writes to a fancy dress company to explain the problem. A few days later he receives a parcel with a note. "Dear Sir, please find enclosed a pirates outfit. The spotted handkerchief will cover your bald head and with your wooden leg you will be just right as a pirate." The man thinks this is terrible because they have just emphasized his wooden leg and so he writes a really rude letter of complaint. A week passes and he receives another parcel and a note which says: "Dear Sir, sorry about before, please find enclosed a monks habit. The long robe will cover your wooden leg and with your bald head you will really look the part." Now the man is really annoyed since they have gone from emphasizing his wooden leg to emphasizing his bald head and he writes the company a scathing letter of complaint. The next day he receives a sm

My Love
I do believe in love...i also believe that you can't control who you fall in love with, but once you do, i do believe that you have to work at it to make it last or else it will go away. i have been in some pretty bad relationships. I am a divorced mom of two kids. My ex husband would look at other females with me there and say he wanted to fuck them. Shouldn't i have been the only one that he wanted to sleep with. needless to say, i lost all respect for him and fell out of love. not to mention that he let himself go and nothing was ever good enough for him. We were married for 4 years I left him for someone else that was 9 years younger then me (big mistake) and was told by him that i was a bitch and that no one would want me. I left him after a year and a half after he started becoming abusive to me and my kids. you can say what you want about me, but not about my children. I am now seeing the most wonderful man on earth (I know ladies...you all have the most wonderf

Qualities I Look For.
I think that most women look for most of these qualities in a man, I know these are just a few thing I want. I want a man who will be there for me when I am sick,to hold me and tell me that I will be better soon. I want a man who is not afraid to hold my hand in public,one that is not afraid of what his friends will say when he says oh here comes my girl. A man who is willing to stand up for me if his friends or any other man is talking about me,as I would for him. A sweet,romantic man who knows how to make his woman feel special and wanted. Someone who will wrap his arms around me a night to make me feel loved and safe, and give me hugs for no reason. I want a man who will stand beside me threw anything and everything, even when things get tough. Someone who will tell me how beautiful I look after I have spent my time fixing myself up real nice for him. A man whos heart belongs to me and only me, and who cant see his future being good without me in it. Someone who will tell me that

Life Lesson Learned
I closed another chapter in my life. i seen some gorgeous sites while i was on my adventure to minnesota. the person i visited was a waste of time. selfish, and a player comes to mind.. i just hope that some day i can find a man who can look at me or talk about me the way he did about someone. his eyes turned a deep ocean blue.. you could tell he is in love with her.. yeah a waste of time. but that is ok.. life is going good.. and i couldnt be much happier.. just sad that i could of gotten that stuff down here in austin and went to the bar and drank it away. i did a lot of thinkin driving back down. i am doing good. i am not on line much anymore due to the fact i live near my brother near ft worth. well i guess that is all i have to say..

Fundamentalist Christian
Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian 10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours. 9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt. 8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God. 7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" including women, children, and trees! 6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back t

Oh Crap!
You'd think that getting a crayon stuck up one's nose would be rather difficult considering it was one of those fat ones the slow kids use. Apparently I am one of those slow kids.... I can't get the damn thing out now. Er.. I mean... I have this friend...

A Perfect Pair
A PERFECT PAIR SHE PREVAILS WHERE HE IS LACKING HE IS STRONG WHEN SHE IS WEAK IT'S NOT OPPOSITES ATTRACTING, ONLY BALANCE THAT THEY SEEK. SHE'S GIVING HIM DIRECTION WHEN THE ROAD AHEAD'S UNCLEAR HE'S OFFERING PROTECTION FROM ALL SHE HAS TO FEAR. SHE'S HIS ONLY MOTIVATION HE'S HER PROOF OF DESTINED LOVE FILLED WITH ANTICIPATION OF A LIFE THEY BOTH DREAM OF WHEN THEY CAN BE TOGETHER, ONE LIFE THEY BOTH WILL SHARE SO IN LOVE WITH ONE ANOTHER, A COMPLETE AND PERFECT PAIR. Currently watching : Waiting... (Widescreen Edition) Release date: By 07 February, 2006

Superhero Quiz
You Are Superman Faster than a speeding bullet, more powerful than a locomotive, and able to leap tall buildings in a single bound. And pretty cute too. No wonder you're the most popular superhero ever! What Superhero Are You?

Love To Me...
Love to me… Love to me, is something that sets your soul and spirit free. Love to me, is something that makes you strong and sure. Love to me, lets you be, who you want to be. Love to me, makes you grow and strive to be the best that you can be. Love to me, allows you to see the beauty in the little things. Love to me, is the light in a dear ones eyes. Love to me, is the laugh of a child. Love to me, is the sunlight on my face. Love to me, is a song in my heart. Love you me, can be said in one little word. Love to me, is You!

Pecker
A Hawaiian woodpecker and a California woodpecker were arguing about which place had the toughest trees. The Hawaiian woodpecker said Hawaii had atree that no woodpecker could peck. The California woodpecker accepted his challenge, and promptly pecked a holein the tree with no problem. The Hawaiian woodpecker was in awe. The California woodpecker then challenged the Hawaiian woodpecker to peck a tree in California that was absolutely unpeckable. The Hawaiian woodpecker expressed confidence he could do it, so accepted the challenge. After flying to California , the Hawaiian woodpecker successfully pecked the tree with no problem. The two woodpeckers were now confused. How is it that the California woodpecker was able to peck the Hawaiian tree and the Hawaiian woodpecker was able to peck the California tree, but neither one was able to peck the tree in their own state? After much woodpecker-pondering, they both came

My Life Number Is...
Your Life Path Number is 5 Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences. You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas. You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms. You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people. In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long. You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret. Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs. You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused. What Is Your Life Path Number?

I'm sorry That I'm not enough of a slut to sleep with you on a first date I'm sorry That my ass isn't big enough to "satisfy" your needs I'm sorry that I'm not anorexic and skinny enough for you to see my ribs I'm sorry That I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl" I'm sorry That I'm not a Playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you I'm sorry I don't have a dream body that turns you on But most of all I'm sorry That you can't accept me for who I am

The 22nd ~ Football
So I hear in America that tonight is soccer night. Well... football rather XD Anyways, I never got too much into football but that's all everyone in america talks about friday nights, it's kindof strange to me. on another note.. I've had an awesome day! Really busy a usual and I just got home around.. 3 AM hehe my sleeping schedule iss fucked up. But anyways.. I hung out with a boy who I like (a lot) hehe so high school ish but anyways... it was fun and that's about all I have to say.

3 Men In A Sauna
Three men, one German, One Japanese and a Texan were sitting naked in a sauna. Suddenly there was a beeping sound. The German pressed his forarm and the beep stopped. The others looked at him questioningly. "That was my pager, "he said,I have a microchip under the skin of my arm." A few minutes later a phone rang. The Japanese fellow lifted his palm to his ear. When he finished he explained, "That was my mobile phone. I have a microchip in my hand." The Texan felt decidedly low tech, but not to be outdone he decided he had to do something just as impressive. He stepped out of the sauna and went to the bathroom. He returned with a piece of tolet paper hanging from his behind. The others raised their eyebrows and stared at him. "The Texan finally said----- "Well, will you look at that, I'm getting a fax."

The Passing Of....
Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: Knowing when to come in out of the rain; Why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and Maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6 -year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they th

Poem--the Story Of Your Life
The Story of Your Life Don't say you're not important, It simply isn't true, The fact that you were born, Is proof, God has a plan for you. The path may seem unclear right now, But one day you will see, That all that came before, Was truly meant to be. God wrote the book that is your life, That's all you need to know. Each day that you are living, Was written long ago. God only writes best sellers, So be proud of who you are, Your character is important, In this book you are the "Star." Enjoy the novel as it reads, It will stand throughout the ages, Savor each chapter as you go, Taking time to turn the pages. by Wanda Mitchell

Alcatraz
June 11, 1962 Frank Morris and brothers John and Clarence Anglin vanished from their cells and were never seen again. A fourth man, Allen West, believed by some people to have been the mastermind, was also involved; however, he was still in his cell the next morning when the escape was discovered. An investigation revealed an intricate escape plot that involved homemade drills to enlarge vent holes, false wall segments, and realistic dummy heads (complete with human hair) placed in the beds so the inmates would not be missed during nighttime counts. The three men exited through vent holes located in the rear wall of their cell - they had enlargened the vent holes and made false vent/wall segments to conceal their work. Behind the rear wall of the cells is a utility corridor that had locked steel doors at either end. The three men climbed the utility pipes to the top of the cellblock, and gained access to the roof through an air vent (the men had previously bent the iron bars that blo

I Want To Know The Real You....
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know

Hello All!
Hello everyony! I'm sorry it took so long for me to start this blog. I've been quite busy these past few months trying to get my site back up! As of last Thursday, it was done! (YEAH!) Now I can spend time doing the things I love most! Emailing, chatting, blogging, etc. (My first cam tomorrow! :) )I'll be checking in with news about me and what is happening in my little corner of the world! Until then....XOXOX!

Naughty Horoscopes-im A Scorpio!!!
SCORPIO (Oct. 24 - Nov. 21) -- Omfg! here comes the masters and mistresses of FUCK! Sorry Leo, but Scorps ARE the leaders in the Kink O Rama factor (Hey Lions, you are the kings and queens of everything ELSE...let it go...OMMMMMMMM) Scorpios KNOW how to seduce. They KNOW what is kinky. They are highly manipulative. They KNOW how to get you to do what THEY want. They KNOW how to fuck. And they are making room for modifications. All they have to do is walk into a room and look at you, and you WILL be on your back assuming the position. One Scorpio I knew used to shackle her lover to her dining room table and serve food around his naked . body for dinner parties. She would put the Dip right between his legs and tell everyone to try some.This is just an idea of Scorpio kink. She would punish him later if things went...er...awry. Anne Rice (During her 'Beauty' phase) wants to be a Scorpio. Leos and Scorpios make for a fabulous tryst...but the emotions are staggering. Don't dare

Hmmmmmm
Ok so i have been looking at RSS feeds, and especially the feeds at yahoo. As i mentioned in another blog elsewhere, i had trouble trying to extract the data I wanted. When i looked at the python examples, they use a xml parser, and i copied the code examples and tried it. Worked first time, so I will just adjust the code to extract the data I want. As for work well, i've been in charge since tuesday and it was a shock, because no one let us know until we started to ask. Well the person who covers days, when a supervisor is off, is on holiday next week. No one knows if the supervisor that is supposed to be on days, is going to come in. So we was asked who wanted to do and I don't really fancy it. I done one week of days before and found it boring, plus the other charge hand done 3 days last week. I thought he wouldn't mind doing it but he didn't either. So we had to draw the shortest pencil, phew i was the lucky one. I just thought he knows the staff on days, I don't, so it would be

Why Cant All Ppl Be Like Him
I am on bangme someone guy send this to me, ok.. i take you by the hand and lead you down the halway to the bathroom. Opening the door, candlelight fills the room. In the tub wits a hot bubble bath with rose petals floating on the surface of the water. On the side of the tub is a silver bell and a note. the note reads "Slide in and relax. If you need or want anything i will be in the next room, just ring the bell." Would you ring the bell? and if so, what would you be asking for?

Whips
I bought some nice toys in the horse riding section at pets mart, a long ass riding crop and a leather slapper. I love finding toys in the oddest places. I bought a singapore cain at a dollar zone. My favorite is drunk shopping in Mexico they have lots of whips there, I can't wait to go back.

**blue October - Hate Me*... Yah
(Verse 1:) I have to block out thoughts of you so I donâ€™t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that Iâ€™m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space (Chorus:) Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see whatâ€™s good for you (Verse 2:) Iâ€™m sober now for 3 whole months itâ€™s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I wonâ€™t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you

Nocturnal Reign Lonely does the night seem As I walk along a broken dream Things are different Yet I remain unchanged All alone am I, under this nocturnal rain Invisible Droplets fall from the sky, And mix with the tears that stream down my face Forgetting my own worth I hide in the shadows of nocturnal grace I wander through this lost Kingdom With the cloak of darkness as my shield Refusing to surrender, refusing to yield With ironic Coincidence The sky Clashes like a mountain plunders to the ground Seconds later Darkness becomes dawn As if it were given permission by that sound Is there another that shares this pain or hunger, as I do, for the thunder and rain? Through a veil of tears can you see my pain? Powered by Insanity, with darkness as my throne, I am Alone In this kingdom I am ruler And all those, that appose With hate, make no mistake I am more vicious and crueler There is no price for freedom A shame for even freedom isn?t fr

Is It Wrong
Is it so wrong for a me to want to feel loved unconditionally, to feel wanted and desired, to feel beautiful. I miss his, lips on mine. Is it so wrong to want to feel his embrace. The longing for him to touch my face. I stand here broken hearted, from the day he parted. Will that man ever be here or will I have to find someone else dear. Tell me and we both will know, until then I will still want what I do not get.

Men And Women
Top 10 things a man would do if he woke up in the morning with a Vagina: 10. Immediately go shopping for zucchini and cucumbers. 9. Squat over a hand mirror for an hour and a half. 8. See if they could finally do a split. 7. Cross their legs without rearranging their crotch. 6. Get picked up in a bar in less that 10 minutes 5. Have consecutive multiple orgasms and still be ready for more without sleeping first. 4. Go to the gyno and ask to have the examination recorded on video. 3. Sit on the edge of the bed and pray for breasts, too. 2. Actually catch a buzz off 1 wine cooler. And the .. 1 thing a man would do is: 1. Finally find that damn G-spot. Top 10 things a woman would do if she woke up in the morning with a penis: 10. Get ahead faster in corporate America. 9. Rub one out for the joy and relief. 8. Get a bj. 7. Pee standing up while talking to other men at the urinal. 6. Determine why you can't hit the bowl consistently. 5

Gonna Get Close To You
(it's not really erotic, but it's one of my favorite songs with an erotic sound and vampyric feel to the video) Gonna Get Close To You - Queensryche I like to look at shadows sweating on the wall I get excited when I hear footsteps in the hall Outside your balcony I have a room with a view And Im watching you I dial your telephone each and every afternoon I wait by your door till youre asleep at night And when youre alone I know when you Turn out the light Im gonna get close to you Oh-oh so close to you Im gonna get close to you Im gonna get close You fumble for your keys Im six or seven steps behind you Im so close to you Are you terrified of me? what do I know about you How did I find out? You think Im a fool or maybe some kind of lunatic Say Im wasting my time but I know what to do with it Its as plain as black and white Im gonna get close to you Oh-oh so close to you Im gonna get close to you Oh so close If you knew my infinite charm Thered

Very Tired, Like Death
worked 9 hours last night. working 10 today plus Im training a girl. My leg really hurts, and there's something wrong with it. I work 1-cl tomorrow so i wont be in overtime after all. I wish they just would have cut me out of sunday altogether but oh well. Next friday I will have a nice paycheck. very very nice. I hope. lol. UFC tonight and Im gonna miss it cause I'll be asleep. I prolly won't be back online again till monday afternoon, or evening. cause yes, I will be that tired. work is wearing me out *^^* anyways, just wanted to say... rock on with your socks on

Ranting
So this is going to be a ranting blog..so if you dont want to hear me rant...then dont read any farther...that was your warning =P I dont know if you all knew, but i just recently got back together with and ex. We had dated for a bout 2 and a half years in highschool, and then we broke up in out senior year of highschool. We recently got back together, now we're both in our sophmore year in college. Things are alright i suppose...he just makes me so frustrated. Now, im not looking to offend anyone who might do drugs or whatever...cause really, thats you're choice and whatever works for you. Now personally, they're not for me...just my thing i guess..and when it effects my life in a personal way it bothers me. And Adam he's just become drug crazy over the past year or so. It just drive me crazy when he complains to me that he has no money for things like books he needs for classes and such, yet he's got money to spend on pot and shrooms and all that. I guess i

♥my Wish For You All♥
"Life is like riding a bicycle. You don't fall off unless you stop pedaling." "You are like a waterfall, beautiful, powerful and following your own path." "A positive attitude makes positive things happen!" "Your potential is so much greater than your limitations." "Everyday brings new opportunities for kindness." "YOU HAVEN'T FAILED IF YOU ARE STILL TRYING!" "People know how much you care." "Come out of your shell and fly!"

Shes Doing It Again!
david's inbox on myspace got flood with emails from her last night. supposely i left corbett *my exhusband* comments and she didnt like it. well, yeah i left him comments we were going to try and stay friends. well, after some shit went down bt him and i, i deleted them all and supposely she found one. yeah she found one. but she completely took it out of context. he had posted a blog asking if anyone would care if he died or killed himself. well, the comment was posted back in april when he and i were talking about trying to keep a friendship. the little bitch also told me that shes going to make her opinion of me known to those that she LIKES. this bitch is going down! i will find her whoreish ass! yeah i admit it. i was not the most faithful person during my previous marriage, but there was abuse and i didnt feel like he loved me at all. on top of that i did not start sleeping around until AFTER my lawyer told me that corbett and i were legally separated and the pa

Willie The Freak - Origins - Rough Draft
Will be posting the re-edits as soon as i get them off Todd who is doing the writing for this Ego. Willie the Freak - Origins It’s the stench. That’s the first thing you tend to notice about Willie. The stench was one of the reasons that Child and Family Services were involved when Willie was only five or six year of age. It’s difficult to get an accurate time line as hi mother accidentally swallowed twenty-seven sleeping pills and slipper with a razor while shaving her wrists and his father, now living off the government coffers and spending most evenings chasing the dragon doesn’t… or perhaps cannot talk about anything more historical then about twenty minutes ago. CFS found there was more then meets the eye. The stench, which, if I may wax poetically for a moment, closely resembled what I believe a corpse would smell like rotting in an August field of honeysuckle and clover. Sickly sweet. The stench, as it turns out was the least of their concerns. That’s what CFS put i

~hatred~
~!Hatred!~ Hatred is a feeling I know well It sits inside waiting for the right time to swell My time, its time, our time it seems Everyone thinks they can rule me That willingly there I'll sit And listen to them torment I sit back and listen as my hatred boils to its rim My eyes burn to show my anger My hands start to shake, as my temper begins to swell My anger subsides, but my mind is unaware I wonder if next time they will get their fair share My eyes begin to water, as I start to cry My angry tears have flowed to many times My soul is aching As my heart is breaking I wonder if one day they'll come to see What this torment has done to me!

Garth Brooks
Just the other night at a hometown football game My wife and i ran into my old high school flame And as I introduced them the past came back to me And I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be She was the one that I'd wanted for all times And each night I'd spend prayin' that God would make her mine And if he'd only grant me this wish I wished back then I'd never ask for anything again (chorus) Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers Remember when your talkin to the man upstairs That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. She wasn't quite the angel that i remembered in my dreams And i could tell that time had changed me In her eyes to it seemed We tried to talk about the old days There wasn't much we could recall I guess the Lord knows what he's doin' after all. And as she walked away and i looked at my wife And then and there I thanked the good Lord For the gif

Jason
jason (baby daddy) just called after 2 months to ask how the baby is doing.... i cant take that shit he doesn't care...as hard as he "try's" to act like it. i need to vent big time!!!!! now he doesn't want to see him because i won't let his g/f be there. what to do what to do!!!

Hawai'i Aloha
E HAWAI'I E KU'U ONE HANAU E O HAWAI'I, O SANDS OF MY BIRTH KU'U HOME KULAIWI NEI MY NATIVE HOME 'OLI NO AU I NA PONO LANI E I REJOICE IN THE BLESSINGS OF HEAVEN E HAWAI'I, ALOHA E O HAWAI'I , ALOHA E HAU'OLI NA 'OPIO O HAWAI'I NEI HAPPY YOUTH OF HAWAI'I 'OLI E! 'OLI E! REJOICE! REJOICE! MAI NA AHEAHE MAKANI E PA MAI NEI GENTLE BREEZES BLOW MAU KE ALOHA , NO HAWAI'I LOVE ALWAYS FOR HAWAI'I

Lets Go Do Something Fun...
It is saturday. Had to work which sucked. No plans for tonight. It is rainy and nasty out. No one wants to go out and do anything.... I would settle for a movie or bowling. Oh well... Wanna go out with me? Got some netflix movies in today... so guess i will watch those until something a bit more excitng comes along... which is soon I hope!!

Rating Profiles And Pics
I rate all profiles I visit. I read the whole profile and not just the pics. I do enjoy the pics and I rate them also. I leave comments on most. I hope everyone will do the same for all the profiles they visit. Thanks for your support and enjoy.

Blood And Sperm Donation
Blood And Sperm Donation A man and a woman were waiting at the hospital donation center. Man: "What are you doing here today?" Woman: "Oh, I'm here to donate some blood. They're going to give me $5 for it." Man: "Hmm, that's interesting. I'm here to donate sperm, myself. But they pay me $25." The woman looked thoughtful for a moment and they chatted some more before going their separate ways. Several months later, the same man and woman meet again in the donation center. Man: "Oh, hi there! Here to donate blood again?" Woman: [shaking her head with mouth closed] "Unh unh

Bullshit.
Okay so everyone can sit here and rant about "drama" he said, she said bullshit. But i make a bulletin saying i hate the word pop and its a fucking big deal. Jesus. Get a life. Yes i think people should have more intelligence and say more than just the fucking word "pop". Its annoying as all hell. Seriously, have more than that in your vocabulary. And when you repeat the SAME comment over again. Like cool Or some shit. Jesus. Are you that dumb? If you cant use more then just cool, or pop, dont comment my pictures. Thank you. And if my rant makes me a bitch, then so be it. Cause i have everyright to say what i feel. < 3

Haha
We bowled and had fun. My partner was awesome. Picked up almost everything and got strikes. lol As for me, well I had fun. And the dads on my lanes loved teasing me. lol All in all not too bad. Of course my partner wanted to bowl for us both when I couldn't stop laughing from all the heckling. lol Then he wanted to replace me. lol Then he said I usually bowl better than that. lol Thank God its for charity. lol Gotta love Nephews. lol I have great ones. we bowled at least a 160 every game. fun fun. That is all. lol

Somebody Is...
Somebody Is... Somebody is thinking of you. Somebody is caring about you. Somebody misses you. Somebody wants to talk to you. Somebody is very proud of you. Somebody wishes you were here. Somebody needs you to have faith in them. Somebody trusts you. Somebody hears a song that reminds them of you. Somebody hopes everything turns out great for you. Somebody wants you to know they are there for you. Somebody can't wait to see you. Somebody loves you for who you are. Somebody wants you to be happy. Somebody sends you a smile! Somebody is glad to have you for a friend! And that somebody is ME!

I Prefer Diet...
You Are Dr. Pepper You're very unique and funky, yet you still have a bit of traditionalism to you. People who like you think they have great taste... and they usually do. Your best soda match: Root Beer Stay away from: 7 Up What Kind of Soda Are You?

Lovers
Id come to you in your dreams To be beside you once again To hold you again in my arms To kiss you tender lips to feel you body close to mine to touch like lovers touch Long tender passionate kisses that lead to more and more Bodies intertwined searching searching for joy once more Tender searching soft touching two bodies becoming one Sounds of passion fills the room gentle moans and sighs building to a climax our bodies locked together floating once again to heaven Lovers once again Dave Emmerson

Weekend
WEll i got 2nd place in the sexiest lip contest im pleased compared to all the lovely women i went up aginist there where some fine ass lips in there!! so con grats to all of ya!! my knee is hurtin like fuck today sweeled up and shit ouch....i better cry lol ....ok well i geuss ill headout!! love and kisses!! mesha OMG....MEN!

A Friend Sent Me This She Believes It True
Men are like.... 1. Men are like .....Laxatives ..... They irritate the shit out of you. 2. Men are like .......Bananas ...... The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like ......Weather ..... Nothing can be done to change them. 4. Men are like .....Blenders .... You need one, but you're not quite sure why. 5. Men are like .....Chocolate Bars .. Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips. 6. Men are like ..Commercials ...... You can't believe a word they say. 7. Men are like ..Department Stores .... Their clothes are always 1/2 off. 8. Men are like .........Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature. 9. Men are like ....Mascara ..... They usually run at the first sign of emotion. 10. Men are like ......Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little while. 11. Men are like ..... Snowstorms .. You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last. 12. Men are like .....Lava Lamps .. Fun to look

....
repair me not! there is only one word that causes pain, especially when you must explain being hurt an feeling sad, remeberng times that you needed then bad. give it everthing you've got, share a lil if you've got alot, am i only of all the others, that you choose to call your friends or lovers? i dont know what to do or say, it hurts much more each passng day. i cry to remeber the times taht we shared, knowing my feelings cannot be repaired... nice to know .. its nice to know they love you. when they turn their heads away. an its good to know they'll be there, when they dont have time to stay. it's nice to have somebody, who can cover all your fears when they make you nkow ther're trying they want to dry your tears. and when you ask a question, they'll always understand its nice to have some one to love, yes, isnt it grand? lost pain. alone an feeling satisfied, at the thought of being me. and i knew that i must play it straight. to be happy an be

My First Confession....
I never confess to anything. Thats the first thing you should know about me. Not guilty. Wasnt me.... I didnt see anything, hear anything and I wasnt even there...and if I was....I was asleep. ~snow

Here We Go
There comes a time in someones' life where you just gotta ask. Why are the things or people in my life there. I've been asking myself that alot here lately. It's not something I'm going to dwell on. But it urks me when you have people in your life, that are only there during the good times and when things start getting bad, they wanna push you away. That's my rant for today. I would dwell more. But I got other things to do. Peace and God Bless

Darkness By Twiztid
and I'm sorry I had a fucking mental breakdown, how many times did you...could you be normal if someone disrespected your dead father every chance they got?" All This (all this)... I cant remeber your face All this... No one can take your place All this (all this)... I cant remeber your face All this pain and animosity It's not everyday I get to sit around and chat, Sit down and think maybe even talk about, that shit just drives me crazy, Fuckin' me up. I'm outta luck like a slut with nobody to fuck, Somebody talk to me, hear me out, lend me an ear, Before I lose it on society and do it so Violently Fearer of fear, hands sweaty, losin' my breath, I'm sittin' with death, somebody sittin' on my chest, Best remedy's revenge on people who wouldn't listen, Cheeks glisten cuz I'm cryin', my vision is so violent, Didn't worry cuz I'm losin' it. Abusin' anybody that's confusin this with lyin or me tryin to get attention, Sention on my mind, all I think about is dyin, In

Somethings I Have Learned...
We often go through our day with our breath held, bracing for a blow that isn't coming. Learn to relax. Let go. Everything happens for a reason, no matter how much it hurts or feels good.. Weather it's wrong or right. Only say sorry if you really mean it and admit your mistakes. Don't hesitate to tell someone you love them.. It might be your only chance. Life isn't always fair, so don't expect it to be. Don't ever cut what can be untied... and always be willing to loose the battle in order to win the war. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go. Love for the sheer fact of loving. Don't ever give up on anybody. Dream big. Don't underestimate the power of words. Realize that happiness is not based on power or possessions but on relationships with people you love and respect. Learn to appreciate the little things in life. Don't take advantage of the things or people in your everyday life, because they might be gone before you ever ge

Military Life Vs Civilian Life
Your alarm goes off, you hit the snooze and sleep for another 10 minutes. He stays up for days on end. __________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at, as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. __________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. __________________________ You talk trash on your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. __________________________ You don't feel like helping out your dad today, so you don't. He does what he is told. __________________________ You walk

Never Alone !
Come sit beside me my friend. I have a special place just for you and me.Tell me your troubles and I'll tell you mine . I'll hold your hand till the pain stops Hold you close till the hurt goes away .Lean on me my friend I'll give you strength to endure.Let your tears flow onto my shoulder . Together we'll work it out You are not alone I am here for you I know the path is filled with stones If you fall I'll pick you up When you don't know which way to turn Call on me and I will help. The two of us can handle it all . The magic of friendship is a special thing A bond that the two of us share .Together we'll work it out . You are not alone I am here for you So come sit beside me my friend .In this our special place of friendship . The place we share our dreams and sorrows. Where we can be together in our hearts And just hold each other till we feel better You dry my tears and I'll dry yours .Together we'll work it out . You are not alone I am

This One Is Funny
A guy walks into a sperm donor bank wearing a ski mask and holding a gun. He goes up to the nurse and demands her to open the sperm bank vault. She says "But sir, its just a sperm bank!", "I don't care, open it now!!!" he replies. So she opens the door to the vault and inside are all the sperm samples. The guy says "Take one of those sperm samples and drink it!", she looks at him "BUT, they are sperm samples???" , "DO IT!". So the nurse sucks it back. "That one there, drink that one as well.", so the nurse drinks that one as well. Finally after 4 samples the man takes off his ski mask and says, "See honey - its not that hard."

This Is Not Right...lol
One day an at home wife is alone and the doorbell rings. She opens it to a guy, "Hi, is Tony home?" The wife replies, "No, he went to the store, but you can wait here if you want." So they sit down and after a while of silence the friend says "You know Sara, you have the greatest breasts I have ever seen. I'd give you a hundred buck just to see one." Sara thinks about it for a second and figures, what the hell - a hundred bucks! She opens her robe and shows one to him for a few seconds. He promptly thanks her and throws a hundred bucks on the table. They sit there a while longer and guy then says "That was so amazing I've got to see both of them. I'll give you another 100 dollars if I could just see the both of them together." Sara amazed by the offer sits and thinks a bit about it and thinks, heck, why not? So she opens her robe and gives Chris a nice long chance to cop a look. A while later Tony arrives back home from the store. The wife goes up to him, "You know, y

My Prince Charming, My Knight In Shining Armor
Everyone hopes to find that one great soul shattering love in their life. If you're lucky you'll keep him/her forever, if not than you hope you can find another person to love. See, I believe there are many diffrent kinds of love, one does not mean any of the others are less than that one but just different. Now what if you find 2 loves at the same time. You love them both as strongly & you need them both for they both feed a part of you. How do you choose one & leave the other one alone. What if you just decide you don't want to???? You see one is my prince charming so to speak. He's my friend, my companion, my chosen mate. The other my knight in shining armour. He's always been my protector, the one I confide my problems with my prince with, & the only one who's ever been able to understand & help me control my demons within. One feeds the romantic, comfortable sexual part of me & the other makes me dream of dark, rough, kinky sex. The real kicker is this, they're best friends & i've

Your Thoughts Of Me.....
I dare you... to tell me the truth.. Four things you wonder about me 1 . 2. 3. 4. Three things you like about me 1. 2. 3. Two things you don't like about me 1. 2. My best feature 1. Two things you want to do with me 1. 2. One word that describe me 1. One question for me 1.

I'll Be Missing You.....
Due to some unforeseen matters I will be losing my internet service on Monday, but hope to be up and running again very soon. So to all my wonderful LC friends much love to you to last till then. MUAH!!!! I'll miss you all. :( Keep showing me love I'll still be checking in when I can.

What I Like To Do On My Own Time
Ok here goes.. On my own time I like to sleep in but I have house duties meaning helping out around the house for my grandma.. I love to sit and watch tv and be on the computer.. I love to spend time with my niece Shianne, which she love me to death and think I am the funniest aunt she ever had.. She does ask me to read her a story and I do read it to her.. She loves to watch tv so she ask me to sit and watch tv with her.. She loves to go out side and play with her puppy dog and my cat tigger.. One thing that i really love is giving my niece a bath.. One night I was giving her a bath, she had wet me from head to toe she was laughing and I was laughing too.. She does get in trouble by me but I do try not to yell at her.. I try to put her in time out or put her in the corner for pusinhedment if that is how you spell it.. I have a picture of Me and Shianne together in my Photo Album if you want to go see it.. She is afriad of the dark and I do try to talk to her sometimes.. If she ask me

Friends Of The Pack (fopack)
OK OK ,,,NOT EVERYONE CAN BE IN THE PACK. SO WE HAVE CREATED FRIENDS OF THE PACK(FOPACK). POST A COMMENT BELOW IF YA WANNA BE FRIENDS OF THE PACK. IF A SPOT BECOMES AVAILABLE OR IF WE CHOOSE YOU DESERVED TO BE MOVED UP WE WILL CHOOSE FROM THE POSTINGS BELOW. cONTINUE TO READ THE BLOGS AND WATCH AND INFORM US OF TROUBLE. AND THE PACK HAS GOT YER BACK. PEACE AND LOVE. HOWL FOR THE PACK!!!

Comin' Around
you can fall prey to the hands of fate you can build walls again im the one that can always relate to the way you deal with pain how you going to make me feel when you finally come around I think ill get a raw deal a love without sound I can see what he is doin to you I can see you need a hand Ill be the one to take you thru another lonely night again I heard another thing today they said you were comin around Im not going to be hear baby Ill be six feet under ground

The Book
THE BOOK i think there is a book for lovers to be. everybody’s name is in it, everybody but me. whoever wrote this book somehow must have forgot. there is a love for me, no i think not. why am i the one who has to deal with this pain? i sit at the window and stare into the rain. is there a love for me will it ever be. i sit here and wait just waiting to see. seeing couples walk by with a gleam in their eye, puts a hurt in my heart, and makes me want to cry. maybe it is a page, that fell from the book. if i knew where it was i would take a look. to see why i am alone with no one to hold. on long winter nights so lonely and cold. if i could find this book i would write my name down. so that i can wear a smile, instead of this frown. is it too much to ask that i have love too? i want someone to kiss , someone i can call boo. i guess i am destined to be all alone. with no one to love , no one of my own.

Empty World
drivin all night just to see you cant take another lonely night living so far from you Ill bet you never had someone like me a man with a cause someone who isnt carefree ill bet youve wondered from time to time just whats been on my mind well thats the way it is and how itll be another lonely night away from me I sent you a letter today written in red I tried to explain to you that nothing was ever said Its buried deep inside me where no one goes a place I keep for myself In a world no one knows

Soldier
Just a reminder........ Your alarm goes off, you hit the snooze and sleep for another 10 minutes. ** He stays up for days on end. You take a warm shower to help you wake up. ** He goes days or weeks without running water. You complain of a "headache" and call in sick. ** He gets shot at as others are hit and keeps moving forward. You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. ** He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. ** He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. ** He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls. ** He walks the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists. You complain about how hot it is. ** He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow. You go out to lunch

Just Thoughts!!!
its been a long night and im pretty tired!! yet wont be sleeping right now...got home and found out my baby went to the hospital...but she said she is fine and not to worry!! for any of you that know's me...of course ill worry, i hope she is doing good..and wish i was there with her!! and if you are asking me who she is.... its Teeny!! some of you already know her....and yes we are together....what anyone has to say we dont care..because we are happy, and nothing will break or happiness

For My Husband
You know its funny we fight all the time and sometimes I just want to strangle him but now that things are becoming so real about his surgery I find myself needing to take the time to go somewhere alone and cry. Realizing how scared that I really am that I could lose him. I feel alot of regrets cause I know that there are things I should say to him but just dont know how. But I know that is what is gonna kick me in the butt later. I am scared that God will take him just as he took my angel. And I know that he will have a path that my life is supposed to take but I just dont think I would know how to teach my little boy how to stand up and pee or if I could run off all the boys that I know will be knocking at my door for my little girls thats something a daddy should do. It does not seem fair that I have to do it alone. I have been doing alot of thinking about weither or not my family will make it through all of this. What if God does decide to take my husband away will I have t

Lady Flower
Lady Flower In the still of the night a flower rests in the field, Glowing by the light of the moon can it be real, Stunning and true it is beautiful to see, That I must draw near and hold it ever close to me. in the still of the night a lady stands in wait, Her body radiant she is the writer of fate, To her I must run with all haste and speed, For to make this angel happy is my greatest need. The lady as the flower is beautiful its true, Magnificence unmeasured I must need run to you, So hold my gaze and know me for this, Knowing you Flower Lady has been true bliss. Matthew Scott Geyer Journeyman

Heavens Heart
Heaven’s Heart What seems so small is so big, And what is not seen should be paid respect, For all around you is the power of heaven, Take but a moment yourself and see. Not the cruelest of times, Nor the darkest may hide, That which is true when you open your eyes, For strength resides within your heart. Send away your fears and torments, Stand tall and believe in yourself, Never let another bring you down, For as you draw strength so do other draw from you. Listen to the wind, the water, the earth and the spirit, Give thanks for the strength given by natures heart, Watch the sunrise to feel its unbending power, And know such power rests within you. Heaven is here for open eyes to see, But without pain there is not pleasure, Take in those who would be there for you, And in the end you shall know the beauty they see. Matthew Scott Geyer Journeyman

Hells Heart
Hells Heart Who can say where the heart lies, For life itself sets your trail as you pass by, All is a lesson in the cold truths of life, Lessons set in stone yet must learned through strife. Why does it flow with such a cold breeze, That it grips the heart bringing me to my knees, The winds of change have come once again, Another test to take proving I'm a man. Struck down without thought and passed without care, I gave you my all and I would share, Here in the cold I feel so alone, What can I hope for from what's been shone. Time will heal one step at a time, Soon the bell will toll and I'll hear the chimes, The chime time signify all will be well, That I'll stand once more and walk past this Hell. Matthew Scott Geyer Journeyman

Free Wind
Free Wind Listen to the wind to hear it blow, It shall always be there wherever you go, There by your side yet you cannot see, It is my hand upon your shoulder to put you at ease. A light gentle push when you are feeling blue, My heart shall break should harm ever come to you, Your smile is the heaven that I must see, So share this wonder I beg you upon bended knee. Your beauty is wondrous and in full bloom, That to get me away you must beat me with a broom, But you wish me near as i wish to be, So enter my arms to set us both free. Matthew Scott Geyer Journeyman

Quiz - Sexual Level
You scored as Very Kinky. You are very Kinky. Yuo are not over the top but you like kinky arousements and you are willing to try something new every time. You will make a very fun sex partnerVery Kinky100%A Sicko60%Average50%A WUSS !!30%How sexual are youcreated with QuizFarm.com

Will The Next Election Be Hacked? --robert F. Kennedy Jr
Printer Friendly URL: http://www.rollingstone.com/politics/story/11717105/robert_f_kennedy_jr__will_the_next_election_be_hacked Rollingstone.com Back to Robert F. Kennedy Jr. -- Will The Next Election Be Hacked? Will The Next Election Be Hacked? Fresh disasters at the polls -- and new evidence from an industry insider -- prove that electronic voting machines can't be trusted ROBERT F. KENNEDY JR. Posted Sep 21, 2006 1:23 PM >>Post your thoughts about the threats to fair voting, in the National Affairs blog. Plus, read Robert F. Kennedy Jr.'s "Was the 2004 Election Stolen?" -- his report on Republican methods for keeping more than 350,000 Ohio voters from casting ballots or having their votes counted. The debacle of the 2000 presidential election made it all too apparent to most Americans that our electoral system is broken. And private-sector entrepreneurs were quick to offer a fix: Touch-screen voting machines, promised the industry and its lobbyists, would make voti

Round 2
Yoda easily won round 1 without a single vote against him. The vulcan grip was no mach for the Jedi’s force. I guess Scotty could not beam spock out of this one. Round 2 Vote for the one you think will would win Star Wars, Chewbacca VS Star Trek, Worf.

Over Stimulation
I'd usually go to one of my favorite MANLY pages for a post like this. Well, with so many things ... that EXCITE me lately - going on. I mean, I cant even focus on one thing ... Its like I see something EVERYDAY! If its not about one of the things I always have enjoyed (even in my youth) There is something else I've enjoyed around pre-puberty and ever since. Like any man, I enjoy doing it, but its just as exciting to SEE and WATCH: Live is something we live for ... but it cool just to watch elsewhere. Yeah, I enjoy it alone - but you know its even more exciting to have a group. You know when you enjoy something and just seriously believe you could NEVER get enough of it? THEN: You go without it for what seems like a lifetime? During that absents, you dream about it ... You think about how great it was the last time ... Then You start to even twist honest comments into what you were really thinking about during the whole conversation ... You

Fixed Sticking Points/levels..
i caused a bug last night while i was fixing something else, which kept some people from leveling up even though they had enough points. no points were lost, and you'll level up the next time you go to your homepage if you have enough points. sorry for the trouble! :) -mike

Daughter Of Hell - Background Info
Her Symbols Her Mother In Norse mythology, Hel (sometimes Anglicized or Latinized as Hela) is the queen of Hel, the Norse underworld. In the Gylfaginning, she is described as the daughter of Loki and Angrboða – a giantess (gýgr, see jotun) – and thus sister of the Fenrisulfr and the sea serpent Jörmungandr. Since her father is often described as a god, although both his parents were giants, the same might be said of Hel. When Odin became aware of the existence of Loki's children, he banished them to remote places. Hel he cast down to her realm in the underworld and gave her authority over all those in the nine worlds who do not die gloriously in battle but of sickness or of old age. Her possessions are being described thus: She has great possessions there; her walls are exceeding high and her gates great. Her hall is called Sleet-Cold; her dish, Hunger; Famine is her knife; Idler, her thrall; Sloven, her maidservant; Pit of Stumbling, her threshold, by which one ente

Anal Sex Toy Information
The term anal sex toys covers a very wide spectrum of products and devices. But they all have one thing in common, the insertion location! Butt plugs, anal beads, anal probes, anal vibrator, vibrating anal beads, anal dildo, anal lubes and lubricants, vibrating butt plugs, anal dildos, and anal vibrators are all terms you will hear when associated with anal sex toys. In this article I will be discussing the types of anal toys, their proper uses, and anal sex toy safety and cleanliness of the products. The use of anal sex toys may not be to every one’s liking, but if you have ever entertained the notion of using anal sex toy then you may want to read on for some helpful hints on the types of anal sex toys and their proper uses. Anal sex has always been seen as taboo and off limits for a lot of people. But, men and women alike are now finding the joys of anal stimulation during sex or masturbation to add a higher amount of sensations and stronger orgasms. This article will

Unexplicable Sad
I'm kinda sad today...I don't know why. That's always the worst for me, when it hits and I can't explain the reason. it's that much harder for me the solve the problem. my stomach is in knots, i keep feeling tears coming on, which is amazing because I haven't cried in weeks aside from once over work drama. I feel myself fight back the tears, but all i wanna do is cry. And I have to work soon. Which doesn't help. I don't know what to do to make everything better except sleep, but I can't sleep. I just want to wallow in my sadness, the worst place for me to be.

Directions Of Love
Directions of Love a poem by Marlene written with her soul, February 14, 2006 Our love is like the wind it blows soft against my soul like a million kisses from the angels and it envelopes me within it's wings and give me lift to soar. Our love is like water gently caressing and lapping upon my soul ever ebbing and flowing all the while soothing me to grow some days ripples, some days calm but always sparkling with each dawn. Our love is like fire fiercely roaring as it cleanses my soul releasing emotions strongly clung to for so long then gently leaving glowing embers of reflection and beauty to remind me I am alive. Our love is like the earth strong and firm yet soft and pliable great mountains soar towards the sky great valleys take us towards the sea all in a dance to see what we can be. Our love is spirit gently spiraling towards the light ever moving upwards dancing joyously entwining with each laugh, pain, tear,

Hyped Up
im really hyped up... our next football game is on friday.. i love wearing the uniform to skol... i love how i get looks from hunks... god i am so damn boy crazy... this site is cool... i think .. i mean so far it is... i have a dr. appt. this week and i think they may change my meds.. but hell life will go on... im just pumped up... idk y... lol fun fun fun xoxoxoxoxxo

Learn Chinese In 5 Mins!
1) That's not right ........................... Sum Ting Wong 2) Are you harboring a fugitive?..........Hu Yu Hai Ding 3) See me ASAP................................ Kum Hia Nao 4) Stupid Man ................................... Dum Fuk 5) Small Horse .................................... Tai Ni Po Ni 6) Did you go to the beach? ................Wai Yu So Tan 7) I bumped into a coffee table ...........Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin Ni 8) I think you need a face lift ............Chin Tu Fat 9) It's very dark in here .....................Wao So Dim 10) I thought you were on a diet .........Wai Yu Mun Ching? 11) This is a tow away zone ..............No Pah King 12) Our meeting is scheduled for next week ..... Wai Yu Kum Nao? 13) Staying out of sight ......................Lei Ying Lo 14) He's cleaning his automobile .......Wa Shing Ka 15) Your body odor is offensive .......Yu Stin Ki Pu 16) Great ........................................Fa Kin Su Pah

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Gummie Bear
ok im really bored so i decided that i would write a blog lol and in my blog i want to sing about the gummie bears.......so hears my loverly song about gummie bears....................... gummie bears, gummie bears i love u, you so chewy and yummy and i love u, gummie bears, gummie bears u stay so true but i sing this song cause i gots noting elsa to do lol

My Mom
I thought I would give you all an update. I am the kind of person when it comes to this I keep to myself. One person knows everything that is going on only because he knows me and my mom. Anyways she is stable now. Her heart stopped for about 5 mins on Friday so all week and weekend I have been with her. They plan to keep her at least another week for observation and testing. Thanks all for understanding my absense. Hugs

Lately...........
I can't help but think of you.... My mind escapes..... Thinking intimate thoughts. How you would feel.... How you would taste..... Your body... pressed up against mine ... The warmth you would radiate..... The growing pleasure entices me xoxoxox Of wanting you ... Knowing you.... Feeling you :) Needing you ! I long for that day...... That our souls touch unknowingly. It feels so right.... so natural.... My spirit is uplifted when I read your notes. Your sweet, kind words.... Go beyond my heart..... Healing me of past torment, sadness, anguish. I search in you companionship, happiness, and most importantly..... LOVE xoxoxxoxo My lonely soul awaits yours..... With hopes of reaching yours...... Lost in a world of loneliness :( A sense of comfort bestills my human nature ... As I await your presence. The anticipation... submerges eratically. Each day I grow closer...... In hopes of connecting like no other. Being that special someone ..... Th

Lmao
oh the joys of people on msn..... jay says: you have fantastic boobs i must say Vikki says: ahhh thanks jay says: no thank you for sharing Vikki says: lol jay says: so what are the chances of me seeing the pics or am i being too cheecky Vikki says: hmmmmmm lol jay says: i can beg if you wish lol Vikki says: lol jay says: pleaseeeeee Vikki says: lol jay says: on knees Vikki says: lmao jay says: hands together praying Vikki says: lmao jay says: to the dark lord too if hes your god of choice Vikki says: jay lmfao jay says: is it working jay says: the skies are all turning black here he must be listening jay says: oh dark lord please help viki take pics of herself in panties Vikki says:lmfao jay says: please grant your follwers wish jay says:lol Vikki says: lmfao Vikki says: hahahha jay says: please help her take loads Vikki says: lmfao jay says: whats that you can make her take her panties off too j

Rubber Ducky
well all my friends know i love gummie bears but theres something i love even more then them....can u guess what it is?.....NO?....RUBBER DUCKIES....wohooo yay me!...ok can u guess im bored, cha yeah i totaly am i have no other way to spend my time i mean i live in the middle or no where....kinda funny im still waiting for something exciting to happen but till then ill sing another song this time about the duckies......rubber ducky your so fun u make bathtime oh so much fun, rubber ducky your the one, ohhhh rubber ducky i love uuuuuu, oh u sexy duck lets go take a bath :D

So Down, So Down
feeling really bleh and depressed today and i'm not sure why. especially right now. earlier i was just feeling pissy. maybe it's just one of those days and shall pass, i don't know where it comes from really. guess it's just loneliness again as always. i donno. it's times like these it seems i ussually seem to dream of ravyn the most clearly, so i wonder if she'll be there tonight or if she's finally left my side. the annoying thing is i'm not sure whether i want her to leave my heart or not. i guess it depends on what's right. i want to feel inlove but only for the right person, and not soemthing that isn't real. it's always a battle of do i hold on or let go. not wanting to let go of love, but not wanting to hold onto something fake when you ought to be saving it for something real. seems i've come across this problem alot this year. i've taken ravyn's pictures off my walls and ended up putting them back up i don't know how many times. then i started to fall for danielle, and

Hey Sweeties
been a minute since i hit this up and i know yall waiting on some new pics, YES they are coming... im gonna try and do a set tonight see what i come up with IF you havent joined my yahoo group WHAT THE FUCC YA WAITING FOR you think the pics i have on here are hot? well, if your really into this fat chick you'll like my clips i have in the file section of the group... http://groups.yahoo.com/group/WildGirlAries/ JOIN its FREE

This Would Be Tina To A Tee
You Are An Elm Tree You are easygoing and a pleasure to be around. Good looking, you have a pleasant shape and tasteful clothes. You demand little in others, but you tend not to forgive their mistakes. Dominant, you like to lead and enjoy making decisions for others. Overall, you are cheerful, honest, noble, generous, and funny. What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

My Thoughts
The following is in my profile but not everyone reads profiles so this is for those that may have missed that vital part and needs to read it before they try to talk to me. --------------------------------------------- I can't stand all you spineless bitches that don't seem to care about anything but your own whiny asses. Just remember, without my friends and people like them YOUR ASS WOULD EITHER BE SPEAKING GERMAN, JAPANESE OR STILL TALKING WITH A FUCKING ENGLISH ACCENT. So don't come here complaining about what they do or try to talk shit about our military. My page has absolutely NOTHING to do with any type of political bullshit, it's all about our warriors, past and present, so go fuck yourselves. And get this I DON'T CARE about anything or anyone when it comes down to one of our men or women and their life...You wanna know what is wrong with America? You hypocritcal do-gooders that would be the first to run to one of our military and hide behind them, you don't even know t

Was Out Of Town But I'm Back
I went out of town for umm.."business" but i'm back now, hope everyone had a good weekend i know i did, next month i will be gone the 1st to the 4th b/c we're moving to a smaller place. B/c i'm a firm believer there should never be more toilets in your house than you have asses to use them so my husband and i are moving to a smaller/cheaper place then i will be gone the 11th-26th b/c i'm going home for deer/firearm season in missouri and i will have pictures up when i get back and i will label them "vegatarians not welcome" so those of you who have issues with wildlife management can avoid the pictures. anyway ya'll have a great night, cheers!

My Great Canadian Blog...
well, canada, the great white north, the loft above a great party they say, but for anyone who has gone there, its a party in itself!! where you can smoke weed, drink at the age of 19 and see football, boxing... in the same sport!! where you have the RCMP ( for you americans thats royal canadian mounted police ) which is exactly the same as state police except on horses... where if you drive in any direction you will hit a lake in about 5-10 minutes... or snow 8 months out of the year... where our beer is stronger, but more expensive, why you ask, cause we get free health care!!! ALSO... I'm not a lumberjack, or a fur trader... and I don't live in an igloo or eat blubber, or own a dogsled... and I don't know Jimmy, Sally or Suzy from Canada, although I'm certain they're really, really nice. I have a Prime Minister, not a President. I speak English and French, NOT American. and I pronouce it ABOUT, NOT A BOOT. I can proudly sew my country's flag on my backpack. I be

You All Have....in One Way Or Another
it's that time again people....time to get back to life and let the internet drama go for a while. i may or not be back..i don't know yet. what i do know is that something that was supposed to be fun turned out to be a popularity contest and that's really too bad. i've met some really sweet people on lc and, hopefully, they'll stay that way. i'm not going to delete my account yet. i may decide not to stay gone for very long so you all won't lose me and you can still get points for leaving comments and things. i just need a break from all the bullshit. the ones who were the most special to me know who they are so i'm not gonna be sending out special goodbyes to anyone. y'all behave and try to keep the drama down lol...*hugs*

These Retarded Dit Daa Deee Skinny Chicks
ok im suck and fucking tired of chicks the can wear my pant leg as a skirt telling me im fat and ugly... well bitch i know im fat but far from ugly im the sexiest fat guy youll ever meet... ya see the vainess and self loathing of others makes me completely hostile to the belief that humans are fucking retarded. ok i see s kinny chick and i say to myself hey nice looking girl maybe an interesting person... i never to a forgone conclusion of wether or not that chick is a vain slut that only fucks guys the can fit her arms around and can out think.... but no a skinny chick sees me and says(on a normal bases not all) hey theres a fat guy i wondering if he can find his dick. ya know i garauntee that if someone gives me the time of day they will enjoy my company and time spent be it as friends or what have you... but this is to all the vain skinny bitches with no heart.... just cause i say hi to you does not mean my FAT ASS IS TRYING TO FUCK YOU.... there are people on this planet that worry

Men Vs Women
Subject: FW: RE: Male versus Female T >>> >>> 1. THINGY (thing-ee) n. >>>Female...... Any part under a car's hood. >>>Male..... The strap fastener on a woman's bra. >>> >>>2. VULNERABLE (vul-ne-ra-bel) adj. >>>Female.... Fully opening up one's self emotionally to another. >>>Male.... Playing football without a cup. >>> >>>3. COMMUNICATION (ko-myoo-ni-kay-shon) n. >>>Female... The open sharing of thoughts and feelings with one's partner. >>>Male... Leaving a note before taking off on a fishing trip with the boys. >>> >>>4. COMMITMENT (ko-mit-ment) n. >>>Female.... A desire to get married and raise a family. >>>Male...... Trying not t

Ten Basic Bdsm Principles:
Ten Basic BDSM Principles: 1) BDSM play should be safe, sane and consensual. 2) Know your SM player(s). Do not have BDSM play with strangers. 3) Always inform a friend that you are having BDSM play: where, when and with whom. 4) Always use safe words, i.e., 911 or red (STOP), yellow (slow down) and/or safe gestures (tap foot three times). 5) Negotiate the scene before you start. Communicate your limits, medical conditions, medications, experience and desires. 6) "No limits" is fantasy. Every sane player has limits. Do not be embarrassed to express them to the dominant player(s). 7) Do not have BDSM play while intoxicated or seriously stoned. 8) Expect the unexpected (fire, power failure, medical emergency, etc.) and be prepared. Another person’s life is in your hands. 9) Always have a first aid kit nearby. 10) Don’t play with a man/woman unless you feel absolutely safe! Thanks to Sir Critter for the list

Want To Know More About Me Take A Look
I am from Australia, I live in the country NSW. I am 34 years old, I have just recently got married to my soulmate who i love with all my heart and soul. I have one teenage daughter and 4 step kids. My daughter is 14, my step kids are 16,14,8 & 4 years old. So when we have the kids the house is full,but we have fun spending time with them.Ok enough about the kids now abit about me i am a caring woman i love to talk online to my friends/ online sisters & brothers also love making new friends, i have a great personality and love to laugh i can also be funny. I like to help my friends out by helping them with a site they cant work out.Or if they just want my advise on something i help them out as much as i can i dont help anyone with money so dont ask me, i dont have enough for myself let alone for someone else. Anyway i think i will stop there if you want to know more just email me and ask me. hugssssssss Aussie :)

Despair
Another year wasted Another pointless day Another boring conversation For which I’ve heard a thousand times before Another life gone Another starving mouth Another beaten child For which has been left to die Another migraine Another pain in my chest Another reason to let go No one would remember me anyway Another stupid question Another annoying response Another day in my Hell For which there is no escape Another turn into darkness Another feeling of abandonment Another reason to turn away For which there is no return Another year wasted Another pointless day Another boring conversation For which I’ve heard a thousand times before Copyright © Ted E. Brown II January 26, 2006

Taken
Things Taken Stolen from my life No reason given No remorse shown Why have you chosen me? To show what can happen I was unaware on the impending danger Things Torn Ripped apart My mind in anguish Standing there you sigh Knowing the truth I tremble Hiding my darkest desires A fleeting attempt at deception Things gone Removed from my sight Staring at an empty bag Unknowing the time it will be until next A desolate life without you A world for which I cannot cope Paranoia engulfs my every thought Copyright © Ted E. Brown II December 27, 2005

My Little Jelly Bean
We have waited for your arrival Praying for your survival Your parents are loving ones Who dare not shun I'm glad you here to bring them happiness To show them they have no worries You're only the size of a jellybean But you're the most beautiful thing I have ever seen The miracle of your birth To come to this earth Is far overdue Help them when they don't know what to do They've been waiting for so long So this can't be wrong I know you're not here yet But I tell you what; I'll make you a bet Your life will be full of love From everyone here and above We love you My little jellybean (For my nephew James Earl Tincher; Born October 18, 2001) Copyright ©~Ted E. Brown II April 1, 2001

A Path To.. Enlightenment
Not too long ago I went to visit the Dr for an infection i had on my left leg. A cut I had was just not healing and it worried me. Not having Health insureance the visit and the meds sucked but hey... the wound is now completely better and i guess it was worth it. On that visit the Dr weighed me and I very nearly cried.Not only had I gained all the weight back from when I had dieted but I packed on another 15 on top of that.ade a choice and set out looking at different diets... wanted something that was not pill dependant and that sites that rate these things thought favorably upon I found one but some of the rules are not happy rules. First, they call it a lifestyle change.. that's the new popular word for it.. because diets work short term.. in order to make it always work it needs to be a lifetime commitment and so.. lifestyle. anyway... so I opted to start this "lifestyle" and follow it to the letter. I showed it to my Dr who said to go ahead with it and Off I go! Some

My Love
My love is like an island in life's ocean, vast and wide. A peaceful , quiet shelter From the wind, the rain , the tide. It's bound on the north by Hope, By Patience on the west, By tender Counsel on the South And on the East by Rest Above it like a beacon light Shine Faith , and Truth , and Prayer; And thro' the changing scenes of life I find haven there... Please be mine fore ever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

The Weekend
Okay So my boyfriend and I talked alot this weekend. I told him that I felt we got too serious too fast, so that I wanted to take a step back and try to rebuild our relationship and make it better. So he is going to live with a friend for a awhile and I am going to get my head clear and we are just going to take it day by day and not have the pressure of the whole living together crap. when he was living here I felt like I was suffocating like I had no time to myself, because I worked then I got my son and then cooked dinner cleaned up the house and then he was home and we did EVERYTHING together, I need me time and he needed him time. And I figured my how trust issue thing will have to be fixed by this or I know that i can't have a relationship. I did find out that he didn't cheat on me, that his bitch ex girlfriend was making it all up to break us up...why are some woman like that?? Cuz she laughed at me when i emailed her and told her that she could have him and she was like h

Update On Kadence
I just wanted to let everyone who has been concerned and praying for Kadence that she is doing great. She has been off the breathing machine for 5 days now and doing great. She is now on the going home side of the nicu nursery and her nurse just said that they have changed her iv fluids to clear fluids and that she should only have her IV one more day. I should be able to try breastfeeding her this weekend and she is up to 4lbs 4.6oz so she's gaining weight.

To All My Friends
just wanted ya'll to know i love u all. and this thing going on about ur xrated pics.fuck it i don't care to see them, if i want to see a dick i'll look at my hubby's.and for pussies no thank u, i'm not into that. i got one remember!!!!!! ya'll have a good day.

Rant #6: Chain-bulletins.
Umm, yeah... I know that about 85% of this site is made up with chain-letters of some kind. But don't you notice it's getting repeative and stupid now? I mean, seriously... You read some stupid bulletin and because of the "power of the bulletin" your balls are going to fall of or someshit. Like, wtf? You people who write this shit actually think this is intelligent or that these chain-letters hold some true power? You think mere letters on my LCD Monitor is going to make me jerk-off any less than before? Is it going to make me into one of the guys from an Axe commerical? Fuck no. Here's a chain-blog for you. You read this. Now, because you read it, you must tell everyone about it or your genitalia is going to turn into an animal's tool. And if you're a creater of a chain-bulletin, then you will magically find your keyboard broken in your ass. And if you truely believe that either one of those things is actually going to happen because I wrote it, you're an idiot. Chain-bulleti

Wet Dream...
WET DREAM Last night I had a wet dream. In it I remember being in the presence of a voluptuous and sexy naked woman. I also remember that I too was naked and that I had a huge erection at the ready. For whatever reason though, I was not permitted to have sex with her. So, as I remember, I had to resort into taking care of the problem all by myself. In my dream I wrapped my hand over the head of my penis and started masturbating right there in front of the naked woman who watched me as I did it. As undoubtedly happens with all my wet dreams, my cock became erect from my subconscious arousal. In fact, it got so hard that it woke me up. As I slowly faded out of my wet dream and into consciousness I realized that one, I was sporting a raging hardon and two, it was still dark in the early morning hours and three, my wife was sleeping soundly there beside me while I was wide awake. As the fog of sleep evaporated from the corners of my mind I recalled what had

The Meeting...( A Lil Long But Worth The Reading...lol)
The bar is filled with a smoke haze the lights casting an eerie glow upon the people filling it .. The pool tables have people playing on them .. the dart boards are filled with competitors playing for a tab on the house for the night .. The bar is surrounded by the normal group of ruffians that surround it every weekend .. The booths are filled with couples just getting away from life for the evening ...tables are filled with drinks the bartender's are whipping around filling orders .. The waitresses are busy taking orders and keeping everyone supplied in drinks .. The band is playing in the back ground and the dance floor is full of people just wanting to lose themselves in the moment .. She is seated at the bar .. her long burgundy hair cascading down her back in gentle supple waves coming to rest just above her slightly flared hips .. Her long legs crossed at the knee her foot lightly swinging as she takes in her surroundings .. Her grace is what draws every eye

Batteries
A couple of months ago, I bought this cute little toy called a Rock-It Vibe. It's about the size of a man's middle finger and has these 3 little bead type things on the end of it. Takes only one battery. Anyway, this thing is like OMG, awesome, glorious, a piece of heaven. But...either I am using it way too much or it is sucking down some battery juice. LMAO. Seems I am going through a 4 pack of batteries a week. Hmmm.... Perhaps I should look into a battery business instead of this jewelry business. Or perhaps I should do more business and less vibrating. LMAO

To All My Friends And Fans
I want to say thank you for being such a great friend.I am sorry that I dont show much love.I am going to try and show more love than i do.I have met some nice,interesting,kind,and cool people on here and I hope to continue to meet new people.I love having all you guys as friends and all of yal have really touched my heart.Once again thanks!!!!!!!!Love All of you guys and gals!!!!!!

This Is What My Name Means
S-easy to fall in love with T- loyal to those i love E- easy to fall in love with V- not judgemental E- easy to fall in love with N- dead sexy A: Likes to drink. B: Likes people C: Is wild and crazy. D: Has one of the best personalities ever. E: Easy to fall in love with F: People adore you. G: Never let people tell you what to do. H: Have a very good personality and looks. I: Loves everyone. J: Lives life for fun. K: Really silly. L: Loved by everyone M: Makes dating fun N: Dead sexy. O: Best in bed. P: Popular with all types of people. Q: A hypocrite. R: Fuckin crazy S: Easy to fall in love with T: Loyal to those you love. U: Really like to chill. V: Not judgemental. W: Very broad minded. X: Never let people tell you what to do. Y: One of the best damn bf/gf ne one could ask for. Z: Always ready.

Day That Will Not Be Forgotten
SEPT. 8, 2002 Sept. 11 2001: A day that will not be forgotten. By: Chad Bacon I thought that I would add my memories and thoughts about Sept. 11, 2001, into our Family Tree. So that future members of our families might know that their was a human side to this act, that will be in American history lessons in few years to come. I remember sitting that morning watching TV and just flipping though the channels to see what was on . As I channel surfed I saw a skyscraper on fire on the Fox News Channel. So I stopped to see what was going on thinking it was overseas. While look at it I realized it was the Twin Towers in NY. At that time they where still thinking it was an accidental plane cash, instead a terrorist act. I didn't see the second plane hit. I was out of the room taking care of Miranda. When Miranda and I returned to the living room. We saw the second tower was on fire. Then they said an

Everything Happens For A Reason
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be; your roommate, your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of the soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, l

Our Mother
In Loving Memory of Betty Gale Robinson Born on September 26,1951 Went to be with Jesus on April 19,1987 Our Mother was murderd by our father, the headlines read Murder, Suicide. Because after he shot her in the heart and the back of the head. he turned the gun on his self and pulled the trigger shooting himself in the side of his head. this as been the hardest thing for us even though in April it will be twenty years. theres never a day that we dont think of her theres not a day that goes by that we dont wish that she could of seen her grand children you know she has twelve right now and two twins boys on the way. and she never got a chance to see them, only one. the first one but she only got to see her a couple of times before she died. theres not a day that goes by that my heart dosent cry out to her we miss her so badly. theres not a day that she isnt on our mines . and in our hearts. we lost everything when we lost her. apart of us went with her and we grow up

Monday Blues
Just wanting to say a quick hello to all my friends. Sorry I haven't been around much, seems like the change in weather gave me a bit of the blues. Just know I love all my friends & will be in touch with everyone within the next couple days. And although I'm not a religious person, this quote seems most appropriate for me today. " I believe in God as I believe the sun will rise every day. Not because I can see it, but because by it I can see everything."

Re: The Legend Of The White Buffalo Calf Woman
One Day two Indian warriors came upon a beautiful woman while hunting. One of the warriors showed her no respect... and he was killed on a cloud of smoke...And to the other warrior who thought she was holy, she softly said, "Do not fear me, for I will bring something to your people to help them live." The good warrior rushed back to his people's camp with this news. He told them to prepare for her arrival by thinking honorable thoughts and by performing good deeds. Some days later, the people heard beautiful singing coming from the edge of their campsite. They stopped working and turned their eyes toward a truly beautiful sight: It was the young Indian woman the warrior had spoken of. But in person, she was far more beautiful than words could tell. She was dressed in white buckskins and her long dark hair glowed like hot, liquid stone. On her face, was a most peaceful countenance and her smile showered the people in warmth and happiness. "I have somethin

Shucks And Gawrsch
It's weird. In the time I've been on here some of you have said some of the nicest things to me/ about me. It amazes me. To have this many people say I'm attractive in some way is just mind boggeling. Sure my freinds say some of the same things, but they're my freinds, they're just trying to make me feel good. But to have it come from total strangers who have no reason to try to help my self esteem/image? Totally unexpected and very much appreciated. Even if you were just saying it to be nice. Thank you. I'll have to rethink now.... Would my face actually gag a maggot or just make him a bit queezy?

Our Love Divine
you want to know why you make me cry? its all because i wonder why why you are so true to me you are true as the sky is blue fate has brought us together in the stormiest of weather only because you are mine I can call our love divine

All Da Single Ladies
i'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because she's sleepy, but because she wants to be closer to you... i'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive resturant... i'm the girl who says,"ok, but you owe me..." jokingly not because i actually want something, but because it means i get to spend more time with you... i'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and i will have fun because it means i am spending time with you... i'm the girl who never forgets all sweet little things you do for me... i'm the girl who never gives up hope even when i tell others i have... i'm the girl who once i let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. & even if we spend time apart, i'm the girl who never forgets you. i'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss... i'm the girl who you can talk to about anything... i'm the girl who laughs at your jokes... i'm the girl who w

Snap Judgment
I wrote this back in '06 when I was a little bigger, had hair down to the middle of my back, a goatee that was 8 inches long.. both hair and goat were board straight... when I had my shirt off people would see all of my tattoos and from a single look, assume that I was a bad person. I wrote this because of that. Snap Judgment 6'5", 245. long hair, long goatee one look, snap judgment you think you know me you think "trouble", "fighter"..... monster look away, walk away, keep away you'd think different if you took the time but you don't take the time one look, snap judgment, closed mind spiraling down, the world cries opportunity lost

Forever
was feeling kinda down today but it got better. i had said something to rochelle on here and she hadn't responded and hadn't replied to ne of my messeges or ne thing so i thought that she was avoiding me or something, then we talked later so i felt better. though thinking about things while talking to her made me rather sad cuz i still had that feeling tat it was just a game or something. i donno when we talk especially on the phone i know she cares about me, and each night we talk on the phone i can hear the emotion in her voice even more but then when she's not there it seems to make me not sure it was ever there or something. it sort of makes me feel that i need her to always be there. i want the feeling to last when she isn't there because now especially she can't always be there and compared to what i'm used to she can't be there that often and not even really there only talking to me. ive been singing a song obsessively that has to do with what is going on in my mind and such

Basic English
OK, I'm going to rant here. Bear with me. "your" is a possessive. It's used in front of something you own. Like "your house" or "your child." It is NOT used in the case where you would otherwise use "you are," such as "your hot" or "your going." In this case, what you want, really, is "YOU ARE," which is shortened to "you're." So "you're hot" or "You're going to Canada" or whatever. Of course, nothing is worse than "ur." And then there's "there," which is even worse. "There" is used to define a place. "We're there." "Their" is a possessive, as in "their coats," "their house," etc. But wait! Then there's "they're!" Guess what, that's just like "you're." It's short for "they are," meaning "they're hot," or "they're going to Canada." Luckily, noone's figured out a way to slaughter that in internet speak. Sometimes I wander over the internet and wonder how half the people on it graduated from high school. I'm the first to admit that I'm a bit of an English snob

Dreams
I look at you getting lost in your eyes watching your smile craving your touch wanting to kiss all seems but a dream I think of you we walk together hand in hand roam the park arm in arm all seems but a dream yet you are with me Baby I'm falling falling for you ~ so true my soul seeking yours fall more each day my heart is yours as I dream of you and know you are my dream come true

The Rules Thought They Would Stay Here Longer Than The Bulletins
1. the female always makes the rules 2. the rules are subject to change at any time without prior notice 3. no male can possibly know all the rules 4. if a female thinks that a male knows all the rules,she must imediately change some or all of them 5. the female is never wrong 6. if the female is wrong it is beacause of a flagrant misunderstanding which was a direct result of something the male did or said wrong 7. if rule 6 applies the male must immediately apoligize for causing the misunderstanding 8. the female can change her mind at any given point or time 9. the male may never change his mind ever 10. the female has every right to be angry at any time 11. the male must remain calm at all times unless the female wants him to be angry or upset 12. the female must never under any circumstances let the male know he should be upset or angry 13. the male is expected to mind read at all times 14. the male who can't abide by THE RULES can't take the heat,lacks a backbone,and

Long Trip... But Worth The Reward?
So... I've landed a job interview with a staffing agency. They say they want to test me for a possible position in Valley Stream, NY (about 5-10 minutes from my residence in Queens, NY). And for this interview, I get to drive all the way out to Moorestown, NJ (approximately 2 hours away). So... I'll be driving two hours to spend 30 minutes talking about a job 5 minutes from me... and then driving two hours back. I hope it's worth it. This would be so much cooler if I knew more people in New Jersey. At least I could get a lunch date out of it, too...

Ahem.... *shines Halo*
You scored as The Devil. This card is all about viloent or sexual nature. believe it or not but the two things are related. You're traped in distructive ways. It represents the darker side of human natureThe Devil95%Death85%The Magician85%The High Priestess80%The Moon75%The Hanged Man70%The Empress and The Emperor65%The Lovers65%The Fool60%Justice50%Judgement50%

Thank You All
I don't know if anyone will read this but I thought I would give it a shot.First I want to say a BIGGGGGGGGG thanks to all of you who have been so wonderful to me. I know Iam not the prettyest or the skinnyest out here in LC but you guys make me feel like Iam. =). I wish all of you the best an agin ~*~Thank You~*~ -BB

Songs For/about Me...
Please reply and tell me what song you would dedicate to me, or what song u think describes me.. i am tryin to get a list for my site.. :) thank you just put the name of song - and artist.. muahz p.s. you can name more than one..

Visit This Free Adult Forum Site
There are SO many absolutely stunning women (and men) on CT, and I would be so thrilled if you came by this FREE ADULT FORUM SITE and checked it out. There are lots of people who would love to talk to you. Granted, it's no way near as cool as CT, but it's still a place to meet people and be nice and naughty :D So please, feel free to drop by and check it out, and if you feel compelled to do so, please, take a moment to sign up. You can set up your own gallery and blog and start off posting in the forums right away. Post whatever you'd like, either pics of yourself, of others, random porn, whatever! or simply post a discussion subject. Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be of some fun. So please, stop on by :) **kisses and hugs** **Oh, and of course, you men can feel free to stop by as well, after all, the more, the merrier I always say

Ramble About Her
I sit here and watch her sleeping wondering if she knows how deep my love runs I can only hope she knows that she is my soul my every reason to breath. i'd die for her, better yet, i'd kill for her! every beat of my heart is to her every breath! everything i do is to make her happy. i dont care how mushy this sounds! i'll scream it through out eternity! i love her!!!!!!!!!!! i love her!!!!!!!!!!!! i love her!!!!!!!!!!!! there's no one better in this damned world! no one can make me stray i'm stuck on her like crazy glue! i wasn't searching but found in her true love i'd die, i mean really die, if she was gone! i feel my chest is about to explode i feel my soul is no longer mine! I LOVE YOU LISA MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW!!!!!!

Very Depressed
ppl at my job keep picking on me and lying on me and getting me written up for things i dont even do. :( i wish i could find a new one soon i really have to get out of there i dont care what i would have to do. im trying not to let it get me down but some of the ppl that would get me in trouble i thought were friends and they just stabbed me in the back like it was nothing. and i feel so betrayed and alone now. like i wonder whats wrong with me that ppl would want to hurt me like that. what did i do to deserve it. i really dont want to go back there i cant sleep or eat it just makes me sick and upset thinking about how i have to go back. i just dont want to face it. i cant. if i didnt have so many bills i would of just walked off the job by now but i gotta wait till i find a new job. :( ive been filling out applications all day and night. its only been one day though but i keep hoping ill get a call soon to get away from there. i hate this so much like why cant ppl just leave me alone.

Scope
Gemini - I'm a whore? Cancer - Im the wifey/hubby type Leo - I fuck like no other! Virgo- I LOVE Sex Libra -I'm great in bed! Scorpio - I'm sexy as hell Sagittarius - I'm the best at sex! Taurus - I fuck better than you Capricorn -I can have sex all night LONG! . Aquarius - I can make u love me Pisces - i have great lips to kiss! Aries - I'm a pimp

Your Opinion
I want your opinion on bean bag shot guns... For a suicidal person... From one of the reports of my ex... County Coroner said Friday that XXXXXX had been shot in the back of the right shoulder, in the mid-chest and slightly behind the right side of the head. The shot to the head penetrated skull, fracturing it,(Cause of death) she said. The other two shots caused some bruising, she said. The first 2 shots were to stun him...it didn't faze him...the third was meant to cause injury or death..... Ex had a knife in both hands... Also approx 8 months ago he attempt suicide an officer was injured.......

Quandry"s
Well life as always takes twists and turns you never see comming. My life as usual is once again unsteady. sometimes I ask myself if I'll ever have a nice safe, calm , uneventfull life. There are days that I really want that. But Ive noticed thru the years that safe ,uneventfull and calm are fucking boring. Im nothing if not bored easily. So there are times... that I tend to get into things most people do not. Doesnt help that Im a flirt and very open minded and love people that are the same. The more "off" you are the more interesting I find you. Im sure if I was born into the Goth age of peircings and black ,Id been first in line.. My motto has always been"Life aint worth a rats ass if you arent skating on thin ice" Seems as I age, Im sticking to that motto. The one thing I can say is,ThatIve had a hell of a good time in this life, I have been deeply loved by 4 men,and loved in return, Ive had the lust of many, and had some awesome sexual experiences. I have 6 healthy beautifull kids

Good Morning To All!!
just a quick good morning to all my friends out here in LC land hehe!!! time for me to hear out and work BOOO!! but to think its helping me get the money so i can go to my baby... love you lots Teeny!! well i shall be back when i get home from work....anywho all ya all have a wonderful day

I Will Not
i will not stand and cry beacause you are not here you are the thousand winds that blow you are the diamond glint in the snow you are yesterdays dreams untold you are tomorrows vision of gols you are the smile of spirited years you are the drops of heart felt tears you are the sunlight on the grain you are the autums gentle rain you are the stranger of good deeds you are the friend who fills my needs you are the amour in the songs of love you are the mighty spectacle above you are the colors in a rainbow you are the strength that nutures my soul you are the song of the morning thrush you are my sweet uplifting rush you are the silent birds in flight you are the sun rise that ends the night i will not stand and cry because you are always here

What I Would Do For My Gurlie
GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN...and boxers. X LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES. X KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS. X TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL. X L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER. X LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR. X MESS WITH HER HAIR. X JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER. X INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0. F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES. (Depends on what they are) X L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE. X TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P. X H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS. X WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER. X LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS. X GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER. (I wouldn't get her mad JUST to kiss her) X TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK. X STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK. X WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER X KISS HER F0REHEAD. X GIVE HER THE W0RLD. (AS MUCH AS I CAN AFFORD LOL) X WRITE HER LETTERS. X LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES. (IF THEY

Aliens On Earth
Aliens on Earth Late one night, an alien spacecraft landed near a deserted gas station. After a bit, one of the aliens came down the ramp, looked around, and walked over to one of the gas pumps, where he demanded, "Earthling! Take me to your leader!" The gas pump, of course, did not reply. The alien became agitated and again demanded, "Take me to your leader!" The gas pump remained silent. Frustrated, the alien went back to the spacecraft where he was confronted by the captain who wanted a report. "I contacted an earthling - but he would not cooperate." "Hmmm. I will deal with this earthling myself," said the captain. "Yes sir. Be careful sir, I have a feeling there could be trouble." The captain left the ship and approached the gas pump. "Earthling, you will cooperate. Take me to your leader." The gas pump remained unresponsive. "Very well." The captain drew his blaster. "If you do not respond by the count of three, I shall be forced to fire on you......One. Two. Three!" ZZ

Wtf!
Ok..21 years of this shit...and 3 1/2 months of constant pain is makin me..go a little batty ,makin me feel MORE than useless. My doctor calls me a pelvic cripple, my husband has to wait on me hand and foot..i can barly take care of my kid, can't take her to a park to even fuckin play cause it hurts to walk...What kind of fuckin mom am I? she sees me drugged up on painkillers all the time, she sees me in pain CONSTANTLY and half asleep causeof painkillers. NO 4 yr old deserves to have a mom like this. Then there's this question of sanity..lately..It's so not there..the sanity, the depression has kicked in FULL tilt and I don't know how to sto pit, I want to see blood...*MY* Blood more than i have ever wanted to in my life, and the only things that stop me from carving anymore are the 2 people I am completely fuckin useless for. The more i get told to fight the more i wanna tell people to shut the fuck up... This pain, this disease ... i don't know anymore..live..die..carve..b

Learning To Trust Again -- Written By Me
I’ve always believed in the importance of trust, Even though others made that almost inconceivable to do. They told me things they knew I’d desired to hear, Rather than the truth which caused me torment and pain. How do I learn to trust again, that’s a good question? I find even when You have given me no reason to doubt you, Some of those painful thoughts flood my mind, bringing back in the doubt. And I don’t want that to happen again. I want to trust you, there has got to be a way. I don’t want to disappoint you again, I only want to please you. Be patient with me as I know you can, I will do my best not to let you down again. I’m not perfect, and may fall down from time to time, Just tell me you’ll be there, to pick me back up, And point me in the right direction. Written for: Sir Emil By: Dayna August 20, 2006

You Found Me -- Written By Me.
There once was a time, when I almost gave up Searching for a real Master seemed impossible ... Then You found me. There once was a time, after hearing so many lies I felt as if I couldn't go on anymore Because I was afraid to trust anyone ... Then You found me. You have given me hope, desire and sparked the flame in my soul to serve again Because I believe in You ... I trust You ... I want to please You. You found me and I am so thankful. To: Sir Emil Written by: dayna 8/1/2006

Being Sick Sucks
i cannot think.. i can hardly type.. i see bullitens i want to reply to and post to and I think if I tried I would likely screw something up... so manybe i will try later though some, if i replied to them would likely think.. wow.. this is a shocker... he replied. LOL nyquill is kicking my hiney too... gonna nap bye

Friends
Why is it that when someone makes a mistake they get crusified for it over and over and over again.It makes no sense to me. Which is why I am starting to hate the human race...I am not perfect far from it and I know I can be a complete ass...I just wish my friend would just forget about the past and move on....To start over..I know I messed up and I believe I am paying for it through my health...Which is getting worse by the second.....Maybe I should just do something about this....

What Every Woman Should Know
THANK YOU BETTY...THIS INSPIRED ME!!!!! A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra.. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... One friend who Always makes her Laugh... And one Who lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A good piece of furniture not previously owned by Anyone else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE Eight matching p lates, Wine glasses with stems, And a recipe for a meal that will Make her guests feel honored. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A feeling of control over Her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to fall in love Without losing herself... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... HOW TO QUIT A JOB BREAK UP WITH A LOVER A

What Makes A Man A Man?
Sitting here the little man stirring. Feeling like a pubescent boy trapped in a man's body. What makes a man a man, not a boy? Is it how his body looks and feels? Is it how he sees the world? Is it that he takes responsibility for his actions? Is it how he treats others? Is it how he treats his mother? Or is it how he acts rather than reacts?

So True
Yeah.... its not wierd at all..at my age ppl would put down the bigger women...i tell them....thats too bad...u just dnt know wat ur missing.... cuz for me....all that ass feels so good....i love it... so for all the bigg women out there...i am a young male lookin for a BBW wit pride..soo get at me im 18 so dnt worry about me not being legal....im fully legal andi know how to use my package....so get at me

What Is This World Coming To?
okay i guess this blog is about the way the world is now and how it was years n years ago. Then again it could just be my random bitchin about things lol..who knows..who cares..I watch on the news about how people are getting murdered and robbed and how about so much stupid shit is going on within our states, and yet we sit back and watch it all unfold like wildfire. yes i can understand we may not be able to do anything about it, and that people tell me well vote that will help get some things done..In my opinion i have to disagree with them, for the fact that no matter if i voted it still wouldnt change the fact that half of our congressmen still feel the urge to think with their lower brain cells than the upper. just my opinion, yes i know others may not feel this way like i do and that is just alright by me, im not gonna judge you or say your stupid for having a different opinion. I just feel that if they say something they should mean it, don't be a hypocrite. Same with religion,

Baby Girl & Daddy
Why am I so nervous about this? We haven't been together for very long, but I still trust him. I know nothing bad will happen to me. We had talked about it a few days ago, but hadn't decided whether we wanted to try it. This morning, when he left for work, I made up my mind. I went to the store to pick up what I needed, and hurried home to get ready before I changed my mind. I went into the bathroom to start my transformation. First, I got out the shaving cream, a razor, and a towel, and sat on the edge of the tub. I shaved my legs until they were smooth. Next came something I had never done before, but always wanted to try. I slathered shaving cream all over my pussy and carefully shaved it clean. When I used the washcloth to rinse it off, I got a little tingle in my clit. Oh, yes, this is going to be fun today. I stood up, dried off, and walked to the mirror. He loves when I wear my medium length red hair down, but today is a special day. Today, my hair is going to be in pigtails.

All About Jesus
A very good friend of mine sent this to me: Joan of Arc had style. Jesus had style. ~Charles Bukowski The Christ that emerges from Mark, tramping through the haphazard events of His life, had a ringing intensity about him that I could not resist. Christ spoke to me through His isolation, through the burden of His death, through His rage at the mundane, through His sorrow. Christ, it seemed to me was the victim of humanity's lack of imagination, was hammered to the cross with the nails of creative vapidity ~Nick Cave As a child I received instruction both in the Bible and in the Talmud. I am a Jew, but I am enthralled by the luminous figure of the Nazarene....No one can read the Gospels without feeling the actual presence of Jesus. His personality pulsates in every word. No myth is filled with such life. ~Albert Einstein Must then Christ perish in torment in every age to save those that have no imagination?" ~George Bernard Shaw Jesus was all right, but his disciples

Drug Addicition
People ask me about what I went through as I was doing drugs....I will tell you this though...coming off of drugs was the worse thing I felt...I'd rather be kicked in the dick then go through that ever again...you know I have had a lot of pain in my life...I am the one that caused it...but as I was going through my addiction...I have been through a few things...I was shot once in the back...now your saying wow that hurt...well I can tell you this...it is not like the movies at all...it hurts...alot...and your in some much pain you can barely talk...and it fucking sucks....now being stabbed and cut...well that's not too bad but seeing your own blood may send you over the top...I still have the scars most are almost gone now...but you can still see them...I guess they are just a reminder of what I have done in my past...I have paid my debt...I don't drink...I don't do drugs...I smoke cigs...and i love my coffee...I done my time...and I am glad it's over

Birthday
Your Birthdate: February 22 You tend to be understated and under appreciated. You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way. People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little. Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know. Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid Your power color: Silver Your power symbol: Square Your power month: April What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Job Stuff
So... today I had my very first job interview. And twenty minutes later, I have my very first job. woo hoo. Monday is going to be my first day on the job. I'm now going to be getting off my lazy ass and working at Panera Bread. Good luck to me.

Yes Why?
Why is it that bad things always happen to good people? I know with me I always seem to have it happen to me, I try to be as good of a person as I can and yet the shit always lands on me. Then I see all these people out here that do bad things and are just flat out bad people, and it seems like good things come to them. Like with me, I was in an abusive relationship and a divorce that ended up all messed with my kids in the middle. I just dont understand why things happen like that, but alot of people say it all happens for a reason. Well I wish I knew what those reasons are? But enough bitching I am done on this subject.

Why Rate A 1
why would anyone rate something a 1 if you dont like something then just dont rate it at all if a person gets a 1 then that just shows the immaturity of others wether it be picture or a persons profile they do what they can to show off stuff they dont need some arrogant individual rateing them a low score so for all those who give a one to anyone kiss my ass

Types Of Orgasms
Sex with a masked man carrying a sword: zorro-gasms Sex with a prostitute: whore-gasms Sex in a boat: oar-gasms Sex when resistance is futile: Borg-asms Sex on a golf course: fore-gasms Sex with top of the class: dork-gasms Sex that wasn't very satisfying: There's the door-gasms Sex at the entrance to your house: door-gasms Sex on the carpet: floor-gasms Sex with a Nordic God: Thor-gasms. Sex at the supermarket: store-gasms Sex with an accountant: bore-gasms Sex at a Steven King film: horror-gasms Sex with 'Arthur': Dudley Moore-gasms Sex for hours and hours on end: sore-gasms while broke: poor-gasms. Sex with a lion: roar-gasms Sex in a gold mine: ore-gasms. Sex with a bullfighter: toreador-gasms Sex with a nymphomaniac: more-gasms Sex with a beloved partner: adore-gasms Sex with a dermatologist: pore-gasms Sex in Asia: Singapore-gasms Sex on the beach: shore-gasms Sex at an all-you-can-ea

Korn
Tearjerker by Korn KORN LYRICS "Tearjerker" Well I wish there was someone Well I wish there was someone To love me When I used to be someone And I knew there was someone That loved me As I sit here frozen alone Even ghosts get tired and go home As they crawl back under the stones And I wish there was something Please tell me there's something better And I wish there was something more than this Saturated loneliness And I wish I could feel it And I wish I could steal it Abduct it, corrupt it, but I never can it's just saturated loneliness Does the silence get lonely? Does the silence get lonely? Who knows? I've been hearing it tell me I've been hearing it tell me Go home Cause the freaks are playing tonight They packed up and turned out the lights And I wish there was something Please tell me there's something better And I wish there was something more than this Saturated loneliness And I wish I could feel it And I wish I could st

Little Goldfish
Little Nancy is in the garden filling in a hole when her neighbor peers over the fence. Interested in what the cheeky-faced youngster is doing, he politely asks, "What are you up to there, Nancy?" "My goldfish died," replies Nancy tearfully, without looking up. "And I've just buried him." The neighbor is concerned. "That's an awfully big hole for a goldfish, isn't it?" Nancy pats down the last heap of earth, then replies, "That's because he's inside your fucking cat."

My Day
I'm not feeling too good tonight. I feel tired, my back hurts, I pulled a muscle in my side, laundry wore me out, work wore me out. At least I got a new job waiting for me in about four weeks. I finally got around to telling everyone that I'm leaving. My "going away" party (if I get one) will be the third one my department throws in a month by the time I leave. (I'll be #3.) But I'm not expecting a party. I just don't want any crying when I'm gone. (by the way... I'm talking about leaving my job. Not this site.)

Star Sapphire
Star Sapphire What might one find in the sun? A radiance of light that shines, A display that allows for clear view, A perspective of reality. So you may walk your chosen road with vision, But does this perspective hold you strong? Is reality all one may see? To believe you are without fantasies, a dream, A means to say your heart ceases to beat, But a dream awaits for those that seek it, To seek a wonder that is so distant is madness, Though the distance is only physical. Your heart cries to you to know what you see, A beauty that is beyond even the stars, A beauty so profound, stunning does not proper justice. This fantasy holds you in awe, How could such a fantasy be conceived? Does imagination run so strong to create utter chaos? A chaos of a one too good to be real? This dream is too grand and could not be real, But it can’t be, this is not a dream, Your fantasy walks, she is real, and the wonder of your senses is near, Though far from you she is near in y

How Many Children Do You Have?
After losing my first baby,Kevin.and no longer looking pregnant,I dreaded the day that I wouldfirst be asked this question,becauseI didn't know how to answer it.But then,it seemed like months passed without anyone actually asking me,and so I began to become irritated that I hadn't been asked-I felt as if I was being denied the opportunity to affirm Kevin's existance by mentioning him in a response to the question. Eventually.of course,I was asked,and although I do not remeber now what my response was,I know that I made it through the conversation without breaking down.Over time,I developed various responses to the question that I use depending on the situation.If,for example,I am in a situation that does not seem to allow for mentioning KevinO(or my little one I miscarried in 2004)Such as prehaps when I am making small talk with new people,whose trying to get to know me.I will say something like I have four children two in heaven and two on earth.This response feels ok to me.This w

Depression
I went to go see my mom and get some stuff today and this is after she had knee surgary and she was in alot of pain and it made me depresse cuse i cant o shit about it and it seems that they are liveing a happy life without me. I know my dad dont care cause he is an ass. but i hate being depressed. it makes me feel that no one cares

Sex Quiz
You scored as Hot. You are Hot, you scream and are wild, people love doing anything sexual with you.Hot94%Soft81%Wet75%Violent63%Sweet56%Exciting50%Awkward19%Shy6%What is your sexual style?created with QuizFarm.com

Mmmm...
It's 12:45 a.m. I'm sitting here and I just can't stop thinking about him pulling my hair, spanking me & fucking my wet pussy. The thought of it happening and happening right now has me feeling nervous, hott, sexy and so mutha fuckin wet that I can't help, but reach down and separate my now moist, lace thong from my pussy lips - and start gently, yet aggressively massaging my now bulging clit. I'm licking my lips, and thinking crazy thoughts as my finger disappears inside my hott, wet pussy...damn....I'm about to cum...my hips are thrusting back and forth out of control and I'm moaning so loud, I wonder if the guests in the surrounding rooms, here in this hotel can hear me...the more I think about them listening...the more HOT I get and OH SHIT...I'm starting to cum all over my hand. MMMM...a nice HOT, wet, juice begins to flow down the crack of my ass and I'm so fucking horny...I'm driving myself crazy...if only he knew how bad I want - correction NEED him! Too bad he's not here rig

Closeing The Book On Katrina
Please forgive me on the spelling I can't spell or type but I figure for closeing purposes I'll but this out there. I'm finally finished with all of the mental issues Katrina has brought me and as I need to vent here we go... 1st off let me say thanks to the town of Jonesville, La these people really are angels on earth. Now to everthing else. Let me start by saying FUCK YOU FEMA and your $4200. Let me put that in perspective for you. $4200 to pay rent buy cloths for me and my Daughter as well as food. I did get the emergancey food stamps but that was only for the first 3 months. Also I would love to take this moment to say FUCK You to our president G.W. we can rebuild nations elsewhere but I can't get my neighborhood rebuilt. Good job on that one! Also can someone tell me why people where left to die for almost a week? Good job on that too really protecting the citizens of this nation. I would also like to give a big FUCK YOU to Winn Dixie when I called my employer to t

Super Long Day....super Long Week. Damn.
so I worked. 4. to midnight. I was supposed to be out at 10 but since Im nice, I felt like helping out a little since my manager for the night is preg. Im dead. tomorrow I work 12 to whenever the hell they let me off. so this is how it's gonna be for awhile. me putting in assloads of hours. which means I won't be on here much. at all. just lettin ya'll know. and now I go to bed. with my socks on. so I can rock on.

Voltaire!
I went and saw Voltaire tonight! It was great! K, the place was also having their Tuesday night goth/industrial dance night too, so you can imagine what kinda people were there. As Voltaire would call them "yarn heads" for the people who wear those fake dread wigs with diff colors. Guys in skirts and it wasn't the hot kilt kind either.. ew, just..no, guys shouldn't wear skirts. They also had a burlesque show and Votaire was rockin' out to it, it was funny, you'd look at the girls dancing to KMFDM and you'd glance over at Voltaire dancing along, funny. He was the coolest, when I went up to him to buy my tshirt and have him autograph 3 posters for my friends Katie, Alan (SilentOne on LC), and me.. he did it no problem, then I got my pic taken with him and he starts motioning me to come behind the table with him and then puts his arms around me.. I so wasnt ready for that, lol, cause he didnt do that with anyone else. During the burlesque show he danced up to me and asked "Amelia. how are

This Is The Most Beautiful Thing Anyone Has Ever Written For Me!
For the sun rises and the mist clears. A beauty I see from across the field, shining out from a crowd. Seeing her from afar like an angel up with the stars. Her beauty is pure and sweet a woman any man would love to meet. Thanks, Martin!!!

I Want To Be A Spectacle
So today i was walking around in what i consider normal clothing for myself and people kept starring finally someone spoke to me about being a spectacle (i hate old people) it makes me kinda enjoy the people starring tho anyone in south dakota have a large cage they wanna drag on a chain around a college campus?

Done
WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER TRYING...IM SICK OF SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENDING TO ME......I PUT MY HEART OUT THR CUZ IM STOOPID...I LOOK AT THE WORLD N I WANNA MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE...ILL DO ANYTHING FOR ANYONE..ANND CARE ABOUT EVERYONE.....BUT PPL DONT SEE THAT...ILL TELL THEM I LOVE THEM N THAT I CARE FOR THEM TILL IM BLUE IN THE FUCKIN FACE....N ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH....I PAY ATTENTION N I CARE.... BUT WHY SHOULD I??? I MEAN.. ALL I WANNA DO IS BE THR FOR A PERSONN ALL THEY DO IS TRY N PUSH ME AWAY..........IM SICK TO MY STOMACH...MY EYES ARE HURTING FROM ALL THE CRYIN...I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...I CANT...N IDK WHAT TO DO.... MY HEART IS ACHING N MY SOUL IS TORN APART.......WELL IM DONE NOW...I DONT WANNA EVER CARE FOR ANOTHER PERSON AGAIN... NEXT TIME I WANNA BE THE PERSON WHO SHITS ON YOU... NT THE ONE WHO GET SHIT ON THR ARE TYPOS...FUCK YOU I DONT CARE ITS 4 FUCKIN AM...N IM DEPRESSED..N IM GUNNA DO SUMTHIN I REGRET...FUCK YOU

My Life, My Love!!
You are the man that makes me smile when I am sad and that gives me hope when I feel as though I have lost my way. I never knew how much you loved me until today and it brought a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. I beg and plead, dear God....please let this be real...don't let me get hurt once more. Keep us safe and healthy full of life and love!!

Power Of Imagination
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 Power of imagination Do more than merely wishing for success. Imagine it in every detail. In your mind's eye, see yourself reaching the goals you have set. See and feel yourself living the dreams that mean the most to you. Whatever your goal may be, clearly and richly imagining it is a critical step. See yourself going there and you'll develop a workable understanding of precisely how to make the journey. Opportunity is turned into reality when you imagine yourself working your way through every step of that opportunity. Imagination is the starting point in bridging the gap between where you are and where you would like to be. The very act of imagination forces you to accept that certain things are indeed possible for you. Once those possibilities gain a foothold in your belief system, they begin to grow into real and tangible achievements. Everything you've ever done, you've first done in your mind. Imagine the very best, and you'll f

Online Attractions?
This is a question that I have been mulling over for quite a while, like several years. I would like your inputs and thoughts on this as ya'all read it. Thanks, Mark Why do many of us start experiencing attractions as well as feeling toward other people we meet online? Not just the physical attraction, but a true chemistry attraction. Please leave a comment, your input will be appreciated. I don't feel it necessary to rate this blog, but thanks anyway.

Big Beautiful Woman
Big Beautiful Woman From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia (Redirected from BBW) The phrase "Big Beautiful Woman" (commonly abbreviated as BBW) is used by its proponents to denote an attractive, self-confident "woman of size". BBWs are also the focus of a subculture with interests centered on the acceptance, support, and admiration of fat women. Exceptionally large women are called SSBBWs, with the SS standing for "super size". Recently, "Hypersize" has come into use to describe women upward of 500 pounds. The term "BHM," which stands for "big handsome man," is not nearly as prevalent as the term "BBW." Men who are attracted to BBWs are known to the world at large and the media as "chubby chasers" or "fat admirers" although many men who admire such women do not use either term to describe themselves. Some of these men are attracted exclusively to BBWs, while others are simply attracted to good-looking women regardless of size. There are also a large number of lesbian women wh

What I Believe
IF MY LOVE FOR YOU IS THE AIR THAT I BREATHE THEN MY LOVE FOR YOU IS ALL ROUND YOU I MAY BE FAT BUT UR UGLY I CAN LOOSE MY WEIGHT BUT U WILL STILL BE UGLY BEAUTY IS ON THE INSIDE MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BEAT TRUE IF U DONT HAVE ANYTHING GOOD TO SAY KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT

Seems Like........
almost everyone that i know has a kid or going to have a kid soonm, expect for me & like 3 of my friends. my friend from high school just had her child today at 8:36 AM it was a girl, she was 7lbs. i wont get to see her until tomorrow cuz the hosiptal is packed with new moms & all the rooms a filled up.

5 Levels Of Hangover - Lmao
ONE STAR HANGOVER (*) No pain. No real feeling of illness. You're able to function relatively well. However, you are still parched. You can drink 5 cokes and still feel this way. For some reason, you are craving a steak & fries. TWO STAR HANGOVER (**) No pain, but something is definitely amiss. You may look okay, but you have the mental capacity of a staple gun. The coffee you are chugging is only increasing your rumbling gut, which is still tossing around the fruity pancake from the 3:00 AM Waffle House excursion. There is some definite havoc being wreaked upon your bowels. THREE STAR HANGOVER (***) Slight headache. Stomach feels crappy. You are definitely not productive. Anytime a girl walks by you gag because her perfume reminds you of the flavored schnapps shots your alcoholic friends dared you to drink. Life would be better right now if you were home in your bed watching Lucy reruns. You've had 4 cups of coffee, a gallon of water, 3 iced teas and a diet Coke

Chicken Soup For The Soul
There is so much violence and child abuse going on in our world today that I thought I'd post something Hopeful and Promising. Love,Bill Love Notes By Debra Ayers Brown One sunny afternoon in May, when pink azalea, purple wisteria, and white dogwood painted our backyard in vibrant colors any child would love, my husband, Allen, called to tell me that finally a baby might be available for us to adopt. We wasted no time contacting the attorney handling the case. We quickly discovered the deadline was now. The birth mother would collect the applications that afternoon. With the clock ticking, I answered the questions about why we would make good parents. Several weeks went by, with no word. One rainy afternoon at the post office, I saw Cindy, who worked with the attorney. I asked, "Have you heard anything?" With downcast eyes, she answered, "I'm sorry. The birth mother picked up the applications, but she has disappeared." Disappointed, I relayed the news to Allen. Over

Quotes I Liked
And God, I promise... no more sex with anybody... unless they really, really, need it - Rue Macalahan as Blanche, The Golden Girls When we long for a life with no difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds, and diamonds are made under pressure. - Peter Marshall Man who stands on toilet is high on pot Failure is not falling down, it is not getting up again. - Mary Pickford Times fun when you're having flies. - Kermit the Frog "A career is a wonderful thing, but you can't snuggle up to it on a cold night." - Marilyn Monroe "A group of psychologists say they have discovered twenty-three different body language indicators that show whether or not a person is lying. If you would like to see all twenty-three at the same time, they recommend taking a guided tour of the White House" - Conan O'Brien "Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia." - Charles Schultz "Early to bed and early to rise, make

Women In Wrestling
Well it seems guys feel women should not be in this profession, some promoter say they would rather see woman 'actually not get in there and wrestle,and this to me is discrimination we have trained just as hard as the guys in this business and deserve to get our time showing off are abilities.I don't mind the cat fights but all you can do with them is slap, and roll whoop tee do!!!!!! let us go at it like the guys, but instead promoters just want woman there as a show pieces Some of the woman in indy can out wrestle some of the guys in the business, and of course out talk them in interview's. I myself do not like just walking to the ring and acting like someones trophy,I am an individual and deserve to be respected just as the guys in this business.I know I will get alot of ridicule from the guys in the business, but I mean no disrespect to anyone.this is .just my opinion. :wink: Last Edit

My Own Shit
I never wanted the fame, never cared for publicity/ but these niggas is all up in my face with negativity/ question my authenticy, mentally they my enemy/ physically I'm the energy, shit'n on niggas lyrically/ looks niggas give'n me, see'm in my periphery/ If they try'n to scare me, them niggas is fail' miserably/ My masculinity nigga you can see visibly/ And I smell pussy anywhere in you vicinity/ Get in my proximity and lose yo identity/ If you niggas foul I'm a hit you with a penalty/ you feel'n me cuz you niggas ain't live'n realistically/ Nickel dime niggas always talk'n bout ten-a-key/ You kill'n me literally, I'm only here metaphysically/ and all the hoes love me cuz I still believe in chivalry/

Birthday
Your Birthdate: October 17 You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

All I Want Is You
All I Want is You by LolitaBonita © I love you. You know that I do. I don’t want to be mean, but can’t you see That I need you Want you Pray every night that you were here by my side I lay in bed at night I recall your scent The smoothness of your skin The perfection in your eyes The pleasure on your face And the love I felt in your touch I will wait for you It’s so hard I can’t help but get angry It’s one of those things Being cruel to be kind I don’t want to be alone anymore All I want is you

For All The Cutters Out There....
I don't want to die here; The cold razor against my skin. I don't want to die here. I am not afraid here, I am whole when I cut. I do not want to be afraid.I do not want to die inside just to breath in; I'm tried of feeling so numb. By Plumb Song called cut. I was a cutter for many years, when I got sad or mad, just by cutting myself all the pain would go away. But it was only for a short time. I have not cut myself for about four years now. With the help of some friends whom I will not say their names but thank you . There is help out there. Lisa

Freaked Out!
Yeah so I didn't have such a great day today!!! Some of you know that I work at a gas station for a grocery store......Some people are just complete morons!!!! When you fill up a gas can you have to set the damn gas can on the ground!!!! DO NOT LEAVE IT IN YOUR TRUCK , CAR,OR TRAILER!!!!!!!!!!!!! I do not wish to be burned to death thank you very much!!! It is a good idea to also NOT talk on your cell phone while fueling your car!!! And when you get out of your car and before you touch the fuel nozzel and pump your gas to touch your car. You create static electricity from sliding in and out of your car. So before you start fueling touch your car to ground yourself!!!!!! Anyways this is what happened......Some guy comes in with a truck and trailer with atvs in the trailer. He starts filling his gas can without taking it off the trailer and putting on the ground. Before I could go out and say anything....FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CHAOS!!!!!!!!! The whole gas station was full o

A New Begining
Well, here I am now, on Lost Cherry. Why? Hmm, good question. I don't like LJ... Myspace has become Adspace, and well the people here all seem a bit more... accepting. I like acceptance. Intolerance is one of the few things in this world that truly bothers me on a regular basis. I have yet to get a 'bad' comment here, nor anyone being anything but kind and gracious. What I like here as well is a broader sense of freedom. Far more pictures allows one to show so many different sides of themselves. It allows the artists out there to show what they can do.... and that along is a great thing. Now we have blogs as well, so that people can put their thoughts to the world, and allow anyone to write anything from the mundane day to day life to truely compelling. And the good part is that boht o these extremes are important, AND given a place here. The gifts idea is also something that is a welcome addition. I like the idea of showing ones style this way. There is a lot mor

Why It's So Hard For Me To Smile
I know you all must be thinking why i hardly smile in my pics well its like this, Have you ever felt you was in the moment when things felt right until you find out for yourself that thing change when you least expected it for i will the to the hardships the limits me from smiling, i use to think love was blind till i had to prove it to you how u say well let me show you valentines is no special day for me cuz all if eva made me do is think of you of the long night i stay up workin in the gift shop to show how make i care for you only not to feel the same love back from your , love is blind for when i sanf for you in front of my student peers talent show for you, even though i was shy inside i work around my pride inside did all nervous as hell still got the standin ovation of of heart fell but yet the one thing i turn for to see is that you was not in love with me, like goes along way when you grownin up to save up your lunch money to give u sumthing speacial be it candy of all sort

What Is Your Hidden Sexual Talent?
Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Online Friendships
Its amazing to me how one can really grow to care about other people and consider them friends via internet communication. I've met alot of people on the internet that i truely consider friends and what feels really good is the fact that i know in my heart the feelings mutual! I ask myself, if say Nica, or Adam, or Joe, or Bella, or hillbilly, or any of the people i truely consider friends was really needing someone by there side cause they were say, considering suicide. Would i SERIOUSLY drop what i was doing for a few days and go to them and try to help them through whatever and the answer is genuinly YES! With out a doubt! Everyone I have become good friends with here on the LC I mean it when i say YOU FUCKERS ROCK!!!! WoOoOoOoOoT!!!!!!!!!

Going On 30
well only 9 days till im 30 i cant believe time goes by so fast its crazy i hear after 30 it goes faster then ever lol well at least i look young for my age i guess thats a good thing lol im holding on to the last few days of my 20's lol

Our First 3sum
mfm 3sums some say why share your wife i say its all about haveing great sex there nothing like the feeling of seeing your wife getting axactly what she diserves ok here we go one night she said hey lets play tonight so we had a freind over we had a fe drinks then i went to the rest room when o returnd they were both naked on the bed rubbing caressing suckiung licking at that piont i could have jumped right in but i stood the in awww it looked so great the sounds comming from her she was so enjoying her self then at that moment my cock was hard as a rock she looked up and motiond for me to join in i was like hell yeh i jumped on the bed he was licking her wet pussy she was sucking my throbing cock i was rubbing and licking her hard nipples they were so hard you could cut gless her hips we moving i saw she just couldnt wait to have a cock in her hot pussy it was so wet then we switched i was licking her she tasted so good i placed both hands under her ass so i could pull her pus

So The Week Is Almost Done!!!
yet another work week from hell....i really cant take much more of working there...and i wont soon enough!!! im looking forward to this move and to be there with my baby!!! only thing that keeps me sane while at work, is thinking about being home with you baby!!!

Fridays Game
GAME ON FRIDAY!!! im going to get so much shit... i have to wear the uniform to skol that day... but i look hotter... cuz i got a smaller size skirt so it fits better and i just ordered new cloths out of a mag. i am so proud... i had to call the store thing cuz i am too small for the sizing... lol im so happy!!!!

Snake Pit Of Self
deep in this snake pit of you i find myself staring back at me all i hate, is a mirror to my soul reflecting my fears, my thoughts, my death... consuming my soul as a fire would consume a forrest. you take me away... but you are nothing more then me. nothing more then a shallow image of what i once was. a shell of sacrifice i laid down years ago... you are no longer a cool breeze on a summers day or a glass of water in the desert. you are now the weight that pins me down. never knowing when i will see you i close my eye's when i pass refelctions in fear that you might reappear, like today. but i see you. i look in your eye's. my eye's. i see the faults. the flaws. the fear. but now i see what i am supposed to see. my past is no more. my fears are far behind me. my flaws and faults are what define me. so as i lay here in this snake pit i find myself... not staring back at me...but i find myself within myself... and i am not afraid......

Just 4 A Moment
I’ve been dreaming about you, since I met you I find your face so beautiful, your eyes so trusting, Your lips so inviting, your smile so captivating. I want to kiss you, feel your warm breath in my mouth To feel your tongue slip in to play with mine, dancing together I need to feel your hands on my back, pulling me to you Holding me tight, never letting me go. Feeling your Chest against mine, our hearts beating as one, even if it’s Just for the moment, just for this one single moment. I often make love to you in my mind, kissing every inch Of your sweet body, stopping in certain places to explore I want to know every possible thing there is to know about you I want to slip inside your soul and become one with you Taking your heart on a journey, somewhere you’ve never been And somewhere you will never go again, but only with me. I want to feel your hand in mine, a security, knowing I am Finally safe … finally where I belong, you are all I want. I want time to stand st

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Sometimes I think alot about too many things. And I get into a mood where I just want to talk to everyone who will listen. And alot of the time those people don't always want to hear everyting I have to say. I think that's maybe why I try and make alot of friends on the internet. They don't always listen, but then again, you really don't have any way to prove they weren't. But right now, as some as you might know, I have been thinking about what I want in a relationship.And if you read my previous blog post then you know that I was thinking about not having any relationships anymore. And I have thought about it alot. Not just in the past five minutes but in the past month. I couldn't [at first] see the point in relationships, when 99% of mine end badly. But then I thought some more. None of my relationships have been bad from the start.There were always points in them when I was pleased with my decision about being with that person. And I can't bring myself to say that I don't w

Stupid People....
Sooooooooo Im online last nite (AOL to be exact) minding my own business when I get an email out of the blue..Below will be the emails sent back and forth with this individual... just the name has been changed to protect the..ah..fuck it..i aint protectin shit..lol GloStick87--all fat hoes get off the net Me--wow you took the time to email me to say that..how very sweet of you..have an awesome night! GloStick87--yeah thank you you fat hoe get the hell of the net when you get off there will be enuf room for ten more people Me-- *smiley* GloStick87--fuck you you fat hoe ass bitch Me-- *smiley* Glostick87--man what the fuck you want stop sendin emails there aint eunf room for you Me--well i wouldnt be emailing you if you had just left me alone..you started it..dont get mad now.. GloStick87--and im a finish it ima report you leave me alone Soo I didnt respond to this..and I received these emails.. GloStick87--im sorry jus

Making Love By Candlelight Part 3/seduction
So as she opening her thighs and welcome me inside i bring her in close slidin it deep within she gasp and hold on to me from the pleasure within splashes of water hits the floor from the rockin motion that are vibration whe nwere so close she arches her back and i thobbs within she releashes her first from within her climax wore her out and now it my time to take her out, i lift my love from out of the tub and carried her to the room im my strong loving arms places her onto the bed and spreaded her out runnin my finger up and down her body arosing her by every touch i move in closer as she want me to touch rub lick ans soothe her sexual needs i get down on my knees and pleases my queen from the tip of the clit and slowly around the lips she start clinches her hips one finger 2 fingers opening her lips slowly going inside her tip of my tongue know about the motions cuase when i got start she had the notion to squirt me tastes of her sweetness give me delight gets up and fills her up w